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I was in a state of pure bliss as she slept next to me, she was so relaxed and she was by my side, finally. I knew we couldn’t show it to the world yet but I was so happy.
The sun was starting to shine outside as I woke up slowly and started to take a bath, I closed my eyes and remembered last night, her hands on me, how I felt, I thought I would never feel this in my life, I am hers now, completely. And I could tell she was her full self all the time…
The feeling was that I was completely high on her, she overwhelmed me and I didn’t feel scared anymore.
“Hi…”
She took me out of my daydream and proved that everything was real, I felt her arms around me and her kisses on my neck and her breath on my back, I turned around to face her.
“You slept well tonight, I’m so glad”
I knew she was facing insomnia for sometime and seeing her sleep quietly and deeply was amazing.
“I did… but I missed you…”
I smiled, we were so cheesy and I was loving every second of it. She entered the shower with me and I could tell I was overwhelmed again.
“You are so gorgeous, Florence.”
She smiled, that cute and shy smile. I watched the water coming down on her body and started to feel this burning sensation again, her hands brought me closer to a kiss. We took our time, feeling each other, our breaths were faster, I touched her waist and pressed her back against the wall.
“I want you, Flo…”
“I’m… here…”
She left out a soft moan at my touch on her left breast, I kissed the right one as I trailed some kisses down her belly and got down on my knees, her hands were on my hair, I couldn’t take my eyes of her.
I started to give her the attention she needed and her moans filled the four walls around us, I hold one of her legs on my shoulder and entered her slowly with two fingers, she was so wet that I left out a moan too.
“Faster… Iz, please…”
I did. She came in matter of seconds and I stood up to kiss her as her body was still shivering.
“Holy shit…”
She said breathlessly, I laughed a little as she regained control of her senses. She started to touch me too, but we had to go back to the bus soon to go to our next gig.
“Flo… later… I need this so much…”
I moan as she left a mark with her teeth on my shoulder.
“Not nice…”
She said, laughing… We finished our baths and we were ready in no time. We entered the bus and had a little party on the back with everyone. We were talking about Rob’s relationship and how he was out and about with her everywhere.
“I bet Isa is single…”
“I mean… I’m not…”
I looked at Rob, as he said it, mainly because maybe he knew something and because me and Flo were talking again.
“Is Florence single?
“Me?”
Hazel asked as I looked at her and took a deep breath noticing a genuine expression on her face of hope.
“Well, I guess…”
Flo’s answer nearly made me choke, we weren’t dating but at least until now I thought what happened between us was at least being “together”.
“Are you okay, Iz?”
Rob said provoking me. As I held the water bottle on my hand with significant sharp grip. I left the bottle on the table and left the room as I watched Hazel smile at Flo’s answer…
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Milwaukee
At the venue.
We travelled for some hours and I went to sleep since I didn’t slept at all last night, I woke up with Flo sitting on my bank bed and a little worried.
“Iz, I’m sorry to wake you up but we need to go…”
“Okay…”
I stood up and she held my hands as I was leaving.
“Are we ok?”
I didn’t know what to answer, I was confused. Maybe I was a step ahead of her on my feelings and I understood she needed sometime to get used to us. But I was a little hurt…
“We are…”
I answered without any assurance and we entered the venue. I took my bag and went to the dressing room we were all together there, that means that I had to handle the Hazel situation up close.
“Here we are!”
She entered the room already getting closer to Florence who was stunning in her pink dress. She was warming up her voice and Hazel stood with her with her keyboard. What was happening to me? I saw them doing it many times before, but now I was sure of Hazel’s intentions with that…
Being closer to Florence.
I wasn’t prepared for that. I thought I was secure, my feelings were overwhelming me, my breath was too fast and my hands started to shake a little.
“I’ll be right back…”
I went to the toiled to calm myself down, I sat down on the floor and panicked, I wasn’t prepared for all those feelings. I loved her with all my heart for so long, that me being with her now doesn’t seem real, that anytime I would wake up and she wouldn’t be talking to me again.
“Isa, the door…”
I heard Rob’s voice, I opened the door as he saw me like that, on the floor crying.
“Hey, what’s the problem?”
“I think you know what the problem is…”
“Are you together?”
“I thought so…”
I cried more and he hugged me.
“Give her sometime, hm?”
He helped me to stand up and I was able to go to the stage, I gave myself to music that night, I watched her sing and dance and I faced the fact that this relationship couldn’t go anywhere.
Hazel was looking at her all the time and I just couldn’t relax, as soon as the concert was finished I went back to the dressing room and locked myself there. Yes, I was jealous. Yes, I was freaking out.
Rob was outside talking to Florence and I could hear them but not what they were talking about. I heard the knocks on the door but refused to open it.
“Iz… It’s me… Why don’t you come with us, we are having a party tonight?”
I heard Flo’s voice and I wasn’t in the mood for a party now, but I wanted her to enjoy herself, I spoke a little higher and tried not to show that my voice was cracking.
“You can go, Flo, I’m staying here for a little while…”
“I’m not going without you, open the fucking door, Iz, what’s going on? Why are you crying?”
She knew me so well. I couldn’t hide anything from her. I stood up and opened the door, my make up was a mess from crying, she entered the room and locked the door behind her.
“What’s going on Iz, talk to me.”
She held my face between her hand and I could tell she was scared with me being like this, I hugged her and cried a bit more.
— I’m just overwhelmed… I’m…
— What Iz?
— I’m afraid to lose you…
My words just came out, I didn’t know if I meant that or that I wanted to say that maybe we weren’t in sync and that my feelings could fuck everything up.
“Hey… you are not… I’m here with you, I’ll never let you go as you never did… Iz, I don’t know if you understand it…”
“Understand what, Flo? That are other people in this band who wants you too? And why didn’t you say you weren’t single, to her… I…”
She was shocked as it was the first time she was hearing it. I don’t think she actually knew about Hazel’s intentions.
“What are you talking about, Isabella? Are you jealous of Hazel?”
I was crying again, she held my hands as they were shaking and asked if I could sat down on the dressing table as she stood between my legs and really close to me.
“I don’t think you understand what I feel for you, Isa… For so long, that I couldn’t give others what I wanted to give only to you, my heart…”
“Flo… I… love you so much…”
“I love you too… And there’s no reason to be afraid…”
She just started an urgent kiss and I felt her right hand under my dress.
“There’s nowhere to go now, I need you to feel that… What I feel for you…”
She said close to my ears, making a mess of me, I was hers… I felt her fingers inside me, and her eyes were on mine, our foreheads were connected. She started to touch my clit with her thumb and made me come in no time, one, two…four times…
“Flo… I just can’t breathe…”
“That’s for you to know that you are mine.”