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His life was over
Everything was too much and too little at the same time, he was overwhelmed and underwhelmed, the only sure thing was that He. Was. Fucked.
All he had, the only thing he had left was gone.
He lost his parents first, they got a divorce after months(or was it years?) of fighting and they left him, miwa and his grandfather at home to presue their careers, tobio rarely saw them after that
Then it was his sister, miwa left as soon as she turned 18, she resented him. He knew that she had to take care of him because of their parents' incompetence and while she wasn't open about it, he noticed the resentment in her eyes
Then it was his soulmate's the people that were supposed to love him no matter what
Oikawa-san hated him, tobio only noticed after he almost got hit
As it turned out iwaizumi-san didn't have to think twice before choosing his childhood bestfriend over a random kid on his team
But losing his grandfather hit him the hardest, watching the man's health decline over the span of mere weeks was heart breaking and although tobio knew what was to come, it didn't hurt him any less
So since then it was him and volleyball
So he trained and trained and trained and trained until his legs gave out, until he couldn't move his hands, until his body was trembling from exhaustion
And from that point on everything he had left began to crumble
His relationship with his team deteriorated as he slowly turned into a tyran king, yelling shouting, ordering them around
They hated him
He knew but he couldn't just stop, not when volleyball was the only thing he was good at, the only thing he had left
And then the last match of their third year came and he lost even volleyball
They benched him after no one hit his toss and after that everything was a blur, he knew he had talked to oikawa-san, if only because the grip on his shoulder got a little too tight, he didn't even realize he got home until he saw the picture of him and his grandfather
His grandfather.
He would've been so disappointed if he saw how tobio was now
It was at this time that panic set in
He had just lost the only thing that kept him grounded, the only connection he had to his grandfather was gone because of his stupidity
He didn't think what he was doing
Before he knew it he was on the floor, knife slipping out of his hand and blood pouring everywhere
His vision got blurry and dark spots started appearing
The last thing he remembered was someone bursting into the kitchen and shaking him as he was losing consciousness, was that semi?
Then everything went black