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Thanos is mad, he is losing, he clearly hates losing. The match ends, three matches left. Thanos walks to Namgyu who is at the corner of the ring, waiting for him.

-That fucking bitch.

Thanos mumbles, along with a couple other cuss words.

Namgyu gets an idea. He leans down and whispers in his ear.

-If you win, we can do whatever you want tonight.

Thanos's eyes light up as he answers.

-Anything?..

-Anything.

Thanos is already thinking of what will he do to Namgyu tonight, his mind wandering off the match.

-Now go and show the world the Legend you are babe.

Namgyu whispers.Thanos stands up and walks back into the ring.

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Well suprise suprise. Of course Thanos wins. He would do anything for Namgyu, when he takes the gold trophy he looks at Namgyu who is probably cheering the loudest for him.He smiles at him.
When they get in the car the sit in the back seat, Thanos's hand wanders on Namgyu's thigh as Namgyu rolls the window down to smoke a cigarette. The smoke coating his face.Thanos finds that
attractive, he finds everything attractive about him.Sometimes he just wants to stare at him.Admire and caress him.Sometime he wonders how he got this jackpot of a man. ---------- When they get home Thanos puts his jacket down, kissing Namgyu on the cheek, holding him by his waist as Namgyu says.

-You did so good Hyung..

Thanos blushes at the nickname. He loves getting praised, maybe even a bit too much..?

He walks into the bathroom, turning on the shower, and stepping in.
The water runs down on his body. Shoulders, stomach, legs.
After he is done he steps out.Washes his face, brushes his teeth, dries his purple hair.
He stares at himself in the mirror,*fuck*, He doesn't hate his body, but he wouldn't state he likes it.
He pops in a yellow pill, so that he can brush off those thoughts.

He steps out of the bathroom.Having a towel wrapped around his waist.

Namgyu has set up candles, petals and some music in the background. He is wearing a skimpy cat costume, he knows that Thanos likes that one. There are some other things in the bed but he is already too distracted with Namgyu.

Thanos is kissing Namgyu, his tounge entering mouth. Namgyu whimpers, He gets so hard by his noises..and Namgyu knows that. Namgyu gets down on his knees, taking the towel off Thanos, his hard cock already throbbing with pre-cum leaking at the tip. He takes his lenght deep in his throat. Thanos whimpers and groans as he grabs Namgyu's hair, thrusting in his mouth.
He felt himself being close, his head threw back,moaning as he came down Namgyu's throath.

He throws him on the bed,bending him over as he lines his cock up at Namgyu's hole.He slams into him. Namgyu moans and arches his back.

-Fuck!..Yes! Hyung!

Thanos starts thrusting in faster, harder, grabbing Namgyu at the back of his throath,squeezing it.
He grunts as he feels himself being close he pulls out and shoots his load on Namgyu's back with a quiet moan.
Namgyu whimpers as he feel the warm load on his back being cleaned up by Thanos.

After he is done cleaning he lays down behind Namgyu, wrapping his arms around his waist,pulling him close

-"I love you" Thanos mumbles into his hair

-"I love you too" Namgyu answers aas he turns around and buries his face in Thanos's chest, giving kisses.

They slowly wander off to sleep, their breathing being soft and quiet.

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(Next morning)

Thanos wakes up first, still holding Namgyu. When he wakes up his eyes wonder to Namgyu, he is still sleeping as he brings a hand to cup his cheeks. He feels so protective about him, he would do anything for him. He takes every piece of his face into his head, sharp features, long black hair, pink lips and high cheekbones, He loves him. He is so inlove that no one could explain. The way they look at eachother, the warmth of his hug, gentle voice..and good blowjobs. He cuddles him more, pressing a soft kiss on his cheek. God he loves him.

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He slowly slides out of bed, pulling some sweatpants up and heading to the kitchen, willing to make breakfast. He turns the stove on and grabs the mixer. Pancakes, thats Namgyu's favourite. As he pour the liquid in the pan he hears the door opening. Namgyu, he thought. He smiles as he turns around to see him, walking over and immediately hugging him. He throws kisses on his cheek and lip. He loves taking care of him.

 -"Good morning.. "Namgyu mumbles as he sits down after he yawns.

 -"Good morning! "  Thanos says with a smile. We can clearly see who is more energetic after  a good night .

Thanos places down a cup of coffe infront of namgyu. Caramel frappucino with full milk and vanilla syrup. His favourite.

After the coffee there comes the pancakes with nutella of course.

Namgyu takes a bite and smiles, the pancakes filling his stomach. Nodding that its's good.After he finishes he walks to the bathroom, turning the shower on. Thanos lays in their bed, scrolling on his phone. Listening to Namgyu's humming to a song, He sits down at the computer, pulling up the lyrics he'd been working on

[Verse]
In the shadow of the moonlit glow
He's the night
He's the show
Black hair falls like a velvet tide
Dark brown eyes where my dreams reside

[Verse 2]
Every glance is a secret untold
Every word is a treasure of gold
His laugh's a song that fills the air
I’m lost and found in his midnight stare

[Chorus]
Oh those midnight eyes
They see my soul
Black-haired beauty makes me whole
Dark brown gaze like a burning flame
With every look
He calls my name

[Verse 3]
His touch is warmth
His voice is light
Turns my darkness into bright
No map could lead where his love goes
A mystery only my heart knows

[Bridge]
He's a storm
He's a calm sea
The man who rewrote all of me
In his arms
I feel the world
A love that blooms
A flag unfurled

[Chorus]
Oh those midnight eyes
They see my soul
Black-haired beauty makes me whole
Dark brown gaze like a burning flame
With every look
He calls my name

After he finishes the last words he saves the song and closes the computer as Namgyu walks out of the bathroom in some shorts and Thanos's hoodie, he lays down on the bed and Thanos climbs next to him, hugging him and kissing his neck and namgyu giggles.

 -"I love youuu!! " Namgyu says with a smile, turning around and kissing Thanos.

Thanos was caught off guard by the kiss but immediately kissing back, tilting his head. They gasp for air after they pull away untill Thanos speaks up.

-"Semi asked if we wanted to go to Pentagon tonight, are you working today?"

Namgyu nods.

 - "I'm down to go, to celebrate the throphy " Namgyu smiles and kisses Thanos.

Thanos smiles back and buries his face in Namgyu's chest, breathing in his scent,listening to his heartbeat.

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Slowly, somehow they fell asleep in eachothers arms for a couple hours. After they stir awake Namgyu starts changing into work clothes while  Thanos lays in the bed.
He goes into the bathroom to do his usual makeup, concealer, highlighter, a small winged eyeliner and a light lipstain. While he is doing his hair Thanos walks into the bathoom and holds him by the waist from behind, burying his face in Namgyu's neck.

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While Namgyu is still doing his hair Thanos puts on some baggy jeans and a black shirt with a meme on it. On media, he is serious , but IRL he is just a goofball. He goes into the bathroom and does his hair, his horns sticking up. He puts on rings, necklances and a few bracelets. Namgyu is finally done around the same time Thanos is.

  -"We are just leaving the house for pentagon."    Thanos texts Semi.

They walk out of their house, sit in the car and begin leaving for the club.

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(In the car)

Thanos is gripping the steering wheel with one hand while the other hands is wandering on Namgyu's thigh. The radio is turned up loudy, Namgyu sometimes humming the lyrics to the song. The sun is slowly setting, so the club is gonna be more packed after it goes down.

Namgyu POV: 

Namgyu clocks in and goes behind the bar, at the counter there is Semi, Minsu and Thanos. He puts his stuff down in the staff room and washes his hands. He serves some customers while his friends are talking, when he served them he makes his friends drinks and walks over to them.

Minsu waves to him

Semi greets him friendly 

Thanos gives him a kiss on the cheek

- "Sooo...I got you yalls drinks heree"  He hands the drinks over, wiping his hands after

Thanos : Whiskey coke

Minsu: Long Island

Semi: Espresso Martini

Very different tastes but still very good friends. Namgyu thinks, he himself is more of a shot guy. Fast but kicks.
While he is sitting down because he has got no one to serve he slowly starts to overthink.

Are they talking about me right now?

Should I join the converstaion?

No, he would look annoying

Would he?

Is he annoying in general?

Does he annoy the costumers?

Is he fit to be a bartender?

Am I a good boyfriend?

Am I too clingy?

 -"Dude are you okay? You look sad"   Semi asks. Flipping Namgyu out of his thoughts.

-"Yeah, sorry I just zoned out"   Namgyu answers, standing up to greet and serve new customers. Ugh so boring! Usually the regulars..

It's nice that she noticed, how kind of her.

No it's not, I just looked stupid thats why she said it

Did she?

When he is done with his shift he clocks out. Walking over to them, sitting down next to Thanos, leaning his head on his shoulder.Thanos kisses the top of his head, wraping an arm around his waist.

Does he actually like me?

Iam so lucky that Iam his.

Is he using me?

I love him.

Please never leave me

I don't want him to leave me

Does he think I'm only with him because he is famous.

But Iam does

Does he think that?

Does he?

Does he?

Does he?

Him

Him

Him

Him

Him

Thanos.

I love him so much.

He escapes his thoughts again.He sighs, feeling tired, wanting to go home but he doesnt say anything.

He tries to join the conversations sometimes but fails

Boxing? I dont know much of it.

Games? I dont play that much.

Politics? Not into it.

After they are done talking Thanos wants to  drive because "he is  the least drunk"

Should I drive?

I dont like Driving.

But Thanos is drunk

And? He is not that drunk.

And what if  something happens

Dont resist, that will annoy him

Will it?

Yes.

Am I annoying?

He sits in the car,letting Thanos drive. Not trying to bother him

They drop everyone off, 

Finally some peace and quiet.

They get home safely
Namgyu washes his makeup off and changes into something comfortable and crashes on the bed, groaning
When suddenly Thanos lays down next to him, pulling him close,Kissing his neck, biting a little bit on it, leaving slight marks
He feels butterflies in his stomach,He loves Thanos so much.
Namgyu whimpers and suddenly falls asleep.

Thanos notices and buries his face in Namgyu's neck, drifting into sleep
Their soft breathing syncing together as the fall into a deep sleep

I love you.

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Later that night

Namgyu wakes up and looks at his phone

3:54

He groans and sits on the bed quietly, not wanting to wake Thanos up
He slides off the bed, making his way to the bathroom, opening the door.
The fluorescent lights make him flinch, but he gets used to it
Sitting down on the floor, he leans his head against the wall, thinking.

He hears them again.

Do it
Do it
Do it
Do it

He doesnt care
Why would he

We will be always be here
Don't take your  meds again.
you will always hear us
you know you will

Namgyu grabs his hair, rocking back and forth

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He starts scratching his arms rapidly.
Tears roll down his chek

Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop Stop 

His arm starts bleading, his nail polish chipping.
He grabs some papertowels wiping up the lack of blood.

He quietly opens the door and slips put of the bathroom,cloing it behind him
He admires Thanos before slipping in the bed, wrapping his arms around him.

He falls asleep,somehows..

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Few days later

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-Fuck, It's wednesday, therapy day
  Namgyu thinks to himself while rubbing his eyes after sitting up on the bed
  He takes his pill with water thats set on the nightstand beside their bed, which is hard for him to swallow, but his therapist said it will "help him"

-Yeah, help what?  Not like It's doing anything


  He gets out of the bed, walking to the bathroom, turning on the fluorescent lights again
  He remember what happened last night, he pulls his sleeves up, revealing uneven, faint scars.
 

  -This is just wonderful, and its wednesday, just great..

  He brushes his teeth, the hardness of the brush scraping against is gums in uncomfortable but he doesnt do anything.
  He is disgusted by spitting in out.

-It just feels weird!!

  He always said to his parents, trying to get away with not brushing it. He never did.

  A tear rolls down his cheek when he thinks of his parents.

They will never come back and you know it

They will never come back and you know it

They will never come back and you know it

  He splashes water on his face, trying to calm down the burning feeling.
  He wipes his face and exits the bathroom, throwing himself on the bed.
  He groans into the blankets.

-Thanos wont be back for a few days..
Ugh..I miss him

He grabs his phone and pulls up his messages, clicking on their texts.

                                                   Babe


                                                                         -Hey babe! I miss youuu >.<
                                              Five minutes later

                -Goodmorning!
                -I miss you too
                -I'll be back on Friday T~T

                                                                         -Okay! I love youu <3.

He doesnt resppond.

Does he even love me?

Is he cheating on me?

Why did he not respond?

It must be fine..right?
...RIGHT?

He throws his phone on the bed, covering his face with his hands

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After a laying for a while he finally gets up and sighs.

-Okay..Let's do this