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“Can you not make such a big deal out of this?” Katsuki half yelled at Broom Head.
Kirishima had come to Katsuki’s room as soon as he’d asked. “I just… are you fucking around? Like, is this some sort of weird new bullying?”
Katsuki was practically fuming. “Why does everyone think that is all I do?! I’m not a bully!”
“You did kinda tell Midoriya to kill himself.”
Katsuki grimaced. His first instinct was to be mad at the damned nerd for saying anything. But he couldn’t blame Deku. Katsuki had done that. And he had to live with it. Some of his anger faded and he sighed. “I’m not messing with you. I just need to know.”
“Why ask me?” Kirishima was being honest, he really did just want to know why.
Katsuki shrugged, that part was easy. “You’re a loyal idiot who can keep a secret, and you’re the hottest guy in class aside from me.”
Kirishima took a moment to sort through the statements. As pointed out, he wasn’t the brightest bulb in the shed. “Yeah, I mean, anything for a bro, right?” Broom Head laughed and rubbed the back of his own neck. “So how do you wanna–”
Katsuki just wanted to figure this out so he could go to fucking sleep. He stepped forward and wrapped one arm around Kirishima’s waist and tangled one hand in his hair. He wanted to recreate the scene as best he could for the accuracy of his test, but he wasn’t going to ask his buddy to make out with him on the floor.
Kirishima gasped and wrapped his arms around Katsuki’s waist in return.
Katsuki let his lips touch Kirishima’s. He tried to remember what he’d done with Deku. It had been so instinctual with her. He had just… wanted. And that had been enough. But as he kissed Kirishima, and really did try to lose himself in it, the task never became automatic.
With Deku he hadn’t been able to stop. With Kirishima he had to decide what to do. It wasn’t unpleasant.
Kirishima’s hands on his back, the way he got breathless as he returned Katsuki’s kiss felt intense and kinda attractive. But when he bit Kirishima’s lip slightly, he’d had to decide to do it. And he just wasn’t… feeling the way he was before.
Katsuki was bummed. He had wanted so badly to find out he was gay. Jeanist and half his agency were. Badasses can like dudes. And if Deku had just been an odd gay-awakening, that would have explained so much.
But he thought Kirishima was hot, and this wasn’t doing anything comparatively. Maybe it would have if he wasn’t comparing it to Deku, but it was like comparing a lightbulb to the sun. And if it had just been because Deku was a hot girl at the time, the Brat would have done something for him. But she’d felt much closer to Kirishima’s wattage than Deku’s.
“Kachan?”
Katsuki jumped away from Broom Head and turned to face the door. “Deku.” Why did he want to explain himself? He wasn’t doing anything wrong. “I was–” The idea of explaining any of his thought process out loud to Deku stopped him in his tracks.
Kirishima also looked spooked and was shaking his head looking at Deku. “It was nothin! I had uh, it was, a new workout! Yeah!”
Katsuki turned to face his idiot friend slowly. “I don’t care what your quirk is, you cannot be that fucking dense.”
Deku sniffled. “I just wanted to see if you wanted to play video games with everyone downstairs.” He said in the flat voice that Katsuki couldn’t fucking stand.
“Deku, hold on a minute.” Katsuki stepped forward. He couldn’t let this be.
“I’ll see you downstairs.” Deku shut the door, a little harder than Katsuki thought was necessary.
The two boys stood in silence for a minute. Katsuki sighed. “Thanks for your help. I’m going to bed.” Katsuki walked over to his dresser and started changing into a new t-shirt.
“So…” Kirishima sounded different. Probably because of how awkward Deku showing up had been. “Did you uh… did you learn anything.”
“Yeah, guess I’m not into it.”
Kirishima chuckled. “Yeah, I, yup. Me neither. So I’m gonna go play with everyone.”
Katsuki could hear the lie in his friend’s voice. “Whatever.” Katsuki wrapped himself up in his blanket. Whatever Broom Head liked wasn’t his business. “Now get out.” Katsuki just needed to sleep. And hopefully not dream about Deku again, but sadly he knew what was waiting for him on the other side of consciousness.