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"N-No... no, no, NO!"
Shirogane screamed as he held his head with both hands.
In front of him, Yukisada’s body lay completely covered in blood.
"Yuki... p-please wake up,"
Shirogane was in shock, his hands trembling and moving nervously, trying to find some kind of comfort.
"Yuki..."
Blood spread across the floor, staining his boots, and in fear, Shirogane whimpered and stumbled backwards, accidentally stepping on his own tail and falling to the ground.
The small impact snapped him back to reality. Panic quickly took hold of him, and he couldn't stop staring at the scene before him... pure horror.
The young wolf couldn’t take it anymore and vomited.
He couldn’t understand how this had happened
Just seconds ago, Yukisada had been preparing dinner, and now he was lying dead on the floor like a defenseless prey that had let its guard down...
Shirogane felt like a monster, an idiot, a murderer.
Why?
Why had he done it?
Shirogane lowered his ears and curled up in a fetal position on the floor as the young owl's blood stained both of his clothes and his face...
He couldn’t stop crying, whispering incomprehensible murmurs in search of forgiveness.
But… for who ?
His best friend is dead because of him and now he felt sorry? what a joke
a sick twisted joke..
Shirogane felt horrible. He shut his eyes tight and clenched his teeth as he repeated over and over how ungrateful he was.
He had messed up.
He had ruined everything
and this time there would be no comforting hug to pull him out of his misery
but worse of all
the voices began to torment him again
Yukisada had been the only one on that stupid island who had truly cared about him, who gave him a home and a reason to keep trying... something to keep living and this is how he repaid everything he had done for him?
Shirogane couldn’t help but compare himself to that shameless orca who used to torment him daily, and that only made him feel worse. His head felt like it was about to explode at any moment
This is a nightmare
a terrible one
why can't he wake up already
"Yuki... I... I'm sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry... p-please don’t hate me, don’t hate me, don’t hate me...!"
The young wolf began to babble as he slowly approached his friend’s cold body.
Yukisada's eyes were wide open, in complete shock The horror in his gaze was obvious, and the small dry tears on his face clearly expressed his final thoughts.
It was pain.
Betrayal.
Shirogane slowly closed Yukisada’s eyes.
He couldn’t bear to see him like that for even one more second.
He gently rolled Yukisada’s body and lay down beside him like a pup seeking comfort in its mother’s soft fur...
He looked at him for a moment and then simply closed his eyes as his body relaxed.
"I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry"
That was all he could think of at that moment, as his body wore down physically.
Distressed and defeated, he simply held his friend’s lifeless body and let time pass.
Until, in the middle of his trance a sound came from the door...
But the young wolf didn’t respond.
Then, once again
the sound came.
"Knock knock..."