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eiji was a pastor's child. His dad was the pastor of the church. They always showed up early to get things ready.
It was a Sunday morning. Eiji was peering out of the stained glass windows of the church. It was around seven o’clock. An hour before church officially started. As he stared there was one thing he couldn’t get out of his mind.

Ash

Ash was one of the common goers of the church. He was around the same age as him, if not older. Ash was beautiful. His blonde hair flowing in the wind as he walks in, the way he stares at him as they sit. They way his eyes sparkle. Everything about him fascinated him.

He couldn’t explain the way he felt about him but he had a feeling deep down that it was wrong. He felt it was wrong to analyze everything he does as he sits there. He wants to talk to him.
His dad would never approve of him talking to those commoners.

Dino was the worst dad you could think of. Overprotective if you could call it that. eiji was almost never let out of his sight. Only in the church and at night was he allowed to be out of his sight. He had instilled it into eiji that being homosexual is bad and is a sin that can never ever be forgiven. If he would ever participate in homosexual acts or feelings he would not be allowed to live with him and would have to leave the church.

“eiji, come here please. It’s almost time to start.” Dino said.

“Coming” eiji said, coming out of his thoughts.

He walked over to the altar where his father was standing. He stood there while the people trickled in.
Over the amount of people one stood out to him.
Eiji.
He was the only one in the whole town that he could identify by just a small glance.
There has to be a way to talk to him, isn't there?

As everyone got settled in, his father gestured to him to have a seat so he could start.
He went to find his seat and sat down. As he looked around to see who was near him today he saw him.
Ash was two seats away from him. They were so close together. But yet so far.

He needed to find a way to be closer to at least try to talk to him.

He whispered to the person next to him and asked “can we switch please, I would like to be closer to my father.”

The man nodded and switched with him.
Yes.

Ash waved at him when he saw he switched.
Ash wasn’t an innocent thing like most people would think he is. Most people would look at his appearance and think he doesn’t know anything about sex or sexuality. They would think he’s just a devoted church goer. In reality, eiji was the most corrupted man in the town. He grew up in the city so he learned a thing or two about sex.

Ash knew he was gay for a while. He’s known since he was around 11 when a very very handsome man named Shorter moved to his neighborhood. He had beautifully dyed purple hair and the most amazing build. They were best friends for a while before eiji realized he had romantic feelings for him. It was a slow relaxation but once he realized he couldn’t stop. He tried telling shorter about it but he didn’t feel the same way.

He was heartbroken of course, so he made the rational decision and convinced his mother to move to a small town as one does.

So here we are, present times. Eiji and Ash sitting next to each other. Perfect time to try to communicate.

“Hey!” Ash says in a sultry voice.
“Hi” eiji whispers back. “Soo what makes you come to this church?”

“To see cute guys like you” he whispered with a wink.
To his surprise when he looked up eiji was flustered.

“You think I’m cute?” eiji said back hesitantly.

“Of course I do, your black hair is just amazing. And your facial structure is just immaculate.”

“Boys, what is so important that you need to be interrupting my sermon for. “ Dino asked.

“Sorry dad. We will stop”

“Better, now can I continue?”

“Yes sir”

eiji slumped in his seat, upset he couldn’t continue talking to Ash. He knew he would be in trouble later tonight because he talked to a commoner. But he couldn’t help it.

“Psst, hey… meet me in the back restroom at 10. We can talk more there” Ash whispered over his shoulder.

eiji pointed a small thumbs up over in his direction to not catch the attention of his father.

They continued listening to his fathers words until Ash got up and walked out. After a couple more minutes eiji excused himself as well.

He walked out to where eiji said to meet him and saw him standing against the wall.

“Hey” eiji managed to squeeze out. He was having a hard time speaking but he couldn’t understand why. He was also having a weird feeling in his chest and stomach that he couldn’t quite place.

“Hi, Mr...” Ash said slowly while inching closer to eiji.

“Oh my name's Eiji but I can’t have people calling me that in public so call me Ei” he said nervously.

“Thats interesting. Dads protective I presume?”

“Yes. Very, I can’t go anywhere outside of the church alone.”

“Crazy protective then…Well how do you feel about me? You feel butterflies when you're around me? Because you are awfully red right now.” Ash said while getting close to his ear and whispering straight into it.

“Uh..” Eiji said throat drying as he tried to speak. He felt tongue tied. His mouth wouldn’t move in the way he wanted. He felt a strange desire for ash.

“Oh.. so we are aren’t we? Well you know what could help with that?” Finishing off his sentance he started to lick at the back of his ear and leave small kisses as he went on.

“Uhm..ugh that feels goood” eiji moaned out.

“Oh yea? Want me to keep going? Want me to continue licking until I get to your neck?”

“Yes Pleasee.” He didn’t even register that he was speaking as all he could focus on was the tongue licking at him and soft plush lips kissing on him.

Ash continued down until he reached the base of his chin and started kissing more frequently and feverishly. He licked a stripe down his neck and toward his chest before lifting his head and looking into Eijis eyes.

“Your so beautful Ei, you know that?”

“I am? Ugh please keep doing what you were doing. It felt so good.” Eiji begged.

“If you say so, but how do you feel about me doing something else?”

“Please” he said a little too quickly for his liking.

“Okay okay.”

He lifted eijis chin and enveloped in a kiss.

Unexpectedly eiji pulled back, sensing something was wrong he looked to see what was up.

Eiji looked like he was about to cry.

Eiji was loving it but he remembered his fathers words: kissing a man is forbidden eiji, you must never engage in such heinous acts.
He felt like he was going to vomit, he knew it was wrong but it felt so good. He loved the way Ash's lips felt on him, he loved the way it made him feel.
He was on the verge of tears when he was suddenly pulled into a hug.

“Are you okay Ei?” Ash asked hesitantly.

“Yeah, I’m good. Just remembered something my dad said at one point.”

“Oh. Can you tell me what it was?”

“Was just that kissing a man is forbidden and a sin, but it feels so good and I just don’t want to stop”

“Then we don’t have to” he said pulling eijis face into his hands.

Eiji surged forward and locked his lips back into ash’s. There was a certain fervor in the way he kissed. It was rushed and uncoordinated but fuck it felt good.

The silence was broken up by the sound of muffled sounds of pleasure and huffs of breath from both boys.

“Fuck…C-can you be mine Ei? Oh my I can’t live without this..” he said between kisses.

“Y-yes my soul is with you” he said without even thinking.

They continued on like that for who knows how long. They only stopped once they heard the familiar sound of the church doors opening and the chatter of voices coming closer.

Eiji jumped up and realized what he had just done. He had kissed a man. Not only once but made out with a man. He was screwed. His dad would freak if he knew.
“I’ve got to go before my dad finds me, I’ll see you next week!” He says before running off.

Ash stood there stunned at how abruptly he had left but he understood the circumstances so it was okay. He figured he would also leave before pastor Dino found him and saw the state he was in.