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“I need an heir.”

He said it without ceremony, like a man confirming a logistical shortage rather than a father in want of a child. Irulan did not bother to look up immediately. She took the time to finish placing the seal on the last report, smoothing the edge with one practiced thumb. Only then did she lift her gaze to him.

Paul stood with his hands behind his back, posture composed in that rigid Atreides way. Military poise masquerading as divine calm. Years ago, that stillness had been a threat. Now it felt like a habit he couldn’t outgrow.

“A male heir,” he clarified, as if she might have misunderstood the kind. “The Landsraad won’t accept a woman.”

They will accept what does not challenge them, she thought, but aloud she only offered a low, thoughtful hum.

“Naturally,” she said. “Then you’ll need to decide whether a Fremen concubine is more politically advantageous than a Great House bride. If you want nobility, I can draft a list of appropriate candidates. There are several houses with daughters who—”

“Candidates?” he echoed, as if she had offered him a riddle.

She met his eyes, patient in the way only a Bene Gesserit could be patient. “For the mother of your heir.”

Something in his expression fractured, not visibly, not enough for anyone but her to notice, but she caught the flicker like a pulse beneath the sand.

“You believe I require another woman.”

Believe? she almost laughed. She counted on it.

“You negotiated an annulment,” she reminded him, evenly. “You agreed that once your reign stabilized, our marriage would dissolve. We are nearly at that point, and you need an heir. It follows.”

He stared at her for a long moment, and she could feel it, the old script searching for its mark, confused to find new lines in its place.

He spoke again, slower this time. “My lineage needs you.”

Irulan held his gaze, unblinking. In another version of her life—the one she had chosen not to live—those words would have fulfilled her. Now, they were a nuisance.

“Your lineage,” she echoed. “You made it very clear you did not require me for that.”

She didn’t raise her voice. She didn’t need to. The memory of his wedding vow, spoken to another woman while Irulan stood at the wasteside like a decorative afterthought, hung in the space between them without needing to be named.

A muscle in his jaw tightened. “You are the mother of my heir,” he said. “I’ve seen it.”

There it is, she thought. Another prophecy.

It used to frighten her, the way he spoke of his visions, as if the future were something already written, and they were all just acting out their parts. But that was before she realized a prophecy could be outmaneuvered just like politics.

“Then unsee it,” she said.

He blinked, as if the idea had never occurred to him. “It doesn’t work that way.”

“You are Muad’Dib,” she said mildly. “It works however you decide it does.”

His was silent because he knew there was truth.

“Some things are not meant to be changed,” he said finally, and there was something in his tone—soft, almost pleading—that didn’t belong to the man he used to be.

She filed that shift away. Later, she would examine it. Not now.

“No,” she replied, “some things are simply easier for you to leave broken.”

The air between them tightened like pulled thread. He took a step forward. Not threatening, not imperial, but something worse. Human. As if that version of him still existed.

He hadn’t always spoken to her this way. There was a time he only addressed her like one addresses a useful mechanism: clinical, distant, politely tolerating her presence because strategy demanded it. This… softer edge… had not existed then.

It started after Chani died, a thought whispered, uninvited. When he started to unravel.

When she was the one who reminded him that Ghanima still needed a father, not a ghost.

But that was not a memory for this moment, and Irulan locked it away with the rest of the things she had no intention of offering him.

“Our agreement stands,” she said. “You do not get to invoke prophecy now because it suits you.”

“This isn’t about convenience.”

“Everything is about convenience,” she said gently, and she watched the truth of it sting him far more than anger ever would have.

“Irulan,” he said, and the way he spoke her name—carefully, as if it might fracture in his mouth—was almost enough to betray him.

Almost.

“You would leave with no heir to follow me,” he continued. “You would abandon the Empire after helping me bind it.”

“Abandon?” She almost smiled at the choice of word. “I completed the work asked of me. The Landsraad no longer speaks of rebellion. The Guild has ceased its quiet probing. The Bene Gesserit accepted the political marriage. There is nothing left for me to do.”

“Except this.”

“Except nothing,” she corrected. “You have a daughter. Ghanima is your heir.”

A flicker—brief, passing—crossed his face. Sadness, maybe. Or the ghost of a boy who once believed prophecy was absolute until it started crumbling around him.

“The Imperium will not accept a female ruler of mixed blood,” he said.

“The Imperium accepted you,” she replied. “Given enough time, they’ll accept anything.”

He huffed a breath that almost became a laugh but died halfway. “I never took you as one for optimism."

She met his gaze without flinching. “I speak from experience.”

His eyes met hers, sincere, and desperate.“It’s because of you.”

“Then you must learn to do without.”

He stilled.

For a beat, there was only the sound of the air processors and the quiet hum of a city that had learned to sleep under Atreides banners.

He turned without a word.

It wasn’t the dramatic sweep of an emperor storming off. It was quieter than that, measured steps, the kind a man takes when he’s forcing himself not to speak before he ruins something beyond repair.

The door to his private chambers slid shut behind him. Irulan did not follow him with her eyes. She stood very still, counting the seconds like she had counted years, waiting for the moment she could finally walk away from all of this without looking back.

The door opened again.

He returned carrying something wrapped in cloth. Heavy. The weight of it dragged slightly against the edge of the table when he set it down.

He didn’t look at her as he unwrapped it.

Gold caught the light first, old gold, the kind forged before the wars that carved the Imperium into obedient pieces. Then jewels, deep and blood-rich. A Corrino crown jewel.

Not a replica. A true imperial piece. One that should have been locked behind Kaitain vaults, guarded by her father’s loyalists until the end of time.

He had kept it hidden. In his bedchamber.

Irulan did not move. The knowledge landed slowly: he had possessed it all these years. Never offered it. Never mentioned it. He had waited until now. Until he wanted something.

“This,” he said, fingers resting on the metal like it might vanish, “was part of the last convoy from Kaitain. It was sent for you.”

Liar.

Or maybe not. Perhaps it had been sent for her, but delivered into his hands instead. Locked away. Claimed quietly.

“You kept it,” she said flatly.

“I wasn’t ready to show you.”

He said it like an apology. It sounded like a confession.

The crown caught the dim light of the chamber, its surface reflecting back a lineage stripped and repurposed without her consent.

He watched her with that unsettling stillness again, as if the placement of her hand on the table mattered more than the fate of an empire.

“It was always meant to be ours,” he said softly.

Ours.

The word lingered like spice on the tongue, sweet at first, then bitter when the truth of it reached the blood.

Irulan reached out, not to take the crown, but to shift it a fraction of an inch to the side. Out of the direct space between them.

A refusal, delivered with the grace of a court gesture.

“Do not use symbols to renegotiate terms,” she said. “We made a deal. I upheld it. I will not be tethered again because you’ve grown uncomfortable with the quiet.”

He flinched, not at her words, but at the ease with which she spoke them. As if leaving him cost her nothing.

“Irulan—”

“Your Majesty,” she corrected.

His throat worked. “Your Grace.”

She inclined her head, as if dismissing a petitioner. The movement was elegant, practiced. It was also final.

She turned toward the door.

He didn’t stop her.

The corridor air was cool, thinner than it should have been, like the palace itself held its breath. Irulan exhaled. Not relief. Not triumph. Something quieter. Release.

Behind her, in that room, the Corrino crown sat where she had pushed it, and it hurt.

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He saw her first in a storm of spice and metal—

a woman draped in chainmail, light glinting across her veil like the shimmer of a shield on the first line of battle. The dream did not tell him her name, but it spoke of inevitability. His curiosity pushed him forward, deeper, until the vision pulled back like a curtain and showed her approaching an altar. A wedding. Their wedding he realized. His stomach turned, then steadied. Wonder first. Resistance next. Then that peculiar nausea he now associated with prophecy: the feeling of living through the memory of something not yet done.

He clawed at the path like a cage. Dream after dream spent grasping for other roads—no Corrino Princesses, no Irulan, only his desert spring; a quiet hill and a child laughing in a house where banners never learned his name. But those fates were written in blood. Fathers buried and families burned all because he dared to have his love by his side, dared to desire happiness for himself. The details may change but the costs were always the same. So, in his naivety, he threw the curtain closed and called it meaningless. He ignored the chainmail princess, willing himself to forget her, because he would marry no one else.

Then reality cut to match the dream.

In the throne room of Arrakis, the Emperor’s daughter stood as if she had been cast there by the same hand that carved the sigils on the walls. Her face was the face from his visions, only living, only brighter, and he hated that he recognized her. The sight felt like confirmation of a trap. He made promises to the air, to himself, to the woman he actually loved: If he married Irulan, it would be a performance. The vows would be phrased so that she kept her position and he kept his heart where it belonged.

The first future he chose to defy was not the wedding; it was what came after.

Chani left.

Ran from him—his promises, his prophecies, his madness. He offered the speeches men offer when they’re losing: promises of boundaries, assurances that ceremony meant nothing, that he would never ask for children of another woman. Still she walked, but he understood. She belonged to the desert.

He didn’t chase…but Irulan did.

Not for herself; not the way he had expected a Corrino to maneuver. She came to him with a proposal she had shaped like a floor plan: precise, measured, structurally sound. They would stabilize the empire. More accurately, she would stabilize the empire. When the choke points loosened and the treaties held, they would annul quietly. Go their separate ways with his reign and her house intact. He could go after Chani and bring her back with dignity.

“You will need legitimacy now and freedom later,” she said. “The first is mine to lend. The second I will take.”

He almost laughed at the audacity. He did not laugh at the usefulness. A sensible man, maybe one less desperate, might’ve questioned her further, but he took to the plan like a man taking water in the desert. He left after a few days, then spent weeks traversing the dunes and looking for his lover like some romantic hero.

Irulan stayed behind. She was strong, holding the fragments of his fractured empire together even while the Fremen cursed her name and his family cursed her very existence. She was the Corrino forged of metal, and after a month of doing it alone, she had welcomed him back with a smile on her face even while he approached with his lover on his arm. He never thanked her, but they moved forward, and his dreams tasted like respite.

Then the futures started to splinter.

He could no longer see a simple line from vow to child to rule. The visions flickered: Chani pregnant; Chani dying far before he ever dreamed; Irulan in a room with a cradle that held no child. He blamed himself. There had to be something he had missed, something he’d done wrong, but every solution he sought to correct the path took more than what he was willing to give. He did not give Chani the pills his fear begged for. He did not speak the last cruel truth: that the labor she wanted might be the labor that killed her. He delayed her requests for as long as he was able but when she asked for a child for the last time, he obeyed his love and prayed she and his sight would not collide.

Fate does not take prayers as payment.

Chani bled into silence, and a world he had held together with belief went out like a candle. The palace went still. He did not leave his chambers for days. Servants moved like ghosts. Alia sat on the floor outside his door with her hands clenched in her skirts because he had shut her out of his space and his mind. Somewhere a child—his child—cried. He could not make himself move toward the sound.

Irulan stepped into the vacuum the way water enters a dry channel, without asking permission.
She took the decrees off his desk and signed them with his seal. She issued orders. She saw to Alia and the infant, Ghanima, though she never held the child longer than duty required and always passed her to a wet nurse with hands that did not tremble. When the counselors came to plead for guidance, Irulan spoke for the throne and made their eyes drop before her voice did. It was only in the second week that she entered his chamber, standing at a measured distance.

“She has been returned to the sietch,” when he did not speak she continued. “Your daughter can not mourn alone, your majesty,” she said. “Either you rise, or one day you’ll have to explain why you could not love her the way she deserved.”

He looked at her then. Not the chainmail princess of his visions. Not the temporary political solution. He looked at a woman in a beautiful gown with dust on the hem, a woman who had kept the engine running while the driver went absent—as she always did.

He rose.

Again he did not thank her, but he ate when she ordered food. He slept when she told him he was useless awake. When Ghanima fussed, he learned how to hold her without thinking of the body that had broken to bring her here. When the state required rituals, he performed them, and she fixed his pronunciation in the margins where no one would see. He found himself reaching, once, for the arm of the chair and taking hold of her sleeve instead. She did not flinch, did not take his hand, did not seize the intimacy by naming it. She simply stood long enough for him to steady and then stepped away. That was the beginning of their quiet alliance: not affection, but a rhythm that made grief survivable.

He started to dream of Irulan again. No longer in her chainmail armor. Sometimes they were at a table, talking, laughing together in a night lit by surface lamps. Sometimes they were laying side by side in his bed, his arms curled around her smaller frame and their legs tangled. Once he was kneeling before her, placing kisses on her round belly while she stroked his hair. Every time, he woke guilty, and said nothing. He hated that the future came with the face of a woman he had promised nothing to and who promised him nothing back. He hated it more that he wanted something back.

Years taught him to breathe inside the life he had not chosen. The empire held. Ghanima learned to walk, Jessica wrote frequently, and Alia learned she could be a child instead of a goddess. All things thrived under Irulan’s guidance, and she became the person others turned to when he was not there.

There were still cracks. Some days, he looked at the sun setting over the dunes and imagined a life in the desert. Some days, he’d read a letter from his mother and a little resentment would boil up in his chest. Some days, Ghanima would call Irulan “mama”, and she would incline her head as if the word had struck the exact center of a target she did not want.

He began—he cannot name when—to think of apologies he did not know how to make.

When he finally tried, he chose a jewel and a gesture. He told himself this was vulnerability. He told himself it was equal parts reparation and recognition. He did not call it what it also was: late.
Now, in the echo left by her refusal, he sat again in the posture of the old grief and stared at the memory of his own mistake. The room looked as it had the day Chani died: air too thin, hours too long, silence a creature with claws. The crown sat where Irulan had pushed it—out of alignment with him. He had carried it out from his chamber as if unlocking a gate. He had said “ours” and meant “forgive me”. She had heard “leash” and meant “no”.

He understood none of it while the door was still open. He understood a fraction now.

She’d told him long ago she would take her freedom when the empire could stand. He had believed—without noticing—that time and closeness had rewritten the contract. That the nights at the table, the sleep forced by her hand on his shoulder, the way she could speak his name without bowing to it—he had believed those things meant the promise could be replaced with permanence. He thought he was offering her the title he had kept from her because he had not known how to share it. He thought she would see the outstretched hand and not the years it stayed closed.

The memory rose up—not a vision this time, but a scene from the past that arrived because he had left it unexamined. The second week after Chani. Irulan standing in the doorway, giving him an order. His fingers on her sleeve. The moment she became the reason he did not calcify into myth. The dependences he had called duty to make them easier to live with. The gratitude he had never spoken because gratitude felt like surrender.

She had pulled him from a room like this once. Now she had walked out of one and left him in it.
The door sighed, same as it had then, only this time the child was older and asleep in a better world; Jessica was far away and the city knew how to breathe without listening for his steps. He had, for years, mistaken Irulan’s silence for acquiescence. He had not learned her language. Her quiet was not surrender. It was distance. It was protection. It was the corridor she had kept open for herself from the day she said I will lend you legitimacy and then I will leave.

The thought unmoored something that had held too long. He stood.

When he had gone after Chani, the city had still been new to his feet. He had chased her like a man running from prophecy’s teeth. This felt different. Not a chase. A choice.

He thought of Ghanima—her small, careful questions, the way she watched both of them with warmth in her eyes. He thought of the crown resting where no one had claimed it, and he understood, finally, that apologies are not what a man says while holding power in his hand. They are the space he makes when he puts it down.

He stepped into the corridor.

The palace at night held its own weather: soft footsteps, the hush of recirculators, the occasional murmur of guards who knew better than to look at the emperor’s face when it was set like this. He did not walk quickly. He did not call her name. He followed the line of rooms she preferred when she did not wish to be found. He followed the logic of her: the necessity of exits, the mathematics of survival, the habits of a woman who had learned to keep the door in her eye even when she sat with her back to it.

At the corner he paused, not to wonder if he should go on but to let the past catch up properly: chainmail in a dream; a throne room; a bargain; a death; a hand on a sleeve; a crown slid aside.
He would go after her—not because destiny commanded or because he needed a mother for a son that did not exist. He would go because she had refused him, and love, if it was to be anything worth saying aloud, had to begin there: at the edge of her refusal.

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The Fedaykin at the end of the corridor straightened when Paul approached. He had never been to the Princess’s apartments at night, and he found himself growing a little self conscious standing in front of the grand door, like he were a visitor and not her husband.

“The Princess Consort is in the nursery, Mahdi,” one of the Fedaykin said quietly. “The nurse had come to retrieve her.”
Paul marched back toward the nursery.

The nursery door was ajar, the lamplight soft and low. Inside, Irulan sat on the edge of Ghanima’s small bed, the child half-curled against her chest. Irulan’s gown was wrinkled, hair slipping loose from its braid. A bowl of water and a cloth sat within reach. She dipped the cloth again, wrung it out, and pressed it gently to the girl’s flushed forehead.

When she looked up and saw him, she startled—only slightly—and then immediately began to stand.

“She’s had a mild fever since the middle watch,” she said, voice low but composed. “It should break by morning. I’ve sent for the physicians, but she’s resting now. You should sit with her. I’ll leave you to it.”

“Your papa is here, sweetheart,” She said while trying to ease Ghanima’s small hand from her sleeve, but the child whimpered and clutched tighter.

“No, Mama stay,” Ghanima mumbled, eyes still closed.

Irulan froze.

Paul did too.

For a heartbeat, no one breathed. Then Irulan sank back down, the movement careful, almost defeated. “Hush, little one,” she murmured. “I’m here.”

Ghanima quieted, still holding fast. Paul sat on the other side of the bed, the three of them framed by the faint moonlight spilling through the shutters. He reached to brush damp hair from his daughter’s brow while Irulan continued her quiet litany—a mix of Bene
Gesserit cadence and something older, almost a lullaby.

The fever eased gradually. Ghanima’s breathing slowed, then deepened. Irulan smoothed a hand down her back until she finally slipped into sleep.

Only then did Paul speak.

“She calls you ‘Mother.’” He had heard it a few times but this would be the first time he ever voiced it.

Irulan didn’t look at him. She reached for the bowl instead, wringing out the cloth. “Alia and the nurses are putting ideas in her head,” she said. “I never asked for her to do it.”

He watched her fingers move, precise and deliberate. “I’m not accusing,” he said softly. “It’s affection.”

“It’s misplaced. I try to correct her when I can.”

He frowned. “Must you?”

“I’m not her mother,” Irulan said. “She’ll see the difference one day.”

He studied her then, the set of her shoulders, the disciplined restraint even now. There was no artifice in it—only defense. She was the woman who had ruled his household while he drowned in grief, who had cared for his daughter as a duty and somehow made it look like love, but who refused to let the word touch her.

“She doesn’t see that difference,” he said. “Neither do I.”

Her gaze flicked to him, sharp, uncertain. “You can’t mean—”

“I do.”

Silence filled the room again, thicker this time. The child slept between them, small hands loose on the blanket.

Paul leaned back, eyes still on Irulan. “If she calls you ‘Mother,’ I see no harm in it. I’d welcome it, if that’s what she already feels.”
Irulan’s throat worked. She looked away first, back toward the sleeping girl. “You shouldn’t say that,” she whispered.

“Why not?”

“Because you’ll start to believe it,” she said.

The words were quiet, but they landed like prophecy.

Paul didn’t answer. He only watched as Irulan adjusted the blanket one last time and sat back, eyes fixed on the child—their child, if only in every way that mattered but the one she would allow.

They didn’t speak anymore that night, he just watched Irulan stroke Ghani’s back until he himself fell asleep. When he woke a few hours later, with the orange sun peeking through the blinds, she was gone.

He stayed in the nursery longer. Ghanima slept in small, even breaths, the fever sheen fading. Her hand, no longer clutched around Irulan’s sleeve, rested open on the blanket.

He studied that hand—the tiny palm that had reached for Irulan before it ever reached for him.
It wasn’t the first time.

He remembered the first weeks after Chani’s death. Ghanima had cried for hours without pause, inconsolable, while he sat trapped in the paralysis of his own mourning. Irulan had taken the child then too, humming something ancient and wordless until the sound filled the halls. Later, when the girl could speak, she reached for Irulan automatically: when frightened by storms, when fevered, when proud of some clumsy drawing. He had noticed, and he had told himself it didn’t matter. Chani’s spirit lived in the child—he would not replace her, and Irulan would not be mother.

He had been so sure.

He’d kept telling himself that Irulan’s care was duty, that she was shaping the empire’s heir, not nurturing a daughter. But the years had built a quiet record against him:

Irulan teaching Ghanima to trace the map of the Imperium by touch, her voice soft and patient.

Irulan carrying the child on her hip while reciting verses.

Ghanima returning from her lessons speaking in Irulan’s crisp diction rather than lilting Fremen phrases.

Each time he saw it, he’d make the same excuses: It’s practical. It kept the household orderly. It gave Ghanima stability.
He’d been lying to himself even then, much like Irulan.

Now, watching the girl sleep, he felt the lie peeling away like sand stripped by wind.

Chani had never been meant to raise this child; she’d been destined to birth her and vanish, just as the visions had warned. Paul had spent years raging against that inevitability, believing love could cheat prophecy. But here was proof that destiny’s cruelty had always been twinned with mercy. The daughter still had a mother—simply not the one he’d chosen.

It should have comforted him. Instead it hollowed him.

He had lost Chani twice: first to the desert, then to the truth that she could never have belonged to this world he’d built. Irulan did belong to it. She’d bent herself into its machinery, into his absences, until her presence was the rhythm of the palace itself.

And he—prophet, emperor, widower—had treated her devotion as furniture.

He could remember her once at Ghanima’s second name-day celebration, standing in the corner as courtiers toasted the child. Irulan had not spoken, but when Ghanima spilled her drink and burst into tears, Irulan’s hands were the first to reach her. The child clung to her skirts, and Irulan’s voice, low and steady, had calmed the room before he could even rise from his seat.

He’d caught himself watching her then, the ease of it, the naturalness, and felt something close to shame. He had wanted to thank her and hadn’t known how without sounding like a man apologizing.

He looked down at Ghanima now, at the same small hands that had woven ribbon through Irulan’s gown just days before, and thought: She knows who her mother is, and I’ve been too proud to admit it.

He could almost hear Chani in the memory of wind outside the shutters: that wry, knowing tone she used when he pretended to outwit destiny.

You never understood, my love. It was never me who was meant to stay.

He bowed his head into his hands. The weight of it was both grief and release.

Chani had given him a child. Irulan had given that child a home.

And he had been blind to both kinds of love until now.