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“tyler?” josh asked me in a shaky voice and looked up at me.
josh and i had taken a nap after our very sexual activities that had taken place on this bed, and woke up about a half hour ago. we didn’t get up or anything, just lied here and listened to the sound of each other breathing and thought.
what was the point of dying if josh could have just come back fully visible? If he could be heard and touched, and if he was still breathing?
i thought a little too much about that while we were laying here, his warm breath exhaling onto my neck in soft patterns. his body creating average warmth against my skin. his soft fingers creating invisible lines on my chest.
it was like he was a normal human .
i tried to shift my thoughts to something else, like the autumn leaves falling down outside the window.
which, reminded me of halloween.
i would probably just stay here and pass out candy, admiring all the little costumes and happy families that would bring their dressed up toddlers and babies around in strollers or on foot.
last year i was dragged out of the house by patrick, who insisted i come out of the house for pete’s party.
patrick was so hopelessly in love with pete, it made me sick.
it was almost a year ago, and they’ve been together for a few months so it all turned out well.
what if josh and i got together?
that wouldn’t work though, because he’s dead.
or is he?
you’re ridiculous, tyler. how could he not be dead?
really, it doesn’t even matter that he’s dead. kind of. because he could be seen. i could show him to my friends.
well, not really.
patrick and pete used to be my friends. i guess they were, at least. when they started dating, i unintentionally drifted away from them. then, i had told my parents about my sexuality and i wasn’t really around to be around them anymore.
of course, i was seventeen then. i still wouldn’t want to disobey my parents, though, considering i live in their house.
crap, i missed work today.
“ty?” josh asked again and i shot my head in his direction, looking at him in the eyes.
“oh, yeah, sorry. what was that?”
josh chuckled and shook his head as much as he could, seeing as we were pretty much tangled together. “i, uh, i really like you, tyler.”
i smiled back at josh, not knowing what to say. did i like josh?
hell yeah.
i had no doubt in mind that i liked josh.
this thing (or whatever it was) with josh was unexplainable. indescribable.
josh was indescribable.
he was wonderful, phenomenal, incredible . he had taken me places in my head that i didn’t even know existed, but the journey was so worth it.
because joshua william dun may not be alive on this earth, but he sure as hell was alive in my brain.
my mind was constantly racing with thoughts and they were all about the blue haired boy.
“i like you too, josh. a lot.” i admitted sheepishly, but i didn’t regret it one bit because as he was here on my bed, tangled in my body and radiating so much heat i thought i would melt , i knew for a fact that the feelings i had for this on human being were more than just platonic.
and, really, they were. because we didn’t just platonically make out, or platonically give each other blow jobs.
no, my relationship with josh was much more than platonic.
because, whether he liked it or not, he had burned a hole into my brain and filled it up with so much emotion that i can’t even begin to explain.