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I sat cold, starving, in the wet damp cage. Pain seeps from every point in my body nothing was free from the pain. So much anger I was full of that anger was directed at God for what he's done to me. If there is a God because if there was he wouldn't let anyone go through this hell. I just to go back in time and save my parents... No....no I want to kill the people who did this to me who burn down my mansion, killed my parents, who have tortured me and branded me.
"Someone anyone helps me! Please kill these men and save me!" I cry out as I press my face against the cage looking out into the dimly lit room.
Both the men and women dress in their fancy attire and their masquerade mask all start cheering showing sighs of joy, fear, and shock.
"Who summoned the demon?" One said while others screamed.
"I-it really showed up!" Another one said while other screeched.
The demon's eyes look around broadly at the men and women, as the lead I believe of them all jumped up and yelled, "Grant me eternal life and wealth!"
"No," the demon said coldly making his way towards me, "It's this one..." His cold smile sends chills down my spine as he looks straight at me. I stick my head through the bars as the demon speaks to me, "You have given a big sacrifice. Now it's your choice whether to make a contract with a demon and have your wishes granted, or not." The demon licks its lips barring its sharp teeth. "The price to cross the river has already been paid."
Tears leak from my eyes as I put my head down so my hair covers my face and tears. Teeth clenched, fist holding the bars tightly enough to make my knuckles go white. "I..." My voice was weak and raspy but full of anger and hatred. "I want...Power..."
"Wha...!? Someone shut her up!"
But no one heard him because my voice carries through the room. "The power to take revenge on those who did this to us!" So much anger and frustration started bubbling over to the point of no return. "Demon I'll make a contract with you!" I yell so loudly as I lift my head to look at the demon letting the tears fall.
The demon's hand curl out showing his jet black nails, "So you're abandoning the light for the path of hell... Fine. Well then let's mark our bodies with the contract seal." A moment of silences fills the room as I become tenser as more fear fills me," The more visible the place where your seal is, the stronger its power. So, where do you want-"
I interrupt him quickly with my bland response, "Anywhere is fine. Just give me the power to be stronger than anyone else!" I reach out for the demon desperately.
The demon put his and next to the right side of my face close to my eye letting out a small laugh, "You're quite greedy despite your small body." Suddenly my head was thrust back by the demon's hand," Well then. I shall put on that big eye of yours filled with despair"
I start to scream as pain fills my right eyes making me slowly blind in that eye blood slowly oozes of that eye as I become permanently blind in that eye as our contract is sealed.
Breaking me free of the cage I weakly stand up walking out as the demon asked, "What is your name?"
Blood runs down my cheek as I think about the question for a few moments, "My name is..." I look up at the demon my face slacked from exhaustion, "Ciel. Ciel Phantomhive. The one who will inherit the house of Earl Phantomhive."
The demon's hand covers part of his face showing the contract sign as he puts on a look of thinking, "Fufu... I see that'll be fine. Then I should take a form suitable for being in services to an Earl."
The demon shoes tap on the floor as he comes out of the dark. In a suit all black besides his shit. "Give me an order. My little Lady."
I look up at the demon who was bowing to me his hair slight hanging in front of his face a small smile with his eyes closed. Nodding I order three things of him, "I order you that you protect me and never betray me until I obtain my revenge. That you obey every order of mine no matter how much you don't want to. Never and I mean never lie to me. Now burn this place to the ground."
"Of course Young Mistress," he says pick me up carrying me in one arm as he walks to the nearest candle using demon magic to make fire float all around us but not actually touching us as he uses his demon speed to leave the Manor I was being held in as quickly possible.
After the demon set me down I stared for a moment at the burning Manor, pleasure fills me turning away I stick out my blood covered hand to show a ring my ring... "Someone out there tried to obliterate the Phantomhive household. Aunt Frances said... That the best chance to counter your opponent is when they're attacking you." I pause for a moment in my mind a chess board appears for the game has just begun. "My predecessor lost the game." Another pause as I clench the ring tightly, "As Ciel Phantomhive, head of the Phantomhive household... I swear I won't!" I declare to myself, the game has just started and now its time to play.
I hear the demon try to muffle his laugh behind me and I lightly turn my head to look at him, "Whats so funny?"
A smug look was on the demon's face as his gloved hands cover his mouth as he looks down at me. "Well...you told me not to lie, yet you seem to be quite a lier yourself." Rage fills me as I send a death glare to my butler turning to face away from him.
I stare at the sunset for a few moments before facing half of my body towards my butler, "Well then my Mistress. Let us go back to the mansion."
I shiver slightly frowning, "I don't know where it is." The demon had a very confused and annoyed look on his face as I turn more to face him to look at him in the eye i return my expression to a dull one. "I don't even know where we are now... I didn't really go out often," shamed filled me, father and mother never wanted me out often due to my poor health but really how does a Countess not know where her own Manor is. "I have a relative at the Royal Hospital. Let's go there first."
The demon sighs, "Certainly."
He turns away from me and starts walking when I grabbed the end of the demons tailcoat, "Wait, demon..." the demon turns around to look at me in confusion as I stare up at him like a lost pup, "What is your name?"
He gives out a small chuckle giving me a soft smile, "Whatever my Mistress wishes."
I ponder for a moment and my dog flashes before my eyes as the demon turns towards me, "Then...Sebastian. From now on your name shall be Sebastian."
Bowing softly with his hand over his heart closing his eyes he mutters, "Certainly. Well then, please call me Sebastian. If I may ask was it the name of your former butler?"
I shake my head softly quickly sadden for a moment for my lost dog, "No. It was the name of my dog."
Sebastian nodded turning away and started walking, and I walked behind him letting my thoughts wander as day turns to night letting off a certain chill as it begins to rain but by the sound of things we were close by civilization.
"Sebastian I need something to cover up my eye," I mutter and the butler stops in his tracks looking at me.
"You are right Young Mistress it would be most disturbing for others to see the contract sign..." He says making clothing out of thin air wrapping it around my head carefully sometimes his gloved fingers would touch my face and I would flinch away. "That should do for now until we get back to the Manor and get you an eyepatch, My Lady."
I was soaked with rain and still covered in blood when we arrived at the hospital. I walk in and up to the marble counter, I couldn't feel anything beneath my feet beside pickling pain. "Um excuse me.." The women who were working at the counter looks down at me with a small smile her eyes were closed so she couldn't see all the blood, "I'm looking for Aunt Ann- I mean! Doctor Durless."
At the sounds of someone yelling Sebastian and I, both turn our head and I find Tanaka starring at me on the floor calling out my name. "Tanaka!" I yell running towards him being enveloped in a hug.
"Y-your alive. You're alive!" the old butler says joyfully as he held me but i felt no warmth in the hug everything was cold to me. He must know something anything about mom and dad we just have to speak in private.
It didn't take long before Tanaka was sitting in a bed, me on a chair and Sebastian was standing next to me with his arms behind his back listening to every word that we were saying.
"Your brother he's not alive is he..." He asked.
I shook my head, "They killed him..." I muttered softly trying to push the memory out of my head.
"My lady I'm sorry... I have no clue who did this everyone is gone." I stayed completely silent letting realization hit me that they were all dead and I would never see them again. At that moment Tanaka took the opportunity to address Sebastian, "You said that your name is Sebastian correct?" He said with a happy yet solemn tone of voice while trying to find something.
Handing a pocket watch to him that shined that made it look freshly polished he looks confused down at the watch, "What is it?"
Tanaka smiles at him, "That's been passed down to each Phantomhive butler to the next. Mr. Sebasatian..." Tanaka kneels down on his bed bowing to my butler, " I don't know who are or where you came from but please take good care of our Mistress."
Sebastian took the watch holding it close to him as he bows his head lightly. I look at the demon who is playing an elegant butler and see a hint of humanity in him as he raises his eyes to look at Tanaka speaking to him with sincerity, "I was do everything I can to please our Young Mistress." Sebastian's eyes land on my giving me a creepy smile, 'don't trust a demon he might look and act human but he's still a monster on the inside.'
I look away with glaring eyes back to Tanaka chatting with him idoly about the thing that has happened since I was gone. None of it was of real importance to me so I sat numbly half listening only talking when needed.
I was so out of it, in fact, I didn't notice Aunt Ann grabbing me shaking me slightly, "Ciel! You're so pale and skinny." Her face was bright red as tears stream down her face. "I'm so glad you're ok!" Fine that the last thing I would call myself. Aunt Ann put a large coat on me buttoning it up. It was warm and soft warming the sudden chill I was starting to feel, it was long enough to go down to my knees.
Aunt Ann looks up at Sebastian who smiled pleasantly at her. Who sent one of her cold stares. "Aunt Ann be kind to Sebastian he was the butler who saved me he will serve me now."
Aunt Ann eyes light up as she runs to the demon hugging him tightly, "Thank you so much Mr.Sebastian I don't think you understand what it means to me that you saved my niece."
Sebastian who looked taken aback by the hug stood there, "I could see a child been hurt like this especially a lady I had to do something."
Aunt Ann broke the hug looking at Sebastian I'm the eye but he wasn't looking at her but instead me. His cold demon eyes scare me but also leave feeling protected. I know that as long as the contract is complete I'm safe but I fear the power I have yet to tame as my own I fear the day my soul becomes a feast for evil.
"Aunt Ann can I go back to my Manor I need to see it with my own eyes...." I muttered looking down at the floor.
Everyone's eyes fall on me, a child who has lost so much but wants to put herself in more pain. "Are you sure?" Tanaka and Ann both like me.
I nod softly, "I must see... I just need to see it...."
Aunt Ann nod motioning Sebastian and I to follow her and we do. Sebastian and I walk side by side in silence both of us thinking very different things. The moment we step outside a carriage is waiting for us Aunt Ann hugged me one last time pressing something into my hand, "All the others burned down... this is the only one left."
A ring with the family crest is right next to the Phantomhive head ring, "Thank you..." I mutter stepping into the carriage sitting down Sebastian right after me. As the carriage starts to move back to my home the rain begins again.

This is going to be a long day.

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We arrive at the Manor well into the afternoon. It was so bad so badly burned that it was unrecognizable. Shock completely overcame me as I look at my house the place filled with so many memories burned to a crisp.
"This is quite bad..." Sebastian says abrasively looking on at the Manor in thought. I turn away from him hiding my tears as I walk toward the cemetery next to the house where all the previous occupants of the house lay in rest. The afternoon air was winding but warm as I find my parents gravestone. In the distances, I hear Sebastian call out for me, "Young Mistress come back..." It was clear that he was following me like the dog he is by the sound of he voice.
I pay no mind to him as I fall to my knees bowing my head at the gravestones as I mutter in grievances, "Mother....." I choke out swallowing back tears, "Father....." I couldn't say anymore as my throat was so tight nothing would come out it became harder to breathe. This would be the last time I would ever grieve for them...
Sebastian stood behind me for a couple of seconds then left but I didn't want the devil to leave. For he was now my only sources of protection I had in this life. For my parents had been taken away from me and sent to heaven and I will never see them again for I am going straight to hell.
Little did I know their death is going to become a part of a long string of deaths that I would leave in my wake to become the women I would be in the future. Little did I know that this was not even the begging of the hell that I would be apart of.
I didn't know how long I sat in front of their gravestones long enough for my tears to dry, my soul to feel empty, my heart broken, and for the air turn crisp and chill with stars above me with the clearest of skies.
My thoughts were all over the place it never staying in one place too long but I was disturbed by Sebastian formal voice saying to me, "M'lady..." My head shoots up, "the moon has appeared and the air had turned crisp it is not the best if you stay out in this weather any longer."
I turn my head over my shoulders slightly so I can see the smiling demon with a hand over his heart that is if he has one... Sighing I slowly get up patting the dirt off of my pants I say with a hoarse voice, "A little ways away there are pubs and inn that have to lodge in them we can stay in those until the Manor is fixed..." I turn my head back towards my parent's graves standing straight as a stick.
Sebastian didn't even hesitate a moment after my comment, "There is no need actually."
I turn around quickly giving him a bewildered look that made his smug look a tiny bit wider, "Oh really?" Sebastian lets out a low chuckle as he swiftly moves behind me placing his hands over my eye, pushing me forward without another word. "Sebastian what in the Gods name are you doing!" I raise my voice demanding him to tell me as I'm being pushed somewhere trying not to stumble.
He didn't respond to me only pushing me forward some more holding me still I was starting to get annoyed, I'm cold, tired, hungry, in pain and in need of a nice warm bath I didn't have time for him to be playing such stupid games. I was about to yell at him when he let his hand slip from my face reveling me to a fully restored Manor.
Sebastian took his place next to me as I stood I shock, "No way..." I mutter out.
The smug look grew even large as he held a finger up to let proudness seep threw his words, " I promised you no lies didn't I Master?"
"This..." I mutter again as I start to follow Sebastian up the stairs, "this is..."
"Now could I be a Butler of a Countess..." He stays in front of me the entire time, giving me his hand I take it and we begin walking again, " If I couldn't even do this?" Stopping I look at the dark wood of the large doors with the gold look handles, "As a Countess, you must live in a beautiful Mansion. Now come," he lets go of my hand grabbing the door handles, "because from this day forth this is your Manor now." The moment he finished his sentences the doors fly open, and show me the home I once live not a difference to it. From the painting on the walls to the rug on the floors, everything was the same. Sebastian gave his hand back out to me again but I ignore it still to far hone in memories, confusion, and shock to really care I take my first step into my Manor. "Welcome home My Lady..."

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    My ribs burned as my eyes snapped opened into a room I couldn’t make out threw the red a black that sparkled in my eyes. The pain was just like when i was younger but it hurt so much worse as if a scar was being reopened. “Make..it...stop..Sebastian….” I make out through the gasp and vomit that pours out of me. I couldn’t move everything was frozen as my lungs felt on the verge of collapse with the last of my air gone. I heard footstep I tried to run no no no no not them not again don’t let him near me again please don’t hurt me. Sebastian save me… contact where is the contract. The world cleared into snow covered white flames licking the snow coming closer and closer to me. I scream empty as more and more pounding everything was to clear. I’m falling and falling I’m cold now the deeper I fall I like thing the scar no longer burns. Bubble float from me as I open my eyes to see a gloved hand reaching towards me. I open my mouth to scream but my lungs burned as water filled them. No don’t take me no don’t take Ciel...Ciel...where’s Ciel...Brother! Brother! CIEL! Wait…..the hand grab my wrist I try to fight it. LET GO OF ME! It doesn’t budge it just drags me closer to the surface. Ciel and my parents flashs happily at me then start to burn as I’m dragged out of the water.

    Everything starts to become more clear I see men well dressed sworming my bed owls covering their coat pocket. The burning had died down to mild thud. My head throbbed, everything hurt, I couldn’t stop shaking. Sebastian came into view his face in front of mine it hurt to breath it kept speeding up and then slowing down. “Seba-”

“Phantomhive thank goodness you’re coherent again,” I looked behind him and see all the boys give a sigh of relief at hearing this. My breath hitches as my heart quickness again curling tighter into myself.

“Get away from me,” I hiss my eyes widen and then I quickly cover my right eye to find my patch already their. Sebastian had to move away from me some whispers coming from Sebastian and everyone besides him left the room the moment the door closed his questions started.

“M'lady what was that? You scared the entire dorm that you were being murdered.” Worried glaces shifted around towards me as he searching the room for who knows what.

I shrugged I didn’t care to chat or do anything a whole filled my chest larger normal, “Nightmare now help me up I have to get ready for class,” I didn’t want to seem creepy and stare at Sebastian for an eternity with his slow speech. The quite plan room was a dark blue like my dorm colors the wise Sapphire Owl, shelves of book lines the walls two neat desk stacked with paper pens books mine is neatly stacked while my roomates Mcmillan is messy paper everywhere books left open pages ripped out. A small Christmas tree stood in the corner that Mcmillan use closest to the doors.

Sebastian sighs and comes closer to me taking my outreached arms pulling me up, my legs shake and give out from under my Sebastian arms grip my waist as he pulls me into him. “No I don’t believe you will be attending any classes today lest getting out of bed for today,” lifting me with one arm he throws of my probably vomit cover sheets unto the floor setting me down again.

I set my jaw locking eyes with the demon whos surprising warm hand were making it hard to be anger I shake my head. Ever since I got sick that one time at the townhouse and the servants  scolded him for letting me go out in my condition so even now when i show the slightest bit of weakness he treats me like I'm a fragile little kitten. Oh how he treats me with like one of those stupid cat at time like this. “I’m not going to sit here in bed all day Sebastian I need to do something anything. We started this in June and we haven’t gotten any closer and it’s near Christmas break Sebastian.”

Sebastian grin with that sexy stupid grin the one that when he’s planning some oh so devious for me. So that how I ended up here sitting in my room with a pile of papers that Sebastian would usually go through while we are here but no I have to do it now.

“I'll be back with your sheets hopefully clean Phantomhive by the time class if over. Do take care of yourself?” he gave the fakest smile as he closed the door I huff as I got to work stupid demon.

Sebastian POV

I gag at the smell that radiated from Mistress sheets it was strong and very unpleasant. Her worries classmates gather outside the door anxious look on all of their faces. Unsurprisingly Young Master is very well loved by her classmates despite the fact she is the Queen Guard Dog theses nobles and high class citizen ha8ve fallen for her charm. “How is he? Will he be alright?” voices called out.

“He is quite alright but it's best not to bother him,” I clear my voice as I begin to walk threw the students, “more nightmare will happen has it gets closer to his birthday as it is time of tragedy for the Phantomhive family.” I stop and I look down my heart pulls as I see a much sadder and broken Master standing before me my mark on her shown to the whole world when it was still fresh. “You mustn't tell him that you know anything it will only make him more distressed. Now get to class all of you,”I order to the students as they nod going to either their rooms to grab their belonging or heading down the stairs to one of the many classes they need.”

It wasn't that hard to find one of the maids to go and clean M'lady's sheets. I sighs as I step out the back of the stuffy disgusting dorm. The more time I spend here more sick i grow the smell of these soul disgusts me to my bone none of them even smell any good. My stomach growls st the thought of have a soul just one but I am waitting for hers. Her oh so delicious soul that can sometimes almost break me by just the smell of it.

I chuckle softly three years it has almost been since this adventure has start and it sure as been an enjoyable one. This is little game we are playing is quite adorable actually. Her game of chest with me is one that she can win not as her resolve is slowly fading. This morning is more than evident of it her screams for me were so satisfying I can't wait for the day when these aren't screams for help. But as her resolve fail I need to make sure she doesn't have any knife or guns around her bedroom I don't want that night to happen again.

Ciel my Mistress had just been dedicated to Earl Phantomhive. She seemed so strong and determined to win her chest game that I never expected anything. It started with a distant feeling within the contract almost like it was just form muffled and unreal. Then it came to her not wanting me to bath and change her. That also made sense she was a lady and I was a grown man she must have been ashamed of her growing body. Then she was sleeping more not doing what was being asked of her. Then one night is the day it went to hell. I was cleaning the gun we had used earlier that day when I saw that one of the hand pistols was gone. Then I saw it all happen:

Ciel hands covered in blood as a pistol laid in her hand her shakily putting bullets into the gun. Scars with blood running down from them on her arms tears flow down her face cold and hard. I started moving as she put the gun up to her head with a small smile on her face. Her finger laid on the trigger, “I'm sorry Sebastian…” she pulled the trigger I barely caught the bullet.

Ugly tears fall as this child looks at me with hopeless eyes before covering her face, “I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry,” she kept muttering. I was stunned shocked as this puny little human was….apologizing to me for trying to die.

I pull the gun away dropping it on the floor with a clank. My eyes drop to her bloody arm, “Oh Young Mistress what am I ever going to do with you,” she looks up with me with those eyes those eyes burn into me. She looked like a sad broken kitten and my heart tugged.

I pick her up very carefully she felt like a thousands stones as she nuzzled into my chest. I move from the bathroom her tears have long dried up but it was now replaced with a series of apologize towards me. I go through the bathroom picking up rugs, rubbing alcohol, and some wrap as I set Ciel on the edge of the bathroom.

“Master,” I took one of her arms my heart pounding as I see scars new and old running all across her arm, “this is going to hurt a lot  do you need some to chew on?”

“No,” the most deadpan voice came out of her she sounded more alive when we first met, “I'm used to the pain.”

My frown grew larger as I slowly are carefully start whipping the blood off of her arm. “Mastar if I may ask why?”

“Why what?”

My brow come together as I roll my eyes close to her now I can tell her heart was pounding wildly out of fear or adrenaline I will not know. “You're smarter than that Master don't play dumb with me.”

“You are a demon you would never understand how a human...feels,” she stated with a wrise as I started cleaning the wounds.

Shaking my head I sigh, “Please M'lady talk to me I make not understand what you are going through but I might be able to help.”

She was silent for a while as I finished wrapping her arms before she cover her face. “I'm on ice thin ice like one movement will make it collapse covered in this fog so dark and cold that I can't see anything at all. Everything hurts and you aren't there I call and you don't come.” One of her eyes peek out of her hands as it stares straight into me, “Do you understand Sebastian? The king is cracked closes to checkmate because the king can't see can't lead because the king is falling falling so far that even if I have my ponds they can't save me.”

No words came out as I stare at her anger depleted as only the darkness in the human mind control her. I take a deep breath, “My dear Mistress no matter how cracked the king is or how far they have fallen the crowned knight shall always follow and protect no matter how far they fall,” I mutter as I pull her hand away from her face as i stare into her eyes I can feel her soul closer to mine less shadowed. “My dearest king until the day our contract is fulfilled and I devour your soul I will always protect you now let me fix the crack king so that she may destroy the ones that have defiled you.”

Silence filled the room as we stare each other down her will fading faster than mine. As I look into the deep ocean blue eyes full of regret, sadness and anger she lift her tiny delicate arms for me it to lift her. Silently I take the order and lift the all to bony girl, “We must change you M'lady you are covered in blood.”

I shake my head letting out a shaky breath my hand shakes at the old memory. “No she promised she would never do it again no matter how bad the pain got,” I mumble to myself. I close my hand into a fist I can feel my nail through the thin fabric of my gloves calming my pounding heart no signs she's fine. I pull out the pocket watch the young Mistress gave me so long ago reading the time I take one more lonn breath before heading inside.

Ciel POV

Mcmillan entered the room just as I had finished getting dressed. I put the letter from the queen in a inside pocket. Smiling at Mcmillan timidness as he enters the room, “You can come in I'm not fragile,” I call out deepening my voice to make it sound like a boy.

Mcmillan breathed a sigh of relief as he head that brushing of his hat from the snow fall he puts his books down on his bed, “It's lunch Ciel would you like to come down with me?”

“Of course I was about to head out anyway I need to ask Mr. Michaelis what we are doing in our classes today,” my stomach growls at the mention of food and both of us laugh softly.

The blond hair boy started to grab only a notebook and a book before he started to drag me to the dining area but his touch was soft and careful he only grabbed my wrist lightly like a feather as he did this. I growl softly to myself I'm not some fragile animal that needs to be treated like this whatever the hell Sebastian told them I'll kill him for it.

As we walked whispers echoed in my mind as we walked passed people leaning into their friends muttering something all I heard was my name them slandering it of my nightmare. I pause for a moment as I fight the urge to pull to punch one of these idiots. As we enter the dining hall we were stopped by a very pretty man in the red house. From head to toe dressed like an actor. I do understand as noble and people of important power we must look like one of our title but this boy took it to an extreme.

I groan on the inside as Mcmillan fangirl over this boy shives go up my spine as something that doesn't feel quite right as the boy gave out his hand to me. I shake it and give him a big smile, “Hello Ciel Phantomhive I am the fag of the Scarlet Fox Perfect Maurice Cole.”

I bit my lip as I kept my smile as I let go of his warm hand putting mine behind my back, “What pleasure do I have to meet your acquaintance Cole?”

“Well you see we have heard so many good things about you Phantomhive and well…”Cole smiles softly batting his eyes as he tilts his head, “after hearing about you bad dream this more the P4 would love to talk to and have tea with you tomorrow at the Swan Gazebo.”

I froze stiff but slowly gave him a devilish smirk this is my chance to finally get this over with and go home. “I would love to,” I clap my hands together leaning forward slightly.

“Amazing I'll see you at four tomorrow,”Cole said and scampered off.

Boys of my class pushed me over giving me congratulations as we sit down at the Sapphire House table decorated with food. Grabbing a small plate I begin to fill it with less the normal amount as not to upset my empty stomach. None of the boys question it I already eat much smaller portions than them and usually never finish even that but they know of Sebastian and how he is when I eat.

I was full and satisfied as I talk with the boys about mundane things rolling my eyes but laughing along with them until on of them asked, “Ciel what happened in your nightmare you scared all of us to the death.”

My heart stops as my eyes snap open and I turn to the silent group waitting for an answer. I turn my head from them taking a deep breath trying to stop the tears from falling. My heart pounds in my ear as I feel the panic earlier rise within me as fire lights up the room.

A hand rest on my shoulder, “Ciel you don't have to take about it if you rather not.”

I shake my head as I rub my thumb over my ring. “When I was turning 10 almost three years ago  in two days my family estate burned down I was kidnapped and tortured almost sacrificed for this crazy cult I somehow escaped and build up my family name and started my company. I lost everything and it still haunts me to this day around this time every year I get these nightmares it is nothing to worry about just my brain going haywire.” I stand but stared down at the probably shock and pity faces of my peers, “Now excuse me but I have business to take care of.” And i left.