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wanna see how deep the bullet lies? by killuafreecss (ssweetestcon)
Fandoms: Hunter X Hunter
23 Jun 2025
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And agony — it became your normal but there were times it became too impossible to numb yourself to. You swallow down the curse, hex, violence and hunger for destruction (watching the world burn is what will solve this, surely) as you recall.
It's been years and years and years, after almost losing Gon due to the Chimera Ant Arc... So why can't he bring himself to fully fly from the ashes like a phoenix?
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Killua’s voice was a whisper. “I’m not like other people, Gon. I try so hard to be. But I miss things. I don’t understand faces. I say the wrong things. I freeze. I overreact. I don’t know how to be around people unless I study them. And even then…”
He buried his head in his arms.
“Even then I get it wrong.”
Gon looked at him for a long time.
Then, softly:
“Killua, I don’t want you to be like other people.”
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Killua has always struggled with understanding social cues and fitting into his family's rigid expectations. Growing up under the oppressive weight of his family's rejection, he never learned to be the person they wanted him to be. But when he meets Gon, something changes.
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i did it all cause it feel good (i wouldn't do it all if it feel bad) by killuafreecss (ssweetestcon)
Fandoms: Hunter X Hunter
01 Mar 2025
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He could dig into your flesh, pierce the barrier and you know it because he’s gotten stronger and more capable — but he doesn’t. He doesn’t hurt you when he could, and you wouldn’t even spare the pain a second glance.
What's better than kissing your best friend in the kitchen of his mother figure's cottage after training?
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- Part 4 of fluffbruary 2025 :3
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It had become an implicit agreement between the three of them, somehow, that things were business as usual. Aomine doubted Kuroko even remembered kissing them, but he and Kagami did, and there was an underlying, mutual promise to just—not make it weird. Aomine thought about it when he jerked off sometimes, the feel and shape of Kuroko’s mouth against his, the way his entire body had been overaware that Kagami was watching them—was seeing, with his own two eyes, how relevant he still was to them. How essential. How essential they were to each other.
Kuroko celebrates his birthday in LA with Kagami and Aomine. But when a kiss at midnight blurs the line between rivals and teammates, Kagami and Aomine struggle to reconcile with their growing feelings for each other—and what that means for their feelings for Kuroko.
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A Murphy's Mercy by Glasssneaker for sidvishess
Fandoms: Kuroko no Basuke | Kuroko's Basketball
12 Mar 2024
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Life is stressful, so Kagami surprises Kuroko with an adventure.
They fell back into silence and embrace where Kagami started to feel the sweetness of being somewhat lifted from reality, a place where you couldn’t tell exactly what was physical, what was emotional, what was thought and what was said, because it all blended together in bliss.
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Stick Around Here Today, Tomorrow by CrestofCaw
Fandoms: 新しい上司はど天然 | Atarashii Joushi wa Do Tennen | My New Boss is Goofy (Anime)
08 Jun 2024
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Taking place three months after Momose moved out of Shirosaki's apartment, the two men's feelings for each other are finally too prominent to ignore. Has Momose's confidence restored enough to pursue this relationship?
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wanna see how deep the bullet lies? by killuafreecss (ssweetestcon)
Fandoms: Hunter X Hunter
23 Jun 2025
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And agony — it became your normal but there were times it became too impossible to numb yourself to. You swallow down the curse, hex, violence and hunger for destruction (watching the world burn is what will solve this, surely) as you recall.
It's been years and years and years, after almost losing Gon due to the Chimera Ant Arc... So why can't he bring himself to fully fly from the ashes like a phoenix?
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The Zoldycks are a family of inquisitors and witch hunters in a world where witches and demons are very real. Killua has a job of transporting Gon, who is possessed by a demon of unknown quality, to his death. However, Killua finds Gon's free spirit and ineffable energy to be hard to hate, and experiences a crisis of conscience over what to do with his charge. What will they do, and will they both make it out of this alive?
And why is Gon's face so... pleasingly symmetrical?
Also, why is Killua so damned pretty in the moonlight?
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Dark fantasy AU featuring a magic system, primitive gunpowder, a dash of witchcraft, and the usual fantasy stuff. Fighting, fluff, smut. Graphic depictions of violence, not torture porn or anything though. Killua 20, Gon 18.Series
- Part 1 of Witch Hammer
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Killua’s voice was a whisper. “I’m not like other people, Gon. I try so hard to be. But I miss things. I don’t understand faces. I say the wrong things. I freeze. I overreact. I don’t know how to be around people unless I study them. And even then…”
He buried his head in his arms.
“Even then I get it wrong.”
Gon looked at him for a long time.
Then, softly:
“Killua, I don’t want you to be like other people.”
or...
Killua has always struggled with understanding social cues and fitting into his family's rigid expectations. Growing up under the oppressive weight of his family's rejection, he never learned to be the person they wanted him to be. But when he meets Gon, something changes.
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Kurapika requires back-up for a swanky black-tie event where he was told there'd be a lead to another set of Kurta eyes. He enlists the help of Killua and Gon.
But there’s a catch.
“You'll have to act like you're in a relationship.”
Gon tilted his head, confused. “But we are in a relationship. Killua’s my best friend.”
Leorio slapped a hand over his face and Kurapika just sighed, quietly comforted, as he descended deeper into the dark underbelly of society, by the way some things stayed the same.
“No, dummy.” Killua clenched his jaw, closing his eyes in impatience. “We have to pretend to be boyfriends.”
Killua must teach Gon a very particular set of skills.
Too bad Gon's never been that good at faking his feelings.