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    Mollymauk doesn't know how he survived nor does he know why Caleb is currently a little kid or who the other kid is; but, he does know that he would do anything to get the rest of his family back. Including walking the spaces between the stars.

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    The question was familiar. The same one that Jester had asked in Trostenwald when they first met.
    “When was the last time you had a bath, Caleb?”
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    Caleb is having issues with his hygiene once again, but luckily he has a friend to help him.
    TWs!! This fic deals with Caleb's self-loathing/depression. Self injury is briefly mentioned but blink and you'll miss it. Same for disordered eating. I just like to write soft scenarios where people are loved and cared for, okay?

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    The first time he noticed himself doing it in front of the Mighty Nein was in a book shop. No, not noticed himself, he never noticed that he was doing it, more like he noticed others noticing. In this case, Jester.

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    Vox Machina didn't mean to somehow become the guardians to 8 children, but then again, when did they ever Mean to do anything they do? They'll do their best with them, but if Percy doesn't stop coming home with random people Vex might just murder him out of sheer frustration.

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    “Well then, I shall ask you a question,” said Essek, “Do you believe I should participate in conversation more than I do?”

    Caleb raised his head in alarm. Did his friend think he was being criticised? Did Essek interpret Caleb’s judgement of his own silence as reflected upon him? Caleb raised his hands plaintively, “No, not at all. In fact, I think I’d be a little taken aback if you did. Please understand, it is not silence itself that I dislike and I certainly do not condemn yours, only my...lack of ability.”

    “Why should you hold yourself to a standard you do not hold others to?"

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    5 times Essek saw Caleb's unmasked self (and loved him all the same) and 1 time Caleb saw Essek's (and loved him the way he deserved).

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      beautiful autism ace spec rep <3

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      you know that time is all we're made of

      “Well then, I shall ask you a question,” said Essek, “Do you believe I should participate in conversation more than I do?”

      Caleb raised his head in alarm. Did his friend think he was being criticised? Did Essek interpret Caleb’s judgement of his own silence as reflected upon him? Caleb raised his hands plaintively, “No, not at all. In fact, I think I’d be a little taken aback if you did. Please understand, it is not silence itself that I dislike and I certainly do not condemn yours, only my...lack of ability.”

      “Why should you hold yourself to a standard you do not hold others to?"
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      5 times Essek saw Caleb's unmasked self (and loved him all the same) and 1 time Caleb saw Essek's (and loved him the way he deserved).

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    There's a cafe that specializes in rehabilitating people with trauma. That cafe was home to Mollymauk Tealeaf. Now it's home to cult survivor Caleb Widogast.

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    A figure from Lucien's past shows up to collect on an old arrangement. When Molly doesn't want to talk business, the stranger takes him and the Mighty Nein for himself instead.

    Caleb is only just able to get Jester to safety in time. But when the rest of his friends fall victim to their captor's vampiric thrall, that leaves him trapped and alone against the twisted attentions and easy cruelty of a wizard more powerful than he's ever dreamed of being.

    Jester struggles to understand her enemies and make a plan of attack. Her friends are counting on her to save them, even if some of them don't know it anymore, and so she is determined to be the light in the darkness for them and all the people of Tanner's Crossing.

    With a little bit of magic and a little bit of research and a whole lot of determination as they fight their own battles, Caleb and Jester might just save their friends before they lose themselves in the bargain.

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    The Marion’s Recovery Home, a very small organisation focuses on recovery in a home-like environment. A safe place, in which you can create bonds with people who can understand.

    This story focuses on Caleb, as the latest addition to the group, recently recovered from a police raid into a countryside home, owned by one Trent Ikithon. He now must learn to navigate this new group, new hierarchy, new rules without failure- for he knows pain what failure brings.

    It also focuses on Mollymauk, who is a hopeless bastard who falls a little bit in love with all his friends but also is going through his own shit- as they all are.

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    Caleb’s running a fever by the time the rest of the Mighty Nein find him.

    He was expecting that much – he’s done this before, after all, knows that it’s a bad idea and will not go well in the long run. However, bleeding out in the middle of a forest is also not a good idea, and will also not go well in the long run. The difference is that bleeding out in the middle of a forest will go exceptionally poorly in the short run, so it’s a lesser-of-two evils sort of thing. He’s well-versed in Faustian bargains, made both unwittingly and otherwise. It’s fine.

    (In which Caleb gets separated from the rest of the group, and then injured, and then some rather ill-advised DIY field medicine involving fire. The rest of the Mighty Nein are left to pick up the pieces when they find him.)

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    Five times Molly tries to set up Fjord and Caleb with each other and one time Molly gets set up with them.

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    There is the question, now—do they track the thieves down on their own, or wait to meet up with the others?
    “We should at least wait and ask Jester tonight.”
    Beau makes a face. “Or,” she says, “we could also not do that.”
    “But—”
    “Sitting round waiting for a message isn’t gonna get us anywhere.”
    “No, but—”
    “And doing a little preliminary research isn’t gonna hurt. So like. We might as well.”
    “...Ja, okay.”

    (or: caleb and beau on a solo mission. a simple job, a couple complications, a bit of good-natured bickering, and a whole lot of awkward caring.)

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    “Never have I ever had sex,” says Jester, an easy opener, a low blow – and Caleb, along with the rest of them bar Caduceus, drinks.

    (The Mighty Nein decide to play a drinking game, and Caleb recalls some of Bren's experiences with sex.)

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    “Shadowhand, since you must’ve completed your research you are required back in Her Majesty’s court this afternoon. Send a message upon your arrival in Rosohna.”
    No words lost or spared. Clear and concise. No wiggle room, not that the Bright Queen ever tended to leave any.

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    For Essek Thelyss Lucien and the Somnovum are just the beginning of the fight for his life. Now it's the Mighty Nein vs the might of the Kryn Dynasty to stop Essek being executed for a crime he definitely did commit. Meanwhile Mollymauk grapples with the weight of remembering, Verin has to choose between his love for his people and his love for his brother, and the wizards are bad at expressing their feelings. But you knew that last part already.

    (Canon divergent after 140. Can be read independently or in its series)

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    “Now please repeat what you just said. I think I’ve finally had an aneurysm and misheard you.”

    “I don’t think that’s what an aneurysm does,” says Nott, tilting her head. Caleb glowers, and her eyes crinkle at the edges as she rushes to add, “I’m your teaching assistant this year!”

    “I… am not a teacher.”

    In which the majority of the cast works at an elementary school. The life of perpetually tired librarian Caleb, who—among other problems—has been dealing with his developing feelings for a co-worker for the past year, gains yet another complication when his semi-estranged adoptive sister Nott becomes his colleague, and that's only the beginning. Featuring bonding moments, solidarity, found families, hopeless pining, multilingual flirting, and copious alcohol consumption.

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    "I could fall in love with you."
     

    Gods above, fall in love? Where did this come from?

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    An exploration of Caleb and Essek's relationship, throughout and after the campaign, and how they came to love each other.

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    Haunted by a tragedy that made him realize that life is short, Caleb has retired from the secret world of monster hunting to seek a new life in a new city. He soon meets a tiefling who threatens to pull him back into a life of mysticism and danger.

    Now, Caleb must navigate his fragile mental health, the stress of running a business far from his found-family, and feelings that he hasn't experienced in nearly a decade.

    Can Caleb keep his head above water, or will he find himself drowning?

    (Now a complete work.)

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      Haunted by a tragedy that made him realize that life is short, Caleb has retired from the secret world of monster hunting to seek a new life in a new city. He soon meets a tiefling who threatens to pull him back into a life of mysticism and danger.

      Now, Caleb must navigate his fragile mental health, the stress of running a business far from his found-family, and feelings that he hasn't experienced in nearly a decade.

      Can Caleb keep his head above water, or will he find himself drowning?

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    Before The Mighty Nein, there was The Blumenthal Drei.

    Caleb had hoped the two would never collide, but the world was never that kind. Not to Him, not to Eodwulf, not to Astrid, and especially not to the Mighty Nein.
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    ..."Trent,” Eodwulf growled through his teeth “Let’s fucking kill him. Make-- Make him regret ever being fucking born, for… for everything he did to us. Everything. Pay him back for everything he took from us.”...

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    No members of the Cerberus Assembly spoke negatively about Trent Ikithon’s experiments, at least not openly. The mage was brilliant, no one could question that, and sometimes brilliant minds ran in strange channels. Everyone had their hobbies, their little quirks. Maybe they gave an inward sigh when Trent picked more students from the school’s roster for “special training,” knowing that they would probably never be seen again, but it could not be helped. If it meant that someday the Empire could conquer the men and beasts of Xhorhas, could expand their borders, well, then it was worth the lives of a few children. Many such sacrifices were made for the Empire.

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    Then Jester’s voice saying behind him, shakily and weak, “Molly?”

    “Jester?”

    Caleb can’t breathe.

    He knows that voice.

    He knows that voice.
     
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    When the Mighty Nein go undercover to a Ball in Whitestone they expect to learn more about Lord and Lady de Rolo -- including their ties, or lack of, to Trent Ickithon.

    They don't expect to see Vilya or Mollymauk there.

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