16 Works in Van Palmer Character Study

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    Vanessa Palmer felt like she had been drowning her whole life—figuratively and, at times, quite literally.

    A character study in grief, loyalty, and the slow, imperfect art of learning to breathe again.

     

    [Van Palmer was born gasping for air, and she’s been trying to catch her breath ever since. Between Shauna’s secrets, Taissa’s choices, and Jackie’s ghost, Van must learn how to breathe again—piece by piece.]

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    4,203
    Chapters:
    1/2
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    11
    Kudos:
    46
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    524
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    Van is an oblivious lesbian, but she is just trying to survive.
    It's not easy being gay, let alone clockably gay, in a small New Jersey town. However, she manages, and one way is to ignore, deny, or repress any romantic or sexual feelings. This shouldn't be hard, as Van does not think she is remotely attractive. But as things complicate between her and her best friend and teammate Taissa, she is faced with deeper emotional issues regarding how she feels about herself, her gender, how she feels and receives love, and so much more.
    Meant to be a deep dive into Van's psychology regarding how she was raised and how it might have played into her relationship with Tai as well as how Tai might've failed to account for how much things would change when their friendship became more than.

    Language:
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    12,663
    Chapters:
    2/?
    Comments:
    19
    Kudos:
    59
    Bookmarks:
    6
    Hits:
    584
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    Tai has a little gay panic. Van is feeling really anxious. Movie night happens and Tai wants to help Van, but without saying a word. Clear communication is never an option for them.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    2
    Kudos:
    20
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    2
    Hits:
    324
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    Taivan Week 2025: Parenthood

    It feels like an especially cruel trick of fate; a kid with light brown eyes and skin, dark curls, and a sarcastic little smile.

    “We should get going,” Van says.
    Meg pulls back. “What’s this place called again?”
    “It’s called Wiskayok, New Jersey,” Van says. “I grew up there.”

    (Van accidentally adopts a teenager, Taissa is divorced and depressed. Taivan as parents in 2019).

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    English
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    8,687
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    11
    Kudos:
    78
    Bookmarks:
    10
    Hits:
    450
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    Van Palmer left the wilderness with the horrible emotional and mental scars of what her and her teammates did for survival. Unlike her teammates, Van also has physical scars to contend with.

    A look at the Van Palmer reborn out in the wilderness, and for the past 25 years.

    Language:
    English
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    60,404
    Chapters:
    13/?
    Comments:
    80
    Kudos:
    104
    Bookmarks:
    18
    Hits:
    3,027
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    Tonight, all Taissa needs is to be praised.

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    9,870
    Chapters:
    2/2
    Comments:
    3
    Kudos:
    50
    Bookmarks:
    11
    Hits:
    1,497
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    If you’ve ever wondered what Van and Sammy’s dynamic would be like—let’s imagine it together.

    Simone leaves Sammy with Taissa, and unexpected reasons, Taissa leaves him with Van. Cue the cuteness. And the sniffles.

    Or

    a hurt/comfort fic where Van ends up taking care of Sammy for the day and handles it all in the only way she knows how.

    Language:
    English
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    22,662
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    16
    Kudos:
    65
    Bookmarks:
    11
    Hits:
    935
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    Taissa, at her core, is a protector. And taking care of Van is simply part of who she is.

    or

    A sickfic where Van has a rough day with a food poisoning, and Tai is there to take care of her.

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    English
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    9,399
    Chapters:
    2/2
    Comments:
    9
    Kudos:
    84
    Bookmarks:
    11
    Hits:
    1,393
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    |“Van thought with herself, her entire fucking life wouldn’t get past twenty dollars”

    •~🃜•~🃚•~🃖•~🃁•~🃖•~🃜•~🃚•~🃖•~🃁•~🃖~•

    Based on a picture from the pilot line up… When Van needs new shoes to fulfill Jackie’s organizational ideals but life was always harder on her than it was on the others.

    Language:
    English
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    2,033
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    39
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    395
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    Van can take a lot of shit at this point—pain, blood, hunger she can deal with. But she can’t take Tai refusing to leave with her. Not when it’s because of something so fucking stupid.

    Language:
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    1,494
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    7
    Kudos:
    51
    Bookmarks:
    7
    Hits:
    701
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    "Do you feel bad?"

    They're far from the others, but Van still whispers. Intimate.

    Tai scrunches her face up, "Of course, I feel bad." Tai whispers back. Something in her tone that they both hear, but neither want to say. Doubt. Not the whole truth but some of the truth. A part of her feels bad.

    This takes a lot of trust. There's a lot of trust building between the two of them anyways. Tai knows that if they confess this secret, then something has to change between the both of them. An alliance that not only comes with love but fear of being apart. The acknowledgement that if they both are hungry, then what does that mean for them?

    A love that has no bound of skin, goes deeper than bread. Tai swallows.

    Language:
    English
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    3,050
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1
    Kudos:
    29
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    456
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    Van is five the first time someone calls her white trash and thirteen when she realizes she is different from the other girls in her grade in a major way.

    Van is growing up, trying to navigate the social hierarchy of school, hold on to a fractured friendship with Natalie, and keep Tai close while keeping her far away from the hard parts of her life.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    3,925
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    90
    Bookmarks:
    13
    Hits:
    945
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    van palmer works almost every part-time high school aged job there is around wiskayok, to make some money for college. an aspiring blockbuster employee, van spends her time running into taissa turner at every job she seems to get.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    21,181
    Chapters:
    6/?
    Comments:
    28
    Kudos:
    132
    Bookmarks:
    21
    Hits:
    2,082
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    It’s an uncomfortable pain. Like sticking a finger in a bruise or picking at a scab or getting salt in a wound.

    Van *knows* something is happening to her.

    It’s more a matter of trying to accept it; to deal with it.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,642
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    15
    Kudos:
    73
    Bookmarks:
    11
    Hits:
    787
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    Van isn’t surprised by how quickly and intensely her desire for Taissa returns. It’s immediate and unstoppable.

    This is why they spent so many years completely disconnected.

    This thing between them, it’s undeniable.

    Like a moth to a flame, Van can’t stay away. 

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    7,138
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    19
    Kudos:
    217
    Bookmarks:
    31
    Hits:
    3,520
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    Van had never had great temperature regulation, especially asleep, and waking up slick and sticky with sweat felt too familiar to being covered in their own blood.

    Taissa didn’t notice how they’d begun sleeping with only one blanket, or they didn’t think she did.

    But they must have been wrong, because tonight Van wakes up burning hot, screaming and swearing that they’re dripping in their own blood. That they’re burning on a pyre of their own bones.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    604
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1
    Kudos:
    82
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    905

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