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“What voices, Scar?” Martyn asks again, a bit closer now, snapping him back to attention.
“You— You know the Secret Keeper voices? When you succeed your task?” Scar asks, the words practically bursting out of him, propelled by the pressure of being kept at bay for so long.
Martyn’s eyes narrow just slightly, his gaze flickering to the Secret Keeper and then back. “Yeah, I’ve heard ‘em. We all have, far as I can tell.”
Scar nods and swallows, pasting on a shaky grin. “I hear them all the time.”
OR, The Watchers take a special interest in Scar.
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- Part 1 of Ad Astra
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31 Dec 2023
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things my heart used to know (things it yearns to remember) by Moonsetvoid
Fandoms: 3rd Life | Last Life SMP Series, Hermitcraft SMP
30 Dec 2023
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Scar can’t answer, too busy trying to control his breathing. It was Grian who had helped him build their home in the desert. It was Grian who had chosen to stay by his side, even after he didn’t have to anymore. It was Grian who had sat on the mountain with him, pointing out the stars and naming them.
It was Grian who had looked at him when they were the only two left, and had said there had to be a winner. It was Grian who had led him back to their mountain, hand in hand, and beat him to death in the shifting sands.
Grian remembered none of it.
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The prize of the victor is to forget what they had to do to win. This causes problems for Scar, who has developed a fear of Grian and can’t tell him why.Bookmarked by hesitantlyclay
31 Dec 2023
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Grian meant to set up a prank in Doc's bedroom. It really wasn't his fault that he ended up in the closet watching Doc and Bdubs engage in their kink - or that he ends up playing a puppy himself.
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- Part 14 of -spicy- hermitcraft stuff
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29 Dec 2023
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Scar’s hand slides down his arm to take hold of Grian’s, lacing their fingers together. “Let me preen your wings,” he pleads softly.
Grian frowns at Scar, “Scar, I told you I’m fine.”
“G, I can see how uncomfortable you are,” he points out, “you’re wincing every time your wings move, and it looks like it hurts.” He watches Grian’s expression, seeing how the man cringes slightly at being called out. Scar squeezes his hand lightly, feeling how warm their palms are against each other. Grian’s palms are calloused, skin thick from building and wielding tools for hours on end. Scar slides his thumb along the back of his hand in gentle strokes, adding to the warmth between their skin. “Let me? Please? At least to make up for knocking you off balance before.”
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28 Dec 2023
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[StressMonster] im up im up im up
[StressMonster] whats it
[Iskall85] Sorry again
[Iskall85] Etho’s place. Theyre a bloodhunter
[StressMonster] Etho is?
[StressMonster] I’m coming—
Etho temporarily becomes a vampire.
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- Part 14 of unstoppable force versus immoveable object
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26 Dec 2023
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Etho embarks on the hardest task in his life --- dare he suggest harder than all his Secret Life tasks.
Talking to Bdubs.
Now, on paper, that doesn't sound all that terrible. And it's not! The issue is Etho feels he needs to have a conversation about his regression with him. After all, Bdubs should have been the first person Etho ran to, as they're best friends. Instead he chose to hide away from Bdubs, picking Cleo instead. Etho never talked about it, never ever regressed, and then suddenly, being small was what he was known for. During all that, Bdubs was left in the dark.
Now that they're back on Hermitcraft, it's seems only right to talk about it. The necessity of a conversation as such doesn't make it any less anxiety inducing.Series
- Part 16 of Lil Block Guys Running Around Servers
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26 Dec 2023
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lost in the dark (he's got a heavy heart) by definitelynotaroughdraft (definitelynotshouting)
Fandoms: Hermitcraft SMP, 3rd Life | Last Life SMP Series
26 Dec 2024
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"Grian, what are these?"
Weakness, he tries to rasp; it comes out garbled, so he sucks in a long, slow breath and tries again, lungs trembling with the effort. "Weak– weakness."
Scar drops the bottle like it's burned him. "You took three weakness potions?" he chokes out, and that seems to break whatever trance Xisuma, Pearl, and Tango have been in this entire time. They rush forward, eating the distance between them in rapid strides, until they're all crouched around Grian.
Grian shuts his eyes again, before remembering he isn't supposed to do that. He wants to say sorry. What he says instead, is: "It was– safer. Like this. For you."
It amounts to about the same thing.
Or, I finally buckle down and post the rough draft of hunger au, where I give Grian every mental illness known to man and also a few new ones. Please heed the tags.
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- Part 2 of all that i can do
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24 Dec 2023
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some post-mortem truth by definitelynotaroughdraft (definitelynotshouting)
Fandoms: Hermitcraft SMP, 3rd Life | Last Life SMP Series
16 Dec 2023
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Two hours later, the whistle of rocket-propelled elytra warn him of incoming company. Grian doesn't bother fleeing; he knows Scar, and Scar knows him, and with this last, missing puzzle piece finally slotting into place between them, he's under no illusions that staying hidden for long is feasible. Grian's eyes skitter to a crack on the far wall as clumsy footsteps scatter the snow outside, scrabbling for balance before the muted click of a cane joins them. Footsteps; another, louder click— the door's latch gives way, and a brief, blinding wave of light crashes over Grian's face, obscuring everything but the outline of a painfully familiar silhouette.
Grian has to look away. The door shuts, and for a small moment, neither of them so much as breathe.
Then Scar's sighs— one great, resigned gust. "Grian...."
He says nothing else. He doesn't have to.
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Bookmarked by hesitantlyclay
23 Dec 2023
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Late nights are times of building, of tinkering, of resource gathering. Late nights are when your mind can't slow down, when your thoughts go and go and go and you can't make them stop long enough to go sleep.
They're the nights when you're alone, full of regret. Full of fear, thinking of a moon looming too large in the sky, tearing your home apart.
They're the nights when you're alone, trapped in your mind. Full of terror, running from something that isn't there, that can't hurt you anymore.
Late nights are the nights your sibling comes to the rescue, saving you from yourself.
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- Part 2 of Maple Leaf Siblings
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23 Dec 2023
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I Could Scream (But You Won't Hear Me) by TheKrillish
Fandoms: 3rd Life | Last Life SMP Series, Hermitcraft SMP, Evolution SMP
19 Dec 2023
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Normally, after a Life Series, the members of said Life Series would get together on Hermitcraft and celebrate the season.
When Grian arrived on Hermitcraft, the Watchers had taken his voice.
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20 Dec 2023
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Etho knows he isn't supposed to remember the dead games. He also knows that it's newest player might be in the same situation he is in and they need a talk.
AU in which only the winners of the Life Series remember the series, but Etho and Gem and special little butterfly's who also do because of reasons.
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- Part 20 of Random MCYT Oneshots
- Part 2 of Gem and Etho
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20 Dec 2023
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red comets by flowerboy (fl0werboyy)
Fandoms: 3rd Life | Last Life SMP Series, Hermitcraft SMP, Empires SMP
16 Dec 2023
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He landed his gaze to Etho — precisely Etho’s limbs, because he did not feel like looking into Etho’s eyes right now, not when they stared down at him so inquisitively — he felt bare, even though he was not the one being interrogated. Etho was.
“Etho — I don’t know how to ask — or bring this up. But — I don’t mean to be snooping around or — but I’ve never heard you talk about playing rugby before.”
There was a lingering frown on Etho’s face, one that was evidently even more perplexed than before. “I don’t play rugby.”
“ — Oh,” Joel said after a long, awkward silence. Joel blinked — he willed himself not to think about that before, but now that rugby was out of the question, he knew there was a great chance it would be —
tldr; Etho hurts himself, Joel tries to help.
TW!!! — self-harm, blood & wounds & scars, mentions of suicide, panic attacks, mentions of intrusive thoughts of violence and past trauma, sharp objects, mentions of emotional abuse and DV, mentions of substance abuse, mentions of medication
A side story to the College AU series linked below! Takes place after Ch2 :)
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- Part 2 of like comets, we intertwine
- Part 2 of boat boys shenanigans
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18 Dec 2023
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Etho is having a bad day and wants to be left alone, but Keralis decides that won't do.
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- Part 14 of Tip from a Cow, Advice from Some Mice
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17 Dec 2023
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the aftermath of winning by lgcllyanx
Fandoms: 3rd Life | Last Life SMP Series, Hermitcraft SMP
15 Dec 2023
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Scar was back on Hermitcraft, but a part of his soul was still in the Life Series.
He had won, and now he remembered.
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17 Dec 2023
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Hug All Ur Friends by mar_im_o
Fandoms: 3rd Life | Last Life SMP Series, Hermitcraft SMP
11 Dec 2023
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There’s a certain feeling to it, Etho knows from experience.
A feeling where it clings to him, soft and thick and smothering. It sticks to every part of him, every part of his mind, his heart, dragging him downwards with heavy, inescapable hands.
He feels it when he least wants it because of course it does. Because it’s like that, petty thing that it is, always showing up when he least expects it, when he least needs it.
And it shows up now, wrapped around his brain in a way he might misinterpret as sleep. He could give into it, if he wanted. But he’s hesitant to. Not here. Not now.
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Or, Etho needs to regress during Secret Life, Cleo and Bdubs help him outBookmarked by hesitantlyclay
11 Dec 2023
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A snowstorm in Ontario, Canada isn't the best time or place for car trouble. That is, unless you get really lucky and someone comes by who can help you out.
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In which someone starts out both alone and cold, and ends up as neither.
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05 Dec 2023
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Lead Me Not by AgentStannerShipper for Maone
Fandoms: Good Omens - Neil Gaiman & Terry Pratchett
28 Mar 2019
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Heaven sends a rutting Gabriel to try to convince Aziraphale to come back to Heaven. Thanks to his biology, Aziraphale is tempted. Crowley isn't about to let his angel go without a fight.
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27 Nov 2023
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Thanks to the efforts of Etho, Tango, and the other redstoners, Decked Out 2 obtains a robotic, Hermit-sized body to play with. It doesn't plan to make this its permanent form, it quite likes being a murder dungeon, but while it does have this body... it intends to have some fun with it.
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27 Nov 2023
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“I just spilled my biggest secret, and you’re both acting like I told you we’re having soup for lunch tomorrow.”
“Can we have soup for lunch tomorrow?”
“Not the time, Impy,” Zed gently scolded. He detangled himself from Tango’s arm and pivoted to face him, before reaching out and brushing a few strands of hair from his forehead. Tango resisted the urge to flinch. “Was your hybrid status something you were trying to hide from us, Tango?”
“Yeah? Was that not…” Tango was pretty sure his brain had short-circuited– it had to be that or he was dreaming. “Did you not think I was human?”
Impulse sat up with a yawn and a stretch. “You have glowing red eyes, bud.”
in which tango is afraid to tell his friends he's a blaze hybrid, and it turns out they already know.
it also turns out tango has a lot to learn about hybrids and humans.- Language:
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26 Nov 2023
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Tango has received a barrage of compliments in the last months of Decked Out being complete. He joked that he deserved more than just compliments. Maybe a hug? Or... more?
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24 Nov 2023