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will you love me in december as you do in may

Summary:

In which actor and model Yunho goes to Disney on his day off and stumbles into the cutest boy he thinks he's ever seen.

Will he be able to figure out who this beautiful stranger is before it's too late?

Notes:

Hi!! Is this me posting another story even though I haven't updated the other one for ages? Yes, yes it is. So... this has actually been in my drafts for a while but I've been too scared to post it haha. If this somehow seems familiar, this had originally been posted as a socmed au on Twitter but I didn't like how it was turning out there, so boom here we are. The tags make this seem really angsty but I promise it's not that bad? I don't think? It definitely was not going to be this depressing but I'm the one writing this so, to be expected honestly. This really is lowkey a vent fic in a way so...oops? Anyways, enjoy the chaotic mess this has become!

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

Chapter 1: Sleep? Never heard of them

Chapter Text

The bois + dad

 

sangie

someone bring me caffeine plz

 

jjongie

Its 2 am wtf

 

joong 

language 

 

jjongie

sorry dad 🙃

 

sangie

caffeine plz

 

joong

why do you even need that rn

 

sangie

editing

duh

 

joong

still?

 

wooie 

says the one who’s still at the studio 🤨

 

joong 

 

sangie

N E WAYS

woo plz bring me something 🥺

 

wooie

don’t give me those eyes

no

 

sangie

🥺

 

wooie

FINE OK STOP IT

 

sangie

thank you 🥰

 

jjongie

weak

 

sangie

jongho hates me 😔😔

 

jjongie

WAIT NO NO IM SORRY

 

sangie 

🥰

 

joong

you were saying?

 

wooie

yeo i’ll be there in 10 btw

 

sangie




 

~~~~~




 

wooie

be a good friend, they said

it’ll be worth it, they said

and THIS is what i get for being nice 😠

 

sangie

in my defense

jonggie planned it and i was bored 🤷♂️

 

joong

what did yeosang do this time?

 

sangie

damn taking sides already

i see

 

wooie

he scared me and i almost dropped the coffee 😠

 

sangie

key word: almost

 

wooie

I CAN STILL TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU

YOU BITCH

 

joong

LANGUAGE

 

sangie

TRY ME WOO I DARE YOU

 

joong

you have five seconds or you’re grounded

 

sangie

no no i’m sorry dad please

 

wooie

HAHA

 

joong

wooyoung.

 

wooie

wait i’m sorry please no 🥺

 

joong

thank you.

now please shut up, the baby is sleeping

 

jjongie

who says i’m sleeping?

 

joong

me.

go. to. sleep. 

 

jjongie

okay sorry i’m sleeping

 

sangie

angry dad is scary

 

joong

go to sleep 

 

sangie 

but :(

i’m editing :(

 

joong

you have an hour

then sleep

 

sangie

but 🥺

 

joong

no.

 

sangie

okay 😔




 

~~~~~




 

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

yunnie

is anyone free today? 🥺

i got the day off!! 🥰🥰

 

minnie

what do you have in mind? 🤩

 

seongie  

i’m off too but sannie’s working

 

yunnie

can we go to disney? 🥺👉👈

we haven’t gone in a while 🥺🥺

 

minnie

YES????????

PLEASE??????????

CAN WE PLEASE?????????

 

seongie

sure i don’t see why not

 

yunnie

yay!! 

what if i tweet about it and i see some fans! 🥰🥰

 

seongie

N O

NO TWEETING

 

yunnie

why? 🥺

 

seongie

that’s dangerous bub

you know that

 

yunnie

okay 😔

 

minnie

hwa’s right yun

things got crazy last time, remember?

 

yunnie

yeah i know 😔

 

seongie

what if i get you some ice cream? will that make you feel better, bub?

 

yunnie

yes please 🥺

 

seongie

okay then everyone ready in 30?

 

minnie

yes sir!

 

yunnie

okay! ☺️☺️




 

~~~~~





 

the bois + dad

 

sangie

anyone down to go out rn?

 

jjongie

if there’s food

yes

 

sangie

i mean

we can do that too

 

jjongie

then yes.

 

wooie

i’m down too

 

sangie

okay then hyung has to come 

no exceptions

 

joong

i’m at the studio???? working???

 

sangie

not anymore you’re not

 

joong

where are we going? 😪

 

sangie

disney?

they opened up that one new ride i think

 

wooie

OMG

CAN WE GO??

DAD PLEASE CAN WE GO?!?!?!🥺🥺🥺

 

joong

i’m not paying for your tickets

so sure

 

wooie 

w o w

 

sangie

so is this a yes from everyone..?

 

jjongie

fuck it

i’m down

 

joong

language

and sure

 

wooie

YESSSSSS

 

joong

who’s driving?

 

sangie

you

 

joong

😑

why do i even bother asking

 

sangie

i wonder that all the time

yet you keep doing it

 

wooie

oooooo

 

joong

…….

i’ll go to yeo’s in 20

whoever isn’t there is getting left behind

 

wooie

WAIT

NOOO

I NEED TO GET READY

 

joong

welp

you have 20 minutes 🤷♂️

 

sangie

woo you left some stuff at my place

just come over

 

wooie

….

you just want me to do your makeup don’t you? 🤨

 

sangie

you know me so well 

 

jjongie

ummm

hyung can you pick me up on your way? 

i can’t find my bus pass 😔😔

 

joong

of course sweetie

 

jjongie

thank you 🥺

 

wooie

this is favoritism 

 

joong

i will not hesitate to leave you

 

wooie

sorry :')

 

sangie 

okay welllllll

i’ll see you guys here 😝😝

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

Chapter 2: Disney Time!

Summary:

A trip to Disney, what could possibly go wrong? A lot apparently.

Notes:

me: i won't update for at least another day
also me: *updates cause impatient*

anywayssss, I'm just going to add this to be save but
TW// Referenced/beginning of a panic attack

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

the bois + dad

 

joong

it’s been 5 MINUTES

HOW THE F U C K DID I ALREADY LOSE ONE OF YOU

 

wooie

uhhh idk

i was with him and then when i turned around he just wasn’t there

 

joong

yeosang where tf are you

 

jjongie

joongie hyung calm down

you look like you lost your newborn or something

 

joong

BECAUSE I PRACTICALLY DID

 

wooie

wait at the fountain

i’ll try looking

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

soulmates 🤩😝

 

wooie

yeo?

where’d you go?

 

sangie

had to go to the bathroom 

sorry

 

wooie

why didn’t you say anything then?

we've been trying to call you

 

sangie

idk?

 

wooie

sangie…

 

sangie

i’ll be there in a minute

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

the bois + dad

 

sangie

sorry

went to the bathroom 

didn’t mean to scare you guys

 

joong

it’s fine

just say something next time 

 

sangie

okay

i’m on my way

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

My Love 💕

 

seongie

hey love 💕

i’m sorry you couldn’t come but i’m bringing you back something, okay?

 

sannie

it’s okay hwa! 🥰

thank you 🥺

 

seongie

anything for you sweetheart ❤️

 

sannie

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

yunnie

GUYS

 

seongie

why are you blushing so much???

are you sick???

 

yunnie

WAIT

DON’T MOVEE SKSNSJSJS

 

minnie

aww is the pup shy?

 

yunnie

MINGIFBSJSBS

 

seongie

????

what’s happening?

 

yunnie

CASUALLY LOOK BEHIND YOU

HYUNG WTF

I SAID C A S U A L L Y

 

sannie

aww does our pup have a crush? 🤭🤭

someone send a pic!

 

seongie

yunnie

HYUNGG WHYYYDHSBSJ

 

seongie

you weren’t gonna do it

 

yunnie

but w h y did you take a picture?????

that’s weirdddddd >_<

 

sannie 

oh wow he’s cute

go get him pup!!! 

 

yunnie

i can't 😫😫

he’s gone 😔

 

minnie 

maybe you’ll see him around later?

 

yunnie

maybe 😔

can we go get food now please

im hungryyyy 

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

dad™️

 

sangie 

dad can you buy me a smoothie 🥺

 

joong

why does it have to be me?????

 

sangie 

ummm

because you love me? 🥺

 

joong

….

fine

 

sangie

thank you 🥺

 

joong 

yeah yeah 

i’m not waiting in line tho

so

have fun

 

sangie

that’s ok!!!!

thank you!!!!!!

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

the bois + dad

 

wooie

so someone is upset they didn’t get a mickey cookie 

 

sangie

it looked so cute 😔😔

but that kid had to get to it first 😠

 

jjongie

ohhhh that’s why he put the bag over his head outside...

i thought he was having an existential crisis or something

 

sangie

I  

W A S

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

sannie

soooooo

did our pup meet his mystery boy again?

 

yunnie

no (_ _)

 

sannie

awww

it’s ok bub!

maybe next time 🥺

 

seongie 

sannie i love you, i really do, but i JUST got him to stop pouting

did you have to remind him 🤦‍♀️

 

sannie

sorry…? 😅

 

seongie

it’s okay 😪

anyways,

we’re heading back so i’ll see you in a bit love 💕

 

sannie

okay! 🥰🥰

 

minnie

do y’all really need to be all lovey dovey here? this is why private chats are a thing yknow 🤢🤢

we already see it at home enough as it is 😭

 

seongie

does this mean you’re taking the bus home?

 

minnie

NO WAIT

IM SORRY

STOP WALKING SO FAST

HYUNG PLEASE

 

seongie

that’s what i thought

 

 

~~~~~




🆘❌ protective bois  ❌🆘 

 

joong

tell me why i thought letting you guys drink would be a good idea

 

jjongie

hehehesh

you kove us hyung!

 

wooie

shhhh hdhng you kibr ussss

jonngueee is rightrdd 

 

joong

….

okay

well

i’m giving y’all 20 minutes to nap bc i need one of you to help me carry yeosang up to his apartment 

 

wooie

yes sir!

 

jjongie

yesssnbn!!

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

joong

did he wake up?

 

wooie

nope

 

jjongie

pretty sure he’s gonna be out for the rest of the night 

didnt he go to sleep late last night?

 

joong

yeah

you left him water and everything right?

 

wooie

yes dad

 

joong

okay good

so

you wanna tell me what happened then? 

 

jjongie

what happened…????

wdym??

 

joong

yeo was off ever since we got there 

i know woo talked with him

so

what. happened. 

 

wooie

woah woah woah

don’t go all dad mode on me right now!!

i can’t handle that in this state!!! 😫😫😫 

but it tired to talk to him

tried*

that’s all that happened 

he said he was fine

i didn’t wanna push okay

please stop interrogating me my brain can’t do this rn 😫😫

 

jjongie

i

okay wait

uh 

you don’t think he was..?

 

joong

no

he promised

i would’ve noticed anyways 

and he probably wouldn’t have hidden it. he knows we know and he doesn’t hide that from us. same goes with wooyoung

it can’t be that

 

wooie

should we talk to him in the morning?

 

joong

let’s see how he is first

nothing good will come out of it if we talk to him mid-hangover

again same goes to you

 

wooie

okay listen

i’m not THAT drunk 😖

 

jjongie

so you didn’t almost fall when we got off the car?

or just say that your “brain can’t do this rn”??

 

wooie

YOURE SUPPOSED TO BE ON MY SIDE

 

jjongie

when am i EVER on your side?

 

wooie

you’re hanging out with yeosang too much 😭😭😭

i miss my baby 😭😭

 

joong

both of you, 

just go to bed

🙄

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

soulmates 🤩😝

 

wooie

why are you awake???

it said you were active on snap

 

sangie

idj i woje ip rn

 

wooie

huh?

are you drunk??

 

sangie

no

 

wooie

yeo

why the fuck are you drinking?

what happened?

 

sangie

idk

wamtes to grt rid if hangiver 

 

woo

sang that’s why you drink some water and go back to sleep

yeo seriously wtf

 

sangie

m sorey 

 

wooie

hold on

nono

listen i’m not mad

just talk to me, yeah?

please

what’s going on?

 

sangie 

i an taljing 

 

wooie

you know what i mean

please just 

talk to me come on 

things will go a lot easier if we communicate, remember?

 

sangie

i’m fjne

 

wooie

sangie please i’m just trying to make this easy for you 

please

i don’t want joong to go all dad mode on you 

either please talk to me rn or i’ll literally run up to your floor myself

please sangie

 

sangie

no

nono i 

no 

no o

i’m soirey 

 

wooie

hey hey hey

calm down 

just breathe for me

 

sangie

in sorey

 

wooie

please it’s okay

he’s just worried about you

i’m worried about you

we all are

just let us help please

what’s going on?

 

wooie

yeo?

 

wooie

hello??

 

wooie

if you don’t text back i’m going up there

 

wooie

yeosang come on

 

wooie

fuck



Notes:

I love how them going to Disney was like, 1% of anything going on. anywayyyysss, I'll probably update again since this was actually supposed to go up yesterday but I fell asleep haha.

Chapter 3: You are so Brave and Quiet I Forget You are Suffering

Notes:

:)

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Two minutes passed.

 

He kept looking at the messages, but according to his phone, Yeosang still hadn’t seen them yet. Wooyoung really didn’t want to think about the worst-case scenario but at this point? What if something happened? He couldn’t just sit here and let more time pass.

 

Wooyoung rushed out of his room, not even attempting to put his shoes on properly. He ran as fast as he could, trying not to think about what he’ll see or what could happen once he gets there. 



The younger was there in less than five minutes, the halls around him being way too quiet for his liking. Should he knock? Would Yeosang even hear it? Probably not. Wooyoung crouched down and lifted over the doormat slightly, for once appreciating Hongjoong’s dad mentality which forced all of them to keep a spare key at their entrances. He picked up the key, trying to prepare himself for anything, and slowly opened the door. 

 

“Yeosang..?” 

 

No response. None of the lights were on, making the apartment match the feeling in the poor boy’s chest. Was Yeosang even here?

 

Wooyoung walked inside, closing the door behind him. He turned on the flashlight on his phone, trying to look for the older or any clues as to where he would be. The first thing he noticed was the slight mess in the kitchen; a couple of boxes were on the floor, along with a bottle, but no Yeosang. He was probably looking for painkillers first. The boy turned around, now headed for the other’s bedroom, and was met with an open door. 

 

Small, muffled hiccups could be heard from inside. With his heart beating impossibly faster, Wooyoung quickly went inside and froze for a second. He cursed under his breath as he forced himself to push away his panic, rushing to the poor boy on the floor as soon as his brain caught up with the situation. 

 

And there was Yeosang, the boy practically suffocating himself in attempts to keep his cries quiet. The younger tried to gently remove the pillow the other was holding from his grasp, “Shh...it’s just me...it’s okay…” He whispered. 

 

The only response given was just another sob. Wooyoung gently coaxed the boy to let him untangle the ball of limbs that he was, bringing the other close to him when he finally opened up enough. He hugged Yeosang tightly, rubbing his back, “Shh...it’s gonna be okay...it’s gonna be okay…” He spoke softly, hoping to offer the other as much comfort as he could. 

“It’ll be okay…”



 

 

~~~~~



 

 

🆘❌ protective bois  ❌🆘 

 

jjongie

uhh

joong hyung

has woo hyung texted you?

at any point before now?

 

joong

no?

why?

 

jjongie

uhh

he’s not here?

i woke up a bit ago and he’s just 

not here

 

joong

@wooie where are you?

 

wooie

oh

hey jjong sorry

and i’d rather not say where hyung

at least not rn

sorry

 

joong

wooyoung.

 

wooie

i can’t

i’m sorry

i’ll explain later

i can’t rn i have to go 

 

joong

are you with yeosang?

just tell me that and it’s okay 

 

wooie

yeah

 

joong

okay

take your time then

jjongie i can come over if you want me to

 

wooie

thank you

i’ll text you guys in a bit 

[♡+2]

 

jjongie

no it’s ok hyung

it’s saturday 

i know you don’t go to the studio today

rest up!!

 

joong

are you sure? i don’t mind

 

jjongie

yeah!

go nap or something 😇

 

joong

i probably won’t but okay 

let me know if you change your mind

 

jjongie

😁



 

~~~~~



 

Notes:

ummmm funny enough, this is not as angsty as this is going to get so...stay stunned? ♡\( ̄▽ ̄)/♡

Chapter 4: you can not save people, you can only love them

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕



minnie

mooooooommmmm

yunho is being pouty again and i don’t like it 😫

helpppppp

pleaseeeeeeee

 

yunnie

am not! >~<

 

sannie

yun

even your text sounds pouty

 

yunnie

😔

 

seongie

what’s wrong bub?

 

yunnie

nothingggggg 😁

 

seongie

Yunho.

 

minnie

oh no

hyung no 

 

yunnie

don’t be mad 🥺🥺

please i’m babie 🥺

 

sannie

hwa how could you do that to our pup🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

 

seongie

yunnie, baby, please tell hyung what’s wrong so he can fix it, please 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

 

yunnie

but nothing happened!!! \(T^T)/

 

seongie

oh my wait-

wait

are you still pouting over not seeing the guy from disney again????

 

yunnie

🥺🥺🥺

 

minnie

i-

hyung how did you

 

sannie

it’s his mom instincts 

 

yunnie

he was just

really cute

😭

 

seongie

🤦‍♂️

 

sannie

awww baby 🥺🥺

 

minnie

waitttt

hwa hyung didn’t you take a pic of the dude? 👀

 

yunnie 

 

minnie

thank you yunnie 👁👁

anyways

 

seongie

min why do i feel like i won’t like this idea? 

 

minnie

ummm

so you seeeee

i was thinkingggg

we could just

you know

maybe

 

seongie

say it.

 

sannie

oh!!! 

yun can post the pic!!!

 

minnie

sannnnnn 😫😫😫

i wanted to say it 😠😠😠

 

seongie

no.

 

yunnie 

🥺

but

please hwa? 🥺🥺

 

seongie

 

minnie

omg he pulled out the puppy eyes

that’s like

three times in one day

dun dun dunnnn

 

sannie

hwa come on 🥺

you can’t just hold him back from this 🥺

let him try 🥺🥺🥺

 

yunnie 

please? 🥺

 

minnie

woah a tag team-

👁👁🍿

 

seongie

fuck

🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️

fine.

but if things get out of hand,

i won’t hesitate to beat the shit out of you (yun not included)

 

sannie

😦

 

yunnie

THANK YOU \(//∇//)\

 

minnie

i’ll gladly take the punishment

anything for my bub 😇😇😇

 

yunnie




 

 

~~~~~





dad 2.0 🤩

 

wooie

hey

i finally got sangie to sleep a bit more

he’s doing better though

 

joong

that’s good to hear then

mind explaining what happened though?

 

wooie

um yeah

i was going through snap before i went to bed just to send out my streaks yk

 

joong

of course you were 

 

wooie

just let me finish 😔

don’t bully rn i’m tired

 

joong

sorry

go ahead

 

wooie

so yeah i was on there

and it said yeosang was active

so i got worried since, you know, he passed out. i mean. he hadn’t woken up when we left him there so i was expecting him to be up in the morning 

anyways 

i texted him..and apparently he drank again. i don’t know. i just. i didn’t have a good feeling about it so i kept asking him to just tell me what was wrong. 

i wasn’t trying to pressure him but i 

i just didn’t feel right 

and i know my way of texting him probably didn’t help the situation but i was just so scared 

and he got all panicked 

and i couldn’t calm him down and he just. he stopped replying. and i couldn’t. i couldn’t just leave him there. so i ran up to his apartment and i just found him there crying. 

i got him to calm down eventually

and i guess he was exhausted enough to talk to me. idfk. i’m not really questioning it. i’m just glad he did honestly. 

um

he 

he saw him again

 

joong

what.

 

wooie

at disney

that’s why he ran off

he saw him

 

joong

i

fuck.

 

wooie

yeo said daehyun didn’t see him

but he panicked and left

that’s all he really said though

 

joong

fuck

fuck okay 

 

wooie

i think he’s okay? i mean. he’s better?? from how things ended we know that theoretically, dae wouldn’t try anything. i’m just worried about sangie. i don’t know. 

just

if you come

don’t go all dad mode on him okay?

i’ll be here so both of you can come over later too. but just don’t make him feel like he fucked up. he feels like he did and it took a while to convince him otherwise

 

joong

i wouldn't-

fuck

i wouldn’t blame him for that 

 

wooie

i know you wouldn’t hyung

and i don’t want to pretend like i know what yeosang is thinking. but i think i know him well enough to know that he knows that too. but you know how he is…things never really came out that nicely and i think he just. idk like. held it against himself??

 

joong

woo you know i didn’t mean to react that way

 

wooie

i know

we all do 

i know you’re just trying to look out for us

but sometimes your dad mode is a bit too much hyung

 

joong

i just didn’t want something to happen

and when it did

 

wooie

i know hyung…

just

if you come

come to comfort. not interrogate please

 

joong

okay

okay

i’ll see you both in a bit 

i need to stop by for jjong first then

 

wooie

that’s okay

can you bring some chicken? 

 

joong

i’m agreeing only for yeosang

 

wooie

:(

 

joong

take a nap in the meantime yeah?

 

wooie

yeah i will

love you! 💕

say it back 🥰

 

joong

bye.

 

wooie




 

~~~~~

 

 

 

Notes:

dun dun dunnnnnnn

oh and i wasn't going to update this frequently buttttt i'm trying to avoid doing my english assignment so... expect another chapter after this probably?

Chapter 5: i hope you find someone who hates hurting your heart

Notes:

you guys better prepare some tissues cause this is a long one

TW// referenced suicide attempt (not too detailed), mental/ emotional abuse (?), gaslighting, implied/referenced drug and alcohol abuse

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

the bois + dad

 

sangie

i smell food

where

 

wooie

good morning to you too

 

sangie

food 

please 

 

joong

in the living room

jjongie brought ramen

i brought chicken

 

sangie

okay

one

sec

 

sangie 

OH YOU WERENT KIDDING

 

wooie

WHY DID YOU RUN BACK TO YOUR ROOM

 

jjongie

omg the bed hair was so poofy

hyunggg come back outttt

 

joong

what even 

 

sangie

I DIDN'T THINK YA’LL WERE SERIOUS

LET ME CHANGE AT LEAST

SHSXBSJSJSK

 

joong

why would /i/ lie about food

that’s wooyoung’s job

and please you say that like we haven’t seen you in less presentable situations

 

wooie

HEY

 

joong

was i wrong?

 

wooie

no but HEY

 

sangie 

i’ll be out in a minuteeeeee




~~~~~




dad™️

 

joong

hey yeo?

 

sangie

we’re in the same room?

why are we texting?

 

joong

cause i know you’ll prefer to talk about it here

 

sangie

oh

 

joong

i didn’t wanna bring it up with jongho still in the apartment 

 

sangie

but it’s not like he doesn’t know?

 

joong

yeosang we both know you wouldn’t have said anything with him here

 

sangie

….

 

joong

he wouldn’t and doesn’t think any differently of you

none of us do, okay?

 

sangie

i know…

 

joong

i’m not here to lecture you sangie

but i just wanted to talk about it for a sec

we never talked about the situation

and it’s clearly still affecting you..

i don’t want you to get hurt again sangie

i was

i wasn’t there to protect you then

i wanna make up for that

 

sangie

hyung it wasn’t your fault

you couldn’t have known

i did that to myself 

 

joong

it wasn't your fault either

it was his

 

sangie

i let him

 

joong

yeosang

him persuading you until you gave in to anything is not “letting him”



~~~~~

 

[ flashback ]

 

 

Daehyunnieee 💕☺️

 

dae

where are you?

 

sang

i’m at woo’s

is everything okay?

 

dae

why the fuck are you always with him?

 

sang

he’s my best friend..

 

dae

what am i then?

i'm your boyfriend!

come back here yeosang

 

sang

dae i promised him i’d hang out today

i’ll be back later i promise

please

 

dae

at this point it feels like you’re dating him, not me

 

sang

dae that’s not 

he’s my friend

 

dae

i’m picking you up okay?

 

sang

dae wait

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

soulmates 🤩😝

 

woowoo 

sangie?

why’d you leave so quickly?

is everything okay?

 

sang

yeah sorry!!

i forgot dae wanted to go out tonight 😅

 

woowoo

oh

are you sure..?

 

sang

yeah

why wouldn’t i be?

 

woowoo

just wondering 

you know you can’t tell me anything right?

 

sang

of course woo

i know <3

 

woowoo

<3

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

dad 2.0 🤩

 

woowoo

hyung?

have you talked with sangie recently?

 

joong

not really?

why?

is something wrong?

 

woowoo

i don’t really know?

 

joong

wdym?

 

woowoo

i feel like there's something 

like

wrong?

idk but recently i’ve been feeling a bit iffy about daehyun..?

 

joong

as in

daehyun his bf?

 

woowoo

yeah..?

 

joong

why?

 

woowoo

idk?

sometimes he gets all closed up at the mention of him

or he leaves out of nowhere bc of him

i just

all i’m saying

is i’m pretty sure i know the difference between excited for a date and being scared/anxious hyung

 

joong

are you trying to say what i think you’re saying wooyoung?

 

woowoo

i really don’t want to think like that... 

but please hyung

i’m starting to get worried

and i needed to tell someone because i feel like im actually going to loose my mind if i don’t

 

joong

how long has this been going on?

 

woowoo

the last couple of months…? 

 

joong

wooyoung why the hell have you not said anything?!?!

 

woowoo

i thought you’d think i was making thisd ip ikayv

i didn’t want youto think i was beinr selfish

 

joong

woo i

it’s ok 

calm down first okay?

 

woowoo

i’m sorry 

 

joong 

it’s okay 

just slow down okay? it’ll be ok 

is this all you’ve noticed?

 

woowoo

umm 

no?

i think he’s umm

okay i know he’s an adult hyung

 

joong 

wooyoung please just tell me

 

woowoo

i think daehyun might be forcing him to do/try things?

okay maybe not forcing him

but you know that yeosang is sometimes way too nice for his own good..

idk i just

i feel like he's making him do things?

 

joong

….what things?

 

woowoo

ummm 

ok ok 

there’s been times he comes over to hang out but he seems like really dazed?

so then i’d go to hug him 

and he’d smell like weed

and i know he’s fully allowed to

and he’s never been against it

hell, he’s done it with me before

but like

he wouldn’t try to hide it???

like 

it would smell as if he’s trying to cover the smell with his cologne?

 

joong

okay..

 

woowoo

hyung come on

you know i do it occasionally 

so does he sometimes

he wouldn’t hide it

not from me

this can't be him just getting high on his own just because

not if he's acting that way

 

joong

fuck  

ok ok 

yeah you’re right 

fuck

when was the last time you saw him?

or hung out with him?

 

woowoo

umm two nights ago?

he was here and then just rushed out 

he said daehyun picked him up cause “he forgot they had a date” 

 

joong

yeosang wouldn’t forget that

 

woowoo

exactly

 

joong

okay

and when was the last time you talked with him?

 

woowoo

two nights ago..?

 

joong

what??

you haven’t talked to him since then??

at all????

 

woowoo

i’ve tried!!

he won’t reply back

that’s why i’m texting you 

this is literally why i’m telling you hyung 

this isn’t

this isn’t normal hyung

jts mot 

i jnow him 

 

joong

woo calm down

breathe for me

calm down

it’ll be okay

 

woowoo

i’m sorry im sorru 

 

joong

it’s okay woo

just breathe

we’ll figure this out

i’m almost at your place just hold on for a little bit more 



[ end of flashback ]



 

 

~~~~~



 

 

dad™️

 

joong

look sangie..

we never talked about it fully since no one really knew or realized what happened

we just 

we tried to move on and pretend nothing happened

but it did

it happened and we need to acknowledge it before this type of thing happens again

 

sangie

it won’t 

 

joong

sangie..

he can’t hurt you anymore 

he wouldn’t dare to anyways 

but you still get scared, and you have every right to, but i feel like it’s for different reasons isn’t it?

 

sangie

i just 

i loved him...

i really thought i loved him 

and i knew something was wrong. i knew we weren’t your everyday couple. but i. i thought if i kept trying to be there for him. that things would work out. thag maybe i was just. maybe i was just imaginign trhufns 

hold kn 

 

joong

hey wait 

where are you going

 

sangie

i’m going to the bathroom

don’t really wanna cry in front of woo and j

i’m making them worry enough as jt is 

just 

give me a sec to finish please 

 

joong

okay

of course

take your time

 

sangie

i always hoped that things would work out. that maybe i was just imagining what was happening and that everything was okay. 

i really did 

i thought maybe. maybe if i hung out with him more that that would help

and when i did

he never just wanted to sit and watch a movie and cuddle or go out and do something

he 

he always wanted to, you know.. and most of time i just. i wasn't in the mood. 

it’s not that i felt uncomfortable doing it, i just wasn’t in the mood for that all the time you know? 

and he’d just get frustrated with me and would start saying jt was because i didn’t lovei him anumore bur j did. i lived him domich 

so i’d try 

but he still jusy 

he still just didn’t find that good enough

so he’d

he’d stop 

he’d stop what we were doing and leave. but he’d always come back

he’d come back with either a blunt or a drink in his hand 

to “help me relax”

and i didn’t 

i didn't want to disappoint him anymore

and at those times i’d just feel so tired that i didn’t even feel like denying whatever he was offering

so i’d take it

and then i’d just let him do what he wanted

i didn’t hate it

i never felt uncomfortable 

so i just 

i never honestly had a problem with jt

it’s really not like it felt uncomfortable 

it’s not like he treated me harshly 

he’d be so soft and gentle when we, you know...

so i didn’t mind jt 

it felt nice

it almost always would

but i knew it was wrong

i knew that even if he would cuddle me afterwards and be gentle and evrything

i knew it was wrong

i knew it wasn’t okay 

but hyung

he was my first

he was my first for most things...

i just

i couldn’t do it

i couldnt just leave

 

joong

yeosang…

 

sangie

so when you guys found out

when everything came out

he left so quick..

i just 

i felt so worthless you know?

and he

whenever he’d give me anything, sometimes it just made me feel so..numb?

that’s why i started smoking and drinking after that

i was

i was just so tired of feeling

i just didn’t want to

and i know i should’ve told someone

but i just couldn’t

i thought it didn’t matter

and then woo came thag one time

i dont

i don’t even remember what happened

and i’m just so sorry. i’m so sorry

i never

i never i

i didnt

 

joong

calm down sangie it’s okay 

it’s okay 

breathe for me yeah?

take your time, just breathe

 

sangie

sorry

so when woo found me

all i remember from that is that i’d woken up with a bad headache. i think i had fallen asleep on my desk since i was editing that one video we did at your studio or something. so i went to the kitchen to find some painkillers or anything. and i found them. but i also found a bottle of vodka right next to that.

and i was just so done. i didn’t even care. i know i didn’t take too many but obviously those two things don’t go together..  jusy g

fuckfuck

i never meant for that to happen

i never wanted him to see me like that

i didnt

 

joong

sangie it’s okay..

breathe for me please

it wasnt your fault

 

sangie

he should’ve never had to see that hyung

he shouldn’t have seen that

and now what didni do?

i made him go through that again

i made him see that agajn

he shouldn’t have had to see that

 

joong 

i know sangie..

but i know for a fact that wooyoung would’ve preferred to find you like that, then find you there an hour later

and maybe last night wasn’t as...bad..as last time. but any of us would still prefer to find you like that than not. 

we all would

if he hadn’t had that weird gut feeling he gets for being your friend for so long, things would not be like they are right now

i might not even be having this conversation with you in the first place

but don’t doubt for even a moment that any of us would rather not find you like that than to witness it and help you 

 

sangie

i know

i’m sorry

i just 

i didn’t want him to have that burden 

he shouldn’t have had to see that 

 

joong

maybe he shouldn’t have 

but he did

we can't change what happened in the past sangie. but we can try to prevent them from happening again

and you see this convo? i’m so proud of you for this 

you’re saying what you feel 

and i’m so fucking proud of you for this

yeosang

you’re enough. you’re so much more than enough. 

i hate that you never felt more love than that. and i wish i would’ve noticed sooner. but please. you’ll find someone. maybe not now. but someone will see how amazing you are. how thoughtful and how lovely you are with those around you. 

i never want you to feel like you’re less than worthy of that love

you are so so loved yeosang

please come to us when something happens 

i don’t want you to have to fall in that cycle again 

 

sangie

fuck

thank you hyung

really

i just

seeing him again was just

idk tbh..

i guess i just expected him to say something if he saw me

so i just left before it could happen

but thank you hyung...

 

joong 

you never have to thank me for that sangie

i meant all of it

and not that i'm trying to end this convo quickly or anything

but can you please come out now?

i think wooyoung needs to hug you 

like right now

 

sangie

has

has he been reading this the whole time?

 

joong

yep! now get out here please! -woo

 

sangie

oh

in a moment please

i need to prepare a snot-filled tissue for the fact that hyung fell for whatever you bribed him with :)

 

Joong

i deserve that 

in my defense, i really tried not letting him see. but i couldn’t really escape once he saw we were texting..sorry..

 

sangie

i know hyung i was just messing with you 

it’s okay

he would’ve found out either way

 

joong

come back out here now?

i want a hug too 

 

sangie

yeah one sec ^^



 

~~~~~

 

 

 

Notes:

so...how's everyone feeling? good? good? niceee
i lowkey cried when i wrote this chapter but I'm a baby so
oh! the name i used was honestly just the first name i could find so please don't think this is referring to anyone!!
see you guys next chapter!

Chapter 6: someone tell the stars that i'm in love

Notes:

some chaotic fluff to make up for the last chapter!!
i also forgot to mention, but san, mingi, yunho, and seonghwa all live together! yeosang lives in his own apartment and wooyoung and jongho live together in the same apartment complex. anddd hongjoong lives in a studio apartment. just to avoid any confusion!

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

sannie

yunnnnnnnnnn

why haven’t you tweeted out to our mystery boy yeeettttt 😫😫😫

 

yunnie

😳😳😳

i was hoping you forgot 😳

 

seongie

he won’t. 

he’s been bugging me about it for the past five hours 🤦‍♂️

 

sannie

hwa 😠

 

seongie

yes that’s my name

 

sannie

😠😠😠😠

 

minnie

wait yun i thought you wanted to do it though?

also

am i the only one imagining a pouting san instead of a mad one rn? 👀

 

yunnie

i did but i’m nervous >~<

and no you’re not

 

seongie

that’s what’s happening rn so pretty accurate 

 

sannie

HWA 😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠

ANYWAYS

 

seongie

where are you going 

san

 

minnie

wait what’s happening?

 

yunnie

HYUNG HELPDDJBD

HEKPSNN’nnb

 

seongie

oh

that’s makes sense nvm

 

minnie

???????

 

seongie

by the sounds and looks of it

i’m guessing san went over to his room

 

minnie

was that yunho??????

 

seongie

yes that was him 

 

minnie

wow i didn’t think his voice could reach that high

and that’s saying a lot

shouldn't you go stop san..?

 

seongie

eh

sannie wouldn’t hurt him 

 

minnie

this is favoritism 😔😔

 

seongie

they’re not replying

i’m guessing san took his phone

yup i was right

 

minnie

he tweeted it!!

yessssss!!!!

🥳🥳🥳

 

seongie

wow

sannie your emoji use really does give off yunho vibes

you’re getting better at it

 

sannie

😁

thank youuuuu

i try my best 😇😇

 

yunnie

nooooo

i wasn’t ready D:

san how are you so fast T^T

 

sannie

😇😝😝😝



 

~~~~~



 

the bois + dad

 

wooie

what.

 

joong

????

why is everyone blowing up my phone??

 

jjongie

check twitter 

 

joong

oh.



 

~~~~~



 

🆘❌ protective bois  ❌🆘 

 

jjongie

did you guys see that?????

 

joong

what the fuck

 

wooie

i

how

w h e n

 

joong

wait

hold on

isn’t that at disney???

 

wooie

ARE YOU KIDDING ME

NO WAY

WTFFF

 

jjongie

isn’t he like

that one dude from the drama you tried forcing me to watch with you?

 

wooie

YESDBSJDBDJS

 

joong

wait

what are we gonna do

 

wooie

????

wdym?

 

joong

about this

about yeosang

what are we gonna do

 

wooie

oh

 

jjongie

shouldn’t we talk to him about it??

 

joong

it’s not that simple bub

 

jjongie

how is it not??

but okay

well

i’m on my way back already

so 

i’ll be there in a bit 




~~~~~




the bois + dad

 

joong

sangie..?

you okay?

 

wooie

i’m waiting for the hug fest come onnnnnn

 

sangie

in a minute

you guys checked twitter right?

 

joong

maybe we shouldn’t focus on that rn?

 

sangie

why?

hyung it’s fine

 

wooie

you sure sangie?

i know it’s been a while but

 

sangie

it’s been two years

it’s okay

 

jjongie

sorry to interrupt but i’m out here and have been ringing the door bell for the last two minutes

i’m typing with one hand

i’ll throw away the boba if no one comes out here and opens the door

thanks

:)

 

wooie

NO

DONT 

ILL GO ILL GO 

 

sangie

okay

well

i’m gonna tweet something back

 

wooie

woah woah woah

 

joong

yeosang maybe we should talk about this first please

 

sangie

i want to do this hyung

i always let you guys decide what to do and i know you’re just trying to help but i don’t want to hide forever

i made up my mind already anyways

 

jjongie

hyung...

 

joong

sang i didn’t want to make it seem that way..

im just trying to protect you from anything 

but you’re right

if you feel like you’re ready

then okay 

but don’t force yourself to do this, okay?

 

sangie

thank you hyung

okay

let me just 

okay 

FUCK 

AH

DHSJXBJSSNSK

okay i’m good 

nope wait

BDJSBSIAJSJWHSJ

AGAHAHDHE

HDJDJSJSMAMSMSNSNSN

YOUNGIEE OH MGODKDJDNODKDNSJSK

T H E  JEONG YUNHO JSUT BENSBSJSJSJ

 

joong

and there he is 

 

wooie

DJSJSJSBSJ

LOOK AT YOU BITCH

YOUR BEAUTY ATTRACTING MODELS NOW

 

sangie

AH

DBSBSJSJ

A H H 

A H H H H H

ok 

okay i’m done

we good

yes

yeah 

okay

 

wooie

can

can you come out of the bathroom now

plz

 

sangie

no

 

wooie

WHYYYY 😫😫😫

 

sangie

cause you just want to take my phone

 

joong

ugh my child is so smart 🤩

i knew i raised at least one of you right 

 

sangie

😇😇😇

okay 

here goes nothing

dhhsjsjdns



 

~~~~~



 

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

yunnie

ANSJAHSJSJWJSNSJNSS

SHAKANSBBSJSSN

NSJSNSNDNSNMSKSJWNDJD

 

seongie

that was

quicker than i expected

 

minnie

so 

he’s a youtuber

interesting interesting

 

yunnie

NDJSBSHSDHDJSNSN

HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE HES SO CUTE 

 

sannie

the amount of pictures that’s he’s saving so far is a little bit concerning ngl

 

seongie

you're still with him??

 

sannie

yeahh

 

yunnie

PLEASE DHSJSJSJW HES SO CUTE SNSNSJSJ

L O O K  AT  H I M

 

minnie

WAIT

WAIT

YUN

HE TWEETED

GOGOGOGOGOGO

 

yunnie

HSHSHSJDJJSJSJS

OH MY GOD

IM SCARED DJDJSJS

OKAY OWKXY

AHHH



 

~~~~~



 

@kyeosang

 

hi! |

hi- |

h- |

ummm hey! |

ummm h- |

um- |

hi!!! this is yunho!! 

hi!!! this i- |

hi!- |

h- |

fhsjsbsjsbsjsj

fhsjsbs- |

fhs- |

~~~~~

 

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

yunnie

how

how does one

text

 

seongie

the same way you’re doing rn 

 

yunnie

no

 

seongie

yes???

 

yunnie

YOURE NOT HELPING

AHHAHSHSJS



 

~~~~~



 

@j.yunnie

Yunho🌻

hey!

03:28 PM



 

~~~~~

 

 

 

Notes:

dun dun DUNNNNN
it's literally 2 am right now but i don't really want to sleep yet so hi hi hope you guys are enjoying this mess so far

Chapter 7: like you, i can't sleep, because i love you too

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

@j.yunnie

 

Yunho🌻

hey!

03:28 PM



 

~~~~~



 

the bois + dad

 

sangie

holy shit he actually

holy shit holy shit holy shit 

 

wooie

WHATS HAPLENING COME OUT HERE ALREADY 




~~~~~




@j.yunnie

Yunho🌻

hey!

03:28 PM

hi!

 

Yunho🌻

okay so i just wanna start off with saying that i know that tweet sounds like i’m stalking you but!!!!

my friend tweeted that 

but i mean

the context was true!

i went to disney with my friends the other day and i saw you with your friends and you looked really really cute but i didn’t want to bother or seem weird so i didn’t have the chance to talk to you and uh

yeah 

hehe

 

woah

 

Yunho🌻

ahhhh

was that too weird? sorry 🥺🥺

 

nononono

i just 

i really thought this was a prank or something

 

Yunho🌻

what? 

no! no it’s not a prank!

i promise!!

that’d be so mean anyways 🥺

 

wow

sorry i’m just 

kinda freaking out rn? 

and wow even your texting is adorable 

 

Yunho🌻

😳😳

oh

thank you? 😳

 

djdjsjs sorry, i’ve just seen some of the things you’ve been in? and you always seemed really cute? 

and you text like that too

so yeah

haha

 

Yunho🌻

take my love

plz just take it already

 

oh my god

😳

i’m honored 🥺

 

Yunho🌻

o m g



 

~~~~~



 

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

Yunnie

HE

HE USES THE SAME CAT MEME

PLEASE

P L E A S E

I LOVE HIM

 

minnie

awww 🥺

 

sannie

hwa our pup is growing up so fast 😭😭

 

seongie

yun

come to the living room

this needs adult supervision 

 

yunnie

whhaaatttt nooooo

no no

yun stay in his room

 

sannie

he just

barricaded his door 😳

i-

i’m still

i’m still in here




~~~~~




@j.yunnie

 

Yunho🌻

i know it’s been like an hour since we’ve been talking but can i please have your number? it’d make texting you a lot easier. i normally don’t have dms open on here so a lot of people keep spamming Σ(-᷅_-᷄๑)

 

***-***-****

thought you’d never ask

 

Yunho🌻

thank you 🥺🥺



 

~~~~~



 

the bois + dad

 

wooie

YEOSANG I SWEAR IF YOU DONT COME OUT OF THAT FUCKING BATHROOM I WILL BREAK DOWN THE DOOR

DONT LEAVE ME HERE IN THE SUSPENSE

WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED

 

sangie

this is my new home

 

wooie

YEOSANG

 

sangie

he’s not home right now

please leave a message after the beep

 

wooie

YOURE ON THIN FUCKING ICE

 

sangie

beep

 

wooie

COME

O U T

 

sangie

yeosang’s voicemail box seems to be full. please try again later. 

 

joong

sangie

i love you 

but he’s literally going to break down that door

 

sangie

ok ok i’ll be out

 

wooie

WHY DO YOU LISTEN TO HIM SO EASILY!?!?!?!?!!?

THATS NOT FAIR?!?!?!?!?!!?!

 

sangie

😇😇😇



 

~~~~~



 

Unknown 

 

unknown 

yeosang?

it’s yunho!



 

~~~~~



 

the bois + dad

 

sangie

quick

yes or no

 

jjongie

yes

 

joong

no?

 

wooie

yes

 

sangie

thank you thank you 

 

joong

why are you guys like this 




~~~~~




Yunnie ⭐️🥺💕

 

sangie

hi!

i was wondering 👉👈

if could you send me a pic for your contact pic?

 

yunnie

oh 😳😳

um

yeah yeah!

give me a sec plz😳

 

yunnie

it’s not the best but san is looking at me weirdly so this is the best i could do 😳🥺

 

sangie

not the best???

i-

THATS THE CUTEST PIC???

 

yunnie

🥺🥺

can i have one too? 👉👈

 

sangie

😳😳😳

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

the bois + dad

 

wooie

you’re blushing 

why

WAIT COME BACK

YEOSANG ISTG

 

jjongie

he went to his room this time 👀👀👀

hmmmmm 👀👀👀👀👀

 

sangie

I DIDNT THINK THIS THROUGH

HYUNG DAMN I SHOULDVE LISTENED TO YOUR NO

SHAJSJSJSJENSJSJ

FUCKDBSJSB

OK OK M

IF I DIE JUST LET ME DIE HERE UWU

 

joong

i-

what even



 

~~~~~



 

Yunnie ⭐️🥺💕

 

sangie

i tried 😅

 

yunnie

BEJSNSJSNXJS

GIVE ME A SEC

 

yunnie

okay

 

sangie

that was a very long second? 

 

yunnie

I NEEDED A MOMENT OKAY

 

sangie

i knew i looked bad but damn 😔

 

yunnie

DONT YOU D A R E

YOU 

LOOK

GREAT

CUTE

HOT

ADORABLE

DJSJSBSJNS

 

sangie

😳😳😳



 

~~~~~




hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

seongie

any updates????

 

sannie

he’s squealing into his pillow

and text wise,

idk whether i love or hate the amount of lowkey flirting that’s occurring from both sides 

it’s

wow

like, this dude’s got game. the very subtle type but it’s there

and yunho is surprisingly being ok about it

overall: very wholesome, would recommend 

 

minnie

sounds accurate 

 

yunnie 

HES SO CUTE 

I LOVE HIM ALREADY PLEASSEEMSHDJSJSNS



 

~~~~~



 

the bois + dad

 

wooie

yeosang

istg

you’re killing me here

 

jjongie

i’ve never seen woo hyung be so angsty

it’s interesting 

 

joong

eh 

you get used to it

 

wooie

i’m right here???????

 

joong

yeah

and?

 

sangie

he

he’s so cute

i feel like this is too good to be true

 

wooie

no

stop that right there

enjoy this sangie

i have no fucking idea what’s going on in there

but if you’re still fucking texting him

then there’s no way it’s just a prank

that’s too much effort for just a prank

even you know that

 

sangie

bxjssbjsnsjsnsjs

fbdjsnsbsbNDNSBDBSBSBS

fuck

ok ok 

you’re right

yeah 

okay 

thank you 

bye

 

wooie

NDJSNSJS

N O ?????

COME BACK YOU BITCHXBHSSBSJ




~~~~~




Yunnie ⭐️🥺💕

 

yunnie

and that’s why san isn’t allowed to be unsupervised anymore

so that just means i have more rights by default *\(^o^)/*

 

sangie

that was…

a lot 😳

 

yunnie

he’s really nice tho!!!

i’d love for everyone to meet !! it’d be so amazing 🥰🥰

 

sangie

omg

yeah that’d be really nice

hey my friends are kinda bugging me rn so i’ll text you later yeah?

 

yunnie

that’s okay!!!

talk to you later!! ☺️



 

~~~~~



 

dad™️

 

joong

did something happen?

you seemed… off when you came out of your room

 

sangie

no i’m good

 

joong

is that why you simply gave woo your phone then?

you didn’t even give any details apart from what we asked. 

you were so excited about it

what happened?

 

sangie

nothing?

i’m just kinda shocked ig

 

joong

yeosang..

 

sangie

i just

idk 

i still feel like this is too good to be true?

and i already feel myself falling so easily…

i didn’t want to get attached so soon

idk

i just 

yeah idk

 

joong

sangie..

like wooyoung said, he seems like a genuinely nice guy

i don’t think he’d still be trying to text you and go through all that just for a prank

 

sangie

yeah..

 

joong

wait wooyoung is noticing the pout 

run 

i’ll save you

 

sangie

wait

oh no 

shhakanw 



 

~~~~~

 

 

 

Notes:

i hope you guys can feel the awkward through those texts

that was very much intended

Chapter 8: every breath i gulp in feels like i'm choking on a piece of glass

Notes:

i don't think this needs a heavy warning but just in case because i think i should

TW// drug use, self-depricating thoughts

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

the bois + dad

 

joong

you better be sleeping by the time we get home

 

sangie

yes dad!

 

wooie

no one better wake me up before tomorrow 

i need my beauty sleep

 

jjongie

ugh

joongie hyung can i go with you to your place then? 

 

joong

yeah sure

 

wooie

👀

 

sangie

👀



 

~~~~~



 

The wind was mostly chilly. Not that strong but just cold

 

It was almost 2 am, the streets empty, most people probably in their cozy apartments and enjoying their night. And tonight, Yeosang was not one of them. 

 

He had left his apartment a couple of hours ago, not really thinking much of it. He couldn’t think much of it. The boy had smoked a blunt while at home, then started on a second when he walked out an hour later. It was probably too much considering the fact he was walking around in the middle of the night, but Yeosang had honestly stopped caring halfway through the first one. 

 

He didn’t really know what he was doing outside, the fresh air just seemed inviting after not leaving his apartment for what felt like days on end. And he did try to go to sleep, he really did, but after a while, his mind just wouldn't shut up no matter how hard he tried.

 

That day’s events had really affected him in a way. On one hand, he was glad to finally open up to Hongjoong about what happened; feeling the weight finally lift off his shoulders after so long of trying to carry it all on his own. Before, only Wooyoung knew, the younger having stayed with the latter until he’d finally say something. So yeah, Yeosang was glad to have been able to talk to his hyung about it. 

 

Then came Yunho. 

 

Sweet, sweet Yunho. But could he possibly be acting too nice? Yeosang still hadn’t figured that out yet. Why would this happen to him of all people anyways? Yunho was too perfect, right? From his looks to his personality. 

 

And Yeosang? 

 

He didn’t even have the courage to talk to him. And now here he is, wanting to just disappear from society for a little bit. Pretend nothing happened. It’s not like Yunho actually knows him. It wouldn’t affect him, would it? No, probably not. But he can’t do that to his friends. Not again, at least. 

 

Without realizing it, Yeosang was at the bridge. This place was nothing special around this part of the city if he was being honest. It was near an old park that not many kids went to anymore. The place was quiet, however, so to Yeosang, it was his escape from time to time. 

 

The boy sat down at the edge, just staring out at the water. He couldn’t help but think about everything. Was this even worth it?   If this was all a prank then would it even be worth the trouble of trying to talk to Yunho? It’ll be easier to just stop it where it is. Then he wouldn’t be heartbroken again, right?  

 

Something wet touched his hand then. When did he start crying? Yeosang stared at the drop, too lazy to even wipe the tears that seemed to just keep falling the longer he stared. 

 

The sound of footsteps didn’t register in his head, he was simply there, not really paying attention anymore. What’s the point of paying attention? Why would anyone be out here at this time anyway? Logically, anyone being out at that time should create a red flag for him, but his mind was feeling more clouded than normal and Yeosang was way too tired to try thinking straight.

 

“Yeosang?” 

 

The boy froze. 

 

That voice sounded so familiar but it couldn’t be who he thought it was, right ? Why would he be all the way out here? 

 

The voice called out again, softer this time. The sound of footsteps filled the dead of night, the sound being the only thing Yeosang could actually focus on now. Step. Step. Step.

 

Yeosang didn’t know what to do. If he stayed, what would this mean? He wasn’t ready to talk, especially not to someone he hasn’t even met. Then again, he didn’t think he could talk. Not in his current state at least. All his words would just end up coming out in weirdly formed sentences and bunched-up thoughts as he would force himself to speak. 

 

He flinched as a hand touched his shoulder, gently like someone would if they were reaching for a small child. “Yeosang..?” The voice whispered again. Hesitantly, Yeosang turned to meet the owner of the voice, his suspicions being confirmed as he saw the silver dash of hair shining against the black. 

 

“San?” The question came out as nothing more than a hoarse whisper, the sound sounding foreign even to himself. 

 

San smiled softly at him as he sat down next to him, the latter watching him as he questioned what he was doing. Why is he still here? Isn’t it late? Once seated, however, San turned to face him, opening his arms. The smile never fading. 

 

Yeosang just looked at him for a second. And maybe he was simply too tired and high to really think this straight, or maybe he’d just been so bottled up for so long, that he couldn’t help as he let himself fall into San’s arms. Not even a second passed before the tears began to fall. 

 

“Shh...it’s okay...just let it out...” 



Maybe things will be okay. 




~~~~~




My Prince 👑💕

 

seongie

sannie?

it’s been a while, is everything okay?

 

sannie

i’m okay!! sorry 🥺

i have to make this quick but i stumbled upon yeosang at the bridge and i’m kinda at his apartment now??? i’ll explain later but i kinda don't wanna leave him alone rn

i’ll text you later, okay?

 

sangie

yeosang..?

 

sannie 

yunho’s boy

 

seongie

oh

okay just call me if you need me okay? be careful 

i’ll go pick you up if you’re coming back. i don’t want you walking around this late

 

sannie

okay thank you hwa

luv you 🥺💕

 

seongie

i love you too 💕




~~~~~

 

 

 

Notes:

okay so i usually never try to do actual written scenes so uhhh i tried?
anyways, can you guys tell i'm soft for sanhwa?

Chapter 9: i wish you a kinder sea

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

It had been a couple of hours since San had found Yeosang out and about. He had taken the boy back to his apartment after getting him to calm down enough, noticing his slight shivering once they had pulled apart. 

 

As they had made their way inside, the younger took it upon himself to get the other ready for bed, making sure he was in a set of comfy and warm clothes. 

 

Both boys then settled down on the couch, San simply holding the other close. He giggled slightly as he felt Yeosang mumble something into his chest, causing the small movements to tickle his skin, yet all too quiet for him to hear. “What was that?” He whispered, hand gently running through the other’s hair. 

 

Yeosang turned his head, letting his ear now press against where the latter’s heart was. “Thank you...” 

 

“There’s nothing to thank me for, Yeosang. I’m glad I found you,” he replied quietly, hand continuing its movements.

 

“Why?”

 

“Because…” San smiled softly, the events from the past couple of days filling his mind. “ Because Yun-hyung has been talking non-stop about how adorable and amazing you are, and I wouldn’t want this amazing guy to feel any less than that. From what little you’ve told me… I...I can relate. Hey, don’t give me that look. I..Yeah... I can relate to that. And I know that sometimes you just need to have someone different with you. Sometimes it’s easier to vent when you don't actually know the person well enough to be focused on their reactions.” He sighed softly as he finished, hugging the boy a bit tighter towards the end. 

 

“But… why does he care so much? He barely knows me...” Yeosang mumbled, hiding his face in the other’s chest again. 

 

San hummed, “Well... in simple terms, Yunho’s a very...caring person. He’s a complete sweetheart but he kinda gets attached easy,” he sighed. “When he tweeted- well okay no that was me. But yeah when I tweeted that out, he saw the comments and found out you were a YouTuber. That made it pretty easy for him to look you up,” San giggled, remembering Yunho’s reaction after he found the younger’s channel. “I was with him when he watched a couple of your videos. He even spammed our group chat with pictures of you and screaming both in writing and in person about how cute and lovely you were.”

 

Yeosang sniffled, “Fuck...” he cuddled closer, becoming more of a ball on top of the other. “I don’t deserve him...” he whimpered. 

 

“Hey don’t say that…” San reached up and gently ran his free hand through the other’s hair. “I… I know it might be hard for you to see but he really does care. If you choose to give him a chance, you really wouldn’t regret it...” He then stopped for a second, “But...but please don’t give him false hope if you don’t think you’re ready for this…” San stopped again, trying to get a look at the other’s face, but continued before Yeosang would start to think something else. “I don’t mean that in a bad way. But he really does get attached easily and things would be better for the both of you if he knows sooner rather than later. If you feel like you're not ready yet, he'd understand. You don't have to force yourself to do anything.”

 

“I won’t...” Yeosang tightened his grip on the younger, “I promise I won’t hurt him..” he whispered. 

 

The boys stayed quiet for a moment after that, taking in the night and enjoying the new company. Yeosang eventually moved slightly, trying to get more comfortable. “So…” he yawned. “How did you find me?” The question came out muffled, half of his face being squished into the other’s chest. 

 

“Oh… I walk around that bridge a lot. It’s kinda become Seonghwa-hyung and I’s go-to place. We go there and watch the sunset sometimes...” San smiled. “I wanted to walk around a bit since..” He shook his head slightly. “But yeah I thought I’d go there for a bit and, well, here we are.” 

 

Yeosang hummed, quietly mumbling, “That sounds nice..”. The boy yawned again, cuddling closer as his eyes struggled to keep open. 

 

“Get some rest...I’ll be here,” San whispered, letting his hand run through the older’s hair again.

 

“Mm...thank you..” Yeosang’s voice was barely audible by that point, finally allowing himself to let the warmth pull him to sleep. 




~~~~~



My Prince 👑💕

 

sannie

hey hwa 🥺

i think i’m gonna stay the night, don’t wait up please 💕

 

seongie

are you sure everything’s alright? 

what happened?

 

sannie

everything’s okay for now. i think he just needed someone to talk to. but i promise i’ll explain more later okay? my brain is saying nono to words, i think i used up my brain cells for the day 😣

 

seongie 

okay okay 

go let your brain cell recharge 

good night love ❤️

 

Sannie

goodnight hwa!! 🥺💕

i love you 🥺🥺

and hey i have more than one brain cell!!!! 😠

 

Seongie

sure you do bub

i love you too baby 💕



 

~~~~~

 

 

 

Notes:

so i was gonna post this yesterday but i had an ap exam today and yeah no
i think I've drained the last couple brain cells i have left
and i honestly don't even know if i like this chapter but if i keep looking at it any longer ima regret everything so
anywayysssss
its mostly fluff from here on out, so congrats! you've made it through the majority of the angst!

Chapter 10: i will always be fond of you

Notes:

the pics weren’t working but i hope everything is fixed now! enjoy!! <3

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

sannie

yunhooooo

come get yo mans ☺️

 

minnie

wait

is that 👀👀

 

yunnie

WHAT

HOW ARE YOU

WAIT 

WHY

WHEN

DJSJAJSJW

 

seongie

sannie you broke him 😠




~~~~~




Yunnie ⭐️🥺💕

 

yunnie

YEOSANG

SANGIE

SANG

YEO

YEOOOSAANGGGG

IS SAN WITH YOU?????

ITS A JOKE RIGHT???

SANGIEEE😫😫😫



 

~~~~~



 

the bois + dad

 

sangie

note to self: never let someone you barely know cuddle you to sleep 😠

 

joong

excuse me, what?

 

wooie

????????????

 

joong

yeosang?????

care to explain???????

 

wooie

wtf did you do when we left?????

 

joong

yeosang istg if you leave us after that

 

wooie

YEOSANG GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE

WHO THE FUCK 

WHEN THE FUCK

HOW THE FUCK

 

wooie

YEOSANG I SWEAR I WILL RUN UP TO YOUR APARTMENT 

GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE

 

sangie

dhsjsjsj 

so let’s just say

that i may

kinda

sorta

maybe 

 

jjongie

kang yeosang.

 

sangie

okokokokok

 

wooie

say it before the baby gets mad 😳

 

sangie

ookokokok o K 

so i’m maybe kinda sorta in choi san’s arms as we speak?

 

wooie

WHAT,!,!,?!?!?!

THE

FUCK!?!?!??!

HOW THE FUCK!,!?!?

 

sangie

um 

in summary,

i went on a walk and he saw me and so we came to my apartment eventually cause it was cold af and yeah hi hello here we are 👉👈

 

joong

doesn’t he have a boyfriend??

 

sangie

HE DOES

WE DIDNT DO ANYTHING!!! 😠😠😠

HYUNG WTF

 

wooie

hyung please don’t remind me 😔

 

joong

right

my bad

but wow

yeosang is over there getting all the boys in his yard and i’m over here single as fuck

 

jjongie

hyung, i bet there’s someone out there who has a crush on you

actually, it’s very likely that someone does

 

joong

naaahhh

no one would like a trash panda like me

 

jjongie

but you don’t know that though

 

joong

i'm pretty sure i know my life better than you jjong

 

jjongie

right.

yeah. sorry. 

i’ll drop it then. 

 

wooie

umm…

 

sangie

👀👀



 

~~~~~



 

soulmates 🤩😝

 

wooie

do i check on jongho or do you wanna handle that?

 

sangie

no no i’ll check up on joong hyung

he’ll be easier 👀

 

wooie

wow ok

well i think jongho just got out of class anyways

so i’ll wait for him to come home

good luck

 

sangie

you too 😔



 

~~~~~



 

Yunnie ⭐️🥺💕

 

yunnie

SANGIE😫😫😫

 

sangie

hi 👉👈

 

yunnie

SANGIIEEEEE

is he really with you?🥺

 

sangie

yeah but it’s not what he made it seem!! i already slapped him for that 🙄

 

yunnie

but why is he there??? 🥺😔😔

 

sangie

i went out for a walk last night and he saw me

so here we are? 

 

yunnie

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

can i come too? 🥺🥺


 

sangie

maybe another time? he’s about to leave right now anyways since i have some work to get done 😔

but next time okay?

 

yunnnie

promise? 🥺

 

sangie

promise 💛

 

yunnie




 

~~~~~




dad™️

 

sangie

hyung?

 

joong

what’s up?

 

sangie

ummm

so about what happened in the group chat? 👉👈

 

joong

idk what happened in the gc yeo

i seriously don’t know 

 

sangie

why’d you get all mad at jongho tho?

 

joong

mad??

i wasn’t mad??

 

sangie

you weren’t???

🤡

 

joong

no???

why would i be?????

 

sangie

uhhhh

it sounded like you kinda got all defensive over what he said

yk, with the whole “i’m pretty sure i know my life” thing

 

joong

i wasn’t mad though?

did i sound mad??

i thought maybe you could sense the sarcasm or something??

why would i even be mad??

did i really sound like that??????

 

sangie

ummm

yeah??

kinda?

 

joong

fuck

i just 

didn’t know how to reply to that?

but i didn’t think it’d come off as mad 

 

sangie

see 

i know that now

but you don’t have to be telling this to me

i’m not the one who this was directed to

and also maybe try wording things better next time 🤡🤡

 

joong

f u c k

 

sangie

language you dumbass 😠

 

joong

🙃🙃



 

~~~~~



 

soulmates 🤩😝

 

sangie

how’d it go?

 

wooie

how’d it go?

 

sangie

oh wow

 

wooie

wow

 

sangie

STOP IT

 

wooie

STAPJ

 

sangie

woo

 

wooie

yeo

OKAY 

LET MENGO FIRST

STO

P

 

sangie

mengo

okay i’ll let mengo go first

is that your new bf?

 

wooie

i’m

why do i even try

 

sangie

but do you actually try?

 

wooie

….

ANYWAYS

how'd it go with hyung?

 

sangie

well

let’s just say that we really overestimate how smart he is

 

wooie

what do you mean????

 

sangie

when he texted that

he thought it sounded sarcastic or some shit

because 

when i asked if he was mad

he got all confused 🤡

so he dumb dumb, dude

 

wooie

wow

he really is dumb dumb

 

sangie

yeah

but okay 

what about our baby?

 

wooie

well for starters, he didn’t come home as soon as i expected

he took a small detour 

when he came back, he brought ramen and beer for the both of us 

so i let him do what he needed, yk?

we watched some random shit on youtube and just chilled

he eventually talked to me tho

 

sangie 

woo just get to the point omg 😭😭

and nooo he only ever drinks when he’s like

sad sad

 

wooie

fine geez 🙄

and yeah i know :/

but yeah i don’t think things are going so well for him. he got really upset when i brought it up and he started saying he’s been thinking of trying to move from hyung already

since we kinda all assumed hyung got mad, he thought about things 

and he said he didn’t think he should keep trying

 

sangie

shit

fuck idk 

i mean

i told hyung to talk to him 

but idk if he sees jongho that way 

he’s never commented on anything but i also feel like hyung isn’t oblivious enough to not notice???

 

wooie

yeah i know

i mean 

there’s not much we can do now, we just have to wait it out ig

 

sangie

yeah…

ugh i hate this

 

wooie

yeah me too…




~~~~~

 

 

 

Notes:

ooo la laaaa what do we have hereeee
alsoo!! guess whos technically officially done with high schooooool!!!!! i still have an exam in like two weeks even though school is over but :')
but anyways!! i officially have time to write soooo i'll probably finish this one "soon" and i have a lot of other works planned so i'm kinda excited to post those too (^^")
anyways, as always, i hope you guys enjoyed!! plz leave some comments if you did cause they really mean a lot to me <3

Chapter 11: it is possible to carry love and pain

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

the bois + dad

 

sangie

@everyone

would it be

too 

forward?

to send

this

 

sangie

wait fuck i cant find it 

one

sec

 

sangie

okay 

okay

that

would it be

too forward

to just 

you know

send that 

to yunho?

right now?

 

joong

i expected it to be something else but then again not surprised 

 

sangie

HONGJOONG ISTG

WHAT DO YOU TAKE ME FOR

 

joong

hyung*

idk you’ve been friends with wooyoung for who knows how long so i’d assume some of him had to rub off on you by now

 

wooie

i’m just going to pretend i didn’t read that 

but to answer your question yeo

SEND IT

 

joong

yeah i don’t see the harm in it

so send it ig???

 

sangie

fjdbdjsnsn 

okay

@jjongie i need your opinion too plz 

 

wooie

👁👁

 

sangie

@jjongie i won’t hesitate to call 

 

sangie

okay jjongie said to send

 

joong

did you actually call him?

 

sangie

yes sir

 

joong

oh

okay then

 

wooie

👁👁🍿

 

sangie

okay well

ima just 

go

and if i don’t return

just assume i died

thank you

have a nice day

 

wooie

BDBSJSJSKSNDJE

BRO WHAT




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soulmates 🤩😝

 

sangie

so i’m gonna take a wild guess and say that hyung hasn’t talked to jongho yet?

 

wooie

pretty much

and it is becoming so fucking difficult to not say anything to hyung because it hurts watching jongho be this upset 

i cant even say anything because i don’t want to lie to him and get his hopes up if we’re wrong about hyung liking him 

it fucking sucks sangie

 

sangie

fuck..

should i talk to hyung..?

i mean

i’m obviously not gonna say anything about jongho but you know

to see what happens?

 

wooie

i wanna say yeah but what would you even say?

cause like

dude i seriously just don’t know what to think anymore 

i was getting so pissed off last night and was gonna text joong hyung through snap since i was on there already 

And it showed that this fucker was still at his studio 

so honestly i fucking bet he’s been there for the past few days since this happened

and what the fuck am i supposed to do with that information if he’s not saying shit????

like??? is he guilty and overworking because of what happened and he’s just upset it got taken that way??? or he guilty because he likes him and realizes he fucked up???? 

 

sangie

i

god he really gets mad at me for being emotionally constipated and yet here he is 

i’ll text him

i can be more blunt than you without him getting too offended by it

 

wooie

i was gonna argue but you’re right 

i’d probably be too defensive over jongho so it probably wouldn’t be pretty

 

sangie

yeah

okay well ima just 

go text yunho first

and then text hyung

bye have a nice day uwu

🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

 

wooie

EXCUSE ME WHAT

YEOSANG WTF

 

wooie

YOU CANT HUST DO THAT

WHY DO YOU LEAVE ME HERE WITH THIS INFORMATION 

LIKE I KNOW YOU WERE GONNA DO THAT

BUT COME ON

 

wooie

KANG YEOSANG GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE YOU LITTLE BITCH

 

wooie




 

~~~~~




Yunnie ⭐️🥺💕

 

sangie 

hi

 

yunnie

oh

my god

i’m

 

sangie

NDBSJAJSJW

NOO THATS SO CUTE

 

yunnie

WELL YOURE CUTER

SO

also

if that meme was not just a meme and you’d like to hang out, we could do that 🥺👉👈

i really wanna meet you 🥺😔

 

sangie

it was indeed not just a meme

so yes please if you’re not busy 

i’d really like to meet you too 🥺

 

yunnie

i had a free day today so no i’m not 🥺

i could go over to yours if you want?

or you can come here

just be aware that there will be three other people here and hwa hyung will most likely interrogate and try to intimidate you the first 15 minutes you’re here 

 

sangie

ummm

can you come over?

not that i wouldn’t want to go over there

i’m just 

kinda laying in bed and would appreciate someone coming over to cuddle 

if that’s okay

 

yunnie

you have come to the right person!!! \(//∇//)\

but it’s okay don’t worry 🥺🥺

 

sangie

thank you 🥺

oh!

[ link attached ]

i’m pretty sure that should give you the address

i sent the location so you can just follow the gps just in case

 

yunnie

oh that’s not that far from us!!! 

i’ll be over in like 20 mins!

should i bring any snacks?

 

sangie

ummm no it’s okay

but if you want anything for yourself then you can bring it but i’m good ☺️ 

 

yunnie

okay 🥺

ill be there soon then!! \(⌒▽⌒)/

 

sangie

okay 🥺

i’ll be here



 

~~~~~

 

 

 

Notes:

sorry for the short chapter but i've been lowkey in a very ~depressy~ mood so i've been working on another fic im working on since it's more on the angsty side so uh, yeah hahaha. hope you enjoyed!! i promise the next chapter will be a bit longer!

Chapter 12: just one safe place where you could love

Notes:

chapter is slightly longer because fluff uwu

edit: i just realized like 90% of the pictures I used no longer show up, so that's fixed now. love this for me

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

dad™️

 

Sangie

hi hello

you busy?

 

joong

no what’s up?

 

sangie

just kinda had a question or two that i wanted to ask you

 

joong

oh?

 

sangie

have you talked with jongho recently?

 

joong

uhh no

why? 

 

sangie

do you seriously need me to tell you why i’m asking?

 

joong

excuse me?

 

sangie

seriously?

 

joong

i haven’t talked to him

i don’t understand why that’s such an important thing

it’s not like i text him every day?

 

sangie

okay

let me rephrase this then

have you apologized to him?

 

joong

i tried

didn’t work too well

 

sangie

what do you mean you “tried”?

 

joong

as in i fucking tried yeosang

i tried

i barely had the chance to say anything

he blocked me

so i left it at that 

i’m not going to force him to talk to me

are you happy now?



sangie

wait

 

joong

look if this all this was about then i have work to do

i’ll text you later 

 

sangie

hyung wait

 

sangie

fuck




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soulmates 🤩😝

 

sangie

so like

did you know that jongho blocked hyung or was i supposed to find that out in my own rn? 🧍‍♀️

 

wooie

he what?

 

sangie

hyung said he tried apologizing 

and got blocked

 

wooie

the fuck did he say??

he wouldn’t just block him like that 

 

sangie

i was thinking that too 

but considering how things have been going

i wouldn’t be too surprised?

have you noticed jongho getting upset or something recently?

like

is there any moment where you’d think that this would’ve happened?

 

wooie

no?

i mean

wait

okay it might be a stretch but there’s actually a chance this happened on the day everything went down 

 

sangie

why?

it’d make sense since hyung wouldn’t wait too long i don’t think

but why do you say that?

 

wooie

bc remember how he brought home food and a few beers?

yeah

at some point he was looking at his phone i think and he was looking at it weirdly?

like if he was confused?

but he got up to go to the bathroom before i could ask..

i’m guessing it could’ve been that?

could just be a coincidence tho?

 

sangie

oh

i mean

that’d make sense on why he would’ve blocked him then?

if he was tipsy or more than that then i guess it would make sense?

 

wooie

did hyung say anything about it?

like, what he told him?

 

sangie

umm

i might’ve like

upset him…?

cause i’m a dumbass?

hold on

[ screenshot ]

he just left me on read afterwards 

 

wooie

oof

yeah definitely a dumbass

but i would’ve done worse 

so don’t beat yourself up too much about it

but ahhhh

i don’t like this

 

sangie

i’ll try to talk to him again later

or maybe i’ll just go to his studio and hope for the best

idk

but i’m maybe gonna try to forget about this for a little rn

yun is almost here

so

 

wooie

HES WHAT

EXCUSE ME???

 

sangie

oh huh would you look at the time-

i gotta go!

🚪🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

 

wooie

YEOSANG ISTG

WHY DO YOU KEEP DOING THIS TO ME

WHAT HAVE I EVER DONE TO YOU

 

wooie

YEOSANG

 

wooie

YOU BITCH

I WILL RUN UP THERE

DONT TEST ME

 

sangie

no❤️

key is safe and secure inside my apartment

and my cuddle delivery has a arrived so 

bye bye! 💕

 

wooie

 

 

 

~~~~~



 

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

seongie

updates

@yunnie yun i need updates

 

sannie

👁👁

 

minnie

updatessss pleaaasseeeeee

 

yunnie

i’m

so

s o f t

(● ˃̶͈̀ロ˂̶͈́)੭ꠥ⁾⁾

 

sannie

🥺🥺🥺🥺

 

yunnie

were cuddling rn and i’m

 

minnie

awwwwww

 

sannie

hwa our pup is growing up so fast 😭😭😭

i cant 😭🤧🤧🤧

 

seongie

are you

actually tearing up 

 

sannie

SHUT UP

YOU SAW NOTHING

 

minnie

awwwwww x2

 

yunnie

🥺🥺🥺

he’s so tiny

i just wanna squish 

and i c a n 

this is the best day of my l i f e

SANNIE HIS BIRTHMARK IS THE CUTEST THING

oh no he saw this

OH NO HES HIDING

PLEASE

IM SO SOFT

 

seongie

go spend your time with him pup

i just wanted to make sure everything was going okay

go enjoy your time!

 

minnie

no hwa hyung is being soft too now 🥺🤧

 

yunnie

thank you hyung 🥺🥺🥺

i’ll text you guys later!!!!

 

sannie




 

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the bois + dad

 

sangie

no one here probably cares

because you’re all lame

but

i’m 

so not okay 

like

i’m noooott okay

 

jjongie

who’s that?

 

sangie

yunho 🤧

 

jjongie

ohh

are you having fun?

 

sangie

yeah 🤧

he fell asleep a couple minutes ago and i’m 

not

okay

 

jjongie

awww

cute

give him a pat pat 

his hair looks soft

 

sangie

IT

IS

PLEASE

IM

DJSJSBDBSBSN

 

wooie

this is the most whipped i’ve ever seen you be

i love it 

 

sangie

i’m just 

he’s

i

dhdjsj

 

jjongie

whipped indeed

 

wooie

j when’s your shift over?

 

jjongie

like 10 mins ago

i’m on my way back rn

why?

 

sangie

shift?

you’re working?

 

jjongie

yeah they were hiring at the starbucks near by again so 

and since i was working there last summer they practically let me have the position 

cause they surprisingly remembered me

 

sangie

oh

i mean of course they would

your coffee making skills are 🤩

like idk why but it’s just better 🤩🤩🤩

but how come? what about your classes?

 

jjongie

eh 

my classes are more bunched up so i only have classes three days of the week for the full day and then the rest are independent 

so

why not 

 

sangie

huh

 

wooie

don’t try to talk him out of it

i already tried

 

jjongie

i’ll be fine

my schedule isn’t bad

so everything will be fine

 

sangie

if you say so

OH NG G O D

PLZ

MY HEART

I CANT DO THIS

 

wooie

??? 

 

sangie

so like

i was petting yun’s hair

but i was gonna look for a meme

so i stopped for a sec

and he 🥺

he w h i n n e d 

i’m

not

o k a y

 

wooie

jjong we lost him

he’s a goner

 

jjongie

i thought we established that days ago

 

sangie

 

wooie

this is disgustingly cute

i don’t know how i feel about this 

 

sangie

JUST LET ME CRY IN PEACE OKAY

IM GOING THRU IT

 

wooie

YOURE THE ONE THAT CAME TO THE CHAT

SO DEAL WITH THE CONSEQUENCES 

 

sangie

fair

don’t like it

but fair 

 

wooie

🙄

 

sangie

anyways

ima go 

because :D

 

jjongie

have fun hyung!!

 

sangie

thank u jjongie 🥺🥺

plz rest when you get home okay?

 

jjongie

i will 😁

 

wooie

yes i’ll make sure he does

don’t have to ask

 

sangie

🤧🤧

okay

bye byeeeee

 

wooie

wow he actually said bye and didn’t leave me at a cliffhanger for once

we’ve truly lost him

 

jjongie

stop being dramatic omg

now plz come open the door cause i can type and hold drinks but i can't do that and open the door

so if you want this

plz open the door :)

 

wooie

OH???

IM COMING ONE SEC OMG

I LOVE YOU THANK YOU

 

jjongie

yeah yeah just hurry up 

 

wooie

🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️




~~~~~




soulmates 🤩😝

 

sangie

okay so i kinda expected hyung not to reply to the chat 

but at this point i would’ve preferred it if jongho didn’t reply either

i felt so bad the whole time :/

 

wooie

woah there

don’t feel bad about this

sangie you’re finally experiencing something like this so please don’t ruin it for yourself 

he wasn’t upset when he walked in 

so don’t worry about that okay?

 

sangie

i just 

idk 

i mean you saw how he was responding

yeah he’s not that chaotic like you or me sometimes but he was just so 

idk

 

wooie

i know

and because of that i asked him 

because i knew you’d say this too

and he said he was fine

he wasn’t upset because of you

he was more upset that hyung didn’t reply 

 

sangie

oh?

 

wooie

because apparently he checked 

and hyung read the first messages you sent

then just never replied and never opened the rest 

so he was upset about that

but not because of you

 

sangie

oh

i mean

i never honestly wasn’t expecting hyung to reply

and it’s not like jjong knows about our convo earlier either so

idk

 

wooie

just don’t worry about it okay?

we’ve honestly done as much as we could

we can’t force either of them to talk if they don’t want to 

 

sangie

i know i know

okay well i’ll text you later

yun woke up and wants to know why i’m all blah rn

 

wooie

oh my god

plz that’s adorable 😭

now stop being blah 😠

 

sangie

PLEASE I K N O W

I CANT DO FHIS

 

wooie

bitch stop texting me and go spend your time with him wtf 😭😭😭😂

 

sangie

🤧🤧🤧

okay i’ll text you later

but let me know if anything happens with jjongie

 

wooie

of course

have fun! 

 

sangie

NDBANXNSJD

will do 😌

[ +😂 ]



 

~~~~~

 

 

 

Notes:

i was gonna post this a few days ago but i got lazy and didn't want to look up the pictures so ye. but as always, i hope you guys enjoy!!

Chapter 13: i just want you to hold me tight and promise me that everything will be alright

Summary:

we finally find out what happened between joong and jongho wooooaaaahhhhh

Notes:

omg? me? updating after who knows how long??

uhhh so while i do have like three chapters written already, i've just been not doing the best so i just kept getting too anxious on posting anything buttttttt hi hello here we are once again! miss me? no? yeah me neither-

am i doing this bc i'm procrastinating my homework? yes. yes i am. seems like college has not changed that about me yet

anyways!!! enjoy? hopefully?

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

the bois + dad

 

sangie

hello 

i am once again lonely

i come for love and affection

 

wooie

omg

how’d it go?

 

sangie

my heart will combust if i recount everything 

that’s how it went

 

jjongie

whipped

 

sangie

and what about it 

😤

 

wooie

i still find it incredibly adorable but weird seeing you like this but i can't say i don’t like it 

 

sangie

please hes just

he’s so

and i’m

 

wooie

BFJSBSJS

 

jjongie

how many memes do you even have???

you send a new one every time i-

 

wooie

jongho if there’s one thing you should never question about yeo is his memes

you just 

don’t question that 

we’ve been over this

 

sangie

🤩

 

jjongie

understood

i’m glad you had fun tho hyung!!

 

sangie

🤧🤧

thank you thank you

aaahhhhhhh



 

~~~~~

 

 

 

soulmates 🤩😝

 

sangie

okay fuck it

wish me luck

ima head over to the studio and see if hyung is there :’)

i can’t stand this anymore

 

wooie

he probably is

and by probably 

i mean he most definitely is

 

sangie

aaaaaaaaaaaa

 

wooie

you got this!!

come on

let’s be reasonable here

hyung can’t stay mad at you for more than like

5 seconds

you’ll be okay

 

sangie

a a a a a a a a a a a a

 

wooie

yeosang

i seriously doubt he’s mad

but i’ll be here and ready to go if anything happens okay?

 

sangie

a a a A A A a A

 

wooie

do you want me to go with you?

or i could drop you off at least

 

sangie

nono

it’s ok

yeah

yeah

right?

 

wooie

it is

it’s going to be okay 

you’re not the problem okay?

you’re okay 

 

sangie

i’m okay 

yeah

okay 

i should probably text eden hyung to see if hyung is even there 

 

wooie

that works too

he’s probs there tho

 

sangie

yes

but

ima ask

thank u

 

wooie

i know i know

just text me after yeah?

you got this sangie!

 

sangie

of course

and thank you :’)

wish me luck 🙃



 

~~~~~



 

eden hyung 

 

Yeosangie

hi hyung! i was wondering if you know if hongjoong was at the studio today?

 

E hyung 

Yeah he’s been here for a while

How come you’re asking me though?

 

Yeosangie

i wanted to stop by for a bit but i’m bringing him food and i know he’ll decline if i tell him 

 

E hyung

Alright

You can let me know once you’re here and I can let you in to make it easier then

 

Yeosangie

okay thank you so much hyung!



 

~~~~~



 

Yunnie 🥺💕

 

sangie

wooooooooo

im borrowing your couch for the night

it’s late

im tired

im not going all the way up to my place

 

yunnie

this is not woo 

but

is everything ok sangie?

sangie

huh

oh

OH

SORRY IGNORE THAT

fhsjsbchs 

hi yes im okay, it’s just that i went to talk with joong hyung and i wasn’t expecting to be there so late

and im very much emotionally and physically exhausted 

and i’m still outside his studio

which is far and a nono 

and if i can avoid one less set of stairs then im taking my chances

 

yunnie

oh?

how far exactly?

 

sangie

um

you know that one park that leads to a bridge overlooking the river?

near there kinda 

like

it’s not t h a t far but i’m tired

and that’s effort

 

yunnie

the one with like barely any playground stuff?

 

sangie

yeah that one

 

yunnie

oh!

weeeeelll

our apartment is not that far from there actually 👉👈

so you could stay the night here if you want?

totally understandable if you prefer going back home though! 

but it’s an option? if you want?

 

sangie

oh 😳

are you sure that’s okay?

 

yunnie

yeah!

no one would mind, it’s not that late anyways so the others are still up. it wouldn’t disturb anyone

 

sangie

then i wouldn’t mind? if you’re sure it’s okay 

 

yunnie

it is 🥺

but if you don’t feel comfortable that’s okay! i don’t want you to feel like you have to!

 

sangie

nono it’s not that 

i just don’t wanna bother anyone

 

yunnie

you wouldn’t 🥺

i promise!

sangie

then okay 🥺

 

yunnie

head over to the park and i’ll meet you there okay? it’s really not that far so don’t worry. i'll probably get there by the time you do!

 

sangie

okay

see you there then 🥺



 

~~~~~

 

 

 

soulmates 🤩😝

 

sangie

you know

i was gonna text you 

and say that im a dumbass

but my dumbassery has for once worked in my favor 

so i come to gloat 😇

 

wooie

is this your way of saying that the talk with hyung went well or…?

 

sangie

i mean yeah that too 

but that involved actual calculated conversations that i rehearsed in my head for the past day straight

so at that point it wouldn’t be my dumbassery, that’d just be sad

but yes the talk did go well

 

wooie

then wtf happened

it’s late

too late for that many big words coming from you

are you okay?

 

sangie

i’m ok i’m ok 

i was trying to text you earlier that i was gonna be renting your couch

for the night

cause effort

but you were not the last chat i had opened on my phone 

so that message did not end up going to you 

as you can see

 

wooie

are you 

are you telling me you sent that to yunho

 

sangie

mayhaps

 

wooie

how are you not panicking

 

sangie

i’m honored you think me texting you as i walk to our meet up spot is not me trying to not panic

 

wooie

interesting 

so should i hold back the freaking out comments until after?

 

sangie

ngl

yes please

would be appreciated

bc i’m tired

and i think i might actually start panicking 

so not rn plz

 

wooie

okay

you’re okay, that’s fine and understandable 

do you wanna talk about how it went with hyung or should that also be for later?

 

sangie

no that’s fine 

it went ok?

i mean he wasn’t as upset as i thought he’d be to see me tbh

 

wooie

he wouldn’t have been tho?

i struggle to understand how you don’t see that you’re practically his favorite

cause as i said

he can never stay mad at you for more than a minute 

 

sangie

but :(

 

wooie

no

 

sangie

:(

anyways :(

i brought him lunch, so i made him eat that first before anything. and then i was gonna apologize but he cut me off before i could even say anything

cause apparently he knew i was gonna start apologizing 

which i still did

cause 

yeah

and then after a bit i asked if he could just tell me what happened with jongho

and yeah no i wasn’t expecting any of that

 

wooie

that’s

that’s not comforting 

sangie

yeah

i mean

okay so basically

hyung texted jongho a bit after that whole thing went down

and yeah he wasn’t kidding when he said he barely even had the chance to apologize before he got blocked

ima try to be as accurate as i can here cause i don’t remember the exact words

but

it went a bit like

hyung: i’m sorry if it sounded like i got mad at you in the gc, i wasn’t and am not mad. i was hoping it would sound more sarcastic but i see i’m still terrible at texting. 

jj: okay

hyung: okay..?

are you mad..?

jj: no

hyung: then what’s up? is everything okay? 

jj: i’m fine

*aaaaannndddd then boop*

✨blocked✨

so i think our assumption of jjongie being not sober was probs why that happened

 

wooie

that

wow

okay yeah no i was not expecting that 

wtf

 

sangie

exactly

but yeah i guess my shock was more than clear and hyung just laughed 

which hurt

because he just

looked so sad

so i may have kinda said that it was probs because jongho wasn’t exactly sober at the time

BUT

 

wooie

YEOSANG WHAT

 

sangie

I SAID

B U T 

I SAID IT WAS CAUSE YOU HAD BOUGHT SOME DRINKS BC YOU WANTED TO TRY OUT A FEW RECIPES FOR OUR SINGLE’S NIGHT

AND YOU MADE HIM TRY THEM ONCE HE GOT HOME

WHICH

IS A FULLY BELIEVABLE THING THANK YOU VERY MUCH

 

wooie

why are you only good at lying if it involves me being the lie 

 

sangie

because 😇

anyways

i’m at the park now so yun should be here any minute

fuck i see him 

aaaaaa

i’ll tell you the rest later okay?

but for now, hyung said he was gonna try talking to jongho soon but he just wanted to give him some time 

and i think he kinda confessed to me that he does like him

 

wooie

WAIT WHAT

 

sangie

so

yeah

okay 

gotta go 

wooie

YEOSANG

WHY DIDNT YOU START WITH TGAT OH MY FOD

 

sangie

SORRY

like actually sorry this time

aaa i gotta go 

okay bye bye

aaaa

 

wooie

i really just have to sit here 

and try not to combust

with this new knowledge 

why is this my life

but yeah have fun 🤧

text me once you’re there plz

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

Notes:

i'll probably update again in the next few days since my brain has been going brrrr and this has somewhat?? become??? somewhat of my child?? and it's been kinda comforting to try updating this so yeah.
ALSO
A L S O
ATEEZ COMEBACK IN LIKEEEEEE SIX HOURS???
IM SO NOT R E A D Y FOR IT LIKE AAAAAAAAA
YALL BETTER STREAM BECAUSE WE CAN DO SO MUCH NOW AND AAAAAAAAAAAAAA
i'm so calm, so chill, i promise
anyways
a a a a a a a a a a a a a a

Chapter 14: september comes and everything starts again

Notes:

heyyyyyy so be prepared for some well deserved chaos? there's still that tiny bit of angst but its needed i promise!
and!!!!!!! HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY ATINYS!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE ITS ALREADY BEEN THREE YEARS AAAAAA!!!! this has legit been a journey for me and i wouldn't change it for anything else. ateez have legit kept me going through my high school and now college years so aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
anyways
enough of that
hope you guys enjoy! <3<3<3

small note!!! in the next two chapters, the typos in the chats are all very much intentional. because lets be real, if you're spamming a chat as something is happening, you're not really paying attention XD

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

seongie 

yunho

where do you think you’re going

 

minnie

👀 🍵

 

yunnie

um

for a walk?

 

seongie

Jeong Yunho.

 

yunnie

IM NOT DOING ANYTHING BAD I PROMISE 😫

 

seongie

then where are you going.

 

yunnie

sangie is near by and his apartment is farther than ours so i kinda maybe sorta kinda maybe askedhimifhewantedtocomehereinstead

 

sannie

OMG HES COMING OVER????

 

minnie

FJDJDJD

YAY I WANNA MEET HIM!!

 

seongie

where exactly is he

 

yunnie

i told him to meet me by the park you guys go to a lot 

since he was near there

are you mad? 🥺

 

seongie

no

but a “hey i’m gonna go pick up yeosang at the park” instead of just leaving the apartment at 10pm without a word would be nice 

:)

 

yunnie

i didn’t know if you’d be okay with it :(

 

sannie

we know yun and im sorry but im with hyung on this one

if something would’ve happened, us knowing you were going there would’ve been a lot more helpful in the end

 

seongie

i know i tend to be strict with things but i wouldn’t outright say no to you meeting actual people like that, especially if we somewhat already know them

just be safe

 

yunnie

i will i promise

sorry 🥺💛

 

seongie

it’s okay

❤️

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

½ of bois 

 

tiny boi

are you coming home soon? 

it’s getting late 

 

strong boi

yeah i get off in like 15 mins

i’m getting a ride back too so dw

 

tiny boi

oh?

but okay 

wait

it’s thursday though

weren’t you supposed to get off like 30 mins ago?

 

strong boi

uh

no..?

 

tiny boi

yes

you mean yes

i have your schedule on my phone j 

 

strong boi

it’s just a 45 mins more

it’s fine?

the manager asked if they could make that change and i didn’t see why not

 

tiny boi

jjong you had classes today too

the early early ones

aka

you went to school

at 6am

finished at like 1

then you went to work at 4

and it is now 10 pm

you need rest

 

strong boi

it’s not that bad..

 

tiny boi

bub you know you can come to us right?

i don’t know what’s been going on lately but we’re here for you okay?

you don’t have to hold everything in all the time

 

strong boi

i know..

can we talk when i get home?

i need to finish up rn

 

tiny boi

of course

i’ll order some food too okay?

 

strong boi

thank you 

can sangie hyung be there too?

 

tiny boi

sorry bub :(

yeosangie is at yunho’s rn

 

strong boi

he is??

he didn’t say anything in the chat tho

 

tiny boi

it was more of an accident really

and he was somewhat (re:very much) panicking so i don’t think he wanted to amplify that

i’m sure he’ll start bragging about it later

 

strong boi

ohh

i’m sure he’ll be okay :(

 

tiny boi

he will bub don’t worry 

now,

i know this probs isn’t very “responsible hyung” of me,

but do you want me to prepare some drinks too?

i’m not sure to what extent this talk will go, and you usually prefer that to help

completely up to you

 

strong boi

please..?

i’m sorry

it’s just 

yeah 

please

 

tiny boi

it’s okay 

don’t be sorry okay?

i’ll set up some blanket and pillows in the living room too

think of it as a movie night :) 

 

strong boi

thank you so much hyung..

really

 

tiny boi

anything for you bub

you don’t have to thank me

now go finish up so you can come back okay?

 

strong boi

okay

see you in a bit 

🤍

tiny boi

oh god i got a heart

im

🥺💛

 

strong boi

you ruined it

 

tiny boi

you love me omg 😭🤧

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

soulmates 🤩😝

 

sangie

uh i forgot to text but i’m at their place

we got here about 20 mins ago?

i was about to text you but i was very much threatened and and babied all at once

was a bit hard to process

and yes that all came from one person and no it wasn’t yun

the babying was from everyone tho but 

aaaa?

 

sangie

i guess you’re probably busy 

don’t worry about texting tho!

 

~~

 

wooie 

HI HELLO SORRY

I WAS GETTING FOOD

but oh?

are you okay??

we can talk about it later tho if you want!

also, i’m gonna have a movie therapy night with jjongie 

so if i don’t reply for whatever reason later on, then it’s that

 

sangie

is everything okay???

what’s wrong??

and yeah we’ll talk about it later plz

but ???

what happened?

 

wooie

he apparently got some hours added in work, and that new sched started today

i was not aware

so i texted him like the good hyung i am yk

 

sangie

of course

 

wooie

shut up

but yeah 

he’s just been more quiet than normal 

like

way more than normal in the past like three days

and now he’s adding more work hours?

no

he’s not gonna become workaholic-joong-hyung 2.0 before us

so we’re gonna talk

 

sangie

:(((

plz give him a hug for me :(

 

wooie

of course

but still text or call if anything ends up happening okay? i put my phone on ringer just in case

 

sangie

you don’t have to

but of course

thank you

ily 🖤

 

wooie

GOT A HEART

THATS TWO HEARTS IN ONE DAY

🥺💛💛💛💛💛💛💛

 

sangie

???

two?

i sent one before that??

wtf when

 

wooie

no jjong gave me one too 🤧

 

sangie

AWWW MY POOR BABY

PLZ MAKE THAT TWO HUGS FROM ME NOW OMG

 

wooie

PLEASE I KNOW

I WAS THIS 👌 CLOSE TO CRYING

 

sangie

😭😭

ok ok i gotta go

let me know if anything happens too okay?

 

wooie

of course

have fun!

don’t do anything i wouldn’t do!

 

sangie

….

you’d do a lot more than me

 

wooie

exactly!!!!!

 

sangie

i-

okay

 

wooie

shut up

 

~~~~~

 

sangie

i’m

i’m going to die

wooyoung i won’t make it out of here 

i’m

oh god

what the fuck

i’m

FUCK 

 

wooie

huh

what

hi

what happened

 

sangie

NFJSJSJSJSJSNS

 

wooie

oh

okay

so this is gay panic i’m assuming

okay good good

cause im not sober enough for actual problems

 

sangie

THATS FJNE

I WISH I WASNT SOBER

WHAT THE FUCK 

WOOYOUNG I CANG

 

wooie

oh god

ok

wait

jongho wants in on this

can we make a gc

 

sangie

IF THAT WILL LET YOU LET ME CRY IN PEACE THEN YES

NOW HURRY THE FUCK UP CAUSE IM DHSJBXHSVDVDBDBSBXBSB



 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

wooie created a new chat!

wooie named chat gay support?

wooie added sangie !

wooie added jjongie !

wooie changed their name to support 1!

support 1 changed sangie’s name to the gay!

support 1 changed jjongie’s name to support 2!

 

gay support?

 

the gay

i’m

not gonna even complain

NOW CAN I D I E IN PEACE P L E A S E 

 

support 2

yes yes 

go ahead

👁👁🍿

 

support 1

so what happened?

 

the gay

YUNHO

HE

H E 

IMXBSBSBSNSNSB

 

support 2

yes yes

use words now please

 

the gay

BDJSBSJSJS

H E 

FHSJBSBDDJ FUCK 

 

support 1

understandable

but what exactly did he 

 

the gay

NDNSBSBSHSBBSJS

yeosang you’re fine

this is fine

BDJSNDJS

okay 

i was

in his room

vibin

as one does yk

 

support 2

we’re getting words

this is progress

 

support 1

yes progress indeed

 

the gay

..i’m ignoring

anyways

he had gone to take a shower

so 

i was waiting

and 

i just

i never realized

that he just

never took anything along with him

as he left

and

and he

he just

 

support 1

oh

oh wow

 

support 2

wait i’m not following

 

the gay

he

he just

he 

he just

walked in

with a towel

only. 

 

support 1

oh fuck

 

support 2

o h 

 

the gay

and i think

i think he lowkey forgot i was there

bc he was blushing once he saw me

and apologized and changed quickly

i

i’m hiding in the bathroom

 

support 1

wait

he changed in the room with you?

 

the gay

i was looking away so yes

but

but

he

h e 

 

support 2

how long have you been hiding in the bathroom 

 

the gay

um

since i texted youngie

 

support 1

are you /just/ hiding in the bathroom due to being flustered

or

 

the gay

i refuse to answer that question without a lawyer 

 

support 2

HYUNG OMG

 

support 1

BDBSNSNSK

okay

so

huh okay i didn’t expect this to be the problem

 

support 2

drink up bitch 😤

 

support 1

yeah yeah

let me take a shot real quick

 

the gay

DID YOU GUYS BET ON THIS

THIS ISNT FUNNY

IM CHDNDNS

YOUD THINK THE EMBARRASSMENT WOULD AT LEAST MAKE ME NOT THAT BUT I CANT GET /THAT/ IMAGE OUT OF MY HEAD AND FJSJ

FUCK 

 

support 1 

just

um

hhhhhh

 

support 2

is it very very noticeable?

 

the gay

not as much?

but i’m wearing comfy clothes

aka

hoodie and pants

so

not taking any chances

now i’m trying to look at sad things on instagram

 

support 1

well that’s one way to go about it

 

the gay

DO YOU HAVE A BETTER PLAN 

CAUSE IM NOT RECEIVUNG ANY OF IT 

IM BDJSJSJSJSU

NO HE TEXTED ME ASKING IFNI WAS OKAY

FUCK

WHY IS HE SO UNDERSTANDING

PLZ HE KNOWS IM HIDING OUT IF FLUSTEREDNESS BUT FUCK I WISH THAT WAS THE ONLY PROBLEM

CAUSE BRAIN IS TIRED

AND BRAIN GOING BRRRR

AND IM 

DJSJHSS

HE

XJSJSJSBBSJDBDBD

oh god

 

support 2

HES SO SWEET 

 

support 1

well

i mean

you could just 

and hear me out

be ✨honest✨

 

the gay 

……

you think

you THINK

IM GOING

TO 

JUST

GO UP TO HIM

THE FIRST TIME JM AT HIS PLACE

AND JUST

NO

NO

WHY ARE TOU DOING THUS TO ME

MY BRAIN CANT HANDLE THIS WOOYOUNG

FUCK

WHY DID I THINK THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA

YOURE MAKING IT WORSE

 

support 2

i was gonna suggest that to so ima just 🤐😇

 

support 1

i raised you so well 🤧

 

the gay

wait

wait

oh god

 

support 1

what happened now?

 

the gay 

i

just got a text

from mingi apparently 

WHAT THE FUCK 

HOW 

CAN HE JUST

I

EHAT

 

support 2

please be what i think it is

the gay

RJUDHDHS

I HATE BOTH OF YOU

FUCM

HE JUST TOLD ME TO PLZ HURRY UP CAUSE SAN IS USING THE OTHER BATHROOM

AND THAT YUN TOLD HIM WHAT HAPPENED

SO THAT IF IM HIDING A BONER TO JUST GO TO YUN INSTEAD OF HIDING

AND I HATE IT HERE

I HATE IT HERE

I HATE JT HERE

WHAT YHE FUCK 

WHY IS THIS HAPPENING 

 

support 2

HDJSHSHSJSHS

 

support 1

AND I AGREE

NOW GO

OUT THERE

 

the gay

I HATE IT HERE

WHY CANT THE GROUND JUST SWALLOW ME WHOLE WHEN I WANT IT TO

 

support 1

yun could swallow some of you if you let him-

 

the gay has left the chat!

support 1 added sangie to the chat!

support 1 changed sangie ‘s name to the gay!

 

the gay

i hate it here

 

support 1

just go out there 

what’s the worst that can happen sangie

especially if you got a text like /that/

 

support 2

go hyung go! go hyung go!

 

the gay

i hate it here

but fine

if i never come back just assume i died of embarrassment :)

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

My Prince 👑💕

 

princess 👑

were you actaully mad earlier?

you’ve been kinda off since then 🥺

 

prince💕

no?

princess 👑

hwa :(

 

prince💕

i’m not mad sannie

really

ig it just hurt a bit

but i’m not mad

don’t worry about it :)

 

princess 👑

you saying not to worry about it is what’s causing the worry hwa :((

what’s wrong?

 

prince💕

nothing?

it’s nothing

it’s okay sannie 

princess 👑

hwa we have to communicate remember?

are you in our room?

 

prince💕

yeah..

princess 👑

then prepare for a cuddle session 🥰

 

prince💕

I love you you know that?

 

princess 👑

and I love you even more

now open up 🥰

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

Notes:

I hope you guys enjoyed! i wont promise anything but i'll really try not to take another month before posting T_T
i have the next chapter ready so I'll most probably post that once i get the chapter after that started hehe. i was going to post this a week or two ago actually but yeah i haven't been doing the best mentally so oh well what can we do.
as always, please leave comments if you guys enjoyed! they really do motivate me to keep this going and just overall cheer me up. thank you to those of you who have! they really mean a lot! this story has really become my baby since it's the only once i've been able to not give up on so aaaaa

Chapter 15: i'm so full of love i can barely eat

Summary:

yunnie:
have any of you ever woken up to an angel sleeping in front of you?
cause i have
i think i’m in heaven

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

gay support?

 

support 2

hi

 

support 1

?

 

support 2

i wanted to see if yeosangie hyung was still alive or not

 

the gay

no

 

support 2

hyung!!

 

support 1

did you guys have any fun?👀

 

the gay

no

 

support 1

is this you refusing to entertain the idea, or is something actually wrong? just making sure 

 

the gay

sorry 

i’m okay

i think?

tbh im not letting my brain process absolutely anything about tonight until after i get back home

 

support 1

does that have to do with the Incident™️? 

 

the gay

idk?

but nothing happened, i’m not lying about that

i think it’s more of me not wanting to acknowledge for the sake of preventing my brain of spiraling cause it really wants to and i don’t wanna let it ruin the moment yk?

 

support 2

hyung :((

 

the gay

im ok!

yunho is good company 

it’s not that hard for him to stop my brain from acting up simply with just his presence 

which that’s also the problem ig 

but not?

why am i like this aaaaaaa

 

support 1

yeosang it’s okay to feel that way

you’ve been working so hard to not let those thoughts get the best of you and you saying that is an example of that 

just enjoy your time and yeah as you’ve been doing, don’t think too much of it 

 

the gay

do you want me cry

cause you’re succeeding 

 

support 2

hyung :((((((((((

the gay

fjdjsjsis 

but thank you woo, really

im just 

yeah

 

support 2

can we have another movie night tomorrow? 🥺

 

the gay

yes.

jjong i hope you know that i will be demanding many cuddles after this

 

support 2

the cuddles will be gladly provided hyung 🥺

 

the gay

YOURE BEING SOFT I CANT DO THIS

god this is too many emotions for one day

i need sleep

 

support 2

i think we all do 

oh shit since when was it 3 already-

but yeah i’m pretty sure hyung just fell asleep

 

the gay

but it still says he’s reading the chat?

 

support 2

yeah his phone is in his hand but

nope he’s sleeping

we were kinda just waiting for your to text back so i think knowing your okay let him sleep

 

the gay

oh

i didn’t know i would’ve texted back sooner

sorry

i thought you guys would’ve knocked out honestly

 

support 2

nono 

no sorry

we just wanted to be available in case you needed to come back or something 

 

the gay

i

i love you guys so much?

 

support 2

why do you say it like that? :(

the gay

i just

idk i know you guys care, and i’ve never doubted it, but idk my brain just can’t like, accept the idea that you guys would do that? idk 

but really

i love you guys so much

 

support 2

we would do that and so much more for you hyung :(

we love you too 🥺

the gay

go get some rest yeah?

and preferably get woo to a bed? 

 

support 2

we made a bed on the floor! so not needed! he was already sitting down there since before so ye

 

the gay

can

can that stay there for tomorrow-

 

support 2

of course!

i’ll tell hyung in the morning!

oop nvm 

 

support 1

himhih

mim up

 

the gay

are you though? are you really?

 

support 1

m

 

support 2

[ image.jpg ]

he flopped

less work for me 😇

 

the gay

BFBSBSJSJS

plz go to sleep the both of you omg 😭😭

 

support 2

we will!

but you too please?

 

the gay 

i will i will

we’re just finishing watching a video

we’re planning on sleeping after that

 

support 2

good good

goodnight hyung! sleep well! ♥︎

the gay

goodnight! you too 🥺💛

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

yunnie

have any of you ever woken up to an angel sleeping in front of you?

cause i have

i think i’m in heaven

i’ve decided to bless this chat

 

minnie

oh wow

thank you kind sir for this blessing 

 

sannie

shit i knew he was pretty but damn

 

seongie

how is he not a model-

 

yunnie

IVE BEEN ASKING MYSELF THAT EVERYDAY HYUNG

LOOK AT H I M

HES SO P R E T T Y

HOW CAN SOMEONE BE SO PRETTY

i’m

i’m losing it aren’t i 

 

minnie

i’d say you’re losing it but with good reason!

 

yunnie 

thank you 🤧

 

minnie

now if you don’t mind me 👀

i have a few questions 👀

 

yunnie

excuse you i mind very much

no

no questions

none

too early

 

sannie

questions?

what type of questions?

 

seongie

^^

 

minnie

yun mentioned a small thing to me last night

that of which i’d like to know if there were any updates on that

that’s all 😁

 

sannie

interesting

i’m intrigued 

 

yunnie

and i am not!!!

nope!!

 

seongie

to be fair

knowing mingi,

he’s going to ask soon, and considering yeosangie is sleeping, i would suggest now to be the time for that

unless you want to answer once he’s awake 

just putting that out there

 

yunnie

😭😭

 

minnie

i mean

yeah he’s right 🏃♀️

 

yunnie

😭😭😭😭

 

minnie

so

as i said

i have a few questions sir 🧐📝

 

yunnie

sir may i bring my lawyer

please sir

 

minnie

no sir sorry sir

 

yunnie

it was worth a shot sir 😔

 

sannie

hyungie said to hurry up the interrogation 

 

minnie

i’m on it sir!

 

sannie

he said thank you but i was told very specifically to not add a ‘sir’ after that

 

minnie

i’m very hurt sir 

but it’s okay sir, no worries!

so yun 

my sources tell me you and yeosang-ah had a very interesting interaction last night

do care to give more details sir?

 

yunnie

no sir i do not

but i sadly don’t have a choice it seems 🤧

but nothing happened i promise sir!!!

 

sannie

hyungie: what exactly was the interaction they had that’s so incriminating?

 

minnie

…..

why is hyung not typing this himself..? 🧍♀️

 

sannie

BECAUSE WE’RE CUDDLING AND I'M RELAYING HIM THE MESSAGES BECAUSE HE’S COMFY AND STILL SLEEPY YOU DIRTY MINDED PEANUT

 

minnie

SORRY SIR I DIDNT MEAN IT SIR

 

yunnie

😳

 

minnie

but to answer the question

 

yunnie

😭😭😭😭

 

minnie

i texted yun last night

bc

yeosang-ah had gone to the bathroom and was taking longer than if he was actually doing anything in there 

so

i texted yun

bc a boy needs to do his business in peace

and s o m e o n e was hogging up the other bathroom 

 

sannie

I SAID I WAS SORRY

 

minnie

so anyways

i text yun 

to see what’s up

an apparently 

smart boi yun decided to go take a shower and forgot to take his clothes with him

bc he just 

forgot yk

 

yunnie

I DID 😭😭😭😭

 

minnie

mhm mhm 

of course sir 

so anyways

that means 

he just casually walked back into his room 

wearing nothing but a towel

with a very flustered yeosang-ah still being in his room waiting for him

which led to him hiding in the bathroom afterwards

now

here’s 

where the questioning actually begins sir

 

sannie

wait

hyungie: tell min that he’s improving his summaries. they’re getting quicker 

 

minnie

hyung 🥺🥺🥺

i’m trying specially hard for you!!

thank u 🥺💚

 

sannie

hyungie: aww thanks bub

^ tell him to continue plz, i wanna go back to sleep

 

minnie

okay 🥺

SO YUN

i texted lover boy after i was given this information 

 

yunnie

YOU WHAT 

MINGI WHAT THE FUCK

WHY 

 

seongie

language.

 

yunnie

sorry sir won’t do it again sir 😳

 

minnie

…sannie

did he ask you to type that from his phone

 

sannie

my lawyer isn’t here, no questions 

 

minnie

understood sir carry on 

anywayssss

i texted lover boy

and was given even more lovely information 

 

yunnie

wait

what

😳

what does that mean

mingi 

mingi what does that mean

I CAN HEAR YOU LAUGHING WHAY DOES THAT MEAN

 

sannie

is this going where i think it’s going?

 

minnie

depends

but probably

a n y w a y s

did anything happen after yeosang-ah went back to the room yun?

 

yunnie

no????

why would something happen??

 

minnie

…you’re kidding

 

sannie

wow

yunnie

im not 😭😭

why would i???

why would something happen???

minnie please 😭😭

 

sannie

hyungie: tell yun to please go read the summary then to think about who he’s talking to, then to think again about why mingi is being this way

 

yunnie

wait

MJNGI NO 

FHDHSHSJSISH OH MY GOD

NO

NO

NOTHING HAPPENED

NO

NO

NO

 

minnie

l a m e e e e

wait

how exactly did things happen after that 

like

in general?

 

yunnie

sangie just came back into the room and was still very shy (and adorable)

and then he started apologizing for doing that and said he just got really flustered and didn’t want me to feel uncomfortable or anything so he that’s why he left

 

minnie

okay

but

you realize

he left after you changed right?

 

yunnie

yeah..?

 

sannie

oh sweet sweet yun

so pure

 

yunnie

WHAT DO YOU MEAN

 

minnie

see, i’m not gonna give up any of my gathered information because nothing came out of this conversation like i expected it to 

lame

meeting dismissed everyone! 

 

yunnie

BDJSBSJSJS

BUT

BUT 

BUT THATS NOT FAIR

MINGI WHAT DO YOU K N O W

 

sannie

hyungie: yun, if this was the other way around, would you want mingi to tell yeosangie whatever it is that you told him, even if it was private?

 

yunnie

no…

:(

 

minnie

it wasn’t anything bad yun

but if nothing happened after that, then you don’t need to know about it 

 

yunnie

okay 😔

HDHSBSFSH

 

sannie

did he

did someone fall?

i heard something fall

 

minnie

yun? 👀

 

sannie

uhhhh

okay well hyungie wants cuddles now so @ us if he comes back 🥰

 

minnie

🤢🤢

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

Notes:

sorry it's been a monthh again ^^;
i just finished my first semester of uni so i'll finally have a bit more time to write a bit more! I've been working on another au too so i might be staring to post that soon 👀👀
thank you so much for sticking around!

Chapter 16: kiss me before you go

Notes:

this is mostly pure chaos plus a tiny bit of angst at the end but its needed so yeeeeet

enjoy!

also! its pretty obvious to me, but in case it isn't, "beep" is yunho and "boop" is mingi XD

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

beep boop

 

beep

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

 

boop

hi sir hello sir

i see we’re going private about this 

how may i assist you this morning sir 🧐

 

beep

HOW AM I 

SUPPOSED

TO FUNCTION

HSHSHSS

 

boop

this is a spamming session oh god okay i’m ready

 

beep

AFTER

HAVING

THE MOST PRECIOUS ANGEL

ON EARTH 

OFFER

ANDTHEN

KISS MY POUT AWAY

HOW

CHJSJSJSIS

IM

JDJSMHDJSS

CHEJSJSJD

DJSJSJSHSJIQHXJQKSOA

 

boop

OHH??????

HE WHAT???

WAIT WHAT 

HDJSJSKSJSB

YUN IH MY GOD

 

beep

HES CHANGING IN THE BATHROOM RIGHT NOW

BHT NDBSHSHS

MIN

I JDJSHSJSJS

AAAAAAAAAAAABAHSHSHSHAH

 

boop

HOW DID THAT EVEN HAPPEN 

DHSJSJ

YUNN AAAAAAAA

 

beep

DHDJSJSHS

CAUSE LIKE

HE WOKE UP 

AND I WAS POSSIBLY POUTING

AND I DIDNT KNOW HE WAS AWAKE

AND HE ASKED WHY IM SO POUTY SO EARLY IN THE MORNING

AND 

AHDJSHS

HIS VOICE????

MINGI

HIS

V O I C E

DHDJSJSHSH

ITS SO DEEP I WAS CLOSE TO JUST MELTING RIGHT IN THAT MOMENT

DJDBDJDB

BUT I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY

CAUSBDHSBSJSJ

AND IDK WHAT HAPPENWD

BUT THEN I JUST 

I JUST 

I JUST 

NDJSHDHSJS

I DIDNT THINK HED DO IT

DHDJSHSHSH

BDJDHDHD

 

boop

WHAT DID YOU SAY 

EHAT 

WHAT HAPPENED

COME ON 

 

beep

BDJSHSHSHS

I JUST 

AT FIRST I HAD BEEN LIKE IDK 

AND HE JUST VERY SLEEPILY AND ADORABLY AND CUTELY GLARED AT ME BEING LIKE YEAH RIGHT

AND I WAS LIEK

WHAT, ARE YOU GONNA KISS IT AWAY?

NABCHSHSHSHSHSN

M I N G I 

I DONT KNOW WHAT CAME IVER ME

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I SAID THAT

FHEHSHSHSHSHE

AHAHSHSJSHSJSJDJDJDBDJJD

I CBSHSHDHDJSHSHSHS

 

boop

LETS FUCKING GOOOOOO

THATS MY BOY 😩😩

AAAAAAAA

OMG IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU 

WAIT BUT WHAT HAPPEN AFTER

WE THOUGHT KNE OF YOU FEEL OR AOEMTHING 

 

beep

FBSJSJW

THATS WAS MY PHONE

I WASNT EXPECTING IT OKAY

AND HE WAS JUST 

MIN 

I CNAHFBRHD

HE WAS SO SLEEPY AND CUTE AND HE 

HE G I G G L E D

I CANT D O THIS

BDHSHSH

FUCK HES COMING BACK 

BYE

PLZ PLAN MY FUNERAL

 

boop

BDHDHDHSWIWJ

OF COURSE SIR

GOOD LUCK SIR



~~~~~



gay support?

 

the gay

so um 

support

i need support

support wake up plz

@support_1 @support_2 I SAID WAKE UP

 

support 2

m up

hi 

what’s wrong

hi

 

the gay

help

i did 

a thing

aaa

 

support 2

what type of thing?

hyung it’s 9 am

 

the gay

IM AWARE

IM VERY MUCH AWARE

ITSNTOO EARLY

I CANT BELIEVE I JEJSJS

AAAAA

 

support 2

WHAT DID YOU DO 

I CANT HELP IF YOU DONT TELL ME

ITS TOO EARLY FOR MY BRAIN TO TRY TO DECIPHER YOUR MESSAGES HYUNG

 

the gay

DHSJSUSJSJSJEJEH

I KISSED YUNHO

ON THE LIPS MAYHAPS

IT WAS A PECK

BUT DJSJSJSJSI

AAAAAAAAAAAAA

 

support 2

YOU WHAT

NO FUCKING WAY

WAIT LET ME WAKE UP WOO HYUNG

 

the gay

IDK OK

IDK 

HE JUST

I SNJSSMS

I WOKE UP

AND HE WAS ALREADY AWAKE

AND HE WAS TEXTINV SOMEONE AND WAS BEING ALL POUTY AND I WANTED TO JUST SQUISH HIS LITTLE CHEECKIES AND JUST FJDJSJW

AND I ASKED HIM WHAT WAS WRONG AND HE STARTED BLUSHING AND PLZ HE LOOKS SO FUCKING SOFT I FELT LIKE I WAS GONNA COMBUST

 

support 1

IM AWAKE IM AWAKE 

HOLY FUCK 

DONT MIDN ME YOU KEEP TYPING

 

support 2

DJSJSJS

 

the gay

BFJSBXJSJS

OKOKOK 

GOOD MORNING BTW

ANYWAYS

HE TRIED DENYING ANYTHING AT FIRST AND THEN HE JUST FUCKING SHSHSHSB

HE JUST WENT WHAT ARE TOU GONNA KISS IT AWAY

 AND BITCH 

 

support 1

DBSJSJSISIW 

 

support 2

NO WAY

the gay

I

DJSJSJSJSJ

I WAS HALF AWAKE OKAY

MY BRAIN WASNT WORKING

AND I JUST 

I JUST LEANED IN AND DID IT

CAUSE FHSJSJS

I MEAN

HE GAVE ME THE OPENING 

SO 

DHSJSBJSBS

AND THEN HE 

PLEASE HE GOT SO BLUSHY I COULDNT HANDLE IT 

SO I JUST LAUGHED AND THEN HE GOT ALL WHINY ANDBDJSHSJSJSJWJSJD

IM CHANGING IN THE BATHROOM NOW CAUSE THATS MY EXCUSE OKAY 

SO I SHOULD GO BACK SOON BUT AHSHSHSHSHSJ

 

support 1

LOOK AT YOU GOOOOOOO

AAAAAAAAA

 

support 2

THIS WAS WORTH BEJNG WOKEN UP 

HYUNG GO BACK FHERE AND GET YOUR MANS!!!

 

the gay

NDNSJSJSHSHAH

AAAAAAA

ILL TEXT YOU GUYS LATER

PROBABLY ONCE IM ON MY WAY BACK

NDJSJSJS

 

support 1

DONT WORRY ABOUT IT

GO HAVE FUN

 

support 2

WHAT HYUNG SAID

WELL BE HERE READY FOR SLEEP OVER PT2

 

the gay

GREAT 

OKAY

OKAY

BYEEEEE

 

 

 

~~~~~

 

 

 

Yunnie 🥺💕

 

sangie

i know i’ve already said it a lot but i just wanted to thank you again for last night 

i had a lot of fun 💛

 

yunnie

you don’t have to thank me sangie 😫

but i’m glad you had fun 🥺

i did too 🥺💛

text me once you’re back home please?

 

sangie

i know but still..

just

thank you yunho, really

and yeah of course, i’m about half way there

 

yunnie

is everything okay?

 

sangie

yeah

don’t worry okay?

i’ll text you once i’m home 😊

 

yunnie

okay 🥺

sangie

💛💛



 

~~~~~

 

 

 

dad™️

 

joong

hey

are you busy rn?

 

sangie

uh no?

i’m on my way home rn

what’s up?

 

joong

um

i’m still kinda 

blocked

by jjong

um

was hoping you could help with that..? 

 

sangie

oh

right

yeah i’ll see what i can do 

wait hyung

are you back home yet?

 

joong

i’m on my way

why?

sangie

could i stop by..?

wait nvm

nvm

 

joong

?

is everything okay?

 

joong

yeosang?

 

sangie

hi

yeah everything’s fine

i just got back home

don’t worry about it hyung!

 

joong

yeosang

you know i’m literally going to do the opposite of that

what happened?

 

sangie

nothing necessarily?

 

joong

okay then what didn’t necessarily happen?

 

sangie

i um

it’s just that i ended up spending the night at yunho’s after i left your studio last night. and right now i’m supposed to get my things ready to have another movie therapy session with woo. but i guess i just wanted to get my thoughts together and talk about it with you?

again it’s nothing bad. but i guess i need the different perspective? idk

 

joong

i see. do you want to do this in person or would you prefer this?

 

sangie

i think i’ll prefer this? i already have to talk later and

yeah this is better please

 

joong

then alright

so what’s up? did something not good happen over there or is it just a “i need to process” type of thing?

 

sangie

no it’s the latter

nothing bad happened

 

joong

okay 

then go ahead, i just got home so i’m here

 

sangie

okay

so yeah i went over to his place. and hyung he’s so sweet? we just cuddled the whole time and watched videos and? i’ve never felt so? safe? 

and it’s just 

everything is just so easy when i’m with him..

and i guess that’s kinda scaring me?

 

joong

oh sangie..

 

sangie

i know i know.. it’s stupid 

 

joong

no it’s not yeosang 

it’s not stupid

it’s only reasonable for you to be scared of that after what happened before

this is the first time you’ve been in the talking/almost dating stage since everything happened with 

yk

sangie

yeah…

i don’t mind us sticking with “he who shall not be named” btw

that’s the only nickname woo came up with that isn’t weird

 

joong

alright

i mostly didn’t want to type that all out but okay 

regardless

 

sangie

i know..

and yeah i was thinking about that..

idk

like

with you guys, having all of you and knowing you care for me is just different for some reason?

idk it’s just. i’m trying not to be so pessimistic about everything but i just can’t help but feel like this is all too good still? i’m just so scared of getting comfortable with him and then it all just being taken away again

i just

i don’t think i’ll be able to handle that 

i’m just so scared hyung

he was so sweet the whole time and i feel like even i should be able to tell that he obviously has feelings for me too. and the others were so nice and welcoming too but idk i just feel like i don’t deserve it? 

okay no not that i just. i’m just scared of finally being happy like that with someone again and then

yeah

sorry that was a lot..

 

joong

sangie i told you to never apologize for that

i’m proud of you talking to me 

no matter how many times i’ve said it, i’m proud of you for this yeosangie

and it’s really only understandable for you to be scared about this. as you said, you’re scared about this going the way it did again. but you know the difference? everything about this situation is completely different from last time. last time, you got together with 🤢 because we kept teasing you about being single, and someone took advantage of that 

this isn’t that sangie. i’m pretty sure even you can see the difference in character between them two. even though the rest of us haven’t directly met yunho, everything you’ve told us so far and what we’ve been able to tell from him based on the media, he seems to be a good guy yeosangie

and i know i was the one being more wary of the situation but after what you said too? he’s not trying to push you to anything. you just cuddled right? so already, that’s so much better than before 

but it’s still alright to be scared, alright? but you have try to let go just that tiny bit to be able to truly tell okay? unless you sense that something might be up, just let yourself enjoy it like you did yesterday okay?

 

joong

please don’t say i made you cry again..

i need to start saying these things more if this is still the reaction you give me when i praise you 😕

 

sangie

i

what do you think

fuck

thank you?

just 

fuck 

thank you so much hyung

for everything 

i just

i don’t know what i would do without you guys

 

joong

are you sure you don’t want me to come over?

 

sangie

i’m okay

i just 

yeah i’m okay

i have to go to woojjong’s place in a bit anyways so i don’t want them to think somethings up

 

joong

yeosang

sangie

i’ll tell them..

 

joong

good boy 

go have fun okay?

and don’t worry about my situation, that can wait

 

sangie

but hyung :(

i’m going over to theirs! i can just talk to him :((

 

joong

yes but i’m sure this hangout is for you yeosangie

you don’t have to talk about my problems 

i’ll figure something out or we can just do it later okay?

promise

 

sangie

im holding you to that promise hyung

we both know this has already been going on for too long

 

joong

and we both know there’s only so much i can do if i can’t necessarily get in contact with him 

 

sangie

you know where he lives

 

joong

he’s never there when i go

 

sangie

?

oh

right

yeah

he um

has a job now again?

so that might be it?

 

joong

excuse me?

 

sangie

umm

yeah?

i don’t really know all the details

i was at yun’s when i found out

sorry

 

joong

no no it’s okay

again

my situation 

don’t worry about it 

 

sangie

>:(

 

joong

yeosangie you do realize that you’re the one i’ve been talking to about this right?

 

sangie

but what about woo?

 

joong

i don’t think he’d be the best to go to sangie..

 

sangie

yeah i guess you’re right…

sorry hyung

but please try to do something soon? 

i’m ready to help but you just have to let me :(

 

joong

don’t be sorry 

and i know sangie

i’m only saying that for today, and today only, focus on you okay? or whatever it was that you guys were planning on doing 

 

sangie

what if you come along?

 

joong

we both know that wouldn’t be the best thing to do sangie

 

sangie

ik but it was worth a shot :(

 

joong

and i appreciate that a lot okay?

now go before they come looking for you and have fun okay?

 

sangie

okay 🥺

thank you hyung

for everything 

 

joong

of course sangie 💙

sangie

🥺💛💛

 

joong

😂

damn i should save some of those to have something to reply with 

 

sangie

you’re saying you haven’t already??

i’m hurt

 

joong

oops?

 

sangie

 

joong

don’t you have somewhere to go?

 

sangie

🙃

here i am trying to be loving 🤧

and this is what i get

 

joong

omg just go have your hangout 

i love you sangie💙

 

sangie

i love you too hyung 🤧💛

 

 

 

Notes:

i really wanted to post before the end of the year so i hope you guys enjoyed whatever this is!

i also wanted to say thank you to those who have been reading this fic, it really means a lot since it's just a random one in my opinion.

i hope you all have a happy new year and cheers to a good start to whatever the next year brings us!

Chapter 17: Valentine's Day? That's a Thing?

Notes:

THIS HAS LEGIT BEEN WRITTEN SINCE VALENTINE'S DAY OF 2020 SO ILL CRY IF NO ONE LIKES IT BUT PLZ I TRIED LMAO AAAA OKAY HERE IT GOESSSSSS

plz this is so long omg. i think its the longest chapter-

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

 

Sangie 🥺💕

 

sangie

hey!

i was wondering if you wanted to hang out for a bit rn?

 

~~~~~

 

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

sannie

hwa hyung when are you getting here 😠

 

seongie

it’s not even 6 yet

i’ll be back in a bit love ❤️

 

minnie

ugh gross

i get it ok

it’s valentine’s day 

but no need to rub it in for the singles 😔

 

yunnie

i think it’s cute 🥺

 

seongie

aww thanks bub 😊

 

yunnie 

WAIT

WAITSBSBSJ

YEOSANG TEXTED ME

NOOOOOOO

 

seongie

why is this a bad thing?

 

sannie

you can take him out on a date or something!! it’s valentine’s day!!

 

yunnie

i’m still at the shoot tho T_T

i cant leave for another hour or two >_<

 

sannie

ohhhh

right

i forgot you had that :(

 

seongie

well maybe you can surprise him afterwards?

 

yunnie

but how? 🥺

 

sannie

i know i know i know!!!!

you can buy him some food or some flowers and show up at his apartment!!! 

 

yunnie

SANNIIIEEEEEEE

MY FAVORITE SANNIIIEEE

 

sannie

[ link ]

there you go bub

i think those would be nice

 

yunnie

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU



~~~~~



Yeosangie 💕

 

sangie

hey!

i was wondering if you wanted to hand out for a bit rn?

 

yunnie

yeo 🥺🥺

i’m sorry but i’m really busy rn

could we hang out later? would that be okay? 🥺🥺

 

sangie

oh!

it’s okay!

don’t worry about it :D

we can hang out another day!

 

yunnie

wait are you sure?

i’m sorry 🥺🥺🥺

but really we can hang out later!

 

sangie

it’s okay!! 

really!

dont worry about it!



 

~~~~~



 

hwa hyung’s babies 🥺💕

 

Yunnie

this pure angel is denying my efforts of going later since i said i couldn’t right now, so im making this a surprise now

New Mission: Accepted

i must go now

 

seongie

please don’t do anything weird



 

~~~~~

 

 

 

the bois + dad

 

wooie

hoes

anyone got plans tonight? 🤩

 

jjongie

nope

 

joong

actually, you do :D

 

jjongie

i don't?

i think i’d know if i did

 

sangie

👁👁

 

joong

well surprise!

i know, and i’m telling you that you have plans

so!

how about you open the door and let me in?

 

jjongie

oh 

oh

okay yeah 

sure yeah i’ll be right there 



 

~~~~~



 

soulmates 🤩😝

 

sangie

did that just

happen

 

wooie

i think so???

 

sangie

w o w

right in front of my salad too

 

wooie

ikr??

hyung’s got gameeee

 

sangie

i’m just 

w o w

he didn’t even tell me about it or anything

i can’t believe this

well

do you have any plans?

 

wooie

surprisingly i do? 😳

 

sangie

wait really?

 

wooie

yeaaahhhhh

remember changbin?

yeah he invited me out to hang with his friends?? 

wanna come along?

 

sangie

oh

nah it’s cool

enjoy your night!!

 

wooie

you sure?

are you doing anything?

 

sangie

nah ima just watch some netflix

see what chick flicks they decided to put this year

and i have a date anyways 

this bottle here is keeping me company 😝🥰

 

wooie

i-

i was gonna stop you but 

it’s valentine’s day

let's be real i would’ve just joined you

so you better save me some for tomorrow!!!

we’re still doing our yearly single’s day

🥰🥰🥰

 

sangie

why do you think i got this in the first place???

how could i forget that come on

trust me a bit more 🤧

 

wooie

yeah yeah

okay well 

you can come any time if you change your mind okay?

 

sangie

thanks woo :D



 

~~~~~

 

Valentine’s day. 

 

The day where all the couples can go out and express their love to one another. Or also known as the day where all the single people suffer and sit alone in their houses while they see others being in love. 

 

If you were to place Yeosang in one of those categories? He’d be in the second one, obviously.

 

Yeosang had gotten back from the store no more than 30 minutes ago, having picked up snacks for the following day, as well as an extra bottle. You know, just in case. He was sitting on his couch watching Netflix as he had told Wooyoung, but his mind was still debating whether he should actually join him or not. 

 

Eh. Maybe he could just pretend that this bottle was his date tonight like he told Woo! That’d be funny. He would tell Wooyoung about his adventures of going to the store and finding his new date! 

 

The boy was eventually reduced to a giggling mess after a while, not really paying attention to- was it a drama or comedy? He can’t really tell. By the amount of blurred pinks and reds, he’d probably guess it was a drama. 

 

He really wished Yunho had been able to be there with him, though. That would’ve been nice. Maybe they could’ve even cuddled! Cuddling sounds great right now. But what if he cuddles his new date?  No, that’d be weird. Yeosang picked up the bottle, staring at it for a minute, almost as if his brain was still trying to form whatever he planned on doing. “Will you be my valentine?” He had barely managed to get out the words before he bursted out in laughter. 

 

He wondered how it was going for the others. Maybe his two friends finally got together after forever. That would surely be a good way to end the day. But a better way would’ve been to have Yunho there. 

 

Sweet, cute, adorable Yunho. 

 

Ah, he really wants him there. Should he text him again? But he said he was busy. Yeosang poured himself another shot as his mind continued its own argument. He should just be glad to have found this “date” tonight, right? This bottle was a great date. Definitely. 

 

An hour or two - and many shots - had passed by the time that there was a knock at his door. Yeosang was confused, was it Wooyoung? Maybe he came to pick him up to go with him after all. But he would’ve done that sooner, no? He was starting to get lost in his thoughts before he was pulled out by another set of knocks. 

 

Yeosang stood up (maybe a bit too quickly), as he rushed to the door. Without checking who it was, he opened the door, eyes widening once he saw who was there. 

 

“Yunho?”

 

The other smiled shyly at him, “Surprise?” he said, holding out a small bag with chicken on one hand, and a small bouquet of roses in the other. 

 

Yeosang simply stood there, mouth hanging slightly open. Was this actually happening? The boy looked at the things in his hands, then back up at Yunho, and then back at the objects, before he jumped and hugged the other tightly. 

 

“Thank you..” 

 

Okay maybe he wouldn’t be alone this valentine’s day. 

 

When Yeosang finally let go of Yunho, he realized they were still at the entrance of his apartment. Blushing, he moved back enough for the taller boy to enter, giggling as he waited next to the door. 

 

Walking in, Yunho looked around the apartment, admiring the cozy atmosphere the place gave off. Once more fully inside, he noticed the tv was on, as well as the bottle placed on the coffee table. He was about to ask Yeosang if he had been drinking, when he felt the boy stumble a bit next to him. 

 

Yunho only had to deal with his drunk friends a handful of times. Mostly since, well, he was usually the one being taken cared of...or Seonghwa would do it. Deciding not to think much of it, for now, he turned to the other, smiling as he reached for his hand to take him to the couch. 

 

Yunho placed the items he brought on the table as they sat down, moving the bottle aside a little. However, the task was not as easy as it initially seemed, as he now had a clingy koala holding on to his arm. “Were you drinking before I got here?” He asked as he glanced over at the other curiously. 

 

The response? A giggle. An adorable giggle. Yeah… Yunho would not be making it out of this alive.

 

After a couple seconds, Yeosang nodded. “I drank...” he stopped for a minute, eyes focusing on the bottle, “...the amount that’s not in that bottle right now. Yeah,” he giggled as he pointed to the half-empty bottle. 

 

Oh. 

 

Oh. 

 

~~~~~

 

Toll & Smoll

 

yunnie

SAN

SANNIIEEEEE

I KNOW YOU’RE ON YOUR DATE BUT PLZ

 

sannie

what’s wrong?

i thought you were heading to yeosang’s?

did something happen?

 

yunnie

no?

 

sannie

???

 

yunnie

umm

he’s drunk rn??

idk what to do 

sannie what do i do 🥺🥺

 

sannie

ohh

did he drink a lot?

 

yunnie

i think so yeah

nothing bad is happening but i wanna take care of him and idk what to do 🥺

 

sannie

ummm

i don’t really know aaa

hwa says you could try texting one of his friends maybe?

like, ask him if you can borrow his phone and text one of them?

that's all i got bub sorry 🥺

 

yunnie

i’ll try that!!

thank you 🥺🥺🥺

have fun on your date!! tell hyung i say hi!!

 

sannie

you too bub 🥺

 

yunnie



~~~~~



“Hey Yeo?” Yunho asked, putting his phone back into his pocket. 

 

The other hummed in response, his face buried into Yunho’s arm as he watched the movie. 

 

Yunho thought of how to ask, not wanting to seem weird. “Um… Can I borrow your phone for a second? Would it be okay if I text one of your friends real quick?” 

 

It took Yeosang a second to process the request. His friends? Why would he want to text his friends? They’d probably be busy. But he couldn’t really think of a reason as to why the other wanted to so he just shrugged. “Okay,” he said quietly. The boy felt around in his pockets. No phone there. He whined, sitting up from his spot, and looked around for the phone. “Oh!” He reached for the table and grabbed the phone, flopping back onto Yunho’s side with a giggle as he handed it over. 

 

“Thank you,” Yunho said, rubbing his head against the top of Yeosang’s. The other simply giggled and nodded, burying his face against the elder’s arm again. 

 

Yunho opened the boy’s phone, going into his texts and tried to see who would be one of his close friends. The most recent one came from someone named “wooie”. He clicked on that one, remembering the boy’s name from the moment he stalke- looked at Yeosang’s youtube account. Yunho just hoped he would answer. 



~~~~~



soulmates 🤩😝

 

sangie

hi!

this is yunho!

 

wooie

yunho..?

as in-

wait

okay give me one sec

 

sangie

ok?

 

sangie

hello…?

 

wooie

okay hi sorry

i needed to uh

scream for a moment 😇

 

sangie 

oh? 😳

 

wooie

how may i help you? 😊

wait are you with yeosang then?

 

sangie

yeah!

i wanted to surprise him 🥺

 

wooie

omg 🥺🥺🥺

that’s so cute 🥺

wait but why are you texting me then? is everything okay?

 

sangie

ummm 👉👈

he’s kinda drunk rn?

when i got here he was already drinking 

and i kinda don’t know what to do? he’s okay!! nothing bad happened i promise! but idk how to take care of him 🥺🥺

 

wooie

you are

an actual angel

but yeah he told me he was gonna drink so don’t worry about it being anything bad. it’s our way of celebrating as single beans 😅

but ok do you know how much he drank?

 

sangie

ummmm

he had a bottle of vodka on the table and it’s a bit less than half empty. it’s not that big of a bottle? so don’t worry it’s not that much

but he only pointed and said he drank the amount not there so i’m assuming he drank that much 

 

wooie

i-

okay 

he’s not drinking anymore right?

 

sangie

he’s kinda 

clinging to my arm rn

so no, no he’s not 

 

wooie

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

okay well 

as you can see

he’s clingy when he’s really really drunk. so it makes sense

but there’s not much to do

just make sure he doesn’t drink anymore and that he drinks some water

and maybe ask if he ate already. if not there should still be some ramen or animal crackers in the closet next to the fridge 

 

sangie

oh i brought some chicken!

is that okay? 

 

wooie

oh

yeah

that’s great

amazing

yeah you’re not getting him away from you then

 

sangie

huh? why?

i mean 

i wouldn’t want him to?

 but why?

 

wooie

simple

chicken = happy yeosang

 

sangie

oh!!

i’m glad then 🥰

 

wooie

but yeah all you need to do is get him some water and food. and cuddles! definitely give him cuddles

 

sangie

i can do that! 

thank you!! 🥺🥺🥺

 

wooie 

no problem 😁

have fun!!!

and thank you for doing this for him btw. it’s really kind of you 🥺

 

sangie

i really wanted to 🥺🥺 i felt bad for not coming sooner since i had some work. i didn’t want him to be alone :(

 

wooie

you’re such an angel omg

i’m glad he has you 🥺

 

sangie

🥺

ok ok he’s whining i gotta go 😳😳🥺

 

wooie

of course he is

bye byeee 😂

 

~~~~~

 

“Okay, okay, I’m done,” Yunho said, turning off the phone before handing it back. The other giggled as he put the phone on the table. 

 

Before Yeosang had the chance to move back, however, Yunho scooted closer to the edge of the couch and held him there. “Let’s eat a bit first, okay? Then we can go back to cuddling, is that okay?” he asked, looking at Yeosang for any sign of discomfort. 

 

Yeosang quickly nodded. “Food, please,” he said, looking at the other with a pair of puppy eyes. 

 

Yunho giggled, trying to resist the urge to coo at him. He reached for the bag of chicken,  pulling out the container and placing it in front of the two. Taking out a piece, he was ready to bite into it when he saw Yeosang pout. He looked over at him, ready to ask what was wrong, when Yeosang opened his mouth. He was looking from him and towards the chicken, then repeated the action. 

 

Oh.

 

“D-Do you want me to..feed you..?” he hesitated, trying to understand what was happening. The other simply nodded, opening his mouth again as he waited patiently. Oh god is this actually happening??

 

Yunho had seen his share of cute pictures or videos of Yeosang being cute (he was on youtube for quite a while the previous days). But none of that would’ve been enough to prepare him for this

 

Here he was, sitting next to the Kang Yeosang, on the couch, feeding him chicken he had picked up on his way here for Valentine’s Day. Yunho was even making sure to wipe Yeosang’s cheeks and mouth, not wanting him to get messy.

 

But wow. 

 

He really couldn’t stop staring at him. How could someone be so cute while eating? Yeosang’s cheeks would poof up and his lips would create the most adorable pout. Yunho was truly using all the self control he had to not to just lean over and pinch his cheeks every time he looked at him. 

 

Or kiss him. 

 

Yeah, that too.

 

A whine brought him out from his inner monologue, Yeosang not so patiently waiting to be fed again. “Sorry, sorry,” Yunho mumbled, bringing the chicken up to the others lips. 

 

“It’s okay,” Yeosang giggled, taking a bite from the chicken. 

 

Yunho’s heart really didn’t see how he’d make it out of this alive. 

 

The two boys were now sitting back on the couch. Yeosang had somehow found his way onto Yunho’s lap (not that he minded, of course). The taller was simply holding him, running his hand through his hair gently. 

 

Yeosang sat up a bit, looking at Yunho with a small smile. “You know, Yunho” He giggled. “Sorry that was funny.” Yunho chuckled as he waited for the other to continue. “But you know, you made me not lonely tonight.” He smiled. In this angle, the taller could see the other’s flushed cheeks, his eyes still seemed glossed over and dazed. He was honestly starting to wonder how he could still form coherent sentences at this rate. Maybe I really am just a lightweight.

 

“I’m glad,” Yunho smiled at him. 

 

“Daehyunnie was almost right when he said I’d always be alone. But then you came~” Yeosang drew out the last phrase in an almost singsong voice, giggling as he finished.

 

Yunho furrowed his brows at that, “Who would tell you that you’d always be alone?” 

 

“Just some guy,” he shrugged, his sentences starting to sound more slurred the more he spoke. That’s when Yunho noticed the younger was starting to look more tired, his head lolling forward slightly. 

 

“You’ll never be alone, Sangie. Whoever that guy is, don’t listen to him.” Yunho wrapped his arms tighter around the latter’s waist as he leaned forward and hugged him again. 

 

Yeosang hummed in a sort of understanding, nuzzling closer into Yunho. The other waited for a moment, waiting to see if Yeosang would say anything else. As the boy lay there silently, Yunho reached for Yeosang’s phone carefully, not wanting to disturb him. 

 

~~~~~

 

soulmates 🤩😝

 

sangie

hey woo?

it’s still yunho

 

wooie

oh hi!

what’s up?

 

sangie

i was wondering if i could have your number? just so we don’t have to keep texting through sangie’s phone?

 

wooie

oh yeah sure ☺️

***-***-****

 

sangie

thank you!

 

~~~~~

 

 wooyoungie  🧸

 

yunnie

hi!! this is Yunho!

 

woo

hellooooo 😁

so what’s up? how’s yeo doing?

 

yunnie

he’s okay 🥺🥺

but i kinda wanted to ask you something 👉👈

 

woo

okay shoot

 

yunnie

ummm do you know someone named daehyun? i thinks that’s the name

 

woo

oh

why do you ask?

 

yunnie

um cause yeosang mentioned his name

and said some things?

but he didn’t tell me who that was and i was hoping maybe you knew?

 

woo

uh yeah

that’s his ex

 

yunnie

oh

did um

did they not have a good relationship..?

 

woo

no not really

why though? what’d he say?

 

yunnie

umm he was saying he was glad i was here because daehyun said he’d always be alone

 

woo

right.

yeah he was an ass

 

yunnie

oh?

umm

is it okay to ask what happened?

why would he say that?

 

woo

i’d really like to, 

but i think yeosang should be the one to tell you about that

 

yunnie

okay 

well thank you for telling me 🥺

 

woo

of course

feel free to text me if anything else happens okay?

 

yunnie

okay! thank you 🥺

 

woo

np! have fun! 🥺



~~~~~



Yunho put his phone away, taking in the scene around him; the TV was on a dark screen, the movie having ended a while ago, he had moved the leftovers to the kitchen before getting comfy, which only left the cups on the table. The boy looked down at Yeosang. He was sleeping soundly, curled up on his lap as his hands were still loosely around Yunho’s torso. 

 

With a lot of hesitation, Yunho carefully removed the older boy from his lap. He got up and turned off the lights along with the TV. Moving back to the couch, he tried to be as gentle as he could to get the two of them in a somewhat comfortable position, not wanting to disturb him. 

 

“Goodnight Sangie...” he whispered, softly kissing the top of his head. Yunho held him closely, practically using his body to shield the boy from the outside world as he let the sleep claim him too. 

 

~~~~~

 

4 am. 

 

Wooyoung was barely on his way back from his little hang out, glad to finally be on his way to some resting time. He was currently in the elevator, struggling to keep himself up. 

 

He was about to click on the button leading to his floor, but ended up clicking the following one instead. Might as well check up on Yeosang, right?

 

The little bell dinged after a couple of seconds, signaling his arrival to his almost sleeping brain. The boy got off the elevator, now headed towards his friend’s apartment. He stopped by the front door, his mind trying to think of what he was planning on doing to get inside. Gasping slightly, Wooyoung reached down on the mat and got the spare key, for once being glad he put it back the last time he used it. 

 

Opening the door quietly, he looked around. All he was met with was the darkness from the hour. He walked in, closing the door behind him. 

 

Wooyoung felt his way around the apartment to the small desk next to the living room, knowing the lamp there wouldn’t be alarming if anyone were to be in the room. Turning it on, he saw the two figures lying on the couch, eyes squinting to make sure it wasn’t just one. 

 

After confirming, the boy smiled, seeing the way Yunho held Yeosang against him. 

 

He walked closer to the pair, taking out his phone and snapping a couple pictures of the two. Finally some good blackmail material. He bit his lip, trying to prevent his giggles from waking the lovebirds in front of him. 

 

Wooyoung looked around, walking towards the basket in the corner with Yeosang’s extra blankets (totally not for their pillow forts). He picked up the first one, walking back to the couch and covering the boys with it as gently as he could. He stepped back and took a couple more pictures before deciding he should probably go back to his original mission of getting some sleep for the night. 

 

He turned off the lamp, now using his phone’s light to find his way back out. Locking the door behind him, Wooyoung let out a small shriek as he almost forgot to put the key back (again). After finally making sure the key is in its place, he headed back toward the elevator and continued on with his task, the soft smile never leaving his face. 

 

What a great way to end the night.



~~~~~

Notes:

please i wasn't kidding when i said this has been written since 2020. but yeah. i don't think it'd my best work but i'm trying to write fluff in written form more so this was an attempt!

don't worry about joongjjong (is that the ship name?)! we'll get to that soon i promise!

as always! thank you so much for reading! comments and kudos are extremely appreciated and treasured <3

Notes:

I hope you guys enjoyed it? Updates will be random but I have mostly everything close to being completed so who knows. Please leave comments if you liked this so far, it really helps! Have a nice day/night, everyone!