Chapter 1: The Past 19 Years
Summary:
Amara's life over the last 19 years and what her life is now. While she may be an adult, she is restrained to a palace, treated as some fragile child. One fight that led her to her room led Charlie to come save the day, only Angel and Husk gave her a night to remember, even making a friend. But all that fun and that following morning she finds herself asking Charlie is she would ever lie to her. Only they went straight to Dad only making matters worse.
Notes:
AHHH! WELCOME EVERYONE! If you're new, hello, if not......welcome back. Now, if you want to read the first story, you can, but if you don't care too no issue. Everything will be reminded again, and as the story moves along, more of the last story will come out, but I do say just look through it because emotions can't be copied into this as well.
Anyways, I hope you all enjoy, and if anyone wishes to make art or anything, feel free, just tag the story and put in the comments....hehe I wanna see. I had a friend go through my last story, and he said I needed to mention that. Hehe sorry.
Also, for this first chapter, it's from Amara's perspective, but after it will be like normal.
Enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
My name is Amara Morningstar. I am 19 years old. I live with my dad, Lucifer Morningstar, aka the king of hell, and I live with him still. Ever since I could remember, it was me and him, every morning and night I was with him or with my older sister Charlie, but as I got older, I didn't see her as much. This sucks since she was the reason I was even able to leave the palace and see her and everyone staying at the hotel. But with so many sinners that have been redeemed in the almost 20 years it's been open they have been getting busier every year. I see my godparents every so often and even stay with them, but my dad stopped letting me stay over at Oz's, saying it was too far away and he didn't want her to know about the lust ring. It pissed me off but he wouldn't listen, I could stay at Rosie's which was fun, she's a bit old-fashioned but I get to enjoy hearing what her father was really like.
My father wasn't some lowlife or some one-night stand but an overlord which always amazed me. But he wasn't just some overlord, he was the overlord everyone wanted to be, everyone wanted dead, he was the most feared and most powerful. Hearing stories of him was great in all and hearing the old radio shows or my frog I never parted with that he made me but none of it filled this weight. None of it compared to seeing him in real life or touching him or even just talking to him, having him to talk to and really respond, her dad told her how he got hurt during an extermination day which ended up poisoning him and making him sick, and after months of fighting he passed but he loved me and asked everyone to tell me that he wasn't some monster which he wasn't to me......he was a fucking badass.
What I would give just to see him fight or even the fear in the sinner's eyes when he looked at them and even got near them, he was powerful. My dad on the other hand spent time in his office or took me to boring meetings where I had to sit in the corner like a child, or he was stuck reading the same books he read when I was little. Sure he was there for me when I needed but never could I go out alone or just have friends her own age. Hell, she never even walked Pride City, even worse. The last time I went to the hotel I talked to Niffty who told me about her father's radio towers and how they still stood but no one could get in but her or her dad. I begged my dad that night to go but he just said he was tired and offered to watch a movie in bed with a snack which I sadly agreed to.
They did a family trip for a while once even twice a year when I was little it was to a ring or Lulu World which was fine or the beach which was fun except her dad insisted she cover everything up. The last time they went was a few years ago but while I was taking her cover off and wanted to show off my new bathing suit that Uncle Angel got. Some boy walked up to me and actually talked to me, it was so exciting I started to have fun and even feel social but fuck my life cause my dad all burnt embarrassed me by telling the boy if he looked at me again he was as good as dead and of course, he ran away. He then proceeded to give me a sweater to put on which for once she stood up and said no but it just lead to them fighting and me sitting under an umbrella with a fucking sweater on while everyone played with her dad sitting there trying to talk to her as if nothing happend. So when the next time came I told him if we go I wanted to socialize with others which he always seemed to hate so we just started having the family over more with his friends.
Ask me how many friends my age I have........none! I am 19 years old and have no friends, no plan for my life, and I can't even leave my house. Charlie has powers, she saw them with her own eyes so where the hell are mine?! I am 19 and my only close friend is a stuffed frog her dead father gave me, how embarrassing and sad. Her father had to be ashamed of her from wherever he was for doing nothing with her life. Hell, she was homeschooled and when she asked her Dad about working he said no, like........WHAT THE HELL! All I want to do is live yet I am treated like some fragile doll any mention of it to my dad and he just cries saying how I am the last thing of her father....this and that.....just a huge guilt trip leaving her to apologize and make food.
Now seeing Grammie was the only other thing that helped keep her sanity. She walked around heaven and learned how to do so much, like my favorite was cooking. Man did she know how to cook and apparently so did my father. Grammie would tell me everything and be real and even became a friend while it sounds sad it's better than a stuffed frog so shut up. They would go shopping and dance, I even learned to garden which me and dad started doing at home which was fun. Then she had a restaurant that my father and her dreamt of when he was little which is so cute, he drew the building and her the menu but he never got a chance to see it which always had her hugging her grammie. She told me about my father's childhood and life and all I could do was hold her, then I said something like.. " If I ever see that man who hurt you or my father I will kick him in the nuts hard," then she would always laugh and cheer her up. I hated she lived alone so when I go, I always made sure she was happy I even slept with her which is nice, she smells like baby power in a good way and she listens to the radio to sleep which I still can't sleep without........or.....or my frog.....tell anyone and I will beat you.
See I love the radio, I always have even without the fact my father used to control it but there was a connection there I could never figure out. I don't have a phone it's not allowed just like a TV in my room, CD player, video games, tablet, or anything electric besides a radio. Now there was a TV in the living room all the way downstairs which is old fashioned and only takes cassests and when my dad wants to watch a movie in his bed he just snaps one. For a week now I have been planning to talk to my Dad and get some freedom since I am an adult but every time I tried I chickened out and sat in my bed holding my frog. But today......today was the mother fucking day. I woke up made pancakes the way he liked and took it to him as he woke up. " Morning Dad I made breakfast and it's a beautiful day outside."
" Oh? Someone's in a cheerful mood, did you eat already?" Lucifer slowly sat up as Amara handed him a plate as she sat down on the side of the bed.
" Oh yeah I had a bunch haha......even got the strawberries from our plant. I also watered and fed all the plants. Oh also found your missing duck." There was no good time to have this conversation but all she wanted was a chance to walk outside even if it was to a taxi which she always wanted to call for.
" Amara, what's going on? You're all over the place, do you feel okay?" She was swinging her legs and looking around so something wasn't right. Sure he couldn't tell what was going through her head a lot but slowly over the years, he picked up signs.
Deep breath you have practiced this several times and this is freedom on the line. " Dad I want to go out."
" Out? Do you need something cause we can ask the help to go out and....." Lucifer put the plate aside when Amara interrupted him.
" Dad.....I am 19 years old and I have never been out on my own, I get hell is dangerous but you had me trained how to handle myself. I know I don't have powers like you or Father or.....or Charlie but I want to......" He just held his hand up as he sat up looking at her sternly.
" No amount of training can protect you out there and here you're safe and I know you are. Out there animals and one sign of you and all of them will go after you cause you're my child, you can't kick or punch your way past a bullet much less if they have powers. Why don't you go see Charlie? I am sure......" When they dampened Amara's powers when she was a baby it was just until she understood but he kept pushing to get it removed and despite everyone's opinion he kept it. She was safe here with him and if she had powers she would just be faster to leave, go out and use them, get into fights, or challenge other sinners or overlords. If he had it removed after she was 20 while she slept then the radio demon would finally die for good and his worries about Amara being him are over.
There he was turning me down like aways but just trying to help by offering to see Charlie and it just pissed me off more. " DAD! I am an adult I shouldn't have to ask to leave but I am. You can't keep me locked up in here even if you want to, I need to live Dad, just because you want to hold onto me like I am father doesn't mean....."
" Hey, that's not why I keep you here and Amara this isn't some small place where there's nothing to do. You live in a palace where everything you can ever want is here. You don't have to fight or worry about your life or safety. Your father wanted you to be safe and never worry about some low life trying to hurt you or some overlord to come after you just for who we are." Lucifer slowly got out of bed as Amara walked over to the window. " If.....if you really want to go we can go for a few hours."
" If he wanted me to be safe then he should have given me powers or something. He had everyone afraid of him, he had powers yet me, his daughter, and yours I have none? But Charlie does. But......but I am not talking about that and just because I am not her doesn't mean you have to shield me from the world and I don't need my dad walking me around like I am 5. You tell me how much you love Father yet you keep me here, I want to have what you two did but I want to spend our lives together. I want to have friends my age and.......:" I was rambling but I didn't understand why this was so hard for him, why he refused to let me go. " You said I remind you of him is that why you won't let me leave? Are you scared I will leave and never come back? Cause I will come back but I am not him, I understand me leaving is hard but......"
" AMARA ENOUGH!" Yelling was never something he did but maybe it was the guilt or her being right but he had enough. " This conversation is over Amara please just go to your room."
" No! I am telling you that I want to go out and you just shut me down?! When Charlie was my age you let her out, she dated, had friends, she......she had two parents, BUT I HAVE NONE OF IT! I HAVE NO FRIENDS DAD!! I HAVE NEVER BEEN OUT OR BEEN ANYWHERE WITHOUT FAMILY AROUND!! I FEEL TRAPPED!!" He didn't seem to even care he just looked like he was going to send me to my room. " SCREW THIS! I AM GOING!" Why was I even asking when I walked out and to the door, the fucking guard stood in the way even when I asked them to move or tried to hit them. " LET ME OUT!"
" Amara you won't get passed them without me telling them to. I understand you're upset but yelling isn't solving anything." Amara wouldn't listen so he snapped them to her room. " Amara I think you just need to cool off for a bit and we can talk later but you are staying in here. I love you Amara but this is for the best."
" FOR WHO! IF YOU LOVED ME YOU WOULD LET ME......you would let me live 'cause it's what Papa wanted for me. Rosie told me he wanted me to live and not be afraid of the world, to be independent and not need someone to fight my battles." Growing up I always said Papa but when I got older it just got a bit cringe so I said father but every so often I slip. " He wouldn't want this for me Dad please."
Even gone Amara's first words were Papa and hearing her say it now had him going soft as he held the door handle. Looking at her so sad hurt, her ears laid flat against her head and her eyes were still big. " I'm sorry Amara but he's not here and hell has changed so much since he's been gone." When he closed the door he could hear her crying which hurt even worse as he sealed the door but just 6 more months and it will be over. He can get the chip out as she sleeps and then her going out for a little bit wouldn't be as scary. He walked back to his room and pulled out his stacks of work to do but he couldn't help pull out the letter Alastor had written him. He never read it in all this time only ever just the warning which he reread anytime he thought it was time only after reading the two parts found himself feeling better. " I....I miss you so much love I.....I hope you are at peace and happy cause you deserve it."
Crying was the worst but who was there to judge me....my stuffed frog? Yeah no and I was choking the poor thing anyway as I just laid in my bed a failure once again and I stayed there for hours hardly moving only moving to use the bathroom but if her Father was here this wouldn't be like this, he never wanted me to cry or waste my tears yet here I was. I didn't even move when the door opened or someone sat on the bed who I just assumed was Dad. " Dad go away. I can't go anywhere at least let me be alone."
" I mean you can go somewhere if you want?" Amara quickly looked at her but laid back down. " Dad called and told me about earlier so why don't you come stay with me for a few days so you two can cool off? Uncle Husk and Angel are there and Angel was pumped when he heard I was coming to steal you away."
" That sounds fine but......but I want to go out and live Charlie. I want to walk the city or talk to people without Dad behind me threatening to kill them." Anything was better then here for a bit but I always came back and never stayed anywhere longer then 3 days. So I sat up wiping my tears as he packed a bag.
" I know I have tried but he won't listen to me. Rosie and Grammie too but nothing." Charlie hated seeing Amara upset which only happend when she talked to Dad about going out or anything that involved leaving. Even on the ride to the hotel, their dad insisted on going around the city which just took longer. Amara didn't say a word the whole ride even getting out she looked over at the city. When they walked in Vaggie had everyone out doing exercises since her dad didn't want Amara near the sinners. " Angel look whose here."
" Oh shit kid!" Angel quickly hopped down from the bar as he walked over and didn't hug Amara since she didn't like hugs especially when she was upset. " Hey Charlie, Vaggie called saying she was having some trouble so you should join her for a bit me and Husker will watch this one."
" Amara, is that okay? When I come back we can do some cooking or....or you since you're much better than watching a movie or playing games?" Amara just nodded. " Alright. Angel if you need me just call and I can come right back."
" Would you go already before we get older?" He waved as Charlie left but once the door closed he tossed Amara's bag out of her hands at Husk. " PUT THAT IN AL'S ROOM!"
" What the hell?" Husk picked the bag up as he picked Angel off and headed to the elevator.
" I...I don't want to stay in his room." They always tried but I couldn't do it, maybe sit in there and read or help Niffty with the radio but sleeping in there was too much. It just felt like a strangers room.
" Hush now what the hell did Luci do this time? Cause it's me and you and in all honesty fuck him." Amara smiled at least as they sat down.
Angel was fun and always broke the rules which was even more fun not to mention he had no filter whatsoever. " I just wanted to go out on my own just for a bit. But he said no and I tried to force my way but I was no match to those airheads."
" Ahh.....if we are going to be honest....Vaggie never called and....I overheard the phone call so.....I say we live tonight. We go to my room we put something on you that won't have smile's haunting my ass and let you into the city? We can just walk or we can have some fun, smile's always knew how to party....or so I heard. I never could get into those parties but I hear things." When Amara got her powers dampened it wasn't supposed to be for this long and it pissed him off to the point he was willing to break Lucifer's stupid rules with Amara and then use it against him if he got pissed.
"You're not joking with me? Cause that's not funny." This was all it took? God, I should have asked Angel sooner.
" Hell no now let's get you out of these depressed clothes and into something hot." They rushed to his room where they ran through several outfits before finding one that was just a nice dress in red of course. It was a bit short since Amara was tall. " Damn, you really got Smile's body haha lucky you."
" Haha, I feel hot do I look hot? Oh, I can't wait and can I talk to people or.....Oh Oh, can I even try a real drink? I have been so curious." Angel just laughed at me but I was excited and scared at the same time. " What happend when Charlie gets back and I'm gone? She will call my dad who will lose his....."
" Hey....you are gonna have fun and me and Husk are going to keep you safe alright? Husk has never done me wrong and I told Charlie you needed some time with me and Husk so we were going to the park to see a movie that's playing. Honestly, that shit will get shot up if not I might cause bitch this is hell." Even here smile was like Alastors and the way she fixed her hair too. When they headed down to meet Husk he was quick to look at them.
" What do you think Husk? I think I look hot." Then strike that pose just like the magazine said.
" Angel what the fuck?! Amara can't go out like that, you know how many guys will try to...."
" Husk that's the point look if it's too much we leave but she deserves to have fun. She's a good kid and Lucifer is keeping her locked up just cause of Smiles." Angel slowly walked over to Husk as he whispered in his ear and when he stood up he was red in the face. " What's wrong sugar?"
" Nothing. Let's go." Once they got in the car he looked at Amara who kept looking out the window. " Amara if someone hands you anything you say no and you gotta stick with me or Angel alright? Someone fucks with you then you let me know alright? Amara!"
" What?"
" Amara just be safe please we will be with you and we picked a.......Angel, what club did you pick?" Husk looked out as he saw glowing pink lights.
" What? I figured the safest place would be where we know the owner and workers. Look after Al beat the living shit out of him he doesn't give me shit even if he doesn't own me anymore. Besides Vox got cameras all over here so she's even safer." Angel saw the glowing smile on Amara's face as they drove through the city it just made all of this worth it.
" You don't think if they see Alastor's daughter at one of their clubs they won't come? Angel you know how Vox was with Alastor and.........ugh fine." Husk didn't see a point in aruging they were there anyway.
" Wait who is Vox? How does he know my father?" Yeah, I was looking through the window and didn't hear most of what Husk or Angel said, but the sights were more amazing than from her window.
Angel stepped out as he helped Amara and they locked arms. " Ah, Vox was an old friend of our smiles, he got to where he is cause of your father. Vox even loved him which lead to a whole ass story but he is the one who does the TVs and devices for hell but you don't have any of it. Now just stay with me until we get to the bar and if someone touches you then you beat their ass and we will help."
Walking through it was just a lot of flashing lights but the music was so loud and awful I kept my ears down as I faked a smile until the pain stopped but as my vision came to I saw guys really looking at me, it was exciting and scary still. When they sat down Angel ordered drinks then he sipped both but handed me one which looked fruity. I just wiped the rim and sipped but it was good, it was just like juice. " Is this alcoholic?"
"Yeah it's just a cute drink nothing serious but it's a first. Now drink up and we will hit the floor!"
Hit the floor they did Angel was always so much fun but this was amazing. Dancing how I felt, hearing other people even talking to someone who just asked her name which I told but they asked for my number only I didn't have a phone so it was a no. So weird guys offered me a drink but that was a big no. But one girl was fun she danced with her and Angel but she didn't care who I was which felt amazing. When we sat down to catch our breaths we introduced ourselves. " So my name is Amara, you?"
" I'm Alice but I have never seen you around are you new to hell? Cause if you are I can totally show you around?"
" Oh no I have been here a while it's just my first time out....like this." No freaking people out or being weird was the main goal.
" Well you are fun and I am always looking for friends. I don't have too many and when I saw you dancing with no shits I had to try haha. You know Angel Dust?"
" Yep that's me no shits on these....these people's options." Why am I awkward to be more confident and badass like.....like Father. " Oh Angel is my uncle so is his boyfriend Husk."
" Woah that's cool, are you staying at the hotel or.....?"
" Oh no it's my sister's.....half sisters." Friendship is built on honesty and man do I hate lying.
" Half...........wow your.....your the king's other kid? The one everyone thought died or something.......hold up........... you're the radio demons......oh shit.....that's so badass. What's he up to or will he kill me if I ask."
" My Dad just works but he's just overprotective and shit. But my dad isn't a killer he just threatens to." Was I making a friend right now?! OMG!!
" No the radio demon no one has seen in him a while but man scares the shit out of everyone, hell saying his name is dangerous enough."
" Oh....he...."
" Hey kid sorry to interrupt but I need your help for one second." Husk was listening to Amara's conversation and needed to stop her before she spilled. She came as he walked up into a back room. " Kid hell still thinks the radio demon is alive cause his towers are still up and the shows still go. It keeps the hotel safe as well as you and Lucifer."
" He's been gone for almost 20 years why lie? My Dad can handle himself and Charlie has Rosie and heaven helping her so keeping my father alive and scaring everyone makes no sense." Sometimes I wonder if my father was alive what it would be like but using his name to keep yourself safe is just wrong. " Look he is my Father making that name somewhat mine and it's time to let it go."
" Kid it's not our choice and if your dad hears you did that and came here he will lose his shit. Look your father asked me to keep you safe and I have by letting the name live, Niffty needs the radio or she will lose her mind cause it was something they shared together." Husk wanted to tell Amara the truth but how could he, she would just get pissed and go to Lucifer who would literally kill him and Angel.
" I understand for a year max a few but 20 is too much." I am his flesh and blood and I am deciding it's time to let the truth out so I walked out of that closet and sat down.
" Hey I was thinking your dad is the literal king and your other dad is the radio demon that makes you like crazy strong right? What are your powers like?"
" I don't have any I guess it just skipped me or something but....."
" That's impossible. I mean we all know Lucifer carried you and the radio demon who was the father so you had to get something, hell Charlie got some and her mom was just a plain sinner who had power in songs. Maybe you just have to activate them or something like get scared and poof......powers."
" I hope so. Cause this no powers thing sucks."
" Look I wanna hang out again, I don't do alot of loud sounds but I like going to eat if.....I don't know you want to hang out again? I don't have a phone cause it was stolen but I could meet you at the hotel or........can I the palace without being killed?"
" Oh.....I would love to......you know what yeah lets do it just.....I have to sneak away."
" Then I will be your get away driver haha. It was nice meeting you and......how does tomorrow morning sound?"
" Sounds awesome." Once Alice walked away I couldn't believe it....I HAD A FUCKING FRIEND!! HELL YEAH! I told Angel all about it and met her in the morning which Angel was so excited for him. They danced a bit more and then left which I hated but I was tired. Angel let me sleep with him and kicked Husk to the floor which I just thought was funny. But Angel brought me my bag so I could change and grab my frog before getting some sleep. " Angel......Husk.....I know you risked a lot tonight just to give me a fun night but thank you. I would have never made a friend without you both."
" Kid your young you should be allowed to live even if it breaks your dad's rules. He......he just won't let go." Husk hated the floor but Amara was happy and strangely he liked that she was happy.
" Yeah and don't worry we will cover for you. But you're gonna take my spare phone which I can track just in case. You just text us when you get there and leave maybe take some selfies." Angel held Amara close and her hair was so soft and her little curls were just cute.
I woke up extra early since Vaggie is known for waking up early but I took the back way out of the hotel and made my way down the to street until Alice pulled up. Her car wasn't fancy and she wasn't dressed up which felt nice. " So where are we going?"
" Oh, there a cute little place by where we were yesterday but heads up I am starving."
" Thank goodness 'cause I am starving too." The windows down the air in my face was everything and enjoying a fun conversation with someone was amazing. The little restaurant was adorable and they about ordered everything but it only took their drinks to come back before the waiter quickly realized who I was but promised to keep it to herself. Just as I expected food was delicious and Alic and her couldn't stop laughing. They even comped their meal.
" I don't know if you have to get back but do you like shopping? Cause I am dying to check out this one place down the street."
" Um.....it's just down the street why not." Shopping with Grammie was fun but I didn't like getting myself clothes much I had a couple of things and it's all I needed. I even have my father's suit Rosie made for her so it fits but one step out of her room and there her dad was in tears so I don't wear it but if I was on my own I would love to. As for the shopping they ended up going to a few stores but I made sure to text Angel who just told me to have fun. " Hey, what do you know about this Vox guy? Angel said he knew my father?"
" Oh he is next in line for top overlord if it wasn't for Carmilla Carmine but since your father hasn't been seen he went from one to like....6th or 8th but he lives in the Vee tower a few streets from here. Big tower in the middle of the city. Say what do you think of this shirt?"
" No put it back but......do....do you think he would talk with me?"
" I mean you're the princess so yeah he kinda has to. But your dad would know more so why not ask him about the powers?"
" Cause I try and he shuts me down and my dad only knew my father for a year....ish before....." The truth but as I was just about to say it someone walked up to her.
" Are you the radio demon's daughter?"
" Um...... yeah?" That's a weird ask.
" Holy shit I....I am a big fan of his and I live for his zaddy vibes can I have a picture?"
I was going to say no but it was too late bitch took the picture and then ran off. " What the hell is a zaddy?" Which led to an uncomfortable conversation when they finished up and were walking back to the car I smelled something mouth-watering which I had to check out and Alice came only to see some food truck. " I gotta get something from there Alice it smells amazing."
" Oh, that's all you but I will sit with you."
I had just asked for whatever I was smelling and I was given a giant sub which was the best thing I had ever tasted in my life. " Mmm....you want some?"
" Amara......I guess you really are his daughter haha. I don't mind."
Manners so I finished the food in my mouth before I spoke. " What are you talking about?"
" It's sinner."
" Mmm, what's that?" See normally I am always hungry just a blessing my father gave me but this......man this was actually filling me up.
" Amara it's an actual sinner like the people. Canibal food?"
I just froze as I slowly opened the last piece I was on, I had eaten almost the whole thing but when I opened it.......it looked like what Rosie had eaten when she was over. " I.....I didn't know......I think I am going to be sick."
" Hey it's cool your father was one it only makes sense that you would too. My guess you didn't know but you liked it?" Amara nodded. " Then eat it besides it's almost gone and no wasted sinner."
" I....I think I'm okay." Throwing it away felt wrong but so did eating it but......her father ate this maybe for a reason so.....I ate it and it was amazing besides the guilt.
Besides, the sandwich was fun and when I got back I told Angel all about it except for the sandwich. Husk and Niffty even came over to listen and when Angel and Husk left she told Niffty about the sandwich and only wanted to get her more but it was too soon. So she showed me her newest bugs to her collects but as she was telling me Vaggie and Charlie stormed in. " Amara, what did you do today?"
" Let's see I woke up and then went out with a friend, had some fun then came back why?"
Vaggie showed her phone which had a picture of her and that weird girl from earlier. " Amara you have any idea how dangerous that was of you just to go out and......"
" It was but I was fine and I am an adult who shouldn't be treated like some fragile child."
Charlie sat down as she looked at Vaggie and then Amara. " I get you're an adult but you know how Dad and when he sees that he will lose it. He won't ever let you leave much less come back over here. I think it's wrong that he does this but he won't change his mind and I can't tell him how to be a parent."
" Please he loses his phone all the time who said he saw it? Also, was anyone going to tell me you kept my father's name alive? Mmm? Cause he's been dead for almost 20 years and that's blowing my mind."
" Amara it keeps us all safe while it's wrong it works." Charlie hated lying and this had to stop looking at Vaggie she agreed.
" Charlie......your not lying to me right? You wouldn't hide anything about my father from me right?" Rosie showed me how to tell if someone was lying or keeping something from you. Last night with Husk it was hard but he skipped over details and now Vaggie and Charlie just shared a look.
Why did she have to read people so well? " Amara there are some things you don't know but.....but I can't tell you."
" Why not? Vaggie?"
" You gotta talk to Lucifer it's him who needs to tell you the truth." When Lucifer lied to them about removing Amara's power dampener they only knew when she told them she had no powers. Charlie knew that but her, Husk, and Angel knew Lucifer was keeping her powers away until she was 20, so Amara couldn't be the next radio demon. It's why they kept the name up, Lucifer asked Niffty to stop a long time ago but she refused and they supported her. What Lucifer was doing was sick and in 6 months Amara would be 20 and she was tired of keeping this from her. She deserved the truth and the choice.
I just looked at Charlie who looked down then Vaggie who just looked pissed not at her but at her dad. Niffty just giggled. " Charlie I want to see Dad now." Charlie just sighed as they left I waved bye but I needed answers. When I got there I had Charlie come in with me as we walked up to dad office where he sat. " Dad I need you to be honest with me and tell me why the hell the radio demon name is still alive?"
" Well hello......um, I wanted to let the name die off years ago but it means a lot to Niffty to do the shows and all that stuff." He turned in his chair but the look Charlie gave him worried him. " What's going on?"
" I don't know Dad is there anything you are hiding from me about my father?" He was tence and when I walked closer he kept looking at Charlie. " Dad? You wouldn't keep something from me right?"
Amara would know if he lied and Charlie was giving it away so he did the next best thing. " Amara you don't just walk in here suddenly and then question me. How about you tell me about last night or this morning? Hmm?”
“ I went out so what? I am here unharmed making you wrong and you're changing the……..”
“ What’s wrong with that? Amara, it’s dangerous not to mention the amount of sinners out there who want me or even your father dead is…..”
“ DAD! ALASTOR IS DEAD AND HE’S NEVER COMING BACK!! It’s been 20 fucking years and yet you still act like I am him, there are no more exterminations and what killed him can’t kill me!” Yelling gets me nowhere so take a breath and speak with a level head. “ I think you keep me here so I didn’t know the radio demon was alive but he was my blood, not yours or Charlie’s……sorry Charlie but this is my choice.”
“ Dad……tell her.” Charlie hated to do it but this was just wrong and if her dad waited it would be too late.
“ Tell me what? Dad!?”
“ Your father……..has enemies who will go after you just to get to him even if he’s dead. They knew he was dead then they would come after you and Charlie just to screw him. But you’re right the radio demon needs to go for good.” He turned to the window as he looked out the window. “ The towers will come down and the radio will die for good. Tell Niffty I gave her the…..”
“ NO!” Charlie and her both yelled at the same time. I yelled cause losing the radio meant losing the last thing of my father, losing the very thing that soothed me and needed. “ Dad could…..could I take it over?”
All of this was him trying to stop Amara from being him but here she was asking to take it. “ Room now Amara.”
“ Dad please I need the radio and…..and I can’t lose it please!” This conversation changed from what I had come in here to even say. “ It’s…..”
“ AMARA ROOM!” He snapped Amara to her room and made sure she couldn’t get out or hear. “ Why would you do this Charlie? You know….”
“ Dad what you’re doing is wrong! She deserves to have a choice, it’s what Alastor wanted but you are taking it from her! You know why a lot of your friends and Alastor’s stopped talking to you? It’s the cause of this! You dampen her powers, steal her freedom and life away cause you scared she will……”
“ Charlie when you have a child and you lose your partner you can tell me how to parent. But Amara isn’t going back to the hotel anymore you can visit but Angel and the rest can’t.” He turned to look at Charlie. “ If you can’t handle keeping it then you don’t have……you don’t have to come around anymore.”
Over the years, keeping this secret just became harder, and every time she tried, he was ready to push her away if she couldn't handle it. " You still loved Alastor despite him being an overlord, I get you're scared she will get hurt but.....but this isn't what Alastor wanted. He didn't give her this chance to hurt you or anyone it was so she had something of him. We have memories while Amara....she has nothing but stories and a frog. I......I just don't want this to ruin our family but I will stop please tell her before you take her choice away." She hugged him gently and then walked out but as she walked to the stairs she could hear Amara crying it killed her to leave but she needed to just hope her dad would do the right thing.
Every device, every camera was his eyes into the city. If something happend he knew and could be there before you could even think. So when the post of some random sinner showed up on his feed with the hashtag Radio Demon it drew his attention. After Alastor was gone he tried to do right by Alastor cause it's what their deal was but it was going to expire in 6 months and he hadn't finished everything. Hours of feeds throughout the city just to see if it was really her and it was. " VAL! Get in here now!"
" Mmmm....what you yelling at me for when I haven't done........whose the chica?" Valentino walked over to the screen as he tried to figure out why the girl looked familiar. " Did I fuck her 'cause Voxy you said...."
" Val that's her...... that's Amara." The ears maybe someone else but that red hair and cirled cheeks just like Lucifer and Charlie meant one girl.
" Well looks like you're going to be busy."
For years he tried finding her so he could finish his part in his and Alastor's deal but nothing. It was like Lucifer had her living off the grid or on another ring the whole time. Seeing her now.....she reminded him of Alastor. Those feelings he lost years ago for Alastor even started to come up again. " Yeah......let's just hope I find her before it's too late."
Notes:
What was Alastor and Vox's deal? Why does Vox need to find Amara before it's too late? Will Lucifer tell Amara the truth about her powers or the fact that Alastor left her the radio demon name of her choice, which she has until she is 20? Will this secret tear the Morningstars apart? Will Charlie be able to keep her mouth shut? Just how much has changed in the almost 20 years since Alastor's death? Why is Alastor even in the tag?
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Chapter 2: Turning Point
Summary:
Lucifer thinks back on the past 20 years as Amara is still upset about last night. Amara reads some of Lucifer's hidden book, which ended up all being about the same thing. She tells Lucifer how she feel's which leads to them spending the day out, even going to one of Alastor's old radio tower's which quickly brings back the past to Lucifer, which he shares, but stops when Amara asks him a question. Alice comes to the palace and helps convince Lucifer to let Amara go, but Alastor's past finds Amara.
Notes:
This chapter will talk about some of the past, aka the last story but also fill in some of the blanks from that story as well so enjoy.
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Making his daughters cry or upset hurt more than anything, but neither would ever understand what he had gone through. Sitting by the man you quickly fell in love only to watch him slowly die, to watch him get sick and weak to the point he spent the day in bed, shaking in pain, only because of him not wanting to let go. Barely even a year of knowing Alastor, he was gone, and he took his whole world. Still, it took him reaching his lowest, which involved drugs, to see he wasn't the man Alastor fell in love with or the man Alastor wanted to marry. With their friends' and families' help, he got clean and sober, and he was there for Amara to watch every first.
Some nights while she slept he would watch her cause as she got older she started to look more and more like Alastor leaving him to go to the bathroom and cry. When she started sleeping in her own room it left him in tears some nights butthat side of her that came from him found her always coming to him for those nights to hold him as they slept. Or she asked to sleep with him when he had a hard day or he found himself missing Alastor.
As for her powers, he had planned on getting the dampener out, but after she said her first words, he realized that to keep her from ever getting hurt by being the radio demon, he had to keep her powers dampened until she was 20. He lied to everyone, saying he removed it. Only years later did everyone find out he had lied, but he made sure none of them said anything. Just six more months and everything will be easy again.
Once Charlie left, he took a moment to read the few parts of Alastor's letter before getting his work finished. Only when he finished, he go to check on Amara, but she was asleep in bed. So he pulled the comforter up and kissed her goodnight before heading to bed himself. When he woke up and made breakfast for them, she never came down, so he brought her breakfast in bed as she sat there reading. “ Froggy, I am sorry for yelling and everything yesterday. Maybe we could spend the day together. I have a meeting to go to, but after that we can go to any ring and just spend the day doing whatever you want. What do you say?”
“ Thanks for breakfast but I want to be alone.” Amara picked her book up to cover her face as her dad sighed.
She had every right to be pissed at him but growing up she loved spending the day with him they would go to parks and play or shop or whatever Amara felt like. They always had so much fun and now those days feel so long ago. “ Alright I shouldn’t be but a few hours but I love you.”
“ Bye.” She was pissed and yet he just wanted to forget why that was.
He opened the portal but as he looked back at Amara he hoped she would say she loved him but she just looked at her book not even caring. " I understand your upset Amara about last night but you have to understand it's to keep you safe. Charlie's mother was loved by all but Alastor wasn't he....."
" He was a horrible monster. Just go before you're late." When she didn't hear anything, she looked up to see the portal and her dad gone. She laid down and looked at the radio on her nightstand. " I just want to know why. Why am I nothing compared to you and Dad? I would do anything just to talk to you or see what you looked like."
Amara spent almost an hour talking to the radio as if it was going to have the answers she needed and praying that her dad just forgot all about destroying the last live thing of her father. Eventually, she sat up and ate cause she was starving but itwasn't enough so she headed down to the kitchen and made a couple of different things which seemed to fill her hunger. As she was walking back to her room with a bag of chips she couldn't help but go into her dad's work room. He had tons of interesting books in there; they had a library but these were what her dad read all the time. Walking in when he wasn't there wasn't allowed but she was pissed and curious so she walked in and went straight to the secret book collection he hid from everyone behind the wall, she only knew cause she walked in as it was closing.
There were tons of books most even handwritten and old which seemed exciting so she picked a few and then sat down in his chair as she read through. Only as she did more and more talked about the same thing this place called the Void. It was below hell and made to hold the first woman Eve who now goes by Roo. Most of it was just what it was like down there and she found it fascinating that there was an even worse hell but full of darkness. It's where the worst of the worst went, and they had the power to conquer heaven which is why no one can leave.
She had to be sitting there looking through book after book for a few hours but as she turned the page in one a sheet of paper fell out quickly freaking her out. " Shit.....I can't break his book if I do he will know." Only when she picked it up itwas a handwritten paper with these strange symbols, which only made her dig more as she held onto the paper. It took some time but a few symbols matched up with some of the ones in the book. It said if the symbols were written in angel and sinner blood on the floor..........she didn't get a chance to finish before she heard her dad calling for her so quickly she put the books back but kept the paper folded in her pocket as she put them away. When the door opened, she was playing with the ducks. " Hey, Dad I wanted to check your new ones out."
" Oh? Amara you know I don't like you in here when I am not here." Seeing her quickly get upset he let it slide as he walked over with a duck. " I heard you went out to a club with Angel and Husk then went out the next morning with some girl, anything to say?"
" Yeah it was the most fun I have had in years and that girl is my friend. I got to really live and socialize with people, Inever do that. The club was alright I think dressing up was fun and dancing but it's a bit loud and bright for me. But don't be mad at them Dad. Angel was cheering me up and Husk kept me safe from even sinners just looking at me." She looked down at the duck and then at the window. " I....I want something to do with my life, Dad. Charlie is next in line for the crown and she has her hotel that father helped her with, he helped you be king again and be there for Charlie but me.......me this is my life. Locking in a palace with no one but my dad to talk to, my only friend for years was my frog which is stuffed. I spend my days reading, gardening, cooking, watching old movies, or listening to the radio." Saying it out loud just made it all so depressing to the point she felt like she had to cry. " I am just a shadow in you and Charlie's light with no purpose and a dead parent."
" Hey you are so much more than all of that. Amara and I know one day you will do great things but you are still young and you have all of the time to be someone. Charlie and I might have gotten where we are from Alastor but you carry him inside of you. Amara even in his last few hours the first thing he asked me after asking if I was okay was for you. I know you don't remember your time with him but you loved him I think more than me. He held you as he passed and once......once he took that last breath you knew and cried for him like I was and everyone. He asked me never to break your heart and......I think I am." He wiped his tears as he looked at Amara. " I have no right to.....to take your life away but I......I'm scared. You're all I have left of him, all that pain of not having him around anymore eased with seeing you, you may have my eyes and cheeks but you look so much like him."
" You never talk about how it was back then when father got sick or what it was like for him or you. Maybe we can just do baby steps? Maybe we could walk to Rosie or a little cafe?" Seeing her dad cry quite took her anger away as she pulled him into a hug as he cried. " Maybe we can leave his radio towers alone for now?"
He came back to talk to Amara before going and tearing the towers down but it would break Amara's heart to not have the radio like it would him. But guilt over keeping so much from Amara is why he cried so much, he gave Alastor his word not to break Amara's heart but if she ever knew what he was keeping she would be heartbroken. " Ice Cream?"
" Haha we can but we have to walk and not threaten to kill someone for talking to me or looking understood?" He slowly nodded as he moved to look at her. " Good now change."
" W...why? I am dressed." He wiped his tears as he looked at his outfit which was his regular attire.
" Cause you're dressed like a king when I want to go with my dad. Also, you're too short for a tall hat it's silly." She stood up and helped her dad up as he laughed. " Change and I will too."
" Haha alright, and the hat your father always hated." It was nice to see her smile even if he knew it wouldn't last forever.
At first, he wouldn't let go of her as they walked and once they got into the city he made her walk on the inside so no one got close but slowly he seemed to relax. Even to the point, he let her order. Sure she wasn't the biggest fan of sweets but if it made her dad happy she would suck it up and he knew it. He ate a whole chocolate overload sundae while she ate a single scoop of vanilla but he spent the time laughing and telling her these funny stories but also told him about his day. After a while, they walked over to one of the towers on the far end of the city which her dad opened only when they walked in she was faced with tons of stairs. " Um.....did he use these every time he came? Cause I won't make it Dad. I am not athletic in any way which I get from you."
" Ouch but no he just appeared upstairs. I came here when I was pregnant with you and I wanted to kill him for not having an elevator or something. But lucky you I am awesome." He snapped and they were up and quickly he lost his smile as he remember coming here to find Alastor then having lunch with him then resting as he worked.
Everything looked as it sounded and she was just amazed but as she looked at the cases of books, the old radio recording equipment, and everything that screamed New Orleans and style. " Oh Dad this is amazing are all the towers like this?Could we stay and read some of........Dad?"
" I.......I never came to this one after.......after that day. I......I was with him the last time I was here. We sat right there as he........he let me eat a sinner sandwich that he laughed about.......he......he worked at that desk as I......." Slowly, he walked over and sat down at Alastor's desk as he put his hands on the top of the desk. " He....he came to this one when he needed time away.........."
" Why did he need time away? If he loved you as much as everyone said he wouldn't.." Amara slowly walked over as shelooked at her dad.
" He never loved before....besides for his mom but when she died and he was alone with everything they shared he......he stopped loving.....he turned his emotions off. While he had fun and worked and killed.......when he died he didn't......he didn't have it easy so when we told each other how we felt he asked to take it slow........he might have always smiled Amara but he was scared I would hurt him like his mother's death did. But he told me there would be times he needed time away but asked for me to respect it which I did. When.......when he found out he only had a few weeks left and asked me to........to treat him normally, I left." How he wished so many times to go back and do everything differently.
" He was dying no matter what Dad so I don't understand....."
" He did whatever Bel recommended cause he wanted to live long enough to meet you, to hold you, to.....to be there. But he was given 2 months and it scared the shit out of me, they found a way to give him even longer but.......but it hit him so much harder than he thought and slowly we found out it started burning him internally which almost killed him........I forced them to bring him back and he was given a few weeks. He didn't even worry about his little time left but me, hehad everyone look for me as Charlie and his mom comforted him from what I heard you helped him relax and even helped him sleep." Lucifer looked down at the ring on his finger. " All of it started with him telling me the hard truth which led to me drinking the pain away, he woke me up and joked at me and when I woke up we were in my bed. I never could sleep and he had these nightmares that kept him up but when we slept together that night there wasn't a single nightmare. Haha, he was drinking my blood as I scratched his ears and he fell asleep and I couldn't help but curl up against him. He was always so warm while I was so cold. From then things seemed to change."
" Aww.." It was like the romance books she had read and seeing her dad slowly smile as he talked about her father was nice. " What else?"
What else? He looked at Amara wondering if she was asking to buy her time or cause she cared but when he looked at looked so happy. " He was this scary overlord but when that shield went up he was just Alastor, he held me as I slept, and we read together even sharing books and drinks while listening to music. But he hated it when I talked while we were reading haha. Oh, he also never let anyone give him shit or me, people used to say how fat I was and it hurt but I played it off but Alastor he made sure they suffered a painful death forever talking to me that way. Pregnant I could get away with everything just by explaining what I was feeling....hahah for a man who killed he hated hearing any of it. But even sick he was there for me and never minded when I slept through his treatments."
" You never talk about how bad it got just that it got bad. Earlier you said how he almost died from his new treatment but you forced them to bring him back, why did you have to force them?"
Even after so much time, this was all still so painful. " W....why don't you pick out a couple of books for us while I look for something?" Amara wasn't going to let this go but he couldn't talk about it yet so he got up and walked away. After all these years and Heaven even searching no one found Alastor's staff to the point that almost everyone but him stopped looking just assuming it went back to the void or vanished like his body did. But nothing so he picked up a few records as Amara carried a few books as he portaled them home. " Hey I was thinking we could make dinner then we could listen to the records and read just like me and........"
" Thank you for today but you're not going to change I can see that now. So we should stop lying to each other. I have some leftovers from Grammie, then I will just read on my own." She put the books down and picked a few for herself before walking to the kitchen.
Today was supposed to help but Amara could always see through him and yes he wasn't planning on letting Amara out on her own but they could go together. So watching her walk away was heartbreaking as he just teleported to his room after picking up some books only when he sat down on the bed he broke down into tears. None of this would be so hard if Alastor was here, he would make all of this so much easier and bring everyone back together. Alastor's mom stopped talking to him not for dampening Amara's powers which she didn't even know but for keeping Amara locked away in the palace and not letting Amara hang out with people her age. They would go back and forth which always led to her asking if Alastor was here would he want this for Amara or her explaining Alastor's childhood but at one point she just saw no point in arguing. When she came for Amara he might get a wave or a hi but never anything more.
If anyone had good taste in books it was her Dad's but her father's meant more maybe cause they were his or maybe it was the stories. Both of them loved older books even having original copies. After 2 books last night, she fell asleep but once she woke up she started another even as she got up and dressed even as she made herself breakfast. But what she didn't expect was a knock at the door which had her frozen as she was about to eat another bite. " Um......DAD!" She blinked and he was there looking at her as if something was wrong but before she stopped him the knock happend again. " That's why I called you."
" Oh?" No one ever really knocked unless it was the guards letting someone in so this was odd he walked over to the door only to see some girl. " Can I help you?"
" Hi, I am Alice. I am friends with your daughter........well, I hope we are friends but.....I wanted to see if we could hang out. Her sister said she was back at home and I told the guards I was Amara's friend."
Fuck breakfest and quickly ran to the door but her Dad wouldn't move. " Alice!"
Lucifer was just going to turn the girl away but looking at Amara she looked so happy. " Why are you here?"
" Dad please don't embarrass me." She whispered in her dad's ear.
" Oh right..... there this antique shop that I saw yesterday and I knew how Amara loves old things and I thought she would like to go with me. Hehe, I saw some old newspapers from back in the day and I am sure they will have stuff on your father."
She was sold on antique but old newspapers that could have something on her father had him almost jumping. " Oh my.....Dad, please! Please I wanna....."
" Where is it?" Amara was practically jumping but even he never read a lot of the newspapers from Alastor's time in hell leaving him even curious.
" Oh it's right before you get into cannibal town but.....can we go, sir? I promise we will be safe and no one will give her any shit I swear."
" Dad, please? If.....if I go I will read with you like you and Father did and I can make his gumbo." Buying her dad with her food and her company always seemed to work. " Please you said he wanted me to be happy and Alice and me will be right by Auntie Rosie so if anything we will be close to her."
Everything in him wanted to say no and he couldn't go he had to be in wrath in a little bit. " Ugh........fine but the driver will take you there and back and......if you find anything on him could you...."
" I will buy every piece with him don't worry." She just hugged her dad tightly. " Thank you this means a lot to me, Dad. We will be safe and I love you."
Oh, the words he had been needing to hear even started to make him emotional as he hugged her back. " I love you too and....if you want Alice can hang out here with you for a bit. But your father would kill me if you didn't feed her if she comes over."
" Haha, I will thank you." She hugged him again and then ran over to Alice as they started laughing while walking to the car.
The ride was fine but she preferred Alice's car cause it had windows and it wasn't anything special which she loved. When they arrived it wasn't some small shop it had floors each one different but there were some old TV's like she had at home, lots of clothes which she oddly liked, furniture and much more.
" Amara I found something."
When she ran over Alice held a newspaper with a drawing of her father in his demon form which had her speechless as she held it. " This is so badass haha."
" Yeah, all of these are about the radio demon even dating back to when he killed his first overlord."
" Wow, what else?" Alice held a whole bin full of papers dedicated to the radio demon.
" I skimmed through but you're more of the reader but this one says he just appeared one day and in a matter of days overlords started to vanish even some of the strongest but it was a week before they knew what happend. Their screams were broadcast throughout hell for everyone to hear in every ring which no overlord could ever do. He worked in the shadows until one day he showed his true form quickly making him one of the top overlords." She put one down and grabbed another. " This one reports his last known seeing at some fight almost 28 years ago with the Vee's and he left them all almost dead but he wasn't to be seen for years."
Her father left before? Why did he leave and why didn't she know? Why didn't she even know it took him a week of being in hell to make everyone fear him? " Alice I am buying all of those is there anything else?"
" Oh.......I found a list of what might have been some of the souls your father owns."
" Haha, that's not even close."
They both quickly looked to see some TV guy standing there but when she looked at Alice she slowly started to back up. " W.....who are you? I know you don't own this place cause it's a old man."
" Amara.......thats...."
" Oh sorry that's rude of me not to introduce myself....my name is Vox. I am the leader of the Vee's and you are Amara. How you have grown into him well." Vox went to step closer but Amara's little freind stood in frount of her.
" Hey leave us alone alright we just came to shop and if her dad...."
Vox just stepped closer as he bent down and looked at the girl. " Alice is it? Why don't you go down and tell the driver you are heading home and Amara is still looking around? And before you say no I can call your boss real quick."
" HEY!" She wasn't going to stand there and let this guy threaten her friend. " You better get the hell out of here now!"
" Amara, it's okay really I should go.......I will check on you tomorrow okay? Please just do what he says."
" Alice?" She watched Alice run away but when she tried to run after her the guy stood in her way. " WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!"
" Nothing but I am looking out for you, kid like your old man wanted me to. That girl is owned by Mammon who has it out for your old man, old scores that never got settled not even after the shit he pulled with Lucifer."
" Can I please go? I just want these newspapers and if I don't....."
" Why is someone of your rank and power in some little shop? I get you wanna get those dusty things but you are the daughter of the fucking radio demon. You shouldn't even be asking me to please go. Look me and your old man if you didn't know went way back but before he got back he made a deal with me and I need to finish my side of it so give me 1 hour if you wanna come back I will bring you myself and buy those newspapers for you. I can't be here cause....well, I can't."
" You're not lying but......you......you knew my father even as he got sick?" Sure a few days ago she would be happy to be talking to Vox but this was the first time her dad let her out on her own and she couldn't mess it up. But looking at Vox he knew a lot more than she did.
" Yeah, I was there and my guess is your dad didn't tell you."
" No, but 1 hour 'cause I can't screw up my chance of being out more, and either way you are paying for these cause you scared my friend away and.......and no touching got it?" The guy just laughed but nodded and she blinked and they were in some techy room that had devices she had never seen before. " Woah what is this place?"
" My office it's cool I know but we have an hour and I have a lot to say." Vox zapped her a chair as he sat at his desk and pulled up a few things. " First I need to know why the hell I was able to see you on camera. Cause if you look your father.....fucking impossible and most of the time the camera broke in seconds."
Looking at the screens she still had no idea what her father looked like. " I.....I don't know. I mean my father had all those powers so maybe it was just a part of it? I don't have any so....."
" You're joking, right? Kid you have powers, Al even knew it when he held you, kid, you are alive because of his powers. Bet your dad didn't tell you that. You just don't know how to use them maybe but that's where I come in as well as for much more. Your....."
" Wait.......wait a moment I am telling you I don't have powers. I told my Dad and he said it might have just skipped me." Amara quickly stood up and looked around. " Look my Dad told me that my birth wasn't easy but I was fine."
" Kid, why the hell would I lie? You can see when I am lying it was something Al did but your dad was top-tier for his lies and your old man hated that. I know all of this cause I was there, when I found out he was sick I wanted to be there more and he let me even though your dad hated it. He told me about your birth and Alastor was many things but a liar....never. He got worse cause he used his powers to help your dad but you weren't alive until he used his powers on you. Look I messed shit up with him years ago by telling him I loved him and it ruined our friendship. We knew each other for years and we were close friends it's how I know so much. Your dad locked you in that palace and away from technology cause he wanted to keep me away. The last thing your father even said was...." He took a second before playing the audio.
" I want you to forgive him cause as much.........as much we hate him.........you will need him so will Amara. No matter if Vox forced me to take him to the void or not I was still dying he just made the suffering lessen."
Amara quickly sat down as she looked at Vox, he wasn't lying and he meant everything. " I tried everything but nothing."
" Alastor told me his plan and what he had left for you but he made me a deal, to take care of his family, to help keep you safe, to help you become him if you wish, and......and give you something. I only have until you turn 20 to do it before the time ran out so when I saw you I had to act. He never wanted to force you into being him and if it's not what you want then the radio demon will die and I get his contracts but a couple but I want you to take over Amara. I won't force you either but......he made me who I am today and I owe him everything for it so I want to do the same for you if......if it's what you want."
" What did he leave me? I have the frog he made me but my dad said everyone got one thing. Him a blanket, Charlie the hotel, and me the frog." There was so much to ask but not a lot of time.
" Guess Husk really didn't tell but he left you his name, he left you the radio demon title and all its power. You have until you turn 20 to decide which was why I needed to act." Amara just sat there frozen. " Kid it's a lot but if it's what you want I can help you, show you what you can do, and make sure you are capable of being the radio demon. Charlie has her role in life as the future queen and she got that hotel but you......you live in her and Lucifer's shadow and it's fucking bullshit. You are so much more than all of that, you like Alastor and you saw the way everyone treated him don't you want that respect, that fear? Don't you want to be someone?"
Doing the radio was one thing but being the person behind those screams, being someone who was feared rather than looked at or joked about was.....thrilling. But killing.....could she be a killer? " I'm in."
Notes:
Will Vox or Amara find out about her power being dampened? Will Amara tell Lucifer about Vox? Is Amara going to be able to become the radio demon? What was that paper Amara took? Will she try to use it? Does Alice really work for Mammon, and if so, was Vox correct? How will Amara start to question Lucifer? How will she be able to train with Vox when she can't even leave the palace? Does Vox mean what he says?
More will come tomorrow, so until then......bye.
Chapter 3: Rising
Summary:
Vox and Amara spend more time together, and he tells her more about Alastor and tells her the truth about Lucifer. Leading Amara to ask her Dad questions, only he lied and then made an excuse to leave, just as he started to tell her the truth. Vox tells her the whole truth while he tries to find out why Amara's powers aren't working. Amara asks to try to use their symbols, only it needed a sacrifice, but it doesn't go as they thought, and she unlocks a part of her she's never experienced. When Vox finds out the reason why Amara's powers aren't working somewhere else in hell, the symbols open a portal to a dark place, unleashing something no one is expecting.
Notes:
Welcome back, I hope you're all enjoying so far, and I promise these tags are coming in and everyone else, but not just yet, but more of the past is talked about so..........enjoy.
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Vox kept his end of the agreement and took her back to the antique shop even buying the newspapers for her. But before she left he gave her a watch he said it was so they could communicate and see each other again without her dad knowing. The ride back she couldn't help but smile, she was going to know more about her father and learn more about herself. But when she walked into the palace her Dad was sitting in her room. " Dad, what are you doing in here?"
" I just wanted to see you when you got back. Where's Alice?" Lucifer made his meeting short in wrath so he could get back to be with Amara.
" Oh she had to go home early but I stayed cause there was a lot to look at I got the papers on Father so I was thinking maybe after dinner we could read these? There are some sketches of his demon form and these even date back to when he first came to hell it's really cool Dad." Amara put the bin down as her Dad picked one up. " Dad looking through all of this I can't help but wonder why I don't have powers like that or at all."
" Like I said probably skipped you froggy or maybe will develop later in life. But I would love to look through these with you." He picked the bin up as he looked at Amara. " How about while you cook I can read them since there's a lot."
" Sure." He didn't look at her while he spoke about her powers which had her worried that he knew more about it but Vox told her not to ask him questions so she didn't. As she cooked he read and they both even learned more like the radio demon never lost a fight but one which was Adam. After eating she couldn't stop thinking about it , how could she take his name when he never lost a fight when she could hardly win an argument? The radio demon was clever with every word and action but always planned ahead while she barely knew what she wanted to eat. As her dad slept happily holding her she wondered what her powers were or if everything she knew was a lie but just the idea made her sick.
So the next morning when her Dad left for some meetings she went to her room and held the watch as she paced back and forth wondering if she could really do this, if this were what she really wanted but after a while she wanted to try so she called Vox but nothing. " Of course he didn't answer Amara he's busy being an overlord. He wouldn't drop whatever he was doing for..........SHIT!" A quick zap and there he was standing in her room. " YOU SCARED ME!"
" Haha, sorry kid but wow you really ended up favoring your old man I see haha. Oh and you still have the frog, youknow you refused to let anyone touch it even Lucifer and it killed him. You stopped crying once you were with Al which pissed Lucifer off." Vox went to walk around more but Amara stopped him.
" Look you don't come to my room and judge it alright . You said to call when I was ready and my dad is out for a couple hours and I can't leave so ." She crossed her arms as she sat down looking at Vox.
He still looked around before looking at Amara. " Fine but we will go to the tower and start I will keep a bug here to let us know when your Dad gets back just in case he's early." He snapped one onto the floor as it crawled away but as he walked over to Amara's desk he picked up a folded paper but as he opened it she was quick to react.
" HEY! This won't work if you're looking through my stuff." Vox seemed to listen but he didn't drop the paper.
" This isn't words so what is it?" Vox didn't need to open it to see what was on the paper.
" It's something I found in my Dad's secret books he hides but it has something to do with the void. Whatever that place is I found out if you write that on the floor with angel and sinner blood something happens I didn't get a chance to find out what though." From what she heard her father never trusted anyone so if he trusted Vox she should too.
" Can I hold onto this? I want to find out more about these symbols I have seen them before." Amara nodded as he put the paper in his pocket. " Alright let's go." He zapped them back to the tower but the basement where he had everything set up. " When Al asked me to make sure you were ready to take the role I had some fun with it but please don't tear the tower apart. Now I understand you're having a power issue I wanna do a body scan and see why if that's cool."
" Um ...... " Oh god all of this time will be wasted and Vox will just send her home while she has so many unanswered questions. " Mabye we can just hand on stuff?"
Vox wasn't sure if she was serious until he looked up and saw her face. " Oh you're serious.....kid with your powers you'renever hands-on fighting and from what I have listened in on is that your Dad had you trained hands on which is odd. Look the scan is painless and it will show why your powers haven't come up yet. I came to hell and knew so did your father so did anyone with powers. Hell.....I'm pretty sure Charlie was little when hers formed but still and this doesn't skip so." She just stood there rubbing her arm as she looked around. " How about this we spend this time getting your questions answered and we can get something to eat. Mmm? I get all of this is new and I am sure you want to ask me stuff about Al."
" Thank you that sounds nice." How she hoped she would be able to do this but Vox was nice even asked her what she wanted as chef cooked not her. " This is weird normally at home I do the cooking and at the hotel unless I am at my grans or Rosies. I love cooking and seeing their faces but this is new."
" You cook? Do you make all the stuff Al used to cause that shit was amazing. Haha, we would always make me extra to take home which I normally ate once I got home. Oh man.....one of these days you will have to cook if you want cause I tried and I burnt fucking water. Don't ask." They sat there laughing over old stories even though he had forgotten about them but when their food came he got back on track. " So kid what do you want to ask?"
" Well ....... you knew my father well and longer then my dad ever did I guess ........was he happy? Like being this overlord or happy with my Dad?" She felt stupid.
" Oh the overlord shit he loved it, it was everything to him and I don't think he would have ever stopped either. Even sick he came to meetings and still broadcasted and made deals. As for Lucifer ....... I won't ever understand why he pick him over me but he said it was cause Lucifer had similar likes but he was different from him finding him fascinating while ..... he only saw me as a friend which sucked. But even as a friend he never went easy on me and never let anyone talk shit about him, Lucifer, Charlie, or you." Vox reached into his pocket as he pulled a ripped picture out. " I keep this with me always so I always have my friend." He handed it to Amara who froze. " You have his ears and hair not to mention height."
Never had she even seen a picture but seeing this only made the reason she was here feel stronger. " How?"
" He lost a bet 'cause he didn't wanna fuck some girl and I got a picture but when we had our fight he ripped the picture. You have never seen a picture have you?" Amara shook her head as she looked at the picture. " I can make you a copy but the original stays with me."
" I would love that. Vox you said you were there when he got sick but my dad never said how bad it got. Charlie told me in his last weeks he spent in bed sleeping but she said her Dad was there 'cause it was too hard for her." Looking at the picture she didn't see him ever getting sick but he gave her what she needed to know this was the right call, that this was what she wanted.
" Ah........your Dad was there for almost all of it from the treatments to caring for Al after and from what I heard it had good days and bad. Rosie helped him when it got bad but I only knew he was sick when Val.....another Vee took him and Angel and beat them. Normally Val stood no chance in winning a fight with Al but he won that time when I found out I helped him but he was so exhausted from a few punches and shocks........ when I saw the port in his chest it's when I knew. Just that alone almost killed him when I knew he could handle much worse. But I was there for a treatment as well as Angel who did a few. Lucifer hated if I went but it was a day Alastor went with Angel and found me and we had some fun but after a while.......he started to get slower until when he tried to stand up he couldn't. They wheel him up and put more shit on him saying he had to take it easy he slept through it he did radiation treatments too but no one could see him after but I could cause......well look at me. I......I had never seen him so sickly......he was cold to the touch and shaking butno one would bring him a blanket but as I started losing my shit he grabbed my hand and told me it was okay. But......but he wasn't.....he was in all this pain and I couldn't do anything to......to make him feel better......no one could. I couldn't see him like that not even when Charlie told me he had almost died again and had to have another fucking surgery.....I...I just sat with my sharks looking at that picture as I cried. Charlie gave me updates thankfully but.......it was hard.......then when I heard after Alastor found out all his fucking pain was for nothing and was given weeks that Lucifer fucking left I was pissed......"
" W...wait my Dad told me about him leaving to get some space after hearing." Maybe it was a good thing she never saw her father the way he was cause it would have scared her too.
" He didn't tell you why. Charlie told me the news so I went and everyone said Lucifer had to step out but we kept Alastor busy since he was stuck in the stupid bed but he had these episodes where his hands would shake and it got bad but I asked to talk to him alone ...
" Al.....I can never read you yet I can tell you are worried but it's not about you."
" Lucifer is just going through a lot and I can't do anything to help when I cause his pain. He has a dark past one he will need to tell someone so he doesn't........"
" Lucifer just locked himself up in his room nothing else ........ right?"
" He.........just find him before he does something stupid.....please."
" Man was given 4 weeks to live and your Dad had him worried. I told Husk and we both went looking for Lucifer cause we were pissed only to find him fucking drunk. He cared more about himself than Alastor, his fucking mom, Charlie, or you who relied on him to eat. Yet he just asked for Charlie so I broke the news to him that while he was off getting drunk everyone found out those 4 weeks were looking like 2. Oh, but Alastor being the great guy he was took care of you as you cried and asked about your dad. Charlie hated it just as much as all of us did." Vox saw the disbelief in Amara's eyes. " You should ask him about the funeral or maybe about the ring."
" My dad doesn't even drink. He doesn't even....." She had never even seen her dad drink.
" Basement and he only got worse after Alastor was gone ..... I only stuck around for Alastor but talk to your Dad if it comes from me you won't believe me. Alright, we need to get you back ......but Alastor even being a cold overlord loved the hell out of you kid , he refused to let Angel even touch you or me."
" Vox ...... do the scan please." Vox just nodded as they zapped off to his office. She just stood there and some light went over her then it was off. " Do .....do you think we could try tonight? Nights are easier for sneaking around."
" Haha, sure kid but I will look over the scan and look into the symbols just hit the watch when you're ready but......but talk to Lucifer if he asks where you heard redirect it to him trying to change the subject. You got a gift, Amara being able to see through people and Lucifer is no different so don't let him change the subject or get out of the conversation. Alastor wouldn't and you shouldn't either and kid......here." Vox handed Amara a copy of the picture which she held close. " You show him that photo and ask him to lie 'cause he won't, use that to get your answers if you need to. The radio demon never took anyone's shit and neither will you."
Amara was pumped as she nodded and Vox zapped her back to her room but as she looked around her dad knocked at her door. " Come in."
" Hey Froggy, how was your day?" Lucifer happily walked in as he hugged Amara.
" Alright, I guess.......I want to ask you about father." Amara sat down on the bed as she patted the spot beside her as he sat down. " I want to know about his funeral."
" Why? It was a hard day for me and everyone. We were going to bury him but when heaven showed up we found out his body vanished." Lucifer went to stand up but Amara grabbed his hands. " Amara, it was a hard day and......."
" I know it was Dad but ....for you it had to be even harder and I just want the truth Dad I am not going to judge you or think differently of you." She looked into his eyes and just saw pain. " You can talk to me, Dad."
He couldn't if she knew just how bad he got she would ask more and then she would know about all of his issues. " Amara it was a hard day but we spoke and then heaven showed up trying to take him away only his body had vanished already. They just made everything worse ........ can we go have a tea?"
" Dad, is there anything else you're not telling me?" He shook his head but there was more she could see it and it stung that he would lie to her so she pulled the picture out. " Then is there anything about that day you won't tell him?"
" H...how did you get this and....and where." It was a picture of Alastor but when he reached for it Amara pulled it back as she looked at him. " Amara please it was years ago please just drop it and let me see."
" Dad I want to know the truth please and you can hold the picture." He reached for the picture as tears fell down his face but she held her ground just like father would have.
" After he died I shut down and stayed in his bed so the funeral was his mom and Charlie planning but they told me and I couldn't do it. I told them I didn't want to go and Alastor's mom gave me this ring. He was going to ask until he heard about his time left being cut short and he didn't want to be a burden so he never asked but he said I do. So when his mom gave it to me I said I did but I still couldn't go. But after some time I could now please......please I wanna hold it...." He reached further but Amara stood up and put the picture away. " Amara please."
" I am just asking for the whole truth Dad it's not hard but you're still lying to me. Would you have lied to Father?" He shook his head as he stood up and tried to reach for the picture but she moved away. " DAD! If we can't be truthful with each other then what's the point? He hated liars yet you just looked at his picture and lied to me!"
He quickly held himself as he wiped his tears. " I......I hadn't been taking care of myself after he died so when the funeral came I was exhausted and a mess. After the ring, I wanted to be there for him so ........ so I smoked some of his stashes that helped him which helped me wash up and get dressed but when Oz came he quickly saw I was stone and got Angel to come help but after the high was gone I couldn't do it so I went back to bed to cry. Eventually, Vox who was an old friend of Alastor's forced me out. Now please....."
" You.....you got high before his funeral? Have you done that before or drank?" Amara pulled the picture out as her dad quickly sat down and cried into his hands. " Dad it has. When?"
" Amara.....please....I.... I just want to see him ...... again pl....."
She moved the picture to her Dad's face as he cried. " Now talk."
" I.....I had a problem I ...... I drank when he snapped at me when we first met after Lilith left and I was alone I drank, but I........." She would just be disgusted by him so he took a moment to get himself together as he stood up wiping his tears away. " I'm going to bed." Before she could say anything, he teleported to his room where he broke down into cries as he clung to the blanket Alastor made him all those years ago.
Like always her Dad was making excuses to get out telling her the truth and it pissed her off so she quickly washed off to help cool herself off then hit the button on the watch which made Vox appear seconds later. She put the picture in her jacket as she looked at Vox. " You were right and I need this to work so I can get the hell out of here."
" Let me guess he lied to you and picture Alastor?" Amara nodded as she zipped her jacket up. " Pathetic honestly but I will tell you everything cause no one should be lied to especially your parents." Vox zapped them to his office as he pulled Amara up a chair and told him what happend. " At least he came clean about the funeral but it was just the start. After thatapparently, he went back to his pill-popping days that he used for his depression then he fucked everything up with heaven and sent you with Alastor's mom to live with her. Charlie called me in the dead of night begging for me to help find Lucifer that he was missing so we went looking and found out he was in some place called the den in Greed. It was a myth but it was like a drug house and after making some calls Angel went in to get him only when I found them Lucifer looked almost dead and he almost was cause he went to that drug house to numb his pain only it was more then just smoking or pills.....man was doing injections. And I felt like shit 'cause I let Alastor down but.....but never could anyone see your dad being some druggie." Amara looked at him freaked out as he played hospital footage of Lucifer tied down to a bed saying how he wanted to die. " He got dark even to the point he pushed Charlie away 'cause he wanted to fucking die in that house, Charlie tried to show him that he wasn't alone that he had all of their friends and you but he didn't care. He went to rehab for a few months but after the drugs, I stayed away from him cause I was also trying to heal from losing my best friend and I loved him still."
Amara pulled the picture out and hugged it as she wiped her tears. " Why wouldn't he tell me it got that bad? I would have understood."
" I don't think he wanted you to see him that way or Charlie. I sure as hell couldn't but from what I heard a lot of themembers stopped talking to your dad over something else he did but I never found out what." Vox turned to the computer as it dinged. " So apparently I have seen those symbols....Alastor when he went full demon or made a new deal some of those symbols appeared. So my guess is we write these out in our blood and something with the void will happen but I have no idea." He handed Amara the paper back as she looked at him. " What?"
" Maybe it's how I get my powers. Can we try? I am part angel." Amara looked at the picture then Vox. " Also what's the void? I read all about it but why is it so important?"
" Kid it's where Alastor is from and you may be half angel but you're half that place too. It's crazy but it's like another hell just dark and......and terrible......I was so convinced I could do something so Alastor wouldn't die so I forced him to take me to the Void and before I knew it Charlie called me to tell me it was time. I wish I never did it Amara and then he would have had more time here or maybe......"
" Vox he said it himself you just lessened his suffering if anything you helped him find peace so you shouldn't beat yourself up for that. But could we try? I can see your scan found nothing and I just want to know I tried everything before giving up on something my father gave me." Amara looked down at the picture then Vox.
" Clever kid.........there was something but it told me to do a deeper scan which was odd........but we can try this cause I am curious." Amara agreed to do the second scan then after he teleported them to the basement as pulled a knife out and cut his hand. " You have to do it yourself so your dad doesn't come for me." She may laugh but he wasn't joking as she cut her hand and started writing as his screen showed until they made a full circle. " Okay, now what?"
" Um......OH! A sacrifice? Not an animal either I think it needs to be a sinner or something ....... I wish I had his book but ...."
" Hey it's cool we can always try again." Vox zapped a sinner down as he handed Amara the knife. " Why not make your first kill? Oh, and he raped kids and tried doing it here so I kept him locked down here for one of Val's rages. So........."
" I......I don't know Vox." Looking at the knife then the man already beaten she couldn't.
" Wow need a bitch to do a man's job now? Haha fucking pathetic hey you can come over here and suck this dick."
" Ew.......Alright, I see what you mean but ........"
" HEY! I AM HARD SO HURRY THE HELL UP! If you're good I won't rip those dumb ass ears out."
Vox just looked at her as he pointed at the guy when she looked his pants were off. " Oh, what?! What's wrong with you?! PUT YOUR PANTS ON!"
" Stop bitching and use that mouth to make me feel good now. Geez these people nowadays ...... HEY YOU FUCKING DEATH?! GET YOUR DOE ASS OVER HERE NOW!"
" Come on, Miss Radio Demon you're gonna let him talk to you that way? Geez your old man killed guys like this just cause it's the right thing to do and he refused to eat someone so disgusting." Vox zapped himself a chair as he sat down.
" Radio Demon you say? Fucking pussy vanished again I wonder if you are the reason cause you're a fucking disappointment. Now sucky."
She snapped and tossed the knife and it landed right in the guy's chest as he slowly fell to the ground as she walked over pulling it out. " Say something else asshole ."
" Fuck.........he.....he's a fag."
She looked at Vox who sat up more to watch as she looked down at him before slicing his dick off as he screamed out butas she stood up she kicked him hard. " SAY SOMETHING AGAIN ABOUT MY FATHER!" She stepped harder as he screamed and it felt amazing even finding herself laughing as she pushed harder. " Hahah do something." When she walked away Vox looked at her, happy even giving her a high five as the guy slowly died. " How about that?"
" Real psycho but so Alastor hahah he would be fucking proud kid." He pulled Amara back as the symbol started to glow red but as it got brighter, it just vanished. " Well.....did we fuck up?"
" I don't know but I wanna hurt someone else now that was amazing haha ! I didn't think I could do the killing or the screams but ..... but I wanna do it." Amara didn't even care the circle didn't work cause she had fun killing the guy.
" Oh you are him alright and I got a couple more and when your powers come out then we can have some real fun punishing sinners."
That's what they did for hours until Vox had to walk away for a phone call but she kept having fun and even tried other ideas. In the almost 20 years of being alive never had control but with this she did and it felt amazing and just the idea of having power too made it all sound even better. She even let out some of her rage and it felt amazing even more when they screamed louder and begged.
Velvette had called asking him a question but when he walked back the guy was missing his arms as he screamed out until Amara shoved the arm in the guy's mouth. " Shit kid you don't even need me but I got a notification saying the results are ready so ........finish this one up and we can go look." He had to turn around until the screaming stopped but when he looked he quickly felt sick and zapped to his bathroom as he puked then zapped back to Amara. " D...done?"
" I guess but I can't wait to do that again and with powers." She just felt alive more than she ever had before. When she looked at Vox she saw he was sick. " Oh let's go so you don't see more." Vox zapped them to his office as they sat down. " Were you like that with my Dad? Cause if so I think he kept you around for the humor."
" It's just been years since I have seen someone do that to someone. But........but when I first saw him do that a couple of times I.....I got sick but....but I eventually was good and I will be. Alastor hated to admit it but he was more Thomas than Heartfelt." Vox looked through the results of the scan so he understood.
" Whose Thomas? I know Heartfelt was his mom's last name but......" Amara looked at the screen no clue what Vox was doing.
Vox stopped what he was doing as he turned to Amara. " It was his father. Did no one tell you about him either?"
When she was little she had asked her grammie about her grandfather only she said he was dead only when she was older she was told the truth. " I know he was a bad guy and my father killed him when he was young making him his first kill. Then when my father came here he killed him for good."
" Man was more then bad to them kid but I won't get into it cause you gotta ask your family about that but......."
" I have but they only tell me some of the truth or just shut me down and I realize now all of them are hiding stuff from me and it pisses me off." Amara just wanted answers only the answers everyone else gave her weren't the full truth.
" Ugh, kid, you need to ask better questions and fight back. Alastor got his answers even from your Dad cause he didn't stop, he could see if he was pushing enough or too much. But don't take half an answer you knew you got them yet you took it cause my guess is you didn't want to fight but fight for what you wanted cause for fuck's sake this is hell. You start fighting back and then you won't be seen as some fragile doll." Vox turned to the screen and quickly looked back at Amara in shock. " W......what did Lucifer say about your powers?"
" I am going to fight back and he said it just skipped me that I didn't have any.....why?" Still, she had no idea what the screen was showing but Vox's face looked pissed but all shocked. " What did you find something out?"
" Yeah, I did........that motherfucker! He knew Alastor's wishes and he did this shit!! I'm going to fucking kill him!" Vox stood up as he yelled holding the desk until it broke.
" Hey you're not killing my Dad but what is it." She stood up as he looked at her quickly she stepped back as she saw Vox sparking.
" Lucifer's pathetic ass has a fucking dampener in you!"
Darkness was everywhere with nothing to see and the only sound was millions of screams. Then suddenly she saw red as she walked up to the bar of her cell and she saw it......the night sky of hell, it had the hell sky and she could hear something other than screams.
" Haha, it's finally time! Remember the plan my pet and if you fail you will join my last failure. Now go."
" Roo......wouldn't......wouldn't asking him where he put the staff make this faster?"
" You three are the only ones with physical forms and if he fails you will go help him. But no one is to speak to that failure besides he's screaming too much to speak hahahah!
Notes:
Who did Roo release? How will Amara react to the news? Will Amara believe Vox or go question her Dad, or even go ask someone else? Who is the failure Roo speaks of? Will Amara be able to become the radio demon? Will Amara use what Voox has told her?
Fear not, more is coming...... a lot more hehehe.......until then bye.
Chapter 4: Put To The Test
Summary:
As Amara tries to come to terms with what Lucifer did, she gives him a final chance to tell her the truth, and he fails. Charlie is left with a hard decision of being in Amara's life or her dad's, as Amara makes her choice as she stops seeing Lucifer. Vox removes the power dampener, only it didn't go as easily as he had thought, leaving Amara's body to adjust to the powers. Vox shows Amara something else Alastor left, something everyone tried looking for, even heaven.
Notes:
How is this already the 4th chapter? Like I could have sworn I just started writing these, but it's flying out of me quickly heheh. But as per usual, I will make Friday's chapter a bit.....extra heheh.
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A dampener? He wouldn't do that to her, Vox said he knew that her father left her the radio demo name if she wanted it so why would he dampen her powers? Vox was ranting on and saying a bunch of shit about her Dad but she was just frozen, she trusted him and he would never do something like that to her. He knew how much she wanted to have powers, she told him how much it hurt not having a purpose and he just sat there listening but if he was he would have told her this. " No......no he wouldn't do that to me."
" KID LOOK!" Vox pointed at the screen as he zoomed into a chip in Amara's spinal cord. "It's not something simple or some tracker it's holding power, it's blocking your powers completely it's fucking made up of angelic metals." Vox took a breath as he thought about all of it. " Lucifer and Alastor fought over this and Lucifer always left saying you would never be an overlord. Alastor told me he never wanted you to not have a place in this world, to feel less than cause you deserved so much more than that. But Lucifer never budged so I guess he did it anyways and made sure you had a choice and time which is why.............holy shit......Alastor gave you 20 years to decide what you wanted before all of it was gone for good.....and Lucifer kept you locked away. I was supposed to help you see if it's what you wanted or not but........but with your power's dampened........that fucking asshole wanted to keep your powers away until it was too late."
" No.....he.....he would do that Vox. He knows how much my father means to me and how I wished he left me more." As she thought about it she quickly stood up. " Vaggie will tell me the truth 'cause if that's true her or Angel won't keep that from me. Can we go to the hotel now?"
" They are probably asleep but hell yes." Vox quickly zapped them to the hotel lobby where Angel sat with Husk at the bar.
" Hey, what the hell are you doing Vox?! Amara?!" Husk quickly walked around from behind the bar. " Amara, is he hurting you?"
" No, and I want you two to be honest with me did......did my Dad dampen my powers?" Amara saw the two quickly look at each other but neither spoke. " ONE OF YOU ANSWER ME!"
" Amara he will kill us if we answer you but......" Angel wanted to tell Amara the truth but someone spoke over him.
" He did." Vaggie was walking down with Charlie. They heard Amara yelling and rushed down. " Your powers showed when you were 6 months old and you almost killed Angel, you had hurt Lucifer so we all agreed it would be safer for everyone to dampen your powers until you were able to understand how to control them."
Charlie saw the pain in Amara's eyes as she walked over to her and everyone stayed back. " When you were a little over 3 I told him it was time to remove it and he said he would but he kept pushing the appointment one day he called and said it was done and we all felt so relieved cause we were going to force him. But when you were 9 almost 10 you told us you didn't have powers so while you were with Grammie we all sat Dad down and asked and he lied before Vaggie got him to break. But he refused to do it and I told him we would tell you or take you ourselves but he said if we did it not only would he go after everyone but he would keep you away from me and he wouldn't ever talk to me again. I couldn't lose you Amara and I knew you needed us in your life." Charlie held Amara's hands as she cried and Amara just looked at her.
" Me and Vaggie figured it out not long after that he had no intention of letting you have that choice of being the radio demon and tonight we told Charlie. We were making a plan to get that chip out cause even though you would own me, you would have a fucking choice. It's what Alastor wanted and Lucifer is just a fucking coward. That's why I don't even speak to him cause I will try to fucking kill him for everything he was doing and locking you away was his way of stopping us from talking. Man threatened to kill Angel if I told you." Husk grabbed Angel's hand as he looked at Vox. " You're the reason she knows, and that was part of your deal with Alastor, wasn't it?"
" He asked me to help Amara be the radio demon if it's what she wanted and I had 20 years to do it so when I saw her alone I went to see her. But why the hell wouldn't all of you try harder? Or just tell her and face the fucking consequences?!" Vox looked at Charlie in particular. "You're her older sister you should have told her or taken her to get the chip removed and she could have defended herself. She has been living with this lie for almost 20 fucking years! He kept her locked away as she grew up never knowing her purpose! ALASTOR NEVER WANTED THAT, HE NEVER WANTED HER TO HURT THIS WAY AND YET YOU DIDN'T STOP HER SUFFERING!! Alastor helped this hotel and gave his life for it but was that nothing to your privileged ass?"
" Enough!" Vaggie quickly stood in front of Charlie as she cried. " She tried but he left her before and the thought of losing both Amara and him destroyed her. You don't get to yell at us when you have stayed away, Alastor asked you to keep his family safe and you failed! This is a family matter so go......"
" He's staying 'cause he has been more honest to me in a few days than any of you have been my whole life." She turned to Vox. " Can you take it out or turn it off?"
" It's in a hard place but........but I can give me the day and we can do it tomorrow night." Amara nodded as he looked at everyone. " Kid you good to go home to him or do you want to stay here?"
" I want to go home to see if he will tell me the truth but if he doesn't, I never want to see him again." She wanted to give him a chance to tell her the truth, to be what she always thought he was but if he couldn't......she couldn't ever look at him the same without seeing a liar.
" Amara, please he needs you in his life." Charlie quickly ran to Amara and hugged her. " You should know why he lied please........it was wrong but.....but he's family and family......"
" My father killed his father 'cause he was bad so the family isn't everything and liars don't ever have a reason to lie to the people they love. I will become the radio demon and if you want to stay in my life Charlie you will stop talking to Dad too. Think about it who means more to you but my feelings won't hurt if you pick him." Amara didn't hug Charlie back as she looked at Vox. " Let's go."
They blinked and the two were gone but Charlie broke down to the floor crying. She lost Alastor and she couldn't lose her family but even she knew her Dad wouldn't tell Amara the truth. " I can't pick."
Vaggie as well as Angel sat on the floor comforting Charlie as Husk walked over. " Charlie, Lucifer has lied to you several times before and promised never to lie again, and yet he does. He did the same to Alastor even after he died but Amara will need you so she doesn't turn into him. Vox is showing her how he will turn her into Alastor but having you and Alastor's mom will give her people to hold onto, to trust, to love." Husk knelt down as all of them looked at him but he looked at Charlie. " If she cuts Lucifer out of her life she won't ever let him back in but maybe that side of her that is Lucifer will hold onto you if you have her back and love her. Your Dad had years to tell you and you tried but it's time you let him go to, for Amara."
" For Amara."
How could she sleep knowing that her Dad had been keeping something so big from her, something that her father left for her? No excuses or lies anymore she was getting an answer and if he lied it was over. Just in case she packed a bag and made sure she had everything of importance. So when morning came and she finished she took a look in the mirror and then at her frog. " It's time and I will make you proud papa." She took a moment before walking to her Dad's room as he was putting his jacket on.
" Oh hey, Froggie I have a few places to go do you want to come? The sin's miss seeing you and I can even let you spend some time with Oz after." He buttoned his coat but when he looked at Amara she didn't look like her usual self. " Froggie what's wrong?"
" I want you to be honest with me Dad. Do I have powers?" When he stepped closer she stepped back.
" I.......I don't know, do you? Froggie you just never showed them sometimes they come later in life but are they showing?" Just a few more months he needed to keep this up.
" No but if I had them would you tell me?"
" Of course, I know how much it would mean to you but I have no idea how to know. You may be my blood Amara but you are also his and it's difficult." He took a step to her she just backed away so something was going on.
" Did Father leave me anything else but my frog? Honesty Dad please." He was lying, why did he have to lie it was killing her to see him play it off as nothing.
" Amara where are these questions coming from you never asked me so much and........."
" Did he or not and don't change the topic." He just stood there looking at her.
Alastor used to say the same thing so hearing it again after so long came to him in a shock. " I don't think you should read any more of those newspapers their changing you and......."
" DAD!" He jumped he really jumped when she yelled. " Tell me did he leave me anything else?! He told you to never break my heart or make me cry so answer me, Dad." He was about to speak but she could see it was a lie and she didn't want him to lie. " Last night you said you were tired and got out of the conversation but I am not letting you out of this Dad. You keep me locked up in here with no sense of society and I......I can't even stay away long without you calling or keeping me in your room with you. You lost the man you love and I get that hurts Dad but he was my father who I will never get to meet, I grew up hearing all these stories about him but just those alone had me in love with him. But I am and not him, you can't replace him with me so tell me to fucking truth."
" I don't know where this is coming from and I think it's from that low-life girl you call a friend but you don't get to talk to me this way Amara. You may be an adult but I am still your Dad and we have had this discussion over and over again and........."
" Alice didn't do anything it was about time I stood up for myself but all I am asking for is the truth is that hard for you? Are you not capable of telling someone the truth or have you always been a liar? Cause I know how much Father hated liars, how he killed them and saw them as disgusting beings who shouldn't live. But he loved you was he wrong to do that? Were you just lying to him the whole time you knew him? Perhaps you used him like you use me?" It was when he slowly started to cry and hold himself she knew she was getting somewhere. " You where that ring that symbolizes that love but....if you lied or broke promises doesn't that just ruin the whole point of that ring? He never wanted any of us to suffer or be upset yet I have lived almost 20 years with no place in the world, I am only known as his daughter and no one.........no one knows me as yours."
" Amara please don't say that he.....he loved me and I might have broken a few promises I made but......"
" You did? Which ones? Cause I would hope if it was any and especially it wouldn't be his dying wishes would it? Cause that would be terrible hell if the person I loved did that after I died I sure would hate them. So......did he leave me anything else Dad?" He was sobbing which only showed he was guilty over everything she said if not more.
He was going to tell her just so he knew Alastor didn't hate him for his lies but it was far too late. If he came this far he would make it to the end so he wiped his tears as he grabbed his phone. " This conversation is over with and you can kiss going anywhere goodbye Amara. I understand you are upset but using your father on me is just cold. You don't do that to people you love Amara. I have to go before I'm late."
Right as he grabbed his phone and opened the portal she spoke. " You're right you don't do that to people you love Dad so look in the mirror." She walked out not giving him another look but when she got into her room she grabbed her frog and broke down into tears. " Papa I need you, please!! Why did you have to leave me!?" Tears were shedding for the man who was supposed to keep from ever crying, most of her tears fell because of him not anymore. She stood up whipping her face and grabbed the watch. " He lied to me for too long and this time it was the last straw." She hit the button and seconds later Vox appeared. " I want to stay with you he will look for me at the hotel and force me back here so I need to be somewhere he won't look. They can't know either."
" Let me guess he lied to you?" Vox didn't need much to see she had been crying but she looked at him pissed not about him but for Lucifer. " Well, good news I may be able to remove those things sooner it's almost done, and once it's out we are going to make him pay for everything he did."
Fighting her dad was a losing fight and no matter what her powers were it wasn't a fight to fight. " No his worst fear is being alone and that's what he will be or.....or he will lose the last piece of my father he has left. Fighting someone who is broken is pointless.
Charlie distracted herself from everything by digging into the exercises and making sure everyone was happy. She had thought about calling her dad to warn him but Vaggie said if she did, Amara would never forgive her so she let it be. But she still had the smallest amount of hope her dad would come around to telling Amara the truth. After hours and everyone finishing up dinner, she was getting ready for games when her Dad appeared a complete mess. " Dad? What are you doing here?"
" Amara, is she here? She wasn't at home when I got home and no one saw her leave. No one was even near the palace so she didn't......" He had come home ready to talk but when he went to Amara's room her radio and frog were gone which only meant she was too but he looked everywhere but nothing so the hotel was the next place. " Is she here? Her stuff was missing.......maybe someone took her? Or she was just......"
Charlie looked back at Vaggie who sent everyone to their rooms and once everyone cleared out she had her Dad sit down. " Did you talk to Amara today Dad?"
" Yeah, but she was so different and said all this hurtful stuff about Alastor not........" He knew Alastor loved him and still would.
Husk saw Charlie was about to go nice on Lucifer but he looked at Vaggie pissed and walked over. " She knows about you dampening her powers and wanted to give you a chance to come clean. You lied to her fucking face knowing she could see through you like everyone else! You did a fucked up thing and now you lost her and you know what......Alastor would fucking hate you if he......"
" Husk that's enough he is hurting enough." Charlie sat down as she held her Dad as he started to cry.
" Babe I am with Husk here as much as you want to make him feel better he messed up and needs to face the consequences. Lucifer, Alastor warned you not to break her trust and you did but she asked us to pick between you or her and I am with her." Vaggie looked at Husk and Angel as they nodded.
" W...wait how did she find out? It's impossible." Lucifer wiped his tears as he looked at Charlie who slowly stood up. " Charlie, please."
" Dad you know Alastor always planned ahead and he made a deal with someone to help Amara be the radio demon if it was what she wanted and it's what she wants." Vaggie held her hand as Angel grabbed her other. " You have lied to her for too long, you have lied to me when you promised several times to stop, you promised Alastor yet you lied to his little girl. She needs family and......and I understand what it feels like to be lied to not on the level you did but.......I am picking her Dad." Her phone started to ring and when she looked it was Vox. " I have to take this but Dad.....give her some time and maybe she will come around but......leave her and me alone until we reach out."
As Charlie ran off to answer the phone Husk pulled Lucifer to his feet. " We told you this would happen but you didn't listen to us so enjoy being alone I don't give a shit if your king but fuck you it should have been you who died not Alastor."
" W...wait wait! Where is Amara I at least should know that." No one said anything as he looked at Angel hoping almost praying, he would answer him. " Angel, please she's my little girl....."
" Dad I will take care of her but until she says so leave us alone." Charlie walked over to Vaggie and whispered in her ear before looking at her Dad. " Force your way into her life and she will never forgive you and if you try.....I will call Alastor's mom and tell her what you did." She walked up to her dad as he cried. " Be king is all you can do but your role as a parent is gone for the moment now I have to go." She just walked out.
Lucifer looked at everyone but they just looked away so he went home not to his room but to Amara's as he cried into her pillow. " I'm so sorry Froggie I.....I should have never done that......I need you back please."
Vox had gotten Amara settled in a room away from Valentino or Velvette and while she made herself comfortable, he finished up what he needed. Not before Amara cooked her feelings out which he didn't mind but as he told her what was going to happen, while she looked fine he knew she wasn't so while she went to her room he called Charlie. He told her what he was going to do and that Amara would love to know she had her sister's support but only if she had cut Lucifer out which she did. When he walked back into his lab Amara was sitting there with her frog which he hadn't seen in years. " I hope it's okay but I called Charlie and she's on the way here. She talked to Lucifer already and she picked you kid 'cause you have never hurt her the way Lucifer has."
" My....my life would have been so different if my father never died if my dad never lied.........I just want to hold him and talk to him and know he understands me. That......that I will make him proud." She may be an adult but never too old for her frog, for the very thing her father even sick made for her. All those hard times her frog was there to comfort her because he made it for her. " I know this is childish but could I hold it while it's extracted?"
" It's not that bad hell........I sleep in shark pajamas when I'm alone and my pet sharks were there for me when Al died I spent hours up there with them and even started working from there but they were comforting. You know Alastor for my last birthday before I fucked everything up, he got them for me? They are old but I made sure they will never die and they live a happy life with me." Vox sat down with Amara as he looked at the frog it was worn down and dull but Alastor made it.
" Then you should never let those sharks go and don't worry this can be our little secret. Scary overlords don't need a shark or frog for comfort it's a weakness an enemy will use against us. But I can't sleep without it and I know it's old but........I know he made this with love for me." Amara laid her head on Vox's shoulder as she looked at her stuffed frog.
Vox just laid his head gently on hers until he heard someone knock when he sat up it was Charlie walking in. " I should get it ready while you two talk."
Charlie sat down by Amara but before Amara said anything she just hugged her. " I love you and I will be here for you no matter what."
She hugged Charlie back. " Thanks.......are you sure you can handle not seeing Dad? I don't want you to......"
" I won't he lied to me for too long and you stood up for us but some time to himself to see what he did is what he needs for a while. But let's not worry anymore about him alright? We are getting that chip out and you are going to destroy it so no one ever puts it back. Also, the hotel has your back in whatever you choose." She gently moved Amara's hair from her face as she saw her ear lay flat against her head. " You know how badass you're going to be out there? You make sure hell never thinks less of any women and be the boos bitch I know you can just.....just don't forget about me."
" Haha, how could I you will be at every radio tower trying to find me." She hugged Charlie tightly. " I appreciate you being here Charlie and for now on no more lies, please."
" No more lies there gross." They both laughed even Vox as he walked over.
" That's cute but let's get that chip out. It will be quick and precise all you have to do is lay back and in and out then done. Your powers and everything should kick in seconds after." Vox saw Charlie's fear and he walked over. " Just be there that's all you can do and kid just lay on your side." He helped Amara lay down as he started to move her hair.
" Hey Vox......don't fuck with my ears and I mean it." Sure she was clinging to her frog but everyone laughing made the room less tence. When Charlie sat down looking at her she grabbed her hand. " It's okay Papa's here with us."
" I am glad I was worried when you had the thing put in so taking it out and you're awake is scary." She didn't dare look over at what was making the beeping sounds but she held Amara's hand tighter. " Why do you look so calm?"
" Haha maybe cause after this I get to be everything I have ever wanted to be, no more hiding or being scared." She flinched when she felt something sharp but pushed through so Charlie wouldn't freak out but quickly she felt something sharper which made her close her eyes as she held Charlie's hand tighter. Then seconds after it was over she looked at Charlie who looked like she was about to cry so she opened her arms as Charlie leaned in and hugged her. " I'm okay Charlie it's done."
Vox saw Amara starting to get up but stopped her when he saw her quickly exhausted. " Hey just lay there for a bit we have plenty of time to see what your powers are."
" But....I'm fine.......and...." Sitting up quickly made her feel exhausted but laying there she just felt cold and it just felt colder to the point she was shivering.
" Vox she's burning up." Charlie could feel Amara shaking but when she felt her forehead it was burning. " What's going on?"
Vox didn't have to feel their forehead to know cause her ears laid completely flat. " It was an outcome but with her powers being suppressed for so long it was going to take a lot out of her so we should get her to bed and after some sleep and maybe something to help with the fever she should be better." He zapped them all to Amara's room at the tower as Charlie quickly tucked Amara in. " You can stay if you would like. Her body just has to adjust and with that half of Alastor, it's going to hit hard since it's not used to being mixed with angelic powers."
Charlie wasn't even going to ask to stay as she quickly got into the bed and Amara slowly moved to curl up to her as she held her frog tightly. " Vox makes sure anything important is shut down when she was little before the chip when she would cry everything would break that was plugged into the point we turned the power box off so we didn't have to unplug everything." Vox nodded then zapped away as she waved her hand to turn the radio on as she laid down to hold Amara. " You tell me if it's too much and we will get you something for the pain alright?" Amara didn't answer her but she carefully scratched behind Amara's ear which helped Amara sleep after a few hours she heard her belting out which started off soft but quickly got louder to the point Vox came down. " Vox what did we do?"
" The right thing her body just has to adjust the more power the worse it will be and......fuck.....it's Alastor and Lucifer's kid it's going to be a lot. Don't worry I got a doctor coming to help make sure she's not in pain but you're doing good." Vox walked over as he felt her cheek and it was burning which worried him which he didn't show so he gently scratched Amara's back which she seemed to like so he didn't stop until there was a knock. When the door opened the doctor walked in. " Can you just help make sure she's not in pain and help with the fever?"
" Of course but you know who would help it would be Lucifer....."
" NO!"
When Amara yelled the lights all went out and they all looked at each other but Charlie just held Amara closer. " It's okay we won't call him, just rest." She looked at the doctor as the lights slowly came back on but the guy looked terrified. " She won't hurt you but please just help her and don't say his name."
" Right well from what Vox told me over the phone her body is just adjusting to the surges of powers going through her. From what I know about her dad she is in for a long night but I can help her sleep so she's not in as much pain but it will get worse before it gets better. I pulled her file from the hospital cause this could easily be solved by her going to heaven if she's more Lucifer but if it's Alastor........only being where he's from would make this hurt less."
" No she stays here and we never wanted to know who......" Charlie stopped herself as she felt a wetness on her shirt when she looked down it was Amara crying. " Okay tell us."
" Geez......." He adjusted his glasses as he looked. " Normally, the parent who carries gets more but.......she is almost 70% Alastor......we should get her to sleep to help with the pain and start fluids cause this is going to get a lot worse."
" Why would it get worse? If she's genetically more Alastor wouldn't it be better?" Vox didn't think it would be this bad but seeing her this way made him feel shitty even if it was the right thing.
" We don't know much about the void but just like when she was born she relied on Alastor to get out of Lucifer and then to live. But we don't have Alastor here to help and the angelic parts have been in control for so long........ let's just say that this just has to run its course and she is young and healthy so it's going to be okay. I will just make sure she stays strong so her body adjusts."
Charlie kept telling herself it was the right thing to do but seeing Amara like this stung. But after the doctor gave her some injections, she seemed better. Just like their dad would have she didn't let her go and watched everything the doctor did and asked what everything was he was giving her. Vox sat beside the bed watching Amara and the doctor, making sure she didn't hurt any more than she should and he made sure the radio stayed on even brought Amara's baby blanket which she clung to like her stuffed frog. Vox let her get some sleep while he watched Amara and they slept in shifts but it had to be barely even morning when the radio started to blare waking her up it flipped through stations and songs until nothing made them both look at Amara but she was mumbling. " Vox what happend?"
" I.....I can't get a signal on anything can you?" Vox pulled his phone out but nothing and Charlie had nothing either as he turned to the radio, suddenly loud screams started to blare not just in the room but throughout the rings to the point they were covering their ears until it stopped. " Shit...."
" What?" Charlie quickly sat up as she snapped a wet cloth to wipe Amara's sweat.
" All the power in the rings is out." He could reach the ring but a power outage like that only happend once before with Alastor. " Charlie I know you don't want to leave but the sins will come looking for the source and your dad will too." He went through camera footage from around the city until he saw Lucifer flying around the city. " Charlie he's looking you need to get him to go home before he finds her and makes it worse. I will watch her but he sees me and he will fucking kill me for doing this."
" Vox you did the right thing but okay but don't touch her ear she only lets a small few." She looked down at Amara as she rubbed her cheek. " I will be right back alright I just have to deal with Dad but Vox will be here and he won't touch your ears. I love you." She kissed her forehead and then slid out of bed as she ran out. But she waited until she was away from the tower before yelling out for her Dad. It took a few tries before he saw her and flew down.
He had passed out from crying but woke up when the radio screamed but when he started to worry he ran to look out at the city just as the sin's started to blow his phone up. The power in every ring was out which only could be two people but Alastor was gone only leaving Amara so he quickly went out looking for Amara as he did he heard Charlie yelling for him so he went to her. " Amara, where is she?"
" Dad go home it's fine. She is just adjusting to her.....powers." Charlie saw the fear in her Dad's eyes. " Sorry, Dad but she doesn't want you there so please tell the sin's it will pass shortly."
" Charlie she needs me there, I know she's upset but that amount of power just......."
"It's been hours and we are handling it but doesn't need you there I asked and she needs Alastor but he's gone. So she just has to adjust the long way." She looked around as the city's lights turned back on slowly. " I won't tell you again Dad but don't look for her if you ever want to have a relationship with her again."
Lucifer held himself as he looked around. " Is she okay?"
" I can't tell you Dad but I need to get back she wants me there." Charlie looked at her dad as he wiped his tears and started to turn to leave. " Dad........it's painful but we have a doctor who helped make it not as painful so she's sleeping through it." He smiled at her before flying back to the palace as she ran back to the tower and to Amara only as she ran up the stairs the lights all started to flicker. When she ran in Amara was crying out for Alastor which quickly had her in tears as she hurried over to Amara. " It's okay I'm here Amara."
" Papa........papa!"
Charlie saw Vox standing on the side in tears as she quickly laid down in the bed and held Amara as she cried into her. " Shhhh.....it's okay he's here with us always Amara." She watched as the doctor put something in her IV and slowly the lights stopped as she went back to sleep. " Why did she wake up?"
" Her body is burning through the meds cause it's meant for sinners. Alastor always had stronger medications and he wasn't at full strength and Lucifer......he wasn't either. Amara is getting stronger as the hours pass but that's a good thing, her body is adjusting to the changes but she will need to take it easy when she gets better. Her body will be exhausted and she needs to eat. She is quite thin and from the records so was Alastor so she needs to eat a lot more before she goes through hunger pains or worse."
" You have to be joking with me."
" What?" Charlie was scratching behind Amara's ears as she slept against her while she looked at Vox.
" Your Dad is here." Vox looked at Charlie who quickly sat up as Amara started to cry out. " Stay she needs you, Charlie. I will deal with him once and for all."
" Vox please don't kill him it's his daughter of course he wants to be here for her. I understand you're pissed but he is alone for the first time in 21 years so he is paying the price Vox. Alastor wouldn't want you to kill him so please don't if not for me then Amara and Alastor." Charlie didn't get an answer as Vox zapped away.
Vox appeared as Lucifer was about to walk down the hall. " Thought Charlie told you to go home Lucifer."
" I should have fucking known you got into her head! She never questioned me before or ran away before! Now this!" Lucifer balled his fist tightly as he looked at Vox. " Move I am seeing my daughters."
" She doesn't want you here. Neither of them do, Lucifer. You lied to her when she even gave you a chance to come clean, Lucifer, she wanted you to be honest for once but no you couldn't, so you can't go in there. Alastor asked me to help his family and protect them, and I am. You have hurt those girls enough so if you want to hurt them more kill me but otherwise get the hell out of here." If being a parent felt like this.....maybe he should consider it."
Lucifer took a breath as he calmed down. " Look I just want to see her, please and make sure she's okay. I can see the lights it happened with Alastor and I can feel something changing in Amara so please. I won't say anything I just want to see her." He held his hands out to Vox as he walked over to him.
" You don't make me feel bad 'cause what you did was the worst thing I could think of to that girl Lucifer. You say you love her but you tried to take something that wasn't your choice, something Alastor left for her so she had a place but you tried to take it from her. So no you can't go in there and I wanted to kill you but Amara said no that you being alone was worse than death or some fight. She has Charlie but if she finds out you came she will drop Charlie from her life I have seen her work Lucifer and she will be just like him but she won't have to be the heartless version if she has Charlie." Lucifer seemed to understand but just looking at him pissed him off so he punched him in the face knocking him to the ground. " That's from Alastor, asshole." He zapped away but he made sure he saw Lucifer vanish.
Like the doctor said it did get better over time and thankfully so. The radio glitched a few more times, the power in Pride went out a couple of times, and at times the room started glowing green just like Alastor's. By morning Amara was waking up but she hardly moved so she called Rosie and told her everything as she came over, making them some breakfast as Vox got some work done. But Amara wouldn't eat as much as she and Rosie tried; she said the smell made her sick so they stopped. Rosie tried different things until something she made worked and they fed her but she could hardly sit up without groaning in pain.
After a couple hours and Rosie left she got Amara up. She insisted on taking a shower since she was covered in sweat. So she sat on the bed just in case Amara needed her as the help changed the bedding. When Amara walked out she was still weak but she was feeling fine and wanted to even go see Vox. She held Amara as they walked to see Vox who was in his office. " Hey Vox someone wanted to come see you."
Vox looked around to see Amara and as happy as he was to see her up he was still worried as Charlie helped her sit down. " You should be resting not coming up here kid."
" Well, I was tired of being in bed, and besides while I was in the shower, I snapped and looked." She snapped her fingers and a green flame appeared. " Oh I think of something and snap it happen it's how I got changed heheh. This is exciting but I wanted to tell you cause.....cause without you I wouldn't have these powers much less a real shot at life."
" Charlie I am sure you have to head home I can call you if anything happens." Vox was going to wait but showing never hurt.
Amara looked up at Charlie. " It's okay if you need to go but thank you for being here it means a lot to have you here for me. I know I scared the shit out of you so go spend some time with Vaggie and maybe think again about making me an auntie."
" Haha you're all over the place but I will. Vox I am trusting you with my sister you screw up and I will cast hell itself on you understand?" Charlie hugged Amara carefully as she stood up she looked at Vox who nodded. " I love you and don't kill him......he is fragile."
" What?" The two just laughed as Charlie walked away. " Anyways.......Alastor gave me something to give you when you were ready to decide now I am just showing you but you can't tell anyone unless you're ready to take it." Vox walked over to Amara as he zapped them to the lower basement which was one large safe.
" Woah what is this place?" As she looked back it was a massive safe with symbols written all over it.
" Amara, me, and Alastor made this so no one could find what's inside, not heaven, not Lucifer, and not anyone from the void. No one was getting into this thing but me. While I made the tech he made sure no one was able to find this and trust me when I saw everyone had been looking for this, heaven almost got close but the only way down was by zapping down and it's too bright for some weak void person to get through." As he opened the door there it was but he helped Amara walk over. " Alastor on his last good day told me to come to his door at midnight when I did Alastor handed me this.......he made sure this place was safe weeks in advance and even called in his favor with Carmilla Carmine for the impenetrable safe. This was part of our deal but Amara this staff draws its power from the void it's a powerful tool in your hands to me it's nothing but to you it will center that power just like you have and will make the impossible.....possible."
Amara was going to reach for it but Vox stopped her. " This is the staff everyone looked for but I don't understand why they wanted it so bad."
" Well he didn't tell me but from the funeral, I guess heaven was scared a sinner could wield his powers or that you would use it to get revenge for them creating the thing that killed Alastor in the worst fucking way." He picked the staff up as Amara watched. " See I don't get anything from it but you would........you are looking not touching cause I am pretty sure when you do heaven will know."
" Then I guess we should start training so I can be ready."
Notes:
Vox had Alastor's staff the whole time!! How will everyone react when they see Amara wielding it? Will Heaven try to take the staff from Amara? How is Lucifer going to hold up now that his only family is left, and both don't want him around? How will Amara's trainnig go? Who did Roo release into hell?
One more chapter for the week, but if you're new......Babes, I make extra so you can have a weekend off. Extra also being big cliffhangers......some weeks there are bigger, some not so much, but this is this story's first week, so I gotta make it good heheh. Thanks for reading until next time......bye.
Chapter 5: Fitting Into Your Role
Summary:
Luicfer's first week without Amara or Charlie doesn't go well as he stops taking his meds. Amara gets better to the point Vox says she is ready, only he has a few surprises. Amara finds it better to be on her own, so she stays at Alastor's old radio tower on the far end of the city, only she finds someone has been trapped in there for years. Amara pays the hotel a visit as Husk and Angel tell her about their contracts and Alastor's last words to them, but as she was about to leave, happy Charlie mentions Lucifer quickly changing the mood.
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It had been a week since he saw Amara last, and 6 days since Charlie. He could hardly get himself out of Amara's bed as he held onto the blanket Alastor had made. Sin had called but he never answered. He tried working, but nothing got him out of bed to the point he wasn't taking his meds anymore, so he was crying all the time, and at night, the nightmares returned. The fall to hell, his family in heaven's disgusted looks at him, the den, Alastor's death, then Amara and his last conversation, but all of it kept him awake, all of it kept him afraid.
To the point of days of no sleep and no meds to keep him sane, the dreams became real, he saw his brothers circle the bed and call him a failure, Amara asking him why he didn't love her and how heartbroken she was, Charlie telling him to leave her and Amara alone, Vox saying him being alone was worse than death, but all of it had him screaming for it all to stop. Vox sat on the bed, telling him he should have died and not Alastor, how everyone's pain was because of him, that he broke Amara, and how Alastor hated him, but it was too much; no matter how loud he yelled, he kept talking. " Please........PLEASE STOP!!"
He had done everything in his power not to drink the visions away or run off to find some pill or anything to make them stop but this was too much. He couldn't handle it anymore but when Vox finally stopped, as he looked up from under the pillow, Amara sat there. " Froggie? Are.....are you really here?"
" Did I do something wrong to deserve what you did? Was I defective or something? Was Papa's death a turning point that made me become an obligation rather than something you loved? I am your flesh and blood Dad, I am made up of Papa too so maybe if you didn't want me to be him then you should have just removed him from me totally."
" I....I love you, Amara, and I loved raising you and being there for your first, being there when you needed someone to hold you when you missed him or......." He was still crying, but Amara just smiled at him, which he hated how coldly she looked at him as if he were no one.
" I spent my life taking care of you, the nights you cried, I came to you, saying I missed you when really I just wanted you to shut the hell up. I was a child who you just used to feel Alastor again, well, Dad.....he died, and you know you broke every promise to him, yet you wear that ring. Hell, you barely lasted a few weeks before fucking someone else."
" Stop please.....I.... I didn't make your childhood bad. I was there , we dressed up, we had family days we........ " He slowly held himself tighter as she moved closer to him with the same cold smile.
" Then why hide who I was? Why lie to me my whole life? You knew what Alastor meant to me yet you lied several times to my face. You broke my heart like you did Charlie and you did his. You let my father die! You didn't try harder to keep him here for me! You failed me! I am suffering because of you!! I AM IN PAIN DAD! You get to live on while my whole life has been held back from me my whole life, you tried to take that life away but you lay here crying like a baby when Alastor asked you not to do this. Just add it to the list of everything you broke with him and Dad......marriage is until death and he is dead. You just bring me pain and if you want my pain to stop then you stop living."
" Y .... you're young and you still have time to......"
" Time to what? Live? Cause I don't know how to because of you. You should just kill yourself so I am not suffering anymore by you."
" No......no you're not real ..... you're just my head ...... " He covered his face with the pillow but she didn't stop so he wrapped himself in his wings.
" Real manly of you, Dad. Good thing I wasn't a boy. This is just sad and you want hell to respect a man who does this? You want anyone to respect you when you're just a fat fucking liar! YOU ARE NOTHING WITHOUT ME AND CHARLIE AND WE ARE NEVER FORGIVING YOU!! You just bring us more pain when parents aren't supposed to hurt their kids yet......yet you have for both of our lives. You want me to stop, you want our pain to stop?"
" YES!!"
" Then get your ass to your bathroom and get in the tub."Lucifer just wanted it all to stop so he teleported to his bathroom as he turned the water on. " Dad you don't deserve warm water."
He hated himself for listening, but he needed her to stop, so he turned it on cold as he snapped his clothes off. " Amara, please, I.... I am sorry, please......Please, I want to be good for you both and ..... "
" How can I trust you when you have lied so many times before? Eve rything that comes out of this disgusting mouth is lies. Now get in.......NOW!"
It was so cold and he tried to stop but she kept screaming until he was sitting in the ice-cold water shaking. " Please .... it......so... so cold."
" Wanna warm it up use yourself to do it."
He didn't understand until he saw her holding a razor which quickly had him backing up. " No.....no I don't wanna please!"
" Then give into the cold and water. Head all the way under and stay."
No, he couldn't do it he covered his ears. " Go away ...... GO AWAY!!!" He just kept yelling until his voice was sore and his shaking worsened but when he looked there he was ...... Alastor. " Love?"
" Hello, Mon Cher. It's been a long time since we last spoke hasn't it?" Lucifer just weakly nodded as he cried silently. " I have been watching you Lucifer and as much as I hated it I knew you couldn't keep those promises but you kept one ......you were there for our little girl . Who has grown up so much Lucifer and you .....you look practically the same as the day we met."
" I.....I'm so sorry for everything and...."
" I know you are but Lucifer our little girl is in pain because you kept something I wanted to give her away from her. I didn't give it to her to hurt you or her, I did it so she had a purpose so she never felt like less cause she is so much more than just our daughter Lucifer. The Lucifer I knew would have never done something so cruel to some they loved much less their own blood." Alastor stood up as he looked at Lucifer holding himself shivering. " Lucifer you don't think I want to be here for her, to see her grow up, to hold her the way you two do? Do you think I want to be alone? It's awful and I would give anything just to hold my daughter again to tell her I love her or give her advice. I missed everything about Lucifer and I will miss her whole existence. I fought to get to hell to be who I was then I found you and fell in love and had a child who I fell in love with, I wanted to be a father, a good one, one I never had. But it was taken from me in the most painful way and I have to live my eternity watching from the side and I can never do anything more. Do you know how many nights I wanted her to cry because of you or because she missed me? It's worse than any void Lucifer and I am alone, it's no paradise if anything it's a hell I wouldn't wish on anyone."
" No......no love please don't say that. I....." The only thing that helped give him comfort in Alastor's death was that he wasn't in pain, that he was happy and free.
" I'm sorry, mon cher but I can't lie to you. It's lonely where I am and I remember all of it, all of that pain, everything that man did......"
Lucifer forgot about Diego and tried to reach for Alastor but he jumped making him jump. " Love...I.....I don't want you to be lonely or in pain."
" Then......then could you come with me? We could be together I miss holding you as you sleep and hearing that almost child-like laugh or that apple scent you always have." Alastor sat down on the side of the tub and he grabbed Lucifer's hand. " I can't stay long or he will come for me."
" I miss you so much but...... but I need to make things right with our girls , I need to be there for them." He missed his touch it was so warming.
" Lucifer please I can't handle him anymore and it hurts too much."
Lucifer never saw Alastor afraid but he was just like he had been with Roo as his bathroom door opened. Alastor quickly stood up but as he tried to look through a red chain formed around Alastor's neck pulling him away as he yelled his name but when he tried to get up Adam stood there covered in black blood that dripped from his exsorcist mask. " No.....no go away..........LEAVE US ALONE!!" Everything with black for a moment only when it faded he was in his bed tucked in when he tried to get up someone stopped him when he looked it was Oz. " Ozzy?"
" Please lay down you took a bad fall Luci but yeah it's me. Your guards called me saying you were screaming but when I got to the bathroom I guess you slipped and fell. Bel said you just needed to rest and gave you something small for the pain. But she saw you hadn't been taking your meds do you need to get help cause I will call heaven myself and......"
" No......Amara found out about the dampener and her and Charlie asked me to stay away from them." Slowly he told Oz everything that happend with Amara in his dream. " Oz he's in a good place, right? That was just my head, right?Please.....please I can't....."
" Hey......we don't know but didn't Sera tell you he was probably reborn on Earth?"
He nodded as he held Oz's hand. " What.....what if he's being hurt there? He was so afraid and I only ever saw him like that when he talked about Roo or he br ou ght her to me. Then......then Amara......"
" Look you hit your head pretty hard so get some sleep and we will talk alright? Bel left you a med organizer so I will do it for you so it's easier than just opening bottles."
" Haha, I leave them open 'cause......cause I can't.....open them." Slowly he gave into the sleep and curled up to a pillow as he slept.
Training for most start off easy but for her, everything was easy almost too easy. Everything Vox tried came off as easy to the point they started fighting each other in just a few days. Vox didn't go easy on her either and she loved it even when she fell or got hit cause it just drove her to be stronger until day 2 she beat him and from then she won every fight even Charlie watched as Husk and Angel tried even got Vox to team up with them but she won again. The only downside was she was always so hungry while she ate more than ever nothing seemed to keep her full. To the point afte r a day of fighting, she vanished to Rosie's only she ended up inside when she meant outside. But Rosie didn't seem to care and quickly sat her down. " Sorry about not knocking the shadow thing is hard to get just right but I wanted to ask for your help."
" Of course dear but first let me make you something to eat you look thinner than you did a week ago dear."
" Auntie.........I can't stay full anymore before it was easy but now nothing seems to work and last night I spent it holding myself as my stomach growled but it hurt a lot." Amara didn't want to go through that again and she d idn 't want to worry anyone else or else they might make her stop when she was so close.
Rosie quickly grabbed two containers, walked into the living room and sat down. " Dear close your eyes and open your mouth. I want you to tell me which one tastes better." She fed Amara one thing from one container and then another from the next which she didn't seem to like much. " How did you like those?"
Amara thought back as she sipped the tea Rosie poured her. " Mmm the second one wasn't that good but the first was amazing Rosie could I have more?"
" Of course, I wouldn't say no to you but you should know it's a sinner as in the people." Amara quickly froze mid-bite. " Alastor was the same way before he realized it was that or those pains you felt but Alastor was as stubborn as they come and tried to fight it but eventually caved even falling in love with the taste of deer. Hehe, when I found out he wasn't even from hell I just laughed with him cause he made that whole fuss. After all, he didn't like the idea of eating people yet he wasn't even from here. Oh, he always knew how to make a woman laugh to the point of tears." She grabbed Amara's hands gently as she looked her in the eyes. " You should feel ashamed of yourself when you simply do it for survival. I could just bring you some already done weekly so you have this and regular foods but dear......don't hide that wonderful girl you are just because you're ashamed. Besides, you're not alone for hell's sake dear there's a whole town full of us who eat sinner just like you and if one day you wanna try deer we can."
All she could do was hug Rosie as she just thanked her for being amazing and so cool. She stayed there chatting with Rosie telling her about her training as she finally ate to the point she felt full but Rosie sent her back to the tower with a large container of sinner meat which she happily took. And like Rosie said it worked no more feeling hungry or pains and it showed the next day in training to the point Vox said she was ready to hit the streets. She stayed in the shadows so no one saw her and after hours she managed to shock Vox with 5 new contracts when she was supposed to go out to scare. " So what's next?"
What was next? The kid could handle her own sure she didn't know how to summon her soul or use her hearing to her advantage and a few things but she could learn it over time. " Look you have done great but this is a big decision that will change your life, everyone will challenge you, and say shit because you got the role by being his kid."
" Anyone says anything then they have to say it to my face cause no one will say shit about me or my family. But Vox I want this, killing is still a choosy thing but over time I will get better. I just need the staff." Everything she was fine with but killing just to kill didn't sit right with her, slaughtering people for just looking at her or just having an option on her wasn't a reason to be killed, and no matter what she couldn't get over it but she couldn't tell Vox or Charlie. " Also just so I earn my place I am going to stay at one of my father's radio towers."
" Yeah that's smart but I won't go easy on you and Mammon's fighting ring is in a month so you need to be ready for anything cause everyone will want your head on a stick. Let's get you that staff." Vox zapped them to the safe as he opened it. " Just until you're used to it stay in the tower and whatever you do, don't let anyone take it or even hold it not even Charlie." He grabbed the staff as he looked at it and quickly remembered all the times Alastor hit him with it, twirled it in his face as he walked away, and walked so classy with it......all of it just flooded though. " He didn't tell me how to work it so you're on your own but kid heaven is after this so be careful. You see one of them leave it in shadow or whatever he did with it but as ready as you are you aren't for a fight with heaven."
" I will besides don't fight a fight you won't win." As Vox handed it to her she couldn't help but feel her father as if he was beside her, her power felt calmer than ever. " I appreciate everything you did Vox and....."
" Oh shit Vel would kill me if I forgot, she heard me on the phone and I told her everything and she made you a surprise whatever the hell that means. But she will kill me if I don't take you to her."
She just laughed as the staff faded away. " I do love a surprise." Vox zapped them up to Velvette's work room but as she stood there folding her sweater Velvette walked in.
" Oh wow she really does look like both of them it's unfortunate you didn't get his eyes , it's what scared everyone most. Anyways I love to see another woman in a men's field and we have to help each other out and we can call this a welcome gift." Velvette turned and pointed to a door. " The Radio Demon would never be caught dead in this hideous outfit and it has to be burned."
" Hey, my sister and Grammie got these for me and how am I supposed to just trust what's behind that door won't attack me or worse?" Nothing was wrong with her sweater and it had pockets.
" Yeah, red flag doll and I want you to be an overlord cause what the fuck else would you be? A fucking emotional doll? Haha, get in there and change." Velvette sat down on her phone as Amara walked into the room, but Vox stood there. " Relax, you'll love it, which is why Val doesn't know so sit." She sat there scrolling thing her social when she heard the door open as Amara walked out smiling. " Like it?"
" Haha, it's just like my father's but different? My aunt Rosie took one of his old suits and tailored it to fit but I hardly wore it cause of my dad and me being scared to ruin it. But this......" Amara looked at Vox, who stood up looking at her as she kept her hands behind her back. " Is something wrong?"
Words wouldn't form as he slowly put a hand on Amara's shoulder as he looked at her. " He would be so proud of you kid and everything you have done to get here ........geez with that on you look just like him besides for the blond and your eyes but...... "
" Fuck Vox don't fucking cry like a pussy. But it looks good and I never liked the stripes to the ripped bottom but it fit him well like it does you. Now get your ass out of here before this guy breaks down into fucking tears." Amara laughed with her before waving as she vanished but when Amara was gone she turned to Vox as he sat down. " Vox she's not him no matter what but I thought you got over your feelings for him?"
" I...... I thought I did Vel ...... but ..... but all of this just brought it all back. Fuck....I still love him Vel and he's fucking gone." Velvette was never one to be supportive but after everything with Lucifer she found him sitting at his shark tank crying and she finally sat down and listened to him. While Valentino just wanted to fuck the pain away but it didn't change how he felt and it grew them apart to the point Valentino told him when he was done mopping around about a dead guy to find him but it just made it harder. Charlie called and even asked to meet him for lunch which helped and they talked about Alastor and it helped both of them. She would also tell him about Amara cause he always asked but eventually, the meetings stopped as she got busier with the hotel.
" You know my guy fell though why don't you model for me so I can see what needs changing and before you say no.....I got the good shit." Velvette got up grabbed a few bottles and looked at Vox. " Then you can tell me all about Amara."
" Haha fine but nothing crazy."
When she reappeared at the radio tower on the far end of the city she couldn't help but rush to the mirror as she saw the outfits and she couldn't believe all of this was happening. She quickly summoned the staff as she tried to work a few poses and even tried out a few imaginary situations, making sure to s how off the staff but it was all just for fun. But as much as she never wanted to take the suit off it wasn't the day for it yet so she snapped herself and changed into her pajamas but she c oul dn't help spin the staff until she dropped it only when she picked it up did she hear someone screaming. She looked around but saw nothing so she bent down to the floor, practically lying on it she heard the screaming again but also a familiar laugh which had her walking down the crazy long stairs but it se em ed almost louder. So she pounded on the wall. " HEY! Who the hell is in there?! Show yourself or I will come for you." Nothing but the laugh stopped but the screaming continued so she closed her eyes and focused on the screaming she vanished only when she opened her eyes and was in the dark so she snapped a flame.
" Oh thank fuck someone please let me out of here!"
" Who are you and where the hell is this place?" Amara could feel the walls were some wet but she was looking for the person speaking as she felt for the lights.
" I don't know!! That crazy fuck and his minion locked me down here!"
" Watch it!" She was tired of feeling around and quickly clapped her hands and to her surprise the room was quickly lit up, b linding her.
" Who the hell are you?"
" Fuck........I.... I asked you first why you are in this radio tower. Are you some weird squatter?" Stupid light was messing with her eyes as she rubbed them and slowly could see only to see a lady chained to the ground, bloodied in golden blood. " You're an angel?"
" Yeah, and do the chains and blood give that I wanted to be here? No?"
" Fine be a smartass and I will leave you here. Someone put you down here so......."
" No fucking way..........no....nonoon.......NO! You're the fucking kid aren't you?!"
" Um....if you're implying I was a kid I am pretty sure we both were once upon a time how else would we be adults?" The lady had one arm and an eye missing kinda like Vaggie. " Say what happened to your........" She just pointed at the two parts.
" FUCK! Your Lucifer's fucking kid aren't you?!" The porcelain white skin, the cheeks, the fucking eyes.......it was Lucifer but the deer ears could only be one person. " Where is he?"
" My dad is probably at his home but I don't give a fuck about him and I know he didn't put you down here. Man is all fucking talk no action." Mentioning her dad quickly made the conversation boring and going up to bed sounded better.
" Please Lucifer has always been that way, all fucking talk and always playing the poor victim card like bitch it was thousands of years ago get the hell over it."
" Haha, or how he always has to be with people, or else he starts crying like a baby. He's over 10,000 years old but acts like a child, always needing everyone's attention and reminders that they love him or will never leave........like his wife left cause of him so he can't play the fucking victim." Alright slow ly her interest was coming back even walked closer. " My name's Amara, yours?"
" Lute and I am shocked you're not such a daddy girl like Charlie. She talks all cupcakes and rainbows but boy does she have daddy issues she put on others. But she's your sister so I won't talk shit."
" Oh, Charlie was always first the defend him but after years of putting up with him, I am fucking done. But what happend to you that led you down here?" She had to find a spot not covered in blood to sit as she looked at Lute who looked at the ground then her.
" You can't be pissed 'cause you see I have paid well enough for what I did. But extermination day one of the hotel staff killed my.........a guy who meant a lot to me but when I found him again after everything we......we told each other how we felt but fucking Lucifer came barging in trying to kill us demanding answers so I knocked him out before he could hurt friend. Lucifer had wronged him in the past so he smacked him around a bit the guy ruined the little time we had together but we didn't know he was pregnant until after Alastor knocked us out and tortured us down here. He took my friend somewhere and I just hope he got free or anything that......that Alastor didn't kill him before I had to chance to t ell him I loved him one last time. But he never let me go and his little minion has been doing his job for him."
" Shit.........but my father is dead." The way Lute quickly looked at her surprised her. " He got sick from a weapon some angel used during extermination day. It was the last extermination day but I heard about everything I know now my father, Alastor would still be here if Lucifer wasn't such a fucking coward and stayed in his fucking room as everyone risked their lives. Everyone got hurt and all he did was sing about it as my father had to suffer......all those months of him in pain could have been avoided and I have seen that now." Slowly she stood up and walked over to Lute. " I can tell you were an exorcist and you killed but I don't see you going back to heaven like this and I think we could use each other."
" How?"
" See I have recently come into power not just some since we both know who my dads are or were but hell doesn't see me as anything but his daughter who had the role of radio demon handed to me when I worked and suffered for this. Lucifer dampened my powers then lied to me my whole life about all of this and was going to take it away from me when he knew how much I wanted a purpose. You have anger in you, you have a monster inside of you that heaven would never let lose but with me, you could. My father worked alone but I want hell to see women at the top and I don't care if I have a partner or.....or just someone to send a message."
" I won't work for you or give you my soul if that's what your after and if you let me out I want fucking revenge not just one heaven for leaving me down here or Lucifer but everyone!"
" Heaven will come but you hate sinners and it's them who have gone mad but you can't face the king of hell with one arm and eye. You need to practice which is what I want and I won't stop you from going after my dad just give me your word that you won't hurt my sister. She's the only family I have left." She stood there tall as she snapped the chains off and Lute stood up with a limp . " Let me guess those wings are broken?"
" Broken, cut you name it but as I heal up I don't see why not I want to find my friend when I am at my full again but......I want to see what you can do." Lute held her hand out as Amara firmly took it.
" Oh, we are going to have fun."
Over the next week, that's what they had was fun. Lute slowly adjusted to having one eye and one arm and even started showing her tricks and advice on killing which was still the only part of all of this she thought over. But it was fun and they trained at night so no one saw them and spent the day in the tower playing different screams and all of it was fun. Lute became a friend who took her some time to let her in before telling her everything her dad did she seemed furious at the idea and that night she worked extra hard just to shove it to her dad.
It w as amazing and people were talking about the new radio demon while some didn't fear her as much as her father it was still a start, she didn't talk to Vox or the hotel although when she was coming back from Rosie's she ran into Angel who told her to come to the hotel one day soon. She wanted to go and introduce Lute but with Lute being there at extermination day she decided she should stay at the radio tower. After almost an hour of figuring out what to wear, she just went casual but she did use her powers to get the the door of the hotel as she knocked.
" Oh Amara come in you know you don't have to knock to come in right?" Vaggie lead Amara inside as Charlie happily squealed and ran over hugging Amara.
" I know but I didn't want to be rude even if this is my sister's hotel." She happily hugged Charlie back as Angel and Husk walked over, waving even Cherri was there. " How is everything going here?"
" Haha you sound so much like Alastor, even living here he knocked before walking into any room. But we are doing well I have just missed you so much and Grammie called asking if you want to go visit her this weekend and I thought we could go with Niffty since she's been going a bit crazy in here since you started doing the radio." Charlie pulled Amara to sit as she looked at her. " You're glowing in a way I have never seen before."
" Oh, Charlie this freedom and having a purpose feels amazing. I even made a new friend who is showing me some things and we talk like friends do." Amara looked at everyone as she laughed. " I have learned so much about Father and I feel like I actually feel him Charlie for once in my life I don't just see him as a memory you all had but as someone."
" That's amazing Amara." Charlie couldn't be happier as she hugged Amara again.
" So Amara since you're the new radio demon what are you doin' with all of Al's contracts?" Angel hated to ask but he had to know.
" Oh, I am still trying to figure out that part so I don't know who he owned yet. But Vox said I would just feel it but I don't......I'm not too worried about it yet." Then it hit her.....she was in a room of people who knew her father maybe they would know. " Say, do you know who he owned? I found a list but I have no clue how to find these people or if it was even true."
Husk knew better than to lie and he wasn't going to make Angel come clean when Amara even coming was his doing so he walked over downed his drink and sat down in front of Amara. " I know almost every soul he owned and..........he owned me, Niffty, and.......Angel. But none of us have been nice to you for your benefit but because we care and shocking I care about anything haha but......your father won my soul in a game. I was an overlord years ago and a powerful one at that but I thought I could beat the guy everyone warned me about and I lost everything, including my soul. Your father saw Niffty on the streets and took her in and she gave him her soul so they would never be apart or whatever. Then Angel........"
" Al didn't always own me Amara, I used to belong to a bad guy who used me in any way to make money, even if I couldn't walk or.......or passed out but your father made that guy pay and took all of his souls. While he wasn't known for treating his souls well......he was to me......I will forever owe him for my life and without him I may not be alive or......or found real love with Husk." Angel knelt on the floor as he grabbed Amara's hand. " Please don't think I was ever nice to you to use you when I really do care about you. I wanna make sure you live a happy and long life just like Smile's wanted. I even wanna think we are friends. It's silly but I don't want you to hate us and we never hid this from you."
How could she be mad they never told her when she never asked before and both of them came clean to her and even told her more than what they needed to but they were so honest. " I like to see you as a crazy uncle who is also a friend hehe. Thank you both for being upfront and honest with me it means more than you both think and Husk I would appreciate the help if you want to help me. But I have no intention of forcing you to help me."
" Kid, Alastor asked me in his last hours to watch over you, to keep you safe even from Lucifer which I failed which is why me and Angel are yours. But I don't want to ever fail again cause I.....I give a bit of shit for you." Everyone in the room loudly gasped, making him quickly stand up. " Fuck all of you I am getting a drink."
" Haha, that means a lot to me, Husk." The hotel could always make her feel loved but also laugh and as much as she loved her father's old radio tower it wasn't as warm as the hotel. Being with her sister and her friends was nice even nicer that she didn't have to hold up a shield around herself. It had to be a few hours of laughing and chatting before she started to get tired. " Oh man, I am pooped I should get back to get some sleep but we should do this again soon this was nice."
" Amara you could stay here with us? You know you are always welcome to stay here." Vaggie saw Charlie's smile quickly drop when Amara mentioned leaving.
" I know but it's good for me to have my own space after everything I will come back guys don't worry." She looked at Charlie who hugged her tightly as Angel, Cherri, and Husk headed up for bed. " Charlie it's okay and tell Grammie I can't but I say hi."
" Amara.......have you considered talking to Dad again? I only ask 'cause Oz called me....."
Quickly she stood up as she dusted herself off. " Thank you for the company Charlie and Vaggie but I need to head home...."
" But Amara, your home is here with me and......."
" Babe don't do this please." Vaggie tried to hold Charlie back before she did something that would push Amara aways but she forced her way past.
" Amara I haven't talked to him since your powers but Oz called me and told me he had stopped taking his meds and started........." When Charlie got the call all she wanted to do was be there for her dad but she couldn't without losing Amara.
" I don't care, Charlie! He spent the last 19 years lying to all of you and me! He only gets bad when he's alone and we always come back but he needs to understand it doesn't work that way anymore. When you lie and hurt your own flesh and blood their not going to be there when he has a tantrum! HE IS A FUCKING CHILD WHO NEEDS TO UNDERSTAND HE CAN'T ALWAYS GET HIS WAY!" She took a deep breath since yelling wouldn't get her very far and scaring everyone wouldn't help. " If you're so worried, then be with him, Charlie but I won't. But you're just doing what he wants and I won't stand by to watch you do that again so if you go I won't come back, you will be nothing to me, Charlie which I hate to do but I want nothing to do with that man."
She was going to try and talk to Amara but she was gone. " Vaggie I.......I just want my family back."
Vaggie walked over to Charlie and hugged her as she broke down into tears. " I know you do but this isn't for you to fix......it's for Lucifer to do himself. He hurt her Charlie and Alastor warned Lucifer this would happen if he hurt her and he didn't listen but you have to let him lay in his own bed you can't keep defending him just because you're scared to lose him."
" You're right.......but I don't think he can make this right Vaggie and when he does finally try.....she will be long gone." Why don't you head up for bed and I will lock up?" Charlie just nodded as she walked away. " I love you, Charlie!" That always got a smile on her face and once Charlie was gone she started turning the lights off but when she locked the door there was a strange breeze. " I will hurt you if it's you Angel trying to scare me." She was turning the alarm on when suddenly she was thrown into another wall. " What the hell!? Angel stop fucking around! Cherri if this is you I swear I don't care if you're an angel I will beat your ass!"
" Haha don't worry danger tits there long past asleep."
Only one man ever called her that but as she tried to find him suddenly she was shocked making her yell out before passing out.
" You're going to get me everything I need then I will kill you and everyone in.......oh you passed out....shit. Bit fucking rude."
Notes:
What is going to happen to Vaggie? How is Lucifer doing after over 2 weeks with no Charlie or Amara? Will Amara ever forgive Lucifer for what he did? Who took Vaggie? How will everyone react to Amara's new friend being Lute? Who was the other person with Lute that Amara heard? Is Lute planning something? How will the hotel react to Vaggie's disappearance? Will Lucifer be able to get his shit together to make things right with Amara or will he be to late?
Hope you all enjoyed and prepare yourself for next week's chapters heheh also I hope the picture gives a clear idea of what Amara looks like. In the last story I had a few drawings of her as a baby if you didn't read it and want to see just leave a comment telling me and I can put them in next chapter.
Anyways until next time......bye.
Chapter 6: The Past Is Banging On The Door
Summary:
Amara calms herself off after dinner, only to find out the next morning that Vaggie is missing. So they go to see Vox only to find a small glitchy clue, which Vox follows up by going to Lucifer. Adam is on a tight leash as Roo gives him someone to help. Only that someone goes after Lucifer and ends up being the source to finding Vaggie only they were to late.
Notes:
Wow, what a way to start a week, and you will see why in the end, but enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Why didn't she think Charlie wouldn't bring up their dad? She always defended him and was there when he cried but she should have known eventually Charlie would break and pick their Dad over her which stung more than she wanted to even admit. Charlie has two living parents just one life in heaven but she doesn't talk about her mom much still, she never had to grow up knowing she would never meet a parent or without one. Lilith left when she was an adult Lucifer just pushed her away but since the day she was born she was given the purpose of being queen, a role to play in hell and then she managed to achieve redemption with her father's help while she spent years having no purpose than her dad's right hand who didn't do anything but take care of him at home.
So before heading back to the tower she couldn't stop but destroy a few buildings to let off some steam which helped. When she got back Lute was already asleep on the couch so she just made her way to bed as she held her frog close. That morning she woke up early and cooked her feelings away so when Lute walked in she was shocked. " Morning I made........"
" What the hell happend at the hotel?" Lute sat down at the table as Amara told her everything as she made a plate. " Shit. But you had to have known she would go running to his side eventually. I mean Lucifer is everything to her and while you're her sister I think it will help you and.......hell my weight if you let her go."
Amara quickly sat down beside Lute. " But my father always valued family and I like having it."
" You realize being this all-powerful means sinners will go after anyone you care about just to hurt you which includes Charlie and that fucking hotel. Alastor seemed like a smart guy and his only family was in heaven where he never could talk to her, where no one could hurt her. You can have powerful friends like me or that TV guy but letting the hotel and Charlie go will be better for you." Lute turned to her mountain of a plate. " Man, you really can cook haha."
"You're right I think after breakfast I will go over there and tell Charlie to go to him." She didn't want to let Charlie and the hotel go but Lute was right, she was only going to get them hurt. So they enjoyed breakfast and she even had her special meats that Lute didn't give shit about then after they sat around as she did the morning broadcast and screams before getting dressed and sitting down with Lute. " Ooo tonight we should spare but not until someone calls mercy haha."
" Fuck yea." Lute had to admit as much as she hated hell Amara wasn't too bad and she couldn't help but enjoy being in that freak face's radio tower. As Amara was going on about the idea for the fight there was a knock at the door. " You want me to answer it?"
" Nah I got it but if it's Charlie or someone from the hotel....."
" Hide. I know but go before they walk in." It was hiding that reminded her what she was after and who.
Amara vanished to the door as she opened it she was shocked to see Angel and Husk. " Oh, hey? What are you two doing out here?"
" Kid we need your help at the hotel. Vaggie disappeared and we haven't been able to find her. Charlie is freaking out but she has been calling the sins to look for Vaggie." Husk had the idea that they should check the furthest radio tower first but Angel insisted they started with the first as Cherri checked with Rosie and Carmilla.
" Are you sure she didn't just go to the store or something?" Angel just shook his head. " I know Charlie she called my Dad who will find Vaggie faster than......"
" Charlie didn't call him 'cause she wants you Amara. She went back and forth but last night after you left Vaggie helped her see what you said was true so she didn't call him. But we need to find her Amara." Angel looked at Husk then at Amara. " She lost Alastor and if......if she loses Vaggie.....I don't think she will ever be the same again."
Her mind said no cause it would just make what she needed to do harder but her heart felt for Charlie. Vaggie was always real with her and treated her like an actual person so as she looked up the stairs then Angel decided. " I don't want to sit around with Charlie, I want to be out there looking like everyone else."
" You got it, kid, let's go." Husk started to walk away but Amara stopped them.
" Oh, we are not walking that far." She walked over, grabbing their shoulders as she faded into the shadows and emerged back at the hotel as Charlie was pacing the floor. " Charlie we will find her alright?"
Charlie held herself back from hugging Amara tightly and breaking down but her being here for her meant so much. " Thank you. I have all the sins looking so we need to look through pride and before you all say I shouldn't be out there I am going. Vaggie is my partner and I won't sit here as everyone......"
" Charlie we weren't going to say shit besides the more eyes the better." Angel looked at his phone as it buzzed. " Cherri said that Rosie and some of her people are looking for Vaggie."
" Alright Husk and Angel look on the other side of the city while me and Charlie talk to Vox. He has eyes everywhere in the city so if Vaggie was anywhere we would see her." Quickly her and Charlie vanished as they ended up in Vox's office. " Vox we....
" Holy shit! Fuck Amara you can't sneak up on me! I was about to kill you!" Vox turned around as he held his chest. " What...."
" Vox I need your help to find Vaggie she disappeared. She never came to bed last night." Charlie walked over to Vox. " She's the love of my life Vox I can't lose her and I know you understand this feeling cause you felt it for Alastor."
He looked at Amara who seemed a bit shocked as he was then Charlie. " Alright." He turned to his screen as he pulled up the hotel's security cameras only as he played the recording from the moment Amara went in there was nothing for hours until late when the cameras strangely started glitching. " Um......Amara why...."
" That's not me and you know I'm not too good at doing that." She tried to see more but it started glitching more as it played. " I was back at the tower already so that wasn't me."
Charlie kept trying to see anything but quickly she saw a dark figure. " VOX THERE!" Vox paused it but it was Vaggie passed out in someone's arms. " Can you get another angle or something? Oh Vaggie."
" The other cameras went down at this time and this one second after this. I haven't seen anyone do this since........." No, it couldn't be so he quickly tried clearing the image.
" Well if we know who did something like this why don't we just go find them?" She had to break cameras not to be seen but this was impressive.
Charlie knew who Vox was thinking as she gently touched his shoulder. " Vox it's not him.....he's dead."
Vox just pushed though only as it cleared up and played the person had wings. " Wait......those wings.......they can't be a sinner's they're huge."
" You don't think an angel came for Vaggie do you? She hadn't done anything to them to take her or knock her out." Charlie looked at Amara then Vox. " Can you lighten the picture for me and send me the picture? If it was a angel one person in hell will know who."
" Charlie I am not going to see him and I know you want to find Vaggie but....."
" I don't plan on going or forcing you, Amara.........." Charlie thought about it longer before turning to Vox. " Hey Vox....."
" Oh hell no I am not......" Fucking Charlotte Morningstar. " Fine but if he kills me I am haunting both of your asses." Why couldn't Alastor have a son then maybe he wouldn't do whatever they asked.
After Amara and Charlie left to go looking he got himself prepared before he zapped over to the palace only there were almost double the guards since the last time years ago when he tried to sneak in but he found Lucifer's phone signal and zap he was in. Only when he appeared he was in Lucifer's office or workroom, he wasn't sure since there were ducks everywhere along with everything else. " Um......Lucifer?"
" Get out Vox." Lucifer was still trying to get back to himself to get Amara and Charlie back but everything was so heavy and adjusting to the new meds Bel prescribed only made him tired.
" Trust me I will once you tell me whose wings these are." Vox started to walk over but tripped on a fucking duck. " Why the hell are you so fucking messy?!"
Why was he such a mess? Why would anyone want to be around someone who was such a mess? Anything good he had he just messed it up. " Get out Vox."
He dusted himself off as he walked over only Lucifer just rolled his head to the side as it stayed lying on the desk. " Fuck, you look even worse than before but just look at the picture alright it's not for me, and trust me I don't want to be here." He held his phone out but Lucifer just looked away. " Would you just look so I can go?! I have a life unlike you"
Lucifer just flicked him off as he looked at the three ducks on his desk, one for Charlie, Amara, and Alastor. " Just go."
Vox noticed the ducks but he didn't have time for this so he knocked Lucifer's chair over making him fall backward. " Would you just give me what I need so I can tell Charlie?! Answer me then you can get back to your duck family while I care for your real one."
" Charlie?" When he went to sit up Vox stepped on his shoulder. " Why does Charlie need your help? Why wouldn't she come to me?"
" Maybe cause you hurt Amara or maybe she finally saw through your shit! Now tell me whose fucking wings these are!" Vox shoved his phone in Lucifer's face as he looked almost frightened. " You know so who?"
" H.......I....I don't understand it's impossible." He pushed himself up as he looked around. " We gave him away so how the hell......."
" Fill me in here Lucifer before I make a call to a psych ward." He would sit if he didn't fear the floor to be strangely sticky.
" Alastor and I gave him to Roo for Alastor's soul back but.........but Sera said it was impossible for any of them............how?........why.............." Lucifer ran his hands through his hair as he tried to think past the haze. " What did he do?"
" Does this him have a fucking name Lucifer?" He knelt down to look Lucifer in the eyes as he even seemed to be struggling to put things together. " Hey! Stay with me for a bit longer."
" After Lute and he beat me up Alastor took them away to make them pay but.......but he came up with the idea of giving him to Roo so she would let him go and leave." If he was here then could........." Vox what did he do?"
" He took someone but both Amara and Charlie don't want you to know now who is this guy Lucifer?" Lucifer just looked at him then away but he didn't have time for this so he slapped Lucifer hard. " TELL ME WHO THE HELL THIS IS!"
" It's Adam." Why didn't he realize Vox was going to slap him? As he held his cheek Vox stood up looking at him pissed off. " We didn't think he would ever get out and if he's here does that mean he was in the void? If heaven finds out Vox they will deal with him I could......"
" Enough we will handle it but you stay the hell away from this. No calling or looking understood?" Lucifer stood up looking at him and the man just seeing his face pissed him off so he punched him knocking him to the ground. " STAY OUT OF THOSE GIRL'S LIVES!" He quickly vanished away.
Lucifer heard Vox leave and quickly broke down into tears as he curled up on the floor. It was from being punched it was just how low he had gotten, he lost his family leaving him alone and he knew this would happen but it didn't stop him from lying and hurting the people close to him. But if Adam was back they were going to need his help but how could he without putting himself in Charlie or Amara's life or being near them?
All she had left was the stupid alarm so no one would break into the hotel but everything just blurred in her head as she slowly opened her eye only to find herself in some beat-down room but as she looked around she quickly felt something burning when she looked it was angelic chains wrapped around her wrists, ankles, and neck. When she started to yell out he walked in, making everything come back to her. " How the fuck are you......"
" Alive? No thanks to freaky face or Lucifer but the jackasses gave me to fucking Eve and since I have been her fuck toy but all I could think of was what I wanted to do once I was free." Adam walked over to Vaggie grabbed her face and pulled her as she held in her screams. " I just have to get her something and then I am going to kill all of you starting off with you." He tossed her to the ground as he showed Vaggie his new dark powers. " She gave me these to help so tell me where Alastor hid his staff and your death won't be as painful."
" W....what? His staff? No one has found that shit since he died. Heaven searched every ring but nothing. The guy either destroyed it or it went with him."
Adam grabbed Vaggie's arm and he started burning her arm as she tried to hold in the pain. " Where is it Vaggie? You can handle some pain but your friends are looking for you and soon enough one will get close and I will kill them so tell me......"
" FUCK YOU!!" Adam needed proof that he was hurting her which it was but he wasn't going to stop until she broke and she wasn't breaking especially now that everyone was looking for her. When Adam let go she didn't dare look at her arm that contuined to burn. " I.....I don't know where it is. I........I looked like everyone else but.......but it's gone, Adam."
" No, it's not. She can still feel it so WHERE THE HELL IS IT!!" He started punching Vaggie over and over until his chain started to burn him. " FUCK!" He quickly walked off and he wiped Vaggie's blood off as he opened the portal. " I don't think she's lying so let me just kill her and....."
" Someone will know and I am giving you help but if you both fail me, you will meet my last pet's fate understood? Lilith?!"
" Yes." Walking back into hell felt like a giant weight off her shoulders. " Adam, work on Vaggie if she doesn't know then she will message all of them and I will go pay my ex-husband a visit."
" Lilith, mention anything I said not to and I will drag you myself down here! And Adam.....you have been up there for over a week and this is all you have and I am not patient. SO FIND THAT FUCKING STAFF!"
Once the portal closed, he looked at Lilth, worried. " How are we supposed to find something that clever fuck hid when we can't......"
" Adam, she is giving you days and me a week for results so let's get to work before she sends us back. Cause I don't want to go back so......" Lilith looked down the hallways as she heard Vaggie screaming. " Don't kill her, but get whatever she has and leave her a message."
" Fine but you can't kill Lucifer she said 'cause she wants him." Adam walked back to Vaggie as she tried to pull herself free. " Now let's get you to scream like that for me haha."
Lucifer slowly pulled himself together but after he showered his phone was ringing which he hoped was Charlie only when he ran over it was Oz.
" Hey Oz......what's up?"
" Luci, are you out helping to find Vaggie?"
" Vaggie? Wait......is that who Adam took?"
" Yes and everyone is looking but we don't have anything I just got off the phone with Husk and Charlie isn't holding up well. Amara is helping with the search but Charlie isn't asking anymore."
" I don't understand, why Vaggie? How the hell is he even here?"
" Who knows but......w.......w............."
" Hello? Oz?"
END OF CALL
Lucifer looked at his phone and the call was over but when he tried to call back it said no signal when he was about to walk out of his room he was shoved back in he tumbled to the floor when he looked he was stunned to see Lilith. " Lilith?"
" Hello, Lucifer we need to talk and you're going to listen and then tell me what I need to know understood?" Lilith closed the door behind her as she locked it.
He hadn't seen Liith since the day she came on his and Alastor's supposed date. She had thought Amara was Alastor's and Charlie's baby. " No........where the hell have you been? I asked heaven and they said they kicked you out."
Lilith just rolled her eyes as she kicked Lucifer hard in the chest. " Now shut the fuck up and listen to me Lucfier so no one gets hurt or dies. Alastor found me a few days after I came to the hotel and before I knew it the fuck put me in some dark pit only for me to find out it was the void. But I need to find his staff Lucifer and I know if he put it anywhere you would know or Charlie but she tells you everything."
" He did that?" He held his chest as he sat up looking at Lilith. " I.....I don't know where he put it Lilith neither does Charlie. Heaven looked and I have but it's gone."
" It's not gone 'cause it's connected to the void and it's still here in hell somewhere. I need to know where it is Lucifer or this won't be pretty." She went to touch him but he slapped her hand.
" You forget I am stronger than you Lilith and I......."
" You are but she will not stop until it's found Lucifer and if I don't find it she will send someone up here who won't give a single shit for how many lives they kill or who. Please our daughter needs us to keep her and her daughter safe so please just tell me where it is." Gently she cupped Lucifer's face as he looked at her." Just tell me where......."
" You wouldn't work with Adam right?" He pushed Lilith's hands off as he looked at her. " Lilith where is Vaggie?"
She just stood up and took a breath. " Fine make this hard." She snapped power-dampening cuffs on Lucifer as she threw him into the wall. " I don't have a choice Lucifer and I can't go back down there. I......I am sorry." She walked over to Lucifer and forced his hands above his head as he fought as she grabbed his arm and shoulder. " Tell me where the staff is Lucifer before I have to do something we are both going to hate."
" LILITH, PLEASE STOP!!" He wasn't even sure how she was doing this but as he tried to get free suddenly a loud snap and quickly he was on the floor screaming in pain.
" It's alright it will hurt for a while but it will heal for you. Just focus on breathing and it won't hurt as much." She rubbed Lucifer's chest as he slowed down his crying but he was still in pain. " Now tell me where the staff is so this doesn't have to get worse."
It took everything he had not to keep screaming but his shoulder never hurt like this before. " I......I swear Lilith.....we.....we don't know. Let Vaggie go please........do......do what you want to me.........but......but none of us know."
Lucifer always was a terrible liar but he was telling the truth. " Fuck Lucifer......" She wiped his tears as she looked him in the eyes. " If no one knows she will tear hell apart to find it........I'm.....I'm so sorry for this." She kissed his forehead before grabbing his broken shoulder as she pulled him to his feet she vanished into the streets as she walked she hummed. " Know I don't have a choice."
" Lilith please......" He tried to get free but each time he tried she squeezed his shoulder making him yell out in pain until she tossed him to the ground and started kicking him only when he opened his eyes between the kicks and blood running down his face he saw sinner's watching. " S.....stop......" But she didn't stop.
" HEY!" Husk pushed his way through as he stopped in shock at seeing Lilith only moving when he saw Lucifer let his wings out to block her kicks. Quickly he walked over as he tossed cards at her face making her stop. " Back off him!"
As Husk got Lilith off Angel ran over to Lucifer. " Luci......Luci, we gotta get you out of here now." He tried to pick Lucifer up but he screamed loudly as he tried to pick him up by his arms so he put him down. " Come on Lucifer he can't hold her for long." He scooped Lucifer up but as he looked back at Husk he was being tossed through a building as Lilith looked at him. " Shit." He closed his eyes only to see but when he looked Amara was there throwing Lilith through a wall. " Thanks, kid."
" I will get Husk, just go." She didn't look at Angel as she moved closer as Lilith started to get up. " No one hurts my friend!" She tossed Lilith again until she heard Charlie.
" Amara, please don't kill her!" Charlie knew there had to be a reason and her mom looked so different. " Just.......just knock her out and we will get some answers. Please Amara. Adam doesn't randomly show up and my mom."
" Ugh, fine get Husk and I will tie her up I guess." One swing and Lilith was out as she quickly faded away to tie Lilith up. When she returned she helped Charlie with Husk as they went back to the hotel. As she tended to Husk's wounds with Charlie she looked to see her looking into the other room. " Charlie you can go if you want."
" No......I....I am sticking with you on this Amara." She could hear their dad crying in the other room but she needed to keep her mind busy.
Amara looked at Husk who just looked at her as if she was doing something wrong. " I can handle this but......but I know you won't be all here until you see him it's fine. Just.......just come back?"
Charlie quickly hugged Amara. " I will always come back to you Amara besides I'm your older sister I am supposed to be with you." She quickly got up and walked into the room as Cherri picked at the cuff locks. " Everything alright?"
Lucifer slowly looked over to see Charlie which he just wanted to hug but she stayed at the door. "They're trying to get these off so I can heal myself. Charlie your mother she knows where Vaggie is but I....."
" Angel you can dislocate his thumb and it will come off." Charlie looked at Cherri who looked worried. " He will heal."
" Yeah but......it's your dad Charlie." Cherri didn't realize Charlie had gotten that bad with Lucifer but she quickly walked over grabbing Lucifer's hand. " Charlie we can try....." Quickly a loud pop as Lucifer yelled out as she quickly held Lucifer's head Charlie slid the cuff off and then walked away. " Angie you didn't tell me it was this bad."
" I.....I deserve it." He popped his thumb back as he wiped his tears as everything quickly healed. " I can't heal what I did to them."
Charlie walked back to Amara who hugged her as she told her about Lilith to which they quickly came up with a plan. As Amara brought Lilith to the hotel she told Angel to keep her Dad away but when she walked back her mom was tied up in the living room. " Mom......I wish we had seen each other differently but you hurt Dad than my friend so I need you to tell me where Adam has Vaggie."
" Oh you haven't aged any, you look amazing. This must be Amara, I haven't seen you since you were just a baby.....ooh, I am sorry you grew up without your father but he was also the reason I wasn't here." Lililth looked at Amara then Charlie. " After I met Amara a few days later Alastor came to me and sent me to the void which is pure hell, the screams, the.....the pain......."
" Mom I'm sorry he did that to you but we can help keep you from going back I just need you to tell me where Adam has Vaggie. Mom I love her and I can't lose her so please if you ever cared about me you will tell me." Charlie looked into her mom's eyes.
She should never have looked into Charlie's eyes. " An old warehouse over in Carmila's territory and hurry."
Charlie quickly looked at Amara who nodded and she grabbed Amara's hand. " Thank you, mom." Instantly they were gone.
Lucifer waited until the two were gone before walking over to Lilith. " I need you to tell me what Roo is planning with that staff Lilith. Then you're going to tell me if Alastor is alive."
Amara and her stayed together as they called out for Vaggie but nothing only as they broke into each warehouse did she see Adam but he was gone in the blink of an eye. But he was covered in angelic blood which had her panicking as she yelled out louder until she heard Amara gasp. When she ran over she screamed as she ran to Vaggie's side but she didn't move, she was covered in blood but she was beaten and from the looks even tortured but why? " Vaggie......VAGGIE WAKE UP!!" She tried to free Vaggie but she couldn't not even with her powers. " Amara, please!"
That got her back as she ran over and ripped the chain off, Charlie helped Vaggie lay down but she wasn't moving and when she checked her pulse was faint. " Charlie, call Bel now." Charlie just kept trying to get Vaggie to wake up. " CHARLIE! Please she's dying call Bel." As Charlie called she tried to wake Vaggie up even as the portal opened and Charlie picked Vaggie up as they both rushed in. But once Vaggie laid on the bed she was taken away as she held Charlie.
" We will call when we have any updates."
Amara helped Charlie sit down as she saw her shaking not even crying. " Why.....why don't you give me your phone and I will call Rosie to bring us some clothes and update everyone." Charlie just looked at her still horrified.
" I want you to find him Amara. I want him to hurt the way he hurt Vaggie and I.......I don't want anyone here." Charlie sat up as she looked at her bloodied hands.
She hugged Charlie even though she didn't hug her back. " We will find him Charlie and make him pay but I won't leave you here alone. Sister got too sick together so let's go wash our hands and I will ask for some clothes alright?" Charlie didn't say or do anything so she quickly ran over to ask a nurse before walking back to help Charlie walk to the bathroom as she cleaned her hands and body the best she could with a paper towel. " It's going to be fine Charlie remember positivity?" Charlie didn't say anything which worried her more as a nurse came in handing her some clothes but Charlie wouldn't move so she changed her then herself before getting back to the waiting room. " When I was little Dad used to take me with him to every meeting but sometimes the sins would watch me and Bel brought me here and showed me how they saved all these lives and I loved it. I told Dad I wanted to be a doctor to save people like Papa but he just shut the idea down. But I still know they save lives here Charlie."
Charlie slowly turned to Amara. " Last time I was here......sitting in this room......I.....I found out Alastor was dying.......that......that he had been sick for months.........then......then he died weeks later. I.....I lost one person I love and I can't......I can't lose her Amara. She helped me get up after Alastor, she is the reason I never lost my mind and have been able to do so much........... I love her so much. We were just talking about getting eloped so........."
Amara pulled Charlie close as she looked down at her. " You will still do all of that just with me there now haha I can be your maid of honour. Then your going to make a auntie and I am going to spoil that kid the way you always did for me if not worse."
" Hahah......Vaggie is going to hate you but......I want that.........Amara when Dad got bad.......it was me and Vaggie who raised you for months until he got clean but Vaggie loved it and even planned a way to steal you when Dad moved you two away." Charlie laid her head on Amara's shoulder as she told Amara different stories but she stopped as she saw a portal open and their dad walk through. " Dad? What are you......"
" Bel called me and asked me to come.......how are....." Lucifer saw the hate in Amara's eyes as she looked away but Charlie looked upset as he stopped himself from walking closer. The Bel walked in with a worried look. " Bel?"
" Charlie I understand you and Amara aren't talking to Lucifer but I just need you to trust me please."
" How is Vaggie? Can....can I see her?" Charlie held Amara's hand tight as she looked at Bel.
" Physically she has some bruising and broken bones which will heal but the burns are unlike anything I have ever seen which is one reason I called Lucifer, I was hoping he would know. But her bloodwork isn't right.......she is an angel yet she has something else in her blood which is the other reason Lucifer is here. He is an angel so his blood should help get rid of whatever this other thing is." Bel grabbed Charlie's hand as she looked at her and Amara. " She is a strong girl but she isn't awake and we are still treating some of her wounds."
Charlie looked at her dad who held his hands close. " Bring her back to me Dad." He just nodded as he walked away with Bel. " Amara I understand if you want to leave and I will be okay if......"
" I don't give a shit about him 'cause I am here for you and Vaggie. Do you want to scratch behind my ears?" Weirdly, it always calmed Charlie down and Charlie nodded so she laid her head on her lap as Charlie scratched her ears which felt nice but she could feel Charlie relaxing.
It had been hours of sitting in that waiting room but Amara was there for any need she had. If she needed to cry Amara held her, if she needed to be angry Amara was there to help fuel that angel to the point they even went outside to just scream, but Amara knew how to keep her mind busy off Vaggie which she needed most of all. So after so long of waiting she saw her dad she quickly stood up only he was in tears. " Dad? Dad, what happend?"
Lucifer ran up to Charlie and just hugged her as she hugged him back. " We are going to make Adam pay Charlie, he took Alastor from us and he won't take Vaggie."
" W.....what? Adam.......Adam was the exorcist who made Papa sick?" She was just going to sit there until her dad left and not even look at him but this was news to her.
" Adam gave Alastor a death sentence, which I don't know how he did it again using this new form of powers he has. An angel on Angel wouldn't cause this damage but an angel against someone like Alastor could kill each other just by blood alone. Amara, you are a mix of the two so for your dad or someone from this void it could kill them."
" W....what about Vaggie?" Charlie didn't like how this was all sounding and quickly backed up to Amara as she held her hand. " Vaggie was just beaten that's it right?"
" Charlie.......I am sorry I thought your dad would be able to help but it didn't do anything. The dark cells in Vaggie's blood are killing Vaggies angelic cells at an alarming rate."
" Wait....does this mean Vaggie has what my father had?" Why didn't she look their sooner or use something in her powers to find Vaggie sooner?
" I'm afraid so but for Vaggie it's moving faster than it did with him. Charlie, I know this is a lot but I have already made the adjustments to Alastor's old treatment and........"
" No."
Notes:
Will Vaggie die just like Alastor did? What did Lilith say to Lucifer's question? Why is Lute hanging aroound Amara? Who is this other person Lilith is telling Lucifer about that would tear hell apart to find Alastor's staff? Will Amara find out what everyone is looking for? Will heaven hear about what happend? Where did Adam go? Will Lilith break free and run away?
More shall come and even more than that, but tomorrow and later into the week, until then...................................bye.
Chapter 7: Not Again Adam
Summary:
Lucifer talks to Lilith about the Void and Alastor before getting a call for Vaggie. Charlie explains why she doesn't want Vaggie to be treated, but Amara asked for a week, and after talking to Vaggie, they agreed. Meanwhile, Amara hunts Adam down and has some revenge before bringing him to the hotel, where they all find out much more than anyone expected.
Notes:
I don't know why but I am really excited fr whats to come and I hope all of you are even if you didn't read the first story which as I am writing I see where most won't feel the same as if they had read the last one but I will contuine mentioning the last story in the current one.
Anyways enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
" I need you to tell me what Roo is planning with that staff Lilith. Then you're going to tell me if Alastor is alive." Was it a stupid question .....yes but with Adam getting free and finding out Lilith had been in the void this whole time anything could be true and he had to ask it so the question would leave his head for good.
Lilith just looked at him as if he was joking but he wasn't. " Oh Lucifer I know we love our daughter and want her to be happy but he's gone. As for Roo's plans, I can't tell you, sweetie." Lucifer to her surprise, slapped her. " What the hell?"
" Tell me what Roo is fucking planning Lilith or I will break your shoulder and see how you like........."
" I CAN'T!! Lucifer the void is pure torture from her then your mind then the fucking exorcists who come down and do whatever the hell they want to the point your on the brink of fucking death! She was pissed I left her with Adam so she kept me close like she did Adam!" She tried to pull herself free as she felt tears falling down her face. " I wouldn't wish that place on anyone Lucifer and Alastor got lucky by dying 'cause Roo is pissed even from that fucking cage!"
" Cage?" Husk limped in with Angel and Cherri's help.
" Oh fuck......I......I didn't........heaven put her in one so she could never come out but someone opened a portal directly to her so she sent Adam over a week ago. I.....I just came but......but if we show up empty handed she will........she will put us where you never return. One person is down there and their screams.......there......there begs for death.....their haunting." Lilith looked at Lucifer. " Please, Lucifer don't let her take me back. If you can I will tell you everything you want to know and more."
" So the void has rings like hell does but.......but why is the bottom the worst?" Angel sat down as he held Husk's hand tightly.
Lucifer remembers Alastor briefly talking about it. " Alastor said it's where the power is but most get lost trying to come up."
" It is but that power fuck with your brain and Roo has it out for them making their screams for every ring to hear. But there is no most cause no one has lived yet that person has been down there longer than I have and time.......time is so much faster there...........a few minutes there are years here. To the point all you know is pain." Lilith looked at everyone then Lucifer. " She will know if I say anything about her plan but if you can protect me I......"
Lucifer's phone started to ring but he ignored it only it didn't stop so he answered and it was Bel calling him about Vaggie so he quickly hung the phone up. " You three need to watch her and if she does or tries anything ..... Cherri, you know what to do."
" We got it." Angel waved as Lucifer portaled away.
Only when Lucifer got there he didn't expect that hours later it would unfold the way it had. " Charlie, what do you mean no? It could help or....."
" Buy time? Dad.......you remember how bad Alastor got, yes I didn't know until it got that way but Bel just said it was faster than what Alastor had and we never found a cure for him so why would we be able to now? I don't want her to suffer Dad and I don't want her to save time until......" She took a breath as she looked at Amara and ran her hand through her hair. " I want Vaggie to decide and I will support her no matter what." She looked over at Belphagor. " Can I go see her?"
" Of course follow me."
Charlie was about to follow but quickly looked at Amara and her dad. " Can Amara come with me?"
" I'm sorry for right now just one person and I think just being you will help her hear the news easier."
" Hey it's alright Charlie I am going to head back and find this son of bitch who did this to our family 'cause we won't lose her Charlie. You tell her I am going to save her Charlie so give me a week and I will figure this out." Amara gently wiped Charlie's tears. " She's still here so don't waste your tears and smile 'cause this time is precious."
All she could do was hug Amara. " I know you never met him but you sound just like him Amara but if you don't find anything that's okay Amara cause you tried. I know Vaggie and she will ask you to leave her a few hits on Adam." She looked at their Dad then Amara. " I love you both and you little sis better come by and update us." Slowly she followed Bel as she waved.
Once Charlie was out of sight, Amara took a second and started to walk out but quickly Lucifer ran over to stop her. " Amara wait I think we......"
" There is no we, and this doesn't make us good now move." He just looked at her so she quickly vanished and reappeared behind him. " Charlie may need us but I don't need you and I don't want you to say anything to me much less look at me." Quickly she faded away.
Lucifer wanted to go after her but he knew what he needed to do and quickly teleported back to Lilith. " What the hell is Adam planning?!"
" He was just going to rough her up then leave her for you all to find but I told him not to kill her. They found her, right?"
" Yeah they found her but tell me why the hell he is killing her like he did fucking Alastor!" Lucifer kicked the chair Lilith was tied to making her run into the wall.
" Woah what are you talking about Luci?" Angel quickly rushed to stand in front of Lucifer to calm him down as he explained everything. " We can cure her, right? I mean .......I mean she's not smiling so it's different right?"
" I.....I had no idea he did that but.....it's not as bad as it was for Alastor at least so she won't suffer too much right?"
" Won't suffer too much? He is killing her slowly just like they did Alastor so yeah she is gonna suffer and not just her! Your fucking daughter is going to lose another person she fucking loves but this time she has to watch it from the fucking start!" Husk was going to kill her but Cherri held her back.
" What about heaven? If they knew maybe they could help. With Alastor no one knew what he was but an angel they would." Cherri looked at Lucifer who just looked at Lilith who stared at the floor.
" Some with this power could heal her by taking it out but me and Adam are sinner's you would need someone from the void to do it........someone.....someone like Alastor." Lilith looked up at everyone as they looked at her. " Think about it people like Alastor are shadows until given a sinner form but can still go back to that original state. So if......"
" So if we get someone from the void they can just make it go away, she wouldn't be sick and it wouldn't kill her." Cherri looked at everyone as she walked over to Lilith. " She makes sense but how the hell do we get another one of them and give it a fucking body?"
Lucifer just like everyone tried to think until he remembered what Lilith said earlier. " Lilith you told me if you and Adam failed someone else would come so maybe we could ...... "
" Lucifer it will kill you if you try talking to it, it has spent hundreds of years down there in that time and anyone who has been through Roo's shit less is a lost fucking cause. It's at the source of the powers for the void and she only gave me and Adam a few but our time is ticking. His too."
" Shit I got a fucking idea and Luci......call them sins cause we building a motherfucking angelic cage, haha." Angel looked at everyone as they looked at him, confused. " If he can hold it maybe Vox could do his mind control shit on it and get it to cure Vaggie."
" If this thing is at the source, wouldn't you think its powers would be stronger than even Alastor?" Husk hoped he wasn't the only one thinking this.
" I....I don't know.........Adam might. He was always Roo's second to go to but she messed him up good which made me glad when I was third."
" Alastor was her right hand 'cause he was the only one of their kind to get out so whatever this thing is figured out how Al did it." Cherri looked at Angel then Lucifer. "Let's just say this thing is stronger than Alastor we will need all the hell help we can get and a solid fucking plan. And she's going to help us if she wants to stay."
Charlie wasn't sure what to expect but thankfully Vaggie didn't seem too bad, she was bandaged up and had all these wires and lines on her but she seemed herself. Even seemed like she was ready to get the hell out of there but she sat down and gently held Vaggie's hand as Bel told her everything that just had Vaggie frozen. " Babe we are gonna get through this and get the son of a bitch who did this. Amara is looking for Adam as we speak and I told her......"
" What are the options here? Alastor barely lived a year and I wouldn't call those last week's living and I.....I don't want to die.....I....I have......" Charlie sat beside her as she headed her head into Charlie's chest as she looked at Bel.
" Well your's seems to moving faster than he did but.....we have options. One we can start treatments just like we did Alastor and do radiation to slow it down and give your friends a chance to figure this out. Two......two we do nothing and....I give you 2 weeks if not 3 at most. Vaggie with Alastor we tried different treatments one weak next was just right then the other while highly effective started burning him from the inside."
" Oh fuck. Charlie, I can't.....I can't die like this......do we think they will find anything? Amara can't find Adam on her own he will figure out who she is and give her the same fate and......" Charlier lifted her chin and looked her in the eyes. " I don't know Charlie."
" We give them a week, we try these treatments out and after that week if they have nothing then we can stop. We can stop whenever you want and I will support whatever you want to do ." Charlie kissed Vaggie's cheek and then gently wiped her tears. " I will love you no matter what and if Alastor could do this so can you cause my girl is a fucking badass."
" Haha, I am." Vaggie laid her head back on Charlie as she looked at Bel. " Let's do it 'cause I am going out fighting just like Alastor did." She knew how Charlie always hated how much Alastor suffered but the man wasn't ever going to back out of a fight and hell she wouldn't either. So when Bel ran off to get everything ready she turned to Charlie. " Babe I am not going anywhere and once I can walk we going to find that son of bitch and make him pay. Then when this is all over I am going to marry that adorable ass hahaha."
" You better ask me right but he will pay for all of this. But I need you to promise me you won't hide how you're feeling from me, Alastor always said he was fine but he was shaking and hardly could keep his eyes open and you only have one so it's easier." Charlie gently moved Vaggie's hair from her face as she laid down with Vaggie who laid her head on her shoulder.
Alastor said he was fine all the time while it was annoying it helped when he passed that he cared how much it would hurt them knowing he was in pain. So rather than answering she just fell asleep and in her mind she was planning all of the things she wanted to do to Adam when she had the chance.
Once Amara made it back to Pride she went straight to the radio tower for Lute's help only when she got there she was gone and there was a note saying thank you for everything but she needed to be out on her own to find her friend which she knew would happen but she just hated the timing. Lute could have been a good help in finding Adam but she was on her own which she didn't mind as she summoned the staff and slammed it to the ground as she concentrated on sending shadows searching everywhere in pride for Adam and they left no stone unturned until one found him. So she quickly snapped the cane away and faded away into the shadow. Only when she got there she found him standing there laughing as he drank like a pig. So after thinking about how she wanted to do this she quickly blasted him into the wall as she walked in. " You must be Adam's pleasure to meet you 'cause now I know what the man looks like who killed my father." He sat up to look at her but quickly threw him into another wall with a simple flick of the wrist . " Sadly I need you alive to cure my friend then you can die for good this time."
" Haha, your his fucking kid aren't you? Your........." He dodged a blast but another was shot quickly knocking him back down to the floor. " Hold on a fucking second! SHIT!"
She had his wings quickly wrapped in blessed tentacles as he yelled out. " I am his fucking id alright but I am also the kid who had to grow up without him!" She simply pointed up and one wing was torn from Adam's back making him scream out . " Did that hurt? Oh, poor man......" She walked over quickly twisting her foot where his wing used to be. " All of my suffering is because of you and while I am keeping you alive I never said anything about having some fun hahahah!" Slowly she backed away as a tentacle wrapped around Adam's leg.
" Holy shit! Look! I didn't know how long it would take to kill him but.......SHIT!" Adam tried to get up back the kid stomped on his hand breaking it as she was about to do the other he panicked. " STOP!! Alastor is your father right?! W.....What if he wasn't dead?!"
Amara took a step back as the tentacles pulled more. " That's not funny."
" It's.....it's not but......but no matter what he can't come back. I.....I talked to him and......" She stomped on his broken hand making him cry out.
" Fucking liar!" Quickly she twisted her hand shattering Adam's leg as he cried out. " I hate fucking liars and say something about him again and I will make sure you're never able to fucking walk again."
" Roo! She......she made him her pet before me......he....he was her right hand but......but he failed her........he used her hate for me to keep her there and she was......was pissed." Before he had a chance to finish she ripped his other wing out making him cry out even louder.
" Have to leave some of you for Vaggie and Lucifer but Adam......I am going to kill you in a way you will wish my father was alive to do it himself." She didn't really know what that meant but it seemed to scare him as she vanished to the hotel everyone quickly looked at her and loudly gasped. " I bring you all, Adam."
Lucifer saw Adam lying there bloodied and his hand and leg broken to the point they would never heal but it scared him at how happy Amara looked as she walked into the kitchen. " Um.....Cherri, could you......"
" Hell yeah." Cherri grabbed a chair as Angel helped her get Adam in the chair they tied him up as he cried out in pain. " Ugh so fucking annoying......." She walked over to the bar and grabbed Husk's dirty towel he used to clean puke up with she balled it and forced it in Adam's mouth as Angel taped it. " Better for me you?"
" So much better haha." Angel turned to Lucifer who was looking at Amara as she ate some chips. " Luci just tell her you're proud."
" I......I am but I have never seen her so violent." Lucifer saw Adam shaking in pain and while he deserved it and more it just shocked him Amara did this when she couldn't even kill a bug and talked about being a doctor to save lives so no one had to grow up without a parent like she did. Why didn't he just let her be a doctor?
Amara hated how big her ears were but she could hear a lot so she heard her Dad she quickly finished her chips walked over to Adam and punched him in the chest to the point everyone heard his ribs break. " Did that hurt? Oh, how violent of me to focus on breathing asshole." She turned as she looked at her Dad before looking at Lilith. " So you all just left her like this? She needs......"
" Amara she gave us information so sometimes that isn't necessary. We know how to heal Vaggie and Roo is coming for him soon cause he's been here for over a week. Once they both fail she will send someone else only they are from the void so they can heal Vaggie. We are going to lock it in an angelic cage and have Vox control its mind to heal Vaggie. " Lucifer stood with his arms out to keep Amara away from Lilith.
" Protect the ex-wife but it was her who humiliated you out there! Hell, see how pathetic you are and you're just okay with it! But protect her whatever." She walked over to Adam and ripped the tape off his mouth as he spit the rag out of his mouth. " What do you think of his plan and remember what I told you."
" LILITH YOU FUCKING BITCH YOU SNICHED SHE IS GOING TO KILL US!" Adam looked right at Lilith them Amara as she started to bend one of his fingers. " Shit!......... Yeah, good luck with that fucking plan......and Lucifer made it then you are all fucked cause anything Lucifer ever touches fails."
" I told Charlie he was here and Vaggie is just finishing up but she's doing the treatments." Husk walked back to the bar.
" Adam......"
" SHUT THE HELL UP LILIH! SHE IS GOING TO PUT YOU DOWN THERE UNTIL A FUCKING EXSORCIST KILLS YOU!" Adam looked at Amara as she bent his finger more. " WHAT?!"
" You don't speak to a woman that way guess the first man has no fucking manners." She quickly snapped his finger and he cried out as she grabbed another. " Wanna try again?"
" I like this Amara haha but Adam what do you know about this person Roo has kept at the bottom of the void? Also, we keep saying it but I have a feeling you know if it's a he or she, or have they come out as non-binary?" Cherri laughed as she hit Adam's broken leg making him cry out as she looked at Amara.
" I don't know what the fuck non-binary is but......FFFFUUUUCK!" Cherri kicked his broken leg making him cry out. " HE! IT'S A FUCKING GUY........just.....just stop hurting me!"
" Pussy." Angel and Amara said it at the same time as they laughed.
" If you Roo's new pet then you have seen this guy down there haven't you?" Cherri gently rubbed her nails on Adam's broken leg making him wimper. " Oh, and you took this guy I owed a date to so......" Quickly she shoved her nails in his leg making him scream. " Tell me about this guy and if he has a weakness or I won't stop until Vaggie gets here or Roo."
" I.....I CAN'T!!" Cherri started to squeeze his leg as he screamed even louder. " FUCK LIGHTS!!" Then she stopped. " The time in the void isn't like the time here so a year here is hundreds down there and the void is darkness, no light, no voices but the ones in your head or screams but this guy.......he begs for death. What you did to me is nothing compared to what she has done to him and when he comes there is no caging him cause he's out for fucking blood but not just sinner blood but angelic. Your friend who you want to get in his head will only be signing a quick fucking death and Luci.....one scratch on you or Vaggie and you will both meet the same death as Alastor but just faster. Haha, your all going to fucking die!"
Charlie helped Vaggie walk through the portal just as Adam started to talk and they stood there until he was finished before she helped Vaggie walk over. " You don't think Roo will kill you for failing? Lilith had 1 day but you have been here over a week and nothing. You both failed but you ..... you are her pet and you failed ......she will make you wish we killed you." Vaggie looked at Amara. " You did great Amara."
" Haha please I won't compare to her last pet." Adam looked at Lucifer. " Yeah think about it Luci.....he manipulated her, he tricked her into staying in the void, then made a child with the enemy himself hahaha! She saw everything he did or said after you traded me so she wasn't the only one pissed off."
Lucifer remembered to breathe to keep his cool as he twisted the ring on his finger. " Well she never got her hands on him again so you can't scare me Adam but I think we should leave you with Vaggie for her to have her revenge and I hope you spend the rest of time screaming in pain." Lucifer turned to leave with everyone else but they all slowed as Adam started to laugh.
" I'm fucked no matter what but what makes you think she didn't get her hand on him? He was a shadow and what died was his sinner form which just took some patching up but it was almost as new." Adam smiled more as he saw the fear in Lucifer's eyes.
" Adam shut the hell up! Alastor died!" Lilith knew the fucker died cause she tried to look for him to have her own revenge but nothing.
Amara quickly looked at Adam as she could see he wasn't lying. " He's in the void isn't he?"
Adam saw Lucifer quickly turn into a ghost. " Haha, he knew I was shocked he wouldn't tell you Lucifer......or maybe it was just something he kept from you so you could move on hahaha!"
Vaggie watched Lucifer quickly run out holding his mouth as Angel ran after him as she quickly punched Adam. " If his body is fixed why hasn't he come back or are you lying?" She punched him a few times before stopping.
" Haha......you think she would ever let him go? I TORTURED HIM MYSELF, LUCIFER AND I DIDN'T HOLD BACK! HAHAHHA!" Vaggie started punching him but he still laughed until Vaggie hit his broken ribs.
Charlie felt sick watching and quickly ran to the kitchen she pucked it into the trash when she looked Amara was holding her hair back. " Please ..... please tell me he was lying. Please!"
Amara shook her head as she pulled Charlie into a hug and cried. " This just means he's alive haha this is good Charlie. My father is down there and ..... "
" A....Amara he.....he could have lived if he gave hell up but he was terrified of going back to the void so he took death. We told him it was peaceful and we......we have all.........no......no he is playing us he does this Amara. He lies but it's true to him so please......please don't....." Charlie didn't want to even think of what Adam or Roo would have done if it was true. Then she could hear Adam crying out in pain. " Alastor was never scared of anything, Amara not even dying but the void, the darkness........it scared even him."
Never had she heard her father scared of anything , he was fearful himself and she loved it but why did she see him more human knowing he had a fear? She was helping Charlie calm down when Angel ran in. " I need your help now before he kills her!" They quickly ran in as their dad screamed at Lilith.
" YOU SAID HE WAS DEAD! HE IS OR NOT?!" After throwing up he quickly realized someone was lying to him and he knew it had to be either Lilith or Adam. So he ran out of the bathroom and he punched Lilith. " TELL ME!"
" DAD STOP!" Charlie ran over as she pulled her dad away. " Amara already said she wasn't lying so it means....."
Vaggie was just about to punch Adam again but quickly the room started to spin making her quickly stop as she tried to stand straight she fell over but Husk caught her as everyone ran over to her. " I'm fine so..... "
" Vaggie you know what Bel said about taking it easy so let's just get you up to bed alright?" Charlie helped Vaggie up with Husk's help but Vaggie let go. " At least sit down." Vaggie didn't argue as they helped her sit as Adam started to laugh. " You're just sick for doing this to her and Alastor."
" Please Alastor was a fucking monster and first of his kind and Vaggie.......first to be seen haha oh enjoy watching someone else die." Adam just laughed even as Charlie grabbed him by the throat. " Do it."
" Charlie sweetie look at me and let go. If he dies like this he won't have to suffer Roo's wrath at failing and after all the suffering he has done let him suffer Charlie." Lilith tried to pull herself free as she looked at Charlie so full of rage. " He killed Alastor and is killing Vaggie so let him suffer 'cause this is nice when he has been nothing but that to all of us."
Slowly she calmed down and let go as she sat down with Vaggie as she held her. " Say all you want but you will leave here a failure. You said it yourself she won't accept failure."
Lucifer walked over to Adam grabbed his arm quickly started to burn it as Adam started to scream. " You destroyed my family and then you lie to me about Alastor.......I personally can't wait for Roo to take your ass back." When he let go he turned to walk over to Charlie but stopped and looked at Amara. " Sorry won't take back all my lies but I am Froggie. I am proud of you for being who you are without anyone's help. It's a very Alastor thing to do."
" No......nonoonon! LUCI! VAGGIE! KILL ME!"
Amara walked over to Vaggie as she stood up with her and Charlie's help as they all looked at Adam. " Enjoy being tortured for the rest of time while we live on and might die or I might not but it's weeks not years." She looked at Charlie. " Wanna lay down with me?"
" Haha, always Vaggie." Charlie looked at everyone then Amara who let go as she picked Vaggie up. " Keep us up to date on everything but we have an early morning and it's late."
They all looked at each other as Charlie left with Vaggie so after a weird quiet moment Cherri spoke. " Alright so if this scary lady is coming for them we should just keep them tied up until she comes so.......are we going to watch them or.....lock them in a room?"
" Lucifer I told you the truth in exchange for your protection so please.....please don't let her take me. We are family so please Luci......." Lilith looked at Lucifer as she tried to talk to him before Adam interrupted her.
" Lucifer can't protect you....hell he can barely protect his own daughter much less her girlfriend. Oh and......and poor Alley he....."
Lucifer knocked Adam out as he walked over to Lilith. " Was he lying about Alastor?"
" I.....I don't know Lucifer. He saw more than me and spent more time with Roo. I'm sorry I don't know and if I did I would tell you, I want Amara to have her father even if he was the reason I was down there, to begin with. She reminds me of him, he was always quick to his feet and smart as hell. He came to hell and in days he was feared by everyone so I had to meet him and he was a real gentleman which you never see here. Alastor knew what to say to cheer me up, to make me feel alive.........he helped me see that I had a choice, he helped me see that my marriage was over." She slowly looked at Lucifer. " We have changed since then Lucifer but right now Charlie is going to need her parents."
Niffty ran in giggling making everyone quickly look at her. " Can I play with him? I just want to hear him cry."
" Um.........sure." Amara didn't see an issue as she looked at everyone else they seemed to have an issue. " Just don't kill him Niffty." She just laughed as she dragged the chair to her surprise. " What? She lost her best friend she should have some revenge too but I am going to head home."
Before Lucifer had a chance to stop Amara she was gone. " I.....I guess I will keep Lilith with me. I will be in my old room." He teleported him and Lilith to his old room as he snapped himself ready for bed. " Oh......well I am just going to the bathroom......don't.....wabble?" That felt dumb but it was better then her seeing him taking his meds and when he walked out she was still there.
" How's this going to work, Lucifer? You're going to keep me tied up all night as I watch you sleep?"
" Um...." Lucifer carefully rotated the chair to have Lilith face the wall. " There and I will leave the lights on. Night." He got into bed as he curled up against a pillow preparing to close his eyes for sleep.
" Lucifer what if Adam is right? What if Alastor is alive down there? He could have come up anytime but didn't." Lilith was thinking out loud here.
As much as he hated to think about it Lilith made a point. " He just lied to get a rise out of me so I would kill him. Please don't talk about it anymore."
" Alright, but I need to know he at least made our daughter happy when he was here. I saw the way he was with Amara as a baby and I had never seen him look so......human before." Years ago when she first and last time she came to the hotel she saw Alastor again after almost 8 years then she found out she had a granddaughter.
Lucifer looked down at his hand as he looked into the red diamond. " He did not let me sleep or I will be a bitch tomorrow."
It had to be hours of this little maid torturing him before she had enough and left but she kept the lights on. He didn't have enough fight left in him to get free or try so he just sat there trying to think of what to do next. What Roo would do to him when she came for him? But as he sat there that burning chain formed quickly opening a small portal as he was pulled closer to the darkness. " R...Roo?"
" You failed me Adam when you said you wouldn't. But no you had to go after Vaggie and this stupid hotel. I have every right to tear up until you're nothing."
Now was any time for anyone to walk through the door. " I wasn't the only one and none of them know."
" I would talk to Lilith but she's with Lucifer. But I see I made a mistake sending you two to do a job that involves no emotion. But before I send him after that staff he is going to come for you and Lilith. Just remember......"
" Eve wait! Wait please......I...I just need more time and he will destroy me. I.....I can go back to the void.......I could do that thing you like. I will do whatever you want but......."
" Just sad Adam." She waved her hand quickly, letting Adam go. " Run......run and when you think you are safe he will be there to kill you and whoever dares to go with you."
" ROOO!!! w...." The portal closed as he slowly stood up and he tried to think before vanishing away.
It was a few hours later when Niffty walked back in with new toys only the room and seat were empty. " Fuck."
Notes:
Is Alastor really alive, or was Adam lying? Who is this third person or thing Roo has coming? Will Lucifer's plan work on trapping it and using it to help Vaggie? How sick will Vaggie get since her condition is progressing faster? Will they save Vaggie before it's too late? Where did Adam go? How will everyone react to Adam missing? Or will everyone think Roo took Adam? How will Lucifer be able to keep Lilith safe while keeping her bound to a chair? When will Amara know that Roo is after the staff? Where did Lute go, and does she know about the staff?
So much more is coming soon so........bye.
Chapter 8: Again
Summary:
Vaggie undergoes her first rounds of treatment as Lucifer tries to mend his relationship with Amara. As the week passes, Vaggie starts to get worse, and it starts to bring back flashbacks for Lucifer of Alastor.
Notes:
Just a heads up, there is a lot of Chaggie ship in this chapter, so if you like, you're welcome, if not,..........I said nothing.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Charlie and Vaggie had to wake up early to see Belphagor for the full treatment plan. But when the first alarm buzzed through their room, Charlie just groaned and buried her face deeper into the pillow. Normally, it was Vaggie who woke her up by kissing her forehead or shaking her shoulder gently, but this morning, Vaggie was still fast asleep. It didn't help that it was still dark outside. It took every alarm on Charlie’s phone and eventually, Vaggie slowly woke up and muttered something that finally pulled them from the warmth of their bed. Neither bothered with makeup or anything fancy, they just threw on sweatpants and oversized hoodies, and left.
Only when they got there did they sit away in the bright waiting room trying everything not to fall back to sleep so when Vaggie's name was called it took a few times before it sat in her head before getting up and helping Vaggie. Vaggie was still healing from her injuries but she was a fast healer she still helped Vaggie stand up and held her hand as they walked close together even as they sat down in a room with a bed. " Vaggie....I...I am so tired."
Vaggie patted a spot on the bed as Charlie sat down. “ C’mere. I’m gonna take the fattest nap if you don’t keep me talking.”
“ Deal. But how about after Bel comes in, we grab the strongest coffee they have… and bagel sandwiches? With hot sauce for you.” Charlie gave a small laugh and flopped down beside her. " Then we take the fattest naps."
Vaggie rested her head on Charlie’s shoulder. “Mmm… you’re speaking my love language." Just as they finished laughing Bel walked in with a clipboard which had even her sitting up. " Let's get this started so I can munch down on a sandwich and then sleep."
" Love the enthusiasm Vaggie. We will get the line started and we are going at this hard but not too hard just yet. So be ready to be here for a couple of hours then radiation and then another round. After all of it, I have you down to get a port placed so this is easier. This will be every day and at this rate, the stronger treatment starts in a couple of days I give a month. This won't be easy Vaggie and the side effects will hit you hard so maybe talk to Lucifer cause he went through this with Alastor. Your treatment while adjusted will be just like his and in a week or two you won't find yourself hardly getting out of bed."
Vaggie, who had still been holding Charlie’s hand, tensed slightly. Her jaw clenched, but she didn’t flinch. “ That bad, huh?” she muttered, her voice low but steady.
Belphegor sighed, her tone gentler now. “ Yeah. This isn’t a sprint, Vaggie. It’s going to wear you down. Even as strong as you are, the treatments… take pieces of you every time if not more. But we’ll be monitoring everything. Closely. If anything feels off, we adjust. You won’t be alone in this.”
Charlie instinctively gripped Vaggie’s hand tighter. “ You won’t ever be alone in this,” she echoed, her voice quiet but firm. “ We’ve got you. All the way through.”
Vaggie managed a small, lopsided smirk despite the weight in the air. “ So you’re saying I am going to turn into how Alastor was in those last few months?”
" Last month." Bel set the clipboard down before walking to the IV stand.
Charlie watched throat tight, eyes burning. Radiation. Ports. Side effects. A month. She didn’t want to cry. Not in front of Vaggie. Not when Vaggie was the one being brave, the one who was going to go through all of this.
Vaggie pulled Charlie to lean back with her as her thumb brushed the back of Charlie's hand. “ Still gonna take that nap,” As much as she wanted to be strong all of this and seeing how bad Alastor got scared her. But she couldn't let Charlie know she was scared cause she needed to trust Lucifer's plan, trust that the month would turn into an eternity with Charlie and their friends.
Charlie smiled through her ache as she kept her eyes on Vaggie's face as Bel started the IV. “ Not before your sandwich and hot sauce then we will both take fat naps together.” Gently she kissed Vaggie's hand as she looked at Bel stand up.
Bel smiled faintly. “Let’s get started.”
Lucifer didn't get much sleep maybe it was everyone bringing up Alastor again or the fact his ex-wife was sitting in the room with him as he slept. Although when he did manage to get some sleep all he could think about was Alastor, if he was alive why hasn't he come back? Was it because of him? Was Adam lying about Alastor? If he wasn't then how could he lay there when the man he loves is in pain? How could he even get down there or could he at all? So many questions ran through his head to the point he just didn't get much sleep. When he woke up Lilith was still tied up to the chair facing the wall so slowly he sat up rubbing his eyes as he walked to the bathroom and showered then got ready. When he walked out Lilith just looked at him as he brushed his hair. " Morning."
" Lucifer this is ridiculous I am not going to hurt the people protecting me so could you please let me go?" Lilith hardly slept due to being tied to a chair but looking at Lucifer she could tell he hardly slept either. " You know Adam just said those things to get you to spare him from Roo right? I listened for him and I never heard him."
" How......how can you be so sure? There's no light and you all said that place is filled with thousands of screams so you could have........." Slowly he walked over and untied Lilith as he spoke while trying not to cry.
Lilith gently reached for Lucifer's hands as she held them and looked up into his eyes. " Adam had always been a coward why do you think he gives sinners that sickness? Why he gave to Alastor and now Vaggie? You can't let him hurt you and he needs to pay for what he's done to everyone. I have always loved that good heart you have for everyone even after everything." She stood up as she ran her hand through Lucifer's hair. " Adam hurt our little girl for the last time and we will make sure he pays." Lucifer looked up at her and just nodded but she saw something else. " Lucifer is there something you're not telling me?"
He was going to lie or just change the question but after everything he did to Amara and everyone else he didn't want to lie anymore. So he pulled his hand back as he pulled his ring out of his pocket. He never took it off unless he was showering or cleaning so when he got out of the shower he put it in his pocket. He slid the ring on his ring finger and slowly looked up at Lilith prepared to hear her yell at him or throw something. " Amara is my daughter."
" I don't understand. I thought she was Charlie's. Alastor and Charlie seemed so close and fit so well together." Lucifer strangely had her sit down by the fireplace as he sat down with her.
" Alastor didn't have a lot of time left and I didn't want to waste it trying to explain so I let you believe Amara was Charlie's. But Charlie has never been with Alastor only me and we fell in love with each other, me first but slowly he understood his feelings. So when he died.........I...I couldn't get out of his bed so his mom gave me this ring. Alastor had planned on asking me to marry him before Amara was born but he took longer to find the perfect ring only when he found it he was told he had a few weeks left and he......he didn't want to burden me or make promises he could never keep so he never asked. But he.....he told his mom to give it to me and she told me he said I do so when she gave it to me I did too. He was my world, Lilith, he made me so happy and we were so different yet we loved each other even more. I was always cold and he was always warm, I liked having someone to hold me and tell me they cared about me, while he just liked not being alone, and I know he loved having someone to love again. When we first met he hated me and did everything to ruin my relationship with Charlie and it took me getting drunk off my ass to get us closer. Remember how I had nightmares?" Lilith just nodded. " He did too but when we slept together we didn't have them, I made a shield so Roo couldn't get to him and we slept with the fire on with the radio on. We used each other to keep the nightmares away and slowly we found ourselves falling for each other except I was much faster."
" He had nightmares?" Never did she think under that smile was a man who struggled with something like sleep.
" You both disappeared at the same time and were gone for 7 years. He never told me what he did but he didn't listen to Roo when she told him to do something and he was sent back to the void until this place. I went in his head that drunk night and from then on I can't sleep with the room pitch black or silent. I could feel the pain and fear but the scream haunted me and I only saw for a few seconds. But his mom said he had them growing up and I understand why, his father hurt him and society too...........his life before here or the void wasn't easy and I only learned after he died." Lucifer looked at the fireplace and then his ring. " He suffered so much even in death so.......so when it was time.....the only thing that helped all of us was.........was knowing he wouldn't be in pain anymore, that........that he would find peace..............that.......that he could finally rest."
Lilith just pulled Lucifer slowly into a hug as she wiped a tear away. " I'm glad you moved on Lucifer and found someone to love again. I hope and pray Adam is wrong." She sat up as she grabbed Lucifer a tissue. " You know he wouldn't want to see you cry so why don't you wipe those tears away and get some pancakes? I haven't had yours in years, haha and then we can mess with Adam if he's still here."
Lilith did cheer him up as they made breakfast even joked around and had some fun like old times. He told her stories with Alastor and she told him about her time in heaven which seemed nice. When they finished they sat down with everyone else as Angel and Husk were leading the exercises for the day while Charlie and Vaggie were out. Bust as he was helping clean up Niffty ran to him and asked him to come with her so he did only he didn't expect her to show him that Adam was gone. " Do you think Roo took him?"
Niffty climbed up Lucifer's leg sat on his shoulder and nodded. " Can I go tell Amara?"
" Is she here?" He started to head up excited to try and talk to Amara.
" Oh no she's at Rosie's." She hopped down as she looked at Lucifer. " Are you okay?"
" No......I messed up Niffty and I don't know what to do to get Amara to forgive me. I just feel like I am just making things worse than all of this." He picked Niffty up as he looked at her. " Alastor told me never to hurt her yet I did. Now Charlie is dealing with Vaggie and she has to deal with picking sides when she should be with Vaggie."
" Oh." Niffty looked around the elevator. " You should let Amara tell you how she really feels to get her anger out. Alastor used to do that when he was extra pissed and killed a bunch of sinners." When the door opened she walked out but stopped and looked at Lucifer. " Now you know where she is."
Lucifer watched Niffty run off as he realized what he needed to do not just for Amara but for Charlie who was going to need both of them. So he told everyone he was heading out as he teleported to Rosie's but when he walked in the staff told him Rosie was in the back so he walked back there but knocked before walking in which drew the two's attention. " Sorry if I'm interrupting I was hoping to....."
" Lucifer you may come in but you will sit over there." Rosie walked over to Lucifer as he sat down. " I have every right to slap you for what you did Lucifer. You knew Alastor never wanted her to feel like she never had a purpose or role yet you tried to take that from her."
" I know and I can't make an excuse for what I did or blame anyone 'cause I did that then I lied for years to Amara as I taught her how bad it was to lie. Amara, I am sorry for doing that which shouldn't mean anything but I had my reasons to......."
" Reasons?" Amara quickly stood up as she walked over to Rosie and her dad. " Nothing should give you the right to take my choices away from me and then lie to my face for years! I was nothing but good to you and in return, you hid something my father left for me! Not you! You got to know him, to spend time with him, hold him while me......I DIDN'T GET ANY OF IT!"
Lucifer started to spin the ring on his finger as Amara yelled. " I know.....I wish I had the power to give you that time with him Amara. I wish we all had more time with him, there were things I never got to do with him that I never will. I didn't hide this from you cause I wanted you to suffer or hurt......I...I was scared of losing you. I was scared of you getting hurt or worse and as much I hate that I put this on you......but you're the last living piece of him, Amara. You may look like me in the face but I look at you and I see him, I hear him, I.....I feel him."
" But.....but why lie to me? Why hurt me? Why didn't you think of how I would feel? How do you think I would feel when it was too late and the last piece of my father was gone and I could have stopped it." Amara just looked at her Dad as he didn't even look at her. " Look at me when you speak."
He slowly looked up at Amara and Rosie. " I hated doing it but.....I was scared and I didn't want this life for you, we had talked about it and he agreed with me......"
" Lucifer anytime Alastor brought it up you turned him down no matter what but he never agreed he took what you said to mind when he gave Amara the choice. He knew she would want the choice, he wanted to give her something that would give her a life and something other than a stuffed frog. He never wanted her to suffer or be upset yet you did that to her Lucifer." Rosie crossed her arms as she looked down at Lucifer. " You made promises to him Lucifer and you broke them but the most important one to him was Amara and you still broke that promise."
Lucifer wiped his tears as he looked at the two. " I know.......I know I.....I failed him and......and if he was here he would hate me." He tried to stop crying but he couldn't. " Amara, you meant everything to him and I......I hurt you......I.....I lied.........fuck he would be disgusted by me! Everything I did......and I can't even stop fucking crying when it was me who hurt you......I hurt everyone." He looked up at Amara who looked at him saddened as she started walking closer.
" Dad......." He suddenly held his hand out as he stood up.
" Stop you always comfort me when I do this but I am the one who hurt you." He wiped his tears as he backed away. " Alastor did that too when he didn't have to, he always tried to take care of me when......when he was the one dying, when he was the one in pain. He woke up after days only to ask me how I was and where you were.....I.....I tell myself I did good by being there for him but I was there for myself.....I.....I didn't want to be alone or be without........" Saying it out loud made it more real and quickly he held his mouth as he broke down into tears and even started to shake without him even realizing it.
Rosie tried to help her dad but he moved away as he cried harder. " Dad you told me how you woke up early for his treatments and you're not a morning person. You would get up and ready then help Papa up cause he couldn't get up after a few months. You also told me how you would wake up to him gone only to find him sick in the bathroom and what did you do Dad?"
" I.....I stayed with him?"
" You did more than that, you told him you were right there, that you loved him, you held his hair then held him when he was too weak to get back into bed. You helped him take his meds and you held him when he was stuck in bed. Tell me you did that just for yourself cause you do all of that when you love someone." Amara slowly grabbed her dad's hands as she helped him sit down and he cried. " You punish yourself and think the worst because your siblings said you deserve it but Dad you have suffered enough, you lost your home, your siblings, your name, then your wife left you, and......and then you lost the man you love. But dad you have a new family down here, a better one and you have two daughters and friends."
He was supposed to be comforting Amara, not the other way around but when she hugged him he couldn't help but hug her back as he cried harder into her chest. " I.....I miss him so.....so much."
" Oh hon we all do but he's in a better place." Rosie sat down on the other side of Lucifer and she rubbed his back as he cried. " But hon........Amara isn't him and she deserves a chance to live her life. It's scary but you just have to trust her and Alastor is with her always to make sure she's okay."
They sat there for a while until Rosie brought out some lunch. " Hey, Dad do you want to join me and Rosie for lunch?"
Slowly he moved his head to look at the table full of food then slowly he looked up at Amara as he wiped his tears off his neck. " You sure?"
" Yeah, why not Rosie always makes a lot so another stomach would help but I am going to need to hear some stories about Papa." He smiled brightly as he nodded so slowly she stood up and she sat down and he followed behind. " After we can go check up on Vaggie and Charlie. Rosie made them some food to take."
Was her dad fully forgiven for lying to her for almost 20 years and almost taking her choice of being the radio demon........no but they were talking even touching. She still stayed at the radio tower and her dad went back to the hotel to help Charlie and the hotel out. It had been a week since everything and slowly things started to feel lighter. Lilith helped with the hotel as Charlie and Vaggie had to stay at the hospital for a few days. They came back a few times but Vaggie just went to bed Charlie said everything was fine and didn't want them to go visit when Vaggie had treatments which started getting stronger today which had all of them worried.
She had been trying to find anything close to the void hoping whatever this thing or person that Adam talked about was there yet but nothing. While it was on the top of her list she still had her overlord duties and training which she needed to work on since The Challening was in a few days. It was where everyone with any power rank came together to challenge each other and the winner get's everything, Vox even started to help her at night but she didn't tell Charlie or her dad so they wouldn't worry cause it was last night she found out you fight until the other person is dead. It sounded intense but she didn't have a choice unless she was giving up her father's name which she wasn't.
That morning of Vaggie's treatment their dad, Charlie, herself, and Vaggie woke up early to go to the hospital for Vaggie's new treatment which their dad insisted Charlie would need them there. Walking through the portal and seeing Vaggie for the first time in days she already looked so different but she waited until they were sitting in a room. " Vaggie.....I asked for a week and I failed so.....so if...."
Vaggie held her hand out as Amara gently took it. " Hey...I knew it was going to take longer than a week but you know what I am not giving up and I won't stop fighting just like Alastor didn't." None of this has been easy and right after the first day, she found herself getting sick and hardly moving from the bed cause it hurt too much and as the next rounds went it just got worse. She even got to the point where everything she ate she just threw up but she didn't tell Charlie who had been struggling with being strong at night she just held Charlie as she slowly broke down which hurt but she needed it. " But did that man make all of this seem easier."
Lucifer put on a fake smile as he sat next to Charlie who looked scared. " Well, his stubborn ass wasn't going to drop that smile for nothing."
Vaggie reached for Charlie's hand but failed as she looked at Lucifer so they could get Charlie to smile. " Say Lucifer did he ever stop smiling? You have to tell us since I am about to endure whatever this is."
" No. I was enjoying the time I had with him that I never asked." Thinking back he wished he asked. He looked at the door as Belphagor walked in with a tray of stuff he knew all too well.
" Moring I know you all must be exhausted so we will get started and I will come back in a few to do the part I know you are all worried about and Lucifer I have adjusted it so it won't hurt Vaggie internally like it did Alastor but it will still hurt but we can help with that or if tomorrow you want you can be put to sleep but just think about it."
Charlie and Amara held Vaggie's hand but Lucifer had to walk out as Vaggie got hooked up since it reminded him too much of Alastor only when he walked back in he quickly felt sick and run to a bathroom and puked up his dinner as he cried. When he finally cleaned up and walked out Amara was standing there. " I....I'm sorry. I know I am here to be supportive and I want to but......"
" But it's bringing all of it back with Papa." Amara saw the worried look on Vaggie and Charlie so she came to check on her dad. " You know if it's to much you can go home. I don't think they would mind since....."
" No, I.....I want to be here for them." He shook himself off as he walked back into the room as Vaggie looked at him worried. " Sorry."
" It's alright we kinda guessed all of this is bringing up the past with Alastor so if you need to step out that's okay Lucifer. You're here which already means a lot to me and Charlie." Vaggie turned to Charlie who sat in the bed with her. " Charlie was thinking we could play a game of cards like we did with Alastor. I want to see if Charlie rememberd the tricks he taught her."
Lucifer snapped a deck of cards as he handed it to Charlie. " I'll be okay but cards......that man never lost yet never taught me how he did it." As he shuffled and passed the cards out he looked at Vaggie. " How are you feeling?"
" Tired but if I can have my wings cut off and my eye then I can handle this. Now as for the game, I have a few rounds in me before I nap but we all got to beat Charlie." Vaggie laid her head on Charlie's shoulder as they all laughed.
" Hey..........but I never forgot his tricks but it's Amara you should all watch out for. I taught her what he taught me." Charlie grabbed Amara's hand and they both laughed.
They only got a few rounds before Vaggie fell asleep which had Lucifer and Charlie sleeping as Amara stayed awake reading. Hours passed before Lucifer and Charlie woke up only to Bel walking in with a serious look letting them know it was time. Vaggie still peacefully slept so they didn't want to wake her up so Charlie and Amara held her hands as Lucifer held Charlie's as he sat on the side of the bed. Lucifer was preparing himself for screams or worse but Vaggie grunted and even slowly broke into tears as Charlie started to cry with her. But it didn't stop to the point that Vaggie was clinging to Charlie as she cried and even started shaking until she fell asleep from exhaustion but the shaking didn't stop just slowed.
Amara and Lucifer stayed the whole day until they finally headed back which Charlie just carried Vaggie to bed. As Amara talked to Husk and Angel, he was talking with Lilith until he saw Amara about to leave. " Amara I....I wanted to see if you would stay here tonight. I know you like having your own space but with everything that happend today......"
" Maybe sleep with Keekee? I have work to do since I was gone all day and training." The Challening wasn't something to mess around with since her life was on the line and Rosie made it clear everyone would come for her since she was the radio demon's daughter.
" Tranning? Alastor always made time for everything......if you're struggling with he workload I could help your or......"
" I was handed this role by a guy everyone feared so having my dad who's the king help me would be worse. I need to show everyone I can handle this on my own and I need to be ready for anything." Amara turned to walk out but her dad quickly ran in front of her stopping her. " I get today was hard for you but it was for everyone so suck it up, Dad. I can't be Alastor for you." Everyone around them quickly gasped and went silent as she looked at them and then at her dad who looked hurt. " What?"
Why couldn't he suck it up? Why was something from almost 20 years ago still hurt like it just happend? Why did he need to rely on Amara to help him through this when she saw a glimpse of what Alastor had gone through? " I.....I'm sorry. Be safe......I....I love you."
" Amara that's no way to speak to your dad even if he hurt you he is still your dad. This man spent months seeing Alastor slowly fade away and now it's happening again but to Vaggie. Showing emotion doesn't mean he's less of a man it just shows his pain." Lilith saw Lucifer actually walking away so she quickly stepped in for some parenting as she made Lucifer stay.
" You're joking, right? Cause I know you're not trying to be a parent when you left your only child to run off for a vacation. You heard his side of everything and took it but I have spent years of my life caring for him just like my father would have, I slept with him when he cried, so you don't get to stand here and call me a shitty daughter when you don't know the facts. Since you have his back so much you sleep with him 'cause I have real work to do." Amara looked Lilith in the eyes as she spoke not even paying attention to her dad crying. " Say something like that again and I will personally give you a hell just like my father did." Then she vanished away.
Lilith looked down at Lucifer as he held himself so she slowly pulled him into a hug. " Why don't we get you in bed and I will find Keekee?" Lucifer didn't say anything as she slowly walked him up to bed and once she walked in some short girl sat there with Keekee. " You may leave now."
Niffty ran over and climbed into Lucifer's arms as he quickly held her. " Touch him and die." Lucifer made his way into the bed and she quickly pulled the blanket over Lucifer as she hopped out of his arms and got his meds with a glass of water as she gave them to him. " I have Alastor's songs to play while we sleep."
Maybe it was the one eye but the girl scared her but she seemed to know what she was doing even Keekee laid in Lucifer's arms as the girl turned the record on. " What does he take meds for?"
Niffty just looked at Lilith as she ran back to Lucifer not answering Lilith. She picked Keekee up and just handed her to Lilith then quickly laid in Lucifer's arms as he started to cry. " Keekee needs to go back to Charlie and Vaggie."
Why did she listen and take the cat all the way to Charlie and Vaggie's room? She slowly opened the door but when she saw the bathroom lights on she walked in and both Vaggie and Charlie weren't in bed. Only a few steps in and she hurt someone painfully vomiting coming from the bathroom so she put Keekee down and knocked on the door. " Is everything okay girls?" There wasn't an answer but as she was just about to leave the door opened and Charlie stood there in tears. " Charlie, what's wrong?"
" Mom........she.....she hasn't stopped and I'm......I'm scared." Charlie looked over at Vaggie as she couldn't stop shaking. She ran back to Vaggie when she started to puke again. " Mom she hasn't even eaten anything."
Slowly she walked in as she bent down to rub Vaggie's back. " Why don't you get her something to help with the pain? I know Belphagor would not give you something." Charlie looked scared to even move. " I will be right here with Vaggie." As Charlie ran out she helped Vaggie sit down. " How long has it been since you have eaten anything that stayed down?"
" Days." Everything felt like it was on fire and all she wanted to do was cry out in pain but she didn't want to scare Charlie any more than she was. " Please.......don't...."
" I won't but we should get you into bed and deal with that tomorrow." Carefully she picked Vaggie up as Vaggie hissed in pain and gently walked her back into bed as Charlie helped Vaggie take the meds. " I'm sorry for all of these girls."
Charlie held Vaggie as she painfully slept holding her while she watched her mom start to walk out. " Mom?" When her mom turned around she couldn't stop herself from crying as her mom ran to her side and held her while being careful of Vaggie. " Mom......could....could you stay with us tonight? I have to take her in the morning and......and I don't want to go alone.........and Dad...."
" I would love to come but you need to get some sleep. Mommy is here to help and I won't be going anywhere."
Notes:
Why is Lilith being so nice? Will the hotel find out about The Challenging? Will Roo send her next plan to hell before Vaggie's time runs out? How will Amara do at The Challenging? Where did Adam go? Where did Lute go? Will Amara use the staff at The Challenging?
More to find out another day, so bye.
Chapter 9: Mystery Man
Summary:
As Amara is training for The Challenging, she finds out Husk not only knows about the challenges but thinks something more is going on with Lilith. She starts to believe as Charlie and Lilith talk about Alastor. Lucifer takes some time to clear his head in Alastor's old room, where Lilith finds him and they talk about Alastor's staff, which quickly makes him come up with a theory. Amara and Lucifer start to get close again which Lucifer needed even helping Charlie and Vaggie out. The hotel desires to have a movie night, but it doesn't go as planned, as Roo's next plan shows up at the door along with Adam.
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The Challenging was in 2 days, so she had to be ready. When she got back to the tower, she mapped out what she needed to finish before she started to train, which was a lot. So she spent the night getting everything done so she could train during the day with Vox and Rosie. As much as she wanted to be there for Charlie and Vaggie, she couldn't, but she did work around so she could stop by for an hour instead of taking lunch. Vox was up right at the start of the day, and so was she, and they trained. Even Vox learned a few things, but he had to go so he could get some work done. This was about the time Rosie came and they trained for a few hours until Rosie had to leave, which she quickly vanished to the tower as she cleaned up, and then headed to the hotel. When she walked in, everyone was in the middle of an exercise that Emily was leading with Cherri, so she walked over to the bar. " Hey, had Vaggie and Charlie come back yet?"
" Yeah, and Lilith went with them." Husk rolled his eyes as he downed his drink. " I am telling that bitch is up to something."
" Husk, come on, she's just being a mom to her daughter who needs her right now. This shit ain't easy on anyone." Husk had been going on and on about Lilith since Lucifer untied her.
" I get that but do you all not remember her beating the shit out of Lucifer to the point everyone just laughs at his name or her throwing me through a fucking wall? She's up to something and it starts with her sucking up to all of us." Husk slammed his drink down as he looked at Amara. " Anyways, so kid you......you doin' The Challenging this year?"
" How......how do you know about that?" Amara didn't think anyone would know, so she didn't have to worry about her dad finding out.
" I am an owned soul kid and an ex overlord so I know shit. Fucking Mammon holds this shit once or even twice a year and Alastor was his favorite so if you are going you gotta watch out for him." Husk knew just by looking at Amara that she was going, but she didn't want everyone to know. " Angel, could you get me an orange from the kitchen?"
" Sure whiskers.....hehe don't miss me too much." Angel walked away.
Husk waited until Angel was out of sight before speaking. " Look, I get you not telling everyone, but I can't let you go alone. Alastor took Niffty with him sometimes, but I can come with you just to give you some pointers." He saw the worry in her eyes. " I won't tell them, but your father asked me to keep an eye on you. Besides, you've got a few days, maybe I could help you train or even show you a few things."
" That would really help me. Vox and Rosie have been helping me and training me, but everyone is going to challenge me, and I have to be able to handle myself in there, or all of this work will be for nothing." Her and Husk talked about when they could train and even her father's time in The Challenging. When Angel came back, she headed up to Charlie and Vaggie's room, and when she knocked and walked in, Vaggie was asleep as Charlie sat there whispering with Lilith. " I just wanted to stop by and see how everything is going?"
Charlie happily patted a spot on the bed for Amara and quickly hugged her. " I'm glad to see you, and thank you for coming. Today's round was a lot harder and Vaggie told us she hadn't been able to hold anything down in days, so Bel put in a feeding tube......but she hates it..........I hate it too and......."
" Hey, it's temporary, so while it's scary, remember we have a plan. With my father, we couldn't, but with Vaggie, we can." Amara grabbed Charlie's hand as she looked her in the eyes. " We are not going to lose anyone else, and I give you my word."
All she could do was hug Amara. " I have the best sister ever." Alastor made everything she had true and without him, she would never be where she was, she wouldn't have a sister and her dad or a successful hotel for redeeming sinners.
" Haha, I'm your only sister..........I think." They had a nice laugh and seeing Charlie smile was nice but looking at Lilith she wasn't sure why but Husk had a point. She was sitting there watching even joining the conversation but she seemed to be trying to get closer to them. " I have to go but I can run by tomorrow at the same time maybe Vaggie will be awake."
" I'm sure the overlord stuff can wait, Amara, and you can spend some more time with us. I'm sure Vaggie will wake up soon." Lilith slowly looked towards Amara.
First, the lady called her a shitty daughter now a shitty sister? It took everything in her not to kill her right here. " I'm still new to this whole overlord thing, and I have been training, so I am ready for anything." When she looked at Lilith, she just looked at Charlie. " This is what my father left me and I am not screwing it up so if it means I have to be away so I am prepared for someone to attack then I will cause me to be alive is me being a good sister and daughter. So if I am not here most of the day, know it's better than never coming back." She turned to Charlie and hugged her tightly. " I love you, and if you need me, you know how to reach me. I will be here in seconds 'cause that's what family does." When she got up, she walked over to Vaggie and gently pulled the blanket to her shoulders, then gently moved her hair from her face. " Can't wait for you two to make me an auntie hehe."
" I can't wait either. Be safe, Amara, please, and if you ever need me or us, you know we are here for you always."
Amara nodded then vanished as she slowly looked at her mom. " Mom you didn't say anything about Dad to Amara right?"
" Charlie, she tore into him last night, and he just let her. I understand she's upset, but he is her dad at the end of the day and the only one she has left. He was a mess after Amara left, and he just accepted it."
" Mom, it's not your place to get between them and Dad as much as it's hard to watch, he needs to learn to defend himself and stand up, or else he will never change. With Alastor, he had but over the years, he started to go back to just accepting everyone treating him that way. But Amara is still hurting from what Dad did, which I understand." Amara had every right to be upset, and after yesterday, she knew it had to be hard on them like it was for her. " It's an emotional time, Mom and Amara....."
" Amara needs to be parented so she doesn't turn out as manic as Alastor was. The man enjoyed killing and did it for fun like a monster, but Amara has your father's heart and...."
" Alastor was never a monster, and his mom raised him the best she could in the circumstances she had." Charlie turned to her mom as she stood up.
" A mother doesn't leave their child in a violent home, Charlie. All of his victims are from poor parenting, and if it wasn't a good home, she should have found him a better one, even if it meant giving him away." She fixed her dress as she looked at Charlie. " I made sure you were raised right and never saw your father when he was at his lowest. Yes, I left, but I knew you were going to be okay, and I did try to take you with me, but I knew you wouldn't go and be away from your father."
Charlie quickly stood up and looked at her mom. " Alastor's mom did a great job, and growing up without a parent or knowing they both didn't want you would have made it worse. Alastor was so much more than his struggles, which you wouldn't know cause you hardly knew him. He was a gentleman, and he is the reason I have this hotel, the reason I ever redeemed sinners, the reason I have dad back, and a sister whom I love, and I have a grandmother who treats me like a mother should. But you don't ever get to talk about that woman; she has been through enough, and if you have a problem with her, then you have one with me."
Lilith just smiled as she looked at Charlie before kissing her forehead. " Let me go check on your father." Then she just walked out and headed to Lucifer's room but he wasn't there so after asking around she went to check Alastor's old room only to find Lucifer sitting there reading. " Did you get your work done for the day?"
" I....I am taking some time off, and the sins are fine with it." After yesterday, he just needed some time to get himself together, which he always could back where it all started. The room, even years later, was still the same, minus the humidity of Alastor's bayou, which he missed.
" Lucifer, you don't need to take time off, I can help Charlie. I haven't been in her life for years, so I really don't mind...."
" Lilith, she's my daughter too, and Vaggie was there for me. Besides, the hotel needs protecting from Roo and whatever she's planning." He put his bookmark as he slowly put the book down. " What is she planning, Lilith? It's been over a week, so why hasn't she come for you like she did for Adam?"
Lilith sat down and looked around. " I don't know Lucifer, but that staff is here in pride; she can feel it. So she's not dropping this, but she can't get her hands on it, or else heaven and hell will be destroyed. If you have it, Lucifer, you need to destroy it."
" Lilith I don't have it and I have looked for it but I don't understand why he would hide something.............you......you don't think he hid it for Amara right?" Lucifer thought about it more and Amara didn't even know why Roo sent Adam and Lilith after them. But if Amara had it she was in danger. " I.....I need to go." Lucifer quickly teleported away.
Lilith stood up as she looked around Alastor's room even looking through his desk but nothing of interest but she did grab a book before heading back to Charlie.
When Amara got back to the radio tower Vox was just arriving, and they trained for a couple of hours until he headed home, but after a shower, she sat at the radio desk getting some work done. She even ate some of the meat Rosie gave her which she snacked on which kept her full longer. But as she was settling in after finishing she sat down in bed with a book suddenly her dad appeared looking around. " Dad?"
" Oh, Amara, good you're not asleep. I know it's late, but I needed to ask you about your father's staff." Lucifer had never been in this part of the tower, but it was cozy like Alastor's room, which made sense why Amara liked it so much.
She got out of bed but she was confused. " Why are you asking me about it? Dad it's late and I have an early morning so if this some silly......"
" Amara, do you know why Roo sent Adam and Lilith?" Amara just shook her head as she walked up to him. " Thereafter, that staff cause it's the only thing that could get her free and in their hands, they can get stronger. I don't know how she got here 'cause it should be impossible, but Alastor hid that staff for reasons I don't understand, but he did everything with a purpose."
There wasn't a right way of going about this, but she wasn't going to lie. " Dad.......you can't get mad or kill anyone."
In a blink there it was, the staff was in Amara's hands and all he could do was hold himself. " W....where was it?"
" He made a deal with Vox, and this was part of it. The two of them made sure no one could find this or steal it, but it doesn't do much for me. It was his, so I took it and it's kinda cool, but Vox told me to be careful who saw it, so only you and he know about it." Amara slowly handed it to her dad, and he carefully took it. " It's the last thing he left me, but it's safe with me cause I hide it so no one but me can use it."
He needed to destroy it......but looking at it and remembering seeing Alastor use it made his mind change. Seeing Amara so happy, how could he destroy this? " Amara, you have to keep this safe, but if it's this or your life, I need you to promise me you will give this up. I know it means a lot to you, which is why I can't take this away from you. I will protect you, Amara, and I know you will do everything you can to keep this safe." He looked down at it as he smiled, just remembering all the times Alastor held it, then slowly he handed it back to Amara, who smiled brightly. " I don't want that part of him gone, so we will keep it safe."
This wasn't how she expected this to go and she thought there would be fighting or yelling, but her dad letting her keep it then also him saying he trusted her......unexpected. But the first thing she did once he handed it back to her was hug him. " Thank you, Dad. I will keep it safe and I won't show it unless I am ready."
It had been so long since he held her, so he hugged her back as he laid his head under her chin. " No one will take it from you without going through me first."As much as he never wanted to let go, he had to, but as he saw a smile, he knew he was doing the right thing. " Well, I should get going, you have a busy morning, but I did take some time off to stay at the hotel to keep them all safe, just in case Roo tries anything. But anyway, sleep tight, froggie, and I love you."
Maybe it was her dad being understanding and truthful with her, but she didn't mind his company. " Dad? Um......If you want.....you could stay here with me....tonight?"
He stopped and quickly looked back at Amara as he smiled. " Really? You don't have to."
"You're right I don't." She just made her way back into bed as she picked her book up. " Niffty just cleaned so it smells like him too but you can go."
He just smiled before running over as he transformed into a snake and quickly slid his way into the bed on Amara's lap as she laid down and read to him as he slowly fell asleep he changed back as he held Amara.
Normally, he would have slept in and made every second count, but he didn't want to push Amara anymore, so he woke up early and left, but not without leaving her a note. He wrote that he headed back to the hotel, but thank you for last night, and he loved her, and he hoped she had an amazing day. When he got back to the hotel, he started coffee and breakfast and even made Charlie some to go. So when Charlie walked down with Vaggie, he handed her a bag of food. " Charlie, some breakfast and snacks, then for you, Vaggie, a fist bump for being awesome. I know anything would make you sick, and hugs hurt like hell."
" They do?" Charlie hugged Vaggie this morning after she brushed her hair, and a lot of it was falling out, so to make her feel better, she hugged her.
Charlie loved hugging and she loved that about her and so much more but with everything going on a lot of it was harder for her to handle and hugs were one of them. " I love you babe but......yeah. But everything hurts specifically now and I would have told you but I.....I thought I could just handle it until I couldn't."
Lucifer saw the saddened look on Charlie's face which he hated he caused. " You know Vaggie, Alastor had the same issue and actually Angel helped him with a heated blanket which he said took that pain away." He quickly snapped it to his hands as he handed it to Charlie. " Just put it on high and it will soothe everything and stop the shaking if you have gotten there yet."
" Thanks, Dad.....do you have any advice on helping her stay awake after?" Vaggie hated sleeping the day away but she didn't know to stop it when she was putting her body through a lot.
" Haha, oh, not much, but Alastor did have fun for a change when he had a smoke. It took all of it away for a bit, even made him hungry, and he ate. Although when the high went away, he was so sick, no munchies." Lucifer looked back in the kitchen, then at Charlie and Vaggie. " During treatments, he did like trying to keep busy when he could, so reading or what I found out much later, crocheting, but I would always find him asleep with the book, which I just thought was cute."
Vaggie knew what she was doing once she sat down was sleeping, but she did have to ask. " Lucifer........how did he manage to keep his hair? I asked but Bel said my treatments are different and there wasn't a way around it."
" Oh, his stubborn ass rathered the pain and then lose his hair so some of the meds they gave him to help it not hurt as much he didn't use and a few different things that I can't remember but Vaggie he might have not shown it but he was in pain. I could feel it, and he refused a lot of the time to take the meds to help, but he was happy with that choice. His mom, not so much, and seeing him that way hurt more than anything, but I wanted to respect his wishes like he did mine." Lucifer started to spin his ring as he looked at it. " We aren't in your shoes, but......it's hair and it grows back, but the trauma and the memory of how bad it got from you and us won't. If I could take this away, I would, Vaggie, 'cause you have been through enough and.....this is just sick to do to someone."
" Was it worse than this for Alastor?" Why was she even asking this? Lucifer had said enough yet being in Alastor's place and feeling this pain, she couldn't help but wonder how much worse could it even get?
Lucifer held his hands out as Vaggie took a hand and Charlie another as he let them both feel the pain Alastor went through but for just a moment but when he stopped and looked at them both were in tears. " He would tell me it was tolerable which scared me to think what wasn't."
Charlie just looked at Vaggie as she quickly wiped her tears, and she also held herself back from hugging Vaggie. " If you ever feel like that, Vaggie, I need you to tell me, and we can stop all of this. We can stay at the hospital until we cure you." Vaggie just nodded as she leaned her head on her. " Dad, thank you for all of this. It was an eye-opener and helpful. We have to go, but if you have more advice or anything, let us know." He just nodded as Bel opened the portal and they walked through.
He went back to making breakfast, but Alastor was stuck in his mind to the point that when he finished and everyone was eating, he took his plate up to Alastor's old room, where he sat on the couch eating as he watched the fireplace. But when he finished, he thought back to Vaggie and Charlie, then to last night with Amara, and he walked over to the bed and laid on his side as he looked at Alastor's side. " Love......I miss you so much........we could really use you.....and our daughter needs you. We all need you........I.....I'm so sorry I broke my promises to you, but........But I hope on everything.......that Adam was wrong. That.....that you're in peace and happy, that.......that you're not in any pain anymore." Quickly, he found himself breaking down into tears as he grabbed Alastor's pillow and hugged it tightly as if it were him. It smelled just like Alastor, which only made him cry harder at just the thought of Adam being right. " I....I swear if that.....that son of bitch hurt you more.......I...I will destroy that void with him in it. I will burn it all with everyone who ever laid a hand on you. Vaggie......she.....she has what you had and......and we need someone from that hell to save her life." He pulled the blanket over him and quickly broke down again as he cried into the pillow.
Last night was nice, and her dad already being gone by the time she had to wake up was a relief. Not that she didn't want to spend the morning with him, it was him asking her questions about her day, or Vox showing up, and him still being there. But after a quick snack, she met with Vox and then Rosie to train for a couple of hours until she had an hour to go visit the hotel. When she got there, Vaggie and Charlie were still at the hospital, so she went down to see them only to find them happily asleep in each other's arms under a blanket. So she headed back to training early so she could visit the hotel later, and when she finished after hours, she headed back to the tower to eat and clean up. Then she vanished to the hotel only to find the main members all sitting at the TV, even Vaggie. " Am I missing something here?"
Charlie happily turned to see Amara and slowly got up, then ran to her as she hugged her. " We are having a movie night, and Dad helped so Vaggie could comfortably stay down here." She grabbed Amara's hand as she pulled her over to Vaggie, sitting on the couch, bundled up. " Come to find out heated blankets on the highest setting make everything feel better."
" Oh yeah I am going to need a battery pack so I never have to unplug it haha." Vaggie patted the couch for Charlie to sit and once she did she laid her head on her shoulder. " Amara you want to join us? But don't worry I picked the movie and I want to laugh."
" How can I say no?" When she looked at everyone, she saw her Dad patting a spot beside him, so she sat down next to him as the movie started. He was wrapped up in the blanket her father had made him, but he held her and even wrapped her up in it, which she liked. For the first time in weeks, it felt like old times before the lies, Vaggie getting sick, and someone after them. It was nice to laugh and see Vaggie laugh despite everything she was going through. Angel cuddled up to Husk, who just scratched Angel's back. Niffty was petting Keekee, who was asleep in her lap. She laid against her dad, who scratched behind her ears, which felt amazing, but as they got over halfway through the movie, everyone was slowly falling asleep until the door slammed open, making everyone quickly look over, only to see Adam shutting the door as he leaned against the door. " What the hell?!"
" You gotta protect me, please! Basterd almost killed Lute!" Adam pulled anything heavy to the door. " Lucifer, come on!"
" Lute? I thought she.......wait how the hell are you here right now?" Lucifer wasn't getting up for Adam who already ruined movie night.
" Fuck Roo let me free but I was just gonna hide out when I found Lute and.....you know........then we were both thrown out of fucking bed! Bitch sent him to do her dirty work for her!" Adam quickly looked around. " You guys have a panic room or something indestructible? What am I saying.....anyone has a bright ass light?........ Where's Lilith?"
" My mom is in bed but if Roo sent someone that means we can start the plan dad." Charlie looked down at Vaggie who looked at her half awake. " Babe let's get you into bed and we will handle...."
" I....I want to fight..." Vaggie sat up, but once she moved the blanket off, she was hit with a burning pain which she tried to hide until she tried to stand up and fell back. " Fuck.....Charlie I...."
" Vaggie you're in no shape to fight but why don't we let her just watch?" Angel got up ran and grabbed a wheelchair. " Lucifer just snaps a battery pack and Vaggie can watch and if it gets bad she can leave."
" Dumb ass plan Angel. Vaggie needs to be far away from this. Don't forget what a few hits and shocks did to Alastor." Angel sat back down as he grabbed his hand. " I can take her to your room and stay with her just in case, but we're waking Lilith up."
Charlie nodded as she kissed Vaggie's forehead before Husk took her away. She saw the two get into the elevator as she looked at everyone else. " Alright, let's catch us a....."
" YOU HAVE ALL LOST YOUR FUCKING MINDS!! THIS THING NEEDS TO DIE!" Adam frantically looked around for anything to block the door and windows. " She made him so he would kill and follow fucking orders!! LUCIFER! GET YOUR ASS UP AND...."
" HEY!" Amara quickly stood up as she walked over to Adam. " You don't get to come here and make demands much less talk to my dad that way. We can handle it but you're helping." Amara snapped Adam a sword. " We need it alive."
Lucifer walked over as he smiled at Amara. " This will be easy if it's anything like you and Lilith."
Angel grabbed his guns as he stepped in. " Come on I just got these I wanna test this shit out."
" I can stab?!" Niffty jumped happily with an angelic dagger in her hands.
Charlie knelt down as she touched Niffty's shoulder. " How about you stay with my mom? If it gets in there, then you stab okay?" Niffty just nodded as she ran off giggling. " Alright, I say we....." Suddenly, the lights all went out as they looked at Amara. " Um.....Amara?"
" That's not me and I can't get them on." She did try but nothing as she just snapped a flame as her dad emitted a light from his hand. " Um why did the power go out?"
" Shit!.......shit shit shit......he's here." Adam slowly backed away, but Angel pushed him back. " Stop, you don't understand he will kill me and......and make me pay for.....for everything I did."
" I thought it was it? This is a person now?" Angel pointed a gun at Adam's head as the man looked ready to piss himself.
" It was a man......now......now it. There's nothing in there but......but pain and revenge. It's......it's her weapon." Adam looked at everyone who looked at him pissed.
Charlie wasn't sure why but she was scared as she held her trident tighter. " If....if there was a man in there maybe we could talk to him? Amara could hold him still and Dad could knock him out or calm him down."
Lucifer rubbed Charlie's arm as he saw the fear in her eyes. " Hey, it's going to be okay, besides I'm the king of hell so not......." Everything Adam piled at the door flew out hitting them in the blink of an eye when he tried to get up he was stuck under a bookshelf but when he looked at everyone he saw Charlie and Amara helping each other up as Angel ran to him but it was the laugh that had him in chills as he looked at the door to see a man slowly walking in as shadow tentacles emerged with each step but instantly everyone but him and Adam was being held against the wall but as started to get up it looked at him but he knew those eyes but.....but it couldn't be. The ears, antlers, the smile, but the radio dial eyes, which he only ever saw on one man. But the red glowing scars littered the man's body, and it was too dark to see more than an outline and anything red, but he was just frozen.
" Hey come on man we can make the bitch pay for what she did to us....to you!" Adam slowly backed away as he held the sword in front of him. " I DIDN'T HAVE A CHOICE IN DOING THAT TO YOU! SHE FORCED ME! COME ON THIS HOTEL HAS POWERFUL SINNERS AND HELL LUCIFER WHO SHE......" A blink, and he was on the ground screaming as his shins snapped. " FUCK! AH FUCK!!"
Amara tried to use her powers but they did nothing to get free not even fading but as she fought she saw Lute running in cutting though the tenticles. " Lute?"
" Back off freak!" Lute swung at the guy but he was suddenly gone as she looked behind her to see Amara who she walked over to. " Kid I'm sorry for not telling you about Adam but I knew you wouldn't...."
" LUTE! SHUT THE HELL UP AND HELP ME!!"
" Adam he's gone." She turned back to Amara. " Are time together was never a lie and you never asked for his name."
Amara slightly smiled as she walked over to Lute. " Does that mean we were really friends?" Lute nodded, but as she was about to hug her then suddenly Lute dropped to the ground, followed by screaming When she looked down at herself, she was covered in gold blood. " Lute?"
" NOOOO!!!" Adam looked at the door as he formed again. " I AM GOING TO KILL YOU!!"
Lucifer pushed himself up as he walked to the guy. " Ala......." Then suddenly everything went black.
Charlie was screaming at Lute's head, sliced off in front of her, and Amara just stood there frozen, but when she saw her dad walking towards the guy, she was about to tell him to stop, but he was thrown through the room. " DAD!!"
Angel was about to start shooting, but his guns had suddenly stopped. When he looked at the guy, he found himself running over to Charlie. " We need to get out now!" Charlie tried to run to Lucifer, so he grabbed her and Amara, who was frozen, and threw them into a closet as they heard Adam screaming, but it got louder. To the point, he held Amara and Charlie until it stopped. " You both okay?" Charlie nodded, but when they looked at Amara, she just stared at her hand covered in Lute's blood like the rest of her. " Amara?"
Charlie helped Amara up as Angel looked through the door. " Angel, our Dad is out there."
Angel looked for any sign of the guy, but saw nothing. So slowly, he walked out with Amara and Charlie. Only when they turned to see where they had last left Adam, he was just a head, which had Charlie quickly in tears, as the lights turned on, which showed all the blood everywhere. " Hey, don't look 'cause we need to find Luci." But as they walked, the elevator opened, making him scream, only it was Husk with Vaggie who quickly rolled over to Charlie and Amara. " Husk what the hell?"
Vaggie grabbed Charlie's hand and Amara's as she looked at both of them. " What the hell...." Then she saw Adam's head and another body. " Who...."
" Lute." Amara slowly looked over at Lute's body lying there. " He.....he killed her.........she.....she was my friend."
" Where is Lucifer?" Husk looked at everyone as he saw someone missing.
Angel quickly ran through the holes in the wall where he found Lucifer knocked out so he picked him up and walked back to everyone. " Did you guys check on Niffty and Lilith?"
Charlie ran to Angel as she looked at her dad. " Dad? W....why isn't he waking up?"
Husk walked over to look. " He'll be fine, just knocked out from my guess, a throw? Shit how big was this........is.....is that fucking Adam's head?"
" Let's get upstairs." Angel got everyone in the elevator and he went straight to Alastor's old room where he laid Lucifer down as Niffty ran in. " Niffty you're good at getting blood out right?" She just nodded.
" What the hell happend?" Lilith walked in to see everyone covered in gold blood.
Charlie was going to tell her mom but she saw Amara and helped her to her and Vaggie's bathroom as she helped her get cleaned up and changed. When Amara sat on the bed with her and Vaggie she pulled Amara into a light hug. " It was painless Amara and I know she was your friend....."
" A real friend........and then......her head just exploded on me." Amara leaned her head on Charlie's shoulder as Vaggie rubbed her arm, which slowly brought her to tears. " He.....he could have killed you or......or Angel......or.."
" But he didn't. He killed Adam and Lute which I know she was your friend." Vaggie was just shocked Lute was back yet didn't go after her. " Why don't you stay here tonight Amara? You can stay with me and Charlie." Suddenly there was a knock at the door when it opened it was Husk.
" Um....Lucifer's awake and...and he wants Charlie and Amara." Husk helped Vaggie into the wheelchair as he walked with Amara, who was still out of it. But when they walked into Alastor's room, Lucifer sat up.
Lucifer was about to tell Charlie and Amara his theory, but when he saw Amara, his smile faded. " Froggie? Froggie, what's wrong?" He walked over, and quickly she hugged him as she broke down into tears. " Oh, Froggie, I know you cared about her, and she was your friend....."
Charlie put a hand on her dad's arm. " Dad......he killed Lute, and he wasn't even there. He could have killed any of us."
He didn't think about that and pulled Charlie into a hug with Amara. " I'm sorry, girls, I should have protected you both better, but.....But I know who that man is........"
Angel looked at Husk, worried, then Lucifer. " Lucifer, it wasn't him, and telling them will only hurt more."
Amara sat up, wiped her tears, and looked at her Dad. " Who was he?"
" It was Alastor.
Notes:
Was that really Alastor? How will everyone react to Lucifer? Will Amara want revenge for Lute? How will The Challenging go for Amara after this? Will the hotel be able to capture the mystery guy and force him to heal Vaggie, or will they fail and Vaggie meet Alastor's fate? Why didn't the mystery man not go for Lilith? Is Lilith planning something after all? Will they see the mystery man again? What is Roo planning? Will Amara be able to keep the staff safe?
One more chapter for the week so..........dun dun DUN........
Chapter 10: Face To Face Again
Summary:
Lucifer tries to get everyone to see that the mystery man was Alastor, but no one believed him. So they work on a plan as they find out Vaggie was getting worse, so they had to act. Husk makes a plan to reschedule The Challenging with Vox's help so they can help capture the mystery man. Their trap didn't work, so they tried again, but nothing, so they went home to sleep, only they all woke up to screaming.
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Maybe she misheard her dad, or hitting his head was affecting him, so she sat up as she looked at Amara , then everyone else who seemed to be where she was. " Um ..... Dad, would you mind saying that again?"
" That mystery guy, the one who did all of that.....it was Alastor. I know those eyes anywhere and........" Lucifer thought he wasn't alone on this, but everyone looked at him like he was crazy. " Look at the radio dial, eyes? The stitched smile? Come on, that's......"
" He hit his head hard, so he's just spewing nonsense." Husk rolled his eyes as he looked at the door. " It's late, let's just get some sleep and come back to planning how the hell we're supposed to trap that thing."
" That thing has a name and it's........" Lucifer quickly stood up, but to his surprise, Husk rushed over to his face.
" Cut it out! Alastor is fucking dead!" Husk took a breath so he didn't make everything worse. " Even if it was what it wasn't, Alastor couldn't kill Lute the way they said. No matter how much you wish or cry, Lucifer, Alastor will still be dead, and this thing needs to be trapped, so if you're not going to help, then why are you even here?"
Charlie held Amara, and she scratched behind her ears. Amara just stared at the ground. " Dad, he hurt us, he waited to kill Lute, then tore Adam apart, only leaving his head. None of that is something Alastor would do, and Husk is right ..... some ...... we can all wish, but Alastor is gone. Right now we need to get some sleep, Vaggie and I have an early morning, and you got knocked out, Dad, so you need to rest too." She looked at Amara, who was slowing down her tears. " Do you want to stay with me and Vaggie tonight? I know you have an early morning and....."
Lucifer grabbed Charlie and Amara's hands as he looked at them. " He's not gone, girls; that was him. I know those eyes and that smile everywhere. I wouldn't say this unless I was sure and......"
" Dad, please stop." Amara pulled her hand back as she wiped her face. " When I was little, I used to believe that if I asked every night, then Papa would come home to me and make you happy, but he never came, Dad. You know why? It's because he died, Dad. I hate that I don't remember my time with him or that I will never feel him, but saying that monster is him, Dad is just insulting." She looked at Charlie and Vaggie. " I am going to stay with Vaggie and Charlie tonight."
" Amara...." Lucifer watched Amara and Charlie stand up, but he quickly stood in the way. " Look, I agree those aren't his actions, but Roo turned him into this and we can......."
" Lucifer, even if it is Alastor, he died that day with you, and that......that is what years of Roo's wrath have made. Adam played a part in that treatment, which is why he killed him first, but he will find that staff no matter who you are." Lilith slowly walked in holding herself. " Or.....or he's coming for me. But you don't want that to be Alastor, Lucifer. If those screams said anything, he has been through more than any of us have, to the point he is broken ." Lilith hugged Charlie, who looked scared. " No matter who that is, Lucifer, we need to do your plan to save Vaggie, then he needs to die for good, or else he will be the destroyer of heaven and hell." Lilith waited until everyone left, then she closed the door. " I need to know that you won't let that animal hurt or kill me."
" I know what I saw, and you're asking me to push all of it away, all those wishes of his to come back, all those times I cried, his daughter who wants to know him, and you want me to forget it all?" The more he said it, the more real it got. Alastor was alive, the man he loved, the father of his daughter, is alive.
Lilith grabbed Lucifer's hands as she pulled him over to Alastor's desk to sit. " If that is him, Lucifer, he's gone, the man you knew died in this room, and that thing is just a face made to break you. But when it shows up again for me, will you be able to fight? Cause it will kill everything in its path for me, and you're the only one who will stand a chance. It will do what it did to Lute to all of them, and I won't let my daughter be killed even if it means getting heaven involved."
Lucifer couldn't kill him, but they did need him trapped so they could get him to heal Vaggie. " We aren't losing anyone, and it is a he. But we need him alive for Vaggie, but if I find out heaven hears about this, then Roo won't be the only one you should be scared of." He stood up as he looked Lilith in the eyes as she laughed at him, so he pushed her against a wall as he let his devil form come out. " The only one laughing is me when I take you to Roo myself."
" Charlie would hate you, and then you would lose your daughters." Lilith hadn't seen Lucifer like this in decades before their fall, when he stood up for her at their hearing with the council. She loved that about him, and when they fell, that part never came down with him, so seeing it now brought back that feeling.
He smiled brightly as he looked Lilith in the eyes. " I would be doing it for family."
Then quickly she added it up as Lucifer took a step back. " If heaven knew they would kill him, which is why you don't want them to know. Not just him either..............what if it's not Alastor? You would be threatening all of these lives for an impossible chance."
" I lost him once, so even if there's a chance that's him, I will take the risk any day." He sat down as he returned to his regular self. " If you want to talk about risk, then you're going to love my plan to trap him."
Yesterday was a lot, but Charlie held Amara as they slept until her alarm went off, which scared all of them but Vaggie. Amara vanished when she looked back at her, so she just worked on getting herself and Vaggie up, who was freezing once she got out of bed, so she got her a sweatshirt, then helped pull up her hair. As she was finishing up, Amara came backwith breakfast for her to go and a coffee, which was nice to have for the long day ahead. When her and Vaggie left, Amara said she had to get some work done, then some training, but would be by later before some overlord thing.
After a few hours, they took Vaggie for tests, which she took to eat her breakfast, which became her lunch, as she caught up on some work. The time just flew by until Bel suddenly sat down with her. " Oh hey, is Vaggie done? Cause I can......"
" Charlie, it's spreading even with the treatments. I can increase the dosage, but ........ but I don't see her being able to even get up . What I am getting at ....... I think it's time for her to stay here so we can watch her and she doesn't have to be in pain."
" W.... what.... no.... no she was cold this morning but...." Belphagor grabbed her hand, which quickly had her in tears as she held her hands. " I....I can take care of her at home and .... and we are days away from healing her, so please ..... just ..... just 3 days."
" You can take your time, but it's only to help her, Charlie. Did Roo send that person you all told me about?" Charlie nodded as she told her everything that happend. " Come with me, Charlie." Charlie followed her until they got to her lab. " When Alastor had to get tests done like Vaggie, he had to be put asleep so his powers didn't mess with the machines, but his powers still messed with them when we first started, so Oz and I made this. It temporarily blocked his powers, so none of it worked, but it only lasted for an hour or two."
" Why are you telling me this?" Belphagor handed her a syringe, which she looked at confused.
" If this person is as strong as you said, this will help trap him. Alastor only used half, but that whole thing, if not more." She stood up, grabbed a bigger syringe, filled it, and handed it to Charlie. " I don't know what this much will do, but I know it won't kill them, maybe just knock them out, and this works fast."
" Thank you, Bel." Charlie put the syringes in her bag, then Bel took her to Vaggie, who was asleep. She stayed with Vaggie for hours until they could head home. She got Vaggie settled in bed with her heated blanket, then headed downstairs where she found her dad with Husk and Angel. " Hey, I hope I'm not interrupting."
" How's Vaggie holden up?" Angel walked over to Charlie and hugged her , as she just looked like she needed one, and he was right.
" It's still spreading, so they're putting more of that stuff in her, but they put her to sleep, so it doesn't hurt, but when she wakes up, she's.......she's in pain. Bel wants her to stay there, but I told her about that thing coming, and she gave me these. She said use the big one and it will basically turn its powers off, and she thinks even knock it out so we can put it in that cage." She handed the syringe to Husk. " We need to heal Vaggie like now, cause I don't think she can handle much more of this."
Lucifer looked at the ring on his finger, ready to try and get Charlie to believe him, but seeing was believing. " Alright ........ we are going to need Amara, but we are getting him. Angel, call Vox, make sure everything is ready, cause we need to be able to hold him even if he's powerless."
Husk knew the urgency of this, but Amara wasn't backing out of The Challenging. " Oh.....tonight, Amara has a big overlord thing she can't miss and I told her I would go with her."
" I'm sure she could skip it if she knew Vaggie's life was on the line." Angel hoped.
" It's stronger at night, and he will come right for me, so there is no picking when it has to be tonight." Lilith walked over as she looked at everyone but Lucifer. " It has been in the darkest pits of the void for years, and there, hundreds if not thousands, so light will be its weakness." She looked down at Lucifer as she patted his back, making him jump. " We just so happen to have heaven's light bringer who can blind it long enough so we can administer that, then he's trapped. Deer in headlights."
" You and Amara go while we handle this. We just have to lure it with mom and dad will blind it while Angel or I give that to it." Charlie looked at everyone as she smiled. " We can do this, we need to do this."
Husk left as everyone planned while he walked over to the radio tower to talk to Amara, but she wasn't there, so he went to Rosie's. She told him she was with Vox, so he had to go to the Vee tower, which wasn't pleasant since they made him sit and wait for Vox's assistant, who let him through. When the elevator opened, he saw the two fighting, which he was a bit surprised to see. Amara looked a lot like Alastor. " Hey, go for the legs." She nodded, and instantly, Vox was on the ground as they both laughed.
" Haha, thanks, but why are you here? We don't have to leave for another few hours?" Amara walked over and helped Vox up, then got some water.
" They are planning on getting that thing tonight, and without us. While the plan is solid, they need Vox, and it's dangerous if were're not there." Husk looked at the two.
" Well, we can't not go or else we will lose by default," Amara told him about last night, which he thought was crazy, but he had just gotten off the phone with Angel, who was asking about the cage. " I mean, Angel made it sound pretty easy, and everything's ready for them to put it in. I have it on the far end of town."
" Look I know you have been working your ass off for this but.....but they need all the help they can." Husk knew how much this meant to Amara, and Amara knew he knew. " Mammon holds this under the table so Lucifer doesn't find out or Satan, but if they found out, it would ruin all of it. But Vox and I, or just Vox, could go and tell him Lucifer heard about the event, and he will reschedule. Look, he would rather change the date than have the whole thing ruined again."
" No.....no, my dad and them can handle this and...." Amara looked at Husk, ready to turn him down, but Vox started speaking.
" Kid......he's right, and Mammon will listen to us. Look, we will go so you're not lying, but what their doing is risky and I don't plan on breaking my deal with Alastor by not keeping his family safe." Vox looked at Husk. " We should go before it gets dark here, and Amara, you should go home and clean up, then go join the hotel, and we will be there shortly." Amara sighed then nodded as she vanished. " Just me and you, Husk haha......oh if Alastor saw me now." He zapped them down to Greed as they headed to the arena, where they both knew Mammon would be. " Hey, I gotta ask what's up with you and legs?"
" Angel?" Husk didn't even look at Vox as they walked. " Were together, but he still works at the clubs and does those videos. I should say we're in the same spot, only in this circumstance."
Vox laughed as they walked. " Val and I are nothing......I mean we fuck but he will fuck anything that walks which is why he doesn't know about Amara. He wants to fuck other peolple but I think about someone else and it's a issue."
" Shit. I mean Angel will dance and shit but he stopped fucking them cause I didn't like it. He said our relationship was worth more than money, so he stopped, but he likes dancing and turning people on. I just ask him to text me when he's coming home or if anything is wrong." As they walked in, they saw him sitting there, demanding hellborns around.
" Oh Vox?! Mate, it doesn't start for a couple of hours, or are you here to see the competition? Also, why is the gambling guy here?"
" He's the reason I am here, Mammon, cause he herd Lucifer talking about tonight. I guess he heard something, so I just wanted to warn you he was going to show up." Vox just stood there as Mammon slowly stood up.
" How the HELL DID THAT FUCK HEAR ABOUT THIS?!"
" Maybe it was the fucking posters?" Husk noticed them as he walked and pointed at one as he stood there.
Mammon looked and quickly calmed down. " Oh.....yeah, I went a bit over this time. But shit I will reschedule this but thank's Vox."
The plan was easy, but he couldn't stop himself from asking even as Husk started to walk away. " Do you know when it would be?"
" Um.....I have to find a new space so......a week? Can't lose out on the oppertunity cause I herd Alastor's fucking daughter is fighting which had me sold out for tonight."
Husk turned back around as he looked at Mammon. " I mean, with it being cancelled, won't fewer people show up?"
" Hahaha! Mate this is the fight of the year to see if the daughter of the radio demon and the king of hell can live up to the fucking name! Hell now more will show and challenge so Lucifer finding out was a fucking blessing."
Vox just laughed along until Mammon left. " Did we just screw Amara?"
" Oh yeah." Husk would worry, but right now they needed to deal with tonight, then deal with this another day, and hopefully, Mammon would take longer to find the new space cause this excuse wouldn't work again.
They ran over the plan, and when Amara, Vox, and Husk joined in, the plan was stronger. Lucifer wasn't taking any chances on anyone getting hurt, so he had Charlie staying with Niffty, Vaggie, and the hotel residents just in case, while the rest of them weren't far from the warehouse. Vox set the cage up. They checked out only to be stunned to see an angelic cage, but what had him shocked was the lightning, to the point he thought he was in heaven. So when they saw the hell sun starting to go down, they said their goodbyes and headed out. " Charlie, we will call if anything happens, but if you need us, call and I will be here with everyone."
" Dad, we'll be okay, but thank you......all of you." Charlie looked over at the couch where Vaggie fell asleep holding Keekee. " Mom, be careful, please."
Lilith hugged Charlie, then kissed her head. " I will, but if anything happens, I love you."
Why did it hurt seeing Charlie hugging Lilith? All she wanted was her father but she would never get it but Charlie's mother leaves and comes back. She just waved before walking out with Angel even as they walked through the portal to their spots. She was paired with Angel, Husk and Vox, and her dad and Lilith. Angel had called Cherri to come, but she couldn't. " So, how long do you think we will be out here waiting for this thing to show up?"
" Awhile, besides Lilith is still walking over, and it's not even that dark yet." Angel sat down on a rock as he looked at Lilith's spot. " I just hope nothing happens to anyone but that thing."
" Don't we all?" Amara sat down next to Angel as they sat there watching, even when Lilith showed up and sat on the bench just reading fr hours I it felt like. " You don't think it won't show up right?"
" It made sense that it would show up the next night for Lilith since she also failed. But Adam was personal for it, so you can't beat yourself up for that." He rubbed one of Amara's shoulders. " We can give it a few more hours, then we can go." Hours passed to the point he was texting everyone who was just as bored or tired. But even Lilith, who just sat at the table reading, was bored to the point that he was texting everyone about going home and just trying tomorrow night, which, after back and forth it's what they did.
Lucifer hated it didn't work, and it was another day of Vaggie dying and another day of questions. So when morning came, he went with Charlie and Vaggie with Amara, which kept them busy until it was night. Only this time, they were going to make it more casual with Lilith talking on the phone. But as the hours passed, as everyone started to yawn and call it, he pushed for a few more hours, but nothing again. Vox came back to the hotel to make sure the alarms worked. " I guess we will have to try tomorrow night. So get some rest, and I will come up with a new plan."
" Lucifer, did you think maybe this thing is smart and knows it's a trap? We keep leaving Lilith out in the open as if you would let her be out alone. Roo has been planning for years, so she has everything planned out." Vox waved at Amara as she vanished to bed. " Look, if anything shuts this alarm down, everyone will know so......bye." Then he zapped away.
Lucifer sighed as he looked at Lilith, who was waiting on the elevator, so he joined. " Lilith, do you have any ideas on how to pull him out without the cane?"
Lilith just sighed as she looked down at Lucifer. " I don't know, but......but we need to change something, but I'm too tired to think. Good night, Lucifer."
He walked Lilith to her door, then walked a few doors down to his own room, and he quickly snapped himself ready for bed as he flopped down into bed, then clung to his blanket. With the soft radio playing and the crackle of the fireplace that emitted a soft light quickly had him falling asleep. It had to be hours when he woke up suddenly to someone screaming, making him quickly teleport to the source, as he found himself in a guest room. When he looked over, Lilith was being strangled, and when he looked for who he saw, him. But as he snapped Lilith behind him, he saw Angel and Husk rush in, then Amara, but he stepped ahead as the man slowly turned to look at them as they prepared for a fight. " If you're smart, you will stand down and........"
" Hahaha......you gamble your lives for one who wished to trade all of you for her own life. Pathetic."
Lucifer quickly stood straight as he knew that voice, the chills that ran down his back, which only meant he was right. " Alastor?" The man just looked at them, but it was too dark to see anyone else, so he took a breath before lighting the room up, only the man was gone. As they looked around, suddenly there was a loud scream that had everyone holding their ears, so when he grabbed his, the light went out. Just as the darkness returned, they were all slammed into the wall, and the screams stopped, but Lilith remained on the floor, and he couldn't move as he tried; those eyes returned, but close to him, making him jump. " Alastor, you don't have to do this, we can......." Something wrapped around his mouth tightly, making him stop speaking, but it kept getting tighter.
" I want to do this, and I want all of you to see how I plan to kill each one of you until she breaks and gives me back what belongs to me."
When the man looked at her, she quickly stopped fighting as she looked at the man. " No.........no your.......you can't be him."
The guy just laughed as the room slowly started to light up, making all of them gasp as they saw him.......it was Alastor. Black hair and a suit, but it was him. Angel blinked and Husk was gone and standing by Alastor. " Smiles?!"
Husk looked up, and it was him, and he didn't get a chance to say anything before his head felt ready to explode, making him collapse to the ground, yelling, then nothing.
He yelled at Alastor as Husk yelled out, but he stopped when Husk stood up, but quickly started to panic when his eyes glowed red. " Husk?" Husk walked up to him as he was released, but as he looked at Husk, suddenly he started to beat him up, but he didn't stop.
" ALASTOR STOP IT!! YOU'RE GOING TO KILL HIM!!" Quickly, Husk stopped and walked up to him, bloodied with a sharp smile, but he looked at Alastor. " Alastor, I know I broke my promises to you, and I am sorry, but make me pay, not them. I am who hurt you, not them, please......love." He was close to getting a hand free, but he needed more time.
" DAD NO!" Amara tried to use her powers, but nothing happened.
Alastor walked up to Lilith as his shadows held her to the ground, as a tentacle pulled her arm behind her back to the point it was a mere movement away from being snapped. " Love?..... Hahaha, the only one you love is here on this floor and in the other room with her little friend. But both left you, both didn't care you were harming yourself. Oh yes, the mighty king of hell, god's once-favored son, now a mere coward. Now he fears being alone cause if it's long enough, he goes back to his old ways, hahah I can't wait to kill everyone in hell leaving you alone for the rest of time, never to speak or see a mere soul again only to live with the memory of those you called friends."
" LUCIFER KILL HIM!!" Lilith looked at Lucifer before she screamed from her arm being snapped, but with a pull, there was a warmth as everyone screamed with her, but Alastor and Husk laughed.
Lucifer quickly looked at Amara, who was in tears, as he started to panic and pulled his hand as Alastor tossed Lilith's arm to the side, as Husk grabbed Lilith's other arm as he smiled at him. " Why are you doing this?! She didn't hurt you, neither did Husk!"
" Cause it's fun, and hearing her screams and begs is thrilling hahha. Surprised you care about the lady who was using all of you to protect her." Alastor grabbed Husk's chain as he looked Lucifer in the eyes. " His soul will forever belong to me and he will forever be my little pet."
" You......you gave me the radio demon name......you gave all of it to me! How....." Amara saw Angel slowly waking up but she was confused but also looked into her father's eyes for the first time in her life.
" Now, why would I do that? You are merely a spare for Charlie, and that's all you are.........did you think you could really be me?" He walked over to Angel, who was slowly sitting up. " You care, you love, you keep people close, you are weak. Emotions are a weakness that you thrive in and forever will cause it's who you are. Now give me my staff, or your friend here will be just like your last one....Hahahah...."
" ALASTOR ENOUGH!!" Lucifer broke free as he snapped Angel away. " How can you stand there and tell our daughter she is weak when you have emotions?! You fell in love with us! But you never wanted her to be a spare, which is why you gave her......"
" Hahaha.......that's funny, but I would never do such a revolting thing. Who could ever love someone as broken as you? You are mere trash that was tossed down here like nothing. You refused to listen to your brother's warnings about being with her, and you're to blame for the lives I take, you're to blame for all of humanity's suffering. Every soul in this hell is here because of you." He vanished just as Lucifer blasted at him, and he emerged behind him and threw him into a wall. " You're weak." He threw Lucifer into another wall. " You're pitiful." He threw Lucifer again as he used his powers to strangle Lucifer. " You could never be loved, and you failed." He looked at Husk, who broke Lilith's arm, making her cry out. " How will Charlie look at you when she sees how I killed her mother, and you just watched? Didn't you make promises? You should never have left the den floor; you should have died like the disgusting thing you are, but I will make sure you suffer far worse."
This was Alastor; he sounded and looked like him, so his words broke him as he felt himself crying, which Alastor just laughed harder at before throwing him aside like the trash he was. But when he looked at Alastor, he saw him laughing as Husk beat Lilith. Then suddenly, a large bolt of electricity appeared, and Vox stood there in shock and fear.
" Al?" Charlie called him and quickly zapped over, but he never thought he would be looking at Alastor. " Y.... you're alive? Hahah, Al, this is amazing!"
" Now, who are you? Meh..... you're not of any importance."
Shadows quickly went for him, and he zapped away and appeared over by Lucifer. " Get your ass up now!" He looked Alastor in the eyes as he let his cables free. " It's a bit dark in here, maybe some light will zap that head of yours." Lucifer didn't get up but watched, so he flashed his screen white like he had to Alastor in the past, which worked, even getting Amara free, but he couldn't hold it long. " LUCIFER, WE NEED YOU!"
Amara ran over to her Dad, helping him up. " Don't listen to him, alright, but right now we need to save Vaggie, so please."
He pushed away what Alastor said as he looked at Amara and nodded as he walked ahead to Vox. He snapped the syringe, then handed it to Vox. " We are going to help you, Alastor." He looked at Vox and quickly flashed Alastor, making him yell out as Amara held Husk back while Vox injected Alastor, which quickly made his yelling stop, so he snapped the regular lights back on as Vox held Alastor. " Take him while we clean up." Vox just froze, looking down at Alastor. " Vox, we had to do it, but he won't let this happen again." Vox nodded, then zapped away as he turned to Amara, who held Husk, who was out, and Lilith, who was out. " Amara can...."
" I will go to the hospital with them just to get Angel." He nodded as he snapped them away.
Lucifer took a breath before teleporting to Charlie's room, where they cared for Angel. " We got him."
" Lucifer.....was....was it really Alastor?" Vaggie hated how she couldn't even help Angel, but when he told them what happend, she was shocked.
Lucifer walked over to Angel as he healed him. " It was but I don't think he's all there. Angel, Amara is at the hospital with Lilith and Husk do you want to be....."
Angel moved his once broken arm as he looked at Lucifer. " Yeah......how the hell did Alastor even do that?"
" I don't know, but his powers are dampened for now, and he is locked up so he can't do that again." He helped Angel up. " Ask Bel for more of whatever she gave us, cause I have a feeling what we have won't last too long." Angel nodded as he snapped him away as he looked at Charlie and Vaggie. " We will....."
Charlie opened her arms for her dad, who just looked at her and Vaggie, but she stood up and hugged him, and seconds after, he hugged her back and broke down into tears. " You don't have to see him, Dad. I can call Oz or....."
" No......I....I am the only one who can fight him. But.....but he has to be in there, right? She didn't strip all of him away, right?" Lucifer held Charlie tight.
Vaggie handed Lucifer a box of tissues. " Lucifer.......you might have to lower your expectations cause their's a chance he might never be who he was and.....and if that's true........he can't stay here."
As he wiped his tears away, she quickly had an idea. " Dad......I think I have an idea, but let me make a call."
Lucifer cleaned himself up before teleporting to the warehouse, only he find Vox sitting outside which he thought was odd. But he was going to just walk in, but Vox quickly stood up and stopped him. " Lucifer, I don't think you should go in there. I have cameras and he can't get out."
" I just want to talk to him, and Bel sent something stronger so it will last longer." Lucifer went to open the door but Vox stopped him but when he looked up at him he could see he had been crying. " What's wrong?"
" He woke up an hour ago, but.......but he hasn't stopped screaming, Lucifer. The cell is made of angelic steel, so he can't touch it, but he is. I couldn't handle it, Lucifer, but he's hurting himself trying to get out." Vox is scared to even look at the camera feed.
Lucifer held the little bag close as he looked back at the door. " I....I have to give him this or else......." He looked at Vox. " I need you to hold him so I can give it to him." Vox just nodded, but once they opened the door, they could hear his screams, which just made each step harder as they walked into the white room. " Alastor, you can't get out and....." Alastor just hit the bars even as his hands dripped in blood, which he looked at Vox, who quickly had his cables wrap around Alastor, which put Alastor on his knees as he tried to break free. As he walked on with the syringe. " We aren't going to hurt you, Alastor. This is just going to keep your powers dampened." Once he gave it to Alastor almost instantly, he stopped fighting to the point Vox let go as he laid Alastor down on the floor. " We are going to help you." Alastor weakly looked at him, but he looked at him almost begging. " She won't hurt you anymore, and I will make sure of it."
" But......but she will..........I......I will always suffer."
Lucifer moved Alastor's hair from his face as he passed out. As he looked at Vox as he cried, he saw Vox in tears. " She took him away once, and we won't let her again."
" Lucifer.....he's right. Even if we get him back, she will always be his queen, she will always be able to hurt him." Vox walked in as he wrapped Alastor's hands but he refused to even touch him anywhere else. " He told me time there was faster then here so.....so how long did she have him down there?"
Notes:
What is Charlie planning? Will Husk snap back to himself, or is he still under Alastor's control? Why doesn't Alastor remember? Is it really Alastor? How will Amara be now that Alastor is back? Will they be able to force Alastor to heal Vaggie before it's too late? Did Husk kill Lilith?
More will come but I am going out of town and can't bring my computer to write so I will try to post Monday and Friday but you might have to check sorry. But I will make sure the chapters are juicy.
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Chapter 11: Scars Tell Stories
Summary:
Charlie goes to see Alastor only he wasn’t himself at all to the point she goes forward with her plan but it didn’t work out the way she thought. So she makes a decision that could affect everything. Lucifer and Rosie find out more about Alastor and find out what he does remember.
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Charlie always went to Vaggie's treatments and stayed by her side. But after last night, when they got to the hospital, Vaggie convinced her to go since Amara was there, which she didn't want to leave. But when she told Vaggie about her plan, she convinced her to go and that she wouldn't tell anyone, and as much as she hated to leave, Vaggie had a point; time wasn't on their side. So after talking with Amara to update her on anything and everything, she went and headed to the warehouse where they were keeping Alastor. She needed to see how bad it was before she started her plan. When she walked in, she was shocked to hear yelling but found her dad sitting in front of the door holding her head, so she quickly rushed over, only making him jump. " Hey, it's just me. What's going on?"
The drug they were giving Alastor knocked him out for what he thought would be the night, but turned out to be just a few hours. When Alastor woke back up, he was back to yelling to the point he couldn't handle it anymore. He said mean and awful things to him, which he had to tell himself it wasn't Alastor, but he looked like him, besides the black suit and hair. " What did she do to him....?"
Charlie stood up as she saw Alastor on the ground holding his head. So she helped her dad up as she walked him outside. " I thought Vox was watching him with you?"
" He couldn't handle seeing him like this and......and I don't know how much more of it I can." Lucifer just hugged Charlie as he let himself cry. " I have tried......tried to get him to remember but......but nothing."
She rubbed her Dad's back before letting go. " Why don't I call Roise to help? I have a plan, so let Rosie try, and I will try something else." If he knew what or who she was talking about, he wouldn't want her to go. Luckily, he agreed to have Rosie's help, and she stood there with her Dad until she got their confusion until they told her everything.
" No.......no, but he died." Rosie looked at the two, who she could see were being honest, and she quickly ran in to hear Alastor yelling. " W....what are you doing to him?"
" The cage is angelic, and the lights get brighter when he yells or touches the bars." Lucifer saw the anger in Rosie's eyes. " Rosie, he almost killed Lilith, then took over Husk's head and had him almost kill Angel. He was hurting himself touching those bars."
Rosie was pissed but as she looked in she quickly calmed down as she walked in as she bent down to look at Alastor as he held his head on the floor. " Alastor?" Nothing, so she quickly looked over at Charlie and Lucifer. " Just turn it down for a little bit, please? He's always hated bright lights, and if he does anything, then you can put it back. But we can't treat him like this.......not after everything he has gone through."
Lucifer walked out and turned the lights down, which stopped Alastor from yelling. Then he walked back in and held Charlie's hand, and Alastor sat up and looked at them. " I'm sorry, but you have to understand why we..."
" Why am I in this cage? I know it's not for what I did to Lilith, cause the dear princess has something else more important than me, almost killing her mother." He stood up, dusting himself off, and fixed his suit.
Rosie stood up as she walked close to the bars. " What happend to your hair? You said you liked the red?" Zzz
" Red? It's......it's been ages since it changed, but...." He looked down at his bandaged hand but quickly balled his fists to the point his claws dug into his hands. " Why am I in here? You could call heaven, and I would be out of your hands, yet here I am."
Charlie walked up to the cage as she looked Alastor in the eyes. " How long were you down there?"
He walked up to the girl as he grabbed the bars and looked her in the eyes as she backed away in fear. "You're avoiding my question, which means you don't want me to know. Why?"
" Alastor, you're hurting yourself. Let go, dear." Rosie went to move Alastor's hands off the bars, but he jumped as she barely touched his hand, and he quickly backed away. " Question for a question. Cause we have some, and I know you do as well, and we won't lie to you. Since you attacked them, you answer Charlie."
" I can't." He held his hands close to his chest as he looked at the three. " I have never been here before."
Lucifer walked over to the cell as he looked at Alastor. " But you have been here. How do you think we know your name? How did Rosie know you hate lies? We all knew you, Alastor, we......"
" I answered your question now, princess, answer me." He put his hands behind his back as he looked at Charlie.
" Adam gave my girlfriend an illness that is killing her, but only someone from the void can heal her. She has a few weeks tops before.......I need you to absorb the dark energy in her so she doesn't die." Charlie looked at Alastor, who just looked at her before suddenly laughing. " She is dying the way you did here, but faster and your....."
" I'm the only way she lives." He wiped his tears from laughing as he looked at all of them. " As disgusting as that trick was of his, I am afraid I have no desire to help any of you. You want to know something frightening? If she dies, she will end up in the void. Hahah, she will relive dying until an exorcist kills her or for eternity. Hahaha!"
Rosie watched Charlie quickly run out in tears, but she grabbed Lucifer's hand to stop him from going after Charlie. " She needs some air alone, dear. Now you're going to tell me what you remember."
" I will tell you I will get out of this cell, and when I do, I plan on killing all of you, and you, Lucifer, will be forced to watch as I kill them slowly. Then I am getting what belongs to me, even torturing that girl to get what I want. I have so many ideas, but when she breaks, I am going to destroy heaven and every pathetic soul up there." He looked right at Lucifer as he fed on Lucifer's fear. " All it take's is you fucking up and I am out of this cell and room."
Rosie looked down at Lucifer, who looked frightened, so she quickly stood in front of Lucifer as she looked at Alastor. " You destroy heaven, but you forget your mother is up there, Alastor. Killing her would only turn you into the same man who...."
" Stop it....."
Rosie walked closer to the bars as she looked at Alastor, and she saw a hint of fear. " No, you have made sure you were always better than him, but you want to kill good people, people who......"
" NONE OF THEM DESERVE TO LIVE! THEY HAVE LIVED IN PARADISE WHILE OTHERS SUFFER FOR THEIR HUMOR! THEY TORTURE US THEN CALL US FUCKING MONSTERS!" He grabbed the bars hard, making the two quickly back up. " They sit on their thrones, saying their protecting and doing good, but they are the monsters. They deserve to have every fucking limb ripped from their bodies and more for the rest of fucking time! WERE LOCKED UP........" Everything stopped when her voice came to his head, making him quickly let go.
" Stop talking now."
" What do you mean they tortured you guys?" Lucifer pushed down his fear as he looked at Alastor, but his whole demeanor quickly changed as he sat down on the ground, staring at the wall. " Alastor, if they were hurting any of you, then you need to tell me. Wait.......did...did they?"
The look in Alastor's eyes told her enough as she cut Lucifer off. " Why don't you get some rest, and I will get you something to eat? You're thinner than before." She grabbed Lucifer's hand and pulled him out of the room. " I know you want answer's Lucifer, but you're asking someone who has spent 20 years in our time in the darkness. 7 years to him had him waking up in screams, and I have never known Alastor to be afraid, but he told me 7 years was hundreds, if not thousands, of years there. So think about 20."
" Adam said he was kept in the lowest ring on the void and......and.....Lilith said his screams........they weren't just painful.....but it was him begging for....for death." Lucifer looked through the window, where he saw Alastor just staring at the wall, laughing.
" Then we need to treat him like he's not some monster, that he is human like us. Alastor never snapped so easily, but he started to.........I am going to run home and get him something to eat. Why don't you play the radio for him so he's not sitting there in silence?" Lucifer nodded, but his eyes didn't leave Alastor. " Hey, we just have to take it easy, but trying to control him will only make him see us as enemies. So let's try caring for him and showing him that we're not lying. Maybe after his next dosage, you could put a few things that he likes, like a book."
" Alright." Lucifer watched Rosie leave as he stood there watching Alastor before snapping on a radio beside him, which he played through a speaker in the room, which had Alastor looking at the speaker.
If seeing Alastor like that or hearing him speak about them like that said anything, it was Amara who was right to stay away. But as much as she wanted to, she owed it to Alastor to try. So after getting some air and calling to check in on Vaggie, she decided she needed to go on with her plan, she headed up to heaven. It took some time to find her since she wasn't at home or work, but she found her at a tea shop. " Hey Grammie, I'm sorry for just coming like this, but....."
" Oh, Charlie, please, I love seeing you girls anytime. I miss seeing Amara, but I know she will come eventually. Would you like some? It's quite good and not overly sweet hehe.....I like to think Alastor would have loved it." She smiled as she tried to hand the mug to Charlie, who just shook her head. " Charlie? What's wrong? Is it Amara? Is that why she hasn't....."
Till now, she never told Alastor's mom about Vaggie being sick like Alastor was, but faster cause she knew it would bring a lot of that time back up, but she needed to come clean. " I need you to hear everything first, then you can be as mad as you want." Then she told her about her Dad having Amara's powers dampened and Amara finding out. Amara, being left the radio demon name and taking over as Adam shows back up with her mom, only something worse came. Finally, she started to tell her about something worse, but she suddenly stood up. " Grammie, please let me...."
" I need to smack your father, then hug my poor grandbaby. Then you will take me to see Vaggie, who needs all the support." She grabbed Charlie's hand as she went straight to the portal to hell and typed in Lucifer's name. When she walked through as she pulled Charlie, she found herself in a warehouse. " If he is using again, Charlie, I am going to need you to hold me back from killing him." She quickly stormed in as she saw Lucifer talking to Rosie, but she walked past as she slapped Lucifer hard. " You hurt my grandbabies for the last time, Lucifer. You went and lied not just to me but to them, and you want to say you did it for love, but you did it for yourself."
Lucifer held his cheek as he looked at Charlie, but was suddenly slapped again. " I know and......and I am sorry, which doesn't make what I did right, but you shouldn't be here. Charlie, why don't you take....."
" What is this place?" She looked around until she saw a window and walked towards it, but Lucifer quickly stopped her. " If you're not hiding anything, you will move at once, Lucifer." He was about to speak, so she pushed him aside as she opened the door quickly, ready to find some stash or Amara, but she just froze as she saw him. " A.....Alley?"
He slowly looked up from his book as he saw a lady standing there. " Who is that?"
Charlie walked in as she held Alastor's mom. " Alastor, this is your mom. Do you not recognize her?"
" If this is some weird way to get me to save your friend, then I am afraid you're mistaken." He just went back to his book.
Alastor's mom rushed to the door of the cell, but it was locked. " Open this now. My son doesn't belong in a cage and he....."
" I know he doesn't, but....." Lucifer slowly walked in, but Rosie walked over with the key. " Rosie, what are you..."
" He isn't a harm to any of us without his powers or in here." She unlocked the door as she looked at Alastor putting the book down and looking at Lucifer. " I know our Alastor is in there and won't hurt women cause he's a gentleman." She opened the door as Alastor's mom ran in as she stood at the door.
She was going to run in and hug her son, but when she ran, he moved. " H...how are you alive? I.....I watched you die? I.....you have changed and....." She reached for Alastor's face, but he backed into the bars, which she knew hurt, so she stopped. " Alley?"
Charlie slowly walked in as she grabbed Alastor's mom's hands, which got Alastor to move off the bars. " When he died, it was just his body and his soul went back to the void, but.....but Roo healed his body so he could use it again. None of us knew, and he doesn't remember any of it."
" Then.....then......the thing you told me about.....it...."
" It was Alastor." Lucifer didn't walk in, but he couldn't get his eyes to leave Alastor, who just stood there smiling in a way he wasn't sure why he didn't like. " You need to get out of there."
She quickly held her mouth as she looked at Alastor, as she teared up. " Oh my poor boy....I..." Suddenly, the lights started to flicker, and then the next thing she knew, a sharp and piercing sound played, but as Rosie pulled her and Charlie out, she saw Alastor grabbing his ears as he started to scream. " What are you doing to him?!"
Everyone looked at him, but he didn't know, so he quickly rushed to the floor as he looked at Alastor. " Just breathe, Alastor, it will stop." But it didn't, and they were all tearing up hearing Alastor screaming so painfully, but it only stopped when Alastor passed out, but as he ran in to check on him, Vox appeared. " VOX WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?!"
" Me?! His power's started fucking working! He would have killed all of you, and I think he was! The room senses his powers working, it does that until he passes out. The longer it takes, the higher it goes." Vox pulled Lucifer away as he knelt down.
" What are you fucking doing?!" Lucifer blinked, and Vox was stabbing Alastor in the arm with a needle.
" Lucifer I....I called him when Alastor wouldn't eat. When you stepped out, I left him alone with it, and he just looked at it. We are giving him this stuff to block his powers, but what if we're hurting him?" Rosie pulled Lucifer away as she tried to explain.
Vox got up as he looked at everyone. " I called Bel, who will be here in a second to check him out, but that will keep him out for a few hours. I want to make sure....he....he's not just back in his same boat as before." Vox stepped out of the cage, and just as he did, Bel arrived. " I....I need to go." He zapped away.
Bel walked into the cell as she knelt down and placed her bag aside as she looked at Alastor. Then, carefully, she checked his pulse, only it was racing. " I don't see him waking up, so perhaps you should give us some space."
" He's my son....is....is he okay?" Alastor's mom held Charlie's hand tightly.
" I need to examine him, and I will take some blood, but I will find out." She looked at his hand and slowly unwrapped it and removed the glove, only to see scars she had never seen, some had gone through the hand completely, which had her quickly looking at everyone. " Please, I will tell you if I find anything." Slowly, everyone but Alastor's mom left.
“Can you tell me…” her voice cracked, barely more than a breath, “can you tell me she didn’t hurt him?” The look Bel gave her wasn’t cruel. It wasn’t pitying. But it was honest. And it broke her.
She sank beside her son’s sleeping form, brushing trembling fingers through his hair the way she used to when he was still small enough to crawl into her lap. His hair was black now, cold to the touch. Just like the void must’ve been. Tears spilled down her cheeks as she leaned in and kissed his forehead. “ I failed you, Alley…” she whispered. “ I thought the worst had already happened. But you were still out there… and I wasn’t there.” She stroked his face, carefully, even though a part of her ached to hear his real voice , not the one twisted by pain and rage. “ I’m so sorry. I didn’t protect you. I didn’t save you. But I swear to you now…” She pressed her forehead gently to his. “ I won’t let anyone hurt you ever again. Not even yourself.”
Charli had overheard what Alastor's mom had asked Bel, then what she said, which was too much for her, and she didn't need to cry in front of her dad, so she headed back to the hotel. She walked all the way back with no rush as she used the time to clear her head. When she got to the hotel, Amara was sitting on the couch with Husk and Angel as they laughed. She just waved as she headed up to her room where Vaggie laid asleep, so she lay in the bed with her as she carefully held Vaggie, then cried finally. Only she accidentally woke Vaggie up. " Babe? W....what's wrong?"
Charlie looked up as Vaggie, who looked exhausted, and it only made her cry harder, seeing Vaggie so sickly. " Nothing I...I just missed you."
Vaggie lifted Charlie's chin as she looked Charlie in the eyes she wiping her tears. " Charlie, what's wrong? Does it have to do with Alastor?"
What did she do to find someone so loving and understanding? She told her everything about Alastor to Alastor's mom, even what Alastor had said about Vaggie. " We......we have been happy while he's........"
" Hey, none of us could have known, but we can give it a few days and see if anything has changed." She wiped Charlie's tears as she smiled weakly. " But I don't want you to get hurt, so I need you to understand that if.....if he doesn't remember, then we need to send him back or....."
"No, we can't do that to him. He's like this because of us, and I won't let him go back." Charlie laid her head on Vaggie's chest. " But you are going through so much that.....I can't wait a few days. I can't stand to see you like this, to know you're in pain and there's an answer to it."
" How is forcing him to do what we want make us any better than Roo? Or anyone else who tried? I don't want to die, but I don't want to force him, not after everything he has been through, so if he needs weeks, then I will give him weeks. You taught me that." Vaggie ran her hand through Charlie's hair as she kissed her head. " Wanna take a nap with me?"
Charlie just nodded as she felt Vaggie relax and fall asleep. When she looked at her, she just worried that one day Vaggie wouldn't wake up, that she had waited too long. She pulled the covers up as she covered them up, then fell asleep for a couple of hours until she woke up to Vaggie running out of bed when she ran after her, she found Vaggie hunched over the toilet puking so she held her hair as she rubbed her back until she sat on the floor. " Let's get you......" Vaggie looked paler and was breathing rapidly to the point she started to worry. " Do you want a bath? Maybe it will make you feel better?" Vaggie weakly nodded, so she rushed to start the tub and got Vaggie in, which seemed to help as she dozed off, but carefully she washed her hair, but stopped when Vaggie started crying.
" It.....it hurts......everything....."
Charlie felt her tears welling up as she looked at Vaggie crying in her arms. " I can give you something for the pain?" As she was about to grab something, Vaggie held her hand tightly as she cried, so she sat there on the side of the tub as Vaggie held her. But after a couple of minutes, Vaggie started shaking from the cold, so she quickly drained the water and wrapped Vaggie up in a towel. " Do you want to go to the hospital?" Nothing, so she helped Vaggie get dressed and into bed under the heated blanket, which seemed to help in combination with some meds. But she couldn't sleep, so she stayed up watching Vaggie painfully sleep, and all she could think was how all of this could be over in minutes, if not seconds. So hours later, when Vaggie was getting radiation, she called Vox.
" Hey Vox, I hope I'm not interrupting anything. I wanted to ask for your help."
" Help with what?"
" I want you to get Alastor to heal Vaggie. She's not......."
" You realize I would be forcing him, right? His mom hasn't left that warehouse, and I doubt she wants me hypnotizing her son."
" I know, but.......but she's sick and...."
" Charlie, it's hard seeing the person you love go through this, but Roise's plan makes sense and Bel said......"
" Vox, if you could have stopped Alastor from ever dying, you would have, right?"
" Yea......but if they give me shit your taking it."
" Thank you, Vox. When do......"
"You're going to need Amara to get Alastor's mom away, and Lucifer will be easy, but you just need to bring Vaggie."
" Alright, we will be ready in a few hours when we leave."
END OF CALL
While Alastor remained unconscious, Lucifer used the time to clean up and gather anything that might help, anything that might spark something in Alastor’s mind. He wandered through the remnants of Alastor's old room, the places where Alastor had once laughed, once danced, once lived. He grabbed a few things and then headed back, but as he was walking down the hallway, Angel stopped him. " Hey Luci, are.....are you gonna go see him?" Lucifer nodded. " How is he?"
" He doesn't even remember coming to hell, but his mom and Rosie are trying to get him to eat something. Let's just say he wasn't a big fan of the cell or the lights." They weren't saying Alastor's name, so Niffty didn't hear anything, cause if she knew he was alive, she would try and free him. " How's Husk doing?"
Angel sighed, nodding slowly. “ Husk’s still a mess,” he muttered. “No memory of what happened, which is probably a blessing, but... it scares the hell outta him. He thinks it’s safer for both of us to stay away. Just until Alastor is himself again. You handling everything okay?” Angel asked, softer now. “ 'Cause I know you’re trying to stay strong for everyone, but… if you need anything, I’m here, or just a call away. You don’t have to carry this alone.”
Lucifer smiled faintly, a weak glimmer of gratitude in his eyes. “ Thanks, Angel.” And then, in a breath, he was gone. But the moment he reappeared at the warehouse, that glimmer vanished. His smile died the second he took in the scene. Alastor’s mother was in Rosie’s arms, sobbing. Rosie held her close, whispering quietly, though the words were lost beneath the sound of grief.
Lucifer’s steps faltered. His chest tightened as dread bloomed like ice in his lungs. “ Bel?” His voice cracked. “ He’s… he’s fine, right?”
She turned slowly, meeting his gaze. Her silence lasted too long. And that silence was already an answer. “ He’s not sick like before, but physically…”
She looked down, then back at him, something heavy in her eyes, something that made his stomach twist. " I found scars, Lucifer. Old ones. New ones. Some layered over the same flesh again and again. They looked painful and almost repeated. They were… done to him from the little I saw.”
Lucifer swallowed hard, his hands trembling where they clutched the bag of items he had hoped would help.
“I don’t think we should panic yet,” Belphagor said quietly, her arms still folded across her chest. “ But if we could scan his brain… we might understand why he doesn’t remember.”
Lucifer tensed, that one word digging in like a thorn. “ Scan? You mean… You think there’s damage?”
Bel hesitated. “I don’t know,” she admitted. “ I haven’t scanned him. I couldn’t. It would mean moving him out of the cell, and after earlier… It’s not safe. Not for him. Not for us.” She sighed, her voice lowering. “He’s been out this whole time, and I only got a brief look. His hands. His head. His ears. That’s all I felt right looking at, and it was enough. Because in sleep… he flinched. His fingers twitched like he was still clawing through something. And his ears, every creak in the room made them flick back. Like he was waiting for someone to hurt him.”
She looked up at him now, her expression cracked just slightly. “ We all know Alastor and how he always smiles, he lived behind it. But this… this smile? It’s different. Cold. Stretched too tight. It doesn’t protect him anymore—it hides him.”
Lucifer turned slowly toward the door, where Alastor lay behind thick walls and glowing bars.“ And if we can’t scan him?” he asked softly. “What if we can’t ever move him?”
Bel was silent for a long moment. “ We wait until he lets us close. Until he asks instead of lashes out. But Lucifer… you need to understand something. If there is damage,” Belphagor whispered, “ then time won’t fix it. And memories alone might not bring him back.”
Lucifer looked down at the items in his arms—fragments of their life. His chest tightened.“ I have to try anyway,” he whispered. “ Even if he never remembers… I have to be there to remind him who he was. Who is he?”
Bel gave a small, sorrowful nod. “Then start with that. Sit with him. Don’t make him remember. Just… let him know he’s not alone. Treat him like a person, not....not like a prisoner."
Alastor's mom turned slowly toward Belphagor, eyes wide and shining with fresh grief. Her voice cracked as she asked, barely above a whisper.
“ H...How could she… how could she damage his brain?”
Bel’s expression shifted, and sorrow flickered across her face like a shadow.
“ I don’t know for sure,” she said gently, “ but… from what I’ve gathered… the place he was kept, down in the void, it’s not just a prison. It’s a place made to erase. To tear you down until there’s nothing left but a shell, if not less. Alastor wasn't on Roo's good list, which only meant she made him pay. The isolation, pain, unnatural time, they can do things to the mind. Things that can’t always be undone.”
Alastor’s mother pressed her hands over her mouth, as if trying to hold back the scream that wanted to escape.
Bel stepped a little closer, her tone softening. “ What they did to him wasn’t just physical. The void warps everything. Time becomes meaningless. Pain stretches into eternity. And when there’s no one to talk to… no light… no hope…” She stopped herself, then said more carefully, “ Sometimes the mind breaks to protect itself. It buries memories, rewrites them. Or invents something else entirely—something survivable.”
Alastor’s mother looked toward the cell, her voice faint. “ And now he doesn’t remember me. Or Charlie. Or… anything at all.”
Bel walked over to Alastor's mom and gently held her hands. " All you can do is try, show him, tell him, and listen to him. I have to go, but when he's calmer, I would like to run some tests." She waved as she walked through the portal.
Lucifer took a deep breath as he held the bag before walking in as Alastor remained asleep, which he didn't mind, as he snapped himself a book to read as he waited for Alastor to wake up, which was a few hours. He only knew he was waking up cause he heard a loud gasp and Alastor rushing to his feet, then the bars. So he quickly got up as he saw Alastor pulling the bars despite his hands burning. " Woah....Alastor, just take a second and....."
" Let me the hell out of here!" As he looked around, he saw two other ladies walk in. “ I have been patient and entertained your questions, but if you're going to kill me, do it already!”
Rosie walked in front of Lucifer and Alastor's mom as she looked at Alastor. “ We don’t plan on killing you, we want to help you remember. I am your friend, that lady is your …….”
“ I don’t care who you are or who you think I am, but I am getting out of this cage, and then I am going to tear every one of you. Hahah oh Lucifer, what will you ever do when you lose everyone you have ever known? For heaven to crumble before all of your eyes.” Alastor looked right at Lucifer.
Lucifer walked up to the bars he grabbed them, and smiled through the pain. “ You’ve said this all already, so find a new way to try and scare me, cause as you saw, you're not getting out of this cage until I say so. You have the ability to see when someone is lying, so look me in the eyes as I tell you Rosie is your friend, that lady is your mother, and I am your fucking partner so accept it.”
He looked at the three as he let go, and he saw that all of them were telling the truth. “ It might be true to you, but it’s not to me. I would know cause I don’t forget, and I wouldn’t be with someone as pitiful as the fallen angel. Now let me the hell out of this cage!”
“ Alley we……”
“ Stop calling me that!”
Roise knew Alastor never did mind his mom calling him Alley, so his saying this now made her quickly think something had happend. Now that she thought about it, Alastor never tried to use his powers in the cage until his mom walked in. “ Alastor, what do you remember about your mom? Answer, and I will make sure these lights never get brighter than this.” He just looked at her, so she turned to Alastor's mom. “ Why don’t you and Lucifer step out?” The two just looked at her, so she gently grabbed their hands and walked out and over to the glass, which let them see in, but Alastor couldn’t see them. “ Real quick.” The two stayed, and then she walked back in. “ Just me and you, Alastor, but if you don’t answer, I can’t stop Vox or someone else from turning these lights on higher for hours or even days, and I know how painful this light is to you.”
“ You want me to give some sob story or tell you my feelings, or perhaps tell you that I know what I did was wrong? Cause I won’t. I don’t have to tell you anything, and it’s all of you who need me to save that girl. Who…..who by my guess, isn’t doing too well, is she?”
“ I have known you since the day you came to Hell, Alastor, and I know everything that happened to you that made you into the man you are. I am no saint, and I kill for fun and for hunger. I am an overlord just like you were, so I know you're not sorry, and I don’t care. Hell I would have killed Adam sooner if I had known and Lilith…..haha bitch deserved it if not more.” Rosie walked closer to Alastor as she spoke. “ We killed and tortured hundreds of souls and ate the good ones. But one thing you held close was your mother; she was everything to you, and when she died, you spent your time killing men like your father, so no one was ever treated the way you were or her. But you tried to kill her, didn’t you? You hardly look at her, and now you don’t like hearing her call you Alley. Something changed, and I want to know what.” She unlocked the door as she clapped two cups of tea and a bench inside the cage, and she sat down. “ Don’t be rude and don't sit either.” Alastor sat and even grabbed the mug as he looked at it. “ Now tell me what’s going on in that mind of yours?”
“ What do you know or think you know?” The lady was speaking the truth, but opening up wasn’t something he was going to do. But she told him what she did know, and it was all true, and there wasn’t even a lie, which was strange when the story yet again wasn’t true. “ Why is that true to you? Why do all of you tell the truth, yet it’s not true? I know the king can’t hide his lies, but he speaks the truth as well.”
“ Cause it’s true, Alastor. You may be from the void, but you came here and made a life as the radio demon, the most feared overlord hell had. But you entrusted with the secrets that I never told, cause we are friends. But on one extermination day, you faced Adam and loss, but he gave you the same thing he gave that girl who is dying. It killed you, but along the way, you fought like hell, and you fell in love and even had a daughter whom you loved with everything in you. You had never loved anything like you did that little girl, and you hated that you wouldn’t be there for her or be the father you wished you had.” Rosie sipped her tea as Alastor did.
“ Yes the father part is true but….but she was just like him. She never cared, never stopped blaming me for just existing.” He swirled his tea as he looked at it. “ I don’t know who that person is you described but that women is nothing close to the saint you described. If anything she was worse then my father.”
Notes:
Why does Alastor remember his mom being bad to him? What will Charlie forcing Alastor to heal Vaggie effect everything? Can Alastor even be hypnotized? Will Amara go see Alastor? Does Alastor trust Rosie or is he working an angle? Will Alastor remember? What did Roo do to Alastor? Will the hotel be left to make the desion to kill Alastor? Will Heaven find out about Alastor?
I am going to try and post on Friday if not next week it will be back to the regular schedule. Bye and thanks for reading.
Chapter 12: Trust
Summary:
Charlie asks for Amara's help with her plan to get Alastor to heal Vaggie as Rosie tries to build Alastor's trust in them. But Lucifer lets Alastor get into his head and does something he shouldn't. Vox tries to hypnotize Alastor, only it doesn't work to the point that Charlie decides to set Alastor free so he isn't treated like an animal but more as their friend. Only Vox uses his time alone with Alastor to find out more about his time in the Void.
Notes:
Alright, we are back to the regular schedule for now, and I made this one a bit longer to make it up. Heheh.....enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
With everything that had been going on with her father, or the man who just so happens to like her late father, Amara couldn't face the man. So she stayed down in sloth were she kept a eye on Lilith who stayed asleep most of the time but she didn't trust her and Husk switched with her so she could go back to the radio tower and get some sleep or hand out with Vaggie who slept most of the time but she was there to help when Vaggie felt sick or shaking too hard. She didn't even ask about everything or how her dad was doing since she knew he was there with the guy. When Angel switched out with her, she went back to the hotel earlier, so she did some cooking for the residents, which helped take her mind off everything. Since there were so many sinners staying, there was a lot to cook, which she didn't mind, but as she was cleaning up, Charlie walked in. " Hey, I am just finishing up, then I will see Vaggie before I head out."
" Actually, I wanted your help, but I don't want you to feel forced to say yes to it or anything." Charlie walked over as she wiped the counters off, and Amara washed the dishes.
I was so strange that she put the dish down in the water and looked at Charlie. " Alright?"
" I know you have avoided talking about it, and none of us minds or even mentions him around you, but......" While she saw Alastor, which wasn't easy, Amara had never met Alastor. She had lived her life on stories of Alastor, so when she finally met him and he said all that stuff to her, she knew it had to hurt. Especially Alastor saying the very things Amara grew up struggling with, like being her spare and calling her weak, but worst of all, he said she could never be him, which Amara wanted.
" Charlie, I want nothing to do with that, so please....." She was going back to washing when Charlie interrupted her.
" Amara, I wouldn't ask, but it's for Vaggie. You have seen her sicker and weaker these last few days, and Dad wants to wait a week, if not 2, to try and get Alastor to remember, but he won't. I saw him, Amara, and he's not the man we knew or I knew, and I can't sit back and watch Vaggie get worse when the person who could make her suffering go away is here." When Amara looked at her, she took a breath before finishing. " I talked to Vox, and we are going to do it tonight, but I need Dad to leave, which he won't do unless it's for us. I won't ask you to see Alastor, I just need you to keep Dad away for an hour. Roise leaves at night, and Grammie has to go back home today, so it's the perfect time. I will bring Vaggie to the warehouse and........"
" Vox said controlling his mind wasn't easy, so what's to make it easy now? You said it yourself, he's not who he was before, and if he is anything like the man I heard about, controlling him will only get us all killed. I love Vaggie, but that thing is too strong for us and ...... and you will need......."
" No.....no dad wants to wait, Amara. I don't care how risky it is, I love Vaggie, and seeing her like this when I can make it go away is killing me. Bel wants Vaggie to stay at the hospital so she's not in pain if ......... I won't lose her, Amara. I......" She wiped her tears as she looked at Amara. " You don't have to help, I can....."
" I can keep Dad busy, but if anything happens you please call. We will do everything for love, no matter the risks, so I will help." Amara hugged Charlie, who quickly held her back as she thanked her. " But he stays in that cage until you are all sure he's under Vox's control."
" We will." Charlie backed up as she finished the counter she explained the plan to Amara. " Amara......I know his words hurt, but you......"
" I will help keep Dad away, but I don't want to talk about him. My father is dead, and some sick women is using his face to hurt us." As the water drained, she dried her hands as Charlie looked at her. " I have a few things to do before tonight, so I have to go.
Just like that, Amara was gone, but how could she be upset with Amara after everything Amara went through and growing up without Alastor? But one thing was for sure : they were getting Alastor back, and she was getting her whole family back.
In the year he had known Alastor, he knew his mother as kind and loving but never violent. She treated all of them like family, even him and Charlie, which she didn't have to; she didn't care that he was king and would put him in his place like she did when she heard about what he did to Amara. But for Alastor to remember her worse than his father had him worried not just for Alastor's mom but for Alastor, cause his mom is who gave him that touch of humanity, the kindness, so without it ....... without any of it they looked at a heartless man. All he could do was hope. He held Alastor's mom, and she tried to back away in shock, so Rosie got Alastor to tell her more. " We know none of that happend, so we can......."
" He.....he thinks I'm a monster Lucifer........he....he thinks I hurt him, that I beat him like his father did.....I...I know it's not true, but the evil lady turned my son away from me . Who does that? Who makes someone suffer so much and put these lies in their head to hurt them more?" One time....one time she put her hands on Alastor, which she quickly regretted, but never did she call him names or blame him or none of the awful things Alastor said she did.
" Someone who was out for vengeance. Adam said the guy down there betrayed Roo and she wanted him to pay but from what they told me ....... she was pissed." Lucifer just looked at Alastor, wishing he would remember or snap back to himself, but he didn't. He just sat there with the eyes he looked into years ago and confessed his feeling to were still th ere but that rad hair he curled up to was now black, his body somehow thinner but the smile ..... that fucking smile still gave him butterfiles just like it did all those years ago.
She put her hand gently on the one-way glass as she looked at Alastor. " My poor boy ....... Lucifer, we have to find a way to make him see the truth , seeing is believing."
Seeing was believing, and he could make Alastor see, which quickly had him smiling. " I have an idea." He quickly walked to the door and knocked bef ore walking in as he looked at Rosie. " Sorry to interrupt, but Rosie, can I talk to you out here , please ?" She nodded as she stood up and walked out with him. " Rosie, I can make him see that year I had with him. Hell, I can make him see his time with you as well."
" He is just starting to trust me, Lucifer, so forcing are memories onto him might not be the best decision right now. Maybe in a few days we........"
" Rosie, it wouldn't hurt to ask him, and it's real. Seeing is believing, and he is confused about why everything we have said is true, yet he doesn't know, but this could help him see. I can't make any of it up either, but we need him on our side, Rosie." While he could just wait until Rosie left, he wanted to do this with her support. " Rosie, he thinks his mother hurt him when she was the most important person in his life, and without it, he is heartless."
Alastor's mom walked over and gen tly put a hand on Rosie's arm. " Please, how can we watch him suffer when we h ave the answers for him ? We can ask, but I will leave so he's not suffering more."
Roise sighed as she nodded. " You don't have to leave."
" I do. But you both keep me updated and bring my son back to me , please ." She kissed Lucifer's forehead , then hugged Rosie before walking out.
Lucifer walked back into the room with Roise as Alastor stood up, looking at them both. " You want to know why what we said is true , cause I can show you. I might be the devil, but my powers can't lie, not in this way."
" Your powers can't lie, yet you do? You lie to the people around you, the people you say you love as well . Tell me why lie to your own children?" Alastor held his hands behind his back as he looked down at Lucifer. " How about how you lied to Lilith in the garden? You never warned her about what would happen if you kept seeing each other unless you wanted to fall, you wanted her to suffer, you wanted to bring free will to the world? You were an outcast, hated by your own blood, even the one who looked just like you, which had to hurt the most when he was the one who made that push that knocked you out of heaven."
" We're not talking about me, and I just want to show you what we know, that's it." He held himself so he didn't cry, and Rosie even rubbed his back, which helped. " I don't have to ask, yet I am. You are powerless still, and if you say no, then I still have to go in there to give you your next dose."
" You're a pathetic excuse for a king. No wonder you will live the rest of your time alone. Perhaps you should get back to that old habit of your's cause no one needs you, and you're simply a laugh to everyone, even to heaven, which has to hurt. It was only a few weeks ago when you were back to wishing......."
" Enough, I just wanted to ask so you could connect some dots, but fine if......." He walked to the door of the cage as heunlocked it, but as he opened the door, Alastor interrupted him.
" She doesn't know, does she?" He didn't need an answer as he turned to Rosie. " He wanted to kill himself after his little girl found out how much of a liar he was and left him. Does isolation make you suicidal, your majesty? How about being alone with no one around you to love you?" Even as Lucifer forced him to his knees, he kept going. " Do your daughters know that in just a few hours of being alone, you stopped taking those meds and then wished for death? How painful it must be to know that their father only cared about himself again, that you didn't care about them enough to stay with them, but then to lie to their faces about it ..... hell all of them ...... you only care about yourself which is why I don't need to break out of here cause you are only secounds away from snapping."
Once he injected Alastor, he grabbed his face as he looked him in the eyes. " You know nothing about being a parent or what a real parent looks like. But I will show you." Fuck asking and waiting cause he was showing Alastor his memories. From meeting Alastor for the first time to lying in Alastor's bed with him as he died. It was seconds, and when he let go, Alastor just looked at him tiredly, so he let him go as he walked out. " Get some sleep and think about all of that, cause it's all real." He watched as Alastor collapsed to the ground , fighting off the sleep but failing.
Rosie grabbed Lucifer's hand once Alastor was out and pulled him outside the warehouse. " What the hell happend to asking and giving him the choice?!"
" I.....I...." Did he really just do that?
" You let him get in your head, Lucifer, which is what he wanted. But did you .....did you really try and kill yourself a few weeks ago?" Rosie may be pissed but if Alastor was right then they had another problem on their hands. Lucifer didn't say anything, which gave her the answer she needed. " Lucifer, you need to tell everyone so Alastor doesn't use it to turn them against you, cause......"
" But I didn't do it, and it was just a painful thought, and I wasn't taking my meds, but I am now. It won't happen again, I don't think he will tell anyone after what I showed him . Please , if Charlie or Amara were to find out, we would just go back to them not talking to me, which is why I stopped taking t hem to begin with , and you all need me. I am the only one who can......"
" We all need to be open with each other, and lying is just going to make everything worse. I have to go, but do the right thing, Lucifer, and when this is over, you're getting help." Rosie wanted so bad to tell, but it wasn't for her to say much less for her to even repeat .
" When this is over, I will have my family back, and I won't ever get to that po int ever again. "
Never did he think that his friend would change so much, yet seeing him like that hurt more than he ever thought. Feelings that he thought he dealt with quickly came back when he saw Alastor's face again. His face still the same, even his voice, but his powers stronger, but how much he now wished it wasn't Alastor. Looking at him just brought back all that heartbreak, so he stayed away the best he could but found himself watching Alastor through the cameras rather than working or sleeping. So when Charlie asked him to go forward with the plan, he spent the day trying to remind himself that the Alastor that he loved and called a friend was gone. Cause it was easier than accepting Alastor had been alive this whole time in that hell. When it was time, he zapped to Amara, who was sitting at the radio tower. " Hey, kid, you ready?"
" No?" Amara had been trying to focus on anything but everything going on , but the guy's voice was stuck in her head, driving her crazy. " I know I won't see him, but..... but my dad will talk about it and I....."
" Look, kid, I get it. I have been having a hard time with this whole thing, so just ask your dad not to talk about it. Say you wanted to get his mind off everything just for a few hours. If anyone can handle it, it's you, kid. But I need to know you're behind me when I get there, cause I don't want to be there any longer than you do." Vox walked over as he gently closedAmara's book and looked her in the eyes.
Just a few hours with her dad and Vaggie will make her better. She can suffer a few hours if it means Vaggie's will finally stop, and she will be better. " Alright, now get out of here." Vox smiled, then zapped away.
Vox zapped to the warehouse to find Lucifer sitting there watching Alastor as he slept, but he didn't look at Alastor any longer than a second, but in that short time, he could see whatever was going on in Alastor's sleep with either scary or painful. " How's it going so far?"
" He's been out for only a few hours since the dosage was higher but I feel like shit for making him sleep like this. Even before Alastor hated sleeping alone cause it brought those nightmares back, so now I can't imagine how much worse it is for him." He had to hold himself back from running inside and holding Alastor as he sle pt, just so he knew Alastor wasn't suffering anymore.
" I mean, if it keeps us all safe, I think it has to be done as much as we hate it. Is he any closer to remembering?" Vox sat down and kept his eyes on Lucifer only.
Lucifer took a moment, then explained everything that happend, including him showing Alastor his memories. " I let him get in my head, and I just wanted him to understand. Rosie was pissed cause she has been working on him trusting us and it had been working."
As he was about to answer, he saw Amara walking up through the cameras. " Oh, Amara's here, why don't you go see her and I stay here? I don't mind."
" Amara." Lucifer quickly stood up and walked outside, excited to see Amara , but also the idea that she was coming to see Alastor. " Oh Froggie, I'm so happy to see you. Did you come to see you fa....."
Her dad hugged her, which she didn't mind until he started to bring him up and so she pulled him off. " I wanted to see if you wanted to grab dinner together. I don't want to talk about him, but I know you have to be going through a lot, and some time away would help. I can cook if you want, but I need my assistant to help."
Lucifer looked back at the door as he fidgeted with his ring he looking at the door and Amara. " I .... I don't know if I can leave him. What if something happens or .... "
Vox zapped himself outside. " Lucifer, I can call if anything happens, but you could use some time away after everything. Spend time with Amara and clean yourself up. Hell ..... take a fucking nap you look exsausted."
Did he look that bad? Vox sadly had a point, and he was hungry and desperately needed a nap. " Alright, but call me if anything happens, and I gave him a new dose so he shouldn't be a threat for a couple of hours, but just in case Rosie has the next....."
" I got it, now get the hell out of here before I change my mind." Vox rolled his eyes as he looked at Lucifer.
" Fine." Lucifer turned to Amara, who smiled at him as he opened a portal to the palace. " Oh, and Vox....if I see so much as a scratch on him, you're as good as dead."
Just like that, Lucifer was gone, and he zapped back into the room as he sat there watching Alastor until he suddenly woke up in a panic as he pulled on the bars. " Pull all you want, you're just hurting yourself cause you can't get through that."
" Who the hell are you?!" Alastor let go of the bars as he looked at his burnt gloves, then at the guy.
" The name is Vox, I'm an overlord here in hell. Enough about me, I want to know if you can still absorb dark energy without your powers." Vox crossed his arms as he looked at this version of Alastor, who slowly sat down on the ground as he started to laugh suddenly. " What's so fucking funny?"
" The king is gone, so stop me if I'm wrong, but you and the princess wish to have me heal her little friend, right?" The only person who had asked something similar was the princess, asking him to heal her friend.
" Yeah, we need you to heal her cause time isn't on her side, so can you take it a way or not ?" He stood up and bent down to look Alastor in the eyes. " Lucifer said he had everything he had when you were here. So you saw how sick you were and even your death, which is all happening to this girl."
" Boo fucking who. I weep for your friend, but I will tell you what I told the princess , which is that I won't do it. I know it's a main reason why I am still alive, so you are better off killing me, cause the girl will die and I won't stop it." Alastor just laughed harder, even as Vox stood up. " Besides, she will be lucky to be dead so she doesn't see what happens next."
Vox zapped into the cage as he forced Alastor to his feet and slammed him into the bars, yet he just kept laughing. " We will see whose fucking laughing when I am controling you." But as he tried to start, he stopped when he fell to the floor.
Alastor pinned the man down as he laughed harder. " All of you sinners will be under our control, but you're too weak to handle me. I do n't even have my powers, so your plan won't work."
" Oh, it will." Vox was a bit surprised at how strong Alastor was , but he managed to zap Alastor off as he grabbed his head tightly and zapped him harder, making him scream out as he tried to hypnotize Alastor again. But as he tried, he found himself struggling to keep it up to the point he unknowingly was squeezing Alastor's ear, and he even started to scream. Ultimately, he failed as he let go to catch his breath, just like Alastor was. " W...why....?"
Alastor slowly sat up as he wiped the blood from his nose. " I am not a sinner, so a mere sinner can't just like how you can't do that to an angel."
Vox looked over as he saw Alastor bleeding not just from his nose but from his ear, which dripped black blood onto the floor. " Then I just need someone to open that mind of yours. You alright otherwise?"
He saw where Vox looked and reached for his ear. " Just fine. But someone's here."
Vox handed Alastor a tissue, then zapped outs id e of the room to find Charlie helping Vaggie sit. " Um, Charlie, I have an issue."
" Charlie.....where....where are we?" Vaggie held the blanket around her as she fought the urge to fall asleep.
" What's the issue, Vox?" Charlie sat down next to Vaggie as she moved her hair from her face.
" I tried, but I can't get into his head. He said it's cause I can only do it to sinners, but maybe you could use your powers to open his mind long enough for me to control it? It's the only chance we have here." Looking at Vaggie just reminded him so much of Alastor, but Vaggie's hair was thinning out.
Before Vaggie said anything, she nodded as she looked at Vaggie and kissed her before standing up and walking in with Vox. But as she looked at Alastor, he wiped his nose, which seemed to have been bleeding. " Vox, what the hell did you do to him?"
" I tried, but it did that to him cause I tried to force it. I tried any harder, it would have knocked me out." Vox unlocked the door as Charlie rushed in.
" You feel okay, Alastor? You need anything?" Charlie tried to see Alastor's ear, but he pushed himself away as he held his hand out to stop her from getting closer. " Sorry."
" I will be fine, but you two think you can force me to heal your friend, well, you're dead wrong, neither one of you knows how it has to be done. You do it too fast, and she's weak; it will kill her, or you do it too slow." He tossed the tissue aside as he looked at the two. " Either way, this plan of yours will fail. You can try and force me, but in the end, your friend is dead. If I had my powers, I could just stop it all now, and she would drop dead right now."
Charlie sat down as she looked at Alastor while tears slowly fell. " I....I know you don't remember, but I would do the same thing for you when this happend to you. I hated that you told me so late that there was nothing we could do to save you; you wouldn't even tell us how bad it was. You made my dream a reality.....I got my dad back, my hotel, and then a sister whom I love so much, but I lost you. My dad was never the same, and I had to help my sister grow up without you. I had to be there when she cried or hated herself for not remembering you. You never wanted to be a parent, but you loved Amara, and she became everything to you; hell, from the beginning, she loved you more than any of us."
Vox saw what Charlie was doing and sat down as Alastor started to back away farther. " I wouldn't be where I am without you, Alastor. You took a chance on me, and we became friends. I have never seen you love anything but as much as it hurt ...... you loved Lucifer and your little family. You told me it was Lucifer being so different from you, and his pure heart is what you fell for."
" I am not this guy you all talk about. I would know if this was a life I lived, and I haven't. Yet it's real to all of you, and I don't understand why? I don't doudt myself ever yet fucking Lucifer put that in my head and I.....I can't get it out." Slowly, he grabbed his head as he held it tightly. " I need it gone, the memories.....the....the feelings..."
Charlie gently reached over, even as Alastor fliched, and gently she touched his arm. " My dad had no right to put that in your head, but you deserve to see the truth. I don't know what she did to you but your safe and......"
Alastor quickly pulled away and moved to the corner of the cage despite the burning. " Safe?! You all keep me locked in a cage, you're no better than her!"
Charlie looked at Vox, then Alastor, as she stood up. " Then let's get you some air." She held her hand out as Alastor quickly looked at her. " Your powers are dampened , and we treat you like an animal, then how can we say we are better than her? Besides, how can we ask for your help when we have been nothing but cruel?"
" Um....Charlie, you can't be serious, right?" Vox watched Charlie help Alastor up, but he stood at the open door. " Yes, his powers are dampened, but he is still dangerous, and he's still after that staff."
Vox had a point, so she turned to Alastor as he looked at her. " You were a man of your word before, and I want to believe you're the same, so I need your word that you won't hurt us."
" Fine, but no touching and trying to control me like you tried." Alastor looked at Vox who looked at him pissed. " I give my word I won't hurt any of you while I am out."
" Thank you now....." Charlie turned to walk out, but Vox still stood there. " Um Vox?"
" You may trust him, but I don't. He can have his face, but doesn't mean it's our Alastor in there, and even if it is, it's been years, if not longer, for him, so he's not the same." Vox zapped a pair of cuffs. " He leaves, then he goes out in these. It's angelic, so he can't break them off, and if he tries, it will give you one nasty shock. Made them just in case." Vox walked over to Alastor as he started to back away, but he didn't care as he grabbed Alastor's wrists and put the cuffs on. " The burn is so you want to come back here."
" Is this all? I thought I trained you, yet you put mere cuffs on me and expect a little shock to scare me? Hahah, I have been through much worse, and honestly, it's sad to think I am the one who......." Vox suddenly slapped him, knocking him to the ground as he laughed. "Weak...... no, no wonder you stay away haha....." Vox picked him up and slammed him into the angelic bars, as he just laughed. " Oh, I am so afraid hahahha!"
Charlie rushed over and pushed Vox off. " Enough! You can come or go home, but I am taking Vaggie to the hotel , and I want to take Alastor too. You can take Alastor to his old room and stay with him while I lay Vaggie down to sleep." Vox sighed before nodding as she walked out with Alastor behind her. When she walked out, Vaggie was asleep, shaking like a leaf, so she quickly ran to her. " Babe, it's okay, I will get you into bed and under your heated blanket, just hold on, please." She looked at Vox, then seconds after she was in her and Vaggie's room, as she quickly helped Vaggie under the blankets and gave her meds to help with the pain.
Once Charlie was gone, Vox zapped him and Alastor to Alastor's old room door. He looked down the hall, then checked the room to make sure no one was inside as he left Alastor at the door. Only when it was clear, he motioned for Alastor to walk in. " Alright, this was your room in the hotel and whatever." He sat down as he poured himself a drink.
The memories Lucifer put in his head flashed before his eyes the more he looked around , but he froze at the bed as every night Lucifer remembered with him flashed before his eyes up to his death. " I.....I died there?"
" Yep." Vox downed his drink as he poured another, but when he looked back at Alastor, he stood there looking at the bed. " What's going through that head of yours, Al?"
Even the comforter was as Lucifer remembered it, but it was Lucifer's pain and love that weighed on him as he walked the side of the bed. " Lucifer's memories are coming back .......... can't we go anywhere else?" He looked back at Vox as he shook his head. " That short fucker put his weak memories in my head and it's too much. You want me to be nice, then let me go anywhere else."
" I don't care if you're nice, cause you are wearing those cuffs which I control, and Charlie said to bring you here. Why don't you take this time to change out of those clothes?" Vox looked back at Alastor as he stood there, cuffed, and started to laugh. " Oh man guess you can stay in those fucking rangs. Why don't you tell me why black?"
He rolled his eyes as he sat down away from Vox. "It's just what I had, but I have spent the last........thousand if not longer in the dark , so I couldn't tell. Guess it made hiding my blood easier. If this were my room, I think I should be allowed to have a drink."
Vox poured Alastor a drink, but he held the glass. " Why were you hiding your blood?"
" Really?" Of course, everything came at a price, which involved opening up. " If I answer you can I take a shower? It's been a while, and I see there's a shower."
" Hmm.......fine, but cuffs go on as you shower." Vox smiled as he looked at Alastor sink further into the chair. " You loved taking hot showers cause it made you feel cleaner than cold, and you used to hate baths before Lucifer."
" Please don't say that name.........but fine. I don't know anything else but being shot in New Orleans, then it was just darkness, but some voices grew over time, and the more voices, the more pain that came with it. Ever have your body ripped apart or experience different deaths over a million times? Or someone's claws dig into you, or even feeling your insides outside your body? If I had my powers, I could show you or even help you feel a simple fraction of what......."
Vox handed the bottle to Alastor with the cup as he rubbed his screen. " Shit. They didn't ..... they didn't do anything like ....... sexually right?"
He almost choked on his drink as he snapped a look at Vox. " What?! Don't ask something like that!"
" Sorry I just herd about some guy.....shit......what was his name......Greg?.....no......David?..........No.....Oh it was Diego. But I......." Alastor quickly stood up and walked away. " Where are you....."
" I answered your question, so I would like to shower now, and I will figure it out." Alastor slammed the bathroom door behind him as he closed his eyes and took a deep breath before starting the water.
Maybe it was too soon, but he sat there as he heard the water start. But after a couple of minutes, he walked over to the bathroom and popped his head in, and he saw Alastor's shadow inside the shower. " Sorry, but I wanted to check in and see if you needed something else to put on, which I see now is a yes." Alastor popped his head out from behind the show curtain, and he saw Alastor's red hair coming out. " Was .... was your hair dyed?"
" I don't know, but privacy? But yes, I will need something else. I had to rip that awful suit off." When Vox closed the door, he went back to his shower and was careful not to look at himself or touch his body too much. When he finished, he wrapped a towel around his waist, but he couldn't put a shirt on with the cuffs on, so he popped his head out. " Um.... Vox, do you think you could take these off while I put a shirt on? I can slide it on, then you can put them back on."
" Do what you can, then come out here." He wasn't changing anything. " Relax, I have seen all of you. You might not remeber but we fucked during your fun little deer rut."
" Ew." Alastor closed the door back as he did what he could, but a shirt was impossible, no matter how he tried, so he opened the bathroom door. " Fine, but you can't say anything or tell anyone."
It was strange, but when he stood up and saw Alastor walk out with his signature red hair, he couldn't help but smile , but it quickly faded when he saw Alastor's body lathered in scars to the point that some of his hair wouldn't grow from the thick scars. " I am going to kill......"
" You can't say anything now, take these off so I can finish." Once Vox took the cuffs off, he quickly threw the button-up shirt on as he finished Vox handed him a coat. " I had nice style." He put it on, then held his wrists out after he put the gloves on as Vox put the cuffs back on just as someone knocked at the door, making him jump, only to see Charlie walk in.
Charlie froze as she looked at Alastor.....their Alastor, red hair, and then his suit. " I.....I was going to see if you were hungry....."
" Oh, I'm fine dear .....but .....but may I ask what this plan is? " Alastor looked at the two who kept looking at him. " What?"
" I can get Rosie to fix your old outfit if you want, but I can show you around since everyone is asleep?" Charlie walked closer, and he looked and sounded just like the day he walked through the hotel doors.
" I never liked that one, it was quite tight and boring. But if you don't mind, I don't have much interest in looking at this place more. Your father's memories are enough." He walked over to the fireplace he sat down, and picked up his drink. " Ugh, who is choosing this awful music for this radio?"
Vox rolled his eyes as he turned to Charlie. " What's your plan here, Charlie, cause the longer he's out, the more dangerous this gets. Then Amara can't hold your dad for long and ..... and I don't know how well he will take all of this. "
He had a point but she wanted to try something. " Alastor why don't you come with me to the kitchen? I am kinda hungry and you have always been a better cook then me."
" I don't cook much less go into someone else's kitchen." He downed his drink, then stood up and looked at the two. " Look, I appreciate you letting me clean up, but Vox here has a point. What is this plan? It's late, most are asleep and......."
It was late almost almost morning. " How do you like hospitals?"
" Fuck." Alastor and Vox both spoke at the same time.
It was nice to get away from everything and relax and spend some time with Amara. Cooking together was always a lot of fun, and eating to the point he was about to pass out was kinda fun too, but it was tasty. With a full belly, he was ready to sleep, and Amara even laid down with him as he fell asleep. Sure, he needed to get back, but he was so comfortable and warm that he found himself sleeping longer than a few hours. When he woke up, it was early morning, which had him panicking, so he quickly got up and snapped himself dressed. But before he left, he pulled the blanket over Amara and kissed her goodbye before teleporting away . When he arrived, he couldn't breathe as he saw the cage empty, and he quickly called Vox.
" Vox, where the hell is Alastor?!"
" Oh, that is all on Charlie, but we are in sloth, but relax, we got him the next dose so he doesn't kill us. Charlie can explain everything here."
" Charlie? You both don't understand he could........"
" I said the same thing so I don't need to fucking here it. I stayed to make sure this guy didn't hurt anyone."
END OF CALL
Lucifer quickly portaled to Vox only to find him standing in a hospital hallway. " Where is he?"
" Relax, I just stepped away, he's in there, cuffed." Vox just pointed to the room as he started another call.
" If you fucking hurt him I will kill you." Out of all places to take Alastor, why a hospital? A question he kept asking himself as he walked in, only to find Charlie sitting beside Alastor, who, in just one look, had him frozen. The red hair was back and he was in his old clothes again. he looked as the day he met him, and just one look and everything came rushing forward.
" Dad?" Charlie stood up as she saw her Dad locked on Alastor. " Dad, breathe. It's okay."
" Why is he looking at me like that?" He tilted his head, yet Lucifer remained frozen. " He's going to pass out."
" No, he's not." She barely touched him, and down he went as she quickly caught him and helped him to a chair.
" Told you." He picked up the newspaper and started to read.
" I like the old version of you better." She sat by her dad as he lay on her lap, as she watched Alastor just laugh. " Laugh all you want, you married my dad anyway."
" I did what now?!"
Notes:
Why did Alastor shut Vox down when he asked about Diego? How will Lucifer be when he wakes up? How long will they be able to keep Alastor out of the cage before he tries something? Will Lucifer's memories of Alastor affect Alastor? Will Lilith face Alastor again? Will Alastor remember before it's too late? When will The Challenging take place? Will Amara ever face Alastor?
More to find out this week, so bye......heheh.
Chapter 13: Jealousy Isn't Your Color
Summary:
Lucifer wakes to see Alastor back to his regular physical self, yet not the same personality as Charlie talks to Alastor and tries to get him to heal Vaggie as she worsens, but he won't. Vaggie makes a dramatic next step as Lucifer finds out more about Alastor's condition. But one elevator ride has Lucifer quickly back in love with Alastor, and the two spend some time together, only someone unexpected shows up a the wrong time.
Jealousy Isn't Your Color
Notes:
Enjoy, and heads up, there are some darker flashbacks, but I didn't put a warning since it's not too detailed.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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He didn't just pass out , right? Especially in front of the guy, he was trying to prove he wasn't pathetic or weak. Yet when he slowly opened his eyes, he saw he was lying his head on Charlie's lap as she ran her fingers through his hair, which always felt nice, but fear wouldn't let him move. He could feel someone behind him, so he faked being asleep until he her the door open and heard Bel's voice. So he sat up only to see Bel laying Vaggie down, who looked exhausted and so frail to the point that if someone touched her too hard, it would break her. " Bel there has to be a way to slow this down at least some right?"
" Not here, at least. Maybe if she were in heaven, it might, but it would only give her a few extra days. This is much stronger than it was with....Alastor."
" Ouch. Haha, perhaps do the phrase pull the plug?" Alastor was laughing until Vox punched his arm. " I don't need powers or my hands to beat your ass so hit me again asshole."
" Your the asshole that girl is dying and you are the only one who can heal her yet you won't do it. So I will punch you again if I want, cause this can be over." Vox punched Alastor's arm again, but as Alastor was about to hit him, Charlie yelled at them, making them stop.
" Would you both cut it out!?" Charlie carefully moved Vaggie's hair from her face, then looked at Bel. " There has to be something we can do to give her more time."
" We need to keep her here so she isn't straining herself anymore, but Charlie, I don't know how much more of this she can take. If Alastor can heal her, he needs to do it before it's too late." Bel turned to Alastor. " You and Vaggie may have never been close, but she was by your side when you were in her position. She never treated you as less than and stood up for your wishes."
" Hmmm..........that was her choice, not mine, and it was she who let herself be taken by Adam. What friends you all are for not being there for her. You know who was there and knew.....Lilith. She saw Adam do this very thing to hundreds, if not thousands, yet she left her daughter's girlfriend with a man with vengeance." Alastor put the newspaper down as he looked at the lady in the bed. " Ah, an exorcist who fell from the golden city to here, how unfortunate, but if you keep me out of that cage, it's some way of you trying to get me to save her, then put me back. Cause now I really won't save her."
" Why the hell not?!" Vox grabbed Alastor and slammed him into the wall as he yelled.
" All of those exorcists deserve to die, if not like she is. They used us as their play toys for thousands of years, then they say it's to keep us down there, but none of them could leave. They made every scream louder yet never killed us no matter how much we fucking asked! They never fucking left us alone and she blamed me!" Alastor hit Vox, making him let go as he stood up, holding his cuffs up as Vox pushed him hard to sit back down.
Her Dad started to walk over to Alastor, but she stopped him as she walked over and knelt on the ground. " I'm sorry they did that to all of you, Alastor, but Vaggie has killed them and hates what they do. We used to have extermination day once a year, and that last one, Vaggie fought on hell's side, killing hundreds of them. Can.....can I touch your hand?"
Everything in him screamed no, yet he moved his hands down as Charlie gently touched the top of his hand. " You only keep me around for her, and once she's dead or healed, you will all just force me back. Cause I won't ever be this guy Lucifer forced into my head, he had a different life than me, he never went through what I have."
Carefully, she held both of Alastor's hands as she looked him in the eyes. " You don't have to be him to be in our lives, Alastor. You can be whoever you want to be, and we will never let you go back to that hellhole hole Alastor. You don't deserve to be treated like that cause you are not a bad guy, you may do bad things, but I can see under that smile and those scars that there is a good man in there."
"You're not just saying that so I heal your girlfriend?" He looked over at the lady in the bed as she twisted and turned in pain.
" No. As much as I can't lose her, I can't lose you again either . Vaggie is my world just like you are to my dad and ...... and Vox." Charlie smiled as they both looked at Vox, who quickly turned red.
" What?!" Lucifer quickly stood up, looking at Vox red. " I have every fucking right to kill your sorry ass right here."
" Haha, I guess he does get jealous." He looked back at Charlie, who was still giggling. " I still need that staff but.......I will heal her in exchange for it, and my word, I will spare you three."
" Alastor, we can't give it to you." Lucifer calmed down as he stood behind Charlie. " Roo wants that staff to free herself, and we can't risk her getting out. Maybe you don't have to go back to the cage? You could stay at the hotel or, better, the palace, where you don't have to be confined to a room and can walk around. You had never been there before, so no memories will come up, but I can keep you safe from Roo as I work something out." They couldn't lose Vaggie, and as much as he hated to think about it, they could force Alastor, but it would only take the progress they had made disappear.
" Who the hell says he wants to stay with you?" Vox turned around and joined the conversation.
" I don't know maybe the fact I am the only one who is strong enough to fight Roo or maybe the fact I am married to him dumbass!" Lucifer held himself back from ripping Vox apart, but he was seconds away from snapping.
" I only see one ring and no wedding dip shit. You only have a grieving mother's word and a ring. Like Charlie said, Alastor shouldn't be forced to be who he was before, so stop forcing him!" Vox smiled as he leaned back, enjoying Lucifer's anger. " Al, if you want, you could stay with me, and I can even set up the radio if you want, so it plays what you like."
" As thrilling as all of these offers are, my answer is no." Everyone looked at him, shocked as he pulled his hands to himself. " You want your girlfriend healed and alive, then bring me that staff. Which I know none of you will do so . Take me back, cause you won't get in my head. Just so you all know, when she dies, she will take my place in that pit, but everyone will want their turn at having revenge, even the exorcists."
Charlie quickly broke down into tears as Lucifer held her, but Vox quickly punched Alastor's arm as he forced him to stand up. " Have some fucking compassion since your the one letting Vaggie die yet you say your better then Adam. Let's go."
" I am better than that man, and I never did that to her." He pulled his arms to stay, but Vox yanked him forward. " I could have never told her, and you all think she was in some better place, which she wouldn't be. I may not be compassionate, but I am honest."
Vox slammed Alastor into the door frame. " There is a fucking time and place to be honest and your just fucking heartless."
" Please, you of all people should know what having a heart gets you. Besides, if Lucifer's memories showed anything, it was having a heart that got me in this mess to begin with." He quickly pushed Vox off, but as Vox charged at him, Lucifer stood in the way.
" Knock it off, both of you!" Lucifer pushed the two down to sit opposite of others , then walked over to Charlie as she cried in the bed holding Vaggie's hand. " If you won't heal her, then you get to watch every painful fucking secound."
" Now that sounds like fun haha." He looked over at Vox, who flicked him off, and he only laughed harder until Vox zapped away.
They all sat there for what felt like hours until Vaggie woke up. Only Charlie had asked Bel to take Alastor away as she explained everything to her. She hated seeing Vaggie like this, or the fact that Vaggie might never go back home. Slowly,she and her dad explained everything, including everything with Alastor and him being here with them, which Vaggie slowly understood. " Vaggie, if you don't want him here, we can....."
" No.....no , if he won't help and Lucifer puts his memories in his head, then seeing this........this will bring back the time this was him." Slowly, she moved her head to Charlie's shoulder. " Why did he have good days and not me?"
Charlie slowly rubbed Vaggie's hand as she rested her head on Vaggie's. 'Cause you got something stronger . But it only makes you more bad ass to me." She looked over at her dad as he tried to hide the fact that he was crying. " Dad, why don't you make sure Bel hasn't killed him while I help Vaggie wash off?"
Lucifer looked at the two, who just looked so brave, yet he sat there in tears. " Alright.......we will find another way, Vaggie." Vaggie just weakly smiled as he got up and left. He slowly walked down to Bel's lab so he had time to clear his head and hide the fact that he was still crying even as he left. When he walked into the lab, he saw Bel but no Alastor. " Bel, where is Alastor?" Bel pointed at the corner where Alastor sat reading, so he walked over. " What are you reading?"
" Book on world domination." Alastor simply flipped a page without even acknowledging Lucifer standing in front of him.
" What?!" Lucifer quickly looked at Bel, then Alastor, before snatching the book, only to find it was a book on medical procedures , which , when he looked at the two, they both started to laugh. " What the hell is wrong with you two?! It's been a hard day and....."
" Lucifer, breathe, it was a joke, so laugh." He went to grab the book back, but Lucifer pulled away as he looked at him, about to cry. " Are you seriously crying over a joke?"
" No!" Lucifer wiped his eyes, but they just kept going. " Everything with Vaggie and reliving what I did with you then......THEN YOU! You look and talk like him, yet you hate me! You get along more with fucking Vox then me! You won't even give me a fucking chance to show you who I........"
" Hate is a strong word, but why would I have an interest in knowing the guy who is crying over a little joke? Vox ....... he's .... how do I say ...... Interesting, I find parts annoying while others ..... similar. But I owe you nothing after you forced those memories in my head , I could hardly look anywhere without your stupid flashback, or my old room, and seeing everything we ever did. I may see, but I feel nothing for you, Lucifer, but disgust." Slowly, he stood up and looked down at Lucifer before grabbing the book back. " If it's too much, then leave. You left your daughter before her mother, so I am sure she can handle this without you here since you have all this power yet her......"
" Alastor enough." Bel walked over and stood in front of Lucifer, who was shaking. " Why don't you sit there and read, and I will handle Lucifer." Alastor just sat down without a word and got back to reading while she walked Lucifer over to a chair. " You can't let him get to you, Lucifer, it's what they want."
" I know, but..... but almost 20 years of begging and wishing, and he's here, but it's not my Alastor. All it took was one look, and I was in love again, but hearing all of that is heartbreaking to the point it hurts. Then everything with Vaggie and not being able to stop all of this." Bel handed him some tissues, but as he wiped his tears, Bel hugged him, only making him cry harder. Only when he finally let go, he see they were out in the hallway. " Why are we out here?"
" My lab is soundproof, so he can't hear us, but while he was out, I went ahead with my CT scan, which I have been going through while he's been reading. I won't scare you with details, but I think, despite everything, the Alastor we all know is still in there, so I am giving you this. It will show some easy ways to help with the memory, like eating certain foods, sleeping, and exercising. You already put your memories with him in his head, now you just have to help him understand it, rather than him trying to figure it out on his own."
Lucifer looked down, only to quickly look at Bel when he read the topic. " This says trauma-induced memory loss."
" We know time down in the void is much longer than it is here, while it's been almost 20 years for us, you understand, for him it was thousands, if not millions, of years down there. Then he spent all that time in the dark, broke the man we knew, but from what he saw and from Lilith, they tortured which is why I don't think he likes sleeping. But you can't expect all of the Alastor we knew to come back ; it's an impossible ask, and I fear what would happen if he did start to remember. I have seen some who go through less than Alastor who do manage to go back to their old lives , but there are more serious cases who find themselves splitting into 2, sometimes more, but ........ worse ..... they kill themselves." She quickly grabbed Lucifer's hands as he started to tear up. " I am not saying any of that will be Alastor, but I didn't want you to find yourself surprised. Look, if it even gets there, we have amazing programs here to help. Why don't you stay here and calm down, and I will get Alastor for you?"
As Bel walked in, he leaned against the wall as he looked down at the pamphlet, and with a deep breath, he folded it into his pocket as he closed his eyes and imagined everyone together and happy. The idea had a smile on his face, just as Alastor walked out. " Alright, let's get back."
He waited until they were in the elevator. " You know these aren't necessary, right?" He held his cuffed hands up to show Lucifer.
" Well, you did try to kill all of us, so they stay on for everyone's safety and your own." Could the elevator be faster, or better yet, not so awkward?
" Can't really hurt anyone without my powers, and I am not a hands-on fighter." Lucifer didn't say anything and didn't even look at him. " It's your daughter who is keeping me in this germ-infested place as these cuffs burn me. Come on, I am not stupid enough to do anything with you around." Nothing. Was he playing something or trying to get to him? " Mon cher, please just take them off for a moment."
Why did he have to call him that? How much he missed hearing that voice and that nickname come from his mouth. " P...please don't call me that unless you mean it."
" How do you know I don't?" Alastor walked over to look Lucifer in the eyes. " You put those memories in my head cause you want this again, Lucifer. What we had was love, and what the story we have, I mean, for me to come back after all this time? I know you love romance, and we never did have that first date, did we?"
Slowly, he grabbed Alastor's hand, and it felt just like it did before; even after all this time, he could never forget. Over come with himself he couldn't stop himself from hugging Alastor and it was everything even if Alastor wasn't hugging him back. " Keep going."
It was a bit shocking that this was working, but he focused on a poster so he didn't lose it from Lucifer touching him. " We both enjoy reading and.....and a strong drink. You have a strange obsession with rubber ducks, and you like being held as you sleep." He was panicking, but he couldn't push Lucifer off when he was close to getting the cuffs off. " Um.....you....you liked petting my ears and.... you're a bath person." Lucifer just kept holding him as he tried to remain calm, but he was failing, and the stupid elevator wasn't moving. " Why aren't we moving?"
" I stopped it, now continue." Sure, the place was terrible, but it was just them, it was his Alastor, even if it was his own memories, Alastor said.
" You hated that Charlie favored me more and.....and some baby? I helped you become king again and be in Charlie's life, even got you off those pills. Oh, you stopped wearing that awful hat." Lucifer started to hug him tighter, even rubbing his head on his stomach. " You know what....I...I don't need these off, so you can let go now." Nothing still. " Lucifer let go."
He didn't hear anything after Alastor mentioned the pills he had helped him stop taking, that he started taking again after he died, to the point he almost killed himself, and worse. Guilt had him holding tighter, but suddenly he was pushed into the wall. " Hey, what the.......Alastor?" He was pissed until he saw Alastor holding his head as he slid down the wall to the floor annd as he looked closer he saw Alastor even shaking. " Shit I....I'm sorry I just....."
Hands everywhere touching him, hurting him, never a face, just a voice over the others. All he could see was the darkness and the chains, but what felt like hours was seconds only when Lucifer touched his arm, and quickly he moved to the corner, the best he could as he tried to break free. " GET THESE OFF OF ME!"
" Woah, Alastor, stop! You're going to hurt yourself." Lucifer started to reach over but stopped when Alastor jolted again. He snapped the elevator back on as it started to move.
He tried pulling, even twisting his hands, but nothing, not even pushing with his hoof, but he jumped when they started to move. " Why are we moving? What is this?!"
When the doors opened, he stopped anyone from walking in as he knelt in front of Alastor, who he slowly realized was having a panic attack. " It's an elevator, Alastor, and we are at are stop if you want to get out of here? Or we can sit here for as long as you need, just breathe." He slowly sat down as he watched Alastor slowly calm down, a nurse even handed him a water that he scooted on the ground to Alastor. " Better?" Alastor just nodded as he sipped the water, then slowly stood up. " Why don't we pop in for a second, then we get out of here for a bit?"
Alastor didn't say anything as he followed beside him; he didn't even look at him, not even as they walked back into the room. Alastor just sat down in the corner as he looked at the ground. He found Charlie sitting on the bed on her phone when he walked in. " Hey Charlie, where's Vaggie?"
" She wanted to get changed on her own a nurse gave her a gown. What did you do to Alastor?" Charlie turned her phone off as she looked at Alastor.
Lucifer looked at Alastor, then Charlie. " I am going to take him to get some fresh air where no one will see him. I wanted to come by first." He talked with Charlie but he didn't say anything about the elevator or what Bel said. They both turned around when they herd the bathroom door open but as Charlie walked over to help she froze as he did.
" I...I know it was a lot, but.....but lying in loose hair gets itchy and it hurts to move to itch.......it's not that bad, right?" Vaggie held the IV pole as she looked at Lucifer and Charlie, then Alastor. " Alastor, how does it look?"
Alastor looked over when he heard his name. " Oh.....a pixy looks better than what you had before. Just don't go bald, it won't fit your face."
Charlie was speechless as she walked over and carefully ran her hands through Vaggie's hair. " I.....I love it."
" Haha, really? I did my best, but my hands started shaking, so it's sorta choppy and I......I" She quickly grabbed Charlie as she started to see stars.
Quickly and carefully, Charlie and her dad helped Vaggie into bed as her dad pulled the blankets over and snapped the heated blanket from home, which seemed to help. " You need anything? Should I call for help? I can get a nurse or...."
Vaggie weakly grabbed Charlie's hand. " Sleep with me?"
Charlie just giggled as she carefully laid in the bed, as Vaggie laid on her and instantly fell asleep. " Dad, please be nice to Alastor, and I will call when she wakes up."
Lucifer nodded as he walked over to Alastor, who still sat there looking at the ground. " Come on." He opened the portal as he waited for Alastor to walk through first, before walking behind him. " Alright, you were never here, and no one else is here but security. So are you hungry? I can't cook much, but Amara left me some leftovers for lunch or.......Alastor?" He just stood there looking at the cuffs, then it hit him. " Let me show you something, and you can get some air." He walked out to the garden, but he sat down when they reached the flowers. " It was something Amara and I did together, and we both loved it. She told me that some days, while I was away, she would come out here and read cause it helped her clear her head and I......I do when I need a break from my room or office, or days when.......when you're not being here hurt more than ever."
" It's nice out here." As he looked around and took in the strange sensation of fresh air which didn't burn, he looked down when the burning stopped, only to see the cuffs off and in Lucifer's hands. " W....why?"
" I pushed way too hard earlier, and I shouldn't have done that or seen that it was uncomfortable for you. Besides, it's day and your powers are dampened, so you can't do anything." Lucifer stood up as he grabbed a rose and tried to hand it to Alastor. " Here....I know it's stupid, but my favorite flower is rose's but I never knew yours."
" Oh?......I....I am not sure, but you should keep that." He rubbed his wrists as he looked at the rose then Lucifer.
" I have tons in different colors, so here, call it an apology gift?" Lucifer put the rose in Alastor's hands, and almost instantly, it was dead. " Well.....shit. How about a drink? Hmm? I can give you some time alone for a moment, but I need your word you won't leave."
" Hahah, sure, I give you my word that I won't leave." Once Lucifer walked off, he stood up and looked around, careful not to touch anything as he took in the sights. He enjoyed the air, which helped take his mind off earlier. Eventually, he sat back down as he fixed his gloves to hide the little skin that was showing, and just as he finished, Lucifer walked out with a bottle and two glasses.
" I am sure you have some questions, so how about you ask me and I ask you? If it's too much, you can just say pass, and I can ask something else?" Lucifer snapped the drinks full and then handed one to Alastor, who he was shocked was still sitting there waiting. " You can start since I know you have more to ask."
He waited until Lucifer sipped his drink before trying his own, which was nice. " I have a year's worth of your memories of me, yet it stops the moment that lady from earlier took this body. I guess I am curious why it stopped? I am glad I don't have more but curiosity."
" Oh....I just wanted to give you the memories I had with you, not without you. Cause that would be almost 20 years of memories to put into your head, which might have been a lot even for you. Besides, I don't think we are there yet for you to see after everything." Lucifer had poured himself a stupid apple juice and Alastor the real stuff, cause he didn't drink; it scared him that he might become who he was before. " Alright.....you can't be mad, but I know what you told Rosie about your mother, so I guess I wanna ask if I gave you her memories, would that help any?"
" No. I don't care to even speak of her, and I know you both were watching. I might not have my powers at the moment, but I am far from stupid." As he finished his drink, Lucifer snapped it full again. " For you, I was gone almost 20 years, so I know you had to find some else, right? At least tried going out there? I see how much being with someone on that level meant to you."
Could he tell him the truth, or would he just use it against him? This was Alastor, and if he was lying or even skipping on details, he would know. " You ask deep questions but.......but after you were gone.....I....I wasn't in a good space and tried everything to get rid of the pain of not having you around, and found myself in a place you would have hated. I...I wasn't myself and.....and I am not proud of how low I got, and I slept with some guy I think, but at the time I....I thought it was you. It wasn't abuse or anything, and I loved it until I woke up and it wasn't you, and I just felt sick and dirty. But it was the last time and I never dated or tried to meet anyone, cause no one was you. No one would make me feel the way I did with you, and it was easier to accept that than to see it for myself."
" Well.....did you get a name at least?" He had assumed Lucifer might have dated or slept around, but that was far from what he thought.
Lucifer slowly looked up at Alastor. " It was some douche name I can't remember but I am sure he's dead. He just got high and apparently fucked anything that walked and seeing me there he..........um.....could you not tell anyone about this? I don't need......"
" High? So you did go back to the pills after me didn't you?" He guessed it, but how Lucifer acted, he didn't see someone with a pill problem.
" It's my turn, um.......you have been nice to us, is it because you're planning something to get free? Cause I.....I can let you go if it's what you want, but I need your word that you will leave that staff alone and won't hurt my friends or family." He didn't want Alastor to go, but he also understood, after all that time, Alastor might want to live a little even without him.
" I spent years fighting, so I learned when you should or shouldn't, and right now I don't see a reason to fight. I suppose I just miss talking to people who weren't out for something, but I need that staff Lucifer, so setting me free, I will only go for it and the holder." He could see Lucifer's disappointment. " I will never be free until I finish what I was sent to do, which includes your suffering as well."
Why did it hurt that Alastor didn't mention wanting to be nice to him or anything, but the same thing as when he first came? " You want me to suffer, and I have for the last almost 20 years because I lost you. When you died, I gave up, and I broke every promise I made you. I started using but it wasn't enough, and I got desperate to the point I just wanted to die to be with you again. And I did.....I died a few times, but they brought me back even though I was just begging to die so I could be with you again. I had a daughter who just lost her father, who would grow up not knowing the amazing man you were, and Charlie, who was grieving while also trying to take care of me and Amara." He was crying to the point that he put his drink down just to hold himself. " I have scars that remind me why I don't go back, but it hurts everyone around me. I got help and went to rehab, but it wasn't easy. Everyone hated me, beat me, called me names, made jokes about you being dead, and instead of fighting back, I took it cause I deserved it. The only friend I had killed himself, which gave me the push I needed to get better, but I missed so much of our daughter's life, Alastor. I promised to be there for all of her first for you, and I wasn't. Then every day was a battle and I slipped up every now and then, but I....I used are daughter to replace you. I....I lied just so she would never leave me, but it only made things worse."
There is no right word to say after all of that, and he sat there as Lucifer cried, holding himself, and he didn't know what to do or say. After going through some of the memories, he put a hand on Lucifer's shoulder, which to his surprise quickly had Lucifer looking at him, not even crying anymore. "Losing someone isn't something I am used to, and I guess you either, but.....But I see how much you loved that version of me, and I see that golden heart we talked about. You love so much to the point it is your own addiction, so numbing that it is a natural response." He pulled his hand back to himself as he put his drink down and looked at his hands. " I never knew love, but I remember reading about it when I was alive. Reading about the happiness it brought, how having someone by your side can make the worst times in your life better. While I just see it as a weakness now doesn't mean it has to be one for you. You're what.......11,000 years old?"
" Haha, I am not.......how do you think you are? Or.....or let me say in your time?" Lucifer might be smiling, but the answer did scare him.
" We are at this point in age? Haha....I guess......8......maybe.....900,000 years maybe a few million? But here.....130? I think I like this time better, it doesn't make me older than you hahah...." Lucifer just looked at him as if his eyes were about to roll out of his head. " You have to be near there, right?"
" I....I lie and say a couple thousand but.....But I guess a billion? I kinda stopped counting but......shit. You were......fuck Alastor I'm sorry. I....I never knew or even thought you would end up back down there again, you would rather death than to go back, and you.....you did. Oh god, I am terrible." Not only did he break every promise he made to Alastor, but he never even went down to the void and looked for Alastor just in case. He had done his reading and made theories, but never acted on them cause he was told Alastor was gone. " I read a lot about the void like an obsession, but Sera said you were gone. Why did I listen to her?"
" It's not like she would have taken you without you starting a war with heaven. Besides, she will get what's coming to her soon." Alastor swirled his drink as he sat back laughing.
" You can't seriously think you can fight heaven, right? Sera gave me the books so I could learn more and let me stay involved, although she never told me she was using the exorcists to punish everyone down there. We just wanted to make sure Roo never got out." Lucifer looked at Alastor as he kept laughing, which he didn't understand. " Am I missing something funny?"
" Oh.....oh you are....Lucifer, did you not think that if exorcists were going down there without your knowledge, that would be it? Hahhaa." He sat up and looked down at Lucifer. " Sera knew I was down there and made a deal with Roo to keep me down there until the end of time." He sat back as Lucifer quickly stood up, and he watched the devil come to form, which was quite the sight. " Heaven threw you out, then lied to you and kept me away. Yet you let them sit on their little thrones with all the power when they have killed, they have sinned, yet.....yet you're down here. You could be on the right side of this Lucifer, and perhaps she will spare hell? I mean it's heaven who locked us away, heaven who knew......I think you have suffered, and while you kept that goodness, she used her's to seek revenge like we all have."
If Sera knew Alastor was down there, then everything nice thing she ever did was just a lie, just so he never asked or demanded to go looking for Alastor. She knew he was alive, yet kept him away. " She deserves to be thrown down there.......things need to change! I mean, how does she stay i charge when she has ordered thousands of deaths?! Torture blinded souls?! KEEP YOU AWAY FROM ME!!"
Wow, this was quite the reaction and one he favored. " Things need to change, Lucifer, it's been too long, and your father isn't doing his job, but we can. That staff in my hands can tear heaven apart, and we can be the judges. That council that threw you away should be in the dark, tortured till the end of time. Everyone sins, yet some end up in heaven? How is that fair?" He stood up as he looked down at Lucifer, who was flaming in rage. " The void is meant for the worst of the worst yet....I see sinners here who do far worse than I have ever done, yet I am the monster? With heaven gone, all of them will look to you, Lucifer......."
" W...wait I....I don't want heaven to be destroyed. Yes, they need new people in charge, and the ones who have sinned should fall like me, but.....but you're talking about war." Was he pissed....hell yeah but desorying heaven wasn't something he wanted.
Alasor laid his hands on Lucifer's shoulders. " A war is coming, do you want to be on he right side of it to protect yourself and your family or the other side? I only have so long before heaven finds out I am gone, and if they find me here........just....just think about it, Lucifer. It's an offer to save the little you have left."
Slowly, he leaned his head onto Alastor's hand on his shoulder as he looked up at him, but much calmer. " I won't let heaven hurt you ever again, Alastor. You may not remember, but I do....and even if you hate me I....I will always love you."
Love? How could he love a monster like him? How can he love someone so broken? He didn't know who he was or what was going to go down yet......yet he felt for a moment....guilty. " You don't know me, and I am not him, Lucifer."
" I know. But I want to know you, and even if you're never who you were before, you will always be the man I fell in love with. I plan on keeping one promise." He stood his head up as he looked at Alastor, prepared to grab his hand, but stopped. " I give you my word that I won't lose you again, so if you.....you hate me still, then....then kill me. Cause I won't live another 20 years without you, even if you never love me back." He looked down at his hands as he made an angelic blade appear, which had Alastor quickly backing away, so he pointed the blade at himself as he held it for Alastor. " You are right about love being an addiction, and all it took was that hug earlier and your words to bring it all back."
" Grab it and kill him, Alastor."
Her voice had him stepping back as he looked at the blade, then Lucifer as he stepped closer. " I kill you, then they will come for me and......."
Lucifer softly smiled as he looked at Alastor. " Not if I allowed you. I gave you my heart and body once before, and I am giving it to you again."
" GRAB IT NOW!"
He grabbed it, but as her voice, the fear told him to do it, something else that he had never experienced wouldn't let him. " Lucifer........."
" Dad?"
Notes:
What will Amara do seeing Alastor holding an angelic blade to Lucifer? Why didn't Alastor kill Lucifer when he had the chance, or as Roo instructed him to do? Will Lucifer confront Sera about her lies? Will Vaggie be healed, or will it be too late? Will Lucifer be able to keep Alastor from going back to the void? Will Alastor's memory ever come back to him?
More to come soon.
Bye for now.
Chapter 14: Strange Feelings
Summary:
Amara finds out Luccifer gave Alastor the angelic blade to kill him which only pissed her off more until Alastor steps in changing her anger to him. Lucifer finds himself protecting Alastor, even taking care of him when he's knocked out, only to wake up and find Alastor in a state he had never seen......scared. Alastor is given 2 days to get the staff before being sent back to the void, or Roo controls him to do as she wishes, making him almost desperate to find a way out, only he finds himself not wanting to hurt Lucifer. But they talk about the upcoming Challenging, and Alastor gets details about it from Vox and tells Lucifer only it's all a part of his plan.
Notes:
OMG I finally got some radioapple for you die hards I'm sorry it's not much but trust is all I have to say for now. But enjoy.
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Chapter Text
Amara had come by after finishing work and some training, but as she was looking for her Dad, a maid told her he was in the garden, only when she walked out to see Alastor holding an angelic blade pointed at her Dad. All she saw was this man who forced Husk almost to kill Angel, then he killed Lute, and quickly she let all the rage through as she blasted him through the wall, but she was just getting started. " You hurt my friends! You killed one of them! Now you try to kill my dad!! You can have his face, but you're nothing to the man my father was!" She sent her shadow tentacles to grab the man, yet he sliced through them.
" Amara, stop!" Lucifer quickly ran over, but as he touched Amara's arm, he found himself on the other side of town, and quickly teleported back to the palace.
He blocked each attack or used the blade to cut through shadows. " Would you calm down for a moment?!" She didn't listen as her eyes turned red, which had him standing up straighter. " If you knew anything, then you would know I don't have my powers and I don't do weapons like this!"
" I am going to send you back to that hell and make sure you never hurt any of us again." As she smiled, she vanished and appeared behind the man, quickly sending him through another wall. As he stood up, she was going to go for the kill, but her Dad suddenly ran in front. " Dad, move!"
" STOP! I gave the blade to him, Amara, and I understand your pissed at what he did but he was following orders." As Amara calmed down, he ran over to Alastor, who was dusting himself off. " Are you hurt or....."
" I'm fine." Alastor looked at the girl as he walked over the debris. " Let me guess your Amara? You're the holder of that staff, yet you hardly landed a hit, which makes me believe you don't know how the hell to use it, do you?"
" Sorry, my dead father didn't leave many instructions, and you want to come at me about how I fight, yet you're the one bleeding." She smiled as he poked at the blood. " Sad, honestly thought you would be like before yet....."
This was hilarious as he looked her in her eyes . " Sad? You managed a few hits on me while I have no powers, but you want sad was how well you fought back as I sliced your little friend's head off hahah." Suddenly, she tried to punch him, but he grabbed her hand, twisting it. " I wonder how she's enjoying her new afterlife? Hahaha!" He let go as he pushed her to the floor while he laughed. " I would think one of the king's daughters could fight, but I guess I'm wrong."
" Alastor enough." Lucifer walked over to help Amara up , but she slapped his hand away as she stood up. " Amara, I'm sorry I....."
" What if he killed you?! You gave the man who wants us all dead the very weapon to kill you! There you are only thinking of yourself, not any of us who would be crushed to lose you!! I LOST ONE PARENT, I CAN'T LOSE YOU TOO!" Amara pushed her Dad off as he tried to grab her hand again. " You chose him but he doesn't give a shit about any of us!! HE IS LETTING VAGGIE DIE AND YOU CHOSE HIM!! You want him, then it's him or me, cause if I see his face again, I will......"
" Geez, is this what having children is like, cause that's annoying. Look, he only gave me that blade to test me, alright. I have made it clear I don't love , and I am not who he thinks I am. It's smart not to trust me, but killing me with those moves will be impossible. From everything everyone told me, you took over as this radio demon, an overlord is feared by all, yet ..... I am not scared. Like I said before emotions make you sloppy and if you pissed at Lucifer then don't." Why was he even getting involved? But he walked over as he handed the girl the blade. " I don't trust or give any sign of weakness, which is why a smile is key. It keeps your enemies guessing and makes sure you're the one in control. But don't try to be someone you're not, cause I can see through the act."
" I could kill you with this right now." Amara held the blade tightly as he pointed it at the man's neck. " You come ruining my life, I am trying to build, but you wear the face of someone who you knew would hurt my dad, so I should kill you."
" Hahah, you should but the face thing, I just came like that. But I know you won't because of him." Alastor looked at Lucifer, who was moments away from tears. " He put his memories of me in my head, and I have been putting things together, and I know this face hurts you more than you let on. My voice, my attire, hell, everything about me is screaming at you inside that your dead father is standing right here, but I am not him. That man I might have been died years ago and adapted to my reality."
" I don't give a shit what you have been though but you will never be my father. I hate you." But one look at her Dad as he looked at her with eyes full of tears, and she dropped the knife as he ran into her arms, hugging her.
" I'm sorry, and thank you for not killing him. Do you want to have dinner together?" Lucifer looked up at Amara, but she didn't look away from Alastor as she held him tighter.
" You don't deserve him you never will cause you can have his face but your a fucking monser who needs to put down. I spare you now for my dad, but next time I see you, prepare for me to kill you." Amara tried to read anything off the guy , but saw nothing.
" Hahah that's fine but next time.... I am getting that staff, and it will be you trying to block my hits." He looked at his jacket as he fixed it, but he saw his arm bleeding. " I will go clean up." But as he started to walk away, he appeared back where he was. " What?"
"You're not going anywhere alone, and you are going back to that cage either until you heal Vaggie or I kill you for not saving her." Amara pulled her phone out as she called Vox, saying that he needed to take Alastor back, and then hung up.
" I offered to heal her, but in exchange, I want that staff, but her death wouldn't be on my hands, but your little girl." As he laughed he saw Vox appear and quickly storm over pissed but before he could say anything cables quickly wrapped around him sending him to his knees as another coverd his mouth.
" Lucifer, what the hell?! You took the cuffs off?! His powers could have come back or worse!" Vox looked down at Alastor as he tried to pull himself free, but he just made the cables tighter. " Remind me never to leave you alone with him again."
" He wasn't going to hurt me, and he didn't hurt Amara when he could have. You can't treat him......" Lucifer was going to free Alastor, but Amara held him back.
" Dad, it's not him and never will be him. Remember, he killed Lute in the blink of an eye, and he could have done the same to you or me. Papa is dead and won't ever come back, and this being here is only hurting you more." Amara grabbed the cuffs from her dad's pocket and handed them to Vox. " Put him back in the cage like the monster he is, and I will come by and we will force him to heal Vaggie."
Lucifer pushed himself free as he ran over to Alastor. " He isn't a monster! We have no idea what he's been through, and he only did as he was told . But I'm putting my foot down and as king I forbid anyone from going into his mind or forcing him to do anything against his will."
Vox grabbed Lucifer's shoulder, but it was slapped away . " Lucifer, you're getting too close, and you knew we could only keep him here for Vaggie, but when or if she goes, he has to go back. Heaven will kill us if they find out he's here, so we need to send him back and make sure he can't get back out." Vox pulled the wires around Alastor's wrists as he cuffed him, but as he realized the other's Alastor suddenly bit his arm. " FUCK!"
He couldn't go back ....... She would be worse than ever before just because he didn't kill Lucifer when he had the chance. " Lucifer, you gave me your word I wouldn't go back."
" You won't I....." Lucifer started to reach for Alastor, but suddenly he broke into screams as Vox electrocuted him. " STOP!! STOP!!" When Vox did, he caught Alastor as he fell to the floor. " I won't let them....I gave you my word, Alastor, and I won't break it again." Carefully, he scratched behind Alastor's ear as he passed out, but once he was out, he looked at Vox. " He is staying here tonight so if you have a issue then to fucking bad. How can we say we are better than Roo when you both want to treat him the same way she does? He has been a thing for too long, so even if he's not who he was before, there is a part of him who doesn't want to be what she made him to be." He slowly picked Alastor up as he slept. " We want him to heal Vaggie, then we need to stop treating him like an animal. Charlie was right, and Vox, you hurt him again, and I will lock you away for a couple thousand years. Amara....I love you, and thank you for trying to protect me, but I need you to trust me." Lucifer pressed a soft kiss to her cheek before slipping away.
The sounds of earlier still echoed in his mind: Alastor’s scream, the electric surge, the way his body had collapsed. He hadn’t just passed out. Vox had electrocuted him, and he had done nothing to stop it. He carried Alastor in his arms now , every step weighted with guilt and care. Alastor’s body felt too light, too still. A slow trickle of blood had soaked through his shirt at the shoulder, but it wasn’t much. Still, it was enough to keep him alert. Enough to remind him that Alastor was real and breakable.
He entered the bedroom in silence. The air felt reverent, like even the walls held their breath, so he snapped the record player on which played Alastor's music that he always listened to, so he fell asleep. Lucifer walked to the bed and gently laid Alastor down, brushing the hair from his face with trembling fingers. He looked peaceful in sleep. But it was the wrong kind of peace, the kind forced by exhaustion and pain, not comfort.
Lucifer retrieved the power-dampening medication. He held it in his hand for a moment , then leaned in close. “ I'm sorry, love,” he whispered.
He did it quickly, so he didn't wake Alastor up. It worked slowly, gently softening the energy in the room, as though the air itself had relaxed.
Lucifer set the vial aside and turned his attention to the wound. He sat on the edge of the bed and slipped off Alastor’s coat, then began unbuttoning his shirt. As he worked the fabric loose, he murmured quiet reassurances, mostly to himself.
But the moment the shirt parted , Lucifer went still as his breath caught.
The shoulder wound was there, small but raw, but what stole the strength from his hands was everything beneath it. Alastor’s chest and torso were a map of horror. Angry, raised lacerations cut across his ribs and abdomen, long, brutal, deliberate. They crisscrossed over one another, some thick and ridged, some still pink from recent healing. Whip marks. Vicious and countless, some running from his shoulder down past his waist, which stuck out more than before. Layer upon layer. Over and over.
There were other scars, too deep burns, rough circular brands, faint impressions where restraints had once held him. His skin had been torn apart and forced to knit itself back together far too many times. Some wounds had healed unevenly, the tissue warped , tight . Others hadn’t healed at all. Lucifer raised a hand to his mouth, eyes brimming, his whole body trembling. None of this was there before. His heart felt like it might shatter. And still, even unconscious, Alastor wore that slight, empty smile , the kind he used to wear when pretending everything was fine. Except now, it wasn’t charming. It was haunting .
Lucifer forced his hands to move. He cleaned the shoulder wound carefully, gently wiping the blood away as if afraid to hurt him more. He dressed it, whispering an apology with every touch. When it was done, he slowly buttoned Alastor’s shirt, covering the evidence of everything that had been done to him. Not because he wanted to forget, but because he knew Alastor would want it that way. To hide it. To smile through it, which wouldn't be easy for him to even do. Lucifer leaned in, brushing his lips against Alastor’s temple. “ Sleep, my love,” he whispered. “ You’re safe. I’ve got you now. No one’s going to hurt you anymore.”
He gently tucked the blanket around him, making sure he was warm and still. Then he stepped away, crossing to the sofa. He wrapped himself in the old, familiar blanket , the one Alastor had made him years ago that he never slept without, and curled in on himself. It still smelled faintly like him. Like pine, smoke, and a touch of spices. Lucifer didn’t even remember when he started crying. He just remembered staring at the man he loved, knowing he had come back … but not knowing how much of him was still there. Eventually, grief gave way to exhaustion, and sleep finally took him.
When given an order, you are to follow with no questions asked and no wait, yet he hesitated for reasons he couldn't figure out. But while he was physically in hell, his shadow or his real self was back in the void trying to explain what he did, but despite the explanation was pointless with Roo. She was pissed not only for him not following orders but him failing to rechrive the staff in the time she wanted and for allowing himself to be tamed like he was. " I am working it out. I found who holds the staff, but she keeps it hidden in the shadows , but I can get her to use it, and I can take it with no issue . She has no idea how to use it and......"
" ENOUGH!! You are making excuses for your failure, and I won't accept failure!" Roo walked over to Alastor and quickly punched him to the floor. " You are getting fucking soft on me! I am giving you two days to get me that staff or I will take over that broken head of yours, and don't think I will let your disobedience go unpunished either."
As he tried to stand up, she started to kick him into the corner until she stopped due to him coughing up blood. She grabbed him by his neck and held him tightly as she slammed him into the wall. " W....why can't I remember a whole life I had there?"
"'Cause you never had one but here but if you ask or say anything like that again your time is over and ...... "
" I....I will get the staff just no.....not there......" She was lying, only meaning the life Lucifer remembered was really him, but she couldn't know he knew.
She let go as she grabbed Alastor's ear firmly. " Good cause, I would hate for me to do your job for you, cause then I have no reason to ever let you out of here again. NOW GO!"
Quickly, he woke up back in his body, but he was sweating. As he looked, he was in a bed, and the more he looked, he found Lucifer asleep on a sofa. So softly he got out of the bed and went to the bathroom to wash his face, but when he heard a knock, he found himself suddenly clinging to the wall, shaking. " Everything okay, Alastor?"
Fuck did he wake Lucifer up? How did he do it when he was so quiet? How can he get that staff in two days wh en h e can't even use his power? Why was Roo lying about his other life? Why couldn't he answer anything? Why is his own mind hiding information from him? All these questions and not enough time to get it all answered, and if he failed, he would never leave that pit. He couldn't go back. Lucifer could promise all he wanted to, but he wouldn't be able to stop it. Just the thought of everything they did and what she would do if he failed .......... why was the room spinning or the air getting thicker? Even his physical body was failing him, but the more he looked around, the more eyes on the walls and cabinets there were watching him, judging him, and waiting for him to fail to take him back. It needed to stop.....he needed all of it to stop.
Lucifer stood at the bathroom door, waiting for an answer, but all he heard was the sink running. He waited, even knocked again, but when he knocked a third time, he heard that belt he had heard Alastor and Amara do. " Alastor I...I am going to come in alright?" Slowly, he opened the door only to find Alastor shaking in the corner of the floor, holding himself so even slower he sat down at the open door as he looked at Alastor. " Hey Alastor, you need to breathe, alright? Get out of your head and listen to me just for a moment, please." Nothing until he noticed the blood on Alastor's ear, which looked fresh. " Alastor, try to focus on the music in the room, and slowly breathe." He didn't look up, but he seemed to be calming down to the point that he moved to sit in the other corner. " Want to talk about it?"
" No." Just the feeling of his own skin made him sick, or the reminder of each scar and how each is burning into his mind like some of the others. " You should get some sleep. I will stay here."
" Alastor, you don't have to stay on the bathroom floor, so why don't you get back into bed and maybe some sleep might......." He had been through a lot with Alastor, but never had he seen him scared, yet he w as.
" No. No more sleep, no more dampening my powers, just lock me up. Anything is better than going back." Two days was all he had, and if he failed, he would be back in the dark forever, and he couldn't do it. If she took over, it only made it worse. No matter how hard he pulled his hair or ears, nothing came to mind on how to make this plan work. " Better yet, you could kill me. You kill me, and all of this would be over, your daughter back on your side, and she can't come to the surface. You could just go back to your life before all of this, before......"
Scared? More like terrified, but why? " Alastor, I won't kill you, I can't. I don't want to go back to missing you, cause having you now, I can't let you go. I will keep you......"
" You can't!" He rubbed his eyes, then stood up and walked out of the bathroom.
Lucifer quickly followed behind Alastor as he walked out of the bathroom. " Alastor, I can. I don't look like much but I...."
" You can't protect me, you couldn't then, and you can't now. I am simply a shadow in a physical form, which you can protect, but not the shadow. How do you think I am alive?" The girl was protective over Lucifer, maybe he could.........before Lucifer's memories, this would have been a n easier fix , yet now he can't seem to get himself to want to harm Lucifer despite everything. " It's like a ghost without a body. While this one belongs to me, she can easily get into my head and do whatever she likes, cause....."
" 'Cause she's your queen." The only thing he could do to a shadow was kill it, so helping keep Alastor safe was an impossible task for even him. " Hypothetically, if she died, who would take her place? Cause before you were her right hand and the only one of her people strong enough to come here, so......hear me out, but......with her dead, would you...."
"You're not killing her, Lucifer." If he had been out for most of the night, it wouldn't have been from the shock but the power-damping drug, which wore out normally by mid-morning, and it was early morning as well. " You should know Vox and Amara are keeping something from you. I can tell by the way they looked and talked to each other. Both also seemed..... exhausted as if they were exercising yet......yet Amara doesn't seem to be a runner, more of a fighter." As he looked at Lucifer, he found hims elf plan ning , but he needed to get Lucifer distracted with something else, and it was working. " I was here for a day before I attacked, and heard about some overlord fight club. Perhaps they were training?"
"You're changing the topic here, and she would tell me if something was going on." Would she, though? Especially after last night.
Alastor sat down in Lucifer's desk chair as he looked at Lucifer. " I don't know. From what Charlie told me, you and her haven't been on the same page, and my arrival ha sn' t helped any . Would you allow her to fight overlords, which could result in her being injured or worse, dead? Cause you said you treated her as if she were me, filling that space I left, so I think you wouldn't let her go, much less think about it." He picked up one of Lucifer's ducks as he looked at it, then Lucifer. " If your memory is right, I fought in those as well and won, yet managed to be shot. But I was top of the overlords, so if she is trying to be me, wouldn't all of them go for her out of anger over me or to finally have revenge?"
" Fucking Mammon I told him no. I told him no more of this shit! I should go down there and stop this once and for all!" Lucifer quickly grabbed his phone, and as he was about to snap himself dressed, Alastor spoke.
" Why stop it now? Why not find out when it is and where, and the morning of, as he gets all excited, you crush it?" He smiled sharply as Lucifer started to laugh.
That was a plan only Alastor would think of, and he loved it. The idea of crushing Mammon's plans on the day just sounded perfect. " Alright, how do we find out? Cause no one will tell me something like that."
He walked over to Lucifer as he handed him the rub ber duc k. " I think I can help with that, but when I get it, you allow me back here for a night. You have a collection of books that fas cinate me." The books were good, but if he heard rig ht, then he just might make that timeline.
Part of the plan was for Lucifer to put him back in the cage, but as per Lucifer, he gave him some books to read, which was nice to take his mind off everything else. The second part was leaving him alone with Vox until 6, but Vox, who, of course, was running late, which he didn't mind, but if his alternative plan was going to work, he needed time with Vox. But as he finished another book there, he was walking in almost exhausted. " Oh, you look a bit rough. Did you get jumped?"
"Pff, no one jumps me. No I am just tried that's all and I have to babysit your ass cause Lucifer needed to go down to sloth. I told him to take you, but he said he had some work to do after, so I was stuck with you." Vox sat down as he pulled his tablet out.
" Oh, I'm sorry for being an inconvenience. If you hate it that much, the answer to your problem is quite easy, and you can just open the door." Vox just laughed at him, but hey, he had to try. " I have spent the last hundred thousand years, if not longer, without a conversation, and I heard we were friends, right?"
Vox put the tablet down as he looked at Alastor. " I was friends with the old you, not this now shut up, I have work to do."
" Just friends? Cause if Lucifer's memory is right, you loved me, which is why I think this is so hard for you. My face, my voice, hell.....everything is as if nothing happend, yet I still broke your heart. Tell me, did you ever move on? Cause I asked Lucifer, and it was a no." He was getting to him, and he was even looking saddened. " You never did get over me, did you, Vox?"
He slammed the tablet down as he looked at Alastor pissed. " How could I?! Your last words were you telling Lucifer to give me a chance that.....that they would need me. I had just gotten you back, then you were dying, and it killed me seeing you like that, and Lucifer hating my guts for still loving you. Even though you made it clear you didn't feel the same .... you were my best friend. We talked about everything and l aug hed over are kills or how we tortured sinners. We used to kill for fun, then laugh about it."
" You cared a lot, and while I doubt I will be that guy again, everything you said does sound like fun. Did the hotel tell you about how I killed Adam or perhaps Lute?" The guy missed his friend with whom he could flaunt achievements and compete.
" Amara told me you sliced Lute's head clean off, which I have to clap my hands to you for doing that hahah......but Adam, she said all she heard was him screaming. When they walked out of the closet, they saw his blood everywhere an d his head. I just guess you cut his head off, then ate his body." Alastor just laughed at him as he stood up. " What?"
" I would never eat someone as disgusting as him." He looked at Vox, who seemed almost excited to hear, as he held his hand so Vox could see. " I ripped him apart to he was still alive then broke every fucking bone then when the limb moved like a noddle I tore it from his body as he just screamed but I made him taste himself before I took his beating heart and poisined it as it burned though his body until I ripped that head off. I only left it a s I reminder to all of them, but for his body......I gave it to someone else who is too afraid to come for me hahha." Vox never dropped his smile once. " Adam now lives in the void with no body to ever come back to hell or heaven, and he will spend forever in the dark for an eternity of pain and torture."
Why was he even scared? But Adam was a asshole who deserved to die but that was darker but it was Alastor dark which he missed. " Only you could make me afraid, but do I have a story to tell you?" He told Alastor stories of his most gruesome kills, which they both laughed at just like old times, to the point that he was sitting on the floor passing back and forth a flask.
" How about other overlords? I mean, you have to want them dead, right?" This was fun, but not with a timeline expiring tomorrow. " I have this memory of Lucifer in this arena where I fought some wolf thing who challenged me."
" Oh, that was The Challening. It's for only high-power demons or sinners, and only the best go. But two go in and only one comes out. I think this time I have 4 challengers? You.....you were Mammon's favorite cause you gave him a show which I tried to make up for, but the fear and thrill you brought was unlike anyone else. Hahah I remember one year you came out appeared and the guy just about pissed himself cause you made the arena go dark." Vox was a bit was ted, but he wasn't going to say that out loud cause he was having a blast.
" Is it happening soon? Is that why you're so exhausted?" Sure, Vox was drunk, but he was just getting his answers easier this way.
Vox looked at Alastor for a moment, then downed he last of the flask. " Tomorrow evening in the Gre ed tunnels, so Lucifer doesn't find out. You know you really got to Amara, and she has been pushing herself to be better to the point that I keep going through hard drives. That kid isn't joking around and even learned some of your old moves. I would say you should come, but no one is supposed to see you, and.....well, we only get one plus one, and I am in a group, and Amara got Husk going with her."
" So the point is to kill your opponent?" Vox nodded. " You kill them and gain their power, so for Amara, she must have to pull every string she has to live up to me, right?"
" Oh yeah, kid wants to prove she earned her spot at the table of top overlords but.....but honestly.....I don't think she can kill as easily as you did. She is using her anger from.....well....this you and everything going on to push her and she has killed but.....but nothing like you did."
Vox started telling stories of the good old days with Alastor, which had them both laughing until Lucifer walked in.
Lucifer heard Vox telling Alastor stories of them, but his speech was slurred as if he was drunk, so when he walked in to see an empty flask, he crossed his arms as he looked at Vox, who terribly stood up as Alastor laughed. "You're drunk, really? Geez, Vox, go home. I will take him home with me to clean him up."
" O....Ok." Vox looked at Alastor as he swayed. " You know...... I miss this ....could..... could we do this again ....? Oh....I...I need your word that you won't....kill me.....like...Adam."
" Haha, I give you my word and sure to do this again." It was generally nice to laugh and even talk with someone who didn't want to ask abo ut his past or wanted to push him to be someone he wasn't. Vox may have done a lot of talking, but the stories were nice.
Vox giggled then zapped away as Lucifer opened the door to the cage. " Let's just get back cause I don't want to ask." As Alastor stood up, he opened the portal to his room, where he quickly threw his coat off as Alastor sat down on the couch. " So did you get what we needed?"
" Oh, I did. It's tomorrow evening in the Greed tunnels." Lucifer started laughing as he sat down beside him. " Wh y did yo u hide the fact that I left my name to Amara?"
His smile quickly dropped as he looked away from Alastor. " I......I don't want to talk about it. Maybe ask me another time?" Alastor just nodded. " So......I know this was part of the deal, but....."
" But you still have to give it to me, don't you?" Lucifer slowly nodded. " Well ..... can I take a shower, then you do it? I was on that disgusting floor cause it's so hard to put a chair in there or a bench."
" Haha yeah, I tried but it was built so fast we didn't have time. But sure....it might sound weird, but I have your soaps from your old room here. I like the smell, so does Amara, so sometimes we used it and it was like you were there with us." Lucifer quickly stood up as he blushed and grabbed Alastor a towel.
When he walked into the bathroom and Lucifer looked at him for a second he saw that Lucifer was blushing. " Haha, that's cute." Did he just say that out loud? Holy shit he did and Lucifer fucking herd him.....fuck. " I shouldn't be long, can I lock the door? There are no windows and I...."
" Oh no....I mean, of course, I.....I will be in the room if you need me." He quickly walked out as Alastor closed the door, but did he hear Alastor right? Did.....did he say he was cute? Even as he sat down, the moment just played in his head, and as he replayed the moment, he realized even Alastor was shocked, meaning it .... it was true. After a couple of minutes of giggling and daydreaming about the future, he heard the door unlock and quickly got himself together as Alastor walked out. " Hey, I was just about to walk down and get some dinner, are you hungry, cause we could......"
" Not really, and honestly, I just want this part over with." He sat down on the couch as he handed Lucifer the bag.
Alastor didn't even look at him, even as he opened the bag to get the syringe, he just felt like this was wrong. " Alastor I.....I don't want to do this but....."
" But none of you trust me, which I understand. I wouldn't trust a monster like me." He looked over as Lucifer held the syringe.
"You're not a monster, Alastor, you never have." Maybe he didn't need to use this and maybe he just needed to trust Alastor. But before he had a chance to change his mind Alastor grabbed the syringe from his hand. " Alastor wait....give me your word that you won't hurt us and we don't have......."
" I can't do that, Lucifer." Quickly, he injected himself, but as he pulled it out and put it aside, everything started to spin, and his eyes quickly became heavy.
Lucifer gently grabed Alastor's arm making him fall onto his lap but once he hit his legs Alastor was asleep so carefully he ran his hand though Alastor's hair as he hummed to the record. " You could never be a monster in my eyes, my love."
He had sat there with Alastor as he slept in his lap, but eventually he put him to bed as he slept on the couch with his sight on Alastor as he slept. At times, he could hear wimpering, which he didn't think much of until he looked over at Alastor to see him holding himself tightly as he shook so carefully he got up as he checked on him. " It's okay, Alastor, just a few more hours." It was a nightmare one that even had tears slowly falling down his eyes as he held himself tighter, so he slowly walked around the bed and sat down as he slowly scrated the back of Alastor's ears but what he didn't expect for him to quickluy turn over and hold him as he remained asleep. " It's alright, I won't hurt you." He pulled the comforter up to cover them as he sat there and slowly fell asleep himself.
Sleep, for once, was silent. There were no screams. No echoes of the void. No twisted memories dragging him beneath the surface like claws in his chest. For the first time in what felt like eternity… Alastor woke without pain. His eyes fluttered open slowly, his body heavy. The room was dim, but soft, golden light slipped through the curtains from the morning light. The air was warm, still. Quiet with soft music playing along with the soft crackling from the fireplace.
Peace. He blinked up at the ceiling for a few seconds before slowly shifting to sit upright, when he realized he wasn’t alone. His body had been tucked beneath blankets. The mattress was too soft. He was in a bed, but how and why? He looked around cautiously. Then he glanced to his side, and froze. Lucifer was there, fast asleep, face turned toward him. And not just nearby but curled around him.
Lucifer’s arm was draped over his waist, his cheek resting against Alastor's shoulder, his face slack with the kind of peace Alastor found himself feeling almost similar moments ago. He looked… safe. Like being there, just being beside Alastor, was all it took. For some strange reason, his heart jumped in his chest. He tensed for a reason he was unsure of.
So gently peeled Lucifer’s arm away and slipped out from under him with careful precision. He didn’t want to wake him. Not yet.
He moved quietly across the room, thoughts racing, until he spotted the bag from last night. He pulled it open and found them: four syringes, just like before. Perfectly prepared. Exactly what he needed. The plan was simple: use the drug, keep Lucifer out cold and powerless for a few hours. It wouldn’t harm him. It would just make sure he couldn’t follow. It was clean. Efficient.
But as he was finishing up, combing the syringes, something felt wrong. He looked back at the bed. Lucifer had shifted slightly in sleep, one arm now across the empty space where Alastor had been. His brows twitched faintly. He looked… lonely and almost saddened already. He shouldn’t care. He shouldn’t feel this hesitation. And yet…He approached the bed slowly, the syringe in hand. He didn’t even know why he did it, but before he could stop himself, he reached out and ran a hand gently through Lucifer’s hair. It was soft. Silken. Familiar, yet he had no memory of what he felt doing this before, just Lucifer's memory.
Alastor stared at him. The way his lips parted slightly in sleep. How his fingers curled lightly around the sheets. That warmth again, burning under his ribs like a warning. No. He pulled the cap off the syringe.
“ Forgive me,” he whispered. And with that, he pressed the needle into Lucifer’s arm.
Lucifer stirred instantly, his eyes snapping open, half-lidded with confusion. Then fear. Then betrayal. “ A…Alastor?” His voice trembled. And tears formed almost instantly in the corners of his eyes. “ Why?”
Alastor's hand went back to his hair, brushing gently through it.
“ I’m sorry, Lucifer. I won’t hurt Amara. You have my word.”
Lucifer’s breath hitched as the drug took hold. “ Why are you…?”
“ When you wake,” Alastor whispered, “ you can go to her. But I’ll be gone.”
Lucifer's tears slipped down his cheeks as his eyes fluttered closed, consciousness fading like a dimming light.
When he was fully out, Alastor took a deep breath, then gently fastened a cuff around one of Lucifer’s wrists and locked it to the bedframe, just enough to slow him down if he woke early. Before leaving, he crossed back to the couch, grabbed the handmade blanket Lucifer had used the night before, and laid it carefully over him. Then he turned to the door.
“ Time to get that staff.”
Notes:
How will Alastor get the staff? Will Lucifer get to Greed in time to stop Alastor, or will Alastor's plan work? How will Amara handle being face to face again with Alastor, but this time he has his powers? Is Vox catching feelings again? How will Lucifer handle Alastor's betralel? What happens if Alastor gets the staff? Will Alastor keep his word to Lucifer and not kill Amara? What will happen to Vaggie now that Alastor is gone? Will Alastor go after Lilith again?
2 more chapters so hold on tight hehhe.....thanks for reading until next time.
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Chapter 15: The Challenging
Summary:
Amara gets herself ready for the biggest event since becoming the radio demon, but pays Vaggie a visit before heading to the arena, only Vaggie starts to get worse to the point she codes and is given a day left as her body is already shutting down. Amara pushes herself to fight, only Mammon threatens her to have the last fight, and for an entrance like Alastor's, except she has no idea how. A hellhound gets the better of Amara, except someone comes to finish the fight.
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After facing the man who wore her dead father's face, she just pushed her to train harder and even pick up some of his old moves. Cause she was going to win, and after he was next on her list, he was letting Vaggie die and playing with everyone else's emotions, even Vox's, but worst of all.....her father, who was quick to fall back in love with a man not even close to her father. Charlie wasn't far behind him either, but her time was spent with Vaggie, who was doing worse to the point doctors worried that rather than a few more weeks Vaggie might have until the end of the week. When she wasn't training or sparing, she was with Charlie and Vaggie cause while Vaggie mostly slept, her sister laid or sat there crying to the point Grammie was staying with Charlie as well as Angel and Husk, even Niffty. All of them, but her and Husk, tried to stay positive that Alastor would come around and heal Vaggie, but she and Husk knew he wouldn't.
It was just her and Husk now who saw that man for the monster he was, and not as Alastor. But Husk helped her channel that anger and rage into fighting, which she was going to have to do if she planned on walking out of that arena. Weeks and months' worth of training were all going to be paid off today, so she started her morning strong with some new tricks, then paid Charlie and everyone a visit. " Knock knock." As she walked in, everyone had even sadder faces than the day before, and Charlie.....she was a mess. " What's wrong?"
It was too hard for Charlie to even say without crying harder, so Alastor's mom stood up and gently grabbed Amara's hands. " The doctors said Vaggie only has two days at best, but they......" It was hard for her to even say , cause she had always seen Vaggie as one of her grandchildren, so to see her like this, like Alastor had been, was crushing.
Angel walked over gently, putting a hand on Alastor's mom's shoulder. " They don't see her making it that far. But you know Vaggie is a fighter just like Al was so I have no doubt she......"
" Why are we actually accepting this?" She looked at everyone, but mostly Charlie, who sat up and looked at her. " The person who can stop all of this is with Dad. We don't have to let this happen, we can take action and force that freak to heal her. Charlie can look and sound like him, but he died. My father, your friend, died, and that guy is only here to......"
" Amara.....that is Alastor, he has been through a lot and......" Charlie held Vaggie's cold hand in her lap trying to warm it as she tried to talk through her tears.
" That's fucking bullshit! He is lying so he can play with us, why can't....." Why was she the only one who could see what was going on?
" AMARA! That is Alastor, and even if we wanted to force him, we can't. But Vaggie made it clear to me she wanted him to do it by choice, not force, and.....and as hard as that is, we have to accept her wishes just like she did Alastor's when he was in her shoes." Charlie closed her eyes and took a breath, then looked at everyone. " I understand that you're upset 'cause I am too, but Amara, you have to accept that Vaggie.....she.....she won't be here with us much longer. If.....if you can't do that for yourself, then for her.......please."
How could she accept something that had an easy fix? But as she shook her head, the machine started to beep loudly as staff ran in, but everything just happened so fast, and she was standing in the hallways as Charlie cried into Grammie's arms and she held Niffty close. But past that, she could hear the machines still going crazy until minutes later, it was back to before. " Charlie, she's okay, I hear it."
" H....how?" Niffty held her tightly as Grammie held her and Niffty.
Husk answered before Amara could even , his voice rough but clear. “ She can hear better than all of us. Remember?”
Just as Charlie straightened up, still holding Niffty close to her chest, the door creaked open. Bel stepped out, her face already telling them what they didn’t want to hear.
Charlie’s voice broke the silence. “ What happened?”
Bel’s shoulders sagged slightly. Her tone was gentle, apologetic, but unflinching. “ Her body is shutting down. Her lungs gave out, and we’ve got a machine breathing for her now, so she’s not struggling or in pain. She should wake up soon… but I think you should start making some calls. I’m truly sorry you’re going through this again,” Bel continued, her voice trembling ever so slightly as she turned to Charlie. “ And I’m sorry you’re losing someone else so close to you. I wish I could do more. All I can offer is to make sure this is peaceful… and painless.” She gently hugged Charlie, who didn’t even have the strength to cry anymore. “ If you need anything,” Bel whispered, “ just call me.”
Charlie nodded numbly as Amara stepped forward and carefully took her hand. Together, they walked into the hospital room, and only Amara stopped cold in the doorway. There was Vaggie, still in bed. A breathing tube down her throat. Wires everywhere. The rhythmic beeping of the monitors was somehow louder than anything else in the room.
Charlie dropped to her knees at Vaggie’s side, holding her hand tight as tears silently streamed down her face.
But for Amara… it was too much. The machines. The unnatural stillness. The way Vaggie didn’t even look like herself. She couldn’t breathe. She turned and ran out of the room, through the hall, until she burst outside into the cold air and collapsed against the wall, crying in gasps she couldn’t control. She wanted to be strong, for Charlie, for Vaggie, but the reality had finally cracked through her armor. She’s dying.
She only stopped crying when she heard footsteps approaching.
Husk sat down beside her, his usual gruffness softened by the weight in his voice. He handed her a tissue, then looked out at the horizon like it held answers neither of them could reach. “How… how can I look at her and say I did everything I could,” Amara whispered, voice shaking, “when I haven’t? I promised her she wouldn’t die… and she is.”
" She knew Alastor wouldn't do it and that Charlie or you would even get to the point of trying to force him, which she didn't want. But I think you should pull out for later and stay here with everyone for whatever time Vaggie has left." Anyone who called out automatically lost unless they had a valid reason, which Amara did.
But Amara shook her head, slow and firm. “ No. I’m not quitting.”
She stood up, fists clenched at her sides. “ Vaggie would want me to fight . She believed in my cause. She believed in me. I’m not letting that belief die with her. I’ll show her I won. I’ll show her that what she taught me mattered . That I’ll carry on her name and my father's.” And with a snap of her fingers, she changed, her old clothes vanishing into the suit Velvette had tailored for her. Her eyes burned with purpose. “The Radio Demon,” she said through gritted teeth, “ doesn’t back down from a fight. Not now. Not ever . ”
Husk let out a long sigh and stood too , popping his back with a grunt. “ Shit… You really are her kid.” He gave her a small smirk, one hand on her shoulder. “ Alright, kid. I’m not letting you go in alone. I’ve got your back.”
His eyes sharpened. “ One thing though… You better fucking win this, for Vaggie.”
Amara’s lips twitched into a smile, her eyes still glistening. She looked down at Husk and nodded.“ We are winning this shit.”
Husk had to call Angel and tell him they had to handle something, then assure him it wasn't them going after Alastor. They went straight to the arena, which was already getting packed, but Husk helped keep her calm as they walked through. But as she walked through the others fighting they all went quiet as they looked at her pissed so she made the staff appear and quickly the pissed looks changed into anger but also some even being a bit impressed which she took with pride. " So, since we're here early, can we practice any or what?"
" Haha, no, you needed to come before the audience arrived, but I can give you some pointers." He didn't care that everyone laughed at him, but as they got past, a green puff of smoke appeared quickly, showing to be Mammon.
" Oh shit look at you?! You look just like your old man. Say, why isn't he here? Cause he knows how important this shit is to me and he wouldn't leave me hanging....right?" He just looked at the two seriously for a moment then started to laugh. " Anyways are you going to give us a show like your old man?"
" Well, this is my first time here, but I can try. I heard about his entrances and how sinners would buy tickets just to see him in real life." She couldn't push herself to be him, but all she wanted was for everyone to see her as they did him, the fear, but also the amazement.
" THAT'S GREAT!" Mammon quickly hugged Amara tightly. " I will have you be the last so you can wow everyone hahaha! Vox tries but nothing compares to the radio demon even the fucking name sells!"
" Woah Mammon, that's nice in all but this is her first time seeing this why don't you try next time? She could......" Alastor made it look easy but he had no idea how Alastor did it and Amara was nowhere close to that kind of power and if she failed then Mammon would come for her.
" People saw the radio demon was fighting this year, so I am sold out, so I am going to need a show , so you can bring me one, or I make sure you lose, don't believe me, ask around, hell........ask him."
Amara looked at Husk, who nodded. " I can give you a show."
"Thank Mate, I will be waiting." Mammon quickly vanished.
Husk just pulled her, and she walked completely blinded by how she was going to pull off an entrance even close to her father's. The recording never worked, and she only knew based on stories she had heard or read. She had just managed to get a shadow minion when her father could do hundreds, if not more. " Husk....I....."
Husk closed the door as he made Amara sit down. " Kid you don't have to make it huge like Alastor did, just enough to wow. Perhaps you can use that angelic side? I saw you have a demon form which is kinda scary and you can turn all the lights off."
He had a point, while she couldn't do half of what her father did, she still had something no one here had.....angelic powers. One's Lute showed her how to use it even to blind people which quickly gave her the idea of what she was going to do. " I got it, Husk, but first I need to know anything I can use against my first fight."
Even though Husk wasn't an overlord anymore, he had the insights and skill of one still, so any weakness he saw in her opponent, he told her , and she used it cause someone's weakness was her benefit. Only when she stared did she find even more and battle after battle she was winning even the killing part wasn't so bad she just thought of everything going on and used her rage. She even watched some of the other fights and found herself using some of the moves she had seen and even found weak spots from her opponents as they fought just like Rosie showed her. But while yes she won every fight, it was the last one that weighed in the back of her head since she had to make that big entrance, she even watched her final opponent's fights and he was a beast. He was a hellhound but he had every move she had mastered and in his last fight he tore his opponent apart but he looked at the camera the whole time.
She couldn't ask for Vox's or Rosie's help but she did have Husk who helped keep her calm. " Husk I have won because I was able to study their moves but this guy.....he's.....he's fast, too fast."
Husk was about to answer when his phone rang and he looked to see Angel so he answered on speaker.
" Hey, Angel, we are almost finished and should be back soon."
" Husk...she's not doing too good when she woke up she just looked at Charlie and then was out. We have been trying to call Lucifer but he isn't answering his phone which is making everything harder on Charlie. She needs her family, Husk."
" Look we should be done in an hour then we can get Lucifer but for right now don't say anything about them to Charlie."
Amara walked over to Husk. " Angel put my sister on please."
" H....hello?"
" Charlie, I'm sorry I ran away and I am not there but....."
" I know it's a lot but.....but I need you and Dad so please.....please come. Even if....if you can't look just....just hold my hand or something."
" I will but I am just finishing this up and I will bring Dad with me just...just tell Vaggie to hold on please."
" She is. I love you, Amara."
" I love you, too, Charlie."
END OF CALL
" Husk, why isn't my dad answering?" Her dad cared alot about Vaggie so for him not to answer in a time like this felt wrong then it hit her that he was alone with Alastor. " Send someone to check on him I don't care who but do it."
" Oh, is something wrong, Daddy?"
Amara looked over, and there the hellhound was that she was fighting soon. " Fuck off."
" I will I just thought I would offer you a deal for your life. No fighting need all I ask is for you to work for me and....well the radio demon name and everything that comes with."
She just laughed as she walked over to the guy. " Thats cute to think I can't handle someone so low classed as yourself. But I will have to pass but I would offer you something except....you have nothing I want."
" Haha funny 'cause your royal daddy seems to be on that mind of yours I wonder about the real radio demon did he kill him and then cover it up? Your just a princess who got whatever the hell she fucking wants. Spoiled, you don't even know what it means to have that role. YOU DON'T DESERVE IT!"
" Oh yeah, but a mutt like you does? Cause my father hates dogs." He came to get into her head, yet she was getting to his more.
" Just thought I would offer so your daddy doesn't come after me when I wipe that arena with his daughter's blood. Hahah..."
Just like that, he was gone and as she turned to Husk he smiled. " Think I got into his head?"
" MMmm, maybe but you fought back which is what counts lets just get you ready to whip his ass." He couldn't tell Amara that he couldn't send anyone to the palace but once they left it was their first stop.
There was a first time for everything, and tonight, it was Amara’s first time stepping into hell’s spotlight. Mammon had demanded a spectacle, and she was going to deliver it. The arena lights snapped off, plunging the crowd of thousands into pitch blackness. Then came the sound: not music, screams. Screams from her past battles, distorted and echoing through a radio frequency that buzzed through the bones of everyone in the stadium.
A heartbeat later, shadows bled into the crowd like serpents, weaving around heads and shoulders. Excitement rippled through the masses like fire. Then, snap, spotlights flared to life, all locked on a single figure walking from the entrance. She strode through the smoke with deliberate, deadly grace, her demon face bared and glowing. Shadowy tendrils curled around her heels. She didn’t wave. She didn’t speak. She just smiled. They weren’t here for a princess tonight. They were here to meet a demon. Her eyes locked on her opponent: a towering, gun-slinging hellhound with jagged armor and a reputation soaked in blood.
He grinned when he saw her. “ What is this? Mammon sent me the brat princess?”
She smiled, raising her hand, then snapped. The arena lights all exploded at once into searing brilliance. The hellhound shielded his eyes, and in that instant, she struck. In a blur of shadow and fury, Amara slammed into him, sending his massive body flying across the arena and cratering the far wall. Steel and stone cracked beneath the impact. “ Oops,” she purred, laughing.
He came back fast, faster than she expected. Gunfire erupted, blasts of energy tearing through the air as she vanished into shadow. She reappeared behind him, slamming her staff downward, but he caught her wrist and hurled her like a doll. She hit the ground hard, rolled, and vanished again, bursting forth with tendrils that whipped around him in a violent storm. " We have all night,” she hissed.
The hellhound wiped blood from his jaw, eyes glowing with sick amusement. “ Do we, though? What about your sister? Or dear old dad?” He chuckled. “ Found a little video. Right after the ‘Radio Demon’ vanished… Your daddy? Let’s just say he wasn’t crying for long. Found himself another toy real quick.”
“ Lies!” she screamed, rage twisting her voice. Shadows surged like blades as she launched forward. He fired—missed. She reappeared beside him. He anticipated it, spun, and fired again. The bullet tore through her bicep.
Amara dropped to a knee, clutching her arm, blood soaking her jacket.
The hellhound stalked forward. “ Your daddy failed. You’re just an echo. A shadow. A name without the power.” He raised his gun.....
But her staff slammed into the ground. The arena shook.
The floor split apart, and from the depths rose shadow tendrils, massive and writhing. They seized him mid-step and flung him into the air like a rag. He crashed down hard. “ I’ve had enough of your voice,” Amara growled. Another slam, more tendrils cracked the ground then, flash.
A bright light flashed quickly, blinding her, making everything blurry. The hellhound, bloodied and grinning, slammed into her full force, sending her flying into the wall. Her powers flickered, failing. Her vision blurred. She tried to vanish but nothing. She reached for the staff but he kicked it away as he landed a couple of punches. He grabbed her by the throat, claws pressing into the back of her neck. “ I’ll take the Radio Demon’s name,” he whispered, “and then I’ll take the throne.”
He lifted her higher and then everything stopped. All of the lights in the arena even the city suddenly all went dark making everything pitched black. Even the shadows curled away into silence. A dead, black stillness settled over the arena. No screams. No movement. Just silence.Then suddenly static. The crackle of a radio, rising like a heartbeat.
Horrifying screams worse than what she played blasted throughout the area into the dark.
A single spotlight flared, casting light onto a lone, humming radio sitting at the arena’s entrance. Then came the voice. “ Ladies and gentlemen…”
The crowd froze. The screens around the arena flickered to life, not with video but with glowing green sigils, spinning like seals, pulsing with infernal power. The ground beneath the hellhound's feet vibrated with a low, thrumming hum. “ You wanted the radio demon name…” the voice said. “ Then come and get it.”
The radio exploded in static and black flame and from the blast, Alastor stepped forward. He didn’t walk. He arrived just like a storm. Coat snapping behind him, shadow trailing at his heels like smoke. Antlers are tall and twisted. A smile that split his face with mad delight. Green lightning curled around his feet, and the floor under him rippled with energy. Every screen showed that smile. The crowd didn’t cheer. They froze out of pure fear and amazement.
The hellhound stumbled back, panic overtaking him.“ No. No… you’re supposed to be dead.”
Alastor simply laughed. “ Come on now I don't have all night.” The hellhound quickly reached for his guns so he snapped his fingers making the hellhound’s guns turn to dust. Another snap.
Chains of broadcast static burst from the earth, slamming the hellhound into the wall. Alastor’s voice was calm. Amused. “ You wanted the Radio Demon’s name? Then earn it.”
The hellhound barely got to move before Alastor was on him. A single punch from a shadow tentacle sent him flying. Shadows coiled and followed, smashing him down again, again, and again. Alastor raised a hand as the sky split. Green lightning slammed into the arena, runes carved into every bolt, pulsing with raw power lighting the arena in green.
Amara stirred, coughing, dragging herself upright just in time to see Alastor toss the hellhound aside like trash. He turned then saw the staff lying on the ground. She quickly screamed. “No! Don’t.....”
He picked it up. The arena erupted in green fire. Runes scorched the sky. The floor cracked open again as shadow magic surged through the air, shaking the foundations of the stadium. The hellhound, now begging, was dragged into the air by Alastor’s minions even his shadows with grins as wide as his own. “ You wanted the name,” Alastor said softly. “ Now choke on it.”
The shadows tore him apart, piece by piece. His screams echoed. No one looked away. Then suddenly silence. Alastor turned, walking through the smoke toward Amara. She sat against the wall, shaking, clutching her bleeding arm. He stopped in front of her and crouched down.
“ I gave your father my word I wouldn’t kill you. And I won’t.”
“ What… what did you do to him?” she rasped.
“ He’s alive,” Alastor said. “ Just… sleeping. If I could handle it then so can he.” He stood, brushing ash from his coat. “ I have one more errand to run.” He looked at her one last time, smile still wide, eyes still glowing. “ Hate me if you want. But I saved your life. And your father?” He smiled wider.
“ He’s just arriving.” And then, with a final crack of green lightning, Alastor vanished.
Amara sat there in disbelief that she not only lost the fight but lost the staff that was the only thing keeping the Void locked away. As the crowd erupted in cheers some even went as far as jumping into the arena but she just sat there frozen. Even as Husk carried her out she remained silent until she was alone with Husk, Vox, and Rosie. " I....I failed."
" Kid you held your own and to them you won." Vox was pacing back and forth trying to think of what Alastor was doing but Husk sat by Amara's side as Rosie wrapped Amara's arm. " Look we could have never guessed Alastor would show up and....."
" I should have never left him with fucking Lucifer!" Vox quickly punched the wall. " He could have killed her or all of us! Now he can destroy Hell and Heaven!"
Amara looked at Rosie who slowly sat down as she hugged her carefully. " No.....he said he had given his word to my dad he wouldn't kill me. But he said my Dad was here?"
Vox quickly hacked into the greed city camera and quickly found Lucifer leaving the train station which he thought was odd so he quickly zapped over to Lucifer and back to the arena. " You have a fuck tone of explaining Lucifer."
He woke up almost 2 hours ago to only find himself handcuffed to his bed which he would have easily gotten out of if his powers weren't damped so he was suck yelling for help until a guard ran in and cut him free. The first thing he did was head down to greed as he changed but with no powers he was stuck taking the train down to Greed. So when he saw Vox he felt a bit relieved until he zapped into a room only to see Amara bruised and her arm wrapped and he quickly rushed to her. " Who did this to you?! I will kill them!! Did Alastor do this?!"
" No, he said he gave you his word and he killed the guy but Dad how the hell did he get free?" The last thing she had time for was him babying her right now.
Lucifer took a breath as he showed the cuff still on his wrist. " I....I dampened his powers last night but.....in the middle of the night I .... I saw he was having a nightmare so I sat in the bed with him and he held onto me. I accidentally fell asleep and when I woke up it was too late he injected me with the same thing and my guess more than what we were giving him. Did he.....he get the staff?"
Vox stormed over to Lucifer and punched him making him fall to the ground. " Yeah, he did thanks to you! I told you to keep him locked up cause your too fucking easy to manipulate and look all he had to do was fake a nightmare and you came fucking running!"
Lucifer held his cheek as he looked at Vox screaming. " He wasn't faking it Vox."
" You gotta be joking, right?! Everything he did and you're defending him!! We needed to kill him or send him back once he said no to helping Vaggie! He used you Lucifer! He doesn't give a shit about you and now he can unleash Roo!" Husk grabbed Lucifer's shirt pulling him to his feet then punched him again then slammed him against the wall. " When will you finally accept Alastor are fucking Alastor is gone! That guy can look like him but only a fucking moran would fall for that shit and you fucking did!!"
" ENOUGH!" Rosie pulled Husk off as she helped Lucifer sit down, as he cried. " I fell for it and I know are Alastor is in there under all of those scars Lucifer once you love someone as much as you did Alastor, you can never get over that feeling, but he showed humanity by giving Lucifer his word not to kill Amara and he saved her life." Rosie handed Lucifer a tissue as she looked at everyone. " Instead of going after Lucifer, we find where Alastor was going next. Amara, did he say anything about where he was going?"
" He said he had an errand to run, which could mean anything." Amara limped over to her Dad as she put her ice pack on his cheek. " He could already be freeing Roo we won't know."
Husk sat down as he tried to think. " If he was freeing Roo we would feel it at least but we don't so he had something else to do in hell first. What did he want to do with his powers he couldn't before?" Husk looked at his phone as he tried to think.
" Dad......whatever happens I am sorry. I should have given the staff to you to keep safe or destroyed it so none of this......" He grabbed her hand as he looked her in the eyes.
" Amara, I couldn't ask you to break it, and I couldn't do it either. It was his, but I should have stayed awake or doubled it if I was tired." Lucifer laid his head on Amara's shoulder just as Vox walked over to them.
" I found him." Vox smiled as he looked at everyone.
" Where is he?" Rosie just hoped they weren't too late.
Vox looked at Husk, then Amara. " He's at the hospital, and he is about to walk into Vaggie's room."
Notes:
Why is Alastor going to Vaggie's room? When will Lucifer's powers come back? Will Vox, Husk, Amara, Roise, and Lucifer stop Alastor before he frees Roo? What happens if Roo is freed? Was Rosie right about Alastor showing humanity by honoring his word and sparing Amara's life?
Guess you might find out tomorrow, so come back to find out hehhee........................bye.
Chapter 16: Game Over
Summary:
Time is running out for Vaggie as Charlie is forced to make a decision for Vaggie, making everyone have to say goodbye. Only an unexpected visitor comes to see her and Vaggie. Lucifer and Amara tell Sera about everything that was going on as Alastor takes the staff to Roo.
Notes:
I know this chapter is a day late, but I didn't finish yesterday and got busy but enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
If she could make a wish to fix everything, she would switch places with Vaggie right now. Seeing her like this with the tube down her throat was the only thing keeping her alive hurt more than anything. She didn't even get final words from Vaggie like she had with Alastor which made the grieving slightly easier. The short moment Vaggie was awake she just looked at her so tired, so done. Vaggie was done yet she couldn't get herself to tell anyone and she couldn't not until her family was here hours after talking to Amara neither she nor their dad was there and guilt for keeping Vaggie here when she didn't want to was killing her. So when night fell and a nurse walked in to check on Vaggie she asked for Belphagor who showed up with Oz and Bee who both ran to her and hugged her tightly saying how sorry they were for everything. But as much as she was crying she got herself together as she held her grandmother's hand. " Bel....I want you to take all of it off even the breathing machine. I......I can't force her to stay like this when hours ago I knew she was done."
" But Charlie, she does that and...... " Bee looked at Vaggie and then at Charlie who was losing someone else again.
" And she will die." She had hours to come to terms with it but she couldn't hold Vaggie back anymore. " Bel please.....it'swhat she wants."
" Alright give me a moment. " Bel walked into the room as everyone stood around the room as she turned the ventilator off. " Some say they can hear in this stage of death so whatever you have to say I would know. " Bel started to walk out but stopped as she looked at Oz and Bee. " We will be outside the door if you need us ."
Angel tried to call Husk but no answer as he held Niffy close. " Vaggie.....your as tuff as fucking nails and you never let my shit get to you. I....I will miss you yellin at me for my jokes or you laughing at me for making someone feel uncomfortable. Or how even for your short size you still managed to boss us around and you know what.....you kindascared me a bit but I loved you. You were there for me when Cherri left for heaven and hell we had a good night out, didn't we? You even go to fight some creep for looking at Charlie weirdly. Haha, fucker deserved to have his ass kicked by a badass like you, and women at that haha. I will watch over them Vaggie but do me a solid give them shit when you get there." Angel stood up as he gently moved Vaggie's hair from her face. " I never got to tell you about the new haircut but you look like a guy haha."
Charlie held Alastor's mom tight as she cried and even laughed a bit . " Angel I.... ."
Angel walked over to Charlie and hugged her. " Don't worry about it ."
Niffty hopped onto the bed as she looked Vaggie up and down. " Why isn't she waking up ?"
Alastor's mom sat up and moved Niffty to her lap. " Dear the thing that took Alastor from us is doing the same for Vaggie. I'm sorry ."
She looked back at Vaggie as she grabbed her hand. " Oh......does that mean she will be with Alastor ?"
Charlie looked at Angel and then Alastor's mom. " Kinda but do you want to say anything to her?" Niffty just shook her head. " Do...do you want to hold her like you did Alastor?" Niffty looked at Vaggie then nodded so she picked her up and carefully Niffty held Vaggie's arms which had her in tears as she rubbed Niffty's head. " You hold her Niffty so she knows she's never alone." Then she saw a single tear fall down Vaggie's eye quickly having her breakdown as she wiped it away." I...I'm sorry I didn't.....I didn't save you that.....that he even took you in the first place. I should have stayed with you that night so then I could have helped fight Adam off!"
Angel rubbed Charlie's back as he sat on the side of the chair. " Charlie he would have taken both of you and then we would be losing both of you. No matter what we wish we can't go back and change the events leading to this. Besides Vaggie would want you to live just like Al wanted for all of us ."
Alastor's mom looked at Angel then Charlie. " You just tell Vaggie how you feel honey, tell her how much you love her, tell her about the first day you met, or even funny stories if you don't want to cry. But Charlie, we are all here for you even Vaggie." She stood up and walked onto the other side of the bed as she ran her hands through Vaggie's hair. " Thank you for making my granddaughters so happy and for loving them. You kept them both safe but thank you for making Charlie so happy. I never knew Charlie without you but from what I heard, you helped her see past her issues and even helped her start her dream one my son and you helped her achieve. You were all of our anchors when he passed, and I will make sure Charlie is okay and happy even after you." Slowly she placed a small kiss on Vaggie's forehead. " You will always be family to me and all of us." She looked at Angel, who held Charlie. " Angel, why don't we leave Charlie alone for a bit so she can say her goodbyes? Niffty as well." Angel nodded and slowly picked Niffty up as they walked out. " Charlie just speak from the heart and when you're done, you hold her cause she needs it." When she walked out she had everyone go sit down in the waiting room so Charlie didn't feel pressured.
Saying goodbye to Alastor was one of the hardest things she ever did and here she was again saying goodbye to Vaggie except this time it was the woman she loved most in the world, the woman she wanted to marry, have a family with, spend her life with, and in this moment she understood her dad's pain and why he did everything he did. This feeling was worse than anything she could think of and time wasn't on her side. So she sat down on the bed held Vaggie's hand and just spoke. From their first date till now even some funny stories that she could hardly smile over since there would never be more stories to add. No more new memories with Vaggie, no more future with Vaggie by her side. " Vaggie......I love you with every piece of my heart and no words can explain anything I am feeling and I know you know just how much I love you and always will."
She was about to lie down and just hold Vaggie until the machine made that awful, heartbreaking sound but there was a knock at the door which she thought was odd. " Um .... come in? " But when the door opened she quickly stood up as she saw Alastor standing there just like the day she met him but quickly she noticed the staff in his hands as he walked in and closed the door. " What are you doing here? Where is my dad ?"
" Oh, he's with your sister trying to find me so they can stop me and take this staff away while a few others plan my death. " He slowly started to walk over to Vaggie but Charlie quickly stood in the way.
Charlie stood in the way of Alastor and Vaggie. " Please just leave so I can have this time with Vaggie ."
He laughed as he quickly moved Charlie to the wall and she started to scream as he walked over to Vaggie. " I had made you an offer this staff for Vaggie's life, didn't I? And what's in my hands ?"
She could hear everyone banging on the door and trying to open it but the door wouldn't move or break. " W...wait. I didn't give you the staff though?"
" You didn't but it was you who helped me get it simply by letting me out of the cage. I can leave if you want but it's my half of the offer. But we never shook on it so I can leave and you can spend the next....." He looked at Vaggie for a moment, then Charlie as he realized her. " 15 minutes? But just so you know when she dies she will go to the Void where she will spend the rest of her time being tortured in ways you can't even think of."
Charlie's eyes widened as she looked at Vaggie and then Alastor. " Save her please." He walked over to the bed as she ran to the other side and held Vaggie's hand. " You said if it was too late you couldn't....."
" I did say that didn't I? But I didn't mention how I spent the last hundred thousand years if not longer absorbing this darkness without knowledge. " He hovered his hand over Vaggie's body before putting a hand on her heart. " Hahah I wouldn't offer something I couldn't handle. "
The lights quickly began to flicker even out in the hallway but she held Vaggie's hand tight as she watched Alastor absorb the dark energy as he did she saw Vaggie's bony appearance return to her original shape even her hands became warm again. " It's ..... it's working. " When the lights stopped she saw Alastor pull his hand back as she quickly looked at Vaggie. " Come on Vaggie I need you to wake up please . "
Alastor tapped the weird beeping machine and then looked at Charlie. " Give her a few minutes and she will be dying for whatever that is to come out." He looked at the door which he was keeping shut. " They will come in here and ask you questions and if you don't want them blaming you for what's to come then don't say anything about you assisting me."
" Alastor I can't thank you enough I mean...... " Charlie tried to stop herself and failed as she ran over to Alastor and hugged him. " I know you hate this but thank you Alastor for saving her. " When she let go she saw a hint of fear in Alastor's eyes. " You don't have to free her Alastor . With the staff, you can fight her and stay here. You overpower her and you said it yourself ."
He could leave her down there, but he couldn't. " I can never be free until heaven is destroyed because they will always be after me. I want heaven to suffer for everything they did and more, and she is my queen whom I have to follow." He fixed his jacket as he waved his hand to open the door, but just as everyone ran in, he vanished.
Lucifer pushed his way through as he held Charlie. " Are you okay? He didn't hurt you, did he? I'm so sorry this....... " As he looked at Vaggie he let go of Charlie and looked at her lying there still. " Did he hurt her ?"
" Where the hell did he go?! " Vox quickly zapped away as he tried to find Alastor Husk ran out along with the sins but Bel was by Vaggie's side.
" Charlie, what did he want with you? " Amara could heal fact so she was back to walking fine except her arm was going to take some time.
" He..... " Charlie was overwhelmed with everything but as she turned to look at Vaggie she saw the tube gone as she slowly walked over.
" He did it didn't he? " Belphagor didn't need to run a test cause Vaggie looked like herself again. " How .... how did you convince him to do it ?"
Alastor had told her not to say anything but she couldn't hide this from everyone as she was about to come clean Vaggie suddenly woke up and quickly sat up as she gasped. " W...what the hell happend ?"
Charlie quickly hugged Vaggie then grabbed her face and kissed her. " I love you so fucking much don't ever do this to me again you hear me. " Before Vaggie could answer she kissed her again.
" Um.....as cute and great as this is we still don't know why you know who did this." Angel looked at everyone then Niffty who was sitting on the chair looking at all of them confused.
Vaggie held Charlie as she looked at everyone then Charlie . " Babe I love you but I am really confused here ."
" When we first brought Alastor here he made an offer to heal Vaggie in exchange for the staff. " She knew everyone was avoiding saying his name but Niffty should know and the way she looked at her was of pure excitement . " Niffty he came back haha ."
" I knew it! Heheh when is he coming to get me? " Niffty looked at everyone as she smiled.
" Niffty he's not taking you 'cause he doesn't know who you are but Charlie you didn't help him get the stuff from did you?" No way Charlie would do something so stupid and also betray her like that.
" I told him no but ......but I was the one who got him out of that cage the first time which led to him getting close to Dad then ....... how did he get it? " Now that she looked at him closer was her dad bruised? " Dad, why are you beat up ?"
Lucifer took a breath and then explained everything that happend to Alastor vanishing from the arena just as he arrived by train. " Just so I understand he saved Vaggie 'cause you let him out? Did he say anything ?"
" I'm sorry Dad I should have guessed he would have used your feelings against you but I tried to get him to stay. With the staff, he can overpower Roo so he wouldn't have to set her free but ..... he said no and that he could never be free until heaven was destroyed ."
" Heaven will kill him if he even tries.....but they can't destroy it right ? " Alastors mom looked right at Lucifer.
He couldn't lie so he sat down as he looked at Alastor's mom. " With the staff.....and Roo....they can make heaven crumble which means all the winners will......they will fall. The two of them....one step in heaven and it's over. No war, no fighting cause heaven doesn't stand a chance against them."
" Then we need to prepare heaven as well as hell. " Vaggie looked at Charlie as she kissed her cheek. Lucifer, you need to tell Heaven everything , and in exchange for our help, you ask for immunity for not telling them sooner. They will need all the help they can get because Roo and Alastor have to go through us first to get to heaven .
Hearing her voice when just moments ago she wasn’t ever going to hear her voice again or feel her hold her. “ Do you think you can handle it, Dad, without my help ?”
Heaven was going to be pissed not to mention him falling for Alastor's trap but why didn’t it feel like it was all a lie? The way Alastor cared enough to comfort him as the meds kicked in or their time together? Hell, he even kept his word by not killing Amara even saved her. Did the time they spend together actually make a change?
“ Dad? ” Amara looked at her dad as they all did but he was in his own world almost. “ How about I go with him to break the news? His powers aren’t back yet and Heaven probably shouldn’t know that part. ” Charlie agreed so she stood up and helped her dad up as he continued to just stare at the ground. “ Let’s get you home and make that meeting. ”
Amara vanished with her dad to the palace but when they walked into the room she stopped as she felt something was off so she had her dad sit down as she checked the room out. As she checked the closet and then the bathroom she didn’t find anything off so she walked back to her dad as she grabbed his hands. “ Dad, can I check your desk? Something’s not right in here and I just want to find out.”
He didn’t say anything he just laid down on the couch holding himself so with a deep sigh she went to look as she checked briefly she stopped at a letter that had the handwriting of her father but it was addressed to her Dad. As she unfolded it she knew it was him cause he had written the letter to her dad to read when he needed him most which quickly had her sitting down.
She would have read the letter but as she unfolded it again there was a little reminder that it was only to be read when he needed him most. Why did the idea of this letter have her almost in tears? “ Dad, did you ever read the letter Papa wrote you? ” Sure he had cause he reached his low where he needed him several times yet the letter hardly looked open.
Growing up Amara always called Alastor her Papa which he could never get enough of cause when she said it she was just so adorable to the point when she said it alone it always made him smile but when she got older she stopped. Occasionally, she would slip up and go back to saying Papa but it was always around him which always made him smile. " No ."
Quickly she turned to her dad as he looked at her while wrapping himself up with his blanket. " Why wouldn't you read it? Did you not want to or was it guilt?"
While Alastor was there he touched the blanket he could smell him and all he could do to have him close was wrap himself up and imagine it was last night. " I ....I never looked at more than the reminders .....just reading that...it always cheered me up. But guilt once stopped me but you .... you want to read it ?"
" He left me my frog and his title so I can't take this from you Dad." She walked over and sat on the couch as she held the letter. " You might have memories of him which are worth a lot but......but if anything these last few weeks have shown me is that you needed more of him which is why you lied to me. It's not an excuse but love......love is the hardest thing to give up and today Charlie almost did but got Vaggie back. But he is who made you who you are today and I know you have made some mistakes but you told me how everyone makes mistakes no matter how smart or how well you plan." She put the letter aside as she held her Dad's phone. " Let's get ahead of this 'cause they will make mistakes but if we'reahead...."
" Maybe we can use their mistake to our advantage. " As he sat up Amara already dialed Sera who he needed to remind himself to stay calm. But as it rang he couldn't help but hug Amara. " You remind me so much of him you know that ?"
" Hahah you tell me a lot, Dad. " Everything with Charlie and Vaggie showed her just how painful loss is not just any but of the person you love in this world . It also helped her see just how much harder it had to be for her dad cause he had to watch her father suffer longer and in the end, didn't get him back like they did Vaggie.
" Lucifer?! You just calling me? !"
" Why are you yelling at me when you..... ."
" I got your message Lucifer and if you expect me to...."
" My message? I never gave you one that's why I am calling so we can talk face to face ."
" Don't play dumb, Lucifer and I want to even know how and why you left that on my desk."
" Left what? I can't get to heaven ."
" Heaven Embassy now !"
END OF CALL
" What the hell? " Lucifer stood up and he threw his jacket on. " Um....you should probably stay here or go back to Charlie I...... ."
Amara held her dad's shoulders as she calmed him down. " I am not leaving you alone in a room with her, especially since your powers aren't back yet. " He just nodded as she took them to the embassy but when they walked through, Sera stood there furious.
" Look me in my eyes Lucifer and tell me how the hell you managed to leave a maned body on my desk with this note!" Sera slammed the note down that said I am coming for you.
Lucifer looked at the note and then showed Amara as he looked at Sera then quickly put it together. " This wasn't me, Sera but I know who ."
" Tell me who the person or thing was on my desk first. It had gold and red on." Sera looked at the two as she stood.
It could have been anybody but the look her dad gave her quickly helped her realize who. But gold and red .... it's an odd color combination but she saw it before on.... " Adam. It was Adam ."
" H....how could it be Adam? He's in the Void and no one has gotten out." Sera looked at the two but her eyes fell on Lucifer who looked down at his ring. " Lucifer the void is closed and no one has gotten out right?"
" I tell you and we will help...... " Sera stormed over to him suddenly.
" Who the hell got out?! " As she stormed over to Lucifer his daughter stood in the way ready to fight her so she stopped. " Who ?"
" It started with Adam then Lilith but......but Roo sent a guy with my father's face who killed Adam and.....and Lute then almost killed Lilith. " Amara grabbed her Dad's hand from behind her as she looked Sera in the eyes but when she mentioned her father her eyes widened.
Roo or anyone in the void can't get to hell unless someone from hell opens a portal. But that wasn't important right now cause if Roo was sending people through and wasn't attacking then it could mean one thing. " She sent them for the staff, didn't she?" Amara nodded. " Well then we have nothing to worry about cause the staff is gone. Right?"
" Gone? " Amara looked at Sera and then her dad . " My father left it to me and entrusted someone to keep it safe from you or my dad . I had it as of a couple of weeks ago, almost a month ."
" Had? Lucifer how the hell did this someone hide something like this from us?!" Sera hoped they were wrong, that they hadn't waited this long but as she looked at Lucifer, she saw bruises on his face which should have healed by now. " Your face it's not healing.....why?"
" My father made sure neither of you could find it and his friend just kept an eye on it but I had the staff and I kept it safe just like my dad asked but....." If she named Vox it would have just made things worse.
" Sera, Alastor has the staff and took it to Roo but he already told us he is coming for you and destroying heaven. But we will help you fight Roo in exchange you don't try to punish us for not telling you sooner." He moved to stand beside Amara as he looked at Sera.
She just laughed as she looked at Lucifer. " You have lost your mind, Lucifer, cause when this is over, you will face the courts for allowing those monsters....."
" Do it then I will tell them how you knew Alastor was fucking alive! How you send the exorcists down there, not to watch but to torture everyone down there! You looked me in my eyes when I thought he was alive and told me he was gone, but you lied to me! I HAVE SPENT THE LAST 20 YEARS GRIEVING HIM, ONLY TO FIND OUT HE WAS ALIVE THE WHOLE TIME AND YOU KNEW! You knew what she was doing to him and you left him ......... YOU FUCKING LEFT HIM WITH HER!! HE SAVED YOU AND HEAVEN AND YOU LEFT HIM WITH THAT WOMAN!! " He started to charge at Sera but Amara held him back as he yelled. " When did you find out, Sera? WHEN !"
She took a couple of steps back as she looked at the two. " A few weeks after you came to me with your theories and I went down to see and she told me how everything was his fault that.....that he would pay. But I never thought she would put him down there Lucifer.....I...I knew you knew you would want him out but Lucifer he belongs to her." She took a deep breath as she sat down. " When Amara turned 6 and came up here talking about Alastor, I decided to go see if he was even alive but I....I barely was able to get to him.....but for him, it had been a few thousand years, and the sight......I knew he broke......no one could hold on for that long and go through what she put him through. I was terrified so I left and never went back but......but if she sent him up here and he has that staff we all doomed."
Amara walked up to Sera as she looked her in the eyes. " Are....are you telling me that thing is my father ?"
" It's what's left." Amara's anger was justified but Lucifer just stood there looking at her. " Lucifer if you knew it would have eaten at you and you had to raise Amara."
" I could have raised her better with Alastor even if he was broken, he would have been out of there Sera. I saw the scars she put on him and while I know she will pay you let her do that to him. YOU LET HER HURT HIM......and for that, I will never forgive you so if the choice of you or him I will always pick him even if he doesn't remember me." He reached for Amara's hand but she quickly slapped it away. " Amara?"
" Lucifer I understand but due to the void and are ban on leaving the void I am afraid when the shot hits army will kill Alastor by any means. " Sera stood up as she looked at the two. " If you help in Roo's capture and keep what happend in the void secret then I will pardon all of you for hiding this information. They will have to go through hell to get to heaven so we will send exorcists to assist in the fight. "
" What will you be doing as we all risk our lives? " Amara looked at Sera.
" We will keep heaven safe in case you all fail. Lucifer your brothers have made it clear no matter what they won't go to hell so if you get killed then they will. " Sera turned to leave but stopped at the door to heaven . " Oh Lucifer we had some of Deigo's memories saved so if Alastor does make it to heaven he will belong to us and if he's working with Roo we will use what we have ."
Once Sera was gone Amara looked at her Dad but he was already walking out so she quickly followed. " Dad who is Deigo? Was it his father?
" Amara .... " Lucifer stopped as he looked around. " You are never to repeat that name to Alastor understood? " When Amara nodded he started to walk away but Amara grabbed his hand stopping him.
" Dad, why can't I say that name? It was his dad wasn't it?" Why would a name cause so much worry and stress and why would Alastor care unless it was his father who her grandmother rarely talked about.
Lucifer didn't say anything as they walked back to the hotel but when they got inside Amara pulled him into an empty room. " He was a childhood friend who was with your father through some hard times but they stopped hanging out after Alastor's father almost killed them. Years later he found Alastor and realized he loved him and slowly he started getting close to him but Alastor didn't know he knew him. But one day after too many drinks they got together only he thought it was something they both wanted and later found out they were both drugged. Alastor never spoke to him again and I only found out after Alastor was gone."
" He.....he raped him? " That had her sitting but why did she want to just hold her father even if he didn't know her all of a sudden ?
" Amara they were both drugged so neither knew what was going on but if they were in the right head space it would have stopped. Deigo loved him and thought at the time that it was okay but days later the memory came back." He sat down by Amara and grabbed her hand. " Until he's himself or trusts us we can't say anything understood?"
Amara nodded as she laid her head on her Dad's shoulder, and for a moment there was peace until the ground suddenly started to shake so quickly they ran out. The sky, rather than the hell sky, was turning black. " Dad, what's going on ?"
" He freed her. " He looked at his hands as he tried to test his powers but only for a moment did they work but as they looked out seconds later the screams started. " We need to call Charlie and get everyone here ."
Even if he didn't have a choice, he knew he was doing the right thing yet Lucifer and Charlie's words seemed to replay in his head, which he didn't understand. Once he was back in the void, the replays stopped as everything started to flash back but he stood tall as he smiled as he headed to Roo's cell. As he walked up she smiled brightly as she looked at him from behind the bars as he stood there, staff in his hands, he smiled back. " Now that I have the upper hand I have to ask why are we not killing Lucifer? You wanted him to suffer but from what I gathered, he did when he lost the man he loved ."
Roo just laughed as she walked up to the bars. " You think you have the upper hand? Haha thats funny but you free me or I force you but I will be nice and answer you. Lucifer is the reason for sin and the reason this place exists so he should suffer more. Do you have an alternative ?"
" I do but first he didn't know about Sera or the exorcists and he was even pissed. The shot time I was there I saw him jealous over a simple sinner who he could annihilate in the blink of an eye but also weaker, almost vulnerable with me around. Which I assume has something to do with him falling in love with someone with this face." Roo smiled wider. " Perhaps if you gave him this person, then he can have them back only for you to tear them apart, crushing him all over again. He almost killed himself last time so imagine again."
" Hmm......I will keep it in mind not get me out of here and go have some fun ."
He looked down at the staff then around then stopped his sight on the cage as he slammed his staff onto the ground making the cage quickly break into pieces as Roo slowly walked out. " I freed you and I will be your right hand in heavens destruction and after I am free like you said ?
" L et's just see how you do. Oh, and Alastor if I see you sparing any of that hotel again, I will rip those ears off your head for all of them to see then make them see what's underneath that mask. Understood? " She grabbed Alastor's face tightly and held it close to her face as he quickly nodded so she dropped him. " Good and that girl you saved, I am going to need you to need you to kill her second but first, you find Lilith and bring her to me in pride. We will make them examples for heaven as we shred them to pieces. Now let's go have some payback ."
Notes:
Will Heaven and Hell be able to work together to fight Roo? How will Lucifer react to seeing Alastor again? Will Alastor be able to push past everything with Lucifer and do as he is told? Will Roo spare Lucifer or tell Alastor the truth? How will Amara see Alastor now that she knows it's really her father? Will Charlie be ready to fight, or will she be too afraid for Vaggie and everyone? What will heaven do if they get their hands on Alastor? Will Alastor's memory come to him before he does something he can't take back? What is in the letter Alastor wrote for Lucifer?
More to come next week so bye. hehehe
Chapter 17: Race Against The Clock
Summary:
Heaven and Hell work together to defeat the darkness while everyone is out fighting off the shadows and working on a plan to kill the shadow. Lucifer goes to find Lilith, whom he thinks Alastor will go after. He tries to reason with Alastor, and it works, and Alastor gives him a warning that he is coming for Vaggie. As the hotel and heaven race to get ahead, they fall right where Roo wants, but she hasn't expected the hotel to influence Alastor so soon.
Notes:
I know I didn't post yesterday, I figured to give everyone some time to catch up since I posted Saturday, which was odd for me. Anyways, I hope you enjoy.
Oh, heads up, there aren't too many sections.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Getting everyone back to the hotel took some time but Lucifer also got the deadly sins to come as well. It didn't need explained what was going on cause dark shadow creatures ran through the rings, killing and they were unlike anything anyone had seen not even Alastors were as big and scary. As for heaven, they had exorcists guarding the gate in heaven as well as the embassy and around the outside of the shield around Pride while Sera and Emily along with the rest of the exorcists joined at the hotel as they all tried to plan on how they were going to fight this. Better yet how they would win against shadows who moved fast and strong like angels but they did know they could die with angelic weapons and light hurts them.
The plan was to make sure none of the shadow creatures left Pride; they entered Pride, so they stayed here. Oz and Bee would stay in pride while the other sins stayed in their rings. The other sins also kept an eye on Oz and Bee while they helped. But the issue was that the shadows could get to any ring as long as it was dark, which they found out the hard way.
The second plan was to have the sins and their people fight in their rings with the weapons heaven gave them but after killing a few they realized the plan wouldn't work since more just came right behind one.
Plan after plan but everything they thought failed until Lucifer thought of something. " What if we simply....light everything up? Every bright light on and heavenly light." Lucifer looked at Emily. " Have enough and they can't form as much as they are now."
" Lucifer has a point Sera I could go and get them the weapons." Emily hated the screaming but Charlie and Vaggie held her hand reminding her they were there to stop the fighting. " They said do everything we can so....."
" We can not allow hell all of our weapons and if they get past the shield and hell heaven will need those weapons. We are already pushing it now." Sera looked out the window as fires in the city broke loose.
" No one will get through the shield cause you and my dad made it. But we stop them here they never reach heaven's gates. Look we don't have time to argue or go back and forth on plans while our people are dying. We are not asking for everything just some. Vox, can you get into every device and display the light on everything even billboards?" Amara picked Niffty up as she took her knife. " Who gave this to her? She will stab one of us before a shadow."
" I can but I can do better by putting it on every device so everyone can use it. Get the light and I can light every city up but Amara I will need your help to keep it going." Amara nodded as he started clicking away on his laptop. " But this won't hold Alastor or Roo long."
" It will work on those things as we find them and kill them for good." Husk shuffled his new angelic throwing cards as he smiled from the corner. " I doubt the two are together and honestly I think she has him preparing something as she is out there having her fun. But her plan fails without him unless....."
" Unless she has it. Fuck does she even need Al to take heaven?" Angel sat on the couch loading his guns with angelic bullets.
Alastor had told him about some of the plan not too detailed but enough for him to know Alastor wanted heaven to fall. " He wants what she wants 'cause it's what she put in his head. They are all pissed for what heaven did to them and I know they would all rather die than go back."
" When Alastor came to heal Vaggie, he said he could cause he had spent thousands of years if not longer absorbing the power from wherever he was. We saw how much stronger he is now than before." Heaven wanted Alastor dead as well as Husk but she was planning on finding Alastor first to get him to stop all of this. She didn't bother trying to ask Amara cause she knew where she was on everything involving Alastor. But Vaggie agreed to help her talk to Alastor since he saved her life which was another reason she wanted to save Alastor.
Sera hadn't known Alastor had gained any powers much less absorbed any so hearing this had all the exsorcist looking at her. " Emily bring the light cannons and bring them to the rings. If Charlie is correct then we may need to focus more on him cause she will need a lot to destroy heaven. Girls hunt him down now!"
Lucifer didn't get a chance to say anything before the exorcists were gone. " Sera we hunt him down like this and....."
" Lucifer I told you from the beginning the orders are to kill Alastor and send Roo back to her cage. This time it will be final. Emily should be back shortly but I have made my orders." Sera opened a portal back to heaven and left.
" Dad we can't kill him! If we can get him on our side then....." Charlie was going to reason with everyone but the only people on her side were her dad, Vaggie, and Niffty who kept trying to run away ever since she heard about Alastor.
" Babe, don't waste your breath on arguing." Vaggie had Charlie bend down as she whispered. I have a plan to find him, but we need to leave." Charlie nodded and stood up as she looked at everyone. " Alright, stay safe, and if you need backup, call. Let's get out there!"
Amara watched everyone leaving but she had overheard what Vaggie said and pulled her dad aside. " Dad I think I have an idea where Alastor is but you can't tell anyone."
" Where?" As Amara whispered the location, it quickly made sense. " Be safe, alright?" Amara nodded and he was gone.
Being safe would be easy if she had one thing.....her powers. For some reason, once those shadows started coming her powers just stopped but she had to keep trying so she could help Vox.
It made sense that while everyone was busy with the cities and rings, no one would think Alastor would go or be anywhere inside, that he would be out killing. But he would finish where he left off last, which was Lilith. So the hospital was the first place he checked, only to find out she checked out this morning, leaving him looking for her. Find Lilith and Alastor will be right behind him or so he hoped. Out of all the places in hell Lilith could go he knew of a few she would go to but one spot after the next he got nothing and it had been a few hours so he needed to find her soon so he checked the last place....the palace and sure enough she was sitting in the garden. " Lilith what are you doing here?"
" It's chaos out there Lucifer.....she is going to get what she wants isn't she?" Lilith just sat there as Lucifer slowly sat down next to her but she laid her head on his shoulder. " I heard Vaggie was alive which I am happy about cause Charlie needs her in her life. She has Vaggie and you have Amara."
" We should get you somewhere safe so...." Lilith's behavior seemed off even her laying her head on his shoulder.
" I am safe....now that you're here." She sat up as she gently rubbed Lucifer's cheek. " I'm sorry for not trying harder or staying. I hope you know leaving you was a hard decision and even harder leaving Charlie but after years of running hell and fighting, I needed a break. But Lucifer I never stopped loving you 'cause you will always be my first." She pulled her hand back as she looked at the garden. " Do you still love me?"
There wasn't time for this but something wasn't right so he listened. As for loving Lilith, he would have said yes before meeting Alastor but that love he had for Lilith was replaced with Alastor who he even found himself loving more. " I never thought I would love anyone the way I loved you. I mean you were my first....well everything and we fell together but......"
" But you love him more." She took a breath and then looked at Lucifer. " We were both your first for a lot and gave you a child. You know he was the one who helped give me that final push to leave? I thought it was him just listening and maybe even caring since he always had a soft spot for women but it was all Roo. She wanted me gone so he could get to you and Charlie which worked. Did you know he never broke his deal with Charlie?" Lucifer didn't know. " Roo or him can use the deal so I need you to promise me whatever happens daughter is safe even if you have to force her to stay in heaven."
" Lilith if we can get him to remember then he won't....." Lucifer didn't get a chance to finish as Lilith grabbed his arms.
" Lucifer you need to understand the years he was down there she used it to shape his mind so he never remembered. Even if he did she will always control him so if you ever love him you will end his suffering. If Alastor dies then Roo's plan fails and no one else will have to die. The Alastor you knew might be in there but bringing him out will only make what she did hurt even more. Alastor would never be the same so please, if you have to pick between him or Charlie or even Amara you will let him go. Let it be by you no one else." Once she let go she could hear the screams of the guards outside. " You need to kill him here and now."
" If the roles were swapped he wouldn't kill me, he would find a way. But I won't lose anyone else I care about." He stood up as the screams suddenly stopped as well as Liith who he stood in front of. " Charlie needs all three of us in her life."
" Why won't you listen to me that thing will never be the man you knew and if you love him then kill him here and now before........" Suddenly a gust of cold hit her and as she slowly turned around there Alastor was looking at the roses.
" Please continue Lilith I am interested to hear more." As he looked at her Lucifer started to walk closer but stopped when he turned to him. " Guess she's finished.....oh well."
" Alastor you can stop all of this at any time and we can......." Alastor just started to laugh at him.
" Why would I stop? Cause you put your memories in my head? Haha.......that was funny but no. Like I said before I want this and........" Sure he didn't have a time frame to get Lilith but he could feel the others being killed which happend a bit sooner than planned.
She knew why he was here and obviously Lucifer wasn't going to listen to her about killing Alastor. " You only think you do 'cause she made you this way. I knew you to be smart not a fucking idiot or a pet. You didn't take anyone's shit yet you take hers which I understood before but now you hold the power to......." Suddenly she was at Alastor's side as one of his tentacles slammed her head into the ground.
Lucifer was going to run over and stop but the look Alastor gave him had him stop. " She's right you know? You have my memories so you know she wasn't lying. We can kill her Alastor with your help then you can be free, you can do whatever you want again and not have the worry she will put you back. I can talk to heaven to leave you alone but they will only do that if you help us now."
For a moment Lucifer's plan was somthing of interest only until he imagined her face. " Please heaven hates me almost more than they do you and I can see you want her gone so you can have that old life back with that version of me. I don't want that, I don't want you or anyone else! I want heaven to pay for everything...."
" I agree which is why you have to stop and together we can change heaven. You are not about to kill thousands of innocent souls just because of the head angels. We can show them what Sera and the council did and make a real change." Lucifer started to walk close to Alastor as he just looked at him. " Sera deserves to pay for all the souls and sinners she hurt and that person could be you. She knew you were alive yet never told me, despite her knowing how much having you in my life again would help everyone. We both want heaven to pay but there are some who are good up there, Alastor and I know you have to know that cause you are the smartest man I have ever known."
Alastor bent down slightly as he looked Lucifer in the eyes. " There will never be a we Lucifer and I want them all to burn. Cause no one is innocent or pure so no one deserves paradise. Tell me how you can still want me despite me drugging you and then cuffing you to your bed. The humiliation of everyone finding out or the person who had to help you break free, they might rethink you as a king or even a man."
" It hurt.......but you kept your word to me even though I never asked and you saved our daughter. You wouldn't have offered unless you cared and you wouldn't have comforted me as I fell asleep again." Maybe Alastor was feeling something for him again now that he said it out loud. " I think under everything you went through you have a feeling you're trying to push away but it won't. Almost like a warmth even a flutter inside of you. That night I only got into the bed cause you were having a nightmare and it was you who held onto me so it to not hurt as much. You crave someone to take this pain away, to make it not hurt as much, someone to care for you and for you to care cause you're not a monster."
Lucifer knew more about what he wanted before he even knew but that night he remembered the dream and the pain but it suddenly stopped for reasons he didn't care about. For once sleep wasn't so painful and it was something nice but as much as he wanted that again he couldn't. Cause it made him weak, it wasn't allowed......as for the feelings.....he could push them away. "You're wrong. I........"
" You took too long to answer so you are lying which you never do. It's true but I don't plan on using it against you Alastor ask Roo. Ask her if the life I remember is true, you can tell if she is lying." He looked down at Alastor's hand and slowly he reached for it but Alastor flinched and moved it away. " I will never hurt you Alastor cause I love you even if you're never the same as you were before. I can help it not hurt, I can make the memories and nightmares go away." He opened his hand as he looked at Alastor, he was looking at his hand, and to his own surprise, Alastor took his hand. " Together we can stop Roo for good and make her and Heaven pay for what they did."
" You.......you can take the voices away?" All he wanted was the pain to stop and Roo said if heaven was gone then it would but as he held Lucifer's hand everything didn't seem to hurt as much not even Lucifer's touch.
Why would he hear voices? How bad to Roo hurt the man he loved? " I can try but you don't have to suffer or........" It was an old sensation but he knew it anywhere. " Alastor you have to go now heaven is here. I will find you and we can talk."
He looked behind him as he could hear the metal of their weapons as well as wings flying in the air. Lucifer could have been stalling but when he looked into his eyes he was clueless. " Maybe in another afterlife, this could work but there will always be someone in the way. Take my warning when I tell you to find the girl I healed and take her somewhere no one can find her."
" Vaggie? Why..........Roo wants you to kill her doesn't she?" It wasn't on purpose but he was holding Alastor's hand tightly as he held it to his chest as he feared losing Alastor's touch.
She would kill him or worse if she found out he messed up her plan but she had lied to him about having a life in hell. If she lied once then just how much has she lied about and for once he had the power to fight back. " Kill would be too nice but she wants me to use her as an example just like Lilith will be. You can't tell me where but somewhere we can't find her and heaven we will find her. Now you must leave Lucifer so they don't see you." He needed to go out there but Lucifer held his hand to his chest and he couldn't get himself to pull his hand away.
Lucifer knew a spot but as he felt the angels getting closer he carefully touched Alastor's face. " You go out there they will try to kill you."
" Planning on it besides I get to have some fun." He needed to go but his mind wouldn't let him move.
He couldn't help but smile as he looked at Alastor and without thinking he pulled Alastor down and kissed him. To his own surprise, Alastor kissed him back for a moment but when he opened his eyes Alastor was gone as well as Lilith. " I love you Alastor." Then he quickly teleported away.
It was quick and he found Charlie and Vaggie inside of the warehouse where they had kept Alastor. But as he walked in the two quickly looked at him. " Vaggie we need to hide you so neither Alastor nor Roo can find you and I know just the place."
" Why do we need to hide Vaggie? She's fine and we are trying to find Alastor before he does something he can't take back." Charlie grabbed Vaggie's hand as she looked at her Dad.
It didn't take much for her to put it together. " You found him didn't you?"
" I did. He warned me that Roo has him finding Lilith and you not to kill you but worse which I don't want to think. He has Lilith but exorcists are keeping him busy so we need to move now." Lucifer saw the worry on Charlie's face as he walked over to her and grabbed her other hand. " I want you to stay with Vaggie just in case but there is only one place where neither of them can find you. It's the same place Alastor and Vox hid that staff." He slowly opened the portal as the two followed him.
" Lucifer how did you get him to warn you?" Vaggie had to know.
Her Dad didn't answer as they walked over to Vox's office. " Dad?"
Lucifer walked into Vox's office as he sat at his desk typing away. " I need you to take us to the safe you kept the staff and we need to put Vaggie and Charlie inside."
" Why?" Vox turned around to look at Lucifer but there was something different.
" Look Alastor is coming for her and it's the only place he or Roo can't find her. They will use Charlie to get Vaggie out of hiding so it's safer to put them together." Lucifer didn't seem to satisfy anyone. " Fine I found Lilith then he came right after but I talked to him and I just spoke from the heart and he listened." Vox stood up and suddenly they were somewhere else but as he turned around he saw a giant safe as Vox opened the door.
" Dad....will he stop?" Charlie hugged her dad and then looked him in the eyes.
" I......I don't know, Ducky but I know he is questioning Roo. I won't lose anyone else and I won't lose him again either." He moved Charlie's hair from her face and then kissed her cheek. " You two will be safe in here."
" Lucifer if anything happens, you will get us out of here." Vaggie watched Charlie walk in as Lucifer nodded at her. So she walked in as Vox closed the door.
Once the door was closed Vox turned to Lucifer. " You kissed him didn't you?"
" I need to get Lilith before they kill her to get us out of here." Vox listened and once he appeared back in Vox's office he saw Amara walking in. " Before you start I need help finding Lilith. I need to get her out of this."
As Vox started looking, she couldn't help but ask. " How do you plan on hiding her from him? Any darkness and he will find her."
" In the safe where the staff was held. They couldn't get in there even if they tried." As he explained, Alastor warned her and put Vaggie and Charlie in the safe Vox found Lilith who was tied up in the center of the city.
" Lucifer, go but before you get Lilith away, let's light the city up." Lucifer nodded, then left as he turned to Amara. " You just need to put your hands on the desk and I can use both of our powers to light every place in hell."
She had to tell him. " Vox.....my powers aren't working. Since they showed up or Alastor was close to me my powers just stopped working."
He could get maybe half of hell but not for long not without help. " Fuck.....alright I will just put it all on pride since this is the ring to get to heaven."
Amara just had to stand there powerless as she watched all the shadows fall to the ground screaming from the light but as she looked she saw a lady with a large hat as well on the ground who by her guess was Roo even if she didn't see her face. But there was no Alastor which she thought was odd. " Vox we need to find Alastor now."
He would have asked why but quickly he saw why. As he looked he found nothing until he heard the laughing coming from behind him. Slowly he turned around and Alastor just laughed as he slammed the staff on the ground destroying every computer and monitor which shut all the lights off even the few remaining ones. " Alastor you need to stop this before....."
He wasn't going to let Vox talk anymore so quickly he zapped him knocking him out as he turned to the girl who looked worried for her friend but looked like she wanted to kill him but couldn't. " He did the same to me but I was nicer and made it quick since I enjoyed his company. Why aren't you trying to kill me like you desperately want to do?"
" Maybe because I found out that you are my father, the one I dreamt of meeting one day, the man who I wanted just a conversation with. Sera told me and my dad everything and she should pay for leaving you down there, for leaving my dad without you, for Charlie trying to fill the empty place you left, and for me to grow up without knowing you. I only knew you from the stories and everyone's memories but the short time I spent with you it kills me that I don't remember you or the love you had for me." He couldn't figure out her powers weren't working.
" Hmm...." He walked closer and as he thought she stood there as he walked up to her. " You know what I think? I think you're lying to me when I have heard how much you hate lies or perhaps you're saying that just so I don't figure out what's going on."
" You shut the lights off now you can go." Amara wasn't going to show any fear or give away the fact she was defenseless.
Looking at this girl he got Lucifer's memories of her when she was little with him which he found odd he couldn't remember but also frustrating he couldn't remember. " Fine but......" Some of the computers started to flicker back on as he looked he saw Lucifer setting Lilith free. " No.....No!" He quickly vanished to Lilith as he quickly stopped the two as tentacles wrapped around them tightly. " That plan was fun in all but I can't have you messing mine up." He was going to let Alastor go until he felt her touch his shoulder.
" Kill him." Roo smiled as she looked at the two as Lilith even started to scream. " You said he suffered enough then kill him. Since that exorcist you healed has vanished he can take her place so squeeze him until he pops."
" Alastor don't do this! You don't have......" Lucifer didn't get a chance as he felt the tentacle wrap around tighter to the point he couldn't do anything but scream as it even burned his skin.
Right now it was just a few broken ribs but any tighter would ruin Lucifer's life. While a week ago that would have been fine his mind and even his body screamed at him to stop but her hand was on him. He could see what would happen if he failed. But it was Lucifer's screams that pushed past the touch and he let him go as he fell to the ground. " No one suffers enough especially, not him. You want Lilith and here she is and the girl is gone underground somewhere but we can use her, the old queen."
She simply sighed as she looked at Alastor and suddenly grabbed his neck roughly. " I gave you an order but fine if you won't kill him then I will."
As he fell to the floor holding his neck he saw Lucifer trying to sit up as Roo walked towards Lucifer. Quickly he vanished and appeared in front of Lucifer. " Wait. If we kill him then he won't get to see the failure he is you wanted to see. You wanted him to watch heaven burn then hell could experience the same while he watched." Roo wasn't convinced and he needed to hurry up. " You don't listen to me ever yet you do when I say he has suffered enough? Did you not suffer enough yet they still kept you cadged?"
" Mmmm true....very well but I can't let him walk away when he is planning my death. So I will just give a reminder from me." She pulled out a blade and shadows slammed Lucifer into a wall as they wrapped around him while she grabbed his face. " Out of all the marks I could leave, I want this to be seen by everyone so every day you wake up you see what I did as a reminder of how pathetic you are. Alastor brings one of his daughters I would prefer the one without powers so she sees how weak she is."
Lucifer tried ed to yell out to beg Alastor not to get Charlie but in a blink, he pushed Amara to the ground as her hands remained cuffed behind her back. " Eve please I made sin so I should be punished not my daughter, please. You already did enough by taking Alastor away from us."
" DAD NO!!" All of her work to get stronger was for nothing cause now in this moment all she could do was sit there and watch. She looked beside her to see Alastor standing there just watching. " If you feel anything for him you will stop her! Please!"
" W...wait, you think I killed your Alastor? Hahaha! Oh, Lucifer you did that on your own by not being king or better yet a good father. I simply got back what was left and made him anew. I mean come on, Lucifer, you managed the impossible by weakening my strongest subject. Look at him, he's better without any of you and he's stronger and faster than before." She walked over to Alastor and slapped his back as he quickly stepped away. " This isn't your's anymore, it belongs to me and it always will. The man you knew died which you won't accept because he has his face. " She grabbed Alastor as she held his face tightly. " I made you into a killing machine and one so strong he could tear the heavens apart."
" That's where you're wrong, that is my Alastor who you hurt to the point he doesn't even know his real life. The one he had here to his first life on earth and it doesn't take brains to see he hates you." Lucifer looked at Alastor as he rubbed his face and Roo stepped away. " That is a person Eve! His name is Alastor Thomas and you will die for taking him away from me and our family!" Just as Roo ran over pissed with the blade almost touching his eye the exorcist surrounded them as well as some of the hotel residents and even overlords. " You lose."
" Hahaha, you think they scare me?" She turned to Alastor. " Kill them all." As she forced Lucifer to watch Alastor quickly slammed his staff on the ground opening several portals to the void as tentacles quickly started killing. Each cut made the tentacles multiply as exorcists screamed even sinners. " You lose Lucifer and I think it was cute you really tried to get him to remember something I burned out of that mind ages ago. Hahah! Alastor how about....."
" Enough!!" When Vox showed her and Vaggie what was going on they both managed to fight which Vox didn't even question as he walked up to the fight with them. " Alastor! I looked you in the eyes and I saw a piece of the man I once knew so I know he's in there. You hated being controlled so why are you letting her when you hold the power, not her!"
Roo was laughing as she held Lucifer tighter as he yelled out. " That was your speech?! Hahaha!! You think you can turn what is mine against me?! Wow, Lilith you really did fail as a parent or I guess Lucifer since you couldn't produce shit! Alastor kill her and make sure all of them are watching."
Vox quickly stood in front of Charlie as well as Vaggie but Alastor moved his hand and they were both knocked into a building he quickly zapped back as he even quicker shot out cables at Alastor while his face quickly blinded him. As the cables held Alastor he looked back at Charlie. " Do it now!"
Charlie ran forward but as she started to get close Roo knocked her into a wall as she tried to get back up Roo was choking her. But as she kicked and gasped for air she could hear everyone screaming even trying to land just one hit but failing. Then she saw her, her knight shining quickly stabbing Roo in the shoulder quickly breaking her free as she gasped for air.
Vaggie held her staff as everyone else circled Roo. " Touch Charlie or our family again and I will personally rip you to shreds. Now leave and never come back unless......"
Vox had tried to hold Alastor and contuined to blind him even shocking him but he couldn't hold him much longer. He had cables tightly wrapped around him to the point he was pretty sure he broke some bones maybe even causing some bleeding. " Um....guys I need help here!!" Once the words came out Alastor broke free holding his arm as a tentacle went straight through him Valentino quickly started shooting but somehow Alastor reversed the bullets and shot them back at Valentino even Velvette. " Alastor please....."
As everyone went against Alastor it all failed but Vaggie stayed with Charlie until it was just him and her. " Alastor we don't want to hurt you so please listen....."
Roo slowly stood up as she looked at Alastor. " Kill her then meet me at the shield for the next step." She walked up to Lucifer. " I will try this again after I destroy heaven." She slapped his face and then started to walk away as she laughed but stopped when she heard Charlie.
Charlie stood up as she grabbed Vaggie's hand. " Alastor I would never hurt you I just wanted you to see the truth. But....but if you're going to kill Vaggie then you have to kill me as well."
Alastor wouldn't hurt Charlie, right? He thought he wouldn't but when Alastor kept walking towards Charlie and Vaggie he realized he would. " Alastor stop!!" To not just his surprise but everyone's he listened as he looked back at him. " Please she just wants to help you like we all do. We all care about you Alastor and we don't care if you never who you were before cause we would have you. I....I would have you."
Charlie stepped in front of Vaggie as she looked at Alastor. " I can give you my memories of you if it will help you see."
Angel slowly sat up as Niffty quickly ran from his arms. " Nif!"
Niffty quickly ran up to Alastor as she hugged him. " I missed you and I did everything you asked of me. I even made sure everything stayed the way you like in your room."
Charlie was about to grab Niffty but Husk got up and spoke first. " Niffty get away from him now!"
" Husk no!" Niffty held Alastor tighter as she saw Husk walking over. " Touch us and I will kill you!"
He picked the little bug off of him and handed her to Husk she screamed for him as he turned to Charlie. " I don't need to see anything more 'cause I am not this person you are all after. I am not....."
" Ugh.....boss you are the Alastor we all knew. How do you think you own souls? You can grab and control us which I know you have to think is odd when you think you have never been here before." Husk had been told what Sera told Lucifer and Amara but it was seeing Niffty in tears as he held her back from Alastor that he knew he needed to do the right thing. " I know who you are so.....so if you want to see who you are without the Morningstars then...then have Lucifer or Charlie show you mine."
He had Lucifer released from the shadows as he looked around at what he did which he couldn't even remember doing but he stopped as Lucifer stood there looking at him. " I.....I need to go she...."
" Roo might be your queen but Alastor sometimes the ones in charge need to be changed out just like heaven does. With you on our side, we can make sure she can never hurt you again and make sure heaven changes. I can help you with the rest like I said earlier. I know you want the pain to stop and I can do that Alastor." He held his hand out as he looked Alastor in the eyes. " You are not something to be bossed around or some pet, you are a person who deserves to be happy even if you don't want me in it." How he hoped Alastor wanted him in his life.
Alastor looked at Lucifer's hand as he held his arm but as he closed his eyes for a moment he found himself holding Lucifer's hand. " Sera gets punished for everything she did and the council will be better?"
" Hell yeah, Al. I say the exorcists should only be used to fight wars never to hurt sinners or do anything like they did to you and your people." Angel held Husk's shoulder as he smiled.
" Heaven will pay for what they did to all of you but the right way cause there are good people up there. We can all help you learn the truth if it's what you want." Amara walked over as she held Charlie's hand. " If......if you want you......you could even try to be my father? I know you don't know how but we can show you."
" Why would you all do that for me? I just almost killed all of you?" Everything came at a price and no one was nice unless they were after something.
Lucifer grabbed Alastor's other hand as he held it to his chest. " Cause we all care about you and even love your crazy ass heheh. What do you say?"
Before he had a chance to answer he heard her laugh making him turn around to see her walking up as she tossed her hat aside. " Oh Alastor I thought it would take more but what should I expect....oh well." She snapped and Alastor was gone as she laughed again.
" Where is he?!" Lucifer was going to kill her.
" Just needed to remind him what happens if he betrays me again that's all. Lucifer just so you know if you kill me while he's away then neither you nor heaven will find where he is. So I am going to walk free and spread the message." She turned to leave as she laughed at Lucifer's frustration.
Charlie pulled her Dad into a hug as Amara joined and quickly everyone did. " We will get him back Dad and she will get what's coming." She looked up to see the shield break that surrounded Pride which prevented anyone from leaving. With it broken Roo and her people can get to heaven meaning they failed.
Notes:
Will Roo bring Alastor back to fight Heaven? How will Alastor act after going back to the Void? Will Roo win the fight? Will Lucifer be able to get Alastor back? Is the fight over now that they made it to heaven?
More to come tomorrow.
Bye.
Chapter 18: Fight
Summary:
The hotel goes up to heaven to help with the fight as some fight Charlie, Niffty, Husk, and Amara get the winners and angels out of heaven, but as they do, they run into Emily trying to do the same thing. While Lucifer finds Sera and Roo. Lucifer comes face to face with Alastor, only this time he is back to how he was before, which only made things more difficult as Alastor tries to force Sera to confess to everyone what she did.
Notes:
I had originally planned for this to be a much bigger fight further into the story, but I found myself writing this sooner, even put it all into one chapter, which I am happy about, cause it will leave me a lot of room for a lot more angst heheh and ships.
So I hope you all enjoy, and maybe when I get further ahead in writing, I might draw up some art.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Lucifer looked up to the sky to see the shield broken which only meant he really did fail. Everyone was right about him and now heaven was going to be destroyed because he couldn't do what needed to be done. At least he had his daughters holding him and their friends. Even with the loss he still had Alastr in his mind, his mind and body wanted to go to heaven and get Alastor but his heart was afraid. Afraid Roo pushed Alastor too far, that the progress he made would be for nothing.
Lilith walked up to all of them as she looked at them. " We need to go up there now before she wins. Hugs can wait until that bitch is dead or locked up."
" She has a point we might have lost down here but right now we can redeem ourselves by showing what we can fucking do." Husk put Niffty on his head as he looked at everyone. " That bitch has gotta go."
" I'm with them on this." Vaggie walked over to Lilith and Husk as she looked at Charlie. " The fight has only started and right now we can stop this still. Lucifer you want Alastor back well he's up there so let's bring him home."
" I won't say no to a fight, especially one with Cherri. I even got some of her bombs she left which she will love." Angel walked over as other hotel residents walked with him.
" Dad you're the only one who can get to Alastor and if we don't hurry he will do something that heaven will never forgive." Charlie grabbed her dad's hand and Amara's. " Let's make this family whole again."
" I'm with Charlie, Dad. I also want to keep Grammie safe from the fighting even if it means bringing her down here." Amara looked at Charlie and then her dad who slowly started to smile.
He pulled Amara and Charlie in as he hugged them. " I made amazing daughters, haha but alright let's win this. Besides, I want to knock that smile off Roo's face." He kissed their cheeks then let go as he looked at everyone. " Alright be safe and whatever you do....kick some shadow ass!" He led them to the embassy as they walked through the portal. The gates to heaven were already destroyed and screams could be heard so they started to run in and fly. He flew to the ground as he saw his brothers fighting Roo and failing as they tried to protect the courthouse. " Alright Amara, Niffty, Husk, and Charlie you get the winners out of here and to the hotel where they will be safe while everyone else kicks some shadow ass."
As everyone went their separate ways Amara grabbed Niffty from Husk then they were off. They headed straight to Alastor's mom's house only to find it empty so they went to her restaurant only to find it packed with angels fearing for their lives. " It's alright we are going to get you all out of here and somewhere safer."
" I am not going to hell!"
Charlie looked at Amara then the angel. " They are fighting up here so it would be safer than up here. Once this is over we will bring you right back but for now, we have to get moving." Suddenly the door opened only it was Emily. " Emily we are evacuating everyone so no one else gets hurt."
" I was going to do the same thing. Everyone we need to hurry before the shadows spread." Emily managed to get everyone out as they rushed out of the city while also being cautious of the fighting. " Charlie I tried to talk to the council but orders are to kill everyone from the void even Alastor."
" Why can't they see that their treating those people that way is what caused this in the first place? I mean the exorcists went to the void and tortured those souls as if they weren't being tortured enough with the darkness." Charlie looked back to see Amara helping Alastor's mom. " I mean Alastor just wants Sera and wants heaven to change so this doesn't happen again. He can stop all of this but he won't if they try and kill him."
Emily stopped as she looked at Charlie. " Did they really do that to them?" Charlie nodded. " I'm so sorry they did that and Alastor has every right to want change...I mean I wanted it after I heard about extermination day but they stopped. But how are we sure that's your Alastor? We saw him die."
Amara walked over to the front with Alastor's mom who was holding Niffty. " When he died it was just his physical body so all this time Roo has been torturing him for stopping her before. But Sera knew he was alive and what was going on with him yet did nothing and said nothing. She thinks a sorry will give us back the almost 20 years we missed with him or take away everything Roo did to him but it won't. She needs to pay for what she did."
" Sera wouldn't......." As she looked at Charlie and Amara even Alastor's mom she saw it was true and quickly held her mouth. " When this is over I will call a meeting but I will need both of you to say that to the council and Lucifer." She looked ahead and then at Charlie. " I want to make heaven the place for good not built on lies and the suffering of others like Sera and the council have done. And I am sorry for not knowing."
Charlie put a hand on Emily's shoulder as she smiled. " We don't blame you and I love that you want to make heaven what it should be. For now, let's save the people and win this fight."
Lucifer was a bit shocked at how much stronger the shadows were in heaven but as pushed his way through he ran inside the council building helped the angels out and fought off the shadows. But the further he got in he would occasionally look outside to see everyone fighting but angels were dropping just like shadows. As he walked through he heard Roo talking so he quickly flew up and hid as he looked down Roo had Sera tied up in a chair and as much as he wanted to keep watching Roo beat Sera up he knew Sera needed far worse than this so he quickly blasted Roo out of the room but as he followed she vanished. He turned back to Sera as he unwrapped her. " Just so you know I only did this because I want everyone to look at you when they find out what you did."
As she pulled her hands close to heal her wrists, she thanked Lucifer but as she looked at the door, a dark figure stood there with red eyes. " If you want that Lucifer then you better keep me alive."
Lucifer went to turn around but quickly both he and Sera were thrown into the wall as tentacles held them against the wall. As he looked at the dark figure walk into the light he saw it was Alastor just back in the black suit from when he first saw him. " Alastor I want her to pay for everything but it was you who said the best things come to those who wait. Let her face all of heaven and they see her the way you do." Alastor didn't even look at him as he released Sera who quickly started blasting Alastor who vanished and appeared behind Sera then knocking her to the floor as shadows held her down.
" For children of god you sure are weak but I heard rank can be shown by wings am I correct?" Alastor pressed his heel into Sera's back making her wings come out. " Answer me."
" Yes and no!" Sera held her cries as Alastor pushed harder. " Are powers are another ways as is a few other things!"
" Oh....." Alastor held his staff's mic to Sera's mouth. " Tell them your crimes."
" NO! GET OFF OF.......AHAHAH!!!" Alastor ripped one of her wings off as she went to look Alastor tossed it in front of her as she cried. " I didn't do anything!"
" Really, how about you made the order to torture a whole world full of sinners? Sinners who already lived in never-ending darkness yet you feared us? Haha, you even went down there to see for yourself but got scared and just forgot about the thousands of souls you left being tortured by your little pets." He looked at Sera on the ground then Lucifer. " You didn't do anything yet the bringer of light, the king of hell, wants you to pay for your crimes. Anything ringing a bell?" He held his mic to Sera's mouth.
" YOU ARE A MONSTER! ALL OF YOU!" In a blink, another wing was torn from her back making her scream out in pain.
" ALASTOR STOP!!" Sera deserved this but Alastor was just proving her right. " This is what she wants so stop all of this and...."
" Not your turn." He had a tentacle wrap around Lucifer's mouth as he went back to Sera. " Now someone in your rank has....6 wings but now you have 4 would you like 2?" He turned around as he saw angels quickly trying to come in but in a snap, they were dead as both Sera and Lucifer screamed. " Now want to be honest? Cause I know the so-called winners are being escorted out of heaven and I know the king of hell has a role in it so unless you wish for me to pay them all a visit. If you're so good then you will simply tell everyone the truth and I will move on from you." She just looked at him as he had another wing torn from Sera's back making her scream out again. " Come on I just asking for honesty is that so hard? I am threatening to kill every being with a halo and wings yet you still refuse to just come clean."
" How.....how do I know you won't kill me?" Sera looked up at Alastor as he started to laugh.
" You don't, now confess." He held the mic to Sera's face as a tentacle wrapped around another wing but just as she was about to speak the door busted open and the angel of death stood there. " Haha, this is fun in all but....."
" Fun?! You have killed hundreds if not thousands! You say Sera caused this but it's you just making excuses for your own fucked up mind. When I am finished you won't be smiling anymore!"
Lucifer blinked and the two were gone but he tried to break free but as he did Roo appeared laughing as she ripped Sera's feathers until she looked at him. She moved the tentacle off his mouth. " Stop this! You are only proving Sera right!"
" Am I now? You see once she confesses for everyone to hear I have Alastor destroy heaven and everything in it." She ran her hands through Lucifer's hair. " You like the improvements? I just needed to make a few tweaks and I think it was quite the improvement." As she turned to the door it opened again but Alastor walked in covered in gold. " Tell me it was public and you brought me some."
" Showed their people with his blood and....." He looked down at his hand as he held up the angel's head making both Sera and Lucifer cry out.
" Alastor did you claim his soul?" She walked over and she grabbed the head. He just stared at the head as she looked at him. " ALASTOR!"
" What was it?" He couldn't fly but he made sure the angel couldn't fly by tearing his wings off for everyone to see just like she told him while he ruffed him up he was told to wait until everyone was watching and he sliced his head clean off.
She walked up to Alastor and grabbed his ear tightly. " I asked if you took his soul before you sliced his head off!" She threw him into the wall.
As he stood up he looked at Roo as she stared him down. " I did and I made sure he was where you wanted him." He couldn't stop looking at the head, why did she want that out of all things?
Roo placed the head in front of Sera as she looked at her cry. " Did my pet kill your friends?" Then she looked at Lucifer. " Did he kill your brother?" She turned to Alastor. " Get her to confess and I will get everything else finished and Alastor......if you don't get this done...."
" I will." He stood up as she walked out but once the doors closed, he walked over to Sera and stabbed his staff where a wing used to be making her cry out. " Unless you want to turn out like that one just admit what you did."
It had been ages since he had seen his brothers but seeing one's head still hurt. But it was seeing Alastor freeze when Roo asked him a question he couldn't help but wonder if Alastor didn't even know what he did. " Sera just tell the truth!"
Emily had been running back and forth with Charlie and Amara to get winners and angels out of heaven as the fights started to get worse. But as she came back with Charlie she heard Sera's screams on the speakers around the city. Charlie found out it was playing even in hell but when Sera screamed again she couldn't take it anymore and ran to her. She knew exactly where Sera would be and quickly flew over without being seen. Only the door was locked so she found a way to sneak in only to see Lucifer bound to the wall as Alastor held his mic to Sera. Lucifer was yelling for Sera to tell the truth but she yelled no.
In a blink, a tentles was breaking one of Sera's remaining wings and she quickly flew down as she tried to blast Alastor but he was gone. But as she tried to find him she was quickly thrown into the wall as a tentacle wrapped around her neck tightly. " Alastor please......"
" How about now?" Alastor smiled as he looked at Emily. " How you about your sister?"
" No please......I.....I had the exorcist go to the void and torture everyone so none of them ever dared leave again. I knew Alastor was alive and what Roo was doing...."
He grabbed a handful of feathers as he looked at Sera. " It's about them not me."
" You were a danger to let free and so to ensure heaven's safety I made sure none of you could ever get free and I locked Roo in a cage. But if anyone got it the worst it was you, Alastor and for that I am......." She cried out as another ring was ripped out. " I am sorry.......I saw what she was doing, I saw what all of them were doing to your people and you. She turned you into this and....."
" Stop it!" He had Sera thrown to the wall as she cried out in pain as he walked up to her. " You don't get to be sorry! All of it was because of you!" He looked down at his staff as he tossed it aside. " All of these deaths could have been prevented if you never let those exorcists hurt all of us! If you stopped her before.........." He took a breath as he looked at Emily. " You are a good person but let me guess everyone you took out of heaven is at that hotel?"
How did Alastor get that so quickly? " Please there are good people in there and they just wanted to stay safe from the fighting. When Charlie told me what Sera did I didn't believe it but Alastor what she let Roo do to you and what she allowed the exorcists to do is just wrong. No one deserves to be treated that way not even you. I saw how u had changed for the better when you fell for Lucifer and Amara was born. It just proved anyone no matter what can have good inside of them and Alastor you do even......."
" Stop it! How can I be good when I did that?!" Why didn't he even remember the fight?
The way Alastor looked at the head and the way he looked at it as if he was clueless. " You don't remember doing that do you?" When Alastor looked at him he realized he was right. " You are here to destroy heaven for what they did to everyone in that Void right? But Alastor when Sera went down there she saw what Roo was doing, and even Roo admitted to doing everything to you. She was pissed because you outsmarted her so she didn't kill me or attack heaven and when you died she took it as her chance to have her revenge. The exsorcists are mostly all gone but if you stop me and Emily can make sure they pay as well as Sera and the council for everything. Destroying heaven......" Suddenly he was dropped to the ground but as he looked up a shadow suddenly appeared and punched him hard to the point he tasted his own blood.
" Enough! Sera caused this so she can watch heaven fall." As he was about to walk away Lucifer spoke.
" I thought you liked people's suffering? How is her dying with heaven making her pay? You're just giving her an easy way out and Emily never knew what Sera or the council did. They kept everyone in the dark Alastor and yet you want to punish everyone who didn't even know? I want heaven to pay for lying and everything they did but there are innocent people here. How can you say you're better than her when you doing this?" He slowly stood up as Alastor looked at him. " I know you don't remember anything from before and earlier but for once you hold the power over her and me and you can stop her. She...."
" No....no I am nothing like her, I just want them to pay." He shook his head as he looked at Sera and Emily then Lucifer who kept walking closer.
" Then we make everyone know what she did, what she allowed to happen. Everyone she has ever known will never see her the same and you know what once Emily finds a new council they will either lock her up or make her fall which is her worst fear. Make her suffering last longer and I can help you remember who you are and who you were." He held his hands out just like before. " I give you my word I won't hurt you, I just want to help. Roo made you go back there for a few hours and took everything you had back away."
" If you want more I can help Alastor. I can give you back your real memories, not the fake ones Roo made. We can help you 'cause I know you would want Roo to pay for everything she has done to you and here in heaven she can't force you back especially when she needs you to destroy heaven." Emily didn't fight the hold as she smiled at Alastor. " I know from everyone's stories how smart you are and you have to see that after you do this she won't need you anymore and she won't share her new title or power."
One thing he could see was if someone was lying and not once did either of them lie. " I....I can't fight her......and you're wrong. We have a deal if I help her I can be free, I don't care about more power I just want peace."
" I know you do but what about the nightmares or the voices? Those won't ever let you have peace, every day you look at yourself you will see what she did and it will only make it worse. Please let me show you and if you still want to follow her then go ahead and I won't stop you." He put his hands out again as he stood in front of Alastor. " Hell you can kill me right after but it's only the truth."
" Are you all serious right now?! Kill him! Emily, he will never......" Sera looked over to see Alastor grab Lucifer's hands.
Once he let go Alastor quickly backed away into the wall as he slid down to the floor and held his head. Why didn't he remember any of this? There was so much to go through even some that just happend between him and Lucifer, he even saw Roo confessing to everything that happend to him. " Take it back!"
Lucifer looked behind him as Emily and Sera were both released but he walked over to Alastor and even sat in front of him. " Alastor just focus on Roo confessing and our conversation from that garden. After all of this is over we will help you understand the rest and when you're ready we can give you your memories not just mine." He saw Emily sit down beside him.
" Alastor, everyone told me how strong you are and how smart even if you never stop smiling which creeps me out a bit. But if anyone could do this it's you and you have Lucifer who loves you and a family who loves you. You have people who care about you even friends who want nothing more than you to come back. I won't tell you what to do Alastor but from everything I know you will do what's right. And I will make sure heaven changes for good, It has been long overdue." Emily grabbed Alastor's staff and then placed it beside him. " No one should control you and your mind is yours to control."
Lucifer gently touched Alastor's hand which had him quickly look at him. " With Roo gone no one will ever control you and I will be right there to take all of that pain and the nightmares away. Just like I did that night and even if you're never who you were Alastor I will always love you."
" Even after everything I did?" Every touch brought back memories of pain but none as Lucifer held his hand.
" Oh come on I fell in love with the radio demon here, you laugh over someone else's suffering and I don't care what you did......well.....I might not do well around all the blood but I don't have to look." He scooted closer to Alastor as he gently touched his cheek. " Once this is over I am just asking for a day's long sleep with you holding me. Hehe, I like it when you hold me."
" Haha.....I remember that." He just looked at Lucifer then Emily. " Alright, I will stop her. But I want to do it myself."
" Alright." Lucifer laid his head on Alastor's shoulder but as he did he could feel Alastor was in pain. " Emily take Sera to the basement and stay there until I get you." Emily nodded as she wished them luck then left with Sera. "You hurt aren't you?"
Alastor just stood up as he helped Lucifer up. " It's nothing I can't handle but I have a plan to stop her but you might not like it."
Everything was planned out to the last second since she's had thousands of years to plan this out but one thing she hadn't planned was for Lucifer to get into Alastor's head so easily. But just in time Alastor was walking up but as she looked she saw Lucifer. " Why the hell did you bring him?"
" Shouldn't he see his failure? I mean he lost and shouldn't he see what we did here before we destroy it all?" His shadow pushed Lucifer to his knees as he walked over to Roo. " You wanted him to watch."
" I did but now....now I say he should die with the rest of his kind." Roo smiled as she grabbed Lucifer by his throat. " Or I can have him watch as you destroy the hotel which has every angel and winner even his friends and daughters. Makes it so much easier."
" W...wait you wanted heaven to fall and you will get that but they didn't do anything! None of us knew!" Lucifer tried to pull his hands free when Roo started to choke him but quickly she tossed him to the ground. " We never wanted you all to suffer!"
" So you weren't involved when they sent the exorcist down there to make sure none of us ever got free? You had no knowledge of the void? Cause I pulled the records Lucifer and you agreed to make sure we never got free. Alastor was the only one of us who could get out and you knew that." She forced Lucifer onto his knees.
" I thought he was dead, I was the one who held him as he died. I was grieving and I couldn't worry about you getting free. I wanted to keep my daughter safe, I needed to keep the last thing I had of him alive. Months after I became obsessed with reading everything that there was about the void and my theory of Alastor being alive only Sera lied to me saying she went down there herself and didn't see him. I thought they would just keep an eye on all of you never that, never something so horrible. I knew how bad it was down there 'cause I saw a piece of it from Alastor and not even you deserved worse than that." Lucifer looked at Alastor who started to back away after he heard Roo but as he spoke Alastor stopped. " But you want heaven to pay for what they did but you were no better. You hurt your own people so they suffered like you then you hurt Alastor for outsmarting you. You should pay just like Sera and the council should."
Quickly she punched Lucifer to the ground as she knelt down and grabbed his face. " Well, the whole reason I was ever put there was because of you. If you never gave me that apple or fell in love with Lilith then I could have lived up here and no one would have had to die."
He licked the blood from his lip as he looked Roo in the eyes. " You could have turned it down but if I never did any of that then I wouldn't have had Charlie or Amara or even met Alastor. It's okay to sin and it gave everyone free will so I don't have regrets but I do regret never going to the void myself to look for you......I will always regret never looking myself for you, Alastor cause I could have saved you from her sooner, and our daughter could have grown up knowing you. I'm so sorry Alastor."
" Cute but he got everything he deserved and....." She pulled Lucifer to her face as she whispered in his ear. " And after he destroys heaven, I will lock him away as I terrorized every last soul but this time instead of thousands of screams there will be nothing but silence."
Lucifer was terrified that if the plan failed that Alastor would really be locked away but as he looked at Alastor he saw he heard every word and was pissed. " Roo some advice.....deer's having freakishly great hearing."
As she looked at Lucifer confused suddenly she was thrown into a building when she went to get up she saw Alastor in his demon form. " Alastor we have a plan here and....."
" And it's over! You were never going to let me free and you are no better than heaven!" He picked Roo up and he started punching her. " I did everything you wanted and it was never enough! You never stopped!" He was kicked off as shadows quickly held him still.
She wiped the blood from her mouth as she walked over to Alastor but as she did Lucifer suddenly hit her making her fall back. " You aren't hurting him anymore!" Lucifer freed Alastor who to his surprise didn't even look at him as his minions grabbed Roo.
" You think you can kill me?! Hahaha! You to weak without me and how are you ever going to stay sane without me? Do you think you can live happily ever after when you did all of this?! Heaven will kill you! Even if they don't they will lock you away where no one will find you." She smiled as Alastor walked to her.
" I don't care as long as you are gone and besides I am stronger than you which is why you needed me to destroy heaven." One of his shadows quickly grabbed Roo by her throat tightly.
" Then.....then you should know who let us free.......Amara and Alastor......you will never be free of me." She started to laugh until she couldn't breathe anymore but as she started to fade she was suddenly dropped to the ground.
Lucifer didn't know how Amara could have opened a portal to the void but the more he thought about it the more he realized he had some strange sheet in one of the books about the void. Maybe? But right now he needed to focus. " Alastor what are you....."
" I kill her she will just go back to the Void but if heaven or you kill her then she will stay dead." He turned to Lucifer who just looked down at Roo.
" If we kill her now all of this will go on you so what if......what if we lock her away and......" Lucifer knew a place but Alastor was quick to shut him down.
" If you don't kill her then I will put her where no one will find her or reach her." He turned to Roo as she looked at him terrified.
" Alastor I am the void so I will get through and when I do....."
" You won't cause I will kill you." How could they be better than her and Sera when they just wanted to lock her away? " You will never be free until she's gone and I want you to be happy so if I need to kill her then I will."
" Lucifer please you can't kill much less....." Suddenly Lucifer's hand was in her chest as he held her heart. " You take him home he will kill all of you and......"
" I trust him and this...." Lucifer squeezed his hand around her heart making her yell out. " This is for taking him away from me and my girls." She screamed until he pulled his hand out but as he looked at her she laid there motionless and when he looked at his hand he saw her heart in his hand and quickly dropped it. " What now?"
" Now you tell your angel friend it's over and I send the shadows home." He couldn't help himself as he stepped on the heart and Lucifer stood up giggling. " You realize you killed someone right?"
" Yeah, but she was a total bitch and with her gone I know you will be okay. Oh, and I get to take you home with me heheheh." He would hug Alastor but it was too much too soon as he held his hand out. " Why don't we tell Emily then we can tell everyone they can come home?"
" Lucifer.....I played a part in all of this I can't show my face like I am the hero of the story. But you go ahead I have to tend to some things." He didn't have to know Lucifer to see he was worried. " Yours is that outdated building past the woods right?"
" It's not that bad but yeah. You will come back, right? Cause we don't have to share a room or anything and I have spare rooms. We also can just read like we used to if you want?" Why did this feel like a goodbye and why were his eyes starting to water? " Hell if you want we can go to the hotel or out if...."
" Lucifer I....I think I could just use some time to understand all of this is what I need right now. I need to sort things with the void and I make some much needed changes but....can I have a few days? I shouldn't be but 3 or 4 days if that's fine?" He looked at his staff for a few seconds then it vanished as he looked at Lucifer.
Was he asking him or did he want his opinion? " Alastor...."
" It's not that I am not thankful for your help but I don't know if this is something I want. I imagined my freedom alone not with someone else much less a bunch of people who still hate me. Maybe just a day at least?" There was a lot to decipher from Lucifer's memories that he wanted to understand but he couldn't if someone was right there.
" Alastor you don't have to ask but I take the time you need alright? I will be in that outdated place when you're ready. But if you want to just stop by I will be there even if you don't want to stay." He gently grabbed Alastor's hand and then kissed it. " You don't have to say it back but I love you." He smiled and just in a blink Alastor was gone. But he teleported to Emily and told her everything that happend and about Alastor. " I will head back and tell everyone the news but...."
" As a city, we will clean up and Lucifer I can't thank you enough for your help. Once everything is restored in a day or two I will call a meeting for a new council which I hope you will assist me with as well as the hotel. After a new council is in then Sera will have her trial but we will need Alastor to tell everyone about the void." Emily was about to lock the cell when Sera stopped her.
" If you want to go by the rules on this Emily then I can't be locked away. I am still in charge until the council says otherwise. But I don't want to cause any harm so I will allow you to keep your plan and I will remain in heaven." Sera walked out as she held herself. " You can hate me all you want but Lucifer you know until I am charged I am still free and in charge."
" Fine." He hated it but Sera was right. He didn't have anything more to say and left to tell everyone the good news.
Sera waited until Lucifer was long gone before turning to Emily. " Emily I know he is the reason heavn is still standing but once heaven is in order I will put a warrent out for Alastor."
" What?!" Emily quickly stood in front of Sera. " He was doing what Roo wanted and in the end, he saved us all! He roughed you up but we have no idea what she did to him and you allowed her to hurt him for the last 20 years."
" He killed too many of our people Emily and he committed a crime just leaving the Void. With Roo dead they will need a new ruler and unfortunately, it belongs to Alastor now." She took a breath as she snapped a paper. " When everything is in order while you find a new council I want to propose the destruction of the void so something like this new happens again. Alastor might have helped us in the end but it won't make up for everything else he did and Emily I warn you now this isn't to be said with anyone else if you wish to keep your rank in heaven."
Notes:
How will everyone react to the news of Heaven trying to lock Alastor up? Does Alastor know he is next to rule the Void? Will Emily be able to have Sera's trial before it's too late? With Roo gone, how will the Void be now? Will Alastor ever feel the same for Lucifer?
So much more to come, and I even got some radioapple coming your way if you made it this far. Thank you all for reading and I hope you are all enjoying the story so far....I would hope you would if you read this far, and I don't know how long this story will be, but I do plan on driving into Alastor's recovery, even everyone adjusting to him being back.
Even dig into Alastor's past and the world Roo made him believe was his.
Bunch of stuff coming so be prepared hehehe.......bye.
Chapter 19: Adjustments
Summary:
Lucifer tries to wait patiently for Alastor to return, but Alastor is gone longer than he said, and he begins to worry as Amara and Charlie, with the hotel, try to take Lucifer's mind off Alastor. When Alastor shows you a few days late, Lucifer and he to things slow and try to adjust, but the next morning Lucifer realizes just how traumatized Alastor is. Amara sees it as well and tries to help out side. She had a role in the morning, going back for Alastor, so they spent some time together without Lucifer, which helped. A party is going on in the city to celebrate the radio demon's return, and Amara invites Alastor to join.
Notes:
I made this one a bit longer, but it will be worth it cause I present a radioapple chapter. Long awaited at this point, but enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Everyone was thrilled when he came and told them the news that heaven was safe and Roo wasn't ever going to be a problem again. They helped the angels get home but as hell celebrated and the hotel he stayed home looking out the window, wondering what Alastor was doing. He had told everyone how Alastor was the reason they won but after he wanted to take some time to himself and get everyone back in the void who belonged there.
Sure he should be happy that they won and heaven was going to make some much-needed changes but changes won't help Alastor, it won't give them back the time they lost with Alastor. He hated to be a downer so he just stayed at the palace trying to keep himself busy with fixing hell up from the damage to just reading. Hell, he even gave cooking a try and failed horribly. But Charlie came to see him and Amara was back to staying at the palace which was nice to know she was around and he even helped her find her other powers from his side.
Alastor's mom heard about his failed cooking. She insisted on coming over daily to cook and even had everyone over to the palace one night for an old-fashioned game night. Another was just Alastor's mom and Charlie, Vaggie, Niffty, and Amara which he enjoyed having all of them around. Even watched some old-timey movies with no sound that Amara recommended which was funny cause Niffty started guessing what the people were saying.
Some night Amara stayed with him and some Charlie did. It only took a day to realize what everyone was doing which he appreciated but he was fine. Sure he was still counting the days when Alastor would be back but Alastor needed time and he was going to give it to him. But he wasn't going to turn everyone away and sure as hell wasn't going to turn down Alastor's mom's food. She should be in heaven fixing everything but she couldn't go, not when Alastor was out there confused and hurting which he could judge cause he would do the same for her daughters.
It had been almost a week and as much as he hated it he was worried so after 5 days he called around and nothing but as day 7 ended. Night fell he couldn't help but sit at the window as he read one of Alastor's books that he got from his old room at the hotel. He quickly looked away from the book when he heard someone knock at the door. " Coming." He quickly got up and answered the door excited at the idea behind the door was Alastor but when he did it was Amara. " Oh, Amara is something wrong?"
" Dad I'm sorry he hasn't shown up but if you want we could go out?" Walking into her Dad's room she knew when her dad was sad or depressed when the record player was going, the fire was lit, and he was at the window either reading or looking at the sky.
" Oh you have nothing to be sorry over, Froggie I am just reading before bed. But you should have some fun I will be fine." After everything happend everyone in hell knew Alastor was back as the radio demon but no one dared to say or touch anyone associated with the radio demon so he knew Amara would be safe.
Being back home felt nice but hiding the fact she was eating deer meat and occasionally sinners from her dad wasn't easy. She had to go see Roise on the daily and then helped herself to whatever her grandmother made but sneaking around just for a full while felt wrong it also felt amazing not being hungry all the time. " Charlie and the hotel are doing a movie night I was going to go but do you want to come? I heard Angel brought his speaker down to do some dancing and I know how much you like all of that."
He walked up to Amara and hugged her then let go. " You don't have to take care of me Amara go have fun I will be here when you get back. Just tell everyone I say hello."
" Alright but if you need me or Charlie we are just a call away." She pulled her dad into a hug as she laid her head on the top of his. " If he comes tonight and you two do something please put a sock or something on the door I don't need to be blinded by my dads."
" Hahah!" It was nice hearing Amara call Alastor her father even more when she called them her dad's. " What exactly classifies for a sock on the door? I am a bit old so I don't know...."
" Please don't make me say it but anything you know would forever traumatize me. Better yet just lock the door and I can knock." She walked to the door but stopped as she opened it. " I love you, Dad."
" I love you, too, Amara."
When the door closed he walked back to the window and sat down as he read for a couple more hours only he didn't even realize he had fallen asleep until something touched his shoulder making him just off the window to the floor. When he quickly looked up he saw Alastor standing there in his regular suit and quickly stood up. " Oh sorry I....I didn't mean to doze off I...."
" I didn't mean to scare you to that degree but I know I am a bit late like I said. You just looked.....well dead and I don't think I need to have another person dead with everything going on." He picked Lucifer's book up as he looked at the title. " This seems like an interesting read may I ask why you picked this?"
" Oh, it's yours. You have an amazing collection of books which I told you I would read long after you were gone which you were fine with so you can't get upset. But I like reading your book it helps to know you had touched the pages and gave your time to each book." As Alastor handed it back he put it on the table as she showed Alastor his bookshelf. " I have a library full of books which I have read on repeat but I couldn't help switch some of mine for yours." He sat down by the fireplace as he had Alasor sit. " Anyways did you get the stuff you needed done?"
" I did and I even spent some time looking at hell not just this ring but the others. Some of your memories took place in other places and I thought if I visited some of the places it would help me remember something but all I got was this feeling like something bad was going to happen." He looked over at the fire. " I don't know if I want to remember at all I mean couldn't I just ask?"
" I mean you can but if I told you something that she changed you will just think I am wrong. Like your mom who you said was awful to you but Alastor she was nothing like that, she was everything to you and when she died you closed yourself off." He saw Alastor trying to hide his balled fist. " Even though I know the truth the one she put in your head will be vivid and true to you. We can wait cause there isn't a rush just keep an open mind. For now, we can take things slow and you can enjoy being free from all of that."
" How do I do that?" All he knew was following someone's orders from living to the void he never could be free and even knowing the past still held him back.
" I mean you liked reading with a stiff drink. If you're tired you can get some sleep. There's a lot you can do Alastor and tomorrow I can show you around here and if you're up for it we can go to Rosies?" All this time to think and he didn't think of things Alastor would like to do that wouldn't involve a lot of people.
The last week he stayed busy so he didn't sleep and if he thought about it he hadn't slept since everything started back when he slept with Lucifer. " Could I take a shower as I think?"
" Yeah!" That wasn't supposed to come out like that. " Sorry, but go for it and I had Niffty bring some of your clothes since obviously you won't fit mine much less be caught in something so unlike yourself." To his surprise, Alastor laughed and he couldn't help but smile. " If you want I learned how to make a mean hot tea?"
" That sounds nice." As he stood up Lucifer handed him some pajamas which he quickly enjoyed. The shower was nice and it did help him think clearer but as he changed he found himself getting tired. When he walked out he found Lucifer sitting where they were before sipping tea so he sat down beside him as Lucifer handed him a cup. " I know you said you wanted to do this and promised but if this is too much you can tell me. I can go...."
" No I want to Alastor, please........I know I can't force you to stay or make you feel something for me but I have always loved your company and I miss it. Hearing you even just seeing you again after all this time." Lucifer stood up walked to the bed and walked back with the blanket Alastor made him. " Every night I sleep with this because you gave me this after I was beaten pregnant with Amara which you didn't know yet you still gave me this. Even furious at me you still cared and you knew I needed you and you couldn't be there which I understood. But this got me through it, it helped me get through every cry and depression I had.....hell it helped me get clean."
" A blanket did all of that? How has it lasted this long?" He saw himself giving Lucifer the blanket and then leaving but how could something so small mean so much to someone?
" Cause you made it for me, you spent time knitting it and it smelled like you. Right after you died and I went off the rails a bit I went to rehab in heaven to get better but I wasn't everyone's biggest fan and one guy took it when I was away and tore it apart and I lost it. I felt like I lost you all over again but your mom fixed it as it was never ruined. Haha, I used to use it when Amara was a baby and she wouldn't go to sleep even with her frog." He went on talking about Amara growing up and Alastor seemed interested they even laughed over some stories of their time together which was nice but eventually it had to end as he started to yawn more and more.
" You should get some sleep Lucifer." He waved his hand and the mugs and kettle were back in the kitchen as he stood up to stretch. " I should get going anyways I wanted to check out these radio towers."
Lucifer stood up as he saw Alastor walking to the door. " Alastor...you could stay if you wanted. I'm sure you're tired and if you want you could sleep with me like before and I can try and stay on my side of the bed. Or I have spare rooms if it's too much but I know you won't sleep peacefully alone."
How could he think straight if he was tired? " You can stay on your side of the bed without me waking up to find you holding me?"
Oh, that was going to be hard. " I can put a body pillow between us so if I do it's the pillow." He walked over to the bed put the body pillow in the middle and sat down. " Also I sleep to music and the fireplace stays on if that's fine. I hate sleeping in the pitch black or the dead silence of night." He knew Alastor wouldn't mind it but he wouldn't tell him.
Alastor slowly sat down in the bed as he looked at Lucifer. " You won't tell anyone about this right?"
Lucifer laid down as he looked at Alastor. " Nah but I will if I wake up with cuffs on again and it's not consensual." Alastor just laughed as he laid down and looked at him. " Good night Alastor."
" Good night Lucifer." He turned around as he tried to calm himself down but all he could do was fear sleep. Looking behind him Lucifer was asleep already even smiling as he was afraid. So he closed his eyes and listened to the music as he calmed down which worked and he found himself falling asleep.
Sure he thought he would sleep with Alastor not his body pillow like he did most nights it was nice to know Alastor was beside him safe. How could he be upset when Alastor was asleep beside him and he wouldn't push Alastor for more cause having him around was better than pushing Alastor to do something he would be uncomfortable with? It had to be just a few hours when he woke up to Alastor's soft bleat when he looked at him he was holding himself as he shook viciously he quickly moved the pillow away and moved closer to Alastor as he gently touched his hand which quickly had the lights flickering. " Alastor you're safe just listen to my voice."
Alastor just held himself tighter as the light flickered worse so he carefully sat up and gently scratched behind Alastor's ear. Slowly the lights stopped and Alastor slowly calmed down but he held onto him which he couldn't stop as he laid his head under Alastor's chin and listened to his fast heartbeat. He quickly fell back to sleep wrapped in Alastor's arms which he couldn't have slept any better than right there. Even when he woke up he saw Alastor still asleep so he went back to sleep for what had to be hours but he didn't care cause he was in his favorite place.
How long he was asleep was a mystery but he quickly sat up when he heard the front door open and he could hear more than one person walking in. Was it heaven coming for him? It could be Roo. She died too easily and he couldn't figure out why. If it was her or someone she sent then they were here to take him back and just thinking of going back had him panicking.
When Alastor suddenly sat up he quickly woke up to the sudden movement but as he looked at Alastor he sat there staring at the door. " Alastor?" He was still waking up but he could see Alastor's rapid breaths even his hands were shaking which quickly had him sitting up. " Alastor what's wrong?"
He quickly looked behind him forgetting all about Lucifer. " Someone's here and there not alone."
Lucifer didn't hear anything but then he realized Alastor could hear better than him. " Oh, it's probably Amara. She stayed over at the hotel last night and there were guards outside so no one was getting in without gunshots unless I approved them already." As he got up and snapped himself dressed he saw Alastor still sitting there looking at the door he contuined to panic so he walked over and sat down in front of Alastor he grabbed his hands which kept shaking. " It's alright Alastor why don't we go see for ourselves?" Alastor kept looking at the door so he pulled Alastor to his feet as he gently hugged him until he felt Alastor move. " You want to go see?"
He just nodded as he vanished and appeared changed as Lucifer held his hand which he strangely didn't mind but as they walked down the stairs he saw the girl from Lucifer's memories.
" Hey Dad.....um...hi?" Amara waved as she looked at her Dad. " Um, Dad I didn't know he was here um....."
" Alastor this is Amara your daughter just like I told you." He smiled as they walked down to Amara.
" Hello. But Lucifer she's not the only one here." He let go of Lucifer's hand as he walked to where he heard talking but Amara suddenly ran in front of him. " Who else is here?"
" Haha you both will just laugh but I didn't know you were here and my dad didn't think a text would have been nice." She looked at her dad and then her father who kept looking behind her. " She came this morning and wanted to come have a family lunch since you have been down Dad."
She? Then he put it all together and started to worry. " Oh.....um Alastor why don't we go see that radio tower you were talking about last night?" When Alastor looked at him he knew he messed up and he was right as she started to talk.
" Amara, what's taking you so long to get you're........Alley?" Alastor's mom hadn't felt right not talking to her son even if he didn't know the real her.
Alastor quickly backed away but his mom started walking closer so he stood in the way as he looked at Alastor. " Alastor remember what I told you last night? What you remember isn't real even though I know it feels that way but she won't hurt you."
" It might not be real but it feels real. I see her and I want her to pay for what she did." Lucifer said she was good but he couldn't convince himself as he tried to force himself to stop being angry and afraid, to stop letting his memories affect him but he couldn't stop it even as he held his head tightly.
Lucifer saw Charlie and Vaggie run out of the kitchen as they all stayed back he quickly had Alastor sit on the stairs as he held his head to the point he worried he would hurt himself. " I know it feels real and it's scary but I need you to trust me when I say she's not who you remember. She would never hurt you Alastor just like I wouldn't. You don't have to be near her or even say anything and I will be right here."
He wanted to listen to Lucifer but the voices said to kill her before she hurt him. He was free yet his mind wasn't and he hated this. It took everything not to give in but he couldn't hold it. " I can't!"
Amara saw the worry on her Dad's face so she turned to her grandmother who was in tears as she looked at Alastor. " Grammie I think for right now it would be best you stay at the hotel."
Charlie held her grandmother's hand. " We should go." But as she tried to help her grandmother leave she wouldn't move. " Grammie, please."
How could she leave her son like this, how could she not try to comfort her son? It had been years since she saw him and not hugging him was killing her. " Lucifer, show him, please! Let him see I am not that monster!"
He ran his hand through Alastor's hair as he felt him shaking. " Alastor I can show you her memories with you if you want." This couldn't be the solution to all of their problems he knew eventually having everyone's memories but his own and then for Alastor to try not to think of what Roo wanted him to remember.
Alastor looked Lucifer in the eyes. " Will it make it all stop?"
" I...I don't know if it might help stop the voices." He wished he knew but he had no idea. But Alastor just nodded as he turned to Alastor's mom he grabbed her hand and put his other hand on Alastor's head as he showed Alastor his mother's memories but when he let go of Alastor's mom's hand he looked at Alastor who didn't seem any better. " I think he just needs some time but I will call when he ready." Alastor's mom nodded and then left with Charlie and Vaggie. " Amara, could we have a moment, please?"
" Yeah of course. I'm sorry." She left for the library but once she closed the door she couldn't stop herself from crying as she sat on the ground holding herself.
When he saw Amara was gone he moved to look at Alastor's face. " It's just us Alastor." Only when he finished speaking Alastor laid his head on his chest but to his surprise, he was crying. " Love what's wrong?"
" She's dead and I am still fucked up. My mind isn't even mine." This was just sad and he hated that he was crying but there was too much going on in his head. Memories that weren't even his yet he was in them but also memories he had known for years that felt more real than what Lucifer put in his head.
Hell, he was crying as he held Alastor. " You're not fucked up Alastor you have just been through more than a lot of people so we all understand that this won't be easy. We know there are going to be hard times but I am right here to help you. How about we go to the garden for some fresh air?" Alastor might have stopped crying but the silence was worse so he stood up and helped Alastor sit in the garden with him. " Are you hungry? Cause I am sure we can find you something to eat or we can go see Rosie to take your mind off everything?"
" Could.....could I be alone for a little while? I will stay here so you don't worry." He held his arms tightly as he stared at the flowers.
" Alright and thank you for staying cause I would worry." He had to respect what Alastor wanted so he stood up but before he walked away he kissed Alastor's head. " I will be inside if you need me for anything." As he walked inside he looked back at Alastor as he saw him talking to himself which only made him worry more. But he teleported to Amara only to find her in the library crying so he quickly held her as he sat down beside her. " What is it, Froggie?"
" W...what did she do to him, Dad? He was terrified of Grammie and I could hear how fast his heart was beating, I knew it would take him some time to adjust but could he? He was struggling not to kill Grammie." Amara knew fear but this was worse than anything she had seen.
He knew it wouldn't be easy but he prepared himself when he needed to also prepare Amara and Charlie. " It will just take some time to understand what's real and what isn't. Emily offered to give him his memories back but I think he needs some time just adjust before we do all of that. But Amara if it's too much we would understand and...."
" I want to be here with you both and maybe we can try doing dinner? Just us and Charlie." Amara looked at her Dad, who smiled at her.
" I think that would be a good idea for another day but for now let's just get his mind off everything maybe you could show him the radio towers. He was curious about them last night."
Lucifer sat there talking with Amara for a while until he got up to check on Alastor when he walked outside Alastor wasn't sitting anymore which quickly worried him but as he walked around he found Alastor skipping rocks on the pound. " That's cool can you show me how?"
Alastor turned to Lucifer as he laughed. " You as old as time and don't know how to skip rocks?"
" Ouch. But no I tried but failed." Alastor waved him over as he taught him but he failed. So Alastor put the rock in his hand as he moved his arm for him and it worked. "Haha, I did it."
" Sure you did." Alastor rolled his eyes as he lit a rock in green flames then skipped it and as it finished the rock popped.
" Oh that's cool can you....." Lucifer tried to do the same but the rock just sank.
" No." He walked back to sit as Lucifer followed. " How traumatized is your daughter?"
He was going to ask how Alastor knew but he forgot about Alastor's hearing again. Amara was good but never as good as Alastors. " She was just worried but it's alright she wants to show you the radio towers maybe it will help you two get closer."
" You will leave your daughter alone with me? Lucifer I don't think...." He barely knew Lucifer but he had memories of them together so it was fine but Lucifer’s daughter had no clue who she was. If anyone had a reason to want him dead it would be her since he flipped their whole lives and took the radio demon's name back which he never meant to do. Then he killed her friend in front of her.
“ Alastor she’s your daughter and I trust both of you to handle yourselves and she just wants to help. Besides she was in charge of all of that stuff for a month or so and who better to show you around than her?” Vox could but he was the last person he wanted around Alastor right now. He grabbed Alastor’s hand as he looked him in the eyes. “ If it’s too much then you both can always come back but I think you will like her, she is a lot like you and I love her just like I love you.”
“ Geez Dad here I thought you loved me for being your flesh and blood. Since you know.” Amara had walked up just as her dad finished speaking.
Lucifer laughed as he walked over to Amara and hugged her tightly. “Hehe I love you for a lot of things and I can list them for you starting with……..”
“ I was joking so please don’t we will never get out of here if you do that.” She looked at Alastor who stood away. “ If he wants to stop embarrassing me I will say hi my name is Amara and it’s nice to meet you. Hehe this still weird that I am actually talking to you.”
“ Oh, Alastor she has always wanted to meet you. When she gets mad at me she talks to the little frog you made her. Haha, I remember one time she forgot to pack it and she was staying at Charlie’s and she stole Angel's phone to call me begging me to bring it cause……” Lucifer never thought he would see Alastor and Amara together and now that they were he just felt so proud.
“ Dad please stop you’re embarrassing me.” She pushed her dad off as she tried to hide herself blushing. “ Please never remember that.”
“ Hahah…this frog I made it for you so you had something of me right?” The two both shot him a shocked look so he assumed he was right. “ I had one like it when I was little but it was burned. I guess I wanted you to have the connection I had with mine but with yours.”
“ That right.” Lucifer couldn’t even stop himself from gushing over the two. “ Alright, you two should get going before I decide to tag along and spend the day telling Alastor all your baby stories and pictures. Oh, Alastor I have one where….”
Amara quickly looked at Alastor. “ Let’s go.” Alastor nodded and in a blink, she was standing inside of one of the radio towers. “ Wow, you can do that without touching someone?”
“ You can’t?” Amara just walked away from him which he didn’t question as he looked around. “ I understand the radio and what I am to do but why do I need so many of these towers?”
“ It helps your broadcasts reach every ring with no issue. You were actually the first overlord who could reach every ring not even Vox can, you refuse to show him how you did it.” Amara went on over all the facts she learned about the radio demon to the point she was just going on and on without even realizing it.
He couldn’t get much of a word in which was fine but after a while, he had to slow her down. “ I think I understand how great I was and how all of this works now. I appreciate you giving me your time to help me when you don’t have to.”
“ Yeah of course besides it’s not like every day I get to talk to my father for the first time and tell him everything about the radio demon. Haha, I have wanted to do this for so long but I do owe you an apology for what I said to you.” She sat down as her father sat across her.
“ You don’t have to apologize Amara I did hurt your friends and family. If I were in your shoes I would have agreed with you and there is no denying that I am a monster but isn’t that the radio demon?” He saw Amara slowly smile as she nodded. “ I don’t know If I can be the man your dad knew or you heard about but I don’t mind learning.”
“ That’s all we want is to show you and if you're not him that’s fine but…..but I need you to promise me you won’t break my dad's heart. He never got over losing you and it’s why he tried to shelter me away from the world. So if you are done or don’t want to be a part of any of this just tell him, please. Just….just give me your word that you will talk to him or us.” As great as it is to have her father in her life she also needed to make sure her dad wouldn’t get hurt again.
If Lucifer never risked his life to reason with him then Roo would still be alive and controlling him. He owed him a lot for his newfound freedom. “ I give you my word that I will talk to him or you if this is too much.”
Amara smiled as she stood up. “ Good, my dad is a very emotional man sometimes I think I did get a mom.”
As he laughed he heard Amara's stomach growl. “ You're hungry aren’t you?”
She thought her dad trying to tell her father about his embarrassing moment was embarrassing but him hearing her stomach growl even worse. “ Haha, I…..I always am but I know how to cook so I just eat a family-size meal. Lucky me I got your metabolism and hunger.”
“ I might know a place if you want to try it?” Amara quickly nodded so he took them to a sub shop he remembered Lucifer bringing him one day when he was working. “ Lucifer brought me to lunch one day when he was carrying you and he accidentally got himself a sandwich with sinner meat inside but he loved it.”
“ Did he really?” Why didn’t she know this as she looked at the menu it was different meats but she stopped at the deer sub. “ I don’t…….”
“ I can smell the sinner you ate yesterday on you so you don’t have to lie. I assume Lucifer doesn’t know you partake in all of this?” Amara nodded as he saw what she was looking at on the menu he walked up to the counter. “ Could I…..”
“ OH SHIT THE RADIO DEMON!! Sir, please…..please don’t kill me I…..”
“ I don’t want to kill you I am simply getting some items off your menu.” Alastor turned to look at Amara and she seemed rather excited by the man’s fear which he didn’t expect. “ She will have your deer sandwich and I…..”
“ Your regular sir? I would never forget your order and I will make sure hers is as good as you like your meat sir.”
He didn’t know what he wanted or if he was hungry but the guy was gone before he said anything. He looked at Amara who just shrugged as they looked around but it was a mere minute and the guy was handing Amara a paper bag. “ How much do I……”
“ I added some extras for you sir and I gave both of you the best cuts. Please don’t worry about payment sir.”
“ Sweet thanks.” Amara wasn’t going to say no to free and they walked out as they sat down at a bench when she unrolled her sandwich and once she smelled it her mouth was almost watering. As expected it tasted as good as it smelled. “ Wow I see why even Dad loved this haha this is amazing. I always just go to Rosie but this is good, thanks papa.” She was mid-bite when she froze when she realized what she said. “ I’m sorry I didn't…..”
“ It’s fine Amara this is new for you and it is for me too. But this is quite tasty we will have to come back perhaps even try and trick Lucifer. Haha, that would be funny.” Amara laughed with him as they ate and joked around but no one bothered them as they ate even when they just sat there talking.
For once in thousands of years he didn’t worry or fear his past cause for once he was actually living. They even walked back to the palace and stopped and enjoyed the fear in everyone’s eyes. When they got back Lucifer was quick to appear.
Amara had never known Alastor so he had to let her have time with him even if it was hard not to be with them but this was something Amara needed to do alone. So when he heard the door open from the kitchen he quickly teleported to them. “ How was it? You two seem happy did I miss anything?”
“ I just showed him the towers and told him about the radio demon. Then we got lunch and walked back.” Sure this morning started off badly but everything felt better now.
“ Oh, that’s great you both seem happy. What did you guys go get?” Lucifer walked back to the kitchen and the two followed him as he went back to eating his cereal.
“ Dad I have leftovers in the fridge why do you eat that stuff?” Amara walked over as she saw her dad eating Cereal
“ I like it and this one has marshmallows.” He smiled but in a blink the bowl was empty. “ Oh come on it’s just one bowl.”
“ One bowl and you're addicted Dad and this is so bad for you. You might be as old as time but I would like to have both of my dads alive for the rest of my life and this goes for you too.” Amara pulled the container from the fridge as she heated it up on the stove.
“ Me? As of a few weeks ago, you thought I was dead so how…..” He sat down beside Lucifer as Amara looked at them sharply.
“ You might be new but in this family, we are healthy so no one gets sick or fat.” She fixed her dad's plate as she put it in front of him. “ And we went and had sandwiches but Papa had just the meat which was odd but he was eating.”
“ Come on Amara do you think I am going to get fat? I mean look at me I am stunning. How do you think I ever got this guy the first time.” Lucifer pointed at Alastor as he ate.
“ I thought you told me it was our differences that made this whole thing work?” Alastor looked down at Lucifer as Amara laughed. “ Cause if your memory was right I joked about your height all the time and your lack of style.”
Amara was just laughing as he looked at Alastor. “ But you like how cute I am don’t you?”
“ You have a good personality and your height is quite laughable like your duck obsession.” He ran his hand through Lucifer’s hair as he laughed with Amara. “ But you are cute.” Lucifer quickly smiled and then hugged him which he didn’t expect. “ I take it back now.”
“ Nope, you can’t cause you called me cute hehe.” He looked at Amara as he hugged Alastor and she smiled and even laughed. He waved his head for her to come over and once she was he pulled her into the hug. “ All we need is Charlie and my family is in my arms again. Hehe, I love you both so much.”
Alastor pulled himself free just as Amara did. “ Alright I think I am just going to go read one of those many books you told me about.” He stood up and snapped a book in his hands then walked to the garden to read.
Lucifer waited until Alastor was gone before talking. “ How was everything really?”
“ Dad he genuinely had fun even laughing and you're right I am a lot like him. I think going out helps and everyone was scared of him but we loved it and I think it was my favorite part.” Amara finished cleaning up as she grabbed a book from the library.“ I am going to read for a bit if you need me I will be in my room.”
As Lucifer finished up his food he got some work done and then went outside to see Alastor who was still out there reading. “ So you do like the garden?”
“ It’s relaxing and it’s nice to get some fresh air the air in the void is very thick so you have to take it in slowly or you choke.” He put his book down as he looked at Lucifer walked over and sat in the other chair.
“ You don’t talk about the void much. When you're ready I am all ears.” Alastor just looked down at the book. “ I was thinking if you wanted we could go to the hotel. Charlie said it was just her, Vaggie, Angel, and Husk, everyone else was out enjoying the weekend. There was some party going on that everyone was going to and they were going to join unless you wanted to come.”
“ I don’t want them to not go because of me. They should have fun after everything I did to all of you.” He opened the book back to continue reading but Lucifer pulled the book down.
“ Alastor none of us blame you for what happend and we know that wasn’t really you. Roo was controlling you and you know you deserve to be happy right?” Lucifer sat back as he saw Alastor close the book.
“ Should I though? I killed thousands, Lucifer and I saw the fear in your eyes when I held your brother's head in my hands which I don’t even remember doing. Then I don’t even remember attacking the hotel and from what I heard it was violent.” He leaned down as he laid his head in his hands. “ It was me but it also wasn’t and I don’t know why.”
Lucifer was about to respond but Amara knocked on the wall as she walked over dressed up. “ Well look at you do you have plans?”
“ I am going to a party and I was going to see if you wanna come.” Amara was looking at Alastor.
“ Oh how sweet I remember the days she didn’t want to even be seen with me in public and …….” Lucifer never thought he would ever be asked.
“ Sorry, I meant Papa. I know it’s a lot too soon but I heard about your party days and I really want to see it for myself. I have earplugs for the music too.” Amara held up two little packets as she showed her father. “ Charlie and Angel think you will love it and it would feel nice to get a break from everything like you did earlier.”
“ I….I don’t know and I don’t think anyone wants to party with a guy who can kill a whole city in a blink of an eye.” He looked at Amara as she walked over and sat down. “ I appreciate the offer though.”
Amara pulled her phone out as she showed her father the poster for the party. “ It’s a party to celebrate your return as the radio demon. This is hell we love fear and you have a massive fan base. Look we can just walk in and if you hate it then you can come back to read I guess.”
“ Say it like that then I sound old and if Lucifer’s in the room I shouldn’t be feeling old but alright.” He patted Lucifer back as he gasped as Amara laughed. “ You want to come with us old man? From what I heard hell heard we are married.”
“ Haha oops but hell yeah I wanna go.” Lucifer quickly stood up as he looked at Alastor. “ Wait before we go….” He snapped himself into cool clothes and even popped a button off to show his chest. “ Alright let’s go.” Lucifer just walked away before Amara or Alastor could say anything.
" I hate it already I want to stay." Something didn't feel right but when did anything feel right?
Amara laughed as she walked over to Alastor. " Oh it's too late your coming and don't forget your watching him cause I am going to have fun." She quickly ran after her Dad leaving Alastor who was walking behind them.
With a deep sigh, he walked behind Amara." This isn't going to turn out like they think."
Notes:
How will the party go? Is Alastor right about how the night will turn out? Is heaven coming after Alastor? Will Alastor want his memories back? Will Alastor snap one day, or even at night? How does Amara really feel about Alastor taking back what he left her? Will Alastor keep an eye on Lucifer?
One more chapter, what might happen?
Bye.....for now....hehehehe
Chapter 20: Clubbing Turned Red
Summary:
The hotel takes Alastor for a fun night out, which is just that, even Lucifer found himself getting closer to Alastor. Alastor even got closer to Husk, but as the night goes on, Amara runs into her first friend, and Alastor finds himself in a situation. Lucifer drinks for the first time in years, but after the club, Lucifer sits around waiting for Alastor, who vanished after an incident at the club, only to find out Alastor has no memory of it or the last few hours. Amara and Lucifer both get a peek into how Alastor's doing as he suffers from nightmares and more. But after a rough night with Alastor, they find the morning quite peaceful until Sera comes knocking at the front door.
Notes:
Had to do some reading for myself so I could write, but this is quite the chapter, and it's 9,500 words. Enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Back in his living days, he had his fair share of parties and clubs but nothing is like how it was back then. Hell, they were riding in a limo with people he didn't know so he just looked out the window as everyone talked but something inside of him kept telling him this was a bad idea he knew if he left Lucifer would as well and he looked so excited which he couldn't take away from him after everything he had done for him so far. So he just pushed back the constant feeling as just looked out the window he turned everyone away until someone touched his arm quickly bringing him back. As he quickly looked it was Amara. " Sorry, but we're almost there so I wanted to give you these now. I went without and I regretted it but these stay hidden so no one sees."
He watched Amara put the things in her ears but as he looked at the little bag in his hands he wondered if he really needed it. He realized he did when someone opened the door so he put them in despite his hesitation but as everyone got out he saw the flashing lights and just froze
Lucifer was out to get out behind Charlie when he looked at Alastor still sitting there so he told everyone to go ahead as he closed the door and sat next to Alastor who looked at the door. It took a moment to see what was going on. " You know once they see you they will stop. All of them know how much you hate cameras and if they try then you can smash the camera and hell kill them if you want."
" I'm allowed to?" If he killed before Roo always asked for a reason unless she allowed him to kill.
Lucifer gently grabbed Alastor's hands as he looked him in the eyes. " Alastor you don't need to ask to do something and I know you are smart enough to make decisions on your own. You're free so you can do whatever the hell you want even if you want to kill someone for trying to take a picture or just because you want to. Now let's go out there before my social battery is drained." He held Alastor's hand as he walked out of the limo but once Alastor did all the cameras stopped even the party inside as they all looked out to see Alastor. But he held Alastor's hand tight as they walked through but everyone moved out of their way which was new for him even as king and once they sat down the party went back.
" Oh, this is going to be fun hehe." Charlie was excited not just to be out with Vaggie but for Alastor to be there with them. " I say we have some shots then we dance."
" Husk and I will get that for you babe does anyone else want anything?" No one said anything but as Husk stood up Angel stopped him.
" Wait.....Husk..." Angel pulled Husk aside so Alastor or Amara didn't hear him. " Bring Luci a fruity mocktail but if they ask it's just a cocktail and don't ask me why." And Husk didn't and he sat back down as Husk and Vaggie grabbed the drinks while they joked around. " So Al now that you're back got anything you wanna do? Or see?"
" I'm not quite sure I had just seen myself alone but now that I am here the possibilities are endless. I did look around hell which does have more to it than just what I heard and I this radio demon thing which seems fun." Maybe it was sitting or having the people from Lucifer's memories around but it wasn't as bad as he had imagined.
Angel leaned forward as he looked at Charlie and Amara the Lucifer. " Think you wanna try family man?"
" Haha, you don't have to answer that." He wasn't sure what Alastor's answer would be but right now he didn't want to think about Alastor leaving again. " Oh look there's Vaggie and Husk.......is the fruity one mine?"
" Yeah thought you would like it and for boss his usual." Husk sat everything down then sat down by Angel as they all took a shot. " Still the same taste-wise?"
" I guess so may I ask what it is?" As Husk told him he found himself sipping the drink more.
" So Lucifer tell me about this outfit choice of yours. Amara wouldn't spill." Vaggie leaned in as she spoke to Lucifer as Charlie joined.
He looked down to see his outfit while yes it was different it was a change. " Alastor called me old so I wanted to show him that he was wrong and Amara laughed at me."
" Dad I didn't laugh at you I just laughed at his joke. I mean you told me how he jokes around about that stuff did you do this before?" Amara tried the shot and hated it so she got herself a fruity drink like her Dad.
Before Lucifer could answer Angel did. " Give him some credit he's older than all of us combined but doesn't show it. May act like it but who doesn't but Luci you wanna dance? Show these losers up?" Lucifer laughed as he got up with him and they headed to the dance floor.
Vaggie stood up and she gave Charlie her hand. " Wanna dance?"
" Haha with you....always." Charlie got up and walked over to the dance floor with Vaggie.
Amara looked at everyone dancing then her father and Husk who seemed to be getting along. " If I go dance and you do not kill each other?"
" We'll be fine, kid. Besides, I gotta see if I can out-drink this guy." Husk laughed as he ordered a few rounds of shots for him and Alastor.
" Husk please don't get my father drunk." Amara just stood up and joined Angel and her dad dancing.
" From what I saw from Lucifer's memories, I was not one to succumb to the effects of these drinks very easily if not at all." A challenge he could do and it did sound like fun.
Husk just smiled as he downed a few shots. " It's been a while for you so who knows? Drink up and I will tell you anything you want to know." That got Alastor's interest as he watched Alastor down the shots.
" You both down for a third?" Vox heard about the party and thought nothing much of it but when he heard Alastor was there he had to go and see for himself. Then there he was sitting laughing with Husk like in the old days and he wasn't trying to kill them.
Husk wasn't sure why Vox was here but he had a good idea. " Get lost Vox."
" I'll pay for every round and besides, Al could use some stories of the good days. Which Husk wasn't a part of but I was." Vox sat down right next to Alastor. " Who better to help than your best friend? Besides, I brought smokes."
" Your not his best friend but free boo's I can't decline." If Vox was planning anything at least he would be here to stop him if he tried.
The two looked almost pissed at each other and he was curious to learn why. " Now this is getting interesting."
He had to be dancing for a few hours before he realized how much time had flown by. They were all having fun and Angel sure knew how to party even get past the creeps. But one downside he forgot about clubs like this was that everyone was freakishly tall so he couldn't see past people which meant he couldn't see Alastor. Amara did tell him she left him with Husk which felt better but after so long he had to see him so he pushed past the people only to find a crowd surrounding their table. So again he had to push his way through only to find Vox sitting beside Alastor with Husk across who looked drunk so did Vox and Alastor just laughing in a way he hadn't heard in years. " What are you 3 up to?" He pushed his way though as he sat down next to Husk.
" Oh, Lucifer you see Husk here insisted on a drinking competition which Vox here joined in. Now both are trash but both insist they are of sound and mind." Alastor laughed at the two but mostly Vox who was much worse.
Husk downed his drink and slammed it down hard. " If anyone's fucking trashed it's that guy!" Husk pointed at Vox who gasped loudly.
" I am not! You fucking lost! Al how the fuck are you not drunk?!" Vox took a puff of his cigar and looked at Alastor.
In all of his years of drinking, he hardly ever got drunk but even in the afterlife and even after not drinking for years was strange but he didn't mind it if it meant seeing this. " Perhaps it's just another thing I am better at than you? Hahah." He grabbed the cigar from Vox as he looked at Lucifer. " How was dancing? You seemed to have been having fun even letting loose."
" It was fun but I wanted to check on you and maybe see if you would join me. Just one dance it can be quick if you want." While dancing was fun he wanted to spend time with Alastor but all the drinking was hard to not want one for himself. He has been soder for years just so he was never that way again, like he was at Alastor's funeral or when he got worse.
Alastor took a few puffs and then handed the cigar back as he looked at Lucifer nervously, fidgeting with a ring on his finger. " Why not, it's been years since I had a dance let's just hope you can keep up with those short legs of yours." He finished his drink but as he went to stand up a girl walked up to him.
" I heard you like dancing and I just so happen to need a partner. I could use a strong man like you to keep these mean men away. I promise not to disappoint you after all someone like yourself needs someone who fits your standards."
Socializing wasn't something he was used to but he knew if someone was lying or seeing what they said. But as he tried the lady was on her knees looking up at him. " Oh, I'm sure there is someone else here who can."
" True but none of them are you. None of them can keep me safe or deserve me like you do."
Alastor couldn't be this clueless right? " Hey, he's with me so get lost."
" Really cause I don't see a ring on his finger and besides no one could get someone like him but the best."
" Oh shit haha!" Vox was laughing until he saw the girl sitting on Alastor's lap and when he looked at Lucifer he saw his horns coming out so he quickly kicked Husk
Husk saw Lucifer about to lose it and spoke. " Hey, lady why don't you go find someone else in your league? I saw guys looking to rent a girl out down that way."
She looked at Alastor as she slowly put her hand on his chest. " Ton chat n'est pas très gentil, mais le mien l'est."
Quickly, he stood up as she fell to the ground. " Oh no, I....here.." He helped her up as she looked at him. " My apologies but have a fun night." He turned to Lucifer as he put his hand out. " We haven't done this before have we?"
Lucifer smiled as he grabbed Alastor's hand as Alastor led him to the dance floor. " Haha no but will you tell me what she said?"
" Nope." It took a moment but in seconds, they were dancing and having fun. " Well, aren't you full of surprises?"
Lucifer quickly pulled Alastor close as he looked up at him. " What can I say big things come from small packages, hehe."
He laughed as he stepped back. " You said that before to me haven't you?" As he thought back in Lucifer's memory he saw it. " Isn't that something said to also mean...."
" Stop thinking so much and dance before you find someone else." Lucifer laughed with Alastor as they danced.
Amara had to sit down from exhaustion and when she sat down she saw Vox sitting on the other side of the table but he just looked out at the dance floor. When she looked she saw Angel forcing Husk to dance but past them, she saw her dad's. They both looked so happy, especially her dad who was practically glowing which she couldn't stop smiling about. She just sat there watching the two dance and even had Charlie and Vaggie look. " I think there's an answer."
" What answer?" Vaggie looked at the two then Vox who she was just confused about when he joined.
Charlie sat down and held Vaggie in her lap as she held her. " Amara and I wondered if Alastor needed his memories to fall for our dad but I think that proves memories or not....."
" No." Vox sat up as she downed a shot. " All it takes is something to set him off and all of this would be for nothing. Besides.......Alastor....Alastor already said he didn't want romance."
" Haha are......are you jealous that Lucifer won Alastor before you had a chance?" Vaggie laughed as she laid her head on Charlie's shoulder.
Vox looked at the two then Vaggie. " He hasn't won anything yet 'cause....cause I asked Alastor out." Charlie and Amara both quickly looked at him. " We were having fun so I asked if he wanted to hang out.......and you know........he's a bit off season and he might have to adjust."
" Adjust?" Charlie was confused until she saw Vaggie quickly sit up.
" He's talking about Alastor adjusting to all the deer here in hell. Time in the void was different so he's still catching up." Vaggie slowly looked at Vox who just sat there smiling. "You're really going to try to do that with Lucifer by his side?"
Amara thought she was understanding but quickly realized she was lost. " Alright, what are we talking about here?"
" Man has spent the last 20 years away and when it was just 7......hahaha.......I....I should start my workouts now." Vox licked his lips as he looked at Alastor. " Amara you think you could let a guy know when your father starts eating a bunch?"
Why would her father suddenly.......it was at that moment she realized what Vox was talking about and it was also that moment she had to throw up in a bowl. It was the only thing close. " Ew and ew."
" Oh, it was my favorite time of year haha! Now he's back and stronger..........mmm....." Vox could see all the sinful things he could do.
Charlie looked at the two and quickly stood in the way of Vox's sight. " You are not touching him Vox and....."
" Not touching who?" Alastor walked over with Lucifer as he sat down.
Vox just laughed as he looked at Alastor. " There upset were hanging out tomorrow at the tower."
" You are?" Lucifer looked at Alastor sadly.
Great now Lucifer was sad just over something so small. " Well yes I found out we used to be good friends and his insights on that version of me are quite interesting and he offered to tell me more when he's not so intoxicated. I doubt it would be the whole day though."
" I don't know there's a lot to learn and I want to show you something." If he wasn't drunk then he would have a better comeback. But he turned to Lucifer. " Don't worry I will make sure he's back all in one piece."
Lucifer wasn't sure what that was but he faked a yawn as he looked at everyone. " I am tired who's ready to head back?"
" Oh come on Dad the night is still young besides I just ordered drinks." Just then the server brought over the cocktails as she handed one to her Dad and sipped on the other. " Now that Father's back maybe you will like drinking again."
" You stopped?" If Lucifer's memories were right Lucifer liked drinking even just recently he drank with him.
The only people who knew he didn't drink anymore were on the dance floor and he couldn't tell his daughters and Alastor he didn't drink cause he was afraid, especially not with Vox sitting there. So he had two choices either drink it and see if he's better now that he has Alastor back or spill it. He could control himself and besides everything was good so he drank it. " While Amara was growing up I tried not to but hey it's a party and when have I been to one with you and my girls? Haha."
Amara was listening to the conversations when she spotted Alice at the bar slowly waving at her which shocked her to see her. " I am going to the bathroom be back." She walked over to the bar and she looked at Alice. " What are you doing here? Here to use me to get to my dad's again?"
" Amara I am sorry you found out like that but I did want to be a friend and I never lied to you." Alice turned to Amara.
" You didn't you just kept the fact that the guy who wanted my father dead and my dad was your boss," Amara ordered another drink for her dad as she looked at Alice. " What do you want?"
" I just came for the party that's it. You know how much I adore the radio demon and word spread fast he was here. Amara, do you think we could ever start over?"
Charlie was always going on about forgiveness, so why not try it out? " My name's Amara and yours?"
" It's Alice."
Two fruity drinks down and 3 of whatever Alastor was drinking and he was drunk but he didn't show it or so he hoped. Charlie and him were dancing and having fun to the point he didn't look over at Alastor for a few hours and only did cause he needed to sit down. But as he and Charlie started to walk back some guy was sitting at the table with Vaggie and Alastor. When they walked up to the table one look at him and the guy was gone. " Who the hell was that? Do...do I need to kill someone?"
" Just some mob guy who wanted to buy Alastor like he was property." Vaggie rolled her eyes as she looked at Alastor just looking down at the card. " Alastor your not property beside you too good for that scum bag anyways."
He knew that yet he took the guy's card as if he would reach out. " I know but I have been property in your time 20 years but to me thousands if not longer. It would make all of this easier if....."
Lucifer took the card and in a snap burnt it as he looked Alastor in the eyes. " You are not even thinking about this Alastor cause while it's going to take some time to adjust you will find freedom better." He looked at the table and then at Alastor. " Besides your mine hehehe now go find our daughter before I order another drink."
" Sorry, Your Majesty but unfortunately I am not anyone's." He just patted Lucifer's head and then walked away to find Amara who he spotted at the bar so he walked over. " Amara dear your dad has asked me to find you."
" Oh alright, that's fine." Amara was going to say bye and then leave but when she looked at Alice she was speechless as she just stared at her father. " Alice meet my father the radio demon."
" Holy shit.....I...I am a huge fan sir....and.....and I am just speechless now that I am seeing you in person. Wow Amara he is such a Zaddy I wish my parents were good-looking. "
Lucifer waited a few seconds then followed behind Alastor. " I like her Amara you should bring her around more."
" Alright we're leaving and I will text you, Alice." Amara stood up as she waved bye to Alice. " Dad, did either of you see Vox? I saw him run to the bathroom then I don't think I ever saw him come out."
" Good, I hope he's dead." Once it came out of his mouth he realized what he said even Alastor and Amara both stopped walking. " I mean...."
" Dad I will never understand why you two are like this but you won. You got Alastor and he didn't." Amara looked at her father. " Could you look just to make sure he made it out?"
He nodded and then vanished to the bathroom only he didn't find a Vox anywhere so he walked out but as he tried the door was locked. Breaking the lock would be easy and he could leave any second but he heard someone behind him which he knew from earlier just by scent. " Is this your way of trying to convince me to work for you cause the answer is no either way."
" I don't take no's and for me to give such a generous offer to anyone should have you feeling grateful. You have been gone for a while and things have changed and we have learned from our mistakes now are you going to give up this circus act and work for me?" He walked closer as his men circled Alastor. " Before you answer this is for killing my brother." He nodded and one of his men played an ultrasonic sound which quickly had Alastor on his knees holding his ears as the pitch got higher. " My brother was stupid trying to make you the enemy which is what got him killed which is why I want you to work for me. But I do have to make you suffer a bit before that since he was my blood in all. Let's see how high this gets."
Meanwhile, Amara walked back to the table as everyone started to leave even Angel who could hardly stand. But she kept looking back to see if her father was back yet so they could go but nothing. She was talking with Charlie when a high-pitched sound hit which wasn't music and it kept getting higher making her quickly cover her eyes. Without even noticing she was sitting down as everyone surrounded her. " Turn it off! Ah!"
Husk was out of it but he could hear a faint high-pitched sound for it to hurt Amara like this he quickly thought of Alastor. " Where the hell is Alastor."
" Bathroom looking for Vox." Lucifer caught on to what Husk was thinking and they quickly rushed to the bathroom but when they tried to open the door it was locked. But as he turned to Husk suddenly screams started in the bathroom. " What.....?"
Vaggie ran after Husk and Lucifer as she listened to the screams. " Lucifer open the door now!"
Once Vaggie's words sank in he quickly blasted the door only when they ran in ready to fight the bathroom dripping in blood from the walls to the ceiling but as they took everything in was when they heard Alastor laughing. " What happend?"
Alastor slowly turned around and wiped the splatter of blood off his face as he twirled his staff. " Nothing at all if anything we were just having fun weren't we?" He turned to see the leader hiding in a bathroom stall in tears.
" R....right."
Husk knew the guy as a gang leader who was quick a high-ranked but right now he looked nothing like his name. " Alastor what the hell did you do?"
" I don't owe you an answer and talk to me like that again and you can join his little friends." Alastor looked at Husk as he smiled then back at the leader on the floor. " Out." The man ran like a scared child and even slipped on the floor running out which he just laughed over.
" You can't threaten us Alastor." Vaggie wasn't sure why but the way Alastor looked at her wasn't like he had all night not even this morning.
Alastor laughed as he walked up to Vaggie. " Oh, but I can cause you see I get to do whatever the hell I want." He looked at Lucifer, then the door. " Go watch the last act it's my favorite part."
Something wasn't right here and the way he looked at them and spoke was like the day Alastor attacked the hotel. But he saw Husk run out so he quickly followed one moment everyone was dancing then next there was a loud pop followed by blood splattering everywhere. As everyone screamed, he looked behind him to hear Alastor laughing. " You....you killed him?"
" Hahah of course pig like that deserves every ounce of pain even if that was quick. Don't worry that might have been quick but not where they're all going." To his surprise, a lot of the sinners looked at him and then suddenly cheered loudly.
" Wait where are they going?" Lucifer didn't get an answer so he looked behind him only Alastor was gone. " Alastor?" He looked but nothing even as Vaggie pulled him out of the club and into the car. " Where.....where did he go?"
" Dad I'm sure he just needed some air he will be back." Charlie hugged her dad and suddenly he started to cry and Amara quickly joined the hug.
Alastor gave her his word yet he wasn't here and now she wondered if he was planning this the whole time, to get into their lives and rebreak all of their hearts. "Let's just get home and ready for bed and I am sure he will show up."
Alastor could leave and he would never be able to find him and just the thought was crushing. The night was fun until the whole bathroom thing and worst of all he was drunk and sad. Amara and him were dropped off at the palace and as much as Amara wanted to help him he insisted he would be alright. He showed up and got ready for bed but no Alastor so when he laid down in bed he couldn't help but look on his phone for anything Alastor but it was all about the club and Alastor killing that gang. It got to the point he was holding Alastor's pillow from last night as he cried but he stopped when he heard the water in the bathroom suddenly running. So he wiped his face and walked over to the bathroom only to find Alastor standing there bloodied. " Alastor what happened?"
He kept scrubbing his hands even as Lucifer spoke. " I......I don't know. One moment I was in the bathroom looking for Vox like Amara asked then I was suddenly standing in some warehouse in another ring but there had to be hundreds if not more bodies just lying there."
Lucifer walked over to the sink turned the water off and saw Alastor was shaking. " You don't remember killing those gang members who tried to get you to work for them?"
" I did?" He looked down at his clothes and when he saw the blood on his sleeves he quickly took his jacket off.
Alastor's blood was black which matched hell borns but the blood was red which did give him a slight relief. " Yeah, you painted the bathroom in their blood then killed the leader in the middle of the club. You said they were going somewhere and when I went to ask you were gone. You threatened Husk then told Vaggie you could do whatever you wanted. Something was off about you but it all happend so fast and then I .... I was worried you weren't going to come back and...."
" Is that why you have been crying?" He heard Lucifer crying and could see his eyes slightly red from crying even his cheeks from rubbing tears away. Lucifer just nodded sadly as he wiped his cheeks. " I do apologize for making you worry I.....I'm not sure why I don't remember. Oh, Charlie told me how you like physical affection when you are sad so would you like a hug? Not too tight though."
He nodded and hugged Alastor which helped but it also helped the last of his crying come out. " Could you run your hands through my hair?" Alastor did it which helped more than he could say. When Alastor stopped he let go. " Maybe it was the drinking that made you forget? A shower should help and some rest." Alastor agreed so he stepped out as Alastor showed and he sat in bed reading until Alastor walked out holding his arms as he got into bed. " You alright?"
Normally, when he changed he just used his powers but showering he simply didn't think about the scars but when he was getting out he made the mistake of looking in the mirror. Each one had a memory of its own even the scars underneath and each memory made it all feel real again. " I will be but Lucifer I don't understand why I don't remember anything I did or how I killed all those people."
Lucifer scooted closer to Alasor as he looked at him. " Maybe after getting some sleep, it will come to you. You know if you want to talk about the void I am here if......"
" There's nothing to talk about Lucifer." It was the last thing he wanted to do. " We should get some sleep."
As much as he wanted to push Alastor to open up he couldn't so he just nodded as he put the body pillow in the middle of the bed but as he went to lay down Alastor was facing away from him. " Good night Alastor." He laid there waiting to hear it back but nothing so he turned around and fell asleep.
It took only an hour if not two before he quickly woke in a panic but as he looked at himself he was shaking even worse than earlier so he got up to wash his face hoping it would work only when he looked in the mirror he saw her and quickly backed into the wall. She was in his head, she had to be. He watched Lucifer kill her and he could tell she died yet she looked real. " You're not real.....this is just in my head."
" Am I though? I mean it sure was easy to kill me and even if I was dead you would never forget me. You only know me and what I wanted you to think Alastor so without me you will lose it. Look at you!" She grabbed Alastor by his ear as she forced him to look in the mirror. " You think any of them really want you around after everything you did? You sleep in the same fucking bed with Lucifer even though you murdered his brother who is to say he isn't waiting until your guards are down to get revenge."
" No.....no I fixed things and they said....." Could they all be using him? Isn't that what everyone does? " No Lucifer memories....."
" Angels can put whatever the hell they want in your head and Lucifer well......he hasn't been one to be scared of lying not even to his own daughter. You can try all you want to be who they want you to be but you will always be a monster. A monster who needs to be caged just like I did." She let go of Alastor's ear and grabbed his throat as she unbuttoned his shirt. " I will always be a part of you Alastor and I will always win 'cause every time you look at yourself or even touch yourself you will always feel everything I did and more. Even when you close your eyes I am torturing you and spoiler alert I will never stop hurting you."
This was in his head yet it felt real, he could feel her hand around his throat as he kicked himself free and then held his shirt close. " It will stop and you're not real." She just laughed as she walked closer and he backed up until he hit the wall.
" If I'm not real are they?" She moved to the side as Alastor's father appeared holding the bat and Alastor's mother holding a whip. " Cause this will feel real and it will every day of your life until you either go crazy or you kill yourself."
A sudden crash jolted Lucifer awake. His heart slammed into his ribs as the sound of glass shattered through the silence. " STOP! PLEASE! I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE!" It was Alastor so he stumbled out of bed and rushed to the bathroom, slamming the door open, only to freeze.
Black blood droplets painted the tile. Shards of the mirror on the floor, and in the corner, curled up and shaking, was Alastor. His back was pressed into the wall, hands clutching at his scalp, nails scraping skin as his body rocked violently. " I didn’t fight, I didn’t scream, please not again, Roo… I did everything right this time… please."
Lucifer’s breath caught. His hands went up in surrender as he knelt just inside the doorway. " It’s me, Alastor. It’s Lucifer. You’re not in the void, you're safe now. You’re not with her."
But when Lucifer took a careful step closer, Alastor flinched so hard it was like he’d been burned. His whole body curled tighter, trembling. That was when Amara came running in. " Dad?!"
Lucifer twisted around, eyes wide as he saw his daughter frozen in the doorway. Her eyes darted between the broken glass, the blood, and the way her father was crouched just feet from a man who looked utterly destroyed.
Amara looked at her father and then her dad. " Are you hurt, Dad?"
Lucifer quickly shook his head, trying to put her at ease. " He’s not trying to hurt anyone. He’s just… stuck. He thinks I’m someone else. Roo."
Amara didn’t say a word. She took a slow step into the room and stopped. Her gaze fixed on Alastor, on the stitched smile, the shaking hands, the low muttering, and her throat tightened.
Lucifer turned back to Alastor, his voice soft, measured. " I need you to breathe, love. You’re not there. You’re not with her. You're with me."
" She won’t shut up. The laughing, the voices, the memories .... I just want it all to stop. All of it."
Lucifer inched closer, heart aching. "Okay… okay, you’ll be alright. You’re safe. You’re not alone."
Alastor didn’t respond. He was curled against the wall, knees pulled to his chest, his stitched smile trembling his body still caught somewhere far away.
Lucifer swallowed the lump in his throat and reached for Alastor’s bleeding hands. The blood, thick and black, soaked into the towel as Lucifer gently wiped them clean. His fingers trembled, not from fear, but from the overwhelming grief of seeing Alastor like this, so small and broken. He began to wrap one hand carefully. “ You’re home now. You’re not in the void. No one’s going to hurt you again.”
But the moment the bandage tightened around his wrist, Alastor flinched, and his eyes snapped into focus like he’d been shocked.
His voice came out sharp, confused. “ L…Lucifer?”
Lucifer froze. “ Yeah. It’s me.”
Alastor blinked rapidly, his gaze darting around the bathroom as if trying to reorient himself, to stitch reality back together. He looked down at the blood-stained floor, the broken mirror, and then at his bandaged hands.
A horror sank into his face. " No… no, I didn’t…” He stared at Lucifer in disbelief, then looked over to the open bedroom door. “ Did Amara see? Was she here?”
Lucifer hesitated. “ She heard you yelling. She came running but she’s okay, she just stepped back to give you space.”
Alastor’s hands flew to his head as he pulled his knees tighter in. “ What have I done? I scared both of you. I always swore I wouldn’t be like them......”
“ Alastor.....”
“ I shouldn’t be here,” he said suddenly, his voice cracking. “ I shouldn’t have come back. I’m not the man you loved, Lucifer, I’m not even a man anymore. I’m a monster. I’m not safe. And you....you and Amara.....you’d be better off without me.”
“ Don’t say that.” Lucifer inched closer. “ Please.”
“ I mean it!” Alastor’s voice rose, desperate and panicked. “ I can’t be what you need, I can’t even hold myself together for a single night. Every time I close my eyes, she’s there. The void is there. My parents, the pain, it’s never gone! I can't breathe without hearing them. I can't sleep without seeing her face. I don’t even know what’s real anymore, and I’m so… tired.” His voice finally broke on that last word, trembling as if something inside him was unraveling.
Lucifer didn’t speak. He just reached out and, gently this time cupped Alastor’s cheek. Alastor didn’t flinch. He didn’t pull away. He just sat there, bleeding and shaking, held together only by the soft pressure of Lucifer’s touch.
Just then, soft footsteps padded into the room behind them. “ Dad?”
Lucifer turned his head toward the voice, but Amara was already focused on Alastor, her eyes wide but steady, her voice calm despite the tears still drying on her cheeks.
She stepped into the room carefully, crouching beside them, close enough to be present, far enough not to startle him. The floor was cold beneath her knees, the scent of blood sharp in her nose, but her eyes didn’t waver. “ I know this probably isn’t a good time,” she said gently, “ but I needed to say this. I’ve wanted to meet you my whole life, and I wasn’t sure what it would be like. I didn’t expect it to be perfect, but I never expected…” Her voice cracked faintly. “ I didn’t expect it to hurt like this.”
Alastor wouldn’t meet her gaze. His arms wrapped around himself again, shivering faintly, the smile sewn onto his face unable to match the torment in his eyes.
“ But I don’t regret it,” she whispered. “ Not even a little. Because I got to see how happy you make my dad.”
She looked at Lucifer and then, her father, who sat there with his hands shaking slightly. " He glows around you and I have never seen him like this before,” Amara continued, voice low. “ He’s a good difference when you’re near him. Not just better, he’s... alive. And it’s not fake. It’s real. He loves you. So much.”
Lucifer blinked hard, tears threatening again.
“ And I know I’ve only had one day with you,” she said, turning back to Alastor. “ But I love you. I don’t need you to be perfect. I don’t need you to remember everything. I just need you here with me, showing me things, telling me funny stories, or giving me fatherly advice, hell I need you to scare my dates away so I don't end up dating some child or weirdo. I need your old-time self in my life.” She sat back on her heels, folding her hands in her lap, giving him space to breathe.
Alastor’s head slowly lifted, his eyes flickering between the two people kneeling beside him. He looked utterly lost, but something in his chest stung as if trying to remember how to hope.
Lucifer leaned closer again, brushing back a strand of blood-matted hair. “ We’ll figure it out. All of us. You’re not alone anymore.”
" Alright." Emotions always made him weak from his living life to his afterlife but for the first time, he felt something he hadn't ever felt before except another time he was with Lucifer.
Morning light crept in through the drawn curtains, soft and golden, catching on the edge of the blankets like spilled warmth. He blinked slowly awake, his head heavy but clear enough to register the weight draped across his chest. Lucifer's breathing was soft and steady, his arms loosely wrapped around Alastor as if even in sleep he couldn’t bear to let go. His face, tucked gently against Alastor’s neck, wore a faint smile, one that said he was somewhere safe, maybe even dreaming something good for once.
Alastor’s first instinct was to slip away, to peel the arms off, to get up and move because the contact made him twitch inside. Normally, he would’ve.
But last night…the glass, the blood, Amara’s tears, Lucifer’s fear, and his own screaming. He’d scared them. Hurt them. Again. And yet, Lucifer still clung to him like he was something worth holding onto. So for once, Alastor didn’t pull away.
He let Lucifer be happy. Even if just for a little while. Even if it was borrowed peace. Carefully, he shifted just enough to reach for the book on the nightstand. The one Lucifer had left there for him days ago. The spine cracked gently in his hands, and he leaned back against the headboard, the familiar smell of aged paper doing its best to soothe the edge in his mind.
He read in silence, turning each page with delicate precision, all while feeling the rise and fall of Lucifer’s breath against his side. It wasn’t long before the angel stirred, a soft sound leaving his throat as he shifted, his arms tightening for a second as if afraid Alastor had vanished.
“ Mmm… you’re still here,” Lucifer mumbled, voice low and rough with sleep, the words brushing against Alastor’s skin.
Alastor didn’t look down, but his grip on the book faltered for just a moment. “ I am.”
Lucifer lifted his head groggily, blinking at him, a lazy smile on his lips. “ Good morning.”
Alastor turned a page. “ That’s subjective.”
Lucifer chuckled softly and let his head fall back onto Alastor’s shoulder. “ Still better than waking up alone.” Lucifer shifted slightly, propping himself up on one elbow as he looked at Alastor’s face, the stitched smile unreadable but his eyes… softer than usual. “ You didn’t sleep much,” Lucifer said gently.
“ I slept enough,” Alastor replied, eyes still scanning the page. “ Less screaming this time. Must be the company.”
Lucifer let out a breathy chuckle. “ I’ll take that as a compliment.”
A pause. Alastor’s eyes moved, then stilled. “ Thank you... for staying.”
Lucifer blinked, the words hitting him heavier than expected. He reached over and touched Alastor’s hand, carefully, so carefully, and when Alastor didn’t flinch or pull away, he gave it a soft squeeze. “ There’s nowhere else I’d want to be.”
Before Alastor could respond, a soft knock tapped on the bedroom door.
Lucifer looked toward it, raising his voice a little. “Come in.”
The door creaked open to reveal Amara, carefully balancing a tray. “ Morning,” she said, beaming. “ I brought pancakes for Dad and coffee for…” She looked at Alastor, eyes gleaming, “…Father.”
Lucifer sat up fully, clearly touched. “ Sweetheart, you didn’t have to....”
“ I wanted to,” she said quickly, walking over and setting the tray down on the nightstand. “ You barely ate last night.”
Alastor accepted the coffee with a small nod. “ Thank you, dear.”
Lucifer dove into the pancakes with zero hesitation, clearly starving. Meanwhile, Amara lingered beside the bed, eyes drifting to the book in Alastor’s hands. “ You’re reading The Velvet Room?” she asked, voice perked with curiosity. “ I’ve always wanted to read that one. It’s supposed to be super weird and cool.”
Alastor tilted his head, then followed her gaze to the book. A small glint of mischief. “ If you’re interested,” he said, patting the spot between himself and Lucifer, “ I can read it to you.”
Her entire face lit up like the morning sun.“ Really?!”
Lucifer grinned as he wiped syrup off his fingers. “ Go on, Froggie.”
Amara quickly climbed onto the bed and nestled between them, grabbing a pillow to hug as she leaned against Alastor’s side. She didn’t hesitate, didn’t flinch, just settled in like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Alastor looked down at her for a moment, then opened the book again, his voice calm and warm as he began to read aloud. His words painted the strange, haunting world of the novel with precision and rhythm, every phrase flowing with just enough theatrical charm to keep Amara’s full attention.
She sat still, transfixed, a small smile plastered on her face as if nothing else in the world mattered. Now and then, she’d glance up at him, not with fear or doubt, but with amazement.
And Lucifer? He didn’t say a word. He just watched them, heart full and eyes misty. For the first time in what felt like forever, the morning didn’t hurt. For now, there was just peace… and the sound of Alastor’s voice wrapping around the ones he loved.
Alastor’s voice wove beautifully through the room, the rhythmic cadence of his reading lulling Amara into a quiet, content focus. She didn’t shift once, eyes locked on the pages as he guided her through every strange and whimsical twist. Lucifer, reclined beside them with his now-empty plate pushed to the side but he couldn’t stop watching the two of them, their daughter safe and smiling, Alastor so relaxed and laughing.
Halfway through the book, Alastor paused. Amara glanced up quickly. “ What’s wrong?”
“ I’m afraid I must stop there, dear,” he said, carefully closing the book and marking the page. “ I have... plans with Vox in an hour. He offered to talk to me about us and the good old days he called it. It seems interesting.”
Amara narrowed her eyes playfully. “ Fine but we finish the rest later.”
Alastor smiled, resting a hand gently on her head. “ You have my word. We’ll finish it together, with your father too if he doesn’t fall asleep on us.”
Lucifer raised an eyebrow. “ Excuse me?”
She giggled as she crawled off the bed, hugging them both quickly before grabbing her plate. “ See you both downstairs!”
When the door closed behind her, Lucifer turned to Alastor with a grin tugging at his lips. “ Just you and Vox?”
Alastor began straightening his vest. “ Indeed. He was rather... persistent.”
Lucifer’s smirk widened. “ Persistent or... interested?”
Alastor glanced sideways with fake innocence. “ Oh? Do you mean Vox’s little crush? My, how flattering.”
Lucifer snorted. “ He’s not subtle and he's always had a thing for you.”
“ You should’ve seen how flustered he got when I touched his arm last night, he practically short-circuited,” Alastor said slyly, placing a hand on his chest.
Lucifer rolled his eyes, laughing despite himself. “ You’re enjoying this.”
“ I am savoring it,” Alastor replied with a dramatic flair. “ Especially now that I know it gets this reaction out of you.”
Lucifer leaned in, smirking. “ You’re lucky I find you irresistible.”
Alastor’s grin, stitched though it was, held genuine fondness. “ You are lucky.”
They dressed and composed themselves before heading downstairs. The laughter still hung faintly in the air as they descended the staircase and entered the main sitting room, where Amara was flipping through one of Lucifer’s old photo albums. “ Ah, there you are,” she said brightly. “You were taking forever for a moment I thought I had two moms.”
“Your father’s vanity slowed us down,” Alastor said, giving her a wink.
“ Uh huh,” Amara teased. “ I bet.”
Lucifer shook his head with a smile, but just as he opened his mouth to ask about the day's plan, a sharp, urgent knock echoed through the hall.
He froze. “ That’s... strange,” he muttered, heading for the front door. He opened it cautiously and stopped cold.
There stood Sera dressed in gold-trimmed white robes. Behind her, a squadron of exorcists stood in rows, clad in full armor etched with divine runes. Each one held an angelic weapon, blades, and spears radiating with sanctified light. It looked like they were ready for war.
Lucifer’s hand tightened on the door. “ Sera...?”
She didn’t smile. “ Lucifer,” she said softly, but firmly. “ We’re here for Alastor.”
Lucifer quickly looked behind himself to see Alastor sitting with Amara not even listening so he stepped out and closed the door behind himself. " What are you talking about? He helped stop Roo which was the deal."
" He made a deal with you and Emily, not me. If either of you asked I would have told you but neither of you did and that thing is to be locked up until he faces trial in a few days." Sera looked at the door then Lucifer. " If you tell him to come out this will be much easier for everyone."
" No! He is the reason heaven is still standing and you are not taking him! We just got him back and his daughter has 19 years to make up with him so royally fuck off." Lucifer was about the walk inside when he heard chains.
" Heaven wouldn't have faced any threat if Alastor stopped sooner but he didn't. Lucifer we saw what he did, he killed almost 600 of your people in a matter of a few hours just because he could. Lucifer when he kills they go to the void and we can't leave someone like that free. Lilith agreed to testify against Alastor in exchange for her getting sanctuary in heaven." Sera bent down as she looked at Lucifer. " I just need Alastor but if you make this any harder then I will be making the order to remove or eliminate anyone from the void or genetics."
" Amara hasn't done anything and you're not taking my family away! What happened is because of you and how....." Lucifer didn't get a chance to finish before Sera spoke.
" Lucifer, Amara opened the portal and she held that staff yet didn't destroy it."
When Lucifer closed the door Alastor started to listen to the conversation and as he looked over at Amara she was pissed. " Amara....."
" No. We can fight them between you and my dad they won't stand a chance. And you did right by your mistakes and they...." Amara started listening once the door closed and she heard Sera threatening her which was when her father looked at her.
" You and Lucifer don't need to be enemies of heaven besides he needs. I wouldn't wish the void on you Amara so no fighting. Although I am all for banter haha." He stood up but as he started to walk to the door Amara hugged him which he just froze.
" We all need you and you gave me your word you would finish reading the other half of the velvet room. You have to be good and I just know those exorcists are pissed for you killing their sisters so they will want revenge and....." Sure last night scared her but this morning was perfect and she couldn't lose that feeling again, she couldn't lose her father again.
" It's nothing I can't handle." He pulled Amara off as he looked her in the eyes. " When I go out there you hold Lucifer back and after you call Charlie." Amara just nodded as he looked to the door and with a deep breath he walked to the door and opened it but as he went to walk out Lucifer turned and stopped him.
" Alastor we can fight this cause....." Lucifer held Alastor's hands as he tried to get Alastor back inside.
Alastor looked up at Sera who looked at him pissed. " I'll go peacefully if you leave Lucifer and his family alone."
Sera backed away as she looked at Alastor. " We only want you."
Suddenly, Alastor started to walk away but as he tried to hold on Amara held him. " No! Alastor you can't! I promised!"
As he walked up he turned to Lucifer. " I know but I won't let my actions affect you Amara.....not any more than I have." Alastor raised his hands slowly, a silent surrender in the face of the enemy that once called itself divine. He didn’t resist. He didn’t speak. But Alastor didn’t turn back this time. He kept walking, his hands high, until the armored figures closed in.
Then it all changed. With no warning, one exorcist slammed Alastor to the ground, face-first, his jaw smacking the stone hard enough to draw blood. Chains whipped forward and snapped around his wrists, glowing white-hot, searing into his skin. Another drove a knee into his spine, while one grabbed his antlers to wrench his head back.
Lucifer tried to shove through them, screaming. “ STOP! HE’S NOT RESISTING!”
“ HE SAID HE’D GO PEACEFULLY!” Amara cried, clinging to her father, tears streaking her cheeks.
Alastor gasped, trying to lift his head to look at Lucifer and Amara. Then one exorcist raised their boot and stomped down, hard, on his forearm. The bone gave with a sickening crack.
Alastor let out a muffled, animalistic scream, twisting beneath them as his vision blurred. His right arm hung limp, grotesquely angled beneath the chains.
Lucifer’s knees buckled. “ SERA, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!”
Sera didn’t flinch. “ He killed thousands, Lucifer. This is restraint, merciful , given what he’s done.”
“ THAT ISN'T RESTRAINT, THAT'S TORTURE!” Amara shouted, her voice shaking. “ HE’S NOT A MONSTER! YOU ARE!”
Alastor lay dazed, his blood pooling beneath him, black against the stone. Then the muzzle appeared in his line of sight. His heart thudded harder, panic rising. “ Please,” he rasped, “ don’t do this, I'm not going to hurt anyone...”
But they didn’t care. Two exorcists held him down while a third forced the iron muzzle over his face. It hissed with holy energy as the straps burned into the back of his head. He screamed again, but it was barely audible now. Then, they pulled him up, by his broken arm . Alastor’s knees buckled, body sagging forward, but they forced him to walk. Step by step like a condemned creature on parade.
He couldn’t stand upright. He couldn’t breathe through the pain or muzzle. But they still made him walk, shoulders shaking, head lowered under the weight.
Lucifer fell to his knees.
Amara stood frozen, one hand over her mouth, the other reaching forward helplessly. “ Please… please stop,” she whispered, sobbing. “ You’re hurting him. Please…”
Alastor didn’t look at them. He couldn’t. He barely saw anything through the blood and agony. But he heard Amara’s voice tremble. “ You said you’d read the rest of the book…” And then he was gone, disappearing into the portal with the exorcists, like he had never been there at all.
Lucifer held Amara as she broke down as he looked at Sera walk up to them. " You are going to pay for everything you....."
" Lucifer I admit I hurt people but Alastor killed thousands and if.......the trial will start in a week until then Alastor won't be allowed visitors. Since you helped defend Heaven I am going to tell you Heaven wants to have Alastor sent back to the void where he will remain locked up or......or death."
Both him and Amara both quickly looked up at Sera. " You can't kill him! Roo was controlling him and I will be seeing him Sera!"
" You will have your chance in a week to defend him but heaven isn't taking any risks which includes allowing you to see him. Goodbye, Lucifer."
Amara watched the portal close as she looked up at her dad. " Dad, what are we going to do?"
" First.....first I am making some calls to see him and then we are making Sera pay."
Notes:
Will Lucifer be able to find a way to see Alastor? Who is Lucifer going to call? With Alastor locked away in heaven, will exorcists have revenge? How will Charlie react to what happened? Will Alastor be able to keep his word to Amara? Why doesn't Alastor remember killing those people? Will being locked away make Alastor get worse?
More to come next week, so.....bye.
Chapter 21: Chained
Summary:
Lucifer calls Emily for her help with Alastor as she checks on Alastor, who is being held she finds Lucifer's fears to be true. Emily gets Alastor's help as she makes some changes, but she keeps Alastor's condition from Lucifer. Lucifer starts to fall back into old habits as he tries to get through the week of not seeing Alastor, and he fears every day more that Alastor was hurt or worse. But Emily's plan works, and they face a new council to try and get Alastor released, but little did they know the conditions.
Notes:
Before you read along, just a heads up, the 2nd section of the chapter is quite dark, but not enough for me to put a warning, but I will put it here.
You have been warned.....enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Lucifer wanted to shut down and just lay in bed crying for the week until the trial started but he needed to call Emily. Amara went inside and called Charlie who quickly hurried over with Vaggie, Angel, and Husk. Charlie offered to call Emily but he needed to keep himself busy and after what he saw, he worried that Alastor being kept away from them would not just do to him but a lot of the exorcists had scores to settle for Alastor killing their sisters. He did know Alastor was hurt and he needed to be looked at which was another reason he was calling Emily.
" Oh Lucifer I just heard about what Sera did I'm so sorry . I found the angels for the new council and I have them starting in a few days . When they start I will call for Sera to be put on trial and they will push Alastor's back and......."
" Emily, he went peacefully to protect us but they hurt him badly . Sera said it was justified and said no one could see him until his trial . Emily , I need to see him please ."
" Lucifer they do that with every big case but if they hurt him here and he tells the court that then it could help his case.I....I can see him and just keep you up to date. If it's bad then he can spend the week at the infirmary or....."
" They beat him in front of his daughter Emily. He went peacefully as Sera asked........... I need to see him. He hates being locked up and if.....if they hurt him........I....I don't know how well we can bring him back again."
" Let me see what I can do but if Sera is to be seen by the courts all of her acts as high seraphim will be paused until a verdict is made . When she loses whoever they find to take the position will get the decision to move forward or not . But if that happens then we can let him go just with a few restrictions."
" Alright, please keep me up to date."
" I will and I will be honest, I think they will maybe let Charlie or Amara see him, but not you . But I will do my best . I will go now bye ."
END OF CALL
Lucifer put the phone down as he looked behind him at the bed he remembered a few hours ago when they were sitting there as Alastor read to Amara . He couldn't even stop himself from walking over to Alastor's side of the bed as he laid down in it as he could smell Alastor . He barely had Alastor 2 days and he was gone already leaving him again . Now the tears just poured out as he held Alastor's pillow . He didn't even hear the door open much less someone knock but he looked up when he felt someone rub his back . " I......I miss him already."
Charlie laid down in front of her dad as she held him . " I miss him too but Dad you know he wouldn't want you to cry . I can't imagine seeing what you and Amara did but I keep thinking how scared he must be up there . He just got a nibble of freedom and it's being threatened to be taken away forever."
" I promised him." He held Charlie close as he broke down. " I told him he wouldn't be free and now.....now he's locked up in a place where they all want him......I....I can't lose him again Charlie. I just can't do this again."
Charlie just held her dad even as Amara walked in and laid down with them as she joined the hug . " We won't lose anyone else, Dad."
Emily put her phone away as she flew to where they were keeping Alastor but when she tried to walk in exorcistssurrounded the building inside and out. But when she asked about seeing Alastor she was denied which was odd so she tried again but she had to get Sera's permission so she flew to Sera's office and stormed into her office. " Sera why can't I see Alastor?"
" Cause I know Charlie or Lucifer called you so they can see Alastor which you know isn't allowed." Sera sat at her desk as she spoke with Emily.
" Lucifer called me and told me what you let the exorcists do to him so I need to see him . I know they can't see him but Sera, you have to understand he has spent thousands of years locked up and if you lock him up he will lose it." Emily walked over to the desk as she sat down . " I am concerned he can't handle much longer in a cage."
" Alright you can see him but Emily he is extremely dangerous so we are taking every precaution to ensure everyone's safety." Sera made a call so Emily could go see Alastor. " Emily.....I am keeping my distance due to my history with him so his care is in the exorcist's hands if it's not right please let me know."
Emily followed the exorcist through endless corridors, her wings tight with tension as they descended lower and lower beneath Heaven’s surface . The further they went, the colder it became, not physically, but in the atmosphere . The light grew harsher, sterile, and blinding . Her heart sank with each level . When they finally stopped in front of an elevator marked with divine seals , she hesitated .
“ Last floor,” the exorcist muttered.
Emily stepped inside alone . The doors closed with a quiet hiss.
The ride was agonizing . By the time the elevator dinged open, her nerves were frayed . The corridor before her was deathly silent, lined with smooth marble and cold white light . But just a few steps in, two exorcists moved to block her path . “ Excuse me,” she said, keeping her tone controlled.
One narrowed her eyes . “ Why the hell are you down here ? He’s in our custody, not yours.”
Emily didn’t blink . “ He may be in your custody, but I outrank both of you, and I’m not leaving without seeing him.”
She stepped around them, heels clicking against the polished floor, their glares burning into her back . But she didn’t stop . The door was just ahead, thick and cold like the walls around it . She pressed her hand to the seal . It glowed briefly, then dissolved . The door opened with a slow creak . The light inside hit her like a wall, blinding, surgical white that made her squint as she stepped in.
And then … she saw him . At first, it was just a shape in the center of the room.
Then, as her eyes adjusted, her stomach turned . Alastor sat slumped in a chair bolted to the ground . His wrists were chained behind his back so tightly that the metal bit into his skin . A leash hung from a collar around his neck, tethered to the floor like he was some rabid animal . A muzzle spiked and too tight, wrapped around his face, stained dark with blood.
His shirt was torn, clinging to his frame with sweat and blackened blood. His body was covered in bruises, some old, others fresh, and purple. His left arm hung at a wrong angle, clearly broken, and dried blood flaked from his temple where a wound had crusted over without care.
And he wasn’t even fully conscious.
His head lolled slightly, stitched smile unmoving . His eyes were cracked open, just barely, but vacant . Hollow . Emily took a step forward, her voice catching in her throat . “ Alastor?”
Nothing.
Just the faintest twitch in his fingers, barely perceptible.
“ Oh… God…” Her knees nearly gave as she rushed forward, but was stopped by the shimmering divine barrier that flickered between them . “ What have they done to you…?”
Her hands trembled . Without thinking, Emily slid her phone from her pocket . She raised it just enough and snapped a quick, silent photo . Then another . The room . The chains. Alastor . All of it.
She didn’t breathe until the screen went dark again and the device was hidden safely away in her coat. She wasn't showing it to Lucifer. Not Charlie. Not Amara. Not now. It would break them, maybe worse, ignite them. And if that happened… Heaven would burn for it.
She turned sharply on her heel, stormed out into the corridor, and snapped the cell door open behind her with a force that made both exorcists jump . “ Get in there.”
They obeyed, less out of respect and more out of surprise, following her back into the glowing white cell.
Emily turned on them like a blade . “ Look at him.” Neither spoke.“ LOOK AT HIM!” she screamed.
They flinched but obeyed . Their eyes settled on the mess they’d made of Alastor . The blood . The burns . The unnatural slump of his shoulder.
“ Explain this.”
“ He resisted,” one said after a pause, voice stiff . “ We took appropriate measures.”
“ Appropriate?” Her voice cracked with disbelief . “ He’s bleeding, muzzled, chained, and half-dead under a spotlight ! You broke his arm!”
“ He’s a Class-Alpha voidborn and he came here with the chains and his arm broken . But protocol.....”
“ You don’t get to hide behind protocol!” Emily roared . “ You left him untreated ! That’s not protocol, that’s torture . ”Neither responded . She advanced, voice dropping to something low and lethal . “ You’re going to get a doctor in here . A real one . Right now.” Still silence . She clenched her fists . “ Or I swear to every power above and below, I will personally bring this evidence to the High Seraphim Council, and when that trial gets thrown out because of inhumane treatment , you will be the ones paying for it, not him.”
That got them moving . One pulled out a communicator . “ Requesting emergency medic . Lower detainment sector . One detainee in critical, by Seraphim Emily’s order.”
She just looked back at Alastor . Still slumped . Still silent . But his eyes had cracked open, just a little . Just enough to register she was there . To see her . Emily crossed the cell and slowly lowered herself just outside the divine barrier . She didn’t cry . Didn’t tremble . She just watched him.
And softly, so only he might hear, she whispered, “ You’re not alone . You’re going to make it through this . I promise.”
In a couple of minutes, the sharp hiss of the security doors unlocking . A medical team, just one doctor, rushed in, her white coat nearly glowing under the cell’s harsh lights . The doctor hesitated as she approached Alastor, who barely looked up . She glanced warily at the divine restraints before turning to one of the exorcists . “ I need access to his arm,” she said . “ At least one of these has to come off.”
The exorcist scowled . “ That’s not protocol.”
“ It’s medicine . ” Emily’s tone was clipped and cold . “ Take the cuff off.”
With clear reluctance, the exorcist stepped forward and unclasped the restraint on Alastor’s right wrist, still avoiding eye contact with the Radio Demon slumped in the chair like a gutted animal . Alastor groaned lowly as the sudden release of pressure made him sway.
The doctor knelt beside him, gently examining the injury . “ It’s badly broken,” she murmured, trying to lift the arm carefully . “ Swollen . Possibly fractured in more than one place . I need to splint it before we risk long-term nerve damage.”
Before she could begin wrapping the support bandages, another exorcist stepped forward , older , armor scratched and faded.“ I’ve got it,” She muttered.
“ No,” the doctor protested quickly, “ he needs to be stabilized before....”
But the exorcist ignored her . He grabbed Alastor’s limp arm roughly, producing a sharp hiss through the muzzle as Alastor’s body tensed and jerked.
“ Don’t ! ” Emily shouted but it was too late.
The exorcist twisted the broken limb, snapping it back into alignment with a sickening crunch . The sound echoed off the cell walls like gunfire . Alastor screamed, a hoarse, guttural cry torn straight from his throat as his entire body thrashed in the chair.
The doctor staggered back in shock . “ Are you insane?!”
Alastor’s eyes rolled as he gasped behind the muzzle, his scream tapering into tremors, then silence . His head dropped forward, trembling, wrists raw but not bleeding, yet the damage ran far deeper than skin.
The doctor quickly stepped forward again, alarmed by his shallow, wheezing breaths . “ He’s struggling to breathe,” she said , urgent now . “ I need the muzzle off . If it’s restricting airflow .... ”
“ No,” the exorcist snapped . “ He stays muzzled . Protocol .”
“ He can’t breathe.” She reached toward Alastor’s chest, checking for movement , but as her fingers brushed his shirt, Alastor flinched violently and yanked against the chains, panic rising.
One of the exorcists behind him immediately grabbed his already-injured arm and yanked it back, pinning it behind his back in a cruel twist that made Alastor freeze and whimper through clenched teeth.
“ Stop it!” Emily surged forward . “ Let go of him, now! You’re only making it worse!” But it wasn’t just the restraint . It was the look in Alastor’s eyes, wide, wild, filled with terror. Not rage . Not defiance. Fear .
The doctor tried again, more gently this time, her hand hovering as she spoke softly . “ I need to check your chest , I’m not going to hurt you…”
But the moment her fingers brushed near his sternum, Alastor recoiled again, pulling harshly against the restraints, eyes wide and wet . He let out a broken grunt through the muzzle, nearly gagging from the effort.
The doctor pulled her hand back with a quiet curse under her breath. “ He’s not going to let me examine him like this, not here.”
She turned to the others. “ He needs to go to the infirmary. We need a proper bed and full diagnostics. I’m not going toplay medical roulette in a glorified prison cell.” She made the call, snapping orders with her comm. Emily didn’t move, her expression hard but unreadable.
It wasn’t long before a wheeled stretcher was rolled in . The exorcists barked commands at each other as they unlocked the chains binding Alastor to the chair, only to immediately grab his arms and slam him facedown onto the gurney, forcing cuffs back around his wrists and ankles with more divine restraints than necessary . Emily flinched as they shoved his legs down and pulled new chains tight over his chest and waist, bolting him into the stretcher like a live weapon about to explode.
The collar was finally removed , but the muzzle stayed locked around his jaw, stained with dried blood where the corners of his mouth had split beneath the pressure . Alastor thrashed weakly, muscles trembling, eyes unfocused and glazed . But he fought, not because he had strength left … but because he was scared.
Emily followed as they wheeled him down the halls and into the lift . She said nothing, just stared . Every time the elevator jolted or hissed, Alastor tensed beneath the chains . One of the exorcists even chuckled as if it amused her to see the demon shake . She didn’t speak . But she saw everything . When they arrived at the infirmary, she stepped between the stretcher and the guards . “ Out . All of you . He won’t calm down with you here.”
The exorcists sneered and exchanged glances, but eventually filed out under Emily’s cold stare . The doors sealed behind them, leaving only Emily, the doctor, and Alastor.
Now in the relative quiet of the infirmary, the doctor looked over Alastor again and cautiously stepped toward him . “ Alastor,” she said gently . “ If we take the muzzle off, will you behave ? No biting, no fighting . I need to examine you properly.”
Alastor’s eyelids fluttered open at the sound of her voice . He was pale, drenched in a cold sweat, and visibly shaking . But after a moment, he nodded, slowly.
The doctor unlocked the muzzle and carefully removed it. Alastor winced, lips chapped and cut from being confined for so long, but he didn’t speak. He simply stared at the doctor, tense, silent, but no longer fighting.
The doctor approached cautiously again, beginning her examination . She placed her stethoscope over his chest, but Alastor jolted away from the contact, eyes wide with fear . The restraints held him firm, but his panic built anyway, legs twitching beneath the sheets as he sucked in ragged breaths.
The doctor paused . “ He's wheezing… and the way he flinches every time I get near his chest… something’s wrong.” She turned to Emily . “ He needs a chest x-ray if not more, but I can’t get accurate vitals if he keeps seizing up like this.”
Then, very slowly, she reached toward his ribs. Alastor panicked. He yanked on the restraints again, violently this time. One wrist strained until the skin around the cuff turned an ugly purple, and he let out a strained, deer bleat. As the doctor recoiled, one of the exorcists outside must have seen movement and stormed in, grabbing Alastor’s already injured arm and wrenching it behind him again.
There was a wet pop and a ragged, guttural scream that tore from Alastor's throat as his fractured bone was forced out of alignment . “ Stop it!” Emily shouted, stepping between them . “ You’re going to cripple him!”
The exorcist scoffed but backed off under Emily’s glare. Alastor whimpered, sweat beading along his brow. His eyes were glassy, locked on some horror only he could see. And in that moment, Emily finally understood. He wasn’t being difficult. He wasn’t resisting care. He was terrified of being touched.
Lucifer managed to get a few hours in of a nap and stay busy but as night fell he couldn't wait for Emily to call him so after much back and forth he called Emily but there wasn't an answer . Charlie had stayed most of the day with him so did Amara but when Emily didn't answer he started to worry and excused himself so he could call Emily again the more voicemail the more worried he became so he called her again until she finally answered.
" Emily, is everything okay ? Did you see him ? Can I....."
" Lucifer, take a breath, please. I asked if you could see him, Lucifer, and I'm sorry they won't, but for the week, I am going to need you to trust me with Alastor. I am going to make sure Sera has her trial first and that Alastor stays alive."
" Stay alive?"
" Sera is letting the exorcist handle Alastor because of him ripping her wings off it's too personal. Alastor was the reason so many of the angels died and a lot of them are upset. Look Lucifer I was the one who gave you and Alastor false hope by letting you both think he would be free. I owe it to both of you to make this right even if he doesn't know me."
" Just.....just tell me he's okay . I don't know how long he can handle being in there Emily , he struggles enough just trying to go out the day."
" I don't want to lie to you, Lucifer but I also can't tell you the truth so please trust me . I have been with him all day, and I have been making sure he is treated right . But with what he did and what he can do they are taking every measure so he doesn't hurt anyone else . I can call you every night if you wan t."
" Please.....Emily just.....just tell me he's not locked up in some dark cell chained up like some animal."
" .................... I'm sorry, Lucifer but the room isn't dark if it helps . I will call you tomorrow but I will try and be here to watch him so they don't hurt him anymore."
END OF CALL
Not only was Alastor hurt but he was chained up, probably with angelic chains so he couldn't break them and he was hurt more . How hurt was he ? What did the exorcists do ? As his mind asked hundreds of questions, his body gave out as he fell to his knees, clinging to his phone as tears fell down his face . He hadn't even heard anyone walk in or if they even spoke he just felt someone behind him hug him and he held their arms as he looked to see Charlie hugging him as Amara ran in with Vaggie. " Bring him back.......please."
Amara knelt down as she looked at her dad crying in Charlie's arms. " Dad, what did Emily say?" It took a few minutes before he told me about the phone call with Emily but as Charlie started to cry with her dad as Vaggie held them she stood up. " They said no to you going but never me or Charlie."
" Amara, they won't let any of you and my guess is they put him on the bottom floor. Protocols are to keep the person chained so they can't hurt anyone or themselves before trial. I only saw it used a few times by Adams's orders but it was either the worst of the worst or....or traitors. Now they won't let you three but they can let a winner." Vaggie looked at Lucifer and Charlie then Amara. " She hasn't been down here since the incident with Alastor and she's family. I just don't know how much he would want to see her."
Lucifer sat up as he looked at Vaggie. " I gave him her memories of him and if Emily goes......"
" I will call them in the morning Dad but right now there's much we can do." Charlie looked at Amara worried. " Vaggiecould you stay with my Dad for a moment while I have a word with Amara?" Vaggie nodded and she walked out with Amara. " Amara......"
" Grammie can't see him, Charlie , she could barely handle just that morning, and if what Emily and Vaggie said is true ..... " When the idea came up she quickly hated it but when she shared the worried look with Charlie she knew she thought the same.
" Okay, then we both agree. We will tell him tomorrow but tonight let's just be here for him." And that is what they did her and Amara slept with their Dad and in the morning Vaggie and Amara made breakfast but it was when he walked downstairs dressed she knew they had to tell him. " Dad me and Amara talked about the plan and....."
" And we don't want Grammie to be involved . She is struggling as is just from him not remembering her and that morning so we don't want her to go through more . It's 1 vs. 2." Amara saw Charlie was struggling so she ripped the band-aid off.
" If she knew what happend....." Alastor's mom would run to Alastor is she knew he was locked up.
" Dad it would only hurt her more and if what Vaggie said is true he would see anything but what Roo put in his head. Itwas a family vote and you lost." Her dad quickly stood up pissed but she didn't care.
Lucifer looked at Amara and Charlie, ready to give them a whole speech, but then his eyes fell on Vaggie. " Well , Vaggie is family so she gets a vote . Vaggie ?"
The last thing she thought she would be asked to join the vote . " Um .... I gotta go with Chalie and Amara here . Alastor hardly talked about his struggles much less showed it so I don't think he would want any of us to see him like that . It's a week and Emily is going to be with him so how bad could it ge t."
Emily called him each night to keep him up to date on the council and Sera but getting anything about Alastor was impossible . She just asked him to trust her and one night not knowing was better than knowing which only made him worry more . But he couldn't sleep even if Charlie or Amara were with him . He would just fake it until they were asleep, then teleport to the cellar where he kept all the alcohol that he collected throughout time . He sat there on the floor crying as he downed bottle after bottle until it was morning then just teleported to his bathroom to clean off but after days of doing that and not sleeping, he was more emotional to the point he waited until he was alone and went to the cellar.
Tomorrow was Alastor's trial and all he could think was how he failed Alastor all over again . It was crushing to the point he just locked himself in his room cause he didn't deserve to be comforted or loved . Charlie spent the morning knocking on the door which he didn't answer not even when Amara tried , hell almost everyone tried but when they finally stopped forced himself up as he walked over to the closet to grab one of Alastor's jackets that Niffty brought over . It smelled like him, so he put it on and held himself as he walked back to the bed, crying then curled up in Alastor's jacket . But to his surprise, his phone started to ring, which he muted but Emily so when it rang, he quickly snapped it to his hands as he answered it.
" Hello?"
" Lucifer I have great news ! I got the new council in and told them about Sera and they have her being locked up until trial in 2 days . With a case like hers, they needed to have it soon and they put a pause on all of Sera's orders, which include Alastor."
" D...does that mean he can come home?"
" I don't see why not but I have a hearing with the council which I want you, Charlie, and Amara to come . I think if they see he isn't going back to hell to hurt anyone or plot they will release him."
" When?"
" Technically now but they are reviewing everything and I asked them to hear my case which they allowed. So if you three could get here in the hour, it would be amazing."
" We will be there, thank you, Emily ."
" Don't thank me just yet."
END OF CALL
Lucifer quickly got up and snapped himself changed in his regular clothes then teleported downstairs to find everyone sitting and quickly looking at him. " Emily did it. Sera has a trial in 2 days so until they make a decision, Alastor's case is on hold but me, Charlie, and Amara need to go up there and basically say why he should come back instead of staying."
Charlie quickly stood up as she looked at her Dad and then Amara. " Then what are we doing here?"
" Haha let's bring him home." Amara smiled as she watched her dad open the portal and once they walked through they were outside the courtroom where they saw Emily pacing. " Emily, how deep do we want these speeches? Cause I can bring tears."
Emily was happy to see all of them but she still had a heavy feeling that something wasn't going to go right. " You just have to stand there and your timing is great they are just coming back from recess." Emily opened the doors as she led everyone in. " Council I would like to introduce Lucifer Morningstar and Charlie but this is Amara who is Alastor's daughter. While Alastor is still working on his memory he has them all to help him and even trusts Lucifer even care enough to come to custody peacefully despite everything the exorcist did."
" While it was generous of him to come with peace there is the issue of him killing thousands of our kind even evidence he kil led in hell."
Lucifer walked forward and looked at everyone. " What happend in hell is a matter I can deal with but he is only facing these charges for what he did to heaven. But he helped stop Roo and he has no desire to make heaven fall, all he wants is for Sera to face the crimes she committed against their people."
" He only attacked heaven to save himself from going back to the pit Roo kept him. She kept him locked away and hurt him to the point his memories are not his." Charlie walked up and grabbed her Dad's hand. " In th e full day he was with us we saw him fighting his fears even stopping himself from hurting anyone."
" My father has missed years of our lives and in just 2 days I felt him the way my sister and dad did." Amara walked over and looked up at the council. " The enemy of my enemy is my friend." The council all started to whisper which she could hear conflicted. " Heaven is for the good so why keep a man locked away for something he was forced to do and believe? You treat him like Roo and he will think of you as an enemy which is why the enemy of my enemy is a frien d."
" Amara was it? You make a fair point and from what we heard from Emily we want to allow him to go home. But......but he is still a danger, especially after what these reports say. But if you are all right wouldn't it be safer for all of you to leave him here and we can treat him?"
" He is safe where he is comfortable which is with us. Please he has spent the last 20 years locked in a pit of darkness and all we know is that it was torture . I saw the scars, and I saw him struggle but push through it, he has nightmares that I can take away. In his mind the only person he ever lov ed hated him and hurt but I have shown him it's all wrong. He knows he doesn't have to be who he was for us to love him cause no matter what he is Amara's father and my partner who I can't lose again." Lucifer looked at Amar then Charlie. " My girls need Alastor .. .. I need him."
" Very well then I will speak for us all and allow him to leave in your custody Lucifer but he will keep the collar which will stop him from using his powers and killing. Also for everyone's safety no one until the matter of Alastor is handled the void is to remain untouched until we see what should happen. I also want an exorcist to be at Alastor's side if he goes anywhere isn't with Lucifer. They will be given a remote to the collar but they are not to do anything more."
" That's just like taming a dog!" Amara balled her fists tightly as she looked at the council. " He is a living being!"
" A living being who may be doing better is still a risk. I will ask he to return when Sera's trial starts as well as you 3 where you may stay here until a verdict is made. If that's all....."
" What?! Sera admitted to what she did to them! She knew what Roo was doing and let it go on! Why....." Amara was going to say more but Charlie quickly stood in her way.
" Amara, he is coming home so we have to take what we can get." Charlie hated it but Alastor had heaven-scared which she understood from their point of view. " May we get him?"
" Due to his actions, we will have him brought to hell to which we will remove any bings except the collar. I will warn you if he tries to remove it himself, it will turn on and we don't wis h him more pain. Perhaps in 2 days or after Sera's trial, we can remove it."
" Thank you." Emily knew it wasn't what they all wanted but he wasn't going to be locked in some cage anymore. But as her , Amara, and Charlie started to walk out she turned to se e Lucifer still facing the council.
Lucifer took a breath and then looked up at the council. " Have any of you seen Alastor since coming here? Perhaps even spoke with him?"
" We have not."
" Maybe you should cause being here I can feel him and I can feel he is in pain. Me and his daughter had to watch as exorcists cuffed him and chained him like he was a beast. We even heard the sound of his bone breaking despite already being in cuffs . You judge him based on actions which I understand but.......but Iunderstand him. Once you do then you will see, please." Lucifer turned and walked out not looking back. When they were outside he hugged Amara. " What now?"
" You go home and I will make sure he is there in the hour. Lucifer I am sorry that ......" Emily feared what Alastor would be like after everything, then to have that coller.
Lucifer grabbed Emily's hand. " You helped us get him home which we can't thank you enough for." Emily smiled as he looked at Amara then Charlie then opened the portal home.
When they got back they told everyone what happend and they decided it would be best if it was just them when Alastor arrived. While him and Charlie were just happy Alastor would be there with them Amara was furious that they contuined to treat Alastor like a pet. " Amara you're allowed to be upset but if this was the old council they would have kep t him locked up and we don't know when or if they would look back on the case if they knew he was locked away."
" Why are we just accepting this is okay?! Dad you of all people have to see they're just trying to be nice but he is still being controlled , he is still being treated like someone's pet! You said he belonged to no one but you letting .... ." Amara didn't get a chance to finish before her dad stopped her.
" Amara, we hate it but no matter what they weren't going to just let him walk away from this as much as we want them to. This is heaven and they saw Alastor kill their people which is a serious crime but I will do what I can to make sure he is safe. Look he will be here soon and he will be just as pissed as you are but with an exorcist being around we don't need her seeing him pissed. I will make sure I am always with him but she will still be around watching and waiting for him to slip up." Lucifer grabbed Amara's hand and Charlie's. " We stay calm and he will then in a few days we can try and get it removed." He turned to Amara. " If it's too much Amara you don't...."
" I am not going anywhere, Dad ." Amara suddenly heard the shimmer of a portal open outside and bolted to the front doors, her heart racing. But the moment she stepped outside, she froze.
From the portal came six exorcists, armed, cold, and silent. Each one held a glowing dagger trained tightly on her father. He was barely upright, dragged along in thick, heavy chains that wrapped around his arms, legs, and neck. His antlers were cracked and even looked to have been f iled . His face was worn and his mouth was sealed behind a reinforced muzzle that dug into his face. The sharp clinking of chains echoed with every step as he staggered forward under their control.
Behind him, the lead exorcist strode with precision, her posture sharp, her eyes colder than the weapons at their sides. In her hand, she held a collar glowing with divine energy. “Bring him forward,” the lead exorcist commanded. With a jerk of the chain, they yanked Alastor down onto his knees.
He didn’t cry out. He didn’t resist. But his breathing, harsh and ragged, betrayed the pain that clung to every inch of him.
“ I’m the one assigned to him,” the lead exorcist said, addressing Lucifer directly. “ He is my responsibility now. Wherever he goes, I go. If you are not present, he is still under control. This collar ensures that. But even if you around I am will be watching and he is under my orders.” She raised the remote in her other hand. “ This will keep him in line. If he tries to use his powers , it goes off. If he tries to remove the collar, it goes o ff. And if I press this button here...” she tapped it once, just enough to make the collar hum, “…it activates manually.”
Lucifer’s voice cracked. “What happens if it goes off?”
“ Pain. Disabling, disorienting pain fro m a high-voltage shock.” She looked Lucifer dead in the eye. “ If I hold it down long enough, it can be fatal.”
Amara stepped forward, voice trembling with rage. “ He’s not dangerous, he turned himself in! He didn’t fight you!”
The lead exorcist didn’t flinch. “ Intentions mean nothing. I saw him kill hundreds of my sisters and even more angels, so I'm not taking any chances on a monster like him.” She moved to attach the collar as one of the others reached down to unlock the chain at Alastor’s throat. But the moment that chain came loose, Alastor stirred. Not violently, just enough to breathe, to move. Another exorcist raised his dagger and slashed a clean line across Alastor’s arm.
“STOP IT!” Charlie screamed.
The collar clicked into place around his neck. One by one, the remaining shackles were removed. The muzzle was the last to come off. And when it did, Alastor’s hands, trembling , bloodied from his arm, moved toward the collar on instinct. The lead exorcist didn’t even hesitate and pressed the button.
Charlie screamed, “STOP!” But she didn’t let go.
Alastor’s scream tore through the air. His body convulsed violently as divine energy surged through him. He collapsed completely on the ground, writhing, his nails digging into the ground, the collar’s glow searing like fire around his throat. “ I said STOP!” Charlie ran forward, slamming into the exorcist and knocking the remote from her hand.
The collar finally went dim. Lucifer dropped to his knees beside Alastor, pulling his head into his l ap. “ I’ve got you, I’ve got you, love, it’s over…”
Alastor was shaking as he tried t o catch his breath. Barely clinging to consciousness. Charlie grabbed his other hand, her voice trembling with fury. “ You don’t touch him again. Not unless you want me to bury you.”
The lead exorcist stood calmly, retrieving the remote. “He is my responsibility, and that was a warning. If he wants to live, he’ll behave. Now show me where we will be staying.”
" We?" Amara rushed to the ground as she held a towel on her father's bleeding arm. She looked at his face and he was out cold which meant she could be pissed.
" I can't watch him if he's sleeping in another room, and nights a re when he's more dangerous."
Notes:
How will Alastor be after being chained up for a week? Will having an exorcist around make everything harder? Will Lucifer be able to get Alastor to sleep with him so he can sleep? Will Sera be found guilty? What does the council ask when they ask Alastor questions about Sera during her trial? Will they be able to keep Alastor calm so the collar can come off? How does Alastor see his mother after getting her memories of him?
We have a week of new chapters, so stay tuned.....bye.
Chapter 22: Split
Summary:
Lucifer and Amara try to help Alastor adjust to being free again, only he isn't acting like himself, which Lucifer and Amara find strange until the exorcist makes Alastor do as she commands which only pissed Lucifer off more. Lucifer guards Alastor from the exorcist, but only he could stop her from something else. Lucifer and everyone get enlightenment on Alastor's condition.
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Why did he think this was going to be easy maybe even get back to before? The exorcist sent wouldn't leave Alastor's side not even unconscious and when he was going to patch Alastor's arm he was pushed aside as she just wrapped a cloth around it. He was going to carry Alastor to his bed but she stopped him as she forced Alastor awake by shocking him which had Amara and Charlie on the verge of killing her so he had Amara and Charlie stay with Alastor who was hardly moved. " Look I understand you have orders but you're in my house and my kingdom. You are upsetting our daughters and making things harder so you will back off. I am with him and he has that collar. So unless you want me calling for another meeting with the council then you will back the hell off. Oh, and he sleeps with me if you don't like it then tough shit."
" I can back off but he isn't leaving my sight Lucifer so if you want him to sleep with you then he will sleep with his handcuffed to the bed. Either one but Lucifer I don't give a shit if your king that thing out there slaughtered my people and deserves to suffer." She looked Lucifer up and down then looked into the room. " The only thing he can kill is himself and call me Alex."
Lucifer was going to go off but she walked back into the room as he walked over to Alastor who just stared down at his hands, Charlie looked at him scared. " Alastor I know you are still adjusting but do you need anything? We can go to the garden or if you want to lie down? Or if you're hungry......."
Amara saw the exorcist sitting in the corner watching them she flipped the remote to the collar as her dad started to ramble. " Dad, why don't we just give him some space? I can go to Rosie's and get something for him to eat later or when he gets hungry and Charlie can go to the hotel to make sure everything is running smoothly. Dad, you can make some ducks down here with him or get some of your work that's been piling up."
Lucifer nodded and before he knew it Amara and Charlie were gone and he was sitting on the other couch going through paperwork as the record played but Alastor just sat there looking hands. Even after a few hours and Amara was back he hadn't moved at all. He couldn't help but worry and he saw Amara even struggling to see Alastor like this. " Love? Is everything alright?" Nothing and as he looked back at Amara she was running away so he forced himself to finish working but as he did he saw Amara walking back with something in her hands.
At times she wondered if heaven didn't exist anymore then would everyone be better? Her father wouldn't be frozen looking at his hands or be treated like a pet. But an idea came to mind and she sat down beside her father and showed him, The Velvet Room. " Remember you gave me your word you would read me and dad the other half? It left on a good part and I am curious about what happens." Nothing still and it was crushing even her dad was crushed. She put the book aside as she took a risk and slowly laid her hand on his. " Please don't shut us out."
" Ugh for fuck's sake." Alex rolled her eyes as she stood up and looked at Alastor. " Hey, freak face acknowledge them." To all of their surprise, he looked at Lucifer and Amara then at her. " Good now do what they want."
He just looked at the exorcist for a long few seconds but when she moved her hand with the remote he looked at Amara. " D...do you want me to read to you?"
Lucifer quickly looked at Alex as she smiled and sat back down laughing and he snapped slamming the pen and packet of papers making a large thud. " What the hell did you do!? I swear I am going to make....."
" Dad!" Amara was almost going to cry when her father looked at her scared but when her dad slammed the stuff he had in his hands, her father jumped but it was when her dad started yelling as his horns came out she saw her father scared and even started to panic. " It's alright Papa."
He hadn't thought of anything just anger so when he looked at Alastor he saw him panicking and he started to shake. " Alastor I....." It was just one step and he flinched and it hurt seeing Alastor, someone who was never afraid now terrified. " Love I'm sorry but I won't...."
" Papa you want to go to the garden? Get some fresh air and look at the plants. Dad can stay in here but the lady would have to come instead." Without a word, he just stood up so she did as she held her hand out but he didn't look. So she just led him to the garden where they both sat on a bench and when she looked the lady followed. " You know you don't have to do whatever we say, if you don't want something then you can tell us. But we won't hurt you and my dad was just upset and didn't think. He won't ever hurt you though you mean everything to him and he loves you so you being gone hurt him more than anyone." She looked around picked up a pebble and handed it to him. " I heard you know how to skip rocks."
" I can't throw still." Alastor gently rubbed his still-healing broken forearm.
" Oh.....well do you want to walk around in here or do you just want some quiet?" When the word quiet came out he quickly looked at him worried. " You know I have a lot of your old broadcasts if you want to listen to them but they are in my room."
" Can we?" He looked at Amara then the exorcist who still played with the remote to the collar which felt tight but he learned he couldn't even touch it.
" Yeah." She smiled as she walked them up to her room and she called her dad who was afraid. " Dad we were going to listen to Papa's old shows if you want to join us. Then it could just be us three." Amara had her father sit on the bed next to her as she patted her dad on her other side.
Lucifer would say yes right away but he didn't want to scare Alastor like he did earlier. " Alastor can I join? I can sit in the corner if you want or...."
" It's alright. Can we close the door?" Maybe if it was closed he could relax for a moment but as Lucifer nodded and closed the door and for a moment he started to relax until the door opened and she walked in.
" Lucifer you know the rule if you want the door closed then he's cuffed." Alex pulled out a set of angelic cuffs as she snapped a look at Alastor making him sit up.
He saw Alastor panicking and Amara worried. "You're not cuffing him but we will leave the door cracked. Remember you’re on my turf so if you make my daughter or Alastor upset I will reasonably end you……now out.” Surprisingly it worked and he happily sat on the bed as the two looked at him. “ What?”
“ I guess I haven’t ever seen you so defensive before and it might just be me but I love it, Dad.” Amara smiled as she reached over and turned the tape on as she laid between her dads. They had to have sat there for a couple of hours listening and she even felt her father lay his head on her shoulder and when she looked he was asleep. She was going to show her dad but he was asleep too and she couldn’t help but lay the two on each other and almost like instinct her dad cuddled up to her father. Carefully she slipped out of bed but as was going to leave the two she was about to leave when she saw Alex about to walk in with cuffs in hand. “ I will stay just don’t do that please.” She quietly stepped back and sat down in her chair as she read.
One moment he was sitting there listening to Alastors old broadcast then next he was opening his eyes to find the room almost dark except for a lamp. He was going to get up but as he started to get up someone pulled him when he looked it was Alastor who was asleep. How could he refuse to stay so he laid back down as he carefully held Alastor even went back to sleep. How long he was asleep for he didn't know but they were in Amara's room and he only woke up again when he felt something on top of him when he opened his eyes it was Amara laying a blanket on top of them.
Silently he thanked her to which Amara just nodded as she walked away he pulled the blanket to cover Alastor then he was out for the rest of the night. Only to wake up to falling on the floor and as he quickly got up worried Alastor sat there panicking. " Alastor?"
" What happend? When did I get here?" The last thing he remembers was being chained to some chair as he saw an exorcist walk in with a cart of tools.
Lucifer slowly sat back on the bed as he saw Alex standing at the door pissed. " Yesterday? We fell asleep listening to your old shows."
Why didn't he remember doing that or even yesterday? As he looked at Lucifer he saw Lucifer look behind him and he quickly looked to find one of the exsorcists from the room. " What is going on? How did....."
Alastor was confused but why? " Alastor you were in heaven for a week but you are back with her watching you. But Alastor I won't leave you alone with her so she can't and won't hurt you."
" Unless you test me, try to kill someone, or.....or try to use those powers of yours."
Then he felt something on his neck but as he started to reach for it Lucifer stopped him so he got up and walked over to the bathroom where he looked at himself in the mirror and saw a collar on his neck. " What the hell is this?!"
" Part of allowing you to come back that was the condition and it just dampens your powers but you can't touch it or try to take it off." Lucifer walked over to the bathroom.
" What happens if I do?" Maybe this was some weird dream or hallucination but whatever it was it felt real.
Lucifer was about to answer nicely but Alex spoke.
" Why are you acting like you didn't hear me go over what it does?" She walked up to Alastor, and as she was about to grab the collar, Lucifer pulled her to the floor.
Lucifer stood between Alex and Alastor as he looked at her on the floor while she got up. " I told you that you won't touch him so try again I dare you."
" Last I checked, Lucifer he isn't yours, you were never married, and that isn't the freak you fell for. That thing just has his face and who's to say it's not......."
" Enough! You don't know anything about me!" He hardly raised his voice but he was missing time again and this time it felt like it was days worth. " Now tell me what the hell is going on!"
She laughed as she looked at Alastor. " Really? I know enough and I know you heal fast like angels, I know you hate loud sounds, bright lights, and reminders of what she did to you, hell I know how much you hate being muzzled and leashed, and I know you are unable of feeling anything for another person. Haha, I know just how fucked up you are and I put it together what she....." Alastor's wall was falling apart and she could see she was getting to him. But as she spoke and walked closer she blinked and suddenly in darkness then as she looked was chained up in the cell just like Alastor was and yet there was she tried to get free but the other version of her was pulling out tools for torture. " No.....NOOO!!"
Lucifer blinked, and Alex was gone Alastor fell to the ground, yelling as the collar shocked him, and he quickly knelt down as he waited for it to stop. Amara even ran in just as it stopped. " You alright?" Alastor was breathing heavily but he nodded as he tried to get up so he quickly helped Amara as they helped him sit on the bed. " Alastor where did she go?"
" What happend?" Amara heard her father yelling and quickly ran up to see the collar going off.
" I don't know Alex was saying all this stuff about Alastor then she just vanished. If the collar went off it mean you....." He stood up as Alastor started to laugh not like normally but it was the laugh to scare his victims making him even take a step back.
Slowly, he looked up at the two as stood up fixing his suit. " I mean I used my powers quite clever Lucifer. Haha, she wanted to call me a monster then she should see herself."
It took a moment fo her to add up what he said. " You put her in the void didn't you?" He nodded as he looked at her like he had the first time she met him which was starting to worry her. " I thought that stopped your powers?"
Alastor laughed as he walked to Amara's bookshelf as he looked. " Heaven doesn't know much about my kind and they simply used something to block an angel's powers which I am not. Lucifer, heaven is standing yet we were locked up, why?"
" Um.....you see we thought...." Lucifer moved closer to Amara as they watched Alastor look at the books on the shelf.
Alastor picked a book as he looked but as Lucifer spoke he slammed it closed as he looked at the two. " You thought. That was your issue you made a promise you or that girl couldn't keep so that's on you, not me. We killed Roo so no one was trying to control me yet that's exactly what's happening Lucifer and I don't like that Lucifer. If I don't like something Lucifer I have the power to change it or simply.....destory it."
This wasn't Alastor, not the one he knew this....this felt like someone else was talking. " Look we have a plan to free you and honor what we said but part of it is you behave so no killing. I get you're upset about what they did when you surrendered but....."
" I would never surrender to heaven when they are the reason my people have been treated like were nothing. And upset isn't even close to how I feel about Heaven, they should have fallen and it was wrong for you to think they could change. No one can change and not them." Alastor put the book back as he turned to the two.
" You did we watched you and you told me it was so heaven didn't hurt me or Dad. Heaven is changing but it takes time and they already made the first steps by getting a new council in who realized you." Amara didn't like how he was looking at her.
" That's where your wrong little girl you see I couldn't care less about your lives so if it was you two or me I would trade it before you could understand." He walked up to Amara but quickly Lucifer stood in the way.
It wasn't Alastor and once he realized it he quickly stood in front of Amara. " I don't know what's going on with you but stop Alastor. Now I need you to bring Alex back before heaven finds out and....."
He just laughed as he looked at Lucifer closely. " Let them find out then I will kill every last one of them and treat them the way they treated us. When heaven is empty maybe I will take it over and make it for everyone from the void. It would work then like I am doing now I can look down at you."
" You said you wanted peace and be free from all of that. You told me you had just wanted to spend your freedom alone but you wanted to try this first." Alastor was afraid when he first came back then when he woke up he didn't even remember coming back or the collar and now this.....something was wrong like really wrong.
" Peace?" He tilted his head as he looked at Lucifer then laughed. " Peace is the last thing I want, I want to make every living person suffer in ways your minds couldn't even understand. Roo was too emotional and wanted revenge but me.....me I have none and I don't want revenge I want to take everyone from hell and heaven and make them live in the void as we control your suffering." As he laughed he walked to the window. " I like the hell sun much more than heaven perhaps we should start here?"
When Alastor turned around he made Amara leave as he looked at Alastor. " Let me guess you have missing time? Your memories are missing points?"
He turned to Lucifer who stood there. " What are you going on about?"
" Do you hear voices? Perhaps ones that sound like you?" Lucifer hoped he was wrong but Alastor's eyes suddenly went black but as the collar started to shock him he broke it then tossed it to the floor.
" Just because I am not the man you knew doesn't mean you can say I am some freak. If anyone is that would be you Lucifer, you don't think I can see what you are? I am sure if I go down to your......cellar I will find a mess or perhaps your room where you have a drawer of pills which you could use to end it all. Haven't you done that before? No wait you did worse didn't you?" He walked closer as Lucifer kept stepping back in fear. " Does your daughter know this? Does she know how weak her dad is or how he tried to kill himself a few times?"
" Stop it. You don't know me." How did he know about the cellar or the pills?
" I don't but I can have someone look for me." He pointed at his shadows. " They can find anything you have hidden and reports your little sins kept even heaven kept. Do you think Sera helped you into that rehab cause she felt sorry for you? Perhaps so you would owe her later on? Haha, I am curious what would have happend if she said no, would you have gone back? What if your few friends never found you would your corpse be on the floor of that....."
" STOP IT!" Lucifer pushed Alastor into the wall as he wiped his tears away. " I was only like that because you died! You knew everything but you didn't know you wouldn't die! If I knew....."
" You would what? Come find me? You would save us from a place you don't even know or have even been to? Maybe he didn't tell you cause thinking we were dead was easier for you than you know he was alive and being tortured and you couldn't help him. Or maybe you didn't really know him that well? It was hardly even a year before he died and if you knew I think you would have been worse than you are now."
WARNING - TALK OF RELAPSE AND SELF-HARM
Alastor wiped his jacket as he forced Lucifer to be bound to the wall. " I am curious why did you enjoy the high? Tell me and I won't kill you in your daughter's bedroom."
The tentacle around his neck suddenly got tighter so he looked at the door then Alastor. " I.....I didn't have to feel the pain of not having you anymore. The stronger or more I took......the more real you were."
Alastor smiled as he had a shadow grab Lucifer's arm. " I only found some a few months after your Alastor died but did you ever slip up? I can tell if you're lying and if you do or refuse...well....snap." He smiled as he looked at Lucifer who shook his head. " Come now Lucifer I am not very patient." Lucifer just stared at him so he nodded and his shadow broke Lucifer's forearm making him cry out. " Now talk or it can be the whole arm."
" Please!" Lucifer choked on his own sobs not just from the pain but fear. " Alastor please!!"
He sighed as he nodded and the shadow broke Lucifer's bicep making Lucifer scream even louder. " I just want to know and then I will kill you." Lucifer just cried so he walked over and hit the broken bone making Lucifer scream. " Tell me."
" YES!" Lucifer had to catch his breath and hold his cries in. " She....she looked so much like you.....and.....and I couldn't stop myself.......I...I just needed you......."
" How many times?" Alastor took a seat as he looked at Lucifer's cry.
" A few years after........2 times......first.....first time was easier and......and I told Amara I was sick........other time.......she.....she had to stay with Rosie for a few weeks......I .... I messed up and......and......" The first time was after Amara came to him crying about Alastor when she was little and begging him to bring him back, that he had all these powers so he could bring him back. It was crushing and he couldn't get it out of his head for days and it was starting to show so he started getting high again but after weeks of doing it Amara came to him one night to sleep with him and he stopped that morning. The other time he couldn't think about it right now.
" It's what they all say but I want to know about this other time when you had to be gone for a week." He rolled the chair over as Lucifer shook his head as he cried so he had his shadow punch Lucifer a few times. " Come on Lucifer just tell me what I want to know and I can make this easier."
" No." He was hit again but harder than before making him taste his own blood.
Alastor stood up and he looked at Lucifer. " Let me guess here but you tried to kill yourself again?"
He cried but his physical pain was nothing like his mental. " We.....we had a fight......she....she said she wished I had died instead of you.....I told her I would switch if I could and.....she said she hated me then went to her room........it....it was 10 years since......every year.......it was hard but that....that was the hardest and........." He took a breath and then finally looked at Alastor. " I....drank a couple bottles but it still hurt so.....so I went to greed......they said take half I took all of it plus more and.....and I saw you......you told me she needed me....that....that she was just a kid but....but it was too late. I.....I woke up in Sloth."
Alastor laughed as he backed down. " Why don't you walk in?" He turned to the door as Amara walked into the room in tears. " Your own dad tried to kill himself because of you so how does that make you feel?"
" You....you told me it was a work thing." She had heard everything and it took everything not to run in and stop everything.
" I...I never wanted you to worry and it was the last time Amara. I should have known you didn't mean it or brushed it off as you missed your father. I'm sorry Amara but I blame myself not you." All of it was to get a confession and Amara to hear it and see a side of him he never wanted Amara to see much less hear.
Alastor laughed as the two cried. " Lucifer you almost grabbed that hidden stash a few days ago didn't you? You didn't hide it very well."
" Dad?" Amara looked at her dad as he just cried so she turned to her father. " Leave him alone!"
" Does it hurt to know your last parent tried to kill himself then for him to almost do it again just a few days ago? I wonder if I killed you and left Lucifer with your corpse he would snap and finally finish what he started all those other times or maybe be a better parent to Charlie. Since she is his heir to all of this and you.....I guess you get nothing." Quickly he had Amara bound to the wall across from Lucifer. He laughed as the tentacle around Amara's neck tightened making Lucifer scream. " No one will save you cause no one cares or knows who you are."
" ALASTOR STOP!!" All he could do was watch as he saw Amara struggle as she was choked.
END OF WARNING
As he was screaming at Alastor to stop, suddenly a zap and Voxappearedr quickly wrapping cables around Alastor quickly letting him and Amara free. He ran over to Amara and she gasped as Vox zapped away. " I'm so sorry Amara are you....."
" I'm sorry too." Amara hugged her Dad as she cried into his arms but they stopped when they heard a loud crash. She quickly grabbed the collar then helped her dad up as he teleported them outside to see Alastor toss Vox into rock as he gliched. Then she herd the gunshots and when they looked Angel was fireing as Husk threw his cards at the shadows killing them. Charlie ran up to them hugging them.
" Are you both alright?" Amara called saying they needed help to zap Alastor but their dad looked beaten and his arm was broken.
" I..I can talk to him please don't......" Lucifer saw bullets flying and he wanted to stop it but Charlie and Amara forced him to sit down.
Vaggie ran over as she looked at Amara and Lucifer. " Lucifer he will manage just fine not to get hit. Charlie stay with them." She ran back out as they fought off mostly everything Alastor threw their way but quickly Angel was knocked out then Husk as she stood her ground while Vox slowly got up and wrapped Alastor with the cables tightly and zapped him, knocking him out. " Geez any longer he would have really killed all of us."
" Fuck you, did he get stronger?" Vox's screen was smashed and he was glitching. " Where do we put him?"
Lucifer walked over and bent down to Alastor as he ran his hand through his hair. " Put him in the cage Vox." He gently kissed Alastor's forehead then stood up and in blink Vox and Alastor were gone.
" Dad we need to fix your arm so it can heal." Charlie walked over to her dad as he just stared at the ground.
Vaggie had Lucifer walk inside as she fixed his arm but he didn't say anything. " Amara, what exactly happend that made him do that? I mean he had that collar to stop this."
" It wasn't made for him but he was quiet all of yesterday and he fell asleep with Dad. Hell, they slept through the rest of the day then the night." Amara looked at Charlie. "Let's patch everyone up then see if the plan worked." As they helped Husk and Angel she pulled Charlie aside and told her their dad and what happened. " I....I think we should take Dad to see Aunt Bel."
Charlie wiped her tears as she nodded. " He won't unless he knows Alastor's okay or with him. We need to fix that collar and get Alex back before heaven finds out."
Husk limped over as he overheard what Charlie said. " I have a theory that if you're not from the void you keep your regular form so you can pull someone in and out kinda like your mom or Adam. They came to hell because they had physical forms. Which was because they were taken as a sinner."
" So we just have to pull her out them make her forget." Making an exorcist forget wouldn't be easy but it was worth trying if it meant heaven didn't find out.
" Yeah, but we need Alastor to do it." Charlie stood up as she looked in the saw Angel hugging her dad as he cried into his arms. " I think we need to go see Alastor before he plans anything else."
" Gotta agree with Charlie. Even if Alastor can doesn't mean he will and after all of that he isn't doing shit for us." Husk took a hard exhale as he looked at Amara and Charlie. " I can fix the collar.....well.....me and Vox will fix it."
Amara handed it to Husk and they walked back in to see Angel holding her dad as he cried. But he was healing which was a relief. " Dad let's go see him." He just slowly nodded as he wiped his tears and then opened the portal. When they walked through Alastor was still asleep on the ground. " Husk and Vox are going to fix the collar. Angel, can you go back to the hotel and make sure Niffy doesn't find us or Alastor? Vaggie, Charlie, me, and our dad will stay here with Alastor. If he wakes up and we need help we will call."
" Good luck kid." Vox zapped him and Husk to his office as they got to work.
Angel hugged Lucifer. " It's gonna work out Luci cause if Al can come back from the dead then I say you both get a happy ending and I am not making a sex joke."
" Haha, thanks." Lucifer just sat down in the corner as he watched Alastor sleep as Amara and Charlie sat beside him holding his hands as they waited. It had been a few hours since they all sat down but he kept his focus on Alastor hoping Amara's plan worked. When he saw Alastor move he quickly stood up and watched Alastor slowly wake up but once Alastor looked at him he quickly sat up. " Alastor?"
" W....why am I in here?" Alastor looked at the bars then he saw the relief in everyone's eyes but he noticed Lucifer's face and Amara's neck. " What.....what happend?"
Amara knelt down as she looked at her father. " You don't remember?"
Alastor shook his head and Vaggie walked over as she knelt down next to Amara. " Alastor are you missing time? Like one moment you're doing something then suddenly it's hours later and you don't know what happend."
" I need to go.....can....can I leave?" Alastor held his legs close as he looked at the 4.
Charlie walked over to the door unlocked it and walked in. She closed the door and then sat down in front of Alastor. " Alastor do you remember the exorcist who was staying with you, my dad, and Amara?" He nodded as he backed away more. " You put her in the void and we need her back so heaven doesn't find out what you did."
" I.....I can't....." He shook his head as he grabbed his ears. "They're going to kill me, please.....she....she was bad....she......."
" No one is going to kill you and we will make sure she forgets. We are fixing the collar so it will all be fixed before they find out. Nothing to worry about but we need her back." Charlie had never seen Alastor scared.
Slowly he looked at Charlie then everyone else. " Is....is that what you want?"
Charlie looked back at him worried so he walked into the cage. " Alastor if we don't get her back heaven will win and we don't want that."
" If they find out what you did Alastor they will take you back and no plan or argument will get you out of there." Vaggie had a terrible feeling on what was going on and it made her sick to think.
" I can't go back there, please! They were so angry and the chains..........the...." He just stared at the floor as he painfully remembered what happend when he was locked up in heaven. " I find her and I don't have to go back?"
Lucifer looked at everyone then Alastor. " Not today you won't." Alastor looked at him for a moment while Vaggie turned the cage off. To all of their surprise he snapped and suddenly someone was screaming when they looked there Alex was culed in the corner in tears shaking so he walked over but she started screaming and shaking more. " Alex we...."
" Here!" She tossed the remote to Lucifer as she looked at Alastor. " I.....I'm sorry....please....please don't send me back."
Amara quickly had an idea as she walked over. " He won't send you back if you forget any of that happend and you go back to heaven and say nothing." She just nodded as she held herself as she cried. " W...what happend in there?"
She quickly looked at Amara. " Everything......everything we did.....I did to him......but I....I lived it on repeat....."
" What did you guys do to him?" Lucifer couldn't kill her but he didn't feel bad.
" He killed our sisters.......so...so we treated him like a bad dog.....we.....we laughed at his pain....we....we called him the monster but.....but I was...I'm....I'm sorry." She looked at Alastor who held himself. " Sera was wrong."
" What do you mean Sera was wrong?" Amara looked at Alex as she wiped her tears. " Last thing and you can get some rest."
" She.....she told us he was our responsibility but...but she reminded us what he did and she....she said the monster needed to be punished. But it was her who told us he healed fast so whatever we did.....healed and we could do it again."
" Wait so Sera....." Lucifer stopped when Charlie interrupted him.
The more Alex said the tighter Alastor held himself and even started to use his nails. " Dad I don't think Alastor needs to hear anymore." She turned to Alastor. " Are you hungry or want to go back and wash off?"
" D.....do you want me to get the others?"
" Others?" Vaggie walked back in as Alastor spoke.
He nodded as he looked at everyone. " Everyone from heaven that was killed I...I can bring them back."
Notes:
What's going on with Alastor? Will Alex keep her mouth shut about what happend? How will Amara and Charlie go about getting Lucifer help? Did hearing Lucifer's confession about his addiction change anything between him and Alastor? Can Alastor really bring everyone back?
Also look at the title again if you looked already.....it means something.
More to come but another time so bye.
Chapter 23: Memory Gaps
Summary:
Amara and Charlie voice their concerns about Alastor to Lucifer, but he believes Alastor just needs time to adjust, but Amara and Charlie think differently. So Amara gets Alastor's mom to help, only to find Alastor hugging his mother despite everything. But everyone noticed how shaky and afraid Alastor suddenly is, and so does Alastor's mom. But as they get Alastor in the kitchen for a meal and have him help out, it triggers a violent memory, which slowly everyone notices, but he tries to use his powers even after Angel puts the collar back on, quickly knocking him out. When Alastor woke up, he was confused about what was going on, so Lucifer calmed him down and they went back to sleep, and even found them getting close again.
Notes:
A bit of a hint now, the is some radioapple fluff near the end which you will love......so enjoy.
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Charlie was going to ask Alastor more about him being able to bring everyone back that he killed in heaven but her dad stopped her as he said Alastor needed a break which he did. He was shaking and scared of everything which wasn't like Alastor at all which she didn't understand. One moment he was trying to kill everyone then the next he's scared. They went back to the palace so Alastor could relax he didn't say anything or do anything even though they offered. Her and Amara pulled their dad outside as Angel watched Alastor. " Dad...I think the council had a point about getting Alastor...."
" Charlie, he's just adjusting, nothing's wrong." Lucifer smiled as he looked at Amara and then Charlie.
" Dad he broke your arm and hurt you then tried to kill me. Now he's sitting there scared out of his mind. Something is wrong Dad and I get you want your happy story ending with him but this can get dangerous" Amara went to grab her Dad's hand but he pulled away.
He knew something was wrong but maybe it would work itself out. " Girl's I love that you care so much but he's fine. This is Alastor were talking about and Charlie you know if anyone would be fine after all of this it would be him."
" Dad, Mom told us how she broke him and I want to be wrong but this isn't just us who think this. Maybe after Vox and Husk get back with the collar we can take him to see Bel? If we don't and he......." This wasn't easy for anyone but if anyone was getting to their dad it would be them.
" Charlie, Amara, he is just adjusting, and being chained up didn't help but we just have to give him time." Lucifer walked to the door. " Right now we need to smooth everything out then we will be back on track."
They didn't get a chance to say anything else as their dad walked out of the room. " Amara I love Alastor like a father you know this....but I'm scared this will happen again but we won't be able to stop him."
Amara walked up to Charlie as she put a hand on her shoulder. " There is only one other person who gets the say to do this but I need some time."
Charlie knew who Amara was talking about. " I know Dad gave Alastor her memories but are you sure it won't just make it worse?"
" I don't but it's that or we wait for this to happen again." Charlie nodded so she headed out.
Lucifer sat down by Alastor who just sat there looking at his hands again just like the day before. " Love, are you hungry? Or want to go to the garden? I know you like the fresh air even though it's not that fresh but it is for you and that's what counts. You can lay down if you want and I can stay or you can......."
" Luci, how about we just leave him like this? Sure he's smiling but you know what that just proves it's Al." Angel wasn't sure what to really do but he had seen a few people like this but it was only after something traumatic which for Alastor had to be the last 20 years and to him was thousands of years.
" I think if he weren't smiling then we would be in some deep shit." Vaggie sat back as she scrolled through her phone as Charlie sat down beside her. Angel eventually did the same but Lucifer was fake reading until Vox and Husk appeared. " Did you guys fix it?"
" You know who I am? But yeah just put it on him." Vox looked at the collar then Alastor who didn't even look at them. " Um....Alastor?" Nothing as he looked at everyone else. " Alright.....who's going to do it?"
" Since you fixed it maybe you should so we don't fuck up." Whoever did it meant touching Alastor who always had a thing about touching.
" How do you fuck up putting this on?" Vox looked at Lucifer. " Since he is staying with you, you should do it Lucifer."
If anyone was to do it and not upset Alastor it would be him so he held his hand out as Vox handed it to him and he turned to Alastor. " Alastor I need to put this back on you but it will be quick?"
" It's not a fucking question." Husk crossed his arms as he sat down next to Angel.
Lucifer quickly looked at Husk. " Shut the hell up." Then he turned to Alastor as he slowly reached for Alastor's hand but as he was about to touch it Alastor quickly moved in a panic. " I just need to put this back on Alastor....."
" No...no don't....don't touch me please." He quickly stood up as he noticed all the people in the room backing back away but as he looked for a way out someone stood in the way. " I want to leave.....can....can I leave?"
" Sure." Vox smiled as he walked up to Alastor as he smiled. " Once he puts that on your neck we can go wherever the hell you want to go. Maybe we can have some fun like the good old days."
He backed into the wall as everyone seemed to be walking closer making him hold himself tighter as his legs gave out making him slide down to the floor. " Please don't.....I...I will be good and do what you want just please...."
Lucifer knelt down as he looked Alastor in the eyes. " You haven't done anything wrong if I could choose I wouldn't put it on but it's part of the deal with heaven for letting you out." He moved slightly closer and Alastor pushed himself into the corner as he held himself. " We have to put it on Alastor please don't make this harder."
" All of you back away from him right now."
Lucifer looked behind him to see Alastor's mom standing there with Amara. " We have to put it on it was part of....."
" I don't care if they ask I took it off now move." She moved all of them away as she looked at Alastor holding himself in the corner. " Alley I know you're confused but look me in the eyes and see when I say I would never hurt you. You are my son and I love all of you." He slowly looked at her and slowly relaxed. " There you go now let's get you off the floor alright?" He nodded as she slowly walked closer with her hands out but to her surprise, he quickly hugged her tightly and she couldn't stop herself from hugging him back. " It's alright Mama's here."
" Why don't we give them a moment." Amara had everyone head to the kitchen even her dad who refused at first but Vaggie and Charlie pulled him away.
Once they sat down on the couch she held his hands which felt so thin. " How are you dear?"
" I....I don't know what's going on and....and I can't do anything right. I don't want to keep getting chained up or locked up.....I....I want all of it to stop. I want all of them to stop and......and I want to be normal." He laid his head in his mom's lap as she ran her hands gently through his hair. " It hurts too much."
" Dear all of them in there just want to help you and Lucifer won't let them take you again. If they try I will be right there to bring you home with me and I will never let you go. Alley if all of this hurts you just have to tell us and we will help you. None of us will ever hurt you but we will protect you. " It was the first time since Alastor was back she touched him and hugged him and she didn't even care if she was crying cause they were happy tears.
He heard a sniffle and turned to look at his mother to see she was crying and quickly sat up and moved away. " I'm sorry I shouldn't have...."
" No....it's just the first time since you came back that I touched you and....and I happy Alley. For the last 20 years, I thought I lost my son and it was crushing but I have you back even if you're not the same you will always be my son." She moved closer to Alastor as she gently hugged him but she noticed how bony and thin he felt. " I love you but when was the last time you ate dear?"
When she let go and looked at him worried he quickly held himself. " I.....I haven't."
" What?!" She quickly stood up and she kissed Alastor's cheek. " You're okay mama is going yell at Lucifer just stay here and I will make you something." She walked into the kitchen and looked at Lucifer. " I understand he hasn't been with you long but why hasn't he eaten anything?"
" Grammie me and him got lunch together and we ate. I don't know why he said he hasn't." Amara looked down at Alex sitting there sharpening her blades. " Did you guys not feed him in Heaven?"
" Well......we did a few times on Emily's orders but.....but normally lost all of it from the beatings or.........we also can't feed him what he normally eats."
" I will deal with you later but I am cooking, Amara and Charlie with me, and Lucifer you will sit there 'cause you never told me he wasn't eating." She walked into the living area where Alastor sat. " Let me make you something you will love but you can join us in here if you want. I wouldn't mind having you to help."
" I didn't mean to get anyone in trouble and you don't have to. The last thing I remember eating was when I was alive. I am not counting Lucifer's memories." In the void, there wasn't food and you didn't need it so maybe the reason he was never hungry was due to him being used to never eating.
" Never thought I would hate anything like I hate that place but let me give you a meal to remember." She grabbed his hands and walked him into the kitchen but he stopped as he looked at everyone. " It's alright dear you can help me like you did when you were little."
" A kitchen is a dangerous place for me to be and what if someone gets upset or I....."
" Love none of us will hurt you and your mom doesn't let me help anymore cause I always cut myself so I will be watching." Lucifer didn't mind as much to watch when Amara started to learn and he could sit and watch her and it always reminded him of Alastor in the kitchen.
Vox happily sat next to Lucifer as he looked at Alastor. " Oh man, I have missed your cooking Al. Fuck after a long ass day that shit always hit the spot. I always tried to learn but you said I would never understand which pissed me off so I learned how to cook just to piss you off. We liked pissing each other off it was our little thing."
His mom walked him through each step which helped but everything he did he feared was wrong and prepared to be yelled at or hit but nothing. Lucifer was telling him stories of their time together and Vox did as well to the point he was pretty sure the two were competing which everyone else laughed about. But he couldn't shake that once he opened up he would be burned or hurt just like before. So he kept quiet unless he needed to speak, speaking was always pointless or begging yet he never stopped. His voice did nothing but bring more pain or disappointment when no one answered his cries.
" Dear, can you cut up the garnish please?" As nice as it was to have Alastor in the kitchen with her, Amara, and Charlie. He seemed elsewhere and quiet, always nodding or shaking his head rather than speaking then he didn't laugh at jokes he would do a fake laugh but quickly stop and turn away after. " Alastor?"
He was focused on the blue flame from the stove so he didn't hear anything but when someone touched his shoulder he jumped even letting out a small bleat which he quickly held his mouth. " I'm sorry."
" I didn't mean to scare you Papa I saw you elsewhere." Amara noticed his hands even shaking but he hid them behind his back which worried her. " Grammie asked if you would finish the chopping."
Alastor shook his head as he walked over to the cutting board he just looked at it confused until he saw how the others were cutting so he started. He focused on the conversations rather than what he was doing, the knife with each cut reminded him of how a knife sliced his skin, stabbed him, and twisted his flesh. Just remembering the feeling, the pain made him sick to the point he wasn't even paying attention to what he was doing.
Husk was listening to Lucifer as he did he looked behind him at Alastor but as he sat up to look he saw Alastor's hands shaking. " Um, Lucifer...." He pointed as he quickly stood up and Lucifer turned around.
Alastor was cutting but his hands were shaking and the terror in his eyes scared him. " Alastor?" He didn't even seem to hear him almost as if he was somewhere else. Everyone quickly quieted down as they saw Alastor shaking worse to the point he was close to cutting himself. So he quickly leaned over as he carefully touched Alastor's shoulder but when he did Alastor jumped as the lights all went out but as Vox turned them back on they found Alastor on the floor holding his head. " Alastor what's wrong?" He was panicking.
Charlie was rushing over when she noticed the black liquid on the knife and counter. " I think he cut himself."
They all tried to find where but Alastor's mom gently grabbed Alastor's hand from his head to see his palm sliced but as she tried to cover it Alastor pulled his hand back to his head. " Alley you're hurt let me help."
" Make it stop!" He held his ears tighter as the memory became worse. " STOP!"
"We're not doing anything?" All of this was new for Alastor but seeing him so terrified started to terrify him.
They weren't but moments before Alastor was just cutting. " It's a memory. The knife I guess triggered it." Angel quickly grabbed the collar and put it on and once it closed Alastor quickly looked at him. " Sorry, it was that or pain and were not hurtin' you."
" I don't want it please.....please take it off." He looked at Lucifer than his mother but as he tried to take it off himself Lucifer grabbed his hands. " No.....no I can't!"
" We are all right here love no one will hurt you." Alastor tried to pull his hands free but he held them down even as Alastor asked.
" I might have fixed it but they had that programmed to kill you with just a button so I left that part broken." Vox then noticed Alastor's once but the hand was healed. " Lucifer did you heal his hand?"
Lucifer shook his head as he looked to see just a cut in the gloves. " Alastor can you heal yourself?"
" He heals fast now, we think it's because of him being the king of the void in all."
" What?!" Everyone quickly looked at Alex then Alastor who was still trying to get his hands free.
" Well it needs a ruler and Alastor was her right hand and he absorbed the dark energy so he would be next in line. Which explains the healing and him being able to get through that collar. It's why if they want the void gone it means killing their king, although he still does have to obtain the rest which I have no idea."
" Let go!" Alastor kept pulling to get his hands free not listening to what Alex was saying.
Alastor's mom gently held Alastor's arms. " Alley just take a breath please we....." Before she could finish Lucifer was flown through the wall as Alastor screamed from the collar shocking him but as she held him Amara ran to Lucifer who ran back in just as Alastor passed out in her lap. " I will go lay him down in bed." She hated how light Alastor was for someone so tall but she carried him up to Lucifer's room and sat by his side humming as she cleaned his hair from the blood.
After a few hours, Lucifer switched with her cause as much as she wanted to be there the whole time she knew he would want her to take care of herself. When she got back Lucifer was asleep in Alastor's arms so she covered the two up and headed to sleep in a guest room.
Lucifer planned on staying awake until Alastor woke up but after the day they had and being so full he passed out accidentally. He would have stayed asleep until morning but when his pillow suddenly sat up making him wake up. " Mmmm....I'm up..."
" What the hell happened and why is it night?" He lookd around the room then Lucifer who was asleep sitting up so he pushed him off the bed. " Lucifer."
" Sorry......what do you mean? You were there as you tried to kill me and Amara then........nothing?" As he sat back down and blinked a few times then he saw Alastor staring at him still confused. " What's the last you remember?"
" The lady was speaking about me and I was pissed then I woke up here. Lucifer what's going on?" He moved to stand up only to see he was still in his regular clothes.
Maybe it was the shock but this kept happening and as much as he wanted to believe it would get better with time he hated seeing Alastor so confused when he always knew everything. " Do you not remember taking the collar off or the kitchen?" He shook his head so he slid out of bed as he walked up to Alastor. " Do....do you remember hurting me or Amara?"
" I...I wouldn't do that, I let heaven do all of that so you two wouldn't get hurt." As he looked into Lucifer's eyes he saw he was telling him the truth. " You have to be messed up with someone else cause I would remember doing something like that."
Alastor didn't know and as much as he wanted him to see he knew the time wasn't now. " Alright. Can we go back to sleep? Or if you're not tired you can just sit with me?"
There was more but Lucifer didn't seem to want to say it which he wanted to push but as he looked out the window he saw it was night. How could he sleep when his mind was everywhere trying to figure out why he didn't remember anything after hearing the exorcist talk about him. But as he looked down at Lucifer he looked afraid not of him but of not having him. " Let me change first."
As Alastor walked away he slid back into bed as he hugged himself hoping that everything would be fine by morning. It was a few minutes and Alastor walked back and got into bed as he slowly held Alastor as he laid his head on his chest. " Goodnight, Alastor."
" Goodnight, Lucifer." Alastor just laid there as Lucifer slept and he found himself even watching Lucifer sleep he was surprised to see Lucifer smiling as he slept. Eventually, he found himself getting tired so he laid lower as Lucifer rolled to his other side but he pulled him over. Why he stayed he wasn't sure but he strangely enjoyed holding Lucifer.
He woke up to light hitting his face which he blocked as he opened his eyes only to see he was laying in Alastor's arms as he slept. He couldn't help but enjoy feeling Alastor holding him but slowly he moved and carefully ran his hands through Alastor's hair slowly waking him up. " I thought you weren't tired? Hehe moring." He gently kissed Alastor's cheek as he contuined to run his hands through Alastor's hair.
It was nice and he didn't mind being woken up. " I wasn't but you made it look enjoyable."
" It was because I was with you. And if I had it my way I would always sleep like this." He moved his hand to rub Alastor's cheek. " Who wouldn't want to fall asleep in the arms of someone they love?"
He found himself liking the idea of sleeping like this or sleeping with Lucifer. Hell he found himself even understanding what Lucifer said about falling asleep in the arms of someone you love. Was that what he was feeling? Love? Slowly he sat up as Lucifer gave him a saddend look from him being out of his arms. But as Lucifer sat up he found his hand drawn to Lucifer's hair which was a mess. " How did you know you loved me?"
" It was a feeling I hadn't had in years and I always had this strange feeling when I was around you which took me time to understand that feeling was love. We might not share a lot of similar interests but the ones we do are rare to find. You joke with me and you may have said the words a few times but it meant everything to me. Even before you didn't understand what you were feeling which I helped you understand and I never pushed you even if I didn't tell you about me being able to have kids but I didn't cause I was told I wouldn't anymore after Charlie. Also, I love who you are how you never let anyone tell you what to do, and how you took no one's shit...hehe....I like how I only get to see the real you even if you smile." He needed to get Alastor's hand out of his hair but it felt amazing and as he spoke he looked into Alastor's eyes. Without even thinking he pulled Alastor to him and kissed him but quickly stopped. " Fuck Alastor I'm....." He felt terrible but as he tried to apologize Alastor pulled him over and kissed him to his surprise and quickly kissed him back as he wrapped his arms around Alastor's neck to keep him close. While Alastor's hand rested on his leg which drove him crazy to the point he pulled Alastor down as he laid down and wrapped his leg on Alastor's waist.
When Lucifer kissed him he felt that feeling he couldn't understand but he needed to figure it out so he kissed Lucifer back and the feeling quickly became clear as Lucifer pulled him down to the bed. But he couldn't stop himself not even when he felt Lucifer's leg on him. He quickly stopped and sat up as he heard someone grabbing the door handle.
He was confused about what happend or if he had done something wrong but as he sat up he saw the door open and Charlie and Angel walked in. " Oh, morning."
" Sorry we didn't mean to wake you both up but we were sent to let you know breakfast is ready." Charlie waved.
" We will be right down we just....have to change." He looked up a Alastor and his hair was a mess and he just knew he was but when he looked at Angel he smiled at him directly which he didn't think he knew but it was him looking down and when he did he saw it and quickly pulled the blanket to cover it. " Haha it's cold today isn't it?"
" It's actually pretty hot outside alot of people are staying inside. But we will leave you both and I am glad your better Alastor." Charlie walked out.
Angel stood at the door for a moment as he smiled. " He's doing much better isn't he Luci?"
" Out!" Angel was out and he quickly fell down to the pillow face first as he tried to think of anything but what was just happening.
Alastor looked down at Lucifer and he was face first in a pillow. " What did he mean by that?"
Even Alastor's voice made it worse so he quickly rolled off the bed with the blanket around him. " I.....I need to go to the bathroom haha...." He ran in and locked the door as he tried to think of what to do then he had an idea and quickly turned the shower on but at the coldest temperature.
Lucifer was acting weird but when wasn't he so he got changed and even made the bed just as Lucifer walked out of the bathroom. " Lucifer I do apologize for....all of that I was just trying to understand. But I overstepped and....."
" Wait Alastor it was alright really and honestly, I loved it. Hehe, I wouldn't mind doing it again if you needed more to help you understand what you are feeling." Lucifer walked over to Alastor as he grabbed his hand. " Perhaps next time we lock the door or make sure no one is here."
" I thought it was just Amara here but I understand." The last time he checked it was only Amara here perhaps more came while they were asleep. Why he didn't hear was another question.
They were walking down when he heard everyone in the kitchen. " I guess everyone stayed over after last night."
There it was again, something he had no memory of yet he was there but as he was about to ask Lucifer but then he heard her voice.
" Oh, just in time everyone is already eating and..........Alley, is everything alright?" As she was about to ask about their night she saw Alastor backing away.
Even with her memories, he saw his own, he saw the awful woman she was but everyone including Lucifer liked her so he couldn't kill her and he had the collar on which stopped him. " Don't call me that.....I.....I need to go."
Lucifer quickly turned around as he looked at Alastor. " You don't have to go Alastor just talk to us."
He looked at Lucifer. " If I don't go I will kill her Lucifer. The only reason I'm not is because of you."
Notes:
What is going on with Alastor? Will the kiss help Alastor voice how he feels to Lucifer? Will they be able to pull off hiding what happend with Alastor away from heaven, or will they know? What does Alastor mean he can bring everyone back? Is Alastor the new king of the Void? Will Amara see her friend Alice again? Will Vox be able to enjoy an Alastor rut again?
MORE.....COMING SOON.......so bye......for now....hehehheh
Chapter 24: The Trail Begins
Summary:
More confusion on Alastor's sudden changes as they explain that they have to go to heaven for Sera's trial. Alastor asks Lucifer some questions about their life together, and Lucifer finds himself kissing Alastor; only Alastor doesn't stop him. As they get to heaven and have a day just for them, Charlie gives him some challenging news. Lucifer asks Alastor a question about him ever slept with a woman, which quickly makes a painful turn into them talking about Diego. One mishap and exsorcists take them away only they force Lucifer to ope his eyes and see what is going on with Alastor.
Notes:
I got some good fluff which I was even giggling over, so I hope you do as well.....enjoy.
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Just yesterday Alastor was hugging her and laying in her lap as she ran her hands through his hair but now he looked at her just like before. He looked at her angry almost even a bit pissed which worried her but for him to want to kill her quickly had her in tears. Lucifer tried to reason with him and tell him that she wouldn't hurt him and that what he remembered of her wasn't real but it was to Alastor. Charlie and Amara even walked over to help but he wouldn't hear them and she slowly had to accept that her son saw her as a monster like his father. " Everyone please stop. We can't erase the memory and make it not hurt like I know it does. So I will head back home and Alastor I wish you luck at Sera's trial. She needs to pay for what she did to you and our family and I can't be prouder that you let justice do it. I know you all have to go up there in a little bit so if you want to talk I will be around if not don't worry." She hugged Amara and Charlie then waved at everyone before leaving.
Lucifer thought it would help but Alastor pulled away from him. " Alastor?"
" Why are we all going to heaven? And why do I need luck at it?" Why was it the first time hearing this? If he was involved then he should have known sooner than right in the moment.
" Alastor we have Sera's trial that starts today and they need your help to prove that she did what she said. You just have to tell them and we will do the same thing. We just say a few words then we're done and then we can have a little family trip, hehe." Charlie clapped at the idea but Alastor didn't seem excited at all.
How could he help prove what Sera did when she confessed it? " I don't see why I have to go when I never saw her. I just knew she was the reason the exorcist was down there."
" Love then you just say that but we can talk about it later when we get there. Let's have breakfast and then you can help me pack a bag." Lucifer walked over to Alastor as he wrapped his arms around his waist. " Come on grumpy, please. I won't eat without you and when I am hungry...."
" Alright." He didn't care to hear more as he pushed Lucifer off and followed them to the table to eat where Angel and Husk sat with Vaggie. He didn't say much and he cleaned up after as Charlie talked with Vaggie and Husk about the hotel Amara headed up to pack and Lucifer helped him clean up. " Lucifer what entails this family day Charlie spoke of?"
" Oh....well it can just be doing or going anywhere but as a family. Some play games or go on trips. Like I used to take them to the Envy for a beach trip which was always a lot of fun we will need to go on so I can see you in a bathing suit." Lucifer dried the last plate and put it away as he looked at Alastor. " You know we never had a first date it was one of the things you wanted to do before.....we did try but things got in the way then you....you just got too sick which is fine but we did have a day together in heaven which I told Amara was kinda like a date and I met your mother that day."
" I have your memories of what it was like but did it look the way it felt for me? I only remember dying once but it was by a gunshot to the head." As Lucifer started to walk away he quickly followed behind him as they headed upstairs.
Lucifer waited to answer the question until they were in his room. " You always told me you were fine and it didn't hurt but I can feel if someone was in pain and you were a lot. Vaggie was close to dying before you saved her and she said it was like her skin was burning and the only time it stopped was in that final hour. I hated that you never told me how much it hurt but I also see now you said it so it wouldn't hurt me, to everyone else you are this tuff guy who scares the living shit out of anyone and loves being in control but to me.....to me you're loving, your caring, and you're like my best friend."
He sat down as Lucifer started to pack. " Amara told me how I made her a stuffed frog and left her the radio demon name, Charlie got the hotel, and you....you got some lousy blanket?"
" It's beautiful." He snatched the blanket from Alastor's hands as he held it close. " This blanket got through a lot and you didn't just leave me that......when your mom found out about Amara she told me how she hounded you to put a ring on it and eventually you listened but nothing looked good enough for you so you have this custom made. But once you had it you found out you had just weeks and decided you didn't want to burden me so you never gave it to me but your mom did. The day of your funeral I.....I hadn't left your bed since and I couldn't get myself up so she gave it to me hoping it would help." He took the ring off and handed it to Alastor. " Then a letter which I only read the beginning of."
The ring was really something special and nothing he had seen before. " Did it help?"
He walked over and sat down next to Alastor. " No it made it hurt even more and I.....I pushed myself up but I was drunk. It was the only way but when they forced me to go they wanted me to talk. It was just the start of a lot more pain but it was that ring that made me want to get help, I wanted to be someone you deserved so I gave it to Charlie as I got clean. Nights when I missed you and the blanket didn't help then I had that and Amara."
He handed the ring back to Lucifer as he looked at him. " Do you think I knew it wouldn't kill me completely?"
Just as he was about to answer the door opened and Amara walked in looking at the bag and him. " Oh, I..."
" Dad we leave in 10 and Charlie and me are ready." Amara looked at the two and then quickly knew what to do. " Until you're done no Alastor."
" WHAT?!" Lucifer quickly stood up in shock as Alastor started to laugh. " You shush.....Amara, I will...."
" Nope." She walked over as she held her hand out to her father. " We will be downstairs having father-daughter time so if your down in 10 when the portal opens I guess your not joining and....."
" I'm packing." Lucifer saw them about to leave and quickly ran over to hug them. " I love you both so much......Amara, I question you but I still love you."
Amara pushed her dad off as her father laughed. " Come on."
Once Amara walked down with her father, Charlie waited at the end of the stairs. " Yeah he barely started so I took him."
Charlie laughed as Alastor sat down then it hit her. " Wait doesn't he need to pack?"
" Oh yeah I have to do that since I am not allowed to use my powers." He hadn't though about that.
Amara just smiled as she walked out of the room and back in as she put a bag next to hers and Charlie's. " Niffty heard and did this before Grammie could. She was excited that after we get back she could see Alastor."
" Who is Niffty?" As he looked at the two they both quickly gasped and rushed over which he didn't expect much less for both of them to tell him everything about her. Luckily as the two kept going on he looked over to see Lucifer setting a few bags down. " Lucifer isn't it just a few days?"
" Yeah but I can't leave my ducks they need me." Lucifer put his hands on his waist as he felt proud for finishing until he looked at everyone. " What?"
" One bag Dad." Charlie crossed her arms.
Before he had a chance to speak Amara spoke. " No rubber ducks either Dad. Just one bag."
" One bag!! I need stuff and....." Lucifer was going to reason with them but the portal opened. " Fuck......fine." He sorted through a few then snapped the others away as he walked through with everyone else. Once they stepped through Emily was there quickly hugging Charlie but she had exorcists behind her armoured up. " Um, what are they doing?"
" Oh I asked for just one so Alex could have a break but the council decided to keep the collar on throughout the trial." Emily rubbed her hands as she looked at Alastor. " I did get them to allow you to stay with all of them until the trial is over and if you want to go out they have to join you unfortuntly but you understand right?"
" Yes since the last I was here, I was moments away from destroying all of this." He just looked at her blankly.
" You weren't moments you did, fucking freak."
Emily quickly looked at the exorcist who spoke. " You can go now. I'm sorry lets get you all settled and Charlie your first to go up." Emily took them to the hotel. " I got two rooms but each has 2 beds. I figured Amara and Charlie then you two in another."
" Hehehe, I get some sister time and sleepovers how can I be upset. Emily you should join us one night if you want." Charlie put her bag in the room then walked out.
" I would love to." Emily looked at everyone. " You three have fun and Alastor there is a lot of angels who see you as a hero just like me."
" I am not anything close to a hero." He walked into the other room.
" We should get going." Emily left with Charlie.
Amara saw the worried look on her dad's face as he looked at the room. " Dad it's going to be alright and imagine it's hard being here. I am going to see Grammie so have some time with him."
Lucifer hugged Amara and then walked into the room to find Alastor sitting in the chair reading. " You know if you want to just go back we can until they need us. This just made it easier."
He would have said yes but all 3 of them seemed excited about spending this time all together. " It's alright I just have this feeling I can't seem to shake that's telling me everything is about to be ruinned."
" You know if I focused on that alone I would never do anything." He walked over to Alastor and sat on his lap. " I have been since the beginng of time and I am the most hated man in exsistence so I know that feeling well."
" You're not the most hated man in existence." Alastor looked at the ring on Lucifer's finger. " If you need proof, you have that showing you managed to get someone out of your league."
" Geez thanks." Lucifer laid his head on Alastor's shoulder as they laughed. " Seriously, though Alastor I always focus on something else to help that feeling go away."
He looked Lucifer in the eyes as he tried to think then an idea hit and he pulled Lucifer into a kiss. Lucifer quickly ran his hands through his hair while deepening the kiss as he slowly ran his hands down Lucifer's back but when he was holding Lucifer's wasit he pulled off. " Like that?"
" Hm?.......oh....." He was blushing but it wasn't the only thing going on with him and when he looked down he saw it. " Haha, I am glad you found something now I need to wash up then we can go." He ran for his life to the bathroom.
Lucifer had made some strange and questionable choices so he didn't judge so he just sat there reading until Lucifer came back. " Better?"
As much as he should tell Alastor he just nodded and spent the day with Alastor. They went to shops and even stopped at the park like they had the last time they were together in heaven to watch the ducks. Alastor didn't even mind which was sweet but not as sweet as him getting him bread to feed them. He even forced Alastor to join and to his surprise, all of the ducks loved him even a little duckling walked into Alastor's lap which almost had him in tears. But as the bread ran out the ducks left so they left to meet up with Charlie and Amara for dinner which was everything he could have thought. Charlie and Amara couldn't stop smiling and laughing as for Alastor he seemed happy even laughing with them. But on the way back Charlie asked Amara and Alastor to head back before them which he thought was odd as she walked him over to a bench. " Charlie, what's going on?"
" Emily thought this would be easy and that all we needed was to tell the truth but it was you and Amara who heard her confess. The issue is there's no recording so Emily talked to the courts and they are want to see the memory." Charlie looked down at her hands as she nervously looked away from her dad.
" Oh that's fine and then they can see her telling me he was dead." Lucifer didn't see the need for secrecy or worry. But when he looked over at Charlie she was nervous. " Charlie?"
" They want Alastor's memories of the exorcists being in the void. Emily is worried he won't let it be broadcasted much less want anyone to see since they have to go through his memories." When Emily told her she knew from the start Alastor wouldn't willingly do that especially since he didn't talk about anything that happend.
Lucifer looked around and then at Charlie. " He won't do that Charlie not even I can convince him."
" I know and I told Emily but if Sera asks for it they have to and there is nothing we can do since he is still a pending case. We think if he does and they see what he went through they won't just take the collar off they will drop all of it. Not to mention Sera would be found guilty. They have you and him going last and Amara tomorrow but Emily said for the time just have fun and relax." Charlie stood up as her dad did. " I doubt Sera would ask or anyone in the council so....."
" Charlie only talks about what happend when he's panicking and he won't say anything to a bunch of angels. We should get back before he thinks something is wrong." As they walked back he worried over the chance Sera would win and go after Alastor like she said if not worse.
When they walked into the hotel she hugged her dad. "Tomorrow will be fun Dad and when Amara finishes I thought we could all go do some family games like putt putt or the arcade."
" Alright, goodnight Charlie." He teleported himself to the room only when he appeared there was no Alastor but he heard the shower so he snapped himself ready for bed he grabbed himself a book and sat there reading until Alastor walked out but when he did he finished the last button on his shirt. " So what do you wanna do since it's just you and me?" He bit his bottom lip as he put the book aside and looked Alastor up and down.
" What are you doing?" He just stood there confused.
Lucifer sat up as he looked at Alastor. " Um......flirting? Being nice? I don't really know I just read someone do something like that.....sorry."
" Oh." He walked over to the bed and sat down. " I am good at reading people but never this flirting side, not even when I was alive. You would think I would learn it or at least recognize it."
As Alastor got into the bed he couldn't help but ask. " You don't have to answer me but......but a couple months after...you know....some old friend of yours when we asked if you had ever been with a woman said you had. Is that true?"
" Who is this friend?" How could anyone know anything about that night?
He didn't say no and he looked serious. " Mimzy."
The name sounded familiar so he had to think back to when he was alive. " Mimzy? Short and very talkative and always gets herself in trouble?" Lucifer just nodded his head. " She's in hell? Haha, I should have known she was always getting herself into trouble. Then her taste in men where just awful cause most were criminals or control freaks. I should find her when we get back and catch up."
" You can but you never answered the question." He sure as hell wasn't letting Alastor go alone to see Mimzy. She was always bringing her trouble to him to handle and if she knew he was stronger now she would keep bringing Alastor her trouble to him.
He turned to Lucifer and looked at him for a moment. " It's a yes and a no......to Mimzy she said it was but it didn't go very far."
" She said your dad knew who she was." Geez he was pushing and he hated it but these questions have been stuck in his head for years. " Was it the lady from the cellar?"
" What do you know about the cellar Lucifer? I never told her what happend and the time she knew was some lady I helped home who thought it was something I wanted for helping her home but I turned her down. I couldn't get much of a word in with her gross tongue down my mouth so I lost my shirt but I managed to pull her off. When I turned her down and got her in bed I left but she told Mimzy what happend and my father knew her from when she was younger since she used to work at a bar he liked going to." Mimzy was always one to spread news that didn't need to be said. " Now how do you know about the cellar Lucifer? I never told anyone."
Fuck, he couldn't say he got it from Diego but he couldn't lie either. " I'm sorry Alastor I even brought it up. I....I only heard about it from the only other person who was there."
The only person who was there was his father, that hooker, and......." Where is he Lucifer?"
Alastor was serious and he felt like shit for even asking. " Alastor he killed himself years ago it was a week or so after he heard you died."
He quickly stood up as he walked back and forth. " How did he do it?"
" W...what?" Normally when someone hears someone killed themself they don't ask how or for much detail.
" How the hell did he kill himself, Lucifer."
Lucifer pulled his legs to his chest as he looked at Alastor who was angry. " I....I don't know I asked but......"
" You do know Lucifer now how did he die."
No one ever told him but after going through Diego's apartment and wallet he needed to know so he went back to the rehab and asked. " He...he hung himself." It hurt to even think of when Diego was always so kind to him, sure he did some bad things but it wasn't his fault but it was guilt that led him to do what he did. But Alastor just laughed which hurt. " It's not funny Alastor."
" Oh but it is cause to hang yourself it's quite painful and while I wish he suffered more but least he suffered. I wonder where sinners go when they die, do they go back or perhaps he's in the void.......when this thing comes off I will have to find out." As he stopped laughing he saw Lucifer on the verge of tears so he sat back down beside Lucifer who held his legs to his chest. " What's wrong Lucifer?"
" N....nothing." Alastor would be pissed if he knew what Diego was to him so he pushed past everything and looked at Alastor. " It's late we should get some sleep."
As Lucifer laid facing away he knew something was wrong. " He told you more didn't he or........you knew him didn't you Lucifer."
Lucifer held Alastor's blanket close as he didn't look at Alastor. " I don't want to talk about it Alastor I'm tired."
" Rehab wasn't it? He was your friend, wasn't he? You told me about him but never said who and you mentioned his name to me before. I didn't think heaven let sinners into heaven for such a thing." Lucifer didn't say anything so he ran his hand through Lucifer's hair before making him lay on his back as he looked at him. " Did your little friend tell you everything Lucifer?"
" He was the only one nice to me and when times were hard he was there, he didn't know I knew you until your mom came out to Amara crying. Yes, he told me what happend, he told all of us." Lucifer tried to push Alastor off but he pushed him back down.
" Who is all of us?"
Damn it he was crying. " Me....and your mom.....Alastor that night you...." Once he said night Alastor let go. " Why do you think he did it Alastor?! He tried to explain but you wouldn't answer him, when he heard you died it crushed him all over again from when you were both alive. Alastor he loved....."
" Enough Lucifer." He moved to sit on the side of the bed facing away from Lucifer but he turned when Lucifer kept talking.
" Someone at that bar drugged you both and....." They were already at this point so he went ahead with the rest.
" Enough!" He stood up and looked at Lucifer. " I'm not talking about this anymore."
Lucifer stood up on the bed as he looked Alastor in the eyes. " Alastor it wasn't rape and....." Before he said another word something hit him in the face when he started to get up he heard Alastor screaming when he quickly rushed over the collar was going off but it didn't stop. He was going to break it off when exorcists walked in with chains. " No, it was an accident he didn't...."
" Your nose is bleeding and we're not taking any chances."
He wiped his nose but as he saw the remote in one of their hands he quickly knocked it out of their hands and broke it making Alastor stop screaming. But as he was about to stop the others he felt something sharp go into his arm and quickly his body went numb making him fall over to the floor his eyes went heavy but he saw Alastor pass out as he was muzzled and chained. " S..stop...." Then all he saw was darkness.
Maybe it was just a dream or something his mind did as he was asleep but when he woke up he didn't see anything but the dark which started to freak him out but as he tried to touch his face he couldn't. Something was burning his skin but he could hear the chains hitting themselves and something was wrapped around his mouth stopping him from speaking. He just kept pulling despite the pain but for what felt like hours to the point the pain was getting to him. Only then did the light suddenly blind him but as he adjusted he saw he was chained to a chair in a cell with exorcists. " Let me the hell out!"
" You were in the way and assaulted one of us so no."
" What?! I knocked a fucking remote that was shocking Alastor from her hands cause it was hurting him! Where...." He looked beside him to see Alastor but he was bloodied and beaten. " What the hell did you do?!"
" Watch your tone Lucifer he attempted to kill you and he was resisting."
" No, he wasn't! He was passed out!" He saw an exorcist walk into Alastor's cell and she was saying something it was soundproof but in seconds she was rolling Alastor's sleeve up. " Stop it!"
" Just watch."
Alastor's arms were chained to the arms of the metal chair but when Alastor's sleeve was rolled up he didn't expect to see his arm so scared up to the point he didn't have much fur. He lost it when he saw the knife suddenly pulled out. " STOP IT!" No one listened and in a blink, it was stabbed into Alastor's arm and even twisted making him continue to scream out. " Stop!"
" You should be thanking us not hurting us 'cause we saved your life from that thing." She turned around. " Turn the sound on."
He expected to hear Alastor yelling but he was just laughing the whole time.
" Is that it? I killed hundreds if not thousands of your people and you think this would hurt? Fucking sad honestly I torture them worse than this. Hahaha, they can't even stop screaming not even the archangels."
" Fine I know what makes you scream.......get me the car battery."
Lucifer saw the battery and cables and pulled harder. " Stop!" He yelled but they started clipping the cables to the chains even two on his head. " What do you want?!"
" We want him to fucking pay for what he did and more."
" He didn't do it by choice! Roo forced him!" Lucifer didn't even care that his wrists were bleeding he needed to stop them.
" It was still him and monsters like him and his kind need to be eliminated."
Amara was quick to pop into his head and with his anger he pulled until the chains snapped and quickly teleported to Alastor but just as he did the box was turned on making Alastor scream out as he quickly knocked the exsorcist out and turned the battery off. " I'm sorry Alastor this is all my fault I...." Before he could say anything else something hit him over the head knocking him to the floor but as he tried to get up his hands were cuffed behind his hands and brought to his feet.
" Lucifer want to see something interesting I have noticed?"
He didn't get a chance to say anything before he was gagged and pulled to the corner as he was forced to watch them shock Alastor again.
" Why don't you tell me the last thing you remember?"
" If......if I do you will stop?" Alastor looked up at the exorcist who nodded. " When did Lucifer get in here? Why are we here?"
They shocked Alastor again. " What's the last thing you remember?"
" Oh, moments ago you shoved your baby knife into my arm thinking it would hurt. Then I told you about everyone......"
They shocked him again but longer as Lucifer cried. " What's the last thing you remember."
" Where the hell am I?" As he looked around he saw Lucifer gagged and in tears. " What are you doing to him?!"
She grabbed Alastor's antler tightly as she looked him in the eyes. " Don't you remember us having fun or that so-called baby knife I put in your arm?"
" No! Let us go we didn't do anything!"
They shocked Alastor again as she walked over to Lucifer. " Seem's odd he can't remember that but another moment he's scared then next he's trying to intimidate me." When Alastor opened his eyes his eyes started to go black. " Why are you here Alastor?"
" Haha, 'cause I knocked the shit out of him for talking about him!"
They shocked Alastor again. " Why are you here?"
" I...I don't know but please stop. I...I will do whatever you want just please don't hurt us."
Another shock. " Why are you here?"
" I don't know maybe cause you all hate me for killing your sisters and friends or maybe because you have me collared like a pet."
" Hmm.....remember hitting Lucifer in the face?"
" No cause I wouldn't hit him." Alastor kept trying to pull himself free as Lucifer cried.
" But you did and you just said you did 'cause he was talking about him."
" I didn't say anything and I would remember hitting Lucifer." His sore antler was pulled forcing him to watch a screen of him hitting Lucifer. " That's fake I didn't!"
She walked over to Lucifer and took the gag out. " Lucifer is the video true?"
" He didn't mean it! I would have done the same if I was in his shoes and you would have to!" Lucifer looked at Alastor who just looked confused. " I forgive you Alastor and I heal see."
" Lucifer don't you think it's odd one moment he admits to hitting you then next is shocked to hear he even hit you and then begging? Almost like a different person don't you think?"
" Let us go." Alastor didn't even seem to understand what was going on and he couldn't bear to hear Alastor screaming again.
" No." She walked over to Alastor and grabbed his antler. " 42." Then she let go and shocked him. " What was the number I just said?"
" You didn't say a number I guess I did hit you too hard perhaps even...."
She shocked Alastor again as Lucifer screamed for them to stop. " What was the number I said?!"
" Please! Stop!"
" The number!"
Lucifer pulled as the exorcist started punching Alastor. " Stop!"
She stopped as she grabbed his antler. " What is the fucking number?!"
" I DON'T KNOW!!"
She let go and shocked him again. " What's the number?!"
He looked at Lucifer who was in tears then slowly the lady. " 42."
They all laughed as she grabbed Alastor's ear. " You heal so I wonder how much of you does." Just as she grabbed a whip the door flew open.
" What the hell is going on?!" Emily gasped loudly as she saw Alastor barely conscious and Lucifer chained in tears. " Let them go now!"
" They both assaulted one of us and....."
" Look at them! You are torturing them so let them go!" She ran over to Alastor and she quickly took the muzzle off as he was barely awake. " It's alright Alastor we're going to get you looked at with Lucifer alright?" She looked behind her to see Charlie standing there in tears. " Someone call the doctor were coming."
As Lucifer's hands were released he started to run over to Alastor but Charlie stopped him. " Emily, is he okay?!"
" Dad, are you alright? Your bleeding." Charlie had woken up ready for breakfast but when she called her dad he didn't answer so she knocked on the door but nothing. So she asked an employee to open the door but when she looked inside they were gone but what scared her was the blood from both of them.
Emily didn't answer as she helped Alastor stand up but as he did he passed out she caught him and carried him as Charlie followed behind her with Lucifer who was crying. When she rushed into the room she laid Alastor on the table. " He passed out."
" What did they do to him now?"
" They wouldn't stop shocking him with a battery and.....and they hit him.....he will be fine though right?" Lucifer ran to Alastor's side and grabbed his hand.
" Yeah, he should but I will make sure just give me some time. He heals fast so he should be but just to make sure. Lucifer are you alright?"
" I heal fast so I will be fine." He ran his hand through Alastor's hair. " You better be fine Alastor or I will kick your ass."
Emily walked them all to a seating area as she and Charlie held Lucifer as he cried. " I'm sorry they did this Lucifer and I will make sure they face the consequences. I pulled the camera feed which I will destory when...."
" Give it to her." Lucifer looked up as he saw the nurse walk by. " They're right......you and Amara are right."
" Dad, are you sure?" Charlie looked at her dad as he nodded and Emily slowly got up and handed the recording to the nurse. " What happend?"
" I....I don't know.....but something isn't right and it hasn't been but I have been too scared to do or say anything. It's not right not for us or him."
Notes:
What's wrong with Alastor? How will Sera's trial go? Will the exorcists who hurt Alastor and Lucifer face the consequences? How will the rest of their time in heaven be? Will Alastor be able to find comfort with his mother again? How will Amara act when she hears what happend to her Dad's? Will they run into Lilith while in heaven, or will Charlie find her and have a word with her? Will the council or Sera ask to see Alastor's memories?
One more chapter left for the week, so who knows what's next......bye.
Chapter 25: Alters
Summary:
Lucifer, Amara, Charlie, Emily, and Alastor's mom get some answers about what has been going on with Alastor and come up with a way to tell him, which involves having time together as a family. Alastor and Lucifer get closer with their family bonding and move to the next step in the partnership, and Lucifer works on being more open with Alastor. Lucifer tells Amara and Charlie they need to tell Alastor; only Alastor makes an impossible ask.
Notes:
I know this is late, but when I was about to post it, I read over it, and it was not HotPotato approved, so I went back through. Also, if you haven't, please read the tags. But sit or lay back and enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Waiting in waiting rooms reminded him too much of Alastor when he was sick and all the scares he gave him. But as Alastor was away Amara came with clothes for him since he was in ripped duck pajamas. He was shown to a room to shower off the blood but when he got out and looked at his body it had dark burns all over from the chains which wouldn't heal. He couldn't even stop himself from crying as he looked at himself to the point that Amara and Charlie came in and saw. They just held him as he cried and reminded him they loved him no matter the scars which helped and Amara even brought him his blanket, which quickly cheered him up as he put his shirt on and curled up in it with Charlie and Amara. Emily told the council what happened and they are giving them an extra day to get better which he appreciated. He eventually fell asleep in Amara's arms but he woke up when he heard someone say Alastor's name When he looked it was Lilith.
" Mom you can't be here right now so please go." Charlie saw her Dad had woken up so she walked over and covered him up. " It's alright Dad she was just leaving."
" Lucifer they asked me to testify against Sera but I will if Alastor makes a deal with me. I want my soul and to know he won't kill me Lucifer . I will drop out of his case and go back to hell if he made it ." Lilith was terrified that Alastor was coming from her and it got to the point she couldn't sleep or do anything.
" Charlie get her out of here before I kick her ass." Amara held her dad close as Charlie turned to her mom.
" Charlie please !" Lilith didn't get another chance before the exorcists dragged her out.
Charlie sat down beside her Dad as she hugged him. " It's alright Dad ."
Lucifer enjoyed having his girls like this so he calmed down until he saw the doctor walk in. " How is he? Can we see him? He's....."
" Lucifer I am still running a few things but I wanted to ask you three to fill these forms out since you are around him more. It will just help us understand what he's like at home."
Lucifer looked at the clipboard and then up at the doctor. " This asks if he talks to himself which he doesn't. Why are we filling these out?"
" Just have to rule a few things out that's all but when you finish just turn them into the lady at the desk. And please answer these honestly so we can figure this out."
As he was still stuck on the first few he looked over to see Amara almost done and Charlie halfway through. But as he read them he felt sick cause of the sounds of the questions they thought Alastor was crazy which he wasn't mentally. He doesn't talk to himself, he sleeps, and he doesn't seem depressed, or suicidal but in the end when it asked if Alastor was confused a lot and had nightmares he started to worry again. Charlie took their clipboards up and forced himself back to sleep so he didn't have to wait. And he woke up when he heard Alastor's name called. " Can we see him now?"
" He's is still asleep and before I say anything I see his mother lives in heaven perhaps you would like to call her and tell her what's going on?"
Emily saw everyone's frightened looks. " I will bring her just a moment." She quickly went out and to Alastor's mom's house when she answered the door and told her what happend she was quick to come with her. When they got back they both sat down.
" Why isn't he waking up?" Amara read what hard shocks to the brain could do and she worried if it was what was going on.
“ It made it easier,” the doctor began calmly. “ So we’ve kept him asleep. He is healed , so don’t worry. His body is just … exhausted and malnourished. We’ve started fluids, but he needs to eat. A lot more than he is. From what he told me last time, the void didn’t require eating or sleeping. So … all of this? It’s new to him.”
“ Last time?” Alastor’s mother turned toward Lucifer, confused. “ What do you mean last time?”
Lucifer frowned, just as puzzled. “ Emily…?”
Emily rose slowly, knowing the room’s attention was already heavy. “ When Alastor came, and you asked me to check on him,” she began, eyes on Alastor’s mom, “ I found him in a bad state. He was struggling to breathe, in pai n… I had him treated here, quietly. We kept him as comfortable until the day before he left.”
“ You never told us,” Lucifer said, voice low.
“ I didn’t want to make you panic. I didn’t want you angry with Heaven again. I thought I could handle it.” Her eyes flicked to Charlie, then back to Lucifer. “ I was wrong and I'm sorry.”
“ Thankfully,” the doctor cut in , “ Alastor heals incredibly fast. Possibly faster than you, Lucifer. That’s a small blessing.”
“ But what about the confusion?” Charlie asked, squeezing her grandmother’s hand. “ The memory gaps, the mood swings?”
The doctor glanced at Emily before speaking. “ Last time he was here, I concluded that Alastor has PTSD. Frankly, it’s expected , someone who’s spent thousands of years in darkness being tortured … there’s no way they would come out whole.” She flipped through Alastor’s file. “From his history, I also gathered that his childhood wasn’t good. Abuse, isolation. Even the color of his skin made him a target back then.”
Alastor’s mother stiffened. “ My son had a few challenges. But I protected him from that monster. He was hurt a few times, yes, but.....”
“ No one is blaming you,” Charlie said quickly, pulling her into a soft hug. “ Grammie, you told us how awful his father was. We know he hurt you both. That kind of trauma doesn’t just go away for either one of you.”
The doctor nodded gently. “ Most children who suffer what Alastor did grow up with depression, anxiety, dissociation, substance dependency, even violence. Not because they’re bad people. Because they were broken too early.”
Alastor’s mother stood, voice sharp. “ My son is smart. Brilliant. I raised him right. He isn’t like that. And he’s not the reason we’re here. They did that to him. Not me.”
“ Ma’am,” the doctor said softly, “ sometimes trauma doesn’t show until years later, especially when someone tries so hard to stay in control. What happened when he was little, what his father did ... it shaped him, even if he didn’t show it.” She paused, eyes moving between them all. “ When he was a child, he was bright. Joyful. Then one day he killed his father. After you passed, he survived on his own. And then he was killed . And ended up in the void.” The doctor sighed. “ Then came Hell and the Radio Demon, powerful, feared. A man in control, for the first time in his existence. But even that control faded once he returned to the void for a second time. This third time, longer. Thousands of years longer. And that ... broke him. Even the strongest minds shatter under that kind of isolation and pain.”
“ What are you saying?” Lucifer asked.
“ I’m saying he fractured, split, to survive. The footage confirms it. There’s the one who wants vengeance, the destroyer. Another, fragile, who obeys everything out of fear. And the real Alastor, the one you all know. But none of them are whole or even aware of the other.”
Lucifer stared, trying to understand. “ Okay, maybe say it again , but dumbed down for Amara.”
“ What?” Amara’s head snapped around. “ Are you serious right now?”
Lucifer just gave a sheepish smile. “ Sorry. I panicked.”
Charlie smiled through the tension, even as her eyes glistened with emotion. “ What does that all mean?”
The doctor took a breath, her expression softening, but the weight behind her eyes only grew heavier. “ It means, that Alastor has a dissociative identity disorder or DID. He’s split … into three distinct identities. One of them is him, the real Alastor, the one you know. But two others are living in his mind now.”
The room fell silent, the air thudding with stunned disbelief. Alastor’s mother blinked, her mouth trembling. “ No… no, my boy wouldn’t, he’s not.....” She stood abruptly, then swayed, her voice cracking into a sob. “ Is he in pain? Are they hurting him?”
The doctor stood too , gently moving closer. “ It’s not physical pain. But yes … it does hurt. Imagine waking up and not remembering what you’ve done. Not knowing where you are, who you’ve spoken to … or what version of you just acted in your place. Imagine voices, urges, fears that don’t feel like your own … but you’re still the one who has to pay for them.”
Alastor’s mother covered her face, falling back into her chair with a strangled cry.
“ I want to help him,” the doctor continued. “ And the only way to give him a fighting chance is with medication, nothing heavy, just enough to help regulate the switches, keep him grounded longer. But he also needs therapy. Real, trauma-centered care so he can talk about what happend. If he doesn’t accept either…” She hesitated, then looked at all of them.“ I’m afraid of what might happen.”
Charlie wiped her cheek quickly. “ You mean… the other personalities?”
The doctor nodded slowly.“ The one who obeys is afraid. Terrified. Everything about him screams compliance and desperation. But fear like that doesn’t stay bottled forever. One day he’ll hit a wall. One day … he’ll want the pain to stop.”
“ And the other?” Lucifer asked, voice tight.
The doctor hesitated. “ The aggressive one, he doesn’t fear pain. He feeds on it. He is full of rage and power , and he’s disconnected from anything human. If he pushes through again without the real Alastor strong enough to stop him…” She didn’t need to finish the sentence. But she did.“…he could kill everyone before we have a chance to blink.”
Alastor’s mother buried her head into Charlie’s shoulder, shaking with sobs.
Lucifer rubbed at his eyes, exhaling harshly. “ He won’t take them,” he said softly “ He’ll smile, deflect… maybe even joke. But he won’t take those pills. And he damn sure won’t talk to anyone about the void. Not to me. Not to anyone.” His words settled like dust across the room, heavy, bitter, and far too familiar.
Alastor’s mother still sobbed quietly, her face buried in Charlie’s shoulder as Charlie stroked her hair. No one dared speak at first, the grief too real, too raw. Until Amara stepped forward . Her voice was soft but sure. “ Then let’s not tell him today.”
Lucifer turned, confused. “ What?”
“ We spend today like a family, just like we planned,” she said. “ We make it perfect. Warm. Safe. Just for him. Then tomorrow … we tell him everything. Together. After he’s had at least one good day.”
Lucifer stared at her for a long moment, before his eyes glistened and he nodded slowly. “ Yeah… maybe when he sees how much we all care about him, he'll believe he deserves to be okay.”
Charlie gave a shaky smile, the tears in her eyes not from sadness this time, but from the tiniest spark of hope. “ I think that’s a good idea,” she said, squeezing Amara’s hand.
The doctor, still standing nearby, watched them with quiet compassion before stepping forward. “ Alright,” she said gently. “ I’ll keep him asleep for a little longer, just until he's good. Once he wakes … I’ll come get you.”
“ Thank you,” Amara whispered.
The doctor nodded and excused herself quietly, leaving the room behind. But Alastor’s mother didn’t stop crying. Charlie held her closer, whispering comforts through her own tears. And Lucifer sat back in the chair, hand clenched to his chest.
They sat there for a few hours and when the doctor finally came back to tell them Alastor was waking up soon. As they all got up Alastor's mom decided it would be best if she left since being around made Alastor upset which they hated but she made a point. They hugged her and Charlie said she would call her later and tell her everything. Luckily they had a few hours left in the day and tomorrow before they had to worry about Sera's trail. When they walked in Alastor sat there on the side of the bed and rubbing his head. " Hey love you up for that family day?"
" I don't know Lucifer." Earlier he wasn't sure if he wanted to be around a lot of people and everything was so loud in his head.
Amara walked in as she walked over to her father. " Please we don't have to do much if you don't want to but when is it ever just us 4?"
" Amara has a point Alastor and you three have spent time together but I haven't. I feel left out here." Charlie walked over to the other side of Alastor. " I was thinking either arcade or.....or family picnic?"
He rubbed his head again and then looked at Charlie. " What is an arcade?"
" What?!" Amara and Charlie spoke at the same time.
Lucifer couldn't help but laugh as he sat beside Alastor. " It's like digital games, come on Alastor I am supposed to be the old one here, not you."
" Ha, you're funny." He looked at all of them and he saw all of them excited but as much as he wanted to turn them down and relax , for everything they were doing, he couldn't. " I don't think I have a choice do I?"
" Nope now come on the day is almost over." Charlie walked out as she called a cab.
Amara sat on the bed and carefully hugged her father. " Don't scare me like that both of you. I just got two parents, and I don't want to go back to one."
Lucifer laughed as he looked at Alastor who looked confused so he wrapped his arms around himself Alastor hugged Amara back which he copied for a moment then Amara left. " Ready?"
" Why was I in here? I am a bit fuzzy on what led me in here and I don't even remember walking in." He laid his head in his hand as he looked at Lucifer.
"Let's just say some exorcist will pay for what they did." Lucifer stood up as he held his hand out for Alastor who slowly took his hand then they walked out. The ride was quick and as they were all talking and laughing, Alastor just looked out the window until they got there. Surprisingly there wasn't anyone there as they walked in. " Um, Charlie where is everyone?"
" Oh, I told Emily we were coming and she made a few calls so it was just us. OOooo Amara , I wanna play that!" Charlie grabbed Amara's hand as she pulled her to a game.
Lucifer laughed as he watched the two run off to a game. " Now we watch and when they lose we say they will get it next time. As we hold hands like .... this." Lucifer grabbed Alastor's hand as he hugged his arm.
" Are you sure? Cause there are several games like that thing." Alastor walked over to a game as he tried to understand it but failed. " Alright, we watch."
They walked over as he giggled and as they watched Amara and Charlie play he ended up wrapping his arms around Alastor's waist as they watched. Occasionally Charlie or Amara demanded that they play which was fun. The night was full of laughs and Alastor seemed to have fun. When they finished they stopped and got some dinner which was nothing close to special but they enjoyed it. They even made plans for a brunch which Alastor seemed excited for. Before he knew it they were lying in bed as he turned to face Alastor who sat up reading. " Wanna read to me?"
Alastor looked past the book to see Lucifer lying on the bed, looking at him. " No."
Lucifer was shocked. " No? Did I do something wrong?"
He just laughed as he laid down beside Lucifer and started to read out loud and Lucifer was quick to laid on his chest. After a while, he looked down at Lucifer who was happily asleep so he quickly forced himself to sleep. When he woke up he found himself cradling Lucifer which shocked him but as he was about to get up he got a whiff of something sweet as he checked it was Lucifer's hair which smelled like apples which he strangely liked. So he stayed until Lucifer started to wake up so he sat up and stretched. " Took you long enough to wake up Lucifer."
" Whatever but can we stay a little longer it was nice." He rolled over as he laid in Alastor's lap.
Alastor was going to just get up but then that feeling hit again which he didn't understand so he picked Lucifer up asLucifer was about to complain he kissed him to which Lucifer grabbed his face and pulled him down to the bed. He was a bit shocked when Lucifer wrapped both of his legs around his waist pulling him to lay on top of Lucifer Lucifer had a hand in his hair and another moved to his chest which he quickly tried to stop but Lucifer pushed away slightly.
" Trust me." He smiled as he looked into Alastor's eyes he looked at him for a moment then nodded to which he pulled Alastor back into the kiss he slowly removed a few buttons to Alastor's shirt then carefully laid a hand on Alastor's chest only to feel Alastor's heart racing. " Do you trust me?"
There that feeling was but stronger as Lucifer touched his chest but Lucfier simply laid his hand on it as he pushed away from the kiss. Trust wasn't something easy to give to anyone but Lucifer hadn't hurt him like others had and he was the reason he was even able to sleep peacefully. If he could sleep beside someone and wake up unharmed then perhaps their someone to trust. " I .... I do."
Lucifer smiled brightly as he kissed Alastor a bit rougher and flipped them to where Alastor was lying down he sat on topnever breaking their kiss as one hand worked the other buttons slowly the other held Alastor's hand. Only when he finished with the buttons did he sit up to look but he still held Alastor's hand which Alastor was holding tightly. " Still as handsome as the day I met you." He went back to kiss Alastor and in a snap, his shirt was gone and he sat up again as he showed his scars. " They may hurt but they just make us human."
Alastor sat up slightly as he looked at the burns which he knew all too well were from the angelic chains but as he was about to touch he looked at Lucifer who nodded letting him know it was okay. As he carefully followed the burn to Lucifer's side he saw his arms with dark little circles on the inside of his elbow but as he looked up he saw lines perfectly spaced. " What are these?"
Lucifer looked where Alastor was and as hard as it was to talk about it was Alastor. " Before we ever met I used to cut myself just to feel and...and those....those were from after you died. I went to this place to get a stronger pill but I went too far and I couldn't stop. Each high I spent with you and I never wanted to leave but when I did there were more." He showed Alastor his other arm which had even more. " My wings were torn but I didn't even care and I didn't care where they put it I just wanted to be with you and for the pain to go away." He laid his head on Alastor's shoulder as he watched him hold his arm and look. " They're ugly I know and it's just pathetic that....."
" No there not. Like you said it makes us human and I guess I understand wanting that pain to stop." He moved Lucifer as he cupped his face. " If I didn't have this collar on I could show you something perhaps next time but those don't make you pathetic Lucifer they make you stronger."
He couldn't help but kiss Alastor. " Thank you." As he pulled away he looked at Alastor's chest which was littered with scars but he stopped at the one across Alastor's chest which he knew. " Do you know this one?" Alastor just shook his head. " It was extermination day and you fought against Adam and he hit you. It's the reason I lost you and the reason you left. But you came back." He had touched that scar several times before but it was the first time with Alastor's full fur. " Haha, I used to lay right here every night 'cause I loved laying in your chest fluff some nights I just helped myself and you would just laugh in the morning. As he ran his hand in Alastor's chest fluff and giggled he stopped he saw the scar from the chest port which he carefully touched."
" What's that one?" Almost all his scars he knew but when he really looked there were a few he didn't.
Lucifer didn't want to ruin the moment by crying so he took a moment before looking at Alastor. " It was where they had to put the chest port that they used for your treatments which kept you alive to see our little girl be born , it gave you more time with me. You fucking hated it and asked for it to be removed before you died which we did." He couldn't help but kiss it. " We both hated it but it gave me the best thing....time with you." As he laid his head on Alastor's chest he was about to hug him but stopped when he felt a thick scar on Alastor's side when he looked it started from the middle of Alastor's torso to what he guessed was Alastor's back which he couldn't see with Alastor still wearing his shirt. " Can I ask?"
Each scar hurt to touch yet when Lucifer did it didn't hurt. " It was a knife she stabbed into me and twisted but she had done it so much that she pulled it out and heated it until it was red and stabbed me again sliced me open. I always heal back so no matter what I couldn't die."
" W....why would she?" Just the thought of a burning knife cutting him open made him sick and the scar was thick and layer with others.
" I never saw a face but I knew it was someone different by their laugh or their voice. But that...." He didn't remember so he touched it and knew. " She said it was to hurt me from the inside out and...and she did."
Lucifer wasn't going to ask more and when he looked up at Alastor his smile was closed so he sat up. " I hurt that bitch from the inside when I ripped her heart out." Then he saw Alastor's regular smile which he smiled as he kissed Alastor until he was lying down again.
Alastor pushed Lucifer slightly so he could speak. " Can I see your wings?" Lucifer nodded and in seconds he saw all 6 wings which were all quite large and he couldn't even help but touch them even ran his hand through the feathers he found Lucifer giggling. " Are you ticklish, Lucifer?"
Lucifer just laughed as Alastor kept going as he fell onto Alastor's chest laughing harder. " S..stop....hehehe..." Alastor did but he couldn't get himself to get off Alastor's chest. " We should probably get up and...." Before he said anything else Alastor got up but to his surprise Alastor carried him as he laughed and looked at Alastor. " This isn't what I meant."
" Oh? So then I shouldn't do this." Lucifer had his legs wrapped around him so he grabbed the back of Lucifer's head and pulled him into a kiss just as Lucifer put his wings in. " In your memories, I gave you a nickname am I allowed to say it?"
Lucifer skipped breaths but if he heard the name they wouldn't be leaving anytime soon his head nodded before he had a chance to say no.
He ran his hand through Lucifer's hair as he looked him in the eyes. " I don't have my memories but I wonder if I need them at times . Even without them, I find you and your children likable and you .... you bring a side of me out that I don't even know or understand. But I want to understand and I think I can with you, mon cher."
" Oh fuck." Why did it always have him in chills hearing that come out of Alastor's mouth? He quickly grabbed Alastor's head and kissed him but this time he couldn't stop he even pushed them back down into the bed. He needed more, he needed all of Alastor right then and there but as he ran his hand down Alastor's chest to his stomach he felt Alastor starting to push him away so he stopped. " It's okay I won't hurt you, love."
Why did he have to call him love and why the hell did it work? Lucifer quickly went back to kissing him but as he felt Lucifer's hand on his stomach he started getting nervous. Seemed to realize it and grabbed his hand and held it tightly by his head as he felt Lucifer's hand go lower but as he was about to ask him to stop he heard the beep of the door being unlocked so did Lucifer who quickly closed his shirt thankfully.
" Dad you weren't answering your phone and we were........OH GOD!" Amara quickly turned away just as Charlie started to walk in. " I....I'm sorry I..."
" Amara I swear it's not what it looks like." Lucifer quickly snapped a shirt on as he was about to walk over but quickly stopped himself. When he looked at Alastor he quickly pulled the blanket over him.
Charlie just nervously froze as she looked at the two. " Um ..... why don't we just do lunch......a...a big lunch?"
" No...um....." Lucifer couldn't move and he wasn't Alastor see.
He tried to move the blanket from his face but Lucifer returned it. " Lucifer I think they saw me so you don't have....."
" You shush.... um give us.....20? We will meet you outside." Amara walked out and Charlie just nodded and practically ran out of the room as he quickly ran to the bathroom.
When he sat up Lucifer was just finished closing the bathroom door. " Lucifer are you alright?"
" Yep !... I .... I just need to shower and we can go." Another cold shower for him and as he did it didn't seem to work so he had to think of turn-offs which worked but how many times was he going to be doing this? When he finished and snapped himself dressed and ready he walked out to see Alastor about to put his jacket on but he saw his tail and the shape of his body and quickly he had to go back to the bathroom.
He had heard the door open but as he turned to look Lucifer was shutting the door again. So he walked over and knocked on the door. " Are you sure you alright?"
" Oh yeah, I just ..... I forgot to wash my hands." He slapped himself in the face as he realized he just showered. " Why don't you and the girl go ahead and I will meet up?"
This was strange even for Lucifer but he was going to open the door but stopped. " Alright. I ..... I'm sorry."
Lucifer stopped when he heard Alastor apologize but as he opened the door to tell him, Alastor was gone. " Shit."
Alastor walked down to see Amara and Charlie sitting on a bench waiting. " Your dad said he would meet up with us? Whatever that means."
" Oh is he alright?" Charlie looked at the door to go back inside as she worried.
Amara stood up and she looked at the two who both looked at the door. " Hey, he takes forever to get ready and at times I call him mom cause he takes so freaking long so don't worry. Come on I am starving and I looked and I found something you're going to love, papa."
Alastor looked at the door again. " Alright."
Lucifer took several cold showers and thought of every turn but nothing worked and it was starting to hurt. Besides the pain, he felt like shit for letting Alastor think he was to blame when he didn't do anything wrong. He wanted to run over to him and tell him but not with a fucking boner. He got a text which he hoped would help but it was of all of them at brunch, sure Alastor was blurry but he saw the red from his hair. " Fuck...."
He should be there so out of desperation he called the person who knew everything and wouldn't tell anyone....Angel.
" Oh thank goodness Angel I need your help and fast are you alone?"
" Yeah I'm fine and no I am at the bar with Husk. But I can walk away."
" Please."
" Alright, what's goin' on Luci ?
" Angel I need you.....mmmm....I need you to tell me something you don't want anyone to know so I know you won't ...... fuck...."
" Hold on......Lucifer .... do you have a boner right now?"
" TELL ME!"
" Haha .....alright.......let me think ....oh haha …when I got with Husk I put Alastor on my list of who I wanted to sleep with.”
“ WHAT?! Oh ……. you’re lying right ?………just to fuck with me?”
“ Nope. Now why are you callin me instead of letting Alastor handle it?”
“ Fuck I told him to help him understand what he’s feeling I could help but fuck……it’s just been so long and I don’t want him to freak out and……and I had under control with a cold shower or thinking of something else but it’s not working.”
“ Hmmm…….I got an idea.”
END OF CALL
Lucifer pulled his phone away to see that Angel had hung up. “ What the fuck?!” He quickly called Angel again but no answer he tried again until he answered.
“ Angel….”
“ Look at the picture I sent you.”
Lucifer quickly looked and to his surprise, it was the only picture of Alastor. “ Should I ask how you got this?”
“ Nope but have fun.”
END OF CALL
Finding his lowest point he thought he had it and it was low but this was something else. Rather than that he just felt disgusting to the point he had to shower several times before he even felt even clean enough to walk out. But it was over and he just didn't look at himself as he called Charlie to ask where they were which was a bookstore. When he got there Charlie was standing there alone. " Where are the other two?"
" Oh, Amara had to pick some new books and took Alastor with her. But are you alright? You missed brunch and I don't want to ask but did something happen between you two?" Charlie walked over to a reading bench as her dad followed.
This wasn't a conversation to have with your daughter so he just had to take a breath. " He apologized for something I did and before I could tell him he was gone. But I will work it out Charlie let's just have a good day."
Amara had a basket full of different books but as she was walking to show Charlie she saw her dad and quickly told her father who had been looking for a gift for her dad. " Dad is with Charlie you should give it to him."
" This is stupid Amara. I mean he's a grown man shouldn't I just get him something older like a book or perhaps....." Amara had noticed he was quieter than normal to which he just told her he messed up so when Charlie walked away to answer Vaggie's phone call she dragged him into a store to find something for him.
" This is Lucifer we're talking about the guy who is obsessed with anything duck-related , hell he sleeps in duck pajamas for crying out loud. His favorite picture of me, when I was a baby, was me in a duck onesie." Amara crossed her arms as she looked at her father. " Maybe we should do it outside but he will love anything you give him."
" You're not just saying that 'cause you're secretly out to get me for your friend?" He had been trying to figure it out for weeks but he just needed to ask.
Was she pissed and hurt about Lute...yes but now that she knows what's going on with him how can she be upset with the version of her father who didn't kill her friend. " How about you just owe me one but it has to be big. You killed her in front of me and I couldn't even sleep for a while."
" Alright." He put the box aside as he helped Amara pick a few more books before the basket was overflowing so he made her check out. When they walked over to Charlie and Lucifer they both looked at the box in his hands and the several bags Amara had. " Is this what shopping with ladies is if so I don't want to do this again."
" Haha come on it was fun and when I finish you can read them." Amara smiled as she looked at the box then her dad. " Charlie, why don't you and me take these back then we will meet back up in a bit?"
Charlie nodded as she looked at the two. " Be nice alright this is heaven."
Lucifer watched the two leave but as he looked at Alastor he couldn't help but look at the box. " What's in the box?"
" An idem. Why don't we go to the park again? You seemed to enjoy it last time." Lucifer nodded but as they walked Lucifer kept looking at the box he kept trying to figure out what he was going to say and the probability Lucifer would hate it or laugh at him. But for what felt like seconds they were sitting at the park right by the ducks.
Alastor hadn't said a word the whole walk almost as if he was somewhere else which he worried about even texted Charlie that they needed to tell Alastor when they finished dropping the books off. " Alastor....Alastor I'm sorry about earlier and that ..... "
" Why are you sorry? I was the one who started it and......"
Lucifer grabbed Alastor's hand as he put the box aside. " Alastor what happend was me and only me you have nothing to apologize for. It's embarrassing but I am an adult and if we're going to do this right I need to be open with you just like you are." He took a breath before speaking. " I know you have my memory of.....you know Amara's making in all but you didn't like sex then and I know you don't now. Which I am fine with cause it was never about....oh geez the amazing sex....this is about love. I just...I just get excited in a way?" It felt like the talk all over again that he had with Amara.
" Excited?" Now he was lost.
" Yeah? But....down there?" Was it hot outside suddenly or was it just him?
Alastor just looked at Lucifer confused until he saw where Lucifer's eyes were going then it all added up. " Oh.....OH! I understand now so then I didn't do anything bad I simply made .... "
" Please don't say it out loud we are in a park and there are children." Lucifer just smiled as Alastor started laughing. " It's not that funny."
" Is that why you shower after ?" Lucifer nodded. " Well, this is a huge relief for me so I don't have to give you the box after all."
" Wait....it's for me?" Lucifer looked at Alastor for a second quickly grabbed the box and ran to a tree as Alastor followed. " I want it."
" No, it's stupid and....." Lucifer moved a step back with each he took forward. " Lucifer give it back..."
Lucifer quickly took the bow off but as he looked inside he froze as he sat down on the grass looking inside . As he picked it up it was a plush duck with the cutest little monicule . " Alastor you..... "
" It's silly but Amara swore you would like it but I can just take it back." As he walked over to Lucifer ready to see him laughing he was actually in tears. " Lucifer?"
" I....I love it." He hugged it tight and it was just as squishy as he thought. " Can I keep it, please? It's so cute and......"
" You would want that?" He looked down at Lucifer who quickly nodded his head as he heard his cries. " Alright but no more crying and tell anyone and I will end you. Now get off the ground." He helped Lucifer up but he kept hugging the duck when they sat back down on the bench Lucifer hugged him. " What is this for?"
" Thank you for everything and for coming back to me. I just....I just love you so much." He was crying but he didn't care.
Charlie and Amara walked up to see their Dad in tears. " Guess he liked the gift. Um, Dad?"
" Oh it's adorable can I see?" Charlie reached for it and quickly her dad moved holding it closer. " Haha alright. Why don't we all sit over there?" Charlie pointed to the picnic table which they all agreed and walked over. Her dad not letting go of the duck for a moment or Alastor which she loved. " Alastor I know we're all new to you and the moment you came back you were a part of this family again even if you don't remember or the same as before. You have brought a side of our dad out that we haven't seen since you left and we can't thank you enough but you also brought a side of Amara out that I never knew and I love just as much. I know we came for the trail but it has been nice spending time together as a family. I hope you have enjoyed it as well. Um...dad?"
Lucifer gently grabbed Alastor's hand as he looked up at him. " Alastor when those exorcists took us and hurt you they.....they made something that we have all seen more real so when you passed out I....I wanted to know if what I saw was something to worry about. Cause it scared me Alastor and we have all slowly started to notice these changes and strange confusion."
" I'm lost here." They all looked at him, worried and concerned.
Charlie leaned in gently, her voice soft but firm. “ Alastor… you were diagnosed with DID. Dissociative Identity Disorder. Your mind is fractured in the void. You created other versions of yourself to survive what was done to you.”
Alastor blinked slowly, then scoffed under his breath. “ That’s ridiculous. I’m not.....” He cut himself off. “ I’m not crazy.”
Lucifer met his eyes, voice low and unsteady. “ You broke my arm and hit me, Alastor. Do you remember that?”
Alastor’s lips parted. “ What?”
“ You made me tell you about my addiction and my relapses when you knew Amara was outside the room and she heard things she didn’t need to know ever. You looked right at me like I was filth like I was nothing to you but a pain.” Lucifer’s hand curled over the plush duck in his lap. “ Then your tentacle wrapped around Amara's neck and you started choking her.”
“ No…” Alastor whispered, his whole body freezing. “ No, I wouldn’t...”
“ But you did.” Charlie’s voice cracked as she said it. “You weren’t yourself it was one of your alters.”
“ If Vox and the others hadn’t shown up,” Lucifer continued, “if they hadn’t knocked you out when they did…” He looked at Alastor, pain shining in his eyes. “ You would have killed all of us and more.”
Alastor took a staggering step back, chest heaving, but his face remained unreadable. Until Amara stood up.
She walked to him, the faintest tremble in her steps, and took his hands in hers. “ Papa…” she said, her voice small and cracking with emotion. “ The doctor said there are medications that can help you stay in control… to keep the scary voices quiet. Please, Papa, take them.”
His hands didn’t move. He didn’t blink. He just stared at her, searching her eyes. Then finally… his voice came, distant and hollow. “ Alright,” he said. “ But if this version who hurt you guys tries again .... Lucifer I need you to give me your word that you will kill me."
Notes:
Will Lucifer be able to give Alastor his word? How will the trial go? Will the meds work or have side effects? Will Lucifer face his little problem again with Alastor? When will Emily give Alastor back his memories? Will Lilith try and talk to Alastor about her deal? Is Alastor going to get the collar off? What makes Alastor's alter come out? Is Vox right about Alastor having a rut soon?
Next week, a lot more of well......everything. If you have any theories, I would love to hear them, but until next time, bye.
Chapter 26: Trial
Summary:
Everyone struggles to answer Alastor, so Charlie says Alastor could talk to Vox, which seemed to close the conversation for now, and they spent the remaining time they had before the trail as a family. Amara and Charlie take Alastor to get medication, only to find out how serious everything is, meanwhile, Lucifer had to testify. When Alastor and the girl finish up, they meet Lucifer at the courthouse for Alastor to go. But little did they know just how restrained Alastor was going to be or how the council was going to play Alastor's memories for the court and Sera to hear.
Notes:
Warning, this chapter is long as hell, so be prepared and enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Alastor was standing there looking at all of them, but mostly him, to give him his word that if this dangerous alter came out and tried to kill them, he would kill him first. How could he do that when he just got Alastor back and their family reunited? Watching Alastor die was one of the hardest things besides living without him, but for him to kill the love of his life with his own hands was a task he couldn't do. " I can't. I just got you back, and with the meds and therapy, it won't be an issue."
" Lucifer I will take the damn pills but I am not talking to some stranger about my life. I won't, and unfortunately, you're the only one who can besides Amara." Alastor turned to Amara who slowly started to back away from him into Charlie.
Her whole life, she had wanted to meet her father, but now he was asking her or her dad to kill him if he lost control. While she knew her dad would never so much as hit her father she couldn't even block a hit. " I....I can't....please don't ask me."
" Vox would Alastor. You tell him how and what he will but my dad and sister can't be the ones who do it. Family doesn't kill family and not when we have all missed you for the last 20 years." Charlie stood there hugging Amara as Alastor looked at them and nodded. " Can we get dinner now? Cause I could go for some ramen."
Amara stood straight as she looked at Charlie. " Really?"
" What I'm hungry and this shouldn't ruin the rest of the day. I will call Emily so that in the morning we can get what Alastor needs before the trial starts. Oh Dad they have you going first thing in the morning so me and Amara will go." Alastor sat down but he looked at her and thanked her for changing the topic and understanding.
Lucifer sat down beside Alastor as he held Alastor's arm. " I thought we got to go together?"
" We can ask or just see if you can just go back." Charlie sent Emily a text telling her about Alastor and about tomorrow. " Alright let's get some soup."
As Amara and Charlie walked ahead Lucifer walked with Alastor who seemed elsewhere as he held his arm with his duck still in hand. " What's going on in the freaky head of yours?"
" What are they like? You told me one was aggressive but what about the other one?" He sounded crazy and hell apparently he was crazy now.
Lucifer looked up at Alastor. " Scared.... frightened....he's jumpy and if you ask him something he only wants what you want. He will obey anything so that he doesn't get hurt or punished. Loud sounds freak him out but he loved your mother which was why she was shocked you wanted to kill her."
" Ugh really? That's just embarrassing did he say anything?" One was a literal bloodthirsty monster then the other was scared all the time. Would his mind not have made the last one at least cool?
He stopped as he thought back to what that alter said. " Alastor the angels you killed can....can you bring them back?"
So these things in his head could also spill his secrets. " Yes. But I won't."
" Alastor you bring them back and the collar and exorcist wanting your head would be over. We don't know if they will let Emily take Sera's place but whoever does gets to decide if you should be put to trial for your actions. You bring them back and....." As he was trying to get Alastor to see he pulled his arm away from him.
" Lucifer it's not that simple and what you are asking me is to find each one and make their body back. I've never done that Lucifer and I won't do it for heaven. If they want to put me on trial I say go for it and this conversation never happend." Not only would he have to go back to the void but he had to fight for each soul and make angelic bodies which he had never done before or even know if he could. So he walked away from Lucifer.
Lucifer wanted to run up to Alastor and continue the conversation but he found it best to put the conversation aside and enjoy the night with his family.
The rest of the day was fun and they all laughed. Dinner was delicious and funny since both Alastor and Lucifer couldn't use chopsticks then after they went to an ice cream shop to get ice cream everyone but Alastorgot something but he just watched them. Although Lucifer forced Alastor to try his which didn't go over well and Alastor took the stuffed duck away Charlie and Amara were practically in tears watching the two fight. They even went to a movie in the park which was some old movie that Amara and Alastor enjoyed but Lucifer fell asleep in Alastor's lap and Charlie watched. When it was over they headed back to the hotel which wasn't far away and said their goodnights. Alastor had carried Lucifer since he was asleep.
When he got into the room he laid Lucifer down and got ready for bed but as he was about to lay down something told him not to so he sat beside Lucifer the whole night reading until it was morning then he left to get Lucifer and the girls breakfast from some new orleans resteruant which he thought seemed good. He brought Amara and Charlie to them then headed up only to find Lucifer still asleep hugging the stuffed duck. He would have let Lucifer sleep in longer but Charlie said they had to leave in an hour so quickly and smoothly he took the duck from Lucifer which quickly woke him up. " Mmmm......Alastor?"
" Glad your awake eat up we have to be going soon according to Charlie." Alastor helped Lucifer sit up as he handed him the container.
He rubbed his eyes and Alastor was dressed and ready for the day already . But the food looked tasty so he dug in. " Did you sleep alright?"
" It's not right for his majesty to speak with food in his mouth so eat then ask me questions." Alastor walked over to the nightstand picked his book up from earlier and sat down in the chair to read.
Lucifer slowly ate as he watched Alastor read and even checked his phone but when he finished he walked over to Alastor and sat on his lap. " Thank you for breakfast, love."
Alastor closed his book as he looked at Lucifer. " It was nothing but you should get ready."
" Are you alright? You seem odd." He got up and snapped himself dressed as he looked at Alastor.
" I'm fine, Lucifer." As he stood up, Lucifer kept looking at him as if he was trying to see if something was wrong. " Lucifer, stop looking at me like that."
" Are you upset about me falling asleep during the movie? I did try to stay awake but I was tired." He sat down as he watched Alastor put his jacket on.
" No. I guess I didn't realize there was a chance Sera would be free." On his walk this morning he grabbed a new's paper and read about the case which wasn't looking very good.
Lucifer patted the spot beside him as Alastor sat down. " Hey, those chances are low because once we tell the council what we know it will show them." He laid his head on Alastor's arm as he held his hand. " After today it will be over and we can focus on you."
Before he said anything there was a knock at the door which Lucifer walked over to answer revealing Charlie, Amara, and, Emily.
" Morning Dad." Charlie hugged her father and waved at Alastor as Amara hugged their dad and Emily walked in.
" I talked with the council and they still want Lucifer to go now but with everything, they agreed to allow Lucifer to go with Alastor. Umm.....Alastor we kept everything locked and key so no one would say anything but...due to you...Assaulting Sera they have asked to keep you restrained. I'm sorry I tried and I got them to keep the muzzle off which I know you hated." Emily held her hands as she looked at Alastor and Lucifer. She told Amara and Charlie before they walked in. " Lucifer would be with you the whole time until you sit down."
" Emily I'm sorry but.....what the fuck?! They want to chain the victim here and...." Lucifer was pissed but Alastor stopped him.
He hated the chains but if it was for a short time and Lucifer was there then it wouldn't be so bad. " It's fine."
" Alright, then Lucifer we need to get going." Emily looked at Lucifer who looked at Alastor shocked. " I will be out here."
" Dad there's no point in fighting it to them Alastor ripped Sera's wings and killed hundreds of their people. You will be right there so if something's wrong you will see it." Charlie walked over to her dad as she looked at Alastor who was walking over."
Lucifer turned to look at Alastor and quickly hugged him. " I'm sorry."
" It's not your fault but I'll see you later." He fixed Lucifer's hair as Lucifer let go.
Lucifer looked at Charlie and Amara. " Take care of him please....if....if you need me for anything just call me please and....."
" Dad." Amara crossed her arms as she looked at her dad.
" Alright. I'm leaving and Alastor be nice." Lucifer jumped up and kissed Alastor's cheek then ran out giggling.
As Amara and Charlie laughed, he just rolled his eyes as he walked out ignoring their comments. The walk was simple but he had no idea where he was going the closer they got the more eyes that were on him but it was the waiting room once he sat down all he heard were loud gasps as everyone ran away which he didn't mind one bit as he picked up a newspaper. He and Amara even did the crossword and Charlie did the riddle as they waited. Even though they knew they were coming they still waited awhile until they were waved in but it was them just waiting in a room. " How long is this going to take cause......"
" Hush we still have a few hours before you have to go." Amara had prepared for a wait and brought books. " Here read."
As Alastor read the back cover, he quickly handed it back. " I'm not reading that."
" Why not? I heard great things about the romance in it and wouldn't hurt for you to get some tips since you haven't been on a date like ever." Amara handed the book back but he didn't take it. " Come on don't be a child."
" A child wouldn't even read that filth." The book wasn't just a romance book but it was about two men lovers which was the last thing he was going to read about.
" It can't be that bad." Charlie picked the book up and read a few pages. " Amara this is a sex book."
" It is?" As she grabbed it and looked at the page she read it and quickly flipped to another section only to find another sex scene. " Ops......dad will like it then."
Alastor quickly looked at Amara as she started to put the book in her bag and he quickly grabbed it. " You're not giving him this, Amara. Besides for a daughter to give their dad a book about the act is a bit off-putting."
" Yeah, I'm with Alastor on this besides Dad's not gay." Charlie looked around the room as she looked at the exam table.
" Fine, I will take it back and get something else." Amara put the book back in her bag but when she looked at Charlie she was staring at the exam table. " Oh, papa you have to sit there."
Alastor looked to where Amara was pointing and quickly looked at her. " I'm not sitting there."
" You have to since we're here for you and you're the patient." Amara got up and grabbed her father's hands and forced him up. " Don't be a baby and sit over there unless you're scared. Is the big bad radio demon scared of the doctor?."
He pulled his hands to himself as he looked at the table then Amara. " Please these places are the last place that could scare me."
When Charlie saw Alastor walk to the table she quickly stood up and yelled. " Stop!"
Amara quickly looked at Charlie only to see her in tears. " Charlie, what's wrong?"
" I'm scared. It's places like this that.....that took him away from us....and....and almost took Vaggie. I can't go through that again.....these places.... make the people I love go away. We almost lost Dad in one of these places, I had to see a side of him I never wanted to see." Charlie sat down and she hugged herself as she cried.
Alastor walked over with a box of tissues as he sat beside Charlie. " Dear you're afraid which is understandable but no one is dying or going anywhere."
" B...but what if it changes you or....or you get sick? I know you need this but....." When Alastor pulled her into a hug she broke down harder into him but she felt safe.
" It's alright to have doubts I have them all the time and yet I'm here. Do you think I want any of this? I just wanted to be free but it's one thing after the next but I do know that I don't want to hurt any of you. All of you have been generous enough to let me into your group. I don't want to be here as much as you don't but even if I don't believe I can see how much this means to all of you." Alastor softly scratched Charlie's back which helped her calm down.
" Wow, you're good at this." Amara normally had to spend some time calming her dad and Charlie down when they cried but her father was quick.
" That's Alastor for you." Charlie wrapped her arms around Alastor as she just took in the hug. " I see why my dad likes it in here."
When he was about to let go, Charlie still hugged him tightly, her head resting over his heart, as if she could hold the pieces of him together just a moment longer. But before Alastor could say anything to Charlie, the door opened and a woman in a white coat stepped inside with a soft, expectant smile.“ Finally.”
“ Sorry for the wait, I was waiting on this. Alastor, I’m thrilled you’ve agreed to get help, but I want to be honest. This won’t be easy. These medications aren’t a cure. They’re just a starting point. Talking , really talking about what happened , and letting the others inside you do the same… that’s where healing begins.”
“ We’re fine,” Alastor muttered coldly. The last thing he was about to do was pour his soul out.
The doctor tilted her head, unshaken. “ Are the others, though?” She moved to a monitor. “ I reviewed the footage of your switches… and I’ve been listening to what your family said. I believe I can safely induce a switch without the trauma of shocking you or making you pass out. Just sit for me, if I’m wrong, we’ll stop. Then I’ll give you your meds and you can go.”
Alastor glanced at Charlie and Amara, Charlie holding Amara's hand tightly, silently bracing herself. With a reluctant sigh, he moved over to sit on the edge of the table as the doctor grabbed the slim pole-like device.“ And why, exactly, would you want to force a switch?” he asked, narrowing his eyes.
“ So I can speak to the others directly. And if the violent one emerges again, we avoid another… near-tragedy.” She paused, then raised the pole and pointed at its glowing tip. “ Just focus here.”
Alastor’s eyes flicked to the light, just in time for her to press the hidden button. A blinding flash forced him to flinch, jerking away but then everything froze.
His gaze darted wildly, and his breath hitched. “ W…Where am I?” His voice was different, smaller, lighter. Terrified. “ How did I get here?”
The doctor softened her stance, holding her hands out. “ Alastor, you’re safe. Your daughters brought you here for help. No one will hurt you. I can explain everything.....”
“ No!” he snapped, pressing himself into the corner of the room. “ No, no.....don’t touch me! Don’t come near me!”
Amara started forward, but the doctor quickly blocked her with a gentle hand.
“ W....what’s going on?” he cried, now crouched and trembling. “ Why are you all looking at me like that? Why are they screaming!?”
“ Alastor,” the doctor said carefully, “ There’s no one screaming. It’s just us.”
“ Stop!” he shrieked, gripping his head. “ Stop, make them stop! I want it all to stop, it’s too loud, and it hurts....!”
The words shattered Charlie. “ Oh my Satan…” she whispered.
Amara looked devastated, she’d heard that same exact phrase before.
“ I can help you make them stop yelling,” the doctor said calmly, crouching and holding out a cup of water and two pills. “ These will help. They won’t erase everything but they’ll quiet the pain. And if you ever want to talk about the memories, we’ll listen. No judgment. Your family wants you to be okay.”
He turned toward Charlie and Amara, his bloodshot eyes wide and confused. “ I don’t know who they are… I only have my mother and father. Take me back. I… I don’t belong here. She.....she would be more upset with me if I take that.”
Charlie moved to stop Amara again, but the girl shook her off and stepped closer. “ You killed your father,” Charlie said firmly.
The alter flinched as if struck. “ No. No.....you’re wrong!” His voice cracked. “ You don’t know anything about me!”
“ But we do,” Amara said gently. “ That’s because we’re your daughters. I’m Amara… and she’s Charlie. You did kill your father, Papa. But it was to save you and your mom.”
He stared at her in horror. “ No, my mother will be so angry… she’ll punish me again. I can’t go back in there I can’t . She’ll kill me!”
Alastor was digging his nails into his arms, deep enough to tear his skin wide open. Suddenly, black blood splattered onto the floor.
“ Alastor, stop, you’re hurting yourself!” the doctor cried, rushing to put the water down and reaching for the light again. “ Please, look at me, I’m going to help you, okay? Just.....just stay still....” She hit the button again, making the room flash.
Alastor gasped, blinking rapidly. He looked around at the faces staring at him, Charlie crying, Amara frozen, and the doctor breathless. “ Why… why am I on the floor?” He glanced down at his hands which were soaked in blood. “ What the hell happened?”. He looked at all of them but they just looked at him frozen when he went to get off the floor the doctor pushed him back down.
“ Don’t,” she said, voice low. " You lost some blood so just stay for a moment please."
Charlie opened her mouth, but nothing came out at first. Then softly, she stepped forward, crouching beside him. “ You weren’t yourself, Alastor. You… switched. One of the others came out, and he didn’t know who we were. He was terrified.”
Amara’s eyes were still wide from the shock, her little voice cracking as she added, “You said it was too loud. That it hurt. And then you said… you wanted it all to stop. Which wasn't the first time they said that”
Alastor blinked hard, slowly shaking his head. “ I didn’t say that.”
“ You didn’t have to,” Charlie said softly. “ We saw it. We felt it.”
The doctor stepped closer now, watching Alastor carefully as she crouched beside him. “That’s why therapy is so important. It isn’t just about talking, it’s about helping that part of you feel safe. So this doesn’t happen again. So you don’t end up hurting yourself, or anyone else.”
“ I already said I’d take the meds,” Alastor muttered, standing slowly. “ I’m not… I’m not doing more than that and I won't be tearing myself open for anyone.”
Charlie’s heart cracked at the look in his eyes, defensive. “ You’d be doing it for us. For yourself.”
“ I said no.”
“ But.....” Amara started, moving to his side. “ Papa, if you just try it once maybe you....”
“ Enough!” Alastor snapped, eyes flashing. He looked away immediately, guilt following too fast. “ I’m trying the pills. That’s all I am doing and that's final.”
The doctor, saying nothing more, walked over to the cabinet and opened a secured drawer and she pulled out three more bottles and quietly set them down next to the others on the table.
Amara and Charlie both froze.“ …Wait, what?” Charlie’s eyes widened. “ That’s...those are all for him?”
The doctor nodded. “ This is just some of them I have to go grab the rest.”
Amara looked from the bottles to Alastor, confused and scared. “ Why does he need so many?”
“ Because there’s more to treat than just fear,” the doctor answered simply . “ There’s trauma, panic, disassociation. And the others need stabilization too.” She looked at all of them and then walked out to grab the other bottles.
Alastor didn’t say anything. He just stared at the bottles, then turned and walked away from them toward the small adjoining bathroom.
They heard the water turn on, and Charlie moved slowly to the doorway, standing beside Amara. Through the crack in the door, they saw him scrubbing his hands with too much force, trying to erase the blood, the shaking, and maybe even the memory. “ Do you think he’ll be okay?” Amara asked, her voice small, her fingers twisting into Charlie’s sleeve.
Charlie didn’t answer right away. Her throat was too tight. Finally, she whispered, “ I don’t know. But I know he’s still trying. Even if it’s just a little.” As much as they wanted to push him to talk they just couldn't do it, it had to be on Alastor's terms and if they pushed him too hard they would lose him if not worse.
They sat in silence for nearly an hour, the room growing heavier with each passing minute. Alastor sat on the edge of the chair , motionless , his eyes fixed on a crack in the tile. Charlie sat close beside him, hands twisting in her lap, stealing glances at the clock on the far wall that ticked just loud enough to be maddening. Amara had curled up beside Alastor with her head against his shoulder, but she hadn’t spoken. The waiting was starting to feel like punishment.
It had been almost an hour since the doctor stepped out. No one said it out loud , but they all wondered if she was stalling. If maybe she’d seen something in Alastor during the switch that scared her, that made her question whether she could even help. Finally, the door creaked open.
Charlie sat up straighter. Amara shifted. Alastor didn’t move.
The doctor stepped back in holding a small white paper bag in her hand. It looked so plain, so harmless, but the weight of it seemed to settle over the room like a storm cloud." Sorry for the wait,” she said calmly, walking over to the low table and setting the bag down. “ I had to prepare everything. There are five bottles here,” the doctor began gently, glancing up at the family before continuing. “ Each one is critical to keeping Alastor stable and keeping the others in check. Because of his unique physiology and the strength of his abilities , the dosages are much higher than what I’d normally prescribe . These aren't light medications , and they are dangerous in our hands.”
Charlie frowned, instinctively reaching for Amara's hand. “ High doses? Is that…safe?”
The doctor nodded slowly. “ It’s necessary. Normal doses wouldn’t even touch his system. We’re working with a lot more than trauma here, we’re working with identities that may not want to be helped.” She hesitated before picking up a smaller, dark red bottle from the bag. This one didn’t rattle as much. The cap was a child-proof twist top, sealed tighter than the others. “ This is the emergency bottle,” she said, her voice heavier now. “ These aren’t meant for daily use. They’re fast-acting counteragents, meant to flush his system if one of the alters tries to overdose on any of the medications.”
Alastor’s eyes narrowed. “ You think one of them would try to kill me.”
“ I don’t think,” the doctor said softly. “I know they’re in pain and their pain and anger will get worse for fourth all of this. One of them is terrified, constantly on the edge. The other is angry enough to burn the world down. And you....” she looked him in the eyes, “...you’re too used to enduring that alone and would rather suffocate than come up for air.”
The doctor leaned forward slightly, her voice calm but firm. “ I want you all to prepare yourselves. The first few days… maybe even weeks… he’s going to feel like the world is pressing down on him. His energy will crash. Emotionally, he may swing between numbness and total breakdown. He’ll be exhausted, and confused, and may not even be able to get out of bed. Think of it like a storm of depression settling in while his mind rewires itself. That’s not a failure of the medication. It’s part of the process.”
Alastor’s head snapped up, disbelief tightening his expression. “ That’s supposed to help? That sounds like being buried alive. These are supposed to help with all of this not make me worse.” Amara reached for his hand, but he pulled away, standing abruptly. “ I agreed to take them so all of this stopped, not turn into some... useless, bedridden wreck. If that's what this will do then I change my mind.”
The doctor didn’t move. She met his eyes with grave certainty. “ If you don’t take these medications, Alastor, then in a couple of weeks, maybe less, one of the others inside your head will kill you. Or the violent one will get you killed. I know you only agreed to this because of your family but how do you think they will feel finding you dead or watching you be killed?”
Silence fell like thunder. Charlie’s breath hitched, then broke completely. “ No....no, please don’t say that....don’t say that!” Her voice cracked into sobs as she covered her face, her whole body trembling.
Amara was frozen beside her, the tears slowly beginning to form, wide eyes locked on the doctor like she was waiting for her to say she was wrong. But she didn’t. She just let it hang in the air, brutal and cold.
Alastor staggered back half a step, visibly shaken. He stared at the doctor, then at the bottles, then at his daughters, crying over what lived inside his head. He didn’t speak. He didn’t argue, he just sat back down.
No one spoke or said anything so Charlie took a moment to stop crying as she looked at the doctor. " What.....what do we do?"
The doctor didn’t sugarcoat it. “ You don’t leave him alone. He’ll want space, maybe try to leave. He might even beg you to go away or say things just to make you leave but he won't mean it. If he disappears behind a locked door, find a way in. If he stops eating, you get food into him, whatever way works. He’ll likely forget his doses, or claim he took them when he didn’t. One of you will need to keep track. Every. Single. Time.”
Amara nodded slowly, eyes never leaving Alastor. “ And… the alters?”
The doctor’s expression darkened. “ If they switch, you watch closely. If it’s the scared one, comfort him maybe even have his mother come. If it’s the angry one… he won't be able to hurt anyone but he will say whatever to cause you pain. We’ve included the emergency meds for a reason.” She paused, her voice lowering to a softer, heavier tone. “ And if it gets bad, if he tries to hurt himself, doesn't eat, or truly disappears into it all, you bring him to the hospital. Hell or Heaven, it doesn’t matter. You don’t wait for things to get worse. If you think it's getting bad it's better to be safe than sorry. He’s going to fight you on this,” the doctor added, her gaze flicking briefly toward Alastor. “ And I don’t blame him. But this is the only way forward.”
Amara carefully hugged her father's arm as she saw Charlie do the same as he stared at the floor smiling. " It's going to be alright and you will be with your family who loves you."
Alastor didn't say or even move but Charlie looked over at the doctor who was preparing the first dosage. " It won't be instant right? He is supposed to testify in a bit at Sera's trial."
" I should be a few hours so after I would say just go home." She placed the paper cup of pills in front of Alastor and grabbed a cup of water. " Also while he's on all of this I should add he can't drink or smoke."
No drinking is what snapped him back to reality. " What?!"
" Come on Alastor it might be good to stop drinking I read....." Charlie didn't see the big deal but it seemed to be for Alastor.
" I stopped for years and you're saying now that I am close to being completely free I can't drink?" It wasn't about getting high or drunk it was the taste and experiences he liked about drinking and even smoking.
The doctor looked at Alastor for a moment then spoke. " With all of this, you will become a lightweight so less than a whole drink or a few puffs, and you're out of it."
A lightweight sucked but he had no intention of stopping. " Fine." He just smiled as he looked at the doctor and downed the pills which he was surprised he even needed the water. " Are we done now? Cause I need to be somewhere else."
She just nodded as Alastor stood up but she handed the bag to Charlie. " If you have any questions or Lucifer my number is in there. But until he starts talking to someone these will all need to stay and I'm sorry for all of this." She handed Charlie the light and smiled.
" Thank you for helping him even if he doesn't show it." Charlie waved and she was gone.
They walked all the way to the courthouse where the trial was being held but due to the paparazzi at the front door , they went through the back . Apparently everyone out front wanted a picture of Alastor even some of the paparazzi tried sneaking in just for a picture of him. Thankfully Emily had made sure no one could even get near Alastor so they walked in with ease as they walked into the office. When they walked in Lucifer was standing there and quickly ran up to Alastor and hugged him. " Oh, I missed you!" He looked to see Amara and Charlie then pulled them into the hug. " I missed all of you, I don't ever want to be away from all of you ever again."
" Haha sorry to walk in but we're ready." Emily heard Alastor was here so she grabbed a few exorcists and walked over to them.
Amara turned to see the exorcist's gloves up holding angelic chains but it wasn't just a few. " I thought it would just be a pain of cuffs?"
" Sera fears her safety with Alastor and asked for him to now just be chained but restrained to a chair." Emily couldn't even look at them, she tried to fight the order but when it came to it they had to protect Sera. " I made sure they wouldn't muzzle you."
" That doesn't help! How do you expect him to open up about anything when he's chained to a chair!" Lucifer stood in front of Alastor as he used his wings to protect Alastor .
Before Emily could say anything an exorcist spoke. " We don't. That thing could lie so they will go through its memories."
" Emily? That's....that's not true right?" Charlie walked up to Emily but she sadly nodded making her quickly turn to her dad and Alastor. Only she didn't see Alasor from behind her dad's wings.
Amara moved to see her father who just sat down behind her dad as he just held his head. " Then he doesn't go. Sera gets free whatever but going through someone's mind and forcing Trama out is wrong. I thought this new council was supposed to be better."
" They are but Lilith went on and said Alastor was the only one who saw Sera and with his role in the void if anyone would lie it would be him. I know Alastor is above lying and I think it's wrong they want to do this so if he......" Emily didn't get a chance to finish before the exorcists started walking over. " If he doesn't want to go then he doesn't have to."
" Emily we got orders from high up that he is to be taken to the courtroom. He is still in Heaven's custody and if he fights we have been given orders to use force." She looked past Emily at Lucifer. " If any of try and stop us you will be locked up now move."
Amara didn't care about being locked up and when she looked at Charlie she was ready for a fight even their dad but when she looked at her father he didn't look like before then she saw it, he was shaking even holding himself as he rocked as he said something she couldn't even hear. " Stop......EVERYONE STOP!" She rushed over as she knelt down to see her father crying. " It's alright, Lucifer will be with you and we will be in here waiting.
" I....I don't want to be locked up or...or chained." He barely looked but he saw everyone looking at him making him shake harder. " Make it stop!"
" Once more then we can go see your mom alright? I miss seeing her and I know earlier you wanted to go back right." She saw him slowly nod. " You let them put those chains on and you do as they say which I know you are good at then you will brought right back here and we can go."
" They said no.......no I...I can't!"
Amara grabbed his hands as she smiled. " You can cause you're my father who can do everything. I know you're confused about everything going on but you have to go out there and we need you to stay with us. Let them get what they need and then we see your mom. I will call her once you walk out and tell her how good you have been doing."
Alastor didn't look at anyone just the floor as he stood up and slowly moved his hands out as they shook. He closed his eyes when he heard the chains get closer but as he was forced to his knees he felt the burn of the chain he opened his eyes to see the girl looking at him but as he moved for a moment he was slammed into the floor as he felt someone step on his back.
Lucifer was shocked to see Amara calm Alastor down but when he watched him be slammed to the ground he was about to yell but Amara stopped him. " He wasn't....."
" It's almost done." Amara forced herself to smile as she saw her father's face twisting with pain but to make it worse she saw another wheel in a chair. " What is...." Before she could ask she saw them force her father up and into the chair as they wrapped more chains around him but she saw him panicking and pulling. " You need to stay calm."
" I can't!" It was burning his skin but it was the chain around his chest that was too tight that made it all worse. Until the collar around his neck was chained to the back of the chair almost choking him. " I can't breathe!"
Charlie started to run over but a spear was quickly pointed at her neck stopping her. " He can't breathe!"
" He is fine." The exorcist turned around and looked at the others. " Alright let's go."
Lucifer checked Charlie out hugged the two and then ran out to follow Alastor who kept saying he couldn't breathe which worried him but Emily held his hand as they walked into the courtroom which was just the council and Sera. But as Alastor was wheeled out he saw the expressions of the council who were horrified seeing Alastor but he ran over to Alastor and grabbed his hand which was shaking despite the chains. " It's going to be fine just stay calm." He was terrified which hurt to see but as he was about to say more he was pulled away. " Stop it! You're scaring him!"
" Alastor, do you understand why you are here today and what we are going to do?"
" I can't breathe!" He saw their matching fear but he was still chained. " I want to go!"
" Can we lossen the restraints please?"
" Actually council I asked for him to be restrained due to the fear of my safety you see he may have killed thousands of our people and our brothers and sisters but he tore my wings from my back then.....then proceeded to......to torture me."
In the dark, you can't see faces but you can hear voices, and that one he knew. " No.......NO LET ME OUT OF HERE! I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG! I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING!"
" What do you mean Alastor? Who didn't want you to say anything?" But Alastor kept screaming and pulling to the point where he noticed blood. " Can we please lose the restraints he's hurting himself!"
Sera looked down at Alastor almost confused. " If we do that he will kill me if not all of us."
Something wasn't right but as he tried to run out there he was held back in a blink, he saw two exorcists walk out to Alastor and punch him to the point the council was screaming. He pushed his way through to Alastor as he held his face. " I'm sorry love....I'm so sorry." He turned to Sera. " What did you do?!
" Lucifer if you wish to stay by his side we will allow it but please don't address Sera again. Please play the memories."
Lucifer just held Alastor's hand as he held his ears as the video started but it was screaming.....horrifying scream, but he could hear the clinging of metal, the snaps of whips, and so much more but there were voices in the darkness he didn't know but it was what they said.
" I wonder how many times we killed this guy and he lived?"
" Haha, probably hundreds but geez this place is a wreak."
" Well, orders are to be here and make sure no of these freaks ever think about leaving. I like how she said by any......"
" There you two are what are.........is...is that Alastor?"
" Yeah, we figured have a change but he can't see us and I'm sure he can't hear either."
" Both of you go and if anyone asks you never saw him."
Alastor tried to move from Lucifer's hold but he couldn't. Even if Lucifer was holding his ears he heard. " No....no stop it.......STOP!"
" Shhh it's alright." Lucifer snapped a pair of headphones and carefully put them on Alastor as they played soft classical music for him but Alastor kept crying.
" Do you know who I am Alastor?"
" Y...yes.......your..your Sera an angel. Are you coming to take me back?"
" I'm sorry my child but no. I just needed to see this for myself but I didn't think you would remember me."
" I'm not your child and you knew I was down here..........you have known."
" You knew too but Lucifer is asking questions again and I can't have him knowing you alive or else he will try and bring you back. So I just need to erase all of it."
" Lucifer won't find me so you don't have to....."
" I can't take any chances Alastor and everything is easier without you in it. As long as you are down here your daughter will be safe."
" Don't touch her!"
The council stopped as they looked at Alastor. " Let him go now. We're.....we're sorry."
Lucifer looked down at Alastor as he wiped his own tears but Alastor was just looking at the floor speechless even as the chains were removed. " It's alright it's over."
" Sera do you have anything to say or must we watch more?"
Sera looked down at Alastor and then at the council. " I admit what I did was wrong but the void is a dangerous place that needed to be watched. Alastor was the only one of them who came to hell but when I found out what he was....he was dying and I thought he would. But something Roo said and I found out he wouldn't die. So I went back and I heard him but I only saw him that one time. It was easier for him to forget a life he couldn't have back then him spent years wishing or begging for one that would never come. He was never meant to see the light of day and this was better than him hating everything, I couldn't stop what Roo was doing to him cause he was her subject, but I could make it easier."
" I'm sorry council." Lucifer quickly looked at Sera as he held Alastor. " You didn't make it easier you made it worse. Roo changed his life he had to one that would make him side with her. You took his memories of his daughter and family which would have helped him stay whole. Sera look at him.....does he look like the same guy who tore your wings off or helped stop Roo?"
" It's called emotions Lucifer and......"
" It's called DID. His mind broke from everything so now he has two others in his head, this one is terrified, another is angry at everyone and wants everyone dead, and Alastor is confused and hurting. Now I know he's suffering and doesn't remember because of you!" Lucifer looked down to see Alastor shaking when he yelled so he kissed his head. " I'm sorry love." He turned to the council. " His mother was his whole world and Sera made him afraid of her except for this version who needs her. If any of you have children imagine watching them get sick and suffer then hold them as they die. Then to spend years morning your child's loss and all the time you lost only for them to come back and want you dead." He looked down at Alastor the council. " He did bad things but he saved heaven and he has to live every day of his life remembering that and more. He won't be who he was before but he wants to try being happy. Now can we go?"
" We the council ask for Alastor's collar to be removed at once and Lucifer we will keep your words at heart. As for Alastor's condition, we have been briefed on it, and since Heaven will be more suited to helping Alastor we want to offer our help in his recovery when the trial is over we will hold a meeting to discuss the void and review Alastor's progress. That will be all."
Lucifer just nodded as he helped Alastor up and walk out but he didn't say a word or even look at him. When he walked back to the room Charlie and Amara were quick to see something was wrong. " Let's go home alright? You girl alright with getting his mom?" They just nodded as they looked at Alastor but before leaving Charlie asked to speak with him outside of the room so he sat Alastor down and then walked out. " I know he's....."
Charlie explained everything the doctor told her and Amara as she handed her dad the bag. " It's been a few hours so just get home and if he will into pajamas. Amara told Grammie already and she made Alastor's favorite soup since I don't think he ever ate anything today."
" No, he got us all breakfast." Alastor wasn't eating with him this morning but he just assumed he ate before waking him up."
" Dad he went to Grammies's restaurant and he only ordered 3 meals. But it's alright just get him home and we will be there shortly." Charlie hugged her dad as she waved Amara out.
When Lucifer walked back in Alastor was still the same so he helped him up as he asked Emily to portal them home. Once they walked through Emily took the collar off and then left as he sat down beside Alastor. " It's been a long day and I would kill for a nap will you lay with me?"
He waited for an answer or anything but Alastor but stared at his hand. So he helped get Alastor's jacket off and snapped them into pajamas in the bed. Alastor turned to face away from him which hurt a little but he sucked it up as he laid there watching Alastor until he heard a knock on the door. He got up to answer it and it was Alastor's mom quickly running into Alastor. " It going to be alright honey, Mama is here now."
Lucifer wasn't sure what to do he just stood there as Alastor's mom ran her hand through Alastor's hair. " Um, Charlie told me they told them he would just be tired so........"
She placed a kiss on Alastor's forehead as he slept. " Lucifer you know I love you like a son but Alastor is my son and I think it would be best if I took him home with me."
" N...no I want him here with me and the rest of his family is here. I took care of him all those months he was sick and I can......." He didn't get a chance to finish as Alastor's mom walked over and made him walk out of the room.
" You could then but this is different, Lucifer. Amara told me about all of the medications he has to take and that their high doses. You have been clean for years, Lucifer but they told me how hard this will get and I don't want you to relapse. He......."
Lucifer was shocked and even took a step back as he looked at Alastor's mom. " I won't. The only reason I was like that was because I thought he was dead. He's not and I don't mind you staying to help but he is staying with me. Now if you excuse me he needs me." Lucifer walked in before Alastor's mom could say anything and he quickly got into the bed and grabbed his stuffed duck Alastor gave him, Alastor may have been asleep but he was clinging to the pillow as if it was someone so he carefully put it in Alastor's arms and as he though Alastor curled up to it as he slept. " We can share it for now but when you're feeling better it's mine again." Slowly he moved closer as he sat there, he noticed Alastor shaking so he gently scratched behind his ear to relax him only to his surprise, Alastor turned over and grabbed him. It seemed to work, and he slowly scratched Alastor's back. " It's going to be alright my love, cause I got you."
Notes:
Will Lucifer be able to help Alastor as he adjusts to the meds, or will he snap? How will Alastor be as he adjusts? Will Sera be found guilty, and if so, what will happen to her? What are the side effects of Alastor's medications? Will everything be too much for Amara and Charlie to be around? Will the emergency bottle be used? How will the council now proceed with Alastor's case? Will Lilith try to reach back out to Alastor or Lucifer?
4 chapters: What may happen? Guess you will just have to come back and find out. So until tomorrow......bye.
Chapter 27: Adjustment Period
Summary:
Lucifer and Alastor's mom helped Alastor as he adjusted to the medication, only he hardly spoke or did anything. Finally, he spoke, but it wasn't what Lucifer was prepared to hear so to try and ease Alastor's pain he cut's the stichs off Alastor's smile hoping it would help only it didn't. It only made matters worse as he finds Alastor later that night, putting the stitches back. When his Alastor comes forward, everything becomes easier and more routine, but it only lasts a few days until a crowd of shadows appears one morning when Alastor won't wake up.
Notes:
The first section is a bit dark, just a heads up, but I did get some cute radioapple in to help balence everything out. Anyways enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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He never minded being in bed for days, and he had done it before, but this wasn't like those other times. He had Alastor with him, which he never thought would happen, much less him spending days in bed without being sick like before. But it wasn't fun cause Alastor hardly said a word or moved besides rolling onto his other side. At first, Amara and Charlie came in to help. Still, Lucifer knew Alastor wouldn't want them to see him like this so he asked Charlie to keep Amara at the hotel until Alastor was better. Alastor's mom, on the other hand, hadn't left, not even after he stuck his ground. She made sure Alastor ate and took his meds, which she kept with her cause she was worried about both of them. He didn't argue, but he stayed with Alastor in that bed it was going on day 4 when he wouldn't eat much less look at any of them, which hurt like hell, but he had to be strong.
At night normally Alastor would curl up to him but that night he never moved which scared him a little. " Alastor, do you need anything?" He knew he wouldn't get an answer but he always tried.
" I want it all to stop."
It was the first time in days since he heard Alastor speak but as excited as he was it didn't even sound like him. There was no radio filter or even the charm it was sad and almost exhausting. " You want what to stop?" He moved closer as he scratched behind Alastor's ear which always stood up but the last few days they have laid against his head.
Alastor slowly moved to lie on his back as he looked at Lucifer with a pained smile. " All of it."
As he was about to ask what Alastor meant, he put it together as he gently rubbed Alastor's cheek. " You don't mean that it's just the meds that's all."
" I do." Alastor slowly grabbed Lucifer's hand and moved it away from him. " For thousands of years, I have asked and begged. I even ripped my own heart out but....but I won't die."
Lucifer just shook his head as he looked at Alastor. " You're not there anymore Alastor you're free to live however you want. You even said you would try this life you had and be with your family, your daughter."
" I will never be free, I will never be happy or free until......"
He couldn't hear him say it, everything in him told him it was the meds, but even if that's true it hurt to hear that come out of his mouth. " Please don't say that. I know everything is hard right now but in a few days it will be over and we can go back to laughing and hell.....figuring out how you feel about me." Alastor just looked at him but it was the stitched smile he couldn't stand as he saw tears forming in his eyes. So he snapped a pair of angelic scissors. " This will help." In a few snips, they pulled the thread away and as he looked at Alastor, he frowned and he couldn't hold back his own tears as he laid down and held him carefully. " We're going to be fine, Alastor and you will too." He just laid there listening to the radio as he watched the fire dance until he fell asleep.
Lucifer would have slept until morning if it wasn't for hearing Alastor laughing. When he opened his eyes he was cuddling the stuffed duck but there was no Alastor which quickly made him get up and run over to the bathroom where he heard the laughing. Only when he walked in did he see Alastor standing there laughing as he looked in the mirror. " Alastor is everything alright?" As he walked further in he saw the blood in the sink and on Alastor but it was when Alastor turned to him he saw it. Alastor had restitched his smile. " W....why would....." He was horrified and Alastor just kept laughing until he looked in the mirror quickly the laughing stopped and he looked at himself shocked almost as terrified as him. He saw the tears quickly fall on Alastor as he touched his mouth shaking. " It's going to be alright I can......"
" W...why?" He was shaking worse but as he looked at Lucifer he saw the fear in his eyes looking at him so he looked at the mirror again only then did he get a flashback making him see Roo in the mirror. " No.....no you died."
" Oh I'm alive Alastor and I'm coming for you."
"No!..... No, leave me alone!" He started to back away, but when he looked at the wall, it was covered in eyes. " Stop!"
" You can hide but I will always find you Alastor and when I do you will never see the light again. If you think Lucifer or anyone can stop me then you are wrong cause not only did you betray me but you LET LUCIFER KILL ME!"
" I.....I didn't....that wasn't me!" The bathroom he was standing in was gone and it was the pit. " No.......NO LET ME OUT!!"
Lucifer just watched in horror until he snapped back together and hurried to the floor but as he grabbed Alastor's arm he was quickly scratched deeply making him fall back as he held his arm which was bleeding faster than he thought it would and strangely it was burning like bad. " Shit.......Alastor come on snap out of it please!" Alastor just kept screaming even Alastor's mom ran in and saw him but as she ran to Alastor he yelled. " Don't!"
Alastor's mom looked at Lucifer confused until she saw the puddle of golden blood on the floor. When she looked back at Alastor he was terrified and screaming to get out or to stop which she didn't understand. It took a moment then the idea hit and she ran out and grabbed the light the doctor sent and Charlie told her would force the switch. As she ran back in and flashed him she kept her distance by helping Lucifer with the bleeding. " Alley?"
The last thing he remembered was going to the court house and now he was on Lucifer's bathroom floor. Strangely his face hurt yet again he had his blood on him but as he looked at his hand he saw gold making him quickly look and see Lucifer holding his arm which was bleeding fast as he saw his mother who he didn't focus on. " I did that?"
" It's alright Alastor I'll heal but are you alright?" It was burning more and more but he tried to cover the fact it was hurting more.
He could see Lucifer was in pain. " I don't know how I got here but you won't heal if I did that."
" What are you talking about Alley?" Alastor's mom grabbed a pair of scissors and cut Lucifer's sleeve off when she pulled it off she saw the deep claw marks but there was black inside of the cut. " What is that?"
" My hands are bloodied with my blood if I did that......" Why would he hurt Lucifer? Why couldn't he remember?
Lucifer quickly put it together as he looked at Alastor and Alastor's mother in horror. " It will kill me like it did you and....and almost Vaggie." Alastor just nodded but as he saw Alastor move closer he saw him grabbing his head more and more. " What's wrong?"
" N....nothing I can heal it." As he reached for Lucifer's arm he noticed his hands were shaking. " What's wrong with me?" He shook his hands and then grabbed Lucifer's arm as his hand started to glow. " This might hurt."
" Please, I am fine with a little........OH FUCK!" It felt as if his arm was dipped in lava but as he yelled out he laid his head on Alastor's shoulder as he cried.
When he let go he heard Lucifer still crying so he slowly pulled him into a hug as Lucifer's memories showed. " See not even a scar."
As Lucifer looked at his arm he was shocked not only was it healed but there was no mark, no new scar. " Wow......thank you."
" It's the least I can do since I hurt you." As he let go he saw his mother staring at him. " How long has it been since heaven?"
Lucifer looked up at Alastor. " 4 days." He saw the shock and just held Alastor again. " It's alright I was with you the whole time and your mom...."
He stood up looking at himself then Lucifer. " It's not alright, Lucifer. I am missing time and it's not just a few hours but days. I thought those pills were supposed to help?"
" Honey......" Alastor's mom stood up but as she walked over to Alastor his eyes went black.
" You don't get to say a word to me. I don't care if I have your memories 'cause I know who you are." He calmed down and looked at Lucifer.
As much as he hated seeing Alastor look at his mother like that he understood why he couldn't just forget what was put into his head. " How about we clean up and in the morning I will call. But she said it would take some time to adjust." Lucifer walked over to Alastor slowly as he grabbed his hands. "We're both bloody here, haha." Alastor just nodded so he walked out with Alastor's mom. " You know he doesn't mean it right?"
" I know it.....it just hurts seeing him like this. Can't Emily give him his memory's back?" Alastor's mom looked at the bathroom door as she heard the shower start.
Lucifer looked at the door with Alastor's mom then looked back at her. " I don't know if he wants it cause even if he has his memories he would still have the ones he has now. I can ask him again."
" Is it horrible I want the scared version back? I know that alter is suffering when it's out but.....but I get to hold him and be close again. He gives me hugs that Alastor hasn't given me since he was a boy." All she wanted was her son back which came true but he wasn't himself and he was pained. All that time wishing and now that it came true she hates that at times she wonders if it would have been better for Alastor to be dead.
Lucifer just hugged her for a moment. " It's alright to be selfish every now and then. But........oh shit!" Lucifer totally forgot they weren't supposed to leave Alastor alone and quickly ran to the door as he listened in. He ended up sitting at the door waiting even after the shower turned off. When he heard the Alastor walk to the door he quickly snapped himself clean and ready for bed again on the bed. So when Alastor opened the door he was lying on his side looking at the door. " How was the shower?"
As he walked to the bed he just looked at Lucifer who quickly sat up. " You listened, didn't you? Cause the doctor lady said I wasn't to be left alone."
" Sorry?" Lucifer shyly smiled as he grabbed the stuffed duck. " I love you."
He rolled his eyes as he sat down in the bed but as he did he felt his headache again making him grab his head until it passed. When he looked up Lucifer looked at him worried. " I'm fine really. I'm probably just tired."
How could Alastor be tired? He couldn't make Alastor feel worse so he just hugged him. " Love, do.....do you remember going to the courtroom with the council?"
As he laid down he thought back. " No last thing I remember was you pulling your wings out. Why? Did something happen?"
" Last thing then we sleep. In the void did you ever hear or see Sera?" Lucifer couldn't get the moment out of his head.
Alastor looked down at Lucifer who laid his head on his chest and looked up at him. " I only heard Roo talk about her and the exorcists. I guess they never went that far down. Why?"
Lucifer looked down at Alastor's shirt and reached for a button then stopped. " Can I sleep on your chest fluff? Please?"
" Something happend in that court room didn't it?" Lucifer didn't look at him so he took it as a yes. " You can sleep on.....my chest fluff.....if you tell me."
Not the chest fluff being held against him. Lucifer put a hand through the gap between the buttons on Alastor's shirt as he felt the hair. " Love I need you to just trust me when I say right now isn't the right time for you to know. I will tell you when you're better. Chest fluff? Please?"
Trust wasn't easy but it was Lucifer who he found himself trusting so he just nodded. But feeling Lucifer's hand on his bare skin felt nice and he didn't want to see Lucifer sad. " Alright."
He was like a child in a candy store as he quickly unbuttoned the first few buttons on Alastor's shirt and quickly made himself comfortable to the point he was almost lying on top of Alastor. " Mmmm.....night."
Alastor just thought the whole thing was hilarious, but as Lucifer got comfortable, he ran his hand through Lucifer's hair. " Night."
Every night with Alastor gave him the best sleep he had since before Alastor passed away so for it to be back when he thought he would never sleep so good to be back was amazing. But it was never as good as he slept last night, each inhaled was Alastor's woody and almost burnt scent that drove him crazy, the thud of each heartbeat meant Alastor was real and not some stuffed animal or some dream, it also made him just feel closer to Alastor. When he woke up and saw Alastor on his side still asleep but he was curled up against Alastor's chest, so he moved closer as nuzzled his face against it, enjoying every sensation. As he did, Alastor moved to his back while still remaining asleep but he took him with him, which he loved as he laid on top of Alastor.
After a while, he opened his eyes again but he couldn't help but run his hands through Alastor's chest fluff. As he did he started to slow when he saw underneath the fur were scars but they were claw marks which quickly had him stop as he looked at Alastor. He seemed so peaceful despite everything and as much as he wanted to let him sleep he knew it was only a matter of time before someone came knocking and it scared Alastor awake. So he slowly moved up as he moved Alastor's hair from his face and gently kissed his cheek and then neck. As he did he felt Alastor's hand on his lower back so he stopped and looked at Alastor as he slowly woke up. " Morning my love."
Alastor opened his eyes to see Lucifer but he couldn't help but laugh for a moment when he saw Lucifer's hair. " That's funny dear but I am going back to sleep."
It took a moment for him to realize what was so funny and quickly saw Alastor look at his hair. " Sorry not all of us have amazing hair like you do my love. Can you fix it for me then we can get some breakfast?"
When Lucifer lowered his head he ran his hand through Lucifer's hair a few times then closed his eyes. " I'm not really hungry but......go ahead."
The last time Alastor ate anything was almost 2 days ago and if it became 2 days Alastor's mom would call and she already said she would. What they would do was a surprise to him but he wasn't chancing it. " Love, you need to eat even if it's little. Amara went with Rosie to some store you and her went to and she brought you some. I can bring it up and then you can go back to sleep." He just shook his head. " Please Alastor if not for you then for me? Just a little is all I am asking."
Alastor turned to look Lucifer in the eyes and say no but it was his mistake and he couldn't. " Fine."
Lucifer giggled and kissed Alastor then got up but before he walked out he pulled the comforter over Alastor as he turned to his side. " I don't think I say it enough but I love you so much." He teleported to the kitchen as he rushed to the fridge as Alastor's mom looked at him.
She had made breakfast but was going to give the two some time to sleep in before she knocked. " I made breakfast, honey"
He looked at there was a plate for him. " Sweet and I will eat that but I told him about what Amara brought and he said he would eat some."
" Oh that's wonderful I was beginning to worry he looks like he's lost weight since day one." She walked over hugged Lucifer then handed him his breakfast. " I will be up in an hour with meds."
Getting Alastor to eat was hard but pills were a whole other thing that involved lying so hopefully it would be easier with Alastor upfront. When he got back to the room he got back into bed and kissed Alastor's cheek which woke him up. " Here you go love and if you want more I grab more."
Slowly he forced himself to sit up but as he did everything ached even his head hurt more so he laid his head on Lucifer's shoulder and forced himself to eat as he did he looked at Lucifer's plate already almost empty. " Am I just slow or are you just that hungry?"
Lucifer laid his head on Alastor's as he giggled. " I am fast 'cause it's good how is yours?"
Alastor looked down at his plate. " I....I guess it's fine." He didn't taste anything which he hoped would just go away so he ate the last piece and then laid back down to sleep.
When he finished his last bite he looked over at Alastor to find him fast asleep but his plate was empty which he was happy about. He snapped the dishes away and then laid down with Alastor until he heard a knock at the door. Alastor tried to open his eyes but went back to sleep so he kissed his cheek and whispered. " It's fine my love." He sat up as Alastor's mom walked in with the little cup of pills and water.
" How is he?" Before she would have woken Alastor up and helped him take the pills but she didn't want to make him upset.
" Tired but he ate so he can be as tired as he wants." Lucifer smiled as he ran his hand through Alastor's hair as Alastor moved to lay on his lap. " Do you think we could wait?"
" If we do then it will just make this last longer and we both know he wouldn't want to be bedridden longer than he needed. The schedule helps." She handed the cups to Lucifer. " I need to run by the restaurant so I will be back in a few but I will be back before his next round."
He just nodded and Alastor's mom left as he looked down at Alastor and then set the cups down. Gently he ran his hand through Alastor's hair then kissed him a few times before he slowly woke up. " Sorry last time I swear but you have to take your meds." Alastor just sighed and slowly moved to sit up as he grabbed the cups and handed them to Alastor. " See you take yours at the same time as me." Lucifer grabbed his pill calendar as he looked for today.
After he had downed all the pills, he looked over at Lucifer. " You have one of those things old people have."
" Charlie gave it to me 'cause I sucked at remembering and she put the little ducks so I wouldn't lose it either." Lucifer found the day and grabbed the pills inside when he looked at Alastor he was laying down already so he downed his quickly and then laid back down. " You know you're definitely going to get one now right?"
" Kill me now." He thought he would get a laugh or little giggle but nothing and when he looked Lucifer looked worried. " It was a joke."
" I'm not laughing Alastor." Even his smile was gone from Alastor's so-called joke.
" Apologies." He opened his arms. " Would me holding you work?"
Lucifer just looked at Alastor for a moment then quickly moved into Alastor's arms as he felt Alastor's hand on his waist. " You know it always will just no more jokes about you dying I don't like them."
" Okay." Alastor rested his cheek on Lucifer's head. " Did you know I was shot in the middle of my forehead and I died?"
" Fucking asshole." Lucifer rolled his eyes as he heard a faint laugh come from Alastor.
If Lucifer's memories were right then Lucifer called him an asshole a lot before and he always had a similar response. " Oh, but I'm your asshole."
Lucifer quickly held Alastor's hand as he felt himself tearing up not just because Alastor used to say that before but because Alastor called him his. " Oh, Alastor...." He kissed his hand but he didn't hear anything more so he happily fell asleep.
Amara had asked for updates on her father after her dad asked for her and Charlie to stay at the hotel since her father wouldn't want them to see him like that. She understood but she was still worried she never got her updates from her dad so she called her Grammie who started giving her the updates and she would tell Charlie. But when she heard about last night and her dad getting hurt she quickly ran to tell Charlie who was in the middle of a trust exercise but she pulled her away and told her. " What would have happend if it was somewhere else or he couldn't heal him? Charlie, I'm worried and I know I shouldn't but maybe it would be easier on Dad if......"
" Amara I know what you're about to say but Dad will never go for it. I agree I am worried but I trust them." Charlie grabbed Amara's hands. " Alastor healed Vaggie and he healed Dad but I know he didn't mean it. Alastor would never lay a hand on Dad even if he's annoying because he saw abusive relationships first hand and he never wanted to be that way. From our time in heaven, I see how much he cares for Dad even without his old memories. Hell, we walked into them caring."
" Oh please don't remind me. But Charlie......" Amara never told Charlie about their dad's relapses cause it was just hard for her to know and it wasn't for her to tell. " I just don't want Dad to think all of this is on him, that after the next few days, he will be himself again. I don't know how Dad will even function without my father around which is why I think if it gets bad me, you, and Grammie take him to heaven even if Dad is pissed."
" Only if and I don't think......" Then she remembered one of Alastor's alters. " He will be a wreck if we do that Amara."
" He will be worse if something happens or an alter comes out and hurts himself or someone else." Amara looked at Charlie as she thought. " We can't lose both of them Charlie.......I....I can't lose my father when I just barely got him back."
Charlie saw where Amara was coming from and she thought back to their dad when Alastor first died. She remembered watching him go through withdrawal and making the life-or-death decision for their Dad. " Alright."
Amara watched Charlie walk out as she called her grandmother to tell her about what Charlie and her just talked about and slowly she came around and agreed but as she hung up Angel stood there making her jump. " Oh geez, Angel you can't....."
Angel overheard Amara's phone call with Alastor's mom about taking Alastor to heaven if he tries to hurt himself or someone else again but they wanted to do it without Lucifer's permission. " Kid I get where you comin' from with this plan but you do that to your dad and he will fight tooth and nail to get to Al or shut down which no one wants. Your Dad barely made it a few hours with Al how do you think a day or even weeks if not longer without Alastor will be on him?"
" Angel he's my father and I don't want to lose him again and neither his mother." Amara went to walk about but Angel stood in the way,
Angel became close to Lucifer cause Alastor died not because he felt bad but because he knew Lucifer needed someone to help take his heartbreak away. " No one wants to lose him Amara but your Dad needs Alastor kinda like a drug. You stop taking the drug or Alastor goes away suddenly which leads to withdrawal. You were a baby when Al died so you never saw Lucifer the way we did, you never had to watch him scream for Alastor, or see him at his low. I did, I was there for him when he just stopped speaking or at Al's funeral when Lucifer could barely get out of bed. Alastor is everything to that man and even if your intentions are good it will kill him." Angel took a moment to calm down. " Look if he does anything Luci will get Al help cause he doesn't want to lose Al as much if not more than you."
All she knew was that after her father did her dad hit the lowest point in his life and she had to stay with her grandmother or Vaggie and Charlie. " Angel you will tell me the truth so I need you to tell me what my dad became addicted to?"
" Kid I can't tell you that only he can. I should get back before I miss that new girl flirting with Husk terribly." Angel rushed out but he was almost tempted to text Lucifer about Amara he figured Lucifer's hands were full at the moment so it was better to keep it to himself for now.
Amara just wanted answers, ones she knew her dad wouldn't tell her. So she couldn't help but worry so to take her mind off she joined Vaggie and Niffty with the trust exercise.
Lucifer found himself in a pattern when he needed to wake Alastor up he just had to kiss him a few times and it worked which he didn't mind. Then to eat all he had to do was give Alastor a sad look and he ate or took his meds. It was great so as long as his Alastor stayed upfront then in the next few days this would be over. But he thought that too soon cause 3 days later when he went to kiss Alastor to wake up he was curled up to himself which he quickly realized it was one of the alter who was afraid. So when Alastor's mother came in with the meds he told her which she seemed slightly happy about but he understood if this was going on with Amara or Charlie and they suddenly looked at him disgusted or with hate he too would be happy when they liked him.
Just like most of the first morning, he ran his hand through Alastor's hair as he softly spoke. " Alastor, wakey wakey."
Nothing so Alastor's mom sat on the bed as she did the same. " Alley you need to wake up honey I have some breakfest and....."
As he watched Alastor's mom go on he looked away for a moment when he saw something move when he looked closer he saw several shadows and they looked anything but happy. " Um.....we should stop."
" Lucifer he needs....." She looked at Lucifer but saw him looking behind her so she looked to see Alastor's shadows but when she looked behind Lucifer there were more. " You can kill these things right if you needed to?"
Lucifer looked around only to see more forming. " Yeah but not this many without someone getting hurt." He looked back at Alastor who just held himself tighter. " Come on love I need you to wake up please." When he looked back up there were black spears pointed at his neck. " Um....." He started to raise his hands but he was quickly knocked off the bed into the wall as he stood up they circled him and Alastor's mom who was standing beside the bed. " We're not hurting him I swear."
Alastor's mother saw a few shadows go to Alastor's side and checked him out. " We only want to help I swear. I would never hurt my son." As the shadows all shared looks at each other she looked at Lucifer who had daggers pointed at him to the point the slightest movement would puncture him. " What do we do?"
" I....I don't know." He tried to think of a way out of this but anything he tried someone was getting hurt and these weapons looked deadly to them. So he watched the shadows until they all snapped a look at him. " Oh shit." They looked at him pissed but there was one who looked worried. " Come on you are all smart and see something is wrong with him. You know he doesn't want me to get hurt so if you do when he wakes up he will be pissed so please. He needs us." The shadows by Alastor looked at everyone then suddenly the daggers were gone as they all went over to Alastor. But as he rushed over he just saw a flash of red then he was gone. " No......No where....."
" Lucifer." She walked over to Lucifer who was spinning in circles looking for Alastor.
"Nowhere is he?!" He looked under the bed and even used his powers to try and find Alastor but nothing.
She grabbed Lucifer's shoulders as she looked at him. " They took him home Lucifer." Lucifer just looked at her teary-eyed so she hugged him as he broke down into hard cries.
Notes:
Where did Alastor go? How long will Alastor be gone for? How will Lucifer handle Alastor being gone? Will Amara get the answers she's looking for? Was Sera found guilty? If so, what is her punishment?
More to come..................................bye.
Chapter 28: Radio Silence
Summary:
Amara and Charlie find out what happend to Alastor and rush to be at Lucifer's side as Vaggie helps calm everyone down so they can think. Lucifer, Charlie, and Amara go to heaven to talk to Sera about the void since she knew more than Lucifer did. Only she asks for Lucifer to make a deal with her that would save her life in hell if she fell, which Lucifer refuses. As the weeks go on and the radio suddenly cuts out after a week, Lucifer and everyone start to believe Alastor is dead, and Lucifer can't get himself out of bed. Amara was beginning to accept that her father was dead, but then an idea hit her, which turned out better than she thought, only she hit a dead end.
Notes:
So there is a lot going on, but listen to the wording, especially in the last section of the chapter. Enjoy
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Amara and the hotel were cleaning up from breakfast when Charlie got a call and walked away, which Vaggie and her thought was strange but they let her be as they cleaned up. But as they were a couple of minutes later, Charlie ran in yelling at her. " Amara, we need to go now!"
" Go where?" She placed the dish down as she looked at Vaggie, who was walking over to Charlie.
" Babe, what's going on?" Vaggie picked Charlie's hands up into hers as she looked Charlie in the eyes as she saw she was worried. " It's Alastor isn't it?"
" Did he do something?" Amara rushed over as she looked at Charlie worried.
Charlie shook her head as she looked at Vaggie and Amara. " He's gone."
" GONE!?" There were many things gone could mean but Charlie was worried so either her father left which would be hard since he barely moved so it could only mean the other version.
" Grammie called me and said some of Alastor's shadows showed up and circled her and Dad. But they were fine, but when they left they took Alastor with them and she said Dad is a mess. He hasn't stopped crying or even moved from the ground." One thing she knew for sure was if they lost Alastor again they would lose their Dad for good. He barely made it when Alastor died and he almost died but if he had to go through that again she feared he would crumble.
" We need to get over there." Amara grabbed Charlie's hand as Vaggie held on still and vanished them to their dad's room. He was curled up into himself on the floor screaming in tears and Charlie was quick to run to him.
" It's going to be alright Dad you know Alastor won't stay gone long. He...." Charlie helped her dad sit up but he moved away from her. " Dad..."
" You don't know that! None of us do! He.....he wasn't himself for 4 days Charlie! Who's to say it can't be longer or that shadow's even let him go!" It was all happening all over again but this time he didn't even get to say goodbye or even prepare himself like Alastor had before.
Amara couldn't argue cause they really didn't know much about the void but her dad read everything there was to know about the place so she looked around until she spotted the stuffed duck and grabbed it and sat down on the ground as she handed it to him. He clung to the stuffed duck like it was her father. " Dad you read all about the void so if anyone knows it will be you. So take a deep breath and calm down so we can think."
With each breath, he held the duck tighter until he thought back to his years of reading. " I.... I know the place gets no light and ..... and the void is chaos but ..... but the place circled around Roo. Nothing happend without her knowing but ..... but she's dead."
" She is but wasn't the word around that Alastor since he was strongest and her right hand in theory would take her role?" Vaggie looked at all of them just as Alastor's mom walked in. " Roo was cursed never to leave but Alastor never was so maybe they needed him to take the role or help find someone who could?"
" If anyone would know this it would be Sera." Alastor's mom walked over as she looked at everyone. " She gave Lucifer what she wanted him to know so who's to say there's not more? Heaven was supporting Alastor after the trial and Sera is being sentenced today so maybe we can talk to her before."
Lucifer looked at himself as he felt hot tears fall down his face. " I...I can't. What if he comes back or.....or he needs me and I'm gone?"
" Dad heaven might help if Charlie asks but if you do, the guy who suffered more from Sera's actions asked they can't say no. Also, you told me how Papa never took no for an answer but you will?" Amara handed her Dad a tissue as she looked at him. " If the roles were switched do you think he would be on the floor crying ? No, he would b e out there doing everything he can to get you back."
Why did she have to be right? He just nodded as Charlie and Amara helped him up and he snapped himself dressed. " Let's go get Alastor back."
Alastor's mom agreed to stay back in case Alastor returned as he, Amara, and Charlie headed up to heaven. Charlie called Emily and told her about Alastor on the way and how they needed to talk to Sera she said she would talk to the council but when they got there she said the council wouldn't hear her out so he walked into their chambers. " I'm sorry to come in like this but I need you to allow me at least to see Sera please."
" Why?"
" I need to ask her about the void, Alastor's shadows just came and took him and I need to know he's alright, please. Sera know s a lot about the void so I want to ask her...." Lucifer saw all of them looking at each other as he spoke.
" Mr. Morningstar, we agreed to help Alastor due to Sera's actions and what they caused but that doesn't mean you get to come into our chambers asking us for help when...."
" I read about the void depending on Eve or Roo whatever we want to call her but she's gone. We think they took Alastor to have him take her place and I need to know what this means and if it's even the case. Look the longer he's in there the harder it will be to bring him forward again. Please you can all watch if you want I don't care but I can't leave him down there .... not again." They all looked at each other again some understanding others not. " Look you have no reason to help us at all but would you rather leave him down there and all of this happen again or help and keep him on your side? He helped me kill Roo in the belief that heaven would change , he saved heaven when he could have destroyed it. He still could, especially after how your exorcists tortured him or chained him up or even them hurting me."
" Mr. Moringstar, we're sorry about......"
" Are enemy of our enemy is our friend. His daughter said that to us, Alastor could be an ally or enemy, and if he's strong enough to destroy heaven, then maybe he could be an ally. Isn't that why we wanted to help him? Why are all of us even here? We make the void are enemy, then we're no better than Sera or the old council. We were chosen to do better, to be the good that we stopped being."
" Alright, Mr. Morningstar, you and you only may see Sera but one of us will go with you."
Lucifer just nodded as he saw a council member get up and show him out as they walked over to the cells beside the courtroom where he found Sera sitting and looking out the window. " Sera I need you to tell me why Alastor's shadows took him?"
Sera slowly turned to Lucifer. " Why would I help you?"
" Cause if you're an angel then you will do what's right, you will do right by Alastor and help me." Lucifer stepped to the line on the floor as he looked at Sera.
She stood up and looked at Lucifer. " Fine but I have questions like how Alastor remembered that when I erased his mind." Lucifer didn't answer so she started. " Was he just sitting there or was something going on?"
" You erased his memory but my guess is not the others in his head and he was adjusting to medication to help him stay in control." Lucifer started to fidget with his ring as he looked at Sera. " He barely is able to get out of bed and barely is eating. I guessed it was the void needing a ruler."
" You're right the void needs a ruler but Roo never chose one and if it's up to them I guess they will want the strongest but I don't think they needed a fight or brawl to figure it out. Alastor the moment Roo was dead became their king but even in hell or maybe even heaven those shadows or his people will do whatever to keep him safe. So if he was bedridden for days and not eating Alastor probably got too weak or they were afraid he would die so they took him. Not to hurt him I wouldn't think. But the void will make him feel better. Now what do you mean others?"
Lucifer looked at the councilmen then Sera. " I guess when you took his memories of his life he didn't have anything to hold onto and he broke. I....I don't blame him especially how long he was down there but luckily there's only two other's in his head." Sera seemed shocked. " What did you expect you left him with a woman who wanted him to suffer and he did more without knowing who he was. But how long will Alastor need to be in the void and can he come up?"
" It could be hours for us or days I don't know. But with him in charge, he can change anything he wants so he might be longer you never know."
" I want to go down there." Lucifer stood his ground as they both looked at him shocked.
" Um....travel to the void isn't allowed right now Lucifer ."
Sera crossed her arms as she looked at Lucifer. " You wouldn't make it down there Lucifer and he's right travel to the void isn't allowed right now and it's for the best. All of those souls want payback for you killing there queen."
" I....I just want to know he will come back....... that he's okay." All he needed to do was make sure he didn't cry in front of Sera and he could feel himself tearing up so he quickly turned away and started to walk away.
" Lucifer wait!" When Lucifer turned back at her she spoke. " I know how you can make sure he's okay."
" How?" The tears quickly sucked up with hope until he saw Sera smile. " What do you want for it?"
" We both know I am guilty and I won't lie but.....but I caused pain to hundreds and green-lit the exterminations so I will most likely fall like you did Lucifer so I.....I need you to make a deal with me that makes sure Alastor can't kill me or hurt me in any way." Lucifer just laughed. " I did some good in my time Lucifer like getting you help which I kept secret."
" You did that cause you felt bad for me. Cause you knew Alastor was alive but you kept it from me which was the whole reason I needed help. I want Alastor to find you and hell I want to help him. Screw you Sera." Lucifer turned to leave but stopped as Sera spoke.
" Lucifer, did you ever think those shadows or souls down there wouldn't find out about you and Alastor? How he help you kill their beloved queen? Maybe they took him to pay for killing their queen and beraying them for you. Admit it Lucifer you need me and...."
" Sera get one thing clear if or when you fall I will be your king and you didn't just tear my family apart but you hurt them. You hurt the man I love and you made my daughters cry so I don't need you." Lucifer just turned and walked away. He walked all the way to Charlie and Amara and then told them what Sera said. " I want to go home now."
Charlie hugged her dad as Emily opened the portal back to the palace and helped her dad to bed. Amara stayed downstairs with Alastor's mom telling her what Sera said. As she walked in she helped her dad take his jacket off and get into bed as he grabbed the stuffed duck. " Do you need anything, Dad?"
" Y...yeah." Lucifer just looked at Alastor's side of the bed now empty and cold. " I....I want him back..."
" Oh, Dad." Charlie sat down on the bed as she ran her hand through her dad's hair as he cried. " Maybe when Sera falls Alastor will come for her."
" W...why can't he come back for me? I....I thought he cared about me or even lov......" He held the duck tighter as he cried with a broken heart.
He was heartbroken which she couldn't fix but she laid down behind him and hugged him as he just cried harder. " I love you, Dad and I saw how happy Alastor is with you so I know he cares. He never wants to hurt you and do you think he would kiss you if it meant nothing much less sleep with you?"
Alastor could just be trying to force all of it to make him happy. Alastor might be getting close to him just to see if he wants to stick around. He feared most that Alastor would get better and decide he didn't want to be a part of their family and then leave. If Alastor was the king of the void then he had to be in the void not in hell. He couldn't handle another heartbreak or someone leaving him again he just couldn't do it again and he couldn't put his family through dealing with him again.
In the void, he knew time was much faster but for him, it had felt like years of laying in bed crying and missing Alastor when it had only just reached a week. He couldn't get himself up to shower much less eat, he never felt hungry, he got to the point where he had run out of tears and spent most of his time as a snake hidden under the comforter to the point he didn't know what time of day it was. Everyone came to try and get him up but he just slithered farther down into the bed as he laid on himself. But never was able to be alone even when asked and even started to beg to be alone he would slither up to Alastor's pillow and see someone sitting in the chair so he just moved back down into the bed.
Shutting the world out made the pain go numb but when someone came to talk to him or introduced some light it brought everything forward again. Amara did tell him that Sera's sentencing was pushed for a couple of weeks until Alastor arrived since he had to be there and he wouldn't go to Sera's sentencing without Alastor. Everyone tried but he just couldn't get up to the point Charlie called Oz and Belphagor but neither could get him up.
The radio stayed playing throughout the day and night which did give him the slightest bit of comfort but he quickly woke up when he heard it stopped suddenly. Slowly he slithered up the bed as he looked only no one was in the room so he transformed into himself and snapped the radio back on but nothing played so he quickly ran to the radio. " No no no!!" He tried everything but the radio wouldn't play anything but a buzz as he started crying to the point his legs gave out and he fell to the floor holding himself. " Please......please don't do this again Alastor! PLEASE!"
Charlie had been staying at the palace in her old room with Vaggie but tonight Amara slept with her since Vaggie had to stay at the hotel which was hard but Vaggie face-timed her when she got into bed and she was in bed with Amara. But she quickly woke up with Amara when they heard their dad screaming and they both ran in to find him screaming and crying just like the morning Alastor left but he was by the radio that was silent. She rushed with Amara to the floor as they held their dad as he screamed. " Dad it doesn't mean.....'
" It went out when he....he died!" Lucifer felt sick as his world slammed into him and it quickly broke into thousands of pieces like his heart.
Amara never heard the radio out but she hoped their dad was wrong as she looked at Charlie she saw her in tears. " No....he....he can't....we....we just got him back."
Charlie hugged her dad but she opened her arms for Amara as she shook her head. " I hope it's not that but if....."
" NO!" Amara quickly stood up as she looked at the two. " You're wrong! He couldn't!!"
When it happened the first time Amara was a baby she cried like she normally did without Alastor around but for her to be grown and get her father back just for this.....he needed to be her dad but he couldn't even look at her.
" Amara he is the radio it stopped until Niffty started playing it again but Alastor never went silent for this long." Amara slowly broke into tears as she quickly pulled her into the hug. " No.....no matter what we....we still have each other....we....we are still a family." Neither could say anything which she understood as they both cried into her as she slowly broke down into tears. They just sat there all together until her and Amara couldn't cry anymore so she picked her dad up and laid down in bed with him and Amara joined as they held their dad in their sleep.
The night just had to be a nightmare of some twisted kind but that morning when she woke up she slid out of her Dad's arms and quietly walked over to the radio. If anyone could get the old thing on it was her after all she was the radio demon for a short period of time . But as she hit buttons and turned dials she got nothing so she quietly rushed to her bedroom she grabbed her frog and held it tight as she tried again but nothing. She went to every radio in the palace trying to find one that played anything but nothing played. It took so long that by the time she reached the last one, Charlie was standing there looking at her concerned. " When he died before the radio cut out but we found out he never died so who's to say this isn't happening cause he's out of range? He might be strong but not......not this strong."
She didn't even have to say anything before Amara realized what she said and started to cry so she opened her arms as Amara ran into her arms. " I told Emily and the council is sending a few bad apple exorcists to see if they can find him but......."
" But how will they find him? I....I just got two parents Charlie.......I had my father, my blood, the man I....I always wanted to meet now.....now he might....." Unless she saw proof this time she needed to believe her father was still alive.
" Why don't you lay with Dad while I tell Grammie what's going on and the hotel." Amara nodded then started to walk away. " Please let us all be wrong and Alastor's fine."
When Amara walked back in the room with her frog in hand she carefully made her way into the bed as she held her dad as he slept. He looked like he had fallen asleep from crying so much that if he was right this was going to be him from now on.
As another painful week went by the radio stayed silent word around town was heaven killed the radio demon but they knew it wasn't true. Amara still held the slightest of hopes that her father was still alive while her dad.....well he never left his room and refused to eat to the point they all had to get together and figure out what to do. He looked smaller in the two weeks since her father left and they tried everything but nothing seemed to work. She even started playing with the radio again but every time she did a loud screech played for all of hell and it hurt like hell to hear so she ended up having to stop. Husk had to keep Niffty close so she didn't start playing the radio and giving her dad false hope.
When Vaggie suggested getting her dad hospitalized she was quick to walk out of the room and to the kitchen. As hard as her dad tried there were times he ended up like this but she took care of him, made sure he ate, got some sun and that's what she was going to do. She whipped up some of her Dad's favorite pancakes and took them up to him. " Dad I made something you can't resist." She sat down on the bed and showed him the pancakes which were shaped like ducks which he could never turn down. " I know you want some." But he just turned away. " Dad please you need to eat if not for you then for me and Charlie or.....or Papa. He wouldn't want you starving yourself over him. Remember we take care of each other no matter what."
Everything just didn't feel real to him and time....time passed before he could even blink but when he heard Amara he slowly turned over to look at her. " You should go.......live the life I.....I took from you."
" I am but I still want you in my life Dad. I....I need you more than ever right now. I miss him......." Amara looked over at the table in the middle of the room and walked over as she picked the book up and sat back down beside her dad. " He gave me his word he would finish reading this to me, that we would all sit here and listen to him."
Lucifer looked at the book as he felt new tears start to fall. " It's my fault.....I....I pushed him away."
Amara looked at her dad as she gently wiped his tears. " You didn't." When she saw the stuffed duck she picked it up. " He got this for you 'cause he cared that he hurt you and he wanted to make it right. Just in the short time he was with us I saw how much he changed into the man I heard so much about. But I know he wouldn't have done half of the things he did if he wasn't happy. He agreed to get help because I looked him in the eyes and asked him."
When he looked down at the cute duck pancakes he found the smallest smile then looked up at Amara. " These do look good." When she smiled it helped so he ate them but as he did Amara sat with him until he finished and laid back down.
" Thank you and I love you, Dad." Amara bent down and kissed her dad's cheek as he fell back to sleep. Then quietly he walked out of the bedroom but she felt herself wanting to cry so she ran to her room grabbed her frog and cried. Until she heard someone walking to her door and then knocking. When the door opened it was Charlie. " Hey."
" Vaggie told me you got him to eat but I wanted to check on you." It didn't take much to see Amara had been crying and she saw Amara's little frog right beside her. " Want a hug?"
" No. I....I think Dad's right......I......" She couldn't say it out loud but how could her father just show up in her life and quickly get close to her heart?
Charlie had realized to a few days ago which she spent crying in bed with Vaggie. " I do too. Husk asked me if......."
" Wait!" Why didn't she think of it sooner? " I need to go." She quickly got up and threw a sweater on as Charlie looked at her worried.
" Amara, what's going on?" One moment Amara was crying next she had to go and was practically running around.
Amara ran up to Charlie as she grabbed her shoulders. " If Husk doesn't have his soul back or still feels his chain then he's alive Charlie."
" But don't you get all of that like before?"
She shook her head as she looked at Charlie. " He took all of it back which I was fine with but he never gave it back. I only got my powers back but they are not as strong as when I was the radio demon."
Amara made a point one no one even thought of. " He's at the hotel probably getting ready to go to bed with Angel. Maybe that's why he never came over. "
With a nod she vanished to the hotel as she ran to the bar only it was closed so she went up to Husk's room but nothing so she knocked on Angels and there he was answering the door half asleep. " Husk, do you have your soul back? Or feel your chain?"
Husk rubbed his eyes as he sighed and walked out into the hallway. " Look you turn 20 in a few weeks can...."
" Husk, do you still feel your chain or not? This is my family I'm asking about so please." Behind her back, she crossed her fingers and hoped.
" Yeah, I do." Husk rubbed his eyes again as he looked at the door. " Can I....."
" If he is in hell you could feel the chain more so I need to know if....." She didn't get a chance to finish before Husk spoke.
It wasn't that he wanted everyone to think Alastor was dead but he saw a chance to get his and Angel's soul back and he had to take it but he couldn't lie. Amara strangely grew on him a lot more than he would ever say out loud. But keeping this didn't just help him and Angel but everyone else. " He's in pride probably in the city."
Amara took a few steps back. " How long?"
" A week almost?" He could see the hurt but also the excitement in Amara's eyes. " But if anyone could find him it's Vox. Now can I go back to sleep?"
" Nope. Cause you're coming with me so change and let's go." Husk sighed as he walked back into the room but she stood at the door almost jumping for joy. When her dad woke up in the morning, she would have had her father right there and they could be a family again. When Husk walked out she was quick to pull him close and then vanished them to the Vee tower. " Excuse me I need to speak with Vox and if he's asleep, tell him it's Amara."
" Right away." He made a call and pointed to the elevator. " Mr. Vox is awake and in his office."
Amara grabbed Husk's arm and rushed to the elevator and to Vox's office, where he was sitting but she just walked in. " Vox I...." Suddenly, Vox jumped and turned all the screen off.
" Haha...Amara...what...what are you two doing here at this time?" Vox grabbed his shark plush and put it on his lap.
" I need your help to find my father, Husk said he was in pride and the radio's kinda stopped playing." Amara looked at Vox a little closer. " Are you alright you look sweaty?"
" Yeah.....um....did Alastor leave or something?" While Amara might be clueless Husk looked at him like he knew so he didn't look at him.
" His shadows took him while he was still adjusting to his meds." Amara walked over to Vox as she spoke. " Look my dad has spent the last two weeks in bed a mess over this and I want to find him and bring him home."
" Kid if they took him then........wait you said meds? Is he sick?" Shark plush was quickly thrown to the floor as he stood up and looked at Amara.
Husk saw the screen before Vox turned them off and Vox knew he knew what he was doing. " You know where he is Vox." Vox looked at him shocked but he didn't buy it. " The void messed him up in the head making him break into two other people one will kill everyone in fucking sight the other is scared out of his mind and will do anything just so he doesn't get hurt. Then are Alastor minus the memories."
" Vox do you know where he is?" Amara just looked Vox in the eyes as he looked at her worried. But before he said anything some mouth man walked in.
" Voxy baby I have been thinking and it's been too long since......is this Husker and.....and who is this beautiful young lady?" Valentino slowly walked up to Amara he took her hand and kissed it. " If you ever...."
Husk pushed Valentino off as he stood in front of Amara. " Back the hell off you fucking roach!" He turned to Amara. " We should go, we don't need him to find Alastor."
Amara looked back at Vox who was sitting down looking at the ground almost frozen. " Please Vox he needs to be at home where we can help him. You know how to reach me if you change your mind." Amara walked out with Husk as they went around looking for her father.
Almost a week ago he was just sitting in his office working on a new program when he got a call the radio demon was there so he quickly zapped to the lobby and there he was in his perfect self. Alastor had felt bad about missing their lunch so he happily took Alastor up on his offer which he insisted on staying at the tower which Alastor agreed to. They spent almost the whole day at that table even downing drink after drink until he was drunk but they were both laughing. When he thought back Alastor seemed drunk as well which was odd for Alastor but he made Alastor stay the night so neither of them got yelled at. When he woke up he realized he told Alastor to stay with him so when he powered back on Alastor was sound asleep in his arms.
They were clothed but it was amazing so he stayed in bed until Alastor woke up and he didn't seem upset at all which he was happy about. They got ready and had breakfast but when he mentioned Lucifer, Alastor was gone which sucked only later in the day he found him playing with his sharks and they ended up sitting there for hours laughing. Alastor left to do some work but for 4 days it was like that and at the end of the night he managed to get Alastor in his bed again.
So the fifth night he dared a move that would have gotten him murdered and slowly held Alastor's hand as he was reading but Alastor didn't seem to care so he went on with his work but he held Alastor's hand the whole time. But after a couple hours he turned to Alastor. " Alastor why are you hanging out with me and not with Lucifer?"
" Your company is nice and I like laughing for a chance. I can leave if you want I don't...."
" No, please....I miss this. I miss your company and laughing like this. You stopped doing this once I told you that I loved you. Then you just left for 7 years just for you....."
" I'm sorry."
" Y....you are?"
Alastor had just nodded his head and thinking back now he should have known something wasn't right cause Alastor never said sorry maybe said my apologies but I'm sorry....never. But in the moment, he was so overcome with emotions that he just kissed him but quickly stopped.
" Fuck! I'm.....I'm sorry I shouldn't have please don't leave or hate me."
" Is......is that what you want?"
That should have been a red flag but at the moment he wasn't thinking straight cause he just though the whole thing was a dream. The way Alastor looked at him should have been a sign but his mind wasn't think right.
" I....I do. I want all of you again."
" Again?"
" I only ever did when you had your ruts and only because I knew when and I would find you but just walking in and we were having fun for days. It's my favorite time of year."
" W....would that make you happy?"
WHY WASN'T HE THINKING AT ALL?! SINCE WHEN DID ALASTOR EVER CARE ABOUT HIM BEING HAPPY?!
" I would be more than fucking happy Alastor."
Then Alastor kissed him and the night was amazing leaving him speechless but even more when they woke up and he went for more and Alastor just let him. They didn't leave his room until yesterday but Alastor hardly said a word which he didn't even realize until now. Then last night Alastor was just reading on the couch as he got some work done but he ended up falling asleep when he woke up Alastor was still reading but something else.
" Shit, did you sleep?"
Alastor just quickly looked at him almost scared which he was still waking up to notice until now.
" I.....I couldn't.....do....do you want me to?"
" You always were weird with sleeping I just forget so what do you wanna do today?"
" Um.....w...what do you want?"
" Fuck Alastor I don't know if it's you considering me or what but your so fucking hot. I wouldn't mind my breakfast to be who I'm looking at. I like being in control of all of you for once."
" I....I don't......"
He just pulled Alastor down and kissed him before he could even finish and he couldn't think of what he did.
He couldn't think of anything more and just as he made himself come back to now he herd Valentino calling his name. " What Val."
" You have been absent for fucking days, you stare off into fucking nothing.....are you doing drugs or something? I heard Alastor was here a couple of days ago was......" Valentino was going to say more but Vox stopped him as he stood up.
" Don't talk about him and I .... I need to go." Before he had to hear more he just zapped away to his room where Alastor was and there he was but he was sitting in the corner of the room holding himself. " Al?"
He quickly looked up to see Vox. " Please....I....I can't do anymore....I....I can't."
It was his worst fear as he sat down looking at Alastor shaking in the corner. " You.....you are afraid of me....did....did you do all of this just for me or cause you were scared?"
" You.....you said how he tore people apart and laughed.....at their screams and I .... I knew if I tried to leave you would be mad. W...when people are.....are mad at me they....they hurt me so......"
He was going to be sick and he was and ran to the bathroom and puked. When he walked out Alastor looked at him like a wounded animal. " I....I wouldn't hurt you Alastor....you always hurt me. We are friends and...and I....."
" Do you need more?"
" No! Fuck......you...." He yelled and there was that bleat he had heard from Amara when she was a baby crying for Alastor. When he looked Alastor was shaking. " Shit I'm sorry......do....do you want me to take you home or....or do you want to stay here tonight I don't care what you pick it's your choice."
Alastor slowly looked up at Vox. " No pain?"
" No there's spare room I lied I'm sorry." He wasn't just sick he felt dirty and if Lucifer ever found out he was as good as dead. " I...I can show you or.....or I can have my assistant if you don't want me near you."
" I....I knew you lied but......but I can't sleep alone. Could we sleep like we did a few days ago?" Vox just nodded so he slowly stood up and got into the bed as Vox did.
As he leaned back Alastor laid his head on him and was quickly asleep but he couldn't sleep after everything he had done and fear. But he had to know. " Alastor did......did I rape you?"
He had fallen asleep but slowly woke up when he heard the word and looked up at Vox. " It just hurt but.......it wasn't like Diego." Then he laid his head back and fell asleep.
Who the hell was Diego and what the hell did he do to Alastor?
Notes:
Will Vox own up to his actions? How will Amara and Husk's hunt for Alastor turn out? How will Lucifer react to the news that Alastor is alive and in pride? Will Sera become another fallen angel like she said, or become a prisoner, or even be set free?
To be contuined......
Chapter 29: Truth Or Dare
Summary:
Amara goes to Vox again to ask for his help to find Alastor, so he comes up with a plan to hide the fact that Alastor had been with him for a week. First thing Alastor does is see Lucifer, then everyone else, and to cheer everyone up from worrying about him, he suggests they play some games. But as fun as the games all were, Alastor finds out something Lucifer told him wasn't just some saying, but for sex, only to find out about a rut. Which leads to Angel and Lucifer arguing in front of Alastor, causing him to switch. Only he was terrified of Lucifer, and Vox just showed up, and he clung to him.
Notes:
So I had yesterday's chapter ready, but I just forgot to post it, so I made it into today's. Sorry about that, but enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Amara didn't want to go home with anything but her and Husk searched everywhere but nothing to the point Husk had to force her back to the hotel. But they found it best until they found Alastor they shouldn't let Lucifer know just in case. As much as she wanted to tell her dad his crying days were over she needed proof so she agreed but they told everyone else. Vaggie insisted they get a group together and look for Alastor cause Lucifer needed to really eat and get out of bed so they all did for hours but nothing. But when they stopped for lunch she went back to see Vox who when she walked in didn't look like himself. " Vox I was hoping you thought about what I asked. Cause I know you and my dad don't get along but this is me asking for help to find my father, please. "
" Husk said yesterday that there were different people in Alastor's head did you guys find out how to control it or something?" Slowly he turned to Amara hoping she had an answer for him that he would like or help hide what happend.
" Well the doctor gave him a bunch of medications to help and she found out how to force the switch without shocking him or him passing out. Just a bright light is what she gave us." Amara walked closer to Vox. " Does this mean you will help?"
All of it quickly came together to form a plan. " Sure but I will need some time so you should go home and be with Lucifer."
" Are you sure you don't want help?" It was odd but she needed to find her father not question everyone.
" Yeah, I will call if I need anything." Vox watched Amara leave as he got up from his chair and walked to his room where Alastor sat reading. " You owe me nothing after everything I did to you but.......you can say not but.....could you not tell anyone about this?"
" I....I am not that good at secrets."
The Alastor he knew was amazing at it and it was that and who he is that made him go crazy. " It's not just if they ask say you don't remember or you're not sure. Something or change the question you're good at that."
Alastor closed the book as he looked at Vox. " I do and you don't do it again?"
" Al." Vox sat down across from Alastor. " I didn't know you didn't want to do all of that and in the moment you seemed like you did but I didn't know and I can't say how sorry I am Al."
" I did 'cause it's what you wanted.......I...I just didn't know it would hurt after." He may heal fast but he still walked differently.
Vox slowly moved and sat beside Alastor as he held his hand out. " But did you want to do it for yourself?"
" I....I just do what I am told and do whatever the other person wants so I don't get hurt anymore." Slowly, he grabbed Vox's hand and laid his hand on his shoulder. " I don't know what I want. But I liked making you happy."
How could he give him back when he says shit like that? They just sat there as he just enjoyed feeling Alastor touch him but as much as he wanted to sit there all day he had to do what his Alastor would wish to. " Let's get you some fresh air." He zapped them to an alley as he looked Alastor in the eyes. " I like making you happy too so if you need me you know where I am."
Vox couldn't hear anymore from Alastr else he might back out so he flashed Alastor making him go back a couple of steps as he held his eyes. " Alastor?"
As his vision returned he quickly looked around to see he was in an alley but when he heard his name he looked to see Vox. " How the hell did I get here?"
" I found you here I thought you could tell me 'cause everyone has been worried sick about you. The radio stopped playing for a week and Lucifer thinks you died." Alastor like always was unreadable so it was their Alastor but seeing him so confused didn't feel right.
He tried to think back to what happened but the last thing was him in bed with Lucifer. " How long?"
" Oh Amara said 2 weeks but she just came to me last night for help and this morning Lucifer wasn't doing well as usual." He rolled his eyes but Alastor wasn't having it. " Alright, I can just take you to him?"
" My powers work just fine but I do appreciate your assistance." He quickly vanished to Lucifer's room it was almost completely dark for the middle of the day but he looked at the bed there wasn't anyone in it before checking somewhere else his shadow pointed at a spot on the bed so he walked over to see what he thought to just be clothing under the comforter but as listened closer he could hear faint breaths so he had his shadow move the comforter off completely revealing a curled up white snake.
" Put it back." Lucifer curled up tighter to block out the little light but the comforter didn't go back on. " Vaggie if this is your tough love I'm not in the mood."
" I think this shape is a bit odd even for you, Lucifer." He picked the snake up and put it in his lap ready for Lucifer to look at him shocked or something but he curled up tighter.
It was just in his head just like it had been a few days before so he could fall for it. " I want to be alone."
" Come on now Lucifer, it's the middle of the day and you're sleeping." He carried Lucifer to the window as he opened it and heard Lucifer hiss.
"You're just in my head." He tried to keep the light from his eyes but someone pulled his head out of the ball and he kept his eyes closed from the blinding light. " Let me sleep!"
" Dear, I think you have slept enough for the year." He sat at the window as he put Lucifer down on his lap.
Lucifer made the curtain beside him close so he could see who he was yelling at but when he looked it was Alastor. " You're.... you're just in my head I...." Then he reached down at him then suddenly a pinch when he looked at his scales Alastor saw it was real. " Alastor?"
" You need me to toss you across the room?" As he looked at the wall and back at Lucifer he was gone but he found him wrapped around his arm sobbing. " Could you return to your regular self this is just weird to me."
" YOU'RE ALIVE!" Lucifer transformed back as he hugged Alastor and then grabbed his face. " W....where have you been?!"
" I'm not really sure but do you mind loosening your grasp of me?" He couldn't move and with Lucifer's sobbing and yelling it was a bit much for him.
He loosened his grip but he grabbed Alastor's face again and kissed him several times. " Don't fucking do that to me, asshole! I thought you fucking died!"
" I heard and if it helps it was never my intention." He was laughing as he grabbed Lucifer's face to stop him. " I would never hurt you on purpose Lucifer you know that right?"
He teleported them to the bed as he kissed Alastor more. " I hate you so much."
" If you hated me you would stop." But Lucifer didn't so he grabbed his hair as he kissed him again then tossed him aside as he sat up. " Now I should probably let everyone else know......"
" Oh not going anywhere, big guy." Lucifer opened his wings as he jumped on top of Alastor forcing him to lay down as his wings covered them. " You think after 2 weeks of you being away I am ever letting you go? Haha, you are mistaken my love cause you are in hell which I am king of."
" Are you now?" Lucifer just smiled as he nodded. " Cause you said I was free to do whatever I wished and I would like to ease everyone's worries as you shower. Does that sound like a plan?"
Slowly, he laid on Alastor's chest as he unbuttoned the first buttons on his shirt. Then, as he looked Alastor in the eyes, his hand ran through Alastor's chest fluff. " I have a different plan that involves us both showering together."
As he added it all up he tried to sit up but Lucifer stopped him. " Oh, little apple you barely could handle me before so now I am just that much harder." He ran his hand just hard enough without leaving a scratch down Lucifer's back which by the wings shaking he saw Lucifer liked. " Try better." He kissed Lucifer's cheek and then vanished downstairs.
Lucifer quickly looked around the room in a panic but there was no Alastor. " I'm going to kill him." As the words came out of his mouth he saw Alastor's shadow holding his bath towel but the bathroom. " I don't like you." He snatched the tower and locked himself in the bathroom.
Husk had said how silly it was that she put so much trust into Vox but to her, she was like an uncle she never had. He showed her how to defend herself but also treated her as more than just a princess or the radio demon's daughter. So she had high hopes that if anyone could find her father it would be him but after a few hours of sitting and waiting she felt herself doubting. " W...what if we were wrong?"
Charlie sat down beside Amara. " We can go back out but don't beat yourself up least we know he's alive out there."
" But if he's been out there this whole time he has to be confused or worse. He has a lot of enemies what if they found him while the scared alter was upfront what if......" Amara couldn't stop worrying.
" Amara we just have to believe right now." As she held Amara and Vaggie called around Husk and Angel were playing cards and Alastor's mom was organizing the bookshelf. They just sat there waiting for the call as their phones all sat on the table.
When Alastor appeared downstairs, everyone looked at a table except for Husk and Angel who were still playing cards which Husk was losing. " Husk do everyone a favor and fold you won't be winning that round."
Amara along with everyone snapped their head to see her father standing there but she quickly ran over to him and hugged him tight. " Don't scare us like that. Did Vox find you?"
Charlie ran over right behind Amara. " Does our dad know yet?"
" He was the first place I went and yes Vox found me and like I told your dad I'm not sure what happend or why I was in some alley." He patted both of their back but they didn't let go.
" Get used to it, boss." Husk gave a faint smile as he looked at Alastor.
" Glad you're back smiles 'cause I am pretty sure none of them could handle lossin you again." Angel was going to go in for the hug but stopped himself. " So since he's back does that mean everything goes back to normal?"
Vaggie looked at Angel. " Why don't we just let them enjoy having Alastor back before we go springing shit on all of them." When Charlie let go of Alastor she walked over to her. "We're going to head back before some of the guests think it's really a hotel." She kissed Charlie's cheek. " I love you and I will see you tonight."
As he watched Husk shuffle the deck of cards and started to put them away he had an idea. " What if you all didn't leave? If Lucifer's memory is correct we all used to do these games or these oddly personal movies?"
Charlie clapped with excitement. " You want to have a game day? Hahah.....do we think Dad will be fine with this?"
" Please if you two want to have this game day I am sure he can't say no. All he said was that I wasn't going anywhere without him and I haven't." He looked down to see Amara still holding him. " Could you let go now?"
" Oh yeah.....sorry. Wait can we play cards? I have always wanted to play the master himself." Amara was pumped.
" I don't see why not." Alastor walked over as everyone sat down to a game as Husk handed cards out.
Lucifer had to make sure he smelled exactly the way Alastor loved and took the time to make sure his hair was perfect. But as he walked out of the bathroom humming to the radio he jumped when he saw Alastor's mom standing there. " Sorry, you scared me......why are you up here?"
" I didn't want to upset him so when I saw him I headed up here. But I will head home." Alastor's mom was about to walk out when she saw one of Alastor's jackets on the chair which she couldn't help but walk over to as she picked it up.
Lucifer had Angel bring the jacket for him. " It smells like him, and when you put it on, it's like he's holding you. If you want, you can keep it. He has a few that Amara refused to let leave his old room, but I got that one."
She pulled the jacket close as she could smell Alastor on it. " I....I miss him so much."
" He here and all it takes is a hard conversation. Besides who's going to help him stay on top of his meds? Cause I suck at taking my own." Lucifer walked over and he gently hugged her.
" Oh that reminds me I had all of it in an organizer and it disappeared from my room so I called and she is sending some more." Neatly she folded the jacket and grabbed it. " I will pick them up but I showed Amara what to do and no I didn't tell her why you couldn't even though she has been asking around."
Eventually, he had to tell Amara the whole truth since she knew he had an addiction just not what it was. She deserved to know the truth and with Alastor at their side maybe it wouldn't be so bad.
Once Alastor's mom was gone he slid on his duck slippers and teleported downstairs only to find everyone sitting around the table laughing when he walked over he saw them all playing cards. " Room for another?" He went to sit next to Alastor but Amara was on one side and Charlie on the other so he sat across from him.
" Oh, we just started the round maybe next." Husk wanted to win but as each round went it was down to him, Amara, and Alastor but each round had the same winner, Alastor. Angel saw how heated he was getting, so Angel recommended a new game which was a board game but when Alastor won the first round he was about to lose it.
Vaggie saw how heated Husk was getting which she just laughed at as Angel calmed him down but when Alastor won the board game she needed to see him lose so she thought of something different. " Why don't we play truth or dare?"
" What is that?" Alastor wasn't sure why but he was amazing at these games and winning felt amazing.
Everyone grasped but Lucifer reached across the table as he grabbed his hand. " Love you chose truth or dare and if you say truth you have to answer what the person asked of you but if you pick dare you have to do something sometimes it's silly or if it's serious then it's somthing bigger."
" I'm not sure I want to play this game." Both options seemed awful on his part and everyone was out for him since he won all the games.
Amara held her father's arm as she looked up at him. " Please and no one will ask anything about the void or even mention it." He just looked at everyone and then nodded as they all cheered. " Alright um......Charlie truth or dare?"
Charlie could hardly sit in her seat because of her excitement. " Oh truth."
" Do you and Vaggie want kids?" Amara liked the question and Charlie quickly turned red as she looked at Vaggie.
" We do." Charlie grabbed Vaggie's hand and then kissed it. " We want to actually have twins and dress them alike. After we watched you grow up we wanted that for us."
" Oh girls I will be the best....." Lucifer could see his grandchildren now and they were adorable.
" Lucifer hush you can have your speech later now Charlie pick someone." Angel was excited.
Charlie looked at everyone and then picked Angel. " Angel....."
" DARE!" Angel stood up accidentally so he sat back down. " Sorry."
What could she have Angel do? " Oh, Angel I dare you to kiss Husk."
Vaggie laughed but Angel was full-out frenching Husk who was struggling. " Alright Angel pick. Babe, you can go a bit out there more with the dares."
" Alright.....Smile's truth or dare." Angel kissed Husk's cheek and then looked at Alastor.
" Am I allowed to hear the question or dare first and then choose?"He didn't want to open up but Angel shook his head. " Alright then............Truth?"
Angel smiled harder as he looked at Lucifer. " Do you and Luci fuck?"
" Ew, Angel, please. I don't care to know if........" Amara started to cover her ears but her father spoke.
" No. According to Lucifer's memory, we did before.......several times and....." He thought it was going to be something awful but he had no memory of himself being in the act so sharing didn't hurt him at all.
" Alastor!" Lucifer nervously laughed as he looked at Alastor. " You said enough now pick."
" Husker truth or dare?" He folded his hands in his lap as he looked at Husk.
Husk looked at Alastor for a moment to see if he could figure out not just why he picked him but also what he was going to be asked or made to do. " Fuck it truth."
Angel rolled his eyes, annoyed. " Come on, this is supposed to be fun and exciting."
" Husk if you owned your soul what would you do?" That seemed interesting enough and it got everyone's interest.
He had to think for a moment. " Well.....not to upset anyone but fuck heaven I'd wanna stay in hell and maybe run a club again . Then Angel could work there instead of with fucking Valentino."
" Oh, who is this Valentino you speak of?" The name seemed interesting and now that he thought about what Angel or Husk did. " Also what does he do?"
With a laugh, Angel stood up and walked over to Alastor. " Baby I can show you if you would like. I heard hands-on is much better for understanding." Angel slowly got down on his knees as he gently grabbed Alastor's knees. " I am the best and you Smiles deserve the....."
Lucifer was about to get up and pull Angel off but Husk beat him to it . " Angel enough. Let's play the fucking game so it's over." When he got Angel to sit back down he looked at him staring at Alastor. " Cut it out. I guess Vaggie truth or......whatever."
" I will do dare." They just needed something to make what Angel did less weird.
" Um......I dare you to make me a drink." While everyone seemed annoyed with his ask he enjoyed it even Amara and Alastor who laughed. He sat back until Vaggie handed him a drink except when he tried it, it was soda. " What the fuck I meant....."
" You just said a drink you never said what now.....Amara truth or dare." Vaggie soaked up all the laughs as Husk had to get up and make his own drinks but couldn't find anything so sad and backed down defeated.
Amara smiled as she thought. " Dare."
Vaggie looked at Charlie for a moment. " I want you to call Alice on speaker and make plans to hang out with her." Charlie thought Alice liked Amara as more than a friend while she swore it was just her wanting to be Amara's friend.
" Did I say dare I meant to say truth." Vaggie just shook her head so she sighed pulled her phone out and dialed.
" Hello?"
" Hey Alice it's me Amara I wanted to see if you wanted to meet up for lunch or something. Or something?"
" Yeah, I would love that actually there's a party going on in the gluttony ring which I was going to text you about since you never answered my calls."
" Sorry, I'm not the best at this phone and I have been busy. But send me the details and I will be there."
" Alright see you."
END OF CALL
Amara looked at everyone but Angel was first to speak. " Geez you need to socialize with more than your dads. You sounded like Luci on the phone."
" Hey! I am fine I am just not a fan of this new technology." Lucifer crossed his arms as he leaned back.
" Anyways, Dad truth or dare?" Amara looked at Angel and sat up almost worried which meant he thought she would ask the question she had been asking about.
Lucifer sat up excited. " Dare."
" Dad.....how many kids did you want?" Why couldn't he pick the truth?
" Oh....well after Charlie I was told I couldn't have anymore but then you came around Amara which I was excited for since I grew up with a big family I .... I kinda always wanted to have a big family down here with my children and ....and with the person I loved by my side. It was me and...." Lucifer looked over at Charlie. " Having a big family was a dream me and your mother had but when we heard I couldn't have any more children the dream died until I was pregnant with Amara and the dream was back until I found out Alastor was dying."
Everyone started to look at him. " What happend to big things come from small packages?"
Angel laughed even harder than everyone else. " Smiles that's a sex reference to....." He looked down.
" To what?" Alastor couldn't figure out why Angel looked down until he whispered to the point only he and Amara could hear and when he said it he covered Amara's ears. " Lucifer how could you say such filth?"
" I......I also meant it for my height." Lucifer could feel himself blushing as he leaned back into the couch hoping almost praying it would absorb him so he didn't have to be there in this moment.
Alastor would have accepted Lucifer's answer if Angel hadn't started measuring his lower region. " Lucifer your children are sitting right here and....was that what......oh Lucifer shame." He thought back to what Lucifer said earlier and it all made sense. " You dirty little man."
" Um...." Amara moved from her father's hands as she looked at the two. " I still heard what you both said...."
" I am not that little Alastor and dirty I am not." Lucifer crossed his arms as he pushed further back into the couch.
Charlie needed the conversation to end. " Alright, how about we make lunch? Hmm? Amara wants to...."
Amara didn't need anymore as she stood up and walked into the kitchen to start lunch with Charlie and Vaggie.
" You know smile's sex is a very natural thing and for a deer, you have ruts which is when Amara was made." Angel moved to sit closer to Lucifer as Husk threw his hands up and walked to the kitchen. " I'm pretty sure that time of year is.....holy shit in the next week or two. Tell me are you really hungry? Or tired?"
" I don't have ruts. I have been dead for over a hundred years and never had one." Alastor was going to get up when he felt his stomach growl so he sat back down. " What are the signs?"
Lucifer sat up when he heard Alastor's stomach growl. " You hungry a tone and get more agitated so when it happend last time instead of just joking with me or small insults you were really fucking mean."
" After eating more than you ever do you sleep for like....two or three days then all you want to do is fucking mate and from what I heard it can last a very long time with someone of your power." Angel could get hard just thinking about it.
Since Amara wasn't a full deer it wasn't as bad and he just made it go away each time cause the last thing he wanted was to have his daughter craving sex. " Love, you told me you just locked yourself away until it passed. So we can do the same here....."
" Haha no. I will be far away from you if this is true." Alastor could feel his stomach grumbling more which it never did before.
" What? But it goes by faster if you just give in and it only lasted 2 weeks and a half cause......oh shit......" The reason itwas so strong before was because Alastor hadn't had a rut in 7 years so as he thought about 20 years......" I have to be there."
Angel realized what Lucifer put together. " Luci he will destroy you so Alastor why not go with someone who can make it go by faster and can't be bred like Lucifer?"
" Are you kidding me, Angel?! You're not going anywhere near him 'cause he's mine!" Lucifer quickly snapped and looked at Angel.
" Is he cause I don't see no ring and didn't you not listen to Husk and Charlie when they said leave Alastor alone and you still went to his room? Husk told you he wanted to be alone and you still went and then got the best sex of your life and Amara." Angel crossed his arms as he looked at Lucifer. " Luci we’re friends so I am just offering help I don't wanna take him from you.”
“ Can I…..” Alastor wasn't sure where this was going but he didn't want anyone fighting over him.
Lucifer turned completely towards Angel. “ I don't need help and ring or not you know Alastor is mine like you have Husk. You may still see other people while being with Husk but we don't do that. When you're with someone, you don't see other people at the same time because if you love someone they are enough for you.”
“ Are you fucking minding me?!” Angel quickly stood up. “ Husk and I talked about it and I don't! I like what I do and he's fine so don't say I’m some….some whore!”
Lucifer quickly stood up as he looked up at Angel. “ I wouldn't call you a whore Angel.”
“ YOU JUST FUCKIN DID!” Angel would have been fine until Lucifer said he slept around. “ I dance and dress up but I never fuck anyone!”
Alastor was going to get up but Angel and Lucifer stood in the way as they yelled. He kept trying to get a word in but the two kept talking over him. Everyone from the kitchen walked in as they heard yelling but still couldn’t get a word in.
Husk ran over to Angel as Charlie grabbed Lucifer but as they tried to pull them away they were pushed away. “ Angel enough!”
“ Dad!” Charlie looked over at Alastor and his ears were flat against his head. “ Stop!”
After Alastor left he went back to the tower just in case his plan didn’t work but after a few hours of no angry Lucifer busting into the tower, he figured he was in the clear. So he zapped over to the palace which took to convince the guards to let him in but he managed but when he did he heard yelling. When he walked over Lucifer and Angel were arguing which was odd since they both seemed like friends but as Lucifer moved for a moment he saw Alastor sitting there holding his ears as his head almost laid on his lap. " HEY!" He walked over and threw Angel to the ground as he stood between them. " What the hell is wrong with you two? Look at what your fucking doing." He turned to Alastor and sat down but when he did he saw he was shaking as he dug his nails into his ears. " Al it's alright they stopped." He placed his hand on Alastor's arm and quickly he flinched but when he looked at him he quickly held him. " Oh?"
Amara rushed over pushing her dad aside. " It's alright your safe."
" Love....I......I'm sorry I didn't..." Lucifer hadn't even thought about Alastor sitting there he figured he just vanished or got up but when he started to walk over to Alastor he held Vox tighter. " Alastor I won't....."
" Don't let him hurt me please!" Alastor just looked up at Vox hoping he would.
Vox held Alastor as he looked at Lucifer who looked almost as terrified as Alastor. " Lucifer I think you should keep your distance."
Charlie walked over to her dad after helping Angel up with Husk. " Dad, why don't you cool off in the garden? Maybe after lunch, this will just fly passed everyone."
Maybe walking away would have been easier if fucking Vox wasn't holding Alastor who has made it clear he wanted Alastor after he found out he didn't have his memories. " Alastor, my love I would never hurt you and you know this." He wouldn't even look at him and it hurt. Just a few hours and he fucked everything up even worse .... Vox was there to steal the broken pieces. Before he could even try to say anything Vaggie and Charlie were pulling him out of the room to the garden. " I need to be with him!"
" Lucifer we will but for right now until he switches back it will just be easier if he's not afraid. We finished lunch and Amara made him something to eat so lets eat then we can try again alright?" Vaggie looked at Lucifer then Charlie. " You did this to yourself Lucifer what did you think yelling would do to him?"
Charlie sat down beside her dad. " We all make mistakes but let's give Alastor some time to calm down and then you can apologize. He's scared and for some reason, this alter likes Vox and his mom so let Vox help. I will bring you some lunch and if you want I can eat with you?"
" Thanks." Lucifer just sat there as Vaggie and Charlie walked back inside but he couldn't help but look through the window to see them all sitting down and Alastor sitting next to Vox who was holding his hand. That should be him in there not fucking Vox. Angel and Husk left but as much as he wanted to apologize to Angel he needed to with Alastor first. He couldn't watch anymore so he just sat down until Charlie brought him a plate but he told her to eat with everyone else as he sat there eating alone.
Alastor should have switched back after a few hours but he hadn't he was still sitting in Vox's arms as he just watched everyone else talk as he had to watch like a creep from the top of the stairs. He tried to apologize but Alastor quickly hid behind Vox who told him to leave Alastor alone. With it being the first night of Alastor being back he needed him so he could get some decent sleep for the first time in 2 weeks but he didn't seem to be changing back and hell Charlie told him how Vox even got Alastor to easily take his meds no issue. But it was getting late and he wasn't spending the night alone and sure as hell wasn't letting Vox sleep with Alastor so he went to his room and got the light that the doctor had given him and walked down the stairs and to everyone. Once he walked into the room Alastor was looking at him terrified but everyone quickly looked at him.
" Dad you should go upstairs and....." Charlie was about to get up when her Dad walked over more making Alastor quickly cling to Vox. " Dad please your...."
" This isn't even our Alastor so I can just switch them back and this whole him being afraid of me is over." But as he turned to Alastor he saw Vox holding him close but he looked him in the eyes and fucking smiled. " Let go of him Vox."
" Woah Dad it's only if he's hurting himself or others and he's not. We can't use it just because you....." Amara walked over to her Dad but she didn't get a chance to finish.
" Amara it's just a light it doesn't hurt him." Lucifer went to walk but Vaggie stopped him.
" Lucifer you're not using that on him just because you don't like this alter. You're the one who started arguing with Angel and you weren't the bigger man to stop it knowing Alastor was sitting right there." Lucifer yanked his hand from her hand as he turned back to Alastor who was shaking in fear as Vox tried to calm him down.
Charlie stood in front of her dad blocking his view of Alastor. " We need to understand these alters need help just as much as Alastor does and forcing him away just because he's scared doesn't make it right. He has been happy for once all night and even tried joking around which is progress. Dad we don't have to be scared of them when they're part of Alastor whether we like it or not."
" Not to mention how just that light hurt us. I looked once and my head hurt for hours and my eyes. It's not painless maybe for you all but he is more sensitive to light than me." Amara sat down beside her father as she gently rubbed his back. " They have all suffered enough Dad so don't make him just because you want him."
Lucifer put the light in his pocket as he looked at Alastor. " Alastor I'm sorry........I never want to hurt you and.....and I never want you to be afraid of me so I will go back to my room."
" Oh, Lucifer." Vox looked at Lucifer with a fake sad expression. " Alastor won't be able to sleep right here so I think he should stay with me until this whole thing is resolved."
Before Lucifer could say anything or kill Vox Amara spoke. " That's fine Vox I know this whole thing is hard for you but thank you for taking care of him. You're a good friend." Amara turned to her dad and pointed at the stairs. " Goodnight Dad."
With a huff and a puff, he walked back up to his room but not without looking to see Vox fucking smiling at him which pissed him off even more when he walked into his room he didn't even stop himself as he punched the wall over and over until he fell to the floor crying.
When Vox saw Lucifer was gone he gently let go of Alastor and ran his hand through his hair. Until he calmed down and looked at everyone who just smiled. " It's getting late you want to go to bed?"
Alastor slowly nodded as he laid his hand on Vox's chest. " Not alone?"
Vox just looked at Amara and Charlie who looked at each other and nodded. " Oh, Al you will never be alone again." He looked at the two as they walked over. " Let's say goodnight to everyone and we will see them tomorrow."
Amara was a bit shocked to see this alter hug her and Charlie wishing them goodnight without being afraid and with Vox he almost looked like their Alastor. " When you get up we will be here with breakfast alright?"
" I'll text you when we are leaving." They all just smiled so he zapped him and Alastor to his room. " Well look at you here once more."
" I...I hope it's alright. I...I can go back if you don't....."
Vox gently grabbed Alastor's hands. " I will always want you here so you're welcome anytime you want. You mean everything to me Alastor I hope you know that." Alastor just looked at him and then quickly hugged him. " Why don't we get to bed I will keep you safe from the monsters of the world like Lucifer." Alastor nodded and in a blink, he was in bed changed as well as Alastor who was quick to curl up to him. " Couldn't wait to do it the regular way?"
" No, you take too long and I needed you to keep me safe." Alastor looked at Vox. " Can you always keep me safe?"
Voz pulled Alastor closer as he kissed his head. " I will." As Alastor fell asleep he couldn't help himself from hacking into Lucifer's phone and when he got through he could hear him crying which he quietly chuckled at. " Enjoy losing Lucifer."
Notes:
Will Vox get between Alastor and Lucifer's relationship? Will Alastor's alter be able to keep his mouth shut about what he and Vox did? What happens if Alastor switches at night and finds himself sleeping with Vox? How will Lucifer handle the night knowing Alastor is sleeping with Vox? How will Amara's party turn out? How will Alastor and Amara's ruts go this year? What happend to Sera?
More to come next week.......thanks for reading.
Chapter 30: Talking With Fists
Summary:
Lucifer is forced to sit at the table with Vox sitting beside Alastor as he attempts to apologize. Luckily Alastor goes back to himself but Alastor remembers Lucifer yelling to Angel about how he owned him and was pissed and left. Alastor goes to see someone who would help him understand, but as he thinks about it, he wasn't that mad yet, blew up at Lucifer, then left. Rosie explains to Lucifer about how Alastor is feeling after Lucifer finds Alastor and apologizes. Lucifer comes up with an idea to help Alastor see that opening up doesn't make him weak, on the plan backfires and they end up fighting over it.
Notes:
New week, new chapters. Also, thank you for the comments; it always makes me happy to read them and gets me to write more. So I hope you all enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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How could he sleep knowing Alastor was in someone else's bed, not just anyone but Vox's? He should go there right now and set Vox straight. Still, he couldn't cause it would only make the alter more afraid of him which he didn't need so he just sat there at the window reading a book he shouldn't which involved steamy romance which only made him cry. Eventually, he fell asleep face-first in the book only to wake up and it was morning. As he got up and got ready he teleported downstairs to see Alastor with Charlie, Vaggie, and Amara. For a moment he thought all was right but Vox walked over and sat beside Alastor. He had to remind himself he couldn't kill Vox at least not with Alastor around or Amara. " Moring everyone how did everyone sleep?"
" Morning Dad you get some sleep?" Charlie walked over to her Dad and hugged him before having him sit down.
" I did and Alastor I'm sorry for how I acted I swear I am not a yeller and.... embarrassing enough kinda.....a..." He should say it while he still had Alastor's attention.
" He's an emotional mess. Someone yells at him and he will cry or he will hide and then cry." Vaggie just ripped the bandage off but Lucifer didn't seem happy about it. " You were taking too long."
Lucifer looked at Vaggie for a moment then looked back at Alastor. " Anyways, I give you my word I would never hurt you Alastor."
" Oh?"
Under the table, Vox laid his hand on Alastor's knee, getting him to quickly look at him. " Lucifer..." Vox turned to Lucifer. " I don't trust your word and I made a promise to Alastor to keep him safe from the monsters of the world. You are well known for lying to the people you keep close even your own blood and Alastor before so your word doesn't mean anything."
He was going to kill him, rip him to shreds, and smash that skin-crawling grin into the ground. But at last, he couldn't. " People change Vox and I was in a dark place after losing Alastor and I broke my promise to him and it hurt like he died all over again."
" We were all in a dark place, Lucifer, and you can't say it was hardest for you when you weren't the only one who lost someone they love. You might have been with him as he took his last breath, but I knew him longer than you ever have. There aren't excuses, and you lie to your daughters now." Vox took a breath so he didn't yell, then looked at Alastor, who looked at him worried. " It's alright, Al, if you want to go outside for a moment."
Amara stood at the end of the table where Vox and her dad sat. " Would you two cut it out, please? But if you two need to fight then go outside but my father shouldn't have to feel the need to leave just because you two can't handle yourself."
" Sorry." Lucifer looked at Alastor, who was staring at the table. " Alastor, is everything alright?"
Vox looked and it was as if he wasn't even listening to any of them. " Um....Al?" He touched his arm but nothing happened until he moved it a bit and he quickly looked at all of them. " Al?"
" When did we get here?" One moment he was trying to get a word the next he was sitting at breakfast beside Vox. " When did you get here?"
Was it the right time to be excited? No, he couldn't help but smile. " Love I'm sorry I was yelling and......"
Alastor looked at Lucifer and remembered what he said. " You're not sorry Lucifer and if you were you would have never claimed I was yours. I would understand saying it once but you didn't." He stood up and looked down at Lucifer. " I don't belong to anyone and I am not some object to own or some fucking pet either." Before Lucifer said anything he vanished. He went to someone whom he remembered saying she was his friend and that he was welcome anytime.
" Nice going Lucifer." Vox rolled his eyes and then zapped away.
Amara and Charlie sat beside their dad. " Just let him get some air he will be back."
" I....I'm losing him....he's.....he's going to leave me." He just laid his head on the table as he started to cry as Amara and Charlie rubbed his back.
Vaggie had enough with the crying and slammed on the table making Lucifer sit up and look at her as well as Amara and Charlie. " Lucifer you can sit here and cry or you can go out there and find him. If you want to be with him then fucking fight for it and stop crying it's only making everything worse. Show him that you're sorry and get the hell out there."
" Y... you're being mean." Lucifer leaned into Charlie's arms as he wiped his tears.
" Boo, fucking who Lucifer I'm allowed to be when you have spent the last two weeks crying and stuck in bed. Also, I'm playing the I almost died card and I want Alastor to be happy since you know...he's the reason I am even alive." Vaggie put her hands on her hips as she looked at Amara. " You always gave him the tough love what happend? You know Charlie is too good to do it.....love you, babe."
Vaggie made a point so she stood up with Vaggie. " Go bring my father home, Dad by tonight."
He looked up at Charlie as she nodded so he slowly stood up. " Alright, I will find him and show him that I am ass and sorry."
" There you go, now get the hell out of here." Vaggie pointed to the door and Lucifer nodded and actually walked out of it. " Now it's just use three let's eat."
All he knew was Rosie lived in a place called Cannibal Town which he didn’t know where it was so he tried stopping sinners on the street but they just ran away from him. It got to the point where he forced one to tell him rather than ask but after they told him where they just laughed at him saying if he didn’t know then he wasn’t the radio demon but a fake. So he showed them but publicly killed the sinner then went the way the sinner had told him only he didn’t know which home was hers until he saw her name on a sign and walked into a crowded store. “ Pardon where might I find Rosie?”
The sinner just pointed to the front which was more packed than where he was but he smiled though as he walked past. As he moved around them suddenly he heard his name called when he looked there Rosie was.
“ Alastor?!” quickly walked over to Alastor. “ Dear, you have no idea how happy it is to see you here. You look so thin dear and I can’t let this go so come.” She grabbed his hand and started to pull him to the back but before they walked away she turned to everyone’s “ Sorry everyone but I am closed for lunch.”
As everyone started to leave he looked at Rosie. “ You don’t have to close because of me I can just go.”
“ Don’t be silly dear I don’t mind besides I needed a break and when do I get to see you? Now come I just got some fresh cuts and you can tell me what’s going on for you to come see me.” Rosie sat Alastor down as she walked into the kitchen.
“ How do you know something is going on?” Rosie’s place was quite nice even a little homey.
Rosie walked out with a tray and a kettle. “ Come now Alastor I know you better than anyone so I know when something’s on your mind.” She placed everything down and Alastor looked at all of it as she made him a tea. “ We used to do this weekly and talk about all the tea we hear around and business. When we went to overload meetings we would always go together and sit together. But enough about the past and tell me what Lucifer did.”
“ I never said anything about Lucifer. “ This was just getting weird how she just knew.
“ I guessed but I was right so what did he do and do I need to smack some sense into him?” As she sat back she saw Alastor looking down. “ Dear I care about you so if he did something to my friend I will make sure he learns so he never does it again.”
He just felt silly for even coming or even leaving Lucifer’s like he did. “ I just overreacted because I was confused about how I got to the table or why I keep having these blackouts when these stupid pills are supposed to help.”
Charlie or Amara kept her up to date on everything with Alastor and as much as she wanted to be at his side she knew it would be better for him to come to her. “ Alastor you like knowing everything and being in charge but these blackouts stop that. But you always have a reason to be upset so what did Lucifer do?”
“ Angel and he were arguing about me. Angel said if I needed his help with this rut then he would which Lucifer didn’t like but…..he called me his. He said I belong to him which I don’t but I couldn’t get a word in. But I’m not some object or pet yet he thinks I am.” The tea was nice but strangely his stomach ached.
Rosie set her mug down as she looked at Alastor. “ You had every right to be upset and I had a husband who said the same thing and you know what I killed him. Lucifer loves you with every piece of him, but he’s scared you will leave him, that he will lose you all over again which doesn’t make what he did right. I think when he thought of you with someone else he was afraid.”
“ But why? I don’t want to be with someone else like that.”
Rosie smiled. “ Does Lucifer know that?”
“ Yes, and I have shown him more of me than anyone. I never did anything I have then with him.” Everything in him screamed for him to eat the whole tray but he couldn’t. He was a guest and normal people don’t do that.
“ So you have done stuff with Lucifer?" It was a yes the moment she finished and he looked at her. " I know you're not into the more physical stuff Alastor but do you like him? If Angel had joked about sleeping with Lucifer would you be upset?"
From the time he knew Lucifer he had to several times how much he loved him, how he only was with one person after his death and he thought it was him. So he never had to worry or think of Lucifer with anyone else and Lucifer made it clear he only wants him. But if things changed and someone else took Lucifer in a way he wasn't sure how he would feel. " He's..... interesting. I had heard all these awful things about the devil but the more time I spent here the more I found most if not all of it wrong. He is quite emotional and yet owns the title of king when his own subjects see him as a joke. That power yet he makes those ducks and lives a family lifestyle."
" But do you feel something for him Alastor? You struggled before knowing the feeling so now it has to be even harder." This is better than the drama she had overheard a few days ago.
Did he have feelings for Lucifer? " I....I don't know what feelings are it's been ages since I have experienced them and feelings make you weak and the last thing I need to be weaker. But Lucifer has agreed to help me understand."
" How had he? Cause Amara told me about her and Charlie walking in on you two...." Alastor quickly sat up and looked at her shocked and embarrassed.
" It was a kiss that Lucifer turned into more. He.....he said it was alright if it meant helping me figure it out. But I...." He was once human and yet understanding feeling like this is all new since he never had love or even liked anyone else before. But if a version of himself fell in love with Lucifer then perhaps he would or maybe he changed too much and all of this is just prolonging something that would destroy Lucifer.
" Dear it's alright to be weak and....."
" No, it's not. Being weak leads to pain or worse and I won't do it again Rosie. If I become weak someone will come for me, the radio demon had enemies, I have enemies, and if my guard is down they will kill me before I have a chance to turn around." He stood up quickly as he looked at Rosie. " But I can kill each and every one before they even think of it but I can't until heaven has stopped watching me and I can get away from here to do so."
That was an Alastor thing to say but there was a pain in that, there was someone who suffered enough. " Alastor there will always be someone after you dear, sinners crave power which you have, you have influence, and worst you are close to the king who they want dead but can't. But killing every sinner isn't who you are."
" It isn't who you knew but I'm not him. I look like him and may sound like him but he never went through everything I have. All I thought of for thousands of years was when I had a chance to get free was how I wanted to live free and at peace but coming to hell I saw how these sinners acted from the shadows and I see them even now. Their animals Rosie, maybe because their leader isn't good or perhaps they're just sinners. But they get this luxury of an afterlife despite most committing worse crimes than me." He sat back down as he calmed down. " Perhaps it's time for change."
" I agree that there are worse sinners than you but we can't kill all of them just for being human." But when she looked into his eyes she couldn't help but worry that's what he wanted. " Dear we kill that is just what we do but only if they come after us or get on our nerves a bit. But we are getting off track so tell me about the girls?" Changing the topic was better than knowing.
Alastor told her about Amara and Charlie even how he found Amara quite interesting even Charlie. But as they started to finish up there was a knock on the wall when she looked it was Lucifer so she stood up as she waved him in. " Lucifer......"
Lucifer had checked each radio tower but nothing leaving him with one final spot at Rosie's before he looked at Vox's if he saw that smug face he would kill him right then and there for taking Alastor for the night. Luckily he was right and there Alastor was laughing with Rosie. " Rosie.......do you think I could talk to Alastor for a moment?"
She looked back at Alastor who nodded so she started to walk out but stopped as she stood in front of Lucifer. " Hurt him again and you will deal with me."
" I won't." Once Rosie walked out he sat down across from Alastor. " No one owns you Alastor and no one ever will not even me. I love you which doesn't excuse what I did but I have been terrified that one day you will figure out that you don't like me and you will leave just.....just as everyone I love does. In just the short time we have had together Alastor you have become a part of me so if anyone owns anyone it is you. You own me Alastor cause I will do anything to be with you and if you left....I....I don't know if....." He couldn't cry so he sucked up the tears. " I gave you my word I would never hurt you and I did so if you.....if you don't want to be around me or any of us anymore I....I will understand."
Why did seeing Lucifer cry hurt? He wanted to stand his ground but when he saw the fresh tears start falling down Lucifer's face he crumbled. He stood up and sat beside Lucifer as he grabbed his hands. " We make mistakes Lucifer so owning up to them makes them that much harder. While I am still a bit upset with you I....I guess I understand why you said what you said." Just as Lucifer smiled, he spoke again. " But you do this again Lucifer I won't be coming here I will be somewhere you won't find me."
All he could do was nod until Alasor stopped speaking. " C...can I hug you and say how sorry I am?"
" No hugs for you you're being punished for being stupid now I have some things to attend to and no you may not join me or know where I am going." Alastor stood up as he twirled his staff.
Lucifer quickly stood up. " Can I know when you will be home please?"
He walked over to Lucifer as he gently cupped his cheek. " Nope." He then vanished.
Lucifer looked around but there was no Alastor but Rosie walked in. " He just.....he just left?"
" Lucifer he will play it off but you saying you owned him when he trusts you it hurt. He hurts enough Lucifer and.....and I think he should talk to someone about....about what happend to him. He will never go but he will if you go for you." Rosie walked over as she started to clean the table.
" Why would I need therapy? I'm fine." Rosie just looked at him. " Alright but....but where....."
" Well.....heaven? If it's in hell he will just kill them if they ask but in heaven he knows he can't. Or....or maybe a sin?" Rosie put the dishes in the sink and then walked over to Lucifer. " Lucifer, he's afraid of feeling anything because he doesn't want to be weak, he thinks if he's weak then he will go back. If you want him to stay with you and to get back the Alastor who loved you then he needs to stop being afraid."
" Do.....do you think he has feelings for me?" Lucifer was quickly sat.
Rosie sat down and looked at Lucifer who was clueless. " How are as old as time yet not see it? Lucifer he likes you if not more but he's terrified of being weak. He thinks once he gives in to these feelings everyone will come for him, and he wants to kill everyone,....he sees how sinners here are far worse than him yet they get an afterlife here while he had his in the void. He wants everyone to fear him so no one dares hurt him like Roo ever did but Lucifer, he may have a weakness of you and the girls....but not that angry alter. He will kill thousands if not millions just to make sure he's the only one in control."
Lucifer looked down at his ring then at Rosie. " I....I will make the call. Rosie.....thank you for being his friend."
" Dear, I would be his friend even if you hated me now shoo before I feast on some angelic flesh." Rosie laughed as Lucifer quickly teleported away.
Once Lucifer was in his room he pulled his phone out and talked to Alastor's doctor as he told her about how he wanted to get help for himself but how he wanted to get Alastor to go with him. She liked the idea and would find them someone for tomorrow and they would come to them. Now he just had to tell Alastor and hope he returned tonight not in the morning when the therapist would arrive.
Lucifer stayed up in bed reading hoping Alastor would come back. Not just hoping he was getting to the point where he would even try praying but that was a drastic measure. So he tried to keep himself busy from duck making, work, and reading. He eventually found a good enough book that took the time away until he looked away and there Alastor was. " How was your day, my love?"
" Quite fun but I should clean up." He looked down at himself as he took his jacket off revealing sinner blood splattered on his shirt he knew it was in his hair so he vanished and appeared in bed clean and with a book. " Your starring so there's something to say."
He put his book on his nightstand he turned to Alastor who looked at him. " I want to be better not just for our daughters but for you. I.....I am just scared so I was hoping you would sit with me. Like couple's counseling but you don't have to say anything? Or....or if you want we can both......"
" No." He opened his book to start reading but Lucifer snatched the book from his hands. " Lucifer if..."
" Alastor your meds are helping yes and the angry one hasn't been out in some time but love.......the scared one stayed with Vox last night." That got Alastor's attention real quick.
" Why the hell would you let it leave with him?" Now he was getting pissed.
Was Alastor really mad at him? " Alastor I didn't have a choice cause were supposed to be nice to that alter and he was terrified of me. I won't let it happen again but if you stayed in control then we wouldn't have to worry. You wouldn't have blackouts or missing time....I know you don't want to talk about it and I won't ever force you but you can just sit there and listen. See that it's not all that bad and how no one but you and the lady will know what I say." He grabbed Alastor's hands as he looked him in the eyes. " Please if you never talk then you never do but it would make everyone happy to see you trying even if you say nothing. Come on my love I know you don't want to come to one day and be with Vox."
" Fine but I say nothing and don't ask me to either." He held his hand out as his shadow handed him his book back and started to read as Lucifer looked at him still. " Now what Lucifer?"
" Can I read with you?" Lucifer lightly smiled as Alastor looked at him then slowly nodded and quickly he slipped under Alastor's arm as he laid his head on Alastor's chest as he read the book with Alastor.
When he got to the climax of the book he looked down at Lucifer to see him already asleep so as he put the book down his shadow turned off the lamp as he watched the fire burn until he fell asleep.
That morning Lucifer slid out of Alastor's arms as much as he hated to leave he didn't want to be late to the meeting. So he washed up and got ready before waking Alastor up who slowly got up and in a bink he was dressed and ready. He walked them to the libray where the maid told him the lady was. When they walked in she stood there looking at them. " Ah I'm Lucifer and this is......"
" Alastor. Honestly, I am shocked you decided to sit with me and Lucifer. I figured a couple of times and then you would show up I am glad you are here either way. But let's sit and Lucifer you can tell me about you two."
As Lucifer went on with how he met Alastor to him getting sicker than Alastor today he tried to grab Alastor's hand but he wouldn't let him so he just sat closer. " Yeah there's a lot that happend but....."
" But what made you depressed was the fall, how your family and everyone you ever knew and grew up with, how they looked at you then tossed you here never to check on you. Knowing you failed in heaven, how you lost your family and friends, but even with Lilith the pain of the fall and losing everything outweighed your love for Lilith." She wrote a few things down as Lucifer nodded to what she said. " When Lilith left it became worse until you met Alastor only for it all to come back and hurt even more than Lilith leaving you. Your depression is only bad cause you're afraid. Afraid you're not enough, that the life and family here will toss you away, that the ones you love will leave you, but worse you fear being alone with no one to hold you, to love you, or even just care."
Growing up his brothers laughed at him and some even bullied him but he was the favorite so he used it to his advantage. " I....I just want to be happy with my....my family."
" No one is saying you can't but you need to learn even just a little or few is enough and that you are Lucifer. It's alright to cry or ask for help it only makes you that much stronger Lucifer. We're almost out of time but until the day after next I want you to look in the mirror and say you are enough, you are loved, and you are never alone."
Lucifer had to snap a few boxes of tissues and was almost out. " W..wow I....I see why you the best."
" Thank you but the kings deserve someone who can help." She looked at the two as she stood up. " Alastor I want you to do the exercise as well."
Alastor chuckled as he remained seated. " I won't be something as stupid as that."
" Why? Lucifer is doing it to help himself and yet you call it stupid when it will help him."
" Saying some words to yourself in the mirror isn't going to do anything. It simply will make you either look crazy or stupid like this is. Besides I could have told him everything you did and saved an hour of our time that we could have been doing anything else." Alastor looked at Lucifer who was fidgeting with his ring. " Have you figured out why he does that? Cause he does it often and you know why... cause he does it to distract himself from what's going on around him, to remind himself of what he had before with the man who gave him that ring, how he would comfort him in his time of need but also how he will never get that back. His issues are all on the cover of his story you are just looking through blank pages."
" Am I? What about you? You say Lucifer's issues lay on the cover while your cover is that smile without it you would be an open book, a book full of suffering and trauma that you locked away in your head. Trama is so severe your mind shatters into two others just to get you through. My guess......one took most of the shit Roo did while the other was her right hand, that one is the result of what she did, and you.....you just carry the scars and the weight of it all but one day you won't be able to carry all of that forever Alastor. You will break one day Alastor and it won't be just your mind."
Alastor was going to just leave but Lucifer grabbed his hand when he looked at him he was in tears. " We're here for Lucifer not me so get that straight. You might be an angel but I don't mind tearing you to pieces if you say anything like that to me again."
" You could but Alastor you play this role as the monster and try to be this villain in every story but you are just masking your own........" She stopped when she saw Alastor's eyes go black. " Alright but wouldn't you like the chance for all of this, the voices, the memories, the blackouts to be over? Wouldn't you like to be one man, not 2 others? To have control over your own mind and body? The medication will only get you so far but wouldn't you like there to be less? Wouldn't you like peace?" She looked at Lucifer. " Wouldn't you like to know Alastor isn't suffering or that his alters won't hurt him or someone you care about? I want you both to think about all of this and Alastor I only said anything because you not wanting to talk about what happend will get someone hurt one day either yourself or someone else."
" Alright, thank you."
WARNING - BLOOD AND BLOOD DRINKING
Lucifer had to wait until the lady was gone before he let go of Alastor's hand cause if he didn't he knew he would have killed her. " Love, you know I know you won't hurt us right?"
Once she left and he looked at Lucifer and thought back to how Lucifer was acting, it all came together. " You did this Lucifer, didn't you? You said it was for you but it wasn't the full truth you wanted me to open up didn't you?" He quickly stood up as Lucifer looked away from him. " What the hell Lucifer?! You said you wouldn't push me and you do this?"
" Alastor I do want to help myself but I thought she would wait awhile before saying anything to you. I just wanted you to see that it wasn't that bad, that sharing didn't make you weak, and that it's okay to need help. I couldn't do it alone and that's why I wanted you here. Maybe we could both do this together or maybe you're just here for me that's it. If so I can tell her no more questions about you if you would like?" She was supposed to wait and ask Alastor questions but she just drove right in and probably ruined this for them. He got up and held his hand out for Alastor but he wouldn't take it. " I told you I wouldn't push you, and I wasn't, I just wanted you here for me and maybe see it's not so bad. Maybe even her helping me would help you in a way."
" If you want me to sit here with you for an hour then she isn't to ask me questions about myself. If she does Lucifer not only will I kill her and send her remains for heaven to see but I am gone, understood." Why was he starving? His stomach ached and just the little things like this were pissing him off.
It wasn't hurting Alastor to sit there but for him to threaten to leave was something he never thought something so little would do. " You don't mean that, right? You wouldn't leave over her just asking a question and you said you wouldn't hurt me like that."
" You said you wouldn't push me, you wouldn't hurt me either, and you made promises to the old me which you broke every single one. You want help but I don't think even you can be fixed, Lucifer. You're the king of hell and yet you're depressed because you fell thousands of years ago, Lilith left you, your first family hates you even now, and then your daughters you lie to them and hurt them. What kind of parent does that Lucifer? How can you hurt your own flesh and blood and think it's okay?" Alastor stepped closer to Lucifer who took steps back. " Once God's favorite son, the light bringer and here you are, hated and worst of all your weak."
" I am not weak!" Alastor wanted to hurt him but he wasn't letting him. " I have issues but I own mine!"
" Yes everyone knows due to your constant crying Lucifer. You're like a child with the ducks, the high emotions, the need to be loved, and the need to be with someone. You can lie to yourself all you want Lucifer but you're weak and if someone wanted to overthrow you it wouldn't be hard. Hell, I'm sure you wouldn't even be able to keep your own daughters safe." There was the devil he had seen in the books, the horns, the eyes, and the tail.
" Watch it, Alastor! My daughters are not something to joke around with." Lucifer was getting pissed off but attacking Alastor was the last thing he needed to do. " You want to talk about flaws then maybe we should talk about you. Besides the fact you can't control your own mind your fucking stubborn! You won't get the help you need and you say you don't lie but your are the biggest liar there is! You say your fine then smile all the fucking time when really your....."
He wasn't going to stand there and hear Lucifer talk about him so his shadow quickly knocked Lucifer into the bookshelves making them fall down . " I never did get to fight you and I wonder if you're too weak to fight."
As Lucifer teleported behind Alastor and tried to hit him he vanished only to pull his tail and then vanish. He was ready to knock some sense into Alastor but as he looked around for Alastor something slammed him into the floor he looked to see tentacles painfully wrapped around his wings making him cry out until he shifted into a mouse and then back to himself as he blasted at Alastor but he missed over and over. " If you're so fucking strong then you would face me!" When he heard that laugh he shot just as Alastor appeared knocking him into the wall as he teleported to him and punched him. " You're in my realm Alastor so you won't....." He spoke to soon and quickly something wrapped around his neck and threw him into the broken remains of a bookshelf. When he tried to get up there were pieces of wood in him which hurt but before he could even get up something held him against the ground as he looked he saw Alastor grabbing a piece of wood. " Enough you won."
" A fight isn't over until your enemy is over Lucifer that's how a fight works." He knelt down on the ground as he slid the piece of wood down Lucifer's chest as he fought but as he saw a flicker in Lucifer's eyes he stabbed the wood into his stomach. " I wouldn't do that Lucifer." As he pulled it out and watched Lucifer's angelic blood pour out of him he couldn't help but look at it.
With Alastor looking at him bleeding he managed to get a hand free and grabbed the first thing which was Alastor's ear which he didn't realize until he saw Alastor's eyes for a moment return to red. " I will let go when you...." Alastor's eyes quickly went black as he felt Alastor's hand digging into where Alastor stabbed him making him unintentionally hold Alastor's ear tighter then when he looked down between him yelling he saw Alastor pulling his insides out. " Stop it!"
He only did when he grabbed Lucifer's lung making him quickly stop yelling. " Let go of my ear." But he didn't and he let go of Lucifer's lung and bit Lucifer's shoulder hard making him let go. Strangely when he stopped and tasted the blood he wanted more so he bit Lucifer again but harder as he drank more until he was full. When he pulled away and looked at Lucifer he was a mess and he couldn't help but laugh. " Oh Lucifer look at you." He looked at Lucifer for a moment. " I guess I was a bit hangry as they say."
" I....I'd say." Lucifer was able to heal some but not the bit or his still bleeding stomach. " I want to kick your ass so bad if I could.....ah...."
" Understandable but this is easy." He held his hands over Lucifer's stomach and slowly put his hands on it as he healed Lucifer's stomach. " Better? You might be out of breath for a little while."
Lucifer sat up he held his shoulder as he looked at his stomach not even seeing a scar. But he was going to ask how but when he looked at Alastor the ear he grabbed laid flat as the other stood. " I fucked your ear up didn't I?"
" It's fine it's been worse. You get to enjoy that in exchange." As he stood up he licked his lips then wiped his blood from his face. " For someone so small you do pack a punch."
" Haha......fuck you still." He slowly stood up as he snapped his shoulder bandaged. " You will heal right?"
" Yeah my ear will just take some time like your shoulder but it's what I get. I crossed a line Lucifer and....."
Lucifer stopped Alastor right there. " That's where you went yesterday, wasn't it? You're hungry suddenly and it won't stop will it?" Slowly Alastor nodded. " My love it's your body preparing for the rut, last time you said my blood helped cause the hunger pains get pretty painful."
" How do I stop it?" Alastor sat down as he snapped Lucifer's chair fixed.
" You can't and this is going to be hard but I don't mind you having my blood as long as it doesn't hurt you." Lucifer scooted closer to Alastor. " For a couple days you will get even more hungry and angry which is why this all happend but I'll help you though it and when it passes you will sleep for a day or two before the rut starts. If you want we can keep you away from anyone so you don't give in but love it's been 20 years this will hurt if not worse." Lucifer thought for a moment but before he could say anything his phone started to ring when he looked to silence it, it was Charlie who had called almost 20 times so he quickly answerd on speaker.
" Charlie I'm sorry I didn't answer I....."
" Dad we need you and Alastor in sloth now."
" Why? Is something going on?"
".........Dad.......it's Amara...."
" What about Amara?"
" Dad she's hurt......hurt really bad.....I...."
" We're on the way."
END OF CALL.
Notes:
What happend to Amara? How will Alastor's rut be? Will Lucifer be able to satisfy Alastor's hunger? Will Vox's secret come out before it's too late? Will Lucifer and Angel forgive each other, or will they fight again, seeing each other? Will Alastor really leave if the therapist asks him a question about himself?
So much is going down but what? What will happen next?
Guess you will just have to come back and find out..........bye.
Chapter 31: Night Turned Bad
Summary:
Amara's night out, she meets a guy whom she quickly finds herself having feelings for, but it leads the night in the wrong direction. Everyone finds out about Amara, and Alastor goes to talk to Alice for answer's only the person who owned her made sure she couldn't say anything. Alastor finds himself feeling out of place, almost like a guest, so he leaves until Lucifer finds him and forces him back.
Notes:
I am not a doctor, but I do my research and use multiple resources when I write, so if something is wrong, I do apologize now. I use good resources, and I know some might say just don't write it, but it makes the story interesting.
Anyways enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
After her dad left Charlie and Vaggie ate breakfast with her then decided to go out and shop for something to wear to the party and she was getting more excited for the more outfits she tried on. Vaggie and Charlie loved this tight red dress as she liked the lesser one. But it was Charlie who convinced her the tight one would be better favored than the loser one so she got the tight one. Angel and even Cherri who came from heaven to help did her makeup and her hair which was straightened. When she looked in the mirror she barely looked like herself but she looked beautiful. Charlie took several photos of Angel and Cherri and even made her go to their dad's room and he just hugged her saying how beautiful his babies are and how she was growing up too fast. It was just a lot of emotions but he looked her in the eyes and told her how proud he was of her and she couldn't help but hug him and tell him she loved him.
Vaggie helped her get out of her dad's room before it was where she stayed all night. But as Charlie hugged her again and took a picture Alice arrived to pick her up. The ride was nice and catching up with Alice was fun but the car ride and the wind in her hair felt amazing. When she got there and saw all the different types of people, she got excited and even a little nervous as she walked in and eyes all quickly fell on her. But Alice forced her to dance and in no time the stares didn't matter to her anymore she was dancing to music she had never known, drinking drinks she had never had, but most of all she was having the best night ever.
When they finally tired out from dancing Alice showed her around and as they were getting another drink a guy walked up hugging Alice. " Oh, do you two know each other?" She just held her drink as she looked at the two.
" No shit who........Alice who is this goddess you brought with you?"
Alice walked over to Amara and locked arms with her. " This is my best friend Amara who is off limits, Thad. We're just here for some fun and....."
" If fun is what you want I can give both of you a night to remember. Amara, what do you say?" He smiled as he held his hand out to Amara.
Maybe it was the fact he was a hellhound or the way he looked at her but her legs felt weak just looking into his beautiful green eyes which shined like an emerald. " S...sure."
" Thad get lost we just want to stay here." Alice held Amara's arm tighter but she pulled away. " Amara trust me he isn't a good guy."
" Tonight is about having fun and....." Amara looked at Thad then Alice and mouthed. " Please, he's hot."
" Come on I don't see such beauty like you around much so let's go somewhere where the party will never stop." Thad held his hand out as Amara looked at him so he walked closer pulling her close. " You smell as good as you look."
" Haha......thanks." Words, she needed to speak but nothing would come out whatever Thad wanted she did. " Let's party!"
Thad walked out with Amara close as he asked her about herself until they walked to the train station to Greed. When they got off they walked to a busy warehouse which from down the street alone you could hear the music but also the lights in the sky. " Amara this is going to be the best night of your life and I will make sure of it. But first...." He stopped as he slowly moved the hair from her face and tried to kiss her but Alice pulled him away. " What the hell?!"
" I said no! Thad, she isn't some girl to play with or fuck one night then leave her!" Alice turned to Amara. " Please listen to me and let's just go back to mine and get into comfy pajamas and watch romance movies."
Alice knew she wanted to do that but as she looked at Thad she felt her heart race. " I want to try this Alice, I have never done anything like this, and I.....I like him."
Thad walked over to Amara. " Mmmm....girl I like you two. You're not like anyone I have seen before and damn do you look hot as hell. Stick with me baby and I will make it a night you never forget." Thad walked in with Amara but as Amara looked at everyone he turned back to Alice and some guys and then pointed at Alice. Before she could scream she was dragged away. " Come meet my friends." He walked over to his friends as he shook their hands. " Amara this is my best guy, Brody. We might work together but we chill together."
" Damn Thad, where the hell did you find this hot piece?"
Amara saw all these hellhounds stand up and they weren't just tall but they were huge. Their arms were almost her size. " Um....where did Alice go?"
" Oh, she's probably found someone to dance with or fuck. Don't worry you with us no one will bother you unless they want me to beat the loving shit out of them." He pulled Amara close as he grabbed her thin waist. " Your part deer aren't you?"
" Y....yea?" Something wasn't right here, Alice wouldn't just leave her but when Thad grabbed her tail the thought was lost as she looked at Thad shocked until he kissed her. It was her first kiss and she couldn't help but grab the back of Thad's neck. " Why don't you get me a drink before one of your friends does it first."
Thad looked Amara up and down as his friends started laughing. " Anything you want and don't worry about them they will be nice."
" Mmm.....I'm not very nice so chop chop." As Thad walked away she sat down as his friends quickly sat around her.
" Names Josh nice to meet you....princess." He smiled as he scooted closer. " What's a royal doing all the way down here? Shouldn't you be in your little place with your king of a father?"
" I could but girl's gotta have some fun and you forgot one person who lives in the little place....my father...the radio demon. You know...the guy who almost destroyed heaven and plays those screams for everyone to hear." Amara grabbed his shirt and pulled him close. " Making me part him so back the hell off before I show you that muscles don't mean shit against my family."
Thad walked over to see Josh close to Amara. " Josh get the hell away from her before I put you in that fucking wall." Once Josh moved he handed Amara her drink as he looked at her. " Hope they didn't bother you."
Amara downed her drink and then looked at Thad. " If they did I could handle him."
He just laughed as he pulled Amara into another kiss but this one was much longer and deeper. " Wanna go to mine?"
" I should text........who....who did I come with?" She was drawing a blank suddenly on how she even got here but as Thad kissed her again she just nodded as he picked her up. Her legs felt numb as they made it back to his but when the door opened, everything went blank.
Lucifer just looked at Alastor who quickly stood up and in a blink they were in sloth looking for Charlie. Alastor found her first and he ran with everything he could to Charlie, she had been crying and she wasn't alone. Vaggie, Husk, Angel, Cherri, and even Niffty who was crying into Husk. But it only made him worry more until he felt Alastor's hand on his shoulder. " Charlie what happend? She was fine when she left the palace and......"
" Dad...." Charlie just hugged her dad as she cried into his arms until she saw Alastor look at her confused. " I didn't see her Dad but they said she was beaten, a....a few broken bones....and...."
Vaggie walked over and rubbed Charlie's back. " Looks like someone wanted to send a message and drugged her so she couldn't fight back. Her friend Alice made the call but she was beaten too. Bel called Charlie but you wouldn't answer Lucifer. But they were waiting on you to tell us how she is."
" ALASTOR!" Niffty looked over to see Alastor standing there and quickly ran to him and up to his arm and hugged him. " I missed you! I did everything you wanted and I played with Amara and even showed her what you wanted."
" What is this?" Alastor looked at the bug on his arm then everyone but stopped at Husk.
" That's Niffty and she's good. Just hold her." Husk had been asleep when Angel and Cherri busted his door down to wake him up to the point where he couldn't even change and they woke Niffty up who wasn't not coming when she herd.
Alastor just held the bug girl in his arms as he looked at Charlie. " Why was Amara brought here when she can heal?"
" Love, she can't heal like I do and your healing is new but even Charlie can't so if they get hurt they take longer to heal like a regular sinner." Lucifer grabbed Alastor’s hand and Charlie’s as he saw a doctor quickly walking toward them, her pace urgent, her face strained.
The doctor barely slowed when she reached them, already speaking, her voice tight and rushed. “ Mr. Morningstar, I know you must have a lot of questions, but right now, as Amara’s father, we need your permission to operate.”
Lucifer’s chest tightened. “ Operate?” His voice broke, panicked and raw. “ What happened? What......what’s wrong with her?”
The doctor took a steadying breath, but there was no room for sugarcoating. “ She was beaten by the looks of it. She’s got a couple of broken ribs, but one of those ribs punctured her lung. She’s bleeding internally, and it’s progressing fast. We have to open her up immediately or she won’t make it another hour.”
Charlie’s breath hitched sharply, her grip on her Dad's hand tightening as her eyes brimmed with tears that quickly spilled down her cheeks.
Lucifer’s hands were shaking. His whole body felt like it was collapsing in on itself. His baby girl was behind those doors, hurt, and fighting for her life, and he was frozen, unable to breathe, unable to think. He turned, almost instinctively, looking to Alastor, clinging to him with frantic, pleading eyes. “ Alastor.....,” his voice cracked, “ You’re her father too. I… I don’t can't.....”
Maybe if he felt a parental instinct or knew what it was this would hurt or he would just feel something. But with the time he did spend with Amara, he knew she deserved to live and she accepted her as her late father not as the man who killed her friend in front of her. “ Let them operate.”
Lucifer nodded, tears welling in his eyes as he squeezed both of their hands. The doctor gave a sharp nod, spun on her heel, and ran back toward the doors, shouting orders to the surgical team as she disappeared down the hall. Lucifer crumbled with Charlie not even caring if he fell onto the ground. Only he sat on a chair as Charlie clung to Vaggie who was in tears as well as everyone else even Husk shed a tear but not Alastor. So he quickly held him as he cried even felt Niffty curl up between him and Alastor as he cried. " I....I can't lose her Alastor! She's....she's our little froggy and....."
" Lucifer she will be alright." Alastor looked at Husk then Vaggie. " Vaggie was it?" She nodded. " You mind taking him? I need to step out for a moment."
" W...what?" Alastor wasn't seriously going to leave right now? But he stood up as Lucifer cried for him. " Alastor you can't leave."
" I can do what I wish." Alastor fixed Lucifer's hair as he looked him in the eyes. " Don't waste your tears when your daughter is alive so breath." He turned to Husk then vanished him and Husk away.
" No!" Lucifer tried to grab Alastor but Vaggie quickly held him as he cried harder. Not only was he scared for Amara but now Alastor was gone when he needed him.
Vaggie held Charlie and Lucifer as they cried while Cherri quickly walked over to help as Angel looked at them. " It's alright." Angel walked over and held Lucifer with Cherri.
Husk knew Alastor's looks and what they meant but it had been so long without him around and Alastor had changed from who he was that he couldn't figure the looks out. One moment Alastor was looking at him as Lucifer clung to him in tears then next he was standing up then they were standing in a hallway. " What the hell Alastor? We need to be out there with them not.......what the hell are we doing?" He saw Alastor's shadow hand him a clipboard. " Hello?!"
" Well we can sit out there for hours as they all cry or we can find out what happend and who. Unless you think those girls did this to themselves?" Alastor just needed the room number and then started to walk.
Niffty was excited sitting on Alastor's shoulder but he quickly put together Alastor's plan. " Hey, we don't even know if this girl is awake and if you kill her....."
" Who said anything about killing I just want some information that's all." Husk wasn't giving up so when they were about to walk up to the room he stopped. " I will just talk to her and you will help me."
Husk looked at the two. " What about looking out? I can do that instead......" When he turned around he saw giant shadows behind him making him step away quickly. " I will go with you, boss."
" Wonderful. Besides, if someone hurt Lucifer's child because they want to get to me then I need to show them just how wrong they are." He vanished into the room to find some girl lying in a bed asleep with machines connected to her and other stuff he couldn't care for. " Niffty mind waking her up." Niffty happily nodded and pulled out a sowing needle and poked the girl's hand making her wake up but she quickly looked at him terrified. " Good, so you know who I am."
" I.....I tried....I told Amara we should leave but....but she wouldn't listen to me. I broke free and ran until I....I found her and......I'm....I'm so sorry sir."
Alastor pulled a chair over as he looked at the girl. " Alice was it? I heard they did this to get to me or Lucifer I need you to tell me who they wanted to hurt with this little act and who they are."
" I.....I can't."
Husk quickly walked over. " Kid either tell him what he wants or you will wish they killed you. Trust me."
" I can't he owns me, sir! Even if I wanted to I can't!"
" Boss she's Mammons. He has it out for you and Lucifer but when Amara wakes up she can tell us if she remembers. But Boss we can't force her cause he owns her and can stop her from saying anything." Husk turned to the girl. " He's going to kill you for calling for help."
" I....I couldn't let her die. Is she okay?"
Alastor stood up as he fixed his jacket. " She's still in surgery so who knows perhaps this Mammon will get what he wanted."
" Boss."
" Right well you should start running from your owner but if I find out you knew about this or anything you will not deal with me but your king." Alastor just smiled as he vanished them back to the waiting room. " Who is Mammon?"
" W...why?" Lucifer wiped his tears as he looked at Alastor.
Husk looked at everyone and then spoke. " Alice couldn't tell us who but it was because the man who owns her wouldn't let her. Mammon owns her and he has it out for both of you. My guess is he sent someone to rough Amara up to send a message to both of you or more.....Alastor. Guess he doesn't know this guy doesn't even care."
Lucifer held his arms out as he looked at Alastor who walked over and sat down as he just held him. " We will deal with Mammon once Amara is alright. Love, are you hungry?"
" I can hold off." It wasn't the time even if he was starving to the point he could almost taste Lucifer's blood again.
The last thing anyone needed to Alastor raging so he kissed his cheek and then stood up. " Love I need to use the bathroom can you come with me?" Alastor just looked at him confused so he grabbed his hand walked him to the bathroom and locked the door he jumped onto the sink and he took his jacket off and shirt. " I don't want you to hold off for me, love. Besides no one needs a hangry Alastor."
His mouth was watering as he could hear Lucifer's blood pumping through his body. " Are you sure Lucifer?"
Lucifer nodded as he pulled Alastor over and wrapped his legs around his waist. " Thank you for thinking of me, my love but please I don't you to suffer. But do you think you could not bite so hard?"
He grabbed Lucifer's hands as he looked him in the eyes then nodded as he kissed Lucifer's neck slowly he bit down but not as hard as before but this time he held Lucifer's hands and gasped loudly at the feeling. But he didn't want to stop but after a while, he felt Lucifer's grip loose so he pulled away. " Would you like to try?"
Besides being lightheaded he just nodded as Alastor took his jacket off then unbuttoned a few buttons and strangely he bit down at first, he didn't like it but suddenly felt himself getting stronger so he bit harder but he lost when he felt Alastor bite him harder. After a while, he had enough and pulled away. " I am shocked at how good that tasted."
" Glad now clean up the doctor shall be with everyone else just as we walk over." As he fixed his shirt he stopped as he laughed at Lucifer hoping down and putting his jacket back on. He walked over to him and he grabbed Lucifer's face. " What would you do without me?" He licked his thumb and then wiped Lucifer's cheek which had his blood on it.
It wasn't the place or time to do it but when was it? So as Alastor looked down at him laughing he couldn't help but grab his shirt collar and pull him down for a kiss. " I know you remember how your last rut we destroyed everything in sight and we fed off each other. Just saying but I won't mind being the one you cuddle with before it starts."
As he fixed his shirt Lucifer just walked out but he was a bit impressed and when he walked back out and sat down the doctor just as he said walked over as everyone but him and Niffty got up. They were family he was simply a face.
Lucifer needed to know what was going on so he didn't force Alastor up but he quickly held Charlie's hand as the doctor walked up to them. “ How is she?” Lucifer asked, his voice cracking, barely able to hold it together.
“ The surgery went well,” she began. “ We were able to stop the bleeding and repair her lung. The drugs that were still in her system have mostly worn off, but they made things more complicated at first. She’s stable now. But.....,” the doctor continued gently, “ She’s going to be sore. The trauma to her chest alone will make breathing painful for a while until it heals fully. She’ll be weak, and extremely tired, and it’ll take time before she feels like herself again. She also has a broken leg and wrist. Both are already set and cast, but she’ll be on restricted movement for some time. Physically she’ll heal — but emotionally, she’ll need some time but she kept mumbling about a certain Papa.”
Charlie wiped her tears quickly, her voice shaking. “ But… she’s awake? She’ll wake up soon?”
The doctor nodded softly. “ She’s already starting to stir, but she’s still very groggy from the anesthesia. We’re moving her into recovery now. But the immediate family be able to sit with her shortly. I will be back shortly.”
Lucifer gripped Charlie’s hand tightly, glancing briefly at Alastor, who sitting behind him, his expression unreadable like always. " Thank you.” When the doctor walked back he hugged Charlie. " She's going to be alright Charlie."
" I....I pushed her to go......I told her to get that dress and.....and I never called. I...I should have called her, I should have told her to be careful.....I should have......" Charlie pulled away from her Dad as she looked at him.
" Oh ducky you can't blame yourself for this and we still don't really know what happend but I do know this isn't your fault. You are her big sister and you wanted her to have fun, to let loose. No one would have guessed this would happen." He didn't need to look at Alastor to know he was going to say something so he looked at him and shook his head. " For now we will be with her and when she is better we will find who did this." When Charlie sat down he walked over to Alastor and sat down. " I need the bastard who hurt our little girl to pay Alastor, I need this to be the last time anyone in my family gets hurt."
" Who is Mammon and why would he have it out for us?" Alastor turned to Lucifer who looked at Charlie holding onto Vaggie.
" Mammon is the deadly sin of Greed. You publicly beat his ass and he became a joke to just about everyone. So when you vanished he took it out on me only I returned the favor and shut down his little drug den then crumbled the business making him lose millions. He loves money and I took it away as well as you which no normal sinner could take on deadly sin which you did even sick." Lucifer turned to Alastor. " He might have made the order but he didn't hurt our daughter someone else did and I won't let this slide."
" This will be exciting to see the king in action. Perhaps even stoop as low as a mere sinner." Alastor looked down at the bug. " Niffty do you mind keeping an eye on that little friend we saw earlier? I have a feeling she will lead us to the one in charge." Niffty just giggled and then ran off and surprisingly he found her quite useful.
How long it took for someone to take them to see Amara was starting to be almost an hour. Lucifer just watched the clock on the wall tick with each passing second. Each second he could be with his daughter who was just beyond those doors but everyone said he had to wait. Being the one who carried his daughter he felt closer to them just because he held them inside of himself for 9 months, so knowing his own flesh in blood was just a few rooms down was killing him. Luckily when he heard the doors open again it was the doctor this time, not a false alarm or false hope. Lucifer stood up so fast it startled Charlie when the doctor appeared. His voice cracked as it rushed out. “ Can we see her now?”
The doctor nodded softly. “ Yes. She’s in recovery. She’s stable.”
Without hesitation, Lucifer gently pulled Charlie to her feet as they hurried after the doctor, every step heavy with both dread and desperate relief. Alastor followed quietly behind them, saying nothing. This was still all so new to him, fatherhood, family, belonging, but he didn't feel anything like Lucifer did. And right now, it felt like he was intruding on a moment that wasn’t his to hold.
When the doctor finally stopped and pushed open the door, the air seemed to vanish from the world. Lucifer froze. There, lying in the hospital bed, was his little girl, but not the way any parent should ever see their child.
Amara’s pale skin was scarred with deep, swollen bruises, covering her cheek, her jaw, and her temple, ugly shades of purple, blue, and yellow. The corner of her lip was cracked, a small bandage covered a cut above her brow, and her eye was swollen just enough that even in unconsciousness, it looked painful. Tubes ran into her nose, and wires from monitors trailed along her arms, one of which was elevated and wrapped in a thick cast. Her leg was propped up, encased in another heavy cast, held steady by straps and braces. Machines beeped softly, recording every fragile breath and beat of her heart. She looked so small. So helpless.
Lucifer nearly collapsed at her side, grabbing hold of her hand as his tears spilled freely. “ My baby girl… I’m here, sweetheart… you’re safe.”
Charlie rushed to the other side of the bed, her voice cracking as she wiped at her tears. “ We’re here, Amara. We’re not leaving.”
Alastor remained in the doorway, unmoving. He watched them from a distance, his hands folded awkwardly in front of him. But that’s all he felt like: distant. A guest. A visitor in someone else’s family. He hadn’t raised her, hadn’t been there to watch her grow up and this was their world, not his. Their moment and it wasn’t his place to be in it.
The doctor quietly slipped out, leaving them in silence. Lucifer turned his head, noticing Alastor standing there. He stretched out his hand. “ Alastor… come sit. She needs you.”
Alastor hesitated, shaking his head gently. “ This is your moment. I… I don’t want to intrude more than I have already.”
Charlie’s eyes widened, her voice soft but urgent through her tears. “ You’re not intruding. You’re her father too.”
Alastor lowered his gaze, struggling for the right words. “ No the man you knew was, I'm not that person and I am no parent. ”
Charlie wiped at her eyes, her voice trembling. “ But even in just this little time… you’ve already become the father she always dreamed you would be. She talks about you like you’re everything she hoped you’d be. You belong here. None of us ever thought we would see you again and we did and Amara met her father.”
Alastor smiled faintly, though sadness lingered in his eyes. “ I’m grateful for those words… but I believe I should leave you both to be with her.” Before either could protest he vanished to the waiting room as he picked up a newspaper to read.
As much as Lucifer wanted to run after Alastor and bring him back in he couldn't leave Amara's side. He gently kissed her limp hand. " We got you, Amara… We got you.” He just laid his head down on the bed as he held Amara's hand close until he slowly fell asleep.
Charlie knew her Dad wouldn't get much sleep with Amara being in the hospital so she watched the two sleep. Vaggie brought a little handheld radio that she played for the two softly as she just watched the two sleep. It had to be hours and when she looked at the window it was pitch black outside even finding herself getting tired. But as she started to fight back sleep she saw Amara starting to move and quickly shook herself awake as she leaned over to her as Amara opened her eyes. " Hey....how are you feeling?"
When she saw Charlie and felt her touch she couldn't stop herself from crying.
" It's alright Amara everyone is here and me and Dad have been right here." Charlie grabbed a tissue and gently dapped the tears on Amara's bruised cheeks. " Get some sleep alright?"
When she looked over she saw her dad holding her hand asleep but when she looked around the room she didn't see her father. " Where's my father?"
" He outside but he's here. You need to rest Amara and....."
" No....no I want my Papa." She tried to sit up but it hurt too much making her fall back unknowingly waking her Dad up.
Lucifer woke up instantly when he felt Amara move only when he sat up and looked at her she was crying. " Froggie it's okay."
" No! I want him, please!" Screaming only made the pain worse but all she wanted was her father.
The chances that Alastor was still here were quite slim but he heard the monitor's beeping faster and he panicked. " Okay just please calm down Amara you need to take it easy." He looked at Charlie and then walked out but once he was in the hallways he teleported to the lobby only Alastor wasn't there so he teleported to Alastor find himself in a warehouse as he walked around the crate he saw if not hundreds of bodies lying on the floor torn to pieces. The ground flowed in blood and the air smelled almost like metal but when he looked more he saw Alastor sitting there tearing flesh from bones. " Alastor what the hell is this?"
" Oh I got a bit peakish so I figured to have some fun and a snack while also doing some business. See these sinners all work for this Mammon guy and this is one of several illegal businesses. I now say there's.....6 or 8 left." Alastor hopped down as he snapped himself clean. " Don't worry none of these are your guys. One little blabber mouth said Mammon was talking to some hellhound gang who agreed to take the job."
" Alastor this will only piss him off more and thank you for getting that information but are daughter is asking for you." Lucifer took a step and heard a crunch when he looked down it was a severed jaw. " How...."
" Blabber mouth like I said but no. I give my regards though." Alastor patted Lucifer's back and was about to walk out when he suddenly was standing in the hospital hallway. " Really?"
" I said our daughter wants you and you're going Alastor. She is hurt because...."
Alastor laughed as he walked closer to Lucifer. " Because of you and the other Alastor, not me."
" YOU ARE HIM! YOU DON'T REMEMBER BUT YOU ARE THE SAME MAN ALASTOR! Look our daughter is hurt and in pain so please just go in there. When she falls asleep you can back to pissing Mammon off more." Lucifer motioned to the door as he looked at Alastor. " You may not feel like a parent but you are Alastor and I know deep down you care about Amara and our family, I think it's why you even agreed to take the meds so unless you want me to keep going then walk in there."
Slowly he walked up to Lucifer as he looked him in the eyes ready for him to break but Lucifer held his ground. " Nice move."
Talking or even thinking about what happend right made everything worse but she wanted her father and she kept asking Charlie as she calmed down. Charlie sat beside her on the bed gently rubbing her arm until the door opened and when she looked there he was. " Papa?"
Charlie carefully got up as she motioned Alastor to sit but he just stood there beside the bed. " Alastor you can sit with her."
" I....I'm sorry....I.....I would be like this if....if I just stopped and thought. If I remembered everything I learned from your stories and........and never trusted him." She wanted to sit up and hug her father but it hurt too much. " I failed you.....I failed your name........all....all I have ever wanted was to be you but....."
" You never failed because you never were me 'cause you can't be someone you're not. With Lucifer being your blood and the person who raised you with a sister who loves you then you never could have been me. You have a dad who yes lied and kept you locked in a giant palace but he never hurt you and you have a sister who is crazy about you than all of her friends who treat you as family. You have a good heart, Amara, and from what I heard you struggled with killing." Alastor snapped his staff as he looked at it. " This doesn't make you me and if you thought it did then you lied to yourself dear."
" I...I just wanted you to be proud of me." Amara felt her tears fall but she couldn't look at anything but her father. " I....I wanted to be someone other than a spare."
Alastor snapped his staff away as he sat down beside Amara. " Then find out who you are 'cause an overlord isn't it. If....if I am who you all think then you're not Charlie's shadow or her spare." He grabbed Amara's wrapped wrist and gently laid it on his lap as he took the bandages off.
Amara looked at her hand than her father. " Then who am I?"
As he finished the last piece he tossed the bandages aside as he cupped Amara's wrist. " Who you are even I can tell you that but....there is so much more you have yet to learn my dear." His hands glowed green as Amara looked at him in a panic. " A world lost to the world which you opened. You're the reason I am here and yes I know it was you."
" How?" When her father let go of her wrist she looked to see it healed.
" Cause you the only one who could cause part of you might be angelic but you are no sinner. I can feel the part of you that belongs where I do, a place I have recently found out.....I rule." He looked back at Lucifer and then at Amara. " Hell has their future queen but the void doesn't."
" But heaven......?"
" Darkness will always overpower the light. They want to destroy it let them try it would be fun to watch them fail. Even more when they see the changes." Alastor gently wiped Amara's tears. " Think about it but for now heal."
Amara grabbed her father's hand. " Will you find them?"
" You shouldn't......"
" He used me, said all this nice stuff to me even called me a goddess. He was my first and he did this Papa. Bruises will heal but...not the scars....not.....not the way this will change me." Amara looked at her dad who looked at her afraid. " I want to have what you and Papa have."
" Oh froggy." Lucifer sat on the other side of the bed and kissed her hand. " You will find the right person one day but not today."
Charlie walked to the foot of the bed as she looked at Amara worried. " Amara did you and him.......you know?"
She remembered the kissing and being carried back to Thad's but the next thing she remembered was being beaten everything hurt and her dress now that she thought about it was torn. " No.......no no no!"
Lucifer quickly moved to keep Amara lying down as she started screaming and shaking. " Amara please calm down."
Amara kept screaming but he watched Lucifer trying to calm her down as he watched doctors run it then it hit him and he pushed Lucifer off as he grabbed her hands. " You blacked out so you don't know do you?" She looked at him full of tears and sobs then nodded. " Then the memories will come back but for now you don't know so making yourself worse is only giving them what they want so close your eyes and listen to that radio. Ignore everything but the radio and breathing." Amara held his hands tight as she listened to him.
Lucifer just felt sick and just watched Alastor calm Amara down as the doctor injected something into Amara's IV making her slowly fall asleep but even asleep she held Alastor's hands. " How?" When Alastor didn't look at him for a moment it hit him making him cover his mouth as he looked at Alastor who kept looking at Amara.
Charlie looked at Alastor and then her dad confused. " I don't understand. How did you know?"
When Alastor's mom and Charlie came to the rehab and they started talking about Alastor and started getting dark he had forgotten that Charlie had to step out after the story about the cellar with Alastor's father. " Charlie....." He couldn't tell her and not with Alastor.
Lucifer would leave Charlie questioning until someone told her so he waited and then spoke. " I knew because it happend to me only when I woke up I knew what happend I just didn't how much." He looked at Amara's hands and neck but nothing thankfully.
The doctor stood there as Charlie slowly put the pieces together and started crying. " I can run the test but......"
" Do it." Lucifer rushed over to the bed then gently kissed Amara's cheek then Alastor who kept looking at Amara. " Love?"
Carefully he put a hand on Amara's heart and then stood up and vanished.
" I will do it right away but you both will need to step out."
Lucifer walked out with Charlie who was shaking. " It's going to be alright."
" Did.....did someone force themself on Alastor?" Alastor in her eyes never could be forced into anything, he was strong and smart.
Lucifer sat Charlie down as he grabbed her hands. "Diego and Alastor were drugged so neither knew. Deigo had a crush on Alastor for years so when he was drugged, he thought Alastor wanted it and when he woke up Alastor was gone. Only days later, everything that really happend came back to him and Alastor was......he was screaming." Even thinking about it hurt but for Alastor it had to be crushing. "Diego tried to explain and apologize but Alastor locked himself away from the world. But he loved Alastor and if he wasn't drugged, he would have stopped...he...."
" Please don't.....don't tell me." Charlie clung to her dad as she cried until the doctor walked over. " Is my sister going to be okay?"
Notes:
What will the doctor tell Charlie and Lucifer? Where did Alastor go? Will Lucifer and Alastor find who hurt Amara? What changes did Alastor make to the void? How will Charlie handle hearing about Alastor and Diego? Will Mammon learn his lesson and leave the Morningstar family alone, or will he attack again since Alastor is killing business?
If you're scared...............( read the tags.) Until next time.......bye.
Chapter 32: Hitting A Wall
Summary:
After they find out the results, Lucifer finds Alastor, only to find out he causes himself pain when painful memories emerge. In the heat of his anger, Alastor's angry alter came out, hurting Lucifer, only making Alastor feel worse when he came to. Alastor makes it up to Lucifer by bathing him, but it leads to something more. Amara opens up to who hurt her.
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Lucifer held Charlie's hand tightly out of fear for Amara as they looked at the doctor. " Please say it didn't happen."
She smiled at the two. " Your sister and your daughter are still a virgin."
Quickly he jolted to his feet as he looked at the doctor. " Please tell me this is true and you're not saying this because I said so."
" Lucifer, your daughter, while banged up, will be fine. But is your partner alright? He talked her through that as if he had been through what she had."
Charlie stood up and grabbed her dad's arm. " Find him, Dad. I will be here with Amara but he should know the good news."
" Call me when she wakes up please ." When Charlie nodded he teleported to Alastor. The room was dark but as he looked around he heard a loud pounding almost a cracking sound so when he lit the room up he found Alastor punching the wall but it wasn't just some wall it was solid concrete from the looks of it. " Alastor what ...." Then he saw the blood splattered on the wall and running to the floor. " What are you...."
" Get out of here, Lucifer." The memory once fogged, but in a matter of days , it became clear . After he died, the memory played in his head unless he was in pain—not just some, but excruciating. So when he realized why Amara was freaking out, he thought back to the time, but he didn't want to lose control, so he left.
Lucifer quickly ran over to Alastor as he saw his hands not just dripping in the blood it was the bone poking out and his hands shaking. " My love, you breaking your hands you have to stop." But as he reached for Alastor's hand he jerked his hands away from him.
" Lucifer, leave me alone!" Alastor balled his fists and then turned to Lucifer. " I did what you asked now go!"
" No! Cause something is wrong and you don't leave the people you love to suffer or hurt themself." Lucifer held himself as he looked up at Alastor. " I know this is because of him Alastor. But Amara is going to be okay they checked." Alastor just looked at the wall but he could see the blood dripping from Alastor's hands and in a blink, he was hitting the wall again. " STOP IT, PLEASE!" But he didn't so he snapped Alastor tied up as he forced him to sit down. " Hurting yourself isn't helping anything Alastor if you...." He stopped when he heard Alastor laughing making him even take a step back.
" What I do has nothing to do with you so I would remove these before I smash your head into that wall until the only thing someone can identify you is your blood." Alastor looked up at Lucifer as he smiled sharply until he saw his answer and whistled making several shadows appear behind him. " If you don't not only will they but they will make you wish you listened to me."
With a quick thought, he snapped the light the doctor gave them to force Alastor's switch but as he hit the button he was slammed into the wall making him drop it. As he tried to fight the shadows off he teleported behind them but as he was about to grab the light something hit him in the head making everything go black. When he woke up he was lying in a puddle of his own blood with a killer headache but no Alastor. Weakly he crawled to the light and then tried to teleport to him but it hurt his head worse he pushed through and found himself bracing himself on the wall as he looked he saw bodies but the building was full of screams which only made his head hurt more . Yet again he pushed through as he looked for Alastor the best he could until he saw him shredding a sinner into pieces as they screamed and begged until death. " Alastor....s...stop...."
He figured Lucifer would bleed out before waking up but he was wrong which surprised him but he walked over as he licked his lips. " Shocked you're even standing despite how much you're bleeding."
Slowly and painfully he looked behind him and he saw the trail of his blood. " Can't....can't kill me can...you?
" Haha! I just wanted one of your daughters to see the mess you are and just how weak you are." Alastor vanished and appeared as he grabbed Lucifer's throat and slammed him in the eyes as he laughed at Lucifer's pain. " Want to join your brothers?"
With what he had left he flashed the light into Alastor's eyes knocking him back as he fell to the ground as he fell painfully as he forced himself to stay awake. " Come on my love."
He was talking to Lucifer and now he was suddenly in another place but as he looked at Lucifer his head was bleeding badly so he quickly rushed over just as Lucifer started to lay down. " Hey....come on Lucifer stay with me." He forced his shadows to hand him towels to stop the bleeding. " This wouldn't have happend if you just listened to him."
Lucifer was going to give in to the sleeping but as he tried in Alastor's arms he woke up and screamed when Alastor broke his finger. " Ah! What the hell!"
Alastor just focused on healing Lucifer's head after fixing Lucifer's finger and then let go. " This is my fault Lucifer and I....."
" It's alright you healed me." Lucifer rubbed his cheek on Alastor's chest as he enjoyed being in Alastor's arms, especially this way. " Sorry for bringing it up but I couldn't leave you were hurting yourself."
" Lucifer's pain makes it go away it always has but I heal so there's no permanent damage." As Lucifer sat up in his arms he saw Lucifer worried but Lucifer looked at him even more concerned as he finished speaking. " Are you alright?"
Lucifer gently laid a hand on Alastor's cheek as he looked him in the eyes. " You shouldn't have to hurt yourself to make the memories go away Alastor but I'm alright I might just need a nap." He laid his head on Alastor's chest as he lookeddown at Alastor's hand to see it already healed. " You can always come to me if it gets bad rather than doing this. I know you heal but it still hurts knowing this is what you do to cope."
Alastor laid his head on Lucifer's hair as he enjoyed the whiffs of apple from Lucifer's hair. " You should get back to Amara."
" Charlie said she would call me when Amara woke up and we can be there in the blink of an eye. Besides I am a bit sore from you beating me up and being knocked out . Could ...... could we take a hot bath? Or you give me one?" Lucifer slowly looked up at Alastor as he gave him the sad puppy eyes. " You did hurt me."
He laughed as he ruffled Lucifer's hair. " I guess I did cause this but I am not getting in with you but......but I guess I can give you one." He rolled his eyes as Lucifer squealed in excitement then vanished them to Lucifer's bedroom. " I will get it started while you prepare yourself."
Lucifer waited until Alastor walked into the bathroom before laying back on the bed where Alastor had gently sat him and silently he had a little party to himself. When he heard the water turn on he slid off the bed to his closet as he changed into his robe and when he walked in he saw Alastor even remembering the memory of them bathing in bubbles. " Well look at you remembering I like bathing with bubbles."
" I just saw several bottles and figured as much. It also hides what's underneath the water now get in as I get your towel." He walked away he grabbed the towel as he heard Lucifer getting into the water.
It was hot to the point it was almost too much for him but he slid in and quickly relaxed as Alastor turned around and sat on the side of the tub. " You know you did forget....." He blinked and there were a few ducks in the water. " Haha."
" I imagine this how you bathe a child?" Lucifer looked at him for a moment then went back to giggling as he started to wash Lucifer's hair.
Lucifer laid back as he felt Alastor scrubbing his scalp but he couldn't help but ask. " Alastor earlier you said I could join my brothers what does that mean?" When he heard Alastor sigh he looked up at him. " I know you can bring them back and I won't force you."
" It's not that it's....it's the fact I just learned what was going on down there." Alastor looked over at the door then Lucifer. " The whole king thing I just learned."
It made sense that out of the alters the void had picked the heartless one but for not even Alastor to know what it was doing it couldn't be easy so he grabbed Alastor's hand. " You know I have never been with a king before much less met a real one."
" Haha, I see what you're doing Lucifer . But let's just get you clean and to bed." He went to wash the soap from Lucifer's hair but Lucifer still held his hand. "
He smiled as he grabbed Alastor's other hand. " You need to clean too."
Before he said anything Lucifer pulled him into the tub but as he started to get out Lucifer grabbed his shirt collar pulling him close. " Lucifer you made my clothes wet so let go."
" Oh no did I do that?" Lucifer kissed Alastor's cheek then slowly moved up to Alastor's ear as he whispered. " I know you want a bite my love so do it." He moved to look Alastor in the eyes. " Since my bath was so perfect."
Alastor looked at Lucifer for a moment until Lucifer moved his head making him look at Lucifer's shoulder. " Are you sure?" Lucifer nodded then pulled him close so he bit down and without even realizing how long he drank Lucifer's blood when he pulled away Lucifer was sitting in his lap. " Can I finish cleaning you now?"
Lucifer laughed as he snapped some soap into Alastor's wet hair and he gently scrubbed it in. " I want to clean you hehe.."
As he was about to protest and stop Lucifer he froze when Lucifer's hand reached behind his ear and quickly he relaxed in Lucifer's touch.
It didn't take long for him to see Alastor suddenly relax so he didn't. " Helps doesn't it?" Alastor slowly nodded. "You still wet but you aren't thinking about it are you?" Another small nod. " See you don't need pain to make you forget, you just need someone to do this." He stopped as he rinsed Alastor's hair. " I don't mind doing this for you, love."
When Lucifer finished he did realize his mind forgot all about him being clothed in the tub. " I guess you're right......for once."
" What?!" Lucifer splashed Alastor. " I am right a lot."
" Sure." He shook his head and then rinsed Lucifer's hair. " There you're finished so....." As he was talking Lucifer sat up higher in his lap as he did he slowly put a hand behind his head but just as he was speaking Lucifer pushed himself into him and kissed him. To the point he ended up leaning back against the wall as he put a hand on the back of Lucifer's head and the other on Lucifer's waist. He didn't even realize Lucifer had ripped his shirt open and he only did when he felt Lucifer wrap his legs around his waist. " Lucifer...."
" Shhh.....it's okay." Lucifer kept one hand in Alastor's hair as the other ran from Alastor's chest to his stomach and back up to his chest. " You're so fucking hot."
Someone said that to him before.....but it was that night and as much as he tried to push the memory back it wasn't working so he grabbed Lucifer's wrist and pulled it behind his ear as he laid his head on Lucifer's shoulder. " Make it stop.......please."
He froze until he saw Alastor's hand starting to shake so he started scratching behind Alastor's ear. Was it something he did? He had made sure Alastor's shirt stopped him from touching Alastor with his downstairs and he was being gentle besides for ripping Alastor's shit. Then he realized it was what he said. " Oh, my love, I'm sorry I didn't know." He used both hands as he felt Alastor quickly relax. " I won't ever say it again and thank you for letting me help." After a momenthe felt Alastor's hands in his thighs and he quickly jolted. " Um, Alastor....."
" You helped me feel better so I want to do the same if that's what you want." Alastor moved his hands slowly up ran his hands up Lucifer's back and quickly he felt Lucifer's excitement.
" I can't force you to......" He needed to stop Alastor but quickly grabbed Alastor's shoulders as he tried to think of something to turn him off.
Alastor gently rubbed Lucifer's cheek. " I can't but I sat in a waiting room with Angel who kept saying all this stuff about you but he did give me an idea." He ran his hand through Lucifer's wet hair then held his hand out as a shadow tentacle laid in his hand. " Not everyone is like me and has natural desires like you which you have been dealing with alone. When I know how you don't like being alone."
When he looked at the tentacle in Alastor's hand he was confused until it hit him and he quickly sat straight. " I can't have you do that for me Alastor and I......."
" You help me and I help you remember?" Alastor moved his hand as he grabbed Lucifer's hand. " If your memory is right then I know what to do. Or I can leave you with that."
Lucifer just looked at Alastor for a moment as he thought about it. " Pudding."
" What?" Alastor tilted his head as he looked at Lucifer.
He ran his hands through Alastor's hair as he looked at him. " If it's too much then we say pudding and we stop. It's a safety word cause ..... cause I have an issue with saying stop when I want more. Oh, and you don't have to be nice either." He wanted to remember whatever happend in the morning. " And would you call me....mon cher? I love it."
This was strange but it's what Lucifer wanted then who was he to say no. " Alright, mon cher."
WARNING - SEX
Lucifer pushed himself into a kiss as he slowly removed Alastor's shirt and then tossed it out of the tub not breaking their kiss. Was he a bit scared ...... yes but he had Alastor so he wasn't alone anymore. Until he felt tentacles wrap around his thighs and another wrapped around his waist but as he was about to look down he felt it slowly insert itself inside of him making him gasp. Alastor even held his hand which he couldn't help but smile over until he felt the tentacle get bigger. " Oh.....oh shit.....hahah...."
Alastor lifted Lucifer's chin as he looked him in the eyes. " Mind if I have a bite?"
When Alastor asked the tentacle pulled out completely so he just nodded as he felt Alastor lick his shoulder and the tentacle around his waist pull him down. " Alastor I don't want to forget."
He looked at Lucifer. " As you wish, mon cher."
Fuck just hearing Alastor call him that name made him harder Alastor licked his shoulder in a blink Alastor bit down hard and the tentacle thrusted hard into him making him cry out as the tentacle moved faster making him moan out as he closed his eyes so he could enjoy more. But as it moved faster he held Alastor's hand tighter and his shoulder. " Fuck!"
Alastor licked up the blood and then looked at Lucifer quickly falling apart as he cried out more. So he had the tentacle slam all the way inside of Lucifer making him yell louder. " You have two options one will make this nice or.....the other will make this a lot harder. Just remember the longer you take to answer the thicker it will get. And you're not....."
" TWO!" Lucifer was shaking but he didn't want nice. Just as he answered he felt the tentacle quickly remove itself as the others followed but as he was about to ask what was going on he blinked and they were on the bed and his hands were tied to the headboard. But as he started to panic he saw several tentacles some wrapped around his thighs another moved to his face another tightly wrapped around his dick making him cry out. Alastor suddenly appeared next to him as he looked at him. " What are you doing?"
" Well if your memory is right you managed to handle a week of this so I picked a few things to do. Now remember your safety word and those restraints if you try they will break." Alastor ran his hand up and down Lucifer's chest and stomach as he saw him starting to shake.
As he was going to say something the tenticle around his dick got tighter making him cry out then quickly another went down his throat and moved up and down even deeper each time to the point his eyes were watering until it pulled out letting him gasp for air for a moment before at the same time another went down his throat and another the other roughly thrust inside of him and it went fast and deep but it was feeling it getting bigger that had him shaking more. He looked at Alastor with pleading eyes but he kept running his hand from his chest to his stomach.
Alastor looked down at Lucifer's stomach as he made the tentacle bigger to the point he could see it. So he had it slam all the way and stay as he gently rubbed Lucifer's stomach making him shake more. He had the tentacle leave Lucifer's mouth as he gasped for air and he moved Lucifer's head up to see his stomach. " How much longer can you make it?"
Lucifer was just shocked that it didn't hurt more but he couldn't stop shaking from the small tentacle wrapped around his dick preventing him from cumming. " How much longer can you last?"
He just laughed as he kissed Lucifer he had the tentacle get even bigger and move faster even harder making Lucifer cry out as his shaking worsened. " Say the word and it's over." Lucifer just shook his head as he cried out even louder so he had the tentacle go back down Lucifer's throat but this time it was larger. While two others pulled Lucifer's legs to his chest and held it as he wiped Lucifer's tears. " Blink twice if you want more mon cher." He thought it was enough but after a moment Lucifer blinked twice which he was shocked so he made both tentacles bigger and rougher to the point Lucifer was shaking even worse. " Aren't you just full of surprises? Haha...." He ran his hand through Lucifer's wet hair. " You're doing amazing but you will pass out if I do more." As he wiped Lucifer's tears he blinked twice. With Lucifer's shaking and how fast his heart was beating he worried what more would do. " Mon cher I....." Lucifer just looked at him full of tears and he caved as they wrapped around his waist and lifted Lucifer's waist up which he could hear Lucifer struggling. And he couldn't handle seeing Lucifer turning red from the lack of air so he had the tentacle in Lucifer's throat go deeper and then vanish, letting Lucifer breathe as he cried. " Say it Lucifer."
It hurt but he didn't want it to stop , what if this was the last time? Everything screamed in pain and his shaking only made it hurt more. He saw just how large the tentacle was and how fast it was going and with each slam he cried out. But when he looked at Alastor for once he was able to read him and saw him worried. He couldn't speak but he forced himself for Alastor. " I....I wanna ..... FUCK!!"
Alastor didn't need to hear more to know so he had Lucifer lowered back to the bed just as Lucifer broke out of his restraints and grabbed his hand as he looked at him in tears. " It's okay."
He was too weak to pull Alastor to him but he did even laying him on his lap. He cried out with the hard slam but as it did the tentacle around his dick vanished but as it did Alastor kissed him as he finally finished and it was a lot. He felt the tentacle leave from inside of him and just as he finally finished his body was giving into sleep but he forced himself to stay away as Alastor pulled away from the kiss. " T...thank...."
"You're welcome now get some sleep." He slowly moved Lucifer to the pillows but as he did Lucifer cried out in pain. "Apologies is there something that will make it hurt less?" Lucifer tried to speak but nothing came out he knew from the way Lucifer looked at him so he snapped his shadows to clean everything up as he vanished Lucifer dressed and under the comforter, as he laid Lucifer beside him as he passed out in his arms still out of breath. " Get some rest mon cher you deserve it." He kissed Lucifer's head and then laid back to sleep.
END OF WARNING
Alastor woke up almost in a jolt when he heard an odd sound almost a quacking sound like a duck but when he lookedthere was no duck or anyone but Lucifer. Lucifer was still asleep holding him but he motioned his shadows to find the source when it happend again and as he shouldn't have guessed it was Lucifer's phone which neither he nor his shadows knew how to answer. As the device was handed to him he quickly guessed and it was the green button and held it to his ear like he had seen others do.
" Hey, Dad I wanted to let you know Amara is up and we told her the news. She was relieved but I think seeing you and Alastor would cheer her up. They just took her for some scans so she will be awhile so I figured I would call......hello?
" Um....I will pass the message to him."
" Oh, Alastor where is my dad?"
" He's here. Well, I will inform him and we will be there shortly."
" Haha let him sleep in Alastor he needs it after everything."
" Charlie I don't know how this phone works so you will need to hang it up."
" Right."
END OF CALL
Alastor handed the phone to a shadow as he looked down at Lucifer still asleep so he read until Lucifer started to move when he looked down he saw Lucifer opening his eyes. " Well, good morning."
" Mmmm...." He would sleep the day away if Amara wasn't.......Amara is in the hospital. Just remembering he quickly tried to sit up but it hurt even to move so he went back to holding Alastor. " Did....." Even speaking hurt but if he could go back to last night he would.
" Yes, Charlie called and Amara is alright. They told her the news and she is having some scans done which Charlie said would take awhile but she wanted you to sleep in." Alastor rubbed Lucifer's back to help relieve some of his pain. " How are you feeling?"
" Sore." Feeling Alastor gently rubbing his back was nice but even speaking hurt and even breathing.
It didn't take much to see Lucifer was in pain. " We can get you something for the pain if you want?" Lucifer shook his head as he saw a tear fall down Lucifer's cheek. " Why did you keep wanting more when it was too much?"
Lucifer painfully looked up at Alastor. " I....I was scared it.....it would be the last time."
" Oh Lucifer what ever will I do with you?" Then an idea came to mind as he sent his shadow to start as he just held Lucifer until it was done. He looked down at Lucifer and then vanished into a hot bath as he appeared kneeling on the floor by the tub. " This might help."
As much as he wanted to stay in bed with Alastor in his arms the hot bath felt amazing and the steam helped his throat. " Thank you, Alastor....for.....for everything."
He stood up and patted Lucifer's head. " Just relax I will get some tea." He vanished downstairs and prepared some tea to help with Lucifer's sore throat then vanished to Lucifer who happily took the tea as he soaked in the tub. " So I have to ask but besides the one time you really never....."
" No. Some told me to....you know....for myself but it grosses me out. After 10 ish years, some tried to get me back out there to meet someone but I couldn't do that when none of them were you. Just the idea made me sick. I couldn't be with another woman after you know and I couldn't be with another man after you. So I didn't and never cared if I never did again." Lucifer sipped his tea as he looked at Alastor. " Are you hungry?"
" You should finish up and I need to do a few things if you want me to go with you." Alastor stood up as he snapped himself changed. " I will leave this one to inform me when you're ready."
Before he could say anything Alastor was gone and it was just him and a shadow. " Um.....privacy please." Perhaps Alastor just didn't want to hurt him? So he relaxed in the water until the water started to feel cold then he teleported himself to his closet dry as he slowly changed and got ready. Walking hurt like hell but the bath helped a lot and his throat didn't hurt almost at all from the tea. Which he would have to ask what Alastor put in it cause it was tasty. But when he was ready he flopped onto the bed and waited for Alastor to return.
" You don't talk do you?" The shadow shook its head. " Are you Alastor's shadow?" It shook its head which had him slightly sitting up. " Are you one of his subjects?" Another shake of the head. " Guard?" Then it nodded. " Okay, do you like Alastor for a king better than Eve?" He barely finished before it quickly nodded. " Wow you really didn't like Eve did you guys?" It shook its head as it moved closer to him. " Don't blame you what was to like anyways. Um....is it okay for Alastor to be in hell not there?" It just looked at him and then nodded. " Do you guys like me?" The shadow just looked at him then quickly backed away looking behind him when he turned to see it was Alastor.
" They don't have to like you when they exist to serve. Thank you for watching him you may have your fun now." As the shadow vanished he walked over to Lucifer and helped him stand up. " Seem's my idea worked."
Lucifer just hugged Alastor. " Of course, it did your the smartest man I know. Now I need your help to hide the fact I walk funny and can't sit. And before you say it we can't tell them the truth. Children don't need to know about their parent's sex life or how you....."
" I get it so spare the details please." Lucifer might laugh but he wasn't.
Lucifer let his wings out and flew to Alastor's height and kissed him. " I was going to say how you took care of me and were very sweet to me. You know I love you right?"
He rolled his eyes as he walked away from Lucifer. " Yes, now may we go?"
" Yep once you give me a kiss." Lucifer stood there as he pointed at his cheek Alastor huffed then walked over and kissed his cheek. " Thank you, my love now we can go." He grabbed Alastor's hand and then teleported them to the hospital hallway outside of Amara's door. When he walked in Amara smiled at him but glew when she saw Alastor. " How are you feeling Froggie?"
" Dad I feel fine but please stop calling me that." Amara looked at her father as he closed the door. " Papa thank you for what you said to me last night it helped me a lot more than you think."
" Of course." Alastor was going to sit down but Lucifer grabbed his jacket stopping him.
" Amara you never minded me calling you Froggie before." Lucifer was still on the whole name change.
Amara rolled her eyes as she looked at her dad. " It was cute when I was little but I'm not a little girl."
" Wasn't the name I gave her?" Alastor remembered seeing himself holding some baby which he just assumed to be Amara and calling her Froggie.
Amara looked at her father in shock than her dad. " You never said it came from him?"
" I thought you figured it out since he was the one who gave you the frog stuff." Lucifer never stopped calling Amara froggy even when it pissed her off.
" Then never mind I don't mind now." Amara ignored Charlie and her dad's small laughs as she looked at her father who was turned around. " Papa?"
Alastor turned back around as he walked over to Amara. " Here if I am right you can't sleep without it."
When her father handed her the frog he made her when she was a baby she nearly cried as she hugged it tight. " You remembered."
" I know these places have to weird you out and you need to rest to heal so......" Alastor started to walk back to Lucifer but Amara grabbed his hand as she looked at him.
" Thank you. I don't think I would have slept any without it. Could....could I hug you?" She was already sitting up in bed and full of pain medications. " Please?"
The way both Charlie and Lucifer looked at him he didn't see him going very far so he bent down and hugged Amara who held him tight. " It's alright."
Amara spoke softly to the point only her father could hear her. " I want you to make them all pay for this papa. I want to hear their scream and they beg for you to stop but I never want their pain to end."
" I can do that I just need a name." He patted Amara's back gently as she whispered the names to him. " Your father has made it clear he wants to make them suffer."
" Let him but he won't kill them, take them to the void and when I'm better I want payback." Amara let go as she looked at her father and then Dad.
Charlie broke the ice since everyone was suddenly quiet. " I found some playing cards if everyone is up for a game?"
" Sounds wonderful dear I just need to step out for a moment then I am in." Alastor walked out.
Lucifer thought it was strange so he make an excuse and walked out only to see several shadows as Alastor just finished giving them all orders. " Alastor what are you doing?"
" I am finding the men who did this to your daughter Lucifer." Alastor dismissed everyone and then turned to Lucifer.
" She just told you didn't she?" Amara wouldn't tell them but told Alastor. She wanted him to stop calling her Froggie until she knew the nickname came from Alastor. Just in the weeks, Alastor has been back he was already going back to being the favorite dad.
" She did my shadows will find them and when they do we will have some fun."
Notes:
What will Alastor and Lucifer do when they find the people who hurt Amara? Will Mammon be punished this time around? What does Alastor being king of the Void mean for Lucifer? How will Alastor's rut go, and when will it start getting worse?
More to come..........
Chapter 33: Hungry
Summary:
They all find out more about Sera's sentencing, and Alastor pays Amara a visit. Only Alastor is there, so she pulls Lucifer outside and talks to him, revealing something Lucifer kept from Alastor. Lucifer and Alastor have some fun with the men who hurt Amara and get some justice for many others, then stay the night with Amara to give Charlie a rest. But Lucifer falls asleep before getting the chance to ask Alastor if he had eaten today, and wakes up to Amara in a panic.
Notes:
So, in honor of Pride Month, I added some nice homophobes getting a well-deserved lesson. Also WARNING- GORE but other than that enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
They sat around playing cards which Lucifer sucked at but thankfully someone was watching and knew he was losing. Amara even started betting snacks and he was losing his jello cups he had every intention of eating all of. But his phone rang and when he looked, it was Emily which was odd so he answered on speaker.
" Hey Emily, you're on speaker by the way."
" Amara, I heard what happend I'm so sorry I hope you're alright. Um ..... Lucifer you sure want this call out loud?"
" I want my family to know what I do besides; they will just ask me when I get off now."
" The council found out Alastor was back and made a date for Sera's sentencing, which you all have to attend and from there they will decide what to do with Alastor. Lucifer they found out they throned him as king and they are terrified. I think for right now Alastor should stick to getting adjusted to having a family taking his meds and staying out of trouble."
" My father isn't going to hurt heaven so why are they terrified?"
"'Cause I might not want to hurt heaven but another does and can."
" I'm sorry, Alastor but if they see you staying in control and adjusting to being a family man then it should be fine. I'll keep you all up to date but it's in two days."
" Thank you, Emily."
END OF CALL
They all looked at each other in silence for a moment, and then there was a knock at the door that made Lucifer jump. He was lying beside Amara since it was the only way he could sit still. " Come in?"
Alastor's mom opened the door and rushed over to Amara and held her hand close. " Honey, you had me worried sick. You can't do this to me."
" I'm sorry Grammie it won't happen again." Amara hugged her grandmother and then looked at her father who had scooted to the wall as he held his hands tightly not looking at them.
" This better not and Lucifer you better find these animals and hold them accountable for hurting my grandbaby and making my other grandbabies worry and cry." She hugged Charlie but as she looked at Lucifer she saw Alastor in the back. " Lucifer may we speak in the hallway for a moment?"
Lucifer nodded and slowly got up but before walking out he walked over to Alastor and scratched behind his ear. " It's alright my love. I am going to step out and watch our girls can you do that?" Alastor laid his head on him and slowly nodded. So he kissed his head and then walked out to Alastor's mom. " He's trying and...."
" Lilith came by my restaurant and wants to make Alastor a deal. She told me if he didn't she would make sure Heaven threw the book at him. Lucifer what kind of deal does she want with my son?" She had just stopped by before heading to hell to see Amara when Lilith showed up .
Of course, Lilith was desperate enough to go to Alastor's mother to send the message since he didn't . " Alastor was told to kill her and we stopped him so she wants to know she won't go back to the void or be killed in exchange she doesn't testify against Alastor. I will deal with Lilith cause the last thing Alastor needs is ........ fuck." He turned to the door as he realized Alastor could hear them. " If you heard come on Alastor ." Then seconds after Alastor walked out looking at him. " Love I....."
" How long have you known about this Lucifer?" The last thing he needed was someone talking about what happend in the void and he had every intention of finishing Lilith off except she was in heaven. But if Sera fell then so would Lilith.
" When we were all in heaven for Sera's trial but when she told me I told her no and to fuck off. I thought she would have stopped." Lucifer walked over to Alastor as he spoke. " I never told you because there wasn't a reason to but it was wrong for me to decide that for you."
" There wasn't a reason or was it because of you trying to hide it from me 'cause we all found out just how broken I am?" He pulled his hands away as Lucifer reached for them. " Or was it because if I knew she was even talking about me I would finish what I started?"
" No...no I didn't tell you 'cause it was nothing. When Sera falls so will Lilith and if she tries to make a case she would have to make it to the new head seraphim who won't hear a sinner out." Lucifer held his own hands as he looked at Alastor. " But.....but if you want me to tell you the truth I don't want you to kill her Alastor. She's Charlie's mom and if......"
" Well, now that I know all of this it's time I finished the job and I don't care who she is Lucifer . I will not just kill her, I will play her screams for hell and heaven to hear and neither you nor Charlie will stop me." Alastor looked behind Alastor to see his mother standing there. " Then you put your memories in my head to help but it only made it worse like you always did."
" I...I just wanted to help you see I wasn't lying." She went to step closer but stopped when shadows appeared behind Alastor with weapons. " Your my son......"
" Was. I died so we have nothing in common and I have no reason not to kill you but Lucifer." He looked behind him to see his shadows on guard. " Did you find them?" With a nod, he turned to Lucifer. " If your coming then let's go."
He looked back at Alastor's mom who looked at him almost in tears. " Tell them to call me if they need us." Lucifer turned back to Alastor and grabbed his hand as they vanished.
Her own flesh and blood hated her but not just hate he wanted to kill her. Alastor was always a sweet boy and while Alastor didn't have the best childhood she did the best she could Alastor luckily grew up to be at least a gentleman until this void took her son away from her. It changed him into someone afraid of her and it was crushing to see the hate in his eyes. Walking back into the room Charlie was quick to hug her and sit her on the bed as Amara held her hand as she broke down into tears. " I....I want my little boy back."
" One day at a time Grammie but you'll get your son back just like I got my father back." Amara hated seeing her grandmother cry but she understood her father wasn't the same as he was because of Roo who hurt him and made him suffer worse than anything he had ever done to anyone before. So bad that her father who to her was the strongest man known to man, broke. He was still strong but she could see he was struggling and she hated it. " How about we talk about something exciting like my birthday?" It always excited her grandmother and it did even Charlie.
WARNING - GORE
When Alastor and he arrived they were at some gym which he wasn't sure which ring it was in but as he looked around people started to vanish until it was a few hellhounds flexing in a mirror too busy to even see everyone else was gone. He looked up at Alastor who twirled his staff but as he was about to ask about the plan Alastor covered his mouth as he pointed at his ears then the hell hounds. When he looked over one was walking over to the weights and started lifting. It wasn't a little bit of weight it weighed almost double him which shocked him but it was hearing Amara's name that he grabbed Alastor's hand.
" Thad my guy tells me when we left you alone with Amara did you fuck? Bitch was so fucking out of it, hahaha!"
" Ew man." Thad sat up as he looked at Josh. " No, and we fucking failed the job 'cause Brody's guys didn't just fucking kill Alice."
" Dude we couldn't kill her and you should have killed Amara faster man . All we need was the video of you killing her to send to her freaky parents." Brody rolled his eyes. " Now the job is someone else's maybe for the good I mean the king of hell and the radio demon.......hell no."
" You think that short fat fuck could beat us? We can handle him and the radio demon ..... pfft .... I heard he's not the same as he was before. I heard about him asking for fucking directions ...... like bro never asked and never needed fucking directions. Personally thin freak would break like a twig." Josh started lifting as he looked at Brody and Thad. " King of hell....more like the king of fucking ass-kissing. Oh shit ....... I wonder if that's what he did to fuck the radio demon."
" Man there deer's and with Amara's age the fucking king waited for the rut when all they wanna do is fuck." They both just looked at him clueless . " I'm guessing."
" Whatever it was there just a bunch of fucking fags." Josh rolled his eyes as he quickly stood up with an idea. " Hey, what if we went fag bashing again? I so want to see some twink cry as I beat the shit out of their partners."
" I'm down but no fucking raping them it makes you gay man . It includes shoving shit in their ass." Thad stood up as he looked at his muscles. " I saw something about a parade for them so why not go? Get the real sissy ones there."
Lucifer was going to run over and kill each one but Alastor stopped him when he was homophobic he snapped and teleported in front of them. " Hey, boys." Quickly he blasted them into the wall. " You want a king I'll give you one." As he was about to grab one he saw them put on angelic brass knuckles but as one started to swing he transformed into a bird then a horse and kicked the guy into the other wall. " Whose......" As he transformed back to his form another swung at him and missed as he punched him in the stomach but as the guy hit the wall he shook his hand. " Shit that was hard...ouch." As he turned to look for Alastor suddenly a fist swung faster than he thought but as he closed his eyes ready for it to hit him it didn't and when he opened his eyes Alastor stopped the hit.
" Bro how the fuck??"
Alastor just laughed as he twisted the man's arm then his shadow the guy's elbow quickly breaking it making him cry out. " See you hurt Amara then tried to hurt Lucifer and see I can't allow that." He looked at Lucifer who watched amazed soas his shadows held the guy down he grabbed the biggest weight with one hand and then dropped it on the guy's arm making him scream out as his blood splatter everywhere. " But I definitely can't let you call me a fag." He moved the weight to his shoulder and dropped it again making him scream more and when he looked at the other they watched in horror. " Now who is....Thad."
" Oh that's....that's a bad name. Geez if your parents named you that then ..... then they fucking hated you." Lucifer laughed as he walked over to Alastor. But neither spoke. " Shame." Lucifer held his arms out and in a blink, both men were screaming as he ripped their tails off with a mere flick of the wrist. " Which one is Thad?"
The two men just looked at each other as they started to stand up so he walked over. " Not only will we torture you but I have a wonderful place for you to live. For now, since you didn't want to own up to being this Thad." Quickly a tentacle wrapped around Thad's ankle and threw him to Lucifer's feet. " Have fun these two are mine."
Lucifer saw the terror in the other's eyes as Alastor walked over to them but as much as he wanted to watch he grabbed a weight. " First I find out my daughter was hurt then .... then I found out she almost died. When she wakes up I find out you fucking kissed her!" Lucifer smashed the weight into Thad's knee but he grabbed another. " You hurt my little girl and for that, I wish you the most painful death but death is too good, too easy for you."
As he looked over at his friends he saw the horror of one being torn to pieces as the radio demon just laughed. " OH FUCK!! PLEASE I'LL TELL YOU WHATEVER JUST KEEP ME AWAY FROM THAT!!"
When Lucifer looked at what was scaring Thad so much he saw Alastor laughing as he tore one limb by limb but yet the guy still lived then an idea hit. " My love...look at him he's terrified of you."
Alastor had his shadows watch the two as he walked over to Lucifer and as he did he saw the mere broken leg so he turned to Lucifer. " As their king their souls belong to you no matter what why not give them all to me? They spend the rest of time paying for their actions and Amara has someone to learn with?"
" I like the idea but do I get to have fun? Maybe even the others they have hurt along the way?" Then the idea hit as he whispered his idea to Alastor. " After they're all yours."
" As you wish." Alastor looked back at the two then vanished and minutes later returned with chains. " Oh, I almost forgot." He held his hand out as three muzzles appeared.
Lucifer clapped with excitement and then snapped the three chained to posts in the middle of the city right where the festival was being held . " Love?" Lucifer held his hand out as a shadow handed him a whip which he thanked as he turned to the crowd forming. " These three decided to harm my daughter but I know they harmed you all so I thought since this a celebration you could all have some fun before I finish." One man walked up to him almost nervous as he handed him the whip. " All I ask is that they stay alive."
Alastor walked over to the sinner who screamed in fear. " Relax I heard they bash on your fun so why not bash their teeth in?"
The poor sinner was seconds away from pissing himself so he walked up and grabbed the bat. " They have hurt you all for being yourselves so now you can have payback and as your king I fully oblige." He pulled Alastor back as they watched sinner after sinner beat and torture the three men even Alastor broadcasted their screams for all of hell to hear especially Amara. As it was going on he saw couples cheering and hugging eachother with relief and excitment that there was 3 less people in hell to tell them who they should love. While it was justice for Amara it was for a whole community which he felt proud over. Even sinners of all kind where running up to him thanking him or giving him and Alastor praise. He felt like a true king for his people even if it was just 3 men and there was still tones more out there. And he only went after them for hurting his daughter.
END OF WARNING
As fun as it was to watch Lucifer handed the three over to Alastor who took them away as he headed back to see Amara and tell her all the details. From the three being homophobic to just straight bullies Amara seemed better after hearing how terrible the guys were. After a few hours, Alastor appeared telling Amara about where he had the men locked up. They sat around laughing and chatting until he noticed Charlie dozing off. " Charlie why don't you go home I can stay with Amara tonight."
" Are you sure?" Charlie was exhausted and staying awake on energy drinks. Sleeping in a chair wasn't easy.
" Yeah, you let me last night so it's only fair besides I think I can convince Alastor to stay with us too ." He looked at Alastor who was sitting in the bed with Amara as he read to her. " Besides Amara will be crushed if I stop him just as she's falling asleep."
Charlie looked at the two and she couldn't stop smiling. Amara looked so happy laying on Alastor's arm as he read to her almost like she imagined he would have when Amara was growing up. " Alright call me if anything happens." She hugged her dad then waved to Amara and Alastor then left.
When Charlie left she looked at her father than her dad. " Dad, will you and Papa stay with me?"
He couldn't answer for Alastor but he walked over to the bed as he looked at Amara. " I can't speak for Alastor but I will stay if that's okay."
Amara smiled at her dad and then looked up at her father who looked at the window. Gently she moved to lay in his arm rather than on his arm and this way she could lay he held her. " Papa, will you stay?" She was almost 20 years old yet the idea of her father leaving tonight almost had her in tears. " Please."
He only left once which was this morning and the rest of the day he had been with Lucifer. He needed to say no, he needed to eat.....but both of them looked at him with those sad hurt-looking eyes he hated. " Fine."
" Thank you, I know it's silly but ....but I don't think I would be as okay about everything that happend if it wasn't for you." She gently hugged her father. " I....I lov...." Before she finished the door opened when she looked it was Belphagor. " Oh hi, Bel."
" How are you feeling Amara I had been busy with another case when I heard."
" Sore but these drugs are great." She still laid in her father's arms even as Belphagor walked over.
" They are. Alastor it's been so long you...you haven't aged any in the last 20 years." She noted Amara's readings and then looked at Alastor who the more she looked at him seemed......thinner just like he did when weeks before he died. " Any luck on jogging the memories back?"
" Oh, no but that's alright we have time and he has my memories to help him." Lucifer grabbed Amara's hand as they both looked at Alastor. " Love this is Belphagor we call her Bel. She's the deadly sin for Sloth but also the lead doctor here. She was the reason you lived long enough to meet Amara."
The way she looked at him it was as if she was trying to see inside of him or even studying him but either way, he didn't like it. " Right , is there something else you need?"
Bel looked at her calender on her watch then Alastor and Amara. " Sorry, it might be the doctor in me but...Alastor have you been feeling differently lately? More of an appetite or hunger pangs?
Lucifer knew what Bel was getting to but he waited for Alastor to answer but he just looked at her. " Um...he is just starting to get hungry but he's eating. You're talking about his rut aren't you?"
" Yes. Amara due to being only half won't ever experience a rut in full and will only get slightly more hungry but nothing like you will Alastor . I assume you never had one that you remember feeling and if you haven't had one in 20 years then in a day if not two you will start feeling those hunger pangs if not already. Lucifer have you explained everything else to him?"
" Y...yeah." Now that he thought about it Alastor hadn't eaten if not all day.
" Good and Lucifer I do hope you learned your lesson last time as well. But Alastor I would love to do tests and compare it to your old ones so if you're ever bored let me know. Anyway, I have to go but I will check in later Amara and if you need me then call." She waved at everyone and then walked out but she looked through the window of the room as she looked at Alastor from the nurse's station. " Can you get a room ready with IV fluids and an NG tube just in case and keep a heavy sedative with you." The more she looked at him the more she worried.
Lucifer kept trying to get Alastor to walk out of the room so he could ask or even just offer him something to eat but when he did Amara spoke over him or Alastor turned him down. So he sat on the other side of Amara as Alastor read to them but he tried to stay awake so when Amara fell asleep he could talk to Alastor but he fell asleep. How couldn't he when he had Amara holding him and Alastor, who owed them nothing yet he wanted to make them happy. He would just ask Alastor in the morning except he woke up to Amara shaking him. " W...what...."
" Dad it's Papa he's gone." Amara moved so she could smell her father more but when she did he wasn't there and she worried either something was wrong or she did something wrong. " Find him please."
" Amara.....I'm sure he just...." Maybe Alastor left to eat something but Amara didn't seem to want to hear him.
" Dad find him, please. Something isn't right I know it." It was the smell in the air that told her something was wrong and when she knew something was wrong she was right and he knew that.
One thing Amara was never wrong about was when she felt something was wrong so he got up rubbed his eyes andlooked for Alastor's shadow but nothing. " Okay please try to relax so you don't hurt yourself." He teleported to Alastor only he was pretty sure he was just down the hall but he didn't see Alastor so he started looking in the rooms but nothing still making him start to worry. Until he reached a door and before he even touched it there was a sudden icy breeze giving him the chills.
When he tried to open it the door was locked so he teleported inside only to be met with shadows quickly aiming spears at him. " Where is he?" They stepped closer but he didn't move until he heard Alastor's bleating. " I get you're supposed to protect him but I only want the same thing now move!" It took another shadow to come over before the weapons were gone. " Thank you." He ran into the bathroom to find Alastor curled up on himself, shaking and when he touched him not only was he ice cold but he could feel just how much pain he was in. " Fuck love, you need to eat." He rolled his sleeve quickly but when he put it near Alastor's face he didn't bite. " Come on it will help." He could hear Alastor's wimps but it was seeing his claws digging into his stomach that scared him. " I....I...." He quickly stood up and opened the door and yelled out for help then ran back to Alastor as he tried to get Alastor to let go. " Alastor you have to let go your hurting yourself."
Alastor wouldn't listen so he tried to force it only when he did blood quickly pour out so he pressed on the wound as Alastor yelled out. " It's going to be alright just ......"
" Sir we need you to move so we can help him."
Lucifer just looked down at Alastor and with the back of his hand he wiped the tears streaming down Alastor's face. " I will be right here." As he moved his hand a nurse quickly pressed on it as another pulled a syringe out. " Wait what are you...." Before he finished the other nurse sabbed the syringe into Alastor's arm and in seconds, Alastor was out. " W...why did you do that?!" He didn't get an answer as Bel ran in picking Alastor up and putting him on a bed.
As Alastor was gently laid onto the bed, blood already soaking the sheets beneath him, Lucifer stood frozen, his breath caught somewhere between panic and grief. He watched them move fast — a nurse tearing away Alastor’s shirt to get to the bleeding wounds, only for all motion in the room to seemingly slow. Lucifer’s eyes widened. Alastor’s stomach looked almost hollowed in, and his ribs jutted like blades, in just a day, he looked thinner than he had the night before.
“ Oh, my love…” Lucifer whispered, stumbling a step back as he held his mouth. He just stood there frozen, watching as one nurse cut Alastor's shirt while another nurse was already inserting an IV, her hands steady despite the chaos. Lucifer couldn't move , not until he saw the familiar tubing and Bel leaning Alastor's head back. “No… no, don’t…” he said, his voice cracking, breath catching in his throat.
Bel didn’t look up right away as she gently adjusted Alastor’s limp head up, inserting the tube with practiced care. But when she saw the way Lucifer’s breath hitched, how he looked seconds from yanking it all away, she finally spoke, voice low but clear. “ Lucifer… his body is starving.” Bel continued as she secured the tube. “ His body is beginning to consume itself, muscle, tissue… anything it can. If I hadn’t put the tube in now, his own body would’ve killed him trying to stay alive.”
Lucifer opened his mouth to argue, but nothing came out, just a broken sound of disbelief.
“ The IV will help,” Bel added gently, “ but it’s not enough. Especially now… the rut is starting. It’s burning through what little reserves he has left, and what we are giving him is just going to do the same.”
Lucifer gave a slow, shaky nod, eyes still wet. He didn’t say a word as he turned back toward the bed, watching as they adjusted the monitors and secured the last of the lines. Then a sound caught Lucifer’s ear quiet, broken.
“ Papa…”
He turned to the door and saw Amara standing by the doorway, tears streaking down her face, her casted leg wobbling beneath her. She looked like she’d dragged herself there just to make sure Alasttor was okay. Lucifer was at her side in seconds. “ Oh, Froggie.....” He caught her before she could fall, scooping her carefully into his arms. She trembled, burying her face into his shoulder.
“ I thought he was gone, I heard you yell and I knew.....I knew it was bad,” she whispered.
Lucifer looked down at Amara, his heart clenching at the way her voice trembled. She wasn’t supposed to be standing, not with that cast, not with fresh stitches and healing bruises. But here she was, half-limping, half-clinging to his jacket, refusing to be anywhere but near her father.
He cradled her gently, brushing her hair back from her tear-streaked face. “ He’s still here. You hear me?” he whispered against her hair. “ He is the strongest man I know."
Amara gave a faint nod, sniffling. “ I don’t want Papa to go away again…”
Lucifer’s grip tightened protectively around her. “ He won’t. Not again.”
“ He’s metabolizing everything too quickly,” one of the nurses said, urgency sharpening her voice. “The IVs aren’t enough. We need to place a central line.”
Bel’s head snapped up. Her eyes, usually unreadable, betrayed real fear as they landed on Alastor. She didn’t waste time sugarcoating. “ Alright. Lucifer, I know you want to stay, but I need you to listen.” She lowered her voice, glancing toward Amara, who was barely standing. “ We also have to run scans… there’s a chance he’s bleeding internally. We need full access, and if something goes wrong, I need the space.”
Lucifer’s breath hitched, and Amara’s lip trembled.
“ I wouldn’t ask this if it wasn’t necessary,” Bel continued, her voice soft but unwavering. “ But more importantly… Alastor wouldn’t want either of you to see him like this. And Amara, she needs to be lying down before she hurts herself.”
“ I’m fine,” Amara said, her voice breaking. “ Please, I’m fine.”
Bel knelt so she was eye-level with her. “ You just had surgery, sweetheart. If you fall, if that leg shifts wrong, you could undo everything they fixed if not cause permanent damage and you are still stitched up. Let us help him. And then you can come back.”
Lucifer turned to Amara, who was trembling in pain and fear, tears running freely. He swallowed hard. Every part of him screamed to stay. But his daughter needed him just as much. And deep down, he knew Bel was right, Alastor wouldn’t want them to see the state he was in. " Okay." Then he turned to Amara, gently wrapping an arm around her to support her weight.
“ Papa…” she whispered toward the bed, her voice choked and shaking. “ Please be okay… please…” Her hand reached out, trembling, but the nurse was already gently guiding them out the door. Lucifer looked back one last time, just as Bel moved in to begin. The door shut behind them, soft as a whisper. As much as it hurt to walk away he knew it had to be done. When they got back to Amara's room a nurse was in there to help get her in bed and check on her but as the nurse did he just held Amara as she cried into him. He handed her the stuffed frog which helped but she was still crying and when he looked at the nurse she looked almost worried. " Froggie I need you to breathe, please. Your father will be fine."
Amara could see her father lying on that bed motionless but it was the scars that fueled her tears. His arms were covered but he was so skinny, she was too but never that much. " W....what did she do to him?'
" Who?" He ran his hand through Amara's hair as he watched the nurse connecting Amara's IV's back.
Slowly she looked up at her dad. " Roo. Is....is that why he's like this?"
Lucifer just nodded as Amara cried harder in his arms until suddenly she stopped and when he looked she was out. " What did you do?"
" Sir she didn't have some minor surgery and I have to take her up for scans to make sure she's okay. It's just a sedative she will be up in an hour or two but her crying was only making the numbers worse. If you would like you can wait in here."
Lucifer just nodded as he wiped Amara's tears and moved her frog to her arms then he hopped down. " I know it's silly but she's always better with that frog with her."
" It's not silly and if anything sweet."
As Amara was rolled out he just sat there until he saw Alastor's jacket and without thought, he put it on and hugged himself as he slowly started to cry.
From the lack of sleep and crying so much he passed out for what he thought was hours but he did wake up when he heard a knock at the door. He thought at least Amara would be back but she wasn't but Bel stood at the door looking at him. So he quickly sat up and almost got up until Bel stopped him and sat down beside them. " How are they? Can I go see Alastor?"
" Lucifer how come you never told me about Alastor's diagnosis?"
Lucifer felt the little flame of hope and excitement fade as he looked at the ground. " I didn't know how and Alastor doesn't like talking about it. How did you...."
" When I ran a blood test I found different medicines I never gave him and I know Alastor isn't some pill popper so I called heaven and they told me. She told me what Alastor takes so I could make sure he doesn't get off track. But Lucifer this is some serious medications he's taking how are you doing with all of it?"
Lucifer wiped a tear away and then looked at Bel. " It's not as bad as it sounds and the meds now are keeping him in control." Bel just looked at him. " There's one who's scared of everything and it likes Vox more than me and another who keeps trying to kill me. But I don't want to talk about that I want to see him Bel please."
" Amara should be here in a moment and she made it clear she wanted to see him with you." Bel grabbed Lucifer's hands as she looked at him. " I know Heaven can help better but I know Alastor's system so if you will let me I want to run a couple of tests and see something that might help with your issues." Lucifer just nodded as she looked to the door to see Amara being wheeled back in as a nurse wheeled in a wheelchair for Amara. " Now with Alastor's DID we did have to take some precautions just until he puts on some weight. Amara and Alastor both have high metabolisms but Alastor's is unlike anything I have seen so in just one day he could drop......say....10 to almost 40 pounds which for Alastor he doesn't need to lose any weight. But we do have him restrained but not in chains and he will be a bit.......out of it just so he doesn't hurt himself or........"
" No, you can't tie him down like some animal even if it's to help him." Amara rolled herself over as she looked at her dad. " He will freak out if......"
" That's why we are giving him something to keep him calm. As for the injury, it was just the surface nothing crazy thankfully but he's stitched up and he should be waking up soon. Just keep it light and don't be scared or he the stuff were give him.....will make him feel like he's on clouds." Bel stood up and grabbed the handles of Amara's wheelchair as she wheeled her to the room but stopped at the window. " Lucifer?"
Lucifer saw Alastor just laying there tied up to his shoulders but it was the wries and tubs that got him to start tearing up. " He......he looks cold.......can....."
" Sure." Bel walked over to a closet and grabbed a blanket. " I know it's all scary but he's fine I just want to keep him like this for a couple of hours at least. This rut will not be easy on him Lucifer and the hunger will only get worse."
He couldn't stop looking until Amara grabbed his hand. " It's going to be alright Dad. Besides, if he's on clouds I wanna see this." Amara wheeled herself in as Bel laid the blanket down and she gently grabbed her father's hand which was ice cold. " He's freezing could he get another blanket maybe even warmer fluids?"
" I can do that and Amara if you ever want to intern here just let me know." Bel walked out as Lucifer slowly started to walk in.
Even asleep he still smiled but when he slowly grabbed Alastor's hand he started to move as he started to panic Alastor opened his eyes and looked at him. " Hey love, how do you feel?"
" Mmmm....." He just looked around and then stopped at Amara. " I....I feel great, hahaha. Oh, it's like....like a sheet of ice in the Arctic just floating at sea."
Amara laughed with her father but Dad still looked worried. " So you're in the Arctic? Are you cold?"
" Hahaha....I don't know." He looked at Lucifer and he saw something wasn't right. " Hey it's alright Lucifer, I know I scared you but in my defense.....I'm not used to eating."
" You're not?" Amara rubbed her father's hand to warm it up as she looked at him.
" Nope. You don't eat in the void and no way to get food and such. Not even I can fix that." Alastor looked at the door as some lady walked in. " Oh hello."
" Haha, hello Alastor I see you're like the drugs." Bel laid a few more blankets on top of Alastor and started him on warmed fluids. " You let us know if you're not floating anymore alright? Cause I can give you more and in a few hours if you're hungry we can get you something."
" Wait I feel like this because of drugs? Hahaha, I see why you loved it Lucifer cause this is amazing." Alastor looked at Lucifer and quickly his smile fell. " What?"
That was it....she thought at most drinking but drugs? " Papa, was Dad's drug of choice just like this?"
" Amara....." Lucifer was going to be sick but she wouldn't look at him only Alastor so he took Alastor's attention. " Love what about...."
Amara gently rubbed her father's arm as she looked at him. " Papa if you had an issue and the people closest to you ask about it would you tell them the truth or lie and have everyone keep it from them?"
He looked at the two. " If you already knew some then why keep it? If the people closest to you are close then you wouldn't." He stopped on Lucifer who was terrified. " What's wrong?..............Lucifer?" For Lucifer to be terrified something had to be wrong but when he tried to get up he couldn't so he tried pulling.
Bel quickly grabbed Alastor's shoulders to stop him. "Nothing wrong Lucifer just remembered he forgot his duck but me and I can go get it so relaxed alright?"
Lucifer saw the pissed look Bel gave him then he looked down at Alastor who was looking at him. " It's alright love me and Amara can......"
" I'm not leaving my father so go with Bel." Amara looked at her father as she smiled and grabbed her frog. " You know you made this for me so I always had a piece of you even if you weren't with me? I sleep with it every night and when I missed you or I was hurt I just hugged it and it was like it was you."
As much as he wanted to listen he watched Lucifer and the lady walk out and down the hall. " Did I do something wrong? Why did he lie?"
" You always know when someone's lying but my dad is the biggest liar. He keeps things from me and I have let them go for you but I don't know how much more I can." Amara kissed her father's hand as she rolled closer so she could scratch behind his ears. " At times I wish it was my dad who died not you. At least that way I wasn't being lied to or babied. Or me stuck taking care of my own dad"
Notes:
How will Lucifer react to Amara knowing the truth? Will Amara ask Alastor more questions? Will Alastor be able to maintain himself as the hunger worsens? How will Sera's sentencing go? Will Alastor deal with Lilith once and for all? Will Alastor be tried for his crimes? Will Lucifer visit Mammon?
One more chapter to go, I guess we will have to find out tomorrow. Also, thank you for reading, and if you comment, it's weird, but they light up my day to read, even if sometimes they're negative, but if you ever have questions or theories, I love hearing those as well. Anyways, let me shut the hell up and enjoy your day or night.
Chapter 34: Out Of It
Summary:
To keep Alastor calm, they keep Alastor drugged up. Only Amara and Lucifer find themself asking Alastor question's he would never answer, but Belphagor stops them before it gets too deep. Lucifer goes out for air and finds himself going into an old headspace and trouble. Alastor tells Charlie about Lilith, who Charlie tries to convince Alastor not to kill her, only he wouldn't listen to her, so she took action and met up with her mom. Only her Dad shows up just as she arrives.
Notes:
This was supposed to be Friday's chapter, but I didn't finish in time, and I didn't want to rush it, so I made it today's instead. Sorry, and enjoy.
WARNING - SUICIDAL THOUGHTS & DRUGS ( Minor but only in the beginning.)
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Lucifer just kept walking cause it couldn't be real. He didn't tell Amara because he didn't think she could handle it but because he was ashamed he had picked getting high over being there for their daughter who had also lost someone close. He wanted to die not even thinking of Amara who cried for Alastor which only broke his heart more, remembering. But as he walked he quickly stopped as he realized he just left Amara, a girl full of questions with a very out-of-it Alastor who knows everything. " Fuck!" He started to run back to the room but Bel stopped him. " I need to go back before....."
" Lucifer I know you never told Amara but I can't let you go in there and worry Alastor while he's in this state. If he tried hard enough he could break free and in a few hours, if not less he would be right back here."
" Bel what if Amara is asking him more? Or he tells her more that I never told her or....." He couldn't breathe but Bel pulled him into a room and made him sit down.
" You are in no shape to go in there but I can go in and keep an eye on the two until you can get yourself under control."
He closed his eyes, took a few deep breaths, calmed down, and smiled. " Alright, I can go. I'm good."
As much as she wanted to keep Lucifer away until she was sure she knew Lucifer didn't need her permission to do anything, she walked back to Alastor with Lucifer.
As Lucifer walked back in Amara wouldn't even look at him she just kept her eyes on Alastor as she scratched behind his ear as he leaned into her hand. " Love if you're tired we can go."
" No, it just feels nice." When he opened his eyes to look at Amara she smiled and started using two hands making even his tail wag as he laid on it. " Oh, that's amazing. You can never stop."
" Haha, I like it too. You know when we get out of here me and you should go back to that sub place or see Auntie Rosie. She always knows how to fatten someone up." Sure she was doing this to get on her dad's nerves but seeing her father so relaxed for once was nice. " Oh, have you been back to the hotel since you came to hell........besides that first time?"
" Mmmm.....no. I have been busy."
" Well, Niffty told me how she would do this for you for hours, and when she did it to me, oh Papa, it was hell shattering. And you could see your old room, and if you're up for it, you could read one to me." Amara finally looked at her dad when her father closed his eyes again. " Charlie would love to have you stay, and I have been meaning to, but....But I didn't want to go without you."
" Aw ...... " Alastor opened his eyes as he looked at Amara. " Sounds like a plan to me but... but I do have to go .... check on something."
" What things?" Slowly, she stopped making her father look at her.
" Oh no ..... you stopped." He laid his ears flat as he looked at Amara, who smiled and started back. " With me taking over, I am making some changes. Rather than unorganized chaos I want a system and light for crying out loud. Have to organize the newbies."
Lucifer sat down and rubbed Alastor's hand as he listened. " W...what about my brothers?"
" Oh......they are very loud and don't like it when we rip their feathers, then wings off or..........or when we......"
" I...I don't mean to be rude love but I don't want details. But you told me once you could bring them back...if you wanted." Lucifer the stink look Bel gave him so he ignored it.
Alastor slowly turned to Lucifer as he looked at him. " Are you using my weaker state to get answers?" The way Lucifer looked at him it was a yes. " Well, I have shown you.....w...well."
Amara saw his ear lay flat suddenly. " Papa you alright?" He just weakly nodded with his eyes closed so she gently moved his hair from his face. " R...remember what I said?" He ever so slightly turned to her as he tried to open his eyes but they closed. " Bel, what's going on?"
" I am what's going on both of you knew he wasn't in his right headspace yet you asked him questions he would have never answered before. It's not right and as a doctor, I can't watch him do it so I gave him something to sleep. Take this time to work it out and I am going to run my tests to help him not use him like you both just did."
Amara wouldn't use her father but her Dad would. " It was him, not me. My dad has always used my father and he was the one who kept...."
" Amara, you started first when you asked him about Lucifer's addiction, which you know he wouldn't have told you if he was in the right head space. The Lucifer, you're trying to find out about the brothers who tossed you away, really?!"
Bel was right, and she gently moved the blanket up as she put a hand on her father's chest. " I'm sorry, and I won't do it again, and I mean it, unlike other people." Amara kissed his cheek and then started to roll out. " Oh Lucifer, you're fired from being my dad 'cause you are no parent, you're barely even a man."
Lucifer stood there as he held himself trying not to cry. " Could....could I...."
" Sure." Belphagor walked out but as he walked out she could hear Lucifer crying when she looked through the window Lucifer was crying into Alastor's chest. It hurt and Amara had a right to be upset but was her timing or her words really needed right now? She gave Lucifer the time he needed as she called Charlie and told her everything.
WARNING - SUICIDAL THOUGHTS & DRUGS
Lucifer would have stayed in that room with Alastor if he could but he couldn't make Alastor worse to make him happy. Amara needed Alastor not him so when he walked out and saw Charlie he just teleported anywhere that was away and he found himself in Envy on the beach. He saw the happy families with their children, partners laughing as if the world wasn't going to come for them , and no one was happy except him but he froze when he saw two men playing with a little boy even hugging them and he quickly sat down as he broke down into tears. As much as he couldn't move he couldn't ruin the beach so he teleported to some alley but he just fell to the ground as he cried.
If he had been there for Charlie then Alastor would have never been hurt, if he was never hurt then he wouldn't be hurting like he is and seen Amara grow up. He would have never lost Alastor then he would have never gone down the path that led to Amara hating him. But this time....this time it was real. Amara meant what she said. Charlie was grown and had Vaggie to have her back and he used to only have Amara but he lost her but he had Alastor. Did he though? One moment he's kissing him next he's threatening to kill someone no matter what he says.
He kept hiding things from Alastor just like he did Amara and seeing his own flesh and blood disown him he couldn't handle seeing Alastor leave him when he found out just what he was keeping from him. Everyone was better without him he failed as a parent, brother, child, friend, and partner. He did his job and raised Amara so what was left for him? Charlie had her dream come true and would take on his role better than he ever did.
He had to have been sitting there crying for what felt like hours before some lady tapped his shoulder making him jump when he looked at her she was homeless. " I'm sorry I...." She was high her eyes were huge and she hardly stood straight. " I....I should go..." As he went to stand up she pushed him into the wall by his throat but when he pushed her off her bag showed not just pills but needles. " What the fuck?" Was it a sign that it was time? He quickly shook his head as he saw the lady in tears trying to pick her stuff up so he bent down to help. " Trust me you should....." Then he heard several guns. When he looked up they were all at him. " You kidding me right?"
" Do I look like I'm fuckin joken?! Angelic bullets bitch now knees!" He walked closer and shot Lucifer's shoulder. " I SAID FUCKIN KNEES!"
He didn't get my choice as he held his shoulder and some guy behind him knocked him to his knees. " I am going to......" As he tried to speak he was hit with a gun making him fall to the ground but when he went to get up and let his devil out someone grabbed his hair and pulled it making him yell out as something large was shoved into his mouth and then taped. When he looked up at the guy he was hit again but he didn't stop even kicking him.
" Hey man that's not the one with the red hair. Hit's for the ones with the ears, not this fool."
He grabbed Lucifer's butt in his throat and slammed him into the brink wall. " Where are they if you tell me I will make this hurt way less."
Lucifer just looked at the guy then was suddenly tossed to the ground as he tried to take the tape off his mouth he was kicked hard in the stomach stealing the little air he was breathing but when he tried to kick him again he pulled his wings out to cover as he ripped the tape off and quickly knocked all the guys into the wall and killing them. " Fuck." He didn't need them dead but he just fell back on the ground as he laid there until he was healed enough to leave.
END OF WARNING
Charlie tried to talk to Amara to help her understand why their Dad didn't tell her but she was pissed. So she backed away but it had been a few hours since their Dad vanished and while Amara was pissed at him she was worried. But when she was going to go out and look for him Bel walked in telling them Alastor was starting to wake up so they walked over just as he started to open his eyes. " Hey, Alastor how are you feeling?"
Alastor slowly looked at Charlie. " I think the....the ice is melting."
Amara laughed with Bel but Charlie looked at them confused. " He said the high felt a piece of ice floating in the Arctic."
" I can fix that for you Alastor." She patted Alastor's shoulder as she gave Alastor another dose. " I will leave you with these two and if you need me just hit the button on the wall. Otherwise, in an hour or two, we can get you something to eat and get you sitting."
As Bel walked out she moved to scratch the back of her father's ears which relaxed him as she turned to Charlie. " If it's okay me and my father were talking and he wants to see the hotel. I thought maybe we could spend the day and at night he could hang out with Niffty who has been going crazy to see him again and I have been meaning to sleep over so we....."
" You're both always welcome to come to the hotel and we will all of lot of fun." Charlie could talk about the ideas she had for the night but then the thought came to mind. " What about Dad?"
" What about him? He spends all of his time with my father I should be able to at least be with him for a day or two." She smiled as she saw her father relax in her hands. " He's my father and if I want to spend time with him then I can. Lucifer can just deal with it for a few days."
" Amara you know how he gets when......." Amara had been mad at their dad before but for her to call him Lucifer was something new.
Amara just looked over at Charlie as she stopped scratching her father's ears. " Honestly I don't care Charlie. He is my father so Lucifer can suck it up. Now can we stop talking about him?"
" Are you mad at him because of what I said?" Alastor just looked at Amara worried. " It's my fault so be mad at me."
" Papa you just told me the truth which he said he would do but he lied to me again. I told him not to lie anymore and he kept doing it so I am done. But it's not your fault if anything thank you for telling , Everyone I asked just told me to talk to him." She just held his hand rather than rubbing his cheek cause while he might be out of it she knew he wouldn't want her to touch him too much.
" But it is my fault. He only did it cause I .... I never told him the truth." He just looked around and then stopped at the door. " You were right Lucifer.... I am him cause my shadows remember that life with you but .... but I knew."
" You knew what Alastor?" Charlie saw the shadows slowly appear with a saddened expression.
Alastor kept looking at the door even when Charlie asked. " Before Amara was born, they told me that when I died I wouldn't go to whatever was after this life instead back. I don't know why I didn't say anything but..... but if your memory is right, Lucifer then I did it for you. You only accepted that I was dying when you thought after I would be at peace."
Charlie slowly walked to the door and when she opened it there her dad was in tears but he was bruised. " Dad what......?"
" You.....you should have told me then, Alastor. If I knew you were alive I could have brought you back or anything than morn you! I never accepted losing you but I did so we stopped fighting so I could be there for whatever time you had, to see the way Amara lit up in your arms, how she....she never cried with you." He wiped his tears as he looked at Alastor's shadow. " You could have told me, you could have come and told me, and then he wouldn't have had to spend all that time in pain."
" That's enough cause no matter what we can't go back and I understand Papa. I......I think it was easier growing up knowing you were in a better place than in a worse hell. I don't know if any of us could have." He just looked at her for a moment then started to try and get up so she waved Charlie over to help calm him down. As she looked back at Lucifer . " Go you're making things worse."
" Let me out!" When did he get here and why the hell was he strapped down? He looked around as he tried to pull himself free but as he broke his arms free and sat up he first saw he wasn't in his regular clothes. Still, some goan exposed his bare arm but he, as he started to grab at the, wries on his arms grabbed his hands. " What the hell is all of this?"
" Alastor because of your rut you're hungry a lot more but you didn't eat anything yesterday so your body started trying to eat itself. So all of this is just to help." Charlie looked at Amara then Alastor as they both held his hands. " We have been right here." Charlie looked at the door as her dad watched.
" No." Of course, he couldn't remember anything but reading to Amara and now it was the next day. " No, I....I have to go."
Amara held her father's hand closer as he started to pull. " You can't just yet. Whatever you have to do can wait."
He could wait until later, but as he started to relax and looked around, he felt something stuck to his neck and face. He couldn't see where they were coming from, but what was in them. " What is that?"
Alastor was freaking out and he just stood there watching until he was pushed out of the way by Bel who rushed in only freaking Alastor out more. When he saw the shadows appear more with spears he rushed over and grabbed Alastor's hand from Charlie as he cupped his cheek. " Love look at me not Bel or anyone alright? You have every right to panic but I wouldn't have let them do this if it wasn't to help you." He put his forehead on Alastor's. " You trusted me before and I need you to trust me now alright?"
When Lucifer pulled away he looked at him then Amara and Charlie as he suddenly felt heavy. " Okay." When he looked back at Lucifer he saw his face bruised. " Who?"
Lucifer pulled Alastor's hand to his cheek as he smiled. " Some rando's but I dealt with them and I heal. You scared the shit out of me asshole."
" Hahaha, you deserved it for keeping stuff from me." He messed Lucifer's hair up making Lucifer laugh even Charlie.
Just like her dad not not just keep things from his daughter and friends but her father too. " What did he keep from you?"
" Amara isn't not important." Charlie knew what Amara was getting to and right now wasn't the time to be angry not when they were in a hospital.
Alastor looked at Lucifer who just laid his head on his shoulder as he sat down and he didn't like keeping things from anyone. " He missed the fact Lilith wants to make a deal with me to save her life. She asked him when we were all in heaven and I only found out when he was talking about it yesterday. So that little gunshot is what you get Lucifer."
" You were shot?! Wait......" Charlie skipped over the part with her mom when she looked at her dad then it quickly came back . " Why is she wanting a deal to save her life is she sick?"
Lucifer sat up as he looked at Charlie and then Alastor. " No, she's fine but it's something between Alastor and her."
Lucifer wouldn't tell Charlie cause it wouldn't just hurt Charlie but it would ruin the idea of a family Lucifer had in his head. But when Charlie looked at him he didn't want her to not know . " Your mother is the only person besides myself out of the void and you all stopped me from killing her but she knows information I can't allow get out. Which is why she has gone to Lucifer and others to ask for her instead of facing me."
" Information? You want to kill my mom because she knows something?" Charlie looked at her Dad. " He can't kill Mom, Dad. You can't let him do this."
" I don't need Lucifer's permission to kill her and once Sera's fate is made she will be in hell. It's nothing personal but she was never supposed to live this long." He knew Charlie would be pissed and he understood the anger.
" You do since she's a sinner and if you kill her against the king's wishes then you will face charges." Charlie crossed her arms as she looked at Alastor who just laughed at her.
Alastor turned to Lucifer as he finally stopped laughing and gently rubbed his cheek. " See those trials Charlie always ends in the hell-born or sinner being killed and Lucifer wouldn't kill me. Besides I kill her or they will."
Charlie looked at her dad then Alastor. " They listen to you if you said no to....."
" But I wouldn't perhaps rather than death I can simply put her back." The idea sounded nice to him but the way Lucifer quickly looked at him said it wasn't helping.
Alastor was right her Dad couldn't kill him cause of their family and his love for him. The last thing she wanted was her mom being killed much less Alastor. Then suddenly the idea came to her. " I say you hear her out Alastor see what......"
" Charlie she threatened to testify against Alastor and make sure Alastor is locked away or worse. But she won't if he spares her life which.... " Lucifer didn't get a chance to finish.
" Your mother is only in heaven because of Sera and when she gets her sentence your mother will be forced down to hell. But it's not negotiable and no one not even Lucifer is talking me out of it." Charlie was pissed for a moment but it faded which he didn't expect.
Charlie stood up and looked at Alastor. " What if she doesn't fall? Or she doesn't testify? What do you want for my mom's life? I won't lose anyone else, not you or her so tell me!"
" Charlie...." If she was in Charlie's shoes she would be the same way but how could she tell her sister that her father just wanted Lilith gone ? That nothing they did was going to save he r.
" Amara no! I have spent years mornings with Alastor and my mom abandoning me when I needed her! Then they both show up and now I could lose one of them! I won't lose them again. I won't lose my mom." Charlie turned to Alastor. " Alastror you were always a father to me and you helped me get where I am today. We are family, blood or not we are but you do this......you....you kill my mom or take her....then none of us will ever be a family. I know under that smile you like this, you like having us around, the love you don't remember ever having, and just having people around you who care, who make you laugh, and give you purpose. You could have left after a week but you didn't when you vanished for 2 weeks you didn't have to come back but you did cause you cared. I'm not asking for you to be friends with her or even look at her just don't take her away from me. Please. You're my dad's world and Amara and me are in there but you would destroy it if you do this." She looked down to see Vaggie calling. " I have to go but please just think about it. I can make sure she never says anything and stays away."
Lucifer went to grab Charlie's hand before she walked out but she pulled away then left and even Amara rolled after her. " No matter how many times Lilith hurt her she loves her mom Alastor. Family is everything to Charlie but I won't tell you what to do. I just hope you know what happens the moment you do it." Lucifer pulled his chair closer as he laid his head beside Alastor's hand he held it and with the other hand traced the scars.
It had been a couple of hours or so he thought cause when he opened his eyes he realized he dozed off much longer than a couple of hours cause it was almost black outside. He quickly sat up in a panic when Alastor wasn't in bed which quickly made him think he was going after Lilith in heaven which scared him even more but then he saw him sitting on a chair with a blanket around himself as he read. The feeding tube was gone but everything else was still here and connected. " Asshole, you let me sleep."
Alastor looked up from his book to see Lucifer walking over. " You looked like you needed it and I did try but you shushed me."
" I did?" He was going to sit down on the arm of the chair but Alastor put his book aside and patted his leg so he happily sat in his lap as he wrapped the blanket around him. But when Alastor's hand touched his arm he almost jumped up from how cold it was. " Geez love, you're freezing. You should be in bed not sitting here."
" I'm fine Lucifer but why don't you tell me what's going on with you and Amara? She came by earlier to tell me to remind you that the day after next we have to go to heaven for Sera's sentencing." The blanket was just to hide the sight of his bare arm but when he touched Lucifer he was hot which felt nice so held Lucifer closer.
Before he could even find the words to start he snapped a thicker blanket around them to help warm Alastor up then slowly he explained everything that happend and everything Alastor said. Even the part about him telling them about fixing the void up and how Alastor found out that he was their Alasor. " I didn't want to hide it from you."
" Thank you for telling me all of this and I .... I didn't know about my shadow remembering that life but I do apologize for telling Amara something that wasn't for me to tell." He looked down at Lucifer as he laid his head on his shoulder.
There is a lot going on but this right here, right now made all of it vanish even if it was just for a short amount of time. " It's alright she deserved to know. I just hope she forgives me."
" If she's anything like you then she will but give her time." Maybe it was Lucifer being so warm or whatever they were putting in him but he couldn't help but lay his head gently on top of Lucifer's. " You have a good heart Lucifer and I even see that in your daughters."
" We value family Alastor and even the purest of hearts will see the bad if someone they love is hurt or worse." Lucifer slowly looked up at Alastor as he sat up. " Charlie is better than even me Alastor and sees the good in everyone but if......."
In the couple hours he had been awake he had time to think about what Charlie and Lucifer which led him to his decision. So he ran his hand through Lucifer's hair as he watched Lucifer wrap his arms around him. " I know."
" Can....can you read to me until I fall asleep?" There was no better place to be than right here in Alastor's arms, holding the man he loves. Alastor just looked at him after he asked and when he looked away Alastor started to read which brought a smile to him. But he listened to each word that came out of Alastor's mouth until he drifted off to sleep. When he woke up he was in the bed but no Alastor not even when he sat up and looked around in a panic. But as he was about to hop out of the bed Bel walked in. " Alastor, where is he?"
" Lucifer he asked me to leave and I let him. He was recovered and...."
" Leave? Leave where? Why didn't you wake me up or...." Lucifer grabbed his head as he tried to think of where Alastor would go. " Bel did he...."
" He didn't tell me Lucifer, I'm sorry. But he didn't want to wake you up but I made sure he understood what was going to happen to him in the next week or two. From the looks of those shadows of his, they didn't seem too happy with him."
Why would his shadows not be happy with him? They severed Alastor some even a part of.....then it hit him where he would have gone. " Is Amara still here?"
" Yes, she will be released tonight so she can have the night at home before the sentencing. Angel and Husk are with her right now since Charlie was meeting up with someone."
The last thing Alastor and him talked about was Lilith so what if......what if he was going to kill her before tomorrow so she never had a chance to say anything? " I.....I have to go but if something happens please call me." When Bel nodded he quickly teleported to Charlie only when he appeared he was in the heaven embassy and there Charlie was sitting on a bench. " Charlie, what are you doing here?"
" I should ask you the same thing but I called Mom last night and she is meeting me here so I can talk her out of testifying against Alastor. She would be the only reason he would face charges and if she dropped the whole thing then she......." Charlie was saving her mom and wasn't losing Alastor so she took action to make sure no one died again.
" Charlie......" Lucifer sat down and he grabbed Charlie's hands. " Alastor won't care and I know this hurts but when he has his mind on something he won't stop himself."
" Well, I can't do nothing as they try to kill each other. I love Alastor, Dad but I can't ever look at him the same if he does this. She's my mom and I love her too." Charlie pulled her hands away from her Dad as she stood up. " I don't want to hate him Dad cause he's family but I love my mom too." When she looked at the door she saw the portal open but what she didn't expect was the exorcists to walk out and then her mom. " Mom, why are they here?"
"They're here to keep me alive in case that thing tries to kill me." Lilith pointed some outside but as she started to look back at Charlie she stopped on Lucifer. " Why don't we all sit down and talk as a family." She sat down as Lucifer and Charlie slowly sat down. " Charlie I was so happy to get a call from you I miss you so much. I have wanted to come and see everything you have done but....but I couldn't."
" Mom I missed you too. But as much as I wish this was to catch up I wanted to talk about Alastor and......" Her mom quickly lifted her hand and then turned to her Dad.
" Lucifer I came to you not Charlie, 'cause I didn't want her involved in this."
Lilith might be his first love but she always had a way with words to get her way which now he could see was something Alastor did as well perhaps he did have a type. " I didn't tell her Alastor did when you went to his mom and told her. He overheard his mother telling me and got pissed I never told him."
" Of course, he told Charlie." She took a breath and then turned to Charlie. " That's why you called wasn't it?"
The way her mom said that sounded as if she was hurt. " Yes and no. I don't want either of you to get hurt so if you give Alastor your word you won't say anything then he had no reason to kill you. Please I mourned loss once and almost lost the woman I love so I can't go through that again with you or Alastor. You both mean a lot to me and....."
" You shouldn't love that thing Charlie it's not human. I love your heart Charlie it's just like your Dad's but the Alastor we knew is long gone. It needs to be stopped before it kills us all or worse. I left and I hated not being with you Charlie but I want to be in your life which I can't do with it....."
" His name is Alastor, Lilith and he is as much human as we all are. Yes he is different and doesn't remember his life before the void but that's because Sera's erased all of it so he wasn't a problem anymore. Roo hurt in ways he will never forget but in the time he's been here, he has changed from who we all saw that first day." Lucifer stood up as he looked at Lilith. " You should understand him better than us 'cause we were there."
Lilith stood up as she looked down at Lucifer. " I was only there because of your Alastor! He took me from hell and do you think I am Eve's best friend? She blamed me for falling in love with you and causing her to be sent to the void. She hurt me too Lucifer but I didn't get someone to hold me and tell me they loved me, I got her pet wanting me dead making me hide away from my family."
" Mom......" Charlie stood up and started to walk to her mom but she stopped her.
" I....I disappeared and my family never looked for me. I was a good wife to you Lucifer and I was a good mom. Why........why didn't you find me?" Lilith sat down as she gave in to her tears as Charlie quickly hugged her. " I just wanted my family back."
" I'm sorry, Mom. I just thought you left again but nothing I do will make up for what you went through but I would like to be here for you. I love you Mom and I always have." Why didn't she think Roo didn't hurt her mom or even think she would have to be suffering like Alastor was?
From how Lilith was when she saved him, she didn't seem as hurt as she made it sound now but he felt bad for not even considering she would have been hurt. So he walked over to her and hugged her with Charlie as she cried. " I'm sorry Lilith."
She just hugged them both tightly until she stopped crying. " I'm sorry to cause I can't back down. He will kill me cause that's what she wanted it to do but he can't if he's locked up. Lucifer he killed your brothers and your people but it doesn't feel anything for those lives lost, it only craves blood, and that hunger will never stop. Sera might have made him forget but before that, he had hope, he didn't scream or beg, cause he knew he had love but Emily told me about giving Alastor's memories and it will just make it hate all of you."
Lucifer just shook his head as he sat down. " Stop calling him, it."
" Alastor stopped being Alastor the moment Sera wiped his memory. He became nothing which Roo used to shape him into whatever she wanted. She turned him into a pet to do whatever she wanted, someone who would obey everything she wanted and someone with Alastor's brains. She twisted his past and made him relive the worst times in his life. I never knew it was Alastor down there but I went down there, I felt the cold chill of the place, and I could hear the chains and him trying to catch his breath, I.....I listened to his screams only for seconds of quiet when he passed out for a moment before she forced him awake. I memorized the sound of bones breaking....or limbs being torn from one's body. But worst I stood there as he begged for it all to stop, for death and I heard him cry out names, the worst being Deigo."
He was going to be sick so he ran to the trash and puked only when he stood up wiping his face did he see Charlie do the same as she cried. " That's......that's....why he wants you dead. You know.....you know what she did......you know how he broke."
Lilith just walked over and she held Charlie's hair until she stood up. As she hugged Charlie through her sobs she looked at Lucifer. " Not just that....I know how he can die for good"
Notes:
What did Alastor decide to do with Lilith? How will Sera's sentencing go? Will Lilith come to reason, or will she try and fight Alastor? How can Alastor really die? Will Amara and Lucifer make up this time, or was the damage too much for their relationship? Is Lilith right about Alastor? Why were those sinners after Alastor and Amara?
More to come this week, so just check in to find out. Bye.
Chapter 35: Sentencing
Summary:
Lilith gets Charlie to stay with her in heaven while Lucifer tries to talk to Amara, only she won't hear him out and tells Lucifer about her staying with Vox. To take out his anger on Vox, Lucifer goes to a fight club, where Alastor later finds him. Alastor has his first overlord meeting, but Velvette makes a comment that makes Alastor snap. They all go up to heaven for Sera's sentencing and find out who will replace Sera's position. Lilith confronts Alastor about her deal.
Notes:
Another day, another chapter with almost 7k words. So sit back and enjoy.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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If angelic energy only killed his body how the hell do you kill Alastor? How did Lilith even know how much less who else knew? " How?"
" I can't and won't tell you Lucifer. It wants me dead for what I know because it's what Roo wanted no Roo means it's on its own now. I should get back but tell Alastor he has until he leaves heaven tomorrow to give me an answer or else I will go to the council and plead my case to them allowing not just for me to stay but for them to see it as the monster I know it is." She looked down at Charlie and wiped her tears. " If.....if you want you could come with me....both of you. I would love to have you both stay with me and you both have to come to heaven tomorrow."
Charlie knew her dad wouldn't leave Alastor like that but she also didn't want her mom to be more hurt than she was. " Why don't I stay with you so we can have some girl time? Besides, Dad needs to apologize to Amara."
" What did you do now Lucifer?" Lilith may be happy to have Charlie go stay with her but she wanted her whole family.
" He just kept some information about something he did from Amara who has been asking. Dad letting her just hear your side is all she wants. You promised her you would stop and you didn't which hurts a lot for both of us especially Amara. You keep doing this Dad and time or I can fix it. She needs to know everything just like Alastor and everyone else does. You didn't like Alastor keeping things from you so why do that to everyone else?" Charlie walked over to her dad and hugged him. " Make this right, please. But I'll see you tomorrow in front of the court house please talk to Amara she is staying at the hotel tonight and I think she's taking Alastor with her if you don't get over there soon."
" Alright." He looked over at Lilith as Charlie walked back over to her. " Take care of her, Lilith."
" She's my daughter, I would never hurt her." Lilith rubbed Charlie's back as she waved the exorcists to head back. " Perhaps after tomorrow, us three could have lunch or something.....like we used to?"
" Sure that sounds like fun right dad?" Charlie looked at her Dad who just nodded. " Bye Dad."
Lucifer watched them all walk through as he waved but as it closed something just felt off about the whole thing. Charlie made a point about making things right with Amara before it was too late. He didn't feel Alastor in hell so he teleported to Amara where she laid there asleep clinging to her frog he quietly walked in and sat down. And he just sat there for a few hours until Amara started to stir and wake up. " Hey, Froggie I....."
" Get out." Amara just turned around in bed the best she could but when she did her dad just teleported to the other side of the bed. " What part of get out didn't you understand."
" Amara I'm sorry for not telling you the truth and honestly I was just ashamed that I ever was in that state to begin with. What kind of man does that and......"
Amara sat up and looked at her Dad. " I'm not mad that you had an addiction to pain medicine cause I get after Papa died you were in a dark place. But I'm mad that I wasn't enough for you, that you would rather die than be with me. Charlie and Vaggie were there for most of my firsts, they were there when I cried for my father while you were just thinking about you. I see why Grammie and you didn't get along much and why everyone stopped talking to you. Once you got clean you took me away from all of them and locked me away in that palace. But I don't remember the feeling of losing my father so how can I be mad or even mad you're sick? I'm furious that you kept something from me again but you didn't just lie to me but to my father and I am done. You can give me space, you can say you're sorry, hell.....you can have everyone plead your case and I will only see a liar. I don't ever want to see you again but I do in order to see my own father. At least I know he won't lie to me and I just have to ask him the right questions to get the truth."
" Amara please....." He wiped his tears but as he was about to make his speech there was a knock at the door when he looked it was Vox. " Why the hell is he here?"
" I should wait in the hall." Vox started to walk out but Amara spoke.
" No Vox your okay he was just leaving." Amara turned to her father. " I think I should stay with Vox for right now so you're not coming around."
Lucifer looked at Vox pissed he wanted to kill him right here but he couldn't. " What about tomorrow?"
" I'm going but I will sit away from you. Now get out." Amara pointed at the door as she watched her dad leave but the way he looked at Vox had her say one final thing. " If I find out you hurt Vox or anything even with his name on it I won't only have nothing to do with you but you could forget ever seeing me again."
Amara couldn't mean that but when he looked at her she didn't show any emotion and when he stepped out of the room Vox closed the door in his face. He needed to hit something, scream, kill, anything to calm him down and he quickly teleported to Greed. He wasn't thinking he just needed to hit someone or anything so he went to a fight club.
Two days' worth of work to catch up on and not to even get started on the overlord work but he caught up on work and even got ahead since tomorrow they would be in heaven. Before starting the overlord stuff he figured it was best to check on Lucifer only when he arrived at the hospital he was told Amara was at Vox's and Lucifer left. So he checked at the palace but found nothing which was strange. He knew Lucifer wasn't at Vox's so he didn't even bother to go and look so he sent his shadows searching for Lucifer. In a matter of minutes, they found him and he vanished into the shadows. Only when he arrived it was full of sinners not just small sinners but large ones which he thought was odd until he heard banter between two sinners and heard Lucifer's name. Quickly, he tossed the sinner to the wall as they crumbled in fear. " Where is Lucifer?"
" He's.....he's fighting sir....I..."
" Fighting?" As he looked around, he saw sinners cheering.
" Mr. Radio Demon, sir this is a fight club."
Why would Lucifer be in some sinner fight club? He walked away as he tried to look even sending shadows to find Lucifer until he stopped when he saw Lucifer below in a ring with a much larger sinner. But as he watched hit after hit he didn't understand how this was still going on. Lucifer was king so how was a mere sinner even landing hits? " Am I not understanding the rules here? He's the king yet this fight still goes on?"
" Man, no power's allowed including..........oh fuck your......your...."
" The Radio Demon, yes. Why would someone do this?" Before he listened to the answer he saw the large sinner knock Lucifer to the ground which was enough for him so he vanished to the ring, catching the man's fist before hitting Lucifer on the ground. " That's enough."
" Need your scary pet to fight your fights?!"
Lucifer spit the blood out of his mouth and when he looked there Alastor was. " Alastor get out of here."
When he turned to look at Lucifer he quickly moved to the side as the sinner swung so he grabbed the sinner's wrist quickly breaking his arm. " I am trying to have a conversation here." He looked back at Lucifer. " You're a mess Lucifer how long have you been down here?"
" Just a few hours now can I finish this?" Lucifer stood up and looked up at Alastor.
" Fuck!..... Get your bitch out of here Lucifer."
Lucifer moved Alastor aside as he looked at the sinner. " What did you just call him?"
" I called him a fucking bitch!"
He looked back at Alastor, then the sinner and all he saw was red until it cleared and he was standing there covered in red. Then he saw the remains and looked right at Alastor who looked impressed almost. " Alright, we can go." The room was silent as they walked out but when he got outside he stopped and started laughing. " Did you see all of their faces?! Hahahah! Oh, that felt amazing!"
Alastor walked up to Lucifer and picked him then vanished them to a nearby alley. Where he quickly slammed Lucifer into the wall. " I'm shocked but.....I liked that."
" You did?" He grabbed the back of Alastor's neck and quickly pulled him into a kiss which Alastor happily decided until he pushed Alastor off. " You hungry for some sinner or deer, my love?"
" Deer." He looked at Lucifer's face for a moment then licked his cheek as he tasted the blood which tasted quite nice so he licked some more only to pull away and see they were in Lucifer's garden. "Tasty."
Lucifer just giggled as he snapped Alastor a few fresh deer. " Why don't you eat those while I wash up?"
Alastor pulled Lucifer close and licked his neck then let go. " Sounds good to me and these look quite tasty haha."
As he got up he kissed Alastor's head then teleported to his bathroom to wash off. When he walked down he saw Alastor's shadows bringing Alastor more. " Love, you were starving weren't you?"
" Long day and deer this time I herd taste much better than the rest of the year. Want to try?" Alastor handed Lucifer a leg but he just shook his head so he had at it and several more deers. " So....why were you in some fight club and why is Amara with Vox?"
Lucifer dropped his smile as he looked up at Alastor. " She wasn't happy I kept what I was addicted to from her when I told her I wouldn't do that anymore or lie but I did. She......she wants nothing to do with me Alastor. She......she hates me."
" I'm sure she doesn't hate you." Alastor finished his bite and then wiped his hands.
" Alastor she never wants to see me again and no matter what I do she will only see me as a liar. I lost her Alastor........it's all my fault and nothing I do will ever....." Lucifer broke down into sobs as he leaned into Alastor's arms. " She is staying with Vox to stay away from me.........my little girl hates me!"
He held Lucifer as he cried. " Don't we all have to go to heaven tomorrow? You will see her then maybe by then she would have cooled off?" Lucifer just shook his head as he cried harder. " This is my fault Lucifer and....."
" Hey this was going to come out eventually and you were very high on medicine so it's alright. I don't blame you neither does she, she still wants you in her life." Lucifer put a hand on Alastor's chest as he looked up at him. " Are daughter needs you Alastor even if you're not ready to be a father just be there for her, please?"
" This is ridiculous, Lucifer go over there and make her leave. Go get....."
" Alastor she's an adult and she made it clear if I do that it would just make everything worse. But I will give her space for now and I have you at least. So why don't you finish up and we could go have some fun?" He didn't want to talk about his issues and just enjoy Alastor's company.
Alastor had so much to do yet if he told Lucifer it would make him feel worse he didn't want to lie but before he had a chance to say anything the door to the garden opened and Rosie walked through. " Rosie always a pleasure but why are you here?"
" Honey we have your first overlord meeting since being back in a little bit. Hey Lucifer how are you doing?" Rosie walked over as she hugged the two.
Lucifer looked at Alastor who just looked at Rosie oddly. " Um.....I have been better but I am happy I got this one to eat."
Alastor didn't even know about an overlord meeting. " Rosie, is there a way I can miss it?"
" I would say yes if it wasn't your first one being back. Besides, Carmilla asked for you to be there. Look I will be right there with you and besides this might help you catch up to all of us." Rosie patted Alastor's back. " Now finish up and don't you dare think about skipping those meds, honey."
When Rosie walked back inside Lucifer looked up at Alastor. " What did she mean catch up? Are.....are you struggling?"
" No, it's nothing really but I should go upstairs for a moment." Alastor vanished upstairs to Lucifer's room as he sat down while his shadow brought him his meds. But as he grabbed the ones he needed, Lucifer appeared. " Lucifer...."
" This might sound crazy but can I come? I can hide in your jacket pocket." He snapped a glass of water and handed it to Alastor as he watched him down his meds.
" Lucifer why don't you go visit with Charlie while I am away?" Alastor got up and slid on his jacket.
Maybe if Alastor asked the question better he would have had the whole truth. " She's busy but I wouldn't mind going to a cafe while you're in your meeting."
He just nodded then vanished to the door where Rosie stood and Lucifer quickly followed. They all walked together until Lucifer found his cafe and he and Rosie walked to the meeting which they were early for so Roise went over who was who and what they did which helped until he saw overlords walking in and looking at him which he simply smiled as he enjoyed a fun banter with Rosie.
Carmilla walked in and sat at the end of the table by the board. " Alastor glad Rosie sent my message to make sure you came."
" I wouldn't miss it." He would and he still wanted to leave. When the charts started and Carmilla started he couldn't feel more lost but just as everyone turned to him someone walked through the door and he saw Vox walk in with two others which he didn't know.
" Glad you all decided to show up.....late. But as I....."
" Were fucking overlord why the hell am I sitting here looking at this complex shit? You said we all had to fucking come and I have models to style so what the hell was so important?" Velvette crossed her arms as she looked right at Carmilla.
" Fine business for everyone is running slower ever since someone decided to kill major suppliers and scare the rest." Carmilla looked right at Alastor.
He hadn't killed any suppliers in pride and just the couple in greed. " That sounds like a you issue rather than me. It was just a few little sinners nothing crazy."
" Maldito idiota.......that was you?! You killed hundreds of them no wonder I can't move my shit!" Valentino quickly stood up and started to grab his guns when he saw Alastor's shadows appear. " You leave for 20 fucking years then come back ruining business! Hide behind those shadows all you want but you fucked......"
" Val enough." Vox rolled his eyes as he pulled Valentino's arm. " Anything else Carmilla?"
" Alastor you have been gone longer than before and we know you feared but things have changed perhaps you should retire the......"
Alastor just laughed as he looked at Carmilla. " Please I kill a few sinners and mess up your business while I am just fine."
" Are you?" Velvettle looked away from her phone as she looked at Alastor and Rosie. " Cause I heard you fucking died and word around is your nothing close to who you were. Haha, he was asking for fucking directions and sightings of you being fucking lost like your someone else!"
Rosie grabbed Alastor's hand to keep him calm. " Like Carmilla said a lot has changed in 20 years so of course things aren't where they were before. Alastor is still the radio demon and keep going and you will end up like the rest of the overlords who spoke to him like that."
" Oh does he need his little girlfriend to fight his fights? Pathetic honestly I mean he's supposed to....." Velvette didn't get a chance to finish before being thrown into the window.
" WHAT THE HELL AL?!" Vox quickly zapped to Velvette and back. " You broke her fucking arm!"
" Perhaps your doll will learn not to talk to me like that if she wishes to keep the rest of herself." Alastor just laughed.
Velvette popped her arm back as she looked at Alastor pissed. " You fucking psycho! You belong in a fucking nut ward!"
" That's enough!" Carmilla slammed her hands down at the table but what she didn't expect was for Alastor of all people to jump. Zestial had said how Alastor didn't seem the same as he was before and that just proved it but when they all looked at him, his eyes went black. " Rosie calm him down now."
" I think we heard enough let's go hon." Rosie stood up but as she tried to get Alastor up he pulled his hand away and then vanished but so did Velvette. " Oh shit."
Vox quickly searched the cameras and then found Alastor beating the shit out of Velvette so he quickly zapped over with Valentino and Rosie. " Fuck Alasor your going to kill her get off!" But when he merely touched him he was thrown through builds.
" I have wanted to do this for so fucking long." Valentino pulled his guns out but Rosie quickly ran in the way. " Move!"
" Stop it!" Rosie waved her hand quickly knocking Valentino out as she quickly ran between Alastor and Velvette who was hardly moving. " Alastor.....honey I need you to...." Suddenly, she was in the Sloth so she ran to a pay phone and called Lucifer.
Lucifer didn't even think and teleported to Alastor as he ran between him and Velvette. " Alastor I need you...." Before he could say more he was slammed into the wall but as he teleported behind Alastor, his shadow quickly threw him into a building as he tried to get up the whole building fell but he teleported out of the way just in time but as he was about to get back he saw Vox getting up. " What the hell happend?!"
" Just hold him still and I will flash the light at him." Vox zapped Valentino and Velvette back to the towers as Alastor quickly turned to them. " It's enough Alastor she was just pissed!"
" I am going to kill you and then hang all of your corpses for every sinner to see." Alastor just laughed harder as he sent his shadows after Vox.
" Alastor!" Lucifer got Alastor's attention as Vox zapped away from the shadows. " I don't know what happend but you......" Out of nowhere, one of Alastor's shadow tentacles punched him, knocking him to the ground when he rolled over he saw Vox's cables wrapping around Alastor. " Vox....no.." Then he heard Alastor scream from the shock as Vox blinded even him with the flashing lights. When he looked back he saw Alastor fall to the ground as Vox fell to his knees. He slowly walked over. " Make sure no one sees what happend Vox." Vox weakly nodded. " Now tell me what the hell happened."
Vox held his broken arm as he glitched. " She....she called him a psycho and.....a...aand how he needed to be in a nut ward. L....lucifer she....she doesn't know."
Lucifer slowly bent down as he picked Alastor up. " Tell Velvette if she talks to Alastor or anyone in the family like that again I will make sure she dies. That goes for everyone." Lucifer teleported to his room carefully laid Alastor down and snapped him changed into pajamas. " I would have done the same fucking thing to her love if she said that to me."
" Mmm..." Alastor slowly woke up but when he tried to sit up his head pounded hard making him lay back down. " What.....?"
" Justice for Velvette calling you psycho." Lucifer sat up as he gently moved Alastor's hair from his face. " You feel better?"
" No. But....what did I do?" He tiredly looked at Lucifer.
Lucifer lightly smiled as he rubbed Alastor's cheek. " You made sure no one ever dared that to you again. Vox zapped you pretty hard so you should get some rest, love."
" I...I can't I need to......ahh!" He had so much to do and he didn't have time to relax or wait for his head to stop. Lucifer held him down as he weakly tried to get up.
" You are in no shape to do anything alright? Love, you can barely move your head so just rest you can catch up when you wake up." Carefully he scratched behind Alastor's ears as he just looked at him confused. " You heal fast so in a few hours you will be as good as new. Just take a nap, love." He didn't get an answer as Alastor fell asleep in his arms which he gently continued to scratch behind his ear until his phone rang which he quietly answered not even looking who the call was from.
" Hello?"
" Put Papa on."
" Oh, Amara, I guess Vox told you....."
" Put him on."
" Amara, he's asleep I'm sorry but when....."
END OF CALL
Lucifer looked at his phone and then tossed it aside as he held Alastor as he slept. He did for a few hours before Alastor woke up again. " Feeling better?"
As he sat up his head didn't hurt like it did before so he nodded as he looked at the time. " I need to get going." As he got up and vanished himself changed he looked at Lucifer still sitting on the bed sadly. " Would you like to come? I have to do some things at that radio tower and you can sit around if you want."
" Really?!" Lucifer quickly got up and hugged Alastor. " Thank you."
He just rolled his eyes and then vanished them to a radio tower. As he got to work Lucifer sat down by the fireplace and read. He had to catch up on all the souls he owned and the business he owned. But after a few hours, he had it mostly down but it just left him with paying a visit to one soul who had been slacking over the years. " Lucifer I have to run out to deal with this but I will be back before you finish that chapter." Lucifer just gave him a thumbs up so he left.
It was just like Alastor to be punctual and just as he finished the chapter there he was. " You done now?"
" I am but I am quite hungry." He sat down beside Lucifer as his shadows brought him a few deer. So while he ate Lucifer read.
Just as he was reaching the climax of the story his phone started to ring making him close the book and answer.
" Hello?"
" Put Papa on."
Lucifer looked up at Alastor as he put the phone on speaker. " Love it's for you."
" Papa, I heard what happend. Are you alright?"
" I'm fine, it was harmless."
" Um....you just about killed Velvette, Valentino keeps saying stuff in Spanish, and Vox...he is going to be in repair for a couple hours. Harmless would be the last word I would use and you made Rosie go all the way to Sloth."
" Harmless is right no one died and it's all fixable. Now can I stop talking to this thing? It's quite annoying."
" You know I can get you one so we can talk more."
" No. If you wish to speak with me then come to me this is all stupid you avoiding Lucifer over....."
" Papa I'll see you tomorrow but I love you and goodnight."
END OF CALL
" Did she end it with me?" Alastor grabbed the phone from Lucifer's hands as he inspected it.
" Love she doesn't want to talk about me and I don't want her over there without her at least talking to you. So please leave it alone." Lucifer laid his head on Alastor's shoulder.
This whole thing was his fault yet Lucifer didn't want him to fix it and Amara wouldn't even let him talk about it. " Oh, I can get you two talking quick."
" Alastor I need you to give me your word that you will stay out of it please." If Alastor got involved Amara would just be more pissed off.
" Fine." There was no point in arguing when Lucifer made it clear he wasn't to intervene so he just finished his deers and they went to bed.
From the moment he got up and started getting ready he couldn't stop himself from worrying that Sera wouldn't get what was coming, that Alastor and all of the sinner's in that void would never get justice. But Alastor seemed so calm and put together as he ate and read the newspaper even telling him some of the interesting stories. When they got to the heaven embassy Alastor was telling him some story but he didn't hear the rest once he saw Amara but he grabbed Alastor's hand and remembered to stay calm. But when the portal opened to the Heaven Courthouse there Charlie was waving at them even hugging all of them but Alastor who she waved at. " How's it looking in there?"
" Oh, every important angel is in there Dad." Charlie looked at the door than her dad. " We should get in there.... hehe I'm kinda excited about this."
Amara walked over to Charlie. " I mean who wouldn't when this lady is finally being punished for everything she's done. I can't wait to see the broken look she gives when she is kicked out of heaven."
" I wouldn't get hopes up just yet this is heaven we're talking about and......" It was that feeling again and he couldn't help but listen and not get excited yet when he tried to tell Amara she wouldn't even look at him. Luckily Alastor was there and squeezed his hand which helped all until he saw exorcists walking towards them with weapons and chains he quickly stood in front of Alastor. " What do you think you're doing?"
" Are job. We have been ordered to restain it."
" Woah, I thought we were past this already? Alastor won't hurt anyone in there and it was the council who....." Charlie didn't get a chance to finish before more showed up.
Lucifer was going to fight each one but as they aimed their weapons he heard Emily.
" Stop!" Emily ran over in front of the exorcists. " You don't need to use all of this I already talked to the higher-ups and they agreed the collar is enough. Now go inside, please." Emily waited until the last exorcist was inside before speaking. " You all remember this and once this is over we can take it off Alastor. The remote is with a higher up but they won't use it unless you try attacking anyone which I know you won't. I'm sorry....if it was up to me I wouldn't have had Alastor be here if they were afraid."
Lucifer was handed the collar. " Girl's why don't you both head in?"
" Alright." Amara was already walking in with Emily but Charlie looked at her dad and Alastor. " We will all be there with you Alastor."
Alastor waited until the door closed before looking at Lucifer. " This better be worth all of this Lucifer."
" I do too." Lucifer looked down at the collar then Alastor who sat down so he could put it on. " Like Charlie said we will all be there with you love." Putting that stupid collar on made him feel shitty for not even trying to stand up for Alastor but this wasn't going to take long. He grabbed Alastor's hand as they walked in everyone quickly looked at them but he didn't have to even look to know. When they sat down the head of council stood.
" We call Sera in for sentencing." Once Sera walked in he looked at the rest of the council and then everyone else. " Sera do you have anything to say before sentencing?"
" I do. I know I have done wrong, made others suffer, and allowed lives to be killed and for that, I can't ever apologize enough. I wanted to keep heaven safe and in doing so I lost myself and I did things I will never forget. I just hope whoever takes on my role has a good heart and loves heaven as much as I do. But they also continued what I couldn't finish, make sure heaven stays safe from the darkness. I have been head seraphim for thousands of years so I know where this is going to go.....I....I will fall and live among the sinner's but I won't long before I am killed." Sera looked over at Lilith as she nodded at her. " This courtroom is missing angels because one man who took our brothers and sisters away from us so I just hope we can get justice for them. Thank you."
Sera was talking about Alastor and as much as he wanted to kill her he couldn't but when he looked at Alastor he was pissed so he grabbed both of his hands. " Love, you need to take a breath alright?"
" Sera you have done amazing work as head seraphim but your actions from these exterminations to your actions dealing with the void we didn't find you worthy of heaven. Heaven is for the good, one who wouldn't commit harm to others yet you did several times. Your hands are too bloodied for heaven Sera so we banish you from heaven and put you in hell to live amongst the sinners you had slaughtered." He turned to Lucifer and motioned him to stand. " Lucifer we leave Sera in your hands so if you wish to try her for her crimes against your people we will allow it but in no way is Alastor to kill or cause her harm."
" What?!" Lucifer watched Alastor quickly stand up just as shocked as him.
" Sera stopped her exterminations in hell over 20 years ago but she tortures millions of souls in the void and gets given to Lucifer?!" Alastor held the rail tighter so he didn't try and use his powers. " She deserves everything she did....."
" Alastor we understand your frustrations and we considered everything but we can't condone you to torture Sera or anyone. But Lucifer......"
" You all allowed her to do it but I can't?! I helped you kill Roo and save heaven just for this?!" He looked at Sera. " Fine, I won't touch her."
" Thank you, now Lucifer you are allowed to hold a trial to decide Sera's fate or allow her to live among your people. With that Sera's case is closed and we announce the head seraphim is Emily. Congratulations dear."
Emily looked at Charlie shocked then quickly flew to the middle of the courtroom. " Thank you all and I promise none of you will regret this. I know it's soon and I haven't been waved in but I ask that the exorcists be disbanded and we new ones. In the weeks of trials, I have seen them harm people in ways they never should have endorsed and I ask for the ones who had part in exterminations or the void to be relieved at once and be held to their actions."
" Emily they were doing as ordered."
" I had to watch how they treated Alastor in our custody and I can call in the doctor who treated his injuries. I even have pictures." Emily pulled her phone out but before she flew it to the council she looked at Lucifer. " I ask if these pictures could stay between the council and me."
Emily had just told him to trust her but he felt that worry from this morning come back as he looked at Alastor who just watched. But when he looked at the council as they looked at Emily's phone and passed it around he saw the horror in their eyes even some in tears. " Alastor what did they do?"
" I don't know." Alastor saw the council looking at him but he didn't know what Emily was showing them.
" Emily the exorcist was following orders which will need to change as well as protocol if this is happening to inmates. We don't know the context that led to Alastor being treated this way or if he was fighting back. From our understanding, his arrest was violent and this could have....."
" No cause I saw how they treated Alastor, when I went to check on Alastor I found him like this barely moving from them beating him. Council play my memories of it but I warn you it will make you sick I just ask if you do Alastor doesn't have to watch." Emily turned to Lucifer. " Sera is falling for her crimes yet the exorcists still commit crimes, they are still hurting people."
" Emily this is just a hearing for Sera's sentencing and replacement, not a trial. If you wish to deal with the exorcists when you are sworn in you may."
Emily turned to the council then to everyone else. " I understand but I can't let time go on when something this violent is going on in heaven. The exorcists are supposed to protect us, to serve heaven but they lost their purpose and I don't want anyone no matter who to suffer again at their hands. May I ask that until I am sworn in you will watch the exorcists closely."
" Due to the nature of those photos, we will allow it. Now we are dismissed. Thank you all for coming."
" Wait! What about the demon? He killed hundreds of our people are we really going to let him wander around and kill more or chance him coming back?!"
" Again until Emily is sworn in no action will be taken and Alastor will remain with Lucifer. Sera's trial enlightened us on his case and we found it best he remained free and unharmed but he understands what will happen if he decides to attack heaven. Hell is Lucifer's issue, not our's. If that is all we are done here."
Amara looked at her father but he didn't seem to know what Emily was talking about once they walked out and stood there waiting for Emily she couldn't help but wonder what the pictures were. So when she saw Emily run over and hug Charlie she figured to ask. " Emily those pictures you showed the council could I see them?"
Emily looked at Lucifer than Alastor. " I....I don't think anyone should see those Amara but let's get that collar off so you can get home." Just as she flew up to unlock the collar some yelled at her to stop which was strange when she looked it was Lilith. " Lilith?"
" Alastor did you decide on my deal?" Alastor couldn't kill her much less hurt her if he had the collar on so now was better than later. " You have always been so hard to read Alastor so I will need you to say it."
" Mom I thought we talked about this and...." Her mom quickly spoke.
" We did but with Sera falling I will be behind her if I don't find out. Charlie, I want to live so we can be a family again and see you be a mother. I missed enough of your life because of Alastor I won't miss any more of it." Lilith hugged Charlie and slowly looked at Alastor.
Alastor looked at Lucifer who looked at him worried. Lucifer wanted his family and if it wasn't for him he wouldn't be where he was, hell he would be in some heaven cell still. " Alright I spare you, Lilith....for now, but if I find out my name or any mention of me is coming out of your mouth you are going to wish I killed you now. I will be watching Lilith and I don't care who you are to Charlie or Lucifer I won't just kill you I will put you in that wonderful pit." Lilith was terrified which he couldn't help but laugh about as he looked at Emily to unlock his collar. " Oh, Lilith.....I won't give you a warning cause this is your last one. How about we all head back I am starving haha."
" Oh, food sounds great Papa. I just found this great place you will love." Amara was practically clapping with excitement. " Father-daughter time?"
He was going to suggest they all go as a family but Amara beat him to it. Alastor even looked at him to see if it was okay. " Go ahead I have some work to do anyways." He watched Emily portal the two away leaving him with Lilith and Charlie but as he was about to ask to go home Lilith stopped him.
" Since those two are busy why don't we have some family fun up here? The beaches up here are great and we can have lunch?" Lilith saw Charlie was on board but Lucifer kept looking back. " Lucifer we both know you weren't going to do any work you were planning on just sitting around so why not?"
Lilith had a point but something didn't feel right about Lilith. But Charlie looked so excited so how could he say no? " Alright just for a little bit."
Notes:
Is Lilith planning something? Will Alastor stay away from Sera? Why is Lucifer having a bad feeling about Lilith? Will Lilith keep her mouth shut about Alastor, or will she tell more of what happend? How will Alastor's rut go? Will Vox's secret come out? Will Alastor finish killing Velvette? Is Alastor behind on his overlord work, or is he struggling?
More to come..........so bye......for now.
Chapter 36: Ex's
Summary:
Lucifer spends the day with Lilith and Charlie while Alastor spends some time with Amara, who brought Vox along for the fun. But Amara wasn't ready to let her father leave and told Charlie he was staying with her. Vox gets Alastor to drink, and Alastor experiences his first hangover, but wakes up in a panic. Amara takes care of them until Alastor leaves. Alastor goes to find Lucifer and finds him in Lust. Lucifer finds a few small things off with Alastor as they talk with Oz in Lust, only for him to find out why Alastor hated Lust.
Chapter Text
Lilith had grabbed lunch as he and Charlie got ready for the beach and set the blanket out. Charlie and Lilith both insisted he didn't just wear a shirt but sat under an umbrella with 100+SPF on with a hat. He felt like a child and he would have refused if it wasn't for what Lilith picked up for lunch. Surprisingly he had a fun time they all laughed and even went swimming and played some volleyball. Charlie hadn't stopped smiling and he only did a few times when he thought about Alastor and how he wished he was there. Or when his mind wondered what Alastor would even look like in swim trunks.
But Lilith pulled him back to reality as they discussed Charlie as a baby. Charlie took several pictures and when the sun started to set they went back to Lilith's to clean up and then go out for dinner. But even after dinner, they went to get ice cream and walk the beach at night as they enjoyed the ocean breeze and the sand on their feet. " Lucifer, you want to race and see who can make it to that chair?"
" Hahah you're on." Lucifer quickly ate the last of his cone as he prepared to run but just as they started to run Lilith tripped him making him fall into the sand. " Hey!"
Lilith just laughed as she walked over to Lucifer. " Oh, I'm sorry I couldn't help myself but let me help......" As she reached for Lucifer's hand, he tripped her making her fall into the sand and making Lucifer laugh with her. " Oh, I miss this Lucifer."
Lucifer looked over at Lilith as he listened to the sound of the waves hitting the shore. " I do too. I used to take Amara when....."
" Lucifer remember how you wished ducks lived at the beach? Haha, you said how your perfect day would be at a beach with tons of ducks and pancakes. Oh, I love that about you." Lilith sat up as she knocked the sand off. " Most need a lot to be happy but you just want ducks and love."
" What can I say I am a simple man." Lucifer got up as she shook the sand off and he helped Lilith up. I still want to see what an earth beach is like or if this is it."
Lilith wrapped her arms around Lucifer as she looked at the waves as the stars lit up the sea. " I heard it's polluted and trash is in it. I think this captures the beach we had in the garden."
" Oh, I guess it does." Lucifer closed his eyes as he listened to the waves crash and the cool salty breeze as it blew in his face.
Charlie had a missed call from Vaggie so she stepped away to answer but when she started to walk back she saw her mom holding her dad as they watched the waves. It felt nice seeing her mom and dad getting along but the day felt amazing she had even sent Amara some pictures earlier when they were at the beach. " Why are you both covered in sand?"
" Haha, your mother is a child." Lucifer walked over to Charlie as he rubbed the sand from his hair. " Ready to get home?"
Lilith lost her smile when she heard Lucifer but she faked one and turned to Charlie and Lucifer. " I wanted to see about getting your help to finish packing up my stuff. Charlie said I could stay at her hotel which I am quite excited about. I missed our daughter."
" I....I don't know we have been gone awhile and Alastor....." Alastor knew he didn't like being alone but he knew Alastor didn't either and the idea of him waiting for him made him feel bad.
" Why don't I call Amara and see if Alastor is still with her." Charlie understood her dad's worry and the idea seemed to help so she stepped away to call Amara.
When Amara walked through the portal with her father they talked on the walk to the restaurant which was better than the first time. The owner saw her father and quickly gave them everything on the menu and when they saw her father liked something they brought more even for her which was filling for even her but thankfully her father ate every last bite. But when they finished up he wanted to go back to the palace while she wanted to go have some fun.
But as they were walking back she got a text from Charlie that had her stop walking. It was Lucifer and her with Lilith all at the beach to what looked like a game of volleyball but when she swiped she saw they also had lunch at the beach. " Papa look." She showed the pictures to her father and he just looked at the picture. " They're having fun so why don't we? Charlie has both her parents and I have you."
It wasn't Lucifer still being in heaven it was Lilith being with him that had him pissed. " I thought Lilith and Lucifer didn't get along?"
" They don't from what I heard. Lilith left cause Lucifer was too depressed and was making her life so much harder." Amara slowly grabbed her phone back as she looked at her father. " Come on let's have some fun before you lock yourself away from the world for a few weeks." She grabbed her father's hand as he nodded and she knew just who could help so she texted him to meet them on the sketchy side of town. " Papa I need you to trust me."
Before he could ask Amara what she meant he saw Vox appear. " What the hell, Amara?"
" You two were friends, and Vox is a friend to me. He has helped me just like a dad would. But I figured you both could use something to bring you close, and I know how you both enjoy torturing sinners, so in that building is a meeting of traffickers. What kind of well they're known for stealing children and selling them to awful men. This way you are both doing some good and I get to watch both of you. After we can get some dinner together." Amara looked at the two. " Please, how can we let these awful people hurt children?"
" They are children." Vox could put his anger aside for this.
Alastor looked at Amara then Vox. " I could do it for the children and I did need some new screams. Alright, I'm in but I want deer after."
" Sounds like a deal to me now, go I will wait until I hear the fun screaming." Amara watched the two vanish as she stood out there texting Charlie until she heard the gunshots, then begging. When she walked in, the men were all on their knees She saw her father and Vox torturing the biggest guy. Slowly, they moved down to the last guy, which they spent almost a whole hour on before her father killed him. " Ready for deer?"
" Actually, we found out they have a few locations throughout hell, and Vox and me were thinking, since we started, we should just go ahead and finish. Is that alright with you?" Surprisingly, he was having a lot of fun with Vox, even laughing with him as if he hadn't tried to kill him just yesterday.
It was like old times but there was just one more who just so happened to be a mini Alastor. " Kid was on to something and it's kinda fun to do and also fuck them for messing with kids.....geez."
" I am so down." One building after the next, there was more of this so-called gang of people who trafficked children. It got to the point where even she wanted to join in on the fun. Sure, it was bloody, but these people deserved it, and she couldn't stop smiling even when she was just watching. The terror in their eyes when they looked at her father or just hearing him laugh with Vox. It had been hours, and they just sat down to eat when she got a call from Charlie, so she stepped out to answer.
" Hey Charlie, how's it going?"
" I am having a blast with my mom and dad. Are you still with Alastor?"
" Yeah, we're just getting something to eat. I was going to ask him to stay with me tonight."
" Oh? Amara, you can't separate him from Dad because you're upset with him. They need each other, especially right now with....."
" Charlie, he is my father, who I haven't been able to spend time with because our father is one big baby, so if I take my father for a night, so be it. If I want longer, I can cause he's my father. If Lucifer can't sleep without him then he can sleep with your mom I don't really fucking care."
" Amara....."
END OF CALL
She wasn't going to let Charlie ruin the night, so she shut her phone down and walked back in just as her father and Vox broke into laughs. " What did I miss?"
" Fucking Al being a hilarious bastard. How was the call?" Vox got up and poured himself a drink.
Amara just sat down beside her father as she slowly looked up at him. " Papa, will you stay with us tonight? Please?"
" Come on Al before you turn your own daughter down remember Lucifer is in heaven with his other kid and ex-wife." Vox sat down on the other side of Alastor as he looked at him. " You're a smart guy so you know if he's still up there then it's more."
" More?" When Vox looked at him again he quickly understood. " He....he wouldn't do that. But I should get back so....."
" Charlie called, and they were still in heaven so I think they were staying and I told Charlie I was going to ask if you would stay with me. If you don't that's fine but I don't know when he will be back. I don't want you to be alone." Amara gently grabbed her father's hand. " You can sleep with me if that's okay?"
When he went to sleep he always had Lucifer never without him and he didn't have control over himself but he also didn't want to ruin the mood. " Alright."
" Hell yeah!" Vox downed his drink as he quickly zapped two full glasses. " Never have I known you not to drink so let's have a few then call it."
Vox was right her father was known for drinking and never getting drunk but he was on meds and one of the big things was no drinking. " You know what .... I am pooped I think I am going to head to bed. Papa, why don't we head up together?"
" Come on Al don't you wanna have some more fun?" Vox handed the cup to Alastor and then looked at Amara who stood there. " He'll be fine Amara. I will bring him to you when we finish."
At Lucifer's he didn't drink so he never talked about it but he did miss it so now that it was in his hands and there was no Lucifer he sipped it. " I'll be alright dear."
" Okay....goodnight." Amara walked up to the guest room she was staying in but when she got ready for bed and was sitting there she pulled her phone out and turned it back on. Charlie had tried to call her even her Dad but she didn't want to call them back so she just picked up a book and read. After a couple of chapters, she closed the book and got up to check on her father and Vox. Only when she got back down she found both of them asleep on the couch as Vox held her father. But both seemed so peaceful which made since there was an empty bottle of something on the floor. So she just grabbed a blanket and laid it on top of them. " Sleep tight guys." As she looked at them she couldn't help but wonder what it would be like if Vox was her dad, if her father was with him then would there be more fun nights like tonight? There wouldn't be as much crying or even worry cause if they had an issue then they would fight it out or just talk rather than cry. She already knew Vox loved her father once before and that kind of love doesn't just go away. Maybe.....maybe this could be her life? Charlie would have a mom and a dad while she had two dads.
When Amara hung up on her, she didn't know if she should even tell her Dad what Amara said since he was in such a good mood but ultimately she told him that Alastor was staying with Amara tonight so when they got back to the hotel and after talking with Vaggie she slept with her Dad. He had asked what Amara and Alastor did together but even she didn't know what they did. But she didn't tell him about what Amara said, it wasn't about keeping it from him it was probably just Amara being upset. That morning when her and her dad walked down to their surprise her mom had made everyone breakfast and even asked about the day's exercise which she went on and on about.
Lilith and Charlie were talking about the exercise for the day but slowly he slid out of the conversation so he could call home and see if Alastor was there yet. Only none of the staff saw him which worried him to the point he found himself sitting at the bar with Angel and Husk. " I'm overreacting. There isn't anything to worry about right? It was just one night with Amara."
" But isn't she staying with Vox?" Husk and Angel both heard about what happened with Lucifer and Amara from Amara when they visited her in the hospital. " Fucker has that huge crush on boss."
" Ture Val's always been jealous of Alastor. But Smiles was staying with Amara, not Vox so what's the worry? Unless....." He started to smile as he remembered Alastor's rut.
The last thing he needed was another fight with Angel. " No, he still has a few more days before all of it.......but I don't trust Vox under the same roof as Alastor much less Amara but I can't do anything about it."
" You could just go over there and man up." Knowing Lucifer he would never do something like that but it would work.
Alastor had said the same thing but he couldn't do it. " Amara just needs space and I don't want to risk losing Amara." Angel looked at him and rolled his eyes. " What?"
" Smiles and Vox are quite similar don't you think it's weird how Vox just let Amara stay with him? Vox is one slippery son of a bitch but when he sees a chance to get what he wants he will take it even if it screws someone else. Who's to say he's not using Amara to get closer to Alastor? Vox hates your guts for "stealing" smiles from him so what if he wants to take Amara and Alastor from you and beat you?" He swirled his drink and then looked at Husk and Lucifer. " Just thinking out loud."
Husk rubbed his face as he sighed at Angel. " Look there's a reason why Alastor never became more with Vox cause he sees himself in Vox and you're different, you two are nothing alike yet he likes that, he likes the challenge. Vox is too easy cause he will do anything to please Alastor. Oh, and Lucifer we are not helping you raise another fucking kid so stay away from him alright?"
" Doesn't it hurt him not.....you know when the whole thing starts?" Lucifer felt slightly better knowing Vox would never be him.
" Yes but as we all see he has handled worse but last thing we need is you being knocked up." Angel was about to say something but he quickly stopped him. " No there is not enough protection that could stop it, Angel. You want my advice tell him to go home until it's over. No one can reach him and you're not fucking tempted."
Was another child so bad? Sure last time it was hard because Alastor was gone but Alastor was so good with Amara. He could still see how happy she was in Alastor's arms, how she could be crying and all it took was Alastor's embrace for her to stop. Alastor in a short time was an amazing father and seeing it again he didn't mind it. Besides he did always imagine several children making a big family. " I'll let him know but I should get home I have some real work to do." He walked over to Charlie and Lilith. " I am going to head home. I need to do some work and get a few things figured out."
" Oh Luci what are you going to do with Sera?" Lilith turned to Lucifer who was clueless. " If you need some help just let me know 'cause I know your hands are quite full and I was queen."
What did Lilith mean by his hands being full? Was she meaning Alastor? " Thank you for the offer but I will talk with Alastor if I need help."
" Why him?" Lilith stood up as she looked down at Lucifer. " He's never been king and much less know about hell and how it runs. I was a great queen and I did play a large role in making hell the way it is."
" I know but he's a fast learner and he knows a lot. But I was going to talk to the deadly sins and see what everyone wants." Lucifer crossed his arms as he smiled. " Perhaps we don't want her in hell anymore."
" You're joking, right?" Would Lucifer really banish Sera to the void? " You couldn't even do that with Roo and she's dead."
" I can. Sera killed thousands of my people and death is just too easy for her." Lucifer looked down at his jacket as he fixed it. " I am king of hell and I can do whatever the hell I want with my people."
For a sinner to be banished for good to the void a soul has to be given to Roo to make it permanent like Adam's was. If it still could then someone had to take Roo's place as ruler which could be anyone but......" Alastor took Roo's spot as ruler didn't he?"
" Can we not talk about all of this...please?" Charlie looked at her parents. " Mom, Alastor made it clear he didn't want you talking about him much less saying....."
" You let that thing with the power of the void wander around up here like it's nothing but it has the fucking power to destroy hell and heaven! There is a reason Roo never could leave the void, Lucifer." She forced herself to take a breath to calm down. " Sorry."
" I understand your concern Lilith but I trust him. Charlie, I have to go." He walked over to Charlie and hugged her. " I had fun spending time with both of you."
" I did too." Charlie hugged her Dad extra tight. " Thank you Dad and I love you."
" Oh, I love you too Charlie. We'll have to do that again soon." He kissed the top of Charlie's head then waved at Lilith as Charlie let go of him then he vanished back home. Still no Alastor so he took the time to make some calls about Sera.
Even when he was alive he didn't get drunk or lose time but that one night. The last thing he saw was Amara leaving to go to bed while he had a drink with Vox then everything was black until now as he quickly woke up with his head pounding but when he looked around he saw they had more than just one or two drinks. It was when he felt someone's hand on his waist making him quickly get up only to see Vox quickly waking up. " What the hell happened?!"
" Ugh no yelling......I'm hungover." Vox slowly looked up at Alastor and he saw him panicking. " Woah Al we just drank that's it."
If it was just drinking he would remember what happened. He didn't get drunk or lose time like this. " No.....no you did something....why can't I remember?"
" Woah Al I wouldn't do something like that. We were just drinking that's it maybe you were just tired?" He had never seen Alastor actually panic much less terrified and he knew this was Alastor talking not another alter. Luckily Amara walked in with coffee and saw Alastor.
Amara put the mugs down as she looked at her father. " Woah you guys just had a few drinks and cause of your meds you got drunk. I found you both asleep and I put the blanket on top of you. Vox wouldn't do what you're thinking, he is a good guy, are friend who cares about you a lot."
" Is this what being drunk is like?" He looked at Amara and then Vox who both nodded. " Oh, this fucking sucks."
" Oh yeah imagine trying to out-drink someone who never gets drunk. The amount of time it has been like this cause I am tired." Vox started to laugh with Amara but quickly stopped as he feared getting sick. " But sorry I forgot about the meds I should have....."
" It's alright Vox I liked not being treated like some fragile prized doll for once." As he sat down Amara handed him and Vox coffee which helped. " Is it weird that I am hungry but the thought of eating makes me sick?"
Vox started to laugh but quickly zapped away to puke as Amara just laughed harder. " It's not weird at all. We will just stay inside and get you a lot of water until you eat." For years she always took care of her dad and now for the first time, she got to do it for her father. Just so happened she got to take care of both her father and Vox but her father did give her his shadows to help her with anything and they did anything she asked whether is was getting her father another deer or Vox some weird device he asked for. But they sat around and even watched a movie that Vox and her father argued over which was hilarious watching the two go back and forth. Sadly no matter how she tried to keep her father from thinking about leaving he mentioned it.
" Oh, would you look at the time I should be getting back to Lucifer before......" Before he had a chance to finish Amara spoke.
" You don't have to go if you don't want to. Besides you heal fast but Vox doesn't look at him." When they looked at Vox he was sitting under a shark blanket.
" Hey, don't look at me." He pulled the blanket to cover himself and the fact he was indeed where shark shorts.
Alastor knew exactly what Amara was trying to do and as much as he wanted to just force her and Lucifer to talk Lucifer had asked him to stay out of it. " I told your dad I would stay out of this but one day you will have to talk to him."
" No!" Amara quickly stood up as she looked at her father. " He broke every promise he ever made you, he broke his word to you and while you don't remember it I know you would be just as pissed off as me. He lied to me all my life, kept me in that palace to the point I was just meeting people, then when he promised to stop lying to me he kept that from me. I can't be mad at him for being addicted but it hurts knowing I wasn't enough neither was Charlie who was suffering like he was. He only thinks of himself!"
How could he explain when he never lost someone he loved? " We make mistakes and Lucifer makes a lot more but if what I heard is right losing someone you love is hard."
" At some point it's not a mistake anymore and Vox when you died didn't turn to drugs he shut himself away for a while but he let people in and he found comfort in his pets. But he did it to you. He kept what Lilith said from you and he knew something was wrong but he didn't want you to get help. He keeps you close to him and cries when you're just in another room and I have had enough of it." She looked at Vox as he slowly sat up and looked at them. " He called you his like your something to own. Who knows what else he's keeping from us, from you."
Alastor stood up as he looked at Amara. " We have talked about that already and believe him when he said he won't do it again. I will let you both work your issues out but I don't think Charlie will. I had fun Amara we should do this again without the drinking but I'll see you around kid."
" Bye." Amara hugged her father but when she went to look at him he was gone. So she sat down beside Vox. " I wish he would stay with us."
" I do too." Vox pulled Amara under his blanket as he looked at her. " Who knows if the scared alter comes out he likes me."
It sounded bad but she quickly had an idea on how to get her father back.
When Alastor appeared in Lucifer's room he wasn't in there but after looking in a few different rooms one of his shadows told him where Lucifer was. He vanished and appeared in some strange building but in a few steps he found Lucifer only he was talking to someone but as he was just about to leave someone behind him spoke.
" Alastor long time no see why are you standing out here? Go ahead I forgot to kiss Ozzie bye." Alastor just looked at him then he quickly remembered. " Shit sorry I'm Fizz.....um....Ozzie boyfriend.....sin of lust?"
" I never met these deadly sins are they as deadly as I hear?" Alastor looked around and it didn't seem deadly to him which was slightly disappointing.
" Hahah they can be but Satan is the biggest one. Well......Lucifer then Satan anyways..." Fizz walked in as Alastor followed behind him. " Look who I found."
Lucifer turned around to see Alastor and he quickly ran over to him and hugged him. " Why can't you own a phone?"
" Haha never going to happen." Alastor patted Lucifer's head as he saw Fizz running out. " You must be Ozzie?"
" Right you don't remember me......wow you haven't changed any in the last 20 years." Oz looked Alastor up and down and he looked normal. " Call me Oz. I am just shocked you came to lust for Luci 'cause last I checked you hated my ring."
He pried Lucifer off and then sat down but in Lucifer's fashion, he sat next to him even holding his hand and he pulled his hand free. " Hard to say I hate a ring when I've never been here before. I do hope I wasn't interrupting anything."
" Oh no love I had some work stuff to talk about with Oz and when we finish we have just been catching up. Also, Oz might be a deadly sin but he's also Amara's godfather." It was weird Alastor pulled his hand out of his but he wasn't going to make it a whole thing. " How was your time with Amara?"
" Fun. How was yours? Amara showed us the pictures of you three on a beach." As he sat there he slowly started to feel odd to the point he crossed his legs and held his wrist.
" Oh we had a blast I was just telling Oz how I wanted to do that with you and Amara. We can have a whole day and I know you will just love it. I used to take Amara when she was little until boys started looking at her." As he laughed remembering he looked at Oz who looked almost scared. " Don't worry Oz I made sure none of them laid a hand on our little girl even if she fought me the whole time."
" H...how has adjusting been Alastor?" The lust ring always made everyone in the mood and he could feel it but he could also feel when lust had been used wrongly.
It felt as if he was just sitting there unclothed and he hated it but it had to be just in his head. So he played it off. " It's a change but anything is nicer than the void. Although I do question what determines where a soul goes cause there are some bad people in hell besides just killing."
" Oh, join the list, love. I have wondered the same thing once Adam started killing sinners. Shoot maybe since the garden he was always so demanding toward Lilith and Eve. Vaggie told me about how sexist he was too. Suck's he wasn't a sinner in hell for long but he deserved it." Lucifer remembered even asking when he was an angel but was just laughed at for asking by his brothers.
The more Lucifer said the more Alastor seemed to be in his own world. " Alastor how has it been with Luci? I know he can be a pain at times but he has a good heart." It was when he saw Alastor's ears lay flat against his head that he gestured his head to Alastor for Lucifer. " Alastor you alright?"
Lucifer looked at Alastor and quickly saw how he was holding himself which was why he pulled his hand away. " Hey, it's alright, love." It was when he went to grab Alastor's arm that he quickly flinched but before he could say anything he saw them surrounded by Alastor's shadows armed. " Oh shit. Um....Alastor it's just me Lucifer. You know the short guy who likes ducks?"
Very slowly he moved closer he even got as far as touching Alastor's hand quickly seeing what he was even as far as feeling which quickly made him back away. " Lucifer take him home, now."
Oz always called him Luci unless it was serious so for him to say that now after touching Alastor he just nodded and teleported them to his room but when he did Alastor slowly laid on his side as he grabbed his ears and pulled his legs to his chest. " Alastor you're okay. We're back at mine and I am right here." Only when he sat down Alastor didn't even move he just kept looking at the wall and when he touched Alastor he didn't even move much less blinking. After a few hours of it, he couldn't stand to see Alastor like that anymore so he called Oz. " What the hell happened Oz?"
When Lucifer called him he came prepared as he walked over to Alastor. " Out of everything you forgot, it couldn't be that."
" Couldn't be what?" Lucifer looked at the two but stopped at Oz when he saw him pull out a syringe. " Oz what is that?"
He looked at Lucifer for a moment then slowly injected Alastor making him quickly pass out. " For those who had lust used wrong or abused they feel what they felt and Alastor......he relived that night hundreds if not thousands of times and it never got easier. He will be out for a few hours but he'll be alright."
Lucifer slowly moved Alastor to lay his head on the pillow and slowly tucked him in. " That's why you never liked Lust. I forgot all about that thanks Oz."
" Luci, how bad is it? Someone who relives all of that and spends who knows how long in that pit.....he couldn't....."
" He didn't." Lucifer walked over to Alastor's nightstand revealing several pill bottles. " That's just some and the heavier stuff I think his shadow's keep but he's been doing better." Lucifer sat down with Oz and told him about Alastor but as he started to tell Oz about the memory heaven showed of Alastor and Sera he heard Alastor grunting when he looked he saw Alastor holding himself as he slept but he was shaking. " I should lay down with him until he wakes up but talk later?"
" Sure. Good luck Luci but Luci I think you should tell him whatever you are keeping from him no matter how big. I don't want either of you getting hurt."
" I will." As Oz vanished he walked over to the bed and laid down but once he did Alastor turned to him and held him making his shaking stop. " It's alright love I got you." He pulled the comforter to Alastor's shoulders as he slept but he couldn't get himself to stop watching him. He laid his head on top of Alastor's as he hummed to the radio and held Alastor.
Eventually, he dozed off but for how long he didn't know until he woke up and realized he slept through the rest of the day and night. When he looked down Alastor was still asleep with his ears lying flat which quickly made his smile drop cause over the years raising Amara when her ears did the same it was cause she was sad or sick. But when he looked around the room he saw one of Alastor's shadows in the corner frowning. " Something's wrong isn't it?" The shadow just moved closer and nodded making him look back at Alastor. " Is it because of the lust ring?" It just looked at him. " Wait....is it the rut?" It just held up two fingers which he didn't understand but before he could ask he felt Alastor hold him tighter. " My love, what's going on?"
" Make.....make it stop."
No radio filter just a raw almost pained voice so he slowly moved to see Alastor's face he saw a glimpse of the side of Alastor's face but he only focused on his tears. He quickly wrapped his arms around Alastor but as he tried to feel if Alastor was in pain there was a tiny knock at his door which was odd but before he could say anything the door opened. It was Niffty who quickly ran to him. " Niffty what....." She slapped his arm making him let go of Alastor for a moment but she quickly laid between him and Alastor. Before he could say anything his phone started to ring which he would have ignored if Alastor's shadow hadn't answered it and then handed it to him making him sit up.
" Hello?"
" Lucifer is Niffty there?"
" Yeah. Husk, I don't understand what...."
" Look every time Alastor has his rut and moves past the hunger there is a day or two before it starts but Niffty always stays with him. She acts like his protector and the longer it goes the more she pushes everyone away. Let her handle him Lucifer and before you say no she killed Adam and she will happily kill you if you try."
" Am I supposed to just leave him like this? He's not well, Husk."
" Then you should leave him to Niffty if she needs you she will get you but it's only going to get worse. 20 years with no rut will be hard and I have been thinking maybe......maybe you should put him in that cage Vox made for him."
" I am not locking him up, Husk."
" You saw him after 7 years imagine that but tripled and you never saw him when he was at this stage. Niffty can handle him Lucifer but you need to leave her to do it. But Lucifer you know he can't control himself like this but you know what he wants, you know that he doesn't want to give in and you can't."
" Husk I...."
" I mean it Lucifer! You put him in that cage or I will but it's the best place for him not to hurt anyone or himself. You have until the end of the day Lucifer to get him there or I will."
END OF CALL
The last thing he was doing was locking Alastor away and he wasn't leaving his side but when he tried to move closer several of Alastor's shadows blocked his way as he was about to make them move he felt something sharp touch his back only to see a shadow pointing a spear. " I'm not going to hurt him."
Niffty turned to look at Lucifer from Alastor's arms. " You leave us alone."
" Niffty I....."
" I'll take care of him." She smiled then turned back to Alastor's chest as she nuzzled her head under his chin.
He didn't even get a chance to say anything before he found himself in the hallway. As much as it hurt not being with Alastor he knew Niffty would take care of him so he snapped himself a book and sat at the door reading.
It had to be hours if not longer cause he was on book number four and he hadn't moved from the bedroom door. He could hear the radio playing and every so often he heard faint whimpers which he slowly figured out was Alastor's which made it that much harder to just sit there. He didn't think twice about what Husk said cause the last thing he was doing was locking Alastor up. As he was just reading he quickly stood up when he heard the door open but it was one of Alastor's shadows so he walked in to see more of them as he walked over they moved allowing him to see Alastor. He was shaking so he quickly rushed over only to find Alastor was drenched in sweat and tears. " Oh...oh my love it's alright." He quickly moved Alastor's hair from his face as he cried out. " Niffty what's going on?!"
Niffty walked over grabbed Lucifer's wrist and held it in front of Alastor as she quickly cut it. " He's hungry."
" It's alright love." He watched Alastor quickly grab his arm and bite down hard to the point he cried out but he snapped a cold wet cloth as he wiped Alastor's face which seemed to help as he ate. " How long will he be like this?"
" Maybe a few more hours but we're going to take him to the cage Husk recommended. Alastor's shadows made sure the cameras were off and it was comfortable for him." Niffty sat on Alastor's waist as she watched.
Lucifer quickly looked at Niffty. " No, he's staying here Niffty. He wouldn't want....." He stopped when he felt Alastor's hands let go of his arm then when he looked Alastor pushed his arm away. " You need to eat it's okay."
" Trust them...." Alastor was exhausted and was quick to fall back to sleep.
Lucifer gently wiped Alastor's cheek then moved closer as he kissed Alastor's hand. " Alright. But I want to be with him."
Notes:
How will Alastor's rut go? Will Lucifer listen to Husk? Will Amara try and get Vox and her father together? Is Lilith planning something? What did Lucifer decide to do with Sera? Will Amara keep making comments about Liliith and Lucifer getting together?
More to come.....soon.
Chapter 37: The Rut Changes You
Summary:
Husk gets Lucifer and Niffty prepared for what's to come with Alastor as he settles him in a cage he can't get out of. Amara pays the hotel a visit and gets into it with Lilith, resulting in Lilith snapping. Amara and Charlie talk about some plans before she leaves to go see Alastor, only when she gets to the palace, it's just Lucifer and Niffty, to which Lucifer tells Amara what's going on as she tries to save Niffty from being hurt by him. After a week of Alastor's rut, Lucifer switches with Husk for a night shift, only for a couple of hours, Alastor made him snap.
Notes:
Just a bit of a heads up, this chapter does get a bit graphic, but I didn't put a warning here because the whole story is listed as explicit and violent, but it's not too long. Anyways, hope you all enjoy, and thank you for the comments. I had planned for this chapter to be completely different until I read the comments.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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The worst part should have been seeing Alastor be locked in a cage all over again but it wasn't. Husk had them there but he held chains which he didn't get a chance to stop him before Husk chained Alastor to the cage he even had the collar that Heaven used. Husk said it was because they didn't know just how bad it would get or if this cage could even hold him. But Husk pulled him outside and told him to go home cause it would be easier for him. It wouldn't when he knew Alastor was in a cage chained and most likely in pain so he told Husk he wanted to stay and he couldn't make him leave.
Husk forced his hands to agree to rotate the watch between him. Husk took the first watch and Niffty by Husk's ask stayed with him which at first sucked but ended up being nice. He had forgotten how comforting Niffty could be and she cleaned everything. Maybe it was the stress of Alastor being confined to a cage or her just wanting to clean but it seemed to make her happy. She only stopped when she saw him reading and ran to his lap as she asked him to read to her.
That morning once he woke up he quickly got dressed and teleported him and Niffty but when they started to walk in Alastor was yelling at Husk. " Love your...."
" Let me out of here now!" Alastor had woken up only to find himself chained up in a cage.
" No." Husk didn't even look up from the newspaper as Alastor yelled at him and even pulled on the chain on his ankle. " Touch that collar and you might see yourself out of here."
" I'm going to get out of here and when I do I will rip you to fucking shreds!"
Looking at Alastor, he hardly looked like himself; his hair was a mess, and his clothes had tears. " Husk, you can't leave him like this."
" Lucifer he just has to ride it out. It's going to get worse before it gets better so if you want to back out I can handle him." He knew Lucifer couldn't handle seeing Alastor like this or would take what he says to heart but Lucifer insisted and he wasn't fighting over it. He would make sure Alastor came out of this better than last time.
" Oh you would like that, wouldn't you? I don't plan on going anywhere so go and I will see you both tonight." He looked at Husk and Niffty.
Husk stood up as he folded the newspaper while laughing. " Yeah, I don't trust you not to go in their Lucifer so Niffty stays and if you try to go in their Lucifer she will stab you." They both looked down at Niffty as she pulled her anglic blade out. "
" Don't you think you're going too far? I mean he handled this himself before just fine and when he gave in the whole thing was much faster and safer for him. He's in no shape to be doing this for weeks much less longer." Lucifer walked over to the cage as Alastor rocked back and forth on the ground. " Hey love how's it going?" Alastor looked at him and quickly backed himself in the corner and he could hear the burning from the metal touching Alastor's skin. " Woah I won't hurt you I...."
Husk rushed over and pulled Lucifer to the chair. " Before he knew what was going on but right now he doesn't and he has two others in his fucked up head who are just as confused. I don't give a shit if he's screaming for you to go in their Lucifer so hear me for the last fucking time....Alastor doesn't want to fuck you and if this takes months then it will but that door stays shut." He looked over at Alastor who had slowly moved away from the bars still holding himself as he rocked back and forth. " You're going to be fine, Alastor and Lucifer won't touch you." He looked over at Niffty. " You know what to do if Lucifer breaks the rules, Niffty and if anything happens, you hit the button."
" Oooooo." Niffty looked over at the big red button.
Lucifer looked at the button which wasn't the last time they were there. " What does that do?"
" If he breaks out of that chain which he will do eventually or if they try to hurt themself then hit it. It will basically shock him hard enough to knock him out and a regular sinner almost kills us." Husk turned to Lucifer. "Emergency only and it will notify me if you do." Lucifer just looked back at Alastor so he made his leave back to the hotel.
Sitting there watching Alastor struggle wasn't easy so he summoned himself a few books to read to keep him busy. But Alastor would go from holding himself as he rocked to yelling and grabbing the bars then to trying to get him inside which was hard. Harder were the things he said as the day moved on. This was the hardest part which was watching Alastor's work to stay in control quickly spiral out of control, even by night, he was just yelling at himself. Even screaming for quiet but it all happened in a day yet Husk said it was supposed to get worse, how much worse could it get than this?
Amara stayed at Vox's for a day but quickly found herself wanting to see her father again which Vox did help her try to find a way to get him away from her dad. But after a quick call to Charlie, she went to the hotel to give her something to do. She helped out with Charlie's exercises but after spending the day with her she pulled away to make everyone dinner for their hard work as she was cooking someone walked into the kitchen. " I am almost done so shoo unless you want to....." She turned around to see Lilith standing there looking her up and down. " What?"
" You just look a lot like Alastor and you even sound like he used to." Lilith walked closer but when she did Amara quickly gripped a knife behind her so she stopped. " I have no intention to hurt you, Amara. You are my daughter's step-sister."
" I am just her sister and don't talk about my father." Amara turned around to finish chopping. " You should keep in mind I am not afraid to hurt you if you try me."
Lilith just laughed as she walked to the fridge. " You're not fully Charlie's sister because you don't share the same two parents. Did you know your dad and I had planned after Charlie, to give her a sibling? Oh, we wanted a big family so Lucifer could have what he lost but we were told he couldn't have another child which Lucifer never could get over and I can't have children. We tried everything but......"
" But you failed, but my father did what you couldn't, doesn't that just make him better?" Amara turned back around as she crossed her arms even hearing Angel, who was listening from the other side of the door, lose his breath.
" Please a sinner can't be better than me and while your father is quite smart he's not as smart as me." She wasn't letting some child outtalk her, especially in Charlie's hotel.
" Really?" Amara looked around then stopped at Lilith as she walked slightly closer. " If my father wasn't smarter than you why didn't you see him taking you to the void? Why did you really believe I was his and Charlie's daughter? Or why was my father the brains of Roo's plan and not you?" Lilith was upset and she loved it. " It's okay to be old and stupid they make homes for people like you."
" Why you little....." She slowed herself down as she kept her calm. " I can see what the lack of a mother does to a child now. Turn's them into brats."
" What did you just fucking call me?!" She could kill Lilith right here and only Angel would know but Charlie would be hurt so she threw the idea aside. " I may have two men as parents but my father didn't leave for some vacation, then try and make himself some victim. Then used her daughter to save her life....what do you do for Charlie except take up space? Cause my father made this hotel, this dream a reality for Charlie, while you couldn't even do what you were made to do and have a child." To her complete surprise, Lilith slapped her hard but she heard Charlie walking over so she gave into the slap and fell to the floor holding her cheek.
" You watch your mouth, young lady!" She snapped before she had a chance to even think but just as she finished yelling she heard the door open and Charlie quickly ran in and to Amara who was on the floor. " I didn't hit her hard."
" Amara, are you okay?" Charlie rubbed Amara's back as she watched Amara slowly look at her but when she saw tears she pulled Amara close as she looked at her mom. " You don't hit people, especially not my little sister, Mom!" She looked down at Amara as she moved Amara's hand so she could see and she saw a red handprint on her sister's face. " Vaggie I need an ice pack, please."
" I....I don't know what came over me....I'm sorry." Lilith grabbed the towel from the counter wrapped the ice pack and handed it to Charlie.
Carefully she put the ice pack on Amara's cheek as she held her. " Mom it's Amara you need to apologize to not me. You better pray that Alastor doesn't see what you did to his daughter, Mom."
" Why don't you get everyone to the table while me and Charlie make sure Amara's alright?" Vaggie waited until Lilith walked out before bending down to Amara and Charlie. " Amara, what did you do to get her that pissed off?"
Amara sat up as she held the ice pack on her cheek. " She came in here starting shit. Saying how I was only half Charlie's sister then wanted to say how she was so much smarter than my father. So I put her in her place but she said that since I grew up without a mom I grew up a brat."
" Shit." Vaggie was a bit stunned while Charlie didn't seem any happier. " Why don't we have dinner then after the four of us can sit down and talk this out?"
" Amara I'm sorry she said that to you and Vaggie is right let's eat and after we will work this out." Charlie stood up with Vaggie and then helped Amara stand up.
She handed the ice pack to Vaggie as she rubbed her cheek. " I am hungry but I think I just want to see my father."
" Um......." Vaggie nudged Charlie as she looked at Amara's cheek.
It took a moment then she understood what Vaggie was trying to tell her. " Amara I don't want you to lie but.....but could we not let Dad or Alastor know about this? Everything is still tense and I really want all of us to be a big happy family. You wouldn't be lying it would just be them not asking."
" Charlie your mom doesn't like my father and me which is clear to me. And he might be the reason or the fact was not her blood just Lucifers." Amara grabbed Charlie's hands as she looked her in the eyes. " I don't mind it just being you three and I don't think my father minds either but your mom and him will never get along. I'm not saying this to hurt you Charlie I just don't want you getting your hopes up when it's clear where this will go even if you try everything. You will always be my sister even if we only share one parent." She walked to the stove and grabbed the pot. " Let's eat."
Vaggie watched Amara walk out and then hugged Charlie. " Babe I know you hate it but Alastor and your mom will always hate each other but that's okay."
" How is that okay, Vaggie? My mom and Alastor who I see as a father hate each other." Charlie wanted everyone to at least like each other and she didn't have much time to do it.
" It's okay because they are all here and alive. Look not everything is going to be perfect which we have to accept. Maybe one day they will get past this but we can't push them, remember Alastor only spared your mom for you and your dad not because he liked her." Vaggie grabbed the bowls as she walked back she stopped and kissed Charlie's cheek. " I love you."
" Haha...I love you too." Charlie moved Vaggie's hair from her face and kissed her. " We both do."
After dinner, Amara chatted with Angel and Vaggie for a bit until Husk left and she decided she should go. She still wanted to stop by the palace and see her father and her cheek was healed. When she walked over to say bye to Charlie she was sitting down with Lilith. " Oh sorry but Charlie I am heading out. I want to see my father before they get busy.....ew."
" Hahah....you poor thing." Charlie stood up and hugged Amara. " If you want after you see Alastor you could come back and we can have a sister's night. Do each other's hair and....ooh face masks and....."
" Babe you might want to lossen your grip so she can breathe." Vaggie patted Amara's back as she grabbed Charlie's hand.
Now that she could breathe she was able to answer. " Mind doing a raincheck? I have an early morning but maybe we can do a lunch? We can talk about my birthday if you want."
" Oh hell yes!" Charlie jumped with joy as she quickly hugged Amara. " Sorry, I didn't mean to yell I'm just so excited for your birthday after all it did give me the best sister ever."
" How about you both do a movie night tomorrow? You both can sit back and enjoy some relaxation?" Vaggie grabbed Charlie's hand again but held it tighter.
Amara didn't see why not and who didn't like to relax? " Sure I can make something if....."
" Oh, chocolate-covered fruit......that sounds so good right Vaggie?" Charlie hugged Vaggie. " Ah, I love you so much Vaggie!"
Most would say Charlie was acting weird but if you knew her then you would know she's always like this. " I will bring some chocolate-covered fruit but I can stop by that place we like and pick up you and Vaggie's favorites."
Charlie quickly pulled Amara into a hug. " Best sister and girlfriend ever."
" Haha alright, see you tomorrow, Charlie." Amara waved and then vanished to the palace as she asked the guard about her father they weren't sure so she walked in and checked his normal spots but nothing, leaving her Dad's room. As much as it pained her she walked up only when she went to knock the door opened. " Please if you two are doing stuff please stop and cover up." When she slowly walked in she saw her Dad sitting on the couch by the fire. " Um....where's my father?"
" He's not here, Amara." Lucifer quickly wiped his tears away as he faked a smile and looked at Amara. " Do you want to talk with....."
" No, I just wanted to talk with him. Where is he?" Amara crossed her arms as she looked at her dad but noticed Niffty lying in his lap. " Why the hell is Niffty with you?"
Hiding stuff from Amara only made things worse and lying. " She's staying with me while......"
" No." Amara walked over as Niffty slowly sat up. " Nif you wanna come with me? I think you're going to be shocked with just how much dust Vox has."
" Dust?!" Niffty quickly stood up excited as she looked at Amara.
" Oh yeah, and he told me about him finding a spider just the other day. Then I walked past his room just earlier and it was so messy Niffty." Niffty was practically jumping with excitement.
" Amara, please don't....." Niffty was so excited and she hadn't just been there for him today but she had been in a room all day with nothing to clean. She had been playing with some bugs until they ran off.
" You lie and hide stuff from me and Papa. So you think I am going to let you do that to Niffy? If I was never enough for you then you won't mind Niffty coming and having fun." Amara crossed her arms as she smiled. " When he comes back tell him I came."
Niffty just looked at him almost begging to go. " Go ahead Niffty but Amara he's not coming back here for a while." He fixed Niffty's hair as he saw Amara walk back over to him. " Amara, do you know what time of year it is for deers?"
" Where is he." Amara looked around as she balled her fists. " What did you do to him?!"
" I didn't do anything!" Slowly he looked up at Amara. " He spent the last 20 years without a rut so this time around it's harder for him. If he went back to the void it would just delay it until he came back so his shadows and Husk have him in a cage. I hate it Amara but......"
" You put him in a fucking cage?!" As the word cage echoed in her head she remembered there only being one that could hold her father in hell. " I am going there and I am...."
" No, you're going to leave him in their Amara 'cause it's what he wanted. You think I want him in there, that I want to see him suffering when I can help him? But I can't because he asked me to trust Husk and I will for him." Lucifer stood up as he looked at Amara. " You can hate me all you want Amara but I am just as upset as you are. But in just one day everything he has done to stay in control has fallen apart and there's nothing either of us can do until it's over."
" What are you talking about? He was managing just fine." Amara looked down at Niffty as she climbed into her dad's arms.
" Amara you half deer so you won't go through what every deer is right now but they spend a couple days eating a lot which Alastor wasn't used to cause in the void they didn't eat. After they sleep a day or two then the rut starts. Alastor hated it and always locked himself away so he didn't give in. But during the rut, they don't eat and they barely sleep so he isn't taking his meds and he's hardly sleeping as all 3 of them try to figure out what's going on. None of them remember what a rut feels like and since his metabolism is high he burnt through what was left of the meds."
" Then make him take them or....or he can just give in. I know what ruts are and they go by faster if they just give in." All she could do when she was stuck in the palace was read when her dad was busy or she was bored.
" Amara they're all freaking out from the cage to their power's being dampened. Forcing him to eat much less and take pills isn't possible and I will do anything to make this all quicker Amara I would but he doesn't want anyone to." Lucifer held Niffty as she sat in his arms.
" Then I want to see him." She knew where he was being kept but she was giving her dad a chance.
Amara was at least listening to him but he knew what Alastor would want. " Amara I would take you but you know he wouldn't want anyone to see him falling apart like that. I barely can and sometimes not knowing or seeing is better."
" You don't get to make that choice for me! He's my father, my blood and my decision should matter! Did you even tell Grammie?" Why would he consult anyone else about such a big decision? " You're not his husband, you're nothing! You aren't allowed to make any decisions on....."
He had to remind himself that Alastor asked him to trust Husk and Niffty. " ENOUGH! I did what he asked and you don't get to come here and make me feel like shit! I know I hurt you Amara and I can't apologize enough for what I did but no I didn't ask you or his mom cause he didn't want anyone to know! It's been 1 day and it's killing me seeing him like this but I don't want to just leave him there so I suck it up! I let him insult me, let him try and use me, and I watch him shake in terror. It's......it's so hard......I....I don't know if I can watch him get worse."
" How....how did he fight it before?" The pain in her dad's voice and the fear when he yelled made her quickly calm down.
Lucifer didn't know and looked down at Niffy. " Oh......he can't."
Well, that wasn't the answer either of them were looking for. " I mean not even once?"
" At first he did but....nope. The longer without the worse it is. It's not like other deer cause of who or what he is." Niffty hopped down from Lucifer's arms as she grabbed a book. " This is for regular deer but Alastor isn't regular. Heheheh.....he's so much more."
" What happens if he pushes through?" Amara sat down as she scrolled through the book. But Niffty just shrugged. " Great....so can it kill him for real this time?" Just another shrug. " Cool.....I'm leaving and Niffty tell Husk to keep me up to date."
" Okay......can I come?" Niffty cleaned the palace to the point there was not even a speck of dirt yet.
Amara looked at her Dad as he sat down and wiped a few tears as he looked at the fireplace. " My father would want you to stay but when this is over you can clean everything of Vox's." She looked at her Dad but she couldn't find the words so she turned to leave.
When he heard the door open Lucifer finally spoke. " Amara if it gets worse I will ask what you want to do.......you're his family......his....his blood, not me." He didn't hear anything back just the door closing and once it was he laid down and he broke down into tears. Niffty quickly walked to him as she ran her tiny little hands through his hair. It was nice even helped him stop crying as he slowly fell asleep.
Over the next few days, Alastor just seemed to lose it more and more to the point the week marker hit he was frozen on the floor for two days straight. He hardly even blinked and was just whispering words he couldn't understand but it was scary watching him like that. No matter what he did Alastor just laid there frozen holding himself and most of the time he was shaking. It was his turn to take the night shift and lucky no one else but Amara knew about Alastor but sooner or later everyone would start to ask about Alastor or him. Niffty luckily stayed at his side which helped him while he was there and when he had to go home to be alone.
Husk had kept the night shift cause he said it was worse but tonight he couldn't cause Angel was starting to question where he was going so they switched for a few days and when he came in Alastor was out for what Husk said a few hours so he just sat there reading until he herd crying when he put the book down and walked around he saw Alastor curled up to himself as he shook in tears. " What's wrong Alastor?"
" Make it.......it stop......please. It hurts......" He grabbed his ears trying to quiet down the screams.
The last thing he wanted to know was that Alastor was in pain but there wasn't anything he could do. " I can't but if anyone can get past this it's you."
He just shook his head and he grabbed his legs to hold them tighter. " I can't please........you...you said you loved me so help me, please."
" Of course I love you but you don't really want this. Last time I didn't know but......." He felt sick just kneeling there as he watched the man he loved in pain and there was only one thing to make it stop which he couldn't do.
" Then you're lying.........if you love someone you don't just watch them suffer........I trusted you.......I...I let you kill her and you just....just used me. You're no different from them." He closed his eyes as he held his face to his knees as he grunted from the pain.
So what if the bars burnt them he quickly grabbed them as he looked at Alastor. " I'm not lying I love you but I can't. You don't want to give in and I want to honor that."
He heard the burning of flesh and when he looked he saw Lucifer grabbing the cell bars. " I....I do, please.....I....I know you want more children and I....I can do that just.....just come in here."
" Not like this. Not when I know it's not you speaking." Lucifer let go of the bars as he stood up. " I'm doing this because I love you." As he started to walk back to his chair he stopped when he heard Alastor laughing the same way he did when he killed.
" Please if you loved him you would have found us. You knew something wasn't right yet it just took one no for you to stop. We're like this because of you being a shitty parent. You're so sucked in your head that you don't see what a fucking burden you are Lucifer." Slowly Alastor sat up as he held his side. " All you do is hurt the people closest to you leaving them to pick up your mistakes." He saw Lucifer trying to keep his calm which just made him laugh harder as he painfully stood up and grabbed the bars. " It is me talking and eternity would be better without you in it. I kill and do so much worse but you....you make the ones who get close to you suffer even your own blood which is just sick even for me."
Alastor was saying whatever to hurt him, so he quickly turned around when he felt himself tearing up. " This might be you, but you're sick, Alastor, and when this is over, we will get you help. We can make the voices stop and give you control back."
" We're like this because of you! Blame Roo or Sera, but it's all your fault! You don't get to be happy when you did this to me!" He let go of the bars as he heard soft cries coming from Lucifer, so he just smiled harder and hit the bars hard, making Lucifer jump. " Everyone's pain is because of you! You don't get to be fucking happy or feel sorry for yourself when millions suffer because of you!" He could hear Lucifer crying more so he backed away from the bars as he shookly unbuttoned his shirt and tossed it aside. " Look at me, Lucifer." The little girl looked at him in horror, so he hit the bars harder as he yelled. " LOOK AT ME!"
Lucifer turned slowly. His knees already felt weak, like his body knew what his heart wasn’t ready to see. And when his eyes slowly opened, he was met with Alastor’s bare chest, and everything inside him shattered. From his collarbone down to his stomach, Alastor’s skin was a graveyard of scars, old burns, puckered welts, and jagged gashes too deep to have ever healed cleanly. His arms were no better, the skin marred by layers of damage that no time, no magic, and no medicine had ever truly erased. Lucifer couldn’t breathe as he took in the sight which he saw clearly, then he did the first night he saw Alastor's chest.
Alastor watched him with his regular frightening smile, wordless. Then, without pause, he turned around.
Lucifer's stomach dropped. His back was even worse with thick lash marks layered over one another, some long faded, others still raw. Deep burns with some circular while others are long as if someone held a burning knife to Alastor's back. Deep gauges that had once split skin down to the rigid bone that stuck out almost like a thorn. It looked like a canvas of torture, a story of suffering carved into flesh, the flesh of the man he loves. His hand instinctively came up to his mouth. His lips parted, but no sound came out, barely even a breath.
Then Alastor turned back to face him. But this time, he wasn’t quiet. He pointed to a set of deep claw marks that tore from his side and slashed up across his ribs, warped but still angry against his skin. “ You see these?” Alastor asked. His voice didn’t shake. It was flat, but his smile just grew more sinister. “ I did these. I tried to rip myself open. I wanted it to end. I wanted to bleed out so all of it would stop. But I healed.” His hand drifted to a jagged mess of scars on his chest, just over where his heart was. “ So I tried again. But that time, I tore my own heart out. Clawed through skin and bone and pulled it out with my hands.” His voice darkened as his smile grew bigger, then he saw more fear in Lucifer's eyes. “ I held it. I felt it beating in my hand, warm, wet, but real, the only part of me I thought I still owned.”
Lucifer stumbled back, mouth open in stunned horror.
“ But it didn’t matter,” Alastor whispered. “Because even when I crushed it, even when I screamed from my claws digging into my own heart, even then I healed. I always healed. Never once felt the peace of death, just more excruciating pain. Over and over again.” His eyes locked on Lucifer’s, a flicker of rage buried beneath all the numbness. “ And it was all because of you.”
Lucifer’s stomach twisted. “ No…” he gasped, taking another step back. “ No....Alastor, I.....”
The room spun around him as the walls closed in on him, making the air feel like fire, and all he could do was run straight outside into the cool hell night, and then he dropped to his knees. He clutched his stomach, breath heaving in ragged gasps, before vomiting hard onto the ground, hands trembling as sobs tore from his throat. He couldn’t stop shaking; he had seen a lot of things in his long, immortal life. But nothing....nothing compared to the agony he had just witnessed. The kind of pain he had caused to the man he loved.
Lucifer just sat there sobbing on the ground even when Niffy walked out to him handing him a tissue. She was just as horrified yet here she was caring for him and even holding him until he was finally able to stop crying but when he did Niffy handed him his phone and when he slowly grabbed it he saw Husk's contact. He didn't have to ask to know what Niffty meant and looking back at the door he couldn't get himself to walk back in, much less even see Alastor right now so he called.
" Hey....is everything alright?"
Husk was asleep and here he was waking him up when he told him he could handle this, just another person suffering because of him. " I....I'm sorry Husk....I'm sorry..."
" What did you do, Lucifer?"
" I....I can't do this....I thought I could but....."
" I'll be there in 10 just stay there."
END OF CALL
This wasn't Husk's job to take care of him or Alastor cause it was his. Alastor was the man he loved yet he couldn't even more from the dirty ground. Angel would have to go back to questioning Husk on what he was doing driving a wedge in their relationship and making them both suffer. Amara was burdened with the knowledge of knowing what Alastor was going through and eventually, everyone would catch on or start asking questions. Charlie would want to see Alastor and he would have to break her giant heart when he told her what Alastor was going through. All of this could have been avoided if he never listened to Sera when she told him his theory was wrong.
Now everyone was suffering because of him, Alastor more than everyone else when he had been through enough, he was supposed to be free and living his life not in some cage, not struggling with a broken mind. Then poor Niffty who looked up to Alastor as a parent had to witness what he caused, what he could have stopped from happening to Alastor. He should be taking care of her, not the other way around.
Just a few minutes of sitting there felt like hours but eventually, past his sobs, he heard someone walking toward him, and when he looked it was Husk. " I...I tried Husk....I..."
" I told you that this was going to be too much but you wouldn't listen to me Lucifer. I get you want to be there for him right now but you can't." Husk sighed as he looked past Lucifer to Niffty who was in tears. " Go home Lucifer and don't worry about coming back. Nif....I'm sorry for asking you to stay here when I know how much you hate seeing him in pain."
Lucifer slowly stood up as he held Niffty who held his jacket tightly as if he was going to let her go. " Husk I can't....."
" Lucifer it's only been a week this shit will get worse and it will get bloodier which you can't handle. I can so if something happens I will call but Amara asked to be called first. Take this time to deal with your shit and fix things with Amara." Husk walked past Lucifer as he grabbed the door. " Spend this time to self-reflect but whatever he said to you Lucifer was just to get you like this."
He just watched as Husk walked in but he just stood there looking at the door. " I...I'm sorry my love."
Notes:
Will Lucifer be able to handle not seeing Alastor? What did Charlie mean when she said "We both do"? Is Lilith planning something? Will Luccifer take Husk's advice and take the time Alastor's away to work on himself and fix his relationship with Amara? Will Vox find out about Alastor and try to go see him? What did Husk mean by it would get more violent and bloodier?
One more chapter to go for the week's guess, you have to check back tomorrow. Bye and thanks for reading.
Chapter 38: It Get's Worse Before It Get's Better
Summary:
Amara helps out with the hotel as Angel and Husk start fighting and Charlie is forced to rest by Vaggie while Lucifer struggles without having Alastor around or even seeing him. Vox starts to figure out something was off with Amara and he noticed how Alastor and now Lucifer have had no sighting quickly putting together Alastor is having his rut. Only it wasn't what he thought as Alastor gets worse. But Amara helps pick Lucifer back up and he gets better until he finds out what has to happen next with Alastor.
Chapter Text
There wasn't much she could do and she saw the horror in her Dad's eyes as he spoke about her father and annoyingly he was right it was better not to know cause she had to keep herself busy with anything just to keep her mind off the fact her father was locked in a cage suffering hough his rut. She went to talk to Husk and he said he would call her if anything happened but he told her after he called her he would call her Dad which there was no arguing over. But it was getting hard cause Vox started to notice her acting weird so she tried staying more with Charlie until she saw Angel pissed all the time or yelling on the phone with Husk.
Charlie kept trying to help but Husk was hardly around saying it was something he had to do but couldn't tell. It was hard on Charlie who in just two weeks seemed more emotional lately to the point that Vaggie was leading the exercises. She kept finding Charlie sitting around or in bed working while Vaggie tried to get her to stop. But she was there for her sister the best she could but Lilith kept taking the role which as much as she hated her was Charlie's mother. So she helped Vaggie who was stressed out trying to handle everything so she helped out the best she could.
It had been almost 4 weeks since she saw her father who was scaring her it was even taking this long but Husk told her it could go on for even longer. He also told her about him not letting Lucifer see her father anymore but when he asked for her to check up on him she just hung up the phone. Days later in the middle of a trust exercise Vaggie pulled outside which was odd. " Um, what are we......"
" Amara I know you don't want to talk to Lucifer but I need you to suck it up and see him. Charlie has called and texted, but there's been no response, and she's terrified that something has happened to him or Alastor. I know Alastor is in season and that's why Husk isn't around ever." She looked up to their bedroom window where she knew Charlie was but as much as she wanted to be up there with her she couldn't.
Vaggie was always so smart so her figuring out what was going on wasn't a surprise to her. " Why can't she just go over and see? I get a lot is going on but Charlie's been resting a lot more than...."
" Amara, I am telling you to go if not for me then Charlie. I am not asking you to make up with him just pop when and see if he's alive and see if he will answer the fucking phone for Charlie." Amara was Alastor's daughter and she knew Amara had his brains.
" Fine but can I send my shadow?" The look Vaggie gave her was a no. " Alright fine."
Just as Amara turned to leave Vaggie stopped her. " How is Alastor doing Amara?"
" From what Husk told me not good." She could hear Husk lie when he said there was nothing to worry about and she could hear very faint yelling in the background or even cries.
The last thing anyone needed was Alastor being hurt it was already dangerous enough people were talking about the radio demon vanishing again and already trying to target the hotel. " Tell your dad if he wants he can stay here so he's not alone."
The hotel was her escape from Vox finding out about her father or asking her questions she couldn't answer but she nodded then vanished to the palace.
When she walked in the lights were all off even as she walked up to her Dad's room and when she knocked on the door there wasn't an answer only when she tried to open the door she found it was stuck. So she vanished to the other side of the door only to find the door covered in a pile of rubber ducks but it wasn't the only pile. There were several piles some even having dust on them but the more she walked around the more of a mess she found. " Lucifer?" Nothing, hardly even a sound, so she checked the closet, then finally the bathroom. Just as she was going to give up she looked at the tub full of ducks and spotted something white so she moved the ducks and found her dad as a snake. " What the hell is all of this?"
He slid out of Amara's hands and into the tub of ducks. " Drowning in ducks."
" You're joking right?" When she didn't get an answer she tossed every duck to the floor until the tub was empty and she was looking at her dad the snake curled up. " Charlie has been calling and texting you."
" I'm a snake I can't text or call." He pulled his head up as he looked at Amara. " It died."
She just rolled her eyes as she picked him up tighter. " Where is it so it can charge."
Lucifer wrapped himself around Amara's wrist as she made him look at the mess that was in his room. " I lost it too."
" Geez for the guy who's been alive since the beginning of time you a child." She looked over at her shadow as she sent it to look for the phone. " So you haven't been a snake this whole time so what changed?"
" Well....." At first, he couldn't get himself out of bed but Niffty got him up and he spent 2 weeks straight making ducks but when he turned around to show Niffty his newest one she was gone and the hundreds of ducks he had made came clear to him. But with it being 3 weeks since Alastor's rut started he thought it would be smart to go see Alastor and see if he was better only when he opened the door did he hear Alastor's screams and when he walked into the room with Husk a version of Alastor he had never seen. He was shaking as he held himself but as he looked he saw the blood on the floor before he could ask Husk he was pulled outside. Husk made him go home and he buried himself in the tub.
Hell if she had seen her father like that she would probably be the same way so she sat down as her father slid off her wrist and transformed to himself. " I know we're not telling anyone but Charlie would be there for you. She's been stressed out about everything from Angel and Husk fighting, and planning exercises and activities, then you not answering her calls or texts. Vaggie is forcing her to relax but it's not working well and Vaggie is all over the place trying to keep everything alright."
" Yeah, the last thing anyone needs is to worry more with Alastor. I will call Charlie but what do I say? She's going to know something is wrong and if I see her I will crack." Lucifer looked over as Amara's shadow plugged his phone up. " Since when could you do that?"
" I guess since Papa told me about me being heir to the void. I don't really know my powers don't work much when he's here unless they're dampened. But as for Charlie, I think you just tell her Alastor is away working so you're alone. When he's back to himself then we tell all of them the truth but he wouldn't want them to worry. I did the math and with his powers and the average deer rut, he will only take 4 more weeks. It's a long time but once it's over he will sleep for approximately.....2 to 3 days which I know you will love." Amara elbowed her dad as she saw a slight smile. " You better give me a day with him all sleepy."
" Haha, we might have to share." It felt nice to smile and see Amara not angry at him. " But geez......can he make 4 more weeks of this without eating or resting? I have never seen him sweat except the last rut but this is more than that and what we did...."
" Hey! No details." Amara hadn't thought about that part while most deer eat before for fuel her father was much different and eventually he would run out of fuel since he didn't eat as much as he should have. " Maybe call Bel or that doctor from heaven in a week or two." She waited a moment as a thought came to mind. " If he gave in then all of it would be over but you haven't."
" No cause I know now he doesn't want to give in. Maybe old Alastor came to terms with what happened but this version never had a rut and who even knows if it would help." Lucifer hoped he was doing the right thing for Alastor. " You should get back I will call Charlie."
She should go but something in her told her to stay and as she looked around at the mess she knew that something was her father. " Call Charlie then shower I will make you something to eat for a couple of days. Charlie can't have you starving to death." She vanished just as he looked at her with a smile. What came next was a hug and a speech which she wasn't in the mood to hear. But she made a week's worth of food and how to heat it up but before she left while he was in the shower she left him a plate and set his meds out for him then left to go back to the Vee tower where she just went straight to bed.
After spending that time with Alastor just brought back emotions he had thought he had gotten over which only came clearer after spending time with the Alastor he knew not some alter. But for some reason after that day, he just seemed to vanish even though Amara was around more rather than trying to get Alastor back with them. Amara even started avoiding him which was odd and he couldn't really ask Velvette for her advice since she was off anything Alastor-related which made sense and Valentino well.....anytime he mentioned Alastor he got pissy.
At this point, it had been weeks since he even started trying to find Lucifer who no one saw or heard from but when he asked Amara she said Alastor was off working which he took at first until he saw the time of year. So he waited until Amara came back and asked to talk to her in his office. " Amara please sit."
" Vox I'm tired it's been a long day of going back and forth and....." Amara had been helping a lot more at the hotel and once a week going to her Dad's to make sure he ate to help Charlie relax.
" We work 'cause we don't lie to each other so I will ask this and I want you to be honest with me. Alastor's not working he's having his rut right now isn't he?" He had grown close to Amara but if she lied to him it would take whatever they had and ruin it.
Vox was always honest with her and he was nice enough to let her stay with him when her father almost killed Velvette. " He is and I didn't keep it from you 'cause I was afraid you would go but I didn't tell you so you didn't have to know."
It was a relief Amara was honest with him but as he stood up he froze as he realized what Amara said. " What didn't you want me to know? Amara, I was always with Alastor during his ruts and it was all consensual and it made it last a week at max. Last time he lasted 2 or 3 weeks but I sadly only made it almost a week."
" It's not like those times before. It's been 20 years Vox so it's a lot harder and he's stronger than he doesn't even remember what a rut is like." She watched Vox slowly sit back down. " He started the day after he left here."
" So that's why I can't find Lucifer on the cameras it's because he's been with Alastor that makes a lot of sense now." Or so he thought until he looked at Amara. " Amara it's been 6 weeks."
" We have him locked up 'cause he didn't want to give in." Vox looked at her shocked as she rubbed her arm. " My dad tried to stay but it became too much for him but it's not easy so Husk is watching him. Fighting the urges is hard but for all of him to deal with it, it's been hard."
" Have you all lost your fucking minds?!" He forced himself to stop to calm himself down. " You know why I always found him? One year he had taken more overlords than ever and it made him stronger but I showed up 3 days in and I found him struggling to even breathe Amara. So now if you all keep him like this it will kill him."
" I thought of that and Bel goes in at night and they force him to sleep and give him fluids and anything he needs. Just two more weeks and it's over. Vox he made it clear he didn't want to give in or have someone use him while he's like this." Amara walked over and grabbed Vox's hand. " I know you care about him but......"
The only place in hell that could hold Alastor in pride and he knew where it was. " I'm going to see him."
" Woah Vox I get you want to help but he won't want anyone to see him like this. My dad said his work on keeping control fell apart in just a day. Vox I have never seen Niffty cry and she was shaking when she tried to tell me about seeing him." Amara quickly hugged Vox but when she looked up at him he zapped away. " Fuck." She quickly dialed Husk.
" Hey, Amara now is not....."
" Husk, I told Vox and he's coming. I am on the way but ...."
" I will deal with Vox you stay far away from here kid."
" But...."
END OF CALL
If it was as bad as Amara made it sound then he was going to help even if they all hate him. When he appeared he saw Alastor lying on the ground of the cage nothing but he saw some lady with a white coat inside wrapping something he didn't see before Husk pushed him out. " What the hell is she doing to him?!"
" Relax she's helping alright but you need to get the hell out of here before Lucifer finds out." Husk blinked and Vox was gone and in the cage. " Vox?!"
" It's alright Husk he's out. If you want to know what I am doing I am wrapping his wounds but I am just helping."
" What is this stuff you're putting in him?" Several IV bags were hanging on the top of the cage but he sat down and moved Alastor's hair from his face and he was exhausted. But even asleep he was out of breath which worried him as he rubbed Alastor's shoulder.
" Fluids, so is hydrated and he needs a lot just to get through the day so I keep him asleep so he can rest and he's not fighting me the whole time. He's alright Vox it's scary and hard but most couldn't handle this." She placed a cool wet cloth on Alastor's forehead.
Husk walked over as he watched Vox. " This better not leave this room Vox and mention this to him or Lucifer and I guarantee you they will kill you."
" I wouldn't but can't there be a way to make this go faster besides sex?" Vox quickly started searching the web but stopped when the doctor touched his shoulder.
" The best way is to let this past naturally. We try and force this away and it will only make him worse. Vox your friend is in good hands and he is still speed-healing even without his powers so whatever he does will heal."
" Why does he need to heal?" Vox quickly looked at the floor as he saw dried black blood on the floor even on Alastor's hands. " He's hurting himself isn't he?"
" I don't think it's the Alastor you all know but one of the alters. But he heals and when it happens Husk calls me or Belphagor and we clean it up while we make him take a nap. Just two more weeks and this will all be over so I would just trust he's in good hands."
" I got him Vox ." Husk crossed his arms as he stood at the door of the cell. " You should get going."
Vox looked down at Alastor and then slowly stood up. " What's going to happen when this is over? I know he will sleep for a day or so but I mean after that."
" I still have to tell his family but I want them to allow Alastor to stay with me in heaven as he adjusts back to the meds and I want to try and get him to talk about what happened. Heaven still has to decide what to do with him but if they see he's trying then maybe then they will leave him alone."
Husk huffed making the two look at him. " I doubt he will talk about what happened and I doubt Lucifer will let Alastor leave his side much less to heaven where he was fucking tortured."
" I am still working it out but he will need time to get back in control and it would be easier and safer in heaven. But I am going to work it out or see if he can do it in hell so he's closer."
" Right well .....I'm with Husk on this but good luck." Vox walked out but before he zapped away he looked at Husk. " He won't ever say it but thanks for doing this Husk ."
" Whatever." Husk rolled his eyes and then Vox was gone. " So doc have you considered just letting him sleep through the next two weeks?"
After Amara's wake-up call he slowly got himself together and called Charlie daily Amara came by once a week normally while he was asleep and she made him food for the week. It was sweet of her and even her to leave notes on the container on how to heat it up. But he did need to have his phone charged in case Husk called him. He was at the point where he was counting the days left until he could hold Alastor until everything was back to normal. Just so happened that Alastor only had a week left until it was over and found himself adding up the hours to the very minute.
When he woke up that morning he didn't lounge around he got himself up cause this time next week Alastor would be in his bed and in his arms where he planned on never letting go. This time did give him the time to think about what he wanted and he wanted to find out how Alastor felt about him. As he ate his breakfast as he read he just about choked when he heard his phone ring but he quickly answered not even looking at who it was.
" Hello?"
" Mr. Morningstar I wanted to call about talking with you and your daughters about Alastor."
" What about him? He's fine."
" Amara had given a Husk my number to call and for the last 2 weeks, I have been seeing Alastor. Did neither tell you?"
" Well Amara told me about Alastor but he's fine right?"
" Fine is a stretch he's exhausted but I get him to sleep and help hydrate him. But he still heals fast so everything else is alright."
" Why does his healing have to do with that?"
" Lucifer I want to sit down with you Amara and talk......."
" That's fine but tell me why his healing is even mentioned."
" I will be at the palace in an hour and I will call Amara. Goodbye."
END OF CALL
Lucifer quickly looked at his phone to see she had hung up on him so he quickly tried to call Husk but no answer. He kept calling until he heard the door open and when he ran over it was Amara. " Did she tell you why?"
Amara was playing a game of chess with Vox when she got the call and quickly hurried over. " No, but she asked me if we wanted Charlie here and I told her no."
" Amara whatever it is Charlie should know." Just as he pulled his phone out to call Charlie he saw Belphagor and the doctor from heaven walk in. " Why is Bel here?" This felt serious to the point he quickly sat down.
" Amara, why don't you sit?"
" No. What's going on?" It was when Belphagor looked at her she was quickly seated even sitting close to her Dad.
" For most deers, a rut isn't much, and in a week or two it's done except for only one which is Alastor who is normally a lot more due to his powers but as we all know the longer they suppress the rut the bigger it will be and for Alastor, 20 years is a lot and his increase on power's it's a lot for anyone. Like I finished seeing my last deer for exhaustion .... a couple of weeks ago."
" But Alastor as you saw Lucifer isn't himself, the alters keep coming in and out even faster than before. Which worries me for when this is over and he gets some rest if one of the alters will do something."
Lucifer looked at the two confused, he knew all of this so why make it feel like there was bad news? " I mean he just has to start over with the meds and he will be fine."
" That's the thing Lucifer and the other two before didn't know and now they do. The angry one wants to be in control while the scared one just wants all of this to end and he keeps trying but for some reason, it's like the others stop him from killing them."
Bel quickly moved to sit beside Lucifer as she saw him thinking. " She called me so we could help all of him so it can go back to before. We want to keep him as they adjust so he doesn't........"
" No." No one was keeping Alastor even if their intentions were good. " He stays here."
" Luci this is very dangerous and with heaven watching......"
" NO! We know how to force the switch so if it gets that way we can stop them but I won't let you lock him away like some crazy person."
" No one is calling him crazy, Lucifer I wanted him to come with me to heaven where we could help him better but I know you wouldn't want him that far which was why I reached out to Belphagor. We will work together to get Alastor back to himself and maybe even heal him."
He just saw Alastor being strapped down to some bed like he had and it made him angry that they wanted this. " He's coming home and that's final. I can help him and...."
" Lucifer, what will you do when you wake up to him gone and tearing hell apart? Or when he tries to kill you or your family? How about when he talks to himself? How about when that scared alter finally figures out how to kill them? Lucifer if you let him stay with Belphagor, she can give him that control and make sure he doesn't hurt himself."
" That year I spent getting to know Alastor I know he wouldn't want you or Amara to see him like that. He never wanted you to know he was suffering or that he couldn't do something anymore. You can still see him anytime you would like and if he's okay with it and you are then I can let you stay the night with him. I know about the nightmares and how it was how you both connected. My guess there worse now."
" Dad.... I think we should let them. Last time it was hard on everyone and he hated any of us, including you saw him like that. He only did better when he left so I think if they helped him......" She watched him quickly stand up and look at all of them.
" I can help him here just like he did for me. I owe him atleast that." Alastor was the reason he ever went back to be being king of hell but he also brought him back into Charlie's life and he was better because of Alastor. If it wasn't for him then .... then he most likey wouldn't be here.
" Luci what he did for you is diffrent from what your trying to take on and I know he wouldn't want this. But you will still help him but we are just going to help too. Look you both think about it and maybe talk to Charlie she would like to be involved in the decision." Belphagor stood up and walked over to Lucifer. " It's okay to need help and none of us want to hurt Alastor. He's been through alot and I just want him to be happy after everything you have both been though."
Amara walked them out then walked back in as her dad sat back down. " You know Charlie's going to agree with me on this so do you want me to tell her?"
" I want to be a family not all of this." He had told Alastor he was free and he could be happy but this wasn't freedom and he wasn't happy being in some cage or locked up in some room.
" We are it's just Papa needs to get some help kinda like you did. You know Charlie and me had talked about sending you to get some help for your depression maybe.....maybe you and Papa could get help together? Maybe than you won't have these lows and highs, maybe even figure out why you keep lying and crying all the time." Amara looked at the wall then her Dad as she watched him cry. " Wouldn't you like to not cry all the time or stop thinking that the whole world hates you? If you both go at the same time then you can be with him."
" W.....what about you and Charlie? If I go Charlie has to manage my royal duties, and you will have to handle all of Alastor's stuff." Last thing he wanted to do was burden his daughters but he did want to be with Alastor and him being there would help.
While she didn't know what doing her father's other job was like she could help Charlie like she had in the past with their dad's royal duties. " I can help Charlie if she needs it but we won't sop you from getting help. If it will help then we will manage."
" I will think about it but........but could you tell Bel?" Amara just nodded as she hugged him which he didn't even realize how much he needed it.
Maybe it was cleaning up or Amara but Niffty came back and she brought him some of her favorite books which she said Alastor would read to her so he did right as they got in bed. He could see why Alastor secretly always loved Niffty she was everything you needed and for Alastor they both shared their deranged minds which he just thought was cute on them now. Alastor had two more days and then he would come home, it took some convincing but since Alastor would just be sleeping there was no harm in him staying with him. But he decied with Sera and everything going on he couldn't step away too so he would spend anytime he could with Alastor.
Niffty slept soundly in his arms kinda like Amara did when she was little but it was still peacefull and the sound of the radio was even better. Until his phone started quacking waking them both up in a scare and when he looked it was Amara which was odd she call in the middle of the night.
" Amara, what's going on?"
" Um....Husk called me in a panic to try and calm Papa down but he's kinda freaking out and...."
" I'm on the way."
END OF CALL
Lucifer jolted out of bed, heart racing, and without a second thought, he teleported straight to Amara, only to freeze as a saw Alastor in the cage, curled into the corner like a frightened animal, his hands trembling violently as they clutched his head. He was muttering under his breath, rocking, wild static crackling faintly in the air.
“ Love....” Lucifer ran to the bars, panic blooming in his chest. “Love, please, you need to calm down, you’re safe, I promise.....”
“ How can I?!” Alastor screamed, voice cracking. “ I’m stuck in this thing! In this cage!.......... Stop yelling!!” He clawed at his ears with both hands as he curled tighter to himself.
Lucifer knelt at the bars, voice breaking. “ No one’s yelling. Look at me, they’re not even speaking. It’s just me.”
“MAKE THEM STOP!!” Alastor shrieked, and in his frantic push backward, his back slammed into the bars with a hiss, the searing sound of burning flesh filling the room as he cried out. His breath hitched, chest heaving. “ Stop it! I don’t want to hurt anyone.....I don’t want to kill anyone.....!”
And then… everything shifted. Alastor's hands suddenly dropped from his ears as his breathing slowed. Then slowly he stood up, trembling but as he turned to look at him his eyes cold, almost hollow.
“ Why don’t you unlock this door,” he said, smiling cruelly, “ and I’ll make your death easier. It won’t hurt as much. And when I kill your daughters....” he turned his gaze slowly towards Amara, who stood their frozen in terror.“ I’ll make it quick. Amara,… trusting people only gets you hurt and your little TV friend is keeping something.....AHHH!” He dropped to his knees, both hands clutching his head as he screamed in agony.
“ STOP IT!.........STOP IT!!” he roared, writhing in pain as though a war was being fought inside his skull. “ GET OUT! GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!”
Lucifer lunged forward, his heart dropping as he saw something blood trickling from Alastor’s ears.“ Husk, open the door!” he yelled, panic rising like a wave crashing over him. “ He’s bleeding, please!”
“ No!” Husk barked from the control panel, his voice tight with alarm. “ He heals Lucifer and it's too risky.”
But then, suddenly, Alastor stopped writhing. His body went eerily still. He sat up slowly, his crimson-streaked eyes unfocused, dazed. “I know…” he whispered, almost too softly to hear. “I know how to make it stop… all of it. For good this time.”
Lucifer turned toward Husk again, eyes wide with fear. He didn’t even speak as Husk rushed over and unlocked the door. He rushed inside just as Alastor stood up. The moment he ran inside of the cage, Alastor’s hands flew to his throat and shoved him to the ground, slamming him against the cold concrete with a force that knocked the breath from his lungs. Fingers closed tight around his neck, digging in with terrifying strength.
“ I'm getting justice for everything you did and more. The afterlife is better without you in it." Alastor just laughed as he watched Lucifer struggle.
Lucifer kicked weakly, clawed at Alastor’s arms, nails dragging across his mangled sleeves as he fought for breath. His vision blurred at the edges as he felt the hot tears slide down his face but it was the hate in Alastor's eyes that hurt just as much as not being able to breathe.
One moment her dad was runniing in and next he's on the ground being chocked as her father just laughed. " Stop! STOP YOU'RE GOING TO KILL HIM! PAPA PLEASE!"
Alastor’s laughter died in his throat the moment his eyes locked with Amara’s. She was in tears to the amount they ran down her cheeks, her body rembling, lips parted in a wordless plea as she looked at him, afraid and worst heartbroken. His gaze dropped, his hands still clamped around Lucifer’s throat. Lucifer’s face was red, his eyes wide and glassy.“ No…” he breathed, stumbling back, releasing his grip and falling hard against the back wall of the cage. “No, no, no......”
Lucifer rolled to his side, coughing violently, gasping for breath, his body convulsing as he struggled to pull in air. His eyes, blurred and wide with pain, flicked to Alastor, just in time to see the real one finally surface.
“ L...Lucifer…” Alastor rasped, clutching at his head with shaking hands. “ I… I’m so sorry. I didn’t… I didn’t mean to…”
Lucifer tried to speak, but his throat burned and nothing came out. He pressed his hand to his neck, forcing himself upright, wheezing as he choked out, “ Ala…stor…” But the moment he moved Alastor flinched farther.
“ No—don’t,” he whispered, backing further into the corner, horror carved deep into his face. “ Stay away. Please, don’t come near me.”
His eyes shifted to Amara, tears glimmering down her cheeks. And in her face, in her fear, he saw himself. He saw himself when he was a little boy, cowering as his parents fought. Afraid of the rage that filled the room like smoke. Knowing after his father knocked his mother down he was next then again when he was gone by his mother.
And now, that rage was him. He shook his head desperately, turning back to Lucifer. “ I can’t… I can’t trust myself. I could’ve killed you. I could’ve killed her.”
“ Alastor, no,” Lucifer croaked, dragging himself forward. But it was too late.
Alastor’s fingers reached for the collar around his neck. “ It’s the only way to stop it. I can’t let this happen again.”
“ Don’t Alastor, please....!” Lucifer shouted, his voice shredded with panic. But Alastor didn’t hesitate and gripped the collar tightly and instantly shock ripped through Alastor like a bolt of lightning. he watched his body seized, mouth open in a silent cry as he crumpled to the floor, twitching.“ Stop! Alastor, stop!!” Lucifer scrambled to him, but it was too late. Alastor laid their motionless, his chest rising shallowly, lips parted slightly. Lucifer crawled over to Alastor laying him on his lap as he cupped Alastor’s cheek.“ You didn’t have to do this…” he whispered. “ You didn’t have to hurt yourself to protect us.”
Slowly Amara walked in and knelt down beside her parents as she grabbed her father's hand. " We're going to make sure this never happens again Papa." She looked over at her Dad. " Dad I think...."
" He can't come home." He ran his hand though Alastor's hair as he bent down and kissed his cheek. " Can....."
" I'll make the call Lucifer." Husk patted Amara's back then walked outside to make the call.
Amara sat there holding her father's hand as she watched her dad slowly fall apart so she laid her father in her lap as her dad laid on his chest. " It's the right call Dad."
" I know."
Notes:
Will Alastor be able to get back to before? How will Charlie react to finding all of this out? Why is Charlie being forced to rest? How will Lucifer handle being somewhere else again? Will Amara ask Vox about what Alastor said, or will she just think it was him making something up? Will Charlie spending more time with Lilith affect her? What will heaven decide for Alastor's fate?
More to come next week.
Thank you for reading, and enjoy your weekend.
Bye.
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