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The dawn was pale and heavy, the sun a faint glow behind thick, iron-gray clouds that promised snow before the day was done. Widow's Watch lay cloaked in silence, the usual bustle of the castle subdued by the cold and the gravity of the morning. Snowflakes drifted in lazy spirals, settling like fragile lace on the battlements, the ancient stones, and the bare branches of winter-stripped trees.
The courtyard was wide and austere, ringed by weathered walls scarred with the marks of countless winters. Snow softened the edges of the worn flagstones, each step muffled underfoot. A thin frost coated the exposed iron of weapons and the leather of saddles, glinting like faint stars caught in the dull light.
Lord Cregan Stark stood near the gate, his tall frame wrapped in heavy furs dyed a somber gray, the direwolf sigil embroidered in silver thread on his cloak catching the dim morning light. His face was grave but composed, eyes dark and thoughtful beneath his heavy brows. Around him, the air was thick with unspoken words, the tension of impending departure mingling with the lingering chill.
The bannermen of the North gathered in tight knots, faces set and guarded. Their armor and cloaks were heavy, their breaths shallow puffs against the cold. Some spoke in low murmurs, voices rough and measured; others cast cautious glances toward Cregan, weighing the meaning behind his silence.
The men and women of Widow's Watch, from the highest lord to the lowliest servant, seemed caught in a shared breath of waiting. Outside, the world lay frozen beneath a blanket of snow, the forests silent but watchful beyond the walls. In the shadow of a nearby archway, a figure stood still — barely more than a flicker of movement. Nella, wrapped in her worn cloak, leaned against the cold stone, the roughness grounding her in the moment.
Her breath came in small, white clouds, dissipating into the quiet morning air. Her heart hammered, a strange mixture of anxiety and something more fragile — hope, perhaps? Or curiosity. She wasn't sure.
The courtyard was a stage for power, for alliances forged and broken in whispered deals and glinting steel. Yet she, a bastard child, stood at the edge of that stage, unseen and unheard. She watched Lord Cregan Stark, the man who had twice acknowledged her existence with nothing but a glance — once in the great hall and once in the maester's chamber. Neither had spoken her name aloud, yet those brief moments had left an imprint she couldn't forget.
Her mind wandered to the quietness between words, the cautious kindness behind his smirks and the patience in his voice when he caught her reading forbidden books. It was almost like... understanding. But what did it mean? A lord's notice was a dangerous thing for someone like her — a bastard without title or name. Would his departure strip away the fragile protection that presence brought?
Nella's fingers tightened around the edge of her cloak, drawing it close to her body. She pulled the hood higher, hiding more of her face, the shadow her only shield against prying eyes. The trumpet's blast shattered the stillness, sharp and clear, echoing against the stone walls. It was a call to arms — or in this case, a call to travel.
Cregan's riders shifted in place, hooves scraping the snow as horses stamped, restless. The heavy breaths of men and beasts mingled in the cold air, creating a fog that hovered near the ground. One by one, the bannermen stepped forward to exchange final words and gestures. Cregan offered no speeches, no promises. His role was a duty bound by honor and necessity — the quiet backbone of the North's strength.
As the last saddles were secured and the reins tightened, a hush fell across the courtyard. The heavy wooden gates, reinforced by iron bands, creaked slowly open, revealing the pale, snow-covered road beyond. Nella's heart quickened, though she remained hidden. She could see the lord's form, tall and unyielding, atop his great black horse, the cloak billowing slightly with the movement.
She wanted to call out, to say something — anything — but the words tangled in her throat. Instead, she watched.
The narrow stone corridor outside the kitchens was warm but smelled faintly of soot and herbs, a sharp contrast to the cold silence of the courtyard she had left behind. The low hum of cooking fires and muffled clatter of pots and pans seeped through the thick wooden door, a reminder of life continuing despite the heaviness settling over Widow's Watch.
Nella moved quietly, her boots echoing softly against the flagstones, her basket still empty now after the morning's work gathering firewood in the frozen woods. She wrapped her fingers tighter around the worn leather strap of her cloak, hoping it might shield her from more than just the cold.
Her thoughts were tangled — fragments of the morning's farewell to Lord Cregan drifting like pale ghosts in her mind. The lord's departure had left a hollow ache, but beneath it, something else stirred — a fragile thread of hope she wasn't yet ready to fully grasp or admit.
As she rounded a corner, the flickering glow of a torch caught the edges of the passageway, and a familiar figure stepped into view.
Jaren.
The servant, with his salt-and-pepper hair tied back in a loose knot moved with a quiet steadiness that seemed to anchor the castle itself. His eyes, sharp beneath bushy brows, softened when they met hers.
"Nella," he said in a low voice, nodding slightly, careful not to draw attention.
She managed a small, tired smile. "Jaren."
He glanced around the empty hallway, as if expecting shadows to listen. Then, stepping closer, his voice dropped even further, barely more than a breath. "The lord's gone. You heard?"
"Yes." Her voice was flat, but the truth was heavier than she let on.
Jaren's gaze flicked toward the kitchen door, then back to her. "These walls aren't kind to those like you when the strong ones leave. You'll need to keep your wits sharper than ever."
Nella's pulse quickened. The warning wasn't new, but coming from him, it cut deeper.
"I'm careful," she whispered, though even she wasn't sure if it was true.
He gave a faint, sad shake of his head. "Careful won't always be enough. Not here, not now."
She swallowed hard, the basket's empty weight like a mirror for her hollow certainty. "What should I do?"
Jaren hesitated. The shadows from the torchlight flickered across his face, revealing lines of worry etched deep beneath his eyes. "Trust no one you don't know by sight. And even then, watch for what's left unsaid."
The words hung between them — simple, but loaded. Nella felt a rush of frustration, of helplessness. She wanted to scream that she was more than a secret whispered in dark halls, more than a bastard bound to the margins. Instead, she folded herself into silence.
"I'll be alright," she said, her voice steadier than she felt.
Jaren's eyes searched hers, as if weighing the truth. "Just... be careful, Nella. The lord's leaving isn't just a journey. It's a shift. The castle changes when he rides out."
She nodded, fingers tightening once more around the cloak.
The great hall, once alive with the noisy bustle of Cregan Stark's retinue and the sharp clatter of armored boots, now lay subdued. Heavy beams above bore the weight of endless snow, their shadows stretching longer beneath the muted afternoon light. The roaring hearth that had cracked with life seemed smaller, its flames flickering weakly as if reluctant to burn without the lord who commanded its warmth.
Nella moved along the worn stone floor, her footsteps muffled by the thick carpet runners laid down for winter's chill. The echo of her passage was swallowed quickly by the vast chamber's coldness. She paused briefly near one of the wide windows, frost tracing delicate patterns along the glass. Outside, the snow drifted soft and endless — a quiet world untouched by the storm gathering within these walls.
Inside, the castle was changing.
The courtiers' voices no longer carried the easy cadence of alliance and kinship. Instead, they spoke in clipped tones, their words guarded and cautious, as if weighed down by secrets too dangerous to share. Nella caught fragments as she passed—a whispered name, a sharp glance exchanged over goblets of dark wine. The web of politics, once distant and almost invisible, was tightening like a noose around the castle's heart.
The nobles, who had barely spared her more than a glance during Cregan's visit, now seemed colder, more distant. Their eyes slid past her like she were nothing more than a shadow cast by the stone walls—an inconvenient truth to be ignored. Servants too moved with a new edge to their manner, hurried steps and lowered voices suggesting unspoken fears and shifting loyalties. The small kindnesses she had glimpsed before seemed to retreat into the growing winter darkness.
Nella's chest tightened.
The fragile thread of connection she'd dared to hope for—the brief flicker of recognition in Lord Cregan's eyes—felt like it was slipping through her fingers, dissolving into the cold air.
Yet, somewhere beneath the weight of doubt, a small, stubborn ember burned. She would not vanish. Not yet.
With slow, deliberate steps, Nella continued down the hall, weaving through the tapestry of shadows and suspicion. Her fingers brushed the rough stone wall, grounding her in the present. She pulled her cloak tighter as she stepped away from the cold stone corridors of Widow's Watch, the late afternoon light fading fast behind the battlements. The castle's walls, once echoing with voices and footsteps, now seemed to close in around her—a silent weight pressing at her ribs.
She didn't know why, but her feet carried her toward the forest, toward the place where the direwolf had paused—where something strange had brushed against her senses. The trees rose dark and still, their skeletal branches etched stark against the bruised purple sky. Snowflakes drifted down slow and silent, dusting the world in fragile white.
At the edge of the woods, Nella stopped. She let the quiet wrap around her, the cold air filling her lungs like a balm. The forest held its breath with her. The same hush that had fallen when the wolf's golden eyes had locked with hers seemed to linger here still, as if the earth itself remembered. She knelt, touching the snow, trying to summon that flicker of connection again—the sense of something older and wilder, watching.
But then the air shifted. Her vision fractured.
Suddenly, a rush of burning heat tore through her chest. Pain exploded along her skin, like flames licking at her bones. She staggered back, clutching her side as dark shapes swirled before her eyes. She found herself inside a vast, shadowed hall. Torches sputtered along the stone walls, casting flickering light that danced like restless spirits. The floor was slick with dark stains—fresh blood that glistened cruelly beneath the wavering flames.
The voices rose, harsh and desperate—a cacophony of anger and fear, sharp as the clash of steel. Shapes twisted and turned in a storm of motion, cloaks ripped, faces contorted with raw, unchecked emotion. Men shouted, their voices tangled with rage and accusation, but the words were lost beneath the surge, an unintelligible tide crashing over her senses. Her eyes locked on a figure rigid in the center of the chaos—her father. His face was carved from stone, jaw clenched so tightly it seemed to hold back some terrible truth. His eyes burned with fierce resolve, but beneath the fire was something colder, a shadow of regret or bitter judgment that made her heart ache.
A flash—sharp, sudden—caught her eye. A dagger, raised high, its wicked gleam flickering in the torchlight. The blade descended in a swift, brutal arc. The air exploded with the sounds of struggle: desperate cries, the harsh rasp of flesh torn, the sickening thud of flesh meeting steel. Blood spilled, dark and vivid, splattering across stone cold and unyielding.
Before she could turn away, the vision twisted, darkening and shifting like smoke caught in a storm. Now she was somewhere else, a place heavy with despair and dark secrets. The low ceiling pressed down like a weight, the walls slick with dampness and smeared with grime, dulling the flickering light of a single guttering candle. The air was thick and stifling—an oppressive blend of sweat, salt, and something far fouler, like the residue of broken promises and silenced cries.
Naked bodies pressed close together in cramped, shadowed corners. They trembled, shivering not from cold alone but from a deeper, gnawing fear. Skin pale and bruised, limbs entwined like fragile branches caught in a storm. Faces turned downward or buried in trembling hands, eyes wide but empty—vacant as if the soul had long since fled.
Soft whispers and stifled sobs rose and fell in a mournful rhythm, a quiet chorus of pain and loss that seeped into Nella's bones, freezing the breath in her lungs. The sounds clawed at her heart, pulling at something raw and tender she thought she had buried deep. Then one face broke through the haze of suffering—a pale, fragile girl, lips quivering as if on the verge of a scream or a plea. Her eyes met Nella's, dark and hollow, shimmering with silent desperation and unbearable loneliness. There was no comfort there, no hope—only the cold weight of endless night.
Nella felt the room spin around her, the walls seeming to close in tighter. A cold sweat broke across her skin, slick and clammy. Her body ached deeply, as though charred from within, burning with a fire that left no mark but pain. Her own hands trembled, clutching at nothing, trying to grasp a fleeting thread of sanity in a world unmoored. She realized, with a quiet horror, that she was among them — a naked girl pressed into the crowd, stripped of name, voice, and refuge. No one saw her, no one held her; she was just another lost soul swallowed by the shadows.
And yet beneath the crushing loneliness, a faint ember stirred—a stubborn flicker of resistance buried deep beneath the sorrow. Even here, even in this forsaken place, she felt something wild and untamed, waiting, watching, aching to break free.
Then the vision shattered like glass, fragments scattering back into the night air.
Nella gasped, collapsing onto the frozen earth, the snow melting beneath her fingertips as icy tears slipped down her cheeks. She pressed trembling hands against her burning temples, fighting to hold onto the shards of reality. Her legs trembled beneath her, threatening to give way, but she forced herself to stand. The bitter wind bit into her skin, sharp and real, reminding her that she was here—alone, in the forest's cold embrace.
A shudder wracked her body, but it was more than the chill. It was the weight of what she had glimpsed—a darkness wrapped in shadow, a secret too terrible to speak aloud. Confusion and fear tangled in her mind like thorns. Had it been real? A warning? A curse? She didn't know. But the loneliness in that vision, the silent cries of the girls, echoed in her soul with a hollow ache. Nella swallowed hard, the bitter taste of fear lingering on her tongue. She wiped numb fingers across her face, trying to chase away the trembling. Her gaze lifted to the gathering dusk, where the pale sky bled into the dark woods.
The forest no longer felt like a refuge—it felt like a veil, thin and fragile, barely keeping back the shadows pressing in from every side.
Yet somewhere deep inside, beneath the fear and confusion, a stubborn flame flickered. She did not understand the meaning of what she'd seen, but she knew this was no ordinary nightmare. Whatever lay ahead, it would not be quiet.
And she would have to be ready.