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Dear diary...
I know you have a lot of questions right now, let me explain.
I admittedly overdid it on Saturday.
I deeply apologize for what I did.
But I think I feel better now.
But first, let me start with an important premise, and it's very important, trust me.
Then I swear I'll explain to you in detail everything that happened to me.
The truth is...
We're not alone right now.
Shoji, a classmate of mine, is sitting next to me, and he's reading everything I'm writing to you today.
Um... Surprise?
You're probably confused right now, so let me start from the beginning.
Two days ago, after everyone laughed at me, I felt bad, really bad, you might have noticed.
Even though I didn't mean many of the things I wrote, I was just deeply sad and angry.
I wasn't thinking clearly.
I wanted to die (Shoji just pinched me for that sentence).
Remember when I told you I had something to do yesterday?
The truth is, I cut myself, and in the late afternoon I recorded a really perverted video.
I needed to turn that need into something real.
I know it's wrong, Shoji and Ibara made me see reason. You'll figure out her role along the way, don't worry.
Anyway, I'd never cut myself in my life, so I was inexperienced.
And I messed up.
I was dying, diary.
I was bleeding to death.
Then Shoji arrived, although he still hasn't explained why he came back to the dorm early.
He must have heard something with his super hearing, he has very keen senses.
He broke down my room door and came in, picked me up on his shoulders, and ran to Ibara's room.
She's a girl from 2A.
I didn't know there was anyone else in the dorm besides me, Bakugou, and Kouda.
Ibara had honed the art of first aid during the war, so she was able to treat all my wounds.
These two saved my life, they are true heroes.
When I opened my eyes, I was in Ibara's room.
It must have been around four in the morning.
When I woke up, they told me everything.
Shoji even cleaned my room while I was sleeping, and he's really good at it.
My room hasn't been tidy since I moved in.
It feels like all the shit I did yesterday never happened.
I didn't go to school today.
Shoji told me my classmates were really worried.
He didn't say anything about what happened to me, I made him swear.
He also told me some people tried to break into my room, and he had to work hard to chase them away.
I think they finally figured out something's wrong.
Hell, I haven't even gotten to talk to Jirou yet.
I don't know what's going on in that girl's head, but Shoji made me think again.
She's not bad, no one is bad.
It's just me seeing everything in a dark light, it's my illness that distorts my perception of reality.
Ibara proposed a rehabilitation plan for me, a year-long journey with her and Shoji to get back to being myself.
I have to beat my depression.
Weird, huh?
If Denki had said that two days ago, you probably wouldn't have believed it.
But hey, things change, and sometimes they change for the better.
These two saved my life!
They're my heroes!
And I swear, diary, I'm not just saying this because Shoji is here next to me (Shoji is blushing, his smile is way too big).
(Now he pinched me)
Anyway, we're waiting for Ibara right now.
It's evening and the others are hanging out in the common room while Shoji and I are in my room.
I hope they don't catch her coming here, I think it would cause some disruption in the two classes.
People like Mina would make up stories far from reality, just the thought embarrasses me.
Is it weird that a girl from another class comes to my room?
Let's not kid ourselves, diary, it's weird.
I feel better right now, thanks to them, I don't feel alone anymore.
But... there's something I have to tell you, my dear diary.
In this rehabilitation process...
You're not understood.
This is goodbye, diary.
We agreed it's better this way, and if they say so, I think it's the right choice.
So, sorry, this is goodbye.
It's better this way, writing to you doesn't help me, and you probably never have.
Goodbye, diary.
P.S. It's weird when Shoji smiles, trust me
P.P.S. He pinched me again
P.P.P.S. That was nice, Chargebolt says hello!