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3 am:...
Sunday night:...
Membrane household:...
Dib lay awake wrist stinging. They knew they should have just ignored the kids at school but it was so hard for them. Dib had nobody to talk to about it nobody. Gaz would bully them for it. Their dad would send them to a mental hospital. And Zim was the closest dib had to a friend but Zim wouldn't really care.
Dib sat themselves up on touched his wrist thinking the pain would stop. No. It just stung more blood transferring to their other hand. They walked over to the bathroom to grab the badges to hide their petty little obsession when something went wrong. Dib met eyes with themselves in the mirror disgust grew over Dib. Dib hated the way they looked. Pale, skinny, large bags under their eyes, scars. They stood looking at their reflection tears starting to stream down their face. They grabbed the badges and headed back to their room. Blood seeping through the material. They didn't care anything to hide the scars at least They didn't care about blood showing. They threw themselves onto their bed. Horrible thoughts flood into their mind.
'Why can't I leave this planet'
'Who would even care if I died'
'Should I just die'
Dib hated that they thought like this. Fuck the bullies fuck everyone. They wished that everyone could disappear and leave them alone. But according to their dad 'wishing isn't very scientific' oh how dib despised his father. They will never forgive their father. At just 12 years old the bullying had already started for Dib but their father told them to stop being pathetic and insane. Age 14 dib started harming themselves and their dad threatened to send them to a mental institution. Dib is now 15 and life is still beating Dib up. The years of therapy did shit dib still suffered. Dib knew any attempt to delete themselves would cause their father to re-clone them if Dib successfully died. Or if not they were sent back to therapy. Dib needed to clear their head. They threw on their trench coat and went for a walk.
Tomorrow was Monday a day dib dread. A new week to get bullied. There were so many other people to pick on at school. But no they pick on dib for something they left behind years ago. If dib was a slut they wouldn't care for him. If dib had sex at the back of the class they wouldn't care. But when he was 12 and tried to convince people Zim was an alien like any 12-year-old would they found this hilarious and decided to bully them for it for the rest of their school years.
Atleast that was the only thing people at school knew about dib that they were 'crazy' and 'insane' if they found out dib was non-binary or worse.. they found out they were hypersexual. Dib hated this about themselves another thing for them to be disgusted at themselves by. Another thing for them to-
His phone started ringing. Gaz was calling asking them where they were threatening to tell their father.
Dib made his way home all that their mind was school.