Chapter 1: Vera
Chapter Text
Prologue
"...By the age of 17, she had taken the lives of six prominent wizards…”
-The Daily Prophet
"While her heritage had predetermined certain expectations for her future, her upbringing deviated from the norm among her peers . . . Academic underachievement, minimal ambitions, and evident evil tendencies defined her school years—professors at Hogwarts critiqued her weak performance, and peers bore witness to her violence."
-The New York Ghost
"Predictably, given her family's sordid history of breeding criminals, it was hardly surprising that she would morph into a bloodthirsty killer, much like her vile father. Curiously, Albus Dumbledore not only mentored her but also shielded and observed her evolution into precisely what he had doubted she'd become. He quietly watched as she unfurled her black wings and proudly paraded them throughout her years at school, leaving this inquisitive writer to ponder whether he played a role in her ascent to prominence or if he was merely a well-intentioned but naive soul who sympathized with a young orphan. Whatever case it was, one undeniable truth remains: this young yet malevolent girl stands as one of the most notorious terrorists of our time."
-Chats with Rita Skeeter
Part I: The Lost Child
Dedicated to the child I once was,
who dreamed only of boundless skies and untamed freedom.
Chapter 1: Vera
Wednesday, July 26, 1989
Before the resting place of her parents, a faint smile graced Vera’s lips, a quiet victory carved from the depths of her tumultuous past.
Yet, the Humphreys were never truly her parents, despite their frequent claims. To them, she was nothing more than a servant, a source of unpaid labor, and a tool to elevate their social standing.
It was a warm August afternoon in 1986 when she first arrived at their house.Their home, along with their goat farm, lay nestled among the golden fields of Cornwall. Though she had been through nine foster families before, it was clear that these elderly farmers would leave the most indelible mark on her life.
As she watched the social worker's car fade into the distance down the gravel road, the dark-haired girl stood before the unfamiliar farmhouse, clutching her small backpack with anxious hope. The old couple, their faces weathered from years of hard work, looked stern and unyielding. They greeted her with faint smiles that never quite reached their eyes, then quickly suggested a tour of the house.
In her tattered dress, she followed her new foster parents through the wooden doors of a rustic barn, where the air was thick with the earthy scent of hay and the soft bleating of goats. Mr. Humphrey's gaze, as cold as the steel tools he worked with, settled on her. He then pointed to a nanny goat, tethered by a frayed rope.
"Let's see your worth, girl," he grumbled, thrusting a pail into her hands.
"Milking a goat isn't easy," Mrs. Humphrey added. "You’ve got to be gentle, yet firm."
Vera placed the pail on the ground and knelt before the goat, her eyes wide with fascination. She waited, expecting the milk to flow on its own, unaware of what was required.
"Looks like they've sent us a dim one," Mr. Humphrey remarked, his tone dripping with disdain.
"She's merely eight, Gerald," Mrs. Humphrey countered. "She’s meant to learn."
"I told you, a lad would’ve been more useful."
"We've discussed this already—there were no boys available! And what choice do we have now? Sending her back would set tongues wagging."
“Volunteering ourselves was unwise, Ruth.”
"Father George assured us it was a virtuous act, one that would elevate our standing in the church. I'll put her to use in the kitchen. Lord knows I need the extra hands these days."
“Fine! But mark my words, girl,” he said, turning to Vera, “any mischief won’t be tolerated.”
Oh, and it certainly wasn't.
Standing at Mrs. Humphrey's funeral nearly three years later, Vera couldn't escape the haunting memories of the painful days she had endured in their home. The years of relentless torment had etched themselves into her very being, leaving scars on her soul. As memories surged like an overwhelming tide, a single tear slipped down her cheek. In the somber atmosphere of the funeral, onlookers mistook her tears for sorrow, unaware that they were, in fact, tears of joy.
She was finally free.
After the burial concluded, Miss Jones, the dedicated social worker overseeing her case, approached to offer her condolences. Vera sat by the fireplace, munching indifferently on a scone, her eyes frequently darting toward the door.
"Poor Mrs. Humphrey," Miss Jones sighed. "Her death was so sudden, and only a week after her husband's passing? What an absolute shock."
"They were almost bloody ninety," Vera muttered under her breath.
Miss Jones offered a sympathetic smile. "I know how hard it’s been for you, Vera. But I promise, everything will be okay."
Vera’s uncertainty was evident, though she remained mostly unbothered. "Where will my new foster home be?" she asked with a mouthful.
Miss Jones sighed, her expression kind but troubled. "To be honest, dear, finding a long-term placement for someone your age has been a bit... complicated. But don’t worry, there’s a girls' home in London that has a spot for you."
"A girls' home?" Vera echoed, a hint of fear in her voice.
"Yes, dear. We’ll be leaving Cornwall today by train. I know it’s sudden, but we need to reach London before nightfall. Could you pack quickly?"
Vera didn’t own much: three plain dresses, a single pair of pajamas, a worn-out hairbrush she despised, a couple of loose hair ties, a toothbrush, and an old sketchbook with four colored crayons and a pencil that had been sharpened to death. She packed everything into the same backpack she had arrived with—now old and frayed—then quickly made her way to Miss Jones’s car.
Pausing for a moment, she took one last look at the farm. Her sapphire eyes, sharp with disdain, swept over the familiar surroundings. She eagerly anticipated leaving it all behind—especially those fucking goats.
They arrived at their destination shortly before sunset. The girls' home, located in Sutton, just south of London, blended seamlessly with the surrounding houses, distinguished only by a sign near the entrance that read:
St. Mary's Home for Girls.
As Vera stepped inside, she was greeted by Miss Nelson, the matron in charge. She was a strikingly beautiful Black woman in her early thirties, exuding an air of sophistication and grace. Her hair was impeccably styled, and a simple cross hung around her neck, which stirred an uneasy feeling in Vera's chest. After bidding a final farewell to Miss Jones, she followed her matron on a thorough tour of the home.
The residence was not overly grand, housing only a modest number of girls, but it had a warm, welcoming atmosphere. Toys and shoes were scattered across the floor, and the sound of loud music drifted down from one of the rooms upstairs.
The ground floor of the house served as a common area, featuring a television, a small library, cozy sofas, a fireplace, and a dining hall. A concealed door led to the underground kitchens, pantry, and laundry room. On the first floor were the matron's office, staff rooms, and a nursery with six cradles. The second floor housed four bedrooms, each crammed with four closely packed beds and shared closets. However, Vera was instructed to store her belongings beneath her bed, which was a creaky iron frame that emitted a distinct squeak with every movement.
Throughout the house, a persistent blend of wood and baby powder filled the air, accompanied by the never-ending cries of infants. Despite the noise and the crowded conditions, Vera found herself drawn to the place. There was a warmth to it, and she could already imagine herself settling in.
"Now pay close attention," Miss Nelson's voice momentarily jolted her from her thoughts. "You must follow a certain set of rules if you intend to remain under this roof."
Suppressing an almost instinctual eye-roll, Vera checked herself.
"Firstly, no fighting with the other girls.” Miss Nelson began. “Should I catch wind of any hair-pulling, you will be punished.”
Vera nervously nibbled on her lip, recalling all the kids she had punched before.
“Secondly, you are not a guest here. This is your home. Meaning you would have to participate in taking care of the house as well as your younger sisters. You shall be assigned certain tasks throughout the day."
Nothing new, Vera thought.
"Lastly, your presence at school along with a good record of marks is non-negotiable. Am I making myself clear?"
"Yes."
"Good. Supper is served at 8. Furthermore," she concluded, her steps drawing her towards the exit, "attend to your personal hygiene at once. The bathroom is situated down the hallway, to the left."
A trace of disdain lingered in her voice, prompting Vera to wonder whether the scent of the farm still clung to her skin. The door closed with a decisive thud, leaving her alone. She took a deep breath, allowing the reality of her new situation to settle in. After freshening up, she intended to rest before joining the others for dinner, exhausted from the train journey to London. However, her brief respite was interrupted when two girls burst into the room.
"Check it out, it's the newbie," one of the girls said, her tone both curious and dismissive.
She was older than Vera, tall with dirty blonde hair and sharp green eyes accentuated by smudged eyeliner.
"We ought to give her the grand tour then," the other girl added.
She was slightly chubby, wore glasses, and had red hair with a face full of freckles.
"I'm Lydia," said the blonde one. "And this 'ere is Abbie."
"I'm Vera," she offered with a smile, extending her hand politely. However, the girls disregarded it, walking past her toward the bed.
“Right, Bumpkin. Where's your shite?” Abbie asked, reaching beneath her new bed.
With a flourish, she retrieved Vera’s backpack, and both girls indulged in a fit of giggles. They proceeded to scatter her items onto the bed, making fun of what she owned. They mocked her plain dresses and Lydia even went so far as to spit on her toothbrush.
Vera stood by the bedside, her astonishment palpable. It was only when Abbie unearthed her sketchbook that she jolted from her shock.
"What do you think you’re doing?" She demanded.
"Easy now, we're just giving you a bit of a welcome." Lydia said as she wrested the sketchbook from Abbie's grasp. “Now, what's this then?"
She peered into the pages, and their chuckles soon filled the room as they flicked through, mocking every doodle.
"Is that a bloody dragon?" said Lydia, pointing at one of the sketches.
Vera acted swiftly, reclaiming her sketchbook from their hold. "Let's see you try and draw a dragon then."
Lydia narrowed her eyes. "I'm not a fucking wonk."
"You're a moron that's what you are." Vera said, inciting a surge of wrath from the blonde girl.
"Watch your gob dipstick."
"See? That's exactly what a moron would say." Vera countered, unflinching.
Lydia's visage flushed crimson; clearly, she wasn't used to people talking back to her.
"Looks like we're gonna 'ave to teach the newbie a lesson." She proposed to Abbie.
Vera quickly recalled Matron’s first rule and had no intention of breaking it on her first night at the orphanage. As Lydia and Abbie aimed to punch her in the belly, she stepped back, instinctively raising her arms to protect herself.
Just as the girls were about to strike, another girl walked in, halting the confrontation.
"What’s going on here?" She yelled, pulling Lydia and Abbie away. "Pack it in, or I'll grass you lot up to Miss Nelson."
“Get lost, Em!" Lydia shouted. “This ain't your business!"
"Leave her alone or I'll tell Miss Nelson you're sneaking out to meet your dimwit boyfriend at Kuster's."
"Take that back! Danger ain't dimwit, you bloody tosser!"
"Anyone who goes by Danger is a right bloody dimwit in my book."
"Well, fuck your book!"
"Clear off!" Em snapped, her presence looming over them.
"Fine,” Lydia hissed, dragging Abbie out of the room. “Let's go, Abs. We'll sort the newbie out later, and don’t you dare think of dobbing us in!"
"You alright?" the new girl asked, her voice filled with concern.
She was a lot older, with shoulder-length amber hair that framed her face. She wore a short black dress and a leather jacket, accessorized with fishnet stockings and an array of bracelets on her arms. Vera found herself captivated by her presence, silently wishing she could exude the same cool confidence.
"I'm fine," she replied, adjusting her dress in place.
"Don't mind them. Lydia's a right cunt and Abbie's got about as much sense as a box of rocks."
Vera chuckled, slightly taken aback by the unexpected swearing. She resumed gathering her belongings and placing them back into her backpack.
"I'm Emily, but you can call me Em."
“I’m Vera."
“Oh, like that lady on Corrie!” Em exclaimed, picking up the sketchbook from the floor.
Vera blinked, momentarily puzzled.
"Did you do these?" Em asked, flipping through the pages.
Vera hesitated, unsure if she could trust her. But Em quickly reassured her.
"These are brilliant!" She exclaimed. "You've got real talent."
"Thanks," Vera said, her mood lifting.
She had never shown anyone her drawings before; they had always been a source of insecurity. The Humphreys had derided her hobby, calling it devilish, something she never fully understood.
"These are all so bloody creative!” Em added. “Ok so that’s a dragon, these might be mermaids but what is that? A smurf?" she asked, gesturing at a drawing of a wrinkled being with large eyes, tall nose and bat-like ears.
"No it's just some... Creature." Vera said shyly.
"Blimey! Where do you come up with ideas for these drawings?"
Vera hesitated before replying, unsure of how crazy her answer might sound. "I dream them up most of the time."
“Well done you!” Em said, handing back the sketchbook.
The two girls then descended to the ground floor, where the younger ones were engaged in playing with dolls near the fireplace, while the older ones prepared the dining table.
It became clear that the group was notably small, mostly composed of children barely five years old, and Vera found herself among the older few. Emily then excused herself, slipping into the kitchen to lend a hand, leaving her to navigate the room on her own.
"Hiya," a girl suddenly greeted, approaching with a warm smile.
She had a cascade of beautiful black curls that framed her bronze complexion exquisitely. Her hazel eyes radiated warmth, and her full lips curved into a graceful smile.
“I'm Kaya." She herself with a polite smile. "You must be Vera. Miss Nelson told us about you.”
Vera returned the greeting with a genuine smile.
“How old are you?” Kaya asked.
"Oh, I'm ten."
"Oh, mint!!! I'm eleven. But I skipped a year, so we'll be in the same class.”
“That’s nice,” Vera said, feeling a sense of comfort in this connection, as Kaya was the closest in age among the others.
"The school we go to is pretty decent,” Kaya added, “and the teachers are really nice. Although I think it’s because they feel sorry for us. You’ll see what I mean in September.”
Vera learned that she would be attending a local school nearby, like many of the other girls at the orphanage. Before moving in with the Humphreys, her education had been sporadic due to her frequent changes in foster homes. She had completed her third, fourth, and fifth years at a small school in Cornwall. Despite the challenges, she excelled in her studies, finding solace in learning amid her farm chores. However, her time at her previous school was marred by relentless bullying.
She was often targeted for her “shitty” odor and her status as an orphan. One boy cruelly taunted her by calling her a “bastard,” while a girl named Maggie spread hurtful rumors about her mother, claiming she was a London prostitute who had abandoned her baby. Knowing nothing about her biological parents, Vera felt powerless to defend herself against the slander. But when Maggie pushed her too far, she retaliated by punching her in the face, knocking out one of her teeth. Although the Humphreys punished her for it, she was too fucking proud of herself to feel any regret.
“Can we be friends?” Kaya asked with an innocent smile.
Vera’s excitement was palpable as she nodded enthusiastically. She had never truly had any friends before; most of the other children were advised to keep their distance from her due to her unknown lineage. But Kaya’s warm conversation before dinner was a comforting change, giving her hope that her new school experience might be different from her past.
"You’ve never had a chippy before!"
"Not really," Vera admitted. "My foster parents were old and always sick. They didn’t like any sort of unhealthy food."
"But it’s not unhealthy! I mean, it’s fish, init?”
"I suppose so."
"And you must’ve gone to the beach a lot?"
"No, never been."
"But you lived in Cornwall!"
Vera shrugged, unsure how to explain.
"I wish I lived down south.” Kaya said wistfully. “It’s so stunning."
"I think I prefer it here, to be honest."
"Sutton? It’s dull as dishwater, and no one important ever lived here."
Vera offered a polite smile. She wasn’t quite sure how to express her excitement about living in a town with people and shops instead of just trees and cow shit.
As dinner approached, the senior girls took charge, serving food and guiding the younger ones to the table. Vera found comfort sitting beside Kaya, enjoying the simple pleasure of friendly company. After the meal, Em assigned them to dishwashing duty. Surprisingly, Vera found joy in the task; their shared laughter made it enjoyable and gave her a sense of belonging she had longed for.
“Hey, new girl,” Grace, an older girl, suddenly interrupted. “Miss Nelson wants to see you in her office.”
Anxious thoughts swirled in Vera’s mind as she pondered the unexpected summons. Climbing to the first floor, where Miss Nelson's office awaited, she hesitated briefly before the open door and knocked gently to announce her arrival.
"Come on in," the matron’s voice invited from within.
As Vera stepped into the room, she took in her surroundings. The space was impeccably organized, featuring a small library filled with an array of files and books. A sizable window behind the desk offered a view of a bustling street outside. One wall was adorned with a crucifix, a framed portrait of the Virgin Mary, and beside it, a poster of... Dolly Parton?
"Do you fancy my collection?" Miss Nelson inquired, noticing her gaze fixed on the small religious figurines arranged on the desk.
"Yes, they're quite lovely." Vera politely replied.
"I had this one shipped all the way from France," Miss Nelson said, indicating a particularly ornate statue. "It cost me a pretty penny, but it was worth every quid. It's called Maddona and Child."
Vera offered a polite smile.
"Do you recall the rules, Vera?"
"Yes, Ma’am."
"Oh heavens, Ma’am makes me feel ancient," the matron joked, placing a hand on her chest. "Just call me Miss. Or Rosemary, if you're feeling naughty."
“Yes, Miss,” Vera said with a giggle, feeling a weight lift off her shoulders. It was a rare comfort to encounter such kindness from an adult.
"Alright, then. I heard you were a bit of a troublemaker at your last school."
Vera definitely couldn’t deny it.
“But I was also informed that you possess remarkable intelligence.” Miss Nelson continued. “Your academic performance, particularly in Science stands as a testament to your capabilities. I have high expectations for your time at Sutton's."
Vera was overwhelmed with a sense of validation, a feeling foreign to her. The Humphreys had always managed to diminish any achievements she garnered in the past, and being spoken to in such a supportive manner felt novel and invigorating.
"Now, there's one matter I wish to discuss," Miss Nelson said. "While you might attend interviews on a regular basis, I want to emphasize that adoption is not a certainty, especially given your age. Please understand that if a family doesn't choose you, it's not a reflection of your worth. As for the future, you'll reside here until you turn eighteen. After that, you'll be responsible for yourself. I strongly advise you to devote yourself to your studies. No matter what anyone says, education is and will always be a girl's only guarantee for a better life."
The weight of her advice resonated with Vera, and she found herself involuntary smiling.
"One last thing," Miss Nelson carried on, prompting her attention. "Do you have any talents or particular hobbies that you excel in?"
The unexpected question left her momentarily puzzled, a flicker of confusion crossing her features.
"It's for your profile, dear.” Miss Nelson clarified. “I need to include it for potential adoptive families."
A moment of thought later, Vera recalled her conversation with Em about her drawings and the acknowledgment of her talent.
“I enjoy drawing, ma'am, uh, I mean, Miss."
"Excellent," Miss Nelson responded. "I'll make sure to include that in your profile, if that's alright with you?"
"Yes, thank you," Vera answered with gratitude, inwardly relieved that Miss Nelson did not disapprove of her artistic inclination.
“Now go join the other girls in the Living area." the matron concluded, casually resting her feet on the desk. "I have loads to do."
With a carefree air, she flipped open what appeared to be a romantic novel, featuring a shirtless man on the cover.
Vera swiftly head back downstairs to meet Kaya and the others. She found them all squatting in front of a medium sized television watching a show.
"You into Eastenders, Vera?" Kaya asked, turning to her.
Vera nodded and crouched beside her and Grace. She had only heard about the show from her peers back in Cornwall but had never had the chance to watch it. Her eyes widened in disbelief as she realized she could finally enjoy television—something the Humphreys had never allowed her to do. Within five minutes of the show, she was completely hooked.
This newfound joy was just one of the many pleasures she experienced during her summer at the girls' home. She and Kaya formed a deep bond, as if they had been friends forever. Their laughter echoed through the hallways, solidifying their friendship with each passing day. Whether it was watching television, drawing, playing board games, or kicking a football on the street, the two girls were inseparable.
However, their play often led to trouble with the neighbors, as many would come out, shouting about the noise or accusing them of breaking windows. Yet, there was one elderly woman who never yelled at Vera. Instead, she would simply stare at her with a disturbing, unsettling gaze.
That woman was a curious figure in the neighborhood. A bit chubby, she had a pair of sharp grey eyes that seemed to see straight through people—usually with a look that hovered between knowing amusement and mild disapproval. Her wardrobe was a spectacle in itself: layers upon layers of fabric, swirling around her like she was perpetually caught in a gust of wind, all in colors and patterns that clashed so violently they might have started a war. And then there was the hat—always present, always enormous, as if it had been grafted onto her head at birth. Wherever she went, a delegation of cats followed, weaving through her ankles like devoted acolytes.
"Do you know Mrs. Wriggleshore?" Kaya asked, glancing over her shoulder.
Vera frowned. "No, never seen her before."
"Well, she seems to know you. She’s always staring."
"Yeah," Vera muttered, shifting uncomfortably.
Then, in an attempt to shake off the unease, she added with a smirk, "What kind of name is Wriggleshore, anyway? Sounds like a fish trying to escape a net."
Kaya snorted with laughter, and Vera managed a grin—but the weight of the old woman’s gaze still pressed against the back of her mind.
After an electrifying football match, the girls trudged home at sunset, exhausted but determined to freshen up before dinner—an event both anticipated and feared, thanks to the formidable Mrs. Quinn.
The house’s resident chef was a middle-aged Irish woman with hair so violently orange it looked like it had a personal vendetta against gravity. By the end of the day, her flushed face often matched her hair, a testament to the battlefield that was her kitchen.
Vera found her endlessly entertaining—when she wasn’t yelling at them, that is. Mrs. Quinn had a habit of belting out songs as she cooked, only pausing to hurl creative insults at anyone foolish enough to interrupt her process.
Despite her boisterous charm, she ruled the kitchen with an iron spoon, and the girls knew better than to question her methods—or her food. Especially her puddings, which were... an acquired taste. Criticism was out of the question. Instead, they smiled, nodded, and lied through their teeth, showering her with praise to avoid the wrath of a woman who took her desserts very personally.
That day's dinner held a distinct quality as Miss Nelson joined them to deliver some news.
"Tomorrow, we're having visitors," She announced, and the girls erupted in excited chatter, as if they already knew what she was about to say.
"Visitors?" Vera asked, turning to Kaya, her usual dinner companion.
"Potential adopters," Kaya replied, her excitement mirroring that of everyone else.
"They will be meeting with you all, so I expect everyone to be ready, with tidy hair and clean clothes. Emily, Cynthia," Miss Nelson directed her attention to the 17-year-old girls seated near her at the table. “Assist in dressing your younger sisters, please. And make sure they don't choke on their hair ties this time."
"Yes, Miss." Emily and Cynthia responded.
"Now, carry on with supper and sleep early. No longer than one hour of telly is allowed tonight."
"Oh crikey!” The girls erupted in protest, their voices rising in unison.
“No, Miss! We're gonna miss Top of the Pops!"
"Please, Miss! Kylie's performing!"
"Alright," Miss Nelson relented, rolling her eyes. "Hour and a half for Kylie bloody Minogue."
As excitement rippled through the group of girls, Vera remained preoccupied with thoughts of the visitors expected the following day.
"Are they going to adopt one of us?" She asked Kaya.
"Usually, they go for the babies.”
"But they might adopt one of us, right?"
"Yeah, of course," Kaya answered, attempting to reassure her, though her response carried a hint of uncertainty.
Vera's excitement mirrored that of her peers. The idea of adoption had never crossed her mind before, but she perceived it as a preferable alternative to being fostered. As she imagined a life with two parents, an unfamiliar but hopeful desire emerged. Despite fears of ending up with unkind people again, she clung to the hope that a warm and welcoming one would embrace her, fulfilling her long-standing wish for a proper family.
However, her visible excitement did not go unnoticed by the girl seated across from her at the table. Lydia, unwilling to let the newbie escape calling her a ‘moron’ without consequence, seemed to be already planning her revenge.
Friday, August 4, 1989
Vera woke up earlier than usual, a rare occurrence for someone who usually enjoyed sleeping in. Because today, she had a mission.
She joined the impossibly long queue for the shower, fully aware that by the time she stepped in, the hot water would be nothing more than a fond memory. Still, she refused to let this minor tragedy ruin her plans. She was going to look her absolute best for the visitors—no matter what.
Once under the water, she took her time, scrubbing and rinsing like she was preparing for battle. Her excessive thoroughness earned her a chorus of impatient sighs from the other girls, but today, she cared about exactly one person: herself.
The real war, however, began after the shower.
Her hair—long, untamed, and seemingly possessing a will of its own—refused to be tamed. An hour and one broken hairbrush later, she surrendered, twisting it into a braid and adorning it with borrowed accessories that made her feel just a touch more elegant.
Her dress, a faded blue number that Mrs. Humphrey had stitched together from salvaged fabric, had been hers for three years. But today, it wasn’t just an old dress. With a bit of effort—and a great deal of ironing—she willed it into something worthy of admiration.
"Girls, be ready in 10 minutes!" Miss Nelson's voice echoed from downstairs.
As Vera hastily spritzed on some old borrowed perfume, a younger girl, Lola, suddenly approached, gently tugging at her dress.
"Mrs. Quinn wants to see you," she lisped adorably.
"What?" Vera replied, surprised. "NOW?"
She swiftly hurried downstairs, joining the other girls in a somewhat chaotic shuffle. In the living room, the older girls were busy fixing the younger ones' hair and stopping them from chewing on their shoelaces. She made her way to the underground kitchen to find out what Mrs. Quinn needed. To her surprise, the kitchen was empty, though the pantry door was wide open.
"Mrs. Quinn?" She called out, her voice trembling slightly.
"I'm right here," a voice replied from just beyond the pantry door.
Vera cautiously stepped closer, but before she could react, she was shoved inside, the door slamming shut behind her. Laughter echoed in the distance—Lydia and Abbie, unmistakably.
"Get me out of here!" she shouted, pounding on the door with all her might.
"No chance, newbie," Abbie taunted from the other side
"Enjoy the mice!" Lydia added, her voice fading as they walked away.
As their footsteps grew distant, a wave of panic washed over her.
"No, no! Please, get me out of here! Please!" she pleaded, but the silence that followed was deafening.
Trapped in the dark, cramped space, her attempts to escape only deepened her frustration. With each passing minute, her anger grew, fueled by the realization that Lydia’s cruel prank had ruined her day. The excitement of meeting potential parents, a moment she had eagerly anticipated, now felt hopelessly lost.
The room, packed with food cans and vegetables, seemed to close in on her, amplifying her sense of entrapment. As tears streamed down her face, memories of the Humphreys’ harsh punishments resurfaced, and the weight of past trauma overwhelmed her.
Her despair soon turned into hysteria, and the hope of a new home, a fresh start, crumbled in her mind. It felt as if misfortune was woven into her very existence, and pain pulsed through her veins.
Her anger, no longer containable, erupted like a volcano, and she screamed with everything she had, her voice raw with emotion. Suddenly, the door to the pantry shook violently and, in an instant, burst open. On it's own.
Vera’s body radiated heat, her head throbbed with pain, and her vision blurred. She cast one last glance at the now-open door before collapsing onto the floor.
Chapter 2: Dom & Donnie
Summary:
Two bickering Ministry employees are sent to investigate a powerful surge of magic in South London. Meanwhile, Vera wakes up with strange changes in her body, and finds unexpected warmth among the girls at St. Mary’s. But as the Ministry edges closer to finding her, something threatens to unravel her fragile new beginning.
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Friday, August 4, 1989
Amidst the bustling activities at the Ministry of Magic, one department, the Improper Use of Magic Office, found itself notably swamped this week, courtesy of Hogwarts students returning to their homes.
Mafalda Hopkirk, the department head, commenced her day with a steaming cup of tea, surrounded by a multitude of cases spanning the United Kingdom, laid out on a sizable map affixed to the office wall.
Upon detection of any energy, the location on the map would illuminate in a captivating light blue hue, revealing the name of the young wizard or witch responsible for the emitted magical energy. Mafalda would proceed to assess each case, identifying the charm or spell employed and implementing appropriate measures.
Embracing the inherent busyness, she recognized that during the summer holidays, most cases involved accidental magical occurrences like levitation or object transfiguration in non-magical settings. These incidents typically resulted in warnings issued to the young practitioners.
However, one particular case that morning seized Mafalda's attention due to its peculiar nature.
In Sutton, south London, an intense surge of magical energy emanated, one that wouldn't occur from accidental outbursts or commonplace spells.
Intriguingly, Mafalda set her fifth cup of tea aside, realizing the additional oddity: the source was an unregistered individual. A blank tag appeared on the map before her, with no name on it.
Without hesitation, she forwarded the case details to the Magical Registration office, typically a realm of mundane paperwork and a rather uneventful department within the office.
Dom and Donnie, two tragically underpaid office drones, were locked in a battle far more intense than any actual work-related task: a wizarding chess match of epic proportions.
Dom, currently crushing her colleague with the grace of a seasoned strategist, was moments away from obliterating his queen.
Donnie, on the other hand, had suddenly developed a deep and suspicious interest in the mountain of papers that had just materialized on their desk.
“No, no, no—you’re not weaseling out of this,” Dom declared, blocking his escape with her leg.
“Weaseling?" Donnie scoffed, attempting to maneuver past her. "I’m simply being a responsible employee."
She raised an eyebrow. “Since when?”
“Excuse me? My work ethic is legendary.”
“Oh really? And who was it that skived off yesterday to watch a Quidditch match?”
“It wasn’t just a match, it was—”
“A senior citizens Quidditch match. Yes, Donnie, we know."
“It was incredible, Dom. You had to be there.”
“I don’t care for Quidditch. You know that. Now, make a move before my leg loses circulation.”
“Spare me the humiliation and just end it,” Donnie sighed, halfheartedly sliding his rook in what could only be described as a pitiful last stand.
His king was promptly shattered into pieces by Dom’s queen, who executed the move with all the ruthlessness of someone who had been waiting for this moment.
“Nice move,” he said with a mock bow, while Dom beamed like she’d just won the World Cup.
“You’re so stupid,” she teased. “But I do enjoy playing with you.”
“Thanks, darling. Our parents really nailed it with you,” Donnie shot back, scowling in exaggerated offense. “Now, kindly return to your desk. You’re cluttering my space.”
“What space?” Dom snorted, raising a knowing eyebrow.
“Oh, is that a fat joke? Really original, Dom. I expected more from you.”
“I wasn’t talking about you, you absolute numpty—I meant the size of this broom closet we call an office!”
Dom and Donnie’s office was, to put it kindly, compact. Less kindly, it was a glorified storage closet masquerading as a workspace.
The room itself was drowning in paperwork, with stacks of parchment shoved into every available corner. A quill scribbled away at a pile in one corner, while a stamp thudded dutifully in another, doing more work in an hour than Donnie did in a week. Two desks sat opposite each other, though one was far more lived-in than the other.
Dom’s desk was a war zone.
Newspapers dating back months were scattered haphazardly among half-written letters, shattered quills, and ink bottles so dry they may as well have been artifacts. Six teacups—some definitely growing something sentient—sat precariously next to a cage containing a white rabbit with concerningly sharp teeth.
Donnie’s desk, on the other hand, was practically pristine. Not because he was tidy, but because he never actually used it. His job, as far as anyone could tell, consisted mainly of wandering the Ministry, eating other people’s snacks, indulging in elaborate card games, and gathering enough gossip to fuel an entire tabloid.
Dom, in contrast, was the antisocial sort. Her natural resting glare tended to deter unnecessary conversations, which suited her just fine.
Despite being siblings, they shared little in the way of looks. Donnie was a broad-shouldered man with big black eyes and dark skin, while Dom, lanky and light-skinned with sharp brown eyes, looked nothing like him. It was an unfortunate reality that they were often mistaken for a couple—a thought that never failed to make them both gag.
As Donnie carefully collected the shattered remains of the chess pieces—and his pride—off the floor, Dom’s eyes landed on the fresh batch of documents from the Improper Use of Magic Office.
"Merlin's beard, Donnie, you’ve got to see this!"
"What now?" Donnie grumbled, still nursing the sting of defeat.
"We’ve got a field trip on our hands—an unregistered child in south London."
"Unregistered?" Donnie repeated, brow furrowing in confusion. "Is it a baby Muggleborn?"
"Doesn't look like it," Dom replied, her expression darkening. "The level of magical energy they emitted is... off the charts."
"Could it be their first time using magic?"
"Maybe, but that's an insane amount for a beginner. Don’t you think?"
"What spell did they use?"
"The report says it was a knockback spell," Dom said, eyes narrowing as she skimmed the document.
"How in Merlin's left nut would a child pull that off?"
"That’s what we’re going to find out. We’re heading there tomorrow morning. Check the location."
Donnie sighed, dragging himself over to a dusty old shelf and retrieving a book that looked like it had been around since the dawn of time. With a flick of his wand, he revealed the location, his face falling as he read the address.
"Uh, Dom...?" he said, his voice wavering slightly.
"What’s the matter?"
"It’s a bloody orphanage."
As the two wrestled with the weight of their latest case, the door swung open with dramatic flair, and in marched Remy, Donnie's girlfriend.
"Gotcha a Koink, fresh out of the oven!" she announced, proudly presenting the comically oversized cookie shaped like a coin to Donnie, who was too deep in thought to even notice.
Normally, he would’ve dropped everything for a hot, gooey treat, but today, his mind was occupied with far weightier matters.
"What's going on?" She asked.
"We’ve received a notice about an unregistered child," Donnie said, snapping out of his reverie.
"Oh, how thrilling!"
"Not quite," Dom interjected, her fingers drumming nervously on her desk.
"The child is at an orphanage,” Donnie explained. “It’s a refuge for Muggle children without guardians."
"I know what an orphanage is," Remy said, rolling her eyes. "Why’s it a problem?"
"Well, normally, when we get a notice about an unregistered child, we visit the family, explain the situation, get them to sign some forms, and head back to the office."
"But in an orphanage," Dom added, "we risk exposing magic to the Matrons, which could violate the Statute of Secrecy."
"Plus, we don’t even know which child did it. Are we just supposed to walk in and ask, 'Any budding witches or wizards here?'”
"It’s an orphanage," Remy said nonchalantly. "Why not just pretend you’re interested in buying a child and see what happens?"
"Adopting," Dom corrected.
"Same difference," Remy said with a dismissive wave, taking another bite of the Koink—clearly forgetting she’d bought it for Donnie.
"But how would that work?" Dom asked. "Donnie can’t go alone; he’d come off as creepy, and I can hardly pass for a motherly figure."
Remy’s eyes sparkled with mischief. "I have an idea," she said, her voice dripping with playfulness. "But you two might not like it."
Back at St. Mary’s, Vera awoke to the squeak of her bed on the second floor, disoriented about how she even got there. Her eyes turned to Kaya, who was seated at the foot of the bed, holding her hand.
“Oh, thank goodness you’re awake,” she exclaimed, visibly relieved as Vera’s eyes fluttered open.
“My head’s killing me,” Vera groaned, shifting into a sitting position.
“We found you out cold in the pantry with blood pouring out your nose. What on earth were you doing in there?”
“Lydia...” Vera replied, her voice tinged with exhaustion.
“I knew she was up to no good. I searched high and low for you, but then the meeting started and—”
“How’d go?”
“The meeting? Oh, same old, same old. They weren’t impressed and decided to go for a baby after all. I reckon they’ll pick baby Emma."
Vera’s face fell at the news.
“Don’t fret; we’ll have other chances. Now, what happened in the pantry? Miss Nelson reckons the door slammed into your face and knocked you out.”
“I... I don’t really remember,” Vera admitted, although she clearly recalled not even touching the door, but kept that detail to herself.
“Are you going to tell her about Lydia?”
“I want to sort Lydia out myself,”
“That’s the spirit!” Kaya cheered. “I’m up for helping with whatever plan you’ve got in mind.”
She gave her hand a supportive squeeze, which made Vera flinch from the pain in her head. But as Kaya let go, the throbbing eased a bit.
“I’ll fetch you something to eat;” Kaya said, making her way to the door. “You’ll feel better with a bit of grub."
“Thank you.”
“Vera...” Kaya called before stepping out.
“Yeah?”
“I was dead worried about you. Seeing you all bloodied up, it made me..." She swallowed. "I was proper scared, Vera.”
“I’ll be alright, Kaya. Promise.”
“I hope so,” Kaya said, offering a final, concerned glance before shutting the door.
Vera's face lit up with a smile upon hearing Kaya's words, reveling in the newfound warmth of someone expressing concern for her—a sensation she had never encountered. However, the glow dimmed as memories of the pantry incident resurfaced.
As she rubbed her forehead in an attempt to ease her throbbing headache, she noticed something strange.
Her fingertips had an unusual tinge of purple, and her nails appeared an odd shade of yellow. Frowning, she turned her hands over, and to her growing unease, she saw that her veins were now prominent with an unnaturally dark blue color.
Her mind raced as she tried to make sense of the change. The veins stood out starkly against her pale skin, giving her hands a peculiar, almost otherworldly appearance.
Moments later, Kaya returned with a steaming plate of food and a small bottle of painkiller.
“Here you go,” she said, handing her the pills. “These should help with the pain. And I’ve got a bit of fish and chips here—thought you might fancy a proper meal.”
Vera took the food gratefully, her stomach rumbling at the sight of it. “Thanks, Kaya. You’re a legend.”
“I’ll make sure the little ones don’t disturb you. Try to have a kip, yeah?”
“I will. And thanks again for everything.”
“Anytime,” Kaya said, giving her one last reassuring pat on the shoulder.
With that, she quietly slipped out of the room, leaving Vera alone with her thoughts.
As she ate and took the painkillers, she felt a comforting sense of calm wash over her. The food was warm and satisfying, and the presence of Kaya’s kindness lingered, making the day’s troubles seem a bit more manageable.
Closing her eyes, she surrendered to the weight settling in her head, seeking solace in a moment of rest.
Saturday, August 5, 1989
The following morning, she woke with a newfound lightness, as if the troubles of yesterday had been swept away by a refreshing breeze. She felt as though she had slept on a cloud, and despite the lingering shadows from the previous day, she chose to embrace the new day with optimism.
Rushing downstairs for breakfast, she joined a lively group of girls gathered around a table laden with pancakes. As she helped herself to a stack, a familiar disappointment set in.
"Mrs. Quinn seems to have confused starch for flour again," she remarked, wrinkling her nose as she took a bite.
"Ah, pancakes aren't exactly her forte,” Em, who was seated beside her, quipped with a grin. “But how did you know it was starch?"
"It's harder to chew," Vera explained. “I’ve made pancakes countless times before, so I can tell the difference.”
Em’s eyes widened in surprise. “You can cook?”
“Yeah,” Vera said with a modest shrug. “I used to cook every day with my last foster family.”
“Wow, you’re full of surprises, aren’t you?”
Vera chuckled softly. Cooking had been one of the few things she enjoyed, the only household chore that didn’t feel like a burden.
“You should offer to help Mrs. Quinn,” Em suggested. “She could really use someone with your skills.”
Vera considered the idea. Despite being forced to do it, she had a genuine passion for it.
“Maybe I will,” she said thoughtfully.
Em pushed a packet of cornflakes and a bottle of milk towards her. “Here, have some cereal. The milk's fresh.”
Vera glanced at the milk with a shudder. The mere sight of it made her feel queasy, and she gently nudged the bottle behind the cereal box, opting for the orange juice instead.
As she continued eating, she couldn’t help but notice Em’s outfit. “Who's that on your shirt?” she asked.
“The Stone Roses!” Em exclaimed, nearly spitting out her food in excitement.
Vera remained puzzled.
“You don’t know The Stone Roses?” Em asked, almost offended.
“Nope, what are they?”
“They’re a band, love, the BEST band."
“Oh,” Vera said, trying to keep up.
“They’re my absolute faves. I’m actually off to see ‘em next week with my mates.”
“Really?”
“Yeah, in Blackpool. I’ve got everything sorted, proper posters and all.”
“That's mint!”
“I can hardly wait,” Em said, her grin widening. “And actually, I could use your help with something.”
Vera raised an eyebrow. “Me?”
With palpable excitement, Em practically bounced as she led Vera upstairs, their shared anticipation almost crackling in the air. As they crossed the threshold into the older girls’ bedroom, Vera’s eyes widened in pure awe at the spectacular chaos before her.
The room was a riot of color and personality, every inch teeming with a wildly eclectic mix of posters and memorabilia. Band posters from The Stone Roses, Ramones, and The Clash jostled for space alongside movie stars and cinematic icons like Tom Cruise and James Dean, creating a visual symphony that was both overwhelming and thrilling.
“Wow,” Vera murmured, the word slipping out with a sense of wonder.
“You like it?” Cynthia asked, glancing up from the magazine she was absorbed in while lounging on her bed.
At seventeen, she was one of the oldest girls in the home. With a tall, slender frame, dark complexion, and large brown eyes, Cynthia looked every bit the part of a cool older sister. Her box braids, streaked with pink strands, framed her face effortlessly, and a tiny nose piercing added just the right amount of edge.
“It’s so mint,” Vera said, still in awe of the scene before her.
Each bed in the room told a story of its occupant. Em’s bed was an explosion of black and red, framed by grungy band t-shirts and plaid flannel shirts casually tossed over the footboard. Pillows with skulls and stars added to the rebellious vibe, and a well-worn crimson throw blanket completed the look.
In stark contrast, Cynthia’s bed was a bubblegum pink paradise. Above it, her name was spelled out in sparkling letters, and the bedding cascaded in soft pinks, hearts, and flowers. Pink stuffed animals and glittering fairy lights dangled from the bedpost, casting a dreamy glow across the room.
Grace’s bed, meanwhile, was a creative disaster. Piles of skirts, jeans, and sweaters covered the bed and spilled onto the floor, as if she’d been caught in a whirlwind of fashion choices. Despite the mess, the space exuded a certain charm, with fashion magazines and accessories strewn about carelessly.
Vera stood in the center of the room, taking it all in. The overwhelming vibrancy, the personal touches, the sense of freedom—it was like nothing she had ever experienced.
Back at the Humphreys’, her space had been stark and impersonal, stifling her creativity and dismissing her love for art and self-expression. Here, in this chaotic, colorful room, it felt as though each girl had painted a piece of her soul on the walls.
"Alright, so," Em began, pulling out pieces of cardboard from underneath her bed. "I need your artistic touch to help me with these posters. I'm hardly a master at drawing."
"Of course, I'd love to," Vera replied eagerly.
"Great! Just paint lemon all around the words here," Em instructed, indicating the half-finished cardboard, with the words:
‘I Wanna Be Adored by you, Ian’
"Lemons?" Vera questioned.
"Exactly like these," Em responded, passing her a poster featuring four men with a strikingly large yellow lemon hovering above them.
Vera found herself inexplicably drawn to the man at the center, who exuded an aura of charisma so potent it practically screamed ‘I’m a walking charm spell.’
"Who's that?" she asked, pointing him out like a tourist in a foreign land.
"Ian fucking Brown," Em and Cynthia answered in perfect harmony.
"Aka my future husband," Cynthia added, tossing a wink as if she had already written the wedding vows in her head.
"In your dreams," Em shot back.
"Oi, just you wait! I'm going to win him over."
"With what, your stunning personality?"
"Something like that," Cynthia replied, glancing down at her chest. "These usually do the trick."
Vera’s face turned crimson at the bluntness, unsure if she was blushing from the words or from just being around them.
"Well, good luck getting close to him."
"I have my ways," Cynthia said, twirling her tongue like it was a baton at a parade.
Vera eagerly began sketching out designs on the cardboard while Em busied herself with other ones.
The room resonated with the melodic strains of The Stone Roses, emanating from Em's radio, and Vera found herself thoroughly enchanted by their music.
♪ Passion fruit and holy bread
Fill my guts and ease my head
Through the early morning sun
I can see her, here she comes
She bangs the drums ♪
Unexpectedly, Miss Nelson made her entrance into the room, causing Vera to tense instinctively, bracing herself for a potential reprimand for the loud music. However, her worries quickly dissipated as she saw Miss Nelson’s softened expression and the kind eyes that met hers.
"Sorry to interrupt," she began, lowering the volume of the radio. "Here’s your allowance, girls. I’ve added a little extra for next week's trip."
“Oh, thanks, Miss!” Cynthia and Em exclaimed.
“Remind me, who are you going with again?” she asked, handing each of them a small bundle of cash.
“Our usual mates,” Em replied, reaching for the money.
"And?" Miss Nelson pressed, a knowing smile playing on her lips.
“And him, yes,” Em admitted, a faint blush creeping up her cheeks. “We’ll be spending the night at his house after the gig.”
“Don’t worry, Miss,” Cynthia chimed in with a mischievous grin, “I’ll keep them on the straight and narrow—making sure they don’t do anything unholy.”
“Oh, shut it!” Em snapped, tossing a crayon at her.
“Very well,” Miss Nelson said with a nod. “Just remember what I told you about using protec—”
“Alright, Miss, I got it!” Em cut in, her tone full of embarrassment. “Cheers.”
Miss Nelson winked playfully. "Just making sure.”
Turning her attention to Vera, her gaze lingered appreciatively on the artwork taking shape. "You really are talented," she remarked warmly.
“Thank you, Miss,” Vera replied, her cheeks flushing with gratification at the unexpected compliment.
“You know, Saint Mary and Dolly are feeling a bit lonely on the wall in my office. Would you care to make me a drawing to hang next to them?”
A surge of warmth and pride flooded Vera’s chest. Her smile widened, her eyes shining with excitement.
"I’d love to, Miss!”
The matron's smile grew brighter, and she gave her a reassuring nod. “Great. I’m looking forward to seeing what you come up with. I’ll leave you to your creativity then.”
As she left, Vera settled comfortably on the floor.
The quiet hum of music and the occasional rustling of cardboard filled the background as she concentrated on her drawing. Her eyes occasionally wandered around the room, taking in the unique arrangement of the space.
However, as she glanced towards Cynthia's direction, she noticed something odd.
Nestled under her bed was a collection of plates piled high with old, rotting sandwiches, bottles of unopened sodas, and a mix of overripe fruits. The sight made her stomach churn a little, but she decided not to say anything.
Em turned to her with a curious look. “So, how’re you finding life in Sutton?”
Vera’s face lit up with a warm smile. “Honestly, I’m really enjoying it. It’s so different from Cornwall, but in a good way. More lively, I guess.”
“Lively is one way to put it. I can’t wait to get the hell out of here.”
Vera tilted her head, puzzled. “Why’s that?”
Em sighed deeply, leaning back against the bed. “I just don’t feel like I belong here. Sutton, not St. Mary’s, mind you.”
“People here are too posh,” Cynthia chimed in. “Was your foster family in Cornwall posh, Vera?”
“Oh, um… kind of,” Vera replied, hesitating slightly as she chose her words.
“Well, Sutton’s got the worst kind of posh snobs,” Em continued. “They don’t like how Miss Nelson runs the place, and they’re always judging us—our clothes, our lifestyle, and even the stuff we can’t control.”
Vera raised an eyebrow. “Like what?”
“The color of our skin.” Cynthia said bluntly.
“And even if we’re ‘white enough,’” Em added, “they’ll still moan about our accents, our last names, or what part of the country we’re from. They always find something to nitpick.”
“And don’t even get me started on Mr. Dawson,” Cynthia added with an eye roll.
“Who’s Mr. Dawson?” Vera asked.
“The geezer next door with the yappy dogs,” Em said, her tone filled with annoyance.
Cynthia snorted. “He’s a real piece of work. Always poking his nose into our business and running off to Miss Nelson to tattle, as if she’s got time for his nonsense.”
“The other day,” Em leaned in, “he actually called me over just to lecture me about my skirt being too short."
“Oh, I bet he enjoyed that, the creepy old perv,” Cynthia remarked.
“And, of course,” Em carried on, “he’s just like the rest of this bloody street—a tt.”
Vera frowned, confused. “tt?”
Em smirked. “Tory Twat.”
Vera burst into laughter, the unexpected term catching her off guard.
Em chuckled along with her. “Yeah, well, I’m counting down the days until I can move to Cardiff and leave all these lunatics behind.”
“What’s in Cardiff?”
Emily’s face softened into a genuine smile. “University. I’m majoring in Political Science—can’t wait to start.”
“And I’m heading to real London,” Cynthia added. “Business school for me. It’s time to escape this provincial hellhole.”
Vera sat quietly, her mind swirling as she tried to take it all in. These girls had dreams, big ones, and it was clear they couldn’t wait to shake the dust of Sutton off their shoes. However, her mind kept drifting back to one particular thought that she couldn’t shake.
“Um, Em?” she began hesitantly, her brow furrowed as she gathered the courage to speak. “Do you know how can I find someone in London?”
“Someone?” Em echoed. “Who’re you trying to find?”
“A f-friend,” Vera stammered, her voice wavering with uncertainty.
Em tilted her head thoughtfully. “Well, you could always try the phone book. Might take you some time, but it’s worth a shot. Just make sure you’re not dialing random numbers, though. Miss Nelson would lose her marbles if the phone bill went through the roof.”
Vera nodded. “Right, I’ll give that a try. Cheers, Em.”
Em gave her a supportive smile, then they both turned their attention back to decorating the cardboard signs for the upcoming concert.
Wednesday, August 9, 1989
Donnie and Dom launched into action with all the enthusiasm of two people who really should’ve known better.
They apparated into Sutton on Wednesday morning and set off toward St. Mary’s Home for Girls with the swagger of undercover agents… in very questionable disguises.
“This is completely mental,” Dom grumbled. “Why couldn’t Remy do it herself if she’s so bloody sure this’ll work?”
“Because,” Donnie drawled, “Remy doesn’t work at the Ministry. We do.”
Dom let out a theatrical sigh, patting her hair. It was a voluminous, chaotic mess resembling a Fwooper’s nest after a thunderstorm. “My hair is a disaster, and this makeup is giving me vertigo.”
“You look fine. For a Muggle. Besides, the makeup was necessary to hide your—”
“I KNOW!” Dom hissed before he could finish.
“Merlin, Dom… dramatic much?”
“And are we sure this is how Muggles dress? Because I’m starting to think Remy’s having a laugh.”
“She asked her Muggleborn friend. There were magazines involved. It’s all very scientific.”
Remy, their self-appointed stylist, worked at a magical hair salon in Diagon Alley and was no stranger to reckless aesthetic choices. She changed hair colors more often than socks and once spent three weeks bald after a misfired charm. And honestly, she rocked that too.
For this mission, she’d roped in her Muggleborn mate, whose sense of fashion clearly fossilized around 1983.
Dom’s look? A navy blue dress absolutely assaulted by giant pink flowers and shoulder pads so aggressive they probably required a license.
Remy went for broke on the accessories: purple grape earrings (that jingled), a pearl necklace the size of Gobstones, and a neon pink handbag that could double as emergency signaling equipment. Pink heels completed the ensemble, causing Dom to wobble like a newborn foal with each step.
Remy hadn’t stopped there. Dom’s face was practically a paint sample chart: purple eyeshadow, ghostly mismatched foundation, and lip gloss that could reflect sunlight into orbit.
Donnie fared only slightly better.
His tight curls had been Jhere’d to perfection, and his button-up shirt matched Dom’s dress like they’d stepped straight out of a regrettable couple’s catalog. Khaki trousers, a denim jacket, and a misplaced sense of pride completed his look.
“Honestly,” he said to Dom as they walked, “I think I might keep this hairstyle.”
Despite their best attempts at blending in, they were about as subtle as a pair of fireworks in a library. Smiling and waving as they walked down the street only seemed to make things worse. People stared, whispered, and one child pointed openly. And still, Dom soldiered on in her pink heels and floral battle armor, wondering if this was what Ministry duty had come to.
“Is the matron expecting us?” Donnie asked as they finally turned onto the street where St. Mary’s sat.
“Yeah, I rang her on that Muggle contraption yesterday. Took me half the day to figure out how it works. Adopting a child’s not exactly popping down to Honeydukes, you know. Forms, references, proof we’re respectable citizens. I practically had to charm our way in.”
“You used magic? Dom! We agreed—”
“It wouldn’t have worked otherwise! Keep up, Donnie.”
“Merlin’s beard, Dom! I meant we have to be careful.”
“We are careful,” she said, tossing her feathery disaster of a hairdo. “Now all we have to do is figure out which kid’s been pulling accidental magic.”
Donnie stopped short. “Wait. Wait. You don’t know who it is? I thought that was your part of the plan!”
“Oh, I’m sorry,” Dom snapped. “I was too busy convincing them we’re parents of the year. Do you have any idea how many documents they wanted? Bank statements! Property deeds! I had to fabricate half of our life story while you were busy playing dress-up with Remy.”
“Looking the part is a key part of the mission, Dom. I’ve been doing this longer than you.”
“Oh really? And that’s why I’m parading around looking like I lost a bet with a tropical bird? Besides, we’re not actually adopting anyone—we just need to find out who the little wizard is and make a note of it.”
“You’re missing the point! We’re standing outside with no idea who we’re looking for. What’s the plan?”
“We improvise.”
“Improvise?! This is not one of your ‘crash in, Obliviate later’ Auror stunts.”
“And why not? That method never failed me.”
“Is that why you’re not still an Auror?”
Dom shot him a look sharp enough to slice parchment. “Tread carefully.”
“Right. Sorry. I’m just saying—caution.”
She rolled her eyes. “Just remember: We’re the Smiths now.”
“Right. Mr. and Mrs. Smith. Got it. Also… that Muggle contraption? It’s called a telephone, Dom. Try not to forget.”
“Telephone... telephone... telephone…” Dom muttered, committing it to memory like it was a complicated incantation.
They arrived at St. Mary’s at precisely ten o’clock, punctual enough to impress a Head Girl.
Miss Nelson stood by the door with the polite-but-slightly-baffled expression of someone who’s just been handed a pineapple in place of a birthday cake—confused, but too well-mannered to question it.
She ushered them inside without comment. In her office—a tidy little space filled with floral cushions and the faint scent of lemon polish—the siblings settled in, doing their best to radiate respectable Muggle couple energy. It was like acting in a play neither of them had rehearsed for.
“So, Mr. and Mrs. Smith,” Miss Nelson began, giving them both a prim smile. “What age range were you hoping for?”
“My hus—husband and I,” Dom stammered, her tongue nearly tripping over the word, “don’t have a particular age in mind. As we discussed on the... umm...”
“The telephone,” Donnie hissed out of the corner of his mouth, smile still plastered on.
“Yes! The telephone!” Dom chirped a little too loudly. “We’d love to meet the children first, if possible.”
“Of course,” Miss Nelson replied graciously. “Though today may be tricky. In the meantime, I can offer you a file to peruse.”
They nodded, their synchronized expressions of interest worthy of an award, and accepted the file with solemn reverence. Inside were details on girls from tiny and adorable to just-starting-to-sass.
Meanwhile, Miss Nelson’s gaze drifted to a cheerful painting propped on her shelf—a wobbly but charming portrait of herself, courtesy of Vera. A pang of guilt tugged at her; the older girls always had fewer prospects. She hesitated, then reached for another folder.
“Perhaps you’d consider an older girl as well,” she suggested gently, pulling out the ‘Ages 9–14’ file. “Some of them are exceptionally bright. Truly special.”
Dom took the file with a nod, flipping through the pages with an air of studious intent, though mostly scanning for signs of accidental magic. Meanwhile, Donnie, clearly losing his nerve, filled the silence with a stream of nervous babble.
“Your office is lovely. Cozy, really. Small, but in a nice way. I tried having a plant in my office once. It died. Maybe overwatered? Or under? Plants are complicated...”
“Donnie,” Dom tried to cut in.
“...I do like what you’ve done with the curtains, though. Very cheery.”
“Donnie.” Her voice sharpened.
“I wonder if maybe I should get curtains like that. Or maybe not. They’d clash with my—”
“DONALD!”
The room fell silent, Miss Nelson blinking in surprise.
“What?” Donnie asked, bewildered.
Dom wordlessly turned the file around. His eyes landed on the page. And his jaw fucking dropped.
“Miss Nelson,” he said with a sudden surge of composure. “Could my... wife and I have a quick word in private?”
“Certainly.” Miss Nelson rose with grace. “I’ll make us some tea.”
As soon as the door clicked shut, they both lunged for the file, and stared at the page in mutual disbelief.
“Tell me I’m not seeing what I think I’m seeing,” Donnie whispered.
“You’re seeing it,” Dom whispered back, wide-eyed.
“Is that really who we think it is?”
“I don’t know, Donnie. But it certainly looks that way. This might be exactly who we’re looking for.”
“Maybe she’s Muggle-born? Muggles reuse wizarding names all the time, right? Total coincidence?”
“Look at her, Donnie!” Dom shouted, jabbing a finger at the black-and-white photograph paperclipped to the file. “The hair, the eyes, the cheekbones, that nose—She looks just like them!”
“What in Merlin’s name is someone like her doing in a MUGGLE orphanage?”
“I have no idea,” Dom muttered, running her thumb along the paper’s edge. “But this changes everything.”
Donnie exhaled slowly. “Well... at least we’ve found the one who did the accidental magic last week. No way this is a coincidence.”
Dom nodded. “Now we just need to figure out how to approach this without causing a scene.”
“Take a look at this,” Donnie said, tapping the ‘Interests and Hobbies’ section.
Dom nodded, a plan sparking in her mind. “I think I know exactly what to do.”
Notes:
Songs Mentioned:
She Bangs The Drums - The Stone Roses
Chapter 3: Secrets
Summary:
While Vera plots revenge on Lydia, the Ministry secretly scrambles to uncover her dangerous identity. Amid pranks and laughter, a creeping illness, and a neighbor’s chilling remark, an unexpected offer arrives—one that could tear her from the only family she’s ever known, and change her life forever.
Notes:
TW: mention of suicide towards the end
Chapter Text
Thursday August 10, 1989
Vera had always loved to cook—there was something magical about turning a pile of ingredients into something that made people shut up and savor. At Em’s suggestion, she started spending her mornings in the kitchen with Mrs. Quinn, whipping up all sorts of breakfast delights.
To her surprise—and slight terror—the girls actually liked her cooking. Even more shocking? Mrs. Quinn, a woman who treated her kitchen like a sacred temple where no mortal should dare tread, didn’t kick her out. In fact, she welcomed the help, happy for a little extra time to care for her ailing husband.
Mrs. Quinn, despite her woes, remained a force of nature. Her sharp wit was only rivaled by her sharp tongue, and Vera quickly realized that the woman had an impressive arsenal of curse words—some so inventive they should probably be in a museum. Naturally, Vera made it her personal mission to memorize all of them.
Between stirring pots and flipping pancakes, Mrs. Quinn regaled her with stories, which ranged from hilarious childhood antics to deeply concerning conspiracy theories about the government. Vera wasn’t sure if half of what Mrs. Quinn said was true, but either way, mornings in the kitchen had never been more entertaining.
In the afternoons, she engaged in lively activities with Kaya, be it playing football, watching television or, more recently, plotting the slow and painful downfall of their arch-nemesis, Lydia.
"I could easily hurt her," she said. "But getting her in trouble? So much better."
"She deserves it, though." Kaya countered. "You let her walk all over you once, and she’ll do it again."
"I'm not putting snails in her pudding! That could make her proper sick."
"Doubt it."
"Right, is she a vampire now?"
"Fine, fine! How about we put chili powder in her knickers?"
"Blimey, Kaya! Where the hell do you get these ideas from?"
"At least I’m coming up with ideas!"
"We need to be smart about this. If we get caught, Miss Nelson will skin us alive."
"What’s your genius plan then?"
"What’s Lydia afraid of?"
Kaya scoffed. "Fear fears that twat."
"Think!"
Kaya pondered, then snapped her fingers. "Miss Nelson finding out about her dodgy little thing with that wanker down the street."
"Who? Dangerous or something?"
"Danger," Kaya corrected. "And yeah, he is dangerous—mainly to my patience. Thinks he’s some hard bloke when his family’s proper posh. He’s a skinhead, Vera. Once called me a—" She paused, shaking her head. "Never mind."
Vera's expression darkened. "Oh."
"And Miss Nelson hates him. But if you ask me, he and Lydia deserve each other. A right pair of cunts."
Vera chuckled—there was more swearing in this house than at a sailor’s convention. "Alright, so we get her and Danger busted. Miss Nelson will sort her out, and our hands stay clean."
"Mint!" Kaya grinned. "Can’t wait to see her face when she gets caught. Though I still reckon she should eat a snail cupcake."
Meanwhile in the Wizarding world, Millicent Bagnold, the Minister of Magic, interrupted her schedule to meet with Mafalda Hopkirk, the head of the Improper Use of Magic Department, along with Dom and Donnie, the individuals behind the surprising revelation.
"Can we be certain this is her?" she asked.
"Her birthdate and appearance align perfectly with the information we have about the child." Dom responded.
"Have you talked to her family?"
"We weren't able to reach them. As you know, they're no longer in the country after—"
"Yes, yes, I know,” the minister quickly interrupted. “How about her mother's family?"
"They don't want to make any comments about the situation," Mafalda replied. "They seem rather unwilling to claim the girl."
"This is deeply concerning.” Bagnold sighed. “The girl’s at a Muggle orphanage, possibly oblivious to her lineage or magical potential. And, most importantly, she's approaching eleven without being registered! How could this happen?"
“We never knew she was in the muggle world,” Mafalda said. “We thought she was with her father’s family all those years."
“I am talking about her registration!” Bagnold exclaimed, banging her fist on the desk.
"Minister, its protocol.” Mafalda explained calmly. “We need to detect at least three occurrences of magic before we can register any child."
"And you didn't manage that?"
"It was too complicated; the girl was constantly moving from one house to another."
"In the file Dominique and Donald presented, it says she stayed with a family in the south for three years. Were there no incidents throughout that time?"
"According to our archives, there were only two instances in Cornwall."
"TWO! Only two? In three years? Can't you see how concerning that is?!"
"It is indeed, minister, but due to her lack of magical activity, we thought the child might be a squib."
"But she's not?"
"Her last occurrence showed a rather huge magnitude of energy. So no, we don't believe she is."
"So she is not a squib, but she only performed magic twice in the span of three years?"
"Yes, minister."
Bagnold took a deep breath, removing her round-shaped glasses and placing them on her desk. "I'll be leaving the Ministry by the end of the year, Miss Hopkirk. I can't depart with this egregious situation on my record. We need to ensure the girl's well-being and register her as quickly as possible."
"We're scheduled to meet with her soon," Donnie chimed in. "We'll thoroughly document her situation."
"Yes, I've reviewed your proposed plan Donald. A very effective strategy indeed, well done, both of you.”
Dom and Donnie smiled at each other in pride.
"Execute it flawlessly.” The minister continued. “Ensure the girl is registered before her eleventh birthday and is aboard the Hogwarts Express with all necessary provisions. And make CERTAIN she understands the Statute of Secrecy."
"Understood, Minister." Dom responded.
"I will be writing to Dumbledore,” The minister added, “requesting him to keep a vigilant eye on the girl's fragile condition while she's at school. Meanwhile, make sure this situation remains private. Don’t go around boasting about it. I’m looking at you, Donald.”
“Don’t worry minister." The gossip loving employee responded. "I’ll keep my mouth shut.”
“What about the public ma’am?” Mafalda asked. “Won’t the girl’s appearance at Hogwarts cause concern?”
“I will inform the newspapers not to publish any articles about her or her namesakes. This dark chapter of history was closed long ago, and I will not allow this young girl’s emergence to reopen it."
Friday, August 11, 1989
“I’ve got a plan,” Vera said, setting her toast down with a dramatic flourish.
Kaya, mid-bite into a crumpet, raised an eyebrow. “This better be good.”
“I overheard Miss Nelson’s meeting a mate at the caff down the street tonight at half six.”
“And?”
“We trick Lydia and Danger into showing up there instead of that greasy chicken shop. Miss Nelson catches them red-handed. Boom. Trouble.”
Kaya’s eyes lit up. “Oh... OHHHH! That’s genius! But how’re we pulling it off?”
“Easy. I’ll call Danger, pretend to be Lydia, and tell him to meet me there.”
Kaya shook her head. “Lydia never rings him. Miss Nelson would smell a rat.”
“Then how do they usually talk?”
“They meet up at Danger’s house. His parents are never home.”
“That’s no good…”
“They also pass notes.”
“Perfect! We’ll send Danger a note from ‘Lydia,’ changing the plans. Same for her.”
“Won’t they clock the handwriting?”
“Leave that to me,” Vera said smugly. “You figure out how we get the notes to them.”
“Lydia sneaks into Danger’s room through his window. Always bragging about snogging him there—absolutely rank.”
“Where’s his house?”
“Right next to Mrs. Wriggleshore’s.”
“We’ll slip his note under the door, then.”
“And get Lola to deliver Lydia’s.”
“Lola?” Vera hesitated. “What if she grasses us up?”
“Lola’s loyal, but she’ll need a bribe.”
“What’s her price?”
“Chocolate.”
“Done.”
“Now we just need to copy Danger’s handwriting.”
“And nick some of Lydia’s homework to match hers."
Kaya leaned back, grinning. “Vera, this plan is evil. I love it.”
“Doesn’t matter if it doesn’t work.”
“Oh, it’ll work. I cannot wait to see Lydia’s face.”
“All this effort will be worth it when that bitch gets what’s coming to her.”
Kaya snorted. “Look at you, swearing and scheming like a pro.”
Vera winked. “Learned from the best.”
The girls wasted no time. With Lydia sweating away in the underground laundry room, they seized their chance, slipping into her bedroom like a pair of dodgy burglars.
“Right,” Kaya whispered. “Let’s find something incriminating.”
They didn’t have to look hard. Tucked under a heap of clothes in Lydia’s drawer was a crumpled note from Danger.
Vera grinned. “Perfect.”
She sat at Lydia’s desk, cracking her knuckles like some criminal mastermind about to forge the Queen’s signature. Within seconds, she was replicating Danger’s handwriting so precisely that Kaya just stood there, mouth open.
“Blimey,” she muttered. “You should be forging bank notes, not love letters.”
Vera smirked. “Don’t tempt me.”
Without missing a beat, she grabbed one of Lydia’s school notebooks and flawlessly copied her handwriting onto a fresh piece of paper. And so, the fake note to Danger was done. Now, they just needed delivery.
Enter Lola, the chocolate-loving four-year-old.
Kaya crouched down to her level, holding up a Mars bar like it was a bar of solid gold. “Wanna do a job?”
Lola’s eyes locked onto the chocolate. “What kinda job?”
“Easy. Just take this note to Lydia. Don’t say we gave it to you. Don’t lose it. And definitely don’t eat it.”
Lola snatched the Mars bar, stuffing it into her pocket. “Done.”
As she scampered off on her mission, Vera turned to Kaya. “You ever consider a career in organized crime?”
Kaya laughed. “If this works, I might.”
As the afternoon sun began to cast long shadows, the sneaky duo headed towards Danger's house, moving with practiced stealth. But their mission was abruptly interrupted by a rusty, trembling voice.
"What are you two up to?"
They froze, the hair on the back of their necks standing on end. The voice belonged to none other than Mrs. Wriggleshore, the old woman who lived nearby, known for her eerie presence and sharp tongue. She was watching them from her window, her eyes narrowed with suspicion.
Kaya tried to recover, forcing a nervous smile. "Oh, hello, Mrs. Wriggleshore! We were just—"
"You’re the spitting image of her." Mrs. Wriggleshore cut her off, her gaze locked onto Vera with a mix of disdain and something darker.
Vera’s heart skipped a beat.
"Who… who do you mean?" Kaya asked.
"Her," Mrs. Wriggleshore spat, her eyes still fixed on Vera. "She looks just like that vile woman—that cold-hearted liver eater."
Vera felt a chill run down her spine, her fear momentarily paralyzing her.
Kaya turned to her, confusion and concern written all over her face. "What’s she talking about?"
"I—I don’t know," Vera stammered, trying to shake off the fear that was gripping her.
The two exchanged bewildered glances, but when they looked back at the window, Mrs. Wriggleshore had vanished.
"How did she just—" Kaya began, but her words were cut short by a loud noise coming from Danger's house.
"Vera, we’ve got to go!” she whispered. “Leave the note at the door, now!"
However, Vera remained silent, her eyes fixed on Mrs. Wriggleshore’s window. Noticing her sudden stiffness, Kaya quickly took the note from her hand and tossed it through Danger’s door. Then, without hesitation, she grabbed Vera’s hand and pulled her out onto the street. The two of them bolted down the road, with Kaya in the lead, laughing breathlessly at their daring trick. But Vera, lagging slightly behind, remained quiet, her expression troubled.
"That was bloody mint!” Kaya exclaimed once they reached the grounds of St. Mary's. “I can’t believe we pulled it off!"
Vera managed a faint smile, but her discomfort was obvious.
Kaya’s laughter faded as she noticed her unease. "Are you okay?" she asked, concern creeping into her voice.
"Yeah, I’m just..." Vera trailed off, pressing her fingers to her temples. "My head’s hurting so much. And I think I’m going to—"
But before she could finish, she bent over and vomited onto the side of the pavement.
"Blimey, are you alright?" Kaya asked, her worry growing.
Vera nodded weakly, but her face was pale, and she kept rubbing her throbbing head.
"Come on, let’s get you to bed," Kaya said gently, slipping an arm around her shoulders.
She guided her friend back to the front door, supporting her as they made their way inside. The walk up the stairs to their shared bedroom was slow and unsteady, with Vera leaning heavily on Kaya for support. By the time they reached her bed, she could barely keep her eyes open. She collapsed onto the mattress, burying her face in the pillow, and within moments, she was fast asleep.
Hours later, she was stirred awake by the distant echoes of Miss Nelson shouting. Blinking groggily, she looked out the window and saw that evening had already settled in. As she sat up, she noticed Kaya standing near the slightly opened door, peeking out at the commotion beyond.
"What's going on?" she asked, her voice still heavy with sleep.
Kaya spun around, her face lit up with excitement. She rushed over to her bedside, crouching down with a broad grin.
"My dear friend, our bloody plan worked!" she exclaimed, practically. "Miss Nelson caught Lydia and Danger at the caff just like we planned. She’s tearing into her right now!"
The two shared a fit of giggles as Kaya eagerly recounted the details, painting a vivid picture of the scene.
"Lydia's face was priceless! Even better than we imagined!"
Vera sighed. "Oh, how I wish I’d seen it!"
Kaya’s expression shifted to one of concern as she studied her face. "I hope you're feeling better though... How are you now?"
"I feel... great, actually," Vera replied, surprised by how true it was. "Like I wasn't even sick."
"What about the headache?"
"It’s gone... completely."
"That’s mint! Do you have any idea what was wrong with you?"
"I don’t really know. How long was I asleep?"
"A few hours."
"It felt like ten years," Vera murmured, rubbing her temples.
"Maybe you just needed the rest! It happens."
"Yeah... maybe," Vera said, though she couldn’t shake the lingering sense of unease. "By the way, what was Mrs. Wriggleshore talking about?"
"Oh, something about a vile woman you apparently look like. But forget about her; she’s off her rocker. Em says she’s got that old people’s disease. You know, the one that makes them forget things and act all crazy?"
"Yeah... it’s probably nothing," Vera said, trying to convince herself.
"One of the girls swears she saw her kill a bird with her bare hands once.” Kaya continued, trying to lighten the mood. “And she always dresses like she’s going to some hippie convention."
Vera chuckled, deciding not to dwell on Mrs. Wriggleshore’s strange words.
But then Kaya’s smile faded as she noticed something. "Um... Vera?"
"What?"
"What the hell is wrong with your fingers?"
Vera glanced down at her fingertips and froze. They were once again swollen and tinged with a purplish hue, while her nails had taken on a sickly yellow color.
"I... I don’t know," she stammered, her voice laced with worry.
"Did you burn yourself or something?"
"I don’t remember..."
"I’ll get you some bandages," Kaya offered quickly, standing up to leave the room.
As she walked out, Vera remained in bed, her fingers tingling with a sensation she couldn't quite place. The room felt colder now, and as she stared at her discolored fingertips, a wave of stress and confusion washed over her. Something wasn’t right, and she couldn’t shake the feeling that it was more than just an ordinary illness.
Following dinner that evening, Miss Nelson summoned her to her office. As she entered, she noticed her matron savoring a chocolate chip cookie she had made earlier that day.
"Everything well, dear?" she inquired, her voice warm as she enjoyed the treat.
"Yes, Miss," Vera replied politely.
"Kaya informed me you were tired. How are you feeling now?"
"I'm much better, thank you."
"And your fingers?" Miss Nelson added, glancing at her hands.
"Oh, it's nothing.” Vera quickly replied, trying to hide her hands behind her back. “I reckon I burned them this morning."
"You ought to be more careful, dear. Cooking can be very dangerous! That’s why I can’t bother with it."
"I will."
"These treats are exquisite, by the way. I can't fathom losing you from this household after you've showcased your culinary talents."
"You will never lose me, Miss Nelson.” Vera chuckled. “I assure you."
"I'm not entirely convinced, dear," Miss Nelson remarked, brushing cookie crumbs from her shirt.
Vera shook her head. “Miss?”
"Don't worry; it's truly delightful news. You've been selected for a remarkable opportunity sponsored by a charming couple!"
Vera's confusion deepened, her heart quickening. "A what?"
"The Smiths visited us a while ago, initially considering adoption. They altered their plans and now wish to generously sponsor your education. Isn't that wonderful!"
"But... how will they do that?"
"I presented them with your file and the artwork you made me, and upon recognizing your exceptional talent, they proposed sending you to a prestigious private art school!"
An art school for her? The idea seemed too good to be true.
"But why did you mention losing me?" She asked.
"Well, you see, dear, it's a boarding school in Scotland. You'll reside there throughout the year, except for Christmas and summer holidays, of course. Despite being away, you'll always be a part of this house. It’s just a train ride home anyway. We'll stay in contact, and the Smiths, your sponsors, will ensure your financial well-being."
"So, I'll be living at the school?"
"Yes, my dear."
Seeing Vera’s bewildered expression, she got up from her desk and approached her. "You're free to decline, darling,” she said gently, “but it's a remarkable opportunity, and I wouldn't want you to miss out!"
Vera hesitated, the thought of leaving St. Mary's—a place she cherished, filled with friends and memories—felt overwhelming.
"Look," Miss Nelson continued. "Remember what I told you the first night you were here? About education?"
"You said it is a girl's only guarantee for a better life."
"Exactly! Not marriage, not adoption, but education. I know what you’ve been through, love, and just because you had a hard life doesn’t mean you deserve it or that you should surrender to it. You and your fellow sisters are remarkable, brimming with potential, but the world hasn’t been kind to you. It’s unfair that you don’t get to finish the race just because you were born behind the starting line.”
She then leaned closer, gently cradling Vera's face in her hands. "You have a passion for art, and at this new school, you'll be surrounded by people who are just like you. You'll build friendships and excel as the best student there! I believe in you, darling, and I need you to believe in yourself too."
Tears welled up in Vera's eyes as she absorbed these words. The genuine concern and care Miss Nelson showed her were unlike anything she had ever experienced.
"Can I have time to think about it?" she asked.
"Of course, dear, but I need you to provide an answer within two days, as the Smiths wish to meet with you before the end of August."
"Okay, Miss Nelson. I will share my decision in the morning, if that's acceptable?"
"It's entirely fine," Miss Nelson replied, her voice soft and reassuring.
Vera nodded, feeling both overwhelmed and touched by the unexpected opportunity laid before her. Later that night, she spilled the news to Kaya, who exploded with excitement.
"ARE YOU BLOODY KIDDING ME, VERA?!" she shrieked, jumping up and down on the bed like a toddler on a sugar high.
"Easy! I haven’t even said yes yet!" Vera yelped, trying to keep her balance.
"Well, you better say yes, or I swear I will murder you in your sleep!"
"I don't know, Kaya. I don’t want to leave you or the house. I love it here."
"Forget about me, you silly cow! This is your big break! You’ll be an artist! You’ll eat fancy food with posh people, probably meet a rich posh boy, marry him, and live in a massive house with a garden and a butler—oh my god, the possibilities are endless!"
Vera burst out laughing. "Alright, alright, I’m convinced—mainly because of the rich boy part."
"So, you’re going?" Kaya demanded, practically bouncing.
Vera hesitated. This place, this house, these people—they were her family. But then she saw the way Kaya was looking at her, all wide-eyed and expectant, and a grin slowly spread across her face.
"I guess… yes," she admitted, exhaling like a weight had finally been lifted.
"YES! YES! YES!" Kaya screamed, launching herself into another round of bed-jumping.
"Shut it, or we’ll definitely be grounded," Vera whispered between laughs.
"I don’t care, I’m just so happy for you!" Kaya beamed, squeezing her in a hug so tight she nearly cracked a rib. "Alright, now tell me everything!"
"I don’t know much yet. I’m meeting the family sponsoring me soon, and they’ll explain the details. But Miss Nelson said the school’s in Scotland."
Kaya gasped. "OH MY DAYS! Scotland is gorgeous! Maybe the school’s in a castle! Scotland’s filled with castles, you know."
"Oh, I wish!" Vera sighed dreamily. "I bloody love castles."
"But how will you get there? Will the Smiths drive you?"
"No, I think I’ll take a train."
Kaya's mood shifted instantly. The smile that had lit up her face disappeared, and a trace of unease crept into her voice.
"You're taking the..." She swallowed, "t-train?"
"Yeah, Miss Nelson said something about a train ride."
"Oh," Kaya hesitated, the enthusiasm from moments before now completely gone.
"You don’t like trains?" Vera asked carefully, sensing that something was off.
"Not really," Kaya replied, her voice quieter, tinged with an unspoken sadness.
Vera felt a knot form in her stomach. She crouched on the bed, her words chosen with the utmost care.
"Is it… is it because of what happened to your mum?" She asked.
Kaya’s eyes widened, shock flashing across her face. "What...?"
"I... I mean... Didn’t your mum... pass away in a train accident?"
Kaya's expression hardened, her voice taking on a firm, almost defensive tone. "It wasn’t an accident." she said. "She killed herself."
The room fell into a heavy silence. Vera bit her lip, regretting her question instantly, the weight of her mistake pressing down on her chest.
“I’m really sorry, Kaya.” She began. “I shouldn’t hav—"
"How did you know?" Kaya cut her off.
"What...?"
"About my mum... How did you know?"
Vera was caught off guard, her mind scrambling for an explanation. "You... You told m—"
"No, I didn’t tell you, Vera," Kaya interrupted, her voice trembling with intensity. "I would remember if I had, so how did you know?"
Vera paused, the room spinning around her as she tried to piece together. "I don’t know, Kaya. I’m really sorry for bringing it up."
"Forget it," Kaya dismissed her, her tone cold, but Vera could see the hurt in her eyes.
The silence that followed was suffocating, and Vera’s heart ached, praying she hadn’t pushed her best friend away.
Finally, Kaya broke the silence, her voice flat. "What happened to your mum?"
Vera was taken aback by the question, but she understood why it was asked.
"I don’t know," she answered truthfully. "I never knew her, or my dad."
Kaya paused, her eyes fixed on the wall as if searching for answers that weren’t there. It was clear she was still grappling with her own loss, and Vera’s words seemed to deepen the chasm between them.
Finally, she spoke again, her voice laced with bitterness. "Lucky you."
Chapter 4: Madonna and Child
Summary:
On the morning of meeting her sponsors, Vera wrestles with fear, hope, and the possibility of a new life. But the strangers at her door bring news she never expected, and a world she never knew existed.
Chapter Text
Wednesday August 16, 1989
As the impending meeting with the Smiths loomed, Vera fought with the thought of a school abroad. Surreal didn’t begin to cover it—it was a dream she hadn’t yet learned to believe. Still, a fragile hope prickled at her chest, a teasing promise of happiness after the Humphreys’ long shadow.
The meeting was Wednesday morning, and sleep had fled hours ago, leaving her mind buzzing with what-ifs. Before dawn, she slipped from bed, and padded downstairs.
The house was quiet, and she felt a nervous flutter in her chest, thinking of the hours to come. Needing something to distract herself, she grabbed the phone book from the small side table and began flipping through its pages. Suddenly, a faint rustling sound outside caught her attention. She looked up, and through the window, she saw Em standing at the front door, locked in an embrace with a young man. Vera quietly moved closer, peering through the lace curtains.
Em’s boyfriend, tall and ruggedly handsome, leaned into her, their lips just a breath apart.
“I should go,” he murmured, though his hands still gripped her waist, holding her close.
“You always say that,” Em whispered with a teasing smile.
Her fingers slid through his messy hair, tugging gently before pulling him into another heated kiss. Their bodies pressed closer, the air between them heavy with desire. Vera, wide-eyed, stood hidden, her heart pounding not out of embarrassment, but from an unexpected rush of excitement at witnessing such raw intimacy.
"Shh... you have to be quiet." Em said between soft gasps. "You’ll wake everyone."
Her boyfriend chuckled, his lips trailing down her neck. “I’d be quiet if you stopped tempting me.”
“Tempting you?" she whispered, her body betraying her eagerness. "You’re the one who can’t keep your hands off me.”
Their laughter softened into something more, the tension between them undeniable. He finally stepped back, though his gaze lingered, his eyes dark with longing as they roamed over her like he was committing every inch of her to memory.
“Tomorrow?” he asked, his voice husky with the promise of more.
“Definitely,” she breathed, giving him one last kiss.
As she turned back toward the house, Vera snapped into action, burying her nose in the phone book like it was the most riveting novel ever written. Maybe if she concentrated hard enough, she could will herself into invisibility.
No such luck.
“Well, well, well…” Em’s said. “Sneaking a peek, were you?”
Vera’s face flushed. “I—I wasn’t watching! I was just—uh—brushing up on my alphabet skills.” She jabbed a finger at a random name. “Look! Abernathy, Fred. Fascinating bloke, I bet.”
Em snorted, strolling into the room and tossing her leather jacket over a chair. “Relax, I’m just winding you up.”
She cast a glance out the window toward where her boyfriend had disappeared, then back at Vera with a knowing grin. “He’s fit, init?”
Vera, still flustered, tried for nonchalance and failed. “I mean… yeah. You two look, uh… very close.”
Em flopped onto the couch with a dreamy sigh. "It’s nice, you know? Having someone who just gets you. But don’t worry, kiddo. One day, you’ll find someone to stare at all moony-eyed, too.”
Vera scoffed. “Pfft. Doubt it.”
Em just grinned. “Famous last words.”
She stretched out on the couch, watching her curiously. "Oi, why you still up? It’s mad late for you."
Vera let out a sigh, rubbing her eyes. "Couldn’t sleep."
"Who you always lookin' for in that phone book, anyway? I’ve clocked you doing it loads."
"Just… someone."
Em gave her a knowing look but didn’t press. After a brief silence, she shifted in her seat, changing the topic. "I heard you’re getting sponsors, though. That’s proper big news, you know?"
"Yeah, I know. Everyone keeps sayin’ I should be over the moon. But... I’m sorta scared. I love St. Mary’s."
“I get it. I’m bricking it about uni, too. Scary stuff, innit? Leaving everything you know. But, you’ve gotta think about yourself for once. Can’t stay stuck here forever."
Vera bit her lip, feeling torn.
"Listen," Em continued, leaning in, "getting a proper education’s a game-changer, especially for girls like us. You know what people think when they look at orphans—they reckon we’re gonna end up on the streets, doing God knows what to get by. No one expects us to actually do somethin’ with our lives. That’s why this is huge, Vera. You can’t let it slip."
Vera felt her chest tighten. She knew what Em was saying was the truth, but it still felt overwhelming.
"We’re lucky, yeah?" Em added. "We’ve got Miss Nelson lookin’ out for us. She’s young, proper sound, and she actually gives a toss about what happens to us. A lot of kids in other homes don’t have that. They’re not getting this chance like we are. Thing is, you’ve gotta let go, embrace the change, and take the leap. Dive into whatever’s out there for you with an open mind. You never know, you might actually like what you find."
Vera stared at the phone book for a moment, Em’s words swirling in her mind. As much as it scared her, maybe this was the break she needed.
"Cheers, Em," she whispered. "I’ll give it a go."
"That’s the spirit, love.”
That morning, Vera was on a mission: nothing was going to go wrong this time. She had showered before bed, braided her hair like Grace had taught her, and mentally run through every possible disaster scenario. The only problem? Her only dress was ruined, thanks to the ill-timed nosebleed in the pantry.
Just when she was ready to declare defeat and show up looking like a Dickensian orphan, Kaya swooped in like a hero with a dress. And not just any dress—a beautiful violet one with a lace collar, an adjustable waistband, and tiny embroidered poppies.
“You’re a lifesaver, Kaya,” she sighed, running her fingers over the fabric.
“I know,” Kaya said smugly. “Try not to bleed on this one, too.”
Vera changed quickly, pausing to inspect her hands. The bruises and swollen knuckles stood out against the soft fabric, so she decided to keep the bandages on. It was a safer look—“well-composed” rather than “just survived a street fight”. Still, excitement warred with nerves in her stomach.
What if the Smiths didn't like her? What if this whole thing fell apart like everything else? What if they weren't nice?
"They’re paying for you to go to some posh school," Kaya scoffed, lounging on the bed. "Of course they’re nice."
"I don’t think they’re giving me the money." Vera said. "Just covering the fees."
"Same thing! If they were awful, they wouldn’t even do that."
"Then why change their minds about adoption all of a sudden?"
"Maybe they realized paying tuition is easier than actually raising a kid."
Vera rolled her eyes. "Right, what a relief."
"We’re too old to get adopted anyway."
"We’re eleven."
"Exactly. People want babies, not dodgy almost-teenagers with opinions."
"And you think that’s a good thing?"
"Obviously! Can you imagine being adopted by some rich family and having to act all grateful and well-behaved? They’d want you to change, follow their rules, and be their perfect little thing."
Vera considered that. It wasn’t like she wanted to be adopted, not really. But still, the idea of being unwanted stung more than she liked to admit.
"I wouldn’t want to adopt someone like me," Kaya muttered under her breath.
Vera frowned. "Why would you say that?"
Kaya waved her off. "This is better. You get a fancy education, and you don’t have to be anyone’s pet. Win-win."
Vera nodded. She didn’t want to be someone’s charity case. She didn’t want to be molded into something she wasn’t. She just wanted a chance—on her terms.
"Speaking of which," Kaya continued, "why didn’t those folks you lived with adopt you?"
Vera’s face darkened. "I dunno. I think they just hated me."
"Why?"
"I was troubled, apparently."
"Troubled?"
"I think they meant I kept getting into trouble. Not my fault those kids at school were twats who deserved a punch."
Kaya snorted. "Can’t argue with that."
"But they also said I was unholy,” Vera added, her voice quieter. “And that no one would want me because of that."
"Unholy? What’s that even supposed to mean?"
Vera shrugged, but she could still hear Mr. Humphrey’s voice in her head—low and tight with barely concealed disgust.
You’re marked, child. Sin follows you like a shadow.
It had never made sense, but it had stuck.
Kaya scoffed. "Bollocks. If anyone’s unholy, it’s that Lydia cow."
Vera chuckled, shaking off the memory.
"Ugh, I’m so jealous of you right now," Kaya groaned dramatically. "You get to swan off to some posh castle, while we rot down here in Sutton."
"I promise, Kaya, I wouldn’t trade St. Mary’s for anywhere else."
"That’s ’cause the only other place you’ve lived was a shitty farm. Literally."
"It’s not about where you are. It’s about who’s there."
"Listen to you! Already talking like a snob."
Vera tossed a pillow at her, then turned back to the mirror, adjusting the purple accessories she’d carefully placed in her hair. She spritzed some perfume—borrowed, of course—and took a step back.
"How do I look?"
"Absolutely stunning, Vera. They’re gonna adore you."
"What if they don’t?"
"They will," Kaya said firmly, giving her a gentle shove. "Now, come on! They’ll be here any second."
Vera swiftly grabbed her sketchbook, then followed Kaya downstairs to the living area. The two climbed onto the sofa, pressing their noses against the window as they eagerly scanned the street for any sign of the couple. As they waited, Lydia and her sidekick, Abbie, sauntered into the room.
“Look at this, Abs,” Lydia sneered. “Farm girl thinks she’s something special now that she’s got herself a sponsor.”
Abbie smirked. “Wait till they get a whiff of her. They’ll be out the door before they know it.”
Vera and Kaya did their best to ignore the jabs, staying focused on the street outside. But Lydia wasn’t having it. Annoyed at being ignored, she stepped forward and yanked Vera’s hair, sending her tumbling off the sofa.
"Do you really think they’ll like you?" She hissed, grabbing a fistful of her hair and pulling it so hard Vera could feel strands ripping from her scalp. "With this stupid long hair and your pathetic artsy crap?"
Vera tried to pull away, her voice desperate. "Let go of me!"
But Lydia only tightened her grip. "Why do you get a sponsor, huh? We've been stuck here for years, and you waltz in a month ago and suddenly, you’re the favorite?"
Kaya leaped from the sofa, rushing to help, but Abbie was quicker, grabbing her arm to keep her back.
Lydia finally released Vera’s hair but grabbed her face instead, squeezing her cheeks so tightly Vera could barely move.
"Sponsor or not, you’re just another worthless loser mommy and daddy didn’t want. Don't think that fancy school will change who you are." She leaned in, her tone venomous. "A fucking bastard.”
She gave her face one last vicious squeeze before shoving her to the ground. With a final glance of disdain, she turned and strode out of the room, Abbie following after. Vera stayed on the floor, clutching her scalp, her breath shaky and ragged.
Kaya rushed to her side, her eyes full of worry. "Are you okay?"
She nodded, though tears stung her eyes. She wasn’t sure what hurt more—her throbbing head or the sting of Lydia’s cruel words.
“Yeah, are you?” she asked softly.
“I’m fine,” Kaya replied, her voice trembling with anger. “I’m going to kill them, I swear to God!”
Before Vera could respond, Miss Nelson marched into the room. “What on earth are you doing on the floor, young lady? And why is your hair in such a state?”
“It’s Lyd—” Kaya began, but Vera cut her off quickly.
“I fell,” she blurted, rising to her feet, smoothing down her dress with shaky hands.
“This is no time for foolishness!" Miss Nelson said curtly. "The Smiths will arrive at any moment. Come here.”
As she began to fix the hair, gently smoothing the tangles and adjusting the style, Kaya stood nearby with her arms crossed.
She shot Vera a look that screamed, Why didn’t you tell her the truth? But Vera avoided her gaze. She just wanted to get through the day without more trouble.
“These opportunities, Vera, are rare,” Miss Nelson said quietly as she fussed with her hair. “Do not ruin this for yourself.”
“I promise, Miss Nelson, I’ll behave.”
“You better,” Miss Nelson replied sternly, giving her hair a final pat. “Remember, first impressions are everything.”
A few moments later, the doorbell rang. Miss Nelson smoothed down her long skirt, adjusted her hair, and took a deep breath before opening the door. Vera straightened, her fingers tightening around the sketchbook. She had imagined this moment a hundred different ways—strict, sharp-eyed benefactors, cold handshakes, clipped voices—but nothing prepared her for them.
The couple standing in the doorway looked… unconventional. Their matching outfits were oddly charming, almost theatrical, and despite their polite smiles, they seemed just as nervous as she felt—if not more.
"This is Vera," Miss Nelson said, placing a hand on Vera’s shoulder. "The talented girl you’ve chosen to sponsor."
“Hello, Vera." Mr. Smith said, his smile warm. "It’s a pleasure to meet you!”
He smelled like pumpkin and apples, a strangely comforting scent.
“I’m Dominic,” Mrs. Smith added, “and this is Donald, my… husband.”
Vera couldn’t help but notice the woman’s distinctive hairstyle, which she thought she’d have to share with Kaya later.
“It’s nice to meet you!” She replied, careful to sound polite.
An awkward silence stretched between them, the couple still wearing their peculiar smiles. Vera wasn’t sure if they were expecting her to say more, or if they simply didn’t know what to do next.
Miss Nelson, sensing the tension, quickly stepped in. “Shall we proceed to my office?”
As they climbed, Mrs. Smith stumbled on nearly every other step, and Vera pressed her lips together to stop herself from laughing.
When they reached the office, Miss Nelson offered tea, which the couple accepted graciously. Vera was handed a cup too—just as she liked it, without milk.
“So, shall we begin?” Miss Nelson prompted, settling into her chair with an encouraging smile.
Mr. Smith cleared his throat. “Yes, of course! The school we’ve chosen for you, Vera, is called Leonora College. It has a diverse curriculum, but its true strength lies in fine arts. We thought it would suit you perfectly.”
“That sounds exceptional, doesn’t it, Vera?” Miss Nelson interjected, practically beaming.
Vera nodded, though she wasn’t sure if it was exceptional or too good to be true.
Mrs. Smith leaned forward. “You won’t have to worry about a thing. We’ll handle all expenses, supplies—everything.”
Vera glanced at Miss Nelson, who gave her a proud wink.
Then, Mrs. Smith politely lifted her empty teacup. “Could I have a bit more tea, please?”
“Of course!” Miss Nelson reached for the kettle, but frowned as she lifted it. “That’s odd… I don’t remember us finishing it.”
The couple sat perfectly still, smiling.
Too still.
Too smiling.
Miss Nelson shook her head with a chuckle. “Well, no matter. I’ll just go prepare more. Please, carry on without me.”
She bustled out of the room, kettle in hand. The door clicked shut behind her. And just like that, something changed.
A draft, though no windows were open, sent the papers on her desk fluttering like startled birds. The air felt cooler, lighter, as if the room itself was holding its breath. The Smiths were still smiling, but now that Miss Nelson was gone, those smiles seemed… different.
“So, tell us, Vera,” Dom began, her gaze flicking to the bandages. “What happened to your hands?”
“Oh, I… I burned them on the stove,” Vera said quickly, forcing a casual shrug.
Dom and Donnie exchanged a glance.
Vera swallowed, then swiftly thrust her sketchbook forward. “I thought you might like to see these.”
Donnie took the book, flipping it open. He and Dom then scanned the pages, their expressions shifting between curiosity and something Vera couldn’t quite place. Every now and then, their eyes flicked back to her, assessing.
“These are quite something,” Donnie murmured, pausing on a sketch of a fantastic beast. “Where do you get your inspiration?”
Vera hesitated, absently twirling a loose strand of hair. “Books, sometimes. Or the telly.”
Donnie arched a brow. “You see these on the telly?” He asked, tapping a page where a birdlike creature loomed, feathers bristling with something almost alive.
Vera flushed. “No, that one—I, um, saw it in a dream.”
“Ah... Fascinating.”
Vera resisted the urge to squirm. They think I’m odd, she thought.
But the way Dom studied the drawing, the way Donnie’s fingers hovered over the paper as if feeling for something unseen—it didn’t feel like judgment. It felt like recognition.
The room fell into a heavy silence again as Dom and Donnie exchanged another glance, causing Vera's anxiety to spike.
Finally, Donnie broke the silence. “Vera?”
“Yes, Mr. Smith?”
“There’s something you need to know about us."
"We’re not actually a couple." Dom added.
"Our name isn’t Smith,"
"And we’re not here to send you to an art school.”
Vera’s heart plummeted. “Um, what do you mean?”
Dom and Donnie shared smirks, their eyes meeting before they turned their attention back to her.
“My name is Donnie, and this is my sister, Dom. And we’re not here to sponsor you.”
“We’re here because you’re special."
"And Because of what you did last month.”
Vera’s mind raced. Last month? Did they mean the pantry incident? Her heartbeat roared in her ears, the walls felt too close, her hands balled into fists as panic took over. And before she could stop it, the tears came.
“I’m sorry..." She gasped, her body trembling. "I’m sorry!”
Dom and Donnie froze. They exchanged confused glances, unsure of what had triggered her distress.
“What did you do?” Dom demanded, jabbing her brother with her elbow.
“Ouch!” Donnie exclaimed, rubbing his arm. “I didn’t do anything!”
“Why is she crying then?”
“How would I bloody know?”
Vera’s sobs only grew worse, her shoulders shaking as she buried her face in her arms. “I won’t do it again,” she choked out. “I promise.”
Donnie’s eyes widened in alarm. “Vera, it’s okay! Please, stop crying!”
Dom softened, scooting closer and wrapping an arm around her. “Hey, hey,” she murmured, voice gentler than before. “Why are you crying, dear? Let’s take a breath, yeah?”
Vera swallowed a sob. “Are you… are you going to lock me up?”
“What? No! Of course not! Why would you think that?”
“Because… Because I’m not normal.”
“Oh, Vera... Just because you’re different doesn’t mean you’re not normal.”
Donnie watched in mild astonishment. His sister wasn’t exactly known for tenderness, but here she was, cradling a trembling child like she actually meant it.
Vera’s sobs refused to subside, her chest tight with panic. Donnie shifted uncomfortably, glancing at Dom, who only raised an eyebrow as if to say, Fix it.
He sighed, running a hand through his hair before crouching beside Vera. “Hey, listen,” he said gently. “We’re different too.”
Vera sniffled, eyes still swimming with tears. “What?”
“Dom and I—we’re special, just like you.”
She tensed at his words, uncertainty flickering in her gaze, and Donnie could see she wasn’t buying it.
“Look over there,” he said, nodding toward Miss Nelson’s desk. “See that statue?”
Vera followed his gaze to a small figurine of the Blessed Virgin Mary, clad in a flowing light blue robe, cradling baby Jesus in her arms.
She sniffled. “Saint Mary?”
“Um, yeah, that’s the one. Watch this."
Vera focused on the statue, her confusion mounting as she wondered what he intended to show her. But she barely had time to question him before it began to move.
“Blimey…” she gasped, her body tensing with awe and fear.
The Virgin Mary swayed gently, cradling baby Jesus in her arms and tenderly kissing his forehead. Her robe seemed to ripple as if caught in a breeze, and the baby’s eyes blinked softly.
The room was filled with an otherworldly glow as the miraculous scene unfolded before her. A serene hush settled over the space, and a subtle warmth emanated from the statue, creating a comforting atmosphere.
Vera watched, spellbound, her breath shallow.
“How… How did that happen?” she whispered, barely trusting her own voice.
“I made it happen,” Donnie said softly. “With magic.”
Her gaze snapped to him, but she couldn’t form words. Her mind was still reeling, stuck between disbelief and the undeniable truth she had just witnessed.
“Magic…” she murmured, eyes drifting back to the Virgin Mary, who had stilled once more. “Magic is real?”
“Of course it is,” Dom said, giving her a hearty pat on the back. “And you, my dear, are a witch.”
The word settled in her chest, unfamiliar yet… oddly fitting.
Witch.
Dom picked up her sketchbook, flipping through the pages with keen interest.
“These creatures you’ve drawn?” she said. “They’re all real.”
Vera’s mouth parted in astonishment. “Even unicorns?”
“Even unicorns,” Dom confirmed with a grin. “I knew a bloke who had one. Named it Steve.”
Vera blinked. “Steve?”
“Yeah. Stupidest name for a unicorn, I know. But hey, he liked it.”
Vera shook her head, a startled laugh bubbling up despite herself. Everything felt surreal. Too bizarre to be true, yet too wonderful to doubt.
Donnie leaned forward, his voice warm. “We work for the Ministry of Magic, Vera. We were sent to find you.”
“There’s a ministry for it?” she asked, her brows shooting up.
“Of course, darling,” he said with a wink. “There’s an entire world out there—one you belong to. Just like your parents did.”
Vera’s expression shifted to one of stunned disbelief.
"You know who my parents are?" she asked.
Dom and Donnie exchanged a look. For a moment, neither spoke, but then Donnie gave Dom a small nod.
"Yes, dear," she said softly. "We do."
Vera felt the world tilt. Her whole life, her parents had been a mystery, a locked door with no key. And now—just like that—someone had the answer? She pinched herself, trying to ground herself in reality.
"Where are they?" she asked quickly, hope surging in her chest. "Are they—are they looking for me?"
The siblings remained silent, their faces drawn with sympathy. The hope inside her flickered, and she already knew the answer before they even said it.
"They’re gone, aren’t they?" she murmured, her voice hollow.
Dom reached out, gently brushing a hand against her cheek. "I’m afraid so, darling."
She had told herself this for years—prepared herself for it. But it had always been a possibility, a distant maybe.
Now it was fact.
Still, in the ache of the moment, she clung to a single thought: They didn’t leave me. Fate had taken them, not indifference. And that was something, at least.
"What about the rest of my family?" she asked, grasping onto a sliver of hope. "My grandparents? Do I have brothers or sisters? What about my uncles? My aunts? Are they magical too? Do they... do they know I’m here?"
Silence.
A terrible, suffocating silence.
Dom shifted uncomfortably, while Donnie looked away.
Vera’s heart pounded. "I don’t understand," she pressed, a deep frown creasing her forehead. "They don’t know I'm here?"
More silence. And then, realization dawned.
"So they do know." Her voice dropped, sharpening with betrayal. "But they don’t want me."
"It’s complicated, dear," Dom tried, her tone gentle.
"Right," Vera muttered, her fists clenching.
Her whole body felt hot—whether from grief or fury, she wasn’t sure. She had always suspected she was alone in the world. Now, she knew. And yet… something inside her refused to break. She straightened, her mind latching onto the only truth that mattered. I’m a witch. A bloody witch.
She let out a slow breath, grounding herself in this newfound truth. Then, after a pause, she tilted her head. "So… you're not sending me to an art school?"
Dom and Donnie exchanged grins, the heaviness in the air finally lifting.
"Even better," Dom said, eyes twinkling. "You're going to Hogwarts."
Vera blinked. "What’s that?"
Donnie gasped. "Only the best school for witchcraft and wizardry in the entire world!"
"A MAGICAL SCHOOL?"
"Yes, dear," Dom chuckled. "And you’ll learn all about magic while you're there."
A thrill shot through Vera. Just minutes ago, she had been drowning in grief, but now—now there was something bright, something extraordinary waiting for her.
"I know you have a lot of questions, darling,” Dom said. “And we will answer them all later. But right now, there's one important thing you have to know."
Vera leaned forward. "What is it?"
"No one can know. Not Miss Nelson. Not your friends. No one. Do you understand?"
Vera nodded, grappling with the weight of the secret, the realization that she couldn't share this with Kaya weighing heavily on her.
"Now we can't say anything more because Miss Nelson is about to come. But soon, we will take you to the Wizarding world, where you can learn all about your home.”
“I won’t tell anyone.” She promised, and Donnie teasingly winked at her.
Just then, the door swung open, and Miss Nelson bustled in, balancing a tray.
"My apologies for the delay," she said, shutting the door with her elbow. "It’s the strangest thing! I couldn’t find any tea, and the water unexpectedly cut off!"
Dom and Donnie exchanged an innocent glance, while Vera had to bite back a grin.
Chapter 5: Eleven
Summary:
On her eleventh birthday, Vera is swept into Diagon Alley’s chaos of goblins, magical makeup, kind strangers, and a wand tied to her father’s past.
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Wednesday, August 23, 1989
Dom and Donnie had somehow convinced Miss Nelson to accompany Vera for what seemed like a routine school supply shopping trip. But their real destination was far from any ordinary store.
To mark her first foray into the wizarding world, the siblings were taking her to none other than Diagon Alley. The day held even more significance for Vera, as it was also her—
“WAKE UP, BIRTHDAY GIRL!”
Kaya’s voice boomed like a foghorn, rattling the walls and Vera’s half-dreams alike. She stood at the foot of the bed, triumphant, wielding a plate stacked with pancakes shaped into a crooked 11.
“They probably taste like rubbish,” she said, “but admit it—my knife work deserves applause.”
Vera’s chest tightened with a warmth she didn’t quite recognize. No one had ever made a fuss over her birthday before. It felt strange, yet brilliant.
“Kaya, this is mint! I don’t even know how to thank you!”
“Please. Friends don’t do thank-yous, you daft cow.”
With a smirk, Vera speared a piece and popped it in her mouth—then cheekily offered Kaya a bite.
“Not half bad,” Kaya said around a mouthful. “Might open a bakery."
Before Vera could reply, Miss Nelson appeared in the doorway like a queen entering court.
“Vera, darling, the Smiths will be here shortly. Do try to look presentable.”
“Yes, Miss Nelson,” Vera said, still beaming through the pancake chaos.
“Oh, and—” Miss Nelson’s tone softened as she pulled out a violet-wrapped package from behind her back. “A very happy birthday, my dear.”
Vera froze, then carefully unwrapped the gift. Inside was a purple shoulder bag, studded with cheerful buttons that chirped: Never Give Up. Be You. You Got This.
She just stared, throat tight, before managing a whisper. “Thank you.”
Miss Nelson’s smile softened, and gave her a gentle pat. “You’re welcome, darling. Now off you go—birthday girls mustn’t keep the world waiting.”
Vera had never felt this way before—like she truly belonged. The warmth of friendship, the unexpected kindness, the quiet reassurance that she wasn’t alone in the world—it settled deep in her bones. And today, of all days, she had no time to dwell on disbelief. She had an adventure to prepare for.
Of course, Miss Nelson and the others believed this was just a routine trip for school supplies—textbooks, art materials, maybe a new sketchpad. But Vera knew better. Today wasn’t about mundane stationery.
Today was about magic.
Determined to look the part for her first steps into the wizarding world, she dressed carefully. A borrowed black skirt from Kaya, a crisp maroon shirt, and to tie it all together, an oversized denim jacket from Grace. It hung off her small frame like a child playing dress-up. Grace was five years older, after all.
Before heading downstairs, she wrapped her bruised and swollen fingertips in bandages. She didn’t need anyone questioning them today.
Eagerly waiting by the door, she could barely contain her excitement. Thoughts raced through her mind, filled with a swirl of unanswered questions since her last encounter with Dom and Donnie.
When the siblings finally appeared, they wore outfits almost identical to the last time she’d seen them—only the colors had changed. She couldn’t help but wonder if the outfits themselves were enchanted, their hues magically altered while everything else remained the same. The possibilities seemed endless now that she had accepted the reality of magic.
As they walked together down the street, her thoughts buzzed with anticipation. How would they transport her to the wizarding world? Was there a secret entrance somewhere? An underground tunnel? Maybe they’d fly through the air on enchanted broomsticks?
Her heart raced at the thought. But confusion soon set in as they suddenly stopped.
In front of… another house?
“We’re here,” Donnie announced, marching up to the front door and giving it a firm knock.
Vera, still trying to figure out why this house was the gateway to the magical world, wisely kept quiet.
The door swung open.
“Hello, I’m Don—”
The door slammed shut.
He let out a long, suffering sigh and turned to Dom, who responded with an equally exasperated eye roll.
Without missing a beat, she knocked again, her patience clearly dangling by a thread. This time, the door inched open, revealing an elderly woman sporting an oversized hat, topped with what appeared to be.... dead mice.
“We’re from the Ministry of Magic, Mrs. Wriggleshore,” Dom said quickly before the door could be weaponized against them again. “We sent you a letter yesterday.”
Mrs. Wriggleshore squinted at them. “Then why are you dressed like bloody Muggles?”
“It’s part of our job, ma’am,” Dom replied through clenched teeth.
Vera, confused, leaned toward Donnie. “Muggles?”
“Non-magical people,” he whispered back. “Like your matron and friends.”
Mrs. Wriggleshore let out an over-the-top sigh and stepped aside. “Well, don’t just stand there like lost puppies—come in.”
Inside, chaos reigned.
The house was essentially a feline-run government, with cats of every shape and size darting through rooms, leaping off furniture, and knocking over precarious towers of newspapers. It smelled like old books, tea, and a suspicious hint of burnt toast.
As Vera cautiously stepped inside, her gaze landed on a bizarre display near the kitchen—an entire wall covered in clocks.
Each one ticked in eerie unison, creating a hypnotic rhythm that felt one dramatic moment away from opening a portal to another dimension. Among the sea of timepieces, a framed photograph stood out—a young man with honey-brown hair, piercing blue eyes, and a crisp beige suit. His red tie was perfectly knotted, and his faint, enigmatic smile was straight out of the Mona Lisa playbook.
Vera found herself staring, inexplicably drawn to his face, until Mrs. Wriggleshore casually plucked one of the dead mice from her hat and lobbed it onto a worn-out couch. Immediately, the cats exploded into action, launching themselves at the unfortunate rodent.
Vera jumped back. “Did she just—”
“Don’t ask,” Donnie murmured, grabbing her arm.
With the path now mercifully clear, Mrs. Wriggleshore shuffled toward the fireplace, waving for them to follow.
"I knew it the moment I laid eyes on her," she said, her voice as creaky as the floorboards beneath them. "She's got their distinct features. How unfortunate."
She squinted at Vera, looking her up and down like she was inspecting a particularly questionable fruit at the market. "Good thing she was raised by Muggles. A fine way to humble her lot."
Vera bristled. Her lot? What was that supposed to mean?
But before she could even begin to unpack the potential insult, a far more pressing realization hit her: Mrs. Wriggleshore wasn’t just the strange old neighbor who collected newspapers and smelled vaguely of mothballs—she was definitely a witch. And suddenly, all her oddities clicked into place.
One question, however, remained: why were they here?
The old woman then unscrewed a jar's lid and held it with a gruff reluctance. "Funny how the Ministry only remembers I exist when they need something from me."
"You will be compensated for your troubles, ma’am," Donnie assured her.
"I’ll believe it when I see it."
Meanwhile, Dom straightened up. "Proceed without me. I'll Apparate back."
Donnie turned to her. "You're not coming with us?"
She gestured at her head with mild disgust. "Do you truly expect me to stroll through Diagon Alley looking like this?"
"You look perfectly fine."
She shot him an unimpressed glance. "I'll meet you in the office, Donald."
"Excuse my sister, Vera. She doesn’t like shopping... or people... or anything, really."
"Ha ha, hilarious," Dom deadpanned. But then, to Donnie’s surprise, her expression softened.
She crouched down to Vera’s eye level, her voice dropping to something almost... warm. "Take care of my brother, will you? And make sure he doesn’t buy anything ridiculous."
Donnie gawked. "Who are you, and what have you done with my sister?"
Dom ignored him, handing over her brown leather shoulder bag before turning toward the door. With one last glance at Vera, she gave a small nod and stepped outside.
Vera rushed to the window just in time to see Dom vanish into thin air, leaving behind only the faintest shimmer of golden dust.
"Bloody hell," she whispered, her heart pounding.
Shaken from her amazement, she turned back to Donnie, who was already preparing her for their own highly questionable mode of transportation.
"Alright, listen up," he began, holding up a small container. "This is Floo Powder. It’s what we’ll use to travel to Diagon Alley. You go first, and I’ll follow right after. Simple, yeah?"
Vera eyed the powder warily. "Will it hurt?"
"Not at all, dear," he assured her with a smile. "Just step in, toss the powder, and say Diagon Alley clearly. Oh, and make sure to step out when you see a warm orange light—very important."
Vera’s stomach churned. This all sounded suspiciously like something a wizard might say right before a minor "Oops, we accidentally turned you into a goat!" situation. But Donnie’s calm confidence was oddly comforting, so she took a deep breath and stepped into the fireplace.
She grabbed a handful of powder, squeezed her eyes shut, and tossed it at her feet. "Diagon Alley!"
The moment the words left her mouth, she was yanked into a whirlwind of motion. Her body spun like a sock in a washing machine, flickering past countless fireplaces at a speed that felt deeply illegal. Blurs of furniture, startled wizards, and what she swore was a chicken all zipped past her.
Do not vomit. Do not vomit. Do not vomit.
Then—just as panic began setting in—she spotted it: the warm orange glow Donnie had mentioned. Summoning what little grace she had left, she lunged toward the light and prayed.
A second later, she stumbled out of the fireplace, landing in a cozy living room. A couple of people sat nearby, sipping tea, staring at her like she’d just teleported into their home unannounced.
Her eyes widened in fear. "Oh, sh—"
But before she could finish, the fireplace roared to life again, and Donnie stepped out.
He brushed some soot off his jacket, adjusted his bag, and glanced down at her. "Are you alright?"
"Yeah, totally fine," she said, though her legs wobbled as she stood. "Thought I might’ve ended up in a stranger’s house."
He chuckled. "Don't worry. This is a charming little inn right here in Diagon Alley. My friend owns it."
As if on cue, a voice bellowed across the room.
"DONNIE!"
Vera turned just in time to see a lanky man with an impressive mustache—so large it looked like it had its own postal address—striding toward them.
"BIRDY!" Donnie shouted back with equal enthusiasm before the two men embraced like long-lost brothers in a dramatic display of camaraderie.
"Oi, are you coming to the Quidditch match on Sunday?" Birdy asked, pulling back.
"You know I wouldn’t miss it for anything!"
"What’s with the new hair, though? You look like a chunkier version of that Muggle singer—you know, the one with the fancy footwork."
Vera squinted. Does he mean Michael Jackson?
"I look good, eh?" Donnie smirked. "Might just keep it."
Birdy cackled before his eyes landed on Vera, still standing awkwardly nearby. "And who’s this?"
Donnie, clearly in no mood for lengthy explanations, cleared his throat. "Ministry duty, Birdy. No time for chit-chat."
He clapped his friend on the shoulder, already inching toward the exit. "But I’ll see you on Sunday, eh?"
Birdy grinned. "Yeah, yeah, get outta here."
As they stepped out of the inn and onto the bustling streets of Diagon Alley, Vera came to a dead stop, her brain short-circuiting from sensory overload.
Everywhere she looked, something new and utterly bizarre demanded her attention—robed witches and wizards chatting animatedly, men casually flying on broomsticks like it was no big deal, and shop windows displaying everything from enchanted books to self-stirring cauldrons.The air smelled like a mix of fresh bread, cinnamon, and something distinctly pumpkin-y.
It was, in a word, insane.
"Alright, first things first," Donnie said, snapping her out of her daze. "We need to visit the bank and arrange a loan for you."
"A loan?" she repeated, her wonder instantly replaced by confusion.
He crouched slightly to meet her eyes, his tone gentle but firm. "Here's the situation: Hogwarts is free, but you still need to buy your school supplies. Since you don't have any family who can cover the costs right now, the Ministry worked out a deal with the bank to get you a loan. And let me tell you, negotiating with those goblins was not fun."
Did he just say goblins?
Before she could question that particular detail, Donnie was already leading her down the street toward an imposing white building that towered over the rest of Diagon Alley. She had never been inside a Muggle bank before, but she was pretty sure this wasn’t what it would look like.
Massive marble pillars framed the entrance, and the whole place radiated the kind of we have all your money and your soul energy that made her stomach twist.
The moment they stepped inside, her awe dialed up another notch. Everything was gleaming, expensive-looking, and intimidating as hell. But what really caught her attention were the creatures behind the counters.
Goblins. Actual, real goblins.
Sharp features, sharper suits, and expressions that screamed, Try me, I dare you.
She and Donnie joined the queue leading to the loans office, where the tension in the air was thick enough to cut with a cursed dagger. Suddenly, a woman burst out of the office, her face streaked with tears, clutching a piece of parchment like it had ruined her life.
Donnie exhaled through his nose. "Tough luck," he muttered, though his voice held a trace of sympathy.
Before Vera could react, the line moved forward, and they were soon seated in front of a particularly stern-looking goblin who peered at them over a pair of tiny, wire-rimmed spectacles.
"We’re inquiring about a loan," Donnie said. "For young Vera here."
The goblin’s expression soured. “Are you daft? We don’t give loans to children.”
Without missing a beat, Donnie produced a parchment from his bag and slid it across the desk. The goblin sighed before snatching it up and scanning the contents.
“Oh,” he said, his tone doing a complete 180.
His beady eyes darted back to Vera, now looking her over with something resembling… respect?
“Apologies, Miss. Had I known who you were, I wouldn’t have been so—” He cleared his throat. “I’ll see to it that your loan is processed immediately.”
Vera blinked. Who am I?
She glanced at Donnie, but he only shot her a smug little wink.
Without another word, the goblin disappeared through a door that hadn't been there a second ago. Vera was still reeling from the weirdness of it all when Donnie casually pulled an extremely large cookie from his bag and handed it to her.
She took a hesitant bite—and immediately, her taste buds threw a parade. “Oh my God, this is mint! What is it?”
“It’s a Koink,” he said through a mouthful of his own. “Pumpkin dough, apple sauce filling. Ministry break-room staple.”
She frowned at the half-eaten cookie in her hand. This was just a snack? It tasted like it had been baked by fairies. Possibly drunk fairies, but still.
Before she could pry further into the magical secrets of superior cookie-making, the goblin returned, holding a small, rather serious-looking coin purse. He settled back into his seat, and with a rustle of parchment, an official-looking contract appeared on the desk.
Vera took the quill he offered, eyeing it warily before dipping it into the inkwell and signing her name. The moment the ink dried, the goblin handed over the money, signaling that their business was done.
With the purse in hand, Vera and Donnie stepped out into the lively street of Diagon Alley, ready for their shopping adventure. But before they could make another move, Donnie suddenly stopped, giving her a grin that was all charm and reassurance.
"Don’t sweat the loan," he said with a wave of his hand. "You’ve got ages to pay it back. And if you ever find yourself needing more, we’ll just waltz back here and grab another one."
She nodded, still feeling like she was in a whirlwind of wizarding chaos, but grateful for his calming presence.
"But before we go," he said, digging through his bag, "there’s one more thing you need."
He pulled out a letter—perfectly ordinary, except for the elegant emerald green ink spelling out her name and the crimson wax seal that seemed to scream official.
"Normally, this would get delivered to your house, but, you know, the whole Muggles situation and all... so I had it sent to the office."
Vera gingerly peeled the wax seal off with her bandaged fingers, feeling like she was handling something important—because, well, she was.
Inside the envelope, she found a beautifully crafted parchment, and for the first time since arriving in the wizarding world, her heart did a little happy flip.
Donnie sighed with nostalgia. "I remember when I got mine. It was the highlight of my entire life. And I do mean entire life."
Vera’s eyes sparkled as she read through the letter, the excitement building with every line. It was all real. She was going to Hogwarts. It was finally sinking in.
“There’s a list of items we need to get,” Donnie said, checking a small piece of parchment. “But first, we need to get you a suitcase."
She nodded eagerly, ready to dive into the magical shopping experience that awaited her. As they strolled down the bustling street, her focus shifted between the list of supplies and the lively surroundings. Donnie, meanwhile, greeted nearly everyone they passed with friendly waves and handshakes.
“He knows everyone,” she murmured to herself, impressed.
Their initial destination led them to a quaint luggage boutique. Donnie assumed the task of selecting a suitcase for her, while her attention drifted to the neighboring shop across the alley.
Distinguished by its light purple facade and vibrant display, the small shop beckoned to her curiosity. A petite, ivory pink sign delicately hangs beside its entrance, bearing the inscription:
Lucy's
Exiting the luggage boutique, she found herself drawn to the captivating allure of the establishment. Upon pushing the door open, a delightful bell chimed, announcing her arrival.
Behind the counter stood a boy, slightly older than her, with dark hair and piercing bright blue eyes.
Yet, Vera remained oblivious to his presence, captivated instead by the enchanting array before her—makeup, magical makeup.
As she perused the enchanting offerings, her gaze alighted upon a spectrum of cosmetics that seemed plucked from the realm of fantasy. Gleaming lipsticks shimmered with iridescence. Magical eyeshadows adorned the shelves, crafted in the shape of lunar phases, their hues evoking the mysteries of the night sky.
Perfumes whispered to expel negative energies and evoke feelings of serenity. Delicate jars of fairy dust sparkled with ethereal light. And vials of mermaid scales for eternal youth.
Her eyes widened in awe as she took in the enchanting assortment, each item more mesmerizing than the last. The magical makeup seemed like it had been conjured straight from a dream, adding a sense of wonder to her already extraordinary day.
"Hello, love. Are you all alone?"
The question drifted toward her like a gentle breeze, stirring her from her enchanted daze.
She turned, eyes wide with wonder, to find a woman whose presence felt like stepping into a dream.
The woman's brown curls tumbled down her back like waves, shimmering in the soft light, and her flowing red dress, alive with rich hues and adorned with an array of curious trinkets, seemed to dance with her every move. A delicate feather rested in her hair, giving her the appearance of a creature from a far-off fantasy.
Vera nodded, unable to suppress the smile creeping across her lips.
The woman’s gaze fell on the shimmering lipstick in her hand, and her eyes sparkled with understanding.
"Ah," she said, her voice like a soft melody, "Is that the one that’s captured your heart? It’s quite special, you know."
"What does it do?"
"It changes with you," the woman explained, "mirroring the colors of your soul."
Vera’s breath caught, her eyes widening with wonder.
"Would you like to keep it?" the woman asked.
Vera hesitated. "I-I don’t have any money," she stammered, her voice small.
But the woman waved it away with a graceful flick of her hand. "Oh, darling," she said, her voice soft and reassuring. "It’s a gift. Yours to keep."
Gratitude flooded Vera's heart, the moment so pure and unexpected that it felt like a dream she never wanted to end.
Just as she opened her mouth to thank the woman, a sharp rap at the window pierced through the magic.
Donnie stood outside, his face shadowed with anger, beckoning her to leave with an urgent wave. The dream faltered, and she reluctantly placed the lipstick back into the woman’s hands, her heart heavy with longing.
"Don’t worry, dear," the woman whispered, her smile as gentle as the first light of dawn. "You can always come back. We will be here, waiting for you."
With one last look at the whimsical shop, where every corner seemed to hum with magic, Vera stepped outside.
Donnie’s scowl met her, harsh and cold. "WHERE DID YOU GO!" his voice thundered, pulling her sharply back to reality.
His words were heavy with frustration, scolding her for wandering off. But as he grabbed her arm and began pulling her away, her gaze kept drifting back to the shop—to the woman who had touched her heart in such a fleeting but unforgettable way.
"You nearly gave me a heart attack," he huffed, still shaken. "I thought I’d lost you."
"Sorry..." she mumbled, rubbing the back of her neck. “Did you manage to buy the suitcase?”
"Yes," he grumbled, his tone softening a little. "They’ll send it to my office once it’s been carved."
"Carved?"
"Come on now," he urged, brushing aside her curiosity. "We’ve still got plenty more to buy."
They made their way to Madam Malkin’s, and after a thorough fitting session, the seamstress brought out a pristine Hogwarts uniform from the storeroom. Their next stop was the apothecary to acquire potion ingredients. Lost in reviewing their list, Vera inadvertently collided with someone while entering.
"Sorry," came a soft, gentle voice.
Startled, she looked up, her breath catching as she came face-to-face with a boy.
He was tall, with broad shoulders, and an impeccably styled brownish hair, evoking the timeless charm of a 1950s movie star. His eyes were captivating brown, though they were framed by dark circles, as if he had carried the weight of sleepless nights for years.
Their eyes met for what felt like longer than a moment, before he offered a charming smile and gracefully exited the shop. Vera stood there, unable to pull her gaze away as he vanished into the crowd outside.
"Vera!" Donnie called from inside.
She shook her head, then entered the shop, where she was instantly enveloped by the rich medley of scents—earthy herbs, sharp spices, and the faint tang of potions bubbling in the back.
For a moment, it was overwhelming, but soon her curiosity took over. She wandered among the shelves, her fingers grazing the jars and vials, eyes scanning each label as she tried to commit their names to memory.
A sense of excitement bubbled within her—was this what she would be learning at Hogwarts?
Meanwhile, Donnie struck up a conversation with the shopkeeper, who sat casually behind the counter, half-hidden by a large newspaper.
"Anything noteworthy happening, Timmy?"
"The usual affairs," Timmy replied, lowering the newspaper to meet his gaze. "Blackwood’s stirring the pot again."
Donnie raised an eyebrow. "What’s he on about this time?"
"Criticizing the candidates for the new Minister position. Says none of them will uphold Bagnold’s standards."
"Is he entirely wrong though?"
"Ah, it's Blackwood," Timmy waved it off. "He’d criticize his own mother if given the chance. I say we give some of these new candidates a shot. Fudge seems reasonable enough."
Donnie shook his head. "I respectfully disagree. Fudge is the weakest candidate by far."
"You don't want the old establishment holding all the power again, do you?"
"As if they won't through Fudge? He’s just a puppet, you know."
"Come on, mate, give the man a chance. Maybe things will work out." With a good-natured sigh, he then folded the paper. "Now, what can I get you?"
Once they existed the apothecary, Vera carefully scanned the list once more, checking off items as she went. She hadn’t expected the shopping trip to take so long, but Donnie’s friendly nature slowed their pace.
He paused for casual conversations in nearly every shop and couldn’t resist picking up random trinkets along the way.
"Just your wand left." He remarked as they walked along the bustling street.
The mention of the wand made Vera’s stomach twist in nervous anticipation. Donnie had explained the importance of it, and that she’d need to find the one that was meant for her. They soon arrived at Ollivander's, the quiet shop filled with shelves upon shelves of dusty wand boxes.
"Mr. Ollivander!" Donnie called out, his voice echoing in the stillness.
A soft voice responded from the back, and an elderly man with pale, piercing eyes emerged from the shadows. "Ah, a wand for the young one, is it?"
"Indeed, sir," Donnie replied with a polite nod.
Ollivander examined Vera closely before retrieving several boxes.
"The wand chooses the wizard," he said softly, handing her the first one. "Try it."
Vera glanced nervously at Donnie, unsure of what to do.
He placed his hand gently on her shoulder. "Remember when I made that statue move the day we met?"
"Yeah..."
"Well, I did that with my wand," he explained. "All you have to do is wave it at something, and the magic will flow by itself, okay, darling?"
She nodded, gripping the wand firmly, trying to focus. If it was indeed as Donnie explained, then it seemed simpler than she had imagined.
“Remember,” Ollivander said, "You’ve got to be gentle, yet firm."
With the wand in hand, she aimed at a nearby box, willing it to open.
But nothing happened.
"It’s alright," Ollivander reassured her with a calm smile. "Let’s try another."
One by one, she tried wand after wand, but nothing responded. Each failure chipped away at her confidence, and Ollivander’s expression grew more serious.
Sensing her frustration, Donnie leaned in. "It’ll be alright, dear. The right one’s here somewhere."
Still, as the process dragged on, a tension hung in the air, and Donnie, catching on, turned to Ollivander with concern etched across his face.
"Mr. Ollivander, could I have a word with you?" he asked quietly.
The two stepped away, moving deeper into the shop, their hushed conversation hidden from Vera's ears. She watched them closely, noting how Mr. Ollivander shook his head, his expression a mix of concern and contemplation. Whatever they were discussing didn’t seem reassuring, and her heart began to race.
After a few tense moments, he turned back to her, a gentle smile tugging at the corners of his lips. "Do not worry. I have an idea."
He climbed up a towering ladder, disappearing into the shadows of the upper shelves. Vera’s anxiety grew as she waited, her eyes following his every move. After what felt like an eternity, he returned, holding a small, worn box.
"Your father had a similar one," he said softly, his pale eyes locking onto hers. "I believe it will work for you. Cypress wood with a phoenix feather core—very flexible."
But instead of offering her the wand to try, he carefully packaged it up and handed it directly to Donnie.
"I trust it will serve her well," he said, a quiet finality in his voice.
Donnie nodded. "Thank you, Mr. Ollivander."
As they stepped out of the shop, Vera’s mind whirled with a storm of unanswered questions, her thoughts fixated on the mention of her father.
Donnie, however, effortlessly shifted their focus to lunch.
“How about a chicken sandwich?” he suggested, a twinkle of enthusiasm in his eyes. “I know a great place that also has hookahs.”
“Donnie, can I ask you something?”
“Sure, shoot."
“What happened to my father?”
He paused, a flicker of unease crossing his face. He shifted uncomfortably, his silence betraying his reluctance to dive into the topic.
“Mr. Ollivander mentioned my father,” she continued. “He gave me a wand similar to his. So, he must know him as well?”
“Yes, that’s right,” Donnie said with a heavy sigh.
“so, what exactly happened to him?”
“It’s... a bit complicated, dear.”
“And what about my mum?”
Donnie’s discomfort grew, a nervous edge to his voice as he raked a hand through his hair.
“I don’t know much about her, Vera,” he admitted. “But I do know she wasn’t from here.”
“Where was she from?”
“Um… Another country,” he said cautiously, choosing his words carefully. “I’m afraid I can’t give you many details.”
He watched as she absorbed the gravity of the conversation, her mind clearly wrestling with the weight of his words.
"Vera," he began, "you're a remarkable girl, and your parents undoubtedly loved you. However, the wizarding world faced its share of challenges, and not everyone… survived them. It's a complicated story with many perspectives, but I want you to understand one thing, okay?”
“What is it?”
“Don't blindly accept what others say about your family. Seek the truth on your own terms and form your own judgments. At Hogwarts, you might encounter students saying odd things; do your best to ignore them, and if anyone bothers you, don't hesitate to write to me. Understand?"
She nodded slowly, trying to process the depth of his advice.
"I'll escort you back to Mrs. Wriggleshore's now. But I'll keep everything in my possession, alright? I can't send you home with dried sage and dead worms. I'll have everything neatly packed in the suitcase we ordered, ready for the Hogwarts Express next week."
“Okay, thank you, Donnie,” she said gratefully, handing him the remaining items.
“You’re very welcome,” he replied with a warm smile.
As he began to carefully organize the items he was carrying, his eyes suddenly lit up. “Oh, I almost forgot!”
He reached into his bag and pulled out a colorful painting set—a bundle of crayons, pencils, a sketchbook, brushes, tubes of oil and water paints, and a small white canvas.
“Happy birthday!”
Notes:
Next stop: HOGWARTS!
Do you think Vera met the love of her life today?
Chapter 6: Welcome to Hogwarts
Summary:
Vera leaves London behind, stepping into Hogwarts with more nerves than wonder. Her first attempts at friendship stumble, though a few kind faces give her hope. But when the Sorting Hat calls her name, the Great Hall falls silent, and in an instant, she goes from being an invisible newcomer to someone everyone seems to hate.
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Friday, September 1, 1989
Part one: The Train Ride
In Vera’s final week at St. Mary’s before Hogwarts, she packed her days with laughter, late-night chats, and a few too many bruises from street football.
She painted on the rooftop as the city hummed below, soaking in the moments before everything changed. Diagon Alley had been a whirlwind of magic and marvels, but Donnie’s thoughtful gift remained her most treasured.
Still, it wasn’t the only act of kindness.
Knowing her wardrobe was more "bare necessity" than "school-ready," the older girls at St. Mary’s generously shared their clothes for the months ahead. They also made her beautifully decorated farewell cards, while the little ones—too young to write—poured their love into wobbly, crayon-colored drawings.
For the first time in her life, she felt truly cared for. The warmth of her St. Mary’s family filled her with hope, but beneath it all, a quiet ache lingered. London was home. Leaving it, and especially her best friend, wasn’t easy.
"You’re not gonna forget about us when you’re off with all those posh lot, are you?" Kaya asked, dramatically pouting as she helped her pack.
"Not a chance," Vera said. "I doubt they’ll even like me."
"What are you on about? They’ll love you."
"They’ll probably think I’m just some townie."
"And you’re not?"
"Shut it!" Vera laughed, flinging a shirt at her.
Kaya caught it with a smirk. "Well, if any of them give you trouble, don’t hesitate to punch them right in their posh faces."
"Trust me, I won’t."
Kaya exhaled, flopping onto the bed. "Blimey, Vera. I can’t believe you’re actually leaving."
"You were the one who convinced me to go!"
"Yeah, but I didn’t think it would actually happen. I’m gonna miss you."
"Oh, look at you, getting all soft," Vera teased, tucking her painting set into her suitcase.
"I’m serious! Call me EVERY DAY, or I swear I’ll kill you when you come back."
"Alright, alright, I will," Vera grinned, snapping her suitcase shut.
"Promise?"
"I promise."
Kaya pulled her into a tight hug, squeezing like she never wanted to let go.
At first, the warmth of it felt almost foreign. Vera had never been one for long embraces, but as she allowed herself to sink into it, guilt crept in. She hated lying to Kaya, to someone who meant so much to her. But the wizarding world had its rules, and she had no choice but to follow them.
They were still wrapped in each other’s arms when Miss Nelson entered, checking her watch with a patient smile. "Are you ready, dear?"
Vera pulled back, forcing a steady breath. "Yes, Miss. All set."
"I’ll be downstairs waiting. Don’t be late. The train leaves at half past ten."
As Miss Nelson exited, Kaya let out a long sigh. "So this is it, then?"
"I’ll be back before you know it. Christmas isn’t far off."
Kaya reached into her pocket. "I’ve got something for you."
She pulled out two identical bracelets, each adorned with a charm shaped like half a heart. With a small smile, she fastened one around her own wrist and handed the other to Vera.
"Watch this," she said, clicking the two halves together.
They snapped into place, forming a whole heart.
"My heart won’t feel whole again until I’m with you," Kaya murmured.
A lump formed in Vera’s throat. She blinked rapidly, but the tears came anyway, hot and stinging. Wordlessly, she threw her arms around Kaya one last time. Then, before she could second-guess herself, she grabbed her suitcase and headed downstairs.
The other girls had gathered at the entrance, showering her with hugs, well-wishes, and teasing farewells. And before she knew it, she was walking down the street, stealing glances back at St. Mary’s, and at Kaya, who stood by the door, waving her goodbye.
They took the bus from Sutton to London, Miss Nelson blissfully unaware that Vera’s destination wasn’t the 10:30 train at King’s Cross.
In her pocket sat a counterfeit ticket for "Platform 9," filled with fictional details of a journey that didn’t exist. Vera had to admire the craftsmanship—the magical siblings had outdone themselves.
Back in Diagon Alley, Donnie had told her to wait for him and Dom to escort her to the Hogwarts Express. She still didn’t get why Miss Nelson couldn’t just take her straight to the train. But in a world where magic was real, things had long since stopped making sense.
"Here we are," Miss Nelson said as they reached the bustling platform, glancing at the departure board. "You’ve still got ten more minutes."
"I’ll be fine, Miss."
"Are you sure, darling?"
"Yes, I don’t want you to miss the bus back to Sutton."
Miss Nelson hesitated, then handed over the suitcase before crouching to meet her gaze. From her coat pocket, she pulled out a small envelope, pressing it gently into her hand.
"Your allowance for the next few months," she said.
"But Don—I mean, the Smiths said they’d cover that."
"I know," Miss Nelson replied with a knowing smile, "but every girl at St. Mary’s gets an allowance, sponsor or not. It’s only fair you have yours too."
Vera swallowed hard and tucked the envelope safely into her bag. "Thank you, Miss," she murmured. "For everything."
"One more thing," Miss Nelson added, her expression softening. “I understand you might feel out of place between the other students at first, but if you show disinterest in belonging, people will ensure you don't."
She pulled Vera into a warm embrace before standing and walking away, leaving the eleven-year-old standing on the edge of a world she barely understood, ready—or not—for whatever came next.
Vera positioned herself in front of the Platform 9 sign, anxiously awaiting Donnie and Dom's arrival. Moments later, she heard her name being called.
Glancing around, she saw no one at first and thought she might be imagining it, but the voice persisted. Intrigued, she peeked around the corner, and there they were, as casually cool as ever, like they'd been hanging out in the shadows for ages.
As she walked over, it didn’t take long for her to notice the new looks they were sporting.
Donnie's once towering hair was now cropped short, with dark roots fading into white tips. The edgy new style was only amplified by a collection of glistening earrings, a nose ring, and an eyebrow slit. He wore a black velvet suit, perfectly matched coat, and enough silver rings to make a werewolf shiver.
But Dom? She was almost unrecognizable.
Her makeup was minimal, save for the razor-sharp eyeliner that could cut glass. Her hair was sleek and cropped, and her black suit—paired with a long leather coat that swayed dramatically—had Vera wondering if she had stepped out of some spy thriller.
But what truly startled her was the scar that adorned Dom's left cheek—faint yet striking.
"How are you, Vera?" She asked.
"I'm good, thank you," Vera replied shyly, feeling slightly overwhelmed by her presence.
"Are you ready?"
"Yes, but I'm confused. Where's the Hogwarts Express you mentioned?"
Donnie and Dom exchanged a look, one that only promised trouble, before Dom took a step forward. Without a word, she walked briskly toward the solid brick wall, and Vera’s eyes widened as she watched her disappear.
"Come on now, your turn," Donnie said, effortlessly taking her suitcase.
Vera stared at the wall in disbelief, her heart pounding. She took a tentative step toward it, uncertainty clouding her mind.
"It’s okay, dear," Donnie reassured her gently. "Close your eyes and run for it. Dom will be waiting for you on the other side."
Squeezing her eyes, she braced herself for the unknown, and ran toward the wall, expecting to collide—only for it to never come. Instead, she was greeted by the sharp blast of a train horn and the lively hum of chatter. Opening her eyes, she found herself in an entirely different world. Above her, the sign read: Platform 9¾.
To her left stood the magnificent Hogwarts Express, its scarlet paint gleaming under the station lights. And in that instant, she understood exactly why Miss Nelson couldn’t be the one to bring her here. Seeing something like this might have given the poor woman a heart attack.
As promised, Dom was waiting on the other side, her expression stern but softened by a faint smile of reassurance. Moments later, Donnie strolled through the wall like he had all the time in the world, completely unfazed by the magic of it all.
Vera, still processing the sheer impossibility of what had just happened, turned her attention to the crowd. The platform was packed with students—some her age, others older.
Parents hovered anxiously, offering last-minute advice, tightening scarves, and smothering their kids with hugs that ranged from loving to downright suffocating.
As she scanned the crowd, she suddenly felt it—eyes on her.
A woman with long brown hair stood a few feet away, watching her with an intensity that sent a shiver down her spine. She was with a young girl—likely her daughter—and a man with striking blue eyes. While the man spoke to his daughter, the woman remained fixated on Vera, her expression unsettlingly familiar.
Vera blinked, feeling unsettled, but chose to shake off the odd encounter, returning her focus to Donnie and Dom.
“I’ve got your suitcase ready,” Donnie said, his grin proud like he’d personally handcrafted it. “It’s got your name on it and all the Hogwarts essentials.”
“And you’ll need this once you arrive,” Dom added, pulling a sleek black robe from her bag. “Wear it when you get there.”
Vera took it, a wave of gratitude swelling inside her. Over the past month, Donnie and Dom had been her guides, her protectors, her friends. And as she stepped onto the train, she wondered if they would always be there for her. The thought comforted her as she turned back to wave.
“I really hope she has a good life,” Donnie murmured, still watching after her.
“You know perfectly well she won’t.”
“Merlin’s beard, woman,” he huffed. “Can you be more pessimistic?”
Vera wandered through the narrow corridor of the train, her eyes scanning each compartment in search of an empty seat. Ideally, she wanted to sit with students her age, hoping to avoid traveling alone. After peeking into several compartments, she finally found one that caught her attention.
Inside were four students, three boys and one girl, chatting animatedly. They all looked polished, their appearance exuding an effortless elegance.
The girl, slender with warm bronze skin, had large, striking black eyes and dark hair tied with a green ribbon, which contrasted beautifully against her glossy black dress adorned with delicate golden jewelry.
Seated beside her was a tall boy with sharp features, his jawline strong and his dark almond-shaped eyes intense. His black hair shone under the compartment's light, styled immaculately to complement his fashionable black suit and silk scarf draped artfully around his neck.
He looked almost too perfect, and Vera found herself momentarily mesmerized by his presence.
Opposite them, two other boys sat close together. One was pale, almost ghostly, with long, brown curls that framed his face, while his companion, with deep brown skin and hazel eyes that sparkled under the light, exuded a quiet confidence.
The seat next to him was unoccupied, and, feeling a bit nervous but determined, Vera knocked gently before sliding the door open.
"Hello!" she greeted politely.
The moment she stepped inside, the chatter in the compartment didn’t just pause—it flatlined.
Then, as if on cue, the girl closest to the impossibly handsome boy leaned in and whispered—loud enough to ensure Vera caught every syllable.
"Merlin’s beard, what is she wearing?"
The boy beside her didn’t bother to look up from his book. He only flicked his gaze to her hands for the briefest moment before turning a page. "Never mind the fashion crime. What’s up with her hands?"
Vera followed their gaze, her stomach twisting.
The oversized, bleach-stained overalls sagged on her frame, the faded flannel beneath looking drab beside their polished outfits. Even Kaya’s bracelet—one of her few prized possessions—suddenly seemed like nothing more than a cheap trinket.
Worst of all were her hands, wrapped in fraying bandages that now stood out sharply under their watchful eyes. As their laughter settled into her bones, she instinctively tucked them behind her back, as if that could shield her from their judgment.
"Uh, is this seat taken?" she asked, hesitating at the door.
"Why do you think you can converse with us?" the boy with the brown curls spoke, his voice laced with condescension.
She blinked. "Excuse me?"
The boy with hazel eyes smirked. "His question wasn’t difficult. Why are you talking to us?"
"I just wanted to know if I could sit here. The other compartments are full."
The girl let out an annoying, exaggerated laugh. "Is she dense?"
"Aren’t they all?" the hazel-eyed boy quipped.
Vera felt her temper flare. She had approached them with basic politeness, and they had chosen cruelty? Fine.
"There’s no need to be fucking rude," she snapped. "You could just say no, and I’d leave."
The laughter died instantly.
Four pairs of eyes fixed on her, their amusement curdling into something sharper, more venomous. The boy with brown curls slowly stood, towering over her as he closed the distance. He smelled expensive, but no amount of luxury could mask the ugliness in his expression.
"Watch your mouth," he said through gritted teeth. "It’s bad enough we have to study with you people. Don’t think for a second we’ll tolerate your vulgar nature too."
Vera’s fists clenched at her sides as rage surged through her. Her instinct was to strike him, to wipe that smug look off his face. Instead, she rolled her eyes, turned on her heel, and stomped out of the compartment.
"Posh fucks," she muttered under her breath, already hunting for a less insufferable place to sit.
As she navigated the cramped train corridor, two identical blurs of red hair suddenly whooshed past her—one on the left, one on the right—barely missing her shoulders.
"EXCUSE US!" they bellowed in unison, laughter echoing behind them as they hurtled forward, clearly fleeing from some impending doom.
Seconds later, another redhead—this one older, red-faced, and radiating pure exasperation—came charging after them.
"We haven't even reached Hogwarts, and you've ALREADY VEXED ME!" he hollered, half out of breath.
Then, he slowed for a moment, offering her a sheepish smile. "Oh—hello."
Before she could even muster a response, he was off again, resuming his pursuit of the chaos gremlins. Shaking her head, she continued her search until she finally found a compartment with an open seat.
After the icy reception earlier, she hesitated before stepping in, wary of another hostile encounter. Gathering her nerves, she carefully slid the door open.
"Mind if I sit here?"
"Seats are free, aren’t they?" a boy answered with an easy grin, his thick Irish accent instantly reminding her of Mrs. Quinn from back home.
Relieved by the warmth in his voice, she stepped inside. The compartment was already filled with five other students—three boys and two girls.
The girls sat together, side by side. The one by the window had striking almond-shaped eyes, and flawless porcelain-like skin. Her dark, sleek hair fell over her shoulders in a perfect cascade.
Next to her sat a taller girl, slender with big green eyes that practically buzzed with energy. She wore a wildly mismatched cardigan, the kind that would’ve looked ridiculous on anyone else but somehow suited her perfectly. Her light brown hair was pulled into a high ponytail, adding to her effortlessly quirky charm.
The boys were scattered across the remaining seats. One had light brown hair and striking grey eyes, his smile warm and inviting. Beside him was the Irish boy, dark brown hair neatly styled, his calm brown eyes radiating quiet confidence.
And then there was the last one—shorter than the rest, with a mess of fiery red curls, a dusting of freckles across his nose, and a set of braces that gleamed every time he grinned.
"What's your name?" the girl by the window asked with a soft, welcoming smile.
"Vera."
"I'm Maddie Park," the girl introduced herself. "And these are Sarah, Cedric, Tommy, and Kenny."
"Nice to meet you all," Vera said, a little surprised to be met with smiles instead of sneers.
"Whereabouts are you from?" Tommy—the Irish boy—asked eagerly.
"Uh... London."
"I'm from Brandywell," he said with a slight puff of pride. "That’s in Derry."
"I’m from Edinburgh," Sarah chimed in.
Maddie frowned. "So you left Scotland… to go to Scotland?"
Sarah smirked. "My parents apparated me here, so technically, I poofed."
"Wait, your parents are magical too?" Tommy blurted out, leaning forward like she had just revealed state secrets.
"Yep," she replied with a grin. "But they’re both Muggleborns. What about yours?"
"Nah, mine are normal," he said, then froze as Cedric let out a quiet snort.
"I mean… Muggles," he corrected quickly, rubbing the back of his neck. "Still getting the hang of all these wizarding words."
Sarah chuckled. "No worries."
"And yours, Cedric?" he asked, eager to shift the spotlight.
"Both wizards," Cedric answered, stretching back lazily.
"Same here," Kenny added, raising his hand slightly like he was answering a question in class. "But mum’s a Muggleborn."
"My parents are Muggles too," Maddie said. "Mum nearly fainted when she saw my toys floating around the room when I was a baby. Thought we had ghosts."
That sent them all into a fit of laughter. Then, just like that, all eyes turned to Vera.
"What about you?" Cedric asked, curiosity in his gaze.
She hesitated. "Yeah, they are wizards too," she said, and instantly cursed herself for the slip.
Tommy’s face lit up. "That’s brilliant! Bet living in the wizarding world is a right laugh, yeah?"
She felt the urge to correct him, to explain that her life wasn’t nearly as magical as he imagined. But before she could get a word out, a loud bang shook the train, causing everyone to jump.
"What was that?" Maddie shrieked, hands flying to her ears as red smoke began to curl into the compartment.
They all rushed to the door, peering out into the chaos. Laughter—wild, uncontrollable—echoed down the corridor, and through the haze of smoke, two figures sprinted away, their footsteps quick and erratic.
"Bet it’s the Weasley twins," Cedric said.
"Cracker," Tommy added, his eyes wide with admiration.
And sure enough, seconds later, the twin troublemakers came skidding back down the corridor, their ears firmly in the grip of the older redhead from earlier.
The rest of the journey to Hogwarts passed in a whirl of lively chatter and shared snacks. Maddie, ever the generous one, bought treats from the trolley for everyone, distributing them with a cheerful grin.
Sarah dove right in, shoving sweets into her pockets while devouring yet another chocolate frog with an enthusiasm that bordered on impressive. Meanwhile, Tommy and Cedric fell into an animated conversation about Quidditch, with Cedric explaining the finer points of the game in a way that left Tommy nodding in awe.
Maddie was lost in a book, while Kenny, on the other hand, had succumbed to the lure of sleep, his head bobbing gently as the train rumbled on.
Seeking a quieter way to pass the time, Vera pulled out a small sketchbook and pencil from her oversized overalls and began to doodle, her mind drifting as her hand moved across the page.
“Wanna see something cool?” Sarah’s voice suddenly cut through the background noise, and she looked up, curiosity piqued.
“Yeah, sure.”
Sarah reached into her jacket pocket and pulled out a small jar. Inside, was a collection of dead insects.
Vera’s stomach turned, but her shock only deepened as Sarah casually started attaching the beetles to her hair.
“Don’t worry, they’re taxidermied!” she said with a grin, as though that somehow made the whole situation less unsettling.
Vera forced a polite smile, her distaste barely concealed, and quickly returned her focus to her sketchbook, hoping the whole bizarre display would end soon.
A few hours later, the prefects made their rounds, alerting the students to prepare for their arrival at Hogwarts.
She quickly pulled on her black robes, excitement and nerves bubbling inside her as she stepped out of the compartment and into the bustling corridor.
Being on the shorter side, she found herself struggling to weave through the crowd of older students, her attempts to get to the exit a bit like navigating a maze. When she finally reached the door, she collided with someone trying to re-enter the train.
"Sorry!" they both exclaimed in unison.
The voice was oddly familiar, and as she looked up, her heart skipped a beat.
It was him—the same boy she'd accidentally bumped into at Diagon Alley.
"We really have to stop meeting like this," he said, flashing an easy smile.
She froze for a moment, unsure of how to respond, her brain stalling in a mix of surprise and embarrassment.
The boy gently placed his hands on her shoulders and pulled her to the side, clearing the way for the crowd behind them. He gave her one last smile before turning back into the train, leaving her momentarily speechless.
Her admiration was quickly interrupted when Tommy appeared at her side, urging her to join the other first-years. Shaking off the unexpected encounter, she followed him, rejoining her friends, who were all standing in front of a rather unusual sight.
"Gather round, gather round!" boomed a deep, husky voice.
Vera and her friends looked up, eyes wide in disbelief. Because standing before them was a giant of a man, his beard and hair so thick and wild, he looked like a force of nature.
"Is this everyone?" he asked, scanning the group of first-years. "Ah well, let’s get a move on, shall we?"
The giant introduced himself as Rubeus Hagrid, Hogwarts’ gamekeeper and keeper of keys, then explained that they were about to take boats to the castle. Vera found herself with Maddie, Tommy, Cedric, and Sarah, the group holding their breath in collective awe as they glided across the dark water.
The nervous tension melted away as they gazed up at the towering, ancient castle, its lights glowing like something out of a dream against the night sky.
"We’re actually here…" Vera whispered, her voice full of wonder, still trying to wrap her head around the fact that this was real.
Part two: The Sorting Ceremony
She soon found herself at the threshold of an ancient castle, ready to embark on a magical journey she had never imagined. She repeatedly pinched her arm to confirm the surreal reality of her situation, all while her eyes roamed over the castle’s venerable stone walls, soaking in every intricate detail.
Reaching a massive staircase, she stood among the other first-years in front of a stern woman clad in emerald green robes, her pointed hat adorned with a feather.
“Here they are, Professor McGonagall,” Hagrid announced. “Didn’t expect so few this year.”
“Thank you, Hagrid.” Professor McGonagall replied with a calm nod. "That will be all."
As she began to introduce herself and outline the day’s proceedings, Vera’s gaze wandered. She caught sight of the arrogant posh group from the train, clustered together with another boy who seemed intent on annoying the girl in front of him by tugging at her hair.
Nearby were the red-haired twins along with a dark-skinned boy with dreads, and a couple of girls. Vera found herself standing with Maddie, Kenny, Sarah, Tommy, and Cedric, who were all listening intently to Professor McGonagall as she explained some of the rules.
Four other students rounded out the group.
“Lolly?” Sarah turned to her, extending a sweet she had pulled from her pocket.
“Um… no thanks,” Vera replied politely.
“Suit yourself,” Sarah shrugged, unwrapping the lollipop and popping it into her mouth.
"Oops, I'm so sorry!" came a voice from behind as a girl accidentally stepped on her robe.
Startled, Vera turned to face her and was immediately struck by her beauty.
The girl had a smooth, radiant complexion with warm, golden-brown skin. Her large, expressive brown eyes were framed by thick, dark lashes and perfectly arched brows. Her rich chocolate hair was styled neatly, adorned with a delicate pink ribbon.
"It’s fine!" She replied, offering a smile, still taken aback by the girl’s striking appearance.
"I'm Malika, by the way. Malika Khan."
"Vera. Nice to meet you!"
But before their conversation could continue, Professor McGonagall’s voice rose above the bustling hall.
"Quiet, please." she instructed, her tone firm and commanding. "Before you take your seats, you will be sorted into your houses—Gryffindor, Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw, and Slytherin."
At the mention of the houses, a ripple of excited whispers swept through the crowd. Vera exchanged a nervous glance with Maddie, both uncertain about what lay ahead.
"The Sorting Ceremony will now begin," Professor McGonagall declared, her words marking the start of the highly anticipated process.
The grand hall doors swung open, and the first-year students rushed inside, eager to get a glimpse of their new surroundings.
Vera's heart raced as she followed the crowd, feeling increasingly anxious about the unfolding events. As she entered the vast dining hall, her eyes widened at the spectacle before her. The hall was bathed in the warm glow of floating candles, which cast a soft light across the place.
She noticed that the students already seated were divided by different colors, which she assumed indicated their respective houses. Her gaze wandered until it landed on the boy she had bumped into twice already, sitting at the red-clad table. He flashed a friendly smile her way, which she returned before being jolted by a tug on her sleeve.
She turned to find Maddie, who was pointing upward with wide eyes.
"What in the world..." she murmured, her voice trailing off as she took in the sight of the starry sky above them.
The ceiling was completely open, revealing the night sky—a sight she had never imagined possible.
Nearby, the boy with dreads turned to the twins with a mischievous grin. "Do you dare me?"
"Dare you what?" the twins asked in unison, clearly intrigued.
"To catch one of the candles," the boy responded with an air of confidence.
Vera and Maddie exchanged amused glances and stifled giggles, thoroughly entertained by the challenge and the magical wonder of their surroundings.
As the group moved forward, a sudden, high-pitched scream cut through their excited chatter. Vera’s head snapped around, her eyes scanning the crowd to locate the source of the shriek. She soon spotted it—a ghost! Casually floating above the tables, grinning mischievously.
The older students roared with laughter, clearly entertained by the startled reactions of the newcomers. The first-years, on the other hand, stood wide-eyed, clearly not expecting to encounter a ghost on their first night.
They soon found themselves standing in front of a peculiar sight—a hat, looking surprisingly comfortable as it perched on an old wooden chair. The room hushed as Professor McGonagall stepped forward, and swiftly introduced the headmaster, Professor Albus Dumbledore.
Draped in long, flowing red robes and with a white beard that nearly brushed the floor, the man looked like a figure plucked straight from a fairytale. Vera found herself mesmerized by him, as though he were the embodiment of magic itself. His voice was gentle yet filled with authority as he addressed the students.
"Welcome to another year at Hogwarts," he said warmly, his eyes twinkling beneath his half-moon spectacles.
He gave a brief speech, then began to introduce the various professors. "I would also like to welcome Professor Harkin Frey, who will be teaching Defense Against the Dark Arts this year. We wish him a fruitful time at Hogwarts."
Polite applause filled the room as the new professor gave a small nod. Vera noticed a few whispers circulating amongst the older students, but before she could tune into what they were saying, the headmaster signaled for the sorting ceremony to begin.
"When I call your name, please step forward," Professor McGonagall instructed, lifting the hat with an air of ceremony.
"Adrian Pucey," she called out first.
Vera recognized the boy immediately—the annoying one who had been pulling the girls’ hair.
He strutted to the front and took a seat, his chin held high. The hall fell into an expectant silence as the hat was placed on his head. The tension stretched for a few moments until, unexpectedly, the hat spoke.
Vera jumped in surprise, her hand instinctively clutching Tommy's sleeve. He glanced at her with equal confusion, but said nothing.
"Slytherin!" the hat declared, its voice booming through the hall.
The green table burst into cheers and applause, though the rest of the students remained notably more restrained in their response, clapping slowly and politely.
Adrian stood up, a smug grin on his face, and as he lifted the hat from his head, the insides of his black robes transformed instantly into green.
"How’d his robes change color?" the boy with the dreads asked, his brow furrowing in confusion.
Cedric puffed up slightly. "Once you're sorted, your uniform changes to match your house."
Next came Alicia Spinnet and Angelina Johnson, both of whom were sorted into Gryffindor.
The red table erupted with an infectious level of energy, students banging on the table and cheering as loudly as they could. Vera couldn’t help but smile at their enthusiasm.
"Cassius Warrington," Professor McGonagall called next, her voice slicing through the din.
The tall, arrogant boy with brown curls stepped forward, drawing Vera's instant disdainful gaze.
"Who even names their kid Cassius?" she whispered. "Did he come out of his mum’s womb in a suit?"
Cedric couldn’t help but snort loudly, his giggles echoing in the otherwise quiet hall. Cassius shot them both a nasty look, his eyes narrowing in irritation as he settled under the hat.
"Slytherin!" the hat bellowed almost immediately, and the Slytherin table cheered once more, their applause as smug and arrogant as Cassius himself.
"Of course..." one of the twins muttered, rolling his eyes dramatically.
Cedric Diggory was next, his calm demeanor wavering slightly as the Sorting Hat was placed on his head.
"Hufflepuff!" the hat declared after a few seconds, and the yellow-clad table erupted in joyous cheers.
Following him was Eudora Dlamini, the haughty girl Vera had already taken a disliking to. With her green bow perfectly placed in her dark hair, she carried herself with an air of superiority as she walked toward the hat.
Unsurprisingly, the hat barely touched her head before calling out, "Slytherin!"
The green table, once again, exploded into raucous approval. Eudora strutted proudly towards them, but not before intentionally shoving Vera’s shoulder as she passed.
“Bitch,” Vera muttered under her breath.
Thankfully, it went unnoticed by those around her.
With half of the group that had tormented her on the train already sorted into Slytherin, she silently prayed she wouldn't end up with them. The last thing she wanted was to spend the next seven years among those arrogant pricks.
Next up were Fred and George Weasley, the red-headed twins who had rushed past her earlier.
They were barely seated before the hat shouted, "Gryffindor!" in rapid succession.
The Gryffindor table responded with the loudest cheers yet, their excitement palpable. They were soon joined by Lee Jordan, and a much more nervous Kenneth "Kenny" Towler.
"Gryffindor's getting quite crowded this year," one of the ghosts floating above commented.
Jane Corrigan was sorted into Hufflepuff, and Vera couldn’t help but notice the girl's beautiful dark red hair and tearful eyes as she hurried to her seat.
"Madeline Park," Professor McGonagall called.
Maddie stepped forward, her hands visibly trembling. The normally bright and confident girl now seemed like a bundle of nerves as she took her seat.
After what felt like an agonizing eternity, the hat finally declared, "Slytherin!"
A smattering of polite applause came from the Slytherin table, far less enthusiastic than before.
Vera’s heart sank, knowing Maddie—a kind, warm girl—was about to be surrounded by the likes of Eudora and Cassius. She shot her a sympathetic look, though Maddie seemed too stunned to notice.
Next up was Malika Khan, the petite girl with a pink ribbon in her hair, who was happily sorted into Hufflepuff, along with Patricia Stimpson.
Miles Bletchley, Cassius’s smug friend, predictably joined Slytherin, prompting another bout of cheers from the green table.
Then came Roger Davis, tall and freckled, who became the first student to join Ravenclaw, which earned him a round of applause from across the hall.
"It's the smart house, you know," Sarah whispered to Vera as they watched him join his new table.
Vera nodded absently, deep in her own thoughts. As her name inched closer to being called, she began weighing her options.
Ravenclaw intrigued her—surely a house for the sharpest minds—but she felt a pang of doubt. Was she smart enough?
Hufflepuff, with its warmth and kindness, seemed like a place she could feel safe, and both Cedric and Malika were there.
Gryffindor, meanwhile, seemed like the house for bold adventurers, where the lively Weasley twins and that boy—the one she kept running into—belonged.
Then there was Slytherin.
Despite wanting to stick with Maddie, the idea of sharing a house with the posh fucks made her stomach churn.
"Ryujin Avery," Professor McGonagall announced, and the handsome boy from the train stepped forward.
The hall seemed to hold its breath, especially the green table, whose attention sharpened as they leaned in to catch every word of the Sorting Hat’s deliberation.
“Let’s go, Ryu!” one of them shouted, followed by scattered catcalls and whispers of anticipation.
Tommy leaned closer to Vera and Sarah. "Is he, like, a celebrity or something?"
"Close," Sarah whispered back. “He's an Avery.”
Vera and Tommy exchanged bewildered glances, clearly not understanding the importance of that name.
The Sorting Hat appeared to deliberate much longer than usual, causing the students to fidget with impatience. The Slytherins, in particular, looked eager for their newest recruit.
But when the hat finally opened its mouth, it called out, "Ravenclaw!"
A murmur of surprise rippled through the hall, with the Slytherin table barely managing a half-hearted clap of disappointment.
Meanwhile, Ryujin proudly smiled, looking utterly unfazed as he strode confidently toward the Ravenclaw table.
"Sarah McMahon," Professor McGonagall called out, her voice carrying a hint of amusement as Sarah, with a lolly still in her mouth, skipped toward the stool.
Her hair was still adorned with real tiny beetles, each one catching the light in a peculiar way. McGonagall raised an eyebrow as she placed the Sorting Hat on her head, unable to hide a flicker of bewilderment at her odd fashion choices.
"Hmm... let's see," the Sorting Hat began thoughtfully. "What a fascinating mind indeed."
By this point, the attention in the hall had waned.
Most students had checked out, whispering to one another or shifting in their seats, eager to wrap up the ceremony. The green-clad table, satisfied with their earlier picks, seemed especially indifferent, barely glancing at Sarah.
"Slytherin!" the hat finally declared.
The entire Slytherin table looked visibly surprised, exchanging glances that ranged from confused to annoyed. They certainly hadn’t someone like her to join their ranks.
Unbothered by their reactions, Sarah hopped off the stool and skipped happily toward her new housemates, grinning from ear to ear. Maddie, who had looked somewhat scared sitting among the Slytherins, beamed with relief when Sarah plopped down next to her.
"Guess we'll be housemates after all!" she chirped, offering Maddie the lolly she’d pulled out of her mouth.
Maddie laughed, waving it away.
"It's just the two of us now," Tommy whispered to Vera, his nerves finally showing as they both stood at the edge of the dwindling crowd of unsorted students.
"Thomas Mallon," Professor McGonagall called.
"Good luck!" Vera encouraged him, offering a supportive grin as he took a deep breath and made his way toward the stool.
The Sorting Hat barely grazed his head before it bellowed, "Hufflepuff!"
Tommy's face lit up with joy as he eagerly pulled off the hat and, in a cheeky move, tossed it back to Professor McGonagall like a frisbee. She caught it with a bemused sigh, shaking her head but clearly entertained.
Tommy bolted toward the Hufflepuff table, his excitement evident as he exchanged a victorious high-five with Cedric, who welcomed him with an equally bright grin.
Professor McGonagall adjusted her glasses, lowered the parchment, and cleared her throat with a crisp authority.
Vera, standing alone now, found her gaze drifting toward Professor Dumbledore. The headmaster sat calmly, one hand resting beneath his chin, his sharp blue eyes twinkling with a knowing look.
He seemed to be waiting for this very moment, as though her sorting carried more weight than she had ever imagined.
Conversations still echoed from every corner of the hall. The Slytherins continued their self-assured murmuring, Hufflepuffs were still caught in a whirlwind of cheers, and the Ravenclaws were subtly rearranging themselves, lost in their own little world. Over at the red table, Fred and George Weasley were nudging Lee Jordan, encouraging him to grab a floating candle from the enchanted ceiling.
The hall buzzed with activity, but Vera didn’t mind their distraction. After sorting through nineteen students, the excitement had naturally waned.
Her name was called at last, and the hall fell into silence.
Every pair of eyes in the Great Hall, from the youngest first-year to the most senior prefect, turned in her direction, their faces frozen in shock and disbelief.
Students who had been casually ignoring the ceremony before were now sitting straight, their attention laser-focused on the final girl standing before the Sorting Hat.
The Slytherins stopped talking.
The Hufflepuffs stopped cheering.
The Ravenclaws sat down immediately, and the Gryffindors were now focusing on her instead of Lee and the twins.
"Did you catch what McGonagall just said?" one Gryffindor whispered to another.
"It can't be..." murmured an older Hufflepuff, her voice laced with disbelief.
“She does look like them,” a Slytherin muttered, eyes narrowed as they examined Vera closely.
Vera, still standing in place, could feel her heartbeat pounding in her ears.
Why was everyone staring at her like she had just sprouted a second head?
She swallowed nervously, feeling the weight of the entire hall pressing in on her. As she sat down to be sorted, her eyes darted around the room, seeking any hint of what had caused such a drastic shift in the atmosphere. Instead, she was met with bewildered, almost unnerving stares.
The Gryffindor boy she had met on the train, the one who had smiled at her so warmly before, now wore a deep scowl, his brow furrowed in anger and disgust.
Alicia’s jaw was slack, eyes wide in shock, while the red-haired twins scrambled over each other, jostling for a better view of the blue-eyed girl who had seemingly captivated the entire hall.
At the Slytherin table, students began to rise from their seats, whispering among themselves. Sarah’s lolly slipped from her lips, forgotten, as her gaze remained fixed on Vera. Cassius's eyes were full of shock and slight fear, while Euroda was now staring at her with a guilty gaze.
At the blue table, Ryujin Avery was staring. Just staring.
The hat was placed gently over her curly dark hair, slipping down over her eyes, casting everything in darkness. Her heart raced, but she quickly pulled herself together, once again straining to see the room beyond the brim.
“Oh,” the Hat suddenly spoke, its voice thick with intrigue, startling Vera from her reverie. "Haven’t had one of you in a long time... interesting, very interesting…"
The room held its collective breath in silence as the hat pondered, its quiet muttering filling Vera’s ears alone.
"Very well, very well..." the hat finally concluded. "I know exactly where to put you."
Vera's heart pounded harder, heat rising in her chest as she braced for the declaration.
"GRYFFINDOR!"
Relief washed over her in waves. She expected the usual uproar of cheers and applause, but the hall remained eerily quiet.
Confused, she glanced at the long red table, hoping for some sign of celebration. Instead, she found only blank stares.
The once rowdy, lively Gryffindors now seemed frozen, their excitement evaporated into thin air. No one erupted in cheers for her, no one slammed their hands on the table in joy. There was nothing but a heavy, palpable silence.
Her eyes drifted toward Professor McGonagall, who, instead of her usual stern but encouraging nod, offered a look of subtle pity.
Then, from the stillness, a single clap echoed through the hall, cutting through the quiet like a crack of thunder. Vera's head snapped toward the sound, her heart lurching in surprise.
There, at the staff table, stood Professor Dumbledore, his kind eyes twinkling as he softly clapped, alone.
His slow, deliberate applause prompted a few hesitant claps from the students around the hall, but the usual roar of approval never came. As she stood up, the deep crimson of Gryffindor slowly bled into her robes.
Her heart raced as she made her way towards Professor McGonagall, clutching the hat tightly, her fingers trembling against its worn fabric. The room seemed to blur, the flickering candlelight casting strange shadows over the sea of expectant faces.
McGonagall, who was usually so austere and unyielding, looked at her with an unexpected warmth. Her sharp eyes softened, catching Vera's unease as she gently took the hat from her grip.
Then, leaning forward ever so slightly, she spoke in a voice that was both quiet and full of sympathy.
"Welcome to Gryffindor... Miss Black."
Part three: New... Home?
“Is that true?”
“Yes, word has it she lives with her great aunt.”
“Great... Just when we thought we’d gotten rid of them.”
“Why do you reckon she didn’t end up in Slytherin?”
The whispers around her grew louder as dinner progressed. Curious glances were cast her way, and fragments of conversations drifted over from nearby tables.
Vera, oblivious to the buzzing speculation about her, sat at the edge of the Gryffindor table, isolated from the main group of first-years.
To her right was an empty space, and on her left sat Kenny Towler. Across from her were Alicia, Angelina, and Lee, with the Weasley twins squeezing in beside Kenny.
As the feast began, Vera felt a pang of disbelief at the magical spread that appeared as if by sheer wonder. Her impulse was to share her amazement with Kaya, but she quickly remembered the constraints of the magical world and the secrecy it demanded.
She forced herself to focus on her surroundings, trying to navigate the social dynamics of her new house. Despite her efforts to appear friendly, with smiles and polite nods, the scrutiny and whispered conversations from the other students made her feel like an outsider.
“Yep, muggleborn,” Angelina informed Alicia with a casual air.
“Mum’s a Muggle, da’s a wizard.” Alicia said, her accent similar to that of Tommy's. “They’re split up, so my brother and I are caught between two worlds."
“Sorry to hear that,” Kenny said with genuine sympathy.
Alicia shrugged. “It’s for the best, really."
“And you?” Angelina asked, turning to Lee.
“Both are Muggles,” Lee replied, his eyes drifting to the floating ghosts in the hall.
The conversation continued to flow around Vera, but she remained largely unnoticed. No one asked her anything.
"Do you dare me?" Lee suddenly asked Alicia, interrupting her conversation with Angelina by her side.
"Dare you what?"
"To eat six shares of sausage in less than a minute.”
"Catch yourself on!” Alicia exclaimed. “You can't do that."
But before they realized it, he devoured six pieces of sausage in 40 seconds, diligently counted by Fred and George.
Vera found herself joining the table's laughter, as everyone began to congratulate him for his accomplishment, shaking his hands, and patting his back.
As the group's conversation gained momentum, she struggled to keep pace. Angelina and Alicia delved into Sarah's peculiar hair,
"I swear it, they are real bugs!"
"No way, they're plastic for sure,"
all while Kenny's confidence soared, prompting him to inquire about the new Defense professor.
"I heard he was in the north,” he said between bites. “Slaying dragons when Dumbledore asked him to come."
"Not the north," Fred corrected. "It was China."
All that Vera was thinking about was how nonchalantly they were all talking about bloody dragons. She cast a sidelong glance in Professor Frey's direction. He had a moderate stature and was slightly overweight. He wore glasses, and his hairline had receded noticeably, creating a pronounced baldness at the forehead. She couldn't help but think that he didn't exude the typical aura of someone inclined towards the daring feats of dragon-slaying.
"So it's true?" Lee questioned, his curiosity evident.
"It might be;” Fred replied. “Our brother Charlie mentioned something about it."
"Charlie knows all about dragons,” George chimed in. “So his word can be trusted."
"Yep, he's going to study them after graduation," Fred proudly informed the group.
"Which one is Charlie?" Angelina asked.
The duo gestured towards the older boy with red hair seated at the center of the table.
Vera recognized him as the one who had disciplined the twins on the train and kindly said ‘Hello’ to her. He exuded self-assurance with a charming smile and captivating dark green eyes. The conversation buzzed with energy as Fred and George continued their animated discussion about Quidditch.
“Unfortunately for us,” Fred began, “first years are barred from playing.”
“Absurd rules, if you ask me,” George added, rolling his eyes.
“But we’ll be training every day to secure a spot on the team next year,”
“Who’s on the team currently?” Lee asked.
“Our brother Charlie is the captain,” Fred said proudly. “He used to be a Seeker but has been a Beater since last year.”
“And he’s undoubtedly the best one,” George added with a nod.
“But he’s a seventh year,” Fred continued, “which means,”
“Which means a Beater position will be available next year, and a Weasley shall carry the torch,” George finished, lifting his hand for a high-five, which Fred eagerly returned.
“And the rest of the team?” Lee pressed.
Fred began listing off the players, “Oliver Wood over there is the Keeper,”
“Denise is a Chaser…”
“And, of course, our glorious Seeker,”
“Felix Bobbin.”
Vera’s heart skipped a beat as the twins pointed at him.
Her gaze drifted to Felix, seated in the center of the table. The boy who had smiled at her twice looked distant now, staring at his plate as he absentmindedly poked at his food with a fork. The shadows beneath his eyes seemed even more pronounced, giving him a worn, brooding appearance.
As she continued to watch, he suddenly lifted his gaze from the plate, locking eyes with her. Startled, she flashed a faint smile, but he responded with narrowed eyes and a subtle roll of his own, leaving her feeling uneasy.
“The best thing is,” Fred continued, “he’s only a third year.”
“So?” Lee asked, puzzled.
“So? We’ll have him until we’re in our fifth year! That’s five consecutive years of guaranteed wins!”
“Is he really that good?” Angelina prompted.
“The best,” the twins said together, their pride evident.
As the dinner concluded, the first-year students were assembled by a prefect, who introduced himself as Charlie Weasley.
The newcomers, however, were already familiar with his identity, thanks to the twins, who seized every opportunity to extol their older brother.
Charlie led them through winding corridors, stairs, and more corridors. Enthralled by the magic unfolding around her, Vera found herself particularly astonished by the talking and whispering paintings.
After ascending numerous stairs and navigating what felt like an endless maze, the students found themselves standing before the portrait of the—
"FAT LADY!" The twins' exuberant shouts startled the seemingly napping woman in the painting.
"We've heard all about you!" George informed her.
"To be honest, Fat Lady,” Fred added, “we expected you to be much fatter,"
"Oh, you think I'm small?” The fat lady blushed, placing a hand on her chest.
"Nope, you're still fat," the twins teased, provoking an indignant response from the portrait, while the other students chuckled.
"PASSWORD!" She snapped.
"Apologies for my brothers; Mum forgot to teach them manners," Charlie quipped. "Higgle Wort."
The portrait swung open, and the six newcomers stepped into their new abode.
As Vera surveyed the common room, she couldn't help but wonder if the other houses boasted similar decor. Charlie walked the students through a set of rules specific to Gryffindor Tower. Despite answering questions with politeness, he found himself needing to raise his voice at the mischievous twins on occasion.
"Lastly,” he concluded, “should any of you require assistance, don't hesitate to approach either myself or one of the other prefects.”
Afterward, he directed the boys to their respective bedrooms and enlisted the help of the seventh-year head girl to lead Vera, Alicia, and Angelina to theirs.
In their shared bedroom, the three girls discovered an extra two beds.
Angelina and Alicia were still engaged in chatter, and Vera couldn't help but feel ignored by them. The two girls hadn't said a word to her so far, and she began to feel queasy. They left the dormitory shortly after to visit the common room, leaving her alone.
She readied herself for sleep, securing her hair in twin braids and brushing her teeth. As she nestled into her bed, she was captivated by the enchanting life-like stars embellishing the tapestry overhead.
Even though she was exhausted from the train journey and the thousand stairs she climbed, she found herself unable to sleep.
Her stomach twisted with unease, haunted by the posh kids’ sneers on the train, the silence after her sorting, and the whispers that followed her all night.
Despite the growing despair, she remembered Miss Nelson's counsel and resolved not to yield so easily. She got up and located her suitcase in front of a bed, alongside another one brought by Donnie.
She couldn't help but smile as she notice the elegant carving he must had added on it—an intricate golden script beautifully spelling out her full name: Vera Black
Swiftly, she opened it, revealing her school uniform, which she placed on the chair. Organizing her books, quills, and cauldron on the desk, she then eagerly retrieved her most valuable purchase.
Her wand.
Lying on the bed again with it in her hands, she couldn't help but remember Mr. Ollivander who told her that her dad had a similar one. Despite never knowing her parents, thoughts of their lives consumed her.
Did they, too, traverse the halls of Hogwarts in pursuit of magical knowledge? Were they in Gryffindor like her? What ever happened to them? And why was she left alone in the muggle world if they were both wizards?
These questions clung to her, stirring suspicion about her family and Donnie’s stubborn silence on their past.
All she knew, was that they were gone.
Notes:
I've adjusted a few details from the canon timeline, such as Charlie Weasley's age—because, let's face it, J.K. Rowling wasn’t the best at math. In my version, Charlie is a seventh-year student during 1989-1990.
Chapter 7: Birthright
Summary:
Vera’s first weekend at Hogwarts brings unexpected invitations, castle secrets, and strange new friends. But when her classmates begin to whisper about her family’s legacy, she is left with a dangerous choice: reveal the harsh reality of her past, or lean into the dangerous myth of her supposed noble bloodline.
Chapter Text
Saturday, September 2, 1989
Vera woke the next morning with something dangerously close to optimism. She had two whole days before classes started, plenty of time to bask in the magic of Hogwarts—or at least, to figure out how not to get lost in it.
Normally, she’d sleep in on a weekend, but today she was up early, surprised to find the dorm already deserted. She threw on jeans, a white shirt, and her trusty denim jacket, securing Kaya’s bracelet around her wrist before making a beeline for breakfast.
The Great Hall buzzed with morning chatter as she stepped inside, scanning the tables for a familiar face. Instead, her gaze landed on the absolute last person she wanted to deal with before food: Cassius Warrington.
There he was, lounging at the head of the Slytherin table, surrounded by his usual entourage—Miles, Adrian, Eudora, and Ryu Avery, the strikingly sharp-eyed Ravenclaw. As soon as he spotted her, Cassius stood and waved her over.
Curiosity won over irritation, and she made her way toward them. She braced for the kind of smug condescension Slytherins seemed to think was an art form, but to her surprise, Cassius greeted her with a smile instead.
“Vera! Good morning.”
She arched a brow. “Is it?”
"We’d like you to sit with us.”
Her gaze flickered between them, their faces carefully arranged into polite expressions. A far cry from the sneering disdain they’d thrown at her on the train.
“Oh?” she said, folding her arms. “I thought you don't want to tolerate my vulgar nature.”
Cassius had the decency to look awkward. “Yeah, about that… We sincerely apologize. We didn’t realize who you were.”
Something about the way he said it sent a prickle of unease down her spine.
What, exactly, had changed overnight?
She kept her face impassive, remembering every mocking glance, every whispered insult about her patched-up clothes and bandaged hands. Whatever game they were playing, she had no interest in being the pawn.
“Come on,” Cassius coaxed, his smile too smooth to be real. “Join us for breakfast.”
She scoffed. “I’d rather die in a ditch, but thanks for the offer.”
She turned on her heel and walked away, leaving them stunned in her wake. Cassius’s grin twitched into a scowl, Ryu let out a low chuckle, and Miles stared after her in disbelief.
She settled at the far end of the Gryffindor table, putting as much space as possible between herself and the Slytherins. She reached for a piece of bread, but her gaze wandered toward the Hufflepuff table, scanning for Tommy and Cedric.
However, her eyes locked onto an older Hufflepuff girl who was staring at her—expressionless, but watching.
Her pink hair, dark roots peeking through, struck a familiar chord. And then it hit her—Platform Nine and Three-Quarters.
She’d seen her there, talking to her father while her mother had kept a sharp, unrelenting eye on her. Now, that both mother and daughter seemed to be fixated on her, she couldn't help but wonder why or who they were.
She turned her attention to her meal, hoping she'd lose interest. A few minutes later, Maddie appeared, practically vibrating with energy, and dropped into the seat beside her.
“Hey, Vera!” she chirped. “Mind if I sit?”
“Not at all.”
“How’s Gryffindor’s common room treating you?”
“It’s mint,” Vera said, though she scowled slightly. “Too many bloody stairs, though.”
“Slytherin’s common room is insane! It’s massive, and you’ll never guess what I saw.”
"Go on, then.”
“Mermaids! Real mermaids!”
Vera’s eyes widened. “No bloody way! Where?”
“Right there in our common room! Turns out it’s built under the lake, and there’s this giant glass wall. You can see everything.”
“You’re takin’ the piss.”
“I swear! Though, they’re called selkies, and they’re not the dreamy sirens you’d expect. More like… nightmare fuel.”
Before Vera could respond, a sudden whirlwind of energy descended upon them.
“Maddie!”
Sarah skidded to a stop at the table, eyes blazing with urgency. “We have to go, now! I found a frog—a real one this time. We have to catch it!”
Before Maddie could so much as grab a piece of toast, Sarah seized her by the shirt and yanked her off the bench.
“See ya later, Vera!” she called out, laughing as she was unceremoniously dragged out of the Great Hall.
Left to her own devices at the Gryffindor table, Vera finished her meal in peace. With time to spare and no particular destination in mind, she set off to explore the castle, hoping to get a better grasp of its winding corridors before they got the better of her.
As she wandered, the paintings reacted to her presence in varying degrees of enthusiasm. Some waved cheerfully or nodded in greeting. Others, for reasons beyond her understanding, turned their backs the moment she passed—one particularly dramatic wizard even stormed out of his frame entirely.
Eventually, she found herself in the courtyard.
It was quiet, save for the occasional burst of laughter from students passing through. She spotted an empty bench in the shade and sank onto it, stretching her legs out in front of her. Only then did she notice—she was the only one sitting alone.
A familiar pang settled in her chest, and her fingers brushed against the half-heart trinket hanging from her wrist.
The weight of it, small but solid, tugged her mind back to summer, Kaya’s easy laughter filling the air, her boundless energy pulling her into adventure after adventure. It was strange, being here without her—like standing on a dock after the tide had gone out.
With a sigh, she leaned back against the bench, tilting her face to the sun. If she closed her eyes, just for a moment, she could almost pretend Kaya was here too.
The sound of a familiar voice tugged her from her thoughts. She cracked one eye open, then the other, to find Charlie Weasley sitting on the bench across from her.
And beside him? None other than Felix Bobbin.
A surge of self-consciousness hit her out of nowhere. Without thinking, she smoothed her hair and adjusted her jacket, suddenly hyperaware of how she looked.
Charlie and Felix were deep in conversation, heads bent over a notebook as they discussed Quidditch strategies—well, Charlie was talking; Felix was furiously scribbling down notes as if plotting a military campaign.
Taking a breath, she mustered the courage to approach.
"Hello."
Both boys looked up.
Before she could get another word out, Felix’s expression darkened, and with an audible snap, he slammed his notebook shut, stood abruptly, and stormed off without so much as a glance in her direction.
Charlie blinked after him, eyebrows lifting in surprise. "Well," he muttered, rubbing the back of his neck. "That was dramatic."
A knot of unease twisted in her stomach as she watched him disappear into the castle. Whatever that had been, it wasn’t good.
"Vera, right?" Charlie asked, breaking the awkward silence.
"Um… yes," she stammered, still thrown by Felix’s stormy exit. "You mentioned yesterday that if we needed anything, we could come to you."
He straightened, shaking off the tension. "How can I help?"
"I was wondering… where can I find the telephone?"
He blinked. "Come again?"
"The telephone," she repeated. "Is there one at Hogwarts?"
"What do you need a telephone for?"
"I need to call my friend."
His brows knitted together. "Er—there aren’t any Muggle devices here, I’m afraid."
She sighed, disappointment settling in. A whole castle full of magic, and not one bloody phone?
Charlie must have noticed her crestfallen expression. "Why don’t you just write your friend instead?"
She thought about it for a moment, picturing her modern city friend laughing at the sight of an old-fashioned letter. But with no other option, it seemed she had to adjust.
"Alright," she agreed reluctantly. "Where’s the postbox?"
Charlie tilted his head. "The what?"
"Where we put letters?"
"Oh! Postbox! Third-year Muggle Studies, chapter five. Quirrell almost skipped that one."
Vera just stared at him.
"But why use a postbox?" He went on. "Just send an owl."
"An… owl?"
"Yeah. If you don’t have one, you can borrow a friend’s."
She shifted uncomfortably. "I can’t send an owl to her."
"Why not?"
"Because she’s a Muggle."
Charlie’s easygoing expression faltered immediately. "Muggle?"
"She doesn’t know I’m a witch. So, an owl showing up at her window would freak her out."
He was silent for a beat, studying her as if watching a dragon breath fire.
"Vera..." He then said, carefully. "Can I ask… does your family know you're friends with a Muggle?"
Her stomach clenched. "Why do you ask?"
"It’s just… unusual."
"For a witch to be friends with a Muggle?"
"For you to be friends with a Muggle."
She frowned, confusion creeping in, but before she could press him, he continued.
"I’ll talk to Professor McGonagall. She’ll know how Hogwarts handles Muggle mail."
"Really? That’d be brilliant!"
"No problem." He replied with a wink. "We’ll sort this out."
Later that day, she was among the first to arrive at the Great Hall for dinner, sliding into a seat at the Gryffindor table. Not long after, Alicia and Angelina joined her, but something felt… off.
Though they sat beside her, there was a subtle distance, an unspoken gap that had nothing to do with space. She considered striking up a conversation, but their silence pressed down on her, heavier than she expected.
Had she done something wrong? Or was this just how things were? She’d thought, at the very least, that they’d stick together—being the only first-year Gryffindor girls and all.
The Great Hall filled quickly, and as soon as the long tables were full, food began appearing on the plates in front of her. The sheer abundance was staggering. Platters of roast chicken, steaming potatoes, golden Yorkshire puddings, and an array of vegetables spread before them like a feast fit for a king.
How do they even make all this so fast? she wondered, absently reaching for a roll.
She was so caught up in the thought that she barely noticed when someone approached her table.
"Hello, do you mind if I join you?" a quiet voice asked.
She looked up to see a girl with short red hair standing there, her expression tentative.
"Of course not," she replied quickly, relieved to have someone to talk to. "I'm Vera, by the way."
"I know," the girl said with a small smile as she slid into the seat across from her. "I'm Jane. Jane Corrigan."
Recognition flickered in Vera’s mind—Jane had been sorted into Hufflepuff during the ceremony, though she hadn’t looked particularly happy about it at the time.
Now, seeing her up close, she noticed the telltale signs of a rough day: puffy eyes, red-rimmed as if she’d been crying for hours.
"You and I are the same, you know," Jane said suddenly.
Vera raised a brow. "How’s that?"
"We’ve both been sorted into the wrong houses. My family are Slytherin legacies, much like yours."
Vera stilled.
The memory of the Sorting Ceremony flickered in her mind—how the Slytherins had stared, their scrutiny sharper than the others. Cassius’s sudden interest, the way he had so quickly changed his tune…
Was that why?
A knot tightened in her stomach. She knew so little about her own family, yet here was a stranger casually confirming what she hadn’t even dared to wonder.
"I don’t mind it, though," Jane continued, offering a small shrug. "I only wish my parents felt the same way."
Vera stayed quiet, unsure how to respond. The weight of house allegiance was foreign to her. What did it matter? People made such a fuss about houses, but at the end of the day, weren’t they all just students in the same castle?
"Is Hufflepuff considered bad?" she asked, innocently.
"Oh no, not at all," Jane said quickly. "It’s actually wonderful. It’s not what I expected, but it’s lovely."
"Then what’s the problem?"
Jane sighed. "You know how our families are. I’m sure yours were disappointed too when you got into Gryffindor."
Vera hesitated, unsure of how to respond. She didn’t want to reveal to Jane, who exuded an air of wealth and privilege, that she lived in an orphanage or that she knew nothing about her own family. Oddly, she felt a desire to impress her.
“Is Gryffindor Tower really as bad as they say?” Jane asked, snapping her out of her thoughts.
“I… don’t find it bad.”
“Hufflepuff’s common room is amazing. It’s so warm, with plants everywhere, and the best part is, it’s right next to the kitchens!”
“You can visit the kitchens?”
“Well, the house elves don’t really like students going in there, but some manage to sneak in every now and then.”
“House… elves?”
Jane looked surprised. “You didn’t know they’re the ones who prepare all the food here?”
Vera shook her head.
“We have four at home,” Jane added with a hint of pride.
As dinner progressed, Vera found herself increasingly drawn to her charm and intelligence.
Jane eagerly shared details about the magical processes at Hogwarts, from how the food appeared on their tables to the intriguing enchantments behind the living paintings that decorated the castle.
Vera listened intently, fascinated by the wonders of the magical world that Jane described with such enthusiasm.
By the time dessert had vanished from their plates, they had already made plans to meet in the library the next day—to go over their syllabus, to prepare for their first classes, and, if Vera was being honest with herself, to continue this unexpected but fascinating conversation.
Sunday, September 3, 1989
As she wandered the corridors the next day, she kept herself entertained with lighthearted chats with the paintings, all while mentally mapping out the castle’s labyrinthine layout.
Along the way, she spotted Charlie again—this time with the pink-haired girl from yesterday, though her hair had since morphed into a striking mix of blue and gray.
"Vera!" He called, steering her aside with an easy grin. "Got some good news for you."
As they talked, Vera couldn’t help but notice the blue-haired girl sneaking glances at them, curiosity flickering in her eyes.
"I had a word with Professor McGonagall about your question. There’s a letterbox in Hogsmeade, but it’s only open on Mondays and Thursdays. You’ll need to get your letters there in time."
"Oh, that’s mint!" She beamed. "But how do I actually get them there?"
"You can give them to Hagrid—he’ll take care of the posting for you."
He then fished a folded piece of parchment from his bag and handed it over. "McGonagall also wanted me to give you this."
Vera unfolded it to find an address: Leonora College—her supposed art school’s fictional cover story.
Buzzing with excitement, she showered Charlie in gratitude before bolting back to Gryffindor Tower, eager to draft her letter to Kaya.
With Thursday fast approaching, she wasted no time grabbing parchment and quill—only to immediately wrestle with the wizarding world's infuriatingly messy ink.
Blots splattered. Letters smudged. After a few exasperated sighs and ink-stained fingers, she abandoned the quill entirely, opting for one of her trusty pencils from her painting set.
Dear Kaya,
I am sorry for not ringing yesterday; the school doesn't have phones, which seems a bit antwackie. Even though it's only been a day, I already miss you terribly.
There's so much I want to tell you. The school is in an old castle, just like we hoped. It's so beautiful and so bloody huge! I've gotten lost three times already.
The corridors are filled with countless paintings, each more enchanting than the last. I could spend hours talking looking at them.
I truly wish you were here; I've been feeling lonely. The girls in my dorm don't seem to like me, and haven't spoken to me yet. However, I've met some nice people.
Everything here is different Kaya, and everyone seems to know things that I don't. I’m feeling like an outsider.
Tomorrow is the first day of classes, and I'm both excited and nervous. Wish me luck; I truly need it. Send my regards to everyone, and please write back, even if you think it is goggy.
Yours sincerely,
Vera
She found an envelope tucked among her school supplies and quickly slipped her letter inside.
Determined to get it posted, she headed downstairs and soon learned that Hagrid lived in a hut on the school grounds, right by the edge of the forest. After asking for directions—and getting a few conflicting ones—she eventually spotted the small, weathered building.
Standing before it, she took in its rustic charm—like something straight out of an old storybook. She knocked, and moments later, the door swung open to reveal the enormous man. For a brief second, his sheer size made her hesitate, but his beaming smile and gentle eyes instantly put her at ease.
"Alright there, young one?" he greeted, his accent strikingly similar to Mr. Humphrey’s.
Stepping inside, she was immediately hit by the warm, slightly chaotic coziness of the place.
The fire crackled in the stone hearth, filling the room with flickering light. Oversized furniture, clearly built for Hagrid’s stature, sat amongst an endearing jumble of mismatched cups, plates, and magical odds and ends.
The walls were adorned with animal skins, bundles of dried herbs, and what looked like the remains of various magical creatures—though whether they were souvenirs or old friends was anyone’s guess. In one corner, a large bed with a colorful patchwork quilt added to the homey feel.
Curled up on a battered old sofa by the fire was an enormous boarhound, who barely raised his head at her entrance.
"That’s Fang," Hagrid said proudly, giving the dog a fond pat.
Vera tore her gaze away from the animal skins long enough to remember why she was there.
"Mr. Hagrid," she started, keeping her voice polite, "Charlie Weasley said you could help post letters in Hogs… meat?"
"Hogsmeade," Hagrid corrected with a chuckle. "Professor McGonagall did mention you were havin’ a bit o’ trouble with the owls. I’ll tell yeh, Muggles have got some strange ways of doin’ things."
She giggled, thinking how is sending an owl is any less odd?
"I’ll be happy to send it for yeh. Got one ready?"
She handed him the letter with a grateful smile. "It’s for my friend in London—er, Muggle London. I wrote the address on the back."
He gave the envelope a quick glance and nodded. "Aye, it’ll get there safe."
Relieved, she turned to leave but paused at the doorway. "Oh, and I love your hut, by the way!"
He beamed. "Cheers, young Vera!"
She hurried back to the castle and slipped into the Great Hall for dinner, her eyes immediately catching Jane’s cheerful wave from the Hufflepuff table. Without hesitation, she made her way over and took a seat across from the red-haired girl.
"I waited for you at the library," Jane said, disappointed.
Vera rubbed the back of her neck. "Sorry, something came up."
As they ate, her attention drifted to Felix Bobbin, who had just entered the hall and taken a seat at the Gryffindor table—alone, nose buried in a book. The memory of his earlier behavior lingered in her mind, stirring her curiosity.
She leaned in slightly towards Jane, who was busy munching on a bowl of crisps. "Can I ask you something?"
Jane looked up, still chewing. "Sure."
"Do you know Felix Bobbin?"
"Hard not to. He’s pretty well-known. And his family is loaded."
Vera blinked. "They… are?"
"You’re joking, right? They own, like, half the apothecaries in the country. I figured you of all people would know that."
"Oh," Vera said, not entirely sure how to respond.
Jane smirked, tossing another crisp into her mouth. "Though, obviously, never wealthier than yours."
Vera nearly choked on her drink.
Wealthy? The idea felt foreign, almost laughable. If her family had money, where was it? Maybe Jane had her facts wrong.
The two girls chatted away, their conversation flowing effortlessly as they enjoyed their meal. Midway through, Vera spotted Maddie entering the hall.
"Mind if I join you?" she asked, flashing a bright smile. "Sarah’s skipping dinner—she’s in our dorm messing around with that poor frog she found."
"Not at all," Vera responded warmly.
Maddie slid into the seat beside Jane, who, for some reason, suddenly looked as if she had been hit by a bus.
"This is Jane, by the way," Vera introduced.
"Hi there! I’m Maddie," the Slytherin girl said cheerfully, offering a handshake.
Jane, however, barely glanced at her before scrambling to her feet. "I... um... I forgot something at the library. I’ll catch up with you later, Vera."
And just like that, she was gone, leaving Maddie’s hand awkwardly suspended in mid-air. With a graceful shrug, she withdrew it.
"Well, that was odd."
Vera frowned, watching Jane disappear into the crowd. "Yeah… no clue what that was about."
"Anyway," Maddie said, shaking off the moment, "how are you finding Hogwarts so far?"
"It’s both overwhelming and absolutely wicked!"
Maddie grinned. "Totally agree! And those portraits—so chatty!"
Vera laughed. "Right?"
"I keep wondering if they’re, like, real people."
"I think they are. Just, you know… dead."
Maddie wrinkled her nose. "Well, that’s unsettling."
"Jane was telling me Hufflepuff’s common room is right next to the kitchens—and apparently, house-elves make all the food."
Maddie’s eyes widened. "Elves?"
"Yeah! And they’re right below us. They just magic the food up through the floor onto the tables."
"No way! I was so confused about how the food just appears!"
"Did someone say food?" Tommy smoothly inserted himself into the conversation, dropping into the seat beside Vera and immediately piling his plate with whatever was within reach.
"Yep," Maddie replied. "Vera was just telling me about the fascinating creatures that prepare our meals."
"Ah, the house-elves," Tommy said knowingly, already halfway through a mouthful of chips.
Maddie sighed, gazing dreamily around the Great Hall. "Everything here feels like a dream, honestly."
"I’ve been saying the same thing for the past two days," he agreed.
"Where’s Cedric?" Vera asked, scanning the room.
"Oh, he’s in our common room studying."
"Already?" Vera and Maddie exclaimed in unison.
"Oh, he’s very serious about it…"
As the trio continued chatting, marveling at the magical oddities of Hogwarts, two passing Ravenclaws cast furtive glances at Vera, whispering behind their hands.
Tommy smirked. "You seem to have quite the reputation here, Vera."
"Yeah, I can't quite figure out why, though."
Maddie shrugged. "Well, Sarah did mention that your family is basically royalty in the wizarding world."
Vera nearly dropped her fork.
"Cedric said the same thing," Tommy added. "Apparently, you're from one of the most ancient and noble families or something like that."
Vera sat frozen, the words sinking in like stones in water.
Royalty? Ancient? NOBLE?!
The idea was so absurd it almost made her laugh—except no one else was laughing. She wasn’t from some grand, prestigious lineage; she was just Vera—an orphan from a farm who had stumbled into this world by sheer luck. And yet… a small, unsettling thought took root.
She knew nothing about her family. So, maybe—just maybe—the rumors weren’t entirely wrong.
"Is it true, though?" Tommy's question broke through her thoughts.
She blinked. "What?"
"You can speak French?"
"Um, why would you think that?"
"I heard that you live in France," Tommy said, inadvertently enlightening her.
The two stared at her, waiting for an answer, but she remained silent.
Her mind raced, recalling Donnie’s mention of her mother being from another country. This connection led her to ponder revealing her own truth—that she had little knowledge of her family and currently lived in a girls' home in Muggle London.
Yet, she felt hesitant and embarrassed to share such a personal detail at that moment. Despite her silence, Maddie and Tommy seemed unaffected, seamlessly continuing their conversation.
"Do you know who speaks French?" Maddie asked, lowering her voice as she leaned closer.
"French people?" Tommy teased, chuckling at his own joke.
"That girl Eudora," Maddie answered swiftly. "Sarah and I were supposed to share a dorm with her, but she got upset and kept mumbling in French. Eventually, she swapped rooms with an older student."
"What a bitch," Vera remarked bluntly.
Tommy choked on his food.
"Vera!" Maddie said, laughing while glancing around to make sure no one overheard.
"What?" Vera shrugged. "She and that other Poshlander made fun of my clothes on the train."
"Poshlander...” Tommy echoed. “I like that."
"That boy in Ravenclaw?" Maddie asked.
"Yeah, Ryu or something."
"Ah, yes," Tommy said mockingly. "The celebrity."
"He does have that celebrity look," Maddie admitted, raising a brow.
"He looks OKAY," Tommy grumbled, a little too defensively.
"I don’t like him," Vera added. "But he does look like he stepped out of a bloody magazine."
"You girls are so strange."
"Oh, as if you boys aren’t?" Maddie shot back. "You and Cedric were practically drooling over Malika during the Sorting Ceremony."
Vera burst out laughing as Tommy, caught red-handed, tossed a crisp at Maddie. She dodged it easily, grinning back at him. The three of them carried on, their laughter and chatter blending into the lively hum of the Great Hall.
Later that night, Vera found herself deep in thought, replaying her conversations with them.
Wealthy?
Ancient house?
Royalty?
The mysteries surrounding her own identity weighed heavily on her mind, leaving her with a whirlwind of unanswered questions.
Yet, despite the confusion, she felt an unexpected surge of pride.
She had never imagined that she might discover such intriguing truths about her family, let alone their supposed affluence and prestige. The thought of what her life might have been like if she had grown up among them filled her with contemplation.
But as she considered revealing the less glamorous reality of her existence, she hesitated.
Poor.
Orphan.
Nobody.
What if they knew the truth—that she shared a bedroom with three other girls in an orphanage? That she worked as a farm laborer, and that she had no real knowledge of her so-called 'Noble' lineage?
The fear of being judged or ridiculed, as she had been in Cornwall, loomed over her. Perhaps it would be better to keep up the pretense, to lie rather than face the potential for more bullying and taunting.
Maybe it was safer not to reveal the truth, to maintain the illusion of her family's grandeur rather than risk exposing the stark reality of her life.
Despite the moral weight of deceiving others, her desperation for acceptance and recognition as a "normal human being" drove her to consider adopting the façade of a wealthy girl from a royal wizarding lineage.
She grappled with the notion that while she wouldn't be entirely dishonest, she would be selectively concealing parts of her truth.
The internal conflict between her desire for authenticity and her longing for recognition weighed heavily on her conscience, but in the end, her desperation won.
With her eyes closed, she offered a silent prayer for forgiveness and hoped that her new life would be better than the challenges of her past. Amidst the turmoil of her thoughts, she repeated to herself with resolute determination:
"My name is Vera Black, and I am from the most ancient and noble family in the wizarding world."
Chapter 8: Class of '96
Summary:
Vera’s first day at Hogwarts is nothing like she imagined. While her classmates master spells with ease, her wand refuses to cooperate. As if struggling in class isn’t enough, a new professor with cruel rules makes the year ahead look even darker. But in the dungeons, something unexpected happens, and her first real spark of magic flares to life.
Notes:
Class of '96 consists of 20 students:
Gryffindor ❤️: Fred & George Weasley, Alicia Spinnet, Angelina Johnson, Lee Jordan, Kenny Towler, Vera Black.
Hufflepuff 💛 : Cedric Diggory, Tommy Mallon, Malika Khan, Patty Stimpson, Jane Corrigan.
Slytherin 💚: Cassius Warrington, Miles Bletchley, Adrian Pucey, Eudora Dlamini, Maddie Park, Sarah McMahon.
Ravenclaw 💙: Ryu Avery, Roger Davies.
Chapter Text
Monday, September 3, 1989
Despite a night of restless tossing and turning, Vera sprang out of bed at 6 a.m., eager for her first day at Hogwarts.
Her magical abilities still felt like a fresh discovery, and she couldn't wait to dive into the world that had only recently revealed itself to her. With purpose, she unbraided her hair and neatly packed her books into the purple bag Miss Nelson had given her for her birthday, taking extra care to avoid any mishaps. Standing in front of the mirror, she admired her uniform with a mix of pride and disbelief, staring for a good half hour as if waiting for some sign that this was all real.
Determined to look her best, she ditched the bandages and slipped on the burgundy gloves that came with the uniform, hoping it would add a touch of elegance. Alicia and Angelina, equally hyped, were busy with their own preparations across the room, pointedly ignoring her.
With her bag slung over her shoulder, she made a beeline for the Great Hall, eager to meet up with Jane and get her hands on her schedule for the year ahead.
"First years, follow me," Professor McGonagall's crisp voice sliced through the chatter, and the group of eleven-year-olds shuffled in line.
“Because the number of new students is so... modest this year, the school has decided on unified classes. That means you’ll all be attending the same lessons together.”
"Cracker news," Tommy muttered to the Weasleys, grinning.
“Absolutely revolting,” Cassius whispered to Miles with a dramatic roll of his eyes.
"You’ll now receive your schedules for the year," McGonagall continued, distributing parchment and maps to each student.
Vera unfolded her schedule with a sense of wonder. The week ahead promised eight classes, each one a tantalizing mystery waiting to be unraveled.
Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays featured Transfiguration, Charms, History of Magic, and Defense Against the Dark Arts.
Tuesdays included Double Potions, Astronomy, and Herbology.
Thursdays followed a comparable pattern but substituted the second potions class with a flying lesson.
After breakfast, the students eagerly made their way to their first class of the day: Transfiguration with.
As Vera stepped into the classroom, she was immediately struck by its size and grandeur. It was a far cry from her old school in Cornwall, which could barely fit the students in its cramped, uninspiring classrooms.
Hogwarts, however, was a different story.
The room was brimming with magic and wonder—cages containing odd and mysterious creatures, chandeliers hanging from a soaring ceiling, and the scent of something magical in the air. The classroom was arranged with 15 desks, each large enough for two students.
Jane, always quick on her feet, darted to the front and claimed a pair of seats for herself and Vera. Behind them, Malika was caught in the middle of a spirited tug-of-war, as Fred, George, and Lee were all vying for the seat next to her. Lee won the coveted spot, leaving the twins to settle for the third desk.
Behind them, Cedric and Tommy had clearly become fast friends, with their camaraderie even more evident after just two days of school. Eudora and Ryu took the front desk beside them, each busy in their own little world—Ryu adjusting his tie, as perfectly symmetrical as ever, and Eudora preening in a small mirror.
Behind them, Cassius and Miles were deep in conversation about Quidditch, their voices rising in excited discussion. Adrian sat alone, but his leg sprawled across the other side of the desk, reserved for Roger Davies.
"Are they, like, friends or something?" Vera whispered to Jane.
"No, not really," Jane replied. "But Roger's in Ravenclaw, so Adrian thinks it's smart to, you know, get in good with him, maybe to get some help with homework."
Patricia 'Patty' and Kenny claimed the front seats in the third column, with Sarah and Maddie sitting behind them. Alicia and Angelina, however, were clustered around a cat perched on Professor McGonagall’s desk, gently petting it with rapt attention.
The bell tolled, chairs scraped, and the classroom fell into order. Then, as if bored of mere purring, the cat on the desk stretched, shimmered, and promptly turned into Professor McGonagall herself.
"That was cracker," Tommy exclaimed in awe, while Alicia and Angelina exchanged embarrassed glances.
The stern professor soon delved into the curriculum, initiating the day's first lesson—transforming a turtle into a notebook. Instructing the students to work, chaos ensued as they hastily embarked on the task.
Cassius and Miles, oozing self-satisfaction, finished first. Their notebooks gleamed a smug shade of green, and they wore matching smirks to go with them.
“This is too easy,” Miles said.
“For us, it is,” Cassius added, practically marinating in arrogance.
Fred and George wrapped up next and immediately turned their turtles into racing champions, lining them at the desk’s edge and shouting encouragement like overzealous bookies. Lee, naturally, placed his wager.
Meanwhile, Cedric and Tommy were too busy cracking up at Tommy’s endless stream of jokes to notice the competition. Somehow, between the punchlines, they still finished third, then kept the comedy show rolling.
Roger and Adrian successfully completed the assignment, with Adrian proudly taking credit, though it was widely clear that Roger had done the heavy lifting.
Sarah and Maddie weren’t so lucky. Sarah somehow misplaced her turtle and marched up to McGonagall for a replacement.
“I swear I saw her stuff it in her bag,” George muttered to Fred.
Meanwhile, Lee was stuck in an endless loop with Malika, who still looked baffled.
“But where did the cat go?” she pressed.
“For the last time, Malika,” Lee groaned, “McGonagall is the cat.”
Ryu and Eudora turned in the most stylish notebooks of the lot, splashed with color and flair that actually earned them a point of praise. Patty, on the other hand, could barely think straight, as Kenny was too busy chattering away with juicy gossip to even notice there was an assignment happening.
Alicia and Angelina’s notebooks didn’t just transform—they mutated. Heavy and slimy on the inside, they sent both girls shrieking in horror. Miles and Adrian nearly fell out of their seats laughing, which, of course, only made the girls’ misery worse.
Jane adeptly transformed the turtle into a notebook and seamlessly reverted it back. However, Vera was struggling.
"How did you manage that?" she asked, her frustration evident.
"It's quite simple really," Jane said, "just concentrate,"
Vera’s frustration mounted as she realized she was the only one still floundering. Everyone else had finished, yet her turtle sat there, smugly ordinary, refusing to cooperate. She’d been flicking her wand and chanting the incantation for what felt like forever, but nothing happened. Maybe, she thought with a sinking feeling, the problem wasn’t her spellwork at all. Maybe the wand had chosen the wrong witch.
Professor McGonagall, sensing her struggle, approached to offer assistance. "Is everything alright, Miss Black?"
"I don't know; I've been attempting it, but it simply won't work."
"Leave it for now, and you can try again later."
Class ended in a blur, and soon everyone shuffled off to Charms. There sat Professor Flitwick, balanced on a tower of books, cheerfully guiding them through their very first spell: levitating a feather.
Vera figured this had to be easier than Transfiguration. Until, of course, every feather in the room floated gracefully while hers clung stubbornly to the desk. After ten minutes of furious swishes and flicks, she chucked the feather skyward and slumped face-first onto the table.
At lunch, Jane tried to soothe her. “It’s okay—”
“No, it’s not!” Vera snapped. “I’m a bloody loser who can’t even lift a feather.”
“It’s just the first class. You’ll get the hang of it.”
But Vera couldn’t let it go. The thrill she’d felt since learning she was a witch had fizzled into something heavier. Magic was supposed to feel wondrous, so why did it look effortless for everyone else while she was left flailing?
Next up was History of Magic with the ever-dreary Professor Binns. Malika could hardly stand him. Not just for his coma-inducing lectures, but because, well, he was a ghost. The boys, naturally, treated her unease as their golden ticket to play the heroes.
As Binns droned on about the Werewolf Code of Conduct, yawns spread like wildfire. Kenny and Patty were already out cold, Eudora busied herself with her nails, Angelina sketched on her desk, and Cassius, Miles, and Adrian passed notes like it was their own private post office. Fred, George, and Tommy? They’d turned the back row into a Quidditch strategy summit.
The only ones still upright and actually listening were Cedric and Vera.
Vera found herself genuinely enjoying History of Magic. Not just because it spared her the humiliation of spellwork, but because the subject itself fascinated her. Back in Cornwall, she had hidden away in the barn with books from the school library, losing herself in tales of far-off worlds and impossible wonders. Those stories had been her escape from long, weary days, and now she was living in something remarkably close to them. Learning about goblins and werewolves—and actually being tested on them—felt like stepping into the very pages she used to cherish. And with her knack for Muggle history, the subject came naturally, only adding to her delight.
The bell rang, and the first-years bolted, abandoning Professor Binns mid-sentence without a shred of guilt. Vera and Kenny were the last to leave, with her inquiring about the syllabus and Kenny still in a post-nap daze. She resorted to tapping his shoulders repeatedly to rouse him from his slumber.
Exiting the classroom, third-year students gathered by the door, preparing for their subsequent History class. Among them was Felix Bobbin, leaned against the wall with one hand in his pocket and holding a book with the other. Despite being surrounded by peers engaged in conversation with him, he appeared unbothered, silent, avoiding eye contact and staring at his feet.
Summoning courage, Vera approached him. "Hiya," she said shyly, placing her hands behind her back.
He glanced up for a split second, then hurriedly pushed past her to get to his class. She stood there, shocked and unsure of how to react. Offended by his dismissive move, she couldn't understand why he would ignore her in such a way. Arriving at her next class, she joined the students waiting for the bell to ring before entering.
"Are you okay?" Jane asked, noticing her distant expression.
"Yeah, I'm alright," she replied, attempting to push aside her thoughts and concentrate on the upcoming lesson.
The students chatted about rumors regarding their new teacher, with Kenny enthusiastically sharing some interesting tidbits.
"Not even the Ministry wanted him as an Auror; they said he was too violent."
"That can't be true," Cedric argued. "Dumbledore wouldn't let him teach here if that was the case."
"Oh, you didn't know?" Roger chimed in. "Dumbledore's been having a hard time filling this position for quite some years now."
"So what?" Alicia said. "Would he let anyone in just because he doesn't have any other choice?"
Roger shrugged. "It's a tricky position."
"Some even say it's cursed," Kenny added, causing the group to gasp.
"That's a load of bullocks," Fred remarked.
"I swear—"
The bell rang before Kenny could finish, prompting the students to hurry inside, eager to secure the best seats. However, upon entering, they were shocked by what awaited them. Only 12 desks stood in front of them, each accommodating two students. Aligned in two columns with 6 seats on each side, the students soon discovered that they were all pre-assigned, each bearing their names on a piece of paper.
"Hurry and sit on your assigned seat," Frey announced, his back turned as he wrote on the chalkboard.
The first years began searching for their designated seats, colliding with each other in the narrow space between the two columns. After a few moments, they were all seated, and as they glanced around, they collectively realized a shocking revelation.
"He must be joking," Fred remarked, arms crossed.
"There's no way he's allowed to do this," Alicia whispered, her expression brimming with anger.
"I think I like him already," Cassius smirked, evidently pleased with the new professor.
The students were divided into two groups.
In the first column, Vera found herself seated in the front row next to Ryu Avery. Behind them were Eudora Dlamini and Adrian Pucey, followed by Jane Corrigan and Miles Bletchley, Cassius Warrington and Roger Davies, while the fifth seat was occupied by Cedric Diggory alone. Fred and George Weasley sat in the last seat. In the second column, Sarah and Maddie occupied the front seats, followed by Patty and Malika, Alicia and Lee, Kenny and Angelina, with Tommy in the final seat by himself.
Ryu - Vera Maddie - Sarah
Eudora - Adrian Patty - Malika
Jane - Miles Alicia - Lee
Cassius - Roger Kenny - Angelina
Cedric Tommy
Fred - George
"My name is Professor Frey," the professor began, his hands clasped behind his back as he addressed one particular group within the class, "and you may only address me as such. You shall have the honor of attending my class this year."
The twins exchanged an eye roll.
"Now, let's waste no time," Frey continued briskly. "Open your books to the first chapter."
Before they knew it, he launched into a rapid reading of the chapter, offering no explanations or answering any questions. Observing that both he and Cedric were seated alone seemingly without reason, Tommy rose from his seat and walked over to join his friend.
"What do you think you’re doing?" Frey suddenly yelled, causing the class to startle.
“I…” Tommy began to stutter.
“What is your name?” Frey sneered.
“Thomas Mallon, sir,”
“Well congratulations Mallon, you just earned yourself and Diggory detention on your first day.”
"But sir, we're both sitting alon—,"
"And now you've earned yourself another week of detention."
"But sir—"
"One more word, and you'll have detention for a month. Now, back to your seat!"
Tommy returned slowly to his seat, his face flushed with anger.
“Look at his face,” Adrian laughed, turning to Miles.
“Botttt Sarrrr,” Miles said, mocking Tommy’s accent.
"You are to maintain these seats until the end of the year," Frey asserted with a stern tone. "Any deviation from your assigned seat will result in punishment."
Fred and George were seething with frustration, Tommy’s leg wouldn't stop shaking, and Miles and Cassius were stifling giggles, evidently finding amusement in Frey's decree.
Vera wasn’t exactly thrilled to be seated next to Ryu Avery, the same boy who’d mocked her clothes on the train. Still, she found herself sneaking glances at him. He sat with flawless posture, chin high, utterly absorbed in Frey’s lecture, and that subtle, captivating scent only made it harder to look away. Up close, he was even more striking, and watching him take notes without so much as a glance at his parchment left her secretly impressed.
God, even his handwriting is perfect, she thought, a pang of envy creeping in.
Ryu seemed largely unbothered by her presence, though she caught the occasional glance he threw her way, lingering on her dark hair just long enough to make her feel like he was silently assessing her.
As the lesson dragged on, Miles and Adrian—lined up one behind the other—kept up their constant whispering, shoving Vera’s concentration out the window. Their chatter was far from subtle, and she couldn’t fathom why Frey hadn’t put a stop to it yet.
The new professor clearly had no love for hands-on teaching, preferring to stick to theory. He bombarded the class with facts about dark creatures—their types, traits, habitats, diets, and more—all at a dizzying pace. Vera did her best to keep up, but the sheer avalanche of information left her reeling.
“In five minutes, I will be cleaning the board,” Frey announced, pausing the lesson just long enough to throw the class into action.
Quills scratched across parchment as students copied frantically. Vera, in particular, wrestled with her ink while Frey patrolled the room, dishing out smiles to some and subtle scowls to others.
"Mr. Avery, how is your father?" He inquired, directing his attention to Ryu, who remained fixated on the board. "I trust his stewardship of the ministry is proceeding smoothly?"
"Yes," Ryu replied with a bored tone.
"Ah, very good indeed. Overseeing the ministry’s finances is a formidable task," Frey remarked, his smile directed at Ryu, who appeared to deliberately ignore him.
Turning to the nervous Vera, he continued, "I've heard you reside with your great aunt, Miss Black?"
Vera nodded nervously, realizing Frey seemed unaware of her true situation, unlike McGonagall or Hagrid. Uncertain of what to disclose, she opted for silence, avoiding falsehoods.
"Ah, it must be truly enriching to learn from such a wise woman. Please convey my regards to her,"
She nodded again, wishing she could disappear from the scrutiny of her peers. At this point, she would rather die than tell them the truth about her.
"You as well, Mr. Warrington," He then addressed Cassius. "Do extend my regards to your father. We are acquainted, you know."
Cassius's demeanor tensed at the mention of his father, nodding curtly before returning to his writing.
"When might we delve into defensive spells, sir?" Kenny dared to ask, and Frey's smile quickly transformed into a stern glare.
“I refuse to be dictated to regarding the curriculum!" He asserted firmly, causing Kenny to recoil.
He then swiftly turned to clean the board, despite the students' protests that they hadn't finished copying.
"Silence!" His sharp shout caused an immediate hush to fall over the classroom. "You will now work in pairs to classify the mentioned dark creatures based on their dietary habits. Diggory and the other boy, you will work independently on this."
Vera glanced at Ryu, already absorbed in scribbling his answers. “Wouldn’t you like to discuss it first?” she asked.
“No need,” he said coolly, eyes glued to his parchment. “I can do it for both of us.”
With a dramatic eye roll and an exasperated sigh, she snatched the parchment from him. “Don’t bloody think so.”
“Fine,” he muttered, surrendering as her glare made it clear she meant business.
They began hashing out the answers, Vera taking the reins when it came to writing them down. She couldn’t help feeling self-conscious about her handwriting, and Ryu’s occasional smirks didn’t help. Eventually, his focus drifted from her script to her face, watching her intently as she concentrated on the task at hand.
“Is there a problem, Avery?” she asked, catching his intense stare.
“Your eyes are blue.”
She couldn’t help but cringe. “And they say Ravenclaws are the smartest? How funny.”
“No, I mean,” he clarified, “your eyes are blue, but your right eye has a hint of hazel. Have you ever noticed?”
“Why, thank you for pointing that out, sir,” she replied mockingly, slipping into a posh accent. “I, alas, own no mirrors.”
“I think they’re nice, really,” he said, and her cheeks betrayed her with an involuntary blush.
“But your eyebrows could use some grooming,” he added, and just like that, the color drained from her face.
“Excuse me? What’s wrong with my eyebrows exactly?”
“Eyebrow,” he corrected.
“What?”
“Singular.”
Vera’s anger simmered, ready to boil over at his jab. But before she could fire back, Frey announced the end of the task, cutting her revenge short.
Fred and George, normally the class clowns, stayed unusually quiet, scribbling notes like model students—at least for once. The stillness shattered when Adrian discreetly flicked his wand at Fred’s ink bottle, sending it clattering to the floor.
“DETENTION, WEASLEYS!” Frey barked.
The class collectively gaped, muttering about the unfairness, while Adrian and Miles dissolved into hysterical laughter. The twins said nothing—wise enough to know that arguing would only double their punishment.
The bell rang, and the students began preparing to leave when Frey abruptly snapped at them. "You will only leave when I tell you to leave. Now, sit. Back. Down!"
They sank back into their seats, and Frey continued explaining the lesson for fifteen additional minutes.
As they spilled out of the classroom, chatter erupted like a shaken cauldron.
"Is this how it's going to be for the rest of the year?" Alicia questioned.
"There's no way he separated us like that." Roger grumbled. "What does he think this is? The 1940s?"
Vera walked alongside Jane, who didn't appear overly bothered by Frey's decision.
"I mean, he's our professor," she said to Vera. "He knows what's best for us."
While Vera didn't quite grasp the significance of the seating arrangement, she was upset by how he treated the twins.
“Adrian and Miles didn’t shut up once all class, and he didn’t say a word to them. He clearly has it out for Fred and George.”
Jane remained silent, merely shaking her head.
“And that Avery is getting on my last nerve!” Vera continued.
“What did he do?”
“He said I have a unibrow!”
Jane chuckled.
“DON’T LAUGH,”
“I’m sorry Vera, but you sort of do.”
Meanwhile, Fred and George were already hatching plans for retaliation.
"This is going to be an interesting year, Freddie."
"Oh, it most certainly will be, Georgie."
Later that afternoon, Vera threw herself into practicing spells, but no matter how hard she tried, magic stubbornly refused to obey her.
Maybe Mr. Ollivander gave me a plastic stick or something, she muttered after two hours of fruitless attempts. Frustration mounting, she finally tossed her wand aside in exasperation. Deciding on a change of pace, she picked up a potions book instead, determined to at least be ready for tomorrow’s class.
Double Potions with Professor Snape was dreaded by nearly everyone, especially after Fred and George had regaled them with tales of the Hogwarts’ strictest professor. Yet, when Vera opened the textbook, she was surprised to find herself captivated.
“It’s like science,” she murmured, flipping through the pages. Before she knew it, she had read the entire chapter, taking meticulous notes along the way. Just as she was ready to dive into the next section, Alicia and Angelina burst into the room, giggling and shattering her focus.
"I swear they're planning something,"
"They're gonna get in so much trouble!"
"They're bloody idiots, for sure."
Curious about their conversation, Vera longed to join in but felt too self-conscious to speak. Watching Alicia and Angelina, she realized the Gryffindor girls weren’t mean or arrogant—they were lively, approachable, and well-liked by everyone… except the poshlanders, who kept to themselves.
A twinge of isolation hit her as they didn’t reach out, and self-doubt crept in. Why couldn’t friendships come as easily to her as they did to others? Shaking off the thoughts, she refocused on her potions notes, determined not to let them distract her.
Tuesday, September 4, 1989
During breakfast the following day, she encountered Jane, who was noticeably anxious about the upcoming class.
"It's two hours of having to be around a cauldron!" She exclaimed with a mouthful. "I'd prefer to die!"
"It can't be that bad."
"Are you joking? I don’t even know how to add sugar to my own tea, let alone brew a potion."
Vera chuckled at her friend's apprehension, though she kept her own excitement for the upcoming class to herself.
"And Snape," Jane continued, anxiously devouring her plate. "For Merlin's sake, he's intimidating. I can't even imagine if he scolded me or something."
"Why would he scold you? You hardly speak during classes."
"What if he scolded me for not speaking?"
Having wolfed down breakfast at record speed, the students hurried across the castle to the far-flung potions lab—only to discover their classroom was buried underground.
The moment Vera stepped inside, she was nearly overwhelmed. Cauldrons bubbled like restless kettles, flasks brimmed with suspiciously glowing liquids, and jars of herbs jostled for space alongside scales, mortars, and pestles. Strange scents—sharp, sweet, and faintly sinister—twined together in the air. Four hefty tables filled the round, low-ceilinged chamber, each ready to seat five would-be potion-makers.
The Poshlanders swooped in to seize a table before anyone could blink, while the rest scattered like startled geese. Vera ended up with Jane, Roger, Sarah, and Maddie; Alicia, Angelina, Kenny, Patty, and Malika banded together at the next. That left the final table to the Weasleys, Tommy, Cedric, and Lee—no doubt the liveliest corner of the dungeon.
The bell rang, and with a sharp crack the dungeon door flew open. In swept Professor Snape, his black robes billowing like storm clouds, his gaze enough to freeze the chatter. Vera studied him warily: long, oily hair framed a pale, hawkish face, and his eyes cut through the room like daggers. He wasn’t quite the monster Fred and George had promised, but he certainly wasn’t anyone’s idea of friendly.
He wasted no time laying down his rules, his voice silken but edged with steel. The first hour crept by in an icy haze of expectations: a dry syllabus rundown, a brisk introduction to the intimidating arsenal of cauldrons, flasks, and scales. He then cracked open the first chapter of their text—the charmingly titled cure for boils.
“What are boils, exactly?” Malika muttered to Kenny.
Snape’s head snapped up. “Two points from Hufflepuff if you ever feel the urge to whisper again.”
The silence that followed was suffocating.
"You will now brew your first potion." He continued. "The ingredients are before you. The instructions are in your book. You will not ask for help. Is that clear?”
No one dared speak. Dozens of heads bobbed in unison.
“If your potion succeeds, you will see pink smoke. If it fails, you will see green—and boils will blossom on your skin instead of vanishing. Consider it… an incentive.”
Across the room, Tommy leaned toward Fred and George, eyes gleaming. “Well, lads, this is it,” he whispered, and the twins grinned back.
The class dove in with the enthusiasm of toddlers lighting their first fireworks—loud, messy, and disastrously uncoordinated. Few bothered to actually read the recipe. Vera, however, calmly consulted her notebook, double-checking each step before lifting a finger. Snape’s sharp eyes flicked her way, and for the briefest of moments his mouth twitched—almost a smile. The spell was promptly broken by the crash of shattering glass.
Lee stood frozen above the wreckage of a broken flask.
“Five points from Gryffindor,” Snape declared.
The groans from the red-and-gold corner were cut short by the frantic bubbling of overheated cauldrons and the clatter of students fumbling with scales. Chaos was brewing faster than the potions themselves.
Cassius, naturally, looked irritatingly confident. He completed the first step with precision, earning Slytherin a point and a curt nod from Snape.
“That’s rubbish,” Fred and George muttered in unison, glaring at him.
At the next table, Malika paled at the sight of snake fangs waiting to be crushed, while Sarah, with suspicious nonchalance, slipped a few into her pocket.
“Planning to make jewellery?” Maddie teased, arching a brow. Sarah smirked but said nothing.
Cedric, meanwhile, was in full-blown crisis mode. His potion had failed three times already; his cheeks were red, his usually neat hair stuck out in sweaty tufts. Tommy, utterly unconcerned, seemed far more invested in some whispered scheme with the twins.
“Do you dare me?” Lee suddenly hissed.
“Dare you what?” Cedric sighed, sounding thoroughly done.
“To eat one of the slugs.”
Cedric blinked. “You do realize you only get four horned slugs, right? Three won’t save your potion.”
Lee paused, slug dangling between his fingers. “Oh. Right.”
Eudora let out an exasperated mutter in another language as Flobberworm mucus landed on her white blouse. Ryu, standing beside her, waved his wand with effortless precision, and the shirt was instantly spotless.
“No need for the fuss, Dora,” he muttered, his tone edged with mild annoyance.
Snape prowled between the tables like a watchful shadow, occasionally snapping at a student or giving a sharp rap to the head with the book in his hand. When he reached Vera’s table, he paused. His dark eyes flicked over her work as he rested his fingers against his chin. Vera’s hands trembled slightly, but she forced herself to keep going.
Then his voice, low and cutting, sliced through her concentration. “Why did you do that?”
She froze. “Excuse me, sir?”
“The instructions call for dried nettles. Not soaked dried nettles.”
“Oh… I thought it might, um, speed things up.”
One eyebrow arched. “Explain.”
She swallowed. “Soaking extracts the active compounds faster—at least, that’s what I read. I thought it would make the potion more efficient.”
Snape regarded her in silence, his gaze sharp enough to cut glass. For a moment, she thought he might scold her into the floor. Instead, he gave a faint, skeptical hum, shook his head, and swept away with a swirl of robes.
Her pulse still raced, and she wasn’t sure if she’d impressed him or doomed herself on her very first day.
“Ten minutes remain,” he announced, his voice slicing through the dungeon like a blade.
Panic reigned. Cedric was still fumbling at step two, Malika hadn’t even lit her fire, and Lee managed to nick his finger on the onions, yelping as the stench made his eyes water. Patty, who’d forgotten just how viciously strong they were, was left blinking furiously through streaming tears. At the next table, Kenny misjudged his timing and added porcupine quills before removing his cauldron from the flame—promptly reducing it to a molten puddle.
Around the room, cauldrons belched streams of ominous green smoke. Failure, according to Snape’s decree. Only three cauldrons glowed with the telltale pink vapor: Cassius’s, Ryu’s, and Vera’s.
Roger scowled at his own hissing mess, disbelief written across his face. He’d measured, stirred, and timed everything exactly as written. Yet there was Vera, her potion behaving perfectly.
“How did it work for you?” he asked, frustrated.
She glanced at her gently swirling potion, then at him, and gave a helpless shrug. She had no idea herself.
As Snape prowled between tables, distributing notes with disdainful commentary, Vera caught sight of Tommy and the twins whispering furiously. Their hands moved with suspicious precision, folding a scrap of parchment into a tiny packet. She realized, with a mix of dread and curiosity, that they’d wrapped it around bulbadox powder. A discreet flick of a wand later, the little bundle floated across the dungeon and plopped neatly into Adrian’s cauldron.
“This’ll teach him,” Tommy muttered under his breath.
The result was immediate. With a deafening boom, Adrian’s cauldron erupted like a volcano, showering his tablemates in scalding potion. Shrieks filled the air as angry red boils blossomed across faces and hands. Eudora burst into tears, Ryu grabbed at Miles’s robe in a desperate attempt to wipe his own skin clean, and Cassius—though outwardly composed—seethed with barely suppressed fury.
Laughter rippled through the dungeon. Vera tried, and failed, to smother her giggles; Jane, meanwhile, looked horrified.
Snape, however, drew the wrong conclusion. “Pathetic,” he snapped, glaring at Adrian. “If you cannot follow simple instructions, you have no business holding a wand.”
He ordered the whole group to the hospital wing, his voice as icy as ever.
Then, almost as an afterthought, he added, “Take Black’s potion with you. It may spare Madam Pomfrey some time.”
The words sent a warm jolt of pride through Vera. For once, she hadn’t just kept up... She’d stood out.
Chapter 9: Vera's Curious Case
Summary:
Flying lessons, football with a cabbage, and secret letters from Kaya—Vera’s Hogwarts days are a whirlwind of triumphs, disasters, and stolen moments of joy. But when Madam Pomfrey uncovers something strange beneath her gloves, the laughter fades, replaced by a persistent worry that she is one mistake away from losing it all.
Chapter Text
Thursday, September 7, 1989
“Up.”
“Uppp.”
“Come on, up!”
“UP, YOU STUPID BLOODY STICK!”
Vera’s first flying lesson went about as well as a rock trying to sprout wings. While her classmates zoomed around like they were born on broomsticks, she couldn’t get hers to twitch. Madam Hooch, ever the picture of patience, finally suggested she try the radical art of sitting on the grass for the rest of the lesson. From the sidelines, Vera watched rings conquered, loops attempted, and even a few reckless tricks—each one twisting the knife deeper. By the end, her broom had won the war, and she had lost her composure.
She cried all through lunch, Jane loyally camped at her side.
“It’s alright, Vera." Jane said, rubbing her back. "It happens.”
“No, it doesn’t!” Vera snapped, tears dripping dramatically into her pumpkin juice. “Everyone flew—everyone but me!”
“Malika didn’t fly.”
“That’s because she was scared! I couldn’t even make mine shiver!”
Jane’s sympathy deepened, though words failed her.
Vera finally slumped. “I should’ve known it was too good to be true…”
Jane frowned. “What do you mean?”
Vera hesitated, then lifted her gaze. She couldn’t say it aloud, but the fear gnawed at her: maybe the hat had lied, the wand had glitched, the letters had been a clerical error. Maybe she wasn’t really a witch at all—just an ordinary girl sentenced to extraordinary misery, while the world played a cruel joke at her expense.
The very idea of happiness felt foreign, like some rare commodity reserved for other people, never meant for the likes of Vera Black. Tears streaked down her cheeks as she kept her gaze fixed on the table, until a gentle rumble broke through her misery.
“Didn’ quite catch you at breakfast, Miss Black.”
She turned and found herself looking up at Hagrid, tools clutched in one massive hand, a letter pinched delicately in the other.
“Hello, Mr. Hagrid,” she said quickly, wiping at her face with her gloves. “I ate early so I could head to the potions lab.”
“Well, good thing you’re here now,” he said, smiling. “This just came for yeh.”
The moment the envelope touched her hands, her mood shifted like a spell had been cast. It was from Kaya, her best friend back in London. She thanked the half-giant profusely, then snatched up a butter knife to slit the seal.
Beside her, Jane leaned in curiously. “Why’d Hagrid give it to you?”
Vera froze, her mind scrambling. “Oh… um… my owl’s sick.”
Dear Vera,
I couldn't stop laughing when I got your letter. What kind of school doesn't have a telephone? Do they not have a telly either? If not, I'm ready to come to Scotland and rescue you myself. I miss you loads! Your school sounds mint. I wish you had a camera to send me photos of it all. As for those girls in your dorm, they sound like proper bitches. Don't let them bother you, Vera. You are lovely and cool, and I'm sure you will find friends in no time. Remember, you are better than all of them. They had everything, and you had nothing, and now you are all in the same school. So, you are not an outsider, you are a fighter!
Everyone sends their regards, and Miss Nelson says to remember what she told you at the train station. What was it? I'm dying to know. I don't know how to end letters, but I love you!
Sincerely,
Kaya Sterling
A smile spread across Vera’s face as she drank in Kaya’s words. Memories of their summer together came rushing back, warm and steadying, like sunlight breaking through storm clouds. It amazed her how someone she’d known for barely two months could already feel indispensable. She had never met anyone like Kaya, never known a friendship that felt so fierce and unwavering. And when she reached the end—when she read those three words—she realized it was the first time anyone had ever told her, I love you.
The despair that had nearly crushed her minutes before dissolved into something else: resolve. For Kaya, for Miss Nelson—her fiercest champion—she couldn’t just give in. The letter had reminded her there was hope, and she wasn’t ready to let go of it.
So she wrote back. Again and again. Soon, the rhythm of their letters became the heartbeat of her days at Hogwarts: Mondays were for writing, Thursdays for receiving. She even began skipping breakfast on Thursdays, sneaking straight to Hagrid to collect Kaya’s reply. It was easier that way. Just her, the half-giant, and the envelope she couldn’t wait to tear open, no prying questions attached.
Saturday, September 30, 1989
By the end of September, her days revolved almost entirely around her determination to improve at magic. The sting of her early failures still lingered, but she forced herself toward hope instead of despair. Every afternoon, she drilled spells in her dormitory—most of them fizzling into nothing—then spent weekends buried in the library stacks. Jane often kept her company, and when they weren’t studying, the two roamed the castle grounds, getting to know every corner of Hogwarts.
Vera also found comfort in painting. Whenever she spotted a view that struck her, she captured it on paper and tucked the sketch into a letter for Kaya. In her careful retellings, potions became “science,” history of magic was simply “history,” and Defense Against the Dark Arts morphed into “Arts.” She wrote about the Poshlanders, Ryu’s insufferable remarks, the twins and Lee’s endless pranks, and Sarah’s peculiar talent with animals—all scrubbed clean of any magical fingerprints.
Kaya, in turn, filled her letters with her own school stories and neighborhood news. The girls in London were getting along, though Abbie and Lydia had already landed themselves in trouble—and suspension. Miss Nelson, meanwhile, was still meeting someone mysterious at the café down the street, fueling endless speculation. And Em had gone off to Cardiff on a university scholarship.
Vera missed St. Mary’s more than she cared to admit, but Hogwarts had its perks—namely, not being completely miserable. While she enjoyed Jane's company most of the time, she found the posh girl a bit too reserved for her taste. Consequently, she chose to spend time with Tommy, who seemed to share more similarities with her, possibly due to his Muggle-born background or similar upbringing.
“We can’t use a Quaffle, Tommy,” she groaned, eyeing their improvised football pitch in the courtyard. “Kicking that thing’s like punting a brick-shaped potato.”
Tommy frowned. “So what do we use, then?”
“We don’t exactly need a ball. Could just kick a can.”
“A can? That’s the dullest idea I’ve ever heard.”
“Well, excuse me for trying to make do in the middle of a bloody castle!"
Cedric, still baffled by the whole ordeal, chimed in. “So… you just score more goals than the other team, and you win?”
“Yes, Cedric,” Vera and Tommy said together.
“That’s it?” He frowned, clearly waiting for secret rules involving dragons.
Vera smirked. “That’s it. No wands. No brooms. Just feet and a ball-shaped object.”
Cedric scratched his head. “Dunno… sounds dodgy.”
Before Vera could defend the honor of football, Fred and George came tearing in.
“WE’VE GOT IT!” Fred bellowed.
Vera turned—and promptly snorted. “That’s a cabbage.”
“It’s round, innit?” Fred said, holding it aloft like the Crown Jewels.
“And light,” George added.
“We even charmed it so it won’t explode mid-kick.”
“So, it's perfect!”
Tommy shook his head. “I’m not kicking a cabbage! My mum would kill me for wasting food.”
“Well, it’s this or thin air,” Fred shot back.
“Or a can,” Vera muttered. “A can, people. My mates and I use one all the time back home.”
Cedric squinted at her. “Wait—you play this at home?”
“Uh, yeah?” she said, wondering what alternate universe Cedric lived in.
“And your family… allows it?”
Vera stared at him. Why wouldn't they be okay with football? Perhaps Cedric thought it was a game only for boys. But before he could ask anything else, George interrupted.
“Enough talking—let’s play! We’ll feed the cabbage to Hagrid’s beasts after. Waste not, want not.”
“Oh yes,” Vera muttered as they kicked off. “Because Hagrid’s creatures will definitely appreciate a half-deflated, trampled cabbage.”
Within minutes, the “match” had devolved into pure chaos. The twins were wrestling each other more than the cabbage, and Cedric looked like he’d aged twenty years.
“FOR THE LAST TIME, FRED, YOU CAN’T USE YOUR HANDS!” Vera barked, planting her fists on her hips.
"Too many rules!" Fred groaned. "This game’s well daft!"
Cedric, wheezing like a broken kettle, croaked, “Merlin’s beard—I’m knackered. Muggles do this for fun?”
“Right, forget the rules,” Vera sighed, watching the cabbage roll pitifully across the courtyard. “We’ll just do free kicks.”
“Brilliant,” Tommy said between gulps of air.
George squinted. “And free kicks are…?”
Vera rubbed her temples. “Free… kicks. As in—you kick... You know what? Never mind.”
"So confusing," Cedric repeated, still puffing like an old steam train.
Just as they were lining up, an unexpected and unwelcome trio approached. Cassius, Adrian, and Miles strode over with sneers etched on their faces, their eyes fixed disdainfully on the makeshift cabbage ball.
“Well, well,” Cassius drawled. "Playing with vegetables now, Weasels?"
Adrian and Miles snickered like trained hyenas. The twins shot each other a quick look, but neither flinched.
“We’re just having a bit of fun,” Fred said. “Ever heard of fun, Warrington?”
Cassius’s grin widened. “Fun, huh? With what—Hagrid’s leftovers?”
“Keep at it, Weasels,” Miles sneered. “Maybe the cabbage’ll sprout galleons if you kick it hard enough.”
“Can’t even afford a real ball, can you?” Adrian piled on.
George folded his arms. “It's called being resourceful.”
“More like plain poor,” Adrian said.
“Better to be short on gold than on manners.” George shot back smoothly.
Vera felt a twist in her stomach. The thought that the Weasleys might be struggling financially hadn’t even crossed her mind until now. For some reason, she had innocently assumed everyone in the wizarding world would be wealthy because of magic. It didn’t make sense to her that poverty was also prevalent here.
But the twins? They didn’t flinch. The insults rolled right off them. No shame, no excuses—just defiance. Vera admired that. In fact, she envied it. She wished she could face her own poverty with that kind of shameless courage.
“We don’t need your commentary,” she said firmly, though a pang of guilt tugged at her as she stepped forward.
Cassius’s lip curled. “And you’ve dragged Black along too. Why not join us, Vera? Before this lot pollute you any further.”
“Pollute?” Vera repeated, blinking. What on earth did he think they were doing—rolling in sewage?
Sensing the shift, Tommy jumped in. “Why don’t you join us? Proper fun, this is.”
Adrian snorted. “Us? Play with you?”
Miles wrinkled his nose. “It’s humiliating enough we’re talking to you.”
Then Cassius jabbed a finger at Tommy. “And look at his trousers! Honestly, you could house Hagrid and his dog in those.”
Tommy's face reddened with anger, though he tried to maintain composure. “Big talk from someone dressed like my granda.”
Cassius smirked. “You couldn’t afford a button off my suit.”
“Even if I could, I’d die of shame wearing it.”
Cassius leaned in. “Exactly… if.”
“How does it feel, Mallon?" Adrian sneered. "Not just a Mudblood—but a poor one, too.”
Even their insults are posh, Vera thought, clueless to the weight of the word.
“That’s enough!” Cedric barked, fists clenched.
“Know your place, Diggory,” Adrian hissed, stepping closer.
Before Cedric could reply, Vera piped up sweetly, “Oi, Pucey! Fancy a cabbage?”
All three turned just in time for her boot to connect with the “ball.” The cabbage rocketed straight into Adrian’s face, smacking him so hard he staggered back with a yelp. The twins collapsed into laughter, Tommy doubled over wheezing, and even Cedric’s fury cracked into a reluctant grin.
With Adrian reeling, Miles flapping, and Cassius too busy sputtering, Vera shouted, “Leg it!” and the lot of them tore off.
Their laughter bounced off the stone walls as they sprinted down the corridors, breathless and giddy.
“That was cracker!” Tommy crowed, slapping Vera a victorious high-five.
To her astonishment, the Poshlanders didn’t march off to Snape or plot some elaborate payback. No detentions, no hexes in the back, not even a nasty whisper the next day. The whole affair had vanished as if it never happened. Maybe they realized they’d crossed a line. Or maybe the Black name still carried just enough weight to make them think twice.
Either way, Vera couldn’t deny the thrill of it. After years of being on the receiving end of privileged cruelty, she’d finally learned their power only worked if she let it. And discovering she was immune? That felt downright intoxicating.
Friday, October 6, 1989
The cabbage incident faded quickly into the background as the grind of schoolwork closed in. Leisure became a distant memory under the weight of McGonagall’s endless assignments, Binns’s sleep-inducing droning, Snape’s exacting standards, and Frey’s newfound obsession with rules. It was a relentless onslaught, but Vera refused to cave. Still, no matter how fiercely she pushed herself, her spells stubbornly fizzled more often than they sparked—enough to make a few professors begin exchanging worried glances.
One Friday afternoon, during Professor Frey's class, a fifth-year prefect disrupted the lesson.
"Excuse me, Professor," the prefect nervously announced, standing by the classroom door with a piece of parchment in his hand.
"What?" Frey replied coldly, his gaze fixed on the board.
The prefect approached him, extending the parchment. Lowering his glasses on his nose, Frey glanced at it and then directed his attention to Vera, who was seated at the front of the class.
"Miss Black, you may leave."
Vera looked up, perplexed. The prefect seemed to be waiting for her to accompany him, prompting her to gather her belongings in her bag and follow him out the door. The rest of the class mirrored her confusion, their eyes tracking her departure until Frey sternly reminded them to refocus.
The two strolled down the corridor, the prefect leading the way, and Vera's confusion deepened as they headed toward the south wing of the castle.
"Um... excuse me?" She finally spoke up. "Where are we going?"
"To the hospital wing," he answered calmly.
The hospital wing? She couldn't fathom why she would be summoned there. She wasn't sick or feeling unwell. Despite her perplexity, she refrained from questioning him and courteously followed behind. It marked her first visit to this side of the castle, leaving her in awe as always.
Upon reaching the hospital wing, her eyes swept across the surroundings. The hall, with its high ceiling, exuded a sense of order and warmth. It defied her expectations, and she couldn't help but harbor a secret desire to fall ill just to experience it again. The prefect led her to a small room situated at the hall's entrance, where he knocked, alerting the hospital matron.
Madam Pomfrey exhibited a warm demeanor; her kind smile and gentle voice alleviated Vera's unease about the abrupt summoning. Expressing gratitude to the prefect, she then guided Vera to take a seat on a nearby bed.
"I am sorry for interrupting your class, dear," she kindly said.
Not at all, Vera thought. She was, in fact, rescued from Frey's hell.
"You are probably wondering why you are here, but don't you worry; it is just a cautionary procedure."
"I don't understand," Vera said. "I am not sick, ma’am."
"You are not, of course, but there is something happening with you that we need to unravel."
Vera's stomach dropped.
“Lumos.”
Madam Pomfrey gracefully wielded her wand, casting a gentle, illuminating light. With precision, she moved the wand in front of Vera's eyes, prompting her to follow the light's path. Next, she placed a hand on her forehead, gauging her temperature. Her gaze then shifted to the Vera's hands.
"A bit warm to be wearing those," she said, her gaze fixed on the burgundy gloves. "Don't you think, dear?"
Up until now, Vera had successfully convinced anyone who inquired about her gloves by telling them she has a condition that made her hands cold all the time. However, she knew she couldn't deceive the school's healer, who was well aware that such a condition didn't exist.
“Could you take them off, please?” she asked gently.
Vera peeled back the gloves with deliberate care, revealing her hands inch by inch. Pomfrey moved to the desk, returning with a small tray of tools, but when her eyes fell on Vera’s bare hands, her professional composure faltered.
Pale as parchment, Vera’s fingers were marked with a dark line reaching the joints; her nails were shadowed at the tips, and the veins across her palms pulsed with a deep, bruised purple.
“When did this happen?” Pomfrey asked, concern sharpening her voice.
Vera hesitated, swallowing. “About a month ago.”
“Oh, dear,” the healer murmured, eyes widening. “And… do they hurt?”
Vera shook her head. “Not really.”
Pomfrey pressed a hand to her chest, studying the peculiar hands with careful scrutiny. After a pause, she resolved to proceed. In her fingers, a small needle gleamed, prompting a flicker of anxiety in Vera.
“Just a tiny prick, dear,” Pomfrey offered, her voice soft but reassuring.
Before Vera could protest, the healer grasped her hand and pricked her index finger. A single drop of blood welled up, and Vera winced.
“I’m sorry, dear! Did that hurt?”
Vera shook her head, though the pain echoed in her voice. “No… it’s… my head. My head hurts.”
Pomfrey’s brow furrowed in puzzlement, but she refocused on the drop of blood. Dark, burnt-maroon, thick, and redolent of iron, it seemed almost unnatural. She carefully collected it in a tiny bottle before bandaging Vera’s finger.
“All done, Miss Black,” she said, her tone calm, though her eyes betrayed lingering concern.
Still wincing from the headache, Vera fished her gloves from her lap and slid them back on while Madam Pomfrey scribbled notes on her clipboard.
“What’s the blood for?” Vera asked, rubbing her temple.
“Oh, just some standardized tests.”
“Does that mean… something’s wrong with me?”
Pomfrey’s eyes softened with a touch of pity as she settled on the edge of the bed, setting the clipboard aside. “I don’t believe there’s cause for alarm, dear. Witches and wizards have encountered similar conditions before.”
Vera frowned. “What condition?”
“You’ve had difficulties casting spells, yes?”
A jolt of anxiety tightened Vera’s stomach. “I… I’m not a witch?” she whispered, voice trembling.
“You most certainly are, dear. Otherwise, why would you be at Hogwarts?”
She bit her lip, glancing down at her gloves. “Then… why can’t I cast any spells?”
“That’s exactly what we’re investigating.”
“So…” Vera hesitated, her fingers twitching inside the gloves. “I… I can stay at Hogwarts?”
Pomfrey chuckled. “Absolutely.”
Vera drew a deep breath, feeling a weight lift from her chest for the first time in weeks.
“Now, about the headache,” Pomfrey continued. “Does it happen often?”
“Not always,” Vera admitted, rubbing her temple. “Sometimes… when someone touches my hands, I get one.”
“Interesting…” Pomfrey murmured, pen poised over her notes.
“You said you’d give me willow bark to ease it,” Vera added hopefully. “Could I… have it now?”
Pomfrey blinked. “Did I say that?”
“Um… yes?”
“My memory seems to be failing me these days,” Pomfrey confessed with a soft chuckle.
She bustled over to the medicine cupboard at the hall entrance. Vera’s head spun, fatigue washing over her, nausea threatening. Pomfrey returned with a small glass of willow bark extract, and Vera downed it in one go, ignoring the bitter tang.
“It’ll take a few moments to work,” Pomfrey said.
Vera nodded, leaning back and waiting.
“I could have used a healing charm to relieve the pain instantly,” Pomfrey added, “but with your… fragile condition, that wouldn’t be wise.”
Slowly, the willow bark began to take effect, and Vera felt the weight on her head lift. She drew a deep breath and grabbed a cup of water from the bedside table, washing away the lingering bitterness.
“Better?” Pomfrey asked.
“Much better, thank you, ma’am.”
The healer settled back in her chair, clipboard in hand, positioning herself in front of Vera.
“If it’s all right, I’d like to ask a few more questions,” she began.
Vera nodded.
“I need you to be completely honest, dear; it’s very important.”
Another nod.
“Let’s start then,” Pomfrey said, adjusting her chair and closing the distance. “Tell me about what happened a month ago.”
“You mean… when I made the pantry door open?”
“Is that what happened?”
“I… I don’t really remember.”
“What do you recall?”
“I was locked in the pantry. It was dark. I felt scared… angry… and I screamed for help.”
Pomfrey jotted a note. “And then?”
“The door started shaking and… it opened on its own.”
“Did it slam or open gently?”
“I think it slammed,” Vera said, shrugging, unsure why it mattered.
Another note went onto the clipboard. “And after that?”
“I fainted,” Vera said. “My friend said I was bleeding from my nose too.”
“Aha,” Pomfrey murmured, recording it. “When you woke, how did you feel?”
“My head hurt… and I was thirsty.”
“Understood.”
“I didn’t know it was magic at the time, ma'am.”
Pomfrey paused. “What did you think it was, then?”
Vera shrugged, silent.
“Very well,” Pomfrey said, jotting another note. “Now, let’s talk about the farm.”
“The… farm?” Vera asked, taken aback.
“You lived on a farm in North Cornwall for three years, yes?”
“Yes,” Vera replied cautiously.
“Did anything happen there like the pantry incident?”
Vera stared at her feet.
“Anything unexplainable..." Pomfrey pressed. "Magical, perhaps?”
“No,” Vera said firmly, meeting the healer's gaze.
“Try to remember, dear.”
“Nothing happened.”
“Are you certain?”
She paused, then said, “I’m sure.”
“Very well…” Pomfrey murmured, still jotting notes, though her brow betrayed a hint of skepticism. Vera felt the familiar fatigue creeping in.
“May I be excused now?” she asked.
“Of course, dear,” Pomfrey replied kindly.
Vera slung her bag over her shoulder and made her way out of the hospital wing. By the time she emerged, the last class of the day had already ended. She wandered the campus, her mind buzzing with unease. An underlying concern lingered that something might be deeply wrong with her, some invisible block preventing magic from flowing.
She eventually made her way to the library for a study session with Jane.
“Are you okay?” Jane asked the moment Vera sat down. “You look pale.”
“Yeah, I’m fine,” Vera said, though her eyes told a different story.
“Where did you go?”
“Professor McGonagall’s,” Vera replied quickly.
She wasn't sure why she lied, but at this point, it became so effortless, slipping out almost involuntarily.
“What did she want?” Jane pressed.
“Nothing important. Anything exciting happen while I was gone?”
“The usual,” Jane shrugged. “The Weasleys are in detention again, and Malika cried because she couldn’t finish her assignment in time and got scolded.”
“I’ll check on her at dinner.”
“By the way,” Jane added, lowering her voice, “Ryu looked upset that you were gone.”
“Bloody weirdo,” Vera scoffed. “Upset he had no one to make fun of. If he doesn’t judge someone every five seconds, he practically combusts.”
Jane’s expression softened. “Are you truly okay, Vera?”
“Yeah…” Vera tried to sound composed, but her thoughts drifted back to the hospital wing. What if Pomfrey was wrong? What if she wasn’t a witch at all? And yet… the pantry door had opened on its own.
She exhaled, letting a small sigh escape. “I think… I’m a bit hungry.”
“Well,” Jane said with a grin, “I know just the perfect solution for that!”
True to her Hufflepuff nature, Jane had sniffed out the kitchens through a senior’s tip and treated the place like her personal common room annex. She often slipped down for a nibble, sometimes feasting on piping-hot pastries, sometimes just crunching an apple while scribbling homework.
As the two made their way down to the kitchens, Vera was making a conscious effort to conceal her enthusiasm. Cooking had been her one true refuge at the orphanage—Mrs. Humphrey, perpetually exhausted, had left most of it to her—so the prospect of discovering Hogwarts’ hidden heart was almost too much.
With a tickle of the pear, the painting swung open, revealing not just a kitchen but a kingdom of food. A cauldron-sized pot bubbled like it had been simmering for centuries; prep stations sprawled across the room; ovens crouched in every corner; and a pantry stuffed with herbs, spices, and produce seemed to stretch further than Vera’s imagination could follow.
And, of course, there were house-elves bustling about.
Vera attempted to appear nonchalant as she observed the diminutive creatures with pointed ears going about their work, as if she were accustomed to them at home. However, internally, she was bursting with excitement. She couldn't help but wonder why they were adorned in tea towels, but refrained from asking Jane to avoid sounding ignorant. And there was something naggingly familiar about them, though she couldn’t place where she’d seen such beings before.
Jane, meanwhile, had already filched a tart and was happily munching, while Vera wandered with wide eyes, poking her nose into every detail. Magic and food together—what could be better? She resolved then and there that one day she’d learn every secret of this enchanted kitchen.
“Do you think they’d let me cook here if I asked?” She wondered aloud, glancing at Jane, who was elbow-deep in a bowl of crisps.
Jane paused mid-crunch. “You… cook?”
“I mean, yeah. Sometimes.” Vera fiddled with a crumb on her sleeve. “I quite like it, actually.”
Jane blinked at her. “Blimey, I don’t even know what our kitchen looks like at home.”
The way she said it carried the faintest whiff of judgment, and Vera felt her cheeks warm.
They drifted to an empty corner, where a plate of pilfered treats kept them company. The kitchen’s buttery-sweet aroma curled around them, as if the room itself was determined to fatten them up.
“I swear, I’ll never get tired of these,” Jane sighed, lifting a strawberry tart.
“Same,” Vera agreed, popping a sugared biscuit into her mouth.
“Mother never lets me have sweets at home.”
“Why not?”
Jane only shrugged, it didn't seem like it was a subject she wished to delve into.
“Are your parents still… upset?" Vera asked after a moment. "About you being in Hufflepuff?”
“Not really,” Jane said. “They’ve stopped caring—as long as I bring home good marks.”
“That’s mint.”
Jane’s smile flickered, soft and real. “What about your paren—I mean, your family?”
Vera hesitated. “Yeah. They’re… fine with it now.”
She had kept up the careful pretence that she lived with relatives, sidestepping questions about “home” with vague answers or half-truths. It spared her the effort of fabricating elaborate lies, but the guilt lingered all the same. Shame, really—that her truth was an orphanage, hand-me-down clothes, and the gnawing suspicion that her so-called noble family wanted nothing to do with her.
“I’ve never quite understood the fuss about legacies,” Jane mused, licking a smear of jam from her thumb. “But I suppose if I’d had a good run in one house, I’d wish the same for my children.”
“Yeah… I guess so—”
“Bring us some milk!” Jane cut in, directing her request to a passing house elf, and Vera couldn't help but feel startled by it.
The house-elf promptly nodded and hurried off to fulfill the request. He reappeared in a heartbeat, setting two glasses of milk at their feet.
“Um… thank you,” Vera whispered, her voice so low it was nearly swallowed by the kitchen’s bustle.
She eyed the milk uneasily, her stomach giving a sour twist. With a small shove, she pushed the glass out of sight. Jane, unbothered, was already sipping hers.
As the two slipped out of the kitchens and into the cool stone corridor, a sudden commotion rippled down the hall.
“Just leave it, Charlie,” a student urged, hurrying alongside him.
But Charlie Weasley was having none of it.
“I don’t care if he’s a professor." His voice rang out with fury. "He can’t keep getting away with this!”
Chapter 10: Pureblood
Summary:
Vera thought the wizarding world was fair, but when a simple passed note turns into detention, she realizes the rules of fairness don’t apply to everyone. And when a conversation with Charlie Weasley unravels the dark hierarchies of blood, wealth, and influence, she begins to see magic in a whole new, unsettling light.
Chapter Text
Friday, October 13, 1989
It soon became clear that Professor Frey, the freshly appointed Defense Against the Dark Arts instructor, was rapidly climbing Hogwarts’ “least popular” chart. First-years moaned about his crushing workloads, while older students grumbled that his lectures were long on theory and short on anything remotely useful in a duel.
“I’m starting to think his résumé is made-up,” Charlie said, pushing aside his fork at the Gryffindor table. “Half the things he claims… wildly suspicious.”
“He’s hardly brilliant either,” Percy cut in. “Have you noticed how he dodges every practical demonstration? Makes you wonder if he can actually perform half the spells he names.”
Tonks leaned across the table. “Don’t forget the dragon-slaying nonsense. No offense, Charlie, but the man couldn’t wrestle a doxy, let alone a dragon.”
“None taken,” Charlie snorted. "Trust me, dragon-handling isn’t for the faint-hearted, and Frey’s got less grit than a teabag.”
“So why would Dumbledore hire him?” Oliver asked.
Percy shot him a look that said do keep up. “Because Dumbledore didn’t have much say. Ministry meddling. Again.”
Tonks arched a brow. “Meddling how?”
“Rumor has it,” Percy lowered his voice, “Frey’s got friends in high places. Connections with some of the Six.”
Charlie nodded. “Watch how he talks to Yaxley in class. It's like they're old chums.”
“And Flint,” Oliver added. “Always gets special treatment.”
Felix Bobbin, silent until now, frowned. “But the Six don’t control the Ministry… do they?”
“Not yet,” Percy replied. “But once Bagnold’s out, they’ll tighten their grip. And since no one else wanted Defense, they shoved Frey in.”
“The man’s unbearable,” Oliver burst out. “Kept us past five last week! Completely wrecked Quidditch practice!”
Tonks rolled her eyes. “Oh, please. Forget your broom drills. The segregation policy is the real rot.”
Felix’s expression hardened. “Someone should tell the headmaster. The way he’s running things. It’s dangerous.”
“I already spoke to Professor McGonagall,” Charlie said, exhaling heavily. “She hates it as much as we do, but technically, there’s no rule against it.”
Oliver slammed his fist down, rattling the cutlery. “That’s insane! He’s dragging us back to the Stone Age! What’s next? blood purity tests?”
The first-years at the Hufflepuff table were in the middle of an equally serious discussion.
“I swear down,” Vera declared solemnly. “His bald spot’s the exact shape of a pear.”
“And shiny,” Sarah added quickly. “Shinier than Quirrell’s, even.”
“Avery practically uses it as a mirror,” Vera shot back, deadpan.
Cedric raised a brow. “Forget the shine. His head’s too small for the rest of him. Looks like a mismatched set.”
“Nah, mate,” Tommy argued through a mouthful of bread. “The head’s fine. It’s the body. Built like a proper barrel, he is.”
Maddie leaned in, lowering her voice with relish. “Anyone else notice the lazy eye?”
“How could you miss it?” Tommy snorted. “Thing’s playing peek-a-boo half the time.”
“Drives me mad,” Vera agreed with a grin. “I never know which eye to look at.”
“This is cruel, you lot,” Malika murmured. “We can’t just slag him off for his looks.”
“He deserves it,” Tommy shrugged.
“I mean…” Cedric hesitated. “I wouldn’t care if he weren’t such a—”
“Word is his wife left him,” Kenny cut in dramatically, practically vibrating with gossip.
“Not shocked,” Vera quipped. “Even his hair didn’t stick around.”
The table erupted, laughter bouncing between them. Tommy raised his cup in a mock toast. “Here’s to hoping class doesn’t drag past five. The Weasley twins are sneaking us down to watch Gryffindor practice.”
Cedric smirked. “Bet Frey wishes he could leave early.”
“Yeah,” Vera cackled. "If he could squeeze through the door with that barrel chest of his.”
“Please,” Tommy grinned. “Easier to just roll him out.”
Like half the castle that year, Vera ranked DADA as her absolute least favorite class. And not just because Frey was a walking yawn, or because the Slytherins in the back wouldn’t shut up, or even because her friends were all scattered across the room. No, the real torment was sitting next to Ryu Avery, snob and perfectionist extraordinaire.
Worse still, she’d recently noticed a new habit of his: staring. Constantly. Sideways glances, measured and unblinking, like he was cataloguing her flaws for some secret report. After the third one that afternoon, Vera snapped.
“Problem, Avery?”
He didn’t so much as blink. “No.”
“Then stop staring.”
He hesitated, as if debating whether she was worth the oxygen. His gaze slid back to the front, to Frey’s droning monologue, before he finally murmured, flat as parchment, “Your hair could use oils.”
Vera froze, blindsided. Of all the things, hair tips? From him?
“Right,” she said sweetly. “Because I’ve been dying to get beauty advice from someone whose only friend is a mirror.”
For the first time, Ryu’s lips twitched, the ghost of a smile. He said nothing more, leaving Vera to wonder if she’d scored the point… or if she’d just signed up for round two.
She tried to regain her composure, but her fingers still clenched tightly around her quill. Taking a deep breath, she turned to Maddie, hoping to silently communicate a plan.
“Psst.”
Maddie caught on instantly. Smuggling notes under Frey’s dreary monologues had become their second nature. All it required was timing.
The moment he turned to the board, Maddie stretched out her hand in one smooth, well-rehearsed motion. Their fingers brushed—
—and then disaster.
Frey spun on his heel with the speed of a hawk sighting prey. His eyes zeroed in on the half-passed scrap of parchment, and the air in the classroom froze solid.
“What,” he barked, voice like a whip crack, “are you doing?”
The chatter collapsed into silence. Every head turned toward Vera and Maddie.
Frey’s boots struck the floor in heavy, deliberate thuds as he advanced, savoring the moment. And with a quick, cutting gesture, he plucked the note from Maddie’s hand, unfolding it with cruel precision.
The whole room held its breath.
"Let me see what we have here," he sneered.
As his eyes flicked over the words, his frown deepened, and his glare shifted to Maddie, who shrank under the weight of his gaze.
“What’s your name?” he demanded.
“M-Madeline, sir. Madeline Park.”
“And do you find amusement in mocking your classmates and writing such remarks… Park?”
“No, sir,” Maddie whispered.
“Then why, pray tell, did you write it?”
Vera’s heart ached seeing her friend take the fall. She couldn’t stay silent any longer.
“She didn’t write it, sir." She blurted out. "I did.”
Frey’s gaze shifted to her, and for a moment, the harshness in his eyes seemed to soften. “There’s no need to cover for her, Miss Black,” he said, his voice unnervingly gentle. “Park must face the consequences of her own actions.”
Vera shook her head. “It’s the truth. I wrote it, not Maddie. She has nothing to do with it.”
The room was suffocating in its silence, and Frey’s cold gaze pierced through Vera, leaving her frozen with uncertainty of what consequences awaited her. She knew what kind of petty punishments he liked to dish out: detentions that stretched on for weeks, and extra assignments meant to break a student’s spirit.
"It's alright, Miss Black.” he finally said, offering her a faint smile. “I will ensure Park doesn't harass you any longer."
Vera blinked, stunned. Harass? What was he talking about?
His smile disappeared entirely as he turned to Maddie, and a clear look of disgust contorted his features. “As for you, Park, three weeks’ detention. And you are to apologize to Miss Black. Right now.”
Vera’s jaw dropped. How had he twisted this entire situation around? The note wasn’t even about her. It was about Ryu. And now Maddie was being painted as some sort of bully.
“Sir," she began, "there’s really no need for—”
“Park evidently lacks the upbringing to respect others,” Frey sneered. “But now, she’ll have the opportunity to learn.”
Maddie’s face had paled, her eyes glistening with unshed tears. She didn’t argue. She didn’t fight back. And that broke Vera’s heart more than anything.
“But sir—” she tried again, desperately, only to be cut off by Frey’s sharp tone.
“Apologize to Miss Black. Now,” he barked, his voice cold and unyielding.
Maddie, trembling, kept her eyes downcast, staring at her hands.
Vera shook her head furiously, mouthing, “Don’t,” but Maddie wouldn’t look up.
“I’m sorry, Vera,” she whispered, her voice cracking.
“Louder,” Frey demanded, his voice brimming with the need for humiliation. “So the entire class can hear.”
Maddie’s hands clenched into tight fists as she raised her voice, trying to steady herself. “I’m sorry, Vera.”
The class remained silent, though the disbelief was palpable. Everyone knew Maddie hadn’t done anything wrong. It was absurd.
Vera’s stomach churned with guilt and frustration. She glanced at Frey, but his expression was as rigid as stone. There was no reasoning with him. Her mind was in a whirl, trying to make sense of his actions, and the regret for getting Maddie into trouble gnawed at her. As the class ended, she hurriedly followed her and Sarah.
“Maddie, please wait!” she called out, her voice urgent.
Maddie and Sarah stopped and turned.
“I’m really sorry, Mads,” she said, catching her breath. “I shouldn’t have sent that note. It’s all my fault.”
“It’s okay—”
“No, it’s not,” Vera cut in. “I shouldn’t have let him make you apologize. That’s not fair.”
“Vera, it’s really alright,” Maddie said with a small laugh, though her eyes were still red. “I’m not upset with you.”
“You’re not?”
“Of course not. Why would I be?”
“I got you into trouble...”
“It’s not your fault.”
“But it was me who wrote the note, and I’m truly sorry. I’ll make it right, I promise! I’ll even make Frey give me detention next class so I can be there with you!”
“Come on now,” Sarah scoffed. “You know he’ll never do that.”
“What do you mean?” Vera asked, puzzled.
Maddie sighed. “He clearly favors you, Vera.”
“No, he doesn’t...”
“He never punishes you or the other poshlanders. And he acts like we don’t even exist.”
“I don’t think it’s intentional.”
“Oh really?” Sarah interjected. “He doesn’t even bother to learn our names.”
As Vera absorbed their words, it dawned on her. She hadn't seemed to notice that before, but now, with Maddie and Sarah pointing it out, she started to connect the dots.
“But... why?” she asked. “Why would he favor us?”
Maddie and Sarah exchanged glances, sensing her ignorance.
“Because...” Maddie said slowly, “you’re Pureblood.”
Vera stood motionless for a moment after Maddie and Sarah departed, trying to process what she had just heard. The words were elusive, their meaning slipping through her grasp. Jane approached a moment later, resting a gentle hand on her shoulder.
"Are you alright, Vera?" she asked softly.
Vera looked up, hesitating before giving a small nod. "Um, yeah... sort of."
"Shall we go eat?"
She managed a faint smile and trailed after Jane, though her mind stayed tangled in the earlier exchange with Maddie. All through lunch, the questions gnawed at her, questions she couldn’t quite form, let alone voice. Jane, seemingly unbothered, laughed and chatted as usual, which only convinced Vera to swallow her doubts and keep silent.
By the time she climbed the staircases back to Gryffindor Tower, her thoughts were a restless swarm. Entering the common room, she spotted Charlie sprawled across the sofa, a book balanced in his hands.
If there was anyone who might give her answers, it was him. Still, the weight of uncertainty pinned her to the spot. After a long, hesitant breath, she edged closer.
“Hey, Charlie,” she called softly.
He glanced up from his book and broke into an easy smile. “Hello there. Need a hand with something?”
“Um… yeah. I’ve got a question.”
“Shoot.”
Her mouth went dry, and for a moment she faltered. Charlie caught the hesitation and sat up, patting the cushion beside him. She slipped onto the sofa, tugging nervously at her robe’s hem.
“There’s something I don’t understand,” she admitted.
“Which subject?”
“It’s not about lessons. It’s… something else.”
That piqued his interest. He shut the book and leaned in, giving her his full attention. A faint whiff of cigarettes clung to him, sharp beneath the warmth of his cologne.
“It’s about Professor Frey,” she began slowly. “He splits us into two groups in class, and I just don't get it.”
Charlie’s brows shot up. “What don’t you get?”
“I don’t understand why he does it.”
“Because he’s a raging cun—” Charlie bit the word back, clearing his throat. “Because he’s a purist.”
Vera frowned. “Purist?”
He studied her as though waiting for the punchline. “You don’t know what that means?”
She shook her head.
“You’ve never heard it?”
Another shake, her puzzled gaze fixed on him.
He paused, shaking his head slightly as if to clear his thoughts. “Right. Okay. A purist is someone who believes in blood supremacy.”
Her expression only grew more bewildered.
“You don’t know what blood supremacy is either?” he asked, incredulous.
She shook her head once more.
“The irony…” he muttered under his breath.
“What?”
“Nothing.” He waved it off quickly, though his face still carried surprise. “I’m just shocked, that’s all. But don’t worry. I’ll explain.”
She straightened slightly, her curiosity outweighing her nerves as Charlie began to explain. His tone was patient but tinged with something graver than usual.
“See, there’s this whole… hierarchy some witches and wizards obsess over. At the top are the purebloods, families where both parents and all their ancestors were magical. Then you’ve got half-bloods. One magical parent, one Muggle parent. Some go further, sneering at anyone with ‘tainted’ ancestry, calling them half-breeds if there’s non-human blood somewhere in the family tree.”
He paused, watching her face, then continued. “A Muggle is someone with no magic at all. Muggleborns are witches and wizards born to Muggle parents. And then there are Squibs. Born into magical families but without any magic themselves.”
Her brow furrowed, trying to keep up as he pressed on.
“You’ll also hear about blood traitors. That’s what purists call purebloods who don’t buy into all this rubbish. And the ugliest one.... Mudblood. That’s a slur for Muggleborns.”
Each new term felt like a stone added to Vera’s chest. The world she’d imagined—full of wonder and belonging—now revealed cracks and shadows. If magic itself wasn’t enough to unite people, then what was the point of it all? Pureblood, half-blood, Muggleborn, Squib… Too many labels, too many rules for something no one chose.
Her thoughts flickered back to the train ride. She had taken Cassius’s sneers and Miles’s smirks as jabs at her shabby clothes, her patched-up shoes. Now she saw the sharper truth behind their cruelty: they hadn’t just thought she was poor. They’d thought she was a Muggleborn.
And the realization stung more deeply than she expected.
“So…" Her voice wavered, caught between horror and disbelief. "Professor Frey thinks people like me deserve magic, while people like Maddie don’t?”
“Precisely. He believes we’re somehow superior by nature, which is absolute rubbish. People shouldn’t be measured by blood purity but by who they are. Some of the greatest witches and wizards in history were Muggleborn. And some of the most vile were pureblood. In the end, it’s about values, not bloodlines.”
Vera sat quietly for a moment, absorbing the weight of what she had just learned. Racism? Even in this world?
“And they think Muggles are…” She hesitated, her throat tight.
“An abomination,” Charlie said, his voice dripping with disgust. “That’s the twisted logic of purists. It’s madness.”
Her eyes widened, heat rising in her chest. The thought of anyone sneering at Miss Nelson, or dismissing Kaya, simply because they lacked magic. It made her stomach twist with fury. But even as indignation swelled, another question surfaced.
“Then why does Frey always punish Fred and George? They’re pureblood, aren’t they?”
Charlie sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. “Yeah. My family’s pureblood… but we’re different.”
“Different how?”
“We’re poor.”
“Oh.”
The single word slipped out, heavy with disappointment. She had imagined pureblood as a shield, an escape from cruelty. But Charlie’s weary tone told her otherwise. Even with the “right” blood, there were still reasons to look down on you.
“Frey’s a leech, Vera,” Charlie continued. “His favoritism isn’t just purist nonsense. He’s desperate to fit in with the so-called elite. Blood matters, yeah, but not as much as wealth. Class trumps everything.”
“Class?” she repeated, frowning.
“It’s like a pyramid. Top of the heap: families like yours—old, rich, noble, pureblood with ancient names. They’re untouchable.”
Vera’s stomach twisted. She never felt like she belonged to that world, but hearing it laid out so plainly made her feel even more alien.
“Next down, families like the Flints, Yaxleys, Macmillans—pureblood, wealthy, but not ancient. Still important, just… second tier.”
“And then?” she asked, drawn in despite herself.
“Then you’ve got the pretenders. Families that aren’t truly pureblood but throw money around to act like they are.”
“Like who?”
“The Bletchleys, Petrovichs, Puceys, Corrigans—”
“Corrigans? But Jane acts like—”
“Exactly.” Charlie chuckled. “Her family weren’t even fully in the wizarding world until a couple generations ago. Married into Muggles, then scrubbed it clean. Now they put on little rituals to prove how ancient and pure they are. All smoke and mirrors.”
Vera’s head spun. She’d thought blood was everything, but this was uglier.
“Middle tier’s a mixed bag,” Charlie went on. “Some families are rich but not purists. Others are purists but broke, like Frey.”
“And at the bottom?” she asked softly, though she already knew.
“Muggleborns. Squibs. Halfbloods. Families like mine.” He gave her a rueful smile. “We’re not rich, not purist. So we don’t matter.”
Vera’s throat tightened. “So it’s all about… money?”
He gave a short, bitter laugh. "Vera, everything is about money."
Her mind reeled. She’d thought blood purity was the root of everything. Now she saw how tangled it truly was.
Charlie shrugged. “Don’t lose sleep over Frey. He thinks he’s shaping the next generation, but really? He’s just pathetic.”
She exhaled, still trying to digest it all. Then, under her breath, she muttered, “PT…”
He frowned. “What?”
“Purist Twat,” she said, louder this time.
For a second, silence. Then Charlie burst out laughing, nearly doubling over. “Merlin’s beard, Vera! You’ve just given me my new favorite insult!”
She grinned, warmth spreading through her chest.
“He is exactly that,” Charlie wheezed, still chuckling. “A bloody PT.”
“Is Professor Dumbledore a PT?”
The laughter died in his throat. “What? No! Merlin, no. Dumbledore’s the furthest thing from it. He’s one of the greatest wizards alive. He’d never be a purist.”
“Then why would he hire Frey to teach us?”
Charlie exhaled heavily, rubbing the back of his neck. “I don’t think it was his call. The Ministry’s been sticking its nose in more and more.”
"But Dumbledore’s headmaster. Isn’t he supposed to run the school?”
“Hogwarts is Ministry property,” Charlie said bitterly. “They meddle in everything. Except the things that actually matter.”
“But what can we do? About Frey? He treats my friends like dirt, and he never tells the Slytherins off.”
“As I said, he’s a leech. Loves polishing their boots. Best thing you can do is ignore him.”
“Ignore him? That feels wrong.”
“I know. But kicking off at him won’t help. He feeds off that. If we’re smart, we bide our time. If he crosses a real line, we’ve got people to turn to—Dumbledore, McGonagall, Flitwick. They won’t look the other way.”
Vera’s shoulders slumped. “I just want things to be fair.”
Charlie gave her a small, steady smile. “We all do, Vera. But fair doesn’t just fall in your lap. Sometimes you’ve got to push for it, little by little.”
Saturday, October 21, 1989
Sitting in Jane’s dorm room a week later, Vera was still dwelling on the situation.
"What about this one?" Jane turned to her, holding a blue dress in her hand. But Vera’s mind was completely elsewhere.
"Vera?" Jane called, attempting to pull her from her reverie.
"Yeah?" Vera responded, finally tuning in.
"I asked, what about this one? Do you like blue?"
She barely glanced at it. “Yeah. It’s nice.”
Jane sensed her distress and set the dress aside, walking over to sit next to her on the bed. "It’s okay, Vera. Just tell your aunt to send you another suitcase."
"What?"
"Aren’t you upset that you lost the suitcase with your nice dresses on the train?"
Vera had been lying so much lately; she was starting to lose track.
"Right," she responded hesitantly. "Yeah, I’ll tell her."
"Is there something else bothering you?" Jane asked, her big doe eyes brimming with concern.
“No, I’m fine.” Vera forced a smile. “Thank you for the dress, Jane. Truly.”
“You’re most welcome!” Jane beamed.
She plucked another gown from the wardrobe and turned to admire herself in the mirror. “And I’m glad you’re coming to the tea party. It’s been a tradition in my family for centuries.”
“Lovely,” Vera murmured, biting back an eye-roll. Posh shenanigans weren’t her thing, but Jane—lonely Jane—looked so hopeful.
“Is it just us, then?” she asked.
“I thought about inviting Eudora, but she won’t come without Ryu. And it’s girls only.”
“What about Malika?” Vera suggested quickly. “She’d love it.”
Jane paused, fiddling with her hair as if weighing her words. “Oh? Would she?” she said at last, voice light but calculating. “I didn’t know.”
Vera clenched her jaw. “Aha.”
The two prepared themselves, Jane in a beige dress embroidered with green and finished off with lace gloves, a matching headpiece, and real pearl-and-gold accessories. Vera slipped into the borrowed blue dress with matching gloves. She tied a bow in her hair and borrowed a pair of Mary Janes, the closest thing she had to “proper shoes.” The bow felt a little childish, but when she caught her reflection, she almost resembled the kind of girl she’d only ever seen in storybooks.
Bundled in coats, they strolled through the corridor toward the garden. Students turned to watch, some admiring, others snickering.
“Ayo, Jane Austen!” a boy called, sending his mates into fits of laughter.
Jane didn’t so much as blink, while Vera forced her chin high, pretending she hadn’t heard.
The autumn air outside was crisp, laced with the scent of damp earth and fallen leaves. Beneath the sweeping branches of an old oak tree stood a quaint wooden table draped in white linen. A teapot poured itself, filling rosy porcelain teacups that perched on vintage saucers. A tiered stand offered golden scones dusted with sugar, flanked by jars of clotted cream and raspberry preserves. Miniature pumpkin pies, their flaky crusts crowned with cinnamon-spiced cream, nestled among pastel macarons and sugared biscuits.
Vera took it all in, the air sharp in her lungs, the table glowing like something out of a painting. Maybe—just maybe—posh shenanigans weren’t so bad after all.
The two girls settled across from each other as the teapot poured itself. Jane reached for the sugar, dropping four cubes into her cup. Vera raised an eyebrow.
"How do you like yours?" Jane asked.
"Um, two sugars, no milk."
Jane frowned. "No milk?"
"Aha." Vera nodded politely, though inside she was second-guessing herself.
She mimicked Jane’s way of holding the cup, a little stiff, until Jane gently corrected her with a quick lesson in etiquette. Vera tried not to laugh, then distracted herself with the treats on the table. But even as they nibbled and chatted, her thoughts drifted back to Professor Frey.
“Hey, Jane?" She finally said, toying with a pink macaroon. "Do you think Professor Frey is unfair sometimes?”
Jane tilted her head. “What do you mean?”
“He doesn’t treat us all the same. Haven’t you noticed? He never punishes anyone who’s… like us.”
“Us?”
“You know. Purebloods.”
Jane hesitated, setting a tart back on the plate. “He punishes the Weasleys and Cedric all the time, and they’re purebloods.”
“Yeah, but—” Vera faltered. “Never mind.”
“Does it matter to you?” she then asked. “This blood thing.”
“No, not really,” Jane replied, eyes flicking away.
Vera leaned in. “Can I ask you something? Be honest.”
“Um… yes?”
“Why do you avoid Maddie?”
Jane stiffened. “What? Who says I avoid her?”
“It just seems that way. Every time she’s around, you leave.”
“That’s a coincidence,” Jane said quickly.
“What about Tommy, then? He says you never say hello. Or Malika. Or even Patty in the common room.”
“I—”
“And you know Malika would’ve loved this tea party. So why didn’t you invite her?”
“Because I’m not friends with them, that’s all!”
“You can tell me the truth, Jane.” Vera’s tone softened. “You can trust me.”
“It’s not like that. I don’t mind them, but…”
“But?”
“I just think they should be in their lane, and we should be in ours.”
Vera blinked. “Why?”
“Because we’re different from them!”
“Better, you mean?”
“I didn’t say that!” Jane snapped, her cheeks flushed.
They both fell into a moment of silence. While Jane betrayed her nervousness, Vera seemed unwilling to let the conversation come to an end.
“I think it’s all downright stupid,” she muttered.
Jane nodded quickly. “Me too. I promise.”
“And your parents? What do they think?”
“It’s… harder for them.”
"I see..."
“They would know!” Jane suddenly burst out, tears spilling down her cheeks. “If I talked to a Muggleborn, they would know! And they would punish me for it!”
Vera sat frozen. She hadn’t expected the outburst, nor the fear trembling beneath Jane’s words.
Despite the pearls, the lace, the rehearsed grace, Jane didn’t seem cruel. She had been nothing but kind to Vera, never mocking or sneering like the other poshlanders. And yet… she was trapped. Shackled by invisible chains of expectation.
“I’m sorry, Jane,” she said gently. “I didn’t mean to make you cry.”
She passed her a napkin, then leaned closer to rest a hand on her shoulder.
“I thought,” Jane sniffled, “out of all people, you would understand.”
Vera frowned. “How so?”
“Because,” Jane whispered, dabbing at her swollen eyes, “your family would do the same if they knew you were friends with them.”
The words struck Vera like a slap. For a moment, she could only sit there, stunned.
Everything she knew of her family came secondhand: whispered legacies of wealth, nobility, even royalty. Once, those words had filled her with a secret pride. Now, they tasted bitter, hollow. If her family truly thought as Jane’s did—if they measured worth by blood, not by heart—then what kind of legacy was that to claim?
Upon returning to her dorm, she was met with a whirlwind of color and laughter. Alicia and Angelina were lost in a fashion frenzy, tossing outfits onto beds, flipping through magazines, and spilling suitcases across the floor. The lighthearted chaos, so foreign to her quiet existence, sparked a bittersweet rush of memories from her time at St. Mary’s.
Seeing her standing there, tearful and still, Alicia and Angelina exchanged worried glances.
“Are you alright?” Angelina asked softly. It was the first time she had ever addressed her directly.
“Why won’t you talk to me?” Vera blurted, a plea for connection threading through each syllable.
The two girls blinked, caught off guard, unsure how to respond to the sudden torrent of emotion.
“We… we’re sorry, Vera,” Angelina began.
“But why?”
“We just thought…”
“We thought you didn’t like us," Alicia cut in. "That’s all.”
Vera wiped at her tears with the edge of her gloves, meeting their eyes earnestly. "I do like you. I thought… I thought you didn’t like me.”
“The truth is,” Angelina began again, her words more confident this time, “we thought you didn’t want us to talk to you.”
“But then we saw you were friends with Maddie,” Alicia added, “and we realized we’d been wrong about… you know… what we assumed.”
“And we didn’t say anything because we felt bad about it,”
“Yeah,” Alicia agreed, “we felt bad, honestly.”
“But we’re sorry, Vera. We really are.”
Vera’s lips quivered as she absorbed their sincerity. She felt the knot in her chest loosen slightly, replaced by a cautious warmth.
“So…” she said, her eyes glistening with tears, “can… can we be friends?”
A shared smile blossomed on the three faces, fragile yet genuine, as if a bridge had finally been built over the month-long gulf of silence and misunderstanding.
As the night wore on, the walls between them crumbled, giving way to laughter, shared stories, and a budding sense of camaraderie. The Gryffindor girls dove into a lively exchange of topics, weaving together student gossip, their most dreaded classes, and humorous tales of the Weasleys’ and Lee’s mischievous pranks.
Between the laughter, personal details surfaced. Vera learned that Alicia hailed from Belfast, while Angelina revealed a keen passion for fashion. Both girls eagerly discussed their hopes of joining the Quidditch team in the coming year, something Vera found quietly inspiring.
When the conversation shifted toward her life back home, she deftly avoided specifics. Instead, she guided the discussion to her love of painting, showing her sketchbook to the intrigued girls. Her work sparked genuine curiosity, allowing her to share a part of herself without revealing the deeper truths she wasn’t yet ready to disclose.
Even amid the joy of friendship, a twinge of guilt lingered. She knew she was keeping the reality of her past tucked away. One day, she would have to tell them, and she resolved to do so with honesty and care. For now, though, lighter matters held sway.
“So…" she grinned, "what do you reckon we should do for Halloween?”
Chapter 11: Halloween '89
Summary:
Halloween at Hogwarts thrums with mischief as first-years race through corridors for a magical game of Hide and Seek. But when Vera stumbles upon a shadowy figure in the music room, everything changes.
Chapter Text
Tuesday, October 31, 1989
Vera had never so much as carved a pumpkin, let alone celebrated Halloween. The Humphreys dismissed it as some dreadful pagan nonsense, so she grew up treating October 31st like any other dreary day. But after hearing Kaya’s riotous tales of St. Mary’s Halloween traditions—sugary chaos, costumes, and candlelit pranks—Vera was practically vibrating with anticipation.
Hogwarts only fanned the flames: by breakfast, the Great Hall was already alive with jack-o’-lanterns grinning from the rafters, ghosts crooning eerie ballads, and the warm, buttery scent of pasties hanging in the air. And yet, the real spectacle seemed to be the first-years themselves, chattering loudly about the supposedly grand plans she, Alicia, and Angelina had cooked up for the night.
“Whoa, whoa, time out!” Tommy threw up his hands. “Why in God's name are we talking Gryffindor Tower?”
Angelina shrugged. “Best spot to play.”
“Yeah, for you. That’s basically home-field advantage.”
Maddie nodded. “He’s right. We need a neutral territory.”
Alicia tilted her head. “Alright then, Einstein. Where?”
“The Astronomy wing?” Roger piped up hopefully.
Lee snorted. “Terrible idea. Not enough hiding places.”
Vera narrowed her eyes. “And how exactly do you know that?”
“Oh, we know,” Lee and the twins said together, looking far too pleased with themselves.
Cedric folded his arms. “Fine. Where do we play then?”
“The bell tower,” the twins announced like it was divine prophecy.
Alicia raised a brow. “You’re serious?”
“Deadly,” they replied in perfect sync.
"The Hufflepuffs are on board with that choice," Cedric declared, following a brief discussion with Malika, Tommy, and Patty.
Roger nodded. "The Ravenclaws agree as well."
Alicia smirked. “Roger, you are the Ravenclaws.”
"Nevertheless, I agree."
Maddie grinned. “Sarah and I are game.”
Vera turned to Jane, who looked like she wanted to melt into the floor. “Jane?”
Jane fiddled with her sleeve. “Um… yeah. I’m in.”
“Done deal,” Angelina declared, clapping her hands. “Bell tower after the feast. And don’t be late.”
The students were practically buzzing all day, their excitement crackling through the classrooms like a misfired spell. Paying attention to lessons? Forget it. Half the group was already plotting elaborate strategies for the upcoming game, while the rest were knee-deep in Halloween costume scheming.
The Muggle-borns were baffled to learn that wizards didn’t exactly do the whole Halloween dress-up thing. Apparently, when you’ve got real-life ghosts, ghouls, and werewolves wandering about, imitating them with papier-mâché and glitter is considered… well, tacky.
But Angelina, never one to let a good party die, proposed a clever middle ground: animal costumes. It gave the Muggle-borns their taste of tradition, and the wizard-borns something silly enough to embrace without accidentally offending an actual vampire.
By the time lessons mercifully ended, the first-years swarmed into the Gryffindor common room like an army of sugar-rushed pixies. Vera quickly claimed command of the paintbrushes, setting up shop with all the gravitas of a master artist. Seated at the top of the table with a painting set beside her, she worked diligently while the others added the finishing touches to their designs.
“LIONS!” the twins roared directly in her face, nearly knocking the paintbrush out of her hand.
“Both of you?” she asked.
“Make it three,” Lee chimed in. “I want a mane too.”
Vera giggled and turned to Maddie. “What is it with boys and lions?”
“Gryffindor brainwashing,” Maddie deadpanned.
Unbothered, Vera went to work, swiping golden whiskers and proud little noses across the trio’s faces. They completed their looks by donning a fluffy and dramatic headpiece they had crafted to resemble a lion's mane.
“GRYFFINDOR PRIDE, LET’S GOOOOO!” they shouted, so loudly that a portrait two floors down probably woke up.
Sarah groaned, flopping against the table. “This is so stressful.”
Vera paused mid-brush. “What’s wrong?”
“I can’t pick a favorite animal!"
“She loves all animals,” Maddie explained.
Vera smiled warmly. “How about I surprise you, then?”
Sarah’s face lit up. “YES!”
Knowing Sarah’s borderline-obsessive love for butterflies, Vera painted delicate wings across her cheeks, adding soft strokes of color until the design seemed ready to flutter off her skin. When she handed over the mirror, Sarah’s green eyes went wide.
“I know exactly what to do with my hair!” she gasped, dashing off to her dorm.
Vera and Maddie exchanged a knowing look. They didn’t say a word, but both were clearly thinking the same thing: butterfly hair accessories incoming.
“What about you, Jane?” Maddie then asked, noticing the Hufflepuff girl hovering quietly on the edge of the group.
Jane finally shuffled forward and perched beside Vera. “I’ll be a fox,” she said softly. “It’s my family’s sigil.”
“Ooo, classy,” Vera replied, reaching for the orange crayon.
As she began sketching foxlike features, she couldn’t help but wonder if her own family had a sigil, and whether it would be something noble like a stag… or something tragically unglamorous, like a toad.
One by one, the rest of the group made their choices. Maddie became a rabbit, Patty picked a panda (naturally adored by everyone instantly), Tommy and Cedric both flexed their ferocity as tigers, Kenny opted for a leopard, Alicia insisted on a unicorn, Angelina and Malika went festive with reindeer, and Roger declared himself a wolf, probably for dramatic effect.
Finally, Vera saved herself for last. She drew sleek black lines, winging her eyeliner to perfection, dotted on a cat’s nose and whiskers, and slipped a pair of hand-made kitten ears onto a headband. A black cat: elegant, mischievous, and just a little unlucky. Perfect.
By the time she finished, the hour had struck: the Halloween feast awaited. The girls paraded through the corridors in their animal disguises, drawing attention like a traveling circus. Older students clapped or shouted good-natured jokes, while the ghosts floated by with surprisingly sincere compliments, especially for Vera’s handiwork. She blushed under the praise, though she secretly basked in every word.
The Great Hall had outdone itself. Hundreds of floating candles bobbed above the students’ heads, casting flickering shadows across pumpkins that leered from every corner. Bewitched decorations weren’t just for show this year. They wriggled, cackled, and occasionally tried to nip at passing sleeves, much to the delight—and mild terror—of the younger years.
The feast was a masterpiece courtesy of the tireless house-elves: platters of Pumpkin Pasties steaming invitingly, Bat-shaped Biscuits flapping their wings before being devoured, and Cauldron Cakes bubbling over with sweet, sticky filling. At the center of it all loomed a colossal jack-o’-lantern, its carved grin glowing as pumpkin juice frothed and fizzed inside, illuminating the tables in a golden haze.
Professor Dumbledore rose to give his customary remarks, short and sweet. With twinkling eyes, he reminded everyone that unity and camaraderie mattered now more than ever—particularly with the wizarding world on the cusp of a new Minister for Magic. His words, though brief, carried weight.
Still, for most of the first-years, the real anticipation buzzed not for pumpkin juice or politics, but for the night’s true highlight: the game the Gryffindor girls had so mysteriously cooked up.
After dinner, the group assembled in the North Hall, buzzing with anticipation as the Vera, Alicia, and Angelina prepared to unveil the rules of the game. But before they could begin, the doors creaked open and a new set of voices echoed in.
Tommy scowled. “Oh, brilliant. Them.”
Striding in with practiced swagger came Cassius and his entourage: Miles, Adrian, Ryu, and Eudora.
Fred’s eyes narrowed. “What in Merlin’s saggy socks are they doing here?”
“It’s fine,” Vera said quickly. “I invited them.”
“You what?”
“They wanted to join,” she whispered. “I couldn’t exactly say no.”
Lee pinched the bridge of his nose. “This has ‘bad idea’ written all over it.”
Cassius shoved his hands in his pockets, flashing his signature smug grin. “Relax. We’re not here to cause trouble. We just want to win.”
The twins rolled their eyes in perfect unison, while Tommy and Cedric practically doubled over laughing.
“I say let them play,” Alicia chimed in. “Just because they shut us out doesn’t mean we should act the same.”
“Exactly,” Angelina agreed.
“But what if they cheat?” Sarah piped up.
Eudora scoffed dramatically. “Please. We don’t need to cheat.”
“Fine,” Fred muttered, glaring daggers. “But if they pull anything, I’ll—”
“Alright!” Angelina cut in before sparks could fly. “Let’s get started!”
The poshlanders joined the group and they all diverted their attention to the three girls.
“The game is simple,” Alicia began. “It’s Hide and Seek.”
“Mostly Hide and Seek,” Vera cut in. “We… added a few surprises.”
“We’ll be split into two teams,” Alicia continued. “Red and Blue. Twelve Blues, eight Reds.”
“Reds hunt. Blues hide,” Angelina said as she began to distribute wristbands among the group.
Malika squinted at hers. “These are quite lovely. But... what are they for?”
“They’re enchanted,” Vera explained. “These magical wristbands will light up in your team’s color. If you get caught by the Red team, your wristband will turn off, and you will return here, to the North Hall.”
“Also,” Angelina added, “if it starts glowing brighter, it means you’re close to the other team.”
Tommy’s jaw dropped. “That’s cracker!”
"How did you manage that?” Cedric asked, clearly jealous.
Alicia smirked. “That's a secret.”
“We’re not done yet,” Angelina said. “There’s one last twist.”
“What now?” someone asked, already half-dreading the answer.
“We recruited Peeves,” Vera explained. “He’s hidden a small wooden box somewhere in the tower. If a Blue finds it before being caught, the wristbands all flash blue—instant win. But if every Blue gets caught first… Red takes the victory.”
Adrian folded his arms. “And we’re supposed to believe you didn’t bribe Peeves to tell you the hiding spot?”
Vera gave him a flat look. “Have you met Peeves?”
That shut him up.
“When in Merlin’s beard did you even plan all this?” Maddie blurted, echoed by several nods of disbelief.
The three Gryffindor girls just giggled knowingly. The truth was, they’d spent nights hunched over parchment, charmed quills scratching furiously, and had practically grovelled to Professor Flitwick to get the wristbands working. But their lips were sealed.
“Alright then, masterminds,” Cassius drawled. “How do we know which team we’re on?”
Vera exhaled dramatically. “Easy.”
Alicia produced a small jack-o’-lantern bowl, rattling it like dice before holding it out. Inside were twenty folded slips, each marked Blue or Red. One by one, the group drew their fates. As the papers unfolded, the wristbands flared to life in their assigned colors.
Roger, Alicia, Cassius, Ryu, Adrian, Sarah, Lee, and Fred were branded Red. The rest glowed Blue.
“Brother! NOOOO!” George wailed, clutching at Fred like they were being separated by Azkaban guards.
Cassius smirked, and Ryu shot a glance at Vera as soon as his wristband lit up red. She met his eyes and felt a slight discomfort.
Meanwhile, Sarah looked thrilled, visibly geared up to embrace her role as a hunter.
"I'm sorry, Maddie,” she declared with a deadpan expression. “From this moment on, we don't know each other."
Maddie laughed nervously. “Um… okay?”
Sarah placed a solemn hand on her shoulder. “May the best soldier win.”
She then turned on her heel and marched toward the Red camp, where strategy huddles were already underway.
The Blue team was granted a head start, and in a flurry of footsteps and muffled whispers, they scattered through the tower like startled owls.
Malika hesitated at the crossroads of two dim corridors, torn between left and right, until George grabbed her hand without a word and pulled her along. The pair disappeared swiftly into the shadows.
Cedric and Tommy took off side by side, with Kenny trailing just behind them, clearly banking on their instincts for finding a decent hiding spot.
Meanwhile, Eudora and Miles weren’t even pretending to hide. Their eyes gleamed with singular purpose as they stalked through the halls, scanning every crevice for the elusive wooden box. Eudora kept fussing with the bow in her hair every few seconds, as though preparing for battle.
Vera and Jane began together but soon split ways, slipping into separate staircases. Both cast quick backward glances before vanishing, their glowing wristbands bobbing like fireflies.
Five minutes later, the Red team was unleashed.
For the Blues, the real challenge began. The enchanted wristbands glowed faintly in the dark halls, betraying anyone careless enough to keep moving. Every flicker of light risked drawing hunters nearer.
On the fourth floor, Cedric and Tommy ducked into a cramped alcove, dragging Kenny in after them. They pressed shoulder to shoulder, stifling laughter as their wristbands pulsed a little brighter, proof that the Reds were close.
Malika and George, still hand-in-hand, opted for strategy over panic. George guided her up a concealed staircase that twisted to the sixth floor and into one of Hogwarts’ many secret passages. With George’s encyclopedic knowledge of the castle’s quirks, they managed to stay just out of reach, each turn buying them precious time.
As for Eudora and Miles, they went after the box with almost ruthless determination. Every cupboard was opened, every tapestry lifted, every nook scrutinized. For them, it wasn’t about survival; it was about victory.
As the game wore on, the tension thickened like fog in the dungeons. The Red team pressed forward with ruthless determination, and the Blues scattered like startled mice, each second bringing them closer to capture... or triumph. Somewhere in the tower, Peeves cackled gleefully at his secret hiding spot, the prize still untouched.
Amidst the chaos, Patty—the quiet little Hufflepuff panda—slipped away so silently that no one even noticed when she was gone.
Kenny, meanwhile, abandoned Cedric and Tommy in search of a “better” hiding spot. His bold independence lasted all of three minutes before Roger and Alicia cornered him like predators. One swift tag, a snuffing of his wristband, and Kenny trudged back to the North Hall.
Sarah, still possessed by her sudden general’s spirit, cut through the halls with ruthless efficiency. She single-handedly tagged both Angelina and Miles, escorting them back as if they were prisoners of war. Her wristband glowed crimson, and she stood taller with every successful capture, clearly savoring her role as commander of the hunt.
Elsewhere, Maddie sprinted through the corridors with a single mission: find the box. On the third floor, she nearly collided with Eudora, who was still obsessively scouring the tower.
“We should team up,” she urged with a smile.
Eudora scoffed. “I don’t need your help.”
Maddie, ever patient, wished her luck, but Eudora shoved past and disappeared deeper into the castle. Her arrogance, however, led her straight into Lee and Fred. She put up a fight, but they managed to tag her cleanly, snuffing her wristband. She stormed back to the North Hall, fuming.
Meanwhile, Cassius and Adrian had locked onto their quarry: Tommy and Cedric. But the two Blues were annoyingly agile, weaving through hidden staircases and winding passages like seasoned pranksters. What should’ve been a quick capture turned into an endless chase, the Reds growing more frustrated with every sharp turn. Tommy and Cedric, laughing breathlessly as they ran, seemed to be enjoying the chase far more than the idea of hiding.
After what felt like hours of running, Vera stumbled into the music room, panting. A small ensemble of frogs—wearing nothing but their natural green—were mid-rehearsal, croaking in an oddly harmonious yet deafening chorus.
“Shut up!” she hissed, but the amphibian symphony only grew louder.
Her wristband pulsed aggressively, and a prickle of panic ran down her spine. Scanning the room, she spotted a small door at the far end. Without a second thought, she bolted, flinging it open to reveal a narrow, low-ceilinged corridor.
The corridor was cluttered with instruments and choir costumes. She tiptoed carefully over scattered violins, tattered robes, and a particularly judgmental-looking drum, trying not to add her own accidental soundtrack.
At last, she reached another door. Heart hammering, she twisted the knob and stepped inside. The room was dimly lit, and the frogs’ chorus had mercifully ended. She allowed herself to exhale in relief, only to realize: she wasn’t alone.
“Hello.”
The voice cut through the silence behind her. She spun, squinting into the shadows.
“Lumos maxima.”
Light flared, washing the room in a golden glow, and her pulse nearly leapt out of her throat when she saw who it was.
Felix Bobbin.
“How did you find your way here?” His tone was calm, measured, as though the answer hardly mattered.
She froze, her nerves prickling under the weight of his presence. He was lounging on a small narrow sofa, book in one hand, wand in the other, the spell’s glow sparking amber in his eyes. They caught the light and held it, as if his gaze itself was the flame.
“Three years at Hogwarts, and I’ve kept this place to myself,” he mused. “Until now.”
Vera's hand darted to the door—
“Don’t go.”
Halting, she turned to him, expecting annoyance but was met with a faint smile instead. Rare for the Gryffindor seeker, who was usually more storm than sun. He closed his book, then rose and stepped toward her.
"What are you supposed to be?" he said, lifting his wand, its glow framing her face. “Kitten?”
She gave a small, wary nod, baffled by this sudden softening. He’d been nothing but sharp edges earlier this year, yet now... he was different.
Her eyes tracked him as he came closer. The neat gleam of his dark hair, precise to the point of arrogance. The flawless smoothness of his skin, untouched by any real battle. The firmness of his lips, suggesting restraint, or maybe secrets.
But above all, it was his eyes. Those amber eyes, burning, elusive, and alive with warmth and shadow in equal measure. Eyes that seemed to see more than they ever confessed, and hid what they refused to give away.
He wore the Gryffindor crest as if it belonged to him alone, red and gold draped across his frame like a second skin. Boldness and fearlessness should have been the natural conclusion, but there was something softer in his expression. A restraint. A quiet, fragile note beneath the composed exterior, as if the boy and the mask were not entirely the same.
It unsettled her, that contradiction. How he could feel both close and impossibly distant at once?
“And has another cat stolen your tongue?” he teased, his eyes casually scanning her from head to toe.
“I didn’t know anyone else was here,” she managed at last. “My mates and I were playing hide-and-seek, and I thought… I wanted…”
Her explanation unraveled into silence, but Felix didn’t so much as blink. Instead, he stepped forward, his wand lifting her hand with practiced ease.
“And what’s this?” he asked.
“It’s—it’s a magical wristband.”
His brow arched, a hint of curiosity breaking through his composure. “For what?”
“It’s for the game,” she said quickly, swallowing against the dryness in her throat. “The closer someone from the other team gets, the brighter it glows.”
He tilted his head. “It’s glowing a little too intensely now. Guess you’ll have to stay.”
With that, he sank back onto the sofa, landing with a kind of careless grace that looked effortless, though the rigid line of his shoulders betrayed him. He stretched an arm along the backrest, wandlight casting long shadows as his eyes flickered back to her.
Vera lingered at the threshold, heart pounding loud enough she was sure it betrayed her. Then, summoning what courage she could, she crossed the room and perched gingerly at the far edge of the sofa, hands clasped in her lap.
“Vera?” His voice broke through, his lips curling slightly, as if her name tasted familiar on his tongue. “That’s right, isn’t it?”
She managed only a shaky nod. “Yes.”
“My name is Felix.”
“I know.”
His eyebrow arched. “You know?”
She nodded again, more firmly this time.
He leaned in slightly. “And my last name? Do you know that too?”
“It’s Bobbin.”
His smile flickered, then completely vanished. “So. You do know my name.”
“Of course.”
“Then you also know you shouldn’t be speaking to me.”
Her breath stuttered. “I… shouldn’t?”
“No.”
Her stomach knotted tight. "Why not?”
He studied her with a sharp look in his amber eyes. Not anger, not kindness. Something else entirely. The silence stretched again, taut as a wire, and her skin prickled under the weight of it.
“Why not?” she pressed, her voice a little desperate now.
“You’re too young to understand,” he said at last, his tone dismissive, almost condescending, as if he were speaking to a child who had asked a foolish question.
“What does that even mean?” she demanded. “What are you talking about?”
He let out a sigh, his gaze hardening for just a second before it softened again. “I need you to do me a favor, Vera.”
“Yeah?”
"Don’t speak to me in public. Ever again.”
The words hit her like a blow, knocking the air from her lungs. “I... I don’t understand—”
“I said don’t speak to me. Not in front of anyone.”
Her chest cinched tight. "But… why?”
“It’s not about you.” His voice softened, almost apologetic. “It’s just… you wouldn’t understand.”
She wanted to argue, to demand answers, but the weight of his tone held her still.
“I’m sorry.” he said, and this time there was a hint of genuine regret in his eyes as he watched her. “But it’s for the better. Trust me.”
She looked away, blinking hard against the sting rising in her eyes. Her chest tightened with the unsaid, with the thought that maybe, somehow, this was her fault.
“Hey.” His voice gentled. “That doesn’t mean you can’t talk to me at all.”
“But you just said—”
“In public,” he cut in, sudden sharpness returning. “Not when others are around. But when it’s just us… That’s different.”
She swallowed hard, her thoughts a tangled storm she couldn’t begin to sort. “I don’t understand…”
“You will one day,” he said quietly. Not a promise. Not a hope. Just a truth he seemed already resigned to.
He leaned back, retreating into his thoughts, and picked up the book he’d left aside. Without sparing her another glance, he flipped it open, fingers trailing the lines of text with exaggerated calm, as though nothing had happened.
The silence returned heavier than before, thick with all the things he hadn’t said. Vera sat motionless, staring at the floor. She wanted to argue, to demand something—anything—more. But as her lips parted, the glow of her wristband dimmed.
Felix noticed. “You’d better go,” he murmured. “So you can win.”
She rose, turning to the door, her thoughts a storm of fear and questions without answers. Her hand had barely brushed the handle when his voice stopped her cold.
“Vera.”
Slowly, she turned her head. “Yes?”
He rose from the sofa, his movements slow as he began to close the space between them. His amber eyes glowed with a strange, unsettling focus, as though he saw something invisible to her, and wouldn’t let it go.
“Don’t tell anyone you’ve spoken to me.” He said, his tone sharp.
She couldn’t move, her hand still locked on the handle, her body rooted in place by the weight of his stare. The gap between them was shrinking, every step he took toward her deliberate and unnerving.
“Don’t tell anyone you saw me.”
Her pulse thundered in her ears, her body stiff with fear as he leaned closer.
“Don’t even speak my name.”
A shiver ran down her spine, her body instinctively tensing as his presence engulfed her. With a small, shaky nod, she turned back to the door, her hand trembling as she grasped the handle once more.
The cold air of the corridor rushed over her like a wave, stinging her skin as she slipped out. She shut the door quickly, refusing to glance back, Felix’s last words still reverberating through her mind like a curse.
The moment she stepped away from the music room, it felt as if someone had driven a fist straight into her stomach. Why had he acted that way? Why the secrecy? Why her? Every question only tightened the weight pressing on her chest.
Her wristband pulsed brighter now, the faint blue light keeping time with her racing heartbeat. As she neared the threshold of another corridor, a sudden firm grip seized her arm, yanking her out of her thoughts.
“It’s over, Black,” came a low, cutting voice.
Her wristband instantly blinked out, its glow dying like a candle in a draft. She spun on her heel, glare ready.
“Oh, fantastic." She scoffed. "Out of everyone, it had to be you.”
Ryu Avery, tall and irritatingly unbothered, arched a brow. “That’s your concern? Not the part where you just lost?”
“I didn’t lose,” she snapped. “It’s a team game.”
He smirked, that infuriating little curve of his mouth she wanted to smack. “Cute. But I caught you, which means you lost. Math checks out.”
“Congratulations on your groundbreaking discovery,” she deadpanned. “Now let go.”
He released her with a mock flourish, and they fell into step toward the north hall, their footsteps echoing in sync.
“So… what exactly are you supposed to be?” He asked, his eyes trailing over her costume, annoyingly thorough.
She side-eyed him. “A black cat. Duh.”
“Why a black cat?” His tone was teasing, but his gaze lingered a beat too long.
“Because I like black cats.”
“Do you own one?”
“No.”
“Why not?”
“Why are you interrogating me?”
“If you like them so much, you should get one.”
“It’s not that simple.”
“It’s literally that simple.”
She rolled her eyes, lengthening her stride. “Do you have a pet, then?”
“Of course.”
“What kind of pet?”
“A dragon.”
She stopped short, heat flashing across her cheeks before she could stop it. “…Sorry, what?”
“A Japanese dragon,” he said smoothly, as if it were the most normal answer in the world. “It’s back home, in Kyoto.”
Her jaw dropped. “And you just—what? Walk it around the garden on a leash?”
“Wouldn’t you like to know?”
She blinked at him, trying to decide if he was joking or just unhinged. “Why would you have a pet dragon?”
“Why wouldn’t I? It’s my family’s sigil.”
“Oh.” She stared, words failing her. Who was this guy?
Ryu tilted his head, studying her. “So… no pets at all?”
“Nope.”
“Not even a crow?”
Her brow furrowed. “Why would I—?”
But before she could finish, both their wristbands flared alive, flooding the corridor with a sharp, electric blue glow.
“Yes!” Vera exclaimed, a rush of delight shooting through her as she realized someone from the blue team had found the hidden box.
She bolted toward the North Hall, momentum carrying her forward, while Ryu followed behind, his expression a mixture of annoyance and disbelief.
By the time they arrived, the majority of the players were already gathered. The blue team basked in their victory, laughter and cheers echoing off the walls as they waited to see who had unearthed the elusive box.
Meanwhile, the red team looked like someone had just sucked the fun out of the room. Cassius and Adrian were locked in a heated argument with Fred and Lee, accusations flying like arrows as each tried to pin the blame for their failed plans on someone else.
On the floor, Sarah lay sprawled like a starfish, utterly defeated, her disappointment radiating in waves.
Ryu drifted off to deal with Eudora, who was clearly unhappy about being caught so early, leaving Vera’s attention free to roam. That’s when she noticed Jane, sitting alone, distant and decidedly unenthusiastic despite the blue team’s celebrations.
Then, like a plot twist no one had expected, the triumphant discoverer appeared, clutching the wooden box with an almost gleeful skip in her step. The room collectively froze, astonishment painted on every face.
“PATTY????”
Patty grinned. "It was in the music room!"
Chapter 12: The Worst Partner
Summary:
Quidditch glory, enchanted sketches, and a reluctant partnership—Vera’s first term is ending with awe and irritation. Between broomsticks and books, friendships and grudges, one boy’s secrets are about to tangle with hers.
Chapter Text
Sunday, November 5, 1989
It was the season’s first Quidditch match, and the stands vibrated with excitement. Students from every house crowded the pitch, the air thick with cheers, banners, and adolescent hormones. Gryffindor red clashed against Ravenclaw blue, the flags snapping in the wind like rival armies ready for war.
“Do you dare m—”
“NOT NOW!” the twins roared at Lee, cutting him off before he could finish whatever nonsense he was about to say.
The trio had squeezed back into their ridiculous lion costumes—Halloween repurposed into Gryffindor battle gear—roaring and flag-waving like their team’s entire victory hinged on their lungs.
Tommy and Cedric, squished in beside them, were doubled over with laughter at the spectacle, their sides hurting almost as much as Vera’s ears.
The commentator, a sixth-year Hufflepuff, boomed through the enchanted megaphone, his voice ricocheting around the stands.
“Ladies and gentlemen, fasten your broomsticks—it’s time for the clash of the titans! Gryffindor versus Ravenclaw!”
The stadium exploded in cheers, banners whipping wildly in the wind, voices clashing in a chorus of house pride.
“First up—guarding Gryffindor’s hoops with nerves of steel and reflexes that defy human anatomy—the indestructible, the immovable, OLIVER ‘BRICK WALL’ WOOD!”
The third-year zoomed across the sky in flawless loops, sending the Gryffindor section into a frenzy.
“And here comes the captain himself—faster than a Niffler on payday, the seeker turned beater, the unstoppable—CHARLIE ‘LIGHTNING BOLT’ WEASLEY!”
The twins nearly toppled out of the stands, shrieking like banshees as their brother streaked by, pausing just long enough to slap their outstretched hands mid-flight.
“And finally—last but by no means least—the snitch-slayer, the hawk-eyed hero, the seeker who carried Gryffindor to glory last year—give it up for FELIX ‘QUICKSILVER’ BOBBIN!”
A tidal wave of red and gold rose to its feet as Felix sliced through the air with effortless grace. The roar of the crowd rattled the pitch itself, each cheer feeding his momentum as he soared higher, the living embodiment of Gryffindor pride.
The third-year, draped in scarlet and gold, met the roaring crowd with all the enthusiasm of a stone gargoyle. His brow was permanently furrowed, his half-lidded eyes unreadable.
Vera bit her lip, remembering their conversation on Halloween, the one that left her unsettled long after it ended. While the stands erupted in feverish applause, she remained stubbornly silent, bitterness bubbling in her veins.
The whistle blew. Seekers darted like hawks, Chasers weaved and dove, and Beaters unleashed bludgers like guided missiles. The pitch became a whirlwind of speed and strategy, each near miss earning a gasp or a cheer.
"THIS IS CRACKERRRRR!" Tommy shouted, nearly rupturing Vera’s eardrum and leaving Alicia blinking spots out of her vision.
This is a bloody crime, Vera muttered inwardly, watching the iron balls whip through the sky with homicidal glee.
The spectacle was more nightmare than marvel. Every time a bludger rocketed toward a player, her stomach lurched, and she had to squeeze her eyes shut, praying for the chaos to end. And then, barely fifteen minutes in, it did.
“BOBBIN CATCHES THE SNITCH!”
The Gryffindor stands erupted, their first victory of the season sealed. Felix wasn’t just good—he was divine on a broomstick. Riding the latest model, he cut through the sky like he was the Snitch, untouchable and gleaming.
And yet, even as awe prickled at her skin, the bitterness lingered. For all his brilliance, Felix Bobbin’s unexplained hostility still soured every cheer in her throat.
That night, the Gryffindor tower was a blur of butterbeer, laughter, and victory chants—yet her eyes kept flicking through the crowd, searching for him.
“Where’s the Seeker?” Angelina asked Percy over the noise.
“Bobbin? He’s not one for parties,” Percy answered primly.
Vera bristled. Too arrogant to join his own teammates’ celebration? Was a little camaraderie beneath him? The thought soured her even further, yet, maddeningly, she couldn’t stop circling back to him. Why did he look at her with such disdain, when he barely knew her at all?
She resolved to starve the obsession. Leaving History of Magic early became her new routine—better to slip away before the third-years arrived. If she spotted him in the common room, she made for the door before he had the chance to notice. Hogwarts was vast, and Felix seemed to prefer solitude anyway, vanishing for long stretches as though the castle itself swallowed him whole.
And still, despite all her careful maneuvering, he managed to linger in her mind like a curse she couldn’t quite shake.
Sunday, November 19, 1989
As the days at Hogwarts grew colder and the rain showed no mercy, her usual adventures outside became less and less feasible. More often than not, she found herself holed up in her dormitory or tucked away in the Hufflepuff common room, whiling away the hours with Jane.
But one weekend, when the skies briefly relented, she seized her chance. Armed with her sketchbook, she ventured out to capture the mountains and the glassy lake in watercolors, a portrait meant for Kaya back home. Yet before she could finish, the clouds betrayed her. Raindrops spattered her page, smudging her work into a watercolor tragedy. Muttering curses, she gathered her things and sprinted, but the downpour hunted her down, drenching her before she could find cover.
At last, she stumbled into a long stone corridor with arched windows that framed the storm-lashed mountains beyond. The rain hammered harder, the sound swelling through the empty space. As she wiped her face and tried to rescue what was left of her sketchbook, she caught sight of a figure slouched in the window’s shadow.
She groaned under her breath. “Buggers.”
“That’s a rather big word for such a little girl.”
Little. She despised that word.
Felix’s gaze lingered on her as she wrung out her dripping hair with crimson gloves. With a subtle flick of his wand, he directed it toward her, and in an instant, her clothes and hair were completely dry. The gesture startled her—she hadn’t expected it—but she couldn’t help being impressed.
“Thanks,” she muttered.
His lips curved. "You’re welcome, kitten.”
The word slithered under her skin. Was it mockery, or something else entirely? She remembered Halloween, his sharp words, his preference for silence. Best not to press.
“Don’t worry,” she said, “I’m going.”
“I didn’t ask you to leave."
“But you want me to.”
“That’s not true… stay, if you like.”
She hesitated. The storm-wrapped mountains outside the window were hauntingly beautiful, the kind of scene Kaya would want to see. And she hadn’t finished her sketch. With a quiet sigh, she sank back down, opening her book to the half-ruined page.
Felix, opposite her, didn’t so much as glance up. He drifted back to his own book, wand hovering nearby, keeping him wrapped in a bubble of warmth. The silence between them wasn’t exactly comfortable, but it wasn’t unbearable either.
After a stretch of quiet, he finally spoke. "Can I see your drawing?”
“It’s not finished.”
“Perfect,” he said, snapping his book shut.
His wand trailed after him like a well-trained dog, radiating a gentle heat that tickled her arm as he leaned closer. She hugged the sketchbook to her chest, but Felix—smooth as ever—slid it from her grasp with maddening ease.
He perched opposite her on the windowsill, stretching his legs until the tips of his shoes brushed against hers, and began flipping through the pages.
“Are these all regular drawings?”
“Regular?” she echoed.
“Non-magical.”
“Yeah.” She hadn’t realized there was supposed to be another kind.
He stopped at a sketch of a black cat. “Is this yours?”
“No. I don’t have a cat.”
“Hm.”
Does he ever say anything besides hm?
Still, he studied the drawing with unusual intensity, lowered his floating wand into his hand, and gave it a little flick. He then turned the sketchbook around, and she couldn’t stop the grin that spread across her face: the cat was now alive, swishing its tail, licking its paw, and curling itself on the page.
“Go on." he said. "Pet it,”
“What?”
Before she could protest, he caught her wrist and nudged her hand toward the parchment. The charmed cat pressed against her fingers, purring loud enough that she almost laughed. She glanced up—and caught him watching her. Really watching her. His usual detached mask cracked just enough to show a fleeting, genuine smile.
“How did you—”
“Simple animation charm,” he interrupted, with a shrug that made it sound as effortless as breathing.
Jealousy stung—sharp and familiar. He always seemed to excel: born rich, good at Quidditch, naturally gifted at magic. She, meanwhile, still fumbled with the basics.
“Want me to teach you?” he asked.
Her heart leapt, but insecurity dragged it right back down. She couldn’t bear to expose her failures, not to him.
“No," she murmured, "it’s alright.”
“Maybe later?”
“Yeah. Maybe.”
But the earlier sting of doubt lingered, shadowing the moment—even with the little cat still purring beneath her fingertips.
“Felix,” her voice cracked the silence, threaded with a sadness she couldn’t quite hide. “Can I ask you something?”
His answer came quick, almost rehearsed. “I’m not going to tell you, Vera.”
“Why not?”
He pushed off from where he sat and crossed back to the window, leaning into the frame with folded arms. “You’re too young to understand.”
“Did I… do something wrong?”
“You? No. Never.”
“Then why are you—”
“Just drop it, alright?” His voice snapped sharper this time, cutting hers in half. “Forget it.”
But how could she? Every vague word of his only pulled her deeper into the tangle. She hated it—the secrets, the distance he kept like a wall she couldn’t climb.
“And don’t go asking anyone else, either,” he added. “Focus on your classes. Stay out of trouble.”
She bit her lip, refusing to let his evasions stand. “But what if it’s all just a misunderstanding?”
His gaze caught hers, heavy with something that looked like sorrow. “I only wish,” he muttered, the words dragging more weight than she was ready for.
He closed his book with deliberate care, straightened, and moved to leave. His steps were unhurried, almost reluctant—as if some part of him wanted to stay. Passing her, he paused just long enough to throw a glance over his shoulder.
“Later, kitten.”
And then he was gone.
Vera stared at the page in front of her, the half-finished sketch blurring under her gaze. The pencil lay in her grip, but her mind was elsewhere, circling back, again and again, over his words, his look, that nickname. What was he hiding? Why couldn’t he just say it?
She hated being shut out, hated being told to forget what had already rooted itself in her chest. Felix hadn’t given her answers—only more questions, and for her, ignorance was the cruelest punishment of all.
Friday, December 15, 1989
Snow had swallowed the mountains whole, and with it came the dreaded realization that term’s end was creeping closer. At Hogwarts, this meant only one thing: stressed-out students haunting either the library or their common rooms, frantically trying to stuff knowledge into their heads before exams. The first-years, Vera included, were no exception—though they seemed to be drowning in chapters as quickly as the grounds outside were drowning in snow.
History of Magic, however, remained as lively as a funeral… until it wasn’t. One moment, Lee was busy engineering a levitating jelly bean house with the twins as his dubious architects, and the next, Professor Binns floated in with news that immediately killed whatever joy had managed to sneak into the room.
“For your final assignment this term,” droned the ancient ghost, “you will be working in pairs on a research project.”
The class barely reacted.
“…I’ll be assigning the pairs at the end of the class,”
Instant silence, and Lee’s jelly bean house plummeted onto the desk like a sugary omen of doom.
“Professor?” ventured Eudora, “Wouldn’t it be better if we chose our partners ourselves?”
“Not at all, Miss Dlamini,” Binns replied with the unwavering cheer of someone who’d been dead for decades and therefore immune to pre-teenage suffering.
A wave of groans and muttered protests swept the room, but he drifted on, unbothered.
The rest of the class was spent in collective dread, each student silently bargaining with fate not to be saddled with their least favorite peer. Vera, for her part, was deep in prayer—specifically to avoid being paired with Ryu 'I’m better than everyone' Avery.
Finally, the dreaded moment arrived. Binns shuffled the parchment with all the urgency of a snail on holiday, clearing his throat like he was announcing the end of the world.
“He’s remarkably slow for a ghost,” Vera whispered to Jane.
“Let’s see now,” he intoned… and promptly took another ten seconds just to glance at the paper.
Partners were soon announced, and the room buzzed with a mix of delight, groans, and outright despair. Alicia and Tommy beamed; Fred got stuck with Kenny; George was paired with Maddie. Lee was sentenced to Sarah, Patty with her dorm-mate Malika, Jane and Eudora together—Jane exhaling in relief like she’d just dodged a bludger. Miles ended up with Cedric, Angelina with Roger, Adrian with Ryu, and Vera…
“Mr. Warrington, you will be working with Miss Black.”
“SOMEBODY KILL MEEEEE!” Vera practically screamed, her meltdown propelling her toward the next class like a human cannonball.
“Just swap with Jane,” Maddie offered hopefully.
“We tried! But Binns said no swaps."
“Honestly, it’s not that bad,” Jane said, trying to sound reasonable. “Just the weekend.”
“Two bloody days, Jane! That’s practically a lifetime!”
Jane shrugged. “It’ll be over before you know it.”
Vera took a deep breath, and stopped walking. "I need a thick rope."
Maddie and Jane exchanged glances. "Um, what for?"
"To hang myself."
During Frey’s class, her internal monologue had officially descended into full-blown cursing. She was already juggling assignments, wand practice, and a general sense of doom. And now, of course, she had to partner with the teacher’s pet.
Trying to force some optimism, she reminded herself that Cassius was one of the top students. Maybe—just maybe—she could glide past his insufferable perfectionism and focus on snagging a decent grade. That hope evaporated the moment he raised his hand.
“Professor, aren’t you going to assign us a new chapter for the second term?”
“Yes, of course,” Frey replied. “Thank you for reminding me, Mr. Warrington.”
The rest of the class groaned, and Vera’s fingers itched with homicidal urges directed squarely at his tall, smug neck.
As they left class, he sidled up to her.
“Hey, Black!"
“What?” she shot back, face contorting into pure discontent.
“I suggest we start the assignment soon. Library, tomorrow morning?”
“Oh, how delightful,” she said, dripping sarcasm. “Let’s meet at dawn while we’re at it. I sleep in, Warrington, so I’ll see you at noon.”
She stalked off, silently praying the sun would rise later than usual. Starting her morning with Cassius Warrington’s smug mug was exactly the nightmare she’d been hoping to avoid.
The next day, she fought tooth and nail to keep her frustration in check as she trudged toward the library. She’d planned to arrive by noon, but the siren call of a truly exceptional lunch had set her back.
When she finally appeared, Cassius’s eyes narrowed. “You’re late, Black.”
“Pardon me, milord,” she snapped, rolling her eyes. “Shall we just get this over with?”
“Don’t worry,” he said with a smug grin. “It’s easy.”
“I never said it wasn’t,” she shot back, “but someone—bless their soul—managed to get Professor Frey to assign a new chapter just before the holiday. Delightful timing, really.”
Cassius arched an eyebrow, that infuriating condescension in full display. “Well, some of us enjoy intellectual challenges. Maybe if you put in more effort, you wouldn’t struggle so much.”
Her jaw clenched. “I don’t need your advice, Warrington.”
“Clearly you do,” he countered, smirking. “Consider yourself lucky I’m here to assist you.”
“Your assistance is the last thing I need.”
“Well,” he said, still grinning, “lucky for you, you don’t get a choice in the matter.”
“Bite me."
They settled into a strained silence, each focusing on the assignment, though Vera couldn’t ignore his ever-watchful gaze creeping over her shoulder.
“Could you not breathe down my neck?” she snapped, spinning around just enough to glare.
“Just making sure you don’t mess up."
“I don’t need your supervision!”
“Considering your track record, I’d beg to differ.”
She clenched her teeth so hard she was pretty sure they’d crack. The library, normally a sanctuary of quiet, now felt like a battlefield, and the assignment less a project and more a duel of wills. Every subtle jab, every condescending glance from him, grated against her patience like nails on a chalkboard.
“Why do you always act like you’re better than everyone?”
“Because I am,” he said smoothly, dismissive as ever. “Some of us are simply born with more intellect.”
“You mean arrogance,”
“Not my problem that you refuse to see the truth.”
“The truth? What truth?”
“The people you surround yourself with. They’re holding you down, polluting your mind.”
“My friends, you mean?”
He scoffed. “Those people aren’t our kind of friends, Black.”
“And why is that, Warrington?”
“You know why.”
“Enlighten me.”
“Because their blood is dirty!” he snapped, venom coating every word. “I thought you’d know better. You are a Black, aren’t you?”
Her face flared red, a mix of anger and disbelief. “I don’t agree with what my family thinks...”
A few nearby students peeked up from their books, curiosity piqued by the verbal sparring.
Undeterred, Cassius pressed on. “You’re too naive. Life isn’t a happy tale where everyone gets along—despite what your… mudblood friends might tell you.”
"Maybe it's not, but we should still try to make a world where everyone gets along without being mean."
Cassius’s smirk deepened. “What we should do, is stick with our own. I mean, look at you! Supposed to be one of the best among us, but you’re trying so hard to be like them that you’re practically one of them. I bet if your family found out what you’re doing, they'd be disappointed in you.”
“And what exactly am I doing?”
“You’re acting like them.”
“Acting?”
“Yes. Dressing like your dormmates, speaking like you were raised in a barn.”
She swallowed, heat rising to her cheeks.
“So vulgar,” he continued, “and for what? For them to like you?”
“You don’t even know me, Warrington.”
“I can read people like a newspaper,” he said, voice dangerously calm. “I’ve read you since day one.”
“Easy now—”
“You’re too naive, Black. One day, you’ll regret it. Especially when your family finds out what you’re doing.”
Her gaze lingered on him, but the words she wanted to say got lost somewhere between fear and defiance. Her lie had grown too big, too tangled. The carefully constructed façade now threatened to crumble, leaving her raw and exposed before the scrutinizing eyes of the Poshlanders.
They think she’s merely pretending to be like a muggleborn. But what if they knew the truth? That beneath the carefully measured posture, she was just another girl raised among muggles, indistinguishable from the very students they sneered at.
She didn’t care for Cassius—or his clique—but the thought of them discovering her secret made her stomach twist. Despite their obvious disdain for her friends, they seemed to respect her… because of her blood.
And oh, how dearly did naive young Vera love it.
“Do what you like, Warrington,” she said, leaning back and crossing her arms like a shield. “But don’t tell me who to be, and never call my friends mudbloods again. Got it?”
“I’m only saying—” his voice dipped. “You are Vera Black. Your family ruled the wizarding world once. I’d be careful who you trust. Not everyone likes us.”
“That’s not true.”
“They’re jealous of us. They hate us. They wish they had our strength. That’s why they stole magic.”
Vera froze. “Stole… magic?”
“How else would they have it? We are descendants of ancient dynasties. Our blood is merged with that of beasts. They are commons. Dirty. Their magic is impure.”
She tried to digest his words. Despite his age, Cassius spoke with an unsettling blend of maturity and arrogance, a certainty that made her question herself. His beliefs were steeped in prejudice and entitlement, a dangerous echo of the kind of worldview the Humphreys had once tried to impose. And, for the first time, she wondered if she’d been naïve to think herself untouchable by it.
“I don’t believe that’s true, Warrington,” she said after a careful pause.
“It is true,” he said, almost certain. “One day, when the Dark Lord returns, we’ll be proven right. And all the mudbloods… they’ll have to give their magic back. Whether they like it or not.”
A chill ran down her spine. The words weren’t just arrogant... they were frightening. Shock rooted her to the spot, and for a moment, she couldn’t find a response.
And did he just say… Dark Lord?
“Let’s just focus on the assignment,” she said, deciding some topics were better left unspoken.
“Good idea,” he agreed, though the swagger in his voice had softened. “Though I doubt we’ll finish it today.”
She arched an eyebrow. “Funny… didn’t you call it ‘easy’ earlier?”
“It is easy,” he hedged. “Some of these events just… lack sources.”
She couldn't argue there. The chapter on the 1911 gargoyle strike was a mess of jargon and thinly sourced facts. For all Hogwarts’ magic, its history curriculum oddly resembled the soul-crushing monotony of her old muggle classes.
“Did they even have newspapers in 1911?” she asked.
“Duh."
“Then why not just find a newspaper account and reference it?”
For a moment, Cassius blinked, that perfect smugness faltering as he registered the practicality of her solution. Vera couldn’t help the tiny, victorious smirk tugging at her lips.
The two edged toward the librarian, Madam Irma Pince, who looked thoroughly absorbed in a book so thick it might as well have been a brick.
“You ask her,” Vera whispered.
“It was your idea—you do it!”
Madam Pince lowered her book, eyes narrowing. “What do you want?”
Cassius cleared his throat. "We’d like to access the newspaper archives.”
“Please,” Vera added, with all the politeness she could muster.
Still looking mildly scandalized by their very existence, Madam Pince led them into a cramped hall just beside the restricted section. The room was a chaotic sea of newspapers, stacked and scattered in every conceivable direction. Vera blinked, unsure how they were supposed to navigate the paper tsunami.
With a flick of her wand, Madam Pince demonstrated a charm that neatly summoned the needed papers.
“Do not mess up the dates or the names,” she warned, tone deadly serious. “And for merlin's sake, don’t use too much force! Or else, you’ll tear the delicate fabric of the papers.”
She then left them to fend for themselves among the sea of newspapers. Cassius, ever self-assured, dove in effortlessly, wand flicking with all the ease of someone born to magic, while Vera hovered nervously nearby.
“You start with The Daily Prophet, I’ll find the rest,” he directed.
Panic bubbled—there was no way she could reveal her inability to cast. She opened her mouth, searching for an excuse, but nothing came.
“What are you waiting for, Black?" He prodded. "Can’t do the charm?”
“Of course I can,” she scoffed, though her trembling hands betrayed her. “I just… um… need to use the loo.”
He narrowed his eyes. “Be quick.”
Once out of the archive, she took her time, deliberately stalling. In the bathroom, she entertained herself by wadding up tissues and flinging them at the ceiling, cackling silently at her own little rebellion.
When she finally returned, she found him smugly seated at the table, newspapers stacked neatly.
“Merlin, Black, did you get lost?”
“Bugger off,” she muttered, desperately masking her nerves.
“You’re lucky to have me as a partner. I found everything while you wandered the halls.”
“Good for you!” she shot back, swiping the papers from him with exaggerated flair.
Despite the rocky start, they settled into an uneasy rhythm—dividing tasks, bickering just enough to keep it interesting, and managing to finish the research.
Afterward, Vera practically bolted to the Great Hall, where her friends were buried in their own work.
“So?” Maddie leaned forward, eager.
“How did it go?” Alicia chimed in.
Vera slumped into the seat beside George, letting out a dramatic sigh. “Worse than I thought,” she admitted, secretly proud of surviving Cassius Warrington without exposing herself.
Chapter 13: Christmas '89
Summary:
Santa clause gets assassinated, a secret trip to Diagon alley goes terribly wrong, and a hunt for a stuffed toy turns into a gladiator match. This Christmas, chaos, magic, and mischief collide—making Vera's first holiday at St. Mary's truly unforgettable.
Chapter Text
Tuesday, December 19, 1989
“What about Father Christmas, then?” Tommy asked.
“Nope. Not a wizard,” Alicia said flatly. "Just some muggle nonsense."
Malika, halfway through an innocent sip of orange juice, froze. She nearly inhaled it instead, eyes bulging. “But… he is real, right?”
The table went dead quiet, and glances zipped around like owls delivering scandalous letters.
Finally, Lee cleared his throat. “Er… yeah, nah. Don’t reckon so, Malika.”
And that was it. The Christmas spirit detonated. Malika burst into tears and bolted, just as Vera slid into the bench.
“What’s that all about?” she asked, mid-sit.
“Lee just assassinated Father Christmas,” Angelina said dryly.
“Oi!” Lee threw up his hands. “How was I supposed to know she still believed in the bloke?”
“Easy fix,” Vera shrugged, nudging the milk bottle away. “Tell her you lied.”
“Orrrrr,” Maddie said sagely, “maybe it’s time she faced reality. I was eight when my parents told me.”
Lee groaned, already standing like a condemned man walking to the gallows. “Malika, wait! I was only joking!”
The rest exchanged looks across the table.
“Right," Angelina said, "now that the holiday ruiner’s gone, what’s everyone got planned for Christmas?”
“My parents are taking me to Korea to see Granny,” Maddie said proudly.
“That’s cracker!” Tommy exclaimed. “Mine are dragging us to Belfast for the markets. Alicia’s coming too.”
Alicia grinned. “Yeah, can’t wait!”
“Ugh. Just another boring dinner with the family for me,” Angelina moaned, stabbing her cereal like it owed her money.
“Do some magic at the table,” Cedric suggested with a sly grin. “Make the sprouts vanish. Legendary stuff.”
“Brilliant idea,” Angelina smirked. “Nothing says ‘Merry Christmas’ like giving Auntie Joan a heart attack.”
“What about you, Vera?” Fred nudged her. “Anything thrilling?”
“I’m going to see a film,” she said casually.
Every head turned.
“At a Muggle cinema?” Alicia asked, narrowing her eyes.
Vera froze mid-chew. Shite. They still thought she was trapped under the thumb of her strict French pure-blood aunt.
“Uh... yeah,” she swallowed, brain scrambling. “Just, y’know… living on the edge. Could get caught. Might not. Bit of a thrill, innit?”
Fred grinned. “Sounds like a proper heist.”
“Yeah, well, I’ve got to escape somehow,” she muttered nervously.
The others exchanged sympathetic looks, imagining her spiritless holiday under the watchful eye of Aunt Guillotine. Vera let them believe it, guilt gnawing but lies stacking higher than a Gringotts vault.
And still, she kept at it. Because by now, lying wasn’t just a habit. It was her bloody side hustle.
Lee and Malika returned to the table.
“I may have… exaggerated a bit,” Lee admitted, looking sheepish.
Malika dabbed at a stray tear. “You think? Father Christmas is real, Lee. Always has been!”
He scratched the back of his head. “Guess I’ll need to make the nice list this year to dig myself out of that one.”
“Good luck,” Angelina deadpanned. “Yesterday you turned our snowman into a sculpture of mashed potatoes.”
“Mashed potato sculptures are a tragically underappreciated art form!!” Lee huffed, clutching his chest in faux offense.
The entire group groaned in unison.
“Why don’t we just pool our Christmas wishes?” Maddie suggested brightly.
Fred grinned. “I wish for a lifetime supply of Chocolate Frogs. No—two lifetimes.”
“And an endless game of Exploding Snap,” George added.
Alicia sighed. “I just want to pass Transfiguration without McGonagall breathing down my neck.”
“I wish to meet Joey Jenkins.” Cedric chimed in dreamily.
Vera snorted. “If we’re being serious, I wish for Lee’s potato sculptures to be recognized as a full-blown art movement."
The table roared with laughter, Lee sweeping into a dramatic bow. “Your support of my starch-based genius is deeply moving, my lady.”
The laughter rolled on, wishes tangling with ridiculous holiday plans until the air around the table buzzed like tinsel.
At last, Angelina stood. “Right, packing to do. See you at the carriages.”
“Same here,” Vera said quickly, snagging an apple before slipping out of the Great Hall.
Sprinting through the castle corridors, she dodged and collided with other students in her haste, her feet barely touching the ground. By the time she burst outside, the crisp winter air slapped her cheeks, snowflakes catching in her lashes like tiny sparks of light.
Hogwarts lay beneath a flawless sheet of white, the grounds glittering as though someone had dumped a sack of sugar over them. Her boots crunched fresh trails into the snow, each hurried step leaving delicate imprints that barely had time to settle before she was gone.
She tugged her woolen hat lower over her ears, dark hair spilling out beneath it, while her Gryffindor scarf flapped behind her like a banner. Her cheeks glowed pink, half from cold, half from the secret thrill warming her chest.
In her hands, she clutched a small square parcel wrapped in crimson paper, the folds sharp and precise, tied off with golden twine that gleamed against the snow.
Hagrid’s hut came into view, smoke curling lazily from its crooked chimney. On the steps sat Hagrid himself, bundled in his usual bear-sized coat with a knitted beanie doing its best to tame his mane. Fang thumped his tail in welcome as she approached, his breath fogging the air like a dragon on its day off.
“Morning, Mr. Hagrid!” She called out.
“Ah, mornin’, young Vera,” he rumbled back, a broad smile spreading under his tangled beard.
She thrust the parcel into his enormous hands. “Happy Christmas!”
His brows shot up in surprise. “Now, what’s all this for?” he asked, turning the box over as though it might sprout legs and scamper away.
“Go on, open it!” She urged, bouncing slightly on her heels.
With surprising delicacy, he tore through the wrapping. The paper fell away to reveal a canvas, and for once, the gamekeeper was struck silent. His eyes softened as he took in the painting: his hut, snug against the snowy edge of the Forbidden Forest, Fang at his post on the steps, and a handful of magical birds glowing faintly in the sky.
“Did… did yeh make this yerself?” His voice cracked like a log on the fire.
“Yep!” She beamed. “Hogwarts is beautiful, but your hut? Definitely my favorite bit.”
He blinked rapidly, his eyes shimmering. “No one’s ever done anythin’ like this fer me before..."
Before his tears could flood, she fished a crumpled napkin from her pocket and handed it over. “Here—can’t have you watering your beard. Might start sprouting daisies.”
He let out a rumbling chuckle, then dabbed at his eyes. “Thank yeh, young Vera. I’ll hang this right next to the bear skin—pride o’ place.”
“Happy Christmas, Mr. Hagrid!”
“And a very happy Christmas to yeh,” he said warmly, giving her shoulder a fond pat that nearly sent her toppling into the snow. “This is somethin’ I’ll treasure forever.”
Her heart swelled as she waved goodbye, then dashed off toward the carriages, the memory of his watery grin tucked safely away with her own Christmas magic.
“Jane! Hey, wait up!”
Jane stopped mid-step, Eudora and Ryu pausing beside her.
“Where’d you disappear to?” she asked, worry written all over her face. “I searched everywhere.”
“Sorry,” Vera panted, brushing snow from her scarf. “Had… something to do.”
“Come on, Jane,” Eudora interrupted briskly. “Cassius and Miles saved us a carriage.”
She then marched off with Ryu, who glanced back at Vera with a faint smile before following.
Vera frowned. “You’re sitting with them?”
Jane bit her lip, eyes darting away. “I'm really sorry. But you should join us. It’ll be fun!”
She forced a faint smile. “It’s fine. I already promised the others.”
“You’re not mad, are you?”
A flicker of disappointment twisted in her chest, but she shook it off. “Of course not. Hope you have a great holiday.”
“You too.” Jane said, pulling her into a quick hug before hurrying after Eudora and Ryu.
Vera exhaled slowly, then jogged to catch Maddie and Sarah.
“Let’s ride with Fred and George,” Maddie suggested, waving them over.
The three climbed into a carriage where the twins were already waiting. As Sarah and Maddie settled in, Vera lingered, staring ahead with furrowed brows.
“Didn’t you say these were horseless carriages?” she asked, eyes fixed on the front.
“They are,” the twins said in unison.
“Then why call them horse-less? Wouldn’t it make more sense to name them after the creatures pulling them?”
Everyone turned to her like she’d sprouted a second head.
“There are no creatures, Vera,” Maddie said gently. “They move on their own.”
“What do you mean, no creatures?” she demanded, jabbing a finger at the front. “They’re right there!”
George’s grin faltered. “What are you talking about?”
She began to feel frustrated, convinced that the boys were playing one of their usual pranks on her.
“Oh, forget it,” she muttered, rolling her eyes and climbing in, though the image of the skeletal beasts hitched to the carriage lingered stubbornly in her mind.
The train ride to London was a blur of noise and laughter. The twins were busy plotting their next grand prank, with diagrams that looked suspiciously like blueprints for a small war. Lee kept daring himself into increasingly stupid stunts, culminating in sticking his head out the window like an overgrown Labrador. Sarah swore blind she’d seen a mouse, spending half the trip on her knees trying to catch it. And Maddie, saint that she was, returned from the trolley armed with enough sweets to fuel the chaos.
Before Vera knew it, the train screeched to a halt at King’s Cross. Heart racing, she bolted through the magical barrier and straight into the waiting arms of her matron.
“Where in God’s name did you spring from?” Miss Nelson exclaimed, pulling her into a warm hug.
Vera clung to her, grinning so hard her cheeks ached. The whole way back to St. Mary’s, Miss Nelson fired off questions about her school—friends, lessons, achievements, all of it. And Vera, unwilling to disappoint her, began spinning tales on the spot.
By the time they reached Sutton, she had painted herself as a stellar student, a rising star in every subject, and practically best friends with half the castle. And yet, as Miss Nelson listened with proud eyes, she felt the familiar pinch of guilt. The truth was too dangerous, and it was easier to lie than watch someone’s smile fade.
As soon as they reached the residence, Vera bolted to her bedroom, only to be ambushed by Kaya, who was waiting on the stairs.
“I MISSED YOU SO MUCH!”
“I MISSED YOU MORE!!”
Vera grabbed her wrist, pressing her own close until their half-heart charms clicked neatly together, forming one whole. Both girls beamed like they’d just reunited two lost halves of a treasure.
The rest of the evening vanished in a blur of chatter and laughter. Though they’d been exchanging letters every week for three months, Kaya still brimmed with questions about the ever mysterious boarding school.
“So? Tell me everything!”
Vera stuck to the cover story like a pro, spinning her usual line. “I swear, Kaya, it’s just as I told you.”
“But it sounds so boring!”
“It is! Nothing but books, essays, more books… I’ve practically turned into a walking library card! Now, your turn. Did you ever crack the case of Miss Nelson’s secret dates?”
“She’s a fortress. But I know she has a boyfriend.”
Vera grinned. “Then clearly, we need a plan.”
In the days leading up to Christmas, St. Mary’s transformed into a hive of festivities. Laughter and the scent of pine filled the halls as the girls wrestled with a towering tree, decking it out with handmade ornaments and tangled strings of lights.
In the drafty living room, a flickering television cast shadows over wool-clad girls huddled together, their mismatched sweaters as colorful as the sweets and chocolates piled high around them. Giggles ricocheted off the walls, turning the old house into something almost magical.
Miss Nelson, however, was neck-deep in preparations for the Boxing Day fundraiser, her brow furrowed with stress while the girls buzzed about, eager to help.
“It’s so bloody boring,” Kaya groaned, slapping another poster on the wall. “Just a bunch of geezers talking and pretending to feel sorry for us.”
“It can’t be that bad.”
“Oh, it’s the worst. But at least we get new stuff out of it.”
“Huh?”
“Clothes, toys, all sorts. The donations come in boxes, and we get first pick. But you’ve got to be fast.”
Vera frowned. “Why?”
Kaya draped an arm around her shoulders with mock gravity. “Because, my friend… it’s a bloodbath.”
When the day of the Christmas market in Sutton finally arrived, the girls of St. Mary’s set off in high spirits. Vera clutched the allowance Miss Nelson had given her back in September, her head spinning with gift ideas.
The market was alive with color and light—stalls draped in garlands and twinkling bulbs, the air rich with the scent of roasted chestnuts and spiced wine. Laughter spilled through the crowds as vendors called out their wares, their voices competing with carolers on the corner.
Vera and the girls meandered through the throng, pausing to marvel at handmade trinkets, glittering ornaments, and plates stacked with sugary sweets. Vera’s eyes lit up when she spotted just the right gifts for her friends back at Hogwarts, each one chosen with deliberate care.
That evening, back at St. Mary’s, she and Kaya sat cross-legged on the floor, wrapping the treasures with mismatched paper and string. One the mission was done, Vera tucked the little parcels beneath her bed with a satisfied grin.
“I’ll post ’em tomorrow,” she said.
“Want me to come?” Kaya offered.
“Nah, just cover for me while I’m out.”
Kaya smirked. “No worries. Miss Nelson’s got another date tomorrow anyway.”
“In the morning?”
“Yeah. Proper weird, innit? Who even dates before lunch?”
Thursday, December 21, 1989
The next morning, Vera packed the gifts carefully into her bag, but instead of heading to the conventional post office, she opted for a different destination further down the street.
“Mrs. Wriggleshore! Are you in?” she called, her voice bouncing off the still, frosty morning.
The door creaked open, revealing the elderly witch, a crooked pipe clamped between her fingers. “What do you want?” she grumbled.
“I was hoping to use your owl to send some gifts to my friends!”
Mrs. Wriggleshore shook her head. “No owls here, girl.”
She started to retreat, muttering to herself, but Vera slipped inside behind her, gently closing the door.
“I use the owl service in Diagon Alley to avoid drawing attention,” the old witch explained, puffing smoke rings into the air. “The only owls I get here are from my newspaper subscriptions, and those beasts are as hungry as they are nosy. One nibbled my mouse just last week!”
“Oh,” Vera said, disappointed. “Then how does the service work?”
“You write your letters, attach the addresses, and take them to the owl emporium in Diagon Alley. Simple enough."
Vera’s eyes brightened with another idea. “Could I use your floo to get there?”
Mrs. Wriggleshore arched a bushy eyebrow. “Alone?”
“It’s reaaaaally important!”
The old witch sighed. “Fine. Do you have wizarding coins?”
“Um… only Muggle money.”
“Let me see.”
Vera dug into her small purse and handed over her cash. Mrs. Wriggleshore counted out a few bills and exchanged them for a pouch of sickles and knuts.
“That should do,” she said, tucking the coins away.
As they approached the fireplace, Vera’s eyes drifted to the wall lined with clocks, two of which had stubbornly stopped at six o’clock.
“Mrs. Wriggleshore, your clocks… They’ve stopped ticking. Did you notice?”
The old witch merely shrugged, unfazed, and continued to puff on her pipe. With a small jar of Floo powder in hand, she ushered Vera towards the fireplace.
“Off you go, then." She said. "Don't talk to strangers, and head straight to the emporium!”
Vera arrived in Diagon Alley with a swirl of determination, and just a hint of mischief. Following Birdy’s directions, she thanked the innkeeper politely before setting off toward the owl emporium.
Her original plan had been simple: get in, send the gifts, and be back before Miss Nelson noticed she was gone. But as she wandered the bustling, twinkling streets, Diagon Alley’s holiday charm threatened to derail her mission.
The air was thick with the scents of warm butterbeer, and freshly baked pastries. Carolers, dressed in their finest robes, serenaded visitors with traditional wizarding carols and cheerful holiday tunes. Crowds jostled from stall to stall, all hunting for the perfect gifts for loved ones.
Vera’s feet, however, betrayed her intentions. She detoured instinctively toward Lucy’s, the cosmetics shop that had enchanted her on her last visit. However, her stomach sank when she found it closed, the once-vibrant facade now dark and shuttered.
Disappointment prickled briefly, but she shook it off. She had a mission to complete. Steeling herself, she resumed her path, weaving through the festive crowds as she made her way to the owl emporium.
Upon arriving, she approached the counter, her bag heavy with carefully chosen gifts, and offered the attendant a polite smile.
“Hello,” she said, her voice betraying a trace of nerves. “I’d like to send these, please.”
“Certainly,” the man replied, courteous and professional. “Do you have the addresses?”
“Yes, I’ve written them on each gift."
He began assessing the parcels, counting them meticulously, then calculated the fee. “That’ll be fifteen sickles and eleven knuts.”
She carefully emptied her pouch, counting out the coins with practiced precision before placing them on the counter.
“Excellent,” the attendant said, smiling again. “And your name, please?”
“Vera Black,” she answered without hesitation.
His smile vanished instantly, replaced by a tight, disbelieving frown. “Black?” he repeated, his voice rigid.
“Yes, sir,” she said, maintaining her composure.
He cleared his throat, then pushed the coins back toward her. “Your money is not welcome here,” he hissed. “Take your belongings and leave.”
Words failed her as she gathered her coins and stowed the gifts back in her bag, her hands trembling with the weight of humiliation and hurt. With a heavy heart, she made her way to Birdy's inn, tears tracing silent paths down her cheeks.
“Are you alright?” his voice cut through her haze of distress.
“Yeah,” she sniffled. “I just… I want to go home, please.”
He nodded, handing her the Floo powder that would take her back to Mrs. Wriggleshore’s. With a swirl of green flames, she stepped through, emerging to find the old witch waiting, her eyes clouded with concern.
“What happened?” she asked, her voice gentle but probing.
Vera’s sobs broke through. “He… he refused to help me!”
“Stop crying, child!” the witch commanded sharply, but the hard edge softened the instant Vera spoke again.
“He… he said my money is not welcome there.”
Mrs. Wriggleshore’s face flickered with Understanding.
“I see,” she murmured, taking the gifts and coins from her shaking hands. “Give them to me. I’ll send them myself.”
“But… why would he refuse me, Mrs. Wriggleshore?” Vera questioned, her voice tinged with confusion and hurt.
The old witch’s gaze softened further, a hint of sadness beneath her eyes. “Go back home, child, and don’t dwell on it. Everyone harbors prejudices in their own way.”
Monday, December 25, 1989
The owl-emporium incident was already fading into the background, replaced by the sheer magic of the season.
“IT’S CHRISTMAS, VERA!”
Kaya yanked her out of bed, and the two tumbled down the stairs, nearly colliding with the living room tree in their excitement. The pile of presents beneath looked like a small mountain, and the other girls were already tearing into theirs.
Vera scanned the chaos. Most had received books, school supplies and clothes, while the younger girls squealed over dolls. She and Kaya hunted for their names, though having a premonition of their contents.
“Ugh, seriously?” Kaya groaned, peeling off the wrapping of her gift to reveal a copy of A Christmas Carol. “Books again. Every single year.”
Vera, however, looked entirely unbothered when she unwrapped her own, a small smile tugging at her lips as she admired the cover.
Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland.
“Well,” Kaya said, “at least now you won’t have to practice reading the phone book like a psycho.”
Vera chuckled quietly, before returning to the cover.
“Vera, my dear, you’ve also received this,” Miss Nelson said, handing her a second package, wrapped in shiny golden paper. “It’s from your sponsors.”
“Lucky cow,” Kaya muttered, rolling her eyes.
Vera peeled back the paper to reveal a petite, golden vintage mirror and a matching hairbrush, accompanied by a neatly folded note.
Dear Vera,
Wishing you a joyful Christmas from Dom and me. We trust your time at Hogwarts has been filled with merriment and excitement. Enjoy our gift. My girlfriend Remy works at a salon; she believed you’d appreciate it.
Just a friendly note: perhaps refrain from using it in the company of your Muggle friends.
Sincerely,
Donnie
Vera’s smile broadened as she read the thoughtful message.
Kaya, peering over her shoulder, frowned in confusion. “What’s got you grinning like a fool? It just says ‘Happy Christmas.’”
Vera laughed softly, appreciative of the magical touch in Donnie and Dom's thoughtful message.
“If you keep tossing the wrapping paper on the floor, you may find yourself excluded from our film night!” Miss Nelson warned, her voice firm enough to quiet the room… almost.
“What film are we watching this time, Miss Nelson?” One of the girls piped up.
“The mermaid one.”
The room erupted into screams of joy, the girls bouncing on the sofas like hyperactive sprites. Kaya and Vera, equally thrilled but slightly more sensible, pressed their hands to their ears, hoping to muffle the chaos.
Cinema night had become a cherished Christmas tradition at St. Mary’s. Miss Nelson handpicked the film, booked the tickets, and even arranged for a bus to take the girls there—turning the outing into a fully magical experience.
For Vera, who had never been to a cinema before, the anticipation made her practically glow. She darted upstairs to get ready, meticulously brushing her hair and fussing over every detail. In the privacy of the bathroom, she finally retrieved Donnie and Dom’s Christmas gift: the golden mirror and matching hairbrush.
The moment she ran the brush through her hair, the magic revealed itself. Her usual tangle of black locks transformed into a sleek, shiny cascade of perfect curls. She gasped at her reflection, joy threatening to spill into happy tears.
Kaya, noticing her transformation, tilted her head. “How on earth did you manage that?”
“Just some oils,” Vera replied, keeping her tone casual.
Later, seated at the cinema, Vera’s grin refused to fade. The Little Mermaid on screen was thrilling, of course, but what made her glee almost unbearable was that she alone knew mermaids weren’t just fairy tales. She fought to keep herself from blurting it out, lest she ruin the magic for everyone else.
That evening, as she sat down for her first Christmas dinner at St. Mary’s, a warm sense of gratitude washed over her. Surrounded by laughter, sparkling decorations, and the comforting hum of home, she realized just how lucky she was to belong somewhere so full of joy. To finally have a place she can call Home.
Tuesday, December 26, 1989
The following day, the house buzzed for the annual fundraiser at the local community center. Speeches from generous donors kicked things off, each one more heartwarming than the last. Miss Nelson followed, delivering a moving address that left the girls a little misty-eyed.
“In moments like these, it’s not just about the gifts we receive but the warmth and care that accompany them. My lovely girls, your resilience and spirit inspire us all.”
Applause rippled through the room, and soon the attendees drifted away, leaving the girls with the less glamorous task of cleanup. Once they were done, Miss Nelson gathered them for the moment they’d all been waiting for: the donations container.
“Okay, listen up,” she began. “There’s only one toys container this year. The rest? Clothes. So you know what that means…” She fixed them with a stern glare. “NO FIGHTING THIS TIME!”
The words barely left her lips before the girls surged forward like a stampede of reindeer. Screams, laughter, and occasional shrieks filled the air. What was meant to be a civil sorting of gifts instantly descended into what could only be described as a glorious battlefield of holiday chaos.
Hair was tugged, shoulders shoved, and toes trampled in the mad scramble for coveted prizes. The younger girls surrendered quickly, clutching whatever toys they could snatch, while some lingered at the edge of the fray, eyeing the chaos like it was a live-action horror film.
Miss Nelson and the staff looked on, laughing at the organized pandemonium, clearly entertained by the scene they’d unintentionally unleashed.
Kaya dove in headfirst, arms flailing as she scooped up toys with the precision of a treasure hunter.
Vera charged in behind her, but very quickly realized that keeping up with Kaya was another story entirely. Her first venture into the Great War of the Donations Container was messy, awkward, and exhausting. Yet, she refused to give up, her competitive spirit nudging her forward despite hair tangle threats, and minor bruises.
In the middle of the chaos, her eyes locked onto the ultimate prize: a stuffed black cat. She lunged forward with single-minded determination, weaving through the storm of pushing, shoving, and flying hair. Scratches and tugs assailed her from every side, but nothing could break her focus. Step by step, she closed in, until finally… she had the black cat clutched triumphantly in her arms.
Victory, however, was short-lived. A hand shot toward the toy—Lydia’s—and Vera’s anger ignited.
“Give it back!” she shouted.
“No! I saw it first!” Lydia yelled, tugging fiercely.
“I caught it first!”
“Let go of it, you slag!”
And just like that, the scramble escalated into a full-blown tug-of-war. Vera refused to relinquish her prize, Lydia refused to yield, and the black cat became the epicenter of their battlefield.
Bodies collided, fists flailed, and before long, Lydia had somehow managed to pin Vera to the floor. Desperation flared, and Vera slapped her hand across Lydia’s face, but the fight took a sharp turn when Lydia bit one of her gloved fingers. The pain shot through her, and she screamed, a high-pitched note of frustration cutting through the commotion.
Miss Nelson swooped in like a general separating her troops. “You girls are unbelievable!” she scowled, dragging them apart. “Now come here!”
She led Vera aside to examine her injured finger. The room buzzed with post-donation container excitement, but Miss Nelson's attention was solely on her hand.
“Take off the glove,” she said gently, until the sight of her darkened skin made her heart skip a beat.
“What happened to your fingers?!” she exclaimed, genuine concern knitting her brow.
“Um… it’s paint!” Vera blurted out, hoping her excuse sounded convincing. “From… um… one of my school assignments.”
Miss Nelson didn’t look entirely convinced. With a firm but gentle grip, she held her hands, checking for any broken bones. Vera winced—not from her fingers, but from a sudden, throbbing headache.
“Well, I’m not a doctor,” Miss Nelson said with a hint of humor, “but they look fine.”
She finally released her grip, and Vera carefully slipped her gloves back on. Despite the lingering pain, she smiled triumphantly as she was handed the black cat. She started back toward the battlefield, but her mind wasn’t on the chaos anymore.
“Doctor…” she muttered under her breath, staring off into the distance. Then, in a flash of sudden realization, her eyes went wide.
“OH. MY. GOD!”
She rushed over to Kaya, who was diligently guarding their modest haul from the container.
“Did you find anything good?” Kaya asked, noticing her excitement.
“I got this cat, but that’s not important right now!”
“Then what is important?” Kaya pressed, intrigued.
“Miss Nelson!”
“What about her?”
“Her boyfriend… he’s a doctor!”
Kaya’s eyes went wide. “WHAT?!”
“I swear! His name is Doctor Shirley. That’s who she’s always meeting at the coffee shop.”
“I knew it!” Kaya clapped her hands in delight. “But… how did you figure that out?”
Vera’s confident grin wavered. “What?”
“How did you know?” Kaya repeated, arching an eyebrow.
“Oh… um,” Vera stammered, cheeks warming. “I may have… overheard her talking about him.”
“OH, THAT’S MINT!” Kaya beamed. “I can’t wait for her wedding!”
Vera chuckled nervously, though her mind was clearly elsewhere.
“So… what are you going to name it?” Kaya asked, nodding toward the black cat.
“Oh.” Vera scratched her head, glancing down at the plush in her hands. “Well… ever since I was little, I’ve had this dream about owning a black cat. In the dream, he always licks my face until I’m laughing, and then a woman calls him away. That’s when the dream ends.”
“Annnnd...? What does she call him?”
Vera looked up, meeting her friend’s expectant gaze. “Vinny,” she said softly, a hint of nostalgia in her voice.
Kaya nodded with a smile. “Vinny it is.”
Chapter 14: Legacy
Summary:
Vera’s New Year delivers more than sugar and fireworks, as family secrets bubble up and whispers at Hogwarts threaten to burn her whole world down.
Chapter Text
Sunday, December 31, 1989
The kitchen at St. Mary’s was a whirl of clattering bowls, flour-dusted faces, and far too much giggling for any serious baking enterprise. Vera and Kaya teamed up with the older girls on a noble holiday mission: baking cookies for the neighbors to ring in the New Year.
Laughter tangled with the sweet scent of butter and sugar as the dough took shape under their nimble fingers. Each round disc bore a careful “1990,” a sugary announcement that the old year was packing its bags.
When the oven’s glow finally gave way to golden perfection, the girls bustled off to deliver their edible masterpieces. Most houses welcomed them gladly, but the question of who would dare present cookies to the infamous Mrs. Wriggleshore sparked a heated debate.
Vera, masking her eagerness with an air of sacrifice, volunteered herself. The others, all too happy to dodge the assignment, waved her off with suspiciously quick agreement.
Marching up to the crooked doorstep, Vera caught sight of Mrs. Wriggleshore already stationed at the window, as if she’d been waiting for her. Before she could even knock, the door creaked open.
“In, quick!” the old witch barked. "Before the cats make a dash for freedom!"
Vera slipped inside, weaving through a sea of twitching tails. The house smelled of jasmine smoke, courtesy of Mrs. Wriggleshore herself—perched on the kitchen table, pipe in hand, newspaper spread before her like a throne room decree.
“Happy New Year, Mrs. Wriggleshore!” Vera beamed, holding out the tray as if it were an offering to royalty. “I brought cookies—I hope you’ll enjoy them.”
The old witch squinted at the plate. “Hm. It’s a’ight. Best give them to the cats; they’ve grown bored of mice and birds.”
Before Vera could protest, Mrs. Wriggleshore waved a hand at the floor. Dutifully, Vera set the cookies down, and within seconds the feline horde descended, purring like an orchestra and crunching away with unnerving enthusiasm.
Out of nowhere, Mrs. Wriggleshore’s eyes snapped to her. “Tell me—old Dumbledore still breathing, is he?”
“Uh… yes?” Vera replied, caught off guard.
“Hmph. Thought so. Seems only yesterday he was a strapping young thing, talking about conquering the world.”
Vera blinked. She wasn’t sure which part was weirder—that Mrs. Wriggleshore remembered Dumbledore as a young man, or that she spoke of him like he’d once auditioned for the role of Julius Caesar. Either way, the math placed the witch’s age somewhere between “prehistoric” and “immortal.”
She perched on the edge of a chair, her eyes drifting toward the newspaper in Mrs. Wriggleshore’s hands. Splashed across the front page was the smiling face of an elderly man in an absurdly grand hat, waving cheerfully from a moving photograph.
The Daily Prophet
New Era Begins: Cornelius Fudge Takes Office
“Is that the new magical Prime Minister?” She asked innocently.
Mrs. Wriggleshore lowered the paper just enough to shoot her a look. “Minister of Magic, dear.”
Vera's cheeks flushed with embarrassment. "Oh, right," she mumbled, feeling somewhat sheepish.
Her gaze then fell upon another newspaper resting on the table.
Wizarding Chronicle
New Minister Meets Margaret Thatcher, Says She's Great
Should We Be Worried?
Her eyes caught the headline immediately, recognizing the name Thatcher as the only politician the Humphreys never complained about. Everyone else, yes—but never Thatcher. She was more of a hero to them.
“Does the Muggle Prime Minister know about us?” Vera asked, curious.
Mrs. Wriggleshore nodded.
“But why? Why her and not—well, not everyone?”
“To keep balance between our worlds,” the witch replied, though her tone suggested she didn’t buy the line herself. “Or so they say.”
Vera nodded as if it made sense.
“What a shame,” Mrs. Wriggleshore sighed, folding her newspaper shut with a snap. “Bagnold may have had her faults, but she got the job done.”
Vera’s gaze lingered, questions burning behind her eyes.
Mrs. Wriggleshore huffed, lowering her pipe. “What is it you want, girl?”
“I… I have something to ask you.”
The witch exhaled through her nose like a dragon denied its nap. “Well? Out with it.”
Vera hesitated, her words sticking in her throat before she finally pushed them free. “You know my family, don’t you?”
A harsh, humorless laugh cracked from the old woman. “Know them? How could I not, when their poison’s seeped through this world for generations.”
The venom in her tone made Vera flinch. “Could you… could you tell me about them?”
“And why would you want to dredge that rot up?”
“Because I didn’t grow up with them. I don’t know anything about them, ma’am.”
“You should thank your lucky stars for that. Being kept from that nest is the best gift fate ever gave you.”
“But…” Vera pressed on, cheeks hot. “Everyone at Hogwarts seems to know who they are—everyone but me. And they’re my family.”
For a heartbeat, the sharpness in Mrs. Wriggleshore’s eyes dimmed. Her grip slackened on the pipe, and the jasmine smoke curled softer around her.
“Child,” she said, quieter now, almost kind, “sometimes not knowing is the mercy. Best leave their ghosts where they belong.”
But Vera’s resolve didn’t falter. “Please, ma’am. I need to know.”
Mrs. Wriggleshore heaved a sigh, long and weary, as if Vera had just asked her to recount the history of misery itself. “Fine, fine. What is it you’re after?”
Vera straightened in her chair, anticipation bright in her eyes. “All right then… what did they do for a living?”
The witch’s bark of laughter startled the cats. “Work? Don’t be ridiculous, child. The Blacks never soiled their hands with labor.”
“But… I heard they were rich.”
The laughter turned into a rasping chuckle. “Rich is too small a word. They swam in gold. They could’ve paved their floors with galleons and still had vaults bursting.”
Vera frowned. “But where did the money come from, if they didn’t work?”
“They’ve had money since the days of Merlin, or so the tales go,” Mrs. Wriggleshore muttered, levering herself toward the cupboards. “No one quite knows how they struck the first vein of fortune. Some say a lucky hoard of treasure, others something far less innocent.”
Vera leaned forward. “What do you mean?”
The old woman returned with a steaming cup, setting it before her. “Theft, dear.”
Vera blinked. “They stole it?”
“Yes—but not in the way you’re imagining.”
“How then?”
Mrs. Wriggleshore poured her own cup, the chamomile steam curling around her words. “Dark magic, of course.”
The phrase rippled through Vera like a draft through the old house.
“They had ways,” the witch continued, smoke and memory swirling together. “Ways of pulling secrets from people—secrets that could ruin them. With those secrets, they bought gold. Though really, it was never about the gold. It was always about the land."
"Land?"
"Whether in this world or the wizarding one, land is what compels people to go to extremes. It’s a quiet simple concept really, if you own the land, you rule it."
Vera dropped her gaze, her thoughts racing. “Is that… why the man at the owl post wouldn’t help me? Because of my family?”
“Didn’t I tell you not to gnaw on that bone?”
“I know,” Vera said quickly, “but I can’t stop thinking about it. He said my money wasn’t welcome. He was kind before I gave him my name. And then… everything changed.”
Mrs. Wriggleshore’s eyes softened. “So that’s why you came here.”
“Yes, ma’am,” Vera whispered. “So is that why? Because they stole everything?”
The witch’s laugh was colder this time, stripped of humor. “Theft was the least of their sins, you naive child.”
She seemed to catch herself then, lips pressing tight. Her pipe sputtered out. With a flick of her wand, the flame bloomed again, giving her something to hide behind.
“Please!" Vera begged. "Please tell me.”
The old witch drew in a long, deliberate breath, then leaned forward, her tone suddenly grave. “Whatever I say about them, you must understand—it comes from anger, from bitterness. Those feelings are mine to carry, not yours. Do you hear me?”
“I…”
“All I’m saying—the only thing you share with that family is a name. Don’t you dare let what I tell you decide who you’ll be.”
“I won’t,” Vera promised, leaning forward with urgency. “But please—tell me!”
Mrs. Wriggleshore shut her eyes, as though summoning courage from some shadowed place. When she opened them, they gleamed with old rage.
“Your family, child… they were a disease.”
Vera’s stomach lurched. “What?”
“Parasites!” the witch snapped, striking the word like a curse. “Leeches, sucking the lifeblood out of wizarding society.”
“I… I don’t understand…”
“Politics,” she spat. “That’s how they fed. Pollux and his little cabal of purist fanatics strangled the Ministry for decades. Twisted the laws until they served no one but themselves. They wrapped themselves in respectability while keeping Azkaban far from their door—no matter what sins they committed.”
Vera tried to sip her tea, but the chamomile caught in her throat. “What… what kind of crimes?”
“All sorts,” Mrs. Wriggleshore said with chilling ease. “Dark magic like it was a parlor trick. Blackmail, bribery, corruption. And murders—”
“Murders?” Vera’s voice cracked, her pulse hammering. “They—murdered people?”
For the first time, the old woman faltered. Her eyes searched Vera’s face, torn between cruelty and mercy. “Are you sure you want to know, girl? Some truths, once spoken, cling like smoke. You’ll never scrub them out.”
Vera’s hands trembled around her cup, but she forced her voice steady. “Please. Tell me. Who did they kill?”
“Many,” Wriggleshore said at last, her voice heavy, as though dragging each word out of a grave. “Some whose names were forgotten, buried with them. Others… quite prominent.” Her eyes clouded, drifting inward. Then her jaw clenched. “That curse of a woman.”
“Who?” Vera pressed.
“Lucretia,” the witch hissed, her voice low and venomous. “She butchered three boys—children, no older than you. Slaughtered them like vermin, without hesitation, without mercy.”
The words sliced through the silence, leaving Vera frozen, her breath caught in her throat.
“But life has a way of settling its debts,” Wriggleshore went on. “Many Blacks paid for their wickedness in the end. The evil they sowed turned inward, devoured them.”
“So… are they all dead?”
“Not all. Some still draw breath—but in disgrace, exiled after He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named vanished.”
Vera’s stomach twisted. “W-who?”
The answer came like a shadow falling over the room. “They called him the Dark Lord. But he was no lord—only another tyrant drunk on power.”
At once, Cassius’s words from the library echoed in Vera’s mind: the Dark Lord’s return.
“The Black family,” Wriggleshore continued. “were not innocent bystanders. They were architects. Pollux was first to kneel, and once he did, the other pure-blood families lined up behind him. And Orion…” Her mouth curled in disgust. “That drunken fool dragged us all to ruin.”
“What did he do?”
“If you learn only one truth about your bloodline, let it be this: control. They had it all. Land, power, fear. If they wanted your house, they took it. If you resisted, you vanished. At one point, they owned nearly every acre worth owning—farmers, merchants, even other wizards leased from them.”
Vera stared, stricken, as the witch’s voice grew harsher.
“And when Orion inherited that empire, he squandered it like a child with sweets. When gold lost its shine, he began to gamble. Not with coins, child—properties. Homes. Shops. Whole villages. Families were cast out, livelihoods stripped away. It was a massacre. The Murpheys. The Bobbins—”
“Bobbin?!” The name struck Vera like a curse.
"Oh yes, the Bobbin family suffered the most devastating blow. Over thirty of their businesses were seized by Orion’s debt collectors. They rebuilt, eventually, but at a terrible price. Their boy, Julius, was only twenty at the time..."
Vera's heart lurched, her hands tightening around the teacup. "What happened to him?"
"He tried to stand against Orion." Mrs. Wriggleshore’s voice dropped. "But no one confronts Orion Black and lives to tell the tale. It’s said a vampire was sent to silence the poor lad—though no body was ever found."
Vera felt a weight settle on her chest. The pieces of Felix's mysterious behavior towards her began to fall into place. The tension, the secrecy—they were both marked by their family names. He, a Bobbin, and she, a Black. Families carved into history with blades of debt and blood.
The revelation of her family's dark past became increasingly suffocating. How could she ever escape the shadow of what her blood had wrought? The thought of being perceived in the same light as her notorious family instilled fear in her poor little heart.
Mrs. Wriggleshore studied her face, and instantly saw the torment. "Best not to dwell on it, child. Their reign is over, despite what anyone says about you."
Vera stiffened. "What do they say about me?"
"Nothing worth your worry," Mrs. Wriggleshore waved a hand. "Only that most thought the Black line had ended—until your name surfaced in your grandmother’s will. But idle tongues wag. Pay them no mind."
"And my father?" Vera’s voice trembled now, caught between fear and fragile hope. "Was he… like them?"
For the first time, Mrs. Wriggleshore faltered. Her eyes searched Vera’s face, as though weighing something unspeakable. Finally, she shook her head, her tone hushed. "I’ve said more than enough for one day. Best you head home now."
Despite her disappointment and unyielding curiosity, Vera found herself clinging to the fragile comfort that some truths were better left buried. What if her father had been entangled in the same darkness? The very thought sent shivers down her spine, forcing her to embrace ignorance as a form of mercy.
Yet the revelations she had uncovered cut deep, offering a chilling clarity. She understood now the whispers that trailed her, the assumptions Cassius so confidently made—that she must share his values.
She understood Felix’s hesitations, his reluctance to be seen with her. Even Donnie’s silence made sense; he had chosen to keep her family’s sins hidden rather than force her to bear them.
Their legacy was cruelty, bloodshed, Dark magic—pure evil. And she was their descendant.
On the walk back to St. Mary’s, guilt and shame pressed down upon her like an iron shroud. She had worn the name Black like a badge at the start of term, eager to claim its aura of power, only to realize now the folly of her pride.
The stares she once mistook for envy had never been admiration for her supposed wealth or status. They had been sharpened by suspicion, painted with disgust. To them, she was not a girl of privilege but the daughter of a cursed line—a symbol of blood purity, bigotry, and inherited malice.
The realization hollowed her out, leaving her isolated, disillusioned, and more alone than ever.
“What’s wrong?” Kaya’s voice was gentle, tinged with concern as she saw the tears brimming in her eyes.
“Nothing,” she murmured, turning away to hide the storm behind her gaze.
She longed to confide in someone, to let the weight of her family’s dark legacy lift for just a moment—but how could she? How could she explain that her ancestors were far from virtuous, that their sins ran deeper than words could capture?
Needing space, she excused herself and slipped away, eventually finding solace atop the roof. The cold stone pressed against her legs as she perched with Vinny, her new stuffed cat, gazing out at the distant lights that twinkled like fragile hope.
Yet even here, the chill wasn’t just from the wind. A sense of dread wrapped itself around her heart, smothering any flicker of optimism. Her thoughts tumbled in a relentless cascade: Murder… Pollux… dark magic… Orion… Lucretia… thieves… The Dark Lord… gold… Azkaban… blood… poison… secrets…
“What if I am like them, Vinny?” she whispered, voice barely rising above the wind, as her eyes fixed on the small stuffed cat in her lap.
"Like who?" Kaya's sudden interruption startled her.
"No one," She replied, hastily wiping away her tears as Kaya climbed onto the roof beside her
“What in the world are you doing up here?" Kaya said. "It’s freezing.”
“Thought I might catch the fireworks from up here.”
“And you didn’t think to invite me?”
“Sorry, K...”
“Something’s bothering you, isn’t it?”
Vera exhaled, her breath curling in the chilly night air. “Do you ever wonder about your family? Like… if things were different, and you’d grown up with them?”
“I guess sometimes…” Kaya murmured, her gaze drifting toward the horizon.
“And?” Vera pressed gently.
“I think I prefer things the way they are.”
“Why?”
Kaya’s voice grew soft, trembling. “After Mum passed, I lived with my dad. He… he wasn’t great. Cared more about his drugs than about me.”
Vera’s chest ached. “Is that why you don’t want to be with him?”
Kaya shrugged. “I don’t really have a choice. He’s locked up.”
“Oh… I’m so sorry,” Vera whispered, offering a tentative embrace.
Kaya leaned into her shoulder. “I do miss him sometimes. He used to sing to me…”
“That’s nice,” Vera said, keeping her tone light, though her heart felt heavy.
Kaya smiled faintly, a fragile glimmer in the firelight. “It really was.”
“So… he wasn’t really a bad person?”
“I don’t think so. He just… made bad choices. And it spiraled until he couldn’t stop.”
Vera paused, reflecting on her friend’s words. Her own life had been sheltered from such direct pain, even if it had been lonely. Though she’d always longed for a normal family, she realized their absence had protected her from the sting of loss in her present.
“Look!” Kaya suddenly pointed as a firework burst overhead, painting the sky with brilliant colors.
“Happy New Year, Vee,” she said, her eyes shining in the reflection of the lights.
Vera returned the smile. “Happy New Year, K.”
Tuesday, January 9, 1990
Over the next few days, she tried deliberately to shove her conversation with Mrs. Wriggleshore to the back of her mind. Every now and then, a fragment of their discussion would surface, sending a sharp pang through her stomach, but she forced herself to focus on other things. Having Kaya at her side made it easier. The two of them clung to every moment together, diving into each other’s company and savoring the time they had left as if it were too precious to waste.
When the holidays finally sputtered to an end, she clutched the counterfeit ticket Donnie and Dom had cooked up for her and made the trek to King’s Cross with Miss Nelson in tow. She boarded the Muggle train, sat just long enough for her matron's back was turned, then hopped off, and bolted straight through the brick wall.
In the chaos of the station, she nearly tripped over the sight of Fred and George mid-lecture from a frazzled, flame-haired woman—surely their mother. Flanking them were yet another ginger boy and girl, and Vera found herself wondering, with a mix of awe and dread, if there was some sort of Weasley factory running at full tilt.
However, her attention was soon drawn to Nymphadora Tonks, standing with her parents nearby. As she glanced over, the mother quickly noticed her and offered a warm smile and a friendly wave. Confused, Vera smiled and waved back, unsure of the reason for the unexpected interaction from this stranger.
“She’s your relative, right?” Kenny’s sudden voice made her jump.
“W-what?” she stammered, blinking in surprise.
“Mrs. Tonks. Isn’t she related to you?”
“Huh?”
“She's a Black... like you?”
Vera froze from shock. For the first time, she glimpsed a living connection to her family—someone she actually saw in person. A Black. Alive. Real. Right here.
Her gaze drifted back to Mrs. Tonks, studying her with careful attention. Despite the family connection, the resemblance was strikingly minimal. Vera’s features were sharp, her cheekbones pronounced, her dark blue eyes round and intense, and her hair a cascade of voluminous black curls. Mrs. Tonks, by contrast, possessed soft, delicate features, hazel eyes, and light brown hair that framed her face with effortless grace
“Or… was,” Kenny went on. “I’m not entirely sure how it works when someone gets disowned.”
Vera snapped out of her reverie. “Wait, what?”
“Wasn't Mrs. Tonks disowned for marrying a Muggleborn?”
She blinked, the revelation sending a strange mix of shock and curiosity coursing through her.
“Come on,” Kenny said. “The train’s leaving.”
He walked away, leaving her rooted in place, her thoughts tumbling over themselves. Despite the crisp bite of the air, a curious warmth unfurled within her. She had a living Black relative—one who had dared to defy the family’s infamous creed of blood purity.
The train’s whistle shrieked its final warning, but her mind was miles away. A Black who isn’t a blood purist… The notion sparked a fragile, flickering hope. Perhaps she wasn’t doomed to inherit the darkness that trailed her name. Snapping back to the present, she darted aboard.
Hey, Kenny!” she called, weaving her way down the corridor. “Wait!”
Kenny glanced back. “Yeah?”
“About Mrs. Tonks…” she panted, skidding to his side. “You said she was disowned?”
“That’s what I’ve heard.”
“So… that means she wasn’t part of the Black family anymore?”
“Yeah, that’s how it usually works..."
She drew a steadying breath. “Do you know if anyone else in my family was disowned?”
Kenny looked confused. "Um... No. My mum’s friends with Mrs. Tonks, that’s the only reason I heard about it.”
“Oh… I see.” Vera’s voice dropped, but her thoughts raced faster than ever. For the first time in what felt like forever, the heavy shadow of her bloodline seemed to loosen its grip, letting a sliver of light through.
As Kenny drifted ahead, she turned her attention to the train, scanning the compartments for her friends. Relief flickered across her face when she spotted Jane slipping into one.
“Jane!” she called brightly, lifting her hand in an eager wave.
But Jane only cast her a fleeting glance before disappearing into the compartment, the door sliding shut behind her. Vera froze, bewildered by the sudden coldness, half-ready to follow after her—until a voice from another direction called her name.
“Oi, Vera!” Lee called out through the racket. “Come sit with us!”
She spun around to see him wedged between the twins, with Alicia and Angelina crammed in too. Bracing herself for the chaos, she slid into the compartment.
“Cheers for the fireworks, Vee,” Fred grinned.
“Oh, absolutely!” Lee chimed in. “I blew up my mum’s angel cake with them!”
Vera managed a thin smile. “Glad to be of service.”
The chatter spiraled into holiday stories—snowball fights gone wrong, near-death broom accidents, and one unfortunate cat who may never trust tinsel again. Vera stayed quiet, folding herself into the corner. No one needed to know her holidays were spent sifting through second-hand toys and unearthing her family's legacy of tyranny.
“Did you manage to see that film, Vera?” Angelina asked.
“Oh, I… didn’t,” she lied quickly.
“It’s all right,” Lee offered her a comforting smile. “One day, you’ll join the civilized world of cinema.”
Desperate to redirect the spotlight, Vera turned to Alicia. “And you? How was Belfast?”
Alicia’s face pinked. “It was great! I spent most of it with Tommy. He’s quite... funny.”
“Oooh, Tommy,” Fred sing-songed. “Someone’s fallen for a Hufflepuff.”
Alicia smacked his arm. “Shut it, Fred! He’s just a friend.”
“Right,” George drawled with a wink. “A very funny friend.”
Angelina rolled her eyes and jumped in before Alicia could combust. “What about you two troublemakers? How was the Weasley gathering?”
Fred’s grin widened. “Brilliant! Bill told us all about his curse-breaking work in Egypt. You wouldn’t believe half of it.”
George leaned forward eagerly. “We’re definitely trying some of those curses out—strictly educational purposes, of course.”
“Speaking of education,” Lee suddenly piped up, “who brought the Bertie Bott’s?”
“Never fear.” Fred produced a packet with a flourish. “What’s a train ride without gambling with your taste buds?”
“Ugh, remember the vomit-flavored ones?” Alicia groaned. “Nearly ruined me for life.”
“Ruined you?” Angelina laughed. “Lee would’ve paid for that flavor.”
“Absolutely,” Lee said without missing a beat.
The compartment erupted in laughter, their voices mixing with the steady chug of the train. For a while, Vera let the warmth of it wash over her, nestling into the noise. In their laughter, she could forget family shadows, and the hollow ache she carried. For a few precious hours, she was simply part of the chaos.
As the train screeched into the station, excitement surged through the students, carrying them in a tide toward the Great Hall. Vera wove through the crowd, her eyes catching on Jane, who stood with Eudora and Ryu.
“Hey!” she greeted brightly. “I called to you on the train—didn’t you hear me?”
The three turned at once, their brows knitting. Jane’s eyes shimmered, on the edge of tears, but she said nothing. Instead, Eudora’s hand clamped around her arm, and with a curt tug they swept past Vera, leaving her stranded in the corridor.
She stood rooted to the spot, the sting sharp and bewildering, watching their figures vanish into the throng. A knot of confusion and hurt tightened in her chest, but the crowd pressed on, carrying her unwillingly toward the Gryffindor table.
Sliding into her seat beside her friends, she tried to swallow the unease rising in her throat. However, she couldn't shake the feeling of unease as she noticed everyone's eyes on her, accompanied by hushed whispers that seemed to carry her name.
“What’s going on?” she whispered, leaning toward Kenny across the table. “Why is everyone staring at me?”
Kenny’s expression softened with something close to pity. “I’m sorry, Vera.”
Her stomach dropped. “Sorry about what?”
“You mean—you haven’t heard?”
“Heard what?”
“Everyone on the train was talking about it.”
Her heart hammered. “Talking about what, Kenny?”
"Vera..." he said hesitantly. "They're saying... you're a squib."
Chapter 15: The Squib
Summary:
Vera’s magic fails her, until fury answers where skill cannot. In an instant, snow becomes fire, laughter falls silent, and the world learns a truth about her: she doesn’t break under pressure. She detonates.
Chapter Text
Wednesday, Jan 10, 1990
Vera awoke the next day with puffy eyes and a damp pillow, having cried herself to sleep the night before. The realization of her worst nightmare had sunk in: everyone at Hogwarts knew she couldn’t do magic. No matter how hard Angelina and Alicia had tried to soothe her with gentle pats, or how many ridiculous faces the twins had pulled to wring a laugh out of her, nothing could loosen the chokehold of failure tightening around her chest.
Too hollow for food and too brittle for pitying glances, she skipped breakfast and slipped into Transfiguration, praying to blend into the walls. But the universe wasn’t done with her. Her stomach dropped when she saw Jane—once her anchor—now perched comfortably beside Miles.
To make matters worse, the Poshlanders took it upon themselves to make fun of her throughout the entire day, their taunts and jibes only serving to deepen her distress. The situation escalated during History of Magic, with their bullying reaching new heights as they deliberately raised their voices for her to hear.
“It feels so good to be a wizard, doesn’t it, Miles?” Cassius drawled.
“Certainly does,” Miles answered, floating his book in lazy circles with his wand.
Roger groaned. “Would you two pack it in?”
“Pack what in, Davies?” Miles shot back. “It’s hardly our fault some people are allergic to magic.”
Eudora chuckled. “How does she even manage to stay at Hogwarts?”
“They must pity her,” Ryu added, smug as a cat with cream.
"I almost pity her myself." Miles added, a smirk playing on his lips. "Almost."
Vera seethed with anger, yet opted to tune out their taunts. Catching Jane's sympathetic gaze, she couldn't fathom how her friend could sit with them and remain indifferent to their cruelty. The rest of the class grew increasingly irritated by the group's remarks, though Professor Binns appeared oblivious to their antics.
When the bell finally rang, she hastily flew the classroom as tears streamed down her cheeks like a relentless downpour. As she dashed out, her eyes met Felix's, who stood at the door with the other third-years. She quickly averted her gaze and bolted away, desperate to escape the overwhelming torment.
No matter where she sought solace, she couldn't escape the whispers and stares that trailed her like shadows. Growing increasingly exasperated, she wandered aimlessly until she found herself in the deserted music room, where only the chorus of frogs provided any semblance of company. Rushing to the far end of the room, she slipped into the small chamber she had stumbled upon on Halloween.
The space was cloaked in darkness, pierced only by thin slivers of sunlight filtering through the cracks in the walls. She enveloped herself in a tight embrace on the small sofa, her sobs echoing off the walls as she replayed the cruel taunts that still haunted her. With a heavy heart, she closed her eyes, silently wishing for oblivion to engulf her. Before she realized it, exhaustion consumed her, and she drifted into an uneasy sleep.
Sometime later, she woke slowly, her mind groggy and thick from the weight of sleep. Her cheeks felt tight, dried tears marking her skin like salt from an open wound. She blinked a few times, disoriented, before she realized someone was there with her.
Felix stood above her, half-swallowed by shadow.
“Hey,” he said softly. “You alright?”
She jolted upright, arms locking around her knees like armor. “Why are you here?”
“Funny—I was going to ask you the same thing.” He lowered himself onto the seat beside her, studying her carefully. “I didn’t expect to find anyone in Haven.”
“Haven?” she echoed.
“That’s what I call this place. It’s where I hide when… everything feels too loud. It’s where I come when I need to cry.”
Her head snapped toward him. “You cry?”
His lips curved in a wry smile. “You sound shocked. Boys aren’t supposed to, right?”
The thought of a boy—let alone Felix Bobbin—crumbling the way she did made her uneasy. “What makes you cry, then?” She asked.
“Plenty of things,” he said lightly. “Once, because I accidentally turned my hair bright pink.”
She blinked. “You’re taking the piss.”
“Don’t laugh,” he warned, though amusement flickered in his eyes. “Tried out a new charm in the common room—backfired spectacularly. One second I’m me, next second I’m bubblegum.” He shook his head. “I was convinced it’d never wash out.”
A reluctant smile tugged at her lips. “What did you do?”
“I begged Madam Pomfrey. She was the only one kind enough not to laugh in my face.” He leaned back against the sofa, chuckling. “Even Snape smirked. That was… humbling.”
She managed a fleeting smile, but it vanished as quickly as it came. “At least you can cast a spell…”
Felix’s expression softened. “I heard what happened today. I’m sorry, Vera. Those kids… they don’t know a thing. Their words don’t mean anything.”
But his reassurance bounced off the ache lodged deep in her chest. The tears she’d fought so hard to dam up burst free, and she buried her face in her hands, her sobs ripping through the fragile silence.
Felix shifted closer. “Hey… you can’t let them break you, Vera.”
She shook her head fiercely, words muffled by her palms. “I’m already broken.”
“That’s not true.”
Dragging her hands away, she looked at him with tear-streaked cheeks and wide, desperate eyes. “I can’t do magic, Felix,” she confessed, the truth tumbling out in ragged sobs. “I don’t belong here.”
His lips parted, as if he wanted to argue, but no words came. The empathy in his face was almost painful to look at.
“I thought this would be my chance,” she whispered. “That I’d finally be something special. But I’m not. I’m just… a bloody loser.”
“You’re not a loser—”
“But I am!” Her voice cracked sharp through her sobs. “I can’t use my wand, I can’t fly, I can’t do anything magical. I’m just pretending—pretending to be something I’m not.”
“Most people struggle at first—”
“No, Felix. Everyone else in my class can do it. Everyone but me!” She swiped at her face furiously, frustration boiling over. “At first I thought maybe it was my wand—maybe it was broken, or fake. But it’s not. It’s me. I’m broken. And now... now they’re calling me a squib.”
Felix’s jaw tightened. "You can’t let some tossers write your story, Vera.”
Her shoulders sagged, trembling under the weight of his words. “But what if they’re right?”
"You are more than what runs in your blood. A good wizard isn’t measured by spells or broomsticks—it’s by their heart. Their resilience. Their kindness. That’s what makes someone truly magical.”
She looked at him, a small glimmer of hope flickering in her tear-filled eyes. His words reached her, but they couldn’t erase the pain completely. She wanted to believe him—needed to—but doubt still gnawed at her.
In that moment, she couldn’t help but wonder why he was extending such kindness to her despite the atrocities her family had committed against his. As her thoughts darted back to her conversation with Mrs. Wriggleshore, fresh tears welled in her eyes.
But she had to say it, no matter how much it hurt.
“Felix...” She hesitated, the words caught in her throat. “I know what my family did to yours.”
For a heartbeat his features rearranged, then he folded it into a patient calm. “So you asked?” he said.
She shook her head. “I just— I knew. I’m sorry, Felix. I’m so sorry.”
He sighed, running a hand through his hair. “You don’t have to say sorry for what happened, Vera. You weren’t even born then.”
“But it’s still my family. It’s a part of me.”
“Your family’s past might be part of your story, but it doesn’t define you. You’re not responsible for their mistakes.”
His words warmed and hurt at the same time. She exhaled a shaky breath and nudged the question she’d been too frightened to ask.
“Then why won’t you—why don’t you act like this in front of others? Why don’t you… talk to me?”
He turned his face away for a moment, choosing his words like stones across a river. “It’s not about you,” he said quietly. “There’s more going on than you know.”
“So… we can’t be friends?” she whispered, each syllable hopeful and terrified.
His mouth curved, real and small. “Of course we can.”
Feeling a bit lighter, she made her way back to Gryffindor tower, Felix’s words still echoing in her mind like a mantra.
Entering the common room, she found Kenny curled up in an armchair, half-swallowed by cushions.
“Hiya, Kenny,” she said softly, managing a small smile as she sank into the sofa beside him.
He glanced up, eyes bright with curiosity. “Where’d you disappear to?”
“Nowhere special,” she murmured, though the warmth of Haven still clung to her like an ember. “Did Professor Frey say anything?”
“He asked Jane about you.”
Her chest tightened. “And?”
“She told him you weren’t feeling well.”
“Oh.”
He studied her quietly. “Are you?”
“I’m okay,” she assured him, her smile more genuine this time. “Thanks for asking.”
“I’m sorry about yesterday. I shouldn’t have mentioned the rumor.”
She shook her head gently. “I would’ve found out sooner or later, Ken.”
“Maybe. Still…” He sighed, sinking further into the chair.
As her smile lingered on him, the common room door burst open and the rest of her housemates tumbled in, bringing with them a rush of laughter, chatter, and the kind of energy that could shake the gloom right out of the walls.
“Vera!” Alicia spotted her first. “We missed you in Defense!”
“Are you alright?” Angelina asked, scanning her face with concern.
“Yeah,” Vera said quickly, sitting up straighter. “I’m fine now.”
Fred leaned against the arm of her sofa with an easy grin. “Good. Because if anyone so much as looks at you wrong again, we’ll make sure they regret it.”
She gave a small laugh. “Thanks, Freddie. But I think I should just ignore them. Whatever they say doesn’t matter.”
“Exactly." Angelina nodded. "Let them bark all they like—wolves don’t lose sleep over chihuahuas.”
Vera bit her lip, her smile faltering. “But… what do you think?”
Alicia frowned. “Think about what?”
“I mean…” She twisted her hands together nervously. “Would you mind if I really was a… squib?”
The question dropped like a stone, pulling the air taut. The group exchanged looks, waiting for someone to take it on.
“We wouldn’t mind at all.” Fred finally said, his eyes meeting hers with steady sincerity.
“Yeah,” Lee chimed in with a firm nod. “Doesn’t change a thing.”
“As long as you don’t turn into Filch.” George added slyly.
Vera’s eyes went wide before she cracked into laughter, the sound bubbling out of her, loosening something tight in her chest. The others joined in, the room filling with warmth instead of pity.
As the group continued their comforting efforts, she felt a surge of confidence wash over her. With her friends by her side, she knew she could weather any storm the Poshlanders threw her way. And with Felix's advice guiding her, she was ready to face whatever challenges lay ahead.
Thursday, Jan 11, 1990
The next day, in the murky glow of Snape’s dungeon classroom, Vera braced herself. The air was thick with the usual cocktail of damp stone, simmering brews, and Slytherin sneers. The Poshlanders’ barbs flew like poisoned darts, each one meant to sting, to remind her of what she wasn’t.
But today, she refused to flinch. She smothered her frustration under a mask of calm and fixed her eyes on her cauldron.
The room filled with the hiss and spit of volatile potions, the air heavy with fumes. Insults rose and fell around her, but she tuned them out, narrowing her world to mortar and pestle, ladle and flame. Her knife glinted as she sliced with precision, her spoon moved in steady circles, her timing exact.
While others faltered—cauldrons frothing or ingredients mismeasured—hers stayed steady, obedient to her will. When her potion finally settled into its perfect hue, she couldn’t help the small, fierce smile tugging at her lips.
Snape loomed over her workstation. “Well done, Miss Black." He said, his voice cool as ever. "Five points to Gryffindor.”
Gasps fluttered through the classroom—it was almost sacrilege for him to award points to anyone outside his house.
Fred and George, from the back, couldn’t contain themselves. “Way to go, Vee!” they shouted, their voices echoing like a fanfare.
“Silence!” Snape snapped, his eyes flashing. The twins ducked their heads, but their grins stretched ear to ear.
The Poshlanders, however, seethed, their glares sharper than any blade. But amid their discontent, Cassius stood apart from the rest—watching her not with scorn, but with something far more sinister. The look screamed what he dared not say aloud: a so-called “Squib” had just shown him up.
Vera, however, refused to cower. She met his glare with steel in her eyes and, without hesitation, stuck her middle finger up to him.
Cassius went scarlet, fury practically steaming from his ears, while Tommy and Cedric doubled over, their laughter echoing like firecrackers across the dungeon.
“Silence!” Snape thundered, robes billowing as his eyes swept the room.
Lucky for Vera, his timing was impeccable. He’d missed the gesture entirely.
By the time flying lessons rolled around, she was already dreading it. The courtyard gleamed under a fresh blanket of snow, every flake glittering like a cruel reminder that today would be colder than usual—in more ways than one. The crisp winter air bit at her cheeks as she lingered at the edge, her gloved hands cupped close to her mouth, each breath puffing out in tiny clouds.
The others, buzzing with excitement, raced toward the middle of the courtyard, eager to take off. She stayed rooted, watching from the sidelines as broomsticks shot skyward. She tried to look unfazed, but the Poshlanders clearly smelled blood.
When Madam Hooch hurried off to tend to Patty, who had taken a tumble, the jeering began.
“What’s wrong, Black?" Adrian swooped low, his broom kicking up powdery snow as he passed. "Broom giving you fright?”
Miles orbited her like a smug little moon. “Oh no, Adrian—it’s not the broom. It’s the pilot.”
Cassius, of course, couldn’t resist. “Imagine her up there!" He barked out, hovering just above. "She’d topple off, flap her arms, and sprout chicken wings!”
“I can already picture the headline in the Daily Prophet," Adrian cackled. "Vera Black Shatters Broomstick; Soars Like a Chicken Instead.”
Vera felt the sting of their laughter, but she refused to let it land. If she gave them a reaction, they’d win. Instead, she forced her gaze away—toward Jane, who was just sliding off her broom. Her usual fluid grace seemed replaced by hesitation, every movement cautious, guarded.
Despite the knot in her stomach, Vera crossed the snow-dusted courtyard, each step heavier than the last.
“Hey,” she said softly, her voice wobbling.
Jane looked up, startled. Her eyes flicked nervously toward the Poshlanders before darting back down.
Vera rubbed her palms together, feeling the chill seep through her gloves. “Did I… do something wrong?”
“No, it’s not—” Jane began, but her words faltered as footsteps crunched in the snow.
“She doesn’t want to be friends with a squib.” Miles slipped neatly into the silence, draping himself in smug authority. His hand closed around Jane’s, pulling her slightly behind him like a prize he was claiming.
Vera’s heart lurched. The implication had haunted her since the rumor started, but hearing it aloud made it cut deeper.
“Is that true?” she whispered.
Jane’s face flushed crimson. Her eyes glistened, pleading, but no answer came.
“You said you didn’t care about all that blood rubbish!” Vera’s voice cracked, raw with disbelief.
Miles smirked. “Of course she does. Why else would she choose us over you?”
“Shut up, Bletchley!” Vera shouted, her fury echoing across the snowy courtyard.
Heads snapped toward them, brooms dipped from the sky. Alicia and Angelina rushed forward, worry etched across their faces, while other students gathered at the edges of the field.
But Vera hardly noticed the crowd. All she could see was Jane—her silence, her hesitation, her betrayal.
"Just tell her, Jane." Miles urged. "Tell her why you really hung around with her in the first place."
"Miles, stop," Jane whispered, tears streaming down her cheeks.
"Look at you!" Miles said. "You actually believe Jane would befriend you if her father hadn’t ask her to?"
Vera shook her head, struggling to comprehend. "What?"
Jane’s face crumpled. “It’s not true, Vera! That’s not how it happened, I swear!”
“Then what’s he talking about?” Vera demanded.
"Just tell her already!" Miles snapped.
Jane’s shoulders shook as she tried to steady herself. “I wrote to my father after the Sorting." She whispered, lowering her head. "I was terrified to tell him I’d ended up in Hufflepuff… so I mentioned you.”
Vera frowned. “Mentioned me how?”
“I thought if he knew you’d been—missorted too, maybe he’d go easier on me. But the next morning, he wrote back and told me to—”
“Told you to what?” Vera pressed, her fury flaring.
Jane’s lips trembled. “To… to be friends with you.”
The words crashed into Vera like ice water. “Why?”
Jane shook her head helplessly, sobs breaking her speech.
“Why!”
“Because you’re a Black!” Jane finally screamed it, the truth torn from her throat.
Vera’s blood boiled as if every nerve in her body had caught fire. “That’s it?" She spat. "That’s the only reason you were my friend? Because of my bloody name?”
“Of course,” Miles snickered. “That’s the only reason she—or anyone of us—would bother with you.”
Cassius scoffed. “You might be a Black by name, but you’ll never be one of us.”
Before Vera could open her mouth, Cedric stepped forward, his tone steady and sharp. “That’s enough, Warrington.”
“Stay out of this, Diggory,” Cassius snapped. “She needs to hear the truth.”
Vera’s fists curled tight at her sides. “What truth?” she demanded, her voice raw.
Cassius leaned in, eyes gleaming with malice. “That everything about you is repulsive. At first we thought it was just those mudbloods polluting you," he gestured toward Maddie and Tommy, "but now we know. Your blood’s filthy, just like theirs.”
Vera’s breath caught, fury tangling with the ache in her chest.
“I don’t know how Jane stomached you for as long as she did,” Miles sneered. “Your thoughts are twisted, and your mouth—”
“Disgusting,” Adrian cut in. “You talk like a commoner.”
“And dress like one,” Eudora added coldly, her eyes sweeping over Vera’s worn clothes.
"Even your smell…" Ryu added. "...is different."
Cassius chuckled darkly. "You're nothing but a fraud."
“Has your family disowned you yet?” Adrian said. “They should have, long ago.”
Tears burned at the edges of her eyes, but she fought them back with everything she had.
“You think we haven’t noticed?” Miles pressed on, his voice gleeful now. “You never fly with us. You never cast spells in front of anyone. You skulk about with that lot instead of sticking with your own kind.”
“And let’s not forget the archives,” Cassius sneered. “When you wouldn’t even try the charm. We’ve known since the start of the year. Jane just confirmed it.”
Vera’s chest heaved, disbelief and betrayal stabbing through her like a blade. She turned, her eyes wide, locking onto Jane.
“It was you?” she whispered, her voice trembling. “You’re the one who started the rumor?”
“No, Vera!” Jane’s words cracked, desperate. “That’s not what happened!”
"She told us she never saw you use your wand," Miles interrupted coldly. "All that time together, and nothing. We didn’t have to work hard to put the rest together.”
The floor seemed to tilt beneath Vera. “You said that?” Her voice broke as she stared at Jane.
But Jane's silence was all the answer she needed. The sorrow in her eyes hardened into something darker, rage bleeding into her words.
“You’re nothing but a coward, Jane." She hissed. "A pathetic coward. And I fucking pity you.”
Jane recoiled, her sobs shuddering in the icy air. But before she could speak, Miles shoved her behind him, stepping into Vera’s space until his face was inches from hers.
“And you,” he said, “are nothing more than a squib.”
Vera leaned forward, her voice low and furious. “I. Am. Not.”
Miles’s grin spread wide, his eyes glittering with cruel delight. “Then prove it.”
“I don’t have to prove anything to you, Bletchley."
Laughter erupted behind her, sharp and jeering.
“Come on, Black,” Adrian mocked. “Show us a trick. Anything at all.”
“Or are you too scared?” Eudora cooed, her sing-song voice slicing like glass.
Cassius smirked. “Go on, then. Unless, of course… you’re exactly what we say you are.”
Then, twirling his wand with theatrical flair, the snow at his feet shivered, rose in spirals, and shaped itself into a perfect snowman. He dusted his hands smugly and turned back to her. “Your turn, Black. Let’s see what you’ve got.”
Vera’s chest constricted, fury and dread clawing at her ribs. “Fine,” she spat.
“Don’t do it, Vee,” Fred warned sharply.
“They’re not worth it!” Tommy echoed, his voice straining with urgency.
But their words barely reached her. The need to prove herself—to silence the sneers, the whispers, the jeers that haunted her every step—roared louder than reason.
She squared her shoulders, jaw tight. “No. I’ll do it.”
Her hand shook as she drew her wand, its familiar weight suddenly alien, as if the wood itself knew she didn’t belong. She leveled it at the snow, breath shallow, every eye in the courtyard fixed on her.
But nothing.
A snicker cut the silence. Then another.
“Squib.”
The word was soft at first, almost playful, but then others joined in, swelling into a chant. “Squib. Squib. Squib.”
Her arm trembled as she slashed her wand through the air again, but the snow didn’t stir.
The chant grew louder, sharper. “Squib! Squib! Squib!”
She gritted her teeth, tears burning the corners of her eyes as she tried again, her whole body taut with desperation.
Still nothing.
Adrian’s laugh cut through the din. “Pathetic! Give it up, Black!”
The voices rose higher, a merciless chorus battering her from all sides. “Squib! Squib! Squib!”
Her wand slipped in her sweaty grip. Her chest heaved. The cold bit into her skin, but all she felt was the suffocating heat of humiliation pressing down, crushing her.
“Squib! Squib! Squib!”
Her vision blurred with tears as her hand clenched around her wand, her fury boiling over until it consumed her. She couldn't bear it anymore. She just couldn't.
With a sudden surge, she raised her wand, eyes blazing as she leveled it at Cassius’s snowman. Then she felt it: a force, raw and unbridled, crackling in her veins. She didn’t think. She let it loose.
A crimson beam erupted from her wand with a hiss, slicing through the frozen air. For a heartbeat, time itself seemed to crawl as the spell tore toward its target, vibrating with a dangerous power.
And then—
Boom.
The snowman exploded in a blinding burst, shards of ice and frost whipping outward like shrapnel. The thunderous blast rolled across the grounds, drowning the air in chaos. Snow and ice pelted the crowd, forcing everyone to shield their faces as shouts and screams rang out.
The Poshlanders stood frozen, their smug sneers wiped clean, replaced by open-mouthed shock. But the rest of the group erupted, their cheers cutting through the storm, applause rising like a wave of disbelief.
Vera barely heard them. The surge that had filled her drained away as fast as it came, leaving only a dizzy fog. Her head throbbed. Heat burned through her body. The world blurred at the edges.
She glanced down at the snow beneath her feet, and that’s when she saw it. A drop of red splattered against the white snow.
Then came another.
And another.
Her wand slipped in her grasp as her knees buckled, and before she could understand, darkness swallowed her whole.
Chapter 16: The Dynasty
Summary:
Vera wakes up in the hospital wing to a truth more unsettling than her injuries. But when Dumbledore reveals a hidden legacy tied to a forbidden form of magic, she must face an even darker question—what if her family’s curse is also her destiny?
Chapter Text
“Are you certain, Professor?”
“I’ve never seen anything quite like it. But I’m confident it’s not what we first feared.”
“Could it be only beginning?”
“We mustn’t speculate, Poppy. Best to seek a third opinion. For now…”
The voices stirred Vera from her slumber, yet they seemed distant and reverberant, as if emanating from within her own mind. Attempting to open her eyes proved futile; something enveloped her head and obscured her vision. Her body was numb, suspended between weightlessness and the faintest draw of breath.
A serene tranquility washed over her as the voices dwindled and merged into a singular hum, lulling her back into slumber. When she woke again, she felt careful fingers loosening the cloth that veiled her eyes. Light spilled in, harsh and blinding, and she squinted until the world resolved into the familiar outline of Madam Pomfrey.
“Awake at last?” the matron asked softly, the cloth dangling from her hand.
“…Water,” Vera croaked.
At once, Pomfrey flicked her wand at the empty cup. “Aguamenti.”
Vera forced herself upright and drank greedily, each swallow tasting impossibly new.
“How’s your head?” Pomfrey asked.
“I don’t feel anything.”
“No pain, you mean?”
“I don’t feel… anything.”
“I gave you a stronger dose of willow bark extract. That might explain it.”
Vera blinked around the curtained bed. Beyond, the infirmary glared with sharp daylight. Noon? Later? She couldn’t tell.
“What happened?” Her voice rasped.
“The same thing that struck you over the summer.”
Broken fragments of memory flashed in her mind like smoke: Cassius, Jane, snow, squib… and blood. Too much blood.
“But… I don’t remember,” she whispered.
“Your friends say you obliterated a snowman with a rather powerful spell.”
She pressed her temple, trying to force the images into order, but they slipped away.
“Rest now,” Pomfrey said, already turning toward the ward. “I’ll explain everything in time.”
“No,” Vera interrupted, her voice trembling. “Please, Madam Pomfrey—tell me what’s wrong with me…”
Pomfrey froze mid-step, sympathy flickering across her face before she returned to her side.
“Professor Dumbledore and I have been studying your case for months now." She said gently. "We suspect… you may be suffering from a kind of blood poisoning.”
“Poisoning?” Vera echoed in disbelief. “What does that mean?”
“It means that your blood appears to be rejecting the magic within it.”
Vera’s mind spun with questions, each thought colliding into the next. “I’m sick… because of magic?”
Pomfrey's calm mask slipped, revealing the weight of the truth she carried. “We’re doing everything we can, Vera. But I won’t lie to you—it’s rare, and terribly complex. We don’t yet understand the full extent.”
A chill coiled through Vera’s spine, sinking deeper with every breath. “How did this happen?” she asked faintly, as if speaking only to herself.
“We don’t know,” Pomfrey admitted softly. “Not yet.”
Vera nodded, though the gesture felt hollow, her body heavy under the press of uncertainty. Her gaze drifted beyond the curtain, where the light of the infirmary carved shifting shadows across the floor. Everything felt dreamlike, grotesquely surreal—like a nightmare spun too finely to escape.
Her eyes dropped to her hands, bare without their usual gloves. The darkened skin seemed starker than ever, her fingers dry and wasted, veins raised like black threads beneath parchment.
“What about my hands?” she asked hoarsely. “Are they like this because of the blood poisoning?”
Pomfrey let out a slow, weary breath. “That’s the missing piece. We believe it’s connected, yes—but the how and why still elude us.”
Vera swallowed, her heart hammering a dreadful rhythm against her ribs.
“Perhaps you can tell me more about them?” Madam Pomfrey prompted gently. “For instance—do they hurt?”
“No,” Vera murmured, her fingers curling into fists, hiding their twisted shape.
“And your head? You said when someone touches your hands, it triggers headaches?”
“Yeah. That’s true.”
“Has this happened often?”
“Only a few times. I always wear gloves so no one notices… and I avoid touching people.”
“Anything else I should know?”
Vera hesitated, and Pomfrey caught it instantly.
“Well?” she pressed,
pausing at the edge of the curtain.
Vera faltered, her mind reeling with fragmented memories she couldn’t pin down. “There’s… something else. I don’t know if it matters.”
Pomfrey returned to her bedside, curiosity sharpening her gaze. “What exactly?”
“It’s probably nothing,” Vera said quickly. “But it’s happened a few times now, and I only realized it recently.”
“Tell me, dear.” Pomfrey leaned closer.
“Someone touched my hand. My matron back home...”
“And?”
“As always, I got the headache. I felt sick. But this time… there was something else.”
Pomfrey’s brow furrowed. “Something else?”
“I don’t know if it was real—or just in my head. Maybe I imagined it. But I think I…” She hesitated, the whisper barely scraping past her lips. “I think I saw inside her mind.”
The room seemed to still. Pomfrey’s face darkened, alarm flickering through her features before she reined it back under control.
“What exactly do you mean by that, Miss Black?”
Vera caught the faint shift in her tone—discomfort, carefully disguised. Regret pricked at her; perhaps she had been foolish to confess something so strange.
“I only meant…” she faltered, “…I seemed to know something about her. Something she never told me.”
“And are you certain she hadn’t?”
“I’m certain. It isn’t the kind of thing she’d share with me—or with anyone.”
Pomfrey eased herself onto the edge of the bed. “Tell me more, dear.”
Vera hesitated, unease tightening in her chest. “It’s… private.”
“Then explain how you know it came from her touch.”
“She brushed my hand, and she said a word. Suddenly, I remembered something—but it wasn’t my own memory. It was hers.”
Pomfrey’s brows knit together. “And this memory—was it clear?”
“Not really. Just a flash. Seconds, maybe. But I know it wasn’t mine.”
“How can you be certain?”
“Because I’ve never been there. It was a coffee shop. Moments. I saw the cups with the name on them. She was there with someone—a man. I didn’t recognize him. But I heard her say his name. Doctor Shirley. That’s all I saw.”
Pomfrey’s expression tightened, concern darkening her eyes. “Have you told anyone else about this?”
“No, Madam.”
“Let’s keep it that way.”
The words were quiet but edged with gravity. Vera stared, unnerved by the shadow in Pomfrey’s face. “Is it… is it not normal?” she asked.
“Try to rest,” Pomfrey replied gently, sidestepping the question. “I’ll send you something to eat.”
And with that, she left—leaving Vera to her own thoughts.
Silence settled over the hospital wing, a somber veil draped across the bed. She closed her eyes, but her mind refused to follow. Questions clawed at her, sharper now, refusing to be silenced. Why had Pomfrey looked at her that way? Why had she insisted on secrecy?
Her thoughts circled back to the worst truth of all: her blood was rejecting magic. The words rang like a curse, dismantling her dreams piece by fragile piece. All she had ever wanted was to be a witch. And now, that future glimmered before her like a mirage—close enough to see, but never to touch.
As despair threatened to pull her under, soft voices drifted through the hush of the curtains.
“She prefers strawberry.”
“Well, I still say we should’ve brought blueberry too—options never hurt.”
“Except she hates blueberry.”
“How would you even know—”
Vera sat up quickly, tugging on her gloves. “Hello?” she called.
The curtains swished open to reveal Alicia and Angelina, their faces lighting up with equal parts relief and concern.
“Vera!” Alicia exclaimed, stepping forward.
“How are you holding up?” Angelina asked.
“I… think I’m okay,” Vera replied, though her voice lacked conviction.
“We were worried sick,” Alicia said.
“Utterly petrified,” Angelina added with a deadpan look.
Vera couldn’t help but smile, but her gaze fell on the familiar purple bag in Alicia’s hand. “Is that… my bag?”
“Of course,” Alicia said proudly. “Madam Pomfrey asked us to bring you some stuff. We grabbed your pajamas, toothbrush, hairbrush, a couple of books, and—most importantly—your stuffed cat.” She presented it with a flourish, as if it were a priceless relic.
“And,” Angelina cut in, placing a plate on the bedside table, “actual food. Because if we left you to the hospital's porridge, you’d waste away in a day.”
Vera chuckled softly, touched. “You two really thought of everything.”
“Please,” Alicia sniffed, tossing her hair. “We’re excellent under pressure.”
“Except when it comes to blueberry muffins,” Angelina muttered.
“Drop it, Angie!”
Vera eagerly pulled Vinny from the bag, clutching the stuffed cat to her chest before setting him beside her like an old friend standing guard. She reached for her hairbrush next, relief washing over her as she dragged it through her tangled hair. The bristles hummed faintly, smoothing out every knot with practiced ease.
“Whoa,” Alicia breathed, eyes wide. “So that’s how your hair always looks perfect.”
“I’d trade my left hand for that brush,” Angelina said, running a hand through her own curls with a sigh.
Vera laughed softly. “You can borrow it anytime.”
“Where’d you get it?” Alicia asked.
“It was a gift. But I think there’s a shop in Diagon Alley that sells them,” she said, a fond smile tugging at her lips as Donnie’s letter flickered in her memory.
“Then I’m saving my allowance,” Alicia declared.
The warmth of the memory lingered as Vera set the brush down. For the first time that day, the heaviness in her chest lifted. She dug into the plate of food the girls had brought, eating as though she hadn’t tasted anything real in weeks.
“So,” she managed between bites, “what happened exactly?”
“You mean when you blew up that snowman?” Angelina asked, her grin already spreading.
“Yeah. I… don’t remember much of it.”
“At first, it was so class,” Alicia said, her voice bubbling with excitement. “You turned that smug little snow fella into a billion bits of ice.”
“You should’ve seen Warrington's face,” Angelina added with relish. “Like somebody had hexed his broom mid-flight.”
Vera chuckled, the thought of wiping the smirk off Cassius’s face soothing her more than the food.
"And then what?" She asked.
Her friends exchanged a look.
“Then we saw you,” Alicia said, voice quieter now, “and blood was pouring from your nose. Before we could even move, you fell to the ground.”
“There was blood everywhere,” Angelina whispered, grimacing at the memory.
“It was terrifying, Vera,” Alicia said. “We didn’t know what to do.”
“Cedric and Tommy sprinted to get Madam Hooch,” Angelina added, “and Malika cried so hard I thought she’d faint.”
“And when it felt like forever and no one was back yet, Fred and George just… picked you up and carried you here.”
Vera blinked, startled. “They… did?”
“Yeah,” Alicia nodded firmly. “They were the only ones who didn’t freeze.”
“But we’re just glad you’re alright,” Angelina said, her smile softening. “Really, Vee. You scared us. But what happened?"
For a moment, she wanted to spill everything—the poisoning, the way her own body was betraying her—but fear clamped her throat shut. She wasn’t ready. Not yet.
“I’m not really sure,” she admitted quietly.
After bidding farewell to the girls, she was once again enveloped in solitude. The weariness that had burdened her evaporated, leaving her body feeling light. Reaching into her bag, she drew out the books they had left behind, fingertips brushing the familiar cover of Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland—her cherished Christmas gift from St. Mary’s.
With eager anticipation, she cracked it open and slipped into Lewis Carroll’s odd, enchanting realm. The words swept her away, and before long, drowsiness crept over her like a soft spell, coaxing her into sleep.
Upon awakening some time later, she found herself bathed in the soft glow of candlelight, its warmth casting shadows against the darkness outside. Gradually regaining her senses, she noticed a chair pulled up beside her, and her eyes widened as she focused on the figure seated there.
“I hope I didn’t disturb your rest,” his calm, familiar voice said.
She jolted upright, heart quickening. “Professor Dumbledore?”
“How are you feeling, Miss Black?”
“I—I’m well, sir.”
“I’m glad to hear it.” His eyes held hers, kind yet probing, as though measuring truths she had not yet spoken. “Perhaps you already know why I’ve come.”
Her stomach tightened. “Because of… my hands?”
His gaze drifted to the book nestled between her gloved fingers, its bright cover catching the flame’s glow. “Tell me, Vera—do you take comfort in stories?”
“I do,” she admitted softly, “but not the boring ones.”
A twinkle of amusement brightened his expression. “Ah. Then we are alike in that.”
Leaning forward, he took the book with surprising gentleness, his long fingers brushing the worn edges before his eyes settled on the title. “This one,” he said, almost to himself, “was once a favorite of mine. The author—an ordinary Muggle, you know—had an imagination most wizards would envy.”
Her eyes widened. “You’ve read Alice, sir?”
“Indeed,” he said, his voice touched with nostalgia. “There is more magic in that tale than in a hundred spellbooks. But it was Alice herself who stayed with me.”
“How so?”
“She was resilient,” he said simply. “No matter how bizarre, how perilous Wonderland became, she never stopped searching for her way home.”
A sense of understanding dawned on her as she absorbed his words, feeling his warmth emanating through the room. She hadn't expected the renowned headmaster to have such a whimsical side to him. He had always seemed carved from wisdom and mystery, a figure to be revered rather than approached. Yet here he sat, speaking of childhood stories with fondness. Still, her confusion remained. Why was he here?
“Curiously enough,” he said at last, “I have a tale of my own to share.”
“A tale?” she echoed.
"You see, Vera, the origins of magic remain shrouded in mystery,” he began, fingers absently brushing the cover of Alice. “Some insist it is nature’s great dance with humanity. Others call it the work of simple alchemy. But across the centuries, many respected scholars and wizards have arrived at a theory both extraordinary and troubling.”
She leaned closer, caught in his cadence. “What theory?”
“That magic,” he said, “is evolution itself.”
Her brow knitted in confusion, struggling to follow the turn of his thought.
“The idea was not universally embraced,” he continued gently, “yet it birthed dynasties—families who's blood carried not just spells, but the very essence of creatures who walked this earth beside us.”
Her intrigue deepened. “D-dynasties?”
Dumbledore’s smile was faint, almost wistful, as he set the book aside and reached into his robes. From within, he produced a small pouch of lemon drops, offering one before unwrapping another for himself. She accepted, the sharp tang blooming across her tongue as his voice wove on.
“Legends tell of men and women whose blood mingled with that of animals, granting them uncanny gifts. Some could speak with their kin; others mimicked their abilities. The Serpentis were famed for their communion with snakes—their language, their venom, even their healing. The Avior family, bound to birds of prey, saw farther than any wizard alive, could ride the wind with a gesture. And then… there were the Draconis. A line bound to dragons themselves. They commanded fire, communed with beasts, even took on forms that echoed the creatures they revered. For a time, they seemed unbreakable.”
Vera’s pulse quickened as she listened, utterly transported.
“But dynasties rise and fall,” he went on. “Pride, war, or simple fading of their bond reduced most to myth. Their powers waned, their names dissolved into history. All but a few.”
She straightened, unable to contain herself. "Like who?"
Leaning in closer, Dumbledore flicked his fingers, and the candle’s flame shivered. Its shadow stretched across the wall, warping and reshaping until it became a bird—sleek, dark, and alive with movement. Vera’s breath caught as the silhouette flapped, dipped, and wheeled around the chamber. Guided by Dumbledore’s subtle gestures, it soared gracefully before settling on her lap.
For a heartbeat, it seemed real. She felt certain she could feel its weight, hear the rustle of feathers. Tentatively, she reached out, but the moment her fingers brushed the air, the bird unraveled into smoke, curling upward before fading into nothingness.
“The Crow Dynasty,” Dumbledore said at last, his voice breaking the hush.
“Crow?” She echoed, her surprise sharpening the word.
“Unassuming in size, yet unmatched in wit. Families of that lineage possessed a rare affinity for the bird—commanding them, seeing through their eyes, even bending entire flocks to their will. But that alone is not what made them remarkable.”
“Then what was?”
He rose with a slow, fluid motion, hands clasped neatly behind his back as he paced the chamber. “They carried within their bloodline an ability unlike any other—an inheritance the wider wizarding world came to fear.”
Vera leaned forward instinctively. “What kind of ability?”
After a long silence, he circled back to her bedside, lowering himself onto the edge of the mattress. "Psychometry."
Vera blinked, struggling to make sense of the word. “What does that mean, sir?”
“An untraceable magic,” he explained quietly, “rare beyond measure. For most wizards, such mastery takes decades of grueling study. But for the crows… For them, it was instinct. Inherited, passed down through their lineage, making them formidable beyond measure.”
“What sort of magic is it, then?”
Dumbledore’s hand stroked his beard, his voice dropping lower. “It is a magic that allows one to glean truths about others. Some practiced it through Legilimency—the reading of minds. Others through Clairvoyance, glimpsing events beyond the present. And a rare few—through Clairtangency...”
Vera’s breath caught.
“…physical touch."
Her eyes widened, her heartbeat thundering in her chest. She struggled to steady her shaking hands, her mind racing to comprehend the weight of his words.
“Through a simple touch,” Dumbledore continued, rising from the bed and returning to his chair, “the crows could unlock secrets, peer into memories, and unearth truths hidden deep within another’s mind.”
“Like me…” she whispered, disbelief threading her voice.
“Like you,” he confirmed. “You are Clairtangent, Vera.”
Her lips trembled. “B-but… how, sir?”
“The Crow Dynasty,” he said, his fingers steepling thoughtfully, “originated from three founding families. Two of those—Odam and Yancer—have long since vanished. Their bloodlines are no more.”
“And the third?” she asked, a tremor of anticipation in her tone.
“The third rose above the rest,” he said quietly. “For over a century, they held sway over the wizarding world, their mastery of Psychometry cementing both power and fear. They wielded their gifts as both sword and shield, shaping society to their will. That house… is the House of—”
“Black,” Vera breathed, realization dawning like a lightning strike.
Dumbledore met her gaze, his expression gentle but unwavering. “Yes. The House of Black.”
Vera sank into a heavy silence, her thoughts spinning in a chaotic storm. She had always known her family wielded power and influence—but now she understood how they had achieved it.
Mrs. Wriggleshore’s words echoed sharply in her mind:
“…They had their ways of pulling secrets from people—secrets that could ruin them.”
The realization that she carried the same abilities—abilities that had once brought suffering upon others—filled her with a cold dread. She had once believed she could distance herself from her family’s legacy, perhaps even escape it entirely. Now, confronted with the truth, she saw that it was woven into her very blood, an inescapable part of her.
“But…I don’t want to be like my family!” she cried, her voice trembling. “I don’t want to hurt anyone…”
Dumbledore regarded her with quiet compassion, his eyes reflecting understanding rather than judgment. “We do not have the luxury of choosing our heritage, Vera,” he said softly. “But we do have the power to shape the path we walk.”
“Please, Professor! Help me… help me get rid of this,” she pleaded, her voice choked with emotion. “There has to be a way—there has to be a cure!”
His gaze remained steady, warm but firm. “Though we suspect your condition may be linked to the blood poisoning, your gift is not a disease.”
Vera blinked through her tears, confusion clouding her features. “I… don’t understand, sir. What do you mean?”
“When your body attempted to reject the magic, it inadvertently strengthened it. The psychometric abilities you possess are a manifestation of your inherited traits—not a sickness. But it is not something we can remove or undo.”
“I… I don’t understand,” she whispered, voice trembling. “How can this be…?”
“It is indeed a complex situation, especially for someone your age. Yet you are not just any child, Vera. What you have endured, what you continue to endure, demonstrates a resilience most cannot claim.”
His words settled over her like a balm, though unease still knotted in her chest. Finally, she ventured the question that had been clawing at her mind. “Does this mean… I’m a crow?”
Dumbledore’s expression hardened. “I cannot say for certain, Vera.”
“You said my family could control crows?”
“Controlling crows is considered the rarest and most difficult form of ancient magic. Even being born into the Crow Dynasty with psychometric abilities does not guarantee mastery. Only a select few ever achieved it. The link has weakened over the centuries, and no one has been born with the gift in a long time.”
“But… if I could control them, what would it mean for me?”
“It would mean you carry a singular heritage, one with extraordinary potential. But even if the crows do not obey, you possess a gift few can claim. A gift… that must be kept hidden.”
“Hidden?” she echoed, confusion knitting her brows.
“It is not your fault that you are Clairtangent, Vera. But psychometry, in all its forms, is forbidden by law.”
She swallowed. “What would happen if people found out?”
“Curiosity would turn to concern,” he said carefully, “but you must not dwell on that. Keep your gift concealed, and you will be safe.”
His gaze drifted to her hands. “Continue to wear gloves. And if anyone questions you, simply say it is none of their concern.” A twinkle of mischief lit his eyes as he winked, a faint smile tugging at his lips.
Vera managed a tentative smile in return, still dazed but comforted by his words. She resolved to follow his advice, though a knot of apprehension lingered in her chest.
As he rose to leave, she summoned the courage to ask one final question. “What about my condition, sir? Why does my body reject magic?”
He paused, regarding her with calm intensity. “Your blood poisoning is indeed a mystery,” he acknowledged. “But it is one we are capable of solving. Rest assured, Vera, we will find the answer.”
Friday, Jan 12, 1990
The next morning, Madam Pomfrey finally released Vera from her clutches, though not without a stern lecture about avoiding unsupervised spellcasting. Vera bit back a laugh—hardly a problem, since flinging sparks at random wasn’t exactly on her to-do list. She nodded solemnly anyway, wearing the kind of polite smile one reserves for overprotective aunts.
She was also informed that a professor would be assisting her in daily wand practices to enhance her skills— a prospect that both intrigued and daunted her. Despite the challenges ahead, she resolved to heed Professor Dumbledore's advice and view her abilities as a gift rather than a curse.
With that resolve came another: to hold her people closer. After nearly dying in front of them, she figured they’d earned it.
Her first stop after the hospital wing was the kitchen, where, with a little house-elf assistance, she concocted something worthy of thanks. By breakfast, she appeared at the Gryffindor table carrying a box like it was a treasure chest.
“Hey, everyone!” she announced brightly.
“VERA!” George cried, while Malika was up and hugging her before she could blink.
“We were so worried!” Fred said.
“We thought you died!” Lee declared with tragic gusto.
“How are you feeling now?” Kenny asked.
“I’m okay,” Vera said, grinning as she sat down. “And I brought proof that I lived.”
She slid the box onto the table and nudged it toward the twins.
Fred’s eyebrows shot up. “What’s this?”
“Alicia and Angie told me you two carried me to the hospital wing. I imagine that was like carrying a sack of wet flobberworms, so… these are for you.”
The twins tore open the box in perfect synchronization.
“WOAH,” they chorused.
Lee and the others leaned in to catch a glimpse of the mysterious gift, their expressions mirroring the twins' astonishment.
“You made these?” George demanded, awe in his voice.
“I did,” she replied smugly.
Inside lay two oversized cookies, each painted in sugary detail with the freckled face of the red-haired twins.
"Hold on!" she interjected as they reached for them, then quickly switched the treats so that each matched the twin seated at the table.
"This one is for you," she said, handing the first cookie to Fred, "and this one is for you," she added, passing the second to George.
George held his cookie up beside his face. “Blimey, she nailed it! Look, Fred—she even got my nose!”
“Thank you, Vera,” Fred said, genuinely touched. “But these are works of art. We’re never eating them.”
“NEVER!” George echoed, clutching his cookie portrait like it might be snatched away.
Vera chuckled as they proudly paraded their sugary doppelgängers up and down the Gryffindor table, letting everyone admire the cookies before vowing again, very loudly, that they would never eat them. She couldn’t help catching glances from Felix and Charlie down the table—Charlie gave her a warm, approving smile, while Felix, true to their recent truce, kept his expression politely unreadable.
She let it go. Today wasn’t for brooding, it was for belonging.
And as Lee launched into an over-the-top retelling of the snowman fiasco—complete with sound effects—and Kenny gleefully caught her up on every scrap of gossip she’d missed, Vera leaned into the laughter. The heaviness of recent days lifted, if only for a while, and she let the comfort of her friends wrap around her like a blanket.
“Mail’s here!” Malika announced suddenly, pointing skyward as the owls swept into the hall.
Usually, Vera ignored the flurry of wings and feathers. Post wasn’t for her; it never had been. Which was why her jaw nearly dropped when a small parcel landed directly in front of her plate.
She stared at the name scrawled neatly on the label: hers. Definitely hers. Her hands trembled slightly as she untied the string and lifted the lid. Inside lay three pairs of gloves, each more beautiful than anything she’d ever owned—delicate stitching, soft wool, warm colors. Nestled among them was a folded slip of paper.
She smoothed it open, her heart tripping over itself.
Dear Vera,
Always follow the white rabbit.
Chapter 17: Padfoot says ‘Hello’
Summary:
Vera’s spellwork is still a disaster, Ryu Avery hasn’t stopped being a walking migraine, and Valentine’s Day delivers a gift she never saw coming. But when Sarah’s birthday present makes a run for it, Vera and the twins stumble upon a magical parchment that could change everything.
Chapter Text
Thursday, February 1, 1990
The heavy oak door groaned open, as though protesting Vera’s arrival. She slipped inside the office, the smell of damp parchment, bitter herbs, and judgment, choking her senses.
“Late, Miss Black.” came a silky drawl from behind the desk.
“Sorry, Professor.”
So much for her excitement over extra wand practice—one glance at her instructor had smothered it like a wet rag on fire. Potions with Snape was one thing; spells, apparently, were another breed of misery entirely.
“We will refine your Lumos charm today,” he announced, leaving less room for negotiation than the laws of gravity.
Vera nodded, clutching her wand. She inhaled, squared her shoulders, and tried: “Lumos!”
Her wand flickered like a dying firefly before giving up altogether.
“I’ll—uh—try again, Professor.”
“Do make haste. I’d hate for the century to end before you succeed.”
She bit her lip, steadied her breath, and tried once more. “Lumos!”
This time, the glow held, a stubborn little ember.
“I did it!” she blurted. “It’s not much, but—”
“Correct. It is not much,” Snape cut in. “Do spare us the self-congratulation until you achieve something worth celebrating.”
Her triumph shriveled, but something else took its place—something hotter, more determined.
“LUMOS!”
The wand blazed brighter, and she beamed. “There! Better!”
Snape’s lip curled. “Better, yes. Adequate? No. As always, your focus is lacking. Again.”
She cast once more, the light steady now, and again, each spark a little fiercer than the last.
“AGAIN!” He barked, his voice cracking through the room like a whip.
And she obeyed—not because he demanded it, but because, for the first time, she wanted to outshine his scorn. But the exercise was grinding her down like sandpaper on raw skin. Her head throbbed, her stomach churned, and the air felt heavy enough to crush her ribs.
“I… I feel sick, Professor,” she rasped, her voice thin.
“You’ll feel sick whether you cast or not. Again.”
Something inside her broke loose then—anger, exhaustion, sheer bloody stubbornness. She raised her wand with shaking hands and roared, “LUMOS MAXIMA!”
Light exploded from the tip, not a glow but a sunburst, flooding every shadow in the room. The walls flared white, the air burned gold, and Snape actually recoiled, squinting as if daylight itself had stormed his office.
Vera’s chest heaved. A triumphant grin tugged at her lips—until a warm trickle of blood slid over them.
Snape extended a napkin with the delicacy of someone offering poison. “That will do for today,” he said coolly.
With a blood-stained cloth pressed to her nose, Vera trudged through the corridors, each step sending another throb ricocheting through her skull. The trek from Snape’s dungeon office to the hospital wing stretched on like some cruel endurance trial designed by wizards who had clearly never heard of lifts.
“This castle is too bloody big,” she muttered, wheezing as she mounted yet another staircase.
Headaches, nosebleeds, the daily cardio—she was starting to accept them as part of her new routine. Almost welcome them, even. Because each wand practice brought with it the single bright spot in her miserable existence: Willow Bark.
“Hello, Madam!” she sang upon staggering into the hospital wing.
Madam Pomfrey didn’t bother with small talk, simply slid the vial across with the weary efficiency of someone dealing with a frequent flier. Vera seized it, tipped it back in one gulp, and nearly gagged at the taste.
But oh, the relief. The pain dissolved, slipping away like ink in water. Then came the sweet, heady rush.
Suddenly the torchlight gleamed like treasure, her stomach rumbled in eager anticipation of food that would surely taste divine, and even the warbling off-key lute from a nearby portrait struck her as… charming.
By the time she left, her head was light, her body buoyant. She wasn’t walking through the castle anymore—she was gliding, drifting, blissfully unbothered, as though pain had only ever been a bad dream.
“Vera!” Maddie’s voice barely pierced the din of the Hufflepuff table.
“Vera…”
“Vera.”
“VERA!”
Vera jerked upright, blinking. “Huh?”
“Are you even listening to me?” Maddie demanded.
“Absolutely,” Vera said with a grin far too confident to be believable.
Maddie narrowed her eyes. “You’ve been doing that a lot lately.”
“Doing what?”
“Zoning out mid-conversation. Like your brain just takes a holiday without telling the rest of us.”
“Sorry, Mads.” Vera reached for a crisp, holding it aloft with sudden excitement. “But look! Doesn’t this crisp look exactly like Hagrid?”
Cedric leaned over. “Uh… no?”
“You’ve got to squint. Reeeeaaaally hard.”
Tommy squinted at it, then gasped. “Wait—I think I see it! The beard! It’s the beard!”
“It’s literally just fried potato,” Maddie groaned. “I don’t know why I even try with you lot.”
Vera popped the Hagrid-esque crisp into her mouth. “Relax, Mads. We’ve got time. Sarah’s birthday isn’t for another month.”
“Exactly! Only a month, and I still haven’t found her the perfect gift!”
“Easy,” Tommy said through a smirk. “Get her something dead posh.”
Maddie snorted. “Sarah’s the least posh person I know.”
“Yeah, she’d hex a diamond necklace just to make a point,” Vera added, laughing. “Speaking of—where is she?”
Maddie sighed. “Last I saw, she was buried under a pile of chocolate frogs, muttering something about ‘immortalizing the taste in her soul,’ then promptly passed out.”
Cedric nodded. “Checks out.”
“That’s it!" Tommy piped up. "Get her a mountain of chocolate frogs. You can definitely afford it...”
“It’s not about the money, Tommy. It’s about being meaningful.”
“Chocolate is meaningful!” Tommy insisted, spraying mashed potato across the table.
“Don’t stress,” Vera said lazily. “We’ve got ages to figure it out.”
“Yeah, totally,” Tommy agreed, still chewing. “What’d you even get for your birthday, Vee?”
“Just the usual—school junk,” she said with a shrug. “My matro—uh, aunt—got me a bag, and a family friend sent a painting set.”
“When is your birthday again?” Maddie asked, flipping open her notebook.
“August twenty-third.”
"Leo?" Cedric asked.
"Virgo." She corrected, a smug smile on her face.
Maddie scribbled furiously. “Right. Noted.”
Vera raised an eyebrow. “Are you… taking notes on gift-giving?”
“Obviously. I’m not leaving these things to chance.”
“Well, in that case, I’ll take chocolate,” Vera said with a grin. “Preferably by the mountain.”
As Maddie scribbled down birthdays like a detective compiling evidence, Vera’s gaze strayed to the Slytherin table.
“Lost my bloody appetite ,” she muttered, shoving her plate away.
The others followed her line of sight, all landing on the arrival of the Poshlanders, accompanied by their newest recruit, Jane.
“She’s practically welded to Bletchley now,” Tommy sneered. “You’d think she was his shadow.”
“She may as well drag a sleeping bag into our common room,” Maddie added, rolling her eyes. “She’s always there, clingin' to him like a bad smell.”
Cedric turned to Vera. "Are you upset that you’re not friends with her anymore?”
She snorted. “Please. Couldn’t give less of a toss. She was only pretending for her dad’s sake, and I was daft enough to fall for it. Absolute mug, me.”
“Oi, don’t,” Tommy nudged her. “She’s not worth the aggro.”
“She’s a hypocrite,” Vera shot back. “Should’ve clocked it sooner.”
“She was always snippy with me,” Maddie chimed in with a pout.
“And when I called her on it, she flat-out said we should all stick to our own kind.”
“That’s a load of codswallop." Cedric frowned. "How people still think like that is beyond me.”
“No kiddin’. I’m embarrassed I ever considered her a friend.”
“Well, better to clock it now than later,” Maddie said warmly. “And at least you two—” she nodded between Vera and Cedric “—don’t buy into that rubbish.”
“This whole blood supremacy nonsense is bollocks,” Vera said firmly.
“Too right,” Cedric agreed.
“Did she try talking to you after… y’know, the whole thing?” Tommy asked.
“Nope. Acts like I don’t exist.” Vera’s tone was brittle, her fork stabbing at her plate. “They all do. Well—except Avery.”
Cedric’s brow lifted. “What about Avery?”
“We sit together in Frey’s class. Hard to ignore me when I’m right there.”
His jaw clenched. “Does he bother you?”
“Obviously,” Vera said with a dramatic eye-roll. “He’s still the same smug prat who thinks he’s Merlin’s gift to the wizarding world. But no—he hasn’t called me names or brought up the incident. Not yet, anyway.”
“Maybe they feel guilty,” Maddie said.
Vera let out a sharp laugh. “Guilty? Them? Not a chance.”
“They might! They looked proper rattled when you fainted. Especially Avery.”
“Yeah—rattled they’d get blamed,” Vera shot back.
“I dunno,” Cedric said slowly. “They seemed genuinely worried.”
“Doubt it,” Vera muttered, folding her arms like a fortress.
Tommy leaned in. “Nah, I reckon they were gutted you proved them wrong. That whole ‘squib’ rubbish they threw at you? Done. And then you went and cast a spell they couldn’t dream of touching.”
“Exactly!” Vera huffed. "They think I’m some kind of a fake, and that you lot polluted me with ‘impure’ ideas. They don’t actually care about me.”
Maddie sighed. “Yeah… you’re probably right.”
“Hey, you feeling better?” Cedric asked, his voice threaded with concern. “Patty said she saw you in the hospital wing yesterday.”
“Oh.” Vera hesitated, her usual armor slipping for just a beat. “Yeah, that was nothing. Just a stomach ache. Like I told you before, Pomfrey thinks I fainted from stress and the cold.”
“So… it won’t happen again, right?”
“Course not,” she said quickly, flashing a smile that looked braver than it felt. Her eyes, however, flickered with doubt.
“Good.” Cedric's expression softened. “We just want to make sure you’re alright.”
She swallowed the lump in her throat and nodded, holding the smile in place like a fragile charm she didn’t dare drop.
The days slipped by, and her magic crawled along at the speed of a limping snail. She could manage the basics now—simple charms that fizzled into existence—though they never came without the usual encore of headaches and nosebleeds.
Only the staff knew the truth about her blood poisoning. To the rest of the castle, it simply looked like Vera Black had struck gold: no spellcasting in class, no chance of collapsing mid-duel, no singed eyebrows from misfired jinxes. Some whispered about “special treatment.” Others downright envied it.
But she knew better. Her “privilege” was nothing more than being benched for everyone else’s safety. And she was determined to keep it that way, her secret under lock and key, safe from ridicule.
So when Frey’s lessons turned practical, she stayed rooted in her chair. While the others hurled spells like fireworks at a festival, she sat serenely, the picture of restraint… or, as Tommy muttered, “like she was about to knit a scarf in the middle of a duel.”
Ryu, of course, thrived in the chaos. He reigned supreme in Defense Against the Dark Arts, basking in the glow of “top student” as though it were his birthright. Smugness practically strutted beside him as he returned to their shared desk—where Vera, as usual, had abandoned note-taking in favor of doodling across the wood grain.
“You’re defacing school property,” he said flatly, eyes narrowing at her work.
“I’m turning it into a masterpiece,” she replied without looking up.
“By ruining it?”
“I wouldn’t expect you to recognize brilliance, Avery. But when I’m England’s most famous artist, this desk will fetch millions at auction.”
“Millions of sickles, maybe. And that’s assuming someone wants a desk covered in dead cats.”
“They’re abstract, you uncultured swine!"
“They look like a troll used them as a chew toy.”
“Take. That. Back.” She jabbed her quill in his direction. “And tell me again why you’re speaking to me? I thought my smell offended your noble nostrils.”
“I never said it was offensive,” Ryu scoffed. “Just… different.”
“Ah, yes. Different. The polite cousin of ‘repulsive.’”
He fell silent, watching her doodle with something that almost looked like hesitation. His eyes, usually brimming with smug superiority, now carried a strange weight, like he was summoning courage.
“I’m… sorry, by the way,” he said finally, softer, almost earnest.
Vera paused, looking up in surprise. An apology from him—or any Poshlander—was rarer than a fire in a snowstorm.
“Whatever, Avery,” she muttered, rolling her eyes and returning to her doodles. “I don’t care what you lot think.”
“But… you didn’t tell your aunt what we said, did you?”
Vera blinked. Classic. She had half expected sincerity, but of course, he was worried about himself.
“Ohhh, that’s why you’re apologizing. Afraid my aunt will write to your parents and get you grounded for the summer?”
“No! That’s not it,” Ryu sputtered, a hint of panic creeping into his voice. “I mean it. We never should’ve—well, you know. We were just—”
“Just what?”
“Confused.”
“Confused?” She arched an eyebrow. “About what? How to use your brain?”
“About why you never cast spells in class.”
She shrugged, keeping her face carefully neutral. “You know why, Avery.”
“No, actually, I don’t.”
Her eyes sparkled with mischief as she turned fully to him. “It’s because my magic is so powerful… I’d blow you all to bits if I tried.”
He blinked. “Wait—come again?”
She leaned in, voice dropping to a whisper. “Picture it—your blood spattering the walls, poor Filch mopping up the mess, Mrs. Norris licking the rest from the floor…”
Ryu froze, pale as parchment.
She was deadly serious for a beat longer… and then she burst out laughing. “Relax! I’m joking. Or… am I?”
He exhaled sharply. “Merlin, you’re impossible.”
“Maybe. But now that I’ve properly freaked you out… what was it you wanted again?”
“The truth,” he said cautiously, still keeping an eye on her.
“You reeeeally want to know?”
“Obviously.”
“Alright, then.” She beckoned him closer with a sly tilt of her head.
Hesitating, he leaned in.
“Closer,” she whispered, eyes sparkling with mischief.
He leaned further, cheeks flushing pink at how close he was.
She cupped her hand around his ear and, in a conspiratorial whisper, said: “None of your fucking business.”
Ryu jerked back, caught between exasperation and embarrassment, while Vera shot him a wicked grin, flicked him off, and casually returned to her doodles.
“Vulgar,” he muttered, rubbing his ear.
“Yep,” she replied cheerfully. “But at least my cats look better than you.”
Wednesday, February 14, 1990
“What’s with everyone today?” Vera asked, sliding onto the Gryffindor bench and eyeing the Great Hall as if it had suddenly caught a contagious illness.
“Valentine’s,” Angelina groaned, brutally spearing her eggs. “Utter rubbish, if you ask me.”
“I think it’s class,” Alicia sighed dreamily, practically melting into her toast.
Angelina shot her a look. “Yeah, you would. Still swooning over that blue rose your boyfriend got you?”
Alicia sat up straighter, face instantly pink. “Catch yourself on! Tommy’s just a mate.”
“Mm-hm. Because mates are always handing each other roses. Funny, though—none of us got one.”
“It doesn’t mean anything!” Alicia hissed, but her blush had deepened to a full scarlet signal flare.
“Oi, check that out!” Kenny cut in, jerking his finger at the Slytherin table.
Every head turned. Sure enough, a mountain of enchanted green roses was threatening to smother Eudora, who looked delighted at being buried alive in foliage.
Angelina groaned. "Ugh..."
“Even the older Slytherins are at it!” Alicia muttered, souring instantly.
“Where are they even getting all those roses?” Vera asked, genuinely baffled.
“Greenhouses,” Percy called over from where he sat with Oliver. “They’re charmed to grow roses on Valentine’s.”
“Professor Sprout despises it,” Oliver added with a grin.
“Can’t blame her,” Angelina sniffed. “Her poor plants getting wrecked by all this sloppy romance. Honestly—flowers deserve better.”
As the Gryffindors kept nibbling and snarking about Slytherin’s leafy circus, Maddie strutted in, clutching a massive bouquet of roses so colorful it looked like she’d mugged Cupid on the way in.
“Happy Valentine’s, darlings!” she beamed.
“Even you, Mads?” Angelina gawked, eyeing the bouquet.
"What, these? Oh, please. Not for me—these are for you!”
She began distributing roses down the table like a benevolent flower queen. One by one, her friends accepted them, the sarcasm melting into genuine smiles.
“Merlin’s beard, Mads,” Angelina said, momentarily sincere. “That’s sweet of you.”
“Cheers, Mads,” Vera added, twirling a purple rose and trying not to grin too much.
A pink blush crept into Maddie’s cheeks, though she masked it quickly with another radiant smile as she plopped down among them.
“Well, well, well,” Fred’s voice chimed as he and George slid onto the bench. “What have we here?”
George arched an eyebrow. “Valentines for us, Maddie?”
“Obviously,” Maddie teased, handing them two golden roses.
The twins, for once, were robbed of words—though not color, as both promptly turned Gryffindor-red.
“Brilliant!” Fred managed, clutching his rose like a trophy.
George, however, wasn’t so easily distracted. His eyes were already roaming the hall. “Er—seen Malika anywhere?”
Angelina leaned in. “Why the sudden interest?”
“No reason,” George said too quickly, fiddling with his rose.
“She’s with Cedric,” Maddie cut in, her tone sharper than before. “He just showered her with pink roses, if you can believe it.”
“Bloody hell…” George muttered, sinking a little lower on the bench.
“Best get in line, Georgie,” Vera quipped, only to be immediately walloped in the face by a flying sausage.
“Got any love letters tucked away for you, Percy?” Fred asked, flashing his older brother a sly grin.
Percy adjusted his glasses. “Not yet. The owls are clearly delayed. As for you two…”
“Oh, you wouldn’t believe the fan mail,” Fred boasted, puffing up like a peacock.
“Drowning in chocolate, too,” George added solemnly.
Percy snorted. “The only thing you’re drowning in is your own delusion.”
“What about you, Charlie?” Alicia piped up, turning to where he was half-hidden behind his newspaper.
Charlie blinked, caught off guard. “What about me?”
“Do you have a girlfriend?” she pressed.
The twins exploded with laughter so loud half the table turned.
“Charlie?” George wheezed. “With a girlfriend?”
“You’re more likely to spot a unicorn taking Arithmancy,” Fred cackled.
Charlie ignored them, offering Alicia a mild smile. “No. Between classes and Quidditch, there’s not much room for… that sort of thing.”
Percy, never missing a beat, leaned in. “Don’t let him fool you. He’s practically the school’s heartthrob.”
“Every girl in Hogwarts has probably penned him a poem by now,” George said with mock envy.
Fred smirked. “And I’d bet a galleon someone’s tried slipping him a love potion.”
Charlie rolled his eyes and went back to his paper. His brothers’ antics barely registered, though Vera could see why the girls swooned—easily the most handsome of the lot, and with an effortless confidence that didn’t need boasting.
As the twins persisted in their banter, her eyes caught sight of the headline on the front page of his newspaper.
Wizarding Chronicle
Lucius Malfoy Appointed as Fudge’s Legal Advisor
Are the "Six" Taking Over? Hugh Blackwood investigates the sudden shift in power at the Ministry
"Hey Charlie,” She said, her curiosity piqued. “What's the 'Six'?"
Charlie rotated his newspaper to read the headline. "Oh, they're an unofficial political party. Comprised of the families who survived the Red Dinner."
"The... Red Dinner?"
"It was a massacre that happened a few years back. The six families who suffered losses on that night banded together, forming an alliance to prevent such an event from recurring."
She leaned closer, suddenly intrigued. "Which families?"
"If memory serves me right, Malfoy, Flint, Yaxley, Parkinson, Nott, and Rowle."
"But what actually happened during the Red Dinner?"
"Many members of those families lost their lives."
"How?”
“It’s a complicated and long story, Vera. Nobody’s really sure what happened that night, but it was certainly bloody.”
While she mulled over his words, a storm of owls swooped in, scattering feathers and parcels across the tables.
“Here we go,” Angelina muttered darkly.
Around them, students ripped into letters and sweets with the frenzy of a Honeydukes raid. Vera, however, stayed calm, sipping her juice—until a small, square package landed in front of her.
“What’s that?” Kenny leaned over, eyes glinting with curiosity.
“I don’t know." Vera frowned, turning the package over in her hands. "No name on it.”
Fred’s grin spread like wildfire. “Looks like someone’s got a secret admirer…”
“Ooooooh,” George chimed in, leaning so far he nearly tipped into her porridge.
“Well, go on then!” Alicia urged, practically bouncing in her seat.
Vera’s stomach fluttered as she carefully peeled back the wrapping. Inside was a velvet jewelry box, small and elegant. Her hands trembled slightly as she flicked it open—then her face broke into a wide smile.
“What is it?” Angelina asked, half out of her seat.
Kenny craned his neck. “Earrings. Shaped like…”
“A cat!” Vera said, grinning.
With a spark of excitement, she plucked the earrings from their box and fastened them onto her ears. She opened her mouth to say something witty—then froze, her eyes turning comically wide.
“BLIMEY!” she yelped.
Angelina and Alicia jumped in unison. “What?!”
“They’re talking,” Vera blurted, darting her gaze around the hall as if expecting to catch someone playing a prank. “I can hear them!”
“No chance,” Kenny said, leaning dangerously close to her ear like he might overhear them himself.
“I swear!” Vera insisted. “They’re… they’re complimenting me! My hair, my eyes—they just called me radiant!”
Alicia squealed. “That’s so class!”
Charlie peeked over his newspaper. “Charmed earrings. Clever enchantment, actually.”
“But who sent them?” Kenny pressed.
“I don’t know,” Vera whispered, fingers brushing the tiny silver cats as though they might give her the answer. “I… honestly don’t know.”
Wednesday, March 14, 1990
For weeks she fretted over the talking-cat earrings, wearing them like a tiny, flattering secret. Their compliments were a constant hum behind everything she did, a private chorus that made ordinary days feel less gray. Then March loomed, and with it a bigger problem: Sarah’s birthday, and a gift that had gone spectacularly sideways.
“I NEED YOUR HELP!” She bellowed across the Gryffindor common room.
Fred and George looked up from a suspiciously large pile of schematics.
“Blimey, slow down!” Fred said. “Right—what’s exploded now?”
“It’s a long one. Filch. His office. Right now!”
George grinned. "Sounds promising. Spill.”
"Oh, it's a bloody mess," she groaned, flopping onto the nearest couch. "Maddie and I had this plan to get something for Sarah that she's been wanting forever."
"Aha, I think I see where this is going," George said with a knowing grin.
"It's this rare beetle with proper shiny green wings.”
“I take that back.”
“Sarah’s been banging on about it, saying there’s one in Hogwarts somewhere, but she’s never had any luck finding it.”
“That’s a bonkers present,” Fred remarked with a chuckle.
She shrugged. “It’s Sarah, what can I say?”
"Fair play." the twins agreed.
“We hunt for days, and finally spot one by Hagrid’s hut. We catch it in a jar. Everything’s perfect.”
Fred clapped his hands together. “Birthday miraculously sorted. Lovely.”
“Then Maddie trips. The jar drops. Beetle bolts. Chaos, obviously.”
“What's Filch got to do with this mess?” George asked.
“We chased after the beetle, but that bloody bitch Mrs. Norris nabbed it!”
Fred howled. “That cat! I hate that cat!”
“Honestly, I wanted to boot her into next week."
“Did you?” Fred asked, eyes glittering with mischief.
"Well, sort of..." she confessed, blushing slightly. "Accidentally!"
George chuckled. “Alicia would call that ‘class’, I suppose.”
"We got the beetle back into the jar but Filch caught us with Mrs. Norris. I swear down these two could communicate telepathically or something. He knew I kicked her, so he went off his rocker, swore at us, and confiscated the beetle as punishment!"
"And that’s why you want to break into his office?"
“Sarah’s birthday is tomorrow. I’ve got nothing else and I can’t let her down.”
Fred and George exchanged a look that said they’d been born for this exact emergency.
“Don’t fret, Vee,” George said, clapping a hand on her shoulder with theatrical confidence. “You’ve come to the right people.”
With a mix of nerves and excitement, the trio embarked on their daring mission, their footsteps echoing softly in the dimly lit corridors. As they reached the door to Filch’s lair, Vera’s heart pounded with anticipation.
“Alohomora!” Fred whispered confidently, and the door swung open with an ominous groan.
The office was a chaos of confiscated trinkets, moldy files, and lurking shadows.
“Right,” Vera whispered. “I’ll check the desk. You two—drawers.”
She set to work immediately, sifting through towers of parchment, her eyes sharp for the glint of glass. The twins, however, were instantly distracted.
“Merlin’s beard, Georgie…" Fred pulled open a drawer and gasped. "It’s like Christmas morning in here.”
“Look at all this junk,” George breathed, lifting out a trick wand that emitted pink smoke. “Absolute treasure trove.”
“Oi! Focus!” Vera hissed, casting them a fierce glare. “We’re not looting the place, we’re rescuing one beetle.”
But her own breath caught as her eyes locked on a familiar green shimmer. Nestled among parchment rolls, half-hidden, was the jar.
“Got it,” she whispered, reaching for it.
“Check this out, Vee!” Fred called, waving her over.
She groaned. “You two are going to get us killed.” But curiosity tugged her anyway.
She padded over, eyes narrowing at the drawer of oddities: a biting yo-yo, a shriveled deck of Exploding Snap cards, and wedged in the corner, a scrap of parchment.
The moment she unfolded it, faint footsteps shimmered across the surface, then vanished like mist.
“Did you see that?” she whispered.
Fred squinted. “See what?”
“There—footsteps!”
And as if on cue, another set appeared, skittering across the parchment before blinking out of existence.
George let out a low whistle. “There they go. Proper weird.”
“It’s enchanted,” Fred muttered. “Got to be. Some kind of tracking spell, maybe?”
Before they could delve into the mystery, the sound of footsteps echoed in the hallway outside.
“We’ve got to scram!” Vera hissed, yanking the twins toward the door.
With one last reluctant glance at the glittering hoard of confiscated treasures, the three slipped out of Filch’s office and into the corridor.
Back in the common room, they sprawled out on the rug, the magical parchment spread between them in the lantern’s glow. Fred and George tapped and prodded it, muttering half-baked theories, but after several failed charms and fizzles of sparks, they gave up.
“Probably just a dud,” George concluded with a shrug. “Old spell parchment that’s lost its magic.”
Vera wasn’t so sure. Something about it thrummed with possibility, as though it were waiting. After bidding the twins goodnight, she slipped the parchment into her pocket and carried it up to the dormitory.
Later, tucked beneath her blanket, she clutched it tightly. Vinny, her stuffed cat, leaned against the pillow beside her, his stitched eyes watching as if he too were waiting.
“What do you think, Vinny?” she whispered. “Should we give it a try?”
She leaned closer to the parchment, voice low and steady.
“Reveal hidden secrets,” she breathed. “Show me the truth.”
For a long moment, nothing happened. Then the parchment rippled, its faded script writhing like ink coming alive. Letters bled into one another, swirled, and stretched into new shapes.
But then, the words stilled, forming a sharp and clear sentence.
What is your name?
Vera hesitated for a moment, unsure why the parchment would need her name. But something inside her urged her to trust it.
"My name is Vera," she whispered. “Vera Black.”
As soon as the words left her lips, the parchment reacted in a way she never could have anticipated. The script shifted once more, but this time, it formed a message that sent shivers down her spine.
Greetings, Kindred spirit... Padfoot says ‘Hello’
Her mind raced with questions. What did it mean? And who was Padfoot? But before she could ponder further, the words began to rearrange themselves again.
To reveal our secret, You must solemnly swear that you are up to no good.
Her eyes widened in astonishment, a smile tugging at the corners of her lips. Without a moment's hesitation, she murmured, "I solemnly swear that I am up to no good."
As the incantation left her lips, the parchment underwent a miraculous transformation. Letters and drawings materialized on its surface, unfolding a scene that left her breathless. Before her very eyes, the image of Hogwarts Castle emerged, its majestic towers and winding corridors depicted in intricate detail. And beneath the grand illustration, a bold title proclaimed:
Messrs.
MOONY, WORMTAIL, PADFOOT & PRONGS
are proud to present
THE MARAUDER'S MAP
Chapter 18: The Rebel
Summary:
April Fools, flaming desks, and nearly spilling her secrets to Felix—but the real chaos begins when Frey goes too far. That’s when Vera does the unthinkable, proving she isn't just another Gryffindor… but a spark waiting to set the classroom ablaze.
Chapter Text
Sunday, April 1, 1990
“Again, Black.”
“I think I’m going to be sick, professor…”
“Then try not to do it on my floor.”
“But I can’t help it!”
“That lack of control is precisely why you’re useless at this spell. Now—again.”
Vera gripped her wand tightly, considering a way to divert her frustration—perhaps burning Snape's hair instead of the parchment she’s practicing the fire-making charm on. Tears threatened to spill over as she contemplated giving up, until he uttered the most unexpected remark.
“Do you honestly believe your father would be proud of the pitiful witch you’ve become?”
Her wand clattered slightly. “My… my father?”
"At your age, he could conjure most elements with ease. He’d be ashamed to see his daughter flounder with sparks.”
Vera was speechless. Snape's strict demeanor during wand lessons was familiar, but his cruelty was unprecedented. She hadn’t even known he knew her father, let alone admired his skill.
“And it wasn’t just him,” he pressed on. “Your entire family were counted among the finest witches and wizards this castle has produced. Yet here you stand—singularly unremarkable. Each failure of yours dishonors their name.”
Her jaw ached from clenching, but she forced her voice to stay calm. “I know what you’re doing, professor. But it’s not working. I’m not angry.”
“You can’t even match the skill in your own bloodline. It’s a marvel you’re permitted to share their surname.”
“What if I don’t want to be like them?” The words shot out before she could stop herself.
That seemed to actually catch him off guard. He drifted closer, hands clasped behind his back, his stare cold enough to freeze marrow. “Your family understood the weight of magic. You, however, squander it. If you spent half the energy you waste on childish chatter actually studying—perhaps you might accomplish greatness like them.”
"You think what they did was great?"
Snape’s lips curled into a smirk. "Greatness manifests in myriad ways."
Vera swallowed her emotions, fighting tears. "You mentioned my dad," she said after a pause. "Did you know him?"
"I did... Though you may not match his level, you two do share certain traits…"
Vera's heart raced with anticipation, craving to hear more about her father. But Snape's words cut through her hopes.
"Spoiled, stubborn, arrogant, and cowardly. Much like him."
His words stung like salt in a wound, shattering the semblance of respect she held for him.
The air crackled with tension as her hand tightened around her wand, her eyes ablaze with anger. Without a word, she focused her energy, channeling her rage into the very magic he belittled. With a flick of her wrist and a silent incantation, flames erupted from the tip of her wand, not towards the parchment, but towards his meticulously organized desk.
The wood crackled and charred as the fire danced, consuming the surface with voracious hunger. Snape's expression shifted from smug superiority to startled disbelief as the flames engulfed his workspace.
For a brief moment, she felt a surge of satisfaction, a vindication of her power in the face of his scorn. But as the flames grew, reality crashed down upon her like a wave.
What had she done?
Panic replaced her momentary triumph as she realized the severity of her impulsive retaliation. Snape's eyes bore into hers, a mix of fury and astonishment flickering in their depths. Before he could utter a word, she fled the classroom, leaving behind the chaos she had wrought.
Outside, the corridor stretched before her. With each hurried step, her heart pounded, echoing the turmoil within. She wiped the blood from her nose with the end of her robes then withdrew the Marauder's Map, its parchment surface unfurling eagerly.
Her heart quickened as she scanned it, searching for an escape. Then, her eyes alighted upon a faint outline, a concealed passage that wound its way through the castle's ancient stone walls. With a sense of urgency, she followed its winding path. The air grew cooler, the walls closing in around her, until at last, she emerged into the hallowed halls of Gryffindor Tower through a portrait.
The familiar sight of the crimson and gold decor greeted her, a comforting embrace amidst the uncertainty that clouded her thoughts. With a sigh of relief, she made her way to the Gryffindor common room.
As she sank into the plush armchair by the crackling fire, her gaze fell upon her wand. It was the very wand she had been told her father once wielded, a connection to a past she scarcely understood.
Snape's words echoed in her mind, casting doubt and uncertainty upon her thoughts. She didn't want to believe his accusations about her father, but a nagging feeling persisted within her. Was she truly like him? The question lingered, a shadow of doubt tugging at the corners of her mind.
“What ever happened to you, Dad?” She whispered to herself.
The common room suddenly erupted, as the Gryffindors spilled inside, their laughter ricocheting off the stone walls.
“I still can’t believe you pulled that off!” Kenny doubled over, wheezing.
“Pulled it off?” Lee arched a brow. “That was art.”
“It was idiocy,” Angelina cut in, folding her arms.
“Oh, Vera, you missed a masterpiece,” Kenny said, flopping down beside her. “Fred, George, and Lee bewitched the cups in the Great Hall to tickle anyone who took a sip.”
“It was bloody genius,” Alicia said.
“Reckless!” Angelina countered.
“Oh, cheer up, Angie, it was harmless fun!”
“Harmless? They're downright going to be in trouble now.”
Fred only grinned. “It's April Fools.”
“And our birthday,” George chimed.
“So naturally, we had to do something unforgettable,”
“Something legendary,”
“Something historic,”
“Something detention-worthy,” Angelina finished dryly.
The twins exchanged a look. “Worth it.”
“Are you alright?” Alicia leaned in, eyeing Vera’s pale face.
Vera remained transfixed by the fire, her expression one of shock. "I set Snape's office on fire," she confessed at last.
Silence fell like a dropped brick, until Fred let out a low whistle.
“Well, you didn’t have to go that far for our birthday present, Vee."
George blinked. “Wait—you're joking, right?”
"I wish..." Vera replied, her eyes wide with fear.
The group burst into raucous laughter—all except Angelina, who looked ready to faint on Vera’s behalf.
“TELL. US. EVERYTHING!” Lee practically bounced on the spot.
“I’m going to be expelled,” Vera groaned, burying her face in her hands.
“Yeah, but was it worth it?” Fred asked. “What did Snape do? Did he scream? Did his eyes twitch? Oh, please tell me his eyes twitched.”
Despite herself, Vera smiled. The memory of Snape’s priceless expression ignited something warm in her chest.
She sat up straighter, smirk tugging at her mouth. “Totally worth it.”
Fred whooped and slapped her palm in a triumphant high-five. “Absolute legend!”
“Why’d you do it, though?” Alicia asked.
Vera shrugged. “It was… sort of an accident. He kept pushing, and I just… snapped.”
“Well,” George said with a grin, slinging an arm around her shoulders, “if anyone in this castle had it coming, it was definitely him.”
“ARE YOU ALL BLOODY JOKING?” Angelina’s voice sliced through the laughter.
“What?” Lee blinked innocently.
“If Vera really set Snape’s office on fire, that’s at least a hundred points gone! Add your idiotic prank, and we’ll be in last place by sunrise!”
“Oh, shite,” Vera muttered, the weight of reality hitting her stomach like a stone.
“It’s fine, Angie,” Alicia said soothingly.
“No, it’s not fine!” Angelina snapped. “We’re nearly at the end of the year, and Gryffindor’s already limping behind!”
“Three whole months left,” Fred countered breezily. “Plenty of time for redemption.”
“Not if you lot keep pranking and Vera keeps torching classrooms! We’re doomed!”
“Merlin, Angie,” Alicia groaned. “Didn’t know the House Cup meant this much to you.”
“Do you want Slytherin to win? Because they’re miles ahead, and catching up is practically impossible.”
“Not our fault,” Kenny argued. “Snape and Frey hand out points like sweets to their little pets.”
“Bletchley gets rewarded every Defense lesson just for twirling his wand dramatically,” Lee grumbled.
“And Warrington too in Potions,” Alicia added. “Even though Vera wipes the floor with him. Snape just pretends not to notice.”
“Well, he is their Head of House,” Angelina retorted. “It’s the same everywhere—Flitwick can’t stop throwing points at Avery.”
“That’s because Avery’s brilliant at Charms,” Vera said flatly.
“And Defense,” Alicia added.
“And Transfiguration,” Kenny piped in.
“And Astron—”
“That’s not the point!” Angelina snapped, cutting Lee short. “House heads favor their own, it’s common knowledge.”
“Yeah, well McGonagall’s our Head of House,” Fred sighed, “and she never hands us points.”
Vera scoffed. “Too busy tossing them all at her precious Cedric.”
Angelina folded her arms. “So, you’re suggesting we just give up then?”
“We’ve still got three months to claw back points,” Lee said brightly. “We’ll come up with a plan.”
“A plan that doesn’t involve you three terrorizing the castle.”
Fred smirked. “No promises.”
She swatted him on the arm. “Fred Weasley!”
“Ouch! Cruelty on my birthday?” he gasped, clutching his arm in mock injury.
Angelina rolled her eyes and turned to Vera. “And you—you need to apologize to Snape.”
Vera groaned. “I’d rather take a Bludger to the head!”
“You have to! Otherwise he’ll have you in detention until seventh year.”
“Just tell him it was an accident,” Alicia offered helpfully.
"FINE!" Vera snapped, burying her face in her hands. As she let out a muffled scream of frustration, she felt a comforting hand on her shoulder.
“May the wisdom of Merlin guide you through this most noble sacrifice, Sister Vera.” George said dramatically, with Fred and Lee clasping their hands together like monks in prayer.
She placed her gloved hand atop his. “Bless you, Brother George. Your faith sustains me.”
The three collapsed into mock chanting while Angelina pinched the bridge of her nose.
“Unbelievable,” she muttered. “Every last one of you.”
“By the way, Vee,” Fred cracked one eye open mid-chant, “where’s this amazing birthday gift you promised?”
Vera’s lips curved into a sly grin. Without a word, she grabbed the twins by the hands and tugged them out of the common room.
“Oi—where are you dragging us?” George asked as they half-sprinted down the corridor.
“You’ll see,” Vera said, her mysterious smile only deepening.
They darted into a narrow, hidden passage she’d discovered, the walls pressing close as torchlight flickered behind them.
“Merlin’s beard, how’d you even find this?” George whispered, eyes wide.
“Is this the present?” Fred asked eagerly.
“Nope.” Vera halted dramatically, fishing in her robes before pulling out a folded parchment. “This is the present.”
Fred squinted. “You’re giving us… homework?”
“Not homework, Weasley. Destiny.”
George arched a brow. “Oh, destiny fits in your pocket now?”
“You two are insufferable,” she muttered, but her smirk only grew. “Ready yourselves for the single greatest work of magic ever created.”
“You’ve got the pitch down,” Fred teased. “Should’ve been a shopkeeper.”
“Focus, heathens!” She snapped in mock indignation. "And behold the greatness of… drum roll please."
The twins instantly complied, air-drumming like maniacs. “Dum-dum-dum-dum…”
Vera snapped the parchment open with a flourish. “The Marauder’s Map.”
The words alone made the twins freeze, jaws dropping. They snatched the parchment from her hands, unfolding it in frantic awe.
“Is this—wait—isn’t this the parchment from Filch’s office?” Fred breathed.
“Yep. Cracked the secret a week ago. But I saved the reveal for today. You’re welcome.”
“Vera, this is—”
“This is—”
She smirked. “Greatness, my friends. Pure greatness.”
The twins gaped at the parchment, utterly spellbound.
“We can see everyone!” George blurted.
“Even Dumbledore,” she confirmed smugly.
“Merlin’s beard,” Fred whispered, eyes wide. “This is… unbelievable.”
“Truth is,” she said, trying not to grin too much, “I thought about keeping it for myself. But what’s the point of discovering secret passages if you don’t have partners in crime?”
George arched an eyebrow. “Ohhh, so we’re just convenient sidekicks now?”
“Aaaaand,” she continued, “because it’s your birthday, and because you two actually deserve it.”
Fred shot her a rare, genuine smile that made her cheeks burn. “Cheers, Vee.”
“Yeah, thank you,” George echoed. “But you have to tell us how you unlocked it!”
“I’m… not exactly sure. It asked for my name. I told it, and it just wrote back: Padfoot says hello. Then it opened.”
The twins exchanged a quick glance.
“Padfoot?” Fred asked.
“I think he was one of the mapmakers—his name’s on it.”
“But why would he say hello to you?” George pressed.
She shrugged. “No idea. He also called me a kindred spirit. Whatever that means.”
“I think it means someone you’re connected to,” George said thoughtfully.
“Or someone who shares your traits and beliefs,” Fred added. “Like family.”
“Like how Fred is my kindred spirit.”
“Am I, Georgie?”
“Duh.”
Vera rolled her eyes. “Well, whatever it means, I’m just glad it worked. Now—” she tapped the parchment—“find me the fastest route to the hospital wing. My head is killing me.”
Sunday, May 19, 1990
After another grueling session with Snape, Vera slipped into the hospital wing, praying willow bark would dull the pounding in her skull. But her steps soon faltered when she spotted Felix stretched out on one of the beds, his scarlet-and-gold Quidditch uniform jarring against the stark white sheets. His arms were folded behind his head, eyes fixed on the ceiling. The room was empty but for them, the silence thick and awkward.
She swallowed. “Are you alright?”
His gaze flicked to her, then drifted back upward. “Quidditch practice didn’t go as planned. I’ll manage.”
She lingered, studying the shadows beneath his eyes, the new sharpness in his jaw. He looked worn thin.
He pushed himself up, fingers raking through his tousled hair. “And you?”
“Oh... just a headache.”
"Shall I alleviate it for you?" he offered. "I know how."
A smile tugged at her lips. “That’s kind, but… I’ll wait for Madam Pomfrey.”
His answering smile was faint, tired around the edges.
“What happened out there?” she asked gently.
He exhaled, eyes dropping to the floor. "We're gearing up for the final next week, and I had a collision."
“Oh… I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be.”
She Blinked. "What?"
“What about you?” He deftly changed the subject. “Thinking of trying out for the team next year?”
She almost laughed. “I can barely stay upright on a broom, let alone play Quidditch.”
“You could surprise yourself. I’ve got a feeling you might be a natural.”
“I highly doubt that, Felix.”
He tilted his head, studying her. “You’re an odd one, Vera.”
“Odd?”
“Compared to your family, I mean. Why is that?”
“I didn’t really grow up with them.”
The words slipped out before she could catch them. Her pulse quickened instantly, and she braced herself for the inevitable questions, for the judgment she knew would follow. But Felix’s expression only softened.
“I understand,” he said quietly. “I, too, spent more time with my governess and our house-elf than with my own family.”
Vera froze in place. Was that what he thought she meant? For a heartbeat, she considered correcting him, letting the truth spill free—but the fear clamped down harder.
He was one of Hogwarts' wealthiest students, gilded in privilege, while she cleaned goat shit for three years and now relies on charity. Better to let him believe she was simply rebelling against her family’s ideals than risk watching his face change.
So she stayed silent.
Footsteps echoed down the corridor—Madam Pomfrey returning.
“Well… good luck with the match next week,” she said, forcing brightness into her voice.
Felix reclined again, eyes drifting back to the ceiling. “Thank you."
Sunday, May 27, 1990
The late sun slanted over the Quidditch pitch, gilding the scene in firelight. For weeks, the school had buzzed like a kicked beehive for the final clash. Now the stands were packed, the roar of the crowd rolling across the crisp afternoon air.
“And we’re off! Gryffindor against Slytherin—the match everyone’s been waiting for! Keep your hats on, keep your wands tucked, because this is going to be anything but polite!”
Charlie Weasley, Gryffindor’s captain and last year's hero, stood tall at the center of the pitch, his bat clenched like a general’s sword. Nearby, Oliver Wood—barely a third-year but already brimming with grim determination—perched on his broom like a hawk, scanning for incoming danger. Felix Bobbin, their seeker, lingered lower, restless as a cat, his sharp gaze sweeping the field for the glimmer of gold.
Slytherin’s captain, Trevor Yaxley, was all smirk and swagger, prowling with the air of someone who’d already written the victory speech. His bat hung ready at his side, and with his reputation for brutal precision, no one doubted he meant to use it.
The whistle shrieked, and chaos unfurled. Players rocketed skyward, their brooms carving the air into ribbons. Bludgers howled through the pitch like cannon fire, sending chasers ducking and weaving for their lives. Oliver moved like he’d been born in front of the goalposts, blocking shots with the ease of a boy who’d sooner break bones than let a Quaffle through.
“Oh, look at that save from Wood! He’s a brick wall with reflexes—Slytherin’s going to need more than luck to squeeze a Quaffle past him!”
The crowd gasped, shrieked, cheered—it was war in the sky, and not even gravity dared interrupt.
But then the mood shifted. Yaxley, with a grin sharp enough to cut glass, sent a Bludger screaming straight at Charlie. The first swing missed—barely—but the intent was clear.
Fred’s fists tightened on the railing. “Yaxley’s always dirty, but this is beyond foul!”
“That didn’t look random.” Lee said, shading his hands.
“Of course it isn’t,” George said. “They’ve been at each other’s throats since first year.”
“Yaxley can’t stand Charlie,” Fred growled. “Hates that he’s better at—well—everything.”
The second Bludger came faster, crueler. This time it slammed into Charlie’s chest with a sickening thud. The crowd’s roar fractured into gasps as Gryffindor’s captain spiraled downward, his broom twisting like a wounded bird.
“Sweet Merlin’s socks!” Lee’s voice cracked. “Yaxley’s trying to turn this match into a crime scene!”
The stadium froze, every eye fixed on Charlie. The only sound was the rush of wind as teammates dived toward him. Then—like a phoenix rising from the ashes—he wrenched control of his broom, let out a furious roar, and shot back into the fray.
Fred and George shot to their feet. “That’s our brother!”
High above, Felix had no time for theatrics. His gaze was locked on a single glimmer: the snitch, flickering like a golden heartbeat against the horizon. He tucked in, dove, the wind howling past as the pitch tilted beneath him.
The match below blurred—bludgers, quaffles, shouts—but Felix cut through it all, closing in, inch by inch, until his fingers snapped shut around the fluttering wings.
“And that’s it, ladies and gentlemen!” the commentator's voice cracked with triumph. “Felix Bobbin with the grab of the century—Gryffindor takes the Cup!”
The stands shook with thunderous cheers as Gryffindor’s victory was sealed, the golden Cup glittering in the twilight like a crown. Charlie thrust his beater’s bat skyward, his grin as wide as the pitch itself, while Oliver looped gleeful circles above the hoops, drinking in the crowd’s roar.
On the dais, Dumbledore’s eyes twinkled brighter than the snitch itself. Beside him, McGonagall’s lips fought a losing battle against a full-blown smile. A few seats over, Snape and Frey clapped stiffly, their expressions so sour they could’ve curdled the pumpkin juice at breakfast.
Felix, the hero of the hour, hovered above it all with cool detachment. Though a flicker of a smile tugged at his mouth, it was gone as quickly as it came.
“He’s just humble like that,” Percy offered, chin high with pride.
But Vera wasn’t convinced. To her, Felix’s distance felt less like modesty and more like… something else.
Meanwhile, Trevor Yaxley stood seething on the sidelines, his face carved into a permanent scowl. Every cheer was a slap, every banner a taunt. Finally, he snapped. With fists balled and jaw tight, he stormed across the pitch.
“Weasley!” His voice tore through the revelry, slicing the cheers in half. “You lot cheated!”
Charlie spun around. "That’s rich, coming from you, Yaxley. We played fair. You just can’t stand losing.”
“Fair?” Yaxley snarled, closing the distance. “Don’t feed me that rubbish! Gryffindors are nothing but cheats and liars!”
"The fuck did you just say?"
Up in the stands, Fred and George exchanged a sharp look. They knew that tone—Charlie’s temper was a dragon best left unpoked, and Yaxley had just jabbed it with a stick.
“Easy now, lads,” the commentator’s voice boomed over the stands. “No need to turn the Cup Final into a boxing match.”
But Yaxley was far past reason. His face twisted with fury, and he lunged at Charlie, fists swinging. “I’ll show you fair, Weasley!”
The crowd’s jubilant roar snapped into a collective gasp as the two captains collided, grappling in a tangle of fists, shoves, and shouted curses. Victory songs died on the spot, replaced by stunned silence broken only by the scuffle below.
Fred and George shot from their seats like fireworks, shoving through the crowd.
“Charlie, duck!” Fred bellowed.
“Or swing harder!” George added.
But before the twins could reach him, Felix cut through the turmoil with unnerving calm. One flick of his wand, and a flash of red light blasted between the brawlers. Yaxley and Charlie flew apart, hitting the ground on opposite ends of the pitch, coughing and glaring but too dazed to continue.
“Enough!” McGonagall’s voice cracked like a whip, reverberating across the stands. “Both of you—my office. Now.”
Snape loomed at her side, his expression a cocktail of smugness and irritation. He gave Charlie a particularly oily glare, as though the fight had inconvenienced him personally.
“Consequences,” McGonagall continued, “will be severe!”
The Gryffindor common room glowed like a furnace that night, packed with red and gold, laughter spilling over the armchairs and banners strung crookedly across the walls. Songs had long since lost their tune, but no one cared—victory was victory, and even the earlier brawl couldn’t dampen the fire in their chests.
By the fireplace, the younger students huddled together, cheeks pink from shouting themselves hoarse.
“I still can’t believe Yaxley got off easy just because of exams,” Fred muttered, tossing a popcorn kernel into the fire.
“What did they get, anyway?” Alicia asked.
“Detention,” George said flatly. “Charlie with McGonagall, Yaxley with Frey.”
“Detention?" Lee choked. "That’s it? Yaxley practically tried to murder him in front of the whole school. Should’ve been expelled on the spot!”
Fred rolled his eyes. “Please. His father pulled strings.”
Kenny leaned closer, lowering his voice. “Isn’t his father one of the ‘Six’?”
“Yep,” George confirmed grimly. “And word is, he just bagged himself a Ministry post.”
Vera, who’d been quiet until then, spoke up, her voice tinged with worry. “But Charlie—he’s alright?”
Fred waved her concern aside with a grin. “He’s fine. Trust me, it was Yaxley who got flattened.”
“Only thanks to Bobbin stepping in." George smirked. "Otherwise Charlie would’ve mopped the pitch with him.”
“Our brother does have a temper. Especially when it comes to that rat.”
Alicia clapped her hands. "We’ve still got the Cup!”
“Absolutely,” Lee agreed, raising his mug. “To Gryffindor—still champions, still brilliant!”
“Now all that’s left is snagging the House Cup,” Angelina declared, her eyes gleaming with ambition.
“We’re neck and neck with Slytherin,” Vera reminded her. “If we keep racking up points and they trip up, it’s ours.”
“Then we stick to the plan,” Alicia agreed, before shooting Vera a sly smile. “By the way, I’m shocked Snape didn’t skin you alive for torching his desk, Vee.”
Vera scratched at the back of her neck. “Yeah… weirdly, he was fine with it. Even before I said sorry.”
Kenny sighed. “I’m still worried about Frey’s class. He’s getting stricter by the day.”
“And snippier,” Angelina added darkly. “It feels like he’s just waiting to pounce.”
“Not waiting,” Lee said. “He is pouncing. He’s docking points left and right. Doesn’t hate us all though—seems to have a soft spot for Vera.”
Vera blinked in surprise but said nothing, fiddling with the hem of her sleeve.
“We just have to be perfect,” Alicia reasoned. “Don’t give him an opening. If we hold steady, the Cup is ours.”
One by one, the group nodded, their laughter fading into a quiet determination as the fire cracked in agreement.
Monday, May 28, 1990
The next morning, the Gryffindors filed into Frey’s class with the grim focus of soldiers before a battle. Notebooks straight, quills poised, spines stiff; they were determined not to slip. When Frey swept in, the room seemed to chill by several degrees. He launched straight into the lesson, his voice clipped and cold.
They exchanged wary glances. Perfect, they’d promised each other. No mistakes.
But perfection was impossible under Frey’s gaze.
George was the first casualty. His inkwell tipped, a blot blooming across his parchment.
“Five points from Gryffindor for clumsiness, Weasley,” Frey snapped.
George froze, shoulders hunched under the weight of his friends'' accusing stares.
“We said perfect,” Alicia hissed from across the aisle.
“Another five points from Gryffindor for unnecessary chatter,” Frey declared without even looking up.
A ripple of horror swept through the Gryffindors. Ten points, gone in under five minutes.
Meanwhile, the Slytherins whispered and snickered openly, their quills scratching lazy doodles. Frey noticed nothing—or chose not to. Vera’s jaw tightened, but she forced her eyes back to her parchment. To speak was to bleed more points.
Angelina dared to raise her hand, steady and polite, but Frey’s response was a scathing glare.
“Ten points from Gryffindor for insolence, Johnson. I will not tolerate disrespect in my classroom.”
Vera’s insides screamed. Insolence? They’d lost twenty points already, and the hour wasn’t half over.
Then came the paper bird.
Adrian flicked his wand with practiced ease, conjuring a parchment sparrow that darted through the air, pecking at heads to the delight of his cronies.
Frey’s head snapped up. “Who is responsible for this?”
Vera expected Adrian to smirk, to admit it with his usual arrogance. Instead, he sat back, lips sealed, his gang following suit. The bird fluttered a final loop before alighting—of all places—on Kenny’s desk.
“So. It was you, boy?”
Kenny blanched. “N-no, sir, it wasn’t—”
“Twenty points from Gryffindor.”
The Gryffindors gasped. Forty points in one stroke—gone. With only a month left in the school year, it was a wound that would never heal. Angelina teetered on the brink of tears, Kenny was already sobbing. Fred and George burned with fury while Alicia bowed her head in quiet defeat.
But Vera's mind jolted into overdrive.
“It was me, sir,” she blurted, her voice cutting through the silence. “I made the bird, not Kenny.”
Gasps again, sharper this time.
Frey’s eyes narrowed, weighing her with cold calculation. He wouldn’t dare strike her openly—not with her name—but he had other weapons.
“Did you now?” His smirk crawled across his face. “Then prove it.”
“Shite,” she breathed.
Of course. He knew about the blood poisoning. He knew that a real attempt would end with a nosebleed, and there she stood, perfectly clean.
“Make another bird,” he pressed, enjoying the flush rising in her cheeks.
The class leaned forward, waiting, but she didn’t even know the animation charm.
“Just as I thought.” Frey smirked. “Don’t play the hero, Miss Black. They’re not worth bleeding for.”
The words sliced deeper than she wanted to admit. She clenched her jaw, fury simmering, while Kenny wept and the Poshlanders pounced.
“Look at his face!” Miles cackled, and the laughter caught like wildfire.
"Careful there, ketchup," Adrian mocked. "Or you'll burst and stain us."
But it wasn’t Miles, or Adrian’s jibe, that hollowed her chest. It was Jane’s laugh—clear, cruel, and sharp as broken glass.
That was it. The house cup was lost, the war already over. There was nothing left to lose.
She shoved her books into her bag, stood, and crossed the room. Conversations died mid-breath; even the Poshlanders fell silent as she dropped into the empty seat beside Tommy.
“What are you doing?” he hissed, wide-eyed.
Frey turned to investigate the cause of the sudden gasps, only to find Vera seated on the opposite side of the room.
“Miss Black, what do you think you’re doing?”
“I couldn’t see the board from over there, sir.”
“…From the front row?”
She swallowed. “It’s the lighting. Better here.”
“The lighting,” he repeated flatly. He set his book down, removed his glasses, and cleared his throat. "Miss Black, I suggest you return to your seat immediately."
She swallowed again, sensing her friends' silent pleas for her to relent. Maddie shook her head, and Tommy discreetly kicked her leg beneath the table, but she remained resolute.
“No.”
The word detonated in the classroom. Nobody—ever—had dared say it before.
“…Pardo—”
“I said NO.”
Frey’s composure flickered. “Did you just say no to me?”
“I don’t want to sit there. I want to sit here.”
“In this class, you follow my rules!” His voice cracked like a whip, but she heard the strain beneath.
Her pulse roared in her ears. Her palms were damp under her gloves. But the rage burning in her chest shoved the fear aside.
“Well,” she said, every word sharp enough to cut, “your rules are stupid.”
Gasps burst through the room like shattering glass.
Frey’s eyes went glacial. “Excuse me?”
“Are you deaf?" She scoffed. "I said your rules are stupid—and so are you.”
Chapter 19: Charlie
Summary:
Exams are coming, heads are aching, and Vera's nerves are fraying. But when the beloved Gryffindor headboy is framed for a crime he clearly didn't commit, her curiosity turns reckless.
Chapter Text
Friday, June 1, 1990
“Do you dare me?”
Percy pinched the bridge of his nose. “Lee, we don’t have time for—”
“Okay, but do you dare me?”
“Dare you to do what?”
“To climb that shelf and perch on top.”
Percy gave him a flat look. “Hmm, let me consult my soul… absolutely not.”
“Honestly, how you share blood with Fred and George is beyond me.”
“Trust me, I ask myself the same question daily. Sarah—stop strangling Scabbers.”
Sarah blinked at the rat in her hands. “Did you know he’s missing a toe?”
“Yes, I did. Thank you for the reminder. Now, back to—”
“Can I hold him?” Vera cut in, eyes sparkling. “I’ve never held a rat before.”
“Everyone, please, focus!”
The third-year Weasley had made the grave mistake of volunteering to tutor first-years. Within minutes, the library table had transformed into a battlefield of parchment scraps, ink splotches, enchanted paper planes, and one increasingly harassed rat.
“I don’t think your rat likes me, Percy,” Vera muttered, squinting at the squirming creature.
“Maybe you’re squeezing him too much,” Kenny suggested.
“No, I’m gentle. He’s just being a naughty little bitch.”
“Language, Vera!” Percy barked.
She blinked innocently. “Oh right, he’s a boy.”
“I meant no swearing!”
“I know what you meant,” she said sweetly, handing Scabbers back to Sarah with a wink.
“Vera, how can you be this calm?" Angelina groaned. "Exams are, like, tomorrow.”
“It’s my little secret, Angie.” Vera smiled serenely, the bitter aftertaste of willow bark tea still clinging to her tongue.
“No, really,” Tommy piped up. “If I had detention every day with Frey, I'd go bonkers.”
Vera shrugged. “It’s honestly not that bad.”
“ENOUGH chit-chat!” Percy thundered, slamming his book shut. “LEE JORDAN—GET DOWN FROM THERE!”
“Hey, where are Fred and George?” Alicia asked, peering between the shelves.
“They always vanish,” Maddie replied with a shrug.
“It’s almost like they’re wizards or something,” Vera deadpanned, cracking herself up.
Cedric gave her a look. “I think she’s already gone bonkers.”
“That’s it!” Percy shot to his feet, his chair screeching against the floor. “If you’re not here to study, I’m leaving.”
“No!” Angelina grabbed his sleeve. “We need you!”
“Stay, please,” Alicia begged. “I’m still two chapters behind in Astronomy.”
Percy hesitated, then sat back down like he was lowering himself into a trap. “Fine. But absolutely no more nonsense.”
“We promise, Percy,” Maddie said solemnly.
“Yeah, Percy,” Vera chimed in sweetly, then leaned toward Sarah, who was still cradling Scabbers like a prized heirloom. “Hey, Sarah?”
“Mm?”
“Is that the beetle Maddie and I gave you for your birthday?”
Sarah glanced down at the green beetle-shaped brooch pinned to her sweater. “Yes, it is.”
“Poor thing,” Vera sighed. “Survived Mrs. Norris, and Filch’s dungeon... just to end up as jewelry.”
“Vera,” Alicia cut in, “don’t you have detention with Professor Frey right now?”
Vera froze mid-smirk. “…Oh, buggers.”
Quickly sweeping her things into her bag, she hurried off to Professor Frey’s office, her new evening haunt ever since she’d called him 'stupid' in front of the class. For that slip of the tongue, Gryffindor had been slapped with a thirty-point deduction, dropping them to fourth place in the House Cup, and Vera had earned nightly detentions with the professor until term’s end.
The punishment should’ve stung, but instead it sparked awe. Her housemates, long past caring about Gryffindor’s chances at winning, admired her nerve. Even older students gave her subtle nods of respect when she passed. She soaked in the attention, striding through the corridors like a knight returning from battle, punishment be damned.
And oddly enough, Frey hadn’t stayed furious. His fear of her family had quickly eclipsed his outrage, leaving him wary, deferential, even… kind.
“Sorry I’m late, Professor,” she said breezily as she entered. “Got caught up studying in the library.”
“It’s quite alright, Miss Black,” he said with a small, careful smile.
“If it’s all the same to you, I’d like to leave early tonight."
“Of course,” he said quickly. “Er—by the way, did you… ah… send my letter to your aunt?”
“I did,” she lied smoothly. In truth, she’d fed the letter straight to the fireplace the moment he’d handed it to her. “But she’s very busy these days. I wouldn’t expect a reply anytime soon.”
“Well… as long as she received it.”
She forced a polite smile as she slid into the chair opposite his desk. She pulled out her notebook, immediately drifting into idle doodles. He rarely gave her any real work during these so-called detentions.
“Your aunt, Lady Cassiopeia, was quite a remarkable woman,” Frey mused, reclining until his chair groaned under him. “Not only wise, but widely regarded as the epitome of beauty in the wizarding world.”
Suppressing an eye roll, Vera nodded as though she’d heard it all before.
“And I’m sure she still is!” He added hastily, panic flickering in his eyes.
“Indeed,” Vera said smoothly. She had no idea what Cassiopeia even looked like.
“And how is the Crow King these days?”
“Um…”
“Lord Pollux,” he clarified eagerly. “I trust he is well?”
She’d heard only scraps about Pollux—grim tales from Mrs. Wriggleshore, whispered with the kind of relish reserved for monsters and scandal. Beyond that, he was just another shadow with a ridiculous name.
“He’s doing remarkably well,” she lied with practiced ease. “Couldn’t be better.”
“Ah, splendid. Since your family relocated to France, contact has been… limited. I haven’t heard a whisper about the Crow King since the party’s—ah—unjust downfall.”
"He tends to keep to himself these days, taking care of his... um, ah, birds?"
“Indeed,” Frey said reverently. “What a commanding presence he had. A stalwart figure. I’m certain he’ll restore the party’s glory soon.”
Vera nodded in time with his words, her quill scratching half-hearted spirals across the page. One day it was Cygnus, the next Arcturus. If her family tree was a forest, it was one overgrown with maniacs who collected sinister titles like trading cards.
“Is Yaxley not joining us today?” she asked, trying to steer the conversation away from the family-name parade.
“He should be,” Frey muttered, checking his pocket watch.
Vera's disdain for Trevor Yaxley was no secret. The seventh-year Slytherin had not only assaulted Charlie but also exuded an air of snobbery and repulsiveness that grated on her nerves.
She did her utmost to ignore him during their shared detentions in Frey's office. Fortunately, this wasn't too difficult, as he seemed more preoccupied with playing wizarding chess than with her presence. Over time, she had gleaned tidbits about his life: a Ministry job waiting, a father with a seat at the ‘Six’ table, and a cologne drenched in whiskey fumes.
As Frey continued his nostalgic ramblings about the dark lord's bygone era, she attempted to tune him out by focusing on her doodling. However, her concentration was shattered as Yaxley burst into the room, his presence jolting them both.
“I can’t take this any longer!” He snapped.
“Mr. Yaxley, please—” Frey began.
“No!” Yaxley cut him off. “You promised to sort this out with him!”
“I’ve done all I can—”
“You haven’t done nearly enough. I will destroy you, Frey. Do you understand me?”
“Trevor, please,” Frey pleaded, and there was real fear in the plea now. “Let’s step outside.”
Yaxley ran a hand through his dark hair, then stormed out with Frey stumbling to follow.
“Miss Black, if you’ll excuse us,” the professor said over his shoulder.
Vera gave a small, amused nod, left alone with her doodles and the faint aftertaste of someone else’s whiskey. But as the door clicked shut, her curiosity prickled sharper than any sense of caution. She rose from her chair and crept to the door, ear tilted toward the narrow gap. The voices outside bled through, low and heated, until Yaxley’s temper tore clarity into the air.
“I want him ruined!”
“I’ll… I’ll find a solution,” Frey stammered.
“You said that last time. Look where it got us.”
“It’s… complicated.”
“No, it’s not. I am the best, so I have to look the best. If I don’t secure first place, my father will see to it you never teach again. You have one week, Frey. No excuses.”
With those final words, he strode away, leaving Frey visibly shaken and overwhelmed. Vera quickly retreated to her seat, pretending to engross herself in her notebook as Frey returned to the office, his complexion noticeably pale.
“That will be all for tonight, Miss Black,” he murmured. “You may leave.”
She nodded, shoving her things into her bag with unusual haste. As she stepped into the corridor, her thoughts whirred like restless cogs. Yaxley’s threats, Frey’s fear... they begged for unraveling. But exams loomed like thunderclouds, demanding all her attention. For now, the mystery would have to simmer at the edges of her mind.
Sunday, June 3, 1990
The weekend before exams hit Hogwarts like a tidal wave of panic. The library was bursting at the seams, every desk buried under parchment and groaning students. Vera, however, looked the most likely to combust.
While others perfected spellwork, she was still tripping over the basics, and her lingering blood poisoning wasn’t helping. Just as the looming exams threatened to crush her, McGonagall swooped in with unexpected mercy: She was excused from the practicals. Only theory.
But relief was short-lived. She was just as hopeless at theory, and Snape had chosen this exact week to cancel their practice sessions, cutting off her precious supply of willow bark. Without her painkiller, focus became a fantasy. Caffeine, sugar, and colour-coded notes all failed her. Instead of revising History of Magic, she doodled in the margins and brushed her hair like the world’s most frantic housecat.
By the end of the night, her nerves had frayed to threads. She collapsed onto her bed, textbook slipping from her hands, and glared up at the enchanted stars above.
“I could just tell Madam Pomfrey I’ve got a headache,” she muttered to Vinny, her stuffed cat. “But then she’ll ask if I used magic, and I’ll get another lecture.”
She rolled onto her side, still negotiating with the toy. “A stomach ache? No, you’re right—she’d never hand out willow bark for that.”
Hours of failed revision and tossing about later, desperation won out. If Pomfrey wouldn’t give her the painkiller, she’d just nick it herself. One quick trip, one little theft, and maybe she’d stand a chance in exams.
The clock read nearly 1 a.m. Alicia and Angie were long asleep when Vera slipped on her shoes and crept out. The common room was still and dark, her footsteps soft against the rug. However, just as she neared the exit, a familiar voice sliced through the stillness.
“Vera?”
Her heart skipped a beat. She spun to see Charlie sprawled on the floor, half-buried in books, wandlight painting him in gold. But what really snagged her attention was the cigarette glowing between his fingers.
“Charlie?” she blurted, eyes darting between him and the haze.
He glanced up, smirk playing at his lips as he exhaled a ghostly ribbon of smoke. “And where exactly are you off to?”
"I, uh… was sleepwalking.”
“In shoes? That’s ambitious.”
Her gaze flicked back to the cigarette. “You’re smoking?”
“Stress relief,” he said with a shrug. “Not exactly a habit I’m proud of. Keep it between us?”
She couldn’t help but be fascinated; this was a side of Charlie she hadn’t expected—so different from the responsible prefect everyone looked up to.
"Your secret’s safe with me," she replied, a smile tugging at her lips.
“Now, truth. Where were you going?”
“The hospital wing,” she admitted.
His expression softened instantly. “Are you alright?”
“Just a headache.”
“I’ll come with you.”
“No, really.” She waved her hands in protest. “I’m fine now.”
He gave her a look. “Is that so?”
Her shoulders sagged. “Am I in trouble?”
With one last drag, he crushed the cigarette against the floor and vanished the ashes with a flick of his wand.
"Relax," he said, "I’m not hauling you to McGonagall."
The knot in her chest loosened. That was Charlie—never nosy, never judgmental. He even knew about her letters to the Muggle world and had never breathed a word. Whether out of respect or sheer indifference, she was grateful all the same.
She nodded toward the chaos of parchment around him. “Studying for NEWTs?”
“Trying to. Fell asleep, woke up… And now, well, here I am. Smoking like an idiot."
“They’re next week, aren’t they?”
“Yeah. Yours are first, though.”
“You’ll be fine. Plenty of time.”
“You always this optimistic, Vera?”
“Only when I’m not sleepwalking.”
That earned a warm chuckle. “Fair enough. How about you? Nervous?”
Her eyes dropped to the floor.
“Don’t stress,” he said gently. “They’re just numbers on parchment. They won’t bite.”
She looked up, a small smile breaking through. “I suppose you’re right.”
“Course I am.” He winked. “Now off to bed before I write you up for aiding and abetting.”
Friday, June 8, 1990
By the time exams began, Vera’s nerves had curdled into full-blown dread. Every subject felt like a battlefield, and she was losing ground in most. The one exception was Potions, where she not only held her own but outshone expectations. Snape’s rare approving nod was proof enough.
But Potions was a lonely victory. In Transfiguration, Charms, and Defense, her wand refused to keep pace. Professors, sympathetic but firm, handed her quills instead of practicals. It was kinder, but stung all the same. Ink on parchment could never match the sparks her classmates conjured with ease.
“Flitwick nearly applauded my Reparo,” Fred boasted.
“Ha! McGonagall was speechless when I nailed my teacup-to-toad,” Lee countered.
“Transfiguration was brutal,” Alicia admitted. “But Charms? Easy.”
Angelina’s eyes landed on Vera, who sat quiet, prodding at her food. “And you, Vera?”
She summoned a small smile. “I managed.”
Her voice held steady, but her eyes betrayed her. Appetite gone, she toyed with her food, her thoughts circling a cruel refrain.
Would this be her forever? A witch who couldn’t mend or levitate, who couldn’t conjure fire or heal a wound without blood spilling from her nose and pain splitting her skull? A witch who couldn’t even touch another without her cursed hands hurting them?
No. Not a witch at all... just a bearer of curses.
A tear slid from her lashes, vanishing into her untouched meal.
When she finally glanced up, she caught Felix watching her from down the table. For once, he wasn’t pretending she didn’t exist. His eyes urged her down, sharp and insistent.
Puzzled, she lowered her gaze just in time to see a paper plane glide against her leg. She snatched it quickly, unfolding the parchment under the the table.
Omni luci est umbra.
She frowned, shaking her head. But Felix’s stare pressed her to look again. The words shimmered, then shifted:
There is a shadow to every light.
Her lips curved despite herself. She looked up, ready to share the smile with him, but he had already turned away. Still, the message lingered, warm against the hollow ache in her chest.
Even in secrecy, their friendship gave her something she hadn’t felt all week: hope.
She resumed her meal, engaging in conversation with her friends, when suddenly, an unexpected interruption shattered the tranquility of the moment.
"Percy! Percy!" Kenny's urgent cry echoed through the Great Hall, drawing the attention of the Gryffindor table.
All eyes turned to the distressed boy as he hurried toward them, his breaths labored with anxiety.
"Percy, you have to come," he gasped out. "It's your brother Charlie. They're saying he got caught cheating on a quiz!"
The table erupted, disbelief rippling through the students. Percy shot to his feet, the twins right behind him.
Left in the wake of their departure, the others sat stunned. Charlie Weasley—of all people—accused of cheating?
By the time classes let out, the castle was buzzing. Everyone wanted the latest on him. Vera rushed with the others to the common room, only to find Percy and the twins already there, faces flushed, anger simmering.
“It’s absolute rubbish!” Fred spat, pacing furiously.
“What actually happened?” Lee asked.
“Frey claims Charlie had a page from the book under his desk,” Percy bit out.
George slammed his fist on the arm of a chair. “He’d never cheat. He doesn’t need to.”
“And why would Frey spring a quiz two days before NEWTs?” Felix demanded.
“Because he’s deranged,” Percy snapped.
“Where’s Charlie now?” Alicia asked.
“Still with McGonagall,” George muttered. “Trying to clear it up.”
Fred shook his head, furious. “It won’t matter. Frey won’t budge.”
“What will they do to him?” Vera’s voice slipped out, softer but sharp with worry.
Percy looked at her, eyes hard with anger but weighted with grief. “Frey wants him barred from sitting his NEWTs.”
The common room fell silent, heavy with disbelief. Charlie—the golden headboy, Hogwarts’ brightest student—facing ruin. His dream of dragon training dangled on a thread.
Even the twin, usually brimming with mischief, now teetered on the edge of tears. Despite the Weasley brothers' penchant for playful banter and teasing, Vera couldn't help but discern the depth of their love for each other.
That evening, on her way to Frey’s office for detention, her mind churned with questions she couldn’t quiet. Knocking on the door, she cautiously entered, only to find Frey slumped over his desk, with a book, ‘Lethal Dragonflies’ clutched in his hands. The pungent scent of alcohol permeated the chamber, and her irritation flared at the sight of a half-empty bottle of whiskey on his desk. With an eye-roll, she turned on her heel, ready to leave him to his stupor.
But just past the threshold, an idea struck.
She slipped back inside, silent as shadow. His snores rattled steady as she rifled through the chaos on his desk—quizzes, essays, half-marked parchment. She began to sift, her fingers brushing paper after paper, searching with the precision of someone who didn’t know what they sought but knew, instinctively, that it was hidden somewhere close.
Minutes passed. Nothing. Just the mundane, the expected, the tedious. Her frustration mounted, tightening her jaw, until she nearly abandoned the effort altogether. And then, like a cold finger tracing her spine, the realization struck her.
The answers wouldn’t be found on parchment. Not in ink. Not here on the desk, no matter how many pages she scoured.
They would be in him.
It came like a whisper, faint and treacherous, the kind of thought that sneaks up uninvited yet refuses to let go once it takes root. Inspiration—or temptation, perhaps—struck her with sudden clarity.
But her stomach twisted at the thought. She knew what it meant. She knew what she was considering, what she was on the verge of doing. To cross such a line would not only be reckless but invasive, a trespass on the most personal ground one could imagine. Her conscience flared, whispering warnings, tugging at her hand, begging her to turn away before it was too late.
But then came the counterweight: every insult, every injustice, every gleam of cruelty in Frey’s eyes replayed itself in her memory like sparks catching tinder. Her friends had suffered because of him. She had suffered because of him. And if he was indeed tethered to something far worse, then the cost of her hesitation could outweigh the sin of her intrusion.
With trembling fingers, she pulled the glove from her right hand, feeling the chill of the room against her bare skin. Her heart hammered louder than the ticking of the clock on the far wall, each beat reminding her there was still time to stop. Still time to walk away.
She didn’t.
Biting down on her fear, she reached out, her palm hovering for the briefest of moments above his hand before lowering onto it. His skin was warm, the touch wrong in ways that made her shiver.
And then it began.
Pain ripped through her skull, sharp and merciless. Her knees buckled, but she clung to the contact with sheer will. The taste of iron filled her mouth, bitter and metallic, as though her very blood protested the act. Fatigue poured over her in suffocating waves, threatening to drag her down into unconsciousness. Yet still she pressed forward, clenching her jaw, sharpening her focus.
She forced herself to burrow past the agony, to push deeper, deeper, until the haze of his mind began to unravel before her. Images flickered, scattered fragments of thought and memory tumbling around her like shards of broken glass. She seized them, piecing together the fragments, pushing aside the noise until clarity began to form.
And then, through the storm of Frey’s mind, the truth emerged.
Ignoring the pulsating ache in her head, she raced back to the Gryffindor common room with a single-minded purpose driving her forward. The journey felt like a blur, her determination propelling her forward despite the disorientation engulfing her senses. Bursting in, she found Percy and the twin still there, their frustration palpable.
"Where's Charlie?" she gasped out, her voice strained with urgency.
"Dad arrived to handle things.” Percy replied. “They're at Dumbledore's office."
"Take me there!"
Without hesitation, Percy and the twin sprang to their feet, their own anxiety mirrored in her urgency. Together, they raced through the winding corridors, their footsteps echoing in the stillness. Vera’s head throbbed, but her resolve burned hotter than the pain. She would see the truth exposed.
At last, the stone gargoyle loomed before them. A quick glance passed between them, then the heavy door creaked open. Inside, the air was thick with tension. Dumbledore and McGonagall stood stern and silent, while Charlie and his father faced them, voices taut with strain
"How can Frey have such authority?" Mr. Weasley demanded, his features contorted with fury.
"I'm afraid all the professors have the power to withhold exams from students caught cheating." McGonagall explained.
"With all due respect, Professor, you know Charlie would never stoop to such deceit. You've taught him for seven years, for Merlin's sake! He's always been an exemplary student, and you know it."
"I understand your concerns, Mr. Weasley," McGonagall replied solemnly. "But I was not the one who imposed this punishment. Regrettably, I am unable to sway Professor Frey's decision, despite my fervent desire to do so."
Tension thickened the air as the group entered, their sudden presence drawing curious gazes from those already assembled.
"What are you all doing here?" Charlie asked.
"Vera has something to say," Fred exclaimed, breathless with urgency.
Charlie's brow furrowed. "Vera?"
"Charlie didn't cheat," she gasped out, her words cutting through the mounting tension.
McGonagall sighed. "Miss Black, this is not the time for—"
"I can prove it!"
All eyes turned to her, a collective sense of anticipation hanging in the air as they awaited her revelation.
"Please, Miss Black," Mr. Weasley said, his voice laced with kindness. "If you truly have evidence, share it with us."
Vera steadied herself, mustering the courage to speak despite the turmoil within her.
"He did not cheat," she repeated, her voice firm with conviction. "Professor Frey is lying. He planted the paper under Charlie's desk. I... um... I overheard him talking to someone about it!"
As she spoke, a droplet of blood trickled from her nose. Hastily, she wiped it away, but the gesture did not go unnoticed by Dumbledore, who wore a knowing smile.
"I'm afraid hearsay is not sufficient evidence, Vera," he interjected. "We cannot levy accusations against Professor Frey without tangible proof."
"Tangible?" she echoed.
He got up from his desk, moving closer to her. "Is there anything you can recall? Anything at all?”
"I... I don't know..."
"Try, Vera," he encouraged with a subtle wink of understanding.
Her mind whirled with possibilities, each more daunting than the last. But amidst the chaos of her thoughts, a glimmer of realization surfaced.
"There is one thing," she finally admitted. “But, I’m not sure about it, sir.”
With a nod, Dumbledore bent toward her, lowering himself to her level. She whispered the truth into his ear, her words barely audible.
His eyes lit with quiet realization as his fingers stroked through his beard. “Percy, fetch Mr. Filch, if you please.”
Percy hurried off with the twins, returning moments later with Filch and his ever-watchful cat. After a hushed exchange with Dumbledore, the caretaker departed and soon returned, Frey in tow. The professor reeked of whiskey, his robes disheveled, his scowl already fixed in place.
“Still clinging to this farce, Weasley?” he sneered, eyes trained on Charlie while conspicuously ignoring his father. “My ruling is final. The punishment stands.”
“Harkin,” Dumbledore’s calm voice cut through the tension. “We have evidence you framed Mr. Weasley for cheating.”
Frey’s eyes darted wildly before landing on Vera, confusion flashing across his features.
“What is this nonsense?” he barked, spittle spraying with each word.
Dumbledore only gestured to Filch, who stepped forward and offered him a worn leather-bound book: Advanced Dark Defense.
“Is this book yours, Harkin?” He asked.
Sweat broke on Frey’s brow as he gave a reluctant nod.
Without a word, Dumbledore opened the volume and turned its pages slowly, the silence of the room thickening with every turn. At last, his fingers paused on a jagged edge inside the book. He drew out the loose scrap Charlie had been accused of using, and with deliberate precision, laid it against the torn page. The two pieces aligned perfectly—an undeniable match.
“You son of a bitch,” Charlie growled, his fury boiling over as he lunged at Frey. “You bloody framed me!”
Mr. Weasley and Percy restrained him, holding him back.
Frey paled, sweat beading at his temples under Dumbledore’s steady gaze.
“This is outrageous!” he barked. “Weasley must have stolen my book and staged this charade!”
Dumbledore’s voice remained calm. “We have more than this, Harkin. Miss Black overheard your intentions.”
Frey’s eyes flicked to Vera, fear flickering there. To call her a liar would risk the wrath of her family. His lips pressed into a tight, bitter line.
“I will not probe your motives," Dumbledore continued. "But your time at Hogwarts has ended. You will have one week to settle your affairs. And before you go, you will offer Mr. Weasley an apology.”
Vera’s mind buzzed with the recent events as she made her way out of the office with Fred and George, who were discussing the absurdity of Frey's tactics.
"Can you believe that idiot?" Fred exclaimed, shaking his head in disbelief. "He can’t even come up with a clever idea to frame someone for cheating!"
“Tell me about it,” George nodded in agreement. "We could've come up with a hundred idea that are far more inventive."
"Hey, Vera," Charlie approached her with a grateful smile. "I just wanted to thank you for what you did back there. It means a lot to me."
Vera returned his smile, her cheeks blushing red.
“But I have to ask,” He continued. “How did you know about the book?"
She hesitated for a moment before answering, "I... I searched Frey's office. I couldn't say anything, I was afraid of getting into trouble."
His eyes widened in understanding, and he placed a reassuring hand on her shoulder. “I really appreciate you doing all of that for me.”
As they exchanged a brief smile, a weighty truth lingered on her conscience.
"Charlie," she began hesitantly. "It was Yaxley. He asked Frey to ruin you so he could be top of the class. I overheard their conversation during our detention. They didn't mention your name, but when the news broke, I knew it had to be him."
Charlie's expression shifted, a mixture of disappointment and understanding crossing his features. "I suspected as much, but it helps to have confirmation."
"Are you going to fight him?"
He grinned, calm as ever. "Sometimes, the most effective way to deal with those kind of people is to confront them with what they fear the most, rather than resorting to violence."
"And what do they fear the most?"
"Our resilience."
Chapter 20: The Lost Child
Summary:
The school year closes with medals, disappointments, and secrets. But as summer dawns, Vera finds herself haunted not by grades or house rivalries, but by the question of whose stories get remembered, and whose are erased.
Chapter Text
"Allow me to extend my congratulations to Ryujin Avery for achieving the top position in Charms."
"I wish to commend Mr. Avery for his exceptional performance this year. He has claimed first place in Transfiguration."
"And it comes as no surprise that the leading student in Defense Against the Dark Arts is, once again, Mr. Ryujin Avery."
"Blimey," Vera muttered, rolling her eyes.
When the exam results were unveiled, the hall buzzed with the usual mixture of relief, dread, and thinly veiled envy. Rising above the crowd was Ryu Avery, the meticulous Ravenclaw whose name had been engraved into the top spots of Transfiguration, Charms, and Defense Against the Dark Arts. His peers could only look on, torn between admiration and the faint urge to hex him under the table.
Yet, brilliance wasn’t confined to one boy alone. From Hufflepuff’s corner came Cedric Diggory, the quiet overachiever, who claimed History of Magic and Herbology. And then there was Roger Davies of Ravenclaw, staking his claim in the heavens themselves with a stellar victory in Astronomy.
But when it came to Potions—universally regarded as one of the most brutal subjects—everyone braced themselves for impact.
"I'm sure I've failed," Lee whispered, gnawing at his lip.
"You're not alone," Kenny muttered. "I completely botched the practical."
Of course, Professor Snape, ever the sadist, refused to make it quick. He postponed the results until the very end of the week… only to delay them further until the very end of class. While tension boiled like an overbrewed cauldron, he droned on about next year’s curriculum, clearly savoring every second of collective dread.
When he finally began, it was never random. No, Snape had a system—start with the failures, work his way up. Maximum humiliation.
He called names with disdain curling off his tongue. Malika dissolved into sobs. Jane sniffled into Miles’ shoulder. Adrian hissed like a cornered snake. Eudora cursed softly in French. Lee, against all odds, perked up. "Not as bad as I thought," he said, sounding almost cheerful.
Fred whooped and slapped George a victorious high-five. Cedric’s frown suggested he was already plotting to do better. Miles looked far too smug for anyone’s liking. Roger, on the other hand, stared at his paper as though it had personally killed his favourite movie star.
At last, only three students remained, and the air grew taut. Snape, unbothered, strolled forward and handed a parchment to Ryu, who scowled at the indignity of third place.
Next, with the elegance of a knife twisting in a wound, he delivered the second paper to Cassius.
Which meant—
"Miss Black, you have earned the highest mark among your peers. Well done."
It was the sort of “well done” that suggested he’d rather swallow flobberworms whole than admit it.
Despite her disappointment in most of her exam results, Vera found a rare, glowing sense of fulfillment in finally excelling at something. For once, she wasn’t just scraping by, she was at the top. The victory tasted even sweeter when she caught sight of Cassius’ sour expression. Outshining him, she realized, was far more satisfying than topping the class.
"Did you see his face?" she laughed, linking arms with Angelina and Alicia as they exited the lab. "He looked like someone set fire to his hair."
"Don’t get too smug, Vee," Angelina teased. "He still trounced you in everything else."
"Yeah," Alicia added with a smirk. "Fourth overall in the year, remember?"
"You two are a nightmare," Vera sighed dramatically. But before she could launch into another quip, a voice called her name from behind.
The three turned to find the Poshlanders approaching, Cassius striding at the front like he owned the damn castle.
"Congratulations," he said smoothly, flashing a smile.
Vera tilted her head. "Oh, congratulations, is it? That almost sounded painful for you."
Angelina and Alicia stiffened beside her, sensing the sparks.
"I mean it," Cassius pressed on. "You did really well on the exam."
"Thanks for the news," she smirked. "In case I’d missed the part where Snape handed me the paper."
Cassius faltered, clearly thrown off, before clearing his throat. "Anyway, we were thinking—"
"Thinking? Warrington, I didn’t know you had that skill," she cut in sweetly, folding her arms. "Go on, I’m intrigued."
He glanced back at his group for reassurance, then tried again. "We were thinking maybe you should spend more time with us next year. With people who understand your true potential. That way you could excel in other subjects, not just Potions."
"My true potential?" she echoed, arching a brow.
"We just think you’d benefit from being around others who are more..." His eyes flicked to Angie and Alicia before returning to her. "...like you."
"You mean people who think they’re better than everyone else."
"We are better than everyone else," Adrian chimed in smugly.
"How adorable," she said sweetly. "So tell me, Warrington. What changed your mind about me?" She then turned her eyes to Jane, who nervously avoided her gaze. "Did your daddy write to you asking to befriend me too?"
Cassius’ jaw clenched at the mention of his father, his hand twitching at his side. But before he could spit a retort, Miles stepped in with a lazy drawl.
"Suit yourself, Black. We were only trying to be nice."
Her eyes flashed. "Don’t call me Black. And keep your charity for someone who gives a damn."
She turned to leave, but froze when her gaze collided with Ryu’s. For the briefest second, something unreadable flickered in his expression.
"Fix your face, Avery," she said flatly, before spinning on her heel and storming off, Angelina and Alicia flanking her.
By the time they settled down for lunch, she was stabbing her poor sandwich. “It’s like they think I’ll just forget all the rubbish they’ve chucked at me.”
“Did you clock the way he was eyeing up Angie and me?” Alicia cut in. “I was this close to smacking him right across the gob.”
“Don’t let them get under your skin, Vee.” Angelina said. “Look on the bright side, you’re a genius at Potions!”
Vera poked at a slice of cheese, unimpressed. “Yeah, and still landed in ninth place.”
“That’s not so bad,” Alicia offered.
“Easy for you to say,” Angelina shot back. “You bagged seventh.”
“Yeah,” Alicia muttered, pulling a face. “Same as Pucey. Joy of joys.”
Angelina shrugged. “Still better than tenth.”
“And did you see Jane?” Vera huffed. “Standing there like everything’s fine. Drives me mental.”
“Honestly, Vee, don’t waste your energy on those melters.”
“What’s a melter?” Fred’s voice chimed in as he and George slid into the seats beside Vera—Fred on her right, George on her left like a practiced formation.
“Poshlanders want Vera to ditch us and buddy up with them,” Angelina explained.
“Which is never happening,” Vera snapped, loud enough for the table to hear.
George grinned. “They’ve got about as much chance as catching a Niffler in Gringotts."
“Where were you two, anyway?” Angelina asked suspiciously.
“Setting a dungbomb,” they said together, far too cheerfully.
Alicia groaned. “Seriously? And you two still managed fifth place?”
“Yeah, how?” Vera asked, baffled. “You’re always mucking about with pranks. How do you even pull decent grades?”
“It’s a trade secret,” they said in perfect unison, pressing fingers to their lips.
Angelina and Alicia scoffed, veering off into a discussion about study plans. Meanwhile, Fred leaned just a little closer to Vera, lowering his voice.
“And we know your secret.”
She froze, her eyes widening as her heart skipped a beat. What secret could he possibly mean? Did they somehow know she lived in a Muggle orphanage instead of her so-called posh relatives? Had they caught wind of the blood poisoning? Or worse... Had they uncovered her Clairtangent gift, and how she’d used it on Frey to help Charlie?
Her throat tightened. “W–what secret?”
“We’ve been keeping tabs on you with the map,” George murmured.
“And we noticed you’ve been sneaking off with Snape and Madam Pomfrey every afternoon for the past three months.”
She swallowed hard, trying to keep her face neutral.
“And we know…” George let the words hang, milking the pause.
Her pulse hammered.
“…that they’ve been giving you private Potions lessons,” Fred finished, a grin tugging at his mouth.
Vera blinked. “W…what?”
George rolled his eyes. “You could’ve at least given us the heads-up.”
Relief crashed over her so fast it left her dizzy. “I—I didn’t think it was that big a deal,” she stammered, heat rising in her cheeks.
“Not a big deal?” Fred shot back. “You’re getting one-on-one coaching from the Potions Master and the school's healer.”
“No wonder you aced the exam!” George added, grinning like he’d just solved a great mystery.
Vera flushed crimson. “I just didn’t want everyone thinking I was… struggling.”
Fred shook his head. “Trust me, nobody’s gonna think that when you’re brewing like Merlin’s long-lost cousin.”
“But come on, Vee," George urged. "What’s the real reason?”
She laughed nervously. "I figured you lot would think I'm getting special treatment from them."
Fred arched an eyebrow. “Well… you are.”
“Wait—why were you spying on me in the first place?” she asked, narrowing her eyes.
“Oops,” the twins blurted together, then traded sheepish looks.
She folded her arms, eyebrow arched expectantly.
Fred cleared his throat. “Well, we were just… you know… keeping tabs. For… uh… research purposes.”
“Research!” George echoed, nodding furiously. “Very important research. Got to stay ahead of the game.”
“Research,” she repeated flatly. “Right. And by research you mean nosiness.”
The twins shared a guilty glance.
“Alright,” George admitted, “maybe a bit of both.”
She sighed, though a smile tugged at her lips. “Well, in that case, I think it’s only fair I get my turn with the map. Seems I should do some… research of my own. On YOU.”
Fred and George exchanged a quick, mischievous look, then answered in perfect unison: “Not happening.”
“Why not?”
“We’ve had a few… chats with the map.” Fred said conspiratorially.
“And it’s taught us some tricks.” George added.
“Like how to make it go blank once we’re done,”
“And how to keep ourselves hidden from it,”
“Well then, I want to hide myself too!” Vera snapped.
“That’ll cost you,” Fred teased.
“No way.”
“Come on, don’t be stingy,” George prodded. “You’re proper rich.”
“I reckon it’s only fair after you two spied on me,” she countered.
George tilted his head thoughtfully. “She’s got a point there, Freddie.”
“Yeah, Freddie,” Vera mocked. "She's got a point."
Fred groaned but relented. “Fine, fine—we’ll teach you how to vanish from the map.”
“Merci,” Vera said with a grin, taking a long sip of her drink.
“And you can hang onto the map over the summer,” George added brightly. “Might not work outside Hogwarts, but if you chat with it, it’ll spill a few secrets. Knows all sorts of tricks.”
Vera’s hand froze halfway to her mouth. The thought of Kaya catching her whispering to a scrap of parchment in the middle of the night sent a cold ripple down her spine.
She forced a casual shrug. “Nah, you two keep it. I’m good.”
She drained the rest of her drink, but it did little to wash away the weight in her chest. Because while the twins laughed and carried on, she knew there was still a far bigger problem waiting in the shadows.
After classes, she climbed the spiral staircase to Professor McGonagall’s office. The brass knocker in the shape of a lion’s head glinted in the torchlight as she rapped gently and stepped inside.
The room was as formidable as its occupant: high shelves brimming with leather-bound tomes, the faint scent of old parchment and polish hanging in the air. At the center stood a massive oak desk, its surface neatly ordered, save for a single Quidditch medal gleaming atop a stack of parchment.
To Vera’s surprise, McGonagall greeted her not with a frown but with a faint smile.
"Ah, Miss Black. Do come in. Tea?” she offered, gesturing toward a steaming pot and two delicate china cups waiting on a small side table.
“Um… yes, thank you,” Vera said, caught off guard by the stern professor’s unexpected hospitality.
They settled opposite one another, the clink of porcelain punctuating the quiet.
“I must say, Miss Black," McGonagall then said. "I was quite pleased to hear of your achievement in Potions. Top of your class is no small feat.”
A rush of pride colored Vera’s cheeks. Praise from Professor McGonagall was rare and precious.
"Thank you, Professor. I only wish I could do as well in my other subjects.”
McGonagall gave a small, understanding nod. “Every witch and wizard has their strengths. What matters is diligence, and the will to improve. Perseverance carries farther than talent alone.”
The words settled over Vera like a protective cloak. She had always admired McGonagall’s wisdom, but in that moment she felt not only guided, but genuinely seen.
“Now, what brings you to my office today?”
Vera fidgeted in her seat. “Professor… I have some concerns about taking my school books and magical stationery home. As you know, I live with Muggles, and… I’m worried about what they might think if they were to see them.”
“I see,” McGonagall murmured. “And I assume that would make completing your homework at home… difficult?”
Vera nodded. “Yes, exactly.”
“Do not worry, Vera. You may leave all your magical belongings here at Hogwarts while you’re home for the holidays. They will be kept safe until your return. As for your books, I can alter their appearance so they look like ordinary Muggle texts. That way, you can work on your homework without raising any suspicion.”
Vera’s chest warmed with gratitude. “Thank you…”
As she rose to leave, her eyes were drawn to the Quidditch medal gleaming atop McGonagall’s desk. “Did you play Quidditch, Professor?”
A nostalgic smile tugged at the corners of McGonagall’s lips. “Indeed. I was quite devoted in my younger days.”
“What position did you play?” Vera asked, leaning forward.
A hint of pride flickered in the professor’s eyes. “I was a chaser for Gryffindor. Exhilarating, I must say.”
The conversation drifted naturally to stories of her Quidditch days, Vera listening intently. Then the professor’s tone shifted, gentle yet careful.
“You know… your father was quite the Quidditch player as well.”
Vera was taken aback. “He… was?”
“Indeed. One of the best seekers Hogwarts has ever seen.”
Vera’s heart raced, a mix of wonder and longing filling her. “Did… did you teach him, too?”
“I did,” McGonagall replied. “He was exceptional—top of his class in every subject for six years, always quiet and disciplined. On the Quidditch pitch… he was remarkable.”
Vera hesitated, her mind a swirl of questions. “Professor… um… what did he look like?”
McGonagall’s gaze softened further, distant for a moment as if peering into memory. “Dark hair, shoulder-length, and piercing teal eyes… much like yours. Now that I look at you, Vera, your resemblance to him is striking.”
Vera's heart somersaulted as the words hung in the air. It was a revelation wrapped in a bittersweet veil, stirring emotions she had scarcely explored. The father she'd never met suddenly became tangible, a phantom presence haunting her thoughts.
The sting of never knowing him cut deep, leaving a void that no answer could fill. Curiosity gnawed at her like a persistent whisper, urging her to uncover the truths buried beneath layers of silence. And yet, woven into that curiosity was a seed of fear, sprouting tendrils of doubt: what if he was a stranger to love, a shadow lurking in the corners of her lineage?
That night, she was drawn to the mirror as if pulled by gravity. Trembling fingers traced the contours of her own face, short hair mimicking the style she imagined he wore. In the reflection, she sought both solace and answers, striving to bridge the chasm separating her from the enigmatic figures of her past.
Her mother, her father... strangers whose absence echoed louder than any presence could. Questions swirled in her mind, each one a dagger aimed at the heart of her identity.
What became of them? Why had they left her adrift in a world crowded with unfamiliar faces? The truth, elusive and merciless, danced just beyond her grasp, teasing her with secrets.
She was a paradox: a mosaic of contradictions that defied simple definition: strong yet fragile, wealthy yet poor, adored yet overlooked.
While the table rang with laughter and summer plans, she sat adrift, half-present, tangled in thoughts she couldn’t quite name. Around her, the chatter buzzed with Quidditch, holidays, and adventures that belonged to other people.
"Fred and I are gonna train like maniacs over the hols," George said. "Mark my words, we’ll make the team next year."
Alicia’s grin was instant. "I’ll be in England with my da. He’s promised a summer full of Quidditch drills as well."
"Ooh, no Tommy for two whole months?" Fred teased.
George doubled down, and Alicia swatted them away, her blush betraying her smirk.
"My gran’s again," Kenny groaned. "Knitting, tea, and small talk. Wish I could swap with Maddie—she’s sailing the Atlantic like royalty."
"A cruise?" Lee gawked.
"Yep. Posh as it gets," Kenny muttered.
"What about you, Vera?" Alicia asked.
She kept her tone casual. "Oh, nothing fancy. Just home."
"Nothing fancy?" Fred’s eyebrow shot up. "Vee, you live in a bloody castle. Don’t tell me you’ve not got a battalion of house elves polishing your tiara collection."
"Yeah," Lee added. "Bet they even iron your socks."
The table erupted again, and Vera forced a laugh, though her smile pinched at the edges. Their jokes weren’t cruel, not really, but each one pressed against the fragile wall she’d built. She longed to drop the act, to tell them the truth and breathe easy—but fear kept her gagged. Better the mask of a girl with secrets than the risk of them seeing her as nothing at all.
Just as she was about to mumble some vague excuse, Dumbledore’s voice swept over the Hall.
“This year has been a testament to the resilience and strength of our collective character,” he began, his words steady as the tide.
Vera latched onto his voice like a rope thrown into deep water, letting the cadence soothe her frayed nerves.
“Now, as we prepare to bid farewell to another year filled with memories and milestones, we stand upon the edge of one final moment of celebration... the awarding of the House Cup.”
Excited murmurs rippled through the Hall, quills were tucked away, robes shuffled, and the room seemed to lean forward as one.
“But remember,” Dumbledore continued, “victory is but one measure, and never the truest. What matters most are the kindnesses we share, the friendships we build, and the values we carry. So let us face this moment with humility, knowing that win or lose, Hogwarts shines brightest when we shine together.”
A hush followed his words, heavy with anticipation. Every fork stilled, every whisper cut short, as the Great Hall waited.
“In fourth place, Gryffindor, with 390 points.”
A groan rolled through the Gryffindor table. Oliver Wood muttered something naughty about Frey, and Vera nearly choked holding back a laugh.
“In third place, Hufflepuff, with 420 points.”
Tommy’s shoulders sagged, Cedric wore disappointment like a mask of dignity.
“In second place, Ravenclaw, with 445 points.”
Vera’s gaze drifted toward their table—only to find Ryu staring straight at her. The second their eyes met, he looked away, quick as a Snitch dodging a Seeker.
“And finally, with 460 points… Slytherin wins the House Cup!”
The green-clad table exploded in triumph. Cassius and Miles smacked palms, Adrian drummed the wood, and the rest of Slytherin roared their glory into the rafters.
Vera rolled her eyes. "Posh fucks.”
As her gaze met Dumbledore’s across the Great Hall, a sharp pang cut through her chest. His words had been full of wisdom and warmth, yet doubt gnawed at her—what if he was disappointed in her for what she did to professor Frey?
When the feast ended and the tide of students surged toward the doors, her stomach dropped at the sight of a Gryffindor prefect threading through the crowd.
“Professor Dumbledore wishes to see you in his office.”
Her heart gave a violent lurch. Every nerve screamed for escape, but her feet moved of their own accord, carrying her up the stairs. Would he expel her? Expose her? Was this the end of Hogwarts before it had properly begun?
The door opened onto his office, the shelves and whirring contraptions suddenly sharper, more ominous, under the weight of her fear. Behind the desk, the Headmaster sat with the same serene expression he wore at feasts and farewells, his gaze gentle yet impossibly unreadable.
He lifted a hand, inviting her to sit. “Would you care for some tea, Vera?”
Caught off guard, she blinked, then nodded, clutching at the offered thread of normalcy. “Yes… thank you.”
He poured the tea with unhurried grace, steam curling between them like a protective veil. A plate of lemon sherbets appeared on the desk—cheerful, almost absurd in the gravity of the moment.
Vera wrapped her hands around the cup, letting its warmth steady her as she stole a glance around his office. She noticed details she had missed before: portraits pretending to nap but clearly listening, curious instruments whirring and humming as though they had secrets of their own.
“Am I in trouble, sir?” she blurted, unable to bear the silence any longer.
His gaze was calm. “And what leads you to believe that?”
Her throat tightened. “It’s what I did… to Professor Frey.”
“Do you believe your actions were wrong?”
“I—I was only trying to help Charlie—”
“Then it is not."
Her voice tumbled out in a rush. “I swear, I’ll never do it again, sir. I promise.”
“Unless necessity demands it?”
She hesitated, guilt battling honesty. “I don’t know. But… I’d never do it if I didn’t have to.”
His eyes warmed, a faint approval softening his features. “Your integrity is commendable, Vera. And no, you are certainly not in trouble.”
She blinked. “So… you’re not angry with me?”
“Angry?” A quiet chuckle escaped him. “No, Miss Black. Far from it. I am rather proud of you.”
Her mouth opened in disbelief. “Proud? But I used dark—”
He raised a hand, stopping her mid-word. “What you did came not from malice, but compassion. You acted from loyalty and love. That, I assure you, is nothing dark.”
“But… but I broke the rules. Isn’t that a crime?”
He leaned forward, eyes gleaming with a kind of ageless mischief. “Rules have their place, but they are not sacred. There are times when true courage lies in challenging them—and in doing so, we discover who we truly are.”
Her head spun, guilt clashing with relief. She had braced herself for punishment, even expulsion. Instead, she found unexpected mercy.
“You’ve shown,” Dumbledore continued, “that even though your body protests, you can wield your gift for the right reasons.”
She frowned. “Why do you keep calling it a gift, sir?”
“Because all things may be gifts, depending on the eyes through which we see them.”
“But… it makes me proper sick.”
“Not the magic itself,” he said gently, “but your body’s rejection of it. The ailment is not in your gift, Vera, but in the vessel that carries it.”
"But why does my body reject it?”
“That, my dear, is the question. One I intend to pursue over the holiday. A trusted friend of mine may also lend his expertise.”
Hope flickered in her chest, fragile but real. “Thank you, sir.”
“For now,” he said, leaning back with a small, knowing smile, “hold fast to your resilience. Your path will not be easy, but I have no doubt—you will rise to meet it.”
She rose, ready to take her leave, but hesitation anchored her to the spot. “May I… ask you something, sir?”
“Of course,” Dumbledore replied, his gaze inviting.
She drew in a breath, steadying her nerves. “Do you know what happened to my father?”
Dumbledore’s expression softened, lines of sympathy etching deeper across his face.
“I never knew him, or my mum,” she pressed on, words tumbling out before fear could stop them. “And since I came here, I’ve only heard how dreadful my family was. I don’t know any of them. Professor Frey said they cut all ties, moved away. But… I want to know the truth. And I can’t shake the feeling that my father… that he was like them. So was he, sir? Was he a bad person?”
Silence stretched. Dumbledore’s eyes, kind yet unbearably knowing, held hers. He seemed to measure the weight of his answer against the fragility of her hope.
“Your father was very young when it all happened,” he said at last. “Far too young to grasp the full gravity of his choices.”
Tears pricked her eyes. “So… he was…” She swallowed hard. “He was a bad person.”
“He made mistakes,” Dumbledore admitted, his tone grave. “And mistakes of the sort that cannot be undone. He paid dearly for them.”
The last shred of hope dissolved, leaving only a hollow ache. She stared at the floor, fighting back the tears that blurred her vision.
Dumbledore’s voice softened, carrying a note of quiet wonder. “When I first read the news of your birth, I confess I was astonished. In the midst of war’s chaos, when all seemed destined for ruin, a life had begun. Many called it a dark omen. But I saw it as a sign of hope. A fragile light, defiant against the shadows. And now, seeing the resilient young witch before me, I know my faith was not misplaced.”
Vera managed a fragile smile through her tears, though her curiosity pressed forward. “What news are you referring to, sir?”
“When your grandmother passed, the Daily Prophet ran a story. Someone had seen fit to leak a portion of her will. It revealed your father’s marriage… and your birth. Matters your family had kept carefully hidden.”
“Why?” her voice cracked, raw with hurt. “Why give me up? Why put me in the Muggle world? Was there something wrong with me, professor? Did my parents… not want me?”
“Listen closely, Vera." Dumbledore leaned forward. "Chasing shadows of ‘why’ will only weigh you down. Your parents were terribly young when you came into their lives, and their world was already fraught with turmoil. But make no mistake—whatever else was tangled in their choices, there was love. A great deal of it.”
She wanted to believe him, wanted to know—yet fear held fast: fear of truths too heavy to bear, fear of learning she had been nothing more than a mistake. She steadied herself with a slow breath, the way she had so many times before, drawing on the resilience that refused to let her break.
At last she rose to leave, her hand brushing the wood of the door. But a thought stopped her, fierce and sudden.
She turned back. “Sir?”
“Yes, Vera?”
“What was my grandmother’s name?”
With determined strides, she cut through the winding corridors of Hogwarts, her mind alight with questions that refused to rest. The library loomed before her, silent and cavernous, its shelves brimming with secrets. She moved unerringly toward the newspapers archives, rows of dusty volumes standing like sentinels of forgotten time.
Her pulse quickened as she raised her wand. The spell would not be simple—she knew that—but the truth demanded to be unearthed.
She whispered the incantation, and for a heartbeat, nothing happened. Then, with a violent shudder, the shelves erupted—newspapers shot into the air, flapping and tumbling like startled birds. Headlines blurred together in a chaotic storm, parchment whirling around her as if the past itself resisted being touched.
Her grip faltered, pain knifing behind her eyes, a thin trickle of blood sliding from her nose. With a weary sigh, she lowered her wand, watching the storm collapse into disarray around her.
Dropping to her knees, she began to gather the scattered sheets, stacking them in trembling hands, forcing order onto the chaos. Then, as she reached for one crumpled page, her gaze snagged on the ink that screamed across it. A single headline, bold and merciless.
WALBURGA BLACK’S WILL LEAKED
THE BLACK FAMILY LINEAGE LIVES ON
Exclusive: Rita Skeeter Uncovers Startling Revelation in the Black Family Saga!
In an unprecedented turn of events, a well-placed source within the Black family has divulged to yours truly a bombshell revelation straight from the reading of Walburga Black's will. Brace yourselves, dear readers, for what I'm about to reveal will shake the very foundations of wizarding society!
It seems the infamous Black matriarch, known for her icy demeanor and iron-clad traditions, harbored a clandestine secret that even the most astute of us in the press corps failed to sniff out. Yes, you heard it right! The indomitable Walburga Black had a grandchild, purportedly a girl, tucked away from prying eyes and wagging tongues.
But hold onto your broomsticks, because the plot thickens! This isn't just any ordinary family scandal. Oh no, this revelation unravels a tapestry woven with clandestine affairs, whispered alliances, and the stuff of wizarding legends.
Picture this: a hush-hush wedding, a shadowy pact with the esteemed Rosier House of France, and a birth shrouded in secrecy. It's the kind of stuff that sends shivers down your spine and makes you wonder what other secrets lie buried in the Black family vault.
As for the whereabouts of this mysterious offspring, well, your guess is as good as mine. But rest assured, dear readers, they are most likely ensconced within the confines of the Black family, wherever they are hiding.
But hold on to your hats, darlings, because the plot thickens! Rumors are swirling like wildfire that this hidden scion is none other than the secret child of the eccentric Sophie Rosier and the deceased death eater Regulus Black!
Can you imagine? If these rumors are true, this would make this “Black Rose” the rightful heir to the illustrious Black family, a lineage thought to have withered away with Regulus’ untimely demise. The question on everyone’s lips now is whether this hidden girl will step out of the shadows and lay claim to the Black family legacy that has long been left to gather dust.
Stay tuned, dearest readers, because this story is just beginning to unfold!
Chapter 21: Twelve
Chapter Text
Part II: The Black Rose
Dedicated to the man who first radicalized me, and taught me that the only path towards freedom, is through resistance.
Though you are no longer with us, your words and teachings live on, eternal.
Chapter 21: Twelve
♪ Underneath the moonlight,
In the softness of the night,
Close your eyes, my baby girl,
Let the stars fill you with light. ♪
Wednesday, August 1, 1990
Vera stirred from her slumber to the rustle of papers nearby. Blinking awake, she spotted a blonde five-year-old perched on her bed, clutching her crimson notebook.
"LOLA!"
"Hi Vera."
She swiftly snatched the notebook from her little sister’s grasp. "How many times have I told you to keep your hands off my shite?"
"I'm thorry," Lola pouted, her speech tinged with a cute lisp.
"Quit the act, you stinky little lice ball!"
"I don’t have lithe anymore!"
"I can see 'em from here, you lying frog, NOW SCRAM!"
With a huff, Lola descended from the bed. "You’re a bitch!" she taunted, sticking out her tongue.
Vera retaliated with a pillow throw before flopping back down. As she closed her eyes, she tried to summon the elusive memory of her dream—a reoccurring one that had haunted her for as long as she could remember.
In this dream, a striking blonde woman with mesmerizing hazel eyes stood before her, singing a haunting melody. Her voice echoed through Vera's mind, its beautiful, raspy tone both enchanting and familiar. "Underneath the moonlight…”
"Why's Lola in tears?" Kaya suddenly barged in. "Did you yell at her again?"
Vera hastily hid the notebook under her pillow. "She's been nosing around my stuff again, and she's gonna spread her lice to me.”
"But she was cleaned just yesterday."
"Oh, come off it. She's probably hosting a lice convention again. Everyone is in this bloody house. I swear, if I catch 'em, she's in for it."
Kaya frowned. "Blimey, Vee, calm down. What's gotten into you?"
"Nothing," Vera huffed, her mind racing back to the notebook.
"Sure about that? 'Cause ever since you got back from that posh boarding school, you've been proper odd."
"That's a load of bollocks!"
"Oh, please, you've been in a right state ever since you got here. Barely eating or playing with us, spending all your time on the telly, always napping, fighting with Lydia, and you've probably spent more time with Mrs. Quinn than me.”
“She’s fun to be around, you know.”
“Oh please, she’s only on about politics.”
“And she makes it fun.”
“What about Billy then, huh? You’ve likely given him a proper whack to the noggin.”
"Billy had it coming," Vera shrugged, unbothered about their young neighbor who they spent most afternoons playing on the street with.
"Yeah, but the way you belted him? It's a wonder Miss Nelson only grounded you for a week."
"We were playing footie, and he was being a proper arse! What was I supposed to do?"
"I'm just worried, that's all, Vee.” Kaya said with a concerned expression. “Did something happen while you were off at school?”
Vera shut her eyes, trying to push back the memories of her final days at Hogwarts. It was all a blur now, anyway. She'd barely engaged in any of the end-of-year shenanigans, spending most of her time holed up in her dorm, crying or sleeping, unable to confront the harsh truths she'd uncovered.
Alicia and Angelina had been fretting over her, but she couldn't bring herself to tell them anything. How could she, anyway? How could she face anyone after what she'd found? On her last day, she left the Hogwarts Express and belted to the muggle world without even saying goodbye to anyone. All she'd wished for was to vanish from existence.
"No, nothing happened," she lied, her voice strained.
“Well, buck up, eh? If I had sponsors lining up to take me shopping, I'd be over the moon."
Vera nodded, still preoccupied with the notebook hidden beneath her pillow, the blonde woman in her dreams, and the overwhelming weight of her existence. Then, her eyes widened in sudden realization.
“BUGGERS, I FORGOT!”
She swiftly prepared herself with just ten minutes remaining until Dom and Donnie were due to arrive. The pair were treating her to the customary school supply shopping spree in Diagon Alley. With the clock ticking, she hastily dressed and packed her essentials into her bag, neglecting even to run a brush through her hair. She then descended the stairs to find Miss Nelson engaged in conversation with Donnie in the living area.
"Ah, here she is," the kind matron announced with her ever-contagious grin.
"Sorry for being late, Don— Ah, I mean, Mr. Smith."
"Not a bother at all.” Donnie replied. “Are you all set?"
"Aye, where's Mrs. Smith?"
"She's waiting for us in the car."
The two then headed towards Mrs. Wriggleshore's to take the Floo Network to Diagon Alley.
"Where's Dom, really?" Vera pressed as they were walking.
"Um, she's...occupied." Donnie answered vaguely, casting a wary glance around to ensure no one from the orphanage had caught wind of their true destination.
"Donnie, why don't we just apparate there?" she suggested, scratching her head.
"You're not used to it; you might feel a bit queasy."
"My friend Sarah's folks apparate her everywhere, you know."
"They've probably been doing it since she was in nappies."
"I can't wait till I master apparition. I'd travel the globe in a blink!"
"I only wish it were that simple, Vera."
They knocked on the door and were soon greeted by the eccentric old witch.
"I smell trouble in the Ministry," Mrs. Wriggleshore remarked as they all walked towards the fireplace.
"I'm sure they'll sort it out soon." Donnie reassured her.
"Don't make me laugh," she scoffed, retrieving the jar of Floo powder. "They've installed a whiskey maker as an official, and now he's dragged his drunken son along. What's next? Are we to be governed by Quidditch bookies?"
"Can't argue there."
Meanwhile, Vera tuned out their increasingly political banter and focused on the old lady's clock wall. Two more clocks had stopped ticking, their hands frozen at six. The young man in the framed photograph appeared to have a slightly altered demeanor, though she couldn't quite discern what had changed. She then shifted her focus to the kitchen table, which was strewn with newspapers, as usual. She picked one up and read the headline:
Wizarding Chronicle
Trevor Yaxley Joins Ministry amid Controversial Mass Layoffs
Who is behind these new Policies, and why is no one talking about it? Hugh Blackwood Investigates.
She recoiled at the sight of Yaxley's name, recalling Slytherin's most notorious student and the lingering odor he carried. With a disdainful flick, she discarded the newspaper and reached for another.
The Daily Prophet
Canada wins the 421st Quidditch World cup against Scotland
Seeker Hector Lemont blames his short fingers for the Defeat
"Vera, let's get moving!" Donnie urged.
The two then Flooed their way to Diagon Alley and arrived at their first stop, Gringotts, where Vera was slated to secure her loan. The queue for the loans office stretched long, with some customers even spilling outside. As they waited in line, more patrons joined, while others exited the office hysterical.
"Why are they crying like that?" Vera asked, scratching her head.
"It's been one hell of a year," Donnie replied grimly. "Gringotts is tightening its loan regulations."
"Does that mean we won't get one?"
"It's possible, especially since you haven't paid off your previous one. But don't worry, we'll figure something out."
She scratched her head again, observing the variety of creatures in the line. Some clutched large files of parchments, while others muttered to themselves, as if rehearsing what to say once inside.
"Donnie?" She called out after a moment.
"Yes?"
"Why would an heir need a loan?”
Her question caught him completely off guard. "Come again?"
"Why would I need a loan if I’m... an heir?"
"Um," Donnie stammered, taken aback. "I'm not entirely sure how to explain it, Vera."
"Just give it to me straight."
"Well, legally speaking, you're the heir since your father was, but—"
"Right, so why am I stuck in a line for a loan if I'm supposed to be rich?"
Donnie sensed her escalating frustration.
"Listen," he began carefully, "it's not as simple as that. Whoever had control of the family fortune at the time of your grandmother’s passing is the one who can grant it to you."
"And who had control?"
“I am not sure, Vera...”
"Couldn't we just ask?"
"Ask who?"
"Someone from my family!"
"We can't."
"Why the bloody hell not?" she shouted, drawing puzzled glances from the other people in the queue.
"Because," he hissed, "we have no idea where they are!"
"So they lost the war and just buggered off?" Her voice wavered with a mix of anger and hurt. “And left me behind?”
"What's going on, Vera? Why are you acting like this?"
"Why wouldn't I?"
He couldn't help but regard her with a worried expression.
“Besides,” she continued, her tone softening. “I skipped breakfast.”
"You know, there's a nice little spot nearby. We could grab something to eat once we're through here."
They finally reached their turn, and to their astonishment, the stern goblin in the office greeted them with a smile.
"Another loan for Miss Black?" he asked.
"Yes." Donnie confirmed, taking a seat beside Vera.
"Very well, I shall have it prepared."
Vera and Donnie traded wide-eyed looks. The loan had slipped into their hands with suspicious ease—no grilling questions, no suffocating rules. Vera couldn’t help but suspect her surname had done the heavy lifting. For a fleeting second, she didn’t mind the nepotism. In fact, she rather liked it.
The goblin then handed her a stack of documents to sign.
"Pardon me," Donnie interjected. "We would also like to inquire about the deadline for repaying the previous loan."
"That won't be necessary," the goblin replied. "It has been settled in full."
Vera swiftly glanced at Donnie, who mirrored her astonishment. "But...who settled it?"
"A member of your family, naturally."
She couldn't believe what she was hearing. "Wh-who exactly?"
The goblin rummaged through his drawer before producing a document and passing it to her, and her eyes widened in shock as she saw the signature at the bottom of the page.
Pollux Black
"I don't understand!" she shouted, her anger boiling over as she and Donnie settled at a table in a pub near the bank. "They ignore me, then suddenly pay off my loan?"
"Vera, listen—"
"I get it, Donnie," she cut in, her voice laced with bitterness. "They don't want me because I'm polluted by Muggles."
"No, Vera—"
"But why leave me in the Muggle world in the first place? I just don't understand!"
"Neither do I but—"
"And it's not like I want to be with them! I'd rather die than live with those lunatics, but I'm supposed to be the heir!"
"You're overthinking this, Vera. Please, just stop."
“And what bullocks is that they pay my loan but not give me my inheritance? You know what? Fuck them!"
"Vera, enough!"
“I hate them!” she shouted. “I hate them all! I want nothing to do with them!"
"Can you please calm down?"
"I’m bloody glad they didn't raise me!”
“Lower your voice!”
“I'd have probably ended up just like my father if they did—"
"Vera!"
“A bloody death eater!”
Donnie’s shock was instant—his hand shot up to clamp over her mouth, eyes bulging.
"Where did you hear this?" he demanded as he released her. “WHO TOLD YOU?”
"No one!” she replied defiantly. “I found out on my own.”
"How?"
Her eyes, glossy with tears yet blazing with fury, locked onto him. She dug into her bag and pulled out a crimson notebook, its cover scarred with the word SHAME in bold black marker. Donnie’s brow furrowed, his expression twisting in confusion as he thumbed through the pages.
"Merlin's beard... What have you done?" His voice trembled with disbelief. "WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?"
"You told me to seek the truth on my own terms," she retorted defiantly, wiping away her tears with a fierce determination. "So I bloody well did."
"This isn't seeking the truth, Vera. This is sheer madness!"
"You refused to tell me anything!"
He slammed the notebook open on the table. "So you went and did THIS!"
Inside the ‘SHAME’ notebook lay a chronicle of horror and infamy. Each page carried a headline with a damning testament to the darkness that shrouded the Black family.
“Crow Party Collapses as Black Family Flees”
Next page
"Orion Black Suspected in Julius Bobbin’s Disappearance"
Next page
“Bellatrix Lestrange, Daughter of Cygnus Black, found guilty in the Longbottoms Torture”
Next page
"Pollux Black & Abraxes Malfoy Linked to Muggleborn Minister's Suspected Poisoning"
Next page
"Cyrus 'The Mad' Black's Macabre Experiments: Guilty Verdict in Illegal Breeding Trial"
Next page
"Pollux Black's Deadly Deployment of Demonters at Squib Rights Marches Leaves 36 Dead"
Next page
"Lucretia Black’s Major Involvement in the Crain Children Massacre"
Next page
"Orion Black Loses 40 More Properties in Gambling Debacle"
Next page
"Regulus Black, Heir & Death Eater, Dead at 18”
Each headline was a jagged shard of truth, meticulously cut and pasted into the notebook of despair and obsession. Night after night, she would immerse herself in the darkness of these revelations, driven by a relentless need to uncover the secrets that had been kept from her.
“These are not truths, Vera.”
"They're still part of the truth, aren't they?" she challenged, her voice quivering with emotion. "AREN'T THEY!"
Donnie let out a long, weary sigh, then closed the notebook with careful hands.
"Yes, darling, they're part of the truth," he said, his voice softening. "But that period of time was madness. Newspapers waged their own war, shaping people's perspectives with every story and scoop. Your family has done terrible things, yes. But most of these articles are part of a larger narrative, one that you are still too young to fully understand. You can’t believe everything newspapers claim to be the truth."
"I knew they were terrible, Donnie. Mrs. Wriggleshore told me all about them last year. But this is more than terrible, they were monsters! And my dad… he was a monster too. No wonder Felix doesn’t want me to talk to him in front of others."
"Who the hell is Felix?"
"And if my friends knew, they would stop talking to me, Donnie! They would hate me."
"That’s not true, darling."
"What if…" she sniffled, trying to compose herself. "What if I ended up like them? What if I already am?"
"No, no, Vera. You can never be like them."
"But they were all bad, Donnie. They were all like this, so why would I be different?"
"Because it’s not about blood; it’s about how you are raised, the values you hold, and the principles you live by. What your family did, or who they were, doesn’t define who you are or who you should be."
"I just wanted to understand," she whispered.
"And you deserve to understand. But this..." He gestured to the notebook lying between them. "This isn't the way."
"I'm sorry, Donnie," she murmured. "I'm just so angry all the time!"
"Don't apologize, Vera. We'll figure this out together, I promise."
"Could you please be completely honest with me from now on?"
"Absolutely," he responded promptly. "Let's have our meal first, and then I'll share whatever information I can."
"Alright," she sighed heavily, scratching her head.
And so, Donnie began to unravel the tangled web of her family’s history, his voice lowered in secrecy as he revealed the remaining members of the Black lineage.
"MY GRANDPARENTS WERE COUSINS!"
"It's very norma—"
"IT'S BLOODY DISGUSTINGGGGG!"
"Can't argue there."
"Oh, Donnie," she sighed. "My stomach suddenly hurts." she paused for a moment, then took a deep breath. "Who is gone and who is left exactly?"
"Well, apart from yourself, there are four individuals who still carry the name Black. Your great-grandfather, Lord Pollux, his sister Lady Cassiopeia, and his son, Sir Cygnus—"
"Bellatrix's father?"
"Lower your voice!" He urged, casting cautious glances around. "Yes, that's correct. He had three daughters. The other two are no longer Blacks; one married Lucius Malfoy, and the third was disowned."
"Mrs. Tonks..." she murmured, connecting the dots.
"Yes, precisely. Now, Lord Pollux and his sister vanished completely after the fall of the Crow party. Rumors say they now live together in France, but no one knows for sure. Cygnus is still somewhere in England, but hasn’t been seen in years. He was never accused of any crime but was probably ashamed of what his daughter did."
"But why are they hiding exactly?"
"After the war, people demanded that Pollux should be investigated for his crimes, so that explains his vanishing. Lady Cassiopeia has always been secretive and was rarely ever seen, to be honest."
"People think I live with her, why is that?"
"She’s the last remaining member of the family to be unmarried, so people assumed she would be the one who raises you."
"But, she didn’t… None of them bloody did."
"Don’t dwell on it too much, dear."
"I just want to know why they didn’t want me."
"You can’t assume that for certain, Vera. There could be a valid reason, you know."
She scoffed. "I doubt it."
"Think about it, why else would Pollux settle your loan?"
Her mind raced with uncertainties, but she saw his point.
"And the fourth?” she said after a moment, scratching her head. “You said there are four Blacks left besides me, so who's the fourth?"
Donnie hesitated. "Um... Your uncle... Sirius."
"Is he my father's younger brother?"
"No, Sirius is the elder."
Her brow furrowed in confusion. "But if he's older, why isn't he the heir?"
"Well, um, he was disowned."
"Oh," she sighed. "Where is he, then?"
"In Azkaban."
“Wow, what a shock,” she scoffed mockingly, rolling her eyes. "What did this one do?"
"It's a long story, but he... he murdered thirteen Muggles."
"Blimey... Is there anyone in my family who wasn't a bloody murderer?"
"I think so... Of maybe not? Blimey, I don't know."
"But why didn't I find any newspaper articles about Sirius?"
"Well, there was quite a commotion about it back then. Eventually, Bagnold managed to suppress the articles written about him."
Vera took a thoughtful bite of her food, absently scratching her head as she processed the new information. "And what about my mother's family?"
"The Rosiers were... different."
"Not so different if my mother married a Death Eater," she remarked with a hint of cynicism. "I meant, where are they now?"
Donnie appeared reluctant to divulge, despite his promise of complete honesty. "Those remaining are in France."
"And let me guess," her tone turned bitter, "they don't want me either..."
He swallowed, shaking his head reluctantly.
Another tear escaped her eye, but she quickly wiped it away. "Whatever..."
"I am truly sorry, Vera. I'm sorry you had to learn the truth this way."
"It's alright. I understand why you didn't tell me."
"I remember them, you know. Your father and uncle, that is. We were all at Hogwarts together."
"Really?"
"I was a few years younger than them," he reminisced. "Merlin, they were right proper Seekers, those two.”
"Were they terrible to you?"
"Not at all," he chuckled softly. "In fact, your uncle was quite amusing, a true prankster."
"And my father?"
"He was... the reserved one. I never talked to him, or hardly ever saw him, now that I think about it. He kept to himself and steered clear of trouble, unlike his brother. I was in my fourth year when he was exposed as a... you know. He left Hogwarts immediately, and we never heard from him again until his death."
"Did he kill anyone?"
Donnie was taken aback by her question. "I really can't say, Vera," he replied solemnly. "Simply because I don't know."
"He probably did..." she said, prodding at her food disinterestedly. “I'm glad he's dead."
Donnie struggled to find words.
"And my mother, Donnie?" she then asked. “What happened to her exactly?”
"I don't have much information about her, dear. Except that your father and she were engaged at fourteen."
"FOURTEEN!"
"That's customary in most pureblood families. They are betrothed at a young age and marry at seventeen, usually for political reasons—solidify alliances, join bloodlines or to seal business deals."
“So, for money?”
“Um, ah, sort of.”
"That's why my parents got married? Not because they were... in love?"
"Um… I'm not sure, dear."
She scratched her head again, trying to comprehend this peculiar concept and gather her thoughts.
Dead family.
Five Blacks remaining.
Murders aplenty.
Parents? Never in love.
She took a deep breath, absentmindedly poking at her food. "All I ever wanted, every birthday wish I ever had, every prayer I asked from God was to know where my parents are and what happened to them. I thought about them every day, wondering if they had loved me or if they were one of those people who throw away their babies because they had them by mistake. I always wanted to know the truth, but now that I do, I don't care anymore. I don't care if they loved me or not—I don't care if I was really a mistake, and I don't care about who they were."
Donnie remained silent, visibly shaken by her words.
"I never thought I could hate my own folks, or simply hate someone I had never met, but I hate them, Donnie. I hate them so much."
"I am truly sorry, Vera."
“It’s alright, I have a better family now,” she sniffled, then met his gaze with a gentle smile. “And I have you.”
He returned her smile, though his expression seemed reluctant. Then, he cleared his throat and straightened his posture, hoping to change the mood.
"Now, you must promise not to do this," he pointed at the ‘SHAME’ notebook, "ever again."
She gave him a hesitant look.
"Promise me, Vera."
"Alright," she relented, scratching her head. "I promise,"
"Good, I will be taking it with me.” He shoved the notebook down his bag. “Now finish your meal so we can purchase your books."
“Okay.”
“And why, in merlin’s name, have you been scratching your head all day?"
She shot him a fearful look. "Buggers..."
"Please, tell me it's not what I think it is."
“Lola…” she angrily muttered under her breath.
Once she’d gathered her books and supplies, Donnie disguised them with a charm to look as if they were ordinary Muggle stationery. Among the stack, one title caught her off guard—a slim little volume, boldly stamped Dark Defense Ethics.
As they exited the bookshop, she turned to him with a pleading expression. "Can we stop by Lucy’s first?"
"Lucy’s?"
"The makeup shop near the luggage store."
"The one you disappeared into when we first got here and nearly gave me a heart attack?"
"Yep!"
"I don't know, Vera... We don't have much time left. I need to have you back home by noon."
"Aw, buggers."
"Merlin's beard, where did you pick up all these words?"
"I think we've learned that there are worse things a Black can do than swear, Donnie."
"Can't argue there."
He then led her down a winding cobblestone street lined with quaint little shops until they stopped before a whimsically adorned storefront labeled Whiskers.
Vera’s eyes went wide the moment she stepped inside. The salon looked as though it had leapt straight out of a fairy tale—mirrors floated midair, reflecting customers in various stages of reinvention while levitating brushes and combs darted about like overcaffeinated pixies.
Crystal chandeliers dripped soft, enchanted light, and the chairs—apparently with minds of their own—wriggled and stretched to suit each sitter’s comfort. Well-dressed house-elves bustled about with all the seriousness of royal attendants, passing potions and elixirs that shimmered on polished shelves.
The air was thick with the sweet, heady scent of magical shampoos, equal parts enchanting and suspiciously addictive. Vera couldn’t decide if she’d stumbled into a hair salon or an elaborate charm designed to keep customers from ever leaving.
"Donnie, this place is so mint!" she exclaimed, her previous frustration swept away in the face of such wonder.
Donnie beamed. "I'm thrilled you think so."
As they sank into their floating chairs, Vera’s eyes roamed the salon. The place was teeming with characters straight out of an artist’s fever dream: one man had makeup so dramatic it practically deserved its own billing, while a woman nearby waved her wand and changed her hair color with every flick.
“Donnie, love!” A voice chimed like a charm, pulling their attention. A woman swooped in, wrapping Donnie in an embrace and planting a kiss on his cheek. “I’ve missed you!”
Donnie returned the affection with easy warmth before gesturing between them. “Vera, meet Remy.”
“Your girlfriend!” Vera blurted, memory clicking into place.
Remy was a vision—bronze skin kissed by sunlight, blue dreadlocks threaded with golden rings cascading down her back. Her butterfly-shaped eyeshadow literally fluttered with every blink, which was both dazzling and mildly disconcerting. Dressed in a pink frock jingling with assorted trinkets, she radiated the kind of charisma that made you want to follow her into whatever questionable adventure she suggested.
“So, you’re the Vera I’ve heard so much about?” her eyes twinkled mischievously. “Donnie simply cannot stop talking about you.”
Vera blushed. "Thank you for the magical hairbrush, Remy.”
“Of course, darling.”
“Vera here has a bit of a problem,” Donnie announced far too casually, motioning to her hair.
Remy smiled. “Well, nothing I can’t fix. What’s the trouble, love?”
Vera inhaled deeply, cheeks heating. “I… I have lice,” she whispered.
“Sorry, darling, didn’t catch that?”
“LICE,” Donnie boomed like he was making a public service announcement.
Brushes paused mid-air, mirrors flickered, and a few heads turned. Vera buried her face in her hands, wishing the floor might open up and swallow her.
Remy merely nodded, taking a polite step back. “Not to worry, dear—I’ve got just the potion for that. SCOTTYYYY!”
Scotty approached with purpose—purple hair, bold makeup, and enough confidence to make mirrors nervous. “Yeah?”
“We have a lice situation."
Scotty’s gaze swept over Vera’s hair, his brow furrowing in mock gravitas.
“Ah, indeed…” he murmured. "I think… we have to chop it all off.”
Vera’s jaw hit the floor, her scream ricocheting like a banshee through the salon. “WHAT?!”
Donnie, Remy, and Scotty collapsed into laughter, clearly enjoying the terror they’d just inflicted.
“I’m only teasing,” Scotty said. “There’s a charm for this. I promise—you’ll never see lice again.”
She exhaled, relief flooding her. But her chest began to unexpectedly hurt.
Scotty retrieved his wand, then murmured an incantation, wand tip glowing softly as it hovered over her hair. Slowly, the lice stirred, lifting into the air like tiny, disgruntled airborne tenants. Remy swooped in, jar at the ready, capturing each pest.
When the last one was secured, Scotty stepped back, eyes sweeping over Vera’s locks appreciatively.
“Honestly… that’s the most mesmerizing shade of black I’ve ever seen,” he said, voice tinged with admiration. “Truly something special.”
Vera’s cheeks flamed, and a shy smile tugged at her lips.
The tinkling of the salon’s entrance bell announced a new arrival. She turned, curiosity piqued, to see a man swaggering in—a leather jacket hugging him like it had secrets of its own, face tattoos striking enough to make her blink twice. He cut straight to Scotty, moving with the confidence of someone who clearly owned at least three galaxies.
Then, to her utter astonishment, he leaned in and planted a fiery kiss on Scotty’s lips. Her eyes nearly popped out of her head, her heart doing a chaotic drumline. She quickly looked away, cheeks flushing as a bizarre mix of shock, confusion, and something else entirely washed over her.
“Get a room,” Remy scoffed.
“Careful, you two,” Donnie warned. “We aren’t in Everbrook.”
“Speaking of Everbrook,” the leather-jacketed man said, “how’s Dom holding up?”
“She’s finding her feet..."
“Send her our regards when you see her, yeah?”
“Will do,” Donnie affirmed, before glancing at Scotty. “So… how much do we owe you, Scott?”
As the two headed off to settle the bill, Remy sidled up to Vera, brandishing the jar of captured lice. “Want to keep it? You know, as pets?”
Vera recoiled, utterly baffled and mortified. “Uh… no thanks."
As she made her way home, the magic of the day clung to her, gradually pushing aside the morning’s frustrations. Determined to make amends, she sought out Lola, presenting her with a chocolate frog she’d picked up in Diagon Alley. Lola’s eyes practically popped out of her head as the little treat twitched in her hand.
“It’s jumpin’!” she squealed.
“Yep,” Vera grinned, momentarily disregarding any potential consequences of her choice of gift. “Better eat it fast—before it hops away!”
Later that night, as she sat down to dinner with Kaya, her mind buzzed with the day’s chaos. But one moment refused to let go.
“Guess what I saw while shopping today!”
“Let me guess… a unicorn?”
“Even stranger,” Vera whispered, leaning in. “I saw… a gay couple.”
“That’s it?” Kaya said, barely looking up.
“They were proper gay, Kaya. Kissing and everything! And one of them had makeup on!”
“Uh… first time seeing someone gay?”
“Shh! Keep it down! Have you ever seen one before?”
“They’re not exactly mermaids or giants, Vee,” Kaya said, rolling her eyes. “Why the fuss?”
“Because," Vera hesitated, glancing around. “It’s wrong...”
“Why on earth would it be wrong?"
“You know. Because it's a… sin."
Kaya recoiled. "WHO TOLD YOU THAT NONSENSE?"
"The Humphreys always said—"
"The Humphreys are buggers! Didn't you say they were terrible people?”
“They were—”
“Then, why would you listen to them?"
"But—"
"If two people love each other, what does it matter, Vera? Miss Nelson would be so angry if she heard you saying these things."
"Sh-he would?"
"Of course! She always taught us that the only true sin is harming others. And I hardly see how two people loving each other could hurt anyone, do you?"
"No…" Vera conceded, her tone filled with shame and regret.
"You've got to wise up Vee, and forget what those old folks said to you.”
"I suppose I never really thought about it that way."
"Well, it's never too late to start seeing things differently."
Vera felt caught in a mix of shame and guilt—emotions she knew well, but this time they felt heavier. For the first time, she had a real reason to feel ashamed of herself.
She had never questioned the beliefs her strict foster parents had taught her. As a child, she sometimes noticed their biases, but she didn’t have the understanding to know right from wrong, especially when she was only shown one way of seeing the world.
That night, as she lay in bed, her thoughts turned over the idea of inherited prejudices and the responsibility of thinking for herself.
Born into a family infamous for their biases and hatred towards others, she had vowed never to emulate their narrow-mindedness. And yet, the unsettling truth pressed against her: somehow, she had become a reflection of the very attitudes she had sworn to resist.
Kaya’s words ran through her mind, encouraging her to see things differently. In that quiet moment, Vera saw a chance to grow, to break away from her past and form her own beliefs.
Amid the shadows of doubt, she found solace in her friendship with Kaya, whose steadfast support and wise counsel had illuminated her path through the labyrinth of moral uncertainty.
And as her birthday arrived, she couldn't help but feel even more grateful.
Thursday, August 23, 1990
“Make a wish, Vee.”
She puffed out the candle balanced on a stack of pancakes shaped like a twelve—their little, ridiculous tradition.
“What’d you wish for?” Kaya bounced.
“You know,” Vera said, a mischievous smirk playing on her lips.
Kaya scoffed. “Oh, don’t tell me you’re still on about that.”
As Vera pondered her birthday wish this year, she weighed the tumultuous events that had shaped the past months.
She considered wishing her blood poisoning away—fingers crossed, no more magic that comes with a side of agony.
She also pondered wishing for forgiveness from friends she’d lied to, or to shrug off the family name that felt more like a chain.
Maybe the awkward ‘gift’ of Clairtangency would sod off, or that exams would suddenly become fond of her.
But eventually, she realized what mattered to her most.
“I wish to finally become a woman.” She declared dramatically.
Kaya made a face. “That’s bollocks, Vee. Wish for something useful.”
“Easy for you to say—you’ve already got it!”
“And it’s a nightmare! Besides, I’m a year older than you, aren’t I?”
“So? Grace had hers at eleven.”
“It’s not all confetti and sparkles, Vee. It’s proper painful. You’ll be panicking about blood stains in front of boys.”
“I’ll take the pain,” Vera said coolly, recalling the numerous times she fell ill at Hogwarts. “I’ve been through worse. And boys? I couldn’t care less.”
“You will care,” Kaya warned. “The first cramp will have you wailing. It’s like someone’s planted a cactus in your insides.”
Vera scoffed. "You're being dramatic and overlooking the brighter side of it all."
"What brighter side?"
"TITS!"
“You don’t magically grow tits once you get your period you git!”
"But you did! While I’m still flat like a bloody paper towel."
"So you're wasting your birthday wish on something that's bound to happen anyway?"
"I want it to happen this year!"
Kaya teasingly punched her in the shoulder, then relit the candle. "Wise up, and make a proper wish."
"Fine," Vera relented. “Although, I don’t think you can just restart your wishes.”
She took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and ran through her options again.
No more blood poisoning.
Excellent grades.
Snape kicking the bucket.
Gryffindor winning the house cup.
Lydia getting lice, forever.
But in the end, her mind could only fixate on one thing, and one thing only.
Chapter 22: Falling
Summary:
Second year kicks off with all the usual shenanigans. But when Fred and George decide it’s a brilliant idea to teach Vera how to fly, the laughs take a sharp nosedive into pure, sky-high mayhem.
Chapter Text
Saturday, September 1, 1990
"I'm going to miss you so much it physically hurts. These past few weeks, you've been my sun, my moon, my everything, and I cannot imagine how I'll go on without you. Just know that no matter what, I love you to bits."
Kaya groaned. "Would you pack it in already?"
"Give us a break, K!"
"Break’s over. Let go before you’re late."
"Just a few more minutes! I’m not ready to part ways."
"Vera, it’s just a telly."
"Just a telly?" Vera drew herself up, scandalized. "Excuse you? It’s the love of my life. You wouldn’t understand what it means to be cut off from civilization for months on end!"
"Don't worry, I'll write you a weekly summary of Eastenders."
"And Byker Grove."
"Absolutely."
"And Corrie."
"You got it."
"And—"
"Vera, darling, are you ready?" Miss Nelson’s voice cut through the theatrics.
"Yes, Miss!"
Her eyes darted down. "What in God's name are you clutching the telly for?"
Vera heaved a world-weary sigh. "My school is the sworn enemy of human progress."
"You’ll live," Miss Nelson replied dryly. "Now release it. Mrs Quinn needs to watch the news. AND MAKE HASTE!"
With tragic flair, Vera pressed a kiss to the glass. "Goodbye, my beloved."
"Come on, drama queen." Kaya snagged her wrist and pressed their bracelets together, forming the little engraved heart.
"Remember," she whispered with a sly wink.
"I know," Vera smiled, hugging her tight. "My heart will never be whole until I’m with you again."
"Vera!" Miss Nelson’s voice echoed. "Move your tail!"
The two made their way to King's Cross Station for Vera to catch her train back to school. Armed with a forged ticket and Miss Nelson's generous allowances, she sprinted through the barrier to Platform 9¾, feeling a surge of excitement and determination. Navigating through the bustling crowd toward the Hogwarts Express, she spotted Fred—or was it George?—waving enthusiastically for her to join their red-haired clan.
“Hello,” she greeted, a little tentative.
“Ah, here she is, Molly!” Mr. Weasley beamed. “The Vera I’ve been telling you about.”
Before Vera could react, Mrs. Weasley swooped in and smothered her in a hug, rocking her side to side like a long-lost daughter. “Thank you for helping our Charlie,” she said, voice thick with warmth. “We’ll never forget it.”
“You’re going to flatten her, Mum,” Fred teased.
Vera coughed out a laugh once she was freed. “No worries, ma’am.”
Mrs. Weasley took her by the shoulders and gave her a once-over, eyes brimming with approval. “Oh, but you’re stunning, dear! Isn’t she stunning, Arthur?”
“Stunning?” George arched a brow at Fred. “Has she ever called us that?”
“Not once in all our years, Georgie,” Fred said, folding his arms with mock outrage.
“Thank you,” Vera murmured, cheeks hot.
The twins had painted their family in such colorful strokes, but standing here in the middle of it—the kindness, the chaos, the warmth—it was almost too much. She felt a sharp little sting of envy.
“Charlie sends his regards,” Mr. Weasley added kindly.
“Oh yes, how grateful he is!" Mrs. Weasley said with a proud smile. "We all are.”
Fred grinned. "How about you adopt her while you’re at it, Mum?"
The suggestion made Vera flush scarlet, her heart skipping at the thought. Being part of this family... it was too much like a dream.
"It was a pleasure meeting you all," she said as the train whistle pierced the air. "And you too, Ron and Ginny. Fred and George told me all about you."
Fred leaned in, squinting. “What’s with the polite voice?”
“Yeah,” George smirked. “Where’s the dirty-mouthed Vera we know?”
“Shut it, you two!"
“There she is!” they chorused, triumphant.
The trio waved off the Weasleys and clambered aboard. Percy wasted no time disappearing into a compartment where Oliver and Felix sat hunched together. Vera’s eyes flicked to Felix. He was thinner than she remembered, hair brushing his shoulders now, his gaze hollow with exhaustion. For a moment she wanted to say something, but their silent agreement held fast: no words in public.
She tore her eyes away and followed the twins instead.
“I didn’t see your family,” Fred remarked once they’d flopped into an empty compartment.
“Oh,” her voice wobbled. “I came by myself.”
The lie slipped out way too easily. She’d spent the summer rehearsing this very balance: two worlds, two versions of herself. Never speak of Muggle matters, never mention money. If people wanted to think she came from a bloodstained madhouse, fine. But poor? Poor was unspeakable.
She knew it was the wrong move, but it was too late to tear it down now. If they discovered the truth, they’d never forgive her. So, better to keep the mask on than watch it all crumble.
“All the way from France?” George asked, brows raised.
“Um, no,” she stammered, heat prickling her neck. “I stayed here over the holidays.”
Even she marveled at how fast her mind spun lies.
“How was your Quidditch training?” she blurted, eager to pivot.
“Not to brag,” Fred leaned back smugly, “but our spots are practically guaranteed.”
“And not just because we’ve got a bribe lined up for Wood,” George added with a conspiratorial wink.
“Oliver’s captain now?”
“Yep! Charlie chose him before he left.”
Before Vera could respond, the door flew open.
“Weasleys!” Lee roared.
“Jordan!” the twins bellowed back, launching themselves at him until the three of them toppled in a heap. Vera burst into laughter despite herself.
“Hey, Vee,” Lee grinned up at her, brushing himself off. “Still got those cold hands, eh?”
She blinked, glancing down at her gloves. Then it hit her. “Oh, yeah,” she forced a giggle. “Always.”
Two lies in under five minutes. She was on a roll.
The boys were already knee-deep in plotting their latest pranks and Quidditch schemes, so she slipped out, deciding a wander was in order.
She found Tommy and Cedric squeezed into a compartment, their friendship clearly levelled up over the summer. They were joined by Malika, who had grown even more beautiful, and Patty—well, Patty had… grown in other ways.
“Blimey,” Vera muttered under her breath, dragging her eyes away from Patty’s chest before envy could sour her face.
On her way back down the corridor, she nearly collided with Percy and Oliver.
“Oliver!” she grinned. “Congrats on becoming the captain!”
Oliver’s ears went pink. “Thanks.”
“Word of advice,” she said, lowering her voice as if passing state secrets. “Fred and George are already scheming to bribe their way onto the team.”
He raised an eyebrow. “Is that so?”
“Mm-hm. And if the price is right, well… Who’s to say you shouldn’t take it?”
Percy gave a sharp laugh. “My brothers? They’ve nothing worthwhile to offer.”
“You might be surprised,” she shot back with a wink, and sauntered past, leaving Oliver chuckling and Percy frowning in confusion.
Upon arriving at Hogwarts, the crowd spilled toward the horseless carriages, but Vera lingered, eyes fixed on the eerie winged creatures tethered to them. No one else seemed to notice. They never did.
She stepped closer, heart thudding, and cautiously stretched out a hand toward one’s wing.
“What’s with the Nazi salute?” a voice cut in behind her.
She jumped so hard she nearly toppled. “Jesus Christ, Tommy! You scared me.”
“I didn’t know you were a fan of Jesus,” he said with a grin.
“A fan?” She snorted. “What, like he’s the drummer in a band?”
He laughed. “I just meant you pureblood lot don’t usually bother with him.”
Vera realized she’d slipped. “Oh… right.”
“But who am I to talk?” he shrugged. “Last year I thought Merlin was the wizarding god.”
She stifled a laugh, though she’d once thought the exact same.
“Cedric nearly died when I said it,” Tommy went on.
“Let me guess.” She grinned. “He laughed till he snorted?”
“You’ve noticed that too?”
“Of course. He once told me I laugh like a pig being slaughtered. Had to fire back somehow.”
“Was he wrong, though?”
“Shut it.”
“Alright, Piggy.” Tommy caught her gloved hand and helped her into the carriage. “Come on! I want front-row seats for the first years’ faces when the ghosts show up.”
Cedric, Malika, and Patty caught up with them, and together they trudged toward the castle. Vera inhaled the cool, familiar air of Hogwarts and felt her shoulders loosen. Maybe, just maybe, her second year would be better than her first.
The Great Hall was a riot of chatter and clinking cutlery when they gathered for the feast.
“Do you dare me?”
“OH, HERE WE GO!” chorused half the Gryffindor table.
Lee promptly lost an arm wrestle against Felix, collapsing in mock agony. The twins, Alicia, and Angelina were deep in Quidditch talk with Oliver, who looked positively thrilled to have an audience. All while Kenny was holding court with the latest scandal from his grandmother’s endless well of gossip.
Vera’s eyes wandered, skimming the hall until they landed on Roger at the Ravenclaw table. She waved, grinning, then instantly dropped her hand and wiped the smile off her face when she noticed who sat beside him.
Ryu.
He was staring at her, as always. And God, he looked different. Taller—even taller than Cassius, who was usually their year’s measuring stick. His black hair had been cut, but glossy strands still fell across his eyes in a way that made her stomach flip. She caught herself staring too long and jerked her gaze away.
“Shite,” she hissed under her breath.
Against her better judgment, she risked another glance. And there he was... still watching her.
Before she could untangle the knot in her chest, the great doors groaned open and the first years filed in. The hall erupted with excitement, and Tommy nearly doubled over laughing when the little ones shrieked at the ghosts drifting by.
“He's forgetting how he nearly shat himself last year at the same sight,” Vera muttered to Kenny, smirking.
As the Sorting began, her thoughts drifted, back to her own Sorting, and to the hush that had fallen over the hall when her name was called. The memory of the whispers, the damning headlines, the truth she’d unearthed about her father—all of it pressed down like a weight.
She lowered her head, forcing herself to shake the thoughts loose. When she finally looked up, her gaze met Professor Dumbledore’s across the hall. He smiled warmly, the same quiet, steady encouragement he always gave her. She smiled back, feeling a surge of pride as she remembered their previous conversations and his unwavering support. Recalling his advice not to give up, she shifted her focus back to the ceremony.
Gryffindor welcomed Katie Bell, who discovered she would be sharing a dorm with Alicia, Angelina, and Vera. And Cormac McLaggen, whose family was reputedly ‘Big in the Ministry’.
“Before we commence the feast,” Dumbledore’s voice rang through the hall, “allow me to introduce Professor Kathrine Garner, who will be teaching Muggle Studies in Professor Quirrell’s absence.”
Kenny leaned over immediately. “Heard Quirrell’s off on a sabbatical to find himself a wife,” he whispered, earning a round of chuckles.
“And your new Defense Against the Dark Arts instructor,” Dumbledore continued, “Professor Eduardo Morales.”
The professor rose, and half the girls in the hall broke into chatter.
“Well, that’s one hell of an upgrade from Frey,” someone sighed.
Eduardo Morales was undeniably handsome. He exuded an air of sophistication, with a distinguished beard flecked with silver, close-cropped dark hair touched with grey, and keen brown eyes behind round glasses. He looked reserved and had a charming demeanor as he bowed and smiled at the applauding students.
“I think Defense is already my favorite subject,” Angelina said dreamily as platters of food appeared.
“Have some dignity,” Fred teased.
Lee shrugged. “He’s alright.”
“Doesn’t matter how he looks if he can’t teach,” Alicia muttered. “I cannot afford to fail Defense this year.”
“I heard he’s single,” Kenny piped up. “And lived in America for a bit—wrote books, too.”
Alicia snorted. “Merlin’s beard, Kenny. Witch Weekly ought to hire you on the spot.”
"I'm so full, I swear there’s a baby in me," Vera groaned, collapsing on her bed like a corpse.
"Same," Katie mumbled, patting her stomach.
"Welcome to our dorm, Katie," Angelina grinned. "Alicia snores, and Vera has late-night heart-to-hearts with her stuffed animal. Good luck surviving."
"Vinny is a very good listener!" Vera shot back.
"He's literally a lump of stuffing."
"Yeah, and still more reliable than half the people I know," Vera smirked. "By the way—did you see Patty?"
Alicia’s eyes widened. "Oh my God, Angie and I were just saying—"
"They’re massive!" Angelina blurted.
Vera groaned dramatically. "Tell me about it. I’m so jealous."
"They’ll show up when they’re ready," Alicia sighed.
Vera flopped face-first into her pillow. "If I don’t get my period this year, I’m gonna lose my bloody mind."
Angelina rolled her eyes. "Trust me, you don’t want it."
Vera shot upright like she’d been hexed. "WAIT. You got yours?!"
"Yeah," Angelina said smugly. "Over the holiday. Mum nearly cried, it was embarrassing."
Vera clutched her chest. "I feel… I feel betrayed! My own dormmate, hiding this from me!"
"Oh, get a grip," Angelina tossed a pillow at her head.
Vera caught it and squinted at Alicia, who was suspiciously quiet. "Don’t tell me—"
Alicia groaned. "You already know I got mine last year."
"Exactly. Traitors everywhere."
"I did too," Katie piped up softly. "A few months ago. Mum says the women in our family are… early bloomers."
That was it. The final betrayal. With a scream of anguish, Vera buried her face in the pillow and wailed like a banshee.
After her overblown theatrics, the dorm settled into its usual chatter, but she felt a restless tug in her chest. She slipped off her bed and dug out the battered suitcase she had stashed away at Hogwarts, the one stuffed with all her magical stationery. One by one, she sifted through its contents until her fingers brushed the cool rim of her cauldron. She set it aside and reached instinctively for her wand.
The moment she closed her hand around it, the familiar warmth curdled into something sour. Now that she knew the truth about her father—that this was the same wand he had once held—it no longer felt like an heirloom. It felt like a curse carved in polished wood.
With a flash of bitterness, she hurled the wand aside, the sound of it clattering against the floor cutting through the room like a sharp retort. She snatched up Vinny, her ragged stuffed cat, and clutched him to her chest as if he alone could anchor her.
"I'll never be like him, Vinny," she whispered softly. "Never."
Sunday, September 2, 1990
The students were lucky enough to have a day off before lessons began, meant for sorting out timetables and stocking up on supplies. Not that the second-years cared. Over breakfast, they were far too busy catching up on gossip.
"You really are proper posh, Mads," Tommy said, grinning as Maddie wrapped up the tale of her family’s summer cruise.
Maddie flushed. "We’re just… comfortable."
"That’s exactly what a proper posh would say," Tommy teased.
Maddie quickly turned the spotlight. "Have you ever been on a cruise, Vera?"
Vera swallowed a mouthful of toast. "I don’t think I’ve even been near a beach. Auntie hates it."
The lie slid off her tongue smoother than butter. Amazing, really, how quickly she was getting good at this.
"Oh, that’s a shame," Maddie said softly, giving her a kind smile that only made Vera squirm more.
"It must be boring, living with old people," Lee added. "No offense, Vee."
"None taken," Vera replied breezily. "It really is."
Not entirely untrue. After all, she had lived with the Humphreys, and they were practically walking corpses.
"Do you have a governess?" Maddie asked. "I had one until I came to Hogwarts."
Vera’s fingers toyed with her sandwich at the word. She thought of Felix, who once told her he’d spent more time with his governess than his own family. She’d imagined that kind of childhood for herself, gilded and lonely.
"Um, yeah," she lied again, hesitating just long enough to feel the heat creep up her neck.
Her eyes darted around, already searching for a way out of the conversation. Suddenly, she caught sight of Jane entering the hall, hand-in-hand with Miles, who was dragging her toward the Slytherin table. She felt that old prick of irritation—memories of last year’s trouble with Jane flaring up—then shoved it down. No drama. Not today.
“Merlin,” Fred muttered, eyes locked on the pair. “Is she his new pet or something?”
The Gryffindor lot angled their heads, trying to look casual while actually staring.
“I heard he’s trying out for Quidditch,” Angelina said.
“Pucey and Warrington too,” George chipped in.
“How do you know that?” Lee asked.
“Flint’s been banging on about it,” George replied. “He’s the Slytherin captain now—loves the sound of his own voice.”
“And Avery?” Vera asked, trying not to sound too curious.
“I'd rather not have him anywhere near a broom,” Alicia snapped. “He’s good at everything. Of course he’d be good at Quidditch, too.”
“I hope they all make it,” Fred said a beat too cheerfully, earning a few puzzled glances. “Then I’ll finally have a reason to clock them all one in the face.”
After breakfast, Vera trailed after him and George as they bounded off to the Quidditch pitch. She wasn’t keen on flying herself. Sketching on the grass while the boys zoomed about seemed far safer.
To her surprise, Oliver and Felix were already there. Felix hovered lazily in midair, a book balanced in one hand as if broomsticks were merely floating armchairs, while Oliver barked drills like a commander at war. The twins threw themselves into it, but within ten minutes they looked ready to keel over.
“He’s mental,” Fred wheezed, hair plastered to his forehead.
“MOVE, WEASLEY, MOVE!” Oliver bellowed again.
Vera hunkered over her sketchbook, trying very hard not to look at Felix—especially since he’d made it perfectly clear last year that he wanted nothing to do with her.
“Oi, Vee!” Fred suddenly swooped low, hovering right in her space.
She jumped. “Go away, Fred! Oliver’ll skin me alive if you slack off because of me!”
“He said we can have a break,” George chimed in, smirking as he drifted down beside them.
Fred grinned. “And we thought we might teach you to fly!”
Vera’s face lit up despite herself. “Wait, really?”
“"It's the least we can offer after everything you did for us last year.” Fred said, puffing out his chest.
Vera’s grin faltered, gratitude tangling with the ache in her chest. Flying had always been a dream, and for a heartbeat she let herself imagine it. Wind in her hair, the castle looming below, freedom. Then reality pressed in: her blood still poisoned, her magic still unreliable. She couldn’t even charm a feather without risking catastrophe, so what chance did she have on a broom?
“Thanks, mates,” she said softly, forcing a smile. “But I can’t.”
George frowned. “What do you mean, you can’t?”
“I can’t even get a broom to twitch, and if I did, it’d be… a disaster.”
Fred swooped past, nearly brushing her shoulder. “Disaster’s sort of our thing. At least try.”
“I’d just fall, Freddie.”
“If you did, we’d catch you,” Fred said immediately, looping back around with a grin.
“Yeah, don’t you worry, Vee,” George echoed, drifting in lazy circles around her. “We’ve got you covered.”
“You can count on us,” Fred added, his tone unusually steady for once.
Something in Vera’s chest swelled. “Really?”
“Really.”
Their encouragement was infectious, and she finally rose to her feet, setting her notebook carefully on the grass as if she might need it again—if she survived. George glided down until his broom was level with her.
"I'll keep it afloat," he assured her, stepping down. "Just hop on, and we'll take it from there."
Summoning her courage, she swung a leg over the broom and settled on the seat. Fred and George whooped in triumph, immediately barking out instructions like Quidditch coaches. Felix lowered his book at last, and even Oliver paused his drills, hovering nearby.
Then... it happened.
The broom quivered beneath her, and slowly, impossibly, her feet lifted off the grass.
“I’M FLYING!” she cried, laughter bursting out of her.
“That’s hovering, Vee!” Fred called up, shading his eyes. “Lean forward if you want the real deal!”
She nodded, gritted her teeth, and leaned forward. For one dazzling second, the broom responded. And then—pain.
A sharp stab behind her eyes, white-hot, blinding. Her vision wavered, and the broom lurched under her hands, bucking like a wild horse.
“No, no, no—” She clung tighter, trying to force the magic steady, but the harder she focused, the worse the pain became, blooming into an excruciating headache.
“It’s alright, you’ve got it!” Oliver’s voice carried up, steady and sure.
But she didn’t. The broom jerked and shuddered violently, rising, dropping, as though desperate to throw her off. Panic clawed at her throat. She screwed her eyes shut and reached inward, summoning every scrap of control she had. For a heartbeat, the broom obeyed. Smooth. Steady.
Then, like a cannon shot, it bolted forward.
“NO!” the twins roared together.
Fred, Oliver, and Felix kicked off at once, streaking after her as she hurtled away—a blur of wind, hair, and terror. But the broom had other plans. It carried her higher and higher, straight toward the clouds. The air grew razor-cold against her cheeks; her eyes streamed from the wind. Her gloved hands slid against the polished wood, every second loosening her hold.
She dared a glance down. The emerald pitch was already shrinking into nothing, swallowed by a vast ocean of grey. The boys were specks below, their shouts torn away by the wind. No one could reach her now.
As she lost all hope of regaining control, she made a split-second decision and let go of the broom, allowing herself to fall.
The world vanished into silence. Only the shriek of air filled her ears as she plummeted, arms flailing, stomach lurching into her throat. Her body spun, weightless and doomed, until instinct kicked in—she twisted midair, trying to angle herself, praying she might soften the inevitable.
She was falling like a star ripped from the heavens, burning her way back to earth. The blue sky stretched endlessly above her, receding, abandoning her. This is it, she thought, the final flicker of her story.
She shut her eyes, clawing for a happy memory to cling to in the plunge. But instead came the golden-haired woman—her face half-hidden in dreamlight, her lullaby threading through the rush of wind. A farewell hymn, soft and tender, as though calling her home.
♪ Underneath the moonlight,
In the softness of the night,
Close your eyes, my baby girl,
Let the stars fill you with light ♪
Opening her eyes, she saw nothing but the blazing sun above. And she could swear it was smiling at her.
She braced for impact. And then—through the blur of wind and tears—she saw him. Felix, cutting through the air like an arrow, his arm stretched toward her. Her fingers clawed desperately at the empty sky, but she couldn’t reach him. Her heart sank; this was it. She shut her eyes, surrendering to the fall.
But Felix refused to surrender.
With a sharp dive, he angled his broom beneath her, looping his arm around her waist in one clean, fierce motion. The world snapped back into focus as he pulled her against him, their bodies jarring together, the broom rocking under the weight.
When she dared open her eyes again, she was tucked safely in his arms, the rush of the wind tempered now by the steady beat of his chest against her cheek. Above them, the sun burned like a halo. His eyes—dark, sharp, and impossibly calm—met hers, and something in her stomach turned over.
They descended in a controlled glide, Felix steering them earthward with precision. The second her boots hit the grass, Fred and Oliver came pelting toward them, George a step behind.
“Are you mad?” Fred’s voice cracked with relief and fury all at once.
Vera’s legs wobbled beneath her. Her vision swam, her head pounded, but she forced a crooked smile. “I’m fine,” she said, fighting the urge to retch.
“You nearly gave us all a heart attack,” Oliver wheezed, bending double with his hands on his knees. “Thought you were off to join the rest of your stars.”
She swayed slightly, catching herself, then turned toward Felix. His face was unreadable save for the flicker of worry in his eyes.
“Thank you,” she murmured, meeting his gaze.
Immediately, regret hit her. She’d spoken to him in public—directly—and anxiety gnawed at her chest. Please don’t be angry, she thought, heart hammering.
Felix remained silent, his eyes fixed on hers. Then, without a word, his icy hand cupped her face.
She blinked rapidly, stunned by the sudden move. The world seemed to slow around them, and every anxious thought she’d had about anger or punishment evaporated under his steady touch.
With his other hand, he delicately wiped the blood trickling from her nose, sending shivers crawling through her body. He cleaned his fingers on the edge of his sweater, golden stripes smudged with red, then returned to her face with meticulous care. His thumb traced over her lips, erasing the last traces of blood, and her heart fluttered with a mix of awe and alarm.
“Are you sure you’re okay?” he asked, still holding her face.
She nodded, unable to look away. But her mind whirled. He’d not only saved her life but was talking to her, really talking, in front of everyone. Maybe his family had finally softened, she thought.
Finally, Felix released her, stepping back abruptly. “You two are idiots,” he snapped at the twins, who looked sheepish and guilty.
“It’s not their fault,” she interjected quickly. “I lost control.”
“Still,” Felix glared, “they promised to catch you, and they didn’t.”
“Sorry, Vee,” Fred and George said in unison, voices dripping with contrition.
Vera forced a weak smile, pressing her fingers against her throbbing forehead in a futile attempt to ease the pounding in her skull. But then, her eyes went wide.
“My bracelet…” she whispered, voice trembling.
“What?” George asked.
“I—I lost it!”
“It must’ve fallen when you were up there,” Oliver said gently, hovering nearby.
No, no, no. The thought that her most precious possession had vanished made her stomach twist painfully. Tears sprung to her eyes as she scrambled across the pitch, desperate, frantic.
“It’s okay, Vee,” Fred said. “We’ll find it.”
“I can’t lose it!” she cried, scanning every inch of the grass and sky-worn earth.
The boys joined the search, combing the field with renewed energy, but minutes stretched into half an hour, and the bracelet was nowhere to be found.
“You were really high up,” Oliver said finally, his voice heavy with sympathy. “Honestly, it’s impossible to find it now.”
She let out a strangled sob, clutching her sketchbook like a lifeline, and stumbled away from the Quidditch pitch, tears streaming unchecked. By the time she reached the hospital wing, her face was streaked, her hair damp from her grief. Madam Pomfrey’s sharp scolding barely registered as she continued to weep, the weight of her loss pressing down like a stone in her chest.
Back in the dorm, she collapsed onto her bed, burying herself in her pillow, clutching Vinny tightly. Her body shook with exhaustion and sorrow.
“I’m sorry, Kaya,” she whispered over and over into the soft fabric, letting the willow bark settle slowly in her veins, trying to calm the storm in her heart. Sleep came at last, heavy, tear-stained, and filled with dreams of what she had lost.
Chapter 23: Morales
Summary:
Vera’s first week back at Hogwarts is pure chaos—smug classmates, burnt potions and Snape’s usual venom. But then comes Professor Morales, whose calm, cryptic presence makes her think—maybe, just maybe, this year won’t be a disaster.
Chapter Text
Monday, September 3, 1990
Vera woke up with swollen eyes and a sore throat, still harboring bitterness over the events of the previous day. With a sigh, she shut her eyes again, trying to replay the chaos of it all—the fall, the blazing sun, Felix.
She’d brushed shoulders with death and, oddly enough, felt almost calm about it. Her only true regret was losing the bracelet. The thought lodged a lump in her throat, and fresh tears threatened. But she forced them right back, sat up, and swung her legs out of bed.
In last night’s misery, she’d forgotten to prepare a single thing for her first day of classes. Panic snapped her upright, and she scrambled into her clothes, dragged a brush through her hair, grabbed her bag, and bolted for the Great Hall.
"Excited for Defense with the new professor?" Alicia asked as she slid onto the bench at the Gryffindor table.
"Oh, thrilled," Angelina drawled, chin propped on her fist.
"Let’s hope he doesn’t start dividing us," Vera muttered, pushing the milk bottle aside and reaching for a sandwich. "Because if he does, I might just set his desk on fire."
"An expert move of yours," George chimed in. "Remember Snape’s desk?"
She smirked.
"I bet he’ll be nice," Angelina said with a dreamy sigh.
"Shallow," George shot back, rolling his eyes.
"Weasley!"
Fred leaned in toward Vera. "Hey, Vee. Still upset about yesterday?"
She managed a small smile at his concern. "No, I’m fine. Promise."
"Because we’re reallyyyy sorry—"
"It’s not your fault I’m a screw-up, Freddie."
He gave her shoulder a sharp swat.
She winced. "Ow! What was that for?"
"Don’t call yourself that again."
"Alright, alright," she grumbled, rubbing her arm, though her lips twitched into the ghost of a smile.
The group made their way to their first class of the day: DADA. When they stepped into the classroom, they found the new professor bent over his desk, scribbling intently. Remarkably, the room was quiet—eerily so. Even the Slytherins, usually incapable of keeping their mouths shut, sat in orderly silence.
To Vera’s relief, seating was assigned at random. The Poshlanders had tucked themselves into one corner, leaving her blessedly out of their reach. Roger caught her eye and waved her over, patting the seat he’d saved at the front.
“Thanks, Rog,” she murmured with a smile, sliding in beside him and setting down her books.
The professor rose at that moment. “Good morning.”
“Good morning, Professor,” the class chorused automatically.
“My name is Eduardo Morales,” he said, his voice calm and measured, “and I will have the honor of teaching you Defense Against the Dark Arts this year.”
The accent wasn’t as American as she’d expected. Smooth, refined, with a clipped edge that reminded her faintly of Miss Nelson's. More polished than foreign. But what startled her most, though, was the way silence seemed to coil tighter around him without him having to raise his voice. He commanded the room without so much as a glare.
Vera studied him with interest. His hair and beard bore silvery streaks, but he looked far too young for it—late thirties at most. A gray vest hugged his frame over a crisp white shirt, his tie patterned so subtly it looked secretive. A pocket watch gleamed faintly at his waistcoat, and his sleeves were rolled neatly to the elbow.
Then she noticed it—ink curling out from beneath the rolled fabric, a tattoo etched along his forearm. Vera’s eyes widened. A tattooed professor? This was going to be interesting.
“We’ll start by getting to know each other,” Professor Morales said, his easy smile brightening the room as he slipped his hands into his pockets and strolled down the steps with unhurried confidence. “Please stand, give us your name, and share a little about yourself.”
A ripple of curiosity passed through the class. Some students leaned forward, intrigued by the professor’s casual charm, while others exchanged skeptical looks. This wasn’t the sort of formality they’d been expecting.
“We’ll begin here,” Morales decided, stopping near the front where Miles and Jane sat.
Though no order had been given, Miles leapt up as if the stage were his by right.
“Bletchley,” he declared, chest puffed. “Miles Bletchley.”
“A pleasure, Mr. Bletchley,” Morales said warmly. “And what might you share about yourself?”
Miles smirked. “I’ll be the greatest Chaser this school has ever seen.”
The twins collapsed into muffled laughter, hiding their faces in their arms.
“You may laugh now, Weasels,” Miles shot back, “but mark my words.”
“Very well,” Morales replied smoothly, his smile unwavering. “Best of luck, Mr. Bletchley.”
Miles beamed, scanning the room as if awaiting applause. Morales turned then to Jane, who looked as though she’d rather vanish into her chair. She glanced at Miles, who gave her a subtle nod, like a king granting permission.
Vera rolled her eyes.
Jane stood, voice a whisper. “My name is Jane.”
“Corrigan,” Miles cut in loudly, as though Jane couldn’t be trusted with her own surname.
Jane flinched, then forced herself onward. “Jane Corrigan.”
“Pleasure, Miss Corrigan,” Morales said gently.
“Um… something about me is that I…” Jane faltered, glancing back at Miles, who seemed to be whispering something to her. “I, uh... I have a baby vixen at home."
Vera blinked. Jane had never mentioned having a pet before, let alone that kind of pet.
“That’s wonderful, Miss Corrigan,” Morales said, encouraging her with a kind smile. “What’s her name, if I may ask?”
Jane’s lips curved into the smallest smile. “Her name is Rory.”
The professor’s smile lingered as he turned to the next pair.
“Warrington,” announced the boy with the towering hair. “Cassius Warrington. And I met with Minister Fudge this week."
The collective eye roll from the class was practically choreographed.
"He had dinner at our manor," Cassius added smugly. “He always does.”
Morales’s smile thinned, but he let the silence do the talking.
"Pucey is my name, and I have a signed Quaffle from Joey Jenkins," the next boy announced proudly, smirking at Cedric, known to be Jenkins' biggest fan.
Another round of eye rolls. It was becoming a sport.
“Dora Dlamini. I speak four languages—French, Italian, Spanish, and I’m currently studying Dutch.”
“Blimey…” Vera muttered under her breath.
“Ryujin Avery,” came the next name, spoken in a voice so deep and smooth that Vera’s stomach dropped.
Ryu stood with practiced elegance: posture immaculate, chin tipped high, dark hair parted perfectly down the middle. Taller. Sharper. Somehow… flawless.
Still perfect, she thought bitterly, and this time her eye roll wasn’t even subtle.
“My grandfather was the last dragon tamer in all of Japan,” Ryu continued. "I was named after him."
“This is torture,” Vera groaned inwardly.
She couldn’t believe she had compared herself to these people merely because of her family name. The sheer arrogance of it all made her want to choke. And yet, a pang shot through her—jealousy, sharp and raw. She couldn’t help imagining what her own life might have been like if she hadn’t been abandoned.
She bit her lip hard, shoving the thought down. No. She wouldn’t envy them. Their lives might glitter with luxury and pedigrees, but at the end of the day, she’d still rather be herself than a pure-blood zealot drowning in their own self-importance.
Her spiraling thoughts screeched to a halt when the professor’s gaze landed squarely on her.
“And you, Miss?”
She shot to her feet, heart thudding. Dozens of eyes followed, curious, expectant. She could practically hear their guesses: some dazzling anecdote about a family estate, or maybe an exotic pet with a ridiculous name. If only. She was about to disappoint the entire room with the bleak normalcy of her existence.
“My name is Vera,” she began, and paused. Black pressed against her lips but refused to escape.
“And what would you like to share with us, Vera?” Professor Morales asked smoothly, not so much as blinking at her half-introduction.
She stalled, mind scrambling. Every inch of her screamed Muggle. Football matches. Soap operas. Bargain-shop clothes. None of it belonged here. None of it was safe to say.
Finally, a spark. “I wish to become an artist, sir.”
Professor Morales’s face warmed with approval. “What kind of art?”
“Paintings,” she answered, voice steadier than she felt.
“That’s wonderful, Vera,” he said, eyes kind. “I look forward to visiting your galleries one day.” He added a playful wink, and her cheeks betrayed her, heating up at once.
She sat back down, a sudden comfort washing over her. Morales’s presence had a way of making the classroom feel less like a battlefield and more like… possibility.
As he moved on to Roger, her eyes flicked to his rolled-up sleeve. Ink curved across his forearm, an intricate design framed with words too blurred to read. She squinted, trying to decipher the symbol. Whatever it was, it wasn’t ordinary. And she was hooked.
“Now that we're done with getting to know each other,” he said, “we’ll move on to another kind of introduction. Take out a parchment and ready your quills.”
A wave of startled looks swept through the room.
“Um, Professor?” Angelina raised her hand. “What for?”
“Is this a quiz?” Kenny asked nervously.
“Sort of,” Morales replied.
The class erupted in groans.
“But we haven’t learned anything yet!” Cassius protested.
“This quiz is for me to learn about you,” Morales explained patiently. “Not the other way around. And don’t worry—it won’t affect your academic record.”
“They always say that,” Fred muttered to George, earning a snort.
“Alright then,” Morales clapped cheerfully, “let’s begin.”
Reluctantly, the students shuffled parchments across desks and unstopped ink bottles.
The twins, of course, used the moment to swap seats every thirty seconds, grinning like foxes. Morales only chuckled at the antics, much to their dismay.
Lee busied himself comforting Malika, who looked seconds away from tears, while Cedric flipped open a battered notebook and scanned his meticulous notes.
“When did you manage to write all that?” Tommy whispered.
“Some of us actually revise, Thomas,” Cedric murmured back.
Across the room, Adrian hissed toward Roger, jerking his head in command. “Oi, Davies. Over here.”
Roger hesitated, then grimaced at Vera. “Sorry. If I don’t, he’ll make my life miserable.”
“Of course he will,” Vera sighed, scooting aside as Roger switched places with Cassius.
“Brilliant,” she muttered under her breath. “This day just keeps improving.”
“Relax,” Cassius said smoothly, straightening his parchment. “If you need help, I’m here.”
She narrowed her eyes. “Actually, I do need your help with something.”
He perked up instantly. “What is it?”
“Under the desk,” she said, pointing down.
Cassius bent to look—and found himself face-to-face with her middle finger.
He straightened slowly. “Rude.”
Professor Morales settled himself on the steps, adjusting his pocket watch. “You’ll have until the end of class to write a five-hundred–word essay.”
“About what, sir?” Cedric asked, quill already poised.
“In your opinion, why is it important to study Defense Against the Dark Arts?”
“That’s it?” Miles scoffed, unimpressed.
“Yes,” Morales replied simply. “But your essay must include at least two examples with explanations. Beyond that, you have freedom.”
A ripple of uncertainty passed through the room. Some students exchanged wary looks, while others shrugged and dipped their quills.
“You may begin now.”
The soft scratch of ink filled the classroom almost immediately. Ryu and Cedric seemed to fly across their parchments, quills racing as though they’d prepared for this exact question. Meanwhile, Vera stared at her blank parchment. Her quill hovered, useless. Not a single word came.
She risked a glance sideways. Cassius was bent over his essay with focus, writing steadily. She tilted her head ever so slightly, pretending to stretch, and tried to sneak a look at what he’d written. But something else caught her eye.
Faint red marks banded his wrists. Not bruises, but scars. Burn scars.
“Trying to cheat off me?” he whispered suddenly, not looking up.
“You wish,” she muttered, forcing her eyes away from his wrists.
“My offer still stands, you know."
“Whatever,” she hissed, dragging her quill across her parchment with exaggerated determination.
Despite her efforts, her mind remained frustratingly blank. The steady scratching of quills all around her only made it worse. She tapped her own quill against the parchment, left a blot of ink, then sighed. She had retained little from Professor Frey’s lessons, hadn’t bothered with assignments, and hadn’t so much as glanced at the syllabus during the holiday break.
With only half an hour remaining, she resigned herself to jotting down whatever scraps of thought came to mind. By the time Professor Morales collected the essays, her parchment looked pitiful beside Cassius' neatly stacked pages.
“I butchered it,” Lee groaned as they spilled into the corridor. “Completely butchered it!”
“I actually liked the professor,” Patty remarked, smoothing her robes. “He seems nice.”
“So nice,” Angelina agreed dreamily, twirling a strand of hair—until George gave her a playful nudge on the head. “Ouch!”
“Oh, Professor Morales, sir,” Fred chimed in falsetto, clutching his chest as though reciting Shakespeare. “I’ve written you a love poem, sir. Roses are red, pixies are blue—”
“You’re in for it now, Weasley!” Angelina yelped, chasing after him as the others burst into laughter.
Tuesday, September 4, 1990
The remaining classes turned out to be far tougher than anyone had expected.
Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays were packed: Defense Against the Dark Arts, then Charms, Astronomy, and Herbology to finish off the day. Tuesdays and Thursdays were no kinder—Tuesdays began with Transfiguration and History of Magic before dragging them into a punishing double Potions session, while Thursdays hit just as hard with double Transfiguration, History of Magic, and Potions.
It was a schedule designed to wring out every ounce of energy and magic they had.
On the second morning, Vera hurried down the corridor, her nerves tightening with every step toward her first Potions lesson of the year. She loved the subject—she was good at it, too—but the thought of sitting under Snape’s watchful eye turned her stomach. His words from last year still clung to her like a curse.
Spoiled. Stubborn. Arrogant. Cowardly. Much like him.
The cruel comparison to her father had planted a deep resentment, especially after she had discovered the truth about Regulus’s troubled past. It was one thing to resemble him in appearance—something she had long since accepted—but to be likened to him in character was unbearable.
Still, she tried to push it aside. Perhaps Snape’s insult was nothing more than a calculated jab, a way to rattle her and harden her resolve. Perhaps he hadn’t even known her father at all. But his favoritism toward Slytherin made it harder to fully forgive him.
“Five points from Gryffindor.”
“Oh, come on!” the twins chorused in protest. “It’s only been ten minutes!”
As always, Snape began by meticulously reviewing the syllabus for the new term before plunging straight into the first chapter.
“You will be creating a potent Herbicide,” he announced. "Ensure not a single drop finds its way into the Greenhouses.”
The students exchanged wary glances.
“This potion is highly sensitive and demands constant, intense heat. You have until the end of class to complete it. I will test each batch myself to ensure it has reached the proper temperature.”
Vera felt unease tightening in her chest. She hadn’t revised over the summer—or even the weekend, as she normally would—and under Snape’s penetrating stare, she found it almost impossible to focus.
Fred and George, however, had no such trouble. They slipped a pinch of powdered dragon claw into their cauldron, grinning as a foul, vomit-like stench seeped into the dungeon. Lee’s shoulders shook with suppressed laughter when Snape leaned over their table and his expression darkened like storm clouds.
Cedric, meanwhile, sat hunched over his notebook, scribbling furiously, while Tommy leaned against the desk and teased him for overcomplicating things.
Across the room, Cassius worked with unnerving calm. His movements were precise, practiced—as though he had brewed this potion a dozen times before. Vera shot him a sidelong look, bitterness prickling as her own flame sputtered. Keeping the temperature steady felt like an impossible task.
And then, just when she thought things couldn’t possibly get worse, her stove gave a sharp pop and went out.
“Oh, come on, you piece of shite,” she hissed under her breath.
She tried to pull the cauldron off the stand, but even through her gloves the metal seared her palms. Snatching up a scrap of cloth, she shoved it aside and crouched to fuss with the stove. Sparks fizzled uselessly, and her frustration mounted with every failed attempt. And then a too-familiar voice cut through the clatter.
“Hiya, Vera.”
“What?” she snapped before she could stop herself. Her nerves were frayed, and he was the last person she wanted hovering.
“I was just wondering if you had any spare lionfish spines,” Ryu said, almost sheepishly. “Seems I lost mine.”
Her head jerked up. Lost? Avery, of all people? She flicked her gaze toward his workstation—where the lionfish spines sat, plain as day, right beside his cauldron.
Her eyes narrowed. “Really? You mean those spines over there?” She jabbed a finger in their direction.
He scratched the back of his head. “Uh, didn’t see them.”
She folded her arms. “Are you trying to sabotage my potion, Avery?”
“What? No!” he exclaimed, far too fast. “Honestly, I—just missed them.”
She rolled her eyes and bent back to relight the fire. But he didn’t leave. Instead, he lingered, watching her wrestle with the stove.
“Do you need help?” he asked.
“Do I look like I need help?”
“Yes.”
“I’m fine.”
He edged closer. “Just let me see.”
“I said I’m fine!” she snapped, her voice cracking with irritation.
Ryu ignored her and reached for the stove anyway. Standing so close, Vera was suddenly aware of how much taller he’d grown over the summer. He loomed beside her now, all long limbs and steady posture. Boys shoot up like weeds, she thought bitterly. And me? I can’t even grow an inch.
Suddenly, the stove roared to life. A burst of flame shot upward, forcing her to stumble back. Her eyes flew to Ryu—his hand was still on the stove.
“Ryu!” she gasped.
But to her astonishment, he didn’t flinch. Calm as ever, he drew his hand back, then—before she could shout at him—lifted the cauldron with his bare hands and set it neatly on the rekindled flame.
She rushed to him without thinking, seizing both his hands in her gloved ones. “Are you mad? Let me see—are you hurt?”
“No,” he answered, his eyes flickering curiously to her frantic expression.
She turned his palms over, bracing for burns, blisters—anything. But they were smooth. Untouched.
Her brows furrowed. “You’re not… hurt?”
“No,” he repeated simply.
Still bewildered, she studied his hands again. That’s when she noticed it: a silver ring on his smallest finger, etched with the coiling figure of a Japanese dragon.
He glanced down at her, a faint smile tugging at his mouth. “I’m fine,” he said again, this time with a quiet laugh.
She froze, suddenly aware she was still holding his hands. Heat prickled at her cheeks, and she released him so quickly it was almost a shove. “Good—um, ah. That’s good.”
Turning hastily back to her cauldron, she pretended to fuss with the mixture, her pulse still unsteady.
“...You’re welcome,” Ryu murmured, before strolling back to his station as if nothing unusual had happened.
She forced herself not to think about his strange calmness—or that ring—and kept her attention locked on finishing her potion. But when Snape announced the end of the assignment and began making his rounds, her confidence ebbed away.
At her cauldron, he dipped the magical thermometer, watched the numbers rise, then sneered.
“Mediocre... Just as I suspected.”
Vera clenched her jaw, biting back the retort that burned on her tongue.
“Perhaps you believed you didn't need to study anymore after last year’s marks. Arrogance, Miss Black, always precedes the fall. One would think you, of all people, might understand that.”
She exhaled sharply. “My stove cut out, sir.”
“Ah. The age-old excuse—blame the equipment.”
“It’s not my fault this school is older than the pyramids,” she shot back, her voice bold despite the hammering of her heart. “Frankly, I wouldn’t be surprised if this very stove was around when you were a student here. You know," she smirked. "A hundred years ago.”
A ripple of laughter spread through the room—even the Poshlanders couldn’t suppress their chuckles—until Snape’s hiss silenced them like a whip crack.
His expression stayed stern, but for an instant a shadow of amusement tugged at his mouth. Then he delivered the killing blow.
“Arrogant like your father, and a Muppet like his brother.”
Vera stiffened, forcing her face into a mask even as her insides twisted. Snape always knew where to cut deepest, and this time was no different. She darted a glance around the room, praying no one else had heard. But the pity in her classmates’ eyes told her otherwise.
Snape, as if bored of her already, drifted to the next cauldron. He peered into Cassius’s brew, checked the temperature, and gave a rare nod.
“Perfect, Mr. Warrington. Five points to Slytherin.”
Cassius puffed up, flashing smug grins around the room. But Vera caught something the others didn’t: the brief twitch of his hand, sharp and involuntary.
Snape turned back toward her, dark eyes glinting. “Perhaps,” he drawled, “Miss Black might benefit from your… guidance.”
She stumbled out of the dungeon half wanting to scream and half wanting to set the entire place on fire. If she were honest—and she wasn’t—she fantasized about making Snape vanish in a very tidy accident. No one would miss him, she thought, a bitter, ridiculous smile curling at the edges of the idea.
“He’s the same old Snape." Alicia murmured, catching her arm. "Ignore him, Vee.”
“It’s one thing to be a miserable professor,” Vera snapped, "and another to compare me to my bloody uncle!”
“Your uncle?” Angelina echoed. “Why, what did he do?”
Heat flooded Vera’s face as she realized her slip up. She can't let anyone near that part of her life—can’t let her friends know about her family’s crimes.
“Never mind,” she said too quickly. “I’m just going to make sure Snape never has the chance to taunt me again.”
Wednesday, September 5, 1990
As expected, none of the professors allowed her to practice spells in class, wary of the danger her unstable magic might unleash. Though her classmates had long since stopped asking about the special treatment, their silence did little to ease the sting of standing apart.
She loathed being unable to blend in, yet her greater dread was the thought of once again training under Snape. Secretly, she wished he might fall ill—or suffer some convenient mishap—anything to spare her another lesson with him.
Keeping up with her courses was a daily struggle, but one glimmer of relief came in the form of Professor Morales. His lessons had quickly become the most anticipated of the week, not just for her but for the whole class.
“Now, before we begin our first lesson, I’ll return your essays,” he announced.
A murmur of nervous whispers swept through the room.
"Butchered it!" Lee exclaimed to Malika, sharing his worry.
Professor Morales began handing back the parchments, and the class stilled in surprise—he had already memorized all of their names.
“Mr. Diggory,” he said, offering Cedric his work with a nod. “Well done.”
Cedric frowned at the page. “Um, Professor—you forgot to grade it.”
Morales only smiled and continued on. “Mr. Warrington, your essay was… very detailed.”
Cassius flipped through his sheet. “But there aren’t any notes.”
“Correct,” Morales replied simply.
“How are we supposed to know how we did?” Miles piped up.
"As I mentioned," the professor replied, "this is not a graded assignment; it's a way for me to understand you better."
The students exchanged baffled looks, then a few chuckles.
“That’s class,” Alicia whispered with a grin.
“So class,” Angelina sighed dreamily.
One by one, the papers were returned—until only Vera sat empty-handed.
“Um, Professor,” she ventured, raising her hand, “you didn’t give mine back.”
Morales paused, his expression unreadable. “Ah, yes. Please see me in my office after class. We need to discuss your work privately.”
Heat rushed to her cheeks, prickling like firewhisky. She hadn’t thought her essay was that bad.
“Ouch,” Miles drawled with a smirk, setting off a round of laughter.
Vera sank lower in her seat, wishing she could melt into the floor.
She made a valiant effort to focus through the rest of her lessons, but her mind kept drifting back to Professor Morales and whatever fault he had found in her essay. By the end of Herbology, her nerves were buzzing like restless bees. She slipped out the greenhouse door, eager to get the meeting over with.
“Here, take this,” Sarah said suddenly, blocking her path and pressing something small and brittle into her palm: a dead beetle, black with streaks of crimson.
“Um… what’s this for?”
Sarah grinned. “Good luck charm.”
Vera let out a nervous laugh and tucked the beetle into her hair. “Thanks, I’ll need it.”
As she approached Morales’s office, she noticed the door stood slightly ajar. Heart pounding, she raised her hand and knocked softly.
“Come in, Vera,” his voice called smoothly from within.
She stepped inside. The small room looked more like a storm had passed through than a professor’s office. Books leaned in precarious towers, parchment littered every surface, and quills lay abandoned in ink-stained mugs.
A curious smell hung in the air—a strange blend of cigarettes, cologne, and old paper.
Professor Morales sat behind his desk, a book open in his hands. The instant she entered, he closed it with deliberate calm, slipping it into a drawer. She caught only a flash of its crimson cover, marked with the sketch of a single, watchful eye.
“Please,” he said, gesturing to one of the chairs before him.
She moved to sit, only to find both chairs stacked high with books and loose parchment.
“Ah—my apologies.” Morales gave a rueful smile. “I haven’t had much time to organize.”
“It’s alright,” she replied, returning his smile though her stomach still knotted with nerves.
She picked up a stack of papers from one of the chairs to clear a space. As she held them, her eyes wandered, and she couldn’t resist glancing at the title scrawled across the top sheet:
The Siege of Everbrook
By Eduardo Morales
“You write books, sir?” she asked. Perhaps Kenny had been right about him after all.
Professor Morales gave a nervous smile. “Ah… yes, I do.”
But before she could look further into the stack, he quickly plucked it from her hands and slipped it into a drawer.
“That’s mint!” she exclaimed. “What’s it about?”
“I’m afraid they’re rather dull,” he chuckled lightly. “Just a bit of recent wizarding history I was working on before I came to Hogwarts.”
“I can’t wait to read it, sir!” she said politely, hoping her enthusiasm might soften his judgment of her essay.
“Thank you,” he replied warmly, though there was a faint sadness behind his smile. “But I doubt it will ever be published.”
“Why not?”
He hesitated, furrowing his brow as though weighing how much to say. “Because many people believe some things are best left forgotten.”
Vera didn’t quite grasp his meaning, but she nodded all the same.
“Speaking of history…” he opened the drawer again, this time withdrawing her essay. “I must say, Vera, what you wrote here… quite surprised me.”
Oh, shite, she thought, bracing herself.
“It was very different and unexpected.”
Sweat prickled her forehead.
“And I must commend you for it.”
Wait—what? He liked it?
He stood, moving around the desk to lean casually against the wall. “While most of your classmates wrote about werewolves, vampires, and other dark creatures, you drew examples from…” He paused, his gaze locking with hers. “Muggle history.”
“I’m sorry, sir,” she blurted, her pulse racing. “I didn’t study over the holiday.”
“Don’t apologize,” he reassured with an easy smile. “It’s actually impressive that you’re so well-informed about these events. Even more impressive how you wove them into a magical context.”
Her lips twitched into a smile—though inwardly she was screaming with joy.
“The First World War, for example—very well done. But how did you come across it?”
Vera bit her lip, scrambling for a safe answer that wouldn’t betray too much of her life outside Hogwarts.
“Um, I read a book about the war once, and it stuck with me.”
“Remarkable!” Morales said, eyebrows lifting. “And this other example you used… it’s quite recent.” He skimmed the essay again. “Are you familiar with Irish politics?”
“Oh—uh—it’s my cook back home, sir,” she said quickly. “She’s Irish, and she tells me stories from home.”
She kept quiet about catching news reports of the Troubles on TV, fearing how he might view her Muggle activities.
“I see.” He nodded thoughtfully. “You’re a listener.”
“A… listener?”
“You take in what people say. You remember. That’s rarer than you think these days.”
Vera flushed, awkward but secretly pleased. “Um, thank you…”
“Now, Vera, there’s one thing I wanted to ask you about,” he said, returning to his desk and removing his round glasses. “In your essay, you wrote about defense, but you also used another word... Resistance.”
Vera tilted her head, confused. She hadn’t considered the weight of her choice.
“Why did you use that word, Vera?”
“I… I don’t know,” she admitted, fidgeting slightly. “It’s just a word Mrs. Quinn uses all the time, so I thought it meant the same as defense.”
“I see… They are similar, but there’s a subtle difference. Do you know what it is?”
“No, sir.”
“Defense is protective,” he began, interlacing his fingers on the desk. “Like building a fence around your home to keep burglars out. Resistance, on the other hand, is reactionary—it comes into play when all defenses have failed.”
Noticing her furrowed brow, he moved his chair closer and leaned in slightly.
“Think of it this way,” he said gently. “Defense is protecting your house from being stolen. Resistance is fighting to reclaim it once it has been.”
He put on his glasses, giving her a faint smile. “While the difference may seem trivial, many people see one as justified and the other… not.”
“Which one?” she asked, curiosity tugging at her.
“Let’s leave that for another day,” he said with a chuckle. “I wouldn’t want to bore you with another linguistic digression.”
Vera returned his smile, amused and a little baffled. She wondered why would a writer concerned with grammar be teaching defense against the dark arts.
“I was informed by Professor Dumbledore about your condition,” he continued.
Her smile faltered instantly.
“So, I’m afraid you won’t be able to participate in any of my practical classes.”
Vera bit her lip, a bitter sting rising in her chest.
“Yet,” he added.
“Yet?”
“I will be taking charge of your training instead of Professor Snape this year.”
She wanted to scream. Actually, scream.
“You, sir!” she blurted, struggling to keep her composure.
“Indeed,” he said, smiling, clearly entertained by her reaction. “However, we’ll begin in October—I’m still settling in.”
“That’s alright, sir!” she replied, practically bouncing with excitement.
As she left his office, her steps nearly skipping with joy at the thought of being free from Snape’s oppressive presence, she plucked the dead beetle Sarah had given her from her hair and kissed it.
“THANK YOU!”
Chapter 24: The Grudge
Summary:
Vera’s gratitude backfires when her public gift to Felix earns her nothing but his cold dismissal. Nursing the sting, she vows never to forgive him—until Percy lets slip a brutal secret that flips her entire perspective.
Chapter Text
Saturday, September 8, 1990
As Gryffindor tower buzzed with anticipation for the upcoming Quidditch trials, it seemed less like a common room and more like a military camp. In one corner, Fred and George were hard at work "revolutionizing" broomstick design.
"Picture this," Fred announced, "a broom that swerves away from Bludgers on its own!"
"And one that cheers on the Chasers mid-dive!" George added.
Across the room, Angelina and Alicia were plotting like generals before battle. Angelina scribbled furiously, parchment littered with arrows and circles, while Alicia jabbed her quill at the page. And then there was Lee, gleefully narrating the madness in his best commentator voice.
"And behold—Alicia Spinnet, soaring with the grace of a Hippogriff on holiday!" he boomed, narrowly dodging a cushion lobbed at his head as the room erupted in laughter.
Meanwhile, Oliver Wood had vanished. Rumor had it he was lying low to escape the twins’ latest campaign of bribes. Whenever he surfaced, they leapt on him like starving Nifflers, armed with fresh incentives: self-correcting quills, sweets that triggered unstoppable giggles, or—most dangerously—the right to name Gryffindor’s next mascot.
While the whole castle roared with Quidditch fever, Vera had slipped away into a different kind of chaos—the kitchens.
"So you’re telling me Koinks has no secret ingredients?" she pressed, looming over a weary-looking house elf who was just trying to get on with his evening.
"No, Miss, as I’ve already said—no secret ingredients!"
Vera frowned, unconvinced. "It just doesn’t make sense. There has to be more to it."
The elf clutched a mixing spoon like a weapon of last resort. "May I please use the oven now?" he asked, his patience fraying with every syllable.
"In just a minute," she promised, eyes darting toward the tray of cookies she was fussing over.
"You’ve been saying that for an hour," the elf groaned.
Vera barely heard him. She was too busy piping sugar into broomsticks and a golden snitch, each one glinting under the warm kitchen lights. It was a ridiculous amount of effort, but after Felix had saved her life, a simple “thanks” felt inadequate.
At last, she stepped back, admiring her handiwork with a proud grin. "Perfect."
On her way to the Great Hall, she wrestled with a dilemma: should she give Felix the cookies in private, or present them openly? After all, he had saved her life, spoken to her in front of others, and—most disarming of all—gently wiped the blood from her lips. That hardly suggested their so-called “agreement” still meant anything.
Bolstered by this thought, she decided not to skulk in shadows. If Felix no longer cared to keep their connection quiet, neither would she.
Spotting him at the Gryffindor table, she slid onto the bench beside Percy, directly across from him. The boys were locked in animated debate about the upcoming trials.
"For the last time, Fred," Oliver groaned. "NO."
Fred shrugged. "Your loss."
"More like the team’s loss," George chimed in.
Oliver shot him a look. "I’ll take my chances."
Before the twins could reply, Alicia leaned across the table, eyes glittering with mischief. "Bobbin, lend me your broom for the trials? Pretty please?"
Felix offered her a polite, tight-lipped smile. "Sorry, can’t."
"You’ll all use the same brooms," Oliver cut in firmly. "Fairness and all that."
Alicia groaned, slumping dramatically. "Ugh! Ruining all my plans."
Vera waited for a lull in the endless Quidditch chatter, her mind split between boredom at broomstick jargon and the flutter of anticipation in her chest. At last, she drew a steadying breath, cleared her throat, and slid the tray forward.
“Um… Felix?”
He turned, brows knitting the instant he realized she was speaking to him. His fork froze midair, suspended halfway to his mouth, before his eyes locked on hers.
“I made these for you,” she said softly.
His gaze flicked from her to the tray of carefully decorated cookies—broomsticks and a golden snitch glistening with sugar. But instead of warming, his expression darkened, a shadow crossing his face.
“To say thank you,” she added, her nervous smile wobbling.
The clatter of metal rang out as Felix dropped his fork, the sound slicing through the din of the hall. The table fell silent. Dozens of curious eyes turned toward them.
Felix’s jaw tightened, his glare sharp enough to cut glass. Then, without a word, he shoved back his bench, fists clenched, and stormed away. His abrupt exit sent whispers rippling through the room.
Vera sat frozen, the tray still hovering in her hands like a ridiculous prop. Her heart plummeted as the sting of humiliation settled in. Around her, the silence fractured into murmurs and sideways glances, leaving her stranded in the center of the spectacle—cookies and all.
Lee leaned closer, brows knitting. “What on earth was that about?” he said, eyes darting toward the doors Felix had stormed through.
Vera swallowed hard, her throat tight. Words refused to come. She lowered her gaze to the tray of cookies, their bright frosting suddenly looking childish and absurd. With trembling fingers, she slid the tray back onto the table.
From further down, Angelina whispered to Percy. “Do you know what’s going on?”
Percy’s polished composure faltered for once. “I—ah—it’s nothing,” he said quickly, eyes fixed on his plate.
Fred raised a brow. “Oh, come off it, Perce. You clearly know something. What’s eating him?”
“Just… leave it,” Percy said firmly. Then, he leaned toward Vera, lowering his voice. “Why in Merlin’s name would you do that?”
She flinched. “I was only—”
“You should know better, Vera,” he cut in, his voice sharp. “You’re not a child anymore.”
And with that, he stood abruptly and strode after Felix, leaving her reeling.
Her eyes stung as tears gathered, Percy's words slicing deeper than Felix’s anger. She blinked hard and forced them back, unwilling to cry here, in front of all of them.
“Vera?” Fred asked gently, concern softening his normally playful tone.
She gave a brittle smile. “I’m fine.”
George wasn’t convinced. “What did Percy say to you?”
“Just drop it!” Oliver snapped, his voice cracking like a whip across the table. Then, more softly, he added, “Vera… go wash your face.”
The pitying eyes around her burned worse than the tears. She shook her head faintly at Oliver’s gentle smile, then rose quietly, slipping away from the table toward the lavatory, her retreat shadowed by whispers and unanswered questions.
The bathroom was mercifully empty. The moment the door swung shut behind her, she broke. Tears spilled over as she clutched the edge of the sink, her body trembling with the weight of Felix’s rejection and Percy’s cutting words. The tiled walls carried back the sound of her quiet sobs, hollow and relentless, until it felt like the room itself was weeping with her.
Her thoughts spun, sharp and desperate. What if she told him the truth? That she had no family to stand by her. That she carried their name but none of their loyalty. Would it matter? Would Felix believe her?
Her chest tightened as the answer came. No.
Nothing she said could untangle her from the name she bore. To him, to all of them, she would always be a Black.
She splashed water over her face again and again, as though she could wash away the features staring back at her.
“I’m not them,” she whispered. “I’m not…”
She stared at her reflection in the mirror. Blue eyes, dark hair, proud angles of bone—unknown to her, she was them, all them.
She finally dragged herself back toward the Great Hall, each step was heavy, as though the floor itself resisted her. Breathing hurt. Thinking hurt. Yet beneath the ache, a spark burned steady.
Felix was wrong.
He had no right to measure her against her grandfather’s sins. He had told her once that blood wasn’t everything—that she was more than her lineage. And now he spat on his own words.
Yes, he had saved her life, and she owed him gratitude. But gratitude did not demand swallowing humiliation. And it certainly did not mean she had to bow beneath his disdain.
When she slid back into her seat, a quiet resolve settled inside her. The ache lingered, sharp and raw, but beneath it something steadier stirred: she would not let rejection define her.
“Are you okay?” Angelina’s voice was soft, tinged with concern.
Vera forced a smile and busied herself with her plate, hoping the clink of cutlery would shield her from further questions. Around her, the others exchanged glances, curiosity flickering in their eyes. She ignored it, praying they’d never learn the truth.
The very thought of it—their faces when they discover her family’s crimes—was enough to turn her stomach. And worse still: what if Percy told the twins? Or Kenny’s grandmother let something slip without meaning to? Each possibility pressed like a cold hand against her spine. She forced down another bite, as though food could drown her thoughts.
The silence grew taut, stretched thin. Then Oliver, with uncanny timing, cut through it.
“These cookies look brilliant, Vera,” he said warmly, his smile easing the edges of the tension. “Did you make them yourself?”
She nodded quickly, grateful for the shift in focus.
“Well then,” he went on, a mischievous glint in his eye, “I might just smuggle them back to the dorm. If you don't mind.”
She managed a small, genuine smile. “Yeah… sure.”
“Grand,” Oliver beamed, his Scottish lilt softening the mood further as he gathered up the tray.
Watching him walk off with the cookies, she felt a faint glimmer of relief. His easy kindness reminded her that not everyone weighed her down with her family’s sins. Some saw her—just Vera—and for now, that was enough to breathe a little easier.
“So?” Fred demanded the moment Oliver disappeared with the tray.
“So… what?” Vera replied lightly, stabbing at her potatoes.
“What in Merlin’s stinky beard was that about? Why did Bobbin storm off like that?”
“I don’t know,” she muttered, eyes fixed firmly on her plate. “Maybe he doesn’t like sweets.”
“Don’t fob us off,” Alicia pressed. “Tell us.”
“Yeah,” Lee added. “We’re your friends.”
“I swear, it’s nothing!” she snapped, exasperation creeping into her voice.
“Then what did Percy say?" George asked. "To make you cry..."
“Percy didn’t make me cry,” she sighed, shifting uncomfortably.
“He whispered something to you,” Lee persisted, “and then you—”
“No!” She cut him off sharply. “Can we just bloody eat?”
Alicia scoffed, crossing her arms. “Excuse us for being worried.”
Vera groaned, pressing her palms to her eyes. “I’m sorry. I’m just… sorry.”
The tension softened as Fred reached across, resting a hand on her shoulder. She lifted her gaze to meet theirs—wide, desperate, pleading for them to let it go.
“Look,” she said quietly. “It’s not something I can talk about, alright? So… can we please just drop it?”
The group exchanged uneasy glances, curiosity still burning behind their eyes. But one by one, they relented, shifting the conversation elsewhere. Relief mingled with guilt in Vera’s chest as she sat back, the noise around her swelling again. For now, at least, her secret was safe.
Saturday, September 15, 1990
Days passed quickly, and the drama with Felix faded into the background as all eyes turned to the upcoming Quidditch trials.
Amidst the excitement, Vera felt lonelier than ever. She didn’t share her peers’ obsession with broomsticks and Bludgers. Tommy and Cedric were buried in practice, Kenny lingered with older students, Sarah and Maddie busied themselves in the gardens without inviting her, and even Patty and Malika seemed distracted.
But solitude was no stranger. She had lived half her short life in its embrace.
She found comfort in her own quiet pursuits: sneaking through corridors with the Marauders Map, doodling, scribbling baking recipes into her journal, writing letters to Kaya. Sometimes she chattered away to the castle’s portraits, who were far better listeners than most students. She even tried narrating Coronation Street to the ghosts, though it nearly bored them into a second death.
The library became her second refuge. She was hungry to learn more wizarding history—anything that might impress Professor Morales during their next training session.
It was on her way there one afternoon that a flash of grey darted across the corridor. Scabbers. The rat bolted ahead, and she gave chase, finally scooping him up near the library doors.
“You’re a little bugger, aren’t you?” she laughed, holding the wriggling rodent at arm’s length. “Let’s go find Percy, shall we?”
Inside, she spotted the red-haired boy sitting with Penelope Clearwater, Oliver, and someone hidden behind a book.
“Percy,” she announced, tossing Scabbers into his lap. “Your rat reallyyyy hates me.”
“Thanks for getting him back,” Percy said briskly. “He isn’t normally hostile. Are you sure you weren’t… provoking him?”
“Pfft, as if. Not my fault he’s a wanker.”
Penelope and Oliver burst out laughing. Percy glowered. But before Vera could gloat, a whisper came from behind the book:
“Big word for a little girl.”
Vera froze, her stomach lurching as she recognized the voice. The table fell into silence, every eye flicking between her and the hidden figure.
“I’m not little,” she shot back, more defensive than she intended.
The book lowered, and Felix’s gaze met hers. “But you are.”
Her jaw tightened. What game was this? He had been the one so adamant about not speaking to her in public, yet here he was, tossing jabs like it was nothing.
And God, she hated being called little.
Felix returned to his book, and she felt the urge to challenge him. Let him get angry—she was tired of his moods, his shifting rules.
Glancing at the cover, she immediately recognized his book as one of Miss Nelson's favorites. The kind matron would share every story she read with her, and she had them all memorized.
She crossed her arms and leaned into her smirk. “You know… Jane Austen’s books are for girls.”
The rest of the group looked surprised. Perhaps they were taken aback that a pureblood aristocrat like her would know Jane Austen, the Mugglest of Muggles.
Felix lowered the book again. “They’re also for Muggles. Yet here we are. Who decides what’s for whom, exactly?”
The logic sank in, leaving her momentarily speechless.
“Have you read it?” he pressed.
“Of course,” she shot back.
She hadn’t.
“Really?” His smirk was razor-thin.
“Yes,” she said firmly, lifting her chin.
“Then what do you think of it?”
She swallowed nervously. She only knows about Pride and Prejudice from Miss Nelson, and realized she was now treading into unfamiliar territory discussing it.
“I think it’s… nice.” She began hesitantly.
Felix narrowed his eyes. “Hmm.”
She composed herself, trying to recall the details of it, and Miss Nelson’s explanations.
“But,” she continued cautiously. “I don’t understand why people think it’s a love story when it’s clearly about family."
That silenced him—and the others.
“You don’t think it’s about love?” he asked at last.
“Of course it is,” she shot back, “but Elizabeth loved what Darcy could give her family just as much as she loved him.”
The group’s eyes ping-ponged between them.
“And what was that?” Felix pressed.
She rolled her eyes. “Money, obviously.”
His mouth curved in the faintest smile. “So you think she’s shallow?”
“Not shallow,” she snapped. “Practical. She was trying to help her family.”
He leaned forward, gaze fixed on her. “If that’s true, why not marry Collins?”
“Because Collins had money. Darcy had wealth and more than that.”
“So in your opinion, it still comes down to money.”
“Everything comes down to money, Bobbin. Do you really think she’d look twice at him if he were poor—especially after he insulted her family?”
Felix held her gaze. “And what about him?”
“Him?”
“Darcy. Was it not love from his side? Or was it just about the money, too? You think Elizabeth seeing his wealth and swallowing her pride was what made him love her? I don’t think so. He loved her from the start, wealth was indifferent to him. So no, not everything is about money.”
Her throat tightened. How could he ever understand? A boy who’d never had to worry about money in his life.
“Darcy is different.” she said.
“Why?”
“Because he can afford love.”
“And Elizabeth can’t?”
“No. She has to settle for it.”
For the first time, Felix looked genuinely impressed. “Perhaps you’re not so little after all.”
She smirked, matching his gaze. “And perhaps Jane Austen isn’t just for girls after all.”
He chuckled, lifting his book again, a faint smile tugging at his lips.
Vera rolled her eyes and turned to leave.
"See you later, everyone," she said, walking away. As she stuck her tongue out at Scabbers, she added, "You too…" then, subtly glanced up from Scabbers to Felix, "…wanker."
Saturday, September 22, 1990
The long-awaited day of the Quidditch trials finally swooped in, and Vera marched to the stands armed with her arsenal of crafted signs. Each poster was a masterpiece of questionable artistry: roaring lions, broomsticks, and motivational slogans dripping with glitter that would haunt the pitch for weeks.
She plopped down beside Lee, Kenny, and Katie, surrounded by older Gryffindors who eyed her enthusiasm with weary patience.
On the field, the twins, Alicia, and Angelina zoomed about like caffeinated bats, executing Oliver’s drills with just enough flair to show they meant business.
Vera and Lee had dedicated the entire previous night to creating spirited chants in support of them. When Fred and George took their turn, they leapt to their feet, enthusiastically hoisting their signs high above their heads.
Fred and George, the mighty pair,
In the air, without a care!
Twins so tricky, oh what a sight,
Bringing laughter to our night!
Go lions, show your flair,
With your brooms up in the air!
Score those goals, make us proud,
Send those Bludgers through the clouds!
The twins’ egos seemed to be the real fuel in their broomsticks as they weaved through the air, throwing in flourishes like they were already stars of the team. Vera’s throat was raw from cheering, but that hardly stopped her from shrieking herself hoarse with every barrel roll.
Percy, abandoning his post beside Penelope, slid into the seat next to her. “If you two poured half this effort into your studies, we’d have the House Cup in the bag.”
Vera grinned. “Effort goes where the heart leads, Percy!”
He arched a brow. “That’s rather poetic. Where is it from?"
"I just came up with it."
"Impressive."
The stands erupted again as Felix pushed the boys harder, putting them through tighter formations. Vera clapped along with the crowd but kept her eyes firmly away from him. She couldn’t stomach looking at him—not after the sharp words and colder silences that had replaced their fragile truce.
Percy noticed. Of course he did. Where a moment ago she had been all noise and laughter, now she sat folded in on herself, staring at her hands as if they held the answers she didn’t want to say aloud.
“You’re not angry with me, are you?” he leaned in. “For what I said the other day?”
She blinked at him, surprised by the question. His words had stung, but she’d never taken them as cruelty—just Percy being Percy: earnest, blunt, and far too serious for his own age.
“Of course not,” she said gently. “You were right. I should’ve known better.”
“I don’t even know why I said it. It’s not as if you knew.”
Her jaw tightened. “I do know.”
“You do?”
“My grandfather… he—” The words caught in her throat, too jagged to voice.
“So you understand why Felix reacted the way he did?”
“Yes. But Percy, he saved my life!”
“And you had every right to thank him. But… he can’t be seen talking to you.”
“But he did! In front of you, Oliver, Penelope—Fred and George!”
“Oliver, Penelope, and I are his best friends. We’d never breathe a word. And my brothers—well, they’re oblivious half the time. But everyone else? They’d see it differently.”
“Oh…” The sound was small, ashamed. “I was so stupid.”
"Don't be too hard on yourself. Felix could have handled it better, but I think he was just overwhelmed. You know about his family—" he suddenly paused as if unsure how to continue.
"Yes?"
"His father is very strict, Vera. And the Bobbin family holds traditions in high regard. They consider what happened to his uncle Julius an offense against them all. According to their customs, they hold your entire family responsible for his death, not just your grandfather. That's why he can't talk to you; they see you as connected to that offense in some way. Even though you had nothing to do with it, and neither did your own father."
She swallowed. “So if they found out Felix spoke to me—what then?”
His gaze met hers, full of reluctant sorrow. “They’d disown him, Vera.”
Her heart plummeted as Percy’s words sank in. She had never grasped the iron weight of the Bobbins’ traditions—their grudges apparently ran as deep as their vaults.
But then why had Felix risked it? Why had he spoken to her at all? Why had he saved her life so readily, if she was supposed to be his enemy? Why didn’t he carry his family’s hatred in the same way they did?
The questions churned in her mind like a storm she couldn’t calm.
Her gaze drifted back to the pitch. Felix cut through the air on his broom, sharp and effortless, and the sight twisted something inside her. To stand against his family—even in small ways—he had to be braver than she had ever given him credit for.
Regret pricked her like pins. She thought of the clumsy cookies in the Great Hall, of the careless insult she’d flung at him in the library. All of it seemed so childish now.
Julius Bobbin’s death had become more than a ghost story whispered in corridors—it was a wound that time hadn’t healed, one Felix was forced to bleed for. And she, in her ignorance, had only made it worse.
She pressed her lips together and made a silent promise: never again would she judge someone before knowing the whole story.
Friday, September 28, 1990
She promised herself she wouldn’t seek Felix out—not a word, not a glance—unless he wanted her to. That was easy enough. Their paths rarely crossed anyway… except on Fridays, when her Herbology lesson followed the fourth years’.
A few days later, fate clearly decided to test her resolve. On her way to the greenhouses, she spotted him leaving class with his friends. Instinct took over—eyes down, pace quickened, alternate route engaged. But Felix had other plans.
He stopped mid-step, crouched as if to tie his shoe, and let the rest of his classmates drift ahead. Then, as they passed each other, his shoulder brushed lightly against hers.
“Haven,” he breathed, so quietly she almost wondered if she’d imagined it.
Her heart gave a startled thud. She turned, half expecting a smirk or a second glance, but he just kept walking, hands in pockets, as though nothing had happened. She forced herself back into conversation with Tommy, though her words were on autopilot—the single word Haven echoing over and over in her mind.
By the end of Herbology, curiosity had outmuscled caution. She found her feet carrying her down familiar corridors until she reached the unassuming door tucked behind a forgotten stretch of hallway.
The room beyond—his so-called Haven—was just as she remembered: tucked away from the world, humming faintly with old magic and softer music. She pushed open the door and stepped inside.
"I was worried you hadn’t heard me," Felix said with an easy smile, lounging on the little sofa. As she made her way in, he swiftly sat up, running a hand through his hair.
"I was still in the gardens," she explained. "Helping Sarah catch a butterfly."
"Did you?"
"Yeah."
"What did it look like?"
"Um… orange."
He tilted his head, eyes narrowing just a touch. "Change is on the horizon."
She blinked. "What?"
"Nothing." His lips twitched, but he said no more.
They continued to stare at each other, both silent. Then—
"I'm sorry," they blurted out at the same time.
Vera laughed, a light, unguarded sound that made his smile widen.
"What are you sorry for?" she said. "I was the one—"
"I'm sorry for being rude," he cut in quickly. "You were kind, and I… acted like a jerk."
She shrugged. "You were upset. I get it."
He held her gaze for a long moment, words lingering unsaid, before he finally moved. Pushing himself off the sofa, he leaned back against the wall, arms folded loosely.
"I loved your cookies," he said suddenly. "They were brilliant."
Her brow furrowed, caught off guard. “Yo-you actually got them?”
"Oliver brought them to the dorm," he replied with a small grin. "Told me you’d made them yourself."
Her cheeks warmed despite herself, the mixture of Oliver’s thoughtfulness and Felix’s compliment stirring something she couldn’t quite name.
"The truth is," he went on, "I wasn’t angry that you spoke to me in front of everyone. I was angry at the situation itself."
"The situation?"
"That I couldn’t be friends with someone as kind as you, all because of some stupid—" He broke off, frustration flickering across his face. "I mean, who does that? Giving such a thoughtful and lovely gift to someone they know they can't truly be friends with?"
"What I did was nothing compared to what you’ve done," she said quietly. "I mean, you caught me, Felix. If it weren’t for you, I would have—"
"I would always catch you."
The words stopped her cold. His loyalty, his kindness—so freely given despite everything—felt impossible. If she were in his place, she would have clung to the grudge without hesitation. But Felix was different. Felix was better.
"I was worried about you," he admitted after a pause. "Watching you fall—it was..." He trailed off.
"I’m sorry," she murmured.
"But I was also impressed."
"Impressed?" she echoed, frowning. "By what?"
"Your speed. I’ve always thought you’re a natural."
She let out a disbelieving laugh. "Are you taking the piss?"
“No.”
“I was a bloody disaster.”
"It wasn’t your fault."
"Oh? Then whose fault was it?"
"The broom’s," he said simply. "It couldn’t handle you. You were too strong for it."
"Now you’re definitely taking the piss."
He laughed—a real, unguarded laugh that deepened the dimple in his cheek. She’d never noticed it before, and the discovery startled her more than she cared to admit.
"I'm serious," he continued, his tone growing earnest as he stared down at his feet. "You should consider trying out for the seeker position next year."
"Why, are you planning on leaving?" she teased with a giggle, but he responded with nothing but silence, his expression neutral, and his eyes still down.
She sensed his discomfort and hurried to cut through the silence. “Um, Felix?”
“Yes?”
“I do understand your situation. And I promise I’ll never cause you harm again.”
He drew a slow breath, his gaze darting away before it returned to her. “So Percy told you, then? About my family’s…” He bit down on the word, jaw tightening. “…traditions.”
She nodded, unsettled by the way the word seemed to taste bitter on his tongue.
“I don’t agree with them,” he said quickly. “Just so you know.”
“I know,” she murmured, her fingers fussing nervously in her lap.
“But perhaps we really shouldn’t be talking to each other.”
She snapped her head up, eyes wide.
“Because you embarrassed me that day in the library,” he finished, his mouth curving into a grin. “I honestly thought I had a solid argument.”
Relief washed over her in an awkward laugh. “Oh… sorry about that.”
“Don’t be. You were right. Once I finished the book, I saw your point. Though I still refuse to believe everything boils down to money.”
She wished desperately that he was right about that.
“How do you know that story, anyway, Vera?”
“Oh, um… my governess.” The lie rolled off her tongue, but guilt clung to it. For reasons she couldn’t name, lying to him felt worse than to anyone else.
“You ought to be careful with Muggle literature,” he warned lightly. “I can imagine your family wouldn’t be thrilled.”
Her gaze sank to her shoes, the weight of her mistakes stacking one atop the other.
“Now tell me,” he leaned closer. “Who’s ‘K’?”
Her eyes widened. “How did you—?”
He stepped forward, slow and deliberate, his gaze locked on hers. Her heart thumped erratically as she noticed his hand dip into his pocket.
And then... he pulled out her bracelet.
“YOU FOUND IT!” she burst, unable to keep her excitement contained.
He gave a small nod. “Spent the whole week looking for it. Wood scolded me, but… worth it.”
“Worth what?”
“Seeing you smile like that.”
Touched by his thoughtfulness—and the lengths he’d gone—she acted on impulse and... hugged him.
As she tightened her arms around him, she felt his body tense slightly, a faint crimson creeping up his cheeks. His usual composure faltered, and for a heartbeat, he looked genuinely caught off guard.
Realizing her boldness, she pulled back slightly, cheeks flaming. “I-I’m sorry..."
Felix offered a small, slightly awkward smile. “It’s… okay. Really. I’m just glad I could help.”
She nodded, a shy smile playing on her lips as she released her hold on him. She stepped back, allowing a comfortable distance to return between them, though the memory of their shared moment lingered in the air.
Then, with gentle care, he took her hand, wrapping the bracelet around her wrist and using his wand to repair it.
"You still haven't told me who 'K' is," he remarked playfully.
“She’s like a sister to me,” she said softly, a fond smile spreading across her face.
“Then I hope she knows how much you love her.”
Her smile deepened, happiness bubbling inside her.
“You better go now,” he said with a teasing lilt.
As she turned toward the door, a lingering smile on her lips, he called after her.
“Vera?”
“Yes, Felix?”
“Noli desperare.”
Chapter 25: Wallflower
Summary:
Cedric’s birthday is looming, and Vera took it upon herself to make sure it’s flawless. But the party she imagined will be magical ends up quietly… heartbreaking.
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Monday, October 1, 1990
“What’s his favorite color?”
“Yellow. Obviously.”
She jotted it down with purpose. “And his favorite animal?”
“Dragons, I’d say. Though he’s soft for dogs too.”
She scribbled faster. “Favorite flower?”
Tommy snorted. “Don’t be daft, Vee. Boys don’t do flowers.”
“Everyone does.”
“Oh yeah? What’s yours then?”
She paused dramatically, then grinned. “Poppies!”
“Poppies? The dullest of the lot.”
“Excuse you. They’re iconic. Anyway—what’s his middle name?”
“Why on earth does that matter?”
“Just tell me, Tommy!”
“I actually don’t know.”
“He’s your best mate, and you don’t know his middle name?”
“Do you know mine?”
“Do you know mine?”
He smirked. “That’s a trick question. You don’t have one.”
“How’d you know that?”
“I’ve got my ways.”
She narrowed her eyes at him. “Suspicious…”
“More suspicious—why don’t you have one?”
“Focus!” She waved him off. “We need every detail perfect for his birthday.”
“You baking the cake yourself?”
“Of course. Should I write ‘Happy Birthday Cedric,’ or keep it simple with ‘Happy Birthday’?”
“How about ‘Happy Birthday Snorty’?”
Her eyes sparkled. “Brilliant. Absolutely brilliant.”
“What’s brilliant?” Cedric’s voice broke in as he dropped onto the bench beside them in the gardens.
Vera snapped her notebook shut and stuffed it into her robes with suspicious speed. “The weather,” she lied smoothly.
Tommy gave her a solemn nod for her lightning-fast lying skills.
Cedric frowned. “I told you to wait for me.”
“You were ages,” Tommy drawled. “Honestly, mate, what’s McGonagall want with you every single day?”
“She fancies him,” Vera said, waggling her eyebrows.
Cedric tugged her hair with mock offense. “Take it back!”
“Never." She teased, her hair still in his grip. "You’re basically her tea-time sweetheart.”
He tugged tighter. “Want to lose your hair, Piggy?”
“I’ll bloody kill you first.”
“Oi!” Tommy threw up his hands. “Save the murder until after the Quidditch results, yeah?”
Vera gasped. “Shite—I forgot the trials list comes out today!”
“Before dinner,” Cedric said, letting go of her hair.
She leaned in, squinting. “You’re nervous.”
“Pfft. No.”
"Yeah, you are. Your cheeks always turn red when you're nervous."
"But they also turn red when he's shy,” Tommy interjected, “or sad, or scared, or angry-"
“WE GET IT,” Cedric snapped, face redder by the second.
Vera smirked. “See? Nervous.”
“I am not. Don’t care either way.”
“Oh, Snorty,” she cooed, flinging her arms around him, “you’re in for sure.”
“You reckon?”
“Positive. If you didn’t, I’d torch the Quidditch pitch myself.”
Cedric grinned. “You’d do that for me, Piggy?”
“Don’t flatter yourself,” Tommy cut in. “She’d burn it anyway.”
“I would,” Vera agreed with a huff. “Quidditch is a crime against humanity.”
"Never thought someone like you would say that." Cedric remarked.
"Why?"
"Didn't your family own a Quidditch team once?"
She screamed in her head.
Tommy’s eyes went wide, mirroring hers. “Wait—you owned a team? Vee, you’re loaded!”
Vera let go of Cedric, nervously biting her lip. She still couldn’t grasp how wealthy her family truly were. And she was their supposed heiress? She could barely imagine buying a match ticket, let alone an entire bloody team.
She forced a smile. “Anyway—we should go.”
The trio slipped into the Great Hall just as the buzz reached its peak. At the front, the four Quidditch captains stood lined up, waiting for the crowd to quiet before the announcements began.
Vera slid into her spot at the Gryffindor table, where Fred and George were already running a betting ring with Lee keeping tally.
“These two are going to be filthy rich one day,” he remarked with a grin. “Mark my words.”
Across the bench, Alicia was jittering her leg like a drumbeat while Angelina gnawed nervously on her nails.
“You’ll both make it,” Vera said warmly, leaning in with a smile that was steadier than their nerves.
Her gaze drifted across the hall. At the Slytherin table, the Poshlanders clustered together. Cassius sat stiffly on top of the bench, knees pulled in, staring at the floor as though sheer concentration might rewrite his fate. Miles and Adrian, by contrast, looked like they hadn’t a care in the world. Vera couldn’t help but wonder whether Ryu had tried his hand at Ravenclaw’s team.
“Alright, everyone,” Oliver began, his booming voice trying—and failing—to command the room.
“We’ll start with Slytherin,” Flint cut in immediately.
“That’s not what we agreed on, Flint,” Oliver snapped.
Within seconds, the two were bickering like an old married couple until Snape, looking exasperated, settled it with a curt coin toss.
Gryffindor won the right to go first, and Oliver strode forward. “This year, Gryffindor had several open spots. I am pleased to announce our new team formation.”
He cleared his throat for maximum drama. “As Beaters…” He let the pause hang in the air. “The deadly duo—Fred and George Weasley!”
The Great Hall exploded. The twins leapt up onto the benches, bowing with exaggerated flourish and blowing kisses to their adoring fans before chest-bumping so hard they toppled clean off the table. The laughter rolled through every corner of the room.
“Settle down!” Oliver was laughing too, trying to keep order. “We’re not done yet.”
As the cheers faded, he raised his voice again. “For our Chasers, I’m proud to introduce two brand new additions—Alicia Spinnet and Angelina Johnson!”
The Gryffindor table erupted a second time, cheers and whistles shaking the rafters. Alicia and Angelina looked stunned, joy etched across their faces. Vera’s grin was wide enough to ache as she pulled them both into a hug, her excitement spilling over in waves.
“As for our Seeker—” Oliver’s voice dipped into a grave tone that sliced clean through the cheers.
The Great Hall fell silent.
“Wait, what?” someone hissed.
“Seeker? Did he just say Seeker?”
A ripple of confusion surged through the Gryffindor table, students exchanging wide-eyed glances. Vera’s gaze darted down to the end of the bench, where Felix sat calmly, his posture unshaken, as though the entire Hall hadn’t just collectively stopped breathing.
Oliver let the pause drag, milking the tension. Then—
“We won’t be changing him anytime soon, so relax.”
“Merlin’s beard, Wood!” Fred’s voice rang out indignantly. “Thought you were sacking him right here in public!”
“You nearly killed us!” George added, clutching his chest in mock outrage.
Laughter rippled across the table as Gryffindors broke into relieved cheers and rhythmic table-banging. Felix offered a faint smile in acknowledgment, as if the uproar were happening several worlds away.
Vera studied him carefully. Most players would have been beaming, basking in the roar of the crowd. But Felix—Felix looked untouched by it all, as though Seeker was less an honor and more a burden he had already resigned himself to carrying.
“Alright, enough from you lot,” Flint barked, swaggering forward to seize the spotlight.
Oliver muttered something dark under his breath as he slunk back to the Gryffindor table.
“This year,” Flint began, puffing out his chest, “my team had three openings. Bole and Derrick will, of course, remain as our Beaters.”
The Slytherin table burst into cheers. Over at Gryffindor, the collective response was a synchronized eye roll.
“And I, Marcus Flint”—he actually paused to smirk—“will remain a Chaser.”
Another wave of groans and muttered “who cares” followed from the red-and-gold side.
Flint pressed on, oblivious. “For the vacant Chaser position, after much thought and careful deliberation…”
Vera’s eyes flicked to the Slytherin table, where Cassius was sitting taut as a bowstring.
“...the position needs a fierce player.” Flint dragged on. “But before I announce—”
“Here we bloody go,” Oliver groaned, rubbing his temples.
“As I was saying,” Flint snapped, shooting him a glare, “every candidate who tried out deserves recognition. I believe—”
“Take a shot every time he says ‘I,’” Oliver murmured, and half the Gryffindor table stifled laughter.
“Spare us, Flint,” the Ravenclaw captain called, impatience dripping from his tone.
“In conclusion,” Flint droned, clearly savoring his moment, “we all deserve the opportunity to shine.”
“Finally,” Oliver muttered, earning a round of snickers.
“As for the Chaser position,” Flint continued, his tone flat enough to lull the ghosts, “I have decided to go with…”
The green table leaned forward as one.
“Adrian Pucey!”
The Slytherins exploded into cheers. Adrian rose with a smug grin plastered across his face, soaking up the noise like it was his birthright. Cassius, however, didn’t so much as blink—no clap, no nod, not even a polite pat on the back. His gaze stayed fixed forward, jaw tight.
“And for Keeper,” Flint went on once the ruckus subsided, “I have chosen…”
Vera’s eyes flicked back to Cassius again. His leg bounced wildly under the table, nerves spilling over.
“Bletchley.”
“Yes!” Miles shot to his feet, arms raised as his tablemates roared. Jane lunged for a hug but was brushed aside in favor of Adrian. Vera winced at the sight, a pang of sympathy creeping in despite herself.
And Cassius... He remained frozen, every muscle taut with expectation.
“And lastly, for Seeker…” Flint puffed up his chest, dragging it out with theatrical pauses. “It was a very difficult decision, I assure you, but I—”
“If he says ‘I’ one more time…” Oliver muttered, low and murderous.
“…had to go with—Higgs!”
The Slytherin table thundered with applause for Terence Higgs, a fresh-faced first-year who looked dazed by the sudden wave of praise.
Cassius, on the other hand, went rigid—then bolted. He shoved back from the table, storming out of the hall without a word.
Vera tracked his departure with narrowed eyes. Honestly, all this drama over chasing a ball on a broomstick? Pathetic. Yet no one else seemed to notice. The green table was too busy lifting Adrian, Miles, and Terence on their shoulders, basking in their victory.
“Hufflepuff only had one position open this year,” their captain announced, her voice carrying over the chatter of the Hall.
As she spoke, Vera slipped away from the Gryffindor table and crossed to the Hufflepuff section, sliding into the bench beside Maddie. Both had come for the same reason: Cedric.
“You’ve got this, Snorty,” she whispered, giving his shoulder a light tap.
“Thanks, Piggy,” he muttered back with a sheepish grin, his cheeks already pinking.
“After much consideration,” the captain went on, “the new Seeker for Hufflepuff is—of course—Cedric Diggory!”
Hufflepuffs pounded their table, shouting his name, while Cedric ducked his head. And yes, his face went crimson. Maddie suddenly sprang to her feet and threw her arms around him, only making him glow redder than ever.
Before the applause could settle, the Ravenclaw captain stepped forward. “Our team has one position open this year. Thank you to everyone who tried out, but the new Chaser is—Roger Davies!”
Roger blinked, clearly stunned, before breaking into a grin as the blue table roared in approval. Vera clapped enthusiastically with them, then cast a quick glance at the Slytherin table.
Her eyes found Ryu. For a moment she expected bitterness, maybe even a scowl. Instead, he was clapping too—smiling, no less—as if Roger’s success was his own.
After dinner, the common room buzzed with endless Quidditch chatter, every corner alive with speculation and victory retellings. Vera, drained by the noise, slipped out with the Marauder’s Map tucked under her arm, craving silence—and maybe a new secret passage to distract her.
Her wandering carried her to the Astronomy Tower, where her footsteps slowed at the sound of muffled sobs echoing up the spiral staircase. The noise was raw, jagged—someone crying as though the world had just caved in.
Frowning, she unfurled the Map. Her eyes swept across the parchment until a single name made her breath catch.
“Cassius,” she whispered.
The sobbing stopped.
“Who’s there?” His voice, sharp and wary, cut through the stairwell.
Vera stiffened. A Part of her wanted to climb the steps, to offer some clumsy reassurance. But another part—the louder part—remembered every sneer, every condescending remark, every time he’d gone out of his way to remind her she didn’t belong in his world.
His footsteps shifted above, coming closer, and panic jolted through her. She snapped the Map shut, turned on her heel, and bolted down the stairs, praying he hadn’t caught a glimpse of her.
Back in her dorm, she forced herself to focus on Cedric’s birthday plans, scribbling notes and lists until her eyes ached. But no matter how hard she tried, the sound of Cassius’s broken sobs lingered.
And yet, she shoved it away. He wasn’t her problem. Not now. Not ever.
Friday, October 5, 1990
As October progressed, the demands of her classes grew more intense. Nevertheless, she clung to the hope of a fresh start, especially with the upcoming training sessions with Professor Morales.
"This afternoon’s meeting, don’t forget," he reminded her with a playful wink as the students filed out of class.
Forget? How could she, after weeks of counting the days?
She was eager to spend time with Professor Morales, who was undeniably the kindest and most intriguing instructor at Hogwarts. The thought of wielding her wand again thrilled her as well. But most of all she longed for the willow bark’s magic—how it made the world sharpen, shimmer, and glow.
After her last class, she hurried to her dorm. With painstaking care, she polished her wand until the wood gleamed, holding it to the lamplight and squinting at the surface to make sure no streaks marred it. She opened a brand-new notebook, running her hand over the crisp, untouched pages as though they might catch some of the wisdom she was certain she’d gain.
Finally, she lifted Angelina’s perfume from the bedside table. One spritz, then another, then—panic—too much? She flapped her collar desperately, willing the cloud to thin before anyone noticed.
“Hey, Vee,” Lee greeted as she descended into the common room. “Do you dare me?”
“Not now, mate,” she brushed him off. “I’ve got a date.”
Lee blinked. “With who? Filch’s cat?”
But she only swept past him, her heart fluttering with determination. To her, this was no joke. This was it—the moment everything might finally change.
And so she arrived at Professor Morales’s office early, breathless with anticipation.
As she stepped inside, she noticed immediately that something had changed. The familiar haze of cigarettes and cologne still clung to the air, but the chaos was gone. The office was orderly now, shelves lined with bright spines of books that looked recently placed.
“Tea?” he offered, gesturing toward a tray as she perched on one of the newly cleared chairs.
“Yes, please.”
“How do you like it?”
“Um… two sugars, no milk."
His brow creased. “No milk?”
She nodded, and he obliged, stirring sugar into her cup.
He began speaking, and she tried her hardest to focus. However, her eyes betrayed her—darting again and again to the jug of milk. The longer it sat there, the more unbearable it became.
Abruptly, she stood, leaned across, and slid the teapot in front of it like a curtain. Then she sat back down, sipping her tea as though nothing at all had happened.
Morales paused, his own cup halted halfway to his lips. For a moment, silence hovered. But he let it go, continuing instead with his steady tone.
“As I was saying—Professor Dumbledore informed me about your condition. But I’ll still need to do some examination myself.”
“Absolutely, sir,” she said brightly, forcing a grin.
She reached into her bag, suddenly bustling with energy.
“I have my Charms notes here,” she said, dropping a notebook onto his desk, “and my Transfiguration notes here, plus Snape’s exercises from last year—oh, and this book I found in the library on magical efficiency. And—”
“Vera,” he said gently.
“—and of course my wand is polished and ready—”
“That won’t be necessary,” he interrupted with a small, sympathetic smile. “Not yet.”
Her shoulders slumped. “But you said you were going to train me.”
“Not in the way you think.”
“I… don’t understand.”
“I know what Professor Snape taught you. I respect his methods, but I don’t think they suit you.”
She frowned. “What?”
“Your problem isn’t ability, Vera. It’s not power or technique.”
“Then what is it?”
He set his cup down and leaned forward, his eyes kind but steady. “It’s that your body is rejecting magic.”
"I know… but why?”
“That,” he said with quiet reassurance, “is what we’re going to find out. Together.”
Her confusion lingered, and she gnawed lightly on her lip as the professor set a sheet of parchment, a box of crayons, and a pencil down between them.
“What’s this for, sir?”
“You said you wanted to be an artist.”
“Yes, but… what does drawing have to do with magic?”
“Nothing,” he said simply. “And everything.”
Her brow furrowed. “Erm…”
“Go on,” he urged, nudging the parchment toward her. “Draw.”
She picked up the pencil, still dubious. “But what should I draw?”
“Whatever you see fit.”
A ripple of disappointment ran through her. This wasn’t at all what she had prepared for—the notes, the books, the wand she’d polished until it gleamed. She had been ready to impress him with spells, not doodles.
Still, stubborn pride made her lower the tip of the pencil to the page. She hesitated, then began to sketch, her mind racing to make sense of the exercise.
Morales leaned back, studying her with quiet curiosity. After a moment he reached into a drawer, pulled out a thick book, and flipped it open. The soft scratch of turning pages mingled with the sound of her pencil whispering against parchment.
“Would you like to listen to some music?” he asked after a moment.
“Yes,” she said, then quickly wrinkled her nose. “But anything except the Beatles.”
That drew a laugh from him. “You’re in good company, then. I’ll never play the Beatles.”
He reached for a record and held it up. “How about this one?”
She gave a small nod.
With an easy flick of his wand, the vinyl floated across the room and settled onto the turntable. Another flick set the needle down with delicate precision. A faint crackle filled the air, followed by a low swell of melody that seemed to unfurl itself into every corner of the room.
Vera felt her pencil glide a little more freely as the music wove itself around her, soft and steady, like an enchantment made not of spells but of sound.
♪ Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me
Why are you still so afraid? ♪
“Do you always wear gloves?” Morales asked suddenly, his gaze flicking to her hands.
“Um… yes,”
“Why?”
The question landed too directly, and her pulse quickened. Snape had never pressed her about her hands, and until now she believed only Dumbledore and Madam Pomfrey knew of her… affliction.
For a moment she said nothing. Then, slowly, she peeled the gloves away, revealing the darkened shade that stained her fingers.
“I see,” Morales murmured.
“Madam Pomfrey said it’s just a side effect of the blood poisoning,” she offered quickly. “When my body fought the magic, it only made it stronger. That’s why my hands turned dark.”
“Do they hurt?”
“No, sir.”
He stroked his beard, still watching her hands. “And this began… after the incident in the pantry back home?”
She froze, caught off guard. What exactly did he know?
“Yes, sir,” she replied at last.
“I see...”
To her surprise, he made no move toward her, no request to examine her hands further. He simply let the moment linger. Taking the cue, she slid the gloves back on, tugging them snugly over the darkness.
“Do your friends ever ask why you always wear them?” he asked.
“They used to. Not anymore.”
“And what did you tell them?”
“That I have a condition that makes my hands cold all the time.”
A faint smile tugged at his mouth. “Clever.”
She returned a small smile of her own, then bent back over her drawing.
“And what about your sisters at home?” he asked.
Sisters? Did he know she lived in an orphanage? Perhaps Dumbledore had told him… but why would it matter?
“What do they think of your gloves?” he pressed gently, noting her pause.
“They don’t really ask about it.”
“Why not?”
“It’s just… how things are at St. Mary’s.”
His brows knit. “Could you elaborate on that, please?”
“Well… it’s like an unspoken rule. We see things, but we keep quiet about them.”
The explanation seemed to hang in the air, not quite reaching him.
“For example—” she tried again “—Cynthia hides food under her bed. Lydia’s always got cuts on her hands and legs. Grace used to eat her own hair. And Kaya—she… she can’t ride trains.”
“And you wear gloves...”
She nodded. "Yeah."
A long silence followed. Morales’s eyes stayed fixed on the desk, his fingers stroking his chin.
“And your matron?” he asked at last.
“She once asked me. I told her I’d spilled paint on my hands.”
“And she never asked again?”
“Um… no.”
His gaze didn’t lift from the desk. He seemed lost in thought, as though weighing something too heavy to speak aloud.
“Vera, when you perform magic,” he asked suddenly, “what do you think about?”
“Um, I’m not entirely sure, sir. I usually just focus on the incantation and follow the instructions.”
“So nothing else comes to mind?”
She shook her head. “No.”
“Interesting...”
His gaze flicked, almost absently, to the untouched milk on the tea tray before returning to her. Vera bent over her parchment, doodling in silence until at last she set down the pencil.
“I’ve finished, sir.”
“Let me see,” he said with a smile that only grew wider when he looked at it. “Well now, you’ve made me look rather dashing.”
Heat rushed to her face, and she bit back the words you already are.
“If you don’t mind, I’d like to keep it,” he said softly. “I’ve never had a drawing of myself before.”
“It’s all yours, sir.”
“Thank you. But you forgot one thing—sign it.”
“Sign it?”
“So people know who created it.”
She hesitated, then scrawled neatly in the corner: Vera B.
With a flick of his wand, the parchment floated up and fixed itself to the wall behind his desk. Vera stared at it, pride swelling in her chest despite the quiet ache of disappointment—this wasn’t the kind of training she had imagined.
As she rose to leave, she cleared her throat. “Um, sir? Could we postpone tomorrow’s meeting? It’s my friend’s birthday, and we’re having a party.”
“Of course. In fact, I was about to say—our meetings won’t be daily. Only when I decide they’re needed.”
Her brow furrowed, questions bubbling up, but she swallowed them back. Wand work or not, she told herself she could trust his way. For now.
Saturday, October 6, 1990
Cedric’s birthday had finally dawned, and Vera commandeered the Hufflepuff common room like a pint-sized general plotting a coup.
“Malika, Patty—you’re on decorations,” she barked, handing them boxes filled with enchanting embellishments she had stolen from Filch’s office.
Malika beamed. “We’ll make this place sparkle!”
“Tommy,” Vera continued, pointing like a commander, “your mission is to keep Cedric out until the big reveal.”
“Done and dusted,” Tommy saluted, looking way too pleased at the chance to harass Cedric for hours.
Vera turned to the real centerpiece: the cake. A magnificent dessert shimmering with golden flourishes that would make Helga Hufflepuff herself weep with pride.
While it baked in the oven, the house elves in the kitchens assisted her in crafting a regal crown made of golden cardboard and adorned with hand-drawn dragons, dogs, and—naturally—dragon-dogs.
By evening, the common room had shed its everyday coziness for full-blown magical extravagance. Floating candles hovered lazily, enchanted golden streamers coiled and uncoiled like metallic snakes overhead.
“How do I look?” Maddie fussed, tugging nervously at her hair.
“Like yourself,” Vera reassured. “It’s Cedric’s birthday, not your wedding.”
“Vera, this cake is class!” Alicia gasped, circling the masterpiece reverently.
Fred leaned in. “Sure, but is it edible?”
“Or are we about to die?” George added.
“Shut it, you two,” Vera shot back, swatting them both away.
“The house-elves at your palace must have it easy, Vera,” Sarah teased. “Bet they hardly lift a finger with you around.”
Vera smirked, leaning into the joke. “Oh, absolutely. At this rate, they should be paying me their wages.”
“Only if they had any,” Alicia chimed in.
Vera blinked. “What do you mean?”
Alicia gave her a baffled look. “Because… they don’t get paid? House-elves work for free. Duh.”
A ripple of laughter spread across the room, but Vera just sat frozen, her grin faltering.
What? No wages? That couldn’t be right. It sounded too absurd, too cruel—like someone had made it up for a laugh. Surely Alicia was joking.
Before she could press further, the door banged open and Kenny stumbled in, panting dramatically.
“He’s here!”
Instant chaos broke out as everyone scrambled into position. Maddie fussed with her hair by the entrance, while Malika tried to shush Fred and George, who were already giggling like maniacs.
The door swung wide, and in marched Tommy with Cedric in tow.
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!”
Cedric froze, blinking in surprise as Vera darted forward. She plopped the golden cardboard crown onto his head, the dragons, dogs, and dragon-dogs wobbling precariously. The group launched into song with gusto.
“And here’s your cake!” Vera announced proudly, unveiling her masterpiece.
Cedric’s face lit up—then crumpled into laughter as he read the icing: Happy Birthday Snorty. The nickname was instantly justified when he snorted mid-laugh, which only sent the room into hysterics.
“Thank you, everyone,” he managed between chuckles. “You really didn’t have to go to all this trouble.”
“It was all Vera,” Tommy piped up. “She’s got a future in party planning—I'll tell you that.”
Cedric turned to her, eyes warm. “Thanks, Piggy.”
She blushed, smiling shyly—until her gaze snagged on Maddie. Maddie wasn’t smiling. She was staring at Vera like she’d just stolen more than decorations from Filch’s office.
“Right then,” Fred declared, brandishing his wand as George struck a match. Together, they lit the cake.
“Don’t forget your wish!” Malika reminded brightly.
Cedric closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and blew. The flames sputtered out—then flared back to life.
The twins cackled, collapsing against each other.
“Really?” Angelina deadpanned. “That’s your prank? Relighting candles?”
"Make another wish." Roger said.
"You can't restart your wishes, silly." Vera argued.
Roger scoffed. "Of course you can."
“No, you can't,” she shot back. “Everyone knows you only get one.”
“Rubbish,” Roger retorted.
"LET’S move on to the gifts," Angelina swiftly interjected, restoring the festive atmosphere.
The gift-giving began with the usual Quidditch staples—polish kits, gloves, a book or two promising “Secrets of Seeker Stamina.” Cedric received each with a grin.
Then Sarah stepped forward, holding out her gift with a mysterious smile. Cedric opened it to find… a dead yellow butterfly.
He hesitated, then gave a shy smile. “It’s… delicate.”
Sarah beamed, clearly satisfied, while Fred whispered to George, “Finally, a gift he can’t use in a match.”
Maddie, who had been bouncing on her toes for the past five minutes, suddenly burst. “MY TURN!” she shouted, nearly startling a portrait out of existence.
She darted to a sofa, dragged something out from underneath, and with a flourish unveiled her gift.
“Blimey,” Fred, George, and Lee chorused, their voices overlapping in awe.
“Happy birthday, Cedric,” she said softly, cheeks pink as she presented him with a gleaming, brand-new broomstick—the latest model on the market.
Cedric’s eyes nearly popped out of his head. “Maddie, this is… Merlin’s beard… it’s incredible!”
She bit her lip, eyes dreamy as she looked at him. “Now you’ll definitely be the best Seeker out there.”
He stammered, still stunned. “Th-thank you, really, this is amazing!”
“Posh people,” Tommy muttered, loud enough for Vera to hear.
She looked down at her own handmade gift, suddenly feeling its edges too rough, its effort too small. Jealousy pricked sharp and bitter at the back of her throat, and she swallowed hard, forcing a smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes.
As the party rolled on, Maddie clung to Cedric’s side like a decorative ribbon, her laughter ringing through the room as the twins juggled fireworks and cake crumbs.
Vera, meanwhile, sat in the shadowy corner of the common room, untouched slice of cake on her plate. She stared down at her lap, caught in the familiar spiral of what she lacked—her place, her inheritance, her rightful life.
Her thoughts snagged on Pollux. Great-grandfather. Richer than the goblins themselves, yet unreachable as a ghost. He had paid off her loan, so he knew. He knew she was scraping by. So why hadn’t he called for her? Why hadn’t he written? Why was she invisible to him?
Maybe she could write first. But how? She didn’t even know where the old troll lived. Would Gringotts tell her? No—goblins guard secrets more tightly than gold. Unless she found a way to make them talk.
And what if Pollux refused? What if he decided she didn’t deserve a single Galleon?
A shrill burst of Maddie’s laughter cut across her brooding, pulling her gaze toward the birthday boy and his new broom. Maddie leaned close, glowing with satisfaction as Cedric grinned at her.
That should be me, Vera thought bitterly. She should be the one dropping broomsticks into her friends’ hands, not scraping together cardboard crowns and wishing hard enough to fill the gaps. She was the heir of the wealthiest wizarding family alive, and yet she was dressed in a second-hand sweater and last year’s shoes, pretending not to notice the difference.
Her fists clenched in her lap. “I must find a way,” she muttered, voice too low for anyone else to hear. Reaching Pollux felt like scaling a fortress—but she had to try.
Wednesday, October 17, 1990
All week, her mind spun with schemes. Every free moment she dissected possibilities, her thoughts constantly circling back to the inheritance and what it could buy her once she finally claimed it.
Her daydreams were only made sweeter by the hazy lift of willow bark—procured after a well-timed performance in the hospital wing. Madam Pomfrey had scolded her for “reckless spellcasting” that left her with a “headache,” but Vera hardly cared. The bark’s calm, giddy warmth was worth every wag of the matron’s finger.
One night, after another careful dose, she drifted off into vivid, golden dreams.
A new house for the St. Mary’s girls, grand enough to make the orphanage disappear from memory. Buying the entire Quidditch team Joey Jenkins played for, so Cedric could finally meet his idol. Matching broomsticks for all the Weasleys. Malika clutching her long-coveted Witch Barbie at last.
And Kaya… oh, Kaya. Vera imagined handing her every heart’s desire, right down to a little house with a garden where they could live together once they turned eighteen.
She woke glowing, the sweetness of her dream still clinging to her skin like perfume. For a few blissful moments, it was almost real. She stretched, floating on the lightness of imagined wealth—until she noticed the hour.
She’d overslept breakfast. Again. Willow bark mornings always did that.
With a groan, she scrambled into her clothes, dragged a brush through her hair, and shouldered her bag before hurrying down toward the Great Hall, heart still light despite her lateness.
Strutting through the corridors with a silly hopeful smile on her face, she couldn't help but notice everyone's eyes on her, accompanied by vague whispers that filled the air.
“I heard it was a fly.”
“No, a bee.”
“Yes, that’s her.”
“She doesn’t look sad.”
“I wonder why…”
She tried to ignore the persistent murmurs and stares as she made her way towards breakfast. However, her steps faltered when she heard someone calling her name. Turning around, she froze in confusion as she realized who it was.
"Hello, Vera," Marcus Flint greeted, accompanied by two fellow Slytherins, Peregrine Derrick and Lucian Bole, both of whom she recognized from their house's Quidditch team.
"Um, hello…"
Flint inclined his head gravely. “On behalf of our families, we wish to offer you our deepest condolences.”
She shook her head in confusion, unsure if she had heard him correctly. Her bewilderment only deepened when Flint did the most unusual thing.
He placed his right hand on the left side of his chest then solemnly said, "May the stars welcome him."
Her brain scrambled for sense—was this some elaborate prank? No. Flint was many things, but playful wasn’t one of them.
Before she could respond, Bole mirrored the gesture. “May the stars welcome him.”
Then Derrick. “May the stars welcome him.”
And just like that, the three of them turned and strode away, leaving her rooted in place.
“…What the hell was that?”
She hurried into the Great Hall and slid into her spot at the Gryffindor table. Her friends greeted her with solemn faces, but she barely noticed.
“You won’t believe what just happened,” she blurted, practically bouncing in her seat. “I ran into Marcus Flint—Flint, of all people—and you’ll never guess what he said—”
“Vera—” Kenny tried, his tone heavy with concern, but she barreled on, eager to share.
“It’s the strangest thing! He actually—”
“Bonjour, Vera.”
The words, crisp and deliberate, sliced through her story. She turned to see the Poshlanders gathered behind her, Cassius at the helm, Miles and Jane linked at the back, with Eudora, Ryu, and Adrian flanking the sides like a procession.
“Sorry about what happened,” Eudora continued softly.
“We know you probably don’t want to talk to us,” Cassius added, eyes unusually gentle. “But we wish to offer our condolences.”
Vera’s smile faltered, her chest tightening.
Miles stepped forward, pressing a hand to his heart. “On behalf of House Bletchley and House Corrigan—may the stars welcome him.”
“May the stars welcome him,” Eudora echoed, mirroring the gesture.
“May the stars welcome him,” Adrian intoned.
“May the stars welcome him, Vera,” Ryu finished quietly.
And just like that, the Poshlanders turned and drifted away, leaving only the heavy thrum of silence in their wake.
Vera swallowed, her pulse quickening. She turned back to her friends, whose stares hadn’t softened. If anything, they looked grimmer than before.
“Who the bloody hell died?” she asked, her voice cracking with unease.
Kenny’s face paled. “You—You don’t know?”
“Know what?”
Percy fumbled in his bag, then slid a folded copy of the Daily Prophet toward her.
With trembling hands, she unfolded it, and her eyes widened in disbelief as she read the shocking headline:
CROW KING IS DEAD
The House of Black reports the death of Lord Pollux at 91
Notes:
Songs mentioned: Vienna - Billy Joel
Chapter 26: May the Stars Welcome You
Summary:
Pollux Black’s death doesn’t just rattle the wizarding world; it tears open the Black family’s shadowed vault of secrets, unleashing them for all to see. For Vera, it is a nightmare coming alive, each revelation clawing at her from the shadows.
Chapter Text
Wednesday, October 17, 1990
It wasn't Pollux Black's death that shocked the wizarding world to its core; it was the rumored circumstances surrounding his demise that truly sent shockwaves. Students of all ages discussed the news fervently, swapping theories and gossip that persisted even at lunch.
“An insect!” Maddie blurted, eyes wide.
“No way,” Sarah gasped.
“Yep,” Kenny nodded solemnly. “Crawled right into his head and ate his brain bit by bit. When they cracked open his skull—empty!”
“Ugh, stop it!” Angelina groaned, pushing her plate away. “That’s revolting.”
“And he must’ve suffered horribly,” Malika added softly.
“I heard he’s been dead for months,” Kenny went on, lowering his voice. “The Prophet only just caught up.”
“That can’t be true,” Tommy cut in. “If it were, Vera would’ve told us.”
“Poor Vera,” Sarah sighed. “She looked stunned this morning.”
“I can’t believe her aunt didn’t warn her first,” Alicia muttered. “Surely she knew Vera would read it in the paper.”
“Think she was close with him?” Malika asked.
Alicia shrugged. “She never talks about her family. Honestly, I don’t reckon she likes them. Before the holidays, she cried every night—Angie and I both noticed. It was like she didn't wanna go back to them.”
“I noticed too,” Cedric admitted. “From what I’ve heard about her family, she’s nothing like them.”
“Granny always said the Crow King was a monster,” Kenny added gravely. “Lots of people suffered because of him.”
“Do you think she’ll go to the funeral?” Sarah asked.
“She didn’t say,” Angelina replied. “But her eyes were swollen this morning—she’d clearly been crying.”
“He’s her grandfather, isn’t he?” Tommy asked.
“Great-grandfather,” Kenny corrected. “She lives with him and his sister—basically the last of her family.”
“Wait… so the rest of them are dead?” Maddie asked, frowning.
“Most of them, yeah,” Kenny said. “And not in good ways.”
“You’ve heard about her uncle, right?” Alicia leaned in.
“The one in Azkaban?” Cedric asked.
“Yeah. Killed twelve Muggles—”
“Thirteen,” Alicia corrected.
“That’s awful!” Malika exclaimed.
“But Vera’s not like that at all!” Maddie said quickly. “She’s always been kind to me—and I’m Muggleborn.”
“Same,” Malika agreed.
“She defends me whenever the Poshlanders take the mick,” Kenny added.
Sarah smiled. “She even helps me catch butterflies, even when she’s busy.”
“And she baked me that birthday cake,” Cedric said brightly.
“She doesn’t hate Muggles,” Tommy insisted. “She knows loads about them—plays footie with me all the time.”
Meanwhile, Vera was sulking on one of the outdoor staircases, a lonely corner of the castle rarely visited by other students. She sat slumped on a cold stone step, the newspaper Percy had given her spread across her lap. For what felt like the seventh time that day, her eyes traced the same dreadful article, each reread carving the letters deeper into her mind.
CROW KING IS DEAD
The House of Black reports the death of Lord Pollux at 91
“Lord Pollux Black, often referred to as the Crow King, has passed away at the age of 91, leaving behind a legacy marked by controversy and intrigue. Born in France in 1899 to Cygnus Black and Violetta Bulstrode, Lord Black was the last known bearer of the Crow blood within his family.
He was the eldest among his siblings and succeeded his father as the leader of the Crow Party, a now-fallen political faction within the wizarding community.
Throughout his life, Lord Black was a formidable figure known for his role in quelling the rebels during the tumultuous war. His controversial policies and unorthodox methods in combating crime earned him both praise and condemnation within wizarding society.
His name became embroiled in scandal when he was linked to the alleged poisoning of Muggle-born Minister Nobby Leach. Despite extensive investigations, he was ultimately found not guilty of these charges, though suspicions lingered.
In his later years, Lord Black lived in seclusion, surrounded by whispers of his ties to ‘He Who Shall Not Be Named.’ His passing, attributed to a brain infection caused by an insect, marks the end of an enigmatic era in wizarding history.
Lord Pollux Black is survived by his son, Cygnus, his sister Cassiopeia, his disgraced grandson Sirius, and his great-granddaughter Vera, who is the heiress to the Black family legacy.
She repeatedly read the last sentence, trying to make sense of it. She couldn't care less about Pollux's death, but he represented her only chance to claim her alleged inheritance, and now he was gone.
“Why settle my debt,” she muttered to herself, “only to die?”
She looked at the paper once more. Like all the articles she had seen about her family, it had no photographs, just bold headlines. However, this particular one featured a sketch of Pollux that sent shivers down her spine.
The drawing depicted him standing tall, his expression stern and formidable. His dark hair was neatly groomed, and he wore a scowling expression that bordered on malevolent. What disturbed her the most, however, were the two crows perched on each of his shoulders.
She threw the newspaper aside and buried her face in her arms, her mind swirling with a torrent of thoughts. Then, her gaze drifted to her gloved hands.
"…the last known bearer of the Crow blood within his family."
The image of the crows perched on his shoulder lingered in her mind, and she recalled Professor Dumbledore's words about her family's ability to control crows and communicate with them.
Suddenly, everything crashed together in her head. Her family's crimes, her hands, her grandmother's will, the supposed inheritance she was now linked to, and the haunting memories of her parents…
“Vera.”
A voice from behind jolted her thoughts. She swiftly wiped away her tears and turned around, only to be filled with disappointment.
Ryu stood at the top of the stairs, his hands in his pockets as he gazed down at her. She swiftly turned her head around, trying to ignore him. He was the last person she wished to see during this time.
“What do you want, Avery?” she said, still gazing ahead.
Ryu moved closer and sat next to her, his cologne enveloping her like a wave in the ocean—unlike anything she had ever smelled before.
“I’m sorry,” he said, his tone carrying genuine concern.
Vera clenched her jaw, continuing to ignore him. Despite her conflicts with the Poshlanders, they had shown her nothing but respect since morning. However, she was well aware that this respect stemmed from fear, not genuine affection or regard.
Ryu reached for the newspaper she had thrown on the steps, dusted it off, and folded it. "Were you close with him?" he asked, giving her a gentle once-over.
She clenched her jaw again, refusing to respond.
"I felt terrible when my grandfather passed away," he continued. "I miss him a lot, but I find solace in knowing he's in a better place now."
She highly doubted Pollux Black would ever find himself in a better place.
“Don’t worry, Vera. His Lordship is among the stars now. He’ll watch over you from up high.”
She grew more confused and annoyed. She simply couldn’t understand what he or any of the others meant and couldn’t bring herself to ask. Ryu seemed determined to continue comforting her, despite her constant silence.
"I can't say I know how it feels, but I understand how hard it must be to lose so many of your family, especially your parents."
She swallowed, fighting back tears. Then she turned, locking eyes with him. "Are your parents still alive?" she asked boldly.
Ryu looked away nervously, caught off guard by her direct question. "Th-they are..."
She swallowed again. "And do they love you?"
He quickly looked back at her, his expression startled. But instead of finding her hurt, she seemed angry.
"Do they?" she pressed.
"Ye-yes."
She looked away, rubbing her neck to ease the tension and quell her tears. Ryu observed her struggle with empathy, and cautiously placed a hand on her shoulder.
She was startled by his touch, and jerked away abruptly. Swiftly standing up, she grabbed her bag and snatched the newspaper from his grasp.
"Then you don't understand!" she snapped before turning on her heel and walking away.
Ryu stood frozen, his expression a mixture of concern, confusion, and helplessness as he watched her vanish down the corridor.
She made her way to her dorm, unable to endure any more glares or whispers about Pollux's dark past. Reaching her bed, she sought out Vinny, and hugged him tightly as she succumbed to tears.
"They know, Vinny," she sobbed, her voice choked with emotion. "They all know now, and they won’t even talk to me! They hate me, Vinny, they hate me!"
She continued to cry, her tears mingling with the soft fur of her stuffed companion. Exhausted from the emotional turmoil, she eventually drifted into a restless sleep, still holding tightly onto Vinny for comfort and solace.
Upon waking up, she realized it was already afternoon. She had missed all of her classes for the day and anticipated a scolding from her professors.
However, she found herself unable to care about the consequences. Her eyes were still swollen from crying as she climbed out of bed, remembering she had a meeting with Professor Morales.
As she made her way out of her dorm and descended the stairs, she unintentionally overheard her friends in the common room talking about her. The conversation seemed to be fueled by gossip from older students, and the words hit her like a painful revelation.
"And her father was a Death Eater too!"
"What's a Death Eater?"
"A follower of You-Know-Who."
The words struck her heart with a cruel clarity, like a prophecy she never wanted to hear. Tears welled up in her eyes, threatening to blur her vision as she listened in silence, hoping against hope that the truth unfolding before her was nothing but a nightmare.
"Lord Black could control crows, you know. That's why he was called the Crow King."
"What's wrong with that?"
"Everything Lee! It's dark magic!"
"Controlling crows is dark magic?"
"Of course it is!"
"I heard her entire family used dark magic like it was nothing."
“They all ran away to France when the war was over and no one knows where they live.”
“So, that’s why she always gets nervous when we ask her about her home?”
“Last year I tried to get her address so I can send her a birthday gift and she said she can’t give it to me.”
“Her Aunt would probably kill her if she did. They can’t let anyone know where they are.”
Vera placed a trembling hand over her mouth to muffle her sobs, trying desperately to conceal her emotional turmoil as she continued to listen.
"And you'll never guess what I heard."
"What?"
"You know Ernie? He's a seventh year. Anyways, he told me that Vera's granddad killed Bobbin's uncle."
"What!"
"Yeah, that's why Felix doesn't talk to her."
"Is that why he was angry she gave him cookies?"
"His family is mental about this stuff."
"And you know Nancy? She's friends with Gary, and she reckons that Felix's family had a party once they heard Pollux Black is dead!"
"A bloody party?"
"Apparently, they always have a party when someone from the Black family dies."
That was it. Her heart sank, her entire being trembled with the weight of shame. She can no longer conceal her emotions as her sobs grew louder, escaping her attempts to contain them.
"Did you guys hear that?"
Unable to bear it any longer, she slowly descended the stairs, her steps echoing in the silent corridor. As she confronted her friends in the common room, their faces twisted in shock and guilt. She stood before them, tears streaming down her face like a cascade of broken dreams.
"Vera..." Kenny started.
"It's true," she cried out, her voice raw with anguish. "It's all true."
Her friends stared at her, their expressions a mosaic of guilt and horror, as her pain spilled out in a torrent of emotion.
“My family are horrible," she continued, her words punctuated by sobs that shook her very core. "And they hurt so many people."
Silence hung heavy in the room, broken only by her anguished cries. She felt exposed, vulnerable, as though the walls of her world were crumbling around her.
"And I’m sorry!" she pleaded, her voice cracking with desperation. "I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry!"
Unable to endure their shocked stares any longer, she buried her face in her arm and fled from the common room, leaving behind a haunting silence that spoke volumes of the shattered innocence.
She found herself in Professor Morales' office without recollection of how she had arrived there. Overwhelmed by emotion, she burst into the room, her sobs uncontrollable.
"Vera, what's the matter?" asked the professor, his kind expression marked with concern as he rose from his desk and approached her.
Unable to speak due to her labored breathing and intense crying, she could only convey her distress through tearful silence.
Professor Morales approached her with a gentle, concerned demeanor, his expression reflecting sincere empathy for her evident distress. Placing a comforting hand on her shoulder, he guided her to a chair and retrieved a box of tissues.
"Take your time, Vera," he reassured her softly.
Accepting a tissue, she took a few deep breaths, attempting to regain composure. After a moment, she managed to speak, her voice shaky but determined. "They hate me, Professor."
He furrowed his brows in concern. "Who does?"
"Everyone," she sniffled. "They know what my family did, and now they all hate me."
"I'm sure that's not true, Vera."
"I heard them! They know my dad was a Death Eater, and that my grandad killed Felix's uncle, and they know about the crows and the dark magic—"
"But what does any of that have to do with you?"
"Because they will all think that I'm just like them!"
"But you are not, Vera."
Her eyes welled up in tears again. "What if I am?"
He remained silent, gazing at her with an unreadable expression.
"Do you know what a generational curse is, Vera?" He finally said.
She shook her head, still sniffling.
He proceeded to retrieve a parchment from his drawer before rising from his desk and settling into the chair opposite her. Moving the chair closer, he placed the parchment on the desk, then dipped his quill into a bottle of ink and drew a dot upon it.
"When we are first born, we inherit our family's appearance," he began, tracing the quill on the parchment to create a small arc around the dot. "Then as we grow up, we inherit their language," he continued, expanding the arc. "Then we inherit their way of speaking and their words," he extended the arc further. "And finally, their values and morals." he concluded, completing the circle. “And gradually, we find ourselves encircled by all the things they bestowed upon us, often without our awareness.”
Vera listened intently, her eyes focused on the parchment as he illustrated his point.
“This process is natural and inherent to our essence. What's unnatural is believing that this circle defines our boundaries, and that we must accept living within it indefinitely without challenge. You see, the circle itself, is not a generational curse. But confining ourselves within it is. And a curse breaker," he continued, drawing his wand and sweeping it over the parchment, "is someone prepared to leap beyond this circle and forge a new path, or to live entirely outside of one." As he spoke, the dot on the parchment began to move, then leapt into the air and landed outside the parchment and onto the surface of the desk.
"You, Vera," he locked eyes with her, "are already a curse breaker."
Vera blinked repeatedly, clearly puzzled.
"Because, you were never in that circle to begin with."
She took a few moments to collect her thoughts. "But nobody knows that," she finally uttered.
"Just be who you are, and they'll know."
"But," she hesitated, fighting back the urge to actually say it aloud.
"But what?"
She swallowed. "But what if it's in my blood?"
As she said those words, his entire demeanor changed, and his sorrowful gaze turned into one of shock. He remained silent for a few moments, gazing at the floor.
"Ah, ‘Blood'.” He finally said after a moment, “The word that has been at the core of every suffering on Earth.”
Vera leaned forward, her eyes widening with intrigue mixed with a touch of fear. "What do you mean, Professor?"
He lifted his gaze from the floor, his expression softening with empathy. "Every war, conflict, and injustice in history have been fueled by this very misconception, Vera. The belief that certain bloodlines are inherently good or evil has led to unspeakable horrors, in both the wizarding world and the Muggle one."
She shifted her gaze to her hands, pondering his words.
"Do you think what some wizards say about Muggles is right?" he asked.
She shook her head. "No."
"And do you think what some Muggles say about other Muggles is right?"
Again, she shook her head. "No, sir."
"Then why accept that same thing for yourself?"
She remained silent, still gazing into her hands.
"But what if I end up like them, despite everything I do?"
"Your family's history—it's not a prophecy that binds you, Vera. It's a story, a cautionary tale. You have the power to choose your own path, to shape your own destiny."
Vera pondered this revelation, yet her hesitation showed as she stared deeply into her hands.
"The battles we face," the professor continued, "they're not merely fought with wands or weapons. They're fought within ourselves, in the choices we make every day."
His hand rested reassuringly on her shoulder. "You are not defined by your family's mistakes, Vera. You are your own person, capable of breaking free from the shadows of the past. But if you continue to heed those voices and confine yourself to a circle you don't belong in, you'll never break free. It all starts with you."
She drew in a deep breath, the professor's words resonating in her mind. She wanted to believe him, to convince herself of his wisdom, yet doubts still lingered.
"Now, shall we leave it all behind?" He proposed.
She gazed up at him, his gentle smile stirring new, profound feelings within her. "Yes, sir."
"Good," he responded with a grin, the wrinkles around his eyes showing slightly. Returning to his chair behind the desk, he retrieved another parchment and a pencil.
"Again, sir?" she asked.
"Indeed."
As she started to sketch, a sense of calm washed over her, easing the emotional turmoil of the day. Maybe Professor Morales truly understood, and all she needed to do was trust him.
"Sir?"
He peered over his book. "Yes, Vera?"
"When the news about... the death came out today," she began tentatively, "people kept saying those words to me—"
"May the stars welcome him."
Surprised, she nodded. "Yes. But… what does that mean?"
He set down his book and removed his glasses. "Your family, like many other Pureblood houses, holds beliefs rooted in animism."
"What's that?"
"It's the belief that we are interconnected with the universe. That we come from nature and to nature we shall return. They also believe that the universe chose them among all others to become wizards," he added with a slight eye roll. "But that's a problematic notion and it’s entirely false. It's a complex concept, Vera. So I wouldn't want you to dwell on it too much right now."
"So," she ventured, "they believe that when we die, we become stars?"
A faint smile played on his lips. "In a way."
"But what about heaven and hell?"
"They don't subscribe to those beliefs, Vera."
She frowned. "This is so confusing. What about bad people then? Where do they go when they die?"
"Everyone returns to nature eventually, regardless of their actions."
"So, my family... they become stars." she repeated, trying to grasp the idea. "Is that why they are all named after them?"
"Yes, but it’s only a tradition.”
"But I’m not named after one," she said bitterly. "I went through the entire astronomy book during the holiday and there’s no such star or even a constellation named Vera."
"Your mother is a Rosier, correct?"
"Um, yes."
"That explains it."
"What do you mean?"
"The Rosiers are known for being one of the more progressive aristocratic families. They lived among Muggles, had maids instead of house elves, and usually opted for regular names for their children, instead of traditional ones."
She could barely conceal her shock. "Oh."
"You're the first of your name, I believe," he added. "Perhaps it was your mother's decision."
Despite her initial disappointment, she found herself smiling. Though she was bitter about not being named after a star, it brought her solace to know that she had one less thing in common with the Black family.
"Faith."
"What?"
"That’s what your name means," he replied. "Faith."
Leaving his office, a sense of clarity washed over her. Perhaps he was right, she thought. She didn't have to carry her family's shame with her. She barely even knew them. She made her way to the great hall for dinner, her mind buzzing with all the new information she had learned. However, her thoughts abruptly paused when she spotted Percy and Felix heading towards her.
"Vera," Percy called out, pulling a pink envelope from his robes. "A rather peculiar-looking pink owl dropped this to you during breakfast, shortly after you left. So I held onto it for you."
She accepted the envelope with a puzzled expression. "Um, thanks."
Percy smiled at her before walking away. Felix, on the other hand, avoided making eye contact as he distanced himself from them.
She tried not to feel hurt; after all, it was part of their agreement. Redirecting her attention to the letter, she wondered who could be writing to her.
She gazed at the envelope in her hand, a smile slowly spreading across her lips.
Dear Vera,
I hope this letter finds you well, or finds you at all because Remy’s owl can be clumsy at times. Perhaps it’s the pink dye she keeps bathing the poor thing with. Anyways, you must have heard the news by now, I would like you to remember what I told you about newspapers, eh?
From what I heard, there has been no investigations about his death, simply because no one knows where he or his sister are. So the whole thing about the wasp eating his brain is nonsense. However, he did indeed die. A crow was sent to the ministry to deliver the news to Fudge, who in his turn announced it to the daily prophet. The crow vanished after dropping the letter, so no one was able to trace it back. They knew it was real because of the handwriting and symbols used on it, undeniably Lady Cassiopeia’s.
I know how strongly you feel about them, dear but they are still your family, therefore, Remy and I offer our condolences.
Take care of yourself, don’t listen to gossip, and please write me about your time at Hogwarts when you can. You can address them to either my office like last year or to Whiskers. I’ve been spending most of my time there. Thinking of dying my hair blond, what do you think?
Sincerely,
Donnie
His letter somehow made her feel better, and she wished she had read it earlier in the morning. She resolved to take Donnie's advice and not hastily believe everything written in the newspapers. Perhaps Pollux was simply old, she thought.
If they lied about his death without proof, what else might they have lied about?
Nevertheless, this didn't change the fact that her family's history was indeed troubling, and now her friends knew about it and seemed to despise her for it.
Reflecting on her conversation with Professor Morales, she made a bold decision to break free from the cycle of secrets and reveal her true story, that she has nothing to do with the Black family. Perhaps by being honest, they would understand the truth and stop hating her.
After all, nobody likes a liar, but no one loves a Black.
She made her way to the great hall with determined steps, prepared to carve a new path for herself. As she approached the Gryffindor table, she found most of her friends gathered with an empty spot among them.
Swallowing her nerves, she proceeded toward them, ready to finally share her truth. She braced herself for potential rejection or accusations related to her family's dark history. To her surprise, as soon as she arrived, they all greeted her with warm smiles, instead of scowling faces.
"Hiya, Vee!" Angelina exclaimed. "Saved you a seat."
"I fixed a plate for you," Fred chimed in, placing a plate of food in front of her.
"And look what I found you in the kitchens," Tommy added enthusiastically. "Fresh strawberries!"
"I spent all afternoon searching for this," Sarah revealed, handing her a purple butterfly. "Your favorite color!"
"I completed the assignments you missed," Cedric added, offering her a stack of parchments, his cheeks turning slightly pink.
She stared at them in complete and utter shock. She had expected them to turn her away or treat her coldly. Instead, they were all kind and smiling at her. She remained silent, her gaze shifting between the food, the butterfly, the strawberries, and the assignments spread out before her.
They knew what she loved, and their thoughtful gestures showed that they cared for her. Overwhelmed by their unexpected kindness and acceptance, she couldn't hold back her emotions any longer. Tears welled up in her eyes, and she felt a lump forming in her throat.
Angelina noticed her tears and immediately reached out, placing a comforting hand on her shoulder. "Hey, what's wrong, Vee?"
Vera sniffled, trying to compose herself. "I... I didn't expect..."
"It's okay," Fred said gently, handing her a napkin.
Kenny leaned closer. "We're sorry, Vera."
Alicia patted her back with a comforting smile. "We feel so bad about what happened."
“I should have never listened to Ernie, or Nancy,” Kenny continued. “They have no right talking about you!”
“But…” she sniffled, “My family, th-they…”
“No one has a perfect family.” Tommy interjected, “and whatever yours did or did not do, it has nothing to do with you.”
“You shouldn’t have apologized, Vera,” George added, “You are not them.”
“Yeah, you’re Piggy,” Cedric added with a smile, “Our Piggy.”
Feeling the warmth of their support, Vera let her tears flow freely, releasing the weight of secrets and fears she had carried for so long.
However, her tears were mostly those of guilt.
She was still deceiving them, and she couldn’t fathom revealing the truth now.
In her vulnerability, she made the foolish decision to lie once more. As the tears subsided, she smiled through her gratitude, knowing that she was not alone in her journey toward honesty and self-acceptance.
Angelina reached in for a hug, and Fred playfully tossed a chip at her to elicit a laugh. As dinner progressed, she felt herself relaxing. They didn't bring up Pollux or anything related to her family, for which she was immensely grateful.
Her gaze then shifted to the Slytherin table, where she spotted Ryu among the other Poshlanders. Her thoughts raced back to her earlier encounter with him, and a sudden wave of regret washed over her.
She recalled Professor Morales's advice and resolved to leap out from yet another circle.
"Hiya," she approached him as they exited the Great Hall.
Her voice carried an unusual softness, surprising him. "H-hey."
"Can we talk?"
"Sure," he replied, quickly stepping away from Eudora to join her.
Feeling a mix of determination and awkwardness, Vera led him away from the bustling crowd, conscious of curious eyes from the others.
Ryu remained quiet, his eyes entirely focused on her.
Clearing her throat, she glanced down at her feet. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry about earlier. I shouldn't have yelled at you."
Ryu nodded, a faint smile playing on his lips. "You don't have to apologize," he replied with a gentle tone. "You had every right to be upset. I was insensitive."
"No, you were just trying to be kind."
“I shouldn’t have brought up your parents. I'm truly sorry."
"It's fine," she murmured, swallowing past the lump in her throat. “It's not like I ever knew them.”
Ryu placed a reassuring hand on her shoulder, and this time, she didn't flinch away. "That's what I’m sorry for, Vera."
Chapter 27: Halloween ‘90
Summary:
The Gryffindor girls set up a cozy sleepover stacked with snacks, silly games, and outrageously dramatic horror stories. But what starts as innocent fun quickly spirals into a masterclass in terror.
Chapter Text
Wednesday, October 31, 1990
This year for Halloween, Vera, Angelina, and Alicia decided to elevate their plans from the usual games and set out to host the ultimate Halloween sleepover—a night filled with eerie excitement that would be talked about for years. The Gryffindor common room was the perfect setting, transformed into a hauntingly magical lair.
Floating candles flickered dimly above, casting long shadows that danced across the stone walls. Pumpkins carved with sinister grins were scattered around, and cobwebs hung from the ceiling, swaying slightly as if touched by an invisible breeze.
Fred and George, of course, were the first to arrive, sneaking in with a large sack of sweets.
"This isn't just a sleepover," Fred said, tossing a pumpkin pasty to Vera. "This is a legendary event in the making."
George grinned. "We've already got a few tricks lined up for later, just to keep things interesting."
Soon, the room filled with more familiar faces—Kenny, Lee, Tommy, Cedric, Malika, Patty, Maddie, Sarah, and Roger—all eager to join in on the spooky festivities. As the evening went on, they sprawled across the floor on enchanted sleeping bags, eating Bertie Bott’s Every Flavor Beans and chocolate frogs.
But the highlight of the night was to be the stories.
Vera, with her knack for theatrics, insisted that they hold the storytelling circle by the fireplace. The fire, bewitched by Angelina earlier, flickered an unnatural shade of green, casting a sickly glow over the group. The mood was perfect for the eerie tales they were about to share, and the sound of distant, echoing footsteps from the castle corridors only heightened the creepiness.
"Alright," Vera began. "Everyone has to tell a story, but the rule is: it has to be real—or at least believable."
She smiled darkly, and the group leaned in closer, eager for the fun to begin.
"And we’ll know if you’re lying," she added ominously, glancing at Fred and George, who looked unusually serious for a moment.
Lee was the first to go. He spun a tale about a cursed Quidditch broomstick that caused anyone who rode it to disappear without a trace.
"It was a Nimbus 666," he said in a hushed voice. "Last seen in the hands of a famous Seeker who flew off into a stormy night and was never seen again."
The group shuddered as the fire crackled.
Next up was Alicia, who told of an enchanted mirror hidden somewhere in Hogwarts, rumored to show your worst fears instead of your reflection.
"They say," she whispered, "if you look into it for too long, the reflection pulls you in, trapping you inside the mirror forever!"
Vera felt a chill run down her spine, even though she knew Alicia had a flair for the dramatic.
Fred and George went next, trading off lines in a story about a ghostly prankster who roamed the corridors at night, playing tricks on students that started out funny but quickly turned sinister.
"He’s been haunting Hogwarts for centuries," Fred said with a wicked grin. "And rumor has it, he’s still looking for his next victim."
"Could be one of us tonight." George added
Maddie and Sarah whispered to each other, coming up with a tale about a creepy part of the Forbidden Forest, where creatures more dangerous than anyone could imagine lurked.
"Hagrid won’t go near it," Sarah said. "Not even with Fang."
The stories grew darker and more unsettling as the night went on. Cedric spoke of a forgotten chamber in the dungeons, where a student had mysteriously vanished many years ago, never to be found. Malika told of a portrait that was said to come to life and whisper secrets to whoever stood in front of it after midnight. Roger chimed in with a story about a cursed set of armor that, once worn, could never be removed—enslaving its wearer forever.
But the night’s most disturbing story came from Vera herself. She had been quiet, letting the others have their fun, but when the fire dimmed, she stood up.
"I’ve got one more story for you all," she said, her voice low and intense.
The others went silent, their attention fixed on her.
"It’s about a girl who lived at Gryffindor tower many, many years ago. She was just like us—a second year, curious and full of life. But she made the mistake of wandering into the Restricted Section of the library one night, searching for answers she was never meant to find."
Fred leaned forward, his eyes wide. "What did she find?"
Vera paused for dramatic effect, her gaze sweeping across the room before continuing. “She found an ancient book, older than Hogwarts itself. The pages were filled with strange symbols and runes, and when she opened it, she unleashed something terrible. Something… DARK. It followed her back to the Gryffindor common room, watching her, waiting.”
Her voice then dropped to a chilling whisper. “And then… she disappeared! Right here… right where we’re all sitting.”
A chill swept through the room.
“I don’t like this." Angelina shivered. "I want to go to bed!”
“Wait, you think she could still be here?” Malika's voice trembled, eyes now darting toward the dark corners of the common room, glancing around as if expecting to see the ghostly figure materialize from the shadows.
“Whatever it is, it’s probably long gone,” Roger said dismissively, though even he couldn’t suppress a shiver at the thought. “Right, Vera?”
But Vera remained silent, her gaze fixed on the shadows, as if she could sense something lurking just beyond the light. Just then, the atmosphere shifted, and an unsettling silence enveloped them, heavy with the weight of unspoken fears.
"No one knows what happened to her," she finally said, "but they say if you listen closely, you can still hear her footsteps at night, wandering around the common room… knocking on the walls... asking for help... Crying... And touching students' necks as they walk by!"
At that moment, Malika gasped, her eyes wide with terror. "Something touched me! It’s her! It’s the girl!"
Tears streamed down her cheeks as panic consumed her. Lee rushed to her side, wrapping an arm around her, offering what little comfort he could amidst the gathering darkness.
Then, Angelina’s scream pierced the air. “Something touched me too!”
Panic erupted in the common room as the others joined in, voices overlapping in a cacophony of fear. They clung to one another, shrieks of terror echoing against the stone walls, all except for Vera, Fred, and George, who could barely contain their laughter.
Fred, with a glint of mischief in his eye, pulled his wand from beneath the cushion and exchanged a triumphant high-five with George.
“It was you!” Angelina shouted, pointing an accusatory finger before launching herself at him, fists flying. “You did this!”
“Hey! It was Vera’s idea!” Fred protested, ducking her blows with a grin.
Vera couldn’t stop laughing, reveling in the chaos as George joined in, their laughter a stark contrast to the frightened faces surrounding them. But just as the fun escalated, a sudden, ominous knock resonated from within the walls, silencing the room in an instant.
The laughter faded, replaced by a heavy stillness, as they all exchanged wary glances. The knock came again, slow and deliberate, sending chills down their spines.
“W-what was that?” Patty whispered, her eyes darting around the room.
"PIGGY THIS AIN'T FUNNY!" Tommy yelled.
"Yeah, just stop." Maddie added.
"Um, this wasn't me mate..." Vera whispered, her eyes darting towards the twins.
"We didn't do anything," George said, eyes wide in horror.
Vera felt a shiver creep down her spine. “Maybe it’s just the old building settling,” she suggested, but her voice wavered, betraying her own unease.
Another knock echoed, louder this time. The group jumped, hearts pounding in their chests. Fred and George exchanged nervous glances, and for the first time that night, even they looked unsure.
Cedric bravely stood up. "Who could that be?" He whispered, moving toward the wall.
But before he could reach it, the door of the common room creaked open slowly, revealing nothing but the dark, empty corridor beyond.
"Trick or treat?" came a soft, ghostly voice from the shadows.
And that was when the real terror began.
"Was that Peeves?" Lee whispered.
Before anyone could answer, the ghostly voice came again, this time louder. "Trick... or... treat?"
Everyone turned to look at the empty doorway, but the corridor beyond was pitch black. Not even the soft glow of the castle’s lanterns seemed to reach them now. It was as if the darkness itself was creeping into the room.
"I don’t like this," Maddie whispered, clutching her pillow like it would protect her.
Cedric, trying to sound brave, took another step. "It’s just someone messing with us," he said, walking toward the door.
But just as he reached for the handle, the door slammed shut with a loud bang, making the group jump.
The candles above them flickered wildly, and the once playful, spooky atmosphere now felt oppressive and suffocating. Vera felt a chill crawl up her spine, the same kind she got when something wasn’t right.
Suddenly, Roger gasped and pointed at the wall opposite the fireplace. "Look!"
The group turned in unison, their eyes widening as they saw a shadowy figure slowly emerging from the wall. It wasn’t like the castle ghosts they were used to—this figure was different. Darker. Its form was hazy, like smoke, shifting and swirling as it floated closer.
"That’s not a ghost," Cedric said in a low voice, backing up slowly.
The figure moved silently, gliding across the floor with an eerie, unnatural grace. It didn’t seem to notice them—or worse, it did notice them and was deliberately taking its time.
"We need to leave," Sarah shouted. "NOW."
But the figure blocked their path to the door, and before anyone could react, the fire suddenly roared to life, turning a deep, unnatural blue. The heat it radiated wasn’t warm, but icy cold, sending shivers through the group.
Cedric reached for his wand, but before he could cast a spell, the figure spoke in a low, hollow voice. "You’ve summoned me... you wanted a story."
The group stared in horror as the shadow shifted, becoming more defined, almost human in shape now.
Its voice was ancient, dripping with malice. "Let me tell you a tale of my own... a tale of those who wander where they should not."
Fred, for once, was speechless. George grabbed his arm, both of them taking a step back, their usual smirks nowhere to be seen.
The figure continued, its voice rising. "There was a time when Hogwarts harbored secrets far darker than what lies in its bookshelves. Students, like you, thought they could uncover them, but what they found... was DEATH."
The room seemed to grow colder still, and Vera could feel the others inching closer together, fear drawing them into a tight circle. The shadowy figure circled them slowly, almost enjoying their fear.
"And those students?" It hissed. "They never left. They still roam these halls, cursed to relive their final moments. They are bound here, just as you will be, for daring to summon what should remain forgotten."
"Vera," Alicia whispered urgently, "what did you do?"
"I—I didn’t do anything!" Vera stammered, though her heart raced with guilt.
The shadow leaned in closer to her, its cold presence making her breath catch in her throat. "Are you sure, little storyteller?" it whispered. "Are you certain your words did not awaken something long forgotten?"
Vera’s mouth went dry.
Suddenly, a gust of wind tore through the room, knocking over the pumpkin lanterns and sending papers flying. The fire dimmed again, plunging the room into near darkness, save for the faint glow from the ghostly blue flames in the hearth.
Then, just as quickly as it had appeared, the figure turned its hollow, dark gaze toward the door.
"You’ve heard enough," it rasped. "But beware... I am not the only one awakened tonight."
And with that, the shadow began to dissolve, its smoky form retreating back into the stone wall as if melting into the very castle itself. The last thing the group heard was its chilling laugh echoing through the room, fading into the silence.
For a moment, no one spoke. The fire returned to its normal orange glow, and the eerie chill lifted, but the heavy feeling of dread lingered.
"Well..." George finally said, his voice uncharacteristically shaky. "That was... fun."
"Fun?" Maddie snapped, still clutching her pillow. "That was terrifying!"
"Did... did we just summon a DEMON?" Kenny asked, looking pale.
"No," Vera whispered, though she wasn’t entirely sure herself. "It was just—"
But before she could finish, another loud knock echoed from the door. This time, it wasn’t soft or ghostly. It was hard, impatient. Everyone jumped.
"Who is it this time?" Fred groaned, moving toward the door with exaggerated bravery.
Just as he was about to open the door to investigate, the room’s atmosphere shifted again. This time, it was far more sinister. The temperature plummeted so suddenly that their breath misted in the air. The fire, which had returned to its usual warm glow, sputtered and died, plunging the room into near-total darkness.
From the walls, whispers began to emanate—low, insidious, unintelligible whispers that seemed to come from every direction at once. The sound grew louder, wrapping around the group like a cold, suffocating fog. Shadows in the corners of the room started to stretch and move, flickering in unnatural ways. Some of them seemed to slither along the walls, growing closer to the group huddled in the center of the room.
"Oh, no," Maddie whispered, her voice shaking. "What is happening?"
"I—I didn’t do this," Vera stammered, her heart racing. The dread that had been simmering all night now surged into full-blown terror.
The others stared at her, some eyes wide with fear, others darting around the room as if expecting something to jump out at them at any second.
Then, from the far corner of the room, a ghastly figure emerged, taller and more grotesque than the last. It was pale and skeletal, its eyes hollow and glowing with a faint, sickly green light. The figure glided forward, its bony hand outstretched toward the group, its mouth opening wide as if to scream—but no sound came out, just an eerie, piercing silence.
Vera screamed, and that was all it took. The room erupted into chaos. Malika began to sob, clinging to Lee, who was frozen in place. Cedric and Tommy were backing away, knocking over a stack of pumpkins as they tried to escape the advancing figure. Maddie and Sarah huddled together, their eyes wide with fear.
"WHAT IS THAT?!" Roger shouted, his voice cracking as the figure came closer.
"RUN!" George yelled, grabbing Fred by the arm, but neither of them moved.
The whispers became louder, merging into something that sounded like maniacal laughter. The figure kept advancing, its movements slow and deliberate, its long fingers curling as if preparing to grab someone.
Suddenly, the door to the common room burst open, slamming against the wall with a deafening bang. More figures rushed in—hooded, their faces obscured, but their eerie, glowing eyes visible beneath their cloaks. The group screamed in unison, the pure terror gripping them as they backed up against the far wall, cornered.
"GET AWAY!" Angelina cried, tears welling in her eyes.
Alicia was shaking, whispering under her breath, "No, no, no..."
But the cloaked figures moved in closer, encircling them, their hollow eyes staring into the souls of each student. The sound of their breathing—slow, rasping, and unnatural—filled the room.
Just when it seemed like there was no escape, the lead figure let out a deep, rattling laugh—a laugh that grew into something more annoyingly familiar. Slowly, the figure reached up and pulled back its hood, revealing—
Percy’s smug face, grinning like a Kneazle with cream. “Happy Halloween!”
The group stood frozen, caught between lingering fear and the ridiculousness of it all.
“You lot should’ve seen your faces!” Percy laughed, glowing with self-satisfaction.
Beside him, Oliver, still half tangled in his cloak, flung off his hood with a smirk.
“That,” he drawled, “was genius.”
Fred and George were the first to recover. “PERCY?” they roared in unison, eyeing their older brother and the still-glowing eyes of the cloaked figures, now revealed to be nothing more than enchanted lanterns hidden under black fabric.
“You absolute git!” George added, shaking his head in disbelief.
“WOOD!” Angelina gasped, still gripping her wand like she was about to duel them both into oblivion. “I swear, I’m taking ten years off my life with this!”
Percy and Oliver dissolved into fits of laughter, doubling over at the mix of terror and outrage still plastered on everyone’s faces. The other cloaked figures—third and fourth years, all looking sheepish—emerged from the shadows, smirking.
“You really should’ve seen yourselves!” Percy wheezed, tears of laughter forming.
Oliver clapped Fred on the back. “Mate, I’ll be honest—yours was the best. I thought you were going to pass out!”
The room was slowly returning to normal—the candles flickered back on, the eerie blue fire in the hearth dimmed, and the heavy chill began to dissipate. Vera, catching her breath, felt a surge of fury rise now that the terror was starting to fade.
“ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MINDS?” she shouted, her voice shaking with leftover adrenaline. “You nearly gave us heart attacks!”
“Oh, come on, Black,” Oliver said, grinning wider. “It’s Halloween. A little scare never hurt anyone.”
“A little scare?” Angelina said, clutching Alicia’s arm. “We thought we were about to get cursed.”
Fred crossed his arms, glaring daggers at Percy. “You know, we were this close to cursing you. This close.”
Percy shrugged with complete indifference. “Would’ve been quite the challenge for a couple of second years. Besides, you lot prank us all the time, it’s only fair we get back at you.”
“Prank?” Vera seethed, her fists clenched. “That wasn’t a prank; that was a death sentence. You don’t just—”
“Overreact much?” Oliver said, clearly enjoying the chaos. “You were all telling ghost stories anyway. We just... made things more immersive.”
Malika squeaked. “We thought we were going to die!”
“And I’m fairly sure I wet myself,” Kenny muttered, trying for bravado but looking like he was still seconds away from a nervous breakdown.
Percy smirked. “Well, now you’ve got a story to tell.”
“Yeah, a story about how we’re going to murder you,” George said, raising his wand threateningly.
“Consider it an early inheritance,” Fred added, stepping forward.
“Alright, alright, let’s not get too carried away!” Oliver laughed, backing up. “It’s all in good fun! No harm, no foul.”
The pranksters exchanged gleeful glances as the rest of the group slowly began to recover from the ordeal.
Tommy let out a shaky laugh, leaning against the wall. "Okay... I have to admit... that was kind of cracker."
Fred groaned. "Don’t encourage them, Tom!"
"Yeah, let’s not give them any satisfaction," Lee added, wiping sweat from his brow.
Vera, still glaring at Percy, finally relented with a sigh. "Fine. It was... sort of impressive. And very… unexpected from someone like you."
Percy gave her a wink, clearly pleased with himself. “I’m full of surprises, Black.”
As the tension in the room finally eased, the group of second years laughed nervously, sharing their relief and disbelief. The sleepover continued, though now with a new, unwritten rule: never trust a Weasley or a Quidditch captain on Halloween.
The group settled back into a semblance of normalcy, and the atmosphere transformed once more, shifting from the residual fear of the prank to an eager anticipation for stories that would both frighten and entertain.
Oliver, seeing the perfect opportunity to scare them once again, leaned back against the wall, a glint of mischief in his eyes.
"Alright, everyone, settle down! I have a spine-chilling tale for you all," he said, rubbing his hands together for dramatic effect. "This one’s known as... dum dum dum…. 'The Red Dinner.'"
"BORING!" Fred yelled.
"Yeah, we've heard it a thousand times before." Alicia said.
"Wait, I haven't!" Vera protested.
"Me neither!" Lee and Tommy added.
"It's the most cliché story out there." Percy interjected.
Oliver shot him a playful glare. "You don’t know it like I do. Now hush!" He cleared his throat and began with a theatrical tone, setting the stage. "It was a night like any other in 1983—”
“82,” Percy corrected.
Oliver scoffed. “Does it matter, Weasley?”
“Of course it does,” Percy shot back. “It’s a real story so you need to get the facts right.”
“FINE! It was a night like any other in 1982 and a lavish dinner was taking place at the estate of Mr. Fleetwood, a very wealthy wizard famous for his wild and exclusive parties.”
The group leaned in, captivated by Oliver’s storytelling. .
“Pureblood families from all over the realm were in attendance. The Malfoys, Yaxleys, Flints, Averys..."
“Um, actually the Avery’s were still in Japan at that point, they weren’t at the dinner—”
“IT DOESN’T MATTER, PERCE!” Oliver shouted, then quickly gained composure. “Anyways…. As the families gathered and the wine flowed, strange occurrences began to unfold. Guests whispered of feeling cold spots and hearing strange noises, but they dismissed them as nothing more than the fanciful imaginations of a few tipsy witches and wizards. That was until the first victim dropped dead—unexpectedly, with a glass of wine still in hand."
"Wait, was it Ophelia Malfoy or Fleetwood himself?" Percy interjected, crossing his arms. "I believe it was Fleetwood. Ophelia wasn’t the first."
"Let me tell the story, Percy!" Oliver shot back. "Now, where was I? Ah, yes! Panic erupted among the guests. Abraxas Malfoy, convinced someone methodically killed his daughter, decided to take matters into his own hands. In a fit of anger, he magically sealed all the doors of the mansion, determined that no one would leave until the killer revealed themselves."
"That was a terrible decision," Percy chimed in, adjusting his posture as if to lecture. "He should have known better than to cast a locking charm without backup plans. It’s basic magical safety!"
“Right, because that’s what they were worried about at that moment,” Angelina snorted, stifling laughter. "What happened next? Did the party guests just start taking notes on magical safety?"
Oliver smirked. "Believe it or not, it got worse. With Abraxas’ charm sealing them inside, he suddenly dropped dead as well—poisoned wine, or so the rumor goes. But with his death, the locking charm ceased to exist, trapping everyone inside. The only way out was now closed, and a true horror unfolded."
Gasps filled the room as the students exchanged wide-eyed glances.
"With Abraxas gone, chaos erupted. People turned against one another. Accusations flew like hexes, and before long, it devolved into madness. Guests who had arrived in elegant attire now fought for survival, using their wands as weapons. Friends became enemies, and alliances shattered."
"That’s a bit dramatized, don’t you think?" Percy remarked, brow raised. "Most of them were too inebriated to effectively fight back."
"Oh, shush, Percy!" Alicia exclaimed. "This is the spooky part!"
"Right, right," Oliver continued, sensing the group’s engagement. "As the night wore on, blood stained the once-white tablecloths, turning them a horrifying crimson. Families fought against one another—many of them were lost that night, including Ophelia Malfoy and Roman Yaxley, who were supposed to be married the very next day. They were both seventeen…."
Vera shivered, clutching her blanket tighter. "How horrible..."
"Indeed," Oliver said, leaning in closer. "Those who survived bore the marks of that night forever, both physically and emotionally. The scars of betrayal and death lingered long after, creating a chasm between families that had once been allies."
Percy rolled his eyes. “And now they’re all allies again…”
“Is it true they still hear whispers in the night?” Kenny asked. “That they see the shadows of those who died?”
“Absolutely,” Oliver replied, voice low and conspiratorial. “Some say the estate remains cursed to this day. Anyone who dares enter is haunted by the echoes of those who perished, hearing their cries of betrayal echoing through the halls.”
"Very poetic, Oliver," Percy said. "But perhaps leave out the dramatics and focus on the facts next time. The aftermath was quite simple, really; they all found out it was a rebel who did it, then few houses formed ‘The Six’ to protect pureblood families and ensure it never happens again. The rest simply tried to move on."
"Ugh, Percy, you ruin everything!" George exclaimed, shaking his head. "Let’s just enjoy the ghost story, yeah?"
Thursday, November 1, 1990
The next day, Vera found herself sitting in Professor Morales' office, still feeling the lingering chill from the night before.
She fidgeted in her chair, trying to shake the uneasy feeling, but it clung to her like a ghost. Finally, unable to hold it in any longer, she glanced at Professor Morales, who was sipping his tea, reading some papers on his desk.
"Professor," she began hesitantly, "have you ever heard of the Red Dinner?"
Morales looked up, his sharp eyes narrowing slightly in thought before he nodded. "Ah, the infamous Red Dinner. I’ve heard the stories, yes."
His tone was casual, dismissive even, and it threw her off a bit.
"You don’t seem... creeped out by it," she noted, feeling a little foolish for having been so disturbed.
He set his tea down, fixing her with a more serious gaze. "Because there’s nothing creepy about it, Vera.”
“But… something was killing all those people… something dark.”
He chuckled. “It wasn’t ghosts or curses that killed those people."
"So what was it, then? Rebels?”
At the mention of the word rebel, Morales’ expression shifted. His usual calm demeanor hardened, his jaw tightening just slightly.
"No." he said firmly, almost too firmly. "That’s just a convenient lie they like to spread, to make it seem like they’re the victims. It wasn’t rebels. It wasn’t ghosts. It was them, settling their debts amongst each other."
Vera blinked, surprised by the anger in his voice. "What do you mean?"
He sighed, leaning back in his chair and crossing his arms. "You see, the real reason the Red Dinner was organized was because Fleetwood, that eccentric old wizard, thought he could get all the pureblood families to unite again. They were all at each other’s throats after the war, fighting amongst themselves. It was chaos in their world. People like the Malfoys, Yaxleys, and Notts—they all claimed they were under the Imperius Curse during You-Know-Who's reign, to excuse their actions."
Vera frowned. "Imperius Curse?"
"It’s an unforgivable curse. When cast successfully, it places the victim completely under the caster's control. They wanted everyone to believe that they had no choice, that they were just innocent bystanders in their leader's madness. But then you had families like the Rowles and the Parkinsons, who saw that claim as treason. They thought hiding their true beliefs was cowardly. To them, being loyal to You-Know-Who wasn’t something to be ashamed of. So you had these two factions: one side claiming innocence, the other side saying they should proudly stand by their actions."
Vera’s stomach churned as she tried to process this. "So the Red Dinner wasn’t some haunted massacre. It was just them... fighting each other?"
Morales nodded. "Fleetwood thought he could get them to reconcile, to put their differences aside and unite the purebloods again. But the truth is, these rich, powerful families—they don’t care about unity or reconciliation. They only care about power. And if that means killing off their own kind to stay on top, they’ll do it without hesitation. A dozen house-elves died that night, working tirelessly to serve their masters as the chaos unfolded around them. But no one mourns them. No one tells stories about their sacrifices. Instead, they cry for poor Ophelia Malfoy and her tragic, beautiful death. Or young Roman Yaxley, who was supposed to be married. They’ll whine for hours about how tragic it was that these pretty young purebloods died, but the lives of the elves? Completely forgotten."
Vera’s heart sank. "No one cared about the house-elves?"
"Of course not," Morales said bitterly. "That’s how it’s always been with the pureblood families. The people at the bottom—those without money, without power—are always the ones who pay the price. They’re the ones who get crushed underfoot while the rich play their games of power. The house-elves were just another casualty, and they weren’t even worth a mention in the aftermath."
The weight of his words settled heavily on Vera. She had always known that the wizarding world was unjust, but hearing it laid out so plainly—hearing how people like the Malfoys twisted their own tragedies to maintain their power, while ignoring the lives they’d trampled in the process—left her feeling sick.
“Abraxes Malfoy,” she whispered. “I read about him. He tried to poison the muggleborn minister, right?”
"That’s right. And now his son Lucius is making all the decisions at the ministry. Madness, huh? He used his father and sisters' deaths to climb up the ladder after his house’s fall from grace. People quickly forgot about his family’s crimes after the Red Dinner. ‘Oh, poor young Lucius, he lost so much… let’s give him another chance… Let’s give him everything.’”
He scoffed bitterly. “They all followed the same strategy to get back into power. The purists, Vera… They’ll do whatever it takes to stay in control. And they’ll always find a way to paint themselves as the victims, to make it seem like they’re the ones who are suffering. But the truth is, they’re the ones pulling the strings. And the ones who suffer the most? The ones like those house-elves who no one remembers—they’re the real victims of the Red Dinner."
Vera sat in silence, the shadows of last night’s stories lingering in her mind, but now transformed by this harsh truth. It wasn’t about ghosts or dark curses. It was about power—who held it, who lost it, and who was forgotten in the process. And in that moment, she saw the wizarding world with even clearer eyes.
“But why won’t anyone talk about it?” she asked innocently. “Don’t they know the truth?”
“They do.” Morales said. “They just choose to ignore it.”
“But why!”
“Because… ghost stories are much more fun.”
Chapter 28: Time
Summary:
Professor Morales delivers a lesson Vera won’t ever forget. And when the first Quidditch match takes off, Felix pulls a vanishing act—and she's the one stuck chasing him down.
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Friday, November 2, 1990
"Any questions?" Professor Morales inquired after wrapping up the final concept of the chapter.
"Sir?" Angelina raised her hand, seemingly for the twelfth time that class. "I have a question."
"Yes, Miss Johnson?"
She rested her cheek in her hand, gazing dreamily at him. "Which house were you in?"
Fred and George exchanged eye rolls, also seemingly for the twelfth time that class.
The students collectively turned their attention to the professor, eager for his response.
"I'm sorry to disappoint, Miss Johnson, but I didn't attend Hogwarts."
"Then where did you study?" Alicia interjected.
"Ilvermorny?" Kenny chimed in eagerly.
"Castelobruxo?" Adrian added before receiving a nudge from behind.
"Ouch!" he exclaimed, turning to face Ryu, who was shaking his head, disapproving.
"What?" Adrian retorted, “You were all thinking it too.”
"No," Professor Morales answered Kenny, "and no," he added, smiling at Adrian.
"What school, then?" Miles joined in.
"We'll conclude our discussion of this chapter here," the professor deflected, turning to clean the board. "Today, we'll begin a new lesson."
The class exchanged glances, wondering why he evaded the question, though they were accustomed to his tendency to steer clear of personal inquiries.
"We're embarking on something different today." he continued.
"Does it have anything to do with whatever's in that cage, sir?" Lee asked, casting a worried glance at the moving, squeaking cage covered by a cloth on the professor's desk.
"Indeed, Mr. Jordan."
Morales then shifted the cage to the center of the desk, carefully unveiling the cloth.
"A pixie?" Miles chuckled upon seeing the small, trouble-making blue creature.
"A Cornish pixie," the professor clarified. "Notorious for their mischievous antics."
"It's adorable!" Vera remarked.
Angelina smirked at the twins. "Just like the Weasleys, but they could make the devil repent."
"Oh, so you think we’re adorable, huh, Angie?" George teased.
"Pipe down!" she shot back, sticking out her tongue.
"Is this our new lesson?" Cassius inquired.
"Somewhat," Morales replied. "You see, this pixie was caught misbehaving, and your task is to suggest an appropriate punishment for its actions. For the student who offers the answer I am looking for, I'll award their house ten points."
Excited chatter erupted as hands shot up and suggestions were shouted out.
"We should clip its ears." Adrian proposed.
"Lock it up!" Miles added.
"Hand it over to Professor Snape.” Fred suggested, eliciting laughter from the class, including the professor.
"We should make it apologize." Malika offered softly.
"Taxidermy!" Sarah said seriously, earning concerned looks from her peers.
"Starve it..." Vera interjected, catching the professor's concerned attention with her answer.
"Pixies prefer damp environments," Cassius remarked with a smug grin. "We should put it in a dry one."
"Or set it on fire!" Ryu proudly suggested.
"Tickling charm!" George interjected.
"Throw it in Azkaban!"
"Feed it to Hagrid's dog!"
"Spin it till it's sick!"
"Keep it in a jar!"
The professor appeared overwhelmed by the variety of responses, his expression turning momentarily horrified. After a moment, he regained his composure. "I believe we've heard enough."
"So, who's earning the ten points?" Cedric inquired eagerly.
"No one."
"But sir," Cassius interjected swiftly, "My answer was quite good."
"And yet, you missed the point of the task, Mr. WarringtonI. In fact, all of you did."
The students exchanged puzzled looks. Despite their varied suggestions, the professor remained unsatisfied.
"Why?" Kenny asked.
"Because none of you stopped to ask what the pixie did to warrant punishment."
A hush fell over the room.
"You were quick to propose various actions that could harm the creature, but none of you asked about the nature of its crime. How, then, could you determine an appropriate punishment?"
The class stared at him in bewilderment. As he descended from the platform, his hands in his pockets, he calmly approached them.
"Mr. Avery," he turned to Ryu, "you suggested burning it. And Miss McMahon," he shifted his gaze to Sarah, "you proposed turning it into a toy."
"Taxidermy." Sarah corrected, her tone serious.
"Indeed," he acknowledged. "But what if I told you that the pixie's only crime was stealing my pocket watch? Would your suggested punishments still fit?"
"Of course not, sir." Ryu responded, a trace of guilt in his voice.
"I would propose a more suitable consequence," Cassius offered, looking knowledgeable. "Perhaps confining it until it returns the watch."
"And yet, you've missed the mark again, Mr. Warrington." Morales replied.
Cassius's smug expression dissolved into confusion. "How so?"
Professor Morales ascended the stairs once more, hands still tucked in his pockets. With a deliberate motion, he withdrew his hand, revealing his pocket watch.
"Because you believed me."
The classroom fell into a deep silence again, every eye fixed on him with bewildered expressions.
"You see," he continued, "this poor Cornish pixie did nothing wrong. I framed him and imprisoned him in this cage against his will. But none of you questioned it, simply because I am a figure of authority."
Placing his pocket watch on the desk beside the cage, he noted the pixie's fearful gaze following his every move. Then, lifting his wand, he gestured towards the window, which swung open.
"I'll offer you one final chance to earn the ten points." he announced.
The class leaned in eagerly, ready to respond.
"If I were to release the pixie right now, granting it the opportunity to escape through the window, what do you think it would do?"
The answer seemed obvious.
"The pixie would fly away.” most of them responded.
Yet, Professor Morales remained silent.
Sensing his lingering dissatisfaction with their responses, Vera slowly raised her hand.
"Yes, Vera?" Morales prompted.
She hesitated, her voice uncertain. "It will steal the pocket watch before flying away, sir." she answered tentatively.
The professor nodded, his expression inscrutable. "Why do you think so?"
"Because," Vera swallowed, "it wants revenge."
A faint smile tugged at the corner of Morales's lips. "Ten points for Gryffindor."
Vera smiled proudly at herself, though the lingering unease from the lesson still hung in the air.
Professor Morales slid his hands back into his pockets and withdrew a sweet. Unwrapping it, he offered it to the pixie inside the cage, who initially eyed it fearfully before tentatively licking its surface.
The pixie's face lit up with delight as it tasted the sweet, bouncing joyfully around the cage. Morales then opened the cage door, allowing it to step outside.
Ignoring the pocket watch, the pixie looked around the room, spread its wings, and flew out of the window with the sweet clutched in its hand.
"Humans, I'm afraid, are much more complicated," Morales remarked. "Their grudges don't disappear with sweets and candy."
He waved his wand at the window again, causing it to close. "I assume you all have the small book I assigned for purchase," he continued, and the students swiftly reached into their bags, retrieving a small black book.
"Mr. Davies, could you read the title of the book, please?"
"Dark Defense Ethics," Roger replied promptly.
The professor picked up a piece of chalk and wrote "Ethics" on the board.
"Many of you aspire to become Aurors in the near future, but this seemingly adventurous job requires much more than just hunting down dark creatures and fighting crime."
The class leaned in, now grasping the deeper meaning behind the pixie assignment.
"To be an Auror, you must certainly be a skillful wizard, or witch," he smiled at the girls, "but you also must adhere to certain ethical standards."
Vera secretly glanced at Cassius, who appeared somewhat discontent with the turn of the lesson.
"Otherwise," Professor Morales continued, "instead of catching criminals, you may just end up creating ones."
“That was one odd lesson,” Miles turned to Adrian as they were leaving the room.
“So class of him to give the pixie a sweet." Alicia said with dreamy eyes.
“So class." Angelina agreed.
“Have a nice weekend everyone, and good luck with the match tomorrow,” he announced as they were leaving. “Oh and, Vera,” he called as she was preparing to leave.
He waited until the rest of the students were already out of the class before continuing. “Don’t forget our Meeting on Sunday,” he winked, causing her to blush slightly.
“Yes, professor,” she said with a shy smile.
Her meetings with him quickly became the highlight of her time.
Despite the fact that he hadn't yet begun her magical training, she found immense fulfillment in their time together.
Following Pollux's passing and the subsequent dissolution of her hopes for ever claiming her inheritance, she found herself grappling with a myriad of emotions, ones that only professor Morales seemed capable of easing.
Gradually, thoughts of her family faded into the background as she made the conscious decision to move forward.
She had shouldered the burden of her existence without a family for her entire life, and she can do so for the rest of it.
Moreover, she cherished the moments shared with Morales, appreciating not only his understanding but also his undeniable charm.
"Any bets he’s married?" Angelina quipped, sinking into the common room's cozy couch later that afternoon.
"Not a ring in sight." Kenny observed.
"Let's hope not," Vera chimed in optimistically.
"Oh, do you fancy your chances?" Alicia jabbed sarcastically.
"Well, why not?" Vera retorted with a grin. "He's not exactly ancient."
"Catch yourself on," Alicia shot back.
"Think he's a muggleborn?" Kenny interjected.
"Couldn't say," Alicia replied cryptically. "He's a mystery."
"A charming mystery," Vera added with a sigh. "That's his thing, init?"
"I wager he's taken," Angelina declared, sinking deeper into the sofa.
"He smells so good." Vera swooned.
“Ah, so class.” Alicia agreed
"Are you all serious?" Kenny grimaced. “He smells like cigarettes and cheap cologne."
"EXACTLY!" the girls chimed in unison.
As they gazed dreamily and Kenny quivered in fear, a squadron of Gryffindors stormed into the common room.
"I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!" boomed a thick Scottish accent, shaking the very walls. "Where in Merlin's name is he hiding again?"
"We're still searching," Fred and George said, looking guiltier than garden gnomes caught in a pumpkin patch.
"FIND HIM, DAMMIT!"
Angelina quickly straightened up, and Alicia rose to her feet. Vera shot Kenny a puzzled glance, only to find him equally alarmed.
"It's the first match of the season, people!" Oliver bellowed, his face flushed like the twin’s hair. “AND WE’RE BARELY PREPARED!”
“Haven’t they been practicing every single day for a month?” Vera turned to Kenny.
“Shhhh” Kenny urged.
“Go find Bobbin or I’ll hang the three of you from the bloody hoops!”
“Yes, captain.” The twins swiftly barged out of the common room with determined, and slightly horrified, feet.
"And you two!" Oliver then jabbed his finger toward Alicia and Angelina. "Didn't I say 'training at five' loud enough for the Giant Squid to hear?"
"It's four-thirty—"
"PRECISELY!" Oliver thundered, his voice slicing through the air, causing even the paintings to hide. "Ten minutes for gear, fifteen for the sprint to the pitch, and ten for warm-up! You're behind schedule!"
"Apologies, Captain—"
"MOVE!" Oliver's command rattled the windows. "NOW!"
"Yes, Captain," Alicia and Angelina muttered in unison, their faces pale as Nearly Headless Nick, then quickly ran towards their dorm to prepare.
"Pick up the pace, people! We've got a match to win tomorrow, and I won't have any slackers on my team!"
He then turned to face Vera and Kenny, and the duo sprang into action with the finesse of seasoned actors. Grabbing books from the nearby table, they pretended to be engrossed, their eyes darting furtively to avoid Oliver's intense gaze.
Closing in on Vera, Oliver pointed a finger like a wand, his expression stern. "And you!" he boomed. "I'll make you in charge of ensuring Johnson and Spinnet are tucked in bed before eleven."
Vera's eyes widened in horror, her heart pounding like a drum. "Yes, sir, I mean… um, Captain."
"Good," Oliver declared with a nod of approval, his demeanor shifting slightly as he turned toward the door. "NOW, WHERE’S BOBBIN?"
The first match of the season was drawn between Gryffindor and Hufflepuff, leaving both buzzing with anticipation.
However, the upcoming match also brought an unexpected chill between the two houses as Cedric and Tommy, in particular, kept their distance from Gryffindor for the entire week.
Out of nothing but sheer petty, Vera made it her personal mission to stick close to the two, much to their annoyance.
With a mischievous glint in her eye, she trailed behind them like a persistent shadow, determined to ruffle their feathers at every turn.
Meanwhile, the twins, Angelina, and Alicia, appeared to be running on fumes. Exhausted from the intense training, they teetered on the verge of collapse.
Yet, fueled by their unbridled excitement for their first game, they pushed through, their determination unwavering even in the face of fatigue.
Saturday, November 3, 1990
Saturday arrived swiftly, engulfing the school in a fervent atmosphere of anticipation. The stands brimmed with spectators, their palpable excitement permeating the air as they eagerly awaited the imminent clash between the rival teams.
Among them, Vera and Lee stood poised, armed with their signs and cheers, primed for the spectacle about to unfold. Amidst their rehearsal of yet another original cheer, a breathless voice pierced through the buzzing crowd.
"VERA!" Kenny's sudden call startled her, and she turned to him with a quizzical expression.
"The Weasleys need you!" he gasped out between breaths, "NOW!"
With a puzzled expression, she hurried down to the preparation tent where the Gryffindor team awaited. As she approached, the echoes of Oliver's fervent commands reached her ears.
Stepping inside, she was met by Fred and George, their faces strained and sweat glistening despite the chill in the air. In the background, Oliver paced furiously, his shouts filling the room as he grappled with a mounting mental strain.
"Vera!" Fred swiftly took her arm and ushered her aside.
"What's going on?"
"Do you have the map?"
"No, it's in my dorm."
"Damn it!"
"What's happening?" she pressed, with concern.
"Bobbin's a no show."
Her concern grew. "What?"
"We haven't seen him since morning," George added, his tone matching Fred's urgency.
"Is he alright?" She asked.
"We don't know, you idiot!" Fred snapped at her.
"Okay, I'll go find him."
"No, just get us the map and we'll find him," Fred insisted.
"Yeah, we don't want you getting in trouble with him," George chimed in.
"Don't worry about that," she assured them. "There's no time left anyways."
As they conversed, Oliver's meltdown continued unabated. "I'm gonna bloody kill him! I'M GONNA KILL YOU BOBBIN!"
"I'll be quick!" she promised before swiftly departing.
With that, she left the twins behind and hastened towards the castle. She didn't need the map to locate Felix; she knew exactly where he would be.
As she made her way to Haven, her mind churned with various possibilities, but she fervently prayed as she walked that nothing untoward had befallen him.
Upon reaching the music room, she burst into Haven without hesitation, her heart racing with anxiety.
"FELIX!" she exclaimed as she saw him.
He was sitting on the sofa in his full Quidditch gear, his broom lying beside him. He appeared exhausted, his eyes red as if stained with years of tears.
"What are you doing?" she approached him urgently. "The match is about to start, and Oliver's on the verge of setting the Quidditch pitch on fire."
But he remained silent, his gaze fixed on the floor.
"Feli—"
"Why are you here?" he suddenly interjected.
"To bring you back!"
"No, why are YOU here?"
"I... I knew where you might be."
"Did he send you to get me, or did you come by yourself?"
"I..." she faltered, unable to comprehend why this distinction was important.
"JUST ANSWER!"
“I was worried about you!”
He met her gaze briefly before abruptly throwing his broomstick against the wall, burying his face in his hands.
A surge of fear gripped her momentarily, tempting her to flee. However, the soft sound of his sobs from behind his hands anchored her in place.
"I can't..." He sobbed, his anguish palpable, shattering her heart into a million piece.
Uncertain of what to do or say, she approached him cautiously, taking a seat beside him on the sofa and gently placing her hand on his back. "You can talk to me," she offered softly.
His sobs eased slightly at her comforting touch. But as she sensed his body tense, she withdrew her hand.
"No." He uttered, his voice tired. "Keep it."
Her heart pounded against her chest, echoing the tumult of emotions swirling within her. Despite her own trepidation, she sensed his desperate need for solace. With resolve, she placed her hand on his back once more.
"I can't play." He confessed, his voice barely audible.
"Are you hurt?"
He clenched his jaw and closed his eyes, a solitary tear trickling down his cheek. "No," he whispered, anguish tainting his tone. "I just can't."
Desperate to understand him but wary of causing further discomfort, she opted for silence. Instead, she began to trace gentle patterns with her fingers along his back, reminiscent of the comforting gestures she had witnessed from Miss Nelson.
With each soothing stroke, she felt his heavy breathing gradually subside, his tension easing beneath her touch.
Her mind raced with myriad thoughts, but she knew instinctively to tread carefully with her words. Drawing closer to him, she allowed her face to brush against his shoulder lightly.
"Felix." She began softly, breaking the silence. "When I fell off my broom, I was ready to die. I gave up so quickly, even twisted my body so that when I hit the ground, the last thing I'd see would be the blue sky instead of the grass."
Felix remained silent, his gaze fixed ahead as she continued to speak.
"I felt the warmth of the sun on my face, like it was hugging me. I was ready, completely ready. But then I saw you flying towards me, and in that moment, I didn't want to die anymore."
Felix blinked back his tears, lifting his head to meet her gaze, his brow furrowed with emotion.
"And I knew I wouldn't," she asserted, her eyes locking with his. "Do you know why?"
He shook his head, his expression a mixture of sorrow and desperation.
"Because I knew you would catch me."
She withdrew her hand from his back, replacing it with a gentle grip on his hand, squeezing it reassuringly. His eyes softened as he continued to gaze at her.
"Because I believe in you," she asserted, pressing his hand a little more firmly.
He remained silent, his expression inscrutable as he looked at her. After a moment, she realized she might have overstepped, and released his hand, creating a slight distance between them. Clearing her throat, she attempted to lighten the mood.
"And if you could catch me, what's stopping you from catching that stupid golden snitch?"
Felix averted his gaze, his jaw clenched tightly. Though his expression remained inscrutable, a palpable wave of emotion seemed to wash over him, teetering on the brink of tears once more.
Sensing his deep-seated disappointment, she stood up from the sofa, smoothing out her skirt.
"Everyone out there believes in you, Felix," she spoke softly as she made her way toward the door. "They trust that you would never let them down, just as I trusted you would catch me."
Felix didn't turn to acknowledge her words, his gaze fixed ahead. His fists tightened, and a shadow seemed to darken his eyes.
She cast one final glance at him before exiting the room, bracing herself for the inevitable backlash from the twins or, worse, from Oliver.
Each step back to the Gryffindor preparation tent felt weighted with guilt, her conscience burdened by her perceived failure.
"So?" Fred approached her immediately upon her return.
"Did you find him?" George followed up.
"I, um," she faltered, her nerves fraying.
"TIME IS TICKING!" Oliver's voice thundered from behind.
"What!" Fred snapped impatiently.
"I tried, but—"
Before she could elaborate, the sound of cheers erupted from outside. The Gryffindors rushed to investigate, only to witness Felix soaring in on his broom, greeted by the jubilant crowd.
"YES!" the twins exclaimed triumphantly, and Vera breathed a sigh of relief.
With the team swiftly mounting their brooms to join their seeker, she found herself alone in the tent. She looked up at Felix with a proud smile before making her way back to the stands.
As anticipated, the match concluded with him deftly capturing the golden snitch, albeit not without a formidable challenge from Cedric.
The red-clad stands erupted with cheers as Gryffindor celebrated their hard-earned victory soaring through the air.
Oliver was finally seen smiling, while the twins exuberantly expressed their elation. Alicia and Angelina joined in the jubilation, their exhaustion momentarily forgotten in the thrill of triumph.
Felix approached Cedric, delivering a friendly pat on the back. The Hufflepuff seeker’s cheeks flushed crimson at the unexpected gesture from his rival, but he appreciated the camaraderie displayed between them, acknowledging the spirit of goodwill prevailing amidst the fierce competition.
As Gryffindor Tower buzzed with celebrations later that night, Felix finally joined in the revelry, appearing to be fully present for the first time.
“I was on the verge of tearing you apart, Bobbin." Oliver exclaimed, wrapping his arm around Felix's shoulder. "You're lucky you're my best mate."
Felix grinned sheepishly as Oliver playfully wrestled with him, tousling his hair.
"What happened, though?" Angelina inquired, voicing the curiosity shared by everyone in the room.
Felix glanced around nervously, his hand absently rubbing the back of his head. His gaze eventually found Vera, who was sitting quietly by the fireplace.
Locking eyes with her, a subtle smile tugged at the corners of his lips, "I guess I just needed a little bit of Faith."
Sunday, November 4, 1990
As the celebrations carried on into the night and lingered into the next day, Vera found herself buoyed by a sense of contentment that surpassed mere happiness.
The realization that her words had made a difference for Felix filled her with a profound sense of satisfaction, elevating her mood even further as she awaited her meeting with Professor Morales.
As she approached his office that afternoon, she heard faint strains of music drifting through the door.
♪ Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
Fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way ♪
Gently tapping on the door, she granted herself entry. To her pleasant surprise, she found the walls of Morales's office adorned with her sketches.
Among them were portraits of the professor himself, along with more random ones—a black cat sipping tea while engrossed in a newspaper, a clock behind her indicating six o’clock.
Next to it was a sketch of a frog getting a haircut with a large Koink in hand, and at the end of the small gallery was a drawing of a smiling sun gently hugging a small girl.
The melodic hum of music filled the air, emanating from a vintage record player nestled in the corner.
♪ Tired of lying in the sunshine,
staying home to watch the rain
You are young and life is long,
and there is time to kill today ♪
Noticing her arrival, the professor deftly adjusted the volume with a flick of his wand. "I hope you don’t mind the music?" he inquired, motioning for her to take a seat.
"Not at all, sir." she replied graciously. "I think it's nice, really. What is it?"
"Pink Floyd." He answered as he passed her a parchment along with a pencil to commence the session. "Roger Waters is a legend."
He then settled into the chair positioned behind his desk, withdrawing a pile of papers to embark on his own writing endeavors.
Sensing a desire for privacy and a need to connect more intimately with her creation, Vera discreetly placed the parchment on her lap, shielding it from the professor's view.
The room filled with the soft melody of music intertwined with the rhythmic strokes of his quill and her pencil as they danced across the parchment.
♪ And then one day you find
ten years have got behind you
No one told you when to run,
you missed the starting gun ♪
She attempted to immerse herself in her sketch, yet her curiosity about Professor Morales lingered. Glancing up at him, she observed his fervent dedication to his work, which only heightened her intrigue.
"Are you still working on your book, sir?" She inquired, hoping to glean some insight into his mysterious nature.
"Indeed." He replied, his focus still fixed on the parchment before him.
"What is it about?"
"As I mentioned, it delves into the recent history of our wizarding world."
"But what precisely?"
"The war." came his succinct response, casting a solemn pall over the conversation.
"Oh..." Vera faltered, suddenly feeling out of her depth.
She knew little of the conflict, except for her family's dubious involvement. Silence settled like a heavy mist between them, punctuated solely by the strains of music drifting through the air.
♪ Every year is getting shorter,
never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to naught
or half a page of scribbled lines ♪
Attempting to break the tension, she ventured, "Did you fight in the war?"
"No," he replied, a gentle smile gracing his lips as he continued to write. "I was employed by a newspaper at the time."
"You were a journalist then?"
"Indeed."
"So, you did fight!" she exclaimed. “Mrs. Quinn always said journalists at war are either fighters or absolute wankers."
The professor couldn't suppress a chuckle, contrasting sharply with the horror that washed over her as she became aware of her inadvertent slip of the tongue.
"I’m s-so sorry, sir," she stammered, her cheeks ablaze with embarrassment.
"I understand," he reassured her with a knowing smile. "Just exercise caution around other professors," he added with a wink.
"Yes, sir." she replied, still feeling flustered.
The air grew heavy with silence once more, prompting her to return to her sketch, the awkward moment lingering like an unwanted specter.
“But didn’t you say your book might not get published?” she ventured again, unable to keep shut.
“Indeed." he affirmed, his gaze focused on his writing.
“Why bother then?”
"Because if I don’t write, I might as well be dead."
His response landed with the force of a bullet, evident in the regret etched across his features as he halted his writing and buried his face in his hands, releasing a heavy exhale.
Slowly, he withdrew his hands, meeting her gaze with a strained smile that failed to convince.
"Please, disregard what I just said," he urged, his tone tinged with a hint of desperation. "Please."
Vera nodded, though the weight of his words lingered heavily upon her. Choosing to focus on her sketch, she refrained from further inquiries.
However, as she stole another glance at him, she noticed the glistening of tears behind his glasses. A pang of guilt stabbed at her stomach, realizing she may have overstepped with her inquiries.
"I'm truly sorry, sir," she murmured softly, her remorse evident in her voice. "I didn’t mean to upset you."
Forcing a smile, he resumed his writing, his response gentle yet strained. "There's no need for apologies, Vera," he reassured her. "It's not your doing."
Vera bit her lip, acknowledging the consequences of her insatiable curiosity. This time, she made the conscious decision to remain silent, recognizing the need to temper her questions with restraint.
"Everbrook," Morales suddenly said, breaking the silence like a crack of thunder.
"What?" She asked, startled by his sudden interruption.
"That's what I'm writing about," he clarified, his eyes alight with a fervor that piqued her interest. “Everbrook.”
"What’s that, sir?"
"It's a small wizarding town in the Welsh countryside," he explained, a mysterious smile playing upon his lips.
Her brow furrowed with confusion. "But what does it have to do with the war?"
Meeting her gaze, his smile faded, replaced once more by the glistening of tears in his eyes. "Everything."
♪ Home, home again
I like to be here when I can
And when I come home cold and tired
It's good to warm my bones beside the fire ♪
He stopped writing and leaned back on his chair, his gaze fixed on the wall as the music continued to weave its calming melody throughout the room.
Sensing his unease, Vera chose to maintain a respectful silence for the remainder of the session, her focus shifting back to her sketch as she neared its completion.
Suddenly, he waved at the record to silence the music and swiftly cleared his desk.
"Vera." he called out, setting his glasses down.
"Yes, sir?" she paused her sketching, attention fully on him.
"You appeared quite taken aback to discover that your family doesn't believe in Heaven and Hell."
His words caught her off guard.
"Do you have a strong belief in religion?" he pressed, his gaze fixed on her.
Avoiding his eyes, she redirected her attention to her sketch, a subtle shrug her only response. Sensing her discomfort, he chose not to pursue the topic further, allowing silence to settle between them once more.
"I used to go to church," she suddenly revealed, breaking the silence. "When I was with the Humphreys."
"The Humphreys?"
"My previous foster parents. I lived with them for three years, and they loved the church more than anything."
"I see."
"But I don't go anymore," she added. "Miss Nelson goes every Sunday, and some of the girls accompany her, but she never forces us to do it."
"Did the Humphreys force you to attend?"
"Yeah. But it wasn't all bad. Sometimes Father George would share stories that felt like history of magic."
A smile tugged at his lips, appreciating the unexpected connection. “So the Humphreys were religious?”
"Sometimes."
“Sometimes?”
“Aha."
“What do you mean by that?”
“I mean,” she hesitated for a moment, “They went to church a lot, and read the bible a lot. But…”
“Yes, Vera?”
“They lied a lot.”
"What sorts of things did they lie about?"
"Everything," she chuckled wryly. "They once sold a sick chicken to our neighbor but claimed it was perfectly healthy. And they'd refuse to sell milk to certain people, pretending we were out when we weren't."
"I see," he acknowledged, his expression thoughtful.
"And they lied about me."
He patiently waited, expecting her to elaborate further, yet she remained silent, her attention fully consumed by the sketch hidden on her lap.
"What do you mean, Vera?" he pressed gently.
She remained silent once more, and merely shrugged.
“Why don't you live with them anymore?" he then asked.
"Dead."
He absorbed her words in silence, his gaze lingering on her as she resumed sketching, a heavy silence settling between them once more, laden with unspoken understanding and empathy.
"I'm finished, sir." she announced.
"Let me have a look," he replied with a gentle smile, reaching out for the sketch.
As he cradled the parchment between his hands, his initial smile faltered, replaced by a look of shock.
His brows knit together in confusion as he scrutinized the sketch with intense focus, his gaze darting between the drawing and Vera herself, searching for some elusive meaning within its lines.
"Will you hang it next to the others?" she inquired.
"Aha." he nodded, though his attention remained fixated on the sketch, his expression still puzzled.
"Vera... You're free to go."
He remained engrossed in the sketch as she hastily collected her belongings and exited his office, leaving him to his contemplation.
As she walked out, he waved his wand toward the record player, coaxing it back to life with the familiar strains of the same song filling the room once more.
Then, with a deft flick of his wand, he affixed the new sketch to the wall beside the others—his portraits, a cat reading a newspaper, a frog getting a haircut, a smiling sun embracing a girl, and a pixie locked in a cage.
♪ Far away across the field
The tolling of the iron bell
Calls the faithful to their knees
To hear the softly spoken magic spells ♪
Notes:
Songs mentioned:
Time - Pink Floyd
Chapter 29: Christmas '90
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Part one: Little Women
Sunday, December 16, 1990
Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas
Ring the Hogwarts bell
Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas
Cast a Christmas spell
"Blimey, if these bloody ghosts don't pack it in, I'm gonna lose it," Vera grumbled as the ghostly carolers drifted past them for what felt like the umpteenth time that day.
"Ain't they just proper creepy?" Alicia shuddered.
"So, guys” Malika chimed in, her eyes sparkling with excitement. “What's did you ask for from Father Christmas this year?"
The other girls at the breakfast table exchanged puzzled glances, but poor Malika remained oblivious.
Not wanting to burst her bubble, they shared a silent agreement to lie together.
"Ah, you know," Angelina piped up, "a new broom."
"Same here." Alicia nodded in agreement.
"Just anything nice." Maddie added, playing along.
"A tiny elf from the big man himself." Patty chimed in with a mischievous grin.
"That's lovely.” Malika smiled. “And what about you, Vera?"
"TITS!" Vera blurted out with her mouth full.
Alicia chuckled. "I don't reckon Father Christmas can grant you those, Vee,"
"Aye, but I bet he’s got connections with someone who can."
"What's with your obsession with them anyway?" Maddie cringed.
"Tits are the bloomin' best thing on this planet!"
"Catch yourself on," Alicia snapped. "You're honestly worse than the boys."
"You've all got yours already, so stop judging me."
"I still haven't got mine." Malika pointed out.
"Yes, but Malika, darling, you've got your pretty face to make up for it. I've got nothing.”
"Not true," Patty argued. "You've got your hair."
“Tits are like two loyal mates who never let you down though."
"Just wait 'til you've got them and can't run or play without them hurting." Patty warned.
"Beauty demands sacrifice, dearest Patty," Vera retorted, stuffing a tart into her mouth.
Alicia scoffed. "Absolutely bonkers."
"Where's everyone spending the holiday?" Maddie attempted to steer the conversation. "My family and I are headed to-"
"Australia," they all cut in simultaneously, weary of her constant mentions of it.
"It's amazing there this time of year." Maddie persisted.
Vera swallowed hard, masking her envy.
"I'm staying put." Alicia announced proudly.
"Same here." Angelina agreed. "But we're throwing a party at my uncle's house."
"Do you reckon there's a spell to sprout tits?" Vera swiftly interjected, veering the conversation before they ask about her plans.
"Vera!" they all exclaimed in unison, exasperated with her antics.
"Don't you have baking to do before we leave?" Angelina reminded her.
"Blimey," Vera slapped her forehead. "Forgot."
With that, she swiftly collected her belongings and made her way to the kitchens, where she intended on creating a batch of decorated cookies for Hagrid, a heartfelt Christmas gift to express her gratitude for the kind giant who had been helping her deliver her muggle mail.
As she sat at one of the tables in the kitchens, waiting for her cookies to be baked, she heard a familiar voice reverberating behind her. Turning around, she found none other than Jane requesting a sandwich from one of the house elves.
She quickly turned back, hoping to avoid being noticed by her. However, the red-haired Hufflepuff was already approaching.
"Hiya, Vera," she greeted with a hesitant tone.
The sheer audacity, Vera thought. "Hello." she replied coolly.
"Um," Jane started, staring at her feet as usual, "h-how are you?"
"Fine."
"Good, um..."
"Do you need something?"
"Well, I was just wondering,” Jane said timidly, “if I could have your address."
Vera’s eyes widened in confusion. "My address?"
"Well, you see," Jane replied, still avoiding direct eye contact, "I am hosting a dinner party during the holidays, and I would like to formally invite you and your family."
Vera was taken aback by the audacity of this request.
Not only had Jane started a rumor about her being a squib the previous year and admitted that she was only friends with her because of her father's ambitions to befriend the Black family, but she had also been rude to her friends based on their blood status—an act that she considered unforgivable.
"Did your daddy ask you to invite me?" she responded, her tone laced with mockery.
Jane looked up, her expression showing genuine remorse. "I'm sorry, Vera," she said softly. "I truly am."
She sensed Jane's sincerity but was resolute in her decision not to forgive her.
Jane was the type of person who changed opinions and views depending on her company. She had feigned indifference to blood purity when they were friends but had distanced herself once she suspected Vera might be a squib.
She also had initially acted kind but had later joined Miles in bullying others. And now she wants to be friends again? There has to be more to it.
"Why do you want to invite my family?"
Jane appeared hesitant to explain. "It's just that kind of dinner." she mumbled.
Despite her limited experience in the wizarding world, Vera grasped the underlying implications. The Corrigans were pureblood Bourgeoisies but lacked social standing. They were likely seeking to elevate their position in high wizarding society by associating with aristocratic families like the Blacks.
She bit her lip, struggling to respond without revealing her true circumstances.
"My family doesn't attend dinners anymore," she finally replied, recalling Donnie's stories about the Black family going into hiding. "I thought you already knew that."
"I understand. but I just thought maybe you'd want to come."
"My aunt wouldn't allow me to attend on my own. And she's very strict about not sharing our address with anyone."
Jane nodded in realization, then returned her gaze to her feet but lingered, seemingly searching for a topic of conversation.
Vera swallowed, hesitant but curious. "You never mentioned having a pet fox when we were friends."
Jane looked up, surprised by her question. "I just got it," she explained with a smile. "It's a family tradition."
"Tradition?"
"We receive a baby fox when we come of age."
Come of age? Vera pondered, narrowing her eyes.
Then they widened in understanding.
"OHH," she blurted out, unable to conceal her surprise. "You, um... you've come of age?"
"Yes. This past summer."
"Fuck my life!" she thought to herself.
"And you?" Jane then asked with curiosity. "Did you...?"
"My cookies are about to burn," she interrupted, swiftly changing the subject as she hopped down from the table to check the oven.
"Oh, okay," Jane responded nervously as Vera began to ignore her. "Well, have a great holiday."
"Yeah, whatever." she dismissed her with a wave of her hand.
She watched as Jane walked away, feeling a mix of emotions.
On one hand, she harbored bitterness over their past conflicts and how quickly Jane and the Poshlanders had turned on her when they suspected she might be a squib.
On the other hand, she felt a sense of pride that they still held some level of respect for her. Yet, she couldn't help but wonder how they would react if they discovered her true circumstances, fearing that she would lose that respect.
She also found herself curious about Jane's upcoming dinner party. Their lives seemed so glamorous, and she longed for just a taste of that lifestyle.
"But at what cost..."
"Miss, are you finished?" one house elf shouted, snapping her out of her thoughts.
“Easy now.” she replied, glancing down at her cookies with pride, “I’m done.”
Hagrid's tears flowed once more as he gratefully received the cookies from her. Delicately, she adorned each of the six pink treats with a sketch of the gentle giant, finding it an easy task given that his face was mostly made up of his magnificent beard.
After bidding him farewell, she made her way toward the carriages leaving to Hogsmeade’s station. This time, she resolved to interact with the creatures pulling them.
Armed with apples from the kitchens, she approached one of the horse-like beings, steeling herself for the encounter.
With a mixture of apprehension and courage, she extended her hand towards its mouth, offering the fruit. A sharp wince escaped her as the creature seized the apple, but as she watched it contentedly munching away, her heart swelled with joy.
Unbeknownst to her, someone was observing her from a distance.
"Vera?"
Startled, she turned around to find Professor Morales standing before her clutching a suitcase, his grey coat and red scarf striking against the backdrop of the white snow.
"Hello, professor." she greeted him tentatively, her nerves pricking at the unexpected encounter.
"Um, what are you doing?"
No one had ever believed her about the creatures before, regardless of how vividly she described them. With a pang of unease, she feared that Professor Morales would dismiss her as well, deeming her perceptions as fanciful or delusional.
"No-nothing, sir," she stammered, her cheeks flushing with embarrassment. "I was just climbing into the carriage." she added hastily, turning around to leave.
"Wait!" he called out, his voice tinged with urgency, halting her retreat. "You can see them?"
Vera froze, her heart pounding in her chest.
She turned back to face him, her shock evident in her wide-eyed expression.
Professor Morales approached her, his brow furrowing in confusion. "You can see the Thestrals?" he pressed.
Her shock swiftly transformed into unbridled joy. "Is that what they're called?" she exclaimed, her excitement palpable. "I knew I wasn't bonkers!"
"You can see them, Vera?" he pressed again, his tone serious.
"Yes!" she grinned triumphantly. "Can you see them too, sir?"
"Um," he hesitated, his confusion lingering, "I-I can."
"MINT!" she exclaimed excitedly. "I had a bet with the Weasleys that I wasn't lying!"
Her grin widened as she glanced at him, but he remained silent, his expression unreadable.
"Happy Christmas, Professor!" she chirped before turning on her heels and sprinting towards the carriage where Fred and George sat. "Oi, idiots! Give me my money, I won!"
As she dashed off, Professor Morales watched her departure, his mind filled with contemplation. Observing her laughter and vitality from afar, he couldn't help but feel a pang of sorrow for the young girl.
Tuesday, December 18, 1990
♪ Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special ♪
St. Mary exuded the festive essence of Christmas, adorned with charming decorations meticulously crafted and hung by the girls. The aroma of gingerbread, expertly concocted by Vera and Kaya in the kitchens, wafted through the corridors, harmonizing with the melodic strains resonating throughout the house.
"Who chose this song?" Vera queried, glancing at Kaya as they stood amidst the culinary hubbub.
"Miss Nelson," Kaya responded, her voice carrying over the bustling kitchen. "She absolutely loves it."
"I can see why, it's bloody mint!"
"LAST CHRISTMAS, I GAVE YOU MY HEART!" they chorused, their laughter intermingling with their impromptu dance moves.
"Oi, you two!” Interrupting their joviality, Grace barged in, tossing something their way. “These are from Miss Nelson."
Vera and Kaya paused their dance, turning their attention to her. "What's this?"
"The annual library books."
"But it's not Christmas yet." Vera said.
Grace shrugged. "I dunno. Perhaps she's doubling our gifts this year."
Kaya and Vera exchanged puzzled glances.
"Anyway," Grace continued, "she suggests you start reading them now so she can quiz you after New Year's."
As she departed, Vera eagerly tore into the wrapping, anticipation coursing through her. Kaya, however, seemed less enthused.
"Come on, K!"
"Urgh!"
They unwrapped their new book, discovering they had received the same one this year. "Little Women" by Louisa May Alcott.
Kaya scoffed. "It looks bloody boring."
"I know right," Vera concurred, disappointment evident in her tone. "But at least we can read it together."
After their return from the annual Christmas markets visit, a St. Mary's cherished tradition, they settled in the kitchens with steaming cups of hot chocolate, the crackling flames from the fireplace lending a cozy ambiance to their surroundings.
Lost in the pages of "Little Women," they found themselves engrossed, already nearing the end of the tenth chapter.
"It’s bloody mint!" Kaya exclaimed, her eyes glued to the pages.
"I know right!" Vera agreed, accidentally spilling hot chocolate on her jumper in her excitement.
They established a routine, pledging to discuss each chapter as they completed it, eager to share their thoughts and reflections.
"Amy's such a bitch," Vera remarked, wrinkling her nose.
"Tell me about it," Kaya added with a snort.
"Who's your favorite so far?"
"Meg's alright, keeps the peace, ya know?"
"Meg? She's proper boring. Jo's the one with spunk,"
"Yeah, but she's too fiery."
"True, but that's what makes her interesting," Vera countered, settling back into her chair with a contented sigh. “I think she’s my favorite.”
“Poor Beth, though.”
“Yeah, poor Beth.”
As they delved deeper into the story, their discussions grew livelier, punctuated by exclamations and shared laughter.
"Laurie’s so cheeky!" Vera exclaimed.
"I bet he’s fit too." Kaya agreed, chuckling.
"Reckon we could pull off a play like they did?"
"We'd be proper legends."
They remained immersed in their reading as the night wore on, the crackling of the fire providing a comforting backdrop to their silent companionship.
"I wish I had a mum like Marmee." Vera's voice broke the stillness, carrying a hint of longing.
Kaya cast her a weary glance before returning her attention to the pages of the book. "I wish I had a mum, full stop."
Their eyes met in a shared moment of understanding before they dissolved into laughter, the tension of their conversation diffusing into the warmth of their friendship.
"Oi," Lydia suddenly barged into the kitchen, disrupting their laughter and replacing it with irritation.
"What's the matter now?" Kaya sighed, rolling her eyes.
"Miss Nelson wants us all in the dining hall,” Lydia replied, her attention already diverted to Vera as she swiftly snatched the book from her grasp.
"What's this?" she taunted, enjoying Vera's futile attempts to retrieve her book.
"Give it here!"
"You're quite the nerd, aren't you?" Lydia giggled, teasingly. "I toss the books I get into the washing machine."
"Bless your heart." Kaya remarked dryly. "Now, give her the book back."
"Not a chance." Lydia retorted, holding the book out of Vera's reach with a mischievous grin.
Vera swiftly lunged at her, attempting to wrestle the book from her grasp, but Lydia's size and agility gave her the upper hand. Then, with a swift and unexpected motion, she tossed the book into the fireplace.
"NO!" Vera shouted, her cries filling the room as she rushed towards the fireplace. She reached for the book, but it was too late—the flames had already consumed it.
"You bloody bitch!" her rage erupted as she launched herself at Lydia, aiming a punch at her pale face. Lydia retaliated by scratching Vera's neck before overpowering her, flipping her onto her back and tightening her grip around her throat.
"Enough!" Miss Nelson's voice cut through the chaos as she stormed into the kitchen, swiftly intervening to separate the two. "It's Christmas, for heaven's sake!"
"She burnt my book!" Vera protested, her voice choked with emotion.
"I did not!" Lydia countered vehemently.
"She did," Kaya interjected, "I saw her, Miss, I swear."
"Stop this!" Miss Nelson's command silenced the room. "Where's the book, Vera?"
"It's right here, look!" Vera quickly pointed towards the charred remains of the book by the fireplace, its partially burnt cover still visible.
Miss Nelson briefly closed her eyes, her hand resting on her chest as she took a deep breath. "I can't keep grounding you, Lydia," she addressed the blonde girl with a heavy sigh.
"I didn't burn it, I sw—"
"I don't want to hear another word!" Miss Nelson's voice cut through Lydia's protest. "You're not coming to see the film with us."
"But Miss—"
"Go upstairs!"
Lydia shot Vera a resentful glare before storming off.
"And you," Miss Nelson turned her attention to Vera, her tone softer but no less serious. "You can't go around throwing punches whenever you're angry."
"But she burnt my book!"
"You could have come to me, and I would have handled it properly. Violence is never the answer, Vera. You're not a child anymore."
Vera's gaze dropped to the floor, a mixture of guilt and sorrow washing over her.
"Now," Miss Nelson stepped closer, gently smoothing down her tousled hair. "I have a copy of that book in the dresser by my bed. You can take it."
Vera looked up at her with grateful eyes. "Really, Miss?"
Miss Nelson nodded, a gentle smile playing on her lips. "Hurry and get it, then join us in the dining hall."
"Oh, Miss, thank you!" Vera exclaimed, swiftly embracing her matron in a hug before dashing out of the kitchen towards her room.
Hurrying to the dresser, she found herself faced with numerous drawers.
She quickly pulled open the first one, revealing a collection of medicine bottles, nearly a dozen in total.
Glancing around her to make sure no one was watching, she stealthily slipped a pill from one of the painkiller bottles into her mouth.
Then, she moved on to the second drawer, which was filled with letters and assorted papers. Among them, nestled safely, was the copy of ‘Little Women’ she sought. Grasping it tightly, she wasted no time and made her way down to the dining area, where the other girls were already gathering.
"Now that we're all here," Miss Nelson began, her gaze sweeping over the girls as Vera settled into her chair, "I'd like to discuss our holiday plans."
"Oh Miss, what film are we seeing this year?" one girl eagerly raised her hand.
"Ah, well, I've chosen to see 'Ghost'." Miss Nelson revealed with a playful smirk. "Patrick Swayze has quite the effect on me, you know?"
"Ew!" the collective response of the girls conveyed their discomfort, though she remained unfazed.
"As for you," she carried on, “you will be watching something called Home Alone. But these are not the plans I was referring to. Christmas isn't just about chocolate and films; it's also about coming together as a community."
She settled into her seat before continuing, "So, have you all decided on the good deeds you're willing to do this holiday?"
The girls exchanged uncertain glances, not entirely enthusiastic about the idea.
"Grace?" Miss Nelson turned to the girl beside her.
"I'm planning to donate some of my clothes." Grace answered tentatively.
"That's thoughtful." Miss Nelson nodded. "Are you sure you're not just making room for the new clothes you'll get on Boxing Day?"
"Um," Grace giggled nervously. "Two birds with one stone?"
Miss Nelson smirked. "Mhm..."
"I'll thell my toy." Lola chimed in.
"Selling it doesn't quite count as a good deed, Lola." Miss Nelson gently corrected her.
Kaya raised her hand. "Miss, I'm going to babysit our neighbor's daughter. They're heading south for some posh trip."
"That's wonderful, Kaya." Miss Nelson praised. "And I assume Vera will be joining you?"
"Um, no," Vera replied hesitantly. "I'm helping Mrs. Wriggleshore clean her cats."
The other girls recoiled in disgust.
"That's gross."
"She’ll make a soup out of you."
"I'd rather walk through hell than go near that fossil."
“Abigale!” Miss Nelson admonished her with a sharp glare. “How many times have I said not to use that word?”
"Sorry, Miss." Abbie mumbled, lowering her head. "I'd rather walk through Croydon than go near that fossil."
“That’s better,” she nodded, then turned to Vera with a gentle tone. “I think that's a lovely idea, Vera. Especially considering Mrs. Wriggleshore might mistake a cat for a duster if left to her own devices. It's important to help our elders, girls!”
"She's more than just an elder," Kaya interjected. "She's practically prehistoric."
"Just make sure you're safe around those creatures," Miss Nelson continued. "I once saw them tear Mr. Dawson's chicken to shreds. Poor thing had to take up vegetarianism after that."
"Yes, Miss." Vera replied, her smile brimming with pride as she realized she had successfully deceived them all.
Unknown to Miss Nelson and the girls, she wasn't actually assisting Mrs. Wriggleshore in washing her cats. Instead, she had struck a deal with the old witch to cover for her while she ventured on a shopping trip to Diagon Alley.
Aware of the need to conceal her muggle home life from her Hogwarts friends, she resolved to purchase gifts from the wizarding world this time around.
Thursday, December 20, 1990
The following day, she arrived at Mrs. Wriggleshore's house with her bag and muggle money in tow. She borrowed some of Grace's clothes and left her hair down as she normally would.
"Do you know how to exchange the money?" Mrs. Wriggleshore inquired as soon as she opened the door.
"Um, I'll just ask the goblins at the bank." she replied hesitantly, making her way towards the fireplace.
Pausing at the clock wall while Mrs. Wriggleshore retrieved the Floo jar, she noticed that one more clock had stopped ticking, its hands frozen at six o'clock. The young man in the accompanying photo was now wearing a slightly worried expression.
"Don't accept anything from strangers." Mrs. Wriggleshore's warning jolted her thoughts. "And don’t go near Knockturn Alley."
"I won't." Vera assured her, grabbing a handful of Floo powder and stepping into the fireplace.
Upon arriving in Diagon Alley, she found herself in Birdy's Inn, where she decided to join the mustachioed man for a quick cup of pumpkin juice.
He regaled her with tales of his supposed Quidditch-playing days, claiming to have been a chaser for the Chudley Cannons. Vera harbored doubts about the authenticity of his stories, but she politely listened nonetheless.
After their brief conversation, she made her way to Gringotts, intending to exchange her muggle allowance for wizarding coins.
Upon reaching the imposing wizarding bank, she found herself at a loss as to how to locate the exchange office. She wandered around, scanning the signs above each room. The loan offices were bustling with activity as usual, people jostling each other in their haste. The bank was packed, and everyone seemed too preoccupied to spare her a moment's attention.
Frustrated, she continued searching for someone to ask for directions, but no one seemed willing to stop and assist her. Eventually, she spotted a house-elf standing beside one of the marble pillars and decided to approach him.
"Excuse me, sir," she addressed the tiny creature. "Could you help me?"
The house-elf glanced behind him and then back at her, raising his finger as if to confirm she was addressing him.
"Yes, sir. Could you tell me where I can find the exchange office?"
The house-elf continued to regard her with a perplexed expression, and she began to worry that he might not understand English.
She took a deep breath, scanning the hall for someone else to assist her. However, to her surprise, the house-elf suddenly took her hand and guided her towards the end of the hall.
They reached a small door, and upon entering, found a staircase leading downwards. It appeared dimly lit and somewhat dubious.
"It's down here, Miss," the house-elf spoke, his voice surprisingly deep and his accent posh.
Vera smiled gratefully at him before taking a deep breath and descending the slippery stairs. After a few steps down, she found herself standing in front of what appeared to be a cavern with a leaking ceiling. To her right, she spotted a goblin seated at a small desk, engaged in a heated argument with a man.
"What do you mean it changed?" the man exclaimed, clearly frustrated.
"As I've stated," the goblin replied evenly, "the exchange rate fluctuates constantly."
"Not to this extent!" the man shouted.
"Supply and demand," the goblin retorted with disdain. "If you're dissatisfied, feel free to leave."
"This is preposterous!" the man declared before storming away.
"Goodbye." the goblin waved mockingly as he departed.
Bracing herself, Vera nervously approached.
"I would like to exchange these, please," she said, placing the muggle money on the desk.
The goblin took the bills and began counting them meticulously before retrieving a pouch and exchanging them for wizarding coins.
He placed five golds and three silvers on the desk before abruptly stopping. Vera patiently waited for him to continue, but he didn’t.
"That's it?" she questioned, her disappointment evident. "I was told there would be more."
The goblin regarded her with a disdainful look. "As I was telling the moron before you, the exchange rate changed this morning."
She struggled to comprehend the implications of his words as she accepted the coins and placed them in her bag. With a heavy heart and a sense of despair creeping in, she exited Gringotts, her expression reflecting her disappointment. Sitting on the pavement outside the bank, she tried to recalibrate her plans now that her budget had dwindled.
Retrieving a small notebook and pencil from her bag, she began to sketch out her new budget.
However, in the periphery of her vision, she noticed the house-elf who had aided her earlier engaged in a hushed conversation with another elf, stealing glances in her direction. Swiftly, she raised her hand and waved at him, offering a small smile despite her inner turmoil.
"See!" the house-elf turned to his friend triumphantly. "I told you!"
“But there’s no chance she called you sir,” his friend responded.
Vera soon set off to begin her shopping trip. Despite her disappointment with her budget not going as planned, she remained excited to explore the winding alleys and visit the quirky shops.
She stumbled upon a Quidditch kit shop where she was able to purchase trinkets for her friends before moving on to the next store.
She also found a joke shop and bought Hiccough sweets for Fred, George and Lee, and managed to get some chocolate for Sarah.
While the gifts may not have been as extravagant or extensive as she had hoped, she was still content with her finds.
Having checked off her shopping list with a surplus of funds remaining, she strolled through a charmingly scented alleyway, eagerly anticipating the purchase of a Koink from one of the nearby vendors.
As she waited for her treat to be prepared, her gaze wandered, only to meet the eyes of an elderly gentleman.
Clad in tattered attire and wearing a weathered countenance, he bore the unmistakable air of homelessness. His persistent stare unsettled her, and she Attempted to dismiss his presence. However, she found him drawing nearer with each passing moment.
Eventually, he approached her with a tentative smile, his voice gentle as he spoke.
"Pardon me, young lady," he began, "I hope I'm not imposing, but I was wondering if you might spare a portion of your warm food."
Vera's breath caught in her throat. The realization dawned upon her that he was indeed what she had suspected, a revelation that shocked her.
She felt a pang of betrayal. How could there be homelessness in a world where magic abounded?
"You see, I'm terribly famished." The elderly man continued. "And chilled to the bone."
Vera could only blink in confusion. "Have you attempted a warming charm, sir?"
The man smiled at her innocence. "I'm afraid I’ve got no magic in me, Miss."
A lump formed in Vera's throat as she struggled to conceal her emotions. "I apologize sincerely for my assumptions, sir."
The man nodded understandingly, yet desperation still lingered in his gaze.
Retrieving her pouch, she began to tally the remaining coins, discovering to her delight that she possessed enough funds for an additional Koink.
Accepting the freshly prepared treat from the vendor, she extended it to the elderly man.
"No, no," he protested, "I only need a small portion."
"It's quite alright," Vera insisted, smiling. "Please, take it."
The man hesitated before accepting the Koink with trembling hands. "Thank you," he expressed with a smile that fractured her heart. "May the light guide you, child."
Watching him depart with teary eyes, Vera swallowed her sorrow and swiftly wiped her cheeks before returning to the vendor.
"Could I have another one, please?"
With her hot, steaming treat in hand, she continued her leisurely stroll, her mind set on one particular place: Lucy’s.
She stood before the once lively shop, now a desolate and vacant space. Lucy’s had been the only establishment in Diagon Alley that had truly captivated her, not just for its makeup offerings, but also for the kindness of the woman who had offered her a free lipstick.
Ever since her visit the previous year, she had harbored hopes of returning one day. Perhaps she would never uncover what had happened to the shop or the lovely woman who had once managed it. However, she was still hopeful that one day she would return and find it.
As she continued her stroll, she stumbled upon an alley she had never noticed before. It exuded an air of luxury that was unfamiliar in these parts. Intrigued, she ventured in and found herself surrounded by an array of upscale shops. Clothing boutiques, jewelry stores, elegant restaurants, and more lined the cobblestone pathway.
Entering the antique jewelry store, she was immediately struck by its decor. Massive chandeliers adorned the ceiling, casting a warm, luxurious glow over the space. Finely dressed salesmen bustled about, attending to customers with the utmost attention. Everywhere she looked, treasures gleamed enticingly: gold, diamonds, sapphires, and even exotic stones she had never seen or imagined before.
It was a veritable feast for the eyes, a realm of splendor and fascination waiting to be explored. However, her attention was swiftly drawn to one particular necklace, crafted from rose gold and adorned with a stunning violet tear-shaped quartz.
As she began to delicately brush her gloved fingers over the gem, a man dressed in a sharp suit approached her and tapped her hand.
"Do not touch if you're not willing to buy," he admonished with an arrogant tone.
She narrowed her eyes at him. "And how do you know I'm not going to buy?"
He cast a condescending glance up and down her figure, accompanied by a smirk. "I doubt someone like you would ever be able to afford it." he remarked dismissively before striding away.
Vera rolled her eyes at his retreating figure, pulling her tongue and cursing him under her breath.
However, as she turned back to the necklace, she was taken aback by one hell of a surprising presence.
Part two: Amethyst
Ryu looked even more striking outside of school. Clad in a soft jumper paired with black-colored trousers, he exuded an effortless elegance. His hair was impeccably groomed as always, framing his features with precision. With every movement, his signature cologne enveloped her like a tempest, its rare scent adding to his allure.
"Hey, Vera." he greeted her with a faint smile.
Vera panicked. "Avery... what are you doing here?"
"Holiday shopping with my mum," he replied, gesturing towards the woman engaged in conversation with one of the salesmen. "And you?"
"Um, yeah, shopping."
His gaze swept over her. "By yourself?"
"I'm old enough to shop on my own, you know. Unlike you, I don’t need babysitting anymore.”
As he opened his mouth to respond, his mother suddenly approached, and Vera couldn't help but be captivated by her striking beauty.
She was dressed elegantly in a long black coat adorned with fur on its shoulders. Her silky black hair was styled in a short, chic manner, and her face was partially covered by a lace beret. Like Ryu, her perfume enveloped her in a heavenly scent.
She bore a strong resemblance to him, not only in looks but also in height. However, Vera was surprised to find her looking older than she had anticipated, perhaps in her late forties.
"Vera, this is my Mum." Ryu introduced her, clearing his throat.
She smiled politely. "Nice to meet you, Mrs. Avery."
"So you're the ‘Vera’ my son can't stop talking about. She’s even lovelier than he described."
Vera’s cheeks flushed crimson, but not as much as Ryu's, who looked at his mother with horrified eyes. "Mum!"
"And I gather you and Ryujin are friends?" Mrs. Avery then inquired, her gaze shifting between them.
Vera glanced at Ryu, who was biting his lip, then back at his mother, who awaited her response patiently.
She understood the unspoken message.
"Oh, yes, Ryu and I are best friends." She lied smoothly. "Inseparable."
"How wonderful!" Mrs. Avery exclaimed. "Although, I hope you've found a way to tolerate his occasional insufferable smugness."
Ryu widened his eyes at her. "Mother!"
"I try my hardest, ma'am." Vera chuckled, amused by Ryu’s turmoil.
"I'm afraid he inherited my charming look, but his father’s arrogance."
Vera chuckled again, and Ryu seemed terrified.
“It’s a pleasure to finally meet you,” Mrs. Avery said, affectionately pinching her cheek before turning to Ryu. “Darling, I'll be at the gallery across the street to browse some carpets. Join me once you're finished here.”
“Yes, mum.”
“Well,” Mrs. Avery smiled warmly at Vera once more, “please convey my regards and condolences to your aunt back home.”
Vera returned the smile, her nerves barely concealed beneath the surface.
Then, in a surprising turn, Mrs. Avery leaned in closer towards her ear. “And do let her know the sisterhood greatly misses her presence.”
As she departed, Vera remained lost in thought, mulling over the cryptic message she had received. Meanwhile, Ryu stood beside her, scratching his head in embarrassment.
“She was only joking, you know,” he said, “I don’t talk about you.”
"Aha, sure,” she replied absentmindedly, her attention elsewhere.
He remained silent, but she sensed a shift in his demeanor as his gaze drifted from her face to her neck.
His jaws clenched tightly, betraying a hint of tension, and an uneasy feeling settled in her stomach as she recalled she still has scratches and red marks from her fight with Lydia.
“Whatcha staring at?”
“No-nothing,” he stammered, swiftly looking away.
She glared at him once more, then diverted her attention back to the necklace, hoping that by avoiding him, he would simply leave her be.
But Ryu remained by her side, casually browsing the other pieces of jewelry. However, she could sense his eyes on her, even if he was trying to be discreet about it.
"Do you like it?" he suddenly inquired, observing her lingering gaze on the necklace.
"Yeah, it's lovely."
"Is amethyst your gemstone?"
She wasn’t even aware it was a gemstone. "No, I just like its color."
“Well,” he replied, “Are you going to buy it?"
Glancing at him, she attempted to conceal her nerves. "Um, no."
“Why not?”
She took a deep breath. “Because I don’t need it, Avery.”
"We don’t but jewelry because we need it. We buy it for its aesthetic appeal."
"Right, thanks for the insight."
"If you like it, just get it."
"Is that your approach to everything? Just getting whatever you want?"
He chuckled lightly before diverting his attention to a display of vintage watches, then began to select pieces at random, stacking the boxes onto his arm.
"Toto," he called out calmly, and a house-elf suddenly appeared before him.
"Yes, master?" the elf bowed respectfully.
"Take these," Ryu instructed, passing the boxes to him.
Vera struggled to mask her envy as she watched the exchange, longing for the same privilege to acquire whatever she desired without concern for the cost.
"And these," Ryu continued, adding more boxes to Toto's already burdened arms. The house-elf bowed once more before disappearing.
Ryu then turned to her, a smug smile tugging the corner of his lip. "I always get what I want."
She bit her lip, her attention returning to the necklace. She desired it greatly, and her frustration with her financial limitations began to refuel her determination to secure her inheritance. Suppressing a surge of emotion, she composed herself, not wanting him to notice her turmoil.
"Well, that's not how I was raised." she retorted, before swiftly turning away.
She walked to another area of the shop, silently hoping Ryu would leave her be.
Yet, predictably, he followed her.
Swiftly wiping away her tear as he approached, she pretended to examine the rings.
"I didn't expect you to be a ring person." he remarked casually, trying on a ring himself.
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"You know," he shrugged, "because you wear gloves all the time."
His comment struck a nerve and her sadness was starting to slowly simmer into anger. She dropped the rings she had been examining and swiftly move away.
Ryu, of course, followed her.
"Are you attending the dinner at the Corrigans'?" He asked, attempting to maintain a casual tone as he tried on a watch.
She avoided his gaze. "No."
"Didn't Jane invite you?"
"She did, but I'm not going."
"Why not?"
"My aunt won't let me go by myself."
"But she lets you shop by yourself?"
Her anger reached its boiling point. Dropping the watch she had been holding, she shot him an angry glare. “What is wrong with you!” she snapped before swiftly moving back to the Amethyst necklace.
Ryu followed her, a sheepish look on his face. "I'm sorry. Sometimes I forget about your family’s situation.”
"Whatever, Avery." she replied curtly, her emotions still raw.
She continued to stare at the necklace, her heart racing in her chest, but Ryu's persistent gaze was becoming unbearable.
"You've got something on your face." He suddenly remarked.
"What?"
Without hesitation, Ryu reached for her face, his thumb brushing against the side of her mouth to wipe it clean.
His unexpected move startled her, causing her to freeze in place, and her shock only intensified when he proceeded to lick his thumb.
"Apple sauce and cinnamon," he remarked with a hint of disgust. "Were you eating a Koink?"
She looked up at him, her expression a mixture of shock and irritation. "You're so bloody disgusting."
"I'm not the one eating commoner's food," he countered, his tone condescending.
"Commoner? It's just a treat."
"A commoner's treat."
"Wow, Avery. Just when I thought you'd grown out of your dick phase."
"And I thought you grew out of your vulgar phase."
"You think 'dick' is vulgar?"
His cheeks flushed heavily. "It is, so stop saying it. Someone could hear you."
A mischievous smile graced her lips. "Oh, is that so? Well, in that case, DICK."
"Enough," he urged, his embarrassment evident as he glanced around, his cheeks reddening even more.
"Dick, dick, dick, dick," she continued, her teasing unabated, even adding a musical tone to her chant. “Diiiiiiiiiiiick.”
"Stop it!" he exclaimed, his patience wearing thin.
"DICKY DICKKK!"
Without hesitation, Ryu swiftly approached and muffled her mouth with his hand. "I said stop!"
Vera glanced up, finding herself nearly nose-to-nose with him. Though his voice was firm, his eyes betrayed a hint of vulnerability.
The distance between them was non-existent, and a charged silence lingered for few moments.
“Are you going to stop saying it?” he finally asked with a soft tone, his hand still covering her mouth.
She nodded in response, her eyes locked with his.
“Promise?” he pressed gently, his gaze searching hers.
Once more, she nodded.
With a reluctant sigh, he slowly removed his hand, though he maintained his close proximity to her.
As they continued to hold each other's gaze, a mischievous glint flickered in Vera's eyes. "Dick," she whispered, smiling up at him.
He rolled his eyes, stepping away. "Unbelievable."
"Blimey, Avery!" she exclaimed, rubbing her lips. "You're proper hot!"
Ryu chuckled arrogantly. "I know, but thanks."
"I meant your temperature, you git! Do you have a fever or something?"
He continued to smirk, his gaze fixed on her, while she redirected her focus to the necklace.
“Try it on already!” he urged.
“I said I’m not buying it!”
“You can still try it on.”
Her eyes remained locked on the jewel as she mustered her courage and extended her hand to touch it. However, before her fingers could graze the delicate surface, the arrogant salesman swiftly approached again, his features twisted with anger as he forcefully struck her hand, halting her movement.
"I said no touching!" he reprimanded sharply.
"Ouch!" Vera yelped, retracting her hand. "I got it, sorry!"
"How dare you touch her?" Ryu suddenly bellowed, seizing the salesman by the tie.
"Mr. Avery, these pieces are rare. I can't allow just anyone—"
"This is the Black heir you're addressing, so show some respect!"
The salesman's expression turned to one of horror as he realized his blunder. "The B-Bla Black heir?" he stammered, visibly shaken.
Vera stepped away, taken aback by Ryu's assertiveness and the salesman's sudden change in demeanor.
"I-I am terribly sorry, Miss Black," the salesman stuttered, looking at her. "I had no idea who you were."
"It's... it's alright," Vera replied uneasily, glancing between him and Ryu.
“What a pathetic excuse.” Ryu scoffed, tightening his grip.
"Ryu..." she said softly, cautiously placing her hand on his arm. "It's alright. I promise. Just please, let go of him."
Ryu's gaze shifted from the salesman to her hand on his arm, a hint of softness creeping into his eyes. With a reluctant sigh, he released his hold on the salesman's tie and pushed him away.
"I sincerely apologize!" the salesman mumbled repeatedly as he walked away from them.
"What did you do that for?" she snapped at Ryu, who was still visibly seething with anger.
"He needs to know his place, Vera. He can't speak to you like that."
"So if I wasn't me, would it be okay?"
"That's not what I meant."
"He didn't even know who I was, you dick."
"Yeah, well, I wonder why," he replied, eyeing her up and down. "If you would stop dressing this way, you wouldn't get into these situations."
Vera glanced down at her clothes and worn-out shoes. "Alright, so first it's about the 'commoner's food,' then my 'vulgarity,' and now my clothes?"
"I'm just saying, you give people the wrong impression."
"I don't bloody care!"
"Why are you yelling at me? I was only defending you."
"I don't need defending, Avery!"
"So, are you okay with people talking to you like that?"
"No, but—"
"Then you shouldn't have apologized to him!"
"It's not that serious..."
"Of course it is! People like him are here, Vera," he gestured to the ground, "and people like us are here," he raised his hand high. "He should know his place, but so should you!"
Vera was left speechless, grappling with his words.
He sighed. "I just don't understand how you're not angry with him."
"I am, but not for the same reason you are! I'm angry because he assumed I would steal or damage something simply because I'm dressed like a Muggle-born. You're angry because he thought I was a Muggle-born, full stop."
"What's the difference?"
"There's a great difference, you dick."
"Stop calling me a dick!"
"Stop being a dick!"
Ryu took a deep breath, stepping away from her. "I never understand you, Vera."
She clenched her jaw but knew better than to provoke him further. "Whatever. I have to go."
She pushed passed him, striding towards the exit, but he swiftly hurried after her.
"Vera, wait."
Stopping at the door, she turned to face him. "What?"
"I, um," he began, his gaze fixed on the ground, "I just wanted to say… I really hope you find a way to come to Jane’s dinner."
Vera rolled her eyes at him again, turning away and muttering under her breath as she walked off. "Dick."
She retraced her path to Birdy's inn, seeking solace in the comforting familiarity of her surroundings. There, amidst the quaint ambiance, she meticulously wrapped her gifts, temporarily setting aside the memory of her encounter with Ryu, buoyed by Birdy's jovial nature.
Still hesitant to confront the owl service's employee after their previous encounter, she entrusted the mustachioed innkeeper with the task of delivering her gifts. As she perched atop the bar, savoring a glass of pumpkin juice, Birdy regaled her with tales of his purported wartime adventures, each narrative growing more captivating by the moment.
Just as he was on the verge of recounting how he killed a giant with a single stroke during battle, the inn's door swung open.
"Donnie!" Vera swiftly rushed to envelop the big man in a warm embrace. "Happy Christmas!"
"What in Merlin's clock are you doing here!" Donnie exclaimed incredulously.
She grinned up to him. "Christmas shopping."
"BY YOURSELF!"
"Why is it such a big deal?"
"You can't wander alone, it's bloody dangerous."
"I wouldn't worry about this one if I were you, Donnie," Birdy interjected. "She's quite brilliant for an eleven-year-old."
"I'm twelve!"
"You could have written to me to escort you, Vera," Donnie continued, clearly frustrated.
"I didn't want to annoy you."
"You can never annoy me, Darling."
Vera smiled warmly at him before grabbing his hand and leading him toward the bar. "Come see what I bought."
She climbed onto the stools and perched on the bar again, while Birdy poured them some drinks.
"Birdy is helping me wrap them," she continued. "He's been telling me about how he fought in the war!"
Donnie turned to the mustachioed man with a tired sigh. "Birdy, please stop lying to the poor girl."
"They're not lies, Don!"
"You barely left the shelter when the rebels came to Diagon Alley, mate."
"Oi, not true."
"Well, anyway," Donnie turned to her, "Have you encountered any troubles?"
"Not really, except at Gringotts."
"Why, what happened?"
"I was changing my muggle money to wizarding coins and the goblin didn't give me a lot."
"Oh yes, the inflation," Birdy chimed in.
"What's that?" Vera asked.
"It's when the value of wizarding money goes up, and the muggle one goes down," Donnie explained.
"What makes them go up and down?"
"The goblins say they're not responsible for the rate change," Birdy swiftly answered, "but who are we joking? They're probably doing so to make it harder for those who work in the muggle world to spend their money here."
Donnie raised an eyebrow at him. "Again with the conspiracy theories, Bird?"
"They're not theories if they're true! I read all about it in the Wizarding Chronicle, you know."
"Blackwood would blame his own shaving nicks on Gringotts."
"Nah, this time he's saying someone from the Ministry is behind the goblins' moves. He didn't mention any names, but just between you and I," he lowered his voice, "I reckon it's Avery."
"Oh, I know someone from that family!" Vera exclaimed. "I met him today actually."
"Avery's responsible for the financial decisions the Ministry makes, not Gringotts," Donnie countered.
"He's loaded!" Vera continued. "And he's got a house-elf. His name is Toto."
"The boy?" Donnie asked her.
"No silly! His house-elf!"
"Avery controls the ministry and the ministry controls the goblins." Birdy continued.
“And money controls us all.” Donnie added, taking a sip of his drink.
"By the way," Vera chimed in. "What do house elves do exactly?"
"They're servants." Donnie answered.
"Like maids?"
"Yeah, they live for a long time, can do wandless magic and apparate, so they're very efficient."
"My friend Alicia reckons they don't get paid."
"Most of them don't."
Vera's eyes widened in shock. "Wait, so they just work without money?"
"Yeah, unless they are freed."
"And how are they freed?"
"When their master presents them with clothes."
"Is that why they're always dressed like that?"
Donnie and Birdy nodded, and Vera's shock was palpable.
"That doesn't make any sense!" she exclaimed.
Birdy nodded. "Tell me about it."
"I can't believe it! Wizards are proper mad."
"Well, Muggles did it to each other, so I reckon it's a human thing." Donnie remarked.
"I will never let my house elf work for free when I'm rich," she said firmly. "In fact, I will hire maids just like my mum's family."
"Oh, that's not—" Donnie tried to correct her.
"And I will let them wear whatever they like too!"
Birdy raised his glass. "I'll drink to that."
"Once I finally get my inheritance, I will buy clothes for all the elves at Hogwarts."
Donnie sighed. "You're still on about that inheritance thing?"
"It's my right, Donnie! I'll get it one day, and you'll see!"
"I told you she's brilliant for her age," Birdy remarked.
"And even if I didn't get my family's money, I will be rich."
Birdy's curiosity was piqued. "How?"
"I will become an artist and sell my paintings to posh folks."
"Now that's a better idea." Donnie nodded. "Reckon I'll get a discount though?" he added playfully, taking a sip from his drink.
She grinned. "Of course! In fact, I will give you and Remy a painting as a gift for your wedding!"
Donnie almost choked on his drink while Birdy beside him could barely contain his laughter.
"When will you marry her, by the way?" she added.
"Yeah," Birdy chimed in with a mischievous smile, "when will you marry her, Don Don?"
"When the time comes." Donnie said, still coughing.
"But you're too old!" she exclaimed. "Time is ticking, Donnie!"
"I'm not that old, Vera."
She raised an eyebrow. "You are though."
"Merlin's beard," Donnie turned to Birdy, "there's nothing scarier than eleven-year-olds, I tell you that."
"TWELVE!" she snapped. "I also want to attend a magical wedding, so propose to her already!"
Birdy was clearly enjoying himself, while Donnie was not liking it at all.
"Okay, I think it's time for you to go," he urged. "It's getting late."
Later that night, nestled in bed with Vinny in her arm and Kaya by her side, she held onto her nearly finished copy of "Little Women,”.
Despite the cozy ambiance, her mind couldn't shake off the lingering thoughts of her encounter with Ryu and his mother. Their aura, their mannerisms, their effortless extravagance—it all played on her mind.
She couldn't help but contrast it with her own financial limitations, the stark reality of barely affording a simple treat like a Koink, only to discover it was considered "commoner's food."
"I've changed my mind."
"What now?" Kaya responded, engrossed in the pages of her own book.
"I think Amy's my favorite."
"Are you having a laugh?"
"Nope, I'm serious. There's something about her, you know?”
“You’re only saying this because she’s an artist like you."
“I’m not! She just knows what she wants and she isn’t ashamed of it, and I think that’s mint.”
"But she burned Jo's book."
"She was angry. We all make mistakes when we're upset. Just look at the shiner I gave Lydia.”
“Lydia had it coming, but Jo ain’t done anything wrong.”
“I reckon she and Amy are a lot similar, that’s why they’re always at it.”
“What are you on about, they are nothing alike!”
“I mean, they’re like two halves of one soul, know what I mean?”
“Right, but Amy can be selfish sometimes."
“She wants to be top, that’s not selfish! Besides, she did a lot to support her family."
"You mean when she married Laurie for his money?"
"She loved him! She always did.”
"But if he wasn't loaded, she wouldn't have."
"Can you blame her?"
"So you'd marry someone just for their money?"
"I don't know, but..." Vera trailed off, lost in thought. Her mind raced back to Ryu, his wealth, his clothes, his lifestyle, his perfume. "I don't see why not. I mean, after all, money is everything."
"Money isn't everything, Vera. Just look at Meg. She did not marry for money and was still happy."
Vera sighed, reluctantly tearing her gaze away from the book. "I know, Kaya. But sometimes it feels like money can solve it all."
“Not true."
“So you are happy to be living like this?” she waved her hand around their cluttered bedroom.
“Look, I would do anything to be minted, but if I loved someone, I wouldn’t care if they had money or not."
“And what if you stopped loving him one day?”
“That’s not how love works, you prat."
“Right, but if you marry someone you love that also has money, you would still win."
Kaya placed her book aside. “I tell you what. You marry some toff from your school and we’ll both be rolling in it. That way, I wouldn’t have to worry about money and can marry whoever I fancy."
“Ugh,” Vera lobbed a cushion at her, “I’m not talking about us! I’m talking about Amy!”
"Whatever, Jo's still my favorite."
As the two continued reading, Vera's thoughts remained consumed by the events of the day.
She couldn't shake the desire she felt for that Amethyst necklace, along with the longing to indulge in expensive gifts for her friends, dine at upscale restaurants, and possess the privilege to buy whatever she desired, much like Ryu.
She even entertained thoughts of freeing all the house elves in the world. It all felt like her birthright, her destiny. After all, her family had always been wealthy, so why shouldn't she be too?
Despite the challenges she faced, she clung to a glimmer of hope that one day she would achieve her dreams. Flipping back through the pages of the book, her eyes settled on a sentence that resonated deeply with her. Not wanting to ever forget its significance, she carefully took a pencil and underlined it emphatically:
"I want to be great, or nothing."
"I’m so happy they named their baby Beth, though" Kaya suddenly said.
"Yeah, poor Beth."
“I think I’ll name my baby Beth too."
“People would think you named her after the Queen, though."
“I’ll name her Rose then,” Kaya smiled, “after Miss Nelson."
“Miss Nelson’s name is Rosemary..."
Kaya narrowed her eyes. “I know. My baby's middle name would be Mary."
“But what If it’s a boy?”
“I don’t know yet, what about you?”
“Hmm,” Vera pondered for a moment, “If it’s a girl, Remy."
“And if it’s a boy?”
“Michael.”
Tuesday, December 25th, 1990
Christmas morning had arrived, and the girls of St. Mary's eagerly gathered around the adorned tree in the living area. This year brought an unusual excitement, as instead of the usual donations from the library, they were granted the gifts they had wished for.
Miss Nelson joined them, clad in cozy pajamas and cradling a steaming cup of tea.
"As you all know," she began with a warm smile, settling in among them, "at the beginning of the month, I asked each of you to pen your Christmas wishes to Father Christmas."
The girls bubbled with anticipation, sensing something special about to unfold.
"And he was delighted to receive your heartfelt letters." She continued.
"Oh, shite." Vera muttered under her breath.
"What?" Kaya whispered, leaning in with curiosity.
"I thought they were just for fun," Vera said, her voice tinged with worry. "You know, to keep the little ones entertained."
"What did you write?"
Vera shot her a horrified glance.
Kaya shook her head in exasperation. "Oh, Vera!" she exclaimed, slapping her forehead lightly.
"He was not only pleased to read them." Miss Nelson announced, her voice filled with delight. "But also overjoyed to grant each of you your wishes this year."
"He finally found Sutton!" one of the younger girls exclaimed with joy.
"Yes, he did." Miss Nelson affirmed with a playful smile. "It seems one of his reindeer had a slight detour."
"For six years?" Lydia rudely giggled but quickly straightened up as Miss Nelson shot her a warning glare.
Vera, feeling a knot of apprehension in her stomach, spoke hesitantly, "So... he read all of our letters?"
Miss Nelson's raised eyebrow. "He certainly did, Vera. And he found your letter particularly intriguing."
Vera's cheeks flushed crimson.
"Miracles may not be his specialty, but he found around your wish," Miss Nelson remarked with a playful wink. "Now, let's hasten, we wouldn't want to miss the screening of the film."
As the unwrapping frenzy began, the younger girls squealed with delight as they discovered colorful toys and sweet treats nestled within their packages.
Lola's eyes widened in wonder as she unearthed a doctor play set, complete with a miniature stethoscope, bandages and needles.
"She wants to be a doctor or something?" Vera asked.
"Nah, she just fancies cutting people up." Kaya retorted, earning a horrified look from Vera as Lola began stabbing the other girl's toys with her new play needle.
Grace unveiled a brand spanking new coat that garnered admiration and a hint of envy from her sisters, who were already plotting a schedule to share it amongst themselves.
Amidst the excitement, Kaya's fingers eagerly tore into a medium-sized box, revealing a pair of maroon Dr. Marten's boots, the envy of every fashion-conscious girl in the room.
She gasped in disbelief, her eyes sparkling with gratitude as she held them up for all to admire.
"Blimey... These are proper pricey.”
"You know what I heard?" Grace leaned in, whispering. "Miss Nelson bought them all from her own dosh."
Kaya scoffed. "There's like thirty of us. It would've cost her a bomb."
"Maybe she's secretly minted or something," Grace suggested.
"Or she's had a rich relative kick the bucket and left her a load of money." Vera chimed in.
"That only happens in fairy tales and films, Vera."
"It can happen in real life too, you know."
"Whatever, your turn now. Let's see what you got."
Vera swiftly uncovered her own gift with excitement. But as she caught sight of what she'd received, she let out a loud, startled scream that echoed through the room, causing the other girls to jump in surprise.
"NO WAY!" She leaped to her feet, jumping and screaming as she hugged her new gift.
"What is it!" Kaya and Grace exclaimed.
With trembling hands, Vera rushed to embrace Miss Nelson, tears of joy shimmering in her eyes as she murmured her heartfelt thanks.
"OH THANK YOU, THANK YOU!"
Miss Nelson chuckled. "Easy now, you're going to suffocate me."
Kaya's patience wore thin. "WHAT IS IT!" She shouted.
With a wide grin spreading across her face, Vera turned to Kaya and proudly displayed her gift.
"Training bras!" She screamed again, bouncing on the spot.
The room erupted into laughter and teasing remarks as Vera hurried upstairs, her heart brimming with gratitude and excitement, eager to try them on.
"THEY'RE MINT!" she hollered from her bedroom.
"Happy Christmas, my lovely girls," Miss Nelson beamed, her hand resting warmly on her chest.
Notes:
Songs mentioned:
Last Christmas - Wham!
Chapter 30: Vera's a bitch
Chapter Text
Sunday, January 6, 1991
In the waning days of the holiday season, familiar Christmas cheer permeated the atmosphere with its customary warmth and joy.
On Boxing Day, Miss Nelson orchestrated yet another fundraiser for the girls, delivering a heartfelt speech that elicited profound gratitude towards the benevolent matron.
During the fervent "Battle of the Donations Containers," Vera adeptly secured a Barbie doll she knew would delight Malika, along with a plush puppy for Cedric, a football for Tommy, some Troll dolls for Lee and a Magna Doodle for Fred and George—anticipating their father's potential enthusiasm for it more than the boys themselves.
Initially hesitant to present the gifts, considering they were all muggle items, she contemplated concocting a tale, fabricating a story of a secret visit to the muggle world during the holiday—although it was completely the other way around.
She also managed to secure new attire from the Clothing container—a pristine pair of mom jeans that hugged her form flawlessly, a selection of graphic tees adorned with band logos unfamiliar to her, and a slightly worn pair of black high-top All Stars Converse that she absolutely adored.
While she yearned for more garments, Grace proved swifter than the rest of the girls, snatching coveted pieces and issuing menacing hisses to anyone daring to encroach on her selections, which made Vera fear for her life.
Adorned in her newfound attire and clutching her familiar purple bag, she set out on her journey to King’s Cross, where Miss Nelson intended to bestow upon her one final gift before her departure.
"Before I go," the matron began with a deliberate tone, her hand delving into her purse, "there's something I must give you."
From within her purse, she retrieved a modest violet pouch. As Vera eagerly unfastened it, a blush colored her cheeks upon seeing its contents.
"I find it unsettling to think of you navigating your first time without my guidance." Miss Nelson continued. "But don’t worry, I've ensured you're fully prepared."
"But I haven't got it yet?"
"You may soon, and though the nurses at your school will be there to assist you, I understand it might be embarrassing for you at first."
"Thank you, Miss." Vera expressed with genuine gratitude. "Do you think it will happen this year?" she then exclaimed with a grin.
"Honestly, child, I'm not certain why you’re so excited for it."
"I want to become a woman!” she exclaimed, “like you, and the other girls.”
Miss Nelson chuckled softly. "It's not just menstruation that makes us women, Vera."
"Then what does?"
"Women, my dear, are more than just their faces or bodies. You see, dear, we have been underestimated, treated as servants, and belittled our entire lives. And for that, we deserve to burn the whole world to ashes, and it would only be justified. But that's what makes us women—our patience, our grace, and our ability to hold our heads high and keep marching forward. Women build the societies that men destroy and nurture the communities they think they rule. The whole world would crumble without us, not because of our uteruses, but because of our hearts and brains."
“But I don’t want to be treated like a child anymore.”
“Then simply don’t act like one.”
“I won’t punch anyone again, I promise!”
“Unless they’re racist. In that case, you have my blessings.”
Vera chuckled, and Miss Nelson smiled warmly, her eyes reflecting understanding and care. "Remember, dear, you can always count on me, even when I'm not physically here."
With a heartfelt hug, they bid their farewells, leaving Vera to board the train.
She made her way to Platform Nine and Three-Quarters, her steps more assured, and her spirit buoyant with newfound confidence. Her heart danced with anticipation as she approached the barrier between the muggle world and the magical one.
With a swift, determined stride, she disappeared into the wall, emerging on the other side to the sight of the scarlet steam engine.
Among the crowd, her eyes sought out a particular family. With a grin stretching across her face, she wove through the bustling platform until she spotted their familiar red hair.
"Hello, Vera!" Mrs. Weasley's welcoming voice rang out, her expression radiant as she caught sight of the approaching girl.
"Good day, Mrs. Weasley," she returned the smile, her gaze sweeping over the assembled family.
Mr. Weasley stood nearby, carrying Ginny on his shoulders, and the sight made her grin even wider. Ron and the twins greeted her with genuine enthusiasm, their excitement palpable.
"Enjoyed your holiday?" Mr. Weasley inquired with genuine interest, adjusting Ginny slightly to keep her balanced.
"Oh, it was wicked, sir!"
"Did you spend it in England?" Fred chimed in.
"Um, yeah," she replied, a hint of uncertainty coloring her tone.
Mrs. Weasley's keen eyes scanned her surroundings, her brow furrowing in mild concern. "Did you travel here alone, my dear?"
She hesitated briefly but rallied her courage to address the unexpected question. "I did, but don't worry, Mrs. Weasley, I’m very independent."
Mrs. Weasley's expression softened into one of pride, her hands resting on her hips as she cast a fond gaze at her.
"Well, would you look at that, Arthur," she remarked with a smile, "I only wish my boys could manage independence for five bloody seconds."
Fred and George exchanged a synchronized eye roll. "Bravo, Vee," they sarcastically applauded.
"Don't be fooled, Mum." George teased, giving Vera's cheek a playful pinch. “She’s worse than both of us combined."
"Ouch!” she exclaimed, rubbing her cheek. “Watch the face!"
"Her dirty mouth could put a pirate to shame," Fred added with a mischievous grin.
"Hey!”
"And she lies like her life depends on it." George continued.
"I do not!" she protested, crossing her arms in indignation.
"Oh, and remember the time she turned Professor Snape’s desk into a bonfire?" Fred quipped.
"It was an accident!" she defended, her cheeks flushing.
"Sure." George teased.
Before the banter could escalate further, she stepped on his foot causing him to yelp in surprise, but he quickly retaliated by mussing up her hair, much to Fred's amusement.
"Not the hair!" she shouted.
"Careful, George! That's her pride and joy you're messing with!"
"Alright, you two, enough," Mrs. Weasley interjected, giving George a swat on the head before pulling her into a one-armed hug, smoothing down her hair with the other hand. "Let's remember our manners, boys."
She couldn't help but grin at Mrs. Weasley's maternal scolding before sticking her tongue out at the twins.
"See, she's definitely not your typical 'lady,'" Fred teased, earning a mock glare from her.
"I am a lady!"
"Alright, alright, settle down, you lot," Mr. Weasley interjected with a chuckle.
She poked her tongue at the twins once more before reaching into her bag. "I have something for you all," she said, her voice filled with anticipation, before pulling out a beautifully decorated container filled with gingerbread cookies. "I made these myself," she announced proudly.
Mrs. Weasley's eyes lit up with delight as she accepted the container, her face breaking into a wide smile. "Oh, Vera, how thoughtful of you!" she exclaimed, pulling her into another tight hug. "You're such a sweetheart."
Mr. Weasley wasted no time in reaching for a cookie, taking a big bite and immediately nodding in approval. "Excellent baking Vera! You've got quite the talent." He praised between mouthfuls.
"Well, well, looks like Vee's trying to win favor with the family by buttering us up with sweets." Fred joked, winking at his brother.
"Yeah, like that's going to work," George chimed in, grabbing a cookie and taking an exaggerated bite.
Just as the laughter and teasing reached a crescendo, the distant sound of the Hogwarts Express's horn echoed through the platform, signaling the imminent departure. Without missing a beat, Vera seized the opportunity, playfully chasing after George, who darted away with a mischievous grin.
"Come back here!" she called out, laughter bubbling from her lips as she weaved through the crowd, her heart pounding with excitement.
As she reached the edge of the platform, she turned to wave to the Weasleys, her smile radiant with affection. "Goodbye!” she called out, her voice carrying over the din of the bustling station.
With one final wave, the trio leaped onto the train, their laughter mingling with the rumble of the engine as it pulled away from the platform.
They made their way to the compartment where Lee, Alicia and Angelina awaited them. As they settled into the warmth of their shared space, the atmosphere shifted as laughter filled the air, driven by the twins' antics. They soon indulged in sweets from the trolley, and exchanged stories from their holiday adventures.
"Oi, hold up!” Angelina blurted out. “You went to the muggle world by yourself!"
"It weren't too bad, honestly." Vera replied.
"But what did you tell your aunt?" Alicia asked.
"Said I was in Diagon Alley."
"But how'd you get there?" Fred chimed in.
"Um, found a sneaky way through an inn."
Lee chuckled. "Proper cheeky, Vee."
Vera nervously nibbled her lip. "I suppose."
"And you saw a film?" Angelina prodded.
"Oh, Angie, it was mint!" she exclaimed, shaking off her nerves. "Alright, so this kid, Kevin, he's a total melt, yeah? His family proper hates him! They buggered off on a trip without telling him, leaving him all alone in the house."
"So it's a horror film?" Lee asked.
"Nah, it's dead funny! These two burglars clock the family's gone and decide to break in."
"How's that not horror?" Alicia questioned.
"It ain't! Well, kinda, but not for Kevin, never for Kevin."
Lee leaned in. "Alright, spill the beans, what goes down?"
"That lad's a proper genius, I tell ya! Make you lot look like amateurs."
The twins shared a smirk. "Oh yeah?"
"OH YEAH!" she affirmed, nodding vigorously. "Brace yourselves, Weasleys, and you too, Lee, 'cause I've got Kevin's playbook, and it's a game-changer."
And so, she regaled the boys with tales of Kevin McAllister's shenanigans, while they listened raptly. Before they knew it, they were all scheming their next pranks using his legendary tactics.
"Oh, and I've got pressies for ya!" she exclaimed, rummaging in her bag and pulling out some muggle toys.
She handed Lee the Troll dolls and passed the magna board to the twins.
"Oh, these are proper mint!" Lee exclaimed, grinning. "Cheers!"
Angelina arched an eyebrow, "And what about us?"
Vera flashed a mischievous grin as she pulled out two books she had stolen from Lydia and Abbie before they could destroy them.
Angelina gasped. "How'd you know I'm all about Cinderella?"
"You mentioned it once." Vera replied with a wink.
"And you remembered?"
"Of course!"
"Oi, Vee?" George piped up, holding the magna board. "What's this bit of kit?"
"It's a magnet board, you git!"
"What's a magnet?" George and Fred chimed in simultaneously.
Lee raised an eyebrow. "Are you pair winding us up?"
"Don't judge them, Lee," Angelina interjected. "We're still figuring out what a gnome is."
"You just scribble on it," Vera clarified. "Like chalk, but with magnets instead."
Fred scratched his head. "But where do these magnets come from?"
"Um, er, not really sure."
"Lee?"
"Don't ask me, mate. I'm not one for science."
"And don't look at me either," Angelina added. "Muggle science is a proper puzzle to me."
"Well, it's bloody brilliant!" George exclaimed, doodling away on the board.
Fred grinned. "Dad's gonna be chuffed. Cheers, Vee!"
"No worries," she blushed. "I'm off to dish these out to the others. Didn't manage to send them during the holiday."
"We'll tag along." Fred and George chimed in, getting to their feet.
They made their way to the other compartments where they seek out Cedric, Tommy, and Malika. To their delight, they found them all siting together, joined by Maddie as well. Vera found it odd that Maddie would leave Sarah to join them, but didn’t dwell on it much.
Malika swiftly enveloped her in a tight hug as she received the Barbie doll. "Thanks, love!"
"This is cracker!" Tommy exclaimed, clutching his deflated football.
"Sorry it's not blown up yet." she apologized, scratching her head.
"Don't worry," Tommy reassured her. "I've got just the charm for it!"
"Is it the same one we used on Mrs. Norris?" George asked.
Tommy nodded. "Spot on."
"I'm sorry I didn't send them over the holiday." Vera apologized again.
"No worries, Piggy," Cedric grinned, snuggling his stuffed puppy. "I can picture your aunt not being too happy with them."
"Yeah, erm..."
"But thanks." Cedric's cheeks reddened. "I love it."
Vera's cheeks mirrored his, and as she held his gaze for a moment, she felt a flutter in her stomach.
"I brought him something too!" Maddie suddenly said, her voice louder than usual. "All the way from Australia."
"Aw, that's lovely," Vera replied, forcing a polite smile.
"Show them, Ceddy." Maddie urged.
The twins exchanged a bemused look. "Ceddy?"
Cedric chuckled nervously, then pulled out a fancy pocket watch from his jacket. Vera's jaw practically hit the floor as she stared at it in awe.
"Blimey, Mads." Fred turned to her, his eyes wide, mirroring the astonishment of the others.
"Must've cost you a fair bit." George added, equally impressed.
"Nothing's too dear for Ceddy." Maddie replied with a hint of pride in her voice.
Vera swallowed nervously. She hadn't realized Cedric was into such lavish things.
"It's proper mint." she managed to say, biting her lip. "I saw similar ones at a shop near Diagon Alley."
"And why didn't you grab one?" Maddie asked.
Vera's lips trembled, her gaze dropping to the floor. "I, uh... dunno."
"Maddie was just filling us in on Australia," Cedric attempted to steer the conversation away.
"Did you manage to scope out any magical spots there?" Fred inquired.
"Not really," Maddie replied. "We had Granny in tow, and she still doesn’t know I’m a witch. But I'll give it a whirl next time!"
"You're going... again?" Vera asked, her tone tinged with envy.
"Yep! But not this summer. We've already got a trip planned to France."
"Oh.”
"Maybe we can catch up there, Vera?" Maddie suggested.
"Uh, yeah," Vera stammered nervously. "We'll sort something out..."
"I'm buzzing for it!" Maddie exclaimed. "Oh, almost forgot." She leaped to her feet and swiftly retrieved her bag. "I brought your Christmas gift along since I couldn't send it over."
Vera's face lit up with gratitude as Maddie handed her a wrapped package. Opening it, she found a pair of violet gloves with a fur trim.
"Cheers, Mads!"
"We best be heading back to Alicia and Angie," Fred interjected. "We're brainstorming a fresh Quidditch tactic."
Cedric smirked. "No need for tactics, Weasley. I reckon you lot won't even make it to the semis."
Fred glanced at George. "Is he having a pop at us?"
"I think he is." George replied.
"Sorry, mate, but who exactly gave you a right thrashing last match?" Fred shot back.
"You mean after you lot kept us waiting for half an hour 'cause you were too chicken to face us?" Tommy chimed in.
"You don't even play, Mallon." George pointed out.
"Alright, that's enough," Vera intervened. "Quit winding them up, you pair. They've been revving themselves up for it."
"Better start planning your retirement, Diggory." Fred quipped, but Vera swiftly nudged him and George towards the door, chuckling as they muttered under their breath.
As they strolled past the compartments, her eyes locked onto one in particular, where an unexpected scene awaited her.
The Poshlanders occupied their usual spot: Eudora, Ryu, and Adrian on one side, and Jane, Miles, and Cassius on the other.
Eudora was fussing over her hair in a compact mirror, Ryu was lost in thought staring out the window, and Jane and Miles shared a sweet moment holding hands.
Yet, it was Cassius who caught her eye the most, looking drastically different from before the holiday.
Vera shared a knowing glance with the twins before boldly sliding open the compartment door.
"Check this out, boys," she started, her voice dripping with mischief as she nodded towards Cassius. "Looks like Warrington's joined the bald brigade."
The Poshlanders turned to her with arched eyebrows, clearly unimpressed by her jest.
"What happened?" Fred chimed in, unable to resist a tease. "Lose a bet, did ya?"
"Maybe he got himself some lice." Vera added with a grin.
"Shut it, Black!" Adrian snapped back.
"Or maybe he's aiming to rival Quirrell in the ultimate bald noggin competition." George chimed in, chuckling.
"He's definitely winning that one." Vera agreed, her grin widening.
"Bold of you to speak, Vera." Eudora interjected, her tone sharp. "Especially when you're wearing those atrocious shoes."
Vera laughed, unfazed by the dig. "Well, at least my Converse have character. Can't say the same for Warrington's hairline."
Cassius remained surprisingly silent, his expression unreadable as he stared down at his feet.
Miles scoffed. "Muggle shoes? Just when we thought you couldn't sink any lower, Black."
"Alright, Warrington," Vera pressed on undeterred. "Did your house-elf accidentally swap his shampoo with yours?"
"Seriously, Vera, enough!" Jane suddenly spoke up, her frustration evident in her voice. It was unlike her character to speak loudly, or speak at all. But Vera remained indifferent to her, persisting in her playful teasing.
"Someone should tell Oliver we've got a new Quidditch pitch." she turned to the twins, setting off another round of laughter.
The Poshlanders maintained their disdainful glares, while Miles seemed ready for a scrap with the Weasleys. However, just as tension mounted, an unexpected voice broke the silence.
"Don't you ever get tired of being a bitch?"
Vera’s playful smirk faltered as Ryu's words cut through the jovial atmosphere like a knife.
The twins' laughter died down instantly, replaced by an uneasy silence that hung heavy in the air.
Even the other Poshlanders swiveled towards him, their expressions a tableau of astonishment, taken aback by his unexpected choice of words.
For the first time, Vera found herself at a loss for words, her usual quick wit failing her in the face of Ryu's unexpected remark. Despite their constant banter, she had never heard him speak to her with such hostility before, and it stung more than she cared to admit.
"What did you just call me?" she finally managed to say.
Ryu's jaw remained clenched, his gaze unwavering as he met her eyes with a steely resolve. "You call us names all the time," he retorted, his tone tinged with bitterness. "It's only fair we return a few."
The weight of his words hung heavily between them, casting a shadow over the once-lighthearted banter that had filled the compartment just moments before.
She narrowed her eyes. “We were just having a laugh, Avery."
“At someone else’s expense?”
“As if you don’t do the same to us all the time?”
Ryu’s unwavering gaze bore into her as he rose from his seat, his hands clenched into fists as he moved towards her, his anger palpable.
Vera's heart raced as she instinctively stepped back.
“Grow the fuck up, Vera.” He spat, before sliding the door firmly, leaving her and the twins alone in the corridor.
The abruptness of his action left her stunned, her mind reeling as she processed the sudden shift. She glanced at the twins, sensing their anticipation of her response.
Despite the urge to react, she opted for a composed demeanor. Yet, she couldn't help but feel a pang of indignation. After all, hadn't they all consistently ridiculed others' appearances? And now, confronted with a taste of their own medicine, they suddenly recoiled?
"What a bunch of hypocrites." She scoffed, before striding away, the twins falling into step behind her.
Upon reaching Hogwarts, she veered away from the others, drawn towards one of the Thestrals, her determination to engage with them unwavering. Retrieving a pumpkin pasty from her bag, she extended it towards the creature's mouth. However, the Thestral sniffed at it first, then shook its head disapprovingly, refusing the offering.
"Come on!" She urged, attempting to coax the creature into accepting it, but it remained steadfast in its refusal.
She sighed in defeat, resigning herself to stuff the pumpkin pasty into her own mouth. However, just as she prepared to depart, her gaze snagged on a figure seated in the carriage attached to the Thestral.
Leaning closer, she peered past the creature’s obstructive wing and discovered Felix staring back at her, confusion etched across his features.
A flush of embarrassment flooded her cheeks as she realized that he likely couldn't see the Thestrals like she could, and might perceive her actions as peculiar. Offering him a faint smile, she swiftly turned away, hurrying off before someone could seem them.
Throughout dinner, her attention repeatedly drifted back to Ryu, a habit she couldn't seem to break. However, for the first time, she noticed that he wasn't returning her gaze, his eyes avoiding hers.
This unexpected change left her feeling unsettled, a hint of concern creeping into her thoughts as she pondered the possible reasons behind his avoidance.
She found herself unable to shake off the sting of his words, nor the unsettling realization that their lighthearted banter had teetered perilously close to unexpected depths. She pondered whether his lingering resentment stemmed from their encounter in the jewelry shop.
Despite her efforts to brush it aside, she found herself deeply wounded by his abrupt display of hostility.
She couldn't help but wonder why his words had cut so deeply. Or more importantly, why would she even care?
"Hypocrites, nothing but hypocrites!" she stepped into her dormitory with Alicia and Angelina, her frustration spilled out unchecked.
Alicia rolled her eyes. "Honestly, Vee. Just let it go already.”
"But he called me a bitch, Alicia!"
“So?” Angelina interjected, "They've said worse things to me."
"But it's different coming from Avery. He's never spoken to me like that before. I’m telling you, there's more going on than we realize."
As she mulled over Ryu's actions, her eyes drifted to her bed, where a neatly wrapped gift lay waiting.
Confusion flickered across her face as she picked it up. "What's this?"
"One of the prefects brought it over." Katie, seated on her bed, chimed in. "She said an owl dropped it off for you on Christmas day."
"Who's it from?" Alicia inquired.
"I'm not sure," Vera admitted, turning the rectangular, violet-wrapped parcel over in her hands, searching for any indication of the sender.
She pondered the possibilities, perhaps it was from Donnie, but he and Remy had already sent her a box of chocolate back at St. Mary’s. Birdy gave her a gift back at his inn, and her sisters at the orphanage wouldn't have sent it with an owl.
With careful precision, she began to unveil it, her friends leaning in with eager anticipation.
A gasp escaped her lips as the final layer of wrapping fell away, revealing a captivating painting of a sunflower in a vase. Its hues of golden yellows and vibrant strokes stirred unexpected emotions within her.
Angelina's brow furrowed. "A painting?"
Vera was momentarily speechless, her gloved fingertips tracing the intricate details of the canvas. "An oil painting," she breathed, feeling the texture of each brushstroke beneath her touch.
"Who made it?" Alicia's inquiry mirrored the questions swirling in Vera's mind.
She swiftly sought out the artist's signature, her eyes scanning every corner of the painting. "Artists always sign their work." She explained, her voice laced with anticipation.
Yet, as her scrutiny intensified, she found no trace of a signature. Frowning, she turned the painting over, hoping for a clue on the reverse wooden side. However, her confusion only deepened as she discovered that instead of a name, the painting was signed with a delicately carved sun.
"This is odd," she murmured, her gaze darting between the enigmatic painting and her curious friends. "No signature... just this sun."
She spent the entire night fixated on the painting, her gaze shifting between the vibrant sunflower on the front and the small sun carved on the back.
She pondered the identity of the sender or creator, marveling at their evident talent. Each brushstroke, every blend of color, and the play of light spoke volumes about the skill of the artist.
She stared at the painting until her eyelids grew heavy, eventually succumbing to sleep with the image of the sunflower still vivid in her mind's eye.
Monday, January 7, 1991
Sitting at breakfast the next day, she found her thoughts still consumed by the enigmatic painting, even as Maddie's tales of her trip to Australia grew more captivating with each passing minute.
"I swear we saw a snake the size of this table!"
"Cracker," Tommy nodded in astonishment.
"And we stayed at this amazing hotel with both a pool and a beach!"
"That sounds incredible, Mads," Vera chimed in, her tone as enthusiastic as she could muster.
Beside her, Alicia and Angelina exchanged subtle glances, their attempts to conceal their envy of Maddie's affluent lifestyle evident in the slight tightening of their expressions.
As Maddie continued her elaborate tales and listed all the extravagant items she had bought, Kenny burst into the hall, clearly brimming with excitement.
"YOU ARE NOT GOING TO BELIEVE WHAT I JUST HEARD!"
"Easy now, Ken.” Vera, still chewing her food, teased, “It can't be that interesting."
"Oh, but you're wrong, Vee." Kenny countered, his enthusiasm undiminished. "This is not your everyday news."
"Stop teasing us and spill it," Angie urged, leaning in with anticipation.
"Okay, okay." Kenny replied, bracing himself and taking a deep breath. "Jane and Bletchley," he whispered, leaning in closer.
"What about them?"
"They are engaged!"
Chapter 31: The Engagement Game
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Monday, January 7, 1991
"They are engaged!"
Vera spat her food out in shock, Tommy choked on his tea, Angie's jaw nearly hit the floor, and Maddie's fork slipped from her hand, clattering onto her plate.
“What... what?”
“They got betrothed to each other during the holiday,” Kenny whispered excitedly, leaning in closer. “I heard it from some of the older Slytherins who attended the ceremony!”
Vera lowered her head, the weight of her thoughts pressing down on her. Was that the purpose behind Jane's dinner?
“But...” Maddie began, her confusion palpable, “They're twelve!”
“You English lot are bonkers." Tommy remarked with a shake of his head.
“It’s not an English thing. Alicia began.
“It’s a pureblood thing.” Vera finished, her voice tinged with resignation as memories of her conversation with Donnie about her parents back in August flood back.
“Yeah, it’s normal.” Cedric added.
“Normal!” Angelina snapped, her disbelief evident in her tone. “They are children!”
“Snorty meant it’s customary." Vera remarked quietly, her gaze fixed on her plate as she poked at her food. “They get betrothed at a young age and get married once they turn seventeen, usually for political reasons.”
“Political?” Maddie questioned.
“To join bloodlines or solidify alliances between families."
“How could they get married without falling in love first?” Angie asked incredulously.
Vera merely shrugged, her thoughts echoing Angie's question. She had been pondering this very same question for months.
“It can be for both politics and love, you know.” Alicia offered.
Angie rolled her eyes. “Oh please. You honestly think Bletchley loves Jane? He treats her like a pet!”
“Besides,” Maddie interjected, “How could they know they are truly in love?”
Angie nodded in agreement. “Exactly! We’re still too young to know!”
“Purebloods don’t think that way.” Alicia responded, her tone thoughtful. “According to their customs, once you’ve come of age, you are no longer a child.”
“That’s absolutely absurd." Lee scoffed, echoing the sentiments of many at the table.
Vera swallowed hard, her thoughts consumed by the plight of Jane. Barely coming of age and already thrust into the role of a woman, she couldn't help but empathize with her.
What if Jane's parents had forced her into the engagement with Miles? What if Miles himself didn't desire it either?
The questions weighed heavily on her mind, stirring up fears and uncertainties about her own future. Was this the fate that awaited her if she had been born into her family? The mere thought sent her heart racing with anxiety.
“But not all pureblood families are like that.” Cedric swiftly interjected, rubbing his head as if trying to ease the tension. “My parents got engaged at seventeen.”
“And how old were they when they got married?” Lee inquired.
“Um...” Cedric hesitated. "Seventeen?”
“Mother of god!” Tommy exclaimed. “You seem to live till you’re three hundred years old so why the rush?”
“Our parents married young too.” George chimed in.
“Yeah, they had Bill at seventeen." Fred added.
"Please tell us yours were different, Vee?" Angie turned to her, her expression expectant.
Vera's heart raced as she met their gazes, feeling the weight of their anticipation. She took a deep breath, disappointment evident in her expression.
"They got betrothed at fourteen," she replied wearily, her gaze returning to her plate.
Tommy raised his eyebrows in surprise. "Blimey..."
"Married at seventeen." She continued.
"Oh." Angie's disappointment mirrored that of Tommy, Maddie, and Lee.
"Died at eighteen."
The entire table fell into stunned silence, their eyes fixed on her in shock. She couldn't believe she had said it out loud. She hadn't meant to reveal such a painful truth, but the words were already out there.
“I’m sorry, Vera." Kenny offered, his tone sincere, and the rest of the table followed suit.
She nodded in acknowledgment, unsure of what to say. While she didn't feel sadness over it, she did feel a pang of sorrow over her divergence from her friends' experiences.
“It’s okay." She offered, her tone attempting to convey a sense of acceptance. “Never met them, so..."
Her friends regarded her with sympathetic expressions.
She despised every second of it.
“Anyways,” she swiftly said, eager to divert attention away from her. “I think Jane and Bletchley are the perfect pair. You know, a dick and a cunt!”
“VERA!” Maddie exclaimed, slapping her arm, while the rest of the table erupted into laughter.
Cedric snorted, Fred and George turned red with embarrassment, Kenny looked mortified, and Lee nearly toppled off his seat from laughing so hard.
“What?” she chuckled, relieved to have diffused the tension that had been building. “They bloody are.”
“Not nice!” Maddie scolded, giving her arm another playful slap.
“Oh, these are the nicest words I have in my dictionary for people like them, Mads."
Angelina raised an eyebrow. “Weren’t you upset Avery called you a bitch yesterday?”
“Yeah, who’s the hypocrite now?” Alicia added.
She scoffed. “That’s different."
“Wait, what?” Cedric interjected, his expression hardening. “Avery called you a b-bitch?” He could hardly bring himself to say the word.
“Yeah, because she made fun of Warrington’s new haircut.” Alicia explained.
Cedric's jaw clenched in anger. "That's unacceptable!" he muttered.
"Don’t worry about it, Snorty." she replied, seemingly unbothered. "I've heard worse."
"Worse than bitch?" Tommy chimed in, genuinely surprised.
"Aha," she nodded, nonchalantly digging into another sandwich.
"Like what?" Tommy pressed further.
She paused, her mind flickering back to painful memories she wasn't sure she wanted to share.
The ‘Bastard’ taunts from her previous muggle school, the derogatory remarks hurled at her by Mr. Humphrey, the cruel slurs from Lydia and Abbie…
But before she could respond, Percy's voice cut through the tense atmosphere. "Vera." he called out, holding out a note towards her. "Professor Morales asked me to pass this along to you."
Vera's curiosity was instantly piqued. With a swift glance at the note, her eyes lit up with excitement.
She grinned, her eyes sparkling with mischief. "Speaking of engagements. If you'll all excuse me, I've got a rendezvous with my future hubby." she announced proudly, playfully fluttering her lashes and sniffing the note.
All the boys rolled their eyes, and Lee added a theatrical gagging sound.
"You're off your rocker, Vera." Fred teased. "Utterly delusional."
"Jealous, Freddie?"
"You wish." he retorted, sticking out his tongue.
"I bloody am," Angelina interjected. "Why do you get to see him every day, for heaven’s sake?"
"She's got him under a spell." Cedric chimed in. "Probably a love potion."
"I don't need a potion, Snorty. He's drawn to my intellect and charm, thank you very much."
"What intellect?" George quipped.
"What charm?" Fred added.
Tommy shook his head. "I genuinely can't believe you lot are entertaining her madness."
But the banter persisted as Vera waved her note triumphantly. "Go on and laugh, but mark my words, when Professor Morales becomes Minister of Magic and I become the most esteemed artist in the world, you'll all be begging for invites to our wedding!"
Taking one last bite of her food, she hurriedly excused herself from the table and dashed out of the hall.
As she stepped into the tiny office, her mind buzzed with curiosity. Morales never summoned her in the mornings. But as she laid eyes on him, a grin spread across her face.
As usual, she found him reading a newspaper, the magical record player behind him softly spinning a rather naughty tune.
♪ God Save the Queen ♪
The fascist regime
They made you a moron
A potential H bomb
"Hello, Vera." he greeted her with a smile that could melt ice. "Hope your break was splendid.”
"It was." she practically bounced into the chair. "We watched Home Alone, which turned out to be more comedy than horror, and Kaya and I baked enough gingerbread cookies to feed the whole of England. And I went to Diagon Alley! Oh, Professor, it was smashing! I even found this posh lane with all sorts of fancy shops. And guess what? I got the most splendid present ever!"
Professor Morales couldn't help but mirror her excitement as she rambled on. "So, what was it?" he inquired, his smile growing wider.
She hesitated for a moment, knowing it wouldn't do to mention the bras she'd received. "Um, it was a book, sir. Little Women."
"I love that book!" he exclaimed, and her smile returned.
"You've read it, sir?"
"I have, and Little Men as well."
"Mint! I can't wait to dive into that one too! But who's your favorite sister? Jo, right? Because she's a writer like you?"
"Jo is indeed wonderful, but I always had a soft spot for Beth."
She raised an eyebrow. "Beth?"
"She reminds me of a dear friend." he reminisced. "But what about you?"
"I like them all, but by the end, Amy was my favorite."
"Oh, is that so?" he queried, a hint of curiosity in his tone. "Why's that?"
She shrugged. "I dunno. But I aspire to be like her one day."
He smiled warmly once more. "Well, you better start practicing now." then reached into his drawer and retrieved a parchment. "I thought we might have a session before classes start."
She nodded politely, adjusting her posture with a hint of formality.
"Tea?" he offered.
"Yes, please."
"Two sugars and half milk, correct?" he queried as he reached for the milk.
"NO!" she interjected swiftly as he poised to pour. "NO MILK."
"I know." He smiled. "I was just teasing you."
Despite his jovial attempt, her expression remained solemn, her gaze fixed on the milk in his hand, her breaths coming heavier.
Sensing her discomfort, he followed her gaze, retracting the milk from the table. Once it was out of sight, her smile returned, and she took a sip from her tea.
Professor Morales observed her with curious eyes as she placed the parchment on her lap, engrossed in sketching. This time, he refrained from reaching for his own parchments or books. Instead, he simply watched her intently.
She could feel his gaze lingering on her, a mix of joy and unease stirring within her.
"Sir?" she attempted to shift the atmosphere. "Have you ever been married?"
He remained silent, his gaze unwavering, as if he hadn't heard her question.
"I don’t mean to be intrusive," she continued delicately, "but I was simply curious about magical weddings."
He maintained his steady gaze. "I'm afraid they're not vastly different from Muggle ceremonies." He finally responded.
Disappointed by his lack of direct answer, she acknowledged his mysterious demeanor with a subtle nod.
"May I assume that your inquiry stems from the recent news about your classmates?" He ventured.
She paused, lifting her eyes from her parchment. "You heard, sir?"
"News travels swiftly within these castle walls."
She trailed off for a moment, her eyes fixating on an empty space on the desk.
"You don't seem particularly enthused by the news." He observed.
"Oh." She snapped out of her reverie. "No, it's just..."
"Just what?"
She hesitated, averting her gaze and focusing on her parchment. "It's just a bit... unusual, don't you think?"
"I don't see it that way. Mr. Bletchley and Miss Corrigan always exhibited closeness in my class."
"No, I mean... Because they're... still so young?"
"Ah, I understand," he nodded, his expression shifting to one of comprehension. "Forgive me, Vera, for inadvertently imposing my own cultural perspective. From your viewpoint, yes, it does seem unusual."
"I understand it’s customary, but aren’t they too young to be engaged?"
"They are only betrothed, Vera."
"What's the difference?"
"It means they are pledged to each other, in a manner of speaking."
"But, they are to be married?"
"Not necessarily. It's more about formalities."
"What do you mean by formalities?"
"It's like a show, a display, but often doesn't entail much beyond that."
"Um... I'm confused, sir." She admitted, scratching her head with her pencil.
“Well...” He began, gazing into her confused eyes, "When two families, or let's say, two companies, wish to form an alliance, they formalize it through a 'Promised Blood' agreement. Muggles, I believe, simply sign contracts and issue statements. But for wizards, owing to the risk of betrayal, they establish familial bonds to solidify their partnership."
She paused for a moment, contemplating his explanation. "I'm still at a loss, sir." She finally admitted.
"Family don’t betray each other, Vera. Betraying a family member brings disgrace and often times, serious dark curses. So these alliances are transformed into familial bonds to safeguard their interests."
"But what if..." she trailed off, "What if they were in love with other people?"
"They would still proceed with the betrothal if their family insists upon it."
"So they're forced into it?"
"That is a possibility."
"And then what? They're just expected to marry someone they don't love, while the person they do love is left behind?"
"I'm afraid so."
She shook her head in disbelief. "That's proper mad! Not even Jane Austen novels are like that."
He offered a soft chuckle. "Don't worry, Vera. Not all wizarding families adhere to such practices."
"My family did."
He furrowed his brows in contemplation. "I don't recall the Black family engaging in such arrangements."
"They did with my parents. My mother and father were betrothed at fourteen and married at seventeen in a secret ceremony."
"Ah, yes... I remember now."
"Remember what?"
"The Black family didn't typically form alliances until the war."
"Why didn't they form alliances before?"
"Well, would the Queen of England seek an alliance with a regular English citizen?"
Vera shivered at the analogy. She often underestimated the extent of her family's influence in the wizarding world.
"And if they do," he continued, "forge an alliance, they would never consider a family that wasn't on par with their own status."
"So, the Rosier family—"
"Are esteemed in a manner akin to the Blacks."
That was it? That was the reason she was brought into life? Was she merely a pawn in this intricate game of alliances, a product of calculated marriages and strategic maneuvers?
The realization weighed heavily on her heart as she contemplated the circumstances of her parents' union. The thought of them being compelled into a loveless marriage for the sake of familial alliances stirred a profound ache within her.
And to think that she was born into such a loveless arrangement deepened her sorrow.
She gripped the pencil in her hand, her frustration simmering at these absurd traditions where children were mere instruments in their parents' power plays.
She hoped fervently that Miles and Jane were genuinely in love, or at the very least, would find a means to escape this arrangement if they weren't.
With trembling hands, she continued to sketch, her lines wavering with the intensity of her emotions.
"I can understand how confusing this is all for you," Professor Morales said, observing her evident distress.
"I just..." she paused, struggling to come to terms with what she had learned. "I just thought the wizarding world would be simpler than this. I mean, Muggles marry because they are in love, not for some fancy reasons."
"And wizards do the same, Vera." He reassured her with a sympathetic gaze. "This engagement game is more of an anomaly. A practice only the bourgeoisies adhere to."
“It’s not just that, Professor. There are a lot of things that I can’t seem to understand."
“Like what?”
She nibbled on her lip, gathering her thoughts. "Like... The whole blood purity thing. Do wizards not realize how fortunate they are to have magic? So why does it matter where it came from?"
Professor Morales's smile softened. "I believe many of us share that sentiment."
"Some don't. One boy told me that Muggle-borns somehow stole magic," she scoffed, rolling her eyes. "That's proper mental, isn't it?"
"Absolutely."
"And how is it that the Muggle Prime Minister is allowed to know about magic, but my friend Kaya isn’t?"
"A valid point." He acknowledged, raising an eyebrow in surprise.
"Also," she continued, her frustration mounting, “How can wizards be poor?”
Professor Morales's expression shifted, his face reflecting a mixture of shock and curiosity as he focused his gaze on her, prompting her to elaborate further.
"We have magic,” she continued, “and magic can solve so many problems, but people still need money for everything here. It's baffling. We can take out loans, but the goblins at Gringotts make people cry. And Birdy believes they raised the value of wizarding money to make it harder for Muggle-borns to afford things. And how is it that there are homeless people? I understand that some may be squibs, but why wouldn't their magical family or neighbors lend a hand?"
As she went on, Professor Morales's eyes widened with each word, as though he were witnessing a revelation unfold before him.
"And those poor house-elves..." she sighed, her heart heavy with empathy.H
He leaned forward, adjusting his posture as if anticipating this very moment. "What about them, Vera?"
"Wizards treat them like they're less than us, and force them to be servants, but house-elves are proper smart. They can do wandless magic and apparate like it’s nothing. So why do they work without pay, dress horribly, and are treated badly when they're just like us?"
He was taken aback. "You believe... house-elves are just like us?"
"Well, they speak and think like us, don't they? The house-elves in the kitchens are mad funny, too! And they're proper kind, you know? At Gringotts, none of the wizards offered to help me, some even pushed me, but a house-elf did."
He remained silent, his eyes wide and his mouth slightly ajar, blinking in confusion as he gazed at her.
Reaching for his cup of tea, he took a sip, his brows still furrowed. Vera returned to her sketch, the only sound in the room now the gentle scratching of her pencil on paper.
"And don't get me started on Quidditch," she suddenly remarked, rolling her eyes.
Morales cleared his throat, adjusting his expression. "Um, ah, what about it?"
"It's so bloody dangerous!" she exclaimed. "I mean, football can be intense, but it's not life-threatening! Yet, everyone treats Quidditch as if it's just a normal sport, while they're baffled by Muggle ones."
Morales cleared his throat again. "I never cared for it much either."
"And my friends go absolutely mental whenever it's mentioned, starting fights over it," she continued, her pencil still gliding across the parchment. "And you heard of how they fired so many people from the ministry, right? Well, no one bloody cared! Only because it all happened at the same time as the world cup. My friend Dom got fired... she didn't tell me, but I knew. And it's proper mad! She's an amazing employee, Professor. I don't understand why would they ever fire her."
He nodded, but his gaze remained fixed on an empty spot on the desk, lost in deep contemplation of her surprising remarks.
"I'm sorry, sir," she then offered, noticing his change of demeanor. "I didn't mean to be rude or anything."
"Rude?"
"For speaking badly about your world…"
"Not at all, Vera." he reassured her, shaking his head. "I'm just..."
"Just what, Professor?"
He hesitated for a moment, his reluctance to speak his mind evident. Clearing his throat once more, he shifted the conversation. "I'm very excited to see what you're working on."
"Oh," she swallowed nervously, taken aback by his sudden change of subject. "I think I need more time on it, sir."
"Then take all the time you need." He replied warmly.
The room descended into silence once more, the only sound the faint scratching of Vera's pencil against parchment.
Professor Morales leaned back in his chair, resting his fists under his chin as he regarded her with a mixture of curiosity and introspection.
Time seemed to stretch on indefinitely as they sat there, locked in their silent exchange.
"I'm finished, sir," she finally announced, handing him her sketch.
A smile spread across his face as he examined it. The artwork depicted a whimsical wedding ceremony, with a diverse array of magical creatures gathered in attendance.
There was a vampire, a giant, a werewolf, a house-elf, a goblin, all seated alongside wizards.
The bride was portrayed as a graceful black cat adorned in a flowing gown, while the groom, a bear, wore a tie with a hint of formality. The officiant was depicted as a wise centaur.
"You're becoming increasingly talented, I must say."
"Thank you, sir." She replied, her cheeks tinted with a rosy blush.
"Are you the bride?" he teased, a playful glint in his eyes.
She shook her head shyly.
"And who's the groom?" he teased further, wiggling his eyebrows mischievously.
She smiled, her blush deepening as she lowered her gaze to the floor.
"Well, it's beautiful, Vera." He remarked warmly, ready to affix it to the wall with his wand. "My favorite so far."
Vera could barely contain her joy as her face flushed with happiness.
"I hope you're prepared for the new term." He continued.
She nodded earnestly, determination gleaming in her eyes. "I will study very hard, I swear."
"I don't doubt it."
"But, sir..." her tone shifted, her voice tinged with longing, "when will I be able to do magic?"
"Very soon, Vera." He assured her with a warm smile. "We're almost there, I promise."
She nodded gratefully and turned to make her way towards the door.
"Vera." he called out just as she reached for the handle.
"Yes, Professor?" she swiftly turned back.
"Whoever the bear is, he is very lucky."
Her heart soared with happiness as she practically skipped her way back to her dormitory.
"He's head over heels for me." She declared as she flopped onto her back, a dreamy look in her eyes.
"Catch yourself on."
"Jealous, are we, Alicia?"
“Of you? HA!”
"Oh, you needn't worry about her." Angelina chimed in. "Her heart is already spoken for."
"Shut it, Ang!" Alicia snapped.
"By Toooommyyyyy!" Angelina sang teasingly.
"Oh la laaaaa!" Vera leapt out of bed to join in the teasing. "Has he given you a snog yet?"
She proceeded to playfully make kissing gestures, only to be silenced by a pillow smacking into her face.
"Grow up, you two." Alicia snapped, "Let's talk about the real stuff. Do you reckon Bletchley and Jane will tie the knot?"
"I'm not sure.” Vera said. “but they'd probably have nice babies if they did."
"Totally!" Alicia agreed. "Jane's a looker, and he's not bad himself."
"Don't make me gag." Angelina interjected.
"If you overlook his thick head, he's actually quite handsome. Probably the best-looking lad in our year, second only to Avery."
"He does have the nicest eyes among the boys.” Angelina pondered. “But that's about it!” she swiftly added.
"Cedric's not too shabby either." Vera chimed in.
"Don't let Maddie catch wind of you saying that." Angelina warned.
"What do you mean?"
"She's obviously got a thing for him!" Angelina exclaimed. "You know, 'Hi Ceddy, oh bye Ceddy!" she mocked in a high-pitched voice.
"And that flashy watch she got him?" Alicia added.
Vera's eyes widened. "Oh, buggers! How did I miss that?"
"It's painfully obvious." Alicia remarked.
"Well, I hope he returns her feelings, or she'll be gutted." Vera noted.
"I reckon he does." Angelina said. "Just a bit shy about it."
"Speaking of which,” Vera continued. “Did anyone else catch George's eyes glued to a certain someone during dinner last night?"
"Oh, believe me, I noticed." Alicia confirmed.
Angelina rolled her eyes. "Come on, that's a stretch. He's just the same old Weasley."
"Sure, keep telling yourself that," Vera retorted sarcastically.
"Alright, what about you, Miss Fancy?" Angelina swiftly redirected. "Who's caught your eye?"
"Oh, I'm spoken for, Ang!" Vera said proudly, fluttering her eyelashes. "By the most dashing bloke in Hogwarts."
"If she's still banging on about Professor Morales, I swear I'm gonna--"
"His smile," Vera cut her off, bouncing back onto her bed and jumping up and down. "Oh, his dreamy smile. It just melts my heart, you know?"
"You're gonna wreck the bed!" Alicia yelled.
"And his scent," Vera continued, undeterred. "And the way he talks! I'm in love, girls, I’M IN LOVE!" she finished, bouncing on the bed and lying in a star position. “And he's in love with me too!"
"Yeah.” Angelina teased. “I'm sure he'll drop everything and chase after a girl who still hasn't got her period yet!"
Vera scoffed. "Having a period doesn't define us, you know? Menstruation isn't what makes us women!"
"Weren't you dying to get it?" Angelina continued to poke fun.
"I couldn't care less now. It comes when it comes, but it doesn't define me. I am a woman regardless."
"A woman who cuddles a stuffed cat every night." Alicia chimed in, only to be met with a pillow to her face. "Ouch!"
"Come on, you two," Angelina managed between laughs. "We've got a snowball fight to win!"
The trio made their way to the courtyard, where the others were already locked in a snowy skirmish.
Without hesitation, they joined in, and soon it was a full-blown battle. The courtyard echoed with laughter and shouts as the snowball battle raged on.
Amidst the flurry of snowballs flying through the air, George's aim remained fixed on Angelina, each throw executed with determined precision.
On the other side, Alicia and Tommy formed an alliance, launching a relentless barrage against Cedric and Maddie, who didn’t miss any chance to shield herself with him.
Meanwhile, Fred, Lee, and Vera had established a seamless tactic. Vera swiftly crafted the snowballs, passing them to Lee with practiced efficiency, who then delivered them to Fred, ready to unleash his accurate shots on their opponent, Sarah.
However, she emerged as a formidable force on the battlefield, a veritable war machine in her own right.
Suddenly, like a specter emerging from the mist, the Poshlanders materialized out of nowhere, armed with snowballs conjured through their magical prowess.
With effortless flicks of their wands, they unleashed a relentless barrage of icy projectiles upon their unsuspecting opponents.
“WE’RE UNDER ATTACK!” Lee screamed, “I REPEAT, WE ARE UNDER ATTACK!”
The sudden attack caught the others off guard, initially causing confusion and surprise.
However, as Adrian's laughter rang out and the Poshlanders focused their assault, the chaos intensified.
Maddie became his prime target, but Cedric retaliated fiercely, determined to protect her.
Sarah found herself locked in a battle with Eudora and Jane, quickly proving that they had underestimated her abilities.
Cassius, who was now sporting a beanie to hide his bald head, conjured snowballs to engage the twins and Lee, while Angelina and Alicia clashed with Miles in a flurry of snow.
Meanwhile, Vera found herself the target of Ryu's relentless assault, his hostility palpable with every precise throw. True to form, he was scarcely dressed for winter, clad only in his Hogwarts uniform with the sleeves rolled up, allowing for swifter movements.
Unable to match his speed and skill, she found herself forced to the ground, shielding her head with both hands as the onslaught continued.
"Stop it!" she shouted, her voice laced with frustration, but Ryu showed no signs of relenting.
His throws only grew more intense, each snowball seemingly guided by an unseen force. It felt as though he was channeling his anger directly towards her, and she could no longer tolerate being his target.
With determination fueling her steps, she stood up and marched defiantly towards him, the snowballs continuing to pelt her relentlessly.
"I said stop!" she screamed again, trying to block the snowballs with her hands.
But then, without warning, a particularly forceful snowball struck her stomach, causing her to wince in pain and drop to her knees.
Ryu immediately ceased his assault upon seeing her in distress, concern flickering across his features. But as he moved closer to check on her, she seized the opportunity, and sprang into action. With a burst of determination, she launched herself at him, catching him off guard.
They both stumbled and tumbled onto the snowy ground, with Vera ending up on top of him, their positions reversed in an unexpected turn of events.
"You wanna fight, Avery?" she snapped, straddling him, "I'll bloody fight!"
Ryu acted swiftly, grabbing both of her wrists to prevent her from delivering a blow. His strength overpowered her, and she was left struggling to break free.
Before she could react, he swiftly flipped her over and pinned her down, still firmly grasping her wrists. He straddled her with both of his legs, effectively preventing her from kicking him. Locked in his grip, her attempts to free herself were thwarted, leaving her temporarily immobilized.
The discomfort of the snow beneath her head intensified, prompting her to squirm beneath him.
“Why are you doing this?” she snapped, as she glared up at him.
“To teach you a lesson." He smirked, his soaking wet hair hanging over her. As he hovered, a stray droplet of water fell onto her lips.
“Oh is that so? Still whining about what I said to Warrington, huh?”
“You were cruel!” he exclaimed, tightening his hands around her wrists. "And you’ll get punished for it."
“Hair grows back, you know. But, you lot’s sense of humor can’t,”
He pushed her wrists onto the snow.“It wasn’t funny!" He said through gritted teeth.
She leaned in closer to his face, her nose almost brushing his. “No. It was bloody hilarious."
However, just as she continued to struggle underneath him, Ryu released her wrists and instead, grabbed her hands, and intertwined his fingers with hers, effectively keeping her restrained in a different manner.
However, his seemingly innocent gesture triggered an unexpected and excruciating reaction. With a sudden surge of agony, Vera’s head was engulfed in indescribable pain, causing her to let out a piercing scream.
Startled by her reaction, Ryu recoiled, swiftly releasing her hand and scrambling off of her.
"Ar-are you okay?" he asked, his voice laced with concern.
She felt her head spinning and her stomach churning as she struggled to make sense of the overwhelming sensation. Clutching her head with both hands, she recoiled in horror as she realized they were soaking wet from the melted snow.
Her heart sank as the realization dawned on her: the water had rendered her gloves ineffective, and she had inadvertently used her clairtangency on Ryu Avery.
“Did I hurt you?” he asked.
As she stared at him with horror, she could see the genuine concern reflected in his eyes. Despite her internal turmoil, she remained silent, unable to bring herself to respond to his inquiry.
Unbeknownst to him, she was the one who caused harm.
With a sense of urgency, she scrambled to her feet and fled from the courtyard, a sense of panic gripping her as she felt her nose beginning to bleed. Racing to the hospital wing, she arrived just in time for the blood to start trailing down her face. Madam Pomfrey's initial scolding was halted as Vera explained what had transpired.
"I swear, Madam!" she urged, perching on the edge of a bed. "I didn't know water could make the gloves stop working."
"I believe you, dear." Madam Pomfrey assured her. "I didn't either."
As she left to retrieve some willow bark for her throbbing head, Vera couldn't shake the nagging curiosity about the memory she had inadvertently glimpsed from Ryu during their brief contact.
Closing her eyes in an attempt to recollect her thoughts, only one image surfaced in her mind: Him comforting a tearful Cassius.
Upon Madam Pomfrey's return with the willow bark, Vera eagerly gulped it down in one swift motion, hoping to alleviate the pounding ache in her head. As she prepared to depart, her gaze fell upon the spot where she had been seated, and her heart nearly skipped a beat.
"What's that?" Madam Pomfrey inquired, her eyes falling upon the bloodstain on the pristine white sheet. “Is it from your nose?”
Vera shook her head, her eyes widening in disbelief at the sight before her.
"Oh, dear." Madam Pomfrey realized the cause of her shock. "Is it your first time?"
Vera swallowed nervously, managing only a faint nod in response.
"Well, it's a good thing you're here," Madam Pomfrey reassured her, swiftly walking away to retrieve a sanitary kit.
"Blimey..." Vera whispered under her breath, her gaze still fixed on the bloodstain. "FINALLY!"
Notes:
Songs mentioned:
God Save the Queen - Sex Pistols
Chapter 32: Cry Baby Cry
Chapter Text
Tuesday, January 8, 1991
As expected, Vera found herself unable to shut up about it.
Guided by the nurturing support of Madam Pomfrey, she delved into the intricacies of self-care during this transformative phase of her life.
Then, rushing back to her dormitory, her heart raced with the eagerness to share her news with her friends. She burst through the door, and was met by Alicia and Angelina, who were still recovering from their recent snowball skirmish.
"Vera, are you okay?" Alicia asked with concern.
"Did Avery do something to you?" Angelina added, her tone tinged with anger.
"Forget about Avery!" Vera exclaimed. "I’m a bloody woman!"
With animated gestures and a radiant smile, she recounted her newfound experience to her friends, then retreated to her desk to carefully craft letters to Miss Nelson and Kaya, injecting a playful tone into the latter.
"And guess what? It's not as painful as you said!"
She then turned her attention to Vinny, her cherished stuffed cat and faithful companion through countless adventures. With a hint of melancholy, she tenderly packed him into her suitcase, bidding a bittersweet farewell to her childhood.
“I’m sorry Vinny, but I can no longer be seen with you anymore.”
Throughout the entirety of the following day, her excitement was palpable. She found it difficult to contain herself, frequently requesting bathroom breaks every five minutes, and seizing every opportunity to mention her experience to the girls, who were tired with it all.
"Wait till you start getting spots on your face," Alicia teased as they made their way to Potions class.
"Spots?" Vera questioned, baffled. "What spots? What you on about?"
"You didn't know?" Angelina chimed in. "You get a pimple every time."
"Bugger off!"
"I swear!" Angelina insisted.
"And it's massive," Alicia added.
Vera's concern started to grow, making her reconsider the whole situation.
"And don't forget about the hair fallout." Alicia continued, which made Vera stop in her tracks, disbelief written all over her face.
"What d'ya mean?"
Alicia and Angelina exchanged knowing looks. "You lose hair every time? Duh?"
"Wait, what!"
"You never thought about why old women don't have much hair?" Angelina remarked.
"Yeah, they lose it 'cause of their periods." Alicia added.
"Wait, so..." Vera trailed off, still processing. "You lot lose hair every month?"
"Yep!" Angelina fibbed convincingly.
"Whole strands," Alicia chimed in, barely able to hold back her laughter.
"If you’re messing' with me, I'll kill you,"
The two shared mischievous grins before bursting into laughter.
"You cheeky gits!" Vera snapped, chasing after them as they scarpered off.
They made their way to the potions lab, still giggling, and upon entering, were taken aback to see that Professor Snape had scrawled 'QUIZ' in huge letters on the board.
"Oh, for crying out loud!" Alicia exclaimed.
"We've only just got back from the holiday." Angelina added in a whisper.
Vera didn't mind the quiz all that much; she felt fully prepared for whatever Professor Snape might throw her way, having revised diligently during the holiday.
Taking her place at a workstation, she glanced around the room and noticed Cassius, still sporting a beanie to conceal his bald head, and Ryu, who looked concerned when he caught her eye.
She bit her lip, feeling guilty about their encounter the previous day. Despite her disdain for him, she couldn't fathom using her dark abilities on him, or anyone for that matter.
The memory she inadvertently stole from him lingered in her mind, sparking her curiosity. But Snape's voice interrupted her thoughts.
He gave them the details of the quiz, explaining that they had to brew a potion they had learned about in the previous term.
"And," he concluded, "whosoever manages to brew it to perfection will find themselves granted extra credits towards the final examination, though I doubt many of you possess the requisite skill."
Excitement bubbled among the students, all eager for the chance to earn those extra credits.
Despite the casual rivalry with Cassius and Ryu, Vera felt confident that she would be the one to win, knowing her skills were top-notch. Glancing over at them, she noticed Ryu whispering something to Cassius, who nodded in response.
She shrugged it off, and focused her attention on preparing for the quiz ahead. After meticulously selecting all the required ingredients and adjusting the heat beneath her cauldron, she dove into her work.
She devised a well-organized plan, breaking down the recipe into steps to save time and ensure efficiency. Realizing that one of the ingredients needed to be soaked in advance, she began with that task.
Placing the ingredient in a tube and carefully adding the necessary chemicals, she positioned it at the end of her station before proceeding with the remaining steps.
Fully engrossed in her work, she tuned out all distractions around her, focusing solely on the task at hand. As she was diligently jotting down notes in her notebook, someone brushed past her station, causing the soaking tube to tumble to the floor and shatter.
Looking up, she was met with the indifferent gaze of none other than Ryu, who seemed unfazed by his actions.
"Are you bloody joking?" she retorted sharply in his direction, her voice carrying across the room.
"Black!" Snape's command cut through the tense exchange.
"Avery broke my tube!"
"It was an accident," Ryu countered, his eyes narrowed. "I was passing by, and my hand accidentally knocked it over."
"Return to your station, Avery." Snape instructed, his tone firm. "As for you," he turned his attention to Vera, "be mindful of your language in my class. I do NOT tolerate such behavior."
Vera took a deep breath, attempting to quell her rising frustration and refrain from lashing out. Maybe it truly was an accident, she reasoned with herself.
Returning to her work, she prepared another tube, this time situating it carefully beside her, mindful not to risk another mishap. Immersed in her notes, she was momentarily distracted when suddenly, the flames beneath her cauldron surged uncontrollably.
Despite her swift actions to remove the cauldron from the heat, the damage was already done—the high temperature had irreparably ruined the potion.
She was now fuming with anger, and fought the urge to shout in frustration. Glancing over at Ryu, she caught sight of him discreetly retracting his wand, and her eyes widened in fury as the realization dawned on her: he had tampered with her fire.
However, without concrete evidence and with little time left, she knew she couldn't confront him.
She hurriedly made her way to the end of the lab to clean her cauldron, determined to start over. Upon her return, she was taken aback to find her notebook missing.
Panic surged through her; she had meticulously outlined her plan in it and couldn't afford to lose it with so little time remaining.
Frantically, she searched her bag and then beneath her station, but it was nowhere to be found. Questioning the others yielded no results—they hadn't seen it either.
Desperation mounting, she retraced her steps to the cleaning station, hoping she had absentmindedly taken it with her, but her search proved futile.
Frustration gnawed at her, making it impossible to focus or gather her thoughts. She Casted a glance at Ryu, and noticed him exchanging subtle giggles with Cassius beside him, further fueling her irritation.
"You absolute wanker," she muttered under her breath.
This was the last straw, she decided. She wouldn't stand for his pathetic attempt at sabotaging her work. With anger fueling her steps, she marched towards him, her fury simmering beneath the surface.
"You find this amusing?" she snapped.
"What are you on about?" Ryu replied, avoiding her gaze.
"Give it back, Avery!"
"Give what back?"
"My bloody notebook!" she exclaimed. "I know you took it, so stop bloody lying!"
"I took nothing, Black. I've been here the whole time."
"As if you couldn't just accio it towards you?"
"Well, I didn't, so QUIT BOTHERING ME!"
"I won't leave until you give it back."
"Are you daft? I don't have it!"
"I know you do! And I'll find it."
Before he knew it, she lunged towards him, grabbing at his robes. Ryu recoiled, dropping everything he held and stepping back.
"Stop it!" he snapped, attempting to push her hands away. "I said I don't have your bloody notebook!"
But she paid no heed, continuing to reach into his robes.
"Get off!”
"Give it back, you shithead!"
The entire class was now watching the unfolding drama, except for Cedric, who remained focused on his cauldron. Snape swiftly intervened, slapping them both on their heads with his book before pulling Vera away.
"He took my notebook!"
"I certainly did no such thing, professor."
"Five points from Gryffindor," Snape announced, his tone stern.
"Hah!" Ryu smirked, while Vera seethed with anger.
"And five points from Ravenclaw."
"But, professor," Ryu began to argue, but Snape quickly delivered another slap to his head.
"You will both receive a failing mark on your quiz."
Ryu clenched his jaw in frustration, and Vera was boiling with rage.
"He was ruining my potion," she insisted.
"That's an absurd accusation!" Ryu shot back.
"And you will be cleaning the entire lab, unassisted."
“But, professor!” they said simultaneously.
"One more word from either of you and I'll have you scrubbing the walls with your tongues!"
Vera felt a surge of fury coursing through her.
"Did you hear that, everyone?" Snape continued, his gaze sweeping the room with cold precision. "Black and Avery have most generously volunteered to clean your stations after class. How very thoughtful of them, indeed."
The two wore sulking expressions, with Vera's hands clenched into fists, ready to lash out at either Ryu or Snape.
Snape smirked at her once more before continuing, "Now, back to your work. The play is over."
Defeated, Vera returned to her station with heavy steps. Not only had she lost her potions notebook, received a failing mark, and been humiliated, but now she also had detention with the most insufferable boy at Hogwarts.
She began cleaning her station, shooting daggers at Ryu whenever their gazes met.
The class came to an end, and Snape began checking everyone's work. As expected, Cassius won the extra credit, and Snape even awarded Slytherin points for it, but that was hardly surprising.
As everyone else filed out of the classroom, Vera and Ryu remained seated, bracing themselves for their impending detention.
Snape cleared his desk, stowing away everything in his drawers and securing them with a powerful charm. Then he strode over to his new servants.
"I do not care if it takes you the entire day." He hissed. "You will clean every inch of this hall. One missed spot or a lazily cleaned station, and I will have you wiping it every day for a month. Is that understood?"
"Yes, Professor." They both replied, their defeat palpable.
"I'll be taking the rest of the day off," Snape continued, “but I’ll be back to ensure the lab is properly closed." He then shot a pointed look at Vera. "thieves are lurking all over the school."
As he departed, Vera swiftly brushed past Ryu, shedding her robes and tossing them onto a nearby stool.
"We'll split the work," she instructed briskly. "You take this side, and I'll tackle the back."
"Yes, your majesty." Ryu mocked in response.
She then started elegantly gathering her flowing black locks, and fashioning them into a neat bun, deftly securing it in by sticking her wand in it.
Upon finishing, she raised her head to discover Ryu's lingering gaze, but he quickly averted his eyes and briskly made his way to one of the stations.
She rolled her eyes at him, then headed for the back of the hall. "Do you even know how to clean, Avery?" she taunted as she began working. "Or is it beneath you?"
"What do you think?"
“I think you just summon your house elf with a snap of your fingers whenever there's a speck of dust."
“As if you don’t do the same?”
“I don’t. I was raised to clean after myself like a normal human being."
He scoffed. “So was I, and I'll have you know, I'm perfectly capable of—"
"Of what?” she interrupted, "Delicately arranging your collection of silk handkerchiefs? I bet you couldn't even boil water without setting the kitchen on fire."
Ryu's cheeks flushed crimson with anger as he struggled to come up with a witty retort.
"Poor Toto," she sneered. "Must be such a challenge for him to wipe your arse every day."
"Would you stop talking like that?"
"Oh, yeah I forgot. You don't like vulgarity."
"Oh, I can be very vulgar, Black.”
“I would love to see that… Avery."
"You will," he smirked confidently. "And just so you’re aware, I do know how to clean."
"Really?" she said, feigning surprise. "Can you distinguish a mop from a broom, or do you need a manual?"
"Watch and learn, Black."
Vera replied with a condescending chuckle, but her skepticism swiftly turned to astonishment as Ryu deftly produced his wand, manipulating it with practiced finesse.
Ingredients began floating from their scattered positions, arranging themselves meticulously on the shelves. With another deft flick, flasks, tubes, and stools gleamed with newfound cleanliness. Lastly, errant spills and remnants ascended, guided effortlessly by his control toward the disposal bin.
A triumphant smirk graced his lips as he glanced at her, while she remained frozen, eyes widened and mouth slightly agape.
"What?" he said, "He didn’t say we can’t use magic."
"It's a punishment, Avery. He might not have said it, but it was implied."
"And since when do you respect rules exactly?"
"Fine, then. Tend to my stations as well,"
"You were the one who suggested splitting the work."
"Don't be a dick, just lend a hand."
"Why don't you handle it yourself? Oh, that's right, your magic is too strong."
"Fine!" She huffed. "Just leave me alone then."
He chuckled. "And miss such an amusing show? Not a chance."
With a sense of entitlement, he strode over to Snape's desk, nonchalantly taking a seat and propping his feet up, hands behind his head, and a smug grin etched on his face.
"You do realize Snape will have your head if he catches you there, right?"
Ryu shrugged. "I'd rather face Snape's wrath than miss seeing you struggle."
She glared at him, but her lips twitched in amusement. "You're stupid, you know that?"
"And yet, here we are." He replied, lazily twirling his wand between his fingers.
She attempted to ignore him, focusing on her task. But his persistent gaze only fueled her growing irritation.
Gathering the flasks, she made her way to the cleaning station, intending to wash them. As if the situation wasn’t frustrating enough, she realized she couldn't clean the flasks without removing her gloves.
She glanced once more at Ryu, and found him still staring at her. Caught in a dilemma, she bit her lip; she couldn't bear to expose her hands in front of him.
"If you had even a shred of decency, you'd help me," she finally addressed him, her tone laced with frustration. "But I suppose your parents raised a brat instead of a gentleman."
"Never claimed to be a gentleman."
"So you admit you're a brat?"
"What's the matter, Black?" he taunted, rising from the chair. "Don't know how to wash a small flask?"
"No, I just..."
"Just what?" he prodded, stepping closer with arms folded.
She hesitated, weighing her words carefully. Finally, she exhaled deeply. "I can't get my hands wet..."
Ryu's condescending expression softened into curiosity, though he remained silent.
"It's a..." she hesitated, avoiding his gaze, "It's a medical issue."
Understanding flickered in his eyes, and he seemed lost in thought. "Does it cause you pain?"
She nodded, still unable to meet his gaze.
"Is that why you screamed in my face yesterday?"
She turned to him, surprise evident in her expression. "Erm, yeah, the snow... it melted through and soaked my gloves."
Ryu nodded, then deftly removed his robes, placing them on a nearby stool. He approached her, sliding off his dragon ring.
"Hold this." He instructed, handing her the ring.
With sleeves rolled up, he began washing the flasks by hand.
"I meant to use your wand." She remarked, puzzled.
"Just making a point."
"What point?"
"That I'm not the brat you assume me to be."
"It'll take more than cleaning some flasks to prove that." she retorted with a smirk, watching him intently.
To her surprise, he demonstrated a surprising proficiency in washing the flasks. While he focused on his work, she was intrigued by his dragon ring, and began twirling it between her fingers.
Curiosity getting the better of her, she decided to try it on, finding it too large for her bare fingers but easily slipping over her gloved ones. Just as she moved to slide it onto her index, Ryu suddenly noticed her.
"NO!" he shouted, startling and causing her to drop the ring to the floor.
"Bloody hell, Avery!"
Ryu swiftly set down the last flask he held and strode over to her. "Where is it?" he demanded.
"It fell." She replied with a sigh, lowering herself to search for it.
"Are you daft?" he snapped. "Why would you drop it?"
"Why did you shout at me?"
"You're not supposed to wear it, you fool!"
"How was I supposed to know that?"
Ryu closed his eyes in frustration, running a hand through his hair. "Forget it, just bloody find it."
"I'm trying!"
She started searching frantically, but the ring remained elusive, nowhere to be found. Ryu's typically composed demeanor gave way to visible panic, evident in the urgency of his gaze and the uncharacteristic way he dropped to his knees, disregarding the risk of soiling his trousers.
Beside him, Vera mirrored his distress, her own composure slipping as she joined him on the floor, hands and knees, scouring every inch of the hall.
They crouched beneath the stations, and continued their desperate search in silence, illuminated by Ryu's wand. Minutes seemed to stretch into what felt like an eternity. Then, just as hope began to wane, Vera's eyes caught a glimmer beneath one of the shelves.
With a surge of adrenaline, she reached out, her fingers closing around the sparkling object. A rush of relief flooded her as she retrieved the ring, releasing a breath she hadn't realized she'd been holding.
"Found it."
Ryu swiftly rose from the ground and strode over, snatching the ring from her hand with evident annoyance.
"You're welcome." she teased lightly.
"For what?" he retorted, "You were the one who lost it."
"It was an accident, you shithead."
"You're like a bloody child."
"You startled me when you shouted!"
"Because you were being careless with it!"
"I was only trying it on."
"You CAN'T try it on!"
"Why not?"
"Because it's not bloody yours!" he raised his voice, causing her to take a step back.
"You're such an idiot, Avery."
"And you're acting like a baby, Black."
"Take that back!"
"Babbbyyyyyy."
"Fuck off!" she exclaimed, feeling unexpectedly hurt by his taunts.
"Should I get you some milk?" he continued, relentless. "Or sing you a lullaby?"
"Alright, I'm sorry!" she relented, her eyes unexpectedly welling with tears.
She wasn't sure why his teasing suddenly got to her, or why she felt the sudden urge to cry. Ryu noticed the sudden shift in her demeanor.
"Are you actually going to cry?" he continued to tease, relentless in his mockery. "Not just any baby, but a crybaby." he added, punctuating his words with exaggerated crying noises.
"I'm not crying!" she protested, her voice quivering. "There's just something in my eye."
"Is that so?"
He took a slow, deliberate step toward her, closing the space between them. Then, with a surprising gentleness, his hand cupped her cheek, his thumb brushing lightly over her skin as his other hand drew her closer.
Her breath hitched, eyes widening as he leaned in, their faces now mere inches apart.
She could feel the warmth of his breath on her face, sending a shiver down her spine. Then, in a teasing move, he blew softly into her eyes.
She blinked rapidly, her eyes watering more, but her gaze remained locked on his.
"Better?" he murmured, his voice low and husky, his intense stare making her heart race.
She gave a small nod, trying to hide her flustered state, but the heat rising in her cheeks betrayed her.
A knowing smirk curved his lips as his thumb stroked her cheek again. "You're such a terrible liar, Vera," he whispered, the sound of her name on his lips sending a rush of warmth through her.
"Whatever," she muttered, wiping her eyes with the end of her sleeve. She pushed past him and made her way toward the stool where she had left her bag and robes. "We're done here."
She headed towards the lab's door with Ryu quickly trailing behind. When she arrived, she noticed the door was closed but didn't give it much thought. However, as she pulled the handle, she encountered unexpected resistance.
She turned to Ryu. "Did you close it?"
"No?"
"Seriously, Avery, this isn't funny."
“Why do you always blame me for everything?"
"Just open it, I have to go."
Ryu set his bag down and tried to pull the door open, but it stayed firmly shut. He then took out his wand and attempted the "Alohomora" spell, but it was unsuccessful.
"Stop being a dick and open it already!"
"I'm trying!"
"Well try harder!"
"It's not working," he admitted, sighing in defeat. "Snape must have closed it."
"With us still inside?"
"He must have passed by while we were searching for the ring under the tables."
"Oh, bugger," she muttered, panic beginning to set in. "We're stuck here!"
"Calm down."
"How am I supposed to calm down when I'm stuck here," she panicked, "WITH YOU!"
"What's wrong with me?"
"Are you bloody taking the piss right now? Is this amusing to you?"
"I don't wish to be stuck here either, but what can I do about it?"
"GET US OUT!"
"HOW?"
"I DON'T BLOODY KNOW!"
"SO STOP BLOODY SHOUTING AT ME!"
After a moment, the intensity of the argument began to subside, and they both sank onto nearby stools, the weight of their situation settling heavily between them.
"This is all your fault," she muttered, still seething but somewhat calmer.
"You're the one who dropped the ring," Ryu countered, his tone tinged with annoyance.
"But you stole my notebook."
"Merlin's beard," he huffed. "I told you, I did not."
"You did, and you made my fire erupt and dropped my flask on purpose."
"You're so delusional."
"And you're a thief."
"Alright, search me," he challenged, raising an eyebrow. "Here's my bag and robes, go ahead."
She hesitated, her gaze fixed on him as she contemplated her next move.
"What?" he prodded. "If you're so certain, search them."
"I don't want to."
"Why not?"
"Because," she trailed off, unable to find the words to explain.
"Because you're wrong, and I didn't steal your notebook."
"But you did the other things!"
Ryu remained silent, a smirk playing at the corners of his lips.
"HAH!" she exclaimed triumphantly. "So you did!"
"I might have, and I might have not."
"You're a cheat and a wanker," she muttered, feeling a mixture of frustration and begrudging amusement.
"Can't prove anything on me, Black."
"You were trying to sabotage me, because you knew I would win the extra credit."
"You're remarkably delusional."
"And you're a proper cheat."
"And you're a crybaby."
She clenched her jaw tightly, struggling to contain her anger. "And you're a… you’re…"
He chuckled. “Stutter much?”
“Fuck you!” She spat out, swiftly rising from her stool and moving away from him to sit on another one.
Ryu remained amused, unfazed by the tension in the air. Pulling out his notebooks and quill, he settled into his studies while she rested her head on her bag, attempting to find solace in sleep. However, her attempts at rest were futile, her gaze drawn inexorably to him as he diligently scribbled on his parchments, fully engrossed in his work.
"Do you think Snape will come back?" she finally broke the silence.
"He said he's taking the day off,” Ryu replied, not looking up from his studies, “so I don't think so."
"But surely someone would notice we're missing."
"My friends are all by the Quidditch field practicing. Maybe yours would notice."
"I don't think so. I always wander around, and they've gotten used to me."
"So we're stuck until Snape returns."
"But when will he return?"
"Probably after dinner. Cass said he always catches him here after dark."
"Such a teacher's pet."
"Don't," Ryu warned, a note of seriousness in his tone.
"Don't what?"
"Talk badly about Cass."
"It's the truth."
"Well, just don't."
"You all are a bunch of hypocrites. Always condescending and for what?"
"I'm surprised you still know how to pronounce such big words. Thought your stupid friends would have completely corrupted you by now."
"See, that's exactly what I'm talking about."
"Why don't you try and pass the time by completing your assignments?" he suggested, returning his attention to his own parchments. “You’ll spare me a headache from your annoying voice and would actually study for once.”
"I don't want to."
"Why not?"
"Because I'm not in the mood for studying, Avery."
"What are you in the mood for?"
"Punching your perfect face."
Ryu halted his writing, a hint of amusement dancing in his eyes as he swiftly gazed up at her. "Did you just say... perfect?" he repeated, his smirk growing.
Vera's heart raced as she internally panicked, but she forced herself to remain composed. "Yes?" she replied, her voice wavering slightly.
"You think my face is perfect, Vera?"
“Um, no…”
“But you said… perfect face.”
She rolled her eyes. “I didn’t mean it in that way.”
“Still, you said I have a perfect face.”
Taking a deep breath, she braced herself. "Okay, yes, you're bloody perfect, Avery! You're the smartest in our class, you dress like a fucking model, and you're annoyingly handsome! But you know what? Once you open your mouth to speak, it's all gone! POOF, it bloody evaporates, and all that's left is a shithead instead! You're the most insufferable arsehole in this entire school, and sometimes I wish I could just throw you from the astronomy tower!"
Ryu remained silent for a moment, blinking at her with a surprised expression. Then, much to her astonishment, he smirked once more. "You think I'm handsome?"
Vera regarded him with a confused expression, her patience wearing thin. "Unbelievable," she muttered, shaking her head in defeat.
Rising to her feet, she walked toward the door and started banging on it.
"What are you doing?”
"What do you think I'm doing?" she retorted, continuing to bang on the door.
"No one's there to hear you."
"The bloody Baron might be lurking around.”
"He'll just ignore you."
"Well, at least I'm trying something instead of just sitting on my arse!"
"Snape will come back, why are you in such a rush?"
"Because!"
"What?"
"I need to use the loo," she admitted quietly, feeling slightly embarrassed.
He rolled his eyes. "Just hold it in."
"It's not like that..."
"What then?"
"Um," she panicked, searching for an excuse, "nothing."
"Alright, then stop with the banging, I'm trying to focus," he insisted, returning his attention to his studies.
"Fine." Vera sighed, returning to her stool, which was becoming increasingly uncomfortable. She picked up her bag and walked over to the wall behind Ryu, then sat on the floor, using her bag as a makeshift pillow.
Ryu glanced behind. "Why are you on the floor?"
"Because I'm tired."
"You're gonna catch a cold."
"Whatever."
He let out a heavy exhale before grabbing his robes and throwing it at her. "Put this below you."
She glanced up at him, surprised by his gesture, but she accepted the robes and spread them out on the floor. As she rested her head on the bag, she caught the familiar scent of his perfume lingering on the fabric. It was as addicting as ever.
"Thanks," she murmured, "but you could have just used a warming charm."
Ryu didn't reply or even turn to face her. She tried to relax, but suddenly felt a sharp pain in her stomach, unlike anything she'd ever experienced before. Yet, it subsided very quickly.
"Avery..." she called out tentatively.
"Yes?"
"Wanna play a game?"
Chapter 33: Truth or Dare
Chapter Text
Ryu paused for a moment, seemingly lost in thought, before returning to his writing. She thought he was ignoring her and brushed it off, closing her eyes in another attempt to sleep. However, she was interrupted when he suddenly nudged her.
"What sort of game?" he inquired, his voice breaking the silence
Swiftly opening her eyes, she sat up, still resting on his robes. She straightened herself and adjusted the wand tucked into her hair, while Ryu extended the robe beside her and settled down, leaning against the wall with her.
"Any game," she responded, "I'm bored to death.”
"Alright, how about..." he trailed off momentarily. "Truth or dare?”
"Yeah, that's a good one." She agreed, her tone tired. "But I'll start."
"Fine."
"Truth or dare?"
"Truth." He replied without hesitation.
"Hmm," she mused, a mischievous glint in her eyes. "I knew you would say that."
"What do you mean?"
"You're not brave enough for a dare."
"I'm not in the mood for your shenanigans right now."
"Right, right..." she narrowed her eyes, sensing his defensiveness.
"Can we just return to the game?"
"Alright, let me think," she paused, contemplating her question. "Oh, what's the naughtiest thing you've ever done?"
"I can't tell you."
"Because you've done nothing naughty in your life?"
"No, because you're a girl."
"Huh?"
"It's not the sort of thing I can say in front of a girl."
"What a liar you are."
Ignoring her accusation, he continued. "My turn, truth or dare?"
"But you haven't answered my question."
"Of course I did."
"It doesn't count."
"Well, one day I'll tell you, but not now."
"Blimey, you're an idiot." She muttered under her breath.
"Come on, Black, truth or dare?"
"Dare." she replied confidently.
He scoffed. "Of course."
"I've got bigger balls than you."
"You've got zero."
"Cheeky, now shoot."
"Alright, let me think," he paused briefly, then his eyes sparked with an idea as he smirked at her. Rising to his feet, he walked over to one of the stations. When he returned, he sat back down and handed her a pair of scissors.
She looked at it, puzzled. “Um, what’s this for?”
"I dare you to cut a strand of your hair and give it to me."
Her heart skipped a beat as he issued his daring challenge. "Excuse you?" she responded, her tone tinged with disbelief.
"What?" his smirk grew wider. "Thought you’ve got big balls.”
"But my hair..."
"…is too precious for you?" he teased, his tone laced with mockery. "Come on, didn't you say hair grows back?"
Vera swallowed hard, feeling the weight of the challenge. His condescending smile grated on her nerves, but she begrudgingly accepted the scissors.
As she loosened her bun and freed her hair, it spilled down her shoulders in a dark cascade. Ryu observed with a blend of fascination and amusement as she delicately chose a strand of her lustrous black locks, and with trembling hands, brought the scissors closer to it.
A palpable sense of reluctance lingered in the air, and she silently wished he would revoke his challenge, but his steadfast gaze only strengthened her resolve.
Closing her eyes briefly, she took a deep breath before finally cutting the strand. When she opened her eyes, she was met with his signature half-smile.
"Was it hard?" he mocked, folding his lower lip.
She stayed silent, her gaze fixed on the strand of hair in her hand. The more she examined it, a sudden sense of dread washed over her, though she couldn't comprehend why.
Memories flickered in her mind, fleeting and elusive. She tried to grasp them, but they slipped away like smoke, leaving behind only a chill in her bones.
"Now you know how it feels to lose something precious to you." Ryu continued.
She could see his point, but still couldn't quite understand why Cassius shaving his head had been such a big deal. Muggle boys get those haircuts all the time and hardly complain—some even parade it.
Handing him the strand of hair, she watched as he carefully placed it in his pocket.
"Why do you want it?"
"It's a token," he smirked, a glint of triumph in his eyes, "of victory."
"It's a tOkEn," she mocked his deep voice, "Oh, I only wish you would now say 'Dare.'"
He leaned in, shaking his head. "Oh, I would never. Truth."
As she pondered her question, her thoughts kept circling back to the absent strand of hair. Absentmindedly, she gathered her locks and began braiding them, almost instinctively.
"Why didn't you try out for Quidditch?" she asked.
Ryu stayed silent for a moment, his gaze fixed on the intricate movements of her fingers around her locks.
"Avery!" she called out, raising her voice to draw his attention. "Why didn't you try out for Quidditch?"
"Oh, um,” he replied hesitantly, averting his gaze from her hair. “Because there was only one spot available and Davies wanted it."
"So?" she pressed, a hint of confusion in her voice. "What does Roger have to do with it?”
"He wanted the spot."
She furrowed her brow, her hands continuing to work on her hair. "You didn't want to compete against him?"
"No." he huffed. "He really wanted the spot, so why would I try out for a position that he really desires?"
"I didn't know you two were friends."
He shrugged. "We're roommates. It's practically the same."
"So, you gave it up for him?"
"How many questions have you asked me so far? That's not how the game works."
"Alright, go ahead then," she conceded, pausing her braid and leaving it untied, tossing it behind her back.
"Truth or dare?" he asked, a hint of mischief in his voice.
"Truth, Avery."
"Lost your balls?"
"No, I'm just too cold to move for dares. Come on, shoot."
Ryu hesitated for a moment, but she could sense that he had a question prepared in advance.
"When we met during the holiday," he finally said, "you had red marks all over your neck."
Her heart sank as she realized what he was referring to.
"What caused them?" he continued, his gaze fixed on her.
She opened her mouth to speak, but nothing came out. She tried to think of a quick lie, not wanting to reveal the truth about Lydia.
"I... um..." she stammered, feeling trapped.
"Did someone hurt you?" he added swiftly, his tone softening. "Was it... your aunt?"
Her eyes widened at his question, caught off guard by his assumption. Why would he ever think that? She thought.
"It's okay," he reassured her, his eyes filled with genuine concern. "You can tell me if she did."
"No, no," she quickly shook her head, trying to dismiss the notion. "It wasn't her."
"Then who?"
"Um, birds," she lied, her heart racing as she fabricated an explanation.
“Birds…?”
"Yeah, I got attacked by them," she continued, the lie coming more easily now. "But it was not that bad, really."
"Oh." his expression faltered.
"Truth or dare?" She swiftly interjected before he could ask further questions.
"Truth."
"Um, what is your... um... favorite color?"
"What kind of question is that?" he teased, "Black."
"Just answer!"
"I just did. It's black."
She giggled. "Oh, I thought you were calling me."
He smiled. "Yours is violet, right?"
"How did you..."
"Back at the jewelry shop, you said you liked the color. And you always have violet accessories in your hair, or violet sweaters during the weekends. Your bag is also a shade of violet, and so are your gloves."
She remained silent, a mix of emotions swirling inside her as she tried to make sense of the reason behind his keen observations.
"Truth or dare?" he continued.
"Truth," she replied, though she felt a sense of hesitation creeping in.
"What did my mother whisper to you?"
"I don't think I should be telling you."
"Why not?”
"Well, she obviously didn't want you to know, or else she wouldn't have whispered it."
"She probably didn't want anyone around to hear."
"There was no one around, Avery."
"Mum tells me everything."
"So why didn't you ask her?"
"Merlin," he sighed, rolling his eyes. "Just tell me!"
"Alright," she relented, “she just told me to deliver a message to my aunt."
"What was the message?"
"I'm not sure, it wasn't very clear," she pondered for a moment. "She said 'tell her the sisterhood misses her' or something like that."
"Oh."
"Do you know what that means?"
"What did your aunt say?"
"Um, nothing."
"Aha."
"What?!" she demanded, feeling frustrated.
"It's nothing," he shrugged nonchalantly. "They probably knew each other or something."
"Yeah, I figured."
"Is your aunt as smart as people say, by the way?"
"Um..."
"Dad said she was nicknamed 'the wise,'. And that she was one of the smartest people in the wizarding world."
"Wait, really?"
"He said she was supposed to be the Minister of Magic, but then the war started and..."
"Her?” She couldn't even hide her incredulity. “As the... minister?"
"Come on, your turn."
"Um, right, ah, truth or dare?"
"Truth," Ryu replied, his tone somewhat guarded.
"Did your family fight in the war?"
Her question was direct and swift, catching him off guard.
"Um, no," his gaze shifted to the floor. "they left for Japan when the rebel started the bombings."
"I see."
"I was born there, you know,” he continued, a hint of nostalgia in his voice. “In Kyoto."
She noticed a smile form on his lips at the mention of his birthplace. "Is it nice there?" she inquired.
Ryu's smile grew, and it was the first time she saw him smiling with sincerity. "It's only the most beautiful place on earth, nothing like here. Maybe I'm only saying that because it's home, but it truly is marvelous. We only moved back because Dad started working in the Ministry."
"So your father wasn't a..."
"A Death Eater?" Ryu scoffed, finding the idea laughable. "Of course not. He believed in the cause, sure, but he was against the violence."
"Oh." she replied quietly, feeling a knot tighten in her stomach.
"Sorry, I didn't mean for it to sound like—"
"It's alright," she interrupted quickly, trying to maintain her composure. "Your turn."
"Right, um… truth or dare?"
"Dare."
"Dare?"
"Yes, but don't tell me to do anything with my hair!"
Ryu chuckled. "Alright, no hair dares. Let's see, I dare you to…" He trailed off, looking around the room, then smirked at her. "Dance."
"Dance?" she exclaimed in surprise, and his smirk only grew, thinking he had her cornered.
"Oh, gladly," she continued with enthusiasm.
His face faltered. "Wait, really?"
She swiftly rose to her feet. "I bloody love dancing!"
"I thought you were too cold to move."
"Well, dancing will warm me up. But there's no music. would you sing for me, Avery?"
"I would rather be tortured under the Cruciatus curse."
She rolled her eyes. "You're so boring."
"I am."
"One song?"
"I don't know any."
"Boring and ignorant."
"Just dance already!" he snapped.
"Alright, just let me think of a song." She paused, wondering aloud while warming up by jumping up and down. "Um, ohhh, I got it!"
His eyes widened with curiosity. "What is it?"
"Oh, what were the lyrics again?" she pondered. "Oh yeah, that's right!"
Ryu's eyes widened in fervor as she glided across the hall, her voice echoing with passion.
"You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life, ooh, see that girl, watch that scene, digging the dancing queen!"
"You sound dreadful," he chuckled, though he couldn’t take his eyes off of her.
"You are the dancing queen, young and sweet, only seventeen!"
Her movements exuded effortless grace, her shoulders swaying, and her leaps filled with energy. Eventually, she approached him, hand outstretched.
"Dance with me!"
"No!" he protested.
"Come on, Avery. Don't be a bore!"
"If you come any closer, I’ll kill you."
"Boooo," she teased before resuming. Unexpectedly, she mounted a stool, claiming one of the stations as her impromptu stage.
"You're going to topple something, come down!" he urged through laughter.
"Dancing queen! Young and sweet, only seventeeeeeeeeeen!"
"What even is that song?"
"It's ABBA!"
"What's ABBA?”
"You’ve got to be joking," she scoffed before descending.
"You're sweating," he remarked as she settled back beside him.
"It's worth it," she smiled, though a sharp pain stabbed through her abdomen, causing her to wince. "Ouch!"
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing," she dismissed, the pain swiftly fleeting. "Anyway, it's my turn! Truth or dare, Avery?"
"Truth."
"Such a bore."
"Just ask already."
"Fine, but I'm going to make it tough since you keep avoiding dares."
"I can handle it."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, bring it on."
"Okay, who do you think is the most beautiful girl in our class?"
"You consider that a tough question?"
She leaned closer to him. "Then answer it."
His gaze flickered to her braid, now slightly undone from her movements. A fleeting moment of hesitation crossed his face before he reached out, his fingers brushing against her hair with a surprising gentleness. He swallowed nervously, then swiftly but delicately took hold of the braid.
Vera blinked, caught off guard by the unexpected gesture. Her breath stilled as she watched him, her heart skipping a beat when his fingers expertly began weaving the strands together. She couldn’t tear her eyes away from him, mesmerized by the quiet focus on his face. His touch sent a soft warmth through her, and the flutter in her stomach grew stronger.
Their eyes met, and the space between them seemed to shrink even more.
“What?” he said as their gaze lingered. "Are you expecting me to say it's you?"
"Of course not!" she snapped, her hair still within his grasp. "Just tell me the truth."
He finished braiding, though his fingers lingered in her hair, delicately twirling it. "Well, I think it's Eudora."
She grinned. "I knew you'd say that! Do you fancy her?"
He abruptly released her hair, edging back slightly. "What kind of question is that? Of course not, she's my friend." He said with a defensive tone.
"Well, you spend most of your time with her. And you said she's the prettiest.”
"So what? Do you disagree?"
"No, she really is," she admitted bitterly, "but I think you only picked her because she's your friend."
"You're quite smart, aren't you," he mocked. "Truth or dare?"
She smirked. "Truth."
"The same question to you."
She chuckled. "Piece of cake! Malika, obviously."
"Merlin, you're an idiot," he sighed, tilting his head back. "I meant, who do you find the most handsome boy?"
"Oh, you're expecting me to say it's you?"
He raised an eyebrow. "Aside from me."
"You're unbearably cocky."
"It's not cocky to acknowledge the truth."
She cringed. "Boys who think they’re handsome are really not."
“You were the one who said I had a perfect face.”
“For the last time, I didn’t mean it that way!”
"Then answer the question. Who, besides me, is the most handsome boy?"
"Let me think about it," she pondered, her gaze drifting upward. "Well, subjectively speaking, of course."
He leaned in eagerly. "Yes?"
"Hmm," she teased, testing his patience. "I think it's…”
“Yes?”
“Hmmm”
“WHO IS IT!”
“Bletchley.”
He shook his head, surprised. “M-Miles?”
"Yes?"
"Oh," he stumbled, "I thought you'd choose someone else."
"Too bad he’s a prat, though."
"Don't insult my friends."
"Sorry," she amended, "Not a prat, a wanker."
He sighed. "Baka..."
She grinned mischievously. "Truth or dare, Avery boy?"
"Truth." he replied confidently.
"Who do you fancy?"
His eyes suddenly betrayed panic. "Dare!"
"Alright,” she smirked, knowing that she got him at last, “I dare you to answer my question."
"You can't do that. It's against the rules."
"There are no rules."
"Well, I'm not going to answer it."
"So you do fancy someone!"
His face flushed crimson in embarrassment. “What?”
"You could have just said you don't fancy anyone, but you're choosing not to answer."
"Doesn't mean anything."
"So who is it?" she pressed, her grin widening mischievously.
"I said I'm not answering!" he snapped defensively.
"Is she in our class?"
"We'll skip my part."
"Is she younger?"
"No."
"Older?"
"No!"
"So she is in our class!"
"No, she isn't!"
"So she's not at Hogwarts?"
"Uzai," he exhaled loudly, frustration evident in his tone. “I said I'm not answering!”
"So if she's in our class, but not Eudora, who?"
"I dare you to shut up."
"I didn't choose dare though?"
"Well, take a hint."
"Fine," she relented, though determination gleamed in her eyes. "But I will eventually find out who's won picky Avery's heart."
"Keep dreaming." He swallowed nervously. "Now, truth or dare?"
"Truth." she replied, her gaze steady.
"Who do you fancy?"
"I knew you were going to ask that!"
He raised an eyebrow. "And you still chose truth?"
"Because I'm not a pussycat like you."
"Come on then, answer. Although I already have an idea."
"Wait, what?" her expression faltered. "Who do you think I fancy?"
"I'm not telling you."
"Oh, come on!"
"Not until you answer."
"And I'm the one supposed to be annoying?"
"Stop dodging the question, Black."
"Alright," she straightened up, a proud smile on her face. "I fancy someone who's older."
“I knew i—Wait what?"
"And he smokes too," she continued confidently.
His face dropped. "What year?"
"And he's got a tattoo," she added, ignoring his question.
"T-tattoo?"
"Yes, and he's very tall and cheeky, and got the best smell."
"Who the bloody hell is he?" he snapped, his neck turning red.
"I'm not telling you, since you didn't tell me yours. Besides, didn't you say you already knew who I fancy?"
"I...I thought you fancied..." he paused, caught off guard.
"Who?"
"No, forget it."
"Truth or dare?"
"Truth."
She leaned in closer. "Who do you think I fancy?"
"I said forget it!" he insisted, growing increasingly flustered.
She crossed her arms and turned away from him. "I don't want to play anymore."
"Oh, come on!" he pleaded.
"No, it's stupid!" she remained stubborn.
"Alright," he relented, sensing her annoyance. "I thought you were going to say Diggory!"
She swiftly turned back to him, a mysterious expression on her face.
"You fancy him, right?" he prodded.
"Um, no," she scoffed nervously, “of course not.”
"Jane said you spend most of your time at the Hufflepuff common room or the gardens."
"i love it there."
"You get him stuff all the time,"
"I get everyone gifts when I can,"
"I always catch you staring at him,"
"Mere coincidence, Avery!"
"And that fancy birthday party you threw him back in October? Come on, Black. You're obviously into him."
"HE'S JUST A MATE."
"Yeah, right..."
"Besides, I already told you my boyfriend is older."
"B-boyfriend?"
"Well, not yet, but he will be."
He narrowed his eyes. "Why do I feel like you're lying?"
"I'm not!" she insisted, growing agitated.
"You are," he smirked confidently. "You don't fancy someone older, you fancy Diggory!"
"I don't!" she protested adamantly. “And I would never!”
"Why not?"
"Ugh! Curiosity killed the cat, Avery!"
"Well, I'm not a cat. I'm a dragon.”
"Just forget it, ouch!"
"What?"
"Nothing," she winced, holding her stomach until the pain subsided.
Ryu gazed at her with a concerned look.
"Um, it's your turn," she continued, attempting to change the subject.
“So you’re not gonna tell me the truth?”
“I don’t fancy him, Avery...” she replied with a tired tone. “That’s the truth.”
“Hmm, I’m not convinced.”
“Can we move on?”
“Fine,” he relented, "Truth or dare?"
"Truth." She responded, her voice slightly strained.
Ryu paused for a moment, scratching the floor with his nail as he pondered. "Would you have come to Jane's dinner if your aunt allowed you?" he finally asked, his gaze still fixed on the floor.
"Oh, um... I don't..."
"What?"
"I don't know, I mean, Jane and I are not friends anymore."
"She feels upset about what happened between you two, you know."
"She does?"
"Yeah, she always talks about it."
"But..." She felt the pain flare up again, though it swiftly dissipated. “She wasn't friends with me because she liked me, Avery. Do you know how much that hurts?"
"I understand, but she knows she was wrong."
"Jane and I are different, we can't truly be friends. She also never liked my friends, and you know why that is."
"Well, you must understand her."
"Why must I? Does she understand me?"
"No one understands you, Vera."
His remark caught her off guard, and she paused for a moment.
“Well,” she finally said, "that doesn't mean I can be friends with someone who treats other people badly because of the way they were born!"
"You judge her, and us all, but deep down you know we are right."
"But I don't!"
"One day, when they all turn against you, you will see that we were right."
"Why would they turn against me?"
"Because it's in their nature."
"I don't believe people are the way they are because of their nature, Avery. Blood doesn’t define whether you are good or bad.”
"It's not about good and bad. It's about better and less. We are better than them, so why should we act any differently?"
"And why are we better than them exactly?"
"Because we were chosen."
"Chosen?"
"By the universe to carry the magic in our blood. They went against the universe's will, and stole it from us!"
"What if that was just a made-up story?"
"It's not,"
"How would you know for sure?"
"Would a Muggle-born be a dragon like me? Or a crow like you?"
Her heart sank as doubt clouded her mind. "I..." she began to argue, but her words faltered.
"They can't even communicate with nature or give back to it, so how can they benefit from the magic it offers?"
"What...?"
"Our relationship with nature is transactional. It gives us magic and using it, we give back to it. We protect it using the bonds we have with animals. They don't have bonds, so how would they ever return the debt? It's the rules of the universe, Vera, and they broke it."
Vera paused for a moment, her heart pounding in her chest. "I'm not a crow," she suddenly said, a hint of defiance in her voice.
"Your family—"
"Yes, but I'm not a crow."
"Maybe one day you'll be—"
"No, I won't!" she swiftly interrupted. "Crows are all dead! They are gone! Pollux was the last one, and I'm not one of them. I'll never be one of them, Avery. I will neve—OUCH!"
"Are you okay?"
The pain in her belly suddenly came back stronger, causing her to wince. "Yeah, it's... It's nothing," she replied, but she started feeling it in her legs.
"Are you sure?"
"I'm fine, let's just not talk about crows," she deflected, although the pain was starting to grow.
"Okay… Erm, it's your turn."
"Yeah, right. Um, truth or dare?"
"Truth."
Once the pain eased, she returned to the game, with a question that had been on her mind a lot lately. "Would you ever get betrothed to someone your family chooses for you?"
He furrowed his brow, considering her question carefully. "Someone I don't know?"
"Yes?"
"We are noble, Vera. We don’t have to do these betrothal nonsense. We have the liberty and power to choose who to marry and when."
"But what if you had to one day?"
"Of course not!"
"But what if your parents forced you to do it?"
"They would never do that."
"I said, what if!"
"Well, if they did, I would simply not do it. I would rather die than marry someone I don't love."
"Wait, really?"
"Yes, I mean, would you not?"
She gazed into his curious eyes, her mind swirling with thoughts. "I don't think I would mind," she finally said, her tone hesitant yet resolute.
Ryu was taken aback by her answer, his eyes reflecting his surprise. "You would marry someone you don't love!" he exclaimed incredulously.
"If he was nice and made me happy, then yeah, why not?"
He shook his head in disbelief. "Nice? You would settle for nice?"
"Yes, but he's got to be good-looking, or else no."
He raised an eyebrow. "Shallow much?"
"I'm not shallow!"
"Oh, so a well-bred and nice boy would be enough for you to marry?"
"Well-bred? What is he, a horse?"
"You are shallow..."
"Shut up! As if you wouldn't do the same if she was a pretty girl!"
"No, I wouldn't. I'll have you know, looks are the least of my concern, and I would never marry someone I don't absolutely love, and who loves me back."
"Well, good luck finding someone who would."
"Oh, I can pick them up by the pile."
"Are you sure you're a dragon? You sound more like a peacock to me."
"Peacocks are marvelous creatures, so I would take that."
"Ugh!" she winced suddenly from pain.
"What's wrong?"
"Noth—"
"Something must be," he interrupted, "You've been doing that for the past hour."
"I don't know," she admitted, looking down at her stomach. "It's just a tummy ache."
"Perhaps you're just hungry."
"Hungry? I'm absolutely starving!"
"Me too. Maybe there's something to eat around here."
"I doubt Snape would leave food lying around. Have you ever seen him eat?"
"No, I bet he lives off solar energy."
She chuckled, and Ryu wore a proud smile.
"I think I have an apple from breakfast," she suddenly remembered.
"Where is it?"
"In my bag," she said, starting to rise to retrieve it from the stool.
"Stay," he urged, motioning for her to sit back down. "I'll get it."
He walked over to the stool, grabbed her bag, and began searching it. However, instead of an apple, he pulled out a small violet pouch and started to open it.
Vera's eyes widened in horror. "Wait, NO!"
Chapter 34: Truce
Notes:
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Chapter Text
"DON’T!" Vera shouted, but it was too late. Ryu had already opened the pouch, his eyes widening in shock.
His face flushed crimson as he continued to stare at the contents. "I'm sorry... I didn't..."
"Blimey, Avery!"
She swiftly snatched the pouch and bag from his hands, her own cheeks tinged with embarrassment.
Ryu swallowed nervously, rubbing the back of his head while Vera tried to steady her nerves and accelerating heartbeat. She pulled out the apple from her bag and settled back down on the floor, biting into it.
Ryu sat beside her, gazing at her with a mixture of guilt and curiosity.
"What," he suddenly said, "you're not going to share it with me?"
"No," she retorted, taking another bite and holding the apple firmly. "It's mine."
"But I'm starving," his voice softened.
"You should have brought your own food then."
"Don't be mean, Black."
"I'm being practical, Avery."
"Just a bite?" he pleaded.
"Beg for it."
"Merlin’s beard, you're ruthless."
"Oh, it's so sweet and juicy," she moaned playfully, taking another bite. "So yummy."
Ryu couldn’t take her teasing any longer and swiftly leaned in, taking a bite from the apple while it was still in her hands.
"Are you bloody joking?" she exclaimed, shocked by his audacity.
"What?" He said innocently, chewing on the stolen bite.
"You could have bitten the other side at least, not the one I’m eating from."
Ryu smirked, simply shrugging in response.
"Whatever," she rolled her eyes and took another bite from the same spot he had just eaten from.
"Wait, you're not disgusted by me?" he asked with a grin.
"Nope,” she replied, holding out the apple for him to take a bite. “It takes a lot to disgust me."
He accepted her offer, and took another bite while it was still in her hand. "So you've decided to be nice?"
"They say feeding a hungry dog is a good deed."
"Hmm..." he muttered, rolling his eyes before lying back on the floor, without anything underneath him.
"Are you not cold?" she asked.
"Nope."
"You're only wearing a shirt and it’s bloody freezing."
"I don't get cold."
"Yeah, I can feel it."
"Feel it?"
"It's like you always have a fever or something."
He smirked, and she brought the apple to his mouth while he was still lying down. He took a bite, and she followed with one for herself.
"What's your favorite food?" she suddenly asked him.
"A soup my grandmother makes," he replied with a nostalgic smile, placing his hands behind his head.
"What's in it?"
"Fish and some herbs... I don't really know."
"It's your favorite and you don't know what's in it?"
"I don't care as long as it's good. What's yours?"
"Fish and chips."
"Another commoner's food."
"Would you stop using that word? Besides, it's good; you should try it."
"I did try it, and it was disgusting. Far too greasy."
"Not greasier than your hair."
"It makes me nauseous," he continued.
"I don't like to judge food; it all tastes good to me."
He raised an eyebrow. "Except for milk."
Her face dropped in surprise. "Wait what? How do you know that?"
"I sometimes see you nudging the bottle of milk at breakfast."
She narrowed her eyes. "Hmmm... Do you always watch me, Avery?"
He scoffed. "I watch everyone."
"But every time I look at you, I find you staring at me."
"It's just a coincidence. Besides, why are you looking at me?"
"Coincidence too."
"See? I just like to watch everyone, that's all."
"Why?"
"You can learn a lot about a person from the way they eat."
"What do you learn about me? Besides the milk thing?"
"You eat a lot."
"So?"
"You eat fast,"
"I get hungry fast."
"You eat like the food is running away."
"Doesn't mean anything."
"And you always make a mess,"
"That means I'm enjoying the meal."
"Like a pig."
"Fuck you!"
"So when Diggory calls you Pig, it's okay?"
"He calls me Piggy, not pig!"
"What's the difference?"
"A big difference."
"Because he's Diggory and I’m me?"
“What? No!”
His eyes darkened with frustration. "It's always Diggory, isn't it?”
“What do you mean?”
"You say you two are just friends, yet you let him call you names and laugh it off. But when I do it, you get angry."
"We are friends! It’s only because I call him a name as well."
"So if you call me a name, I can call you a pig?"
"No!"
"Come on, you can call me whatever you want."
"Alright, if you insist." She smirked. "Dick."
"No vulgarity!"
"You were pretty vulgar when you called me a bitch!"
"Well, you were acting like one."
"I can't believe you would ever say such a word. Where did you even pick it up?"
He smirked. "Why? Because you think I'm perfect?"
"You're so full of yourself, Avery."
"But you think I'm perfect?"
"Not in that way!"
"What way then?"
"In a posh way, like you would never do anything beneath you."
"But perfect nevertheless?" he persisted, his smirk widening.
Fed up with his arrogance, she started digging into the apple, determined to eat it all herself.
"Okay, stop!" he snapped playfully, suddenly getting closer and gently grabbing her hands to halt her from finishing it.
Their faces were inches apart as he stared into her eyes, a mischievous glint in his. Without breaking eye contact, he took a slow, deliberate bite while she was still holding it.
"I'll behave." he promised, a cheeky smile playing on his lips.
She couldn't help but smile back, her frustration melting away. "You better."
"Why does Diggory call you Piggy, anyway?"
"He reckons my laugh sounds like a pig."
"Does it?"
"Maybe a little."
"Let me hear it, and I'll judge."
"I can't just laugh. Something has to make me laugh."
"Okay, I'll tell you a joke then."
She chuckled, "you lot joke?"
"Not funny," he replied with a mock scowl. "Alright, here it goes."
He cleared his throat, pretending to think. However, instead of sharing a joke, he seized the moment, his movements swift and filled with intent, and with a sudden burst of energy, closed the distance between them as his fingers found their mark on her belly.
"Not this way! Stop!" she protested, her laughter ringing out like a symphony of joy, her eyes closed as she squirmed under his touch.
As she wriggled and giggled, trying to evade his playful tickling assault, he couldn't help but be captivated by the music of her laughter.
Their playful struggle continued, the room echoing with her infectious laughter and his own chuckles.
Despite her protests, there was a spark in her eyes that betrayed her enjoyment of the moment. Finally relenting, he released her from his grasp, both of them gasping for breath between fits of laughter.
"You bloody idiot!" she exclaimed, still panting.
"You do sound like a pig being tortured," he teased, "it's horrible."
"Oh, you have a death wish, Avery!"
"Wait, no!" Ryu tried to protect his belly, but it was too late.
She tackled him to the ground, tickling him mercilessly. His laughter mingled with hers, filling the room with their playful banter.
"Stop it, no!" he laughed, squirming beneath her.
"An eye for an eye!"
He laughed uncontrollably, barely able to breathe, while Vera continued her assault. He tried to stop her, holding her hands, but she always managed to break free.
"Please," he pleaded, his eyes welling with tears, "please, Vera, stop!"
"Beg."
"I beg you," he laughed again, "just stop."
She finally let go, grinning with amusement, and leaned against the wall while Ryu laid on the ground, catching his breath.
"I wish you could see your face," she giggled, "it's so red."
"I'm gonna bloody kill you," he responded, still catching his breath.
She giggled again. "You started it."
He took a deep breath, then got up and approached her. She swiftly protected her belly, anticipating another attack.
"Don't you dare," she warned.
"I won't," he laughed, "I've learned my lesson."
Before they knew it, they were both laughing again.
“Imagine if Snape walked in on us during that."
“Imagine if he joined in."
She fell to the floor. “I don’t need that kind of image in my head."
Ryu leaned back against the wall next to her, trying to catch his breath amidst the lingering echoes of their laughter. “No one has ever made me laugh like this,” he remarked, his grin wide and infectious. “I wouldn’t mind getting stuck with you again.”
Vera glanced at him, her own smile widening at the sight of his flushed cheeks and tousled hair. The sheen of sweat on his face only added to his charm, and there was a certain rawness to his appearance that made her stomach flutter.
“I bloody would."
“But next time,” he continued, “let’s make sure we bring food.”
“Agreed."
“Anything left of the apple?”
“Nope. Just the stem and seeds.”
“I’m so hungry, I don’t think I’d mind eating them.”
“It’s not that bad. You’re just weak, Avery.”
“Are you kidding? It’s been hours! I don’t think I’ve ever been without food for this long.”
She swiftly turned to him, her brows furrowed in surprise. “Really?”
“Yeah.”
She swallowed and turned her gaze to the finished apple, feeling as if she had been slapped. Painful memories suddenly flooded back, and she clenched her jaw against the onslaught.
"Your hair is a mess," Ryu remarked with a playful smirk, his eyes dancing with mischief as he interrupted her somber reverie.
"I wonder whose fault that could be."
"Let me fix it for you," he offered, leaning in with a confidence that sent a shiver down her spine.
He began to undo the braid, each movement of his fingers sending a jolt of electricity through her veins. She closed her eyes, allowing herself to drown in his intoxicating scent, feeling the warmth of his body against her skin.
With her eyes shut tight, she felt rather than saw him pause. She opened her eyes, and found his gaze piercing through her defenses and locking onto her soul.
A moment of tension hung between them, as they continued to gaze into each other’s eyes without saying a word. Her pulse quickened as his gaze lowered, lingering on her lips with a hunger that left her breathless.
What was he doing? She thought.
Just as she felt her resolve waver, her heart pounding in her chest, he surprised her by lifting his gaze back to meet hers, a mischievous twinkle in his eyes.
And then, with a sudden burst of playful energy, he began tousling her hair, the tension dissipating into laughter and shared exhilaration.
"Avery!"
He burst into laughter, his hands still working through her hair.
She pushed him away. "You bloody git! You said you'd fix it."
He giggled. "It's a hopeless case."
"Look who's talking," she smirked, launching herself at him and messing up his hair.
He didn't react, allowing her to do as she pleased.
She stepped back, looking up at him with a proud, victorious smirk. However, it quickly faded when she realized his hair was still... well, perfect.
She rolled her eyes. "Blimey."
"What?"
She sat back down with a defeated look. "Nothing."
"Jealous?"
"No," she narrowed her eyes, reaching for her bag. "My hair is better."
"You look like Professor Trelawney."
“Bite me,” she quipped, reaching into her bag and retrieving her magical hairbrush.
Running it through her hair, Ryu watched in awe as her locks transformed back into their beautiful, defined state.
“So that’s your secret?”
“It just removes the humidity."
“Can I try it?”
“What for? Your hair is already…”e
He smirked. "Perfect?”
“Would you ever let me live that down?”
“Never.”
She teasingly slapped his arm with the brush, then continued fixing her hair, all while he watched her with a dreamy gaze.
She caught him staring. “Stop judging me.”
“Who said I’m judging?”
“You always do. It's like your job to criticize everything and everyone.”
“Is that really how you see me?”
“Should I remind you of what you've said to me?”
“You keep a mental record of everything I say to you, Black?”
“I simply don't forget what people tell me.”
“Wait, really?”
“Don’t you?”
He furrowed his brows. “Of course not. That's literally impossible.”
She giggled. “No, it's not. It's normal.”
“You think it's normal to recall every conversation you’ve ever had?”
“Um, yes? Everyone does that.”
He shook his head in disbelief. “Merlin... Let me guess, you remember every face you've ever seen too?”
“Ugh!” she suddenly winced in pain.
“What?”
“The tummy ache…” she breathed out.
“Is it back?”
“Bloody hell,” she squinted, feeling the pain intensifying to a point where it's no longer bearable.
Gripping her lower abdomen, she tried to focus, but the pain surpassed anything she’d ever experienced. It was even more agonizing than the headaches she endured from her blood poisoning. It felt like being repeatedly stabbed with a flaming dagger, and she quickly recalled Kaya's description of period cramps, likening them to a cactus growing inside of her.
“Yeah, it hurts a lot,” she managed to say, though her voice quivered with pain. “Ryu…” she pleaded, “I can’t breathe,” her voice broke, and Ryu's eyes filled with concern.
“Maybe you caught a cold from the floor?”
She winced again. “No, it's not that…”
“What is it then?”
She was too embarrassed to explain. “Forget it. It will go away.”
However, the pain intensified, and she found herself unable to endure it any longer. Collapsing onto the ground, she curled into the fetal position, her hands pressed tightly against her aching abdomen. Tears streamed down her cheeks and she soon began to uncontrollably sob.
“Vera…” Ryu's voice quivered with desperation.
“I can't bear it anymore,” she choked out between sobs.
“Is there anything I can do?” he gently asked, but she shook her head weakly.
“Where does it hurt the most?”
“My tummy,” she managed to say through labored breaths, “and my legs.”
Ryu's eyes darted around the room, a hint of concern clouding his usual calm demeanor. Without hesitation, he rushed to his bag and retrieved his Ravenclaw scarf, wrapping it around her shoulders with gentle precision.
"You must be cold," he murmured, his voice a soothing melody in the midst of chaos.
Then, he briskly moved towards the workstations and began lighting the stoves to warm up the room. He rolled up his sleeves and started rummaging through the ingredients shelf.
“What are you doing?” Vera's voice broke through her pain as she opened her eyes to see him pulling jars from the shelf.
“Making you a tea."
“Tea?”
"It's a Japanese recipe," he explained, his confidence unwavering as he prepared the ingredients with practiced precision. "Mum makes it for me whenever I’m sick. It will make you feel better, I promise."
“You're making me tea in a flask?”
He looked at the flask in his hand. “It's clean.”
She rested her head on her bag, trying to calm herself as she watched him work. There was something about the way he moved that momentarily made her forget the pain.
As he poured water into the flask and set it to heat, she couldn't help but admire him—the way his hair fell in soft waves over his eyes, the subtle strength in his hands as he measured ingredients, and the gentle flush that adorned his cheeks.
“Perfect." She thought to herself before closing her eyes and attempting to rest.
Ryu approached her with the flask in his bare hands, and she sat up. “Here. But it's a bit hot, so be careful.”
She held it from the top and brought it to her nose. “It smells nice.”
“I put chamomile in it,” he remarked, sitting next to her.
She took a sip and cringed at the taste. “It's so bitter, though.”
“Try not to focus on it. It will ease the pain.”
Deciding to trust him, she began sipping it.
“Do you always cry this quickly?” he teased.
“Shut up, it really hurts.”
“You're so sensitive,”
“I'm not…”
He leaned in teasingly, “a sensitive crybaby.”
“As if you never cry?”
He scoffed. “Of course I don't. Boys don't cry.”
“Liar, you probably cried when you got third in potions.”
“I didn't! And I already knew I was gonna be third.”
“How so?”
“Just drink your tea, Vera.”
She took another sip, feeling the pain truly diminishing. Still feeling cold, she decided to move closer to him.
They both leaned against the wall, and as her shoulder brushed his, he looked down at her with a smirk.
“Don't flatter yourself, Avery. It's because you're warm.”
“I don’t mind,” he said in a soft tone. “How’s your tummy now?”
“Better,” she replied, then turned to him with a soft gaze. “Thank you, Ryu.”
He locked eyes with her, his lips quivering as if he wanted to say something, but he remained silent and turned away. They sat in comfortable silence for a few moments, the room gradually growing warmer with the stoves ablaze.
“Can I ask you something?” she suddenly said.
“Yes?”
“Why did you assume that my aunt hurt me?”
He shook his head. "Huh?"
“When we were playing truth or dare,” she continued, “You asked me about the marks on my neck.”
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to assume anything.”
“But why did you?”
He took a deep breath. “I just know some kids who get hurt by their family, and I assumed you were one of them, but I was wrong to.”
She furrowed her brows in shock. “Wait, their own family hurt them?”
“Um, yeah.”
“Why?”
“I don’t really know. To get them to behave, I suppose.”
“That’s terrible. I will never hurt my babies, or yell at them.”
“Me neither.”
“Or abandon them…”
Ryu's gaze lingered on her for a moment longer, his concern etched into the lines of his face, before he turned away.
As she continued to sip her tea, a heavy weariness settled over her as its comforting warmth spread through her veins. Unable to fight the gentle pull of exhaustion any longer, she let her head rest against his sturdy shoulder.
With a gentle tug, she pulled his arm closer, craving the warmth of his touch in the cool stillness of the room. To her relief, he didn't resist her silent invitation, and a faint smile graced his lips as she nestled against him.
“Avery?”
"Hmm?"
"How does your dad look like?"
"He's tall," Ryu began, a hint of affection coloring his words. "And he's got a beard."
"Is it long?"
He chuckled softly. "Yeah, but not as long as Professor Dumbledore's. I hate it though."
"Why's that?"
"Because whenever he leans in to kiss my forehead, it tickles my face."
She couldn't help but smile at the image, though it was accompanied by a twinge of longing that she quickly pushed aside.
"Do you look like him?" she then asked.
"Yeah, but I'm more like my mum,"
There was a moment of silence as she absorbed his words.
"I wish I looked like my mom," she admitted quietly, her words heavy with unspoken pain.
"How does she look?"
"I don't know… That's why I wish I looked like her, so I could know."
A pang of sympathy tugged at Ryu’s heart as he considered her words. "Don't you have photographs of her?" he asked.
She shook her head slightly, her expression crestfallen. "I look like my dad..." she whispered, her voice barely audible. “That's what I'm told. So I see him every time I look in the mirror.”
Ryu continued to watch her, his heart aching for the pain she carried.
“Tell me about Kyoto,” she whispered to him with a sleepy voice.
“What do you want to know?”
“Everything…”
“Well, it's warm and nice. It doesn't rain much. Dragons always fly around, but they're all still young.”
“Can you ride one?”
“I tried this summer, but it was horrible. I almost fell three times. It's nothing like a broom at all. I have to feel the dragon so I can control it, and it's hard.”
“What else?”
“Well,” he began, a faint smile gracing his lips, “it's green everywhere, and most plants are edible. My aunts take me on a stroll, and we spend the whole time eating different stuff. Although one time I accidentally ate a fruit that was psychedelic.”
“What's that?”
“It makes you see things.”
“Scary things?”
“No, they were pretty nice. Although I did see my grandmother in a skirt, which was bloody awful.”
Vera giggled, and he smiled proudly himself once more.
“The food there is so much better,” he continued, “and we don't have many rules when it comes to eating; we just enjoy things. The best part about it all, though, is the trip there. Since it's far and we can't apparate safely, we take a sky boat.”
“What’s that?”
“You've never been on one?”
“No…”
“Well, it's a boat but in the sky instead of the sea. It's really fast, but we don't really feel it.”
“Are there sky pirates?”
“Yeah, but we've never met any.”
“Now I want to be a sky pirate...”
“What a noble career aspiration that is."
“What do you want to be?”
“I'm probably gonna be like my dad.”
“But what do you want?”
“I don't really know yet,” he trailed off. “What about you? Still want to be an artist?”
“Yeah…” she sighed, “and I want to open a tea shop too.”
“You're joking, right?”
“No, I like baking.”
“But, that's a…”
“If you say commoner job, I'll kill you.”
“No, I mean,” he shook his head, “you're too smart for it.”
She laughed at herself.
“You are,” he insisted, “you're the best at potions, which is the hardest subject.”
“I don't want to make potions as a job. I like pretty things, you know? And potions aren't pretty, just look at Snape.”
“Shallow…” he teasingly whispered, and she nudged him playfully.
She made herself comfortable on his shoulder, “Tell me more about Kyoto. Please.”e
He smiled. "Okay..."
He continued to tell her about his summers back in his magical village, his family’s traditions, and all the creatures he had encountered. She listened attentively, but found herself drifting to sleep with each passing minute.
“Vera?” he called out softly, “Are you asleep?”
Gazing down at her slumbering form, he couldn't help but feel a soft warmth in his chest. He watched her for a moment, finding himself entranced by the gentle rise and fall of her breathing. Eventually, he gently rested his head on hers, finding solace in the quiet intimacy of the moment as sleep overtook him.
Sometime later, Vera stirred from her sleep, her eyes fluttering open to the dimly lit hall. She found herself resting on her bag, with Ryu’s scarf over her. Her gaze then fell upon him, standing by one of the stations, his wand casting a soft glow. As she sat up, her movements slow and groggy, she noticed him cleaning the flask she had used earlier.
“Is it night already?” she murmured, her voice thick with drowsiness.
“Yes, well past dinner,” Ryu replied softly, his attention focused on the task at hand. “Snape might arrive at any moment.”
“Oh, shite,” she muttered, stretching her limbs. “He’ll have our heads if he finds us still here.”
“I had the same thought,” he said, moving closer to her. “I've cleaned up so there won't be any evidence of our presence. We’ll hide at the back until he comes back and we’ll slip out once he opens the door.”
Gathering their bags, they positioned themselves by the door, enveloped in the stillness and darkness of the room. As their nerves pulsed with anticipation, Ryu's hand found the end of Vera's sleeve, a silent gesture of reassurance.
She glanced down at his touch, finding comfort in the subtle connection. Moments later, just as their patience began to wane, the door creaked open, and Snape walked into the room.
Vera and Ryu held their breath, frozen in place, willing themselves to remain undetected. They waited until Snape had moved towards the stations before attempting to slip out unnoticed. However, their stealth was compromised when he abruptly halted, as if sensing something amiss.
Ryu tugged Vera's sleeve down in a futile attempt to conceal their presence, causing her to reflexively grab his arm in surprise.
With Snape's attention momentarily diverted, they lowered themselves and crouched by the door, out of his sight. Peering cautiously around the corner, Ryu spotted Snape heading towards his desk, prompting him to signal to Vera.
Together, they crawled on hands and knees out of the lab, their laughter bubbling over as they reached the end of the corridor, finally free.
“I can’t believe he didn’t notice us!"
“I thought my heart was going to stop,” Ryu admitted between fits of laughter.
“Me too,” she added, her eyes teary.
“Vera,” he managed to say through his uncontrollable giggles.
“What?” She responded, trying to catch her breath.
He burst into another fit of laughter, “Why are we still crawling?”
“I don’t bloody know!"
Their laughter echoed through the corridor as they stumbled upright, still playfully hitting each other and occasionally bumping into the walls.
Eventually, they found a wooden bench in the North hall where they collapsed, gasping for breath. Ryu laid on his back, staring up at the ceiling with a contented smile, while Vera sat beside him, her hand pressed against her belly to ease the ache from laughing too hard.
“And his face,” he recalled, a grin spreading across his face.
“He probably smelled the chamomile,” Vera replied, a fresh wave of laughter bubbling up inside her.
“Ahhhh, priceless,” Ryu sighed, his laughter finally subsiding.
They paused for a moment to catch their breath, though their smiles lingered. Ryu tilted his head backward, looking up at her.
“Vera?” he called out.
“Yeah?” she responded, meeting his gaze.
“I’m starving,” he whispered, his stomach audibly growling.
She grinned down at him, a mischievous twinkle in her eye. “Race you to the kitchens?”
“You're on."
With that, they both sprang into action, their laughter echoing through the empty corridors as they sprinted towards their destination. Ryu quickly surged ahead, his long strides carrying him effortlessly down the hall, while Vera trailed behind, determined to close the gap.
Finally reaching the kitchens, they came to a halt, panting and gasping for breath.
She sighed. “Blimey, Avery."
“You lost,” Ryu declared between breaths.
“You’re like a bloody broom,” she leaned against the wall for support.
Ryu smirked mischievously as he gently led her by the wrist toward the painting that concealed the entrance to the kitchens. Upon entering, he was surprised by the warm reception she received from the house elves, who seemed to know her well and eagerly attended to her every need.
“I spend a lot of time down here,” she explained.
“Eating?” he teased.
“Cooking!” she retorted with a slap on his arm.
“Anything but studying, huh?”
She giggled. “Shut up!”
Settling down on the floor amidst a flurry of plates being passed their way by the attentive house elves, Vera couldn't help but feel a sense of admiration for Ryu. Despite his arrogant exterior, his undeniable warmth and kindness shone through.
“Thank you,” he bowed politely to one of the house elves, who responded with a beaming smile and a nod.
Vera looked at him with a soft expression, a glimmer of admiration shining in her eyes.
Before they knew it, they were indulging in the feast laid out before them, devouring the food with gusto as if they had been stranded on a deserted island for months.
Ryu, in particular, surprised her with his messy eating, a stark contrast to his usual composed demeanor. As he clumsily stuffed food into his mouth, bits and pieces spilling onto his pristine white shirt, she couldn't help but watch him with amusement.
“What?” he mumbled with a mouthful of food, noticing her amused gaze.
“Pig…” she teased.
With a mischievous twinkle in his eye, he retaliated by grabbing a spoonful of peas and flinging them in her direction.
Her eyes widened in disbelief at his audacity, but she quickly shot back by launching a meatball right back at him, landing squarely on his shirt and leaving a noticeable stain.
He glanced down at the stain on his shirt, then back up at her, a playful glint in his eyes. Without missing a beat, he scooped up a handful of mashed potatoes and hurled it at her, hitting her square on the nose.
Vera squinted as the mashed potatoes struck her, but when she opened her eyes, she found Ryu doubled over with laughter, unable to contain himself.
“Not funny, Avery!” she hissed, “Remove it, NOW!”
Still chuckling, Ryu sat back up and reached over to wipe the mashed potatoes from her face. His fingers brushed her skin gently, sending a surprising shiver down her spine.
Despite her protests, she still had a noticeable stain, prompting him to lean in closer and use his tie to dab at the spot.
“You sure know how to make a mess of me,” he teased, his grin widening as he looked down at her.
She looked up at him. “You started it."
“Maybe,” he murmured, his face inches from hers, “but I have no regrets.”
For a moment, they both stilled, the air between them crackling with an electric tension. Ryu's eyes kept moving from her eyes to her lips, and Vera felt a strange flutter in her chest.
It was an unfamiliar sensation, and it threw her off balance. Trying to shake off the feeling, she swiftly grabbed a piece of bread and stuffed it into his mouth.
“Food is meant to be eaten, Avery,” she playfully glared at him, “There are people who are starving and we shouldn’t be wasting it.”
Ryu's eyes widened in surprise, his cheeks puffing out comically as he bit down on the bread. He chewed quickly, a playful glint returning to his eyes as he swallowed. “Point taken,” he mumbled, his voice muffled but amused.
After finishing their meal, he took the initiative to collect the plates and carry them to the cleaning area. Vera watched him with a warm smile, appreciating the unexpected chivalry. When he returned, he had a few treats in hand.
“Ready for dessert, Vera?”
“Absolutely!"
As they exited the kitchens and strolled down the dimly lit corridors, Ryu made sure to share each treat he had with her, breaking pieces off and offering them to her with a charming grin.
"I think this one’s got figs," he said, digging into a tart before extending his hand to Vera's mouth.
However, in her eagerness to accept it, her lips brushed against his fingers, her tongue inadvertently grazing his skin.
Ryu's eyes widened momentarily in surprise, but he smoothly retracted his hand, masking any hint of reaction.
Meanwhile, she felt a rush of embarrassment wash over her, inwardly cussing herself for the clumsy mishap. Ryu hesitated for a moment, his gaze flickering with uncertainty.
“Um, Vera?” he then said tentatively.
“Yes?” she replied, curiosity piqued by his sudden seriousness.
“I have to tell you something…” he trailed off, his expression tinged with a hint of guilt.
Vera's heart skipped a beat, a mix of apprehension and anticipation swirling inside her. She searched his face, trying to decipher the emotions playing across his features.
"What is it?" she asked softly, her voice laced with concern.
He took a deep breath, his eyes meeting hers with a vulnerability she hadn't seen before. "I... I haven't been entirely honest with you."
Her brow furrowed in confusion. "What do you mean?"
Ryu ran a hand through his hair, a nervous gesture that only heightened her worry. Without another word, he reached into his bag and pulled something out.
As her eyes landed on the object, her initial shock turned into a mixture of surprise and slight anger.
“You wanker…” she hissed, her disappointment evident.
Ryu extended her potions notebook, a sheepish expression on his face. "I'm sorry."
“So you did take it!”
“I did,” he admitted, “and I'm really sorry, Vera.”
“But why?”
“It's…” he hesitated, searching for the right words, “it's complicated.”
“You wanted to get the extra credit."
“No, it's not like that!”
“Then why?”
Ryu paused, unsure how to articulate his true motives. “I'm sorry, Vera,” he finally said, his voice tinged with sincerity, “I really am.”
“I get it,” she sighed, relenting slightly.
“Get what?” he looked at her.
“You were trying to get back at me for making fun of Warrington, right?”
Ryu hesitated before nodding reluctantly. “Um, ah, yeah… that's it."
She sighed. “I've learned my lesson, okay? I won't make fun of him again.”
He remained silent, unsure of what to say in response.
“But,” she broke the awkward silence, “If you had the notebook in your bag the whole time, why did you tell me to search it?”
“Why didn’t you search it?” he asked back.
She gazed at the floor. “I don't know... I sorta trusted you.”
“And I trusted that you won’t search me."
They stood there for a moment, the air between them heavy with unspoken emotions. Vera finally looked up, her eyes meeting his with a mix of frustration and something softer.
Reflecting on the day's events, she came to a profound realization. Despite his previous behavior, Ryu possessed qualities she hadn't fully acknowledged.
She recognized that her judgment of him had been hasty and incomplete. While acknowledging his past hurtful remarks and his faulty views, she also confronted her own actions towards Cassius, understanding now the weight of her words.
This humbling insight sparked a resolve within her to approach interactions with greater mindfulness, pledging to be more considerate in her words and actions moving forward.
"Truce, Avery?" she offered.
A small smile tugged at the corners of his lips, “Truce.”
With a shared understanding, they exchanged a nod before going their separate ways. Once Vera reached her dormitory, Angelina greeted her with a curious expression. "Where the hell have you been?" she asked.
"Oh, um… in the library."
But Angelina's sharp eyes caught sight of something that didn't quite fit. "And why are you wearing a Ravenclaw scarf?"
Vera's heart skipped a beat as she scrambled for a plausible explanation. "Oh, um," she stammered, searching for an excuse, "I... uh, borrowed it from a friend. You know, to keep warm."
Angelina raised an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced by her flimsy explanation. "Hmm, okay..."
Vera breathed a sigh of relief, grateful that Angelina didn't press further. She reached into her suitcase and pulled out Vinny, her beloved stuffed cat. Holding it close, she felt a pang of guilt as she looked into its button eyes.
"I'm sorry, Vinny," she whispered, her voice tinged with regret.
As she hugged him tightly, she found solace in its comforting presence, a reminder of simpler times when the weight of the world didn't seem so heavy. “Growing up is a bitch.”
Notes:
The last three chapters were sooooo much fun to write. If you like more of these kind of chapters let me know!
Chapter 35: Betrayal (Part 1)
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Saturday, January 12, 1991
Gryffindor’s Quidditch team was seeing snitches in their sleep as they braced for their upcoming match. Under Oliver's iron-fisted training regimen, every minute was booked solid with drills and strategy sessions.
Alicia and Angelina were so drained that they had taken to muting Vera's incessant chatter with a silencing charm just to catch some sleep. Vera hardly glimpsed them or the twins amidst the chaos. They were practically living on brooms, with barely a moment to spare for a decent meal—a plight she couldn't help but notice.
One cold morning, realizing they'd skipped breakfast yet again, she took matters into her own hands. Armed with a bag of sandwiches, she trekked to the Quidditch pitch, where she could hear Oliver's booming commands echoing from within the preparation tent.
Upon entering, she found George half-napping on Fred's shoulder, and Felix laying at the back. Spotting her by the tent’s entrance, the grumpy seeker jolted to attention and straightened up, attempting to tame his unruly hair. The captain on the other hand was furiously scribbling on the board.
"Blimey Olly,” she exclaimed upon witnessing the crime scene.
Oliver, still glued to the board, grunted. "What do you want, Black?"
“Even prisoners get a breakfast break, you know."
"Prisoners don't have matches to win." Oliver shot back, still not bothering to look up.
“Well, you won't win them on an empty stomach.” she retorted, waving the bag of sandwiches.
The team lunged at the food like starving wolves. Fred nearly catapulted himself across the tent in his eagerness, sending George tumbling off his makeshift pillow. Angelina thanked her between ravenous bites before dragging Fred outside. George, Alicia and the rest followed suit, munching as they went.
Meanwhile, Oliver remained fixated on the board, locked in a perpetual battle with his chalk.
"You should eat, too," she nudged him.
"I'll feast when we're holding that Cup."
"What are you, a Quidditch monk?"
Felix behind him snickered, causing her cheeks to blush in response.
"It's a sausage butty," she teased, waving the sandwich under his nose. "I dare you to resist this temptation."
With a begrudging nod, Oliver snatched the sandwich and shuffled outside with the rest of the famished team.
“CHEW QUICKLY,” he yelled on his way out, leaving her and Felix alone in the tent.
"I've saved you the best," she said with a mischievous twinkle, handing him an exceptionally large sandwich.
"You're my hero," he quipped, taking a hearty bite. "I was one breath away from dying."
Her heart warmed as she smiled up at him. He was in a good mood, which was rather unusual.
"There's something different about you." He suddenly said, chewing thoughtfully.
She discreetly glanced down at her chest, feeling her cheeks flush with warmth. Could it finally be happening? Are they becoming noticeable? A smile tugged at her lips, caught between excitement and embarrassment.
"Have you done something to your hair?" he then asked, and her hopeful expression faltered.
"Oh," she replied with a disappointed tone, "yeah, I messed it up.”
"Still pretty, though." He said with a mouthful.
Her heart skipped a beat. Did he actually just say that?
"I’m glad you’re here," he continued, taking a seat on a nearby bench. "I have something for you."
He gestured for her to sit beside him and rummaged through his bag, balancing his sandwich in his mouth. Then, he pulled out a book and handed it to her. "I was reading it and thought you would like it too."
‘Mansfield Park’ by Jane Austen.
"Have you read it before?" he asked.
She shook her head while gazing at the cover.
"You can borrow it if you like," he offered, resuming his sandwich. "It's not as dazzling as Pride and Prejudice, but worth the read."
"I'd love to," she was practically beaming. "Thank you, Felix, I'll return it once I'm done."
"Take your time."
"In that case, I have something for you too." She eagerly fished into her bag, then handed him her copy of Little Women. "I read it over the holiday and absolutely loved it."
"Merlin,” he chuckled, taking the book. “Someone else who prefer to spend their holidays reading? You do make me feel less lonely in this world, Vera."
Her heart skipped another beat.
"Is it from your governess?" he then asked.
She nodded.
"I've never heard of this author before."
"She's American, but the story's a gem!"
"I can't wait to read it.”
Their gazes lingered, and Vera couldn’t help but admire his rare smile once more.
"Hey, Lover Boy," Oliver suddenly interrupted. "Practice time. Grab the broom and let's go."
"Just a minute," Felix responded, his ears turning red.
"Lover Boy?"
He chuckled nervously. "Oh… Um, h-he just mocks me because I read romance novels."
"With how he’s been acting lately, he could use some," she teased, and he chuckled again.
Every smile she coaxed from him felt like a victory, a reward she treasured deeply.
“By the way,” he placed the book in his bag, his smile fading to a serious tone. “I wanted to ask you something.”
“Yeah?”
“What were you doing at the carriages that night when we returned from the holiday?”
“Oh, um—”
“I bet you were trying to feed the Thestrals, weren’t you?”
“You know about them?”
“I know they are the creatures that pull the carriages, but—I can’t see them, of course.”
“Well, they are just like horses but with wings. They are very skinny, so I always try to feed them. I don't think they like sweets, though. I offered them pumpkin pasties that night, but the wankers wouldn’t take them.”
“Wait wait wait,” he shook his head, his eyebrows furrowing. “Y-you can see them?”
She nodded eagerly. “Aha!”
"YOU COULD SEE THEM!"
"Um, yeah..."
His confusion swiftly turned into sudden sorrow. “I'm sorry, Vera.”
She giggled. “What are you sorry for, silly?”
“That you can see them.”
She continued smiling, puzzled. “What do you mean?”
“You—don’t know?”
Her smile slowly faded as she sensed his serious tone. “Know... what?”
He took a deep breath, still gazing into her eyes. “Vera... Thestrals can only be seen by people who have seen death.”
She took a moment to process his words. “Seen death?”
“Someone dying, that is.”
She laughed nervously. “Well, that can't be totally true. I've never seen someone dying before.”
“Are you sure?”
“I think I would remember if I saw that kind of thing, Felix.”
“Oh—well, did you have a pet?”
“A pet?”
“I suppose it's not death itself that makes someone see a Thestral, but the impact of it. We see death every day—insects, small creatures—it’s a natural occurrence. But when it becomes personal, it changes us from the inside out, often without us realizing. Maybe that’s what happened with you.”
"Um... I don’t really understand.”
“I’m not entirely sure, and I would have to ask a professor about it, but I think seeing an animal die can also cause someone to become aware of the Thestrals. If, of course, the death was impactful and tragic enough.”
Her body tensed as a flash of memory surged through her mind. She fell silent, unable to articulate the sudden and unexpected dread that enveloped her. It felt as though the world had abruptly turned colder and darker—she couldn’t understand why.
“Oh, that must be it then. I'm sorry, Vera.”
Her chest suddenly tightened, making it hard to breathe. She shook her head slightly, trying to understand what was happening.
He noticed her emotional turmoil. “Your pet must have meant a lot to you, didn’t it? Its death must have affected you so deeply.”
She remained silent, the pain intensifying. She placed a hand on her chest, rubbing it as if to soothe the ache.
“I’m really sorry for your loss.” He continued.
She offered him a weak smile, feeling the world spin around her. Swallowing past the lump in her throat, she tried to collect herself.
“Um, thank you for the book,” she said, her voice barely audible. “I’ll read it soon.”
With that she swiftly stood up and abruptly left the tent, leaving Felix in a state of confusion.
He watched her retreating figure, a mix of concern on his face. “Um, bye?”
She was halfway to the castle when the chest pain became unbearable. Her breath came in short, desperate gasps, her stomach churned, and her head swirled with a million thoughts.
She tried to control her breathing, but her hand began to feel numb. Determined to keep moving, she forced herself to walk, each step feeling heavier than the last.
Finally, she reached the castle and found herself in an outside corridor, mercifully alone. She leaned against a wall, rubbing the pain in her chest and trying to shake away the memories that suddenly flooded in.
Tears welled up in her eyes as she struggled to stay grounded in the present.
“No, no, no…” she whispered to herself, her voice trembling. “It’s not real, it’s not real—”
She repeated the mantra over and over, desperately trying to push the painful memories away. With each repetition, she fought to summon a happy thought, anything to replace the overwhelming sorrow.
Slowly, her breathing began to steady, and the crushing weight in her chest began to lift. After what felt like an eternity, she opened her eyes, tears blurring her vision.
Relief flooded through her as she realized she could feel her hands again, and the dizziness had subsided.
With determined steps, she made her way to the hospital wing, her mind set on one thing: finding solace in willow bark.
Sunday, January 13, 1991
♪ I gazed a gazely stare ♪
At all the millions here
We must have died alone
A long, long time ago
Despite residual discomfort from the previous day’s episode, she found solace in Professor Morales’ office as she arrived for one of their usual meetings. As she entered, she saw him engrossed in a newspaper, brow furrowed in concentration, while a rather odd tune played on the record player.
Clearing her throat to announce her arrival, she waited for a moment, but still, he didn't look up.
"Professor?" she called out, her voice barely audible over the music.
Startled, Morales looked up, finally noticing her. He quickly reached over to lower the volume on the record player.
"Ah, Vera, my apologies," he said, gesturing for her to take a seat. "I was just... caught up in the news, you know how it is."
She took the seat opposite him, sensing his troubled expression. It seemed as if something in the newspaper had made him upset.
As he set it aside, she took a glimpse at the article he'd been reading:
"Infamous Rebel's Memorial Vandalized; Perpetrators Still at Large."
As they settled into their meeting, the music now at a more reasonable volume, she couldn't help but feel a sense of familiarity and comfort in his presence. Despite the emotional turmoil she endured the previous day, she knew she was now in good hands.
She soon delved into her drawing, occasionally sipping the tea he had offered. Meanwhile, he watched her intently, his gaze lingering on her head.
"What happened to your hair?" he inquired, noting the discrepancy.
She felt a pang of embarrassment, "It was a dare, sir."
He chuckled softly. "Who dared you to cut your hair?"
"Ryu," she replied with a subtle eye roll.
His smile suddenly disappeared, and he raised an eyebrow. “I wasn't aware you and Mr. Avery were... friends."
She shrugged, not knowing what to say. She didn’t consider Ryu to be her friend, yet they weren't complete strangers either, especially after the shared experience they had.
"Well, we can't leave it like that," he then said, retrieving his wand.
With a swift wave, he directed it towards her, and the missing strand of hair seamlessly regrew.
Her heart nearly stopped at the magic before her.
Taking the restored strand in her hand, she examined it with a mixture of shock and fear. It blended flawlessly with the rest of her hair.
She glanced back at Morales, her astonishment evident. "Magic can grow hair back?"
"Indeed," he affirmed, slightly confused by her reaction. "It's one of the simplest charms, really, considering hair is merely composed of dead cells. You can manipulate anything that is lifeless."
She swallowed hard, her mind awash with a whirlwind of thoughts. The familiar ache returned to her chest, but she pushed it aside, focusing instead on her sketch.
"Are you feeling alright?" he inquired, noting her sudden shift in demeanor.
She nodded curtly, avoiding his gaze.
"By the way, have you ever considered cutting your hair?" he pursued gently.
She tightened her jaw, still avoiding eye contact as she continued to draw.
"I was merely curious,” he continued, “considering how long it is, I presume you've never had it cut?"
She remained silent, steadfastly refusing to meet his gaze. She didn’t understand why his question bothered her so much, or why it made her feel a sudden sense of dread.
"Do you recall when you last had it trimmed?" he persisted.
A pang of discomfort resurfaced in her chest, but she attempted to brush it off yet again. With a noncommittal shrug, she maintained her silence.
Despite her efforts to conceal it, he couldn't help but notice her unease.
"Vera," he began softly, adjusting his position, "I was hoping we could have a brief conversation."
"Yes, professor?" she responded, finally meeting his gaze.
"I have some questions I need you to address, and then you can return to your drawing."
She nodded, recognizing the gravity of the situation, and set her pencil aside.
"I was hoping you could tell me more about the Humphreys."
She chewed on her lip, her eyes drifting downward. Still silent.
Clearing his throat, he continued, "You mentioned they were occasionally religious."
She affirmed with a nod.
"And you also stated that they were prone to dishonesty."
Again, she nodded.
"And that they lied about you."
She became motionless.
"What did you mean by that?" he inquired further.
She remained silent, her gaze wandering around the room. "Could I have more tea, please?" she said after a while.
He offered a faint smile, reaching for the kettle to refill her cup. She took a quick sip but remained reticent. Morales sensed her reluctance to speak further.
"Were they ever… strict with you?" he persisted gently, hoping for a response.
"Did you manage to assess our latest assignment?"
"Vera..." he interjected, sensing her attempt to evade the topic. "Please don’t change the subject again. I understand it's difficult for you to revisit that period of your life, but it's crucial that you do so."
"Why is it crucial?"
"Do you desire to practice magic again?"
She nodded, her confusion evident.
"Well, I believe your experiences with the Humphreys may be the root cause of your body's rejection of magic."
She swallowed nervously, reaching for her pencil to resume her drawing, but he was quicker, grabbing it before she could.
"If you can tell me what they did to you,” he continued, “I can gain a better understanding of your condition and provide assistance."
"What they did to me?"
"You said they claimed to be devoutly religious, and I acknowledge that some muggles, particularly those with strong religious beliefs, may struggle to accept our kind."
Heat surged through her body. "Can I just carry on with my sketch, sir?"
He drew in a deep disappointment breath. "It's been months since we began these sessions, Vera. Yet, you've never mentioned them or addressed any of my inquiries about that time in your life. You've shared everything else—from your past foster homes to the current orphanage you reside in. You've spoken of Miss Nelson and your sisters, your neighbor witch, and even Donnie from the Ministry. You've recounted tales from the telly and songs from the radio. You've regaled me with stories of your friends at Hogwarts and your escapades in Diagon Alley. I know almost everything about you, Vera, everything except for what happened during those three years in Cornwall.”
She could feel the constriction in her chest, tears threatening to spill. "Nothing happened—"
"Something most certainly did!" he interjected firmly, "And you've been evading discussing it for months. At first, I chose to overlook it, but it became evident that you're attempting to conceal what the Humphreys did to you."
"No," she protested, shaking her head, "I just don't want to talk about them. They are gone now. Dead."
He drew in another deep breath, his expression grave. "Alright," he conceded, shaking his head thoughtfully, "Can you at least tell me how they passed away?"
She hesitated briefly. "He had cancer, and she died a week later, from sadness."
"Sadness?"
She simply shrugged in response.
"And—did you witness their passing?"
Swiftly, she glanced up at him, sensing the direction of his questioning. Recalling her conversation with Felix, her head began to spin. She shook it slightly, swallowing the lump forming in her throat.
"I'm asking because of the Thestrals—"
"I never saw anyone or anything die," she interjected hastily, cutting him off.
He was immediately taken aback. "Did you say—anything?" he repeated, his tone tinged with surprise.
She was growing increasingly uncomfortable. "I wish to leave, sir," she pleaded, her voice quivering as she stood up.
"But we're not finished, Vera." He stated firmly, his tone growing more serious.
"I—I don't feel well," she stammered, glancing back at the door.
"Please, I wish to help you. You have to allow me to,"
"I don't—"
"If you can just tell me what they did to you,"
"I—”
"Did they cause you harm?"
"Professor—"
"Did they know about your magical abilities? Did they hurt you because of it?”
“Sir, please—”
"Just tell me," he urged, frustration seeping into his tone. "What did they do to you?"
Still, she remained silent, evading his eyes, and looking back.
"Vera," his voice took on a hint of anger. "Look at me and tell me the truth."
But she remained stubborn, refusing to talk.
"SPEAK!" he shouted, his fist striking the desk with a resounding thud.
Vera recoiled, startled and shocked by his sudden outburst.
It was the first time she had witnessed him display such anger, and it left her feeling scared and vulnerable.
Tears welled up in her eyes, threatening to spill over, and she took a step back, her heart pounding in her chest, and her mind raced as she tried to make sense of the situation. The room seemed to close in on her, the once-familiar surroundings now feeling foreign and menacing.
Realizing the impact of his outburst, he took a deep breath and began to apologize. "Vera, I'm so sorry," he said, his voice filled with remorse. "I didn't mean to upset you. Please forgive me."
But she was too shaken to respond. Swiftly, she turned around and headed for the door, intent on leaving the room to escape the overwhelming tension.
However, before she could reach it, he acted quickly, raising his wand and locking it with a swift incantation. Panic surged within her as she realized she was trapped.
She turned to him, her eyes wide with fear and desperation. "Let me leave, Professor," she pleaded, her voice trembling.
He hesitated, his expression filled with regret. "I'm sorry, Vera, I can't let you leave like this. Please, let's talk this through."
With trembling steps, she complied, her entire frame still quivering with fear and distress.
The air hung heavy with tension as they both settled back into their seats, a suffocating silence enveloping the room. Feeling the weight of the situation, he reached for his wand and unlocked the door, a silent assurance that she was not being held against her will.
Though still apprehensive, she gradually began to calm down, her ragged breaths steadying as the initial shock ebbed away. Perhaps he was just upset, and didn’t mean to spill his anger on her.
Sensing that she was finally beginning to regain her composure, he spoke softly, his voice a soothing presence in the heavy silence of the room. "I know this has been difficult for you, and I apologize for my outburst. It was uncalled for.”
She nodded silently, her gaze fixed on the floor, unable to meet his eyes.
“Would you like more tea?”
She accepted his offer, and he began to refill her cup, a gesture of comfort amidst the lingering tension.
However, as she raised the cup to her lips, he discreetly waved his wand around it, a subtle action that went unnoticed until she took a sip.
Immediately, she spat it all out, choking on the unexpected taste.
She began to cough, her horror evident as she struggled to compose herself.
"Why do you despise milk so much, Vera?" he questioned, his tone cold and unusual.
In that moment, she looked at him, and the man she had once respected and loved seemed to vanish, replaced by someone entirely different—cold-hearted and cruel.
The betrayal she felt was palpable as he repeated his question, and she recoiled from him. The taste of milk on her tongue made her gag, and the pain in her chest intensified with each passing moment.
"It's just milk," he insisted coldly, his tone devoid of compassion. "Drink it."
"No," she sobbed, tears streaming down her face.
"Drink it." he pressed, his voice unyielding.
Unable to bear his cruelty any longer, she fled from his office, her heart heavy with disappointment and sadness.
Her cries echoed through the empty corridors as she struggled to make sense of what had just transpired. Panic gripped her, overwhelming her senses as she navigated the maze of hallways, feeling small and alone in the vastness of the school—feeling small and alone in the world.
Finally reaching her dormitory, she collapsed onto her bed, burying her face in the pillow as her cries intensified.
Morales, her favorite professor, the man she had admired, had revealed himself to be a cruel monster—even more so than Snape.
With each passing minute, her sobs grew louder, a testament to the pain and despair consuming her soul. Alicia and Angelina rushed to her side, their concern evident as they tried to understand what had happened. But she couldn't find the words to explain, her throat constricted, her breaths coming in ragged gasps.
The weight of the painful memories Morales had resurfaced pressed down on her chest like a suffocating burden, leaving her feeling as if she were drowning in a sea of despair.
All she could think about was the overwhelming desire to escape them, to end the torment that gnawed at her from within.
She longed for the darkness to envelop her, to numb the ache that permeated every fiber of her being.
“I want to die,” she cried. “I want to die.”
Monday, January 14, 1991
The next day dawned with a heavy weight on her shoulders.
Exhausted from the night of relentless tears, she dragged herself out of bed, her body feeling as though it were made of lead. The remnants of her nightmare still lingered in her mind, haunting her with vivid images of the memories she had been desperately trying to evade for years.
Her eyes were red and swollen from crying, and she made no attempt to disguise her exhaustion as she slipped into her uniform, the fabric feeling foreign against her weary skin. With her bag slung over her shoulder, she made her way to the great hall, each step feeling like an arduous journey.
Sitting for breakfast, she couldn’t even bear looking at the food.
Fred, ever the joker, couldn't help but notice her lack of appetite and decided to tease her in an attempt to lighten the mood.
“Come watch this rare sight, everyone,” he quipped "Vee’s not eating."
But she remained unresponsive, her gaze fixed on the bottle of milk on the table, her thoughts consumed by the events of the previous day, and the memories it brought back to her mind.
As she stared at it, a wave of overwhelming emotion washed over her, and she felt the urge to cry once more. Unable to bear the weight of her sorrow any longer, she made the decision to retreat to her dormitory.
As the classes began, her absence did not go unnoticed. Ryu kept glancing at the door, anxiously waiting for her arrival, while Morales himself seemed equally aware of her missing presence.
"Miss Johnson," he addressed Angelina, "where is Vera?"
"Um, she's sick, sir," Angelina replied hesitantly, her voice tinged with uncertainty.
Morales shook his head, not entirely convinced.
She had skipped both lunch and dinner, rejecting the food Katie brought to her. Drawing the curtains tightly around her bed, she sought solace in the enveloping darkness throughout the day. As night descended, she made her way to the hospital wing once more, feigning a headache to procure Willow bark—the only reprieve from her haunting nightmares.
On the following day, she managed to attend classes, but remained unfocused and withdrawn. Sitting alone at the back, she spent the entire day with her head resting on her desk, isolated in her silence.
Wednesday, January 16, 1991
As she and the other students walked towards their Defense Against the Dark Arts class the day after, she struggled to maintain her composure.
Pausing at the classroom door, she felt her chest tighten, the thought of facing Morales weighed heavily on her, almost suffocating.
"Are you not coming in?" Roger asked, noticing her hesitation.
She shook her head, tears welling in her eyes as she gazed at the door before quickly running off, leaving the rest perplexed by her sudden departure.
Morales waited for them to settle into their seats before commencing the class. However, one remained conspicuously empty.
"Is Vera not attending today as well?" he directed to no one in particular.
Fred and George exchanged glances. "She's not feeling well, sir," Fred replied.
"Did she attend her other classes?"
"Um," Fred hesitated, "Yes, but..."
"...she suddenly fell ill again," George interjected.
"I see..." Morales sighed, his gaze falling to his feet as he fell silent for a moment. The class exchanged puzzled looks.
"I see." he repeated, then resumed writing on the board.
Seeking solitude, Vera retreated to a secluded spot in an empty hallway adorned with muggle paintings.
Crouching in front of one, she gazed at it intently, seeking refuge from questions and conversations that weighed heavily on her mind. However, the silence around her was shattered as unwelcome company suddenly appeared.
"Looked everywhere for you," he said as he approached.
She didn't bother to look behind her. "Find your own way back, Avery."
"Weasleys said you were sick again,"
She remained silent, her attention fixed on the painting.
"You don't look sick to me," he remarked. "You look sad."
"Can you please leave me alone?"
He chuckled, crouching beside her. "Did you just say 'please'? Maybe you really are sick."
He playfully placed his hand on her forehead, pretending to take her temperature. However, she swiftly removed it, maintaining her focus on the painting without a hint of a smile. Ryu continued to study her tired face; her eyes were swollen and dark, her complexion pale.
"Merlin, Vera," he murmured, his jaw clenched slightly. "You truly are sad."
She swallowed hard, fighting back tears. She couldn't allow herself to be vulnerable in front of him again.
"Is everything alright?" he pressed gently. "Is it something at home?"
Feeling her chest tighten, she closed her eyes at the mention of home. Then, with a deep breath, she opened them again, trying to compose herself. "It's the painting," she whispered.
Ryu's gaze shifted from her face to the art on the wall. "What about it?"
"It's cruel."
His brows furrowed in confusion. "It's just a window, Vera.”
"Is it?"
"I don't really understand muggle paintings. There's nothing special about them. They're motionless and not smart at all, unlike magical ones."
"That's what makes them better," she responded wearily. "Not everything magical is pleasant. Magic can be ugly."
He appeared puzzled by her words, continuing to study the painting, trying to grasp what she found cruel about it.
"Ryu..." she said, catching his attention.
He turned to her, intrigued. "Yes?"
"Why won't Warrington just grow his hair back?"
He was taken aback. "Um, what?"
She looked at him, her expression serious. "Why won't he grow his hair back with magic?"
He shrugged, bewildered by the sudden shift in conversation.
She gazed at the floor for a moment, then delved into her bag. "You forgot this with me," she said, pulling out the familiar bronze and blue scarf, and extending it towards him.
"I didn't forget it," he countered nonchalantly. "You can keep it if you want. I don't have a need for it."
"It’s Ravenclaw’s."
He shrugged indifferently. "So?"
"I'd feel like I’m betraying my house."
He dismissed with a roll of his eyes. "It's not that serious."
"Thank you, but I believe you should have it back."
Accepting the scarf from her, he nodded slightly, and she returned to the painting, her expression once again clouded with melancholy.
"Is it Morales?" he suddenly asked. "Did he do something to you?"
"Why would you think that?"
"It's clear you're avoiding his classes."
"You should stop that, Avery."
"Stop what?"
"Noticing everything about everyone, just stop it."
"Why?"
"Because one day you might notice something that you won't be able to let go of."
"What are you talking about?"
She ignored his question, returning her focus to the painting, her thoughts elsewhere.
"Just tell me what's wrong, Vera!"
"Why?"
"Because,"
"Because?"
"Because you’re being annoying,"
“Then simply ignore me,”
“I wanna see if I can fix it,”
"You won't be able to,"
"Why not?"
"Because some things are broken beyond mending!" Her voice quivered, but she attempted to regain her composure. “Just go, please?”
Ryu took a deep breath. "Fine," he sighed, rising to leave. "I do hope you know one thing, though,"
"What?"
"Magic is never ugly. People are."
***
She remained preoccupied with her agonizing thoughts throughout the entire month.
She persistently avoided Professor Morales’s class and his office, dreading any potential encounters. Neither he nor Professor McGonagall directly addressed her absences. Instead, Morales enlisted her friends to deliver her assignments and asked Cedric to explain the missed material.
They met daily in the library, where he, along with Tommy and Maddie, patiently reviewed the lessons with her. However, despite their efforts, she remained indifferent and struggled to concentrate.
“Shall I go over it again?” Cedric suggested.
“Nah,” she sighed, rubbing her temples. “I’m really sorry, Snorty, but I just can't get into it right now.”
“How about a kickabout?” Tommy asked enthusiastically.
She shook her head, her face still sullen.
Tommy and Cedric exchanged surprised glances; she usually would drop everything to play football with them.
“Maddie and I are heading to the astronomy tower,” Cedric continued. “Care to join us?”
She quickly noticed Maddie’s face fall at his suggestion, and knew it was best to decline the offer.
“No, it's fine,” she said. “I think I'll head back to my dorm and try to sleep. Didn't get much last night.”
The group exchanged worried looks as she swiftly gathered her things and made her way back to her dormitory.
Madam Pomfrey had noticed her sudden and continuous requests for willow bark were unwarranted and had stopped providing it, which made it difficult for her to concentrate on everyday tasks and even harder to sleep.
For weeks, she would wake up screaming as her nightmares grew more intense. The girls at her dorm would rush to her side, calming her down as she struggled to breathe.
“Vera, please tell us,” Angelina urged one night, as she and Alicia were awakened once again by her screams.
“I can’t,” she sobbed, burying her face in her hands. “I just can’t,”
“We’re here for you,” Alicia said softly, gently rubbing her back. “We’ll listen.”
“I don’t want to rememb—” she gasped, her breathing becoming more labored.
“Can you at least tell us who Michael is?” Angelina pressed gently.
Vera’s breath caught in her throat, “w-what?” she stammered, her eyes widening in surprise.
“You keep saying his name in your sleep,” Alicia said. “Who is he, Vee?”
Vera's heart ached. Truly ached.
She buried her face in her pillow and sobbed uncontrollably until she finally fell asleep.
Everyone was worried about her well-being. Fred, George, and Lee took it upon themselves to ensure she ate, but despite her gratitude for their support and love, she just couldn't manage it. Every time she tried to put something in her mouth, she would instantly gag, haunted by the memory of the taste of milk in Morales’s office.
She had lost weight, and her distress was becoming increasingly noticeable, especially to Felix. Despite their agreement not to interact, he kept glancing at her in the Great Hall, and even sent her encouraging notes with Oliver.
Despite the unwavering support of her friends, she couldn't shake the heavy weight of the memories that haunted her every waking moment. Their kindness, their unwavering presence, meant the world to her, but it wasn't enough to chase away the darkness that consumed her.
She had abandoned all her activities—painting, baking, football, strolling around the castle, playing chess, and even writing to Kaya, who had started to notice her absence.
Sunday, January 27, 1991
Dear Vera,
You haven’t written to me in two weeks. Is everything okay? Please tell me you’re alright. Miss Nelson says hello. She’s been gone a lot too lately, which is getting weird. I think she’s planning her wedding with Doctor Shirley. Oh, imagine if they have it during the summer holiday? That would be so mint! We should start planning what to wear. So, write to me soon! Or I’ll come to Scotland and kill you. Love you. Bye.
Kaya
“What’s the matter, Little Vera?” Hagrid’s gentle voice broke through her sorrow as she sat in his hut, reading the letter with tears streaming down her cheeks. “Missing home already?”
“I wish to go back,” she sniffled, “I wish to go back and never come here again!”
“Why would yeh say that?”
“I’m just—tired, Mr. Hagrid. I’m tired of everything, and I’m tired of myself.”
Hagrid struggled to find words to comfort her. Instead, he pulled out his kettle and poured her a cup of tea.
She looked down at her tea, the steam swirling up in delicate tendrils. "Mr. Hagrid, can I ask something?"
"Of course," he replied, leaning in slightly.
"Do you feel sad that you can't do magic?"
He was taken aback by her question, but he understood why she asked. He knew she struggled with the same burden.
“Aye, sometimes I do,” he admitted. “It’s hard, especially when yeh see others doin’ things yeh want to do yerself. But I’ve learned there’s more to life than magic.”
She looked up at him, curiosity and empathy in her eyes. “Really?”
“Well,” He began thoughtfully, “I focus on what I can do. I take care of my creatures, and I help out where I’m needed. It’s not always easy, but it helps to remember that I still have a purpose.”
She nodded slowly, taking in his words. “How do I even know what my purpose is? What if I’m just useless?”
“Yer not useless, Vera. Yer worth isn’t measured by what kind of magic yeh can do. It’s measured by the kind of person yeh are. And from what I can see, yeh’ve got a good heart. That’s more important than any spell.”
A small smile crept onto her face. “You think I have a good heart?”
“Of course, yeh do!”
“But, I don’t feel like it,”
“Yer too young to feel this way, little Vera...”
“I-I did something,” she stammered, tears welling up in her eyes again, “and I feel horrible about it, but I don’t know what to do.”
“Yeh can always start by apologizing,”
She lowered her head. “I don’t think I can do that. It’s not the kind of things I can apologize for.”
“Well, one thing life taught me, is that if yeh want people to forgive yeh for what yeh have done, yeh must start by forgiving yerself.”
She nodded, taking in his words.
“Now, how 'bout another cup o’ tea?”
That night, reflecting on his words and remembering Miss Nelson's guidance, she decided to do something she hadn't done in a really long time.
She waited until the room was quiet and her roommates were out, and with a deep breath, slipped out of bed, knelt beside it, and clasped her hands together.
The moonlight filtered softly through the dormitory windows as she began to whisper her desperate pleas.
"Dear God, it’s me Vera. I know I haven't talked to You in a long time and I am really sorry, but I need Your help.”
Just as she finished her prayer, the door burst open, and Angelina and Alicia barged into the room, laughing about something that had happened at dinner. They stopped short when they saw her on her knees.
"Um, what are you doing?" Angelina asked, eyebrows raised in surprise.
Vera's heart raced as she scrambled to her feet, her face flushing with embarrassment. "I was just looking for something under the bed," she said quickly, trying to sound casual.
Angelina and Alicia exchanged confused glances. "Really?" Alicia asked, her tone skeptical. "What were you looking for?"
She swallowed hard, thinking quickly. "Just... a book I dropped earlier. It's nothing important."
"Alright," Alicia said slowly, still looking unconvinced. Then she brightened. "Hey, how about I wake you up early tomorrow? You can come watch us practice Quidditch. It'll be fun!"
She forced a smile, grateful for the change in topic but still feeling the tension in the air. "Thanks, but I think I need to catch up on some sleep. I've been really tired lately."
"Okay, if you’re sure," Angelina said, still eyeing her curiously.
As the girls continued their conversation about Quidditch practice, Vera lay back down on her bed, her mind racing.
She hoped that her moment of vulnerability had gone unnoticed. Closed her eyes, and clutching Vinny tightly, she whispered one last silent plea before drifting off to sleep.
“Forgive me Lord, so I may find the strength to forgive myself.”
Notes:
Songs mentioned:
The man who sold the world – David Bowie
Chapter 36: The Gift from No one
Chapter Text
Thursday, Feb 14, 1991
Valentine's Day arrived at Hogwarts, transforming the castle into a scene of whimsical romance. The halls were adorned with floating pink and red hearts, enchanted cherubs flitted about, occasionally sprinkling glittery confetti, and love notes written on heart-shaped parchment floated gently to their recipients. Roses of every hue appeared magically on tables, and students exchanged charmed chocolates that caused the eater to giggle uncontrollably or hum love songs for hours.
Despite the festive atmosphere, Vera couldn't care less about it all.
Arriving at breakfast, she sat with Angelina, Alicia, and Kenny, and watched the romantic gestures unfolding around her with disinterest. A group of third-years giggled as a boy presented a girl with a singing Valentine’s card that serenaded her with a sweet, albeit off-key, tune. Across the hall, a pair of fifth-years blushed furiously as they exchanged enchanted lockets that glowed warmly when they held hands.
“They all lost their bloody minds,” she muttered, rolling her eyes as she removed the milk bottle from her sight and began to nibble on a piece of toast.
Angelina glanced at her. “It’s just a bit of fun, Vera.”
“That’s rich coming from you. Didn’t you think it was all a load of rubbish?”
“That was before she got roses from both the Weasley twins,” Alicia leaned in, waggling her eyebrows. “Admit it, Angie, you’re softening up because of Fred and George.”
Angelina’s cheeks flushed slightly. “It means nothing! They’re probably pulling a joke.”
“Oh, sure,” Alicia teased.
“What about you, huh?” Angelina smirked, “I saw you talking to Tommy before breakfast.”
“What did he get you?” Kenny chimed in.
Alicia blushed deeply, glancing down at her plate. “Leg warmers. He knows I get cold when flying my broom,”
Angelina burst into laughter. “How romantic!”
“It’s thoughtful,” Alicia retorted, “and practical.”
Vera managed a small smile at their banter, momentarily distracted from her own troubles. “At least he knows what you like...” she said softly.
“He’s got her all figured out.” Angelina teased.
Alicia shot her a mock glare. “And what about you, Miss Double Roses? What are you going to do about your two admirers?”
Angelina rolled her eyes, though she couldn’t hide her smile. “It’s a joke!”
"Check this out," Kenny leaned in, drawing their attention to the Slytherin table.
They all glanced over to watch as Miles presented his Jane with a dramatically-huge Fox plushie and a bouquet of warm orange roses.
Angelina raised an eyebrow. "Why doesn't she wear a ring if she's engaged to him?"
"They're only betrothed," Alicia explained.
"I still don't understand what any of that nonsense means."
"It’s so their families don’t betray each other," Vera said flatly. "Because, normally, that’s what all families do."
Angelina, Alicia, and Kenny exchanged worried glances at her bitter tone. The weight of her words hung in the air, a stark contrast to the light-hearted Valentine’s Day atmosphere around them. But their focus swiftly shifted to Eudora, who was receiving gifts from nearly every boy at the Slytherin table.
Alicia rolled her eyes. “Of course...”
“Heard Pucey got her a golden ring,” Kenny whispered to Vera. “Reckon he got a thing for her?”
However, Vera’s attention was drawn elsewhere as she observed Cassius, who sat alone, unbothered by the romantic chaos surrounding him.
She continued to stare at him until Angelina noticed and nudged her gently. "What's up with you?" she asked.
Vera shook her head. "What do you mean?"
"You've been staring at Warrington a lot lately."
"Please don’t tell us you fancy him!" Alicia interjected.
"Of course not!" Vera scoffed, clearly disgusted by the idea.
"Then what is it?" Angelina pressed.
She sighed and glanced back at Cassius. "Have you ever noticed he never eats?"
The rest of the group shrugged, exchanging puzzled looks.
"No, not really," Kenny admitted. "Why do you care, though?"
"I don't," she insisted, her tone defensive. "It's just...weird, that's all."
“I bet he’s a vampire,” Angelina quipped.
“He’s got the look for sure,” Alicia added, giggling.
“Morning lovelies,” Maddie suddenly approached the group with a large bouquet in her hands. “Happy Valentine’s!” she exclaimed, distributing the roses among them.
“Mads, you’re so class,”
Vera smiled faintly. “Thank you,”
“Do you think it’s a good idea to give Bobbin one?” Maddie leaned in, whispering.
The group glanced over at Felix, who was sitting a few seats away with Oliver and Percy. Vera swiftly noticed the piles of roses and cards by his side. Despite the attention, he was unbothered, casually eating his breakfast.
Kenny shook his head. "He’s got like a dozen already and more gifts than he can count, but he doesn’t seem to care."
Maddie frowned. “He’s so arrogant. I guess I won’t bother then.”
Angelina couldn't help but wonder aloud. “Why doesn’t he have a girlfriend?”
Alicia shrugged. “He’s just too picky, I guess.”
“I think it’s his family,” Kenny added. “Heard they’re a nightmare.”
Vera watched Felix for a moment longer, her curiosity piqued. Despite his popularity, there was a certain aloofness about him, a distance that seemed impenetrable. It was puzzling, but like everything else, she decided to let it go for now. There were enough mysteries in her own life without adding Felix Bobbin to the list.
“Well, catch you at class,” Maddie said, on her way over to the Hufflepuff table. She approached Cedric first and handed him a rose along with a small wrapped parcel.
The group burst into giggles as they watched his face turn an impressive shade of crimson.
“Do you think he’s still oblivious?” Kenny asked, trying to suppress his laughter.
Angelina smirked. “If she were a Snitch, he’d have caught on ages ago.”
“Stop gossiping,” Fred playfully slapped her head as he and George sauntered over, Lee in tow.
“Ouch!”
“What’s up with you,” Alicia asked Lee, who was grinning like a Cheshire cat.
“Malika sent him a singing card,” Fred responded, wiggling his eyebrows.
“I’m only dreading the many nights we’re gonna spend listening to it singing him to sleep.” George added.
“You’re just bitter, Weasley,” Lee said, puffing his chest out proudly.
“We heard a juicy bit of news,” Fred remarked, his eyes sparkling with mischief as he turned towards his older brother.
“It seems our dear brother Percy received a heart-shaped card this morning,” George added, feigning shock.
Percy looked up from his breakfast, already exasperated. “What are you two on about now?”
Fred leaned in, whispering loudly enough for everyone to hear. “A little bird told us you replied to this card, too.”
Oliver chuckled, nudging his best friend. “Come on, mate, don’t leave us hanging. Who’s the lucky girl?”
Percy’s ears turned pink, a telltale sign of his embarrassment. “It’s none of your business,” he muttered, trying to focus on his plate.
George grinned. “Aw, come on, Perce. Don’t be shy. We’re all dying to know.”
Fred mimicked Percy’s serious demeanor, adjusting an imaginary pair of glasses. “Dear Madam, I was most flattered by your note. However, I must inform you that my schedule is quite rigorous...”
Everyone at the table burst into laughter, and even Percy couldn’t help but crack a reluctant smile. However, Vera remained detached, nibbling on her toast with a look of mild disinterest.
The lively chatter and banter around her provided a comforting backdrop, even if she couldn't fully engage with it. As the teasing continued, an owl suddenly swooped in and dropped a small parcel in front of her. She looked up in surprise, as did the others.
“Oi, Vee’s got a gift,” Lee announced, causing the table, except Felix, to lean in with intrigue.
"Who's it from?" Angelina asked.
She shrugged, still bewildered. "I have no idea."
“Well?” Alicia urged, “Open it!”
She swiftly unwrapped the parcel, and found a small wooden box intricately carved with floral patterns, reminiscent of the style she had seen before in old wizarding artifacts. With trembling hands, she opened it, and her brows furrowed in confusion as she beheld its content.
“What is it?” Kenny asked.
“I’m not sure,” she replied, lifting a crystal of multi-colored, iridescent hues—reflecting shades of purple, green, and pink—artistically encased in copper wire in an intricate decorative design.
Percy leaned closer. "That's a wand gem.”
“A what?”
“It's an accessory for wands,” he replied, “It's supposed to amplify magic, but that's probably just a myth."
Oliver looked at it appreciatively. “Well, it's a beautiful piece. Hand me your wand, I can fix the crystal onto it."
"I don't have my wand."
"Why?" Percy asked.
She shrugged, her eyes still fixed on the crystal. "Because it's bloody pointless."
The group exchanged confused glances, trying to understand what she meant. A wizard without their wand was almost unheard of.
Vera, however, seemed lost in her own thoughts, still occupied by the mysterious crystal. She carefully searched the box, but there was no note, no indication of the sender's identity.
“Didn’t you get a gift from no one last year as well?” Kenny asked.
“Yeah,” she swallowed nervously, “charmed earrings,”
Fred grinned. “So last year you got earrings, and this year a wand gem? Someone’s got a secret admirer,”
She scoffed bitterly. “I doubt. It was certainly sent to me by mistake.”
“But your name is on the wrapping,” Kenny noted. “Perhaps someone from your family sent it?"
“Don’t make me laugh, Ken. I’ve got no family."
Once more, her words hung heavy in their awake, casting a silence that even caught Felix's concern, as he discreetly glanced over at her. Yet she remained unfazed by their puzzled or sympathetic expressions.
At this point, she couldn't have cared less about them finding out the truth about her family.
Oliver leaned over, trying to offer some comfort. "Well, whoever sent it must care a lot about you. I mean, it’s quite a rare piece, Vera. Not everyone can own a wand gem."
She nodded absently, not really hearing him, then turned the crystal over in her hands again, wondering who could have sent it and why. As she remained preoccupied with it, Angelina picked up the box and began inspecting it.
Suddenly, she gasped in surprise. "Vee, you're not going to believe this."
Vera swiftly looked up, "What?"
Angelina turned the box over, revealing the back, and Vera’s eyes widened in shock.
"It's the sun again!" Angelina exclaimed.
Vera's heart raced as she stared at the carved sun on the back of the box, identical to the one on the sunflower painting she had received on Christmas.
Alicia leaned in, examining the box closely. "Whoever sent you this must have sent you the painting as well."
“Someone sent you a painting?” Fred asked.
“Yeah, on Christmas.”
“Must be very close to you then.” Kenny noted.
“What do you mean?”
“Since they know what you like.”
Throughout her morning classes, her mind incessantly wandered back to the mysterious crystal and Kenny’s words.
The intricate sun symbol and its connection to the previous gift consumed her thoughts, making concentration a challenge. During lunch, she found herself still preoccupied with thoughts of it all, absentmindedly picking at her food while Angelina and Alicia chatted beside her.
She pondered its sender—certain it had to be someone from outside school, given its delivery by a service owl.
Could it be Donnie, or perhaps Dom? They would have left a note, though.
Kaya and any muggle were out of the question.
As she ran through the possibilities, she realized she knew no other wizards or witches outside of Hogwarts, except for Mrs. Wriggleshore and Birdy, who certainly couldn’t afford such a precious gem.
Suddenly, a wrapped gift appeared before her on the table, shattering her reverie like a stone thrown into still water. She blinked, momentarily stunned by its sudden presence.
"Another gift?" Angelina exclaimed, her voice tinged with skepticism and curiosity as she raised an eyebrow.
Vera was equally perplexed. "I think so?"
"It must be someone from school this time," Alicia said, her eyes narrowing as she examined the parcel. "It was transported magically."
The group leaned in, their faces alight with a mix of curiosity and trepidation as Vera reached for the package, her hand trembling.
She hesitated, feeling her heart pounding with a chaotic rhythm of anticipation and nerves.
Slowly, she picked up the parcel, feeling its weight. The air grew thick with tension as she untied the ribbon and carefully unwrapped the gift.
A red velvet jewelry box emerged from the paper, glistening ominously under the dim light, and as she lifted the lid, her breath caught in her throat.
"Fuck," she whispered, her voice barely audible over the collective gasp that followed.
Inside was the amethyst necklace she had admired at the jewelry store during Christmas. The delicate rose gold chain shimmered, and the gemstone's deep, mesmerizing violet hue seemed almost otherworldly.
Silence enveloped the table as everyone stared at it in disbelief.
Fred gasped. "Vee, you’ve got a secret admirer for sure,"
"Must be someone with deep pockets," George added with a sly wink, "That necklace isn’t cheap."
Kenny leaned in closer, his curiosity reaching a fever pitch. "Who do you think sent it?"
She hesitated, her mind racing. "I don't know," she said, but she was lying.
She swiftly glanced over at the Slytherin table, then at the Ravenclaw one. Her heart pounded even harder when she couldn’t glimpse him, a silent scream echoing within her.
“Who are you looking for?” Angelina asked.
“N-no one,” she stammered, panic seeping into her words.
Alicia rolled her eyes. “I hate secrecy. If I fancy someone, I would just tell them.”
“So when are you telling Tommy?” George teased her, breaking the tension with a smirk.
“Shut up!” Alicia shot back, then turned to Vera with a softer expression. “Someone fancies you, Vee.”
Vera's heart pounded as though it might burst from her chest, but as the initial shock subsided, the bell rang, signaling the end of lunch and the onset of afternoon classes.
She hastily gathered her belongings, shoving the necklace into her bag, and made her way to History of Magic. The classroom was already filling with students by the time she arrived, but she was oblivious to the usual hustle and bustle. Her eyes instinctively sought out Ryu as she entered.
And there he was, sitting next to Eudora at the front of the class, his gaze fixed forward. She slipped into a seat at the back, praying he wouldn't turn around. But just as the last student entered and the door closed, Ryu turned, his eyes locking onto hers.
He stared at her for a long moment, his gaze a blend of intensity and something indefinable.
Then, his expression softened into a subtle, knowing smile, one that sent her heart into a frenzy.
As he turned back around, she felt like screaming.
Could it be possible? She wondered. Could Ryu fucking Avery have feelings for her?
The notion was almost too extraordinary to believe. Of all people, he was the last person she expected to have any interest in her. It must be a mistake, but how? He had sent her the exact necklace he knew she admired.
Throughout the class, she found herself stealing glances at him, and occasionally, he would glance back. Their eyes met in fleeting moments that sent butterflies fluttering in her stomach, and the entire situation felt surreal, making it difficult for her to concentrate on the monotonous lecture.
"You’ll work in pairs to write a summary of the chapter,” Professor Binns' ghostly voice echoed through the dimly lit classroom, drawing her attention away from the whirlwind of thoughts that had consumed her since receiving Ryu’s gift.
Eudora's voice brought her back to the present. "Looks like we're partners," she said, gracefully taking the seat next to her.
"Yeah," she replied, managing a forced smile. "Let's get started."
Despite her efforts to focus, she found it nearly impossible to concentrate on the task at hand. Her mind kept drifting back to Ryu and the hauntingly beautiful necklace. Eudora was equally distracted, absentmindedly twirling a delicate golden ring on her finger, and Vera couldn't help but admire its elegance.
“Pucey’s got taste,” she remarked, eyeing the ring.
“Adrian didn’t get me this,” Eudora responded. “This one’s from Ryu.”
Vera felt her heart sink. “R-Ryu?”
“Qui,” Eudora confirmed, her demeanor nonchalant as she continued to play with the ring. “He has impeccable taste, and his Valentine’s cadeaux are always exquisite.”
“Wait, he always gets you gifts on Valentine’s?”
“Of course!” Eudora replied with a smile.
Vera's disappointment deepened. It seemed Ryu's gestures were not as exclusive as she had hoped. She struggled to conceal her feelings, attempting to focus on her notes.
“It’s his tradition,” Eudora continued. “He brings everyone thoughtful gifts. You should see the necklace he got Jane—so chic!”
Vera managed a strained smile, nodding in understanding. “That’s... very thoughtful of him.”
Eudora carried on, sharing anecdotes of past gifts, and Vera's heart sank further with each one.
“Qu'as-tu reçu?” Eudora suddenly asked, catching her off guard.
Vera hesitated, taken aback by the sudden switch, but for some reason, she understood every word. “Oh, um, a wand gem.”
Eudora gasped, her eyes widening with surprise. “W-wand gem?”
“Aha,”
“Who was it from?”
“I... I don’t know,”
“I asked Mama to buy me one last year, but she said they are no longer sold anywhere.”
Vera blinked in confusion. Who the fuck would send such a unique and rare gift?
“What else?” Eudora pressed on, her curiosity undeterred.
Vera paused, it seems Eudora wasn’t aware of Ryu’s gift, but what if she was and it was all a test?
Panic gripped her momentarily, but just then, Professor Binns announced the end of the assignment, breaking the tension. Once the class ended, relief washed over her as she hastily gathered her things, her thoughts still swirling with unanswered questions and unresolved emotions.
She decided to skip Potions, and soon found herself laying on her bed in the quiet solitude of the room, the gifts spread out before her like silent interrogators of her heart.
The wand gem, mysterious and symbolically significant with its sun engraving, puzzled her deeply. Beside it lay the rose gold necklace from Ryu, its delicate chain and violet gemstone a testament to his thoughtfulness. But now, instead of feeling cherished, she felt a pang of disappointment and self-doubt.
Why had she allowed herself to believe that Ryu’s gesture held deeper meaning? How could someone as perfect and desirable as him ever see anything special in her?
"Ryu could never fancy someone like me," she whispered softly to Vinny. "He’s perfect and I’m... me."
Clutching the plush toy close, she sought comfort in its silent presence. "I’m so stupid! He probably only wants to be friends because of my family, just like Jane,"
Her mind then wandered to her perceived shortcomings—her plain appearance, modest means, and a deep sense of inadequacy. Picking up a small mirror from her bedside, she stared at her reflection with disdain.
She wiggled her thick eyebrows that seemed to dominate her face, stared at her dark blue eyes with disinterest, scrunched her sharp nose, and bit her dry lips.
Brushing a small rash on her cheeks, she then looked at her gloved hands, and tears welled up in her eyes.
"There's nothing special about me," she murmured. "Nothing pretty... Nothing at all."
But deeper than these superficial concerns lay a more profound fear—that she was fundamentally unworthy of love.
It was a fear that had gnawed at her for years, planted by a lifetime of feeling overlooked and unremarkable.
"How could I ever think that someone like me deserves love, Vinny?"
She couldn't shake the conflicting emotions surrounding Ryu's gift, the beautiful and undoubtedly expensive necklace that now weighed heavy in her hands. She yearned to wear such a gem, yet she couldn't escape the feeling that doing so would somehow diminish its value.
In her mind, the necklace belonged to a world of elegance and refinement far removed from her own reality.
With a heavy heart and a sense of resignation, she made her way out of the dorm, and using the Marauder's Map, located Ryu in the library, seated with Roger at a study table. Steeling herself with a deep breath, she approached them, her heart pounding in her chest.
"Hey," she greeted politely, trying to ignore the rush of nerves that threatened to overwhelm her.
Ryu's demeanor shifted noticeably upon hearing her voice, his attention drawn away from the book in front of him. He looked up swiftly, his expression unreadable.
Roger, ever perceptive, glanced between them with a knowing smirk. "I'm gonna go look for that book we talked about," he announced casually, winking at Ryu before excusing himself.
Left alone with him, she felt a mix of relief and apprehension. She had rehearsed what she wanted to say, but now, facing him directly, her words seemed to falter.
"I... I wanted to thank you," she began tentatively, her gaze searching his face for any hint of understanding. "I... I appreciate the necklace, but..."
“I’m glad you do,” he interjected, a hopeful smile gracing his lips.
She smiled back, then pulled out the velvet red box from her robes and, with trembling hands, extended it to him. “But I can’t accept it.”
Ryu’s face fell. “I thought you liked it?”
“I do, but—”
“Why are you returning it then?”
She swallowed past a lump in her throat. “It’s not the necklace—”
“What is it then?”
“It’s just—”
“What?”
“It’s far too expensive, Avery!”
Ryu shook his head, a confused look in his expression. “Expensive?” he repeated.
“Yes. It doesn’t feel right.”
“It’s not that expensive,”
“How much is it then?”
He scoffed, “I don’t ask for prices.”
“Of course you don’t..."
His eyes hardened. “I didn’t buy it to impress you with its price, Vera. I got it because of the way you looked at it back at the shop... it felt like you were meant to have it.”
She looked down, tears welling in her eyes. “But I don’t deserve it.”
“Deserve?” he scoffed, impatience seeping into his voice. “This isn’t about deserving, Vera. It’s a gift. Why can’t you just accept it?”
“I can’t,” she insisted, her voice breaking. “It’s too much.”
“You’re making this a bigger deal than it is. IT'S JUST A NECKLACE!”
“To you, maybe...”
“That doesn’t make any sense!” he snapped, “You liked it. I got it for you. End of story.”
“It’s not that simple, Avery.”
“Is this about your aunt? Does she not want you to have it?”
“No,”
“What then?”
“As I said, I don’t deserve it!”
He shook his head, anger flashing in his eyes. “Fine. If you don’t want it, then whatever. Burn it, throw it away, I don’t bloody care.”
Her heart broke at his harsh words, the warmth and sincerity she had hoped for replaced with cold indifference. She handed the box back to him, her hands shaking.
“Here,” she said quietly, barely able to speak past the lump in her throat. “I don’t want it.”
He snatched the box from her, his jaw set in a tight line. “Suit yourself, Black.”
"Look, it's not about you," she began, her voice a delicate attempt to diffuse the brewing storm.
"I doubt that," he retorted, a bitter chuckle escaping his lips. "I don't understand you, Vera. I tried to do something nice, and you threw it back in my bloody face. I bet if I was Diggory, you would be more than happy to accept it."
“I didn’t ask you to buy me anything, Avery! Oh, and let’s not pretend you didn’t have another intention.”
Ryu recoiled, panic flashing in his eyes. He swallowed hard, his voice trembling. "And, um, w-what do you think of that intention exactly?"
Her eyes narrowed, piercing through him. "I find it disgusting."
His expression twisted from seething anger to a raw, aching hurt. His head dropped, a shadow casting over his face as his fist clenched tightly around his quill, knuckles white with the force of his emotion.
"What?" she pressed on. "Did you think I didn't notice how you panicked when your mother asked if we were friends? It's obvious you're trying to befriend me to please her and your dad."
Ryu's head snapped up, a mix of surprise and relief flickering across his face. "Is that what you think?"
"You saw what happened with Jane and me, so why bother doing the same?"
"My parents don't care about these things, Vera. And they’re certainly not why I bought it for you.”
“Then why did you buy it for me?”
“For Merlin’s sake, why not?”
“Look at me!” she yelled, her voice breaking with emotion. “I’m not Eudora or Jane, okay? I don’t wear gold—I never did. In my world, these things have to be earned, and what did I ever do to earn them from you, huh? And how is it that you consider us friends when we are clearly from two completely different worlds? We barely talk to each other, Avery, and now you want me to just accept such an expensive gift from you? I don’t fucking deserve it! How is that so hard to understand, I don’t deserve gold—I don’t deserve gifts—I don’t deserve to be anyone’s friend and especially not yours! I’m sorry, I really am, and if you want me to apologize till I drop dead, I fucking will but please understand that I can’t have it!”
Ryu’s breath hitched at her confession, the weight of her words sinking into him like stones. For a moment, silence hung between them, thick and heavy.
“Blimey, Vera,” his eyes softened, the anger draining from his face. “What happened to you?”
She wiped away her tears, and tried to put on a brave face. “Nothing,”
“You used to be so bold and annoyingly full of life, but now... now you’re just—”
“Pathetic?”
“Sad.”
She looked down to her feet, her tears falling freely on the floor.
“You don’t talk to anyone,” he continued, “you sleep at the back of the class, you barely touch your food, and you don’t even annoy me like you used to. And now you’re here talking about earning and deserving—apologizing for what exactly? You’re like a completely different person. What happened, Vera, why did you change?”
“I didn’t change,” he voice broke, “I only realized what I truly am.”
“And what is that?”
She shook her head, her tears coming harder now. “Just a mistake.”
Ryu stood there, his eyes searching her face for answers that seemed to slip further away with each passing moment. The library around them fell into a suffocating silence that only seemed to amplify the heaviness of their conversation.
“I’m sorry, Ryu,” she whispered, and with one last, sorrowful look, turned and walked away, leaving him standing alone in the fading light, clutching the velvet box to his chest.
He watched her go, his heart shattering with every step she took, knowing that this time, he couldn't follow.
Chapter 37: Betrayal (Part 2)
Notes:
TW: Description of violence towards the end of the chapter.
Chapter Text
Sunday, March 17, 1991
March soon arrived, bringing with it the much-anticipated match between Ravenclaw and Gryffindor.
The entire school buzzed with excitement, and Vera tried to set aside her distress to cheer for her friends. She felt guilty for disrupting Alicia and Angelina's sleep with her constant nightmares, especially considering their rigorous training regime. She joined her housemates in the stands, clad in red and gold to show her support, hoping for a strong performance from the team.
The game was exhilarating, with Oliver leading with unwavering determination, the twins launching Bludgers with fierce power, and Alicia and Angelina darting through the air like swift birds. Felix chased after the Snitch with precision, but she couldn’t help but notice his hesitation whenever his hand neared it.
He could have caught it within the first five minutes, but perhaps he was trying to make the match more exciting, she thought.
Ravenclaw scored for the first time, with Roger making the goal, prompting her to rise to her feet and applaud for him. However, Lee swiftly pulled her back down, noticing her lapse in house loyalty.
"Settle down, idiot!" he snapped. "You're an embarrassment."
She chuckled. "Sorry! I got carried away."
He continued to tease her, and for the first time in two weeks, she found herself laughing and letting go of her negative thoughts.
"Look at Professor Flitwick," he then quipped. "He’s about to fall from the stands from excitement."
She glanced toward the stands where the professors were seated, amused by the sight of the diminutive Professor gesticulating with fervor. Yet, as her gaze wandered, she locked eyes with Morales.
His demeanor remained icy, his stare disconcerting, stirring discomfort within her. In that moment, memories flooded back: his outburst, the milk, her relentless nightmares, Michael…
Breathing became increasingly difficult, her heart pounding against her chest with immense pain. She attempted to gather herself and maintain a brave facade for her friends. However, as she glanced back at Morales and found his cold stare still fixed upon her, a surge of heat coursed through her body, though she felt inexplicably cold.
Rubbing her chest, she tried to take deep breaths, only to exacerbate the sensation. The voices around her grew unbearable, and her vision suddenly blurred. Without hesitation, she stood up and swiftly fled down and out of the stands.
She ran without pause, gasping for air as if she were drowning, stumbling and falling intermittently. Eventually, she found herself on her knees along the path leading to the castle.
The distant cheers from the stands nearby were overwhelmed by the cacophony of voices inside her head. Placing a trembling hand on her chest, she felt as though her heart might cease beating. But just as the overwhelming sensation threatened to consume her, she heard a voice calling out from behind.
"Are you alright?"
She didn’t turn, still struggling to catch her breath.
"Black," he said again, "Are you okay?"
He approached and lifted her up. "What's happening to you?"
Looking up at him, she struggled to speak. "Cass… I can’t… breathe," she gasped.
Cassius wore an unfamiliar expression, a blend of shock and concern. "Let me take you to the hospital wing," he offered, attempting to lift her.
"No," she protested, pulling him down, causing him to settle on the ground beside her. "I don’t… want… to."
"Stop being stubborn! Something is clearly wrong with you."
"No," she collapsed back down, tears streaming down her face. "No, no…"
"Come on, Black," he urged, his tone growing more urgent.
"Cassius," she breathed out, rubbing her chest and attempting to compose herself. "Why… why?"
Cassius was thoroughly perplexed and deeply distressed. “What?”
"Why," she breathed out again, her voice gaining clarity. "Why Cassius…”
“Why what?”
She swallowed, squinting her eyes as tears streamed down her cheeks. “Why won’t you grow your hair back?”
Cassius shook his head in confusion, unable to comprehend her sudden shift in focus.
"Why won't you just grow your hair back?" she repeated, her breathing steadier but her cries intensifying. “I know you're aware there's a charm for it, so why wouldn't you just do it, Cassius? Why won't you grow your hair?"
"It's none of your concern!"
"Just grow it back!" she sobbed hysterically. "Just grow your hair back!"
Cassius's confusion was growing. "Why do you care?"
"Why won't you grow it back?" she repeated, her voice desperate and her cries loud. "Why, Cassius, why!"
"Stop it!"
"It can grow back!" she sobbed, her voice breaking. "It can grow back..."
"Black, you have to breathe," he urged, holding her shoulders and shaking them gently. "Try and breathe."
"I can't... I can't,"
"You can. Try."
"I don't want to remember, I don't want to..."
"Breathe, Vera, breathe,"
She began to inhale deeply and exhale slowly, feeling the pain in her chest begin to subside. Her breathing steadied, but she still cried, tears streaming uncontrollably down her cheeks.
"You can't grow it back... Can you?" she sniffled, her voice trembling. "Because if you did, they would know,"
"What are you talking about?"
"And they would hurt you again."
Cassius's body stiffened, his eyes clouded with confusion. Despite his rapid breaths, he remained silent, studying her intently.
“It was a punishment, wasn't it?” she continued, “They took away what was most precious to you.”
"Did Ryu tell you?" he asked, a hint of anger coloring his words.
"He didn't need to."
"Then how would you know?"
Meeting his gaze, she saw the simmering anger in his bright green eyes. Swallowing hard, she fought to control her emotions, refusing to let more tears fall.
"You don't even like Quidditch, Cassius," she murmured, her tears subsiding. "But you were crying when you didn't secure the spot."
He remained silent, his lips quivering without forming words.
"Ryu sabotaged my potion so you could gain extra credits," she continued. "And you asked Snape to help you study every night to ensure you'd rank first."
He shook his head, his eyes registering disbelief. "That's not true."
"You never eat around your friends, but you always grab something from the table on your way out of the Great Hall."
He stayed silent.
"And your left hand..."
He swallowed nervously, his eyes widening.
"It twitches when someone calls you Mr. Warrington. Because... because it's your father's name as well."
He immediately recoiled, hastily standing and stepping back. "I- I don't know what you're talking about.”
She met his gaze. "You once told me you can read people like a newspaper."
"And?"
"So can I."
She stood up and approached him, but he instinctively stepped back. Undeterred, she closed the gap between them, gently taking his hands and rolling up his sleeves, revealing the red scars on his wrists.
Glancing down at them, she delicately traced her gloved fingers over the marks. "Mine always made sure never to harm me where it shows."
Cassius recoiled, withdrawing his hand. "W-what—"
"It's not like they cared about my well-being," she spoke softly, her gaze fixed ahead, "they just didn’t want to be exposed. But they always found a way. Their favorite punishment was starving me. It was the most effective because it was never obvious, and if someone noticed, they would simply lie and say I was doing it to myself. And now—I can go for days without food."
His lips quivered, but he remained speechless.
She slowly turned to face him. "They would test me, you see, to make sure I didn't eat or drink anything in secret. If my skin wasn't as pale as it should be, or if it relaxed too quickly. At the end of every day, they would grab my hand and pinch the skin on my knuckles. If it stayed pinched, it meant I hadn't eaten. But if it returned to normal quickly, it meant I had disobeyed them, and they would punish me again."
"Black—" he began, but his voice trailed off, unable to find the right words.
“I started eating anything. Chicken feed, uncooked eggs I found in tree nests, and even... even grass. When you're hungry enough, anything becomes food. And my hair..." she choked, unable to finish her thought, then buried her face in her hands, her body wracked with hysterical sobs. "I'm sorry, Cassius," she cried. "I'm sorry I made fun of you! I was cruel and stupid, and I shouldn't have."
"It's okay..." he said gently.
"I'm so sorry," she continued, her sobs intensifying. "You don't deserve it... no one deserves it. It's unfair, so terribly unfair."
She continued to sob, her hands covering her face, while Cassius watched. He struggled to keep it together, wiping his own eyes with his sleeve, trying to appear strong. After a while, her breathing steadied, and she agreed to go to the hospital wing with him. The two remained silent on their way there, and upon reaching one of the beds, she reclined on it and looked up at him.
"Can you forgive me?" she whispered, her voice frail.
Cassius took a deep breath, looking away. "As long as you promise never to tell anyone."
"I promise."
He nodded. "Then I forgive you. And I won't tell anyone what you said."
"Cassius..."
“Yes, Black?"
"Don't let him break you."
Cassius swallowed hard, his jaw tightening, then gave a slight nod and quickly turned away. As he reached the door to the hospital wing, he glanced back at her, now asleep. A tear slipped down his cheek, but he swiftly wiped it away and walked out.
Waking up hours later, Vera opened her eyes to the sounds of Ravenclaw players being treated after the game. Madam Pomfrey was busy with them, so she seized the opportunity to slip out unnoticed. However, just as she reached the door, the matron called out.
"Miss Black!" her voice was sharp with anger.
Vera hesitated, then turned to face her.
"How many times do I have to tell you not to use magic?" Madam Pomfrey shouted. "You can't keep doing this to yourself."
Vera remained silent, her gaze fixed on the floor.
"You will hurt yourself, Vera!" Madam Pomfrey continued, her tone more urgent. "This is not a game. It's your health... your life!"
Vera fought to keep herself from breaking down again.
"You will not do magic again, do you understand?"
That was it. Those words completely shattered her. The walls she had carefully constructed around her fragile state crumbled, and before she knew it, she was sobbing hysterically, the emotional floodgates opened wide.
"Oh, dear," Madam Pomfrey's expression softened upon seeing her distress. "Come on," she urged, gently guiding her to sit on a bed as she prepared some willow bark.
But this time, no amount of willow bark could ease the pain.
Monday, March 18, 1991
She woke up the next day, still in the hospital wing. Madam Pomfrey had removed her shoes and jacket and placed them neatly on a chair beside her. She felt numb, utterly numb. Slowly, she put on her shoes and made her way to the Gryffindor Tower.
Upon reaching the common room, she found the house elves tidying up after the previous night's celebrations. Gryffindor had won the match, a fact that brought her a fleeting moment of joy. Yet, she couldn't shake the awful feeling that engulfed her, a heavy cloud of despair that refused to lift.
The room was a mess of discarded streamers and empty butterbeer bottles, the aftermath of a night filled with laughter and cheer. She glanced around, the echoes of joy feeling like a distant memory. She took a moment to observe the house elves as they diligently scrubbed the floors, dusted the pillows, and magically restored everything to its proper place.
The sight was all too familiar, and far too unjust.
Taking a deep breath, she turned away from the scene and made her way upstairs to her dormitory to get ready for the day.
Just like the past few weeks, she spent her time in classes at the back, lost in her thoughts or doodling absentmindedly. She still couldn't bring herself to eat, and the mere thought of facing Professor Morales filled her with dread.
"He asked about you," Kenny informed her during lunch, “again,”
"And we told him you were sick," Patty added, with a hint of exasperation, “again…”
"Thanks, guys," she murmured, grateful for their continued cover.
"But you're missing so many lessons, Vee," Malika interjected, her tone laced with concern. "You're going to fail."
"I was going to fail anyway," she replied bitterly. "I suck at magic, remember?"
"You don't suck at it, Vera," Kenny said kindly.
"Yeah, you're good in potions," Malika added.
"Potions is hardly magic," she retorted. "It's science."
"But it's the hardest," Kenny persisted.
"And you're good at History of Magic too," Patty chimed in.
"Listen,” she spoke with a calm yet resolute tone. “I appreciate your concern, I really do. But let's face the truth, I will never be able to do magic. And strangely, I'm okay with it now."
Her friends exchanged uneasy glances, unsure of how to respond.
"I don’t even know what the point of magic is anymore," she continued, "It's supposed to make our lives better, yet many people here are still struggling just to get by. The world we live in is no different from the Muggle one—filled with the same hatred, the same pain. It all feels meaningless, and sometimes I wonder if life would be simpler without magic. At least then, we'd understand that this is it. But having magic and not using it to stop others' suffering... it just feels wrong. It feels wrong, and it's awful. And I don't want to be part of it anymore."
A tear glistened in her eye, but she quickly brushed it away, determined to maintain her composure.
"I wouldn’t mind a life without it," she confessed. "Maybe become an artist, a cook, or even a writer—I'm not entirely sure yet. But what I do know is that I want to create things that bring joy and make people feel less lonely. Nothing fancy or magical, just simple happiness."
Her friends sat in stunned silence, absorbing her words with wide-eyed disbelief.
"But it feels like an impossible dream," she whispered, "how can I give what I don’t have myself?"
"Vera…" Kenny's voice caught in his throat, but before he or anyone else could say anything, she rose from the table and hurriedly left, unable to bear the weight of their gazes any longer.
She couldn't believe she had allowed herself to spill her innermost thoughts like that. Vulnerability was a foreign territory she loathed traversing, and being the object of pity was even worse. But above all, she despised how her emotions had betrayed her, laying bare her true feelings about the wizarding world.
As she made her way out of the Great Hall, a pang of regret gnawed at her. She hoped against hope that they wouldn't divulge her confession.
During Herbology that day, she purposefully kept her distance from the rest of the class, hoping to avoid any probing questions or unwelcome remarks. To her relief, her classmates seemed unbothered, allowing her to focus on the task at hand.
Professor Sprout instructed them to evaluate the plants they had been tending to for the past few months. Taking her assigned plant, she retreated to a secluded corner near the magical flowers pit. Lost in thought, she found herself gazing at one of the vibrant blooms when Cedric approached.
"Everything alright there, Piggy?"
She turned to him with a faint smile. "Just fine, Snorty," she replied, grateful for his presence.
Cedric had a knack for lifting spirits. He was the class’s ray of sunshine, and its most charming student. His infectious smile could brighten anyone's day, and with just one glance, he had the power to make someone feel better.
"Not quite ourselves today, huh?" he remarked, noting her subdued demeanor as he settled down beside her.
She attempted to avoid his gaze, keeping her eyes fixed on a white flower that resembled a poppy but with a magical illuminating stamen.
Cedric noticed her fixation. "I know just the thing to cheer you up," he teased, reaching over to pluck the flower.
"Cedric, no," she protested, rising from her seat. "Professor Sprout will have your head for that."
"She won't," he insisted, stepping in front of her with a mischievous smirk. "She likes me," he added with a wink.
She playfully rolled her eyes, unable to suppress a small smile. "Who doesn't?"
He returned her smile before handing her the flower, but as she took it from him, a sudden tightness gripped her chest. She squeezed her eyes shut, trying to push away the memories that threatened to resurface.
He noticed her sudden change in expression. "You don't like it?"
"No, it's lovely, it's just..." She trailed off, unsure of how to articulate her feelings.
"I know what it is," He interjected, a playful glint in his eyes. "It's because it's white, eh?"
Her lips quivered slightly, but she remained silent, her mind swirling with memories and emotions.
"Lucky for you," he continued, "I know just how to fix it."
With a graceful flick of his wand, he cast a spell that enveloped the delicate flower. Instantly, its petals burst into a deep, passionate red, shimmering with a golden essence that echoed Gryffindor's pride.
Vera's eyes widened in awe as she beheld the transformation, a soft gasp escaping her lips. Her heart swelled with a warmth that spread from the flower to every corner of her being.
Looking up, she found Cedric watching her with a tender smile, his eyes reflecting the flickering light of the spell.
But before she could fully grasp the moment, he gently lifted the flower from her palm, and drew her closer to him.
"What are you doing?" she whispered, her voice betraying both curiosity and a hint of nervousness as her pulse quickened under his gaze.
Cedric's reply was a soft silence, his expression speaking volumes as he brushed a stray tendril of hair away from her face, his fingers lingering against her skin.
The intimacy of his touch sent a cascade of tingles down her spine, and she swallowed hard, unable to tear her gaze from his.
With a gentle precision, he tucked the transformed flower behind her ear.
As he adjusted the stem, securing it in her hair, his breath caressed her cheek, his voice a mere whisper against her ear. "I believe it suits you better this way," he murmured.
In that moment, the memories came crashing down, and she felt herself sinking, unable to find solid ground. She closed her eyes, wishing for an escape, but knowing there was none.
The scars inside her ran too deep, and no amount of magic could ever heal them.
As Cedric noticed her distress, his expression shifted to one of concern. "Oh no," he exclaimed softly, reaching out to touch her arm. "You're still sad... maybe I should try pink?"
She looked up at him, her eyes shimmering with unshed tears, then shook her head gently, attempting to compose herself. "No, it's beautiful."
"But you're still sad, Piggy."
She swallowed hard, struggling to keep her emotions in check as tears threatened to spill over.
"No matter what it is, Vera," he continued, "you're going to get through it. I believe in you."
His words, though filled with hope, only intensified the turmoil swirling within her. She wanted desperately to be brave, for Cedric, for everyone who had supported her through the darkest of times. But no matter how hard she tried, she felt like she was sinking deeper and deeper into despair.
Cedric continued to regard her with a sympathetic expression. "Would you like a hug?" he asked gently.
She nodded slightly, yearning for the comfort his embrace promised.
He pulled her closer, enveloping her in warmth and safety. Resting her head against his chest, she closed her eyes, allowing herself to be consumed by the moment, if only briefly, away from the weight of her burdens.
"Thanks, Snorty," she whispered gratefully as they parted.
"Now cheer up, eh?" he encouraged, still holding onto her shoulders.
"I'll try," she replied softly.
With a final smile, he walked away, leaving her to grapple with her thoughts and emotions, the heaviness in her heart refusing to dissipate. She swallowed hard, steeling herself to maintain a facade of composure as she turned back to tend to her plant.
But her resolve swiftly faltered when she caught Maddie's gaze—tears shimmering in her eyes, a tumult of emotions etched across her face.
She bit her lip, realizing in an instant that Maddie had saw what happened and misunderstood everything, fueled by her own feelings for Cedric.
"That's enough for today," Professor Sprout's voice cut through the tension, "make sure to submit your report before the end of the week."
The class dispersed, and Maddie was the first to leave, her hurried footsteps echoing through the garden. Vera hastily packed her bag, fumbling to remove the flower from her hair as she hurried after her friend.
"Mads, wait!" she called desperately, but Maddie quickened her pace. Reaching the edge of the gardens, she finally turned around.
"Yes, Vera?" she said calmly, though her flushed cheeks, tear-streaked face, and trembling smile betrayed the storm of emotions raging within.
"Maddie, I'm so sorry," Vera began, her words tumbling out in a rush. "It's not what you think, I swear."
Maddie let out a brittle laugh, a single tear tracing down her cheek. "What are you talking about?"
"I didn't mean to... Mads, I would never intentionally hurt you."
Maddie's eyes welled up, but she quickly brushed away the tears. "I don't care," she replied, her tone masking the hurt beneath.
"Mads, I'm so sorry."
"Stop saying that!" Maddie's voice snapped suddenly, "I don't care, do you hear me? Do whatever you want. Hug him, snog him—I couldn't care less."
"But—"
"Not everything is about you, Vera! You might think the world revolves around you, but it most certainly doesn't. We’ve endured your dramatic nonsense for weeks but we’ve had enough! I mean congratulations, you’ve got everyone’s attention now. Nobody’s got anything to talk about except for poor sad Vera. But I’ll tell you what, we are all sick of it, you hear me? We are all sick of you!"
Her words hit like a physical blow, and Vera was stunned into silence. Utter silence.
She remained tense, her heart was still aching from her exchange with Cedric, but now—It was completely and undeniably broken.
Maddie's expression softened momentarily, clouded with guilt.
"Vera, I'm—" she began, but her words were cut off by a sudden commotion from behind.
"FIGHT, FIGHT, FIGHT!" the class erupted into chants, forming a circle.
Vera and Maddie both turned to see the cause of the uproar, just as Sarah chimed in. "Maddie, come on," she urged, pulling her friend. "Let's go watch!"
"What's going on?"
"It's Cedric and Avery," Sarah explained excitedly. "They're about to go at it!"
Maddie's face flushed with concern as she darted toward the fight, with Vera following closely behind. As the two reached the circle surrounding Cedric and Ryu, they found the two grappling on the ground, with Ryu on top, delivering blow after blow
"What happened?" Vera shouted to Fred, who stood nearby.
"Who knows," Fred dismissed her, his attention focused on the spectacle unfolding before them.
"Someone stop him!" Maddie cried out, tears welling in her eyes.
But Ryu seemed relentless, his usually calm demeanor replaced by a frenzy of aggression. Vera watched in shock as he unleashed a flurry of punches and scratches on Cedric, who struggled beneath him.
"Get off of him!" Maddie's voice cracked with desperation, her tears flowing freely.
But Cedric's retaliation was swift and forceful.
With a decisive move, he delivered a powerful knee to Ryu's stomach, causing him to collapse to the ground in agony. Despite his cries of pain, Cedric showed no mercy, raining down a barrage of punches upon him.
Ryu struggled beneath his onslaught, attempts to defend himself futile.
Vera watched the brutal scene unfolding before her with a growing sense of dread, and fear gripped her heart as she observed the violence escalating. Heat surged through her body, and a cold sweat broke out on her skin. Her throat constricted, making it increasingly difficult to breathe, and the cacophony of voices around her melded into an indistinct blur.
"Vera," Alicia's concerned voice pierced through the chaos, "Are you okay?"
But she couldn't respond. She felt paralyzed, unable to tear her gaze away from the unfolding confrontation.
Her hand instinctively moved to her chest, her fingers pressing against her racing heart as she continued to watch, her own distress mirroring the violence before her. The brutal fight continued unabated, with Cedric gaining the upper hand.
As Professor Sprout finally arrived on the scene, Cedric delivered a final devastating blow to Ryu's face, and Vera watched in horror as blood erupted from his mouth, splattering onto the ground below.
The sickening sound of the impact reverberated in her ears, triggering a visceral response within her.
“Michael…” she whispered just as her body went rigid.
Numbness spread through her limbs, and her vision began to blur. The sight of blood, coupled with the visceral sounds of violence, proved too much for her to bear.
"Stop it, both of you!" Professor Sprout's voice boomed, cutting through the chaos. "This is completely unacceptable!"
Despite her intervention, Ryu rose to his feet, spitting out blood defiantly, then made a desperate attempt to launch himself at Cedric once more. But before he could reach him, Alicia's scream pierced through the tumult, drawing everyone’s attention with a jolt of fear.
"Vera!" her voice echoed through the chaos, her tone filled with urgency and alarm.
Vera fell to the ground, her body convulsed uncontrollably, and her breathing labored and shallow.
Roger swiftly interjected, cradling her head in his lap. “She’s having a seizure,” he pleaded to professor sprout.
With bated breath, the onlookers watched in silent terror as her condition worsened. The frenzied cries of Maddie and Malika only served to amplify the sense of dread that permeated the air.
Even Ryu and Cedric, momentarily forgotten in the wake of her distress, remained frozen in shock.
As her eyes dimmed and her movements grew weaker, a collective sense of helplessness washed over the group.
Tears streamed down her cheeks as she fought desperately for each breath, her gaze pleading for relief from the torment consuming her. Then, in a heart-wrenching moment, the light in her eyes flickered and faded, leaving behind an eerie silence that seemed to envelop them all.
As her consciousness waned, she found herself drifting in a realm between wakefulness and oblivion. Faint sounds filtered through the haze, but she remained detached, cocooned in a state of profound weakness.
“Vera, can you hear me?”
In a fleeting moment of clarity, her eyelids fluttered open, revealing a dimly lit world swirling with shadows. Through the fog of her senses, she glimpsed Professor Morales' concerned visage hovering over her, his features etched with worry, and despite the instinctive urge to recoil, she lacked the strength to do so.
Then, with a feeble exhale, she surrendered once more to the encompassing darkness.
Chapter 38: Healing
Chapter Text
Tuesday, March 19, 1991
Vera awoke to the soothing scent of chamomile and the gentle rustle of curtains.
As she blinked against the brightness, she realized she was in the hospital wing. The room was serene, a stark contrast to the chaos of her last memory. As her eyes adjusted, she noticed Vinny, her beloved stuffed cat, nestled beside her on the bed.
The sight of his familiar, worn face brought a small measure of comfort, and she reached out weakly, pulling him close. Her gaze then shifted to the end of her bed, where an array of cards, flowers, and boxes of chocolate awaited. The sight was overwhelming, filling her with a blend of gratitude and unease.
"Well, you're awake," a soft voice said. She turned to see Madam Pomfrey approaching, her expression a mix of sternness and concern. "You gave us all quite a scare, young lady."
She attempted a weak smile. "I'm sorry,"
"Nonsense," Madam Pomfrey replied briskly, though her tone softened. "You need to rest. No more excitement for you."
She nodded obediently, her mind swirling with thoughts and memories, then glanced at the cup of chamomile tea sitting on her bedside.
“Mr. Avery brought it over,” Madam Pomfrey informed her while adjusting the blankets. “Relentless, that boy. He’s been here three times already to check if you had woken up.”
“Ryu?” she asked, her mind flashing back to his fight with Cedric, and the image of blood gushing from his mouth. “Is he alright?”
Madam Pomfrey smirked. “He'll live. He’s been more fretful about you than his face.”
“Really?”
“Not just him. Everyone’s been worried about you. They’ve been leaving these for you all day.”
Her gaze shifted back to the end of her bed, where the cards, flowers, and boxes of chocolate were arrayed. One by one, she read through the kind words, her heartwarming with each message.
“Get well soon! - Alicia and Angelina”
“Hang in there, Vee. We need you. - Fred and George”
“Stay strong lovely…. xoxoo. - Malika”
“Please get better soon. - Kenny”
“We’re all rooting for you. - Patty”
“Piggy, you’re an amazing person and a wonderful friend. We’re all here for you, no matter what. Get well soon. - Cedric”
A small smile played on her lips as she read their encouraging words, her chest tightening with a mixture of pain and gratitude. She picked up another card, recognizing the familiar handwriting.
“I am sorry to hear about what happened. I ache for you. You are the bravest person I know, and no matter what it is, you will get through it. Ad sol per aspera, kitten. - F
Her eyes grew misty, and she wiped away a tear before it could fall. Each note was a reminder of the support and love surrounding her, even when she felt most alone. Then, she found another card, neatly folded and tucked beneath a bouquet of violet wildflowers.
"I hope you are well, though I must admit, the sight of you lying in that hospital bed filled me with worry. I made you another cup of tea, and this time I added some honey to make it taste better. Hope you get better soon, I miss your annoying face and nagging voice." -Ryu
She couldn't help but chuckle softly as she read his letter. His words were touching, but they also left her feeling a bit puzzled. She couldn't shake the odd sense of his care for her despite the way she treated him on Valentine’s.
Her mind wandered back to the altercation she had witnessed between him and Cedric just before everything went awry. Their heated exchange had been unexpected, and their violence was terrifying.
As she pondered the reason behind their fight, she glimpsed a card from Maddie, and her heart skipped a beat.
“Vera, I’m so sorry for what I said. I was hurt and I lashed out. Please forgive me. We are not sick of you, it was wrong for me to say so. We love you, and we need you. - Maddie”
Tears welled up in her eyes as she absorbed the words. With a trembling hand, she clutched the card to her chest, overwhelmed by a flood of emotions. Despite the challenges they faced, she knew that their friendship was worth fighting for. And with this heartfelt apology, she found renewed hope that they could mend the rifts that had formed between them.
She clutched Vinny tightly, feeling a renewed sense of hope and strength. The love and support of her friends were like a lifeline, pulling her back from the brink.
Madam Pomfrey watched her with a gentle smile. “You’re not alone, Vera. Remember that.”
She nodded, her voice breaking as she whispered, “Thank you, Madam.”
She lay back against the pillows, the cards clutched in her hands, and closed her eyes. The darkness was still there, but it felt a little less overwhelming now. Surrounded by the tangible evidence of her friends’ care, she felt a flicker of hope that maybe, just maybe, she could find her way back to the light.
Seeing her emotional state, Madam Pomfrey hesitated for a moment before handing her one last card. "This one is from Professor Morales," she said gently.
Vera's hands trembled as she took it. Her heart pounded in her chest as she unfolded the parchment.
“Dearest Vera,
I am deeply sorry for everything you’ve been through. Please know that you are not alone, and we are all here to support you. If you ever decided to talk, please let me know.
Sincerely,
Eduardo Morales”
As she read the words, a dam inside her broke.
The tears she had been holding back came rushing out in a torrent. She threw the card away and began to cry hysterically, the sobs wracking her body.
Madam Pomfrey hurried to her side, wrapping an arm around her shoulders. "It's alright, Vera. Let it out."
But the grief and pain were too overwhelming. Her cries grew louder, her body shaking with the force of her emotions. All the fear, the trauma, and the weight of her struggles poured out in an uncontrollable flood.
Minutes felt like hours as she cried, releasing the anguish she had held inside. Memories of starvation, of whispered lies, of punishments that left scars not just on her body but etched into her very soul. The sensation of being pinched and prodded, of being scrutinized for signs of disobedience, flooded back with horrifying clarity.
She remembered the hollow ache of hunger that gnawed at her insides, the cruelty in her foster parents' eyes as they enforced their tests. The isolation, the endless nights of crying herself to sleep, the constant fear that the next day would bring more pain. And Michael.
Madam Pomfrey, unaware of the true depth of her agony, tried to soothe her. "There, there, it's going to be alright," she said softly, patting her back.
But Vera knew better. The pain was not just physical; it was an unrelenting, suffocating despair that no potion could ever heal.
Her sobs grew louder, echoing through the hospital wing. "I can't... I can't do this anymore," she cried, clutching her chest as if trying to hold herself together. "It hurts too much... everything hurts."
Madam Pomfrey watched helplessly, her heart breaking for the little girl before her. She could treat physical wounds, but this was beyond her skill.
"You're safe here, Vera. We'll help you, I promise," she whispered, but her words felt hollow, unable to reach the depths of her suffering.
In that moment, Vera felt utterly alone, drowning in a sea of her own pain. The memories, the guilt, the shame—it all came crashing down. Eventually, her sobs began to subside, and she lay back against the pillows, utterly exhausted. She closed her eyes, hoping all her memories would vanish when she opens them again.
She woke up hours later to the soft light filtering through the hospital wing's windows. She felt drained but slightly lighter, as if the outpouring of tears had washed away a tiny part of the heaviness inside her. She glanced around, seeing Vinny still by her side and the many cards, flowers, and chocolates at the end of her bed.
Madam Pomfrey appeared with a tray of food. "You should try to eat something, dear," she encouraged, placing the tray on her lap.
She nodded and picked up a piece of toast, but her appetite was nowhere to be found. She nibbled on the edge, the taste of food turning to ash in her mouth. After a few attempts, she set the toast back down, unable to force herself to eat.
She picked up Ryu’s tea and found it still warm. She sipped it slowly, the taste of chamomile mixed with honey bringing her a desperate sense of comfort.
She tried again to eat, picking up a small piece of fruit this time. She chewed slowly, but the food felt heavy and unappetizing. The memories and worries swirling in her mind made it impossible to muster any hunger.
Just when she was about to give up, she heard footsteps approaching behind the curtains. Her heart quickened, a mix of curiosity and anxiety rising within her.
“Vera?” a soft voice called, “Are you awake?”
She jolted, recognizing the voice immediately.
“Felix?” she whispered.
He stepped inside, closing the curtain behind him. “Hey, Kitten.”
“What are you doing here? Someone might see you!”
“Don’t worry about that right now,” he said, walking over and sitting on the edge of her bed, his eyes scanning her face. "How are you feeling?"
She sighed, not wanting to cause him concern. “I’m fine.”
“You know you don’t have to lie to me, right? It's okay not to feel fine. Just... take your time."
She nodded, avoiding his gaze. She felt guilty for causing others to worry and wished she could simply disappear from embarrassment.
Felix gave her a gentle smile. “Maybe start by eating a little?”
She looked down at the tray and then back at him.
His presence was comforting, and she felt a flicker of hope. "Okay," she said softly, picking up the toast again.
With him sitting beside her, she managed to take a few more bites. It wasn’t much, but it was a start.
“Thank you for the card,” she said after a pause.
“I meant every word of it.”
“Am I really the bravest person you know?”
“You are.”
“You must not know a lot of people, then.”
He chuckled. “Why would you say that?”
“Because I’m not brave, Felix.”
“Of course you are.”
“No, I’m not,” she said bitterly. “Brave people don’t spend more time in the hospital than their dorm, and they don’t look at food like they’re at war with it.”
He smiled. “You are brave, though. Going against your family’s ideals and beliefs—that’s the bravest thing a person can do.”
She looked down, feeling immense guilt. Oh, if only he knew the truth.
“I am not what you think,” she said, squinting. “Honestly, I am no different from any of them.”
“Of course you are.”
“I’m not!” she exclaimed. “I am like them—just as selfish and evil.”
“Please don’t say that.”
“I’ve done a terrible thing, Felix,” she choked out, her words escaping like bullets.
Felix shook his head, confused.
“At first,” she continued, “I don’t know why, but I couldn’t remember. But now I do—I remember it, and I feel so horrible.”
Tears began rolling down her cheeks, and she tried to hold it together. “No matter how hard I try now, I will never be able to let go of it.”
“I am sure whatever happened wasn’t your fault, Kitten. You are not a horrible person.”
“But what if I was? What if, deep down, I was as evil as my dad or my grandad?”
He moved closer, his voice gentle but firm. “You are not them, Vera. You could never be evil, and you are certainly not selfish. You’re the most wonderful person I’ve ever met. You treat everyone with the utmost kindness and respect. You brighten up everyone’s day with your laugh and your amazing cookies. I mean, you make me—” He paused, as if the word he was searching for wasn’t enough.
She looked at him, her eyes searching his face as her tears began to subside.
“And you are brave—so incredibly brave,” he continued. “Remember when you were falling and told me you decided to accept it? You twisted your body and embraced what was coming. That takes immense courage, Vera.”
“Accepting death takes courage?”
“Absolutely!” he affirmed, moving even closer. “Diving into the unknown is one of the scariest things anyone can face. It takes a lot of faith, and to embrace death, to make peace with it? That is extraordinary. And you, Vera, are an extraordinary person.”
“I am not—”
“Kitten,” he sighed, “You’ve been through so much, and I know terrible things have happened to you. I may not know the details, but I can see the pain in your eyes. Despite everything, you’ve remained kind and true to yourself. You’ve moved forward before, and now is no different. You’re going to be okay—you just need to let go one more time.”
She began to sob again, unable to control her emotions. “I don’t know how,” she choked out.
“You can start by talking about it,” he gently suggested. “Just by putting it out there.”
“I can’t—”
“Just try, Kitten—try.”
She sniffled. “I can’t tell anyone,”
“Then write it down on a piece of parchment and throw it in the fire. You just need to get it out of you.”
“But it will always be there... In my head.”
“I know, but it will help you see things more clearly.”
“What if it doesn’t work?”
He smiled softly. “I do it all the time. Whenever I’m sad, I write down everything I’m feeling on a piece of parchment then burn it.”
“But—what makes you sad?”
He took a deep breath, looking down. “I have a lot of fights with my dad. Most of the time, they’re stupid arguments about my marks or Quidditch, but every time we fight, I don’t say anything—I can’t say anything. So I just write it all down and then get rid of it.”
“Is he—” she sniffled, “is he horrible to you?”
“He’s just strict but has a good heart. He just wants the best for me. But he doesn’t care about what I want. Sometimes, I feel like my life isn’t my own.”
“What is it that you want?”
He chuckled. “Right now, I want you to stop crying and maybe eat a bit more.”
He moved the tray closer and, with a flick of his wand, warmed the toast again. She picked it up and nibbled on it.
“Take a larger bite,” he teased, “or I’ll shove it all in your mouth.”
She smiled faintly, then tried to take another bite, but it was still a small one.
“Come on, Kitten.”
She put it back on the tray. “I want to but—”
“But what?”
“I don’t like marmalade.”
He smiled. “Me neither, it’s a crime against food.”
She managed a chuckle.
“What kind of jam do you like?” he asked.
“Strawberry.”
“Alright then.”
He pulled out his wand again and waved it over the toast. In an instant, the orange marmalade transformed into a rich, red strawberry jam. She picked it up and took a larger bite.
“Yes, that’s it,” he encouraged softly. “Good girl.”
She smiled at him, feeling a warmth that went beyond the food. She continued eating, her appetite slowly returning, feeling more comfortable with Felix by her side, his gaze gentle and reassuring.
They sat in companionable silence for a moment, as she continued eating and sipping Ryu’s tea. The room seemed to soften around them, the space between them filled with unspoken understanding and a budding sense of something more.
“Healing.” he suddenly said.
She looked up from the tray. “What?”
“That’s what I want. To be a healer.”
“A healer?” she echoed, surprised. “Really?”
He smiled warmly. “I want to make people feel better, you know?”
“That’s lovely, Felix, but why can’t you do it?”
His smile faded. “My dad again. He thinks it’s not a job for people like—us,”
“Oh... I’m sorry.”
“Like I said, he wants the best for me. But he thinks the best path is for me to take over the family business, become a professional seeker, or simply be dead. Those are the only options I've got. I respect what my family has been through to build their empire and all the sacrifices they've made, but I don’t like it. I can’t stand business meetings, money talk, or dealing with laws.”
“And what about becoming a seeker?”
He smiled again. “I enjoy it. I really do. But I don’t want to be a seeker for the rest of my life. I want to be someone who can make a real change in the world.”
“I feel the same way.”
“I only became a seeker because of him anyways. He bought me my first broom when I was three, and trained me every day for years. My dad he—” looking down, he smiled faintly, “he loves me, but I think he can’t see that his love can be suffocating at times.”
Her stomach twisted in pain, not just for him, but from the desperation and envy that swirled within her like a storm.
“Anyway, it’s all just talk” he continued, “I’ll end up doing what he wants eventually.”
“But that’s unfair.”
“I can’t go against him, Vera. Or any of them. It’s woven. They’ve planned it all, you see, since the day I was born. Being in Gryffindor, becoming a seeker, a prefect, going into the family business after school, marrying into another business family. It’s all been done for generations, and I’m expected to follow it all. No deviations. No changes.”
“But Felix,” she interjected softly, “it’s your life, not theirs.”
He sighed deeply. “I know…”
“Does your father know about your dream?”
“No, I never dared to tell him.”
“You said he wants the best for you, so I think if you told him, he’d understand.”
“You don’t know him, Vera.”
“But you have to try, at least!”
He took another deep breath, burying his face in his hands. For a couple of minutes, the room lapsed into silence.
“I’ll make you a deal,” he said suddenly, lowering his hands and turning to face her. “If you choose to let go, I promise I’ll talk to him.”
Her eyes widened in surprise. “W-what?”
“Let go of whatever’s holding you back,”
“But—”
“Be brave for both of us.”
“I can’t—”
“Why not?”
“Because—you might hate me if you knew.”
His expression softened. “I could never hate you, Vera.”
She took a moment to absorb his words, studying his kind eyes. She couldn’t understand why someone like him would care so deeply for her.
“So we have a deal?” he teased, extending his hand. “You focus on getting better, and I’ll talk to my dad about wanting to weave my own destiny.”
She looked up at him, his kindness stirring butterflies in her stomach. She deliberated over his proposal for a moment. Maybe he was right. Perhaps the only way to stop feeling this way was to let go of everything, even if it meant facing consequences or changing perceptions. Maybe then, she could finally be free from the torment that had haunted her for so long.
With hesitation, she raised her arm and extended her hand. “We have a deal.”
“That’s the spirit,” he grinned, still holding her hand. “Now, the second part of our deal is to finish the toast and all the fruit too.”
She grinned back and nodded, feeling a glimmer of optimism growing inside her.
“I’ll leave you to it then,” he said gently. “Should I fetch you some parchment?”
She looked down, gathering her thoughts. “Um, no. But I do have a favor to ask you.”
“Anything, Vera.”
“Can you tell Professor Morales that I’d like to see him?”
Felix nodded without hesitation. "Of course. I’ll go find him right away." He stood up, giving her hand a reassuring squeeze before heading towards the curtains. "Hang in there, okay?"
She watched him leave, feeling a strange mixture of apprehension and hope swirling within her. She wasn’t entirely certain what she would say to Professor Morales, but deep down, she knew she needed to confront the emotions and memories that had been plaguing her.
Leaning back against the pillows, she stared at the ceiling, her mind racing with thoughts. She understood she had to proceed one step at a time, and facing Professor Morales was her initial stride toward healing, no matter how daunting it felt.
Anxiously, she waited, her emotions swirling like a whirlwind. Then, she heard footsteps approaching.
"May I come in, Vera?" he said softly.
She clutched Vinny tightly, then cleared her throat. “Y-yes.”
Slowly, Morales drew back the curtains and approached her bed, pulling up a chair to sit beside her.
“How are you feeling?” he gently inquired.
She avoided his gaze, still unable to meet his eyes. “Better.”
“Good, that’s good,” he paused, studying her expression for a moment. “I was relieved when Mr. Wood informed me that you wanted to see me. Now, before you say anything, I believe I owe you an apology.”
“Sir—”
“No, please listen to me,” he interrupted earnestly. “I was very wrong for what I did. I let my emotions get the better of me that day, but that didn’t give me the right to yell at you or pressure you to speak. And the milk,” he paused, slapping his forehead in regret, “Vera, I am sorry. Truly sorry. I believed my actions were justified, that my strategy would work, but now I see how selfish and foolish I was. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me.”
“I... I forgive you, sir.”
He let out a sigh of relief, his expression softening with gratitude.
“And it did work."
His brows furrowed in confusion. “What?”
“Your strategy—it worked.”
He shook his head, unable to believe his ears. “How?”
She looked down at Vinny, gently pulling on its ear as she pondered what to say. Then, taking a deep breath, she focused on the violet wildflowers at the end of her bed. “I can never forget anything—I remember everything ever said to me. Every person I’ve ever met and what they were wearing each time. I can remember pages of books I read, and sometimes I replay films in my head as if I’m watching them again. But for some reason, I couldn’t remember what happened that week on the farm. It was all so—confusing. Like trying to recall a dream when you first wake up. That was until... until the Thestrals.”
“What about them, dear?”
“A friend told me that the reason I see them is because I’ve seen death. But that didn’t make sense because I’ve never seen anyone die before. Then he said it could have been an animal, and that’s when it flashed in my mind. It wasn’t clear at first, like a scene from a film but with my eyes as the cameras. I didn’t understand what was happening, but I felt like I was dying. I thought it was only my imagination, but then I drank the milk in your office and it all came back at once—it all came back. The feeling of it in my throat, the sound of the goat, and my hair—I remember it all now, and I feel so horrible, sir—so horrible.”
She closed her eyes, and a tear fell down her cheek. Professor Morales moved closer and gently wiped it away with his finger.
“Vera,” he began, placing a reassuring hand on her shoulder, “whatever they did to you, I am sure you will be able to move past it. And I will help you, every step of the way,”
She looked up at him, and fresh tears welled up in her eyes. “It’s not what they did, sir. It’s what I did.”
His soft gaze suddenly turned into one of confusion. “What do you mean by that, Vera?”
She looked at him, then at Vinny, trying to calm herself, and taking a deep breath, she began. “It all started after Michael left.”
Chapter 39: The Memory
Notes:
MAJOR TWWWWW: Homophobic slurs, depictions of child abuse, description of violence, ethnic slurs!!!!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Part 1: Michael
It was the summer of 1986 when Michael returned.
He was Mr. Humphrey’s nephew and sole heir, having just turned twenty-one and graduated from a business school in London. Vera learned that he had been raised by the Humphreys after his parents tragically died in a car accident when he was eight. This was one of the main reasons the elderly farmers were considered eligible to foster her. Upon hearing of his arrival, she feared he might share his uncle’s cold and harsh demeanor.
But the moment Michael walked through the door, she knew he was different.
Tall and slender, with blond hair and bright green eyes, he greeted her with a warm smile that radiated kindness. However, the single silver earring in his left ear did not escape her notice, and certainly not Mr. Humphrey’s.
"Did I send you to London to become a faggot?" the old man sneered upon seeing him.
"Nice to see you too, Uncle," Michael replied calmly. "Glad to know you're still as bigoted as I remember."
"Watch your mouth, boy," Mr. Humphrey growled, his eyes blazing with anger.
Michael remained unfazed and swiftly turned to the seven year old who was shyly standing by the fireplace.
"Well, hello there," he said gently, crouching to meet her at eye level. "You must be Vera."
"Nice to meet you, sir," she replied politely.
"Sir?" he laughed. "Please, just call me Michael."
A shy smile tugged at the corner of her lips, and he pinched her cheek affectionately before reaching into his bag. "I hope you would like the gift I've brought."
He then pulled out a beautiful, large doll and handed it to her. Her eyes widened, and a broad grin spread across her face. The Humphreys had never liked dolls and had made her get rid of her old ones upon her arrival few months earlier.
"Oh, look at this!" Michael exclaimed. "It looks just like you—how convenient!”
She gazed at the black-haired doll with wide-eyed fascination, then turned to him with a grateful smile. The Humphreys exchanged disapproving looks, unimpressed by the way he was treating her. Vera was surprised herself; despite being raised by them, he didn’t seem like them at all.
They spent a lot of time together that summer. During the day, he would help her with the farm chores, which became enjoyable in his presence. He was also very proficient, having grown up doing the same tasks.
“I don’t mind any of this,” he said one day while picking up hay with a pitchfork. “It is honest work.”
"But the smell is awful!” she exclaimed.
He chuckled. “You’ll get used to it. And trust me, once you get out to the city, you’ll realize that animals are much more preferable to be around.”
“They poop a lot, though,”
“So do humans,” he replied, sitting next to her. “The only difference is that with animals, the shite only comes out of their arses. With humans, it comes out of their mouths as well.”
Vera nearly fell over with laughter, amused yet embarrassed by his language. But that was Michael—funny, unbothered, and undeniably smart.
He introduced her to a wide array of books, films, plays, and arts, and would regale her with stories at night before she went to sleep. They played football together, with him teaching her various tricks to improve her skills. And to evade the Humphrey's incessant nagging, they would often escape to the poppy field by the farm.
“They symbolize sacrifice,” he said one day, lying with her among the sea of red poppies.
“What does that mean?” she asked.
He smiled gently, his gaze drifting up to the sky. "It’s when people give up something very important for others, even their lives.”
“I still don’t understand, Michael.”
“You will one day.”
He would also join her pretend tea parties, much to Mrs. Humphrey’s disdain. She hated seeing Vera laugh and would frequently tell her to keep quiet or assign her pointless chores just to keep her away from him.
Although Vera had been with them for only a few months, she was already accustomed to their harsh nature. Obedience was key: never say no, never say "just a minute," and definitely never talk back. This was consistent with all the foster homes she had been through, but the difference with the Humphreys was their readiness to curse at her or call her atrocious names if she made any mistake.
"Come here, girl," Mr. Humphrey grumbled one night, sitting by the TV with a bottle of whiskey in one hand and the remote in the other. "Make me a sandwich."
"Yes, sir," she responded, rising from her play date with Michael, who lay on his belly by the fireplace.
"Sit down, Vera." Michael suddenly interjected, causing her to freeze in place. He then turned to his uncle. "She's not your maid, Gerald."
Mr. Humphrey paused mid-drink, visibly shocked, and turned to him. "What did you just say, boy?"
"Are you deaf now? I said she's not a maid."
Mr. Humphrey set the bottle on the floor and walked toward him, and Michael began to brace himself. But instead of hitting him, Mr. Humphrey violently grabbed Vera by the hair. "Why did you stop?" he yelled. “I feed and shelter you, and this is how you return my kindness?”
"I'm sorry," she cried, struggling to free herself. "I'm sorry."
Michael swiftly rose to his feet. "Let go of her!"
"Or what?"
"Or I'll tell the police you're abusing your foster child."
He smirked, yanking Vera's hair harder. "With what proof? She doesn't have any bruises."
"Oh, so that's your strategy, huh?"
"I'm sorry, sir," Vera repeated, tears streaming down her cheeks.
"Do you think you can come back here and tell me how to run my house, boy?"
"No," Michael replied, his voice steady despite the fury in his eyes. "But I won't stand by and watch you hurt her. Let. Her. Go,"
"Not until she begs for forgiveness."
"I beg you, sir," Vera began.
Mr. Humphrey tightened his grip on her hair, his eyes cold and unyielding. "She must learn her place," he said, his voice laced with menace.
“I know it’s a family tradition to be a fucking chauvinist, but again she is not a maid. You're supposed to be taking care of her, not the other way around!”
Mr. Humphrey's grip loosened, and he let go of Vera, pushing her onto the wall.
He then glanced at Michael with a mix of surprise and anger. "Those like her, born of filth and sin, deserve no mercy. This is what they don't teach you in school, Michael: if you don't tame the wild beast, it will bite you. And this girl is no different. Don't be deceived by her innocent smile and soft voice; she is an unholy creature. I can smell her tainted rotten blood from miles away."
Michael rolled his eyes at him. “Enough with your Christian horseshit, you hypocrite rag,”
"You insolent little—"
He lunged at Michael, fist raised, but Michael was quicker. He grabbed Vera's hand and darted towards the stairs. "Come on!" he urged.
They bolted up the narrow staircase, Mr. Humphrey's furious shouts echoing behind them. Michael didn't look back as they reached Vera’s attic bedroom, slamming the door shut and locking it.
Vera was trembling, tears still streaming down her cheeks. "I'm so sorry, Michael," she whispered, her voice shaking.
He knelt beside her, his expression softening. "You have nothing to apologize for, Vera. None of this is your fault. Are you okay?"
She nodded, wiping her tears with the back of her hand. "What are we going to do?"
"We'll stay here for now. I'll make sure he doesn't hurt you again."
Mr. Humphrey's banging on the door interrupted the moment. "Open this door right now!" he roared.
Michael stood, positioning himself between her and the door. "Ignore him," he said firmly. "He can't get in."
The door rattled under Mr. Humphrey's assault, but it held firm. "You've crossed the line, Michael!" he bellowed. "You'll regret this!"
Michael took a deep breath, trying to steady his racing heart, and gave Vera a reassuring smile. "We'll be fine. He usually falls asleep quickly after one of his rages."
They huddled together on her bed, the sound of Mr. Humphrey's angry shouts and occasional banging on the door filling the tense silence. To distract her from the turmoil outside, Michael pulled a coin from his pocket.
"Want to see a magic trick?" he asked, a small smile tugging at his lips despite the situation.
Vera nodded eagerly, her eyes still wide with fear but now also with curiosity.
He held the coin between his fingers and waved his hand over it. Then, with a flourish, he opened his hand to reveal that the coin had disappeared.
She gasped in amazement. "How did you do that?"
He chuckled softly. "It's magic. I'm a wizard, you know."
Her eyes sparkled. "Can you teach me?"
He smiled warmly at her. "You want to be a witch?"
She nodded enthusiastically.
"Alright," he said, "First, you have to concentrate really hard." He placed another coin in her hand and closed her fingers around it. "Now, say the magic words with me: 'Abracadabra, hocus pocus.'"
She repeated the words earnestly, her brow furrowed in concentration, but when she opened her hand, the coin was still there.
Michael chuckled again. "It takes practice. But don't worry, we'll keep at it until you're a real witch."
***
“If I only knew…”
Morales gently shook his head. “Knew what, Vera?”
“They were just tricks, Professor!” she exclaimed, her voice trembling. “Simple tricks... I never imagined they would—” Her voice trailed off, her eyes narrowing as she struggled to compose herself.
“It’s alright, Vera,” Morales reassured her, placing a comforting hand on her back. “Just tell me more about Michael. Did he and his uncle always argue like this?”
She took a deep breath, collecting her thoughts. “There was hardly a moment they didn’t fight. I couldn’t understand what it was all about most of the time—politics, his friends in London, the way he dressed—but most of it was about the protests.”
“Protests?”
“Mr. Humphrey couldn’t stand that Michael cared so much.”
“Cared about what exactly?”
“About everything. He just couldn’t bear to see people suffer. That’s all.”
“I understand.”
“At first, it was almost routine. Michael would storm out during their fights and come back later, usually when Mr. Humphrey was asleep. But one night—”
“Yes?”
“He returned home late, after another protest. I heard voices downstairs…”
Her gaze grew distant, recalling the painful memory. “He tried to come in quietly, but Mr. Humphrey was waiting. The shouting was different that night—”
“What do you mean?”
“Mr. Humphrey was relentless. He accused Michael of betraying their family, of shaming them. I heard something break, like a vase or a glass, and I went downstairs to see what was going on. I stood behind the door, and I could hear them shout—”
***
“Have you completely lost your mind?" Mr. Humphrey yelled, "you're planning a march against Thatcher?”
"She has to fucking go, Uncle. And we’ll bloody make sure of it this time,”
"All of this for a bunch of black terrorists?"
"Terrorists?” Michael repeated, “They're fighting against oppression!"
“In another bloody continent!”
“Oppression is oppression, no matter where it happens. I won't sit idle while our fucking prime minister supports it. We’ll fight for them, just as we fought for the miners.”
Mr. Humphrey's face darkened with anger. "You marched for those bloody miners too, didn't you? Wasting your time on pointless protests!"
"They're not pointless to me."
Mr. Humphrey clenched his fists. "I'll cut you off, Michael. Remove you as my heir if you continue this nonsense."
“By all means, go ahead. I'd rather live poor and just than rich and complicit."
Mr. Humphrey chuckled condescendingly. “Well, would you look at that, not only a faggot, but a commie one too?”
"If believing in equality makes me a commie, then call me Karl,"
"You're a fool, boy!"
Michael smirked. “Better a fool with principles than a leech like you.”
***
"Hold on," Professor Morales interrupted, leaning forward with concern. "Are you certain that's the word he used?"
She confirmed with a nod. "He always called them leeches. He told me it’s because they always take but never give."
"I don't quite follow," Morales said, furrowing his brow. "Were the Humphreys wealthy?"
"Very wealthy," she replied, though she couldn’t really understand the correlation. "But they never showed it. Michael said they inherited lots of land in Cornwall but didn't do anything with it. They argued about it often. Michael would urge Mr. Humphrey to sell the lands to farmers so they could make a living. He also said people like him were the reason the country suffered, but I never understood that."
"I see," Morales murmured, stroking his beard in contemplation. "And then what happened?"
"Well," she began hesitantly, her voice dropping to a whisper, "Mr. Humphrey always found ways to punish me without leaving marks, so the social worker wouldn't notice and take me away. But with Michael... he was family, so it never really mattered."
***
The old man's face contorted with rage, and he delivered a brutal punch that sent Michael crashing to the floor with a sickening thud.
Vera's heart sank as she heard the impact, horror etched deeply on her face. She burst through the door, her breath catching in her throat at the sight of Michael lying there, blood streaming from his mouth, staining the floor beneath him.
"Michael!" she cried out, her hands trembling as she rushed to his side, desperate to help him up.
But Mr. Humphrey, fueled by fury, grabbed his belt and swung it menacingly. "Get out of here, girl!" he roared at her.
Michael managed a weak smile through the pain. "Vera, go," he said hoarsely, "please... go."
Tears streamed down her cheeks as she hesitated, torn between staying with him and obeying his plea. Before she could decide, Mrs. Humphrey appeared in the doorway, her face a mask of cold indifference.
She grabbed Vera's arm forcefully, pulling her away from him. Vera glanced back over her shoulder as Mrs. Humphrey dragged her out of the room. Through the narrowing gap of the closing door, she saw Mr. Humphrey raining down more blows on Michael, who cried out in agony.
Later that night, she found herself unable to sleep. The echoes of his cries and the haunting image of his bloodied face lingered painfully in her mind. With cautious steps, she slipped out of her room, ensuring the Humphreys were asleep, before silently making her way to his room.
There he lay on his bed, his face marred with bruises, tears streaking down his cheeks.
Her own tears welled up as she approached him. Sitting beside him, she gently took the end of her white nightgown and began to wipe away the blood, her touch tender and soothing. Michael managed a weak smile through his tears, grateful for her comforting presence yet unable to conceal his pain.
She continued to cleanse his face, her actions speaking volumes of the care and concern she felt. Then, without a word, she lay down beside him, wrapping her arms around him in a tender embrace. Exhausted and emotionally drained, they both eventually drifted off to sleep, finding a fragile sense of peace in each other's presence amid the turmoil of the night.
Vera woke up at dawn, and found herself in her bed—her nightgown stained red from the events of the previous night. She quickly changed clothes and hurried outside while the Humphrey’s were still asleep.
Dashing out to the field near the farm, she took her time picking a handful of bright red poppies. Clutching them tightly, she hurried back towards the house, eager to surprise Michael with this heartfelt gesture. But as she neared the door, her heart sank like a stone.
Michael was walking towards the gate with his bag slung over his shoulder. His bruised face bore a solemn expression, and there was a determined resolve in his stride that twisted her stomach with worry.
She couldn’t believe he was leaving, or that he wasn’t planning on saying goodbye.
"Michael!" she called out, rushing towards him with the poppies in her hand.
He stopped and turned to face her, his conflicted expression mirroring the turmoil in her own heart.
Tears welled up in her eyes. "Y-you’re leaving?"
He hesitated, his gaze flickering between the poppies and her tear-stained face. "Vera, I... I can't stay here anymore."
She bit her lip, struggling to hold back her emotions. “But where are you going?”
“I don’t really know. I’m heading back to London first. I have a friend there who might be able to help me. After that... I don’t know.”
“Take me with you! We could run away together... We could find somewhere to hide. Please, Michael, don’t leave me here!”
“Vera,” his voice broke, filled with anguish. He crouched down to meet her eyes, gently holding her shoulders. “I want nothing more than to take you with me, but I simply can’t. They would report me for kidnapping; it’s too dangerous.”
“But you'll come back, won't you?” she pleaded, sniffling. “Won’t you?”
"I’m sorry, Vera," he whispered, "I thought I could come back and make things right, but it’s not that simple. People like them... they never change. They're like a disease, and if you're not careful, they’ll infect you too. But I believe in you, Vera. There’s goodness inside you, a strength they can't touch. You have a light that they want to extinguish, but you can’t let them. You’re strong and brave. Hold onto that. Don’t let them break you, no matter how hard they try.”
“But what about you?”
A single tear escaped his eye, tracing a path down his cheek. “It’s too late for me,” he admitted softly. “Some things are broken beyond mending.”
He paused, his voice trembling with the weight of his own pain. "But you... you still have a chance. Don't let my fate be yours. Fight for your future, for your happiness. Promise me that you won't give up."
She nodded, her eyes filled with determination. "I promise," she said, her voice steady despite the tears.
Michael gave a faint, bittersweet smile, then reached out, gently taking a poppy from her hand. With a tenderness that contrasted sharply with the harshness of their reality, he tucked the delicate flower behind her ear.
"Hold onto the poppies," he murmured. "Let them remind you of your strength and resilience. No matter what happens, remember who you are and what you’re capable of."
Without another word, he pulled her into a tight embrace, holding her as if he could shield her from all the pain and darkness of the world. She tightened her arms around him, drawing comfort from his warmth and the steady beat of his heart.
"Stay strong, Vera," he whispered into her hair, "for both of us."
She clung to him, unwilling to let go, yet knowing deep down that he had to leave.
Michael held her close, his touch a fleeting comfort in the face of their uncertain future. Then, with a heavy heart, he gently pulled away and began to walk towards the gate.
She stood there, watching him go, her hands trembling with the ache of his absence and the weight of his words echoing in her mind.
***
“That was the last time I saw him,” she murmured, her voice heavy with sorrow. “He didn’t come back, and the Humphreys never mentioned him again—they pretended as if he never existed.”
“I’m sorry, Vera,” Morales offered gently. “He must have meant a lot to you.”
“He was the first person to ever be nice to me—to ever hug me—to ever tell me that I’m strong, and now he’s gone.”
She lowered her head, wiping away a tear, “He didn’t even attend their funeral, you know. I thought he was going to come back now that they are dead, but I was wrong. I sat by the fireplace, looking at the door, waiting for him to enter. But he never did. Then Miss Jones came and took me to London. I kept hoping that I would see him there one day—I even looked for his name in the phone book. But something kept telling me that it was all worthless, that perhaps he just forgot about me.”
“People don’t forget those they care about, Vera. Maybe he had his reasons—reasons we can’t understand. But it doesn’t diminish what he did for you or how much he cared. You carry his spirit with you, and that’s something no one can take away.”
“I just wish I know what happened to him. I miss him so much.”
“You’ll find him one day,” Morales reassured her, placing a comforting hand on her shoulder. “You told me that whatever happened… occurred after he left?”
“I tried to be strong just as I promised him, but it was hard. I didn’t want them to break me, but I guess—I guess I was already broken.”
“Tell me, Vera.”
“I can’t—”
“Please,” he pleaded, “be strong for Michael, for yourself.”
She took a deep breath, the weight of her memories pressing down on her. “After he left, they became worse. They burned the doll he gave me, and all the books too. And then they went out to the poppies field and destroyed it. They used every opportunity to remind me of my place. I was so scared and alone, and without Michael, there was no one to protect me. They made me work all the time, barely giving me enough to eat. Every mistake, no matter how small, was punished harshly. I never told Miss Jones about it. I was scared that she wouldn’t believe me, because there was no proof. And who would ever believe a kid, anyways? I held onto Michael’s words—his belief in me. It was the only thing that kept me going, but then—”
“Then what, dear?”
“Then school started—”
***
Part 2: The Witch Who Never Was
Vera started school with high hopes, but quickly found herself the target of mockery as the other children teased her relentlessly.
They called her ‘Bastard’ and made fun of her for living on a farm and having a persistent smell of livestock. Even their parents treated her with disdain, whispering behind her back and warning their children to stay away from her.
Despite the cold reception, she was determined to make friends.
One day during recess, she approached a boy on the playground and shyly offered to play with him. However, he looked at her with a mixture of curiosity and apprehension, then coldly said, "Mom told me to stay away from the gypsy girl."
Vera stood there, feeling a mix of hurt and confusion. She watched the other children playing together, laughing and sharing their games, and felt a pang of loneliness. But she refused to let their cruelty break her spirit.
She decided to try a different approach. Gathering a small group of kids during recess, she told them she had a special talent to show, and with a determined gleam in her eye, she announced:
"I'm a witch, and I can do magic."
The children looked at her skeptically, but their curiosity got the better of them.
She held up a coin, just like Michael had taught her, then waved her hand over it, muttered the magic words, and with a flourish, made the coin disappear.
The children gasped in amazement, their eyes wide with wonder. They crowded around her, asking how she did it and begging her to show them more tricks. For the first time, she felt a sense of acceptance and belonging.
But not everyone was impressed.
Maggie, one of the more popular girls in the class, crossed her arms and scowled. "Anyone can do that. It's just a stupid trick," she declared loudly.
The other children hesitated, glancing between her and Vera. The moment of acceptance felt fragile, as if it could shatter at any second.
Vera took a deep breath, feeling the weight of the situation, then looked at Maggie with calm defiance. "It's not just a trick. It's magic.”
“Magic isn’t real!”
“It is!” Vera retorted, “And I am a witch. If you don’t believe me, I will use it on you, and then you will!”
Maggie rolled her eyes and walked away, but some of the children stayed, still intrigued by Vera's claim of being a witch. They asked her to show more tricks, and for the rest of recess, she felt a glimmer of hope.
After a long and tiring day, she began her journey back to the farm on foot. As she approached the gates, she noticed Maggie's mom standing at the door, engaged in a conversation with the Humphreys.
She didn't think much of it and continued walking towards the house, but as she drew closer, snippets of their conversation reached her ears.
"...concerned about the influence..." Maggie's mom was saying.
"...is that really what she said?..." Mr. Humphrey's gruff voice responded.
Mrs. Humphrey noticed Vera approaching and shot her a disapproving glance, "Go inside, girl," she barked, waving her off dismissively.
Vera nodded and hurried past them, her curiosity piqued but her instincts telling her not to linger. Once inside, she took off her backpack and went straight to the kitchen to start on her chores, trying to shake off the uneasy feeling that had settled in her stomach.
Once Maggie’s mother left, Mr. Humphrey stormed into the kitchen where she was working, and without warning, slapped her hard across the face.
“Are you out of your mind!” he yelled, slapping her again.
Mrs. Humphrey quickly intervened, grabbing her husband's arm. "Gerald, you shouldn't leave marks," she said sharply, glancing at Vera with a mix of disapproval and pity.
Mr. Humphrey ignored his wife and glared down at Vera. "What were you thinking calling yourself a witch?" he spat. “Magic isn't real, you filthy bastard!”
Vera's face burned from the slap and from the humiliation. She could feel the sting of tears, but she forced herself to remain silent, staring at the floor.
“Do you know what happens to witches you insolent rat?” the old man continued, his voice dripping with contempt. “God burns them in the fiery pits of hell, do you want to go to hell?”
“No, sir—”
“Then never claim to be a witch again!”
“It was just a trick—” she tried to defend herself but was met with another slap on her face.
“You think you can fool me? I know what you are—you’re one of them, aren’t you? You’re a devil’s help. All of you pikey whores are!”
Mrs. Humphrey's grip on his arm tightened. "That's enough, Gerald. You've made your point."
But he wasn't done.
His rage simmering, he grabbed Vera roughly by the hair, dragging her to the center of the kitchen. Her scalp burned from his grip, and she could barely keep up with his furious pace.
Then, with a swift motion, he reached for a pair of kitchen scissors. "I knew you were unholy from the moment I saw you," he growled, positioning the scissors at the base of her hair. "And I refuse to let you drag us with you to hell."
Vera's eyes widened in terror. "Please, no," she whimpered, tears streaming down her face.
Ignoring her pleas, he began to hack away at her hair.
The sound of the scissors cutting through her locks was harsh and brutal, and she sobbed uncontrollably, her body trembling with fear and helplessness. Each snip felt like a blow to her soul.
"You think you're a witch?" he sneered, continuing to cut. "This will remind you of what happens to girls who bring shame and sin into this house."
Mrs. Humphrey stood by, her face pale and expression conflicted, but she didn't intervene.
Vera's tears fell freely, mixing with the shorn strands of hair that gathered on the floor around her feet. Finally, after what felt like an eternity, Mr. Humphrey stepped back, surveying his work with a look of grim satisfaction.
Vera's once long, dark hair now lay in uneven, jagged clumps.
"Now, maybe you'll remember your place," he said coldly, dropping the scissors onto the counter with a clatter.
Vera stood there, shaking and defeated, her heart pounding with a mix of sorrow and fear. She felt a deep sense of loss, not just for her hair, but for the small bit of dignity she had tried so hard to hold onto.
As Mr. Humphrey left the kitchen, his wife approached her. "Clean this up," she ordered, her voice devoid of sympathy. “And when Miss Jones asks, you’ll tell her you did it to yourself, understood?”
Vera nodded numbly, her fingers trembling as she gathered the hair from the floor. The humiliation and pain of the moment weighed heavily on her, but somewhere deep inside, she clung to a flicker of defiance. She wouldn't let them break her completely. She couldn't.
That night, she went to bed sobbing quietly, her face buried in her pillow to muffle the sound. Her scalp still ached from where Mr. Humphrey had yanked her hair, and she could feel the uneven, rough patches where it had been cruelly cut. Exhausted and broken-hearted, she eventually fell into a restless sleep.
But when she woke up the next morning, she felt a strange sense of disorientation.
As she sat up and rubbed her eyes, she noticed something astonishing: her hair was back, as long and thick as it had been before.
She reached up and ran her fingers through it, expecting to feel the jagged edges from the night before, but her hair was whole and healthy. Confused, she stood up and walked to the small mirror hanging on the wall. Staring at her reflection, she saw her long, dark hair cascading down her shoulders just as it always had.
She touched it again, this time with more certainty, and felt a wave of relief and wonder wash over her. Maybe it was all just a nightmare, she convinced herself, a figment of her mind's deepest fears and anxieties.
Deciding not to dwell on it, she got dressed and headed downstairs. But as soon as she entered the dining room, she felt Mr. and Mrs. Humphrey’s eyes fixate on her.
They exchanged subtle, horrified glances but remained silent.
Vera served them then took her seat and began eating quietly, trying to ignore the way they were staring at her, when suddenly, Mr. Humphrey stood up without a word and walked out of the room.
Her heart pounded in her chest, but she continued to eat, unsure of what to expect. Mrs. Humphrey continued to watch her, her expression a mix of confusion and fear as she began doing the sign of the cross repeatedly while whispering prayers.
After a few minutes, Mr. Humphrey returned, carrying his toolbox and some wooden planks. Without a word, he marched upstairs, and the sound of hammering and sawing soon echoed through the house.
Unable to bear the suspense, Vera excused herself from the table and quietly followed the noise. When she reached her room, she saw him nailing the wooden planks across her window, effectively sealing it shut.
The sight made her blood run cold.
"Um, what are you doing, sir?" she asked, her voice trembling.
Mr. Humphrey paused and turned to face her, his expression stern. "I don't know what kind of trickery this is, but it ends now.”
Vera's heart sank, but she couldn’t understand what was happening. Then, he took two pieces of planks and nailed them above her bed in the shape of a cross.
"You'll stay in this room until you repent," he continued, grabbing her face with a firm grip and yanking her on the bed.
Then, he pulled out a piece of rope and tightened it around her wrists, then tied it to the bed. “No food, no water and no light,” he sneered, “until the evil is out of you.”
He swiftly stormed out of the room, and locked the door, leaving her in utter darkness. Her room, once a small refuge, was now a prison.
Days blurred into one another, time slipping away as the suffocating darkness swallowed her whole. The relentless ache in her stomach clawed at her insides, hollowing her out until she felt nothing but the raw, gnawing hunger.
Her body was weakening, her mind unraveling, and with every passing moment, desperation crept in, sinking deeper into her bones. She was lost, abandoned to a world that felt like it had forgotten her, utterly powerless to escape the void.
One day, after what felt like an eternity of solitude and starvation, the door to her room creaked open. Her heart pounded with fear as a man dressed in black robes entered.
His face was stern and his eyes intense, holding a cross in one hand and a small vial in the other.
"I'm here to cleanse you of the devil's influence," he proclaimed, his voice echoing in the small room.
Her eyes widened in terror. "No!" she cried out, "Please!"
The man ignored her pleas and began chanting loudly, waving the vial and sprinkling its contents around the room.
"Devil be gone from this child!" he shouted, placing his hands on her head.
Vera squeezed her eyes shut, her chest tightening as fear and confusion crashed over her like a tidal wave. A raw, desperate scream tore from her throat, echoing through the air, a sound filled with everything she couldn't understand or control. The world around her felt like it was closing in, suffocating her in its chaos.
The man continued his exorcism, his voice growing louder and more intense.
Suddenly, there was a thud and a muffled groan.
Startled, Vera opened her eyes cautiously, and saw the man laying sprawled on the floor, his book and vial lay scattered beside him. She had no idea what had happened and assumed he must have fallen.
He quickly got up, his face twisted in fear, then made his out toward the door.
"God help us," he muttered as he stormed out of the room, slamming the door shut behind him.
Vera was alone again, the crushing silence amplifying the frantic beat of her heart. Hot tears streamed down her cheeks, her sobs tearing through the quiet. She screamed until her voice cracked, her throat raw, but no one came.
The hours dragged on, her cries fading into hollow whispers as exhaustion pulled at her limbs. Eventually, drained and broken, she collapsed into a restless sleep, her dreams haunted by the echoes of her pain.
When she awoke, it was to the rough hands of Mr. Humphrey dragging her out of the room by her hair.
Her body protested weakly, but she was too drained to resist. He hauled her down the stairs and out of the house into the cold night air, then dragged her to the goats' barn and roughly threw her inside.
She stumbled and fell to the ground, her limbs too weak to support her, then saw him closing the barn door with a loud bang, leaving her in the darkness.
She lay on the hay-strewn floor, her body aching and her spirit nearly broken. Desperate and weakened by hunger, she felt her stomach ache with an intensity she had never known before.
The barn was dimly lit by the moonlight streaming through the cracks in the wooden walls, casting eerie shadows across the hay-strewn floor.
Driven by sheer instinct, she crawled towards one of the goats. The animal stood quietly, its large eyes watching her curiously. With trembling hands, she reached for its udder and began to milk it directly into her mouth.
The warm, fresh milk was a small comfort, and she drank greedily, feeling a modicum of strength return to her frail body.
The goat shifted slightly, but she held on, her hunger overpowering any sense of propriety or hesitation. She continued until she couldn't drink anymore, then sat back on her heels. Curling up in the hay, she wrapped her arms around herself for warmth and closed her eyes.
Suddenly, she woke up to an unsettling sound—a high-pitched squeaking that seemed to echo in the stillness of the barn. Blinking groggily, she opened her eyes and froze in terror.
The goat she had milked was standing on its hind legs, its eyes glowing an unnatural red.
Her heart thundered in her chest, each beat sending shockwaves through her frozen body. Fear gripped her so tightly she couldn’t move, couldn’t breathe. The sight before her was unreal, a vision torn from a nightmare or another world entirely. Her mind fought to make sense of it, but the more she tried, the more it slipped beyond her grasp, leaving her trapped in the overwhelming terror of the unknown.
The goat's eerie gaze seemed to bore into her soul, filling her with a dread she had never experienced before. Too frightened to move, she squeezed her eyes shut, hoping the nightmare would vanish.
She lay motionless, her eyes clenched shut, whispering a frantic, desperate prayer for the haunting apparition to vanish. Every breath trembled with fear as she curled herself into a tight ball, trying to shield herself from the horror she couldn’t unsee.
Her mind, too weary to fight any longer, began to surrender, and slowly, she drifted into an uneasy sleep, haunted by the shadows of what still lingered just beyond her eyelids.
The next morning, Mr. Humphrey stormed into the barn, ready to assign her another harsh task to keep her in line.
However, as he entered, he stopped abruptly, his eyes widening in shock and fear.
Vera opened her eyes and found him standing in front of her with a mix of fear and anger in his expression. She blinked, trying to understand what had caused such a reaction.
Following his gaze, she froze in shock.
Her body went rigid, every muscle tightening as her heart slammed against her ribs. A surge of heat rushed to her head, leaving her dizzy and breathless. She stood frozen, barely able to draw air into her lungs, her eyes locked on the scene before her. It was as if the world had tilted, and everything she knew had shattered in an instant, leaving her helpless in the face of the unimaginable.
The goat she had milked the night before lay on the ground, dead.
Mr. Humphrey pointed a trembling finger at her. "You did this. Y-You killed it.”
Vera stared at the dead goat, horror creeping over her.
“You killed it,” he repeated, “You killed it, you bloody monster!”
“I-I didn’t—”
"You are unholy. But I won't return you to where you came from. No, I'll make the devil inside you repent, even if it costs me my own life. DO YOU HEAR ME DEVIL!"
The weight of the situation pressed down on her, suffocating in its clarity. Slowly, the truth began to sink in—Mr. Humphrey’s fear of her had shifted, morphing into something far more dangerous. She could see it now, in the way his eyes darkened and his every movement bristled with tension. What had once been caution or distrust had evolved into a potent, almost primal fear, and she knew it wouldn’t stop there. This kind of fear was unpredictable, and with it came a new, terrifying threat.
“You’ll repent, do you understand?” he sneered, “I will cleanse you of your sins myself!”
Vera's vision began to blur, spots dancing before her eyes as the horror of the situation overwhelmed her. Her knees buckled, and the world tilted dangerously.
She tried to speak, to explain that she had done nothing, but no words came out. The edges of her vision darkened, and everything went black as she fainted, collapsing to the barn floor.
“You killed it… you killed it… killed it…”
When she finally came to, her vision swam, and a sharp, throbbing pain pulsed through her skull. Disoriented, she struggled to push herself upright, the world around her spinning and unfocused, as if she were trapped in a haze.
Everything seemed distant, surreal, like a dream she couldn’t quite wake from. Panic stirred as she tried to make sense of it all, but her memories were fractured, broken into jagged pieces that wouldn’t fit together. Her mind felt sluggish, thick with confusion, leaving her stranded in the fog of her own thoughts.
She found herself on the couch inside the house, and could make out the figure of Mr. Humphrey standing nearby, his expression a twisted mix of anger and satisfaction.
"Get up," he commanded, his voice echoing in her head. "No more pretending. You're going to work until that devil is out of you."
She tried to stand, but her legs felt weak and unsteady. She managed to get to her feet, swaying slightly as she looked around. Everything seemed foreign, and she couldn't remember why she felt so scared or why Mr. Humphrey was so angry with her. She couldn't remember anything.
***
"No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't remember. But I always felt something—whenever I saw milk, walked into the goats’ barn, or tried to cut my hair—I felt horrible, without understanding why. Slowly, it started coming back. When I realized why I could see the Thestrals, the memory of the goat flashed in my mind. And when you brought back my hair in your office, I remembered Mr. Humphrey's hands cutting it, and I realized that I had indeed used magic to bring it back that day. And when I finally the milk in my throat... I understood what I had done.”
She bowed her head, the weight of shame crushing her shoulders, as tears flowed freely down her cheeks like a relentless, sorrowful river. Her voice trembled, barely a whisper, heavy with guilt. "I killed it, Professor... I killed it."
***
Notes:
This chapter is dedicated to MY Michael, who sang me to sleep and opened my eyes to the beauty of the world.
Like the vibrant poppies that dance in the breeze, your spirit remains a bright and cherished presence in my life.
Rest in peace, dear brother. And thank you for your sacrifice.
Chapter 40: War is Over
Chapter Text
Morales remained utterly silent.
His eyes widened, and his body tensed as if frozen in shock. The words echoed in his mind, impossible to comprehend.
Slowly, he rose from his chair, his movements heavy and deliberate, and began to pace around the bed, his head bowed, one hand covering his mouth in a futile attempt to contain the turmoil within.
Vera watched him, her eyes brimming with tears, dreading what he might do or say next.
“I didn’t mean to,” she murmured, her voice quivering with fear. “I swear to God, I didn’t mean to kill it! I was only hungry.”
He stood silent, his sorrowful eyes locked onto hers, a heavy sadness etched into his face.
“But I feel so horrible, Professor,” she continued, “I pray to God every day for forgiveness, and I will never do it again!”
Her plea hung in the air, desperate and heart-wrenching. However, his silence was deafening, an unbearable weight pressing down on her chest.
“I was mistaken,” he finally spoke, “so mistaken.”
Vera's anguish shifted to confusion, her brow furrowing as she tried to comprehend his words. “Sir?”
“All this time, I believed your aversion to magic stemmed from fear. Now I realize it's not fear at all. Your body’s reaction to magic is a protective mechanism, nothing more.”
He took a slow, measured step towards her, the sorrow in his eyes deepening with each passing second. “Vera, your body rejects magic out of hatred."
She shook her head in confusion.
"You've convinced yourself that you used magic to harm that goat. And even though you couldn’t remember what happened, your unconsciousness did, and it placed a wall around that memory to shield you from it."
He took another step closer, reaching out to gently touch her shoulder. “You see, our brains are divided into two parts, a conscious mind and an unconscious one. Tell me, darling, do you like magic?”
She nodded, unsure of where he was going.
“And do you think it is evil?”
She shook her head.
“That is your conscious mind speaking. However, it is your unconscious one that is rejecting the magic. Your unconsciousness hates magic, Vera. That is why your body is fighting it. The reason behind this is Mr. Humphrey convincing you that it is a sin, an evil act, and that you killed that goat with it.”
Her breath hitched, "But I did kill it."
He shook his head slowly, "I can assure you, darling, you did no such thing. We often feel responsible for things beyond our control. It’s human nature. But in this case, your guilt is misplaced. There is no possibility that you killed it with magic; it is simply not true.”
“B-but I saw it die.”
"And yet there is no proof that you are the one who caused its death. The goat might have been already ill, dear. What happened to it was inevitable. Your hunger, your desperation... they had no bearing on its fate. It was only a coincidence that you were there the night it happened."
She remained silent, gazing at her hands, not fully convinced.
“Vera, killing is not easy, and it’s never easier with magic. Also, do you truly believe you could do such a thing without the ministry knowing?”
“What do you mean?”
“There is something called a trace, dear. It’s how underage wizards and witches are detected for their use of magic outside of school. It’s also how Muggleborns are discovered.”
“But, what if they didn’t see it?”
“Trust me, the ministry knows what they’re doing. Monitoring people is their specialty. Big Brother is always watching you.”
Her eyes widened, tears of relief mingling with her earlier sorrow. “Is that how Donnie and Dom knew I did the magic in St. Mary’s?”
“Exactly. According to the ministry’s records, you’ve only performed magic twice while you were at the farm.”
“Twice?”
“That’s what I was informed when I asked the office to look into your case.”
“So when I brought my hair back—”
“That was the first time.”
“And the second time?”
“When you knocked the man with the cross and made him fall.”
“But I thought the man fell by himself.”
“It was you who made it happen. Those were the only times you did magic in Cornwall. But you never used it on that goat, I can assure you. When the trace works, it also registers the type of spell or charm used, and you most certainly did not use dark magic.”
“But—”
“Vera,” he sighed, “you have to stop convincing yourself that you’re a bad person. You are not. You did not do anything wrong. If you can’t convince yourself of that fact, you won’t be able to do magic again!”
“So, if I believe I didn’t do anything evil with magic, I would be able to do it without getting sick?”
“Yes!” he exclaimed. “That is the first step. It’s going to take some time, and I will be able to help you through it, of course, but it all starts here.” He pointed at her head. “Once you get rid of the idea that magic is a sin, we can move forward with the treatment.”
She remained silent, clenching her jaw as she contemplated his words. He saw the hesitation and doubt in her eyes.
“Before I came here, I presumed your case was rather complicated, but now I realize it’s much simpler than anything I ever came across. It will work, dear. You only need to trust me,”
“What do you mean, before you came here?”
“Darling,” he sighed, “I am going to tell you the truth.”
She gazed up at him with curious eyes, and he took her hands into his.
“The reason I am at Hogwarts is not just to teach Defense Against the Dark Arts, but to cure you. Professor Dumbledore offered me the position just so I can be closer to you.”
“Y-you came here for me?”
He offered her a faint smile, then tightened his grip around her hands. “Indeed I did. I’m not a teacher, Vera, nor a healer. I am simply a journalist. However, I do have experience with blood poisoning, which led Professor Dumbledore to write to me about you.”
He took a deep breath, then turned away, staring out the window at the darkening sky. “You see, during the war, many Muggleborns were taken hostage by Death Eaters and forced to give up their magical abilities. The Death Eaters used various methods, including diluting their blood, experimenting with potions, and torturing them. After the war ended and they were released, many never regained their magic and eventually—” he hesitated for a moment, “died from the pain. That’s when I came in. While interviewing the survivors, I noticed a pattern: they all had similar reactions to magic. Some would flinch at certain words, others would scream at the sight of a charm. After extensive investigations and numerous experiments with St. Mungo’s, I was able to help them regain their magic.”
Her eyes widened, a mix of awe and disbelief on her face. "You helped them do magic again?"
"Yes, and that's why I'm here. I believe I can help you too, Vera. But you must trust me and believe in yourself."
She looked down, her hands trembling slightly. “I’m scared, Professor.”
“Scared of what, dear?”
“What if I fail and die like those hostages?”
"Oh, darling, I would never allow that to happen.”
She took a deep breath, nodding slowly. Yet, her expression remained clouded with sadness, and tears began to well up in her eyes once more.
“What is it, Vera?”
She couldn't hold back any longer and started to cry. “They broke me,” she sobbed, her voice trembling under the weight of her pain. “Mr. Humphrey broke me. And I allowed him to. They told me I wasn’t normal, and I believed them. They said I was evil and unholy, that I would never go to heaven. They lied to me about God, said that He hates me. They ruined me, Professor, just like they did to Michael, and now,” she paused, struggling to breathe through her hysterical sobs. “Now, I can never be happy.”
Professor Morales gently squeezed her hand, his eyes brimming with compassion. “Of course you can, Vera.”
“How?” she cried, her walls crumbling, every brick she had painstakingly placed shattering into dust. “How can I ever be happy when I’m sick and alone?”
“You’re not alone, dear,”
“But I am!” she shouted, “Everyone else has a family except for me! Everyone has a mom and a dad who love them and care for them. Why don’t I have that, huh? Why did my parents have to die, Professor? Why doesn’t my own family want me? WHAT IS SO WRONG WITH ME?”
Morales opened his mouth to speak, but no words came. He was too stunned to find anything comforting to offer her.
“Why did I have to be raised by strangers who never loved me? Not just the Humphreys, Professor. Every person I lived with found a way to hurt me. And I was only a baby, but that never stopped them. They pinched me if I didn’t stand right, slapped me if I talked back, bit me whenever they felt like it, starved me if I didn’t do my chores, burned my tongue if I swore, rubbed my skin with pepper if I lied, and kicked me until I couldn’t breathe just because they could. And then—” she choked, “they made me sick of the only thing in my life that ever made me feel like I had worth.”
His heart ached at her words. “Vera, no child should ever go through what you’ve endured. It’s horrendous and unforgivable. And you do have worth that goes far beyond magic!”
“Where is it then? Where is my worth when I’ve spent my whole life walking on eggshells, trying not to anger anyone with my laugh or provoke them with my presence? All this time, I've hoped to wake up in a world where my mom could hug me goodnight and sing me to sleep—a world where my dad would carry me onto his shoulders and teach me to fly on a broomstick. I look at my friends and envy them for the smallest things, Professor. For receiving gifts from their grandmothers, for talking about their families without shame, for going to the bloody beach! I lived next to it for three years but was never allowed to go. I even… I even envy them for having photographs of themselves when they were little.”
She drew in a shaky breath, her voice cracking with each word. “I envy them for knowing their mothers’ faces, Professor. I want to know what my own mother looked like—how she smelled and how she talked. I want her to hold my hand and take me shopping, to braid my hair and make me tea when I’m sick. I want to feel my father’s beard when he kisses my forehead, to hear his laughter, to see his smile when I get first in Potions. I dream of him teaching me Quidditch, cheering with me at matches, and taking me on trips. I want him… I want him to tell me that he loves me, and that he is proud of me. And I don’t care if they weren’t good people, Professor—I just want to know how it feels like to have them. But they’re gone—they’re gone, and I don’t even know why. I hate standing on Platform Nine and Three-Quarters. I watch others getting forehead kisses, their mothers adjusting their robes, their fathers messing their hair. I can’t help but imagine what it would be like to have someone waiting for me on the other side, to have a home to return to during holidays. And don’t get me wrong, I love St. Mary’s and Miss Nelson, but I just—I just miss the life I could have had, you know?”
“I know,” he murmured gently. “It’s natural to grieve for what you’ve lost and what you’ve never experienced. But don’t let that grief consume you. Let it be a source of resilience. Your parents would want you to thrive, to find joy despite everything.”
“But I feel like my life will never get better. Even if I did inherit everything, I don’t think I’d ever be happy because no amount of money can buy me a life where I have them by my side.”
He pulled her into a comforting embrace, letting her cry on his shoulder. “Life has been incredibly unfair to you, my child, and you don’t deserve any of it.”
“But why does it have to be me?” She sobbed quietly, “Why can’t I just have a normal life?”
“I wish I had an easy answer for you, Vera.”
She pulled back slightly, wiping her tears. "Will I always feel this way, Professor? Like I'm drowning all the time?"
Morales held her gaze with compassion, "No, Vera. You won't always feel this way. Time has a way of healing wounds, though the scars may remain. You're on a long journey, and it's okay to have moments of doubt and sorrow. But remember, you're not defined by your past or your pain. You have the strength to create a future filled with happiness and fulfillment."
She laid her head on his chest, sensing her heart start to mend.
"It's okay to feel overwhelmed,” he gently patted her back, “You don't have to navigate this alone. Lean on those who care about you, and remember that there's support around you, always. You've carried a heavy burden, Vera, Perhaps it's time to let yourself rest.”
She nodded wearily, wiping her tear-streaked cheeks as she pulled back.
"We'll work through this together," he murmured, gently cradling her face in his hands. "Rest now. Tomorrow, we'll explore ways to ease your pain."
She nodded again, "Thank you, Professor," she said softly, "For believing in me."
"Always, Vera. Always."
Wednesday, March 20, 1991
The next morning, she woke with a sense of purpose she hadn't felt in a long time. Beside her hospital bed lay a handwritten note from Morales, urging her to meet him in his classroom before breakfast, and to bring her wand along.
Quickly dressing, she made her way out of the hospital wing and through the quiet corridors of Hogwarts, the early morning sunlight filtering through the tall windows.
Arriving at his classroom, she found the door slightly ajar, and with a deep breath, pushed it open and stepped inside.
"Professor Morales?" she called softly.
"In here, Vera," came his gentle voice from his office. He stepped down and welcomed her with a warm smile. "Hope you slept well."
She nodded. "Yes, thank you, Professor."
Suddenly, she heard a thud, startling her. Glancing around the room, she spotted a large box in the center, its sides gently trembling as if something inside was stirring, and her heart raced with a mix of fear and curiosity.
"The first step in your healing journey is to confront your fears," Professor Morales said, noticing her confusion. "I know just how we can begin, but you must trust me."
She hesitated, uncertainty flickering in her eyes. Yet, after a brief pause, she nodded resolutely. "I trust you, sir."
"Good," he said, offering a gentle smile.
He then moved toward the wooden box, his steps deliberate and calm.
“What’s in there, sir?”
"A boggart," he explained. "It's a magical creature that takes the form of whatever you fear the most. Facing it can be frightening at first, but it's a crucial step towards healing."
She swallowed hard, feeling a surge of anxiety. Memories of past traumas and fears began to surface, threatening to overwhelm her.
"I'll be right here with you," he assured her, "You are stronger than you realize, and confronting this boggart will help you reclaim that strength. Fear is the mind killer, Vera. Once conquered, you will stride forward with newfound clarity.”
Taking a deep breath, she nodded, her hands trembling slightly, but with his encouragement, approached the box cautiously.
As she stood before it, the lid creaked open slowly, revealing a darkness within that seemed to pulse with an eerie, unseen energy.
Suddenly, a figure began to emerge from the shadows of the box, morphing and shifting before her eyes, and her breath caught in her throat as the boggart took the form of a grotesque, humanoid goat.
It stood upright on its hind legs, its eyes glowing an unnerving, malevolent red, and a sinister grin spread across its twisted face, revealing jagged, sharp teeth.
She froze in terror, tears brimming in her eyes as she tried to steady her escalating heartbeat.
"It’s okay, dear," Morales interjected softly, "It is not real."
She blinked through her tears, struggling to hold back the fear that clawed at her heart. Just then, the goat dropped to the ground, letting out an unearthly squeal as it writhed in apparent agony.
It began to crawl towards her, its movements jerky and unnatural, emitting a sickening, bone-chilling screech with each step. Terror gripped her heart as she stumbled back, her legs shaking, but the creature's eyes never left hers, and the room seemed to darken, shadows lengthening as if to swallow her whole.
Morales swiftly stepped forward, his voice steady despite the tension in the air. "Step back, Vera," he instructed gently. "Close your eyes."
She obeyed, trying to block out the horrifying sight before her. He positioned himself between her and the boggart, his wand raised.
Suddenly, the boggart transformed, taking on the shape of Morales's own deepest fear.
When Vera cautiously opened her eyes, the scene had changed.
Before her lay a large pile of severed hands, grotesque and eerie.
Morales remained composed, focusing his concentration. "Riddikulus!" he exclaimed firmly, waving his wand in a precise motion.
In response to his spell, the severed hands began to morph and change, and Vera watched in amazement as they transformed into beautiful white doves, their wings shimmering in the sunlight streaming through the windows.
With a flutter, they soared into the air and disappeared into the box, leaving behind only a faint echo of their gentle cooing.
Morales turned to her, his expression warm and reassuring. "Even our deepest fears can be defeated. Now, I want you to try again,”
"I don't think I can do this, Professor,"
"You can," he said softly. "I am going to open it, and this time, you will overcome it."
Steeling herself for another attempt, she took a determined breath as he reopened the box.
The boggart emerged once more, transforming back into the unsettling goat standing on its hind legs.
"Remember, Vera," he urged gently, "Focus on what you want to see, not what you fear."
Summoning her courage, she pointed her wand at the goat and firmly exclaimed, "Riddikulus!"
To her surprise and relief, the goat abruptly stopped its threatening approach, and instead of collapsing in agony, it began to perform an elaborate traditional Irish dance.
Its movements were comical and exaggerated, its hooves clacking rhythmically on the floor, and Morales burst into laughter. Vera couldn't help but join in, her fear dissipating as she watched the absurd sight before her.
The goat danced its way back toward the box with a final flourish, then, as if satisfied with its performance, disappeared inside with a dramatic bow.
Morales began applauding, his eyes sparkling with pride. “Well excuse my language but that was bloody brilliant!”
A sense of accomplishment washed over her, and she smiled, feeling stronger and more confident than she had in a long time.
Tears welled up in her eyes, but this time, they were tears of triumph and newfound hope.
But her smile swiftly faded as she felt a wave of nausea wash over her, and her head throb with pain. She winced, pressing a hand to her temple, then readied herself for the nosebleed by pressing her sleeve against her nose.
"I still feel sick," she whispered, her tone filled with disappointment.
"Healing takes time, Vera," he replied gently. "Confronting your fears is only the first step."
She nodded, trying to push past the discomfort. "I want to do it again then."
Morales hesitated for a moment, “are you sure?”
"Yes," she said, wiping away the blood trickling from her nose. "I'm sure."
Impressed by her determination, he approached the box and prepared to open it once more. "Ready?"
She steadied herself, taking a deep breath. "Ready."
He lifted the lid, and the boggart emerged again, this time transforming into the menacing figures of Mr. and Mrs. Humphrey.
Morales's eyes widened in surprise, but he refrained from intervening, trusting her to handle it.
Vera's initial reaction was fear, her body tensing as memories of the Humphreys' cruelty flooded her mind. However, she closed her eyes, recalling Michael's words and her promise to him not to give up, and when she opened her eyes again, fear was replaced by determination and a spark of anger.
With her jaw clenched and her wand steady, she pointed at the boggart and shouted, "Riddikulus!"
In an instant, the threatening figures of Mr. and Mrs. Humphrey shrank and morphed into small, writhing leeches crawling pathetically on the floor, leaving Morales's eyes to widen further, impressed by the transformation.
Vera stared at the leeches for a moment, her anger boiling over. Then, with a resolute step forward, she began to angrily stomp on them, crushing them beneath her feet until they were nothing more than harmless remnants.
Breathing heavily, she looked up at Morales and saw him staring at her, a smile spreading across his lips.
Then, he stepped closer, gently placing his hand on her shoulder before softly saying, "I am proud of you, Vera."
She felt a wave of emotion crash over her, each word he spoke echoing in her mind like a symphony she had longed to hear.
For the first time, she felt truly seen, her efforts and struggles acknowledged in a way that filled the void left by her family’s absence.
Her hands trembled slightly as she wiped at her tears, her lips quivering between a smile and a sob.
The pride in Morales' eyes mirrored the hope and love she had kept buried deep within her, afraid to let it out. But now, in this poignant and transformative moment, she allowed herself to believe in her worth, to accept that she was capable and deserving of love.
She whispered a shaky, heartfelt, “Thank you,” her voice laden with the weight of years of unspoken need and the newfound strength that Morales' words had bestowed upon her.
Returning to the hospital wing, she felt her head still throbbing faintly despite the relief of confronting her fears.
Madam Pomfrey greeted her warmly, a knowing smile on her face as she handed her a small vial of willow bark.
“You’re in good hands, my dear,” the matron said gently.
Tears welled up in Vera's eyes, but she managed a grateful smile. "Thank you, Madam Pomfrey. For everything."
With a deep breath, she made her way to her bed and began to pack her belongings into her bag. She carefully tucked away the notes from her friends, letting their words and gestures of support wash over her again, then picked up the bouquet of violet flowers from Ryu.
Staring at them, a newfound determination and hope stirred within her, and she knew there was one last thing she needed to do before leaving.
"Madam," she called out, "Can you help me with something?”
Madam Pomfrey returned, her expression gentle yet inquisitive as she handed Vera her request.
"Are you sure about this, dear?"
Vera met her gaze with determination and nodded. "I need to do it."
She took a deep breath, her hands trembling slightly as she grasped her long braid, then positioned the scissors near its end.
She didn't intend to cut it all off—just enough to signify a new beginning, a symbol of her strength and resilience.
Closing her eyes briefly, she took another deep breath and then made the cut.
The sound of the scissors slicing through her hair was surprisingly loud in the quiet hall. She opened her eyes slowly and stared at her reflection in the mirror.
Her hair, which once cascaded down to the back of her knees, now gently brushed the end of her back after her cut.
For a moment, she felt a wave of mixed emotions—loss, liberation, and a profound sense of empowerment.
She wrapped the severed braid carefully in a napkin and placed it gently into her bag, alongside the notes and flowers.
She then made her way to the Great Hall, her spirits lifted after the morning's transformation. Approaching the entrance, she noticed Ryu deep in conversation with Roger by the door, and as she neared, Roger's face brightened upon seeing her.
"Vera!" he greeted warmly, prompting Ryu to turn around swiftly at the sound of her name.
She quickly examined his face, expecting to see bruises from his fight with Cedric, but to her surprise, it was unscathed. Maybe he healed them magically, she mused.
"Hey, Rog," she replied with a smile.
“How are you feeling?” Roger asked.
She grinned. “Great!”
“That’s wonderful to hear, Vee,” Roger responded with a smile.
Ryu, however, stood beside him in silence, a mixture of disdain and shock evident on his face.
She turned to him gratefully, clearing her throat. "Thank you for the tea and flowers, Avery. I really appreciate them.”
But instead of reciprocating with a smile or thanks, Ryu's eyes narrowed with disgust. "What on earth did you do to your hair?" he nearly shouted, his tone filled with disbelief.
Vera was taken aback by his sudden outburst. "Seriously?" she replied, a mix of surprise and disappointment crossing her face. “That’s what you’re concerned about?”
He shook his head, his expression incredulous. "It looks awful!”
“I only trimmed it a bit,” she retorted, “Honestly, is that really such a big deal?”
“Well, it looks ridiculous.”
“Do you want to get punched in the throat, Avery?”
"I'm just saying, it was better before!"
“And when did you become an expert in hairstyles?”
He smirked, “have you seen my hair?”
"Right, I’ll make sure to get your opinion next time."
“You better.”
“I think it looks fine,” Roger interjected, “honestly, I didn’t even notice,”
“Stay out of this, Davies,” Ryu snapped at him.
"Noted," Roger said, holding up his hands in mock surrender.
“She looks stupid and she must know it,”
Vera's jaw tightened. "Well, lucky for me, it's my hair, not yours. Why does it even matter to you?"
"I’m just saying, your hair looked unique before, and now it’s... normal."
"Unique?" she smirked, folding her arms. “Did you mean perfect?”
Ryu groaned. "You're impossible."
"And you’re insufferable!”
Roger chuckled, watching the exchange with amusement. "You two are like an old married couple."
“Stay out of this!” they both snapped at him.
“Why did you cut it anyways?” Ryu continued.
“Because,”
He narrowed his eyes. “Because?”
She shrugged. “I felt like it,”
“Terrible decision, Black. Terrible.”
“If anything’s terrible is the scarf you’re wearing,”
“What’s wrong with my scarf?”
“Nothing, I just pity the peacock that was killed to make it,”
Ryu opened his mouth to respond, but before he could, Roger intervened again, "Okay, okay, let's settle down a bit," he urged, casting a meaningful glance between the two. "We're just glad you’re out of the hospital, Vera. Aren’t we, Avery?"
Ryu glanced at Roger, then back at Vera, his expression softening slightly. After a moment of tense silence, he finally nodded reluctantly. "Yeah, I’m glad you’re okay," he conceded.
"Thanks," she said evenly, forcing a smile as she turned to leave. “Catch you later, Rog.”
“And me?” Ryu piped up.
She spun back around, a proud grin spreading across her face as she flipped him off.
Roger chuckled, while Ryu's smile grew wider, relieved and amused.
After the awkward exchange, she headed straight for the Gryffindor table to join her friends, who greeted her with cheerful waves and warm smiles.
"We had a bet," Fred announced, "that you'd met your untimely demise."
"I won," George added with a smirk.
She giggled. "Good morning to you two. I demand a cut of the winnings, Georgie."
"You got it," George said, pulling out a sickle and flipping it to her.
"How are you feeling, Vee?" Alicia inquired, her tone concerned.
She smiled. "Never better. Like a new person, really."
"You look like a new person," Angelina interjected, "cut your hair, didn't you?"
"Yeah, it was getting impossible to manage."
"Well, I think it looks better this way," Lee added with a mouthful of toast.
"Thanks, Lee. Always nice to get fashion advice from someone who considers socks optional."
"She's back, everyone!" Lee shouted in triumph.
"Glad someone likes it," she continued. "Avery had the nerve to say it looked awful."
Fred gasped dramatically. "How dare he insult your glorious mane?!"
"Should we duel him at dawn?" George added.
She laughed. "No need. I handled it."
Angelina sighed. "What a relief it is to hear your awful laugh again, Vee,"
"Thanks, Angie, and everyone. Seriously, guys, I can't thank you enough for all the love and support these past few weeks. I know I was insufferable at times, and I'm sorry for causing you to worry."
Fred waved a hand dismissively. "Ah, we knew you'd pull through. Can't get rid of you that easily."
"Yeah, who else would keep us on our toes?" George added.
Alicia reached over and squeezed her hand. "We're just glad you're back, Vee. It wasn't the same without you."
"Absolutely," Angelina agreed.
“Alright, enough of this mushy stuff,” Fred declared. “Let’s talk strategy for Quidditch practice.”
“Oh no,” Angelina groaned. “Not another one of your ‘brilliant’ plays.”
“Hey, my plays are genius,” Fred shot back, “just ahead of their time.”
“More like from another dimension,” Angelina teased.
“You’ll see,” Fred said confidently. “This one’s a game-changer.”
“Is this the one where we all ride our brooms upside down?” Alicia asked.
“No, but that’s not a bad idea,” Fred replied thoughtfully.
As they discussed Quidditch strategy, Vera glanced across the hall and caught sight of Felix staring at her.
His eyes held a mixture of concern and curiosity as he gestured subtly, silently asking if everything had gone well. She responded with a reassuring nod and a smile, hoping to convey her gratitude for his concern.
Felix's faint smile in return didn't quite reach his eyes before he returned to his meal, his expression clouded with a hint of sorrow.
She couldn't shake the feeling of concern, wondering what might be troubling him.
Just then, a flurry of motion interrupted her thoughts as Maddie appeared, practically sprinting towards her. “Vera! Oh my god, Vera!” she shouted, her voice carrying across the hall.
“Maddie?” she turned just in time to brace herself for a bear hug.
“I’m so sorry!” Maddie exclaimed, her voice muffled. “I’m sorry for what I said, I’ve felt terrible about it.”
Vera gently pushed her back to look her in the eyes. “It’s okay, Mads. Really.”
“No, it’s not okay,” Maddie insisted, tears welling up in her eyes. “I was so stupid, and then you got sick, and I thought—”
“Maddie, stop,” Vera said firmly but kindly. “I would never be angry with you. In fact, I’m the one who should be apologizing.”
“No,” Maddie sniffled, wiping her eyes. “You did nothing wrong. I overreacted, but I was so worried about you!”
“And I appreciate it,” Vera said, giving her another quick hug. “But I’m okay now, I promise.”
Maddie nodded, finally smiling. “You’re the best, Vee. I brought you something, it’s in my room!”
“Oh, mads you didn’t have to,”
“It’s the least I can do. Come on, let’s go,”
“Hold on, Vera,” Lee said, grabbing her by the shoulders and gently steering her back to the table. “You need to sit and eat first. No more running away from food,”
“But—”
“No buts,” Lee interrupted, piling her plate high with food.
She sat down, feeling grateful for his insistence. As she looked at the food in front of her, she couldn’t help but smile and feel grateful for being surrounded by people who truly cared about her well-being.
And for the first time in a long while, she savored each bite with a newfound sense of delight that filled her soul.
Her eyes then fixated on the innocuous bottle of milk sitting conspicuously on the table, and Morales's talk about conquering fears rang loudly in her head.
She took a deep breath, "Lee?"
He turned to her, curiosity lighting up his face. "Yes?"
"Do you dare me?"
Lee leaned in with exaggerated intrigue. "Dare you to do what?"
She smirked devilishly. "To drink the entire bottle of milk."
The entire table fell into stunned silence, their eyes widening in disbelief.
"But," Lee protested, shaking his head, "you hate milk!"
"That's the whole point of a dare, duh!"
Fred interjected, eyes bulging. "Are you serious?"
"Dead serious."
The group exchanged curious glances, still in disbelief.
“Alright, Vee.” Lee smirked. “I dare you to drink the whole bottle of milk.”
She reached for the bottle, her hand trembling slightly as she felt the weight of everyone’s eyes on her, then, with a sudden surge of determination, opened it.
The room seemed to hold its breath as she lifted it to her lips., and she paused for a moment, then tipped it back and began to chug.
The cool liquid soon filled her mouth, and she forced herself to swallow despite her initial revulsion.
Her friends watched in stunned silence, eyes wide as saucers.
As the last drop disappeared, she set the empty bottle down with a triumphant thud.
“Not so bad,” she said, trying to keep a straight face.
Suddenly, a mighty burp erupted from her, breaking the tense silence like a cannon blast. The table burst into raucous laughter, and Vera's grin widened into a triumphant smirk.
“Way to go!” Fred hooted.
“That was so class!” Alicia exclaimed, clapping her hands.
“Never thought I’d see the day,” George added, shaking his head with a grin.
Lee chuckled, “You really did it. I’m impressed.”
Vera basked in the glow of her absurd triumph, feeling a rush of pride and camaraderie.
Tears of gratitude welled up in her eyes as she realized that joy, true and unbridled, had returned to her at last.
She stared at the empty bottle, and a proud smile graced her lips, "Well, it's just milk."
Chapter 41: Crow Court
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
"Wonderful!" Morales exclaimed, his cheers echoing through the hall. "Now, let's refine that levitation spell. Remember to focus on the object’s center of mass."
Vera nodded eagerly, her face glowing with happiness. As March drew to a close, she had been diligently practicing wand techniques under his guidance.
Her body was gradually adapting to magic, and while she still felt some discomfort, it was no longer as overwhelming as before.
She concentrated, her brow furrowing in determination, then lifted her wand, feeling the power surge within her.
"That's it," he encouraged, "Feel the energy flow through you and guide it with your will."
With a flick of her wrist, the small stone before her began to rise, hovering in midair, and her eyes widened in delight.
"Excellent!" Morales praised. "You're getting the hang of it. Now, try moving it gently from side to side."
She grinned, her confidence growing, and with careful movements, guided the stone left and right, her heart soaring with joy.
"Perfect control!”
She beamed at him, her excitement palpable, but suddenly winced as a sharp pain shot through her head.
"That's enough for today," he suggested, noticing the strain on her face. He led her to his desk, where a simple meal awaited them, then set the record player to spin a not so gentle tune.
♪ Back in black
I hit the sack
I've been too long, I'm glad to be back
Yes, I'm let loose
From the noose
That's kept me hanging about
I've been looking at the sky
'Cause it's gettin' me high
Forget the hearse 'cause I never die
I got nine lives
Cat's eyes
Abusin' every one of them and running wild ♪
As they settled at the table, he handed her a small vial of willow bark, and she eagerly took it, feeling the familiar relief wash over her as she drank.
"In a few weeks, you won’t need it anymore," he assured her, smiling. "You won’t feel sick while doing magic again."
She nodded hesitantly, hiding her true feelings.
Unknown to him or anyone else, she had grown to appreciate the calming effects of this painkiller.
It was her secret solace, a comfort she wasn’t ready to give up.
"I hope so," she said softly, her smile masking her thoughts.
Morales patted her hand. "You’re doing wonderfully, Vera. I’m truly proud of you."
As they shared their meal, she took a moment to truly appreciate him.
The memory of their meeting in January still lingered, but understanding the concern that had driven him to raise his voice made all the difference.
He had come to Hogwarts for her, and that realization filled her with excitement and gratitude.
"Professor," she said softly, breaking the comfortable silence. "I'm really grateful for everything you've done for me."
He looked at her with a gentle smile. "You're worth it, Vera. Seeing you happy and healthy is all that matters."
"And I'm sorry," she continued, glancing down at her sandwich, "for ignoring you and skipping your classes."
"I have to admit, I was upset. Not with you, of course, but with myself."
"You were only trying to help me."
"Still, I can't forgive myself for yelling at you."
"It's okay. Professor Snape yells at me all the time."
"Ugh, being compared to that rat is dreadful," he paused, his eyes widening in regret. Meanwhile, Vera was laughing so hard she almost choked on her sandwich.
"Just pretend I didn't say that," he quickly added, letting out a small chuckle.
She took a moment to catch her breath, still giggling. "I'll try, but that was too good to forget, sir."
"Well, if my missteps bring you joy, I suppose that's something."
"Besides," she added with a smirk, "you make a way better mentor than him. At least you don’t look like you’ve bitten into a lemon every time you see me."
"High praise indeed! Though I don't think I'll be adding 'Not as sour as Snape' to my résumé anytime soon."
"Probably for the best. But seriously, thank you. Professor."
"You’re welcome," he said with a twinkle in his eye. "Just don’t tell Snape I said that. I’d like to live to see summer."
She laughed again, feeling lighter than she had in weeks. "Your secret's safe with me.”
"Your reputation in his class is quite remarkable," he continued. "Is potions your passion?"
"I'm not really sure," she replied with a shrug. "I enjoy it, but I feel like I'm only good at it because it's all I study."
"Oh, trust me, when it comes to potions, you're either a natural or you're not. I hated it as a student because I was terrible at it, despite spending more time on it than anything else."
"Everyone says I should be proud of my skills, but honestly, I wish I were better at casting spells."
"And you will be,"
"But I'm so far behind,"
"I've noticed how quickly you learn. You have nothing to worry about."
"It's just that I haven't studied at all these past weeks,"
"You were going through a difficult time, and every professor understands that. We're all here to help you catch up, myself included."
She nodded, a smile spreading across her face as she appreciated their support. "Thank you. That means a lot to me."
"Think nothing of it. Besides, anyone who can endure Snape and still excel in potions is destined for greatness."
She laughed. "That might be the best compliment I've ever received."
"Well, I aim to please," he said with a wink. “Oh, I almost forgot. Professor Dumbledore wishes to see you after we’re done here.”
Her eyebrows shot up in surprise. "Did he say why?"
He shook his head, a mysterious smile playing on his lips. "He didn't mention specifics, just that it's important. Knowing him, it could be anything from a new assignment to a bit of wisdom."
She nodded, “I'll head over as soon as I finish here then."
With a deep breath, she gathered her belongings and made her way to the headmaster's office, hoping for the best but preparing for anything.
"Enter," came Dumbledore's calm and welcoming voice from inside his office.
Stepping in, Vera took in the familiar surroundings. The warm glow of the numerous candles, the gentle ticking of the many curious devices, and the ever-watchful portraits of former headmasters all added to the comforting atmosphere.
Dumbledore sat behind his desk, his eyes twinkling with that familiar blend of wisdom and mischief.
"Good evening, Vera," he greeted her warmly. "Please, have a seat."
She settled into the chair, her excitement tempered by a sense of calm in his presence. "Good evening, Professor. You wanted to see me?"
"I do," he replied, leaning back in his chair with a serene smile. "I wish to check on your progress and see how you are faring."
"I'm doing much better," she said with a smile. "I can practice magic again, and it feels minted!”
"I am delighted to hear that. You have shown remarkable resilience, Vera."
"Thank you, sir," she said shyly. "Professor Morales told me you brought him over to help me, and I really appreciate it."
“I knew that with the right support, you would find your way back to magic,” he replied with a twinkle in his eye, causing her to smile warmly at him.
“Eduardo shared with me the details of your journey," he continued, his eyes filled with profound empathy. "My heart aches to hear of the pain you endured. Rest assured, Vera, you are now in good hands. Hogwarts is not just a school—it is your home. Here, you will always have a place where you are valued, supported, and loved.”
She felt a lump in her throat. "Thank you, Professor," she replied softly, her voice quivering.
"Now, I don't wish to delay you, but I must ask about your hands."
"Oh," she responded, slightly taken aback. "I'm being careful, sir, I promise."
"Good."
"But," she hesitated, biting her lip, "I unintentionally used it on someone after we came back from the holiday."
"Poppy had indeed informed me. It is alright, Vera. It wasn't your fault. Just make sure to wear leather gloves when you are around snow or water."
She nodded, then cleared her throat. "Professor, now that I'm healed from blood poisoning, when can I expect them to return to normal again?"
Dumbledore's expression grew somber. "I'm afraid they never will, Vera."
Her heart sank.
"Clairtangency is not a disease that can be cured," he said gently. "It is part of who you are."
The words hit her like a physical blow, and she felt her chest tighten with devastation. "So, I will always have to wear gloves?"
"I'm afraid so."
"And I can never touch anyone?"
He nodded, his eyes filled with sorrow. "I'm sorry, Vera."
Her eyes welled up with tears, and she struggled to hold them back.
Seeing her distress, Dumbledore leaned closer, his tone gentle and comforting. "I know this is incredibly difficult to hear. But know that you are not alone. We will do everything in our power to protect you and help you navigate this.”
"Dark magic is part of who I am?" she interjected, not really hearing him.
Dumbledore leaned back, slightly surprised. "It is not dark magic, Vera."
"It's invasive," she insisted. "That makes it dark!"
"While certain abilities can be misused for harm, they can also be channeled for good. The magic itself is not inherently dark; it is the intent and actions of the user that determine its nature."
She looked down at her gloved hands, her mind racing with conflicting thoughts. "Nothing good can come from it. My family used it to steal from people... To hurt them."
"And before that, they used it to lay the foundations of justice in the wizarding world."
Her eyes widened in surprise. "Wait, what?"
"Before the establishment of the Wizengamot, criminal trials were held in Crow Courts. Members of the crow dynasty, with their psychometric abilities and keen understanding of the ways of their animal counterparts, ensured that no victim went unavenged and no criminal went unpunished. They interrogated suspects, uncovered the truth behind their crimes, and delivered fitting punishments. Thieves lost the hand they stole with, torturers faced their own cruel spells, and killers met their end."
He rose from his chair and walked to the other side of his desk, offering her a lemon sherbet as he sat across from her. "Your family, along with the Yancers and Odams, didn't hold power due to wealth but through their ability to uphold the law. It was only when an ambitious Yancer used his murder of crows against Muggles that the Crow Court lost its legitimacy. People couldn't trust the dynasty anymore and punished them all for his mistakes. That’s when they started to steal their way back into power."
She hesitated for a moment, the weight of his words sinking in. She took the offered lemon sherbet, her fingers trembling slightly as she unwrapped it. "So, my family wasn't always bad?"
"No, Vera," he said softly. "They once stood for justice and protection. The power you possess is ancient and profound, and it is up to you to decide how you will use it. It's a tool, and like any tool, it can be used for good or ill. Your family's history is a testament to both sides of that coin. You can honor the noble legacy of your ancestors, and channel your abilities for good, to protect and to heal. Remember when you helped Charlie Weasley? That was a glimpse of what you can achieve."
She looked up, her eyes reflecting a mix of hope and determination. "I remember. It felt... right, helping him."
"Every time you choose to use your gift for good, you are reshaping its legacy. The path ahead will not always be easy, Vera, but with courage and compassion, you can transform your family's history and forge a new future for yourself."
She took a deep breath, her resolve strengthening. "I will try, Professor. I will find a way to use it for good."
Dumbledore smiled warmly, his eyes twinkling. "I have no doubt that you will. Remember, it is not our abilities that show what we truly are, but our choices."
Monday, April 1st, 1991
Gryffindor’s common room was transforming into a medieval feast hall for Fred and George’s birthday party. The room was adorned with banners bearing the Gryffindor crest, long wooden tables lined with flickering candles, and suits of armor standing guard in every corner.
"Make sure the goblets are filled with pumpkin juice," Vera instructed Kenny, who was busy arranging the drinks. "And Angie, can you help me with the tapestries? They keep falling down."
"Of course," Angie replied, waving her wand to secure the tapestries firmly to the walls. "This is going to be amazing. Fred and George will love it."
Just then, Nearly Headless Nick floated into the room, his head wobbling precariously on his shoulders. "Ah, the decorations are coming along splendidly," he remarked with a cheerful smile. "I have brought some spectral surprises to add to the ambiance."
"What kind of surprises?" Vera asked.
"Authentic medieval ghostly apparitions," Nick replied with a flourish. "They will regale the guests with tales of yore and add an extra touch of authenticity to the festivities."
"That's brilliant!" she exclaimed. "Thank you so much for helping us."
"My pleasure, Miss Black," Nick said, bowing gracefully. "Now, let us ensure everything is in place before the naughty boys arrive."
As the preparations continued, the second years worked together seamlessly.
Lee was setting up a mock jousting area with brooms for lances, while Malika was arranging a table filled with medieval-themed snacks, including miniature dragon cakes and chocolate cauldrons.
Finally, everything was set, and the common room looked like a scene from a medieval banquet, complete with enchanted suits of armor that moved occasionally and tapestries depicting brave knights and fierce dragons.
As Fred and George entered the room, their faces lit up with delight at the sight of the transformation.
"Blimey, this is incredible!" Fred exclaimed, looking around in awe.
"You lot have really outdone yourselves," George added, clapping Vera on the back. "This is going to be the best birthday ever!"
After the party, they organized a mock medieval battle with wooden swords and armor.
Laughter and shouts of excitement soon echoed through the corridors as Vera chased George, eventually managing to disarm him.
Along with Tommy and Lee, they took him prisoner and decided to stage a mock execution in the courtyard.
Percy, Penelope, and Felix were studying on the grass nearby when the commotion began, and turned around to witness the playful scene unfolding. Tommy and Lee sat George on the grass, holding him in place, while Vera approached from behind.
"George Weasley, you are being prosecuted for treason and shall taste my wrath!" she declared, raising her sword dramatically.
"Do I get a last meal before my execution?” George quipped. “Perhaps a pumpkin pasty?"
"Last meal? You’re lucky if you get a last word."
"How about 'mercy'? It has a nice ring to it, don’t you think?"
"Never heard of it." She then turned to Tommy and Lee. "Guards, tighten your grip so I can swing my sword at his neck."
"A quick end would be kinder!" George remarked.
She smirked. "That’s the quickest you’ll get. Now, ready to join the rest of the Hogwarts ghosts?"
"Tell Mum I love her and that it was Fred's idea to use her wand as a back scratcher."
"Any other confessions before we proceed, traitor?"
"Confessions?"
"CONFESS!"
"JUST KILL ME!"
She placed her wooden sword against his neck, playing her role to perfection, then cleared her throat.
Percy and Penelope leaned in with amusement, while Felix remained rather solemn, watching with furrowed eyebrows.
She cleared her throat. "By the power vested in me, I hereby sentence you, George Gideon Weasley, to DEATH."
She raised the sword, ready to swing it at his neck, but just then, Fred appeared behind her.
"Drop your sword!" he commanded with a grin.
Cedric, Alicia, Angelina, and Kenny swiftly rushed in, engaging Tommy and Lee in playful battles.
Vera, caught by surprise, dropped her sword and raised her hands in playful surrender. George picked up the fallen sword and theatrically shoved it towards her belly.
She gasped dramatically, clutching her stomach and collapsing to the ground. The other students watching the scene erupted into laughter and applause, thoroughly entertained by the impromptu performance.
Vera glanced around with a smile on her face, feeling a sense of camaraderie and joy. But then she noticed Felix staring at her with a serious expression.
His demeanor stood out starkly against the backdrop of merriment, and she couldn't help but feel a twinge of unease.
As the laughter continued and the group helped each other up, her thoughts lingered on his reaction, and she wondered why he seemed so angry.
That evening, her thoughts still tethered to their exchange in the hospital wing, she decided to seek him out. Balancing a plate of food, she made her way to the Haven, where she had been surreptitiously observing him via the Marauder's Map.
She rapped gently on the door, her heart hoping he was alright. "It's me," she whispered, "Vera."
"Come in," came his strained voice.
Stepping into the serene room, she discovered him seated on the sofa, lost in contemplation, a notebook resting on his lap.
She approached him with care, placing the plate of food within reach. "I didn’t see you at dinner, so I thought I would bring you something to eat."
He looked up, a flicker of surprise crossing his face before he nodded gratefully. "Thank you."
"Mind if I join you?" she asked, settling down beside him.
"Sure," he murmured, though his gaze remained distant.
They sat together in silence for a moment before she gently probed, "Is everything okay?"
He sighed, running a hand through his hair. "Yeah, I'm fine. Just thinking about some things."
She glanced around the room, now cluttered with broken musical instruments, books he had brought over, and a dozen wrinkled parchments scattered across the floor.
“Um, Felix?”
“Hmm,”
“Wanna see something?”
“mhm,”
She pulled out her wand, clearing her throat before pointing it at a book on the floor. "Wingardium Leviosa," she incanted.
The book slowly rose under her control, reaching the ceiling before she gently guided it back down.
"I know it’s not impressive, but I’m training every day!"
“You can do magic again?”
She beamed. “Yep!”
“That’s good,” he said with a faint smile. “I’m happy for you, Vera.”
“Thanks,” she smiled back, though she could still sense his troubled expression. “I owe it to you, actually.”
He looked up at her, his brows furrowed, before returning his gaze to the notebook, and her smile faded swiftly.
She had hoped for more excitement from him, but his indifference stung.
She felt foolish for thinking she mattered to him as much as he did to her.
Clearing her throat, she pulled out the book he had given her back in January. “I wanted to return this. It took me some time to finish, but I really liked it.”
He took the book from her hand with an indifferent expression, staring at the cover in silence.
Vera felt increasingly uneasy, as if her presence now felt unwelcome. Just then, he rose from the sofa, went to his bag by the door, and pulled out ‘Little Women’, handing it to her.
“How did you like it?” she asked, taking the book.
“It was nice. Finished it ages ago but never had the chance to give it back.”
“She smiled nervously. “I’m glad you liked it.”
“I hated the ending, though."
“Why?”
“I think Laurie should have married Jo.”
She couldn't help but feel a bit disappointed, being Amy’s biggest fan. “Why?”
“They were obviously woven for each other, don’t you agree?”
“I think they were too similar, and that’s why they couldn’t be together. But I felt like Amy was his soulmate.”
“I hated Amy.”
Her heart sank.
“She’s too shallow,” he continued, “and selfishly vain.”
She looked down at her hands, feeling a pang of discomfort. She had always thought she and Felix shared similar views, hoping he would like Amy as much as she did, or at least understand her. She bit her lip, unsure of what to say.
She glanced down at the wrinkled parchments on the floor. "Were you writing something?"
"Mhm."
"What?"
"A letter to my father," he responded bitterly. "We had a deal, remember?"
"Are you really going to tell him?"
"I promised you."
"It’s going to be okay, Felix," she assured him gently. "He’s going to take it well."
He tightened his grip on the notebook before suddenly hurling it against the wall.
Vera was startled but chose to mask her fear.
“You said he loved you,” she reasoned. “He’ll... understand.”
“You don’t know him, or my uncle Gaius. They’re serious about these things.”
“And what about your mother?”
“What about... her?”
“If she’ll understand, maybe you can tell her, and she can reason with him.”
His jaw clenched, eyes narrowing. “She’s out of the picture, Vera.”
“What do you mean?”
“They’re divorced.”
Her gaze fell, feeling suddenly foolish for asking. Her heart ached for him, and she wished she knew what to do or say.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered. “I didn’t know.”
"He hates her and all my stepmoms, so I doubt he’ll listen to any of them."
Stepmoms? Plural? What the fuck.
Her eyes widened in shock, but she tried to conceal it.
"It’s hopeless," he continued, his voice thick with anguish. "I’ll always be their puppet, and I'll never live the way I dream."
A tear slid down his cheek, followed by another, and before she knew it, he started crying.
Burying his face in his hands, his shoulders began to shake with sobs, and Vera’s own tears welled up as she watched him, her heart breaking. She wished desperately for a spell that could ease his pain, feeling utterly helpless in the face of his suffering.
"Felix," she murmured, approaching him and gently removing his hands from his face. She cupped his cheeks, pulling his tear-streaked face toward her and wiping away his tears with her sleeve. "Can I tell you a secret?"
He looked at her with tearful, confused eyes, then nodded slowly.
"When I was eight,” she began, staring deeply into his dark brown eyes, “I convinced myself that magic was evil.”
Felix blinked repeatedly, his sorrowful expression shifting to one of surprise.
“Ever since,” she continued, “my body fought against it.”
She released his face and picked up her wand, brushing it softly as she continued. “Every time I tried to cast a spell or even ride a broom, I’d get sick. No one knew what to do or what was wrong with me. I had headaches so terrible I wanted to shove my wand into my eyes to stop the pain or bang my head against the wall until I was dead. I wasn’t allowed to do magic for my own safety and others', because it was so unstable it could cause chaos. That was all, of course, before you visited me in the hospital and told me to let go."
Felix's confusion deepened as he gazed at her, his eyes fixed on her without a single blink.
"That day, Felix, you healed me without even knowing."
His gaze fell to the floor, eyes widened as he tried to grasp what he had heard.
“It’s your destiny to be a healer,” she continued, “woven, as you like to say.”
He looked back at her and softly shook his head. “Vera, I didn’t do anything.”
“But you did,” she insisted. “If it wasn’t for you, I would have never had the courage to tell anyone what happened. I would have kept it inside and let it kill me.”
“I thought you were just upset about something. I never realized how serious it all was.”
She smiled. “You didn’t have to. What truly healed me was you believing in me. If I was about to die, I wouldn’t need potions or remedies; I would need someone to look me in the eyes and tell me they know I’ll make it. And you do that, Felix. You make people brave, even when the world around them feels dark and cold.”
He gazed at her, his lips quivering slightly but no words coming out.
“If you tell your father that,” she continued, “I’m sure he’ll realize that you were destined for it.”
She rose from the sofa, walked to the other side of the room, then picked up the notebook he had thrown. After dusting it off, she returned to him.
She handed him the notebook. “Our promise was for me to be brave for both of us. Now I’m asking you to do the same.”
Taking the notebook from her, he nodded solemnly, and after a moment of silence, he spoke softly, "I'll tell him. But that's all I can promise."
“That is okay. At least then, you’ll know you tried.”
He nodded again, and she saw a glimmer of hope in his eyes.
“Did anyone ever tell you you’re wise?” he suddenly said.
She chuckled, “I’m really not.”
“You are,” he insisted, “maybe too much for your own sake, but you are.”
Her cheeks flushed deeply, and she felt her heart racing.
“Thank you, kitten,” he whispered, “and I’m happy you’re healed.”
She picked up her copy of ‘Little Women’ and made her way out of Haven, feeling as if she were floating on a cloud. Walking down the corridor, she sensed something inside the book.
Opening it, she discovered a small dried flower nestled between the pages.
As she picked it up to smell its delicate fragrance, her gaze fell on the page where it had been placed, with one sentence underlined and Felix’s handwriting beneath it.
“I want to be great, or nothing,”
You will
Notes:
Songs mentioned:
Back in Black - AC/DC
Chapter 42: Clair De Lune
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Tuesday April, 16, 1991
"You will pair up with a partner to brew the potion," Snape announced, his voice slicing through the students' murmurs. "Choose your partners wisely, as your grade will hinge on your teamwork and the potion's quality."
Vera surveyed the room, weighing her options, but before she could make a decision, Cedric suddenly approached.
"Want to team up, Piggy?" he asked politely, his earnest grey eyes meeting hers.
Caught off guard, she glanced nervously at Maddie, who was watching them with a somber expression.
"I'm sorry, Snorty," she began softly, "but someone else has already asked me."
Cedric's expression fell slightly, his gaze dropping to the floor. She felt a pang of guilt for the lie, but it seemed necessary.
"However," she continued swiftly, subtly nodding towards her friend. "I think Maddie still needs a partner."
Cedric followed her gaze to see Maddie sitting alone, fidgeting with her quill. A hint of color rose in his cheeks as he hesitated. "Um, okay," he replied, his voice slightly uncertain. "Can I at least borrow your notes?"
"Um, sure," Vera said with a puzzled smile, handing him her notebook. She watched as he approached Maddie, whose face lit up at his arrival.
Maddie then glanced at her, giving her a subtle nod of thanks, to which she responded with a proud smile.
After Cedric left, she scanned the room for a partner again, only to realize that everyone had already paired off.
Alicia with Tommy, Angelina with George, Sarah with Fred, Lee with Malika, and Kenny with Patty.
She glanced over at the Poshlanders, where Adrian seemed to have cornered Roger, while Miles swiftly joined forces with Cassius, leaving Jane visibly upset until Eudora approached her.
Surveying the room again, her heart sank as she realized the only one left without a partner was none other than him.
With a defeated sigh, she made her way over to the Ravenclaw boy, who was calmly setting up his station, seemingly unperturbed.
"Well, well, well," Ryu drawled as she approached, his eyes never leaving his cauldron. "Decided to come to me of your own free will?”
"Don't flatter yourself, Avery," she shot back, a hint of annoyance in her voice. "It's more like a last resort."
Ryu glanced up, his piercing black eyes assessing her coolly. "Pity," he muttered, turning back to his potion ingredients. "I was hoping for a more enthusiastic partner."
She sighed inwardly, resigning herself to the situation. "Well, too bad I’m all that you get."
“I don’t mind you, but enduring that atrocious hair might be a challenge."
“Why are you so obsessed with my hair?”
He scoffed. “I’m not. But I despise stupidity, and what you did to it qualifies.”
She pocked her tongue at him. “Cry about it. Now, enough chit-chat. We have work to do.” She then shoved a flask into his chest. “Start with this.”
“Yes, your highness,” he mocked, bowing slightly. “Your loyal servant is at your command.”
She raised an eyebrow. “In that case, get on your knees and bark for me.”
“Glad to see you've returned to your queenly bitchiness.”
“Glad to see you never stopped being a noble dick.”
"I'm not the one who rejected a thoughtful gift just because I felt unworthy."
She cringed, “Are you seriously still hung up on Valentine's?”
“Just saying, you could have kept it.”
“Or were you unable to return it? Is that it?”
“Please. I practically own that shop. Returning it would be effortless.”
She rolled her eyes, then proceeded to work on the potion, trying her best to ignore his presence. He set up the cauldron, while she began measuring the ingredients and setting them aside.
"And no," he suddenly continued, adjusting the heat under the stove with his wand. "I'm not upset about it. I understand why you rejected it.”
"I doubt that." She retorted, approaching a tube to her eyes as she poured liquid into it.
"I truly do."
She narrowed her eyes at him, then returned her attention to the tube.
He lowered his wand and reached over for the stirring stick, “You might think I'm a brat, Black, but I do think about these things."
"What things?"
"What I have and others don't."
She swiftly looked up at him, surprised by his words.
He placed the stick in the cauldron, charmed his wand to stir it, and then, with his hands in his pockets, closed the already small gap between them.
Vera set the tube down and met his eyes, suddenly feeling vulnerable as his heavenly scent enveloped her senses.
"Look," he lowered his voice, leaning in slightly, "my parents raised me to acknowledge my privileges every waking second—our status, our blood, the wealth we have, and most importantly, them."
Her eyes widened in surprise at his sudden serious tone. She remained silent, staring at him with confusion.
"I was born lucky," he continued. "I understand that. I was mistaken to assume you would share the same life as me just because we're both from noble families."
She shook her head, her heart suddenly racing. “What are you talking about?”
He locked eyes with her, his lips quivering slightly before he finally said. “I'm sorry, Vera. For what they do to you.”
Her heart almost stopped.
He knows. Ryu knows.
But how, she wondered. She never told any of her classmates about the abuse she received.
Or did she?
She glanced over at Cassius and remembered their conversation on the day of the Gryffindor match with Ravenclaw.
She sighed in disappointment and slight anger. "He told you?”
“He mentioned something about it.”
“He promised me not to tell anyone,” she snapped. “We promised each other!”
“He's my best mate, Vera. He tells me everything. I was just trying to understand what was happening to you. I mean, I really couldn't fathom why you would think you don't deserve my gift, but with how your family treats you, I get it now.”
She could barely believe how far things had escalated. Not only did the two boys know, but they also believed it was her own family who was responsible.
“Ryu, you can't tell anyone!" she said urgently.
“I would never!” he exclaimed earnestly. “I just wanted you to know that what you and Cass go through is unfair, and I'm here for you if you ever want to talk about it.”
As she stared into his almond eyes, she sensed an unexpected honesty and care, which left her feeling both surprised and overwhelmed.
She quickly averted her gaze, turning her attention back to the ingredients to calm the sudden emotional storm within her.
“Are you okay?” Ryu asked, noticing her expression.
“Yeah,” she murmured. “I'm just... surprised, that's all.”
“Surprised by what?”
She looked back at him, a hint of admiration in her eyes. “By you.”
Ryu chuckled. “I think you judge me too harshly, Black.”
“I judge what I see,” she swiftly retorted, then softened. “But yes, I admit that was wrong of me.”
Ryu smiled at her, and they both returned to their work in silence. She continued to grind and measure ingredients while he assembled the potion in the cauldron and stirred.
Occasionally, she would glance up at him, feeling a flutter in her stomach each time their eyes met.
Despite her aversion to pity and vulnerability, she found some comfort in him knowing and, more importantly, offering to listen.
“It doesn't happen anymore, by the way,” she said suddenly, catching him off guard. “I've put it all behind me.”
“That's good to hear, Vera,” he replied with a smile, his hand hesitating briefly as if to reach for hers but stopping short.
“And I hope Cassius finds his way out of it too one day,” she added.
“I hope so too.”
“He's fortunate to have you as a friend.”
Ryu glanced at her with a faint smile before turning back to the cauldron. "Do any of your friends know?" he asked while continuing to work.
"No, I've never told anyone."
He raised an eyebrow. "Not even Diggory?"
"Of course not! Cedric and I never talk about these sorts of things."
"Then why did he hug you?"
"What?"
"Back in Herbology... The day you fainted?"
"Oh," she said, surprised that someone besides Maddie had noticed. "He was just trying to comfort me."
"Why?"
She shrugged. "He's a good friend."
"Boyfriend, you mean?"
"Avery!" she snapped. "You're back to being a dick."
"I'm not being anything. I'm just observant, and from what I see, you two are into each other."
“Oh really?” she smirked, hands on her hips. “Well, Captain Sharp Eyes, why don't you take another look at his station?”
He shook his head, puzzled. “What?”
“Just look,” she sighed, nodding toward Cedric and Maddie's workstation.
They both observed as the Hufflepuff boy and Slytherin girl appeared inseparable. Maddie’s laughter rang through the hall, while Cedric’s flushed cheeks could be seen from Mars as they whispered and touched hands.
Ryu’s eyes widened in realization, tinged with a hint of guilt. “Oh.”
“Thought you were observant, huh?”H
He turned back to her. “Are they?”
She smiled warmly. “They will be, trust me. She's head over heels for him, and I think he feels the same. She was devastated when he hugged me.”
“She wasn't the only one..."
“What?”
He panicked. “What?”
"Hmm..."
"I didn't say anything."
"Why are your ears suddenly red?"
"Why is your face stupid?"
"Are you having an allergic reaction or something?"
He smirked. "Dragons don't get sick."
She narrowed her eyes at him. "By the way, why were you two at odds that day?”
He shrugged. “Because,”
“Because?”
“I don’t really remember,” he said, moving to the other side of the station to pick up some dirty flasks. “Watch the cauldron while I wash these.”
She raised a brow, not entirely convinced, then picked up the stirring stick. “You can’t remember why you fought with someone?”
“I just mean, it’s all rather pointless now.”
“Well, I hope this teaches you a lesson, Avery boy.”
“What lesson?”
“Never assume,” she said with a proud grin, looking at him.
Ryu met her gaze for a moment, a hint of admiration in his eyes and a half-smile on his face.
“Can I assume our potion is ruined?” he then remarked dryly.
Vera looked down at the cauldron, now emitting blue smoke. “Oh, shite!”
“Bravo, Vera,”
“It's not my fault!”
“You were supposed to watch it.”
“You were distracting me.”
“Not an excuse.”
She clenched her jaw, then smirked. “Come closer.”
He walked towards her, closing the gap between them. “What?”
“Fuck you!”
He chuckled. “Very classy, Miss Black.”
She rolled her eyes. “Ugh!!!! Just help me move it!”
“Fine.”
She reached for the cauldron’s handle but stopped when she saw Ryu pick it up with his bare hands and set it aside. Shocked and confused by his ability to endure the heat, she didn’t notice her sleeve catching fire from the stove.
"Merlin, your shirt!" he exclaimed, swiftly intervening to pat out the fire, catching her off guard by his sudden move.
Staring at the huge hole now marring her sleeve, she felt a wave of devastation, especially since she didn't have a spare.
She sighed. “Oh, buggers! It’s bloody ruined!”
“Are you daft? Why would you burn it?”
“I didn't do it on purpose, you vacant tart.”
“Well, it's certainly a look.”
“Shut up,” she scoffed, rolling up her sleeves to hide the hole.
Ryu stared at her, a smirk playing on his lips.
“What?” she snapped.
He chuckled. “Your arms are hairier than mine.”
She didn’t know how her hand swiftly reached his cheek, or how her slap managed to sting even through her gloves.
Looking at Ryu with a twinge of guilt, she saw him holding his face in shock and hurt. But before she could apologize, Snape emerged out of nowhere, pinching her ear.
“Five points from Gryffindor,” he sneered, his voice cold and cutting. “And you, Black, will have the pleasure of detention. Clearly, your behavior reflects a lack of control and decorum, but that’s hardly a surprise."
“Ouch!” she exclaimed, and Ryu burst into laughter, momentarily forgetting his stinging cheek.
“Silence!” Snape barked, “Carry on with your work, and if I hear so much as a whisper from either of you, you’ll find yourselves in detention for a week, scrubbing cauldrons until your hands melt.”
“Sorry, sir,” Vera muttered, adjusting her earring in place.
As he left, she turned back to Ryu, who still seemed amused, and glared at him. “You have rabbit teeth,” she hissed, “and your hair is greasy.”
He giggled. “At least I don’t put Hagrid to shame with my hairy arms."
Heat surged through her body, and she wished she could just vanish from embarrassment, but refused to back down. “I hope you choke on your dinner tonight, Avery. Not only are you rude, but now I have detention because of you!”
“You had it coming, and you still haven’t apologized for slapping me.”
“Fuck you, Avery.”
“Likewise, Black.”
"I fucking hate him!" she exclaimed as she flopped onto the sofa in the Gryffindor common room.
Alicia rolled her eyes, taking a deep breath. "What did he say this time?"
She looked at her with a pained expression. "He said my arms are hairy."
Angelina burst into laughter, clutching her stomach.
"It's not funny!” she cried, burying her face in a cushion.
"I'm sorry, Vee," Angelina said, still chuckling. "It's just...hairy arms?"
"I wish I were dead," she said dramatically. “I didn’t think boys cared about these things, did you?”
“It’s not that serious,” Angelina shrugged, trying to stifle her giggles.
“Well, easy for you to say! You barely grow any hair. Meanwhile, I’m practically a yeti!”
“You’re not,” Alicia interjected, “Besides, yetis are kind of in this season.”
“Trust me, I am! The worst part about having thick black hair is that it grows everywhere! Ugh, I wish I was blonde!”
“Just shave it."
“I’m not allowed to until I’m thirteen,” she groaned, burying her face back in the cushion. “Which is not fucking fair!”
“Why shave?” Alicia interjected. “Just use bat blood.”
Angelina and Vera’s heads snapped up. “Did you just say bat blood?” they both exclaimed.
“Like actual bat’s blood?” Vera added.
“No, you gits,” Alicia responded, “It’s a magical cream that you rub on your skin,”
“Why is it called bat blood them?”
“Cause one of its ingredients is bat’s blood,” Alicia replied with an eye roll. “It’s an Egyptian potion,”
“And it’ll remove hair?” Vera asked, eyes wide.
“Yeah, forever.”
“FOREVER?!”
“Are you sure?” Angelina added.
“My aunt told me about it,” Alicia replied. “But said it’s proper expensive.”
Angelina shook her head. “I can’t believe there’s actually something for that."
“I bloody love magic!" Vera exclaimed, momentarily forgetting her earlier rant about how magic is pointless.
“I know, right?” Alicia said. “Even mum loved it, and she hates anything magical.”
Vera was caught off guard by that remark. She knew Alicia’s mother was a Muggle, but never realized she was a magic-hating one.
“Where can find it?” Angelina asked.
“I’m not sure, but I’ll write to my aunt and ask her.”
“Vera, you must buy it!” Angelina exclaimed. “And buy me one as well.”
“Yeah, me too,” Alicia added. “I mean, you definitely can afford it unlike us.”
“Oh, trust me,” Vera responded, brushing the hair on her arms, “I don’t care if I have to rob Gringotts to get the money, I’m gonna buy it!”
That night, as she lay in her bed, Alicia’s remark about her mother echoed in her mind.
She knew Alicia’s parents were divorced and that Alicia alternated between living with her Muggle mother and wizard father.
Her thoughts then wandered to Felix, who shared a similar situation. She thought about his ‘stepmoms’ and his father’s disdain for them, struggling to understand it all.
She had always envied him for his wealth and popularity, but now, knowing more about his family situation, she felt a twinge of pity for him.
Yet, her curiosity lingered—how could anyone come to hate someone they were once married to?
"Hey, Alicia," she said, sitting on the edge of her bed. "I wanted to talk to you about something."
Alicia set her book aside and turned to her. "What's up?"
"I realized I've never really asked you about your parents and how you feel about it all. You and Angelina have always been so supportive about my family's situation, and I feel guilty for not asking about yours."
"Oh, Vee, that's really thoughtful, but trust me, I'm okay with it. It’s isn't as bad as it seems, I promise."
She furrowed her brows. "It's not?"
"I mean, I do get upset sometimes and wonder why I don’t have what everyone else does—which I’m sure is how you feel too. But my parents were simply never meant for each other. It’s really for the best that they’re not together anymore."
"Was it that bad?"
"It was the worst! They argued all the time, and my grandparents were against their marriage. They cut off all contact with mum when she ran away with him. Only after their divorce did they start speaking to her again."
"Because your dad is a wizard?"
Alicia giggled. "No, silly, because he’s English!"
"Oh."
"And they think he’s Protestant, which is partly true now that I think about it. Thank goodness they never found out he was a wizard. It would have been too much for their catholic hearts."
"So, why didn't your parents get along?"
"They were so different, Vee. Mum hated the wizarding world and wanted to return to Belfast. Dad loved it above all else. But in the end, it boiled down to sacrifice."
"Sacrifice?"
"He never valued the sacrifices she made to be with him—moving away, adapting to a completely different world, and losing her family. And she never appreciated the sacrifices he made for her to live with him.” She then lowered her voice, leaning in slightly, “You see, they married during the war... When Death Eaters targeted wizards who married Muggles?"
Vera felt her chest tighten. She couldn't help but feel a twinge of guilt for being part of a family that had caused so much pain, even though she had nothing to do with it herself.
"But what about you?" she asked Alicia. "Don't you ever feel torn between two worlds?"
"Quite the opposite, really! I love the Muggle world, and I feel safer there, even with everything going on back home. But I wouldn't mind living here either, even if mum doesn't want me to,"
"She doesn't want you to live in the wizarding world?"
"I think she's scared another war might start and that I could get hurt,"
Vera bit her lip. "I don't think another war would happen, do you?"
Alicia shrugged. "I don't think so. I mean, 'He Who Must Not Be Named' is gone, so there's nothing to worry about anymore."
Wednesday, April 17, 1991
The next day, Vera couldn't stop replaying the conversation in her head. She thought about the war, the pain it had caused, and most importantly, how her father had been part of a group that inflicted so much suffering.
Her mind was also haunted by yet another dream of the blonde woman singing, her beautiful hazel eyes staring deeply into her, her voice a blend of raspy and serene.
Shaking her head to snap out of the reverie, she slapped her face lightly and poured milk into her second bowl of cereal.
Just then, the Gryffindor Quidditch team entered the hall.
Oliver was cursing under his breath, while Felix sat at the far end of the table, equally upset and isolated. Alicia, Angelina, and the twins soon joined her, looking tired and frustrated.
“Did something happen?” she asked them.
"Wood and Bobbin had another fight," Angelina said, sighting as she settled into her seat.
She frowned. “Again? What happened this time?"
"Who knows,” Fred answered with a mouthful.
"It got pretty intense," Angelina added, stifling a yawn. "Fred and George had to step in to break them up."
Vera glanced towards where Oliver and Felix were sitting at opposite ends, ignoring each other. It was uncommon for tensions to flare between the two, and she couldn’t help but wonder why.
"Are they okay?" she asked.
"They'll probably sort it out," George replied with a shrug. "But it's annoying when they let personal stuff interfere with team dynamics."
"Yeah, especially with the match against Slytherin coming up," Alicia added.
"Personal?"
Alicia sighed. "Bobbin's been a real pain in the arse lately. He's been acting strangely."
Vera swallowed, wondering if Felix had finally confided in his father. However, before she could dwell on it further, a service owl swooped down, dropping a parcel directly in front of her.
Her hands trembled slightly as she picked it up, feeling the weight of uncertainty settle in her stomach.
The others leaned in, curious, as she carefully untied the string and unfolded the wrapping paper.
Inside was a small rounded pink glass box, with intricate floral patterns and ornate detailing, featuring roses and gold accents. She opened it slowly, freezing in shock as a haunting tune emanated from it, while a levitating white rose bloomed and closed, twirling gracefully within.
"A music box?" Angelina asked, peering over her shoulder.
"I think so," she replied softly, her eyes scanning for a note. "But there's no name."
Alicia raised an eyebrow. "For the third time?"
"Well, it's definitely someone who wants your attention," George remarked.
"But why not reveal themselves?" she wondered aloud.
The others exchanged puzzled glances, equally intrigued by the mystery surrounding the unexpected gifts.
As Vera closed the box, she couldn't shake the feeling that there was more to these gestures than met the eye.
What confused her the most, however, was the tune this music box played. It was incredibly familiar, yet she couldn't recall where she had heard it before.
They made their way to Defense Against the Dark Arts, where Professor Morales greeted them with his usual warm smile, announcing that they would be practicing a new defensive spell that day. The excitement in the room was palpable as students exchanged eager glances.
"You’ll pair up as usual," he continued, his gaze sweeping over the class. "Who wants to go first?”
He proceeded to select pairs for dueling practice, the tension in the room mounting with each match. After Cassius and Ryu executed their spells flawlessly, smirking with satisfaction, Morales scanned the room for the next participants.
"One more pair," he announced, his eyes scanning the eager faces.
Hands shot up expectantly, but Vera remained unbothered, doodling on her desk as usual.
“Vera,” Morales suddenly called out, and her head snapped up in surprise. “Come up here,” he continued, subtly winking.
The room fell into puzzled silence as everyone turned to look at her.
No one knew she could practice magic again, and it was the first time since they had all started at Hogwarts that she had been called out to cast a spell.
She felt a mix of nerves and determination as she stepped forward.
“Are you certain, Professor?” she whispered to him.
“Absolutely,” he winked, then glanced around the room again. "Anyone willing to duel Vera?" he asked.
Silence greeted his question until Miles spoke up with a grin. "We don't wish to die, sir," he joked, earning a chuckle from the Poshlanders.
"Very well then," Morales said, stepping forward. "I'll be your opponent, Vera."
The class murmured with surprise, watching intently as Vera took her position. With a focused expression, she squared her shoulders and raised her wand, meeting Professor Morales's gaze with determination.
"Ready?" He asked, his voice calm yet encouraging.
"Ready," she replied confidently, her nerves settling as she concentrated on the spell they were about to practice.
"Three... two... one... Begin!" he announced, his wand flicking gracefully through the air as he initiated the duel.
Vera reacted swiftly, recalling the incantation and the precise wand movements Morales had taught them. She focused on her breathing, visualizing the spell taking shape as she cast it with precision.
A shimmering barrier of magical energy soon formed in front of her, deflecting his incoming spell effortlessly.
The class erupted into surprised applause as they witnessed her unexpected mastery, and even the Poshlanders looked on in astonishment.
“Well done, Vera," Morales commended, lowering his wand. "Excellent execution."
“Thank you, sir,” she beamed, relief flooding through her as she realized she had not only met but exceeded expectations.
Her confidence surged as she returned to her friends, who surrounded her with congratulatory remarks and proud smiles.
Later that day, she joined Morales for another training session, and as her magical abilities blossomed, so did her deep affection for him.
Morales had become her world: a mentor guiding her path, a friend sharing her joys and sorrows, and a father figure filling the void in her heart.
They relaxed over tea after her training session, engaging in lively conversation as a soothing tune played softly in the background.
♪ What happened to the wonderful adventures ♪
The places I had planned for us to go?
(Slipping through my fingers all the time)
Well, some of that we did, but most we didn't
And why, I just don't know
"And now I’ve got detention because of him!" she exclaimed, frustration lacing her voice as she recounted the previous day’s events.
Morales chuckled. "And what did he say that made you slap him?"
She felt her cheeks burn red, "Oh, um... He made fun of the way I look, as usual."e
He chuckled again. "Well, I must say, Mr. Avery seems to be quite different from what I presumed. He is always so calm in my class."
"He's an idiot! I mean, Sometimes he’s very kind and says the smartest things, and other times he makes me want to drown him in the lake."
Morales laughed, sipping his tea as he sat across from her in his office.
"He’s very thoughtful, though," she continued. "When I was in the hospital, he brought me this amazing Japanese tea that made me feel better, and a bouquet of violet flowers! I dried them and pressed them inside a book so I can keep them forever."
"Very thoughtful indeed," Morales remarked, though his expression suddenly turned serious. "Does, um, does Mr. Avery always bring you gifts?"
"No, but he did get me something on Valentine’s."
He raised an eyebrow. "Valentine’s?"
She shrugged. "It’s just how he is. He buys everyone gifts."
"I see."
"I will do the same when I’m rich."
Morales offered a faint smile, then carried on with his tea.
"Oh, professor," she called out, rummaging through her bag. "Can you fix this to my wand?"
She pulled out the wand gem she had received on Valentine’s and handed it to him. "I tried to do it myself, but it’s tricky."
His eyes widened in shock. "Merlin... Where did you get this from?" he asked, his tone suddenly urgent.
"I got it on Valentine’s."
"From who?"
"I don’t know... There was no name."
He shook his head, "Vera... This is one of the rarest gems out there. Who would ever send it to you?"
She shrugged again, watching him twirl the gem between his fingers, his gaze intense.
"What’s the big deal about it?" she asked.
"It’s not something usually given as a gift."
"Maybe it’s fake?"
"No," he said, studying it closely. "It’s definitely real."
He then picked up her wand and began to fix the gem to it with meticulous care. Once finished, he handed her the wand back, watching as she placed it carefully in her bag.
♪ Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture
And save it from the funny tricks of time
Slipping through my fingers ♪
"Is this the first time you’ve received a gift from someone anonymous?" he then asked.
"No, I got a painting on Christmas and this today,"
She carefully retrieved the pink glass box from her bag and placed it on the desk.
Morales examined it closely, admiring the intricate floral patterns and ornate detailing. He opened it, and the haunting tune began to play as a levitating white rose twirled gracefully.
"Who do you think might be sending them?" she asked.
"It could be someone trying to communicate something important to you, or perhaps just a gesture of admiration."
"Admiration?" she whispered, her cheeks turning red.
"It’s beautiful," he continued, "and so is the tune."
"I feel like I’ve heard it before, but I can’t remember where."
"I can't place it either. However, I know someone who might be able to help."
"Who?" she asked, hope rising in her chest.
"Professor Flitwick," he replied. "He has extensive knowledge of magical artifacts and music. I'm sure he'll be able to shed some light on this mystery."
She hurried through the corridors, her grip firm on the delicate glass box. The watchful portraits lining the walls followed her with curious eyes until she reached Professor Flitwick's office door.
She knocked lightly, and after a moment, it creaked open to reveal the small, bustling figure of the Charms professor surrounded by stacks of ancient tomes and glittering magical artifacts.
"Ah, Miss Black! What a delightful surprise," he exclaimed, his eyes twinkling with warmth. "How are your studies progressing?"
"Very well, sir," she replied, "I've been catching up quickly."
"Excellent to hear! Now, what brings you here today?"
She carefully placed the music box on his cluttered desk, gently opening it to reveal the twirling white rose and the haunting melody that filled the room.
Flitwick leaned in, his curiosity piqued as he examined the intricate craftsmanship.
"This is quite remarkable," he murmured, his fingers tracing the delicate floral patterns. “I believe this is designed by non-other than Cecilia."
“Cecilia?” she echoed.
“She was a renowned French witch celebrated for her mastery of enchantments and her deep affinity for musical charms. She was revered for creating magical artifacts infused with both her powerful magic and her love for music. This box could very well be one of her creations."
Vera’s eyes widened in surprise. First a rare gem and now, a music box designed by a famous French witch?
"I was hoping you could help identify the tune," she then said.
Flitwick nodded thoughtfully, his brow furrowing in concentration as he closed his eyes, letting the music wash over him. After a few moments, he opened them again, a spark of recognition lighting up his features.
"It originates from the Muggle world," he explained. "It's a classical French piece from the nineteenth century called 'Clair de Lune,' which translates to—"
"Moonlight!"
“Yes,” Flitwick affirmed. “Moonlight.”
Notes:
Songs mentioned:
Slipping through my fingers - ABBA
Chapter 43: War Pigs
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Wednesday, May 1, 1991
As May arrived, Vera devoted every moment to honing her spellcasting skills and catching up on assignments.
To every professor’s astonishment, she absorbed information like a sponge, delivering performances that surpassed all expectations.
Under Professor Morales's guidance, she mastered spells and charms from both the previous and current years.
They met daily after classes, concluding their training sessions with tea and a pleasant chat. His support and encouragement boosted her confidence, leading her to boldly demonstrate her skills in class and frequently volunteer for duels.
"Well done, Vera," he praised after another successful duel with him. "Your progress is truly remarkable."
"Thank you, sir," she responded gratefully, beaming with pride.
As the applause for her subsided, he gestured for the class to settle down and open their Dark Defense Ethics books.
“Today,” he began, “we will explore the ethical considerations surrounding defensive spells.”
Miles and Cassius exchanged knowing glances, their faces betraying a hint of skepticism, then, Cassius leaned back in his chair, his brow furrowing as Morales continued.
“Nonsense,” he muttered under his breath.
“Is there a problem, Mr. Warrington?” Morales inquired suddenly, catching him off guard.
For a moment, Cassius panicked, fearing his remark had been overheard. However, he quickly regained his composure, lifting his chin and clearing his throat.
"With all due respect, sir,” he said, “shouldn’t we focus more on practical skills rather than ethics?”
"Learning to wield magic responsibly goes beyond just the spell itself, Mr. Warrington.”
“I only mean, isn't it more important to be prepared for real threats?”
Morales regarded him thoughtfully before responding. “Being prepared for threats is undoubtedly important. But if we focus solely on the mechanics of spells without considering the ethical implications, we risk becoming as ruthless as those threats."
"The class is called defense against the dark arts," Cassius said, a hint of challenge in his voice, "so when do we start learning about dark magic itself?”
A collective gasp erupted in the hall, and whispers spread like wildfire.
Professor Morales's expression grew more serious. "The study of dark magic, is a delicate matter.” He responded, silencing the room, “It is not something we take lightly, and it is introduced gradually and responsibly.”
“But you haven’t answered my question,” Cassius swiftly retorted. "When do we start?"
The rest of the class exchanged shocked glances. They were used to Cassius’s constant remarks and questions, but this was the first time he had challenged a professor so directly and rudely.
Morales paused, his gaze steady. "You will begin learning about the theory of dark magic in your fifth year. Practical lessons, however, are reserved for your later years, under strict supervision and with a strong emphasis on defense and ethics."
Cassius leaned forward, his skepticism clear. "Then what’s the point of all these ethical considerations if there's no dark threat to worry about? Isn't this just a waste of time?"
"Ethics matter regardless of the presence of a dark threat." Morales responded, his tone growing sharper. “Defense is not solely about combating dark magic. It's about protecting ourselves and others in all situations. Whether you're facing a dark wizard or a simple misunderstanding, the principles of responsible magic use apply."
“I respectfully disagree, Professor,” Cassius challenged further, “there’s no point in learning defense if there’s no dark threat.”
"And what defines what’s dark or not?"
"The law, sensibly."
"And who writes the law, Mr. Warrington?"
Cassius smirked. "My father."
"Exactly," Morales retorted swiftly, "a mere wizard."
Cassius’s smirk vanished, and he clenched his jaw, leaning back as he glared at Morales with disdain.
"We decide what is dark and what is not," Morales continued, "not based on the nature of the magic itself, but on how it is wielded. Just decades ago, Obliviation, Veritaserum, and many other potions, charms, and spells were outlawed until the Ministry deemed them useful for their own interests, regardless of their potential harm. Even love potions were once labeled dark, believe it or not. And sooner or later, someone in the Ministry, perhaps even your father, may decide that another spell deemed dark is no longer so. Where do we draw the line, Mr. Warrington?"
"Unforgivable Curses.” Cassius quickly replied, “There's no way to use those for anything good."
"That is a fair point," Morales acknowledged. "The Unforgivable Curses are considered inherently dark because their intended uses are inherently harmful, manipulative, or lethal. However, even in those cases, it's crucial to understand the motivations and circumstances under which they are used. A spell's ethical implications cannot be separated from the context in which it is cast."
He paused, his voice carrying a weight of conviction. "Earlier, we discussed how the perception of magic evolves over time, influenced by societal norms and practical considerations. This applies equally to the Unforgivable Curses. While their primary use may be dark, the ethical dilemma lies in how and why they are employed. History has shown us that what is deemed 'dark' can shift with our understanding and the intent behind the magic. And if you were to ask me, I believe that far greater harm can be wrought without resorting to dark magic."
His statement hung in the air, inviting contemplation from the students. Some nodded in agreement, while others furrowed their brows, considering the implications of his words.
"So,” Cassius prompted, “even if there was no dark magic, we still have to learn defense?"
"Indeed."
Cassius scoffed slightly, "In that case, I’ll make sure to inform Aurors that their work is worthless."
Miles and Adrian chuckled, and Cassius wore a smug smirk.
However, Morales's glare pierced through the room like a thunderbolt, silencing everyone instantly.
After a tense moment of silence, he addressed the class. "Have you ever wondered why there are so few of you compared to the other years?"
Confusion painted the faces of the students as they exchanged bewildered glances at this unexpected question.
“There are only twenty students in this class,” he continued, “while the other years boast double, some even triple that number.”
He took a deliberate step forward, pacing between the desks with an air of solemnity. “There is a reason for that, you know.”
The atmosphere in the room grew palpably tense as his words hung in the air, sparking curiosity and unease among his attentive audience.
"In 1977," he began again, "St. Mungo's discovered something horrific. Two of their healers, who were undercover Death Eaters, had been injecting Muggle-born patients with a substance that rendered them sterile. They confessed to their crimes after a year of carrying out this dreadful act. But it was too late. Over two hundred witches and wizards were affected, robbed of the ability to have children forever."
A heavy silence settled over the room as his words sank in, each syllable laden with the weight of tragedy and betrayal.
Cassius, who had worn a smug smirk moments ago, now sat in stunned silence.
"It was one of the most heinous crimes committed during the war," Morales continued, "And it was carried out without dark magic—without any magic at all."
The students listened in shock, the reality of his story hitting them with a visceral force.
"Defense," Morales emphasized, “is not merely about wielding a wand against dark wizards. It's about protecting our world from all forms of harm—whether they stem from dark magic, unethical actions, or malevolent intent. It's about recognizing the immense power we wield and using it responsibly, with compassion and integrity."
He looked around the room, his gaze settling on each student in turn. "The reason we emphasize ethics is to ensure that each of you grows into a witch or wizard who uses their abilities to protect, to heal, and to bring about positive change. The world is complex, and the lines between good and evil are not always clear. But by grounding ourselves in ethical principles, we ensure that we remain on the side of justice and compassion."
He allowed the silence to linger for a moment, letting the gravity of his message settle among them.
"Now, let's turn to page 32 of your Dark Defense Ethics book," he continued, his voice steady but with a hint of warmth.
The students reached for their books, their minds still processing the profound lesson they had just received.
As the class ended, they filed out of the hall, their faces reflecting a mix of contemplation and unease. Small groups began to form, and hushed conversations soon filled the corridor.
"Can you believe that story?" Patty said, shaking her head. "It's terrifying to think about."
Kenny nodded solemnly. "Yeah, I never realized how horrible the war was."
"You actually believe that nonsense?" Cassius, who was walking with his entourage a few steps behind them, scoffed.
Kenny turned back, frowning in confusion. "What do you mean?"
"It's a made-up story by rebels, and it's not even true. My father told me all about it. He said it was propaganda spread by those who oppose purebloods. They wanted to paint Death Eaters as monsters, but it's all lies. Morales is a fool for using that story."
Vera stepped forward, her eyes flashing with anger. "Professor Morales isn't a fool. He's trying to teach us something valuable, and perhaps you should listen."
"You can believe whatever you want, Black, but I'm not buying it. My father knows the truth."
She took a step closer to him, her voice low for only his ears to hear. "After everything he’s done, you would take him for an honest man?"
"Watch your mouth," he whispered through gritted teeth, "and don’t you dare use my own father against me. You don’t know anything about him or what he’s been through."
"I’m only pointing out that you need to start thinking for yourself instead of allowing a man like him to do it for you,"
“I said, watch your mouth!” he shouted, his voice echoing through the corridor, causing everyone around them to turn and watch the heated exchange unfold. "My father sacrificed everything for our family's honor and legacy. You, of all people, should understand. Your own father died for the cause, and you would let a filthy man like Morales defile his memory with lies?”
“Do not insult Professor Morales!”
“You care for him more than you do your own father?”
"Yes," she replied without hesitation, "My father was nothing more than a purist leech, and I’m glad he’s fucking dead."
The surrounding students gasped softly at her blunt admission, taken aback by the raw honesty of her words.
Some looked shocked, while others nodded in understanding, having glimpsed the layers of conflict beneath her composed demeanor.
The atmosphere crackled with tension as Cassius glared at her, visibly taken aback by her fierce defiance.
“You’re naive, Black,” he scoffed, shaking his head in disbelief. “And a disgrace to your own family’s name.”
“That’s enough, Cass,” Ryu intervened firmly, stepping between them and placing a hand on his chest to push him away.
But Cassius wasn't finished.
He removed Ryu’s hand off his chest, and took another step towards Vera, his eyes blazing with anger as he leaned in close to her ear. “You know,” he sneered, his tone dripping with disdain. "For someone of crow's blood, you're remarkably dense."
"I'm not a fucking crow." She said through gritted teeth.
He chuckled condescendingly. "Well, that explains everything."
With that, he turned on his heel and walked away, leaving her standing there, seething with anger.
“Vera,” Ryu began, concerned, but she swiftly dismissed him, pushing past his shoulder as she stormed off.
Her mind raced with frustration and hurt, but beneath it all was a fierce resolve to not let Cassius's words shake her beliefs or her sense of self.
"He said it was a lie?" Morales asked, sitting across from her in his office later that day.
"Yeah," she responded, sipping her tea, "he said his father knows the truth, and he called it something. Propa-prop-"
"Propaganda?"
"Yes, that's it!"
"I see," Morales said, stroking his beard thoughtfully.
"What does it mean, sir?"
He leaned back in his chair, considering his words carefully before responding. "Propaganda is when people show you information that is not always true or fair to make you think a certain way. It's like trying to convince you to like something or believe in something by only telling you the good parts and leaving out the bad parts. It's often used to convince people to support a certain idea or group, even if it's not the whole truth.”
"So," she ventured cautiously, "Cassius thinks that the story you mentioned about St. Mungo's is made up? But why would anyone lie about something like that?"
"When it comes to purists, every accusation of theirs is a confession. They fabricated stories all the time, so they think others did the same."
"What kind of stories did they fabricate?"
"The kind that justified what they did later."
"What do you mean, Professor?"
"I can’t delve into details, Vera. It will put my job at risk."
"But no one is here beside us,"
"Is that what you think?"
She looked around the room, confused by his remark.
"I can tell you this," he continued, leaning forward slightly, "If you can strip your enemy of their humanity, you've already won half the battle."
Her brow furrowed as she considered his words. "Strip them of their humanity? You mean by making them seem less than human?"
"Exactly. If you can convince people that your enemy is not worthy of empathy or compassion, it's much easier to justify any action against them, no matter how cruel."
She looked down at her teacup, her thoughts swirling with a million thought.
“Did he say anything else,” he asked, snapping her out her reverie, “Mr. Warrington, I mean."
She bit her lip, debating whether to mention Cassius's derogatory insult about him, the confrontation about her father, or his remark about her crow blood.
"No," she finally said, averting her gaze. "Just that."
He nodded thoughtfully. "I see."
As he continued to sip his tea, she glanced around the room, her eyes lingering on the bookshelves filled with volumes of both magical and Muggle lore, and the familiar sight of her drawings pinned to the wall.
A twinge of nostalgia washed over her, recalling the countless hours she had spent here, learning and growing under his guidance.
“Are you going to keep them?” she asked, motioning towards her drawings.
“I would love to,” he replied with a smile, “but only with your permission.”
“Of course!'
"However," he continued gently, "there is one drawing that I believe should stay with you."
"Which one?"
He reached into his drawer and retrieved a parchment.
"You were sketching this that day," he handed it to her, "back in January, before everything that happened."
She took the parchment with trembling hands, studying it with a faint smile on her lips.
"It felt personal," he remarked softly, "whose eyes are these?"
As she peered into the sketch, depicting a pair of intense eyes, she felt a wave of emotions welling up inside her.
"They're Michael's," she murmured, "I was thinking about him that day. I realized that I’ve always pushed him away from my thoughts because it hurts. But, when I started remembering what happened after he left, I wanted to hold on to every memory I had of him. It makes me feel better somehow, like the pain isn't as bad when I remember him."
Morales listened attentively, his expression thoughtful and sympathetic.
"I was planning to draw his whole face,” she continued, “not just his eyes. I wanted to capture how he looked, his smile and everything.”
Morales furrowed his brow slightly. "Do you have a photograph of him?"
"No," she replied softly.
“Then, how would you draw him?”
“From my memory, of course. I remember his face very clearly."
His eyes widened in shock. "Can you remember every face you've ever seen?"
She stared back at him, puzzled by his question. "Yes, I think so. Why?"
He remained silent for a moment, studying her with a mixture of astonishment and curiosity, and she couldn't quite grasp why he seemed so surprised by her answer.
After a moment of contemplation, he pulled out a pencil from his desk drawer and handed it to her.
"Carry on then," he said softly, then set the record player to spin a tune.
With a determined nod, she took the pencil from his hand and returned her focus to the sketch. Each stroke of the pencil seemed to breathe life into Michael's features on the parchment, capturing the essence of his smile and the warmth in his eyes that she cherished.
As she worked, memories flooded her mind—their laughter, shared moments of quiet understanding, and the way he always knew how to lift her spirits.
Tears welled in her eyes, blending with the graphite as she traced the lines that defined his face.
When she finished, she carefully rolled up the parchment and tucked it safely into her bag. That night, in the quiet of her dormitory, she unfurled the drawing and placed it on her bedside table.
It felt like having a piece of him close by, a comfort in the midst of uncertainty.
Sunday, May 5, 1991
"Alright, everyone!" Lee's magically amplified voice echoed in the courtyard as he stepped into his role as a football commentator. "On one side, we have the Mighty Weasley twins, and on the other, the formidable duo, Mallon and Black!"
Sarah, clad in a Scotland jersey, stood guard at the twins' goalpost—marked by two rocks—her eyes burning with competitive determination. "Don't expect me to go easy on you just because we're friends!" she warned, her tone fierce and unwavering.
"So," Cedric said, standing somewhat awkwardly as he scratched his head, "I just stand here and try to prevent the ball from crossing these two rocks, right?"
"YES!" Vera and Tommy shouted, clearly exasperated.
"You've got this, Ceddy!" Maddie cheered from the sidelines, waving enthusiastically.
The match began with a blast from Lee's whistle, and Fred quickly gained possession, skillfully kicking the ball and passing it to his twin.
George dashed through the courtyard, intercepting a pass from Tommy. "Nice try, Mallon, but we're unbeatable today!"
Vera swooped in, eyes locked on him. "Not if I have anything to say about it!"
She deftly stole the ball, passing it to Tommy with a perfectly timed kick.
"Mallon and Black are in sync today!" Lee narrated with enthusiasm. "Look at that teamwork!"
Tommy aimed a kick at Sarah's goalpost, but seeing her readying to block, Fred swooped in and tackled him, stealing the ball with an impressive move.
"Blimey, Fred," Vera shouted, impressed. "Where'd you learn that?"
"Picked up a few moves over the holiday," Fred winked, sending the ball flying towards George again.
Cedric hovered nearby, trying to anticipate the action. "So, do I just... block it with my body?" he muttered, more to himself than anyone else.
"Yes, Cedric, that's exactly it!" Maddie cheered, her voice full of encouragement.
George aimed a powerful kick toward him, but Vera swiftly swooped in, intercepting the ball and sending it flying toward Sarah.
Determined and agile, Sarah practically flew to catch it, her Scotland jersey billowing dramatically behind her.
"McMahon’s on fire today!" Lee commented.
Vera however wasn't deterred.
"Tommy, heads up!" she shouted, intercepting the ball again and launching it into the air.
Tommy, perfectly in sync, leaped and kicked the ball with all his might.
The ball soared past George, past Fred, and past Sarah, who dove valiantly but missed by mere inches. Then it flew straight into the goalpost.
"Goal!" Lee's voice rang out, "What a shot by Mallon!”
As Tommy, Vera, and Cedric celebrated their goal, and Sarah scolded the twins, someone seized the ball.
Flint, flanked by Miles, Adrian, Cassius, and Slytherin’s Seeker Higgs, strutted with arrogance towards them. They were still in their Quidditch gear, evidently coming back from practice.
"What’s this?" Flint sneered, tossing the ball slightly as if it were contaminated.
"Muggles and their pathetic games," Miles hissed.
Vera stepped forward, eyes flashing. "What do you think you’re doing?"
Adrian smirked, his eyes scanning the group. "You'd think this lot could find something better to do with their time."
Cassius took the ball from Flint’s hands, examining it with disdain. "What a load of rubbish."
"Give it back!" Tommy demanded.
"Give it back," Adrian mocked, mimicking Tommy's Irish accent as the other Slytherins laughed.
"Careful, Pucey," Cedric said calmly. "Your humor is almost as outdated as your Quidditch strategy."
Higgs rolled his eyes. "As if a Hufflepuff would know anything about strategy."
Vera walked toward them, trying to snatch the ball from Cassius's hands. But he swiftly raised it out of her reach, smirking as she struggled to get it. Then, he tossed it to Flint, who threw it to Miles.
They continued passing it around, watching with amusement as she tried to intercept it.
"What's the matter, Black?” Flint taunted, chuckling. “Can't keep up?"
"Keep laughing, Flint," she shot back. "It's all fun and games until you lose."
"Oh, we're not losing anything," Adrian replied with a grin. "Except maybe a bit of respect for your choice of entertainment."
Cedric's face flashed with anger as he stormed back to the bench where Maddie sat, diving into his bag.
"What are you doing?" Maddie asked with concern, but he ignored her, grabbing his wand and sprinting toward the Slytherins.
"Give her back the ball," he demanded, raising his wand at them.
The Slytherins paused, their smirks faltering slightly.
"Or what?" Flint sneered.
"Or you'll find out exactly what a Hufflepuff can do," Cedric replied, his voice steady and determined. “Now give it back,”
They all turned to him with disdain.
Cassius, holding the ball, smirked. "Gladly," he said, tossing it into the air. With a swift flick of his wand, he blew it up, and the remnants fell to the ground.
Tommy's gaze flickered to Vera, hurt flashing in his eyes as he saw the ball she had gifted him now destroyed.
Then, with a surge of anger, he launched himself at Cassius, his fist flying towards him in a furious punch.
Cassius staggered backward, struggling to block the relentless assault.
Before they knew it, the courtyard erupted into chaos as both sides clashed.
Sarah attacked Adrian with surprising ferocity, sinking her teeth into his arm, and grinning proudly as she saw him screaming in pain.
Fred and George took on Flint, their combined efforts pushing him back, while Cedric and Cassius engaged in a heated wand duel, their spells lighting up the scene.
Tommy and Miles grappled fiercely, while Vera seized Higgs by his shirt, throwing him to the ground before continuing to pummel him.
"ENOUGH!" Professor Snape’s voice cut through the commotion like a knife, his dark robes swirling as he stormed into the courtyard. "Everyone, stand down immediately!"
Tommy, still seething with anger, reluctantly stepped back, his fists clenched. Snape’s gaze swept over the chaos, narrowing as it fell on him. “Twenty points from Hufflepuff for instigating this brawl.”
"But, Professor," Vera interjected, stepping forward, “they started it by destroying our ball!”
Snape’s lip curled with disdain. “Always so eager to shift blame, Black?”
“No, but—”
“And another twenty points from Gryffindor for your wanton violence!” his voice grew colder as he inspected Higgs, who lay on the ground. “Look at the state of him! He has a match in a few weeks.”
“He’ll survive,” she snapped, rolling her eyes. “If I wanted to hurt your precious little Seeker, he’d be leaving with more than just a shiner.”
Snape’s expression darkened, his voice dripping with venom as he stepped towards her. “You will learn your place, you insufferable, pathetic excuse for a witch!”
“That’s enough, Snape,” Professor Morales suddenly interjected, surveying the scene with a calm but authoritative presence. “The kids were merely playing; there’s no need for unnecessary insults.”
Snape turned sharply, his expression tightening. “Playing?” he scoffed. “Is this what passes for fighting these days?”
Morales raised an eyebrow, glancing at the deflated football. “And I’m sure there was a reason behind it.”
Cassius, Miles, and Adrian exchanged uneasy glances, but Snape’s gaze remained unwavering. “My students were simply defending themselves.”
“Severus, it’s evident that your students provoked this. Destroying property and taunting others is unacceptable.”
“And so violence is the solution, Morales?”
“I’m merely pointing out,” Morales replied with a measured tone, “sow the wind; reap the whirlwind.”
The tension between the two professors was palpable, and the courtyard fell into a heavy silence as everyone watched the exchange unfold.
Snape smirked. "Ah, yes,” he said with a sneer. “The ‘Rebel’ logic."
Cassius grinned at the remark, while Vera looked on, puzzled.
Morales' calm demeanor remained, though a glint of steel entered his eyes. "Careful, Severus. You're treading on dangerous ground."
Snape stepped closer, his voice dripping with menace. "I’ve heard whispers about your teaching methods, Morales. It’s you who should be cautious."
"Is that so? Well, it seems the only lesson I'm imparting is to stand up to bullies and value fairness. Quite the threat, wouldn’t you agree, boys?"
Fred and George snickered, while the others watched in tense silence.
Snape advanced, his voice low and dangerous. "I knew bringing you here was a mistake. Nothing good can come from Everbrook's filth."
“Speak that name again, and I’ll—”
“You’ll what?” Snape interrupted, “show me the renowned hospitality of Brookies?”
Morales's expression darkened, revealing a level of anger that Vera had never seen in him before.
"You would do well to remember your place, Morales," Snape continued, "You’re only tolerated here because of Dumbledore’s kindness."
"And you would do well to remember your past, Severus. You’re only here because of his pity."
“At least I have a position of authority. What do you have? A tenuous foothold and a misplaced sense of justice? Your ideals might work in your quaint little town, but here, we deal with realities far harsher."
"And what do you know about realities, Snape? The only harshness you understand is the darkness you wallow in. Your cynicism does nothing but perpetuate the cycle of hatred."
"Better to face reality than to live in your idealistic fantasy. Your so-called ‘values’ are nothing more than a naive fantasy."
"And yet, those values are what make us better, not just surviving but striving to be just. If you were capable of such understanding, you might have seen that yourself."
The courtyard fell silent, charged with the intensity of the confrontation. Every student watched with bated breath, though they struggled to grasp the full meaning of the exchange between the two professors.
“There’s a fine line between standing up for what’s right and crossing into insolence.” Snape replied. “I’ve seen what happens to those who overstep.”
“And I’ve seen what becomes of those who cling to outdated beliefs,” Morales shot back. “Still in touch with your old friends? Or does Azkaban no longer allow visits?”
Snape's face darkened, his eyes narrowing in cold fury. Morales, however, maintained a smirk of satisfaction, and with a smooth motion, picked up the deflated football, then repaired it with a flick of his wand.
"There you go, Thomas,” he said, tossing it to Tommy, who caught it with a broad grin. “Ready to get back to your game?"
Tommy nodded enthusiastically. "Thanks, Professor!"
Snape's expression faltered, his authority clearly undermined. He shot Morales one last withering glare before turning and walking away. The Slytherins scowled but followed him, their swagger notably diminished.
As they departed, Morales turned to the students with a grin. "Carry on, legends,” he said before heading toward the castle.
Intrigued by his confrontation with Snape, Vera followed at a discreet distance.
"Professor!" she called out, as she quickened her pace to catch up.
He turned, his warm smile instantly putting her at ease.
"I just wanted to say thank you for what you did back there!” she said, catching her breath.
Morales chuckled, his eyes crinkling at the corners. "I'm glad I could help."
"Professor, can I ask you something?
“Sure,” he replied with a smile.
“Were you a rebel?"
His smile completely vanished.
He stopped walking, looking at her with a steely gaze. “Please, keep your voice down.”
She was taken aback, her heart racing. “Um, I’m sorry, sir,” she stammered, “It’s just what Professor Snape said… about the reb—”
“DO NOT speak that word,” he cut her off sharply, looking around with a hint of panic colouring his expression.
Her confusion grew, and she shifted uneasily.
Noticing her discomfort, he softened his expression. "Tell you what,” he began with a faint smile, “how about we discuss it over tea in my office?"
Her smile returned, and she nodded eagerly. "I’d like that."
They walked in companionable silence to his office, and once inside, he gestured to a cozy armchair and began preparing tea.
“As always, music first,” he said as he magically set the kettle to brew. “How about Black Sabbath?”
She shrugged, not familiar with them. “Okay.”
His eyes lit up with enthusiasm. “Ozzy Osbourne is quite the character. I have a theory he’s secretly a wizard.”
She chuckled softly, and he took a seat on the edge of his desk. As the music began to play, the room filled with its rich, evocative tones, and they settled into a comfortable rhythm.
“So,” he began, sipping his tea, “about that comment from Snape.”
“The rebel—”
“Please,” he interrupted, raising a hand, “I must ask you not to use that word ever again.”
She tilted her head, puzzled. “Why not?”
He took a deep breath, his tone serious. “It’s somewhat offensive.”
“I’m sorry,” she said, her brow furrowing in confusion. “I didn’t know."
His expression softened a bit. “It’s not so much about what you call it, but understanding the context and the impact of those terms. If we are referring to the fight for justice and equality, perhaps we should frame it as a struggle for rights and reform, instead of a ‘rebellion’. That’s a more accurate reflection of what it was about.”
She nodded slowly, taking in his words. “I see. So, what should I call them instead?”
He smiled, “Resistance.”
“Were they like Aurors?”
His eyes grew distant, and he took another sip of his tea. “More like fighters,” he said slowly.
“And what about you?” she asked quietly. “Were you a reb—I mean, a resistance fighter?”
His eyes flickered with vulnerability as he met her gaze. “I was involved in advocating for change. My focus was more on dialogue and reform, trying to bridge gaps and find common ground. But it’s a part of my past I handle with care, so I would appreciate if you don’t tell anyone about it.”
“So you didn’t fight?”
He smiled gently. “I did, just not with my wand.”
“Oh yeah, that’s right. You were a journalist,”
“Indeed,”
“So, the reb-resistance fought against Death Eaters, right?”
"The war wasn't just about blood, Vera.” he sighed. “It was about the powerful against the powerless, the haves against the have-nots."
He set his cup of tea aside, his tone growing more serious. "You see,” he continued, “whether in this world or the Muggle one, every war is a class war. Those with wealth wield power, and those with power often use it to suppress and dehumanize those beneath them.”
“What does this have to do with rebels, sir?”
“The resistance,” he corrected, “were fighting long before Death Eaters existed. They were always fighting, Vera. First, silently—through marches, peaceful protests, strikes, and boycotts. And then, when everyone refused to listen, they became louder."
"But what were they fighting against, exactly?"
He looked away for a moment, his gaze distant as if searching for the right words. “A broken system.” He finally muttered, “They were fighting against a broken system.”
♪ Now in darkness, world stops turning
Ashes where their bodies burning
No more war pigs have the power
Hand of God has struck the hour ♪
“And Everbrook, sir?” she asked softly, “the Welsh town you’re writing about—is it your home?”
He paused briefly, his eyes clouded with memories that seemed to weigh heavily on him. “It’s not where I was born,” he said slowly, his voice tinged with a bittersweet tone, “but… yes, it is home.”
Notes:
Songs mentioned:
War Pigs - Black Sabbath
Chapter 44: Meet The Bobbins
Chapter Text
Saturday, May 11, 1991
"He's bloody terrifying," Vera began as she walked towards the Quidditch pitch with Fred and George flanking her.
"Don't worry,” George chuckled. “He's all bark and... well, a lot of bite, actually."
"He's like a human Bludger!” she exclaimed, “but professor McGonagall insisted that he teaches me how to fly.”
"You've got us, Vee," Fred said, slinging an arm around her shoulders. "We'll make sure he doesn't eat you alive."
"Unless he's really hungry," George added.
"Not helping," she muttered, though she couldn't suppress a smile.
"Seriously though," George continued, "just remember: if he starts getting too intense, imagine him in pink bunny slippers."
"Or better yet," Fred added, "imagine him as a tea cozy. Just a little knitted cover for a teapot."
She laughed despite her nerves. "A tea cozy? Really?"
"Absolutely," Fred said with mock seriousness. "It takes the edge off. Trust us."
"And if all else fails," George said, "just remind him that his broomstick still has that embarrassing squeak when he dives. It's a great way to throw him off."
She took a deep breath, feeling slightly more at ease. "Alright, bunny slipper, tea cozy, and broomstick squeak. Got it. Thanks, guys. I'll give it a try."
"That's the spirit," Fred said, giving her a thumbs-up.
With a final grin at the twins, she squared her shoulders and headed towards Oliver, feeling a bit braver.
As she approached, she spotted him in an intense conversation with Felix in the middle of the Quidditch pitch. The moment they noticed her, they paused, and Felix gave her a faint nod.
"Ah, Black," Oliver said briskly, "Let's get this over with. I have practice to run after this."
She swallowed hard, feeling the weight of his intensity. "Right. I just want to say that I've been working on controlling my magic. Professor Morales been helping me, and I think I can handle it now. But—”
"But what?" Oliver interjected sharply.
She swallowed again, glancing between him and Felix. "I'm, um—”
“What?” he barked.
“I’m still scared!”
Oliver's stern expression softened for a fraction of a second before he nodded curtly. "Fear's normal. It's how you deal with it that counts."
He handed her a broomstick, his eyes sharp and assessing. "First, mount the broom and hover a few feet off the ground."
With a deep breath, she mounted the broomstick, closing her eyes for a brief moment, and reminding herself of the twins' advice. Tea cozy, she thought, and a small smile played on her lips.
"Whenever you're ready," Oliver said.
She kicked off the ground, and the broom lifted smoothly. However, as it began hovering, her heart raced with fear, and she descended swiftly.
"What are you doing!" he snapped.
She hesitated, then shook her head. "I... I can't."
He took a deep breath, “What do you mean you can’t?”
“I’m—” she swallowed again, “I’m too scared.”
“Merlin’s beard!” his face tightened with frustration. "We've got no time for this, Black. You need to get over your fear and just do it."
"Don't yell at her!” Felix snapped. “She's trying."
Oliver rounded on him, his voice rising. "We don't have time for coddling! She needs to learn, and fast.”
Felix's eyes flashed with anger. "Yelling at her isn't going to help. She's already scared out of her mind, so back off."
The tension between the two boys grew palpable as they glared at each other. Felix’s fists clenched at his sides, and Oliver’s face was red with frustration.
“Fine,” Oliver spat, before turning to Vera again with a gentler tone, “you said you can now control your magic, so what’s scaring you?”
“I don’t want to fall.”
“You won’t. Now, mount the broom and try again.”
“Take it easy, mate,” Felix intervened again. “If she doesn’t want to, she shouldn’t.”
“How about you stay out of this?"
“How about you stop being a bully?”
"You think you can do better? Be my guest. Waste your bloody time. You’re the reason I’m in a hurry in the first place!"
Felix raised an eyebrow. “So it’s my fault now?”
“You were late again!” Oliver shouted, “You've ruined everyone's routine, and now we’re behind schedule!"
"Again with the damn schedule...”
“You have a problem with my schedule, Bobbin?”
“Yeah. It’s shite. Waking us up at dawn and drowning us with orders isn’t exactly a good strategy, captain.”
"Oh, and what do you do? Skip practice whenever you feel like it? Show up late with a bloody attitude and expect everything to run smoothly?”
The argument had reached a boiling point, and Vera stood there, caught in the middle, her heart pounding. The twins exchanged uneasy glances, unsure of how to intervene.
Felix's face turned red with anger. "Just because I don't live and breathe Quidditch like you doesn't mean I'm not trying. Maybe if you weren't so obsessed with winning, you'd see that."
"Obsessed with winning? Is that what you think? I'm trying to make this team the best it can be. If you can't keep up, then maybe you don't belong here."
Felix chuckled bitterly. "Scares me how long it took you to see that."
"Fine!" Oliver snapped, “Go then. Leave.”
“My pleasure,” Felix spat before angrily storming off.
Oliver took a deep breath, trying to regain his composure. "I’m sorry, Vera," he said more gently, “that you had to see this.”
“What’s happening with him?” she asked with concern.
He sighed, “He’s been like that for the past two months. And I can’t for the life of me understand him.”
She looked in Felix’s direction, watching him enter the preparation tent. Her heart ached to see him like this, and she wished she knew how to fix it.
“But you can,” Oliver continued, causing her to turn back to him with a puzzled expression.
“What?”
“I feel like he would tell you. Perhaps you could talk to him?”
“Why would you think that?”
“Because he listens to you. Perhaps it’s all that muggle books you both read, but the two of you are quite... similar. Maybe, just maybe, you can get through to him in a way I can't."
She hesitated, looking back at the tent where Felix had disappeared. "I can try," she said quietly.
"That's all I'm asking," Oliver replied, his tone earnest. "Just try. For the team's sake... and for his."
She nodded, feeling the weight of his request settle on her shoulders. "I'll do my best."
She took a deep breath, her eyes flickering to the preparation tent where Felix had stormed off in a fit of rage. Mustering every ounce of courage, she made her way towards it, determined to find a way to help him despite the storm brewing inside her own heart.
Inside the tent, the air was heavy with unspoken words and simmering frustration. Felix sat on a bench, his back turned to the entrance—eyes fixed on the ground. His whole body was taut with anger, and she could almost feel the waves of fury emanating from him.
She approached cautiously, her steps light, not wanting to startle him.
“Felix?” she called out softly.
He didn't turn immediately, but she saw his shoulders stiffen further.
After what felt like an eternity, he exhaled sharply and glanced over his shoulder at her. "What do you want, Vera?"
"I wanted to check on you," she said, inching closer. "You seemed really upset out there."
His eyes, blazing with fury, locked onto hers. “Did you come by yourself, or did he ask you to?”
“I-I don’t understand,”
“Just answer!”
“He asked me to.”
He clenched his jaw, his gaze dropping back to the floor as if he could no longer bear to look at her.
"Oliver is really worried about you," she said softly, “We all are.”
"He’s worried about that bloody cup, not me," he retorted bitterly.
She sat down next to him, maintaining a respectful distance yet showing her unwavering support. "What’s really going on, Felix? Why are you so angry?”
“Take a wild guess,” he replied mockingly.
“Is it...” she hesitated, “is it your dad?”
His silence spoke volumes, his tense reaction confirming her suspicions.
“What happened?” she asked gently, moving closer to him.
He ran a hand through his hair, frustration evident in his every movement. "I couldn’t tell him. I just couldn’t. I wrote the letter and everything, but every time I tried to send it, I froze.”
He picked up his bag from the floor and pulled out a closed envelope with a golden wax seal. “I feel like I'm losing myself, Vera. Like I'm just a pawn on someone’s chessboard, moving wherever they command. It's not just my father. It's everything. The relentless pressure, the suffocating expectations... I feel like I can't breathe."
She inched closer, placing a comforting hand on his shoulder, her touch filled with empathy. “It’s going to be okay,” she whispered, "you’ll get through this."
“When?” he shouted, his voice breaking with desperation.
She instinctively pulled her hand away, startled by his intensity.
“I’m in fourth year!” he continued, “I should have started my healing training already. I’m losing time and my bloody breath. And Quidditch—it’s draining me, Vera. I don’t think I can keep doing it.”
“You want to leave the team?”
“I never wanted to be on it in the first place! The only reason I tried out is because of my family. They wanted me to—” He paused, his eyes locking with hers as he wrestled with his next words.
She noticed his sudden hesitation and sensed there was more to the story. “What?” she asked gently.
He looked at her, swallowing nervously, his voice barely a whisper. “They wanted me to follow in the footsteps of my uncle Julius.”
Her eyes widened, her heart beating faster as she fought to compose herself.
“He was a Seeker for Gryffindor too,” he continued, “Supposedly the best there ever was. And I’m always reminded that he’s watching me, and that if I lose, he’ll be disappointed. So now I’ve got this unbearable pressure to be as perfect as he was.”
“Felix, you don't have to be perfect. You don't have to be… h-him. You just have to be you, and that’s more than enough."
He remained silent, his jaw clenched in frustration.
She cleared her throat, trying to break the heavy silence. “Does Oliver know? That you don’t want to play anymore?”
“He knows, and he thinks it’s ridiculous. He doesn’t understand, Vera. You saw how he is out there, like it’s his bloody mission in life. I wish I was like him! I wish I could love what I’m good at. Life would be much simpler that way. But no. I’ve got to live somebody else’s life because of some stupid tradition. Oliver thinks I’m too emotional and that I should just suck it up and do what I’m told.”
“But he’s your friend—”
“Fuck that!” he snapped.
She was taken aback. It wasn’t like him to speak so harshly, and she felt as if she was uncovering a layer of him she hadn’t known existed.
“In these sorts of things,” he continued, “friendships are set aside. It’s all about duty and expectations, not about what we want or how we feel.”
“So,” she hesitated, “what would happen if you told your dad about all of this?”
He took a deep breath. “Use your fucking head, Vera.”
It felt like a slap to the face, and she blinked repeatedly, trying to process the sting of his words.
“Are you here to help or what?” he added, his anger seething. “Because right now, all you’re doing is making things worse with your stupid questions.”
She struggled to find words amidst the turmoil in her chest. “I’m sorry,” she managed, her apology barely audible.
He turned away, his gaze distant and troubled. Meanwhile, she felt a crushing weight of sorrow and guilt.
The pain was unbearable, and in that moment, she wanted nothing more than to leave. And oh, how she wished she had.
“He’ll bloody lose it,” he continued, “It’s one thing that I don’t want to play Quidditch anymore, but to also not want to work for him? Merlin, I can already hear his shouting. And it’s not just him; I also have to worry about my uncle Gaius, who wouldn’t mind slapping some sense into me. He would probably see it as an opportunity to straighten me out, once and for all. And this time, I think my dad would finally let him do it.”
He dropped the letter on the floor, staring at it for a moment before pulling out his wand, leaving Vera utterly bewildered.
“It’s hopeless,” he muttered, his voice heavy with defeat, and with a flick of his wand, the letter burst into flames.
“Felix, no!” she exclaimed, but the fire consumed the parchment before she could intervene.
She looked back at him, seeing tears streaking down his cheeks.
“I know what you’re thinking,” he said, his voice thick with self-condemnation as he wiped his tears with the back of his hand, “that I’m a pathetic coward.”
“Of course not! You’re anything but a coward.”
“I understand we had a deal, but my situation is much more complicated than yours."
She furrowed her brow at his remark, wondering why he would compare their situations and what he knew about hers in the first place.
Yet, despite the confusion and emotional turmoil, she fought to compose herself and decided to stay by his side.
She moved closer to him, hoping to offer some comfort. “You know,” she said softly, “Professor Morales always says that even our deepest fears can be defeated. All you need to do is believe that you can conquer it.”
He turned to her slowly, a hint of disdain and disgust in his eyes. “And why the fuck would I listen to a man like Morales?”
She was stunned into utter silence.
It was understandable that someone like Cassius might dislike Professor Morales, but Felix?
“What do you mean?” she managed to say after a pause. “What’s wrong with Professor Morales?”
“What’s not wrong with him?” he retorted sharply. “I still can’t believe Dumbledore is allowing someone like him to be teaching us.”
She could only listen in shocked silence at this point.
“And it’s not fear that’s holding me back,” he continued, “It’s my respect for my family, and their sacrifices.”
“But you said—”
“I know what I fucking said,” he cut her off. “And I know I’m a hypocrite. You don’t have to fucking tell me.”
“That’s not what I meant—”
“I wish you to leave,” he suddenly stood up, and walked towards the tent’s central pole. “It’s all your fault anyway,” he added coldly.
“M-my fault?” she stammered, “How is any of this my fault?”
But he remained silent.
She got up and stood in front of him, gazing up at him with hurt and determination mixing in her eyes, “Felix, I only want to help you.”
“How would you help me?” he said with a mock tone. “Do you even understand how serious this all is?”
She took a step closer. “Of course I do! I know how unfair this is for you and I wish to help you see that you can be what you want. Your life is yours, Felix. You have the power to shape your future the way that you want, and I’m sure your father would understand—”
“Do you ever just shut up!” he interrupted, banging his fist on the pole beside him, “Why do you think you know what you’re talking about?”
“w-what?” is all she could manage to say, as her entire body shook with fear.
“You’re nothing but a baby." He scoffed. “Has your family never told you anything about us?”
Her heart dropped, and she felt heat surging up her body.
She shook her head slightly.
“Never?”
She swallowed. “No.”
He stepped closer, his face now inches away from hers. “Well, here’s a little lesson about the Bobbins, Vera. We are not noble, we don’t have ancient blood, and we didn’t steal our wealth—we fucking earned it. You, Blacks, might have the luxury to be whatever you want, or better yet, not be anything at all. But that doesn’t work for us. Our business is all we have, you understand? I am my family’s sole heir—I have three younger sisters who won’t be allowed to work because of our fucked up backward traditions—my uncle can’t have children, and my other uncle? Oh yeah that’s right, he was FUCKING KILLED. So no, Vera, my father won’t understand that his only son wants nothing to do with the empire he built with sweat and fucking blood!”
With his words hanging heavy in the air, he turned abruptly and stormed out of the tent, his footsteps echoing with finality against the canvas walls.
Vera stood there, stunned into silence, as if the ground had dropped out from beneath her.
Tears welled up in her eyes, hot and unrestrained, betraying the hurt that cut deeper than any curse. His harsh words reverberated in her mind, each one a dagger that pierced her soul.
She had never imagined him could be so cruel, his pain turning into barbs that lashed out at her, and as the reality of his turmoil sank in, she collapsed to her knees, her hands clutching at the fabric of her sweater.
The tent seemed to close in around her, suffocating with the weight of their shattered friendship and unspoken anguish. She remained alone in the tent, her heart torn asunder—grappling with the devastating truth that their bond may never be the same again.
She wanted to chase after him, to plead with him to understand, but fear and disbelief held her rooted to the spot. The warmth of their shared moments seemed a distant memory now, replaced by a cold emptiness that threatened to engulf her.
In that moment of solitude, she felt the ache of loss and betrayal keenly. Her tears flowed freely, her sobs echoing in the quiet of the tent. It felt as if her heart had been torn from her chest, leaving behind a void she didn't know how to fill.
Suddenly, the tent flap rustled, and the twins entered cautiously.
"Vera?" Fred's voice was gentle, concern etched into his features. "What's wrong?"
George moved closer, his hand resting lightly on her trembling shoulder. "What happened?"
Unable to speak through her tears, she simply shook her head, clutching at George’s hands for comfort. They exchanged a worried glance, silently communicating their shared concern.
Before they could say more, Oliver burst into the tent. His brow furrowed with concern as he approached her, kneeling beside her. "Vera, I saw Felix walking out of here crying. What happened?"
“HE’S A DICK!” she managed to say through her sobs, “He’s a fucking dick and I’m never speaking to him again.”
“What did he say?”
“He told me to shut up,” she sniffled, “and that I’m a baby, and—” she couldn’t finish without sobbing again, burying her face in her hands.
Oliver sighed, disappointment etched on his face. “Yep, that’s the Felix I know.”
“But he was never like that with me,” she snapped her head up, “He’s always been nice, but now—”
“He always lashes out when he’s angry,” Oliver reasoned gently, “but he doesn’t mean it.”
“Oh really?” she said bitterly. “Because it felt like he meant every word. Like he’s been waiting for this moment his whole life.”
“What did he say exactly?”
She gazed at him, her eyes welling up with tears again. She then looked at Fred and George with hesitation, and Oliver understood the unspoken message.
“Could you two give us a moment?” he asked the twins.
Fred and George nodded, their faces filled with concern, and made their way out of the tent.
He turned back to her, his voice softening, “what did he say, Vera?”
She took a deep breath, trying to steady herself. “He said the Bobbins aren’t like the Blacks, and that my family are thieves. He said I have the luxury to be whatever I want or nothing at all. He said he’s the sole heir, and that his uncle can’t have children and his other uncle—” she paused, her voice choking on the words, squinting her eyes in pain. “Was killed,”
Oliver sighed in disbelief, running a hand through his hair. "Merlin..."
“I hate him,” she sobbed again, “I fucking hate him!"
“He had no right, Vera. I'm sorry."
She wiped her tears, her voice trembling. “I know he’s under pressure, but why take it out on me? I just wanted to help!"
“You didn’t deserve any of that. Sometimes people say terrible things when they’re hurting, but that doesn’t excuse his behavior.”
“He said it was all my fault,” she whispered.
“Your fault?”
“I think he meant the deal we had..."
“What deal, Vera?”
“When I was sick,” she sniffled, “he made me promise him that if I got better, he would tell his dad about wanting to become a healer.”
“Blimey,” Oliver said, his eyes widening in surprise. “I never realized how close you two had gotten.”
“Well, not anymore,” she retorted, her tone sharpening, “He’s dead to me now. Felix Bobbin is fucking dead to me.”
Sunday, May 26, 1991
The day of the final match of the year had arrived, and the air buzzed with excitement. The stands of the Quidditch pitch were packed with students, professors, and even Hogsmeade residents, all eager to see the showdown between Gryffindor and Slytherin.
Vera walked towards the pitch with Lee, who was enthusiastically sharing his betting escapades.
"Come on, Vee," he said, nudging her playfully. "You have to place a bet! It's tradition. Besides, I've got some inside information from Fred and George. They say Gryffindor's been practicing some new plays that'll blow everyone away."
She smiled, shaking her head. "I don't know, Lee. Betting isn't really my thing."
"What's few Galleons to you? I mean, you're probably the richest witch in the wizarding world."
"And my grandfather was the most notorious gambler in the wizarding world.” she replied with a wry smile. “I don't really want to give people any ideas,"
He nodded. "Touché,"
"Besides, that old fool did nothing but lose. My luck's probably just as bad."
Lee burst into laughter. "Alright, fair enough.”
As they neared the entrance of the pitch, they spotted Tommy, Cedric, Maddie, and Sarah standing together.
The usual cheerful chatter of the crowd surrounded them, but what caught their attention was Sarah's outrageous display of Slytherin pride. Her face was painted green and silver, she wore a large, floppy Slytherin hat, and, most striking of all, a dead snake was draped around her neck like a macabre scarf.
Lee nudged Vera, and the two burst into laughter.
As they approached, Maddie waved them over. "Ready for the big match?"
"Absolutely," Vera replied, still chuckling. "But I think Sarah might be more ready than any of us."
“Yeah, what’s with the snake, Sarah?” Lee added.
Sarah grinned proudly. "I figured it would add a bit of flair."
Vera shook her head, smiling. "Flair, yes. Subtlety, not so much."
As the laughter subsided, she noticed Cedric and Tommy gesturing and whispering urgently.
“What’s going on?” she asked them.
Tommy glanced up, excitement in his eyes. “You won’t believe this.”
She smirked. “Try me,”
“The Bobbins are here!”
She couldn't believe it.
Her breath caught in her lungs, and her smirk vanished. Her eyes quickly darted over, a mix of shock and trepidation tightening in her chest as she spotted two men in deep conversation with Professor Dumbledore, their presence commanding immediate attention.
Flanking them were two imposing guards, towering figures with broad shoulders and stern expressions. Dressed in long, black robes and wearing dark sunglasses that obscured their eyes, they looked capable of snapping a broomstick in half with their bare hands.
She turned to Cedric, her voice barely a whisper. “Felix’s family?”
Cedric nodded towards the men. “The one talking to Dumbledore is his dad, Maximus Bobbin.”
Felix’s father was undeniably handsome.
He had a distinguished and charismatic face, with striking blue eyes framed by strong brows. His well-defined jawline and chiseled features were complemented by his grey hair, neatly trimmed beard, and mustache. He wore a vintage black suit, complete with a golden pocket watch.
Tommy added, “And the one with the Glasgow smile is his uncle, Gaius.”
Vera glanced at Gaius and felt a chill run down her spine.
He had a rugged and distinctive face, characterized by deep-set, piercing eyes that conveyed an unsettling intensity. His nose was slightly crooked, adding to his tough, weathered appearance.
But what truly terrified her were the prominent scars on his cheeks, running from his mouth to his ears, giving him a permanently menacing grin.
As she stared at them longer, she realized that they didn’t look like how she had imagined.
They weren't the typical posh bourgeoisies she was used to seeing in the wizarding world—instead, they exuded an air of intimidating power and authority, as if they were more suited to a different, rougher sort of world.
“Proper gentlemen,” Tommy remarked with a hint of admiration. “They look like the Corleones.”
“Who?” Cedric asked.
Tommy’s eyes widened in shock. “Seriously, mate? I sometimes wonder why we’re friends. Come on, you’ve got a lot to learn.”
As the two walked away, discussing the lore of The Godfather, Vera remained fixated on the Bobbins.
The stark reality of the pressure Felix was under hit her like a ton of bricks. She knew this match was important, but now it seemed like it was about more than just Quidditch—it was about family honor, expectations, and the weight of legacy.
She couldn’t help but wonder what kind of pressure Felix was under, and a part of her felt a pang of sympathy despite everything that had happened between them.
As she continued staring, she noticed something odd.
While Felix's father was busy talking to Dumbledore, his uncle Gaius was staring intently at someone in the crowd, a cold, calculating look in his eyes.
Following his gaze, she saw that he was glaring at... Professor Morales.
The sight of it made her feel uneasy, a shiver running down her spine, but before she could ponder it further, she felt a tap on her shoulder. Turning around, she found Percy standing there, his expression serious.
“Vera,” he said quietly, “can I have a word?”
She nodded, still feeling the weight of the unsettling scene she had just witnessed, and followed Percy a few steps away from the group.
“What is it?” she asked.
“Felix’s family is here,” Percy began, glancing around to ensure no one was listening in.
“I know,” she replied dryly, “It’s not exactly a secret.”
“Well, I just wanted to tell you—”
“I know, Perce,” she cut him off, rolling her eyes, “Don’t talk to Felix, don’t look at Felix, and don’t even think about Felix. Got it.”
“Excellent!”
It wasn’t really that hard, as she had been doing just that for the past week.
After his outburst at the tent, she had shut him out completely. Pretending he didn’t exist became a form of self-preservation. She couldn’t bear to look at him anymore, avoiding his presence whenever possible.
“Don’t worry about it,” she said calmly as they walked towards the stands. “I’ve already distanced myself.”
Percy glanced at her sympathetically. “Oliver filled me in on what happened. I’m sorry, Vera.”
“Why are you apologizing? He’s the one who acted like a dick.”
“I’m certain he didn’t mean any of it. He’s just got a problem—”
“We all have our issues, Percy, but not everyone lashes out at those trying to help.”
Percy sighed, “I meant, when he’s upset, he says things he doesn’t mean. We’re used to it.”
“Well, I’m not you,” she countered. “I’m okay with him telling me to shut up or calling me a baby, but the things he said? They didn’t come out of nowhere, Percy. It’s clear he’s also carrying his family’s grudge against me and was waiting to let it out.”
“That’s not true, Vera!” Percy interrupted earnestly. “If you heard how he talks about you, you’d know he doesn’t feel that way. He’s just frustrated with his family, and I’m sure he regrets his words.”
She bit her lip, considering his words. It surprised her that Felix discussed her with his friends, leaving her curious about what he said. Seeing his family now, she could somewhat grasp his frustration, though she wasn’t ready to forgive him.
“Why are they here, by the way?” she asked.
“They somehow found out he’s been slacking off in Quidditch and wanted to ensure he plays this time.”
“How did they find out?”
“They have their methods.”
She absorbed Percy's explanation with a mixture of resignation and concern.
The realization that Felix's family was actively involved in his affairs only added to the tension she already felt. But another thought nagged at her—the image of Gaius Bobbin and his severe scars.
“Percy,” she hesitated, “can I ask you something?”
“Sure."
“What happened to his uncle exactly?”
“You mean his scars?”
“Yeah,”
“Felix said he got them during the war,”
She closed her eyes briefly, a pang of regret washing over her.
Wasn’t it enough that her grandfather had caused Julius Bobbin’s death? Now Gaius bore these agonizing scars because of the war her family played a part in, perhaps even started.
“He said it was a rebel who gave them to him,” Percy continued.
She stopped in her tracks, “Wait, what?”
Percy mirrored her confusion. “What?”
“A rebel!" she exclaimed. “But I thought the Bobbins weren’t purists.”
“They aren’t,”
“So why would a rebel attack him?”
Percy furrowed his brows, puzzled. “Because the Bobbins were loyalists,”
“Loyalists?”
“To the Ministry. Don’t you know anything about the war?”
“Yes, but I thought the rebels only fought against purists and death eaters.”
Percy turned to her, perplexed by her lack of understanding. “They were terrorists, Vera. They fought against everyone.”
The Quidditch pitch buzzed with anticipation as Gryffindor faced Slytherin in a fiercely contested match.
Oliver marshaled his team against Slytherin's formidable lineup, Fred and George thundered through the air as Gryffindor's Beaters, while Angelina and Alicia weaved through Slytherin's defenses with nimble precision.
But despite their tenacity, Slytherin held a narrow lead, their Keeper Miles stoutly defending their goal, and Beaters Bole and Derrick expertly repelling Gryffindor's offensive maneuvers.
Marcus Flint, Slytherin's imposing Captain, led his Chasers in a relentless assault, putting Gryffindor on the defensive.
"And it's Slytherin in the lead, folks!” the commentator's voice crackled with intensity, “Gryffindor needs Bobbin to snatch that Snitch if they're to have any hope of turning this around!"
As the match intensified, Vera's gaze flickered towards Felix's family in the stands.
His father, Maximus, seemed deeply focused on the game, but his uncle Gaius fixed a piercing glare at someone nearby.
Following his line of sight, her heart skipped a beat as she realized he was once again staring at Professor Morales with undisguised hostility.
Meanwhile, Snape's reaction to Slytherin's consecutive goals was a grim nod of satisfaction, his expression reflecting pride as his house surged ahead.
On the field, Terence Higgs and Felix engaged in a thrilling chase for the Snitch. Felix, normally sure-footed in the air, hesitated at crucial moments, narrowly missing the Snitch several times. With each near-miss, Vera stole glances at his father, whose stern disapproval was evident each time his son faltered.
Then, in a dramatic turn, Felix abruptly abandoned the chase.
“What in merlin’s name is he doing?” Percy muttered.
“He’s going up?” Lee pondered, “But the snitch is down there!”
Felix suddenly began to soar high above the pitch, drawing gasps from the crowd as all eyes turned to him in confusion.
Vera turned to look at his father and uncle, who were now on their feet, their faces etched with anger and confusion.
The commentator’s voice faltered momentarily, catching his breath. "Wait, what's Bobbin doing?”
“He's... he's going higher,” Kenny said with a terrified tone.
As Felix lingered high above, Vera's heart raced in her chest, and the Quidditch pitch seemed to hold its breath as all eyes turned to him, suspended in that precarious moment.
She could see his conflicted expression, a mixture of determination and doubt flickering across his face.
His gaze locked with hers, and for a heartbeat, time seemed to stand still.
And then, with a startling and definitive motion, he released his grip on the broom.
Vera's breath caught in her throat, panic seizing her as she watched him descend rapidly, his figure becoming smaller against the vast sky.
The stadium erupted into shocked gasps and anxious shouts, with panic and confusion rippling through the spectators as they realized what had happened.
Vera's mind raced, her heart pounding painfully in her chest. She couldn't move, her eyes fixed on the spot where he was now hurtling towards the ground. Seconds stretched into eternity as his descent seemed to slow, each heartbeat louder than the last.
Finally, with a heart-stopping impact, Felix struck the ground.
Chapter 45: Clarity
Notes:
Dearest readers,
Everything in this chapter is a headcanon, but please keep an open mind, and take it all in with grace.
The full story will reveal itself in time, be patient.
TW: Mention of suicide, war, genocide, gore, and some dark stuff.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The Gryffindor common room was unusually silent, a sharp contrast to its typical lively atmosphere.
Students huddled in small groups, their faces marked by worry and anticipation. Vera sat with Lee, Kenny, and Katie, all wearing the same tense expressions, while Fred, George, Alicia, and Angelina, still in their Quidditch gear, also looked deeply concerned. Nearby, Oliver sat alone, his leg shaking with nerves, clearly lost in thought.
The team wasn't upset about losing the game; their thoughts were consumed by Felix's condition.
Vera clenched her fists, overwhelmed by frustration and guilt, as she replayed the moment repeatedly in her mind, struggling to understand.
“Do you think he fell on purpose?” Lee suddenly asked.
“I don’t know,” George replied, “It looked like he just... let go.”
Angelina frowned, “Could it have been an accident? Maybe he lost his grip or got dizzy?”
“It’s hard to say,” Alicia shrugged, her face pale. “It happened so fast.”
Oliver, who had remained silent, suddenly spoke up sharply, his voice cutting through the murmurs. “It was an accident.”
The room fell silent again, everyone turning to look at him.
“The heat was intense,” he continued, “and he wasn’t in the best condition. He fainted. That’s all.”
The group nodded, accepting his explanation, though the unease lingered.
The door to the common room creaked open, and everyone turned to see Percy entering with a solemn expression.
“Percy, do you have any news?” Alicia asked.
He nodded, taking a deep breath. “He’s well. Snape had placed a protective charm before the match started.”
A collective sigh of relief swept through the room, but the tension didn’t entirely dissipate.
Felix was alive, but questions still lingered.
“Thank God,” Vera muttered under her breath, and Kenny turned to her with a puzzled expression, having overheard.
“Can we see him?” Oliver asked.
“Not yet,” Percy replied. “He needs rest, and Madam Pomfrey wants to make sure he’s properly treated before he has any visitors.”
“What happened exactly?” Kenny asked.
Percy and Oliver shared a brief knowing glance before Percy spoke again. “He fainted. Full stop.”
“So, it wasn’t on purpose?” Fred asked.
Percy scoffed. “Don’t be ridiculous! Why would he do it on purpose?”
“It just seemed—”
“Well, it wasn’t!” Percy cut him off, “He fainted. END OF STORY.”
The group nodded in understanding, the weight of the situation still heavy on their hearts, and as the evening wore on, the tension in the Gryffindor common room showed no signs of easing.
The conversations were subdued, and everyone appeared equally disheartened by their loss to Slytherin.
Oliver, looking weary and lost in contemplation, eventually rose from his seat and headed towards the stairs leading to the boys' dormitories. Vera noticed his departure and swiftly stood up, navigating through the clusters of students to intercept him.
"Oliver," she called softly, just as he reached the bottom of the stairs.
He turned, his expression filled with fatigue. "Yes, Black?"
She hesitated briefly, glancing around to ensure they were alone. "Was it truly an accident?"
His expression hardened, and he let out a deep sigh, briefly averting his gaze before meeting her eyes again. "Why do you need to know?"
"Because I need to understand what happened! I saw his face, Olly. He let go intentionally, didn't he?"
He closed his eyes briefly, then reopened them, his gaze steady but tinged with frustration. "Vera, I don’t know why he did it. But I can't just go around telling everyone it wasn’t an accident. Can you imagine what that would do to him, to all of us?"
"But ignoring it won’t help him either!”
"I know," he admitted, his tone softening slightly. "He needs help, and we'll support him through this. But right now, we must be careful.”
"Do you think I can see him?"
"His family is still here, Vera."
"After they leave, then?"
He took a deep breath, "I think it's best to give him space right now. He's already facing a lot of problems with his father. Adding more might not help."
Vera's gaze dropped to the floor, her breaths shallow. "It's my fault," she murmured.
"Why would you say that?"
"The deal, Olly," her voice cracked, tears welling up in her eyes. "That stupid deal!"
"He made that decision himself, Vera. It's not on you."
"I encouraged him!" She sobbed. "I caused this!"
"Hey, hey," he said gently, stepping closer and placing a comforting hand on her shoulder. "None of this is your fault. Felix has been struggling long before he met you. It’s just that… he saw something in you that he wanted for himself, that’s all."
She gazed at him with teary eyes. "What do you mean?"
He took a deep breath, his eyes distant as he recalled the memory. "Last year," he began, "he came back to our dorm one afternoon and wouldn't stop talking about you. He said he saw you drawing outside the castle, and that the two of you talked. He was shocked at how different you were from what he'd been told.”
She sniffled, trying to process his words. "That I’m different from my family?"
"Yeah," he said with a small smile. “He saw your courage, and it inspired him. But, it also made him realize how trapped he felt in his own life."
She looked up at him, her tears slowly subsiding. "I just wish I could have helped him more."
"You did more than you know, so don’t give yourself a hard time, eh? He’s going to be fine.”
She managed a small smile, feeling a bit lighter despite the weight of her emotions. "Okay."
Monday, May 27, 1991
♪ All in all, it's just another brick in the wall ♪
"Vera?" Professor Morales called gently, noticing her distant stare. "Are you with me, dear?"
She blinked, snapping back to the present. "Sorry, Professor," she murmured.
Setting his book aside, he turned to her with a kind expression. "Is something on your mind?"
“Just thinking about yesterday."
"It was a significant loss," he nodded sympathetically. "But I'm confident you'll triumph next year."
She remained silent, her gaze fixed ahead, showing no reaction.
"But it's not just the match that's troubling you, is it?"
She shook her head, her voice trembling. "I can't stop thinking about him... the way he fell."
"I understand," he replied, “But Madam Pomfrey assured us he'll be fine."
She nodded, then returned her gaze ahead.
“You and Mr. Bobbin…” he began hesitantly, “you're not particularly close, are you?”
“No!" she replied quickly, “but he's still a Gryffindor. I would worry about any of my housemates.”
“Aha, I see,” he nodded, though she sensed his lingering doubt.
Silence enveloped them, and her thoughts seemed miles away.
“I kept praying for him,” she said suddenly, catching him off guard. “But then I started wondering if God will listen.”
“Why wouldn't He?”
“Because I was praying for someone who doesn't believe in Him.”
Her response took him aback, and he paused to gather his thoughts. “I'm sure He'll listen regardless,” he said gently.
“I hope so.”
"That's very thoughtful of you, Vera. To pray for someone who doesn't..."
"Doesn't like me?" she interjected.
"The history between your families is quite complicated."
"It has nothing to do with me or him, though,"
"I agree."
"His family," she continued, choosing her words carefully, "they aren't what I expected. They seemed..."
"Scary?"
"Different." she clarified, the word lingering in the air.
He nodded, though a sudden odd expression crossed his face. "The Bobbins are indeed exceptional. They've risen from poverty to become one of the wealthiest families in the Wizarding world in just twenty years."
"They earned it," she said bitterly, "through hard work."
"Yes," he replied slowly, his voice laced with sarcasm. "From Quidditch bookies to monopolizing apothecaries... quite the hard work."
"Unlike my family," she added, her voice dropping to a whisper, "who just stole and killed."
"You might be surprised at how similar the two families are."
Her head swiftly snapped up. "What do you mean?"
He averted his gaze, his expression unreadable. "Nothing," he said quietly.
She couldn't help but notice the sudden change in his tone but decided not to press further. She stared at her cup of tea, feeling suddenly out of place.
"His uncle Gaius is scary, though," she said after a while. "His scars are terrifying. It's like he's smiling, but he isn't."
"Ah..."
"Do you know him?"
"Only from afar," he replied, his voice tense.
She clenched her jaw, eyeing him carefully, but he seemed nervous, averting her gaze and staring into the desk.
"It seems like he knows you," she finally said, watching his shoulders stiffen.
"What makes you say that?"
"He kept looking at you."
He swallowed hard. "Did he? I didn't quite notice."
He continued to avoid her gaze, tracing patterns on the desk with his fingers, lost in thought, and she took a moment to study him, noticing details she hadn't before. A small scar under his left eye, a tattoo on his neck that only showed when he leaned back, and burn scars on the tip of his fingers.
“Percy told me something quite interesting about him,” she said, catching him off guard. "Gaius, thats is."
“What is it?”
“His scars,” she replied, her jaw tightening. “A rebel gave them to him.”
He remained silent, gazing into the desk and avoiding her eyes. After what felt like an eternity, he spoke softly. “Yes, I remember.”
“Percy said it was because the Bobbins were loyal to the Ministry,” she continued, anger coloring her tone. “Which is quite odd.”
“Vera,” he began as he understood where she was heading.
“Because I thought,” she continued, her voice rising, “that the rebels only fought against a broken system,”
“Vera…”
“Against Death Eaters and purists,”
“Vera, please,”
“But apparently, they fought against everyone,”
“Let me expla—”
“Apparently, they were terrorists!”
“NO!” he shouted, then took a deep breath, looking away to compose himself.
“You lied to me, Professor,” she muttered, her voice filled with hurt. “You said they fought for justice!"
“And they did!”
“Then why would Percy say they were terrorists, huh?”
He took a moment to ponder her question, and after a long pause, picked up his wand and waved it around the room. "Muffliato," he whispered, casting a spell to prevent anyone from overhearing their conversation. He locked eyes with her, and she sensed a sudden sadness and a flicker of anger in his gaze.
Taking a deep breath, he began. “Do you remember when you came to me after Christmas, distressed about the injustices in the wizarding world? How House-Elves are treated poorly, how homeless squibs are ignored, how Gringotts exerts a stranglehold on everyone’s finances, and how everyone was so engrossed in Quidditch that they didn’t care when over fifty Ministry workers were laid off without reason?"
“Yes, but what does this have to do with anything?”
“These injustices existed long before the war and Voldemort, and they were even more pronounced.”
Her heart nearly stopped as she realized he had spoken the forbidden name without even flinching. She tried to mask her shock and continued to listen.
"These were the reasons we fought," he continued, "We believed in a world where everyone, regardless of blood status or wealth, could live freely and with dignity."
"Then why did Percy call you terrorists?"
"Because history is written by those in power. The Ministry painted us as terrorists to discredit our cause and maintain control. They wanted to keep the status quo, to keep the powerful in power and the oppressed in chains."
She felt a surge of conflicting emotions. She had always believed in the cause of justice, but now she was grappling with the complexities of a war she barely understood.
"Vera," he said softly, "I never lied to you. The resistance did fight for justice, but in war, the lines between right and wrong become blurred. We made mistakes, yes, and innocent people got hurt, but our goal was always a better world."
She looked into his eyes, searching for the truth. The sadness and regret she saw there made her realize that he had been carrying this burden for a long time.
“The wizarding world before the war was in turmoil,” he carried on, his tone heavy with anguish. “Children died from starvation and disease, and many were orphaned because their parents were forced to work under horrendous conditions. Magical creatures were hunted for sport. Entire families lost their homes to corrupt officials and gangs. Squibs were ostracized, Muggleborns were denied employment, half-breeds were imprisoned in Azkaban, and laws were perpetually reformed to protect those in power. It was only a matter of time before a dark wizard rose to prominence because the conditions were always ripe for one. The resistance believed that until we address the root causes of these inequalities, the cycle will continue, and another dark wizard will inevitably emerge. For them, the war wasn’t just about defeating Voldemort; it was about tearing down the structures that allowed such darkness to flourish in the first place.”
A chill ran down her spine as she grappled with the weight of his words. Her mind whirled with a thousand thoughts at once.
“And yes,” he continued, “the measures we took to fight against the system were considered extreme, but when peaceful means of protest fail, when voices go unheard, extremism becomes the only way to provoke change.”
“So,” she swallowed nervously, “they committed terrible crimes?”
“They did,” he admitted. But then he reached for her hands, as if trying to make her understand. “But, Vera, the resistance didn’t intend to harm innocents. The harm that came about was an unfortunate consequence of a flawed system. They fought for a cause they deeply believed in, using the means they had at their disposal.”
“But they hurt people!”
He released her hands and ran them through his hair as he searched for the right words.
“They weren’t terrorists,” he said finally. “They weren’t violent for the sake of violence. They were people yearning for freedom. Bobby was a pacifist, for Merlin’s sake! He couldn’t harm a fly. But when someone is pushed to their limits, stripped of everything they hold dear—like a best friend whose only 'crime' was being born without magic in a world that despises him—then what else is there to live for, huh? It’s either death or freedom.”
“Who is... Bobby?”
He clenched his jaw, anger flickering in his eyes. “Just a dead man who dared to dream.”
Her mind raced, overwhelmed by the sight of her dearest Professor, his face etched with lines of pain and regret. The depth of his inner turmoil was palpable, each wrinkle a testament to the heavy burden he carried, making her heart ache for him even more.
“I can’t tell you his story, Vera,” he continued, his voice tinged with resignation. “I wouldn’t even know where to begin. And if I did, I’d risk losing my position at Hogwarts for even speaking his name.”
“Was he a dark wizard like 'He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named'?”
“Of course not!” he exclaimed. “He was just a factory worker, Vera. An activist who wanted Everbrook to be seen and heard!”
“Everbrook?” she repeated, “your home?”
“Yes, it’s where…” he took a deep breathe, “It’s where the revolution began.”
His tone grew increasingly sorrowful, and she could sense the depth of his pain. He squinted for a moment, then opened his eyes and fixed his gaze on the desk before him. “When the resistance grew too vocal, the Ministry decided to silence them forever. They imposed a magical siege around Everbrook and starved its people to death. Children, women, the elderly, even helpless creatures— were all collectively punished for something they had no part in, simply to set an example. The resistance did everything they could to keep us alive, but it was impossible. People resorted to eating worms and cockroaches, grass and tree leaves, but we fought on, even as hope dwindled. That was all before…”
“Before what?”
“Before the Ministry allowed Death Eaters to enter Everbrook."
Vera's breath caught in her throat.
"At that time, they were known as Cobalts, and the Crow Party convinced the wizarding world that their invasion was a punishment for the so-called rebels. But that wasn’t their true purpose…”
“What did they do?”
“They butchered everyone. Killed them all in the most horrific ways. But the resistance fought valiantly, Vera. They fought, but they were outnumbered and caught off guard by dark magic. Every man and woman who stood with the resistance was rounded up, tortured. Then the Cobalts,” he choked, as if the words hurt to say, “severed their hands before killing them and hung their handless bodies at the town’s gates.”
A chill ran down her spine as she recalled that his boggart was a pile of severed hands. The realization hit her hard, and she felt a lump rise in her throat as she understood the depth of his suffering.
“Why their hands?” she asked, her voice barely a whisper, horrified and struggling to process the brutality.
“To send a message,” he replied, his voice laden with sorrow. “You see, purists believe that Muggleborns can’t wield magic without a wand. They perpetuated the idea that by taking away a Muggleborn’s hands, you strip them of their magic.”
She swallowed hard, her mind reeling with the horror of what they had endured. The weight of his story was heavy, and she could see the pain etched into his face.
“What did everyone do when they found out about what happened?”
“Nothing.”
“Nothing?” she echoed, incredulous.
“Some were appalled by the atrocity, but many believed it was justified—that the so-called rebels brought it upon themselves.”
“But what about the innocents? The children, women, the elderly?”
“Collateral damage."
“What?”
“That’s what they called them. Collateral damage. They claimed those deaths were accidental, not targeted. But everyone in Everbrook knew that wasn’t the case. The killings were systematic and deliberate, designed to ensure that the children of the freedom fighters would never grow up to seek revenge. It was a way to eliminate muggleborns or intimidate them into submission.”
“Then what happened?” she asked.
“Everbrook fell, the resistance was defeated, and Voldemort and his army of Death Eaters took over.”
She felt a profound sadness, her heart aching for the lost souls and the man before her who had witnessed such cruelty, and above all, that her own father was complicit.
She shook her head in shock, “Professor, how come we never learn about any of this?”
“The scars of that conflict run deep,Vera. The wounds have never truly healed. Each side clings to its own version of the story, making it difficult to present an unbiased history.”
“But your book!” she said earnestly. “It will reveal what happened in Everbrook—it will show that the resistance fought for justice!'
“I don’t know about that, Vera. As I’ve told you, no one would publish it.”
“Why not?”
“Because I can only write about what I know and have seen."
“What do you mean?”
He sighed. “The incident. The one that turned the entire wizarding community against the resistance, despite their previous support. I can’t prove that it was an accident, even though I know in my heart that it was.”
“But you can’t give up! You have to find the proof and reveal the truth to the world!”
“I’ve been trying for the past fifteen years, Vera,” he said wearily. “But I simply can’t.”
“But... you won’t give up, will you?”
He looked at her, a faint smile touching his lips as he gently squeezed her hand. “I won’t.”
They fell into a contemplative silence, the weight of their conversation lingering between them.
“I’m sorry, sir.” She muttered after a while, “for what happened to your home because of my family."
“It wasn’t your family’s fault, Vera. Not entirely.”
“But Pollux—”
“I don’t believe he fully grasped the consequences when he sent the death eaters into Everbrook. He was cruel, yes, but not reckless. From what I've heard, Voldemort tricked him into thinking he's helping him get rid of the resistance, when in fact, his true intention was to reconstruct the wizarding world-to kill everyone who isn't pureblood."
"But my family were purists..."
"Yes, but they never wanted to fully get rid of muggleborns. Your family were extremely intelligent, Vera. They understood that by killing our kind, they would be depriving the community of factory workers, farmers and laborers. After Everbrook fell, the Crow Party weakened, the Blacks lost their power, and Voldemort took over.”
Vera’s face paled as the gravity of his words sank in. Her eyes widened, and she struggled to process the enormity of what she had just learned. The realization that her family’s actions, though indirectly, played a part in such a horrific tragedy left her feeling numb.
Morales's expression shifted to one of urgency. “Vera dear, I need to ask you to keep what I’ve shared with you a secret. Discussing the war, especially these details, is dangerous.”
“But sir, the truth—”
“Is important to be told, yes. But not now.”
“Why not now?”
“Because... the conditions are becoming ripe again.”
Hold on, dearest reader,
Everything I write is a reflection of my life, and Morales's pain mirrors my own. As a child, I loved Harry Potter, but as I grew up, I began to see its flaws. J.K. Rowling doesn't truly grasp the meaning of oppression because she’s never lived it. War is never simple, and life is not black and white. An airstrike doesn’t care about your color, ethnicity, race, or religion when it rains down and tears you apart, mingling your flesh and blood with the ruins of your home. An Unforgivable Curse makes no distinction between a pure blood or an impure one when it strikes its victim.
When it kills, it kills.
I started LOTC for this reason—to rewrite a flawed story that claims to reflect reality but doesn’t. I write to be heard and seen, and to give a voice to the voiceless.
I write because if I don’t, I might as well be dead.
So, when you read Everbrook’s story, I hope you think of those in our world who are currently being crushed and killed by the system, and realize that the fiction we consume is the reality some people live.
Now back to the story.
Friday, May 31st, 1991
Wizarding Chronicle
Ministry to Shut Down Seven Offices Handling Muggleborn Affairs. Coincidence or Strategic Move?
Hugh Blackwood Reports
Vera settled into the deep embrace of an armchair in the Gryffindor common room, her fingers idly drumming against the newspaper she held.
Around her, the usual hum of activity—the laughter, the study sessions, and the lively conversations—seemed to fade into an almost ethereal background noise.
Her mind was tethered to the recent conversation with Professor Morales, the weight of her family’s legacy feeling more suffocating than ever. The newspaper’s edges became a mere distraction as her thoughts drifted elsewhere.
“Hey, Vee!” Kenny suddenly exclaimed, his voice slicing through the fog of her thoughts. “An owl dropped this off for you.”
He set a wrapped parcel on the small table beside her chair, and she blinked, momentarily yanked from her contemplation, and gave him a curious look.
“A service owl?” she inquired.
“Yeah,”
Alicia and Angelina, who were seated nearby, swiftly leaned in.
“Another one?” Alicia asked, her voice laced with surprise.
“This is getting creepy,” Angelina remarked, echoing Vera’s own rising unease.
This was the fourth gift she had received from an anonymous sender.
Her pulse quickened as she slowly began to unwrap the parcel, her heart pounding with a mixture of fear and anticipation. Then, when she finally unveiled its contents, her breath caught in her throat.
“Another painting,” Alicia said.
“And this time,” Angelina added, “it’s a cat?”
Vera’s hands trembled as she stared at the painting. “It’s... it’s Vinny,” she whispered, her voice barely audible and laden with fear.
“Your stuffed cat?” Alicia asked, looking perplexed.
“No,” Vera gasped, her entire body shaking with terror. “The cat from my dreams.”
Angelina and Alicia exchanged puzzled glances, perplexed by what she said.
“That’s where I got the name from,” she explained, her gaze fixed on the painting. “I’ve been dreaming about this black cat for years, and in there, a woman always calls him Vinny.”
“Wait, you’ve been having recurring dreams?” Alicia asked.
She nodded, her eyes stll locked on the painting. “Since I was six.”
“How can you be certain it’s the same cat?” Kenny asked rationally. “It could be any black cat.”
“It’s the ear…” she pointed to the painting. “The cat in my dreams also has one ear.”
“Oh my goodness,” Angelina gasped, her voice laced with fear. “Vera, this is absolutely terrifying!”
“I don’t understand what’s happening!” her voice wavered. “Who is sending these, and how do they know about my dreams?”
Angelina swiftly flipped the painting over. “Vera!” she cried out, “The sun... look at the sun!”
Vera turned to examine the back of the painting, where a carved sun was prominently displayed. Panic clawed at her as she took in the sight.
“This is proper insane,” she said, her voice cracking with panic.
"Um, Vera?" Alicia's voice quivered as she noticed something else on the painting.
"What is it?"
Alicia pointed to the bottom of the painting, where a faint inscription read:
Vinny, Juin 1975
The words seemed to reverberate through her mind, making the room spin as she tried to process their meaning.
“This can’t be real,” she whispered, holding the painting as if it were a lifeline.
Alicia and Angelina’s faces mirrored her fear and confusion, their eyes wide with shared terror.
“What does this mean, Vera?” Angelina asked.
“I don’t know,” she murmured, her voice a fragile whisper. “I don’t know…”
She clutched the painting tightly as she made her way through the winding corridors, her footsteps echoing softly in the dimly lit halls. She headed outside to the corridor that overlooked the rugged mountains surrounding the castle. The evening air was crisp, carrying the distant whispers of the forest and the subtle rustle of the leaves.
She settled herself on the edge of the stone balustrade, then propped the painting on her lap, the haunting image of the one-eared black cat seemingly mocking her with its silent stare.
As she traced her fingers along the edges of the canvas, a deep sense of isolation enveloped her. Each brushstroke felt like a taunt, each detail a puzzle piece to a mystery she could not solve.
Suddenly, the sound of footsteps drew her from her reverie, and a warm, familiar voice pierced through the evening chill.
"Hey, kitten."
The words were soft, almost playful, sending a flutter through her heart. Her breath caught as she turned to see Felix emerge from the shadows of the corridor, his presence both comforting and thrilling.
"Felix," she gasped, relief and joy blending in her voice. "Ar-are you alright?"
He smiled faintly, and settled on the edge of the stone opposite her, his feet just brushing against hers. "Never been better," he sighed, his smile lingering in a way that made her heart skip a beat. "It’s like I’m a new person."
"What happened?" she asked, her concern evident as she studied his face for any signs of harm.
But to her surprise, he looked even better than before, his features illuminated by an inner light.
He took a deep breath, his gaze drifting to the distant mountains as the wind tousled his brown hair. "They refused to listen to me," he said softly, “so I had to make myself louder.”
"You," she swallowed, "you fell on purpose?"
“Don’t worry, I’m not brave enough to embrace death like that. I knew Snape placed a protective charm before the match began."
She released a breath she hadn’t realized she was holding, her tense body finally relaxing.
“You were right,” he continued, “My dad did understand.”
“You finally told him…”
“He said he will love me regardless, and he’s just glad I’m okay.”
“And… your uncle?” she asked, dreading the answer.
“It’s gonna take him some time to be fully convinced, but as long as my dad is okay with it, that’s all that matters.”
She smile earnestly, “so, you’re gonna be a healer?”
He nodded, a beautiful, genuine smile lingering on his lips. “Madam Pomfrey offered to help me catch up, and I’ll be training in the hospital wing starting next year.”
Her heart warmed for him. “That’s great,” she said, “but what about Oliver? Did you tell him you’re leaving the team?”
He sucked his teeth, a hint of exasperation in his expression. “Can’t say convincing that idiot was easy, but he’s a good mate. He understood.”
“So we’re gonna lose the Quidditch cup next year too?” she teased, rolling her eyes playfully.
He chuckled, his eyes twinkling with amusement. “Not unless you try out.”
“You’ve got a better chance of seeing Snape in a bra than me on a broom."
He laughed heartily, the sound echoing through the corridor like a blissful melody, sending shivers down her spine and making her stomach flutter with unexpected feelings.
She watched him for a moment, a warmth spreading through her chest as if the cracks in her heart were finally beginning to heal.
“You scared the shit out of me, Felix,” she said as the laughter subsided, “Seeing you fall was like a bloody nightmare, and I thought…” she swallowed hard, “I thought we’d lost you.”
He chuckled softly, a pained look in his eyes. “I imagined it would make you happy.”
“To see you die!” she exclaimed, “Are you mental?!”
“Didn’t you tell Oliver that I was dead to you?”
She bit her lip, “Metaphorically, you toad.”
“Even if it wasn’t metaphorical, you had every right to say it.”
“Felix—”
“No, Vera,” he swiftly cut her off, “I hurt you, and I will never forgive myself for it. I wanted to cut my tongue out the moment I left that tent—to Crucio myself for even raising my voice at you. You did nothing wrong, and I was rude and cruel. But I swear by my honor, Vera, I did not mean what I said.”
He got up and approached her, his legs hanging on each side of the edge as he became face-to-face with her. “Vera, you have to believe me,” he pleaded. “I do not hold my family’s grudge, I do not hate you! I could never hate you.”
“I know—”
“But you don’t!” he exclaimed, “You were nothing but a good friend to me, and I acted like a jerk.”
“You were angry,” she said softly.
“Still, I had no right, no right at all.”
“Felix, I understand,”
“You’re the last person I would want to hurt, and I’m sorry, Vera! I am deeply sorry,”
“I forgive you,” she whispered.
“But I will never forgive myself,” he said earnestly, shaking his head. “Never.”
His words hung in the air, and she could see the guilt in his eyes. She smiled warmly at him, playfully nudging his shoulder to lighten the mood. “You’re so awfully dramatic,” she chuckled. “They should put you on Corrie.”
He giggled, puzzled. “What’s that?”
“Nothing,” she said with a mischievous grin. “And don’t be so hard on yourself, alright? It could have been worse.”
“Worse than what I did?”
“Aha,” she nodded. “You should see me when I get angry.”
“Is that so?”
“Didn’t you catch Higgs’s face a few weeks ago?”
His eyes widened in disbelief. “THAT WAS YOU?”
“I’m not proud of it!” she exclaimed, lowering her head in embarrassment. “Okay, maybe just a little, but still…”
“Vera, you’re a legend,” he said, admiringly.
“It wasn’t right!” she exclaimed, trying to hide her smile. “I try so hard not to lash out when I’m angry, but sometimes I just can’t help it. So I do understand you.”
“Okay,” he nodded, still chuckling. “But seriously, you should get an award for how you painted his face.”
“Stop it!” she buried her face in her hands, laughing.
“I don’t know what happened, but I’m sure he deserved it,” he said, his laughter mingling with hers. “I mean, I wanted to knock him off his broom a couple of times myself, but I felt bad because he’s younger than me.”
“He was being a purist cunt,”
He gasped dramatically. “What a shock!”
“And Miss Nelson told me if someone’s being racist, it’s okay to punch them.”
“And who’s Miss Nelson?”
“My mat—” she paused, then cleared her throat. “Governess.”
“Well, your governess is a woman of wisdom,”
She smiled, her eyes shining with warmth. “Yeah, she is.”
“Is she the one who gets you all those Muggle books?”
“Yeah, she’s quite the romantic, that one.”
“And very progressive. She’s a squib, right?”
She was taken aback by his unexpected question. Why would he think that"
She nodded hesitantly, her smile faltering a bit.
“Well, do tell her she’s got a wonderful taste,” he said, winking. “And that she’s raised a wonderful girl.”
Her cheeks flushed slightly, touched by his words. “I will.”
“What’s that?” he then pointed at the painting, then reached out to touch it. “Did you make this?”
“Um, no...”
“But it does look like something you’d create, it reminds me of the cat drawing you showed me right here last year. Remember?”
She nodded, feeling a twinge of unease as she began to realize her dreams were hiding something more complex.
“Vinny,” he said, looking at the painting thoughtfully. “Is that his name?”
“I think so,” she replied, her unease growing.
“Suits him well.”
“What’d you mean?”
“You know, because he’s got one ear?”
She giggled nervously, still not quite getting it. “I don’t understand...”
“Like that Muggle painter, Vincent Van Gogh.”
Her eyes widened in realization. “Vinny stands for Vincent?”
He chuckled. “Thought you knew, being artsy and all.”
“I just never realized…” she said, her voice trailing off as she processed the connection.
"He looks naughty," he teased, handing her the painting back and gently pinching her nose. "Just like you."
She scrunched her face, feeling a shiver from his cold touch. "Am I really that naughty?"
"Very," he nodded, his smile wide and captivating. "But also wise."
"Stop saying that!" she exclaimed, "It makes me feel ancient!"
"But you are wise,"
"I am not!"
"You're wise, smart, and incredibly funny. Sometimes I wonder if you're even real."
"You think I'm not real?"
"Are you not?" he asked, a playful glint in his eye.
"I am."
"Prove it then," he said softly, his tone turning serious, his gaze intense.
She was taken aback by the request, her heart pounding in her chest. "Prove it how?"
His lips quivered slightly, but then a tender smile began to spread across his face. "Hug me."
Her heart stopped.
“To seal our reconciliation.” He continued, and she could barely believe her ears.
She hesitated for a moment, her mind racing as she processed his request.
With a tentative nod, she rose, nerves tingling through her body.
Felix stood as well, his presence imposing yet incredibly magnetic.
She gazed up at him, her breath catching in her throat as she felt the intensity of the moment.
He extended his arms, and she took a deep breath before stepping into his embrace. As she wrapped her arms around his neck, her pulse quickened as she felt the warmth of his skin seeping into hers.
The subtle scent of his cologne—fresh, musky, with a hint of something dark and earthy—filled her senses, making her head spin in the most delicious way.
His hands slid into her hair, and she shivered as his fingers threaded through the strands. She pressed her cheek against his shoulder, her breath catching as she felt the steady rise and fall of his chest beneath her.
Each breath he took, strong and deliberate, seemed to resonate within her, syncing with her own racing heartbeat. It was a rhythm that was both intoxicating and grounding, stirring something deep and primal within her that she hadn’t anticipated—a need, a longing that she couldn’t, and didn’t want to, suppress.
When she finally stepped back, the loss of his warmth was immediate and palpable, like stepping out into the cold after basking in the sun.
Her hands lingered on his shoulders, reluctant to sever the connection entirely, and she looked up into his face, her breath hitching as she took in every detail with new intensity.
His honey-pale skin, smooth and almost glowing in the dim light, drew her in.
His deep brown eyes, nearly black in the low light, held a depth and intensity that she hadn’t fully noticed before.
His shiny almond hair, which fell in loose waves around his face, caught the faint light of the moon streaming in through the window.
She watched, entranced, as his jaw clenched slightly—a subtle sign of the emotions he was struggling to keep in check.
Her gaze dropped to his throat, following the movement of his Adam’s apple as he swallowed, noticing how it bobbed with each breath.
But what captivated her most were his lips—full, slightly parted, and inviting.
The warmth of his embrace lingered on her skin, a ghost of a touch that she ached to feel again, to never let go.
She couldn't tear her eyes away, and suddenly, like a whisper on the wind, everything became clear.
Notes:
Songs mentioned:
Another brick in the wall - Pink Floyd
Chapter 46: The Stranger
Chapter Text
Sunday, June 1st, 1991
That night, as Vera nestled into her bed, she found herself enveloped in Felix’s arms once more.
His lips found hers with a tenderness that belied the intensity of the desire coursing between them.
His voice, a low, husky murmur, filled the space between them, and the way he whispered her name، sent a rush of warmth through her, pooling deep in her core.
The sound reverberated in her ears, wrapping around her like a physical touch, making her tremble. She felt herself melting into him, every barrier she’d ever held dissolving in the heat of the moment.
When she finally awoke, her heart raced, her skin flushed and damp with sweat.
The dream's intensity lingered, leaving her both exhilarated and disoriented. She lay in bed, gazing up at the starry tapestry, trying to unravel the whirlwind of emotions stirring within her.
The confusion gnawed at her, leaving her restless and yearning for clarity.
Morning light streamed through the gaps in the heavy curtains, casting a gentle glow across the room. Alicia bustled over and drew the curtains open with a flourish, flooding the space with sunlight.
“Get up already!” she called out, then paused, noticing Vera’s flushed face and distant expression. “Are you alright?” she asked, concern evident as she leaned closer to feel her forehead. “You look like you have a fever or something.”
Vera's cheeks deepened in color, her embarrassment and confusion evident from the intensity of her dream. “No, I’m fine,” she stammered, gently brushing Alicia’s hand away. “Just... had a strange dream, that’s all.”
“The black cat again?”
“Um, y-yeah.”
“Well, strange dream or not, you’d better get ready. Professor McGonagall has been asking about you.”
“What for?”
“No idea. But you know how she is—best not to keep her waiting. Now, hurry up you lazy git!”
She quickly set about getting dressed, her mind still racing with questions. Swiftly riffling through her wardrobe, her fingers landed on her well-worn denim overalls, now speckled with paint along with the bleach stains. She paired them with a striped white and purple shirt and pulled on her Converse sneakers to complete the look.
As she hurriedly brushed her hair, her gaze settled on the cat painting beside her dresser.
She picked it up and set it on the bed, still perplexed by its meaning and the identity of its mysterious sender.
Driven by curiosity, she decided to gather the other enigmatic gifts she had received.
First, she retrieved the sunflower painting from Christmas, then took out her wand, now adorned with the gem she had received on Valentine’s Day. Lastly, she picked up the music box from April, its haunting melody still vivid in her mind.
Placing all the items on the bed, she stared at them with confusion and unease. Then, with a final look, she placed the wand in her overall pockets then headed downstairs, determined to concentrate on the day ahead.
She made her way to the common room, grabbing a shiny red apple from the bowl on the table as she went.
“Come on, Perce,” Fred pleaded, “just a few things. A self-inking quill, some more exploding snap cards, and maybe those new trick wands—“
“—oh, and don’t forget the stink pellets!” George added. “We’ve got some plans for those.”
Percy frowned, “Honestly, it’s a miracle you haven’t been expelled yet. I’ll see what I can do, but no promises.”
Vera smiled at their antics, then turned to Angelina, who was flipping through a magical fashion magazine. “Is this the last trip to Hogsmeade for the year?”
“Yeah, it is.” Angelina replied, “So if you need anything, better make a list.”
Vera bit her lip, contemplating her lack of funds for anything she needed.
Alicia sighed. "I can't wait until we can go to Hogsmeade next year."
"Me too," Vera agreed, biting into her apple.
“Vera!” Percy called out, turning to her with an unusual urgency. “Are you ready?”
“For what?” she mumbled with a mouthful.
“What do you mean, ‘for what’?” he snapped. “I’ve been waiting for you for over ten minutes!”
“Why?”
“Merlin,” he sighed, “Aren’t you going to Hogsmeade with us?”
A collective gasp rippled through the common room. Everyone, including her, looked stunned.
“M-me?” she coughed, choking on her apple in surprise, “To Hogsmeade?”
“Yes!” Percy exclaimed. “Professor McGonagall told me to fetch you.”
“Lucky cow,” Angelina remarked, and the twins nodded in agreement.
“Why?” she managed to ask between coughs.
“I don’t know,” Percy said, “but you’d better hurry up. We’re late!”
Her mind raced as she dashed to her dormitory, grabbed her bag, and sprinted back down.
The common room buzzed with whispers and curious glances as she followed Percy out the door, with Fred and George flanking her, grinning like Cheshire Cats.
“Can you snag a few things from Zonko’s for us?” George asked.
“Yeah, Percy is gonna forget as usual,” Fred added.
“I’m skint, mate,” she shot back, patting her empty pockets with a theatrical sigh.
George rolled his eyes. “You’re always skint!”
“Not skint,” Fred chimed in, “just expertly stingy.”
“Shut up!” she laughed. “I’ve just blown my entire allowance.”
Fred and George exchanged a glance, then grinned mischievously.
“Come on, Vee!” George said, his tone light and teasing. “Just a few Galleons?”
“Yeah,” Fred added with a playful wink, “Help a friend in need.”
Vera rolled her eyes, laughing along with them. “I’ll just write you a blank check, how about that?”
The three of them were still chuckling when Percy suddenly stepped forward, his face set in a tight, disapproving frown. “That’s enough!!!!” he said sharply, surprising them all.
His tone was uncharacteristically stern, and it caught Vera completely off guard.
“How many times have I told you not to do that!!” he continued, his voice clipped.
“Aw, come on, Percy,” Fred said, trying to lighten the mood. “It’s only Vera."
But Percy wasn’t having it.
“It’s still inappropriate,” he insisted, his gaze serious. “We’re not beggars.”
“Percy, it’s fine, really,” Vera said with a reassuring smile. “I know they’re just messing around. It’s not a big deal.”
Percy looked at her, his expression softening just a little. “I just don’t want them to give the wrong impression,” he said, more to his brothers than to her. "We have enough money for the four of us, and more."
Fred raised an eyebrow. "We do?"
"We don't need help from anyone." Percy continued. "Especially not you, Vera. No offense."
Vera blinked in surprise, her mouth slightly agape as she looked at him. She had never seen him this serious, this protective.
Fred and George exchanged a sheepish glance, clearly not expecting to be called out so harshly. They both mumbled something resembling an apology, before resuming their teasing.
“I still can’t believe it,” Fred said, shaking his head in mock disbelief. “Off to Hogsmeade early.”
“Connections, brother,” George added with a wink.
“I promise, I have no clue why I’m going!”
George smirked. “Sure, just don’t have too much fun without us.”
She grinned, feeling her spirits lift. “I’ll do my best.”
As they reached the carriages, she couldn’t shake her sense of disbelief. “Percy, are you sure this isn’t a mistake?” she asked, still reeling from the unexpected turn of events.
“Professor McGonagall’s orders,” Percy replied with a shrug. “She said you’re to accompany us today. No explanation given.”
As they made their way to the carriages, her confusion began to give way to excitement.
“Professor,” Percy called out as they approached McGonagall, who was already seated in one of the carriages, “Vera’s here.”
“Very well,” McGonagall said, eyeing her up and down. “Is this really what you’re wearing, Miss Black?”
Vera glanced down at her overalls, feeling a blush of embarrassment creep up. “Um, I wasn’t aware I’d be going, ma’am.”
“It’s fine,” McGonagall replied with a small smile. “Just wanted you to be your best today.”
She could feel her heart pounding. “Um, why?”
“There’s no time for explanations,” Professor McGonagall said briskly. “The carriages are about to leave.”
“Lovely day, Minerva,” Professor Flitwick’s cheerful voice cut in as he joined her on the carriage. “Although, I suspect we might see some rain.”
“It seems so,” McGonagall replied with a hint of disappointment.
Vera glanced up at the sky, where grey clouds were thickening and the sun was obscured. Raindrops began to fall, and she brushed them away with her gloves.
Soon, the carriages started to move, their covers lifting to shield the students from the downpour.
“Mr. Weasley,” Professor McGonagall said, “I entrust you with her until we arrive.”
“Of course, Professor,” Percy replied, gesturing for Vera to follow him toward one of the carriages.
Despite her initial worries, she decided to embrace the unexpected opportunity and enjoy the adventure. With a mix of excitement and confusion, she climbed into the carriage, her grin faltering as she came face to face with Felix.
“Well, hello there,” he said with a warm smile, clearly surprised to see her.
Her heart skipped a beat when their eyes met, vivid memories of her dream with him flooding back.
“Yes,” she stammered, her nerves getting the better of her. “Oh, I-I mean, um, hello.”
He chuckled, picking up on her unease. “What are you doing here?”
“Um, I’m coming along,” she managed, as she settled into the seat opposite him.
His eyes brightened with genuine interest. “That’s exciting.”
She giggled nervously. "Yeah,"
“Black!” Oliver suddenly chimed in and sat beside her. “What on earth are you doing here?”
“She’s coming with us,” Felix replied, still smiling.
“Why?” Oliver asked, taking a large bite of his sandwich.
She shrugged, “I’ve got no idea.”
“Well,” Oliver said with a mouthful, “welcome aboard. First time in Hogsmeade?”
“Aha,” she nodded, still feeling nervous about being so close to Felix after the dream. She tried to avert her gaze as much as possible, though he kept glancing at her.
“Remember our first time, Bobbin?” Oliver turned to him. “We got lost three times.”
“Four,” Felix corrected with a grin.
Percy soon joined them, settling beside him, and the carriage began its journey.
Vera gazed out the window, her whole body trembling with excitement. Her eyes brightened as she took in the scenery, but she couldn’t ignore the feeling of Felix’s gaze on her, and she wondered if he was still thinking about their hug from the night before.
After their embrace, he had swiftly said goodnight and walked away, likely concerned about being seen.
She stood there for a moment, contemplating the wave of emotions that had engulfed her. She couldn’t quite believe that, of all people at Hogwarts, her heart had chosen him—the one boy she couldn’t be with.
She quickly shook off these thoughts, trying to dismiss them as mere distractions. Perhaps her heart was mistaken. She couldn’t have feelings for him. She simply couldn’t.
As she glanced back at him, taking in his light cashmere sweater, tailored chinos, and pristine loafers, she felt a pang of self-doubt. His hands, adorned with a silver ring on his index finger and a sleek wristwatch, highlighted his posh appearance.
Her eyes then fell to her own outfit—worn overalls that starkly contrasted with his affluence, making her acutely aware of her own poverty.
Even if she weren’t a Black, she’d still be out of his league.
She clutched her bag tightly, trying to hide the stains on her overalls, and pulled her legs closer to conceal her scuffed Converse. The disparity between them seemed insurmountable, and the thought made her heart ache even more.
Desperate to regain composure, she quickly turned her gaze back to the window, trying to distance herself from the overwhelming feelings.
However, as her focus shifted to ponder the possible reasons for her trip to Hogsmeade, she felt a playful pressure on her feet.
Looking down, she saw Felix stepping on the tips of her shoes, his mischievous grin inviting her to join in the fun.
She chuckled softly, meeting his gaze before pulling her foot away and stepping on his shoes in return.
As she pressed down, he tried to pull his foot away, and their eyes locked in shared laughter. With a gentle nudge, he began to lift her foot, aligning the sole of his shoe with hers.
“Tiny feet.” He whispered.
“Giant,” she whispered back, and they both chuckled softly.
At this point, she could feel her heartbeat pounding in her ears, unable to stop the smile spreading across her face.
However, her joy was interrupted when she noticed Percy watching them with a peculiar expression.
He glanced from their feet to their faces, his look growing increasingly disapproving.
Feeling uneasy under his scrutiny, she quickly pulled her foot away from Felix’s, who remained blissfully unaware of his friend’s glare.
"So," she cleared her throat, trying to break the tension, "what are your favorite shops in Hogsmeade?"
"Spintwitches, hands down," Oliver said with enthusiasm. "It's where I get all my Quidditch gear. Best shop in town." He paused, a sheepish grin spreading across his face. "And I can't resist The Three Broomsticks for a nice butterbeer."
"Sure, it's the butterbeer," Felix interjected, his eyes gleaming with mischief. "Not the fact you fancy Madam Rosmerta."
Oliver's face reddened slightly, but he chuckled. "Can you blame me? She’s a bonnie lass."
Vera arched an eyebrow. “I’m surprised you have a heart, Olly. I thought Quidditch had replaced it entirely."
Felix burst into laughter. "She's got you there, mate!"
Oliver blushed. “There’s always some room."
Felix leaned in, smiling warmly. "My favorite is Tomes and Scrolls. It’s a bookshop, and I get all my books there, even some of my Muggle ones. You should visit it first."
"Mint!" she exclaimed. "I'll do that."
"And perhaps we can meet there?" he suggested. "I’ll make sure no one else is there besides us."
She blushed. "I’d love that."
They locked eyes for a moment, but then she turned to Percy, who was lost in thought, staring out the window.
“What about you, Perce?” she asked.
He continued to stare out the window, seemingly oblivious to her question. His disapproving expression remained fixed as he watched the scene outside, adding to the palpable tension in the carriage.
Noticing his distraction, Felix stepped in, “Percy’s favorite is Rosa Lee’s.”
Oliver snorted. “Yeah, but we never let him go. It’s proper boring.”
“It’s a teashop,” Felix elaborated. “A rather fancy one, actually,”
She turned back to Percy, intrigued. “You like fancy places?”
However, he remained silent, his eyes still on the scenery outside.
“I do,” she continued, trying to draw him out. “I’d love to visit Rosa Lee’s. Perhaps we could go together if these lot aren’t interested?”
At her words, he finally turned to her, a faint smile playing on his lips. For a moment, it seemed as though he might respond, but then he simply nodded slightly before returning his gaze to the window.
Although she tried to brush it off, she couldn't help questioning the reason behind his sudden behavior.
Felix and Oliver exchanged glances, but remained silent.
The carriages finally rolled to a stop, and Vera stepped out to find herself utterly mesmerized by the village.
Felix stepped away as soon as they arrived, leaving her with a peculiar level of disappointment. However, before she could process her emotions, she heard Professor McGonagall calling her name.
Hurrying over, her curiosity and anxiety bubbled up as they began walking through the village. She marveled at the enchanting storefronts and the bustling crowd of witches and wizards, her eyes wide with wonder.
“Professor, why am I here?” she finally asked, unable to contain her curiosity any longer.
“All in good time, Miss Black,” McGonagall replied with a hint of a smile. “Patience.”
They continued walking, their footsteps echoing softly on the cobblestone streets.
The village was alive with the sounds of bustling activity, but Vera’s mind was focused on the mystery ahead.
The quaint tavern with a swinging sign that read "The Three Broomsticks" came into view, its windows glowing warmly in the dim light. As they stepped inside, the warmth of the place enveloped them, and a friendly witch with rosy cheeks and bright eyes greeted them at the door.
“Ah, Minerva! It’s good to see you,” she said warmly, her eyes twinkling with recognition. Then she glanced at Vera, her voice dropping to a whisper. “Is this her?”
“Yes,” McGonagall said with a gentle nudge. “Vera, this is Madam Rosmerta,”
Bonnie lass, indeed, Vera thought.
“Pleasure to meet you, Vera,” Rosmerta said with a kind smile, “Come, follow me.”
They followed her through the bustling tavern, weaving between tables filled with chatting witches and wizards.
“Has she arrived?” McGonagall leaned in as they approached a winding staircase at the back.
“Yes, she’s already here,” Rosmerta responded.
Vera’s heart raced as they ascended the narrow staircase, each step echoing ominously in the dimly lit corridor. The warm buzz of the tavern below faded, replaced by a tense silence that seemed to thicken the air.
Rosmerta led them to a heavy wooden door at the end of the hallway, pausing with a hand on the brass handle.
“Go on, Vera,” McGonagall encouraged. “Don’t be afraid.”
With a creak, Rosmerta pushed open the door, revealing a cozy room bathed in soft glow. The furnishings were plush and inviting, and a large window allowed the daylight to cast long shadows across the floor.
In front of it stood a woman, her silhouette sharp against the gentle light.
“Merci, Minerva,” the woman said, “I hope this was no trouble for you.”
“Not at all,” McGonagall replied, a smile playing at her lips.
The woman stepped forward, and Vera’s breath caught in her throat.
Her skin was pale, and dark wavy hair cascaded over her shoulders.
She wore a striking red coat that matched her beret, giving her an air of bold elegance.
Her makeup was flawlessly applied, with deep red lipstick and piercing blue eyes accentuated by subtle eyeliner.
She appeared to be in her late 40s or early 50s, her stern yet graceful expression highlighting her strong features.
“Vera, this is Madam Josephine Fletcher,” McGonagall leaned in close, “She wishes to speak with you.”
"Hello, Vera," Josephine said, her rich French accent flowing like silk.
Vera instinctively stepped back, confusion and fear swirling within her as she looked to her professor, silently begging for an explanation.
“If you need anything, we’ll be downstairs,” McGonagall then assured gently, before she and Rosmerta slipped out, leaving Vera alone with the stranger.
The room fell into a hushed silence as they stood motionless for few moments. Josephine then approached cautiously, her movements tentative, as if fearful of breaking the fragile stillness.
She paused, her eyes scanning the young girl’s face, before suddenly bursting into tears.
“Je suis désolée,” she said, her voice breaking, “I swore not to get too emotional, but seeing you all grown up… I can’t help it.”
Vera was gripped with fear, her heart pounding as she tried to make sense of the situation.
Josephine took a shaky breath, her hands trembling as she reached out but stopped short of touching her.
“I’ve thought about this moment for so long,” she said. “How I would find the words to tell you… But there are no words that can make up for the lost years.”
Tears streamed down her cheeks, her makeup smudging as she struggled to maintain composure, and Vera's mind raced, her thoughts a whirlwind of confusion and dread.
The woman's presence was overwhelming, a flood of emotions crashing over her in waves.
“Who... who are you?” she whispered.
Josephine remained silent, her gaze falling on the wand sticking out of the overalls pocket.
“I’m glad to know it reached you,” she said with a warm smile.
Vera followed her gaze to find her staring at the gem, confusion narrowing her eyes until realization struck like a lightning bolt.
“It was y-you?” she stammered. “You sent it?”
“I must apologize for never writing to explain. I never quite knew what to say.”
Vera's body was paralyzed with shock.
The gem, the paintings, the music box—had all come from this woman standing before her.
“But who are you?” she asked again.
“Please,” Josephine said, motioning to a cozy armchair by the fireplace. “Sit down, and I’ll try my best to explain.”
As Vera took her seat, Josephine moved gracefully to a small table, then began to pour tea into two delicate china cups.
“I wanted to send them last year,” she said, her hands trembling slightly as she picked up the teapot, “but I could never summon the courage.”
Each movement was slow and precise, the tea pouring ritualistically, adding to Vera’s growing sense of unease. She couldn’t help but notice the lack of magic in the process, which struck her as oddly deliberate.
“I wanted to explain everything before you started Hogwarts,” Josephine continued, handing her a cup of tea. “But I felt too guilty, and I knew you would never forgive me.”
“Forgive you for what?”
Josephine sighed deeply, her eyes filled with a mixture of sorrow and love as she stared at Vera’s confused face. “Oh, mon amour,” she murmured. “You might have your father’s looks, but when I look at you, all I can think of is her.”
Vera’s heart dropped, a cold dread settling in her stomach.
“My beautiful rose,” Josephine continued softly, “My Sophie.”
This can’t be real, Vera thought. This must be a dream.
“You… you knew my mum?” she managed to say, though her breathing was becoming harder.
“Knew her?” Josephine echoed, a soft, sad laugh escaping her lips. “I raised her, darling. I was her governess for eleven years.”
The room seemed to close in around Vera, the walls pressing in as her world tilted on its axis.
Josephine’s grip on her tea cup tightened, her knuckles turning white. “I’ve spent every day waiting to see you again, longing to explain. You deserve to know the truth, Vera. You deserve to know everything.”
“You knew my mum…” Vera repeated, unable to believe it still.
“She was the light of my life, the sun shining through the darkest of clouds. A rose born among thorns. But she was strong, and fierce, and from what Minerva told me, you’re just the same,”
“I-I don’t understand,” Vera stammered, tears welling in her eyes. “I don’t understand anything.”
“I will tell you, mon amour, I will tell you everything.”
Taking a deep breath, she began to recount the story, her voice trembling with emotion. “I was only twenty-three years old when I arrived at Rosier Manor in Lysveil. Oh, it was a breathtaking castle, the largest in all of France. It was known for its gardens, which were a riot of colors, with flowers that sang softly in the breeze and bushes that glowed with a soft, internal light. The magic of the place was unlike anything I had ever seen, and I was thrilled to be there, thinking the Rosiers must be different if they hired someone like me. But I was wrong, Vera. So very wrong.”
Vera leaned forward, her heart pounding, as Josephine continued.
“I was first brought in to be a maid. But then, the Rosiers found out that I am educated, which was quite rare for someone of my nature, and gave me the chance to be Sophie’s governess when she turned four. Aurelius, your grandfather, was a good man but weak in both character and body. He passed away when Sophie was only five, leaving his wife, Helena, to rule the manor. She was a bitter woman, consumed by vanity and ambition. She loved only herself and her eldest son, Reynard. The other maids whispered stories about her—how she refused to hold her own daughter at birth, how she wouldn’t even feed Sophie. Instead, she locked her away in the opposite wing of the castle, unable to look her in the eyes. I never understood why. Sophie was a brilliant girl with a beautiful soul. But Helena hated her. It was as if Sophie was invisible to her, a ghost wandering the halls of that manor. I was there to be her maid and governess, but I became so much more. I raised her, taught her to read and write, to play the pianoforte, and to dance. When she would leave for school, my heart felt incomplete, stretching my days into an endless longing. I tried to compensate for her father’s absence and her mother’s neglect، and she loved me… she loved me despite what I am” She then lowered her head, as if it was too shameful to admit, “You see, Vera, like every other maid in that manor, I am a squib.”
Vera’s eyes widened in shock as she processed this revelation.
She realized why Felix had asked if Miss Nelson was a squib, or what Professor Morales meant about the Rosier family being seen as progressive.
They hired maids instead of house-elves, but those maids were all… squibs.
“But Sophie loved us regardless,” Josephine continued. “She never saw us as any less. She was a bright girl, kind and talented. Like you, she loved arts and taught herself to paint. Muggle paintings captivated her in a way magical art never could, and she spent all of her summers in front of a canvas. Her mother and brother disapproved of her hobby, naturally. They considered Muggle art inferior, a waste of time for someone with magical talents, and would constantly punish her for it.”
Vera's eyes shimmered with unshed tears as she listened. Awe and admiration welled up within her, mingling with a profound sadness and guilt.
In her mind, her mother had always been an evil purist, but now, as the truth unfolds before her, she can't help but feel a glimmer of hope.
“But Sophie was determined to follow her passion.” Josephine continued, a sad smile playing on her lips, “One day, she discovered a forgotten room, hidden in the attic of the Manor. She claimed it as her sanctuary, and concealed its entrance by a spell she crafted herself, making the door invisible to anyone who wasn't her or me. By day, she would perform her usual duties as a daughter and sister, but when night comes, she would slip away to her hidden studio. And when she wasn't in there, she would sneak out of the manor to the Louvre or d'Orsay. Sometimes I would accompany her, and we would spend hours staring at the masterpieces.”
She paused, lost in memories of her time with Sophie, and took a small, reflective sip of her tea.
Vera’s cup had grown cold, untouched in her hands, as she sat in stunned silence.
She could hardly believe she was finally learning about her mother—a woman who had been nothing more than a distant figure for so many years.
“What kind of paintings did she like?” she asked, her tone filled with anticipation and longing.
Josephine smiled, “She loved ‘The Mona Lisa’, and Delacroix's, but it was Van Gogh who captured her heart most of all. For some reason, she felt a kinship with him. His sunflowers, in particular, enchanted her, and she tried to replicate them many time.”
“The paintings you sent me…” Vera whispered, starting to connect the dots.
“She made them,” Josephine said. “She created so many beautiful pieces, but the sunflower and Vinny were the only ones left with me.”
Vera shook her head in confusion, still unable to believe her ears. How could she dream of something she’s never seen before?
“Vinny is real?” she asked after a moment of silence.
“Real?” Josephine giggled. “Of course, he was real. That cat was her best friend until the very end. I remember when she found him wandering around the castle. She was twelve, I believe. Her brother tried to kill him out of spite, but she saved the poor thing. He did lose his ear, though. Reynard cut it off with cruelty.”
Vera was shocked. “But why! Why would he do that?”
“Helena again,” Josephine sighed. “She made sure Reynard grew up hating his own sister. I tried to protect her, but there was only so much I could do. Sophie endured so much, yet she remained resilient, always rising above the pain. When she married your father, I hoped she would find happiness and escape the darkness of her past. But life had other plans.”
Vera’s heart sank as she listened to Josephine’s words. She had always wondered about her mother’s past but never imagined it was filled with such pain and cruelty.
“She was forced to marry him,” she said, her voice was laced with anger, “to form a bloody alliance,”
Josephine nodded slowly. “Aurelius’s sister, Druella, proposed an alliance between the Blacks and the Rosiers, pledging to help ‘You Know Who’ take over by wedding her niece to the Black heir. Sophie tried to run away to escape the marriage, but Reynard went after her and locked her in her room until the day of the engagement. Naturally, I was blamed for her behavior.”
She took a deep breath, her voice quivering as she continued. “After Reynard threw me out, I was lost. I had spent so many years at Rosier Manor that it was all I knew. Without Sophie, my life felt like a hollow shell. I wandered through the streets of Lysveil, adrift and directionless, clinging to memories that only made the pain worse. But then I met Corlys, my husband. He was a kind and gentle man, a true anchor in the storm of my life. He brought me to England, offering me a new beginning. With him, I slowly began to rebuild my life, though the shadows of the past were never far behind. I remained secretly in contact with Sophie. She would write to me, sharing her life and the little joys and sorrows she encountered. She told me everything, including her engagement to your father. She was terrified, but she tried to stay brave. But as the years went by, our communication grew sparse. The war took its toll, and I could only watch from a distance as she faced her battles alone.”
Vera’s heart ached for her mother, imagining the horror of being forced into a marriage she didn’t want.
She thought of a young girl, trapped in a life she never wanted, forced to marry for the sake of alliances and family honor, and the cruelty and injustice of it all made her blood boil.
She placed the teacup on the table with a sharp clatter and stood up abruptly, her face flushed with anger and pain.
Her breaths came in quick, ragged bursts as she paced back and forth, her footsteps echoing her inner turmoil.
“This is bloody mental!” her voice trembled, not just with anger but with a raw, consuming hurt. “My mum—she was robbed, wasn’t she? They stole her life, her chance to find real happiness, to feel loved like she deserved. They treated her like a toy, like her feelings didn’t matter at all. How could they do that to her?”
Her voice broke, tears glistening in her eyes as she choked on her words. “And my dad—how could he just throw her dreams, her whole life, away like that? Like she was nothing to him?”
“He was bound by forces beyond his control, but he lov—”
“‘Bound by forces?’” Vera cut in sharply, her voice laced with bitterness. “He destroyed her! She was just a girl, barely older than me!”
Her anger surged, but it was fleeting, leaving behind a deep, aching sorrow.
She sank into her seat, her shoulders slumping under the weight of her grief. “Then what am I?” she whispered, her voice barely audible. “Am I just the result of their hate? A living reminder of something they both regret?”
“No, Vera,” Josephine said firmly, wrapping her arms around the young girl's trembling shoulders. “You are so much more than that.”
Vera’s eyes searched Josephine’s face, desperate for answers. “I’ve always felt different,” she confessed, her voice shaking. “I’ve always known I didn’t belong. And now, hearing this, it feels like I’m nothing more than a mistake.”
Josephine shook her head gently, her voice soft but steady. “You are not a mistake, mon amour. You are a symbol of hope, of love. Your parents may have been forced together, but their love for you was real.”
Vera’s voice quivered as she spoke, the words heavy with doubt. “But they hated each other...”
“Oh no,” Josephine whispered, cradling her face. “You’ve misunderstood, mon amour. Your parents didn’t hate each other. They were in love.”
Chapter 47: The Sun & The Moon
Chapter Text
“Sophie and Reggie loved each other,” Josephine whispered, her words heavy with a truth that Vera had longed to hear but never dared to hope for.
Vera's eyes widened, a tempest of shock and anger flashing across her face. The revelation hung in the air, reshaping the narrative of her life in ways she could scarcely comprehend.
She abruptly pulled away from Josephine’s hands and stood up, her emotions churning violently within her.
“In lo-love?” she stammered, her voice rising in disbelief. “My parents were in love?”
Josephine nodded, a faint, wistful smile touching her lips.
“But you said they were forced to marry!” Vera shouted.
“They were."
“Then how were they in love?”
“At first, they did hate each other. Sophie resented the forced engagement, and Reggie was bitter about being used as a pawn. But over time, they began to see past their circumstances.”
“That doesn’t make any sense,” Vera said, shaking her head in denial. “You told me my mother was good and kind—that she wasn’t like her family—that she loved you and didn’t mind Muggles. You said she liked Van Gogh—wasn’t he a Muggle?”
“And it’s all true,”
“Then how?” Vera’s voice broke, her frustration spilling over. “How could she fall in love with a bloody Death Eater?”
“He wasn’t a Death Eater then—”
“He was a purist who always stood for darkness and even died for it! He harmed innocent people, and now you’re telling me that my mother was in love with him? That he—he loved her too?”
“Please, Vera,” Josephine pleaded, her heart aching for the girl in front of her, but Vera was beyond comfort, pacing the room in a frenzy of emotion.
“I don’t know about you, Madam Fletcher, but I would never fall in love with someone who stands against everything I believe in!"
“I was surprised myself, Vera. When it all happened, I was here in England, far from her. Sophie would write to me, telling me how much she despised him, and then, one day, out of the blue, she writes to say she loves hi—"
“He bewitched her! A love potion or worse. That’s the only explanation!"
“Reggie would never do that,”
“He was a terrorist! A bloody terrorist! And now you’re telling me she loved him? How could that kind of love even be real?”
“It was a complex relationship, mon amour. Their love was not born from perfection, but it was certainly real. And you are the living proof of it.”
Vera took a deep breath, her mind racing as she tried to piece together the shattered fragments of her parents’ story.
Slowly, she sat back down, her voice breaking with desperation. “You said you’re here to tell me the truth, madam. So please just tell me everything! Start from the very beginning. I BEG YOU!"
Josephine hesitated, a shadow of pain crossing her face. “I wasn’t there when it all happened, dear.”
“Then tell me how they met!"
“They always knew each other,” Josephine replied gently. “They would meet during family dinners or ceremonies."
Vera shook her head. "Wait, family dinners?"
"You see, mon amour, your great-aunt Druella Rosier is married to your great-uncle Cygnus Black.”
Vera’s eyebrows shot up in shock. “what? Doesn’t that mean my parents are related?”
“By marriage, yes."
Vera’s mouth fell open in shock. "Blimey..."
"Every summer, they would meet at the Black’s château in the south of France. It was all part of Druella’s plan.”
"Plan? What plan?”
“To wed Sophie to one of her husband’s nephews."
“But why?” Vera asked, her confusion deepening. “What was in it for her?”
Josephine sighed and leaned back, her expression thoughtful. “From what I gathered from Sophie and a few whispers here and there, Druella still harbored resentment. She was bitter about how her husband’s family disapproved of her in the beginning, so she sought revenge in her own way.”
“But why would they disapprove of her? I mean, aren't the Rosiers the most noble house in France?”
"They are, but the Blacks at that time were obsessed with strengthening their lineage by producing male heirs—something they believed Druella could never provide.”
“What do you mean?”
Josephine hesitated, her fingers tightening around her teacup. She took a slow sip, clearing her throat as she prepared to explain.
“The Eve curse,” she finally said, her voice low and ominous.
The words seemed to hang in the air, dark and foreboding, sending a chill down Vera’s spine.
She leaned forward, her heart pounding with dread. “What… what is that?”
“It’s an ancient curse that has haunted the women in the Rosier family for centuries. It dooms them to only give birth to daughters, never sons. Whether this story is true or not, no one really knows. But for many years, the women on your mother’s side of the family only gave birth to girls, never boys. Druella was no exception.”
Vera sat in stunned silence, her mind reeling from the weight of this new revelation.
The Eve curse—another dark secret woven into the fabric of her bloodline.
As the truth began to unravel, she realized that the tangled history of her family was far more twisted than she had ever imagined.
“But who cursed them?” she finally whispered.
“A bitter witch, I assume. Someone who was jealous of them. You see, darling, the Rosiers are known around the wizarding world for two things: their gem mines and their captivating beauty.”
Vera leaned back, her thoughts racing. “I never knew any of this,” she murmured, trying to digest the implications of this revelation.
After a moment of silence, she shook her head in confusion. “So, Druella wanted revenge for the Black family's disapproval of her by making my mum marry one of them?”
“It was more about ensuring that Sophie would carry the Black heir, whether it was a boy or a girl. You see, Mon amour, the crow king held most of the power in the family, but it was his cousin Arcturus who inherited the wealth. When he died, everything passed to his son Orion, and then to Orion’s son, Sirius.”
“But she didn’t marry Sirius,” Vera pointed out, her confusion deepening. “She married my dad.”
“Druella’s initial proposal was for Sophie to marry Sirius, and Sophie didn’t mind the idea at all.”
“WHAT?” Vera exclaimed, her voice rising in disbelief. “She didn’t mind marrying Sirius?”
“At the time, Sophie was indifferent to the idea. Your uncle Sirius was charming, rebellious, and not nearly as deeply entrenched in the family’s dark traditions. But fate had other plans.”
Vera's mind raced as she tried to reconcile this new information with what she had always believed.
“She was quite fond of him, actually,” Josephine added, her voice softening with the memory. “Sirius was different from his brother—more eccentric. When he and Sophie met at his uncle’s château, they would get along very well, sometimes too well," she added with a soft chuckle. "They were kindred spirits, to say the least. Sirius used to call her his 'Summer friend', and she would call him her 'Loyal Dog', though I never understood why. Oh, Vera... The two were inseparable, spending most of their days playing or exploring Muggle France in secret.”
“But what about my dad? Wasn’t he with them?”
“I was never allowed to accompany Sophie on her trips to the chateau,” Josephine explained, a hint of bitterness creeping into her voice. “Druella might have been accepting of my kind, but her husband certainly wasn’t. From what Sophie would tell me, Reggie kept to himself most of the time. She said he preferred solitude, often locked away in his room or swimming alone in the lake. He didn’t share the same interests as her and Sirius. He was even... Disgusted by their friendship."
Despite everything, Vera couldn't help but feel a twinge of sadness for her father, having spent most of her childhood in solitude as well.
"So, he was always alone?" She asked.
"Most of the time, yes. But occasionally, he would receive visits from Sophie’s cousin... What was his name again? Ah, Evan, I believe. He was around the same age as Reggie, and the two got along quite well."
Vera’s brow furrowed as she tried to piece everything together. “But wasn’t my uncle considered bad too? He killed thirteen Muggles, didn’t he?”
“It was indeed a shock to me. Sirius never seemed like such a terrible person. He was always more rebellious, but I never thought he was capable of such cruelty. But I guess in the end, the darkness of their world caught up with them all.”
“So, if my mom was meant to marry him, how did she end up with my dad?”
“The curse again,” Josephine sighed, “The Black family refused Druella’s proposal to betroth Sirius to a Rosier girl, fearing she wouldn’t provide him with male heirs. They were obsessed with the idea of their name living on, especially after they felt Cygnus had wasted it on three daughters and with his brother, Alphard, not being able to have children. But then, when the war grew more intense and they needed all the help they could get, they agreed to betroth Sophie and Reggie to strengthen the party. It didn’t matter to them that Sophie was supposedly cursed. After all, Reggie was nothing more than the second son—the spare.”
Vera’s heart ached at the cold, calculated nature of it all. “And Mum would write to you,” she said, “telling you that she hates him?”
Josephine nodded, her gaze distant as if recalling those painful letters. “Yes.”
“And then, one day, she tells you that she loves him?”
“Yes,”
“That’s impossible,” Vera whispered, shaking her head as if trying to dispel the notion. “How could she go from hating to loving him?”
“My dear, your father wasn’t that horrible of a person. He loved her. He sacrificed so much for her.”
"Sacrifice?”
Josephine hesitated, her expression grave as she prepared to share a painful truth. “You see, mon amour,” she began softly, “after his brother was disowned, your father became the heir to the Black family, and the first thing they did was break off his engagement to Sophie, all because of the rumored curse. He was finally important to them, and had to be protected in every way."
Vera's eyes widened in disbelief. “So, they were forced to marry when they hated each other, and then forced to separate when they loved each other?”
“A tragic turn of fate,” Josephine sighed. “It shattered Reggie. The breakup dimmed something inside him, leaving him darker and more bitter than before.”
Vera couldn't care less.
“But mum, what happened to Mum?”
“Oh, Sophie was heartbroken. The end of their engagement crushed her, and your uncle Reynard took it very hard as well. His resentment towards the Black family—and his sister—only grew. He withdrew her from Beauxbatons as punishment, and kept her confined to the castle, isolating her from the world. But Sophie didn’t surrender. She stayed loyal to Reggie, and he to her. They found secret ways to meet—at the Louvre, and sometimes at their aunt and uncle’s chateau. Druella was still determined to see them together, and did everything she could to shield them from her husband’s family. Only a few knew they were still in touch, including me.”
“She really went through all of that for him?”
Josephine nodded, her gaze heavy with sorrow. “Yes, she did. For a while, I heard nothing from her, and then…”
“Then what?” Vera pressed, her voice trembling with anticipation.
“The news about your father broke, and the entire wizarding world was stunned. The Black family, though always behind every tragedy, had never been caught in the act themselves. They never got their own hands dirty. But after losing Rosier support, the party weakened. So, they saw an opportunity. If they could turn Reggie, the heir to the most powerful pureblood family, into a Death Eater, they believed others would follow.”
Vera’s eyes widened in horror. “How old was he when it happened?”
“Sixteen,” Josephine replied, and Vera’s shock deepened. “I read in the newspapers that Hogwarts expelled him, that he was disgraced. I waited for Sophie to write to me, to say she had had enough of him, but there was nothing. Then, one day, I received a letter from her. It was brief, mentioning Reynard's increasing control and their constant fighting. She said he refused to let her return to school, so she had to leave. She didn’t tell me where she was, but I knew she was with your father.”
“How did you know?”
“Because the letter wasn’t delivered by an owl, but by a crow.”
Vera’s heart dropped.
“It broke my heart to know she was still with him." Josephine carried on. "But I knew Sophie. I trusted her. Snd I had faith in her strength and her love for your father. And I was right. A few weeks later, I received another letter from her, simply urging me to run away.”
Vera’s breath caught in her throat. "From what?"
“She sensed the worsening danger, and wanted to protect me, to ensure my safety. Even as her own world was crumbling, Sophie was thinking of others. The war was escalating, and the world was becoming darker for people like me and Corlys, who is Muggle-born. A few months later, ‘You-Know-Who’ won, and darkness engulfed the wizarding world. Corlys and I were forced to move constantly, always looking over our shoulders. We couldn’t escape to France, and even the Muggle world wasn’t safe anymore. Eventually, we found a small flat in London. Corlys placed a protective charm over it, but we had no idea if it would be enough. We were running out of food, and the rent kept piling up. We were trapped.”
Vera’s heart ached as she listened to Josephine’s story, the weight of their fear and desperation pressing heavily on her.
“One stormy night in March, there was a knock at our door. We were terrified, and Corlys readied his wand, expecting the worst. When we opened it, we saw Reggie standing there, cradling Vinny in one arm and holding a suitcase in the other. Corlys was ready to defend us, but then we saw Sophie behind him. She was just as beautiful as I remembered, maybe even more so, but there was something different about her.”
Then, Josephine’s lips curled into a soft smile. “She was pregnant with you.”
A rush of warmth surged through Vera, mingling surprise and emotion as she stared at Josephine, her heart pounding.
“Reggie was different too,” Josephine continued, her voice faltering. “He was in his Death Eater suit, his face smeared with blood that wasn’t his own. Sophie was trembling, unable to speak. Corlys was wary, wand raised, but Reggie seemed unbothered. He inspected our flat, checked the pantries and the fireplace, then ordered us to pack our belongings and get dressed. We did what he asked, out of fear if nothing else. Reggie might have been young, but his reputation for ruthlessness preceded him. We stepped outside to find a carriage waiting. As we traveled, he explained that Corlys and I were on a list.” Her voice then dropped to a near whisper. “A list of those to be executed.”
Vera gasped, her hands flying to her mouth as horror washed over her. “They were going to kill you?!!!!”
Josephine nodded, “But Reggie promised to protect us, to help us survive. In return, he asked that we protect Sophie.”
“Protect her from what?”
“From both their families. Neither side knew she was pregnant or that she was with Reggie. If the Black family had discovered he was going to have a daughter with her, it would have been disastrous. And Reynard… well, he’s Reynard.”
“So no one knew about me?”
“Not then, no,”
“But did my dad keep his promise? Did he protect you?”
“He did more than that,” Josephine said, her eyes softening. “He took us to a beautiful house he had charmed to remain hidden and safe. It was warm and spacious, with a lovely garden. And... It was right next to a beach. He assured us he would bring us food and anything else we needed, and that if Sophie delivered the baby safely, he would do everything in his power to remove our names from the list.”
“But he was only doing that because he wanted your help to take care of Mum and me, not because he was kind.”
“Maybe,” Josephine conceded, “but if it weren’t for him, Corlys and I would have been dead.”
Vera’s eyes widened, her heart pounding in her chest as the weight of Josephine’s words settled over her.
"Then... What happened?" She asked.
“We stayed in the safe house, shielded from the chaos outside. Corlys managed to get the radio working occasionally, and we listened to the grim updates from both our world and the Muggle one. Reggie visited us every week, bringing food and remedies, but with each visit, he looked more exhausted and worn down. He seemed to age ten years in those few months.”
“Tired from all the killing…” Vera murmured, her voice tinged with bitterness.
Josephine's grip tightened. “Vera, I know it’s hard, but—”
“He could have stopped being a Death Eater and stayed with you! But I guess he... I guess he liked it.”
“I’m sure that’s not true. It was a complex situation, mon amour. He did everything he could to protect you and Sophie.”
“Protect me by killing others…”
Josephine quickly moved closer, wrapping her arms around her shoulders. “Oh, Vera, your father was trapped in a terrible situation. He was trying his best, even if it meant making unimaginable choices.”
“What happened then?” Vera's voice trembled, muffled against Josephine's shoulder, as if she were trying to cling to the remnants of her shattered past.
“Then, my dear...” Josephine smiled softly, brushing back a strand of her hair, “you were born.”
“In the house! Mum had me in that house?”
“Yes, but I was there to help her, and so was Corlys.”
She swallowed. “But... was she hurt?”
“She was in a lot of pain, but she was so strong, dear, so incredibly brave.”
“And Dad... was he there when it happened?”
Josephine's expression dimmed. “No, he wasn’t. But the moment he heard, he rushed to you."
“He wasn’t there...” Vera repeated, disappointment seeping into her voice like a wound reopening.
“But when he held you for the first time, Vera, he was so overcome with joy, and even cried.”
“Cried?” Vera echoed, as if the idea was too strange to be true. “He cried?”
“He couldn’t bear to let you go, not even when you cried out for milk.”
Vera's gaze dropped to her hands, a lump forming in her throat. “Did he... Did he love me, Madam Fletcher?"
“Of course he did!” Josephine exclaimed, her heart aching at the doubt in Vera’s voice. “They both did.”
“Then why didn’t they stay for me?” Vera's voice cracked as tears welled up, spilling over the edge of her control. “Why aren’t they here?”
“Oh, mon amour...”
“Why aren’t they here if they loved me? Why did they leave me in the Muggle world, to be raised by strangers? Why? Why!”
“They did it because they loved you! They wanted to keep you safe, away from the dangers that surrounded them.”
“By making me a bastard?”
“You are not a bastard! Don’t ever say that about yourself.”
“But I am...” Vera choked out, the tears now streaming down her face. “I was born out of marriage and given away. Most of the girls at St. Mary’s are like that... and I’m just the same.”
Josephine shook her head, “You are not the same, dear. Your parents loved you more than anything. They didn’t give you away. And they in fact were married when they had you.”
“W-what?”
“Reggie was determined to make you his heir,” Josephine explained gently. “He and Sophie got married three months before you were born.”
Vera’s disbelief was evident in her expression, her mind racing to catch up. “How? I mean, weren’t you all locked in that house?”
“We had the ceremony there... On the beach. It was beautiful, mon amour. Sophie made her own wedding gown, and Reggie brought golden necklaces instead of rings. It was just the five of us—Sophie, Reggie, myself, Corlys and Cygnus. He was still a lawyer back then, and Reggie trusted him to make it all official at the Ministry.”
Tears welled up in Vera’s eyes once more, but this time there was a spark of something else—hope.
“They got married,” she whispered, the words almost too fragile to speak.
“Yes,” Josephine confirmed, her voice warm. “On their seventeenth birthday.”
“Their?” Vera echoed, confused.
“Your parents were born on the same day, dear, June 1st, 1961. Sophie came into the world at dawn, and Reggie just after sunset. She always teased him about being the older one,” she added with a light chuckle.
Vera’s head shook, trying to piece it all together. “Wait... Today is June 1st!”
“That’s why I asked to see you today!"
“It’s their birthday…” Vera’s voice cracked, the realization crashing over her. “They would have been…”
“Thirty."
That was it.
Vera’s resolve crumbled, and before she knew it, she burst into tears, her sobs echoing through the room.
She clung to Josephine, her body shaking under the weight of her emotions. “I just... I wish I could’ve known them. I wish they were here...”
Josephine held her tightly, her voice a soft whisper. “I know, mon amour. I know. But they are with you, right here,” she said, placing a gentle hand over the young girl’s heart.
Vera's lip trembled, and Josephine pressed a kiss to her forehead. “Your parents, Vera… they wanted nothing more than to be with you. To watch you grow, to see you take your first steps. They dreamed of the day they’d walk you through the walls of Diagon Alley to buy your first wand, to see the wonder in your eyes as you walked to the Hogwarts express for the first time. They would have these funny little arguments, you know, about your future. Sophie wanted you to be an artist just like her, while your father had his heart set on teaching you how to fly. He’d talk about how you’d be the best Seeker Slytherin had ever seen, just like him.”
Vera looked up at her, a spark of curiosity in her tear-filled eyes. “He wanted me to be in Slytherin?”
“He wanted you to be the best at everything you did, no matter where that path led. But more than anything, he wanted you to be happy, and to feel loved. And so did your mother."
Vera sniffled again, wiping her tears with the back of her hand. “Tell me more about them,” she whispered, her voice fragile yet hopeful. “How were they with me?”
“They were wonderful with you!" Josephine’s voice brightened, as if recalling the happiest of memories. "Reggie would visit every week, without fail, and he’d always bring you toys and little trinkets he thought you’d like. The moment he saw you, he’d pick you up, and you’d cling to him as if he were the safest place in the world.”
Vera’s eyes softened, a faint smile breaking through her sadness. “I did?”
“You were inseparable from him, mon amour. Every time he came home, he’d carry you in his arms, and you never wanted him to let go. It’s funny—he was the only one who could get you to fall asleep. Not your cradle, not even your mother’s embrace—just him. You’d curl up, sucking on his thumb, and drift off so peacefully. He adored you, Vera. And you? You loved him more than anything. ‘Dada’ was your first word, and you’d say it over and over, always making Sophie a little jealous. He used to take you down to the beach by the house, and you’d spend hours playing in the water. Reggie loved the ocean—he’d always say he couldn’t wait to teach you how to swim. And when you were upset, he’d conjure these tiny, colorful butterflies to dance around you, and you’d calm right down, your laughter filling the air. He had such a gift for making you happy."
A small, sad laugh escaped Vera as she imagined the scene, a bittersweet picture forming in her mind. “I wish I could remember that.”
Josephine’s expression softened further, and she gently cupped Vera’s face. “Reggie was extremely smart and well-educated, you know. He wanted to nourish your mind from a young age, even though you were just a baby. He would read you books, sometimes even ones that were far too advanced for a child, just because he wanted you to hear his voice and be surrounded by knowledge. And once, he brought you the most adorable little book about magical creatures.”
She then reached into her bag and pulled out a small, worn book with a whimsical cover.
She handed it to Vera with a tender smile. “It was your favorite.”
Vera took the book, her fingers tracing the edges as she opened it. Inside, the pages were filled with vibrant illustrations of all sorts of magical creatures, each with a small description in neat handwriting.
As she flipped through the pages, her eyes widened in disbelief. The pictures felt strangely familiar, as if she had seen them somewhere before.
Her breath caught as she reached for her own bag, pulling out her sketchbook.
She quickly turned to the first few pages, where she had drawn dragons, mermaids, elves, and more.
With shaking hands, she compared the sketches in her book to those in the one Josephine had given her.
They were exactly the same—down to the smallest detail.
“Your mother was just as devoted,” Josephine continued, pulling her out of her reverie. “She refused to sleep, fearing you’d wake up in the middle of the night and need her. She wanted to be there for you every moment, ready to soothe your cries or just watch you sleep. She loved to brush your hair, and would make you tiaras from the garden’s roses. She spoiled you so much, and would cry if you were ever in pain.”
“She sounds amazing,” Vera whispered, her heart swelling with love for the mother she barely knew.
"She was," Josephine agreed with a painful smile. "She might have been young but she was a wonderful mother. Every night, she would cradle you in her arms, singing softly until you fell asleep. The music box I sent you was a gift from her own father, and she passed it down to you. She would play it for you every night, and even wrote you a special song to its tune, though I'm afraid the words have slipped from my memory."
Vera’s heart skipped a beat as a sudden realization dawned on her.
She glanced at Josephine, skepticism clouding her eyes, her heart pounding against her ribcage. “Madam Fletcher,” she cleared her throat, trying to steady the tremble in her voice, “Was my mom blonde?”
Josephine nodded gently. “She was.”
Vera swallowed hard, her pulse quickening, “And... did she have hazel eyes?”
Josephine’s smile was tender, yet tinged with a hint of confusion. “Yes, she did,” she replied softly.
"And a... Small nose?"
"Um, yes..."
Vera blinked rapidly, trying to calm the storm brewing inside her.
It can’t be possible, she thought, her mind racing through fragments of memories she barely understood.
The woman in her dreams, the lullaby… it can’t be real. It simply can’t.
Sensing her troubled expression, and the depth of emotion behind her questions, Josephine hesitated for a moment. Then, with a knowing look, she reached into her bag and pulled out a small, worn box.
“Vera,” she said gently, holding the box out to her. “I brought you something.”
Vera’s curiosity slowly morphed into a quiet desperation as Josephine delicately unfolded a collection of photographs before her.
The images shimmered with life, each one a glimpse into a past she had never known, a life that had been taken from her before she could even grasp it.
“Corlys always had his camera,” Josephine explained, “It was the first thing he brought along when we left our flat in London. He wanted to capture every fleeting moment, as if he knew...”
With trembling fingers, Vera reached for the first photograph.
In it, a few-months-old baby with jet-black hair cradled a sleek black cat in her tiny arms.
“This was one of the first pictures he took. You were holding onto Vinny so tightly, the poor thing almost choked.”
“That’s me,” Vera whispered, her voice barely audible as tears welled up, blurring the image. “I was so chubby,” she added with a small, bittersweet smile.
Josephine chuckled. “You were indeed a chubby baby,”
Vera’s hand hesitated over another photograph, her heart aching with a longing that gnawed at her insides.
It showed her baby-self sitting in a lush garden, surrounded by blooming flowers and vibrant greenery. Her tiny hands clutched something indistinct, and she was caught mid-chew, her cheeks puffed out comically.
Her gaze then shifted to another photograph, where she sat on the floor, her fingers stained with bright colors, and her face aglow with concentration and unbridled joy.
“You were painting with your mother,” Josephine said, a sad smile tugging at her lips. “Sophie always encouraged your creativity. From the very beginning, she saw the artist in you.”
Vera looked down at the photograph, her fingers tracing the edges as if trying to hold on to the memory.
As she did, Josephine’s eyes drifted to her paint-stained overalls, the vibrant colors splattered across the fabric telling a story of their own.
“You know,” she said softly, “Sophie had a pair of overalls just like those. She wore them all the time, and they were stained with paint—every color of the rainbow. Every piece of clothing she owned eventually got splattered with paint. It was like her creativity couldn’t be contained, spilling out onto everything around her.”
Vera’s gaze dropped to her paint-stained overalls, her fingers absently brushing over the splotches of color, and a wave of emotion surged through her, the realization settling deep within her chest.
Her eyes misted over, and she blinked rapidly, trying to process the connection to her mother she had unknowingly carried all this time.
She stared at the image in her hand, and a tear slipped down her cheek. She could almost feel her mother’s presence, her gentle guidance, the love that was taken from her too soon.
The photographs were more than just memories—they were fragments of a life she desperately longed to reclaim, pieces of a story she feared she might never fully understand.
Her smile trembled with pain as her gaze suddenly settled on a photograph of a blonde woman, her features hauntingly familiar—soft, golden hair and kind, hazel eyes.
“It’s her!” she breathed, the words barely escaping her lips, “It’s her…”
“Yes,” Josephine nodded, her voice filled with a sorrowful tenderness. “That’s my Sophie.”
A lump formed in Vera’s throat, heavy and unyielding, as the weight of the revelation pressed down on her. Tears welled up, shimmering in her eyes before spilling over, tracing slow paths down her cheeks.
It was almost too much to believe—after all these years, she finally knew what her mother looked like.
Yet, she had known all along.
“She’s beautiful,” she whispered, her voice thick with emotion. “I wish I looked like her.”
Josephine moved closer, her eyes softening with affection and understanding. “Oh, Vera, you do. You may not see it, but you have her spirit, her kindness, and her strength. And you do share her features, more than you realize.”
Vera’s heart swelled with a bittersweet mixture of sadness and gratitude as she continued to gaze at the photograph, tears still falling freely. The connection she had always felt with her mother now had a face—a face more beautiful than she had ever imagined.
Her hands shook as she continued to sift through the photographs, each one a window into a past she had been denied, a life she had never truly known.
She picked up another photograph, one that showed her parents together, holding her between them. The image captured a moment of pure, unfiltered joy—both Regulus and Sophie gazing down at their baby with adoration that seemed to leap from the frame.
“This one is beautiful,” she whispered. “But they look so young.”
"They were indeed very young and very confused, but they loved you with every fiber of their being.”
Vera’s eyes lingered on the image, the realization sinking in with a profound ache. She had been loved, deeply and fiercely, even if that love had been lost to time.
As she remained fixated on the photograph, a wave of longing and sadness surged through her. “My dad…” she murmured, “I really do look just like him.”
Regulus's hair was dark, cascading to his shoulders in gentle waves. His eyes, a striking teal blue, held a cold and fierce intensity, with dark circles beneath them hinting at years of sleepless nights.
Her eyes lingered on him, her heart aching with a yearning she couldn’t fully comprehend. “Are there other photographs of him?” she asked, her voice laced with a fragile hope.
“I’m afraid Reggie never liked having his photo taken. This is the only one he agreed to.”
A heavy silence settled over them as Vera cradled the photograph in her hands, tears slipping down her cheeks, and in that moment, the distance between her and her parents seemed to collapse, their love and presence wrapping around her like a warm, comforting embrace.
As she continued to study the photograph, her eyes were drawn to a detail she hadn't noticed before: her mother wore a delicate crescent moon pendant, while her father had a sun pendant.
The symbols seemed to radiate a quiet significance, piquing her curiosity.
“Why are they wearing these?” she asked, her brow furrowed in confusion.
Josephine's face softened with a gentle smile. “These are the necklaces they exchanged at their wedding. It was their way of expressing their love for each other. You see, Sophie was Reggie’s sun, and he was her moon. They were two halves of a whole, balancing and completing each other in a way that only they could.”
“Is that why Mum signed her name on the painting with a sun?”
“Exactly, It was a symbol of their connection—a reminder of the love they shared and the light they brought into each other’s lives.”
Vera sat in silence, absorbing the depth of the love her parents had for each other—a love that had shaped her in ways she was only now beginning to understand.
Her eyes remained fixed on the photograph, tracing the gentle curves of the moon and sun pendants, which seemed to shimmer with the memories of a love that had transcended time and trials.
“I never could have imagined,” she said, “that their love was so strong.”
Josephine gently pulled her into a tight embrace, her voice thick with affection. “And you carry that love with you, in everything you do. Oh, mon amour, they would have been so proud of the person you’ve become.”
Vera's gaze lingered on the photograph, the symbols etched into it almost shimmering, as if they still pulsed with the rhythm of a love long gone but never forgotten.
"The sun and the moon," she murmured, her voice barely a breath, and a single tear tracing a path down her cheek. "Happy birthday, Mum. Happy birthday... Dad."
Chapter 48: The Black Rose
Chapter Text
Vera clutched the photographs to her chest as if they were a lifeline to the past she had always longed to know, the remnants of a world that was slipping further away with every passing moment.
Her voice, frail and laced with longing, barely managed to escape her throat. "Can you tell me the rest of the story?" she asked, the words trembling with a mixture of anticipation and dread, as though she feared that knowing the truth would break the fragile illusion she had clung to for so long.
Josephine drew in a shuddering breath, her face darkening with sorrow as she prepared to revisit the memories that had haunted her for years. "When you turned nine months old," she began, her voice heavy with the weight of what was to come, "Reggie stopped coming around... and the letters, they stopped too. Sophie’s worry grew with each day that passed, like a storm gathering strength. She knew something was terribly wrong, and one day, she made the brave decision to go look for him."
A heavy silence fell between them, the air thick with the pain of what was left unsaid.
Josephine’s voice faltered, and she took a moment to steady herself before continuing. "Weeks passed, and I waited for any word from her, but none came. Those were dark days, Vera. You became very sick, Vinny ran away, and there was barely any food left in the house. It felt like the world outside had collapsed, leaving us stranded in the ruins, with only fear and despair for company. Corlys and I were terrified, unsure of what was happening or where to turn."
Her voice quivered, the memories too raw, too real. “Then, one day, a crow flew in and dropped a letter at my feet. It was from Sophie."
Vera’s heart pounded in her chest, her grip tightening on the photographs as though they might offer her some form of comfort. "What did it say?" she asked, her voice barely more than a whisper, as if the answer might shatter her completely.
Josephine’s voice broke as she relived the moment, the pain etched into every word. "She asked us to leave the house… to run away and to…” Her words faltered, the anguish too deep, too overwhelming to bear.
Vera leaned in, her eyes wide with fear and desperation. "To what?" she urged gently.
Josephine sighed deeply, "To go to the Muggle world and leave you there," she finally managed, the words hanging heavy in the air like a curse.
Vera’s breath caught in her throat, the shock sending a cold wave of fear through her. "Why?" she choked out.
Josephine looked at her, her expression filled with a sorrow that seemed to reach into the depths of her soul. "They knew," she whispered, "that it would be safer for you. They were afraid of the dangers closing in on them, and they wanted to protect you… even if it meant... losing you forever."
Vera’s heart ached with a pain so profound it felt as though it might tear her apart. She struggled to comprehend the depth of the sacrifice her parents had been willing to make, the love that had driven them to such desperate measures.
"But... what happened to them?" she asked, her voice barely holding together.
Josephine broke down, her sobs raw and filled with a sorrow that had never fully healed. "I don’t know, dear...” she choked out, “I just don’t know.”
Vera reached out, her hand trembling as she gently patted Josephine's back, trying to offer what little comfort she could. The silence that settled between them was thick with unanswered questions, an unbearable burden that neither could escape.
After a few moments, Josephine wiped her tear-streaked face with a napkin that had grown frayed from the constant use, before taking a deep, shuddering breath.
"After she sent the letter," she began again, "there was no more word from her. The darkness that followed claimed so many lives, and Corlys and I were desperate, terrified. We left the safe house as it was, taking only a few of Sophie’s belongings. The charm Reggie had placed around the house disappeared, leaving us vulnerable and exposed. We managed to reach Muggle London after a while, where I did what Sophie had instructed."
Vera sat in stunned silence, her mind reeling as she tried to process the enormity of Josephine’s words. "So, you did it," she whispered, barely able to believe what she was hearing. "You left me in the Muggle world… all alone..."
"And it broke my heart to do so!” Josephine’s eyes filled with fresh tears as she cried out, “Sophie did it to protect you, to save you from your doomed future."
Vera’s heart skipped a beat. "What do you mean, ‘my doomed future’?"
“She didn’t want you to grow up in the wizarding world with a name that would only bring you shame."
Vera's brows knitted together in bewilderment, her confusion deepening with each passing second.
"You see," Josephine continued, her voice heavy with remorse, "She instructed me to leave you at a Muggle police station with nothing except a small piece of paper with your first name and birthday on it."
Vera’s mind raced, her confusion only growing. "But... I’ve always been Vera Black. How did the Muggles know my last name?"
Josephine’s face crumpled, the weight of her mistake pressing down on her like a leaden shroud. "That would be my fault," she confessed, "I’m so sorry, Vera. I did what she told me—I wanted you to be safe, but I messed up."
With trembling hands, she reached into her bag, pulling out a tiny white baby overall, the fabric delicate and worn with age. She handed it to Vera, who stared at it, utterly puzzled.
Josephine then pointed to the small tag on the collar, where delicate, golden embroidery spelled out the name:
Vera S. Black
Vera’s breath caught in her throat as she traced the letters with trembling fingers, the reality of her past crashing down on her with a force she could scarcely bear.
The overalls were a tangible connection to a life she had never known, a life that had been stolen from her.
The weight of the truth was suffocating, and as the tears finally spilled from her eyes, she realized that she had never truly understood the depth of the sacrifice her parents had made, or the love that had driven them to do so.
"Sophie used to add your name to all your clothes back at the safe house," Josephine explained, her voice tinged with a melancholy that only deepened the ache in Vera's heart. "I swear I forgot about it when I placed you in that police station."
Vera stared at the tiny overalls in her hands, her emotions swirling in a chaotic storm. She tried to imagine a life where her name wasn’t Black, where she could have been just another student at Hogwarts, without the weight of a legacy that seemed more a curse than a blessing.
Maybe, in that life, she could have been with Felix, free from the shadow of a name that carried so much history and pain.
She looked down at her gloved hands, the realization hitting her with a force she hadn't expected.
“It wouldn’t have mattered, madam,” she said softly, her voice steady despite the turmoil within her. “Black is more than just a name. It’s my blood.”
Josephine stared at her, a strange mix of relief and hurt flickering in her eyes.
“And I do forgive you,” Vera continued, her voice gentle and full of understanding. “How could I not? You saved my life.”
“I only did what Sophie told me to,” Josephine whispered, her guilt still palpable despite Vera's forgiveness.
Vera reached out, taking Josephine’s hand and squeezing it gently. “And for that, I’m grateful,” she said earnestly. “I may never have had the chance to know them, but because of you, I know their love. And that’s enough.”
Josephine’s eyes welled with tears as she heard Vera’s heartfelt words. She looked down at their joined hands, a tender smile breaking through her emotional facade.
Vera returned to the tiny baby overalls, her gaze fixed on the delicate golden embroidery of the tag. “S…” she whispered. “What does it stand for?”
Josephine’s expression softened, “What do you think, mon amour?”
Vera paused, her mind racing as she tried to piece together the puzzle.
Slowly, as if uncovering a long-buried treasure, her face lit up with a realization that sent a thrill through her heart. “Sophie?”
Josephine nodded, her smile widening as she saw the light of understanding in Vera's eyes. “Yes, dear. Your middle name is Sophie.”
Vera’s heart pounded, overwhelmed by a joy she had never anticipated. “Vera Sophie Black,” she repeated, the name rolling off her tongue like a precious secret finally revealed.
It felt like a gift, a connection to the mother she had never known but now carried with her in the most intimate way.
Tears welled up in her eyes, but this time, they were not just tears of sorrow. They were tears of overwhelming emotion, of a love she could finally hold onto, a legacy she could finally embrace.
The name Sophie felt like a bridge to the past she had longed to understand, and now, it was hers to keep.
She hugged the tiny overalls to her chest, feeling a sense of peace she had never known before.
The name was more than just a word—it was a symbol of the love that had shaped her life, even from afar.
She took a moment to compose herself, wiping away the tears that streamed down her cheeks.
“Did she know she was going to die?” she asked. “Is that why she told you to put me in the Muggle world?"
Josephine's expression shifted, her face flushed with a mix of emotions. “Oh, dear…” she sighed. “Your mother is not dead.”
Vera’s heart plummeted, the words striking her like a blow. The room seemed to spin around her, and a cold sweat broke out on her forehead. She struggled to breathe, the revelation swirling in her mind, making her dizzy.
“She disappeared,” Josephine continued, “But I’m certain she’s still alive.”
Vera swallowed hard, trying to steady herself, to make sense of the tidal wave of emotions and thoughts crashing over her.
Her mind raced with possibilities, with questions she had never dared to consider. Her world had been filled with so many secrets, so much darkness, and now the hope of her mother being alive was like a fragile light flickering in the storm.
But it was also a light she wasn’t sure she could trust, or one that might lead her into even deeper shadows.
“What happened exactly?” she asked, her voice fragile as she clung to the baby overalls, the last tangible connection to the mother she now knew was out there, somewhere.
"After leaving you, Corlys and I found a way to France, and we stayed there, hiding as best we could. I searched for Sophie in Lysveil, even at her aunt’s chateau, but she was nowhere to be found. I held onto hope, waiting, praying for a sign. But then, one day, I read it in the newspaper.”
“Read what?” Vera asked urgently, dread already creeping into her heart, each beat pounding with growing fear.
Josephine’s voice faltered, the words burdened with sorrow. “That your father had died.”
A heavy silence settled between them, and Vera’s face remained eerily expressionless.
Josephine’s concern deepened with every passing second, her heart aching for the girl in front of her who had already endured so much.
“How did he die?” Vera finally whispered, her voice hollow.
“No one really knew,” Josephine replied, “Some say he was killed in a battle with Aurors. Others claim he was murdered by fellow Death Eaters for refusing to follow orders. But the truth remains a mystery, especially since his body was never found.”
“They never found him?” Vera echoed.
“No,” Josephine said, shaking her head slowly. “The Black family buried an empty casket.”
“But how did they know he died if there was no body?” she asked.
Josephine shook her head slowly, her eyes filled with the same helplessness that had haunted her for years. “I don’t really know, dear,” she admitted softly.
“And what about my mum?” Vera’s voice cracked as she forced the words out, the fear in her heart growing with each passing second. “What happened to her, I mean how did she just disappear?”
“Nobody said anything about her. I heard nothing, but I knew—deep down, I knew she wasn’t dead. I believed she was with your father all that time. But when his family reported him dead without mentioning her, it meant she wasn’t with him, or… she didn’t die. Reynard never announced her death either, only that she was missing.”
Vera’s eyes filled with tears, her heart aching with the weight of Josephine’s words. “So she’s still out there… somewhere…”
“I believe it with all my heart,” Josephine replied, her voice trembling with conviction, though the uncertainty lingered in the air between them.
“But what happened?” Vera’s voice grew desperate, the need for answers clawing at her insides like a relentless storm. “Where did she go? Why doesn’t she just come back?”
Josephine hesitated, searching for the right words to comfort the girl before her. “I’m sure there is an explanation,” she said, but her voice faltered, the words feeling hollow even to her.
“What if she simply ran away? What if she didn’t love my dad anymore and ran away from him? What if she didn’t want me? What if she thought I was a mistake?”
“I don’t want to hear you saying these things ever again! Sophie loved you more than she loved herself. She could never leave you.”
“Then where is she?” Vera cried out, “Why isn’t she with me!”
Her question hung in the air, heavy and unanswered, the silence pressing down on them both like a suffocating weight.
The room seemed to shrink around them, the walls closing in as the unknown loomed larger and more terrifying.
Josephine took a deep breath, her eyes locking onto Vera’s with a mixture of sorrow and determination. “There are many reasons why I haven’t reached out to you before, Vera. It wasn’t just one thing—it was everything. When you were left in the Muggle world, I had no way of finding you. You were a part of a world I could never fully understand or navigate. And then, when you came to Hogwarts, I… I felt unready. I wasn’t sure if I could face you, or if I even had the right to. I knew that once I saw you, I would have to explain everything, and I wasn’t sure how to do that.”
Vera listened, her heart pounding with each revelation, feeling the weight of the burden Josephine had carried for so many years.
“There were practical challenges, too.” Josephine carried on, “I couldn’t get a permit to enter Hogwarts because I’m magicless, and there are so many restrictions. But those weren’t the real reasons, Vera. The truth is, the most important reason I stayed away was because… I didn’t want to come to you empty-handed. I couldn’t bear to face you with nothing but stories of loss and pain.”
Vera’s hands trembled as she wiped away the tears that kept falling. “What do you mean?”
Josephine reached out, her touch gentle as she took Vera’s hand in hers. “I knew that if I came to you, I needed to bring something more than just memories. Corlys and I returned to England after the war ended in 1981. But before leaving, I began an investigation back in France, to find her. I’ve been searching all these years, hoping, praying that I’d find something. And recently... there’s been progress. We’ve narrowed down the search, and it’s very likely that after your father... after he passed, Sophie returned to France. And there’s a chance—no, there’s hope—that she’s still there. Alive.”
A whirlwind of emotions flooded through Vera—hope, fear, disbelief.
Her voice trembled as she struggled to find the words. “So... so there’s a chance, madam? We might actually find her?”
Josephine nodded, tears slipping down her own cheeks. “Yes, Vera. There’s more than just a chance. We’re closer than we’ve ever been. I moved back to Paris at the start of the year so I could follow the case up close. I didn’t want to keep this from you any longer. I couldn’t wait until everything was certain. You needed to know that there’s hope. That your mother—my Sophie—might still be out there, waiting to be found.”
Vera clutched the tiny overalls to her chest, the weight of Josephine’s words sinking in. The possibility that her mother could still be alive, that she might one day find her, was overwhelming.
The tears that flowed now were different from those she’d shed before—these were tears of hope, of a future where answers and closure might finally be within reach.
“I... I don’t know what to say,” Vera whispered, her voice breaking under the weight of her emotions. “I never thought... I never imagined...”
“You don’t have to say anything,” Josephine murmured, pulling her into a gentle embrace. “Just know that you’re not alone in this. We’ll find her together, Vera. We’ll bring her home.”
Vera carefully placed the box of photographs and her baby overalls into her bag, feeling the weight of them pressing down on her heart as well as the fabric.
She closed the bag slowly, lingering over the connection to her past that she now carried with her, and with a deep breath, stood up, her eyes meeting Josephine’s. The two shared a moment of understanding before Vera walked towards the door of The Three Broomsticks, with Josephine following closely behind.
As they stepped out into the crisp air, Vera felt Josephine’s hand in hers—a small, yet reassuring comfort.
They walked in silence for a few moments, the bustling sounds of Hogsmeade fading into the background as Vera’s thoughts churned within her.
Finally, she turned to Josephine, her brow furrowed with a question that had been gnawing at her since their conversation inside.
“Madam Fletcher,” she began, “there is one thing that I don’t understand.”
“Yes, mon amour?” Josephine responded gently.
“You said no one knew about me except you, Uncle Cygnus, and aunt Druella, so how did my grandmother know? Because I was told I was mentioned in her will.”
Josephine paused, considering the question. “I’m not really sure, Vera. Perhaps her brother, Cygnus, told her? Or maybe… Reggie himself confessed to her before his death.”
Vera absorbed this, her mind working through the possibilities. “But if Uncle Cygnus and his wife loved my parents, why wouldn’t they write to me now? Or take me to live with them?"
“Druella passed away some time ago, in an accident of some sort. And as for Cygnus… well, losing his wife was too much for him, especially after the terrible crime his daughter had committed. He left his position at the Ministry and disappeared, and perhaps that’s why he never reached out to you.. Out of guilt, or shame.”
A pang of disappointment shot through Vera’s heart. She had always hoped that somewhere out there, her family was thinking of her, that they might want to know her. But now, that hope seemed to crumble away.
“So… none of them wanted me,” she whispered, the hurt clear in her voice.
Josephine stopped walking, turning to face her fully.
She gently cupped her face in her hands, her eyes brimming with kindness and resolve. “Oh, Vera, you don’t need any of them. Family isn’t just about blood. It’s about love, and I love you like my own. You have a strength in you that comes from your mother and father, and you’re creating your own family with the people who care about you. That’s what truly matters.”
Vera blinked back tears, her heart swelling with gratitude.
She leaned into Josephine’s touch, feeling the warmth of her words seep into her very soul. “Thank you, Madam Fletcher,” she whispered, her voice trembling with emotion. “Thank you for everything.”
Josephine pulled her into a tight embrace, holding her as if she could shield her from all the pain the world had to offer. “You never have to thank me, Vera. I’m always here for you, and I will keep you updated on your mother’s case. I promise to write to you as often as I can, and when there’s news, you’ll be the first to know.”
Vera hugged her back, holding on for a moment longer before they both slowly pulled away. “I’ll be waiting for your letters,” she said, a small smile on her lips despite the tears in her eyes.
Josephine returned the smile, though her own eyes were glistening with unshed tears. “And I’ll be writing them. Take care of yourself, Vera. And remember, you are never alone.”
As they shared this quiet moment, the weight of uncertainty began to lift, replaced by a fragile but growing sense of hope.
Vera knew the road ahead would be long, but with Josephine by her side, she felt ready to face whatever came next.
They exchanged one last look, full of understanding and unspoken promises, before Vera turned and began walking away.
As she made her way back towards the carriages, the weight of the past still heavy in her heart, she felt a small spark of hope flickering within her.
The sky was a heavy gray, the clouds thick and persistent, blocking any hint of the sun. Vera glanced up, feeling a strange chill as she saw the sun completely obscured.
The thought lingered, unsettling her as she climbed into the carriage. Once inside, she pulled out the photograph of her mother and father, holding it gently as if it might shatter.
The image was so precious, capturing a fleeting moment of happiness that seemed almost too beautiful to be real.
As she stared at it, lost in the faces of her parents, Felix suddenly climbed into the carriage, his face lighting up with a smile when he saw her.
She quickly flipped the photograph and placed it on her lap, anxious that he might catch a glimpse.
He settled into the seat opposite her, but his smile faded as he noticed the redness of her face and the swelling around her eyes from crying.
“Hey,” he said softly, concern lacing his voice, “are you alright?”
She nodded, though her expression was still heavy with emotion.
He tilted his head slightly, studying her. “How was your time in Hogsmeade?” he asked, trying to coax a smile out of her.
“It was… overwhelming,” she admitted, her voice soft and distant.
Felix’s eyes softened, and he leaned back with a teasing grin. “Well, if it helps, I didn’t get caught trying to sneak extra Butterbeer, and I’ve got some brilliant stories to share.”
She chuckled softly, the sound bittersweet but genuine. The warmth of his presence was a comforting balm to her aching heart.
He noticed her smile falter again and leaned in slightly, his eyes twinkling with curiosity. “Penny for your thoughts, kitten?”
She hesitated for a moment, her gaze drifting to the photograph she still clutched. “I just…” she swallowed, “I realized something today.”
Felix raised an eyebrow. “Oh? And what’s that?”
Taking a deep breath, she felt a strange clarity amidst the pain, and she stared at the photograph with a sad, hopeful smile. “Restarting your birthday wish does work.” She murmured.
Felix’s confusion melted into a warm smile as he saw the meaning behind her words.
Without asking for more details, he simply nodded, offering silent support as she held onto that fragile glimmer of hope, believing that maybe, just maybe, her wishes might come true after all.
The carriage ride back to Hogwarts was quiet, the only sound the rhythmic clatter of wheels against the cobblestone road.
As the towering silhouette of the castle loomed closer, Vera’s thoughts drifted back to the weight of the day. The closer they got, the more she longed for the solitude of her dormitory.
Felix, sensing her need for space, kept his teasing to a minimum, and they rode in companionable silence until the carriage came to a stop in front of the castle's grand entrance.
As soon as the carriage halted, Vera gave him a small, grateful smile and quickly slipped out, her feet carrying her swiftly through the familiar halls.
The castle was quiet in the evening light, the torches casting long, flickering shadows along the stone walls.
Every step she took echoed with the emotions she had been holding back all day. She hurried up the stairs, her heart heavy, and reached the portrait guarding the entrance to the Gryffindor common room.
She muttered the password, barely registering the Fat Lady’s concerned look as the portrait swung open.
The common room was quiet, with only a few students scattered about, but she paid them no mind. She climbed the final stairs to her dormitory, pushing open the door with a trembling hand.
The room was exactly as she had left it, a sanctuary of familiarity amidst the chaos of her emotions، and her eyes immediately fell on the paintings she had placed with care on her bed.
Her music box sat on her nightstand, its lid slightly ajar as if waiting for her to play its soothing melody.
And there, nestled by her pillow, was Vinny, her loyal stuffed cat, who was now a pillar of her past.
The sight of him brought a fresh wave of tears to her eyes, the simple innocence of his presence a stark contrast to the complicated emotions she carried.
With trembling hands, she set down the box of photographs she had carried with such care, placing it gently beside the music box.
She then reached into her bag and pulled out the tiny baby overalls, her fingers tracing the golden embroidery of her name—Vera S. Black. Sophie’s name. Her mother’s name.
She placed the overalls beside the photograph box, the pieces of her past now laid out before her like a fragile puzzle, then sank down onto the edge of her bed, her heart aching with a depth of emotion she could hardly bear.
She clutched Vinny to her chest, the familiar softness of the stuffed animal a small comfort against the storm of grief and hope raging inside her.
She looked at the small collection of items on her bed—each one a link to a past she had never known, a past that was now, piece by piece, revealing itself to her.
Her thoughts turned to her mother, the woman she had never met but who had loved her so deeply, so fiercely, that she had given up everything to protect her.
The thought that Sophie might still be out there, somewhere, filled her with a desperate, aching hope. With tears streaming down her face, she closed her eyes and clasped her hands together, her voice a whisper as she prayed for a future where she could see her mother again.
She prayed for the strength to keep searching, for the courage to face whatever truths lay ahead. She prayed for a reunion, for the chance to look into her mother’s eyes and know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that she was loved.
Her tears fell harder as the silence of the room enveloped her, the only sound her own soft sobs. The weight of the day, of everything she had learned and everything she still didn’t know, pressed down on her until she felt like she could barely breathe.
But in the midst of her sorrow, there was a spark of hope—a tiny, fragile light that she clung to with all her might.
She opened her eyes and looked at the items on her bed once more, her vision blurred by tears, then reached out and touched the photograph of her parents, her fingers brushing lightly over their smiling faces. “I will find you,” she whispered, her voice breaking. “I promise I will find you.”
As she lay down on her bed, clutching Vinny close, she let the exhaustion of the day finally overtake her. Her last thoughts before sleep claimed her were of her mother, and the hope that somewhere, somehow, they would be together, and the sun will shine again.
♪ Underneath the moonlight,
In the softness of the night,
Close your eyes, my baby girl,
Let the stars fill you with light. ♪
Chapter 49: Unwanted Legacy
Chapter Text
June, 1991
“Fred, George, would you please stop juggling those quills?!” Percy snapped, his voice teetering on the edge of hysteria.
“Just honing our multitasking skills, Perce!” Fred grinned, tossing a quill high into the air.
“Yeah, you never know when you'll need to juggle quills and recite potions ingredients at the same time,” George added, catching the quill behind his back with a flourish.
“And now, ladies and gentlemen,” Lee chimed in, adopting a dramatic tone. “Witness the extraordinary Percy Weasley attempting the impossible—a perfectly orderly study session!”
Percy glared at him, “Lee, I swear, if you don’t take this seriously—”
“Oh, I’m dead serious, boss,” Lee replied, with a grin that suggested otherwise.
Meanwhile, Malika was aggressively flipping through her Charms textbook, her frown deepening with each page. “Does anyone get this? It’s like trying to read gobbledegook.”
“It’s really not that hard, Malika,” Cedric said kindly, leaning over to help. “You just have to—”
“Help me first, Ceddy?” Maddie interrupted, her eyes practically twinkling as she gazed at him, “Pleeease?”
“This book is amazing,” Sarah murmured to herself, flipping through a tome on magical creatures. “Did you know Thestral bones are nearly invisible?”
“Can we stick to the subject at hand, Sarah?!” Percy practically wailed, “That book is for next year. We’re supposed to be studying for this year’s exams!”
“I wish we were studying Irish history instead of this,” Tommy sighed, his eyes glazing over as he stared at his History of Magic book.
“Are you taking the piss, Toms?” Angelina retorted, “Irish history is a proper depressing.”
“Well yeah, I wonder whose fault that is,” Tommy shot back, narrowing his eyes at her.
“Hey, don’t look at me!” Angelina said, holding up her hands defensively. “I’m not exactly proud of being English.”
"On that note," Alicia chimed in, "don't you think Ireland deserves its own Ministry of Magic? It’s basically—”
“Interesting point, Alicia,” Percy interrupted, his tone dangerously stern. “But could we not discuss politics right now? We’re supposed to be—oh, I don’t know—studying?”
But the room was beyond salvation. Lee had resumed narrating his textbook as if it were the Quidditch World Cup, Fred and George were perfecting their quill-juggling routine, Maddie was still mooning over Cedric, Sarah was absorbed in her book of magical creatures, and Alicia and Tommy were knee-deep in a political debate.
Percy sighed deeply, burying his face in his hands. “Why did I ever agree to this…?”
“Because you want to be a prefect,” Fred and George said in unison, each balancing a quill on the tip of their nose.
“Just think, Perce,” George teased, “next year, you could be bossing us all around—officially.”
“At this rate, I’ll be lucky if I survive until the end of the week,” Percy groaned.
“I don’t see why we even have to study at all,” Vera chimed in, her feet propped up on a stack of books as she casually tossed jelly beans into her mouth. “Exams are just a formality, right?”
“Easy for you to say, Vee,” Angelina shot her a look. “Some of us actually want to pass.”
“Who says I don’t want to pass?”
“The fact that you haven’t cracked open a book in weeks?”
“I’ve been busy!”
“Painting and napping that is,”
“Hey, someone’s gotta do it,” Vera said with a shrug, popping another jelly bean. “Besides, life’s a lot easier with art and rest.”
“Easier with money…” Percy murmured under his breath, barely audible, but Vera caught it anyway.
Her brows furrowed at his comment, guilt prickling at the edges of her thoughts. She hadn't intended to seem neglectful—or worse, arrogant.
She wanted to explain that she wasn't being dismissive or avoiding her studies out of laziness.
The truth was, it was all part of an incredibly foolish plan she'd devised.
It happened the week before exams, when she uncovered yet another family secret, and it all began when Professor Binns asked her to stay after class to review her final assignment of the year.
"I wanted to commend you on your essay." the ghostly professor began, "Your ability to weave complex historical events into a coherent narrative is quite brilliant, Miss Black."
Vera felt a warm glow of pride. "Thank you, Professor," she replied, her voice reflecting her genuine pleasure.
It wasn’t the first time she had been complimented by a professor this year; nearly all of them had praised her skills and dedication.
"Though I must admit," Binns continued, "I am not surprised in the least. After all, academic excellence runs in your family. The Blacks have always been among the brightest students at Hogwarts, and you are no exception.”
Vera's smile faltered slightly, and she blinked in surprise, processing this new revelation. "How would you know, sir?"
Professor Binns chuckled—a dry, hollow sound. "I taught almost all of your family, Miss Black, going back to the 19th century. I remember them all. Your father, Regulus, was rather a quiet student, rarely speaking up in class, but his essays were loud and powerful—much like yours.”
Vera nodded slowly, absorbing the information.
Another piece of her family’s past had just fallen into place, and though it was unexpected, it felt oddly fitting.
"And your uncle Sirius," Binns added, "he was quite the memorizer, despite rarely showing up in class. A sharp mind, if a bit undisciplined. And your grandmother, Walburga—one of the best students Hogwarts ever had, along with her brothers.”
“You knew her as well?”
“Oh, yes,” Binns confirmed, “And her father as well. The Blacks have always been a notable presence here. Every one of them earned eleven O's on their OWLs and excelled in their NEWTs, a remarkable achievement that set them apart."
Vera frowned. "Why eleven O's and not twelve?"
Binns gave a ghostly chuckle. "Ah, that's because they refused to take Muggle Studies.”
She managed a tight smile, though inside, she felt a wave of disgust.
“And now that you can perform magic well,” Binns continued, “I am certain you’ll follow in their footsteps, leading your class just as they did.”
But instead of feeling proud, she was struck with terror at the idea of being associated with her family, even in a positive way.
The thought of being compared to them, of being expected to carry on their legacy, was suffocating, and in that moment, she took a very stupid decision.
As the exams finally arrived, she made a concerted effort to do the bare minimum.
In Transfiguration, she lazily transfigured a teacup into a half-formed rabbit, with one ear still porcelain.
During History of Magic, her essay on International Warlock convention was sparse, filled with vague generalities that barely met the word count.
In Astronomy, she purposefully misaligned her telescope, sketching a constellation that was more abstract art than accurate star map.
In Herbology, she only gave a cursory trim to her Fanged Geranium, leaving it looking more like an untamed bush.
But when it came to Potions, she was conflicted. On one hand, she didn’t want to uphold her family’s reputation as stellar students, yet on the other, she couldn't bear the thought of Snape's scathing mockery.
After a brief moment of internal conflict, she resolved to uphold her standards in Potions.
The dimly lit dungeon classroom was filled with the soft murmurs of students, the bubbling of cauldrons, and the sharp scent of brewing concoctions.
Her hands moved methodically as she prepared the ingredients for their final potion of the year.
Swelling Solution
2 scoops of dried nettles
3 puffer-fish eyes
1 bat spleen
She meticulously measured two scoops of dried nettles, sensing the familiar tingle of magic in the air as she added them to her mortar. Then, she moved to the round, haunting puffer-fish eyes, carefully crushing them together before transferring the mixture into her cauldron.
Her fingers then hovered over the bat spleen, but as she reached for it, her gaze drifted across the room, landing on Cassius’s station.
He was hunched over his cauldron, his shoulders tense, and his usually composed demeanor had crumbled into a visible mess of anxiety.
His leg bounced uncontrollably beneath the table, and his nails were chewed down to the quick, the raw skin around them a stark contrast to his usual polished appearance.
Her hand froze mid-air, the bat spleen slipping slightly in her grasp. She was suddenly struck by a realization that had been simmering beneath the surface all year.
For all her struggles—her fears of her dark family legacy, the burden of expectations, and the gnawing uncertainty about her mother—she was still, in some ways, more fortunate than Cassius.
The realization hit her like a jolt, pulling her from her own thoughts and forcing her to confront the harsh reality of the pressure he was under.
Cassius’s trembling hands and the desperation in his eyes told a story she hadn’t fully understood until now. The stakes were higher for him, so much higher. The weight of his father’s expectations, the relentless drive to be the best, was etched into his every movement.
She knew that one misstep for him could mean more than just a poor grade—it could mean a physical punishment, disappointment, and the loss of something far greater than academic standing.
Her own potion bubbled quietly beside her, nearly perfect, a testament to her skill and hard work. But as she stared at Cassius, an internal battle waged within her.
“I can’t believe I’m doing this,” she whispered to herself, her voice barely audible over the hiss of boiling liquids.
Her heart raced as she deliberately picked up an extra piece of bat spleen and dropped it into the cauldron.
The moment it hit the mixture, her potion fizzed violently, the surface bubbling up in a way that was anything but ideal. Her breath caught in her throat as she watched the transformation, and a pang of regret shot through her—this wasn’t her.
She was proud of her abilities, of the work she had put into this. But as she glanced back at Cassius, she felt a strange sense of peace. Her decision, reckless as it was, felt right.
She had made a choice, not just for herself, but for someone who needed it more.
Snape’s voice cut through the room, cold and sharp as he began his round of inspection.
Vera stood by her cauldron, heart pounding, awaiting the inevitable verdict. Cassius still looked nervous, but there was a hint of relief in his expression, a small easing of the tension that had gripped him all lesson long.
Vera bit her lip as Snape approached. Whatever the outcome, she knew she had done something important, something that would stay with her long after this potion had been forgotten.
Snape’s imposing figure loomed over her cauldron, his black robes billowing slightly as he bent down to inspect her potion.
His expression was unreadable, his eyes narrowing as he observed the dark, fizzing mixture before him.
Vera’s heart thudded in her chest, but she kept her face composed, knowing any sign of nerves would only draw his ire.
He straightened up without a word, his face betraying nothing of his thoughts, and moved on to the next student.
The silence he left in his wake was more deafening than any scathing remark could have been, and Vera felt a knot tighten in her stomach as he continued his rounds, his sharp eyes scrutinizing each cauldron with the same icy detachment.
She tried to focus on packing away her ingredients, but the nagging uncertainty gnawed at her. Does Cassius deserve her help?
The week passed in tense anticipation. The other students were equally on edge, each wondering how they had fared in the final assessment.
When the day finally came for Snape to reveal their grades, the dungeon was filled with an uneasy quiet, broken only by the occasional clink of glassware or the soft shuffling of feet.
Snape stood at the front of the class, his expression as inscrutable as ever. He held a parchment in his hand, and the room seemed to hold its collective breath as he began to read from it.
“Diggory,” his voice was as cold and precise as ever. “Fourth.”
Cedric nodded. Though he had hoped for better, he accepted the result with grace. Potions had never been his strongest subject, but he had worked hard, and fourth place was a respectable finish.
“Avery, third,” Snape continued, his gaze flicking to Ryu.
The Ravenclaw nodded in acknowledgment, his face betraying nothing.
As Snape paused, the room fell into a tense, expectant hush.
Two names remained unannounced, and everyone’s gaze shifted between Vera and Cassius.
The general assumption was that Vera, with her near-perfect track record, would claim the top spot.
But Snape, ever the one to relish suspense, let the moment hang in the air a little longer, a faint smirk tugging at the corner of his lips.
“Black, second.”
The collective gasp that followed was almost tangible, a wave of shock rippling through the room. All eyes turned to Vera, who remained calm despite the whirlwind of emotions inside her.
She had prepared herself for this, but hearing it aloud still sent a jolt through her.
She caught Ryu’s eye, and he raised an eyebrow in surprise, clearly puzzled by the unexpected result.
“And first place,” Snape’s voice held a note of satisfaction, “goes to Mr. Warrington. Well done, Cassius.”
Cassius sat there, wide-eyed, his disbelief evident as he tried to process what he had just heard.
Snape gestured for the class to clap. The applause began hesitantly, a few scattered claps here and there, until Vera, seated in the center of the room, started clapping with genuine enthusiasm, encouraging others to join in.
Cassius, still in a daze, managed a small, unsure smile. As the clapping grew louder around him, he seemed to relax slightly, the warmth of the unexpected victory beginning to sink in.
"Well, well, look who's finally taking a seat behind me." Ryu teased as he sauntered over to Vera after class. "How does it feel to be second, Black?"
"Less paperwork," she replied with a shrug, completely unfazed by his jab.
He chuckled. "You don’t seem too heartbroken."
She gave him a sideways glance, her expression calm and collected.
But then, in a swift movement, she stepped closer, closing the distance between them.
Her voice dropped to a low, confidential tone that only he could hear. "I knew I’d be second."
"Oh really?" he arched an eyebrow, leaning in as if they were sharing a clandestine secret. "How?"
"A clever boy once taught me to acknowledge my privileges," she replied, a smirk playing on her lips that matched his own. "So, I did."
Ryu’s smile broadened, clearly impressed, and he started to turn away, but something made him stop in his tracks.
He spun back around, his expression sly. "Wait a minute—did you just call me clever?"
Vera rolled her eyes, exasperation mingling with amusement. "You're insufferable."
"Insufferably clever?" he teased, leaning in even closer, his grin almost daring her to challenge him.
She swatted his shoulder lightly. "Just insufferable."
He feigned a look of deep contemplation. "Well," he finally said, "better luck next year, Black. I’ll be expecting you to step up your game."
She shook her head, a small, knowing smile tugging at the corners of her mouth. "Don’t hold your breath, Avery."
Ryu laughed, the sound echoing through the corridor. He gave her a mock salute, his grin lingering long after he had turned and walked away, and she found herself smiling too.
As he disappeared down the corridor, Angelina and Alicia approached, their curiosity unmistakable.
"What did Avery want?" Angelina asked, her eyebrows arched in suspicion. "And why were you practically glued together?"
"Nothing, really," Vera replied, trying to sound casual as she brushed off the encounter.
Angelina wasn’t convinced, her eyes narrowing slightly. "Then why were you laughing with him?"
"I wasn’t laughing with him," Vera denied a bit too quickly, her voice betraying her attempt at nonchalance.
Alicia, ever the observer, narrowed her eyes as well, clearly unconvinced. "Uh-huh. Then why are your cheeks so red?"
Vera felt the heat rush to her face and quickly looked away, mumbling. "Uh, It’s just the heat, you know?"
The two girls exchanged knowing glances, clearly not believing her for a second. But instead of pressing further, they simply smiled and linked arms with her.
"Come on, let’s go," Angelina urged, “I’m starving!”
"I need to see Professor McGonagall first," Vera replied. “She asked to speak with me."
"Why?" Alicia asked, her curiosity piqued.
"I'm not sure," Vera admitted, her mind racing with possibilities.
"Oh, she probably wants to give you the permission slip for Hogsmeade next year," Alicia suggested.
"Permission slips?" Vera asked, her surprise evident. "I didn’t know we needed those."
"Angelina and I stopped by her office this morning to get ours.”
With a sudden burst of excitement, Vera made her way swiftly to Professor McGonagall’s office, her steps quickening as she approached.
As she reached the office door, she could hear raised voices inside.
She knocked gently and then pushed the door open, revealing a scene that immediately made her stop in her tracks.
Fred, George, and Lee were inside, enduring a stern reprimand.
"I have warned you repeatedly about the consequences of your pranks," McGonagall’s sharp voice filled the room. "This latest stunt not only disrupted classes but also put other students' safety at risk!"
“We’re just trying to lighten the mood around here.” Fred shot back. “Just a bit of fun,”
"Yeah, think of it as a public service.” Added George, “Everyone seemed down after the exams.”
McGonagall’s eyes narrowed. "You two seem to forget that your ‘fun’ often ends up creating more trouble than it’s worth. And let’s not even start on the mess you’ve made of the potions classroom!"
Fred and George exchanged a quick, knowing glance.
"We do aim to entertain, Professor," Fred said smoothly. "It’s just that sometimes, the entertainment comes with a side of chaos."
McGonagall’s lips twitched in a barely perceptible smile. "If you cannot behave yourselves next year, I will have no choice but to deny you permission to visit Hogsmeade."
With a sigh, she handed them their permission slips for the next term’s trips. "Consider this a chance to prove yourselves."
Fred and George accepted their slips, looking somewhat mollified.
As they exited, McGonagall’s focus shifted to Lee.
"Mr. Jordan," she began, her tone razor-sharp, "your exam performance was... perplexing, to say the least.”
Lee blinked in confusion. "But Professor, I thought I did pretty well. My answers were... comprehensive?"
McGonagall reached for a stack of parchments, her expression unwavering. "In History of Magic, when asked about the purpose behind the Warlock Convention, you wrote, 'The wizarding world has been shaped by centuries of magical discoveries.'"
Lee tilted his head. "I mean, that’s technically true..."
"In Astronomy,” McGonagall carried on, “when asked how the position of Venus affects potion brewing, you responded, 'The wizarding world has been shaped by centuries of magical discoveries.'"
Vera stifled a laugh, failing miserably.
McGonagall’s eyebrows lifted as she continued reading. "And in Herbology, when asked to list the uses of the mandrake plant, your answer was," she paused for effect, "'The wizarding world has been shaped by centuries of magical discoveries.'"
This time, Vera couldn’t hold back and burst out laughing, drawing stern glares from both McGonagall and Lee.
"Do not laugh, Miss Black," McGonagall said, "Your performance wasn’t any better."
Vera’s face turned bright red, and Lee shot her a playful smirk, sticking his tongue out.
McGonagall sighed, her patience thinning. "Perhaps next time, Mr. Jordan, you might consider tailoring your answers to the actual questions. For now, you’ll need to redo your History of Magic exam to bring your grades up. I trust you’ll be more attentive."
As Lee shuffled out, Vera leaned in, grinning. "Good luck, soldier. If they ask about the shape of the wizarding world, you’ve got this in the bag!"
"Shut up," Lee muttered with a grin, nudging her playfully before stepping out.
McGonagall then turned to her, her expression a mix of disappointment and concern.
"Miss Black," she began, her voice laced with a stern edge. "You must know why I summoned you here."
Vera grinned. "For my permission slip?"
"Don’t be ridiculous!"
The grin was gone.
“Your lazy and utterly baffling performance on your exams has left us all very perplexed."
Vera’s cheeks burned with embarrassment, and she struggled to meet McGonagall’s piercing gaze.
She couldn’t bring herself to explain the reasons behind her lackluster results. "I’m sorry," she mumbled, "I didn’t study well."
"I find that hard to believe," McGonagall replied, "You were doing exceptionally well just weeks before your exams. Your assignments were always on time and nearly flawless. Professor Flitwick praised your work in Charms, and Professor Binns remarked on the excellence of your essays. Even Professor Morales is disappointed, Vera. He had such high hopes for you—told us he believed you could be the top of your class, if not the entire school."
Vera's eyes dropped to the floor, a heavy sense of shame settling over her.
After a long pause, she whispered, "I'm really not that smart, Professor.”
"Vera,” McGonagall’s tone softened, though it retained a note of firmness. “Is your poor performance related to the meeting you had with Josephine?"
Vera shook her head. "No, Professor."
"I know this year has been difficult for you," McGonagall said, her voice laced with compassion, "but you can't let one setback define your path. You have so much potential, Vera. You can still achieve everything you've set your mind to."
Vera’s throat tightened as she fought to hold back tears. She remained silent, her head bowed in shame.
McGonagall sighed. "You must understand that we all see a bright future for you. I know you’re capable of achieving greatness, and it pains me to see you fall short of what you’re truly capable of."
Vera nodded slowly, her thoughts racing. She had a plan, one she’d been toying with, but McGonagall’s words made her question it.
McGonagall’s gaze softened further. "I have faith in you, Vera. And I believe in your ability to uphold your father's impeccable legacy and perhaps even surpass it."
At the mention of her father, something inside Vera snapped.
She clenched her fists, a wave of anger and determination surging through her. She would never be Regulus—never be trapped in the shadow of his achievements.
The resolve to be a loser swiftly rekindled within her like a blazing fire.
McGonagall noticed the shift in her demeanor but misinterpreted it as a sign of resolve. "I hope you’ll do better next year. Take this as a chance to prove to yourself what you’re truly capable of."
Vera nodded, her expression unreadable as she crossed her fingers behind her back. "I promise, Professor," she replied.
McGonagall gave her a soft smile before dismissing her.
As she turned to leave, she hesitated, then spoke up. "Professor, you forgot to give me my Hogsmeade permission slip."
"About that," McGonagall sighed gently, "I’m sorry, Vera, but I can’t give it to you. The slip must be signed by a legal guardian, and yours is… well, a Muggle. She cannot know about the existence of Hogsmeade."
“Couldn’t you charm the slip to show a different name instead of Hogsmeade? Like you do with my textbooks?"
"No, I’m afraid that’s not possible. The permission slip’s purpose is to ensure that your guardian is fully aware of your whereabouts. Altering it would undermine that protection."
"But I’ve already been to Hogsmeade before without any issues." Vera pressed on, her voice tinged with frustration.
"That’s only because I accompanied you. Next year, I won’t be able to, and you’ll need proper authorization to go on your own."
Vera's shoulders slumped as the reality of the situation sank in. She knew McGonagall was right, but it didn’t make the news any easier to accept.
"Does this mean I won’t be able to go to Hogsmeade next year?" she asked.
McGonagall didn’t reply immediately but gave her a sympathetic look that said it all.
Vera felt a lump form in her throat, her heart sinking with the weight of the disappointment. The thought of being left behind while everyone else enjoyed the trips to Hogsmeade was unbearable.
She tried to swallow her frustration, but it bubbled up anyway. "Can’t we just tell Miss Nelson about me?"
McGonagall’s eyes widened slightly at the suggestion. "That you’re a witch? Absolutely not! She might be your guardian, Vera, but she’s still a stranger to you. And she won’t always be here for you, so we can’t be taking that sort of risk.”
"Miss Nelson is always going to be here for me."
"Until you’re eighteen…" McGonagall said gently, and Vera shook her head in denial.
"No she will always be here! She’s not like other Muggles, Professor. She’s different! She would understand."
"That doesn’t change the laws, Vera."
Vera’s frustration boiled over. "But that’s not fair! Everyone else gets to go—why can’t I?"
"Because your situation is very exceptional," McGonagall replied, trying to maintain her composure.
"I’m an orphan," Vera shot back, her words sharp and filled with pain. "There’s nothing exceptional about that."
The usually composed professor was visibly taken aback, a flicker of shock crossing her face.
“There are literally millions of kids around the world who are like me,” Vera continued, “Are there no orphans in the wizarding world or something?”
McGonagall quickly regained her composure, though there was a trace of regret in her eyes. “There are. There were. But most of them had a family member to care for them,” she said, her voice faltering as the words left her lips.
Vera felt a sharp pang in her chest, as if someone had physically torn her heart apart.
Her hands clenched into fists at her sides. "So that’s why my case is exceptional..." she muttered, her jaw tight as she fought to keep her emotions in check.
McGonagall's expression softened, though her voice remained steady. "Vera, I understand how difficult this is. But you’re not alone here, no matter how isolated you may feel. Hogwarts is your family too, even when it seems unfair."
Vera’s eyes brimmed with unshed tears, but she refused to let them fall.
The idea of being alone in a world that constantly reminded her of what she lacked was overwhelming.
Yet, beneath the sadness and frustration, a fire began to kindle—a determination that refused to be extinguished.
"Can’t you just allow me to go?" she pleaded, her voice carrying the weight of her desperation. "I won’t tell anyone, I promise."
McGonagall’s expression didn’t waver. "Vera—"
"And I’ll behave, and you know what? I’ll do well on all of my exams, and I’ll—"
"That’s enough, Miss Black," McGonagall interrupted, her tone firm and final. "My decision stands."
"But that’s not fair!" Vera protested, her frustration boiling over as she stomped her foot, and in a burst of defiance, crouched on the floor, crossing her arms resolutely.
"I protest, Professor," she declared with dramatic flair. "I won’t leave your office until you allow me to go."
McGonagall’s patience thinned, "Get off the floor," she commanded, her tone now carrying a note of exasperation.
"I have the right to protest," Vera insisted dramatically, "BY LAW!"
For a moment, McGonagall’s stern demeanor softened, and she allowed herself a small, indulgent chuckle. "You really are his niece," she remarked, a glint of amusement in her eyes.
Vera’s eyes narrowed in confusion. "Huh?"
"Your uncle," McGonagall said, her expression turning nostalgic. "He was just as headstrong—perhaps even more so—but let’s hope you know when to stop."
Vera’s confusion deepened as she tried to reconcile this new information with what little she knew about her infamous uncle.
"My uncle Sirius?" she repeated, the name tasting unfamiliar on her tongue.
McGonagall nodded, her gaze distant as she recalled the past. "He would do this very same thing—refusing to take no for an answer. I remember a similar conversation in this very office when he was in his third year. His parents decided to bar him from Hogsmeade after receiving a letter from me about his... activities. He came to me with a whole manifesto, arguing that I was infringing on his rights as a student. He even threatened to quit the Quidditch team."
Her voice then grew softer, almost wistful. "He was always passionate, always driven. And like you, he had a way of making the impossible seem... inevitable."
"Wait... my uncle was in Gryffindor?" Vera asked, her voice a mixture of curiosity and disbelief.
“The first in his family,” McGonagall’s smile faded into a more serious expression. "His parents were none too pleased, and they tried—unsuccessfully—to have him transferred."
"What happened then?" Vera asked after a moment, her curiosity piqued. "Did you let him go to Hogsmeade in the end?"
"No, but as I said, he wasn’t one to take no for an answer. I upheld my decision, but the following week, I saw him at Hogsmeade, leaving Honeydukes. He had found his way there, as I suspected he would."
Vera’s eyes were wide, hanging on every word. "And you punished him, right?"
McGonagall hesitated, a small, knowing smile playing on her lips. "I pretended not to see him."
Vera stared at the floor, her mind a whirl of thoughts and emotions. The revelation about her uncle—this shared defiance—stirred something deep within her. But then, a sheepish grin spread on her face.
“Well…” she looked up at McGonagall with a mischievous glint in her eyes. "Can you pretend not to see me if I went?"
McGonagall’s smile vanished in an instant, replaced by her usual stern expression. "Don’t be ridiculous, Miss Black, and get off the floor at once!" she ordered, her voice leaving no room for argument.
Vera scrambled to her feet, still defiant but tempered by the weight of McGonagall’s authority.
She straightened her skirt, her voice quieter but no less determined. "I just want to be like everyone else, Professor," she murmured, more to herself than to McGonagall. "I want to go to Hogsmeade. I want to—" She trailed off, unable to find the words to express the depth of her longing.
"My word was final, Miss Black," McGonagall said, her tone leaving no room for further argument.
Vera looked at her with a mixture of frustration and resignation, but deep down, the determination remained. She might not have found a way yet, but she wasn’t going to give up.
If Sirius could find a way around the rules, so could she.
Chapter 50: Farewell
Chapter Text
Sunday, June 16, 1991
The Great Hall was alive with the buzz of students dissecting their exam results.
Fred and George were huddled together at the Gryffindor table, heads close in hushed conspiracy over their final prank of the year.
Nearby, Vera was enjoying a slice of cake with the girls, as relaxed as a cat in a sunbeam.
Sitting next to her, Maddie was a picture of frustration, pushing her plate away with a huff.
"Thirteenth!" she exclaimed. "I’ve come thirteenth! Can you believe it?"
Vera, mid-bite, looked up with a shrug. "So what? I landed nineteenth."
"Nineteenth, Vera!" Maddie’s voice pitched higher. "How are you so calm about this?"
Vera paused, savoring her cake as if it were a slice of heaven. "Because, Mads, it’s all a load of codswallop, innit? What’s a rank but a number someone decided to stick on you based on their daft ideas? It’s all tosh. I’d rather measure my life in bites of joy—like this cake. And anyway, does it really matter? We’re all gonna be worm food in the end."
Alicia raised an eyebrow. "So, you’re saying cake trumps grades?"
"Absofuckinlutely," Vera declared with mock seriousness, her fork poised for another indulgent bite.
"And you’re okay with ranking last?" Maddie asked, incredulous.
"Aha," Vera replied, mouth full and thoroughly unbothered.
“And we wonder why we’re losing the House Cup to Slytherin,” Angelina grumbled, shooting a pointed look at the twins. “With a team of pranksters and layabouts, it’s no mystery.”
“HEY!” Vera and the twins protested in unison.
“Oi, don’t get your knickers in a twist.” Vera waved her hand dismissively. “So, they’ve got the shiny cup this year—big deal. It’s just another hunk of metal, isn’t it?”
“It’s a travesty, that’s what it is,” Alicia muttered. “Losing to a bunch of overgrown bats in green robes. No offense, Mads.”
“None taken,” Maddie replied with a shrug. “I’m not exactly thrilled about it either. But… well, Slytherin did earn it this time.”
Fred pulled a face. “Traitor in our midst! You’ve gone to the dark side, Mads.”
Maddie rolled her eyes, though a smile tugged at her lips. “I’m still a Slytherin, Freddie. That’s not changing anytime soon.”
“Doesn’t mean we have to like it,” George grumbled.
“Let them have their precious cup,” Vera said. “If winning means acting like Warrington, I’d rather be dead last.”
“Easy for you to say, Vee.” Angelina shot back. “You’re all zen about the rankings, but some of us care about winning.”
“And you might consider actually studying next year,” Alicia added. “So we don’t end up losing again,”
“I do study!” Vera protested. “It’s not my fault I’m rubbish at magic,” she added, with a not-so-convincing pout.
Angelina smirked. "Well, this just proves that whole pureblood superiority rubbish is exactly that—rubbish."
Vera nearly choked on her cake, but before she could retort, Percy made his entrance, flanked by Oliver, Penelope, and Felix.
"Look who’s decided to grace us with his royal presence," Fred announced, executing a dramatic bow. "The crown prince of the fourth years."
"Not just the fourth years," George added with equal theatrical flair, "but the entire bloody school. All hail Percy the Perfect Prefect-to-be!"
Percy’s ears turned Weasley-red as the group broke into a round of exaggerated applause.
"Oh, pipe down," he muttered, though he couldn’t hide his grin. "It’s just a title."
"Only you, Perce, could make ‘just a title’ sound like a life sentence," Oliver quipped, clapping him on the back.
"What’s all this then?" Vera asked, intrigued.
"Our dear brother," Fred began with a grin, "has gone and topped the whole school."
"Way to go, Percy!" Vera grinned, raising her fork in a toast.
"Weren’t you just saying ranks are a load of tosh?" George pointed out.
"And that cake is better?" Angelina added, smirking.
"Doesn’t mean I can’t be happy for a fellow Gryffindor," Vera shot back, winking.
"Thank you, Vera," Percy said, his smile polite but his demeanor still a tad frosty—a lingering echo of their awkward encounter on the carriage to Hogsmeade at the start of June.
As she dwelled on it, Kenny suddenly appeared, squeezing himself between Alicia and Angelina with a cheeky grin. "Alright, spill the beans—what’s everyone doing over the summer?"
Alicia's eyes sparkled with excitement. "I’m off to Belfast to stay with my mum. And, if all goes well, I might catch a gig with Tommy in August. Should be a laugh."
Fred and George’s eyes widened in exaggerated shock. "Well, well, well," George teased, nudging her playfully, "sounds like someone’s got a summer romance in the works."
Alicia rolled her eyes but couldn’t hide a grin. "Oh, shut it. It’s not like that."
Angelina jumped in. "I’m heading to Notting Hill Carnival with my family. It’s always a riot. What about you two?"
"We’re visiting our great aunt." Fred replied. "We’ve got some plans, but they’re top secret. Let’s just say it involves a lot of sneaking about and maybe an explosion or two."
Maddie, perking up slightly, chimed in. "I’m off to France first, then Devon."
Kenny raised an eyebrow. "What’s in bloody Devon?"
Maddie’s cheeks tinged pink. "Ceddy. I’m spending a week with his family. He’s promised to take me to the beach, have a bonfire, the whole lot."
"That sounds class," Alicia sighed dreamily.
Kenny turned to Vera. "And what about you, Vee? Any exciting plans?"
Vera blinked, momentarily pulled from her daydreams. "Oh, um, not sure yet. Still figuring things out. Might be going to a wedding, though."
"That’s nice," Angelina said. "Whose wedding is it?"
"Uh, m-my governess," she stammered. "She’s marrying a doct—I mean, a healer."
Maddie’s eyes lit up. "Do you think we could meet up in Paris? Maybe you could show me around the wizarding spots there."
Vera’s eyes widened, her fork pausing in mid-air. "Uh, I—"
"It’s totally cool if it’s a hassle with your family," Maddie said quickly. "Just thought it’d be nice to catch up."
But before Vera could respond, Cedric appeared at the table, his signature easy smile in place, though there was a hint of nervousness in his eyes.
Maddie, caught off guard, felt the heat rise to her cheeks.
"Hey, Mads," he began softly. "I’m really sorry for ignoring you during the exams. I got completely lost in the books.”
Maddie blinked, the blush on her cheeks deepening. "It’s okay, Ceddy, I get it.”
Cedric looked visibly relieved at her understanding, a soft smile touching his lips. "I promise I’ll make it up to you," he whispered, and then, in a move that made the entire table freeze in collective surprise, he leaned down and pressed a tender kiss to her cheek.
As he straightened up, his eyes met Maddie’s again, and he gave her a look that was full of promise before walking away.
The second he was out of earshot, the table exploded into excited whispers.
"Did you see that?" Angelina squealed, practically bouncing in her seat. "That was so sweet! I’m dying over here!"
"So, are you two, like, officially boyfriend and girlfriend now?” Kenny asked. “Come on, spill!"
Maddie nodded, trying to play it cool but failing miserably. "Yeah, we are," she admitted.
Vera, who had been watching with a wide grin, leaned in closer, her eyes twinkling with mischief. "Okay, Maddie, out with it—have you snogged yet?"
Maddie’s blush deepened even further, if that were possible.
She glanced down at her hands, fiddling with the edge of her robe, before nodding shyly. "We have," she said, a soft smile tugging at the corners of her lips.
Vera’s eyes went wide with excitement. "Tell me EVERYTHING! Was it soft? Soggy? Did he tilt his head? What did you do with your hands? WHAT DID HE DO WITH HIS? How long did it last? And was his breath minty or what?"
Maddie couldn’t help but laugh. "It was nice, Vera. Really nice. Soft, like you said. And yes, his breath was minty. I think he might have had a peppermint just before."
Vera sighed dramatically, placing a hand over her heart in mock anguish. "Merlin’s beard, I can’t wait until I have my first kiss.”
Alicia snorted, bringing the conversation back down to earth. "With who, exactly?”
Vera straightened up, her chin lifting in defiance. "I do have someone in mind, thank you very much. Not that it’s any of your business."
Alicia raised an eyebrow. "Oh, let me guess—Professor Morales?”
“Ugh, no! He’s like a father to me!”
"What about that Slytherin boy in sixth year you’re always drooling over?” Angelina chimed in.
“I don’t fancy him!"
"Hufflepuff’s Chaser?" Fred added. "You seem to enjoy watching his practices."
Vera rolled her eyes, getting exasperated. "No, no, and no!”
"Hugh Grant, then?” Maddie joined in the teasing.
"If only," Vera sighed wistfully, dramatically resting her chin on her hand. "But alas, he’s out of reach."
"Maybe it’s that painting in the north hall?” George interjected, “I’ve seen you staring at it all dreamy-eyed. You’re clearly smitten."
Vera swatted at him, laughing despite herself. "Oh, shut it! You lot are impossible!"
"You fancy half the wizarding world, Vee," Fred teased. "It’s hard to keep up."
"I do not! And I do have someone specific in mind!"
"Right," Angelina snorted, clearly unconvinced but thoroughly amused.
Vera rolled her eyes as the teasing continued, but the smile tugging at her lips faltered, betraying the storm brewing inside her.
She couldn’t quite shake the flutter that had taken residence in her chest, a flutter that seemed to intensify every time her gaze drifted toward him.
He sat across the table, engrossed in conversation with Percy, his deep, husky laugh causing a dimple to crease his right cheek.
His dark brown hair, tousled and falling just over his forehead, caught the light in a way that made her fingers itch to run through it.
Her eyes traced the sharp angle of his jaw, down to the strong column of his neck, and lastly to his broad shoulders.
The sight of his veiny hands, one of them adorned with a silver ring that gleamed against his tan skin, sent a thrill through her.
The way his lips moved, shaping words she couldn’t hear over the roaring in her ears, captivated her.
Her eyes followed the curve of his throat, watched the way his Adam's apple bobbed when he spoke.
She could feel the heat pooling low in her belly, the sensation spreading like wildfire through her veins.
Felix’s hunter brown eyes locked onto hers for a brief moment, and it was enough to unravel her completely.
She felt herself drowning in their depths, her heart pounding against her ribcage as if it were trying to escape.
Her throat tightened, and she swallowed hard, her face flushing with a deep, burning heat that spread across her skin.
In a desperate attempt to regain some semblance of control, she tore her gaze away from him and forced her attention back to the cake in front of her.
But even as she tried to focus on the dessert, the images lingered, vivid and consuming, leaving her trembling with a need she could barely contain.
As the laughter and teasing around the table gradually faded, she leaned in closer to Maddie, her tone suddenly quieter. “Hey, Mads, can I ask you something?"
“Sure!” Maddie replied.
She cleared her throat, adopting a more serious tone. “How exactly did you know you liked Cedric? I mean, really liked him.”
Maddie chuckled softly. “It’s hard to explain, but I couldn’t stop thinking about him, and whenever he was around, I felt...happier, lighter. It just clicked, you know? Like everything else faded away and it was just him."
Vera frowned slightly, clearly still grappling with the concept. “That's it? I mean, what if it’s just fascination or something? How can you really tell the difference?”
Maddie paused, considering the question with a thoughtful look before a mischievous grin spread across her face. “Well, there’s also the eight-second rule.”
“The what?”
“The eight-second rule,” Maddie repeated with a knowing nod. “If you can look at someone for eight seconds straight without blinking, then you definitely like them. It’s foolproof.”
Vera raised an eyebrow, clearly skeptical. “That sounds like a rather ridiculous test, Mads.”
Maddie shrugged, still grinning. “Maybe, but it works. It’s something about being able to hold their gaze, like the world narrows down to just the two of you. You’ll know if there’s something more.”
Curiosity piqued, and not one to back down from a challenge, Vera decided to give it a shot.
She subtly turned her gaze toward Felix, then began to count silently in her head.
One...
Two...
Three...
Four...
But just as she reached five, Lee burst into the Great Hall, distracting her and breaking her concentration.
“Oi, where’ve you been, mate?” Fred called out, catching sight of him.
Lee made his way over, sliding into the seat beside George. “I’ve been helping Professor Morales pack up. He’s leaving early."
Angelina rolled her eyes, leaning back in her seat. “Exams are over, Lee. Why are you still bootlicking?”
“It’s not like that! I really like Professor Morales. Besides, he’s the reason I’m going to be Commentator next year!”
The table erupted in intrigued murmurs.
“Commentator?” George echoed, his eyebrows shooting up.
Lee’s grin widened as he launched into the story. “Remember that time we were playing footie, and the Slytherins tried to muscle in? Well, Professor Morales was watching the whole thing. He was impressed with my running commentary, so he had a word with Professor McGonagall, and guess what? I’m the new Quidditch commentator for next year!”
Cheers and congratulations rang out around the table, with Fred and George clapping him on the back.
Vera, still a bit distracted from her interrupted eight-second experiment, found herself swept up in the excitement of Lee’s news.
“I’m really going to miss him,” Alicia said, her voice tinged with genuine sadness. “He was such a brilliant professor.”
“Yeah,” Maddie agreed, nodding. “He made classes actually interesting.”
“It’s alright,” Vera chimed in, offering a reassuring smile. “We’ll see him next year.”
But before anyone could respond, Kenny, who had been unusually quiet, suddenly looked up, his expression serious. “Didn’t you hear?”
Vera’s heart skipped a beat, the excitement in the air evaporating in an instant. “Hear... what?”
Kenny glanced around before lowering his voice. “Professor Morales isn’t coming back!”
A wave of disbelief swept over the group, leaving a heavy silence in its wake.
“What do you mean he’s not coming back?” Vera asked, her heart sinking.
Kenny sighed. “Apparently, someone lodged a complaint about his teaching theories being too... extreme. The Ministry got involved and instructed Dumbledore to let him go.”
The news hit Vera like a slit to the throat.
“That’s not fair,” Angelina whispered. “He’s the best professor we’ve had. How could they do this?”
“It’s ridiculous,” Alicia muttered. “They can’t just get rid of him like that.”
Vera, still struggling to process the news, shook her head in disbelief. “Wait so… he’s actually leaving? For good?”
Lee nodded solemnly. “Yeah, Vee. Today. He’s packing up as we speak.”
Vera’s gaze dropped to her cake, her appetite evaporating.
The thought of never seeing Professor Morales again—the one person who had truly made a difference in her life—was unbearable.
A surge of determination ignited within her, and without another word, she stood up and swiftly exited the Great Hall.
She sprinted down the corridors, her heart pounding as she navigated the familiar turns of Hogwarts.
As she approached his office, her heart sank when she saw him stepping out, his bags packed and sitting by his feet.
A lump formed in her throat as tears threatened to spill, but she fought desperately to keep her composure.
Morales turned around, and though his smile was warm, it carried the weight of deep sorrow. "Vera," he said softly, his voice a tender whisper, "I was just about to come find you."
Her breath hitched, catching in her chest as she saw the finality in his eyes.
She slowed to a halt in front of him, her voice trembling with fear and heartbreak.
"Professor…" she said, barely able to speak. "Are you really leaving?"
Morales sighed deeply, setting his bags down as if the weight of them mirrored the burden in his heart.
"Yes," he admitted, the word heavy with resignation. "I am."
“Kenny told me... he said you’re not coming back. That someone lodged a complaint against you… Please, tell me it isn’t true.” she pleaded, her voice breaking with desperation. “Please tell me you’re coming back!”
He placed a gentle hand on her shoulder. “I’m afraid it’s true, Vera…”
"But why?" Her voice cracked as she fought against the tears. “This has to be a mistake. Professor Dumbledore can fix this. We can go to him together!"
He shook his head slowly, the sadness in his eyes deepening. "It’s beyond his control. Whoever made this decision has more power than even he can counter."
“But it’s not fair!” she cried, the injustice of it all burning in her chest. “You’re not extremist! You taught us to defend ourselves, to know right from wrong. There’s nothing extreme about that!”
“I only wish more people saw it that way, my dear.”
The tears she had been holding back finally spilled over, her vision blurred as she shook her head in disbelief. “But you can't leave. Not now, not like this. You’re the best professor here! You’ve taught us more than anyone else ever has. You... you changed my life, sir. You... you fixed me.”
"And you’ve changed mine, Vera. When I first came here, I thought I was just another teacher passing through, just another face in the crowd. But you—" He paused, taking a deep breath, his gaze distant as if searching for the right words. "I was drowning too. I hoped Hogwarts would be my lifeline, something to pull me out of my misery, but instead, it deepened it. And then, just when I was ready to give up, you walked into my office, saying things I never expected to hear from someone of your age. You’ve reignited the purpose behind my book, restoring my hope and belief that our cause is still alive. Now, I know I must see it through to the end. But before I can finish, there’s something I must do first.”
Her eyes widened. "What do you mean?"
"I’m going away to find a friend, someone who might help me uncover the truth about… the accident. I don’t know if I’ll come back, Vera. But I have to finish that book. Even if it costs me my life, I will see it through. And when it’s done, I’ll send it to you first."
Vera’s heart clenched at his words. The thought of losing him for good was almost too much to bear. "But why? Why risk everything?"
His gaze was steady, a fire burning quietly behind his eyes. "Because the war is yet to be over. There are truths that must be uncovered, battles that need to be fought, even if the odds are against us. You’ve always known that, haven’t you? That the system isn’t always right. Sometimes, it needs to be challenged. And this... this is my way of doing that."
Vera wiped her eyes with the back of her hand, but the tears kept coming. "I don’t want you to go," she sobbed. "I don’t know what I’m going to do without you here."
He knelt down so they were eye to eye. "Vera, you’re stronger than you realize. You’ve got everything you need right here," he said, gently tapping her chest where her heart was. “I’ve never met anyone quite like you. Despite your youth, you possess a wisdom beyond your years, and I have no doubt that you are destined for greatness.”
"But I don’t want to do it without you!"
His gaze softened, though the fire still burned behind his eyes. "Before I go," he said quietly, reaching into his coat pocket, "I have something for you."
He pulled out a worn, faded record sleeve and held it out toward her.
Vera stared at the familiar cover, her breath catching in her throat. "Abbey Road?" she whispered, her voice barely steady as she took it from him with trembling hands. "I thought you didn’t like The Beatles…"
He gave a small, sad smile, one that barely reached his eyes. "I love them," he admitted. "They were my favorite band once, a long time ago."
Vera blinked up at him, confusion flickering in her tear-filled eyes. "But… then why don’t you listen to them anymore?"
His smile vanished. His jaw tightened, the light in his eyes dimming as memories flooded him, dark and cruel.
"The Death Eaters," he began, his voice low and raw. "They knew. They knew it was my favorite. When they had me…" His words caught, but he forced them out, each one more painful than the last. "They’d play their music, over and over, while they… while they tortured me. So that if I ever thought of listening to them again, all I’d remember would be the pain."
Vera’s heart shattered at his words, her world spinning as his truth hit her like a blow. She couldn’t breathe. She simply couldn't breathe.
The record in her hands felt heavy, unbearable, like it was suddenly too much to hold.
Tears spilled freely down her cheeks, her chest heaving with sobs as she tried to process the horror.
He turned back to her, his face filled with a quiet, resigned strength, but his eyes reflected the pain she felt for him.
He stepped closer and gently placed a hand on her shoulder. "That’s why we fight, Vera," he said softly. "Because people like them... they take what you love, the good things, and they twist them into something that haunts you. But you don’t have to let them win. Not ever."
Vera clutched the record to her chest, her tears falling harder now, overwhelmed by the depth of his suffering, the weight of his past.
She looked up at him through blurry eyes, her heart breaking for the man standing in front of her. "I’ll fight," she whispered fiercely, her voice trembling with raw emotion. "I’ll fight for you. For all of us."
He smiled again, but this time it was warmer, filled with something more—hope.
"Then you’re already stronger than they ever could be."
He pulled her into a tight embrace, holding her as if he could shield her from the harsh realities they both faced.
When he finally pulled back, his hands remained on her shoulders, grounding her. “I will write to you as often as I can and will always be here for you. But there’s something you must promise me.”
"Anything, Professor."
"Keep being you. Keep questioning, keep challenging, and keep resisting. The world needs people like you, now more than ever. And remember," he added, his gaze locking with hers, “Never stop fighting for what’s right. Even when it feels like the whole world is against you. To resist or to die, Vera. To resist or to die."
She nodded, the weight of his words settling deep within her. "I promise."
“I eagerly await the day when we meet again, and you regale me with tales of your accomplishments, no matter their nature. And I have a feeling you’ll find love along the way," he added, with a gentle nudge and a wink. "Maybe I’ll even have the pleasure of meeting your 'bear.'"
Despite the tears, a shy chuckle escaped her, and Morales’s grip on her shoulders tightened briefly before he let go, picking up his bags with a sense of finality.
"Goodbye, Vera," he said softly, the words carrying the weight of a promise he intended to keep.
"Goodbye, Professor," she replied, her heart heavy with the knowledge that the battle was just beginning.
Watching him walk away, she felt a profound sense of loss, but also a deep, burning determination.
Morales had changed her life, and now, it was up to her to carry on what he had taught her.
She stood there long after he had gone, the echoes of his footsteps fading into the distance. But as he disappeared from her sight, she found herself unable to just let him go.
She followed him down the corridor, through the courtyard, and all the way to the gate.
Her feet moved almost automatically, as if being near him for just a few more moments would somehow make this easier.
At the gate, he turned back one last time, his eyes meeting hers, and she could see the sadness in them.
Before she could say anything, a group of her friends caught up, all of them out of breath but determined to be there for this final goodbye.
Fred and Georg were unusually solemn as they waved, their usual grins softened by the weight of the moment.
Angelina and Alicia stood nearby, their eyes shimmering with unshed tears, while Lee tried to maintain a brave face, though his voice cracked slightly as he shouted, "We'll miss you, Professor!"
Professor Morales smiled warmly at them all, raising a hand in farewell. "Take care of each other," he called out. "And remember, your time here at Hogwarts is precious. Don’t waste it."
As he turned and walked through the gate, his figure slowly disappeared down the path, leaving the students standing there, united in their shared sense of loss.
Vera watched until he was completely out of sight, a heavy silence settling over the group.
She then turned to Kenny, her voice tinged with the remnants of her tears. "Kenny," she said quietly, "do you know who made the complaint about him?"
Kenny shook his head, his expression serious. "I don’t know, Vera. I really don’t..."
That night, Vera wept uncontrollably. She played her music box on an endless loop, her gaze locked on the photograph of her parents.
The sleepless night had left her feeling drained but resolute, and when the sun finally rose, she grabbed Alicia's broom, quietly slipping out of the Gryffindor common room, and made her way to the flying courtyard.
The morning was still and eerily quiet, as if the world itself held its breath. The air was cold, and a faint mist lingered over the grass, clinging to the earth as the night reluctantly released its grip.
The broom felt heavy in her hands, not from its physical weight but from the burden of her thoughts.
She looked up at the sky, her breath puffing into the crisp air like tiny clouds.
The silence was profound, the emptiness of the courtyard magnifying her solitude.
She longed to soar, to feel the wind rush past her face, to escape the relentless thoughts that haunted her—but she remained earthbound.
Instead, she sank to the cold, dewy grass, and with a sigh of surrender, laid the broom beside her and allowed the stillness of the morning to envelop her.
Her eyes drifted to the horizon as she became lost in her thoughts, reflecting on all she had lost and wondering what the future might hold.
Suddenly, she heard footsteps approaching.
"What are you doing here, kitten?"
"Morning, Felix," she said, forcing a smile. "I was trying to—never mind."
"Fly?"
"I thought I might give it a shot before we leave, but it seems foolish now," she admitted, shaking her head. "What about you?"
He didn’t answer right away, just looked down at the broom in his hand.
"Oh," she murmured. "I thought you’d quit?"
"Quidditch, yes. But I still love flying. I come here every morning, just to clear my head."
"And it helps?"
"Without a doubt."
She glanced at the broom lying next to her, a pang of envy tightening her chest.
She wished she could soar too.
"Don't tell me you've given up," he said gently, noticing the shadow in her eyes.
"I can't do it," she whispered, lowering her head. "I just can't."
Felix watched her, a mix of emotions flickering across his face, then, with quiet determination, mounted his broom.
"Come on," he said softly, his voice breaking through her thoughts.
She looked up at him, startled. "What?"
"Get on."
"Behind you?"
"No, in my lap," he replied with a playful glint in his eye, and her heart skip a beat. "Of course behind me. Now, come on."
She hesitated as she stood, her steps tentative as she moved toward him. “What if someone sees us?"
"Everyone's asleep. Besides, I’ll take you somewhere far from the castle. Just you and me."
Her heart skipped another beat.
"But what if..." she whispered, her voice trembling, "what if I fall?"
He turned slightly, his gaze locking onto hers. "I will never let you fall, Vera."
The way he said her name, with such unwavering certainty, melted her doubts.
Taking a deep breath, she mounted the broom behind him, her heart racing at their closeness.
"Hold on to me," he murmured, his voice a gentle command.
Tentatively, she reached out, her fingers barely brushing the fabric of his shirt out of politeness.
He let out a soft chuckle. "Do you wish to fall?"
"Of course not!”
"Then hold on tight," he said, reaching back to guide her hands around his waist.
Her chest pressed against his back, her hands resting against the firm muscles of his stomach.
The warmth of his body seeped through the thin fabric of his shirt, and the subtle scent of his cologne wrapped around her like a comforting embrace.
She rested her head against his back, her heart pounding in sync with the rhythm of their ascent.
"I’ll be gentle," he whispered, "I’ve got you, Vera. Don’t worry."
She closed her eyes and let him take control.
True to his word, he lifted the broom gently off the ground, the ascent slow and steady.
Then, with a bit more confidence, he increased their speed slightly. Glancing back, he noticed her eyes were still closed.
"Keep them open!" he called over the wind. "You're missing the best part!"
Reluctantly, she opened her eyes and was instantly captivated.
The emerald-green grass below shrank into a patchwork, while the castle’s towering spires loomed around them like ancient sentinels.
She gazed around in wonder, her breath catching in her throat.
"It's so beautiful!" she yelled, her voice filled with awe.
"I know, right?" he shouted back, a grin evident in his voice.
He flew them away from the castle, occasionally accelerating, making her heart race in sync with the broom’s pace.
She couldn’t believe it—she was actually flying, and with Felix of all people.
The sensation was exhilarating, a rush of freedom and thrill, heightened by the warmth of his body so close to hers.
She hesitated for a moment, then gently squeezed her arms around his waist, hoping he wouldn’t notice. She then pressed herself closer, feeling the steady rhythm of his breath and letting her body align with his.
He glanced over his shoulder, noticing the way she nestled into him, but said nothing. Instead, he simply kept flying, guiding them higher and further into the sky, the world below becoming a distant blur.
They soared over the lake, Felix tilting the broom just enough to skim the water's surface. A cool spray hit her face, and she burst into laughter, the sound ringing out in the still morning air.
Felix’s own laughter mingled with hers as he veered toward the mountains, the broom cutting smoothly through the crisp air.
As she looked down, something caught her eye, a glimmer in the distance, and she couldn’t help but lean forward, her curiosity piqued.
"No way!" she suddenly exclaimed, excitement. "Felix, let's go down there!"
"Where to?" he shouted back, trying to follow her gaze.
She pointed eagerly towards a spot below. "Right there!"
Without hesitation, Felix angled the broom into a descent, bringing them closer to the mountain's top, where a meadow of grass and wildflowers stretched out like a hidden paradise.
As soon as they touched down, Vera leaped off and took off running.
"Where are you going?" he called after her, laughing at her sudden burst of energy.
She didn’t answer, her joy carrying her forward like a gust of wind.
He quickly followed, curiosity and something warmer pulling him after her as they finally reached a vast field that seemed to glow with a sea of vivid red.
"Poppies!" she shouted, her voice alight with delight. "It's poppies!"
Without a second thought, she dived into the field, sinking among the vibrant wildflowers, her arms and legs spread out like a carefree starfish.
Felix watched her, a smile softening his expression as he saw her excitement.
"You like poppies?" he asked.
"I love them!" she exclaimed, her eyes sparkling with joy. “Do you know what they symbolize, Felix?”
“What?”
“Sacrifice.”
Felix carefully set his broom aside and stepped into the field, moving slowly, mindful not to crush the delicate blooms underfoot.
However, as he approached, he accidentally crushed a poppy beneath his feet, its fragile petals crumbling.
He lay down beside her, the red flowers brushing gently against his skin as he settled into the soft grass.
The atmosphere was serene, a quiet magic enveloping them as the world faded away. The only sounds were the distant chirping of birds and the gentle rustle of the wind through the flowers. The air was sweet with the earthy scent of poppies mingling with the freshness of morning dew.
Above them, the sky was a pale blue canvas streaked with the golden rays of the rising sun, casting a soft glow over the meadow.
Vera felt a deep sense of peace as she gazed up at the sky, the weight of the past night lifting from her shoulders.
The poppies swayed gently around them, as if dancing to a melody only they could hear.
Felix lay close beside her, close enough that she could feel the comforting warmth of his presence, yet far enough that they were both lost in their own thoughts, content in the quiet company of one another.
For a moment, everything felt perfect.
The world outside the meadow ceased to exist. It was just the two of them, lying among the poppies, watching the clouds drift lazily overhead.
She shifted slightly, her gaze falling on her hand just inches from his.
Swallowing nervously, she began to inch her fingers closer, wanting to bridge the gap.
However, just as her gloved fingertip brushed against his, he pulled his arms away and rested his hands behind his head.
For a fleeting moment, disappointment washed over her, but she quickly pushed the feeling aside, refusing to linger on it.
She let out a soft, contented sigh, her earlier worries melting away in the beauty of the moment.
Felix turned his head slightly to look at her, a tender smile playing on his lips. “Penny for your thoughts?” he asked.
She hesitated, searching for the right words. "This year has been… rough," she finally said. "I feel like I’ve aged decades, like I’m as old as Professor Dumbledore with everything that’s happened.”
His brow furrowed slightly, concern deepening his gaze. “I noticed you’ve been down, especially that day in Hogsmeade. But I didn’t want to intrude. Are you okay?”
She let out a sigh. “So much has happened that I don’t even know where to start. I was just thinking about the beginning of the year, and it feels like a lifetime ago. I remember hoping it would be better than my first year, but it only got worse. And now… I can’t shake the feeling that next year will be even harder. I just can't help but feel like happiness always slips away the moment I get close to it.”
Felix closed his eyes briefly, his features softening as he hummed in thought. "Yeah, life does have a way of doing that sometimes," he murmured. “But it doesn’t always stay that way. Sometimes, when you least expect it, happiness finds its way back to you.”
Just then, a delicate butterfly with red and black wings fluttered down from the sky, landing gently on his chest.
He opened his eyes, his lips curling into a small smile as he watched the butterfly rest peacefully against the fabric of his sweater.
Vera turned her head to look at him, and for a moment, she forgot all her worries.
His face, softened by the morning light and the gentle presence of the butterfly, looked almost ethereal.
The lines of his features were smooth and serene, his expression one of quiet contentment.
She found herself admiring the way his hair fell slightly over his forehead, the way his lashes brushed his cheeks, and the way his lips curved into that small, almost secretive smile.
Her heart fluttered in her chest as her gaze lingered on him a moment longer than she intended.
Remembering Maddie’s eight-second rule, she took a deep breath and began to count silently, her mind trying to calm the surge of emotions.
Each second felt like an eternity as she absorbed the moment, the quiet intimacy between them, the warmth of his presence, and the way his eyes seemed to soften as he looked at her.
She could feel her pulse quicken, her thoughts racing, but she held his gaze, determined to savor every heartbeat of this fleeting moment.
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Chapter 51: Summer '91
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Part III: The Heir (The Unexpected Virtue of Lying)
Dedicated to my first love,
who showed me the beauty of being truly seen and cherished.
Chapter 51: Summer ’91
♪ I see her face every day
I see her face, doesn't help me
I see her face every day
I see her face, doesn't help me ♪
Vera flung herself onto the battered, clutching her heart with the over-the-top theatrics of a Shakespearean heroine on the brink of death.
“Kaya,” she gasped, eyes wide with melodrama, “I think I’m in love.”
Kaya, perched coolly on the armchair, didn’t even glance up from painting her nails. “Sorry, what now?”
“I. Am. In. Love,” Vera repeated. “Proper, head-over-heels, can’t-breathe, soul-crushing love!”
“Do me a favor, Vera. Get a grip.”
“I can’t!” Vera wailed, sitting up and clutching a cushion. “I can’t stop thinking about him. I can’t eat, I can’t drink, I can’t sleep—”
“Sounds more like a dodgy kebab than love,”
“I’m serious!”
Kaya gave her a flat look. “He’s older than you.”
“Not that much older! He’s just… mature.”
“He’s galaxies out of your league.”
“Minor details. I’ll find my way to him.”
“He probably has a girlfriend. Or ten.”
“I’ll wait.”
“He’s from a different world, Vera.”
“I don’t care! He’s mine. He just… doesn’t know it yet.”
♪ She's so high
She's so high
She's so high
I want to crawl all over her ♪
Kaya rolled her eyes. “Oh, for God sake! As if Damon fucking Albarn would ever look twice your way.”
Vera’s gaze locked on the telly’s screen as a Blur music video played, Damon Albarn’s smirk practically daring the universe to love him.
“He's the love of my life, K.”
“He doesn’t even know you exist,”
"He will. One day…”
Kaya snorted. “Oh, right. You’ll just casually bump into him at Camden Market, both of you reaching for the same vinyl, and boom—he falls madly in love with you?”
“Exactly! It’s destiny.”
“Destiny, my arse. He’s probably at Glastonbury right now, snogging a supermodel.”
“Once he sees me he'll forget all about those supermodels. He'll stare into my eyes and hold my face closer to him then BOOM! His lips will meet mine and we'll snog all night long."
Kaya rolled her eyes so hard it was a miracle they didn’t get stuck. Meanwhile, Vera leaned toward the telly, whispering as if Damon could somehow hear her through the screen.
“Come here, you beautiful man… Let me crawl all over you!”
She leaned in—closer, closer—until her lips pressed against the TV screen in a dramatic snog, her hands cradling the edges like they were Damon’s chiseled cheekbones.
BZZZT!
The static crackled to life, sending a jolt through her lips.
“AAAAARGH!” she shrieked, stumbling backward while clutching her mouth.
“No more Blur for you.” Kaya said, grabbing the remote control. “You’re officially cut off.”
“Oi!”
“Honestly, you need help.”
“I need him!” Vera shot back. “You’re just jealous,”
“Jealous? Of what? Your imaginary relationship with a bloke who’s probably got a queue of groupies longer than the line at the chippy on a Friday night?”
“Jealous of my passion,” Vera said with a defiant pout. “You wouldn’t understand.”
"Oh, I understand. I’m madly in love with Robbie Williams but at least I’m realistic about it!”
“It’s different for Damon and me! I will meet him, we’ll get married, and I’ll give him so many babies.”
“You’re mad.”
“Madly in love. Now turn it back on!”
“No chance,"
Possessed by the spirit of chaotic obsession, Vera flung herself onto Kaya like a deranged human Bludger.
“YOU CAN’T SEPARATE US!”
Kaya staggered under the unexpected weight, barely managing to stay upright. “Vera, GET OFF ME!”
“NOT UNTIL YOU TURN IT BACK ON!”
Suddenly, Miss Nelson stormed into the living area, her voice cutting through the chaos like a whip. “What in the name of god is going on in here?”
Vera, still clinging to Kaya, pointed an accusatory finger. “She’s trying to separate me from Damon, Miss!”
Miss Nelson’s lips twitched with a mix of amusement and exasperation, shaking her head as if she had heard it all before. “Vera, for heaven’s sake, wise up. Damon Albarn doesn’t know you, and he never will if you keep living in this fantasy world.”
Kaya grinned smugly from under Vera’s grasp. “Told you,”
“And,” Miss Nelson added with a sharp look, “you shouldn’t even be thinking about boys when you’re barely keeping up in school.”
Vera's cheeks burned with shame as her eyes dropped to the worn, fraying carpet beneath her feet. How could she possibly explain that her lackluster performance at school wasn’t due to laziness, but something far more complex?
Miss Nelson sighed, rubbing her temples. “Right, enough of this. You two—go down to the Chippy and get dinner.”
Vera glanced up, frowning. “Wait—Mrs. Quinn’s not cooking again?”
“No,” Miss Nelson replied, her tone softening slightly. “She’s still in the hospital with her husband.”
Kaya sat up, brushing herself off. “It’s Lydia and Abbie’s turn to get dinner, not ours."
“I can’t find them anywhere,” Miss Nelson said with a weary sigh. “Probably off gallivanting who knows where.”
“That’s not fair,” Vera muttered, crossing her arms.
"I’ll give you extra money for ice cream. But only if you go now. Deal?”
“Deal!”
Miss Nelson chuckled, handing them the money. “Off you go. And don’t dawdle!”
As the two girls walked down the street toward the Chippy, Vera nudged Kaya.
“Damon will fall in love with me one day, you know.”
“Sure. And we’ll have tea with the Queen while we’re at it.” Kaya teased, linking arms with her as they disappeared into the cool evening air, already debating which ice cream flavors to get.
As they strolled down the street, they rounded the corner and nearly collided with their cantankerous neighbor, Mr. Dawson.
The old man stood hunched over his walking stick, his permanent scowl carved deeper into his face than the cracks in the pavement. He squinted at them through thick glasses, his beady eyes narrowing further as they approached.
“Well, well, if it isn’t the neighborhood Jezebels,” he growled, his voice like gravel in a blender.
His gaze then dropped to their legs, and he harrumphed loudly. “Dressed like that, you’re no better than common whores."
Kaya, without missing a beat, flashed him her brightest, most innocent smile. “Why, thank you, Mr. Dawson! Always a pleasure to hear your fashion critiques.”
Vera followed suit, batting her eyelashes dramatically. “You’re too kind, sir. We do try our best.”
Mr. Dawson’s face turned an alarming shade of red, and he jabbed his walking stick at the ground for emphasis. “Don’t get cheeky with me, girls! No decent man will ever look at you dressed like that!”
“Oh, Mr. Dawson,” Vera said with a sigh, clasping her hands like a damsel in distress. “You wound us! What will we do without the approval of the world’s most dashing bachelor?”
Kaya clutched her heart as if she might faint. “It’s a tragedy, truly. How will we ever recover?”
Mr. Dawson muttered something about “the youth these days” as the girls sauntered past him, waving cheerfully over their shoulders.
“Have a lovely evening, Mr. Dawson!” Vera called out sweetly.
“Don’t stay up too late worrying about our hemlines!” Kaya added with a grin.
Mr. Dawson sputtered incoherently, shaking his fist in their direction as they turned the corner. Once out of sight, the two burst into laughter, leaning against a lamppost to catch their breath.
“He’s probably off to write a letter to the Daily Mail about us,” Kaya snickered.
“‘The moral decay of society: Exhibit A,’” Vera quipped, pretending to hold an imaginary newspaper.
They linked arms again, their laughter echoing down the street as they continued their mission for dinner and ice cream.
The warm, familiar scent of fried fish and vinegar hit the moment they stepped into ‘The Golden Cod’, their neighborhood chippy.
It was a small, worn-out shop with scuffed linoleum floors, yellowed walls plastered with fading posters of seaside towns, and a buzzing neon sign that flickered occasionally like it was trying to give up. The counter was a little sticky, as always, and behind it stood the ever-cheerful Mrs. Patel, the woman who had been making fish and chips since before they were even born.
She glanced up and greeted them with a warm smile. “Ah, Vera, Kaya! Haddock, large chips, and twelve pickled eggs, right?”
“You know us too well, Mrs. Patel.” Vera said, leaning casually against the counter.
Mrs. Patel chuckled. “Hard not to, with you two showing up here more often than the postman. How’s Mr. Quinn doing?”
Vera’s smile faltered slightly. “He’s back in the hospital.”
Mrs. Patel clicked her tongue sympathetically. “Poor Mrs. Quinn. She’s a strong woman, though. Always has been.”
“She is,” Kaya agreed.
Mrs. Patel gave them a kind look. “Well, you girls wait outside while I get your order ready. Won’t be long.”
“Thanks, Mrs. Patel,” Vera said, and they headed out the door, the little bell above it jangling behind them.
Just outside, the ice cream truck had pulled up, its bright colors and cheerful jingle drawing a small crowd of kids and a few parents. It was manned by a bored-looking teenager who barely glanced up as the two girls approached.
They raised themselves on their tiptoes to peer at the menu board. But as they leaned forward, the movement caused their skirts to lift slightly. Unbeknownst to them, two boys walking by slowed their pace, glancing over with grins that were far from subtle.
Kaya caught the look, rolled her eyes, and nudged Vera with her elbow. “Oi, are you seriously not wearing any shorts under that?”
Vera shrugged nonchalantly, still examining the menu. “It’s too bloody hot,"
"Vera!”
“What? It’s like thirty degrees out. I’ll melt.”
“Yeah, well, you’re giving those two muppets behind us a free show.” Kaya jerked her head toward the boys, who quickly looked away, suddenly fascinated by a nearby lamppost.
Vera glanced back, unimpressed. “Let them look. It’s the most excitement they’ll get all summer.”
“No wonder Mr. Dawson thinks we're whores. You’re shameless.”
“Confident,” Vera corrected with a smirk. “Now, what are we getting? I’m leaning toward the Screwball.”
“You are a screwball,” Kaya muttered, shaking her head.
Vera squinted at the menu, tapping her chin. “I dunno, though. That chocolate fudge looks proper banging. I might give it a go.” She leaned forward to catch the bored teenager’s attention. “’Scuse me, mate—could I try a bit of the chocolate?”
The boy didn’t even look up. “No bloody samples."
Vera blinked. “Well, that’s rude.”
Kaya, however, was already cracking her knuckles. “Step aside, love. Watch and learn.”
With a swish of her hair, she approached the window, her entire demeanor shifting like she was on the catwalk at London Fashion Week. She rested her arms on the ledge, leaning in just enough to make the boy finally look up.
“Hiya,” she purred. “You sure you don’t do samples? ‘Cause I’ve heard your chocolate’s the best in Sutton, and I’m dying to know if it’s true.”
The teenager blinked. Twice. Then, like a robot obeying a hidden command, he reached for a spoon, scooped a bit of chocolate fudge, and handed it over without a word.
Vera watched, slack-jawed, as Kaya delicately licked the spoon, making a show of it like she was in a Cadbury advert.
“Mmm,” she hummed, eyes half-lidded. “You were right. It is the best. But…” She sighed, all dramatic-like. “I’ve only got enough for a 99 Flake. Shame, really.”
The boy, practically melting into a puddle of hormones, didn’t even hesitate. “It’s alright. You can have it. On the house.”
Kaya’s eyes sparkled. “Really? That’s so sweet of you.” She winked, and the boy looked ready to hand over the entire truck.
Vera, meanwhile, was staring like she’d just witnessed a new form of magic. “Wait, what? You’re not gonna pay for it?”
Kaya shrugged as she accepted the free ice cream. “Didn’t need to.”
“How—”
“Simple.” Kaya smirked. “Boys are the stupidest creatures on earth. Bit of a smile, bit of a wink, and boom—free ice cream.”
Vera shook her head in disbelief. “That’s mental.”
“No, babe. Efficient. Now, are you getting one or are we robbing this place blind?”
The two girls then flopped down on the pavement outside the chippy, and Vera took a long, exaggerated lick of hers, swirling her tongue around it like she was starring in some overly-dramatic romance flick.
Kaya raised an eyebrow, watching with equal parts confusion and mild horror. "What exactly are you doing?"
"Practicing,"
"Practicing for what?"
"My first snog," Vera replied, dead serious.
"Please don’t tell me you’re saving yourself for Damon."
“Nah, nothing like that. Just, you know, gotta make sure my technique’s up to scratch. Don’t wanna be that girl when I finally have my first kiss at school this year."
"Honestly, it’s not that deep, Vee. First snog’s more awkward than anything. Barely worth the fuss."
"Of course you’d say that. You’ve already had yours. Now tell me, is he any good at it, though?"
Kaya’s smile widened. "Dex is too good. Knows how to start off soft—none of that teeth-clashing nightmare. And he doesn’t rush it. He’s got... finesse."
Vera sighed, staring wistfully at her cone. "Blimey, I still can’t believe you’ve got a boyfriend already.”
"And I can’t believe you don’t. Didn’t you say some of the boys at your school are fit?"
"Fit, sure, but none of them would look twice at me."
"Nah, I bet there’s someone out there who’s into you, just too much of a muppet to say it."
"Yeah, well, what if he’s not fit? Am I supposed to settle for some troll just ‘cause he’s the only one who likes me?"
"You’re overthinking it, mate. Doesn’t always have to be the boy making the first move, you know. If you fancy someone, just tell him. Odds are he’ll be buzzing."
"Is that what you did with Dex?"
"Yep! I straight-up told him I fancied him. And turns out he fancied me too but was bricking it about saying anything first."
"You told him? Just like that?"
"You’ve just gotta own it, Vee."
Vera stared down at her ice cream, swirling it absently in her hands. “I’m worried my first kiss is gonna rubbish.”
“Alright, how d’you want it to be then?”
Vera tilted her head back, gazing at the sky with a dreamy expression. “At night. Under the stars. Everything quiet, like the whole world just... disappears. Like something out of a film. Perfect, you know?”
Kaya snorted. “Blimey, that’s romantic. And completely unrealistic.”
“Oi! It can happen. I’ll make it happen.”
“And who’s the lucky bloke who’s gonna star in this cinematic masterpiece?”
Vera bit her lip. “Umm…”
“Let’s see... Roger? You said he’s nice to you.”
“Yeah, but I can’t see him like that.”
“Alright. What about those mental twins?”
“Fred and George would snog each other before one of them thinks of snogging me!”
“Fair point. Okay, what about that lad whose dad’s a nightmare... Cass—”
“Absolutely not!” Vera cut her off, her tone sharp. “And don’t you dare bring him up again.”
“Alright, alright! Keep your knickers on. What about Cedric? You used to talk about him non-stop.”
Vera sighed. “I don’t fancy him anymore.”
“Did he do something?”
“No, but he’s got a girlfriend now. Maddie. She’s miles prettier than me. And rich.”
Kaya rolled her eyes. “Right, ‘cause being rich automatically makes her better.” She paused, then grinned. “Okay, what about the Japanese one?”
“NO!”
“You said he was fit-"
“Yeah, but Avery's a complete prat. An arrogant, shallow git. I would rather snog Snape than him.”
“Snape? The greasy-haired chemistry teacher? Over the most handsome bloke at school? You must really hate him.”
“Oh, you’ve no idea. Besides, Avery wouldn’t even consider me. He’s perfect in every way, and I’m... well, me.”
“Don’t be so hard on yourself.”
“I’ve got more body hair than him for heaven's sake. He said it himself, you know.”
“Oh, so that’s why you’re shaving every two days?”
“Yeah,” Vera mumbled, cheeks flushing. “It’s embarrassing.”
"Okay what about Felix?" Kaya asked casually, but the name hit Vera like a jolt of lightning.
She could feel the heat rise to her cheeks, betraying her even as she tried to stay composed.
Kaya didn’t miss a thing. "Oh, this is interesting. You like him, don’t you? Felix."
"I don’t," Vera said too quickly, her voice cracking just enough to betray the lie.
Kaya leaned in, eyes gleaming with mischief. "You do."
"I don’t," Vera repeated, but the rapid thrum of her heart said otherwise.
“You do! You’ve got that look—like you’re smitten.”
“Stop it.”
“Admit it. You fancy Felix!”
“I’ll end you,” Vera threatened, narrowing her eyes.
“C’mon, who’s fitter—Felix or Damon?”
“Damon, duh.”
“Liar. You’re all about Felix.”
“Well, I’ve got a better chance of pulling the whole of Blur and Take That than Felix fucking Bobbin.”
Kaya blinked. “Wait, Why?”
“Because he’s a Bobbin.”
"And? What, are they royalty or something?”
“No, but they have enough money to act like ones.”
“But what does this have to do with him?”
“His family would never accept me, K.”
“Because you’re an orphan?”
Vera looked at her, searching for a way to explain. How could a Muggle like her understand the tangled, bloody history between the Blacks and the Bobbins?
“Fuck ‘em,” Kaya muttered. “I hate those posh tossers who think like that.”
“Felix isn’t like them, though. He’d never see me that way.”
“Do you think he fancies you?”
Vera snorted. “Don’t make me laugh. He could have any girl he wants. Why would he ever look at me?”
“He might.”
“He wouldn’t.”
“Well, if you’re into him, you should tell him.”
“I’d rather get shot.”
"Alright, at least make a move.”
Vera hesitated, the thought of confessing her feelings terrifying. But keeping it bottled up wasn’t much better.
“You’re thinking about it,” Kaya teased.
“I’m not.”
“You are. Just a little nudge... and who knows? Perhaps he'll be your first kiss.”
“Yeah, maybe. Or maybe I’ll just stick to snogging ice cream cones.”
“Brilliant plan. I’m sure that’ll go really well.”
“By the way,” Vera said, trying to change the subject, “I need to borrow your denim skirt for tonight.”
“Fine. But don’t bleed all over them like those jeans I gave you.”
“That wasn’t my fault! I didn’t know I was gonna get my period.”
“Track it,”
“I do! It’s just… it never shows up on time.”
“Rebellious uterus. Got it. Just don’t ruin my clothes again. Now let's go, I think Mrs. Patel is calling us over.”
The sun had dipped below the horizon, leaving London draped in the cool blues and purples of dusk as Vera trudged alongside Kaya. The two were out after dinner, enjoying the freedom that St. Mary's offered. Vera couldn't help but appreciate Miss Nelson's trust, allowing them to come and go as they pleased—such a contrast to the strict curfews enforced at Hogwarts.
“Why do I always let you drag me into this?” she whined, kicking a stray pebble down the pavement. “Sitting in a cramped garage while your boyfriend butchers another Clash song isn’t exactly how I pictured spending my Saturday night.”
“Oh, pipe down, misery guts,” Kaya shot back. “You love it. Besides, it’s not Dex’s fault you’ve got no taste.”
Vera scoffed. “This, from the girl dating a bloke who thinks adding a cowbell is revolutionary.”
“That cowbell’s got soul!”
“And his drummer’s got a staring problem. Seriously, every time I look up, he’s gawping at me like I’ve sprouted a second head.”
“Tony?” Kaya cackled. “He’s harmless. Probably just can’t believe a girl listens to their music.”
“Yeah, but it’s annoying,”
“You better get used to that, babe. Now that you've got tits,”
The two soon turned the corner onto Dex’s street, where modest row houses stood in neat lines. Dex’s place was nothing fancy—a two-story terrace with peeling paint on the door and a tiny patch of front garden dominated by a lone gnome missing its nose.
“Is his mum here?” Vera asked.
“Nah, she’s got another shift at the hospital” Kaya responded, bounding up the steps and rapping on the door. "More freedom for us, I guess."
A moment later, Dex answered, his hair a mess of spikes that looked like they’d been styled with industrial glue. He grinned when he saw Kaya, pulling her into a dramatic kiss that made Vera gag audibly.
“Oi, Vera,” he said, pulling back and grinning at her. “Glad you could make it.”
“Yeah, yeah,” she replied, waving him off. "Wouldn't miss it for the world,"
They followed him through the narrow hallway and into the garage, which had been haphazardly converted into a practice space.
The band—three boys in various states of dishevelment—were already tuning up. The geeky drummer, Tony, gave Vera an awkward wave, which she pretended not to see.
The garage smelled faintly of motor oil and teenage boys, and the walls were plastered with mismatched band posters: The Cure, The Smiths, even a faded one of Duran Duran that looked entirely out of place.
“You ready for this, ladies?” Dex asked, grabbing his guitar and slinging it over his shoulder.
“Define ‘ready,’” Vera deadpanned, plopping onto an old beanbag that had definitely seen better days.
“TOTALLY!” Kaya yelled.
The band launched into a chaotic rendition of London Calling, complete with the aforementioned cowbell and Dex screaming off-key. Kaya was already swaying to the beat, mouthing the words as if Dex was the second coming of Joe Strummer, while Vera sighed and leaned back, her eyes tracing the cracks in the ceiling.
Annoyance simmered beneath her calm exterior, but one thing was certain: nights like these, without a doubt, were far better than any sort of magic.
When the band finally wrapped up their practice, she stretched and let out a dramatic groan. "Finally, thought I’d grow old listening to Dex butcher Train in Vain for the hundredth time."
Dex shot her a cocky grin. "That’s ‘art,’ Vee. You wouldn’t get it."
"Art, my arse," she shot back, swatting at him as they all began to pack up.
The group clambered upstairs to the roof, arms loaded with bags of crisps, a bottle of Coke, and a slightly melted pack of chocolate digestives that Tony had nervously offered as a contribution.
The night air was cool, a stark contrast to the stuffy garage below, and the London skyline stretched out before them, a sea of twinkling lights against the inky black.
Dex spread out an old tartan blanket, and the group sprawled across it. Someone turned on a battered boom box, and The Cure hummed softly in the background as they passed around snacks.
Vera stretched out on her back, letting the rooftop chatter fade into the background. Above them, the stars were faint but persistent, flickering like tiny promises in the polluted city sky.
They had always been a part of her family’s legacy, their names plucked from the heavens as if the cosmos itself had christened them. Once, that connection had felt like a celestial promise that when they passed, they would join the eternal dance above, their light forever undimmed. But now, the thought clung to her chest like a torment.
Pollux's death last winter had been the first crack in her fragile world, unleashing an avalanche of grief she couldn’t outrun. And now, she couldn't stop thinking of all the others who had died—faces she doesn't even know, names spoken in hushed tones, their absence shaping her life more than their presence ever could.
Regulus lingered at the edge of those thoughts, a shadow she couldn’t shake. She couldn’t help but be curious about him—what kind of man he was, what he might have done if he’d lived—but the truth felt dangerous. What if it only brought more pain? What if knowing him unraveled her even more?
And then there was Sirius, the rogue star of the Black constellation. Her uncle, a Gryffindor like her, was less a legacy and more a whispered scandal. His name carried the weight of rebellion, but also of disgrace. She wondered if he could see the stars from his cell in Azkaban—if they reminded him of his family, of home, of anything at all.
Her chest ached when she thought of her mother, Sophie. An artist like herself, a woman who painted with unbridled passion and loved without restraint. Sophie’s absence loomed over her life, a gaping wound that refused to heal. Josephine’s quiet hope that she might still be alive felt like a flicker of light in the darkness, but it was so fragile, so tenuous, she didn’t dare believe it fully.
And then, the thought of Professor Morales hit her like a physical blow. He had been her lifeline through the chaos of the last year, a beacon in the storm. The thought of his departure, the injustice of it, twisted inside her.
The stars above burned on, indifferent to her turmoil. Once, she’d thought they were a guide, a map to something greater. Now, they felt like a reminder of everything she’d lost and everything she still might lose.
“Oi,” a voice cut through her thoughts, pulling her back to the present.
She turned her head to see Tony hovering nearby, his glasses catching the faint starlight. His drumsticks were in his hands, tapping lightly against his thigh in a nervous rhythm.
“Uh... sorry,” he stammered. “Didn’t mean to scare you.”
“You didn’t,” she said quickly, sitting up. “I was just... thinking.”
“Right, yeah. You looked like you were a million miles away.”
“More like a few light-years,” she muttered, brushing her hair out of her face.
He chuckled, though it came out more like a squeak. “That’s... deep. Like, um, philosophical or something. I mean, not in a bad way, but the, uh, light-years bit. That’s a good way of putting it.”
He fumbled with his drumsticks, twirling them in his fingers like it was the only thing keeping him steady. “Anyways... Um... Just thought I’d say hi. Since we’re, uh, around each other a lot and don’t really talk.”
“Hi,” she said, her smile widening slightly. “Consider this progress.”
His face lit up, and he nodded enthusiastically. “Kaya said you’re into art. Like, really good at it.”
“It’s kind of my thing, I guess.”
“That’s really minted. I can’t even draw a straight line, but I, uh... I do rhythm.”
“I’ve noticed,” she said, nodding toward the drumsticks. “You’re good at it.”
He blinked, then grinned. “Thanks! That, uh, means a lot. I kind of, you know, bring these everywhere. Habit, I guess.”
"Well, Tony... You’re officially more interesting than staring at the stars right now. So, congratulations.”
His eyes widened. “Really?”
She laughed. “Don’t overthink it.”
Before he could reply, Dex sauntered over and flopped onto the blanket with his usual air of effortless confidence. “Tony bothering you, Vee?” he asked, flashing a grin.
“Not at all,” she replied. “Not yet, anyway.”
Tony straightened, his smile a little less nervous now.
As Dex leaned back, the rooftop settled into a comfortable rhythm, the chatter softening as the night stretched on. Vera tilted her head back toward the stars, wondering if her father could see her now, if Sirius was out there thinking of freedom, and if Sophie was staring at the same sky, wishing for her too.
The walk home was eerily silent, the crisp London air biting at their faces. Vera pulled her jacket tighter as they approached the cemetery at the corner of Oldfields Road. The wrought-iron gates loomed ahead, their black bars glinting faintly, like teeth waiting to close.
Kaya quickened her pace, her shoulders hunched. “I hate this place,” she muttered, keeping her gaze firmly ahead, unwilling to let her eyes linger on the gravestones beyond the fence.
“Why?” Vera asked, her steps slowing.
Kaya shot her an incredulous look. “Because it’s creepy, Vee. All those dead people just lying there. Gives me the heebies.”
Vera couldn’t help but peer into the rows of ancient headstones, their inscriptions faded with time. "I don’t think it’s creepy,” she murmured.
“Of course you don’t. You love all that dark, broody nonsense.”
“It’s not that... I’m just not afraid of death.
Kaya halted abruptly, turning to face her. “You’re not scared of death?”
Vera hesitated. “It’s... losing people to it. That’s what scares me.”
“I feel the same way. But... I am still scared of it. I mean… I’m not ready to die. Are you?”
Vera opened her mouth to reply, but before she could, a sharp, jagged sound pierced the silence.
Caw.
The cry sliced through the air like a warning, echoing into the cold night.
“It’s just a crow,” Kaya said quickly, her voice louder than usual, almost brittle. “Nothing to worry about.”
But Vera didn’t respond. Her chest tightened, and her breath hitched. Her hands went numb... Utterly numb.
Caw.
The sound came again, closer now, its tone sharp and insistent. Her gaze darted toward the cemetery, searching the shadows. She could feel her legs locked in place, her mind racing through memories she didn’t even know she had—flashes of crows perched on gravestones, their wings spreading wide, their cries like something out of a nightmare.
Kaya grabbed her arm and gave her a gentle shake. “Oi, snap out of it. It’s a crow, Vee. A stupid bird. That’s it.”
Vera swallowed, her throat dry, and nodded stiffly. “Yeah... you’re right.”
But her legs felt heavy as they resumed walking, the sound of the crow’s call trailing them, carried by the wind like a sinister whisper. Each step felt harder than the last, and Vera couldn’t shake the feeling that something was watching.
Caw.
She didn’t dare look back.
“It’s just a bird,” she whispered under her breath. “Just a stupid bird.”
Notes:
Songs mentioned:
She’s so High – Blur
London Calling – The Clash
Train in Vain – The Clash
Chapter 52: Black I
Chapter Text
Tuesday, July 30, 1991
"Mrs. Wriggleshore, another clock has stopped. Did you notice?"
The old woman remained silent, her eyes fixed on the pages of the Wizarding Chronicle.
Vera’s gaze drifted back to the array of clocks lining the wall near the kitchen. At the center of them all, a faded photograph of a young man stared back at her.
"Would you like me to fix it?" She offered.
Still, Mrs. Wriggleshore gave no reply, her wrinkled hands trembling ever so slightly as she turned a page.
Undeterred, Vera moved closer and took a seat across from her at the worn kitchen table. Her eyes settled on the newspaper, scanning the headlines for a glimpse of whatever held the old woman so tightly in its grip.
Wizarding Chronicle
New Tax on Heating Charms: Luxury or Necessity?
Wealth Gap Widens as Families Struggle to Afford Basic Charms.
Vera glanced up. Mrs. Wriggleshore sat stiffly, her wrinkled hands clutching the edge of the table as though it might crumble beneath her. Her lips were pursed, thin and pale, betraying a lifetime of discontent turned habit.
“They’re wringing the life out of us,” the old witch muttered at last, her voice like dry parchment crinkling in the air. She looked up, her eyes sharp and weary all at once. “It’s bad enough to live with what little we have. Now they tax us for needing it.”
Vera frowned, her fingertips tracing the rough grain of the wood. “What does it all mean, though? Why are they doing this?”
“Why? Because they can. 'Non-essential magical items,' they say. It’s one thing to enforce a tax, but another thing entirely to decide what’s ‘essential.’ Do you know what they called a magical heater last winter? A luxury. A luxury! As though a family freezing to death in January is a matter of comfort. And healing herbs—they’ve taxed those to the skies, too. If it’s not on their precious list of ‘approved’ necessities, you might as well be begging in Knockturn Alley for scraps.”
Vera’s eyes widened. “But people need those herbs. They need them to make potions for their wounds and illnesses. How can they just... take that away?”
Mrs. Wriggleshore let out a bitter laugh. “Oh, they’ve got all sorts of justifications. ‘Encourages resourcefulness,’ they say. As if resourcefulness mends broken bones, or keeps the frostbite from creeping into a child’s fingers.”
“But who decides what’s essential and what's not?”
“The same people who’ve never wanted for a thing in their lives. The ones who don’t know what it means to choose between a warm meal and a warm house.”
Vera’s fingers drummed against the table, her thoughts racing. Her voice was almost a whisper when she spoke again. “It’s not fair...”
“Fair?” Mrs. Wriggleshore said, her tone dry as a desert wind. “Fairness is a child’s bedtime tale, something told to soothe them into sleep. Out here, fairness is as rare as phoenix feathers. The Ministry doesn’t care for us. Never has, never will. Every year, more restrictions, more taxes. And who suffers? The ones who have nothing left to give. The Six sit in their grand offices and castles, deciding our fate with their soft, uncalloused hands, while we…” She gestured to the broken clocks. “We can’t even keep time from slipping away.”
Vera’s expression softened, a determination flickering in her eyes. “There has to be a way to fix things. Maybe not just the clocks… but all of it.”
Mrs. Wriggleshore let out a slow breath, her gaze heavy with decades of disappointment. “Ah, you’re young,” she murmured, almost fondly. “Young enough to believe in change. I was like you once, full of plans and schemes. I set out to change the world, but the world ended up changing me. I once dreamed of carrying the skies, yet now I struggle to carry myself. Thought I could fight the world with nothing but my bare hands and my stubborn heart. But the Ministry is a stone wall, child. You break yourself against it before you ever leave a mark.”
“But what if we don’t let them ignore us?” Vera pressed, leaning forward. “What if we make them listen?”
The old woman’s eyes glimmered with something too fleeting to name—hope, perhaps. But it passed, like a shadow across her face, leaving her voice low and grave. “Careful, child. Hope is a dangerous thing. It lifts you high just to drop you from the clouds.”
The words hung in the air, heavy and final. Mrs. Wriggleshore straightened and waved toward the hearth. “Enough fretting over things you can’t change. The Floo powder’s by the sugar jar. You’ve got places to be.”
Vera hesitated but rose, the faintest ember of resolve still glowing in her chest. As she stepped toward the fireplace, the old woman called after her.
“Mark my words, girl: if you aim to fix this world, it's gonna take more than hope.” Her gaze then shifted to the portrait of the young man hanging on the clock’s wall. “You’ll need fire.”
Moments later, Vera stepped out of the fireplace at Birdy’s Inn, the cozy warmth of the place wrapping around her like an old, familiar cloak. The inn’s usual hum of activity was subdued, and Birdy himself—normally a whirlwind of energy—sat hunched over a table in the corner, scribbling in a notebook. His cheer, so often infectious, seemed dimmed, his face lined with worry.
“Birdy?” Vera called softly as she approached.
He looked up sharply, snapping the notebook shut before offering her a smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes. “Ah, Vera! Always a pleasure to see you.”
“Is everything alright?” she asked, her brow knitting with concern.
Birdy waved her worry away with a practiced gesture. “Just the usual troubles. Keeping this old place afloat isn’t as simple as it once was.” He forced a chuckle. “But enough of that. You didn’t come here to listen to an old man’s woes. How about a drink?”
She hesitated, sensing there was more to his troubles than he let on, but decided not to press him. She nodded instead.
As they settled into conversation, Birdy’s natural charm began to shine through. He regaled her with wild stories of the eccentric wizards and witches who passed through the inn—each tale more outrageous than the last. Vera couldn’t help but laugh, the tension easing from her shoulders.
Then the creak of the inn’s door drew her attention. She turned to see Donnie stepping inside. His imposing figure, though still familiar, seemed diminished—his clothes hung looser, his frame thinner than she remembered.
She didn’t mention it. Instead, she darted toward him and threw her arms around his neck. “Donnie!”
He wrapped her in a hug, his grip firm—too firm. Vera tensed, surprised by the strength of his embrace.
“You’ve gotten stronger,” she teased lightly as she stepped back, studying his face. His usual easy smile was in place, but there was a tension behind it, a tightness that set her on edge.
Donnie reached out and ruffled her hair with a grin. “And you’ve gotten taller. Or maybe I’ve just shrunk.”
She chuckled. “Maybe both.”
His gaze flicked around the room before his expression turned serious. “We need to get going. We can’t be late.”
Gringotts was more chaotic than Vera had ever seen. The loan office was packed wall to wall, the air thick with tension and despair. Witches wept openly in corners, clutching crumpled letters and worn-out bags, while wizards argued with themselves or anyone within earshot. The oppressive hum of frustration and fear filled the cavernous hall.
Vera instinctively tightened her gloved grip on Donnie’s hand, her fingers trembling. “There are so many people…” she whispered, her voice barely audible over the noise.
"It's been like this for a while now,"
"Is that the reason you asked to come this early instead of August?"
"Umm, yeah..."
"Well, we're proper doomed..."
Donnie gave her hand a reassuring squeeze. “Stay close. We’ll get through this.”
They joined the long, winding queue, inching forward at a glacial pace. Minutes stretched into hours, and Vera’s legs began to ache. She shifted her weight from foot to foot, but the line barely moved.
Eventually, exhaustion won. She sank to the cold marble floor, her back resting against Donnie’s leg. “How much longer?” she asked, her voice tired and small.
“Not much longer now,” Donnie replied, though his eyes betrayed his own frustration.
When their turn finally came, they stepped into the cramped loan officer’s chamber. Behind the desk sat a sharp-featured goblin, his eyes cold and calculating. He didn’t bother with pleasantries.
“Name?” he snapped.
“Vera Black,” she said softly, handing over her paperwork.
The goblin barely glanced at it before sneering. He picked up the documents and, without a second thought, tossed them into the waste bin beside him.
“No.”
Vera’s heart sank. “No?”
“You’re ineligible for a loan,” the goblin said curtly. “You haven’t repaid your previous debt. Until that is settled, Gringotts will not extend you further credit.”
Donnie stepped forward, his voice calm but firm. “She’s just a child. She needs this loan to—”
The goblin cut him off with a raised hand. “Rules are rules. Gringotts is not a charity. Debts must be paid.”
“Come on,” Donnie insisted, his patience wearing thin. “There has to be something you can do. She’s trying to study—”
“No exceptions,” the goblin said coldly, his eyes narrowing. “Now leave.”
Donnie’s jaw tightened, his hands curling into fists at his sides. “This is ridiculous. You can’t just do this!”
“I said leave!” the goblin barked, standing now, his tone laced with authority. “And consider this your final warning. Settle the debt, or face serious consequences.”
Vera tugged at Donnie’s sleeve, her voice shaking. “Let’s go,"
Donnie hesitated, his anger simmering just below the surface, but he finally relented. He took Vera’s hand, and together, they left the loan office, the heavy doors slamming shut behind them.
Outside, Vera exhaled shakily. “What are we going to do?”
Donnie glanced down at her, his expression grim. “We’ll figure it out. We always do.” But even as he said it, Vera could hear the uncertainty in his voice.
As they stepped out of Gringotts and into the bustling streets of Diagon Alley, She noticed he wasn’t his usual self. His shoulders slumped under an invisible weight, and the light that usually shone in his eyes seemed dimmed. He walked in silence, his hand still loosely holding hers, but his mind was clearly elsewhere.
“Donnie, Are you okay?”
He glanced down at her, startled as if pulled from deep thoughts. “Huh? Oh… yeah, yeah, I’m fine.”
“You don’t seem fine,” she pressed softly. “Is something wrong?”
He opened his mouth as to speak, then hesitated.
“I… I need to tell you something,” he said at last, his voice quieter than usual.
Vera stopped walking, waiting patiently, her heart beginning to pound. “What is it?”
He shifted uncomfortably, his gaze drifting to the cobblestone street beneath their feet. A long moment passed, the noise of the alley fading into the background.
Finally, he looked back at her and forced a smile. “Everything’s going to be okay, darling. Don’t worry.”
Vera’s brow furrowed. Something about the way he said it felt… off. Like those weren’t the words he had meant to say.
“Donnie…” she started, but he gave her hand a reassuring squeeze.
“Really,” he insisted. “We’ll get through this. Just trust me.”
She nodded slowly, but the unease lingered.
Back at Birdy’s Inn, the warm, familiar space offered little comfort. They sat at a corner table, a pot of steaming tea between them. Birdy tried to keep the atmosphere light, but Donnie’s silence loomed like a shadow over the room.
Vera studied him closely. His eyes were rimmed with dark circles, the evidence of countless sleepless nights. His beard, usually trimmed, had grown scruffy and uneven. He looked… worn down, like he was carrying the weight of the world on his back.
“Donnie,” she asked gently, “how’s Dom?”
He blinked, as if the question caught him off guard. “She’s… she’s okay.”
She tilted her head, unconvinced. “Where is she right now?”
Donnie’s jaw tightened, and for a moment, it seemed like he might answer. But he didn’t. He simply stared into his cup of tea.
Birdy, sensing the tension, quickly intervened. “So, Vera,” he said, forcing a cheerful tone, “do you have any ideas on how to get the money?”
Donnie immediately shook his head. “She’s just a kid. This isn’t her burden to bear. It’s unfair.”
Vera straightened in her chair, determination flickering in her eyes. “I’ll try to get my inheritance. It's mine by right, you know."
Birdy raised an eyebrow. “Your inheritance? And how exactly are you planning to pull that rabbit out of the hat?”
She took a deep breath. “Through Cygnus Black. He’s the only one who can help.”
Birdy frowned. “But no one knows where Cygnus is. Vanished years ago like a puff of smoke.”
“Then I’ll find him. No matter what it takes.”
Donnie remained silent, his fingers tapping rhythmically on the table.
Birdy leaned forward. “Even if you did find him, how do you know he’ll help you?”
“Because he loved my dad and mum. He always did. He’s the one who married them. Of course he’ll help me.”
Birdy nodded slowly but still looked uncertain. “And if that doesn’t work?”
“I’ll contact my uncle Reynard in France.”
The mention of Reynard snapped Donnie out of his silence. His hand slammed against the table, the teacups rattling. “No.”
Vera flinched, her eyes wide with shock. “What? Why not?”
Donnie’s expression was tense. “You can’t contact Rosier.”
“He owes me, Donnie. He was the reason my mum went missing in the first place. I’ll make him feel guilty about it and give me her share of the Rosier wealth. What do I have to lose? I mean, the worst thing he can do is say no,”
“No Vera. You can’t contact him. Not now, not ever. It’s… it’s for the better.”
“For the better?” she repeated, her voice rising in frustration. “Why?”
Donnie didn’t answer right away, his gaze fixed firmly on the table. Finally, he muttered, “Just trust me on this. It’s not safe.”
Her chest tightened, her earlier hope slipping away. She stared at him, her hands clenched into fists. “You’re not telling me something.”
“It’s for your own good, Vera,” he said, but the words only made her feel more helpless.
She looked away, her heart heavy. If Donnie wouldn’t tell her the truth, she’d have to find it on her own.
The tension lingered thick in the air as Birdy broke the uneasy silence. “Is there anyone else who might help you financially, Vera? A friend, maybe?”
She thought for a moment before replying softly, “Madam Fletcher… but I’m too embarrassed to ask her. She’s not a relative, and she’s not well-off either. She’s already using all her money to find my mum. I don’t want to be a burden.”
Birdy nodded sympathetically, but the concern remained etched on his face.
The three sat in silence for a bit, nursing their tea, each lost in their own thoughts.
"I’d offer to help," Birdy finally said, breaking the silence, "but, truth be told, I’m skint. Got more bills than knuts these days, and with that posh new hotel opening down the road, business has gone downhill."
Vera nearly choked on her emotions—and her tea. "Thank you, Birdy. Really. I get it."
Birdy gave her a solemn nod.
"But... what’s the deal with that hotel, anyway?" She pressed.
Birdy let out a long sigh. "Owned by some Rowle bloke. Fancy as hell, competitive prices, and—" he paused, glancing at Donnie. "Entertainment."
Vera raised an eyebrow. "Entertainment?"
Birdy opened his mouth to explain, but Donnie shot him a glare sharp enough to cut through steel.
"Uh… singers and whatnot," he finally muttered, suddenly fascinated with his tea.
"Rowle’s from them, isn’t he?" she then asked. "The Six."
"Spot on. His brother’s some bigwig at the Ministry. Word is, he’s dodging taxes left, right, and center, and now he’s planning to open another hotel in Hogsmeade."
Vera nodded, her sympathy quickly turning into pure annoyance. She reached over, placing her gloved hand on his. "Birdy?"
“Yes, dear?”
“Fuck them.”
"Vera!" Donnie spluttered, nearly spilling his tea, but Birdy burst out laughing.
"What?" She grinned. "FUCK. THEM. Fuck all of them. Rowle, the Six and the fucking ministry!"
"Too right!" Birdy wheezed, clinking his cup with hers.
"Oi, don’t encourage her, mate!" Donnie scowled, shaking his head.
"Speaking of Hogsmeade," Vera suddenly said, her voice bright with excitement. She rummaged through her bag, pulling out a slightly crumpled piece of parchment. "Donnie, can you sign this for me?"
Donnie took the parchment, smoothing it out with curious fingers. His brow furrowed as he read it. "A Hogsmeade permission slip?"
"Yeah!" She nodded eagerly, practically bouncing. "Professor McGonagall refused to give me one, but I managed to… well, duplicate Fred’s with a charm. I just need a guardian’s signature."
Donnie’s frown deepened, a shadow passing over his face. "Vera… I can’t sign this. I’m not allowed to."
Her excitement faltered for a moment, but she quickly masked it with determination. "Of course you can. You’re my official wizarding guardian."
"That’s not how it works, darling. Only a relative can sign something like this."
"You are my family! You’ve always been. You’ve taken care of me, been there when no one else was. Who cares about the rules, anyway? Please, Donnie. Please."
The hope in her eyes made him hesitate. "I wish I could, but I can’t."
"You can!" she shot back, her tone edged with desperation now. Her hands trembled slightly as she reached for his arm. "You’re the only one who can."
Donnie’s jaw clenched, his own frustration and helplessness bubbling to the surface. He pulled away gently but firmly. "No, Vera. I can’t."
"Please Donnie! Everyone gets to go except for me!"
"It’s not that simple."
"It is simple!" she insisted, her voice shaking now. "Just sign it!"
"Vera—"
"It’s just a signature, Donnie."
"Just stop."
"Please, please, please!"
"I’m not your bloody father, Vera!"
The words hung in the air, cold and final.
Vera froze, the air knocked from her lungs as if he had physically struck her. Her hands fell limply to her sides, the parchment crumpling between her fingers. For a long moment, neither of them moved. Birdy, too, sat in stunned silence.
She looked at him, her eyes wide with hurt, but she refused to let the tears fall.
"Of course," she said softly, her voice so quiet it was almost unheard. She forced a shaky smile, a fragile mask to hide the breaking beneath. "Of course you’re not."
"Vera, I didn’t mean—"
"It’s fine," she interrupted, her smile wavering, but she held it, like a soldier refusing to crumble under fire. "You're right,"
Her fingers tightened around the parchment until it was a crumpled ball in her hand. She drew in a deep breath, steadying herself. "Forget it," she added, her voice hollow now.
Donnie’s expression softened immediately, regret washing over him like a wave. “Vera, I didn’t mean it like that…” He reached for her hand, but she didn’t look up. “I’m sorry. What I meant was… only a relative can sign it. A family member.”
“Well, I don’t have one.”
Donnie’s heart clenched at her words. He leaned back, running a hand through his hair in frustration. His jaw tightened as he fought to keep his emotions in check, but Vera caught the subtle motion of him... wiping away a tear.
The silence stretched on, heavy with unspoken apologies and shared pain.
Then, Vera lifted her head, her mind racing. “I have an idea,” she said quietly, her eyes flicking between Donnie and Birdy.
Birdy leaned forward. “What’s the idea, Vera?”
She took a breath, steadying herself. “Every year, Miss Nelson gives me a small allowance. It’s supposed to last me the entire school year.” She paused, glancing at Donnie. “It’s not much when converted to wizarding money… but it might be enough to cover the loan. I'll ask her for it tonight and we'll go to Gringotts first thing tomorrow morning."
Donnie frowned, concern flickering in his tired eyes. “But what about the rest of the year? How will you manage without it?”
“I don't need it. I can't go to Hogsmeade so it wouldn't matter. As for the rest, I'll manage. It's fine really, you don’t have to worry about me.”
Donnie shook his head, his voice soft but firm. “How could I not worry about you?”
Her expression softened, and she reached out to hug him. “I’ll be okay, Donnie.”
He held her for a moment, then pulled back to look into her eyes. There was something there—something she couldn’t quite place.
“Vera,” he said, his voice hesitant, “there’s something I need to tell you.”
She waited, her heart skipping a beat.
Donnie hesitated once more, the words catching in his throat. Finally, he spoke. “Umm, I can’t go with you to Gringotts tomorrow.”
She blinked, surprised. “That’s okay, Donnie. I can handle it.”
He nodded, though his eyes remained heavy with unspoken worries. “Just… take care of yourself, alright?”
“I will,” she promised, offering a reassuring smile.
She turned to leave, but before she could take a step, Donnie called her back.
“Vera.”
She turned, and he pulled her into a tight embrace—tighter than usual, holding on for a long moment as if he didn’t want to let go.
Vera’s heart sank slightly. Something felt… off. But she didn’t say anything.
“Be safe,” he whispered.
“I will,” she replied softly, burying the unease deep within her.
At St. Mary’s, the dim glow of the television danced across the common room walls. Laughter and gasps erupted from the group of girls huddled together, their eyes glued to Byker Grove. Vera lingered at the edge of the room, their joy a distant hum against the thrum of her thoughts. Quietly, she slipped away, her footsteps soft on the worn carpet as she climbed the creaking stairs to the second floor.
She paused outside Miss Nelson’s door, the wood cool under her trembling fingers. With a deep breath, she knocked.
“Come in,” called the familiar voice, warm and steady.
Inside, the matron sat on her neatly made bed, a bundle of letters spread across her lap. At the sight of Vera, she quickly tucked them away beneath her pillow and offered a gentle smile.
“What brings you here, love? Everything alright?”
Vera hesitated, her fingers twisting the hem of her sweater. The words churned in her chest, heavy and uncertain. I… I need to ask you something,” she murmured.
Miss Nelson patted the space beside her. “Come, sit.”
Vera perched on the edge of the bed, her gaze fixed on her hands. Miss Nelson reached out, twirling a stray strand of Vera’s hair, the simple gesture wrapping her in the warmth of childhood safety.
“Go on,” she then coaxed, her voice soft. “What is it, sweetheart? You can tell me anything.”
Vera swallowed hard. “Could I… have my allowance early this year?”
Miss Nelson tilted her head. “So soon? Term hasn’t even started.”
“I’ve been picked for a summer project,” Vera blurted, the lie taking shape as she spoke. “An advanced chemistry program. It’s a big opportunity, but there’s… a fee for materials, and I have to send the money now to book my chance.”
Pride flickered across Miss Nelson’s face. “A chemistry project? That sounds wonderful.” She reached into the bedside drawer for her purse.
Vera’s eyes caught something as the drawer opened: a row of medication bottles, labels turned away. She looked down quickly, her stomach twisting.
Miss Nelson counted out the money and pressed it into her hand. “Here you go, love.”
“Thank you,” Vera whispered, clutching the bills tightly.
Then Miss Nelson’s gaze drifted to her shoes—scuffed, frayed, and barely holding together. “Those poor Converse,” she said gently. “They’ve done their time.”
“They’re fine,” Vera said quickly, her cheeks burning.
Miss Nelson shook her head, reaching for her purse again. “Take a bit more. Get yourself a new pair. You’ll need them.”
“No,” Vera said, her voice firmer now. She pushed the money back. “Really, I’ll manage. I don’t want to be a burden.”
Miss Nelson’s hand lingered in the air, her expression softening into something both tender and pained. “You’re never a burden, Vera. Never.”
July 31, 1991
The following day, Vera set out once more for Gringotts, her determination unyielding. As she stepped outside the fireplace, the comforting scent of baked bread and pumpkin spice welcomed her, and Birdy greeted her with his usual warmth. His broad smile and a glass of chilled pumpkin juice were ready as he had anticipated her arrival. Though his cheerful demeanor remained intact, there was a subtle weariness in his eyes, a shadow of unspoken concerns.
They exchanged pleasantries—talk of the weather, the latest gossip about a new shop opening across the street. But today, the conversation felt lighter than usual, more like a fragile façade covering something heavier.
As she prepared to leave, thanking him for the respite, he reached into his pocket and pulled out a small leather pouch, its contents jingling softly.
“This is for you,” he said with a gentle smile, holding it out.
Vera’s eyes widened. “Birdy, no. I can’t accept this. You’re already doing so much just to keep the inn running.”
His hand remained steady, his gaze unwavering. “Take it,” he insisted, his tone kind but firm. “Consider it a gift. And don’t you dare refuse me, Vera.”
Her throat tightened with emotion as she hesitated. “I’ll pay you back,” she promised. “One day.”
Birdy pulled her into a brief but reassuring hug, patting her back softly. “Don’t worry about that now. Just take care of yourself.”
With the pouch of coins tucked safely into her pocket and Birdy’s kindness warming her heart, she left the inn and headed toward Gringotts.
The towering marble façade loomed ahead, its grandeur both intimidating and awe-inspiring.
Inside, her first stop was the exchange office. She clutched the Muggle money Miss Nelson had given her, ready to convert it into wizarding currency. The queue inched forward slowly, allowing her to observe the bustling crowd of witches and wizards around her.
As she waited, her eyes landed on a familiar figure moving briskly through the throng.
He was unmistakable, though something about him had changed. A dark purple turban now encircled his head.
“Professor Quirrell!” she called out, stepping forward.
But he didn’t stop. His pace quickened, and he kept his head low, disappearing into the sea of people without so much as a glance in her direction.
A frown crept across her face. "Why is he wearing a bloody turban?” she muttered to herself. "Is he Sikh now?
Moments later, she reached the front of the exchange office. A stern goblin with sharp, calculating eyes examined the Muggle notes she handed over, then placed wizarding coins on the desk.
She raised an eyebrow. "That's it?"
“The exchange rate has shifted,” he said curtly, his voice devoid of sympathy. “The value of wizarding currency has increased.”
Her heart sank. “But… this is almost half of what I expected.”
The goblin shrugged, indifferent. “Take it or leave it.”
She bit back her frustration. Arguing would be futile. With a resigned sigh, she accepted the reduced sum, slipping the precious Galleons into her bag.
Her next destination was the loan office, where she intended to settle her previous debt and, if possible, secure a new loan. The waiting area was crowded, the air thick with tension and the quiet hum of anxious murmurs. She found a spot against the wall, leaning back as the minutes dragged on.
But just as her patience began to wear thin, a piercing alarm shattered the calm, echoing through the marble halls of Gringotts.
Panic rippled through the crowd like a wave, and Goblins sprang into action, their sharp voices barking orders as they herded customers toward the exits. Before they knew it, chaos erupted—people stumbled, pushed, and jostled in their haste to escape.
“What’s happening?” Vera asked aloud, her voice drowned by the cacophony around her.
Just then, a sudden shove sent her sprawling to the ground, her hands scraping against the cold stone floor. Dazed, she struggled to regain her footing, but before she could rise, a frail but steady hand reached down to help her.
“Are you alright, dear?” The voice belonged to an elderly witch, her grip surprisingly firm despite the tremor in her fingers.
“I… I think so,” Vera stammered, brushing dust from her skirt. “What’s going on?”
“There’s been a theft,” the witch said, her eyes wide with disbelief. “Someone broke into one of the vaults.”
Vera’s breath caught. “A theft? But… Gringotts is supposed to be the most secured place in the wizarding world.”
The witch shook her head, a solemn expression settling over her features. “Not anymore, it seems.”
The words sent a chill down Vera’s spine. She watched as goblins hurriedly ushered everyone out, their faces grim and tense. The once-impenetrable fortress of Gringotts had been breached, and Vera couldn’t shake the feeling that this was no ordinary theft.
Her plans had been disrupted once more, and the thought of returning to Gringotts the following day filled her with a weary sense of frustration. The idea of asking Kaya to cover for her, yet again, felt more exhausting than usual. She sighed and paused for a moment, her mind swirling with the weight of it all. Then, with a sudden resolve, she decided to take a brief stroll around Diagon Alley before returning to Gringotts to try again.
She wandered aimlessly, her steps carrying her with an unspoken purpose, her thoughts on only one shop: Lucy’s.
But as she approached the once familiar storefront, she was met with disappointment. AGAIN.
The shutters were still drawn, the sign hanging lifelessly in its usual place. She had hoped that this year might be different—that Lucy’s might finally open, and she would once again find herself in the company of that kind woman who had seemed like a small refuge in the storm. But no, it was closed, just as it had been for so long.
She stood before the glass, her gaze distant. Her mind churned with thoughts of all the unresolved matters in her life—Donnie, Birdy, Miss Nelson’s medications, Mr. Quinn’s worsening condition, and, inevitably, herself. The weight of it all pressed down on her chest, and for a moment, she was lost in the stillness of the world around her.
Then, something caught her eye—a glimmer in the reflection of the glass. At first, it was nothing more than a faint blur, but as she focused, her heart suddenly skipped a beat.
In the dim light of the shop window, a pair of bright blue eyes stared back at her, unwavering and intense.
She stepped closer, her breath catching in her throat. There was something so familiar, yet so unsettling, about those eyes. They were not merely a reflection but seemed to be gazing into her very soul, studying her with a quiet intensity.
Her pulse quickened as she continued to stare, captivated by the vivid blue that seemed to pierce the darkness of the window.
But just as she was about to lean in further, a voice rang out, cutting through the silence.
“Vera!”
Startled, she turned her head sharply, and there, standing a few paces away, were Fred and George, grinning and waving at her. She blinked, momentarily disoriented, and then glanced back at the glass.
The eyes were gone. Vanished as if they had never been there at all.
Fred and George approached her, their usual mischief lighting up their faces. “Oi, Vera, what’s got you standing there like you’ve seen a ghost?” Fred asked, grinning wide.
“Nice to see you, idiots,” she replied.
“Um, What are you doing?” George asked, leaning in curiously.
She hesitated, glancing back at the shop window. “I was staring at the glass, and then I saw—”
“The love of your life?” Fred interrupted, his voice dripping with mockery.
“No, you absolute git,” she deadpanned. “Bright blue eyes, staring at me from the reflection. But when I looked back, they were gone.”
George blinked slowly. “Sounds dodgy. Either you’ve been standing here too long, or you’ve just discovered the magical properties of bad lighting.”
“I’m serious!” she snapped. “They were there. Eyes. Watching me.”
“Maybe it’s the early signs of… wizard madness,” Fred said solemnly, checking her forehead with the back of his hand. “Any sudden urges to join Trelawney’s club?”
“Oh, shove off! I’m not hallucinating. You two clearly have the imagination of a pair of teaspoons.”
She turned back to the window, daring the reflection to return. But the glass was stubbornly empty.
She sighed, defeated, and pointed to the sign above the door. “By the way, do either of you know what happened to this place? ‘Lucy’s?’”
Fred squinted at the shop. “Never noticed it before. But then again, we don’t really… notice things.”
She raised an eyebrow. “Clearly. How do you two survive?”
“With exceptional charm and unparalleled wit,” George replied smoothly.
“And by distracting shopkeepers while the other nicks snacks,” Fred added.
She chuckled. “What are you two doing here, anyway?”
“Shopping with Dad,” Fred said, shrugging.
“He’s over there.” George gestured to a distant figure in heated negotiations with a shopkeeper. “Probably trying to haggle the price of a quill down to three Knuts.”
“It’s a family curse,” Fred added, shaking his head solemnly.
“And what about you?” George asked. “Browsing for something shiny?”
“Oh, I was at Gringotts, but things went sideways,”
“Sideways?” Fred asked, intrigued. “What happened?”
“They kicked us out. Something about a theft. Or maybe they just wanted an excuse to clear the loan office—it was packed.”
“Loan office?” George asked, raising an eyebrow. “What were you doing there?”
She froze, scratching the back of her head. “Oh, just passing by… on my way to my vault,”
Fred grinned. “How big is it, then?”
“Fred!” George scolded. “That’s rude!”
“No, it’s fine,” Vera said with a smirk. “But asking a lady about the size of anything is questionable etiquette.”
Fred’s face went redder than a Howler, while George doubled over laughing.
“Speaking of size,” she continued, not letting up. “How are you two suddenly too tall? What does Mrs. Weasley feed you? Fertilizer?”
“You’ve grown too,” George pointed out.
“Yeah, and there’s… something different about you,” Fred added, squinting thoughtfully. “Just can’t put my finger on it.”
“Oh, I’m wearing a real bra now,” she said bluntly. “Not a training one. A proper one.”
Fred’s ears turned scarlet. “Blimey, Vera!”
George threw his hands up. “Please, for the love of Merlin, don’t elaborate!”
“It’s pink, by the way.” She teased, grabbing the hem of her sweater. “Want a look?”
“NO!” the twins shouted in unison, shielding their eyes.
She laughed, thoroughly enjoying their discomfort. “Relax, I’m joking! You two are too easy.”
Fred muttered something under his breath, glaring at her, while George wiped imaginary sweat from his brow.
“Oh, speaking of Gringotts,” she said, breaking the awkward silence, “guess who I saw there?”
“Goblins?” George quipped.
“Professor Quirrell!”
Fred’s eyebrows shot up. “Back from his ‘finding-a-wife’ sabbatical, is he? He must have found one.”
“Doubt it,” George said, smirking. “Looked like he’d have better luck finding a new hat.”
“Actually, he’s wearing a turban now,” Vera said.
Fred gasped. “Hiding that glorious bald dome? Sacrilege!”
“I know!” She exclaimed. “It was practically a national treasure.”
“You think he’s coming back to Hogwarts?” George asked her.
“I hope so. I’m taking Muggle Studies this year, and everyone says he’s brilliant at it.”
“We’re taking it too,” Fred said. “Dad’s more excited than we are. Keeps nicking Charlie’s old textbooks to read.”
“That’s sweet,” Vera said, smiling. “Anyway, what are you two up to now?”
“Window shopping,” George responded, shrugging. “Join us?”
“Why not? Someone needs to keep you two in line,”
With a final glance at Lucy's, Vera followed the twins down Diagon Alley, their laughter filling the air as they passed the shops, their banter lightening the weight of the day.
“So,” George started, elbowing her lightly. “What are you looking forward to this year? Apart from us, obviously.”
“Oh, you know,” she said breezily, “normal things. Surviving Snape. Passing transfiguration. Maybe getting a boyfriend.”
The twins froze mid-step, turning to stare at her as though she’d announced plans to marry a vampire.
“Boyfriend?” Fred said, scandalized. “You hear that, Georgie? Vee’s abandoning us for romance! What’ll we do without her?”
George shook his head, feigning disappointment. “Tragic. But don’t worry, Vee, we’ll help you find someone. How about Filch? He’s single.”
“If I wanted a boyfriend who smells like damp rags, I’d just date one of you two.”
Fred grinned. “You know, I heard a rumor Snape’s been dating.”
Vera stopped in her tracks, her eyes wide. “What? Who in their right mind—wait, what?!”
“Yep,” George said. “Apparently, he’s been seen having tea with Madam Pince in the library after hours.”
Fred waggled his eyebrows. “Romantic candlelight, dusty books, her lecturing him about overdue fines—it’s practically a love story.”
Vera narrowed her eyes at them. “There’s no way that’s true.”
“Fine, don’t believe us,” Fred said, shrugging. “But if you see Snape wearing robes with fewer grease stains, you’ll know why.”
George grinned. “And if Pince starts smiling, the world might actually end.”
“Have you heard about Lee, though?” Fred continued.
“What about him?”
“Told us he's about getting a new pet. Something exotic to impress Malika. Probably a chameleon."
George groaned. “That’s cheating! ‘Oh, look at me, I change colors to match your eyes.’ He’s playing dirty!”
“Unlike you two, who are so subtle,”
“Hey, at least we don’t bribe with pets,” George shot back.
“He’s finally doing it, then?”
Fred nodded. “He’s been practicing his ‘cool guy’ voice all summer. Last time I heard him, he sounded like he’d swallowed a mandrake.”
Vera laughed so hard she had to stop walking. “Poor Malika. She has no idea what’s coming.”
"She'll be fine," Fred said dryly. "That girl is a few layers short of a one layered cake."
"Good thing she's pretty." George added.
“Oi!” Vera snapped. “Don’t you dare make fun of Malika!”
The twins put their hands up in mock surrender. “Easy now, we were having a laugh.”
“Yeah, just not on her expense. She’s the sweetest girl in the world, for God’s sake.”
Fred furrowed his brows the moment she said the word ‘God,’ but said nothing.
Vera swallowed nervously, then tried to change the subject. “Umm… Let’s move on. I heard there are some good spots round the corner!”
They passed several shops before Fred suddenly stopped dead in his tracks, his eyes glued to something in the window.
“Blimey,” he whispered in awe, his eyes lighting up. “Look at that! A limited-edition Quidditch helmet! That’s the real deal, lads. Top-notch, the best of the best.”
George squinted at the price tag, raising an eyebrow. “It’s practically robbery at that price.”
Fred pressed his forehead against the glass, sighing heavily. “It’s a beauty, though, isn’t it? Imagine me streaking through the air on my broom, the sun reflecting off it, blinding our opponents. Gryffindor would win the Quidditch Cup for sure.”
George chuckled. “Yeah, well, unless you plan to charm the price tag to zero, I think you’d better stick with your old gear.”
"You lack vision, George. This helmet could be the difference between a regular win and absolute glory!”
“As much as I admire your unwavering commitment to our team, we both know we can’t afford it. Not this year, anyway.”
“Yeah, I know. Dad’s already doing so much—working overtime to afford new stuff for Ron. Mum’s been cutting corners left and right. I can’t… I can’t just throw galleons at a helmet, no matter how shiny it is.”
George nodded. “Ron deserves to feel like he’s got everything he needs, you know? First year’s a big deal.”
Vera, who had been silently watching the exchange, felt a pang of sympathy. She knew the twins liked to make light of everything, but there was a gravity in their voices that she wasn’t used to hearing.
“You two,” she said, crossing her arms, “really are annoyingly decent sometimes.”
Fred blinked at her, caught off guard. “Decent? Have you met us?”
“Yes, unfortunately. But seriously, your brother’s lucky to have you. Both of you. Not every older sibling would think that way.”
George waved her off, though he looked faintly pleased. “Oh, don’t start getting sentimental on us, Vee. We’re supposed to be scoundrels, remember?”
“Right,” Fred added with a grin, recovering quickly. “We’ve got a reputation to uphold. Speaking of which, George, shall we ‘liberate’ that helmet?”
George shook his head. “Not today, Fred. I hear Azkaban’s a real downer.”
Vera snorted. “You two are hopeless.”
Fred gave her a playful nudge. “And you wouldn’t have us any other way.”
She smiled, but her thoughts lingered on what they’d said. The Weasleys’ financial struggles weren’t exactly a secret, but hearing Fred and George acknowledge them so openly made her admire their loyalty even more.
“I’ll tell you what," she said. "How much do you two have?”
The twins looked at each other, then dug into their pockets, pulling out a mishmash of coins, some of which looked questionable.
“About... five Galleons and a few Sickles,” Fred said, shrugging.
“Right.” She grinned, narrowing her eyes at the helmet again. “Hold tight.”
Without giving them much time to question what she meant, she marched into the shop, Fred and George trailing after her. The shop was small but cozy, with Quidditch equipment stacked to the ceiling.
A young man behind the counter, probably in his early twenties, looked up from the magazine he was skimming. “Can I help you?” he asked with a friendly smile.
Vera leaned casually against the counter, flashing her most dazzling smile. “Oh, I hope so,” she said sweetly. “That helmet in the window caught my eye—it’s stunning.”
The shopkeeper’s smile widened. “Top of the line. Very exclusive.”
She sighed, fluttering her eyelashes. “It’s beautiful. But... well...” She ran a finger along the counter, meeting his eyes. “It’s a bit out of my budget. I was hoping, maybe, you could help me out with a little discount?”
The young man seemed to melt slightly under her gaze, his cheeks flushing a little. “I don’t usually give discounts, but... maybe I could knock a few Sickles off for you. And... Maybe a free pair of gloves?”
Vera beamed. “You’re too kind. That would be perfect.”
She pulled out her purse and added the coins Birdy had given her to Fred and George’s money to complete the price.
Turning to the twins, she winked. “We’re set.”
For some reason, Fred’s cheeks turned bright red, and he quickly turned his attention to the floor.
“Blimey,” George muttered, his eyes wide. “Did you just flirt your way into a discount? And free gloves?!”
She grinned cheekily. “You boys are too easy.”
“You’re a bloody genius,” George said, shaking his head in disbelief. “Next time, I’m letting you handle the shopping. No one’s going to say no to you.”
Fred, still looking flustered, grabbed the helmet from her hands, his voice coming out in a stutter. “Well, um, thanks, Vee. I guess I owe you now, don’t I?”
She raised an eyebrow, her grin growing wider. “Oh, don’t you worry, Freddie. I’ll be collecting very soon.”
The trio soon found themselves in a quirky little shop with shelves packed high with magical trinkets and games.
Fred and George immediately set off to peruse the most ridiculous items. Meanwhile, Vera’s eyes scanned the shelves, landing on a delicate silver pendant shaped like a lion's head, its features intricately carved to capture every detail. The mane seemed to ripple like flames in the low light, and the eyes were set with tiny, glimmering gemstones that gave the piece a lifelike intensity.
A quiet little voice in her head told her it would be a perfect gift for Felix. It was something special—something that captured the warmth and hope he’d given her.
Absorbed in the thought of whether it was the right time to get him something meaningful, she didn’t notice the twins calling her.
"Vera!" Fred yelled, his voice faintly irritated as he glanced over at his twin. "Oi, Vera, where’d she go?"
"Vera!" George echoed, waving a hand in the air.
But Vera didn’t hear them. She was too caught up in the thought of Felix’s reaction to the pendant.
"Oi, Black!" George suddenly shouted in an exaggeratedly loud voice, a smirk playing on his lips as he tried to catch her attention. "BLACKKKKK!"
The whole shop turned to look as the sharp, booming sound of “Black” bounced off the walls. Vera snapped out of her trance, startled by the commotion, and her face flushed a little. She looked over at Fred and George, both of them grinning widely.
"Bloody hell," she muttered, walking toward them. "Can’t a girl browse in peace?"
"Actually," Fred grinned cheekily, “we could use your expert bargaining skills. Think you could get us a discount on this?"
He pointed to a ridiculous-looking gnome figurine that seemed to be playing hopscotch by itself, but the price tag was anything but playful.
She raised an eyebrow, about to launch into her usual charm routine, when an elderly woman, who’d been standing at the counter, suddenly approached her with a sharp gaze.
“Are you a Black?” she asked, her voice dripping with disdain.
Vera froze, her heart giving a tiny lurch as she gave the woman a polite but cautious smile and a nod. She stood still, waiting for her to say something else, but the old woman didn’t say anything.
Instead, she spat in her face.
Vera was taken aback, her eyes wide in shock. Fred and George, who had been watching the exchange, stood frozen, their mouths hanging open.
“How dare you show your face in here,” the woman sneered, her voice cold and sharp.
The store fell silent. Everyone seemed to hold their breath, none of them stepping in, none of them saying anything.
Vera, however, stood motionless, the spit dripping down her cheek, her skin cold where it touched. The anger bubbled up inside her, but she kept her composure, her lips pressed together as she wiped the mess off with her sleeve.
“Filth breeds filth,” the woman spat once more before turning on her heel, glaring at Vera one last time as she walked out of the store.
Fred and George stood there, their expressions a mixture of shock and disbelief.
“Vee…” Fred started, his voice quiet and unsure. “Are you—are you okay?”
She forced a weak smile. “I’m fine,” she said, then wiped her face one more time, feeling the sting of the woman’s words. “I’m fine.”
She turned away and started toward the door, but the twin quickly caught up to her, their faces full of concern.
“Oi, hold on,” George said, his hand on her arm. “You sure you’re okay? We can find her and—”
“No, George,” she cut him off, shaking her head. “Honestly, it’s not worth it.”
As she moved to leave the shop, she caught sight of Mr. Weasley coming through the door, his arms full of shopping bags. He smiled brightly when he saw her.
“Well, hello Vera. Everything alright, dear?”
“It’s all right, Mr. Weasley,” she said, trying to sound more casual than she felt. “It's good to see you."
"Good to see you too!" Mr. Weasley replied with a gentle smile. But then he glanced over at the twins, who were still in deep shock. "What's going on, boys?" He asked.
Fred and George exchanged a quick glance, their expressions tight with anger and worry. Then George stepped forward, his tone uncharacteristically serious. "Dad…someone spat in Vera’s face."
Mr. Weasley’s warm smile immediately vanished, replaced by a look of pure shock and dismay.
He turned to Vera, his eyes searching her face for any sign of injury. “What happened? Why would anyone—?”
“It’s not a big deal,” she interjected, shrugging, though her forced nonchalance only made the moment more uncomfortable. “It’s not the first time I’ve encountered something like this.”
The twins were visibly bristling now, but Mr. Weasley looked utterly bewildered. “Not the first time?” he repeated. “What do you mean?”
She sighed softly, folding her arms across her chest as if shielding herself. “A while back, I was denied service at an owl post office.”
“What?” Mr. Weasley gasped, his voice tinged with disbelief. “Why?”
Her jaw tightened briefly before she gave him a faint, resigned smile. “Because I’m a Black.”
The weight of her words settled heavily over them, and Mr. Weasley’s face twisted with a mix of sorrow and outrage. “That’s…that’s awful,” he said, his voice trembling slightly. “No one deserves that. I—”
“It’s okay,” she said quickly, cutting him off with a firmer smile. She straightened her shoulders, glancing between him and the twins. “I’ve learned to handle it. I’m fine.”
“Vera…” George started, but she shook her head, the corners of her lips quirking upward in a gesture that didn’t quite reach her eyes.
“Really, I’m fine,” she repeated. “I should get going, anyway.” She gave them all a small wave, her voice light as she added, “Don’t worry about me, yeah? I’ll see you at school.”
Before anyone could stop her, she turned on her heel and strode out of the shop, her head held high. The bell above the door jingled as she stepped into the street, disappearing into the bustling crowd.
However, as soon as she stepped into a shadowed alley, her body gave out.
The moment she was hidden from the world’s eyes, everything she’d been holding back tore through her like a storm breaking its dam.
Her knees buckled, hitting the cold, uneven cobblestones, and she folded in on herself, arms wrapping tightly around her trembling frame.
The tears came hot and relentless, streaming down her face as her chest heaved in desperate, broken gasps. The damning words, the spit that had struck her like a curse, the accusing stares from the shop—it all crashed down on her at once, suffocating her under its weight.
Filth breeds filth.
The phrase carved itself into her mind, a cruel mantra she couldn’t silence. It echoed endlessly, louder with each repetition, until it drowned out everything else.
A guttural sob wrenched from her throat, raw and uncontainable. She clawed at the ground, fingers scraping against the stones as if she could dig her way out of her own skin, out of the shame that clung to her like tar. She pressed her palms to her face, only to smear her tears with dirt, her sorrow becoming a physical grime she couldn’t scrub away.
It wasn’t just the insult. It was the permanence of it, the inevitability.
She wasn’t Vera.
She wasn’t anyone.
She was a Black.
That name, that blood, had marked her at birth, branded her as unclean, untouchable. And no amount of effort, no desperate wish, could ever make her anything else.
Why? The question pounded in her skull. Why was she born into this? Why couldn’t she be someone—anyone—else?
The alley felt like a coffin, the walls pressing closer, suffocating her. She stared at the ground, her blurred vision unable to focus.
The only thing she knew with any clarity was the ache in her chest, so sharp and deep it seemed to consume her entirely.
Then, somewhere between the sobs and the numbness, her feet began to move. She stood, shaky and unsteady, but her legs carried her without thinking, each step uncertain but automatic.
Somehow, without even knowing how she got there, she found herself standing outside Whiskers, the little salon where Remy worked.
The moment she stepped inside, Remy’s warm gaze caught hers, and without a second thought, she rushed to her side.
"Vera?" her voice was soft, but it hit her like a lifeline. The woman’s arms were around her before she could say anything, enveloping her in a hug that felt like a sanctuary. “Oh, sweetheart, what happened? What’s going on?”
Vera could hardly breathe between sobs, her chest still tight and aching. Remy held her tightly, not saying anything at first, just letting her cry.
When she finally gathered enough strength to speak, it came out in broken fragments, a jumbled mess of words and emotions. “S-someone... someone spat at me,” she gasped, her voice choked with emotion. “They called me... filth. Said I... I'm filth. All because of my name.”
Her voice cracked, and the tears came even harder. “Why does it have to be like this? What's so wrong with me, Remy?”
“I’m so sorry, love,” Remy whispered, her voice warm and steady. “No one should ever treat you like that. You’re not filth, you hear me?”
She gently pulled away, cupping Vera’s tear-streaked face in her hands, her eyes locking with hers. “You’re you. You’re kind and you’re strong, and you deserve better than the cruelty of others. Don’t let them take away your light.”
Vera nodded weakly, the words sinking in slowly. The sobs were still coming, but now they felt a little less suffocating, like they were being eased, even if just a little.
After what felt like an eternity, her sobs began to quiet, tapering off into soft hiccups. Her chest still ached, but the storm had passed, leaving behind a fragile calm. She sat there, cradled in Remy’s arms, her cheeks damp and swollen from crying.
A few moments later, Scotty, the young apprentice who worked at the salon, walked over holding a tray with a steaming teapot, a mismatched set of cups, and a small plate of biscuits.
“Tea, the cure for everything,” he said with a wide grin as he set the tray down.
Remy poured her a cup, the fragrant steam curling upward, and pressed it into her hands. “Drink this, love. It’ll help.”
Vera took a tentative sip, the warmth spreading through her chest. She felt the tightness there ease just a fraction. Scotty plopped down on the chair across from her, his expression bright and mischievous.
“So, Vera,” he began, leaning forward conspiratorially, “any handsome blokes catching your eye at school?”
Vera blinked, caught off guard. “What? No! I—” She stumbled over her words, her face turning a deep shade of red.
Scotty’s grin widened as he wiggled his eyebrows at her. “Oh, come on. A pretty girl like you? Don’t tell me there’s not one lad making you swoon.”
“Scotty!” Remy scolded, but there was a smile tugging at her lips. “Leave her alone.”
“What? I’m just saying, if I were her age, I’d be fighting the blokes off with a broomstick.” He leaned back dramatically, pretending to fend off invisible suitors, which finally coaxed a giggle out of Vera.
“There it is!” he said triumphantly. “A smile! Knew I could get one out of you.”
The lighthearted exchange lifted her spirits, and as the tea dwindled and the biscuits disappeared, Remy leaned forward, her tone softer now. “Vera, love, are you planning anything for your birthday? It’s coming up soon, isn’t it?”
Vera shrugged, fiddling with the edge of her cup. “I don’t know. I was thinking... maybe I’d do something small. Or nothing at all.”
Scotty gasped in mock horror. “Nothing? That’s not allowed! Birthdays are for celebrating you.”
Remy smiled warmly. “He’s right, you know. If you need help planning, just say the word.”
Vera hesitated before speaking, her voice quiet. “I was actually thinking... maybe I’d get a makeover for the new school year. You know, something fresh.”
Scotty immediately shook his head, waving his hands dramatically. “Absolutely not. You’re already gorgeous. What could you possibly want to change?”
She shrugged. “Thanks, but... I don’t feel that way.”
“Well, you should,” he said firmly, crossing his arms. “But if you’re set on it, you’ve come to the right place.”
Remy tilted her head thoughtfully. “What kind of makeover are you thinking, love?”
She thought for a moment, her mind whirling, but one thing stood out. “I want to dye my hair. Like Kaya,” she said, her voice a little more eager than she intended.
She’d always admired Kaya’s confidence, the way she wore her hair like an accessory, the vivid shades of gold that seemed to perfectly match her fiery spirit and tanned skin. If she could just do that, maybe she’d feel like she was in control of her own story for once.
And the idea of getting rid of her 'Black' hair was rather liberating.
Remy raised an eyebrow, not exactly convinced. “Hmm... I don’t know about that, Vera. It’s not that I think you wouldn’t look good, but, well...” She paused, clearly debating. “You’re still young, and that kind of change is big. It’s not just hair dye—it’s a whole thing.”
Vera deflated a little, but then Remy’s face lit up with an idea. “I’ve got something better. Trust me, you’ll love it.”
The sun was beginning to dip, casting a golden glow over Diagon Alley as Vera stepped out of Whiskers.
“Don’t forget to show off that new look!” Scotty called after her, leaning against the doorway with a playful grin. “And don’t worry, as soon as you step into the muggle world, it’ll disappear.”
“Remember, darling,” Remy added. “You are beautiful inside and out, no matter what anyone says!”
Vera smiled, waving goodbye. “Thank you. Both of you. I’ll see you soon!”
As she made her way down the cobbled street, her thoughts began to wander, a strange mix of hope and apprehension swirling in her chest.
Her steps slowed as a small, quaint shop caught her attention. Its pastel-painted sign read:
"The Powder & Petal: Magical Cosmetics and Potions for All."
The display window was filled with shimmering vials, colorful compacts, and tiny enchanted mirrors that reflected smiling versions of whoever looked into them.
Curiosity piqued, she decided to step inside.
The shop was cozy and inviting, with shelves lined with every kind of magical beauty product imaginable. The air smelled faintly of roses and vanilla, and soft, instrumental music played in the background. A few witches browsed the shelves, their chatter blending into the soothing ambiance.
Vera wandered through the aisles, her fingers brushing against jars of sparkling face creams and enchanted lipsticks that promised colors that shifted with the wearer’s mood.
One display featured tiny pots of eyeshadow that swirled like galaxies, and another showcased perfumes that shimmered in the air like mist before settling onto the skin.
“Looking for something special?” a cheerful voice asked.
Vera turned to see a young witch with bright turquoise hair tied up in a messy bun. Her name tag read "Marigold."
“I’m just looking,” she replied softly, holding up the vial. “What does this do?”
Marigold’s eyes lit up. “Ah, Tinker’s Glow! It’s one of our best sellers. It’s a highlighter you dust along your cheekbones, but it’s not just for looks. It enhances your natural confidence, gives you a little boost when you need it most. Perfect for making an entrance or just feeling good about yourself.”
Vera turned the vial over in her hands, the shimmer inside catching the light. “That sounds... nice.”
“Would you like to try it?” Marigold offered, pulling a small brush from her pocket.
Hesitating for only a moment, Vera nodded, and Marigold dusted a tiny bit of the powder along her cheekbones. The effect was subtle but enchanting, giving her a soft, luminous glow.
As she looked into the mirror Marigold handed her, she noticed something else—a spark in her eyes, a flicker of self-assurance that hadn’t been there before.
“It’s beautiful,” she said quietly, almost to herself.
“Just like you,” Marigold replied with a kind smile. “Would you like to take it home?”
Vera hesitated, her fingers brushing the tiny bag in her pocket where her coins rested. This money was meant for her loan—an obligation she couldn’t afford to neglect
“No, thank you,” she finally said.
She placed the vial back on the shelf, still mesmerized by the soft glow it left on her skin, but as she turned to continue browsing, Marigold’s voice floated over to her again.
“Would you like to try some magical nail polish? It’s quite popular around here.”
Vera’s heart tightened, and she instinctively glanced down at her hands.
Her disfigured fingers, though hidden beneath thick gloves, were still a reminder of the years of pain and self-consciousness.
This secret she carried close to her chest, had always made her dream of simple things—things like painting her nails—seem impossible. The sight of the glimmering bottles of polish on the shelf reminded her of what she could never have.
And could almost cry.
She swallowed hard, the familiar ache settling deep within her. "No, I'm fine," she said, her voice soft and distant, almost as if she were speaking to herself. “Thank you, though.”
Marigold’s expression softened, but she nodded understandingly. “Of course, no problem at all.”
Vera gave a small, tight smile, then turned away, her fingers clenching against the fabric of her gloves as she resumed her search through the aisles, feeling the weight of what she could never change hanging silently in the air.
As she wandered through the shop, a strange weight settled on her chest.
Unknown to her, the glow from the highlighter seemed to fade almost instantly, leaving her feeling duller than before. Her reflection in the enchanted mirrors, once smiling and radiant, now seemed to emphasize every flaw she’d tried so hard to ignore.
She noticed the small blemishes on her face, barely visible but suddenly glaring to her own eyes.
A display nearby offered an exotic cream made from rare slugs, promising flawless skin with just a single application.
It would be nice to make them disappear, a small, insistent voice whispered.
Her gaze then drifted to a pair of ornate, silver scissors resting on a velvet cushion, their label boasting, “Perfect Brow Trimmer: Shaped to Your Desire, Powered by Pixie Wings.”
She raised a hand to her eyebrows, thick and unkempt, and imagined how much better she’d look with them carefully shaped.
You’ll finally look like the other girls.
Further down the aisle, a row of small vials caught her attention. The label on one read, “Bat Blood Serum – Removes Unwanted Hair Forever. Guaranteed.”
Vera’s stomach sank. She thought of her arms, her legs—always a source of quiet embarrassment.
This could fix everything.
But the prices were staggering. Each product was marked with shimmering golden numbers that made her coins feel like nothing in comparison.
Her fingers tightened around the worn leather of her coin purse as she calculated. If she spent this money, there would be nothing left for her loan repayment.
But if she didn’t…
At this point, she could feel the glow of the shop’s atmosphere dimming further, replaced by an oppressive sense of inadequacy.
You’ll never be beautiful, the thought crept in unbidden, whispering from somewhere deep in her mind. Not without these.
Her hand trembled as she reached for the Bat Blood Serum. She swallowed hard, her throat tight.
What was a little more debt if it meant looking… better? Feeling better?
But the loan...
Her blemishes.
The loan...
Her brows.
The loan...
Beauty...
The loan...
Beauty...
The loan...
Beauty... Beauty... Beauty.
Fuck it.
She gathered the products one by one—the slug cream, the scissors, the serum—and approached the counter. Marigold looked up, surprised but cheerful. “Changed your mind?”
She forced a smile, setting the items down. “Yes."
As Marigold began wrapping the items, Vera’s heart pounded. Each fold of the paper felt heavier than the last. When the total was announced, it was higher than she had guessed. Her hands shook as she poured the coins onto the counter, leaving her purse nearly empty.
“Thank you,” she mumbled as she took the bag and left the shop.
Out on the street, the sun had disappeared behind clouds, casting the alley in shadow. She stepped out of the shop with a lightness in her step, the jingling of the bell above the door echoing in her ears. The bag in her hand felt like a treasure chest, filled with potions and products that promised perfection.
For the first time in years, she felt a strange sense of satisfaction, even excitement, imagining how these items might transform her.
She ran a hand through her newly dyed hair, smiling to herself, thinking maybe this was the start of something new—something better.
But what Vera couldn’t know, as she turned onto the cobblestone street, was that she had just made the worst decision of her life.
Chapter 53: Thirteen
Notes:
TW: Ethnic slur towards the end.
Chapter Text
Friday, August 23, 1991
Vera sat on the edge of her squeaky bed, her floor a patchwork of magazine clippings and half-finished doodles. A pair of scissors dangled idly from her hand as she meticulously cut out a photo of Damon Albarn. Her tongue peeked out in concentration while her tape player crackled with scratchy, melancholic tunes.
“Perfect,” she declared, holding up the photo triumphantly. Pressing it to her lips, she launched into an exaggerated performance, smothering the glossy image with noisy, theatrical kisses. “Mmm, Damon, you cheeky sod,” she whispered dramatically between her antics.
“Oi, you muppet, pack it in!” Kaya groaned from the neighboring bed, lobbing a pillow square at her head. “Some of us are trying not to vom.”
Vera caught the pillow with a grin, her eyes gleaming with mischief. “Jealous, are we?”
“Of you snogging a bit of glossy paper? Not on your life, love.”
Before Vera could respond, Grace strolled into the room, tossing a small black object into her lap. “Here. Happy birthday.”
Vera blinked in surprise, picking it up. “What’s this?”
“Eyeliner,” Grace replied with a grin. “It’s a St. Mary’s tradition—every girl who turns thirteen gets her first bit of makeup. Welcome to teenage life, darling. Now come on, before you stab your eye out—let me show you how to use it.”
Sighing in mock reluctance, Vera slid off the bed and shuffled to the small vanity in the corner. Grace stood behind her, popping the cap off with a practiced flick. With steady hands, she leaned in, carefully tracing a sleek line around Vera’s eyes.
“Blimey,” she muttered, stepping back to admire her work. “Vera, your eyes… they’re proper hypnotic.”
Kaya nodded in agreement. “Told you. Bit of eyeliner and voilà—instant seductress.”
Vera squinted at her reflection, studying the sharp lines framing her eyes. But instead of feeling glamorous, her gaze settled on everything she disliked—her untamed eyebrows, her chapped lips, the faint spots dotting her chin.
She tugged at her sleeves, suddenly self-conscious. “Dunno… I still just look like me.”
“You don’t,” Grace said firmly. “You just can’t see it yet.”
Kaya leaned over with a cheeky grin. “Vera, you’re stunning. Maybe if you stopped snogging Damon’s mug and started looking at your own, you’d notice.”
Vera rolled her eyes, unconvinced. “Whatever. I’m gonna take a shower.”
Grace arched an eyebrow. “Don’t take all day. We know how you are.”
“Yeah,” Kaya chimed in with a smirk. “Don’t think we don’t know what you’re doing in there,”
Vera’s face turned crimson. “Oh, shut it! It’s not like that!”
“Isn’t it?” Kaya teased, her eyes gleaming with mischief. “Then why does it take you an hour every time?”
“And why are you always banging on about your hands being numb?” Grace added with a wink.
“Because I’m shaving and washing my hair for an hour! Of course they’re gonna get numb!”
“Sure, babe. Whatever you say,” Kaya teased, laughing as Vera stormed off with exaggerated indignation.
Grabbing her things, she retreated to the bathroom, firmly locking the door behind her. She leaned against it for a moment as she exhaled deeply. Then, the irritation on her face softened into a small, secretive smile as she set her bag on the countertop.
Carefully, she unpacked the treasures she’d picked up in Diagon Alley, arranging them methodically. Each item seemed to gleam with possibility, and her heart raced—a blend of excitement and nerves.
This was it: her chance to enter her thirteenth year as someone new. Someone better.
First, she opened the enchanted blemish cream, dabbing it onto the faint spots on her cheeks and chin. She watched in wonder as the marks disappeared, dissolving into nothingness like smoke in the air.
Next came the insect-trim scissors. Their delicate legs twitched in her grip, and for a moment, her stomach flipped. But she steadied her hand, positioning the scissors over her brows. With a faint snip-snip, the enchanted tool worked its magic, shaping her eyebrows into sleek, flawless arches.
Finally, she uncorked the vial of bat-blood serum, her fingers trembling slightly. She poured a few drops into her palm, the liquid warm and tingly as she smoothed it over her arms, legs, and even the fine hairs on her upper lip. Like magic—no, it was magic—the hair dissolved, leaving her skin silky and smooth.
Once she’d finished, she meticulously cleaned up, packing the containers back into her bag and wiping down the countertop to erase any evidence of her makeover. With a deep breath, she unlocked the door and stepped back into the world, a quiet determination lighting her eyes.
“That was fast,” Kaya said, narrowing her eyes. “What, did you forget to wash your hair or something?”
“I didn’t need to today,” Vera replied smoothly, heading for her dresser.
Grace tilted her head, staring. “Hang on… why does your skin look so smooth?”
Vera froze for half a second, then shrugged. “Just, you know, used that new exfoliating scrub I got. The one we saw in Boots last week. Works wonders.”
Grace squinted. “And your eyebrows! Why do they look professionally done?”
“I tweezed a bit, that’s all. You lot really need to stop staring at my face—it’s getting weird.”
Kaya smirked. “We’re staring because you look… different.”
Vera tugged her jumper over her head, hiding her flushed face. “I just felt like putting in a bit of effort, that’s all. Now, can we go eat? I’m starving.”
Kaya rolled her eyes but stood up with a grin. “Fine. I’ll go downstairs and whip up something special for the birthday girl.”
Vera’s stomach growled in response. “Perfect!”
The sounds of morning chaos filled the hall—shouts from Mrs. Quinn to keep the racket down, clattering plates, and the occasional argument over who nicked the last bit of toast. Somewhere, a tinny radio buzzed out 'Come on Eileen', cutting through the din.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, VEE!
Grace leaned across the rickety breakfast table, her elbows dangerously close to the plate. “Come on. Spill. What’d you wish for?”
Vera eyed the candle on her misshapen pancake stack—Kaya's well-meaning attempt at a "13."
She shrugged, playing it cool. “Well, since my wish last year came true, I realized God’s probably got my back. So, I wished for something I really, really need.”
Kaya snorted. “Oh my God, you’re talking about getting your period, aren’t you?”
Vera froze, her fork hovering mid-air. She hadn’t told anyone—not even Kaya—that she’d finally learned the truth about her mum.
She forced a nervous smile. “Uh... yeah, that wish.”
Kaya let out a dramatic groan. “Oh, for crying out loud, Vee! That was inevitable! Bit like wishing the sun’ll rise tomorrow.”
“What does ‘inevitable’ mean?” Mandy piped up, leaning across the table, her twin Andy rolling her eyes beside her.
“It means shut your gob, Mandy,” Grace shot back, rolling up a napkin and tossing it at her. “Stop stalling, Vee. What’d you wish for this time?”
Vera cleared her throat, stealing a glance at the candle still smoking on her pancake stack. “Alright, fine. A boyfriend.”
For a second, there was silence—then the table erupted like someone had let off a firework.
“A boyfriend?” Grace practically shrieked.
“That’s rich!” Kaya wheezed, clutching her sides.
“You couldn’t chat up a paper bag,” Andy chimed in, earning her a high-five from Mandy.
“Didn’t know you were that desperate, Vee,” Kaya added with a wicked grin.
“Shut it, all of you!” Vera said, red-faced but grinning. “I’ll get a boyfriend! The fittest bloke at school, you'll see!”
“Right,” Grace said, wiping tears from her eyes. “And pigs’ll fly, won’t they? God’s busy, love. Don’t waste his time on something so tragic.”
“Oi!” Vera protested, but her laughter betrayed her.
“Happy birthday, boyfriendless wonder,” Mandy teased.
“Oi, shut it, Mandy!” Vera snapped, snatching up a piece of pancake and launching it at her, missing by miles and hitting Andy instead.
Andy sighed, brushing syrup off her sleeve. “Great. Not even a boyfriend yet and you’re already causing collateral damage.”
"What does collateral damage mean?" Mandy piped up.
The table dissolved into more laughter, the kind that echoed around the old hall and drowned out the morning noise of the orphanage. Then, Grace nudged a lumpy package, wrapped in yesterday’s Sun newspaper, across the table.
“Right then, birthday girl. Open this first,” she said with a grin.
“Bet it’s another pair of your hand-me-downs,” Vera teased, but her fingers eagerly tore at the makeshift wrapping.
Sure enough, out tumbled a faded denim jacket, frayed at the cuffs and adorned with a few wonky patches sewn on.
“It’s vintage,” Grace declared proudly.
“You mean tatty,” Kaya said, earning her a sharp elbow in the ribs.
“No, I love it,” Vera said sincerely, slipping it on. It was big enough to drown her, but felt warm and oddly comforting.
Next came a small parcel from Mandy and Andy, the fourteen year-old twin who were the newest addition to St. Mary’s.
“From both of us,” Mandy said as Vera ripped it open. Inside was a striped jumper in eye-watering shades of purple.
“We made it in textiles workshop,” Andy said, clearly trying to stifle a laugh.
“It’s... one-of-a-kind,” Vera said diplomatically, holding it up. “But I love it!”
Kaya swiftly pushed a small, carefully wrapped package across the table toward her. It stood out from the others—wrapped in actual wrapping paper, albeit slightly crumpled, with a bit of string tied in a wonky bow.
“Here. Don’t say I never do anything for you,” she said gruffly, but her tone lacked its usual bite.
Vera raised an eyebrow, intrigued. “What’s this? Not another pair of your knackered trainers, I hope?”
“Just open it, you prat,” Kaya shot back, though she was fidgeting nervously with the corner of her sleeve.
Vera untied the string and carefully peeled back the paper to reveal a tin of art supplies—a mix of charcoal pencils, pastels, and a tiny set of watercolors. The tin itself was old, with scratches and dents, but everything inside was neatly arranged and barely used.
“Got it from the charity shop,” Kaya said quickly, as though that explained everything. “I know it’s not fancy, but you’re always nicking pens from the desk drawer to sketch on the back of flyers, so I figured... I dunno. Maybe you could actually use proper stuff for once.”
The room went quiet as Vera ran her fingers over the contents of the tin. She could already imagine the bold lines of charcoal, the soft blending of pastels, and the vibrant washes of watercolor.
“Kaya...” she looked up, her voice thick with emotion. “This is perfect. I love it.”
“Yeah, well, don’t get all teary on me,” Kaya muttered, crossing her arms but unable to hide the faint blush creeping up her neck.
“Aw, Kaya’s got a heart after all!” Grace teased.
“Shut it, Grace,” Kaya snapped, though her lips twitched into a reluctant smile.
Vera held the tin close, her mind already buzzing with ideas. “I’m going to draw something just for you, K.”
“Don’t bother,” Kaya said, feigning indifference. “I’m only keeping it if it makes me look fit.”
As Vera admired the tin of art supplies, feeling the weight of Kaya’s thoughtfulness, a small voice piped up from the end of the table.
“Vee, I got you something too!”
“Oh no,” Kaya muttered under her breath, already bracing for whatever chaos was coming.
Lola beamed as she clambered on a chair next to Vera, nearly knocking over her mug of tea in the process. Her wild curls bobbed as she stretched out a grubby hand holding a lumpy, unwrapped object.
Vera turned to the little girl, smiling nervously. “What is it, Lola?”
With a flourish, Lola revealed a small, black porcelain figurine, and Vera's heart nearly stopped beating.
It was a crow.
The glossy bird’s eyes were painted a piercing red, and the way it seemed to glare at Vera made her stomach twist.
“Erm... Lola,” she said, taking it with shaky hands. “It’s, uh, really...”
“You don’t like it?” Lola’s lower lip jutted out, but her eyes glinted with mischief.
“No, no, I like it,” Vera said quickly. “It’s very... thoughtful.”
“Where did you get it, anyway?” Grace asked, leaning in for a better look.
Lola beamed. “I found it under my bed last night. It wasn’t there before, but when I woke up, it was just sitting there.”
The room went quiet, the girls exchanging uneasy glances.
“You’re saying it... appeared?” Mandy asked.
Lola nodded eagerly. “Uh-huh! And then, when I picked it up, I heard a voice say, ‘Give it to Vera.’”
“What?!” Grace screeched, nearly toppling off her chair.
“Lola, that’s creepy,” Kaya said, her eyes narrowing.
"I think she means her 'inner thoughts'" Andy clarified. "That or she's possessed,"
Vera stared at the figurine in her hands, her unease growing. It did have an eerie aura about it, but she forced herself to smile. Perhaps it was nothing. Lola was known for her creepy antics, and this was no different.
“Well, thank you, Lola. I’ll, uh, keep it somewhere safe.”
“Like the bin,” Kaya muttered under her breath.
“Oi, it’s not rubbish!” Lola snapped, glaring at her.
As the girls returned to their breakfast, the figurine weighed heavily in Vera’s pocket, and the air around the table remained charged with unease. Lola, however, seemed utterly unbothered, happily spooning porridge into her mouth.
“Well,” Grace finally said, breaking the silence. “At least it wasn’t a severed frog's hand this time.”
Before anyone could toss another questionable item Vera's way, Miss Nelson shuffled into the room, a wrapped package in her hand. Her hair was in disarray, and her slippers dragged across the floor.
“Morning, girls. Bit loud for this early, aren’t we?” she said, though there was no real bite to her tone.
“It’s Vera’s birthday, Miss!” Lola chirped.
“Thought I’d better not miss the big event, then.”
She handed the package to Vera, who opened it with growing curiosity. Inside was a brand-new pair of black Converse.
The room went still for a moment as Vera stared at them, wide-eyed. “Miss, are these really for me?”
“Don’t see anyone else turning thirteen today, do you?” Miss Nelson said with a tired smile.
Vera shot out of her chair and hugged her tightly, nearly knocking her over. “Thank you, thank you, thank you!”
Miss Nelson chuckled, patting her on the back. “Alright, alright. Sit down before you squash me.”
As Vera slid the Converse onto her feet, the other girls leaned in to admire them.
“Cor, they’re proper smart,” Grace said, whistling.
Vera beamed, looking down at her new shoes as if they were made of gold.
It was the best birthday she could remember—and for a moment, surrounded by laughter and teasing, everything felt perfect.
She picked up the lighter, her fingers trembling slightly, and lit the candle once more. The tiny flame flickered to life, casting soft shadows across her face.
“What are you doing?” Andy asked, his brow furrowed in confusion.
Vera’s gaze lingered on the flame, her voice a quiet murmur. “Restarting my wish.”
She closed her eyes, drawing in a deep breath as if savoring the moment. Then, with deliberate slowness, she opened them again and leaned forward, blowing the candle out.
Grace tilted her head, watching her closely. “So,” she asked softly, “what did you wish for this time?”
Vera hesitated, her lips curling into a faint smile as she looked up, her eyes glistened with gratitude. “For none of this to ever change.”
Saturday, August 31st, 1991
Grace stood in the middle of the cramped living area, hands on her hips like she was about to deliver the keynote at a fashion show.
"Right, you lot," she began, flipping her long hair over her shoulder. "Since I’m off to uni soon to become a cultured woman of the world—"
"Oh God, here we go," Kaya muttered, rolling her eyes as she flopped onto the sofa.
"Shut it, Kaya! As I was saying, I can’t possibly take all my stuff with me, so it’s time for a little pity reward ceremony. Think of it as my last gift to you mere mortals before I ascend to a higher plane."
Vera smirked. "Miss Nelson's making you clear out your room, isn’t she?"
"Obviously," Kaya snorted. "She’s not doing this out of the goodness of her heart."
"Oi! I’m offended." Grace shot back. "But yes, Miss Nelson threatened to bin the lot if I don’t ‘sort my life out,’ whatever that means."
Andrea leaned back, arms crossed. “So, what’s up for grabs then? Please tell me you’ve got something decent and not just your old Primark knickers.”
Grace gasped in mock horror. “How dare you! My wardrobe is practically designer!"
"Yeah, if you squint hard enough and ignore the labels.” Mandy quipped, earning a round of giggles from the group.
"Alright, alright! Enough sass," Grace said, rummaging through a massive duffel bag she’d dragged into the room. “Let’s get cracking.”
She proceeded to pull out a sparkly pink crop top that looked like it belonged on a 80s pop star. “Who wants this? Vera, it’s got your name all over it.”
Vera held up her hands. “Nah, mate, I’m not trying to look like a backup dancer for Culture Club.”
"Rude," Grace said, tossing it onto the ‘maybe’ pile. "Alright, next item—these bad boys." She held up a pair of platform boots that could double as lethal weapons.
Lydia’s eyes lit up. “Dibs!”
"Hang on, hang on," Andrea interrupted. "Are we not doing this fairly? Like a raffle or something? Lydia can’t just shout ‘dibs’ like it’s the last biscuit."
"Relax, Andy. You’ve got first dibs on the ‘tragic schoolgirl chic’ section," Grace teased.
"Oi! I’ll have you know my wardrobe is… practical," Andrea defended, though her cheeks flushed.
Grace grinned and held up a bright red lipstick. "This, though. This is power in a tube. Mandy, you’ve got the confidence for it."
Mandy grabbed it, inspecting the label. “Ooh, Maybelline. Fancy.”
Grace wagged a finger. “That’s right. None of that cheap corner shop nonsense.”
"Didn’t you nick half this stuff from Boots?" Lydia asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Details, details," Grace said breezily, moving on. "Now, who wants this eyeliner? It’s waterproof. Perfect for when you’re sobbing over a bloke."
"Speaking of blokes," Kaya said, "how’s things with that lad from school?"
Grace grinned. "Oh, Tim? Total dreamboat. But thick as two short planks. He thought Shakespeare was a type of beer."
The room erupted into laughter again, with Grace dramatically clutching her chest. “I can’t cope!”
As the girls continued to bicker and banter over the remaining clothes, she looked around at her sisters, a smirk playing on her lips. “You lot are going to miss me when I’m off changing the world.”
“Or at least changing nappies if you fail your courses,” Vera shot back, earning one last burst of laughter.
Just then, Grace reached into the bottom of the duffel bag with a flourish, pulling out her most prized possession—a brand new, shiny Walkman, the latest model in a sleek silver finish.
The room fell silent, the girls’ eyes widening in collective awe.
“No way,” Kaya whispered, leaning forward.
“Yep,” Grace said smugly, holding it up like it was the crown jewels. “My baby. And since I’m upgrading to a Discman—because I am a woman of sophistication—one of you lucky peasants gets to have it.”
The room erupted into chaos.
“I need it!” Mandy declared, practically diving off the sofa. “I’ve been stuck listening to the radio like a pleb for months!”
“No way,” Lydia protested, standing up. “It’s got to be me. You lot know I’ve got the best taste in music.”
“Oh please,” Andrea snorted. “You only listen to Depeche Mode. That’s a crime in itself. Give it to someone with decent taste—like me!”
"Decent taste?" Abbie scoffed. “You listen to U2 on repeat!”
“And?” Andrea crossed her arms. “At least it’s not Duran Duran!”
“Oi, Duran Duran are amazing!” Abbie shot back, outraged.
"Alright, enough!" Grace clapped her hands, smirking as the girls continued to bicker. "This isn’t a gladiator match… though I’m loving the energy."
Kaya leaned forward. “Grace, think about it. I should have it because I’m the only one who’ll appreciate it. I’ll even name my first-born child after you.”
“Hard pass,” Grace said with a grin. "Alright, enough of this. I’ve already made my mind anyway,"
All around, the air seemed to crackle with excitement, hearts pounding in unison, each girl silently hoping, praying, that they would be the one.
"The Walkman will go to…"
The pause was deliberate, agonizing, stretching seconds into what felt like hours. A collective inhale rippled through the room, every gaze locked on Grace, waiting for the verdict.
"Vera."
The room froze.
“What?” Lydia blinked in disbelief. “Vera?!”
“She—” Andrea started, but Grace held up a hand.
“Hear me out,” she said, turning to Vera, who sat there looking as if she didn’t believe what she was hearing. “Out of all of you, Vera needs this more. Imagine being stuck in a backward school with no music. No Bowie. No Kylie. No Prince. Just… silence. No one deserves to suffer like that. Vera, my love, you’re the chosen one."
Vera’s jaw dropped. “No… No way!”
"Yes way," Grace said, handing the Walkman over like the Olympic torch.
Vera let out a loud, high-pitched scream of pure excitement, clutching the Walkman to her chest. "OH MY GOD! I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS! THANK YOU, GRACE! YOU’RE THE BEST!"
The other girls groaned in jealousy.
“Unbelievable,” Kaya muttered, crossing her arms. “I was going to take care of it.”
“You lot are just jealous because I’m about to be living,” Vera teased, already imagining herself sneaking the Walkman into Hogwarts.
“Enjoy it while it lasts, Bitch.” Lydia said with a smirk.
The streets of Sutton buzzed with the hum of life—cars rattling over cobblestones, street vendors hawking their wares, and the occasional burst of music spilling from a nearby pub. Vera and Kaya strolled side by side, the summer sun filtering through a canopy of overhanging trees, casting dappled shadows on the pavement.
Vera was dressed in a loose Flannel shirt. Beneath it, a vintage 'Ramones' tee hung loosely over ripped black jeans. Her hands were hidden in a pair of gloves, the leather cracked and well-loved. On her feet, her scuffed black Converse peeked out with scribbled lyrics on the rubber soles. Her black curly hair was tousled, half-heartedly tucked behind her ears, and her piercing blue eyes, with their subtle hazel flecks, scanned the street ahead.
Kaya, in contrast, was a riot of punk rock rebellion. Her golden dreadlocks, tied up with a bandana, caught the sunlight as they bounced with each step. She wore a studded leather jacket over a tartan skirt and fishnet tights, paired with chunky black Doc Martens that announced her presence with every stomp.
"Grace’s taste in music is bloody tragic," Vera muttered as they approached a music shop tucked between a tattoo parlour and a kebab shop.
"Tell me about it," Kaya snorted. "I thought I’d find a decent mixtape in that pile, but it’s all bloody ancient."
Vera smirked. "That’s why we’re here, yeah? Time to purge the collection before I leave for school."
The music shop loomed ahead—a relic of another era, its façade a little run-down but charming in its own right. The sign above the door read 'Groove Records' in faded, hand-painted letters. Posters of Bowie, Joy Division, Michael Jackson and Prince covered the windows, curling slightly at the edges.
The girls pushed open the red door, a little bell jingling overhead. Inside, the smell of vinyl and old wood greeted them, mingling with the faint scent of incense burning near the counter. Dim lighting flickered from a neon sign in the corner that read LONG LIVE ROCK ‘N’ ROLL. Wooden shelves lined the walls, packed with records and cassette tapes, while a small crowd of music enthusiasts browsed in quiet reverence.
The crackling sound of Pearl Jam's Alive played softly from a stereo behind the counter, adding to the almost sacred vibe of the place.
♪"Son," she said, "have I got a little story for you
What you thought was your daddy was nothing but a…
While you were sitting home alone at age thirteen
Your real daddy was dyin'♪
Vera headed straight for the cassette section, fingers dancing over the rows of tapes. "Right. This abomination goes first." She said, holding up a Rick Astley tape.
Kaya snorted. "Grace actually listens to that? Never gonna give you up? I would’ve given it up the second I heard it."
"I swear, her taste is criminal."
Kaya grinned and pulled a tape from the shelf. "The Sex Pistols. Now this is what you need."
Vera nodded, approving. "Anarchy in my Walkman. Yes, please."
They continued their hunt, debating the merits of The Pixies versus The Stone Roses when the bell above the door jingled.
Vera glanced over her shoulder just as Lydia sauntered in, her arm looped around Danger’s. She was tall, with a mane of dirty blonde hair and an air of superiority that filled the room the moment she entered. Danger was her skinhead-wannabe boyfriend, all shaved head, with a bomber jacket and combat boots that clomped on the wooden floor.
Kaya rolled her eyes. “Great. Just what we needed.”
“Well, well, well,” Lydia drawled, her eyes locking onto Vera and Kaya. “Look who decided to crawl out of the gutter.”
Kaya barely glanced up. “We live in the same house, you idiot.”
“What are you doing, Lydia?" Vera, cool as ever, said. "Looking for a soundtrack to match your tragic little existence?”
Lydia’s eyes flicked to the Walkman in her hand. “Careful, Black. You don’t wanna lose Grace’s charity.”
“Oh, you mean like the charity Danger gives you? That fake leather jacket he bought you is practically shedding, you know. Cruel, really. The poor cows died for nothing.”
Lydia flushed, and Danger—never one to stay silent—stepped forward, his swagger loud and obnoxious. “At least she has someone to buy her things.”
Vera’s eyes flicked to him, unbothered. “Oh, I’m sorry, Finn. I forgot that some people just hand over their dignity for free. It’s almost tragic, really. You buy Lydia’s things, she drains you dry, and now here you are, window shopping again because she spent all your pocket money.”
Danger’s face darkened, his eyes narrowing as his temper flared. “Watch your mouth, Pikey."
The word hit like a slap, and for a second, everything went still. Kaya tensed beside Vera, her hands curling into fists. Even Lydia looked momentarily unsure, glancing at Danger.
But before anyone could react, a hand came down hard on the back of Danger’s head with a loud smack.
"Oi!" Danger yelped, stumbling forward and grabbing the back of his head. He spun around, eyes blazing.
Behind him stood a tall, slender young man, his presence as calm as it was commanding. He had messy brown hair, the kind that looked like he didn’t care but somehow worked, and piercing bright blue eyes that held a quiet intensity. He wore a faded Led Zeppelin tee under a flannel shirt, ripped jeans, and beat-up boots. A cigarette dangled from behind his ear, unlit but ready, and a small card hung from his chest, bearing the name "Wes."
"Mind your manners in my shop," he said coolly, his voice low and gravelly.
Vera blinked, taken off guard not just by his intervention but by how effortlessly cool he looked.
Meanwhile, Danger’s face twisted in anger as he rubbed the back of his head. “What the hell’s your problem?” he snapped.
Wes didn’t even blink. Instead, he fixed Danger with a cold, piercing stare. "My problem is you. Always has been. Always will be. And that word?” he stepped forward, “don’t ever use it again."
Danger puffed up his chest, trying to appear tougher than he was. "I can say what I want—"
Smack!
Wes's fist connected with his jaw before he could continue, sending him stumbling back a few steps. Lydia gasped, clutching his arm, her confidence evaporating.
"Say it again," Wes challenged, his tone deadly quiet, "and we’ll see what happens next." He glanced at Lydia, then back at Danger. "Now, why don’t you and your princess piss off before things get embarrassing?"
Kaya grinned. "You heard him. Jog on, mate,"
"Come on, love." Lydia said, "this place stinks anyway."
Danger didn’t need any more convincing. He yanked Lydia by the arm, muttering curses under his breath as they hurried out of the shop. The bell above the door jangled violently in their wake.
Wes watched them go, his shoulders relaxing only once they disappeared from view. He sighed, then turned back to Vera and Kaya.
"Sorry about that," he said, running a hand through his messy brown hair. "My brother’s a proper knobhead."
Vera shook her head, her ability to speak suddenly gone. Meanwhile, Wes's blue eyes flicked over her, taking in the flannel, the Ramones tee, the gloves, the scribbled-on Converse, and her hair. He lingered on her face for a moment, then met her eyes. "Can I help you with something?" he said softly.
Her heart gave an unexpected flutter under his gaze, but she steadied herself. "I’m just... replacing a few cassettes," she managed, her voice surprisingly even.
He raised an eyebrow. "Replacing? Let me guess—something tragic like Cliff Richard?"
She laughed lightly. "Worse. Rick Astley."
Wes winced in mock pain. "Brutal." He stepped closer, peering at the tapes she’d pulled from the shelf. His eyes scanned the titles, and he nodded in approval when he spotted Soundgarden.
"Solid choice," he said. "What else are you thinking?"
She hesitated, suddenly aware of how close he was. His presence was magnetic—grungy and effortlessly cool, the kind of guy who looked like he belonged on a stage rather than a dingy record shop.
She glanced at Kaya, who was watching with a knowing smirk, then back at him.
"I was thinking of adding Alice in Chains," she finally said, trying to sound casual.
He grinned. "Now you’re talking." He reached over, plucking a cassette from a nearby shelf and handing it to her. "The Treehouse Tapes. One of their best. Trust me."
She took the tape, their gaze lingering for a brief moment. "Thanks... Wes, right?"
"Yeah. And you’re Vera."
Her eyes widened slightly. "How’d you know?"
"My brother mentioned you once. Don’t worry—I’m not a stalker."
Kaya snorted. "Good, because we don’t need another creep in our neighborhood. Mr. Dawson's enough."
Wes chuckled. "True."
He glanced between them, then locked eyes with Vera, tilting his head, "I don’t think I’ve seen you around much. Why is that?"
She swiftly shook her head, tucking a stray lock of her dark black hair behind her ear. "I study at a boarding school."
"Boarding school, huh? Fancy. Bet it’s all posh uniforms and strict rules."
"Something like that,"
"I can imagine. So, what brings you in today? Just replacing that Rick Astley disaster?"
"Yeah, and I was thinking of making a mixtape," she replied, glancing at him. "With some Blur on it."
At that, Wes laughed—a deep, genuine sound that made her stomach flip. "Blur? Really? Nah, can’t stand them. Bunch of pretentious gits if you ask me."
Vera raised an eyebrow. "Oh? And who do you think isn’t pretentious?"
He smirked, reaching into his jacket pocket and pulling out a cassette tape. The label was scrawled in messy handwriting:
Wes’ Picks
"Here," he said, handing it to her. "Made this one myself. It’s got all the good stuff on it. Even the latest Pearl Jam album."
"Oh, mint!" she managed, her voice a little higher than she intended. "How much is it?"
"It's free.” He said with a wink. “Just for you."
Her gloved fingers brushed his as she took the tape, and her face instantly flushed. "Thank you..."
"No worries," he said, flashing her a grin. "Let me know what you think."
She nodded, clutching the tape tightly as if it might slip away. Kaya watched the entire exchange with a growing smirk.
"See you around, Vera," he said, his eyes lingering on her for a moment before he turned back to the counter. “And stick with Rock—fits you.”
As soon as the two girls stepped out of the shop, Kaya couldn’t hold it in any longer. "Bloody hell, Vera! He totally fancies you."
Vera’s eyes widened, her cheeks still warm. "What? No, he doesn’t. He was just being nice because his brother called me a slur."
Kaya snorted, rolling her eyes. "Right, because every bloke hands out mixtapes to random girls out of sheer politeness. Face it, mate—he’s into you."
"No way. He was just… being polite. That’s all."
"Vera, he kicked Danger’s arse, gave you a mixtape, and winked at you. Winked! That's the international sign for ‘I fancy you.’"
Vera glanced back through the shop window, where Wes was now leaning casually against the counter, talking to another customer with that effortless cool, and she sighed softly. "Blokes like him don’t go for girls like me."
Kaya shot her a look. "Girls like you? Don’t be daft. You’re gorgeous.”
“Well… h-he isn’t my type!"
"Because you only fancy posh boys with hands softer than yours."
"Shut it, K.”
"What's not to like about him, eh? He's fit, tall, plays the guitar, and he's genuinely hardworking. Ever since his dad left, he's been the one looking after his brother. With his mum always busy working—she's a flight attendant, you know—he's practically taken on everything himself."
"Yeah, I’ve heard…"
"Then why not give him a chance?"
“Ugh! He’s bloody ancient, K."
Kaya narrowed her eyes. "He’s sixteen."
"Exactly. Ancient."
"Vera, you’re in love with Damon Albarn and he’s what—twenty-three?"
"That’s different. Damon is a god."
"Girl, at least Wes is real, and he just gave you a free mixtape. Damon doesn't even know you exist."
Vera shot her a glare. "Yet."
"What about Felix, then? He’s sixteen as well,"
"Fifteen," Vera corrected, a little too quickly. "And can we just drop this?"
"Sure, sure," Kaya said, smirking. "But don’t be surprised if you’re dreaming about that mixtape tonight. I bet it’s got ‘I fancy you’ written all over it."
Vera glanced down at the tape in her hand, the scrawled label 'Wes’ Picks' staring back at her, and her heart gave a little flutter. "Yeah, well… we’ll see."
Later that night, she slid the tape into her Walkman, the soft click of the lid snapping shut echoing in the quiet room. Settling under her blanket, she pressed play, the gentle hum of a guitar filling her ears through the cushioned headphones.
As the soothing melody wrapped around her, her thoughts drifted, and she smiled faintly, hopeful that this school year might finally bring her the peace she’d been longing for.
Words can only do so much. For the rest, there’s music. Wes' picks is the playlist that hums between the lines of the story. Think of it as the soundtrack to the mess, the magic, and everything in between. Click here to listen.
Chapter 54: Teenage Riot
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
♪ Ah, here it comes
I know it's someone I knew
Teenage riot in a public station
Gonna fight and tear it up in a hypernation for you ♪
Sunday, September 1st, 1991
Vera hurried through King’s Cross Station, her heart pounding as she weaved through the bustling crowd. Miss Nelson, frazzled and apologetic, trailed behind, muttering a steady stream of excuses about oversleeping.
“I swear, Vera, I set three alarms this time!” she said, glancing nervously at her watch. “I don’t know how this keeps happening.”
“It’s fine, Miss. I’ve still got time,” Vera replied, her voice calm but her eyes fixed on the magical barrier ahead.
Miss Nelson stopped abruptly, her sharp gaze sweeping over Vera like a checklist. “Alright, let’s see—books? Bag? Oh, and your winter gloves?”
“Yes, yes, I’ve got everything,” Vera assured her, adjusting her bag with a hint of impatience.
Miss Nelson hesitated, her voice lowering as she leaned closer. “And… pads? Did you pack some?”
Vera froze, her cheeks flaming red. “Miss Nelson!” she hissed, glancing around to make sure no one overheard.
“Well, it’s bound to happen soon,”
“YES, I packed them,”
Miss Nelson let out a small sigh, equal parts relieved and regretful. “Still, I should’ve taken you to see someone about your period being late. It’s not something to ignore.”
“I’m fine,” Vera mumbled, staring intently at the ground. “Can we not talk about this here?”
“Alright. Just… take care of yourself, okay?”
Vera nodded, her embarrassment ebbing slightly under the matron’s warm gaze.
Miss Nelson studied her for a moment longer, tilting her head. “Wait—did you… do something to your eyebrows?”
“I-I trimmed them last week,” Vera admitted reluctantly.
Miss Nelson raised an eyebrow, her lips curling into a playful grin. “Last week? And I’m just noticing now? Shame on me.” She stepped back, nodding in approval. “They look great, Vera. You’ve got an eye for detail. Honestly, I might let you have a go at mine someday.”
Vera blinked, surprised by the unexpected compliment. “I don’t know about that,” she murmured, a shy smile forming.
Miss Nelson softened, brushing a stray strand of hair from the young girl’s face. “You’re beautiful, Vera,” she said, her voice gentle. “Not just in how you look, but in how you carry yourself. You’re smart, kind, and capable—don’t ever forget that.” Her tone grew serious, her gaze steady. “I don’t always say it, but you mean so much to me. Watching you grow into the person you’re becoming is one of the greatest privileges of my life. I know things haven’t been easy for you, but you’re not alone. You’ll never be alone. I’ll always be here for you.”
Tears welled up in Vera’s eyes, but she blinked them back quickly. “Thank you, Miss,” she whispered, her voice barely audible. “I lov-” She faltered, swallowing hard and looking away. “I appreciate you. A lot.”
Miss Nelson pulled her into a firm hug before stepping back. “Now, go catch that train,” she said with a bittersweet smile.
Vera waved until the muggle matron disappeared into the crowd, then turned toward the barrier. Clutching her suitcase tightly, she took a deep breath to steady herself. “Here’s to a good year,” she murmured before stepping forward and vanishing through the magical wall.
On the other side, the platform buzzed with activity as witches and wizards swarmed around the scarlet Hogwarts Express. Near the edge of the platform, Lee was holding up a small glass tank with an unmistakable air of triumph. Inside it, a large, hairy tarantula skittered about, much to the mixed reactions of the group gathered around him.
"This," he declared, grinning, "is Jimmy. He’s going to be my best mate this year."
"Your best mate?" Malika squeaked, standing several feet back. “More like my worst nightmare. Get that thing away from me!"
Fred smirked, nudging George. "What do you think, George? Should Jimmy pay Malika a little visit during breakfast tomorrow?"
"Absolutely," George replied with mock seriousness. "Jimmy’s got a thing for croissants, I hear."
"Not funny!" Malika snapped, retreating further.
Sarah, meanwhile, had her nose practically pressed against the glass, her eyes gleaming with curiosity. "How much for it, Jordan?" she asked eagerly.
Lee frowned. "It’s not for sale, Sarah. Jimmy’s family now."
"Come on," she pleaded, practically bouncing on her toes. "I just want to experiment a little! Imagine the potions I could test on him—spells to see if spiders can regrow legs faster, or maybe even fly. For science!"
"Absolutely not," Lee said, hugging the tank protectively. "Jimmy’s not a lab rat—he’s a free spirit."
"Free to give Malika nightmares," George interjected, wiggling his fingers ominously in her direction.
Malika swatted at him with her pink bag, her face a mixture of annoyance and fear. "I swear, if you two maniacs come near me with that thing, you’ll be eating hexes for breakfast."
But George wasn’t paying attention anymore. His gaze had shifted over Fred’s shoulder, and his jaw went slack. He nudged his twin sharply, his voice suddenly breathless. “Merlin’s bloody beard…”
Fred turned, his expression quickly mirroring George’s as he saw Vera walking down the platform with a confidence that turned heads.
Her outfit was certainly a striking departure from the robes and sweaters typically seen among the Hogwarts students.
She wore a black denim skirt so short it just barely complied with decency, paired with fishnet tights that accentuated the pale skin of her legs.
A graphic cropped top peeked out beneath a baggy red-and-black flannel, the hem riding up just enough to reveal a sliver of her toned stomach.
Her accessories completed the rebellious look—a black leather choker around her neck, wrists adorned with mismatched bracelets, and leather gloves that added a touch of edginess.
Her new black Converse seemed to echo the sentiment, their appearance a testament to her teenage rebellious soul.
Her face was lightly flushed, her cheeks pink from the morning chill, while her eyes were framed by smudged black eyeliner that gave her a smoky, almost feline allure.
But it was her hair that truly caught the attention—long, jet black as always, but with vibrant red streaks woven through, shimmering like liquid fire under the sun. They glowed faintly, enchanted, the color shifting subtly as she moved—courtesy of Remy and Scotty’s magic.
As she approached the group, it was as if an unspoken spell had been cast. Every boy’s head turned in unison, their gazes snapping toward her like compass needles drawn to magnetic north. Her daring ensemble, paired with the unapologetic confidence in her stride, had clearly left an impression.
Kenny’s jaw dropped so hard it practically echoed. "Whoa. Is that… Vera?"
Lee blinked furiously. "She looks…" he mumbled, temporarily forgetting about Jimmy.
George, usually quick with a quip, struggled for words. “Yeah, she looks…”
Fred nodded. “She looks…”
"Hot." Sarah interjected, her voice cutting through the quiet like a firecracker.
Every head whipped around to face her, expressions cycling between scandalized disbelief and outright horror.
Meanwhile, Vera, oblivious to the chaos her entrance had caused, adjusted the strap of her bag and marched forward, unknowingly leaving a trail of teenage bewilderment in her wake.
She sauntered over with a small, genuine smile and a casual wave. “What’s with the gawking?” she quipped, her tone light with a dash of curiosity. “Do I have a second face on the back of my head?”
The boys exchanged quick, fumbling glances, scrambling for an answer that didn’t make them seem like complete idiots. But none of them could manage more than a clumsy, "Nothing!" in unison.
“Vera, you look amazing!” Malika squealed, practically bouncing in place. “Your hair… it’s stunning!”
“Cheers! Got it done at a shop in Diagon Alley, It’s called Whiskers. Thought I’d try something new.” Then her eyes flicked to Lee. “And what… exactly is that?”
“Jimmy!” Lee declared enthusiastically.
Vera stepped back instantly. “Well, Jimmy better stay six feet away from me if he knows what’s good for him.”
“Oh, come on,” Lee grinned. “He’s got excellent manners. Besides, he’s great for defense. No one’s going to mess with us when we’ve got this fuzzy lad around.”
Vera scoffed. “Well, unless he’s biting Snape or doing my homework, Jimmy’s better stay the fuck away from me.”
The group burst into laughter, and Vera finally plopped down among them. The conversation quickly shifted to the upcoming school year. Predictions flew about which teachers would drown them in homework, whether Professor Snape had developed a new way to make their lives miserable, and which Quidditch team would dominate the season.
Yet, amid the banter, Fred’s usual quick comebacks were conspicuously absent. Instead, he kept sneaking glances at Vera, his cheeks reddening with each stolen look.
Kenny, however, was still scanning the bustling crowd with a mischievous glint in his eye. “Hey, Vee,” he said slyly, nudging her arm, and nodding toward the platform entrance. “Looks like you’re not the only one who got a rebellious look this year.”
Curious, Vera followed his gaze and immediately spotted Ryu striding toward the train.
She stiffened.
He looked different—older, sharper. His hair, usually a bit disheveled, was now groomed to perfection. He’d grown even taller—something she’d thought impossible—and his sun-kissed complexion gave him a glow of effortless cool. However, what truly caught her attention was the glint of silver in his left ear: a single earring, subtle yet striking.
He walked with a newfound confidence, though he was still accompanied by his elegant mother. His father, however, was noticeably absent.
“Cool earring,” Kenny murmured. “Wonder if he’s got a matching nose ring?”
Vera found herself staring, curiosity bubbling up before she could stop it. Then, as if drawn by some invisible force, Ryu’s gaze locked with hers, and her heart skipped a beat.
Quickly, she looked away, fumbling with the cuff of her flannel as though it had suddenly become the most fascinating thing in the world.
But before the awkwardness could settle, chaos erupted.
"Jimmy!" Lee suddenly yelped, staring at his now-empty tank in horror. "Where’s Jimmy?!"
The group froze for a moment before springing into action, their conversation forgotten.
"I knew this would happen," Malika groaned, carefully stepping away from where Jimmy might be lurking.
"Relax, he’s probably just gone for a stroll," Fred said, though he too glanced nervously at the ground.
"Stroll? He’s a spider, not a tourist!" Lee exclaimed, dropping to his hands and knees to peer beneath the benches.
As the group scattered in search of the missing tarantula, Vera found herself momentarily distracted. Her gaze wandered over the bustling platform, taking in the familiar chaos of students reuniting with friends and families bidding tearful goodbyes.
Her eyes landed on the Weasleys gathered near the far end of the platform. Mrs. Weasley was fussing over Ron’s jumper, while Percy seemed to be lecturing him about something unimportant. She quickly waved at them, hoping for their usual warm smiles, but was startled to see their expressions shift to something softer, almost pitying.
Her stomach twisted uncomfortably as the memory of the summer resurfaced—her last name, the whispers, the looks of sorrow, filth breeds filth
She quickly turned away, and kept scanning the crowd, needing to distract herself. A little further down, she spotted Cedric, holding hands with Maddie as they laughed about something. The sight of their perfect harmony made her chest tighten, though she wasn’t sure why.
Nearby, she noticed Cassius, standing tall but alone except for his family’s house-elf trailing behind him. His demeanor was as composed as ever, but something about his solitary presence struck her as profoundly lonely.
Finally, her eyes landed on Felix.
He stood beside his father, the two of them speaking quietly. Felix looked just as he always did—polished, poised, and utterly unreachable—but there was a tension in his shoulders, a stiffness she couldn’t quite place. The contrast unsettled her; he was normally so smooth, so effortless.
There was something magnetic about him, something that made her stomach flutter despite herself. It wasn’t just his perfectly tousled hair or the way his robes seemed to fit him better than anyone else’s. It was the quiet confidence in his posture, the way he tilted his head slightly as he listened to his father, as though he were calculating every word spoken.
And then there was his father—Maximus Bobbin. The sharp lines of his tailored suit, his striking jawline, the effortless way he commanded the space around him—it all spoke of a legacy built on influence. But it wasn’t just their appearance that held her captive. They were alike in a way that was almost unsettling, both carrying themselves as though the world revolved around them and they were simply deciding what to do with it.
Her chest tightened as she watched them. She tried to tell herself to look away, to focus on the hustle and bustle of the platform, but it was futile. The sounds around her seemed to fade into a dull hum as her thoughts swirled. Felix hadn’t noticed her yet—or if he had, he was doing an exceptional job of pretending he hadn’t.
She bit her lip, her fingers fidgeting with the strap of her bag. Her pulse quickened, a blend of excitement and unease racing through her. Seeing him always did this to her, always made her feel as though her insides had turned to jelly.
Her mind betrayed her, replaying every awkward interaction they’d had over the past year. Did he even remember? Did he care? He probably didn’t—why would he? But a part of her couldn’t stop wondering.
The thought made her cheeks flush, heat rising as she tried to steady her breathing. She didn’t know if she wanted him to look her way or if she wanted to disappear entirely. Her stomach twisted into knots, her hands clenching instinctively around the strap of her bag.
As she watched, lost in thought, a shadow fell across her. Startled, she looked up to find Percy standing in front of her, his arms crossed and a scowl etched onto his freckled face.
"What do you think you’re doing?" he demanded, his voice low but firm.
"I—" she stammered, caught off guard.
"You know better," he snapped, his expression tightening.
She frowned, confused. “I was just looking—”
"Well you shouldn’t be! You could get him in trouble for just looking at him. Do you have any idea what people would say?"
His words stung, and for a moment, she could only nod, her cheeks burning with embarrassment.
Her eyes then flickered to his chest, where a shiny P badge gleamed proudly against his robes. "Congratulations on making prefect," she said softly, hoping to change the subject.
Percy’s scowl didn’t waver. He gave her a curt nod but didn’t acknowledge her words further. Instead, he turned sharply on his heel and marched toward the train, his shoulders stiff with indignation.
She watched him go, her stomach sinking. Her heart felt heavy as she turned back for one last look at Felix, now laughing softly at something his father had said. The sound was faint, carried on the platform’s clamor, but it was enough to make her chest tighten.
Felix was already impossibly out of reach, and yet, in this moment, he seemed even farther away—ensconced in a life she could barely imagine, let alone touch.
Just as she turned away and stepped onto the train, the weight in her chest only seemed to grow heavier.
Swallowing the lump in her throat, she forced her feet to move, though each step felt heavier than the last. She clenched her jaw, determined to keep her emotions in check. She wouldn’t let anyone see her like this.
She slid open the door to Fred and George’s compartment, finding the twins lounging casually.
“So, did you guys find Jimmy?" She asked, plopping down onto the seat across from them.
George grinned mischievously. "Oh, we found him, all right. Sarah stole him, and now Lee’s practically wrestling her for custody."
Settling into the seat, she noticed Fred glancing at her out of the corner of his eye, still looking oddly sheepish.
"Okay," she said, raising an eyebrow. "What’s with you, Fred? You’ve been acting weird all morning."
"Nothing," he replied too quickly, his ears turning red.
She gave him a pointed look, not buying it, but before she could press further, Fred hesitated, then leaned forward. "Are you… okay?" He asked softly. "After what happened at Diagon alley?"
The question caught her off guard, and for a moment, she didn’t answer. She turned to the window, watching the scenery blur past. Her heart dropped as memories of the accident surfaced—the spit, the fear, and worst of all, the helplessness. But the pity she’d seen in Fred and George’s eyes afterward was what truly haunted her.
She hated being vulnerable, hated being seen as weak.
She forced a bright smile and turned back to Fred. "I’m okay," she said, her voice light.
Fred didn’t look convinced, but he nodded anyway. "We didn’t tell anyone," he added quickly. "Just our mum."
Her smile faltered for a second, but she masked it quickly. "Thanks. Just… don’t bring it up around anyone else, okay?"
Fred met her gaze and nodded solemnly. "Promise."
The compartment door slid open, and Lee burst in, Kenny following behind.
"That girl is insane.” Lee snapped angrily, waving his tarantula tank. “She actually tried to make a potion out of Jimmy! A potion!"
The group burst into laughter, but Vera subtly edged away from the tank, her eyes darting nervously around the compartment. George noticed and grinned wickedly
"Aw, Vera, don’t tell me you’re scared of Jimmy," he teased, leaning forward with mock concern.
"Yeah," Fred chimed in, picking up on his twin’s tone. "You’re not scared of a little spider, are you?"
Vera scowled. "I’m not scared, I just—don’t like it near me, that’s all."
George smirked, pulling the lid off the tank. "Jimmy says he just wants to be friends."
Fred chuckled, leaning closer. "Yeah, he promises he won’t bite… much."
But before Vera could respond, the tarantula suddenly leapt from the tank and landed squarely on her lap.
Her eyes went wide as she froze in place. "Lee," she said slowly, her voice trembling with suppressed rage. "If you don’t get this thing off me right now, I swear I’ll kill you."
Fred and George were howling with laughter, clutching their sides, while Kenny looked utterly horrified.
"Relax, Vera," George managed between laughs. "He’s just saying hi!"
"Remove. It. Now!" she snapped, her voice sharp enough to cut through their laughter.
Finally, Lee reached over and scooped Jimmy up, mumbling apologies, while Vera let out a shaky breath, her hands trembling slightly as she tried to compose herself.
But as soon as Jimmy was safely back in his tank, she launched herself at George. "You absolute fucking git!" She yelled loud enough for the whole train to hear. “FUCK YOU!”
"Ow, ow, okay, I’m sorry!" George yelped, half-laughing, half-defending himself as she began smacking him repeatedly on the arm and shoulder.
Fred leaned back, grinning from ear to ear. "I think she’s officially scarier than Jimmy."
Suddenly, the compartment door slid open, and Percy stood in the doorway, his gaze sharp and fixed directly on Vera. "What’s all the noise about?" he demanded.
Vera opened her mouth to explain, but Percy cut her off before she could utter a word. "You’re being far too loud, Black. Keep it down and NO SWEARING!” He said sharply before turning on his heel and closing the door with a resounding snap.
Vera froze, and a sudden sharp ache spread through her abdomen.
She sank back into her seat. "Blimey, what’s his deal?" she muttered. "He’s gotten so insufferable since becoming a prefect."
Fred leaned back, a smirk playing on his lips. "You think he’s bad now? Try spending the whole summer with him. He was in a right mood and ruined the entire holiday."
"Yeah," George chimed in, rolling his eyes. "We couldn’t even get through one decent game of Exploding Snap without him barging in to lecture us about ‘house safety regulations.’"
Vera frowned. "What’s got him in such a bad mood?"
The twins exchanged a glance, a silent debate passing between them. Finally, Fred broke the silence. "It’s because he’s not the only male prefect this year."
Vera blinked, confused. "But each house only appoints one boy and one girl, right?
George nodded. “Yeah but this year, they’ve made an…”
“Exception.” Fred finished.
“And who’s the other boy?" Kenny asked.
Fred and George shared another look before George sighed heavily. "Bobbin."
Vera’s brows knit together in deeper confusion. “But why would that upset Percy? Shouldn’t he be happy for his friend?”
Fred let out a derisive snort. "Oh, he’s thrilled, all right—”
“Because Felix doesn’t deserve it." George explained.
"Doesn’t deserve it?" Vera repeated.
George leaned in, lowering his voice. "Percy’s been working his tail off for this badge. Top marks, tutoring younger students, helping McGonagall at every turn—you name it, he’s done it. And Bobbin? He barely scrapes by, doesn’t do any extracurriculars, and somehow gets to wear the same badge."
"But how?" Kenny asked, curious.
Fred scoffed. "Isn’t it obvious? His dad."
George nodded grimly. "The Bobbins have been putting prefect badges on their kids for generations. It’s tradition. His father probably pulled some strings to make sure Felix got it, whether he earned it or not."
Vera’s stomach twisted uncomfortably. A part of her wanted to defend Felix, to insist he wasn’t capable of something so underhanded. But another part—the one she tried to ignore—wondered if it might be true. How well did she really know him?
As she thought about him, a sudden, sharp pain shot through her stomach. She winced, instinctively pressing a hand against it. But then, she felt something… unusual.
Her eyes widened as the realization dawned. A flush crept up her cheeks as she froze for a moment, then leaned closer to Fred and George. "I think…" she whispered, her voice barely audible over the hum of the train. "I need to go."
She quickly grabbed her bag, slipping out a pad as discreetly as she could before making her way to the bathroom.
The narrow corridor was still bustling with students dragging trunks and chatting loudly, the chaotic energy of the start of term enveloping her. She was so lost in her own thoughts that she didn’t notice the boy behind her until he gently nudged her shoulder.
“Excuse me,” he said, his voice clear but uncertain.
Startled, she turned to see a boy few years younger than her, his glasses slightly askew and his untamed black hair sticking out in every direction.
“Yes?” she snapped, the sharpness of her tone surprising even herself.
The boy blinked, taken aback. “I was just wondering... do you know which compartment I’m supposed to sit in?” he asked, glancing down the hallway nervously.
Her irritation flared, a lingering frustration from her earlier run-in with Percy, and her stomach ache. “What, you think they assign them? Like we’re livestock or something?”
The boy blinked again, clearly taken aback by her response. “I meant more like... is there a system? A rule?”
Her annoyance melted almost instantly, replaced by a wave of guilt. But it wasn’t his reaction that made her regret her words—it was his eyes. That vivid green, framed by glasses that seemed too big for his face, held an openness that stopped her in her tracks.
She sighed, letting her arms drop to her sides, and forced a small, sheepish smile. “No rules. You can sit anywhere—though, I’d avoid the one with the third-years practicing hexes if you value your eyebrows.”
That earned her a small chuckle, soft but genuine, and it was enough to pierce the cloud that had been hanging over her since the platform.
“Good to know,” he said, glancing up and down the corridor again. “I’ll keep that in mind.”
She hesitated, caught off guard by how quickly the strange mixture of melancholy and warmth had settled in her chest. “Just pick a compartment and hope for the best,” she said, stepping aside to let him pass. “Good luck, mate.”
“Wait,” he called out as she began to step away.
She paused, glancing back at him.
“What’s your name?” he asked.
“Vera."
The boy nodded, offering her a small, lopsided smile. “Thanks Vera.”
As he moved down the corridor, dragging his trunk behind him, she caught herself watching him go, the strange feeling lingering. There was something about him—something quiet but profound, like the opening note of a song you knew would stay with you long after it ended.
Shaking her head, she turned and made her way to the bathroom, her thoughts already swirling again. The boy was forgotten almost as quickly as he’d appeared, but the faint tug of curiosity remained, just beneath the surface.
Once inside, she took care of herself, exhaling a breath she hadn’t realized she was holding. The sharp discomfort dulled, but a lingering pain remained. Straightening her skirt, she stepped out, heading back to her compartment when muffled voices caught her attention.
Ahead of her, Percy and Penelope Clearwater emerged from a nearby compartment, deep in conversation. They hadn’t noticed her, and Vera hesitated, keeping her distance. She had no intention of eavesdropping, but their words drifted down the corridor, pulling her to a halt.
"I don’t even know why my brothers are friends with her," Percy was saying, his tone cold and clipped. “She’s vulgar and far too loud.”
Her stomach dropped.
"And did you see what she was wearing?" he continued with a disdainful scoff. “My belt’s bigger than her skirt. It’s embarrassing.”
Penelope’s voice was softer, uncertain. "It’s not that bad, Percy. Maybe she just wants to express herself."
"Express herself? Her family stole half the wizarding world’s fortunes, and this is how she shows it off? Just proves money doesn’t buy decency."
The words hit her like a physical blow, each syllable tearing into her. Her chest tightened, and it felt as if the air had been sucked from her lungs. She barely registered the rest of their conversation as they moved away, stepping into another compartment and sliding the door shut behind them.
But she remained frozen in the corridor, Percy’s words echoing in her mind: stole half the wizarding world’s fortunes… money doesn’t buy decency…
When she finally returned to her compartment, she slid the door shut behind her with deliberate care. Without a word, she sank into the seat beside Fred and George, her gaze fixed on the window.
Fred glanced at her. "You okay?"
She nodded quickly, not trusting herself to speak yet.
Kenny, oblivious to her mood, leaned forward with wide eyes. "You’re not gonna believe what the Weasleys just told me," he said, his voice brimming with excitement. “And you better brace yourself for this. IT’S HUGE.”
"What?" she asked in a tired tone, not looking at him. "What is it this time, Ken?"
Kenny cleared his throat, as if about to deliver the most important news of the century. "Okay…” He paused for dramatic effect, taking a deep breath. “Harry Potter is on the train!"
Notes:
Chapter's song: Teenage Riot - Sonic Youth
Chapter 55: Ceremony
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Vera blinked, momentarily confused. “Who?” she asked.
Kenny gaped at her, his jaw practically hitting the floor. “Harry Potter!” he repeated, his voice rising in disbelief. “The Harry Potter!”
She still looked baffled.
“The Boy Who Lived, Vera!”
“Um…” Vera faltered, still not following.
Kenny threw his hands up dramatically, as though the sheer absurdity of her ignorance was too much to bear. “Vera… He’s the kid who survived the Killing Curse from You-Know-Who!”
Vera raised an eyebrow, her interest only vaguely piqued. “You’re going to have to start from the beginning, Kenny.”
Fred, who was perched casually on the edge of the seat, chuckled and leaned forward. “I can’t believe you’ve never heard of him. Everyone knows Harry Potter.”
Kenny sighed. “Harry Potter is a legend. When he was just a baby, You-Know-Who tried to kill him. The Killing Curse hit Harry, but it backfired—hit You-Know-Who instead. That is how the bloody war ended!"
“Um… okay. But why is he called the Boy Who Lived?”
“Because he is the only person to survive the Killing Curse for merlin’s sake!”
Vera frowned, feeling a knot of unease begin to twist in her stomach. “And… He’s on the train?”
“Yep,” Fred said. “George and I helped him with his trunk few minutes ago. Scrawny little thing. Nice enough, though.”
George nodded, gesturing vaguely at his own forehead. “We saw his scar, too. Right there on his forehead—shaped like a lightning bolt.”
“Scar?”
“Yeah,” Kenny chimed in. “It’s from the curse. When You-Know-Who tried to kill him, the curse left a mark on him.”
Vera’s eyes widened. “Wait, wait, wait… Does he wear glasses?”
Fred and George exchanged glances before Fred nodded. “Yeah, round ones. Why?”
Her breath hitched as realization struck her like a bolt of lightning. The boy she’d spoken to earlier—the one with the tousled black hair and vivid green eyes—that had been Harry Potter.
“His parents died that night, you know,” Kenny added solemnly. “When You-Know-Who attacked.”
Vera’s heart sank, a wave of sorrow washing over her so suddenly it left her breathless. Her chest tightened, and an unwelcome pang in her lower abdomen reminded her of the dull ache that had been building all day. The pain flared sharper now, as though her body was reacting to her emotions. She shifted uncomfortably, gripping her robes to steady herself.
“You alright?” Fred asked, his playful tone replaced by genuine concern.
“Yeah,” she muttered, forcing a weak smile. “Just… didn’t expect all that.”
“He’s probably had a tough life.” Kenny continued. “Being famous isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.”
“True,” George agreed. “He didn’t seem like the type to brag, though.”
Vera nodded absently, her thoughts swirling. The boy she’d met earlier wasn’t just another first-year. He was Harry Potter—the Boy Who Lived. And somehow, knowing his story made her earlier interaction with him feel strangely significant.
"Vera?” Kenny snapped her out of her reverie.
“Um… Yeah?”
He narrowed his eyes. “How is it that you don’t know about Harry Potter?”
She shrugged despite her nerves. “I don’t really know… My family never told me much about that time in history.”
The compartment fell silent for a moment, but she could feel the weight of their stares.
Fred leaned forward. "You’re telling us you’ve never heard of Harry Potter? Not even once?"
George cocked his head. "That’s a bit… odd, don’t you think? Everyone knows about him. Even Muggle-borns."
Vera shifted uncomfortably, avoiding their gazes. "I just don’t know, okay?" she snapped, a touch of defensiveness creeping into her voice.
The twins exchanged another glance, while Kenny leaned back, crossing his arms, studying her as if trying to piece together a puzzle.
The silence in the compartment grew heavy, and Vera turned her gaze back to the window, her stomach twisting for an entirely different reason now.
The Gryffindor bench felt familiar yet strangely distant as she slid into her seat, the warm hum of the Great Hall wrapping around her like a well-worn cloak.
Above, the enchanted ceiling mirrored a flawless night sky, its stars twinkling as though they held secrets of their own. The floating candles cast a golden glow over the room, illuminating the eager faces of students reunited after the summer.
Vera barely had time to take it all in before Kenny leaned in, his voice hushed yet brimming with urgency. “You won’t believe what I heard over the summer!” he began, his wide eyes darting conspiratorially between the tables. “Apparently, Professor Snape lives in this grimy little house that—”
“Kenny,” Angelina groaned, cutting him off. “For God’s sake, not another Snape story. Nobody cares where he lives.”
Alicia snickered. “Speak for yourself, Angie. I live for his tragic little anecdotes.”
“How was your summer, Vee?” Katie asked softly. “You seemed… different when we got on the train.”
Vera opened her mouth to answer, but a sharp intake of breath from Kenny silenced her. He pointed across the hall toward the Slytherin table. “Merlin… Look. At. That.”
All eyes turned to see Miles dragging a reluctant Jane into the Great Hall. But it wasn’t the mere spectacle of their entrance that drew everyone’s attention.
It was Jane herself.
Her once round face was gaunt, her cheeks hollowed. The soft glow of Hufflepuff innocence that had always surrounded her was gone, replaced by a shadowy silence. Her uniform seemed to hang off her like a forgotten curtain, and her gaze never left the floor.
“Blimey… Is she sick or something?” Angelina whispered, her brow furrowed.
“She looks like she just skipped a meal,” Alicia murmured.
“Or twenty…” Kenny added.
Vera’s stomach twisted as she took in the sight. How could someone change so much in just one summer? It was as if Jane had been hollowed out, her presence reduced to something fragile and haunting.
The hall soon fell quiet as Professor McGonagall entered, carrying the Sorting Hat. She placed it ceremoniously on the stool, and the rippling brim opened wide, delivering its annual song.
As applause faded, the Sorting began.
Name after name was called, each new student taking their turn on the stool.
A small, Irish boy named Finnigan, Seamus, was sent to Gryffindor, earning hearty cheers from his new housemates.
Then came a brown-haired girl with an air of determination—Granger, Hermione.
The Hat deliberated for a long moment before declaring, “GRYFFINDOR!” And she hurried over, clutching her robes as if bracing herself for the challenges ahead.
Next was Longbottom, Neville. The plump boy tripped on his way to the stool, earning scattered laughter from the hall that was quickly stifled by a stern glance from Professor McGonagall.
“That’s the boy whose parents went mad,” Kenny whispered, nodding toward Neville as the Sorting Hat was placed on his head.
“Oh yeah, that’s right,” Alicia added.
Vera glanced between them, her brow furrowed. “Wait—his parents went mad? Why?”
Kenny turned to her with an expression she hadn’t seen before—part incredulity, part something sharper, like disdain. “You don’t know?”
She shook her head, suddenly feeling uneasy.
“So your family doesn’t tell you anything,” he said, his voice low but cutting. “Not even the things they’ve done?”
Her heart skipped a beat, a cold pit forming in her stomach.
“They were tortured,” he continued, bitterness lacing his words. “By your cousin.”
The air seemed to drain from her lungs as the name surfaced in her mind like a dark specter.
Bellatrix Lestrange. Cygnus’s daughter. Her father’s cousin.
“They had a boy…” she managed to say, her voice barely audible over the pounding in her chest.
“Yeah,” Kenny sighed, his gaze drifting back to Neville, who was now walking—nervously but determinedly—toward the Gryffindor table. “But I don’t think they remember him anymore.”
Vera stared at little Neville, her vision blurring slightly as guilt pressed down on her. She squinted her eyes, her chest tightening painfully. This was a boy nearly her age, sitting just a few feet away, carrying a pain she couldn’t begin to fathom.
A pain cause by her own flesh and blood.
In that moment, she understood—why people sneered at her, spat at her face, treated her like something rotten. It wasn’t just her bloodline; it was the legacy of harm they had left behind. And now, it felt inescapable.
The Sorting continued until Malfoy, Draco, swaggered forward. His pale hair gleamed under the candlelight, and the hall seemed to hold its breath. The Hat barely touched his head before declaring, “SLYTHERIN!” with force.
Draco strutted to his table, where older students greeted him with nods of approval and handshakes.
“Typical,” Alicia muttered, her disdain clear.
Next, a dark-haired boy with an aloof demeanor, Nott, Theodore, was sorted into Slytherin, followed by a simpering girl, Parkinson, Pansy, whose delighted squeal echoed as she joined the same table.
“That trio’s already thick as thieves,” Kenny whispered, nodding discreetly toward them. “They’re all part of the 'Six.'”
“The Six?” Seamus asked.
“The self-proclaimed rulers of the wizarding world,” Alicia said with a smirk.
But before anyone could say anything else, a name reverberated through the hall: “Potter, Harry.”
The whispering began immediately.
Vera craned her neck to see the wiry boy with messy black hair and glasses step nervously to the stool. A faint scar zigzagged across his forehead, barely visible beneath his unruly fringe.
“Is that the Harry Potter?” Katie asked, her voice hushed.
Kenny nodded. “Yep. That’s him.”
“He doesn’t look very legendary,” Angelina whispered.
Alicia chuckled. “More like he needs a proper meal,”
“Yeah…” Vera added, her eyes lingering thoughtfully on Harry. “He’s just… a boy.”
The Sorting Hat took its time, deliberating as the hall sat in suspense. Finally, it shouted, “GRYFFINDOR!” And the red table erupted into cheers as Harry shuffled over, his face a mixture of relief and excitement.
However, his arrival was quickly overshadowed by the boisterous reactions of the Weasley twins as their younger brother, Ron, joined Gryffindor as well.
“Another one?” shouted one of the ghosts above, and the table erupted into laughter.
As the Sorting neared its end, Zabini, Blaise, was called, and the tall, dark-skinned boy walked with an unhurried grace to the stool. His Sorting took mere seconds—“SLYTHERIN!”—and he joined his table without a glance at the others.
“His mum’s infamous,” Kenny whispered. “Seven husbands, all mysteriously dead. She’s rich as Gringotts.”
“That’s… impressive,” Vera murmured, her gaze following Blaise as he took a seat.
As the Sorting Hat was carried away, the Great Hall erupted into chatter. Students eagerly began to fill their plates, but Vera’s remained untouched. Her eyes scanned the tables, searching for a familiar face.
But Felix was nowhere to be found.
Her gaze then shifted to the Slytherin table, where her attention landed on Cassius, who was laughing and chatting animatedly with Draco Malfoy.
“They look like they know each other,” she murmured, almost to herself. “And they look… similar, somehow.”
Kenny leaned in, a piece of potato precariously hanging off his fork. “Well, duh. They’re cousins.”
Vera blinked at him, completely taken aback. “Cousins?”
“For Merlin’s sake, Vera, how don’t you know that?”
“Well, excuse me for not knowing half the wizarding world like you do, Ken,”
“It’s not like that. I just feel like you act stupid on purpose sometimes,”
“Fuck you!”
“Hey!” Angelina cut in, her voice firm. “Calm down. Now, Kenny, fill me in on this. How are Warrington and Malfoy cousins?”
Kenny sighed, clearly relishing the moment. “Lucius Malfoy—Draco’s dad—is Cassius’s uncle. On his mum’s side.”
“His mother is a Malfoy?” Angelina asked, intrigued.
"Yeah. Her name was Regina Malfoy. The Regina Malfoy."
Vera's mind raced, piecing it together. That explained why the Warringtons wielded so much power despite not being part of the sacred 28—and why Cassius’s father held such a prominent position at the Ministry.
But one word Kenny had used lodged itself in her mind, pulling her thoughts to a halt.
"Wait…" she said, her chest tightening as unease crept in. "Did you just say… was?"
Kenny nodded grimly. “She was one of the Red Dinner’s victims.”
Her stomach twisted.
Angelina frowned. “I thought that was Ophelia Malfoy?”
“Three Malfoys died that night,” Kenny explained. “Abraxas, the father, and his two daughters: Regina, who was married to David Warrington, and Ophelia, who was supposed to marry Roman Yaxley. Only Lucius survived.”
Vera swallowed hardly. “So… Cassius’s mum is…”
“Dead.”
Despite everything—their turbulent history, his sharp tongue, and the unspoken tension that always seemed to hang between them—Vera couldn’t help but feel a pang of sympathy for Cassius. Even if she didn’t fully trust him, even if his arrogance often grated on her nerves, she couldn’t deny the flicker of understanding that stirred within her.
Beneath his aloof exterior, she suspected, lay cracks he tried to conceal—and for a fleeting moment, she wondered if those cracks hurt as much as hers did.
“So, Vera,” Katie’s voice cut through her spiraling thoughts, pulling her back to the chatter of the Great Hall, “does that mean you and Warrington are cousins?”
Vera blinked, trying to process the question. “Huh?” she said, shaking her head in confusion.
“Well, since Draco Malfoy is your cousin, and he’s also Cassius’s cousin, wouldn’t that make you and Warrington related?”
“By that logic, half the wizarding world is related,” Fred chimed in with a grin.
“Exactly,” George added. “Our great-uncle’s married to your great-aunt, so technically, we’re cousins too, Vee!”
“Wait!” Vera exclaimed, a note of panic creeping in. “DRACO MALFOY IS MY COUSIN?”
“Well, yeah,” Kenny said slowly, as if it should have been obvious. “His mum is Narcissa Malfoy. You know... previously Black?”
The words hit her like a thunderclap. How did she manage to forget that small yet significant detail?
Narcissa. Black. Cygnus’s other daughter.
Her mind reeled, the family tree she had worked so hard to ignore unraveling in front of her.
“So that means…” she whispered, the realization dawning on her. “Oh, fuck.”
The room seemed to tilt. The noise of the Great Hall—the clinking of goblets, the hum of chatter—faded into a dull roar in her ears. A sharp pain twisted in her stomach, causing her to clutch her side.
And then the fear hit her.
Draco knew. He must know.
The realization settled like a stone in her chest, heavy and suffocating. He would tell them—tell everyone. The truth about her, the secret she’d fought so hard to keep hidden. That she wasn’t truly part of the Black family. That they’d abandoned her, cast her out like she was nothing. That she didn’t belong in this world of wealth and magic, that she lived in the Muggle world.
That she was a liar.
Her hands trembled as she tried to steady her breathing, but the panic clawed its way up her throat. She couldn’t let them know. They wouldn’t understand. They’d see her as a fraud, a mistake, a stain on the legacy of a name she barely dared to claim.
“Vera?” Katie’s voice was faint, distant. “Are you feeling well?”
"I—I need to go," she said abruptly, pushing her plate back and standing up.
Fred and George exchanged a worried glance. "You alright, Vee?" George asked.
"I’m fine," she lied, her voice unsteady. "Just… tired."
Before anyone could stop her, she quickly excused herself and made her way out of the Great Hall, the pain in her stomach growing sharper with each step.
The hospital wing was eerily silent as she pushed open the heavy wooden door. The rows of pristine white beds gleamed under the soft glow of the enchanted ceiling, their stark neatness adding to the unsettling stillness.
Shrugging off her robes, she tossed them onto a nearby chair, the fabric slipping onto the floor unnoticed. Her cropped shirt rose slightly as she stretched out on the nearest bed, the cool air brushing against her exposed stomach. A shiver rippled through her, though it did little to soothe the heat simmering in her chest.
Her mind churned with the day's events: Percy’s sharp words cutting deeper than they should, the unbearable weight of Harry Potter’s legacy, the haunting truth about Cassius’s mother, and the silent tragedy of Neville’s parents.
How could she face anyone, knowing that her family, with their proud alliances and unwavering loyalty to Voldemort, had been part of the machine that shattered so many lives? Neville's quiet resilience only deepened her guilt, a reminder that for every scar he bore, there were countless others carrying the weight of her family’s choices.
Then there was her cousin, Draco Malfoy.
A knot tightened in her stomach, a suffocating reminder of the secret she clung to with trembling hands. The truth threatened to spill over, and she clenched her fists against the urge to scream.
“Stupid fucking cunt,” she muttered through gritted teeth, her voice low but seething. “Why the hell did I think I could keep this hidden? Why can’t I just be normal for once?” Her voice rose, echoing sharply against the stone walls. “Why am I such a—”
“Vera?”
The voice, soft and familiar, sliced through her spiraling thoughts like a blade. She jerked her head toward the sound, her heart leaping into her throat.
Standing by her bed was Felix, his silhouette bathed in the faint luminescence of the enchanted ceiling. His tie hung loosely around his neck, and the sleeves of his shirt were rolled up, revealing sun-kissed forearms that seemed out of place in the dreary castle. His disheveled hair caught the light just enough to give him a careless, almost ethereal allure. But it was his eyes—warm, amber, and piercing—that held her captive.
Her stomach flipped, and a wave of heat rushed to her cheeks. It wasn’t fair how effortlessly perfect he looked while she felt like a frayed mess. Not fair at all.
“How long have you been standing there?” she demanded, her voice sharper than intended as she struggled to mask her flustered state.
“Long enough to know you’ve got a colorful vocabulary,” he replied, a smirk playing at his lips as he stepped closer.
She scowled, hoping to regain some semblance of control. “What are you even doing here?”
“Setting up for tomorrow’s rounds,” he said with a nod toward the back of the hall. “Apprentice duties.”
“Oh, right. Healer practice,” she mumbled, sitting up and crossing her arms over her chest.
He nodded, his expression softening as he closed the distance between them. “You alright?” he asked gently, his gaze searching hers. “You look… miserable.”
Her pride bristled at the observation, but the vulnerability in his voice disarmed her. “It’s nothing. Just a… fever,” she lied, her voice unconvincing.
“Uh-huh,” he said, skepticism thick in his tone.
Before she could protest, his cool hand pressed against her forehead, his touch light but enough to send an involuntary shiver down her spine. The faint scent of him—woodsy, sharp, and just a hint of mint—wrapped around her senses, pulling her further into his orbit.
“You’re not burning up,” he noted, his lips twitching into a teasing smile. “Care to try again?”
Her cheeks flamed, and she pulled back, flustered. “I—It’s complicated,” she stammered, failing to come up with a better excuse.
His gaze flickered down, lingering briefly where her shirt had ridden up to expose a sliver of skin before snapping back to her face. A slow, knowing smile curved his lips—soft, infuriatingly smug, and impossibly charming.
“Vera…” he drawled, his voice dripping with mock suspicion. “Are you on your moon?”
Moon? Her mind blanked for a beat before the realization hit her like a Bludger. MOON.
Her face went scarlet, and she grabbed the nearest pillow, burying her head in it with a muffled groan. “Oh, I wish I was dead!” she cried.
He chuckled. “Why?”
“Because it’s bloody embarrassing!” she snapped, her voice muffled by the pillow.
He laughed again. “Vera, it’s not a big deal. Period pain is normal.”
“That doesn’t make it less humiliating!” she retorted, peeking out from behind the pillow.
Still grinning, he perched on the edge of the bed, his weight dipping the mattress slightly. “How bad is it?”
“It feels like I’m being stabbed repeatedly,” she admitted reluctantly.
He nodded thoughtfully. “Alright, then…”
Without warning, he reached for her legs, lifting them onto the bed with a gentleness that sent her pulse racing. Her breath hitched as his touch lingered, his fingers grazing the curve of her ankle with a deliberation that felt both tender and electric.
She froze, the intimacy of the moment catching her off guard, yet unable to tear her eyes away from the quiet intensity in his.
“W-What are you doing?” she stammered.
“Making you comfortable,” he said simply, as he slid off her Converse one by one.
His hand hesitated for the briefest of moments, his thumb brushing against the soft skin above her heel. When his eyes flickered up to meet hers, the storm in his gaze mirrored the one swirling inside her.
In that moment, she wasn't sure which was louder—the rapid cadence of her heartbeat or the silence that hung between them.
“Stay put.” He said gently, tucking a blanket over her legs. “I’ll grab something to help.”
She watched him disappear into the back room, her chest tight with a chaotic tangle of emotions she couldn’t begin to unravel. She leaned back against the pillows, the weight of the blanket a poor substitute for the warmth his presence left behind. Closing her eyes, she let herself breathe, trying to steady the storm inside her.
What was it about him that made her feel like this? It wasn’t just his touch—though the memory of his fingers brushing her ankle sent another shiver through her—it was everything. The way he moved with quiet confidence, the way his voice softened when he spoke to her, as though she were something fragile and worth protecting.
But it wasn’t just safety. It was the way her heart raced when his gaze lingered on her just a moment too long, the way her thoughts were consumed by the smallest details of him—the curve of his lips when he smiled, the rough edge of his voice when he was being sincere. She wasn’t sure when it had started, this pull toward him that both thrilled and terrified her, but now it was undeniable.
And it scared her. How could she feel so much for someone who could unravel her so completely without even trying?
When Felix finally returned, he held a small vial filled with a shimmering liquid, its glow soft and inviting.
“Drink this,” he said, offering it to her with a calm assurance.
She hesitated for a moment, then took a tentative sip, bracing herself for the usual bitter taste of potions. But instead, the flavor of ripe strawberries flooded her senses, sweet and unexpected.
“I charmed it,” he said with a grin, watching her reaction. “Figured you’d prefer this over the usual swamp water.”
She glanced up at him, her chest tight with a mixture of admiration and something deeper, harder to name. “Felix…” Her voice wavered, the words tangled in her throat. She wanted to say something meaningful, something that could capture the swirling mess of gratitude and affection she felt in that moment, but the right words escaped her. She settled for a quiet, “Thank you…”
“It’s only my duty,” he replied nonchalantly, sitting down on the edge of the bed with a casual ease, his posture almost lazy as he relaxed beside her.
She watched him, her pulse quickening as the potion slowly began to take effect, spreading warmth through her veins, easing the tension in her body. Her thoughts grew lighter, more distant, but her gaze never left him. Every movement he made, every word he spoke, seemed to settle into her like a quiet storm, stirring up feelings she wasn’t sure she was ready to confront.
“Congratulations on making prefect,” she said after a while, her voice light but genuine.
His grin faltered, and for a fleeting moment, his gaze dropped, shadowed by something unspoken. “Um, yeah,” he said softly, the weight of his thoughts flickering in his expression.
“You’re going to be great,” she added quickly, leaning forward slightly as if her words could erase the hesitation in his. “Not just as a prefect. I truly believe you’re going to make a brilliant healer someday.”
“Someday?” he echoed, the teasing glint reigniting in his eyes. “Are you saying I’m not brilliant already?”
She rolled her eyes, a playful smile tugging at her lips. “Well, you’re decent now,” she teased, her tone earning a warm chuckle from him.
“Get some rest,” he said after a moment, standing and brushing off his robes with practiced ease. “Big day tomorrow.”
“Felix?” Her voice, softer now, stopped him mid-step.
He turned, his amber eyes warm with curiosity. “Yes?”
She hesitated, her fingers curling into the blanket as her heart thudded in her chest.
The silence between them thickened, stretching out like a thread on the verge of snapping. “I…” She faltered, her throat tightening as if the words themselves were too bold to be spoken. "I need to tell you something,"
His head tilted slightly. “What is it, Vera?”
She sat up slowly, her pulse racing like a drumbeat in her ears. Her gaze met his, and she caught the faintest movement as he swallowed, his Adam’s apple bobbing slightly. Without thinking, she mirrored the motion, her throat feeling impossibly dry.
The room seemed to shrink, the space between them charged and fragile.
She forced her lips to part, her voice emerging barely above a whisper. “Felix… I—” The weight of her confession pressed against her chest, too heavy to release all at once.
He stepped closer, his eyes searching hers, as if willing her to continue. “Yeah, Vera?”
“I…”
“Yes…?” His voice was softer now, his words tinged with anticipation.
“I think…” Her breath hitched, her palms curling into fists to steady the trembling. “I think your dad is fit.”
His expression froze, shock flickering across his face. “What?”
A smirk broke through the tension on her lips, and she shrugged, biting back a laugh. “I said your dad is fit. Proper hot. No. Insanely hot.”
For a moment, he stood motionless, his jaw slack with disbelief. Then, with a dramatic groan, he grabbed the pillow from her lap and pressed it over her face.
“Take it back!” he demanded, laughter spilling into his voice.
“Never!” she cried, her voice muffled. “HE’S SEXY!”
“VERA!”
Their laughter echoed through the hospital wing, the weight in her chest easing just slightly as they wrestled for dominance. When they finally collapsed, breathless and grinning, a sense of warmth lingered between them.
Felix shook his head, his smile lingering. “I’ll forgive you this time, but never again.”
“Sorry,” she said, though her grin suggested otherwise. “But I bet you get that a lot.”
He sighed dramatically, rolling his eyes. “All. The. Fucking. Time.”
She chuckled, unable to resist. “Well, it’s true—”
“NO! I don’t wanna hear it!” He clamped his hands over his ears, visibly pained. “I will bloody end you.”
“Okay, okay,” she said, her voice dripping with mock sympathy. “I won’t say anything else... except maybe how your dad looks like he’d be a good kisser—”
Before she could finish, he lunged for the pillow. “I’m this close to smothering you with it.”
She threw her hands up, laughing uncontrollably. “I surrender! I surrender!”
“Behave!” he ordered, but his lips twitched as he tried to hold back a smile.
“I’ve discovered your weakness, Bobbin!” she declared triumphantly.
“Oh, you have no idea what my weakness is,” he replied cryptically, his voice suddenly low and serious.
“Oh really?” she teased, leaning in with exaggerated curiosity. “Tell me then.”
For a moment, the air between them shifted.
His gaze locked onto hers, his jaw tightening as if he were holding back words that threatened to spill.
But just as quickly, he broke the moment, looking away with a sharp exhale. “I have to go eat,” he said.
She nodded, watching as he rose to his feet. He turned toward the door, but before he could leave, her voice called him back.
“Felix?”
He glanced over his shoulder, his expression open but cautious. “Yeah?”
She hesitated, the ache in her chest rising again. “I missed you,” she said finally, her voice small but steady, the words carrying more weight than she’d intended.
His smile softened, and for a fleeting moment, she caught a glimpse of something unguarded in his eyes. “I missed you too, Vera.”
♪This is why events unnerve me
They find it all, a different story
Notice whom for wheels are turning
Turn again and turn towards this time♪
Notes:
Chapter's song: Ceremony - New Order
Chapter 56: Eyes Without A Face
Notes:
Sorry for ghosting you. I was sick and depressed.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
♪I'm all out of hope
One more bad dream
Could bring a fall
When I'm far from home
Don't call me on the phone
To tell me you're alone♪
Tuesday, Sept 3, 1991
Vera stared down at her worn magical stationery, remnants from the previous school year. She hadn't bought anything new—partly because of her strained finances, partly because of her fucked up priorities. Her chest tightened, but she bit her lip and willed herself to stay composed.
“Come on, Vee,” Angelina called, already halfway to the door. “We don’t want to be late for Divination!”
“I’m coming,” Vera replied, snapping her bag shut.
As the three girls made their way down the corridor, Angelina slung her bag over her shoulder and glanced sideways at Vera.
"Three electives, Vee?" She exclaimed. "You’re proper mad. You can barely keep up with our normal classes as it is!"
Vera shot her a dry look. "Thanks for the vote of confidence, Ange. Really inspiring."
"I’m just saying, you do remember that we’re required to pass these classes, right? Not just survive them by the skin of our teeth?"
"Relax. I have a system."
"Does that system involve not sleeping?"
"Mostly."
Alicia, walking on Vera’s other side, chimed in. "Wait—hang on. Did you say you’re taking Muggle Studies?"
Vera nodded.
"But… you’re—"
“Part of the most purist family in the wizarding world? First off, thanks for the thrilling reminder of my heritage. Secondly, I’m curious about muggles. They’re fascinating."
Angelina snorted. "Fascinating?”
"Absolutely! They’ve managed to build entire civilizations without wands or spells. They’ve got electricity, airplanes, tellys, engines—"
“Engines,” Angelina repeated, deadpan. “I would rather die than spend an entire year learning about things I escaped from when I got my Hogwarts letter.”
Vera turned, walking backward up the stairs. “You haven’t heard the best part yet—no Slytherins take it. They avoid it like it’s cursed. It’s the one place where I don’t have to deal with them.”
“Alright, fair point,” Alicia said. “But, three electives? You’re going to be buried in essays, Vee. You’ll have to hire a house-elf to keep up.”
“If I could afford one, I’d hire it to do Divination,” Angelina muttered.
Alicia raised a brow. “Oh, come on, you can’t hate Divination already. We haven’t even started the first lesson.”
“I don’t think it’s that bad,” Vera said as they reached the trapdoor to the Divination classroom. “I just hope I didn’t climb all the way up here just to find out I’m probably going to ‘meet a mysterious stranger’ or ‘die a painful death.’”
The Divination classroom was as eerie as ever, draped in heavy fabrics and lit by the dim glow of countless lamps. The air was thick with the scent of incense, making Vera’s nose twitch as she followed Angelina and Alicia to a small round table near the back.
Professor Trelawney floated into view from behind a curtain of beads, her shawls trailing behind her like wisps of smoke. Her oversized glasses made her eyes bulge, and her voice, soft and lilting, carried an otherworldly tone.
"Welcome, my children, to the world beyond the veil," she said, gesturing grandly to the shelves lining the room. "Today, we peer into the unknown… into the mists of the future!"
Angelina leaned toward Vera and Alicia. "I swear, she gets crazier every year."
"Shh," Vera whispered, though she couldn’t help but stifle a laugh.
Trelawney gestured grandly toward the crystal balls at the tables. "Take your places, and open your Inner Eyes. Peer into the depths, and tell me what you see."
Angelina peered into the crystal ball with exaggerated seriousness. "I see... Snape. And his greasy hair is on fire."
Alicia snorted, covering her mouth.
"Be serious!" Vera chided. "Do you actually think this is real magic?"
Angelina shrugged. "I saw muggles doing this at a carnival once. They were staring into glass balls too, so it’s probably something."
"Muggle fortune-tellers?" Alicia asked, raising a brow. "Doesn’t that make it less likely to be real magic?"
"Or more likely," Angelina countered. "If muggles can do it, maybe it’s, like, universal."
Vera tapped a finger on the table, her skepticism mixed with a hint of curiosity. “I kind of hope it’s real. It would be nice to know what’s coming."
At that moment, Professor Trelawney drifted over to their table, her large, magnified eyes blinking slowly behind her glasses. "Ah, Miss Black," she said in a whispery tone, her gaze settling on Vera. "You have the look of someone seeking answers. Would you like me to peer into your future?"
"Hell yeah," Vera said, leaning back.
The professor’s hands hovered over the crystal ball as her eyes became unfocused. "I see... a storm gathering on the horizon, its fury born of your will."
"Huh?"
"Hmmmm.... A tempest of your making.... Eyes! EYES shall fall under your gaze.”
Vera blinked, horrified. "Eyes? Whose eyes?"
The professor ignored her question, continuing in a dramatic tone. "And you will walk through shadows, carving a path of destruction in your wake. You will right wrongs with greater wrongs, barter souls to save others. Balance will tip, fates will intertwine, and the world will tremble in your wake. And you, my dear... You will soar high—only to meet the depths."
"Rrrrrrrrright," Vera said, grimacing. "That’s all very interesting, but can we talk about the important things… Like uh, WHO AM I GONNA MARRY?”
Angelina and Alicia exchanged amused glances as Trelawney’s face lit up with dramatic enthusiasm.
"Ah, love! The greatest mystery of all! Would you like to know who your soulmate is, dear?"
Vera immediately leaned in forward, her eyes widening. "YES!"
Trelawney hummed. "The name of your heart’s desire is..."
Vera could hear her own heartbeat. “Yes?”
The professor’s hands hovered over the crystal ball once more. “His name is…”
“Yeeessss?”
“… is that of a conqueror.”
Vera tilted her head. "Wait what? A conqueror? What does that even mean?”
"...His hair… as dark as charcoal… black as the deepest night."
Vera frowned. Charcoal black? That doesn’t make sense. Felix has brown hair.
Trelawney’s voice quivered as she leaned closer, her fingers tracing invisible patterns in the air. "And his eyes..." she murmured, her tone heavy with wonder. "Oh, his eyes..."
Vera felt her breath hitch, her pulse quickening. "What about his eyes?"
The professor's gaze turned glassy, her words floating like smoke through the dimly lit room. "They will ensnare you, child. Eyes like that do not simply look—they pull. They will draw you in, deeper than you should dare to go."
Vera edged closer, her curiosity burning. “What do they look like? Please, Professor—what color are they?”
Trelawney’s eyes flicked to the crystal ball, clouded with swirling mists, before locking onto Vera with an intensity that made her shiver. “They gleam like the eternal heavens, child. Like the stariest of nights—endless, mesmerizing, and impossible to forget.”
“‘the stariest of nights’” Vera repeated as the three girls descended the ladder from the Divination classroom. “What does that fucking mean? Is it black? Blue? Full of twinkling dots?”
Angelina shrugged. “Sounds like it’s probably blue. You know, like the sky at night.”
Vera groaned, her confusion deepening. Felix’s eyes were brown, not remotely blue or… starry.
“Well, I don’t know anyone with blue eyes,” She sighed dramatically. “There goes my epic love story, doomed before it even begins.”
“Hey, at least she didn’t say your future husband’s bald or something.”
“Though she did say ‘charcoal hair.’ Oh, fuck! What if I end up marrying my cousin or something?”
Alicia snorted. “Suits you well, Black.”
“Shut it!”
Angelina tilted her head thoughtfully. “Now that I think about it, the only person with black hair besides you is… Avery.”
Vera froze mid-step. “Avery?” she hissed, her voice laced with horror.
Alicia cackled, clutching her side. “Oh, Merlin, imagine that! Vera and Avery, the ultimate match made in—”
“Don’t,” Vera said, shivering. “Just don’t.”
“Hey, maybe he’s the conqueror she was talking about,” Angelina teased.
“That’s it,” Vera said firmly, picking up her pace. “I’m dropping Divination. Immediately.”
The girls rounded the corner, their laughter bouncing off the walls, when they suddenly stopped in their tracks.
There, in the middle of the corridor, Adrian and Eudora were having what could only be described as the world’s most uncomfortable kiss. Eudora’s hands were gripping his shoulders like she was bracing for a Quidditch tackle, and Adrian’s arm was hovering mid-air, as though he wasn’t quite sure if he was supposed to hug her or ward off a Dementor. Their lips moved with the grace of flobberworms battling over lettuce.
“Are they—are they okay?” Angelina asked. “Do we need to call Madam Pomfrey?”
“Rumor has it they started dating over the summer,” Alicia said in a conspiratorial tone. “He stayed at her family’s mansion in Spain or something.”
Vera raised an eyebrow. “What, and they decided to leave their dignity behind when they came back?”
“I’m going to be sick.” Alicia groaned, shielding her eyes as if she’d been physically wounded by the sight.
“Honestly,” Vera continued. “I’d rather be celibate than go through whatever that is.”
Alicia and Angelina burst out laughing, their giggles carrying down the corridor. Vera allowed herself a small grin at her own joke, but the smile slipped off her face the moment her gaze drifted further down the hallway.
There he was—Draco Malfoy, leaning casually against the wall just a few paces away. His arms were crossed, his pale, pointed face wearing a smug smirk. He wasn’t watching Adrian and Eudora like everyone else; no, his cold gray eyes were fixed squarely on her.
He raised one eyebrow, as though daring her to say something, and her stomach twisted.
He knew, she thought.
He was the only person at Hogwarts who knew the truth about her family, about her. The weight of that knowledge felt unbearable, like a ticking time bomb she couldn’t defuse.
"I’m heading to Muggle Studies," she said abruptly, her voice tight.
Angelina frowned. "But we’ve still got time before—"
"Yeah, yeah," She interrupted, trying to sound casual. "I just… I want to get a head start. I’ll see you later, okay?"
Without waiting for a reply, she turned sharply on her heel and strode down the corridor, her heart pounding. She didn’t dare glance back at Draco. Thinking about him—or what he could do with what he knew—was a rabbit hole she couldn’t afford to fall into.
She soon stepped into the Muggle Studies classroom, her thoughts a tangled mess of Draco and the cryptic prophecy that refused to leave her mind.
"Piggy!"
The nickname snapped her back to reality. Turning, she saw Cedric waving her over, his grin warm and inviting. He was seated beside Maddie, who seemed practically glued to his side.
“Hey,” she greeted, forcing a polite smile as she walked toward them.
Before she could say anything else, Maddie launched into an effervescent monologue. “Oh, Vera! You won’t believe the summer I had. My parents took me to France! Paris, Nice, Bordeaux—it was all so magical. And look!” She pulled a sleek quill from her bag, holding it aloft like a prized treasure. “I got this for Ceddy. It’s enchanted to always write in perfect cursive. Isn’t it just brilliant?”
“That’s… nice,” Vera muttered, biting back an eye-roll.
“Oh! And this tie!” Maddie continued, adjusting the enchanted fabric around Cedric’s neck as if he couldn’t do it himself. “It changes patterns with the weather and—"
Vera feigned interest, her gaze drifting toward Cedric. Try as she might, her gaze betrayed her, lingering on his eyes.
Were they blue? She wondered. They weren’t quite the “stariest of nights,” but there was something—
Smack!
Maddie caught her staring, and without missing a beat, she leaned in and pressed a kiss to Cedric’s cheek, her eyes flicking toward her as she did so.
Heat flooded Vera's cheeks, and she cleared her throat awkwardly. “Uh, anyway. Nice seeing you,” she mumbled, quickly retreating to a seat at the front of the room.
Sliding into the chair beside Kenny, she kept her head down, her face still burning. She stared at her desk, but her mind refused to cooperate, replaying the scene again and again.
“They’re grey,” she muttered under her breath.
Kenny glanced over, intrigued. “What’s grey?”
“None of your fucking business,” she snapped, shooting him a glare.
Kenny raised his hands in mock surrender. “Alright, alright. Someone’s touchy today.”
Vera clenched her jaw and forced herself to look away from Kenny. But that only led her to glance back at Cedric and Maddie. Their hands were still intertwined, Maddie giggling as Cedric pressed a kiss to her cheek like they were the poster couple for an overly saccharine romance novel.
Vera’s stomach twisted. Boiling envy churned inside her, hot and acidic, but she smothered it before it could show.
Kenny, completely undeterred, kept going. “Did you hear about Eudora and Pucey? Apparently, they got together over the summer.”
Vera rolled her eyes. “Yeah, I saw them sucking each other’s faces off in the corridor. Not exactly subtle.”
“Didn’t see that coming, though. I always figured Eudora would go for Avery, not Pucey.”
“Avery? No way. He’s too… different. Eudora and Pucey are a perfect match. Two raging cunts with a shared love of purist terrorism? A fairytale in the making.”
“Alright, fair point. So that makes three couples in our year now. Four, once Lee finally grows a spine and confesses to Malika.”
Vera bit the inside of her cheek so hard she half-expected to taste blood.
Then Kenny, the absolute menace that he was, turned to her with a smirk. “What about you? Planning on snagging a boyfriend this year?”
She could almost scream. "Ken, I swear to Go—"
But before she could continue, Professor Garner clapped her hands at the front of the room. “Alright, class! Let’s dive into the fascinating world of muggle inventions. Today, we’ll start with something truly revolutionary: the telephone!”
She tapped the rotary telephone with her wand, making it emit a series of soft clicks. The class leaned in, intrigued, as she paced in front of her desk.
“Alright, here’s a challenging one,” she said with a glint in her eye. “Muggles use this device to talk over long distances, yes—but who can tell me how it works? Specifically, how does the voice travel from one telephone to another?”
The class exchanged baffled looks, and a few brave souls ventured guesses.
Fred raised his hand, smirking. “Magic, obviously.”
George chimed in, “Yeah, some kind of charm on the string inside, right?”
Professor Garner chuckled. “Good try, but no magic involved at all. It’s purely muggle ingenuity.”
Cedric frowned. “It must have something to do with that thing called electricity…”
Lee, one of the few muggleborn students, shrugged helplessly. “I grew up with one of these things, and I still have no idea.”
Roger scratched his head. “Does it… convert your voice into light or something?”
Even Maddie looked stumped. “It’s got to do with wires, doesn’t it? The voice travels through wires.”
Professor Garner looked delighted by their efforts but shook her head. “Not quite, I’m afraid. Anyone else?”
“The sound waves from your voice are converted into electrical signals by the microphone. The signals travel through wires—or radio waves, in some cases—to the receiving telephone, where the speaker converts them back into sound waves.”
Dead silence.
Every pair of eyes in the room widened with disbelief, and even Professor Garner looked momentarily taken aback before her expression broke into a delighted grin.
“Exactly right, Miss Black!" She exclaimed. "That is precisely how it works. Excellent explanation.”
Vera could feel the stares boring into her as she sank lower in her seat, her face burning. She buried her nose in her book, determined to ignore everyone.
But Kenny leaned closer, his skepticism palpable. “How in Merlin’s name did you know that?”
“I, uh… I read the book,”
“Over the summer?”
“Aha...”
“And how’d you manage to hide it from your aunt?”
Her heart pounded, and she fumbled for an excuse, forcing a casual shrug. “I, uh… had the house-elf transform it into something less suspicious.”
He tilted his head, unconvinced. “Really? And it didn’t snitch on you?”
“Yes, Kenny,” she said, her voice a little too sharp. “He didn't snitch.”
He leaned back, clearly unconvinced, but didn’t press further.
Professor Garner soon began explaining the finer details of telephone mechanics, and Vera tried to focus, but her nerves were frayed. Kenny might have let it drop for now, but she could feel his curiosity simmering.
And his curiosity, she knew, was dangerous.
The Great Hall buzzed with the usual lunchtime energy, with students chatting and laughing over plates piled high with food. Vera sat at the Gryffindor table, her eyes fixed on her goblet of pumpkin juice as she pushed her shepherd’s pie around her plate.
She shifted her gaze, catching sight of Felix at the far end of the table. His face was as calm and collected as ever, a slight smile playing on his lips as he conversed with his housemates.
But just as her gaze lingered a moment too long, she caught Percy’s glare. His eyes were sharp, accusing, and it sent a cold shiver down her spine. He must have noticed the way her attention lingered, and she quickly looked away, trying to shove that uncomfortable feeling down deep inside.
Her eyes flicked again, this time landing on the new Gryffindors.
There were a few she recognized, including Seamus Finnigan, who was chatting animatedly with his friends, and Dean Thomas, who seemed to be quietly observing the table with a calm but confident air.
She noted how different they looked from the previous years’ students—older, more confident, and full of the kind of energy that was hard to ignore.
But then, her gaze drifted once more, landing on Neville Longbottom, sitting near the end of the Gryffindor table.
He was alone, poking at his food, his face flushed with the same awkwardness that always seemed to cling to him.
As she gazed at him, she couldn't help but feel the familiar pang of guilt.
His kind eyes and the endless, unspoken pain she imagined he’d been through were a constant reminder of everything her family had inflicted on others. He looked so much younger than the others, yet she could see the subtle changes in his face—the way he carried himself more cautiously now.
She stared at him for a moment too long, and when he looked up, she quickly turned back to her plate, shame burning in her chest.
She didn’t deserve to even look at him.
After lunch, the third years gathered in a clearing just inside the Forbidden Forest, the scent of damp earth and pine heavy in the air. Professor Kettleburn, his wild hair and beard sticking out in all directions, waved his wooden arm enthusiastically as he introduced the lesson.
“Today, we’ll be studying Bowtruckles!” he exclaimed, holding up a small, twig-like creature that blinked its beady eyes at the group. “Excellent guardians of trees, but beware—those little fingers aren’t just for show.”
Fred elbowed George. “Reckon we could teach him to fetch the morning post. Might get it faster than Errol.”
On the Slytherin side, Adrian and Miles were less than impressed.
Adrian poked at the Bowtruckle in front of him with the end of his wand, grinning when it hissed and snapped its sharp fingers.
“Think it wants to duel me,” he said mockingly. “How adorable.”
Miles laughed. “Careful, Pucey, it might just hex you.”
“Not before I burn it to ashes,”
“Boys!” Professor Kettleburn barked, his arm clunking against a tree as he gestured sharply. “Bowtruckles are not to be antagonized! You’ll upset them—and the trees they protect!”
“Yeah, Pucey,” George called out. “Mess with the wrong branch, and it’s you who’ll be leaving in splinters.”
Fred doubled over laughing. “Can’t wait to see him running back to the castle with twigs in his hair!”
“Or his arse—”
“BOYS!”
The Gryffindors burst into laughter, but Vera barely noticed, her attention drifting to the edge of the clearing where something moved.
When the class ended, and the students began filing back toward the castle, she lingered behind.
At the forest’s edge, a group of Thestrals emerged from the shadows, their skeletal frames glinting faintly in the dappled sunlight. Her breath caught as she stepped closer, her heart pounding in a mix of awe and sorrow.
The sight of the Thestrals always pulled something deep within her. Their silent, watchful presence felt grounding, a reminder of things lost and things enduring.
Reaching into her bag, she pulled out a sandwich she’d saved from lunch, wrapped in a napkin. Moving carefully, she approached the nearest creature. It turned its head toward her, its milky eyes unblinking but somehow filled with understanding.
She tore off a piece of her sandwich, her hand steady as the Thestral leaned forward to take it.
Its skeletal head nudged her palm gently, and she exhaled slowly, grounding herself in the moment. The quiet crunch of its chewing and the rustle of the forest filled the air, drowning out the distant chatter of her classmates.
“Well, isn’t this cozy,” a familiar voice drawled behind her.
She nearly jumped out of her skin, spinning around.
Ryu stood a few feet away, arms crossed and smirking in that infuriating way he always did.
“Merlin’s beard, Avery!” she snapped. “Do you always have to sneak up on people?”
“Do you always feed the air?” he countered, arching an eyebrow. “Very convincing performance, though.”
She rolled her eyes. “You wouldn’t understand.”
He tilted his head, studying the space where the Thestral stood. “What’s it like?”
“What’s what like?”
“Seeing them,” he said, his tone casual but his eyes darker, more curious than usual. “Thestrals are supposed to be terrifying, aren’t they? All bones and wings, straight out of a horror story.”
She hesitated, her gaze flicking back to the creature. “I guess… they are. But they’re also beautiful. In their own way.”
He took another step closer, his shoulder brushing hers. “Beautiful and terrifying. Sounds familiar.”
Her brow furrowed, and she waited for the inevitable question, but it never came. Instead, Ryu’s dark eyes returned to her, studying her with the faintest hint of curiosity, and then moved past her as if it wasn’t worth mentioning.
She frowned, thrown by his restraint. “Why aren’t you asking?” she blurted before she could stop herself.
“Asking what?”
“You know… Why I can see them?”
“Maybe I figure you’ll tell me if you want to.”
The simplicity of his response left her momentarily speechless, and she could only stare at him.
“So,” he continued, trying to change the subject. “How was your summer?”
Her lips curved into a small, genuine smile as her thoughts flickered to quiet moments on Dex’s rooftop, hanging out in Sutton with Kaya, and stolen hours spent sketching. “It was... good.”
“Good?” he echoed, unimpressed. “Come on, Black, give me something better. Did you scale mountains? Wrestle a troll? Paint the Mona Lisa?”
She rolled her eyes again, but this time there was a faint laugh behind it. “Nothing that dramatic.”
“Sounds awfully boring. I, on the other hand, spent the summer perfecting my dragon training. Life-changing, really.”
“Took you a while,” she quipped. “What’s its name, then? That mighty dragon of yours.”
“That’s classified,” he said smoothly, grinning when she gave him a look.
“Sure it is,” she said, her tone dripping with sarcasm. Her gaze then drifted to the small hoop earring glinting in his ear. “And what about that? Did your dad approve of your rebellious fashion statement?”
To her surprise, his grin widened as he touched the earring. “He was the one who gave it to me.”
Her jaw dropped. “You’re taking the piss.”
“Nope,” he said, popping the p for emphasis. “Shocking, I know.”
“I thought your family was…” She trailed off, searching for the right words.
“Alwaaaaays judging me, Black.”
“I’m not!”
“You are.”
“I’m not!”
He leaned closer, his breath warm against her neck, and her heart stumbled into a faster rhythm. "You are," he murmured, his voice softer now, teasing yet magnetic.
For a moment, her eyes lingered on his, trying to catch their color.
They were black—dark and endless, like they held secrets she could never uncover.
“Anyway. Can I try?” He then said, catching her off guard.
She blinked at him. “Try what?”
“Feeding the Thestral.”
Her first instinct was to say no—just to annoy him—but there was something in his tone that made her hesitate. With a sigh, she broke off a piece of her sandwich and held it out. “Fine. Here.”
He reached forward blindly, his hand hovering awkwardly. “Where’s its mouth?”
She stifled a laugh. “Lower your hand. It’s not a bloody dragon.”
His hand flailed slightly as he tried to find the Thestral’s head. “Am I close?” he asked.
“Not even.”
He frowned, trying again but still missing the mark. “And now?”
She sighed, rolling her eyes. “Here,” she said, stepping closer.
Before she could think better of it, she stepped closer and took his hand, guiding it carefully. The Thestral leaned in, nibbling the offering from his palm, and Ryu froze, his usual smirk slipping away.
For a moment, the forest felt impossibly still.
His dark eyes locked onto hers, holding her gaze with an intensity that made her breath catch. His hand brushed against hers, lingering just a moment too long. Even through the barrier of her gloves, the warmth of his touch seemed to seep into her skin, igniting a subtle, electric shiver that coursed through her entire being.
He opened his mouth to say something—what, she wasn’t sure—but before he could, a voice called out behind them.
“There you are.”
They both turned sharply to see Cassius approaching, his expression unreadable as he glanced between them.
The moment shattered, leaving Vera feeling disoriented. She stepped back quickly, breaking eye contact with Ryu as her fingers fidgeted with the now-empty napkin in her hand.
Meanwhile, Cassius’s sharp gaze flicked over the fishnets tights under her skirt, and his lip curled in disgust.
“Dressing like a Darawitch at Hogwarts?” he drawled, voice dripping with disdain. “Just when I thought you couldn’t sink any lower, blood-traitor.”
She froze, her grip on the napkin tightening as the words sank in. She turned slowly, her eyes flashing with anger. “Excuse me?”
“You’ve already thrown your family’s name into the dirt. Why not go all in and look the part too?”
Ryu groaned softly beside them. “Cassius, don’t start—”
“No, let him talk,” she interrupted, her voice tight with fury. “I’d love to hear how dressing like this makes me a traitor.”
“It’s written all over you. Dressing like them, acting like them—it’s pathetic.” He turned to Ryu with a sneer. “Why are you even here? I’ve been waiting for you, and I find you talking to this walking disgrace?”
Ryu sighed. “Cass, you’re being a git.”
But Cassius couldn’t bother. His focus remained on Vera, his words cutting like a knife. “I've heard you're taking Muggle studies too. Disgusting. Your family would be ashamed of you, Black. If you can even call yourself that anymore.”
“Stop being a cunt, Warrington. At least I’m not hiding behind some pure-blood nonsense to feel important.”
“Oh, spare me the righteous indignation,” Cassius shot back, stepping closer. “You’re nothing but a Muggle-loving blood traitor trying to play hero.”
She matched his step, glaring up at him. “And you’re just a coward clinging to your name because you’re too afraid to stand for anything real.”
“At least I’m not betraying my own kind. Do you even remember where you come from? Or are you too busy pandering to people who’d spit on your name if they knew what it meant?”
“I know exactly where I come from—FILTH. And I’ve made peace with it. You, on the other hand, are so wrapped up in your precious bloodlines that you can’t even think for yourself.”
“Better that than throwing it all away to grovel at the feet of Muggles,”
“At least I have the guts to stand up for what I believe in, instead of hiding behind old traditions like a coward.”
“Those traditions made you what you are, and you’re disgracing them with your pathetic—”
“Enough!” Ryu’s voice cut through the rising tension, his tone sharp and commanding. He stepped between them, placing a hand on each of their shoulders to physically push them apart. “This isn’t the time or place for this.”
Vera glared over his shoulder at Cassius, her chest tight with suppressed fury. Her fingers itched to throw something, and she didn’t hesitate. She lobbed the crumpled napkin at him, hitting him squarely in the chest.
“Have fun polishing your filthy legacy, Warrington,” she said icily, the words sharp enough to cut.
She turned on her heel, intending to leave him and his arrogance behind. But as she stormed away, the urge to cuss him one last time tugged at her.
She spun back, ready to throw another biting remark.
And then she froze when she saw it.
Ryu was speaking—no, scolding Cassius about something. His tone was sharp, his hands gesturing emphatically, and she couldn’t make out the words over the sound of her own pulse roaring in her ears.
But Cassius... he wasn’t responding.
He wasn’t even looking at Ryu.
Instead, his hand moved in slow, deliberate strokes along the Thestral’s bony head, his fingers brushing over its dark, leathery skin as if trying to comfort it. His gaze was locked with the creature’s, his expression unreadable, and yet strangely tender. The Thestral leaned into his touch, its wings twitching slightly, as though responding to some silent understanding that passed between them.
The realization struck her like a gale, sharp and icy, cutting through the haze of her anger.
He could see them.
Cassius Warrington could see them.
A boy who had never shown a shred of vulnerability, whose arrogance grated on her nerves like nails on glass—he had suffered a loss deep enough, scarring enough, to open his eyes to the creatures only the grieving could witness.
Later that night, she couldn’t stop thinking about him.
At first, it frustrated her. No matter how many times she told herself it didn’t matter—that he didn’t matter—the image of him with the Thestral clung to her mind like ink spilled on parchment, impossible to scrub away.
She didn’t know why it mattered so much, but it did. Perhaps because she understood what it meant to feel hollow inside, to carry wounds that never truly healed.
She found herself wondering why. Why could he see them? The answer seemed obvious at first. The Red Dinner.
She knew it happened in 1982, which meant his mother had died when he was only four.
But did he even remember it?
Was he there that night? Did he witness it, or did his loss take a different form?
Perhaps it wasn’t a parent at all—Perhaps it had been something smaller, something insignificant in the grand scheme of things. A beloved pet, a mentor, someone who existed in his world just long enough to leave an imprint before vanishing.
She wanted to believe that. Needed to believe that. Because no matter what she had just witnessed, Cassius was still Cassius—arrogant, insufferable, untouchable.
Nothing could change how she saw him. Nothing.
With a sharp inhale, she tore her thoughts away and turned toward the bedside table. The worn edges of her stationery case sat in the dim light, the cheap parchment peeking out like a silent accusation.
She had bigger things to worry about than Cassius fucking Warrington.
It was pathetic, really, how tattered her belongings looked. She couldn’t even afford decent quills anymore. Not like Maddie, who always seemed to have everything she needed—and more.
Heat prickled at her skin, a sharp, unwelcome burst of envy. But there was something else, too. Something deeper.
A yearning she couldn’t quite name.
She lay awake, listening to the faint rustle of the enchanted tapestry above her. The constellations shifted lazily, their soft glow illuminating the ceiling, their movements steady, predictable—unlike her thoughts.
Because the moment her mind strayed from Cassius, Maddie, and her fucked up situation, it landed somewhere else. On him.
Felix.
The only one who had ever made her feel like she was something more than just the girl struggling to reclaim what was rightfully hers. Alive. Reckless. Whole.
He was the one. He had to be.
But the prophecy... the starry eyes.
The prophecy didn’t matter, she thought. It was just words—easily misread, easily twisted.
She knew what was real.
And yet, for the first time, doubt wormed its way into her heart.
What if she was wrong?
What if fate had a different plan?
She squeezed her eyes shut. No.
She would not doubt. She would not falter.
Her fingers curled into the sheets, as if anchoring herself to certainty through sheer force of will.
But as the stars above shifted and shimmered, she couldn’t shake the feeling that the threads of her fate were unraveling—one by one.
♪I spent so much time
Believing all the lies
To keep the dream alive
Now it makes me sad
It makes me mad at truth
For loving what was you♪
Notes:
Chapter's song: Eyes without a face - Billy Idol
Chapter 57: Don't Dream It's Over
Chapter Text
Monday, September 16, 1991
Professor Quirrell stood at the front of the classroom, wringing his hands together like he was trying to squeeze water out of them. His usually nervous stammer seemed even worse today, and the way he kept glancing over his shoulder was making everyone increasingly uneasy.
"T-today," he announced, his eyes darting wildly around the room. “We were s-supposed to begin our c-chapter on B-boggarts, b-but—I have d-decided to p-postpone it. Indefinitely!"
The entire class exchanged glances.
Cedric furrowed his brows. "Professor, the syllabus says—"
"Y-yes, well, s-s-syllabuses c-can change, c-can’t they?" Quirrell interjected, tugging at his turban. "Instead, we’ll be d-d-d-d-discussing"—he pulled a piece of parchment from his sleeve and squinted at it—"the... t-theory of... of... magical d-duels!"
"Theory?" Adrian piped up. "Not, you know, actual dueling?"
"Because nothing screams Defense like talking about fighting things instead of actually doing it," Cassius added, crossing his arms.
"Yes, well, dueling is v-v-very d-dangerous," Quirrell said quickly, shuffling to the chalkboard and writing the word Duels in wobbly script. "W-we will s-stick to the s-safety of knowledge."
“Buggers!” Tommy said out loud.
Miles snorted. "I’d duel you right now, Mallon. Purely in the name of academic pursuit."
"Yeah, bet that’d go well for you, Bletchley," Tommy shot back.
"Professor,” Cedric tried again. “With all due respect, we’ve been waiting for the boggart lesson. Wouldn't it be useful to actually practice dealing with one?"
Quirrell let out a high-pitched laugh, startling himself in the process. "Boggarts are... t-tricky creatures, y-yes! Very s-suspicious. Not to be trusted! A-anyway, moving on! W-we’ll be covering, uh..." He flipped through his textbook frantically, landing on a random page. "M-mandrakes!"
Ryu raised an eyebrow. "Isn't that Herbology?"
"Shhh!" Quirrell hushed him aggressively before taking a deep breath. "Mandrakes are v-very useful! Very d-dangerous! Much m-m-more important than b-boggarts! Boggarts are t-terrible, tricksy, utterly unnecessary creatures!"
Fred leaned toward George. "You think he saw one in his wardrobe this morning and decided to call it a day?"
Eudora lazily flicked her quill. "Maybe he’s afraid the boggart will turn into him just without all the stammering."
Cassius smirked. "Now that would be a real Defense Against the Dark Arts lesson—how to fight your own reflection."
Quirrell cleared his throat. "A-anyway! W-write an essay on the m-many uses of mandrake root in c-combat!" He clapped his hands together, looking immensely pleased with himself. "Class dismissed!"
The class sat in stunned silence for a moment before realizing that, yes, that was apparently the end of the lesson. Books were swiftly snapped shut, and quills were stowed away.
"At this rate, we’ll be learning about the defensive properties of cabbages next week." Vera muttered as they filed out.
Lee sighed. "I don't know whether to be relieved or insulted."
Later, in the library, the group had barely settled in when a new crisis arose.
“Lee, I swear, if you don’t give me that spider, I’m going to lose it.”
“Jimmy isn’t just a spider, Sarah! He’s an emotional support arachnid.”
Patty snorted, flipping a page of her book without looking up. “The one who needs the support here is Malika, mate.”
“Exactly.” Malika nodded. “The only reason he keeps that thing because it freaks me out. He’s not giving it up.”
“It’s not like that,” Lee said. “Jimmy and I are a package deal. You wouldn’t separate a wizard and his wand, would you?”
“You’re comparing a spider to a wand?” Sarah shot back, her voice climbing.
Vera chuckled softly, pulling out her Potions notes. “Honestly, Sarah, what are you planning to do with it?”
“Mummifying it, obviously,” Sarah said, rolling her eyes as if this was the most natural thing in the world.
“I can’t intervene if these are your plans.”
Sarah threw her hands up dramatically. “Of course you’d say that. The one time I need you on my side, and you’re playing Switzerland.”
Before Vera could respond, a flash of movement caught her eye. A shimmering, white paper butterfly flitted through the air, its delicate wings glinting in the library’s dim light. It fluttered toward her, landing gracefully on her book.
She blinked, looking around the library. There was no one nearby who could’ve sent it. Her curiosity peaked, she unfolded it carefully.
Haven
17:00
I have a surprise for you.
She stood abruptly, stuffing the note into her bag. “I need to go.”
“Wait, you’re leaving?!” Sarah said, clearly indignant. “What about solidarity against Spider Tyrant over here?”
“Sorry,” Vera said, grabbing her things. “You’ll survive without me. Probably.”
Once back in the Gryffindor common room, she practically flew up the stairs to her dorm. Her hands were trembling as she rifled through her trunk, tossing aside books and robes in a frenzy.
She needed to look good—really good.
Felix always managed to leave her a little breathless, and if he had a surprise, she wanted to be ready.
She’d chosen a short black velvet skirt paired with her favorite graphic tee—a worn, vintage one she’d “borrowed” from Kaya ages ago. Her fingers moved quickly as she layered on accessories: bracelets that jingled softly, a black choker, and her charmed cat earrings.
She leaned in closer to the mirror, expertly lining her eyes with black eyeliner, smudging it just enough for a dramatic effect. A touch of blush brought color to her cheeks, and she finished it off with a spritz of Angelina’s perfume—soft and floral, but just bold enough to make her feel confident.
Grabbing her bag, she took one last glance at herself, nodded, and bolted out the door.
The corridors of Hogwarts blurred around her as she hurried to the music hall, her shoes clicking against the stone floor. Her heart raced—not just from the speed but from the anticipation.
“Hey, Felix, what’s the surprise? No, too eager.”
“Didn’t think you’d have time for me today. Ugh, too casual.”
“I hope you’re not expecting me to be impressed too easily. Too rude!”
When she reached Haven’s door, she stopped, her chest heaving slightly from the run. She adjusted her skirt, smoothed her hair, and took a deep breath.
“Okay, Vera,” she whispered to herself. “Get it together. It’s just Felix.”
But her pounding heart knew better—it was never just Felix.
She raised her hand and knocked softly, and the door creaked open almost immediately.
There he was.
His smile lit up the dim hallway, so bright and warm it seemed to banish the shadows entirely. For a fleeting moment, it melted away all the carefully rehearsed words she’d agonized over on her way here.
“Hey,” he greeted, his voice effortlessly light, tinged with that easy charm that always seemed to follow him. “You made it.”
Her heart skipped, then stuttered, as if it couldn’t decide how fast to beat.
“Hi,” she managed, her voice quieter than she intended.
Felix moved aside, holding the door open wider. “Come in, then.”
Stepping over the threshold, she felt her senses awaken. The room smelled faintly of old parchment and polished wood, a cozy combination that grounded her despite the swirl of nerves. Somewhere in the background, a faint hum clung to the air like an unspoken melody.
“So… uh…” she started, her words faltering as she fiddled with the strap of her bag, her fingers knotting and unknotting. “What’s the, um… uh… the surprise?”
Felix’s eyes sparkled, his excitement barely contained as he gestured toward a cloth-covered object in the corner. “Patience, Vera. This is going to blow your mind.”
With a dramatic flourish, he pulled the cloth away, revealing a shiny silver object beneath it.
Her eyebrows shot up. “A radio?”
“A proper Muggle radio!” he said, his voice brimming with pride. “Picked it up over the summer. Took a bit of tweaking to get it to work at Hogwarts, but…” He twisted a knob, and static crackled to life, filling the room with an electric buzz. “...ta-da!”
She blinked, glancing from the radio to him and back again. He looked so thrilled, his expression a mix of triumph and boyish delight—it was impossible not to smile back.
“This baby’s magic in its own way,” he continued. “Music, news, talk shows—everything a person needs to stay sane. Imagine this, Vera: you’re sitting alone in your dorm. It’s quiet. Too quiet. But then…” He twisted the knob again, and an upbeat tune spilled into the air, bright and infectious. “...music. Instantly, the world feels less lonely.”
Her lips twitched as she bit back a laugh. If he’s this excited over a radio, what would he do if he ever saw a telly or a computer? Still, his enthusiasm was contagious, and she didn’t want to dampen it.
“That’s… amazing, Felix,” she said, her voice warm, though her words felt a little stiff.
Felix didn’t notice. If anything, her response seemed to amplify his joy.
His grin widened, his dimples deepening. “I knew you’d love it! I mean, you’ve probably never seen anything like this before, right? Muggle ingenuity is kind of brilliant when you think about it.”
She pressed her tongue against the inside of her cheek to stop herself from laughing outright. She didn’t want to burst his bubble. Instead, she nodded, matching his energy as best as she could. “It really is something.”
“And now,” he said, practically bouncing on his heels, “we can listen to Muggle music. Oh, Vera, it’s so much better than the wizarding stuff. Like this song—” He gestured toward the radio as the tune swelled in the room. “—it’s been on repeat all day, and I love it!”
“You like Metallica?” she asked.
He blinked. “What’s that?”
She chuckled softly, shaking her head. “The band singing, silly.”
“Is that what they’re called?”
“Yeah, this is their latest song. Enter Sandman.”
His brow furrowed, and he tilted his head. “How do you know about them?”
Her grin widened as she reached into her bag, pulling out a small, sleek device. “This,” she said, holding it up like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Felix froze mid-motion, his eyes narrowing on the Walkman in her hand.
He looked utterly bewildered, his face a mix of shock and fascination. “What—where—what is that?” he sputtered, staring at it like it was a rare magical artifact unearthed in some ancient tomb.
She shrugged nonchalantly, enjoying his reaction. “It’s a Walkman. You know, for playing music. It comes with these things called headphones, so you can listen to music by yourself.”
“Where did you get it?” he asked, his tone sharpening slightly, like he couldn’t quite believe she’d one-upped him in the Muggle tech department.
“That’s classified,” she said with a playful smirk, clutching the Walkman dramatically to her chest.
For the briefest moment, a flicker of something—jealousy?—crossed his face. But it vanished just as quickly, replaced by his teasing smile. “Here I am, thinking I’m introducing you to something groundbreaking, and you’re secretly hoarding advanced Muggle tech.”
She laughed along with him, feeling a spark of triumph. “Well, don’t get too smug. I can’t get it to work inside Hogwarts. How did you manage the radio?”
“It took some time, but I found a way. You’ve got to know the right charms and tweak the spell frequencies. It’s complicated.”
“Think you could charm my Walkman, then?” she asked, holding it out to him.
His grin widened. “Gladly.”
He took the Walkman from her hands, then sat on the small sofa, inspecting it from every angle. “How does it work exactly?”
She plopped down beside him, close enough to see the faint freckles dotting his nose. Opening the Walkman, she pointed to the cassette inside. “You just pop one of these in, press play, and voilà. Music on the go.”
He leaned in closer, examining the cassette tapes she pulled out like he’d discovered a new species.
His fingers brushed against one of the tapes, and he read the label aloud. “Wes’s Picks. Who’s Wes?”
She quickly snatched the tape, shoving it back into the Walkman. “Oh, that’s just... No one, really,” she said, her voice hurried, desperate to sound casual.
He nodded thoughtfully. “How do you manage to keep it hidden from your aunt?”
“I—I’m sneaky,”
“I bet you are,” he teased. Then, after a moment of thought, added, “I had to hide the radio from Father eventually.”
She was taken aback. "He... doesn't approve of it?"
“Oh, he can’t stand it. But then again, he can’t stand anything muggles make.”
She tilted her head, her confusion clear.
“Oh, it’s not prejudice,” he said quickly. “Not like your aunt. He just thinks they’re reckless with their inventions—creating things without fully understanding the consequences. I mean, he has a point, doesn’t he? Look at what they’ve done to their world.”
She hesitated, her thoughts swirling. This side of the Bobbins was certainly unexpected.
“I think their creations are remarkable,” she said at last. “In some ways, they’re even more brilliant than us.”
He chuckled. “Now, that’s a stretch,”
“Is it, though? Think about it. They’ve built advanced technology—machines that can do incredible things—all without magic. And yet, here we are, wizards with all our spells and enchantments, and still, most of us don’t live half as comfortably as we could.”
He glanced at her, his eyes narrowing slightly as if he were trying to solve a puzzle. But after a moment, he nodded, letting it go. “Anyway,” he said lightly. “I’ll work on your device tonight, but only if you promise to lend it to me every once in a while.”
She grinned and extended her hand for a handshake. “Deal.”
He took her hand, his grip tight and steady, and for the first time all day, she felt like she could breathe again.
They soon leaned back, letting the music from the radio wash over them, an eclectic mix of songs that seemed to blend seamlessly with the mood of the evening—Pixies, My Bloody Valentine, Massive Attack, and R.E.M.
Vera couldn’t believe herself—sitting here with Felix, the faint hum of the radio filling the room, their shoulders almost brushing. It was like a dream—an impossible, fragile dream she wasn’t sure she wanted to wake up from.
The soft light in the room cast shadows that flickered like whispers, stretching and curling along the walls. She shifted, the fabric of her skirt riding up slightly as she stretched her legs out in front of her, exposing more of her thighs.
For a moment, she caught his eyes drifting toward them.
But that moment stretched, thickened. His gaze lingered, dark and intent, tracing the bare skin above her knee, following the subtle shift of muscle as she moved.
She felt it like a touch. A slow, burning awareness creeping over her skin.
Then, as if realizing, he yanked his head away so fast it was almost jarring. His throat bobbed with a swallowed breath, and he clenched his jaw, his fingers gripping the edge of his seat like he needed something solid to hold on to.
A quiet thrill ran through her, settling warm in her stomach. Her lips curled, slow and teasing, as she let the moment stretch between them.
He had looked.
However, just as she opened her mouth to tease him, the radio crackled and sputtered, and the music cut off abruptly, replaced by a tinny voice announcing the news.
She shot Felix a glance, and was surprised to see his earlier awkwardness replaced with a look of unease as the announcer’s words continued.
“—and with the general election looming, party leaders continue to debate key issues, including—”
He furrowed his brow and reached over to turn the volume down. “How can Muggles stand this ridiculous drivel?”
She blinked, caught off guard. “Um… What’s ridiculous?”
“Their political system. Elections, voting… it’s all nonsense.”
Her stomach sank at the abrupt change in tone, the mood of the room shifting in an instant.
“I mean,” she began carefully, not wanting to sound too informed, “it’s just democracy.”
He looked at her as if she had just spoken a foreign language, his brow lifting in surprise before his smirk returned. “If you can call it that. You’ve got people voting who have no idea what they’re doing—swayed by cheap promises or ridiculous ideologies. It’s chaos masquerading as order.”
Vera felt the breath catch in her throat. She had expected him to be uninformed about Muggle politics—maybe even dismissive—but not like this. His words were too smooth, too well-practiced, as if he had thought about this often.
“So what,” she said cautiously after a moment, “you think people shouldn’t get a say in who governs them?”
“Maybe not all people,” he replied without hesitation. “Let’s be honest—some are too uneducated or biased to make informed decisions. Shouldn’t governance be left to those who actually understand what they’re doing? It’s why systems like the Wizengamot work. Expertise, not populism.”
“You mean the same ‘experts’ who let the Minister be appointed by a Muggle who knows absolutely nothing about us?”
Felix’s smirk faltered, and for the first time, she saw the flicker of uncertainty in his expression. He hadn’t expected that. Hadn’t expected her to say it.
“You’ve got a fair argument there,” he admitted, tilting his head. “The idea of our leadership being influenced by someone outside the wizarding world is… troubling. I suppose every system has its flaws. But you’ve got to admit, it’s hard to trust the masses when they’re so easily manipulated.”
“Maybe not, but that doesn’t mean they don’t deserve a voice. It’s just about hope—hope that if people have a voice, they might learn to use it wisely.”
Her words seemed to strike a chord. He blinked, a flicker of surprise crossing his face before his expression hardened again. “Hope without reason is dangerous,” he finally said, his voice low and steady.
It took her a few seconds to process his words. Maybe he doesn’t fully understand the picture, she thought. After all, he knows nothing about Muggles—not like she does.
“Now enough of this,” he said, breaking the tension with a lighthearted grin. “Let’s listen to some tunes.”
He twisted a knob again, and the radio crackled faintly, static giving way to the gentle strumming of a guitar. A rich, soulful voice drifted through the room, wrapping around them like a warm embrace.
♪There is freedom within
There is freedom without
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup
There's a battle ahead
Many battles are lost
But you'll never see the end of the road
While you're travelling with me♪
The words hung in the air like a charm, and they both fell silent, caught in the melody’s spell. Felix leaned back, arm draped lazily over the armrest, but his eyes betrayed him. They flicked toward her, lingering just enough to make her heart skip in response.
She kept her attention firmly on the music, letting the soft, sad tune fill the space between them, but the charged atmosphere was impossible to ignore.
“Vera?” he suddenly called, his voice low and almost reverent.
“Yes, Felix?”
“Do you believe in soulmates?”
Her head snapped toward him, her brows lifting in surprise. “Soulmates?” she repeated.
He turned fully to face her, his expression a mix of curiosity and something far deeper—something that made her breath catch. “Yes, soulmates.”
“I… I think so,” she said hesitantly. “The idea that there’s someone out there meant just for you… it’s beautiful. Almost too good to be true, though.”
“I don’t think it’s too good to be true. It’s real. Love isn’t just a coincidence. It’s destiny. Two people, woven by something bigger than themselves, no matter where they are or what stands in their way.”
Her chest tightened at his conviction, the way he spoke as though it were a certainty rather than a fantasy. “You really believe that?”
“Absolutely. Think about it. In a world full of billions of people, there’s someone who’s your perfect match. Someone who understands you, stands beside you, challenges you… Someone who feels like… home.”
Her cheeks warmed, and she smiled despite herself. “Why did you ask me that?” she said after a while, her voice trembling slightly.
He held her gaze for a moment, his eyes searching hers as though looking for an answer she hadn’t yet given. Slowly, his gaze dropped, tracing the curve of her lips before lifting back to her eyes.
“Because,” he murmured, “sometimes you meet someone, and it feels like the universe brought them into your life for a reason. Like they were meant to be there.”
Her breath hitched as his words settled over her. The space between them seemed to shrink, the air crackling with unspoken possibilities. The tender refrain of the song floated softly from the radio, as if the universe itself had conspired to create this moment.
♪When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
You know they won't win♪
She leaned closer, her movements slow and deliberate. "Felix,” she began, his name tumbling from her lips like a secret. Her heart pounded in her chest, her nerves fraying as she tried to gather the courage to continue. “I need to tell you some—”
Slam!
The door swung open abruptly, shattering the moment.
“—thing,” she finished lamely, sitting back with a startled look.
Percy and Oliver strode in, their presence as jarring as a bucket of ice water.
“—And Flint has the audacity to call that strategy!” Oliver yelled, his arms gesturing wildly.
Percy was laughing, his usually composed demeanor slipping into amused indulgence, but the moment his gaze landed on Vera, his face dropped.
Oliver, oblivious, gave her a quick nod before turning to Felix. “And you! Mate, you were supposed to come see practice today! Ever since you brought that muggle ragio—”
“Radio.”
“Whatever it’s called, it’s been keeping you busy and away from the pitch! What’s so special about it, anyway?”
Felix leaned back, crossing his arms smugly. “It’s called entertainment, Wood.”
“Entertainment?” Oliver shot back, raising an eyebrow. “I listened to one of those football matches on it the other day. What’s entertaining about a bunch of blokes chasing a ball around? And don’t get me started on the commentary—sounded like they’d lost their minds!”
“That’s because you don’t have the refined ear to appreciate it. Commentary is an art form.”
As the banter escalated, Vera found herself watching Felix, a small smile tugging at her lips. Her gaze softened, unbidden, into something warm and almost dreamy. She couldn’t help it—the way his eyes crinkled when he laughed, the easy confidence in his posture—it all pulled her in, leaving her staring without realizing it.
Percy, however, noticed.
His gaze flicked between them, his jaw tightening, though he kept his composure.
“It’s just shouting!” Oliver exclaimed. “At least with Quidditch, you’ve got skill involved.”
“Says the bloke who gets outsmarted by Flint. Repeatedly.”
Oliver groaned. “I’m starting to think you actually like him. You’ve got this habit of defending the bloke every chance you get!”
“I’d rather cheer for a team of garden gnomes than Flint. I’m just saying, if he can outsmart you, maybe don’t throw stones.”
“That’s low, even for you.”
Felix smirked, clearly enjoying Oliver’s frustration. “So, how’s the search for my replacement going?”
Oliver let out a long, dramatic groan and ran a hand through his hair. “Don’t get me started. I swear, every kid who’s picked up a broom thinks they’re the next Aidan Kiely. One nearly crashed into the stands just trying to mount. Another one—Merlin help me—closed their eyes mid-dive.” He shook his head in despair. “I’m telling you, the team’s doomed.”
Then, as if a lightbulb had gone off, he turned to Vera with sudden interest. “Hang on—Black! When are you gonna try out?”
Vera snorted. “Never.”
Percy made a noise of disapproval, but Oliver pressed on, undeterred. “Why not? Your uncle was one of the best Seekers Gryffindor ever had. It’s in your blood!”
The words hit her like a slap.
Slowly, almost warily, she turned her head toward Felix, searching his face for a reaction. His expression was unreadable, carefully composed, but there was something in his gaze—something disapproving.
She opened her mouth, half-formed words stuck on her tongue, but before she could speak, Percy cut in, clearing his throat loudly.
“Bobbin,” he said, his tone brisk. “I need your help with duties. Or did you forget you’re now a prefect?”
Felix exhaled, but stood up nonetheless. “Brilliant. Exactly how I wanted to spend my evening.”
Vera stood too, smoothing her skirt. “I should go as well,” she said, her voice lighter than she felt. “It’s getting late.”
Oliver gave her a cheerful wave, while Felix simply nodded, his expression neutral.
As she slipped out of the music hall, her heart felt heavier than it had when she arrived. The warmth of her earlier moments with Felix lingered, but so did the weight of what hadn’t been said.
She was halfway down the dimly lit corridor, when suddenly, a voice cut through the silence like a blade.
“Black!”
She froze, her breath hitching as she turned to see Percy marching toward her, his face a storm of barely contained frustration.
“Yes?” she said cautiously, her pulse quickening.
He stopped a few feet away, his gaze piercing. “What do you think you’re doing?”
She blinked at him. “I don’t… What do you mean?”
“Don’t play coy! You know exactly what I’m talking about.”
Her stomach flipped and her heart sank. She tried to keep her expression neutral, but his eyes bore into her, unrelenting.
“I see the way you look at him, Vera.” he said, his tone razor-sharp. “The way you follow him with your eyes, like he’s the only bloody person in the room. You think no one notices? You think I wouldn’t notice?”
“Percy, I—”
“No! Don’t even try to deny it. Do you have any idea what you’re playing at? What you’re risking?”
Her throat felt dry. “We’re not doing anything wrong!”
“You don’t get it, do you? It’s about perception. If his family even suspect that he’s fraternizing with you, it’ll be the end of him—of both of you! What you think is little silly fascination, can eventually cause a bloody war!”
“But Felix isn’t like them—”
“That doesn’t matter! His family doesn’t care. To them, he’s a name, a legacy to be upheld. And you—you’re a Black. A Black, Vera. Do you know what that means to them?”
She clenched her jaw. “I am not my family.”
“This isn’t about you! It’s about him. Felix isn’t… he’s not like you. He doesn’t have the freedom to just shrug off the consequences. His family controls every aspect of his life, and you’re—”
“I’m what?”
“You’re a threat to him! You think his father will see you as just another girl? No. To the Bobbins, you’re the enemy.”
Her breath caught, but she forced herself to hold his gaze. She looked at him, her hands clenched into fists at her sides. “You don’t understand,” she said, her voice trembling.
“You don’t know them like I do, Vera. They’ll rip him apart. You will destroy him without even meaning to.” He stepped closer, his voice dropping into a harsh whisper. “And I’ll be damned if I stand by and watch my best mate suffer because of you."
Her chest heaved, anger and frustration bubbling to the surface. “Why are you blaming me? Felix can make his own choices…”
“He doesn’t get choices! Not in this world. Not with his family breathing down his neck.”
Her lips parted, but no words came out. Despite her desperate struggle to hold them back, the tears she had suppressed so fiercely finally cascaded like rivers.
Percy’s gaze softened for a moment, as if he almost felt sorry for her. “I’m sorry, Vera.” he said quietly. “But this isn’t some fairy tale. You can’t just rewrite the rules because you want to.”
“So, what? I’m supposed to pretend I don’t care? Pretend he doesn’t mean anything to me?”
“Yes,” he said, the word heavy with finality. “You bury it. You bury it all. Because if you don’t, you’ll ruin everything. You’ll ruin him. And you’ll ruin yourself in the process.”
Her voice quivered, fragile and broken. “But I like—”
“Stop this!” he interrupted sharply, his tone leaving no room for argument. “Don’t even dream about it, Vera.”
He took a step back, running a hand through his hair with a heavy sigh. For a moment, his eyes softened, clouded with something unspoken. “Dreamers don’t stand a chance in a world like ours.”
With that, he turned on his heel and walked away, leaving her standing alone in the corridor, his words ringing in her ears like a death knell for something she hadn’t even let herself hope for.
Her legs carried her forward, but her mind was stuck in a loop, replaying his words over and over like a cruel mantra.
Don’t even dream about it.
The echo of his voice felt like a weight pressing down on her chest, growing heavier with each step she took towards her dorm.
By the time she reached the grand staircase, her vision blurred. She brushed at her face instinctively, only to smear the eyeliner that had already begun to streak, dark lines cutting through her pale skin like cracks in porcelain.
She kept her head down, avoiding the curious glances of the few students still wandering the halls. Her pace quickened as if she could outrun the ache spreading in her chest. By the time she reached her dorm, her breathing was uneven, and tears were falling freely.
Her knees buckled, and she sank onto her bed, her sobs breaking free in heaving gasps. She buried her face in her hands, the weight of reality crashing down on her.
How foolish she had been to think, even for a second, that she could escape the barriers that divided their worlds. How naïve to believe that her feelings could matter in a world built on bloodlines, power, and expectations.
You’ll destroy him…
Percy’s warning replayed in her mind, a cruel refrain she couldn’t silence. She clenched the bedspread in her fists, her chest heaving as fresh tears spilled over.
She thought about Felix—his easy smile, the way his eyes lit up when he talked about the things he loved, the way he made her feel like the only person in the room when he looked at her. And then she thought about his family, about the shadows that loomed over him, the expectations that chained him to a world she could never truly belong to.
She knew, with a painful clarity, that she couldn’t confess her feelings to him.
Not now.
Not ever.
The cost was too high—for him, for her, for the fragile balance they both walked.
The realization felt like a knife twisting in her chest, but she forced herself to accept it. She had no choice.
With trembling hands, she wiped at her cheeks, only succeeding in smearing her makeup further. Her reflection in the small mirror on her desk caught her eye, and she barely recognized the girl staring back.
But even as she tried to steady her breathing, tried to suppress the ache in her heart, she knew the truth would haunt her. She would carry this unspoken love like a secret wound, hidden beneath the surface where no one could see.
Because Percy was right. She couldn’t risk it. Not for Felix, not for herself.
And she would have to live with that.
Just as she tried to collect herself, her breath still hitching from the sobs, her eyes fell on something unexpected—a crisp envelope lying next to her bed.
She frowned, her heart tightening as she reached for it.
Her name was scrawled in an angular, unfamiliar hand across the front. She turned it over, and her stomach lurched when she saw the red wax seal stamped with the unmistakable crest of Gringotts.
Her hands trembled as she broke the seal and unfolded the parchment inside.
Her eyes scanned the neatly written words, and with every line, her heart sank deeper into her chest.
Dear Miss Black,
We regret to inform you that the repayment period for your outstanding loan is nearing its conclusion. Kindly note that your balance, including accrued interest, must be settled in full before the end of the year. Failure to comply will result in severe consequences, as outlined in clause 7 of the contract you signed upon the issuance of the loan.
Respectfully,
Gringotts Wizarding Bank
Notes:
Chapter's song: Don't dream it's over - Crowded House
Chapter 58: Girl Afraid
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Tuesday, September 17, 1991
Vera sat at her battered desk in Potions class, her fingers tracing the worn, tear-streaked pages of the borrowed textbook. The corners were frayed, and the margins were filled with faded scribbles from long-forgotten students. In front of her, the old, dented cauldron let out a faint groan as she stirred her potion. The mixture hissed and bubbled, but her heart wasn’t in it.
Her usually sharp features were dulled, her eyes red-rimmed and puffy from the relentless tears that had stolen her sleep. She had spent the previous night crying, her sobs muffled by the silence charm she had shakily cast around her bedchamber. The weight of her grief pressed on her like a crushing spell, and when morning came, it greeted her not with solace but with the hollow remnants of a night spent unraveling.
The chatter of the other students hummed around her, but she barely registered it. Her mind was elsewhere, replaying Percy’s words over and over like a haunting refrain.
Her throat tightened at the memory. He had been harsh, but she knew he was right. She couldn’t risk Felix’s family discovering her feelings, couldn’t risk putting him in harm’s way.
She just needs to let it all go.
And then there was the letter from Gringotts.
Severe consequences.
She didn’t need to guess what that meant. The goblins were known for their ruthlessness when debts went unpaid.
How was she supposed to fix this? She barely had enough to get by, let alone to pay back a loan with Gringotts’ unforgiving interest rates. She’d taken the loan because she had no other choice, no one else to turn to. But now, that desperate decision was coming back to haunt her, made worse by the regret gnawing at her.
She should’ve paid it off sooner, but instead, she’d spent most of the money on stupid, fleeting things—things that didn’t matter, things she couldn’t even justify to herself now.
And if Donnie found out...
She could practically hear the soft edge of his voice as he tried not to show it, the weight of his unspoken disappointment cutting deeper than any harsh word ever could.
But she couldn’t write to him about the letter from the bank—she can’t be an extra burden on him. He seemed to have so much going on that she didn’t even know about, things he wouldn’t talk to her about no matter how hard she tried to get through to him. She couldn’t pile her mistakes onto his shoulders, couldn’t risk being another weight in the storm he was already weathering.
So instead, she let the letter sit there on her bedside table, an ominous reminder of the hole she’d dug herself into—and the shame she’d have to claw her way out of alone.
She had known this day would come, but she had pushed it to the back of her mind, hoping for a miracle, for time to somehow stretch indefinitely. Now, with the end of the year just months away, there was no escaping it.
Before she knew it, her tears started anew, silent and bitter.
For a fleeting moment, she wondered what it might feel like to just… disappear. To slip away from all of it—the debts, the expectations, the heartbreak. But she quickly pushed the thought aside.
She wiped at her face with the back of her sleeve, smearing what little eyeliner remained even more. There was no running from this. No miracles were coming to save her.
Her potion hissed and sputtered, drawing her attention back to the cauldron. The sharp smell of brewed ingredients hit her, a stark reminder that she’d have to keep her focus—or at least pretend to.
She glanced at her sparse collection of ingredients—or what little was left of them—and a sense of defeat weighed heavily on her. Her bag was nearly bare, a pitiful reminder of how far she’d let things slide.
She should have used that loan to stock up on ingredients, parchments, books and stationery—the essentials she actually needed to get by. But instead, she’d wasted so much of it on stupid cosmetics she didn’t even care about anymore, fleeting indulgences that now seemed laughably meaningless compared to the mess she was in.
The disappointment in herself was almost unbearable, a relentless voice in her head reminding her of every bad choice she’d made. If she’d just thought things through, just prioritized better, maybe she wouldn’t be standing here now, staring at a dented cauldron and feeling utterly defeated.
Taking a steadying breath, she forced herself to look around the room for some kind of solution, even though she already knew there wouldn’t be one.
Her gaze landed on Cedric, who sat on the station ahead. His cauldron gleamed as though it had been freshly polished, and his potion swirled in a perfect, luminous hue. Every ingredient on his table was neatly arranged, like a scene from a textbook illustration. Summoning her courage, she made her way over.
“Hey, Snorty,” she began softly, her voice steady despite the nerves twisting in her stomach. “Do you have any spare ingredients? I... I don’t have enough to finish.”
Cedric looked up at her with a warm, easy smile that instantly made her feel less small. “Of course,” he said without hesitation, reaching into his neatly organized kit. “What do you need?”
Relief washed over her like a warm breeze, but the moment was cut short by Maddie, who sat beside him.
She glanced up, one perfectly arched eyebrow lifting in obvious judgment. “You don’t have your own ingredients?” she asked, her tone thick with surprise and a touch of arrogance.
Vera’s cheeks burned under her scrutinizing gaze. “I... forgot them in my dorm,” she lied smoothly, keeping her tone light.
Maddie’s eyes lingered on her for a moment longer than necessary, as if dissecting her excuse for flaws. Then, with a small huff, she turned her attention back to her own potion.
As Vera turned back to her cauldron, her thoughts churned as much as the potion before her. She needed to get her act together—starting with securing her own supplies. Borrowing from others couldn’t become a habit, not if she wanted to maintain the illusion of wealth and power.
With a deep breath, she focused on the potion in front of her. Each stir of the cauldron became a silent vow: she would make it work. She always did.
The door to the Potions classroom suddenly slammed open, and Tommy stumbled in, his messy hair poking out from under his cap as he muttered a half-hearted apology.
He was late again—nothing unusual for him.
"Detention, Mallon," Snape drawled.
Tommy barely flinched. “Aye, sure. I’ll get right on that,” he replied, waving a dismissive hand.
Vera raised an eyebrow as he shuffled down the aisle, his lopsided grin already making her mood lighten, even just a bit.
When their eyes met, his face lit up like he’d won the lottery. “Saved you a seat, TomTom,” she called out, her voice carrying a playful edge.
Without missing a beat, he made his way over, his boots thudding softly on the stone floor. “Saint Vera to the rescue,” he teased, ruffling her hair the moment he dropped into the chair beside her.
“Hey! Don’t mess it up!” she yelled, swatting at his hand, but the laugh that escaped her betrayed her protest.
Somehow, the simple gesture made her chest feel a little lighter, like he’d brushed off some of the weight she didn’t even realize she was carrying.
His gaze flicked over her outfit—short skirt, fishnets, new Converse—and his smirk deepened. “A punk saint, eh? Lookin’ like you’re about to start a riot. Suits you. Real intimidating.”
She rolled her eyes, but she couldn’t hide the grin tugging at her lips. "Cheers, Tommy. You're the only one who gets it, honestly."
Her eyes flicked over his own state of disarray: untucked shirt, tie hanging in a knot that looked more accidental than deliberate, scuffed shoes that had clearly been through some kind of battle, and sleeves rolled up to reveal an eclectic collection of mismatched bracelets. His fingers glinted with silver-colored rings—half of them looking like they might’ve been nicked from a market stall.
“Someone had a rough summer,” she quipped, though there was a fondness in her tone she couldn’t quite disguise.
His smirk softened, his eyes catching hers. “Yeah, says the girl with tired eyes. You alright?”
The question hit her unexpectedly, his voice low enough that it felt private. For a moment, she hesitated, debating whether to spill everything or keep her walls up. In the end, she shrugged, forcing a grin she didn’t entirely feel. “Yeah, it’s all good. Just... you know.”
He didn’t press, and she appreciated that more than she could say. He just nodded like he understood, leaning back in his chair and resting his elbows on the desk.
“So, what’ve you been up to this summer?” she asked, trying to steer the conversation into safer, easier waters.
He shrugged, a glimmer of mischief returning to his grin. “The usual—dodging chores, causing trouble, living the dream. What about you?”
“Oh, you know, just preparing to save the world. Standard saint stuff.”
“Of course you were,” he said with a wink. “I went to Belfast. My sisters took me to see The Frames. You know, that band with the mad tunes? Place was packed to the rafters, and I didn’t have a clue what I was doin’, but I didn’t care. ‘Twas a bloody brilliant night.”
Her eyes widened. “The Frames? That’s massive! Their album’s everywhere in London right now. Bet that gig was mental.”
“Mental? Oh, love, it was heaven on earth. Proper lost myself in it. One of those nights you never forget, ya know?”
“Sounds incredible,” she said, her voice tinged with envy and excitement. “I wish I could’ve been there. Everyone’s going mad for them these days.”
Tommy leaned in conspiratorially, his voice dropping to a whisper. “Don’t worry, Piggy. I’ve brought a bit of the magic to you.”
She raised an eyebrow. “Oh yeah?”
With a flourish, he reached into his bag and pulled out a battered cassette tape, its edges worn and dog-eared. “The Frames, live in Belfast. Got the whole gig recorded. My sisters… they know a few folks. Let’s just say this isn’t somethin’ you’ll find in a shop.”
Her eyes lit up as she leaned forward, staring at the tape like it was treasure. “You’re taking the piss. You’ve been carrying this around?”
He chuckled. “Aye, thought you’d be keen. Trust me, it’s better than that daft wizard music you listen to.”
She scoffed. “Don’t worry about me, mate. I know my Muggle music.”
Tommy tilted his head, impressed. “Not bad for a posh Gryffindor. But, uh… how are you gonna listen to that, though?”
She offered him a faint smile, though her mind had wandered to Felix, who still had her Walkman. After a moment’s pause, she swallowed the lump in her throat and said with quiet determination, “I’ll figure it out. Don’t you worry about a thing.”
He opened his mouth to reply, but before he could get a word out, a shadow fell over them.
Both of them froze, their heads snapping upward to see Professor Snape looming above, his black eyes glinting with disdain.
“Is there something you’d like to share with the rest of the class?” he drawled, his voice cutting through the air like a blade.
Tommy raised a hand instinctively, but Snape’s withering glare pinned him in place. “Put that down, Mallon. I’m not interested in your excuses.” His voice dripped with contempt, and before either of them could respond, he took a deliberate step forward and rapped both of them sharply on the backs of their heads.
“Out of line, the pair of you,” he snarled. “No work done, no respect for the rules—just gossiping like idle fools. Mallon, this is hardly surprising. But you, Black? I expected more, though I don’t know why.”
Vera’s cheeks flushed, her heart hammering as she quickly snapped her bag shut, praying he hadn’t noticed Tommy’s tape.
Snape’s piercing gaze lingered on her bag for a moment before shifting to the cauldron on her desk, and his lip curled into a sneer. “Is this your cauldron, Black? Did I, or did I not, explicitly instruct to purchase a larger one?”
She swallowed hard. “I… I forgot, Professor.”
“How convenient. Perhaps if you spent less time dressing like a delinquent and more time focusing on your studies, you wouldn’t be such an embarrassment.”
The Slytherins erupted in laughter. Eudora’s cackle was loud and unrestrained, while Adrian smirked, whispering something Miles beside him. Cassius leaned back with a smug grin, clearly enjoying the show, while Ryu gave her a look so peculiar she couldn’t decipher whether it was pity or amusement.
Her face burned with a mix of shame and fury as Snape’s gaze continued to sweep over her outfit, lingering on the streaks of color in her hair like a hawk zeroing in on prey.
“Clearly, your priorities are as misplaced as your sense of style. Pathetic. And to think you bear the name Black. Your family, for all their faults, at least maintained a semblance of dignity.”
This was it.
Her temper snapped like a wand under too much pressure. Her back straightened, and she raised her chin, her voice sharp enough to cut glass. “My style is none of your concern, Professor.”
Tommy, sitting beside her, inhaled sharply, his eyes wide with admiration. Yet he shifted back in his seat, clearly bracing himself for the fallout.
Snape’s lips thinned into a razor-sharp line as he leaned closer. “Don’t test me, Black. Your insolence is as unacceptable as your attire, and I will not tolerate it.”
Her fists clenched beneath the desk, but she didn’t falter. “With all due respect, Professor, lectures on dignity from a man who spends his days bullying children are rather hypocritical, don’t you think?”
The laughter in the room vanished, replaced by stunned silence. A few students exchanged wide-eyed glances, and even Cassius’s smug grin slipped ever so slightly.
Snape’s eyes darkened, his tone dropping to something dangerously low. “You tread on very thin ice, Black. I suggest you hold your tongue before it gets you into further trouble.”
But she wasn’t done.
Her anger had emboldened her, and the heat in her chest outweighed any fear she felt. “Funny, really. I thought Hogwarts was supposed to teach us integrity. Yet here you are, an adult, mocking my clothes and dragging my family into it. If that’s what dignity looks like, I’ll pass.”
The collective gasp that followed was deafening, a sharp intake of disbelief that echoed through the dungeon.
Snape’s patience shattered entirely. “Detention, Black. Tonight. Tomorrow. Every night this week! You will learn respect, even if it kills me.”
Vera met his glare with her own, the fire in her eyes refusing to extinguish. “I’m sure it will,” she said quietly, venom dripping from her words.
His hand twitched, as though he were resisting the urge to do something more. “Out of my sight,” he hissed. “Now.”
She swiftly grabbed her things and stood, her head held high as she marched out of the room. The silence behind her was deafening, but she didn’t look back.
She stormed out of the dungeons, her anger propelling her through the castle like a storm. She didn’t stop until she was outside, the cold wind biting at her skin, though it wasn’t enough to cool the fury coursing through her veins.
She marched toward the Black Lake, her chest heaving with frustration and the sting of Snape’s words still echoing in her mind.
Reaching the edge of the lake, she picked up a jagged stone and hurled it as hard as she could. It splashed into the water, sending ripples across the surface. The sound barely registered in her ears over the rush of blood and the pounding of her heart.
“FUCK THIS SHIT!”
Another stone followed, then another. Each throw felt like an attempt to rid herself of the shame and fury boiling inside, but it only seemed to fuel the fire.
Snape’s words cut deep, but it wasn’t just him. It was everything: the weight of her family’s name, the endless battles she fought every day, the feeling that no matter how hard she tried, it was never enough.
And then… The thought of Felix crept into her mind, and the dam broke.
Her breathing hitched as tears blurred her vision, and she sank to her knees, the stones she’d been clutching slipping from her fingers.
Sobs wracked her body as she hugged her knees to her chest, her tears falling freely now. All the anger, the frustration, the loneliness—everything she’d bottled up—poured out in waves.
The lake’s surface shimmered under the faint sunlight, indifferent to her pain. She pressed her forehead to her knees, her sobs muffled against the fabric of her robes. She felt small, like the stones she’d been throwing—insignificant against the vastness of the world around her.
A sense of loneliness settled in as she realized that love had slipped away, leaving her questioning why she hadn’t been enough.
She reflected on her own flaws and insecurities, feeling small and undeserving in the grand scheme of things. And she couldn't help but harbor a quiet resentment toward those who easily found love, as if the world favored some while others were left to watch from the sidelines.
Maddie, Jane, Malika, Kaya and even Eudora. But why never her?
In that moment, she imagined the weight of the earth pressing down on her, soil falling over her head, burying her in the quiet embrace of something more certain than life itself. Maybe then, in that stillness, she would have found the love that had always seemed just out of reach.
Maybe then, her mother would have finally heard her.
A broken sob tore from her throat. "Mum," she whispered, her voice trembling, cracking under the weight of her longing. "Please... I need you. Oh, mum, I need you..."
When the tears finally subsided, leaving her drained and hollow, she sat in silence, staring at the rippling water. Her chest ached, and her eyes burned, but the fury had dimmed, replaced by a cold, heavy weight of exhaustion.
She wiped her tear-streaked face with the back of her sleeve, the sharp ache in her chest ebbing just enough for her thoughts to drift. As she stared at the rippling surface of the Black Lake, her mind turned to the one place that had always felt like a refuge: home.
The world of Muggles was chaotic and imperfect, but it had a simplicity that grounded her, a warmth she could never quite find at Hogwarts. Memories of St. Mary’s, the hum of city life outside the window, and the comforting clutter of everyday things filled her with a longing so strong it made her throat tighten all over again.
And then there was Kaya.
Kaya, who always seemed to know what to say, who could make her laugh even on her worst days. Kaya, who made her feel like she wasn’t just some orphaned legacy of a tarnished name, but someone who mattered.
She thought of her best friend’s warm smile, her quick wit, and the way she always managed to turn even the darkest moments into something bearable.
Her hand instinctively reached into her bag, pulling out a piece of parchment and a pencil she’d smuggled from her Muggle life. Sitting cross-legged on the damp grass, she closed her eyes, picturing Kaya’s face as clearly as she could.
The pencil moved almost on its own, sketching the contours of her best friend’s sharp cheekbones, the curve of her lips, and the mischievous sparkle in her eyes. For the first time that day, she felt the tightness in her chest ease slightly, her focus shifting from her pain to the image coming to life on the page.
Later that day, she slouched in her seat during Transfiguration, her wand spinning lazily in her hand as Professor McGonagall’s lecture drifted past her ears.
She wasn’t in the mood to try, much less succeed. Her thoughts were too tangled—Felix, Percy’s words, the Gringotts letter, Snape—it all weighed on her like a thousand bricks.
When McGonagall called on her to demonstrate the spell, she muttered the incantation under her breath with all the enthusiasm of a wet sponge. Her wand emitted a pitiful spark that fizzled out almost immediately, leaving her staring at the lifeless object in her hand.
“Pathetic, Black,” sneered Cassius, his voice dripping with contempt. “Even a squib could do better.”
Miles leaned back in his chair, smirking. “Maybe it’s not the wand. Maybe she’s just cursed.”
Eudora, perched delicately beside her boyfriend Adrian, gave a mockingly sweet smile. “Oh, leave her alone. She can’t help it. Poor dear’s probably trying to vanish herself like she did her prospects. Or maybe it’s her brain she’s been practicing on all summer.”
When the laughter ebbed just enough for her voice to cut through, she finally spoke, her tone light but edged like a finely honed blade. “Oh, don’t worry, Eudora,” she drawled. “I’ll leave the brains to you. Merlin knows you need them for whatever love spells you’re using to keep poor Pucey from running off.”
The room erupted in a new wave of laughter, louder and sharper than before, the tables turning in an instant. Eudora’s face flushed a furious crimson as she whipped around to glare at Adrian, who had gone very still beside her.
“Enough!” McGonagall’s stern voice cracked through the laughter like a whip, silencing the room instantly. Her sharp eyes scanned the students, daring any of them to so much as breathe too loudly. “If you’re all quite finished behaving like a pack of baboons, perhaps we can get back to the lesson?”
The Slytherins muttered half-hearted apologies, though the smug smiles didn’t entirely fade.
Vera, meanwhile, let herself savor the small victory for a moment before her gaze flickered across the room. She caught sight of Ryu sitting silently at the edge of the group, his posture stiff, his face a carefully neutral mask. But his eyes told a different story—there was anger simmering just beneath the surface, though he didn’t dare let it show.
He didn’t laugh with the others. He didn’t join in. He just watched.
“Anything to add, Avery?” she whispered, cocking her head toward him. “Or is sitting silently and letting them do all the work more your style?”
Before Ryu could even open his mouth, Adrian leaned forward with a smug grin. “Avery? Nah, he’s busy thinking about other things,” he sneered, his gaze dropping as he gestured unsubtly toward Ryu’s lap.
The comment landed hard, followed by an explosion of laughter from Miles and Eudora. Cassius smirked, while Ryu froze in place, his jaw tightening and his hands curling into fists on the desk.
For a moment, it seemed like he might say something, but instead, he stood abruptly, the screech of his chair scraping against the stone floor cutting through the noise. “Professor,” he said stiffly, addressing McGonagall while avoiding everyone else’s gaze, “may I be excused to use the lavatory?”
McGonagall frowned, but she gave a curt nod. “Be quick, Mr. Avery.”
Without another word, he strode out of the classroom, his face tight with a mix of anger and embarrassment.
“Off to fix his problem, I reckon,” Miles snorted, earning another round of guffaws from Adrian and Eudora.
Vera watched him retreating back, confusion flitting across her face. The exchange had been strange, even by the Poshlanders’ standards.
She had no idea what Adrian had been hinting at, but frankly, she didn’t care enough to dwell on it.
She leaned back in her chair, feigning indifference as the laughter continued, her mind already moving on to her next battle.
By the time class ended, she was more than ready to leave. But as she gathered her things, Professor McGonagall’s voice stopped her in her tracks.
“Miss Black, a word, if you please.”
She stiffened, her mind racing.
Great. Now I get to be scolded for defending myself.
She trudged up to McGonagall’s desk, her bag slung over her shoulder, and prepared for a lecture about her lack of effort.
To her surprise, McGonagall didn’t mention the lesson at all. Instead, she fixed her with a piercing look. “Miss Black, I couldn’t help but notice that your uniform is… less than regulation.”
Vera blinked, taken aback. “My uniform?” she echoed dumbly.
McGonagall’s lips pressed into a thin line as her eyes swept over her outfit: the loosened tie, the shirt untucked at the sides, and the skirt a few inches shorter than it should have been.
“Your appearance,” she said, her tone crisp but not unkind, “is a reflection not only of yourself but of this school. I expect all students to adhere to the uniform policy, and that includes wearing it properly. Your skirt is much too short, and your blouse is far too snug. You’ll need to obtain a properly fitting uniform immediately.”
Vera’s stomach churned. She knew her uniform didn’t fit—she it had since her first year—but it was the only one she owns. She flushed, feeling the weight of McGonagall’s words. How could she explain that new robes weren’t an option when there was no money to spare?
“Yes, Professor,” she muttered, avoiding eye contact.
McGonagall’s stern gaze softened ever so slightly. “Miss Black, I understand that you may be dealing with… distractions,” she said carefully, “but I urge you not to let them affect your conduct or your education. You have potential, whether you choose to show it or not.”
The words stung more than they should have. Vera nodded silently, biting the inside of her cheek to keep from saying something snarky.
“Very well,” McGonagall said after a moment, her tone brisk once more. “You’re dismissed. And do tuck in that shirt.”
As Vera walked out of the classroom, she couldn’t help but feel as though McGonagall’s words had cut deeper than any insult Cassius or the others had thrown at her.
Potential, she thought bitterly.
What good is potential when the world doesn’t give you a chance to use it?
Returning to Gryffindor tower after a long, exhausting day, her head throbbed as if it might burst. The common room buzzed with life, students perched on armrests, sprawled across couches, or huddled over games of Exploding Snap.
Laughter and chatter echoed off the stone walls, but she barely noticed. Her eyes were fixed on the floor as she wove her way through the chaos, her thoughts a tangled storm.
As she reached the foot of the staircase to the dormitories, ready to flee to solitude, a hand shot out, cold and firm around her wrist. Before she could cry out, she was yanked into the shadows beneath the staircase.
Her heart raced as she spun to face her captor, but the fear dissolved the moment she met his gaze.
“Felix,” she whispered, her voice trembling. His name felt heavy on her tongue, laced with equal parts dread and longing.
He was too close, the faint scent of him—ink, herbs, and something indefinably Felix—filling her senses. Shadows danced across his face, highlighting the tension in his jaw. His grip on her wrist lingered for a second longer before he released her.
“You shouldn’t be here,” she hissed, her eyes darting around the room. “What if someone sees us?”
“I don’t care,” he muttered, his voice low and rough. “This couldn’t wait.”
He reached into his pocket, pulling out her Walkman. “I fixed it,” he said simply, a proud smile ghosting across his lips. “It works now.”
Her chest constricted, a mix of gratitude, astonishment, and something deeper swelling within her.
"I listened to it, you know," he said, tapping the Walkman lightly. "I liked The Smiths the most. You didn’t strike me as a melancholic romantic, though."
Her heart stuttered. "And you are?" she shot back, arching a brow.
He tilted his head, considering. "I suppose I am now. ‘Girl Afraid’—dramatic, tragic, and painfully sincere. I loved it.”
A shiver ran down her spine, though she wasn’t sure if it was from his words or the way he was looking at her—like he saw right through her bravado, right through to the ache underneath.
She looked up at him, and in that moment, it felt as though the rest of the world had melted away. The din of the common room faded to a distant hum, and all that remained was the space between them, crackling with unspoken tension.
Her mind screamed warnings—Percy’s bitter admonishments, the razor-sharp truth of her precarious reality—but her heart drowned them out.
And suddenly, she wanted—no, needed—to kiss him.
Not under the stars, not in some picture-perfect moment, but here, in the dim glow beneath the staircase, surrounded by the scent of parchment and magic, with her heart hammering so wildly it hurt. She wanted to know what he tasted like, wanted to chase away whatever ghosts haunted his gaze.
She just wanted to kiss him. Desperately.
To hell with Percy.
To hell with caution.
She leaned in, her lips trembling as she prepared to close the distance between them.
But at the last second, fear paralyzed her. Instead, she threw her arms around him, clinging as if he were the only thing keeping her tethered to the ground.
For a heartbeat, he didn’t move, his body rigid against hers. Then, gently but firmly, he pushed her away.
“Vera,” he said, his voice breaking ever so slightly, “Please don't.”
The words hit her like a hex, leaving her breathless.
She stared at him, her arms falling limply to her sides. His face was a mask of conflict, his stormy eyes clouded with emotions she couldn’t decipher. “Felix, I'm sorry. I was just—”
“I have to go,” he said, stepping back as though the space between them might lessen the weight of his words.
And then, before she could find the words to stop him, he was gone, vanishing as though he’d never been there.
The world around her blurred, and when she finally blinked, she found herself in the library, seated at a cold, empty table. She couldn’t recall how she’d gotten there, but the crushing weight in her chest told her it didn’t matter.
Her potions book lay open before her, the neat, slanted text swimming before her eyes. She tried to focus, tried to push past the ache in her chest, but it was no use. Felix’s face, his voice, the feel of his hands on her shoulders—they played on a loop in her mind, tormenting her.
Tears spilled over, hot and unrelenting, carving silent trails down her cheeks. She buried her face in her hands, her shoulders shaking as she gave in to the storm of emotions she’d been holding back for so long.
Grief, frustration, love, and longing swirled within her, suffocating and inescapable.
She cried for Felix, for the impossible chasm between them.
She cried for herself, for the weight of her family’s legacy, the suffocating reality of their debt, and the crushing loneliness that had haunted her for years.
She cried.
And cried.
And cried...
But then...
The library's silence was shattered as a shadow loomed over her table, and she quickly wiped at her tear-streaked face, barely managing to compose herself before she glanced up.
There, standing with his arms crossed and an infuriating smirk on his face, was Ryu.
Her stomach churned. Of all the people in Hogwarts, he was the last one she wanted to deal with right now.
"What the fuck do you want?" she snapped, her voice hoarse from crying. She didn’t care if Madam Pince overheard. At this moment, Ryu’s presence was the final straw in an already disastrous day.
He leaned casually against the edge of her table, his dark eyes glinting with something unreadable. "I want you, Vera." he said simply. "I want you to be my girlfriend."
Notes:
Chapter's song: Girl Afraid - The Smiths
Chapter 59: Where Is My Mind?
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Tuesday, September 17, 1991
"I want you to be my girlfriend,"
Vera sniffed, barely registering his words through her haze of tears. She blinked up at him, confusion knitting her brows. "W-what?"
"Are you deaf now?"
"Avery… what—why—what?" she stammered, still trying to process the absurdity of it all.
He met her gaze, unwavering. "I want you as my girlfriend, Vera."
This is a dream, she thought. It had to be. There was no way Ryu fucking Avery was saying this to her.
She wiped at her damp face, straightened her posture, and scoffed. "Are you taking the piss?"
"No."
She stared at him, waiting for the punchline, but his perfect, insufferable face remained unreadable. Her eyes flickered around the library, expecting the Poshlanders to pop out from behind the bookshelves, snickering at the elaborate joke. But the room was empty. Just them.
Her pulse pounded in her ears. The hottest, most arrogant boy in school was asking her to be his girlfriend. Her!
It should have felt triumphant. Satisfying. Like some ridiculous fairytale moment. Instead, rage bubbled in her chest.
"You're an absolute tosser, you know that?" she snapped.
His expression didn’t waver. "Huh?"
"First off, can't you see that I’m crying? Maybe ask if I’m okay first? Maybe wonder why?"
He blinked, as if just noticing. "Uh… sorry?"
"Second," she continued, voice rising, "you let your friends mock me all the time—you even laugh—and now you expect me to just… what? Forget all that because suddenly you want me?"
He shrugged. "That’s irrelevant."
"Irrele—? You complete and utter—" She exhaled sharply through her nose. "And third, what an awful way to ask someone out. Normal boys—decent boys—ask a girl on a date first. They bring flowers or chocolate. They don’t just… drop it like a bloody decree."
"I don’t care for formalities."
"No, you don’t care for basic human decency, you pompous twat. I don't really know what to say except fuck your audacity.”
“What's so wrong with what I said?”
“You're sick for thinking I could date someone like you, Avery!”
For the first time, something flickered across his face. A twitch in his jaw, and a tightening of his grip on the back of the chair.
Then, just as quickly, his smirk returned, sharp and smug. "In your dreams, Black."
She recoiled. "Excuse me? But you just asked me—"
"I don’t want you to actually be my girlfriend," he cut in, voice dripping with condescension. "Just pretend.”
The floor seemed to drop beneath her. "Pretend?"
"Act."
"I know what pretend means, you idiot."
"Then stop repeating it."
She could feel the heat rushing back to her face—not from flattery, but from the sheer, burning urge to slap him. Her hands curled into fists under the table as she looked back at her Potions notebook, ink smudged from earlier tears.
Stupid. Stupid. For even a second, she had believed—what? That someone like him would actually—?
She swallowed hard, forcing her voice to steady. "And why, exactly, would I do that?"
He exhaled, raking a hand through his perfect, annoyingly tousled hair. "It’s a long story."
"Try me."
He glanced away, as if debating whether to tell her, then leaned forward slightly. "My friends dared me to get a girlfriend by the end of the week. If I don’t, I get punished."
She blinked, then, very deliberately, shut her notebook. "A punishment," she repeated flatly.
"Yeah."
"Let me guess. They’ll take away your expensive hair products? Force you to wear last season’s robes? Oh no, the horror."
His smirk faltered. "It’s a little worse than that."
"Unless the punishment is public execution, I don’t see how this is my problem. Also, what kind of dare is that? Get a girlfriend? What’s next—drink a glass of water?"
"Because they know I'll never date a girl."
"Why, are you gay?"
He recoiled. "What the actual fuck? Of course not!"
"There’s nothing wrong with it, you know. It’s okay if you are."
"But I’m not!"
"Alright, alright, whatever you say."
"I’m not fucking gay, Black!"
"Blimey, don’t get so defensive. So if it’s not that, what’s the issue?"
His jaw ticked. "Because they know I don’t do relationships. I think they’re a waste of time, so they figured I’d never go through with it."
"So, instead of standing your ground like a normal person, you’re roping me into your circus act."
"It’s a bit more complicated than that."
She tilted her head, eyes gleaming with amusement. Ryu Avery—Hogwarts’ golden boy, the untouchable prince—was cornered.
And somehow, he needed her.
"Avery, why me?” she asked. “You could announce in the Great Hall that you need a girlfriend, and within five minutes, half the school would be forming a queue."
"You’re the best candidate."
She smirked. "Because I’m the prettiest?"
"No."
"Fuck you."
"Because you’re the most suited for me. It would be believable."
"Meaning?"
"Well, first, I want to date a pureblood, obviously."
"Fucking disgusting."
"And second, I’m noble. So my girlfriend should be too. And how many noble girls are at our school?"
She shrugged. "I don’t know."
"One. You."
"Brilliant. So, by process of elimination, I’m the lucky winner?"
"Exactly."
She scoffed. "We’ve been at each other’s throats since first year. It’ll never be believable."
"We’ll make it so."
"I’m trying very hard not to take offense to the fact that you’re choosing me solely for my bloodline, which is quite literally the naziest—I mean, nastiest—thing imaginable, but I’m also intrigued to hear your offer."
"Offer?"
"Yes, offer. Bribe. Incentive. Give me one good reason not to tell you to fuck off."
His smirk returned. "I couldn’t help but notice your absolutely tragic performance in every subject. So, I’ll help you study. You’ll pass every test, maybe even beat me."
"That’s your big pitch? Tutoring?"
"You need it."
Her eyes narrowed. "It’s weak, and I pass."
"Wait, what?"
"You heard me. Find some other poor idiot to play your little pretend love story." She grabbed her books and stood up. "Or better yet? Grow the fuck up."
"Vera, wait!"
She turned on her heel. “Goodbye!”
She stormed into her empty dorm, slamming the door behind her with enough force to rattle the hinges. Her chest heaved, though whether from anger or heartbreak, she couldn’t tell.
First, Felix had turned her down. Then Avery had the audacity to turn her into some sort of strategic move in his stupid little game.
Why couldn’t someone just fucking love her?
She wanted to scream, to cry, to let it all out—but her tears had long since dried, leaving only a hollow ache in their place. She threw herself onto the bed, grabbing her sketchbook and a pencil with trembling fingers.
But then, before she even realized, she was crying again.
Everything hurt. Her heart, her pride, the stupid, unbearable loneliness.
She wiped her face with the sleeve of her jumper and flipped through her sketchbook, searching for something—anything—to ground her. And then she found it.
Kaya.
The sketch she had made of her, full of warmth and light—the kind Vera had only ever imagined, never touched. She stared at it, tracing the lines with her fingertip, her mind spinning.
For a moment, the thought took root in her mind.
What if I just left?
She could disappear into the Muggle world. She could live with Kaya, start fresh, and leave this cursed place and everyone in it behind.
What was there to stay for, really?
She turned the sketch over, pressed her pencil to the paper, and began to write.
Dear Kaya,
I miss you so much it hurts. Everything feels so heavy here, like I’m drowning, and the only thing that keeps me from sinking completely is thinking of you. You’ve always been my safe place, my anchor when the world feels like too much. I wish you were here right now.
I hate this place sometimes. It’s beautiful, sure, but it doesn’t feel like home. Not the way St. Mary’s did. Not the way you do.
Thank you for being you. For always listening, for always making me laugh, for just… existing. I don’t know where I’d be without you, and I never want to find out.
You’ll probably laugh at me for being so dramatic, but I needed you to know how much you mean to me.
With love,
Vee
Thursday, September 19, 1991
The next morning, she woke up before the sun, her body heavy with exhaustion but her mind set on one thing.
She dressed quickly, slipping the folded letter into her pocket before creeping out of the dormitory. The castle was eerily quiet at this hour—no whispering students, no clattering footsteps, just the distant sound of the wind howling against the stone walls.
By the time she reached Hagrid’s hut, the sky was still a murky shade of blue, the first hints of dawn peeking over the horizon. She knocked softly, shivering in the crisp morning air.
After a few moments, heavy footsteps thudded inside, and the door creaked open to reveal Hagrid, his massive frame filling the doorway.
"Vera?" He grunted, rubbing his eyes. "Merlin’s beard, it’s barely mornin’—what’re yeh doin’ here?"
She held up the letter. “Thought maybe you could help me get it to the muggle post office.”
He studied her for a moment before giving a small nod, taking the letter with his large hands. "Alright, I’ll see to it. Come on in. I’ve just made tea.”
She stepped inside, the warmth of the hut immediately thawing her chilly cheeks. She sat at the table, accepting a mug of steaming tea as Fang rested his head on her lap.
Hagrid joined her, the chair creaking under his weight. “Yeh alright, Vera? Yeh look a bit down.”
She hesitated, staring into her tea. “Just... a lot on my mind.”
“Sometimes it helps ter talk about it. Not that I’m pryin’, o’course.”
She smiled faintly. She couldn’t tell him everything—not about Felix, not about Gringotts—but the weight on her chest felt unbearable. “It’s just... things feel impossible sometimes.”
He nodded, his beard twitching with a thoughtful hum. “I know that feelin’. Used ter think that meself, back when I got expelled. Thought I’d never amount ter much, yeh know? But Dumbledore—he gave me a chance. Believed in me when I didn’t believe in meself.”
She swiftly looked up at him, surprised. “You were expelled?”
“Long story. Point is, life ain’t always fair, but that don’t mean yeh stop tryin’.”
“What if... what if it’s not just me? What if someone else gets hurt because of me?”
“Then yeh do what yeh can ter protect ’em. But don’t forget—yer not responsible fer everythin’ that happens. People make their own choices, same as yeh do.”
She nodded, the lump in her throat loosening ever so slightly. Fang shifted at her feet, letting out a sleepy groan.
“Yeh know, Vera,” he continued, “life at Hogwarts can be tough, but yeh’ve got a spark in yeh, somethin’ special. Don’t let the nonsense from others snuff it out.”
She shrugged, setting her mug down. “It’s not just them, Mr. Hagrid. Sometimes it feels like... like the whole system is stacked against me, you know?”
“Aye, I understand that more than yeh think. Bein’ different, standin’ out—it ain’t easy. But that don’t mean yeh give up, does it?”
She looked away, biting her lip. “No, I guess not. But sometimes it feels pointless.”
“Pointless? Nah. Every little thing yeh do, every kind word, every effort, it matters. Yeh can’t fix the whole world, Vera, but yeh can make it better, bit by bit. Start small.”
“Like how?”
“For one, be kinder. Not just ter the people yeh care about, but ter everyone—even the ones who’ve been cruel ter yeh.”
She frowned. “You think being nice to people like Pucey or Warrington or even that bitc—uh, girl Eudora, is going to change anything?”
“It might,” he said with a shrug. “Maybe not fer them, but fer yeh. Carryin’ hate around—it’s heavy, young Vera. Too heavy. Kindness don’t cost yeh a thing, and it might just make yeh stronger.”
She mulled over his words, her fingers tracing the rim of her empty cup. “I guess you’ve got a point. Doesn’t mean it’s easy, though.”
“Nothin’ worth doin’ ever is. But yer clever, even if yeh don’t always show it, and yeh’ve got a good heart. Don’t waste that on grudges and pride.”
She smirked faintly. “Are you giving me a pep talk, Mr. Hagrid?”
He chuckled. “Yeh seem like yeh needed one.”
She sighed, leaning back. “Maybe I did. Thank you.”
“Anytime,” he said, his smile broad and genuine. “And if yeh ever need more advice—or just a place ter get away from it all—my door’s always open. Jus’ don’t forget: the world’s got enough hard hearts and cold souls. Be the difference, young Vera.”
She looked at him, a mix of gratitude and guilt swirling in her chest. “I’ll try,” she said softly.
“That’s all I ask,” he replied. Then he grinned, breaking the tension. “Now, how about givin’ Fang a scratch behind the ears before yeh go? He’s been waitin’ patient as a saint.”
She laughed and leaned down to oblige, feeling a little lighter with every passing moment. As she stroked Fang’s velvety ears, she realized that maybe—just maybe—she could take Hagrid’s advice and start with small changes, even if the bigger battles still loomed ahead.
“Mr. Hagrid,” she said after a moment. “Can you help me find something?”
The Great Hall was already buzzing with morning chatter by the time she strolled in.
She spotted the familiar faces at the Hufflepuff table—Sarah, Maddie, Cedric, and Tommy—all huddled together over plates stacked with toast and eggs.
“Morning, misfits,” she greeted, sliding onto the bench next to Sarah.
Maddie smirked. “Oh, so we’re misfits now? Because last week, you called us ‘Hogwarts’ only hope for decent hygiene.’”
“I stand by both statements,”
Cedric chuckled. “High praise. I’ll take it.”
Sarah, meanwhile, was still lost in her breakfast-induced daze, lazily twirling a spoon between her fingers. “Hey, Vera,” she mumbled.
Vera smirked. “I got you something.”
That caught Sarah’s attention, and she blinked up, intrigued. “You did?”
Vera proceeded to pull a small, slightly battered box from her bag and slid it across the table. The moment Sarah lifted the lid, her squeal practically shattered glass.
“Oh. My. Merlin!” She shrieked, startling the whole table.
“What? What is it?” Maddie asked, peering over curiously, only to recoil immediately. “OH SWEET MOTHER OF—”
“It’s a TARANTULA!” Sarah cried, vibrating with excitement. She carefully lifted the fuzzy, long-legged creature from the box, cradling it like a newborn baby. “Vera, you absolute angel, where did you find this gorgeous creature? Look at its LEGS! They’re so LONG!”
Vera grinned. “I figured you’d like it.”
“I think this is the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me,” Sarah declared, voice thick with emotion.
And then—to the shock of everyone at the table—she planted a loud, dramatic kiss on Vera’s cheek before scampering off with her new pet, already muttering about names and possible experimental charms to test on it.
Vera was absolutely frozen in place.
Tommy, wide-eyed, was the first to break the silence. “Did she just—?”
“She did,” Cedric confirmed, looking just as stunned.
Maddie stared at Vera like she’d sprouted another head. “Really, Vee?”
“What?” Vera replied, taking a casual sip of her tea. “Sarah deserves a gift, and you lot deserve to suffer. Two birds, one eight-legged stone.”
Cedric shook his head, still recovering. “That was both terrifying and incredibly sweet. I don’t know whether to be impressed or afraid.”
“Both,” Tommy deadpanned. “Always both with Vera.”
Vera smirked but didn’t say anything, instead letting the warmth settle in her chest. Then, she reached into her bag again and pulled out a neatly folded stack of parchment.
“Here,” she said, sliding it across the table to Cedric. “Potions notes. Everything you need for the next exam.”
Cedric blinked, then cautiously picked up the parchment. His eyes scanned the first few lines, and his expression shifted from confusion to awe. “Wait—this is… you wrote all of this?”
“Obviously,” she said, rolling her eyes.
His ears turned a deep shade of red in an instant. “This is… really thorough,” he said, flipping through the pages. “And you even wrote extra explanations in the margins.” His fingers traced over the careful, slanted handwriting. “You did this for me?”
“Don’t get weird about it,” she huffed, nudging his shoulder.
He let out a breathy laugh, still looking stunned. “This is—thank you, Vera. Seriously.”
She waved him off, but there was a slight smirk playing at her lips. Then she turned to Tommy, who had been watching the exchange with a raised eyebrow. Before he could say anything, she reached into her bag one last time and pulled out her Walkman, placing it in front of him.
He looked at it, then at her, puzzled. “What’s this?”
“A state-of-the-art muggle music player, obviously. It’s been fixed to work here,”
He picked it up gingerly, like she’d just handed him something sacred. “This is yours?”
“Yep. And all the tapes too. Just give it back when you’re bored with it. And Try not to break it, or I’ll bloody break you.”
He chuckled, shaking his head. “Bloody hell, Vera. You keep on impressing me,”
She huffed, grabbing a piece of toast. “Don’t get used to it, alright? I’m not turning into some sentimental sap.”
Cedric, still looking at his notes, was smiling to himself, while Tommy was already fiddling with the Walkman, excitement gleaming in his eyes. Maddie, however, was just silent.
Vera stood up, shrugging off her robes as the Great Hall’s warmth settled into her skin. But almost immediately, a strange, prickling sensation crawled up her back—the unmistakable feeling of being watched.
From the end of the Hufflepuff table, two older boys were whispering and giggling, their gazes fixed—not on her face, but lower.
A strange unease crawled up her spine. What were they—?
She glanced down at herself and nearly choked.
Her top button was gone, leaving her blouse gaped just enough to show her cleavage.
Panic surged through her, the overwhelming urge to either flee the Great Hall or vanish into thin air entirely. She yanked her robes back on, fingers fumbling with the fabric, heart hammering against her ribs. Stupid uniform. Stupid missing button. Stupid boys—
Before she could even decide whether to hex them or just punch them in the throat, a familiar shadow loomed over the table.
Professor McGonagall’s.
Tommy, ever the survivalist, reacted with lightning speed. With one swift motion, he yanked his Walkman off the table, stuffed it under his robes, and adopted the world’s most innocent expression.
McGonagall, thankfully, didn’t seem to notice. Instead, she fixed Vera with a look that could turn lesser students to stone.
“Miss Black,” she said, voice crisp and unreadable. “Walk with me.”
The entire table fell silent. Maddie, Cedric, and Tommy all exchanged wary glances.
“Uh… good luck,” Cedric murmured.
Vera muttered a nervous “See you,” before standing and following McGonagall out of the Great Hall.
Her heart pounded against her ribs as they walked in silence, her mind racing through every possible crime she might have committed recently. Had she accidentally started a fight she didn’t remember? Was this about Sarah’s tarantula?
McGonagall finally stopped outside an empty corridor, turning to face her. “Did you order a new uniform?” she asked.
Vera blinked, feeling the shame settle in her chest as she dropped her gaze to her shoes. “Not yet,” she admitted, her voice quiet.
McGonagall sighed, and when Vera hesitantly glanced up, she saw the sharp edges of the professor’s usual sternness had softened.
“I understand that these things can be… difficult.” she said, her voice lower now, as if trying not to embarrass her. “Until your new uniform arrives, I want you to collect a spare set from the storage room.”
Vera nodded, her throat tight. “Yes, Professor.”
“Ask prefect Weasley to help you.”
“… Right.” Vera swallowed. “Percy…”
McGonagall didn’t say anything else—just gave her a small, approving nod before walking off, leaving her standing there, feeling a strange mix of relief, embarrassment, and shame.
Later that day, she spotted Percy in the common room, sitting with Felix in their usual corner.
Felix had his nose buried in a book, while Percy, ever the watchdog, seemed to be scanning the room for potential rule-breakers.
She hesitated for only a second before walking over.
Felix didn’t glance up, didn’t acknowledge her, and that hurt more than she cared to admit. She knew why, of course—the common room was packed with students, and he couldn’t risk even a second of eye contact. But that didn’t make it sting any less.
The room buzzed with excitement, the air thick with cheers and chatter. Students crowded around, celebrating the news that Harry Potter had been announced as the new Seeker for the Gryffindor team. Someone had even magicked gold sparks into the air, and Oliver was grinning like Christmas had come early. It was all anyone could talk about.
And Felix? He just sat there, his eyes on his book, completely unreadable.
Percy, however, did look up. And oh, he did not look pleased.
“What?” he said, clipped and impatient.
She cleared her throat, forcing herself to sound casual. “I need a new uniform from the storage room. The one I ordered is uh, late. Professor McGonagall told me to ask you.”
He let out an exasperated sigh, closing his eyes as if she had just requested a personal tour of the entire castle. “I’m busy,” he said shortly.
She bit her lip, and was about to mutter something about asking someone else when Felix—without even looking up from his book—spoke.
“I’ll do it.”
Percy’s head snapped toward him so fast it was a miracle he didn’t get whiplash. “What?”
“I said I’ll do it,” Felix repeated, still not meeting Vera’s gaze.
“Bobbi—”
“Meet me near the Charms classroom in a bit.” Felix interrupted, finally lifting his eyes.
For a long moment, Percy just sat there, seething, before snapping his book shut with a little too much force.
“Fine,” he muttered, shoving the book into his bag. “Make sure to lock the room after you’re done.”
But as he stood, he leaned in close to Vera, voice dropping to a whisper. “And don’t forget what I said.”
And with that, he walked off, leaving her standing there, Felix still refusing to look at her, and a heaviness settling in her chest.
She made her way to the Charms corridor, her nerves tightening with every step. And when she finally reached it, she began rehearsing what to say—something casual but not too casual, something clever but not forced.
But of course, Felix was late.
Just as she was about to lean against the wall in defeat, a sharp pinch landed on her waist from behind.
She yelped, nearly jumping out of her skin.
Laughter rang behind her, rich and amused.
“You absolute arse—” But the moment she saw him, she faltered.
Felix was grinning, eyes bright with mischief, dimples deepening as he chuckled at her reaction.
And despite herself—despite the morning she’d had, despite the frustration of the past few days—she smiled.
“You nearly gave me a heart attack,” she quipped, still recovering from the shock.
He let out a low chuckle, stuffing his hands into his pockets. “You looked too serious. Thought I’d do you a favor.”
She rolled her eyes, but the warmth in her chest lingered. "Cheeky tosser."
They walked in silence for a few moments, their footsteps echoing softly against the cold stone floor. Vera kept glancing over her shoulder, half-expecting Percy to appear from the shadows like some prefect-shaped bogeyman.
"You’re acting like we’re sneaking into the Forbidden Forest," Felix muttered, side-eyeing her.
She huffed. "You never know who could be watching."
He only smirked, shaking his head.
A beat of silence passed before she spoke again. "Are you okay, by the way?"
He barely reacted. "What?"
"You know," she said carefully, watching his face. "That Harry Potter is the new Seeker."
He didn’t answer right away. His expression remained unreadable as he kept his gaze ahead. For a moment, she thought he was going to ignore the question entirely.
Then, finally, a faint smile tugged at his lips. "I’m just glad I don’t have to hear Wood whining about it anymore."
She searched his face, trying to gauge whether he was being honest or just pretending not to care. But if there was anything hidden beneath that smirk, he wasn’t letting her see it.
He slowed his steps slightly, glancing at her. “What did Percy whisper to you back at the common room?”
She stiffened for a moment, her fingers curling into the sleeves of her too-small robe.
“Are you hiding something from me?” His voice was quieter now, more serious. “Because whatever he said, it made you upset.”
She didn’t respond right away, keeping her gaze fixed on the stone floor as they walked. The truth sat heavy on her tongue, but she swallowed it down.
Finally, she forced herself to shrug. “No. He was only telling me to be careful.”
He didn’t look convinced. His sharp eyes lingered on her face as if he were trying to pull the real answer from her silence. But after a few seconds, he just exhaled and looked ahead again.
“Figures,” he muttered.
She forced out a small, dry chuckle, but her chest felt tight.
They soon reached the storage hall, a narrow, rarely visited corridor filled with old trunks, dusty shelves, and a few locked cabinets. Felix pulled out his wand and tapped the door handle.
The lock clicked, and the door creaked open, revealing a room lined with shelves stacked haphazardly with spare uniforms, extra cauldrons, and the occasional forgotten broomstick.
“Alright,” he said, stepping inside. “Let’s see if we can find something that makes you look… decent,”
She sighed, running a hand through her hair. “I wouldn’t need this if I wasn’t such a bloody disaster.”
He hummed in agreement, already rummaging through a pile of robes.
She narrowed her eyes. “You could at least disagree a little.”
“I could,” he said, holding up a particularly mangled set of robes with a raised brow. “But that would make me a liar.”
She rolled her eyes but didn’t bother hiding her smile.
Felix leaned against the shelf, arms crossed. “Why’s your uniform late, by the way?”
“I ordered a custom one,” she lied swiftly, surprising even herself.
He raised an eyebrow but didn’t press. “Of course you did.”
She exhaled, shifting a blouse in her arms. “You know, this whole thing is ridiculous. Why can’t I just use a charm to adjust my uniform? Make it a bit looser, fix the buttons—problem solved.”
“If that were possible, Madam Malkin would be out of business. That’s why those kinds of spells are taxed and regulated. If anyone could just charm their robes to fit perfectly, nobody would buy new ones. And if nobody buys new ones, businesses suffer. People lose jobs. The system collapses.”
She stayed quiet for a moment, absorbing his words. It made sense in a frustrating sort of way—but she could see how it worked now, why some people struggled more than others. Why there were poor families at all.
She huffed. “I still think it’s stupid. Essential charms should be free. People shouldn’t have to pay for things they need.”
He smirked. “Someone’s been reading Hugh Blackwood.”
“He’s right, though. People should pay for luxuries, not necessities.”
“You’re not wrong. These new taxes are making it harder for my family’s business. We can’t get raw materials like before.”
She blinked. Huh?
She had expected him to agree with her, to talk about how unfair it was for struggling families—but instead, he was thinking about his own.
She just nodded, adjusting the robes in her arms. “But how would the Ministry even know if someone used the charm?”
He let out a short, almost condescending laugh. “They know everything, silly. They track the sale of enchantments, monitor illegal charms, and regulate spell usage in all commercial shops. You think they’re just sitting around at the Ministry twiddling their thumbs?”
“Yes,” she said flatly, opening a dusty old box and rummaging through it. Her fingers brushed against something soft, and she pulled out a crisp white blouse. “This looks nice,” she mused.
Felix barely had a second to register what she meant before she started unbuttoning her shirt.
His entire body tensed, and he immediately turned away, his voice sharp. “Merlin! W-what are you doing?”
She glanced at him, puzzled. “Trying it on?”
“And do you always take your clothes off in front of boys you hardly know?”
The words hit like a slap, sharp and unexpected.
Her hands stilled on the buttons, her throat tightening. “You’re not a boy I hardly know…”
“Still,” he muttered, “you could have at least warned me.”
She swallowed, her hands falling to her sides. “I’m sorry.”
But he wasn’t looking at her. His jaw was clenched, his expression unreadable, and without another word, he turned on his heel and walked toward the door. “I’ll wait outside.”
She stood there, staring at the empty doorway, her chest aching. She had done something wrong, but she didn’t understand why it felt this bad.
After putting on the new uniform, she caught sight of an old mirror leaning against the wall, its surface speckled with dust and time. She hesitated before stepping closer, her reflection staring back at her in the dim light.
The blouse was stiff and slightly yellowed with age, the skirt a little too long, the whole uniform ill-fitting in a way that made her shoulders slump. She turned to the side, tugging at the fabric, willing it to sit better. It didn’t.
She swallowed the lump in her throat.
She wished for a new one, a decent one, something fresh and well-made that actually fit her. But wishing didn’t do anything, did it? She still looked like this. Cheap. Unkempt. Like trash, no matter how hard she tried.
Maybe that’s why Felix—or any boy, really—would never like her.
She clenched her fists, inhaling sharply, but the ache remained, deep and heavy.
And worse, she felt stupid.
She had spent all her money on cosmetics, desperate to look good, to feel better about herself. But none of it mattered. None of it changed the way she felt inside. She still looked at herself and saw less.
And above all that, she had nothing left—not even the illusion of security. Now, she owed the goblins money she didn’t even know how to get.
She imagined how much easier everything would be if she just had money—like Felix, Maddie, or even the Poshlanders. If she didn’t have to worry about things like uniforms or debts or looking like she didn’t belong.
She gave herself one last glance, steeling herself against the self-loathing creeping in. Then, with a deep breath and dry eyes, she turned away and walked out.
Felix was leaning against the wall outside, arms crossed. At the sound of her footsteps, he glanced up.
"I'm done," she said quietly.
He nodded, but the tension still lingered between them. He hadn’t entirely let go of his frustration, and that realization made her stomach twist. She wanted to apologize again—wanted to smooth things over—but the words refused to leave her mouth. Instead, she hesitated, shifting on her feet.
“Felix…”
His gaze flicked to her. “Yeah?”
She clenched her fists. Don’t do it. Don’t ask. Just let it go.
But she needed this.
She took a deep breath, forcing the words out before she lost her nerve. “Can you… can you lend me money.”
The change in his expression was immediate—his brows furrowing, his lips parting slightly in shock, and that reaction broke her more than anything else.
“What for?” he asked.
She forced herself to keep looking at him. "I-I just need it. But I’ll pay you back. Every sickle, I promise."
That didn’t help. If anything, it made things worse.
He exhaled and glanced down at his feet, his jaw tight. When he spoke, his voice was quieter. "I’m sorry. I can't."
She nodded stiffly, already regretting asking.
"If my family found out I gave you, out of all people, money, they’d—" He stopped himself, shaking his head. "The war between our families is about money, Vera. So you can understand how that would look."
She swallowed, her throat dry, but she wasn’t surprised.
Of course, he wouldn’t.
Of course, it would be like this.
She forced a small smile, one that didn’t quite reach her eyes. "I understand."
He hesitated again, then gave her a faint, almost apologetic smile before turning toward the door. He flicked his wand, locking it with a charm.
"Goodnight," he simply said.
And then he was gone.
She didn’t know how time passed.
One moment, she was standing in the corridor, watching Felix walk away, and the next, it was Sunday morning, and she was curled up in her dormitory, reading the letter from Gringotts over and over again.
Her fingers gripped the parchment tightly, her eyes scanning the words as if they would somehow change.
But they didn’t.
The warning, the debt, the cold formality of it all—it stayed the same.
She needed to think of something.
She needed a solution.
But no matter how much she tried, no matter how many ideas she entertained, they all crumbled under the weight of reality. She was cornered. Helpless. Utterly stuck.
Her head ached from thinking, from stressing, from feeling like she was being crushed by something she couldn’t fight. The helplessness turned to frustration, then to exhaustion, then back to helplessness.
With a shaky breath, she reached for a small scrap of parchment and, with slow, deliberate strokes, wrote down the amount she now owed Gringotts. Staring at the numbers made her stomach twist, but she folded the parchment and shoved it into her pocket anyway.
She needed to see it, to feel its weight—maybe then she’d find a way out.
Taking a deep breath, she shoved the letter back into her drawer, pulled on her shoes, and left the dormitory. She didn’t know where she was going—she just needed to move.
Her feet carried her through the castle, her mind distant, until she finally found herself in the library.
She almost turned back, but then, through the maze of shelves and students, she spotted Ryu sitting with Roger. The two of them were hunched over their books, working through their homework, their quills scratching against parchment.
She hesitated.
Then, before she could talk herself out of it, she took a deep breath and walked toward them.
Roger noticed her first, blinking up at her with mild curiosity. She gave him a faint, distracted smile before turning to Ryu.
“Can I have a word?”
Ryu immediately set his quill down, pushing his chair back. “Sure.”
He followed her behind a bookshelf, away from curious ears, and for a moment, she just stood there, staring at him, studying his face.
Then, finally, she forced the words out.
“I’ll do it.”
His brows furrowed slightly. “Do what?”
“I’ll be your girlfriend.”
The shift in his expression was instant. His eyes widened slightly, then lit up, as if he couldn’t believe what he was hearing. His lips parted, about to say something.
But before he could, she added, “Under one condition.”
His smile faltered, his expression cautious. “Yes?”
She met his gaze, steady and unflinching. “I don’t want tutoring, Avery.” she said. “I want money.”
Notes:
Chapter's song: Where is My Mind? - Pixies
Chapter 60: The Deal
Notes:
Dearest readers,
The upcoming chapters will take a slightly different turn—expect plenty of awkward, disgusting, and messy teenage moments.
Consider this your fair warning.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Part one: Swallow my pride
Sunday, September 22, 1991
"I want money."
Ryu blinked.
For the first time since she’d met him, he actually looked caught off guard.
“…Money?” he echoed, like the word itself was a foreign concept coming from her mouth.
“Yes, money, cash, gold, coinssss,” she hissed, wiggling her fingers.
“Why money? Don’t you get your allowance or something?”
She scoffed. “None of your bloody business, Avery.”
A long silence stretched between them. His dark eyes searched her face, like he was trying to figure out if this was some elaborate joke.
Eventually, he let out a soft, breathy laugh. “You’re serious.”
“That’s my condition,” she said, arms crossed. “If you want me to be your girlfriend, you have to give me money.”
“How much money are we talking about?”
She swallowed, then pulled out the crumpled parchment from her pocket. “Here.”
His brows shot up. “That’s it?”
Her stomach twisted. That’s it? That’s fucking it?
He spoke like the number on that parchment was pocket change. Meanwhile, it was enough to end her world.
She panicked for a moment but quickly gathered herself, straightening her shoulders.
This is an opportunity.
“Uh, no.” She cleared her throat. “That’s just the first installment. Second one after we’re done with the scheme.”
He hummed, studying her like a particularly interesting puzzle. “Black heir asking for money. That’s a new one.”
Her jaw clenched, but she held her ground.
“So let me get this straight,” he continued. “You rejected my offer before, but now you’ve changed your mind? And it just happens to be when you need money?”
She refused to squirm under his gaze, and met his eyes head-on. “Do you want me or not?”
His smirk faltered just slightly, and for a moment, he just stared at her. Then, with an exaggerated sigh, he rubbed his temple. “You’re really something else, you know that?”
She bit the inside of her cheek, staying silent.
Another beat of silence passed before he finally shrugged. “Fine. You’ve got it. But—” his eyes glinted mischievously, “—you have to really be my girlfriend. No half-arsing it. If I buy you, I want the whole thing.”
A chill ran down her spine, but she ignored it.
Could she do this?
Did she have a choice?
Her mind flashed back to the Gringotts letter sitting in her drawer. To the gnawing pit of anxiety in her stomach. To the crushing weight of helplessness pressing down on her chest.
She took a deep breath and nodded. “Okay.”
Ryu grinned. “Great. Then it’s a deal.”
“Not yet.”
His grin faltered. “Huh?”
She tilted her head, arms crossing as she smiled sweetly. “I have another condition.”
He let out a dramatic sigh. “What now?”
“I want to know what your punishment is.”
His expression shifted—from cocky to panicked in less than a second. “NO!”
"Alright, no deal then.”
“Wait—no, hang on—”
“What?”
“I can’t tell you, Vera.”
“Why not?”
“Because.”
“Because?”
His jaw clenched. “Because it’s embarrassing—and highly inappropriate to say in front of a girl.”
“Oh?” She grinned, leaning in. “Now I have to know.”
“Vera, seriously, no.”
She turned on her heel. “Okay, goodbye, then!”
“Wait! Alright, I’ll bloody tell you!”
She paused, spinning back around with a victorious smile. “I’m all ears.”
He took a deep breath, rubbing his hands together like he was about to confess a heinous crime. “They… uh…” He swallowed hard. “They want me to…”
She leaned in. “Yes?”
“…pleasure myself in class.”
Silence.
Dead, deafening silence.
Vera blinked. Once. Twice.
Then, before she could stop it—she burst out laughing.
She clutched her stomach, doubling over, barely able to breathe.
Ryu, on the other hand, looked like he wanted to die.
“Shut up,” he hissed, glancing around frantically. “Are you trying to get me banned from the library?”
But that only made her laugh harder.
“Merlin’s balls, Avery—” she gasped between wheezes. “That’s—that’s the most insane punishment I’ve ever heard.”
He groaned, dragging a hand down his face. “I told you it was embarrassing.”
“I thought you meant like, scrubbing cauldrons or writing lines—not—” She dissolved into another fit of laughter.
Ryu glared at her, arms crossed. “Glad to see my suffering is so entertaining for you.”
She wiped at her eyes, still grinning. “But seriously—how the hell did that even happen?”
“It was a stupid bet, okay? And I lost.”
“You better pay me well, Avery boy. Or I’ll tell the entire bloody school about it.”
He narrowed his eyes at her. “I hate you,” he muttered.
She reached out, patting his arm. “No, you don’t.”
He opened his mouth. Closed it. Opened it again.
Then, in a voice that sounded like his soul was leaving his body, he muttered, “I really, really hate you.”
She ignored him. “So, I get the first installment tomorrow?”
"I don’t carry that kind of money around.”
“Alright, then. Enjoy wanking your way to expulsion.”
“Wait!” he hissed. “I’ll have to ask my father for it.”
“So?”
“By next week,”
She tilted her head, pretending to consider it. “Fine. But I want a written contract.”
“What for?”
“To safeguard my interests.”
He let out a dry chuckle. “Merlin, you’re going places.”
“Well?”
“Okay, I’ll draft you one.”
“Good. We’ll get to the details later. Now—tell me, why wanking in class?”
His entire body tensed. “Get your voice down!”
She smirked. “Afraid someone will hear?”
“I’m not telling you,”
“I’ll add twenty percent to what I just asked.”
“What? That’s unfair!”
“It’s not like you don’t have the money, Avery.”
“Do you think my father just sends me gold without asking why? Besides, I really can’t tell you why they dared me to do it. They’re just… the way they are.”
She tapped her chin. “Hmmm… fair point. And how long are we keeping this charade up?”
“A month.”
“A MONTH?” Her voice spiked in outrage.
“We have to be convincing, especially to Miles. He doesn’t miss a thing.”
“I cannot tolerate you for a month, Avery.”
“You’ll get used to it. We’ll stage the breakup, I’ll pay the second installment, and you’ll never tell a soul. Deal?”
She exhaled loudly, dragging it out for dramatic effect. “Fine. You’ve got yourself a deal.” She extended her hand. “Spit on it?”
“Bury yourself.”
“I’d rather be buried with my paycheck.”
He rolled his eyes. “We’ll meet in the gardens this afternoon to go over logistics. And I’ll have your contract.”
“Make it fancy,” she said, spinning on her heel. “Now excuse me while I Obliviate myself for the disgusting things I’ve heard today. I can’t even begin to imagine you—”
“As if you’ve never thought about it before?”
She immediately slapped him across the face.
“Merlin’s sake!” He winced, rubbing his jaw. “I’m adding no physical assaults to the contract.”
“Don’t ever talk to me like that again.”
“Why not? I’m your boyfriend now.”
She visibly gagged. “I think I’m gonna throw up.”
“I was joking.”
“Joke like that again and I’ll slap the shit out of you. Besides, when did you become so—”
“Daring?”
“Vulgar.”
“It’s your presence, you know? Your vulgarity is contagious.”
She groaned and turned to leave. “I’m going now.”
“See you soon, girlfriend,” he called after her.
Without missing a beat, she flicked her wand, firing a hex at him, but hit a stack of books instead.
He grinned. “Missed!”
“Fuck you, Avery!”
“Likewise, Black!”
Later that day, she pulled on her signature black skirt and the deep purple sweater Andy and Mandy had knitted for her birthday. She didn’t bother brushing her hair—what was the point? She just dragged her fingers through it, then swiped on a bit of eyeliner.
That was it.
Nothing fancy. Nothing overdone. Because this wasn’t a date.
It was a deal.
The gardens were quiet, the afternoon sun casting long golden shadows over the neatly trimmed hedges. A slight breeze rustled the leaves, and Ryu stood beneath a towering sycamore tree, bathed in the dappled sunlight filtering through its branches.
He leaned against the trunk, effortlessly composed, his hands tucked into the pockets of his absurdly expensive-looking coat. His uniform was flawless—pressed white shirt, charcoal vest, tie knotted with ridiculous precision. Not a wrinkle, not a single stray thread. His black leather shoes gleamed as if he’d polished them minutes ago, and his hair, the infuriatingly perfect kind, fell just right, as if he hadn’t even tried.
She took a deep breath, already regretting every choice that had led her here, and walked towards him.
As soon as he spotted her, he straightened, slipping his hands into his pockets with practiced ease.
“The contract?” she asked without preamble.
He smirked. “Hello to you too.”
“Did you draft it?” she pressed.
He gave her a teasing look before pulling a neatly folded parchment from his bag, and she snatched it violently, her fingers twitching with irritation as she unfolded it.
Her eyes scanned the page, but she found herself distracted by his handwriting.
It was perfect. Elegant, controlled strokes, like something straight out of a Gringotts ledger. She felt a stab of envy but bit her lips and focused.
Some of the clauses stood out immediately:
Clause 3: Both parties agree to maintain a convincing level of public affection to ensure the believability of the arrangement.
Clause 7: Under no circumstances is Vera Black allowed to physically assault Ryujin Avery. (This includes, but is not limited to: slapping, hexing, or throwing heavy objects at his head.)
Clause 9: In the event of an early termination of the agreement, Vera Black shall refrain from setting Ryujin Avery’s possessions on fire out of spite.
“Well?” He asked, grinning. “Do you like it?”
“Aha,” she muttered, tossing the paper onto a nearby bench, then pulling a pencil from her pocket.
His eyebrows shot up. “A pencil?”
She ignored him and scrawled her name at the bottom. “Your turn,” she then said, pushing it toward him.
He gave a dramatic sigh, then waved his wand lazily over the parchment. His signature materialized in flawless cursive.
She hated how easy he made magic look.
Then, with another flick of his wand, he duplicated the contract, handing her a copy.
She stared at it, the weight of reality settling in her chest.
This is it.
This is the beginning.
She sat down on the bench, staring blankly at the ground. Thoughts swirled in her head, but none settled.
Ryu cleared his throat. “We need to talk about logistics. Starting with your appearance.”
Her head snapped up. “My what?”
“Your appearance. If you’re going to be my girlfriend, you need to look the part.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“I can’t be seen with you wearing that.” He gestured at her sweater in distaste.
She looked down at her purple sweater and felt something tighten in her chest.
“What’s wrong with it?” she asked, voice tense.
“It’s hideous.”
She inhaled sharply. “It was a gift from my friends.”
“Doesn’t mean it’s good.”
Her hand twitched. “Avery, I want to slap you so hard right now.”
“The contract,” he reminded her.
“Well, too bad. This is what I own. Deal with it.”
“I just want us to look perfect.”
“And I’m not perfect?”
He tilted his head. “You could be. With some work.”
“You get what you get, Avery.”
He smirked, then suddenly pulled out a small pouch and held it out to her.
She eyed it suspiciously. “What’s that?”
“I want you to order a new uniform. Immediately.”
“Excuse me?”
“Your current one is atrocious.”
She blinked. “Your audacity is astonishing.”
“I’m helping you.” He replied with a shrug.
She shoved the pouch back at him. “I don’t want your help.”
“You need it, though.”
“No, I don’t.”
“Then why did you agree to this?”
Her lips parted—but no response came. Her pride screamed at her to throw the pouch in his stupid, smug face, but the reality was… he wasn’t wrong. She did need a new uniform.
She groaned, then snatched the pouch from him. “Fine. But you’re deducting this from the second installment.”
“Fair enough.”
She crossed her arms. “Anything else?”
His gaze flickered to her legs—His eyes lingering for a second longer than necessary before meeting hers.
“Yes. Those tights go to the bin.”
She frowned. “Why?”
“They make you look like a darawitch.”
Her stomach twisted. The word sounded… familiar.
“A what?” she asked.
“You’re joking?”
“No, I’m not. What the hell is a darawitch?”
His eyes searched hers. Then, after a long pause, he exhaled. “Forget it.”
“No, tell me.”
“I don’t want to.”
“What the fuck is a darawitch, Avery?”
He inhaled sharply, then muttered under his breath, “You know, the women who stand at the pavements in Knockturn Alley?"
She blinked. “What women?”
“The ones who… work there.”
“I still don’t—”
“Oh, for Merlin’s sake, Vera—prostitutes.”
Her jaw clenched. Fury exploded inside her, and before she knew it, her hand flew toward his face, but he caught her wrist midair.
“The contract,” he reminded her smugly, though there was definite panic in his voice.
She wrenched her hand away. “You compared me to a prostitute—”
“I didn’t! I said those tights and short skirts make you look like—”
“Avery, I will hex you—”
“Wait! I’m sorry!”
She glared at him, arms crossed so tightly she could feel her nails digging into her skin.
“I crossed the line." he said, sincerely. "I shouldn’t have said that.”
"Damn right you did,"
"Look, I didn't mean it like that. I just meant that—ugh, never mind. Just… forget I said anything."
"Oh, sure. Let me just forget that you basically called me a streetwalker."
"That is not what I—okay, you know what? I’m an arse. Fine. But my point still stands—if we're gonna be convincing, you need to dress the part."
"And what exactly is the part?"
"You know… polished. Elegant. Like someone I’d actually date."
"You absolute prat—"
"Look, I already apologized! Can we just move on?"
She exhaled sharply, her fists clenched at her sides.
Think, Vera. You're doing this for the money.
"Fine," she finally grumbled. "But I’m still keeping my tights."
"Compromise—ditch the fishnets, and I won’t make you wear a bloody corset."
"Were you actually going to make me wear a corset?"
"...No?"
She let out an exasperated groan then flipped him right off.
"Careful, Black. That might be considered physical assault."
She sighed, running a hand through her messy hair. "Okay, so—new uniform, no more fishnets. What else? Are you gonna make me straighten my hair, too?"
"No, it's perfect."
She blinked. "What?"
"N-nothing!" He quickly said, fidgeting nervously. "I meant to say it's, uh, natural. And I like natural... Stuff..."
She squinted her eyes. "Rrrrrrright,"
"However, your face."
"Oh, here we fucking go. What’s wrong with my face?"
He gave her a slow, considering once-over. "It could use some work."
"Excuse you?"
"The eyeliner? Good. Makes your eyes stand out. I like it."
Her heart did a stupid, unnecessary flip.
"But your lips—"
She immediately licked them.
"See? That’s your problem, Black."
"What?"
"You keep biting them. Licking them. Drying them out. It's—distracting."
"Oh? Distracting you, am I?"
"Just use a bloody lip balm."
"I don’t have one."
Without hesitation, he reached into his coat pocket and pulled out a small silver tin, holding it out to her like a peace offering. "Here."
She stared at the tin, then at him, then back at the tin. "You carry lip balm around?" Her grin turned wicked. "That’s adorable, Avery."
"It’s practical. Unlike some people, I believe in self-care."
"Ah, yes. I forgot you were such a delicate little prince."
"Do you want soft lips or not?"
"Well," she held up her gloved hands, fingers wiggling, "I can’t use it."
He exhaled through his nose, exasperated, before flipping the tin open. "Fine. Come here."
Before she could protest, his fingers brushed against her chin, tilting it up slightly. She froze, her breath hitching.
He dipped his fingers into the balm, then—without hesitation—pressed them to her lips.
"Hold still," he muttered.
She should have been making fun of him. She should have had some snarky comment ready. But the second his thumb dragged across her bottom lip, the words fizzled out.
The world shrank down to the warmth of his touch, the careful way his thumb dragged along her lower lip, smoothing the balm over it.
She swallowed. Fuck.
Ryu seemed equally frozen, his breath a little uneven, his focus trained completely on her mouth. His fingers lingered for half a second too long.
Then, before she could stop herself—before reason could slap her upside the head—she bit his finger.
He flinched.
His breath hitched.
His whole body stiffened.
She grinned, pulling away. "Just taking the piss," she murmured.
He didn't laugh.
He didn't blink.
His hand hovered in midair, his face still inches from hers. His cheeks, usually pale and infuriatingly composed, were suddenly, undeniably pink.
She raised an eyebrow. "What’s the matter, Avery?"
He cleared his throat—once, twice—then immediately turned away, running a hand through his hair like it would somehow shake off whatever that was. "Nothing," he whispered.
She licked her lips, testing the balm. It was smooth, slightly sweet, but the flavor was oddly unfamiliar.
"I can’t tell what the flavor is," she mused.
He was still frozen, his ears slightly pink, but after a beat, he muttered, "Dragon fruit."
"off course.”
He cleared his throat again, gaze fixed stubbornly on the ground. "It was the only one they had."
She smirked. "Right."
Silence stretched between them. Ryu looked like he was trying very hard to pretend nothing had happened, while Vera was thoroughly enjoying his suffering.
After a moment, she leaned back on the bench, stretching her arms. "So, about your friends…""
What about them?"
"Are they really your friends?"
That got his attention. He finally looked at her, brow furrowed. "What kind of question is that?"
"The kind that makes you think. Because let’s be real, Avery—what kind of ‘friends’ dare you to wank in class?"
His mouth opened—then shut.
She continued, "I mean, were they expecting you to just—whip it out in the middle of Transfiguration?" She gestured dramatically. "Right there, between a cat and McGonagall?"
"Merlin, Black, lower your voice!"
"Oh, so you do have shame,"
"Of course I bloody do! Look, it was just— a joke."
"Would they have actually made you go through with it?"
He hesitated. That alone told her enough.
"That’s not friendship, Avery."
"It’s just how they are. We dare each other to do things all the time."
"Right, but there’s a line. And if your so-called friends are willing to humiliate you for a laugh, maybe they’re not really your friends."
He didn’t respond immediately. He just looked at her, as if he wasn’t sure whether to be annoyed or… something else.
Finally, he sighed and looked away. "It’s complicated."
"Seems pretty simple to me."
“Whatever,” he scoffed, stretching his arms behind his head. “Let’s talk language.”
"If you think I’m learning Japanese for you, you’re out of your bloody mind."
"No, you narcissist. I meant your language. You need to talk to me more… gently."
"Gently?" she repeated, unimpressed. "How?"
"For starters, stop calling me Avery. It’s too formal."
"Alright, Ruru."
His whole body recoiled. "Absolutely NOT!"
She grinned. "Ryushi?"
"That doesn’t even make sense."
"Ryusei?"
His expression soured. "That’s my father’s name."
"Wait, really?"
"You didn’t know?"
"Your dad’s also named Ryu?"
"Ryusei is different from Ryujin," he corrected, like this was a grave offense.
She shrugged. "Both mean dragon-something."
"How do you know that?"
"I looked it up."
"Good. You’ve done your homework."
She tapped her chin in thought. "Should I call you my dragon, then?"
He smirked. "If you want."
"Ew, I was joking!"
"It’s not a bad idea, though."
"You’ll catch me dead before I call you my dragon."
"Say it again."
"My dragon?"
He hummed, satisfied. "Merlin, that’s good."
"You’re disgusting."
"Ryu is fine," he said, ignoring her completely.
"Alright, but I’m calling you Ruru around your friends."
"I will bloody kill you."
"You wouldn’t dare. Besides, aren’t we supposed to be convincing?"
"And you think calling me Ruru is convincing?" He gave her a deadpan look. "They know I hate nicknames."
"What a shame. I love them."
“What do you want me to call you, then?"
"Ohhhh! Vee, Veve, Veroucha… Phie."
He frowned. "Phie?"
"My middle name, you tart. Sophie."
"Oh, like your—"
"My mum, yeah."
His expression softened for a moment. "That’s nice."
She shrugged. "You know what my name means?"
"Yeah. Faith. I’ve got Latin figured out."
"What would my name mean in Japanese?"
"Um, uh... Shinjin."
Her eyes widened. "I LOVE IT!"
"Wait, really?"
"Absolutely! You can call me Shinjin, then."
"Alright," he said slowly, "but only when we’re alone."
"Huh? What’s the point, then?"
He panicked. "Um, how come you’re not named after a star?"
"How come your face is triangular?"
"Ouch," he said, hand on his chest. "No need to be rude, I was just curious."
She sighed. "Because I’m a Rose."
"Half a Rose." He corrected.
She rolled her eyes. "I only meant, it’s tradition in the Rosier family—women name the daughters, men name the sons."
He tilted his head. "Do you ever wonder what your name would’ve been if your dad had named you?"
"Probably some fancy-ass name I can’t even spell."
“Yeah, I can see it. Something ridiculous, like… Delphinus Eridanus Black.”
“Ugh. I would’ve run away the moment I learned to walk.”
“Shame. I think it suits you.”
“Oh, piss off, Ruru.”
“Low blow, Black.”
“I specialize in low blows.”
He rolled his eyes but quickly recovered, resting his arm on the back of the bench. “Back to the topic at hand—if we’re going to sell this, we need to actually talk in public. You know, hold proper conversations. People need to see the chemistry.”
"You mean I actually have to enjoy your company?”
“Fake it till you make it, darling.”
She sighed. “I’m about to throw up,”
“And we have to get to know each other better. I can’t risk my friends asking you a question you don’t know the answer to.”
“I already know your favorite color and food.”
“That barely counts.”
“A fish soup your Nan makes. And Black.”
“Correct.”
“Pretentious fuck.”
“What does that mean?”
“It means you think saying black makes you look passionate and dangerous when really, you’re just basic.”
“You’re awfully judgmental for someone whose favorite color is purple.”
“What’s wrong with purple?”
“I’m just saying, if you’re going to make fun of me, at least pick a color that doesn’t scream I read poetry and cry at sunsets.”
She scoffed. “I do not cry at sunsets.”
“Sure, Shinjin. Sure. Alright, next question. When’s your birthday?”
She narrowed her eyes. “Why?”
“So I can plan your extravagant gift, obviously.”
She snorted. “Yeah, right.”
“What, you don’t want a signed portrait of me?”
“I’d rather frame my own death certificate.”
“Just answer the bloody question.”
She sighed. “August 23rd.”
"That makes you a… what, Virgo?”
“Anything wrong with Virgos?”
“Perfectionists, overly critical, and emotionally repressed.”
"You’ve just personally attacked me three times in a row.”
“I’m efficient like that.”
She huffed. “And you?”
“January 8th.”
“Capricorn.” She smirked. “That explains a lot.”
“Does it?”
“Yeah. Ambitious, stubborn, and think you’re better than everyone.”
He placed a hand on his chest. “I am better than everyone.”
“I walked right into that one, didn't I?”
He grinned. “See? You are overly critical.”
She shot him a look. “Middle name?”
“Don’t have any.”
“Huh?”
“What?”
“Everyone has a middle name, stupid!”
“We follow Japanese traditions, git.”
“Oh.”
“Sorry to disappoint.”
“I’ll get over it.”
"Okay, do you have a governess?"
He snorted. "What am I, five?"
She rolled her eyes. "Okay did you have a governess?"
"Nope. Mum had it all under control."
"That's sorta sweet, Avery."
"What about you?"
"Um, uh... Kinda,"
"Define kinda, Miss Black."
She hesitated. "Well, I have people who take care of me, but not necessarily governess-like."
"Oh, I see."
There was a brief silence before he cleared his throat. “Alright, next question—where do you live?”
She stiffened.
He noticed immediately. “Relax, I’m not asking for your address, just general location.”
“I… I can’t tell you.”
"Why not?”
She shrugged, trying to seem nonchalant. “Just can’t.”
He studied her for a moment. “Is it in Paris?”
She stayed silent.
“Marseille?”
Still nothing.
His lips curled slightly. “Lysv—”
“Drop it, Avery!”
He hummed. “Fine. For now.”
She exhaled. “Your family. Tell me about them.”
“Three aunts on my dad’s side, one uncle. None on my mum’s.”
“That’s it?”
“That’s it.”
“Any cousins?”
“Nope.”
"Alright, what’s something you suck at?"
He tilted his head, pretending to think. "Hmm… nothing comes to mind."
"Typical."
"Alright, fine. I’m bad at…" He hesitated, then muttered, "divination."
She snorted. "Obviously. You’re the least spiritual person I know."
"Yeah, well, I don't need tea leaves to tell me you're going to be a pain in my arse every day."
"That's called intuition, Avery."
"Or cursed fate,"
"Biggest fear?"
"What are we, in a trust exercise?"
"Answer the question, Ruru."
His nose scrunched slightly at the use of the name. "Fine. Losing control."
She blinked, surprised by the sudden sincerity. "What do you mean?"
He looked at her for a long moment before shaking his head. "Never mind. Your turn."
"Oblivion."
"Oblivion?"
"Being forgotten. Like I never existed in the first place. I just don’t wanna… leave the world without having changed anything in it."
"That won’t happen."
She gave him a skeptical look. "How do you know?"
"History books will remember you as my girlfriend."
"And I'm the narcissist?" She huffed. "Whatever, favorite childhood memory?"
"Feeding my dragon."
"Oh, please," she scoffed. "So bloody typical. What’s its name, then?"
His jaw tightened. "Drop it."
"Why?"
"Because I said so."
Her curiosity burned, but she could tell pushing wouldn’t get her anywhere. "I will find out eventually."
He smirked. "Good luck with that, Shinjin."
"Alright, weirdo, let's go over the next part of the plan."
"Good idea, girlfriend." He leaned back. "First order of business—you’re sitting with me at the Slytherin table for breakfast tomorrow."
Her entire face scrunched up in disgust. "Excuse me?"
"You heard me."
"I was already suffering and you just had to make it worse."
"It’ll be fun."
"It’ll be a nightmare."
"You’ll survive."
"You say that as if you would ever sit at the Gryffindor table and endure my friends.”
"Never. But I would pay good money to see their faces when you waltz over and sit next to me like it’s the most natural thing in the world."
She huffed. "Fine. But if any of your slimy little friends breathe in my direction the wrong way, I will retaliate."
"No fighting." He pointed a finger at her. "You have to last the entire breakfast without hexing, cursing, slapping, or verbally assaulting anyone."
Her eye twitched. "You’re setting me up for failure."
"I have faith in you, Shinjin."
"You’re so lucky I like that nickname."
He chuckled. "So we agree—you’ll sit with me, act semi-pleasant, and somehow endure my friends without causing an incident."
"Fine," she grumbled. "Then what?"
"Then," he said, "we convince them. Especially Miles."
"Why especially him?"
“He was the one who dared me in the first place. And because if we get him to believe it, the rest will follow."
She groaned, already regretting everything. "Great. Just fantastic."
"That’s the spirit."
She shot him a glare. "And after that?"
"We sit together in class,"
"You mean, like… next to each other?"
"That is what sitting together usually entails, yes."
"Merlin."
"Look, Black," he said, tilting his head at her. "If we’re gonna do this, we’re gonna do it properly."
She sighed, rubbing her face. "Fine."
"Say it with a little more enthusiasm, why don’t you?"
"Fine, ruru," she said in the most disgustingly sweet voice she could muster.
His smirk faltered for half a second before he covered it with an eye roll. "If you ever call me that in public, I’m ending this deal immediately."
"Oh, so I do have an escape route?"
He sighed. "Just be ready tomorrow. And don’t forget the new uniform!"
"I said I’d order it, didn’t I?"
"Just making sure."
She rolled her eyes and stood up. "If you’re done nitpicking my entire existence, I’m leaving."
"Go on then," he said, leaning back lazily. "But be on time tomorrow."
"You wish you had that kind of control over me."
"I do now, don’t I?"
She shot him a glare before turning on her heel and walking away. As she made her way back to the castle, her mind buzzed with everything that had just happened. She was really doing this. Tomorrow morning, she’d be sitting at the Slytherin table.
With him.
With them.
She exhaled sharply, her fingers twitching at her sides. God help me.
Monday, September 23, 1991
The next morning, she woke up to find a neatly wrapped package sitting on her nightstand.
She sat up groggily, rubbing her eyes before reaching for it. Tearing the paper open, she found her new uniform inside—crisp, perfectly pressed, and undoubtedly expensive.
She ran her fingers over the fabric, hating how nice it felt.
It fit perfectly—except for the skirt, which was longer than she preferred. She tugged it higher, adjusting it to her liking, then pulled on black knee-high socks and her trusty Converse—those were non-negotiable. A few quick strokes with her enchanted hairbrush left her curls perfectly in place. A swipe of eyeliner, and—after a moment of begrudging hesitation—she applied the ridiculous lip balm he had given her.
Stepping back to check her reflection, she couldn't help but smirk just a little.
The Great Hall was already buzzing with the morning crowd, students piling into their respective house tables. But she barely paid them any attention.
Because standing just outside the entrance, leaning casually against the doorframe, was Ryu.
His uniform was, as expected, absolutely flawless—tie perfectly knotted, robes hanging just right. He looked as if he’d stepped straight out of some pretentious pureblood fashion catalog. Prick.
As she approached, he pushed off the wall, his eyes sweeping over her. “Well, look at that,” he mused. “You almost look decent.”
“Shove it, Avery,”
“Nervous?”
“Of your lot? Please.”
He hummed, unconvinced, then extended his hand toward her. “Here.”
She stared at it. “What?”
“Our big, romantic entrance,” he said dryly. “You do want to be convincing, don’t you?”
She clenched her jaw, her pride screaming at her to hex him. But then she thought of the deal. The contract. The money.
Swallow your pride, Vera.
With great reluctance, she reached out and took his hand.
His fingers curled around hers, his grip warm and surprisingly firm. He gave her hand a slight squeeze before looking down at her. “Ready?”
She swallowed, forcing down whatever ridiculous feeling had just shot through her chest, and nodded.
With that, he pushed open the doors, and together, hand in hand, they stepped inside.
Part two: Enjoy the silence
Monday, September 23, 1991
The moment Vera and Ryu stepped inside, the Great Hall began to shift.
It started as a whisper—a single, barely-there murmur that slithered between the tables, catching like dry leaves in the wind. Then it grew.
Hushed voices merged into a low hum, a chain reaction of shock and disbelief spreading across the room. Heads snapped toward them. Elbows jabbed into ribs. Someone knocked over a goblet, the sharp clang of metal against stone cutting through the noise.
And then, like wildfire, it erupted.
Vera felt the weight of every stare bearing down on them as they walked, hand in hand, toward the Slytherin table.
Ryu, of course, looked unbothered. He walked with that same effortless confidence, his fingers steady around hers. At one point, he gave her hand a reassuring squeeze.
But it only made things worse.
Her eyes swiftly darted toward the Gryffindor table.
Kenny had frozen mid-bite, his jaw practically unhinged, the half-chewed contents of his sandwich forgotten. Beside him, Katie’s brows shot up so high they nearly disappeared into her bangs, her spoon hovering inches above her porridge. Percy simply adjusted his glasses—but the tightening around his mouth gave him away, while Penelope beside him muttered something under her breath, shaking her head. Vera swiftly glanced around for Felix, but thankfully, he wasn't there.
Then, the Hufflepuff table.
Cedric’s frown was small but deep, confusion tugging at his features like he was trying to piece together a puzzle that didn’t make sense. Tommy blinked, his spoon slipping from his fingers and landing with a soft plop into his cereal. Malika let out an audible huff and crossed her arms, while Patty leaned in close, whispering something behind her hand, eyes wide with intrigue.
And Sarah…
Sarah looked disappointed. Like she’d expected better. Like Vera had let her down in some quiet, unspoken way.
But none of that compared to Maddie.
Maddie was furious.
Her jaw was clenched so tightly Vera thought she might shatter her own teeth. Her fingers curled around her utensils with a grip so tense her knuckles had turned bone-white.
Vera’s pulse hammered against her ribs, her skin prickling under the weight of their judgment, their confusion. Their disappointment.
And it hurt.
It hurt more than it should. More than she had prepared for.
She could already hear the questions forming in their minds, the speculations. But they couldn’t know the truth. Not after the scheme. Not ever.
If they knew she’d done this for money, they’d pity her. And if she let them believe it was real… they’d never forgive her.
Her throat burned, but she forced herself to keep walking, to stare straight ahead as if none of it mattered.
Breathe. Just breathe.
This was just a deal.
A transaction.
Nothing more.
And yet—
Her fingers tightened around Ryu’s hand before she could stop herself.
He shot her a quick glance. “Are you okay?”
She nodded, even though she felt anything but.
The Slytherin table loomed ahead, a sea of green and silver, where Eudora sat comfortably beside Adrian. Next to them, Miles and Jane were deep in quiet conversation, while Cassius lounged alone on the other end, his usual detached expression giving nothing away.
Their approach barely registered at first. But then—
Cassius’ gaze lifted, and his shock was evident.
Vera reacted on instinct.
She quickly let go of Ryu’s hand and stepped behind him.
Miles, Jane, Adrian, and Eudora turned their heads in perfect synchronization, and Miles was the first to speak.
“Alright there, mate? Hope you’re ready. We decided you should do it in Charms—really honor Ravenclaw’s legacy.”
Ryu exhaled. “No need. I’ve won the bet.”
Miles smirked. “Is that so?”
Adrian raised an eyebrow. “And where’s the lucky lady?”
With a deliberate, almost lazy motion, Ryu stepped aside, revealing Vera.
The silence stretched, thick and heavy.
Then—
Laughter.
Adrian nearly choked on his pumpkin juice. Miles slapped the table, doubling over, while Eudora leaned into her boyfriend's shoulder, shaking with mirth. Even Jane—quiet, composed Jane—let out a soft snort before returning her attention to her plate.
But Cassius… Cassius was simply angry.
“Oh, this is rich,” Adrian gasped between breaths. “Mate, this commitment to the bit is truly admirable.”
“There’s no bloody way,” Miles choked out, wiping his eyes as he turned his gaze to Vera. “Full offense, Black.”
Vera clenched her teeth so hard her jaw ached. Heat crawled up her spine, her fingers twitching with the urge to reach for her wand.
However, she straightened her spine, squared her shoulders, and lifted her chin. Then, without hesitation, she reached for Ryu’s hand again. Her grip was firm, deliberate, and for good measure, she placed her other hand on his arm, fingers splayed as if she belonged there.
Ryu tensed beside her, caught off guard—but he didn’t pull away.
“It’s true,” she said, her voice smooth. “I’m his girlfriend.”
The laughter didn’t die down so much as shift. It was no longer amusement at Ryu’s so-called joke—it was skepticism.
Cassius, who had been silent up until now, simply leaned back in his seat, his sharp green eyes settling on her. Calculating. Assessing. Studying her like she was an unsolvable riddle.
She met his stare, refusing to flinch.
Ryu pulled her down to sit beside him at the table, positioning himself between her and Cassius.
Across from them, Miles leaned forward, elbows resting on the table, his head tilted as he openly scrutinized her.
“Alright,” he said. “Let’s say—hypothetically—this isn’t some elaborate joke. How in merlin’s name did this happen?”
Vera’s fingers twitched against Ryu’s sleeve, but she forced herself to smile. “What can I say? He’s persistent.”
“Persistent?” Miles echoed.
Ryu, to his credit, didn’t even blink. “Can’t resist a challenge.”
“Right,” Adrian drawled, clearly unconvinced. “And how long has this fairy tale romance been going on?”
Vera opened her mouth to answer, but—
“A while,” Ryu said smoothly.
A while? Oh, great. Fantastic. Now they had to come up with an entire fake history.
Miles narrowed his eyes. “That’s funny, because we’ve never seen you two together.”
“We’re discreet,” Ryu replied, so effortlessly that Vera almost believed it herself.
Adrian let out another bark of laughter. “Oh, come on—you expect us to believe that you, of all people, have been sneaking around Hogwarts in a secret relationship?”
“Yes,” Ryu said simply.
Adrian turned to Vera. “And you?”
She shrugged. “Believe what you want, Pucey.”
“Oh, save it, Black.” Miles waved a dismissive hand. “If you two are really dating, then prove it.”
"What, do you want a framed certificate?”
“Nah. A snog will do.”
The entire table seemed to go still.
Cassius exhaled sharply through his nose and went back to eating, clearly unimpressed. Adrian and Eudora exchanged knowing glances, while Jane finally looked up from her plate.
Vera’s stomach flipped.
She turned to Ryu, only to find him already looking at her.
His expression remained neutral, but there was something calculating in his gaze, something sharp.
A kiss? In front of everyone?
Her heart pounded against her ribs. But backing down wasn’t an option. Not unless she wanted them to doubt everything. And if they doubted the relationship, they’d press harder. Keep testing. Keep pushing until they found the cracks.
Ryu knew it too. She could see it in the way his jaw clenched, in the way he shifted ever so slightly closer.
He was going to do it.
Oh, fuck.
For a moment, silence blanketed the table. Then she straightened, squared her shoulders, and tilted her chin up. If they wanted a show, she’d give them one—but on her terms.
"Alright," she said, addressing Miles. "I'll do it. But first, you kiss Jane."
The reaction was immediate.
Adrian choked on his drink, while Eudora’s eyebrows shot up. Even Cassius, who had been bored out of his mind, actually looked mildly intrigued.
Jane’s fork slipped from her fingers, clattering onto her plate, while Miles just stared at Vera, his smirk faltering for the first time that morning.
"What?" He finally said.
"You heard me, Bletchley." She replied. "You and Jane have been betrothed for a year now, and yet no one’s ever seen you kissing her. In fact, the only form of affection you’ve ever shown her is dragging her around like a lost puppy. So go on then—if you’re so keen on proofs of affection, set the example.”
Miles’ jaw tightened. His fingers curled around his goblet as if he wanted to crush it. Across from her, Jane looked positively mortified, her face pale, her hands clenched in her lap.
For a long, tense moment, no one spoke.
Then Miles let out a slow breath, forcing a grin that didn’t quite reach his eyes. He turned to Jane, and grabbed her hand just a little too tightly. "Jane doesn’t like public displays."
Vera smirked. "Well, neither do I."
And with that, she snatched up a piece of toast and bit into it, thoroughly unbothered.
For a moment, there was nothing but stunned silence. Then, just barely, Ryu exhaled a short laugh, shaking his head as he reached for his own breakfast. He didn’t say anything, but she caught the way the corner of his mouth curled up in approval.
Cassius, predictably, rolled his eyes and returned to his food.
Miles, though—Miles just sat there, lips pressed into a thin line, his pride clearly wounded.
Vera smirked to herself.
Checkmate.
Adrian then let out a low chuckle, draping an arm around Eudora like a smug prince claiming his throne. “Good thing my lady adores public displays,” he announced grandly—then, before anyone could process the horror about to unfold, he swept her into a deep, theatrical kiss.
Vera's brain short-circuited.
She should look away. She needed to look away. And yet, somehow, she was just staring. Next to her, Ryu was also staring, but—for some inexplicable reason—at her.
Cassius made a noise of pure suffering. "Can you not? Some of us are trying to eat."
Adrian, completely undeterred, flipped him off without so much as a pause, still dramatically entangled with Eudora, who giggled against his lips like this was all part of some well-rehearsed routine.
Miles and Jane sat frozen, radiating the energy of two people who desperately wished they could evaporate on the spot.
Vera, her face now positively burning, yanked her gaze away and fixated very intently on the nearest goblet of pumpkin juice as if it held the secrets of the universe.
The usual clinking of silverware and low hum of conversation gradually resumed around the hall, but she knew better.
Everyone was absolutely still watching.
She stole another glance around. Whispers trailed through the air like smoke, curling around her, suffocating. Her friends still looked stunned, their expressions frozen somewhere between disbelief and betrayal.
Kenny, wide-eyed, waved a hand at her from the Gryffindor table, silently mouthing, What’s going on?
Her chest tightened, and she quickly averted her gaze, pretending she hadn’t seen him. But the pit in her stomach only deepened, twisting painfully.
Her eyes flicked toward the Slytherin table beside her. Among the many faces turned toward her, one stood out.
Draco Malfoy.
She had never been this close to him before, and she could feel her pulse hammering in her ears as the thought struck her like a curse: How long before this ticking bomb explodes? How long before he tells everyone the truth?
He was still watching her, his expression unreadable. Then, slowly, his lips curled into a delicate smile.
A chill ran down her spine.
Was that a threat? A taunt? A warning?
Swallowing down the unease rising in her throat, she turned her attention back to her plate, willing herself to eat, to act normal, to play the part.
Around her, the Poshlanders moved with practiced elegance—Adrian slicing his eggs with precise movements, Eudora dabbing the corner of her mouth with a napkin, even Miles, still brooding, carefully cutting his bread instead of just biting into it. She glanced at Ryu. He had just spread a napkin over his lap, completely at ease as he buttered his toast with smooth, effortless strokes.
Everything about the way they carried themselves spoke of breeding, of years of etiquette drilled into them without a second thought.
Suddenly, she felt out of place in a way she hadn’t expected.
She shifted in her seat, straightening her back, then dropped her toast onto her plate and, as casually as she could, picked up a knife and fork. The movements were awkward at first—her hands weren’t used to handling bread like this—but she forced herself to keep going, mimicking their movements as best as she could.
No one seemed to notice.
At least, that’s what she thought—until she caught Cassius watching her, one brow slightly raised.
Her grip tightened on the knife, and she shot him a pointed look, daring him to say something.
He didn’t. He just smirked and returned to his meal.
“So, Vera,” Eudora suddenly said.“Qu'est-ce que tu aimes le plus chez Ryu?”
Vera froze mid-chew.
The language felt like an echo from a past she wasn’t supposed to remember, a ghost brushing against the edges of her carefully constructed walls.
But she didn’t answer.
Eudora’s smirk deepened at her silence, but before she could press further, Adrian groaned and shot her an exasperated look.
“Merlin’s sake, Dora," he said. "Why the sudden French? No one understands you.”
Eudora scoffed and muttered something that was definitely an insult under her breath before rolling her eyes. “Vera understands.”
However, Vera didn’t respond. She wasn’t sure how to respond.
Instead, she swallowed her food with difficulty and, hesitantly, lifted her gaze.
“Alors?” Eudora prompted.
Silence.
Ryu looked at Vera expectantly, so did everyone else.
She slowly turned to him, meeting his gaze head-on. His dark eyes held something unreadable, something assessing, like he was curious to see how she’d handle this.
She needed to say something convincing.
Her throat felt tight as she finally murmured, “I like his eyes. Mostly.”
There was a beat of silence—then, to her relief, a flicker of approval crossed their faces.
Then, before she could stop herself, she added, “And his smile.”
Ryu’s head turned slightly toward her, his expression shifting—surprised, but only for a fleeting second before it disappeared behind his usual cool demeanor.
Eudora sighed dreamily. “C’est romantique.”
Then, she turned to Ryu and asked, “Et toi? Qu'est-ce que tu aimes le plus chez Vera?”
He blinked, clearly lost.
Vera sighed, then turned to him. “She wants to know what you like most about me.”
The entire table was watching him now, waiting.
He opened his mouth to speak, but before he could, the Great Hall's door slammed open. The room flooded with the unmistakable energy of the Gryffindor Quidditch team, fresh from morning practice.
"I'm telling you, Wood's going to keel over before we even play a match," Fred announced, dropping onto the bench with an exaggerated sigh.
"Not before McGonagall does," George added.
"Still can't believe it," Alicia said, nudging Harry, who was looking slightly overwhelmed by all the attention. "Youngest Seeker in a century!"
But Vera wasn’t paying attention to any of it.
Her gaze had caught on Kenny, who was leaning over the Gryffindor table, excitement practically radiating off him as he whispered something.
It only took a second for their faces to shift.
Oliver’s jaw dropped. Alicia’s eyebrows shot up. Fred and George exchanged looks of utter disbelief.
Angelina, though, wasn’t just surprised—she looked livid.
Her arms were crossed, her expression dark, and the moment their eyes met, Vera felt her heart break. She could already hear the incoming interrogation, the questions, the disbelief, the anger.
She dropped her gaze to her plate, willing herself to disappear.
Ryu noticed.
His gaze flicked from the Gryffindors to her, taking in the tension. He didn’t ask. He didn’t pry. Instead, after a beat, he leaned in and murmured, "Want to get out of here?"
She exhaled, a quiet relief washing over her, and nodded.
Without another word, he stood, and she followed.
The moment they stepped outside, she pulled her hand from his, then started walking toward the greenhouse where their Herbology class was held. Ryu didn’t say anything either, but she could hear his footsteps beside her, steady and unhurried.
The silence between them was heavy—not uncomfortable, but charged. It was the kind of silence that made Vera’s mind race, filled with thoughts she didn’t want to entertain.
She kept her eyes ahead, trying to focus on the path, on the damp earth beneath her shoes, on the smell of leaves and morning air.
The greenhouse loomed ahead, the scent of soil and fresh herbs filling the air. Vera stepped inside without a word, heading straight for the equipment shelves. She pulled a protective apron, adjusting it mechanically, then grabbed a pair of goggles and slipped them over her head.
Moving to the farthest stool in the room, she sat down, resting her elbows on the worktable. She exhaled, pressing her fingers against her temples, trying to drown out the lingering tension from breakfast.
She then pulled out her sketchbook, flipping past half-finished drawings and rough outlines. She let her pencil hover over the page, waiting for inspiration that wouldn’t come. Anything to distract herself. Anything to stop thinking.
A moment later, Ryu sat beside her.
He didn’t speak. Didn’t look at her. Just sat there, his presence steady and unintrusive.
"You did great at breakfast," he said after a while.
She didn’t look up, and just nodded.
The door creaked open again, and soon the greenhouse filled with the usual shuffle of students, the scraping of stools against the floor, and the low murmurs of morning complaints.
The Poshlanders slid into seats nearby, their voices grating but not unexpected. Vera kept her head down, focusing on the lines of her sketch, pretending they didn’t exist.
But she felt her friends watching her.
Every now and then, she’d glance up, only to find another pair of eyes darting away—Angelina’s sharp gaze, Fred’s furrowed brow, Alicia’s tight-lipped frown. Even Cedric kept looking at her like he was trying to piece something together.
It made her skin crawl.
The moment Professor Sprout dismissed them, she didn’t waste a second. She shoved her sketchbook into her bag, yanked off her protective gear, and was out of the greenhouse before anyone else had even stood up.
Ryu followed.
He had been silent the whole class, working beside her without a word, but she knew he wouldn’t just leave her alone now. His footsteps were steady behind her as she walked through the twisting garden paths, her pace quick and purposeful.
Then, suddenly, his hand closed around her wrist.
She stopped.
"Are you going to sulk all day?" his voice cut through the tense silence like a blade.
She turned sharply, eyes flashing. "Sulk?"
"That’s what this is, isn’t it?"
"No, it’s not."
"Then what is it?"
She yanked her hand free from his grasp. "I can’t keep doing this, Avery."
"What? Why?"
"You saw how they were looking at me!"
"And what of it?"
"What do you mean, what of it? I’m betraying them for fuck's sake."
“So you lectured me about how my friends aren’t real friends, but you’ve ignored your own advice, haven’t you?"
"What’s that supposed to mean?"
"If they were truly your friends, they would respect your choice to be with whoever you want."
"It’s not that simple."
"Oh, really?"
"Avery..." She said, her voice breaking slightly. "We’ve shared classrooms for years, and you’ve never once acknowledged them. You and your friends mock them, call them names, use slurs, taunt and harass them—for no reason other than your belief that you’re superior because of your blood and status. So, of course, it matters that I’m dating you. Because you don’t see yourself as equal to them."
The words hung in the air, heavy and sharp. Ryu’s face remained unreadable, but his fingers twitched at his sides, betraying some flicker of emotion.
She took a steadying breath and forced herself to continue. "I have to tell them the truth."
His jaw locked. "Vera, if I lose the bet, Miles will make me—"
"Oh, for the love of—just tell him no!"
"I can’t! He’ll taunt me until the end of the school year."
"And you’d let him?"
"It’s complicated."
"Stop saying that!" she exploded. "Why does it matter so much what he thinks? You’re better than him, Avery! You’re a prince, for fuck’s sake—with ancient blood, a fucking dragon, a powerful father! So why let a pretender like Bletchley control you?"
His expression turned ice-cold. For a long moment, he said nothing, only watching her, his black eyes calculating.
Then, to her shock, a smirk tugged at his lips. "Spoken like a true noble, Black."
Vera’s breath caught in her throat. She took a sharp step back. "That’s not—"
"Not what you meant? Sounded a lot like what my father says at every dinner."
No. No. No!
She had spent years resenting people like him—people who clung to the weight of their names, their bloodlines, their so-called superiority. And now, she sounded like them?
Ryu must have seen the horror flicker across her face, because his smirk widened, eyes gleaming with something cruel. "Funny, isn’t it? You spend all this time acting like you’re different, but when it really matters, you think just like us."
She gritted her teeth, pushing the sickening thought away. "I am not like you."
"But you are.”
The weight of her own words settled over her like a suffocating fog, but she wouldn’t let this turn into his victory.
She forced herself to breathe. “Maybe I do sound like you. Maybe, for a second, I let myself think like you. But the difference, Ryu, is that I hate it. You wear it like armor—I feel it like chains.”
His smirk faltered, just slightly.
She pressed on. “You think this is a victory? That you’ve somehow proven a point? All you’ve proven is that you’re exactly what they made you to be. And me? At least I still have the choice to be something else.”
She didn’t wait for him to respond, and turned on her heel then strode away. She held her head high, even as the weight of her own words threatened to crush her.
However, she had barely taken two steps when his voice, sharp and mocking, cut through the air behind her.
“Run all you like, Black. It won’t change what you are.”
She froze.
"You think hating it makes you better?" He continued. "It doesn’t. It just makes you a coward. At least I don’t lie to myself.”
She spun around, fury burning through the shame twisting in her gut. “Oh, that’s rich coming from the boy who lets Bletchley yank his leash.”
“Call it what you want. At least I know how the world works. You, though? You’re still pretending you can be different. That you’re not just like the rest of us.”
“I’m not."
"You talk like you’re above all this, but let’s be honest—you Blacks wrote the damn rulebook."
She stiffened.
"You walk around acting like you’re some great rebel, but deep down, you're doing it for yourself.” He tilted his head, watching her closely. "Tell me, Vera—are you fighting because you truly believe in something? Or just to prove you're different from them?”
She let out a sharp breath, her hands curling into fists. “You really are insensitive. I should’ve known better than to expect decency from someone like you. And I certainly shouldn't have let you drag me into this.”
“I didn't force you, Vera."
“I didn’t have a choice.”
“Right. You had to agree.”
“I was desperate."
“Yeah. Desperate for money, which is still something I can’t quite understand.”
She turned to him, and for the first time, the fury burning in her chest was eclipsed by something else—something raw, something vulnerable.
Her voice dropped to a whisper. "You will never understand."
Before she knew it, before she could stop it, a single tear escaped her eye.
For a moment, Ryu just stared. The tear on her cheek caught the dim light, a quiet, unspoken proof that he had crossed a line.
“Vera—”
She turned away, wiping the tear quickly, like she could erase the moment if she just moved fast enough.
Ryu shifted on his feet, the usual easy arrogance nowhere to be found. “I didn’t mean—” He stopped, exhaling through his nose. “Look, I was just being an arse. I didn’t think it actually mattered to you.”
She let out a quiet, humorless laugh. “Of course you didn’t.”
He hesitated, then—carefully, like he wasn’t sure if she’d let him—brushed his fingers against her temple, tucking a stray lock of hair behind her ear with a touch so light it sent a shiver down her spine.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered. Then, before she could pull away, before she could put up her walls again, he drew her into him.
She stiffened, her breath catching in her throat. His arms were solid, firm around her shoulders, but his grip was careful, not forceful. Warmth pressed against her as he held her close, as if shielding her from the weight of everything crashing down on her.
She didn’t move. She didn’t want to move.
His hold was firm, steady, and after a moment, her body betrayed her. Her shoulders slumped, and she let herself sink into the embrace, just for a second. Just long enough to pretend that maybe, for once, she wasn’t completely alone.
He pulled away slowly, but his hands lingered on her shoulders, firm yet strangely careful.
She stared up at him, her heart still unsteady from the unexpected embrace. “Why did you do that?” she asked.
He hesitated—just for a beat—before his expression settled into something composed. “It’s part of the contract,” he said smoothly. “We’re supposed to maintain a certain level of intimacy.”
Something in her chest twisted, but she forced herself to keep her face neutral.
Of course.
That was all this was. Just another performance.
Because, despite everything, despite the betrayal sinking its claws into her chest, a stupid, foolish part of her still wanted to believe that—just for a second—when he held her, it hadn’t been for the bet.
Swallowing the bitter taste rising in her throat, she glanced around—and immediately regretted it.
The entire Herbology class had already gathered outside. And they were all watching.
Whispers rippled through the gathered students like wildfire. Some eyes flickered with curiosity, others with barely concealed amusement, and a few with open disdain.
A sickly heat crawled up her neck, and she yanked herself out of Ryu’s grasp. “Great,” she muttered under her breath. “Just what I needed.”
The rest of the day didn’t improve. She sat beside Ryu again, finding the only sliver of satisfaction in watching Cassius seethe as his friend abandoned him, leaving him to sit alone. But beyond that, everything else was pure agony.
Her friends kept whispering and sneaking glances at her, still struggling to believe what was happening. Even Professor Flitwick hesitated before clearing his throat and pressing on with the lesson, though he couldn’t help but shoot her a few curious looks—especially after catching sight of her and Ryu holding hands above the desk.
By the time Potions rolled around, the rumors had solidified into something undeniable.
The Gryffindors no longer whispered—they just stared, their expressions ranging from disbelief to quiet judgment. Meanwhile, the Poshlanders smirked, as if they’d won some unspoken battle.
And then there was Snape.
The moment Vera stepped into the dungeon and took a seat beside Ryu, his black eyes flicked toward them. A tense silence followed, stretching just long enough for the weight of his attention to settle over the room. Then, his lip curled in disdain.
“Miss Black,” he drawled. “It appears you’ve... misplaced yourself.”
A few students snickered, the sound sharp against the dungeon’s cold, stone walls.
Vera met his gaze head-on. “No, sir.”
His eyes narrowed slightly, scanning her face as if searching for an explanation—perhaps even a reason to cut her down further. But she didn’t waver.
Beside her, Ryu leaned in just enough for only her to hear. “If I didn’t know any better, I’d say he was happy.”
“Shut up,” she muttered, resisting the urge to elbow him.
As the final bell rang, she stepped out of DADA, exhaling a breath she hadn’t realized she was holding. The day had been agonizingly long, a gauntlet of stares, whispers, and pointed silences. She could hardly believe it was finally over.
She turned to Ryu, rubbing her temple as if she could physically massage the tension away. “That’s it,” she announced. “The circus is over.”
“Oh, Vera,” he said. “This is just the beginning.”
She gave him a deadpan look.
“If we’re doing this, we have to keep it up." He carried on. "That means sitting together in every class, walking the halls together, eating together—dinner included. You didn’t think we’d make a statement and then quietly fade into the background, did you? No, no. We’re in this now.”
She stared at him, trying to gauge whether he was enjoying this too much or just determined to see it through. Probably both.
She sighed, resigned. “Fine.”
He slung his bag over his shoulder and stretched, looking entirely too pleased with himself. “Well then, partner in crime, I’ll see you at dinner.”
“Lucky me.”
He smirked, then took a step closer, leaning in just slightly.
Her hand immediately shot up between them, stopping him before he could reach her cheek. “Oh, absolutely not.”
“What? A goodbye kiss on the cheek is standard practice.”
“Not in this lifetime, Avery.”
He chuckled, stepping back with his hands raised in surrender. “Fair enough. We’ll work up to it.”
She scoffed. “We absolutely will not.”
He simply grinned as he walked off, tossing a lazy wave over his shoulder. “See you at dinner, darling.”
She watched him go, shaking her head. If this was only the beginning, she was in for a very long ride.
By the time she reached the Gryffindor common room, her nerves were stretched so thin she could feel them fraying with every step.
She climbed through the portrait hole, already exhausted, already bracing herself for whatever argument was waiting on the other side. She could handle shouting. She could handle anger.
But she wasn’t met with either.
She was met with silence.
Fred, George, and Lee sat by the fire, their usual spot, parchment and textbooks spread haphazardly across the floor. The flickering glow of the flames cast their faces in shifting shadows, but it didn’t hide the way they refused to look up.
She shifted her weight, swallowing past the tightness in her throat. “Hey,” she tried cautiously.
Nothing.
Fred turned a page in his textbook, unmoved. George leaned in and muttered something to Lee, who nodded without sparing her a glance. The fire crackled in the hearth, warm and familiar, but it may as well have been a frozen wasteland.
“Come on,” she pushed, stepping further in. “You can’t be serious.”
Not a glance, not a word.
Her pulse pounded in her ears. It was like she wasn’t even there, like she had already been erased from the space she once belonged in.
Heat rose to her face—not from shame, not from regret, but from something sharper, something bitter and stinging, like touching an old wound she hadn’t realized was still raw.
She forced herself to turn away, to climb the stairs as if she didn’t care, as if their silence didn’t sink into her bones like ice.
When she stepped into her dorm, she found Angelina and Alicia curled up on Angelina’s bed, backs pressed against the headboard, whispering.
They didn’t stop when she entered.
Didn’t look at her.
Didn’t pause.
She set her bag down with more force than necessary, the sound cutting through the quiet.
But they didn’t react.
They just kept talking, kept laughing at something she wasn’t a part of, their world untouched by her presence.
She climbed into bed, curling beneath the blankets, but no warmth could touch the hollow coldness seeping into her ribs.
It was fine.
She told herself it was fine.
She told herself they were being childish, that this was their problem, not hers.
She told herself a lot of things.
But as she lay there, staring at the canopy above her, listening to the quiet hum of whispers that no longer included her, she felt something inside her shift.
Not break—breaking would’ve been easier.
No, this was worse.
This was the slow, suffocating realization that something was gone.
And it wasn’t coming back.
Notes:
Chapter's song:
Swallow My Pride - The Ramones
Enjoy the silence - Depeche ModeCheck out Wes's Picks to set the mood:
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Chapter 61: Something in the way
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Monday, September 30, 1991
September was coming to an end, and with it, a distinct chill that crept through the stone walls of Hogwarts.
The silence stretched between Vera and her friends, an unspoken verdict she could feel in every turned back, and averted gaze. They ignored her as if she had never existed, as if she had been erased from their lives overnight.
Even Felix had withdrawn completely. Not that he ever truly acknowledged her before, but this was different—this was deliberate. She could feel the resentment in the way he looked past her, in the absence of even fleeting glances. It wasn’t just fear of being seen with her anymore. It was something colder.
And it killed her.
She still sat beside Ryu in every class, though the air between them felt heavier now. In Muggle Studies, where he wasn’t there, she sat next to Roger— the only one from their group who still spoke to her.
Breakfast and lunch were spent with the Poshlanders, and dinner… she avoided altogether. Sitting there, surrounded by people who wanted nothing to do with her, was unbearable. Not that it mattered—she had no appetite anyway.
But even among the Poshlanders, she was a ghost. Their conversations grated on her, their privileged mannerisms making her skin crawl. She tried to tune them out, to remain silent, but that only made things worse. They still refused to believe she and Ryu were together, and she was running out of ways to convince them.
No matter where she went, she didn’t belong.
That morning, the Great Hall felt colder than usual, its enchanted ceiling casting a muted gray light over the students below.
She sat at the Slytherin table, as she did of late, her back straight, eyes scanning the room. Cassius sat with his nose buried in the Daily Prophet, the crinkling of the parchment breaking the silence. Ryu, ever diligent, was hunched over his notes, muttering under his breath as he reviewed for the upcoming class. Miles and Jane, seated across from her, were eating in near perfect synchrony, barely exchanging words.
The stillness of the morning was shattered when Adrian and Eudora slipped into their seats at the end of the table, their bodies still thrumming with barely contained laughter. Their faces were flushed, eyes glinting with a shared secret that, whatever it was, had left Eudora breathless and Adrian looking entirely too pleased with himself.
Miles, who had been lazily stirring his tea, gave them a slow once-over before arching an eyebrow. "Where were you two?"
"Performing our morning ritual.” Adrian leaned back in his chair, and adjusted his tie with a dramatic flourish. “Isn't that right, darling?"
Eudora, still struggling to regain composure, smoothed down her hair and wiped her mouth with the back of her hand, a sly grin curling at her lips.
"Blimey, Dora." Cassius groaned loudly. "You at least washed your mouth, right?"
Eudora turned to him with a slow smile. "Why? Want a taste?"
Cassius recoiled so violently he nearly knocked over his pumpkin juice. "You’re foul."
"Merci."
Vera, meanwhile, was blinking in confusion, the meaning of their words eluding her. She turned to Ryu for some sort of explanation, but the moment their eyes met, his face turned an alarming shade of red. He yanked his notebook up like a shield and started aggressively pretending to read.
Adrian, ever the predator, caught onto the tension in an instant. "What about you two? Any morning rituals of your own?"
Ryu choked. Vera frowned.
Eudora let out a velvety chuckle. "Oh, darling, they're too prude for it."
"Tragic, really," Adrian mused. "Life’s too short to be so… proper."
Vera, still utterly lost, glanced between them for clarification, but found none. Adrian was grinning like the cat that got the cream, Eudora was watching with the patience of a predator, and Ryu looked like he wanted the earth to swallow him whole.
"For Merlin’s sake, shut up," Cassius snapped. "Some of us are trying to have a decent meal without being subjected to whatever filth you two get up to before breakfast."
"Well, let’s be real," Miles chimed in. "These two don’t have any kind of proper or improper rituals going on because they're not actually dating."
Vera’s fork clattered against her plate as she shot him a glare. "Excuse me?"
"Oh, come on, Black. We all know there’s no actual romance between you two. So what’s the arrangement? Is he doing your homework? Carrying your books? Maybe warming your bed—"
“Careful, mate,” Ryu warned.
"Now that would be interesting," Adrian said, ignoring him. "Vera Black, keeping a sweet, devoted little scholar on retainer. How scandalous."
Eudora smirked. "Not scandalous enough. I was hoping for something darker." She leaned in, watching Vera like a cat playing with its food. "Tell me, love—do you make him beg?"
Ryu made a noise that was somewhere between a cough and a horrified gasp.
"So? What’s the deal, Black?" Miles continued. "How did you end up here?"
Vera opened her mouth to shoot back, but before she could gather her thoughts, Miles’ attention shifted.
He noticed Jane reaching for a pumpkin pasty from the table and, in one swift movement, jabbed his fork at her hand. "You've already had one," he said curtly, his voice cold.
Jane’s hand recoiled instinctively, and she immediately lowered her head.
Vera flinched at the harshness of the moment, her stomach tightening at the sight. She looked around the table, expecting some kind of reaction, but no one seemed phased. It was as though this kind of thing happened regularly.
The realization gnawed at her, and she thought back to their conversation from first year when Jane had confided in her that her mother didn’t allow her to eat sweets at home, and how it had seemed like a passing comment at the time.
Now, the pieces clicked together with a sickening clarity. Was Miles involved in controlling what her ate outside of her home, too? Had he been instructed to keep an eye on her, to limit her choices here at Hogwarts?
Her mind raced as she watched Jane, her thin frame hunched slightly, the hollow look in her eyes all too familiar. It was as if she had learned to shrink herself, to hide in plain sight. Her hand trembled a little as she sat back, but she didn’t dare reach for anything else.
Miles leaned forward again. "Well? What’s in it for you?"
"You think she needs some kind of payoff to date me?" Ryu shot back with a defensive tone.
"Precisely, mate. You just want to win the bet—I respect that. But let's be honest." He then turned to Vera, his smirk cruel. "You don't deserve Ryu, and you certainly don't belong with him. Everyone knows it. We know it. And your so-called friends? They know it too. Tell me, have any of them so much as looked your way since you started trailing after him? No? How unsurprising. I suppose even they have their limits."
Vera’s breath caught in her throat. She willed herself not to flinch, not to let him see how his words slipped beneath her skin like poisoned needles.
But inside—inside, something had cracked.
"They’ve abandoned you, Black. Cast you aside like dead weight the moment you chose him. And why wouldn’t they? You traded loyalty for delusion. Tell me, was it worth it, though? Standing at his side, pretending you belong, while the people who you thought mattered turned their backs on you?"
Her throat felt tight, but she had swallowed it down. Swallowed the hurt, the guilt, the creeping sense that maybe—maybe she had made a terrible mistake.
No.
No, she wouldn’t let them get to her. She wouldn’t let them win. They want her to break, to fold beneath the weight of their words. But she wasn't going to lose.
She forced a smirk onto her lips, tilting her chin up in defiance. "Is that supposed to scare me, Bletchley? That you think I need them? That I need anyone?" A quiet laugh escaped her lips, sharp as a blade. "You forget—I was alone long before I met any of them. And I did just fine."
Ryu sat silent for a moment, his dark eyes flickering with sympathy. Then, slowly, his hand brushed against her wrist—barely there, just a whisper of contact—but it was enough. Enough to remind her of the choice she had made.
And as much as she hated to admit it, the warmth of that fleeting touch steadied her more than she had expected.
Miles' scowl deepened, his jaw tightening at Ryu’s easy confidence, at the way Vera hadn’t crumbled the way he wanted her to. He opened his mouth, perhaps to throw another insult, but before he could, a familiar, booming voice interrupted the tension.
"There yeh are," Hagrid’s voice rumbled from across the hall, causing the Poshlanders to look up with their usual reaction to his presence—disgust, or worse.
"I didn’t see yeh at your usual table," he said, his eyes settling on Vera.
For a moment, disappointment flickered across his face before he masked it with a forced smile. "Well, looks like yeh’ve taken my advice to heart."
She gave a small, fleeting smile but said nothing.
"Got a package for you," he continued, reaching into his coat. "From the mug—"
"Thank you!" The words shot out of her mouth before he could finish.
Panic flared in her chest as she jumped to her feet, snatching the package from his hands. She then shoved it deep into her bag, avoiding the curious glances from those around her.
An awkward silence hung in the air, and Hagrid blinked, clearly taken aback, then let out a soft chuckle. "Alright then," he murmured. "Looks like yeh’ve got it under control. By the way, did your little friend like the gift we got her?"
Vera’s eyes flickered instinctively to Sarah, sitting at the Hufflepuff table, who had the tarantula—now on a leash—hanging from the pocket of her robes.
Forcing a polite smile, she turned back to him. "She absolutely loved it."
His face split into a wide grin. "Glad to hear it! If yeh need anything else, yeh know where to find me."
She gave a stiff nod, watching as he turned to leave. Her chest felt tight, but she managed to speak once more. "Thank you, Mr. Hagrid."
He gave her one last, lingering look, and left, his giant boots thudding softly against the stone floor.
The weight of his gaze stuck with her, and as he walked away, she couldn’t shake the feeling that his smile, though kind, carried an undercurrent of disappointment.
Ryu turned to her with a frown. "What was that all about?"
She shrugged nonchalantly. "Hagrid helps me get things from Diagon Alley sometimes."
"And what was that about the gift?" Adrian asked.
"Oh, He helped me get Sarah a tarantula few weeks ago."
Eudora groaned. "She has been terrorizing everyone in the common room with that thing. Can’t even walk five feet without it crawling on someone’s robes."
"Yeah, that girl’s a bloody nightmare," Miles added, and Vera couldn’t help but glare at him for his remark.
But before she could defend Sarah, Cassius’ voice sliced through the air like a blade.
"Mr. Hagrid?" he repeated.
She blinked. "Yeah?"
"Why on earth do you call him Mr.?"
"Because he’s old enough to be my grandfather. So, of course, I’d call him Mr."
Laughter erupted around the table, sharp and cruel.
"It’s not about age," Adrian drawled. "It’s about status. Hagrid doesn’t deserve ‘Mr.’"
"What’s next, then?" Eudora sneered. "You going to start calling Filch ‘Sir’ too?"
Vera’s expression darkened. "No. Filch is different."
Adrian arched an eyebrow. "Oh? How’s that? They’re both squibs, so what makes one better than the other?"
"Hagrid isn’t a squib, you bloody tart." She shot back. "He was a student here, but got expelled. That means he’s a wizard."
"Right," Cassius scoffed. "And I suppose you believe all the sob stories you hear? Maybe he told you he was supposed to be Minister of Magic too, but—oops!—tragic accident."
"I believe him, because he’s not a miserable little liar like the lot of you."
"That’s sweet," Adrian said mockingly. "But even if he was a wizard, does it really matter? He’s still a joke."
"The only joke is your eyebrows, Pucey. He's respectful and kind, unlike Filch. So it's not about him being a squib or not. It's about—"
"Can you all just shut it?" Miles groaned, his irritation cutting through the conversation. "You’re making Jane uncomfortable!"
Everyone’s gaze snapped to Jane, who had lowered her head, her face bright red.
Vera’s eyes flicked over to her, but the more she watched, the more her confusion deepened.
Jane didn’t just look uncomfortable—she looked downright upset.
What the hell? Does she really hate squibs that much?
The realization hit her like a slap to the face, and a fire ignited in her chest.
Her fists clenched, and without thinking, she snapped, her voice cold with fury. "You know something, Jane? My mother’s governess is a squib. And she’s one of the kindest, smartest, most capable people I’ve ever met."
The table went dead silent.
Jane’s eyes instantly filled with tears, and without another word, stood up and left the table, retreating from the hall with quick, deliberate steps.
Miles turned to Vera, his expression hardening. "What’s wrong with you?" he hissed, his voice low and venomous.
He didn’t wait for an answer before turning to Ryu. "Control your so-called girlfriend, Avery." he spat, before following Jane out of the Great Hall.
Vera sat there, stunned, unsure of what had just happened. She looked around the table, hoping for some sort of clarity, but instead, she was met with eyes full of disgust.
Cassius then leaned forward, his voice cold. "If you wish to sit with us, you need to know the rules. And the first one is to never, ever defend squibs in front of Jane."
Her brow furrowed, the anger that had burned through her just moments ago giving way to a deeper, more confusing feeling.
She turned to Ryu, desperate for some kind of answer. But he wouldn’t meet her eyes. He just stared down at his plate, his jaw clenched tight, unwilling to speak.
He didn’t mention it at all throughout the day. Not during lunch, not between classes, not even when they walked side by side to their last lesson.
She waited, expecting him to say something—to explain why everyone reacted the way they did—but he remained silent.
As they left their final class, she finally broke the suffocating silence.
"Alright, what the hell was that about?" she demanded, stepping in front of him to block his path.
He sighed, shaking his head. "As if you don’t already know."
Her frustration flared. "I don’t know. And you lot are nothing but a bunch of hypocrites. No one said a word when Bletchley stopped her from eating that pasty, but the second I mention squibs, I’m the villain?"
"Those are two completely different things, Vera."
"Oh, really? How?"
"Stop acting thick."
"Bloody hell, Avery! What the fuck is going on? Why can’t I talk about squibs in front of Jane?"
"Because her twin brother is one!"
Her breath caught. For a moment, she could only stare at him.
Ryu’s eyes flickered with something between confusion and frustration. "She never told you? When you two were friends?"
"No..." Her voice was quieter now, the anger cooling into something uneasy.
He scoffed. "Well, now you know."
A lump formed in her throat. "Wh-what happened to him?"
"What happens to all Squibs. He was sent away."
The words landed like a physical blow.
Sent away.
As if he were some kind of inconvenience. Something to be removed.
"They were nine," he continued. "Jane started showing signs of magic. He didn’t. So their parents made their choice. One day, he was just gone."
"But they are twins..."
"Exactly. They were inseparable. Then, one morning, she woke up and he wasn’t there. Her parents sat her down and told her it was for the best. That he wasn’t meant to be here. And that was it. She was never the same afterwards."
"She never saw him again?"
"Not once. No one knows where he is now. Her parents refuse to speak of him. She isn’t allowed to speak of him. So yeah. When you start talking about squibs like it was nothing, maybe understand how she would feel hearing it."
Vera’s mind reeled. She had always thought of Jane as just another privileged pureblood—cruel when it suited her, indifferent when it didn’t. But now—now she saw something else. A little girl, nine years old, waking up to an empty bed. Sitting at her family’s perfect dinner table, forced to pretend her own twin had never existed.
For the first time since spending time with the Poshlanders, she wasn’t angry or disgusted.
She was horrified.
That evening, back in her dormitory, Alicia and Angelina departed without a word, scarcely even glancing her way. Although she had grown accustomed to their indifference, tonight the cold distance cut sharper than ever. But at least the empty dorm meant solitude, a bittersweet comfort.
Her thoughts, however, strayed unbidden to Jane—the haunting image of a child torn from his family merely for lacking magic churned her stomach.
Where had they sent him? What kind of existence was he now forced to endure?
She struggled to banish those disquieting thoughts, clinging to the hope that distraction would ease the ache in her heart.
With a resigned sigh, she sank onto her bed and retrieved the package Hagrid had entrusted to her that morning. Unwrapping it with meticulous care, she discovered a cassette tape nestled beside a neatly folded letter.
Dear Vera,
Sorry I haven’t written sooner. School’s been a nightmare. Also, Dex is losing his mind because his band broke up, so that’s been fun. He’s being so dramatic about it, you’d think he got kicked out of his own house.
Speaking of dramatic… your last letter? What the hell was that? You sounded like you were about to join a monastery or something. You better not be getting all weird on me.
Listen, whatever’s going on, just remember… you're not alone, okay? I know you think too much. I know you spiral. But don’t get lost in your own head. And don’t let those posh fucks make you forget who you are.
Oh, and Wes says hi. Which, by the way, means he spent at least fifteen minutes talking about you before I threatened to push him into traffic. I think he’d let you punch him in the face and say thank you.
Anyway, he made me swear to send you this tape. Said it’s "going to change the history of music" or whatever. So yeah, do me a favor and tell him it sucks, just to mess with him.
Write back soon, alright?
Kaya
She set the letter aside and picked up the tape. A small slip of paper was attached to it, the handwriting hurried but deliberate.
You’ve got to have a butcher’s at this. I’m telling you, this is the future, no doubt. This band’s gonna change the game. Give “Something in the Way” a listen. It’s my fave. Reckon you’ll be well into it too.
—Wes
She turned the tape over in her hands, tracing the bold lettering with her thumb.
"Nevermind by Nirvana," she murmured with a frown. "Who the fuck are Nirvana?"
Without thinking, she reached for her Walkman and crossed the room to the window. Outside, the rain lashed against the glass, the sky a shifting, restless gray. The dormitory felt cavernous in its emptiness, the silence pressing in around her.
She slipped on her headphones, pressed play, and let the music take her. The first somber notes crept into her ears, raw and unpolished, carrying something weighty beneath their simplicity. She leaned against the window, watching the raindrops chase each other down the glass as the weight of the day settled onto her shoulders.
Tuesday, October 1, 1991
The next day, after Muggle Studies, she gathered her things in silence and slipped out of the classroom. The hallways were nearly empty, the soft murmur of distant chatter fading as students filtered into their next classes.
She walked with her head down, hands curled into fists inside her robes, trying to suppress the hollow ache in her chest. It had been two weeks, and yet the loneliness hadn’t dulled. If anything, it had sharpened, digging into her ribs, making it harder to breathe.
"Vera."
She stopped.
The voice was unmistakable, rougher than the others, but steady. When she looked up, Tommy was leaning against the wall, arms crossed, watching her.
For a moment, she considered ignoring him, pushing past him like everyone else had done to her. But she didn’t. Maybe because she wanted to believe—for just a second—that someone still saw her.
“Hey, Tommy…”
"You look like hell."
She let out a breathy, humorless laugh. "Thanks."
He glanced at her, unimpressed. "Not a compliment."
She rolled her eyes, but there was no real annoyance behind it. "Yeah, well… it’s been a shitty week."
His lips pressed into a thin line, eyes sharp, burning into her like he was peeling back layers of skin, looking for the truth underneath.
Then, in a voice low and cold as a winter wind, he said, “What the fuck are you playing at, Vera?”
Her heart skipped a beat. She’d known this was coming. Knew Tommy—of all people—wouldn’t let this slide.
Still, hearing it out loud twisted something deep in her gut.
She forced herself to shrug. “I don’t know what you mean.”
“Don’t.”
“Don’t what?”
“Don’t play dumb with me.” His voice was sharper now, laced with something just shy of fury. “Don’t stand there and act like we’re all supposed to believe that you woke up one day and decided to shack up with a slimy purist cunt.”
She bit the inside of her cheek hard enough to taste blood. “Maybe I did.”
“Jesus Christ, Vera. You wouldn’t go near him if he was the last lad on earth. You despise people like him. So tell me—what the fuck is this?”
“It’s complicated, Tom—”
“Ah, fuck off with that.”
“Excuse me?”
“I said fuck off with it. Do I look like an eejit to you? Do you think I don’t see what’s happening? But I need to hear it from you, because right now, none of us get it. None of us fucking understand how you, out of all people, ended up here. You spent years railing against people like him—Telling me, telling all of us, how the system is rotten, how we can’t just roll over and let them win, and now—now you’re sitting with them? Laughing with them? What’s next, Vera? You gonna start wearing their colors too?”
Her throat tightened, and she lowered hear head in shame.
“Look me in the fuckin’ eyes, Vee. Look me in the eyes and tell me how can you stomach it? Sitting at their table, hearing them talk about people like my parents—my sisters—like they’re dirt under their boots? What the hell happened to you? Why the fuck did you change?”
And then his expression shifted, like something had just clicked. His eyes—once full of anger—narrowed with something else. Something colder. “Maybe this is who you’ve always been.”
Her stomach dropped. “No, Tommy—”
“Then tell me why! Tell me why you’re doing this. Because from where I’m standing, you’re turning your back on everyone who actually gave a shite about you. You’ve got people who’d go through hell for you, and instead, you’re sitting with the ones who’d burn us alive given half a chance.”
The weight of his words crushed down on her chest, and suddenly, it felt hard to breathe.
She turned to him, eyes burning, throat raw. “I don’t know why, okay? I didn’t plan this. It just—happened.”
“Yeah? Well, that’s how people fuckin’ lose themselves, Vera. They let shite like this ‘just happen.’ One little compromise. One slip. And before they know it, they’re too far gone to ever crawl back.”
His words hit like a slap, sharp and stinging. Because for the first time, she saw it—really saw it. The slow unraveling. The cracks forming beneath her feet.
Her hands curled into fists at her sides, and a single tear broke free, slipping down her cheek.
But before she could answer, movement caught her eye. She barely had time to react before Ryu appeared at the end of the corridor, walking toward them. The moment he saw her standing with Tommy, his expression hardened.
He didn’t acknowledge him—not a glance, not a flicker of recognition. It was as if Tommy didn’t exist. His focus was solely on her, gaze sharp enough to cut.
“What are you doing?” His voice was tight.
She hesitated. “Just having a chat.”
His jaw clenched, but still, he never looked at Tommy. Never so much as glanced his way. “With him?”
There was something venomous in the way he said it, like the words themselves tasted foul.
A muscle ticked in Tommy’s jaw, but he said nothing.
She swallowed hard. “Yes.”
Ryu exhaled sharply through his nose, like he was biting back something worse. He shook his head, slow and disbelieving, then walked past her.
Didn’t stop. Didn’t turn back. Didn’t wait for an explanation. Just kept moving, his shoulders tense, his anger trailing behind him like smoke.
Tommy exhaled through his nose. “See what I’m talking about?”
“Tommy—”
“You’re really gonna pretend that’s normal?”
She didn’t have an answer, not really. The tension Ryu carried, the way he never even looked at Tommy—as if he was beneath notice—it unsettled her in ways she didn’t want to admit.
Tommy studied her for a long moment, then his voice dropped, quieter. “Do your really like him, Vera?”
Her mouth opened—then closed.
Tommy scoffed, like her silence was answer enough. “So what’s the plan then, eh? Are you gonna go on with this?”
She felt something heavy sink in her stomach, a dull weight that spread through her chest like a slow-acting poison. The choice lay before her, stark and unforgiving.
If she stayed with her friends, she’d be in debt—owing more than just money. She’d be compromising everything she had fought for, everything she had built this far. And worst of all, she’d be letting Donnie down. After everything he had risked for her, after every promise she had made to him…
But if she chose Ryu… she’d lose them forever. Not just their presence, but their trust, their belief in her. She’d be turning her back on the people who had stood beside her when no one else did. There would be no going back. No making it right. It wouldn’t just be distance that separated them—it would be betrayal.
She thought of all the times they had pulled her out of trouble, of the scraped knees and bruised knuckles, of whispered plans in the dead of night. She thought of the laughter that had echoed through empty corridors, the stolen moments of joy in a world that gave them nothing.
They had been more than friends. They had been her family.
And yet… deep down, she already knew what mattered more to her.
She forced herself to meet Tommy’s gaze. “I am.”
His expression flickered—something hurt, something bitter—before it settled into disappointment.
“Jesus, Vera.” His voice was quiet, but it cut deeper than a yell.
He took a step back, shaking his head. Then, without another word, he turned and walked away.
She watched him go, her chest aching, the weight of her decision pressing down on her like a stone. Every step Tommy took away from her felt irreversible, like something vital had just slipped through her fingers. She wanted to call out, to undo whatever had just happened—but she didn’t. She couldn’t.
Instead, she wiped at her eyes, squared her shoulders, and turned—only to find Ryu watching her.
His expression was unreadable—except for his eyes. Dark, stormy, brimming with something unspoken.
“What did he want?”
She blinked, still caught in the aftershock of the conversation. “What?”
“Mallon,” he said, his jaw set. “What did he want?”
“Why do you care?”
“Just tell me.”
“We were talking. That’s it.”
“About what?”
“Oh, for—” She scoffed, throwing up her hands. “Why does it matter?”
“Because it does.”
“Why? Because you don’t like him?”
“No. I don’t like him. He’s a ratty little beggar who runs his mouth more than his brain. He’s pathetic, Vera. A nobody.”
Something inside her snapped.
"You racist cu—” She caught herself, sucking in a sharp breath. “You don’t know a damn thing about Tommy. He’s smart, and quick, and he makes me laugh when everything feels like it’s falling apart."
“Makes you laugh?”
“And we’re similar in ways you’ll never understand.”
“He’s vulgar—got no discipline, no sense of control. Just a dog chasing scraps.”
“At least he doesn’t act like he’s better than everyone else. And he sure as hell doesn’t talk about people like they’re dirt. He’s a better person than you’ll ever be, Avery.”
His jaw clenched. “You really believe that?”
“I know it.”
His hands curled into fists at his sides, but he forced himself to stay still. The way she was looking at him—challenging him, daring him to say something crueler—it sent a vicious kind of frustration coursing through his veins.
His voice came out lower now, almost dangerous. “Do you fancy him?”
The question was so ridiculous it almost made her laugh.
But she saw it—the flicker of something behind his gaze. Not just disdain. Not just bitterness. He was waiting for her to deny it.
So she didn’t.
Instead, she crossed her arms, tilted her chin up, and let the words slip out, slow and taunting. “Maybe I do.”
The air between them went razor-sharp.
Ryu didn’t speak. Didn’t move. But his eyes—his eyes were burning.
“You don’t.”
Not a question. A statement.
She lifted her chin. “How would you know?”
“You think I don’t know you by now?”
“You don’t know a bloody thing about me.”
“So, what, you’re in love with Tommy fucking Mallon now? Gonna run off and live in a gutter with him? Maybe start a little gang, pickpocketing drunks and selling stolen broomsticks? That your dream, Vera?”
“At least Tommy wouldn’t treat me like I owe him something just for standing next to him.”
“Is that what you think I do?”
“I don’t think. I know.”
“If I treated you like you owed me, Vera, you wouldn’t be standing here talking back to me.”
“May I remind you, this is a deal. So if anyone owes anything, it’s you.”
“Oh? And how’s that?”
“You still haven’t paid me.”
“And you still haven’t convinced my friends we’re dating.”
“Maybe because you make it impossible.”
“I make it impossible? You undermine me in front of them. You barely touch me in public. You barely look at me when they’re around, and you act like you’d rather be anywhere else. You don't talk to them—bloody insult them, too! You’re the one making it difficult, Vera.”
“You want me to touch you more, is that it?”
His jaw tensed. “That’s not what I said.”
“No?” She tilted her head, taking a slow, deliberate step forward. “Because it sounds like you’re upset I don’t act like a lovesick fool in public. Upset that we don't have filthy rituals like Eudora and Pucey?"
“I’m upset because you’re not holding up your end of the deal. I’m doing my part, Vera. I’m pretending. I’m convincing them. And you—”
Before he could finish, she grabbed the front of his tie and yanked him forward.
He stumbled, eyes widening as their faces nearly collided. His hands shot to her waist on instinct, his grip firm, fingers curling against her like he needed something to hold onto.
“Is this convincing enough for you?” she whispered, her lips just barely brushing against his jaw as she spoke.
His breath hitched, but he didn’t pull away. His dark eyes searched hers, something unreadable flickering there—something she wasn’t sure he even realized he was showing her.
“Not quite,” he murmured.
She smirked, twisting the tie tighter around her fingers, forcing his chin down. Their faces were so close now that a shift—just the smallest tilt—would close the space between them. “You’re awfully demanding for someone who still haven’t paid me.”
His fingers flexed at her waist before sliding up, brushing the sliver of bare skin at the nape of her neck. The warmth of his touch sent an uninvited shiver down her spine, but she refused to let it show.
“Well,” he said, his voice quieter now, rougher. “I expect results for my money.”
She inhaled slowly, eyes locked on his, dark with intent. “So, what, you want more?”
Before he could answer, she took his hand and guided it beneath her skirt, pressing his palm against the soft, warm skin of her thigh. “More touching?” she murmured, her fingers tightening over his, keeping him there.
His jaw clenched, his hand tensing against her, but he didn’t pull away. If anything, his fingers twitched, testing the heat of her skin, the curve of her thigh.
Her other hand trailed up his chest, slow and featherlight, and she swore she felt his heartbeat pick up beneath her touch.
“More hand-holding?” she mused, lacing her fingers through his for just a moment before slipping away, leaving nothing but the ghost of warmth behind.
Then, she leaned in, her lips grazing the shell of his ear. “More sweet nothings whispered in your ear?” Her voice was a breathy whisper, deliberate, teasing.
He exhaled sharply, his hand still resting where she left it, his fingers flexing ever so slightly. His head tilted just the tiniest bit, like he was torn between pulling away and leaning into her.
His fingers traced the edge of her jaw, his smirk barely there, but his grip on her didn’t loosen. “That all you’ve got, Black?”
“Oh, I can do a lot more, Avery.” She leaned in just enough for her lips to hover over his—close enough that she knew he could feel the ghost of her breath. “You sure you can handle it?”
His body tensed against hers, his grip tightening like he was daring her to push further. “Try me.”
For a second, neither of them moved.
Then she tilted her head slightly, her lips brushing just shy of his. “Do you want me to kiss you, Ryu?”
His breath came just a little quicker now, but his voice remained steady, controlled—though she could hear the faintest hint of strain beneath it.
"Yeah."
Her lips parted slightly, a slow, wicked smile curling at the edges. She let the moment stretch, let the tension coil between them like a taut wire ready to snap.
He was close enough that he could count the flecks of gold in her dark blue eyes, close enough that she could feel the rise and fall of his chest against hers.
Then, just when his fingers tightened at her waist like he was bracing for it—like he thought, for a fleeting second, that she might actually do it—she yanked him back by his tie, hard and sudden.
He stumbled, caught off guard, his balance tipping for just a second before he righted himself. But it was enough. Enough to break the spell, enough to leave him off-kilter, his grip on her loosening in shock.
She took a step back, her gaze gleaming with amusement, with triumph. “In your wet dreams, you cunt.”
Then, with a sharp tug of his tie—one last taunt—she let go and turned on her heel, her hair whipping behind her as she strode away without so much as a backward glance.
She had left him standing there—stunned, breathless, and wanting.
Notes:
Chapter's song: Something in the way - Nirvana
Chapter 62: Under the Milky Way
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Wednesday, October 2, 1991
An owl dive-bombed Vera’s plate, nearly knocking her toast into her lap. The letter landed dead center, dusting crumbs across the table. She snatched it up before Ryu could see the Gringotts seal and unfolded it beneath the table.
Miss Black,
This is your final reminder. Your outstanding balance remains unsettled, and time is running out. If your debts are not paid before the year ends, interest rates will increase, and further action will be taken. Gringotts does not take kindly to delays.
You have three months. Do not make us send another owl.
Gringotts Banking Department
Fuck.
Just what she needed—a polite but menacing threat from goblins before breakfast. She folded the letter, shoving it into her pocket like that’d make it disappear.
When she glanced up, Ryu was watching her. His face was unreadable, but his eyes flicked to her pocket before meeting hers again.
He didn’t say anything.
Good. She wasn’t in the mood to explain.
On their way to Herbology, the silence stretched between them. Too long. Too heavy.
“So,” Ryu finally broke it, tilting his head toward her. “Are we gonna talk about yesterday?”
She didn’t even blink. “Nope.”
“You sure? Because that was quite the performance.”
She kept walking, adjusting her bag as if she hadn’t heard him.
“Or was it not a performance?” he pressed, smirking now.
She shot him a withering glare. “Shut up.”
"You know," he continued, absolutely not shutting up, "if you did that in front of my friends, they’d be sold.”
"Yeah, well, too bad for them, ‘cause I’m not doing it."
"But you already did it."
"To prove a point."
"And what point was that, exactly?"
"That you’re an insufferable arse."
“Prove it again, then.”
“You want me to kiss you? Is that it?”
“Maybe.”
“In your dreams, Avery.”
He grinned. “Yeah, I remember. In my wet dreams.”
She shoved him so hard he nearly tripped over his own feet. “Merlin, you’re vile.”
“Well, I don’t want to kiss you either,” he said, straightening his robes like an honorable man who had just been insulted.
For some reason, that twisted something in her chest.
"But," he continued, "if we did, they’d finally believe it."
She sighed. "For the last time, I’m not doing it."
"We’re nearly three weeks in, and they’re still waiting for proof."
"Not my problem."
"As you like."
But as they walked, the weight of the Gringotts letter pressed against her leg, and a cold reality was creeping in.
It wasn’t even about Ryu—well, maybe a little. But mostly it was the situation. The pressure of Gringotts breathing down her neck. The constant weight of living with the consequences of her own stupid decisions.
The worst part was that she knew she’d regret this. She knew she'd look back on this moment and hate herself for it, for letting it get to this point.
But the letter—the damn letter from Gringotts—kept gnawing at her mind, reminding her of what was at stake.
Money.
Debt.
The constant scramble to stay afloat in a world that didn’t care about people like her.
Regret. It was already here, wasn't it?
She could feel it hanging in the air, like an inevitable storm, just waiting to pour down on her.
She’d always imagined her first kiss would be something special. She'd fantasized about it—romantic, slow, with someone who actually cared, not some dumb arrangement to cover up her financial mess.
But no matter how much she wanted to fight it, no matter how much she wanted to keep the fantasy of her first kiss intact, the truth was clear.
She didn't have the luxury of waiting for the perfect moment.
She let out a breath she didn’t know she was holding. Fuck.
She stopped abruptly. “Alright.”
“Alright what?”
“You pay me the first installment, and I’ll do it.”
He blinked. “Are you serious?”
“Dead serious.”
His eyes narrowed “You’re taking the piss, aren’t you?”
“Do you want your stupid scheme to work or not?”
“Oh, I want it to work. I just never thought you would actually go through with this.”
She sighed. “I’m charging interest for suffering.”
Ryu folded his arms, considering this. “What’s the going rate for—ah, what was it again? Insufferable arsehood?”
“Whatever makes it worth kissing said arse.”
He pressed a hand to his heart. “Be still, my fragile ego.”
She rolled her eyes. “Look, do we have a deal or not?”
He exhaled. “I wish we did. But my dad won’t send me money without a reason.”
“Then lie to him.”
“I don’t lie to my father.”
She gave him a flat look. “You’re actually telling me you’ve never lied to him?”
"Okay, maybe once," he admitted. "But it was a tiny white lie. Not, y’know, a full-scale investment fraud like this."
She snorted. “Tell him you need it for a Potions project.”
“He’ll write Snape to confirm.”
“Tell him you wanna buy a broom.”
“I just bought a new one.”
“Blimey, tell him you’re dating me and need to buy me a gift.”
He lit up. “Wait, really?”
“No, you plonker, I was being sarcastic.”
“Not a bad idea, though.”
Her jaw clenched. “I don’t want your father knowing about me.”
“Why not?”
“Because then he’d tell your mum, who’d tell her friends, and before we know it, Witch Weekly is publishing exclusive details about my tragic fall from grace.”
“Ah. You’re afraid your aunt will hear.”
She didn’t answer.
He studied her for a moment, then gave a small nod. “Okay. I’ll figure something out and get the money. But are you really doing it?”
"If you get it, yeah. I’ll kiss you once in front of them."
He considered this, then nodded. "Alright. We’ve got a deal."
She exhaled. “Can’t believe I’m agreeing to this.”
“You’re agreeing ‘cause you need the money. Simple transaction.”
“Whatever helps you sleep at night, Avery.”
He grinned. “I’ll write him immediately.”
“What exactly are you gonna say?”
"Leave it to me. Meanwhile, you prepare those lips for me."
"Shut it."
"I want it to be smooth, Vera. Like we’ve done it a million times before."
She rolled her eyes. "We need to practice, then."
"Practice?"
"Yeah."
His eyes practically sparkled. "Okay. When?"
“When you get me the money, Avery boy.”
He clicked his tongue. “Alright. I’ll see you after class.” He turned, already walking off.
“What? Where are you going?”
“To write it.”
“You’re skipping class? You?”
“Write me the notes, yeah?”
She scoffed. “You this eager to kiss me, Avery?”
He scoffed right back. “No, but Miles is getting worse. Now he wants me to do it during Snape’s class.”
She winced. “Oof.”
“Yeah. So not only would I get expelled, but Snape would personally make sure I never see daylight again.”
“Fair point. But wait!”
He turned. “What now?”
She hesitated. “…I don’t wanna sit alone.”
“Sit with Davies.”
“No, he’s with Warrington, and I really don’t fancy getting into it with that knobhead.”
He sighed. “You wanna come with me?”
She shrugged. “If you don’t mind.”
“Fine. Come on.”
“Where to?”
“The library.”
She grinned, falling into step beside him. “Oh, we’re gonna get in so much trouble for missing class.”
“But on the bright side, everyone will think we’re off somewhere doing something scandalous.”
“Filthy, you mean.”
He rolled his eyes. “Probably.”
She pretended to be disgusted, but a smirk tugged at her lips.
The library was quiet, as usual. A few students sat hunched over their books, oblivious. Ryu led them to a far corner, away from prying eyes, then dropped his bag onto the table and pulled out some parchment.
Vera sat across from him, watching as he scribbled out his lie.
“You really think this’ll work?” she asked.
He didn’t look up. “Have some faith, Black.”
She scoffed. “I have faith in exactly one thing, and it’s that you’re full of sh—”
“Shh,” he cut in, smirking. “Library, remember?”
She rolled her eyes, slumping back in her chair.
Minutes passed in silence, broken only by the scratch of his quill. Then, without looking up, he muttered, “So you’re really gonna kiss me, huh?”
She narrowed her eyes. “If you actually get the money.”
He smirked. “I’ll get it.”
“And if you don’t?”
He finally glanced up, dark eyes glinting with mischief. “Then I guess you owe me a kiss for free.”
She grabbed a book and smacked him with it.
“Ouch! What did we say about physical assaults, darling?”
“I’ve got another condition,” she said, arms crossed.
He groaned. “For Merlin’s sake, what now?”
“I wanna know why you made the bet in the first place.”
His entire body stiffened. “Absolutely not.”
“Why not?”
“Because it’s humiliating, Vera. Genuinely life-ruining.”
Her smirk widened. “I thrive on humiliation. Spill.”
“No.”
“Alright, then. Don’t bother sending the letter. Won’t kiss you.”
His hand shot out, catching her wrist before she could turn away. “Don’t do that.”
She blinked up at him, feigning innocence. “Do what?”
“Manipulate me.”
She snorted. “That’s not manipulation, you git.”
He sighed, rubbing his face like he regretted every choice that led him here. “Fine. I’ll tell you.”
Her eyes gleamed. “Yes!”
“But not here,” he muttered, glancing around the library. “Someone might hear.”
“Oh, is it that bad?”
“Yes.”
Now she had to know. “Come on, then, Ruru.”
Before he could protest, she grabbed his sleeve and dragged him out of the library, her pace quick and determined. He barely managed to sling his bag over his shoulder before she yanked him down a quiet corridor.
They passed a few students, but no one paid them any mind. Vera’s heart thumped—not just from curiosity but from something else entirely.
She threw open a broom cupboard and pulled him inside.
The space was tight—dusty shelves lined with old brooms, the air thick with wood polish. The door clicked shut behind them, plunging them into dim candlelight.
And suddenly, they were close.
Pressed together in the cramped space, her back barely an inch from the shelves, his chest brushing hers every time he breathed. Their faces were just—there, barely a breath apart.
“Alright.” She tipped her chin up, eyes locked onto his. “Talk.”
He exhaled sharply, looking anywhere but at her mouth. “You love making my life difficult, don’t you?”
“Very much.”
His fingers twitched at his sides. “It’s stupid, alright?”
“Doubt that. Tell me.”
He swallowed, jaw clenching. “You’re too close right now.”
“Not my fault this cupboard’s tiny.”
“You picked it.”
“You gonna tell me or not?”
A muscle in his jaw ticked, and he exhaled through his nose, then finally met her gaze. “…The bet wasn’t my idea.”
She raised an eyebrow. “Go on.”
He rubbed the back of his neck. “Miles and the others—caught me. In the dorm.”
“Caught you what?”
He shut his eyes.
For a second, she just blinked at him. Then realization dawned. And then—
She burst out laughing.
Ryu scowled. “See? This is why I didn’t wanna tell you.”
“Hold on—hold on—they walked in on you—?”
“That’s not the point—”
“Oh, but it is! What time was it?"
“…Morning.”
She lost it.
“Avery—you’re actually—”
“Shut up,” he hissed, face burning.
She gasped for breath. “No, no, keep going, this is hilarious—”
“They dared me, alright? Said if I was so desperate, I should—” He cut himself off.
She wiped her eyes, still giggling. “Oh, no—finish that sentence.”
“Shh!” He slapped a hand over her mouth. “For Merlin’s sake, stop it!”
She shoved his hand away, still grinning. “I can’t believe this. You let them rope you into a fake relationship just so they’d drop it?”
“Yes,” he snapped. “Now can we never speak of this again?”
Her grin turned wicked. “Oh, absolutely not. You’ve given me too much power.”
He groaned, rubbing his temples. “I knew I shouldn’t have told you.”
She smirked. “You should’ve known better.”
A knock suddenly banged against the door.
“OI,” came a voice from outside. “Whoever’s snogging in there—get out before Filch finds you.”
Vera and Ryu locked eyes.
Before she could even breathe, his hand shot up, pressing firmly over her mouth. His palm was warm, a silent command against the gasp threatening to escape her lips.
Then, because fate was cruel, her knee brushed his thigh.
He flinched. She swore he did.
The heavy silence stretched between them like a frayed thread, one wrong move away from snapping.
Vera's back was pressed against the cold, unforgiving stone wall, and Ryu’s hand was still clamped firmly over her mouth. His body hovered dangerously close, shielding her as if they were truly guilty of whatever the idiot outside thought was happening.
Footsteps shuffled beyond the door. The stranger lingered, muttering something under their breath before—finally—fading away down the corridor.
Neither of them moved. Neither of them spoke. They just—stayed.
His hand remained where it was, palm warm against her lips, fingers splayed over her cheek. They were still staring at each other, breaths shallow, chests barely rising and falling. The dim light flickered between them, carving sharp edges into his jawline, his cheekbones, the shadowed dip beneath his bottom lip.
Then, cautiously—so slowly it felt like time itself had thickened—he peeled his hand away.
A beat.
Two.
Then, with an abrupt, almost pained groan, he buried his face in her neck.
She froze.
His forehead pressed against the curve where her shoulder met her throat, his entire weight sagging against her as he exhaled. Warm breath ghosted over her skin, sending a sharp shiver down her spine. His arms caged her in, one braced against the wall beside her head, the other hanging uselessly at his side.
“Merlin’s balls,” he muttered, voice muffled against her collarbone. “I wish I was dead.”
She felt her own breath catch, every nerve in her body going rigid.
Her mind screamed at her to shove him away. To make a joke. To do something.
But her body?
Her body betrayed her.
Because bloody hell, he smelled good.
Not just good. Unfairly good.
A mix of something crisp and clean, like the air right before a storm, tangled with the lingering sharpness of his cologne. And his hair—she could smell his shampoo, something woodsy and deep, and it was so close. If she just moved her fingers slightly, she could—
No. Absolutely not.
She clenched her fists against the overwhelming urge to thread her fingers into his hair, to scratch at his scalp, to tug just to see how he’d react.
Instead, she bit the inside of her cheek so hard she nearly drew blood.
She was hyper-aware of everything.
The heat of his breath against her throat.
The solid weight of him pressing her into the wall.
The way her own heart was thundering against her ribs.
He lingered there for a moment too long.
And she knew—she knew—if she so much as twitched, this would turn into something else.
Then, as if suddenly realizing what he was doing, he jerked back.
She barely had time to school her expression before his gaze locked onto hers.
His face was flushed—not in the teasing, smug way he usually was, but genuinely, viscerally upset.
His lips parted slightly, like he wanted to say something, but nothing came out.
She swallowed, still feeling the ghost of his touch against her skin.
For a long, tense moment, neither of them spoke.
Then, finally, she managed, “You alright?”
He let out a breathless laugh—one that held no humor, then ran a hand over his face, rubbing at his eyes before dragging it through his already-messy hair.
“I—” He exhaled harshly, shaking his head. “Fuck.”
Vera’s fingers twitched. She didn’t know what she wanted to do. Slap him? Comfort him? Shove him back against the wall and—
No. Nope. Absolutely not.
Instead, she just lifted a brow. “That bad, huh?”
He dropped his hands, eyes flickering to hers, and his jaw tensed.
“I—” His tongue darted out, wetting his lips. He took another breath, steadier this time, but his voice was still rough when he said, “I shouldn’t have done that.”
She stared at him.
And that—for some reason—was what made something twist deep in her chest.
Not the proximity.
Not the breath on her neck.
Not the way he had melted against her like he had nowhere else to go.
But the way he looked genuinely shaken by it.
Like it had meant something.
Like it had meant too much.
She exhaled, rolling her eyes. “Merlin, your friends are idiots.”
His eyes snapped to hers, wary. “…What?”
She shrugged. “Like they’ve never done it before?”
He went still.
She crossed her arms. “Seriously. They caught you? Big deal. What, are they pretending they’re all pure and untouched? They’re blokes in their teens, Avery, not monks.”
He blinked at her, clearly thrown. “So you’re saying… it’s?”
“Normal.” She scoffed. “What, you thought you were the only person on earth who does it?”
His lips parted slightly, like he was about to argue, but no words came out. Instead, he looked down, rubbing the back of his neck. “I mean… I guess I knew, but…”
“You just thought no one talks about it.”
He exhaled through his nose. Then, after a pause, he asked, “So… everyone does it?”
She nodded.
“Everyone?”
“Yeah.”
He swallowed. “Even girls?”
She tilted her head, giving him a knowing look. “Why wouldn’t they?”
He opened his mouth, then closed it.
She arched an eyebrow. “What, did you think we don’t?”
“I mean… I never really thought about it.”
“Liar.”
“Shut up.”
“You’re so thick sometimes, Ruru.”
He ignored that, staring at her like he was working through something. Then, after a beat, he said, “So… you do it, then?”
She stopped short.
The shift in his tone was subtle—but enough.
His lips twitched. “What’s wrong, Black? Cat got your tongue?”
She scoffed, masking the warmth creeping up her neck. “Please, Avery, like I’d be embarrassed over this.”
“Then answer the question.”
Her arms folded tighter across her chest. “Why do you care?”
He took a slow step forward. Not much—just enough that she had to tilt her chin up to keep eye contact.
“I don’t,” he said, voice low. “I’m just curious.”
“Yeah, well, curiosity killed the cat.”
“Good thing I’m not a cat, then.”
She rolled her eyes, but she could still feel his gaze on her, sharp and unrelenting.
Her pulse ticked up.
And she hated that.
So she did what she always did—she doubled down.
“Yeah,” she said, lifting her chin. “I do.”
His smirk deepened. “Oh yeah?”
Her face heated. She should not have said that.
He tilted his head. “So, how often—”
She slapped a hand over his mouth. “Absolutely not.”
His shoulders shook with muffled laughter against her palm.
She scowled. “You’re the worst.”
He peeled her hand away, still grinning. “I was just asking—”
“You weren’t just asking. You were being a perv.”
“Takes one to know one.”
She shoved him—hard enough that he stumbled back against the shelves, making a broom rattle.
“Alright, alright,” he said, still chuckling. “I’ll drop it.”
“Good.”
A beat passed. Then—
“…So do you think about anyone when—”
She grabbed the nearest rag from the shelf and threw it at him.
He ducked, laughing. “Okay, okay! I’ll really drop it.”
She scowled, still fuming, but a traitorous smirk threatened to creep up on her lips.
Ryu caught the glint in her eye and grinned. “…Thanks.”
She blinked. “For what?”
“I dunno. For not being weird about it.”
A pause stretched between them, something unspoken hanging in the air.
Then, finally, she scoffed. “Don’t get used to it, Avery.”
He leaned back against the shelves, arms crossed, a slow smirk creeping up his face.
“Well, well,” he said. “I told you my secret. Now it’s your turn.”
“That’s not how this works.”
“Fair’s fair, Black. Spill it. Why do you need the money?”
She hesitated, shifting her weight. “It’s not that interesting.”
“Didn’t ask if it was interesting. Just asked what it was.”
She exhaled sharply. “Fine.”
He waited.
She sighed, crossing her arms. “My aunt gave me money for books and stationery for the new school year. I, uh…” She hesitated again before mumbling, “I spent it.”
His eyebrows rose. “All of it?”
“Yes, all of it,”
“Oh, that’s hilarious.”
“Shut up.”
“So that’s why you’re desperate for coins? You blew your allowance?”
“I didn’t blow it.”
“Oh no? Then what did you do with it?”
She shifted again, mumbling, “Bought stuff.”
“What kind of stuff?”
“Just… cosmetics. And…”
“And?”
“And I helped Fred buy a new helmet.”
His brows shot up. “Weasley?”
“Yes, Weasley.”
“You bankrolled one of the twins? That’s practically charity work.”
“It was a good helmet.”
He snorted. “Alright, fine. What else?”
She pressed her lips together.
“Come on, Black. Out with it.”
“…I bought a birthday present.”
His grin softened slightly. “For who?”
She shrugged. “Someone.”
He watched her for a moment, something flickering in his expression. Then he leaned in slightly, voice quieter. “So let me get this straight. You spent your entire school fund on makeup, a Quidditch helmet for someone else, and a gift for…?”
“It sounds bad when you say it like that.”
“It is bad.”
“Whatever.” She scowled. “The point is, I can’t let my aunt find out.”
“Yeah, I’d say you’re royally screwed.”
“Hence why I need the money.”
“You’re an absolute menace.”
“And you’re paying me, so I don’t see the issue.”
“So… cosmetics, huh?”
“Don’t."
“You trying to impress someone, Vera?”
She shoved him, scowling as he laughed. “You’re the worst.”
“Hey, I think it’s cute. You wanna look pretty for me, don’t you?”
“In your dreams, Avery.”
“Yeah, yeah, we’ve covered that already.”
She groaned. “Are we done here?”
“For now.” He grinned. “But you are gonna let me see what you bought, right?”
“Absolutely not.”
He chuckled. “We’ll see.”
“Well, you better get that money fast.”
“And you better prepare yourself for our upcoming snogging practice.”
Her cheeks burned. “I hate you.”
“Liar.” He winked. “Now, be a good girl and wait for me in class.”
“Where are you going?”
“Owlery.” He stretched. “Gotta send the letter.”
“Don’t take forever,” she muttered, shifting her weight.
“Miss me already?”
She shoved his shoulder. “Get lost, Avery.”
And with that, he pushed open the door, walking out with a smirk, leaving her standing there, cursing him—and, more frustratingly, cursing the way her stupid heart thudded a little too hard in her chest.
Thursday, October 3, 1991
She didn’t give it much thought at first. Why would she? It was just a stupid deal, right? A kiss. Nothing more. She was supposed to be indifferent. Just get the money, do the kiss, and move on. Simple.
But as soon as she got back to the dorm that afternoon, the knot in her stomach tightened. She paced her room, her hands running over the clothes in her wardrobe, unsure of what to wear.
She tried on dress after dress, shirt after shirt, but nothing felt right. Everything was too tight, too loose, too boring, too much. She scowled at her reflection, frustration bubbling up as she tossed another rejected outfit onto the bed.
Finally, she settled on her black skirt, pairing it with a denim jacket. She reached for her fishnets out of habit, then hesitated as she remembered that Ryu hated them. A small, petty part of her wanted to wear them anyway, but instead, she grabbed regular tights.
She turned to the mirror and ran her fingers through her hair, debating whether to try something different. Maybe a braid? A ponytail? She twisted a section experimentally, only to sigh and let it fall back into place.
At least accessories were easy—her cat earrings went on without hesitation, and she grabbed her perfume bottle and sprayed. Once. Twice. Then a few more times, just in case.
When she finally stopped, the knot in her stomach was still there.
Why the fuck am I doing this? She asked herself, but it didn’t stop her from reaching for her lip balm, applying it absentmindedly.
She turned to her bed, where Vinny, her well-worn stuffed cat, sat propped against her pillow. His black button eyes stared at her, unblinking, as they always did.
“Well?” she asked, tilting her head. “How do I look?”
Vinny, being a stuffed cat and therefore incapable of speech, said nothing. But somehow, she still felt judged.
“Oh, shut up,” she muttered, grabbing him by the little paw and giving him a shake. “I don’t care about Ryu. This isn’t about him.”
Vinny continued his silent, unwavering stare.
She huffed. “I don’t!”
More silence. More judgment.
“Okay, you know what?” She jabbed a finger at him. “You have no right to judge me. You’ve been wearing the same outfit since I was eleven.”
Vinny, insultingly, did not respond.
She dropped him back onto the bed with a sigh, smoothing out his fur as if to make amends. “You’re lucky I love you,” she grumbled, before grabbing her bag and heading for the door.
She moved quickly, her stride light but deliberate, weaving through the castle with purpose. The Astronomy Tower loomed ahead, her destination set, yet with every step, her heart pounded harder—like it was racing her own thoughts to the finish line.
When she stepped onto the tower, the night air hit her first—crisp, laced with the distant scent of rain—but it wasn’t what caught her attention.
It was him.
Ryu leaned against the railing, bathed in moonlight like it had been designed for him. It traced the sharp cut of his jaw, the slight smirk playing on his lips, the silver glint of his earring.
His dark hair, tousled by the wind, fell into his eyes—eyes that flicked up to meet hers with an easy confidence that made her immediately want to knock him down a peg.
“Took you long enough,” he drawled.
She scoffed. “I was debating whether this was worth my time.”
“And?”
She crossed her arms. “Still undecided.”
He let out a soft chuckle, then tossed something her way. She caught it on instinct, the familiar jingle of coins ringing in her palm. A pouch, full and heavy.
“How the hell did you manage this?” she asked, weighing it.
“Told my father I needed a new broom.”
She narrowed her eyes. “But you just got a new broom.”
He shrugged, too nonchalant. “It broke.”
For a second—just a second—she was impressed. A reckless, stupid, ridiculous thing to do, and yet... a warmth curled in her chest. She pushed it down immediately, masking it behind an eye roll as she loosened the pouch and peeked inside.
Ryu watched her, unimpressed. “You don’t trust me?”
“Oh, I do,” she said sweetly. “I just like counting coins.”
He let out a dramatic sigh.
She cinched the pouch shut and stuffed it into her denim jacket.
But then…
Her gaze lifted instinctively, drawn to the stars.
She couldn’t help but get lost in them, the vastness making everything else seem so small, so far away. Time seemed to stretch, her thoughts slowing, as she lingered in the quiet, mesmerized by the celestial display.
“What is it?” he asked, watching her from where he stood.
She didn’t look at him. “The stars look beautiful tonight.”
Ryu, though, never looked at the sky.
His eyes were fixed on her, tracing her every movement, watching her like she was the most fascinating thing in the world.
“Yeah,” he whispered softly. “They are.”
She blinked, finally looking down at him, a little breathless as the distance between them suddenly felt like a chasm.
"Alright," she said, her voice steady despite the flutter in her chest. "Let’s practice."
His amusement flickered into something else, something sharper, and he straightened, rolling his shoulders. “Have you done this before?”
She scoffed. “Yeah.”
That answer came too fast, too stiff.
His eyes narrowed. “That was unconvincing.”
“Like you’re some expert.”
“I am.”
Now that was unconvincing.
Her lips twitched. “Sure you have.”
He exhaled sharply through his nose. “Shut up and come here.”
He grabbed her by the waist then pushed her gently against the railing, the cold metal biting through her jacket. He stepped closer, the space between them shrinking, the air suddenly heavier. His hand hovered near her waist before he finally leaned in—slow, painfully slow—until his lips brushed hers.
And then, just as quickly, it was over.
She blinked at him, deadpan. “Are you fucking kidding me?”
His brows pulled together. “What?”
“That wasn’t a kiss, Avery. That was a peck. A mum-tucking-you-in-at-night peck.”
“Alright, if you’re such an expert, you do it.”
“Fine.”
She switched places with him, standing tall while he leaned back against the railing. Their roles reversed, but this time, she was in control.
Or at least, she pretended to be.
The night air had a bite to it, but he was warm—too warm—his presence shifting the space between them. His usual smirk was gone now, replaced by something else—something quieter, more uncertain.
She stepped closer, deliberate, slow, letting the moment stretch just enough to make him wait. His eyes stayed locked on hers, sharp and unreadable, but she could feel the way his chest rose just a little deeper, like he had to remind himself to breathe.
“First,” she murmured, reaching for his hand, “you need to do something with these.”
She guided his palm to her waist.
His fingers curled slightly, his grip firm but hesitant, like he wasn’t sure how much to take.
He swallowed. “And the other one?”
She hesitated for a fraction of a second before lifting his other hand, bringing it to rest lightly against her throat.
His thumb barely skimmed her jaw, a featherlight touch, but it was enough to make her pulse betray her.
His eyes darkened, watching her now like he had all the time in the world. “Anything else, Professor?”
“Yeah.” Her voice had softened, her control fraying at the edges. “Close your eyes.”
He did.
This was it.
She exhaled slowly, steadying herself as she leaned in, the space between them dissolving inch by inch. His breath was warm, steady, and she could feel it against her lips, could almost taste the anticipation between them.
Her heart pounded. He was right there, waiting, just waiting—
And then—
Panic.
Her mind slammed the brakes, her pulse spiking for an entirely different reason. Before she could stop herself, she pulled back, stumbling like she’d touched fire.
His eyes snapped open, confusion flickering beneath the frustration. “Vera?”
She shook her head too quickly, refusing to meet his gaze. “I— I can’t.”
Her breath came shallow as she took a step back, her mind racing to untangle the knot forming in her chest.
Ryu straightened, the teasing edge in his eyes replaced with quiet concern. He studied her carefully, his hands still half-raised as if unsure whether to reach for her or let her go.
“Why?” he asked, his voice softer than she’d ever heard it.
She swallowed hard, forcing herself to meet his gaze. “I lied before.” Her fingers curled into fists. “I’ve never kissed anyone.”
He didn’t react, just waited, listening.
She exhaled shakily, pressing a hand to her temple. “I just—I want my first kiss to be special, not part of some stupid agreement.”
Her chest tightened as she reached into her jacket pocket, fingers curling around the pouch of money. She pulled it out and pressed it into his hand. “I’m sorry,” she murmured.
Ryu looked down at the pouch, turning it over in his palm. For a moment, he said nothing. Then he let out a small, almost amused sigh, and gently nudged it back toward her.
“Keep it.”
She frowned. “But I didn’t do my part. That’s not fair.”
His lips curved into something soft. “I don’t care about that.”
She blinked. “What?”
He shook his head slightly, his gaze never leaving hers. “I care about you. What you want. And if you don’t want to do this, then that’s okay.”
The sincerity in his voice knocked the breath out of her more than the near-kiss ever could.
“But your friends,” she blurted. “What are you gonna tell them?”
He shrugged. “I’ll figure something out. Don’t worry about it.”
His kindness made it worse somehow. She had braced herself for frustration, maybe even disappointment—but not this. Not patience. Not softness.
Her fingers tightened around the pouch, guilt and relief tangling inside her. She didn’t know what to say, so she just nodded.
Ryu tilted his head, watching her, then gave a small, lopsided smile. “See you tomorrow?”
She hesitated, her heart a mess of emotions she didn’t quite know how to name. And yet, she found herself nodding again, a ghost of a smile tugging at her lips.
“Yeah,” she said quietly. “See you tomorrow.”
He didn’t say anything else, just gave her one last lingering look before stepping back, letting her leave on her own terms.
As she walked away, her heart felt heavier than she expected.
And she wasn’t sure why.
Notes:
Chapter's song: Under the Milky Way - The Church
Chapter 63: Heroes
Notes:
Brace yourselves, dear readers, for this chapter is nothing short of a wild ride.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Friday, October 4, 1991
The Great Hall buzzed with its usual morning chaos—clinking goblets, flapping owls, and the collective groan of students realizing they still had homework due.
Vera slid onto the bench, dropping her bag unceremoniously beside her, but Ryu was nowhere in sight.
Odd.
He was always the first one at breakfast, as if food were a crucial part of his survival strategy.
Adrian, ever the vulture, leaned in with a smirk. “So, what exactly were you and Ryu up to last night? Because he spent a solid half hour fixing his hair before running off to meet you.”
Vera nearly choked on air.
Miles, lounging beside him, barely lifted his head from his toast. “And then he was gone for like forty minutes. I timed it.”
Adrian let out a low whistle. “Forty minutes? That’s impressive. Didn't take him for a stallion."
Vera narrowed her eyes. “What exactly are you implying?”
Miles smirked. “Come on, Black. A boy disappears for that long, comes back looking all… relieved? What else could you two have been doing?”
She groaned. “You two are actual rodents.”
“Oi, we’re just concerned for our dear friend,” Adrian said. “Maybe he needed you to, you know, clear his head.”
Miles snickered. “Or give his hands a rest.”
She shot them a glare. "I thought you two didn't believe we're dating?"
"We don't," they said in unison.
"But it could be a friends with benefits situation," Adrian said.
"Minus the ‘friends’ part," Miles added.
"Makes sense," Eudora chimed in. "I always took Ryu for those sort of arrangements,"
"You fucking cun—"
The scraping of a bench saved her.
Ryu slid into the seat beside her at the very edge of the table.
As always, he looked effortlessly cool—because life was unfair like that—but something caught her eye.
A new earring.
A small dragon dangled from his ear, mid-flight, catching the morning light in a way that was almost hypnotic.
She smirked. “Trying to send a message, or just making a fashion statement?”
He chuckled, but before he could answer, the wolves pounced.
“You’re late,” Miles said, eyeing him with barely concealed amusement. “Overslept, or just worn out?”
Adrian leaned in, grinning. “If you’re gonna sneak off to, uh, spend time with yourself, at least be discreet about it.”
Ryu didn’t even blink. “Sorry, what was that? I was distracted by the sound of your virginity screaming.”
Vera and Eudora choked on their pumpkin juice, while Jane looked absolutely horrified.
Miles clutched his chest in mock pain. “Harsh.”
Vera wiped her mouth and sighed. “You lot are all disgusting.”
Adrian grinned. “We try.”
She rolled her eyes and turned to Jane, who had been sitting quietly through the exchange.
“I like your hair bow, Jane,” she said, forcing a casual tone.
Jane blinked at her, momentarily caught off guard. She touched the bow self-consciously. “Oh—um. Thank you.”
“I got you something, by the way.”
Jane’s fingers froze on the ribbon.
Vera then dug into her bag, fishing out a cookie wrapped in parchment. A tiny, painted fox decorated the surface.
“I’m sorry.” She said, placing it in Jane’s hands.
Ryu glanced over, his lips twitching upward with admiration.
Jane stared at the cookie, then at her, confusion flickering in her expression. It had been a long time since Vera had addressed her directly, let alone given her anything.
After a pause, she finally spoke. “…You’re really bad at apologies.”
Vera huffed a small laugh. “Yeah. I know.”
Jane traced the edge of the cookie, then smiled—small, hesitant, but real. “It’s a very cute fox, though.”
Vera exhaled, relief blooming in her chest, but a movement caught her eye.
She looked up and caught Miles watching her. He didn’t smirk, didn’t tease. Just gave her a slow, unreadable smile before looking away.
What was it with these people and their barely-there expressions?
Jane turned to him, gesturing at the cookie as if asking for permission. He gave her a short nod, and she beamed before taking a bite.
The brief peace was shattered when Cassius arrived, scanning the table for an open seat. His lips curled slightly when he realized the only free space was beside Vera.
"Ryu, switch seats with her."
Ryu didn’t even look up. "No."
Cassius blinked, as if the idea of someone denying him had never occurred before.
Vera, meanwhile, had to bite back a smirk.
With a reluctant sigh, he sat down next to her.
As expected, he didn’t eat.
He simply sipped his coffee and unfolded his newspaper, the perfect image of someone far too important for the mundane task of breakfast. Every movement was deliberate, controlled—he was above all of this.
Except every so often, Vera caught his gaze flickering over the top of the paper, sharp and assessing.
It was the look of a man inconvenienced. Irritated. As if she were a stubborn stain on his pristine world, refusing to be scrubbed away.
Her lips curled into a slow, knowing smirk.
Fine.
If he wanted to be miserable, she'd make sure he suffered properly.
First, she lifted her skirt up.
Then, without hesitation, she reached beneath the table, fingers seeking Ryu’s hand. She guided him onto her bare thigh, and with all the ease of someone discussing the weather, she crossed her other leg over it, trapping him there.
Ryu inhaled sharply beside her, his whole body going rigid. His knee bumped against hers under the table, his breath a little uneven when he leaned in, his lips just brushing the shell of her ear.
“What in Merlin's name are you doing?”
She didn’t turn, didn’t react, just speared a piece of fruit with her fork and murmured back, “Improvising.”
His fingers twitched against her thigh, and a muscle in his jaw flexed. He swallowed, forcing his attention to his plate, but his hand remained where she'd placed it, caught in her trap.
Across from them, Cassius lowered his newspaper. Slowly.
His jaw was tight, tension coiling in his shoulders like a spring ready to snap. The usual aloofness he wore like armor was cracking, his grip tightening around his coffee cup, and his knuckles whitening. For a moment, he said nothing, only stared, something dark flashing behind his eyes.
Then, without a word, he stood, grabbed his coffee, turned on his heel, and stalked off.
Vera let go of poor Ryu’s hand the second he was gone.
Ryu exhaled, as if finally allowed to breathe again. He flexed his fingers against his palm like he was trying to shake off the lingering heat of her skin. After a pause, he cleared his throat and stood up.
“I need a minute."
Miles arched a brow. “Off to adjust?”
Adrian snorted, barely containing his laughter.
Ryu, already halfway from the table, turned back just enough to flick his wand. A flash of light shot across the room, striking Miles’s plate.
Instantly, his sausage jerked to life, writhing like a cornered snake before sinking its tiny, enchanted teeth into his hand.
“Bloody hell!” he yelped, flailing as the sausage latched on.
Without thinking, he shoved the whole thing into his mouth, muffling his own curses.
Ryu, satisfied, turned and strode away without another word.
As the laughter at Miles’s expense faded, Eudora turned to Vera, brushing an imaginary speck of dust from her pristine sleeve. “You should join us on Sunday."
“For what?”
Jane leaned in with an eager grin. “Tea, of course. It’s a Corrigan family tradition. Every October, without fail.”
Vera barely suppressed a gag. Tea parties. Lace tablecloths. Tiny, disgusting sandwiches. The kind of delicate social torture that made her want to fling herself off the Astronomy Tower.
She forced a polite smile. “Not my thing. Besides, I don’t exactly have a wardrobe full of fancy dresses lying around.”
Eudora waved a hand, as if that were the easiest problem in the world. “Then order one before the weekend.”
The words were so casual, so blithely obvious, that Vera let out a snort before she could stop herself. “Yeah, sure. Let me just conjure some gold while I’m at it. I'm as skint as Quirrel is bald.”
A silence settled over the table. Not awkward, but… assessing.
Eudora and Jane exchanged glances.
Then, after a beat, Eudora nodded. “Yeah we know, your aunt is tight-fisted.”
Vera blinked. “What?”
“Ryu mentioned it.”
"Mentioned... What?"
"He said your aunt is stingy.” Eudora gave her a once over, taking a sip of her drink. “Which explains everything really."
Vera’s stomach twisted. Ryu said that? Why would he—?
A strange, unsettled feeling curled in her chest, but she tried to shrug it off.
However, she couldn't.
Charms class had never felt so suffocating. She tried to focus, twirling her wand between her fingers, but the words kept echoing in her head.
Tight-fisted. Stingy.
Her movements were sharper than usual, her grip on her wand a little too tight. She didn’t realize she was glaring at her desk until Ryu nudged her elbow.
"You alright?" he murmured.
She shrugged, unwilling to meet his eyes. "Fine."
He studied her for a beat, unconvinced. But he didn’t push, and for a moment, she thought she’d let it drop.
Then, before she could stop herself, she turned to him. “Did you say my aunt is stingy?”
He went rigid, and his eyes widened, a flicker of panic crossing his face before he schooled his expression. "What?"
“Eudora said so. She invited me to a tea party on Sunday, and when I said I didn’t have money to buy a dress for it, she said it was because my aunt is stingy.” Her gaze bore into him. “And she said you told her that.”
“That’s not—” He exhaled sharply, dragging a hand through his hair. “That’s not how it was.”
She stayed silent, waiting.
He hesitated, then leaned in slightly, lowering his voice. “They were making fun of how you dress.”
Her stomach clenched.
“I wasn’t going to sit there and listen to that, so I just—” He let out a frustrated sigh. “I said that the Black family are old nobility—that they don’t need to show off their money to prove anything. Unlike them. But I never said your aunt was stingy, Vera. I swear by my honor.”
Vera didn’t know what was worse: the fact that they’d been mocking her or the fact that Ryu had felt the need to explain her away like some puzzle that needed solving.
She swallowed hard, looking down at her desk.
“Vera—”
"It's fine." She forced a smile, though it didn’t reach her eyes. “I don't bloody care. And they’re not wrong. My family really are stingy.”
He frowned, like he wanted to argue, to fix it somehow. But there was nothing to fix.
She turned back to her wand, the lesson moving on around her, but the bitter taste in her mouth remained.
“You know what?" He exhaled, shaking his head. "Go to that tea party. Wear whatever you want—fishnets, those old t-shirts with gibberish on them. Make them regret inviting you.”
Despite herself, she chuckled. “It’s not gibberish, you idiot. They're band names. Besides, I’ve got somewhere to be on Sunday.”
“Oh yeah? Where?”
She hesitated for a second too long. “Cedric’s Birthday.”
Something shifted in him. It was subtle—the way his fingers tightened around his quill, the way his expression cooled just slightly—but she caught it.
“Did he invite you?”
“It’s not an invitation thing. I can just… go.”
His jaw flexed, his grip on the quill sharpening. “But does he want you there?”
Her heart cracked right down the middle, but she didn’t let it show.
She straightened, steadying herself. “Yeah. Why wouldn’t he?”
He said nothing at first, his lips pressing into a thin line. Then, after a beat, his voice dropped. “Is Diggory who you bought the gift for?”
Guilt twisted inside her, but she nodded.
His expression didn’t change, but she could feel the anger simmering beneath the surface. He was furious, but holding it in, biting it back.
“What did you get him?”
“A framed Quidditch poster,” she said carefully. “With Jenkins on it.”
He nodded. Just once. Then nothing. Silence stretched between them, thick and heavy.
After a long moment, he finally spoke, his tone even. “Have fun.”
She swallowed, searching his face, but there was nothing there for her to hold onto.
“What about you?" She asked. "What are you doing on Sunday?”
His gaze flickered away. “Studying. With Cass. At the library.”
She hesitated, watching him. “Can I ask you something?”
He smirked. “You just did.”
Rolling her eyes, she pressed on. “Why did you fight with Cedric last year?”
His smirk faded. “I don’t remember.”
“Right. Because getting into a fistfight is such a forgettable experience.”
He sighed, rubbing his jaw like this conversation physically pained him. “He looked at me funny.”
“That’s it? He looked at you funny?”
“That’s what I said.”
She stared at him, unimpressed. “There’s more to it.”
He shrugged, offering nothing.
She sighed, shaking her head. “Just… don’t go playing hero in every little scuffle, alright?”
That made him grin, sharp and lazy. “Aw, are you worried about me?”
“Not even a little.”
“Don’t worry." His grin widened. "I’ll save all my ‘heroic’ moments just for you.”
Sunday, October 6, 1991
Sunday arrived with an unsettling weight in Vera’s chest, but she ignored it.
She dug through her trunk, pulling out her best clothes—not that she had many.
After some deliberation, she settled on a fitted black sweater and a plaid skirt that was just the right amount of casual and put-together.
She smoothed her hair, then carefully wrapped Cedric’s gift, making sure the edges were neat and crisp. It was stupid how much she wanted it to look perfect.
Before leaving, she found Katie lounging on her bed, flipping through a magazine.
“Do I look alright?” she asked, adjusting her sleeve.
Katie glanced up, giving her a once-over. “Yeah, you look good.” Then she frowned slightly. “Is Avery going with you?”
Vera snorted. “Hell no.”
“…Okay?”
Something about the way she said it made Vera’s stomach twist. She suddenly felt ridiculous, like a kid pretending not to care about something they clearly did.
She cleared her throat. “I mean, why would he? They're not friends."
Katie didn’t say anything, just gave her a look before turning back to her magazine.
Shame curled in Vera’s chest, but she pushed it down and left before she could think too much about it.
The walk to the Hufflepuff common room felt longer than usual. The castle was alive with the usual weekend energy—students laughing, couples tucked into quiet corners, the sound of distant chatter echoing through the halls.
When she finally arrived at the entrance, she hesitated for just a second before stepping inside.
The room was alive with laughter and chaos, the kind of warmth that made it impossible to feel unwelcome—at least, for most people.
The twins were at the center of it all, egging Lee on as he climbed onto the armrest of a couch, dramatically reciting a love poem to Malika.
In one corner, Tommy and Alicia were tangled up together, alternating between conversations and snogging as if the party were background noise.
Nearby, Roger was deep in conversation with Patty, while Sarah sat cross-legged on the floor, absentmindedly stroking her enormous tarantula.
Maddie and Cedric were tucked into a loveseat, his arm draped lazily around her shoulders, their heads close as they murmured something to each other.
Then Vera stepped inside.
The change in the room was immediate. The laughter didn’t quite stop, but the energy shifted. The group exchanged glances, and Maddie stiffened in Cedric’s arms.
Vera ignored it.
She walked straight up to him, holding out the neatly wrapped gift. “Happy birthday, Snorty.”
Cedric blinked, looking startled. His gaze flickered to Maddie, who was now staring at Vera like she had just spat on the floor.
Still, after a brief hesitation, he reached for the gift. “Oh—uh, thanks.”
Maddie’s eyes flashed. “What are you doing here?” She snapped.
Vera barely had time to turn before she was on her feet, stepping between her and Cedric.
“Are you serious right now?” She hissed, voice sharp enough to cut. “Do you not understand boundaries, or are you just that desperate for attention?”
The room was suffocatingly quiet, the party’s energy drained as all eyes fixed on the brewing storm between the two girls.
“Unbelievable…” Maddie scoffed. “After everything, after us, you go and throw yourself at him?”
Vera blinked, caught off guard. “What?”
“Don’t play dumb. You and Avery.” She spat the name like it was poison. "How could you?"
“That’s not—”
“That’s not what? Not what it looks like? Don’t insult me. I thought you were different. I thought you actually cared about something other than yourself.”
She tilted her head, gaze sharp and unforgiving. “Tell me, does it bother you? Knowing he hates people like me? Or do you just not care?”
Vera’s breath caught. “That’s not—he’s not—” But the words faltered because she knew exactly what Ryu was.
Maddie laughed again. “Right. Keep telling yourself that.”
Vera remained frozen, the weight of Maddie’s words pressing down on her, suffocating.
And the worst part? No one stopped it.
Not the twins. Not Lee. Not Patty. Not Angelina or Alicia. Not even Cedric, who stood there, silent, awkward, avoiding her gaze.
No one defended her.
Because maybe, just maybe, they agreed.
Maddie stepped closer, her voice trembling with fury. "You have some nerve, Vera Black. You walk in here like nothing happened, like we’re still friends, like you didn’t throw everything we believed in out the window the second he looked at you. Was it easy for you? Was it easy to forget everything we talked about? To sit there and let him say things about people like me? About Sarah's parents?” She gestured to Sarah, who sat frozen, her tarantula forgotten in her lap. “Or does it not matter to you, as long as you get to feel special?”
Vera’s vision blurred.
“Get out,” Maddie snapped, voice laced with venom. “You don’t belong here.”
Cedric shifted, uneasy. “Mads, it’s fine. She can stay—”
“Are you kidding me?!” Maddie spun on him, eyes blazing. “Don’t defend her!”
He clenched his jaw, but said nothing.
Vera swallowed, her chest aching. “No,” she said quietly, her voice barely steady. “It’s fine. I’ll go.”
Because they were right.
Every word Maddie had thrown at her hit its mark, and maybe—maybe she deserved it.
Still, as she turned, as she walked away with her heart in pieces, the shame burning in her throat—she couldn’t stop the tears that slipped down her face.
She wiped at her face furiously as she walked towards her destination, smudging her eyeliner further. She didn’t even know why she was going there—only that she had nowhere else to go.
The library was dimly lit, the usual soft murmur of students flipping pages and muttering spells under their breath filling the space. At a corner table, Ryu sat with Cassius, parchment spread out between them, discussing something lowly.
She stopped a few feet away but didn’t speak.
Ryu must have felt her presence, because his gaze lifted—and the moment he saw her eyes, his whole expression shifted.
“Vera?” His voice was softer than she expected.
She tried to answer, tried to force a smirk, a joke, anything—but the words never came. Her throat closed up, and before she could stop herself, her chest heaved—and the tears broke free.
A shaky, broken sob left her lips, and Ryu’s chair scraped against the floor as he stood up so fast it almost toppled over.
Then, before she even registered what was happening, he was there.
His hands cupped her face, his touch firm, warm, grounding. “Hey, hey, look at me,” he murmured, “What happened?”
She sniffled, her breath hitching. “They kicked me out.”
His entire body tensed.
And then—he pulled her in.
The moment his arms wrapped around her, it shattered something inside her. His scent, dark and clean, filled her senses, and the heat of his body seeped into hers.
He didn’t just hold her—he enveloped her, one hand curling protectively around the back of her head, the other pressing against the small of her back, pulling her flush against him.
She clutched at the fabric of his shirt, burying her face into the curve of his neck, feeling the way his breathing turned heavy, the way his grip tightened like he needed this just as much as she did.
“I’ve got you,” he whispered, voice rough against her ear. “I’ve got you.”
A shiver ran through her, the closeness of him making it impossible to think of anything else. The way his fingers brushed against her skin, the way his heartbeat pounded against hers.
And then—
A sharp inhale from across the table.
She barely managed to lift her gaze before she caught Cassius watching them, eyes blazing, his knuckles white as they clenched around the edge of the desk.
She pulled away, the sudden rush of reality hitting her again. She wiped her eyes, trying to regain control, but Ryu didn’t let her pull too far.
He gently nudged a chair closer to his, his fingers brushing against her arm as if to reassure her.
Without a word, she settled down beside him, resting her head against his broad shoulder, letting the steady rhythm of his breathing ground her as he returned to his notes.
The silence was thick, but it wasn’t uncomfortable.
His presence was warm, steady—his quiet murmurs of encouragement whenever she shifted in her seat were enough to ease the tension in her chest, if only for a moment.
Across the table, Cassius sat like a statue, his eyes cold, flicking between the two of them. He didn’t say anything, his jaw clenched as he continued to scan through his own notes.
Eventually, the silence was broken.
He slammed his book shut, the sound jarring against the calm of the library. “We need to go,” he muttered to Ryu, his voice tight.
Vera lifted her head, glancing up. “Where to?”
“Quidditch pitch," Ryu answered. "Miles and Adrian are practicing.”
Before she could reply, he turned his gaze to Cassius. “You go. I’m staying with Vee.”
Cassius’ eyes narrowed. “You promised we’d race.”
Vera looked between them, the tension in the air palpable.
She swallowed, a wave of guilt rising in her chest. “It’s okay,” she said quietly. “You can go.”
Ryu turned back to her, his expression softening. “Are you sure?”
She nodded, trying to smile. “Yeah, I’m sure.”
Cassius groaned, his frustration clear as he leaned back in his chair.
“Do you want to join us?” Ryu asked her.
She was surprised by the offer, but something in her couldn't turn it down. She smiled faintly and nodded.
He gathered his books with quick, efficient movements. “Cass, take Vera and go; I need to grab my broom from my dorm. I’ll join you guys in a bit.”
Cassius opened his mouth to argue but shut it, visibly restraining himself.
He hated the idea, but after a tense moment, he sighed, his shoulders slumping. “Fine,” he muttered, glaring at Vera as he stood.
The walk to the Quidditch pitch was quiet, the fading light of sunset casting a soft glow over the Hogwarts grounds.
Vera kept her gaze ahead, lost in her thoughts, the weight of everything from earlier still heavy in her chest. She could feel Cassius beside her, his presence a looming shadow, but neither of them spoke.
It wasn’t until the pitch was in sight, the large wooden bleachers starting to take shape against the golden light of the horizon, that he finally broke the silence.
“You don’t deserve him.”
She didn’t flinch, and kept her gaze fixed forward, determined not to give him the satisfaction of a reaction.
Cassius, however, had no such restraint.
He matched her stride, his eyes narrowing with calculated disdain. “You honestly think he cares about you, Black? Don’t make me laugh. You’re a means to an end, a piece on his little board, nothing more.”
She felt the heat of his words, but she stayed calm, her eyes glued to the horizon. “And how exactly would you know that?”
“Oh, please. He’s not going to accept you, not really—not with all your Muggle sympathies and ridiculous ideals. He’s playing a game, using you to further his own ends. And when the game’s over, he’ll toss you away.”
“What makes you so sure of yourself?”
“Because I’m not blind or stupid. The only reason he’s with you is because of your bloodline.”
"I’m just not interested in your little world of superiority and bloodlines.”
"Of course you’re not. You’d rather stick your nose in the dirt, all for the sake of some absurd fantasy. You think you’re some revolutionary, don’t you? Pathetic.”
She stopped walking and turned to face him, her eyes narrowing as she met his gaze. “And why does it hurt you so much?”
He didn’t answer immediately, his gaze flickering as if she’d hit some nerve.
Then, with a scoff, he said, “He’s my mate. I care about him. I want to protect him. Unlike your so-called friends who tossed you aside.”
She stood there, her chest tightening as she felt the wave of emotions rise within her.
Looking around, her eyes caught the familiar surroundings—the very same spot where, last year, she had collapsed under the weight of everything, right in front of him.
"Not everyone needs a hero, Warrington," she said, her voice steady. "Some of us have learned to stand on our own. But I suppose that’s something you’ve never had to figure out."
The words left her lips before she could fully process them, but the second they did, she saw the shift in him. His posture stiffened. There was a cold fury in his eyes, a side of him she hadn’t expected to see.
"Careful, Black," he replied, taking a step closer. "A snake's bite can be venomous, and you wouldn't want to find that out the hard way."
She froze, the shock of his reaction washing over her. She thought she had hit a nerve, but she hadn’t anticipated that level of anger. For a moment, they stood there, locked in a charged silence.
Then, without another word, he turned on his heel and walked away.
Her boots thudded against the ground as she made her way to the Quidditch pitch alone. The cold wind stung her cheeks, but her thoughts were miles away, focused on the last encounter that left her both satisfied and strangely unsettled.
As she neared the pitch, her gaze drifted across the field.
Her eyes narrowed when she spotted him floating lazily above the others, and chatting animatedly with Draco.
He reached over, ruffling his cousin's platinum blonde hair, and Draco swatted him away with a grin, clearly enjoying the camaraderie.
She couldn't help but feel a mix of irritation and envy, and rolled her eyes before making her way towards the benches.
“Vera! Over here!” Jane waved her over enthusiastically.
“Hey,” she greeted, leaning back into the bench.
“So, are you ready for your boyfriends to lose against mine?” Eudora asked with a playful smirk.
“Oh please,” Jane said. "As if he could ever beat my Miles."
“Not if Ryu has anything to say about it,” Vera added, her eyes twinkling as she glanced out at the pitch.
Sure enough, a few moments later, Ryu appeared, carrying two brooms over his shoulder with an air of nonchalance.
His lips curled into a grin as he made his way over, taking one of the brooms and offering it to her.
She raised an eyebrow. “What’s this?”
“I want to race you."
She hesitated for a moment, biting her lip as uncertainty crept in. “I’m not really good at flying,” she admitted.
His smile only deepened, and to her surprise, there was no judgment in his eyes—only amusement. “That’s fine,” he said, his tone warm and reassuring. “I’ll teach you. We’ve got time.”
She blinked, momentarily taken aback by his lack of teasing.
As the night wore on, they sat side by side, taking breaks to chat and laugh. They talked about everything from trivial things, like how certain brooms felt better than others, to deeper topics, like their frustrations with school and shared hatred for chicken sausages.
The warmth between them felt easy, natural even, and Vera found herself more comfortable with him than she expected.
Then, Miles, Adrian, and Cassius approached with their usual swagger.
“Ready to lose, Avery?” Miles asked, nudging Ryu’s shoulder with his own.
“Remind me,” Ryu replied. “Who exactly is a dragon rider here?”
Adrian scoffed. "Big difference, mate."
“Not at all,” Ryu shot back. “Controlling a dragon that weighs tons is, in fact, much harder than a featherlight broom."
"Touché." Miles said.
Cassius, who had remained quiet up until that point, looked at the extra broom with a raised brow. “What’s this?” he asked.
Ryu shrugged. “Vera's joining.”
"Pffft!" Cassius laughed arrogantly. “Black couldn’t even make it off the ground if her life depended on it.”
The words hit like a slap, and Vera’s blood began to boil.
“Ever seen a crow that can’t fly?” he added with a smirk, his eyes narrowing as he looked at her. "Because I've got one right here."
The jab stung, but she didn’t back down.
“Crows are still faster than snakes, Warrington.”
“Oh, really?" He raised an eyebrow, daring her. "Prove it.”
She froze, her heart pounding.
The challenge was clear, but a gnawing panic settled in her stomach. She barely knew how to control a broom, let alone race against someone like Cassius, who had been flying for years.
She could feel the pressure building, the eyes of everyone on her, waiting for her to take the bait.
Cassius’s gaze turned cold as he watched her struggle. “That’s what I thought,” he sneered, a cruel smirk tugging at the corner of his lips.
Her mind raced, her anger flaring hotter. She hated how he spoke to her, how his words always seemed to strip her of her confidence.
She wanted nothing more than to shove him off his broom, fire a hex his way, and watch him flounder. The thought of humiliating him, making him feel even a fraction of the frustration he made her feel, was tempting.
But then, as she sat there, the heat of the moment overwhelming her, she realized something.
Cassius’s smug expression, the way he looked at her like she was beneath him—it wasn’t that he wanted to humiliate her.
He wanted to hurt her.
Game. Fucking. On.
Taking a deep breath, she forced the anger down, and turned to Ryu. “Darling, I think I'm gonna go back to my dorm. I'm tired.”
Ryu looked at her for a moment, concern flickering across his face. “Do you want me to accompany you?” he asked, his voice gentle.
She smiled, the corners of her lips curling in a way that seemed to disarm him entirely. “No, I’ll be fine,” she replied softly. “But you’re so sweet for asking.”
His heart fluttered at her words, his expression softening as she stood.
She leaned toward him, stepping into the space between his knees, and for a brief second, he tensed.
Without warning, her hands cupped his face, her touch gentle but deliberate. She could feel the heat of his skin under her gloved palms as his breath hitched, and for a moment, everything around them seemed to disappear.
Her gaze lingered on him, her fingers tracing the outline of the dragon-shaped earring hanging from his ear.
“I really do like these,” she said, her voice low and teasing.
Ryu, utterly frozen in the moment, couldn’t quite process the shock that rushed through him. His face flushed deep red, his breath shallow as he looked into her eyes, feeling like he had lost control of his own body.
The silence around them was deafening. Miles, Adrian, and even Cassius were all staring at the exchange, stunned and unsure of what to make of it.
The tension in the air thickened, but she seemed oblivious to everything... everything except Ryu.
She leaned closer, her lips brushing near his ear. “Can I kiss you?”
His breath caught in his throat, and he looked into her eyes, his heart pounding wildly. There was no hesitation in his gaze, only a deep desire that mirrored her own.
He nodded, almost imperceptibly, too stunned to form words.
And with that single movement, everything changed.
The last thing he saw before her lips met his was the flicker of a smile playing across her face, and then everything else disappeared.
The second their lips met, it was like the world had paused, holding its breath.
Vera’s touch was gentle but certain, her lips soft against his, as if testing the waters before she allowed herself to fully embrace the connection.
The kiss was slow at first, each movement deliberate, a dance between uncertainty and desire. But as it stretched on, the tension between them seemed to evaporate, replaced with an urgency that neither of them had anticipated.
The way Ryu responded, his lips moving against hers with a gentle, almost questioning eagerness, made her heart race even faster.
It wasn’t rushed, it wasn’t hurried—it was everything they’d both been holding back, unleashed in a single, electrifying moment.
The kiss deepened, and the world seemed to melt away completely. There was no one else in the pitch anymore—just the electricity between them, the way their bodies seemed to pull closer without thinking.
His hands moved, unsure at first, before resting against her back, pulling her in just a little tighter.
There was something intoxicating about him—something new and heady that made the moment feel almost unreal to her.
She could feel the warmth of him seeping through her, the rush of emotions she hadn’t expected.
She was fully aware of the sharpness of his breath, the way his body stiffened slightly in surprise, and yet, there was an undeniable pull, a connection that drew them both in.
It was dizzying, and for that brief moment, nothing else mattered. They were infinite.
When they finally broke apart, it was as if the world had exhaled.
The night air felt cooler now, the heat from their bodies lingering between them as they both tried to steady their breathing. And yet, neither of them moved away, unable to pull themselves from the magnetic force they had created together.
The stillness around them was deafening, the sound of their rapid heartbeats the only thing that filled the silence.
After a moment, she pulled back slightly, her hands still resting on his shoulders. "Would you like to walk me to breakfast tomorrow?" she asked with a soft smile.
Ryu, still breathless from the intensity of the kiss, nodded quickly, unable to find the words for a moment. His heart was still racing, his mind a whirlwind of thoughts, but the simple question seemed to settle him, grounding him back in the moment.
"I'd like that," he managed after a moment, his voice low, almost hoarse.
Her smile deepened, and without thinking, she leaned in just enough to press a soft kiss against his cheek, lingering there for a brief second.
"Thank you, love." she whispered, her breath warm against his skin. "Goodnight."
Ryu sat frozen for a moment, still trying to catch his breath, his heart pounding so loudly in his chest he was sure the entire pitch could hear it.
He reached up to touch his cheek where she had kissed him, a soft, lingering touch, as if making sure he hadn’t imagined the whole thing. His mind was still a mess, but he couldn’t help but smile, a smile that was all him.
And then, in the distance, there was Cassius, his expression twisted with fury and frustration.
His eyes followed Vera as she walked away, his jaw clenched so tightly it looked like it might break. His fists were curled at his sides, the anger burning in his gaze.
As Vera walked away from the pitch, she expected to feel a rush of guilt or shame, maybe even regret for the boldness of her actions.
But instead, all she felt was a sense of satisfaction.
She looked up at the stars, their brilliance twinkling overhead. The thrill of the moment, the way her body had responded, the way Ryu had kissed her—it was all beautiful in ways she hadn’t imagined.
With a giddy laugh, she turned on her heel and raced back toward the castle, her feet barely touching the ground as she moved.
As soon as she reached the dormitory, she rushed to her desk, barely bothering to light the candle before grabbing a piece of parchment.
Dear Kaya,
I just had my first kiss, and it was bloody perfect!!!!!!
Notes:
Chapter's song: Heroes - David Bowie
Chapter 64: Bigmouth Strikes Again
Chapter Text
Monday, October 7, 1991
Vera woke up the next morning with the remnants of last night’s thrill still humming in her veins.
The memory of Ryu’s lips, the warmth of his hand on her waist, and the look in his eyes played in her mind like a favorite song. She stretched, rolling onto her side, and buried her face in her pillow, smiling against the fabric.
With a deep breath, she pushed herself out of bed, quickly getting dressed before making her way out of the common room. But the second she stepped into the hallway, her heart stuttered in her chest.
He was there.
Leaning against the wall, arms crossed, one foot propped casually against the stone, he looked effortlessly cool. His almond eyes flickered up to hers, and for a moment, neither of them spoke. Then, forcing herself to act normal, she approached him.
“What are you doing here?” she asked, keeping her voice light, though she felt anything but.
He pushed off the wall and met her gaze. “You asked me to walk you to breakfast.”
“Oh,” was all she managed.
A small smirk tugged at the corner of his lips. “Did you think I wouldn’t?”
She opened her mouth, then shut it.
Yes, actually.
But she wasn’t about to admit that. Instead, she just shook her head and started walking, Ryu easily falling into step beside her.
At first, silence stretched between them, awkward in a way neither of them was used to. They both seemed to avoid looking directly at each other, sneaking glances when they thought the other wasn’t watching.
It was ridiculous.
Finally, Ryu broke the silence. “So… how’s your pillow holding up?”
She blinked at him, baffled. “What?”
“Y’know, after all those intense snogging sessions it’s been subjected to.”
She froze, mouth slightly agape, utterly scandalized.
And then, to her own astonishment, she burst into laughter.
It was uncontrollable, bubbling up from her chest like a shaken-up potion. Ryu just watched her, clearly pleased with himself.
"Was my kiss that good?" she asked, still breathless.
His ever-present smirk softened, just a little. “It was… something else.”
She smiled, and for a moment, something unspoken settled between them. It wasn’t teasing, wasn’t playful—it was just them.
"Thank you," he said, and it wasn’t the usual cocky remark.
She tilted her head. “Are you thanking me for kissing you, Avery?”
His gaze flickered to hers, warm and sincere. “Thank you for making it special.”
That caught her off guard. Her breath hitched slightly, and for the first time since this ridiculous charade started, she didn’t have a witty response.
Then, as if remembering himself, he suddenly sighed, shaking his head. “Because, uh… Now my friends all think we’re actually dating.”
"Oh..."
Something in her chest tensed, just for a second, but she pushed it down and forced an easy grin. “So, um, Miles lost the bet?”
“Yeah. And now I’m trying to think of a good punishment.”
“Oh, let me help. I’ll make him suffer.”
“Gladly. Though I feel like I should be worried about the ideas you’re already cooking up.”
She shook her head, amused, before nudging him lightly. “Alright, so, if we’re going to keep this up, we need a signal or something. Y’know, to let each other know we’re about to go for a kiss.”
He halted, turning to her. “You want to keep doing it?”
“Only if you do.”
For the first time that morning, his smirk faded—replaced by something real. A true, unguarded smile.
“Alright,” he said, considering. “If you want a kiss, just touch my ear.”
She arched a brow, amused. “And you?”
“I’ll pinch your waist.”
She rolled her eyes. “Subtle.”
“Very.”
They locked eyes, grinning, before saying in perfect unison: “Deal.”
From that morning on, it became a game. A wicked, exhilarating game that only they knew the rules to.
At lunch, they sat side by side at the Slytherin table, surrounded by his usual group. The conversation was casual—Quidditch, homework, who had pissed off which professor—until Vera suddenly leaned in, tracing the edge of his ear with her fingertips.
Ryu didn’t hesitate.
His hand slid to her waist, fingers tightening just enough to send a shiver up her spine before he pulled her in, pressing a slow, deliberate kiss to her lips. It was brief but just long enough to make Miles drop his fork.
“Bloody hell,” Adrian muttered, staring between them. “That definitely isn’t fake.”
Eudora wrinkled her nose. “You lot should come with a warning.”
Miles finally snapped out of his shock, grabbing his fork. “I thought you said you didn’t like public displays,” He pointed accusingly at Vera.
"Guess I lied.” She replied, wiping her mouth with the back of her hand.
Ryu, thoroughly enjoying himself, leaned on his palm. “Or maybe she changed her mind.”
She smirked, catching Cassius glowering from across the table.
“Yeah, well…” she said teasingly, tracing Ryu’s lips with her fingers. “I can’t resist you, darling.”
At the library, she sat beside him, her quill scratching against parchment, pretending to study while secretly plotting her next move.
Cassius sat across from them, arms crossed, barely reading his book. But she could feel his gaze, burning, watching.
Perfect.
Casually, she lifted a hand and brushed Ryu’s earring.
He didn’t even look up. Just reached under the table and squeezed her thigh.
Cassius slammed his book shut.
Across from them, Adrian groaned. “Ugh, can you two take this somewhere else?”
“Yeah,” Miles added, shoving his book away. “Honestly, it’s disgusting at this point.”
Vera turned to Ryu, who was smirking down at his notes, completely unbothered.
“Maybe we should,” she said sweetly.
Without looking at them, he took her hand and pressed a slow kiss to her gloved knuckles. “See you boys later,” he said smoothly, leading her away.
Cassius looked like he was ready to burn the entire library.
She couldn't understand why he was so angry.
Sure, he was a condescending git, and sure, she loved getting under his skin—but this level of rage? It didn’t make sense.
And frankly, she didn’t care.
But as Ryu led her away, she hesitated. Leaving now felt too obvious.
She turned to him, lowering her voice. “It’s kinda rude to ditch them, don’t you think?”
He raised a brow, glancing back at his friends—Miles and Adrian were already making exaggerated sexual noises, while Cassius sat stone-faced, knuckles white against the table.
“Fair point,” he murmured. “We should stay.”
And with that, Vera made a choice.
Instead of sitting back in her own chair, she dropped herself onto his lap.
Ryu went rigid beneath her, his whole body tensing so violently that his quill snapped in his hand.
She smothered a laugh, pretending to be unbothered as she opened her notes and spread them over both their laps.
“This way, we can read together,” she said, feigning innocence.
He let out a slow, controlled breath, his hands gripping the edge of the chair like his life depended on it. She could feel the heat radiating from his body, the way he was trying so hard not to shift under her.
Across the table, Adrian looked like Christmas had come early.
“Oh, this is good,” he whispered, elbowing Miles, who was openly staring.
Cassius, on the other hand, looked murderous.
But Vera wasn’t done.
She adjusted, ever so slightly, trying not to put her full weight on Ryu—but that only made things worse.
His hands shot to her hips, holding her steady before she could move again. His fingers dug in just a little, as if warning her.
“You comfortable?” he muttered under his breath, strained.
“Very,” she said sweetly, keeping her eyes on her notes.
Eudora suddenly lifted her head from her magazine, where she had been flicking through some astrology game, and turned to Vera with a curious expression.
“What’s a food you’ve always wanted to try?” she asked.
Vera blinked, caught off guard. “Uh… Sushi.”
Adrian immediately snorted, shaking his head. “You’ve never had sushi?”
She shot him a look. “Is that a crime?”
“Nah, just tragic.”
Eudora nodded thoughtfully, then turned another page in her magazine. “Okay, and what’s a spell you’d love to learn?”
Vera thought about it for a second, then grinned. “A strong Incendio spell. So I can be a dragon like my boyfriend.”
Ryu smirked, clearly pleased with the answer, and Cassius rolled his eyes.
Eudora continued. “And what place would you like to visit?”
That one made Vera pause.
Her mind immediately filled with all the cities she had always dreamed of seeing—Paris, Marseille, Lyon. Places she thought her mother might have walked through once. But after a moment, another name came to mind, one that felt heavier, more real.
She smiled softly. “Lysveil.”
“Lysveil?” Adrian laughed. “That boring town in France? What’s in bloody Lysveil except trees and cow sh—”
Eudora smacked him on the shoulder before he could finish, and Miles subtly kicked him under the table.
And Ryu—without a word—tightened his grip on Vera’s waist. It was small, barely noticeable, but she felt it. A quiet, steadying touch.
Adrian, rubbing his arm, frowned in confusion. “What?”
Then he thought about it.
“Oh,” he said, looking at Vera more seriously. “That’s where your mum is from?”
She hesitated, but then nodded, smiling a little. “Yeah… it’s home to the House of Rosier.”
Jane’s face softened. “Why haven’t you ever been?”
“I never really had a connection with my mother’s family. But… I want to. One day.”
She looked down at her hands, tracing invisible patterns on the table. “So that when I finally meet her, I’ll have something to tell her about.”
The words hurt to say.
Ryu didn’t hesitate. His arm curled fully around her waist now, pulling her closer.
She leaned into it, grateful, squeezing his forearm in return.
Eudora sighed, smiling wistfully. “That’s so sweet—”
“I thought your mum was dead.”
The words cut through the air like a blade.
The entire table went silent.
Vera’s breath hitched, and her head swiftly snapped up.
Cassius.
He stared at her from across the table, face unreadable. Unapologetic. “Isn’t she?”
“No,” she quickly said, her voice sharper than she intended. “She’s not dead.”
He tilted his head slightly. “But how do you know?”
Her throat tightened.
She didn’t know.
Not really.
But she couldn’t—wouldn’t—let herself doubt it.
Ryu’s grip on her tightened again, grounding her.
She wanted to cry. Wanted to scream. But she wouldn’t give Cassius the satisfaction.
Instead, she smiled. Bright. Confident. Unshaken.
“She’s alive,” she pressed, her voice steady. “I feel it in my core.”
Cassius held her gaze, unflinching. His expression was Indecipherable, but his green eyes—dark and sharp—felt almost accusing.
She couldn't believe it.
Cassius, of all people, throwing something like that at her? Cassius, who had lost his own mother?
For a brief moment, doubt crept in. Maybe he hadn’t meant it cruelly. Maybe it was just Cassius being Cassius—blunt to a fault, incapable of sugarcoating anything.
But no.
She knew what cruelty looked like, and this was it.
Fine, then.
If he wanted to upset her, she’d return the favor.
She turned her head, pressing closer to Ryu, still half in his lap. One of her hands slid to his chest, fingers splaying over the fabric of his shirt as she tilted her face up, brushing her lips against his in a slow, deliberate kiss.
This time, she didn’t hold back.
Her tongue flicked out, teasing, testing, before she deepened the kiss, coaxing him into it. A quiet sound rumbled in his throat, and his grip on her waist tightened reflexively. For a second, he kissed her back just as hungrily, his fingers flexing like he wanted to pull her even closer.
Then, as if remembering himself, he stiffened, his breath coming quicker as he broke away.
When she pulled back, his face was flushed—actually flushed.
His lips were still parted, his expression just slightly dazed, and for the first time, she might’ve just left him breathless instead of the other way around.
“I—” He cleared his throat, shifting uncomfortably. “I need to go to the lavatory.”
Her smile was instant, wicked and knowing. “Oh?”
He shot her a sharp look, but the tips of his ears were red. “Shut up.”
She slid off his lap, letting him go. But as he stood, she couldn’t help but notice the way he adjusted his robes, turning slightly away from the table.
Cassius, still staring, scoffed under his breath and looked away.
She smirked, clearly satisfied, then wandered off, heading towards the stack of newspapers near the entrance of the library.
Grabbing one, she walked back to the table, flipping open The Wizarding Chronicle as she sat down—this time in her own chair.
She barely had time to unfold it before Miles scoffed, leaning back in his chair with a look of pure disgust.
"You're actually reading that garbage?" he sneered.
She didn’t bother looking up. “It’s a newspaper, Bletchley.”
“It’s that newspaper.”
“And?”
“It’s disgusting.”
She let out a dry laugh. “Right. Because caring about the poor is just so vile, isn’t it?”
“It doesn’t care about the poor, you naïve git. It uses the poor to spread hatred against purebloods.”
“Purists, you mean?”
That set him off. “No, Black, I mean purebloods—”
“He’s right.” Adrian cut in before she could retort. “That rag is full of lunatics who act like we’re the villains for keeping magic in the hands of actual wizards.”
“That’s not what it’s about,” she argued. “It calls out people who hoard wealth and power—”
“Like I said,” Adrian drawled.
Her grip on the paper tightened. “Oh, give me a break. You’re just mad that someone’s questioning the system that benefits you.”
Adrian rolled his eyes. “Well, I’d rather die than read something written by a man who takes it up the ass.”
Cassius shifted slightly in his seat.
Vera’s blood ran cold. “What?”
Adrian scoffed. “I would never take a faggot’s opinion seriously.”
She blinked. “Who—What… Huh?”
“Hugh Blackwood,” Adrian gave her a look like she was stupid. “He’s a sissy cocksucker faggot. Everyone knows it.”
Cassius sat up straighter, his jaw tightening.
Vera, on the other hand, was furious.
“His sexuality has nothing to do with his views,” she snapped. “He’s a brilliant journalist. He cares about people. That should be the only thing that matters.”
Miles let out a short laugh. “He’s an extremist—”
“It’s not extreme to demand equality.”
“You sound just like him, Black.”
“Maybe that’s because I actually think, Bletchley.”
Adrian leaned forward, sneering. “Well, it’s unnatural.”
She narrowed her eyes. “What is?”
“Them.” He said it like it was obvious. “What they do goes against nature. Against instinct.”
“That’s ridiculous.”
“It’s true,” Miles muttered. “You can’t seriously think—”
“Who the fuck cares who he sleeps with?”
“That point is, he’s not a true wizard,” Adrian said. “None of those poofs are.”
Vera opened her mouth, ready to unleash hell—but then Adrian turned to Cassius.
“What do you think, Cass?”
“Yeah,” Miles pressed. “What’s with the sudden silence, mate?”
Cassius didn’t even lower his newspaper. “Hugh Blackwood’s opinions and sexual orientation have nothing to do with each other.”
Silence.
It was so shocking, so wildly unexpected, that no one knew how to respond.
Vera turned her head slowly, staring at him in pure disbelief.
Cassius, of all people, defending a gay man?
Adrian and Miles looked just as stunned.
Cassius let the moment drag out before finally lowering the paper. He folded it methodically, smoothed out the creases, and set it down in front of him.
And then, with the same cold certainty he always carried, he said—
“But it’s still disgusting.”
The air in the library shifted.
“You’re all acting like the issue is whether his journalism is valid,” he continued, “when the real issue is that people like him shouldn’t exist in the first place.”
Vera felt sick.
“It’s unnatural. It goes against the universe, against the balance of magic itself. What kind of man chooses to be with another man? What kind of wizard ignores the very laws that shape our world? They contribute nothing to society. They can’t produce heirs, they can’t uphold their bloodlines. They’re a dead end. A flaw. But what’s worse, is that people like you”—he glanced at Vera—“actually defend them. Act as if they deserve the same respect as proper wizards.”
She forced herself to breathe. “Because they do.”
“Then you’re a fool.”
Her whole body burned with rage. She wanted to hex him, to kill—
But instead, she set her jaw, and lifted her chin. “You’re wrong. Warrington.”
“I can be wrong about a lot of things, Black. But this? Never.”
Ryu’s voice cut through the tension like a soothing balm. “What’s going on?”
Vera forced herself to steady her breath, her grip tightening slightly on the newspaper in her hands.
Across the table, Cassius smirked, leaning back lazily in his seat. “Nothing, mate. We were just discussing politics.”
Ryu turned to Vera, searching her face. “You alright?”
She nodded, offering him a small, practiced smile. “Yeah. Fine.”
He didn’t look convinced, but he let it go—for now.
Straightening, he glanced at the boys. “We need to get ready for dueling practice. Quirrell's going to let us have our first one tomorrow."
Adrian groaned. “Now? Not after dinner?”
“Exactly,” Ryu said. “If we don’t go now, we’ll be too full to move later.”
“Speak for yourself." Cassius scoffed. "Some of us can duel without worrying about indigestion.”
“Some of us also know when to shut up,” Ryu shot back.
Miles stretched, already getting up. “Alright, alright. Let’s go before he starts making us do warm-ups.”
The mention of duel was enough to distract Vera for a moment, but she still seethed, the anger and frustration swirling within her.
Ryu, sensing her discomfort, leaned over and gave her a soft kiss on the cheek. "I'll see you later," he murmured, his voice gentle and comforting.
She nodded, trying to smile, but her gaze still lingered on Cassius as he turned to walk away with the rest of the boys.
The last thing she needed was to let him think he had any power over her, so she called out to Ryu, and he stopped, turning back with a questioning look in his eyes.
Without a second thought, she crossed the room and approached him, wrapping her arms around his shoulders before pulling him closer.
She kissed him passionately, her lips claiming his in front of Cassius and everyone else.
Ryu, taken by surprise at first, quickly leaned into the kiss, his hands coming to rest on her back, pulling her against him. It was as if he was devouring her, his kiss deepening, urgent. She could feel the heat building between them, the world around them fading away.
As her lips parted from his, she opened her eyes, not wanting to miss the moment she was creating, and glanced over at Cassius.
She expected anger. Disgust. Resentment. Outrage.
But what she saw?
Envy.
She pulled away from Ryu, her fingers lingering on his neck as she whispered, "I’ll see you later, love."
Ryu grinned, completely oblivious to the storm of emotions swirling around them, and nodded.
As they all walked away, her mind replayed the brief moment of envy she saw in Cassius’s eyes. She might not know exactly what it meant, but it felt like a small victory in the war she was slowly, but surely, winning.
Friday, October 18, 1991
The classroom buzzed with excitement, but Quirrel's attempts to keep control of the class were only half successful.
He wiped his forehead with the sleeve of his robes and cleared his throat. “Now, students, ppplease—please ssssettle down. I-I know the c-c-concept of d-d-dueling is rather exciting, but it is ess-essential we focus on the safety lesson at ha-hand,”
“But Professor," Fred yelled from across the room. “It’s just not proper dueling etiquette unless we’ve got our best moves ready!”
“That’s right!” George added, grinning. “Let the show begin!”
Quirrel, clearly flustered, gave in. “I suppose... I suppose we could give the d-d-dueling a go now, just to g-g-get it off the cu-curriculum. But remember!” His voice cracked slightly, and he shot a nervous glance at the door. “This is n-not something we d-d-do lightly!”
As the students prepared for the duel, the room erupted into chaos. Desks were pushed back, some students were whispering fervently about strategies, and others were practicing small spells under their breath.
“Quiet d-d-down!” Quirrel tried again, his voice shaking as he lifted his wand and pointed it at the ceiling to get everyone’s attention. “We will b-b-begin with a sssseries of d-duels. I’ll p-pick the pairs. Remember! No ha-harm is to come to your op-opponent. These are just practice d-d-duels, nothing more.”
With that, he raised his wand again and gestured dramatically. “Mr. M-Mallon, Mr. Weasley, you’re u-up f-f-first!”
Tommy and Fred practically jumped up, eager to show off. They squared off in the center of the room, each of them smirking.
The rest of the class leaned in, ready for whatever ridiculousness was about to unfold.
“On three?” Fred asked.
Tommy nodded, his eyes glinting mischievously. “On three.”
“Three!” Fred shouted.
In an instant, he whipped out his wand, and Tommy followed suit. Spells flew across the room, most of them missing the mark or causing objects to explode into showers of glitter and confetti.
The class erupted into laughter as their spells turned into a chaotic mess of harmless but hilarious effects.
Next up were Patty and Lee, who had a much more serious demeanor about the duel, both of them keeping their wands steady. They exchanged a few impressive spells—hexes, shields, and jinxes—with Lee eventually winning with a stunning spell that left Patty with a bright purple beard. She laughed it off, brushing the beard away.
Then, Quirrel chose Ryu and Roger.
They were both skilled, and their duel was more intense. Ryu fired a blast of fire, but Roger countered with a water spell, extinguishing the flames instantly. The duel ended quickly when Ryu cast a disarming spell, sending Roger’s wand flying across the room..
“Good job, mate,” he said as he pulled his housemate into a brief, friendly hug.
Next up was Miles and George, and it was... well, it was interesting.
The two of them exchanged spells, with George managing to slip in a few clever tricks and pranks. But Miles, determined not to lose face, didn’t go easy. He cast a spell that made George's hair grow at an alarming rate, until it was practically as tall as a tower.
The whole class burst into laughter, but George just shrugged it off, looking a little sheepish but ultimately amused.
Then, it was Sarah and Adrian’s turn, and Vera couldn't help but grin.
Sarah, quick on her feet, dodged Adrian’s jinxes with ease, and then, with a flourish, sent him flying backward with a gust of wind from her spell. He landed in a heap on the floor, and the class broke into applause.
“That’s how it’s done!” She said with a wink, while Adrian slowly picked himself up, clearly embarrassed.
Quirrel scanned the eager students, looking for his final pair for the duel. A few hands shot up, but his gaze settled on Vera.
“Miss B-black, you’ll be u-up next.”
Vera stood tall, making her way confidently to the center of the room.
Ryu, sitting back, flashed her a smile. "Good luck," he whispered.
She smiled back, her heart racing slightly.
Quirrell’s eyes flickered across the room again, scanning for someone to face her. But before he could decide, a chair scraped against the floor.
Everyone turned in shock, and Vera's stomach dropped when she saw Cassius striding forward, his eyes cold and distant.
Quirrell blinked in surprise, adjusting his robes nervously. “M-Mr. Warrington, I d-didn’t pick you.”
Cassius didn’t respond.
His hand twitched at his side as he strode forward, his usual smirk nowhere to be seen.
By the time he stopped in front of Quirrell, he was nearly eye level with him.
And he just stared.
The professor swallowed thickly, his fingers trembling slightly where they gripped his wand. A heavy silence stretched between them, broken only by the faint shuffling of students shifting in their seats.
Vera watched, heart pounding, waiting for Quirrell to say something—to assert authority, to send Cassius back.
But he didn’t.
Instead, he let out a shaky breath. “V-very well. Miss Black versus M-Mr. Warrington.”
Cassius exhaled slowly, as if satisfied, and finally turned his head to look at Vera.
His expression was normal, but his eyes? murderous.
“Alright,” Quirrel said, trying to regain control. “You t-two know the rules. We begin on three.”
Vera tried to steady her breathing, and Cassius just stood opposite her with a stiff posture.
There was something wrong about the look in his eyes. Something that felt more dangerous than the usual rivalry, and it unsettled her.
Quirrell raised his wand. “One… two—”
A hex flew at Vera before she could react.
Ryu flinched in his seat, his fists clenched.
“M-Mr. Warrington, wait for three—”
“Pardon me, professor.” Cassius smirked. “My hand slipped.”
Vera’s eyes burned with fury, as pain flared through her body, but she planted her feet, refusing to falter. "I'm fine. Let's do it again."
Cassius just nodded, his eyes never leaving her, as Quirrel began to count again. “One—”
She fired first, her spell slamming into Cassius’s chest.
“Sorry,” she said coolly. “My hand slipped.”
Cassius, his face twisted with rage, moved with a ruthless intensity, and before she could register what was happening, a spell hit her squarely on the shoulder.
She winced, trying to push through the pain, but could see how every movement of his screamed of a fury she hadn't expected.
Ryu stood up, shouting, “That’s enough!”
But Vera, despite the growing pain, shook her head. “I’m fine. Keep going.”
Cassius certainly did.
Spell after spell, relentless, ruthless.
She dodged, blocked, countered—until one struck incredibly hard.
“Vera!” Ryu shouted, his face full of anger.
Quirrel just looked on, helpless.
The force of the spell caused her to lose her footing, and she felt a sharp sting as her nose began to bleed. The warm, metallic taste soon flooded her mouth, but she wiped it away, standing tall again.
She raised her wand, ready to cast a spell of her own, but before she could even gather her strength, Cassius hit her with another, more powerful blast.
The force sent her flying through the air, her back slamming against the stone wall with a sickening thud. She crumpled to the ground, dazed, her head spinning from the impact.
Ryu’s furious shout barely cut through the ringing in her ears. “Professor, stop this!”
But it was too late.
She lay there on the floor, her head throbbing, blood trickling down her face as the room felt like it was closing in on her. Her vision was swimming as she struggled to sit up, but Ryu was already there, his face pale with fear and concern.
He reached out to her, his hands shaking slightly as he helped her to her feet.
“I’m fine,” she whispered, trying to calm him.
Ryu, however, was anything but calm.
The moment his eyes locked onto her forehead, where blood was slowly dripping down, his face twisted in anger and panic.
“What the fuck did you do?!” He shouted, turning sharply to Cassius.
Cassius, unaffected by the chaos he caused, merely shrugged. “It’s not my fault she doesn’t know how to duel.”
The words hit like a slap, but it was the lack of remorse in his eyes that made Ryu’s blood boil.
Without another word, he pushed past Vera, intent on launching himself at his best friend. His wand was already in his hand, but Quirrel’s voice stopped him before he could act.
“Mr. Avery! Please, just t-take Miss B-b-black to the hospital wing.”
Ryu’s gaze burned into Cassius for a moment longer, his chest heaving with barely restrained anger.
Then, with a sharp inhale, he turned to Vera, slipping an arm around her waist, steadying her as she rose. She leaned into him, her hand still pressed to the bleeding cut.
Together, they moved past Quirrell toward the door.
But then—
“Traitor.”
The word slithered through the air, cold and venomous.
Vera froze.
Slowly, she turned, eyes locked onto Quirrell, her voice like a blade. “What did you just say, Professor?”
Quirrel flinched, looking uncomfortable. “I... I didn’t say anything,” he stammered, his eyes darting to the floor.
“Yes, you did,” she said firmly, her voice gaining strength. “You said something.”
Quirrel’s eyes widened, but before he could respond, Cassius snorted derisively from the side.
She ignored him, her eyes returning to Quirrel, who seemed to shrink under her gaze.
She took a step closer, still not convinced by his denial. “What did you call me?”
Ryu placed a gentle hand on her shoulder. “Vera,” he murmured. “It’s true. He didn’t say anything. Let’s go, alright?”
She wasn’t convinced, but with Ryu’s support, she allowed herself to turn away.
She sat on the hospital wing bed, feeling a dull ache in her head that refused to leave. Ryu sat next to her, his eyes filled with concern, but she couldn’t shake the frustration bubbling inside her.
She turned to him, hitting him on the shoulder.
"Ouch!" He flinched. “What’s that for?”
“It’s all your fault!” she snapped, her voice sharp with irritation. “You and your stupid deal!”
He frowned, his brows furrowing in confusion. “I didn’t know Cass would be this pissed off about it, Vera.”
She wanted to believe him, but everything had escalated so quickly.
The way Cassius had gone after her—no, something was off.
She opened her mouth to respond—then froze.
Felix passed by the bed.
For a fleeting moment, his gaze locked onto hers, and her heart nearly stopped.
Then his expression darkened, his eyes flicking to Ryu with a sharp, silent glare. Without a word, he turned and disappeared down the corridor.
She sat rooted to the spot, heart pounding, trying to make sense of it.
Ryu noticed.
His eyes followed Felix’s retreat, but he said nothing. Instead, he turned back to her, his voice quiet, careful.
“Vee,” he murmured. “I’m sorry about Cass. I really am.”
She let out a sigh, rubbing her forehead. “It’s fine,” she muttered, the pain still throbbing in her head. “It’s not your fault he’s a dick.”
Before he could say anything else, Madam Pomfrey walked in. “What happened?” she asked.
Vera winced, feeling the sting of the cut again as she straightened up. “I… I fell during the duel,” she said, her voice strained.
Madam Pomfrey didn’t look convinced, her eyes narrowing slightly. “A fall, is it?” she muttered, but she didn’t push further.
With a sigh, she waved her hand. “I’ll let Mr. Bobbin stitch you up. Come along, now.”
"NO!" She said quickly, her voice tight. “Um, I’d rather you do it, Madam.”
Pomfrey raised an eyebrow, clearly surprised by the intensity of her reaction. “Are you sure?” she asked, clearly taken aback.
She nodded firmly, even though she could feel the blood rushing to her face. “Yes. I’m sure.”
“Alright, dear,” Pomfrey said. “I’ll get prepared.”
As she went to gather her supplies, Ryu reached for Vera again, gently rubbing her back in slow, comforting circles. His touch was intimate, gentle, but it made her heart ache in a way she didn’t expect.
"I'm really sorry, Vera," he whispered, his voice low and sincere.
She shook her head. "I'll live, you idiot."
"No, I mean about your friends."
She frowned. "What?"
He exhaled sharply, frustration creeping into his tone. "They're idiots, Vera. Being upset about us dating is one thing, but not a single one of them checked on you when you fell? Not one? That's not just petty—that's bloody cruel."
His words hit like a jinx, but he wasn’t finished.
"I mean, after everything you’ve done for them? That's just absurd. You scraped together money you didn’t have to buy Weasley a helmet. You got McMahon a bloody tarantula. And don’t even try to deny you’ve been helping Diggory with Potions—there’s no way he suddenly got good at it on his own. You’re too kind for them, Vera. And if they can’t see that? That’s their loss."
A wave of hurt rushed over her, stronger than anything she’d felt so far. She blinked rapidly, trying to swallow the lump forming in her throat.
It was true.
No one had rushed to her side when she’d been knocked to the floor. None of her friends had cared enough to see if she was okay. Not one of them had come to help her, not even the twins, who usually were so concerned about her.
The realization crushed her, and she felt a sting in her chest that she couldn’t explain.
“I...” she started, but the words faltered in her throat. “I didn’t even realize.”
Ryu’s expression softened, and he squeezed her hand. “You don't deserve that, Vee.”
She swallowed hard, trying to keep herself together, but it was hard.
The empty feeling in her chest made her feel exposed, vulnerable, and she didn’t know how to deal with it.
As Madam Pomfrey returned, she tried to push her emotions aside.
It wasn’t the time to think about it. But Ryu’s words echoed in her mind, reminding her of something she hadn’t wanted to admit.
No one cared about her.
No one except him.
No one except Ryu.
Notes:
Chapter's song: Bigmouth Strikes Again - The Smiths
You think Cassius is an ass? Just wait for the next two chapters. I will post them on Monday!
Chapter 65: Halloween '91
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Part One: Paint it, Black
Thursday, October 31, 1991
Vera jolted awake, gasping for air. Her hands flew to her chest as if to soothe the searing pain that suddenly gripped her lungs. Her sheets clung to her damp skin, and her heart hammered against her ribs.
Shaking, she pushed herself up and swung her legs over the bed, pressing her bare feet against the chilled floor.
She made her way to the basin, splashing cold water onto her face. The reflection in the mirror was barely her own—wide, haunted eyes, strands of hair sticking to her clammy forehead.
It took her a moment to remind herself—she was in her dormitory, safe, not sinking into some unseen abyss.
Back at her bedside, she pulled out the small, worn box Madam Fletcher had given her months ago.
She sifted through the photographs, her fingers trembling over the image of her father. His face—so familiar, yet distant—looked back at her with the same cold expression it always had.
She wondered if he ever imagined this—her, alone in the dead of night, trying to piece together a past that felt more like a ghost story than a life once lived.
Then, she picked up a picture of herself as a baby, tiny fingers gripping something in her mouth.
It wasn’t a toy. Not food. Something else. Something she couldn’t quite place.
She stared for too long, a sick feeling unfurling in her stomach. The shadows in the room seemed to stretch, the candle flickering unnaturally.
And that’s when she noticed it—tucked beneath the photographs, half-hidden.
The crow figurine.
She hadn’t seen it in months, not since Lola had given it to her on her birthday. She had forgotten about it, or maybe she had wanted to forget. But now, as she stared into its small, polished black eyes, a cold dread crawled up her spine.
The eyes weren’t just glassy—they were watching.
A sudden chill swept through the room, and she felt it in her bones, in the hollow of her chest.
With a sharp breath, she hurled the figurine into the dim light, and it landed somewhere in the shadows with a dull, lifeless thud.
The next morning, she woke slowly, wrapped in a cocoon of warmth and lingering unease.
The events of the night before still clung to her like cobwebs, but the golden light streaming through the window made it feel distant, almost unreal.
She sighed, pushing herself up, rubbing the sleep from her eyes.
By the time she dressed in her uniform and stepped outside, the castle was alive with the usual morning buzz—students rushing to class, the murmur of conversations drifting through the corridors. But she didn’t feel like talking.
Not yet.
She wandered through the halls, her footsteps aimless, letting the old stones guide her. The air smelled of damp earth and morning dew, and when she finally stepped onto the grounds, the sight of the lake shimmering under the rising sun made her pause.
She walked toward the water’s edge, finding a patch of grass bathed in sunlight. Without thinking, she lay down, stretching her arms over her stomach, letting the warmth sink into her skin.
Eyes closed, she listened to the soft lapping of the lake, the rustling of leaves in the breeze, the distant chatter of students heading to class.
For once, everything was quiet—until a shadow cut through the light.
“Whoever you are, you’re blocking my sun. So fuck off.”
“That’s the thanks I get for looking everywhere for you?” Ryu’s voice was amused, but his gaze lingered a second too long on her bare thighs where her skirt had ridden up.
She cracked an eye open, catching him in the act, and he swiftly jerked his head away.
“And you found me,” she said dryly. “Want a reward?”
“I’d settle for you getting off your lazy ass and coming to the library.”
She sighed dramatically. “Avery, it’s a beautiful day. The sun is shining, the birds are singing, the frogs are frogging. Sit down and enjoy it, you bloody nerd.”
“We have a quiz tomorrow.”
“Do we?”
“Yes.”
“Tragic.”
“Don’t you want to study?”
“Not particularly.”
“Have you studied already?”
She snorted. “Fuck no.”
“Then get up.”
“Then fuck off.”
He folded his arms, exhaling through his nose like an exasperated parent.
“Avery,” She sighed, sitting up. “We don’t have to spend every waking moment together for people to believe we’re dating. Couples argue, you know. Besides, we’re supposed to break up soon, so you might as well get used to my absence.”
“Right, but I’m paying you. So unless you want me to cut you off, you’d better move.”
The words landed sharper than he expected, and she stood up, jaw tightening. “Fine.”
He blinked, thrown off by her sudden shift. “Merlin, I was joking.”
She sat back down, staring at the lake. “Okay, whatever.”
Ryu hesitated, then sighed and dropped beside her.
“Are you okay?” he asked, eyeing her with concern.
“I’m fine,” she muttered. “Just tired.”
“Your head again? Want me to take you to the hospital wing?”
“Not that kind of tired.”
His eyes softened. “Did something happen, Vera?”
She didn’t answer. Just kept staring at the water.
He studied her face, then glanced toward the lake himself.
“Do you think we can swim in it?” she suddenly asked.
“Technically, yeah. But you’d have to dodge the giant squid, the grindylows, and, y’know, whatever else is lurking under there.”
“I’ve never swum before.”
His head snapped toward her. “Never?”
“No.”
“Not even in the ocean?”
Cornwall rose in her mind like a half-forgotten dream—the salty breeze, the crash of waves against the cliffs, the golden stretch of sand she was never allowed to touch. Every morning, she walked past the shore on her way to school, watching other children run into the water, their laughter carried by the wind.
But not her.
The Humphreys never let her go near the water. She had only ever been a spectator, a shadow on the edge of something she was never meant to have. The memory stung, not just for what she had missed—but for how much she had wanted it.
“I had a dream last night,” she said instead. “I was drowning.”
Ryu didn’t move, didn’t even breathe.
“It felt real,” she continued. “Like I could taste the water in my throat, feel it burning my lungs. I kept reaching for the surface, but something… something was pulling me down.”
She paused, her hands clenching into fists.
“I looked down,” she whispered, “and it was my father.”
Ryu went still.
“It was my father, Avery.” Her voice cracked, her eyes shining with unshed tears. “What does it mean? Why would he—” She swallowed. “Why would he want to kill me?”
“It was just a dream, Vera. Dreams aren’t real.”
“Funny. It’s the first time I’ve ever dreamt of him. I dream of mum all the time, but him? Never. And when I finally do, he’s—” Her voice wavered. “He’s dragging me under.”
She took a shaky breath, the weight in her chest growing heavier as she reached into her pocket. Her fingers found the worn edges of the photograph, and she pulled it out with a kind of reverence, as if it might crumble in her hands.
Ryu leaned in. “You were such a cutie.” He teased, trying to lighten the mood.
But she didn’t smile. Didn’t even acknowledge it. Her eyes stayed locked on the image, tracing the details like she was seeing it for the first time.
“I’ve looked at it a hundred times,” she murmured. “And I never noticed it before.”
His brow furrowed. “Noticed what?”
“I was chewing on something,” she said, her finger ghosting over the small object in the baby’s mouth. “At first, I didn’t recognize it. But now I do.”
Ryu leaned closer, following her gaze.
“It’s his mask,” she whispered. “His Death Eater mask.”
She exhaled sharply, her throat tight. “The same mask he hid behind when he went out and killed people. The same mask he probably died in. And there I was… Playing with it like it was just another toy.”
Ryu didn’t look at the picture anymore. He looked at her.
She swallowed. “My biggest fear, is becoming him, Ryu. And I feel like the dream I had was more than just a nightmare. He was dragging me with him… toward darkness.”
He shook his head. “That’s not true.”
“You don’t know me, Avery.” Her gaze dropped to her gloved hands, her fingers flexing like she could feel something crawling beneath the fabric. “I’m just as bad as him.”
“You’ve never done anything bad, Vera.”
Her lips parted, but she didn’t argue.
Instead, she looked down at her hands again—like she was waiting for them to change, to morph into something else entirely. “Yet.”
Ryu let the silence settle between them, giving her space to breathe. She continued to stare at the lake, an uneasy feeling curling in her stomach.
After a moment, she exhaled sharply and shoved the photo into her bag, trying to push the thoughts away.
But then—her fingers brushed against something, and her breath hitched.
The crow.
Slowly, she pulled it out, turning it over in her hands. The small carved figure felt heavier than before, as if it had absorbed the weight of her thoughts.
Her pulse quickened.
She knew—knew—she had thrown it across the room last night, into the dim light where she swore it would stay.
And yet, here it was.
Had she put it there? Had she picked it up without realizing it?
She couldn’t remember.
Ryu’s voice cut through her thoughts. “So, there’s a party in the Slytherin common room before the feast. I want you to come.”
She barely nodded, her gaze locked on the crow’s beady, unblinking eyes.
“We should match outfits." He continued. "I’m wearing black.”
Finally, she lifted her head. “Yeah, whatever.”
“Perfect. Be ready by six.”
And just like that, he walked away, leaving her alone with the crow in her hands.
She stared at it, but the longer she looked, the worse she felt. It was irrational, but she couldn’t shake the feeling that it was watching her. That if she turned her back, it would move on its own.
Her fingers clenched around it as she stood up, walking toward the lake with steady, determined steps. The wind howled across the water, rippling the surface like something just beneath it was waiting.
With a sharp breath, she hurled the crow into the lake, and it hit the water with a hollow plunk, swallowed instantly by the dark.
She stood there for a moment, chest rising and falling. Then, under her breath, voice low and shaking with fury, she whispered:
“Fuck the crows. Fuck the Blacks. And fuck you, Dad.”
She trudged back to her dorm after classes, the dreadful feeling clinging to her like a second skin. She tried to shake it off, throwing open her wardrobe in search of something—anything—to wear.
But nothing felt right.
Nothing would look good enough next to Ryu’s perfect, effortless style.
Eventually, she found a dress she liked, but it was red.
“Fuck, I want it black!”
Across the room, Angelina and Alicia sat together, giggling, whispering about something.
She swallowed, summoning her courage, and walked over.
"Hey," she started. "Are you guys planning anything fun for Halloween this year?"
The laughter stopped, and a beat of silence stretched between them.
Then, Alicia turned to Angelina, a smirk playing on her lips. "Do you hear something, Ang?"
Angelina tilted her head, pretending to listen. "Nope. Nothing."
And just like that, they stood up and walked out, brushing past her like she wasn’t even there.
She stood frozen, their words stinging more than she wanted to admit. Slowly, she turned back toward her bed, forcing herself to breathe.
It shouldn’t hurt this much. But it did.
"What do I have to do for them to talk to me again?"
"Step one: break up with Avery," Katie responded with nonchalance.
Vera exhaled sharply and laid back on the bed, staring at the ceiling.
She and Ryu were going to break up soon anyway. That had always been the plan.
So why did something inside her resist the thought? Why did it feel like letting go of him meant losing something more than just their arrangement?
As if on cue, a thud sounded at the foot of her bed.
She blinked and sat up, only to see that a package had appeared, wrapped neatly in deep blue paper. Hesitant, she reached for it and peeled it open.
Inside was a velvet black dress, smooth beneath her fingertips.
New. Elegant. Fucking Expensive.
A note was tucked on top, written in Ryu’s unmistakable scrawl.
"Wear this tonight."
She stared at the dress, the weight of it settling in her hands.
She should feel guilty.
But fuck, it looked nice.
She swiftly slipped it on, and for a moment, she forgot how to breathe.
The velvet hugged her in all the right places, soft against her skin, draping over her like something stolen from a dream. It was the most expensive thing she had ever worn, and she could hardly believe Ryu had gotten her size right.
She turned in front of the mirror, fingertips skimming over the fabric. How did he even find the time to order this? Had he planned this all along?
The thought made something flutter in her chest—until reality settled in.
No. Ryu would never go this far for her.
She exhaled through her nose, shaking her head. He must’ve gotten it from Eudora, whether as a favor or a command. Either way, she wasn’t about to let that ruin the night.
She pulled on her tights and laced up her Converse, balancing the elegance of the dress with her own touch of rebellion. She then lined her eyes with sharp black eyeliner, adding a dusting of glitter to her lids. Her final touch—a pair of cat earrings that dangled playfully against her skin, and quick spray of perfume, and she was done.
With that, she grabbed her bag and headed out.
Ryu was waiting at the entrance of Gryffindor Tower, leaning lazily against the wall, arms crossed, head tilted in that effortless way that made it seem like he owned the entire castle.
He was dressed in black, just as he said he would be. A single dragon earring dangled from his ear, catching the light when he moved, and a matching dragon brooch gleamed against his chest.
As she stepped closer to him, an unexpected wave of insecurity washed over her.
The dress, the makeup, everything that had felt empowering moments ago suddenly felt inadequate in front of his effortless elegance.
She swallowed and straightened her posture, her steps faltering slightly as she reached him.
His gaze snapped to her instantly, pinning her in place. For a moment, he said nothing—just stared, with an expression she couldn’t quite decipher.
Then, slowly, deliberately, his eyes dragged over her.
His gaze lingered a beat too long at the dip of her dress, where the fabric teased the slightest hint of cleavage. A flicker of heat passed through his eyes—quick, sharp, gone too fast to catch. But then they trailed lower, down the length of her body, lingering at her worn Converse sneakers.
“Couldn’t you find something more… suitable?” he said, his voice laced with that familiar edge of judgment.
Yep. That's the Avery she knows.
She rolled her eyes, not letting him get under her skin. "Well, you should’ve sent me shoes too, Avery."
Without waiting for a response, she brushed past him, acutely aware of his gaze lingering on her back as she walked.
“So, what’s the deal with this party, anyway?” she asked.
“It’s a Slytherin tradition,” he said casually. “For decades, they’ve thrown a Halloween party to honor old pagan rites. Though, lately, it’s been... controversial.”
“Why?”
“Because it falls on Remembrance Day. Some students think it’s in poor taste to celebrate when we should be honoring the memory.”
“What the fuck is Remembrance Day?”
He stopped in his tracks, turning to her with a look of pure disbelief. “You don’t know?”
She shrugged, and he let out a breath like he might actually choke on air.
“It’s the day the Dark Lord disappeared,” he said, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. “Ring any bells?”
She almost stumbled, the weight of his words making the world tilt for a second. But he didn’t seem to notice.
“I don’t see the point in it,” he went on. “Moping around all day isn’t going to bring him back.”
She swallowed, not wanting him to see her true emotions, and simply nodded.
The walk to the Slytherin common room was heavy with silence, the weight of his words still lingering in the air between them.
Every step felt like it led her further into a world she didn’t fully understand, pulling her deeper into the depths of something she wasn't ready to confront.
When they finally reached the entrance, Adrian was standing by the door, waiting to unlock it for them.
As she stepped inside, the atmosphere of the common room hit her immediately.
It was like walking into a different world—dimly lit, the flickering light of candles casting long shadows on the stone walls. The air smelled faintly of smoke and cinnamon, with an undertone of something sharp, like the coolness of the dungeon itself.
The space was decorated with dark, rich tapestries and elegant furniture, all in shades of green and silver. A large fireplace crackled with flames, sending sparks up toward the enchanted ceiling, which shimmered with a starry sky, as though night had already claimed the room. A long table covered with drinks and platters of food stretched along one side of the room, where the familiar and the unfamiliar mingled, some faces obscured by the haze of smoke from a nearby incense burner.
The music played softly in the background, a haunting melody that wrapped around the room like an invitation. It was a mixture of classical and modern wizarding tunes, the kind that made the blood feel both chilled and invigorated.
Students were talking, laughing, and dancing in small groups, their voices rising and falling like the pulse of the music. The darker corners of the room seemed to hide whispers and secret conversations, while the more illuminated areas were filled with people sipping their drinks, exchanging flirtatious glances and lighthearted jokes.
Ryu didn’t waste any time in making his presence known, his usual easy charm sliding back into place as he greeted a few people by name.
But Vera, feeling suddenly small and out of place, hung back, the unfamiliar faces and the history she could barely grasp swirling around her like the mist in the room.
For a moment, she considered leaving, but the pull of the night—of the party, of Ryu, of the questions she didn’t know how to ask—kept her rooted to the spot.
Laughter rippled through a nearby group, sharp and careless, and she felt their eyes on her before she even turned.
"What is she doing here?" someone muttered, not bothering to lower their voice.
"Didn’t you hear? She’s dating Avery now."
"Please," a girl scoffed. "She’s punching well above her weight."
"Agree, he wouldn’t give her the time of day if she wasn't a Black."
Heat crept up Vera's neck, but she forced herself to stay still, to pretend she hadn’t heard. She could feel their judgment clinging to her skin, as if she were something misplaced, something wrong.
Her eyes flickered across the room, scanning the sea of unfamiliar faces, until they landed on Draco, perched lazily on a velvet sofa with a cluster of other first years.
Their eyes met.
For a fraction of a second, neither of them looked away. Then, just as quickly, Vera snapped her gaze elsewhere, as if she’d just made the grave mistake of staring directly into the sun.
Before she could even process why that moment unsettled her, Ryu’s hand settled on her waist. “Having fun?”
She scoffed. “Yeah, if my idea of fun was standing around while the inbred elite congratulate themselves on breathing.”
“So, not your scene?”
“I would rather lick the floor.”
"Might be cleaner than the drinks Flint brought.”
She rolled her eyes. “Can we leave?”
“Dancing?” he countered smoothly. “Let’s do it.”
She blinked. “That is not—”
But he was already tugging her toward the dance floor. The music had slowed into something delicate, almost hypnotic. A few couples were swaying together, looking as though they’d been born knowing how to do this.
She narrowed her eyes. “I thought you didn’t like to dance.”
“I don’t. But I like irritating you.”
She huffed, but let him position her hands.
“I don’t know how to dance like this,” she admitted.
“Like what?”
“Like an aristocratic piece of shite.”
“But you are an aristocratic piece of shite."
She squeezed his hand so hard that he winced.
“Alright, alright,” he said, shaking out his fingers. “Come on, I'll teach you.”
“Are you good enough to teach me?”
He grinned. “I have many talents.”
“I bet you practice on a pillow.”
He gasped, utterly scandalized. “I’ll have you know, my pillow and I have a strictly platonic relationship. Unlike yours.”
She snorted, but then his grip adjusted slightly, guiding her movements. She faltered at first, feet slightly unsteady, but his hold was sure, his voice low as he murmured instructions.
Then, his hand slid from hers, settling on her waist as he pulled her closer.
She arched a brow. “You really like holding waists, don’t you?”
“I like holding yours.”
A beat of silence.
She stared at him. “What?”
“What?” He blurted back, eyes widening slightly before he quickly looked away, clearing his throat. “Anyway. Dance steps. Right.”
Her frown lingered for a second longer before she let it go.
With careful patience, Ryu guided her through the steps, his voice steady as he counted under his breath.
And slowly—very slowly—she began to move with him.
Their bodies moved together in slow, effortless rhythm, their chests pressed close enough that Vera could feel the steady rise and fall of his breath.
She looked up at him. Really looked.
His sharp jawline, the way his Adam’s apple shifted when he swallowed, the unconscious flick of his tongue over his lips—it all held her attention in a way she wasn’t entirely comfortable with.
Then there was his neck.
Merlin, why was she thinking about his neck?
She didn’t know why she was so drawn to it, but for a fleeting moment, she imagined leaning in, pressing her lips against his skin just to see if he’d shiver. The thought sent a warm pulse through her, but she forced herself to push it down.
Her eyes drifted up, tracing the little details she'd never noticed before. There was a small black dot under his right eye, and a faint scar on his forehead.
The longer she stared into his black, beady eyes, the deeper she felt herself sinking—like stepping into a bottomless lake without realizing she couldn’t swim.
“Black looks good on you.”
She blinked, his voice pulling her back to reality. “Would’ve preferred violet, though. But a beggar can’t choose.”
“Funny, I almost got violet.”
“Really?”
“Yeah. But I wanted to match with you. And I don’t do purple.”
“I don’t know, Avery. I think you’d pull off a purple suit well.”
“Hmm. Should I complete the look with a turban and add a dramatic stutter too?”
That made her burst into laughter.
Ryu watched her with a soft, lingering gaze, captivated by the way her eyes crinkled when she laughed. And when she let out an unexpected snort, he couldn't help but chuckle, utterly enchanted by her every flaw and perfection.
She finally calmed, and squinted at him. “Wait… is everything you own black?”
“I love black. If I could paint everything in life black, I wouldn’t mind.”
She snorted. “Spooky.”
Then, without even thinking, she rested her head against his chest.
Ryu hesitated for half a second, then exhaled, his grip on her waist tightening ever so slightly as they continued to sway.
The moment stretched between them, thick and heavy, as Vera focused on the rapid thud of his heartbeat.
Then, his voice came, soft and careful. “Are you okay? After last night?”
She tilted her head up to meet his gaze, feigning nonchalance. “Yeah. Fine.”
He didn’t look convinced. “Vera…”
“It was just a dream,”
“Exactly,” he said. “A bad dream. Nothing else. Nightmares are just manifestations of our subconscious thoughts. They take the form of our fears when we sleep—like boggarts. But they’re not real, Vee.”
She swallowed, gaze flickering away. She wanted to believe that, but the way the dream had clung to her, the way it felt so real…
Ryu sighed and, to her surprise, gently cupped her face in his hands. His palms were warm, grounding, and without thinking, she leaned into his touch.
“You will never be a bad person,” he told her firmly. “You’re kind. You’re caring. You could never hurt a soul.”
She let the words settle, turning them over in her mind before quirking an eyebrow. “But what if I became an assassin and started slaughtering arseholes like you?”
A slow, amused smile spread across his lips. “Then I’d have the honor of dying under your blade.”
The way he said it—so calm, so sure, like he meant it—sent a shiver down her spine. His hand slid from her face down to her waist again, fingers pressing lightly into her skin before pinching softly.
She got the message.
Heart pounding, she hesitated for only a moment before tilting her chin up, closing the distance between them.
Her lips met his in a whisper of a touch—soft, slow, testing.
It was barely a kiss at first, more like the brush of silk, tentative and uncertain, but the second Ryu exhaled—a shaky, uneven breath against her skin—something shifted.
His hand at her waist tightened, fingers digging in just enough to make her aware of the warmth seeping through the fabric of her dress. His other hand, still cradling her face, moved—fingertips tracing the delicate line of her jaw, thumb brushing over her cheekbone in an achingly gentle caress.
There was no rush, no urgency—just slow, deliberate exploration, like he wanted to memorize her, like he was savoring every second.
When she shifted, her fingers grazing the nape of his neck, he made a sound—a quiet, pleased hum that sent heat spiraling through her.
His grip on her waist flexed, pulling her just a fraction closer, their bodies pressing together in a way that made it impossible to ignore the tension crackling between them.
Vera could feel his heartbeat against her own, just as erratic, just as wild.
And then, just as she thought she might drown in him, he pulled back—only slightly, just enough for their lips to hover, breath mingling, neither of them quite ready to let go
"Vera..."
Her lips were still tingling when she responded. “Yeah?”
He swallowed. “I need to tell you something."
She nodded, waiting.
He parted his lips to speak—
“Oi!”
Adrian and Eudora’s voices shattered the moment like glass.
The two of them stumbled apart, breathless and disoriented, but Ryu’s hand refused to leave her waist, his fingers still curled possessively around the fabric of her dress.
Eudora smirked. “Don’t let us interrupt.”
“Yeah, do carry on,” Adrian added. “We love a good show.”
Vera felt her heart twist—sharp, sudden, like a knife slipping between her ribs.
So that was why he kissed her? Because Adrian and Eudora had approached? Because he’d known they were coming?
Of course.
How could she be so stupid? How could she let herself think, even for a second, that someone like Ryu would actually be into someone like her?
It was a game. A performance. Nothing more.
She tried to gather herself, to smother the ache blooming in her chest.
She didn’t care.
But his lips—warm and slow and deliberate—lingered in her mind. His touch, the way he’d held her, the way his fingers had curled into the fabric at her dress as if letting go wasn’t an option.
And worse—the way he’d said her name. Soft. Almost reverent.
No. Nope. She didn’t care.
She squared her shoulders, forcing indifference onto her face, shoving the moment into a locked box at the back of her mind.
Ryu was just playing a game.
And so was she?
"Well, well," Eudora drawled, her sharp gaze raking over her. "You are actually matching outfits now. Mais j'aime beaucoup ta robe, Vera."
Vera snorted. “Well, yeah. You’ve got a good taste.”
“What do you mean?” Eudora chuckled. “I had nothing to do with it.”
Confusion prickled at Vera’s spine. She glanced over at Ryu, but he avoided her eyes, suddenly finding the ceiling incredibly interesting.
Before she could press him, Eudora’s gaze flickered down. “But those shoes,” she said, wrinkling her nose, “dégoûtantes.”
Vera sighed dramatically, rolling her eyes. “For fuck sake, why do you all have a problem with my Converse?”
“They’re tragic,” Adrian said simply, before tilting his head. “Tell me, does Gryffindor ever throw parties like this?”
“Pfft, please.” She scoffed. “They’re much better than this boring shite.”
“Oh, Black,” Adrian laughed, the sound rich and unbothered. “You haven’t seen anything yet.”
He exchanged a glance with Eudora before stepping back. “Come on, now.”
They disappeared into the crowd, leaving Vera standing in place. She turned to Ryu, who still hadn’t moved his hands from her waist.
“Avery…” She arched a brow, tilting her head. “Tell me you didn’t actually buy me this dress.”
He met her gaze with an unapologetic smirk. “Guilty.”
She exhaled slowly, calculating. “Fine. Deduct it from the second installment.”
“Absolutely not. It’s a gift.”
“I don’t do gifts without giving something in return.”
“And why, pray tell, is that?”
“Call it a family tradition.”
“Your family has the strangest take on etiquette.”
“They may be stingy, but at least we believe in fair trade.”
He sighed. “Are you ever going to let that go?”
“Not a chance.”
“You’re utterly bizarre.”
“And yet, here you are, still holding onto my waist.”
“Don’t flatter yourself, princess. I’m just making sure you don’t run off before the fun starts.”
She rolled her eyes but didn’t pull away.
“Come on,” he murmured. “We don’t wanna miss the game.”
She raised an eyebrow. "What game?"
"Cassius creates a game for us every year. It's a tradition."
Fuck that bastard.
She didn’t need to ask any more questions. Cassius, with his usual flair for making everything uncomfortable and full of tricks, was already setting the stage for something unpleasant, and she felt a flicker of dread.
Ryu led them deeper into the common room, pushing through a tapestry that concealed a narrow passageway. The walls narrowed the farther they went, and the air grew heavy with the smell of incense.
The corridor ended in a small chamber, dimly lit by dozens of flickering candles placed in iron sconces along the walls. At the center, a round table sat, dark wood gleaming in the candlelight.
Cassius was already seated, his sharp features half-hidden in the shadows. In front of him sat a large, ornate bowl, filled with an assortment of sweets.
"You're late," he drawled, his voice smooth and mocking as he gestured for them to sit.
Vera settled next to Ryu, eyes narrowing at the figures already gathered around the table.
Adrian, Eudora, Jane, Miles, Flint, and Beth Travers, a fourth year Ravenclaw.
Flint grinned like a wolf as he cracked his knuckles, and Beth sat with a look of calculated indifference, her eyes glancing over to Vera with a barely concealed sneer.
"Alright then," Cassius began. "The game is simple. Truth or dare." He waved a hand toward the bowl of sweets in front of him. "If you refuse to answer or fail to complete your dare, you'll have to eat one of these."
"And what's the catch?" Beth asked.
"Oh, I’m glad you asked." He tilted his head toward the bowl and then met her gaze. "These sweets are charmed, of course. Eat one, and you'll either be forced to relive your worst memory in taste... or do something horribly embarrassing. A delightful little twist, don’t you think?"
Vera's heart skipped a beat. Worst memory? Her thoughts raced, her stomach sinking at the thought of something—anything—triggering the dark shadows she tried so hard to forget.
Her eyes narrowed at him, a mix of defiance and wariness in her gaze. "Who charmed them?" she asked, her tone as cold as she could muster.
"I did, of course," he replied. "Wouldn't trust anyone else with such a perfect blend of magic, now would we?"
A murmur of agreement rippled through the room, and Vera could feel the eyes of everyone on her, waiting for her reaction.
She crossed her arms, her gaze steady. "And why did you double charm them?"
"So that you wouldn’t know what punishment you’ll get. That way, you can’t try to pick the lesser evil. No way to manipulate the game."
She hated to admit it, but that was fucking clever.
If you didn’t know whether you’d be reliving your worst memory or doing something humiliating, you’d have no choice but to play the game properly.
"So," Cassius said, breaking the uncomfortable silence, "Are you ready?"
The others shifted, their expressions a mixture of excitement and apprehension.
Vera felt her pulse quicken, but she refused to show it.
But as Cassius’s eyes flicked to her, she realized with a sinking feeling that the game had already begun.
Part 2: Wicked Game
Cassius reached into his pocket and pulled out a small, elegant compass. "I’ve charmed this little thing to select the two victims—er, participants. But before that, change seats."
A few groans sounded, but everyone stood, shuffling awkwardly around the cramped chamber.
Vera hesitated before moving, watching carefully as others took their places. She slid into a new seat, realizing too late that Jane was on her left and Beth on her right.
She glanced across the table, hoping—praying—that Ryu would take the spot in front of her. But just as he moved to sit, Cassius smoothly stepped in, dropping into the seat instead.
He leaned forward slightly, his smirk widening as he locked eyes with her, his silent challenge clear.
Ryu sighed dramatically and rolled his eyes, plopping down next to him instead. "Great," he muttered. "This isn’t going to be annoying at all."
Cassius's smirk deepened as he leaned forward, drumming his fingers against the table. "Since our dear Gryffindor is new to our little gatherings, I think it’s only fair that she starts. Tap the compass with your wand to begin the game. Let’s see who it picks first."
Vera’s hand shook slightly, but she steadied herself, biting back the unease swirling in her stomach. With a deep breath, she lifted her wand and tapped the compass lightly, causing it to hover above the table, its needle in place.
However—
Instead of it spinning, the table began to move beneath them, pulling the seats along with it in a dizzying whirl.
The flickering candlelight blurred into streaks of yellow, and the low murmurs of surprise from the group quickly turned into full-on exclamations of confusion.
Vera felt the world tilt, her stomach lurching as the ground beneath her feet spun faster than she could process. She gripped the edge of the table, but the force of the rotation pushed her back into her chair, making her feel as though she was being thrown around like a rag doll.
Cassius’s laugh rang out through the chaos, the only thing steady in the storm of confusion.
Finally, the spinning slowed, and the world began to right itself. The compass fell back onto the table with a soft clink, and the room stilled.
For a moment, there was silence—just the dizzying buzz in their ears as they tried to get their bearings. Then, in perfect unison, the group erupted into applause, clapping with exaggerated enthusiasm.
“Well done, Cass,” Adrian said, grinning like a madman, his hands still slightly trembling from the unexpected ride.
“Impressive,” Beth added, giving him a playful smile.
Vera, however, remained still, her expression hard as she fought the wave of jealousy that had already begun to rise within her.
The trick had been clever, but the way he pulled it off, the ease with which he manipulated the room, made her blood simmer with irritation.
She tried to hide the bitter edge to her thoughts, but Cassius caught her eye, and his smug grin was like a cat who'd just caught a mouse.
“Shocking, isn’t it?” He purred, leaning back in his chair as if he were the king of this twisted little kingdom. “Who did it pick?”
Miles chuckled. “Well, the table picked Dora and Beth.”
"Beth," Eudora said, a slow grin forming. "Truth or dare?"
Beth barely hesitated. "Dare."
Eudora smile widened.
"Then I dare you," she said, voice light but deadly, "to snog Flint."
Laughter exploded around the table, and Flint let out an exaggerated groan, while Beth’s nose wrinkled in undisguised horror.
"You have got to be joking," she snapped.
Eudora shrugged. "Rules are rules."
Beth’s glare could have curdled milk, but after a long, seething pause, she turned to Flint, who was grinning like he’d won the lottery. "If you use tongue, I’ll hex you," she warned.
Flint just wiggled his eyebrows.
With a sound of pure suffering, she grabbed him by the collar, pressed a lightning-fast kiss to his lips, then shoved him away like he was contagious.
The room erupted into laughter, and Flint looked far too pleased with himself.
"Glad we all suffered through that together," Cassius said, grinning. "Now, Beth, your turn to spin the needle."
Beth rolled her eyes. “The table, you mean.”
She tapped the compass, and once again, the table spun, sending the seats along with it in another dizzying rotation. The sound of laughter faded into a blur as the table came to a stop, and the needle pointed to Ryu and Miles.
Ryu gave a small groan as he leaned back in his chair, still recovering from the previous spin. Miles, on the other hand, was grinning wickedly, clearly enjoying the chaos.
“Truth or dare, mate?” He asked, eyes gleaming with mischief.
Ryu hesitated for a moment, running a hand through his hair, before sighing. "Truth."
Miles’s smirk deepened. “So… Ryu,” he said, his tone dripping with playful malice. “Have you and Black done it yet?”
The room went silent for a heartbeat, and then chaos erupted.
Adrian’s laughter rang out, and the others followed suit, making various noises of disbelief and teasing. Cassius remained strangely quiet, his gaze distant.
Vera’s eyes widened, and she felt an uncomfortable heat rush to her cheeks, her thoughts spiraling out of control.
She bit her lip, trying to hide her mortification, and glanced at Ryu, who was now clearly flustered. His ears were bright red, and he couldn’t even meet her eyes, fidgeting with his fingers on the table.
Her gaze then flicked nervously to the others.
Eudora was grinning like a maniac, and Miles and Adrian were making loud “ooo” sounds, teasing them both without mercy.
“Come on, Ryu,” Miles said, “you can’t just leave us hanging. We’re all dying to know.”
Ryu sighed, clearly defeated. His eyes flicked over to Vera, and something shifted in him when their eyes met, a feeling that made him pause.
She was still blushing from the teasing, but it was more than just embarrassment—there was a flicker of something deeper, something he couldn’t ignore.
Without hesitation, he grabbed a small candy from the pile in the center of the table, and unwrapped it with exaggerated slowness. The group fell into silence, watching him, eagerly awaiting some sort of reaction.
"Here’s hoping you get the humiliation sweet," Adrian sneered. "Wouldn’t mind watching you shag Black right in front of us. Could make it a real party."
Vera nearly exploded. Her wand hand twitched as she fought to control the sudden, violent surge of anger burning in her chest.
But before she could react, Ryu moved.
With a flick of his wrist, his wand was in his hand, and a split second later, Adrian was yelping, doubling over as his chair nearly bucked him off. His mouth, once so smug, now stretched and twisted uncontrollably, forming silent words like a fish gasping for air.
A few people gasped, while others burst into laughter.
"Sorry, mate." He said, utterly unapologetic. "Must be all that excitement about parties." He leaned forward slightly, his voice calm but sharp. "Now do me a favor and keep my girlfriend's name out of your filthy mouth—or I’ll make sure it stays out of order permanently."
Adrian groaned from the floor, but Ryu was already popping the candy into his mouth like nothing had happened.
He took a deep breath, then exhaled sharply. "Blimey, it tastes like dirt," he muttered, his voice tight.
"Dirt?" Miles echoed, frowning. "Why dirt?"
"Once fell off my broom and landed face-first in a pile of the stuff. Got a nice mouthful of it, too."
Miles groaned. "Well, that’s a letdown. I was expecting something tragic."
Flint snorted. "That’s your worst memory? Falling off your broom? Thought you had more bite than that, dragon rider."
"Well, it was the worst day of my life."
That shut them up. Even Vera turned to him, brows furrowing slightly.
He sighed. "My grandfather had just passed away. I was trying to clear my head, so I went flying, but a storm rolled in out of nowhere. Next thing I knew, I was eating dirt, my nose was broken, and a rock decided to lodge itself into my forehead. Spent a week looking like a cursed scarecrow."
The table went silent.
"So yeah," he drawled, turning to Cassius. "Cheers to bringing that back up, mate."
His eyes then flicked to Vera, who was watching him with something soft in her expression. He met her gaze, flashing her a quick, reassuring smile.
Beth suddenly perked up. "Alright, then," she said, twirling a strand of her hair between her fingers. "What’s the best day of your life?"
Vera barely suppressed an eye roll.
The way that bitch was looking at Ryu made something unpleasant curl in her stomach. Her eyes flickered down to Beth's dress, shorter than what was strictly necessary, then back up to her perfectly styled blonde hair and bright green eyes.
She fucking hated her. Instantly, irrationally.
Ryu, however, looked momentarily thrown by the question. He hesitated—just for a beat—then cleared his throat.
His gaze locked onto Vera’s. "January 8th of this year."
Eudora arched an eyebrow. "Really? Your own birthday?"
He held Vera's stare for a long moment, as if he were delivering a message only she was meant to understand. Then, with the ghost of a smirk, he nodded. "Yeah. It was the best day of my life."
"Alright, alright," Cassius said, waving a hand. "Let’s get back to the game. Ryu, spin the table."
Ryu twirled his wand with unnecessary flair, sending the table into a dramatic spin. It slowed, creaked, and finally landed on—
"Jane and Flint,"
The group collectively turned to look at them like an audience awaiting the next act of a very unpredictable play.
“Dare.” Flint announced, his eyes narrowing slightly, probably calculating how far he was willing to go for a bit of fun.
Jane, ever the picture of sweet, innocent charm, tilted her head. Then, with a perfectly wicked smile, she said, "Take off your trousers."
Vera’s eyes nearly popped out of her head. Shy, innocent Jane, requesting public indecency?
Flint blinked. "Pardon?"
"You heard me," Jane replied. "Pants. Off. Now."
A strangled noise came from someone in the back—possibly Adrian, possibly the ghost of Flint’s dignity.
He let out a short laugh. "Yeah, that's not happening."
Without hesitation, he reached for the penalty candy, because apparently, eating something enchanted by an unsupervised teenager was somehow the safer option.
Three seconds later, his entire existence regretted that decision.
His face twisted into a grotesque expression of surprise. His hands flew to his face, and a muffled squawk escaped his mouth.
"What the—" His voice was suddenly high-pitched, and he stumbled back, gripping his throat in shock.
His nose elongated. His lips hardened. His entire face stretched in ways human skin was never meant to.
Then a beak sprouted.
And just like that, Flint—tall, brooding, terrifying Flint—was now part-chicken.
The room exploded into chaos.
He squawked in horror, his arms flapping against his will. And then, as if some invisible conductor had given the signal, he began to dance.
"Flint, mate, I had no idea you were such a mover," Adrian gasped between fits of laughter. "Honestly, it's a bit of a revelation."
Jane, looking absolutely delighted, leaned back in her seat. "Taking off your trousers doesn't look so bad now, huh?"
Flint, still possessed by whatever poultry-induced curse had befallen him, desperately tried to regain his composure. But it was difficult to look menacing when you were involuntarily moonwalking like a possessed farm animal.
Eventually, he stumbled back to his seat, beak twitching, hands gripping the edge of the table.
Vera turned her gaze away from the spectacle, trying to suppress the twisted grin threatening to form on her face.
She’d expected a lot of things, but this wasn’t one of them.
“Right, right,” Flint muttered, shaking his head as he awkwardly waved his wand.
The table spun faster than it had before, and everyone leaned back, waiting patiently as it came to a slow, deliberate stop.
"Looks like it's Ryu and Beth," Cassius declared, his voice dripping with smugness like he’d just announced the results of a rigged election.
Ryu exhaled dramatically. "Again?"
Across from him, Beth's eyes gleamed with mischief. "Truth or Dare, dragon boy?"
Ryu barely looked up, unbothered as ever. Then, almost instinctively, his gaze flicked to Vera, as if expecting a reaction.
Vera, however, was busy trying to look completely indifferent, which was difficult considering she felt like someone had just drop-kicked her emotions into the Black Lake.
"I choose dare," he said, reclining in his chair like he was immune to whatever Beth was planning.
Beth leaned in, voice soft, almost conspiratorial. "I dare you to go into the broom cupboard for seven minutes."
He blinked. "That's it?"
Vera noticed Beth's gaze flicker to Cassius—who, ever the agent of chaos, winked back.
What are they playing at?
"No," she clarified, her smirk sharpening like a freshly polished dagger. "With me."
Vera felt like someone had shoved a knife into her fucking chest.
Her breath quickened, and she could feel the heat rising in her cheeks as anger and jealousy twisted together inside her.
"Oi, Black," Adrian called out, far too amused. "Looks like your boyfriend’s about to spend seven whole minutes with another girl. I bet he’s thrilled."
Her jaw tightened, her fingers curling into fists. The room felt suffocating, the air thick with an unnamed tension.
She glanced at Ryu—who was suddenly very interested in the candy on the table.
Confidence? Gone.
Swagger? Nowhere to be found.
For the first time, he looked hesitant.
And somehow, she understood.
Spending time with him had taught her one thing—he hated being embarrassed.
If there was one thing he despised more than losing, it was being the butt of the joke. He could handle a fight, a challenge, even a ridiculous dare—but public humiliation? That was different.
Which was why taking the candy wasn’t so simple.
She knew—they all knew—that it wouldn’t just be a minor inconvenience, considering that the last one had turned Flint into a feathered freakshow.
And the alternative? Forcing him to relive his worst memory again in a single night—Now that would destroy him.
Then she turned to Beth.
That smug Ravenclaw sat there, looking at her like a cat that had just pushed a priceless vase off the table. Come on, do something, her gaze practically dared.
Vera didn’t just want to yank that perfect blonde hair off her scalp. She wanted to braid it first—tight—so she could rip it off neatly, like pulling the thread on a poorly made sweater and watching the whole thing unravel. Maybe she’d even tie it with a nice ribbon first, just for aesthetics, before snatching it clean off and handing it back to Beth with a sweet, innocent smile.
Instead, she exhaled sharply, forcing her expression into something cool and collected.
Because if Beth wanted a reaction?
She wasn’t going to get one.
“I don’t mind,” she said, her gaze not leaving Ryu’s. “I trust my boyfriend.”
For a moment, Ryu hesitated, his eyes flicking over to her, as though searching for something in her face. Then, with a quiet sigh, he nodded.
“Fine,” he said, and she felt her heart drop, the tears she’d fought to hold back welling up.
But again, why is this bothering her so much? Why does it feel like her chest is caving in? It wasn’t like she had feelings for Ryu. Right?
She bit down on her lip, keeping her composure, but the sting of betrayal and confusion was overwhelming.
The group burst into laughter and teasing as Ryu and Beth stood, ready to make their way toward the broom cupboard, but Vera couldn’t focus on any of that. All she could hear was the pounding of her own heartbeat and the sound of her breath becoming too shallow to hide the hurt.
Ryu glanced back over his shoulder, and their eyes met for just a brief second, but it felt like an eternity. There was something unreadable in his gaze, something that she couldn’t quite place, and the longer she stared, the harder it became to breathe.
"Come on, Ryu," Beth purred, her voice like honey, as she slipped her arm around his.
Vera forced herself to look away. She couldn’t watch them go.
The room was filled with an undercurrent of tension, the minutes dragging by in what felt like an eternity. Miles, Adrian, and Flint sat across from Vera, their eyes darting between her and the broom cupboard where Ryu and Beth had disappeared. The teasing was relentless, their voices low but carried with the unmistakable edge of amusement.
"Oh, Ryu, slow down, man," Adrian called, his voice dripping with false concern. "Are you sure she can handle it?"
“You know, I’ve heard Beth’s pretty… enthusiastic," Flint said with a wink, causing another round of cruel laughter to echo in the room.
Miles leaned in. "You think Ryu's gonna come out with a few more tricks under his belt?"
Eudora snorted. "Under his belt, indeed."
"Probably more than just tricks," Adrian added. "If you know what I mean."
Eudora rolled her eyes.
"I mean he's gonna—"
"I know what you bloody meant, you idiot!" She snapped.
The sound of their laughter and taunts gnawed at Vera's insides, like acid eating through her resolve
Despite her efforts, though, it was impossible to escape the heat rising in her chest, the jealousy and confusion boiling beneath her cool exterior.
Her eyes flicked toward the door of the broom cupboard, but she quickly forced them away, her gaze landing on Cassius instead.
He was watching her with an amused expression, his smirk widening as their eyes met. It was as if he could see through her, reading her every thought, every emotion she tried to hide.
He tilted his head, his smirk never faltering, and for a moment, she felt a sense of isolation more than she had ever felt before.
There was no one in the room who understood, no one who would ever truly get why this hurt so much.
As the final minutes ticked by, the teasing continued, and she felt her resolve starting to crack. She looked at the door to the broom cupboard again, counting the seconds in her head, desperately hoping that the game would be over soon—before she lost control of her emotions completely.
The door to the broom cupboard creaked open, and Beth stepped out first, straightening her dress with a satisfied look on her face. she casually wiped the corner of her mouth as if to emphasize the point, making sure the entire room caught the subtle gesture.
Ryu followed, looking exactly as he had when he entered. He didn’t seem affected by the teasing or the tension in the room, but Vera could see the guilt in his eyes, the subtle tension in his posture, the way he wouldn’t meet her gaze.
“Well, well, what happened in there?” Flint asked with an exaggerated grin.
Beth leaned back in her seat. “Whatever happened stays between me and Ryu.”
Vera could feel her chest tighten. She didn’t want to think about it—didn’t want to imagine what had happened in that room, but the thought lingered, creeping into the back of her mind and gnawing at her insides.
Before anyone could say anything else, Ryu spun the table, catching everyone off guard.
As they all moved, his gaze locked on Vera, as if he was silently pleading with her to understand—to not hate him.
She clenched her jaw and fixed her gaze on the table, trying to ignore the weight of his eyes on her, trying not to let him see how much it hurt.
The table spun to a halt, and the needle landed on her and Cassius.
Her heart sank, and she exhaled sharply, already knowing where this was headed.
Cassius’s gaze was fixed on her with a smug, almost predatory smile. "Truth or dare?" he asked.
She hesitated for a moment, the weight of her options pressing down on her.
If she chose truth, she could risk him prying into her relationship with Ryu. And if she chose to eat the cursed sweet, It would feel like defeat.
With a resigned sigh, she finally muttered, “Dare.”
Cassius’s smirk deepened, his eyes gleaming with something far darker than amusement.
He leaned forward, his voice low but clear. “I dare you to kiss me.”
The silence that followed felt like an eternity, everyone stunned into disbelief.
Ryu’s head snapped toward him so quickly that it seemed like his neck might snap. His eyes were wide with confusion, hurt, and a simmering fury that Vera hadn’t seen in him before.
She knew what this was now. The game wasn’t about fun, wasn’t about getting to know each other better.
It was designed to humiliate her, to break her—to drive a wedge between her and Ryu. And for a split second, she felt like everything was crashing down around her.
She could feel every gaze in the room on her, their eyes hungry for the drama they were about to witness. But she wasn’t going to let Cassius win. She wasn’t going to let him tear her apart.
"Fine," she said, and Ryu’s face dropped, the fury in his gaze replaced with an overwhelming sense of betrayal.
She stood up, her legs feeling like they were made of lead, and made her way to the other end of the table.
Cassius watched her approach, the smirk still plastered on his face as if he were in control of everything.
As she neared him, he leaned closer to Ryu, whispering just loud enough for only him to hear, “I told you she wasn't faithful, mate.”
Ryu’s face dropped even further, and his eyes glazed over with pain. He didn’t look at her anymore, didn’t even acknowledge her presence. His jaw clenched, and he lowered his head, the weight of his anger and hurt boiling within him, suffocating the words he so badly wanted to shout.
Cassius continued to smirk as Vera approached. His eyes gleamed with victory, and he leaned back in his chair, smugly waiting for her to comply.
She stopped just inches away from his face, every muscle in her body screaming with tension. Her breath was shaky, her chest rising and falling rapidly as her heart raced, but her resolve was unshakable.
She leaned closer.
And closer.
And closer until her lips hovered near his.
Ryu was about to fucking explode.
She let the silence drag on, every second of it suffocating, drawing out the moment until the air between her and Cassius crackled with anticipation.
And then—
“Go fuck yourself, Warrington.”
The words cut through the room, as the shock and tension in the air thickened like a storm cloud.
Cassius’s smile faltered, but she didn’t even give him a chance to react.
In one swift motion, she jerked back, spun, and grabbed Ryu by his shirt, pulling him into a kiss so passionate, so raw, that it felt like the world around them stopped.
Ryu’s eyes widened, momentarily stunned by the sudden shift, but as the kiss deepened, his arms instinctively wrapped around her, his anger and confusion melting away under the heat of her touch.
The room was stunned into silence, and for a split second, Vera allowed herself to savor the feeling of having finally taken control. She pulled back from Ryu, her eyes meeting his for a moment, as if to reassure him.
I'm only yours.
With a calmness she didn’t feel, she straightened his shirt, her eyes never leaving his, hoping he could feel the silent promise in her gaze.
Cassius, however, was far from finished.
His eyes burned with fury, but he quickly masked it behind a cruel smirk. “You lost,” he sneered. “You should eat a sweet now, don’t you think?”
“Gladly,” she replied, returning to her seat with deliberate slowness.
Her hands trembled as she unwrapped the sweet, the crinkling of the paper seeming unnervingly loud in the heavy silence that had descended on the room.
Cassius’s glare was unwavering, his smirk twisting into something darker, more malicious.
“Brace yourself, Black.” he said, his voice dripping with mock sympathy. “Humiliation or reliving your worst memory. Either way, you won’t leave unscathed.”
She didn’t even flinch.
She popped the sweet into her mouth, her eyes finding Ryu’s in an attempt to ground herself.
But the moment the candy hit her tongue, her head spun.
And then, she was in Cornwall.
The world around her seemed to warp and twist as everything faded into darkness, only to be replaced by the barren, desolate landscape of the south. The scent of damp earth filled her nostrils, mingling with the acrid sting of the bitter memories that followed.
The farm. The Humphreys. The endless beatings and cruel laughter. Her stomach growling in a way that made her wonder if it would ever stop.
She could taste it again—the dry, bitter taste of hunger, the endless ache that gnawed at her from the inside out.
It was more than hunger, though. It was desperation. It was humiliation. It was a life that had broken her, piece by piece.
Her chest tightened as the memories flooded in, crushing her with their weight. She squeezed her eyes shut, trying to force them away, but it was impossible. When she opened them again, she realized her cheeks were wet with tears, her body shaking.
She tried to calm herself, to push the pain down, but it was so hard—so goddamn hard.
Every inch of her ached with the raw, unhealed wounds of her past, and for a moment, she thought she might crumble under the weight of it all.
Just then, a chair scraped against the floor.
Ryu was in front of her before she could even process it, his presence grounding, his expression serious—concerned.
He wrapped an arm around her shoulders, pulling her close, his warmth seeping into her as if trying to steady her trembling frame.
"Phie," he murmured, his voice low so only she could hear. "Look at me. Are you okay?"
She shook her head, her throat tightening as her tears fell.
Ryu’s hands found her face, his fingers cool against her heated skin. He brushed his thumbs over her damp cheeks, wiping away the tears with a gentleness that made her want to cry even more.
"Hey," he whispered, leaning in just enough that his forehead nearly touched hers. "It's not real, darling—just a memory. You’re safe now. I promise. I’ve got you."
She looked into his eyes—worried, steady, unwavering—but she couldn’t hold his gaze for long. It was too much.
“So?” Eudora voice cut through the tense air. “What does it taste like?”
Vera raised her head, her gaze locking onto Cassius. The smirk on his face never faltered, even as he saw the tears glistening in her eyes.
“Grass,” she said, her voice hoarse and raw. "It tastes like grass,"
His face dropped, a flicker of guilt flashing across it before he could hide it.
Ryu’s grip on her tightened just slightly, like he wanted to shield her from even the memory.
The room fell silent, everyone else clueless to the deeper meaning behind her words.
But Cassius knew.
He was the only one who understood the full weight of what she'd just said.
She stood up, her breath still shaky, but her resolve steely once more. She couldn’t stay in that room, surrounded by them, surrounded by the cruelty that had been born from their game.
Without another word, she dropped Ryu's hand and turned on her heel, the weight of the night’s humiliation heavy on her shoulders.
She stumbled through the common room, her breath coming in shallow gasps. The air felt thick, suffocating, and she bumped into a few students along the way, but none of it mattered.
All she could think about was getting away—away from the game, away from Cassius, away from the humiliation.
Suddenly, a hand gripped her wrist, pulling her to a stop. She spun around, her heart leaping into her throat as she looked up to see Ryu.
"Vera, I'm so sorry about Cass. I had no idea he was gonna do that!"
Her heart ached at the sight of him, his eyes full of worry, but it only made the anger and frustration swirl deeper inside her. She shook her head, unable to meet his gaze for more than a second.
"Vera—"
"It's over, Avery." she said, her voice icy. "Pay me the second installment tomorrow, and then we're fucking done."
He opened his mouth to say something, but she was already pulling her wrist from his grip, turning away.
She stormed through the dimly lit corridors of the dungeons, her vision blurred by tears. The stone walls felt like they were closing in on her, the cold air biting at her skin. Her chest ached, her mind replaying the night over and over again like some cruel joke.
She reached a secluded part of the dungeon and pressed her back against the wall, sliding down until she was sitting on the cold floor. Her arms wrapped around her knees as she struggled to breathe, her emotions clawing at her from every direction.
Why does she even care?
It wasn’t real anyway. None of it was real. The dress, the party, the stupid game… It was all just a joke at her expense.
And Ryu—
She squeezed her eyes shut, hot tears spilling down her cheeks.
How could she have been so stupid?
She actually thought—felt—for a moment that he cared. That the way he looked at her meant something. That his touch, his words, the way he had held her like she was something fragile, something worth protecting, was real.
But it was all a performance.
And she—pathetic, naive, desperate—had let herself believe it.
Her fingers curled into the fabric of her dress—expensive, beautiful, utterly meaningless. This was what led her here in the first place, wasn’t it?
Money. Fucking money.
If she had what was rightfully hers, if her family had included her, if they had loved her like they were supposed to—none of this would have happened.
If she weren’t a loser. If she weren’t an orphan. If she had her inheritance, her name, her place in the world—she wouldn’t be here, hiding in the dark like a scared little child, stripped of her dignity.
She had nothing.
She had lost everything.
Her friends.
Felix.
Her pride.
And now—now, she was losing control of herself.
A sob tore through her throat, her body shaking as she buried her face in her arms. She didn’t know how long she sat there, curled into herself, crying harder than she had in years.
She just knew she was tired. So fucking tired.
But she had to pull herself together.
She had to.
Just as she sucked in a shuddering breath, trying to gather the pieces of herself, a deep, guttural growl echoed from one of the dungeon chambers.
The hairs on the back of her neck stood on end.
Her heart lurched into her throat as the sound came again—low, rumbling, and unnatural.
She slowly got to her feet, every muscle in her body tensed. The corridors were empty, eerily silent except for the occasional dripping of water from the ceiling. Her hands clenched into fists as she took a hesitant step forward, her heartbeat hammering in her ears.
The growl rumbled again, coming from behind a heavy wooden door at the end of the hall. She swallowed hard, inching closer. But just as she was about to reach for the handle, the door swung open, and out stepped—
Professor Quirrell.
She gasped and stumbled back as he nearly ran into her, a ring of keys clutched tightly in his shaking hands. His pale face twisted in shock before quickly shifting into panic, and his eyes darted behind her, as if checking to see if anyone else was around.
“M-Miss B-B-Black," he stammered, his voice trembling unnaturally. “W-What are you d-d-doing here?”
She narrowed her eyes, glancing over his shoulder at the now-silent chamber. “What was that sound, Professor?” she demanded.
Quirrell stiffened, gripping his keys so tightly his knuckles turned white. “N-nothing,” he said quickly. “You shouldn’t b-be here."
She could see the sweat beading on his forehead, the way his fingers twitched with nervous energy.
"Now, g-g-go back to your d-dormitory," he said, turning to leave. "N-nothing is g-going o-on!"
“Professor wait!" She called before he could step away. "I need to ask you something.”
Slowly, he turned back toward her, eyes flickering with panic. “Y-Yes?” he said, trying to sound casual, but his voice betrayed him.
She took a step closer. “Why did you say that to me the other day in class?”
He blinked rapidly. “S-say what?”
“You called me a traitor, sir.” She replied, eyeing him with suspicion. “Sure, your voice sounded… different. But I know it was you.”
For a split second, fear flickered across his face, but he quickly masked it, and let out a nervous laugh. “I h-have no idea what y-you’re talking about,” he said hurriedly. “You m-must be imagining things. P-probably from h-hitting your head! Yes, that's r-right. It was s-s-such a tragic f-fall.”
She frowned, unconvinced. The way he was acting—the way he refused to meet her gaze—set every nerve in her body on edge.
Before she could press further, he abruptly changed the subject. “Is y-your head okay now?” he asked, forcing a weak smile.
She hesitated, then nodded slowly. “…Yeah.”
He exhaled in relief, then spun around so fast his robes nearly hit her. “G-good. Now, g-go back to y-your dorm. I-I mean it.”
She watched him hurry away, disappearing down the corridor, and stood there for a moment, trying to piece everything together.
He’s lying.
She could feel it in her gut.
Shaking her head, she turned to leave, her mind still racing. But she had only taken a few steps when she heard her name.
“Hello, Vera."
Slowly, she turned around—and her heart nearly stopped.
Draco Malfoy stood in the shadows, watching her.
Notes:
Chapter's songs:
Paint it, Black - The Rolling Stones
Wicked Game - Chris Isaak
Chapter 66: Never Had No One Ever
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Thursday, October 31, 1991
“Hello, Vera.”
The voice sent a shiver down her spine, her pulse quickening as she met the sharp gray eyes that studied her intently.
“Hi,” she replied, trying to steady her voice.
Draco tilted his head slightly, his pale blond hair catching the dim light. “I apologize for not saying hello earlier. It just… didn’t seem like you wanted to talk to me.”
“I—” She faltered, unsure of how to respond.
He watched her carefully, his eyes searching her face for any flicker of emotion. Vera forced herself to remain still, though her heart felt like it might beat out of her chest.
“You alright?” he asked suddenly, his voice softer than before.
“Yeah… I just,” she exhaled sharply. “Just had a fight with my boyfriend.”
“Avery, right?”
The name landed like a dagger to her chest. She swallowed hard, forcing a small nod, but the damage was already done.
The silence stretched between them.
What was Draco thinking?
He’s probably wondering why someone like Ryu would be with her. Probably thinking of the best way to tell her he’s onto her lies. That he knows she’s faking it, and he’s going to make sure everyone knows too.
What if he already told Cassius? Is that why he was so cruel to her? Because he knows she’s lying to Ryu? Because he knows she’s a fraud?
Her stomach clenched with a sickening force, a sharp, twisting pain that sent a wave of nausea crashing over her. She could feel it—the moment of reckoning closing in, suffocating, inescapable.
This was it.
The end of everything.
The walls of her deception were caving in, her pathetic lies unraveling like frayed thread, leaving her exposed, defenseless. Every breath felt stolen, every second stretched into eternity as she braced for the inevitable collapse.
But then—
“My mother told me I should make an effort to talk to you,” Draco said, “even if you weren’t interested. After all, we’re family. And we shouldn’t let whatever happened between Grandfather and Lord Pollux keep us apart.”
The words struck her like a slap of cold wind, slicing through the panic that had gripped her chest.
Cygnus wasn’t speaking to his own father—Lord Pollux?
She had never heard of such a fracture in her family. The Blacks were built on duty, on legacy, on blood. To sever ties with one’s own father… was odd.
“Has he ever talked to you about it?” Draco continued, cocking his head slightly. “Why they fell apart? Because grandfather refuses to even mention his name.”
Vera stiffened, her muscles locking up so tightly she thought she might crack apart.
Draco thinks she was raised by Lord Pollux. He think she grew up in some grand manor in France, surrounded by gold-trimmed portraits and house-elves and family names that meant something.
But he doesn’t know.
He have no idea what happened to her.
The hunger, the cold, the backbreaking work, the loneliness, the days spent locked in a dark room, the beatings…
He doesn’t know she was thrown away like rubbish.
However…
This changed everything.
“Well?” he pressed.
She forced herself to shake her head, feigning ignorance. “No. I… I don’t know.”
He shrugged lightly. “A shame, really. It would’ve been nice if we’d grown up together. I think we would have gotten along quite well. After all, we have a lot in common, and we’re cousins on both sides of your family.”
Her brows furrowed. “Huh?”
He blinked, clearly surprised by her confusion. “Grandfather Cygnus is your father’s uncle,” he explained patiently. “And Grandmother Druella is mother’s aunt?”
“Right… yeah, that’s… sorry I just forgot,” she murmured, trailing off awkwardly. She gave a small, strained smile, hoping to smooth over the moment. “So we’re like… double cousins or something.”
His lips quirked into an amused smile. “Double cousins… I like that.”
Despite herself, she found a small smile tugging at her lips, though her chest tightened at the thought.
“I might be a Malfoy, but my mother is a Black Rose, just like you. I was raised under her influence, surrounded by her world. We share the same blood, Vera, the same history. And at the end of the day, you and I understand things others never will.”
She had to admit, there was something impressive about the way he spoke—his tone measured, assured, carrying the weight of someone far older than his years. It was captivating in a way she hadn’t expected.
“It’s a shame you’re in Gryffindor, though,” he continued. “You should’ve been in Slytherin. Serpents and crows belong there.”
As he said that, her eyes flickered to the small silver snake brooch pinned neatly to his chest, its emerald eyes glinting in the dim light. It was eerily similar to the one Cassius always wore, and now it became clear it was an heirloom that tied him to the Serpentis Dynasty.
Serpents and crows belong in Slytherin.
He had said so matter-of-factly, as though it were an unshakable truth. But what did that make her, a crow in the lion’s den? Did her sorting mark her as a failure in the eyes of a family she never truly felt part of? Or did it prove she wasn’t like them at all?
“That was the Hat’s decision, not mine,” she said carefully.
“I’m just saying. You, I, and Cousin Cass would’ve made a great team.”
“A team for what, exactly?”
“To purge the school of Mudbloods, of course.”
The audacity of his words made her chest tighten, disgust rising like bile in her throat.
“That’s some big plans for a small boy,” she said coolly, keeping her voice steady despite the tension clawing at her.
Draco smirked, unbothered. “It’s never too early to start cleaning up filth.”
The word filth hit her like a slap. She forced herself to stay composed, though her fists clenched at her sides.
“Well,” he said lightly, his tone shifting back to polite dismissal. “It was good to meet you at last. Grandfather will be pleased to hear we talked.”
Her heart stopped.
“Wait,” she blurted, her voice sharper than she intended.
Draco paused, raising an eyebrow. “Yes?”
Her throat felt dry. “Uncle Cygnus… you know where he is?”
He frowned slightly, puzzled by her question. “Of course.”
Her pulse quickened. “And you do talk to him, right?”
He chuckled. “He’s my grandfather, so yes.”
This is fucking it.
This could be the key to reclaiming her inheritance—if she had the courage to pull the thread.
She swallowed, pushing down the nervous energy buzzing through her.
“Draco,” she said carefully, steadying her voice. “Could you… tell him that I want to talk to him?”
Draco studied her for a moment, then nodded. “I will.”
She swallowed hard, her mind racing. “Well, uh… see you around?”
He gave her a faint smile. “See you around, Double Cousin.”
As he walked away, she exhaled slowly. The knot in her chest loosened, but only slightly.
This was the beginning, and the fucking end.
As she stepped into her dorm, the weight of the night settled onto her shoulders like a thick cloak. The moment the door shut behind her, she reached for the zipper of her dress, peeling the expensive fabric off as if shedding the evening’s chaos. She tossed it aside, left in just her slip, and collapsed onto her bed.
Her mind wouldn’t quiet.
The taste of grass still lingered on her tongue, a bitter reminder of the humiliation she had endured. Cassius had played his game well, but she hadn’t broken.
Not completely.
And now, she had something he didn’t expect—a way out. A way up.
For so long, she had been nothing. A ghost, a forgotten name, an orphan with no claim to her own legacy.
No family. No fortune. No title.
But if Cygnus was still out there—if he still held sway over the Black family’s affairs—then there was a chance.
She had no illusions about him, of course. He was purist, pragmatic, and ruthless when it came to matters of blood and legacy. But he was also a man who upheld duty above all else—a man who, when the world turned its back on her parents, had been the only one to stand by them.
When no one else would bless their union, he had married them in secret.
When the Black family sought to erase their names from history, he had ensured their bond was recognized by law.
And when Regulus had made his final wishes to make her his heir, he had made sure they were honored.
By right, by blood, and by law—she was The Heir.
And if Cygnus had any honor left in him, he wouldn’t ignore her.
She didn’t need Ryu anymore. At least, not for financial reasons. If her great-uncle accepted her, if he upheld her right to her father’s inheritance, she wouldn’t have to scrape and scheme to survive. She wouldn’t have to play pretend, to sell pieces of herself for safety.
And yet…
She turned onto her side, staring at the canopy of her bed.
Ryu.
She wanted to hate him. To hold onto her anger, to make it easy. But now that the storm of the party had passed, she could see things clearer.
He didn’t humiliate her—Cassius did.
He didn’t want to go into that cupboard with Beth.
He hesitated.
He looked at her before agreeing.
He comforted her.
He followed her after leaving.
And it was her who walked away from him.
A sudden burst of chatter jolted her from her thoughts. The door swung open, and Katie, Angelina, and Alicia walked in, their voices urgent and breathless.
“I can’t believe it! A troll—in the castle!”
Vera blinked, propping herself up on her elbow. “What?”
The three girls ignored her, too caught up in their conversation.
“Did you see McGonagall’s face? She looked livid!” Alicia said.
“And Quirrel!” Katie added. “I feel so bad but the way he fainted was hilarious!”
Vera sat up fully. “Wait—what happened?”
This time, Katie spared her a glance. “A troll was roaming around the dungeons. Apparently, Quirrell was the one who found it.”
Quirrell.
The man she had just seen in the dungeons. The man who had panicked when she caught him there.
Coincidence?
She wanted to believe so. Wanted to brush it off as nothing more than bad timing. But something gnawed at the edges of her thoughts, an unease she couldn’t quite shake.
Still, she had bigger things to worry about.
She forced herself to exhale, to push aside the creeping suspicion. Right now, she had more pressing matters— her inheritance, the arrangement, Ryu.
She sank back against the pillows, staring at the starry tapestry once more.
Cassius wanted to break her, to humiliate her. But she wasn’t going to let him.
She was going to rise above all of them.
And when she did, when she had everything that was rightfully hers, she would make them all regret ever trying to bring her down.
She would make them pay.
But for now, she will keep on playing the game.
Friday, November 1, 1991
The Great Hall buzzed with the usual morning chatter, but she barely registered it as she slid onto the Slytherin bench beside Ryu. She moved with practiced indifference, reaching for a slice of toast without so much as glancing at him.
Across the table, Adrian, Miles, Jane, Eudora, and Cassius were still reliving the troll incident with exaggerated flair.
"Oh, Vera!” Jane called, her tone bright with amusement. “You missed all the fun last night. The feast was lovely—till someone let a troll in, that is.”
Vera barely acknowledged her, offering only a fleeting, closed-lip smile as she chewed.
Ryu, however, wasn’t eating.
His fingers hovered near his untouched plate, his gaze flickering toward her with guilt. Normally, he would have had a snarky remark ready, something sharp-edged and teasing.
But now? Silence.
Then, after a moment, he cleared his throat—a deliberate, attention-seeking sound.
“Vera,” he muttered, his voice serious. “Cassius wants to tell you something.”
Her fork paused midway to her mouth.
"Go on, mate," he urged.
Cassius rolled his eyes as if the whole thing were a ridiculous inconvenience. "Right. Just—look, about yesterday. I might’ve… been a bit harsh."
She tilted her head, unimpressed. "Might’ve?"
He groaned. “Alright, I was. Happy?”
“Ecstatic,” she deadpanned, taking another bite of toast.
“Point is—I’m sorry. So. There. That’s all you’re getting.”
For a brief second, she faltered.
Cassius Warrington, of all people, apologizing?
But the moment passed just as quickly, and she knew—this wasn’t his idea. It was Ryu’s.
Her expression remained unbothered as she gave a slow nod. “Whatever.”
Cassius huffed, clearly unimpressed with her reaction, but before she could say anything, he added, “We’ve got you something, too.”
She stilled.
Even Ryu looked surprised, his head snapping toward him. “You did?”
Cassius smirked. “Yes, we did.”
Eudora then pulled out a small pink gift bag, holding it out to her with a smile that was almost... pleasant.
Vera hesitated.
Every instinct screamed at her to ignore it, to shut this down before it even began. But against her better judgment, she reached for the bag, her fingers tightening around the delicate material.
She glanced at Ryu, searching his face for any sign of deceit, but he only gave a small nod.
“Go on,” Cassius pressed, leaning forward. “Open it.”
The soft crinkle of tissue paper filled the air as she reached inside.
Her fingers curled around something small and smooth, and as soon as she pulled it out, her stomach dropped.
A bottle of nail polish.
Black. Glossy. Nail fucking polish.
The kind she had seen other girls wear. The kind she had admired but never dared to try.
The kind she couldn’t wear.
She looked up, only to see the table shaking with barely suppressed laughter.
Adrian had already covered his mouth, shoulders trembling. Miles bit down on his knuckles, eyes glistening with amusement. Eudora looked like she might actually choke. Even Jane, composed as ever, had a knowing smirk playing on her lips.
And Cassius—Cassius was grinning, his eyes gleaming with satisfaction.
"Black," he drawled, voice dripping with mock sincerity. "We thought it’d suit you, you know?"
"And because it’s Ryu’s favorite color," Eudora added sweetly.
Something inside Vera snapped.
For a fleeting moment—just a second—she had allowed herself to believe them. To believe that maybe, despite the cruelty of last night, Ryu had convinced them to make amends.
How stupid.
How utterly pathetic of her.
Ryu wasn’t laughing, though. He sat frozen, his face pale, his lips slightly parted like he wanted to say something. But he didn’t.
Vera’s fingers clenched tighter around the fragile pink bag, her heart hammering against her ribs. The humiliation burned through her, searing and raw.
She looked at Cassius, at the smug delight in his eyes. She wanted to hurt him. She wanted to drive the fork in her hand straight into his palm, to watch him suffer, to make him feel something—anything—close to what she felt now.
But she couldn’t move.
She couldn’t breathe.
And before she even realize, a single tear slipped down her cheek.
"What have I ever done to you?"
The laughter cut off like a snapped wire.
Cassius scoffed. “Relax, Black. It’s just a joke.”
"A joke?" she echoed, the words brittle, like glass on the verge of shattering.
“Yeah. A bloody joke. You do know what those are, don’t you?”
She stared at him. And for a moment, she truly, deeply considered driving her fork into his hand.
Because how dare he?
How dare he sit there and act like she was the one taking things too seriously?
She exhaled sharply through her nose, shaking her head.
“Cassius,” she breathed, his name like poison on her tongue. "You called me a Darawitch. You said I was a disgrace to my family. You almost killed me in class. You told me I wasn’t worthy of Ryu. You doubted my mother was alive. You threatened me—”
“I never threatened you.”
“Yes, you fucking did!” She snapped. "You told me to be careful. That a snake’s bite is venomous."
Ryu’s head snapped toward him, eyes wide with disbelief. "You said what?"
Cassius’ expression faltered, just for a second, before twisting into something colder. "She’s lying, Ryu," he said smoothly. "I never said that."
“Oh, fuck off!” Vera’s voice rose, the dam breaking. “You told me I don’t deserve Ryu—that he only chose me for my bloodline. And you know what’s pathetic? At first, I actually thought you were worried about him. That you were just being an overprotective cunt. But now I realize that’s not it. You don’t hate me because you think I’m bad for him. You hate me because I make you irrelevant. You act like Ryu is your possession, like no one else is allowed to have him but you. And when he chose me—you lost your fucking mind.”
Cassius’ face twitched—barely—but she saw it.
"And last night?" she continued, shaking her head. "I trusted you, Cassius. I let you in. I told you things I don’t tell anyone—about my past, about my pain. And you—” her voice cracked, but she forced herself to keep going, “—you took all of it. My worst memories, my deepest wounds. And you used them against me. Tell me, was it funny for you? Watching me relive it all? Watching me cry?”
Her fingers curled around the edge of the table, grounding herself against the overwhelming ache pressing down on her chest.
"And now this?" She continued, gesturing to the nail polish, to the mocking smiles that had turned into frozen expressions. "No. This more than just a joke.”
Cassius snorted. "You’re being dramatic."
“Dramatic?” she scoffed, barely able to believe his audacity.
She turned to Ryu, catching the way his eyes burned with unrestrained fury, his glare so intense it felt like a tangible force pressing against Cassius.
Standing up, her expression hardened. “You know, Cassius," she said, her voice quiet but cutting, "for someone who has endured cruelty his whole life, you sure are cruel.”
His entire body went rigid.
“And I feel sorry for you.”
Her gaze swept over the others—the ones who had laughed, the ones who had watched, the ones who had done nothing. “I feel sorry for all of you.”
And then, without another word, she turned and walked away—leaving behind nothing but shattered egos and a silence heavier than any spell.
Sunday, November 3, 1991
♪ Oh, I'm alone, I'm alone
I'm alone, I'm alone, I'm alone, I'm alone ♪
She had barely left her bed in two and a half days.
After her disastrous encounter with the poshlanders, she had lost all motivation to talk, eat, study, shower—or do anything remotely useful. She spent her time sketching, reading, or blasting music through her Walkman like some brooding protagonist in a tragic novel.
Katie had been delivering food like a reluctant house-elf, but when Sunday night rolled around, her patience officially expired.
On her way out for dinner, Vera reached out a pleading hand.
"Could you grab me a plate on the way back?"
Katie stopped, slowly turned, and chucked a cushion at her face.
"Oi!" She yelped. "What was that for?"
"For being pathetic," Katie shot back. "Get up and get your own food."
"I don’t feel like it."
Katie groaned, rubbing her temples. "You’ve been like this for two days. And, no offense, but you’re starting to smell like depression and stale biscuits."
She sniffed her pajama sleeve. "I smell fine."
"Yeah, well, I’m not your personal waitress, so if you wanna eat, get your own damn food."
"Oh, come on, Katie, just one last time?"
"No! You wanna starve? That’s on you."
She clutched Vinny, her stuffed companion, dramatically to her chest. "I simply lack the will to live."
Katie rolled her eyes. "Merlin, remind me to never get a boyfriend."
"It’s not about Ryu!"
"Then what is it?"
She looked down at her gloved hands, struggling to find the words.
Katie sighed. "Just get over it, Vera." And with that, she walked out.
Vera flopped onto her side, turning to Vinny. "She’s right. I need to get over it."
Vinny, ever the silent observer, stared blankly at her.
"It’s not that I’m weak, you judgmental little gremlin!" she snapped.
Vinny remained unfazed.
"I told you, I don’t give a shit about them! But Ryu…"
Her eyes flicked to the velvet black dress still draped over the chair, untouched.
"He’s gone, isn’t he?" she murmured. "Gone before I even had him."
Vinny’s beady eyes seemed to glisten with mock sympathy.
"Take that back!" she huffed. "I don’t have feelings for him!"
Vinny remained deeply unconvinced.
"Okay, maybe a little," she admitted, fidgeting with his ears. "But it doesn’t matter. He picked me because I was the best candidate. That’s it."
Vinny’s expression screamed Yeah, sure, tell yourself that.
She groaned. "Ugh, I know! The way he always checked on me, the way he held me, the way he—" She caught herself, blinking.
A memory flickered: his soft lips on hers, his warm hands brushing against her skin, and her face suddenly burned.
"Nope!" She shook her head violently. "He was just… being nice! That’s all!"
Vinny looked utterly scandalized.
"Don’t look at me like that!" she scolded, giving him a light smack. "Stop putting these thoughts in my head!"
Vinny appeared personally offended.
She sighed. "Fine! But this is the last time you’ll convince me to do something!”
With a dramatic smooch to his head, she set him aside and finally got up.
She needed a shower. A deep cleanse to wash away the humiliation, the overthinking, and—most importantly—the feeling that, maybe, just maybe, she actually liked Ryu.
But as she stepped out, toweling her hair, her eyes fell on her bare hands.
She rarely looked at them. She preferred to keep them hidden, tucked beneath gloves, away from scrutiny—even her own.
Now, as she stared, she felt that familiar twinge of unease. The dark skin, the purple veins webbing beneath, the almost otherworldly nails.
This was who she was. And nothing would ever change it.
She exhaled sharply, rubbed her hands dry, and reached for her perfume before stepping out of her dorm.
She moved through the corridors with measured steps, each one deliberate, as if grounding herself against the weight pressing on her chest. But the closer she got to the Great Hall, the straighter her spine became. She had to prove to herself that she wasn’t broken.
As soon as she stepped inside, her eyes began scanning the place.
She couldn’t sit with the Slytherins—not with the poshlanders. And she knew her friends at the Hufflepuff and Gryffindor tables wouldn’t even look at her.
A heavy weight settled in her ribs as she exhaled. She had never felt more alone.
Her gaze drifted toward the Ravenclaw table, instinct guiding her to search for Roger. But before she could find him, something else caught her attention—
Ryu.
He was sitting alone, his posture stiff. He looked out of place at his own house’s table, as if he belonged nowhere at all. The sight of him sent a strange twist through her stomach.
Then, instinctively, her eyes flicked toward the Slytherin table.
The poshlanders were watching. Their gazes were sharp, dissecting her with quiet cruelty. Cassius’ eyes locked onto hers, narrowing with something between disdain and anger.
Her pulse quickened.
And then she saw Ryu stand.
Her breath caught as his gaze met hers, filled with something she couldn’t quite name—guilt, regret, longing.
For a moment, the entire world seemed to slow.
Then, without thinking, she moved toward him.
She felt the weight of the Slytherins’ stares burning into her back, but she didn’t stop. She didn’t look away.
When she reached him, his eyes searched hers, his guilt deepening.
“Hi,” he said softly, hesitant.
She crossed her arms, her body tense. “Why are you sitting here?”
“Did you forget I’m a Ravenclaw?”
She rolled her eyes. “You know what I meant, Avery. Why aren’t you sitting with them?”
His gaze softened, something shifting behind it. He hesitated, then said, “Because they hurt you.”
The words struck her like a blow.
Before she could react, he gently touched her arm, guiding her to sit, then settled beside her.
“Vera,” he began. “I owe you an apology.”
She looked at him. His eyes were as beautiful as ever, but there was a sadness in them she hated seeing.
“I never should have let it get this far,” he continued, his voice thick with regret. “That stupid bet—I shouldn’t have dragged you into it. I should have shut it down the moment it started. I should have been better. But I was a coward. I didn’t want to cause trouble. I didn’t want to lose my place with them, so I stood there and let them hurt you. And I will never forgive myself for that.”
His hands clenched on the table. “I don’t even like them anymore,” he admitted, voice almost bitter. “They’re not who I thought they were. They only care about themselves. And Cassius—” His jaw locked. “I will never forgive him for what he did to you. For what he said. I thought he was my friend, but real friends don’t do that. Real friends don’t hurt the people who matter most to you.”
He exhaled sharply, his hands loosening. Then, softer, almost breaking, he said, “You… You mean more to me than any of them ever will. And until they learn to respect you. I’m not sitting with them anymore. I don’t care about their approval. Not if it means hurting you.”
The silence that followed was deafening.
Vera sat frozen, his words crashing over her like waves, overwhelming and impossible to process.
She had never expected this. Not this vulnerability. Not this honesty.
She stared at him, her mind racing to catch up, to make sense of what he had just given her. Because that was what this was—a choice. A declaration.
Ryu wasn’t just apologizing.
He was choosing her.
Her expression softened, the weight of everything settling into something a little less heavy. She glanced down at her hands, exhaling slowly before looking back up at him.
“It was never your fault, Ryu,” she said, voice quieter but firm. “I don’t blame you. You didn’t ask for any of this.” Then, after a beat, she smirked. “But I have to admit… I’m a little impressed. Didn't take you for a sentimental twat."
Ryu blinked before letting out a startled laugh, the tension in his shoulders finally breaking. “Always judging, Black.”
“It’s my natural state of being. And just so we’re clear, I’m still not forgiving you for the bet. But, uh… I’ll let this slide. For now.”
He chuckled, shaking his head, then reached into his robes and slid a small pouch into her hand under the table.
He pressed his fingers against hers for a second before letting go.
“The second installment,” he said. “As we agreed.”
She arched a brow, shaking the pouch slightly. “What lie did you tell your father this time?”
“The kind that guarantees I’m getting disowned by Christmas.”
She snorted. “You’re getting naughtier by the day, Ryujin Avery.”
His eyes flickered with amusement, his smile slow and teasing. “Say that again.”
She frowned. “You’re getting naughtier?”
“No, my name. Say my name again.”
She gave him a weird look. “Um… Ryujin Avery?”
His eyes widened, and suddenly, a full-blown, ridiculously pleased grin spread across his face. “Blimey…” He breathed, almost in awe. “Almost fourteen years alive, and that is the first time anyone besides my family has ever pronounced my name right.”
She stared at him for a long second before bursting into laughter. “Are you for real?”
“Everyone else butchers it.”
“Well, to be fair, you’re the only one who pronounces my name right too.”
“Then that settles it. We are now officially the superior pronunciation duo.”
She rolled her eyes, nudging his shoulder. “You’re lucky I’m still speaking to you.”
Then, after a moment, her voice softened. “But seriously, Ryu, you don’t have to do anything like that again. You don’t have to prove anything to them. Just… don’t be a complete idiot next time, yeah?”
He nodded. “I won’t. I promise.”
She hesitated before adding, “I do appreciate it, though. You standing up for me. It… means something.”
“Anything for you, Vera.”
Her stomach flipped.
She cleared her throat. “So, um, does this mean the deal is over?”
“Yeah, it's all over now..."
She forced a smile and nodded, staring down at the pouch in her hand. Something ached inside her, a quiet, twisting feeling she didn’t quite know how to manage.
Then she glanced up at him again.
And against all reason, she wanted to kiss him—one last time, just to savor it.
But since that was not an option, she did the next best thing.
She punched him.
“WHAT THE FUCK?” he yelped, flinching as he grabbed his shoulder. “What was that for?!”
Her grin turned wicked. “The deal is over, which means I can now physically assault you without any consequences.”
“Oh, so that’s how it is?” He rubbed his arm, glaring at her. “Fine.”
With alarming swiftness, he grabbed a spoonful of mashed potatoes and smashed it right into her face.
“ARE YOU FUCKING JOKING?” she shrieked. “Why would you do that?”
"Because you disappeared for two bloody days, and I was worried sick.”
Her anger deflated slightly at that, but she still managed to pinch his arm in revenge. “Clean it,” she demanded. “NOW.”
Chuckling, he pulled a napkin from his robes and gently wiped her face. “If you’re even thinking about firing back, I warn you—I’ve gotten better at throwing.”
“Oh, I wouldn’t dare waste food on your stupid face.” She grabbed a roll from the table and took a dramatic bite. “Besides, I’m too hungry to operate.”
He smirked and grabbed her plate, piling food onto it. “Go on then, princess. Eat your heart’s desire.”
She rolled her eyes but didn’t argue, digging into her meal. As they ate, she kept sneaking glances at him—only to catch him doing the same, each time with a small, knowing smile.
Merlin help her, she didn’t want this to end.
After a long moment, she straightened her shoulders, then turned to him. “Um… Avery?”
He looked at her, brow raised. “Yeah?”
She swallowed. “I know the deal is over, but… can we still be friends?”
For a second, he just stared at her.
Then he exhaled, almost relieved.
“What?” she asked.
“I was going to ask you the same thing,” he admitted, rubbing the back of his neck. “But I was, uh… nervous.”
She snorted. “So, that’s a yes, then?”
He leaned closer, his smile genuine. “That’s an absolutely.”
She felt warmth spread through her chest, a quiet reassurance settling in.
For so long, she had feared the end of the deal meant the end of something more—the fragile connection she had built with Ryu, the unspoken understanding they had shared.
But now, with his easy grin and the weight of uncertainty lifted, she realized she hadn’t lost anything at all. If anything, she had gained something more genuine.
Her fingers curled around the pouch in her lap, the small weight grounding her. She glanced up, her gaze sweeping across the Great Hall, where the usual chatter and clinking of goblets filled the air.
Then, her eyes landed on Draco at the Slytherin table. He was watching her, a small but unmistakable smile on his face. When he lifted a hand in a casual wave, she hesitated for a moment before lifting her own in return.
It wasn’t much. But it was something.
Her gaze shifted to Ryu beside her, his presence a steady anchor in the storm of her thoughts. Then back to the pouch in her lap. Then to Draco.
And for the first time in days, she felt like maybe, just maybe, she wasn’t all alone after all.
Notes:
Chapter's song: Never Had No One Ever - The Smiths
Chapter 67: Just Like Heaven
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Monday, November 4, 1991
“So, what do boring shitheads like you even do for fun?”
“Boring?” Ryu repeated, looking genuinely offended. “You wound me, Black. I’ll have you know, I’m not just boring—I’m exceptionally boring.”
She snorted. “Oh, good. At least you’re self-aware.”
He shrugged. “I do the usual. Studying, casual Quidditch, maybe a crossword puzzle if I’m feeling dangerous.”
“No pranks? No sneaking into forbidden places? No reckless, life-threatening adventures?”
“Nope.”
She let out an exaggerated sigh. “Merlin’s saggy left—Avery, you’re hopeless. Don’t worry, I’ll fix you. Soon enough, you’ll be breaking the rules like a proper delinquent.”
“Or,” he countered smoothly, “you could join me for a nice, relaxing study session instead.”
“I’d rather jam this fork into my eye socket.”
“Why are you so violently opposed to learning?”
“Why is your hair so greasy?”
He gasped, hand flying to his chest. “Take that back.”
“Sorry, I only speak the truth.”
“This,” he gestured dramatically to his head, “is premium, non-greasy, well-maintained hair. Say what you want about me, but this”—he pointed—“is slander.”
She leaned forward, squinting at him. “Looks pretty greasy to me.”
“Maybe focus on your own face before coming for my looks.”
Her brow furrowed. “What’s wrong with my face?”
“You’ve got jam all over it.”
“Where?”
He leaned in, smirking. “Right here, you absolute idiot.”
She huffed. “Fine, hand me a napkin.”
“I don’t have one.”
Her eyes narrowed. “You always have a napkin. You were probably born holding one. Stop being a little shit and just give it.”
“I,” he said, entirely too pleased with himself, “don’t have one.”
She groaned, tossing her head back. “Useless.”
His brow lifted. “Oh, is that so?”
Before she could blink, his hand was on her jaw, fingers firm but warm, tilting her face toward his. And then—
His mouth was on her cheek.
Not a kiss.
But a slow, deliberate swipe of his tongue.
Heat shot down her spine, pooling low. The sheer audacity. The casual intimacy. The way he did it like it was nothing—
Except it wasn’t nothing.
He pulled back, all effortless confidence, and went right back to his food like he hadn’t just ruined her entire ability to function.
She stared. Then stared some more.
“What,” she rasped, “the actual fuck?”
Ryu barely glanced up. “Problem?”
“Yeah,” she said, voice unsteady. “I need a napkin for your spit now.”
He chuckled, then casually pulled down his sleeve and wiped the spot himself.
She smacked his arm. “Thought the deal was done.”
“It is done.”
“Then why—” she motioned aggressively to her face—“did you lick me?”
“That was a very platonic action.”
“Oh, really? So you go around licking all your friends?”
“Absolutely,” he said without missing a beat. “Just ask Davies. He’s very used to it by now.”
And just like that, as if summoned by sheer chaos, Roger slid into the seat across from them, rolling up his sleeves and digging into his food without a second thought.
“Well, this is certainly a scene,” he remarked, mouth half-full. “Didn’t expect to see you here, Avery.”
“I always sit with you."
“I meant breakfast,” Roger deadpanned. “I’ve known you for three years, and you’ve never once gotten up early for breakfast.”
Vera frowned. “What are you on about? He always eats breakfast.”
Roger snorted. “Yeah, sure. Right after his main meal—sleep. This guy would rather starve than wake up early. He rolls out of bed ten minutes before class and just hopes for the best.”
Vera turned to Ryu, who was suddenly very interested in his toast. “The Ryu Avery... sleeps in?”
He shrugged, feigning indifference. “So?”
“Ryujin Avery... likes to sleep.”
“Don’t make it weird,” he grumbled.
“Oh, it’s not weird at all. I'm just the same. But then why are you actually up now?”
“Why are you?”
“Because I don’t like being hungry while listening to Flitwick drone on about his life.” She arched a brow. “Now, your turn.”
“It’s pretty simple,” Roger chimed in. “He’s here because you are.”
Ryu shot him a sharp glare across the table, the kind that could have set something on fire if he were just a little more magically advanced.
Vera caught it immediately.
Roger, blissfully unaware or just enjoying the show, kept going. “Ever since you two started dating, he’s been waking up at dawn to fix his hair, iron his already-ironed shirt, and shave his non-existent beard.”
Ryu kicked him under the table. Hard.
“Ow! What?” Roger yelped, rubbing his shin.
“Just. Shut. It.” Ryu hissed.
Vera glanced between them, then settled her gaze on Roger, who was grinning through his food like he hadn’t just been assaulted.
“Well, actually, Rog,” she started casually, “Ryu and I aren’t dat—”
“HOW’S YOUR TRAINING GOING?” Ryu suddenly cut in, his voice a shade too loud, making her flinch.
Roger barely blinked. “We’re wildly unprepared for our first match, but what else is new?”
Vera sat there, momentarily stunned. Why the hell did he just do that? Why didn’t he want Roger to know they broke up?
Her curiosity sharpened, but she decided to shrug it off.
She turned back to Roger with a deceptively innocent smile. “Hey, Rog?”
“Yeah?”
“Does Ryu lick your face?”
Ryu immediately choked on his tea, coughing so violently that Roger actually looked concerned.
She leaned her chin on her hand, grinning as he struggled to recover.
Roger blinked. “I—what?”
Ryu, still coughing, waved a frantic hand. “Ignore her, mate.”
Roger squinted between them. “Okay, what in Merlin's memory happened before I got here?”
She smirked. “Nothing platonic, that’s for sure.”
Ryu groaned, dropping his head onto the table, while Roger just laughed.
The three soon made their way to Herbology, the laughter between them carrying through the halls.
Vera cackled as they stepped into the greenhouse, finding their spots at the workstations. The moment Professor Sprout turned to grab some supplies, the teasing resumed.
When she wasn’t flicking bits of soil at Ryu, he was sneaking stray leaves into her hair. She retaliated by switching their potted plants when he wasn’t looking, which only led to more bickering when he suddenly had to deal with a plant twice as aggressive as his original one.
As the day went on, they didn’t stop messing with each other.
Professor Flitwick sighed audibly. “Miss Black, Mr. Avery—do I need to separate you two?”
“No, Professor,” they chorused, barely containing their grins.
As they walked out of Charms, still buzzing from their antics, Vera’s eyes flickered to Draco, lounging with his usual entourage.
Perfect.
She smoothed out her expression, plastering on an easy grin as she made her way over.
“Draco!” she called, voice light, warm—like they were besties.
He turned, looking her up and down before smirking. “Well, if it isn’t my favorite double cousin.”
She resisted the urge to roll her eyes. Favorite? As if there were options.
Draco gestured lazily to his companions. “This is Nott.” The tall, dark-haired boy gave a slow, deliberate nod. “And Zabini.” Blaise, ever the picture of effortless cool, offered a polite but detached smile.
“Pleasure,” she said smoothly, then gestured to the idiot next to her. “This is Ryu.”
"Oh, we’re well aware." Draco said. "Our fathers work together at the Ministry.”
Her smile stayed in place, but something in her gut twisted. Of course. Another web of connections she hadn’t accounted for.
“Right,” she said airily. “Forgot about that.”
Draco’s eyes narrowed slightly. “You don’t sit at the Slytherin table anymore. What, Ravenclaw treating you better?”
“Something like that.”
“You should sit with us sometime. Make an event of it.”
A different time, a different Vera, and maybe that would’ve made her stomach flip with disgust.
Instead, she latched onto the real reason she was here.
“Yeah, yeah, sure,” she said quickly. “Um, speaking of, about that thing we talked about?"
"All sorted." Draco waved a hand dismissively. "Just waiting on a letter. Try not to lose sleep over it.”
Relief flooded her, but she forced herself to play it cool. “Good. That’s… that’s great. Thanks.”
“I’ll let you know when it comes.” He turned to go, then glanced back with an easy smirk. “Try not to miss me too much, double cousin.”
She kept the soft smile on her face, held it just long enough to be believable.
The second he was gone, she let it drop.
Little prick.
“Odd.” Ryu’s voice cut through her thoughts.
She turned him. "What's odd?"
"I've never seen the two of you talk before."
"Well, I’ve only really known him since he got to Hogwarts."
“Really? You’ve never talked before?”
She shrugged, her tone casual. “My family’s a bit, uh... Torn apart."
"Sounds dramatic.”
“What’s life without a little drama, Avery?”
“Probably a lot less interesting,” he admitted.
“Speaking of interesting…” She let her gaze sweep over him, slow and deliberate, before quirking a brow. “We really need to do something about your whole... vibe.”
“Oh? And what’s wrong with my ‘vibe’ exactly?”
“Well, for starters, you dress like a ministry accountant with a dark secret. And not even a fun one.”
“So, what? You’re offering me a makeover now?”
“I’m afraid it’s necessary,” she said, already reaching for his tie. “But don’t worry—I’m excellent at fixing lost causes.”
Before he could protest, she tugged at his tie, loosening it with practiced ease. His smirk didn’t falter, but she felt the shift in the air, like the flick of a match before a fire.
“Well,” he murmured, watching her work. “This is new.”
She ignored him, fingers deftly undoing the knot. “Step one to making you less insufferable: allowing your neck to breathe."
He exhaled a quiet laugh. “You’re really getting into this, aren’t you?”
“Shh. I’m concentrating.”
Her fingers brushed against the hollow of his throat as she unfastened his top button, and that’s when she saw it—the glint of silver, half-hidden beneath his collar.
Without thinking, she tugged it free, her brows lifting as she examined the pendant.
“What’s this?”
He glanced down. “Avery family crest.”
She huffed, intrigued despite herself. “Huh. That’s actually... kind of minted. You should show it off more.”
Before she realized what she was doing, her fingers moved to his second button, slipping it free.
And then she froze.
Because suddenly, she wasn’t thinking about buttons at all. She was thinking about his neck. About how infuriatingly smooth his skin looked. About how, if she were to just lean in a little closer—
Nope.
But her gaze lingered, lips parting slightly as a single, unwelcome thought crashed into her mind: I wanna fucking suck it.
“Do you wanna suck it?”
Her soul left her body.
Her fingers slipped from his shirt as she jerked back, scandalized. “What?!”
Ryu, who had been watching her with quiet amusement, quirked a brow. “You were staring. Real intense. If I didn’t know better, I’d say you're a vampire. Tell me,” he leaned closer. "Are you a vampire, Vera Black?"
“I was not staring—” She cut herself off, flustered beyond reason. “I was just—distracted! By the—uh—pendant!”
“Oh, sure. The pendant. That’s what had you breathless. Not the fact that you want to feast on my fresh young blood.”
“I wasn’t breathless!”
“You are now.”
“You’re a dick,” she muttered, crossing her arms as she willed her face to return to a normal temperature.
Ryu just smirked. “And you are a terrible liar.”
"Whatever, Avery.”
Without another word, she crouched slightly, fingers slipping to the hem of his shirt.
And his smirk vanished instantly.
Before she could yank his shirt free from where it was neatly tucked into his pants, his hand shot out, gripping her wrist.
“Don’t.”
She was taken aback. Not because of his grip—it was firm but not forceful—but because of the look on his face. It wasn’t his usual brand of smug amusement or teasing arrogance. It was something else. Something intense.
He exhaled, rubbing the back of his neck as he let go of her wrist. “I just... like it like that.”
“…Alright,” she said, deciding—for once—not to push it. Instead, she moved to his sleeves, rolling them up just enough to reveal his forearms.
Her eyes caught on his watch—sleek, silver, and so obviously expensive it probably cost more than her entire existence.
She let out a low whistle. “Damn, Avery. This is some proper aristocratic shite. But what you need is more action.”
He frowned. “Huh?”
Without answering, she pulled a thin bracelet from her own wrist and slipped it onto his.
He lifted his hand, inspecting the simple beaded bracelet she had just fastened around him, and a smile played on his lips. “What’s this? A token of your eternal devotion?”
“More like a temporary rental,” she shot back. “You look too polished. Gotta roughen you up a bit.”
He chuckled, but as he adjusted the bracelet, something else caught his eye. He grabbed her wrist, lifting it up to inspect the other bracelet she was wearing.
"Who’s K?”
She stiffened. “What?”
He tapped the bracelet. “K. Who’s that?”
For a second, panic flared in her eyes, but she quickly masked it with a casual shrug. “Oh, just a friend.”
His gaze flickered to her, clearly unconvinced. “What class is he?”
“She is not at Hogwarts. I know her from back home.”
He studied her for a moment before nodding and dropping her wrist.
Eager to shift the conversation away, she glanced down at his feet and immediately wrinkled her nose. “Anyway, we have bigger problems—like the fact that your shoes suck.”
He scoffed. “Excuse me? These are perfectly fine.”
“They’re boring.”
“They’re better than the atrocity you’re wearing,” he retorted, gesturing at her scuffed, slightly battered Converse.
She huffed, then, without warning, stomped on his foot.
“Ow—what the in Merlin's name?”
“Oops,” she said, looking absolutely unapologetic.
He narrowed his eyes. “You’re lucky I’m too polite to retaliate.”
“Oh, please, we both know you’re not polite,” she snickered. “Now, onto the next part of Operation: Turning You Into a Delinquent.”
"There’s a next part?”
She grinned wickedly. “Pranks.”
A slow, devious smile spread across his face. “Now that’s a good idea.”
The dungeon air was thick with the scent of herbs, burning cauldrons, and Snape’s ever-present aura of I will ruin your life if you so much as breathe wrong.
The third years sat at their respective tables, stirring their potions with varying degrees of skill and fear.
Vera and Ryu, however, had bigger things on their minds.
“Are you sure about this?” he murmured, pretending to diligently chop his ingredients. “If we get caught, I’m blaming you.”
She smirked, measuring a suspiciously shimmering liquid into a vial. “Oh, please. I'm getting blamed either way. Snape seems to have a personal vendetta against my family for some reason.”
Across the room, the professor prowled between the cauldrons like a particularly irritable bat. His black robes billowed dramatically as he sneered at a Malika's potion, making her visibly shrink.
Vera gave Ryu a subtle nudge. “Showtime.”
Ryu sighed, but there was amusement in his eyes as he reached into his pocket, pulling out what looked like an ordinary sprig of thyme.
It wasn’t.
This was Booming Basil—a magically altered herb that, when added to a potion, wouldn’t explode… but would release an ear-splitting, room-shaking BOOM after a short delay.
With Snape’s back turned, Ryu deftly flicked the basil into Miles' cauldron.
Snape turned just as Miles leaned in to inspect his work.
The cauldron emitted a low rumble.
He frowned. “What the—?”
Then, with a deafening BOOM, a massive puff of pink smoke shot into the air, rattling every glass jar on the shelves. The sound wasn’t quite an explosion—it was more like a dragon sneezing at maximum volume.
The class collectively shrieked. Bottles toppled. Cauldrons wobbled. Someone, somewhere, definitely fell off their stool.
Miles, now covered head to toe in pink soot, stumbled back with a horrified expression. “WHAT DID I DO?!”
Snape, to his credit, didn’t flinch—but his eye twitched.
Vera pressed a fist to her mouth, struggling to keep her laughter contained, while Ryu, beside her, looked perfectly composed—except for the slight shake in his shoulders.
Snape loomed over Miles, his voice dangerously soft. “Mr. Bletchley.”
“I s-swear I followed the instructions!” Miles stammered.
Snape dipped a single finger into the pink sludge now pooling on the table, inspecting it with disgust. “Then you must be exceptionally incompetent.”
The class held their breath, while Miles looked absolutely betrayed.
Well deserved.
“Detention,” Snape continued, wiping his hand on a Tommy's abandoned parchment. “For your inability to function in a basic learning environment.”
Miles mouth opened and closed.
Vera nudged Ryu under the table. "Now for part two."
She subtly flicked her wand, and a soft woosh of air slithered through the dungeon.
Snape’s left sleeve—heavy with years of menacing fabric—began to… lift.
At first, it was barely noticeable. A gentle drift, like a breeze had caught it. Then, slowly but surely, his entire sleeve inflated like a balloon.
Ryu choked on his own breath, hastily coughing to cover up his laugh.
The rest of the class started to notice. Maddie gasped. Fred elbowed George. Miles, still covered in pink powder, stared directly at the professor's arm in horror.
Snape, finally sensing something was off, turned to glare at him. “What now, Bletchley?”
Miles pointed, his voice a whisper of pure dread. “Sir… your sleeve…”
Snape glanced down, only to find that his sleeve was now fully bloated—comically large, floating slightly off his arm as if his robe was suddenly filled with helium.
For the first time in Hogwarts history, Severus Snape looked visibly startled.
“...What.”
Then the second sleeve puffed up.
Then his entire robe billowed outward, ballooning like he was about to ascend into the heavens.
The class lost it.
Ryu clapped a hand over his mouth, wheezing. Vera had to duck behind her cauldron, tears forming in her eyes. Even the Slytherins—who usually worshipped Snape—were cackling.
Snape’s expression darkened to something truly dangerous. His mouth opened—to presumably hex someone into another century—but before he could, the spell reached its final stage.
The sleeves detached.
With a loud POP, both arms of his robe ripped free, sailing dramatically across the room. They landed in two perfect, crumpled piles near the front of the class.
A stunned silence fell.
Snape stood there, sleeveless, his arms stiff at his sides, fists clenched in barely contained rage.
The class inhaled as one.
Then—
Laughter. Absolute pandemonium.
Even Cassius struggled to keep a straight face at the sight of Severus Snape standing in the middle of his own dungeon, pink sludge still clinging to his fingers, his sleeves lying pathetically on the floor.
Vera had to turn away, gripping the edge of the table, shoulders shaking, while Ryu was barely functioning, wiping tears from his eyes.
Snape, very, very slowly, turned toward the class, and the laughter died instantly.
His voice was deathly quiet. “Who. Did. This.”
No one moved.
He stood in the middle of his classroom, his face twisted into a murderous scowl, his now-sleeveless robes making him look both ridiculous and terrifying. His long black hair was still slightly puffed up from the spell, giving him a strangely electrocuted look.
“I will find out who did this,” he hissed, his eyes sweeping over the terrified students. “And when I do…” He took a step forward. “I will end them.”
Vera bit her tongue to keep from laughing. Ryu, ever the composed one, gave a solemn nod.
"Tragic," he murmured, just loud enough for her to hear. "They’ll be missed."
By the time dinner rolled around, the entire school was buzzing with the story.
"The entire thing inflated?" someone down the Gryffindor table whispered excitedly.
"I heard his sleeves detonated," another student chimed in.
"I heard he cursed Bletchley so badly he had to be carried out of the dungeon."
Vera, seated next to Ryu, nearly choked on her pumpkin juice. "That’s not even remotely true," she snickered.
Ryu smirked, lazily twirling a fork between his fingers. "Let them believe in legends."
“Think we’ll survive the week?”
“I give us three days.”
"It was worth it, though,"
Ryu leaned back, stretching his arms behind his head with a self-satisfied grin. “That was, hands down, one of the best things I’ve ever done.”
“That’s what you get for befriending me, Avery boy. Pure chaos. No refunds.”
"I should’ve done it a long time ago.”
“Yeah, well. Too bad you were an arse.”
He chuckled, not even bothering to deny it. “Fair point.”
She rested her chin on her hand, eyeing him curiously. “So tell me, what do your lot do for fun if it’s not this?”
“My lot?” He smirked. “You say that like I’m part of some elusive, upper-crust secret society.”
“You are. The exclusive ‘Boring Heirs’ Club. Motto: No Fun, Just Prestige.”
He scoffed. “You wound me.”
“I describe you.”
“I can be fun, you know.”
“Oh? How?”
He shot her a sideways glance, lips twitching into something suspiciously close to a challenge. “Meet me in the courtyard. Ten o’clock.”
“Ten? That’s practically tomorrow.”
“I need a nap.”
She narrowed her eyes. “You already took a nap.”
“It wasn’t enough.”
She snorted. “Unbelievable.”
He shrugged, completely unbothered. Then, as he stood up, he leaned down just enough to murmur, “Wear something warm.”
Before she could reply, he winked and walked off, leaving her blinking after him, a half-formed retort dying on her tongue.
It took her a full five seconds before she muttered, “Prick.”
And yet, she already knew she was going.
Later that evening, she pulled on a warm jumper, laced up her boots, and made her way to the courtyard.
Ryu was already there, leaning against a pillar, his posture relaxed. He was still in his uniform, the sleeves of his shirt rolled up lazily, and, predictably, he wasn’t wearing anything remotely warm. But what caught her attention most was the broomstick in his hand.
She stopped in her tracks, crossing her arms. “Flying? That’s your idea of fun?”
“Flying at night. Which is a whole other experience.”
She tilted her head, considering. “Alright. I’ll bite.”
Without another word, he mounted the broom and tapped the space behind him. “Hop on.”
She hesitated for only a second before swinging her leg over and settling in behind him.
The moment she did, he threw her a smug glance over his shoulder. “Just don’t grab me too hard.”
Naturally, she grabbed him too hard.
He let out a small, surprised oof as her arms locked around his torso, squeezing with the strength of someone prepared to never fall to their death.
“Relax, will you?” he said, laughing.
“No,” she replied, clinging tighter. “I’d rather not plummet to my untimely demise, thanks.”
He just chuckled, shaking his head. “Suit yourself.”
Then, without warning, he kicked off the ground, and they shot into the air.
The castle blurred beneath them, the crisp night air whipping against Vera’s face as they soared above the turrets and towers.
Despite her initial nerves, she found herself mesmerized by the view—the way the castle glowed under the moonlight, the Forbidden Forest stretching endlessly in the distance.
But as much as she tried to focus on the scenery, it was difficult.
Because he was warm, and smelled soooooooooooo fucking good.
Not just good—distractingly good. A mix of something clean, like soap, but also something deep and rich, like cedarwood and—damn it, she was supposed to be focusing on the flight, not the fact that she was currently pressed against him, her cheek nearly against his shoulder.
She swallowed, staring determinedly ahead. It’s just a scent. Just a person. Just—
"You're quiet," Ryu said over the wind.
"I'm concentrating!" she shouted back.
"On what exactly?" She could hear the smirk in his voice.
She scowled, resisting the urge to bury her face into his shoulder and bite his neck. "Flying!"
Ryu only hummed, unconvinced.
Soon, he slowed the broom, guiding them toward the top of Ravenclaw Tower. With practiced ease, he landed on a flat section of the roof, dismounting first before offering her a hand.
Vera slid off, stretching out her legs. "If I’d known this was the plan, I would’ve brought a blanket."
"It’s fine. If you get cold, I’ll just warm you with my body.”
She rolled her eyes and swatted his shoulder. "And you call yourself polite, huh?"
But unfortunately—annoyingly—he was incredibly warm, indeed.
They lay there in silence for a while, the only sounds being the distant hoot of an owl and the wind rustling through the trees. The sky stretched endlessly above them, stars blinking like scattered diamonds.
Then, Ryu shifted slightly beside her.
"I want to ask you something," he said, his voice quieter than usual.
She turned her head, catching the way his fingers drummed absently against his chest, like he was hesitating.
“Alright," she said, curious now. "Ask.”
He exhaled, as if bracing himself, then finally said, “Am I a good kisser?”
Slowly, she turned her head to look at him fully. His expression was neutral, but his eyes—sharp and watchful—were locked onto hers.
For some insane reason, she desperately wanted to kiss him.
Like, desperately.
Her brain screamed at her to say something witty, something that would break whatever this was, but her mouth betrayed her.
“Yes.”
The moment the word slipped out, she regretted it.
Ryu’s eyes widened slightly before his lips parted in mock surprise. “Yes?”
She blinked. “No—I mean—shut up.”
He turned onto his side, propping himself up on an elbow, grinning. “I’m sorry, just to clarify—you think I’m a good kisser?”
She groaned, covering her face with her hands. “I’m going to throw myself off this tower.”
“No, no, we need to unpack this first. Why am I good?”
She scowled at him from between her fingers. “Why are you so insufferable?”
“I just think if you’re going to compliment me, you should really commit to it.” His grin widened. “Be specific.”
She gave him a withering glare, but he only arched an expectant brow.
“Fine. You’re—” She hesitated, then begrudgingly admitted, “You’re good at knowing what the other person wants. And you’re… confident. In a way that makes it—” She waved a hand vaguely, avoiding his gaze. “—hard not to get caught up in it.”
He blinked. "Please, elaborate."
She sighed, already regretting this. “First of all,” she said, “you don’t rush. You take your time with it, which is... annoyingly attractive.”
He smirked.
“Second,” she continued, ignoring him, “you’re cocky, which, for some incomprehensible reason, works when you’re kissing someone.”
He looked far too pleased with himself.
“And third,” she finished, “you—” She exhaled sharply. “You know how to make someone want more.”
His smirk faltered just a fraction, his head tilting slightly like he hadn’t expected an actual answer—much less that answer.
Then, slowly, that smug grin crept back onto his face.
“Well,” he mused, lying back down, arms folded behind his head. “That was surprisingly flattering.”
She scoffed. “I take it all back.”
“You can’t.” He smiled up at the sky. “It’s already out there. Forever.”
She squeezed her eyes shut, willing herself not to murder him.
Or worse—kiss him.
"Can I ask you something?" she said after a moment.
"You just did," he shot back with a smirk.
She rolled her eyes. "Fine. Can I ask you another thing?"
"That’s two now."
"Ryu."
"Alright, alright. What is it?"
She hesitated, then cleared her throat. "What exactly did you and Beth do in that cupboard?"
His smile turned wicked. "Oh, I definitely can’t tell you."
Her stomach twisted. "Why not?"
"It was utterly scandalous. Far too much for your innocent ears to handle."
Her heart sank.
She took a steadying breath. "Like what?"
He leaned in, so close she could feel his breath against her skin. His lips brushed near her ear as he whispered, "Astronomy."
She blinked. "What?"
He leaned back, looking far too pleased with himself. "I explained an astronomy lesson to her."
Silence. Then:
"You spent seven minutes explaining the stars?"
"Hey, I’m very thorough." He sighed dramatically. "Beth, however, is um... slow. For a Ravenclaw, she sure is dense."
Her brain short-circuited. "Wait—so nothing happened between you two?"
"Of course not. Who do you think I am?"
"Then why did she leave fixing her dress?"
He shrugged. "I don’t know. She's proper odd."
"Ryu—"
"What?"
She exhaled, only now realizing she’d been holding her breath. She should feel relieved, but all she wanted to do was slap him for making her think about this all these days.
After a moment, she swallowed the lump in her throat. "Nothing."
Silence settled between them.
Then—
"Would you actually have kissed Cassius?" he asked suddenly.
She recoiled in horror. "I would rather chew on a live slug than go near that tosser."
He made a face. "Ew."
"In fact," she continued, "I would lick it first. Really savor the texture—"
"ALRIGHT, I GET IT!" He gagged. "No need for mental scarring!"
"Just making my stance clear, Avery."
"Crystal. But wow, I didn't think you hated him that much."
"It’s entirely his fault."
"Well," he mused, "I think he fancies you."
She bolted upright. "WHAT?"
"Yeah, I didn’t want to believe it either, but ever since we started fake dating, he’s been off. Whenever we kissed, he would stare at us like he’s plotting my murder and would always finds an excuse to keep me from meeting you."
"That doesn’t mean he likes me," she argued. "If I fancy someone, I wouldn’t, you know, threaten them, try to kill them, insult them, mentally slaughter the-"
"Okay, okay..." he conceded. "I can see your point now. But I still don’t get why he’s so obsessed with hating you."
"Me neither," she huffed. "And frankly? I don’t give a shite."
Ryu tilted his head. "Honestly, I thought Miles would’ve been the one to lose it over us dating, not Cass."
"Why?"
"I don’t know. Just a feeling. He’s never really liked you since—well—what happened between you and Jane first year."
"Oh, please," she scoffed. "That’s rich coming from him, considering she was the one who spread a rumor about me being a Squib."
"Yeah, well, when it comes to Jane, he gets…ruthless."
"Ruthless is one way to put it. Speaking of," she hesitated before asking, "does he actually love her?"
"Yeah. I think so."
"But he never shows it. And the whole thing with controlling her food—"
"Yeah, it's gross," Ryu admitted. "But he does love her."
She exhaled, shaking her head. "Weird way of showing it."
"No arguments here."
"And, um… What about Eudora and Pucey?"
"What about them?"
"Do they have sex?"
Ryu nearly choked on air. "Wh—what?"
She shrugged. "I mean, they act like they do."
He shook his head, as if physically trying to expel the thought. "I—uh—I don't know—"
"Oh, come on." She rolled her eyes. "Pucey definitely seems like the type of bloke who brags about it."
"Yeah, well, he never tells us anything."
"But what do you think?"
He sighed. "Honestly?"
"Yeah?"
"I think they're disgustingly on it."
She made a face. "Ugh, I would rather be celibate than experience whatever that is."
He smirked. "You say that now, until you meet the right bloke."
"Oh, no, not shagging," she corrected, waving him off. "I can't wait to have sex."
His face went bright red. "You—wait, what?"
"But I meant Pucey and Eudora's relationship," she continued, ignoring his reaction.
He stared at her, dumbfounded. "You… can't wait to have what?"
"Oh, shut it," she snapped.
"Oh no, it's out there now,"
"I swear, I will shove you off this roof, Avery," she warned. "And don’t act so innocent. I know you can't wait to do it either."
"Who says I haven’t already done it?"
She turned to him so fast her neck nearly snapped. Her eyes widened. Her stomach twisted. Her face burned. Her heart—
"Relax," he chuckled. "I'm joking."
She let out a breath she definitely hadn’t realized she was holding.
"Why were you so shocked?" he mused.
"No reason," she muttered quickly. "And let's not talk about sex anymore."
"Alright…"
A comfortable silence stretched between them—
"Do you think Snape's a virgin?"
"Avery!" she shrieked, sitting up.
"What? It's a valid question, given the state of that man."
"I don’t know!" she groaned. "I don’t spend my time pondering Snape’s intimate life!"
"Alright, I'll stop talking about it."
"Good."
She lay back down, and once again, silence settled between th—
"I bet he’s packing though."
"That’s it." She sat up fully, turning to him with murderous intent. "I’m executing you."
He remained lying down, completely unfazed. "Oh yeah? What’s the charge?"
"Forcing me to think about Snape’s cock."
He winced. "Fair. And the execution method?"
She grinned wickedly, then, without warning, launched herself at him, fingers digging into his sides in a ruthless tickling attack.
"Vera, please!" he gasped between wheezes of laughter. "Stop—"
She ignored his desperate pleas, continuing her merciless assault—until he managed to grab both of her wrists and pull her closer.
She landed against his chest, her breath hitching, her face only inches from his.
His warmth seeped into her through the fabric of her sweater, his heartbeat thudding beneath her fingertips, and his smile, that ridiculous smile she always loved, softened. His hair fell into his eyes, his cheeks were flushed, and—God help her—when he licked his lips, she broke.
She wanted to kiss him.
Desperately.
Passionately.
Like her fucking life depended on it.
But just as she leaned in—panic seized her.
What if he thought she was desperate? Or pathetic? Or—worse—what if he rejected her?
Forcing herself to play it off, she patted his chest lightly and rolled onto her back once more, pretending nothing happened.
She stared up at the sky.
But Ryu—
Ryu was staring at her.
His face still flushed, his breathing unsteady. He just watched her, carefully, as if dissecting every inch of perfection he saw.
She felt his gaze.
So she turned to catch him—
But he had already flicked his eyes back toward the sky.
She lay back, letting the quiet wrap around her. The stars above stretched endlessly, distant and burning.
“Hey, Ryu?”
“Hmm?”
“When your family dies… what do they turn into?”
He was quiet for a moment, as if considering the question. Then, he exhaled through his nose. “Sun rays.”
She blinked, turning her head toward him. “Sun rays?”
He smirked at her confusion. “Yeah.”
“That’s… weird.”
He chuckled. “No weirder than stars.”
“Why the sun, though?”
"We come from The Land of the Rising Sun,” he said simply.
And somehow, that made sense.
“Oh,” she murmured. “Right.”
He glanced at her, something amused flickering in his eyes. “But I don’t actually believe in it.”
“What do you think happens to us when we die, then?”
He was silent for a long time, his fingers idly tracing patterns against the rooftop. Then, finally—
“I think… if we were good, we go somewhere nicer. Somewhere where the air is gentle and the weight we carried in life is lifted.”
“Like heaven?”
“Well, I don't really believe heaven is a particular place. But rather a state of mind—one where we get to live the life we wanted, instead of the life that was forced upon us.”
She nodded slowly, letting the thought settle between them.
“And if we were bad?” She asked.
“Then we spend eternity drowning in the pain we left behind—in the cruelty we inflicted on others.”
“But what if…” She hesitated. “What if we were good and already had the life we always wanted?”
This time, when he looked at her, his eyes were softer. Warmer.
Then, in the quiet of the night, he answered— “Then we live it again.”
God, she loved his mind—the way it worked, the way he spoke like the world was bigger than just what they could see. The way he could make even death sound like something soft.
And maybe it was stupid, but she admired him for it.
She admired him.
She let the silence stretch between them for a few beats before she turned her head, smirking.
“Wow, Avery,” she drawled. “Didn’t realize you were such a philosopher.”
He snorted. “And here I thought I was just answering a question.”
“No, no, that was some proper wise old sage material. You’re like one of those monks on top of a mountain, dispensing cryptic wisdom to lost travelers.”
"If I’m a wise old monk, what does that make you? The hopeless traveler begging for enlightenment?”
She huffed. “No, it makes me the skeptical scholar exposing you as a fraud.”
“Oh, of course,” he said with a dramatic sigh. “Vera Black, the great academic mind of our time.”
She nudged his side. “Alright, wise one, if your grand theory is true, then what would your heaven be like?”
He hummed, considering. “I’d be in Japan. My grandfather would still be alive. My parents would be healthy and safe. I’d have my dragon, big and well-fed.” His eyes flickered to her. “And I’d have the girl I love by my side.”
Just for a second, her heart stuttered in her chest, and she wondered—wondered—if he meant—
No. No, she wasn’t going to go there.
She turned back to the stars, hoping he couldn’t hear the pounding of her heart. “Sounds like a nice life,” she murmured.
He exhaled, a small, knowing sound. “What about you?”
She let her eyes flutter shut for a moment, pulling the dream from the depths of her chest.
“I’d be small again,” she said. “A child.”
She could almost see it as she spoke.
“I’d live in a house by the beach, one where the sunlight spills in from every window. The air would smell like salt and flowers. My parents would be there. My dad would carry me all the time, and my mum would sing me to sleep.”
Ryu smiled, a real, gentle smile. “That’s beautiful, Vera.”
She nodded, and for a while, they just lay there, breathing in the night air, listening to the quiet.
Then, she turned her head, smirking again. “Alright, now will you tell me your dragon’s name?”
“Not a chance.”
She huffed. “Fuck you, Avery.”
“Likewise, Shingin.”
Notes:
Chapter's song: Just Like Heaven - The cure
Chapter 68: Something I Can Never Have
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Part one: The Legacy
Thursday, November 7, 1991
Vera woke up with a name dancing on her lips.
Ryu.
It lingered there, warm and lazy, like the final note of a lullaby. She wasn’t sure if she had actually spoken it aloud or if it was just echoing in her mind, but either way, it made her chest feel—
Whack.
A pillow slammed into her face.
"Wake up, Rapunzel," Katie groaned, standing over her like a general rallying troops for battle. "It’s nearly time for class, and you, my dear, are not a princess who gets to slumber past noon."
Vera grumbled, turning her face into the pillow. "Five more minutes."
"Absolutely not." Katie hit her again. "Also, I need last year’s Transfiguration notes. If I fail, it's on you."
"You’re the worst," Vera mumbled, forcing herself upright.
Her body protested, her brain felt like a foggy mess, and worst of all, the remnants of her dream about Ryu still clung to her like cobwebs she couldn’t shake off.
His voice, low and sure. His lips, soft and tender. The way his eyes flickered toward her. The way her heart had skipped—no, leaped—in response.
She scrubbed a hand over her face.
Not now.
"You owe me a lifetime supply of chocolates in exchange," she muttered, dragging herself over to her bag.
“Yeah, yeah, get on with it,” Katie said, flopping onto her bed.
Vera knelt down, tugged open the bag—
And the air left her lungs in a single, sharp breath.
Because sitting inside her bag—neatly perched on top of her books—was the crow fingure.
Her skin went ice cold.
Her fingers curled into the fabric of her pyjamas, tightening as a horrible, impossible realization slammed into her like a Bludger to the chest.
No. NO.
She had thrown it into the lake.
She had watched it sink. Had felt the relief in her bones as it disappeared beneath the water. She had made sure it was gone, had walked away knowing it was at the bottom of the goddamn Black Lake, lost forever—
And yet.
It was here.
Sitting in her bag.
Waiting.
Watching.
A scream built in her throat, but she swallowed it down, her entire body locking up as dread coiled tight in her chest. The world around her seemed to narrow, sounds muffled, colors washed out.
Katie was still rambling about something in the background, completely unaware of the unnatural horror sitting mere inches from Vera’s shaking hands.
Because how?
How was it back?
Had someone gone into the lake to retrieve it? Had it somehow crawled its way out, dragging itself from the depths like something out of a nightmare?
The possibilities were endless.
And none of them were good.
Her breath came shallow, her pulse hammering so violently she could feel it in her throat. The crow sat there, still and silent, but its presence felt loud.
"Oi, what’s taking so long?" Katie’s voice cut through the suffocating silence. "I swear, if you lost those notes—"
She turned just in time to see Vera snap the bag shut, her movements stiff, her face an unreadable mask.
Katie raised an eyebrow. "What was that?"
"Nothing," Vera said, too quickly. She cleared her throat, forcing out something resembling a laugh. "Just… my quill broke. Give me a sec."
She turned away, her back shielding the bag as she pressed her hands against the floor, trying to ground herself.
Breathe, just breathe.
But she could still feel it.
Sitting there.
Waiting.
Like it had never left her at all.
Like it had never intended to.
"Vera?" Katie nudged her with a socked foot.
She jolted, blinking rapidly. "What?"
"You look like you just saw a ghost."
Worse, Vera thought, glancing back at the bag. Much worse.
But she forced a smirk onto her face, shaking her head. "Relax. Just waking up. You still need those notes, or are you just here to be a pain in my arse?"
Katie narrowed her eyes. "Both, obviously."
Vera exhaled, turning back to her bag.
She’d figure this out later.
Right now, she just needed to act normal.
Even as every instinct in her body screamed that something was very, very wrong.
The moment Katie finally left, she wasted no time.
She practically lunged for her bag, yanking it open like it contained a nest of vipers. Her fingers wrapped around the crow statue, and the second she touched it, a shudder ran down her spine.
She shoved open the window, the early morning breeze biting at her skin. Below, the Hogwarts grounds stretched out in quiet stillness, the lake shimmering darkly in the distance.
She didn’t think. She didn’t hesitate.
With all the force she could muster, she hurled the statue into the open air.
It spun through the sky, a sleek black blur against the dawn, before vanishing from sight.
Gone.
For good this time.
She slammed the window shut, turned around, and grabbed the nearest pillow.
And then she screamed into it.
Muffled and furious, the sound barely escaped the fabric, but it was enough to release at least a fraction of her frustration.
What the fuck was happening?
She had gotten rid of that thing. She had made sure of it. And yet, it had come back, like a bad dream refusing to let her wake up.
Panting, she flopped onto her bed, gripping the pillow like it was the only thing keeping her grounded.
She needed answers.
Because if that statue found its way back to her again—
She didn’t even want to think about what that would mean.
She had never gotten ready so fast in her life. One moment she was spiraling in her bed, staring at the ceiling like it had personally wronged her, and the next, she was shoving her robes on and sprinting down the corridors like she was being hunted.
Because maybe she was.
By the time she reached class, she was late. Very late.
She could feel the eyes of her classmates flick toward her as she slid into her seat, muttering some half-baked excuse. Even the professor gave her a long, scrutinizing look before continuing the lesson.
But none of that mattered.
She just sat there. Silent. Stiff. Not herself.
By lunchtime, it was worse.
She wasn’t just quiet now—she was absent.
Her food sat untouched in front of her, her fingers loosely gripping the edge of the table, as if she needed to remind herself she was still here.
Ryu, on the other hand, was done.
He slammed his goblet down hard enough to make her flinch. "Alright." His voice was sharp, cutting through the chatter around them. "Spit it out."
She blinked at him. "What?"
"Don’t ‘what’ me, Shingin." His eyes narrowed. "You look like you haven’t slept in a week, you’re acting weird, and now you’re not eating? What’s going on?"
"Nothing."
"Bullocks."
She sighed, rubbing her temple. "Ryu—"
"Nope." His voice was firmer this time, his frustration clear. "You always have something to say. You always bite back. You’re not quiet. You’re not—" He gestured vaguely at her, struggling to find the words. "—this. Whatever this is."
She swallowed, her mouth dry.
She wanted to tell him.
She wanted to turn to him and say, Something is wrong, Ryu. Something is following me. Something won’t leave me alone.
But she couldn’t.
Because saying it out loud would make it real.
So instead, she pushed a weak smile onto her face. "I’m fine."
He didn’t believe her for a second.
His frustration softened, but only slightly, as he leaned in closer. "Vera, come on. If something’s wrong, you can tell me. You know that, right?"
She knew. Of course, she knew.
But how was she supposed to explain something she didn’t even understand herself?
Instead of answering, she let her head drop against his shoulder with a quiet sigh.
He stilled for a moment, then let out a breath—half exasperation, half relief—and rested his chin lightly on top of her head.
For a brief moment, she let herself sink into the comfort of it. Of his warmth, his familiar scent, the steady rhythm of his breathing.
And then she saw him.
Draco had just entered the Great Hall.
Her head lifted from Ryu’s shoulder as she waved toward him, a small smile forming on her lips.
But he didn’t wave back.
He only gave her a faint, almost hesitant smile before slipping into his usual seat at the Slytherin table, his posture rigid.
Her own smile faltered.
And suddenly, the unease in her stomach—the one she’d been trying so hard to ignore—grew heavier.
Ryu must have noticed the way her expression shifted, because his concern quickly turned into something far more insufferable.
"Wait a second..." He tilted his head at her, squinting like he was deep in thought. "Are you on your moon?"
She blinked at him. "Excuse me?"
"You know," he waggled his eyebrows, "your moon cycle. Your—"
He didn’t get to finish before her fist collided with his shoulder.
"Ow!" He clutched his arm dramatically. "That was uncalled for!"
"No, what’s uncalled for is asking a girl if she’s on her period when she’s feeling down," she huffed, crossing her arms. "It’s rude, Avery."
"Alright, alright," he grumbled, rubbing his shoulder. "Sorry, then."
She let out a small sigh before reaching out and patting his shoulder where she’d hit him. "I'm sorry, too."
He smirked. "I accept your pathetic excuse for an apology."
She rolled her eyes but didn’t pull her hand away just yet.
Instead, she hesitated for a second before muttering under her breath, "I haven’t got my period in months, anyway."
"What?" His voice dropped.
"N-nothing!" She quickly said, patting his shoulder nervously. "Nothing..."
"Vera..."
"I’m fine," she insisted, though even she could hear how unconvincing she sounded.
He didn’t believe her.
And frankly, neither did she.
History of Magic had always been a dull, sleepy affair, but today, she found herself even less present than usual.
Professor Binns’ droning voice blended into the background noise of her thoughts—Draco’s strange behavior, the crow statue that refused to die, her own body betraying her with its missed cycles. It was all too much, too tangled, too wrong.
"...and so the Wizengamot, established in the early 16th century, replaced the previous magical court system," Binns was saying in his usual monotone.
Vera barely heard him. She was staring at her parchment, though she hadn’t written a single word.
"Now then," he continued, "can anyone tell me what kind of court existed before the Wizengamot?"
Silence.
A few students exchanged glances, but no one answered.
Cedric, ever the golden boy, finally spoke up. "Sir, that wasn’t in the syllabus."
Binns let out a ghostly chuckle. "Indeed, Mr. Diggory, but not everything worth knowing is in the syllabus."
Some students perked up at that, sensing a rare moment of actual intrigue. Others groaned, realizing this meant more unnecessary information.
Then the guessing began.
"Was it the Ministry itself?" Angelina suggested.
"A secret council of old pure-blood families?" asked Adrian.
"Trial by combat?" Fred piped up hopefully.
Binns sighed, floating slightly higher above his desk. "All incorrect."
His ghostly eyes scanned the room before landing on her. "But Miss Black surely knows the answer."
At the mention of her name, every head turned toward Vera.
Except Vera wasn’t there.
She was still lost in the maze of her own thoughts, completely oblivious to the classroom, the stares, and the expectant silence.
Ryu nudged her, hard.
She flinched, finally snapping out of her daze. "Huh?"
Binns blinked at her—if ghosts could blink. "I said," he repeated with a knowing smile, "could you inform the class of what court system existed before the Wizengamot?"
A chill ran down her spine.
The room felt suffocating. The weight of dozens of eyes pressing into her.
She felt like she was burning from the inside out. Heat crawled up her neck, her pulse hammering against her skin. She forced herself to look at Ryu.
He gave her a small nod, an encouraging look that said, You’ve got this.
But she didn’t feel like she did.
Swallowing, she turned back to Binns, and her voice came out barely above a whisper. "Crow Court."
"Louder, Miss Black."
She exhaled sharply, then lifted her chin. "Crow Court."
The moment the words left her mouth, Binns practically beamed. "Correct!" he announced.
She immediately regretted it.
Binns turned back to the board and began explaining, his voice carrying a rare enthusiasm. "Before Wizengamot, wizarding trials were held in Crow Courts, a system created by—naturally—Vera's family."
She wished the floor would swallow her whole. No, the entire castle. Hell, she’d take spontaneous combustion at this point. Anything to make this moment end.
Binns, entirely oblivious to her misery, continued. "Yes, the Blacks—brilliant minds, truly, some of the greatest legal architects in magical history. So much so that they alone created the Crow Courts—"
"Sir," Vera cut in, clearing her throat. "Just so we can be accurate—it wasn’t just my family. The entire Crow Dynasty was responsible."
Binns turned to her, intrigued. "Go on."
She licked her lips, her throat suddenly dry. "It was a joint effort between the Odams, the Yancers, and…" She hesitated, then forced the last name out. "The Blacks."
Binns gave her a knowing smile. "Precisely."
She forced herself to nod, but inside?
She felt like screaming.
The moment Miles opened his mouth, she already knew she was doomed.
"And what, in Merlin's name, are Crow Courts?" he asked, leaning back in his chair with lazy arrogance.
Binns, ever the scholar, turned to the board and began to explain—but then, just as quickly, he stopped.
A ghostly smile spread across his translucent face. "Miss Black, you surely know more about this than I ever could. Why don’t you explain it to the class?"
Panic shot through her like lightning.
"Oh—no, no, that’s quite alright," she said quickly, shaking her head.
"Come now, no need to be modest. You are, after all, a direct descendant of its creators—who better to enlighten us?"
She clenched her jaw, resisting the urge to hex someone—preferably Miles for asking the damn question in the first place.
Desperate, she turned to Ryu, her eyes pleading, screaming save me.
But Ryu?
He just smiled.
That infuriating, oblivious, encouraging smile.
As if this were some grand opportunity instead of a waking nightmare.
Her pulse roared in her ears as she hesitantly rose from her seat. "I—well, I don’t actually know much," she tried, already bracing for Binns to let it go.
He didn’t.
"Tell us what you do know, then," he said, as though it were the simplest request in the world.
She stood there, her pulse hammering beneath her skin, but once she started speaking, the words tumbled out as though they had always been waiting.
"The Crow Dynasty were gifted," she began, her voice measured but quiet. "Not only could they communicate with crows and see through their eyes, but they possessed psychometric abilities—reading minds, having visions, and…" she swallowed hard, "viewing a person’s memories."
A shiver ran through her as she said it. The weight of those words felt too heavy, like she was speaking something into existence that had long been buried.
Binns beamed like a grandfather watching his grandchild take their first steps. "Yes, yes, perfect! And how did they use these gifts?"
She exhaled slowly. "They used them in court, to interrogate suspects—to pull the truth straight from their minds. And when they did, they would deliver the appropriate punishment."
A murmur rippled through the class. Some students exchanged uneasy glances; others—like Ryu—watched her with quiet intrigue.
Binns clasped his ghostly hands together. "Brilliantly said! Now, since Azkaban was not yet made into a prison, what were these ‘appropriate punishments’ you speak of?"
She hesitated, but there was no escaping the answer.
"Crow Court rules," she said, her voice steady. "An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, and blood for blood. Thieves lost the hands they stole with. Torturers felt the pain they inflicted on others. And murderers…" she paused, her eyes flickering to the floor, "met their end."
A heavy silence fell over the room.
Binns, utterly delighted, floated closer. "Marvelous! Now then, here is a question—"
"But how would they know a Crow wasn’t lying about his testimony?" Cassius's voice cut through the silence, sharp and suspicious.
Vera parted her lips, but—nothing. The answer didn’t come.
Because she didn’t know.
Binns, however, was more than happy to fill in the gap. "Ah! A fair concern, young Mr. Warrington!" he said, nodding approvingly. "To prevent such deception, the Crow Dynasty had a policy—The Three Crows Rule. Three members—one from each family of the dynasty—would interrogate the suspect separately. If their testimonies aligned, the truth was clear. But if even one of them was caught lying, they would be punished."
"And what was the punishment for that?" Cedric asked.
"Death."
Vera stormed out of the classroom the moment Binns dismissed them, her robes billowing behind her.
The walls of Hogwarts felt like they were closing in—too many eyes, too many whispers.
She strode down the corridor, each step faster than the last, as if she could outrun the ghost of a history lesson.
"Vera!"
She barely had time to react before Ryu caught up, stepping in front of her and blocking her path.
His brows were furrowed, concern etched into every line of his face. "Are you alright?"
"Oh, just fucking brilliant, Avery," she snapped, throwing her hands in the air. "Absolutely wonderful. What a fantastic day to be a Black."
Ryu blinked at her sudden outburst. "You’re mad about the lesson?"
She scoffed. "No, Ryu, I’m mad about the weather."
"I don’t get why you’re taking it so personally. It’s just history."
Her temper snapped like a thread pulled too tight. "Just history? Just history?! Oh, forgive me if I don’t feel like standing in a room full of people that hate me to explain how my ancestors played executioner for centuries. Forgive me if I don’t enjoy being the subject of everyone’s fucking curiosity!"
He held up his hands in surrender. "Alright, alright, I didn’t mean—"
"Forget it." She brushed past him, shoving his shoulder in the process.
She slammed the dormitory door behind her, the silence swallowing her whole. The air felt too still, too suffocating, like the walls of the room were holding their breath, waiting.
She didn’t bother undressing, and just threw herself onto the bed, burying her face in the pillow, her whole body still buzzing with frustration.
"Stupid Binns. Stupid crows. Stupid fucking Blacks."
She exhaled sharply, trying to shake the weight off her chest.
Sleep. She just needed sleep.
She turned onto her side, pulling the blanket up to her chin—
—And fucking screamed.
A shriek tore from her throat as she scrambled backward, nearly falling off the bed. Her heartbeat slammed against her ribs, wild and frantic.
Because there, sitting perfectly still on her bedside table, was the crow figurine.
The same one she had thrown into the lake.
The same one she had thrown out of the window.
The room felt colder. Her breath came out in shallow gasps.
She didn’t move. She didn’t even blink.
She stared at the cursed thing, her breath ragged, her fists clenched tightly. It just sat there—mocking her, taunting her with its impossible existence.
A deep, guttural scream ripped from her throat. Pure, unfiltered rage.
And before she even realized what she was doing, she snatched the figurine off the table and slammed it onto the floor. Her wand was in her hand in an instant, shaking with fury as she aimed it at the vile thing.
"Incendio!"
The flames burst forth, hungry and bright, and licked at the crow, swallowing it whole.
She watched as it began to melt, blackened wax dripping like blood onto the floor. The fire burned hotter, fiercer, until there was nothing left. No ashes. No remains.
She stood there, chest heaving, hands trembling.
"This is it," she thought, swallowing the lump in her throat. "It’s gone. Forever. I’m never going to see it again."
And yet, as she stood there, staring at the empty space where it had been, she couldn’t shake the feeling that she had just made a terrible mistake.
Saturday, November 9, 1991
She sat in the library, staring blankly at an open book, though the words blurred together into meaningless lines. She hadn’t slept. She hadn’t eaten. The castle buzzed with Gryffindor’s victory over Slytherin, but it all felt so distant—like a world she no longer belonged to.
Ryu didn’t say anything at first. He just sat beside her, close enough that she could feel the warmth radiating off him. He fidgeted with his quill, bounced his knee under the table, and kept sneaking glances at her, like he was physically holding himself back from blurting something out.
Patience, however, was not his strong suit.
“So…” he finally drawled, reaching into his bag with exaggerated effort. “Are you planning to sulk all day, or are you going to eat this chocolate like the incredibly sensible and intelligent person I know you to be?”
He placed a slightly crumpled piece of Honeydukes chocolate in front of her with a flourish, but she barely looked at it.
“Don’t give me that look,” he huffed. “Do you have any idea what I went through to get this?”
She raised an eyebrow, unimpressed.
He sighed dramatically. “Alright, fine. I may have stole it from Davies' stash.”
Her lips twitched.
“In my defense,” he continued, “hoarding chocolate like some kind of deranged goblin is both selfish and morally reprehensible. I consider this an act of public service.”
A small snort escaped her before she could stop it, and she reached for the chocolate.
Ryu’s grin was instant. “Ah, there she is! I was starting to think you’d been replaced by Filch.”
She rolled her eyes but unwrapped the chocolate anyway, taking a bite. The taste melted on her tongue, rich and sweet, grounding her in the present.
Ryu took the moment to lean just a little closer. “Alright, now that I’ve successfully bribed you, care to explain why you looked about five seconds away from hexing a professor yesterday?”
She hesitated, fingers tightening around the wrapper.
The warmth of his presence, the easy way he anchored her back to reality—she hadn’t realized how much she needed that. How much she needed him.
“I…” She exhaled sharply. “I’m sorry for yelling at you.”
Ryu’s eyes widened in mock shock. “Wow. I should frame this moment. No, really. I’ll have a plaque made.”
She shook her head, but this time, there was no real irritation—just a wobbly, reluctant smile.
Then, just as quickly, it faded.
Tears pricked at her eyes before she could stop them. The emotions she’d been stuffing down, compressing, ignoring, surged forward, unstoppable now.
“I don’t… I don’t want to make you feel bad, Ryu,” she sniffled, “but I feel bad.”
“Oh, Phie…” His voice softened, losing its usual playful lilt.
“I don’t know what’s wrong with me,” she admitted. “I don’t know who I am anymore.”
Ryu’s teasing expression melted into something gentler. Without a word, he reached out, brushing a stray tear from her cheek with the lightest touch.
“Hey,” he murmured. “You don’t need to figure it all out right now.”
She sniffled, staring down at her half-eaten chocolate.
“I don’t know how, Ryu."
“You don’t have to,” he reassured her, his voice warm. “That’s my job.”
She let out a shaky breath, nodding, and for the first time in days, the weight on her chest felt just a little lighter.
Ryu’s hand stayed on her back, gently rubbing circles. The warmth of his touch was a comfort, but it didn’t last long before he pulled away with an exaggerated sigh.
"Alright, enough of this," he said, his voice teasing again. "You've had your moment. But now, it's time to make you happy again."
She raised an eyebrow, wiping her eyes. "And how do you plan on doing that, oh wise one?"
He grinned. "Well, I’m not saying I’m a miracle worker, but... I’ve got a plan."
"Not another tutoring offer."
"That’s where you’re wrong, shingin. You are in the mood for something exciting." He paused, savoring the moment. "And I know exactly what you need."
She tilted her head, suspicious now. "And what’s that?"
"A picnic."
"A picnic?" she repeated, sounding as incredulous as she felt. "What, like, one of those sickly sweet, flower-filled, blanket-spread-in-the-sun kind of picnics?"
"Exactly!" He practically beamed. "Just the two of us, fresh air, a little bit of the outdoors—maybe even some food."
Her lips twitched, fighting a smile. “What kind of food?”
“Ah, that,” he said, wagging a finger, “shall remain a mystery.”
She squinted at him. “A mystery?”
“A mystery,” he repeated solemnly. “I don’t want to spoil the surprise, obviously.”
“Translation: you haven’t decided yet.”
“Translation: I am the mastermind here, and you simply have to trust in my impeccable taste.”
She shook her head, but the weight in her chest felt a little lighter. “You really do have a talent for ruining a good sulk, you know that?”
“Well, someone has to. Might as well be the only person willing to tolerate your gloomy face all day long.”
The corners of her mouth betrayed her, turning up despite her best efforts. “Alright. Fine. You win. We’ll have your stupid picnic.”
“I knew you’d come around,”
“Don’t get cocky,” she warned, tilting her head. “I’m still not convinced this is going to make me feel any better.”
He smirked. “Guess you’ll just have to wait and see.”
Part two: The Not Date
Sunday, November 10, 1991
She definitely wasn’t overthinking this.
It wasn’t a date. Absolutely not a date. Which meant she didn’t have to look that good.
And yet, she somehow spent an hour standing in front of her mirror, debating every possible outfit combination like it was a high-stakes duel.
In the end, she settled on the black velvet dress he’d bought her—styled down, of course.
A denim skirt layered over it, high-knee black socks, a jacket thrown on top to make it look effortless—even though it was absolutely not.
She added her cat earrings, a black choker, and, as always, her signature Converse.
Totally casual. Totally not a big deal.
Then she proceeded to spray enough perfume to drown a small village.
Satisfied—or, at least, as satisfied as she was going to get—she grabbed her things and set out to meet Ryu in front of the Black Lake.
He was already there when she arrived, sitting on a neatly laid-out blanket on the grass, a basket of food at his feet, and—of all things—a small bouquet of flowers resting beside it.
The moment he spotted her, he straightened up like he’d been caught doing something embarrassing. He cleared his throat, ran a hand through his hair, and greeted her in the only way he knew how.
“That,” he said, pointing at her outfit, “is definitely a choice.”
“Oh, I’m sorry. Should I have shown up in a ball gown? Would that have been more picnic-appropriate for you, your highness?”
“You look like you rolled out of a very fashionable dumpster.”
"Excuse you. I’ll have you know this look is carefully curated.”
“For what? Scaring off small children?”
She kicked at his shin, making him yelp and hop backward.
“See,” he said, pointing at her accusingly. “This is why I bring food—to keep you from resorting to violence.”
She rolled her eyes but sat down anyway, plucking a flower from the bouquet and twirling it between her fingers. “You brought flowers?” she asked, unable to keep the amusement out of her voice.
“Don’t read too much into it.”
“Oh, I absolutely will.”
He groaned, flopping onto the blanket beside her. “Can we just eat before you get even more unbearable?”
She sat patiently, hands in her lap, watching him with barely concealed curiosity. He was clearly stalling, fidgeting with the basket, glancing at her, then back at the food, as if second-guessing himself.
“Well? Are you going to show me what you got, or are we just going to stare at that basket all afternoon?”
“You’re so impatient.”
“I am hungry.”
“Fine, fine,” he said, waving a hand. “But close your eyes first.”
She raised an eyebrow. “Why?”
“Because I said so.”
“That’s not a real reason.”
“Phie.” His voice was exasperated, but there was something oddly gentle beneath it. “Just trust me, alright? No cheating.”
She let out a dramatic sigh but obeyed, shutting her eyes. She could hear him rustling around, the soft clink of containers being set down, the occasional muttered curses under his breath when he messed up.
Then, finally—
“Okay. Open.”
She did—and nearly gasped.
“…YOU BROUGHT SUSHI?”
“Surprise,” he said, grinning.
She blinked, staring at the neat little rolls of rice and fish, arranged so delicately that it almost looked too pretty to eat.
She looked from the food to him, then back to the food. “How—how did you even get this?"
He smirked, clearly pleased with himself. “That’s a secret.”
She narrowed her eyes. “You definitely didn’t make this.”
“Wow. No faith in me at all?"
“Nope. Spill it.”
He held out for a second longer before finally caving, sighing dramatically. “Alright, alright. Toto may or may not be friends with one of the elves here, and may or may not have magically sent it over. And I may or may not have paid the little one to be quiet about it."
Her jaw dropped. “Wait—so Toto made this?”
“He’s the best sushi chef in all of England,” he said proudly, as if that were common knowledge.
She picked up a piece, turning it over between her fingers like it might reveal some grand secret.
“So let me get this straight,” she said slowly. “You bribed a house-elf, smuggled in sushi from outside Hogwarts, and went through all this effort just so I wouldn’t be grumpy during your stupid picnic?”
He shrugged, but there was a telltale pink dusting his ears. “I wouldn’t call it stupid.”
She smiled, holding the sushi up to eye level. “You would call it bribery, though.”
“If that’s what it takes to get you to stop sulking? Absolutely.” He gestured at the food. “Now, are you going to eat, or are you just going to interrogate me?”
She hesitated. “I’ve never had it before. Because unlike some people, I don’t have a magical connection to the best sushi chef in England.”
"I know. I still remember when you told Dora about it."
"And you've brought it over just so that I can try it?"
He swallowed. "Y-yeah."
She stared at the food, then at him, and something warm bloomed in her chest. It was ridiculous—completely ridiculous—but she couldn’t help but feel touched. The effort, the thought, the sheer absurdity of it all…
Her mind flickered, unbidden, to a question she didn’t dare ask aloud.
Is he… into her?
No. No, he was just making up for getting her involved in that disastrous bet. That was all this was.
…Right?
She picked up a piece of sushi, about to take a bite when Ryu suddenly reached out and stopped her, his fingers curling around her wrist.
“Ah-ah,” he tutted. “Not like that.”
She blinked at him. “What?”
With a dramatic flourish, he pulled a pair of chopsticks from the basket. “We’re doing this properly.”
She raised an eyebrow. “Ryu, I don’t know how to use those fancy things.”
“Oh, this is worse than I thought. I knew you were an uncultured Frenchie, but this?” He shook his head in mock disappointment. “This is tragic.”
“Alright, professor, if you’re so concerned about my lack of chopstick skills, why don’t you just teach me?”
“Oh, I thought you’d never ask,” he said with a smirk, scooting closer.
She opened her mouth to protest, but he had already grabbed her hands, adjusting her fingers around the chopsticks with surprising care.
“Hold still,” he murmured, his voice softer now.
His hands, warm even through the fabric of her gloves, guided hers effortlessly. “This one goes here, and this one—yeah, like that. Don’t grip too hard, you’re not trying to stab the poor dead fish.”
She tried to focus on the instructions, really she did, but it was difficult when he was this close—so close she could feel his breath against her cheek, catch the faint scent of his cologne mixed with something distinctly him.
“Alright,” he said, pulling back just slightly, though his hands still lingered over hers. “Now, try to pick up a piece.”
She attempted to lift the sushi, but the moment she did, the chopsticks slipped, sending the piece tumbling back onto the plate.
He sighed dramatically. “This is so much worse than I thought.”
She swatted at him with the chopsticks. “Shut it.”
He laughed, effortlessly dodging her weak attempt at violence. “Okay, okay, let’s try again.”
He repositioned her grip, his fingers brushing against hers, and she felt her heartbeat stutter.
Not a date, she reminded herself. Not. A. Date.
They ate in comfortable silence for a moment, the occasional sounds of the Black Lake filling the air.
Ryu stretched his legs out, leaning back on his hands. “See?” he said, looking entirely too smug. “Aren’t you glad I forced you to come?”
She made a noncommittal noise, popping another piece of sushi into her mouth.
“I’ll take that as a yes,” he said with a grin.
She rolled her eyes, but when she glanced at him—his dark eyes reflecting the lake, the way his hair fell just slightly into his face, the easy confidence in his posture—her stomach did something weird.
It wasn’t fair. He shouldn’t be allowed to be this… thoughtful. This annoyingly sweet. This incredibly hot.
She quickly looked away, focusing very hard on her food.
Not a bloody date, Vera. Definitely not a date.
For a while, they just sat in silence. The breeze tugged at her hair, and she focused on the way the water shimmered under the afternoon light, letting the steady rhythm of the waves settle something inside her.
Then, softly—
“Do you want to talk about it?”
She turned her head and found him watching her, his usual smugness softened into something quieter. Something patient.
She hesitated. Looked away.
There were a thousand things she could say, but none of them felt right. How could she explain something that barely made sense in her own head?
Finally, after a long pause, she exhaled.
“I don’t like my family’s legacy.”
He didn’t react—not in the way people would. No surprise, no empty reassurances. Just quiet attentiveness.
“People think I should be proud of it,” she continued, rolling a loose thread from her jacket between her fingers. “That it’s something grand, something worth carrying forward. But when I think about it, all I feel is... shame.” She faltered, then shook her head. “I don’t feel connected to it. Not like you do with your dragons.”
Ryu tilted his head. “Why should you?”
“Because it’s mine.”
“No,” he said simply. “It was given to you. That’s different.”
She looked at him, skeptical.
He stretched his arms behind him, gazing at the sky as if sorting through his words. “Legacies are just stories,” he said at last. “Stories people tell about the past, hoping they’ll shape the future. But you don’t have to play your part in someone else’s story.”
“That’s easy to say.”
“It’s hard to do,” he admitted. “But it’s possible.”
She was quiet, considering that.
“You don’t have to spend your life running from it, either,” he added. “You can take what’s useful and leave the rest. Rewrite it. Make something new.”
She exhaled sharply. “And if none of it is useful?”
“Then you walk away. And build something better.”
"But my ancestors—"
“You don’t have to carry the weight of what came before, Vera. You don’t owe them anything, even if they gave you everything.”
She bit her lip. “And even if they gave me nothing?”
“Especially then.”
She looked down at her hands, thinking.
No one had ever said it like that before.
“You know, Vera, since you’re so determined to not be a perfect example of your prestigious bloodline, I think you should embrace the alternative.” He turned to her, smirking. “Start the Troublemaker Dynasty.”
She snorted. “The Troublemaker Dynasty?”
“You can be the first of your name. Future generations will speak of your legendary ability to cause headaches for authority figures everywhere.”
"Oh, sure, and what, you’ll be my loyal first follower?”
“Excuse you, I would be co-founder.”
She huffed a laugh, shaking her head. “You’re ridiculous.”
“And you’re smiling,” he pointed out smugly.
She tried to fight it, but it was already too late—he had caught her.
With a sigh, she gave in, leaning back on her hands the same way he was, watching the clouds drift lazily overhead.
Maybe he was right. Maybe she didn’t owe her family anything. Maybe she could build something new, something entirely her own.
The thought was terrifying.
But sitting here, with Ryu beside her, teasing and laughing like nothing in the world could touch them—
It didn’t seem impossible.
He clapped his hands together. “Alright, now it’s time for cake.”
He reached into the basket and pulled out a slightly rough-looking cake, the frosting uneven, a little lopsided, and clearly homemade.
She stared at it for a long moment before raising an eyebrow. “Did you fight this cake before bringing it here?”
He huffed. “I did my best, okay?”
Her smirk faltered. “Wait…” She looked up at him, eyes wide. “You made this?”
"What, you think I'm a useless brat?”
"Are you going to poison me, Avery?”
“Maybe. But don’t worry—I’ll die with you too.”
She snorted. “Okay, Romeo.”
“Who?”
She ignored him, picking up a fork and digging into the cake instead.
Ryu watched her, his usual cocky demeanor faltering as he waited for her reaction. She chewed, eyebrows slowly lifting in surprise.
Strawberry.
Her favorite.
She glanced at him, then back at the cake. He was still watching her, tense, like he was expecting her to spit it out dramatically.
It actually tasted good.
…But did she want to tell him that? Nope.
She sat there, taking another slow bite, deliberately keeping her expression neutral.
Ryu fidgeted. “Well?”
She licked the frosting off her fork, drawing out the silence just to mess with him.
He groaned. “Vee—”
“Fine,” she sighed, setting the fork down with exaggerated reluctance. “It’s actually good.”
His whole face lit up, smugness returning instantly. “I knew it!”
"Alright," she said, leaning back with a teasing grin, "since you’ve successfully bribed me with cake, I have a confession to make."
Ryu froze mid-chew, his eyes widening with a mixture of curiosity and mild panic.
He set down his fork with exaggerated care. "Uh, go on."
He braced himself—maybe a little too much.
She sighed dramatically, as if this was a life-or-death matter. "Okay, here it is."
He leaned in, his face a picture of both anticipation and dread.
"Ryu," she began, drawing out his name.
He leaned even closer, heart racing. "Yes?"
She paused, letting the silence drag on as she carefully exhaled, a little smile playing at the edges of her lips. "I..."
"Yeah?"
"I..." She swallowed, giving him a look that could’ve made anyone sweat.
"Yes, Vera?" he pressed, unable to help himself.
She gave him one last look of mock suspense before revealing her bombshell: "I really do like pincins."
He blinked.
"In fact," she continued. "I fucking love them!"
He blinked again, still processing the curveball, and his expression fell from confusion to mild disappointment.
"Oh," he said flatly, his shoulders slumping just slightly.
She smirked, clearly enjoying the effect. "Didn’t want to give you the satisfaction of hearing that, but there it is."
His gaze shifted to the lake, and for a moment, the playful tension slipped into something quieter.
She glanced at him, seeing the odd shift in his mood. He wasn’t quite looking at her anymore, fidgeting with his fork as if trying to find the right words.
"You alright?"
"Yeah, fine," he mumbled, not meeting her gaze.
"What’s going on?" she pressed, sensing a change but not sure what it was.
He looked up at her finally, his lips pulling into a half-hearted smile. "Nothing, really."
She narrowed her eyes, unconvinced. "Uh-huh."
A beat passed, the tension thick between them. Then he broke the quiet again, his tone soft but searching. "So, I get you're happy now?"
Her smirk returned, full of triumph and a hint of mischief. "Absolutely. How could I not be, knowing I’ve crushed your hopes and dreams with my undying love for pincins?"
He snorted, the weight of whatever he was carrying lifting for a moment. "Fair enough," he said, the edge of his smile finally reaching his eyes. "Fair enough."
She paused, then leaned back slightly, a touch of genuine warmth in her voice. "Thanks, though. For doing this. For putting up with me. For everything, really."
He raised an eyebrow, his smirk turning devilish. "You better be grateful. I had to sacrifice my Sunday nap for this."
Before she could throw something at him, a low rumble echoed in the distance. She looked up to see the sky darkening, heavy clouds rolling in. The scent of rain lingered in the air, thick and cool.
She frowned. “We should probably go before we get caught in—”
“Why?” Ryu leaned back, utterly unbothered. “It’s just a bit of rain.”
She gave him a look. “We’re sitting outside with food, and I am not in the mood to be drenched, thank you.”
“Ah, but think about it—this could be one of those poetic moments. Sitting under the sky, eating cake, while the storm rolls in.”
“Getting struck by lightning would also be poetic.”
He shrugged. “Then at least we’d go out dramatically.”
She sighed. “You are impossible.”
“Is this about your hands?” He tilted his head, watching her closely. "You can't get them wet, right?"
She shook her head. “No, it's alright. I’m wearing leather gloves.”
“Huh. Then what is it?”
She rolled her eyes. “I just don’t want to get cold, Avery!"
“Well,” he said, scooting just a little closer, his voice dripping with amusement, “my offer on warming you still stands.”
She shot him a look. “You’re disgusting.”
Suddenly, a group of first-year Slytherins strolled onto the scene, loudly chattering amongst themselves like they owned the entire Black Lake.
They were clearly in the middle of some ridiculous conversation, their voices echoing too loudly for the quiet of the place.
Crabbe and Goyle were, predictably, following along like overgrown ducklings, while Pansy Parkinson pranced ahead, nose in the air, as if the mere act of walking across the grass required an air of superiority.
Blaise Zabini was inspecting his nails with an expression of deep boredom, Theo Nott looked like he wanted to be anywhere else, and a few other miniature aristocrats trailed behind, laughing at things that weren't even funny.
Vera smirked. “The heirs of darkness have arrived.”
"I can’t believe they’re still this loud."
"Look at that one." She pointed discreetly to Goyle, who was balancing a wand on his head. "No wonder Slytherin’s reputation’s taken a dive—looks like it’s gone from cunning to confused."
"Well, at least they're consistent," Ryu said, shaking his head.
They both burst into quiet laughter, careful not to make it obvious they were enjoying the show so much.
Vera leaned back. “Honestly, I should send them a thank-you note for this entertainment.”
Ryu grinned. “Oh, I’d be happy to write it up for you. ‘Dear Slytherins, please continue being you. You’re doing wonders for our self-esteem.’”
"Perfect," she said. "I think they'd appreciate that."
As they continued their merciless commentary, Vera wiped a tear from her eye, still laughing. “Merlin, I almost feel bad for them.”
Ryu smirked. “Almost.”
She turned to him suddenly, still grinning. “Wait… Ryu.”
“Hm?”
“Are we… bullies?”
There was a beat of silence as Ryu just stared at her. Then, without warning, he burst into laughter.
Something about his reaction made her crack too, and before she knew it, she was laughing just as hard, the both of them doubled over like complete idiots.
“Vee—” He gasped between breaths. “That—that is the funniest thing you’ve ever said.”
She shook her head, barely able to breathe. “No, but seriously—what if we are?!”
He wiped at his eyes, still grinning. “Then we’re the kind that only pick on people who deserve it.”
She nodded, trying to compose herself. “So… chaotic good bullies?”
“Exactly. Besides, they’ll be fine. I mean, have you seen Parkinson? That girl was born to throw insults. I think she’ll survive.”
She sighed dramatically. “Alright, fine. But if we end up getting hexed in a dark alley one day, I’m blaming you.”
“Noted.” Ryu shot her a wink. “But let’s be honest—you’d hex them first.”
She smirked. “Fair point.”
Just as she was recovering from her laughter, a voice interrupted them.
“Hey.”
Both she and Ryu froze like deer caught in wandlight. In perfect synchronization, they straightened up, suddenly looking far too composed for two people who had just been wheezing over their own jokes.
“Hi Draco!” she said, her voice a little too bright. She cleared her throat and forced a nervous grin. “Want some cake?”
“It’s fine,” Draco said dismissively, but his eyes flickered toward her like he was debating something. “I, uh… I wanted to talk to you.”
Her heart skipped a beat. And this time, from absolute joy.
She knew where this was going. This was the moment she had been waiting for.
She quickly dusted imaginary crumbs off her hands and turned to Ryu. “I’ll be right back,” she said, barely containing the excitement bubbling in her chest.
Without waiting for a reply, she followed Draco toward a quieter spot, her mind already racing.
She could barely keep still, her excitement thrumming beneath her skin.
However, Draco was drawing this out, probably nervous, but she already knew what was coming.
Finally, he exhaled and said, “I got an answer from my grandfather.”
Her heart pounded. Here it is. Here it is.
"He was happy we talked." He continued. "And hopes we can remain friends.”
Her face lit up. Yes!
But then—something changed.
His gaze flickered downward, his hands curling into fists at his sides. The air between them suddenly felt charged, heavy with something unspoken.
Vera felt the first creeping tendrils of unease.
“What is it?” she asked, her voice quieter now.
Draco didn’t answer right away. He seemed to wrestle with the words, then finally—
“I’m sorry.”
The joy drained from her face.
“For what?” she asked, even though some part of her already knew.
He inhaled sharply, then met her eyes.
“My grandfather doesn’t wish to speak to you.”
The words struck like ice water down her spine.
For a moment, she thought she must have misheard.
“Wait,” she said, forcing a small, shaky laugh. “It doesn’t have to be now. I mean, we can—”
“No,” Draco interrupted, his voice clipped. “He doesn’t wish to speak to you. Ever.”
The world seemed to tilt.
She felt her breath catch, her chest constricting.
Draco shifted uncomfortably, avoiding her eyes. “Whatever happened between him and his father, or even aunt Cassiopeia—it must be serious. So... Don’t take it personally.”
But it was personal.
It was personal in every way possible.
She barely managed to nod, though she could feel the heat rising behind her eyes, the pressure threatening to spill over.
Draco sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. “I really am sorry.”
And then—he turned to leave.
The sky cracked.
A low rumble of thunder rolled across the lake, and a single raindrop landed on her cheek, cool against her burning skin.
She didn’t move.
Didn’t even breathe.
But then—Draco turned back.
“I almost forgot,” he murmured. “I found this on the way here. Thought it might be yours.”
She blinked, disoriented, as he reached into his pocket.
Then he held it out.
The crow.
A fresh wave of confusion slammed into her, but before she could ask, before she could even react, Draco took her hand—his grip firm but fleeting—and placed the crow in her palm.
She stared down at it, frozen, as the rain started to fall harder, each drop hammering against her.
Draco left, and all at once, it hit her.
The rejection.
The shame.
The overwhelming sense of being unwanted.
The rain blurred everything—the trees, the lake, the castle in the distance.
But most of all, it blurred the future she had so foolishly believed in.
She barely registered the water soaking through her clothes as she made her way back to Ryu. She moved like a ghost, every step mechanical, her fingers locked around the small crow as if letting go would make it all real.
She sat down without a word.
Ryu, who had been waiting with a smirk ready, immediately faltered. He leaned closer, eyeing her carefully. “You alright?”
Silence.
He frowned. “Do you wanna—uh—leave? It’s pouring, and I know you’re—”
Nothing.
Not a single reaction.
She just kept staring at the lake, her expression eerily blank, like she wasn’t even there anymore.
Ryu called her name.
Again.
Then again.
And again.
Still, nothing.
“Oi.” He scooted closer, now properly worried “Vera?”
Nothing.
"Vera, are you alright?"
His concern sharpened into alarm.
And then, without thinking, he grabbed both her shoulders and shook her.
“Vera, look at me—”
Her unfocused gaze met his, and for a second, neither of them moved. The rain was relentless now, drenching them both, water dripping down his face, his hair plastered to his forehead. But none of that mattered.
Because the way she was looking at him—
It was like she was lost.
Like something inside her had just died.
Ryu’s grip tightened, steadying her. “What happened?” he asked, voice urgent. “What did he say to you?”
She opened her mouth—then closed it. Her breath hitched, her fingers tightening around the crow until the edges bit into her gloved palm.
Then, without warning—
She broke.
A sob tore out of her, raw and painful, and before she could stop it, the dam burst.
She couldn’t stop.
She couldn’t stop the way her chest heaved violently, the way her breath shattered into broken gasps, the way the pain ripped through her like a blade slicing through her ribs. It was too much—too fucking much—and the more she tried to contain it, the more it overwhelmed her.
A strangled sob tore from her throat, raw and desperate, and then another, until she was outright screaming.
She clutched at the grass, at the wet fabric of her skirt, at anything to keep herself grounded, but the world felt like it was slipping from under her. Her lungs burned, her head spun, and her whole body trembled so hard she thought she might come apart completely.
“Vera!”
Ryu’s voice was distant at first, drowned out by the roaring in her ears. His hands were on her shoulders, gripping tight, trying to steady her, but she couldn't—she couldn’t.
"Hey, hey, breathe—"
She couldn’t fucking breathe.
Her gasps were sharp, shallow, panicked. She was spiraling, drowning in it, her sobs tearing through her like they were trying to rip something out of her.
Before she could collapse forward, Ryu pulled her back—wrapping his arms around her from behind, locking her against his chest.
“Breathe,” he ordered, right against her ear. "In—come on, in, Vera—"
She choked on a sob, shaking violently.
“Please, Vera!” he pleaded, squeezing her tighter. “Come on, breathe—”
She tried.
She really tried, but her breath was still uneven, still ragged.
"Again," Ryu urged. "Breathe in, come on—"
She sucked in a shuddering breath, this time a little deeper.
"Good—good, that's it—now out," he whispered, pressing his forehead against the side of her drenched hair.
The sobs didn’t stop completely, but the suffocating grip on her lungs started to ease.
Ryu kept holding her, his arms an iron cage around her shaking frame, shielding her from the rain, from the world, from everything that had just shattered inside her.
“I’ve got you,” he murmured, “I’ve got you, shingin. I promise.”
She took a deep, shaky breath, but it did nothing to stop the weight pressing down on her chest.
After what seemed like an hour, the sun had broken through the clouds, casting everything in a soft, golden glow, but it felt wrong—mocking, almost. Like the world had moved on while she was still stuck in the storm.
Ryu hadn’t let go.
His arms remained securely around her, his warmth soaking into her skin, grounding her even as everything inside her felt like it was unraveling.
She clung to his sleeve with one hand, gripping the fabric as though it was the only thing keeping her from floating away. In her other hand, the crow figurine dug into her palm, its edges sharp and unrelenting.
She sniffled, blinking against the fresh tears threatening to spill again. It didn’t feel real. None of it felt real.
Cygnus had rejected her.
Not just today. Not just for now.
Forever.
Her last chance at claiming something—anything—from her family was gone. The inheritance she had once dreamed of, the wealth and security she had convinced herself she could fight for—it had all been ripped away in a single sentence. She would never be anything more than what she was now. A nobody.
And the crow—
She squeezed it tighter, as if punishing it for existing.
It should have been lost. Should have been gone. But no matter how many times she tried to escape it, no matter how much she wanted to forget it even existed, it always came back.
She shut her eyes again, letting the warmth of Ryu's body shield her from the biting cold truth. For a fleeting moment, she wished she could stay like this forever—hidden away in his arms, safe from the world that had once again proven it had nothing to offer her.
But no amount of warmth could chase away the cold reality settling deep in her bones.
She spun the crow between her fingers, her movements slow, deliberate. Ryu stayed silent, observing her with a mixture of curiosity and concern.
Then, almost too softly to hear, she whispered, "You were wrong."
He straightened slightly. "About what?"
Her fingers stilled around the figurine. "We can’t escape our legacies," she said, her voice hollow.
His arms instinctively tightened around her, as if he could hold her together through sheer force alone. He didn’t understand—not fully—but that didn’t matter.
He stroked her hair, his touch gentle, grounding. "You don’t have to do anything alone, Vera."
She stiffened, then, slowly, peeled herself away from his grasp, turning to face him.
His face was close—too close. His eyes, dark and searching, flickered between hers, waiting.
"I am alone," she whispered.
Ryu’s gaze didn’t waver. "No, you’re not."
For a moment, neither of them moved. The world seemed to narrow to just the space between them, to the sound of the wind rustling through the trees, to the rainwater dripping from his hair onto his cheek.
Her gaze locked onto his, searching, measuring, holding.
One.
Two.
Three.
Four.
Five.
Six.
Seven.
Eight.
Before she could stop herself, before she could even think—she kissed him.
It wasn’t hesitant or careful. It was desperate. A collision of pain and longing, a plea, a demand, a mistake.
And for a moment—just a moment—he kissed her back.
His lips pressed against hers, warm and firm, sending sparks down her spine. It felt like something she could fall into, something she could believe in—
Until he pulled away.
His brows were furrowed, his lips parted slightly, as if he was trying to make sense of something. And then, with quiet confusion, he said,
"But the deal is done."
It was a blade straight through her fucking ribs.
The world blurred at the edges as realization crashed over her like a tidal wave.
Oh.
How stupid.
How unbelievably stupid of her to think—
To hope—
She forced herself to swallow down the lump in her throat, to keep her face unreadable as she blinked up at him. Then, with practiced ease, she plastered on a tight, hollow smile.
"Yeah," she said, her voice eerily steady. "You’re right. It’s done."
She stood up, movements sharp, purposeful, and turned before he could say anything else, before he could see the way her hands were shaking, and walked away.
She barely made it a few steps before her breath hitched, her chest tightening so painfully she thought she might collapse.
She grabbed onto the rough bark of a tree, gripping it like it was the only thing keeping her upright. The tears she had been holding back threatened to spill over again.
But then—
A hand around her wrist. Firm. Unyielding.
Ryu yanked her around, pressing her back hard against the tree. His body caged hers in, his heat swallowing her whole.
And before she could even take another breath, his lips crashed into hers in a desperate, fierce, all-consuming kiss.
She barely had time to process it before she was kissing him back just as hungrily.
He wasn’t just kissing her, though. He was devouring her, pouring every unspoken word, every unsaid feeling into the way his lips moved against hers, the way his fingers held her face like she was something he needed to survive.
His body pressed flush against hers, heat radiating off him like a fire she never wanted to step away from. His hands—rough, strong—framed her face, tilting her up, keeping her there, as if he was afraid she might slip through his fingers.
she gasped into his mouth as he deepened the kiss, claiming her completely.
Heat coiled in her stomach, a slow, burning ache that made her dizzy. She fisted his sweatshirt, pulling him impossibly closer, as if she could fuse herself to him, as if this could make her forget everything that had come before.
The kiss was messy, intoxicating, a blur of heat and need.
When air became necessary, she broke away, gasping, her chest heaving against his.
But Ryu didn’t let her go.
His forehead rested against hers, their breaths mingling, heavy and uneven. His hands still cradled her face, his thumbs brushing over her damp cheeks.
"Vera," he murmured, her name dripping off his tongue like a sacred prophecy.
Before she could even catch her breath, his lips were on hers again—urgent, relentless, like he was making up for every second they had wasted.
His hands moved over her, sliding down her back, gripping her waist, mapping out the shape of her like he was memorizing her through touch alone. The rain had soaked through her clothes, making every sensation more intense, every brush of his fingers against her damp skin setting her alight.
When they finally pulled apart, he didn’t let her go. His arms stayed locked around her, holding her so tightly she could feel his heartbeat pounding against hers.
She looked up, her breath still shaky, her entire body still burning, and for the first time, she saw it.
The way he looked at her.
Like he needed her. Like he had been starving for this.
Her throat tightened, but she forced the words out anyway. "Does it feel different?" she asked softly. "Now that it's real?"
He let out a small, breathless laugh, resting his forehead against hers. His eyes fluttered shut, his grip on her tightening just slightly, just enough to make her heart skip a beat.
"It was always real to me, Vera."
Notes:
Chapter's song: Something I Can Never Have - Nine Inch Nails
Chapter 69: The Killing Moon
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Sunday, November 10, 1991
Ryu stood in front of the mirror, adjusting his collar for the tenth—no, twentieth—time, as if a millimeter’s difference would change his entire fate. His trunk was half-emptied onto his bed, discarded outfits crumpled in a heap as he scrutinized his latest choice.
“Okay, what about this one?”
Roger, sprawled on his bed with a book resting on his chest, barely lifted his gaze. “Looks good.”
Ryu narrowed his eyes. “You didn’t even look.”
“That’s because they all look the same.”
“They do not all look the same.” Ryu scowled. “This one has a different vibe.”
“Oh, yes, of course. The very distinct difference between a black shirt with buttons and a black shirt with slightly smaller buttons.”
“I don’t know…” Ryu trailed off. “Maybe the blue shirt would be better.”
“Trust me mate, you could show up in your dragon pajamas, and she’d still think you’re charming.”
“This is important, Davies.”
Roger groaned. “We’ve been at this for an hour, Avery. It’s bordering on obsessive.”
“Well, I can't afford to look anything but perfect today.”
“For what? You’re already dating her! The girl you’ve been mooning over since first year is your girlfriend now. It’s done. You won.”
Ryu hesitated for a beat before muttering, “It’s different this time.”
“Different how?”
He fiddled with his cufflink, avoiding his roommate’s gaze.
“Wait. Hold on.” Roger tilted his head. “Don’t tell me. You’re in love.”
Ryu stiffened. “I didn’t say that.”
“That’s it! That’s the look! That ‘hopeless, lost cause, Merlin help me’ look.” He shook his head in mock sympathy. “It’s over for you, mate. You’re doomed.”
“Shut up,” Ryu muttered, flopping onto his bed.
Roger leaned back with a knowing smirk. “You can relax, mate. She’s in love with you, too.”
“And how would you know?”
“The eyes, chico.” Roger waggled his eyebrows. “They never lie.”
Ryu groaned dramatically, dragging a pillow over his face. But beneath it, doubt gnawed at him.
Roger didn’t know what he was talking about. Vera couldn’t really like him—not like that. Not after everything. Not after the lies, the fights, the mistakes.
And yet, as much as he tried to dismiss it, his thoughts drifted—drifted back to the first time he ever saw her.
Love At First Sight
Wednesday, August 23, 1989
It was summer. Warm, bright, and unbearably loud. Diagon Alley was teeming with witches and wizards bustling from shop to shop, but he barely paid attention. He was eleven, bored, and trailing behind his mother as she debated wand polish at Ollivanders. Just as they turned the corner to enter a boutique, he heard a commotion nearby.
A large man just few shops away was leading a girl out of a store, his grip firm around her arm.
“You cannot just walk away like that!” he scolded loudly. “I turned around for two seconds, and you were gone.”
The girl—about his age with long dark hair swaying with every step—was barely listening. She kept glancing back at the shop they had just left, her dark blue eyes full of longing. Ryu didn’t realize he was staring until his mother nudged him.
“Don’t gawk at strangers, Ryujin,” she said lightly. “Come inside with me.”
He nodded and followed her into the shop, but as the bell chimed behind him, he found himself drawn back to the window.
The girl was still there. She was looking toward the store, lips pressed together in thought, as if she was already planning how to get back inside.
For a moment, she turned, as if sensing his gaze, and he froze. Then, just as quickly, she looked away, tugging at the man’s grip as they disappeared into the crowd.
Ryu didn’t know her name. Didn’t know anything about her. But the image of her—dark hair flying, blue eye glinting—was burned into his mind.
And it never really left.
First year
The platform was a chaotic symphony of voices, steam curling through the air as families exchanged hurried goodbyes. Ryu stood still amidst the movement, his hands tucked neatly into his pockets. His robes were pristine, his trunk already loaded. He had no last-minute flurry of packing, no misplaced items. His mother would never allow such carelessness.
She stepped in front of him, smoothing an already perfect crease on his sleeve. "Stay focused, dear. Work hard. Study every day. We expect nothing less than excellence."
“And most importantly,” Ryusei added. “Cherish every moment, be happy, and remember that your mother and I love you dearly.”
He then leaned down, pressing a brief kiss to Ryu’s forehead. "I'm proud of you, son."
"Even if I was sorted into Hufflepuff?" Ryu asked, his nose still scrunched from the bristles of his father’s beard.
Ryusei laughed, the warmth in his voice unwavering. "I'm proud of you no matter what."
Something settled in Ryu’s chest—solid, reassuring.
"Don't get into trouble, Ryujin," he added, "and choose your friends wisely."
"Just make certain they’re one of us," his mother interjected smoothly.
"Oh, I almost forgot,” Ryusei continued. “David Warrington came to my office yesterday. He asked if you and his son, Cassius, could stick together at school."
Ryu remained silent. He already knew Cassius. Their fathers worked together, so this was inevitable.
"Now, I do not like Warrington," his father admitted, exhaling slowly. "Never have. But his son is half a Malfoy after all, and we owe that family a great deal. So please, keep Cassius close."
Ryu understood the weight behind those words. "Wakatta, Father," he said simply.
His mother gave a satisfied nod and stepped back. "Now go on. Don’t linger."
The corridors were crowded, filled with first-years chattering excitedly. Ryu moved through the noise, searching for the compartment where he knew the others would be waiting. When he slid open the door, he was swiftly met with their familiar annoying faces.
“Finally,” grumbled Eudora, lounging against the seat with her arms crossed. “What took you so long?”
“Had to say goodbye,” Ryu said, taking a seat beside her.
Cassius sat across from them, looking unusually pale. “Sorting’s tonight,” he muttered, fidgeting with the hem of his sleeve.
“Obviously,” drawled Miles. “And we’re all going to be in Slytherin.”
Cassius didn’t look reassured. “But, what if I’m not?”
“You will be,” Eudora said firmly. “Your entire family were in Slytherin. There’s no way you’re not.”
“But what if I’m not?” Cassius pressed, looking increasingly anxious.
Miles snorted. “Then we’ll have to pretend we never met you.”
Cassius groaned, slumping against the window.
Ryu, however, simply rolled his eyes. “Does it really matter?”
The others turned to stare at him.
“So if you end up in Hufflepuff, your parents wouldn’t mind?” Eudora asked him.
Miles smirked. “Or what if you get Gryffindor?”
Cassius finally cracked a small smile. “They’d banish you.”
“They’d probably disown you on the spot,” Eudora added.
Ryu, tired of them already, simply pulled a book from his bag and flipped it open.
Miles peered over. “You’re reading now?”
“Unbelievable.” Eudora huffed. “It’s his first day at Hogwarts, and he’s already acting like a Ravenclaw.”
He ignored them, letting their voices fade as he focused on the printed words in front of him. He barely glanced up when the knock came at the door.
A polite “Hello!” rang out, but he hardly registered it.
“Merlin’s beard, what is she wearing?”
That caught his attention for the briefest moment. Without moving his head, his gaze flicked downward, taking in a flash of fraying bandages before he returned to his book. “Never mind the fashion crime. What’s up with her hands?”
He hadn’t meant anything by it. It was just an observation. A passing remark. But something shifted in the air.
“There’s no need to be fucking rude,” the girl snapped. “You could just say no, and I’d leave.”
Ryu’s head jerked up at the sound of her voice. His book slipped slightly in his grip as his dark eyes lifted, finally seeing her for the first time.
Messy, long black hair, wild despite her obvious attempt to tame it.
And Blue eyes.
But not just blue—striking, deep, with a hint of something brighter at the edges.
And then it hit him.
Her.
He had never looked at her face that day. He had only noticed her hair, the way she kept glancing back at something with that stubborn sort of freedom. But now—now, he saw her. And she was staring at them with pure fury.
Cassius stood slowly, towering over her, voice low with warning. "Watch your mouth. It’s bad enough we have to study with you people. Don’t think for a second we’ll tolerate your vulgar nature too."
Her fists clenched, and Ryu saw it.
For a brief, electric moment, he thought she might hit Cassius. But instead, she just rolled her eyes, turned sharply, and stalked away, boots thudding against the floor.
“Merlin’s beard.” Miles exhaled, shaking his head.
Cassius scoffed. “Filthy mudblood—”
Ryu didn’t hear the rest. He didn’t move. Didn’t say a word. He was just staring at the empty doorway.
The Great Hall was grand, larger than life, its enchanted ceiling reflecting the starry sky outside. The Sorting Hat’s song had just finished, and one by one, students were being called to the front.
Ryu sat stiffly on the stool when his name was called, heart pounding.
“RAVENCLAW!”
Relief flooded him as the blue table cheered, not because he particularly cared about his house, but because it was done. The uncertainty was over. He made his way over, and as soon as he reached the table, a boy with dark hair and an easy smirk stuck out his hand.
"Roger Davies," he introduced himself. "Looks like we’re roommates."
"Ryu," he replied, shaking his hand.
"Welcome to the smartest table in the castle," Roger grinned before turning back toward the Sorting.
Ryu hummed in response, but his mind was elsewhere.
His eyes flickered toward her throughout the ceremony, drawn to her without knowing why. There was something about her that made it hard to look away. The way she held herself, the way her blue eyes flickered with something untamed. He had no real reason to care about the rest of the ceremony, no reason to care about her.
Until—
"Vera Black."
For a moment, he thought he misheard. But no—there she was, walking toward the Sorting Hat, completely unfazed by the attention. It was her. The girl from the train. The girl from Diagon Alley. Only—she wasn’t just some girl.
She was The Black heir.
And he had insulted her.
"Well, we’re doomed," Miles announced, stabbing a sausage with unnecessary force.
"Little dramatic, don’t you think?" Eudora muttered.
"No, Miles is right.” Cassius groaned, rubbing his temples. “We’re dead. Buried. Finished. Our parents are going to kill us."
"They’re going to find out," Miles continued, panic creeping into his voice. "Someone will tell them we insulted her, and when they do, it’s over. We’re all getting Howlers at best, disowned at worst."
"Not me," Adrian shrugged. "I wasn’t even there."
"Yeah, you were busy taking a shite, you lucky bastard." Miles snapped.
"It wasn’t that bad," Eudora said, though she didn’t sound convinced.
"Dora,” Ryu sighed. “We practically ripped her to shreds before she even opened her mouth."
"We’ll just invite her over,” Cassius perked up. “We’ll apologize, and problem solved."
"Are you thick?" Miles retorted. "She probably hates us now."
"Let’s just fix it before it becomes an issue." Cassius shrugged. “I don’t think she’ll reject the offer. After all, she’s one of us.”
“I’d rather die in a ditch, but thanks for the offer.”
Silence.
Ryu barely registered the sound of Miles choking on his pumpkin juice because, in that moment, his heart did something ridiculous. Something he had no control over.
Because never—not once—had he met anyone like her. And it left him smiling like an idiot.
Later that day, when he saw Black, Vera printed right next to his name on Professor Frey’s seating chart, it took every ounce of self-control not to grin like an absolute madman.
It was fate. It had to be.
Or perhaps some divine punishment for the things he’d said to her on the train. Either way, he was too elated to care.
He was going to sit next to her. The realization made his heart hammer unreasonably as he slid into his seat, only for it to kick into an outright sprint when she appeared beside him, dropping into her chair with an air of effortless defiance.
He could smell her before he even dared to look—something warm and soft, like sun-soaked linen and faded parchment.
It was ridiculous.
You are being ridiculous, he told himself sternly.
And yet, his eyes kept drifting, helplessly drawn to the way she kept tucking her hair behind her ears, only for it to slip free again.
It was so long, ink-dark waves spilling over the seat between them like a waterfall, carrying the faintest scent of vanilla. It wrapped around him, sweet and warm, sinking into his senses until he could think of nothing else.
Professor Frey ordered them to work in pairs solving an assignment, but he was barely listening to the instructions. Because the moment she turned toward him, he nearly forgot how to breathe.
Her bloody eyes.
Not just blue—no, that would have been far too simple.
They were endless, ocean-deep, shifting with every flicker of light. But in her right eye—just beneath the surface—golden flecks swam like sunlight caught in water. He was absolutely drowning, and had no desire to come up for air.
Days passed, and still, he couldn’t stop staring at her.
It had gone beyond fascination, beyond attraction. It was something deeper, something clawing at his chest every time he saw the way she laughed with her friends or the way she furrowed her brows in concentration when taking notes.
But more than anything, it was guilt.
He had to make up for it—for the things he’d said to her on the train, for how he allowed his friends to sneer at her, for how he hadn’t said a single word when Jane accused her of being a Squib. For being part of the reason she was sent to the hospital.
He had to do something.
So one evening, after the rest of the class had cleared out of DADA, he lingered behind. His fingers ghosted over her tiny cat doodles, scattered across the wooden surface of their shared desk. And just like that, he knew what to do.
He traced the little cats onto a parchment, capturing every careless curve, every wobbly line. Then, the next morning, he sent them off to a jeweler in Diagon Alley with precise instructions. It took days for them to be crafted. A whole weekend to charm them.
Small black earrings, shaped like her own drawings, charmed so that whenever she wore them, they would whisper soft compliments—ones that only she could hear.
"Your hair looks stunning today."
"That was a brilliant answer."
"Your eyes are absolutely breathtaking."
Valentine’s Day arrived, and he watched her from across the Great Hall, heart hammering as the box was delivered to her hands. He didn't expect her to know they were from him. He didn't need her to. Because when she opened it—when she turned the little black cats in her fingers and tucked her hair behind her ears to put them on—she smiled.
And in that moment, nothing else mattered.
Second year
Tuesday, January 8, 1991
Ryu had expected his birthday to be the same as every year.
Cake in the Slytherin common room. A pile of expensive gifts from family and friends. Miles instigating some ridiculous game that would inevitably end in hexes. Adrian stirring up chaos in a way that never failed to make Eudora groan.
But then Cassius pulled him aside with a favor.
"I need you to sabotage Black’s potion," he said, eyes glinting with quiet desperation. "Snape’s offering extra credit to the best work today, and if she’s still my competition, I don’t stand a chance."
Ryu hesitated.
It wasn’t as if he hadn’t done worse for Cassius before. This was minor. A small misstep in her potion—nothing that would harm her, nothing that would matter in the long run.
But this was Vera.
His gaze flickered across the Great Hall, drawn to her as if by instinct. She sat at the Gryffindor table, absently tucking a strand of hair behind her ear as she spoke to her friends. But then he remembered the train. The way she had smirked, tossing sharp words at Cassius like daggers, leaving him humiliated in front of them.
So he did it.
And that was how he ended up stuck with her for the entire day.
At first, it was a disaster. She was furious over her ruined potion, her anger only deepening when Snape paired them up to clean the lab as punishment. But somewhere between the sharp words and lingering frustration, something shifted.
And for the first time in his life, he didn’t want his birthday to end.
Her teasing.
Her laughter.
The way she moved, light on her feet, dancing around the empty Potions classroom like she owned it.
The way she had, during Truth or Dare, met his gaze with a quiet challenge, then snipped off a strand of her hair and pressed it into his palm—cool silk against his skin.
He still keeps it, tucked inside a book in his dorm, hidden between worn pages like a secret only he is allowed to remember.
The tickle war he started—an impulsive move, a moment of misplaced confidence—only to pay for it when she struck back with ruthless precision, leaving him breathless with laughter, completely at her mercy.
And then came the apple.
He hadn’t even thought about it, just leaned in and accepted her offer—but the moment his lips met the same spot where hers had been, something shifted in his chest.
And later, when exhaustion caught up with her—when she sighed, leaned against his shoulder, and fell asleep—he sat perfectly still, barely daring to breathe.
As he made his way to the Slytherin common room that night, the celebration had already passed him by. The remnants of his birthday lingered—half-empty butterbeer bottles, discarded wrappers, and the faint scent of burnt candles—but the cake was gone.
His friends barely looked up when he walked in, too absorbed in their own conversations. Only Cassius met his gaze, arms crossed, a flicker of irritation in his eyes.
"Where were you?" he asked, voice low but sharp.
Ryu hesitated for half a second before shrugging. "Got stuck in Potions."
Cassius frowned. "By yourself?"
Another pause.
"Yeah."
Cassius didn’t look convinced, but he didn’t push. Still, the tension lingered. He was still annoyed Ryu hadn’t shown up for his own birthday party. But Ryu couldn’t bring himself to care.
Because all he could think about was her.
When he finally dragged himself back to his dormitory, collapsing onto his bed with the echoes of her laughter still in his head, he realized something.
He wasn’t just fascinated by her. He wasn’t just drawn to her.
He was into her. Really, really into her.
But then came the heartbreak.
He had never thought of himself as sensitive. He had been raised to keep his emotions in check, to never let the world see his weaknesses. And yet—
He hadn't expected this kind of pain.
Hadn't expected it to hurt seeing Vera sad and withdrawn for weeks, her fire dimmed, her usual sharp remarks absent. Hadn't expected it to sting when he caught her staring off into space, eyes empty, or when he realized he didn't know how to fix it.
Hadn't expected the sharp, twisting ache when she returned his gift on Valentine’s Day, leaving the necklace in his hands without a word. Hadn’t expected the ugly, jealous fury that flared in his chest when she hugged Cedric in Herbology.
Hadn't expected the cold terror when he saw her collapse, her body hitting the stone floor with a sickening thud. Hadn't expected the helplessness of standing by her hospital bed, watching her barely breathing, unable to do anything.
And then Cassius told him.
Told him she had been tortured, beaten. Starved.
Abused by the very family that bore her name.
His heart fucking shattered.
Because suddenly, everything made sense. The way she never spoke about home. The way she lashed out so fiercely, as if she was constantly fighting an invisible enemy. The way she bloody hated them.
He wished he had known. Wished he could have protected her. Wished he could make it up to her.
But how could he?
How could he, when he didn't even know if she liked him?
When she had returned his gift?
When she had hugged someone else?
When she hadn’t once looked at him the way he looked at her?
The pain of it settled deep in his chest, a dull, unrelenting ache.
Still, when he saw her finally regaining her strength, leaving the hospital wing with that stubborn fire in her eyes, he realized—none of it mattered. It didn’t matter if she never looked at him the way he wanted her to. It didn’t matter if she never felt the same.
Because he just wanted her to be happy. To be okay.
And yet—when he caught sight of her hair, when he saw the jagged edge where she had cut it—his stomach twisted with something sharp and ugly. Not at her, never at her. But at whatever situation had pushed her to do it. At whatever pain had made her take the scissors to herself like that.
Still, when she walked past him, alive and whole and back, he couldn’t bring himself to do anything but breathe out in relief.
Third year
When third year started, Ryu hadn’t expected his fascination with Vera Black to become this desperate.
Because the moment he saw her step onto Platform 9¾, he forgot his own name.
She looked different. Older. More mature. More beautiful.
His eyes traced the red streaks in her dark hair, shining under the station’s lights like molten fire. His gaze traveled down to her eyes—still the most beautiful he’d ever seen, even more so with the sharp, dark liner framing them. Then to her skin, glass-like in its radiance.
And then to her body…
His lips parted slightly as his eyes caught the hem of her skirt—too short. His stomach tightened at the sliver of skin peeking out between her top and waistband. And the fishnets—bloody hell, the fishnets. They clung to her legs in a way that made his head spin, made it impossible to focus on anything else.
He swallowed hard, dragging his tongue over his lips before he could stop himself. He loved the way she was dressed—bold, confident, effortlessly stunning. It made him dizzy, made something burn low in his stomach, made him want to reach for her, but—fuck—he had to keep it together.
And then—he noticed.
The other boys were staring, too. Their eyes followed the same path his had, lingering too long on her legs, on the curve of her waist, on the exposed skin he had barely been able to handle looking at himself.
A white-hot fury curled in his chest.
It was irrational. He knew that. He had no right to feel this way. But the thought of her with someone else—laughing with them, kissing them—made his stomach churn so violently he thought he might be sick. And that is when he made up his mind.
She will be his, no matter what.
But then came the bet.
That night, the shame gnawed at him, hollowing him out from the inside. His so-called friends had made it clear where he stood—an afterthought, a joke, someone who wasn't brave enough. He couldn’t stomach their company, not with their laughter still ringing in his ears. So he went to the only place he knew would be quiet. The library. And that's when he spotted her.
Sitting alone, hunched over her books, shoulders trembling as silent tears fell onto the parchment beneath her.
He didn’t think. Didn’t hesitate. Just moved.
Before he even knew what he was doing, the words left his mouth, raw and unguarded.
“I want you to be my girlfriend.”
He meant it—every word, every syllable. Not as a joke. Not for the stupid bet. For real.
But her response was sharp, bitter, cutting through him like a blade.
"You’re sick for thinking I could date someone like you, Avery!"
And just like that, the last fragile piece of him shattered.
The sting of it made his throat tighten, made something deep inside him ache. He almost felt like crying. Almost. But he swallowed it down, straightened his spine, and forced himself to hold his ground.
"Just Pretend." His voice was steady, but even he could hear the strain beneath it.
But she still said no.
It wasn’t losing the bet with Miles that crushed him. It wasn’t even the rejection itself. It was the way he realized, with a slow, sinking dread, that he had hurt her. That she believed his feelings were nothing more than a game.
And now, no matter how much he wanted to tell her the truth—how he couldn’t stop thinking about her, how he meant it more than he’d ever meant anything—she wouldn’t believe him.
After what felt like an eternity, she came back to him, and he could barely contain his excitement. She was going to spend more time with him. He would have a chance to show her what he felt, to make things right. To prove that he wasn't just an idiot with a bet but someone who truly wanted her.
But then he realized—it wasn’t going to be as easy as he thought.
She was fierce. Unpredictable. The teasing, the way she mocked him and pushed his buttons—it only made things harder. She led him in one direction and then yanked him in another. And then, there were the moments that nearly drove him mad.
The way she bit his finger. The way she pressed his hand against her body. The way she let his palm rest on her thigh—his breath catching every time his hand moved just a fraction, as if it were a dare.
And then—finally—the way she bloody kissed him.
It was like the world stopped, like everything in his life had been leading to this moment. Her lips were soft and demanding, her fingers weaving through his hair as though she were pulling him into her very soul. It wasn’t just a kiss. It was everything—everything he had been waiting for, everything he had been too scared to ask for.
And Merlin, it was his first.
He had lied to her before. He didn’t even think about it—just smirked, shrugged, said something arrogant to keep himself from looking like a fool. But it was his first. And even if she never knew, even if it meant nothing to her in the grand scheme of things, it had meant everything to him.
That night, he could barely contain his excitement as he lay in bed, staring up at the ceiling with a ridiculous smile on his face. Every time he closed his eyes, he felt her lips against his again—soft, warm, perfect.
She kissed me.
The thought sent a thrill down his spine, making his heart race all over again. But it made him want her more. So much more.
He had to tell her. No more games, no more pretending. He was going to confess. No matter what her answer was, no matter if she laughed in his face or pushed him away, he had to say it.
And Halloween night was the perfect opportunity.
He spent an entire week designing the perfect dress for her—something he knew would suit her, something that would make her feel as stunning as she was.
He knew her exact measurements by heart, not because she had ever told him, but because he had memorized them in the way his hands had traced the curve of her waist, the slope of her shoulders. In the way his eyes had lingered far too long, committing every detail to memory.
And when she arrived that night, wearing his dress, his heart nearly stopped.
It fit her perfectly, just as he knew it would. But it wasn’t just the way the fabric hugged her body—it was the way she glowed in it, the way she carried herself, as if, for the first time, she saw herself the way he did. The way the candlelight reflected in her blue eyes, the way her hair cascaded down her back—she was breathtaking. He had to stop himself from staring too much, from giving himself away too soon.
He spent the whole night practicing in his head.
"I fancy you."
"I want you."
“I NEED you!”
When the moment finally came, when they were dancing and her hands were on his shoulders, her body pressed against his, and the taste of her lips still lingered on his—he knew this was it.
"Vera, I have to tell you something," he said, voice steady despite the pounding of his heart.
"Yes, Ryu?"
He opened his mouth to confess, to tell her the truth, to finally say what had been clawing at his chest for years. But Eudora and Adrian appeared out of nowhere, crashing into them with wild grins, oblivious to the moment they had just shattered.
He clenched his jaw, swallowing back the words that had been right there, and decided to tell her after the party. But then the game happened. The disastrous, cruel game that shattered everything before he even had the chance.
And when she left—when she walked away, taking all the warmth with her—he didn’t chase after her.
He didn’t know how.
Instead, he turned back, the world still spinning in the aftermath, and found Cassius exactly where he had left him, still sitting in his chair.
He grabbed him by the collar and yanked him up, shoving him hard against the nearest wall.
"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?"
Cassius let out a short laugh, unbothered. "Oh, come on, Ryu. It was just a game."
"Cut the shit," Ryu spat. "You humiliated her. You made her relive the worst moments of her life. You knew what she went through, and you still did it. And then you try to fucking kiss her!"
"I was doing you a favor."
Ryu shoved him harder. "A favor?"
"She’s not as loyal as you think she is, mate. She would’ve kissed me, you know. If I hadn’t pulled away first. If you think she actually cares about you, you’re more delusional than I thought."
Ryu’s blood boiled. His fist clenched, shaking with the urge to strike, but he forced himself to breathe.
"You knew," he said through gritted teeth. "You knew what she went through. You knew how much she suffered, and you still used it against her. How can you live with yourself?"
Cassius scoffed, finally shoving him off. "You need to stop thinking with your dick, Ryu. She’s a Black. The moment she’s done sucking your blood, she’ll move on. I already told you, crows are heartless promiscuous opportunists who are as disloyal as they are greedy."
"You did all of this… because you wanted to prove she wasn't loyal? You destroyed her for that? you tried to kiss her for that?"
"I wanted to prove that you’re being played like an idiot. And guess what? She would've kissed me if I let her. It’s not like she hasn’t snogged half the school already, or worse…"
Ryu saw red.
His fist collided with Cassius’s jaw before he could think.
Cassius stumbled back, clutching his face, then looked up at him with something that almost resembled amusement.
"There he is," he muttered, rolling his jaw.
Ryu shook with fury. "Don’t you fucking dare talk about her like that ever again."
Cassius licked the inside of his cheek, testing for blood.
Ryu inhaled sharply, forcing himself to calm down. "You’re going to apologize to her."
Cassius’s eyes narrowed. "Excuse me?"
"You heard me," Ryu said firmly. "You’re going to look her in the eye tomorrow, and apologize for every single fucked-up thing you did to her."
Cassius stared at him, something unreadable flickering in his expression. Then, after a long pause, he exhaled sharply. "Fine."
The next morning, Ryu knew something was wrong the moment he stepped into the Great Hall.
Cassius and the others were already giggling, leaning into each other, whispering. He recognized that kind of laughter. The kind that meant trouble.
It all happened fast—too fast. And then Vera turned and walked away before he could even register anything. She walked away. And he let her go.
Because he knew that no words would be enough now. That whatever trust she had in him, whatever small piece of her heart he had managed to hold, was gone.
He turned slowly, deliberately, toward the people he had once called friends.
"Was that supposed to be funny?" He said, his gaze sweeping over them.
Cassius scoffed. "Oh, don’t start—"
"No. Explain it to me." Ryu cut him off. "Explain the joke. Tell me, Cassius. I’d love to understand."
Cassius shifted, annoyance flickering across his face. "It was just a bit of fun—"
"Fun." Ryu repeated the word like it was something disgusting. "You knew what happened last night. You knew she was already done with your games. But you couldn’t help yourselves, could you? You had to push her further. You had to make sure she knew just how unwelcome she is."
No one spoke.
"You know, she is right," he continued, his voice still eerily composed, "you lot are pathetic."
He grabbed his bag and stood. "And until you learn how to act like decent human beings, don’t talk to me. Until you learn how to respect her, don’t even look my way. I’m done with your shite."
Then, without looking back, he walked away.
The next two days were absolute torture.
He barely ate. Barely slept. He went through the motions of class, of studying, of existing—but none of it mattered. Because she was gone.
He knew she was somewhere in the castle, probably locked away in that bloody Gryffindor Tower, but she was gone from him.
And it was killing his soul.
Every moment without her felt like something gnawing at his ribs. He missed her. Desperately. Like he was suffocating. Like something inside him was cracking apart, piece by piece, and he could do nothing to stop it.
But he also knew the truth. She wasn’t coming back. She wasn’t going to forgive him. She had every reason to hate him, and now, she finally did.
But then—
She walked into the Great Hall, and for a single, terrifying moment, he couldn’t breathe.
His fingers clenched around the edge of the table as he braced himself. He knew what was coming. She was going to storm over, shout at him, maybe even stab him with a fork. And it would be deserved.
But instead—
“It was never your fault, Ryu.”
His heart slammed against his ribs, desperate to leap out of his chest. He stared at her, trying to make sense of the words, but then she did the unthinkable.
“Can we still be friends?”
Something inside him collapsed. He barely managed a nod, barely managed to breathe, because he knew this was more than he deserved.
But what she didn’t know—what she would never know—was that he didn’t want to be just friends.
He wanted her.
Every look. Every smile. Every sharp-witted remark and teasing insult. He wanted to hold her hand under the table, to pull her into his arms when no one was looking, to kiss her until she forgot the rest of the world. But he couldn’t. Not now. Not after everything he had put her through. And worst of all—he didn’t even know if she liked him back.
So he swallowed it all. Buried every feeling, every desperate longing, and forced himself to be what she needed.
A friend.
But being just friends was absolute torture.
He had thought it would be easier. That if he buried his feelings deep enough, ignored the way his heart jumped every time she looked at him, forced himself to see her as just another friend, then maybe—maybe—he’d survive it.
But Merlin help him.
Her smile still made his chest feel too tight. Her boldness still sent shivers down his spine. The way she could make the world feel less serious, the way she could turn even the most mundane moment into something electric—it was unbearable.
And yet, he did nothing. Said nothing. Just sat there, day after day, pretending that he wasn’t dying to have more.
Until she spiraled.
At first, it was little things. A sharpness in her voice that wasn’t usually there. A reckless edge to her laughter, like she was daring the world to break her.
Then it got worse.
Skipping meals. Skipping class. Coming back to the Great Hall with shadows under her eyes, her skin paler than he’d ever seen it. She wasn’t just acting out—she was crumbling.
And that’s when it hit him.
He didn’t just want her anymore. He wanted to be there for her. He needed to make her happy. To trust him enough to tell him what was wrong. To let him in.
And he knew exactly how he was going to do it.
The picnic.
It was the perfect moment. The perfect excuse. He would finally tell her the truth. Tell her that he wanted her—not as a friend, not as some stupid game, but properly.
And this time, no one was going to interrupt.
“Oi!” Roger interrupted, smacking a pillow straight into his face. "Are you seriously going to skip your date to sleep?"
Ryu blinked, still half-stuck in his thoughts. Date?
It wasn’t a—
…Okay, fine, maybe it was a date. If everything went well. And it wasn’t going to happen if he lay here daydreaming like a lovesick fool.
He shot up from the bed, running a hand through his already-perfect hair. "Shite. What time is it?"
"Time for you to get your arse moving before she thinks you stood her up." Roger smirked, tossing a sweater at him.
Ryu caught it midair and took a deep breath. This is it.
He grabbed the basket he had prepared earlier and rushed to finish getting ready. Today, he was finally going to tell her.
It was all going perfect.
She loved the sushi—practically devoured it. Loved the cake, even went back for seconds. She laughed at his jokes, teased him right back, and for the first time in what felt like forever, everything felt easy between them.
And then—
“I have a confession to make,” she said, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.
Ryu’s breath hitched. His heart pounded so loudly in his chest he swore she could hear it. Was this it? Was she going to say she facnies him—?
“I actually love picnics,” she whispered like it was some great secret, smirking as she took another bite of her cake.
His stomach sank.
The corners of his lips twitched up—out of habit, out of sheer self-preservation—but the moment she glanced away, his gaze dropped.
He averted his eyes, focusing on some meaningless spot in the lake, anything to keep her from seeing what was in them. How did he even think—how did he possibly believe—
Of course, she didn’t like him.
He had been so stupid to hope.
He had spent years saying the worst things to her, making her life miserable, and now, what? He thought she’d just forget all that and look at him the way he looked at her? Just because he made her some cake?
He was an idiot.
An idiot who deserved this.
He wasn’t paying much attention after that. He had been too busy pretending that his heart wasn’t shattered into a million pieces, forcing himself to act normal, to be normal around her. But then Draco approached and took her away.
He watched from a distance as she turned to face her cousin, her usual confidence unwavering at first. She even smiled. But then—slowly, gradually—her smile faded.
Her shoulders tensed.
Her eyes darkened.
And then, finally, her expression went completely blank.
His stomach twisted as he realized something was wrong, and didn’t even realize he was gripping his wand.
She walked back toward him, but she wasn’t looking at him. She wasn’t looking at anything. Just moving—like she wasn’t there at all.
“Vera?” he asked carefully, but she didn’t react.
His chest tightened.
“Vera,” he said again, firmer this time, reaching out to touch her arm.
Nothing.
A cold panic spread through him.
He wanted to chase after Draco. Find him, hex him, drag the truth out of him. But he couldn’t—not when she was sitting in front of him like a ghost of herself, not when her hands were trembling at her sides, not when she looked seconds away from—
She collapsed into his arms.
A sharp inhale, a shuddering breath, and then—she broke.
And in that moment, he felt dead.
Helpless. Useless. Like nothing he could ever say or do would be enough to put her back together again. But he held her anyway. Held her like his life depended on it.
When she finally looked at him, her blue eye locked onto his, the gold flecks shimmering like a secret only he could see. She wasn’t crying anymore, but her breath was still shaky, her lips parted just slightly as if she was waiting for something—hesitating, deciding, counting.
Seconds stretched between them, thick with something unspoken.
And then—she leaned in.
Her lips pressed against his, soft and cold, tasting of salt and desperation and something he had craved for so damn long. And he couldn't believe it.
He truly, truly couldn’t believe it.
His brain stopped working, his heart pounded like a mad drum, and his hands hovered at her waist, too afraid to touch her, too afraid that this moment wasn’t real.
"But the deal is done."
The words slipped out of his mouth before he could stop them.
He didn’t even know why he said it. Maybe he just wanted a confirmation, something to ground him, to make sure this wasn’t some cruel, elaborate dream.
But he saw it the second the meaning twisted in her head.
She pulled back, eyes darkening, hurt flashing across her face like a storm rolling in too fast to stop. And then—she left.
Ryu blinked, stunned. His stomach plummeted.
And that was when the idiot finally realized it.
"The eyes, chico... They never lie."
She did like him.
She did look at him the way he looked at her.
She did think of him as more than just a friend, but he had been too blind, too much of a fucking perfectionist, too caught up in waiting for the right moment to see it.
So this time, he didn’t hesitate.
He turned on his heel and ran after her.
Fate
The rain poured beyond the stone archways, filling the evening air with a steady rhythm. The two sat huddled together on the cold stone floor of an outside corridor, knees touching, shoulders brushing, watching the storm rage in the distance.
Vera turned to him, eyes wide, lips slightly parted, utterly stunned by what she had just heard.
For a long moment, she said nothing.
Then—
"How did I never see it?"
He chuckled, shaking his head. "Because you were too much of an idiot."
She blinked, still processing, then let out a breathless laugh. "The earrings… the necklace… your fight with Cedric… your favorite day…" Her voice trailed off, realization crashing into her like a tidal wave. "It’s all because of me?"
He didn’t look away, didn’t hesitate, didn’t smirk or tease. "Yeah."
For a moment, she almost felt like crying. She had no idea why—maybe it was the weight of everything, maybe it was the warmth in his voice, maybe it was just him.
She leaned closer, and without a word, he wrapped his arms around her, holding her tightly against him.
"Are you cold?" he murmured against her hair.
"Yeah," she admitted, shivering slightly.
"'Would you like me to warm you?"
This time, she chuckled. "I would love to."
"Come on, then." He pulled back just enough to look at her. "Sit between my legs."
She hesitated only for a second before shifting, settling between his legs, her back resting against his chest. His arms came around her again, pulling her into him, enclosing her in his warmth.
And then she noticed—he was sliding his dragon ring off his finger.
She turned her head slightly to look up at him. "What are you doing?"
"Just wait."
She narrowed her eyes, watching him with suspicion. But then—she felt it.
An immense heat, unlike anything she had ever known, radiating from his body and wrapping around her like a second skin. She gasped, startled, looking back at him with wide eyes.
"How—?" she started, but he just smirked.
"I'm a dragon," he said simply.
Her mouth fell open slightly.
He lifted the ring between his fingers. "This controls my temperature. Makes it less intense so I don’t burn anyone alive. That’s why I panicked when you tried to wear it back in January. It would have frozen you to death."
She stared at him, utterly beyond impressed. "So that’s why you are warm all the time?"
He nodded.
“And you can’t get burnt?”
“I can, just not as easily.”
She could barely form a response, still processing this new piece of him. But instead of saying anything, she just smiled—soft, small, and completely in awe—before huddling back against him, wrapping his warmth around her like a blanket.
As they sat in the dim glow of the corridor, the rain falling steadily in the distance, she let herself sink further into him. His arms were still wrapped securely around her, his chin resting lightly atop her head.
"Who was that man at Diagon Alley, by the way?" he asked suddenly, his voice quiet but curious.
"Donnie," she answered with a smile. "He takes care of me."
"And why was he scolding you?"
A slow, mischievous smirk curled her lips. "I was being naughty."
He snorted. "Of course you were."
"We were buying a suitcase," she continued lazily, "but I left the boutique to go into a makeup shop instead."
"You like makeup, darling?"
She smiled. "I do."
He tightened his arms around her. "Then I’ll buy you all the makeup you want. From the very shop."
She sighed. "It’s closed now."
"Then I’ll find another one, and I’ll buy everything in it for you."
Her lips parted slightly. "Would you?"
"You’re my girlfriend now, Vee. I’ll take care of you. I’ll protect you. And I swear by my honor—I’ll make it all up to you."
She blinked, staring at him, her heart pounding in her ears. Then, with a teasing lilt, she murmured, "Was this your plan all along, then? Pretend to be my boyfriend just to woo me?"
He grinned, tilting his head. "It worked, didn’t it?"
A laugh bubbled out of her. "Yeah… it did. I just can’t believe I never noticed."
“I really couldn’t have made it more obvious, you know."
She shook her head, exhaling a quiet laugh. "I just couldn’t believe that someone like you would ever like me."
He frowned slightly. "Someone like me?"
She hesitated. "Perfect Avery."
He reached out, gently brushing a strand of hair behind her ear. "And you’re perfect Vera."
She scoffed. "I’m not perfect."
Ryu held her gaze, his voice quiet but certain. "You are to me."
Notes:
Chapter's song: The Killing Moon - Echo & The Bunnymen
Chapter 70: Smells Like Teen Spirit
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Vera and Ryu were practically glued together.
From the moment they woke up to the second they reluctantly parted for their dorms, they were tangled up in each other—hands, arms, lips, everything.
If there was a rule about personal space, Ryu had never heard of it.
His hand was always somewhere on her, whether curled around her waist, resting on her knee, or tracing lazy patterns on her thigh.
He also had a habit of randomly pressing kisses to her temple, her cheek, her jaw—wherever he could reach, as if he was memorizing her with his lips.
And Vera? She was just as bad.
She’d pull him into empty classrooms between lessons, tugging him by the collar of his robes just to steal another kiss, only to push him away with a teasing smirk when he got too eager.
In class, where silence was expected, they would slip notes back and forth—half inside jokes, half declarations of devotion.
One particularly memorable exchange involved a poorly drawn doodle of a dragon serenading a cat, followed by a dramatic "poem" that rhymed love with shove and glove.
Ryu had dramatically pretended to swoon right off his chair.
More than once, a professor had confiscated a particularly damning scrap of parchment, only to sigh and move on, resigned to the fact that separating them was a battle not worth fighting.
Between lessons, the two lovebirds found stolen moments—ducking behind library shelves for whispered conversations, lingering in hidden corridors where Ryu would pin her against the stone wall just to steal another kiss.
They got caught once by Filch, who grumbled something about “hormonal hurricanes” before muttering off down the corridor with Mrs. Norris in tow.
They were the kind of couple that made people roll their eyes and smile in equal measure, so wrapped up in each other that the rest of the world faded into an afterthought.
And really, neither of them would have it any other way.
Thursday, November 14, 1991
Dear Kaya,
I have a boyfriend. A real, actual boyfriend. Not a crush, not a fantasy, but a flesh and blood, ridiculously fit bloke who somehow fancies me back. I know, I’m shocked too.
And listen, he's not just fit. He's proper fit. Like, suspiciously fit. And he's annoyingly clever, but in a way that makes me want to snog the smug grin off his face rather than kill him. And speaking of snogging, he's basically a professional at it. His lips are so soft and warm, and he uses his tongue but not in a gross way. And oh my days, Kaya... He’s all over me! Handsy in the best way, like he’s got a personal mission of touching me or he'll combust. And I’m absolutely not complaining.
Now, I know you're dying to know who it is. But I also know you, and if I tell you, you will absolutely lose your marbles, start screaming, possibly try to have me murdered from across the country, and honestly, I cannot be arsed with the dramatics. So for now, let’s just say he’s a controversial choice, and I’ll let you sit with that information.
But just so we’re clear, I like him. A lot. So before you go all big-sister mode on me, just know that, for once, I’m actually happy.
Prepare your best 'I told you so' speech. I know it's coming.
Vee
That morning, she strolled in late for breakfast, cheeks a little pink from the brisk walk.
Ryu looked up the second she stepped through the doors. “You’re late,” he said, raising a brow as she slid into the bench beside him.
“Went to the Owlery,” she lied breezily, reaching for a teacup. “Had to send something important.”
He leaned in immediately, voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper. “Was it a secret letter to your mysterious French lover?”
“Oui,” she said without missing a beat. “He says he misses me terribly. Especially my lips.”
"Well he isn't the only one," Ryu murmured, inching closer with that familiar spark in his eyes.
Before she could come up with a clever retort, he tilted her chin up gently and leaned in to kiss her—
“Merlin’s beard, can you two not?” Roger slapped his food down with dramatic disgust. “Some of us are trying to eat.”
But Ryu just grinned, looping an arm around her shoulders and planting a kiss on her cheek anyway. “Sorry, mate. I need my morning dose or I’ll faint and ruin everyone’s breakfast.”
“Too late,” Roger muttered, dramatically pushing his plate away.
“Are you jealous, Davies?" Ryu said, smirking. “You want a kiss too?”
“If I say yes, will it stop you from slobbering all over each other in front of my food?”
“Nope,” they said in unison, and then kissed just to prove it.
“Alright, I have to know—how did this happen? How did he”—he jabbed a thumb at Ryu—“confess? Did he write you a sonnet or something tragic and poetic?”
She snorted. “Please. He was plain rude.”
Ryu looked mock-offended.
“I was crying in the library, having the worst day of my life, and he just walks over, stands in front of me in complete silence for like a minute, and then says, ‘I want you to be my girlfriend.’”
Roger blinked. “No way.”
“I panicked,” Ryu admitted. “I had a whole plan but she looked like she’d hex anyone who spoke to her, and somehow that is what came out.”
Roger just shook his head in disbelief. “You’re lucky she likes emotionally stunted weirdos.”
“I really am,” Ryu said, resting his chin on Vera’s shoulder and looking far too pleased with himself.
Roger gave her a sideways glance. “By the way, he hasn’t taken a lot of naps since you two started dating. Congratulations, you cured the magical equivalent of a very pretty housecat.”
Vera laughed. “Seriously?”
“I liked to nap,” Ryu said defensively. “Because I kept dreaming of her. And now that we’re together, I don’t need to anymore.”
Vera rolled her eyes, but the blush was impossible to hide.
“Actually,” he added, “could I take a nap today, love?”
She immediately frowned. “But I’ll miss you.”
"Then join me?” he suggested with an innocent grin.
She blinked, caught completely off guard. Her mouth opened like she was going to say something—but no words came out.
Roger, however, nearly choked on his drink. “Have some decency, mate. This isn't the Princess Bride."
Ryu glared. “Stop with that muggle nonsense. You sound ridiculous.”
"You hate films because you’re a snob.”
“I’m not anything, Davies."
"Oh, just wait till I tell you the entire plot of Ferris Bueller's Day Off.”
“That’s not even a real name,” Ryu mumbled under his breath.
Before Vera could comment, Roger turned back to her with a knowing look. “Anyway, if you keep distracting him with all this romance, he’s going to lose his top-of-the-class spot.”
She gasped dramatically. “You think I’m a bad influence?”
“I know you are.”
“Then I guess I’ll just have to corrupt him completely,” she said with an innocent smile.
“Or,” Ryu said slowly, “we can go to the library after classes and study together.”
“Ughhh,” she groaned, flopping against his shoulder. “That’s too bloody boring.”
“You will sit next to me,” he offered, brushing a strand of hair behind her ear. “I’ll even let you doodle on my notes.”
Roger rolled his eyes. “You would let her burn them if she could."
“Never!” Vera protested.
Ryu turned to her with that soft, maddening grin. “So… library?”
She sighed, defeated. “Fine. But I’m not reading anything that doesn’t have at least one curse in it.”
The library was quiet in that heavy, reverent way that only ancient books and looming librarians could command. Madame Pince gave them a sharp look the moment they entered, as if she knew they were trouble.
Which, to be fair, they were.
“I swear, if you get us banned again,” Ryu muttered as they took their usual table in the back.
“I'll behave,” she whispered, plopping into the seat.
He sat down beside her, pulling out his Transfiguration notes with an irritating amount of order and discipline. “Alright. Focus. Exams aren’t going to ace themselves.”
She sighed and slumped dramatically over the table. “Studying makes me sick!”
He handed her a fresh sheet of parchment. “If you finish three pages of notes, I’ll let you braid my hair.”
Her head shot up. “REALLY?"
“I’m willing to make sacrifices... for academic excellence.”
That actually managed to get some studying done—for a while.
Vera, surprisingly, was efficient when she focused, and Ryu kept her on track with gentle nudges and bribery in the form of Chocolate Frogs.
But then she reached over and absently doodled a tiny heart next to his name on one of his charts.
"Vee..."
“It’s motivational!” she insisted.
He glanced at the heart, then at her, and smiled like an idiot. “I’ll take it.”
Every few minutes, her fingers would trail up his arm, ghost over the back of his neck, or skim lightly over his thigh.
"Vera," he murmured, his voice a warning as she leaned in, her breath warm against his ear.
"Hmm?" She pretended to be oblivious, letting her lips graze his jaw as she spoke.
He sighed, shaking his head as he scribbled something down.
She leaned in, her breath warm against his cheek. "You study too much."
"You distract too much,"
"What can I say? It’s a talent."
Before he could protest, she reached for his tie, tugging him toward her. He barely had time to react before she pressed her lips to his.
And just like that, whatever resolve he had crumbled.
He kissed her back, deep and slow, as if making up for every second he had spent pretending to focus. His hands found her waist, pulling her closer, while hers slid into his hair, tugging slightly just to hear that quiet groan she loved so much.
Somewhere in the back of his mind, he knew they were in the library and that Madam Pince would skin them alive if she found them like this. But her fingers traced the line of his jaw, her lips teasing at his, and suddenly, he couldn't bring himself to care.
Eventually, she pulled away—just barely. "Better than studying, right?"
He exhaled slowly, eyes still dark with desire. "You're naughty."
"And you love it."
He rolled his eyes, but the way his hand slipped into her hair betrayed him. He toyed with a strand, twisting it around his fingers, absently running it between them. "Your hair’s softer than it looks," he muttered.
"Still in love with it, huh?"
"How can I not?"
"I still can't believe you kept a strand of it, though."
He stilled for half a second before giving her a sheepish look. "Is that too perverted?"
"Mmm. A little. But also incredibly romantic. I mean, I still keep the flowers you gave me when I was in the hospital."
That made him grin. "Really?"
She nodded, absently running her fingers down his sleeve. "I pressed them inside a book."
"Well, I’m glad you liked them."
"I loved them, but didn’t want to give you that satisfaction back then."
He chuckled. "Well, I have another embarrassing confession."
"Go on," she encouraged, resting her chin in her palm, looking at him like he was the most fascinating thing in the world.
And he truly was.
"Remember when I lent you my scarf and you had it for a while?"
She nodded. "Uh-huh?"
"When you gave it back, it smelled like you. So I just… never washed it."
She blinked, then let out a sharp laugh. "Now, that’s perverted."
He ran a hand through his hair, smiling nervously. "Too much?"
She leaned in, her lips just a breath away from his. "Just enough to make me wanna kiss you more."
"Then by all means," he murmured, tilting his head slightly.
She kissed him again, slower this time, lingering, savoring.
"When did you realize you fancy me?" She asked, pulling back slightly. "Like really fancy me?"
"When we got stuck together on my birthday. I remember thinking I wanted all my days to be like that—full of fun, full of laughter, full of you."
For once, she was quiet, just looking at him like she was seeing him in a new light. "I just wish I knew it was your birthday." She said after a moment. "I would’ve made it more special."
"Trust me, darling. It couldn’t have gotten any more special."
She flushed slightly but covered it with a kiss.
"And what about you?" he asked when she pulled away. "When did you start fancying me?"
She shrugged. "I always kind of did. Hard not to with a face like yours."
He smirked. "Go on."
"But the first time I really thought about it was when you said you understood your own privileges."
That made him pause. "Why?"
"I don’t know," she admitted, twirling a strand of his hair. "It made me see you differently. Like you weren’t what I thought you were."
"Not a brat, you mean."
She grinned. "Yeah. Not a brat."
"Fair enough."
"But then you went and ruined it."
He blinked. "What did I do?"
She gave him a deadpan look. "When I burned my sleeve, and you made fun of my arms?"
He frowned. "Wait… what?"
"You seriously don’t remember?"
"Um… no?"
"You said my arms were hairier than yours!"
His eyes widened. "I said that?"
"Yeah, you bloody did."
There was a beat of silence before he clapped a hand over his mouth, shoulders shaking.
"Are you bloody laughing?!" She snapped.
"I’m not—I’m just—Merlin—my audacity," he wheezed.
She smacked his arm. "You don’t even remember saying it?"
"Honestly? No, not at all."
"I bloody slapped you for it!"
"I do remember the slap but can't remember what provoked it to be honest."
Her face dropped. "Blimey..."
"What?"
She looked away. "Nothing."
"Vera," he said gently, nudging her with his shoulder. "Come on. Tell me."
She stared at the ink stains on his fingertips, chewing the inside of her cheek. She didn’t want to ruin the mood. But it had already cracked.
She let out a breath. "It’s stupid."
"I still want to hear it."
She looked up at him. "It just… It really got to me, okay? What you said about my arms. You probably thought you were being funny, but I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I hated the way I looked so much that I spent half my allowance on some bloody smoothing serum from Diagon Alley. Just so I wouldn’t feel like a troll."
The grin faded from his face completely. "Shite. Vera, I’m so sorry. That was such a dick move. I—I didn’t mean it like that. I was being an arse."
"It's alright," she said quickly, waving her hand. “I know it’s silly. I shouldn’t care. But I do. I always have. And it wasn’t just that. You made a joke about my unibrow once, remember? And my clothes. I knew I didn’t look like the other girls. But when you said those things… I don’t know. It made me even more aware of it. Like I was some joke.”
His face twisted with regret. “Merlin, Vera… I never meant to hurt you. I promise. I loved those things about you. I still do. But every time I wanted to say it, I panicked. I’d get all weird and say something dumb instead. Like if I said it the wrong way, you’d see right through me. So I acted like a prat, thinking it would hide how I felt.”
"But you only confessed to me after I started fixing myself with magic. After I changed the things you used to tease me about. That’s what stings the most.”
“No,” he said quickly. “I fancied you before all that. Before any magic. The way you were—are—your laugh, your fire, your stupid perfect scowl. I just didn’t know how to tell you without messing it up. You didn’t have to change anything, Vera. Not a single thing.”
For a moment, neither of them said anything. The silence was heavy, but not cold.
"I just want to be pretty, Ryu." She said after a while. "I want to be enough for you."
He blinked at her like she’d just said something outrageous.
"Are you serious?"
She didn’t answer. Just shrugged again.
"Vera, are you actually taking the piss right now?"
"No."
"Because you are pretty."
She gave a dry laugh. "No, I’m not."
He reached for her hand but she pulled away, rubbing at her eyes quickly.
"You don’t get it, Ryu. You never could. You're absolutely perfect without even trying, but me? I have to work for it. I mean, this whole thing with my allowance started because I was too upset with how I look. I just wanted to fix it, you know?"
She took a deep breath. "I grew up in a place full of pretty girls with blonde hair, tiny noses and round cheeks. I looked too sharp next to them. Old people would always tell me I look 'Interesting.’ Never beautiful. Never pretty. Just interesting, like I was always almost enough."
Ryu sat frozen, eyes locked on her like he was seeing her for the first time.
"I’m sorry," she muttered, wiping under her eye before anything could fall. "I sound pathetic."
"No," he said softly, shaking his head. "You don't."
"And at that stupid Slytherin party," she went on, voice growing brittle, "I overheard them. A couple of girls, whispering near the drinks table. One of them said I was punching above my weight with you. That you could do better."
Her voice cracked slightly on the last word, and she hated herself for it.
"I know I shouldn’t care, but I do. Because part of me believed them. Part of me still does."
"Okay, stop," he said suddenly, voice low but firm.
She looked up at him.
"First of all, if I knew who those girls were, I’d hex their mouths shut. Secondly—above your weight? Vera, if anything, it’s me trying to keep up with you."
"Sure."
"No, seriously." He leaned closer, gently brushing his fingers through her hair. "You have no idea what you do to others. When you walk into a room, people turn. It’s not just your face. It’s your presence. You’re... you. Fierce. Smart. Sharp in the best damn way. I’ve seen girls pause when you pass them. I’ve seen blokes try to get your attention and melt when you ignore them."
She tried to look away, but he caught her chin in his hand and gently tilted her face back to his.
"Vera, I’m not just saying this to make you feel better. You truly are beautiful. You always have been. But the way you look isn’t even the half of it."
She rolled her eyes. "Don’t start with the 'beauty is within' nonsense—"
"I'm being serious!" He cut her off. "You're the most beautiful girl I've ever met, and I'm truly sorry someone convinced you otherwise."
She blinked, surprised by the edge in his tone.
"And I get jealous, Vera. All the bloody time. When I see other boys look at you in the corridors. Even when you walk into the great hall and someone dares to look at you like they’ve got a chance. I hate it. Because I know what they’re seeing. They don’t even know you the way I do, and they’re still floored by you."
"Ryu..."
"You’ve got this fire in you," he continued, his thumb brushing her cheek. "You walk into a room and people notice. Not because you're trying, but because you can’t help it."
She stared at him, stunned into silence.
"You're not like every other girl, and that’s exactly why you’re unforgettable. You don’t need soft edges to be beautiful. You’re stunning because of the way you are, not in spite of it."
She tried to laugh it off, but her voice wavered. "That’s a nice speech."
"It’s not a speech. It’s the truth. I just wish you could see yourself the way I do. Or even how they do. Because trust me, Vera, you’re the kind of pretty that keeps people up at night."
Her eyes shimmered—not from sadness exactly, but from the kind of feeling that hit too deep to name.
"I don’t know what to say," she whispered.
"Don’t say anything," Ryu murmured. "Just stop trying to fix what was never broken."
She bit her lip. "I just wish I believed it as much as you do."
He leaned in until their foreheads touched. "Then I’ll keep telling you every day until you do."
And in the hush of the library, between the smell of parchment and ink, she kissed him again. Not out of habit or teasing this time—but with quiet, aching gratitude.
Because for the first time in years, she started to believe he might be right.
Ryu let out a quiet hum against her lips, his hands slipping to her waist, pulling her even closer. She could feel his heartbeat against her own, rapid and steady all at once. She deepened the kiss, fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt as if anchoring herself to him.
For a moment, they forgot where they were. The library, the books, the threat of being caught—it all faded. All that mattered was the way he kissed her like she was something rare, something irreplaceable.
But then, just as things were getting particularly heated, the unmistakable sound of a throat clearing shattered their little world.
Slowly, reluctantly, they turned their heads to find Madam Pince standing there, arms crossed, lips pursed in absolute disapproval.
"If you two have finished slobbering over each other, perhaps you’d like to remember that this is a library."
Ryu cleared his throat, straightening up. "Right. Studying. That’s what we were doing."
Vera, entirely unrepentant, grinned. "I was truly studying, madam. Well, human anatomy, mostly."
"OUT."
Ryu grabbed their books in one swift motion and took Vera’s hand, yanking her away before Pince could throw something at them.
They burst into laughter the second they made it into the corridor, the thrill of almost getting caught only adding to the moment.
"That was your fault," Ryu accused, nudging her.
"Please, you were just as into it as I was."
"I was trying to study," he protested, though the smirk tugging at his lips said otherwise.
"You poor, poor thing," she cooed mockingly. "I’m just so terrible to you."
"Absolutely awful," he deadpanned, grabbing her wrist and tugging her into a nearby alcove, out of sight from wandering students. "But I’m still not done with you."
Her breath hitched as he leaned in, brushing his lips against her jaw, then down her neck.
"Ryu," she murmured, tilting her head slightly.
"Mm?" he hummed against her skin, grinning when he felt her shiver.
"Sto—stop," she giggled, squirming slightly in his grip. "That tickles."
"That’s the point," he whispered, trailing his fingers deliberately up her side.
She let out a soft laugh, swatting at his shoulder. “You're a perv.”
“I’m adorable,” he corrected, brushing a kiss against her collarbone.
“Still a perv.”
“You love it, though.”
He deepened his kiss on her neck, slow and deliberate, and she exhaled shakily, her eyes fluttering shut. Her hands found his shoulders, gripping just slightly as she leaned into the sensation, into him, her mind going deliciously blank.
But then—
There was a sound.
A sharp, unpleasant one. Laughter—but not the good kind. The kind that was cruel.
Her eyes snapped open.
The warmth of Ryu’s breath still lingered on her skin, but her body had gone stiff, her gaze no longer dreamy or dazed but focused, razor-sharp, locked on something in the distance.
Ryu felt it immediately—the change.
One second she was melting under his touch, and the next, she had gone completely still.
Her whole body tensed like a string pulled taut. Her expression, once soft and teasing, began to harden. Her mouth was a line, her jaw clenched tight, and her eyes—when he caught them—had gone dark.
Dangerously dark.
“Vera?” he asked, straightening up, instinctively letting go of her neck. “What’s wrong?”
She didn’t answer. Just stared, unmoving, at something past him.
He turned, following her gaze.
Down the corridor, in the open stretch outside the Charms classroom, three Slytherins stood in a circle.
Draco was in the center, toying with something small and squirming in his hands—Trevor, Neville longbottom’s toad.
Crabbe and Goyle were cackling as the Gryffindor boy tried desperately to reach for it, only to be shoved to the ground again and again. His robes were smeared with dirt, one sleeve half-torn, and every time he got to his knees, Crabbe stomped on the hem, sending him sprawling.
“Give him back—please, just give him back—” Neville begged, voice cracking.
Draco laughed cruelly, holding the toad just out of reach. “What’s wrong, Longbottom? Gonna cry over your slimy little pet again?”
Vera's jaw clenched so hard, Ryu thought it might break.
“Are you—”
“I’ll be right back,” she said coldly.
Ryu turned to her, brows furrowing. “Wait. Are you okay?”
She nodded. Once. “I’m fine.”
But she was not fine.
Her expression was cold now—icy and focused. There was a fire burning just under the surface, barely contained.
Draco spotted her first, and grinned lazily. “Hey, cousin.”
However, Crabbe and Goyle barely spared her a glance—they were too busy laughing as Neville scrambled on the ground, reaching desperately for Trevor as the toad was passed between them like a joke.
She saw red.
Her wand was out in a blink, and in the next second it was pressed hard against Goyle’s cheekbone, just under his eye.
The laughter died instantly.
Goyle froze, eyes wide, as if the wand might explode.
“Give him the toad,” she said, voice low, dangerous, like something curling out of smoke and flame.
Goyle’s eyes flicked to Draco.
“Don’t look at him,” she snapped. “Look at me.”
He did.
“Do what I said, because I won’t give you the privilege of making it quick.”
He swallowed loudly, then held Trevor out with shaking fingers. She snatched it from him before stepping aside, not even looking at Neville yet.
She turned next to Crabbe, who had instinctively stepped back. His face had paled several shades.
“You,” she said sharply. “Big arms, empty head.”
He flinched.
“You’ve got about five seconds to fuck off before I rearrange your face.”
Crabbe didn’t wait for the count.
He turned on his heel and fled down the corridor, Goyle hurrying after him without a word.
Silence settled like dust.
Vera looked down at Trevor—mud-slicked, wide-eyed, and trembling slightly in her hands. His little throat pulsed with fright, but still, he blinked lazily, almost as if to say thank you.
She turned to Neville, lips parting as if to speak… but nothing came out.
What was she even supposed to say? Sorry for letting them do this? Sorry you’re always the one on the floor, while people like me watch?
Sorry for everything?
The weight of it all sat in her chest like stone.
Neville looked up at her, cheeks flushed and scraped. He didn’t say much—but his voice was raw, trembling.
“Thank you,” he murmured.
She swallowed, throat tight, heart aching for him—and from the guilt that curled sharp inside her ribcage.
She watched him take Trevor with careful hands and walk away, not even glancing back.
“Bit dramatic, don’t you think?”
The drawl came from behind her—smug, brittle, and so utterly tone-deaf it made her shoulders tense.
Draco stepped forward, arms crossed lazily. “It was just a bit of fun.”
She turned to face him, slowly. Her face had gone still again, but her eyes—they burned.
She had no reason to be nice to him anymore. So she won't even try.
“Do you even hear yourself?”
“You’re really going to start fights over Longbottom?” he sneered. “Didn’t peg you for the bleeding-heart type.”
“Don’t mistake silence for neutrality, Malfoy. I’ve ignored a lot from you. But this? This is low—even for you.”
“What? He’s always like that. A bloody loser, isn’t he?”
“Do you understand how this makes you look? Out of all people… you’re bullying the one kid whose life our family already destroyed?”
Draco blinked once, caught off guard.
Then he gave a soft scoff and smirked. “Is this about what aunt Bellatrix did?”
"So, you do know?"
He rolled his eyes. “Oh, come on.”
“She tortured his parents to the point where they don't even remember him anymore. She turned them into nothing. And here you are—mocking their son. Laughing while he begs you to stop.”
“They had it coming."
Everything in Vera stilled.
The fury rose so fast and so violently that it nearly knocked her breath out.
She didn’t shout. She didn’t even blink. She just stepped forward again—and Draco, ever so slightly, stepped back.
“…They were blood traitors,” he added, though much quieter now, more uncertain. “They—they chose the wrong side.”
Vera moved so fast that he barely had time to react—one step, and she was inches from his face.
She towered over him, eyes blazing, voice deadly quiet. “You disgust me, Malfoy."
He flinched, just slightly. Enough.
“You think this is a game? Some playground for you to flex your name and blood like it means something? You think tormenting someone who’s already lost everything makes you powerful?”
"I didn’t torment anyone. It was Crabbe and Goyle. I—”
“Don’t you dare hide behind them, you little shite. You’re the one they look at before they throw the punch.”
“You’re being ridiculous—”
“You don’t know me yet, Draco. You think you do. Because we share some blood. Because your mother probably told you stories about mine.”
He didn’t answer, but she saw the flicker of recognition behind his eyes. So Narcissa had, then.
“Well, let me make one thing perfectly clear,” she said, her voice turning to ice. “You and I? We are nothing alike. Not in blood. Not in heart. Not in anything that matters.”
She leaned in closer, and Draco leaned slightly back.
"If I ever catch you laying a single finger on that boy again… I will make you regret it in ways your tiny, inherited brain can’t even imagine.”
He didn’t move. Didn’t speak.
Didn’t dare.
She leaned in, her breath ghosting over his cheek. “I will be your fucking nightmare, Malfoy."
And with that, she turned and walked away, not sparing him a second glance.
The corridor echoed with the sound of her boots on stone.
And Draco—speechless and pale—didn't move until long after she’d gone.
Dinner in the Great Hall was louder than usual, but she barely noticed the noise.
She sat across from Ryu, pushing peas around her plate, still vibrating with fury. Her eyes kept flicking across the hall, locking on Draco.
He was two tables away, laughing stiffly at something Cassius said, but there was a nervous twitch in his jaw. Like he could feel her eyes burning a hole through his skull.
“Alright,” Ryu said, lowering his voice as he leaned in, “you’ve been death-glaring Malfoy for ten minutes straight. You want to tell me what’s going on?”
She didn’t look at him. “It’s nothing.”
“Vera."
“What?”
“What did he do to you?”
She blinked, confused. “What?”
“That day during the picnic,” he said, gaze locked onto hers. “You came back looking like you’d been hit by a bludger. You couldn’t even speak. You almost died from crying. And today? You looked two seconds away from setting him on fire. So what happened?”
Her throat suddenly felt dry. “It’s not about Draco.”
“Come off it.”
“I’m serious.”
His jaw tightened. “I know you’re hiding something. You always are.”
That silenced her.
“I tell you everything, Vera. When I’m upset. When I’m angry. When I’m confused. I don’t hold back with you. But you? You lock yourself away like some kind of fortress. I don’t know what’s going on in that head of yours half the time.”
“I’m not trying to shut you out."
“Then why do you?”
“Because if I told you the truth, you’d worry. And I don’t want you to.”
“Too bad, darling. Because that’s part of this. That’s what a relationship is. It’s not just snogging and flirting. It’s about sharing, talking, and knowing each other. All of each other. The ugly bits too. Especially those.”
Her heart thudded in her chest, louder than the clinking of plates around them.
"And most importantly…" he continued. "It’s about being honest.”
That hit her like a punch to the stomach.
Because she wasn’t honest. Not even close.
He didn’t know anything that mattered.
He didn’t know the truth about her life back home.
He didn't know about the Humphreys.
He didn't know about Michael.
He didn't know she lived with muggles. That she shares a whole life with people that he and his family despise.
He didn't know about her letters to Kaya.
He didn’t know about her biological family abandoning her.
He didn’t know about the loans.
He didn’t know about her inheritance. Or rather the lack of it.
He didn't know about Cygnus' rejecting to talk to her.
He didn’t know what her hands can do. What they had done to him.
She realized, in that second, that she had messed everything up. She was too caught up in the kisses, the comfort, the illusion of something simple and soft. That she let him fall in love with the mask.
And now that mask was cracking.
“Vera,” he said, more gently this time. “Are you hiding something from me?”
Her heart nearly stopped.
This was the moment.
She could open her mouth and speak the truth.
She could tell him everything. Watch it all fall apart. Rip off the bandage and finally let herself bleed.
But he’d hate her.
He’d pull away. He’d walk out. He’d look at her the way everyone else eventually will—like she was dangerous, broken, irredeemable.
So her gaze dropped to her plate instead.
“No,” she said quietly.
A beat passed.
Ryu didn’t say anything. He didn’t call her out. He just looked at her with this quiet disappointment that felt worse than yelling.
He didn’t believe her.
And she had never hated herself more.
She felt like a fraud. And deep down, she knew: if she didn’t come clean soon, she was going to lose him anyway.
Notes:
Chapter's song: Smells Like Teen Spirit - Nirvana
Chapter 71: Landslide
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Friday, November 15, 1991
The next morning brought a strange sort of normalcy.
It was Charms, and Flitwick’s high-pitched voice filled the room as he demonstrated a new spell. Vera and Ryu, though, were far too absorbed in each other’s quiet teasing to pay attention.
Maybe it was the rhythm of school life, or maybe they were both just pretending things weren’t as fractured as they’d felt the night before. Either way, the two swiftly slipped back into their usual banter.
“Bet you five galleons he falls off the stack of books again,” she muttered, not looking up from her parchment.
"You’re on. But if I win, you owe me a kiss instead.”
She snorted. “That’s rigged.”
“Life’s rigged, sweetheart.”
She elbowed him under the table.
Flitwick, having finally noticed their ongoing whisper war, cleared his throat with his usual delicate authority. “Miss Black? Since you seem particularly energetic today, would you mind assisting me at the board?”
Ryu bit back a grin. “Ooh, detention incoming.”
“You wish.”
She didn’t bother to put on her robes as she stood up—just the standard uniform blouse and skirt—then walked up to the front. Flitwick was explaining some enchantment sequence that required visual aid, and she began copying the runes on the board, her arms stretching just a little higher than necessary.
And that's when it happened.
Her skirt suddenly lifted, and Ryu’s eyes widened in horror. His eyes quickly flicked across the room, sharpening like a blade.
Every single boy in that class was staring. Not a hint of subtlety, not even the pretense of discretion—just shameless, open gawking.
Adrian gave Miles a shove from behind. Startled, Miles glanced up—and his gaze landed right on Vera’s thighs. He let out a low snort, quickly stifling a laugh behind his hand, as if the moment was too good to pass up.
Cedric, ever the gentleman—or at least trying to be—was visibly uncomfortable. His eyes kept flicking away, then back again, as if they had a mind of their own.
Even the twins, usually too wrapped up in their own chaos to notice much else, had gone uncharacteristically quiet.
Ryu’s hand curled into a fist. Every muscle in his body tensed. His heart pounded, fury bubbling beneath his skin.
It wasn’t just a look.
It was the look that said they thought she was an object to stare at. A fun scandal they could talk about later.
And that—that—was something he couldn’t ignore.
When she slid back into her seat beside him, she noticed it instantly—something in his energy had shifted.
He wasn’t smirking anymore. No teasing glint in his eye. His jaw was set, his quill scribbling with more force than necessary.
She leaned in slightly. “Did I miss something?”
He didn’t even look at her. Just hummed low in his throat, and kept writing.
She blinked, brows drawing together, but before she could press, his hand moved—resting gently on her thigh under the desk.
It was familiar. A habit. Comforting, even.
But this time, his fingers moved.
Slow, almost thoughtful, they began to drag upward along the inside of her thigh. It wasn’t the casual touch she was used to. There was something heavier in it—something with intent.
Her spine straightened, pulse ticking up. She glanced around quickly—Flitwick was still talking. No one was looking. And yet, the heat rising to her cheeks was immediate.
His fingers crept higher.
She flinched slightly and turned to look at him, eyes wide. But his face remained still, his other hand still scribbling down notes like nothing was happening.
“Ryu,” she whispered, warning in her voice. “Flitwick might see.”
He didn’t respond.
His palm slid higher up her thigh, stopping just where her stockings ended, just at the soft, bare edge beneath her skirt.
She could feel everything—his palm dragging up the softness of her skin, the slow spread of his fingers, the edge of his thumb pressing gently into the tender muscle of her inner thigh.
And then, just as suddenly as it started, he pulled his hand away.
She turned to him, chuckling. “What was that?”
“Are you not wearing any shorts under your skirt?”
The question came so suddenly, so sharply, she almost didn’t register it.
“What?”
“You heard me.”
She blinked, unsure if he was being serious. “No. I never wear shorts.”
His hand paused mid-sentence. He turned his head just enough to look at her from the corner of his eye. “Never?”
She felt heat crawl up her neck, but she held his gaze. “My skirt is long enough. Why would I?”
He scoffed under his breath. “It is long enough. But you pull it up.”
She stared at him, stunned. Was this really happening?
“Wait—what?”
“I’m just saying,” he muttered, eyes back on his parchment but hand clenched into a fist, “you pull it up to make it shorter. So what’s the point of telling me it’s long?”
Her mouth opened, then closed again. Her heart was pounding, and she didn’t know whether to laugh or yell.
“I wear my robes most of the time,” she snapped under her breath.
“Still.”
She looked at him—really looked at him—and finally saw it: jealousy. Possessiveness. Anger.
And underneath all that, something more fragile. Something he didn’t want her to see.
He didn’t say another word for the rest of class. Didn’t joke. Didn’t tease. Just sat there seething.
And Vera… couldn’t tell if she was embarrassed, annoyed—or something else entirely.
As soon as class ended, she barely had time to gather her books before he grabbed her wrist.
“Come with me,” he said under his breath, already pulling her toward the door before she could protest.
“Ryu—what are you doing?”
He didn’t answer, not until they were just outside the classroom, out of earshot. The corridor was mostly empty, just the faint echo of students laughing down the hall.
Then he turned to her.
“Go to your dorm. Put on some shorts. Then meet me for lunch.”
She let out a breathless, disbelieving laugh. “You’re not serious.”
“I’m dead serious.”
“Because my skirt is too short?”
“Because every bloke in that class was looking at you like you were a fucking dessert!!!! And you didn’t even notice.”
“I didn’t ask them to look.”
“I know that. But you didn’t do anything to stop it either.”
“I was writing on the board, Ryu! What did you want me to do—cast a full-body cloak?”
“I wanted you to think! To know that you’re not invisible. That when you walk in with a short skirt and no shorts, people see things.”
She blinked at him, hurt rising fast in her chest. “So now this is my fault.”
“I didn’t say that.”
“Yes, you did. You just did.”
“I just don’t want people looking at you like that. Like you’re… something to laugh about. Or worse.”
“I won’t be told what to wear, Ryu.”
“Vera… please.”
She hesitated. Her pride screamed no. But something in his voice—low, almost pleading—cut through the noise.
She sighed, tight and reluctant. “Fine.”
“Thank you."
She didn’t answer. Just turned and walked away, her heart still hammering.
As she walked back to her dormitory, she kept her arms crossed tightly over her chest, each step heavier than the last.
She wasn’t even angry anymore.
She was… shaken.
Not by what he’d said—though that stung too—but by the realization that he could make her feel so small with just a few words. The way his voice, normally a source of comfort, had turned sharp. Cold. Commanding.
She kicked at the stone steps as she climbed them.
Was it really such a big deal? She wore her robes most days, and even without them, her skirt was long enough to cover everything.
Um, usually...
Mostly?
Whatever.
Because today hadn’t been usual.
Today, they all looked.
The heat rose to her face—not the blush of embarrassment, but shame. Shame she didn’t ask for. Shame she hadn’t earned.
By the time she made it back down for lunch, her legs were wrapped in thin black shorts beneath her skirt.
She spotted Ryu at the edge of the Ravenclaw table, waiting for her.
“I’m here.”
He looked her up and down—lingering just a moment too long. “You wore them?”
“You asked,” she said flatly.
He nodded once. “Okay.”
They sat, but neither reached for food.
Ryu tapped his fork against the table. “Are you mad?”
“Do I look mad?”
“Just on the verge of stabbing me.’
“That’s not funny.”
“I’m not trying to be funny. I’m trying to get you to talk to me.”
“I am talking.”
“No, you’re avoiding. Like always. We’ve already talked about this, Vee. We’re in a relationship, now. You can’t keep shutting me out.”
“Oh, I’m sorry. I forgot the part of our relationship where you get to lecture me for what I wear.”
“I’m just saying, maybe think about what you're showing when you’re not wearing robes. That’s all.”
“What exactly do you think I was wearing, Ryu? A bloody strip of lace?”
“I didn’t mean it like that.”
“Then how did you mean it?”
He turned toward her, frustration etched into every line of his face. “I meant I didn’t like watching a bunch of idiots stare at you.”
“And it’s my bloody fault they stared?”
“No! I just—Merlin, Vera, you were—”
“I was what? Existing in a skirt?”
“You pulled it up.”
“For half a second, and not on purpose! I didn’t do a bloody twirl on the table!”
"Vera… you hitch it up to make it shorter, and never think to wear anything underneath. Did it not occur to you that when you stretch, it might ride up even more?"
"See? You're blaming me!"
“You just don’t think, sometimes. You walk around like nothing can touch you, and then you get upset when I worry. You don’t get to have it both ways.”
“You think I want people looking at me like that?”
He opened his mouth, but didn’t speak.
Her lip quivered. Her fists clenched. Then her voice cracked—and the words fell out like venom.
“I’m not a whore, Ryu.”
The silence after was brutal, and Ryu looked like he’d been slapped.
“I’m not,” she said again, her voice breaking. “I’m not.”
Her whole body shook now—shook from rage, from shame, from years of keeping that word locked behind her teeth.
Ryu blinked rapidly, his mouth open, guilt washing over him like a tidal wave. “I—Vera, I never said you were.”
“I know,” she whispered. “I know you didn’t.”
He moved closer, voice softer now. “But you thought I meant it?”
She looked away, hot tears sliding down her cheeks.
Then something shifted in his face—his brow tightened, his breath hitched, and he turned to her slowly.
“Vera… Did someone… call you that?”
She flinched.
The memory surged forward like a punch to the gut.
Mr. Dawson, standing on the pavement outside st. Mary's with his cigarette-stained teeth, laughing as he spat it at her like a slur.
The Humphreys, with their prim little sneers, calling her that before she even knew what it meant.
The way the word always stuck, like sap on skin. Like rot.
She couldn’t speak.
She didn’t want to.
He reached for her hand, carefully, like she might shatter. “Vera, I—I didn’t know. I didn’t know someone actually—”
“Drop it, Ryu." She snapped, pulling her hand away and wiping the tears from her eyes.
“Vera—”
“Just fucking drop it!”
The air in the dungeons was thick with damp and dust, the heavy scent of old stone and burning nettles curling through the room. Potions class was never exactly cheerful, but today the tension was unbearable.
The two sat stiffly beside each other, their shoulders brushing but neither speaking. She hadn’t said much since lunch. Neither had he.
Snape swept into the room like a curse.
“You’ll be making a Strengthening Solution,” he drawled, already irritated. “If brewed incorrectly, it will do the opposite. I suggest you don’t ruin your partner’s muscular system—though in some of your cases, that might be an improvement.”
A few nervous snorts scattered around the room.
“Partners will be assigned.”
That earned a collective groan.
“Mallon with McMahon.”
“Jordan with Towler.”
“Davies with Black.”
“Diggory with Avery.”
Did you hear that? That was the sound of Ryu’s soul leaving his body.
Vera turned to him slowly. His hand was clenched so tightly around his quill it snapped with a crack.
“Ryu—”
“I’ll fix it.”
He stood, then walked straight to Snape’s desk like a man on trial.
“Problem, Avery?”
“I would like to switch partners, sir,” he said, glancing back at Vera. “With Davies.”
After a long, thoughtful pause, the professor tilted his head—vulture-like. “Certainly.”
Ryu let out a breath, relief visible in the slack of his shoulders.
But then, Snape’s lips curled into something that could have been mistaken for a smile, if it didn’t drip malice.
“Black, you’ll be working with Diggory. Avery, you’ll join Davies.”
There was a moment of pure silence, and even the cauldrons seemed to stop bubbling.
“I meant Vera and me—”
“You should learn to be more precise with your language, Avery. Tragic flaw, really. Now go.”
“But—”
“Unless you’d like detention instead?” Snape offered sweetly, with all the charm of a guillotine.
Vera winced, and Ryu looked like he was swallowing a scream.
He opened his mouth, but nothing came out at first. His face turned a shade darker, eyes flicking between Cedric—who was already smiling in amusement—and Roger, who was trying very hard to pretend he wasn’t grinning.
Vera caught his eye across the room. Don’t lose it, her look said.
But it was too late. He had already lost it.
He trudged to Roger’s table like it was his execution, and she moved towards Cedric’s.
“Shall we?” Cedric asked, already standing with his classic insufferable golden-boy grin. “I promise not to outshine you too much.”
She sighed, collecting her things before sliding onto the stool beside him.
Ryu, across the room, muttered something in Japanese that was probably not a compliment.
“Charming,” Roger said to him as he approached. “Shall we bond over mutual disappointment?”
“Touch me and I’ll turn your nose into a beak.”
“That’s fair.”
The bubbling began.
Not just in the cauldrons—but inside Ryu.
Vera stirred her potion clockwise like the textbook said, pointedly not looking at him.
He was watching her like a hawk in slow motion, and she could feel the heat of his death glare from three tables away.
“Your boyfriend always look that murderous, or is it just me?” Cedric asked casually as he began slicing his ingredients.
“Don’t flatter yourself,” she said. “He looks at flobberworms that way.”
“I don’t know whether to be relieved or insulted.”
“Both.”
Across the room, Ryu diced ginger like it had murdered his entire family.
Cedric leaned over her shoulder to peek into their cauldron.
“You’ve got a steady hand,” he noted. “Most people panic by step three.”
She chuckled. “I only panic emotionally.”
He chuckled back, and that’s when Maddie stormed over.
Hair perfectly straight, robes spotless, expression: thunderclouds dipped in venom.
“Professor,” she said sweetly to Snape, who was grading something behind his desk, “I was just wondering, why we can’t simply switch partners? It would certainly save you a headache.”
Snape didn’t even look up. “If this is going to be a scene, Park, make it a silent one.”
Maddie stood there for a second too long, then whirled around and stalked back to her table, but not before sending Vera a look that could curdle blood.
Cedric sighed. “I’m never hearing the end of that.”
“You think you’re not hearing the end of it?” she said, glancing across the room.
Ryu was practically vibrating. He was no longer even pretending to brew. His entire focus was locked on Cedric like he was planning three ways to hex him and make it look like an accident.
Roger, bless him, tried to ease the tension. “So… fun weather lately?”
“Shut up, Rog,” he snapped, not taking his eyes off Vera and Cedric. “If he touches her hand, I—”
“Mate,” Roger said carefully, “I don’t think she’s going to fall in love with him over a Strengthening Solution.”
“That’s not the point, Davies.”
“What is the point?”
“That he’s a Hufflepuff cunt,” Ryu hissed. “And she laughed at something he said.”
“You’re spiraling, man.”
“Oh, I know.”
Back at Vera’s table, Cedric had clearly noticed her stiffening.
“Look, I’m sorry if this is weird. I can just do my half and stay quiet if that helps.”
“No, it’s fine. It’s not you.”
“I have to disagree,” Cedric said, glancing toward Ryu. “He looks two seconds from launching a cauldron.”
She tried not to smile.
And failed.
Ryu, across the room, saw the smile—and that was it. He stood up so fast his stool screeched against the floor.
Snape raised an eyebrow without even looking. “Sit. Down.”
He slowly sank back into his chair, muttering under his breath in Japanese again.
Roger leaned in. “Would now be a good time to tell you I forgot the armadillo bile?”
Ryu closed his eyes. “I’m killing someone today.”
The potion was nearly finished. Cedric sprinkled in the powdered unicorn horn with textbook precision, the liquid in the cauldron turning the exact shade of golden it was meant to.
“Perfect,” he said with a smile.
Vera smiled faintly back, but her eyes kept flicking toward Ryu—who had gone deathly quiet.
His jaw clenched. His shoulders were stiff. And he was butchering his valerian roots like they owed him money.
“Careful,” Roger mumbled nervously, “you’re going to—”
Too late.
The silver blade slipped, slicing into Ryu’s palm with a sharp hiss of pain.
“Fuck,” he muttered, clutching his hand as blood bloomed instantly.
“Language!” Snape sneered.
Vera immediately stood. “Ryu—”
“I’m fine,” he snapped, standing up so abruptly his stool nearly tipped.
He shoved away from the table and stormed toward the sink in the corner of the dungeon, the sound of running water echoing a beat later. Vera followed without thinking, worry outweighing pride.
“Ryu, let me see,” she said softly, reaching for his hand.
“I said I’m fine,” he growled, jerking away from her touch.
She flinched.
“I didn’t mean—” he started, but stopped himself, pressing his bleeding hand under the cold water.
“You’re not fine,” she said. “You haven’t been fine all class.”
He didn’t answer.
“Why are you so angry?” she pushed, even though she already knew. “It was just a pairing, it wasn’t my choice—”
“Yeah?” he bit out, turning to face her now, eyes blazing. “But you sure looked comfortable. Laughing with him. Flirting like—like I wasn’t even in the room.”
“I wasn’t flirting!”
He gave a hollow laugh. “You didn’t have to be.”
“Well, congratulations. You’ve managed to bleed over nothing.”
“You don’t get it.”
“Then make me get it!”
“You’re mine, Vera!!! When I see someone else looking at you like he could have you, like he wants to have you—”
He looked away, gripping the sink with his good hand. “I’m not proud of it. But I’m not sorry either.”
“He doesn’t want me, Ryu! In case you’ve forgotten, he has a girlfriend.”
She glanced back at Cedric. He was already speaking to Maddie—who had stomped over with all the fury of a storm bottled into a petite Slytherin girl.
“Oh, so this is what we’re doing now?” she said, arms crossed. “Playing cute in dungeons?”
Cedric raised his brows. “You mean, attending class and doing my assignment?”
“You know what I mean.”
He sighed. “Mads, nothing happened.”
“You think I’m stupid?”
“No,” he said flatly. “But you’re acting like it.”
“You better not think I’m just gonna let this go—”
“Park!” Snape’s voice cut through her words like ice. “If you plan on performing your romantic drama in my classroom again, I suggest you audition for the Wizarding Academy of Arts. Until then, get back to work. You too, Black.”
Vera lingered for a beat, watching Ryu dry his hand without looking at her. The silence between them stretched, taut and bitter. Then, quietly, she turned and walked back toward Cedric’s table.
He glanced up at her with those impossibly steady eyes, then back down at his cauldron. “He okay?”
She snorted. “He’ll live."
They stirred in silence for a while, the potion between them bubbling softly.
“You used to laugh like that with us,” he said suddenly, not looking at her.
She blinked. “What?”
“You used to laugh with me and Tommy like that. Before…”
“Before I started dating Ryu,” she finished, her voice low and a little defensive.
“It’s not just that.”
“Then what is it?”
He looked at her now. “You disappeared, Vera. You used to sit with us. Come to the greenhouses. Share your music, help me with Potions. Then one day, poof—gone. You traded us for some brooding storm cloud with perfect cheekbones.”
She let out a breath. “You all were the ones who stopped talking to me.”
“Well, can you blame us?”
“Yes, actually.”
“Vera…” He sighed. “You started dating someone who believes your friends are mudbloods. What did you expect?”
She froze, her breath catching before she could stop it.
“Ryu never said that…” she managed.
“Oh, so it’s better that he just thinks it? Like we haven’t heard him talk about others that way before?”
Her throat tightened. “He’s not the person you think he is, Cedric.”
“You’re right,” he said bitterly. “He’s the person you want to believe he is.”
The silence that followed was thick, broken only by the soft bubbling of the remaining cauldrons and the sound of Snape’s robes sweeping somewhere at the front.
Then Cedric’s voice lowered.
“I still have that poster, you know. The one you got me for my birthday.”
Vera blinked, startled.
“I keep it above my bed,” he added. “Just don’t tell anyone.”
Something in her softened. “I won’t.”
They smiled—awkward, small, a little sad.
And for a second, it was like it used to be. But only for a second.
Because when she glanced across the room again, she saw Ryu still watching them from the corner of his eye, his expression murderous.
Cedric nodded, eyes on her again. “I miss you, Piggy.”
She faltered. “You can’t say that now…”
“I know,” he said quietly. “But I wanted to.”
Snape clapped his hands from across the room, announcing the end of class and instructing everyone to bottle their potions for grading.
Vera reached for the flask and tried to focus, but her mind was splintered—half of it on Cedric’s words, and the other half on Ryu, still stewing across the room.
And suddenly, she wasn’t sure where she stood at all.
The courtyard was unusually quiet, wind brushing past the stone walls and rustling the early winter leaves. She sat stiffly on the cold bench, her hands folded in her lap, skirt fluttering lightly around her knees. Ryu sat beside her, arms crossed, his jaw clenched so tightly she could hear his teeth grinding.
“You’re still mad.”
He let out a bitter laugh. “You think?”
“I didn’t do anything, Ryu.”
“You didn’t have to,” he snapped, finally looking at her. “You just had to sit there smiling at him like he still owned a piece of you.”
“Oh, don’t. Don’t pull the jealousy card because you’re insecure.”
“Insecure?” He scoffed. “I’m insecure? What, because I care? Because every time I see you in that stupid skirt without anything under it—and every guy in the room is looking at you like you’re something to unwrap—yeah, Vera, maybe I get a little fucking insecure!”
“Well, I’m not changing the way I dress just to make you feel better.”
“It’s not about me.”
“Yes, it is! You want to control me. You want me to wear shorts so you don’t have to deal with the fact that other people exist.”
“No, I want you to wear them so I don’t have to worry every time I’m not around.”
“You think that’s my fault?”
“I think you don’t understand how this world sees girls like you.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“You’re bold. And beautiful. And unafraid to say what you want. And that scares people, Vera. It makes them want to break you just to feel powerful.”
She stared at him, speechless.
“I’m not trying to cage you,” he continued. “I’m trying to protect you from a world that won’t.”
“I don’t need a knight, Ryu. I need someone who trusts me.”
“For the last time, I’m trying to protect you!”
“From what?” she shouted. “From other people looking at me? From me being comfortable in my own damn clothes?”
“From being the girl every bloke fantasizes about in the middle of class, Vera. From the things I hear them sayyyyyy.”
“So I should cover up because of them?”
“You’re twisting everything!”
“You don’t trust me. That’s the truth, isn’t it?”
"Of course I do!"
She scoffed. "Well, I find that hard to believe."
"Okay, you know what? Forget that fucking skirt. Forget Diggory. They're not why I'm mad, anyways."
"Why are you mad? Enlighten me, Ryu."
"Who called you a whore?"
Her face dropped. "What?"
"Who called you a whore before, Vera?"
She swallowed hard, avoiding his eyes. "No one."
"See? That's why I'm mad."
"I'm... I don't understand."
"You don't tell me anything about you! How am I supposed to understand you when you're lying to me all the time?"
"I'm not lying!"
"You are!"
"Ryu, I'm not!"
"You're not telling me the truth either,"
"I am, but you simply don't trust me."
His eyes locked on hers, dark and searching. “Alright, then tell me. What were you two talking about?”
Her stomach dropped. “What?”
“You and Diggory,” he said flatly. “You were all… giggly. Smiley. Like nothing happened. Like you hadn’t just been fretting over my hand five minutes before.”
“I wasn’t giggly—”
“You were,” he snapped. “I watched you. He said something and your whole face changed. Like he was some warm memory you’d been dying to return to.”
“And why do you care?”
“Because I want to know what he said to make you look at him like that.”
“It was nothing.”
“Why are you lying?”
“I’m not lying—”
“You’re always lying. You think I don’t see the way you shut down when things get too real?”
“I’m not shutting down!”
“You are. You do it all the time. I tell you everything, Vera. Every damn thought I have. And you—you just keep pretending like you're fine. Like you're not hiding half your life from me.”
“That’s not bloody fair—”
“It’s true!”
“Fine!” she exploded. “You want the truth? You really want it?”
“Yeah. I fucking do.”
“We talked about how you ruined everything,” she snapped. “How I lost them. How they just stopped looking at me like I was someone worth talking to the second I picked you.”
He stared at her like she’d hit him.
“Are you jealous of my friends, Ryu?” she asked, voice mocking and bitter. “Is that it?”
“They’re not your friends anymore.”
“Because of you.”
She saw the regret flash in his eyes but it was buried too fast beneath his pride.
“So what then?” he said, voice low and broken. “You regret choosing me?”
Her face twisted in disbelief. “That’s not what I bloody saidddddd.”
“But it’s what you meant.”
“I gave up everything for you.”
“And I never asked you to!”
"You're being a dick right now."
"I'll stop once you start being honest with me."
"I am being honest."
"What else did Diggory say?”
She looked away.
“Vera—”
"I'm not telling you."
"WHAT DID HE FUCKING SAY?"
“He said he missed me!”
Silence.
She didn’t want to see the way his shoulders fell. Or the way his fists clenched again, like he was holding back everything he couldn’t say.
“He said he still has the poster I got him for his birthday.” She added hesitantly. “That... that it’s above his bed.”
Ryu turned his back to her.
“And that’s charming to you?” he asked. “That he thinks about you before he goes to sleep?”
“It’s not like that.”
“Then what’s it like, Vera? Because from where I’m standing, it looks like he's still halfway in love with someone he used to know.”
“In lo-love? Are you listening to yourself? He has a fucking girlfriend!"
"Oh please," he scoffed. "She's buying his attention. It's painfully obvious why he's with her."
"Their relationship is none of our concern."
"No, it's my concern when he tells my girlfriend that he misses her. That he keeps her birthday gift above his fucking bed!"
"It's a bloody poster, Ryu. Where else would he keep it?"
"That's not the point! If a girl that wasn't my fucking girlfriend brought me something, I wouldn't keep it."
"Well, that's you. Cedric is my friend. He kept it because he likes it."
"Because he likes you."
"Oh, for fuck's sake! He doesn't fancy me!"
"You just can't see the way he looks at you!"
"You're just jealous."
"Of that fucking cunt? Don't make me laugh."
"Then why do you hate him so much?"
"Because you fancied him!"
"I never did!"
"Stop lying Vera! Just fucking stop!"
"Don't yell at me!"
“You’re making me feel like a fucking backup plan. Like I’m the consolation prize you settled for after you burned every other bridge.”
“Don’t say that.”
“It’s true, isn’t it?”
“Do you think that was easy for me? Giving up people who were practically my family? And now I don’t even recognize you—”
“I’m the same person who’s been with you through every nightmare and panic attack and fucked-up secret you won’t tell anyone else!”
She flinched at that—because he was right. And because he wasn’t. Not really. Not completely.
But because there were still parts of her he didn’t know.
And they were the darkest parts of all.
“You say I’m insecure,” he whispered. “Fine. But at least I’ve told you who I am. All of it. And you? You’ve been lying by silence since the day we met.”
She opened her mouth to say something—anything—but the bell rang in the distance.
There was no comeback.
No breath.
No sound.
She wiped a tear away before it could fall, already preparing for the next lesson as if the one she’d just been given hadn’t torn her heart straight from her chest.
The rest of the day dragged like lead.
Transfiguration came and went in silence. No teasing. No glances. Just a boy and a girl sitting next to each other like strangers, both pretending not to feel the weight between them pressing harder than gravity.
DADA was no better. She kept hoping he’d look her way, but he never did.
And when the bell rang, she followed him out instinctively.
“Ryu—”
He stopped in the corridor, not even facing her. “I’m going back to my dorm. I want to sleep.”
She blinked. “Oh. Do you want me to—?”
“No,” he said quickly. “Don’t wait for me.”
She didn’t even get a word in before he disappeared into the crowd.
Dinner felt colder than it should’ve, despite the warm torches flickering along the walls.
She sat alone at first, poking at her food without ever really tasting it. Every laugh at the table felt distant, disconnected. As if the world was moving, and she was just… frozen.
He showed up late.
Didn’t greet her. Didn’t even look at her. Just sat beside her and started eating in silence.
She couldn’t take it.
“Are we going to pretend everything’s fine now?”
He didn’t glance at her. “Didn’t say that.”
“Then talk to me.”
“About what, Vera? About how you don’t trust me? About how you keep everything locked up and expect me to guess how you feel? Or about how you get mad at me for being jealous when you’re doing worse than that?”
Her breath caught. “Worse?”
“You lie to me,” he said, finally looking at her. His eyes weren’t cold. They were tired. Defeated. “Every day. By omission. By deflection. You keep me out of the parts of you that matter.”
“I’m not doing it to hurt you…”
“I know,” he said quietly. “That’s what makes it worse.”
She couldn’t breathe. Her chest was so tight it hurt.
So she swallowed it. All of it. The rage, the shame, the guilt that was rising up like bile.
“I was going to ask if you wanted to do something after dinner,” she murmured. “Something fun.”
He paused. Looked at her, softer this time. But the answer didn’t change.
“I have a lot of studying to catch up on.”
She nodded, too fast. “Right. Of course.”
He lingered a moment longer, as if waiting for her to say something that would make it all easier. But she didn’t. Couldn’t.
So he left, without even finishing his plate.
She sat in the glow of the Great Hall, surrounded by warmth and magic and chatter—and yet she’d never felt so cold in her life.
And as the silence settled over her again, she realized:
She couldn’t even be mad at him.
Because she did this.
She chose this.
She broke this.
And she had no one to blame but herself.
Notes:
Chapter's song: Landslide - Fleetwood Mac
Chapter 72: Back to the old house
Chapter Text
Saturday, November 16, 1991
The morning arrived heavy and grey, like the castle itself was mourning something unsaid.
Vera and Ryu sat side by side at the Ravenclaw table, not speaking. Not even pretending.
Their elbows brushed once or twice as they reached for toast or pumpkin juice, but there was no warmth in it. No lingering glance. No apology.
“Pass the butter,” he said, barely above a mumble.
She slid it over without looking up. “Here.”
“Thanks.”
“Mm.”
It was agonising.
Every word was dull, strained. The silence between them was so loud Vera could feel it pressing against her skin.
She couldn’t taste her food. Her stomach turned with every bite, her head echoing with what he said the night before, with the way he hadn’t looked back. The way she’d let him walk away.
She kept thinking about what she should say. What she should finally tell him. But every time she thought about opening up, her chest constricted like it was being strangled.
She wasn’t ready to be seen—truly seen. Not when she didn’t know what he’d do with it.
The truth would wreck everything. And she wasn’t ready for that.
The rustle of wings pulled her out of her spiral. Owls swooped down from the enchanted ceiling like a rainstorm of feathers and parchment, scattering letters and packages across the tables.
One broke off and dipped toward her, dropping a small, neat envelope right by her plate. The handwriting on the front was delicate and unmistakable.
Madame Fletcher.
Her heart lifted—just slightly—and for the first time that morning, a trace of a smile tugged at her lips.
She reached for it, slipping it under the table like it was some secret. She didn’t even realize Ryu was watching.
“You don’t have to hide it,” he said quietly, not looking at her. “Not like I can read French anyway.”
Her hand stilled. Slowly, she looked up.
He was staring at his eggs like they were offending him, his voice flat but not empty. Just tired. Quietly hurt.
She blinked. The smile faded. Her stomach dropped.
Without a word, she lifted the envelope above the table and opened it plainly, letting him see she wasn’t hiding it now.
But he didn’t react.
She read the first few lines, though they barely registered. Fletcher’s script was elegant as ever, soft and curled like ivy, even when the news were hard—but her mind wasn’t on the words. It was on him. The way he sat hunched over his plate, distant. Guarded. Disconnected. Like he'd built a wall overnight, and she hadn’t even noticed.
She didn’t want this. She didn’t want him to feel like this.
So she took a deep breath.
Here it goes.
“It’s from Madame Fletcher. My mum’s governess.”
He glanced at her, surprised. “The squib?”
She flinched at the word. Not because he said it cruelly—but because he didn’t even think. It wasn't judgment exactly. Just that pause. That brief tension that made her gut twist.
“Yeah,” she said sharply, then softened. “She’s been helping me find my mum. And she's writing to update me about the progress.”
Ryu blinked. “You never told me you were looking.”
“No,” she murmured. “There’s a lot I haven’t told you.”
The words hung there between them.
Heavy. Uncomfortable.
But honest—for once.
Ryu’s gaze didn’t waver. He was waiting. Not pressing, not pushing—but waiting. And somehow that was worse.
She folded the letter slowly, her fingers trembling just slightly. “Madame Fletcher came to see me in June.”
"What? At Hogwarts?”
“She wasn’t allowed in, of course. I saw her at Hogsmeade. Said she’d been trying to reach me for years, but... It wasn't exactly easy. She said my mum might still be alive. That she’s been searching for her since the day my father died. After he got himself killed… my mum just vanished. No body. No note. Nothing.”
Ryu stared. And for once, he didn’t say anything. Just let her keep going.
“I don’t remember her,” she continued, quietly. “Not really. I have this one memory—one. I was little. She was holding me. We were in a room filled with plants. Green vines crawling up the walls, sunlight through glass. She was singing to me. A lullaby... She wore this crescent-shaped necklace. It sparkled every time she moved. She smelled like lavender and honey, and her voice was soft, like velvet. I remember feeling… safe. Like nothing bad could ever happen. She picked me up and spun me around. I remember laughing. I remember thinking the whole world was just me and her and that smell—the flowers and the sun. And then…”
She blinked rapidly. “Then she was gone. Like the memory just ends. One second she’s there, the next—it’s just noise."
Ryu reached for her hand, gently this time.
“I’ve spent years wondering if I made her up,” she whispered. “Like maybe I needed a mother so badly, my brain just filled in the blanks. But then Madame Fletcher found me. She thinks my mum’s still alive. Hiding. Or maybe… forced to stay away. Said she’d been searching ever since."
She looked down at the letter. "She’s the only hope I’ve got left, Ryu. If Madame Fletcher gives up, then that’s it. My mum is just… a story. A ghost.”
Ryu was quiet, but the grip on her hand tightened slightly.
“I’m scared she’s not looking for me, though.” She admitted, almost too softly to hear. “I’m scared I don’t matter to her anymore.”
“You do,” Ryu said. “You matter.”
“I don’t know... I want it to be true. But if it is… then why didn’t she come back for me? Why did she stay away? Why did I end up alone?”
"Vera..."
"Please don't, Ryu. Just don't."
She took a deep breath, trying her hardest not to break. "No one knows about this. Just Madame Fletcher and I. And maybe professor McGonagall, but she never mentions it. You're the first to know. I don’t tell people because they always try to make it better. Or worse, they pity me. And I didn’t want that from you.”
“I don’t pity you. I just… I wish I knew how to help.”
“You can’t. This isn’t something anyone can fix.”
“But you’re not alone, Vera.”
She was quiet for a long moment. The words she’d just spoken lingered in the air between them, like something too fragile to touch. Her fingers tapped the edge of Madame Fletcher’s letter, and then—almost like a reflex—she reached down and slid open her bag.
“I want to show you something,” she murmured.
Ryu tilted his head, curious, but said nothing.
She dug through her things, past books and loose parchment, until her hand closed around something firm—wrapped in an old scrap of velvet.
She handed it to him without a word.
Ryu unfolded it slowly to reveal an old photograph—faded but alive in the way all wizarding photos were. A young woman with blonde hair stood barefoot in a sunlit garden, laughing. A crescent moon necklace swung at her collarbone. Beside her, a tired but beaming man held a baby to his chest.
“That’s them,” she said. “My parents. They were at a safe house during the war. It's where they got married. Where they had me. Madame Fletcher said my mum cast an enchantment over the garden so the flowers would never die. Said it would always feel like spring.”
The photograph fluttered slightly in his hand as the breeze from the open windows swept past. Vera stared at the moving image as if trying to memorize every inch of it.
“She looks like you,” Ryu said quietly.
“No, she was better than me. She didn’t have to try to be kind. She just was.”
He looked up. “Do you think she’s out there?”
“I don’t know,” she whispered. “But I need to believe she is. Because if I stop believing—then I really have nothing left.”
Ryu handed the photo back like it was glass.
“You’ve got me,” he said.
She wanted to believe that.
She wanted to take it and tuck it away and make it real.
But she couldn’t help thinking of the way she lied to him. The way she let him walk away the night before without chasing him. The way she’d broken so much, and now wanted to piece it together.
So she didn’t say anything.
He leaned in, brushing a strand of hair behind her ear, and pressed a kiss to her forehead.
She closed her eyes.
It was soft. Gentle. Forgiving.
And it made her feel like she was breaking all over again.
Because she didn’t deserve it.
Because she couldn’t promise she’d stop lying.
Because she was still scared.
But she let it happen anyway.
Because maybe, just for a second, she needed to feel like she wasn’t beyond saving. Like she deserved that kind of love.
She held the photograph to her chest for a moment longer, as if it could shield her from the weight pressing in behind her ribs. The silence between them wasn’t heavy this time. It was soft. Breathing. Like it understood what words couldn’t.
But then she drew in a shaky breath and sat back slightly, her eyes brimming again, her voice barely holding steady.
“I don’t talk about this stuff,” she whispered. “Not because I don’t want to. I mean—sometimes I do. Sometimes I want to scream it into the world just to get it out. But most of the time… I just don’t know what to say.”
Her hands fidgeted in her lap, clenched and unclenched.
“I’ve spent so long not saying anything that I don’t know how anymore. It’s like… if I say it, it becomes real. And I can’t—I can’t make it real. Because the moment I speak it aloud, it’s no longer just a story in my head. It’s the truth. My truth. And I don’t want it to be like that, Ryu. I don’t want to remember how fucked up it all is. How wrong everything feels when I think too hard about it.”
She was crying now, the tears falling slowly, quietly, like they’d been waiting their whole life to be let out.
“When I’m with you… I forget. Even just for a little bit, I forget. All the pain, the shame, the weight of it. I don’t feel broken when I’m with you. I just feel like—like me. Like I’m allowed to exist without explaining myself. That’s why I don’t open up. Because the moment I do, it pulls me back under. And I don’t want to drown when I’m with you. I don’t think I deserved what happened to me. I really don’t. But I don’t think I lost anything that others didn’t. I’m not special. I’m just another name on a long, bloody list.”
She turned, scanning the Great Hall, the way her eyes always did when she needed to ground herself. She lifted her chin, then motioned quietly toward the Gryffindor table.
“Neville Longbottom,” she whispered, her voice trembling with something deeper than sorrow. “His parents were obliterated—not dead, but gone. Their minds shattered beyond repair. They look at him and don’t even recognize their own son. And do you know who did that to them?” Her voice sharpened like a blade. “My cousin. Bellatrix Lestrange.”
She swallowed, but her bitterness only deepened. “So when I saw Malfoy tormenting him—laughing at him like he hadn’t already lost enough—I snapped. I couldn’t stay quiet, Ryu. I wouldn’t. It’s bad enough that my family stole his future. But to just stand there and let someone grind what’s left of him into the dirt? No. Not me. I’m not saying I'm a hero. Because I'm not. I’m not even brave like him. I’m just… I’m just a Black. And I’ve got a lifetime of blood to answer for.”
Her eyes shifted. “See that boy there?” she asked, nodding toward another figure in red and gold. “At the end of the table?”
Ryu followed her gaze.
“His name is Dean Thomas. His dad vanished when he was just a baby. No body, no answers—just gone. You know why? Because the war my family started made him a target.”
She looked down for a moment, the guilt pressing against her chest like a weight she couldn’t breathe through. And then she looked across the hall—to the green and silver.
“Even Warrington,” she murmured. “Even him. His mother died in the Red Dinner. Because of us. Because if we hadn’t ignited that war, if we hadn’t fed it, lit the fuse and watched the world burn, maybe she’d still be alive. Maybe he’d still have a mother. Maybe he wouldn’t hate me every time our eyes meet. I've spent so many nights thinking about it, you know. About why he hates me so much. But it wasn't until you told me what he said on Halloween that it all clicked in my head. He said I'll suck your blood, that I'm greedy. That all Crows are. And it made perfect sense. He hates me for what my family did. He hates me because we played a part in his mother's demise, even if it wasn't direct. And truth be told? I don't blame him for it. I would hate me, too."
Her voice dropped again, softer now. Almost sacred.
“And then there’s Harry. Harry Potter.”
She froze, a sharp breath hitching in her throat.
“He’s not famous because he wanted to be. He’s famous because he survived the monster my family worshipped. The one they raised to power. The one my father killed for. Lied for. Died for. And Harry—he’s alone because of them. Because of us.”
Her hands trembled as she looked down. “So no, I don’t talk about my parents. I don’t talk about my family. Because if I did, what would I even say? I wish my father was here? You know how that would sound to someone like Malika, Tommy, Maddie, or any Muggleborn? Oh, I wish my dad—the fucking terrorist, the blood purist, the Death Eater—was still alive so I could feel normal. So I could have someone to miss on holidays. It would be rude, wouldn’t it? And selfish. And maybe even cruel. So I don’t say anything.”
Her throat clenched, and when she spoke again, her voice was quieter.
“And then there’s the pity.”
She spat the word like poison.
“Fuck, I hate pity. I hate when people look at me like I’m some tragic little thing. Like they’re obligated to be kind because I’ve had it hard. I don’t want anyone to be nicer to me because of my fucked up life. Just as much as I don’t want them to be nice to me because I’m noble. It’s all the same to me. Fake. Polite. Performative. Bullocks. I want people to like me for me. Just me. Not because it’s a moral obligation. Not because their fucking parents asked them to. Not for some power game, or financial interest. And certainly not because they think I need their kindness to survive. ‘Be nice to the orphan, she’s already lost so much’—no, NO! I don’t want that.”
Her breathing was uneven now, like every word cost her something.
“Maybe that’s why I never told you anything,” she confessed. “Because I didn’t want you to feel like you had to care. I didn’t want you to feel like you were supposed to love me out of guilt. Or mercy. Or charity. And maybe…”
She turned toward him fully now, eyes glassy and aching.
“Maybe I just want to pretend like my life is different when I’m with you. Maybe I just want to forget. Maybe I want to feel like I’m not broken for once. Like I’m not someone to whisper about, or tiptoe around, or clean up after. Maybe I just want to be normal, Ryu.”
And with that, the dam finally broke.
The sob came up from deep in her chest, sharp and unstoppable. She folded forward, pressing her hands to her face, her whole body trembling as the grief poured out—years of silence, of holding it all in, of trying to be okay for everyone else's comfort.
She cried not like someone who was sad—but like someone who had been quietly shattered, piece by piece, for so long that she'd forgotten what it was like to scream.
And through it all, she didn’t ask for comfort.
She didn’t reach for him.
Because part of her still believed—if she reached out, she might find herself alone again. And that would be worse than anything else.
But even in the quiet collapse, even in the shame and sorrow and anger, there was something brave in the way she let herself break in front of him.
She had finally spoken.
And for the first time, she wasn’t pretending anymore.
As her sobs softened into hiccups and silence settled again between them, she wiped her face with her sleeve, her hands trembling.
She sat back up slowly, like the weight of her own heart was heavier than her body could carry. Her voice was quiet—hoarse, raw from crying.
“…I think about her all the time,” she whispered. “My mum.”
She swallowed hard.
“Sometimes I let myself believe she’s still alive. That she’s somewhere out there. That maybe one day she’ll come back. And we’ll talk. And she’ll tell me everything. Why she left. If she wanted to stay. If she tried to stay.”
Her eyes welled up again, but she blinked the tears away this time, holding her voice steady.
“I want her to be alive so badly it hurts. But I can’t say that out loud to anyone because it makes me sound pathetic. Or desperate. And I already feel like both. And I didn’t want to put that on you, Ryu. I didn’t want you to look at me and see a girl hoping for a ghost. I don't want to burden you with it all."
She let the silence stretch, giving herself space to breathe, before continuing.
“But I’ll try,” she said softly. “I’ll try to open up to you. I swear I will. But… you have to give me time. I don’t know how to do this yet. I’m still learning how to talk without hurting. And I’m sorry about yesterday. I know I pushed you away. I know I lied. But I swear, Ryu, I never meant to hurt you!"
Her lip trembled as she forced herself to look at him again. “I’ll do better. I promise, I'll be better for you. Because I need you, Ryu. I need you more than anything. More than I let on. More than I’ve ever said. And I’m so fucking scared of that because I don’t want to hurt you. I don’t want to ruin this.”
She reached for him now, her hands desperate, clinging—not to be held, but to keep him from vanishing.
“Please don’t leave me.”
Her breath came in sharp, uneven gasps.
“Don’t leave me. Don’t.”
Her voice rose, panicked, fragile, trembling like a frightened child.
“I can’t do this if you leave. I can’t go back to being alone. I don’t care if the rest of the world hates me. I can survive that. But not you.”
She buried her face in his chest, clinging to his shirt like it was the last piece of solid ground she had left.
And then she wept again, fully, openly, with no more walls left to hide behind. Not in front of him.
Ryu didn’t speak for a long time.
He just held her. Quietly. Fiercely. Like he was anchoring her to this world.
He didn’t tell her not to cry.
He didn’t tell her to calm down.
He didn’t try to fix her.
He just stayed.
One hand curled protectively around the back of her head, the other wrapped around her waist like she might slip away if he let go for even a second.
“I’m not going anywhere,” he whispered into her hair. His voice was low, steady. His own eyes red. “You hear me?”
He pulled back enough to make her look at him, his fingers gentle beneath her chin.
“I need you too. And not because you’re perfect. Or because you’re noble. Or because I pity you. I need you. Just you. The way you are. Even when it’s messy. Even when it hurts.”
He pressed his forehead to hers.
“You’re not alone anymore, Vera. And you'll never be. I'll always be here for you. Always."
They sat outside on the stone steps behind the castle, the courtyard mostly empty now except for the soft patter of rain. The storm that had raged all night had given way to a gentle drizzle. It misted in the air like something half-remembered, clinging to their hair, their clothes.
But neither of them moved.
They just sat there, her hand tucked inside his, warm against the cold, her fingers playing quietly with his—twisting them, pulling, folding them into hers like she needed to be reminded he was still there.
Her head leaned lightly against his shoulder. Her voice, when it came, was quiet. Hesitant.
“Yesterday…” she began, like she was testing the weight of the word.
He turned slightly, giving her space if she needed it, but not letting go.
She exhaled through her nose, staring out at the grey skies. “It wasn’t just about the skirt. It was how it made me feel. Standing there. With everyone staring. And not knowing whether I should feel ashamed or proud or angry or small.”
Her fingers curled tighter around his. “And I’ve heard it all before, you know? That I’m asking for it. That I should just wear shorts under. That I should think of what I’m doing to people’s minds. But maybe that’s why I don’t. Because I can’t. Because I won’t. Because I want to know I have the right to exist in my body without being just it. Even if it means people look at me and think they have the right to own me.”
She sniffed and wiped at her cheek. “I know it’s reckless. I know it’s stupid. I know. But when you told me to go to my dorm—like that—and I could hear your voice so sharp, so commanding… It felt like everything I’d been fighting collapsed.”
There was shame in her voice now. A kind of confusion, like she didn’t know what to do with the contradiction of wanting power and wanting surrender in the same breath.
“It felt like… like I was disgusting. Like I was some whore waiting to be punished for existing. Like it was expected of me because I'm an orphan. I have no father to tell me what not to wear. No mother to teach me how to dress around boys. That's what people think. That you need parents for these sort of stuff. And if you don't, then you'll end up on the wrong path. That you're destined to be... What was it that Warrington called me again? Oh, yeah... Promiscuous. And that’s hard to admit because… someone—once—made me feel the same way before.”
She looked down at their hands.
“I’m not going to tell you who it was. Because they don’t matter anymore. Not really. But what they said does.”
She ran her thumb across his knuckle. “It stuck to me. Like something I couldn’t scrub off no matter how many times I tried to be something else. It made me feel like I wasn’t worth anything that didn’t come with a price.”
And that’s when Ryu finally broke.
He turned to face her fully, cupping both her hands in his like they were something fragile, something holy.
“I’m sorry,” he breathed.
She shook her head, but he didn’t let her dismiss it.
“No, Vera. I'm truly sorry. I was jealous. I was insecure. I saw someone looking at you and I lost control. I made it about me. And that’s not fair.”
He took a deep breath, as if steadying the storm within himself now.
“I feel things too hard. Always have. I love like a fire and burn everything around me before I realize I’m standing in the ashes. But you are not something to be possessed or protected like property. You’re not here to soothe my ego or keep me from feeling small.”
His fingers touched her cheek now, so gently. “You’re wild and terrifying and beautiful. You walk through fire and dare people to look away. And I want to stand beside you—not in front of you, not behind you. With you. I’ll be better. I swear it. Not just for you. For me. Because you deserve someone who doesn’t just hold you—but sees you. Really sees you. And I want to be that person. I want to earn the right to be by your side. Every day.”
She leaned into him then, letting their foreheads touch, letting her breath mix with his. The storm wasn’t over, not really. But it had moved inside them now—quiet, still, and waiting to be rebuilt into something stronger.
The rain continued its gentle rhythm around them, washing the stone steps clean, draping the sky in soft silver. Ryu sat quietly for a long while, her hands still warm in his.
Then he spoke, voice low, careful.
“I don't hate Diggory."
She turned slightly toward him, her brows furrowing just a little—not out of anger or suspicion, but surprise.
His gaze stayed on the horizon. “Not really. I just… I think about how everyone loves him. How good he is. And how easily people lit up around him. How safe he makes them feel.”
He swallowed. “I hated that about him. Not because of him. But because it reminded me of everything I’m not. I don't have that kind of light. I’ve always been too… intense. Too possessive. I walk into a room and people don’t feel safe. They get quiet. Or wary. And sometimes I think—what if you had ended up with someone like him? What if I’m just the temporary storm before you find your sun?”
She leaned closer then. “Ryu…”
“And I know I shouldn’t think like that. I know I shouldn’t need to compare. But I do. Fuck, you know what? I am jealous of him. Maybe I am. But I can’t help it. Because you mean more to me than anything. And the thought of not being enough for you…”
He finally turned to look at her. “It scares me more than anything else ever has.”
She held his gaze, and something in her eyes softened. She reached up and brushed the hair from his forehead.
"I want to tell you something," she said. "But please don't get mad at me."
"I won't, darling..."
She took a deep breath.
“I lied about Cedric, yesterday." She admitted quietly. "The truth is... I did have feelings for him once."
He blinked.
“It wasn’t love. Not even close. Just… this stupid little fascination. Because he was kind to me. And I wasn’t used to that. I mistook it for something deeper because I was desperate, I guess. But he never made me feel the way you do, Ryu... He was nice, sure. But with you…”
She looked down at their joined hands.
“You make me feel seen. Like even the worst parts of me are worth something. Like I don’t have to hide. Like I can finally stop pretending I’m okay all the time. I don’t want anyone else. Not Cedric. Not Fe—”
The word caught hard in her throat, and she looked away for a moment, swallowing it whole, as if just saying his name would open a wound she didn’t want him to see.
She steadied herself, returned her gaze to Ryu’s, more certain than ever.
“I want you. All of you. Even the parts you hate. Even the pieces you try to bury. Because those are the parts that remind me I’m not alone. You’re not a storm, Ryu. You’re the only place I feel real. And you truly are my sun. My beautiful ray of sunshine."
She leaned forward then, resting her forehead against his chest, clinging to his shirt like it was the last thread keeping her grounded.
“I don’t want perfect. I just want you. And I don’t want to be saved. I want someone who’ll bleed with me when I can’t stand.”
He pulled back slightly, just enough to see her face. His lips curled into the softest, crooked grin.
“You should be a poet,” he teased gently, voice still hoarse from everything they’d just shared.
She let out a breath that sounded almost like a laugh—light and broken and real all at once.
“Shut up,” she whispered, the corner of her mouth trembling upward. “You’re ruining it.”
He smiled wider, his eyes locked on hers now, and the joking melted slowly into something heavier, something fragile and magnetic.
“Can I kiss you?” he asked, and his voice dropped to that quiet, reverent tone—the one he only used when he was completely undone.
She nodded.
But it wasn’t just a nod—it was the kind of nod that held hours of longing, the kind that said finally. The kind that said please.
Her eyes closed the moment his forehead pressed against hers again, the heat of him so close she could feel the pull in every inch of her skin. She didn’t move, didn’t speak, just waited—desperately, breathlessly—until his lips met hers, slow and tender and aching with all the things they hadn’t said before.
As they slowly pulled apart, their foreheads still touching, breaths mingling in the damp, misty air, Ryu gave her that look again—the one that made her feel like maybe the world wasn’t such a horrible place after all.
Then, with a sly little smile creeping up his face, he murmured, “So… do you still want to do something fun?”
She blinked, her heart still fluttering from the kiss, and let out a quiet laugh. “What about studying?”
“Fuck studying.”
She burst into laughter, the sound full and real, echoing softly in the drizzle. “Yeah?”
“Yeah,” he grinned. “I’ve got more important things to do. Like, I don’t know… make you smile again.”
Her cheeks flushed, and she squeezed his hand. “Okay. Let’s do something fun.”
They spent the entire weekend like they had nothing to lose and everything to gain.
They snuck into the kitchens, and left with warm pastries from the house-elves. Down by the Black Lake, they lay in the grass with crumbs on their jumpers, teasing each other about their sweet tooths.
When the sky cleared, they took a broom and flew low over the Quidditch pitch. She clung to him, laughing as he soared and dove, wind in her hair and pink on her cheeks. At one point, they hovered mid-air, hands linked, watching the clouds drift by.
As the stars began to appear that Sunday evening, they climbed the spiral stairs to the Astronomy Tower.
It was quiet there—silent in that sacred, secret kind of way.
The stars stretched endless above them, a velvet sky freckled with constellations. The wind was cool, but Vera barely felt it—not with his body pressed close against hers.
Then he leaned in, slow like he wanted to make her feel every inch of it before their lips even met. The moment they did, it was different. Deeper. Hungrier.
Vera responded in kind, her hands in his hair, tugging him closer. Her lips parted, inviting, and Ryu groaned softly against her mouth.
His hands found her waist, gripping tight, pulling her flush against him. Her fingers tangled in his hair as she kissed him deeper, her body arching toward him like gravity had shifted.
Her back hit the stone wall behind them, but she didn’t mind. She liked the way it made her feel grounded, pinned, held. Ryu kissed along her jaw, down her neck, and she tilted her head to give him more, a soft gasp leaving her lips.
She then grabbed his wrist, guiding his hand up the hem of her blouse, beneath the fabric.
Ryu’s breath hitched, his eyes searching hers.
When she nodded, he began—his fingers clumsy at first, but she didn’t laugh. She watched him, lips parted, as he unfastened one button… then another… and another, revealing the delicate lines of her collarbone, the slope of her chest, the curve of her skin glowing silver in the starlight.
His lips found her neck again—softer this time, more reverent. Like he couldn’t believe she was letting him see her like this.
She moaned softly into his shoulder, her body trembling as she clung to him. And all the chaos and pain of the world slipped away, leaving just this—just them.
She barely had time to catch her breath, still wrapped in the warmth of Ryu’s body, her blouse unbuttoned halfway down, when a sharp sound split the silence.
A throat clearing.
Ryu froze mid-kiss, and both of them turned slowly toward the sound.
Felix Fucking Bobbin.
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Chapter 73: The Unforgiven
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Chapter Text
Sunday, November 17, 1991
Felix stood just a few feet away at the top of the stairs, the shadows of the tower throwing sharp angles across his face—but even in the low light, the fury in his eyes was unmistakable.
He looked livid.
Vera scrambled to button up her blouse, fingers trembling as shame and panic flooded her face. She didn’t dare look at him, praying he hadn't seen too much. Praying he hadn't seen everything.
Ryu stepped forward protectively, his hand still on her back. “Bobbin,” he began, voice careful but tense, “look—”
Felix didn’t even look at him, his eyes locked on Vera like daggers. “Out after curfew. Astronomy Tower of all places. Do you two think the rules don’t apply to you?”
His voice was colder than Vera had ever heard it. Not strict. Not professional. Just cruel.
“I was going to take her back,” Ryu said firmly, stepping between them. “We didn’t mean to stay this late.”
“Spare me the chivalry,” Felix snapped, still glaring at Vera as if she were the one who had broken something sacred. “You can leave. Now.”
Ryu’s jaw tightened. “She’s not going anywhere without me.”
“I said now,” Felix repeated, his voice dangerously low. “Do you really wish to test me, Avery?”
Vera placed a hand on Ryu’s arm. “It’s okay,” she whispered, her voice steady despite the pounding in her chest. “I’ll be fine.”
He turned to her, searching her face. “Are you sure?”
She nodded, forcing a small smile. “Yeah. It’s okay.”
His hand lingered on hers a moment longer. Then, without a word, he leaned down and kissed her cheek—slow, tender, reluctant.
And then he left, every step down the stairs feeling heavier than the last.
Once the sound of his footsteps disappeared, she turned slowly toward Felix, her chest tight, her blouse still only half done. But his expression didn’t soften.
He wasn’t done with her.
And whatever this was—whatever this strange cruelty in his eyes was—it wasn’t about curfew.
The tower fell into a thick, stifling silence, and she stood still, half-shivering from the sudden cold, her chest rising and falling too fast beneath her blouse.
She felt him staring. Not at her face. But lower. His eyes lingered too long. Far too long.
And then he scoffed. “Fix your bloody shirt.”
Her heart jumped into her throat. She fumbled at the buttons, her fingers suddenly clumsy and numb. She didn’t meet his eyes. She couldn’t.
When she looked up again, he had already turned his back on her.
“Walk,” he said curtly.
She nodded, her throat too tight to speak.
And so she followed—step after step down the spiral staircase, trailing behind him like a shadow. His strides were long, precise, and tense with fury. His silence screamed louder than words ever could.
And she hated that it hurts.
She shouldn’t care. She had Ryu now. Ryu, who made her laugh, who listened when she cried, who touched her like she was something soft and sacred. Ryu, who’d kissed her like she was the only girl in the world.
But there was still this—this cold pit in her stomach. This ache in her chest.
She shouldn’t feel this way.
But walking behind Felix, watching the way his fists clenched at his sides, watching how his shoulders were stiff with restrained anger—it stirred something in her. Something old and embarrassing. Something she thought she’d buried long ago.
That little stupid fascination she once had for him, the one that bloomed only because he was kind to her once or twice. The way he used to say her name like it wasn’t just another label. The way she thought he saw her.
But that wasn’t real. She knows that now. This—this anger, this bitterness, this silence—that’s what’s real.
She blinked hard, forcing the thoughts away like smoke.
No, she told herself. This isn’t longing. This isn’t real. This is betrayal, and she won’t do it. She doesn't care for him. She doesn't.
He doesn’t mean anything to her.
He can’t.
When they reached the common room, the fire had gone out, casting long shadows across the stone floor. She moved instinctively toward the stairs leading up to the girls' dormitory, but before she could make it, Felix stepped into her path.
She shifted left. So did he.
She stepped right. Again, he blocked her.
Once more. Still, no way past.
She stopped, breath shallow. “Felix,” she said quietly, trying to keep her voice steady, “I want to go to bed.”
He didn’t move.
“You’re already out late,” he replied. “Might as well stay for a chat.”
Her pulse skipped. This wasn’t right. Something in his voice was wrong—cold, sharp, measured in a way that made her skin prickle.
She glanced toward the stairwell. “What if someone comes down?”
“They won’t,” he said. “The paintings are asleep, too. So keep your voice down.”
He walked away from her, but not far—only to the worn arm of the sofa, where he leaned back and crossed his arms like a judge presiding over trial.
Vera hesitated. “What is this about?”
“You've crossed a line.”
She blinked. “What?”
“Don’t play dumb. You broke curfew. And let’s not pretend you were just wandering the halls. What I saw…” He paused, tilting his head. “Frankly, it was indecent.”
Her stomach twisted. It wasn’t what he was saying—it was how he was saying it. Like a punishment he’d been waiting to deliver.
“You’re serious?” she asked.
“I’m a prefect,” he said flatly. “I’m obligated to report behavior like that. You and your little prince.”
For a moment, she just stared. This was the same boy who’d barely acknowledged his badge, who’d skipped patrols to listen to the radio in Haven with her, who used to smirk at the idea of authority. And now here he was, invoking his prefect title like a shield.
This wasn’t about curfew. She knew that. And so did he.
“You know what happens to students caught like that,” he added. “Or do you need a reminder?”
Shame flickered across her face, hot and clinging. She looked down, unsure what to say. She had broken a rule—many, in fact. But that wasn’t what this was. This was something else.
“Now, I can look the other way,” he continued. “But only if you answered my question.”
She looked up sharply. “What question?”
He stepped closer, voice quiet. “Why him?”
Her brows furrowed. “Excuse me?”
“Why him, Vera?” he repeated, eyes searching her face like he might find something hidden there.
She stared at him, unable to hide her disbelief. “Are you bloody joking?" She scoffed. "You haven’t said a word to me in months. And this is what you ask?”
“I'm the one who haven’t said a word to you?” His voice hardened. “The last time we spoke, you asked me for money. When I said no, you turned on me. You stopped talking to me. You stopped writing. Stopped visiting Haven. And then, I found out you're dating Avery."
"You're the one who stopped looking my way!"
"Don't be ridiculous. I've never looked your way."
"You know what I meant, Felix."
He chuckled. "You truly are delusional. You stopped talking to me, but it's my fault somehow?"
“I thought you didn’t want me to.”
“No. You assumed. Because it made it easier to justify what you did next. Because you knew you were in the wrong.”
Her breath caught. She hadn’t expected this—this bitterness. This fury. She had prepared for awkwardness, not a storm.
“I’m not wrong for being with him,” she said.
“Well, it’s all clear to me now. Thank you, Vera. Thank you!"
“What is that supposed to mean?”
“You’ve finally shown me who you’ve been this whole time. You didn’t change—you simply stopped acting. Stopped pretending to care about your precious values.”
“That’s not true.”
“Then answer my bloody question,” he snapped. “Why him?”
“It’s none of your concern!”
"Just help me understand. Because from where I stand, the girl who used to rage about injustice is now cozying up with the Ministry’s golden heir. Do you even hear yourself?”
“Ryu’s not the Ministry,” she snapped. “He’s not like them.”
“Oh no? He’s a purist, isn’t he? He’s polite to your face and doesn’t blink when his family signs bills that make half the wizarding world freeze in winter. But sure—he’s different.”
“You’re twisting it.”
“Am I? Because you told me what you believed in. You hated the way things worked. You hated the power, the cruelty, the blood status hierarchy. And now you're holding hands with it. Snogging it. Letting it suck on your—"
“His family has nothing to do with our relationship!”
“You’re dating him, Vera. It matters. So just bloody admit it.”
“Admit what?”
“That you’re a hypocrite.”
“I’m not.”
“Admit you were faking it. That all your rebellion was just theater. Pretending to care when it was convenient. Admit that you lied.”
“I have never lied about what I believe.”
“Then why are you dating a fucking purist?”
“I told you—it’s none of your business.”
“It is,” he growled. “You lied to me.”
“For the last time—I didn’t lie!”
His voice exploded. “Then answer my fucking question!”
She recoiled at the volume, instinctively stepping back. The paintings didn’t stir, but her whole body went rigid. He was too close now, too angry, too—
“Why are you dating him?” he demanded again, quieter this time, but far more dangerous.
She took a shaky breath. “Because I like him.”
He stared at her, eyes unblinking. “And what exactly do you like about him?”
She hesitated. “He’s nice to me. He makes me feel… better. He makes me laugh.”
“Me. Me. Me. That’s all I fucking hear. Not a word about who he is—just what he makes you feel. You don’t love him, Vera. You’re just clinging to the first person who gave you something warm.”
“That’s not true.”
“You’re starving for affection, so you’re crawling after crumbs like a stray.”
Her heart cracked at the words. “His affection isn’t crumbs.”
“It is when you’ve been offered a feast and spat on it.”
“No one has ever offered me a fucking feast.”
"Someone has, but you're too blind to fucking see it."
She blinked repeatedly, unable to understand what she just heard.
His eyes faltered—just for a moment.
Then, quickly, too quickly—“Your friends.”
She looked away, her chest hollowing.
“They cared for you. They loved you. And you betrayed them.”
Her hands curled into fists. “This isn’t a bloody war, Felix."
“Everything is a war,” he hissed. "Especially for you, Black.”
Her lungs emptied all at once.
Because for the first time ever, Felix used that name.
He had never called her by her surname. The name he despised. The name that shattered his family.
But now, it came out of his mouth like venom, like a death sentence.
And in that moment, she knew:
She was gone to him. Vera was dead to him. And all that remained was her bloodline. Her surname. Her curse.
He turned to walk away, but paused just before the stairs.
“You didn’t answer my question,” he said. “So this doesn’t go away. You’ll be reported. Him, too. Rules apply to everyone—yes, even you noble twats.”
And then he left her there—standing alone in the dark, every breath aching like it might shatter her ribs.
Monday, November 18, 1991
The next morning, she sat in the Great Hall with her hands wrapped around a warm cup of tea, but her mind was still far away.
The echoes of last night’s argument with Felix hadn’t dulled with sleep. If anything, they’d sharpened, slicing through her thoughts in fragments—You’re a hypocrite. You spat on the feast.
Black.
She hadn’t touched her food. Her spoon was clean. Every sound in the hall—the clatter of plates, the hum of conversation, the rustle of owl wings overhead—felt like it was happening in another world.
“—and then I told him, ‘that’s not a spell, it’s just Latin,’ and he still tried it anyway. Nearly set his eyebrows on fire.”
She blinked. “What?”
Ryu smirked. “You haven't been listening?"
“Sorry, I was just thinking,” she mumbled.
“Dangerous habit, that.” He reached for a piece of toast and leaned his elbow on the table, giving her a sidelong glance. “What’s got my princess all broody this morning? Dreaming of our royal wedding?”
She gave him a look, then chuckled despite herself. “Shut up.”
“There she is,” he said, grinning now. “Welcome back to the land of the living.”
She shook her head and took a slice of apple from her plate, flicking it at him. “You’re unbearable.”
“You adore me,” he said, catching the apple slice mid-air, “and I feel the same way.”
They bantered for a few minutes like that, and the weight in Vera’s chest started to loosen just a little. She leaned into the laughter, grateful for it, even if it felt like a brief escape.
Then she saw it—a plump, red strawberry sitting lonely on the platter, the last of the batch. She snatched it up with a gleam in her eyes.
“Don’t even think about it,” he warned.
“Think about what?” she asked innocently, holding the berry in front of her.
“I wanted that."
She grinned. “Well, you should’ve been faster.”
“I was mid-monologue!”
“Your problem, not mine.”
He reached for it, smug and certain—but she was faster.
“Oh no you don’t,” she said, grinning as she yanked her hand back. “We’ll share it. Like civilised people.”
Before he could get another word out, she slipped the strawberry between her teeth, raising an eyebrow as if to say your move.
Ryu blinked. “You’re disgusting,” he muttered—but the corner of his mouth twitched.
He leaned in, slowly, eyes locked with hers. “Hope you’re not expecting me to be a gentleman about this.”
“Then don't,” she said, voice muffled slightly around the berry.
He bit into the other half, their lips brushing, the fruit splitting between them with a soft squish. Juice dripped warm down the side of his mouth, but he didn’t break eye contact. He just chewed, his expression somewhere between impressed and utterly bewitched.
“Well?” she asked after a long moment. “Worth the risk?”
He swallowed. “Completely worth it.”
And still, neither of them moved. The air between them crackled, the strawberry long gone—but whatever had passed between their lips lingered.
Then she blinked, breaking the gaze. Her eyes scanned the hall, looking anywhere but him—until they landed on a pair of cold, burning eyes across the room.
Felix.
He was staring at her. No—glowering. She could see every flicker of emotion across his face: the clenched jaw, the tightened brow, the way his fingers curled against the table.
She held his gaze. And felt it all.
Anger. Disgust. Hatred.
Then he shoved his plate forward, the clatter sharp and final. He stood, the bench scraping behind him, and turned on his heel without a word. She watched him go, her head slowly turning to follow as he stalked out of the Great Hall and disappeared through the doors.
Only when he was gone did she feel Ryu shift beside her.
“Are you okay?” He asked quietly.
She nodded. "Aha..."
He still had a bit of strawberry juice on his lip, but the playfulness in his gaze had shifted, just slightly—like a curtain had been pulled aside.
“So…” he said, lowering his voice. “Did he say anything to you last night? Bobbin, I mean.”
She froze.
It was a simple question. One she could answer easily. But her mouth didn’t move.
She hadn’t promised silence out loud, but something unspoken clung to her ribs like cobwebs—an old thread of loyalty, even if it was fraying now. Still, the truth felt too sharp to hand over.
Because if she told Ryu everything…
That Felix used to know her, really know her. That he had once held her as they soared above the castle. That she hugged him behind the stairs in their common room. That he’d seen her cry, laugh, shake. That she used to sneak into the music hall after hours just to meet him. All alone. That he once played around with her while she layed on a bed in the hospital wing.
That he had touched her without ever laying a hand on her…
If Ryu knew she had once felt something—just a flicker of something—for the boy who now looked at her with nothing but loathing, it wouldn’t just hurt him.
It would destroy him.
No. Worse—he would destroy Felix.
Hell, he might fucking burn him.
So she shook her head, forcing a soft smile. “No. He didn’t say anything.”
Ryu leaned back, nodding.
“Don’t care about him,” he said after a moment. “Seriously. His whole family’s proper odd. Holding a grudge for what? Some money feud from years ago? That’s just… messed up.”
Vera traced the rim of her teacup with her fingertip, eyes low.
“They celebrate death, you know,” he added. “Your grandfather's, great grandfather's. Even your poor grandmother's. It’s disgusting. My father said they actually drink to it. Can you believe that?”
She flinched inwardly, but kept still.
“He’s cruel,” Ryu said, voice firmer now. “Always has been. I’ve seen it. The way he looks at people like they’re beneath him. And his kin... Let's just say, no family becomes wealthy all of a sudden without getting their hands dirty. But tell me, has he ever tried to hurt you?”
She hesitated.
Her mind didn’t flash to any grand moment of violence—but to something smaller, sharper. The cutting edge of his words. The moment he used her last name like a slur. How he looked at her like she was dirt under his shoe after everything they’d been through.
Yes. Felix had hurt her.
But she couldn’t say that. Not now. Not to Ryu.
So she forced a small shrug, eyes on her plate. “No. Nothing like that.”
“Good. Because if he ever did…”
“Don’t,” she interrupted gently, reaching out to touch his hand. “Don’t think too much about him. He’s not worth it.”
He looked at her for a long moment, then nodded, squeezing her fingers.
“Alright,” he said. “If you say so.”
But even as he turned back to his breakfast, she knew it wasn’t over.
Not really.
They had barely made it through Charms without brushing hands under the desks. In Potions, Ryu whispered something about how she smelled better than Amortentia, and she rolled her eyes so hard she nearly missed the directions.
By the time Transfiguration came, Her cheeks were flushed from the stolen kisses between corridors. Every step between classes was a game—his hand ghosting over her waist, her breath teasing his ear with smart little comments.
But as class wrapped up and everyone began packing their things, Professor McGonagall’s voice cut through the room like a blade.
“Miss Black. Mr. Avery. A word, please.”
They panicked.
The room cleared quickly, the other students whispering as they filed out, throwing glances their way. Vera met Ryu’s eyes, and he gave her a small, sheepish smile, then straightened his shoulders. She stood a little taller too.
McGonagall was by her desk, arms crossed, lips pressed into a line so sharp it could slice parchment.
“I have tolerated—tolerated—your behaviour long enough,” she began, eyes shifting between the two of them like a hawk deciding which mouse to strike first. “Hushed giggles. Lingering stares. Passing notes. Whispered nonsense during my lectures. Slobbering over each other while others are trying to eat in peace. And now, the gall to kiss in the corridor right outside my classroom.”
Ryu opened his mouth.
“Don’t,” she said sharply.
He closed it.
“This is not your home. Nor is it the set of one of those absurd black and white French films with tragic violin music and long, slow stares. This is a place of study. You are here to learn.”
Vera tried—really tried—not to smile at the absurdly specific reference.
“And while I understand that young hearts often defy logic and boundaries, I must insist that yours defy them less publicly.”
Ryu scratched the back of his neck. “We didn’t mean to be a disruption, Professor.”
"Mr. Avery, if your lips could whisper an apology as quickly as they whisper flirtations, perhaps I wouldn’t be standing here.”
Vera snorted. She didn’t mean to. But it slipped.
McGonagall turned to her with an arched brow. “And you, Miss Black, are not exempt. I’ve taught generations of students. And I can tell you now, without a single doubt in my mind, that your flirtations will not transfigure that desk into a better grade.”
That one almost made Ryu laugh out loud, but he swallowed it.
McGonagall sighed, her tone softening just a fraction. “You’re clever students. Both of you. But cleverness must be paired with discipline. If I see one more performance of the Black and Avery Revue, I will separate you by assigned seating and deduct house points until your grandchildren feel the sting. Understood?”
“Yes, Professor,” they said in unison, heads bowed like guilty cats.
“I suppose you think your antics have gone unnoticed beyond this classroom,” she continued, her eyes sharp as daggers. “I have received notes from Professors Flitwick, Sprout, and Binns. Madame Pince. Mr. Filch. The elves by the kitchen. Even Professor Snape, and Merlin help me if he’s concerned about your public affections.”
Vera felt her heart begin to pound, and Ryu suddenly looked very interested in the buttons on his shirt.
“Apparently, you’ve been more focused on each other than your coursework,” McGonagall said, pacing a short line before them. “And I know what happened last night.”
Vera froze. Just for a second. A flash of something crossed her face—shock, betrayal, and then rage, molten and red.
Felix told her. He actually fucking did.
Ryu didn’t seem to notice. His brow furrowed in confusion. “Wait, last night—?”
“Indecent. Completely indecent,” McGonagall muttered, eyes narrowing. “Do you think I enjoy having to worry about students turning the astronomy tower into a cabaret? Because I don’t.”
She turned to Ryu. “Mr. Avery… I’ve thought, more than once, of writing to your father. But then I tell myself, Minerva, don’t be ridiculous. The man is far too busy running departments and signing decrees to be interrupted by a letter saying his son is gallivanting about Hogwarts like a third-rate Casanova with a head full of syrup and hands that can’t stay still.”
Ryu’s mouth opened and closed. “Syrup?” he echoed, blinking.
She turned on Vera before he could recover. “And you, Miss Black, don’t think for a moment that just because I can’t send owls to your home, I won’t find a way.”
Vera’s stomach flipped.
“I can’t begin to imagine how your poor matr—”
“Professor!” Vera cut in sharply, voice too high, too fast.
Ryu looked at her, startled.
"I—I know." She murmured. "I’m sorry. Really. It won’t happen again.”
McGonagall paused. Eyed her closely. There was something she wanted to say—something that might’ve unraveled everything—but she held it back.
“Very well,” she said slowly. “But let me make something clear, Vera. Your grades are slipping. I’ve overlooked it because I assumed it was stress, or perhaps just adjustment. But if you continue on this path—romantic distractions, academic decline—I’ll have no choice but to contact your guardian.”
Vera’s eyes widened. Her mouth went dry.
Donnie.
If he found out about Ryu, about the sneaking around, the kisses—he’d be heartbroken. Not angry. But disappointed. And somehow that was worse.
“I understand,” she whispered. “I’m sorry.”
McGonagall took a long breath and looked between them. “This is your final warning. If I so much as catch you embracing in the wrong corridor, kissing near a tapestry, or with any part of yourselves wrapped around each other that isn’t strictly platonic, I will be forced to take action. And that action, I assure you, will not involve a polite letter.”
She let the silence linger.
Then, with a wave of her hand, she dismissed them.
As they walked out, Ryu leaned toward Vera. “Third-rate Casanova?” he whispered.
She managed a small, breathless laugh. “With a head full of syrup.”
He grinned. “She absolutely loves us.”
The bell rang, and Defense Against the Dark Arts let out like a herd of flobberworms released into the sunlight.
Vera and Ryu didn’t say much as they made their way to the courtyard, every step thick with the weight of Professor McGonagall’s warning ringing in their ears like an unbreakable hex.
They sat on a stone bench under a half-bloomed tree, just close enough to feel each other's warmth but far enough to keep a nosy Hufflepuff from gasping in the distance.
“I hate this,” she muttered, scowling at the pebbles by her feet. “I want to kiss you so bad, but all I can do is blink at you aggressively.”
“You do have very romantic blinking,” Ryu offered. “Honestly, I’m flushed.”
She gave him a look. “Don’t make me blink harder.”
“They're overreacting. What we did last night wasn’t even that bad."
“Not that bad? Ryu, my shirt was open. That’s practically a felony at this school.”
“Okay, yes, but it’s not like it was… fully open. I mean, it was sort of still… closed-ish.”
“I had three buttons undone!”
“Yeah, but…” He waved a hand vaguely in the air. "It wasn’t like… all the way. And you… you had something on underneath. Like... Something.”
Her eyebrows climbed. “Something?”
"You know, a layer..."
“A bra, Ryu. I was wearing a bra. You can say it. It’s not a slur.”
He turned red so fast it was like someone had slapped him. “I know, I just—I wasn’t trying to announce it in a public garden.”
“Oh, right, because that’s where we draw the line."
“I’m just saying, it was dark. You were facing away from the moonlight. I could barely see anything.”
“So you didn’t see anything?”
"Excuse me—I’m not blind, I saw things.”
“What things?”
“Just… vague outlines. Suggestive silhouettes. The concept of tit—I mean, stuff. Why are you acting like I set up a telescope and took notes?"
"Oh, you absolutely would.”
“Only for academic purposes,” he sniffed. “I want to understand heavenly bodies.”
She tilted her head, resting her chin on her fist with mock innocence. "So,” she said sweetly, “did you like what you saw?”
He choked on absolutely nothing. “What? I—like? That’s—wow, okay, that’s a—bold question.”
“Oh, sorry, is liking now off-limits too? Should I have said, ‘Did the vague shadow of my cleavege pleasure your delicate sensibilities?’”
“I’m just trying really hard not to say something that gets quoted back to me forever.”
“Too late,” she said. “You’ve already immortalized the phrase ‘heavenly bodies.’”
He groaned and slid down the bench. “Why are you like this?”
“Because you’re fun to fluster,” she said with a grin. “Also, you didn’t answer the question.”
He sighed, resigned. “Yes. I liked it. I liked the kiss. I liked the shoulders. I liked the... area surrounding the shoulders. Happy?”
She leaned back, victorious. “Delighted, actually.”
The tension snapped just slightly, and then Vera groaned, throwing her head back dramatically.
“There is no privacy in this bloody school! If it’s not Filch and his nosy cat watching you like you’ve committed war crimes, it’s the ghosts floating through walls like they pay rent!”
“Sir Nicholas did ask me yesterday if I was ‘courting’ you. And then he told me about his own doomed romance with a barmaid in Wales. I didn’t ask.”
“Exactly!” she cried, pointing at him like he proved her point. “If it’s not the ghosts, it’s the paintings. You know the Fat Lady winked at me this morning? WINKED, Ryu. I wasn’t even doing anything suspicious. I was holding a book.”
“Scandalous!"
"And if it’s not the paintings, it’s the prefects. Little moral knights in shining badges, always lurking around corners like they get a bonus every time they catch a student touching someone else’s elbow.”
“Romance is dead,” Ryu nodded solemnly.
“I’m starting to think even the walls are charmed to spy on us. Maybe Professor Dumbledore has some enchanted gargoyle that reports back every time we so much as hold hands.”
"Well, think about it. If he wasn’t monitoring us all with some omniscient eye, half the school would be pregnant by now.”
She smacked his shoulder. “Ryu! Behave.”
“I’m just saying. It’s a public health miracle, is all.”
She leaned into him slightly, her shoulder brushing his. “So what should we do then?”
“I have an idea."
Her eyes narrowed. “Go on.”
“We get a box. Put a sign on it. ‘Snogging Box. Do Not Disturb.’ We sit in it. Together. Like grown-ups.”
“Brilliant,” she wheezed. “Absolutely genius. Maybe add a privacy charm. And an air hole.”
“Oh, I was thinking underground bunker! With snacks. Romantic lighting. Maybe a gramophone.”
“A gramophone?”
“For the slow dancing!”
She smiled at him then, soft and full of all the affection she couldn’t show in any other way. “I love your brain.”
“I love that you didn’t say no to the bunker.”
"No, but seriously. How are we gonna go on with this?”
He hesitated, lips twitching like he was holding back something scandalous. Then, he held out his hand.
“Come on.”
She narrowed her eyes, wary but curious. “Where to?”
“You’ll see. Just… don’t tell me I’m being reckless with this.”
“With what, exactly?”
But he didn’t answer—just wiggled his fingers, beckoning her to take his hand.
He led her through a maze of corridors inside Ravenclaw tower, ducking behind tapestries, and avoiding the chatter of students.
Finally, they stopped in front of a tall, old painting. It looked distinctly Muggle—a scene of a forest glade with a worn wooden bench and a cloudy sky above.
She tilted her head. “Um, what's this?"
Ryu just smirked, pulled out his wand, and muttered something under his breath. The painting gave a quiet creak and began to swing open, revealing a hidden space behind it.
“Merlin’s—” she started, but he tugged her through.
They were inside a narrow spiral staircase, the stone lit only by flickering torches wedged into the wall. The air smelled old, like forgotten pages and candle wax. They started climbing, their steps echoing in the silence.
Vera glanced at him, breathless. “What is this place?”
“You’ll see,” he said again, this time with a note of mischief that sent a chill down her spine.
The good kind.
When they reached the top, they stood before a tiny, curved wooden door, low enough that Ryu had to duck his head.
He turned to her. “Ready?”
“For what?” she replied, both exasperated and thrilled.
He tapped his wand gently against the wood, and the door creaked open to pitch black. He pulled her in, and it was like walking into a wardrobe—soft woolen coats brushed their arms, the smell of lavender sachets and dust filled the air.
“Ryu,” she whispered, bumping into him. “We’re in a closet?”
“Yes, but no,” he whispered back, pushing past a thick winter cloak. He opened another door, this one smaller, and stepped aside to let her through.
She blinked as the light poured in, and then stepped into—
"IS THIS YOUR FUCKING DORM?"
He nodded proudly. "Welcome to my humble abode, princess."
"Wait, how the fuck?"
“A secret passage from decades ago. Through a disused tower stair, an old professor’s wardrobe, and an enchanted muggle painting. Whoever made this, was an absolute genius, I'm telling you."
She stared at him. “You’re absolutely insane.”
“Maybe. But I figured if the school wants to make things difficult… we get creative.”
Vera glanced around the room in shock, and God help her, she had never been more in love.
Notes:
Chapter's song: The Unforgiven - Metallica (It's mostly about Felix and his bitter thoughts)
Chapter 74: Never Tear Us Apart
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Monday, November 18, 1991
Ryu's dormitory was a love letter to every overachiever’s dream.
Vera stepped inside and instantly felt like she was trespassing somewhere sacred—or at least extremely well-dusted.
The air smelled faintly of parchment, bergamot, and smugness. Tall windows framed the far wall, their diamond-paned glass gleaming with star-flecked twilight. The ceiling above was domed, traced with silver lines like the inside of a globe, mapping out stars, magical ley lines, and constellations in a language only Ravenclaws would probably bother learning.
Honestly, it was less a dorm and more of a celestial observatory with duvets.
"Merlin," she muttered, spinning in place. "No wonder you people always think you're better than the rest of us. You’re literally sleeping in the sky."
Ryu closed the wardrobe door behind them. “Yeah, we like to keep the atmosphere appropriately aspirational.”
“Okay, but how long have you known about this passage? This is some next-level secret society business.”
“Since first year. Used it mostly to sneak into the kitchens. And for late-night broom races down the fourth-floor corridor.”
“You had access to a portal of endless freedom and you used it for snacks and racing?”
He shrugged. “Some boys kiss girls under the stars. I kissed pudding under the pantry light. We all have our passions.”
“Romantic and pathetic. Impressive balance.”
She proceeded to look around. Everything gleamed with tidy intelligence. The bookshelves were lined with tomes whose spines rearranged themselves alphabetically whenever her eyes lingered too long. The sconces on the walls flickered with blue fire, casting shadows that danced like scrolls being unraveled.
But what surprised her the most, was that there were only two beds, each separated by a heavy curtain.
“Only two beds?” she asked.
“Ravenclaws are rare and precious,” he said dramatically. "Like unicorns. Or well-adjusted Gryffindors. How many are in yours?”
“Five.”
“FIVE? Like, four other girls? And they all talk at once?”
“Only when they’re awake. Or asleep. Or unconscious.”
“I would die.”
“I nearly do every night.”
She wandered to the far corner where the other bed was—Roger’s, judging by the chaotic genius of it.
It was a pop culture explosion—posters of Back to the Future, The Terminator, Ferris Bueller’s Day Off, all charmed to play loops of their most dramatic scenes in grainy cinematic glow.
A floating shelf held at least ten vintage cameras, their lenses occasionally twitching toward movement like tiny mechanical birds. There was a lava lamp, a vinyl player, and what looked like a Rubik’s cube that solved itself in smug little spins.
“Okay, I did not know Roger was this obsessed with Muggle culture,” she murmured, grinning at a signed poster of The Breakfast Club.
“Yeah, a bit tragic. But I'll fix him, eventually."
She swallowed hard, trying not to recoil. “Um, you're okay with it, right?”
“I mean, I don’t get any of it. But he thinks dragons are barbaric, so we’re even.”
She then moved to his corner and immediately burst into a grin.
It was peak Ryu: deep blues and sharp blacks, everything obsessively tidy, from the neatly folded dueling gloves to the calligraphy-labeled stacks of scrolls.
A dark silk tapestry of a dragon soaring over Mount Fuji stretched above his bed. A few Quidditch posters floated slightly off the wall, their players moving in slow motion, as if in some dreamy, eternal replay.
There was a bonsai tree on his bedside table, perfectly trimmed. A neat trunk of books beside it. And then—unexpectedly—a violin.
“You play the violin?”
He rubbed the back of his neck, sheepish. “Used to. My mum made me. Said it was good for posture and discipline and… whatever. I haven’t in a while.”
“I like it,” she said, smiling. “It’s so posh. I’m picturing you playing at a family dinner, shirt unbuttoned, moonlight hitting your cheekbone—”
“Okay, stop,” he groaned, face turning red. “Now I can never pick it up again."
She laughed and threw herself dramatically onto his bed—only for him to let out a scandalized gasp.
“Shoes, Vera!”
“What?”
“No shoes inside! That’s the first rule of surviving under my roof.”
“This is your dorm, not a sacred temple!”
“Same thing!”
He waved his wand and a gust of wind knocked her halfway off the bed, her shoes suddenly untying themselves. She shrieked with laughter, kicking them off mid-air and letting them land by the wardrobe door.
“Happy now?”
“Eternally.”
She rolled onto her stomach and peered at his desk. It was arranged with obsessive precision—scrolls, ink bottles, quills that cleaned themselves. But what caught her eye was a gleaming glass case on the side, filled with vintage lighters engraved with dragons, kanji, and some strange runes.
“Ryujin Avery… do you smoke?”
“Merlin, no,” he said, picking one up. “I collect them. They’re like tiny, dangerous jewelry.”
He flicked the cap open with one hand, struck it against his palm, and a bright golden flame leapt out—licking up his skin.
She gasped. “Holy shit! You really aren't burning.”
“I told you,” he said smugly. "Dragon's blood."
She shook her head, giggling. “This is insane. My boyfriend is a secret pyromaniac with a violin and an illegal broom racetrack.”
He gave her a bow. “Behold. The romantic fantasy you never knew you needed.”
“You’re such a show-off.”
“And you’re still lying on my bed.”
“Barefoot,” she said sweetly. “Like a respectful guest.”
"Now enough chit-chat," he said, stepping toward her with that glint in his eye that always made her stomach do a backflip. "Come here. I've been dying to kiss you all day."
She raised a brow, still half-perched on the edge of his bed. "Have you now?"
"Every class. Every corridor. Even while McGonagall was threatening to expel us, I was thinking—worth it."
“You say that like you’ve suffered greatly.”
“Hours of restraint. Torture, really. I should be knighted for my discipline.”
She laughed, but it died quickly as he stepped closer.
"Now, stop stalling." He teased.
He was in front of her now, close enough that she could smell faint woodsmoke and something citrusy on his robes.
She tilted her chin up, pretending to consider it. "Say please."
He leaned in, nose brushing hers. "Please."
His lips met hers in a kiss that was half-ache, half-sigh, like something they’d both been holding back all day had finally been allowed to breathe.
Her fingers found the collar of his shirt, while his hand slid into her hair. The stars above spun a little faster, like they were rooting for them.
She leaned back against the bed, her fingers gripping the edge as if it were the only thing anchoring her to reality.
Ryu blinked, like he couldn’t quite believe what he was seeing—or maybe he could believe it, he just wasn’t sure if he deserved it.
Honestly, neither was she.
He kissed her again, deeper this time, like he was determined to memorize the exact taste of this moment. His hand found her waist, his other braced beside her head, his body hovering over hers like he was terrified of actually touching her—but unable to stop himself.
She tugged at him gently, wanting him closer, but every time she did, he’d pull back an inch, like a very polite, very flustered vampire trying not to lose control.
“Ryu,” she whispered between kisses, “you’re not going to combust if you touched me, you know.”
“Says you,” he muttered, still kissing her like the world might end if he stopped.
SLAM.
The door swung open so hard it rebounded off the wall, and Roger strolled in, whistling like he was arriving at a tea party instead of a romantic ambush.
Vera let out a gasp that could’ve shattered a window and instinctively shoved Ryu with all her Gryffindor might. He flew backwards like a sack of broomsticks and landed on the floor with a thud.
She leapt to her feet like she'd just been caught stealing a dragon egg, her hands darting to straighten her skirt, smooth her hair, rearrange her entire life.
Roger blinked at them, then gave a little wave. “Hi.”
“We weren’t doing anything!” She blurted, her voice an octave higher than usual.
Roger raised a very Roger-ish eyebrow, surveying Ryu, who was still sprawled on the floor like a stunned mannequin. “Right,” he said, nodding. “And I’m a centaur with an Arithmancy degree.”
Vera’s face burned. “We weren’t!”
He smirked. “Hey, I’m just grateful I didn’t leave my knickers on the bed today. That would've been awkward for all of us.”
Ryu groaned from the ground. “I think I bruised my spine.”
“Serves you right,” Roger said. “Our dorm's got boundaries.”
He wandered toward his corner, completely unfazed, humming something suspiciously like Careless Whisper. “Don’t mind me. Just pretend I’m a very quiet, very judgmental ghost.”
He then turned to face them, holding a vintage camera. “Smile for the trauma album?”
“GET OUT!” Ryu shouted.
Roger finally gave a dramatic sigh, grabbed a book from his desk, and headed toward the door. “I’ll leave you two lovebirds to your definitely not anything. Oh, and next time—put a sock on the door. Or a hex. Something. Anything."
The door closed behind him with a click, and silence fell like a dropped curtain.
Vera sat down on the edge of the bed, her face still burning.
"This is a bloody nightmare!" She groaned, burying her face in her hands
Ryu sat up, brushing off his robes, and flopped beside her. "It's just Roger, Vee."
"Yeah, but what if he thought we were doing something... You know? Bad.”
“Honestly? What was going on in my head was much worse.”
She whipped around and shoved him hard enough that he fell back on the mattress. “Ryu!”
“What? I’m only human. A human with very limited self-control.”
“You’re also a human with very little brain-to-mouth filter!"
“Guilty as charged.”
She stood up, pacing a few feet like she could walk off the mortification. “This was a bad idea.”
Ryu propped himself on his elbows, watching her with a look that was equal parts amused and hopelessly charmed. “Isn’t that what makes it fun?”
“No! Well—sometimes. But I just… I didn’t think I’d be caught by your roommate while basically horizontal and—oh shite, my skirt—”
“Your skirt was fine. Dramatic, but fine.”
“You’re enjoying this too much.”
“Relax,” he said, lounging back with his arms behind his head. “Roger’s not going to tell anyone. He lives in a shrine of Quidditch and secret hobbies. He respects privacy… weirdly.”
“Still! We have to be more careful. McGonagall already threatened to summon our families.”
“My father’s going to send me a Howler that starts with ‘Casanova’ and ends with disownment. We’re on the edge, but it's fun."
“Maybe we should just start communicating exclusively through books left in the library."
“And wear disguises. You could be Madam Pince, I’ll be a chair.”
“You’d make a very handsome chair.”
“I’d be velvet.”
“No, seriously! We should not be reckless about this."
“I know,” he said, his voice softer now. “But I’m not hiding because I’m ashamed. I’d yell it from the Astronomy Tower if I thought McGonagall wouldn’t shoot me down with a spell.”
“Same,” she said, smiling. “Except she’d use a crossbow on me.”
“I’d duel anyone who looked at you funny.”
“You’re not allowed to duel. You have bad impulse control.”
“Only when you’re around.”
She sighed and flopped beside him, the bed bouncing slightly. They lay side by side for a moment, the silence hanging between them.
"Just for the record," he suddenly said. "When you shoved me off the bed? Hot."
She immediately grabbed a pillow and stuffed it into his face. "Ryu!"
“What?" Came his muffled voice from under. "I’ve got a thing for powerful girls.”
She lifted the pillow just enough to glare at him. “You’re lucky you’re cute.”
He smiled, utterly unbothered. “I know.”
She rolled onto her stomach and stretched out luxuriously like a cat, her eyes scanning the room again.
Then she spotted it.
A thick, leather-bound album sat on his desk, almost blending into the dark wood. It had gold-stamped corners and a faint dragon crest embossed in the center.
Her eyes narrowed mischievously. “What’s this?”
Ryu immediately sat up like she’d reached for a cursed object. “Nope. Off-limits.”
“Oh come on,” she said, grabbing it and holding it above her head as he lunged for it. “Is it a diary? A record of ancient, forbidden magic? Or—” she flipped the cover open, “BABY RYU?”
He groaned and face-planted into a pillow. “Don’t do this to me.”
But she was already squealing.
“RYUUUUUUUU,” she shrieked, flipping a page and nearly falling over from laughter. “You were so cute as a baby. You look like a dumpling with eyes!”
“I was a dumpling with eyes,” he muttered into the pillow.
She pointed to one where he was dressed in some elaborate kimono and being held by a regal-looking old man. “Who’s this?”
He lifted his head and glanced over. “That’s my grandfather." His face softened. "He passed when I was ten.”
Her teasing stopped instantly. “You loved him.”
“More than anyone. He used to sneak me sweets and take me flying when no one was looking. He’s the one who taught me to use magic quietly. Said strength meant nothing if you couldn’t control it.”
She smiled gently and brushed her fingers over the photo. “He looks kind.”
“He was terrifying to most people. But to me? He was just… safe.”
They were quiet for a moment, Vera flipping through the rest more slowly now. There were photos of formal ceremonies, holidays in grand Japanese halls, and summer trips to wizarding beaches.
But then she stopped on a chaotic-looking photo of a man, shirt unbuttoned, drink in one hand, and a cigar in the other.
“Who's this?”
“That bloody disaster is my uncle. Kaito. He’s banned from three wizarding casinos and one library. He'll trade the entire family fortune for a Darawitch. My dad has to clean up after him every other month.”
“He looks like trouble’s favorite person.”
“Yeah, he once tried to charm a married women at a funeral. Got hexed by the entire family.”
"How old is he?"
"I don't know. In his thirties, I suppose."
"And does he live with you?"
"Yeah, unfortunately."
“And your aunts?” she asked, flipping past a photo of them all together.
“They all stayed in Japan. They run the family estate—organize events, maintain the palace grounds. They’re all terrifyingly graceful. Like, one eyebrow raise from them and I feel like I’ve dishonored my bloodline.”
She leaned over and kissed his cheek. “You’re like the best parts of all of them.”
He rolled his eyes, but his ears turned pink. “Shut up.”
“No, seriously,” she said, flopping back onto the bed beside him, still holding the album. “This is the sweetest thing I’ve ever seen. Except maybe that one photo where you’re naked in a tiny tub with a rubber hippogriff.”
He groaned and pulled the pillow over his head again. “I’m never forgiving you.”
“Oh, you will,” she said, grinning and nestling beside him. “Eventually. Maybe. If I stop laughing.”
She turned another page and paused, her fingers stilling on a photo of a younger couple seated in a traditional Japanese garden.
The man looked like an older, more composed version of Ryu—sharp jaw, intense eyes, impeccably dressed in a black kimono with golden embroidery.
The woman beside him had soft, serene features and a kind smile, her posture perfect, her presence luminous.
“Your dad was fit. Like, offensively fit.”
Ryu leaned over to look, then nodded without hesitation. “Yeah, he still is."
“How does your mum live with that face? I’d be in a constant state of suspicion.”
“She doesn’t have time to be suspicious. She runs a museum, organizes charity events, trains dragons, and still finds time to lecture me over tea about posture.”
“Wait, she trains dragons?”
“Just the smaller breeds.”
Vera shook her head, impressed. “Is she also from Kyoto?”
“Yeah. Her family's been in the same house for like eight centuries.”
“That’s so mint. And wait—” she squinted at the photo again. “Is ‘Avery’ your real family name?”
He chuckled. “Nope. We don’t really use surnames. It’s more like… you belong to the dragon house. That’s it.”
“So you’re just Ryu of the dragons?”
“Exactly.”
She smirked. “That’s dramatically cooler than being Vera Black because my ancestors probably just looked at a crow's feathers and said, ‘that’ll do.’ Honestly, zero points for creativity.”
“Vera Taupe,” he teased. “Vera Ecru. Vera Off-White with Undisguised Rage.”
She snorted and turned another page. “Alright, romantic history check. How old were your parents when they got married?”
“About thirty."
“Mine were seventeen.”
Ryu blinked. “Really?”
“Yep. Ceremony during the war. Mum made her own dress. Necklaces instead of rings. You know—normal totally emotionally stable teenager things.”
“That’s insane."
"Right?”
“But understandable. I’d marry you right now if I could.”
Her eyes widened. “Ryu! Don’t say things like that!”
“What? I mean it.”
“You’re going to give me a heart attack.”
“I’d marry you in a Quidditch pitch mid-game. You’d dodge a bludger and say ‘I do’ in the same breath.”
“I’m leaving,” she declared, dramatically clutching her chest.
He just smiled, pulling her back down beside him. “Too late. You’re mine now, Vera Off-White.”
“Stop calling me that!”
But even as she rolled her eyes, she couldn’t stop the smile tugging at her lips—or the warmth flooding her chest.
She flipped to the next page—and gasped so loud Ryu flinched.
"MERLIN'S FUCKING BALLS!"
There, right in the center of the photo album, was a shot of a magnificent creature—long and serpentine, its scales shimmering in shades of pearlescent blue and cloudy white.
It had no wings, but its body coiled in midair like it was swimming through the sky. Tufts of silver fur ran down its spine, elegant whiskers framed its snout, and its eyes? Blue. Dark blue.
"Is that your bloody dragon?!"
Ryu leaned over proudly. “Yup. That's her. That's my Shingin.”
“She’s beautiful... Like a cloud had a baby with a lightning bolt. But, um, where are her wings?”
“They don’t have them. Eastern dragons fly through energy, not force. They’re protectors, you know. They bring rain, good weather, blessings, all that.”
"Do they breath fire?"
"Nope. But they're immune to it."
“So while western dragons are out here burning down villages, yours are basically sky gardeners.”
“Exactly.”
“Is it hard to ride them?”
"Without doubt. You have to steer them with your whole body. It’s like wrestling a storm.”
“That sounds impossible.”
“Tell that to my muscles.”
Before she could say a word, he casually lifted his shirt, revealing his toned abs and the distinct lines running across his stomach.
She choked. Actually choked.
“Oi—Put that down!”
He grinned. “What? I worked hard!”
“You ambush me with abs? That should be illegal!”
“You asked!”
“I was talking about dragon-riding, not showing off your… your…” She waved her hand frantically at his torso, red-faced. “That.”
“Admit it. You’re impressed.”
“I’m emotionally compromised,” she muttered, fanning herself.
She wanted to look away—she really did—but her eyes had a will of their own.
They stayed glued to the ridges of his abdomen, the way the sun caught the slope of his tanned skin, the faint scar just below his ribcage that made him both real and incredibly hot.
Her fingers twitched at her sides. Just one touch. Just one.
Nope. Absolutely not!
She swallowed hard, throat dry, and tried to steady the flutter in her chest.
Ryu tilted his head, catching the look in her eyes. “You wanna touch?” he asked, teasing but low, like he already knew the answer.
“Catch yourself on!” she barked, face flaming.
He laughed then slowly, infuriatingly, pulled the fabric back over his stomach.
“Emotionally compromised,” she repeated under her breath. “This is a war crime.”
Then, still reeling, she pointed to the dragon again. “Wait—WAIT! You said her name is Shingin?”
He nodded.
She blinked at him. “You… call me after your dragon?”
His smile turned softer, gentler. “Yeah.”
“Does it actually mean ‘faith’?”
“Kinda. Depends on the kanji. But yeah, more or less.”
Vera didn’t respond. She just stared at him, eyes shining, heart full.
Then without warning, she launched forward and hugged him so tightly he fell flat on his back, the album flopping beside them.
“Whoa—!”
She peppered his face with kisses, whispering between each one, “You’re stupid,” another kiss, “and perfect,” another, "and sweet," another, 'and so hot," another.
“Vera, wait—”
She straddled him, giggling as she brushed his hair back and pressed another kiss to his forehead, then one to his cheek, then a trail down his jaw, then his neck—
“No.”
She stopped, lips hovering just above his skin. “Why not?”
He tensed slightly, looking up at her. “Just… not there.”
Her smile faltered. “You never let me kiss your neck.”
“I know.”
She sat back on her heels, disappointed. “Why?”
He hesitated, then reached for her hand, twining his fingers with hers.
“I will. One day,” he said softly. “Just not yet.”
She searched his eyes, the softness in them, the way they flickered like candlelight trying not to go out. She wanted to ask more. But instead, she leaned down, and kissed his collarbone gently.
“But I swear it looks extremely kissable.”
He groaned. “Vera, please—”
“I'm just saying! If I were your neck, I’d be offended.”
She kissed his temple instead, and this time, he let her linger.
Then, he stretched with a yawn and rolled onto his back, one arm flopping dramatically over his eyes. “I want to nap,” he muttered. “Come on, join me.”
She blinked at him, skeptical. “A nap? With you? IN YOUR DORM?”
“It’s revolutionary, I know. But trust me—nothing hits like a post-chaos nap.”
She hesitated, biting her lip. “I don’t usually nap during the day.”
“Which is exactly why you should start now,” he said, lifting the blanket and patting the pillow beside him invitingly. “Come on."
“Fine,” she muttered, crawling over. “But if I wake up drooling on your fancy sheets, I’m blaming you.”
As she went to slip under the blanket, she noticed him fiddling with his belt, and her eyes widened in horror.
“WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?”
“Relax. Just taking it off so it doesn’t stab me while I’m asleep. Merlin’s beard, Shingin. What did you think?”
“Oh,” she said quickly. “Right. Yeah. Makes sense. You can… continue.”
He chuckled and flopped beside her with a satisfied sigh. “There. Perfect.”
She tucked herself in next to him, warm and a little awkward, her head against his shoulder. “I still think this is weird.”
“It’s not weird, it’s wonderful. You get the best dreams when you nap. The kind that make no sense but still feel like truth.”
“Like what?”
“Like I’m flying a dragon over the Great Hall while everyone's throwing confetti and yelling about how good I look shirtless.”
She snorted. “That was suspiciously specific.”
“Told you. Amazing dreams.”
She rolled her eyes fondly and reached for the hem of his shirt, idly running her fingers along the fabric. She didn’t even know why—just the rhythm of it, the comfort.
She glanced up at him. His lips were slightly parted, his lashes casting shadows on his cheekbones. Peaceful, gorgeous, and entirely hers for the moment.
“Ryu… can I ask you something?”
He opened one eye lazily, his arm still slung across his face. “Sure.”
“Do you really think Muggles are beneath us?”
That made him pause. For a moment, he looked like he was about to brush it off, make a joke, but then he just said it, quiet and certain.
“Yeah. I do.”
She shut her eyes, already regretting bringing it up. But it had to be said. She couldn’t keep dancing around it forever.
“Why, though?”
He exhaled slowly, rolling to face her properly. “Because of their nature, I guess.”
“That’s not an answer, and you know it.”
“Think about it, Vee. The universe gave us everything we ever needed. Magic, nature, balance. We were meant to live in harmony with it. Enhance ourselves, yes—but to give back, too. Not just take.”
She stayed quiet.
“Do you know why we raise dragons in Japan? Because they’re symbols of nature. They’re guardians. So we protect them, and in return, they protect nature itself. That’s how the cycle should go. But Muggles took that same gift and corrupted it. Out of greed, ignorance, ego. They polluted nature, destroyed it. They build things not to enhance life, but to dominate. They kill over land, over rulers no one remembers, over religions they barely understand. And that’s not even mentioning how many of them have tried to exterminate us for centuries. In the name of their gods or their ‘greater good.’ So yeah. I think they're beneath us.”
She looked at him sadly. “But we do the same things, Ryu.”
“We do what we have to—to survive. They do it because they want to. Out of hatred, envy. That’s not the same.”
“But what about Muggle-borns?”
“What about them?”
“They have magic. Shouldn’t they be treated like us?”
“They didn’t inherit magic. They stole it.”
"That doesn’t even make sense. How could someone steal magic?”
“By forcing their way into magical families. Generations ago, they started marrying into bloodlines. Hoping that magic would ‘rub off.’ But it’s damaging.”
“How is that damaging?”
“Because it dilutes us. Squibs are increasing. More and more magical families losing their magic entirely. If this keeps going, there won’t be magic left.”
“But you can’t blame Squibs or Muggleborns for that. They didn’t choose any of it.”
“I know. But that doesn’t mean I have to like them either.”
She narrowed her eyes. “So you don’t like Malika? Even though she’s the nicest person in our class—just because she’s Muggle-born?”
“I just… don’t know her well enough.”
“What about Lee? Or Tommy?”
“Mallon?” He scoffed. “He’s an arse, but that’s got nothing to do with his blood. He’s just Mallon.”
“Okay, but Maddie then?”
He hesitated. “Maddie is… different.”
“Why? Because she’s rich?”
“No,” he said, shaking his head. “Because she’s Korean.”
“What does that have to do with anything?”
“It would just be hypocritical."
She frowned. “You’re really not making sense.”
“Do you know what happened during the Second World War? The one where Muggles nearly finished themselves?"
“I mean… yeah, I’ve read about it. Some.”
“And do you know what Muggle Japan did to Korea during that time?”
She shifted uncomfortably. “Not really.”
“They invaded. Massacred. Took their land, their homes. They slaughtered Korean men, raped their women, abducted their children. Not just in Korea. In China, the Philippines, half of Asia, really. Muggle Japan was a bloody nightmare.”
Her mouth parted slightly, unsure where he was going.
“And then when the tides of war started turning, when they were losing, they turned to us... To wizards. To dragon families like mine. They wanted us to fight their war. To ride our dragons and rain down destruction on Korea in their name. And when we said no… they butchered us. Took our dragon eggs. Burned our temples. Killed our elders. That’s why we fled. Why we came to England. Because we refused to kill innocent people for a war that wasn’t ours.”
There was a long silence before she whispered, “So your feelings towards Maddie are…”
“Neutral,” he said. “I don’t hate her, but I can’t bring myself to like her either.”
"But what happened to Japan wasn’t fair either. The bombs America dropped…”
“No. It wasn’t fair at all,” he agreed. “But it only proves my point, Vee. Muggles have power—real, horrifying power—and they always use it for destruction. You know what nuclear weapons did? Killed half a million people. Instantly. Not even our strongest spells come close to that. And the people who died? Most of them were innocent. Many of them were Korean prisoners, ironically. But again, I think that’s the price you pay when you feed the monster. When your society thrives on domination and cruelty, eventually, it turns on you.”
“But then America was just as bad for killing all those people.”
“That’s exactly my point, sweetheart. They’re all like that. Doesn’t matter who’s the hero or villain in the story. Given the chance, any of them becomes the other. If the oppressed Muggle becomes powerful, he becomes the oppressor. That’s the nature of their world.”
"But… couldn’t the same thing be said about wizards?”
He sighed. “Maybe now, yeah. But it wasn’t always like this. Things changed after Grindelwald. He was the one who brought Muggle thinking into wizard politics. Before him, most pureblood families just wanted separation—not genocide.”
“Is that why your family didn’t fight in the war?”
“Yeah, we went back to Japan. The rebels here were going mad. Bombing everything. Houses, towns, places with kids inside. And my family are pacifists. We don't believe in fighting or wars, so it was best to leave.”
Her face fell. "Did you just say... Kids?"
"Yeah, you didn't know?"
She swallowed hard, feeling utterly betrayed. Professor Morales told her everything about the so-called 'Rebels'. About their resistance. Their fight for freedom and justice.
But he seemed to have forgotten that one tiny detail.
“They were killing pureblood children, Vera. That’s when we knew their fight had changed. It wasn’t about justice anymore. It was about revenge. They didn’t want equality—they wanted to erase us. So we left. To protect what we had. Our history. Our bloodline.”
“When did you come back?”
“1985. My dad joined the Ministry not long after.”
“But… why? Your family are noble. I thought you don't need to work.”
“We don’t. But for us, it was never about money or power. It was about helping rebuild. About being part of shaping something better.”
She looked at him, skeptical. “But what about the taxes, the loans, the layoffs? That’s not rebuilding—that’s tearing things down.”
He frowned. “You’ve been reading Hugh Blackwood, huh? He doesn’t understand, Vera. He only sees one piece of the puzzle.”
“Then what’s the full puzzle?”
“That if we give power to the wrong people, if we let just anyone run things, magic will fade. Our world will collapse. We’ll end up like Muggles—burning through civilizations before they even mature.”
She wanted to argue. Wanted to tell him that he was wrong, that power shouldn’t belong to the few. But the words didn’t come. Not because she agreed—but because he believed it so deeply, and she hadn’t done the reading, hadn’t heard the stories like he had.
So she stayed quiet. But not convinced. Not even close.
Minutes passed.
She lay still beside him, the blanket pulled up to her waist, her arm draped across her stomach.
He was already asleep—breathing slow and deep, one hand resting near her shoulder, the other curled loosely over his chest.
She thought he looked younger when he slept, softer somehow, like all the sharp edges he carried with him during the day had melted away.
She turned her head slightly, watching the rise and fall of his chest, the way his lashes fluttered just a bit in his dreams.
But she couldn’t sleep. Not yet.
Her mind was still tangled in everything he had said. Every word felt like a brick in her chest, and she wasn’t sure what to do with it all.
She wanted to understand him. Really, she did. And some of it made a strange kind of sense—twisted, tragic sense—but the rest of it… the rest of it frightened her. The certainty in his voice. The way his pain had turned into belief.
She reached out and gently brushed his hair back from his forehead.
He had spoken like someone who’d memorized it all—every loss, every wound. It wasn’t just history to him. It was blood. It was family. It was temples burned and children slaughtered.
It was personal.
But she still couldn’t agree. Not with all of it. Not with the hate. Especially not that.
They were different. That was becoming clearer by the day. He saw the world as something to protect—by separation. She wasn’t sure what she saw yet, only that it wasn’t that.
But here they were. In the same bed, under the same blanket, carrying different truths.
Her eyelids felt heavy now, the weight of the day slowly dragging her under. She let out a small sigh, not loud enough to wake him, and leaned forward to press a soft kiss to his shoulder.
Maybe, she thought, they don’t have to believe the same things to care about each other.
But even as she thought it, she wasn’t sure it was true.
Still, she stayed.
And eventually, quietly, she let sleep take her too—her hand still resting over his heart.
Notes:
Chapter's song: Never Tear Us Apart - INXS
Author’s Note: PLEASE READ
Before you continue, I want to make something very clear:
I do not agree with many of the views expressed by Ryu in this story. His perspective on muggles, blood purity, and magical heritage is his own as a character, not mine as the writer. The story presents his beliefs not as truths, but as a way to explore where such ideologies come from and how deeply rooted—even logical—they can seem to the person holding them.
Why write this, then? Because I’ve always been unsettled by the simplistic way prejudice is portrayed in mainstream fiction—especially in the world J.K. Rowling created. The idea that hatred is just “born” into people, or that villains are simply evil for evil’s sake, never felt real to me. In reality, hatred is taught. It's nurtured, shaped by history, trauma, culture, and fear. And those who carry it almost always have a reason, or at least a story they tell themselves—a story that, to them, justifies it.
This doesn’t mean we must accept those reasons.
It doesn’t make them right.
But understanding where they come from is vital if we ever hope to dismantle them.Have you ever listened to someone justify racism or classism? They rarely say “I just hate.” Instead, they build a case—emotional, historical, personal—meant to make you empathize with their logic. That’s what I wanted to reflect here: not justification, but explanation. Ryu’s words are meant to be uncomfortable. He is wrong. But he is not a cartoon. He’s a boy raised in a fractured world, clinging to the narratives his family and culture handed him. And Vera? She is the heart of this story. Her journey—through love, disagreement, self-discovery, and resistance—is what truly matters.
So please, don’t let the romance soften the edges of what’s being explored here.
Keep an open mind.
Let yourself be unsettled.
Let yourself question.Because this isn’t just a story about love.
It’s a story about ideology, about legacy, about what we choose to believe—and who we choose to become.Keep reading to see the full picture of Vera and Ryu’s relationship, with all its beauty, its flaws, and the complexity of the world they live in.
And thank you for reading!
Chapter 75: Watch Me Bleed
Chapter Text
Monday, December 2, 1991
“Are you going to eat that crumpet, or just interrogate it with your eyes?”
“I’m trying to butter it evenly. It’s called art. You wouldn’t understand, darling.”
“I understand hunger,” Ryu said, reaching over to steal a corner.
She slapped his hand away. “Thief.”
“Pig.”
“Perv.”
He grinned. “That, I cannot deny.”
She rolled her eyes, hiding a smile behind her cup. But before she could take a bite, a big shadow fell over the table.
“Got somethin’ for yeh, young Vera,” came Hagrid’s familiar rumble.
He reached into his coat—his pockets always seemed to contain everything but the moon—and pulled out a thick envelope. “Came in this mornin’. Special delivery.”
She froze, eyes flicking to Ryu, then back to him. “Oh—thanks, Mr. Hagrid.”
She tried to grab the letter quickly, but he didn’t let go just yet.
“She’s written again, hasn’t she? Reckon you oughta read it soon, she—”
“Yep! Can’t wait." She swiftly cut in, giving a nervous laugh and yanking the letter free. "I’ll, um, read it later. Thanks, really.”
Ryu was watching silently, spoon paused mid-air.
Hagrid blinked, clearly not picking up on the atmosphere. “Right then. Jus’ tell me if yeh need anythin’—y’know where I am.”
He gave her a warm nod, and Ryu a brief polite smile, before trudging off.
She immediately shoved the letter deep into her bag, not meeting Ryu’s eyes.
“Are you ever going to tell me who those letters are from?” he asked.
“Don’t be nosy,” she muttered jokingly.
He didn’t push, but the silence that followed felt heavier than before.
She stared into her teacup, heart pounding. Hagrid always meant well, but one wrong word and the whole thing could come undone.
She thought back to that conversation with Ryu—where he made it perfectly clear where he stood on Muggles. To him, they existed on the periphery of their world, tolerated but irrelevant.
And in that moment, she knew.
She knew she could never tell him the truth—not about St. Mary’s, not about Kaya, and certainly not about the years she’d spent with one foot outside the wizarding world. The line between them had revealed itself, quiet and sharp. And she wasn’t ready to see what would happen if she tried to cross it.
So she didn’t say anything. Just kept staring at her cup, the warmth of the tea doing nothing to steady her hands.
Ryu leaned back slightly, his expression softening. “It’s okay,” he said quietly. “You don’t have to tell me. Not yet. Just… when you’re ready.”
She glanced at him. He wasn’t angry. He wasn’t pushing. But she could see the hurt in the way he avoided her eyes for half a second too long, in the slight tightening of his jaw.
And that only made her feel worse.
She nodded, offering a small smile. "Thank you, love."
But then, the mood shifted.
The doors of the Great Hall creaked open—and in walked the Poshlanders.
Cassius with his perfect posture and effortless arrogance, Miles and Adrian laughing too loudly at some inside joke, and trailing behind them, Eudora and Jane, whispering with sharp smiles that never reached their eyes.
Vera felt Ryu tense beside her.
He dropped his fork with a soft clink and stiffened his shoulders. His jaw clenched so subtly only someone watching him closely would notice.
She leaned in, her voice low. “Have you talked to them? Since… y’know. That whole mess?”
"They’ve tried. Letters, cornering me in the corridors, pretending they just want to ‘chat.’ But no. I’m keeping my word. I’m not going to be their friend again. Not until they learn to respect you.”
Her chest warmed, and a small smile curled at her lips, soft and proud.
“They’re still your friends, though.” She said gently. “That’s why they’re trying. Maybe they’re not getting it right, but… they’re trying.”
“They’re doing it out of fear, Vera. Not remorse. Not because they’ve changed. Just because they’re scared I’ll cut them off for good. That’s not friendship. That’s damage control.”
“Fear?” she asked, lowering her voice. “Of what?”
“My father,” he said simply. “He pays their fathers’ salaries. Or signs off on the ones who do. It’s complicated, Ministry politics always are, but the point is—if things between me and them break down… it could ripple.”
“So… they’re nice to you now because they’re scared you’ll cost their families money?”
“Not nice. Just careful. They’re calculating. That’s how they were raised. It's in their bones.”
There was something oddly hollow about the way he said it. Like it wasn’t just an observation—it was something he knew. Something he’d lived.
“That’s… gross,” she muttered.
He gave a small, humorless laugh. “It’s not unusual, though. That’s their nature. They don’t do anything unless it benefits them somehow."
He glanced toward the Slytherin table. Cassius was laughing at something one of the others said, his eyes flicking over toward him—just for a second.
“They act like they’re untouchable,” he went on, “but they’re not. Their whole world is built on glass, unlike ours. That’s why they’re so scared all the time. Because they know—deep down—that all it would take is one good crack. We don’t have anything to lose. We fight for what matters. They fight for what keeps them comfortable.”
He shifted in his seat, glancing at the Poshlanders again with something between disgust and pity.
“You once called them pretenders, and that’s precisely what they are. They talk about nature and purity like it’s theirs. Like they earned it. But the truth is—they’re empty. We’re one with nature because we live by it, with it. They only mimic what they think that looks like. But they’ve always been a burden to it.”
Vera’s brow furrowed. “What do you mean?”
His gaze flicked over to Jane, who was smiling delicately at Miles, her movements practiced, perfect, molded.
“Take Jane,” he replied. “Her family’s been peddling this myth for years—that they’re some long-standing pureblood line, descended from some druidic nonsense. But the fact that her twin brother’s a squib completely shatters that lie. And now they’re doubling down, trying to convince everyone they’ve got ‘ancient blood.’ You know that whole thing with their foxes?”
“Yeah, I remember something about it…”
“Apparently her family bonded with foxes for generations. Only… it’s another lie. They raise the cubs from birth in cages, condition them, and train them to follow and pose. Just to make it look like they’re magically connected. It’s pathetic, really. They can’t bond with anything. Not nature, not their creatures, not each other. They just imitate. Long enough to keep their place in the Ministry, to keep their power. Without that, they’re nothing. And they know it.”
“And you used to be one of them,” she said quietly.
His jaw tightened. “They’ve used me, Vera. They always have. I was a pawn to them, just another name they could throw around to make themselves look better. I wasn’t one of them, but they were always trying to make me fit, to mold me into someone they could parade around as proof of their ‘superiority.’”
He looked at her finally, his gaze filled with something both distant and protective. “You know they tried to do the same with you, right? They figured you'd play their game, fit into their little world. But then they realized you weren’t like them. You’re different.”
She bit her lip.
“They were scared of you, Vera. From the very beginning. But then they figured out you weren’t going to run off to your aunt with every whisper. And that’s when the real cruelty started. But the truth is, they’re still scared. And that’s why they’ve been trying to talk to me again.”
“What about Warrington, though? He’s half a Malfoy, not a pretender. He’s not scared of losing anything, is he?”
"Some things... you don't have to fear losing. It's the things you're hiding that really tear you apart. Cassius is no different.”
“What do you mean?”
“He isn’t scared of losing anything… but he is scared of something. He has things he doesn’t want anyone to know. Things he’s terrified will get out.”
She nodded slowly, the unspoken words hanging between them like a dark cloud. She wasn’t sure exactly what Cassius was hiding, but she knew that whatever it was, it was something that gnawed at him—something that kept him in check, kept him playing the game.
And she hated how much she understood that feeling.
Defense Against the Dark Arts was already ten minutes in and still no sign of Professor Quirrel. Half the class had slumped into boredom; the other half was gambling on how long he'd be this time.
Vera sat beside Ryu, absently twirling her quill. “Think he got cursed on the way here?”
“More likely tripped over his own cloak,” Ryu whispered back. “Tragic hero stuff.”
Under the desk, his fingers brushed against hers. She didn’t move, so he poked her thigh.
“Dangerous,” she mouthed, not looking at him.
Suddenly, the door to the classroom creaked open, and the usual murmur of chatter died away as Professor Snape glided into the room, his dark eyes scanning them with that trademark scowl.
“Quiet,” he commanded, and the room fell still, every student straightening instinctively.
He moved to the front with deliberate, almost theatrical steps, as if even the air knew better than to get in his way. “Professor Quirrell is… unwell today,” he said, his voice dripping with contempt. “So, I’ll be taking over the lesson.”
Adrian raised his hand. “What kind of lesson are we studying today, sir?”
Snape’s lips curled into a thin, predatory smile. “Defensive strategies against Boggarts.”
The reaction was immediate.
Fred leaned across the aisle to George. “Quirrell must’ve run into his own boggart and passed out.”
George snorted. “Bet it was a mirror.”
Malika sighed sympatheticly. “Poor Professor Quirrell. We should get him something after class.”
“A spine?” Patty offered. “Or maybe a ‘Bravery for Beginners’ handbook.”
Cedric and Tommy grinned and high-fived, clearly thrilled by the prospect of a practical lesson.
Miles turned to Adrian and Cassius, giggling. "Quirrel is too much of a coward to give the lesson himself."
“Obviously,” Cassius drawled. “He’s only been dodging it since September.”
Snape raised a hand. “Enough.”
The smiles vanished.
“I expect all of you to behave with the utmost discipline,” he said sharply. “No, you will not be laughing at your deepest fears. No, you will not be playing around. You will focus, and you will learn.”
A pause followed—long enough to stretch across the room like fog—before his voice dropped lower.
“The boggart may not be the most dangerous creature you’ll face, but it will show you exactly what you are most afraid of. And that by itself, can be deadly.”
Vera’s stomach turned. She hadn’t thought about it much. Not since last year. But as soon as he said the word boggart, it came rushing back—Professor Morales’ class, the way the world seemed to tilt when her biggest fear revealed itself to her.
The Humphreys.
The name alone made her chest tighten. She remembered the way her knees had buckled, the cold sweat on her neck. She had never told anyone about it. Not even Ryu.
And now she might have to face it again. In front of everyone.
Snape gave them instructions to gather at the back of the classroom, where a worn wardrobe stood, its door rattling faintly.
Her heart began to pound, and her hand reached for Ryu’s, only to find his fingers waiting, warm and steady.
He looked at her, eyes searching, then softly leaned in. “It’s all gonna be okay, princess.”
She smiled faintly, squeezing his hand for reassurance as Snape commenced the lesson.
Malika was called up first.
Of course she was. Snape, with his uncanny ability to sniff out weakness, had probably known she was the most terrified student in the room—and had chosen her deliberately, like a lion picking off the slowest in the herd.
She stepped forward on trembling legs, her wand gripped tightly in both hands. Her breath hitched as she faced the wardrobe, which creaked open with a low, sinister groan.
The boggart emerged and began to shift, its form flickering like smoke—then solidifying.
And before she knew it, a mass of writhing, crawling insects burst forward, a swarm so dense and loud it seemed to hum with menace.
Malika shrieked, stumbling back, her face twisted in pure horror. But she raised her wand anyway.
“R-Riddikulus!” she cried, her voice cracking.
With a sudden pop, the swarm vanished, replaced by a harmless pile of popcorn, fresh and still.
There was a long silence—then a few murmured gasps of relief, even admiration.
Malika exhaled sharply, eyes wide and damp, then quickly retreated to the back of the group.
Snape gave the smallest nod. “Acceptable,” he said, as if that was the highest praise imaginable.
Then his eyes turned to the next student.
Fred stepped up with his usual swagger.
The boggart emerged with a whoosh, reshaping itself into—of all things—a dull, lifeless office cubicle. Beige walls. Flickering overhead lights. A teetering stack of parchment forms marked “URGENT” and “FILE IMMEDIATELY.”
Fred squinted at it, unimpressed. “Honestly, this isn’t even that bad."
A few students snickered.
“Riddikulus!"
The cubicle exploded into a shower of bright confetti, floating down in all directions. Laughter rippled across the room as Fred gave a little bow and returned to his place with a grin.
George stepped forward next, cracking his knuckles as he passed him.
The boggart twisted again, this time into something far more personal—his own twin.
Fred was plummeting off a broomstick, limbs flailing, his scream sharp and terrified.
George’s smile faltered for a moment, and his wand twitched.
“Riddikulus,” he muttered.
Instantly, Fred was upright again, soaring smoothly through the air, beaming and tossing sweets to an imaginary crowd. The class burst into fresh laughter, relieved by the transformation.
George returned to his place beside his brother, giving him a mock glare. “Thanks for haunting my subconscious, mate.”
Fred grinned. “You love me.”
Vera was already tense when Snape called the next name.
Ryu.
She watched him closely, her hand still warm from where his had been. He looked steady on the outside, but she knew him well enough now to see the flicker in his eyes.
The wardrobe creaked open, and the boggart emerged slowly, shifting, twisting—then solidifying into a slightly smaller version of Shingin, his massive dragon.
"Merlin's beard..." Cedric breathed, unable to hide his awe, and the others nodded in agreement, their eyes wide with admiration.
Shingin was beautiful. Regal. But something was wrong.
She lay collapsed, her body curled in agony, breath coming in shallow gasps. Her scales trembled, and her dark blue eyes were dull with pain.
Ryu tensed in place. His wand lifted, but his hand was shaking.
“Riddikulus!” he said, sharply—but Shingin only let out a low, pained whimper.
Vera stepped forward instinctively, just close enough that he could hear her.
“It’s okay, Ryu,” she said softly. "You've got this."
His eyes flicked to her, and something in them steadied.
He took a deep breath. “Riddikulus!"
This time, the spell landed. The massive dragon shimmered and shrank, shrinking down into a tiny stuffed version of herself, soft and plush, wearing a ridiculous little bow tie.
A few chuckles rippled through the class, and Ryu gave a faint smile, but it didn’t quite reach his eyes. The moment had scraped deeper than anyone else realized.
As he turned to sit back down, Vera was already waiting. She reached out, squeezing his shoulder gently.
“It’s just a boggart,” she said. “It’s not real. You know that.”
“I know,” he murmured. “But… it still felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest.”
She didn’t answer. She couldn’t. Her mind was already drifting to the wardrobe, to what it might become when her name was called.
And she wasn’t sure if she could handle it.
Sarah was next.
She stepped forward with more confidence than most, twirling her wand like she was preparing for a performance.
The boggart emerged—and then twisted into something completely unexpected.
A boy.
Not a monster. Not a snake. Just a lanky, nervous looking teenager, with sweaty palms and a terrible haircut, stumbling forward with puckered lips and a bouquet of wilted daisies.
“Hi, Sarah,” he mumbled, voice cracking. “I… I really like you.”
The class went dead silent for half a second—then exploded into laughter.
Sarah stood frozen, eyes wide in horror as the boy leaned in for an awkward, slow-motion kiss.
“Oh, absolutely not,” she said, regaining her senses. “Riddikulus!”
With a flash, the boy tripped over his own feet and face-planted into the floor—only to burst into a splattering heap of mud, the daisies landing on top like a funeral arrangement.
More laughter followed, and even Snape looked vaguely amused.
Sarah flicked her hair back, smirking despite the blush creeping into her cheeks, then strutted back to her seat like she’d just won a duel.
Tommy stepped forward, his face set in that familiar, focused frown he wore when things really mattered.
The boggart creaked out of the wardrobe, twisting and reforming until it became a large, metal device—wires exposed, red numbers ticking down. The sound of the countdown echoed through the room, sharp and unforgiving.
A hush fell over the class.
Alicia gave him a quiet, encouraging nod from her place in line, and Cedric pumped a fist.
“You’ve got this, mate!”
Tommy didn’t smile. His jaw clenched, eyes fixed on the bomb like it was something he’d seen before.
He raised his wand slowly. “Riddikulus.”
There was a moment’s hesitation—then poof.
The bomb vanished in a puff of white smoke that smelled faintly of sugar and burnt toast.
Laughter broke out, and few students clapped.
Tommy smiled, then let out a long, shaky breath as he stepped back.
But Vera caught the tightness in his shoulders. The way he didn’t look back at the smoke.
Not everything a boggart shows is exaggerated, she thought. Some fears are real.
Next was Miles.
He hesitated before stepping forward, his usual swagger noticeably absent. For once, he looked small—unsure.
The boggart shifted, and when it settled, the room went completely silent.
It was a woman.
She lay motionless in a bed, her face tired and thin, her breathing faint.
Miles’s wand dropped an inch, and his eyes filled with tears.
“…Mum,” he whispered.
Vera’s breath caught. She hadn’t known. Not about this. Not about her.
The class didn’t laugh, and even Fred and George went still.
Snape’s voice broke the silence, unusually soft. “Focus, Mr. Bletchley. Happy thoughts. Only happy ones.”
Miles wiped his eyes quickly, jaw trembling as he took a deep breath.
Then, softly—“Riddikulus.”
The boggart flickered, and the bed vanished. In its place stood the same woman, smiling now, standing strong in a cozy kitchen. She was holding a plate of burnt biscuits and laughing as if nothing in the world had ever gone wrong.
A few students smiled, and Jane wiped a tear from her cheek as Miles stumbled back, pulling her into a tight hug.
Vera watched them, and her heart ached—really ached.
For all the anger, all the bullying, and all the mess between them… he was still just a boy trying not to lose his mum.
And she understood that feeling more than anyone.
Her turn was coming, and the weight of it settled like lead in her chest. She barely noticed the students around her anymore—the classroom had quieted into a blur of shadows and breath.
But then, out of the corner of her eye, she caught movement.
Cassius.
He was slipping out of the classroom, quiet as a whisper, the door clicking softly behind him. He hadn’t said a word. Just vanished like mist.
There was something off about him—always had been. A silence that clung to him in certain moments, like he was carrying something too heavy to name. And now she saw it clearly:
He wasn’t avoiding the boggart. He was avoiding what it would show.
It made her think of herself last year, when she would’ve done anything to avoid the truth clawing its way to the surface. Maybe Cassius was trying to do the same.
And maybe, in some quiet, terrible way, she understood.
It was finally her turn.
She stepped forward, every nerve in her body pulled tight like a wire. She wasn’t scared of the boggart—not really. She had faced it before, had seen the worst it could show her.
What terrified her now was everyone else. The eyes watching. The questions that would follow.
She was already rehearsing explanations in her head—how she’d tell Ryu who the Humphreys were, how to make it sound like it wasn’t a big deal.
But when the boggart shifted, she stiffened in place.
It didn’t become the Humphreys, or her mother’s grave, or a murder of crows, or even Ryu walking away.
It didn't become anything she thought of as her biggest fear.
No. The boggart became her.
The figure across from her was her. Identical in every way. Same stance, same hair, same face, same eyes, same nervous grip on the wand, same flicker of hesitation in the eyes.
She stepped forward, her breath shallow, her wand trembling slightly in her hand.
But the boggart stepped forward too.
A gasp rippled through the classroom, and whispers surged behind her like a tide, confused and unnerved.
Even Snape looked startled—his eyes narrowing, arms folding in front of his chest with measured unease.
There was a flicker of movement beside her—someone whispering her name, maybe Ryu, maybe not—but the sound barely registered.
She raised her hand slowly, uncertainly.
The boggart did the same.
She tilted her head.
So did it.
She tilted her head again.
So. Did. It.
The class fell into an eerie silence, breath held, as Vera stared into her own eyes—searching. Trying to understand.
But then the boggart smiled.
And it wasn’t her smile.
It was something twisted—lips pulling too wide, eyes darkening until they looked haunted.
Then, without warning, it began to cough.
Once. Twice. Then violently—its whole body convulsing with a sound that scraped at her bones.
Thick, black blood splattered from its mouth, staining the front of its shirt. It dripped down its chin like ink, viscous and endless.
Vera couldn’t breathe. Couldn’t blink. Couldn’t fucking move.
She had no idea what this meant—why it felt like the boggart was peeling something open inside her, something raw and hidden and ancient that she hadn’t even known was there.
And then she heard it.
Drip.
Confused, she paused and looked down, only to find dark red droplets speckling the floor at her feet.
Her shirt—her real one—was stained. Small spots of blood dotted the fabric, spreading slowly.
She raised a sleeve and wiped beneath her nose, and when she looked down at it, her stomach turned.
Her nose was bleeding.
Panic struck her like lightning. Her breath caught. Her hands trembled. And then the boggart began to cough again. But this time, it wasn’t blood.
Black feathers spilled from its mouth in jagged bursts—feathers that fell to the floor like curses, like something torn from the heart of a nightmare.
That’s when Snape moved.
He stepped in front of her with a sharp flick of his robes, his wand already raised, his voice slicing through the tension like a blade.
“Step aside, Black.”
But Vera didn’t move. She couldn’t. Her limbs were locked, her eyes wide.
Snape turned just slightly, his voice softer now. “Go.”
That word shattered the fog around her. She stumbled back a step, dazed and pale.
As the last wisps of dark smoke curled away, the boggart twisted—still active, still shifting.
The class held their breath as it turned, its shape warping with a sickening crackle of magic.
Within seconds, a new figure emerged, and this time, it was not Vera's biggest fear.
It was Snape's.
A woman lay motionless on the cold, classroom floor, her green eyes glassy and open. Her red hair fanned around her head like a flame extinguished.
Vera blinked, confused. For a moment, she didn’t understand.
But Snape did.
His entire body went rigid, a flicker of something unspoken flashing through his usually unreadable face.
Pain.
Real, sharp, unguarded pain.
Then, almost too fast to follow, he flicked his wand.
“Riddikulus.”
The corpse on the floor vanished in a burst of light, replaced instantly by a delicate pile of lilies—white, soft and quietly blooming where the woman’s body had been.
There was a strange stillness in the air, heavier than before.
Vera glanced at him, searching his face, but he had already turned away. Whatever that moment was—whatever that woman meant—he locked it behind his eyes like a vault door slamming shut.
“Class dismissed,” he said coolly, as though nothing had happened.
The students scattered in clusters across the courtyard, still buzzing about the lesson.
Vera sat on the stone bench with Ryu beside her, his arm curled around her as she pressed a crumpled napkin to her nose. The blood had mostly stopped, but the shock remained.
She hadn't spoken a word since leaving the classroom. Her eyes were distant, her body stiff, and though Ryu murmured quiet reassurances, she didn’t seem to hear them.
Around them, other students talked over each other, swapping stories of what their boggarts had been and laughing at the funnier ones. But every few minutes, someone would glance over at her.
She could feel it. The weight of their stares. The unspoken questions.
Her gaze drifted across the courtyard and landed on Miles, who sat a little apart from the rest, slumped against the stone wall.
Adrian and Eudora were next to him, cracking jokes about Fred’s office-themed nightmare, but he didn’t join in. He just stared down at the ground, eyes glazed.
Vera turned to Ryu beside her. “His mum…” she said softly. “Is she—?”
“Yeah." Ryu nodded, looking over at him. "She’s been sick for a while. It’s not getting better.”
Her heart squeezed. For a long time, she hadn’t wanted to feel anything for Miles—after everything that had happened between them. But in that moment, she did, and without hesitating, stood up.
Ryu blinked. “Vera—?”
She didn’t answer, just walked across the courtyard, over the grass and stone, towards the Poshlanders.
Adrian stopped mid-sentence, eyebrows raising. Eudora went quiet. Even Jane, sitting beside Miles, looked up in surprise.
“Hey.”
Miles looked up, confused, his red-rimmed eyes meeting hers.
“…Hey,” he replied, slowly.
“Are you okay?” she asked.
He stared at her for a moment, and something shifted in his eyes. As if he knew exactly what she meant. Not just are you okay now, but are you surviving this too?
He gave a faint, tired smile. “Yeah. And you?”
She nodded. “Yeah.”
And they stood there for a long moment, saying nothing more.
But somehow, that silence said everything.
Suddenly, Cassius appeared out of nowhere, his usual smirk plastered across his face.
"Well, well," he drawled, his voice dripping with mockery as he saw her still holding the napkin to her nose. "Didn’t think I’d see you so fragile, Black. Thought Gryffindors were supposed to be all bravery and glory."
Vera didn’t respond, keeping her gaze fixed on the ground, willing him to go away.
But he didn’t.
“You know, I always wondered what kind of fear could make a Black bleed like that. Guess it’s not so much fear as weakness, huh?”
Ryu was about to step up, his face hardening, but Cassius kept going, his cruel voice cutting through the silence.
"And your boggart," he continued, mocking a dramatic gasp, "your own face? How fitting. Can't imagine why that would scare you. Don’t you just love yourself a little too much, Black?"
"Would you just shut the fuck up?” Ryu finally snapped.
Cassius ignored him, clearly enjoying the moment. “What’s the matter, Black? Too scared to even fight back? Was hoping for some Gryffindor bravado, but all I see is a little girl too scared of her own reflection.”
"And what about you, huh?" She finally broke the silence.
"What about me?"
“If you're such a brave serpent, why’d you leave the classroom?”
Cassius's eyes narrowed. “What?”
“You heard me,” she said, louder now. “You slipped out before it was your turn. What happened, Warrington? Too scared to face your boggart?”
He scoffed. “I didn’t leave. I had to go to the lavatory.”
She took a step toward him, her voice lower but far more cutting. “No, you didn’t. I saw you. You waited until no one was watching and ran.”
“Watch yourself, Black.”
“You’re just scared everyone would see it, aren't you?"
His jaw clenched. "See what?"
"That your biggest fear is nothing more than..."
His face twisted—not with fear, but rage. His eyes were burning now, and his hands curled into fists. And in that split second, she knew he understood exactly what she meant.
“You don’t know anything about me,” he cut in before she could continue.
“Oh, but I do,” she whispered, leaning in just enough. “Or did you forgot I can read you like a newspaper... Mr. Warrington?”
And just like that—he shoved her.
Hard.
She stumbled back a step, barely catching herself, gasping slightly as the force hit her.
The courtyard was dead silent.
Ryu was already between them, grabbing him by the collar. “Are you fucking mad?!"
Cassius didn’t even look at him. He just kept staring at Vera with an expression she couldn’t quite place. Hatred, yes. But also something deeper.
Ryu stood nose to nose with him, eyes blazing. “You've crossed a fucking line,” he said, voice shaking with fury.
“Well, your bitch crossed it first.”
Vera barely had time to gasp before Ryu moved.
A sharp crack split the air—his fist colliding with Cassius’s jaw so hard it twisted his head sideways and dropped him to the floor like a sack of bones.
Before Cassius could react, Ryu was on him again—another punch, then another, fists thudding with sick, meaty impact.
Cassius flailed, trying to crawl backward, but Ryu moved like a machine possessed. He reached for his wand in a panic, but Ryu didn’t even blink as he stomped down on his hand with brutal precision.
The crowd had gathered, frozen in horrified silence. No one stepped in. No one dared.
Vera stood there, shaking, eyes wide, breath shallow.
She’d seen Ryu angry before, but this—this was something else. He wasn’t holding back. He wasn’t pulling punches like he had with Cedric a few months ago. There was no calculation in this. No control.
Cassius then managed to lift his arm and land a wild punch across Ryu’s face.
Vera felt it like a lightning bolt through her core. A sharp, stabbing pain bloomed in her stomach, doubling her over. She let out a strangled gasp, one hand clutching at her side. It felt like something inside her had twisted and torn. Her vision swam, the world around her blurring—but she couldn’t look away.
Ryu froze for just a moment, staggered by the hit. He felt the blood, the swollen eye, the split lip—and something inside him snapped.
Cassius was looking up now, his expression dazed, lips parting like he might apologize. But Ryu didn’t give him the chance.
What came next wasn’t rage. It was something colder. Worse.
His face blanked. His eyes emptied. Then his fists came down like hammers—again and again and again—until Cassius stopped moving, stopped resisting.
Still, Ryu didn’t stop.
“MOVE!” someone screamed.
Miles and Adrian shoved through the ring of stunned students, but it took both of them to drag him off, their feet skidding against the blood-slick floor.
“Enough!” Adrian barked, straining to hold him. “You’ll kill him!”
Ryu jerked free, chest heaving, blood smeared across his mouth, his knuckles raw and dripping.
Without a word, he grabbed his bag, then reached for Vera, wrapping his hand around her wrist.
And though her legs shook beneath her, though the pain still burned in her belly like a blade, she didn’t pull away.
He dragged her down the corridor, his grip tight, steps quick and uneven. His breath came in ragged bursts, curses spilling from his lips like venom.
“Ryu,” she murmured, struggling to keep up. “Stop.”
“Arrogant little shit—should’ve shattered his—bloody bastard—”
“Ryu, please!”
He didn’t hear her. Or wouldn’t.
“JUST STOP!”
He halted abruptly and turned to face her.
His face was flushed, eyes wild, lip split and bloody.
Her own nose had stopped bleeding, but streaks of it dried on her cheeks like war paint.
For a breathless moment, they stared at each other—two wrecked kids pretending they were still whole.
“Are you okay?” he asked, voice hoarse. “Did he hurt you?”
She shook her head, eyes unfocused, staring through him. But just then, her shoulders sagged, and her eyes fluttered shut.
Panic crept into him. “Vera, look at me—hey—look at me!”
She didn’t.
He grabbed her shoulders, shaking her. “Say something! Please!”
Her eyes found his at last. But then—without a word—
She collapsed.
Right into his arms.
Notes:
Chapter's song: Watch Me Bleed - Tears for Fears
I would LOVE to hear your thoughts and theories about what each boggart meant. Don't be shy to drop a comment!
Chapter 76: Hand In Glove
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Monday, December 2, 1991
Vera stirred slowly, her head throbbing faintly as the sounds around her came back in soft, muted waves. She felt the cool stone of the corridor beneath her—but warmer than it should’ve been. That’s when she realized she was cradled in Ryu's arms.
His grip was tight but gentle, as if he was terrified she’d disappear. His face hovered close to hers, pale and frantic, eyes darting over her features like he was memorizing them.
She blinked, groggy but aware enough to mumble. “If I had a sickle…”
He leaned in fast. “What? What is it, darling?”
She blinked again. “If I had a sickle for every time I faint after seeing you take a punch… I’d have two.”
Ryu stared.
Then his face broke into the loudest, most relieved laugh she’d ever heard from him.
“Merlin’s bloody beard, Vee!" He wheezed. "I thought you died, and you’re cracking jokes?”
“Gotta be consistent,” she murmured, eyes fluttering shut again. “Now calm down, Dracula. I've probably just bled too much. But I’m fine.”
“No, you're not,” he snapped, rummaging in his bag and pulling out a bar of chocolate. “Eat. You’re not dying on my watch.”
She let the chocolate melt on her tongue, the sweetness cutting through the metallic taste of blood still lingering at the back of her throat.
Her hand then moved before she could think, trembling slightly as it rose to his face. She brushed her fingers along his cheekbone, then his jaw, and finally, gently, over his split lip.
“Are you okay?” she whispered.
“Yeah,” he said quickly. “It’s nothing.”
She frowned, her thumb tracing the edge of the bruise blossoming on his cheek. “Doesn’t look like nothing.”
“I'm not the one who bled all over the floor,” he muttered, trying for a smile, but it faltered under the weight of worry still etched in his face. "But seriously, I'm fine, darling."
Her gaze dropped to his mouth, then flicked back to his eyes. “Then kiss me.”
He blinked, stunned for a moment, then leaned in.
His lips met hers softly at first, careful not to press too hard. She felt the sting of his split lip against hers, tasted a trace of iron, but neither of them pulled away.
“Alright, off to the hospital wing.” He said after a moment, already shifting to stand, trying to lift her.
“No, it’s fine,” she whispered, her fingers curling into his sleeve to stop him. "I’m not letting Madam Pomfrey scold me for something I couldn't control."
Truthfully, she just didn't want to run into Felix after an already disastrous day.
“You literally passed out, Vera.”
“And now I’ve passed back in. Problem solved.”
She stood up slowly, brushing off her skirt, wobbling just a little before steadying herself. Ryu was already watching her closely, scanning her face like he was reading a map for danger signs.
But then—a sharp, sudden pain knifed through her lower stomach, so precise it made her gasp quietly and wince.
His eyes immediately panicked. “Are you okay?”
She froze for half a second, her face turning pink. Her eyes widened slightly, and she looked down at her skirt, mortified as realization sank in.
Bloody perfect timing—literally.
“What is it, love?” he asked, stepping closer.
“I’m fine,” she said a little too quickly. “I just… I need to go to the lavatory.”
“Alright. I’ll wait here.”
She darted off toward the nearest bathroom, clutching her bag like a lifeline. Inside, she locked the door and exhaled a long breath. Her period had started. Just to add to the horror of the day.
Thankfully, she kept supplies in her bag—one small mercy. She sorted herself out quickly, moving on autopilot, her fingers fast and practiced. Then she splashed water on her face, watching the blood streak down the drain.
Once she looked vaguely human again, she took one last breath, squared her shoulders, and headed out.
Ryu was still standing right where she’d left him, eyes scanning the corridor like a knight on guard duty. When he spotted her, his shoulders relaxed.
“Feel better?” he asked.
She gave him a sheepish smile. “You have no idea.”
She pulled a napkin from her pocket—crumpled, a bit wet—and reached up toward his face. He blinked in surprise as she dabbed gently at the smudge of dried blood across his lip.
“Hold still,” she muttered softly.
“This is too funny,” he said with a lopsided smirk.
“And quite romantic,” she replied, still wiping. “We're like a pair of sexy vampires after a long night in New Orleans.”
When she was done, he caught her wrist lightly. “Vee, seriously. Let’s go to the hospital wing. You fainted. There was blood everywhere. You probably need half a pint of chocolate and a new circulatory system.”
She shook her head stubbornly. “I’m really okay. It’s not that bad. I’ve had worse days.”
He raised an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced. “You need a shower, at least. There’s blood in your hair.”
She made a face, touching her hair as if just realizing it. "Yeah, and it's starting to smell."
"Come on then, let's get you to your dorm."
They walked quietly for a while, the castle around them eerily calm. But just as they were nearing Gryffindor Tower, Vera suddenly stopped.
He turned immediately. “What’s wrong?”
Her lips trembled before she even spoke, and then the tears came. Hot and quiet at first, then rolling freely.
“I’m too scared,” she whispered. “I’m really scared, Ryu.”
He stepped toward her, arms half-raised, unsure if she wanted to be touched. But she kept talking, her voice shaky and raw.
“Why was it me?” she said. “Why was my boggart me? Why was I bleeding? Why did it smile like that? And the feathers... they were Black, Ryu. Black! Just like—"
"Oh, Vera..."
"I don’t understand. I don’t know what it means. And I just… I don’t want to be alone.”
Ryu didn’t hesitate after that. He stepped forward and wrapped his arms tightly around her.
“Then you won’t be,” he said. “Come to my dorm. We’ll figure it out. Or we won’t. But you won’t be alone.”
She nodded against his shoulder, the tears soaking into his shirt. And for the first time that day, the trembling in her hands started to ease.
They reached his dorm after an exhausting trip. The room was dim, warm, and quiet—too quiet.
Ryu shut the wardrobe door behind them. “Shower’s through there,” he said, nodding to the bathroom. “Take your time. If you need anything—soap, towel, entire limb replaced—just yell.”
She gave him a tired smile. “You’re dangerously close to being too nice. I might get used to it.”
He chuckled and stepped back, settling onto the edge of his bed. “Go on, then. I’ll be here. Guarding the door, heroically.”
She gave him a mock salute, then disappeared into the bathroom, shutting the door behind her. The moment she was alone, it hit her again—just how surreal it all was.
Ryu—her Ryu—was sitting just a few feet away, probably still splattered with her blood and nursing a few bruises from going full duelist on Cassius for calling her a bitch.
And yet, somehow, the most bewildering part of the day wasn’t the fight, the boggart, or even the bloodshed. No, it was the absurd fact that she was now stark naked, standing under a showerhead in his dorm, with nothing but a thin wooden door separating her bare skin from the boy who had just punched someone for her honor.
Honestly, the entire situation had the energy of a fever dream written by someone who’d never experienced healthy boundaries.
She turned the water on and stepped under the stream, trying to focus, to ground herself. She watched the dark streaks of blood swirl and vanish down the drain. Closing her eyes, she let the water pour over her face until the dizziness passed.
Once she was done, she used her wand to clean and dry her clothes. It wasn’t perfect—her shirt still had a faint blotch at the collar—but it was better than nothing. She slipped them back on and stared at the mirror for a moment.
Then she opened the door.
And froze.
Ryu looked up immediately, his eyes warm but alert. He had changed into clean clothes, and was waiting for her on his bed. She hesitated in the doorway, suddenly feeling too shy, too exposed—even though she was fully dressed. Her hair was damp, her face clean, and yet she felt more vulnerable than ever.
“Hey,” he said gently, patting the space next to him on the bed. “Still alive?”
She nodded, but didn’t move.
He grinned, patting the spot again. “I promise I don’t bite. Not unless you insult my hair.”
That got a tiny laugh out of her. She stepped forward slowly, heart fluttering as she crossed the room.
She dug through her bag as she walked, fingers brushing past chocolate wrappers and the crumpled letter from Kaya before finally finding her hairbrush.
“Can I do it?”
She blinked. “Do what?”
“Brush your hair.”
She stared at him, surprised, unsure if he was joking. But his expression was soft, sincere—curious in that ridiculous, charming way he always was when he wanted to learn something new, even if it was completely unnecessary.
“You want to… brush my hair?”
“I mean, if it’s not a sacred ritual or something.”
She huffed a little laugh and handed him the brush. “Be gentle, or I’ll cut your hands off.”
“No pressure,” he said, sitting behind her and taking the brush with exaggerated care. “Now… let’s see what we’re dealing with.”
His touch was gentle, careful, like he thought she might break if he tugged too hard. It was surprisingly soothing. The rhythmic strokes, the warmth of his presence, the occasional awkward untangling—it all felt strangely intimate.
“You know,” he said thoughtfully, “I expected more birds to fly out of this.”
“Shut up.”
“Maybe a gnome or two. A full colony of Nargles—honestly, I’m a little disappointed.”
She laughed, a small, real sound that cut through the heaviness she’d been carrying all day.
Then, more gently. “It’s okay, you know.”
She frowned. “What is?”
“Not understanding your fear,” he said, still brushing slowly. “Sometimes it’s not something loud or obvious. Sometimes it’s just… buried. Sneaky. Waiting for the worst moment to show its face.”
She didn’t answer right away. Just leaned into his touch a little, her eyes closing for a moment.
“I think I’m scared of myself,” she whispered eventually. “And I don’t even know why.”
“You don’t have to. Not today.”
And for now… that was enough.
He finished brushing her hair, pausing when he realized it was already dry—some subtle magic in the bristles, no doubt. He ran his fingers through it, slower this time, almost absentmindedly, like he wasn’t quite ready to stop touching her. It was softer than he expected, and it fell neatly back into place with every stroke.
He leaned in slightly, catching a whiff of the soap she’d used—his soap, technically—and a crooked grin tugged at his lips.
“Well, would you look at that,” he murmured. “You smell like me now. Should probably warn people before they get the wrong idea.”
"Too late for warnings." she said, flopping onto his bed without ceremony.
He followed, less dramatically, stretching out beside her until she shifted, curled into his side, and rested her head on his chest.
His arm slipped around her shoulders, drawing her closer, and his fingers found their way back into her hair, twirling the ends lazily between them.
For a while, neither of them spoke. The room was quiet except for the soft rhythm of his breathing and the occasional slow drag of his fingertips against her scalp. Every now and then, she felt him trace a circle near her temple, as if mapping out thoughts he wasn’t quite ready to say out loud.
"Hey, Vee," he suddenly said. "Can I ask you something?"
She glanced up. “Sure.”
“How do you shower?”
“What kind of pervy question is that?”
“No—no, not like that!” he said quickly. “I meant—because of your gloves. Do you keep them on? And if you do, like, don’t they get gross? How do you even wash your hands?”
She rolled her eyes. “I just do, you git.”
“But doesn’t it hurt?”
“What are you on about now?”
“You told me once—back in Potions—that water hurts your hands. Remember? I was cleaning that stupid flask because you said it would hurt if you did it.”
Her chest tightened like a trap had snapped shut inside her. “Oh.”
He narrowed his eyes, slowly putting the pieces together. “Wait… was that even true?”
She shrugged, suddenly too warm under her clothes. “Maybe.”
Ryu stared at her like she’d just confessed to a war crime. “You lied?”
"Um, I'm sorry?"
He suddenly flinched, like the thought had struck him hard, and in the next breath, he was off the bed, leaving her blinking at the empty space beside her.
"You bloody lied?" He repeated, standing up now.
“It’s not a big deal—"
“Not a big—Vera, what the fuck? Why lie about something like that?”
“I just didn’t want you to see them, okay?”
“See what? What is it you don’t want me to see?”
“My hands!” she snapped. “I just—don’t want anyone seeing them.”
“But why?” His voice softened, concern replacing confusion. “Vee, what’s so bad about them?”
“You don’t get to ask that..."
“I’m not judging. You know I wouldn’t—”
“It’s not about that!”
“Then what is it?” he asked, crouching down so they were eye-level. “Why won’t you just talk to me?”
She turned her head, jaw clenched. “Because it’s a line I can’t cross.”
“You trust me, don’t you?”
“Of course I do!”
“Then why won’t you let me in?”
“I don’t have to tell you everything, Ryu!”
He stood up sharply. “Actually, yeah, you kind of do! I’m your boyfriend, Vera! Your bloody boyfriend!”
“FUCKING DROP IT!”
Her voice echoed in the dorm room, and it was sharp enough to sting.
“Vera, I’m just trying to understand—”
“I don’t want to talk about it!” she snapped again, this time with tears threatening to fall.
He reached for her hand but she pulled away.
“Please, Ryu,” she said, her voice trembling now. “Please. Just let me have this one thing. Just this one fucking part of me to myself!”
He didn’t move for a long moment. Then finally, slowly, he gave a tight nod and stepped away.
“Okay. Fine.”
But the look in his eyes—disappointment wrapped in concern—cut through her like glass.
Still, she said nothing more.
Because if he ever found out what her hands could do—what they’d done—he wouldn’t just stop trusting her.
He’d start fearing her.
He’d think she might use them on him, spy on him, manipulate him. And that?
That would destroy everything.
After a long silence between them, Ryu finally spoke again.
“But what about the snowball fight?”
She blinked. “What?”
“The day before we got stuck together. We were outside, chucking snow at each other. You suddenly screamed in pain. You said the ice melted through your gloves and hurt your hands.”
She bit her lip hard.
“You lied about that too?” he asked, voice rising.
“Yes—but it’s not what you think.”
“Really?” he snapped. “Because from where I’m standing, it looks like you've been lying about a lot of things.”
“It’s not lying!”
“Oh, come on—do I look that stupid to you?”
“No! I just—look, I can explain.”
“Then please, for the love of—explain.”
She opened her mouth, but then a sharp pain twisted in her stomach, making her wince.
But also gave her a wicked idea.
“That day,” she began, “when you were on top of me... I got my period.”
He stared. “What?”
“My period. It started right in that moment. My first one. That’s why I screamed—it wasn’t the snow, it was the cramp.”
It was technically still true.
Ryu looked completely thrown. “Wait. You got your first period... when I was on top of you?”
“Yeah.”
His eyes went wide. “Did I cause it?”
She choked out a laugh. “What? No! Of course not! That’s not how it bloody works.”
“I don’t know anything about this stuff!”
“Well… now you know.”
He shook his head, still stunned. “But why did you lie?”
“Because I was embarrassed! You think it’s easy telling you that I bled through my panties while you were practically pinning me to the snow?”
“So you made up an entire lie about the snow melting through your gloves?”
“It wasn’t an entire lie!”
“Vera… it was a full-on fictional novella. And now I can’t help wondering—what else have you lied about?”
“Excuse me?”
“I mean it. This isn’t normal. No one lies this much unless there's something seriously wrong—it's like you’ve got some compulsive thing or—”
“ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW?”
“Then just tell me! What else aren’t you saying?”
“Nothing!”
“Don’t do that again.”
“Or what? You’ll lose it on me too?”
He froze. “What?”
“You think I’m the one with problems here? You think I have issues? Look at yourself first.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“It means you’ve got no control, Ryu.”
His expression shattered. “You think I would ever hurt you? Is that it, Vera? You’re scared of me now?”
“I don’t know what I think."
“The only reason I hit Cassius is because he shoved you. Because he called you a bitch. Because he hurt you!”
“He just pushed me,” she said quietly. “It wasn’t that big of a deal.”
“It was to me!”
“Well, then maybe you have a problem. Because the way you went after him? That wasn’t normal. You looked like you wanted to kill him.”
He scoffed. “Oh, look who’s talking.”
“Huh? I’ve never lost control and started beating someone into the floor without mercy!”
“No, right—you don’t use your hands. You just run that sharp little mouth and expect everyone to roll over like it’s fine.”
“What are you even talking about?”
“Mr. Warrington? Really, Vera?”
She shrugged. "That’s his name, isn’t it?”
“Oh, don’t act so innocent. You knew exactly what you were doing when you said it.”
“So what? I deserved to be shoved for it?”
“No! Of course not! But—Vera—you do provoke people sometimes. You don’t even realize how much your words cut.”
“He was making fun of me! What did you want me to do? Bake him a bloody cake?”
“I wanted you to be civilized! To be better than him!”
“He wasn’t civilized. Why should I be?”
“Because someone has to be the fucking grown-up!”
“Well maybe he shouldn’t have brought up the boggart. Or the bleeding. Or—”
“But you didn’t have to drag his father into it, Vera!”
Her face froze, the heat in her cheeks rising. “So I’m the villain now?”
“I didn’t say that!”
“No, let’s lay it all out, shall we? If I hadn’t provoked Cassius, then he wouldn’t have shoved me, and you wouldn’t have given him a concussion in front of the whole class, right?”
“Vera—”
“It’s all my fault. Got it. Glad we cleared that up.”
“You’re twisting my words—”
“No, I’m just saying them back to you slower so you can hear how they sound!”
He shook his head, exhaling sharply. “You’re fucking insane.”
And in that single second, it felt like the whole room tilted.
She just stared at him. Blank. A beat passed—and then she bolted. Straight to the bathroom.
“Vera—” he called after her, but the only answer was the sound of her throwing up.
He rushed to the door. “Vera? Do you want—do you need water? A towel? A hug maybe?”
“Get out!”
“Alright, alright!” He raised his hands in surrender even though she couldn’t see him.
He backed off and, after a second of sulking, slammed the door like a petulant child who didn’t know what else to do with his emotions.
She stayed in there a long time.
Long enough for Ryu to go from worried to confused to angry to...whatever this spiral was.
"Are you done vomiting?"
"Yeah."
"Can you get out now?"
"Nope."
"Please."
Silence.
"Let's just talk, Vera."
Silence.
"Shingin?"
Silence.
"Vera, I'm serious. Open the door."
Nothing.
"VERA!"
Absolutely nothing.
He leaned against the wall, arms crossed, counting the tiles opposite him like they were out to get him.
“You alive in there?” he asked after a while.
"Yeah.”
“Alright... Are you decent?”
She rolled her eyes. “What the fuck—yeah, I am.”
“Okay, good. Then if you're sitting behind the door—move.”
“Wait—why?”
“Because I’m about to break it down.”
“No the fuck you’re not!”
“I am very serious, Vera. Three... two...”
“Ryu!”
“Move. From. The. Door!”
“I swear if you even scratch that knob, I’m telling Professor Flitwick you've cheated on a quiz.”
“Vera!”
“Fucking hell, fine!”
She stood up to open it, huffing under her breath—but the moment she clicked the lock, the door exploded inward.
And so did Ryu.
He collided straight into her with full force, and they both tumbled to the floor in a tangle of limbs and groans.
“Why would you still be standing there?!" He yelled, splayed half on top of her. "I warned you!”
“I LITERALLY said I was unlocking it!" She winced. “You owe me a massage now. Or a whole new spine!"
He just stared at her, breathless, still hovering awkwardly above her.
Then, slowly—suspiciously—his nose twitched.
“What are you doing?” she asked, narrowing her eyes.
“…Did you brush your teeth?”
Her expression soured. “Excuse me?”
“Answer the question.”
“Yes, I brushed my teeth after vomitting. Obviously.”
“And what toothbrush did you use?”
She hesitated.
"Veeeeraaa?"
“The one with the little dragon carving!"
He recoiled as if she’d hexed him. “That’s my bloody toothbrush!”
“Oh. Well… it was the only one that didn’t look like it had been used to scrub a cauldron.”
"So you used mine?"
"Ryu, you literally shove your tongue down my throat every day. I think you'll survive."
He gagged. “You can be so disgusting, sometimes.”
“What’s disgusting is you tackling me like a madman and keeping me pinned to the filthy bathroom floor.”
He looked around them. “Honestly? This floor’s cleaner than your dorm carpet.”
It probably was.
"GET OFF!"
He rolled off her and stood up, brushing imaginary dirt from his shirt as if he were the one who’d been tackled.
Vera, still scowling, scrambled to her feet and marched toward her shoes.
“Where are you going?” he asked, his tone sharp with alarm.
“Leaving!"
“No, you're not!”
“I’d rather be alone and terrified in my dorm than stuck here with you.”
“Vera, you’re still sick,” he said, stepping between her and the wardrobe door. “You refuse to go to the hospital wing, so just stay here, alright? You’ll be warm and you’ll rest.”
She stared at him for a moment, fists clenched, then sighed like the weight of the world was hanging from her shoulders. “Fine. But I need a heating bag.”
“I don’t have one."
Her eyes widened in betrayal. “WHY NOT?”
“Because I’m not bloody normal—I never get cold!”
She muttered something he wisely chose not to ask about and stomped over to Rogers’ side of the dorm to search through his things.
After a moment of rummaging and swearing under her breath, she groaned, “Why is this place full of rich boys and yet no one owns a bloody heating bag?”
Ryu lifted a smug brow. “Good news. I found one.”
She perked up instantly, flopping onto his bed like a medieval princess. “Go on then.” she sighed, closing her eyes.
He climbed in beside her without saying a word, took off his enchanted dragon ring, and gently placed his bare hand on her stomach.
Her eyes flew open. “What the fuck are you doing?!”
“You wanted a heating bag.”
“Yeah but—”
“Just trust me,” he said, eyes soft now, no fire left from the argument—just warmth.
She opened her mouth to protest again, then stopped. Because slowly, she felt it: the gentle, spreading warmth of his magic. Soothing. Steady.
She exhaled through her nose. “Okay… fine. That’s not terrible, actually.”
They stayed like that for a while—his hand warm on her stomach, her head resting lightly against his shoulder, their breathing syncing up without them noticing.
“I’m sorry,” Ryu said suddenly, voice low and real. “For yelling at you. For... everything, really.”
She opened her eyes and blinked at the ceiling. “I’m sorry too. For being... difficult.”
He snorted. “You? Difficult? Never. You’re the picture of grace and tact.”
“Oh shut up, Mr. ‘I’ll-break-down-the-door.’”
“That was chivalrous. Poetic, even.”
“Right. If by poetic you mean nearly gave me a concussion.”
He laughed under his breath. “Alright, I'm sorry for breaking my own bathroom door and tackling you to the ground.”
“I accept your apology,” she said, mock-prim. “And I’m sorry for vomiting in your bathroom.”
“I’m sorry for calling you insane.”
“I’m sorry for saying you have no control.” She paused. “...Even though you kind of don’t.”
“Fair,” he said with a smirk. “I’m sorry for accusing you of having a lying disease.”
"I'm sorry for assuming you would ever hurt me."
"I would never, Vera. Never."
“And I’m sorry for lying about having some weird water allergy.”
“I’m sorry for punching Cassius so hard I almost dislocated something.”
“I’m sorry for provoking Cassius so hard you almost dislocated something.”
“I’m sorry I'm so dramatic.”
“I’m sorry you’re so dramatic.”
They both smiled, the tension finally ebbing into something lighter.
Then he squinted at her, mock serious. “Aren’t you gonna say sorry for using my toothbrush?”
"Nope.”
“Vera—”
“That’s the price of being with me, Ryu. Shared trauma and dental hygiene.”
“Pretty sure it’s the most intimate thing we’ve done.”
She shifted slightly under the covers, her voice quieter now, almost hesitant. "Can you give me a hug while we're like this? It'll be the second most intimate thing we've done."
He hesitated. Not out of reluctance, but because something about the moment felt heavy—electric. Like touching her now might spark something neither of them could pull back from.
But then he moved. Slowly. Wordlessly. He climbed over her, careful with the weight of his body, careful not to make her feel caged.
His arms slid around her waist, and he pressed himself against her body, fully, completely—chest to chest, his warmth covering her like a second blanket.
She inhaled sharply.
His breath was at her ear, shallow and warm. One hand slid up to cradle the back of her head, threading through her hair. The other stayed at her waist, holding her gently but with the kind of certainty that said: I’m not going anywhere.
She felt every inch of him. His heart, beating fast. His ribs rising and falling. The tension in his arms like he was holding something sacred. And maybe he was.
She curled her fingers into the fabric of his shirt, gripping him tightly. "Thank you."
He pulled back just an inch to look at her, their faces close now—so close.
"You don’t have to thank me for that," he murmured.
“I do,” she said, breath brushing his lips. “Because I needed it more than I thought.”
And for a few suspended moments, neither of them moved. The room around them disappeared. It was just them—warm skin, rushing hearts, a silence too full to be empty.
He tucked her tighter in his arms, buried his face in the crook of her neck. “I’ve got you.”
As she lay there wrapped in his warmth, the moment was so tender, so safe… and then, as if something inside her cracked, tears started to stream down her face.
Ryu felt it immediately. Her chest stuttering against his, the soft, almost silent sob. He pulled back, alarmed.
“Vera? Hey—hey, what’s wrong?”
She shook her head, wiping her face furiously like she was trying to erase the whole thing.
“I don’t know,” she whispered. “Something’s wrong with me.”
“What do you mean?” he said gently, brushing a tear from her cheek.
She looked up at him, voice shaking. “This is the first time I’ve gotten my period in almost three months.”
His eyes widened in shock. “Wait… three months? Is that normal?”
“No. Not for me, anyway.”
“Did you tell anyone?”
"No,” she muttered, looking away. “Didn’t want anyone getting the wrong impression.”
“Wrong impression?” he repeated, confused. “You didn’t do anything, though.”
“Still. And honestly… I didn’t care enough to think about it.”
“Vera… you have to tell someone. That’s serious.”
“I want to, but I’m scared.”
“Scared of what?”
“What if I’m dying?”
He didn’t speak for a second, then leaned closer, pressing his forehead gently against hers. “You’re not dying, Vera.”
“I feel like I am. It hurts so much, Ryu. It's like someone’s ripping me apart from the inside. And I feel so bad—so bloody angry. My brain feels like it’s being squeezed. And when… when I saw you getting hit I just—I just couldn't handle it. I don’t want to see you like that. Ever again. I don't wanna see you bleed ever again!"
He wrapped his arms tighter around her, but she kept going, like her heart had waited for this one moment to come undone. “You’re the only one keeping me okay right now. And when it comes to death… I hope my day comes before yours.”
That made Ryu freeze.
He pulled back just enough to look her in the eye again, visibly moved. His gaze flicked between hers like he was searching for something he didn’t even know how to name. Then, slowly, he leaned in and pressed a gentle kiss to her lips.
“Don’t say things like that,” he said softly. “Please, Vera. You're not going anywhere, okay?"
She nodded slowly, face still wet with tears.
“Come on,” he said, brushing a strand of hair behind her ear. “Let’s go to the hospital wing. You can’t keep this to yourself anymore.”
She frowned, reluctant. “I’m too comfortable. Your bed has hypnotized me.”
He gave a small laugh. “You have to, Shingin. And you know what? Afterwards I’ll take you to the kitchens and make you some chamomile tea. The proper way.”
“With a leaf strainer and everything?”
“The whole bloody ritual."
She sniffled, wiped her eyes, and finally sat up. “Okay. Let’s go before I change my mind.”
The hospital wing was eerily quiet when they arrived—rows of white beds, empty and untouched, the air still with the scent of disinfectant and old magic.
Vera paced slowly, arms crossed over her stomach, her face growing paler by the minute. Ryu kept glancing at the door to Madam Pomfrey’s office, checking his watch like that might summon her faster.
“She’s late,” he muttered, trying to mask his worry. “I’ll go look for her—”
“I can’t take this anymore,” Vera suddenly gasped, doubling over.
But before he could stop her, she was bolting toward the office door.
“Vera—wait!”
To their luck—or lack thereof—the office was unlocked. She burst in without a second thought, and Ryu, after a brief, hesitant pause, followed her inside.
“What are you doing?” he whispered urgently as she threw open the cabinet doors, eyes scanning the shelves.
“Looking for willow bark. It’s a natural painkiller.”
“You can’t just—Vera, you can’t take something without Pomfrey’s approval!”
“I know what I’m doing,” she snapped. “I’ve taken it before.”
“Wait, really? For what?"
"Uh, um..." she began to panic. “For my period!"
She couldn't believe she lied to him. Again.
He blinked. “Oh.”
She spotted the bottle but cursed under her breath—it was on the highest shelf. “Ryu, lift me.”
“What?”
“Just bloody do it!”
Reluctantly, he stepped behind her and grabbed her by the waist, lifting her up as steadily as he could. She reached for the bottle, but just as her fingers brushed the glass—
“Ahem.”
The two immediately tensed.
Madam Pomfrey stood in the doorway, arms folded, her eyes narrowed into something sharper than any scalpel in her cabinet.
“Miss Black, Mr. Avery... Breaking into my office and raiding my remedies cabinet? Are you out of your damn minds?”
“I’m just—” Vera’s voice cracked with agony. “It's my period, Madam. I’m going through so much pain right now, and I just couldn’t wait.”
Madam Pomfrey’s expression softened, just slightly. She stepped inside and gently guided Ryu to set her down.
“Willow bark is too strong, my dear. It's not meant for menstrual cramps, you know that."
Ryu looked at Vera, then back at Pomfrey, surprised. “It’s not?”
Vera glanced away, avoiding both their eyes. “I thought it would help.”
Madam Pomfrey shook her head with a sigh and turned to a different shelf. “There are better remedies for that kind of pain. Wait here.”
As she prepared a small vial and handed it over, Ryu leaned in, nudging Vera slightly. “Tell her.”
Vera stiffened.
“Go on,” he urged quietly.
She looked between them—Pomfrey waiting patiently, Ryu watching her expectantly—then forced a smile.
“I’m sorry,” she said. “For sneaking into your office.”
Pomfrey raised an eyebrow. “Is that all?”
She nodded quickly. “Yeah.”
Ryu’s brow furrowed, confused. He opened his mouth like he was about to say something but then stopped himself.
Pomfrey handed her the remedy. “Take this, then get some rest. And next time, come straight to me. Understood?”
“Yes, ma’am."
As they left the office, the corridor felt colder than before, and Ryu’s silence was thick with disappointment.
“You should’ve told her,” he said at last, voice low.
She hugged the vial of potion to her chest. “I know.”
“So why didn’t you?”
“I just couldn’t, okay? It’s not that simple.”
“You’re scared something’s wrong with you but you’re pretending it’ll go away if you just don’t say it out loud?”
“I'm just not ready yet."
“You don’t get to not be ready when your health’s at stake!”
“It's not that big of a deal, Ryu!”
She threw the door open—and froze.
Felix was standing right outside, hand still on the doorknob, as if he’d been about to come in. His eyes locked on hers like they had weight, sharp and full of something darker than anger.
Her breath hitched, heart pounding in her ears. She opened her mouth to say something—but no words came out.
Ryu stepped forward, voice cutting the silence like a blade. “Is there a problem, Bobbin?”
Felix didn’t flinch. Didn’t blink. Just kept staring at Vera with a face full of disgust, like she was something he’d stepped on. Then, slowly, he stepped aside, never once looking at Ryu.
She moved past him, her entire body rigid, the weight of his gaze burning into her back.
As they walked away, her pace was quick and uneven, like her legs were trying to outrun her heart. Ryu, however, couldn’t stop glancing back at Felix.
He’d seen it.
That look between them.
It wasn’t just anger. Not just disgust. It was deeper—something messier. Like a wound that hadn’t healed, or a secret left to rot in the dark.
He didn’t say anything, though.
But as they turned the corner, one thought sat heavy in his chest:
There was history in that stare, and it wasn't about their families fued.
Notes:
Chapter's song: Hand in glove - The Smiths
I swear at this point, this whole part is sponsored by The Smiths.
Chapter 77: The Frayed Ends of Sanity
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Monday, December 9, 1991
Vera had a plan—one of those dangerously enthusiastic ones that began with bossy commands and ended with someone questioning their life choices.
“Hurry up, slowpoke! The sunset’s not going to wait for your dramatic wheezing!”
“How high are we bloody going?” Ryu shouted, two steps behind and several complaints in.
She led him through the winding halls of Hogwarts until they reached the spot she’d scouted days ago: a high corridor, open to the sky, stone archways framing the horizon like a dream.
The view was breathtaking—the castle bathed in soft gold, the Black Lake shimmering below, and the snowy mountains rising in the distance, ancient and still.
It was perfect. Perfect light. Perfect view. And perfect boy.
She nodded like a general surveying the battlefield, then pointed to the ledge with great ceremony.
“Sit there. And don’t bloody fall. I refuse to paint your ghost.”
Ryu gave her a bow. “As my artist commands."
He hoisted himself up, settling with his legs pulled casually onto the ledge.
She squinted critically at him, then walked over and began nudging his posture—straightening his back, tilting his jaw, fixing the fall of his arm.
“You know,” he murmured, “this feels a lot like objectification.”
“You are an object. A beautiful one. Now stay still and try not to breathe too attractively, it’s distracting.”
He smirked but obeyed, lounging like some absurdly handsome sun-kissed statue.
She pulled out her paints and brushes, heart fluttering with excitement as she knelt in front of the canvas. But he wasn't paying attention, just staring at her.
“Focus, Ryu!" She snapped. "Your birthday portrait isn’t going to paint itself.”
“I am focused." He replied sweetly. "On my favorite piece of art.”
She blushed, tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, and began.
The pencil danced in her fingers, lines and shadows blooming across the canvas as she captured the slope of his cheek, the lazy arch of his brow, the exact way sunlight kissed his collarbone.
He was oddly still for someone so notoriously fidgety—but she supposed flattery and ego could do wonders for posture. However, he just couldn't shut the fuck up.
"Hey, Vee?"
"Mhm?"
"You said there were two birthday surprises. I’ve seen the portrait—what’s the second?"
"If I told you, darling, it wouldn’t be a surprise, would it?"
"Just a tiny clue. I promise I’ll still act shocked."
"Fine. Let’s just say… it’s something that would make any self-respecting Japanese lad weep with national pride."
"You didn’t get me a samurai sword, did you?"
"What? No! Do I look like I’d trust you with a blade?"
"Then what is it?"
"For the love of all things sacred, sit still and zip it!"
A minute passed.
"Phie?"
She groaned. "What now?"
“Don’t you ever wish we were in the same house?”
“Yeah, but mostly because I feel like I was born for Ravenclaw aesthetics. All that blue and silver? It would make my skin look amazing.”
He snorted. “No, I mean, so we could spend more time together. Especially after curfew. That’s when I miss you the most, honestly.”
Her hand stilled completely. The breeze tugged at her hair, but she barely felt it—too focused on the way his words wrapped around her ribcage and pulled.
Because what the fuck did he mean by that?
She bit her lip, then tilted her head with a playful spark. “Maybe we should sneak out one night. Take a broom. Midnight ride over the lake. Romantic and very illegal."
“Sounds perfect. Except I don’t want Bobbin catching us again.”
It was immediate—her whole body went stiff, and the pencil in her hand suddenly pressed too hard against the canvas, leaving an unintended line. Her jaw clenched just slightly, but it was enough for him to notice.
“Vera?”
She didn’t look at him. Her eyes were fixed on the canvas, though she wasn’t really seeing it anymore. He waited, letting the moment hang, his brow creased with confusion.
Then finally—
“Did something happen between you two?”
She swallowed hard, the pencil trembling slightly in her grip.
She told him she’d always be honest, but she’d broken that promise before. Once. Twice. Okay, maybe three times. But who was counting?
He probably was.
Still, telling him the truth… the whole truth? That would break something in him, and she couldn’t bear it. Couldn’t have him know about Felix—not really.
So she just shook her head. “No.”
“Vera.”
She flinched at the way he said her name. It wasn’t angry. It wasn’t cold. Just… disappointed.
She stared at the canvas for a beat, then sighed and set the pencil aside, her fingers trembling just enough to betray her. Without another word, she crossed the narrow space between them and sank down beside him on the stone ledge.
“Why are you asking?” she said quietly.
“Because you looked like you've swallowed poison when I mentioned his name. And the way you two looked at each other last week at the hospital wing? Yeah, I've noticed.”
That made something in her chest crumple. Of course he would know. He always knew.
Her eyes closed for a beat, then she sighed. “Okay. Fine. But just—don’t make a thing of it.”
He nodded.
“Last year, I fell off my broom during a flying practice. And he... Caught me."
She felt his posture shift, tension winding tighter through his shoulders.
She pressed on quickly. “He didn’t have to. But he did. And I was so… I don’t know, overwhelmed? Grateful? I made him cookies.”
“Cookies." Ryu echoed, his voice hollow.
“Yeah, but listen. He saved me. I mean… caught me. And I was stupidly grateful. Thought maybe he didn't actually hate me. So I made him cookies to say thank you. And I tried to give them to him. But he…” she swallowed, voice faltering, “he turned them down. In front of everyone.”
His jaw clenched, but he stayed silent.
“That’s when someone told me. About the grudge. His family and mine. I didn’t even know it existed. Later, he found me. Said he was sorry. Said he appreciated it, but he just… couldn’t be seen with me publicly. And I understood. After that, we just… I don’t know. We’d talk. Little things. Only when no one else was around. It wasn’t anything. Then I started dating you. And just like that, he stopped. Like I didn’t exist.”
Ryu was quiet. Too quiet.
She waited, holding her breath, for him to say something. Anything. She waited for the judgment, the shift in his voice, the space that would grow between them.
But instead—
“That’s all?”
She nodded.
“Then why did he seem so angry at you?” He asked.
“Because he thinks I'm a hypocrite.”
“He fucking said that?”
Her mouth opened—then shut. She should not have said that.
His jaw clenched again, his eyes narrowed, and for a second she was sure he’d get up and punch a wall or do something typically dramatic.
But instead, he simply took a breath. “Well. He’s an arse.”
She blinked.
“And you’re not a hypocrite,” he continued. “You’re kind. You gave him a second chance even after he embarrassed you. Tried to be decent to him when you know he hates you. That’s not hypocrisy, that’s grace.”
Her throat tightened unexpectedly. She glanced at him, trying to find words, but all she could manage was a stunned, “Oh.”
He chuckled. “You really thought I’d be mad, huh?”
“Well, I wouldn’t blame you if you were.”
“I would. I mean—blame me, not you. Besides, I’m your boyfriend. It’s kind of my job to remind you you’re not the villain in every story your brain makes up.”
She just stared at him, warmth and absolute gut wrenching guilt pooling in her chest like sunlight through glass.
He was quiet again for a moment, his gaze drifting to the mountains behind her before flicking to her face. “Can I ask you something else?”
She shifted slightly. “Sure.”
“Why did you lie about that painkiller?”
Fuck.
“You said it was for your moon. But then Madam Pomfrey said it’s not the kind used for menstrual pain.”
For a second, everything inside her scattered like loose pages in a storm. But she managed to draw in a steadying breath.
“I—I used to take it for headaches,” she said slowly. “In first year."
He frowned a little. “Your headaches were that terrible?”
“They were awful. Sometimes I couldn’t even see straight.”
He tilted his head, watching her carefully. “Are you still having them, love?”
“No. Not anymore.”
“But why did you lie about it?”
“I didn’t mean to. I was in pain and… confused. I didn’t think it through."
He looked at her for a long time, his expression unreadable.
Then nodded. “Okay.”
Just that.
No lecture. No judgment. Just… understanding.
Vera stared at him, her pulse still racing. “Okay?” she echoed.
“Yeah,” he said simply, reaching over to brush a strand of hair from her face. “You didn't want me to worry about you. You really are a sweetheart.”
She didn’t deserve this softness—not after how many times she’d bent the truth. But she was beyond grateful for it.
He tilted his head with a sly grin. “Okay… I’ve got one more question.”
She immediately stiffened, heart jolting.
He laughed. “Relax. Interrogation's over, I swear.”
She narrowed her eyes at him, half suspicious, half relieved. “Then what is it?”
He leaned in—close. Too close. His breath brushed her cheek, and his eyes sparkled with wicked amusement.
“Would you like me to take my shirt off?”
Her eyes went wide, face flaming instantly as she shoved at his shoulder. “Ryu!”
"What? Don't you wanna include my glorious abs in your painting?"
“I swear, I’ll shove you off this ledge!”
“Worth it,” he said with a grin. “Absolutely worth it.”
She groaned, grabbing his hand and angling it a little higher. "Now enough chit-chat. I need to focus."
“Ow—what’s this for?”
“I want to add Shingin,” she said, smoothing his knuckles out as if sculpting them from clay. “She'll be hovering beside you. Like you’re summoning her.”
His brows lifted, clearly flattered. “I like it.”
She smirked and returned to her canvas, pencil in hand, eyes flicking from him to the paper in quick, precise movements.
He held the pose admirably for a solid minute. Maybe less.
“Vee.”
“Hmm?”
“My hand is getting numb.”
“Then put it down.”
"Wait, seriously? Aren’t you still drawing?”
“Yeah, but it's fine. I've memorized the pose.”
“You—what? Already?”
She smirked, leaning closer to the canvas and adding a rough silhouette of his fingers.
After a moment, she stretched her arms with a satisfied sigh. “Done. Just need to add Shingin and bring it all to life with colour.”
“Finally,” Ryu groaned, flexing his fingers. “Now, let's get going. I need to study for tomorrow’s exam."
She started packing her paints and brushes into her kit, carefully protecting the canvas. He leaned in, angling for a peek.
“Oi!” she barked, whipping the canvas away. “Back off, you nosy tart—it’s a surprise.”
He chuckled. “Alright, alright. But if I look like a troll, I’m suing.”
“You could never look like a troll, Avery boy. Worst-case scenario, you’re a charming goblin.”
“If you keep flirting like that, I might scrap my study plans altogether.”
She arched a brow, all mischief. “Tempting. Shall I continue?”
“Nope. Zip it. If I don’t come first this year, my father will hex me into a garden gnome. And then hex you for distracting me.”
"I’ll pencil that into my list of near-death experiences.”
“You should join me for study time,” he said as they began walking. “Help a poor, overworked boyfriend revise.”
“Too bloody boring, and I wanna keep working on your portrait back in my dorm.”
“Do you ever want to study?”
“Nope.”
“You’re shameless.”
“And thriving.”
“Okay, fine. Let’s go to my dorm first.”
She frowned. “Why?”
“So you can get a proper photograph of Shingin for the portrait.”
“No need. I’ve got her memorized.”
“You’ve only seen her once.”
“Twice, if your boggart counts.”
He stopped in his tracks. “And you memorized her from that?”
“Yep.”
He turned to her with narrowed eyes, clearly not buying it. “Alright, genius. Describe her.”
She rolled her eyes. “White-silver scales with a pearly sheen that shifts in the light. Dark blue eyes—almost indigo with a darker rim. Long white whiskers. Antler-shaped horns. Her tail isn't thick or leathery—it's thin, like a veil, almost translucent, with silvery webbing."
He stared at her, mouth slightly open. “I—how do you—what?”
She just smirked. “Told you I memorized her.”
He shook his head in disbelief, trailing after her.
Tuesday, December 10, 1991
The next day, the Astronomy Tower buzzed with nervous energy for the upcoming exam.
Ryu was at his desk, posture perfect, notes arranged with military precision, quill ready, eyes sharp.
Vera, on the other hand, had a half-eaten cupcake hidden behind her parchment, which she sneakily took bites from while pretending to revise.
“Are you seriously eating right now?”
“It’s for focus,” she mumbled, cheeks puffed like a squirrel’s.
“What focus? You studied for exactly zero minutes.”
“I was painting you, remember?”
“That doesn’t count as academic productivity—”
"Hi, Ryu."
Vera instantly stiffened, the cupcake now awkwardly wedged between her teeth.
Cassius stood awkwardly in front of them, hands in pockets, eyes fixed on Ryu.
He cleared his throat, clearly nervous. "I just want to wish you good luck... For this exam, and um... all the ones that follow."
Ryu didn’t respond. He didn’t blink. He didn’t even look at him. His quill scratched against his parchment, completely ignoring his existence.
"Can we talk sometime?" Cassius added. "About what happened last week?"
Ryu remained silent.
"I just wish to apologize for my behavior. I didn't mean to upset you, Ryu."
Vera couldn't believe his audacity. He bullied her. Shoved her. Called her a bitch. But it's Ryu he wants to apologize to? Fucking prick.
The prick lingered, waiting for something from Ryu—a nod, a grunt, anything.
He got nothing.
Eventually, he gave a small awkward nod and walked away.
“So…” Vera said slowly once he was gone. “Does your father pay his father’s salary too?”
Ryu smirked without looking up. “He pays everyone’s salary. Even the minister's.”
She snorted, finally finishing the last bite of her cupcake as the professor called for silence.
“Quills out. You may begin.”
Ryu sat tall and composed, already scribbling answers.
Vera flipped her parchment around. “Which one is Ursa Minor again?”
He didn’t look up. “The one you pointed at last week and called ‘a backwards soup ladle.’”
“Oh, right.” She grinned. “I got this.”
He sighed, but there was a quiet laugh tucked beneath it.
After fifteen minutes, she stood up with a satisfied stretch, arms high above her head as if she’d just finished a satisfying nap instead of an actual exam.
Ryu glanced up from his parchment just in time to catch her leaving—and caught sight of her own parchment in the process.
Blank.
His jaw clenched, and he looked at her like she’d just burned a sacred scroll. She met his eyes across the room, gave him a cheeky wink, and sauntered out like she was the top of the class.
He wanted to leap over his desk and yell at her, but there were rules. Also, she was already gone.
When the exam ended, he was still in his seat, now knee-deep in a heated debate with Roger over a particularly obscure question about planetary alignments in the 14th century.
Vera returned, chewing the last bite of what might’ve been another forbidden cupcake. She raised an eyebrow as she approached, watching the two boys battling over the cosmos, but they ignored her.
“That answer makes zero sense,” Roger said sharply. "You've completely ignored the moon's angle in correlation to the equinox!”
Ryu scoffed. “Because that would contradict the shadow arc from Saturn! Merlin’s beard, were you even reading the chart?”
She stood by the table for a solid minute, watching them volley astronomy jargon back and forth like a Quidditch match. Then another minute. Then another.
Still ignored.
Finally, she snapped.
“For fuck's sake, it’s the lunar convergence of 1376, when Jupiter overlapped with Saturn during the Vampire rebellion in Bruges!”
They both paused mid-argument, staring at her like she’d thrown a dungbomb on the floor.
“What’s your proof?” Roger asked.
“It’s in the bloody book.”
Ryu narrowed his eyes. “No, it's not—I read all the chapters twice.”
“Not astronomy, you git. History of Magic.”
Now that got their attention. Roger, skeptical but curious, reached into his bag and pulled out the textbook.
“It's the chapter about the Vampire hunts in Belgium,” she said smoothly. “Page 213. Fourth paragraph. Second sentence.”
Roger flipped.
Read.
Froze.
“...Bloody hell.”
“Wait—she’s right?” Ryu asked, eyes wide.
“She is.”
Ryu opened his mouth to say something, but she had already stepped forward, looped her arm through his, and tugged him toward the door.
“Come on,” she said breezily. “Let’s go snog. You owe me a treat.”
They barely made it to his dorm before he started shouting.
"You didn't write anything, Vera. Nothing. Your parchment was so blank I thought it might start whispering for help! But what's really bothering me is the fact you knew the bloody answer and still DIDN'T WRITE IT DOWN!"
She didn’t even flinch. Just sauntered in without so much as a blink, kicked off her shoes, and flopped face-first onto his bed with a theatrical groan.
"Merlin’s balls, relax," she mumbled into his pillow. "I figured it out after we left."
He gawked at her, incredulous. “You figured it out—after? Are you actually serious right now?”
She rolled onto her back and looked up at him with a smug little grin. “Yup. It just came to me.”
“Oh great. That’s brilliant. You mean to tell me you just casually solved the hardest question on the exam after strolling out like you were on bloody holiday?”
“What can I say? Brilliance has its own schedule.”
“That’s not the point, Vera!"
“Then what is?” she shot back, sitting up and hugging a pillow to her chest.
“You knew the answer! You had it!”
“Calm down, Ryu, it wasn’t even that hard—”
“It wasn’t in the bloody Astronomy book! It was a trick question. A bloody trap.”
“It’s a cross-question. Meant to link subjects.”
“From History of Magic! A chapter we haven’t even studied yet! So how in the name of Merlin’s crooked wand did you know that answer?”
“It’s about Vampires,” she said with a shrug. “You know me. I read anything that has sexy bloodsuckers in it.”
“So let me get this straight. You managed to crack an academic landmine because you have a weird obsession with Vampires?”
She grinned again. “Sounds about right.”
“Bloody hell, Vera. This isn’t funny.”
“I’m not laughing.”
“You’re acting like it’s all a joke. Like this whole exam doesn’t matter.”
She stiffened slightly but kept her tone light. “It’s not like it’s gonna affect your marks.”
“I don’t give a damn about my marks. But you came nineteenth last year. Nineteenth, Vera! And now you’re coasting straight toward twentieth.”
"Okay, ouch.”
“You’ve managed to beat Malika with your bloody laziness.”
“Oi! Don’t insult Malika!"
“That’s not what I meant. She doesn’t pretend to be dumb while actually being a bloody genius underneath six layers of frosting and sleep deprivation.”
“...That was oddly poetic.”
He stared at her.
She stared back.
“You’re not getting out of this with charm, Shingin."
“I wasn’t trying to,” she said, smiling faintly.
He sighed, walking over to sit on the edge of the bed. “I just… don’t understand you sometimes.”
"Why do you even care this much?”
“Because I see you, Vera. I see what you’re capable of. And it kills me to watch you throw it away. So please, for the next exams, try harder."
She didn’t have a smart retort this time. Just silence, and the faint sound of her heart thudding in her chest.
“…Fine,” she muttered after a moment. “But only if you hug me.”
He cracked the faintest smile. “Alright. But not for too long. I still need to study.”
She groaned. “Ugh. You and your textbooks. So clingy.”
“Shut up and scoot over.”
He dropped onto the bed beside her, pulling her into his arms. “Five minutes,” he warned.
“Seven,” she negotiated, already snuggling in. "You owe me for yelling."
“Deal. But no weird vampire facts while I’m holding you.”
“No promises.”
They melted into the hug, warm and lazy and familiar, his arms around her waist, her cheek tucked into his collarbone. He pressed a kiss to her temple. Then another to her cheek. Then, deliberately slow, to her lips.
The kiss deepened before either of them could think twice about it, his weight gradually shifting as he leaned into her. And before she knew it, he was on top of her, bracing himself on his forearms, trying not to crush her while failing miserably at pretending he wasn’t enjoying it.
“You,” he murmured between kisses, “are the worst academic influence I’ve ever met.”
“And you,” she whispered back, “are way too hot for your own good.”
He smiled, kissed her one more time, then pulled away with great reluctance and flopped beside her, arms spread out. “I need to study.”
“You said that ten snogs ago.”
“Yeah, and I meant it.”
She sighed dramatically then pulled out a glossy magazine from her bag, followed by a suspiciously large collection of snacks. She popped a chocolate into her mouth and opened to a page titled Witch Weekly’s Top Ten Magical Makeover Fails.
Ryu frowned. "You just promised you’d try harder."
“I’m not in the mood,” she replied sweetly. “Studying History requires the right emotional alignment.”
“You need a bloody ritual to get motivated?”
“Sometimes. Preferably one that involves sugar.”
He sat up, rubbing his temples. “Okay. Deal time.”
Her eyes lit up immediately. “I love deals.”
“If you study with me, I’ll give you whatever you want.”
“Whatever I want?”
He nodded.
Her expression turned sly. “Even if it’s perverted?”
He laughed. “Sure.”
She tapped her chin, pretending to think, then snapped her fingers. “Money.”
“Wait, what?”
“I want money.”
“What for?”
She grinned. “Hogsmeade next weekend. I want to splurge.”
“You already blew through the money I gave you?”
“Nope. But more is more.”
He sighed, muttering something in Japanese, before eventually pulling out a small velvet pouch from his drawer. “Fine. I’ll give you five galleons for every page you study.”
She gasped like he’d just offered her eternal youth. “Seriously?”
He slapped the book down in front of her. “Start with page 17.”
She flipped it open, scanned it briefly, then flopped backward on his bed with a satisfied groan, the book balanced on her chest like a shield.
He returned to his desk, shaking his head with a grin. “This is the most expensive study session of my life.”
“Worth every knut,” she said, already mouthing the first paragraph.
Ten minutes later, the book thudded shut and she rolled onto her side, hand stretched toward him like a queen awaiting tribute.
“Fifty galleons, please.”
Ryu looked up from his parchment, blinking. “Fifty?”
“I did ten pages.”
“It’s been ten minutes.”
“Yeah, and I used every second. Pay up, Avery boy.”
“So you’re saying you studied ten full pages of History of Magic… in ten minutes.”
“Are you calling me a liar?”
“I’m calling you impossible.”
He walked over, grabbing the book and flopping onto the bed beside her. “Time for a little quiz.”
“Bring it on, professor.”
He flipped the book open, scanning the contents. “Page seventeen,” he declared, ready to ask a question about it—until she suddenly sat up and began narrating.
“‘During the Goblin Resurgence of 1612, the rebellion was largely centered in—’”
“Wait, what?”
“—Hogsmeade, with several recorded skirmishes near Knockturn alley, which at the time was known as—”
“Okay, stop,” he said, stunned. “You memorized the entire page?”
She frowned. “You told me to."
“I told you to study, not transfer the textbook into your brain!”
“Same thing.”
“So you actually memorized all ten?”
“Do you want proof or are you just going to keep being dramatic?”
“Alright. Prove it.”
And for the next six minutes, Ryujin Avery bore witness to something that defied reason, logic, and every magical experience he’d ever had.
Page after page, she recited with casual accuracy—pausing only to reach for a snack or kick her legs in the air like this wasn’t the single most impressive thing he'd ever seen. Dates, names, arcane terminology—perfect.
When she finished the tenth page, she crossed her arms. “So... about my fifty galleons?”
He didn’t speak right away. Just sat there on the edge of the bed, eyes fixed on her like he was witnessing a miracle.
Then he whispered, almost reverently:
“You’re a Crow.”
Silence.
Utter, devastating silence.
Vera’s entire body stiffened. Her eyes slowly widened. Her heart began beating in an unnatural rhythm.
And then—
She exploded.
“ARE YOU FUCKING INSANE?! Do you even know what you’re saying?!”
He blinked, taken aback by the sheer force of her voice. “I only said you’re a—”
“Don’t.” She pointed a trembling finger at him. “Don’t you fucking dare pin that cursed name on me!"
“You just recited ten pages of dense magical history from memory, Vera. Word. For. Word. You draw from memory which is nearly impossible—You were able to memorize every single detail about Shingin from a photograph you've stared at for ten bloody seconds! And you once told me you remember every single conversation you've ever had!"
“I HAVE A GOOD MEMORY!”
“No. I have a good memory. This—this is something else.”
She backed away from the bed, hands flying into her hair like she wanted to tear it out. “So what, Ryu? I memorised ten pages, and now suddenly I’m heir to a family of psychotic bird whisperers?”
“They weren’t just bird whisperers and you know it.”
“Oh, don’t act like you’re a scholar on Crow history now! Having a good memory doesn't make you a fucking Crow. It's the fucking bare minimum. Professor Binns said my family were excellent students. And guess what? Not all of them were Crows, only Pollux. So this whole thing about my memory doesn't mean I am one!"
“I didn't say it as an insult—”
“It bloody well is!” she screamed, pacing the room like a caged storm. “They were thieves, manipulators, spies. They used their birds to steal from people, to FUCKING KILL THEM. That's what real Crows do."
"Vera, please—"
"So do I look like I can speak to birds, Ryu? Do I have black feathers growing out of my skull? Am I flying around stealing in the dead of night?! No? Then I’m not a fucking Crow!”
“Vera, listen—”
“No! You listen to me! So what if I remembered a few stupid pages? That doesn’t mean I’m cursed with that blood!"
“You’re not cursed—”
“I don’t talk to crows. I don’t see through their eyes. I don’t do any of it, okay? That line died with Pollux.”
“You think I don’t know all that? I’m not saying you are like them. I’m saying you come from them. And maybe—just maybe—there’s more to that than you want to admit.”
“There’s nothing to admit!” she shouted, grabbing a pillow and throwing it full-force at his head. “I’m not a Crow, Ryu! I’m not part of some cursed bloodline doomed to rot from the inside out! I’m not evil!”
“I never said you were!”
“You didn’t have to! You said Crow. That’s all anyone ever needs to say!"
Ryu stood still, heart pounding, watching the walls she’d built around herself begin to crumble, brick by haunted brick.
“I’m me,” she whispered. “I’m Vera. Just Vera."
He stepped closer now, slow and steady like she might bolt.
"I'm not like them." Her voice broke. “Because if I am… then I’m not me. And I don’t want to be anything like them.”
“Then don’t be. Be like you, Vera."
For a long moment, all they could hear was her breathing—shaky, shallow, furious. Her fists were clenched, her back against the wall like he’d physically cornered her with the accusation.
Slowly, she sank back onto the bed, curling her legs beneath her like a fortress of limbs and defiance.
“I’ve been failing on purpose,” she said, quietly.
Ryu blinked. “What?”
She stared straight ahead, not meeting his eyes. “The exams. The essays. The wandwork assessments. All of it. I’ve been failing them on purpose. And I do study. I study every night. I love it, actually. Learning about magic. Understanding how it all fits together, how it breathes. I’ve got half our year’s books memorized. I could probably quote from Potions Theory Volume III in my sleep.”
“Then why—”
“Because I need people to think I'm average. Or worse, dumb. I want them to see a girl who can’t cast Lumos without setting her sleeve on fire. A girl who’s clumsy, slow, forgetful. I want to be someone no one talked about. No one noticed. Not just… not just another Black.”
She looked up now, her voice raw. “Every single person in my family was a star. Every one of them. My father, my grandmother, even my uncle Sirius—who was supposedly every professor's nightmare. They were Charms innovators, Dueling champions, Potions masters, even Quidditch prodigies. Brilliant. Terrifyingly brilliant. And they used that brilliance to ruin people.”
She looked down at her hands. “So I decided… if I just messed up enough, played dumb enough, they’d never compare me to them. No one would look at me and say, ‘She’s got their mind.’ I even took Muggle Studies because none of them ever did. I thought if I lived different, learned different, it would be enough to make me not one of them. But apparently all it takes is one bloody memory trick and suddenly I’m the second coming of the Crow king.”
“Vera…”
“You don’t understand what it means to be a Crow, Ryu. Your dragons, your family—they’re protectors. They bring life. Crows destroy it. They steal. Manipulate. Kill. They take and take and take until there’s nothing left.”
“But you’re not your family—”
“Someone spat in my face.”
The words hung in the air like a dropped stone.
His eyes widened. “What?”
“This summer. I was with the Weasley twins, shopping in Diagon Alley. Fred called out my name—my last name—and this woman, she just… walked up and spat right in my face. She said, ‘Filth breeds filth.’ And then walked off like I wasn’t even worth a second look.”
Ryu’s jaw clenched. “That’s sick. She had no right—”
“She had every fucking right. That’s what people think. That’s what they see when they hear my name. It doesn’t matter what I’ve done or haven’t done. In their eyes, I’ve already been judged.”
“But I haven’t judged you,” he said. “I’ve only ever seen you—the girl who carries herself with grace, even when the world’s unkind. Who still stands up for friends who’ve long stopped standing by her. The one who defended a boy no one else would, who treats house-elves with more respect than most wizards ever bother to. The girl who chooses to be good—even to those who hate her.”
“That doesn’t matter if the world already made up its mind. And now you’re starting to believe it too, aren’t you? That I’m one of them. That I’m hiding something dangerous. That maybe there’s something inside me that’s—what? Dark? Twisted?”
He looked pained. “I don’t think that, Vera.”
“Then why’d you say it? Why did you look at me like that when I remembered those pages? Like I wasn’t just smart—but like I was something else entirely.”
He hesitated.
“That’s why I’ve been faking it,” she said. “Because I wanted to choose the kind of person I’d be. Not some legacy. Not some name. Just… me. I didn’t want to be shaped by bloodlines or ancient magic or the ghost of a dead man who went mad with all the lives he stole."
“I didn’t say you were dangerous, Vera. I said you were brilliant. And maybe that brilliance runs in your blood, sure. But it’s yours now. Not theirs. You get to decide what to do with it.”
She didn’t respond. Just stared down at her hands, eyes glassy.
“So you’ve been faking this whole time?” he asked, almost in disbelief.
“Not all of it,” she said. “I actually suck at Divination.”
He chuckled despite himself.
“But the rest?” she continued. “Yeah. I held back."
“And Potions? You were always good at Potions.”
"Yeah, I just couldn’t bring myself to tank it. Partly because I have this weird, masochistic urge to impress Snape—don’t ask—and partly because... I wanted to prove to myself that I could be good at something without becoming them.”
“And also to spite Cassius?”
She smirked. “Obviously."
“So wait—if you weren’t faking it, you’d probably be top of the class. Not me.”
"Nah, I'm not that smart.”
He raised a brow. “Come on.”
“Okay, maybe. But you're still the smartest boy I know. And you're very handsome. So that's an extra advantage.”
He settled next to her then, his expression softening. “Vera,” he said gently, “you don’t have to dull yourself down to shine the right way. You’re not evil for being smart. You’re not cursed for being different. And you’re definitely not your family’s shadow.”
She stared down at her hands again like they were someone else’s. “But what if I can’t control it?”
“Then we figure it out together.”
“You’ll help me?”
“Of course I will,” he said, without hesitation. “I’ll always be here for you, Vera. You know that.”
For a moment, she didn’t speak. Her chest rose with a shaky breath as something in her finally unclenched—some long-held fear loosening its grip. There was no sudden flood of tears, no dramatic breakdown. Just that quiet, aching stillness of someone who’d braced for abandonment and found kindness instead.
She let out a shaky breath, the edge of her lip twitching into something close to a smile.
“I still want my fifty galleons,” she muttered, nudging his shoulder.
“You’re seriously extorting me after that heart-to-heart?”
“Yes."
He chuckled and handed her the pouch.
“I also want interest," she added, "for emotional damage.”
He chuckled. "Merlin, my dad is gonna love you.”
Her lips curved into a smile, but a strange tightness tugged at her heart.
He then reached over and gently tucked a piece of hair behind her ear. “You know,” he murmured, “if this is you pretending to be dumb, I don’t think I’d survive seeing you trying.”
Her cheeks flushed. “Don’t get sappy.”
“I’m serious. You’re kind of terrifying,” he whispered, leaning just a little closer. “And kind of brilliant. And… kind of the most beautiful girl I’ve ever met.”
Her heart stuttered.
And then, without thought or defense, he kissed her. Gentle, certain, warm. She kissed him back, a smile lingering at her lips, as if, at last, she might stop fleeing from herself.
And perhaps, just this once, being seen felt like something close to safe.
Notes:
Chapter's song: The Frayed Ends of Sanity - Metallica
Now, before we dive back into the story, let me clear up a little Crow-related confusion.
You see, being a Crow isn’t just about fancy tricks like reading minds, having visions, or diving into someone’s memories. Sure, those sound impressive—but with enough practice, any decent witch or wizard could learn to do that.
But a true Crow?
That’s something else entirely.
Crows—the real feathered kind—are mysterious, clever, and very hard to fool. They hold grudges, recognize faces, and remember kindness (or cruelty) forever. They’re watchers, messengers, and sometimes… spies. So when we talk about "Crow magic," we're talking about the rare ability to speak to crows, see through their eyes, and even command them. That’s the stuff of legends. Stuff of the Black family only.
So where do memories fit in?
Well, let’s just say crows are memory hoarders. Sharp, observant, and eerily perceptive. A Crow’s magic has a deep connection to memory—not just their own, but others’ too. Memories are more than recollections—they're currency, power, and sometimes, danger.
Which brings us to Vera.
Does her unusually good memory mean there’s a little something… crowy going on beneath the surface?
You’ll just have to read and see. I’m not giving away all the secrets just yet!
Chapter 78: Under Pressure
Notes:
Just a reminder:
Ryu’s father is the head of the Ministry of Magic’s Finance Department, making him responsible for all major financial decisions—including wages, pricing of magical goods, budget cuts, taxation, and of course, layoffs.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Sunday, December 15, 1991
The long-anticipated Hogsmeade weekend had finally arrived, bringing with it a thick blanket of snow, a biting wind, and a contagious buzz of excitement that could have powered the entire castle.
No one, however, was more giddy than Ryu
He was practically skipping beside Vera, bouncing with the sort of over-the-top joy usually reserved for toddlers on birthday mornings.
“I have it all planned,” he said, dramatically flinging a parchment in front of them. “First, we hit Honeydukes. You can have anything—no, everything—you want. Chocolate Frogs, Sugar Quills, that strange toffee that makes you moo—I’m buying it all. Then a butterbeer at the Three Broomsticks, obviously, romantic corner table, preferably by a fireplace. Then we'll do some shopping. NO. A lot of shopping. And if you've still got toes left unfrozen, I was thinking a scenic walk to the Shrieking Shack where I could heroically pretend to protect you from nonexistent ghosts. Sound good?”
Vera, however, wasn’t listening. She was shrinking behind a snow-laden statue, peeking around it like a spy in an ill-fitting disguise.
Ryu stopped mid-monologue and frowned. “Are you okay?”
She let out a nervous laugh but didn’t answer. Instead, she scrambled out from behind the statue and pressed herself behind him, gripping his arms and awkwardly trying to maneuver him like a human shield.
“Move left—no, your left,” she hissed, tugging him like she was guiding a suit of armor.
He blinked, bewildered, as she adjusted his stance so she wouldn’t be visible to the approaching figure of doom.
It didn’t work.
Professor McGonagall’s eyes found her instantly, gaze sharp as ever. She began making her way toward them with the grace of a swan and the resolve of a guillotine.
“Shite,” Vera muttered under her breath.
“Miss Black,” McGonagall said, voice like a door snapping shut, “a word, if you please.”
Vera stepped away from Ryu with the enthusiasm of someone walking to their own execution. She trailed beside McGonagall reluctantly, casting one last glance over her shoulder at him before the two of them moved out of earshot.
“I believe I made myself quite clear,” McGonagall said, coming to a stop. “You are not permitted to visit Hogsmeade without a signed permission slip.”
“Then just pretend you didn’t see me, Professor! I mean, you managed it just fine with my uncle Sirius, didn’t you?”
McGonagall’s nostrils flared. “This is neither the time nor place to discuss your uncle! He was a master at vanishing before he could be reprimanded. And you are not him, Miss Black. You are a student under my care and bound to the school’s rules.”
Vera folded her arms, chin lifted in stubborn defiance. “And what about my rights, huh? It's not like it's my fault I don't have a family!"
“I understand your frustration, but rules exist for a reason. This is not a punishment. It is a matter of safety and responsibility.”
“Okay but listen." Vera pressed, growing more desperate. "What if I get my magical guardian to sign it? Can I still go then?”
McGonagall’s stern facade wavered slightly. “Your magical guardian?” she repeated, puzzled.
“Yes! If I could get Donnie to sign it later, then I could go, right?”
“I’m afraid it’s not that possible anymore. And even if it were, it’s too late for today. I’m sorry, Miss Black. It’s not going to happen.”
Tears stung Vera’s eyes. “It’s not fair. Everyone else gets to go. You don’t know what this means to me, professor!"
For a moment, the steel in McGonagall’s eyes gave way to something softer.
“I am sorry,” she said. “I truly am.”
And with that, she turned and walked away, leaving Vera standing there, heartbroken.
Ryu came closer from behind, footsteps quiet in the snow.
"Shingin?"
She wiped her eyes quickly and turned to face him, forcing a faint smile as though it might erase the pain.
“You okay?” he asked gently. “What did McGonagall want?”
She hesitated for a breath too long, then looked down. “I can’t go.”
His face fell. “What? Why!"
"I… I lost my permission slip."
"Okay just—send your aunt another one!"
She wanted to cry, right then and there, but steadied herself with another brittle smile.
“Yeah… I will. But I still can’t go today.”
He looked genuinely heartbroken. “But I planned everything…”
“I'm sorry, baby." She choked. "I'll wait for you here."
“I’m not blood going,” he said, firm as stone.
“What?"
“I’m not going without you, Vera.”
“Ryu,” she said, reaching for his hand. “You need to go…"
He shook his head, equally stubborn. "Nope. I'm staying with you."
"You promised to buy me a new jacket, remember? One that doesn’t look like I mugged a scarecrow.”
"But Vera—"
"I'll be fine." She insisted, grinning through her sadness.
He stared at her, clearly torn, then finally exhaled and nodded. “Fine. But I won’t have fun.”
She chuckled softly. “Liar.”
Without another word, he leaned in and kissed her, deeply and without apology, like he was trying to press a little bit of sunshine into her bones.
“Mr. Avery!”
They both jolted as McGonagall’s voice rang out behind them like a spell mid-cast.
Ryu stepped back, grinning, then pinched Vera’s cheeks with both hands. "Come to my dorm once we return, alright?”
She nodded, smiling through the lump in her throat. “Go before she turns you into a frog.”
He gave her a final glance, reluctant as ever, then jogged off toward the carriages, joining Roger at the front of the group. She waved after them, smiling as brightly as she could manage.
Then she just stood there, watching the carriages line up, wheels crunching snow, laughter echoing faintly as students climbed in with red noses and flushed cheeks.
When the last carriage disappeared beyond the gates, her shoulders dropped.
And the dam broke.
She sat on the nearest stone bench, pressing her hands to her face, and cried in quiet, shaking sobs that fogged the winter air around her.
Shortly after, she went back to her dorm and collapsed onto her bed, burying her face into her pillow. She cried again—silent, miserable sobs that left her chest hollow and her limbs heavy. She wasn’t sure how long she stayed like that. Time felt like a blurred smear of shadows and salt.
Then the dormitory door creaked open.
Alicia and Angelina burst in, smelling faintly of cinnamon and chocolate, their arms full of sweets and bags. Their cheeks were rosy, their eyes bright, their voices loud and alive with inside jokes.
She wanted to stay in bed. She wanted to curl up and disappear completely. But the thought of Ryu waiting, searching for her, or pacing nervously near the secret passage, made something else stir beneath the sadness.
She wiped her face, combed her fingers through her hair, and forced her trembling legs to carry her out of the room.
She stepped through the wardrobe door into the quiet warmth of the Ryu's dormitory—and barely had time to breathe before he pulled her into his arms.
“Vera!”
He lifted her off the ground in one smooth motion, spinning her around with boyish delight. She let out a startled giggle as her feet left the floor, her heart fluttering despite the ache still lodged inside it.
“I missed you so much,” he said between a flurry of kisses—forehead, cheeks, nose, chin. “It was the worst trip without you. Utterly tragic. I almost cried in public. Twice.”
She laughed softly, the sound more real than she expected it to be.
Then he pulled back just enough to look at her properly, his grin faltering. “Wait… were you crying?”
“No,” she said too quickly. “I—it's probably just the cold. My eyes do that sometimes.”
He looked unconvinced for a moment, but then simply nodded.
“Okay, cold-eyed Vera,” he said with a grin, “prepare yourself. Because I may have… slightly overdone it.”
“Overdone wha—”
He took her hand and tugged her toward his bed, and she almost choked.
“This!” he said proudly.
There wasn’t just one jacket—there were three: a long maroon one with fur lining, a black one with golden stitching, and a soft, oversized purple one she could probably sleep in.
“Because I couldn’t pick,” he said, “and you would look pretty in all of them.”
Then came violet dresses—two of them, one velvet with flowing sleeves, the other a sleek, shimmery thing that caught the light like starlight.
But it didn't stop there.
Ten pairs of leathered gloves. Perfume in a bottle shaped like a crystal tear. A palette of enchanted makeup that shimmered with shifting colours. Jewelry—rings, necklaces, and a pair of earrings shaped like tiny stars. Stationery with violet ink that glittered when she wrote. All sorts of candy from Honeydukes. Hair clips shaped like crescents. And a small, stuffed bear with button eyes and a ridiculously oversized bow around its neck.
Vera stared.
Overwhelmed didn’t even begin to cover it. The joy, the shock, the disbelief—and under it all, a quiet sadness that tugged at her ribs like a string caught in a door.
“I know it’s a lot,” Ryu said quickly. “Too much, maybe. But I just—there were so many things and I kept thinking, Vera would love this, and I just—well. I wanted to see you happy.”
She looked at him, her throat tight. Then, without warning, the tears came.
She covered her eyes, as if she could stop them, but it was too late. Her shoulders shook as the wave crashed over her, soft sobs spilling into the quiet dormitory air.
His face changed in an instant. “Oh—no, no, no, wait! I—did I do something wrong? Was it the bear? Was it too orange? I can go back and—”
“No,” she said, voice breaking into a laugh and a sob all at once. “No, no, Ryu—stop. I’m just… I’m happy. And grateful. And I don’t know what to say.”
His shoulders dropped with visible relief as he pulled her into another warm, secure hug.
“Merlin, Vera, I was this close to throwing everything into the fire. I thought you hated all of it.”
“I love them,” she murmured. “And you. I just… You're the best boyfriend ever, and I don’t bloody deserve you.”
He leaned back, cupped her face, and looked her dead in the eyes. “Don’t. Ever. Say that again.”
She tried to smile, but another tear slipped down her cheek. He wiped it away with his thumb.
“You deserve all of it. And more. Now stop being all dramatic and weepy,” he said with a playful nudge to her nose, "I expect a fashion show."
She burst out laughing. “A fashion show?”
“You, in these outfits, right now. I didn’t spend an hour arguing with a mirror about colour palettes for you to sit there and cry all over the plushie.”
“Wait, you argued with a mirror?”
“Don’t change the subject, Miss Black. Now off to the loo. I’ll count to thirty and pretend to be surprised when you come out.”
“No need,” she said, already tugging off her jumper.
“Oi!” he yelped, spinning around and slapping a hand over his eyes like some sort of medieval gentleman.
She laughed, amused and touched in equal measure. “You can watch, you git. I’m your girlfriend.”
“Still! Some things require… graceful transitions!”
“Relax,” she grinned, pulling the jumper over her head. “I’ve got a tank on. No scandal.”
He hesitated. “Are you sure?”
“I promise.”
He peeked through his fingers… and immediately forgot how to breathe.
There she was in a simple, white fitted tank top, tugged slightly askew from pulling off her jumper. Her hair was messy in the most endearing way, cheeks still pink from crying, and a hint of cleavage showing where the neckline dipped—just enough to reveal the strap of a pale pink bra. The light behind her gave her a soft glow, and for a moment, Ryu felt like he might actually die from pure adoration.
“...You okay?” she asked, eyebrow raised at his stunned silence.
“Totally,” he said, voice cracking just a little. “Though I gotta say, didn’t peg you for the pink-lace type.”
She snorted, arms folding across her chest. “Pervert.”
“Guilty,” he grinned. “But in my defense—very distracting.”
She chuckled and pulled on one of the jackets—the purple oversized one first, wrapping it around herself and twirling like she was on a runway.
“What do you think?”
“You look like a fashionable marshmallow,” he said proudly. “Absolutely adorable.”
Next came the black one with the gold threading.
“This one screams ‘mysterious heiress with a tragic past,’” she declared, striking a dramatic pose.
“And this one,” she added, twirling the maroon one, “says ‘please don’t talk to me before tea.’”
Ryu sat on the bed, utterly enraptured, carefully sliding jeweled clips into her hair between outfits and occasionally dabbing shimmer on her cheeks like he knew what he was doing.
“Hold still,” he murmured, tongue peeking out slightly as he applied a touch of glitter near her eyes. “Yes. Perfect. You’re a literal comet.”
“Your turn,” she said, holding up the makeup palette.
He paused. “What?”
“Sit.”
And to his credit, he did—with only minor whining—letting her sweep pale blue across his eyelids and brush blush onto his cheeks. “Now you’re a stunning dragon, Avery boy."
“Merlin help me,” he muttered. “Am I radiant? I feel radiant.”
“You are totally radiant,” she said with a grin, feeding him a Sugar Quill.
They flopped onto the bed shortly after, surrounded by wrappers and ribbons, munching on Fizzing Whizzbees and sherbet balls as Ryu recounted every bizarre thing Roger had done on the trip.
“Then he tried to flirt with Madam Rosmerta by quoting poetry. Actual poetry. About Butterbeer.”
“No!”
“Oh yes. It started with ‘O golden nectar of the gods…’ I’m not even kidding. I think she gave him a sympathy scone.”
She laughed until her stomach hurt, her eyes finally dry.
It wasn’t Hogsmeade. It wasn’t butterbeer or a date by the Shrieking Shack. But it felt like everything she needed.
Tuesday, December 17, 1991
She sat beside him in Care for magical creatures class, still basking in the warmth of the weekend's comfort. His hand kept creeping over to hers under the desk, and she’d swat him away only for him to grin and do it again. Her cheeks were sore from smiling, a rare ache she didn’t mind.
At the front of the room, Professor Kettleburn gestured enthusiastically with his walking stick, nearly knocking over a stack of illustrated scrolls.
“Now, Frost-Wing cygnets! Remarkable creatures—silver feathers, eyes like full moons. Born once every seven years in the far north. Migratory, magical, and now—tragically—endangered.”
He tapped the blackboard with his stick, and it lit up with a flickering sketch of a glowing, swan-like bird in flight.
But just as he launched deeper into the lesson, a prefect stepped into the classroom and leaned down to whisper something in the his ear.
“Miss Black,” Kettleburn called, glancing her way. “You are wanted in Professor McGonagall’s office.”
Ryu leaned in with a mischievous glint in his eye. “Ooooh, what did you do?”
“Shut up,” she muttered, heart starting to race. “I didn’t do anything.”
He shrugged. “They always say that right before they get expelled.”
She shot him one last glare before grabbing her bag and heading out. The corridor felt too quiet as she made her way to McGonagall’s office, nerves rising with every step.
She opened the door, ready for anything—except what she saw.
“Donnie?!” she gasped.
There he was, sitting casually in one of the chairs, legs stretched out, arms open with that crooked smile she knew so well.
She dropped her bag with a thud and launched into a run, wrapping her arms around him. “Bloody hell, Donnie!"
He laughed and hugged her just as tightly. “You’re almost as tall as me now. When did that happen?”
She pulled back, still grinning. “What are you doing here?”
“Came to see you, of course." He said, pinching her cheek. "There's something I need to talk to you about."
Professor McGonagall gave them both a nod and quietly excused herself, closing the office door behind her.
Vera’s smile faded slightly as she looked back at him, her chest suddenly tightening. “You’re scaring me. What is it?”
He gently took her hand, his thumb brushing over her gloved knuckles.
“McGonagall wrote to me,” he started quietly, “told me about Hogsmeade. And I just want to say I’m sorry.”
“Sorry? For what?”
“For not being able to sign your permission slip. I wanted to, desperately. I thought about sending it anyway, forging something, anything. But…”
“It’s fine, Donnie. I know you couldn’t. It had to be a family member.”
He looked down, guilt flickering across his face. “That’s not actually true, Vera. As your magical guardian, I am allowed to sign it.”
She frowned. “Then... why didn’t you?”
“Because I’m not your guardian anymore.”
The words hit her like a stone in the chest.
“Wait, what?”
He sighed. “My office—the whole department, actually—was shut down at the beginning of July. I’ve been out of work ever since. They reassigned the tasks, shuffled everything around. I was going to tell you during the summer. I really was. But I didn’t know how. And I didn’t want to ruin your time before school started.”
Her eyes brimmed with tears as she looked at him, her voice small and breaking. “Why? Why did they shut it down, Donnie?”
He sighed again and ran a hand through his hair, looking older than she’d ever seen him. “They said it was part of some big ‘expenses deduction strategy.’ Cutting costs. Streamlining departments. But…”
He leaned in a little, lowering his voice. “Between you and me, Vee, I think it’s something uglier. I think they’re doing it to make it harder for Muggleborns to integrate into our world. It wasn’t just my office. Loads of departments got cut—mostly the ones that actually helped people.”
Her lip trembled. “Is that why you looked so upset this summer? Because… you didn’t have a job anymore?”
He nodded slowly. “I didn’t want to dump all that on you, not with school coming up. But it’s been hard, Vera. I dedicated my whole life to the Ministry. Worked overtime without complaint, took every awful assignment they handed me. And they just… closed the door. No warning. Just a memo and a thank-you letter.”
He looked down at their joined hands. “I didn’t know who I was without that job. And losing it meant losing you too. At least, that’s what it felt like.”
Vera was crying now, her fingers tightening around his. "But what about kids like me—those without parents or guardians? What will happen to them?"
"It’ll go back to how things were before Minister Bagnold took over. She was the one who came up with the idea of magical guardians. Now, it’s up to Hogwarts to decide what happens to them."
“It’s not bloody fair." She sniffled. "None of it is. You didn't deserve what happened to you Donnie. You didn't!”
He smiled softly, his thumb brushing a tear off her cheek. “Don’t worry about me, darling. Men like Avery think they’re building fortresses, but all they’re doing is digging themselves deeper.”
Her head snapped up. “Av-Avery?”
“Yeah, Ryusei Avery. He’s the one behind this whole strategy—the budget cuts, the restructuring. Every single decision that’s dismantled the support system for Muggleborns… it traces back to him.”
Her sorrow twisted into a stunned silence, and then broke into something else entirely—pure, aching heartbreak.
Her boyfriend’s father. The man who she’d daydreamed about meeting. The one person whose approval she knew Ryu carried like a heavy burden. And he was responsible for all this pain. For Donnie losing his job. For cutting her off. For making people suffer.
She stared at the floor, her chest burning with confusion and guilt, but Donnie gave her hand a gentle squeeze.
“Hey,” he said quietly, tilting her chin up. “I’m going to be okay. Really. It doesn’t matter that I’m not your guardian anymore. I’m still your Donnie. That won’t ever change.”
He leaned forward and pressed a kiss to her forehead, warm and comforting. “Birdy’s having one of his mad little lunch parties next Monday. He wants you to join us. Remy’s coming too. You’ll be there, won’t you?”
She blinked fast, smiling through the fresh tears that rolled down her face. “Yeah. I will.”
“Good,” he said with a nod, then stood and ruffled her hair gently. “I’d better let you go before McGonagall storms in and turns me into a quill for holding you up. Merlin, that woman is still as stern as I remember—and twice as terrifying.”
She giggled through her tears. "I'm happy to see you, Donnie."
"You too , darling." He said with a grin. “Now, go to your class, and I’ll see you very soon.”
She threw her arms around him one last time, holding on tightly. Then, with her heart still heavy and her mind swimming, she pulled herself away and made her way back to class—each step weighed down by everything she now knew.
She slipped quietly back into Care for magical creatures, her steps light but her presence heavy. Her eyes were swollen and red, her nose still faintly pink from crying. She took her seat beside Ryu without a word, staring straight ahead, her jaw set tightly.
He leaned over, concern etched all over his face. “Are you okay?” he whispered.
But she didn’t look at him. She couldn’t. Her gaze stayed fixed on the front of the class, hands clenched in her lap.
"Vera, what happened?"
Still, nothing.
"Vera—"
“Mr. Avery," Kettleburn raised a hand gently. "Please, leave her be.”
Ryu sank back in his chair, reluctantly nodding. The rest of the class dragged on, but she didn’t speak, didn’t take notes, didn’t once turn his way.
When the bell finally rang, she gathered her things quickly and slipped out before he could even push his chair back.
He caught up to her in the corridor, grabbing her lightly by the wrist. “Vera—hey, wait. What's going on?”
She stopped, arms folding across her chest defensively, her eyes glued to the floor.
“Vera, talk to me.”
“I’m tired,” she said, her voice flat. “I just need to sleep.”
“Wait—"
But she was already stepping back, not even sparing him a glance.
She went straight back to her dorm, burying her face deep into her pillow, her tears soaking into the fabric. The muffled sobs came in waves, long and silent, like the ache in her chest. The room was quiet around her, the other girls gone, and for hours she just lay there, spiraling in thoughts she didn’t want to have.
She felt guilty.
And confused.
And angry at the universe for putting her in this position.
She didn’t want to blame Ryu. She knew it wasn't his fault. But he had defended his father once—and he would do it again. Because that’s what sons did. They loved, they defended. And she understood that. But she couldn’t defend what was wrong, not anymore.
Donnie was broken. And it wasn’t just him—half the wizarding world was suffering.
Because of Ryusei Avery.
She stared blankly at the canopy of her bed, her mind drifting back to that summer morning at Mrs. Wriggleshore’s. The memory was so vivid—her tea lukewarm, the sunlight catching dust in the air, and the newspaper headline that had made the old witch tut in frustration:
"New Tax on Heating Charms: Luxury or Necessity?"
At the time, Vera hadn’t understood the cruelty of it. But now, now she did.
The Avery family can't feel cold.
Of course Ryusei would think warmth was a luxury. Of course he'd call it excess when others called it survival. Every tax, every layoff, every cruel policy—it all stemmed from that same coldness.
The dorm door suddenly creaked open, and Katie poked her head in. “Avery’s got good taste, I’ll give him that.”
She turned her face, eyes puffy. “What?”
Katie stepped inside and set something on the nightstand. “Your boyfriend asked me to bring them. I said no, but he managed to bribe me with some sugar quills.”
Vera sat up slowly, blinking in surprise at the bouquet of wildflowers. Tucked between the stems was a note.
"I don’t know what I did, but I'm truly sorry. Please talk to me. Please."
She sat in silence for a long moment, the flowers in her lap. Her heart still ached, but it ached differently now. And yet, she knew she had to talk to him. Even if it hurt.
He was already in his dorm when she stepped in. His head lifted the moment he heard her footsteps, and his face lit up with something close to relief—until he really looked at her.
“Vera…”
She didn’t answer, just stood there for a moment, arms wrapped around herself like she might fall apart if she let go.
She moved to sit on the bed next to him, but there was a space between them—a cautious, aching distance neither of them dared to close.
Ryu watched her, confused and anxious.
“I’ve been trying to figure out what I did wrong,” he admitted. “You wouldn’t even look at me earlier. I thought—did I say something? Was it the gifts?”
She shook her head, staring at her hands in her lap. “You didn’t do anything wrong.”
“Then what is it?"
She bit her lip, trying to hold it in, but it was right there under her skin, begging to be let out.
"Do you remember the man who was scolding me the first time you saw me in Diagon Alley?”
He blinked, thinking back. “Yeah… the big bloke with the unfortunate hair. You said he takes care of you.”
She nodded. “His name’s Donnie.”
“Is he alright?”
She took a shaky breath. “He’s okay. But he's not going to be taking care of me anymore.”
“What? Why?”
“He was fired.” She said bitterly. “For no reason. And it wasn’t fair. It wasn’t his fault. He was just... let go of. Like he didn’t matter.”
And then it came again—the tears.
She tried to hold them back, but it was useless. The weight of it all crashed over her once more, pulling sobs from her chest before she could stop them.
“It’s not fair,” she said again. “He gave everything to that job. And now he’s—he's just… tossed aside.”
“Oh—hey, come here,” Ryu whispered, scooting closer and pulling her into his arms.
She didn’t resist, and simply curled into his chest letting herself cry. He held her tightly, his chin resting on her head, murmuring soft, soothing things she barely heard.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered at one point. “I’m so sorry, Vera.”
He didn’t ask any more questions. Didn’t try to fix it. Just stayed with her, one hand gently rubbing her back, the other resting lightly on her arm like a promise he wasn’t going anywhere.
Eventually, her breaths grew slower, her grip loosened, and her head lolled against him, fast asleep.
When she woke up few hours later, the first thing she noticed was the emptiness beside her.
Her mind was still foggy, haunted by the strange dream she’d had—a field of red poppies, a thunderstorm overhead, and Ryu standing in the middle, completely still. She couldn't remember what he said to her, but his voice had followed her into the waking world.
She padded quietly across the empty room and into the bathroom. The mirror greeted her with the remnants of dried tears and blotchy skin, a reminder of everything she’d cried out just hours earlier. She took off her gloves, turned on the tap, and allowed the cool water to run over her hands before splashing her face.
Then, just as she reached for the towel, her eyes caught something new on the sink.
A wooden toothbrush.
She blinked at it, confused for a moment—until she picked it up and saw her name carved delicately into the handle. Vera, in tiny, slanted letters, followed by a small heart burned into the wood.
Her lips curled into the softest smile, involuntary and aching.
She held it to her chest for a moment, heart clenching with a bittersweet pang. She didn’t want this to end. Not the quiet kindness. Not the safety in his arms. Not the soft way he looked at her like she mattered.
But her mind—it kept reminding her.
Donnie is out of a job because of his father.
People are freezing because of his father.
She's dating the son of the man responsible for the destruction of an entire society.
She tried to breathe past the guilt, but it was all tangled up now—love and grief, comfort and pain. She didn’t want to blame him. He was just a boy. Just Ryu. The one who carved her name into things. The one who bought her gifts. The one who gave her the affection she longed for. The one who held her while she cried herself to sleep.
She brushed her teeth slowly, using the gift he left behind, as if it might somehow wash the confusion out of her as well.
Then she wiped her face dry, placed the toothbrush gently back where she found it, and left the bathroom.
The room was bathed in blue, gentle and still. She wandered a bit, dragging her fingers along his desk, and past the half-opened books.
Then she opened his wardrobe.
It was… neat. Very neat. All the clothes were in tones of blue and black, as if his wardrobe was color-coded by mood. A wave of curiosity hit her as her hand brushed past a long item tucked toward the back, and she pulled it out carefully.
It was navy blue, with silver dragon embroidery that shimmered faintly in the light. She didn’t know what it was exactly—some kind of robe? A coat?
Without thinking too hard, she slipped it on. It draped over her shoulders, a bit too big, but the fabric felt soft, silky, expensive. She turned to the mirror, watching how the sleeves swayed when she moved.
"Why are you wearing my Yukata?"
She jumped.
Ryu stood just a few feet behind her, holding a cup of what seemed to be chamomile tea.
“I—um—I didn’t know what it was,” she stammered. “I thought it was a coat or something. I'm sorry.”
He chuckled, placing the cup on his desk before approaching her.
“It looks great on you,” he said, smoothing the edge over her shoulder. “But you’re wearing it wrong. Here—”
He started to adjust the folds, pulling the left side over the right, fingers brushing lightly against her waist. She stood very still, heart pounding a little louder than before.
“You slept like a cat," he said, finishing the adjustment with a soft tug at the sash. “Curled up, perfectly still, and not a single snore.”
She laughed, glancing down. “You were very quiet too. It’s like sleeping next to a ghost.”
They both smiled.
And then—for a moment—they just looked at each other.
No jokes. No movement.
Just the soft sound of the world outside, and the silence between them stretching like a thread.
Ryu’s gaze didn’t waver from hers. The tension in the air had softened, but something deep and quiet still pulsed between them—like the last note of a song hanging in the air.
Then, he blinked, as if remembering something. “Wait here."
She watched him move toward the bedside drawer. Her curiosity piqued, brows knitting slightly as he knelt down, reached in carefully, and pulled out a small velvet box.
He stood up and walked toward her slowly, eyes warm, and when he opened the box, her breath caught in her throat.
Inside sat the amethyst necklace.
The very one he’d brought for her on Valentine’s Day that year. The same one she had rejected when she felt unworthy of.
“You… you kept it?”
He nodded. “Yeah. I was just waiting for the right moment to give it back to you."
"But why?”
“Because I still had hope. Of you. Of us.”
She bit down a smile, but it bloomed anyway, soft and impossible to hold back.
He stepped behind her, careful fingers brushing the strands of her hair aside. Slowly, he lifted the necklace and clasped it gently around her neck. The metal was cool against her skin, but it warmed instantly.
She looked at herself in the mirror, the rich violet stone resting against the navy of his Yukata draped on her shoulders. The way it caught the light—it made her look like someone else.
No, not someone else. Just more herself than she had ever dared to be.
A sharp heat pricked at the back of her eyes. She swallowed, willing the tears away, and turned to him.
And in that moment, with his face inches from hers, something shifted inside her.
All the guilt, all the fear—the weight of Donnie’s tears, of ministry decisions made by cold men who never felt winter—none of it disappeared.
But for the first time, it didn’t crush her. It sat there quietly, just out of reach, because something warmer, something stronger was pushing against it.
It didn’t matter that they thought differently. That they came from two different worlds, or that they would probably argue again tomorrow.
What mattered was this. Him. Her. Now.
“I love you, Vera."
Her heart stilled. Paused to make room for what those three words did inside her. The way they shattered every wall she had ever built, even the ones she thought were invisible. The way they settled in her bones like a truth she’d always known but never dared to believe.
"I just do." He added. "And I don’t want to wait anymore to say it.”
Her lips parted, but nothing came out at first. She could only look at him, wide-eyed, like she’d never really seen him before—even though she had, a hundred times over.
"Will you stay with me?” he asked quietly. “Forever?”
She nodded, her voice thick but sure. “I will.”
A slow smile spread across his lips, and he reached out, brushing his knuckles gently along her jawline. She closed her eyes for a moment, leaning into the touch, before meeting his gaze again.
And when they kissed, it wasn’t like the other times.
This one was slow, certain, and full of promise. The kind of kiss you only give someone when you’ve already chosen them, again and again—even before they’ve asked.
When they finally pulled apart, their foreheads rested together, breathless, caught between laughter and desire. Yet even then, they found each other again in another kiss.
Because whatever came next—they had already chosen each other.
Notes:
Chapter's song: Under Pressure - David Bowie & Queen
Just to clear some confusion:
Ryu has no idea who Donnie truly is. He believes Donnie was employed by Vera’s family to look after her and assumes he was dismissed by her aunt.
So why did Vera almost tell him the truth — and then hold back?
Because revealing that Donnie was actually appointed by the Ministry as her magical guardian would expose everything. Ryu would realize she has no family, that she lives in the Muggle world, and that everything she’s let him believe is a carefully maintained illusion. Weighing the consequences, she decided it was better to keep that part of her life hidden.
She’s a menace, sure—but honestly, wouldn’t you raise a little hell if your boyfriend was devastatingly handsome and filthy rich?
Don’t forget to drop a comment and dish your thoughts on Ryu’s big confession—I know you’ve got feelings about it!
Chapter 79: Christmas '91
Notes:
Grab your favorite drink and settle in—this chapter’s longer than a Hogwarts Christmas feast. But hey, by now you’re probably seasoned veterans of these festive marathons.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Part one: You're my best friend
Saturday, December 21, 1991
The courtyard was a flurry of students and trunks, voices rising in cheerful chaos as the holiday break loomed ahead. Vera walked beside Ryu, tucking a small, ribboned box under her arm.
"Hang on," she said, "I just need to dash to Hagrid's. Won't be long."
"What for?"
"I want to give him his Christmas gift." She lifted the box meaningfully. "Cookies!"
His gaze flicked to it, and one eyebrow arched high. "You made Hagrid cookies?"
"Don’t bloody start."
"I’m not starting. I’m admiring. You're the kindest person I’ve met, Veve. Honestly, it’s alarming."
She blinked up at him, cheeks burning treacherously.
"I'll be quick," she muttered. "Save me a seat, alright?"
He tipped an imaginary hat. "Wouldn't dream of letting anyone else steal it."
Her boots crunched over the frosted grass as she hurried down the path to Hagrid’s hut. She knocked lightly, and almost immediately, Hagrid’s broad frame filled the doorway.
"Vera!"
"Happy Christmas, Mr. Hagrid," she said, offering up the box with a shy smile. "I brought you something."
His big hands took it with exaggerated care. "Tha’s real kind of yeh. I thought... well, thought yeh might not make it this year."
"Of course I did!" she said, stepping inside.
She slipped off her jacket and settled on the edge of his bed. "The largest cookie’s for Fang. I made it with bits of meat so he'd actually like it."
Hagrid chuckled, and set the box carefully on the table. He then eased himself into the large chair opposite her, causing it to groan under his weight.
For a moment, she fidgeted with the hem of her dress, twisting the fabric between her fingers.
He noticed immediately. "Somethin' on yer mind, young Vera?"
She hesitated. "I do have a request, but it's... slightly awkward."
He leaned forward. "It’s alright. Tell me."
She took a breath, the words sticking like burrs in her throat. "Could you... not give me letters from home when I'm with Ryu?"
His brows furrowed, and for a moment, disappointment flickered across his face.
"He doesn't know?" he asked gently.
She shook her head. "I am going to tell him. I promise. I just need... the right moment."
"Yer scared o' how he’ll react?"
"Yeah, but he loves me, Mr. Hagrid. He’ll understand."
He gave a great, weary sigh, then smiled at her, though it didn’t quite reach his eyes.
"I'm no expert on romance an’ the like... but I know this much: relationships built on dishonesty are like houses built on movin' sand. Doesn’t matter how much love yeh pile on top — if the ground's shifty, it’ll all come crashin’ down. Sometimes, love isn't just about understanding, but having the will to learn. And if Yer sure he'll be okay with it, then yeh'll be fine. Yer a good lass, Vera. Just make sure Yer fair to yerself too, eh?"
She rose from the bed, pulling her jacket back on. "I will," she said, her smile a little steadier now.
With a last grateful glance at him, she slipped out the door, the cold air snatching at her hair as she ran back toward the carriages.
Once on the train, Ryu claimed a compartment for the two of them, tucked away from the noise and bustle of the other students.
They sat together, laughing between bites of sweets, flicking Bertie Bott’s Every Flavour Beans at each other.
But then, mid-giggle, Ryu shifted, suddenly looking far too serious for the moment.
"Okay," he said, brushing crumbs from his lap. "Confession time."
She froze mid-reach for a cauldron cake, her stomach tightening instinctively. "What is it!"
He scratched the back of his head, the way he always did when he was sheepish. "I told my parents about us."
Her eyes widened in shock. "Wait — what? When?"
"Right when we started dating. Um. Same day, actually."
A low, creeping panic stirred in her chest. "RYUUU!"
"Relax." He chuckled. "They're fine with it. My mum’s over the moon, actually. Swore not to breathe a word, but she's ridiculously happy about it. She really likes you, baby."
Vera blinked, her heart slowing a little. "She does?"
"She does."
A small, tentative smile touched her lips, but there was still one question she couldn’t swallow down. "And your dad?"
"Yeah, he’s happy too. Though... I think he's just glad I'm not gay."
She almost choked on thin air but managed to steady herself.
Because what the actual fuck?
"Will they be at the platform?" she asked after a moment, trying to sound casual.
"Mum will be there. Dad’s caught up at the Ministry. Paperwork, probably. You know how it is."
She nodded quickly, a wave of silent relief washing over her.
"You nervous about meeting him?"
"A little," she admitted.
"Don’t be. Dad’s a good man. It's gonna be okay."
She gave him a small, carefully measured smile, swallowing back the knot of dread that wanted to form. Good man. Right. Good, except for the part where he caused an unemployment crisis. Ryu didn’t notice the flicker of emotion on her face, his grin turning playful again as he shifted closer.
"Now," he said, voice lowering dramatically, "since you owe me a kiss..."
"We’ll get thrown off the train, Ryu. Prefects are ruthless."
"Next shift change is in half an hour. Plenty of time to corrupt you."
She rolled her eyes, but her cheeks warmed. She nodded once, giving him the tiniest permission.
He wasted no time. In one smooth motion, he leaned in and caught her lips in a kiss — quick, sweet, but full of a giddy kind of affection that made her heart stumble against her ribs. She tilted her head to better fit against him, but a sharp knock suddenly sounded at the compartment door. They both turned sharply—only to find Cassius standing there, a lopsided, uncertain look on his face. Before either of them could react, he slid the door open and stepped halfway inside.
Ryu’s expression darkened immediately.
"What the fuck do you want?" he snapped, his whole body tensing like he was ready to physically throw him out.
Cassius quickly raised both hands in surrender. "Look—before you go off at me, just hear me out."
Ryu wasn't having it.
"There’s nothing to hear," he said coldly. "You insulted my girlfriend, shoved her, and called her a bitch—"
"And I’m sorry about it!"
"It’s not me you should apologize to, and you bloody well know it."
Vera stayed silent, heart hammering against her ribs.
Cassius turned to her.
"I’m truly sorry, Vera," he said. "For everything I've done."
She blinked, caught off guard by how sincere he sounded. She looked to Ryu instinctively, searching for his reaction—but he was still glaring daggers, arms crossed, his whole body tense and mistrustful.
"Sorry?" He scoffed. "You tortured her, Cassius. You called her unfaithful, promiscuous—told me to leave her. You made her relive her worst memories. You brought her that—that sickening gift. You think one ‘sorry’ is enough to wipe that clean?"
"I was wrong," Cassius muttered. "I thought I was protecting you. I thought she wasn’t right for you. But... I was an idiot. And blind. I’ve never seen you happier than you are with her. So... I take it all back. And I’m sorry, Vera. Really."
Vera stared at him, stunned.
A part of her, deep and wounded, wanted to scream at him—to never trust him again. But another part... a softer, smaller one... remembered how much it had hurt to be hated so viciously.
She looked at Ryu again. His jaw was tight, his hands still fisted. He didn’t want her to forgive.
But... she had to. For herself, if nothing else.
"I accept your apology."
Ryu turned to her sharply. "Vera, don’t—"
"I truly do," she insisted, cutting him off with a soft look. "And... I'm sorry too. For provoking you the other day. It was wrong of me."
Cassius smiled faintly, a bit relieved. "I accept your apology too."
The two of them glanced at Ryu, who looked as if he was physically chewing on glass.
"Fine," he said with a muttered curse under his breath. "I forgive you too. But if you ever hurt her again—"
"I won't," Cassius said quickly.
Then he grinned, tension easing from his shoulders. "Now... can we talk? If Vera doesn’t mind."
She started to rise, but before she could step away, Ryu caught her wrist lightly. "Anything you wanna say, you can say it in front of my girlfriend."
Cassius hesitated, visibly reluctant.
"It’s okay," she murmured, "I could use a walk anyway."
Cassius gave her a grateful smile as she slipped out of the compartment, leaving the boys inside with the weight of old grudges—and maybe the beginnings of something new.
She wandered aimlessly down the train's corridor, her hand brushing the walls for balance as the train swayed gently from side to side. Eventually, she reached the carriage with the open space, slipping inside almost unnoticed.
Her eyes swept over the room automatically—and then froze.
Tommy, Cedric, Alicia, Maddie, and Angelina were gathered around one table, leaning into each other with easy smiles, giggling over some private joke. They looked so comfortable, so at ease—like a painting of what friendship was supposed to be. For a second, just a second, she allowed herself to imagine sliding into the empty chair beside them. Laughing until her ribs hurt. Feeling like she belonged.
It was a terrible, aching kind of longing—the sort that caught in your throat and didn't let go.
She squared her shoulders and made her way toward them, willing her legs to move. They stopped talking as soon as she appeared—the whole table falling into a heavy, unnatural silence. They didn’t look at her. Didn’t smile. Didn’t even acknowledge her existence.
She cleared her throat, her voice catching a little at the start. "I just... wanted to wish you all a happy Christmas."
No one responded. No one smiled back. They just stared at their hands, at each other, anywhere but at her.
She lingered for a moment, a pathetic sort of hope fluttering in her chest. Waiting. Just for the smallest kindness—a nod, a word, a smile. Something to tell her she hadn’t made it all up—that there had once been something real between them.
But Nothing. Not even from Cedric.
She turned slowly, willing herself to walk away with whatever shred of dignity she had left.
Until—
"Pagan bitch," Tommy muttered, followed by stifled chuckling.
For a heartbeat, she thought she might turn around—demand to know why, to ask how he could say that.
But she didn’t. Just stood there, her back to them, her eyes stinging, her throat burning. Then she kept walking. One step after another, until the door slid shut behind her and their laughter was nothing but a dull roar in her ears.
She made her way back through the corridor, her head bowed slightly, still feeling the sting of Tommy’s voice in her ears. When she reached her compartment, the door slid open just as Cassius was stepping out. He gave her a small, almost sheepish smile— a peace offering—before slipping quietly down the corridor without a word.
She stepped inside and found Ryu sitting stiffly by the window, his body tense, his gaze distant as the winter landscape blurred past. She slipped into the seat beside him, brushing her hand against his arm gently.
"How did it go?"
But he didn’t answer. Just kept staring out at the snow-covered fields rolling by.
She leaned closer, sliding her hand under his chin and gently turning his face toward her.
"Ryu," she whispered, "what happened? What did he want?"
He took a deep breath, his shoulders sagging slightly. "My father throws a dinner every year at the end of December. And Cassius… he just wanted to make sure that he and his father would be invited. That's why he apologized. Not because he cared. Not because he regretted it. But because he was scared we'd cut them off. Especially that my dad’s already pissed at David Warrington."
The disappointment in his eyes was sharp enough to cut. That raw, wounded look of someone realizing how disposable they were to the people they thought they mattered to. She reached out, rubbing slow, comforting circles on his arm, before linking her fingers with his.
"I thought Cassius was truly my friend," he continued, his voice cracking slightly. "But now I know... He's using me. Just as they all did. And I can’t help but wonder if I ever had any friends at all."
"You have me," she said firmly. "I’ll be your best friend. And you’ll be mine. We won’t need anyone else, ever again."
He gave her a slow, warm smile—the kind that softened his sharp features and made him look younger, more vulnerable.
Then he leaned in and kissed her, a gentle, grateful brush of lips that said more than words could.
When he pulled back, his smile lingered. And for a moment, Vera allowed herself to bask in the feeling—to be needed, to be wanted, to be loved.
The train began to slow, the rhythmic clatter of wheels easing into a low rumble.
Vera felt her stomach tighten with every lurch of the carriage, nerves buzzing under her skin. She fiddled with the hem of her dress for the hundredth time, trying to smooth it out, then quickly reached up to fix her hair, even though it barely needed fixing.
"Do I look okay?" she asked, voice low and anxious. "Is my dress too short? Maybe I should’ve worn something else—"
"If you’re trying to kill me before the holiday, then yeah. Absolutely scandalous."
"I’m serious, Ryu! What if your mum thinks I’m—"
"—absolutely perfect?" he interrupted, tugging a lock of her hair playfully. "Relax. She already loves you. Probably more than me."
Before she could protest, the train gave a final, long screech and came to a stop.
Outside the window, families were gathering on the platform, waving and calling out greetings. Ryu stood up, grabbing both of their bags in one hand, the other reaching for her. He kept glancing over the crowd, his eyes scanning eagerly until finally he spotted his mum, standing gracefully near the front.
"There she is!" he said brightly, and before Vera could react, he was dragging her along the platform.
Mrs. Avery beamed when she spotted them, her red lipstick a perfect contrast against the monochrome of her attire. She was as elegant as ever, her black coat lined with rich fur, her dark hair swept back into a glamorous twist.
Ryu dropped the bags at her feet and hugged her warmly. But almost immediately, she pulled back and began fussing over him, hands inspecting his face and shoulders.
"Merlin, look at you! You’ve lost weight, you need a haircut, and when was the last time you cleaned these earrings?! And your nails, darling, honestly—"
"Mum," he interrupted, "would you say hi to Vera first?"
Mrs. Avery blinked, clearly realizing her mistake. "Oh! I'm so sorry, my dear!"
She turned to Vera and embraced her tightly.
"You're as beautiful as I remember," she said warmly, squeezing her like a long-lost daughter. "No wonder my son is in love with you."
Vera's cheeks flushed deep red. "Thank you, Mrs. Ave—"
"Please, darling, call me Winnie."
Vera glanced at Ryu, who was grinning proudly, and smiled back, feeling the tension start to ebb from her shoulders.
Winnie continued gushing, "I'm so thrilled you're dating Ryujin—I always said he needed a smart, kind girl to keep him in line! Oh, and you'll have such wonderful babies together—"
Ryu choked mid-breath, pulling his mother gently but firmly away from Vera as his face turned a shade redder than the Hogwarts Express itself.
Vera herself nearly combusted on the spot but managed a small, mortified smile.
"Don’t be embarrassed, dear." Winnie laughed airily, patting Ryu’s cheek. "It’s inevitable!"
She then turned her attention back to Vera. "Will someone be picking you up, darling?"
Vera nodded, shifting on her feet. "Yes, but… they’re a little late."
"We can wait with you if you like."
"No, no, it’s fine, really. I’ll manage."
Winnie gave her a warm, knowing look before reaching into her elegant handbag and pulling out a thick envelope.
"An invitation to our annual winter dinner," she said. "I hope your aunt can make it."
Vera took the envelope carefully, her fingers brushing the gold-embossed crest.
"Thank you," she said, though her stomach twisted at the thought. "I’m not sure she’ll come, though."
"Tell her it’s from Winnie Avery—maybe that’ll change her mind. And even if she couldn't, just make sure to send her my regards. Sisterhood love never dies, after all."
Vera frowned slightly at the odd phrasing but masked it with a small smile. "I will," she said softly.
Winnie gave her one last hug before waving Ryu along. "Go on, say your goodbyes. We need to get goin—Toto’s already messing up the luggage!"
She bustled away, a small house-elf scurrying after her, bowing repeatedly as he wrangled the luggage.
Ryu turned back to Vera, standing close now. "I’m gonna miss you so much..."
"It’s only a couple of weeks, idiot."
"And I’ll die every second of them," he said dramatically, making her laugh despite herself.
She hugged him tightly, breathing in the familiar scent. As they pulled back, she hesitated for a moment, unsure whether to kiss him with his mother nearby. He seemed to feel the same awkwardness and just smiled, brushing her hair gently behind her ear.
"Goodbye, Ryu," she whispered.
"Goodbye, best friend," he teased lightly, before slinging his bag over his shoulder.
She smiled and turned away to leave, clutching the envelope to her chest. But before she could take three steps, he grabbed her wrist and spun her around, crushing his mouth to hers in a kiss that left her breathless.
"I love you," he said fiercely, as if daring the whole world to hear it.
She grinned against his lips, feeling his warmth.
He kissed her cheek one last time before jogging back to his mother, who was watching them with a smile as smug and pleased as a cat in the sun.
Vera barely had time to wipe the dopey grin off her face when she spotted a familiar figure weaving her way on the other side— Miss Nelson, in her patchwork coat and giant knitted scarf, looking like a one-woman Christmas parade.
The moment Vera saw her, she bolted forward like a cannonball.
"MISS NELSON!" she practically shrieked, flinging herself into the woman’s arms like they’d been separated for a decade instead of a few months.
Miss Nelson stumbled back, laughing, as she caught her. "Good heavens, Vera, people are going to think I left you in the woods!"
"You practically did!" She said dramatically, squeezing her tighter.
"Come on, darling. Let’s get you home before you start weeping on me."
The second they walked into St. Mary's, a whirlwind came barreling down the stairs.
"VEEEEERAAAA!"
"KAAAAAYA!"
"I WAS GONNA CALL THE POLICE!" Kaya yelled into her ear, hugging her tightly. "I WAS THIS CLOSE TO PRINTING MISSING PERSON POSTERS!"
"You’re so dramatic," Vera laughed, clinging to her. "You saw me off four months ago!"
"Four months is basically five years in this bloody town!"
The two girls soon collapsed onto the worn-out couch, and before Vera could even catch her breath, Kaya leaned in close, eyes gleaming like a cop in a crime drama.
"Alright," she said, cracking her knuckles. "Birthdate, star sign, height, blood type, favorite pizza topping. Spill."
Vera blinked, still breathless from being tackled. "Wh-what?"
"Your BOYFRIEND! The mysterious Ryu Avery! You think you can just drop that bombshell on me in a letter and NOT face questioning?"
Vera laughed, feeling her face heat up again. "Shut uppp!"
"I WON'T UNTIL YOU TELL ME HOW HE IS LIKE!"
"He's dreamy," Vera sighed, flopping backward like a tragic heroine. "Like, unfairly dreamy. Unreasonably, scientifically impossible levels of dreamy."
"Define dreamy. Like 'he holds doors open' dreamy? Or 'would fight a bear for you' dreamy?"
"Both!" Vera squealed. "He's sweet, and funny, and he smells really, really good. He's soooo tall and he has this messy hair that’s always falling into his eyes, and when he smiles, it’s like—"
She made a vague, helpless flailing motion that clearly meant I’m emotionally deceased.
Kaya leaned forward, nodding seriously. "Mhm. Mmhm. Critical information. Proceed."
"And he’s insanely fit. He's got abs, Kaya. ABS!"
"ABS?"
"ABSSSSSS!"
"GO ON!"
"He's so bloody smart," she gushed, her hands flying everywhere now. "And generous. And thoughtful. He got me this necklace and so much more. And he listens. Like properly listens, not just nodding while planning his lunch in his head."
"Oh my god," Kaya said, grabbing a throw pillow and dramatically clutching it to her chest. "You’re in deep."
"You have nooooo idea."
"Okay that's it! Show me the goods. Pictures. Evidence. Full investigative file. Now."
Vera jumped up and grabbed her bag, digging out her battered sketchbook from under a pile of crumpled parchments and half-finished cauldron cakes. She plopped back onto the couch and dropped it like a sacred text.
Kaya flipped it open—and promptly let out a sound somewhere between a gasp and a wheeze.
"Bitch," she said, eyebrows climbing into her hairline. "BITCH."
Every page.
Every. Single. Page.
Ryu’s face.
Ryu laughing.
Ryu frowning.
Ryu reading.
Ryu sleeping.
Ryu tying his hair up.
Ryu eating toast.
"You’re obsessed," Kaya said, flipping faster and faster through the sketchbook, her face a perfect mix of horror and amusement. "There’s like sixty of these! This is not a relationship, it's a full-blown religion."
"I might have drawn him a few times."
"A FEW?! There’s enough material here to fill a museum."
Vera clutched a pillow over her face and groaned. "I couldn’t help it! He’s so—ugh!"
"Ugh indeed," Kaya said, nodding solemnly. "Ugh is a powerful force. Ugh has claimed many before you."
Vera peeked out from behind the pillow, her face pink. "Do you think he's handsome?"
"I think he's disgustingly good-looking. And if you don’t marry him, I will. Fair warning."
"What about Dex?"
"FUCK Dex! I mean, your boyfriend's face could cure illnesses. His jawline—OH MY DAYS, VERA! HE'S GORGEOUS! And fucking rich too? Girl, you've won life!"
“I haven’t even told you the best part yet.”
“WHAT IS IT?!”
“He said he loves me.”
“AAAAAAAAAHHH!” Kaya shrieked, launching herself into the air like she had springs for legs. “HE SAID THE L-WORD?!”
Vera was doubled over, wheezing with laughter. “You look like you just got possessed.”
“Did you say it back? Please don’t tell me you just blinked at him.”
“…No.”
“NO?! Vera!”
“I panicked! It’s just—that word. I’ve never said it to anyone before.”
Kaya narrowed her eyes. “You've said it to Damon Albarn.”
"That doesn't even count! Besides, it’s not like I don’t feel it. It’s just—every time I try to say it, I feel all… twitchy and sick and weird. I don’t understand why.”
"Babe, that’s totally normal. Love is terrifying. You just need to warm up to it. Maybe whisper it to a plant first. Start with a cactus.”
Vera couldn’t help but laugh, even as she buried her face in the sketchbook again and thought about Ryu’s smile, and his hands, and the way he looked at her like she was the most interesting thing in the world.
After a while, she gently closed the sketchbook, tucking it safely under the couch before Kaya could start ranking the drawings like a lunatic.
"Alright, enough about me and my tragic lovesick state. What about you, huh? What's the gossip? Tell me everything before I die of curiosity."
Kaya perked up immediately, ready to spill the tea like she’d been waiting for an excuse. "Well, Dex and his super serious, life-changing, career-defining band broke up."
"AGAIN?" Vera gasped. "What happened this time? Creative differences? A scandal? Someone stole someone’s guitar pick?"
"Almost worse," Kaya snorted. "They got into a fight over the band name. The band name, Vee. Like, full-blown screaming match in front of the chippy."
"...You’re kidding."
"I wish! Turns out Dex wanted to change it to 'Wandering Souls,' and Tyler— you remember Tyler, right? Tall, always smelled like expired vanilla?"
Vera nodded, laughing.
"Yeah, well, Tyler wanted to call it 'Bone Garden.' They almost came to blows. Mrs. Patel had to break it up with her broom. Anyways, band’s dead. Dex has been sulking about it like someone canceled Christmas."
"And what about the neighborhood? Any other catastrophes?"
"Mr. Dawson's still a twat. He tried to scold Lola for wearing shorts, can you believe that? LOLA! The girl is barely six. Mrs. Quinn knew about it. And let's just say, his old ears heard curses that probably caused him an infection."
Vera cringed. "What a piece of shite."
"Speaking of Mrs. Quinn, her husband's been in and out of the hospital again. But he’s hanging in there. He said if he kicks the bucket before February, he’s gonna haunt the post office because 'those thieves still owe me thirty pence from 1978.'"
Vera giggled, but her heart pinched a little at the thought. "Poor Mr. Quinn. I’ll go visit him before the holidays end."
"He asked about you. Keeps calling you 'the one with the good head on her shoulders,' unlike some people." She jabbed her thumb at herself and fake-pouted.
"And what about Miss Nelson? Still dating that mysterious doctor?"
"I don’t really know," Kaya said, voice softer.
"She’s been… off lately. Sleeping loads. Kinda drifting around. And her smile—it’s not the same. I think something happened between them.”
Vera’s smile faded, a quiet ache settling behind her ribs. “Did she say anything?”
“I asked once. She just muttered something about ‘catching up on rest’ and changed the subject. But… you can feel it, you know? Like when someone’s pretending to be okay but their eyes forgot how to lie.”
“I really hope she’s okay. Breakups sound like the worst kind of sad. Just thinking about Ryu and me not being together makes my organs fold in on themselves.”
“Yeah well, if you two break up, I’m picking a side, and it’s definitely not yours. But I will keep the necklace he gave you. Fair warning.”
Vera chuckled. “Okay so, what are we getting from the Christmas markets?”
Kaya perked up instantly. “Oh my god, everything. I want one of those cinnamon-sugar pretzels the size of my head, obviously. And a new scarf—something obnoxiously fluffy. And I’m gonna drag you to the booth with the weird elf guy who sells snow globes."
"I'll pass, but thank you."
“And since we’re going Monday, we need to get there early or all the good stuff will be gone.”
Vera’s smile faltered. “Wait, Monday?”
“Yeah. That’s when we're going.”
Vera bit her lip, a small pit forming in her stomach. Monday was the day of Birdy’s lunch—the one she’d already promised Donnie she’d attend.
“You alright?” Kaya asked, her eyes narrowing slightly.
She blinked and forced a bright smile. “Yeah! Totally fine. I can’t wait to go.”
Part two: The man who sold the world
Monday, December 23, 1991
Monday morning arrived cloaked in a kind of dread that Vera couldn’t quite explain.
She was jolted awake by the harsh caw of a crow outside her window, its cry splitting the quiet like a bad omen. For a moment, she wasn’t even sure it was real—maybe she dreamt it. Maybe it was just her fear taking shape and screaming through her subconscious.
Still, the sound had left a chill in her bones.
Suddenly, her bedroom door burst open with the force of a mini hurricane, and Kaya stormed in.
“Vera! What the hell, why are you still in bed? I woke you up like half an hour ago!”
Vera blinked at her, then, on instinct, dropped into a hacking cough so unconvincing it would have made a portrait actor wince.
“I—ugh—I’m not feeling well,” she croaked, voice hoarse like she’d gargled gravel. “I think I’m… coming down with something. Ugh. I feel like death.”
Kaya's face softened with concern as she stepped closer. “Oh no. Seriously? You looked fine last night.”
She nodded weakly, throwing in a few sniffles for flair. “I just woke up feeling awful. I don’t think I can make it to the markets today.”
“Damn. That sucks, Vee. I was really looking forward to dragging you into an elf costume.”
Vera gave a tiny smile.
“But it’s okay. You stay and rest. And if you need anything from the stalls, just write me a list, yeah? I’ll make sure you don’t miss out on the cinnamon pretzels of destiny.”
“Thanks, K,” Vera whispered, grateful and guilty all at once.
Kaya ruffled her hair gently and grabbed her bag. “We'll be back in a few hours. And if you die while I’m gone, I’m keeping your entire wardrobe.”
“Rude.”
The moment the front door clicked shut, she threw the blanket off and leapt out of bed like she’d been possessed.
She moved quickly—pulled on the maroon coat Ryu had brought her, brushed out her hair, tied her boots, grabbed her bag, and slipped out the door.
After exchanging a few warm words with Mrs. Wriggleshore and politely checking her wall of clocks—now ticking unevenly with only a handful still alive and swinging—she stepped into the green flames and tumbled out onto the stone hearth of Birdy’s Inn.
The familiar warmth wrapped around her instantly, along with the rich scent of herbs, roasted garlic, and something slow-cooked and heavenly. She barely had time to brush the soot from her coat before Birdy appeared, beaming as if he'd just spotted his favorite niece.
“There she is!” he said, arms open, cheeks flushed from the kitchen heat.
“Oh my days, Birdy. It smells amazing in here!”
He puffed up proudly. “Got my hands on a muggle-reared chicken. Had to wait two hours in line for it, can you believe?”
“Wait… why?”
His smile faded just a little as he wiped his hands on his apron. “Ministry upped the tariffs again. Imports from the Muggle world are being taxed through the roof—all to ‘encourage wizard economy,’ apparently. But the truth is, they simply don't want us to mingle with Muggles. But at the same time, we’re not allowed to grow crops or raise livestock ourselves, not without special permits. So now food’s scarce and too bloody expensive.”
She stared at him, stunned. “That’s… that’s mental.”
He gave a tired shrug. “The purebloods are eating just fine, though, I reckon.”
Jaw tight, she looked down at the old oak table—and spotted a folded newspaper resting on the edge.
The Wizarding Chronicle
Tariff Troubles: Avery’s New Import Tax Sparks Food Crisis
Below, a grainy photo showed a crowded market square and a line of witches and wizards clutching ration slips.
She ran her fingers over the edge of the page, a hollow anger blooming in her chest.
Birdy watched her, then patted her shoulder. “Don’t let it ruin your appetite, love. There’s still enough to share. Let’s make the best of it, yeah?”
She gave a weak smile, but didn’t reply.
“So, why’re you here so early anyway?” he asked, turning toward the counter.
“I wanted to go to the bank before lunch. To pay off my loan.”
He stopped mid-step and spun around. "You haven’t paid it off already!?”
“Oh, shite!" She winced, instantly regretting the slip. "Please don’t tell Donnie!”
“I won’t, I won’t. But blimey, Vera.”
“I know..."
From her bag, she pulled a small, worn pouch and held it out to him.
“What’s that?” He asked warily.
“The money you gave me for the loan. Back in July."
"Oh, Merlin no. That was a gift.”
“Well, this is a gift too,” she said quickly, pressing it into his hands. “You’re the nicest man I know, Birdy. And I really appreciate what you did. I'll never forget it."
He looked at her, eyes softening, and after a pause, tucked the pouch into his apron. “You’re too good for this world, kid. But tell me… how’d you get it?”
Panic flared in her chest. She couldn’t tell him about Ryu. Or the deal. Or the fact that he’d practically been showering her in gold for two months.
“Quidditch!” she blurted.
“Quidditch?”
“Yeah. I won a bet. At school. One of the matches. It was, uh… Gryffindor vs. Ravenclaw. Everyone thought we’d lose.”
“And you put money on it?”
“Just a little. And it turned into… not-so-little.”
He gave a short laugh. “Just don’t make a habit of it, eh? Gambling’s a slippery slope.”
“I won’t,” she promised quickly, slinging her bag over her shoulder. “I’ll be back in time for lunch, alright?”
“You better. This overpriced chicken’s not gonna eat itself!"
Gringotts was as grim and towering as always, its marble halls echoing with the clink of gold and the suspicious glances of goblins.
She stood in the usual long, sluggish line outside the loans office, shifting from foot to foot, trying not to think about the nervous sweat pooling in her gloves.
An hour passed.
Her legs were sore, her mind buzzing with what-ifs, but finally, her number flickered on the brass panel. She stepped inside the small, dim office, and took a seat across from the long-nosed goblin.
“I’m here to pay off my loan,” she said, offering a small smile and holding out the pouch.
“Took you long enough,” he said, with all the warmth of a frozen cauldron.
He snatched the pouch from her hand and began counting the coins with a speed and precision that made her slightly dizzy. She’d done the math a dozen times—maybe more. The combined gold from the first and second installments of her deal with Ryu should just cover it, with a handful of Sickles to spare. Yet, she was still boiling with nerves.
Finally, the goblin gave a sharp, displeased sniff, then opened a drawer and pulled out a stack of parchment.
“Sign here. And here. Initial here. Sign again.”
She scribbled her name obediently, until her eyes flicked over the last sheet, causing her hand to freeze mid-air.
“Wait… what’s this?”
“It confirms your ineligibility for future loans. You’ve been blacklisted.”
The breath left her lungs. “Blacklisted?”
“That's what happens to late payers.”
“I—but—That’ll ruin me, sir! I need those loans for school—for everything. I'm just a student—I've got no way of making money!"
“Exactly,” he said coldly. “You were always ineligible for a loan. The only reason you got one in the first place was because of special instructions from Minister Bagnold. And since she’s gone now, we can do as we wish.”
Something broke quietly in her chest. She tried to speak, but her throat was dry and hot all at once. And before she knew it, the tears came.
No more loans. No more lifelines. No more second chances. It may as well have been a death sentence—one written in fine ink and cloaked in bureaucracy.
The goblin shoved the papers toward her again, tapping the spot where her signature was required.
“Sign it!" he snapped.
She took the quill with fingers barely able to hold it, and scribbled her name at the bottom of the page that sealed her fate.
The goblin didn’t thank her. Didn’t even look at her.
She stepped out of Gringotts like a ghost, her legs moving without command. The cold air hit her like a wall, sharp and biting, but she barely felt it. She moved to the side and sat on the stone steps, her knees drawn up, arms limp at her sides.
She wasn’t crying anymore.
It was a different kind of grief now—quieter. One that hollowed you out and left you listening to the silence inside yourself.
She stared forward, not seeing the street so much as absorbing it. A squib knelt by a wall, his hand outstretched, ignored by everyone who passed. A young woman exited the bank with a crumpled letter in her fist and tears on her cheeks. A man struck his house-elf on the head with his cane, causing the creature to flinch in pain.
Vera watched it all with a stunned kind of clarity. The world hadn’t just turned cruel—it had always been cruel. But today, it had taken off the mask and looked her straight in the eye.
“Vera?”
The sound of her name, spoken softly and with disbelief, broke through her fog. She turned sharply, her heart lurching, almost afraid to hope.
But there he was—Ryu—standing just a few feet away, dressed in an elegant dark coat, his eyes finding hers with a concerned furrow between his brows.
She rose quickly to her feet, brushing snow off her skirt, smoothing her jacket, wiping at her cheeks.
“What are you doing here?” he asked, stepping closer.
She forced a small, shaky smile. “Just… bank.”
“Your eyes are red. Were you crying?”
She opened her mouth, heart thudding, panic rising.
Don’t tell him. You can’t tell him.
“I just…” She glanced down at her boots. “I miss Donnie, that's all. He used to accompany for bank errands.”
His gaze softened, but she could see the flicker of worry behind it. He reached out and gently cupped her face, his hands warm against her cold cheeks.
“It’s going to be okay, baby."
She nodded mutely, but something cracked inside her, the threat of tears returning.
He pulled her into a hug, holding her tightly, one hand cradling the back of her head.
“I missed you,” he whispered.
She let out a breathless chuckle, muffled against his coat. “It’s only been two days.”
He leaned back slightly and looked down at her with a smile, but she could see the truth in his eyes—he had really missed her.
And God help her, she had missed him too. More than she cared to admit.
“What are you doing here?” she asked, her voice still fragile.
"Dad had some business at the bank. I’m just tagging along.”
And then, as if on cue—
“Ryujin,” a deep, commanding voice called from behind.
They both turned.
And Vera's blood ran cold.
Ryusei Avery looked like something carved from ancient obsidian—tall, imposing, and sharply dressed. His long black coat flowed around his boots like a shadow. A silver Japanese dragon brooch curled across his chest. His hair was pulled back neatly. His beard was long, ink-black with threads of silver running through it, immaculately combed and slightly pointed at the end.
But it was his presence—his aura—that struck Vera hardest. He exuded power, quiet and absolute. It was like standing too close to a lightning storm, not knowing when it might strike.
“There he is.” Ryu grinned, reaching down to lace his fingers through hers. “Come on, I want you to meet him.”
“Wait—Ryu—” she began, but he was already pulling her forward.
“Dad,” he said, beaming with pride, “this is Vera. My Vera.”
She stood frozen, heart pounding like a drum in her ears. This was him. The architect of a system that thrived on suffering. The one responsible for tariffs, for unjust laws, for Donnie’s dismissal.
And now she was looking him in the eye.
His sharp gaze studied her as though she were an ancient text he already knew by heart. Then he smiled warmly, and extended a hand.
“It is an honour to finally meet the young woman who’s stolen my son’s heart.”
She forced her lips into a smile, faint and stiff. “Nice to meet you too, sir.”
“And how is your aunt?” he asked pleasantly.
“She’s… good,” she replied, not sure if she was even breathing properly.
He nodded approvingly. “She always struck me as a sharp woman. Proud and discreet. The Black family, after all, has always held itself to a certain standard—tradition, power, vision. I have great respect for that.”
She felt a cold weight settle in her gut. She wasn’t even sure what she said—just nodded, smiled, her body acting on instinct.
“And what brings you to Gringotts today?” He asked, his tone still pleasant.
“Um… vault,” she said quickly.
Ryusei’s expression didn’t change immediately, but his gaze sharpened ever so slightly.
“Your... vault?” he repeated.
She nodded. “Yes, sir.”
For a moment, silence stretched between them. His eyes lingered on her just a second too long—keen and analytical, like a hawk assessing whether something small and trembling was prey or threat. His smile didn’t falter, but the warmth in it felt rehearsed, as though he’d already filed her answer away under “untruth.”
Still, he gave a courteous nod. “Of course. I trust the goblins were helpful to you."
She had to physically bite down on the inside of her cheek to stop herself from snapping.
“Come, Ryujin,” he said, glancing at his watch. “Your mother’s waiting at the restaurant.”
Then he turned back to her. “You must join us, Miss Black. I insist.”
Ryu grinned. “Please come, Vee. Grandma's there as well. You’ll like her, I promise.”
Vera hesitated. She can't miss Birdy's lunch. She doesn't want to. But the way Ryu was looking at her, how warm and kind his eyes were, made her falter.
“I… I shouldn’t be late getting home,” she said weakly.
“Just for a bit,” he urged. “Pleaseeee.”
She looked at him, then at the man beside him—the devil in dragon silk—and finally nodded.
“Okay. Just for a bit.”
"Yes!" Ryu gushed. "Come on, we're taking a carriage."
The ride was too quiet, too warm. She sat stiffly beside him, her gloved hands folded neatly in her lap, though her fingertips trembled beneath the fabric.
Ryusei sat across from them, the thick folds of his black coat brushing the floor, a Daily Prophet open in his hands.
Ryu chattered softly beside her—about Quidditch, or school, or something light-hearted—but the words barely reached her, just bounced off the thick wall of guilt thudding behind her ribs.
All she could think about was Donnie, now hopeless and unemployed. The crying people at the bank. The homeless squibs. The freezing house elves.
And here she was, wrapped in warmth and fine upholstery, sitting across from the man who was responsible for everyone's misery.
It felt like a dream. Or maybe a nightmare.
The carriage came to a smooth stop, and Ryu squeezed her hand excitedly. “Let's go,” he said, tugging her out.
The restaurant was straight out of a dream—or a very expensive spellbook.
Towering cherrywood arches shimmered under golden lights that floated lazily overhead. The walls rippled with colour like they couldn’t decide which hue looked best, and every table was dressed to impress—velvet cloth, gold cutlery, and plates that sparkled on contact like they were flattered to be touched. An enchanted hearth murmured with flame, casting a cozy glow over the glittering crowd of rich wizards who looked like they either owned empires or sold them as a hobby.
“Vera!” a warm voice called.
Ryu’s mother rose with the elegance of a queen and the enthusiasm of a long-lost friend, sweeping her into a tight hug.
“What a delightful surprise,” she said, pulling back to give her a beaming once-over. “You look absolutely radiant, dear.”
Vera managed a smile. “It’s lovely to see you again.”
Her eyes shifted to the older woman beside Winnie—Ryu’s grandmother, who watched her like a cat assessing a new houseguest.
She gave a polite smile. “Nice to meet you, ma’am.”
“She doesn’t speak English,” Ryu murmured beside her, before leaning toward his grandmother and speaking in Japanese.
Then her nudged her. “You must bow.”
She startled slightly, then gave a small, awkward bow, cheeks flushing. The grandmother nodded in approval, and Ryu flashed her a grin and pulled out her chair, seating her like a gentleman.
Ryusei arrived a moment later, folding his newspaper with surgical precision and tucking it under his arm. He leaned down to press a kiss to Winnie’s cheek, before sliding into the seat across from Ryu.
Vera’s eyes wandered.
The restaurant was too perfect. Every sound was soft and refined, every surface clean and expensive, every person polished like porcelain. But then, just beyond the comfort of their table, her eyes caught something through the frosted glass of the front window.
Toto.
He was standing just outside, shoulders hunched, his little hands wrapped around himself, trembling slightly in the falling snow. No coat. No hat. No shoes.
She leaned into Ryu. “Why is Toto still outside?”
“Restaurant policy. House elves aren’t allowed inside.”
“But—it’s snowing.”
He shrugged. “It’s not that bad for them, really.”
She sat back slowly, swallowing the sick feeling rising in her throat.
Breathe, she told herself. Smile. Be polite.
The waiter appeared like a ghost—silent, spotless, and visibly terrified of making a single misstep. His uniform was so crisp it could’ve stood on its own, and his voice was smoother than the polished floors.
“May I take your orders?” he asked, bowing low enough to count as a health hazard.
Vera's eyes darted to the menu in front of her—a scroll that shimmered with golden lettering and ink that moved. But the words? They might as well have been in Gobbledegook.
Seared Vipertooth Liver with Moondew Reduction.
Glazed Doxy Wings on a Bed of Silver Thistle.
Poached Cygnet d’Hiver with Starblossom Butter.
What in God's name?
Before she could speak, Ryu leaned in with a smile. “I’ll order for you. You’ll love it.”
She nodded, and set the menu down as the waiter turned to Ryusei.
“I’ll have the Cygnet d’Hiver,” he said, closing his menu with a snap. “With black truffle shavings.”
Vera blinked. “Wait—Cygnet d’Hiver? Isn’t that the endangered Frost-Wing swan?”
“Indeed it is,” Winnie replied. “They’re terribly rare to find. That’s why they’re such a delicacy.”
Vera's heart dropped. She stared down at the polished table, her throat tightening.
All she could think of was Birdy. Sweet, slightly chaotic Birdy, who queued for two hours outside a butcher just to buy a sad, overpriced chicken—and probably apologized to it before cooking.
And here, wrapped in velvet and gold, they were gleefully devouring something on the brink of extinction.
It wasn’t just wrong.
It was revolting.
Her eyes drifted around the room. The people at nearby tables wore furs, fine silks, and polished jewels. They laughed in low, musical tones and sipped wine from floating goblets. There was no hunger here. No desperation. No grief.
She folded her hands in her lap, blinked hard, and looked down.
She didn’t belong here.
Not with these people. Not in this world. Not at this table.
And no matter how much she smiled or nodded or bowed politely—she never would.
Ryusei set down his wine glass, his sharp eyes settling on her like a hawk that had finally decided to strike.
“So, Miss Black,” he began, his voice smooth but coiled, “how did your last exams go?”
She swallowed and offered a tight smile. “They went well, sir. Ryu helped me study a lot.”
“Of course he did. Ryujin’s always been disciplined. Top of his class, year after year. Ambitious. Tireless.”
His eyes flickered to Ryu, proud and full of affection. “Top marks in Transfiguration. Outstanding in Charms. And his Astronomy work? Impeccable.” He looked back at her. “And you Miss Black? What is your class rank?”
She looked down at the polished table. “Uh, nineteenth.”
A silence stretched across the table like a curse, and Ryusei’s brow furrowed, his smile now gone.
“Remind me, Ryujin,” he said, not taking his eyes off her. “How many students are in your class?”
Ryu shifted. “...Twenty.”
The darkness in Ryusei’s expression deepened, and Vera felt it wrap around her like chains.
“Vera was sick last year." Ryu stepped in, his voice a little too quick. "Really sick. She missed a lot of school. It wasn’t a fair reflection.”
Her heart broke right then and there.
He was lying for her. Protecting her. But it didn’t make her feel happy. It made her feel smaller, as though the only way she could be accepted was through pity.
“She’s brilliant at Potions, though.” He added. “Seriously, dad. She’s a genius at it.”
“I see,” Ryusei said, though the weight of judgment still lingered in his gaze. “I hope you keep it up, Miss Black. And that you don’t become a... distraction.”
That did it.
The sting, the humiliation, the shame—it all clanged inside her chest like bells of failure.
He swirled the wine in his glass, then turned to Ryu, switching to Japanese—clipped, formal, and sharp enough to cut.
“Why didn’t you tell me her rank, Ryujin?”
Ryu responded evenly, also in Japanese. “You didn’t ask.”
“She’s a Black. I assumed she’d be like the rest of her family—brilliant. Exceptional.”
“She is brilliant."
“Without ambition it is all wasted. Perhaps she wants to follow in the footsteps of her ancestors, who saw work beneath them. How shameful.”
Ryu’s jaw tensed. “Our family used to think that way—not too long ago.”
“Back when our society wasn’t broken. Now it is. And if we don’t work to rebuild it, no one will. And perhaps if her family hadn’t decided to vanish and leave the rest of us to drown in the chaos they left behind, we wouldn’t have to work at all—just like them.”
“We don’t have to talk about this here, father.”
“I’m simply making sure she doesn’t drag you down with her. I don’t want you ending up like your uncle Kaito.”
Ryu’s grandmother looked up, her voice gentle but firm.
“Kaito is smart. Just a bit reckless.”
Ryusei let out a dry, bitter laugh. “Let’s not start, Mother.”
“Vera will never pull me down." Ryu's voice rose slightly, with an edge of defiance. "She’s a genius. She’s just... a bit stressed.”
He glanced over at her. She was staring ahead, spine straight, face expressionless—but her heart? It roared.
Because what none of them realized was that she understood their conversation.
And she'd had enough.
“Where’s the bathroom?” She turned to Ryu, forcing her lips to move.
He blinked, then nodded toward a corridor with golden lamps and velvet curtains. “That way.”
“Excuse me,” she said, her voice barely holding together, and rose from the table.
She walked away as steadily as she could, not daring to look back. But as soon as she turned the corner, out of their sight, her body trembled—like the strings holding her up had snapped all at once.
She stood before the grand mirror in the bathroom, its golden frame too ornate, too clean. Her reflection stared back at her—pale, hollow-eyed, lips parted like she wanted to speak but didn’t know what to say. Five minutes passed. Maybe more. She wasn’t sure.
She didn’t recognize herself anymore.
The girl staring back looked like someone wearing her skin—a girl in a nice coat, sitting at an expensive restaurant, smiling at a man who made her stomach twist. A girl who had just sat through a lunch where an endangered bird was a delicacy and a house elf stood freezing outside in the snow.
Everything about Ryu’s world felt like a betrayal of what she believed in. And yet... she couldn’t hate him. She couldn’t even blame him. He hadn’t chosen this life any more than she had chosen hers.
But they were on different sides of the same glass—he, untouched, smiling through crystal and candlelight; she, on the outside, pressing her fingers to the surface, aching, trying not to shatter.
She took a deep breath, adjusted her coat, and wiped the edges of her eyes. Then she left the bathroom, her face calm, her heart loud and broken.
Back at the table, she approached with the kind of poise that comes from pain.
“I can’t thank you enough for this invitation,” she said, her voice steady. “It was more than an honour to meet you all. But I must return home—I hadn’t accounted for staying this long, and I don’t want anyone to worry.”
Ryusei gave a curt nod, Winnie looked mildly disappointed, and Ryu blinked as if he wasn’t expecting her to leave so soon.
Then she turned to the grandmother, and bowed slightly. “It was a pleasure meeting you. Thank you for your kindness.”
However, she didn't say it in English—but in perfect, flawless Japanese.
Silence rippled across the table like a dropped glass.
The old woman blinked, then smiled—genuinely, radiantly—bowing her head in return. Ryusei’s expression sharpened in surprise, while Ryu simply stared at her, completely stunned, and utterly guilty.
She turned to him last, a faint smile tugging at the corners of her mouth.
“I’ll see you at school, Ryu.”
And without waiting for protest, she turned and walked out of the restaurant, into the snow.
She glanced toward the corner near the entrance, and found Toto still standing there. His thin shoulders trembled. His nose had gone red. And though his eyes were blank in the way house-elves were trained to be, she could feel his discomfort.
She wanted to take off her coat. Wrap it around him. Even her scarf—something.
But she knew better. To give Toto a piece of clothing would be to free him. And freeing him would be an offense the Averys would not forgive.
So instead, she gave him a quiet, sorrowful smile, and began walking down the street.
“Vera, wait—”
She turned to see Ryu hurrying toward her. His coat flapped open, half-buttoned against the falling snow.
“Why did you leave?” he asked. “Was it what my father said?”
“No,” she said quietly. “I expected it. And I’ve been through worse than a disapproving lecture in two languages.”
“I’m truly sorry, Vera. I didn’t think he’d be like that. He’s… harsh sometimes, but he doesn’t always mean to be—”
“I’m not upset,” she interrupted, a faint, reassuring smile on her lips. “I promise.”
He looked at her, as if trying to read beneath her calm, trying to find a way to reach her.
“Vera…”
She stepped closer, tilting her head to meet his eyes. “Honestly, I agreed with most of what he said.”
“What?”
"About my family. About dragging you down. Makes sense, doesn’t it?”
“Absolutely not! You don’t drag me down, Vee. Never!"
"You're so adorable in the snow, you know."
"Don't deflect."
"Ryu, it's fine... I don't know why you're making a big deal out of it."
"Because you're hurt, Vera. I can see it."
"No, I'm just... Late."
They stood in silence for a beat, snow drifting gently between them.
"Blimey, Vee." He sighed after a moment. "Since when do you even speak Japanese?"
Her lips curled. “About a month ago. I wanted to surprise you on your birthday.”
“A month?” He blinked. “You were almost fluent.”
"I think we've already established that I'm a fast learner."
"And you understood what we were saying?"
"Some of it, yeah. Especially the part where you called me a genius."
"Merlin, Vera. If my dad knew how bloody brilliant you are—”
“He’d adopt me on the spot and send you to a monastery?"
“I was thinking he’d strike Uncle Kaito’s name from the family records and replace it with yours.”
She chuckled. “Poor Kaito. Do you think I just doomed him?”
“Kaito dooms himself on a weekly basis. You just happened to accelerate the process.”
She laughed then stepped closer, eyes glinting.
“I want to kiss you so badly right now,” she murmured, “but your parents are watching, and I think your mother is already planning our wedding's floral arrangement in her head.”
He glanced over his shoulder at the restaurant’s glowing window, then back at her, lips curving into a soft smile.
“It’s alright,” he whispered. “We’ll give them a good show.”
“Tempting. But if we scandalize your family too much, they’ll blame Kaito again.”
He swiftly took her hand and led her down a side street, where the noise faded and the world seemed to pause. They stopped in a narrow alleyway nestled between two enchanted brick walls, glowing faintly with frost and magic.
There, in the hush of snow and shadow, he leaned in, pressing her gently against the wall as if afraid she might vanish. His lips found hers, warm and urgent, and she responded instinctively, drawing him closer. The world fell away—no onlookers, no expectations—only the breathless, beautiful hush of now.
Until her eyes opened.
And she gasped.
Ryu broke the kiss, searching her face in alarm. “What is it?”
She didn’t speak, only looked up—and he followed her gaze.
A single crow perched on the rooftop across from them. Jet-black, with glossy wings and eyes too knowing. It tilted its head, cawed sharply once, then took off into the sky like a shadow ripped from the earth.
Ryu turned back to her. “Are you okay?”
Her heart hammered, but she said nothing just stepped away from him and shook her head. “I have to go.”
“Vera—”
“I’ll see you at Hogwarts.”
She gave him a final hug, held his coat for a beat longer than she intended, then turned and walked away.
The snow had thickened, clinging to her lashes and hair, and by the time she reached Birdy’s inn, her boots were soaked and her face was numb. She kept her eyes on the sky the whole walk back. Every time a shadow moved above, her stomach twisted. Still, she paused at the door, took a deep breath, and forced a steady expression onto her face.
The door creaked open, warm light spilling onto the street, and the sound of laughter hit her like a balm.
“Look who’s back!” Donnie called from across the room.
Remy darted from the fireplace with a squeal, and threw her arms around her. “You are stunning, darling. Where did you go looking like that?”
Vera managed a smile. “Nowhere I’d go again.”
In the back, Remy's salon coworker, Scotty, was setting out cutlery while Birdy arranged a tray of steaming food at the center of the long wooden table.
“Ah, perfect timing,” he called. “Come sit, love. There’s a leg with your name on it.”
They gathered around the table, voices overlapping with cheer, the clink of glasses and scrape of chairs filling the room with life. There were fairy lights strung across the rafters, and a crooked little Christmas tree stood in the corner, glittering with homemade ornaments and a crooked star.
Birdy brought out the chicken with pride, setting it in the middle like a prized trophy.
“Two hours in the snow queue for this beauty,” he said, grinning. “Worth every frostbitten toe.”
Everyone cheered, and Vera forced herself to laugh along. But all she could see was the other table—the delicate plate of that endangered bird, Winnie’s pleased smile, Ryusei’s empty praise, and Toto’s trembling shoulders in the cold.
As the plates were passed and Birdy carved the roast, she twisted her napkin in her lap, her face calm, her heart breaking.
They were happy. They were kind. They were enough.
And she had betrayed them by wanting something else—even for a moment.
“Eat up, love,” Birdy said, placing a generous portion of chicken on her plate with a wink. “You look like you’ve been off fighting dragons.”
“Something like that,” she laughed, picking up her fork.
The table buzzed with chatter—Remy teasing Scotty about the way he folded napkins like a butler, Donnie groaning over his own joke, and Birdy trying to settle a debate over whether muggle Christmas crackers were better than wizard ones. It was warm, glowing, filled with love.
“Right then," Donnie said. "Who’s got the pudding?”
Remy jumped up. “I’ll get it! I made it myself.”
“Merlin, help us."
The laughter resumed, echoing off the inn’s wooden walls, filling the space with light and life.
Vera looked around at their faces—so familiar, so real—and a quiet resolve began to build in her chest.
This was the world she belonged in.
This was the one worth fighting for.
She might be nineteen out of twenty in some rich man’s grading list, but here, she was Vera. And that meant something.
Even if no one else saw it—she had to.
She smiled faintly to herself, then picked up her fork and took another bite. It still tasted like guilt, but at least it was real.
After lunch, the table slowly cleared, leaving behind the clink of cutlery, soft hum of conversation, and the occasional crackle from the fireplace.
She sat curled in the armchair nearest the fire, cradling her bowl of pudding. The warmth of the room settled on her skin, but it couldn’t seem to reach the weight inside her chest.
Donnie strolled over, a gingerbread biscuit in one hand, and flopped onto the couch beside her. “Oi, pudding thief. I saw you take two.”
She managed a faint smile.
He frowned. “That all you got for me? Not even a snort?”
She shook her head, eyes dropping to her half-eaten dessert.
He leaned forward, studying her face. “Hey. You alright?”
“I’m just…” she started, then paused. “I’m just grateful. For all of this. For you.”
His expression softened, his teasing vanishing in an instant. “You’ll always have us, you know that? We’re not going anywhere.”
She looked at him, eyes glistening with tears. “Donnie…”
“Hm?”
She set her bowl down on the table beside her, folding her hands tightly in her lap. “I need to tell you something."
He sat up straighter, sensing her shift. “You’ve never needed a script before, kid. Just say it.”
She drew in a breath. Then another. “I... I have a boyfriend.”
A grin broke across his face. “Well, look at you! Our Vera—off the market.” He nudged her gently with his shoulder. “Does he know what he’s gotten himself into?”
She tried to smile, but it faltered almost immediately.
His grin faded. “What’s wrong? Did he bloody hurt you? Because if he did, by Merlin's name I will—"
“No,” she said quickly, “he didn’t. It’s not like that. He’s… kind. Thoughtful. But he’s...”
He waited, eyes narrowing slightly. “He's what?”
“He's an Avery,” she said at last. “Ryu Avery.”
Donnie blinked once, then again, like he hadn't heard her right. “Ryusei Avery’s son?”
She nodded, the guilt twisting in her chest. “Yeah. We've been dating since November."
He leaned back, silent for a moment, staring into the flames. When he finally spoke, his voice had dropped, low and heavy. “You’ve been with him all this time and didn’t think to tell me?”
“I was going to! But I was scared. And today I saw his father. I sat at their table, Donnie. I smiled at him. And I just kept thinking about you. And what he did to you. What he took from you.”
“You don’t owe me guilt, Vera,”
“But you matter to me! This—us—this place—it all matters. And I feel like I’ve betrayed it. Like I’m betraying you.”
He leaned back, exhaling slowly. “Do you love this boy?”
“I don’t know,” she said. “But I like him. I care about him. And he’s nothing like his father. But at the same time, he is. That name, that money, that world—it’s part of him. And I hate what it all stands for. But I can’t bring myself to hate him.”
“You’re allowed to be torn, Vera. That’s what happens when you care deeply about people on opposite sides of a wound.”
“I’ll break it off,” she said quietly. “If you told me to.”
He turned to her, startled. “Why in Merlin’s bloody name would I tell you to do that?”
“Because of his father—"
“No! That’s not what we do. We don't punish someone for the blood in their veins. We look at who they choose to be. If you like that boy, then don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.”
“But what if one day he chooses to become like his father?”
“Then you walk away with your head high and your heart intact. Because you knew how to draw the line. But don’t build the ending before you’ve lived the middle.”
She looked at him, her lips trembling.
"Just promise me something, Vera,” he added, more firmly now.
“What?”
“Don’t forget who you are. Don’t let that world, that name, or anyone twist you into someone else. You can love someone and still keep your eyes open.”
Her throat tightened, and she nodded. “I promise.”
His smile returned, warm and lopsided. “Good. Now eat the rest of that pudding before I steal it.”
She laughed softly, the knot in her chest loosening just a little, then reached for the bowl and took another bite.
Donnie watched her eat with a small, thoughtful smile.
“You’re a good kid, Vera,” he said, his voice low and sincere. “The fact that you felt guilty… that you thought of me at all—it means more than you know.”
She swallowed, blinking hard. “You mean a lot to me, Donnie.”
“And you to me.”
She glanced across the room where Remy was fussing with Birdy’s centerpiece, tucking in a sprig of holly. Then she looked back at him, a mischievous spark lighting her eyes.
“So,” she said, tilting her head. “When are you marrying her?”
He let out a groan, then reached over and shoved the last half of a biscuit into her mouth. “Merlin’s beard—shut it, you little menace.”
She laughed around the biscuit, nearly choking on it, and he chuckled too, shaking his head.
Shortly after, she crept into St. Mary's quietly, the warmth of Donnie's words still lingering in her chest, but already being chipped away by the returning chill of guilt and secrecy. She could hear the crunch of boots outside—the girls were just getting back. Without a second thought, she bolted down the hall and slipped into her room, shutting the door softly behind her.
She undressed quickly, her fingers trembling slightly as she peeled off the fine clothes that no longer felt like hers. Slipping into her worn nightshirt, she dove under the blanket just as the door opened.
Kaya stepped in, arms full of paper bags from the market. Her face, however, was blank, her eyes distant. She let the bags drop beside the door with a soft rustle, then crossed the room in silence and sat on the edge of her bed.
Vera faked a cough and peeked out from under the blanket. “How was the trip?” she asked, forcing a yawn into her voice. “Did you get the pretzels?”
Kaya didn’t answer. She just stared ahead, hands limp in her lap.
Vera frowned and sat up slowly, a chill running through her. “Kaya?”
No reply. Just the sound of the wind scratching at the windowpanes.
She swung her legs out from the bed and leaned forward. “Did something happen at the market?”
Kaya turned to her slowly, as if only just realizing she wasn’t alone. Her eyes were glossy, rimmed with pink, and when she finally spoke, her voice cracked through the silence like a thread unraveling.
“I saw my dad.”
Part three: There's a light that never goes out
The room was cloaked in shadow, lit only by the faint amber hue of the streetlamp filtering through the curtains.
Vera lay on her side beneath the blanket, cradling Kaya against her chest. Kaya’s breath was uneven, still catching now and then from crying, and Vera ran her fingers through her curls slowly, gently, like she was soothing a frightened child.
Neither of them had spoken for a while. The silence was fragile.
Then Vera’s voice broke through, quiet and careful. “What was he doing at the markets?”
Kaya didn’t answer right away, but her voice, when it came, was distant. “He was at one of the stalls. Making jacket potatoes.”
"So he was working there?”
“Yeah,” Kaya said softly. “We were in line, and when it was our turn… there he was.”
"Did he… did he recognize you?”
“Right away. His whole face changed when he saw me. Like he’d been hit.”
“What did he say?”
“He said he just got out of prison. Said he missed me. He said something else too, but I wasn’t listening anymore. Everything went quiet in my head. My hands started shaking. I felt like I was five again.”
Vera’s fingers moved through her hair with a little more care. “And then?”
“He walked off with Miss Nelson. They started talking.”
“What about?”
“I don’t know,” Kaya murmured. “I wasn’t listening to them either.”
They fell into silence again, the kind that sits heavily between two people who know each other too well. Vera’s hand kept moving through Kaya’s hair, smoothing the strands, her thumb occasionally brushing her temple.
After a long moment, Kaya whispered, “He looked different.”
"Different how?”
“Healthier. Stronger. Better. When he was on drugs, he looked twenty years older than he was. But now… now he looks young again. And handsome again. It made me angry.”
Vera’s heart ached. “Do you think he’s clean now?”
“I don’t know,” Kaya whispered. “I hope so. But I don’t trust that hope.”
Vera’s arms wrapped tighter around her.
“I don’t know how to feel, Vera. Part of me still hates him. For everything he’s done. For choosing drugs over me. For leaving me. For making Mum—for making Mum do what she did.”
Vera felt her own eyes sting. “Kaya…”
“But then there’s this other part of me that still wants a dad,” Kaya choked out. “That still wants him to say sorry. That wants to believe he can be better. That still wants to be… loved by him. And I hate that part of me so much.”
Vera gently turned her so they were facing each other, their foreheads close. “You don’t have to hate that part. Wanting love doesn’t make you weak.”
"It makes me feel stupid.”
“It makes you brave. Because even after everything, you still have hope.”
Kaya sniffled again, wiping her face with the sleeve of her jumper. “You’re lucky, Vera.”
“Lucky?”
“You’ve never known your parents. You don’t have to carry this… this weird pain. This love that feels like poison. You never had someone to disappoint you.”
Vera stiffened immediately. Her throat burned, and for a moment, she couldn’t speak.
She couldn’t tell Kaya that she had known them. That her mother might still be alive. That every day she lived with the weight of truths she couldn’t share. That she envied her too—because at least she had memories.
She couldn’t bring herself to tell Kaya the truth—there would be too many questions, and she was so very tired of weaving lies. Silence, heavy and aching, was the only choice that didn’t break her.
She pulled the blanket up around them and kissed Kaya’s hair, blinking back her tears. They held each other for a long time, neither speaking again. The weight of too many things unsaid hung in the air—but so did the quiet, unspoken comfort of being understood.
Eventually, sleep took them both—curled together in the quiet, as the night held them gently.
Tuesday, December 24, 1991
The next day, Vera stirred to the soft creak of the door opening. She blinked against the morning light filtering in through the curtains and realized she was still on Kaya’s bed, one arm draped protectively around her sleeping friend.
“Good morning, Vera,” came Miss Nelson’s voice, quiet and warm.
She sat up quickly, brushing her hair from her face. “Good morning,” she mumbled, her voice hoarse with sleep.
Miss Nelson stepped further into the room. “Are you alright, darling?” she asked gently.
"Yeah. I’m fine.”
"I’m sorry I didn’t check on you yesterday. Everything with the trip and… well, I was overwhelmed. But that’s no excuse. I should have come to you. I've been neglecting you a lot lately. I do hope you can forgive me."
Vera shook her head quickly. “It’s nothing. Really. You don’t need to worry. I’m all good now.”
Miss Nelson gave a small nod. “Thank you for being so understanding, sweetheart.”
She then glanced down at Kaya, who was still curled beneath the blanket. “Did she talk to you?” she asked softly.
Vera nodded. “Yeah. We talked last night.”
“Good. She shouldn’t keep it all inside. She never talks when it really matters, and I worry about that.”
Vera stayed quiet, remembering the weight of Kaya’s voice, the way her body trembled beneath her arms. “Yeah, she needed it."
Miss Nelson smiled, but her eyes were still laced with concern. “Would you mind waking her up for me? When she’s ready, bring her down to my office.”
“Of course,” Vera said with a nod.
Miss Nelson gave her shoulder a gentle squeeze before turning to leave.
As the door closed behind her, Vera turned to look at Kaya—still asleep, her hand curled near her chin like a child’s.
She woke her up, and shortly after, the two were heading down to Miss Nelson's office. They walked down the stairs side by side, Vera bumping her shoulder gently into Kaya’s.
“If Miss Nelson makes you write an essay about your feelings, just start every sentence with ‘I feel like shite’.”
Kaya smiled faintly. “Shut up.”
“Progress,” Vera said with a wink.
Kaya snorted, and for a moment, the shadows beneath her eyes seemed lighter. But then they reached Miss Nelson’s office, and all the color drained from her face.
Because sitting in front of the desk was her father.
He stood immediately, a bouquet of flowers in one hand, a small, slightly ragged teddy bear in the other. He was tall, slim, dark-skinned, his posture careful, like someone not sure whether he belonged. His coat was clean and warm-looking, and though his hands bore years of ink and stories, his eyes were soft with hope.
“Kaya,” he said, his voice cracking. “Hi, baby girl.”
Kaya froze in the doorway.
Vera’s hand instinctively reached for hers, squeezing gently. “It’s gonna be okay,” she whispered.
But Kaya didn’t move. Didn’t breathe.
Vera gave her hand one last squeeze, and slipped quietly out of the room—closing the door behind her.
She sat on the stairs just outside Miss Nelson’s office, elbows on her knees, fingers twitching in her lap.
The walls were quiet, the house unusually still for a midday hour. A winter breeze rattled faintly against the windowpane across the hallway, but it was the silence behind the door that gnawed at her.
She tried not to listen, tried not to imagine Kaya’s voice cracking or her father crying, but her thoughts wouldn’t obey.
And then, somewhere deep inside her chest, a flicker of something ugly stirred.
Jealousy.
She hated herself for it the moment it rose. How dare she feel jealous?
How dare she—when Kaya had suffered so much? When her father’s absence had carved a hole in her? When his return only dredged up the ghosts she’d tried so hard to bury?
But she simply couldn’t help it.
At least Kaya had someone. Even if he’d been broken. Even if he’d left. Even if he’d ruined everything. At least he was real. At least he came back.
The thought felt bitter and mean inside her, and she pushed it down, hard.
And that’s when she heard them—heels clicking and voices lilting like poisoned honey.
Lydia and Abbie.
They sauntered around the corner like they owned the floor, arms looped casually, eyes already trained on the closed office door.
“Oi, can you believe she’s actually chatting to him?” Lydia said, loud enough for half the corridor to hear. “What an absolute joke.”
Abbie let out a sharp laugh. “I’d top meself if my dad was a bleedin’ smackhead.”
“Too right,” Lydia said with a smug grin. “Proper rank. Did you clock him yesterday? Looked like some dodgy geezer tryin’ to play dress-up.”
“Heard he used to deal outside schools. Utter filth.”
Vera got to her feet.
“They should’ve let him rot in prison,” Lydia went on. “Scrotes like that don’t go straight—they just get better at fakin’ it. Bet he’s only here to nick something.”
Abbie laughed, but it died in her throat when Vera reached them.
Without a word, she grabbed Lydia by the back of her head—fingers tangled in her blonde hair—and slammed her into the wall with a crack.
Lydia shrieked, her face pressed to the plaster.
“You shut your mouth,” Vera hissed, her voice low and shaking with rage. “Or I swear I’ll paint this wall with your blood.”
Lydia struggled, flailing an arm back, but Vera didn’t flinch. She was burning from the inside, a white-hot fire that gave her strength she didn’t know she had.
Abbie screamed and tried to shove her off, but Vera twisted, braced herself, and kicked her square in the stomach. Abbie stumbled backward, crashing down hard onto the floor.
Lydia was breathing hard, trembling, face pale with shock. Vera’s grip loosened, and she finally let go—pushing her away with one last shove.
The two girls stared at her, wide-eyed and speechless. They hadn’t realized. No one had.
Vera wasn’t the same anymore.
She wasn’t fragile. She wasn’t small. She wasn’t scared. And she was too bloody strong.
Lydia rubbed her scalp, flinching as if expecting another blow, while Abbie scrambled to her feet, face red and stunned. Then, without another word, they turned and fled—heels clacking furiously against the tile.
Vera’s heart was pounding. Her fists were still clenched.
But then—The office door opened with a quiet sigh of hinges, and Miss Nelson stepped out first.
Kaya followed, her shoulders slightly hunched, her eyes swollen and red. She didn’t say anything as she walked, her hand curled tightly around the sleeve of her jumper.
Behind her came her father.
He paused for a second in the doorway, as though reluctant to leave. Then he turned to Kaya and gently placed a hand on her shoulder before wrapping her into a hug. It was tentative at first, unsure, but Kaya didn’t resist.
She stood still in his arms, and for a moment Vera could’ve sworn she saw her melt into it—just a little.
He whispered something too quiet to hear, then pulled back and looked at her with a soft smile.
Then he glanced at Vera.
She met his gaze, caught off guard by the warmth there. No shame. No fear. Just… gratitude.
He gave her a small nod, a silent thank-you, before turning and making his way down the stairs. The front door opened with a low creak and closed behind him with a gentle click.
As soon as it did, Vera was at Kaya’s side.
“Hey,” she said softly.
Kaya didn’t answer. Her eyes were glassy, fixed on nothing. She looked like she was still somewhere else entirely.
Miss Nelson watched them for a moment, then reached into the pocket of her cardigan and pulled out her purse. She took out a few folded bills and offered them to Vera.
“Why don’t you two go get breakfast?” she said with a faint smile. “Maybe some hot cocoa. Get some air.”
Vera took the cash and slid it into her pocket. Then she looked at Kaya, who still hadn’t spoken, and gently reached for her hand.
“Come on,” she murmured, giving it a light squeeze.
Together, they walked out of the house, Vera holding her hand the whole way.
The café smelled of cinnamon and fresh bread, its windows fogged slightly from the morning chill. The two girls sat across from each other at a corner table, two mugs of cocoa steaming between them, untouched.
The food came—toast, scrambled eggs, a warm croissant split between them—but neither girl made a move for it.
Vera finally picked up a fork and nudged Kaya’s plate toward her. “Eat something,” she said gently. “You’ll feel worse if you don’t.”
Kaya obeyed, barely. She picked at the eggs, her fingers trembling slightly. They ate in silence for several long minutes, the occasional clink of cutlery the only sound between them.
Vera glanced up, watching her quietly. “Do you… want to talk about it?”
Kaya's eyes stayed low, fixed on the edge of her plate as she traced a line through a pool of jam with the tip of her knife.
Finally, she spoke, her voice soft and a little hoarse. “He said he’s been trying to get his life back together. He’s found a flat, a decent one. He’s even applying for a proper job. Something steady. Something that could make it possible for him to get custody of me again.”
Vera swallowed, trying not to let her hands tremble. “That’s… that’s wonderful, K.”
Kaya’s lips twisted, and she shook her head. “It is. It should be. But I don’t want to leave St. Mary’s. I don’t want to leave you.”
"You won’t lose me, you know? You can still visit. Every day, even. I’ll always be here.”
But Kaya was already shaking her head, eyes glimmering with tears. “I can’t, Vera.”
"Why not?”
"Because his new job… it’s in Manchester.”
Vera's stomach dropped. Manchester was hours away. Not just by bus—by train. Too far for daily visits. Too far for afternoon walks or sneaking sweets from the kitchen. Too far for everything.
And Kaya... Kaya doesn't even take trains.
Silence stretched between them again, heavy this time. The kind that filled every corner of the café.
“Miss Nelson said that…" Kaya suddenly continued. "By law, I have a choice. I can stay at St. Mary’s or go with him. She said it’s up to me.”
Vera looked at her. Really looked. At the way her hands clenched around her fork, at the vulnerability carved into every angle of her face.
She reached across the table, gently wrapping her fingers around her. “Then choose what your heart is telling you.”
Kaya finally looked up at her. "I don’t know what it’s telling me, Vee.”
Wednesday, December 25, 1991
The living room of St. Mary’s was filled with the soft hum of laughter, crinkling wrapping paper, and the scent of cinnamon biscuits baking in the kitchen.
A modest Christmas tree stood in the corner, decked in handmade ornaments and tinsel, with a scattering of presents underneath. The girls sat in their pyjamas, unwrapping their gifts, the morning light filtering in through frosted windows.
As expected, each of them received a wrapped book from the local library. Vera peeled hers open:
The Witch of Blackbird Pond.
She turned the book over in her hands, already imagining herself curled up and disappearing into its pages.
Miss Nelson’s gifts were, as always, surprisingly generous for a group of girls not related to her. Vera’s came in a tidy box wrapped with violet ribbon.
She tugged it open and found a brand-new pair of black Converse. Not the imitation kind from the market, but real ones, with thick white soles and crisp laces. She hugged them tightly to her chest, burying her smile in the canvas toe.
She glanced over at Kaya, who sat a few feet away, surrounded by a mountain of neatly wrapped boxes—more than anyone else. Most bore the same careful handwriting, unfamiliar and masculine. Vera watched her as she slowly opened one box after another: a red wool jumper, a set of watercolors, several new books, and a necklace in a velvet pouch.
But Kaya’s face remained hollow. She didn’t smile. Her eyes stayed fixed on the floor as if none of it mattered.
Vera scooted closer and gently placed her hand on her arm. “Hey,” she said softly, “are you okay?”
Kaya blinked, her mouth tightening. She looked up slowly, and then the question came, quiet and cracked: “Why didn’t he ever write me?”
Vera’s breath caught.
“How dare he,” Kaya whispered, her voice rising slightly. “How dare he show up after all these years with gifts like this—as if he can just buy me back? As if I’m supposed to forget everything, just because he got me a bloody necklace?”
The other girls grew quiet around the tree, unsure of whether to keep unwrapping or pretend not to hear.
Vera tried to stay calm. “Maybe he—maybe he didn’t know what to say. Maybe he felt guilty about what happened and—”
“So he decided that abandoning me was better?” Kaya snapped, her voice shaking now. “He left me alone. I waited. Every week I waited. Every birthday. Every Christmas. I didn’t need presents. I just wanted a letter, Vera. One stupid letter to say he was thinking about me.”
Vera had no answer. She wanted to say something comforting, to fix it—but there were no words big enough to cover that wound.
Kaya’s hands trembled as she shoved the unopened gifts aside, the boxes tumbling to the floor. Then she stood, her shoulders rigid.
“I’m not doing this,” she muttered.
And before Vera could reach for her again, she turned and hurried up the stairs, her footsteps echoing through the quiet house.
Vera sat there for a moment, her Converse still clutched against her chest, feeling the sharp ache of Kaya’s pain settle in her own bones.
Shortly after, she tiptoed up the staircase, the distant hum of chatter and rustling wrapping paper slowly fading behind her. She stopped in front of Miss Nelson’s bedroom, hesitated for a heartbeat, then gently knocked.
No answer.
She pushed it open slightly, just enough to let a sliver of sound escape. A record was playing faintly in the background, and the soft strains of Alphaville’s “Forever Young” drifted through the air.
♪Forever young
I want to be forever young♪
Miss Nelson’s eyes met hers across the room. She was lying in bed, still in her nightgown, a silk bonnet wrapped snugly over her curls. Her face looked weary, the kind of tired that came from years of love and worry layered on top of one another.
“Come in, darling,” she said gently, patting the empty space on the mattress beside her.
Vera padded across the wooden floor and climbed onto the bed, curling up beside her. Miss Nelson didn’t ask anything at first, just reached over and stroked her hair, slow and steady.
“Thank you for the Converse,” Vera murmured after a moment, trying to smile.
Miss Nelson’s mouth curved. “You deserve the best, sweetheart.”
But her eyes, wise and knowing, didn’t miss the sadness behind Vera's voice.
“What’s wrong, darling?” She asked.
“It’s Kaya,” she whispered. “She might leave. And I want her to be with her dad because… because everyone deserves a family. But I also don’t want her to go. I don’t know what to think. I don’t know what to say to her.”
“I understand,” Miss Nelson said gently. “That’s the hardest part of loving someone—putting them first, even when it hurts. Real friendship means wanting what’s best for someone even when it breaks your own heart. And remember—sometimes, a chosen family is just as real as the one you’re born into.”
Vera let those words sit in her chest for a while, then nodded slowly.
Miss Nelson shifted slightly to look at her more directly. “And how about you? Everything okay?”
Vera looked down at the bedspread. Her fingers twisted the corner of it, unsure if she should speak.
“There’s something I want to talk to you about.”
“Go on, love."
“I’m… dating a boy from school.”
Miss Nelson’s brows lifted slightly, but a smile quickly followed. “Oh? And what’s he like?”
Vera’s face warmed. “He’s kind to me. And thoughtful. He's very smart, too.”
Miss Nelson smirked. "And is he handsome?"
Vera chuckled. "Yeah, he is."
“Then what’s the problem, dear?”
Vera sighed. “We’re just... different. He’s from a completely different world, and sometimes I don’t think I belong in that world. I don’t think I even like it.”
“Different can be difficult, indeed. But it can also open doors you didn’t know were there. It challenges you. Makes you grow. Shows you new ways to see the world.”
Vera looked up, eyes shimmering. "Miss..."
"Yes, dear?"
“He doesn’t believe in God.”
Miss Nelson’s hand stilled in her hair, and a soft “Oh” escaped her lips.
The room went quiet, too quiet.
Vera could feel the tension in her chest growing. She knew Miss Nelson’s faith ran deep—prayers before dinner, quiet hymns on Sunday mornings, her old Bible tucked beside the bed, Saint Mary on her walls and desk.
Disappointing her felt unbearable.
But then Miss Nelson looked at her, and her gaze had changed. It had softened, deepened, as if something inside her had shifted.
“Is he good to you?” she asked.
Vera swallowed. “Yes.”
“Do you feel comfortable with him?”
“I do.”
“Do you feel happy?”
"Yeah..."
"And do you love him?"
Vera nodded, a tear slipping down her cheek. “Yeah, I do... I really do, Miss.”
Miss Nelson reached out, brushing that tear away with her thumb. “Then nothing else should matter, dear.”
Vera blinked in surprise. She hadn’t expected that.
Miss Nelson smiled gently. “Faith doesn’t always come in the same shape, Vera. And love—it’s the closest thing we have to understanding God in this world. If he loves you well, and you feel safe and full of joy in his presence, then that is sacred, too.”
Vera leaned against her, her heart full and aching at once.
She didn’t have the words to say it, but Miss Nelson already knew.
She shifted on the bed, wiping at her cheek before smiling gently.
“What movie are we gonna watch today at the theatre?” she asked, trying to lighten the mood.
Miss Nelson’s lips curled. “Ah, yes. I forgot to tell you—three options this year.”
Vera straightened, intrigued.
“The first is something called Hook. It’s about Peter Pan.”
Vera’s eyes immediately lit up. “Peter Pan? Really?”
Miss Nelson chuckled. “Yes, ma’am. With flying boys and pirates and all that mess. The second is The Addams Family, but I’m not letting the little ones see that. Too spooky.”
Vera laughed, imagining Lydia dragging one of the toddlers behind her just to prove she wasn’t scared.
“And the third,” Miss Nelson continued, her voice softening, “is Beauty and the Beast—my favourite of all time.”
Vera beamed. “Are you gonna watch that with us?”
Miss Nelson sighed, patting her blanket. “I wish I could, darling. But my body’s asking for rest. And I still have a lot of planning to do for tomorrow's fundraiser. I’m trusting you girls to have enough fun for me, alright?”
Vera nodded, her smile still in place, but her heart giving a small twist. She stood up, walking slowly toward the door. She turned the knob, then paused and looked back over her shoulder.
“Miss Nelson?” she asked softly. “Are you okay?”
Miss Nelson’s eyes met hers, steady and kind. “Yes, dear,” she said. “Don’t worry about me.”
Vera nodded and stepped out, gently pulling the door closed behind her. As she made her way back down the hall, the familiar melody of Forever Young floated after her like a lullaby, a lingering whisper from a woman who had always been more than just a caretaker.
She was home.
Thursday, December 26, 1991
The next day brought with it a kind of nervous excitement—the annual fundraiser event Miss Nelson organized every year for St. Mary’s. The girls wore their nicest dresses, their hair done up in ribbons and curls by the older girls.
The community hall was decorated with string lights, paper snowflakes, and soft golden garlands, giving it a warm holiday glow. Tables were filled with pastries, hot food, and drinks, donated by local bakeries and restaurants.
People from the town were trickling in—some familiar, some new—dropping money into donation jars and complimenting the decorations.
Vera stood beside Kaya by the wall, both of them watching as Miss Nelson walked up to the podium at the front of the room. She looked radiant, even though she’d said she’d been tired the day before. Her dress was dark blue, her curls pinned back elegantly, and her eyes sparkled with something deeper than just the light.
She tapped the mic. “Good evening, everyone. I won’t take too much of your time—though those of you who know me know I say that every year and still talk too long.”
The room chuckled politely.
“I just want to thank you all… for being here. For showing up. For remembering us. These girls, they… they are everything. Every single one of them carries a story that would make you weep and a strength that would make you believe in miracles. They have taught me more about resilience, about grace, about laughter in the darkest corners, than anyone ever has.”
“I’m—” she tried to continue, then paused. Her hand came up to her mouth. Her shoulders quivered, and she let out a soft, unsteady breath.
“I’m sorry,” she said, smiling through the tears. “I promised myself I wouldn’t cry. Clearly, I lied.”
Vera blinked fast, her throat tightening. Beside her, Kaya was already wiping at her cheeks, her gaze fixed on their precious matron as though seeing her with new eyes.
Miss Nelson cleared her throat and straightened. “Anyway, we’ve got food. We’ve got music. We’ve got a room full of the most incredible young ladies you’ll ever meet. So please—enjoy yourselves. And don’t forget to give generously, or I’ll be haunting your doorstep come January.”
The room laughed again, and the spell of emotion softened, but it didn’t vanish.
Vera looked at Kaya. Kaya looked back. No words were needed. Just that tearful smile they shared—both proud, both afraid, both clinging to the preciousness of what they had.
At the pastry table, the scent of cinnamon and warm sugar wrapped around Vera like a hug. She carefully picked out a chocolate éclair for Kaya and was reaching for a fruit tart for herself when a familiar voice drifted in behind her.
“Well, well. If it isn’t Sutton's finest.”
She turned to see Wes standing a few feet away, his usual punk edge softened tonight—his jacket cleaner, a button-up shirt peeking out from beneath it, though his Doc Marten's still clung stubbornly to his feet. His hair was slightly tamed, but his grin was as beautiful and effortless as ever.
“Wes,” she said, caught off guard by the way her heart immediately stuttered. “You clean up alright.”
“I try,” he said with a lazy shrug. “You’ve got to, for the children’s fundraiser and all. How’s that Scottish school treating you?”
“Oh, you know, very medieval. Candles everywhere. No telly or radio. I might as well be a monk.”
He laughed. “Did the mixtape at least help you survive the dark ages?”
“It did more than help. I may have listened to it more times than I’ll admit. You’re clearly obsessed with The Smiths, though. Should I be concerned?”
Wes clutched his chest in mock injury. “Don’t judge my melodramatic taste. Some of us are emotionally complex.”
She laughed. "I'll never judge. I think I'm becoming obsessed too. Not just with The Smiths, but all of it. Nirvana, Metallica, Pearl Jam, and even Fleetwood Mac. You've got good taste, Wes."
“Yeah?” he smirked, leaning a little closer. “Which track got the repeat treatment?”
She hesitated for a second, then smiled. “Heroes. Bowie.”
"Good choice. You listened to it after something magical, didn’t you?”
She looked down, her mind flickering to the night she kissed Ryu for the first time.
“Yeah... After a great night, actually.”
“Then I did my job.” He said with a wink.
Then, casually, like he hadn’t just made her insides twist with nostalgia and warmth, he pulled something from his coat pocket and handed it to her—a small, gift-wrapped box.
“Happy Christmas, Vera.”
She blinked, surprised. “Wait—what's that?”
“Another mixtape,” he said, handing it to her. “More existential dread this time. Maybe.”
Her fingers closed around it carefully. “I didn’t get you anything…”
“Didn’t ask you to. I just have a responsibility. Making sure your music taste keeps evolving.”
She laughed softly, holding the gift against her chest. “Oh? And why’s that?”
He tilted his head, giving her that lopsided grin. “Because I have a feeling you’ll be the first star to ever come out of Sutton who doesn’t burn out. And I wanna play a small part in that."
Her breath caught a little, but she recovered with a teasing smile. “That’s very poetic of you, Westley Graham.”
“I contain multitudes,” he said, beginning to walk backwards, still facing her. “But let’s not ruin the mystery.”
As he disappeared into the crowd, she stood there with the gift in her hands, her cheeks flushed, her heart light.
She returned to the stairs where Kaya sat alone, arms looped around her knees. She gently placed the napkin-wrapped pastries between them before sitting down beside her.
“What did Wes want?” Kaya asked.
Vera fiddled with the little wrapped package still in her hands. “He gave me a gift.”
Kaya turned, raising an eyebrow. “A gift?”
She shrugged, trying not to smile too widely.
“Well?” Kaya gestured. “Open it, then.”
She peeled back the wrapping carefully, as if unveiling something sacred. Inside was another homemade mixtape, the title written in Wes’s unmistakable handwriting:
"From Wes, to the only star that matters."
Kaya let out a soft chuckle, then reached into her coat pocket and pulled out her battered Walkman. “Well, let’s hear it.”
She popped in the cassette and hit play. The tape hissed softly for a second—then the first chords of There Is a Light That Never Goes Out floated through the tiny shared earbuds. Kaya leaned her head back against the wall, eyes ahead, silent.
“Are you okay?” Vera asked gently.
Kaya's fingers toyed with the wire of the earbud, winding it tight, then loosening it.
“I don’t know,” she said. “He’s trying, you know? He really is. He got a new place, a job, he’s talking about dinners and school and birthdays like… like we can just rewind and start again. Like he’s trying to make up for something he doesn’t even understand.”
Vera swallowed, her heart aching. “Sounds like he’s working hard to make it right.”
“He doesn’t get it, Vera. I didn’t want the necklace or the dolls or the bloody perfume. I just wanted to know he cared enough to write. While I was unwrapping those gifts yesterday, all I could think about is the years I spent wondering if he still remembers my name.
“You’re allowed to be angry, K."
“I do... But I also… I see how hard he’s trying now, and it makes me feel like maybe I’m being cruel for still being mad.”
Vera reached for her hand, her grip firm. “You’re not cruel. You’re protecting your heart.”
Kaya’s lips trembled. “But if I go live with him, it’s like saying none of that mattered. That I forgive him just because he showed up with gifts and promises.”
“But do you want to go?”
Kaya finally turned to her, eyes glistening, but her mouth twisted into a sad smile. “I want to want it.”
The music played on, soft and melancholic, threading around them like a memory they hadn’t made yet.
“It’s not even about being angry anymore." Kaya whispered. "I just… I’ve built something here. With the girls. With Miss Nelson. With you. You’re my home, Vera.”
Vera’s eyes stung, but she steadied herself.
“You don’t have to say that for me,” she said softly. “Whatever you decide, I’ll understand. You should choose what your heart wants, not what you think anyone expects from you.”
Kaya looked at her, her expression raw. “What if I don’t know what my heart wants?”
“Then listen closely. It always tells you. Sometimes in a whisper. Sometimes in a scream.”
Kaya gave a broken laugh. “Mine’s whispering, I think.”
“Then sit with it. Let it speak.”
Kaya’s fingers trembled as she picked at the edge of a napkin. “It’s saying I don’t want to go. That the thought of packing my things and leaving this place—leaving you—makes me sick.”
Tears welled in Vera’s eyes.
“And it’s not because I hate him." Kaya went on. "I don’t. I just… I feel safe here. I feel loved in a way I never did before. This place made me feel like I mattered again. I don’t want to lose that. So… I think I’m staying.”
Vera’s throat tightened, and she gave her hand a squeeze. “Then that’s what you should do.”
Kaya wiped her cheek and gave a watery smile. “I love you, you know.”
Vera opened her mouth, then closed it again. The words sat on her tongue, heavy and unfamiliar. Instead, she pulled Kaya into a hug—tight, certain.
“Me too,” she whispered.
Sunday, January 5, 1992
Vera stood in silence for a while, watching people disappear into the train. Miss Nelson was beside her, bundled in a faded coat that didn’t quite hide how tired she looked. Her smile was gentle, but Vera could see the strain beneath it—like something breaking quietly behind her eyes.
“I haven’t been there for you, Vera."
Vera blinked. “What?”
“I wasn’t there. I didn’t write. I didn’t send you anything. And when you came back and you were sick, I still didn’t come. I don’t know what I was doing. I was tired, or scared, or just… failing you.”
Vera opened her mouth, but nothing came out.
“I'll never forgive myself for it,” Miss Nelson said, her voice breaking at last. “Not truly.”
Vera stepped forward and wrapped her arms around her matron, holding tight, fiercely.
“You haven’t failed me, Miss Nelson,” she whispered into her shoulder. “You saved me. Again and again. You’ve done more than anyone ever has.”
Miss Nelson’s arms came around her at once, warm and trembling. They stood like that, just breathing, while the world spun on around them.
“You taught me how to think,” Vera murmured. “How to see things for what they are. You taught me what true faith means. You taught me that my voice matters. That I matter. I’ll be grateful for you forever.”
Miss Nelson pulled back slightly, tears shining in her eyes but a proud smile growing through them. She brushed a strand of hair from Vera’s forehead, then kissed it gently.
“Whatever happens next, be true to yourself,” she said. “Even when it costs you. Especially then. Do what’s right, not what’s easy. Not what’s safe.”
Vera nodded, her throat too tight to speak.
“And,” Miss Nelson added with a crooked smirk, “if things get… romantic with that boyfriend of yours, just make sure you’re not going in unprepared.”
Vera’s eyes went wide. “Miss Nelson!”
“What?” she laughed. “Someone’s got to tell you these things!”
Vera’s face burned, but her laughter slipped out despite herself. Then, without warning, Miss Nelson pulled her into one last embrace—longer this time, slower. Like she wanted to memorize the feel of her.
“I love you, Vera."
Vera closed her eyes. Her chest ached with something so big she couldn’t name it, and the words stuck in her throat yet again.
“Me too," she said, though she wanted to say more.
Miss Nelson nodded, her expression soft, then turned and walked away—blending into the crowd, smaller with each step.
Vera stood frozen a moment longer, her eyes stinging, before she turned toward the barrier. Her legs felt heavy, her heart heavier. But still, she walked forward.
Back to the train. Back to Hogwarts. Back to whatever came next.
Notes:
Chapter's songs:
You're my best friend - Queen
The man who sold the world - David Bowie
There's a light that never goes out - The Smiths
Chapter 80: Nothing Else Matters
Notes:
TW: Slight violence and an ethnic slur towards the end.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
♪ So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters ♪
Sunday, January 5, 1992
Vera stepped through the barrier and into the sea of students and steam. The whistle of the train pierced the air, and she gripped the strap of her bag tighter, weaving her way through the crowd, eyes scanning for Ryu.
She rose onto her toes, searching, moving faster, calling his name in her head, dodging trunks and clusters of friends reuniting.
But there was no sign of him.
Eventually, she climbed onto the train, the warmth inside clashing against the cold tightness in her chest. She moved from compartment to compartment, peering in through the glass doors. Each time she didn’t see him, a small part of her heart shattered.
And when she finally did, it shattered even more.
He was sitting with Cassius, Adrian, Eudora, Miles, and Jane. The space was filled with the unmistakable sound of laughter—loud, careless, gilded with the kind of ease that never quite belonged to her.
Ryu was laughing too. Not politely. Not nervously. But fully, shoulders loose, head tilted back, eyes bright in a way she hadn’t seen in months. Maybe ever.
And it hit her—sharp and sudden.
The ache.
It started in her chest and spread like fire down her arms, her hands curling instinctively around the doorframe.
He looked… happy. Without her.
She closed her eyes.
Breathe. Don’t break. Not yet.
After a moment, she straightened, pressed her palms against her skirt to steady them, then reached for the door.
It slid open, and all at once the laughter quieted just enough for them to notice her. She stood in the doorway, and they all stared, caught somewhere between surprise and silence.
And there was Ryu—his smile faltering when he saw her, like he’d just remembered something he meant to bring with him and forgot.
“Vera,” he said softly, stepping toward her.
He wrapped his arms around her, warm and familiar, but her own arms barely lifted in return. Her gaze stayed fixed on the others, all of them watching.
“I was looking for you,” she said quietly. “On the platform.”
He pulled back, guilt flickering across his face. “Sorry. I… got carried away.”
He sank back into his seat between Cassius and Adrian, leaving her standing. She scanned the compartment swiftly, only to realize, she had no place among them.
And her mind spiraled.
It pulled back to that September morning in 1989—the compartment filled with whispers and laughter not meant for her. Eudora giggling behind her hands, Cassius and Miles nudging each other, mocking her. Even Ryu, then just another boy with something to prove, had laughed too.
She drew in a breath, steadied her voice, and turned to Miles.
“How’s everything?” she asked.
Miles raised his brows slightly, caught off guard, but then smiled. “Good,” he said. “Better now, I guess.”
“Was your holiday good, Vera?” Jane chimed in.
“Yeah. Good.”
Eudora stood suddenly, digging through her embroidered handbag before pulling out a small, neatly wrapped box.
“Here,” she said. “From Addie and me.”
Vera blinked, stunned. Her eyes darted from Eudora to Adrian, who shrugged casually but didn’t look away.
Before she could speak, Jane reached into the folds of her coat and retrieved another box.
“It’s from Miles and me,” she said with a small grin, as if it were the most natural thing in the world.
And then—Cassius. Even Cassius. He leaned forward and offered a sleek, rectangular box.
Vera turned to look at Ryu.
He was smiling faintly—Like he’d known this would happen. Like it mattered to him.
She didn’t know what to make of it. The generosity, the softness. The way they all looked at her now—not with mockery, not even pity. But something different.
So she nodded, carefully, as if the moment might shatter.
“Thank you."
Ryu stood again, grabbing his bag from the overhead rack. “I’ll see you all back at Hogwarts,” he told the others.
He then reached for her hand, and gently led her out.
They walked in silence down the corridor, only the sound of the train humming beneath their feet. When they reached an empty compartment, Ryu slid the door open, let her in first, then closed it behind them. As soon as they were alone, he stepped forward and kissed her—quick, eager, like he’d been holding it in since the holidays.
“I missed you,” he murmured against her lips.
But she barely felt it.
She said nothing, just turned away and sat down quietly on the bench, the boxes still in her arms like something foreign. Ryu hesitated, then took the seat across from her.
She stared at the gifts for a moment, then looked at him.
“Did you ask them to bring me these?”
His head jerked up. “What? No. Of course not.”
“Ryu…”
“I swear,” he said quickly. “I swear on my honour, Vera. I didn’t know they were going to bring anything.”
“Then why did they?”
He shifted, eyes flicking to the window before answering. “We talked. Back at my family’s dinner party. There was a lot to say… They apologized. Again. Said they’d changed. Promised to do better.”
“And you believed them? You said it yourself—they’re only being nice because they’re afraid of your father, not because they actually care.”
“I thought that at first too, but when they found out nothing changed—when they saw my father didn’t punish them, didn’t ban their families from anything—they still apologized. They didn’t have to, but they did. So yeah, I think it was sincere.”
“And you trust them now?”
“Yes,” he said without hesitation. “I do.”
She looked down, her voice lower. “I just don’t want them to hurt you again, Ryu.”
“They won’t,” he said softly. “Not this time. I promise. They’ve changed. Especially Cassius.”
“Oh, I’m sure,” she said flatly. “I’m sure they’ve made that promise before.”
His jaw clenched. “At least my friends are trying to make things right. What about yours, huh? What did they do? Watched you bleeding in the middle of class and did nothing? Threw you out of their party like trash? Called you a pagan bitch?”
She flinched.
“Roger told me,” he continued. “He was there when it happened. And I’m not mad at you for not telling me—I know you had your reasons, like you always do. But I swear, Vera, when I catch Mallon—”
“Stop,” she cut him off sharply. “Just stop. Don’t compare them. It’s not the same.”
“What’s not the same is that my friends actually love me. Yours don’t.”
There it was again—that ache in her hands, spreading up her arms and into her chest.
She turned to the window, trying to blink the sting from her eyes.
Ryu watched her for a beat, then let out a frustrated breath. “I don’t understand why you’re mad at me.”
“I’m not mad.”
“Oh, come off it. We haven’t seen each other in two weeks, and this is how it starts? You barely kissed me, you won’t look at me, you’re sulking over gifts—why can’t you just appreciate that they tried?”
“Because the last time they gave me a gift, it was to mock my disfigured hands.”
He stilled.
"Dis-disfigured...?" He repeated.
"Yes, Ryu. Disfigured. Abnormal. Fucking ugly. Happy now?"
“I—I didn’t know. You never told me, Vera.”
“It doesn't take a bloody genius to guess why someone wears gloves in the middle of June.”
He looked down, guilt flooding his face.
"Ryu..." She said quietly. “I'm not mad at you. I promise. But it just… you looked so happy."
“What?”
“Back there. With them. I’ve never seen you laugh like that. Not even with me. We promised to be each other’s best friend, remember? But now you’ve got them back. And I’m—I’m just back to being no one again. I'm being selfish, I know. But you’re my only friend at Hogwarts, Ryu. If you’re with them, then where do I fit?”
His face fell. In one breath, he stood and crossed the compartment, sitting beside her.
“I didn’t think of it like that,” he said softly. “Merlin, I’m truly sorry, Vera. I left you alone on the platform, made you stand in that compartment with no place to sit, and now I’m asking you to smile and accept gifts from people who used to hurt you. I’m the selfish one. Not you.”
She turned to him, then leaned in and kissed him—gently this time, with something that trembled between apology and longing.
“I missed you too,” she whispered.
He smiled into the kiss, pressing his forehead to hers.
“There she is,” he murmured. “There's my best friend.”
He then nudged her gently. “You gonna open them?”
She glanced down at the boxes again, then gave him a warning look. “If any of these are rings, I swear I will kill them all.”
He let out a sharp laugh. “I’ll hold them down for you.”
She rolled her eyes, but the corner of her mouth tugged upward as she reached for the first box—Eudora and Adrian’s.
She unwrapped it carefully, and inside was a delicate silver necklace, simple but elegant.
“That’s definitely Eudora’s choice,” Ryu said. “Adrian wouldn’t know taste if it hexed him.”
Next, she picked up the box from Jane and Miles, which was smaller, lighter. She unwrapped it slowly, and inside was a hairpin—thin, silver, with inlaid opals that caught the light like stars in motion. It was delicate and breathtaking, and Vera couldn't help but smile.
“You smiled,” Ryu said, and before she could pull it back, he leaned forward and kissed her cheek. “That’s all I want to see.”
She held the pin gently in her hand, lips still curved faintly, then reached for the last box.
Cassius’s.
She unwrapped it slowly, carefully, before revealing—
"What the actual fuck?"
"It's a brooch," Ryu pointed out, completely unfazed.
Vera, however, was shocked to her core.
Because it wasn't just a brooch. It was a black crow with its wings tucked close, clutching a single red rose in its beak.
Crow.
Her father’s family.
Rose.
Her mother’s.
It was impossible not to see it.
She stared at it, stunned into silence. Her chest felt tight, her fingers rigid around the box. Her mind was racing, thoughts tangled and fast. Why would he…? What was he trying to say?
Without another word, she slid the brooch back into the box and tucked it into her pocket like it was something cursed—dangerous, even.
"So," Ryu leaned back and looked at her with that soft adorable curiosity. “How was your holiday?”
She smiled faintly. “It was good.”
“Yeah?” He leaned in a bit, eyes warm. “Tell me all about it.”
She let out a breath, her smile growing a little. “It was actually great. Strange, in a lot of ways, but I learned a lot. About people. About myself.”
“That sounds like the perfect holiday,” he said, his thumb brushing her cheek.
She nodded slowly, the warmth from his voice making her chest ease.
“By the way, did I get you in trouble with your aunt?"
Her brow furrowed. “No. Why would you think that?”
“It’s just… when you saw that crow outside the restaurant—you looked… scared.”
She blinked, caught off guard. “What does that have to do with my aunt?"
"So the crow… it wasn’t sent by her?”
The thought hadn’t occurred to her before—but now, it slammed into her like a wave. The crow from the summer. The one she saw circling the graveyard at night. The black crow fingure that suddenly appeared under Lola’s bed. The one perched across the street at Diagon Alley.
Was it her? Was it Cassiopeia? Could she have been watching all this time?
It didn't make any sense, though. Cassiopeia wasn't a Crow. Pollux was. But what if—
The door to the compartment slid open, slicing clean through her thoughts.
Cassius entered as if the silence were an invitation, then moved quickly, and took the seat across from them like he belonged there.
“Hope I’m not interrupting,” he said, his eyes flicking between them like he was checking for signs of scandal.
Ryu’s jaw tensed. “Not at all,” he replied, though Vera knew that was the polite version of go away.
Cassius turned his full attention to her, and she instinctively braced herself, as if his words might arrive with glitter and a stench.
“So, Vera,” he said, with that smug half-smile she wanted to slice off his face, “did you like my gift?”
Her throat went dry. “It’s… interesting.”
He winked. Actually winked. “Thought it might suit you.”
Before she knew it, him and Ryu slipped easily into conversation, the kind that dripped with nostalgia and quiet arrogance. They started recalling details from Ryu’s family’s dinner party—inside jokes, moments of tension, who said what when, what wine was served, what spells flickered through the room.
She stayed silent.
She stared at Cassius, his sharp features and cold smile, and tried her hardest not to gag. Her eyes then trailed down to the serpent brooch pinned to his coat. It shimmered slightly, sleek and silver-green, coiled in on itself like it was guarding something.
Then she looked at Ryu. His dragon brooch caught the compartment light, bold and proud on his chest. A family heirloom, no doubt—Regal. Untamed.
That’s when it clicked.
Cassius wasn’t just trying to play nice. He was aligning himself. Making quiet moves on a chessboard only he could see.
And she couldn’t bring herself to give a single fuck.
She rose to her feet without a word, pulled the book she’d gotten for Christmas, and sat down again, curling her legs beneath her and flipping to the first chapter.
The boys kept talking, but she focused on the words.
Kit’s arrival by ship. The smell of salt and the fear of a new world. The tightness of expectation. The feeling of not belonging.
And slowly, line by line, she began to drown in it—gripping the pages like a lifeline as the sound of their voices faded into the background.
After a while, Ryu stretched his arms with a groan and let out a long, dramatic yawn. “I think I’m gonna nap for a bit,” he mumbled, already slouching deeper into the seat.
Both Vera and Cassius blinked at him.
“Already?” they said in unison, the same skeptical tone, the same raised brow.
Vera grimaced immediately. She hated that.
Ryu only grinned lazily. “It was a long morning,” he said, kicking off his shoes and twisting around until his head found her lap like it belonged there.
“Comfortable?” she asked, one brow arched.
“Hmm,” he murmured, squishing her thighs gently with both hands like he was testing the softness. “Might need to plump the pillow a bit.”
She laughed, then smacked him lightly with her book. “You better not have a naughty dream.”
“No promises,” he countered, eyes already drooping.
She laughed again, but then something caught her attention.
Cassius.
She glanced up and found him glaring—not at her, but at her thighs. At Ryu’s head on them. He didn’t blink until he caught her staring back.
Immediately, he dropped his gaze, pulled a book from his coat, and snapped it open with a little too much force.
She turned her attention back to the sleeping boy in her lap, letting her fingers slide gently into his hair. She began to stroke and massage his scalp, light and slow, the way she knew he liked. His breathing evened out within moments, and his lips twitched into the faintest smile. And just like that, he was asleep.
The quiet settled around them like fog, thick and muffled. Only three sounds filled the space: the soft hum of the train engine beneath their feet, the gentle flick of paper as pages turned, and Ryu’s slow, steady breathing from where he lay across her lap.
For a long while, that was all.
Vera kept her eyes on the book in her hands, trying to ground herself in fiction. But then—something shifted.
The soft, repetitive rustle of pages from Cassius’ side… stopped.
Without moving her head, she let her gaze drift just above the edge of the page—just enough to steal a glance.
He wasn’t reading anymore.
He was staring—at Ryu’s head resting in her lap.
Her hand, almost instinctively, found Ryu’s hair. She ran her fingers through it slowly, deliberately, then traced down to the line of his jaw.
She saw it then—Cassius’ lips parting, just slightly.
She kept her eyes on him as her fingers drifted lower, over the collar of Ryu’s shirt, until her hand slid underneath, splaying against the warmth of his chest. She began to rub slow, absentminded circles, all while watching Cassius like a cat watching a bird that had flown into the wrong garden.
He swallowed. Hard.
She let her hand rest there a moment longer—just long enough to make the silence hum—then slowly pulled it away.
She dropped her gaze, pretending to read, counted to three, and peeked again.
Cassius was still staring.
Her fingers shifted against the page, uncertain, before she cleared her throat—just loud enough to make her presence felt, to break the strange spell he seemed to be under.
His eyes snapped back to his book like he'd been caught doing something indecent, and he turned a page he hadn't read.
But it was too late. She had seen it.
The look of jealousy.
And for the life of her, she couldn’t understand why.
The silence stretched thin again, held together only by the hum of the train and the gentle rise and fall of Ryu’s chest.
Then Cassius spoke, his voice low, too casual to be innocent.
“What are you reading?”
“A book,” she said without looking up.
“I can see that.”
“It’s a novel. And you might want to keep your voice down unless you want to wake Ryu.”
“He sleeps like a stone. I’d be surprised if a hex woke him.”
She didn’t respond.
“The Witch of Blackbird Pond… never heard of it.”
“You wouldn’t have. It’s a Muggle book.”
He scoffed. “And what would Muggles possibly have to say about witches?”
“It’s not that kind of story.”
“I just find it hard to believe you can stomach their literature.”
“Not all of us carry generations of grudges on our backs, Warrington.”
He snorted.
She looked up, narrowed her eyes. “What was that for?”
“Just funny, that’s all.”
“What is?”
“The idea that a Crow doesn’t hold grudges. That’s sort of your brand, isn’t it?”
Her jaw tightened. “Tread lightly.”
“I didn’t mean it as a dig.”
“Everything out of your mouth is a dig.”
“Strange. I thought an apology and a gift might’ve changed that attitude.”
“I didn’t ask you for either,” she said coldly. “Especially not that. What were you thinking?”
He shrugged. “It made sense.”
“Oh, did it?”
“You’re half Crow, half Rose. The brooch reflects that.”
"How thoughtful. Must’ve taken a lot of effort and galleons for someone you don't like.”
"I never said I didn’t like you.”
“No, you said worse. But the meaning landed all the same.”
He said nothing for a moment. Then, in one swift motion, he reached over and snatched the book from her hands.
She gasped, instinctively reaching for it—but Ryu was still resting peacefully in her lap, his head anchoring her in place.
“Hand it back,” she hissed, her fingers frozen mid-air.
Cassius ignored her. Sat back, flipped open the book, eyes skimming the pages with barely concealed disdain.
“This is revolting,” he said. “How can you read this rubbish?”
“Shut up and give it back.”
“She knew how to swim, and they assumed she was a witch? And this doesn’t bother you?”
“It’s more complicated than that—”
“No, it’s really not. They hunted people like us—burned them, drowned them, drove them mad—all because they were either terrified or envious.”
“That was centuries ago, you git.”
“And you think they’ve changed? You think they wouldn’t do worse now if they had the chance?”
“Just give me the damn book back!”
He closed it with a thud, holding it like it was vile. “He hates that about you, you know.”
She blinked. “What?"
"Ryu can’t stand how much you cling to Muggle things. The way you talk sometimes, the way you dress, your obsession with learning their culture. He told me all of it.”
She scoffed. “You’re lying.”
“No. He just doesn’t have the heart to say it to you. Says you cry too easily. He calls you a ‘sensitive volcano.’ Says he’s exhausted by it.”
That familiar burn started in her hands again, slow and creeping.
“He’s going to change you, Black. He said that too. Eventually, he’ll fix you.”
She looked down at Ryu’s sleeping face, her stomach turning.
Cassius tilted his head. “What? You think I made that up?”
Her throat tightened. "I know you are."
“He told you about what Muggles did to his family. You were lying in his bed, weren’t you? Listening while he talked about it—”
“Stop,”
“—and even then, you tried to shift the blame. He told me he was disgusted by that. By you.”
Her eye twitched. Still, she said nothing.
Cassius leaned forward, voice a whisper now, like poison. “You made him feel ashamed of his pain.”
The ache in her hands had grown sharp—hot, prickling, like something might burst from her skin. But she kept her face still, eyes locked on a point just beyond Cassius’s shoulder.
“You’re lying,” she said again.
“Believe what you want, Black.”
“I know him. He wouldn’t say those things.”
“He says them when you’re not around.”
“He loves me.”
That finally made Cassius pause. His face flickered—something unreadable passing through it—but it was gone just as quickly, replaced by that same calm, cutting smirk.
“He thinks he does,” he said. “But what he loves is the idea of you. The version he can fix. He’s already chipping away at the parts he doesn’t like.”
She looked down at Ryu again. At his soft breathing, his peaceful face. The quiet trust in how easily he’d fallen asleep on her.
“You’re trying to turn me against him,” she said flatly. “But it’s not working. You don’t know him like I do.”
Cassius scoffed. “You’ve known him for what—three months? I’ve been his best friend for years. You haven't seen anything yet."
"I've seen it all. And I stayed."
“You mean when he lost it in potions because you were panting after Diggory like a stray in heat? Or when he nearly broke my skull for calling you exactly what you are—a bitch?”
Her jaw tightened.
“That was nothing,” he whispered. “That was him holding back. Wait until he really loses control. Until he starts looking through you. Then you'll see the true dragon."
"I told you, I've seen it all."
"Tell me then, what do you know about his bad habits, huh? About the things he's too afraid to show you? About his ugly side?"
"My Ryu doesn't have an ugly side,"
"You just don't get it do you?"
"Get what?"
"You don't grasp how much of a perfectionist he is. Ryu gets what he wants—always, and at any cost. Every move is calculated, and if a single detail slips, he falls apart. And trust me, you don’t want to be around when that happens. It’s not charming. It’s not endearing. When he breaks, you break with him."
She rolled his eyes. “Very dramatic, thank you. What's the point of telling me this, Warrington?"
“That I actually know the person you’re pretending to love. More than you'll ever do."
“I'm not pretending anything!"
“Then why do you lie to him?”
Her breath caught.
“You lie to him constantly,” he pressed. “He told me himself.”
“That’s not true.”
“Isn’t it? Then why didn’t you tell him about your dear great-uncle?”
Her heart slammed against her chest. “What?”
“Draco told me everything. That your own blood won’t even talk to you. Not now, not ever. You should’ve seen Ryu’s face when I told him. Like something inside him cracked."
“You fucking told him?!”
“I assumed he already knew. I mean—he’s your boyfriend, right? Surely he’d be told the truth.”
“And what truth is that?”
“That your great-uncle thinks you’re polluted. A taint on the family name. You, in your Gryffindor scarf, holding hands with mudbloods and worshipping muggle garbage.”
“That’s—”
“Ryu always assumed your family were okay with your behaviour. But now that he knows how they truly feel about you, it's becoming harder for him to be seen with you. That's why he didn't wait for you at the platform."
“You know nothing about me or my family.”
“Then enlighten me. Tell me why your great uncle won’t speak to you.”
“It’s... it’s complicated.”
“No. It’s simple. You’re a disgrace. An embarrassment. The kind of girl they used to lock in towers. Trust me, it’s only a matter of time before they erase your name from every family tree.”
“Okay, that's enough!"
“You defend the very people who butchered Ryu's kin until they had no choice but to flee. Who burned our ancestors at the stake for fun. Who turned your own bloodline into outcasts, tossed them into forests like vermin, and branded them as thieves and whores. You defend the people who called your dynasty gypsies and warned others to stay away from them. And for what? Some fucking muggle books and clothes?”
“You’re such a fucking hypocrite,” she hissed. “You promised Ryu you’d be civil. You said you’d respect me.”
“I lied. Just like you do.”
“Why do you hate me so much, Warrington?”
“Oh, I don't even know where to begin. But let’s start with the fact you threatened my cousin.”
“That little twat deserved it—”
She didn't even finish the sentence before he threw the book at her like a stone, slamming her cheekbone with a brutal thud. The pain was immediate—a sharp burst that blurred her vision and made her ears ring. She gasped, one hand flying to her face as her book tumbled to the floor.
She looked back at Cassius.
He was staring at her, eyes blazing with fury that barely looked human.
“I’m warning you,” he said through gritted teeth. “Threaten Draco again—and I’ll fucking kill you.”
She didn’t flinch. Didn’t give him the satisfaction.
She bent down, slowly, and picked up the book from the floor, keeping her hand pressed gently to her face—careful not to wake Ryu, careful not to show Cassius that he’d hurt her more than he’d ever know.
The silence between them was sharp and heavy, stretched thin like glass. But she refused to let it break.
Then, as if the world had snapped back into motion— Ryu stirred on her lap, stretching like a cat in the sun.
“That might’ve been one of my best naps yet,” he mumbled, eyes still half-lidded.
She straightened, quickly wiping the pain from her face and replacing it with a soft smile. “Glad I could provide top-tier cushioning.”
He chuckled sleepily and leaned in to kiss her cheek, but stopped mid-motion. “What’s that?”
She froze for half a second too long.
He tilted his head. “Where did that bruise come from…?”
She swallowed hard, then forced herself to turn toward him. “It’s nothing. I, um… bumped into someone’s bag at the platform earlier. Probably a sharp buckle or something. It didn’t show until now.”
She didn’t dare look at Cassius, but she felt the weight of his stare.
And then—she did.
He was still glaring, smug and unrepentant. She didn’t break the gaze until Ryu shifted beside her. When she turned back, his eyes were already on the two of them.
Something flickered across his face—concern, maybe confusion—but then it softened. He leaned in gently, pressing a kiss to her bruised cheek, as if it could erase whatever had caused it.
“I’ll be right back,” he said, standing up. “Just going to the loo.”
She nodded, still holding her smile.
Only when the compartment door slid shut did she let her hand drift back to her cheek.
Cassius was still watching her, like a predator waiting for the next flinch.
"Why didn’t you tell him the truth?" He sneered.
"Because if I did, he’d burn you alive."
"And wouldn’t that please you?"
"Oh, I crave it, Warrington. More than I crave air."
"Funny. I feel the same about watching you suffer."
Something snapped in her. She plunged her hand into her coat pocket, pulled out the ornate brooch he’d gifted her, and hurled it straight at him. It struck his chest with a hard crack before clattering to the floor.
"I don’t want your cursed gifts," she spat. "You’re not sincere. You’re not changing. You’re just a coward with a rotten heart. A pathetic excuse for a human—and you always will be."
He calmly picked up the brooch. "Ah. There it is. The Crow grudge. Predictable."
"I don’t hold grudges. Not against everyone. Just you."
He twirled the brooch between his fingers. "Maybe I’ll tell Ryu you returned my heartfelt gift."
"Be my fucking guest."
"Not worried about what he'll say? What he'll think?"
"He’ll understand. When I tell him why."
"Oh, sure. He’ll definitely believe you. After all, when he’s around you, he’s always thinking with his dick, not his brain."
Her expression twisted in disgust. "You call yourself his best friend and speak about him like that? Go fuck yourself, Warrington."
He rose from his seat like a shadow unfolding, slow and deliberate. Vera's whole body tensed, instinct warning her, but she forced herself not to shrink back. She wouldn’t let him see her fear—never that.
He stepped forward, step by step, until he was standing right in front of her, close enough to steal the air from her lungs. Without saying a word, he reached into his palm and lifted the crow-shaped brooch.
Then, without breaking eye contact, he bent forward and pinned it to her chest, just over her heart.
His other hand moved to the seat behind her, boxing her in. Then—calmly, almost tenderly—his fingertips touched the edge of her bruise.
She couldn’t move. Couldn’t breathe. Her chest felt tight, her legs like stone.
His fingers trailed the curve of her cheekbone with eerie gentleness, then moved lower—toward her lips.
He touched them softly. Caressed them.
“I should’ve aimed lower,” he murmured, voice dark and intimate. “Hit those pretty lips of yours… so that every time you kiss him, you’d feel my pain.”
Her eyes burned. She wanted to look away, but she couldn’t.
His hand was still on her face, but his voice cracked in a way that sent chills down her spine. For the first time, it wasn’t laced with venom—it was something else. Raw. Pained. Human.
“Why do you always get your way, Vera? Why Can't I ever have it?”
She blinked, confusion warping the fear. “Have… what?”
He didn’t answer. Just stared into her eyes, his fingers slowly caressing her lips.
“What the fuck is going on?”
Ryu’s voice sliced through the tension like a blade.
Vera jolted, pushing Cassius's hand away.
Cassius, however, didn’t flinch. He turned smoothly to face Ryu with that effortless, unbothered grin he wore like armor.
“Relax,” he said coolly. “I was just checking on her bruise.”
Ryu’s gaze flicked back to Vera’s cheek, then to her again.
He let the silence stretch, suspicion etched into every line of his face—but finally, he gave a quiet nod and sat down on the seat opposite her.
“I’m gonna go check on the others,” Cassius added. “See you back at Hogwarts.”
Ryu didn’t look up. Just nodded again, stiff and short.
Cassius lingered for a moment longer—just long enough for Vera to feel it—and then he was gone.
The silence left in his wake was deafening.
She kept her eyes fixed on the window, willing herself not to cry, not to let even the smallest tremor show in her hands. The fields passed in a blur outside, but she couldn’t see them. All she saw was Cassius's face. His fingers. That look in his eyes.
Ryu just stared at her—brows drawn, lips parted, like he was working something out in his head.
She saw it—clear as day—in the tight line of his jaw, the way his fingers fidgeted with the hem of his sleeve, the way he avoided looking at her too long. He was hurt. Confused. Probably thinking things he’d never dare say out loud. She couldn’t let him spiral.
So she forced herself to smile, gentle and warm.
“What did you dream about?” she asked softly, nudging his knee with her foot. “I know you love talking about your dreams.”
He blinked, surprised. Then, slowly, the corners of his mouth curved into a small, reluctant smile.
“It was... weird,” he said. “I was back in Kyoto, but everything was upside down."
"Yeah?" She leaned closer. "Tell me more."
Encouraged, he kept going, voice growing animated. His hands gestured wildly as he spoke of a shrine gate that turned into a dragon, and a cherry tree that whispered his name in his mother’s voice.
She hummed in response, smiling, nodding at all the right moments—but she wasn’t really hearing him.
Her mind had drifted. Back to Cassius. His words. The venom in them.
You don't know his bad habits.
Wait until he really loses control.
None of it could be true. She knew Ryu. She’d seen him. Soft, goofy, kind—even when he was exhausted or in pain. Cassius was just bitter. Cruel. A master manipulator. A snake in velvet robes.
But what if he wasn’t lying? What if there was truth buried in the poison? What if there was a side of Ryu she didn’t know?
Cassius’s words echoed again, ugly and cruel.
He hates the way you love Muggle things. The way you speak.
You lie to him.
He says you’re a sensitive volcano… says one day he’ll fix you.
No. No. Ryu wouldn’t say those things. He couldn’t.
But then again… what if he did?
A dark whisper coiled through her mind, quiet but insistent—telling her to dig the truth out of him with her own hands.
Her fingers twitched with the urge to touch him. But the thought repulsed her, struck her like a slap. She recoiled inwardly, ashamed, horrified by the violence that had bloomed so easily in her.
She tried to fight it, to remind herself of who Ryu really was. She turned toward him, trying to see past the smile—to see something darker. But all she found was her sweetheart, her darling boy, exactly as she’d always known him.
She stared at him.
At that smile. That dreamy, distant light in his eyes. His stupidly perfect hair. The way his knee bounced when he was excited, the way he always got louder when he cared.
The pain in her hand faded. Her chest eased. Her mind calmed.
It didn’t matter what Cassius thought, or what he said, or what the others whispered in dark corners.
She knew Ryu.
He would never hurt her.
And even if the whole world turned against him, she would still hold on to that truth. To that hope. To him.
♪ Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know
So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters ♪
Notes:
Chapter's song: Nothing Else Matters - Metallica
Consider this my official apology in advance for the chaos you're about to witness in the next few chapters.
And if you thought Cassius was being cruel now—just wait. His feud with Vera will get bloodier than a vampire dinner party. Literally.
Chapter 81: Changes
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Wednesday, January 8, 1992
The sun filtered through the curtains like golden ribbons، casting long stripes across Ryu's room. Vera nudged the wardrobe door open with her elbow, careful not to let the large canvas in her arms hit the frame.
Today was his birthday. His day. And she had been planning it down to the second.
She glanced toward the bed buried under an avalanche of blankets. And there he was, sound asleep, dead to the world, like some tragic poet who’d passed away dramatically mid-sonnet.
His face was absurdly serene, lips slightly parted, lashes too long to be legal. His dark hair fell messily across his forehead in a way that made her heart thump like a damn marching band.
She set the painting down gently on his desk, then padded over to his side.
“Ryu,” she whispered sweetly, leaning over him and brushing a few strands of hair from his forehead. “Hey, birthday boy. Time to wake up.”
Nothing.
She poked his cheek. “Ryu.”
A groan.
"RYUUUU!"
A faint grunt.
She grabbed a pillow from the floor and tossed it at him, but he didn’t even flinch.
“Alright,” she muttered, toeing off her shoes. “Have it your way.”
In one fluid motion, she climbed up onto the mattress, and stood at the foot of the bed, eyes narrowed like a general preparing for battle.
Then she started jumping.
“WAKE UP, SLEEPING BEAUTY!”
The bed creaked under her weight as she bounced up and down like a storm. Ryu groaned again, curling slightly, but made no move to stop her.
“Merlin, you’re impossible,” she shrieked, still jumping. “I planned your entire birthday, and you’re just gonna lie there like you’re in a bloody coma?!”
A muffled groan emerged from somewhere beneath the duvet.
“Vera,” he rasped, voice thick with sleep. "Five more minutes."
“Get up, sleepyhead. You're FOURTEEN!”
“No.”
"You're being a bad boyfriend right now, Ryujin."
“Get. Off. My bed.”
She bounced harder, laughing. “Or what?"
Before she could blink, his strong arms caught her mid-jump. She yelped as he pulled her down, tumbling beneath him with a flurry of blankets and limbs. He was above her now, sleepy eyes half-lidded but sharp with mischief.
“You’re insane,” he mumbled into her hair, his voice deliciously hoarse with sleep. He buried his face in her curls, inhaling deeply. “Ten more minutes. I promise.”
She squirmed beneath him, laughing breathlessly. “You’re so heavy, get off!”
His lips brushed her ear, slow and lazy. “Make me.”
“It’s your birthday, not your death day, get up before I paint your face.”
“Mmm,” he mumbled, already pulling her snug against his chest. “You smell like peaches. Twenty more minutes.”
“Twenty? You just promised it was ten!”
“That was before I became your designated mattress.”
She huffed, twisting to face him. Their noses almost touched, her fingers brushing the sleep-warmed edge of his jaw. His eyes stayed half-lidded, mouth slightly open, devastatingly kissable.
She leaned in.
He blinked and jerked back just a bit. “Wait—don’t. I have awful morning breath.”
“I don’t care! I’m a romantic, not a coward. Now pucker up, stink boy.”
“I’m saving you from sensory trauma. You’ll thank me one day.”
“Fine, then go brush your teeth and come back for a proper kiss."
He sighed dramatically. “You’re ruining my sacred birthday rituals.”
“By which you mean hibernating until noon?”
“Exactly.”
“Don't you wanna see your gift?”
“I already have one.” He nudged her jaw with his nose. “And she’s lying under me, ruining my chance at sleeping in.”
She shoved him lightly, but her fingers lingered on his ribs. “Come on, the bloody thing took me weeks to finish.”
He lifted his head, his gaze catching hers. “Show me."
She reached back, stretched for the wrapped canvas on the desk, then handed it to him.
“Happy birthday, sweetheart."
He sat up slowly, the sheets pooling at his waist as he cradled the wrapped canvas in his lap. Vera scooted beside him, hugging her knees, suddenly feeling shy. She’d dreamed of this moment for weeks—his reaction, his face lighting up, the way he’d look at her after seeing it. But now that it was here, her heart thudded with nerves.
His fingers trembled just slightly as he fully unwrapped the painting and propped it against his knees.
“This is…” He touched the edge of the canvas. “This is incredible.”
She finally smiled. “Do you like it?”
He looked at her, eyes wide, full of awe. “You're terrifyingly good at this. Every detail is just... Wow. And Shingin—she looks... Vera, I'm deeply in love with you."
She flushed. "Stop it."
"I'm serious! I mean, you made me look exactly the same but somehow—different.”
“You look like you,” she said quietly. “Like how I see you. How you really are."
She leaned her head on his shoulder.
“You’re the dragon, Ryu. Beautiful and terrifying. Strong. Noble. Too big for this world, but trying to live in it anyway.”
He turned to her, and in his eyes was something raw and unguarded—like he had just found something he never knew he was searching for.
She gave his shoulder a gentle shove. “Alright, enough basking in your glory, birthday boy. Move it. We’ve got class in twenty minutes and I've prepared another surprise for you after.”
"Another surprise?”
She nodded. "But only if you get your arse out of bed now.”
Instead, he groaned and flopped backward like a dramatic prince, dragging the duvet over his head. “Nope. I’m staying right here. My bed is soft. My girlfriend is a goddess. Life is good.”
She grabbed a pillow from the edge of the bed, and smacked him square in the face with it. “You love sleeping more than you love me!”
A muffled voice from under the covers: “I do not! I just—ow! Vera, stop it! Violence!”
Another whap of the pillow. “Say it! Say you love me more than you love sleep!”
He burst into laughter, catching the next swing mid-air and grabbing her wrist. “Fine! I love you more than I love sleep—but just barely.”
She narrowed her eyes, lips twitching. “I’ll take it. Now if you’re not vertical in five minutes, I’m sketching you mid-snore, drool included, and turning it into a birthday card to post on every common room bulletin board.”
His grin spread, lazy and unbothered. “Just make sure you get my good side.”
She ran a hand through his hair tenderly… then gave him a light smack on the forehead. “Up. Now.”
“Fine!” He groaned, already extracting himself from the blankets. “But close your eyes.”
She blinked. “Why? Wait—are you bloody naked?”
“What?! No! Just… not fully decent.”
She grinned. “I don't mind if you were.”
"Behave."
“Fine, fine.” She covered her eyes with both hands, fingers spread slightly so she could still peek through if she really wanted to. “Go, dragon. Fly free.”
He was already halfway to the bathroom door, blanket flapping like a cape. “Do not peek.”
“I make no promises.”
“Vera.”
“Okay, okay!”
The bathroom door clicked shut, and she flopped down onto the bed, arms outstretched, face buried deep in the pillow.
And that was a mistake.
He was all over it. Not in a gross way, but in that maddening, intoxicating way that made her want to press her nose deeper and never leave.
His scent was like late nights and candle wax and fresh soap and lazy summers and him. Just him. Her fingers curled into the pillowcase.
And then—her eyes sparked.
She sat up like she’d just had a divine revelation. Darting toward his drawers, she pulled out a clean pillowcase with the precision of someone executing a top-secret mission. A quick swap later, she had the old one stuffed halfway into her bag.
She was just zipping it closed when the bathroom door creaked open.
“I’m ready,” Ryu said casually.
She jumped, nearly sending her whole bag flying across the room. “Right! Great! Let’s—let’s go!”
His brow quirked suspiciously. “You alright?”
“Yep. Totally. Let’s go learn some stuff!"
He just chuckled, falling into step beside her as they headed out.
Later, in Transfiguration, just as the lesson began and everyone was pulling out their books, Vera slid into her seat beside him and popped open her bag.
And that’s when he saw it.
There, nestled among the quills and parchments, was a very familiar pillowcase—his pillowcase. The one she'd shamelessly swapped.
He blinked at it. Then blinked again. “Is that—?”
She didn’t even look at him, just opened her notebook like nothing had happened.
“Vera… is that my pillowcase?”
She giggled nervously. “What? No.”
“It’s got a Ravenclaw crest on it. Unless you’ve got a secret affair going on with Flitwick, that’s definitely mine.”
Her face went crimson. “Okay, maybe it is. Shut up.”
“Wow. Just… wow. I trusted you. I left you unsupervised in my sacred nesting grounds. I let you use me as a human mattress. And this is how you repay me?”
She bit her lip. “Are you mad?”
“Mad? Vera, I’m devastated. Betrayed. Emotionally wrecked.” He paused for dramatic effect. “Mostly because I didn’t think of it first. I want yours. Immediately. This is war.”
She chuckled. “War?”
“Pillow-scented warfare. Don’t make me raid Gryffindor tower.”
She bit back a laugh. “You’re such a perv.”
“Says the girl carrying evidence of her pervy crimes in broad daylight.”
She rolled her eyes but couldn’t stop smiling. “Fine. You can have mine.”
“Perfect. We’ll swap. Like unhinged romantics.”
He then leaned over his desk, eyes still fixed on her like she was the sun and he hadn’t seen light in years. “Alright, mysterious thief of bedding—what’s the rest of your grand plan for today?”
Her eyes sparkled. "First, we’re going ice skating on the Black Lake. I bribed Hagrid to clear a path and then I charmed it smooth.”
“Of course you did.”
“Then,” she continued, pretending not to notice how hard he was staring at her, “we’re having a romantic, candlelit dinner at the highest tower in the castle. And yes—before you even ask—I'm making you a cake. Two actually. To make up for last year's."
He was speechless.
“And,” she said with a dramatic pause, “I will allow you a short nap between the skating and the feast.”
Ryu blinked again, slowly this time, before leaning just a bit closer. “I love you.”
He didn’t waste a second—he pulled her in by the collar and kissed her, firm and warm, full of birthday giddiness and a hundred unspoken thank yous and —
SMACK.
“Mr. Avery!” Professor McGonagall’s voice cracked like a whip. "Control your hormones in my class."
Ryu yelped as her rolled-up parchment whacked the back of his head.
“And Miss Black, if you’d be so kind as to stop seducing him during my lecture?”
Vera, trying very hard not to laugh, put on her most innocent face. “He kissed me, Professor.”
“Yes, and you leaned in. Detention for both of you if I see lips touching again,” McGonagall warned, already turning back to the chalkboard.
They both straightened up instantly. But when Vera peeked sideways, she caught Ryu still smiling at her like he hadn’t even felt the smack.
“Happy birthday,” she mouthed.
The Black Lake shimmered like glass beneath the late afternoon light, the two of them gliding across it with charmed skates.
She laughed as he tried to spin and almost crashed, arms flailing. He caught himself just in time, then bowed dramatically, making her snort. They skated until their fingers were numb and their faces ached from smiling.
“Alright,” she finally said, tugging his scarf tighter, “off you go. Nap time.”
He groaned playfully. “You’re sending me to bed like a child.”
“Children don’t get dessert after,” she winked, then leaned down and kissed his lips. “Now go.”
They parted ways—he to collapse on his bed, she to sprint through the castle corridors with bags of ingredients, stacks of dishes, and a wand working overtime.
Evening arrived in quiet enchantment.
When Ryu stepped into the tower later that evening, he stopped dead.
The chamber was circular, cozy, and magical in the most intimate way. Open arched windows let in the crisp night air, and she had charmed the ceiling above to glow translucent—showing the stars winking above. She also decorated it with floating lanterns, that cast soft golden light around the space.
In the middle sat a small round table, cloaked in a deep blue cloth patterned like a night sky, with scented candles flickering between two plates of steaming food.
But what caught his breath entirely were the cakes.
One was rich chocolate, simple and familiar. The other was dark blue, the color of midnight, iced with silver stars. His name was written across the top in swirling calligraphy, and beside it—his family’s dragon crest, perfectly rendered in icing.
And then he saw her.
She stood just beside the table, bundled in the violet velvet dress he’d bought her. Her nose was red from the cold, cheeks glowing pink, and her hair danced gently in the breeze. She was smiling—but nervously—watching him, unsure if it was enough.
But it was more than enough.
He crossed the chamber in three steps and pulled her into the tightest hug he’d ever given her—so tight her ribs squeaked, so tight she forgot to breathe.
But she melted into it.
“I take it you like it?” she murmured, muffled into his shoulder.
He pulled back just enough to kiss her, soft and grateful. “I love it.”
They sat down at the tiny round table, plates steaming, candles flickering like little stars between them. Their laughter echoed through the small room, unrestrained and youthful, a song only the stars above could hear.
After the meal, she lit both cakes with a simple charm, and he blew out the candles with a grin so wide it made her heart ache.
“I have one last thing for you.”
Ryu perked up, brows raised. “Another surprise?”
She handed it to him wordlessly—her own pillowcase.
He held it to his chest like a toddler with a favorite plush toy, sighing dramatically and nestling into it. “Ahh… soft… smells like home.”
They ended up laying on the floor, backs against the stone floor, legs tangled together beneath the flickering lanterns. The air was still crisp, but the warmth between them was enough. Above them, the charmed ceiling shimmered with stars that seemed to dance just for them, the night silent but full—of love, of mischief, of something that felt like forever.
“Vera…” he suddenly said, his tone serious. “There’s something I wanted to talk to you about.”
She turned her head to look at him, curious. “What is it?”
"I want you to come to Kyoto with me this summer. Stay with me and my family.”
She froze, lips parting slightly.
“I know what you’re gonna say,” he rushed on, sitting up straighter, “your aunt’s a brick wall. I get it. But I’ve already figured it out, alright? My dad’s gonna write her this super formal convincing letter with every little detail—the dates, the itinerary, the promises to keep you safe. I’m even ready to have him throw in an Unbreakable Vow if that’ll help. You’ll take the letter, give it to her, and if she says yes, you come stay with me.”
She blinked, stunned.
“I’ve thought about this, Vera. So many nights. I’ve planned everything.”
Still, she didn’t say anything.
He leaned closer, smiling that gentle smile that always undid her. “You’ll finally see my home. You’ll meet my aunts. I’ll show you Kyoto and all of Japan. Every shrine, every little festival. We’ll go swimming, stay up all night, eat everything. It'll be perfect.”
She didn’t respond. Just kept staring at him, her chest caving under all the lies she’d wrapped herself in.
“And…” he added, quieter now, but with a teasing glint, “we’ll have our own wing of the palace. Just you and me. Day and... Night."
She blinked again, and he noticed the shimmer in her eyes.
"Vera... Please, say something."
She wanted to tell him everything—the truth, the mess, the secrets. But she couldn’t. Not now. Not when he looked at her like that. Like she was his whole world.
“Please say yes,” he whispered. “Please.”
She wanted to speak—say something, anything—but guilt tightened around her throat, leaving her silent.
She closed her eyes. She could see it all: the cherry blossoms, the paper lanterns, the warm summer air, his hand in hers.
This was her dream. To travel the world. To be in his home. To immerse herself in his culture. To meet his family. To live in a palace. To spend every waking moment by his side, and fall asleep beside him each night.
To have him—wholly, completely.
When she opened her eyes again, the truth settled in her chest: she wanted this. And no matter the cost, she would make it happen.
“Yes, Ryu. I’d love that.”
And the way his face lit up—like she’d just handed him the stars—made her feel, if only for a moment, that everything would be okay.
He began kissing her softly, then again and again—between sentences, between smiles—as he filled her in on the details, stories, his plans for them.
She smiled, listening as he spoke for nearly an hour, his voice wrapping around her like a warm blanket. She couldn't remember the last time she felt so content, so entirely happy.
But the distant chime of the clock tower reminded her that curfew was creeping closer.
"Do you want to go for a night broom ride before curfew?" She asked.
He hesitated for a beat, then gave a slightly apologetic smile. “I'd love to. But—I already promised the boys I’d meet them.”
Her heart gave a tiny lurch. "The boys?"
“Yeah,” he said, rubbing the back of his neck. “They’re throwing me a late birthday party.”
“Oh.”
“You’re okay with that?”
She smiled, forcing it to reach her eyes. “Yeah, of course. What wouldn’t I be?”
“It’s just—we’ve got a lot of catching up to do, and… well, I can’t exactly turn down an invitation like that.”
She nodded. “It’s totally fine, love. Just have fun.”
He leaned in, kissed her gently. “You’re the best.”
Thursday, January 9, 1992
♪ I feel unhappy
I feel so sad
I lost the best friend
That I ever had ♪
The next day, he was late to class.
She kept glancing at the door, waiting, hoping he’d slip in with his usual smile. But he never showed.
During a lull, she turned to Roger, who sat two seats away. “Have you seen Ryu?”
“He’s got a headache,” he said quietly. “Decided to skip classes today.”
She frowned. “Why wouldn’t he go to the hospital wing?”
Roger looked suddenly nervous, like he’d said too much. “I… I don’t think it’s my place to say.”
That only made her frown deepen, but she nodded, letting it go—for now.
At lunch, she climbed the stairs to his dorm. She found him curled beneath his blanket, fast asleep. His brow was furrowed, one arm hanging off the side of the bed. She leaned down and pressed a gentle kiss to his cheek.
“I hope you feel better soon,” she whispered, then slipped out without waking him.
He didn’t attend dinner, either. Her appetite was gone, replaced by the growing knot in her chest. By the next morning, he was back. However, he looked unusually pale.
“I’m so sorry, love," he murmured, sliding into the seat beside her. "I was really sick.”
She smiled, relieved to see him. “It’s fine. I’m just glad you’re feeling better.”
She was about to ask if he wanted to do something after class—fly, walk by the lake, talk, anything—when Miles, Adrian, and Cassius appeared beside their desk.
“Oi, Ryu,” Miles grinned. “You coming to watch us practice after class?”
Ryu didn’t even hesitate. “Yeah, of course.”
Her lips parted slightly, but she closed them again just as fast.
It’s fine, she told herself. You’re not entitled to his time.
But it only got worse.
For the next two weeks, he barely spent any time with her. He was always with his friends—laughing in the corridors, huddled around tables, sneaking out for late-night broom rides. Sometimes he let her know in advance. Other times, he simply didn’t show up. No note. No explanation. Just absence.
She tried not to dwell on it. He misses them, she told herself. They were apart for a long time. He just wants to catch up. That made sense.
And yet… something inside her whispered otherwise. A quiet, persistent doubt: He’s drifting. Getting bored. Pulling away.
One night he was promising her the world, the next day he was barely in hers.
No.
That wasn’t him. Ryu wasn’t like that. Not the boy who made space for her in every part of his world.
♪ We shared the years
We shared each day
In love together
We found a way ♪
Still, the loneliness crept in like fog. It clung to her during meals, where she sat alone at the edge of the table. It followed her through the halls, through the empty library aisles where she buried herself in books, hoping they’d silence her thoughts.
Ryu had suggested she spend time with Eudora and Jane.
“They’re truly nice,” he’d said. “You might like enjoy it.”
But the very idea repulsed her. She didn’t want them. She wanted him.
So, instead, she chose solitude.
She walked alone. Ate alone. Studied alone. And every time he passed her without noticing—every time the seat beside her stayed empty—something inside her stung a little more.
It hurt. It hurt more than she wanted to admit.
And the worst part? She didn’t know if he even noticed.
And then Monday came.
Without warning, Professor Snape swept into the classroom and announced a surprise quiz on the latest chapter.
Vera barely flinched. She’d reviewed the material twice over the weekend. But beside her, Ryu let out a low curse.
She glanced at him. “Are you okay?”
“No,” he muttered. “I don’t know a damn thing about that potion.”
She frowned. “I told you we should’ve studied it last night.”
“You did,” he said, guilt creeping into his voice. “But then Cassius asked if I wanted to play chess in the Slytherin common room and—”
“It’s fine." She reached for his hand under the desk, squeezing it gently. “You can cheat off me.”
He let out a bitter laugh. “I never cheat.”
She didn’t push.
By Wednesday, the graded quizzes were returned. Her name was at the top—highest mark in class. A proud grin tugged at her lips, but it faltered the moment she looked at Ryu.
His parchment trembled slightly in his hands. She glanced over, and her eyes widened with shock.
He failed. For the first time. Ever.
Her smile vanished, and she slipped her own quiz out of sight and leaned toward him.
“It’s just one bad mark,” she said softly. “It doesn’t define you.”
But he didn’t respond. He didn’t even look at her. His eyes were locked on the parchment, his jaw clenched so tightly it looked painful. She could feel the heat radiating from him—not the usual warmth, but something entirely else. Something unnatural.
She didn’t say anything more.
When class ended, he stood abruptly and grabbed his bag.
“I’m going back to the dorm. I need sleep.”
“But we still have Defense—”
“I’m tired,” he said, already walking away.
She opened her mouth to call after him, to tell him it was okay, to say anything.
But he was already gone.
After Defense ended, she couldn’t shake the worry twisting in her gut. She hadn’t seen him the rest of the day. Something about the way he left—tight-lipped, too quiet—lingered in her chest like a bruise.
So she decided to check on him.
She’d made him cookies, warm and soft, the kind he liked. She balanced the plate carefully as she climbed the stairs to the dorm, rehearsing what she might say. Maybe a joke to lighten the mood. Maybe nothing at all—just silence and a cookie shared between them.
But when she opened the door, her heart almost stopped.
He was on the floor, slumped with his back against the bed, surrounded by scattered books and crumpled parchment. Potions notes, Defense notes, pages torn ink smudged with frustration.
But none of that was what shocked her.
It was the bottle of whiskey in his hand.
He looked up as the wardrobe door clicked shut, a crooked grin spreading across his flushed face.
“Oh, Vera,” he slurred, lifting a hand lazily from the floor. “Come here, love. Give me a hug.”
She stood frozen just inside, the plate of cookies trembling slightly in her hands.
“Ryu,” she said quietly. “What is that?”
He blinked at it like he’d just remembered it was there, then held it up proudly. “Scotch,” he declared. “Yaxley’s finest, no less.”
Her stomach turned as the scent hit her—sharp, bitter, burning. That smell. That godawful smell.
It dragged her backward in time, into memories she'd buried deep—Mr. Humphrey, the way his breath stung of alcohol as he leaned too close, the way his voice slurred when he—
She blinked it away. “Where the hell did you get that?”
“Cassius,” he said with a laugh. “His birthday gift to me. Smuggling these babies into Hogwarts was a bloody mission, but worth it. He brought a stash. We had two left—thought I’d save one for a rainy day.”
“You… you drank on your birthday!?”
“Of course. It’s tradition.”
“Wait… is that why you had a headache the next day?”
He nodded cheerfully. “Yeah I was hanging. Didn’t want Pomfrey finding out, though. She’d have hexed the truth out of me.”
Vera’s mind reeled. This wasn’t real. This couldn’t be real.
She stepped forward slowly, placing the plate of cookies on the desk like it might shatter if she wasn’t careful.
“Wait… what?”
“What?” he echoed, squinting at her.
“You… you drink?”
He stared at her, unbothered. “Yeah. Don’t you?”
“No! Of course not. Ryu… since when?”
He shrugged. “Since I was nine.”
"NINE?”
“Yeah. Uncle Kaito would pour me a glass whenever his friends were over. Or if we were alone. Sometimes at family dinners. Sometimes just... late at night, in the kitchens.”
She felt like the floor tilted beneath her. “And your father? He knew?”
“Merlin, no. That would’ve ruined everything.”
“So your uncle just—just gave you alcohol? As a child?”
He laughed softly. “Yeah, he was building my tolerance.”
“That’s—That’s not building tolerance, Ryu. That’s abuse!"
“Don’t,” he snapped, his voice suddenly sharp. “Don’t you ever talk about him like that.”
She stilled in her place.
“He’s a good man,” he said, jaw clenching. “He might be reckless, but he’s not evil. He’s just… complicated. You wouldn’t understand.”
Her lips parted, but he was already spiraling.
“He’s got the second-son syndrome,” he continued. “The spare curse. The freedom to be stupid. To be nothing. I wish I had that. I wish I had a brother to take the bloody heirship from me.”
“Ryu—”
“No, listen.” His voice suddenly cracked. “You don’t get it. I never wanted this. I never wanted to be an heir.”
“Ryu, please,” she whispered. “Put the bottle down.”
He stared at the bottle, then up at her. “I envy you.”
“What...?”
“You don’t have responsibilities, Vera. You might be an heir, but your family fucked up so badly that you’re off the hook. No one expects shite from you. You’re free. You get to fucking live."
"That's not—"
“You fail every exam like it’s a joke, and no one says a damn thing. But here’s the real insult—you could pass them all without even trying. You’re gifted, and you waste it. You spit in the face of every ounce of talent you were handed.”
Her heart cracked. “That’s not fair.”
“But me?” he said, voice rising. “I have to be perfect. Every second of every damn day. Because apparently, we’ve got a society to rebuild. A legacy to fix after we lost our only hope at a pure world.”
“Ryu, stop—stop talking like that. You’re not thinking straight. You’re drunk.”
“STOP JUDGING ME!"
“I’m not! I’m just—just concerned."
“Why would you?” he laughed bitterly. “This doesn’t hurt me, Vee. It helps. It takes the edge off.”
“Is this because of the bad mark? The quiz?”
“No.” He said it like it was venom. “I don’t give a damn about the quiz. Snape can go fuck himself."
He took another swig. "I’m drinking because I want to. Because it’s fun. Because there are two bottles and I hate waste. Because for once, I want to feel like I could breathe without the weight of the world on my fucking shoulders.”
She stared at him, her hands trembling.
This was not the boy she kissed beneath lanterns. Not the boy she watched grin under stars. But it was still him, and that made it so much worse.
She crossed the room, slowly, and knelt down beside him.
“How much did you drink, love?"
He leaned his head back against the side of the bed, eyes half-lidded, the bottle dangling from his fingers.
“Not much,” he said with a grin. “Still got some left to share.”
“Share?”
“Yes, dear Vera.” He swiveled toward her. “Come on. Take a sip.”
“I don’t know, Ryu. I’ve never—I’ve never drank before.”
"It’s not that bad, I promise.”
She hesitated, nose wrinkling. “I just… I don’t like scotch. It reminds me of—"
“Reminds you of what?” he asked, more curious than concerned.
“Nothing. Forget it.”
He leaned forward, bottle extended. “Come on. Just a sip. For me?”
“Ryu…”
“Pleaaaaase?” He pouted, swaying slightly.
She sighed, rubbing her face with both hands. “Okay, fine. Just one bloody sip.”
He grinned. “That’s my girl.”
She took the bottle, held it like it was cursed, and tilted it toward her lips. The moment the liquid touched her tongue, her face contorted.
“Fucking hell,” she sputtered. “That’s bloody disgusting.”
“You don’t need to savor it, baby. Just chug it.”
She shook her head. “I don’t know about this, Ryu.”
“Here, I’ll help you,” he said, reaching for the bottle.
“Wait—no—!”
But he was already tipping it back toward her lips again, steadying her chin.
“Here you go… See? Not that bad—”
She gagged, stumbled back, and covered her mouth. “I’m gonna throw up!”
She pushed away from him and darted to the bathroom, accidentally knocking her bag in the process—its contents scattering across the floor.
The door slammed shut behind her, but she could still hear his muffled drunk voice.
“Don’t ruin my bathroom!”
She doubled over the toilet, retching until her ribs ached. The taste was vile, the smell worse. When she finally stood up, her face was pale, her hands shaking. She rinsed her mouth, splashed cold water on her face, and tried to calm her breathing.
But she could hardly grasp what she’d just saw. Ryu—her Ryu—drinks?
Was this what Cassius meant when he warned her about his bad habits? Was this the hidden side of Ryu she'd never seen before?
It wasn’t normal. She knew that. Children weren’t supposed to be handed alcohol. But then, a flicker of memory hit her like a slap—herself, at nine years old. Bruised. Shamed. Starved. Punished without reason, without mercy.
She hadn’t been normal either. So who was she to judge?
Cassius might have been telling the truth. Maybe, for once, he wasn’t just trying to ruin something. But that didn’t mean she could turn on Ryu. Not when he might be hurting.
She wouldn't hate him for this. She couldn’t.
What he needed now wasn’t blame—it was someone who stayed. She would be that someone. She had to talk to him, had to make him see what this could do to him. She would help him quit. Whatever it took.
♪ But soon the world
Had its evil way
My heart was blinded
Love went astray ♪
She stepped out of the bathroom, her shirt slightly damp from the sink water, and froze mid-step.
Ryu was sitting on his bed now, and in front of him was the entire contents of her bag, spilled out like an autopsy.
Books torn from order. Magazines bent at the spine. Notebooks cracked open. Her sketchbook. Her Walkman. And then—
The tapes.
“Ryu…” she said carefully. “What are you doing?”
He didn’t answer. His hand was wrapped around one of the cassettes, eyes narrowed at the label like it was written in blood. When he looked up at her, the fog of alcohol had burned off, and his gaze was now piercing, sharp as glass.
“Who the fuck is Wes?”
♪ Now all my days
Are filled with tears
Wish I could go back
And change these years ♪
Notes:
Chapter's song: Changes - Black Sabbath
Chapter 82: Silence
Chapter Text
Wednesday, January 29, 1992
“Who the fuck is Wes?”
Vera stepped closer. “Why are you going through my stuff?”
“I’m not,” Ryu snapped. “You knocked your bag over and everything spilled. I was trying to get them back when I found...”
He held up the cassette tape. "This."
“Ryu…” she started, trying to find a tether to hold him back from the edge. But it was slipping fast.
“Answer my fucking question, Vera,” he growled. “Who is Wes?”
She folded her arms, trying to hold herself together. “He’s just a friend... from back home.”
“A friend who calls you a star?”
“It’s not what you think—”
“Oh?” He yanked the headphones from her Walkman and held it up. “And what’s this?”
“It’s a Walkman,” she said tightly. “To play music.”
“A Muggle device...” His voice was rising, spinning faster than she could contain. "A bloody muggle device that you've been keeping in your bag this whole time."
He gestured to her bag's contents. “Muggle books. Muggle music. Muggle makeup, Muggle magazines—”
Then he reached for a small notebook.
“Ryu, don’t—”
He opened it anyway.
“The love of my life,” he read aloud, flipping through pages of collaged photographs, magazine clippings of Damon Albarn plastered across hearts, song lyrics, and notes written in cursive loops.
“Would you like to inform me who the love of your life is?” He asked bitterly.
“It’s nothing, Ryu. He’s just a singer that I’m fascinated with.”
“A Muggle singer,” he spat. “A MUGGLE.”
His hand trembled as he flipped another page. “You’ve got your lipstick all over it. Hearts and—what’s that? Tits? YOU’VE DRAWN TITS ON HIS FUCKING PHOTOGRAPH?”
“It doesn’t mean anything—”
“What does it mean, then? What does it mean when a girl draws tits on a boy’s photograph, Vera?”
“It was just a silly thing, nothing more. I didn’t even think about it—”
“Don’t insult my intelligence! You’ve never even said ‘I love you’ to me. Not once. But you’ll write it on some Muggle’s photo, with your bloody lipstick and your hearts and your naked little doodles—"
“It was from summer. Before you and I… before anything happened between us.”
“I don’t care how long ago it was! You kept it. You let me think—Merlin, Vera, you let me think I was something to you. And yet I’ve said it to you—I’ve said I love you—and all I ever got was silence.”
“It's not like that, I swear!"
“You never said it back. Not once. But this guy, this Damon whatever—he gets pages. Lyrics. Lipstick. Tits.”
“It’s not love! It’s not real. He’s not real, not in the way you are!"
He closed the notebook with a snap, holding it between two fingers like it disgusted him.
“I’m not going to be irrational about it,” he said. “I get it. Really. You like your music, your Muggle nonsense, your—freedom. But you will answer my question, Vera.”
His voice had changed—gone was the drunken lilt, replaced by something eerily cold.
“Is Wes a Muggle?”
She stood frozen, lips parting and closing again, because none of this was supposed to happen. Not like this. She tried to lie, to find some clever deflection, some half-truth that might save her. But her mouth—traitorous—moved on its own.
“…Yeah,” she whispered. “He is.”
She didn't look at him. Didn't want to see his reaction. She stared at the floor, her vision swimming. The silence after was vast and heavy, like a vacuum pulling all air from the room.
“And Kaya?” His voice dropped lower. “Is she a Muggle too?”
She gave the faintest nod.
He laughed—a sharp, joyless sound that scraped at her spine. “They’re from them, aren’t they? The letters Hagrid’s been sneaking in for you. They're from the muggle world.”
The tears broke free before she even knew they’d formed, hot trails cutting down her cheeks.
“You’re friends with Muggles?” he said again, like he couldn’t comprehend the words even as he spoke them.
“Yes,” she choked. “I am.”
The room snapped.
With a howl of rage, he seized her Walkman and hurled it against the nearest wall. It hit the stone with a sickening crack, splintering open—wires, batteries, cassette pieces flying like shrapnel.
“What the fuck is wrong with you!” she cried out, heart shattering right along with it.
“What’s wrong with me?” he shouted. “No, Vera. What the fuck is wrong with you? After everything I told you—about my family, what they did to us—you still thought it was fine to keep this from me?”
“It’s not what you think—”
“Oh, isn’t it?” he snapped, snatching the notebook off the bed. “You’ve got lipstick kisses on a fucking Muggle singer’s photo! You’re friends with Muggles—what the fuck am I supposed to think, Vera?”
“It’s just a notebook! Just a stupid, silly thing—”
“And your friends? The one whose initial you wear like a mark on your wrist? The one who calls you a star and sends you music like love letters? Are they just another stupid, silly thing too?”
"Ryu, please—just listen. Understand me—"
But he was pacing now, back and forth like a caged animal. His voice rose and fell in waves, crashing into her like a storm surge.
“There’s nothing to understand! You’ve been hiding half of who you are from me—the half you know I can’t stomach.”
She took a step back as he suddenly lurched forward.
“Where do you go during the summer, Vera?” he demanded, eyes blazing. “Who do you see? What other secrets are stuffed between your books and your fucking Muggle magazines?”
She stayed silent.
“Answer me!” he roared, stepping in again.
Her body moved before her mind did—arms up, face turned, elbow shielding instinctively.
Ryu stopped mid-step, as if struck by something invisible. His fury drained in an instant, horror creeping into its place.
“What was that?” he asked, eyes wide. “Did you think I was going to hurt you?”
Her silence answered louder than any scream.
“Vera,” he said, voice cracking under the weight of it, “look at me.”
She didn’t move.
“LOOK AT ME!”
Her head snapped up, tears streaking down her face as their eyes locked.
“You think I would hurt you?” he whispered, shattered.
Her voice came through her sobs, small but sharp as glass. “Men hit when they drink.”
The words struck like a curse. He reeled back as if the air had turned to fire.
“No,” he said, shaking his head violently. “Don’t you ever—ever—think that about me. Not when I’m drunk, not when I’m sober, not when I’m angry. I would never hurt you, Vera. Never.”
“But you’re hurting me now... You already are.”
He turned away, fist to his mouth. For a second, he seemed to break—then rage took over again.
“You don’t get to do this!” he snapped, whirling back to her. “You don’t get to play victim when you’ve been lying to me. When you’ve been betraying me with every letter, every secret tape, every goddamn glossy magazine page you cut up and kissed.”
"Just let me speak!"
“You know what disgusts me?” he cut in, his mouth twisting with revulsion “This room. This dorm. Roger’s side of it—Muggle everything. Posters of movies he can’t shut up about, muggle cameras, the smell of cheap Muggle cologne. I come back to this pit every day and feel like I’m drowning in their filth. And now you—you’re just one more thing in the garbage heap.”
She shook her head. “You’re fucking insane—”
“No, this is how it starts. First, you read their books. Then you play their music. Then you wear their clothes, think their thoughts, thank their fucking Gods. Then... You start befriending them... Laughing with them, defending them, loving them. And the next thing you know, you’re FUCKING THEM.”
“Ryu, please—”
“Is that what you want? You want to get fucked by a Muggle, Vera? Want to carry their Mudblood babies?"
“Stop it!” she screamed, hands over her ears. “Just stop!”
“This is why your great-uncle wants nothing to do with you.”
The words sliced through her like a knife.
“Cassius told me everything. That your great-uncle thinks you’re a disgrace. That he never wants to speak to you.”
“And you actually fucking believed him?”
“I do.”
Her stomach twisted. The room tilted.
“You’re poisoning your bloodline, Vera,” he said, “Spitting on a name that held this world together for centuries.”
“You don’t know a damn about my family,” she hissed, fury crackling beneath her skin. “That’s not why he doesn’t speak to me—”
“Stop lying to yourself! Your uncle hates you for a reason. Your aunt sends crows to spy on you for a reason. You’re the Black heir, Vera—and look at you. Crawling in the dirt with Muggles, sneaking in their toys, licking their plastic pop stars like some pathetic common tramp.”
She could hardly believe what she was hearing. His words, his face, his voice—it was like he’d transformed. This wasn’t Ryu. Not the boy who once traced her cheekbone with a trembling finger, whispering that he loves her. Not the one who promised her his world.
That boy was gone.
And maybe he had never existed.
“I’m done with you,” she said quietly, her voice shaking.
She dropped to her knees, trying to gather the pieces of herself scattered across the dorm—her magazines, books, Damon's notebook, the cracked remains of her Walkman.
“You’re leaving me?” he spat. “For them? For a bunch of mud-stained Muggles?”
“I’m leaving you because you’re a bigot!”
"A bigot? For wanting to keep you clean? For trying to protect you?”
She didn’t answer. Just continued collecting the remains of the Walkman, her heart a wrecking ball swinging against her ribs.
"You know what?” he sneered. “Fine. Have it your way, Vera. Take your Muggle shite and leave. Go play house with Wes. Let him fuck your head full of songs and lies. Let his filthy blood inside you.”
“Shut up! Just shut the fuck up!”
"Take it—take all of it! Your tapes. Your filthy books. Your bloody dirty magazines—”
He bent down, snatched her Converse off the floor.
"And this—”
“Don’t you dare!”
“These fucking Muggle shoes,” he spat. “I wanted to burn them the first time I saw them.”
He marched to the window.
“Ryu, no—!”
But it was too late. He shoved the dorm's window open, and hurled the Converse out into the cold evening air.
She slammed into the windowsill with a gasp. Her eyes scanned the lake far below—until she saw her shoes floating uselessly in the dark waters near the suspended bridge, turning slowly like something already dead.
Miss Nelson had given her those shoes for Christmas—bought with her own money, not orphanage funds, not a hand-me-down, not a charity gift. Vera had cried when she unwrapped them. Not quiet tears, either. The kind that come from somewhere deep, from a place that had long grown used to being invisible. She cried because they were beautiful. Because they were new. But mostly because they were from Miss Nelson. Someone who had seen her—really seen her—and decided she was worth the gift.
And now they were drowning.
She stood there, the wind lashing her face like it wanted to peel her apart. But her tears still came—hot against her freezing skin, defiant and aching.
Cassius had been right. All of it.
Ryu’s ugly side. His bad habits. The way he looked at her like she was something broken he needed to fix. He thought she was a disgrace to her family—and he didn’t even try to hide it anymore. That’s why he’d been avoiding her lately. Not because of his friends. Not out of distraction. Out of shame.
She turned back to him slowly.
He stood there like a statue, arms crossed, unapologetic, surrounded by their shredded evening. Tears streaked down her face, her hair in her mouth, her hands shaking.
“What the fuck have you done?” she whispered.
“It’s just a bloody shoe, Vera,” he said coldly. “Get over it.”
That was when something in her snapped.
She lunged at him, fists pounding at his chest. “Fuck you! Fuck you, you insane bastard! You cruel, insane—fuck!”
He grabbed her wrists. “I’m the only one being sane here.”
She shoved him away.
Then, without a word, she bent down, dug into her bag, and pulled out her wand.
He tilted his head, confused. “What are you doing?”
She looked him dead in the eyes.
And broke her wand clean in two.
Ryu froze, his face going pale. “What… what did you—?”
A shimmer of golden magical dust rose between them, hanging in the air like smoke from a dying fire.
She threw her broken wand at the floor, then stomped on it hard enough to hear it crack again beneath her heel.
“Fuck your magic, Avery," she said, tears running down her cheeks. “And fuck everything you believe in.”
He stared at her, stunned. “Vera…”
But she was already slinging her bag over her shoulder, and heading towards the wardrobe. She walked out barefoot, her soles freezing against the castle stone, her heart shattered and bleeding.
But she never looked back.
Ryu sat hunched on the edge of his bed, hands trembling in his lap, breath catching in his throat like it hurt to exist. The silence of the room pressed in from all sides, but inside his head, it was deafening—her voice, his voice, the fight playing on a loop he couldn't escape.
Every cruel word he’d hurled at her rang out again, sharp and final. He saw her face—those wide, wet eyes, her lower lip quivering as if holding back a scream, the way her shoulders caved inward like she was bracing for a blow.
The way she looked at him... like he was a stranger. Like he was dangerous.
He dragged a hand through his hair, tugging hard, hoping the pain might drown out the guilt. He’d been too loud, too harsh, too much of everything she didn’t deserve. She was just confused—just a girl trying to make sense of a broken world. She needed someone to hold her steady, not tear her apart. He could’ve talked to her. Could’ve listened. But he chose to scorch everything instead.
And now—now it was done. She was gone. And all that was left were the ashes of what they had, and the monster she saw in him the moment she walked away.
He could feel his heart sinking—slow and heavy—like it was dragging the rest of him down with it. A sick weight settled in his gut, coiling tighter with every breath he tried to take. His throat clenched, his lungs stuttered. The air was thick, too dense to breathe, like guilt had taken form and filled the room.
He stood abruptly, crossed the room, and grabbed the bottle of whiskey sitting on his desk.
That amber poison in glass had twisted everything. It had numbed the fear, sharpened the rage, and drowned the part of him that knew how to love without hurting.
Without thinking, he walked to the bathroom and poured it out into the sink. The whisky spiraled down the drain, its sharp scent rising, the sound of it echoing like something breaking inside him.
He stared at the empty bottle.
He couldn’t undo what he’d done. Couldn’t take back the damage. But maybe—just maybe—he could stop it from happening again.
He splashed his face with cold water, trying to clear his head, to stop the guilt from consuming him. It didn’t help. Nothing helped. He couldn’t stop thinking about her. The way she’d looked at him as she left.
He staggered into his dorm and crossed to the window to shut it. But just as his hand reached the latch, his eyes caught a flicker of movement below—a lone silhouette slipping into the freezing lake.
“No…” he whispered, a horrible dread twisting in his gut.
Vera was ankle-deep in the water, shivering, arms wrapped around herself for balance as the cold water bit into her.
“FUCK,” he shouted, before bolting out the door.
He was barefoot, wandless, and terrified. He sprinted through the common room, ignoring the startled looks from other students. Down the stairs, past a group of second-years who shrieked as he barreled past. Out through the castle doors and into the biting wind.
He could see her now—knee-deep, arms trembling violently as the water carved itself into her bones.
“Vera!” he screamed, his voice cracking with fear.
He ran toward the edge of the bridge, heart hammering. “What the fuck are you doing?!”
She turned her head slightly, and for a second, he thought she might cry again. But she didn’t. She just looked tired. So, so tired.
“You're going to freeze,” he shouted again, voice wild with panic. “Get out of the water! Now!”
But she didn’t. She turned back toward the lake and waded deeper, eyes locked on something glinting in the distance.
Her Converse.
She could see it—floating just ahead. She forced herself forward, each step like walking into a thousand shards of glass. Her legs were going numb. Her breath came in sharp, shallow gasps. The pain was unbearable—but so was the thought of losing Miss Nelson's gift.
She reached out, her fingers brushing the edge of the shoe. One more step and she grabbed it, clutching it to her chest like it was sacred.
But she didn’t stop.
She turned her head again, scanning the icy black water until she saw the other half. It was just a few feet further, drifting like a memory.
On the bridge above, Ryu was practically on his knees now, leaning over the railing, yelling himself hoarse.
“Vera, please! You’re gonna fucking die! Get out of there!”
She couldn’t hear him. Not really. All she could hear was the roar of her own heartbeat, hammering against the inside of her skull. The cold was turning her insides to stone.
"It's just a bloody shoe, Vera. It's not worth it!"
She took one more step, reaching for the second shoe. But the moment she grabbed it, the ground disappeared beneath her.
And then she was gone. Swallowed whole by the lake.
“NO! NO—NO—VERA!!”
She was underwater now. Limbs flailing. Lungs screaming. Her thoughts were a mess of static and fear. The cold wasn’t just around her—it was inside her, in her bones, in her heart, crushing everything.
She couldn’t see. Couldn’t breathe. Couldn’t think.
Her fingers slipped, the shoes drifting from her grip. But somehow she grabbed them again. As if letting go meant more than just letting go. As if it meant giving up.
Her chest spasmed. Her body begged for air. And then it hit her—
This was just like the dream. That awful, clinging nightmare on Halloween. The one where he came for her. The one where her father pulled her under.
And this time… she believed it. She believed he was real. That he was here.
Regulus was here.
She shut her eyes, waiting for his hands. Waiting to feel them wrap around her ankle. Waiting to be dragged down. To disappear. To die.
To join him at last.
But then—
The water cracked open above her—light and sound shattering the silence.
Ryu had dove in from the bridge to save her. He wrapped his arms around her limp body, pulling her close.
He kicked hard, dragging her up through the crushing cold. She clutched the shoes tighter, and let herself go limp in his arms.
When her head finally broke the surface, she coughed violently, air flooding her lungs like fire. Her body shook, her teeth chattering so hard it sounded like bones breaking.
“You’re okay,” he whispered, over and over, but she couldn’t hear him. Everything was a blur. The cold. His voice. Her heart.
She clung to him instinctively, wrapping her arms around his body, burying her face into his shoulder. She couldn’t stop shaking. She didn’t even care anymore. All she could feel was the terrifying, overwhelming knowledge that she had almost died.
But the moment they reached the shore—dripping, breathless, skin purple and stiff—she shoved him away with all the strength she had left.
“Don’t touch me,” she said, her voice ragged and raw. “Don't fucking touch me.”
She staggered backward, holding the shoes tight against her chest, her eyes burning with something too deep for anger.
“Vera, stop,” he called after her, sloshing out of the lake. “You need to get warm or you're going to—”
She didn’t answer him. She didn’t even look back. Just reached for her bag with stiff fingers and tried to sling it over her shoulder, but the weight of the soaked fabric made her collapse to her knees.
“I said stop,” he said, breathless now as he closed the distance. “Just listen to me for a second, put everything aside. The fighting, the words, all of it—just listen.”
She tried to stand again, and again her knees gave out. He reached for her, and she flinched away.
“Don’t touch me,” she said again, her voice hoarse and thin.
He could see her lips turning blue, her body convulsing with shivers. Without even thinking, he tore his dragon ring off with his teeth and tossed it aside.
“You’re going to get sick, Vera.” He knelt down beside her, eyes wild with panic. “Let me help you. Please.”
She tried to pull away again, but he caught her—gently, desperately—and wrapped his arms around her, pressing her body to his.
The heat hit her immediately.
She gasped, squirming in panic at the sudden intensity—but he held her steady, his entire body burning like a furnace now that the ring was off. His skin steamed where it touched hers, but not painfully. It was like standing too close to a fire after being lost in a snowstorm.
“Just breathe,” he whispered, clutching her tight. “I know you hate me. You should. But right now, I need you warm."
“Ryu—let go!” she shouted, struggling. “Let go!”
“Just stop! For a moment, stop!” he pleaded, holding her tighter. “You’re not thinking straight. You almost drowned—for what? A fucking shoe?”
She shoved at his chest with everything she had, forcing him back.
“Fuck you,” she spat, rising to her feet. “It's more than just shoes to me.”
“I didn’t mean to hurt you, Vera! I didn’t mean to break anything that mattered. I was angry. And afraid. And drunk. But none of that’s an excuse.”
“No,” she said coldly. “It’s not an excuse. Because those thoughts you spat at me today? They were already in you. The whisky didn’t invent them—it just dragged them out of hiding.”
"That's not—"
“You don’t want me, Ryu. You want some twisted version of me that fits into your world. You lied—said you liked the way I dressed, the way I talked, the way I thought. But you didn’t. You hated it. You were just waiting for the right moment to erase it all.”
“That’s not true,” he said quickly, stepping forward. “I do like it—I love you—”
“You love the version of me you can tolerate. The one that doesn’t embarrass you. The one who doesn’t ask questions, doesn’t push back. The one who hides her muggle friends, who keeps her mouth shut when your friends say something disgusting.”
“That’s not true—”
“You ignored me for nearly a month! You vanished every chance you got. Always with your friends, always somewhere else. You left me alone, Ryu. Because the second you found out the truth about uncle Cygnus, you couldn’t look at me the same way. You were ashamed to be seen with me.”
“I wasn’t ashamed of you, Vera! Don’t put that on me!”
“Then where were you? Where were you when I needed someone to talk to? Someone to tell me it didn’t matter what my uncle said?!"
"But you should’ve told me. About your uncle. About your friends. You didn’t have to fucking hide it, Vera!”
“Like you hid the fact that you drink?”
“I thought you knew.”
“How would I bloody know? You never told me. You kept it quiet just like I did. So don’t act like you’re some beacon of truth.”
“I didn’t think it mattered. All of us drink, Vera. That’s just how it is.”
She stared at him.
And in that moment, she saw the canyon between them—wide, cold, and impossible to cross. His “all of us” wasn’t her. It never was. It never could be.
“You don’t get it,” she said quietly. “You never got it. You think I care about bloodlines and power and tradition. You think I’m like your friends, like the people you surround yourself with. But I’m not. You never saw that. Or if you did, you wanted it gone.”
“Vera…”
“I gave you everything I could,” she whispered. “I let you in when I was terrified to trust. I forgave things I shouldn’t have. And in return, you tried to fix me like I was broken.”
She reached up, her cold fingers wrapping around the amethyst pendant he gave her.
“You don’t get to have this part of me anymore.”
She unclasped it, looked at it once, then threw it.
“We’re done.”
She didn’t remember walking back to Gryffindor Tower. She didn’t feel the stone floor beneath her barefeet or the sharp wind slicing through her soaked clothes. Her body was trembling violently, but she didn’t stop. She climbed staircases blindly, dragging her shoes behind her like dead weight.
When she finally reached her dormitory, the door groaned open on its hinges like it, too, mourned something. Inside, Alicia, Katie, and Angelina sat cross-legged on the rug by the hearth, giggling over the latest Witch Weekly.
Then they looked up.
And everything stopped.
Vera stood in the doorway—soaked to the skin, barefoot, her uniform clinging to her like second skin. Her hair was matted to her face, her arms trembling, her eyes so red and swollen it looked like she hadn’t blinked in hours. Mud streaked her calves. Her lips was terrifyingly blue. Her hands were shaking.
“Vera?” Katie breathed, her voice cracking with confusion and fear.
Vera didn’t answer.
She didn’t even see them.
She moved like a ghost to her side of the room, silent but for the sound of dripping water hitting the floorboards. Without a word, she yanked open her trunk and began pulling out her textbooks—Magical Theory, Advanced Potions, A History of Magic. She clutched them by their spines and tore them apart, pages flying like frightened birds.
“Vera, what—what are you doing?” Alicia asked, starting to rise.
But Vera had already turned to her drawers.
Out came her parchment, her carefully labeled ink pots, her self-inking quills—everything she had organized and protected with charms, everything that made her feel like she had control over her world. She threw them to the floor in a fury and brought her heel down hard—again, and again—until glass shattered and black ink pooled around her like blood.
Angelina clutched the edge of the rug. “Oh my god—your foot—Vera, stop!”
But she didn’t.
She was crying now—silent, feral tears—and shaking so violently it seemed the cold had taken root in her bones. She stumbled to her potions kit, opened the worn wooden box with trembling fingers, and gathered the vials she had spent months collecting.
She carried them into the bathroom and dumped them, one by one, into the toilet with violent splashes. She emptied jars like they were poison. Like they were the reason everything had gone so wrong.
Then she came back.
Her breath was ragged. Her face pale. Blood from her foot smeared across the wood floor.
The girls gasped.
She climbed onto her bed still drenched, the mattress springs creaking under her weight. The clean white sheets turned crimson where her foot touched them. She curled in on herself, her soaked shirt clinging to her ribs, her fists tangled in the duvet, her shoulders heaving—but no sound came. Her sobs were too deep for sound. They lived in her chest and trembled in the silence.
Alicia pressed a hand to her mouth, eyes wide with horror. Katie looked like she might cry too. But no one moved.
Because something had broken.
And all Vera could do was lie there, blood soaking into her sheets, shattered ink staining the floor, as exhaustion finally dragged her under—quiet and merciless.
The dorm remained quiet long after her sobs faded into sleep. But it was later—long after midnight, that Alicia heard something strange.
A soft, choking noise. Like someone gasping through a closed throat.
She slid out of bed and padded quietly to Vera’s side. At first glance, she looked like she was still asleep—curled tightly under the blankets, her back to the room.
But when Alicia leaned in, her heart nearly stopped.
Vera was trembling violently. Her breaths came in short, erratic bursts, each one rasping like it might be the last. Sweat glistened along her forehead, her hair soaked again—not from the lake this time, but from heat radiating off her like a furnace.
“Ang,” Alicia whispered sharply, shaking her friend’s shoulder. “Angie—wake up. Something’s wrong with Vera.”
Angelina blinked, disoriented. “What—?”
“Just come on!”
They rushed to Vera’s bedside as she let out a low, pained sound—almost like a whimper. Her skin was flushed deep red, almost glowing, and her body was so hot Alicia nearly recoiled on instinct.
Minutes later, footsteps thundered up the tower stairs.
Vera stirred, eyes fluttering open. The light felt too bright. The voices sounded far away, like they were speaking from under water.
"Check her temperature, Mr. Bobbin.”
She saw vague shapes—Madam Pomfrey’s pale curls, Felix’s dark eyes above her, focused and anxious.
“Can you hear me, Vera?” he said softly, brushing her damp hair from her face. “You’re burning up. But you're gonna be okay.”
A part of her wanted to speak, but her lips felt too dry. Her limbs wouldn’t respond.
Felix’s voice blurred as she drifted into the dark again, her body surrendering completely.
Notes:
No chapter song because Ryu broke the damn Walkman. 🙄
Stick around for the next chapter! It's very lovely and is one of my favourites. I can't wait for you to read it.
Chapter 83: Still Loving You
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Thursday, January 30, 1992
The cold was gone.
So was the hospital wing, the broken Walkman, the ruined Converse, and the pain in her chest.
In their place was sunlight. Golden, buttery sunlight spilling through gauzy curtains and flowering trellises. The sea breeze danced through every open window of a whitewashed beach house, where ivy trailed from the shutters and flowers bloomed from every pot.
Vera was small again—no more than three.
She was lying on her belly in a garden, barefoot and messy-haired, a crayon in her hand and smudges of green and blue all over her cheeks. The grass beneath her legs was warm and soft, and the air smelled like sea salt and lemongrass.
Beside her, Regulus rested on his back in the shade of an old lemon tree, a book half-forgotten on his chest.
“Daddy,” she chirped, waving her artwork above her head. “Look! I made you."
He sat up and took the paper from her, inspecting the drawing like it was a royal portrait. The stick figure version of him had robes, long hair, and startlingly bright blue eyes.
“These are some suspiciously Scandinavian eyes,” he said.
She pouted. "It was the only blue left."
He reached for her paint box and plucked a near-empty black. “Let’s see if we can fix this travesty.”
With a flick of his wand, the black and bright blue swirled together mid-air, spinning like a tiny storm until they formed a perfect deep blue.
Her mouth fell open. “You made a colour with magic!”
“I did.” He smiled. “Are you jealous?"
She squealed and tackled him sideways, sending the both of them tumbling into the grass.
“Take that!” she shouted, pretending to wrestle him as he laughed and surrendered.
From the porch, Sophie stepped out, holding a plate overflowing with strawberries, her sundress fluttering in the breeze.
“Are you two dueling or cuddling?” she called. “Because if it’s dueling, I’m putting galleons on Vera.”
“She’s already won,” Regulus groaned. “My pride is in the dirt.”
“She’s inherited my talent and strength,” Sophie replied, setting the plate beside Vera. “Eat, Mon amor. All of them. Even the squishy ones.”
“Look Mummy! Daddy made a new colour!"
Sophie raised a brow. “Did he now? I wonder who taught him that trick.”
“Lies and slander,” Regulus muttered, brushing paint from Vera's nose. “Eat up, starlight. Then it’s time for flying.”
Sophie rolled her eyes fondly. “You two already practiced this morning.”
“Yes, but she needs to train more,” Regulus said, scooping Vera into his arms. “If she’s going to be Hogwarts’ most legendary Seeker—”
“—Beauxbatons’,” Sophie interjected.
“Hogwarts.”
“Beauxbatons.”
"Hogwartsssss."
Vera, caught in the middle, held a strawberry in each hand. “Can’t I just go to both?” she said with a mouthful.
Regulus spun her around in his arms. “She’s the cleverest witch in the world! And that's why she’ll pick Hogwarts.”
Vera squealed, her arms wrapped tight around his neck, legs dangling in the air.
He set her down and ruffled her hair. “We'll go swimming instead. What do you think?"
"Yay!"
Sophie gave him a look. “Reggie, if you let her drown—”
“—you’ll bury me alive, I know.”
“Be gentle,”
“I will.” He pressed a soft kiss to her lips. “Go get some rest, love. We’ll be fine.”
He grinned and scooped Vera up again, this time lifting her high above his head and settling her on his shoulders. Her legs dangled over his chest, heels thudding against his ribs as she giggled, clutching fistfuls of his hair to steady herself.
Down the winding, sun-warmed path they went, past the wildflowers Sophie had planted, through drifting clouds of bees and butterflies, until the sand met their toes and the sea stretched out before them.
He showed her how to hold her breath, how to tuck her legs, how to push forward and let the water carry her. He dove first, graceful and sure, then surfaced with a gasp and swept his wet hair from his face.
“Your turn, starlight.”
She nodded, copying his movements, and plunged into the water. She came up coughing, sputtering, laughing, and immediately tried again. Again and again, she dove and tumbled and swam in clumsy loops, until the technique didn’t matter anymore—only the joy.
Regulus held her up when the waves got too strong. He steadied her when she slipped. And when she asked how he knew so much about swimming, he simply said, “Because I knew you’d love it.”
Later, when her arms ached and her cheeks were sore from smiling, he carried her further out to where the water turned a richer blue. She curled against his chest, limbs heavy, head resting against his collarbone.
“I feel like I’m flying,” she whispered, eyelids fluttering shut.
“You are,” he said softly. “You always will.”
Beneath the surface, the sea was a quiet world of light and motion. She opened her eyes for just a moment, and the salt didn’t sting. The colours were bluer than blue, and the sun fractured in brilliant ribbons above her. She reached out her hand—
—and touched a train whistle.
The water was gone. So was the sea.
Now there was steam. Billowing white clouds around her ankles and sunlight through iron beams. The clatter of trunks, the shriek of owls, the whistle again, long and low and echoing.
She stood on Platform Nine and Three-Quarters. Eleven years old.
The ground was solid under her boots, her suitcase heavy in one hand.
No gloves. No bandages. Nothing.
Her other hand was warm.
She looked up.
Regulus stood beside her—not the young man from the beach, not the ghost from the past, but something in between. Older. Tired. Kind. And real.
“Dad?”
He turned to her, already smiling, like he’d known what she was about to say.
“Will you be mad if I don’t get into Slytherin?”
“Never.”
“But what if I get into Gryffindor?”
At that, Regulus knelt down, eyes locking with hers.
“Then you’ll be a rogue star,” he said gently, brushing a windblown strand of hair from her face. “And rogue stars aren’t bad, Vera. They shine in places no one expects."
He reached forward, cupping her face with both hands. “I will be proud of you no matter what house you’re sorted into. You hear me? You’ll be the best at everything you do, because you’re you. And the only thing that matters—the only thing—is that you’re happy. That’s what I want.”
Tears welled in her eyes before she could stop them, but she flung herself forward and wrapped her arms around his neck, burying her face into the crook of his shoulder.
“I love you, starlight,” he whispered, holding her tight. “I love you so much.”
“I love you too, Dad."
No hesitation. No stomachache.
He pulled back just enough to see her face, his thumbs brushing the corners of her eyes. “Write to us. Every week. And I'll try to visit every chance I get.”
She chuckled. "They won't let you, silly!"
“I’ll make them let me,” he said, giving her a wink.
Then he stood, and Vera turned to where Sophie waited nearby. She ran into her mother’s arms, squeezing her waist tightly.
Sophie crouched down immediately, kissing one cheek, then the other.
“Muuum!” Vera whined, rubbing at her face. “Lipstick.”
“Good. Now everyone will know you’re loved,” Sophie murmured, not letting her go. “Take care of yourself, mon cœur. Eat properly. Sleep early. Don’t trust just anyone. And remember—me and your father… we’re always with you. No matter how far we are.”
Vera nodded against her shoulder, and pulled away slowly. Then, with her suitcase in tow and tears still clinging to her lashes, she boarded the train.
Through the window, as it began to pull away, she kept her eyes locked on them. Her mother lifted her hand and blew a kiss. Her father held a hand over his heart.
And even as the platform slipped away, even as the world blurred into smoke and rails, she kept looking.
As long as she could see them, she wasn’t alone.
She woke with the faintest flutter of lashes, surfacing from a dream she wasn’t quite ready to leave. For a moment, she didn’t move—just lay there, eyes half-shut. She felt… lighter. Warmer. As if someone had poured sunlight into her veins while she slept.
The hospital wing was quiet, save for the occasional creak of old wood and the distant hoot of an owl outside the window.
She reached up and touched her hair—it was neatly braided into two plaits, the strands soft and clean. She was no longer in her scuffed uniform or bloodied stockings, but a fresh set of soft, cotton pajamas in pale blue.
She sat up slowly ,and glanced sideways. Her bag was beside her on the bed. She exhaled shakily and reached for it, dragging it into her lap.
The memory hit her like a sudden gust—shouts echoing off the walls, Ryu’s eyes, wide and angry, his voice cutting and sharp. The water. The cold. The glass shattering beneath her feet. The silence after.
She unzipped the bag, and gently pulled out the Walkman. The plastic was cracked. One of the ear cushions had fallen off. A thin wire hung limp from the side. But it was still there. Still hers.
She was twisting a copper wire back into place when she heard a soft shuffle of footsteps behind the curtain.
“Vera?” came a gentle voice. “Can I come in?”
For a second, she couldn’t speak. Her fingers went still around the cracked casing of the Walkman.
But she managed a quiet, “Yes.”
The curtain drew back.
Felix stepped in, his shirt wrinkled, his hair more disheveled than usual. He looked tired—but there was a faint smile tugging at the corner of his mouth as he crossed to her bedside.
“Morning,” he said, pulling out his wand. “I’m here to make sure you’re still alive.”
She said nothing. Just watched him.
He pressed the back of his hand to her forehead, then tapped his wand against her temple, muttering a spell under his breath.
“Congrats. You had the highest fever in the history of Hogwarts,” he said with a touch of humor.
She didn’t laugh.
He then reached for the blanket and gently folded it back from her legs. She looked down and saw how carefully her feet had been wrapped—clean, white bandages woven with faint threads of gold magic.
“They were infected,” he said. “You had small shards of glass in them. All over.”
Still, she didn’t move. Didn’t speak.
“I managed to pull them out,” he continued, “I used something special—a blend of dittany and phoenix ash. It’ll make the cuts go away by noon.”
He carefully pulled the blanket back over her legs, tucking it in at the sides. Then he walked to the little shelf beside her bed, hands moving with quiet precision.
He turned back and handed her a small vile. She took it hesitantly, half-expecting it to taste like iron or dust or something bitter.
But it tasted like strawberries.
Her eyes widened faintly, and he noticed.
“Don’t look so surprised,” he said gently. “I thought you deserved something sweet.”
He lingered for a moment, then sat gently on the edge of her bed.
“You were smiling in your sleep." He said. "Did you have a good dream?”
She nodded.
“What was it?”
“I was in heaven."
His smile softened, and he nodded as though he understood.
“Wait,” she said slowly. “Were you… here all night?”
He chuckled. “No, no. I just came early.”
She eyed him suspiciously, narrowing her gaze. “Who… braided my hair?”
“I did.”
“You?” she echoed, as if maybe she’d misheard.
“You looked uncomfortable. It kept getting in your face. I thought—if I tied it back, you might sleep better.”
She blinked, clearly trying to reconcile this version of him with the one who called her a twat.
He gave her a sheepish shrug. "I’m good with knots. Used to help my sisters. It’s not that hard.”
She didn’t say anything, just kept staring at him.
He reached forward without a word and gently took the broken Walkman from her lap.
She watched as he turned it over in his hands, inspecting the damage she’d tried to mend. Then, with a smooth flick of his wand and a quiet “Reparo”, the cracks in the plastic sealed themselves like time running backward, and the buttons straightened back into place with a satisfying click.
He then stood, walked over to her bag, and crouched beside it. “Mind if I…?”
She shook her head, curious now, and he rummaged carefully through her things until he found the small stack of tapes. He sifted through them, pausing here and there to glance at the handwritten labels.
Then he stopped.
One had clearly caught his attention.
He held the tape up, squinting at the words written in blue ink across the sticker:
"For the Only Star That Matters."
He raised an eyebrow and looked over at her. “Are you the only star that matters?”
She flushed slightly but nodded.
“And… who’s Wes?”
“My Muggle friend,” she answered instantly, voice steady, chin slightly raised like she was daring him to flinch.
But he didn’t.
There was no twitch of judgment. No lifted brow. No cold silence. He just nodded, as if the answer had been exactly what he expected.
“Wes works at a music shop." She added. "He sends me tapes when he can.”
“The tape I listened to, was that from him?”
“Yeah. Most of them are.”
He looked down at the tape in his hand, then quietly popped it into the Walkman.
As the gentle hiss of static gave way to a soft, dreamy melody, he sat back on the edge of her bed, listening for a moment.
♪ Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there
I will be there ♪
He smiled. “Well, do tell Wes he’s got incredible taste.”
She leaned back against the pillows, her fingers still loosely gripping the warm, whirring Walkman as music hummed softly between them. This was odd. Too odd.
“Why are you being nice to me?”
Felix blinked and looked over at her.
“The last time we talked,” she went on, “you called me a twat. And a hypocrite.”
“I’m training to be a healer. It’s part of my job to be nice to my patients.”
“And is it also your job to braid their hair?”
He chuckled. “I wanna be a good healer.”
But her face didn’t change.
“I’m serious,” she said. “Why are you nice to me?”
“Why did you jump in the lake?”
She swallowed. “How did you know?”
“Some Ravenclaws saw you. The whole castle is talking about it."
She looked down at the blanket. “My shoes fell. I wanted to get them back.”
“You couldn’t use your wand?”
“I…” She hesitated. “I broke it.”
He nodded slowly, like a puzzle piece had just clicked into place. “Your dorm mates said you broke your ink bottle. Stepped on the glass.”
"...Yeah."
"And tore your books?"
She nodded.
“And ruined your potions kit?”
Another nod.
“And broke your Walkman?”
“No,” she said immediately. “Never that.”
“Then who broke it?”
She said nothing.
♪ Fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again
I will be there
I will be there♪
The music kept playing. Her grip tightened on the Walkman. Her eyes dropped to her lap.
“How did your shoes end up in the lake?” He then asked.
She stayed silent again, fiddling with the buttons, pretending to adjust the volume.
“He doesn’t deserve you, Vera.”
Her head snapped up. “You don’t know him.”
“But I know you. And you don’t deserve someone who breaks the things you love. Or makes you break them on your own.”
She let out a quiet, bitter breath. “Then enlighten me, Felix. What do I deserve, since you know me so well?”
“You deserve someone who truly loves you.”
“And Ryu deserves someone who doesn’t fucking lie to him!”
Felix stood, slowly, his expression unreadable now.
“And you deserve someone who doesn’t make you feel the need to lie.”
Without waiting for another word, he turned and pulled the curtains shut behind him, leaving her alone in the dim light, the soft music still whispering through the headphones in her lap.
♪ If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
Things that killed our love ♪
The Great Hall quieted ever so slightly when Ryu emerged from the blues and made a sharp turn toward the Gryffindor table. Whispers stirred. Forks paused mid-air. But he kept going, stopping right in front of Katie.
“I need a favour,” he said stiffly. “Could you deliver some things to Vera? I’ll make sure you’re compensated—well.”
Katie didn’t even blink. “You can deliver them yourself, Avery.”
“I can’t get into your bloody dormitory.”
“No. But you can get into the hospital wing.”
“What?”
From further down the table, Angelina set down her goblet. “Vera spent the night at the hospital. She’s still there.”
His heart dropped into his stomach. “Why?”
“Maybe because she almost drowned in a frozen lake?”
“Or maybe," Alicia chimed in, "Because she shattered half her stationary, then stepped on the glass?”
“Orrrr," Katie added. "It was the potions she dumped in the loo and accidentally inhaled.”
Each word hit like a stone.
Ryu stood there, eyes wide, breath shallow, speechless.
From a little further down the table, Kenny cleared his throat nervously. “Um. Did you two… break up?”
Ryu flinched like he’d been slapped.
“What?” he snapped. “Why would you think that?”
“I dunno. She was, like, crying really hard when she got back to the common room yesterday.”
Ryu’s face twisted. “No, we didn’t break up. And you better not go around spreading that rumor, Towler!"
Kenny raised his hands. “Noted.”
Ryu turned to the others now, his voice rising just enough to be heard by more than just their group.
“Vera and I didn’t break up. And we never will.”
Then, without waiting for a response, he spun on his heel and strode away, while the murmurs around the Gryffindor table bloomed again.
♪ Your pride has built a wall
So strong that I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again? ♪
Vera was still laying beneath the crisp white sheets of the hospital wing bed, the low hum of her Walkman curling through her ears.
Felix never came back.
She had tried to convince herself it didn’t matter, but his words kept playing louder than the music ever could.
You deserve someone who doesn’t make you feel the need to lie.
Why would he say something like that and then just disappear?
“Boys are so fucking confusing,” she muttered under her breath, tugging her blanket higher.
Just then, the curtains swung open with a sudden whoosh, and Ryu appeared behind them.
He looked tired. Paler than usual. Wide-eyed. Disheveled. Clutching too many things—A bouquet of flowers, a small chocolate box, a wrapped package, and was that a—stuffed puffskein?
He looked like a walking apology.
She glared daggers at him. “If you don’t fucking leave, I’ll scream.”
“Vera, please,” he said, stepping forward despite the sting in her tone. “Just—just listen.”
“I don’t want to look at you, let alone listen to whatever poison you have to say! You have five bloody seconds to get the fuck out of my face!”
He didn’t move.
“Five—”
“Please,” he said again. “Just one minute.”
“I don't wanna ever see you again, Ryu. YOU'RE FUCKING DEAD TO ME!”
"Vera—”
"I don’t want to talk. Ever again!”
“Then don’t! Just open the package.”
He held out the box like a peace offering, arms trembling slightly.
She glared at him. “You think you can bribe your way back to me with pretty things?”
“I’m not bribing you! I’m just—okay, I am offering a pretty thing. But that’s not the point. Just... open it, please.”
She stared at him a second longer, then reached out reluctantly and unwrapped the box.
Inside was a brand-new pair of high-top Converse—purple, with tiny silver stars stitched carefully along the fabric. She blinked, unsure if she was seeing them right.
"Where the hell did you get these?” she asked, caught somewhere between awe and confusion.
He gave her a sheepish smile. “I made Toto sneak into a Muggle shop and grab them.”
Her jaw dropped. “Wait, sneak in? You mean—he stole them?”
“No!” he said quickly, then paused, scratching the back of his neck. “I mean… kind of. I just couldn’t have him walk in and buy them. It would've been disastrous.”
She stared at the shoes again. They were beautiful. Unique. A little ridiculous.
“Why?” She asked.
“Because I don’t hate the way you think, Vera. Or the way you talk. Or how you dress, or argue, or make everything ten times harder than it needs to be. I love it. I love you.”
“But you said—”
“I know,” he cut in. “I was a tosser. I let my pride pick fights my heart didn’t want. I never wanted to hurt you, or your stuff. I messed up. I get that.”
She shook her head slowly. “This doesn't erase the fact you hate Muggles. Doesn't change anything you've said about them. About my friends!”
“I don’t hate them, Vera."
"Oh, save it."
"I really don't! My family doesn’t preach hate. We only want separation, nothing radical."
"It’s the same poison, Avery. Just in a prettier bottle."
"I don't think it's the same. I mean, the things my friends say about Muggles... I don't agree with it. I never will."
"So, you're blaming your friends for what you've done and said?"
"No, I'm still the one to blame. I let them get in my head because it was easy. But easy’s never right. No one who hates is ever right."
"So, you don't hate my friends?"
"I don't."
She stared at him."Ryu..."
“Okay, well, maybe I do hate Wes or whatever his bloody name is. But not because he’s a Muggle—because he's a bloke who sends you music and calls you a star."
"You don't bloody know him."
"If I had a girl back home sending me love songs and calling me her majestic dragon, you’d be mad too.”
“I would. But I wouldn’t break your things.”
His eyes narrowed.
“…Okay, maybe I would. But I’m a girl. I have emotional immunity.”
“That’s not how it works.”
“Don’t care.”
“Look, I’ve got problems. I admit it. What Uncle Kaito did—it messed me up. But I never said no. I let it happen. And yeah, I drink too much, I get cruel, I push everyone away. But after what I did to you? I don’t want to touch another bottle. I don’t want to be that person anymore."
His eyes were brimming, but he didn’t look away. “And you—lying to me hurt, yeah. But it doesn’t justify the way I treated you. I should’ve been better.”
He leaned even closer, barely a breath between them now. “And I will be better. I promise. But I need a chance. Please give me a chance, Vera. Because I love you. I love you so fucking much it hurts."
Her heart thudded painfully.
"You don’t have to say it back." He added quickly. "I don’t want you to feel like you have to. I just needed you to know. Hurting you… that’s the last thing I ever want to do. And I'm so sorry about abandoning you. Cassius, he—well, not just him, but he wanted to make up for all the months we were apart. And I truly missed our friendship. But I shouldn't have abandoned you for him, or anyone else. And I will never do it again. But please—have me back, Vera. Forgive me."
She wanted to stay mad. She’d promised herself she would stay mad. But her heart was already softening in her chest like butter left out in the sun.
Because she knew the truth.
It was Cassius. He had orchestrated all of it. He was the one who gifted Ryu the Whiskey, fully aware of what he became when he drank. He was the one who pulled him away from his studies, despite knowing there was a quiz in Potions. It wasn’t carelessness—it was calculated. He wanted her to see that version of Ryu, the one he’d warned her about on the train.
And yet… how could she place all the blame on Cassius, when it was Ryu who had hurt her? How long could she keep making excuses for him—how many times could she rewrite the story to make it less cruel?
She stared at the purple Converse, her fingers brushing the embroidered stars. They were beautiful—loud, defiant. Her. They were so her it almost hurt.
She hated how much he knew her. She hated how much she had missed him. But mostly, she hated that he was right.
She had lied. Lied to protect herself. Lied to avoid confrontation. But mostly, lied because she thought it would be easier. But it hadn’t been. It had shattered everything.
She was just as guilty, just as fragile.
“I shouldn’t have lied to you,” she said quietly. “About Kaya. About Wes. About… everything. But you made me feel like I had to. You say you love me, but love isn’t supposed to feel like punishment, Ryu.”
“That’s why I’m trying. I promise, Vera. I’m going to be better.”
“I want to believe you.”
“Then do... Even if it’s just for right now. Even if tomorrow you decide you hate me again. Just… please let me try.”
She looked down at the shoes once more.
“I don’t want to own you,” he said. “I don’t want to tame you or fix you or change you. I just want to love you. Even when you lie. Even when you scream at me. Even when you’re wrong. I’ll take it all. Because I know who you are when you’re scared. And I know who I want to be when I’m not."
A silence settled between them—The kind that made you want to flip a chair just to feel something crack.
“I just want to know one thing, Ryu.” She said after a while.
He leaned in instinctively. “Yeah?”
"Do you actually believe my uncle hates me?”
He didn’t speak. Just that pause—half a second too long, but long enough to say everything.
Her jaw tightened. “Of all the things you said… that one? That’s the one that actually hurt.”
“I’m sorry, Vera,” he said softly. “I didn’t mean it like that. It’s just… what Draco and Cassius said—”
“Cassius is a glorified echo chamber in a serpent costume. And Draco’s been parroting his dad’s lines since he could talk. They don’t know how my uncle feels about me. None of you do.”
Ryu opened his mouth, but she held up a hand.
“I know what you’re going to say—‘But you’ve never even met him.’ Fine. True. But I feel it, okay? I know. The reason he’s stayed away has nothing to do with me being friends with Muggle-borns or wearing Converse or failing Astronomy. You don’t get to throw around words like hate when you don’t know the first thing about what someone means to me. What I need to believe about him.”
He stayed quiet, watching her carefully as she took a shaky breath and began to speak.
“When my parents got married,” she began, “my dad’s family was against it. They thought… they thought my mum wouldn’t give him a son. Because of some stupid curse. So they got married in secret. The moment they turned seventeen. Mum was already pregnant with me, and my dad—he wanted to make sure I was the heir, even if I wasn't a boy. So to make it official, his uncle Cygnus was there. Him and aunt Druella were the only ones who approved of my parents’ relationship."
She gave a small, bitter laugh.
"I guess uncle Cygnus was always a bit of a rebel. He married the love of his life when his father didn't want him to. He was the first one in the family to have a real job. And he went against his family’s will to approve my parent's marriage.”
She paused, swallowing hard.
“I never met him. Don’t know where he is. But I know—he’s the one who can give me my inheritance. Because he’s the one who made me heir in the first place.”
Her eyes welled up again. "When Malfoy first came to Hogwarts, I thought—maybe it was an opportunity. Uncle Cygnus is his grandad. So he’d know where he is. I asked Draco if I could speak to him, and he said he’d write to him, ask for me. But then… during our picnic, he said his grandad doesn’t want to speak to me. Ever.”
Ryu gently held her hand, and she didn't pull away.
“That’s why I broke." She went on. "Because I don’t know why he doesn’t want to talk to me. I never did anything. And now…”
Her voice faded to almost nothing.
“…now I’m just a nobody. No title. No inheritance. Just a forgotten mistake that no one wants.”
Her voice cracked, and she looked down, not wanting him to see the shame in her eyes.
“I don’t know how to fix it.”
Ryu didn’t say anything at first. He just looked at her, really looked at her, until she finally glanced up and met his eyes.
“You don’t need to fix anything,” he said. “You don’t need to earn love, or prove you’re worthy by having a title or inheritance or whatever. Vera, you’re already someone. You’re already so much.”
She tried to look away, but he gently cupped her face and made her meet his gaze.
“I mean it. You’re clever, brave, funny, and kind—even when you don’t think you are. And you don’t need Cygnus or anyone in your family to claim what’s already yours.”
“But I do. He’s the one who—”
“It doesn’t matter,” he cut in gently. “If he made you heir, and the Ministry was informed, that’s it. It’s official. Once you turn seventeen, the inheritance will be yours. Automatically. No signature, no extra confirmation. That’s how the law works.”
She blinked, stunned. “Are you sure?”
“Vera,” he said with a grin, “my dad’s the most important man in the Ministry. This kind of stuff? It’s literally his job. Inheritance laws, blood rights, family records. I’ve grown up around it my whole life—I know. And I’ll make sure he helps you. You won’t have to do this alone.”
Her lip trembled as she stared at him, her heart suddenly full again in her chest.
But the memory of the day before hadn’t vanished. She still hated the way he treated her—how quick he’d been to throw words like knives, each one sharper than the last.
And yet... wasn’t she guilty too?
She had lied. Still was. Every time she dodged a question, changed a subject, smiled when she felt like breaking. Her secrets weren’t harmless. She’d let him believe half-truths because the whole truth felt too heavy to say.
So who was she to cast judgment? Who was she to say he didn’t deserve forgiveness, when she hadn’t even confessed everything herself?
She didn’t want to lose him. Not Ryu. Not his little gifts, or the way his presence filled up a space, made her feel seen—like really, truly seen.
And now… he wasn’t just apologizing. He wasn’t just groveling or playing the victim.
He was offering her something she’d never had before: a chance. A real one. An open door back to the life that had always felt just out of reach. A name. A future. A place in this world that was hers by right—not because she earned it, but because she was it.
She didn’t want to lose that opportunity.
She didn’t want to lose him.
She sat the shoes aside and picked up the plushie he’d brought—round-eyed, too fluffy, with a mane that looked like it lost a fight with a thunderstorm.
She squinted at it dramatically. “I’m naming him Ryu.”
His lips quirked into a grin. “That’s an honor.”
“Oh, is it?” she said sweetly, before proceeding to absolutely pummel the plushie—Punch after punch.
“You absolute dick,” she muttered. “You emotionally constipated wanker. You walking ego with perfect hair.”
Ryu sat there, equal parts terrified and enamored.
When she finally stopped, she smoothed the plushie's mane like nothing had happened, patted its head gently, and gave it a little kiss between the eyes. “There. I forgive you.”
Then slowly—so slowly—she set the plushie aside and opened her arms, just a little.
It was all he needed.
He wrapped himself around her like he was coming home. She buried her face in his shoulder, the ache in her chest softening as his arms tightened around her.
“I’m still mad at you,” she whispered. “You were an arse. A massive one.”
“I know,” he murmured, not moving an inch.
“And I don’t trust you. Not fully. Not yet.”
“I’ll earn it.”
"And Damon Albarn is still hotter than you."
He exhaled sharply. "Don't ruin the moment."
"It's true, though."
"He's a blond."
"So? I love blond blokes."
"No you don't. You love me."
She smiled into his sweater.
God, he was still a cocky idiot.
But he was hers. Again. Forever.
♪ Yes, I've hurt your pride
And I know what you've been through
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you, I need your love
I'm still loving you
Still loving you, baby ♪
Notes:
Chapter's song: Still loving you - Scorpions
Dearest readers,
I want to clarify one thing.
From the very beginning, it was clear that Vera is ruled by her mind, not her heart. Just like all Blacks, she is sharp, calculating, and deliberate. She rarely does anything without first weighing the consequences. Emotion is a liability she can't afford—not in the world she grew up in, and certainly not in the one she is trying to survive.
This part of her story (Third year) was never about love. It is about inheritance—about reclaiming what was stolen from her, about securing a future no one could take away. That’s why she accepted Ryu’s deal in the first place. Yes, she fancied him—his quiet elegance, his watchful eyes—but that was never why she pursued him. Attraction was incidental. Survival is the motive.
In Chapter 53, when Kaya joked that Vera only fancied posh boys with hands softer than hers, Vera brushed it off. But the truth is harder to deny: there is some vanity in her, some craving for beauty and ease. Vera likes fine things—gifts, jewlery, makeup. She is, in part, shallow. But in her mind, wanting more doesn't make her bad. It makes her practical.
Let's talk about this chapter.
Even when her heart recoiled the moment Ryu's true beliefs came out—his disdain for Muggles, his loyalty to purity—her mind didn’t let her turn away. Not yet. Not when he was offering something far more valuable than affection: a path to reclaiming her legacy. Her inheritance isn't just money; it is proof that she mattered, that she still has power in a world that wants her forgotten.
She doesn't forgive Ryu. Not really. But she shelves her anger, buries her discomfort, and tells herself she could live with it. For now. Because security means everything. Because stability is the only kind of love she trusts. And because gold, for someone like Vera, is freedom.
You have to remember—Vera is not the hero of this story. That role belongs to Harry Potter. Vera is a protagonist, but she is not perfect. She will falter, make cruel choices, and justify them in the name of something greater. She will tell herself the ends justify the means, even as those ends begin to warp. Slowly, she will lose her heart—and maybe even her sanity—trading pieces of herself for power and protection. She may look cool, even empowering, as she does it. But that doesn't make her right.
And when she turns away from every red flag Ryu throws at her, when she lets ambition muffles her conscience—that is one of the decisions that defines her. Because for Vera, the road to ruin is paved not with grand betrayals, but with quiet, clever compromises.
Chapter 84: Love Conquers All
Chapter Text
Wednesday, February 12, 1992
Eudora was holding her hand up like it was the bloody Olympic torch, twisting her wrist just so the sunlight caught every angle of the obnoxiously oversized ring on her finger.
“It’s sooo big,” she drawled, making “so” stretch longer than a Divination class.
Adrian smirked proudly beside her. "You deserve the best, love."
“Valentine’s isn’t until Friday." Cassius interjected. "Bit early for grand gestures, isn’t it?”
Eudora tossed her curls. “This isn’t my Valentine’s gift.”
“Yeah, that one’s bigger,” Adrian said, gesturing down toward his lap.
Vera nearly gagged.
She leaned in close to Ryu, her voice low and strangled with disgust. “Remind me, what are we doing here?”
“Emotional support." He replied with a mouthful. "For Miles.”
She exhaled sharply, following his gaze down the Slytherin table to where Miles sat quietly, not eating, not saying much, not laughing.
His mother was sick again. It was bad this time. Ryu had insisted they all sit together—to be there in case he needed them.
"He looks miserable,” she muttered.
“So do you,” Ryu said, smirking as he nudged her knee with his.
“Only because I’m stuck listening to Eudora fake an orgasm every time that ring sparkles.”
He almost choked, and she fought the urge to smile.
Things were… oddly normal again. Their fight had become this silent, untouched artifact—never spoken of, but always lingering in the corners. Her friends had resumed their routine indifference, and Felix had gone back to hating her with the full force of a boy scorned and deeply in denial.
But Ryu was different now.
He listened more. He didn’t raise his voice. He asked questions. He didn’t always like the answers, but he asked anyway. Like when he had asked to listen to her Walkman.
The second the fuzzy guitar riffs of The Smashing Pumpkins filled his ears, he made a face like he’d just licked a toad.
“Ugh! This is making my ears bleed.”
“You didn’t even give them a chance!” she snapped.
“I just—” he tugged the headphones off dramatically “—I don’t understand what they’re talking about.”
She gave him that look. The one that said don’t you dare insult the angst of the 90s in my presence.
Still, he kept asking. About Wes. About Kaya. How she knew them. Where they met. Sometimes she gave vague answers—"at a library thing," or "some event"—other times she lied. Harmless, tiny ones. Easier than the truth.
The inheritance situation had gone quiet too. Ryu had told his father—the fixer of bureaucratic messes—and Ryusei had jumped on it. Or so Ryu said.
But it had been weeks.
No letter. No news. Just that same old assurance: “He’s busy. But he’s going to do it.”
Vera nodded. Smiled. Pretended she wasn’t checking his post every morning like a lovesick owl.
Still, things were… good. Quiet. Almost safe.
But nothing ever stayed safe for long. Especially not with Cassius around.
“Oi, dragon boy," he said, “Fancy a quick flight after lunch? It’s perfect out.”
“Sorry mate—Vera and I are planning to study today.”
Cassius’s face flickered for a second. Just a second. Most people wouldn’t notice. But Vera wasn’t most people.
“Oh,” he said. “Right.”
Ryu noticed too, apparently. Because before she could say a word, he added quickly, “You could come with us, though. If you want.”
She immediately went to kick him under the table, but he shifted just in time.
Cassius grinned. "I would love to."
By the time they made it to the library, Vera was already regretting everything. She reached for the chair beside Ryu, but Cassius beat her to it, sliding in with practiced ease like this was always his seat.
She glared at him.
He just smiled, smug.
She narrowed her eyes and took the seat directly across from them, the only thing between her and a homicide charge being the table.
But not much studying happened.
Cassius immediately launched into planning their Hogsmeade weekend like she wasn’t even there.
“We’ll start at Honeydukes,” he was saying, “then get Butterbeer—unless you’re still obsessed with that awful spicy cider place.”
“I like it,” Ryu said, shrugging.
Cassius grinned too widely. “Of course you do. You’re a masochist.”
Vera wanted to throw her ink bottle at his head.
Instead, she opened her new History of Magic book—the one Ryu had bought her to replace the copy she’d ruined during her meltdown last week. He had bought her everything she’d broken, actually. Quietly, no questions asked. Like he already knew that fixing things sometimes meant starting over.
He’d even given her back the amethyst necklace, slipping it into her palm like it had never been gone. And when she asked about her wand, unsure if it was even worth repairing, he told her it was already on its way to Ollivander’s. Like he’d made the decision the moment she couldn’t.
It wasn’t the gifts that made her throat tighten—it was the way he offered them. Like their relationship was still worth mending.
Tucked inside the pages of the book was a letter from Miss Nelson, delivered that morning. She unfolded it discreetly, letting the soft rustle distract her from the chatter across the table.
Miss Nelson’s words always carried a kind of grace Vera didn’t think she deserved, filled with gentle advice and quotes from scripture—things that usually helped her feel less alone.
Dear Vera,
I hope today finds you strong. Not perfect, not even happy, just strong enough. Remember, ‘The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit’ (Psalm 34:18). I believe in you. I always will.
She wanted to believe it. But Miss Nelson’s kind words had to compete with Cassius’s obnoxious laugh and the sound of Ryu telling some story about riding his dragon.
She glanced up again, annoyed—and froze.
Because Cassius wasn’t just laughing. He was leaning forward now, elbow on the table, hand tucked under his chin. His eyes were fixed on Ryu—but not casually.
They were drinking him in.
From his mouth as he talked, to his jawline, then lower, lingering a little too long on his neck, where his collarbone peeked out from beneath his loosened tie.
She felt her heartbeat slow, and the annoyance in her chest began to twist into something else.
She knew that look.
She’d worn that look.
But Ryu didn’t even notice. He kept talking, laughing, running his hand through his hair like he always did when he was excited. Oblivious to the way Cassius’s entire body leaned closer.
Her eyes widened. Her heart nearly stopped beating. She didn’t move. She couldn’t. Her whole body had gone tense with realization.
And suddenly, it all made sense—the hostility, the territorial attitude, the way he always acted like she didn’t deserve Ryu’s love. The cruelty, the jabs, the disdain in his tone whenever she spoke, the endless insults barely dressed up as jokes.
Cassius didn’t hate her because she was a bloodtraitor.
He didn’t hate her because she was a Black.
He hated her because she had something he wanted.
He hated her because she had someone he wanted.
He hated her because—
He was in love with Ryu.
She slammed the book shut with a thud that turned a few heads. Her chair scraped against the floor, sharp and sudden, and then she was gone—rising to her feet and storming off without a word.
Ryu blinked after her, startled. “Vera?” he called. “Are you okay?”
But she didn’t stop.
She pushed through the library doors, her pulse roaring in her ears, and didn’t stop walking until she reached the first-floor girls’ lavatory. She stumbled in, hands gripping the edges of the sink as if it were the only thing anchoring her to reality.
She stared at herself in the mirror. Pale. Trembling. Her eyes were wide and wet, her lip wobbling. She looked like someone who had seen a ghost.
But no—ghosts were easier. Predictable. Familiar.
This was something else.
She turned on the tap, splashed water onto her face, but it didn’t help. She still felt like she was spinning.
She didn’t know anything for certain. But she felt it. In her bones.
The way Cassius looked at Ryu—it wasn’t up for debate. It was the look of someone who was barely holding it together. The look of someone who wanted and hated themselves for it. Who watched from too far away and told themselves it was better that way.
Maybe I’m wrong, she thought, gripping the sink harder. Maybe I’m seeing what I want to see, so I have someone to blame.
But then she remembered Ryu’s words...
“Cassius has things he doesn’t want anyone to know. Things he’s terrified will get out.”
She had thought it meant secrets about his family. About their bloodline. About politics or something else cold and rigid.
But now?
Now, she wasn’t so sure.
But again, Cassius was the one who said it was unnatural, that gay people shouldn't even exist. He was the one who stood silent and smug when Adrian and miles spat cruel things about Hugh Blackwood, called him slurs that no one challenged.
“It goes against the universe," he said, "against the balance of magic itself. What kind of man chooses to be with another man? What kind of wizard ignores the very laws that shape our world? They contribute nothing to society. They can’t produce heirs, they can’t uphold their bloodlines. They’re a dead end. A flaw."
How can he hate what he is? she thought bitterly. How can he let others tear people apart for the same thing he hides inside himself?
But she knew the answer.
Because he comes from a world that says love—real, soft love—has to look a certain way. That anything else is perversion. An illness. A disgrace.
She knew what families like his would say. What fathers like his would do.
Cassius had built a fortress of cruelty around himself to survive. But he used it to cut other people down. To keep himself untouchable.
She exhaled, hard, shaky.
It’s not fair.
She wanted to feel sorry for him. And she truly did. There was a boy behind those slurs and smirks—one who was afraid, maybe even heartbroken. Someone who had never been given the freedom to love who he wanted, not without shame, not without fear.
And yet—he had still made her life hell. Still tormented her for what he couldn’t have. For what she had.
She remembered every time he glared when Ryu reached for her hand. Every time he scoffed at the sight of them kissing. Every time he said something venomous when Ryu wasn’t looking. Every time he hurt her. Emotionally. Physically.
How can I be graceful about this? she thought. How can I forgive someone who wants to take away the one good thing in my life?
Ryu.
Her Ryu, who held her through her panic, who brought her new books and golden necklaces and warm chamomile tea. Who told her she was already someone before anyone else did.
She closed her eyes, steadied her breath.
Cassius may be hurting. Cassius may be hiding. But she wasn’t going to hand him a knife just because he was bleeding.
She dried her hands, adjusted her collar, and looked back at her reflection—stronger now. Determined.
It's war.
And she had no intention of losing.
She stepped back into the library with purpose in her stride and the kind of light in her eyes that only Ryu could summon.
She didn’t say a word. Just moved toward him where he sat, still laughing at something Cassius had said. Her arms slipped around his neck from behind, and he jolted ever so slightly, startled, before relaxing into the warmth of her touch.
“Sorry,” she murmured against his cheek before kissing it gently. “Had to use the loo.”
He smiled, the kind of smile he only wore when it was just the two of them, even when others were watching. His hand instinctively reached up to touch hers, and she took the chance to slide her arms further around him, her fingers trailing down his chest, slow and deliberate.
Across the table, Cassius had gone completely still. His grin was gone. His eyes fixed on her.
She nuzzled into the side of Ryu's neck, the softness of her lips brushing just beneath his jaw.
“Can we go back to your dorm?” she whispered. “I want your bed. It's warm. And quiet.”
"Vera,” Ryu whispered back, “we’re supposed to be studying.”
She chuckled softly. “We can bring the books with us. But then again, once you get on top of me, we both become brainless.”
She smirked at the sharp inhale Cassius took.
Ryu's ears turned red. So did his cheeks. He coughed, tried to mask it, but couldn’t stop the smile that broke out.
“Vee,” he mumbled, trying and failing to sound stern.
She kissed his neck, just once. "Please?"
And that was it.
He stood, clearing his throat and gathering his things. “Sorry, Cass,” he said, not quite meeting his friend’s eyes. “We’re heading out.”
Cassius shrugged. “Alright.”
Vera reached for Ryu’s hand, interlacing their fingers as she leaned into his side.
“Let’s go, darling,” she said brightly, loud enough for Cassius to hear. “I want to snog you till you can’t think straight.”
As they turned to walk out, she looked back, caught Cassius's eye, and mouthed the words without sound but with unmistakable clarity:
"He’s mine."
And then she was gone.
Gone—so she didn’t see the way Cassius’s whole body trembled, the way he blinked hard against the tears he couldn’t stop.
Gone—so didn’t see the way his quill pierced his palm in a sudden burst of rage, blood blooming in tiny beads on his skin.
Gone—so didn’t hear the quiet, sharp sound he made, too close to a sob, as he covered his mouth with his sleeve to muffle it.
Gone—so didn’t feel the crack in the air as his grief twisted into fury.
And most of all—
Gone—so didn’t see the book she’d left behind.
Her new History of Magic book.
The one Ryu had bought her to replace what she destroyed. The one where she had hidden the letter from Miss Nelson—and forgot there.
The one Cassius now pulled slowly toward himself with shaking hands.
Friday, February 14, 1992
The grass in the courtyard was still damp from the morning frost, but the sky was clear, the air unusually gentle for a February day.
Ryu had claimed a quiet patch behind the greenhouse walls, where the wind didn’t reach. A thick wool blanket was spread out beneath them, and another one rested on top of Vera’s legs. A small enchanted heater hummed beside her basket, casting a steady warmth.
It was Valentine's, and he’d gone all out.
Too many bloody gifts.
A delicate heart-shaped pendant charmed to glow slightly when she was happy. A pair of enchanted gloves that warmed on their own. A box of Japanese sweets, some charmed to sing. And a new sketchbook, too, with her name embossed in silver leaf.
She scolded him for going overboard, but her voice held no real heat.
In return, she handed him her own gift. A single, thick, handmade book. The cover was soft canvas dyed navy, with silver ink stamped into the center: "Us."
Inside were dozens of hand-drawn sketches—him tying his tie, him laughing, him sleeping with his mouth slightly open in the library. Bits of pressed chamomile. Notes she had scrawled when he wasn't looking. And pages filled with poems—some short and sharp like arrowheads, others soft and looping like lullabies.
But what truly floored him were the Polaroids. She had borrowed Roger’s camera in secret, snapping quick photos of Ryu in the corridor, by the lake, holding his broom, laughing mid-flight. She’d enchanted some to move, just slightly—his smile widening, his eyes blinking, the wind catching his scarf.
He was speechless as he unwrapped it, running his hands over each page like it might disappear if he blinked. His eyes watered, and he kissed her deeply before he could even say thank you.
They lay there after, tangled together under the blanket, eating strawberry cake Vera had made herself. Crumbs stuck to Ryu’s mouth, and she licked them off playfully. He laughed, holding her face, his fingers stroking her cheek.
“You’re perfect,” he murmured, “You’re—everything.”
“Shut up,” she smiled, hiding her face in his chest.
They stayed like that for what felt like hours. Between kisses and stories and murmured questions that didn’t need answers.
But a question desperately needed one.
“Have you heard from your father?”
Ryu nodded. “He’s actually coming to Hogsmeade this weekend.”
She sat up a bit. “He’s what? Why?”
“Probably to bring the good news. Maybe even the official papers. He doesn’t trust owls with important things like inheritance contracts.”
She blinked. “Wait—really? You think it’s happening? This weekend?”
“I do.”
For a long moment, she didn’t say anything. She just stared at him, chest rising, tears stinging at the back of her eyes. Then she leaned in and kissed him—his cheek, his nose, his lips—over and over.
“Thank you,” she whispered into his skin. “Thank you, Ryu.”
She curled into him again, burying her face against his chest as his arms folded around her. The future was still uncertain, still built on fragile steps and unspoken risks—but at least right now, she felt safe. She felt loved.
Ryu was stroking her hair absentmindedly, the scent of strawberry cake still lingering on his lips, when he suddenly said, “Tell me something I don’t know about you.”
Her stomach turned a little. She hated that question.
Because too many things.
Too many secrets tied in knots under her ribs.
Still, she smiled faintly. “My favourite flower is poppy.”
He snorted. “I already know that. You doodled them all over your Defense notebook first year.”
“Did I?”
“You even gave one of them a name. Mr. Sleepy.”
She groaned and buried her face in his shoulder. “Okay, fine. That doesn’t count.”
He turned to look at her. “Tell me something real, Vera.”
She closed her eyes, heart hammering in her chest.
He was changing. She could feel it. Slowly, gently, like the frost melting from the greenhouse glass around them. He was more open. More tender. He didn’t flinch when she talked about Kaya anymore, or even music she loved that had nothing to do with magic.
And he loved her. She knew that. Despite it all.
So maybe… maybe telling him wouldn’t be so bad. Maybe it was time. Maybe he’d understand.
But the words still stuck to her throat like thorns.
Instead, she exhaled. “You tell me something about yourself that I don’t know.”
He leaned back and thought for a moment, as if flipping through the file cabinet of his own life. “I was named after my grandfather.”
She smiled. “I know that.”
“You do?”
“You told Professor Morales last year.”
“Oh, right,” he laughed. “Okay, okay. Um… how about who he was named after?”
She raised an eyebrow. “I don’t think you told me that.”
“That’s ‘cause it’s a long story,” he said, shifting slightly beneath the blanket. “But… basically, my family used to tame wild dragons. It’s an old tradition, goes back centuries. And one day, my great-great-great-grandfather found a dragon no one could touch. It was wild. Violent. Most Japanese dragons don’t breathe fire, y’know. They control rain and storms. But this one…”
He leaned in a little. “It breathed fire. Like the European ones.”
Her eyes widened. “How is that possible?”
“No one knows. It was a rare breed. Maybe the last of its kind. But it was beautiful. Scales like obsidian, eyes like molten gold. They called him Ryūjin. The Dragon King.”
She sat up straighter. “And your family tamed him?”
“Yeah,” he said with a note of pride. “And they fought beside each other after that. During wars. That’s why they called him the Conqueror.”
“And your grandfather was named after him?”
He nodded. “And then me.”
She traced her finger along his chest. “Do you think it’s in your blood? The taming.”
He looked down at her, eyes soft. “Maybe. But I don’t want to be a conqueror.”
“What do you want to be?”
"Yours.”
She leaned in and kissed him, suddenly desperate. Everything felt perfect. Gentle. Safe.
But then—
“Wait, what?”
Ryu blinked, surprised. “What?”
“You said… the dragon. The one your ancestor tamed. What did you call it again?”
“Ryūjin. The Dragon King.”
“No, after that.”
“The Conqueror.”
She pulled back slightly, her hand still on his chest, but her eyes distant now. Flickering, calculating.
“And you were named after it?” she asked.
“Well… yeah,” he said, “It’s sort of a tradition. Why?”
But she didn’t answer.
Because her mind had already pulled her far, far away.
The prophecy.
From the very start of the school year. Back when she thought Professor Trelawney was nothing but glitter and guesses. Back when she asked her—half jokingly—“Who am I going to marry?”
And Trelawney, with that misty look in her eyes, had said:
"The name of your heart's desire is that of a conqueror…"
It made no sense then. She thought maybe it was about ambition. Maybe it was a metaphor. Or worse, a warning.
But now…
Now she knew.
She glanced up at Ryu, at the way his hair tumbled across his forehead—wild, dark, thick as ink.
“His hair… as dark as charcoal… black as the deepest night."
She touched a strand of it without realizing.
He smiled faintly. Didn’t question it.
And then she thought of the last part.
"His eyes gleam like the eternal heavens. Like the starriest of nights—endless, mesmerizing, and impossible to forget."
She looked into his eyes. And it didn't make any sense.
They weren’t blue. Not silver or violet or anything extraordinary at first glance. But they were deep. Almost black. The kind of black that shimmered with reflections when the light caught it just right. Like the night sky before the stars even emerge, the kind that holds galaxies inside if you stare long enough.
So, she stared.
And stared.
“Are you okay?” he asked softly.
She nodded, blinking quickly. “Yeah. I’m fine.”
He smiled, gently pulled her back to his chest, arms wrapped protectively around her again.
“Alright,” he murmured, his voice warm and low, “so tell me—what do you want me to bring you from Hogsmeade this weekend?"
She rested her chin on his chest, heart still pounding.
Maybe the prophecy was real. Maybe it wasn’t. Maybe the stars had aligned the day he held her hand. Or maybe fate was just another story we tell ourselves to feel less afraid.
But as he looked down at her—eyes dark, kind, impossibly beautiful—she couldn’t help but wonder if the universe had chosen him all along.
Sunday, February 16, 1992
It was Hogsmeade weekend, but it didn’t feel like it—not to Vera.
She clung to Ryu like he was about to disappear forever, her arms wrapped around him so tightly his ribs let out a little groan of protest.
“Ow—Vera,” he laughed, breathless. “You’re going to snap me in half.”
She didn’t loosen her grip. “I’m going to miss you so much.”
He chuckled, brushing his lips against the top of her head. “It’s only a few hours.”
But she just squeezed him harder.
He leaned back slightly, his hands gently cupping her face, thumbs brushing along her cheekbones. And then he kissed her—desperately, tenderly, like a promise sealed with every breath he gave her.
“When I come back,” he whispered against her lips, “you’ll have more than just pretty things. You’ll have your birthright.”
Her breath caught.
“My father’s already in Hogsmeade,” he continued, his voice hushed but brimming with conviction. “He’s made it happen, Vera. I’m sure of it.”
Her eyes welled up, and she could hardly contain the storm inside her. It felt like something big was about to change—no, something right was finally about to be restored.
She hugged him again, one last time, burying her face in the crook of his neck. “Tell him I said thank you. And hello. And… thank you again.”
“You don’t need to thank us,” Ryu murmured, kissing the side of her head. “It’s our duty.”
She exhaled shakily, nodding, and let him go only because she had to.
He smiled at her one last time, tucking a lock of her hair behind her ear. “I’ll be back before dinner.”
And then he kissed her again—firm, slow, a final reassurance.
He turned slowly, heading toward the carriages waiting by the gates, where a few other students were already climbing in.
Vera stood there for a moment, arms wrapped around herself now, watching his back as he walked away.
She didn't know what this afternoon would bring. But she knew one thing for certain:
Whatever came next, she wouldn't be facing it alone anymore.
The castle felt hollow when everyone was gone—every footstep echoed too loudly, and even the portraits seemed to speak in whispers. Vera took the silence as an invitation, her boots soft against the cold stone as she climbed the winding staircase to the library.
She needed answers.
She combed the shelves in the astronomy section with trembling fingers, searching for something to confirm what her heart refused to dismiss. She was so lost in her thoughts that she didn’t hear the quiet approach until Professor Sinistra’s warm voice cut through the hush.
“Not at Hogsmeade with the rest, little star?”
Vera spun around, blinking. “I—I just wanted to read in peace.”
Sinistra smiled knowingly. "And what is it you’re hoping to read, since you’re lurking around my section?”
Vera hesitated. The truth was too tangled, too strange. But she reached for the closest explanation.
"I’m looking for something on… when the stars are the fullest. At night. A collection, maybe.”
The professor chuckled. “Well, aren’t you in luck.”
She moved with elegant ease toward a high shelf, fingers trailing the spines before selecting a worn, leather-bound tome and handing it to her.
“This one was a collaboration—muggles and wizards working together. A rare collection of night skies, taken over decades. Some magical, some purely technological. But all beautiful.”
Vera took the book with reverence. “Thank you.”
She sat down at a nearby table, opening the book slowly, carefully, the pages thick with history and wonder. She turned through chapter after chapter, staring at the night skies—brilliant blue stars, shimmering silver constellations, even ones bathed in hues of violet and crimson.
They were all breathtaking.
But none of them were black.
Her heart sank a little. But then—
A photograph, completely black. No shine. No light. Just darkness.
Her brow furrowed. “Professor?”
Sinistra, who had been idly browsing nearby, turned her head.
“There’s… nothing here,” Vera said, confused. “It’s blank. No stars at all.”
The professor stepped over, peering down at the page with narrowed eyes.
“No, that’s not right,” she murmured softly. “That’s when the sky is so full of stars… that they almost don’t shine.”
Vera looked up at her. “What do you mean?”
“Sometimes, when the atmosphere is too thick, or the magical charge too high, the stars overlap in a way that causes them to dim one another out. They don’t disappear. They’re just… countless. So many that the light cancels itself.”
She smiled gently. “It’s not the absence of stars. It’s an abundance.”
Vera looked back at the photo, her reflection visible in the sheen of the black ink.
So many stars… that none could shine alone.
She thought of Ryu’s eyes. So dark. But only because they held everything.
And then, the prophecy’s last line echoed in her head again.
"His eyes gleam like the eternal heavens. Like the starriest of nights—endless, mesmerizing, and impossible to forget.”
Not silver. Not blue. But black—black as the page before her.
She stared at it for a long time. And slowly, she began to understand.
Ryu was the love of her life.
Not just a teenage fantasy, not just a fleeting thing—they were meant to be. Every moment, every heartbeat, every brush of his fingers against her face—it had all been leading here. He was the one. The prophecy confirmed it.
The stars confirmed it.
And suddenly, it no longer mattered what secrets she held.
He would understand.
She would tell him everything the moment he returned. About St. Mary’s. About the Humphreys. About her muggle life, her fears, her shame, her double life. About the parts of herself she thought would push him away.
But he wouldn’t leave. He would love her still. She was sure of it.
So, she waited for him at the gate, pacing lightly, her fingers dancing along the tips of the iron bars, her heart beating so hard it made her breathless.
And then the carriages began to arrive. Her heart skipped as each one rolled in. She looked for him. For his face in the crowd. For the familiar way his black hair fell across his brow.
But he wasn’t there.
She spotted some of his friends climbing down from a carriage, and rushed over.
“Have you seen Ryu?” she asked, breathless with hope.
But they didn’t answer.
Eudora bumped her shoulder as she passed, Adrian scoffed under his breath. And Miles looked at her with a mix of fury and disappointment.
She stood stunned—until she spotted Roger further down the road, swinging his camera over his neck.
“Rog!” she called, rushing over. “Have you seen Ryu?”
He stopped, confused by the urgency in her voice. “Vera... I was looking for you. Did something happen?”
“No,” she said quickly. “Why?”
He frowned. “I don’t know... it just...”
"Just what?"
"Did you and Ryu break up?"
Her world tipped. “Wh—why would you think that?”
He hesitated, then glanced up toward the castle. “Vera... Ryu’s already here. He came back hours ago.”
“What?”
“He left early. He was crying, and—"
Her stomach dropped. "Crying?"
"What happened, Vee?"
She didn’t answer. Her legs were already moving.
She flew up the castle steps, her heart hammering harder now, but with dread—not excitement. She shoved the wardrobe door open and her heart sank further.
Ryu was on his bed, hunched forward, shoulders trembling. Cassius had his arm wrapped around him.
No. No. No...
She blinked, taking a step closer, hoping—praying—she’d misunderstood the shape of what was happening.
But then she saw it clearly.
Ryu was sobbing.
His fingers were tangled in the blanket, his face red and wet. His body shook.
Ryu never cried. Never. He had always been calm, composed, impossible to break.
But now… he was broken.
She rushed forward. “Ryu—what happened?”
Cassius looked up, furious. “Get out.”
“What—?”
“I said leave,” he snapped.
But then Ryu lifted his head, voice hoarse, cracked. “Let her stay.”
Cassius turned to him. “Are you sure?”
He nodded.
Cassius stood slowly, still staring at her with burning eyes. As he passed her, he leaned in—so close she could feel his breath—and whispered:
“Not yours now.”
Notes:
Chapter's song: Love Conquers All - Deep Purple
Chapter 85: I know it's over
Notes:
I know this year’s playlist is riding hard on '90s rock, but to be honest: this chapter is fueled by Billie Eilish. I wrote it while listening to Hit Me Hard and Soft, especially Wildflower. So ditch the grunge for a minute, press play, and let the emotional damage wash over you.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Sunday, February 16, 1992
The door had barely shut behind Cassius before the silence crashed down.
Ryu didn’t look at her. He just sat there, folded in on himself. His eyes were rimmed with red, shining with a sadness he was too tired to express.
Vera slowly stepped forward. "Please... tell me what happened.”
He didn’t look at her. Not even a glance. His throat bobbed—once, twice—as though he were trying to swallow something that refused to go down. Still, he said nothing. Then, just when she thought he might never speak again, he whispered in a voice so small, so broken, it barely sounded like him:
“Tell me it’s not true.”
Her stomach dropped. “What... what do you mean?”
Finally, his gaze lifted—and when his eyes met hers, everything in her stilled. Because the truth she’d tried to keep buried was right there, reflected in the devastation in his face. She didn’t have to ask how. She didn’t have to hear it.
He already knew everything.
“Dad was suspicious,” he began. “From the moment you said you were at Gringotts to visit your vault. He didn’t say anything. Not at first. But he knew you didn’t have a vault of your own. You can't get one as a minor, and the Black family vaults... they’ve been sealed for years.”
Her lips parted, but no words came. Just silence. Guilt. Terror.
“I asked him to look into it,” he continued. “To find your inheritance papers. He spent weeks searching. Every archive. Every department. Every record. And he found... nothing.”
“Ryu…” she gasped, her pulse pounding in her ears. “Wh—what are you talking about?”
“You’re not the heir to the Black family.”
The ground tilted beneath her. “What?”
“...you’re not even one of them.”
“That’s not true... That’s not—”
“Then why don’t you live with them? You’ve never lived with them. You’ve never even met them.”
“Ryu, please,” she choked, reaching for him. “I can explain—”
“My father couldn’t find a single inheritance record. Not one. The only documents with your name on them were Ministry papers—papers assigning you a magical guardian. I assume that's Donnie? The man who ‘takes care of you’?”
She gave a silent nod.
“Then he checked Gringotts. And all he found were these.” He reached into his pocket and drew out a handful of worn parchment. “Loans... Loans you’ve taken over the years.”
Her shoulders shook, the tears falling before she could stop them.
“And it wasn’t the loans that shocked him,” he continued, slowly rising to his feet. “It was what was written on them.”
“Ryu—”
“Let’s read, shall we? Name: Vera Black. Age: Eleven. Address…”
“Don’t—”
“St. Mary’s Home for Girls."
She let out a sound—half-sob, half-denial—and covered her mouth with her hand.
"That’s in London." he said, voice flat with pain. "Muggle London. Not Paris. Not some wizarding town.”
She couldn't even meet his eyes. And he just stood there, staring at her like he didn’t know who she was anymore.
“Dad thought it was a clerical error at first. He told me goblins mess up records all the time. Names, vaults, lineages. It happens. But then Cassius sent him this.”
He reached into his coat, then held out a folded piece of parchment. “You left it in the library.”
Vera couldn't even breathe anymore.
“Go on,” he said, almost cold. “Take it.”
Her hands were trembling as she reached for the letter.
"Dad read it to me this morning,” he went on, each word now like a thread unraveling between them. “He said... he said I’ve fallen in love with a fraud.”
She stared down at the letter, her fingers curling in on themselves like they could make it disappear.
“Who is she?” he asked. “Miss Nelson?”
“…She’s my matron,”
His eyes softened for a moment. “She seems to love you.”
“She does..."
“And do you love her?”
She swallowed. “I do.”
“Then why didn’t you ever tell me about her?”
“I was going to tell you, I just—”
“Just what? Forgot to mention you were raised by Muggles? That you’re not from some grand wizarding estate but an orphan place in Muggle London?”
“Ryu, please—”
But he backed away like she’d struck him. His face was pale with disbelief, his voice quiet now, broken in a different way.
“You lied. About everything.”
She opened her mouth, but the words wouldn’t come. Anything she said now would feel like a defense, a deflection—a justification for a crime she hadn’t meant to commit but had committed all the same.
“You built your whole world on stories,” he added. “And I believed every single one.”
“No, Ryu! Not everything was a lie! Okay, maybe I lied about my aunt, about who I live with, about Donnie and the loans—but everything else was real. I swear to you.”
“What about what you told Cassius?”
“What?”
“You said they tortured you. That your aunt and your grandfather starved you until you were eating grass!"
“That... that wasn’t a lie."
“How? When you’ve never even bloody met them!"
“It wasn’t them who did it!"
“Then who?”
She looked down, her entire body trembling. “It was… It was my foster parents.”
“Foster?”
“The people the government paid to look after me. They were supposed to act like parents.”
His face twisted. “And they fucking tortured you?!"
She nodded, her eyes full of tears she no longer tried to hide.
He stared at her, stricken. “Vera… do you even hear yourself? They starved you. They hurt you. And you still don’t hate them? You still defend them?!”
“Not all Muggles are like that!” she cried. “I had foster parents who were kind, too. And my matron—and my sisters—they’re the kindest people I’ve ever met!”
“Sisters,” he repeated coldly. “You call them your sisters? You don’t even share blood.”
“We share something more than blood! We share food, clothes, silence, pain—we share life, Ryu. Life!”
He shook his head like he didn’t want to understand. Like understanding would make the betrayal worse.
“So you had fake Muggle parents. Fake sisters. You live with Muggles. You love them. And you’ve kept it all a secret. For years, you’ve lied to me. To everyone.”
“I never meant to lie! When I came to Hogwarts, people just… assumed. They heard my name—and built a story around it.”
“And you never stopped them..."
“No,” she admitted. “Because it felt good. For the first time in my life, people looked at me like I was someone. Even when they whispered. Even when they hated me for it. Even when they spat on my face. Because at least they saw me.”
"But you hate your family! You always did. You fail your classes on purpose just so no one will say you’re like them. Don’t act like this is about being seen—you've never wanted to be them!"
“I don’t know what I want!” she snapped, and then instantly recoiled, as if frightened by her own voice. “Yes, I hate them for everything they did. For everything they stood for. I hate the legacy they left me—But I still carry it, Ryu. I still am it. I am a Black.”
"But you’re not."
She reached for him. “Baby—”
He pulled back like her touch burned. “No. Don’t call me that. Not when you've lied to me."
“I was going to tell you. Today. I swear to God, I was going to tell you everythi—”
“God?”
She stilled.
“You believe in a god?”
She nodded, almost ashamed. “I—I was baptized when I was eight. I’m… Christian.”
That was it. That was the final blow.
He stepped back, one foot dragging behind the other as if he’d been struck in the stomach. But his face—it wasn’t anger anymore. It was worse. Horror. Disgust. As if she had become something foul right before his eyes.
He started pacing—hands in his hair, teeth gritted, fury shaking in every limb.
“How was I so stupid?" He shouted. "You were always like them. In how you talk. How you think. You asked questions nobody else would. Defended things that made no sense!"
He turned on her then, eyes shining with a grief that didn’t know where to go. “And now this? I don’t even know who’s standing in front of me!”
“I’m still me!” She said desperately. “Ryu—it’s me! I’m the girl you love—”
“The girl I love doesn’t lie to me! The girl I love doesn’t hide who she is and then look me in the eye like I’m the one who’s supposed to understand.”
“Please—”
“The girl I love is fucking noble! She doesn’t kneel to anything, Vera. Not even to gods.”
“I—I’m still noble, Ryu. I have their blood in me—”
“Why don’t they want you, then?”
The question dropped like ice water down her spine.
“Why did they throw you away?” he pressed. “Why did they leave you in the Muggle world?”
“My mother was trying to protect me..."
“From what?”
“From them! From all of them! The Blacks. The Rosiers. All of them!"
He turned away, pacing again, his hands raking through his hair like he could rip the truth from his mind if only he pulled hard enough.
“My father found nothing,” he said. “No vault. No will. No records. Not even a birth certificate. As far as the Ministry’s concerned, you don’t exist.”
She stared at him, as if she hadn’t understood the words. But she had. Every syllable sank into her like a knife.
“You said your parents were married before you were born.”
“They were!" She cried. "Madame Josephine told me—”
“And you fucking believed that squib?”
She flinched. “Wh-what are you saying?”
“You know exactly what I’m saying..."
“No,” she muttered, shaking her head. “No, no you’re wrong. But even if—even if that were true… even if I was a—a bastard… it doesn’t change anything.”
“It changes everything, Vera.”
“Why should it? I’m still me, Ryu! I’m still—”
“Because I can’t be with a bastard.”
Silence.
A silence so total, so brutal, it sucked the breath from her lungs.
“Ryu…" she finally whispered, her voice as thin as glass. "You don’t actually mean that...”
“I’m a prince,” he said, like it was a curse he was bound to. “Do you understand that? I come from one of the most noble bloodlines in the world."
“I am too—”
“No, you’re not! You live with Muggles. You eat with them, sleep under the same roof as them. You call them your family. You are a commoner, Vera. A commoner! Nothing about you is noble. Your own family didn’t want you. Your uncle Cygnus doesn't wanna talk to you. And now, I know why. You're nothing to him. No one. You let me think you were like me. That we shared something—legacy, blood, a place in the world. But the truth is… you’re nothing like me. You’re not even from my world.”
And something in her—something vital—changed.
No. Not changed. died.
Because she didn’t cry. She didn’t shake. She didn’t plead.
She went still.
Her face emptied like a canvas wiped clean. Her eyes darkened—not with tears, but with something older. Quieter. Like a soul slowly turning to stone.
For the first time, she wasn’t Vera the orphan. Or Vera the liar. Or Vera the child who needed to be loved.
She was just… nothing.
And that was so much more dangerous.
“I’m just as magical as you are..." She said, her voice a hollow echo of itself
“But you hate magic!" He snapped. "You question it. You tear it apart like it’s beneath you—like it’s broken. You act like it needs fixing. That’s not what one of us does!”
“I never hated magic,” she ground out, fists clenched. “I hate the injustice of it. I hate watching kids go cold because their parents can't afford a taxed charm. I hate watching House-Elves beg for scraps while we use them as slaves. I hate how we pretend the blood on our family names was spilled a thousand years ago, when it’s still fucking fresh!"
He stared at her, breathless. “If you can’t see how deeply flawed that thinking is… then maybe you were never noble to begin with.”
She took a step closer. “And is that why you loved me, Ryu? Because you thought I was noble—like you?”
“No. But, Vera… I told you from the start. I can’t be with someone who isn’t.”
She let out a brittle, broken laugh. “Right. I remember now. I was the only choice."
“That’s not true... That’s never why I loved you. It was never about your name. I loved you for you. But now…” He looked away, jaw tightening.
“Now what? You don’t love me?”
He looked at her, and for a moment, something in him shattered. He stepped forward, slowly, as if pulled by gravity. His hands cupped her face—gently, reverently.
“I do love you,” he breathed, his forehead touching hers. “More than I’ve ever loved anything. I don’t care that you lied. I don’t care where you came from, or what name you carry, or who raised you. I care about you, Vera. I care about us. About what we could be.”
“Then why?” She pleaded. “Why are you doing this?”
He glanced away like he was ashamed to look at her, like the truth was too much for even his own eyes to bear.
“Because I can’t choose you,” he said. “Even though my whole damn heart already did.”
She took a breath like she was drowning. “Please don’t say it, Ryu…”
“My father wants me to end it. He said if I didn’t, he’ll—”
“No!” She shook her head. “Please, Ryu. Not after everything—”
“I can’t disobey him,” he cut in, his voice fraying. “I just—can’t.”
It would be easier if he didn’t love her. If he’d spat in her face, called her a mistake, walked away without flinching. It would've been easier if he bloody stabbed her. That she could rage against. That she could survive.
But this—this was a slow, tender undoing.
“I’ll fix it,” she said, more to herself than to him. “I can fix this. We'll fix it together. We always do, right, baby?”
But he was already breaking. Already slipping away.
And when he spoke again, it was in the softest, most shattered voice she had ever heard him use.
“I’m sorry, Shingin,” he choked, the nickname falling like a final goodbye.
She moved quickly, clinging to him—not like a girl trying to hold on to a boy, but like a girl trying not to fall off the edge of a world that had betrayed her.
“You don’t have to go,” she said into his shoulder. “We could run. Hide. I don’t care. I’ll make it work. I always do. I’ll make it work.”
His hands hovered above her back, torn between holding her and pushing her away.
She looked up at him, eyes wild with heartbreak. “Please, don’t leave me. Please, stay. Please, Ryu—I need you. I fucking need you!”
His arms finally closed around her. And it wasn’t a goodbye kind of embrace—it was the kind you give when you’re trying to fuse two bodies into one, when you’re trying to stay.
And for a moment, she believed it. For a moment, everything else disappeared.
But moments are fragile things.
Because then—he let go.
It wasn’t harsh. It wasn’t cruel. It was gentler than breath. And that’s what made it unbearable.
“I’m sorry,” he said, like each syllable scraped his throat raw.
Her fingers stayed curled in his shirt. Her forehead rested against his chest.
“Don’t make me do this without you,” she whispered, her voice a ghost of everything they’d dreamed of. “I’ve already lost so much.”
He didn’t answer. And that silence—that was the worst part. That was the real goodbye.
“There has to be a way,” she said, stepping back like her legs didn’t want to carry her anymore. “There has to be something—anything. You can’t just leave me like this.”
“There’s only one way we can be together, Vera."
“I’ll do it,” she said instantly. “Whatever it is. I’ll do anything.”
He looked at her, and this time, he really looked—saw every bruise on her soul, every fracture she tried to hide.
“We'll get betrothed.”
She Flinched.
“It'll be just like what Miles and Jane did." He went on. "Trust me, Vera. It's the only way my dad will let us be together."
“Ryu, you can’t be serious—”
“I’ve never been more serious in my life.”
“But—we’re too young,” she said, barely breathing.
"We’ll marry when we’re seventeen. Until then, you’ll come live with me. You’ll be under my family’s protection—legally, officially. You'll have my last name, half my fortune. You'll be my equal in everything."
Her eyes widened, stunned silent as he kept going.
“And if it’s too much here, if it hurts too much—then we’ll leave England. I’ll take you to Kyoto. We’ll study there. We’ll build a life there. We’ll live, grow old, and die there. Together.”
He stepped closer, his hand brushing hers.
"You won’t be alone anymore, Vera. Never again. I’ll love you until my bones forget how to stand. I’ll cherish you. I’ll keep you safe. Just say yes."
And gods, part of her wanted to.
She wanted to crawl into the warmth of those promises and stay. Because this—this was everything she’d ever craved. Not just love. Not just Ryu. But belonging. A name. A door that wouldn’t slam shut. A future she didn’t have to steal or beg for.
“And you’ll never have to set foot in the Muggle world again.”
Her head snapped up. “What…?”
"Dad will obliviate you,” he said gently, like he was offering mercy. “He'll make it painless. You’ll forget the world you came from. The lies. The filth. The ones who left you. The ones who hurt you. You won’t have to carry it anymore, Vera. It’ll all be gone.”
“…Ryu,” she breathed. “What are you saying?”
“I’m saying,” he reached for her hand, “if you want this—us—you have to let it go. That part of you. That old life. It’s the only way you’ll ever be safe.”
And for the first time ever, her hand was cold in his.
“You won’t remember the lies they told you, Vera. Their pathetic machines. Their cheap books. Their God.”
“Ryu—”
“You’ll be cleansed.”
He said it like salvation.
And that’s when she saw it—he was a boy who had never once lived the life she had. Who had never scrubbed mold from a bathroom ceiling. Who had never stood in line for loans or clutched a bank notice with trembling hands. Who had never needed to believe in something as invisible and messy and real as faith.
He didn’t see her life as a tragedy that shaped her. He saw it as a stain to wash away.
And still—she wanted to say yes.
Because it was him. Because he loved her. Because he was offering her the first real chance at safety.
But was it love if he had to erase her to keep it?
Was it home if it came with a lock?
Was it a future… if it buried the girl she used to be?
She looked down at their hands—his fingers gripping hers like a lifeline.
And for a moment, just a moment, she thought maybe she could say yes.
Maybe she could give it all up.
But then she remembered Miss Nelson’s warm hands brushing her hair back when she had nightmares. The way Mrs. Quinn stood tall and fierce like a soldier, always defending her—even when Vera didn’t think she deserved it.
She saw little Lola’s chubby fingers painting her toes with glitter and giggles. Andy and Mandy fighting over who got to sit next to her at dinner. Grace humming her silly tunes while doing dishes.
And Kaya.
Kaya, who refused to go live with her father in Manchester—just so she could stay close. Just so Vera wouldn’t be alone. Kaya who would kill for her. Kaya, who had once looked her in the eye and said, “If you fall, I’ll bury the bastard who pushed you.”
And she loved them.
She loved it all.
She loved the world that had raised her. The greasy fish from Mrs. Patel’s chippy. The café where she ordered full English breakfasts and watched the sunrise through greasy windows. The tiny music store where Wes worked, always giving her cassette tapes of bands she’d never heard of.
She loved Dex’s rooftop, where the wind smelled like dust and summer and secrets. She loved the loud, wild markets, the late-night cinema, the smell of pavement after rain, the sound—God, the sound—of music that made her feel like she was infinite. Like she was real.
And she loved London.
Not Diagon Alley, not Hogsmeade.
Muggle London.
And most of all, she loved who she was when she was there. Not a noble. Not a name. Not a legacy.
Just Vera.
She couldn’t leave that behind. Not even for love. Not even for safety. Not even for Ryu.
Not when it had made her human. Not when it had made her whole. Not even if it was hard. Or cold. Or dirty. Or unfair. Or cruel.
Because it was hers.
And she would not forget.
She said nothing. Not at first. Just gently dropped her hands from his trembling grip and reached for the necklace around her neck—the delicate chain he had given on Valentine's, the one with the small amethyst stone, the one that pulsed with every memory they’d ever shared.
With shaking fingers, she unclasped it and placed it carefully in his hand.
Ryu's breath hitched as he looked down at it, like she’d just ripped something sacred out of her chest and handed it to him.
She could see it—his heart breaking.
Not shattering all at once, but folding in on itself, cracking down the middle as the tears ran freely down his face.
“I’m sorry,” she said, her voice barely audible over the weight in the room. “No.”
“Vera…”
She closed her eyes, swallowing the sob in her throat.
“I truly thought we were destined,” she whispered. “That we were meant to be together. That some prophecy—some stars—had written us into the same line.”
She opened her eyes, meeting his gaze one last time.
“But prophecies can be wrong.”
He staggered a step toward her, pleading now. “That’s it, then? You don’t want me anymore?”
“You’re asking me to give up on my family, Ryu. On my home. On the people who made me me. And I can’t. Even if I wanted to. Even if it rips me in half. I can’t give them up.”
She turned toward the door. Her hand found the knob, her back to him now.
"You’re choosing them?” His voice cracked behind her.
She didn’t hesitate.
Didn’t break.
Didn’t flinch.
She turned back to him, and the look in her eyes was a storm held behind glass.
“Always.”
♪ Oh mother, I can feel
The soil falling over my head
And as I climb into an empty bed
Oh well, enough said ♪
That night, she lay curled beneath her blanket, the cold of the sheets clinging to her skin like grief.
She didn’t regret her choice. Not really. She whispered it to herself like a mantra.
I did the right thing. I chose them. I chose home. I chose me.
Donnie had told her, hadn’t he?
"You can love someone and still keep your eyes open.”
She had written to him the moment she got back to her dorm. To Miss Nelson, too. To Kaya.
She grounded herself in the memories—But even their warmth couldn’t stop the ache.
♪ I know it's over, still I cling
I don't know where else I can go ♪
God, she missed Ryu.
She missed everything about him.
His voice—the way it dropped low when he was tired.
His hands—how they found hers in a crowd like it was instinct.
His laugh—it haunted her, replaying in her mind like a song she didn’t know how to stop.
His crooked smile, the stupid way he’d tuck her hair behind her ear, the way he said her name like it was a spell.
She hugged his pillowcase to her chest—the one that still carried the his scent.
And she cried herself to sleep that night.
And the morning after.
And the night after that.
♪ I know it's over and it never really began
But in my heart it was so real ♪
She didn’t leave her bed. Not for breakfast, not for classes. The world could spin without her. She didn’t eat. Didn’t shower. Just curled deeper and deeper into herself, like if she stayed small enough, the pain would miss her completely.
Her sketchbook lay open on her lap, soaked with tears. Page after page of him. Smiling, laughing, sleeping, looking at her like she was the only thing that mattered in the world.
She looked at the chair beside her bed. Her clothes—the ones he brought her, still folded on it. The perfume bottle he had picked out. The makeup he said made her look like art. The stationary he chose so she could write her “little rebellions.” Gifts. Trinkets. Pieces of him.
She stared for a long, long time. And she knew. She couldn’t carry him with her anymore. Not like this. Not if she wanted to survive.
She gathered everything. Each item with gentle hands, as though they were too fragile to touch—yet too heavy to bear. She placed them all inside a box. Then, with trembling legs, she walked down to the common room.
Eudora stood just outside the frame, her arms crossed tightly over her chest. She looked like she had walked straight into a gutter.
Her eyes narrowed at the sight of Vera—red-rimmed, pale, hunched slightly beneath the weight of the box. But she didn’t greet her. Just stared with a look of such clear disgust.
“Thank you for coming.” Vera managed.
Eudora scoffed, the sound sharp and guttural. “Bitch.”
Vera didn't even flinch. She expected it.
“You don’t deserve him,” Eudora spat. “You never did.”
She stepped forward to snatch the box from Vera’s arms, and then she turned.
The portrait hole shut behind Vera with a hollow thud. She told herself she had done the right thing. That she had protected her truth. Her home. But her knees still buckled when she climbed back up to her bed, And she still cried herself into silence, Until there was nothing left but sleep.
And dreams where he was still hers.
♪ Oh mother, I can feel
The soil falling over my head
See, the sea wants to take me
The knife wants to slit me
Do you think you can help me? ♪
Thursday, February 20, 1992
She finally decided to go to class. She couldn't keep doing this to herself.
The Great Hall was colder than usual. Or maybe it was just her. She stood still for a moment, just beyond the threshold, letting the buzz of conversation wash over her—until it didn’t. Until it stopped. Or maybe it only changed, turned into murmurs, into stares. Into a hundred invisible threads pulling at her from every direction.
They know. About her and Ryu.
She saw it in the way the Gryffindors looked away when she passed. In the way the Ravenclaws leaned in, whispering behind their hands. In the way a Slytherin girl laughed, too loudly, too obviously. And in the empty space on the Ravenclaw bench where Ryu would’ve sat—where she used to sit beside him, stealing toast off his plate, drawing little doodles on his napkins.
She tried to keep her chin high, tried to pretend it didn’t matter. That nothing had changed.
But it had.
“Vera!”
Kenny’s voice cut through the fog, and for a moment she felt a flicker of relief. He weaved through the crowd, breathless, waving a folded newspaper. But his face wasn’t relief. It wasn’t joy. It was—
Betrayal.
“Is it true?” he asked, the paper trembling in his hand.
She sighed. “Yes, Kenny. It's true. Ryu and I broke up."
"Nah, that's old news. I meant, what Rita said about you. Is it true? You’ve been lying to us?”
Her stomach twisted, sharp and sudden. Her lips parted to ask, but he was already holding the newspaper out to her.
The Daily Prophet
THE BLACK HEIR IS A FRAUD
Vera Black is not who we thought she was!
A scandal unearthed by your very own Rita Skeeter.
She didn’t need to read the rest. She didn’t need to see what twisted half-truths had been spun into a noose. Her vision blurred as she scanned the hall again, and then—she saw him.
Cassius.
He smirked when their eyes met. Not smug, but victorious.
Of course it was him. She had humiliated him. Toyed with his pride. Shoved him aside like he didn’t matter. And now he’d done what he does best—used his power, his name, his reach. And won.
She didn’t flinch. Didn’t let herself cry. Just turned back to Kenny, and handed the paper back like it burned.
“Yeah,” she said softly. “It’s true.”
Kenny stared at her. For a moment, his lips parted like he was about to ask a hundred questions. But then he simply nodded, and walked away.
And this time, when she stood there alone in the middle of the hall, she didn’t try to pretend it didn’t matter.
Because it did.
And it hurt. So fucking much.
She took a seat at the far end of the Gryffindor table, where no one ever sat unless they wanted to disappear. Her hands trembled slightly as she set down her bag. No one said anything, but she could feel them—her housemates—watching her from the corners of their eyes, as if looking too directly might make them complicit in something shameful.
She caught glimpses—Alicia whispering to Angelina, Katie leaning toward Kenny. Even Fred and George, who she thought might understand her, were too busy avoiding her gaze.
She knew then, in a quiet, horrible way, that she'd already lost them. All of them. That no amount of explanations or tears could sew the rift shut.
She would always be that girl. The one who lied. The one who pretended. The one who fooled them all.
Her throat burned as she picked up her spoon. She tried to eat, but the food sat there, still and heavy. Her hand trembled on the way to her mouth, but she didn’t taste anything.
Tears began to slip down her cheeks, no matter how hard she willed them to stop. She wiped them furiously with her sleeve, pretending it was nothing. She told herself not to care. That she didn’t need anyone. That being alone was better than being fake. That she had it coming. That she deserved the silence, the hatred, even the pity.
But just then, someone sat across from her.
“Good morning, Vera."
She lifted her head slowly, warily. And froze.
Because it the last person she ever expected to talk to her—especially now.
Percy.
Percy, who had scolded her at least twice a week.
Percy, who had called her “reckless,” “disrespectful,” and “an unnecessary disruption to academic standards."
Percy, who never looked at her without judgment.
And yet—here he was. Sitting with her, with toast and tea and that same stiff posture. Looking at her like she wasn’t some scandalous tabloid ghost.
"What?"
“I said, good morning.” He replied, pouring himself tea with steady hands
She stared at him in disbelief. “No I meant, what… what are you doing?”
“Having breakfast,” he said, calm as ever. “Would you like some marmalade?”
“You’re not—Did you not read the paper?”
“I don’t make a habit of reading gossip columns. Especially not ones that confuse character assassination with journalism.”
She blinked. “But—It’s true, Percy.”
He shrugged. “So?”
“…So?” she echoed, barely able to process the whole situation.
“You didn’t do anything wrong."
She couldn't stop staring. Couldn't even bring herself to blink anymore.
“I don’t know everything about you, Vera,” he said, his voice softer now—just between them. “And I doubt you’d ever tell me. But I do know what it feels like to have the world turn its back on you."
She thought maybe she was hallucinating from hunger or heartbreak.
“This world,” he went on, “wasn’t built for people like us. And when we dare to climb up, we discover the stairs were never there to begin with—only walls. So, we lie when we must. We bend rules, break hearts, rewrite ourselves just to survive.”
His eyes met hers across the table. “What you did? That wasn’t shameful. It was survival. It was ambition. It was bravery.”
A tear slipped down her cheek before she could stop it.
“Don’t cry, Vera." He said softly. "And don't let their stares convince you you’ve done something unforgivable. You did what you had to do to stay standing. And if I had your courage, or your name, I might’ve done the same.”
He pushed the toast rack gently toward her. “Now ignore Rita Skeeter and eat something. You look like you're about to pass out.”
She looked down at the toast.
Then back at him.
And for the first time in days, she took a bite.
♪ It's so easy to laugh, it's so easy to hate
It takes strength to be gentle and kind
Over, over, over, over
It's so easy to laugh, it's so easy to hate
It takes guts to be gentle and kind
Over, over ♪
She went through the day like a ghost. Everyone was still staring. Everyone was still whispering. Every corridor was a minefield of glances and muffled laughter, every classroom a stage she hadn’t auditioned for.
But somehow, she kept going—step by step, breath by breath—clinging to Percy’s words like a thread keeping her stitched together.
When she walked into Charms, her hands trembled. Her whole body braced to collapse at the sight of Ryu—to see his eyes avoid hers, or worse, meet them with pain. But the seat beside Cassius was empty.
“He’s taking a week off,” Kenny murmured to someone behind her. “Flitwick’s letting him stay in his dorm. Said he needs space.”
She felt her heart sink and twist. She didn’t want to imagine him locked away like that. Didn’t want to think about whether he was sleeping through the days or pacing restlessly. Whether he was burying himself in books or drowning in whisky.
Whether he missed her like she missed him.
Flitwick glanced over, his kind eyes landing on her with a flicker of hesitation—then sympathy.
“Miss Black,” he said gently, “Professor McGonagall has asked to see you.”
The room went quiet.
For a moment, she couldn’t move—couldn’t do anything except feel the gazes shift to her, some curious, others cautious.
She nodded stiffly and gathered her things, forcing her legs to move. Flitwick gave her a small, reassuring nod as she passed, but it only made the knot in her chest tighten.
The walk to McGonagall’s office felt like miles. She climbed the stairs slowly, bracing herself for more judgment, more questions, more disappointment.
But when she opened the door, her chest loosened ever so slightly. Because sitting in one of the chairs—rumpled coat, soft eyes, familiar smirk—was Donnie.
“Hey, kiddo,” he said, standing up. “Figured I’d drop in and check on my favorite troublemaker.”
Her lip quivered. “I—I'm okay."
“Yeah?” he said, his voice warm but knowing.
And then, like something broke loose inside her, she moved without thinking—closing the space between them and burying herself in his chest.
His arms came around her instantly, solid and safe. The sobs hit her like a wave. All the things she’d held in—every ache, every shame, every hollow moment—spilled out.
“I’ve got you,” he whispered into her hair. “I’ve got you, darling. You’re okay now.”
She clung to him like a lifeline.
And when the storm of her tears finally began to calm, he held her even tighter.
♪ Love is natural and real
But not for you, my love
Not tonight, my love
Love is natural and real
But not for such as you and I
My love ♪
Notes:
chapter's song: I know it's over - The Smiths
Dearest readers,
It’s not over—not for Vera and Ryu.
Love like theirs lingers between the stars, whispering truths, or beautiful lies. But you’ll never know which… until the very end.
So read on, brave heart. For only at the final turn of the page will you know whether the stars told the truth… or simply told a story.
Chapter 86: Fade to Black
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Thursday, February 27, 1992
It had been seven days since Ryu vanished behind the curtains of his dormitory and never came back out.
No one asked questions. No professor made him show up. It was as if the entire school saw the wound between him and Vera and chose to treat it with silence. Maybe even kindness.
Vera tried to carry on. She ate breakfast, attended lessons, spoke when she had to. Percy stayed by her side, until Felix entered the room—then he would quietly leave.
And Felix...
He hadn’t looked at her once. Not since the truth came out. She could feel his disappointment like a shadow. She had made him believe she was brave—that she defied her family, read banned books, listened to Muggle music because she had a spine. But the truth was, she wasn't special. She wasn't a rebel. She was just a pathetic orphan who liked the way her family's power tasted in her mouth. A coward with a borrowed story. A liar, through and through.
Still, she woke up. Got dressed. Held herself together. She prayed to God—if only in silence—that someone, anyone, would forgive her. That Felix might look at her again. That her friends might see her for more than her lies.
But even dreams have their limits. And somewhere in her bones, she knew: this was her penance. She deserved it all. So she walked the halls alone. Ate alone. Studied alone. Sat alone.
Until one day, she didn’t.
It was Charms, and she sat in the middle of the classroom, hunched over her desk with her arms folded. The seat beside her had been empty all week—no one dared sit there, like misfortune might be contagious. But then came a sudden clatter. She looked up, startled, only to find Malika sliding into the seat beside her.
“Morning, Vera,” she said softly. “Your hair looks really pretty today.”
Vera turned, blinking. Her hair was frizzy and lopsided, tied with a ribbon so old it had faded to a dull grey-blue.
“You’re... talking to me?” she asked before she could stop herself.
“I don’t see anyone else named Vera around here.”
“You know the others might not like that you're sitting with me.”
“Yeah, they're weird. But they usually come around.”
Vera felt her lips twitch—just barely—but it was the first real smile in days.
“Thank you,” she said. And she meant it like it cost something. Like it had been waiting inside her chest for weeks, bruised and aching to be spoken.
“I didn’t really do anything,” Malika replied.
“You are being kind to me, and I haven't even tried to earn it.”
“Kindness shouldn’t be something people earn, Vera."
"But you still hate that I lied.”
“I just... I just wish I’d known the real you sooner. I think… we’ve probably had the same kind of bad days. The kind where the world forgets you matter.”
Vera felt the words hit deeper than she expected. She understood exactly what Malika meant—not just because of the tone, but because she knew where Malika came from. A cramped house in Birmingham, five sisters, two exhausted parents trying to stretch every pound. But it was more than that.
Malika had to endure hate in both worlds.
In the Muggle world, Vera had overheard the stories—how neighbors gave them looks, how children mocked her father's accent, how some called them slurs, how teachers mispronounced her name, how her sisters learned early on to keep their heads down. And in the wizarding world, it wasn’t much better. The way certain pure-bloods looked at her like she didn’t belong—because of her blood, her background.
Vera knew that feeling too. Different, maybe, but close enough. The weight of not fitting in. Of being told, in ways both loud and quiet, that you mattered less.
She looked up, eyes glassy. “I’m sorry, Malika. For everything. For lying. For hurting you. For not being... good.”
“You don’t have to be good all the time, Vee. You just have to want to be better. And you do.”
Vera looked at her like she didn’t quite believe someone like Malika could exist.
“How?" She asked. "How do you stay kind? Even when people hurt you?”
Malika grinned. “Oh, that’s easy! Just ignore the awful parts and focus on everything else.”
To prove her point, she turned to where Eudora sat with Adrian in their usual corner of the room. Eudora was still admiring her own hand, turning it this way and that. That stupid ring—silver, shiny, and offensively massive—caught the light and threw it around the classroom like a disco ball.
“Hey Eudora!" She called sweetly. "I think that ring is gorgeous. The color suits your skin tone perfectly!"
Vera choked on a laugh.
Eudora, however, didn’t even glance over. Just adjusted the flashy silver ring and whispered something to Adrian that made him smirk.
Malika turned back around with a careless shrug and a twinkle in her eye. “See? Compliment given. Heart intact.”
“You’re ridiculous,” Vera said.
“I’ve been called worse. By better-dressed people."
But Vera’s smile faded as her gaze shifted back to the couple across the room. Because Adrian's eyes had drifted—slowly, hungrily—toward Malika. He was watching her thighs, bare and crossed beneath the hem of her skirt. His smirk crept upward like oil, and when Malika flipped her hair back with a laugh, he licked his lips—slow and deliberate.
Vera’s stomach turned.
But she’d seen that look before, too many times to count. Adrian had always been like this, even with Eudora on his arm like some shiny, expensive trophy. He’d leer at girls from behind, whisper dirty things that made them freeze up in the middle of a hallway, catcall under his breath when Eudora wasn’t looking. And sometimes even when she was.
And this was one of the times where she had noticed.
Her jaw was tight, her lips pressed together, her eyes narrowed at Malika. She had caught her boyfriend staring at another girl—but still, she said nothing. No sharp elbow to the ribs. No glare. No storming off. Just silence. Eudora wasn’t shy, or submissive, or the kind of girl who let things slide. And yet… here she was. Sitting still. Playing pretend.
However, Vera couldn't keep dwelling over her, or Adrian, or anyone else. Because the classroom door creaked open.
And in walked Ryu.
Her heart lurched so violently it felt like it might tear itself apart. She turned before she could stop herself—and the sight of him hit her like a curse.
He looked beautiful. Not just handsome, but pristine, like heartbreak had passed over him without leaving so much as a wrinkle. His uniform was perfectly pressed. Tie straight. Hair combed. Skin clear. As if the week they’d been apart had healed him instead of hollowed him out.
Meanwhile, her own eyes were red and raw. Her skirt was crumpled at the edges. Her hair was a mess of pins and tangles. She looked like someone who’d been abandoned mid-thought.
Her eyes welled up instantly, and she pressed her lips together, willing herself not to fall apart.
Ryu walked right past her. Didn’t say a word. Didn’t even flinch. And then, as if to punish her further, he sat down beside Cassius.
Flitwick began the lesson, but his words might as well have been raindrops hitting a window. Vera couldn’t hear him. She couldn’t hear anything. All she could feel was Ryu. He was one row behind her, close enough to feel, but unreachable.
Slowly, as if drawn by something magnetic and awful, she turned her head just a fraction—just enough to see him.
Their eyes met, but she turned away immediately, her breath shaking in her chest. Her eyes burned, but it wasn’t enough. It wasn’t enough to stop the ache. She needed to see him again. Needed to know if he meant to look. So after a moment, she turned her head again.
He was still staring. And this time—she saw it.
His façade was gone. The neatness, the calm—it had all cracked beneath the surface. His eyes were red at the edges, shining with tears he hadn’t yet let fall. And inside them? Guilt. Grief. Longing. And the same unbearable, soul-wrenching ache she felt in her bones.
One tear slipped down her cheek before she could stop it, and that was when Ryu broke.
He shook his head once like he couldn’t take it. And then suddenly, violently, he stood up, grabbed his bag, and stormed out of the classroom, the door slamming behind him so hard the walls rattled.
Flitwick stopped talking, his wand pausing mid-air. Slowly, he turned his head towards Vera, and so did everyone else in that classroom.
The tear rolled down her throat and into her collar. Her hands trembled on the desk, clasped tightly together to stop herself from reaching out to a ghost.
Professor Flitwick blinked, clearly taken aback—but then, his expression softened. He looked between the door and Vera, and something in his face shifted from confusion to a deep, quiet sympathy.
"Class, I… I’ll be right back." He said. "Please remain seated. And keep quiet.”
He then turned and hurried out the door—presumably after Ryu.
Vera blinked down at the scratched surface of her desk, trying to hold on. Trying not to let the sob building in her throat escape. But it was there—coiled and ready. And all she could do was swallow it again, and again, and again.
She had no strength left. No words. No explanations. Because the boy she loved had just looked at her like she was everything—And then left like she was nothing.
Yet still, the words clawed at her throat—demanding to be set free. It was time. Once and for all, she had to speak.
Her chair scraped against the stone floor, loud and jarring. She stepped forward, shoulders stiff, until she stood right at the front of the room.
“I just… I just need to say something before Professor Flitwick comes back.”
Adrian barked out a laugh. “Oh, spare us the sob story, would you?"
“Oi, shut it, Pucey!” Cedric snapped, slamming his palm on the desk. “Let her talk.”
Vera glanced at him, and gave a small, grateful smile. Then she faced the class again.
“I wanted to say I'm sorry.”
The room held its breath.
“I’m sorry for lying to you. For letting you believe things that weren’t real. I’m sorry for pretending to be someone I’m not, and that you had to find out the truth from a newspaper. I had chances. Loads of ‘em. But every time I tried, I.... I thought you wouldn’t forgive me. And maybe I didn’t deserve to be forgiven. Maybe I still don’t."
The others stared at her—some with quiet sympathy, but most with narrowed eyes and guarded suspicion.
"I didn’t read the article." She carried on. "Couldn’t bring myself to. But I know what it must’ve said. And yeah. It’s true. I don’t live in some grand manor in France with my pureblood family. I've never even met them."
Her hand trembled as she pressed it against her chest, trying to calm her breathing.
"I live in an orphanage in Muggle London. Before that, I moved from one foster home to another. The last one was a farm in Cornwall, where I worked every single day—milking goats, or cleaning, or even cooking."
The words cracked in the air like a spell gone wrong.
"And yes," she said, louder now, "I'm poor."
Fred and George exchanged glances. Maddie looked away, uncomfortable. Malika, seated nearby, visibly stiffened, her eyes shining with heartbreak. And Tommy looked like he’d swallowed something sharp.
"I have nothing to my name." Vera continued. "No money. No gold. Nothing. I've never had maids, or house-elves, or a governess, or even my own room. Half my robes came from donations, or hand-me-downs from my sisters. I even take out loans to buy books and parchment. And I..."
She faltered, but only for a breath.
“I'm not noble. Not really. But I am still a Black. And when I found out, I was proud. They were rich, powerful—Like royalty. And I wanted that. I craved it. So I stayed quiet. Let you all assume. Let you think I was something more than I am.”
Her eyes drifted shut.
“But then I learned who they really were.”
She opened her eyes again, full of fire and tears.
“They were monsters. Cold, cruel monsters. And I didn’t wanna be like them. But by then, the lie was too big to undo. And no matter how far I was from them, everyone still sees me like them.”
Her voice dropped to a whisper. “And maybe I am...”
She looked at Cassius, holding the gaze. “I hurt people.”
He immediately lowered his eyes, his lips tightening.
“I’m a liar." She went on. "I Provoke others just to feel like I have control. And I’m... I'm envious. I'm so bloody envious...”
She swallowed, and looked straight at Maddie.
“I envy some of you because you’re rich.”
Then Malika, beautiful and aloof in the front row.
“Because you’re pretty.”
Cedric, kind and golden and still enough to listen.
“Because you’re effortlessly good.”
And finally, her voice cracking harder now, she turned to the Weasley twins.
“I envy you because you’re lovable.”
Then it came—rising from the depths of her chest, trembling in her throat.
“And I envy some of you… because you have parents.”
Her voice broke completely, the sentence collapsing into a sob. Her whole body seemed to shake as she clutched at her sleeves.
"I envy you for having a childhood. For having memories. I went from one stranger’s house to another, getting hit, starving, working like a maid.”
She pressed a shaking hand to her mouth for a second, steadying herself.
“And I guess… I never knew what to do with all of that. So I bottled it up, then turned it into something bitter. Because I wanted to act like you. I wanted to pretend I was perfect. And because... I hate pity. And I didn’t want to feel like I was less than any of you.”
She wiped at her eyes, but the tears just kept falling.
“But I know now. That was wrong. All of it was wrong. And I’m sorry."
She looked around the room again, her face red and wet.
“I don’t deserve your forgiveness. And I’m not asking for it. I just… I needed you to know. That I regret it. I regret all of it. I took you for granted. I betrayed you. Not by being with Ryu—But by letting go of your love.... To fill my heart with his.”
Her knees gave slightly, and she let herself sink into her seat, curling forward as sobs took over—quiet at first, then louder, wracking her small frame.
And no one said a word.
Cassius looked pale, mouth slightly open like he was about to say something and thought better of it. Maddie was staring out the window, chewing her lip. Fred had his head down, fidgeting with the hem of his sleeve. Cedric sat back, arms crossed over his chest. Tommy blinked, wiping at his own eyes. And in the far corner, even Miles had turned away.
The class ended quietly, and Vera walked through the hallway like she was underwater. The echoes of her confession clung to her skin like frost, and her throat ached from crying. She thought she could make it to the Astronomy Tower. Or maybe the lake. Somewhere no one would see her fall apart again. But fate had other plans.
Cassius stepped out from behind a stone column, like a shadow waiting for her to pass.
“Nice speech,” he said. “You thinking of going into theatre? You had the whole class in tears.”
She didn’t even flinch. “I’ve been meaning to talk to you."
“Gonna hex me for ruining your pretty little romance?”
“No,” she said, and her voice was so soft, so real, it made him still. “It’s not about that. I just… I wanted to say I’m sorry.”
He stared at her.
“I’m sorry for what I did to you,” she said, eyes shining. “Back at the library. I was jealous, and It doesn’t matter why. I was cruel, and I hurt you. I’m sorry it had to be that way, Cassius. No one deserves to be punished for who they are.”
Something cracked behind his eyes in an instant.
“You’re not doing anything wrong,” she whispered. “Not by loving someone.”
Then, like a switch had been flipped, he lunged forward and slammed her head against the wall, his hand closing around her throat.
“You shut your mouth,” he hissed, face inches from hers.
She gasped, struggling to breathe. Her fingers clawed at his wrist, but he didn’t let go.
“I don’t know what you think you know,” he said, “but whatever twisted little fantasy you’ve cooked up—erase it.”
Tears sprang to her eyes—not just from the choking, but from the devastation in his voice. The fear. The fury.
“I’ll kill you,” he whispered, again and again, like he didn’t know any other words. Like they were the only thing holding his world together. “I’ll kill you, Black. I swear I will.”
But his voice broke, and it sounded less of a threat and more of a cry for help.
"I'll kill you! I'll fucking kill—"
Suddenly, he was shoved away, and Vera crumpled to the floor, coughing violently.
Miles stood between them. “What the hell are you doing?!”
But Cassius didn’t answer. And then, as Vera struggled to breathe, he moved forward again, foot rising—ready to kick her.
Miles caught him mid-lunge, shoving him back. “That's enough!”
Cassius glared at Vera like she’d murdered something holy. Then, with a snarl, he turned and spat on the stone next to her.
“Stay dead,” he muttered—and then he was gone, his footsteps pounding away into the dark.
Miles knelt beside her, eyes wide with panic. “Are you—? Are you okay?”
She couldn’t speak. Her throat burned, her chest heaved.
“Just stop it,” he said. “Stop provoking him. It’s not worth it.”
“I wasn’t,” she rasped. “I… I was trying to say sorry.”
He sighed, then stood and walked away. She pressed her forehead to the stone floor, her whole body aching. And there, in that dark corridor, she stayed. Bruised.
Breathless. And utterly abandoned.
After that day, she thought she’d fade. Disappear like smoke into the castle walls. A stain too heavy to scrub away. But to her surprise, she wasn’t as invisible as she thought she'd be.
It started with the smallest of things. Barely noticeable at first.
Roger sat next to her in History of Magic. Didn’t say much. Just opened his book, shared a sigh when Binns started droning, and passed her a sugar quill under the desk.
Then Malika and Patty started sliding into the benches beside her at lunch and dinner, chattering as if they always had.
Kenny found her one evening in the common room, then flopped beside her on the couch.
“So…" He began casually. "What really happened between you and Avery?”
She rolled her eyes, refusing to give him any details. He was disappointed, but stayed for an hour anyway, filling her in on all the gossip she had missed.
In the dorm, Alicia had started asking her for help with homework, while Angelina asked to borrow some of her clothes.
Cedric requested her Potions notes, and when she handed them over, he gave her the gentlest of smiles.
And one evening, during dinner, her cup suddenly jumped forward and bit her on the lip. She yelped, dropping it in surprise—and looked up to find the Weasley twins watching from across the Great Hall, identical grins stretched across their freckled faces.
The prank was their olive branch, and it made her want to laugh and cry all at once.
A few moments later, Sarah strolled over, holding an envelope.
“Joint birthday party,” she said. “For me and Tarsus.”
Vera blinked. “Tarsus?”
“The tarantula you gave me,” Sarah said. “He’s turning seven.”
"Um, how do you even know that?”
“Oh, I counted the rings on his fang-sheddings. Bit of cross-referencing. Easy stuff.”
Vera couldn’t tell if she was more horrified or impressed.
Sarah continued describing the party like it was the event of the year.
"There's gonna be dead flies made out of marzipan, and a playlist inspired by arachnid courtship rituals. Oh, and we'll be playing a little game called 'web or wed!'"
Vera didn’t dare ask.
"It's gonna be in the Slytherin common room." Sarah added. "Tarsus thrives in moist darkness.”
Then she handed Vera the invitation—a lumpy card shaped like a beetle’s abdomen, painted in glittering green and black.
“I want you to come,” she said. No hesitation, no awkwardness. Just pure, unexpected warmth.
“I’d love to,” Vera whispered, smiling like an idiot.
Sarah gave a satisfied nod and walked away, ponytail bouncing behind her.
The only ones who hadn’t said a word were Maddie and Tommy.
She didn’t blame them. Maddie had always been the most hurt. The most betrayed. And Tommy... well, Tommy had been her shadow. Her partner in crime. And she’d destroyed that.
So she didn’t expect anything from either of them. Which is why, when she was sitting alone in the library one rainy afternoon, she nearly jumped when a hand slapped a cassette tape onto the table in front of her.
She blinked up in surprise, only to find Tommy standing there, arms crossed, still as guarded as ever.
The tape had a label scribbled in black ink:
“Irish Pride.”
He didn't meet her eyes. "Irish rock’s better than any of your English brick bands.”
Then he turned on his heel and walked away.
Vera stared at the tape. And then, slowly, her lips curled into a smile. A real stupid quiet one. Because it was the closest thing to an “I forgive you” Tommy had in him.
Vera sat there and let the warmth sink in. It baffled her, really—this kindness. She hadn’t expected it. Didn’t think she deserved it. And yet, there it was.
But she hadn’t stopped crying. Not really.
Ever since that day in Charms, Ryu had started showing up to classes again. But he never sat near her. He always took the seat directly in front of her—close enough to feel, but never to face. In the Great Hall, he kept his back to everyone, hunched slightly, shoulders rigid.
She would catch herself watching him. Studying the slope of his neck. The way he held his spoon like he was thinking of other things. She longed for him. Desperately.
And some nights, it still hit her—the loneliness, the guilt, the ache of missing him like a phantom limb. But the days were... softer. The silence wasn’t as sharp. The world didn’t feel so cold anymore. Because people were starting to see her again.
And it was enough.
TW: the next part contains Violence, ethnic slurs, and extremely hateful language.
Sunday, March 15, 1992
When Vera woke up that morning, she had no idea her life was about to change forever. She got ready for Sarah’s birthday, her heart light with excitement at the thought of spending the day with all her friends. Clutching the wrapped present tightly to her chest, she made her way down the corridors, unaware of what awaited her.
The entrance to the Slytherin common room gaped open like the mouth of some ancient beast. Her heart was already fluttering with nerves—but it nearly stopped when she stepped forward and collided with someone at the door.
Ryu.
He froze, just like she did. His golden skin caught the flickering green light like candle wax. His Black eyes, wide with something between shock and longing, locked with hers for just a second too long. Her entire body ached with the memory of what it used to feel like to be near him—his hands in hers, his laugh in her ear, the way her name sounded in his voice.
She could feel him remembering too.
But before either of them could say anything, Cassius appeared behind him, and grabbed his wrist.
“Come on,” he muttered, then yanked Ryu away without meeting her eyes.
She wanted to chase after him. To call out his name. To hug him. Kiss him. Or just hold his hand. But she knew—deep in the parts of her she didn’t want to touch—that letting go had been the right thing to do.
So she straightened her shoulders, blinked the ache from her eyes, and stepped inside.
The party was… well, exactly what you’d expect from Sarah and her pet tarantula.The Slytherin common room had been transformed into something out of a haunted terrarium.
Malika was dancing barefoot in the middle of the room with glitter on her cheeks, dragging Kenny along while Patty tried to wrangle them into a conga line. Roger had already tried two of Sarah’s “venom shots” and was now convinced he could speak Parseltongue, which he demonstrated loudly in a corner.
Fred and George charmed the snack table so the crisps screamed when you picked them up, while Cedric was playing wizard’s chess with Lee.
And Sarah?
She was holding Tarsus in one hand and a goblet of something suspiciously purple in the other, giving a toast about how “eight legs are better than two” and “longevity is severely underrated in romantic partners.”
Vera, however, sat quietly on the emerald sofa near the fireplace. She didn’t want to ruin the night for herself. She truly didn’t. But her mind kept wandering—to Ryu’s eyes, Ryu’s perfume, Ryu being pulled away like he was now trapped in someone else’s world.
She closed her eyes, just for a moment.
And then—
A weight beside her.
Maddie flopped down onto the couch without a word, arms crossed. She didn’t look angry. Just Maddie.
Neither of them said anything for a beat. The party roared around them, strange and glittering and unbothered. And then Vera spoke, glancing sideways.
“I didn’t think you’d ever sit beside me again.”
Maddie didn’t look at her right away. Just leaned back against the cushion.
“I didn’t think I would, either,” she said. “But… Sarah’s cake is shaped like a spider and Ceddy is losing in chess. So, anything can happen.”
Vera let out a laugh, but it was cracked at the edges.
“I missed you,” she said, the words catching on the way out.
Maddie finally looked at her. And this time, her eyes were soft.
“I know,” she said. “And I'm really, really angry. You lied to all of us. You made us feel stupid. And you betrayed me when all I wanted was to be your friend.”
Vera blinked fast, trying to hide the tears that were threatening again.
Maddie turned slightly toward her. “Why did you hide the truth from us, Vera?”
“I was just... ashamed,” Vera replied, swallowing. “And embarrassed.”
She looked down at her hands. “I didn’t want to be the girl from the orphanage. The girl with nothing. I didn’t want you all to see me like that. Pity me. Or worse… leave me.”
“You lying wasn’t the worst part,” Maddie said. “It sucked, yeah. But it wasn’t the lie that really stung. It was that you thought we’d ever judge you for where you come from. Like we’d turn our backs on you for being you. We would never do that. Never.”
“I know,” Vera whispered. “I know...”
“You’re way cooler now, by the way.”
Vera blinked. “What?”
“You used to be, like, this polished, mysterious, too-good-for-us girl. Now you're… well, a bit of a tragic mess. It suits you.”
Vera snorted. “That’s... A bit mean.”
“But true,” Maddie said, smirking.
Vera wiped her eyes. “So... does that mean you forgive me?”
Maddie studied her for a second, then slowly leaned in.
“On one condition,” she said.
Vera tensed. “What?”
“If you ever go near Avery or anyone like him again… you’re dead to me.”
Vera’s heart sank at the words. Not because they weren’t fair. But because they meant turning her back on a part of her heart she still hadn’t let go of.
She met Maddie’s gaze, and nodded. "I won't."
"Promise?"
"Promise."
Maddie leaned back and gave her a slow nod. “Good.”
Then she picked up a poisoned-looking mocktail from the table beside them, and raised it like a toast.
“Now drink this." She said. "It’ll ruin your stomach and stain your teeth green for a week.”
Vera took it without question. But before she could take a sip, the heavy doors to the Slytherin common room suddenly burst open. The music died on a single screech of enchanted strings, and in stormed Eudora.
Behind her trailed the entire pack of Poshlanders: Miles, Jane, Cassius, Ryu, and Adrian, who led the charge behind her. They all looked unsure, eyes darting.
But Eudora—Eudora was a spectacle.
Mascara streaked her cheeks like war paint. Her voice rose in shrill bursts as she stormed across the room, eyes locked on her prey.
“She took it!” she cried, pointing a shaking, manicured finger toward the dance floor. “I know she did!”
Malika had stopped mid-spin. “What’s going on?”
Adrian stepped to the front, shoulders squared. His voice came out tense, like he didn’t want to be speaking at all. “Just give it back, Khan.”
Malika looked around, confused. “Give what back?”
“My ring!" Eudora shrieked. "The silver one Adrian got me. It’s gone—you bloody took it!”
Gasps fluttered around the room.
“I didn’t take your ring,” Malika said firmly. “I swear!"
“You’ve been eyeing it since February!” Eudora screamed. “I saw you. You were jealous. You kept complimenting it. You—Brummie—skum—you couldn’t help yourself, could you?!”
Vera was now on her feet. So was Cedric.
“Oi, that’s enough,” he said, stepping between them. “There’s no proof Malika took anything.”
“She’s lying!” Eudora barked, her voice almost wild now. “Of course it was her! Who else here would steal a bloody ring?!”
She turned to the crowd, eyes blazing. “You all know what she’s like. What her people are like! Playing innocent, dancing around like she’s cute, like she belongs here.”
“She does belong here,” Cedric shot back. “More than you, frankly.”
Malika looked frozen in place, eyes wide, arms limp at her sides. “Eudora… I didn’t take it.”
Eudora rounded on Adrian now, chest heaving.
“Well?” she snapped. “Are you going to defend me, or not? Or are you that much of a coward?”
Adrian flinched like he’d been slapped. The room watched him, waiting.
Something changed in his expression—like he’d been called to the stage and refused to fail. His spine straightened. His lips curled. He wanted to prove something now.
And Vera saw it—clear as day.
This wasn’t about the ring.
Eudora knew her boyfriend was into Malika. Everyone did. The way he stared at her legs, the way he followed her with his eyes like a dog on a leash. The way he smirked when she spoke, like she was a prize he hadn’t won yet.
This wasn’t justice. It was punishment. And Eudora was going to burn Malika to the ground just to stake her claim.
Vera’s hands curled into fists. She wasn’t about to let that happen, but before she could move, Adrian stormed forward and snatched Malika’s pink handbag off the couch.
With a violent motion, he turned the bag upside down and dumped its contents onto the stone floor.
Everything spilled. A broken lipstick. A bent hairbrush. A folded drawing of a dragon in heels. A tiny silver photo of Malika and her younger sisters. And her mirror—her favourite mirror, the one with the blue mosaic rim her mother gave her before Hogwarts—shattered on impact.
Glass exploded across the stones like crystal rain.
“No!” Malika gasped, dropping to her knees.
Adrian was shouting now, red-faced, finger jabbing wildly.
“Where is it?!” he roared. “Where’d you hide it, huh?! Down your sock? In your hair? Give it back, you filthy little—”
He lunged violently, trying to search her.
“Back off!” Cedric bellowed, slamming his arm between them, pushing Adrian hard in the chest. “You’ve lost your mind!”
Adrian shoved him back. But before he could strike, Cassius stepped in, hand raised calmly.
“Enough.”
His eyes then locked on Malika—still crouched on the floor. And with venom sharp enough to kill, he spat the words no one expected to hear.
“You low-born Paki rat,” he hissed. “You think you can dance your way into our circles? With your curry stink and charity robes? You’re just a filthy little mudblood. That’s all you’ll ever be. Give back the ring, or we'll ruin you."
Malika’s shoulders were shaking now—not with fear, but rage. Her eyes filled, her lip trembling, but she didn’t look away. Instead, she stood up, and looked him straight in the eye.
“Fuck you.”
Cassius let out a low chuckle. A cruel, twisted sound. Then, without warning, he slapped her across the face.
She stumbled back and fell, her cheek blooming red, her earring tearing as she hit the ground.
And that—that—was when something inside Vera died.
Her breath went still. Her vision whited out. Her body moved before her brain could.
She launched forward—and in one wild, breathless second, her fist collided with Cassius’s jaw so hard he crumpled to the floor.
Gasps.
Screams.
But she didn’t stop.
She climbed on top of him, fists raining down in a storm of fury and spit and blood. She punched, she clawed, she screamed—her rage raw and feral. Her hands tore at his collar, desperate to strangle the hate right out of him.
But Cassius had been waiting.
His elbow cracked into her ribs with brutal precision, and she flew backwards, spine slamming against the floor with a sickening thud. The air fled her lungs, but before she could recover, he seized her foot and began dragging her toward him like prey.
Her fingers clawed at the stone floor, searching blindly, frantically—until they closed around something sharp.
A shard of Malika’s shattered mirror.
And in the breath between terror and wrath, Vera made the choice that would mark her life forever.
Notes:
Chapter's song: Fade to Black - Metallica
Chapter 87: No More Tears
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Sunday, March 15, 1992
Everything was a blur.
Voices turned to static. Movement became smears of light and shadow. Vera's own breath sounded like it came from somewhere far away, someone else’s lungs.
She looked up. Faces swam in front of her like ghosts through water.
Cedric was frozen, his hand halfway to his wand. Angelina stood motionless, her mouth slightly open. Malika had stopped crying. She was staring too, her breath caught somewhere in her throat. Tommy's face was blank.
Then she turned her head to the other side of the room.
Eudora was sobbing hysterically, clutching Adrian’s sleeve and shaking. Jane had buried her face into Miles’s chest, and he held her with one arm, his own face carved with disbelief.
And then—
Ryu.
He just stood there, across the room, his face pale and his eyes so wide—so full of confusion and devastation—that it made her wish she could rip her heart out and crush it in her own hand.
She blinked, slowly, like surfacing from a dream. Then looked down. The shard of mirror was still in her grip. Bloody. Dripping.
That’s when she realized. That’s when the blur became focus. She looked up and her eyes found Cassius.
He was sitting on the floor, one hand pressed to his right eye—blood oozing between his fingers. The other hand hung at his side, limp. He wasn’t screaming. He wasn’t cursing. He wasn’t calling her names.
He was just... staring.
Staring at her like he didn’t know her anymore. Like he had never known her. Like he couldn’t believe she’d done this. That she had it in her.
And Vera...
She wasn’t scared. She wasn’t shaking. Or pleading. She stared right back at him, her chin raised, her bloodied fingers twitching at her sides.
And in that silence, she told him everything.
You’ve hurt me. You choked me. You spat on me. And I let it slide. I let it pass. I tried to survive you.
But hitting Malika? That was the line you've crossed.
Not only because Malika was my friend. Not only because she didn't deserve it. But because it was her. It was Malika you had hurt.
Her whole body shook—not from fear, not from regret—but from decision. Cassius had made his choice. And so had she. If he wanted cruelty, she'd give it. If he wanted violence—she’d be the storm.
And if he wanted war?
A war he shall fucking get.
The doors to the common room suddenly burst open, and in swept Professor Snape, his eyes scanning the wreckage with lethal precision.
His gaze landed instantly on Cassius—pale face streaked with blood, one eye hidden beneath a shaking hand. Then they flicked to Vera, and in them, she saw something colder than fury. He didn’t ask what happened. He didn’t need to. His eyes found the glass in her hand, and that was all.
“Drop it,” he hissed.
Her fingers unfurled slowly, and the bloodied shard of mirror clattered to the stone floor.
A second later, his hand snapped around her arm like a manacle, and he yanked her to her feet so fast she nearly tripped over her own shoes.
Then he turned to Adrian and Miles. “Get Warrington to the hospital wing. Now.”
Adrian hesitated, looking stunned and suddenly smaller. Miles didn’t say a word. They each took one of Cassius’s arms, lifting him gently.
Snape turned on his heel and dragged Vera violently out of the room. They moved down corridor after corridor, her arm locked in his tight grip, her steps stumbling to keep up. He didn’t speak. Not once. Didn’t look at her. Just pulled her behind him like she was some rabid dog that needed locking up. They reached the lower dungeons, and he flicked his wand at a small iron door, then threw her inside.
She landed hard, her knees scraping the floor. She caught herself on trembling palms and stayed there, head bowed, hair falling around her face. Snape stood at the door for one long, seething moment. And then, without even looking at her, he said—
“Right where you belong.”
The dungeon's door slammed shut, and the darkness took her. She just sat there—knees to chest, ribs aching, face blank.
But she didn't cry. She wasn't even sad. She knew this was coming. It was inevitable, and she accepted it. Yet still, when the darkness fully consumed her, she felt the weight of everything.
It wasn’t just tonight. It never had been. This wasn’t about Cassius, not really. It wasn’t even about Malika. Not only.
It was about all of it.
The lies she told. The truths she buried. The love she lost. The way she’d spent the entire year pretending she wasn’t hurting. Pretending she wasn’t angry. Pretending she wasn’t one mistake away from collapse.
She thought of the letters from Gringotts. The first blow. And that word—Blacklisted—rang like a curse. As if survival was her sin.
She remembered Percy’s warnings. The hesitation in his voice when he mentioned Felix. The way he tried to protect them both, even when she refused to be protected.
She remembered the moment she broke. The moment she stomped on her pride and asked Felix for money. She remembered how he turned her down.
She remembered Ryu’s offer—the quiet desperation in his eyes, the softness in his voice as he offered her a way out. And how it hurt to see herself reduced to a transaction.
How it hurt more that he’d meant it kindly.
She remembered Halloween. Cassius’s cruelty. The game he played with her heart just because he couldn't stand that she was happy. That she was chosen.
She remembered Ryu—how much she wanted him. How deeply it tore at her to need someone who came from a world that had hurt hers. How it twisted her up, trying to hate the name without hating the boy.
And then—
Donnie. Fired without reason.
Birdy. Eyes heavy with fatigue, breath shallow from working too hard for too little.
Her mother. Lost. Gone.
Kaya. Giving up her own father because the system made it unbearable to love him.
Miss Nelson’s letters, smudged with worry, written in the ink of someone who still believed Vera had a chance.
And the lake. She remembered the lake.
The freezing pull of the water, the way it wrapped around her like arms, like a promise. The weightlessness of almost-letting-go. Of almost being with her father again. How peaceful it had felt. How quiet. How tempting.
And finally—
She remembered her uncle, Cygnus.
"He doesn't wish to speak to you. Ever."
She felt those words settle in her chest like stone. Because somehow, that was the one that hurt the most.
It all lived in her now. Not memories—wounds. Still open. Still bleeding.
And all of it—every bruise, every cold morning, every whisper behind her back, every time she was made to feel small or poor or unwanted—had been pressing against her like a weight on her chest.
Until tonight.
Tonight it all exploded.
And the girl who had spent a lifetime learning how to survive—Had finally learned how to fight back. Even if it made her a monster in their eyes. Even if it made her one of them. Her family.
She pressed her forehead to her knees, her breath fogging up the damp fabric of her robes.
“Maybe I really am like them,” she whispered to no one.
But even as she said it, her jaw clenched. Because she had never once struck someone who didn’t deserve it. She had never spat slurs. Never torn someone down for the thrill of power. Never left a friend to bleed.
She wasn’t like them. She was something new. Something terrifying.
And it made her feel free.
She leaned back, and let her mind drift. Maybe they’d expel her. Maybe they’d send her home. Maybe to Azkaban. But she didn’t care. Not at all. If defending Malika meant being caged like an animal, then so be it. She would never regret it. Not the blood. Not the fight. Not taking Cassius' eye out.
Because something had broken that night—something inside her that had spent years trying to fit in, to impress, to belong.
And now?
Now she didn’t care about belonging. She cared about justice. Even if it came with a cost. Even if it meant no one would ever look at her the same again.
She closed her eyes, and for the first time in what felt like hours, she let her head fall sideways against the cold wall. Her breathing slowed. The ache dulled. The world faded.
And in the darkness of that little stone cell, she fell asleep.
Monday, March 16, 1992
Some time later, a sharp thwack landed squarely on her forehead.
She jerked awake with a grunt, blinking against the stream of sunlight that filtered faintly through the high dungeon bars. Her head pounded, her limbs stiff from the cold stone beneath her.
Another thump came, this time ricocheting off the wall beside her.
"Oi! You’re meant to aim for her head," Fred whispered loudly.
"I did aim for her head!" George hissed. "It’s not my fault her hair’s some kind of helmet."
"She’s got that tragic heroine look now." Fred joked. "All she needs is a violin."
Vera groaned softly and pushed the mess of curls from her face, her fingers brushing the small bump forming on her forehead. Slowly, she sat up and turned toward the source of the voices.
Behind the iron-barred door stood the twins, their freckled faces pressed comically against the bars. Their usual mischief was still there, but buried beneath it was a raw, unmistakable worry.
And when she met their eyes—tired, puffy, but still alight—she smiled.
“You two look stupid..."
Fred grinned. “Well, we did consider bringing a tunnel-digging gnome, but turns out they unionised.”
"Are you okay?” George asked.
She nodded. “I’ve been better.”
Fred’s smile faltered slightly. “We were really worried, you know. Thought Snape might’ve… I don’t know, turned you into a cauldron or something.”
“Or fed you to his enchanted leeches,” George added with a shudder. “The man’s unhinged.”
“McGonagall gave him hell for it."
Vera smiled. “She did?”
“Oh, absolutely,” Fred said proudly. “We heard the whole thing. Eavesdropped on them with this little gadget we’ve been working on—tiny Extendable Ear rigged to a Sneakoscope. We call it the Whisper Worm.”
“Patent pending,” George added, tapping his nose.
“She had no idea where he took you,” Fred continued, more serious now. “None of us did. She kept demanding answers, and all he’d say was that you were being ‘properly punished for what you did.’”
“It made her furious,” George said. “She’s been searching for you all morning.”
“But we found you first.” Fred grinned, eyes gleaming. “Naturally.”
Vera blinked, touched. “Did you use the map?”
“You’re still hidden from it,” Fred said.
She tilted her head. “Then how did you find me?”
They looked at each other, then back at her with matching grins.
“We didn’t sleep,” George replied dramatically. “We spent all night searching the castle.”
“Every corridor, every dusty cupboard, every spider-infested staircase. I think I swallowed a web at one point.”
“We even checked the third-floor girls’ lavatory.”
“Twice.”
Vera couldn’t help it.
Her eyes stung, and her throat tightened—but she smiled anyway. Warm and crooked and full of something she hadn’t felt in days.
“I can’t believe you did that,” she whispered.
Fred gave her a look. “Vera. Of course we did.”
She shifted closer to the bars. “Is Malika okay?”
Fred’s smile softened. “Poor thing's still in shock."
“Everyone is,” George added, glancing at her hand—the one that had held the glass.
"And… Sarah?" She asked. "Is she mad her party was ruined?”
George snorted. “Not a bit. She’s only upset you didn’t fully pop his eye out so she could keep it in a jar.”
Vera let out a short laugh. It caught in her throat halfway and disappeared into silence.
The twins exchanged a look. They were waiting for her to ask about him. About Cassius.
But she didn’t.
“Warrington’s gonna be okay, too." Fred said. "He’s in the hospital wing. They're saying he might lose some vision, but—he’ll live.”
Vera didn’t react. Didn’t even blink. Because frankly, she didn’t give a shit.
Just then, footsteps echoed down the corridor. Maddie, Cedric, and Tommy appeared behind the twins, breathless and slightly flushed.
“Vera!” Maddie gasped, rushing to the bars. “Are you alright? Did he hurt you? Did Snape—”
“I’m fine,” Vera said softly, pushing herself to her feet. “Really.”
Cedric’s eyes scanned her from head to toe. He didn’t speak, but the storm on his face said enough.
Tommy just grinned and gave a low whistle.
“That..." He said. ".. was legendary.”
She raised an eyebrow. "Was it?"
“The glass. The lunge. The rage in your eyes. Pure Shakespearean tragedy.”
She smirked, flipping her hair back dramatically. “Thank you, I do my own stunts.”
Fred snorted. “We should sell tickets to your next fight.”
“Or replicas of the glass shard,” George added. “Vera Black’s Official Eye-Popper. Comes with a signed jar by the legend herself."
Tommy then reached through the bars and shoved something into her hand—a sandwich and two bars of chocolate.
“Fuel up. You’ve got a prison reputation to maintain now.”
She burst out laughing. “Right. Can’t run the cell block on an empty stomach.”
George tapped the bars proudly. “Honestly, you’re a legend now. Fred and I took bets on who’d crack first this year, and it wasn’t you.”
“I had my money on Seamus,” Fred whispered. “He’s been suspiciously close to combustion since September.”
They laughed, and for a brief moment—it all felt surreal. Like maybe this was just a strange sleepover in some ridiculous alternate universe.
But then Cedric snapped.
“Enough!”
The laughter died.
“You think this is funny?”
Vera blinked at him, munching on the sandwich. “A little.”
He stepped closer. “What you did was seriously dangerous, Vee.”
She shrugged. “He called Malika a slur. Then fucking slapped her.”
“So you blinded him?”
"Yes." She said without hesitation. “And I’d do it again.”
Maddie and Cedric stared at her, stunned.
But Tommy?
Tommy looked proud.
And that—more than anything—made Vera feel like maybe she hadn’t lost herself. Maybe she’d just finally found the part of her that had been buried under silence, fear, and shame.
Maddie shifted uncomfortably, lowering her voice. “There are whispers… in the Slytherin common room. Warrington’s dad is coming.”
Vera looked up, chewing slowly. “So?”
"He wants you expelled, Vee.”
Vera froze, the sandwich suddenly heavy in her hands. She stared down at the crumbs like they might offer her a solution.
She didn’t want to leave. Not Hogwarts. Not after the pain she endured just to find some kind of belonging. She didn’t want to lose the Great Hall’s warmth or the scent of parchment in the library. She didn’t want to lose her friends.
But a small, strange part of her—some buried corner of herself that had learned to survive long before Hogwarts—whispered that maybe she’d be okay. That even if they stripped it all away, she’d still be standing. That she had roots outside this place too.
She looked up at Maddie again and smiled.
“I know,” she said quietly. “And I’m sorry it had to come to this. But Warrington got what he deserved. And this wasn’t just about him.”
Everyone was watching her now—careful, curious, almost holding their breath.
“It’s about everyone like him." She continued. "Everyone who thinks they can throw a slur, call someone a mudblood, or threaten them—and walk away untouched. It’s about every student who’s ever been made to feel like their blood decides their worth.”
She then looked at Maddie. “I know you still haven’t forgiven me for dating Ryu. And that’s fair. But if there’s one thing I learned from being near his world… it’s that hate doesn’t stay still. It grows.”
Her voice was calm now. Deadly calm. “It starts with a slur. Then a false accusation. Then getting someone expelled. And then—‘cleansing the school.’ Getting rid of the ‘undesirables.’ That’s the world they want. So what I did? It wasn’t just about stopping Warrington. It was about sending a message—to all of them. That the next time they think about hurting someone like Malika… there will be blood.”
They all were silent for a moment. The kind of silence that settles when truth has been spoken—unapologetic, heavy, and absolute.
“So you don’t regret it?” Cedric finally asked. “Even if it ruins you?”
Vera met his gaze without flinching.
"Never."
The group stayed with her as long as they could, filling the cold dungeon cell with laughter and warmth, trying to stretch their presence like a blanket over her bruised spirit. But eventually, the bells rang, and they had to go.
She understood. Life at Hogwarts didn’t stop because she was locked away.
But more friends came by during the lunch break—Patty with a warm pasty, Sarah with a small blue beetle she said was “good luck.” Even Angelina showed up, muttering something about how the tarantula party wasn’t half as fun without someone punching a racist in the face.
They made her laugh. They reminded her that not everyone had turned their back. That she was still loved.
But once they left, the dungeon grew cold again, and the silence stretched. She began to count the minutes. Then the hours. Waiting. For Snape. For her punishment. For whatever came next.
She sat there thinking, spiraling through the worst possibilities. What would happen to her? Would she be forced to face David Warrington? And if so, would she be able to survive him?
She reached into her pocket, searching for the chocolate bar Tommy had given her earlier—a small comfort, a little anchor. But her fingers touched something else instead.
She pulled it out slowly, then froze.
The crow.
She hadn’t seen it in ages, had nearly forgotten it existed. It wasn’t supposed to be there—she was sure of that. But here it was again, quiet and unassuming, as if it had been watching.
She stared at it, the little obsidian figure glinting in the low light. Thoughts came rushing in: her family’s name, their legacy, the blood in her veins. Would they be ashamed of her? Or proud? Would they understand what she did?
In that spiral, an idea took shape. Clear. But dangerous.
When her friends returned later that day, she barely let them speak before turning to Alicia.
"I need you to do something for me,” she said quietly. “Go to my dorm. Bottom of the suitcase, under the robes I never wear. There’s something I need. Something I should’ve thrown away, but… didn’t.”
Alicia raised an eyebrow but didn’t argue. She left and returned not long after, clutching the item with a furrowed brow.
“What are you trying to do?” she asked.
Vera took it gently from her hands—the brooch. The one Cassius had given her months ago. Black enamel. A crow holding a rose with its peak.
She stared at it for a long moment. Then, with a slow and steady hand, she pinned it to her chest.
“I'm trying to win,” she said, her voice low but firm.
Alicia didn’t ask more. Maybe she knew better. Or maybe she was scared of the answer.
Once she was alone again, Vera looked down at the brooch, feeling the weight of it—not just the metal, but everything it stood for. A symbol of her family's legacy. A weapon for her future.
She smiled. proudly.
Let the game begin.
It was afternoon when she heard footsteps, the jangle of keys, and a wheezing breath. Mr. Filch appeared in the doorway like a gravedigger, keys swinging from his belt, eyes narrowed with sadistic glee.
“On your feet, girl,” he grunted.
She rose, spine stiff. He grabbed her by the arm, his knuckles digging into her skin as he dragged her out of the dungeon. They climbed staircase after staircase until they reached the familiar corridor. But instead of being led in quietly, she found her entire class gathered outside the door of Snape’s office.
Patty gave her a thumbs-up behind her back. Cedric offered a lopsided smile. Tommy nodded firmly, as if to say you’ve got this. Fred and George stood near the wall, holding what looked like a tangled mess of string and brass knobs—the Whisper Worm, no doubt. Fred gave her a wink, while George tilted the device slightly, as if to say we’ll be listening. Their grins were light, but their eyes were sharp. They had her back.
But the poshlanders only stared—cold and detached.
Ryu stood a little apart from the others, as if unsure where he belonged. The moment their gazes locked, her breath caught. There was devastation in his face, raw and quiet, like he couldn’t quite believe she was the same girl he loved. Like he was still waiting for her to wake up and be someone else.
Filch shoved the door open with a grunt. “Yer welcome,” he sneered, and gave her one last push.
Inside, she was met with the dim flicker of torchlight and the stale scent of old parchment and potion vapors.
Professor Snape was sitting on the edge of his desk, arms crossed, his black eyes fixed on her with unmistakable disdain. But he was the only professor there.
The absence of the others struck her like a slap. No Professor McGonagall in her tartan robes, pursed lips and quiet fury. No Flitwick trying to lighten the mood with careful optimism. Not even Sprout, who had always offered her a kind glance, or Dumbledore who usually couldn’t stay out of a fight if it involved a student he believed in.
They weren’t here.
Maybe McGonagall was too disappointed. Maybe the others were too hurt, or worse—indifferent. Maybe they all wanted her gone, too.
She swallowed the lump rising in her throat and stood firm, shoulders squared, refusing to give anyone the satisfaction.
Refusing to give Cassius the satisfaction.
He was already there, standing beside Professor Snape’s desk with his hands clasped neatly behind his back. His face was pale, his lip split. His right eye—the one she’d slashed—was covered in thick gauze, still slightly red at the edges. The rest of him was perfectly put together, of course. He wouldn’t dare come undone, even now.
He didn’t say anything when she entered. But as she stepped further into the room, the light caught on the crow brooch pinned to her chest. His brow furrowed ever so slightly, but as their eyes met, his gaze sharpened into a glare.
She didn’t shrink. She lifted her chin, slow and steady, and glared back.
But then came a voice. Thick and syrupy, oozing arrogance and new money.
“There she is.”
Her heart gave one hard, hateful thud.
Because sitting at Snape’s desk like he owned the place was a bald, red-faced man with a thick neck and eyes that gleamed with petty cruelty.
Vera didn’t need an introduction. She knew who he was. The face behind the name. The mouth behind the politics. The hand behind every whispered threat and every ruined life.
David fucking Warrington.
His robes were clearly expensive, but wore him rather than the other way around—too tight at the collar, too stiff in the shoulders, as though he’d seen power once and decided to dress like it ever since.
He didn’t carry the quiet confidence of someone truly important; he mimicked it, badly, like a child playing king. He had the air of someone who mistook fear for respect, who imitated nobility without ever understanding it.
Everything about him reeked of borrowed power, as if he had spent years watching real men command rooms and believed all it took was volume and velvet. And yet, beneath the pretense, was a sneer that told her he enjoyed having it, even if it was fake. Especially if it meant crushing someone like her.
He stood slowly, and walked toward her. Up close, he reeked of cologne and cigar smoke. He stopped just before her and looked her up and down.
“Merlin, you really do have Lucretia’s face,” he muttered. “And clearly her manners, too.”
Vera didn’t blink.
"Your great aunt once spat in my father’s drink at a gala." He carried on. "She claimed he held her hand too long while kissing it. No sense of diplomacy, that one. But then, the Blacks never did—just arrogance dressed up as principle, and vanity mistaken for strength.”
“Shall I remind you who my family are before you speak of them like that?” she said coolly. “Whatever you think of them, they shaped the world you’re so desperate to matter in.”
David gave a humorless chuckle.
“Oh, she’s got bite." He said. "How adorable. Regulus’s bastard, right? Or is it one of Sirius’s? I can’t keep track of which Black disgraced the family name more. They’re all dust now, anyway.”
Her hand twitched at her side, but she didn’t move.
“Of course,” he added, “you’re not really one of them, are you? Not in any meaningful way. You’re just a leftover. Black by name, Rosier by blood—but raised in filth, forgotten by the very people you’re clinging to. A pedigree like that, wasted on someone dragged up in a Muggle slum. Truly shameful."
He leaned closer. “I’d ask what gave you the courage to assault a pureblood heir, but I suppose orphanhood and poverty will do that to a girl. No one ever taught you where you belong.”
Then he straightened and turned sharply to Snape, his voice rising.
“And you—you’re lucky my brother-in-law is abroad at the moment. If Lucius were here, he wouldn’t tolerate his nephew being mauled in the Slytherin common room like some street brawl!"
Snape’s expression barely changed. “Mr. Warrington, let us not make this into—”
“No, Severus. Don’t you dare brush this aside. This girl—this filthy creature—attacked Cassius in front of everyone. You call yourself head of Slytherin House? Then explain why one of your students was being dragged through blood while the other walked untouched.”
“She will be disciplined—”
“She’ll be expelled,” David snapped. “And if she’s not, I will take this straight to the Board. Lucius will want to hear every detail. You know how protective he is of Cassius. He won’t let this go unpunished.”
He tilted his head toward Vera again with a sneer.
“She’s unhinged. You know that, don’t you? The way she attacked him… it was feral. Not just reckless, but sadistic. If Hogwarts can’t control the kind of students it admits these days, then it shouldn’t admit them at all.”
“She had a weapon,” Cassius added quietly from the side. “She cut me on purpose.”
“She maimed him,” David said. “In front of the entire class.”
“She defended someone,” Vera said quietly.
Snape’s head snapped toward her, but she didn’t care.
“She defended someone who was being screamed at." She added. "Who was being accused of stealing without proof. Who was being slapped for no reason.”
David turned back to her. “And you think you're some vigilante?”
“I was protecting my friend.”
“That doesn’t justify gouging my son's eye out!"
"It does to me."
“You assaulted him!” He snapped. “You mutilated his face in front of dozens of students. You humiliated him. And in doing so, you disrespected the name Warrington, the name Malfoy, and insulted every parent who sends their child to this school expecting some standard of civility!”
“Is that what you call what he did?” She said. “Civility?”
“You’ll speak only when addressed, Black.” Snape suddenly said.
“He called Malika a filthy slur, professor. He accused her of stealing. He slapped her. In front of all of us. Just because she's a muggleborn!"
Cassius shifted again, and she could feel the tension roll off him.
“She was crying,” she said, louder now. “He broke her mirror. He threw her things on the floor. That's the truth—”
“You don’t understand how this world works!" David barked. "You think truth matters? You think your sob story about mirrors and Muggleborns means anything to the Board? I’ve donated half this school’s budget. Your headmistress won’t sneeze without my say-so.”
He paused, inches away now, his breath hot and foul as it washed over her cheek.
“You’re leaving Hogwarts. And that is final."
“You think I’m afraid of being expelled?" She shot back. "I’ve been thrown out of many places. But at least now, I’ll be leaving for something I believe in.”
David was livid now.
“Let me be clear, Mr. Warrington," she said with a sharp smile. "I don't regret it. Not even in the slightest. And if I had the chance... I’d do it again.”
That did it.
His eyes flashed. And without warning—his hand whipped across her face.
The force of the slap turned her head sideways. The sound echoed off the stone walls.
She stumbled, one hand clutching her cheek, blood already pooling along her bottom lip. Her ears rang. Her vision swam. She had braced herself for ridicule, for punishment, even for expulsion—but not this. Not a grown man striking her like a misbehaving dog.
The silence that followed wasn’t silence at all—it was a roar. A rush of blood in her ears. The ghost of the slap still echoing off the walls like thunder in a crypt.
And then the thought hit her.
Her entire class was just outside. Fred and George with their listening device.
They must have heard it.
The crack of skin against skin, the way she staggered, the awful stillness that followed. She could feel their presence like a pressure against the door, like held breath. She imagined their faces—shocked, furious, afraid.
A fresh wave of heat surged behind her eyes. Not from pain. But from the humiliation.
She lifted her gaze, her eyes wide and tearful—and met Cassius’s. And for the first time, his hatred was gone.
He just looked terrified.
And in that moment, they weren’t enemies anymore. They were just children. Hurt. Broken. Children.
She could see it clearly now. Cassius hadn’t become cruel out of nature. He’d been taught. Molded. Threatened into it. She’d known him to bite with words and fists, but this? This violence? It wasn’t his. It was borrowed.
His lone eye was glassy. His fingers twitched as if they wanted to help, but didn’t know how. He looked so small now, stripped of his smirk, his posture, his pride.
For a flickering second, something inside her cracked. Not pity. But a bitter, painful understanding.
I shouldn't have taken his eye, she thought. I should’ve taken his father’s.
Snape stepped forward, outrage creeping into his voice. “Mr. Warrington, you cannot hit a student!”
“Don’t tell me how to discipline a mouthy brat." David shot back. "This one’s been asking for it.”
Snape lingered, his hands stiff at his sides. Then, strangely, he stepped back. A long pause stretched as he studied Vera—her hand over her face, her mouth bleeding, her chest rising and falling fast.
For a flicker of a second, his eyes softened. But he said nothing. And it broke her.
But she would never show it. Especially not now.
David sat back in the chair, smug and satisfied, and reached for a glass of water from the desk.
But he didn’t even get to lift it halfway.
Because Vera reached out, yanked the glass from his hand, and without blinking—spat the blood from her mouth right into it.
The liquid turned pink, swirling and thick. She set the glass back on the desk with all the quiet dignity she had left.
"Tell me," she said hoarsely. “Did your father drink my aunt’s spit… or did he try to hit her too?”
Cassius turned away, unable to look. Snape stared at the glass, shocked.
And David?
He looked furious.
In a flash, he was on his feet, knocking the chair backwards. His hand shot forward and grabbed her by the collar of her robes, yanking her upright so hard her feet nearly left the floor.
“You little bastard,” he hissed, spit flying from his lips. “You think you can humiliate me?!"
"I'm a Black." She said through gritted bloody teeth. “It’s my duty to humiliate the likes of you.”
His hand lifted again, curled and ready to strike—
“Let her go, Mr. Warrington.”
The voice came from the doorway—cool, cutting, and unmistakably lethal.
Professor McGonagall stood in the frame, her eyes like daggers, her robes bristling as if even the fabric shared her fury.
But David didn’t release Vera.
“Do not make me repeat myself,” McGonagall said, stepping forward now, her voice low and dangerous. “Let. Her. Go.”
“She attacked my son,” he snapped, still gripping Vera’s collar. “She mutilated him! She—”
“She is a child,” McGonagall cut in sharply. “And you are a grown man who just struck her!"
"It's called discipline."
“No, it's a blatant violation of school policy. Besides, Miss Black should not be here without a guardian. This is not a disciplinary meeting—it’s an ambush.”
“What guardian?" David laughed. "Her filthy Muggle matron who can’t even be summoned onto school grounds?”
“Are you taking advantage of her situation? Using her vulnerability as an excuse to abuse her?”
“Spare me the dramatics."
"You should have waited for her guardian's arrival."
"She’s a Black." He sneered. "She doesn't have guardians. Just a family tree full of corpses.”
Before McGonagall could respond, a deep commanding voice rose from the shadows.
“You're forgetting yourself, Warrington.”
Everything in the room froze.
The temperature dropped like a stone. Cassius shrunk, visibly paling. David immediately dropped Vera as if she had burned him. Snape stiffened beside the desk, his face drained of all color, lips slightly parted in dread.
And then—
Clink.
The sound of a cane striking stone.
Vera turned slowly. The cane’s handle caught the light first—a golden crow’s skull, hollow-eyed, gleaming.
Then came the hand. Gloved in soft leather. Then the coat, long and black, tailored sharp to a slim figure. And finally, the man himself stepped into the room.
He looked like he’d been carved from shadow and bone. Tall, wiry, elegant in a way that made everyone else seem clumsy. His suit was immaculate—obsidian-black with a dark waistcoat embroidered in faint silver thread, the glint of a pocket watch chain at his hip.
His face was sharp-boned and severe, high forehead, hollow cheeks, narrow nose, lips like folded parchment. A thin scar ran from his jawline to the base of his neck, half-hidden beneath his collar.
His hair was pale ash, slicked back immaculately, not a strand out of place. And his eyes—his eyes were a storm of grey and green, cold and dissecting.
David slowly turned, his mouth open—already forming the start of an apology.
“My lord,” he stammered. “I—of course—I didn’t know you were—”
But the man’s gaze didn’t soften.
“It takes a rare kind of arrogance to speak ill of my kin,” he said, walking forward.
Vera’s heart was pounding. Her lip still throbbed, blood now dry on her chin.
This can’t be, she thought, dizzy. This can’t be real.
She glanced at Snape, who looked like he wanted to vanish into the wall. At Cassius, whose eyes were wide with something bordering on awe.
And then at the stranger who had called her kin. At the crow-headed cane, the haunted face, the stormy eyes that flicked once in her direction and then back to the others.
Then McGonagall stepped forward, her voice cold and clear:
“Allow me to introduce Miss Black’s guardian,"
Vera could barely breathe.
"Lord Cygnus Black.”
Notes:
Chapter's song: No more tears - Ozzy Osbourne
Chapter 88: Black II
Notes:
Sorry for the wait, but once you dive into this chapter, you’ll understand. I had to take a minute (or, well… several) to untangle my thoughts, because I simply cannot survive without a good plot twist or two. And the Black family? Oh, they’re a whole circus to write.
This chapter is a long one, so grab your drink of choice, get comfy, and prepare yourself. Things are about to get twisty—in the best way.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Part one: The trial
Monday, March 16, 1992
The silence that followed McGonagall’s words was absolute.
Vera’s gaze locked on the man before her, and for a heartbeat, her mind fractured into a thousand spiraling thoughts. Lord Cygnus Black. Her great-uncle. A man she had long believed wanted nothing to do with her existence. Yet here he stood—as real as the pounding of her heart.
He moved. One measured step, then another, the tap of his cane ringing out like a judge’s gavel. He stopped just in front of her, and for a moment she forgot everyone else in the room. His eyes, grey-green and quiet as winter, settled on her face. He studied the red smear at her cheekbone, then pulled out a silk handkerchief from his coat. She flinched as he lifted it.
“Easy, little bird,” he murmured.
With infinite care, he dabbed the blood from the corner of her mouth. The room had fallen into stillness, but in her chest, her heart thudded like thunder. When he was done, his gloved hand lingered just beside her jaw. And he just stared at her. That gaze pinned her in place like a relic beneath glass. And in that moment, she could see it: the shape of her family in him.
You look so much like your father.
She gasped, staggering back a step. Because his voice didn't come from the room, but inside her own mind. She almost fell, but he steadied her with the gentlest touch to her elbow.
I'm here for you, came the voice again, deep and velvet-smooth, curling around her thoughts like smoke.
She couldn’t quite believe what she was happening. Perhaps her mind was playing tricks on her. Perhaps David’s slap had rattled something loose. But she heard it. Swore she did.
Cygnus lowered his hand with deliberate grace, then turned to face the others.
“I was summoned for a matter concerning my ward,” he said coolly. “Instead, I arrive to find her bloodied and humiliated."
David opened his mouth.
“That was not an invitation to speak.”
David closed it.
“You forget that Vera is not only a student of this school, but a member of the House of Black—recognized, named, and protected under the full force of magical and legal authority. And I will not have my niece treated like an animal to be cornered and beaten.”
Vera’s throat tightened. He hadn’t just come. He wasn't just defending her. He was claiming her.
David’s face glistened with sweat. “I didn’t mean—of course not—I had no idea—you weren’t—no one told me—”
Cygnus tilted his head, a gesture almost birdlike in its sharp precision.
“And if someone had told you, Warrington?" He said. "Would that have changed the way you dared to lay a hand on her? I think not. Cowards rarely check whose blood they insult before they strike.”
David flinched, but before he could reply, Cygnus turned his gaze to Snape.
“And you,” he said, his tone colder still. “You, Severus, who pride yourself on discipline and control. How could you allow this disgrace to unfold under your very nose? I expected better from a man who knows the value of restraint.”
Snape’s dark eyes flickered with anger, but under Cygnus’ gaze, he simply inclined his head in the faintest of bows.
David, desperate now, grabbed Cassius firmly and held him slightly forward, his grip firm on his son’s shoulders.
“You remember my son, don’t you?” He said, his voice a shaky attempt at confidence. “You were there the day he was born.”
Cygnus’ eyes shifted to Cassius, lingering with a quiet, unnerving stillness.
“Your mother,” he said, “was a gentle soul. Regina was light where this family is shadow. She would have wept to see this.”
Cassius stiffened.
David, sensing the tension, scrambled for footing. “My lord, surely we don’t need to be at odds. We are family by marriage—"
"Do not think that your marriage into the Malfoy line or your gold buys you power here. My family forged its influence with intellect long before you Warringtons learned to hold a wand."
Vera almost smiled. She had spent nights wondering what her family would be like. How someone with the name 'Black' would speak, move, command a room. But this… this was beyond anything she had ever imagined.
David swallowed hard, but desperation made him reckless. “Miss Black—she attacked my son. Without reason. I only seek justice for him. If it was your grandson—attacked like this, you’d—”
“Do not bring my grandson into this!”
The room went cold.
“Vera is Draco’s equal. She is my blood. My kin. And I will not hear her name dragged through filth by a man who hides behind donations and half-baked authority."
David’s hands were trembling now, his bluster evaporating.
“How dare you lay a finger on her,” Cygnus pressed. “How dare you insult my niece and my House with your petty threats! Do not mistake my civility for weakness, Warrington. It is by my will that your family ever found footing in these halls. If you value what remains of your standing, you will never raise your hand or your voice against her again.”
David could only nod, pale and wordless, shrinking beneath his stare.
Cygnus then sat, still as an obelisk, one gloved hand resting atop his crow-handled cane. His gaze drifted over the room, and in the hush that followed his words, time itself seemed to hold its breath.
“Sit.”
They obeyed immediately. Even Snape.
But Vera remained frozen.
“I will not pass judgment,” he said coolly, “until I’ve heard both sides. This matter—whatever it is—will not be reduced to whispers or punishment behind closed doors.”
He turned his gaze first to Vera, then to Cassius. “We will treat this as a formal dispute. Each of you will speak. Present your account. And when you do—speak with the dignity your bloodline once commanded. Understood?”
Cassius hesitated, glancing at his father, but David’s face had gone pale.
“Understood,” he muttered.
Cygnus’ eyes shifted to Vera. “And you, darling?”
She looked up at him with uncertainty—still unsure how any of this was real—but nodded faintly.
Cygnus leaned back, folding his arms as though presiding over a Wizengamot trial.
“Cassius Warrington,” he said. “Begin.”
Cassius straightened. "Your Lordship... It started with a theft. Eudora Dlamini’s ring vanished from her purse. She swore it was Malika Khan who took it. Khan... she’s the bottom of the barrel in our class, my lord. A filthy Muggleborn, and the worst kind at that."
Vera’s fists clenched.
“Adrian Pucey," Cassius continued, "tried to recover the ring, but Khan refused to give it back. She became rather... aggressive. I tried to calm things down, but Khan insulted us all. So... I slapped her lightly."
Snape shifted uncomfortably.
“She provoked me!" Cassius quickly added. "I was merely defending myself. But then Black attacked me like a madman."
“Son…” David’s warning tone cut through the room, but Cassius pressed on.
“She grabbed a shard of glass and slashed my face open.”
“Cassius!” David barked, but the boy’s fury only deepened.
“I’m blind in one eye!” he roared, his voice cracking as he pointed at the bandaged side of his face. “Because of her! She’s not right in the head, my lord. Everyone knows it.”
David gave a nervous, brittle laugh. “Lord Black, my son—he doesn’t know what he’s saying—”
“No, Father, I do know!” Cassius snapped. “She’s insane. And a liar. She lied to all of us. Said she was living with Lady Cassiopeia, when in fact, she grew up in muggle slum. She played my friend Ryu Avery for a fool—had him believing she loved him, just to bleed him of his money.”
“That’s enough!” David barked, but Cassius was beyond reason.
“She broke his heart, and now she’s taken my eye! She’s destroyed me!”
“Cass, stop before I—”
“Look at me, Father!” Cassius cried, his voice breaking. “Just look at me! I’m in pain—I can’t see. I’ll never be the same because of her. She’s ruined my life—just like her family ruined yours!”
David’s fury boiled over. He lunged, hand raised to strike, but Snape moved like a shadow, stepping between them.
“Get out of my way, Severus,” David hissed. “My son needs to learn his place.”
“He has the right to speak his mind,” Snape said firmly. “Without fear or punishment.”
“Severus is right,” Cygnus's voice cut through the chaos. “The boy has spoken his truth. Now…” His piercing gaze turned to Vera. “Now we will hear my niece's.”
Vera opened her mouth, but no sound came out. The idea of speaking—of retelling what happened, here, in front of them—made her throat seize.
“I…”
Her mouth went dry. Her heart was racing. She lowered her eyes.
“I was…”
Be brave, little bird.
Yet again, the words didn’t come from the room. She jolted, eyes flashing up to Cygnus. He lips hadn’t moved. His expression hadn’t changed.
I know it’s difficult, his voice echoed in her mind again, but you are safe now. No matter what you say, I'll stand by you.
Her stomach twisted in disbelief. How was he doing that? Was this even real?
She stared at him, unable to look away. And then he smiled. A warm, proud smile that lit something inside her. As if, just by standing there, she had already done something right. Her throat still burned, her hands trembled faintly at her sides. But that smile… it steadied her. She drew in a breath, lifted her chin, and stood a little taller.
"First of all," she began. “Eudora accused Malika with no proof. And Adrian went through her things without permission. She was crying and begging, but he wouldn't stop. Her tore her things apart, broke her mirror, humiliated her. And when she didn’t confess to something she didn’t do, Warrington stepped in.”
Cygnus raised a brow. “Stepped in?”
“He called her every name you could think of. Muggleborn slurs. Racial slurs. And then he slapped her. So... I hit him. He tried to drag me, choke me, like he’s done before. I defended myself."
“No, you blinded me!” Cassius snapped. “You attacked me over a thief.”
“She’s not a thief,” Vera growled.
“You don't know that.”
“I do know.”
"You weren’t even there when it happened!"
"AND SINCE WHEN DOES A BLACK NEED TO BE ANYWHERE TO KNOW THE TRUTH?!”
The silence was suffocating.
Even Vera herself couldn’t quite believe what she’d said. It felt as though the words had been waiting for years, crouched deep inside her, only to burst free in that single, defiant moment. She risked a glance at Cygnus. He didn’t look surprised. He simply stared at her with those stormy eyes, as if measuring her soul.
Then McGonagall cleared her throat. “From what I understand, this matter originated between Miss Khan and Miss Dlamini—not between these two.” She gestured toward Vera and Cassius. “They acted in their friends’ defense, albeit in ways I do not condone.”
“The issue is not the theft," Snape said. "But the violence used. Miss Black—”
“Mr. Warrington did confess to slapping Miss Khan," McGonagall cut him off with a glare.
“And he will be appropriately punished for his part,” Snape said smoothly. “But the fact remains—Miss Black’s actions were not merely reckless. They were… radical.”
Everyone’s gaze turned to Vera.
They were right. She had gone too far. She knew it. And yet, deep down, she didn’t feel wrong. Not even a little.
She needed to find her words, though. To explain herself before someone else defined her. Her eyes darted to Cygnus. He hadn’t moved, but there was something knowing in his expression.
Speak your mind, darling.
Her eyes fell to the crow brooch at her chest. She had rehearsed this moment again and again on her way to the office, yet now, doubt gnawed at her resolve. Her words would change everything: how others saw her, how she saw herself. She pictured McGonagall’s sorrowful face, imagined her friends just beyond the door and how their expressions might shift once they hear her thoughts. Speaking might cost her everything. But silence would cost her more.
She closed her eyes. Took a breath. Opened them again.
“I did what my nature demanded of me.”
There was no going back now. And so, she went on.
“I may have been raised in Muggle slum, as you so kindly reminded me, Warrington. I grew up without my family, without their gold or protection—but their blood still runs through me. Bastard or not, I am a Black. And with that name comes duty. One I intend to honor till my last breath.”
Her eyes swept across the room, blazing now.
“My ancestors laid the foundations of justice in the wizarding world. The Crows upheld the law for centuries—not for power or praise, but for truth. Their gifts were never a means of control, but a weapon against corruption.”
She turned her gaze toward Snape, then McGonagall. "I know you don’t agree, but I believe in what my dynasty stood for. That every action demands its equal response. An eye for an eye. A tooth for a tooth. Blood for blood. That is the Crow way. Not cruelty—balance."
She drew a steady breath, lifting her chin. “So what I did to Warrington? That was balance. He accused Malika of stealing without proof. He humiliated her. He struck her. That’s not justice. Not by nature, not by law. But I saw his violence with my own eyes. So, my judgment was clear. And my punishment... justified.”
Her gaze locked on Cassius now, sharp as a blade. “And you should thank every star in the sky that I only took your eye. Because by Crow law, for the hand that strikes the innocent—the hand itself must be taken.”
Everyone. Was. Stunned.
Cassius’ good eye quivered, wide with a mixture of fury and fear. David’s face was mottled with blotches of red, his jaw clenching so hard it looked painful.
Snape’s eyes narrowed; he clearly loathed the primitive logic in her words. McGonagall’s expression, however, was far heavier. There was a quiet sadness in her gaze, as though she had once expected better of Vera, and was now—for the first time—truly disappointed.
And then, there was Cygnus.
He said nothing, just watched her, silently measuring her conviction against some ancient, unseen scale only he understood.
Then—almost imperceptibly—he smiled. It wasn’t wide, nor was it soft. But it was real. And for Vera, it meant everything. Because in that flicker of expression was something truly rare: recognition. He saw her. Truly saw her. And what he saw—he didn’t resent. He didn’t reject. He approved. He was proud of her. And that pride, that silent benediction from the last person she ever expected to win over, felt like a crown being placed on her head.
His gaze then swept across the room.
“It is not my place to pass judgment,” he said, “This is your school. Discipline, when warranted, is your responsibility. I am only here to see that my niece is treated with fairness, not favoritism.”
He turned slightly to McGonagall. “Professor?”
McGonagall straightened. “I do not believe Miss Black should be expelled,” she said firmly.
Cassius’ face twisted in outrage, and Snape’s dark eyes narrowed in silent disagreement.
"However," she continued, "her actions were reckless and dangerous. Punishment is necessary. She will serve detention every night until the end of term, and she will assist every professor, in every subject, no matter how menial the task."
“A fair and measured consequence." Cygnus said. "I approve.” His gaze shifted to Snape. “And you, Severus?”
Snape’s voice was like dripping tar. “Mr. Warrington will issue a written and verbal apology to Miss Khan, to be delivered in front of the whole class. He will also pay for all of her broken belongings… including that mirror."
Cassius looked like he wanted to vanish.
“Then everything is settled,” Cygnus said, his tone leaving no room for argument.
He then turned to Cassius. “Now, go to the hospital wing, boy. Have Poppy fix your eye. It is unjust to live with only one when the harm can be undone.”
David stepped forward. “No.”
The single word landed like a crack of thunder.
Cygnus’ head tilted, his eyes narrowing ever so slightly. “No?” he repeated.
“His eye shall remain as it is." David said. "Forever."
“This isn’t a severed hand," Snape intervened. "Eyes can be restored."
At those words, Vera’s heart twisted, though she didn't understand why.
“You would deny your son the healing that magic offers?” Cygnus pressed, his voice now edged with contempt. "Only a fool would insist on permanent maiming when the solution is within reach.”
But David stood his ground. “Let him keep the scar. Let him remember the shame he brought on the Warrington name. That’s the only way he’ll learn.”
“Enough, David!" Snape cut in. "You’re letting your pride speak louder than your reason—”
“He’s my son, Severus, not yours!”
For the first time Cassius flinched as though struck. His single visible eye gleamed with unshed tears, and then, to Vera’s shock, one slipped free and rolled down his pale cheek.
No one said another word. No one dared interfere, though every face showed some trace of discomfort. Vera assumed Cassius would have his eye healed the moment the dust settled. She hadn’t regretted what she did because, in her mind, it wasn’t forever. But now his loss would be permanent. Not because of her… but because of his own father’s cruelty. she wanted to reach out, to say something, anything, but the words wouldn’t come. She met Cassius' eye instead, and in that single gaze, she saw it. The finality.
He was now her enemy. Forever.
Cygnus stood up. "Then it’s all done,” he said. “All… but one thing.”
He turned slowly, his eyes narrowing as they fell once more on Cassius. “Tell me, boy... Have you ever laid a hand on Vera?”
David stepped forward at once. “My son would never do such thing, my lord.”
“I didn’t ask you,” Cygnus replied, not even glancing at him. “I want to hear it from him.”
But Cassius stayed silent.
Cygnus’s gaze shifted to Vera. “Has that boy ever touched you, darling? You said, earlier—he choked you.”
She hadn’t realized he’d caught that. She looked at Cassius—no longer furious, just frightened. Then her gaze shifted to David, who stood stiff and silent.
She couldn’t tell them.
She couldn’t let his own father know the truth—that Cassius had indeed wrapped his hands around her throat. Because David would demand answers. He would want to know why. And she’d have to say it out loud. He would disown him, she thought. Hell, he might even kill him.
Cygnus was still watching her, but She couldn’t say it. She couldn’t let it come from her lips. So she did the only thing she could do.
“No. He never hurt me before.”
A slow exhale escaped David’s chest, like a man pulled back from the edge of a cliff. Cassius blinked, stunned. He didn’t understand why she lied for him. Neither did she.
But Cygnus did not look convinced.
“I’ll ask you once more,” he said. “Has this boy ever laid a hand on you?”
Her voice was iron now. “No.”
He studied her a moment longer, then gave a slow, regal nod. “Then that settles it. Thank you, Professor McGonagall. Professor Snape. Your time and judgment are appreciated. I shall take my leave.”
Then, with a flick of his wrist, he addressed David. “You know the etiquette, Warrington. Leave before me.”
David swallowed thickly, humiliation burning red in his ears. “Of course,” he muttered. “My apologies, Lord Black.”
Without waiting for a reply, he spun toward Cassius, grabbed him roughly by the arm, and dragged him toward the door. His words were hushed, but in the silence of the office, they echoed clearly.
“You shamed me,” he hissed. “You shamed us all.”
Cassius didn’t resist. He simply let himself be pulled away, hollow-eyed and limp, a ghost of his former self.
Vera remained where she stood. Her hands trembled, though she kept them clenched by her sides. Then, gently, she felt a gloved hand rest on her shoulder.
“Come on, darling,” Cygnus said, his voice soft. “It’s over.”
They stepped out of the office and into the corridor, where a sea of students had gathered like a silent tide. Dozens of eyes stared at them. Some with awe. Others with fear. But none with pity. Because they had heard. And now they know. They know what Vera was made of. A girl who spat blood into a glass, who wielded truth like a dagger, who believed violence could be righteous. A girl who wasn’t just Vera. But Vera Black.
And maybe that made her feel ashamed at one point. But today, it didn't. Because it was her truth, and for once, she wouldn’t bury it.
Beside her, Cygnus reached out and gently swept his hand through her hair, smoothing it back with a surprising tenderness.
“Come, little bird,” he said, extending his hand to her. “Take your old uncle on a walk.”
She looked up at him, her lips parting, uncertain at first. But then they curved into a small smile. She took his hand, and together, they began to walk down the corridor. He kept his pace calm and regal, and she matched it, walking by his side as though she had always belonged there. The sea of students parted to let them through, but just before they turned the corner, she glanced over her shoulder.
At Ryu.
He stood apart from the others. Still. Pale. His expression torn between grief and guilt. He had once told her that her uncle wanted nothing to do with her. That her family hates her. That she had no one.
And yet here she was. Hand in hand with Cygnus Black. Fresh from a trial she had just won. Not because she was right, but because she bore a name powerful enough to tilt a room.
Part two: Two Lies, One truth
They wandered the castle for a while, Cygnus speaking softly about the past—of duels in the courtyard, long-forgotten portraits, and professors who once ruled these halls like monarchs.
But Vera barely heard him.
The stone beneath her feet felt unreal. She was walking hand in hand with a man she had been told wanted nothing to do with her. Moments ago, in that office, with his voice steady behind hers and his presence anchoring the room, she had felt something she hadn’t in a long time. Safe.
And it made her bitter.
She could’ve had this a long time ago. But she hadn’t. Because, just like everyone else in her cursed family, he had left her to fend for herself.
And now he's here?
A thousand questions burned in her chest, clawing to be asked. But none made it past the knot in her throat, except:
“Why did you come?”
He stopped mid-sentence, and turned to her.
“Your Headmistress must hold a great deal of affection for you." He said. "She ensured I received her note, demanding my presence. She asked Draco to deliver it. And once I read it, I knew I had to come. I couldn’t… I wouldn’t have you expelled.”
She looked down, heart thudding.
“That’s not what I meant, sir," she whispered. "You said... You never want to talk to me. So, why are you here now?"
He stared at her, confused. “What?”
“Last November... I asked Draco if he could pass a message to you. That I wanted to speak to you. And he came back saying you didn’t want to speak to me. Ever.”
His face twisted in disbelief, then darkened.
“That fool…” he muttered.
“What?”
“My son-in-law,” he hissed. “Lucius. Draco’s letters go through him. He must have intercepted the message. He told you I refused?”
She nodded, still trying to process what she was hearing.
His jaw clenched. “I’ll make sure that idiot learns his place when he comes back from his trip. How dare he speak in my name!”
Vera stared at him, barely breathing. “So... You never said that?”
“Of course not, dear,” he said gently. “I would never do such a thing.”
She didn’t know whether to cry or scream. All this time… she had mourned him like the living mourn the dead. She thought he’d rejected her—cast her aside like so many others had. She thought she was nothing more than another shameful family secret, another scar too deep to look at.
But he hadn’t said it. He never said it.
"But... Why would he do that?" She asked.
“Perhaps… he feared what your presence might do to Draco. Or to Narcissa. Or worse—to the story he's told himself for decades about who matters and who doesn’t. He's a man who only believes in what benefits him. And you, Vera, are something he doesn’t understand. You weren’t raised by us. You weren’t shaped in our image. You are a threat to his well-manicured world."
“But how did he know I lived in the Muggle world? Draco didn’t...”
“Lucius and Narcissa were among the very few who knew the truth about you. I made them swear to silence.”
“But why?” Her voice cracked now, as if it had reached something she hadn’t meant to expose. “Why keep it secret?”
He looked at her for a long moment, as if weighing the years between them.
“Because I wanted you safe, Vera."
Her lips parted slightly, confused. “Safe from what?”
“Our family is not without enemies. Not just political ones. Old blood feuds. Grudges that date back decades. Men who wouldn’t dare strike a Black under protection, but wouldn’t think twice about harming a child left outside the gates.”
He took a slow breath. “If they had known that you were without a name, without ties, they would’ve seen you as a vulnerable target. That’s why I contacted Dumbledore, when you first started school. I asked him to keep your secret too. For your protection.”
“So… you’re saying...”
“I’m saying I’m glad you never told anyone who you really were. Because that silence saved you. Even if you didn’t know it.”
“But I lied,” she whispered. “All these years. I lied to my friends. To my professors. I pretended. That’s not a good thing.”
A faint smile curved on his lips.
“Sometimes,” he said softly, “there is a virtue to lying.”
He began walking again, more slowly this time, and she followed, her mind racing.
"This doesn't make any sense..." She said. "If you wanted me safe, why leave me in the muggle world when you could have claimed me?"
He didn’t answer immediately. Instead, he ran a gloved hand along the stone wall as they passed it, as if grounding himself in the castle’s memory before speaking.
Then, quietly, he said, “It broke my heart to send you away, Vera. But it was necessary.”
“You… sent me away?”
"I was the one who asked Sophie to put you in the Muggle world. She didn’t want to. Not at first. She was fierce about keeping you close. But I made her see reason. We weren’t safe then. None of us were. The war was still rippling through everything. Names were dangerous—especially ours.”
She blinked at him, anger and sorrow tangling in her chest like thorns. “But I kept that name…”
“That... was a terrible mistake. One we didn’t account for. You were supposed to start a new life, with a different name. A different path. We naively thought that it might be enough. But… Nature can be cruel sometimes.”
The truth lay heavy between them.
She had always wondered why no one had come for her. Why the wizarding world had felt like a door she was never meant to open.
Now she knew. They hadn’t abandoned her. They had hidden her. On purpose. For her own good. And yet, somehow, that made it hurt even more.
"You could have told me that before..." She said. "You could have at least written to me to explain it all. Why didn't you?"
“When my wife," he swallowed hard, his gaze falling to the floor. "When Druella died, something in me shattered beyond repair. She was young. She wasn’t even ill—there were no warnings, no signs. One day she was laughing in the garden, and the next… she was gone. She never complained about anything. Not when our daughter Andy left. Not when we lost Reggie. Not when Sophie disappeared. Not even after Bella was sent to Azkaban. She bore everything with quiet strength, and then nature, cruel and thoughtless, took her from me."
He dragged a hand across his face, as though trying to steady himself. “I couldn’t make sense of it. I questioned everything I thought I knew about this world, every belief I’d held. I stopped trusting in reason, in fairness, in the idea that life had any order at all. And the truth is… I didn’t want to face it anymore. I turned away—from the world, from myself. But none of that is an excuse."
He took a long, uneven breath before continuing. “I’ve carried the shame of leaving you for years, Vera. Every time I thought of writing, or even coming to see you… I didn't. I told myself it would be cruel to appear in your life without an explanation. And yet, the explanation was the very thing I didn’t know how to give. How do you tell someone you stayed away because you couldn’t forgive yourself? That every time I imagined looking into your eyes, all I saw was what I’d failed to be for your parents?"
They walked past the Great Hall’s closed doors. From inside, she could hear the faint clatter of cutlery and distant laughter.
"I don’t expect you to forgive me,” Cygnus said. “Or trust me. But I’m here now, Vera. Not because McGonagall asked me to come. Because I wanted to. And if you let me... I will stay.”
Her eyes stayed on the door to the Great Hall, but she didn't respond. She had nothing to say.
They walked the rest of the way in silence. The echo of their footsteps faded as the castle doors swung shut behind them, replaced by the whisper of the early evening breeze in the gardens. Vera sank onto a stone bench, her mind turning over everything he had said—his reasons, his regrets, the way he spoke as if there was still more he was keeping from her.
Cygnus did not sit. Instead, he strolled slowly along the winding path, pausing to admire the dark green hedges and the pale blossoms. His gloved fingers brushed over a flowering vine, his expression almost wistful.
She watched him, her eyes tracing the cut of his shoulders, the easy, unhurried grace in his movements. He was composed in a way that only made him seem more mysterious. She could not tell whether he was a man weighed down by his past, or one who simply carried his secrets like fine silk—folded and hidden, impossible to see unless he chose to show them.
After a moment, she spoke.
“Do you think what I did to Cassius was wrong?”
“Not if you believed it wasn't, little bird."
"I didn’t think his father wouldn’t allow him to heal his eye. Now he’s going to live with one eye because of me.”
"You should not carry blame for the choices of another man's fragile ego.”
She nodded, though she wasn't entirely convinced.
He came closer then, and sat beside her on the bench, his gloved hands resting atop his cane.
“You’re clever, you know." He said. "More than we ever were.”
She let out a quiet, disbelieving laugh. “I doubt that.”
“What you did back there was both sharp and prideful. I was told you had a quick mind, but that—that was beyond anything I’d imagined.”
She looked down at her hands. “I just… did what I had to do to not get expelled.”
“And how did you come to know about Crow Law?”
“On my own."
“You say that as if it leaves a bad taste in your mouth. Don't you agree with it?"
"I believe in balance… in consequences. But not the other parts.”
His brow furrowed slightly. “Other parts?”
“Using our abilities on people. I think it’s wrong. And I don’t even see how they’re ‘gifts’ at all.”
“My father would have agreed with you.”
She blinked. “Lord Pollux?”
"He thought most of our so-called ‘gifts’ were worthless without the one ability that mattered to him—Crow power. It didn’t matter if we were telepaths, or Legilimens. If we failed the Crow Test, we were, in his eyes… nothing.”
"What's the Crow Test?”
“When each of us turned thirteen, my father and his sister would test us for the mark of the Crow. It was… a ritual of sorts. Every Black child had to face it. We all failed—my siblings, my cousins. My father’s resentment toward us began there. It only grew worse when even our children failed to bear the gift.”
Vera tried to picture her own father as a boy under that kind of judgment, and found she didn’t like the image.
“When did you find out you were a telepath?” she asked after a moment.
A faint smile tugged at his lips. “I was eight. My father dismissed it at once, told me it would win me nothing. But… in time, I found my own uses for it. I’ve kept many of my clients from rotting in Azkaban with that ‘useless’ skill.”
Her throat tightened like a noose. Then—almost against her will—the words slipped out.
"I'm… clairtangent."
His head snapped toward her, eyes brightening in open astonishment.
"I can see people’s memories when I touch them.” She added. "Found out when I was eleven."
“Oh, how wonderful!" He grinned. "That is one of the rarest gifts in our bloodline. There are barely a handful of you in all our family history.”
“No, it’s a curse." She said bitterly. "I can’t touch anyone without risking it. And if people knew… they wouldn’t trust me. It’s also very illegal. I could end up in Azkaban for it.”
His expression sobered, the pride in his eyes replaced with something protective.
“So, who knows?” he asked.
“Only Professor Dumbledore,” she said quietly. “And maybe Madam Pomfrey. No one else.”
“Then keep it that way. Trust is a fragile currency in this world, Vera. And real power is always safer when it’s hidden."
She gave a slow nod, but the knot in her chest refused to loosen.
“Tell me about that Avery boy,” he said suddenly, as though he’d been waiting for the perfect moment to drop the question.
She took a deep breath. “He... was my boyfriend."
“The Averys are among the most noble of our houses. I know his father—prideful man. The sort who would rather bleed than bow."
She let out a bitter laugh. “Yeah, well… he was the reason we broke up. Ryu never cared where I lived, or what name I was supposed to carry. He loved me. But his father told him to end it because he thinks I’m a bastard. I had asked him to help me find my inheritance records. But there was nothing in the Ministry to prove I even exist. No birth record. No trace. It’s like I was never born.”
“That,” Cygnus said quietly, “would be my doing. I destroyed every record of you in the Ministry the moment Sophie placed you in the Muggle world. It was the only way to keep you safe.”
She stared at him, the words crawling under her skin like glass splinters.
“Safe?” Her voice rose, trembling. “Erasing my entire existence was supposed to keep me safe?”
“It’s… complicated, little bird.”
“No, it’s very simple, uncle. I'm my family’s heir, yet I have nothing to prove it. If I had a claim, maybe I would have been truly safe—”
“You’re not—”
“Maybe I wouldn’t have had to take out loans just to survive.”
“Vera—”
“Maybe Ryu wouldn’t have broken up with me!”
“You’re not the heir, Vera.”
The air left her lungs. "What?”
“You are not the heir,” he repeated, his voice like the toll of a distant bell. “You never were.”
Her mouth went dry. “Wh—what are you talking about?”
“Sirius was—and still is—the heir to the House of Black. That never changed.”
She shook her head before she even realized she was doing it. “No. My father was the heir. Uncle Sirius was disowned when he was sixteen—everyone knows that! My father became the heir. He was the heir, that’s why my parents weren’t allowed to get—” Her words cut off, strangled in her throat.
Cygnus’s eyes softened, but it was the softness of someone bracing to wound.
“Right?” she pressed, desperate.
But he remained silent.
“Please, uncle,” she whispered. “Tell me the truth.”
“I’m afraid the truth is too heavy to speak aloud,” he murmured.
“Please!”
“It wasn’t Sirius who was truly disowned, Vera... It was Regulus.”
Her soul felt like it slipped straight through her skin. Her chest tightened, breath coming in shallow gasps. “Wha—what are you talking about?”
“My sister was a cruel woman,” he said, his tone turning cold. “She loathed most people. But her sons… she adored them. Especially young Sirius. When he left, my father ordered her and Orion to disown him. That fool Orion didn't even blink. But I knew my sister—she’d never have truly done it, not to her eldest son. Still, she obeyed, burned his name from the family tree, and gave the title to Regulus. Or so we all believed."
He rose, taking a few measured steps away, as though the distance might shield him from the weight of the truth.
“When she passed," he continued. "I found her will. And in it, she made the truth plain—Sirius was, and would always be, the heir. But Regulus…”
Vera's heartbeat pounded in her ears. “Regulus what?”
“She no longer claimed him as her son. She had disowned him entirely—after his death.”
“Then my parents…" Her voice cracked. "They were forced apart for nothing? My mother was rejected because she couldn’t give my father sons—and it was all a lie?”
“Devastating, indeed,” Cygnus murmured.
“But why?” she demanded, her voice rising. “What did my father do? He was their favourite! He became a Death Eater for them!”
“That’s true.”
“Then why disown him? Was it because he married Mum in secret? Was it because of me?!”
“I don’t know, dear. But I don’t believe those were the reasons.”
“I don’t understand!” She shouted. “What could he have done to make her hate him so much?”
“That’s what I’ve been trying to uncover. He must have done something that turned her love to ash. Because it wasn’t just him she erased. In her will, she was explicit—Regulus was no longer a Black. But he was already dead, which made no sense. Until I read further...”
Her pulse roared. “What did you read?”
“She wrote that Regulus’s descendant was never to inherit a thing.”
The word hit her like a slap.
“You, Vera." Cygnus said. "You are the descendant.”
She stood up, her lips trembling. “She knew I existed. She hated me. She didn’t want me—All because of what my father did. And you don’t even know what that was…”
“My dear wife was just as furious. She couldn’t fathom Walburga’s cruelty toward you. So... she decided to tell the papers about your existence, and that you were the heir."
Vera's eyes widened in shock. she had always wondered who leaked her grandmother's will to the public. But she never would have guessed it was her aunt Druella.
"she... revealed me?"
"It was reckless, I know. But she wanted to honour Regulus and Sophie, and to spite my sister in her grave.”
“So what am I, then?" Vera’s voice rose, shaking. "Nothing?”
“No,” he said gently. “You are one of us. You’re Regulus and Sophie’s daughter. You are a Black, Vera. You’ll always be. But you will never receive the family’s fortune. Your grandmother forbade it. Our hands are tied.”
Her voice split wide open, raw with rage and grief. “That’s not bloody fair.”
“Life,” Cygnus said quietly, “is rarely fair.”
“You don’t understand!” Her hands were shaking violently now. “I’ve fought for every scrap I’ve ever had. I’ve survived things you can’t even imagine. And now you’re telling me it was all for nothing? That there’s no way out for me? No chance? Nothing?”
“Vera—”
“No, Uncle!” Her eyes burned, brimming with tears. “You erased me from the world, and now you’re telling me I was never meant to have a place in it. You say it was for my protection, but all you’ve done is chain me to nothingness.”
The words hung in the air like smoke after a fire—heavy, choking, impossible to escape. Cygnus looked at her, and for once, the ever-composed Lord Black had no reply.
Her breath came in ragged bursts, and she didn’t even realize the first tear had fallen until it hit her chin. Then the rest came—hot, fast, unstoppable.
Cygnus stepped closer. "Vera, my dear..."
She shook her head, backing away, but her legs betrayed her, trembling until she sank into the bench.
“It’s just—” Her words broke on a sob. “I’m tired, Uncle. I’m so tired.”
He crouched in front of her, placing his hands gently on her shoulders.
“Listen to me,” he said. “You will never be alone again. Do you hear me? I will take you in. I will protect you. From this day forward, you are under my care. But I need you to do something for me."
She sniffled. "Wha—what?"
"No one can know the truth. That Sirius is the heir. It's better if everyone thought it was you."
She blinked at him through her tears. “Why? Why is it better for everyone to think I’m the heir instead of him?”
“That, my dear, is a story for another day. And I will tell it to you—when the time is right.”
“But… everyone thinks I’m a fraud. Rita Skeeter wrote that article about me—said I wasn’t an heir.”
“That vermin is mine to deal with. I’ll set the record straight… very soon.”
Her breathing steadied, though her eyes were still swollen and wet. “Will I see you again?”
“Of course,” he said without hesitation. “From now on, you’re under my protection.”
She swallowed. “But… I want to stay in the Muggle world. With my sisters, my friends.”
“And you will. But I’ll still be watching over you.”
Her brows knitted. “How?”
He simply tapped her robe pocket. Puzzled, she reached inside—and her fingers closed around something familiar.
The small crow figurine.
Her gaze shot to him. “It was from you?”
He nodded. “I no longer wanted to be away from you. But it was safer to watch from a distance. That crow… it did the watching for me.”
“You—You’ve been watching me this whole time?”
“I’ve been watching over you. Making sure you were protected. As you should be.”
She stared down at the figurine, her thumb tracing its tiny, perfect wings. A thousand memories swirled in her mind—moments when she’d felt eyes on her, or a strange sense of safety in dark times—and each one shifted in meaning.
Cygnus cupped her face in both hands, his touch unexpectedly warm for someone who carried so much cold in his voice.
“Your parents would have been proud of you,” he said. “They loved you, Vera—more than you’ll ever truly understand. You were their little star, the brightest thing in their lives. Everything they did… no matter how senseless or cruel it may have seemed… they did it for you. Don’t let anyone make you forget that.”
Her throat tightened, words catching before they could form. “Will you help me find her? Mum?”
“I never stopped. And I’ll do everything I can to bring her home. But for now… trust me. And more importantly—trust yourself.”
He straightened, his black robes whispering against the floor as he turned to go. Then, as if struck by a sudden thought, he paused and glanced back over his shoulder.
“Ah… I nearly forgot.”
Reaching into his coat, he withdrew a folded slip of parchment and placed it in her hand. She opened it, and her eyes widened. It was a signed Hogsmeade permission slip.
“I’m sorry it took so long to reach you,” he said.
She smiled through the sting of tears, glancing up at him. He reached into his coat again, this time pulling out a small pouch heavy with coins.
“Treat yourself,” he told her simply. “Something just for you. No arguments.”
A watery laugh escaped her despite herself, and she couldn’t help but grin. He leaned down, pinching her cheek with an almost fatherly fondness.
“Always fight for yourself,” he told her. “And don’t waste a single tear on anyone who wouldn’t take on the world for you.”
With that, he turned, his robes trailing behind him, leaving her standing there—hands trembling, heart aching, and a fragile spark of hope flickering back to life.
Then, she scrambled up and followed. “Uncle, I have one last question. Where do you live?"
He glanced over his shoulder, a gleam of mischief in his stormy eyes. “Everywhere.”
Before she could ask, his form blurred—shrinking, folding, reshaping—until a sleek black crow stood where the man had been. With a powerful beat of his wings, he took to the air, circling her once in a wide arc.
She stood rooted in place, her eyes wide with awe.
“Thank you,” she called up to him, lifting her hand in a small wave.
The crow dipped a wing in silent acknowledgment before soaring higher, vanishing into the night.
Vera looked down at the figurine still nestled in her palm. She wasn’t alone anymore. Someone was out there—always watching, always near.
Someone who would never leave her again.
Friday, March 20, 1992
Days slipped by, but the conversation in the gardens still lingered in her mind like an echo that refused to fade. She’d wake up replaying it, wondering if it had really happened or if it had been some strange dream stitched together by her longing for answers.
That morning, she lay sprawled across her bed, headphones on, her Walkman balanced beside her. The enchanted tapestry above shifted lazily—stars drifting in a slow, cosmic dance. She stared up at them, half-listening to the music, thinking about how absurd it had all been. The lies, the twists of fate, the revelations… yet somehow, a small, unexpected smile tugged at her lips.
This was a new beginning. She wasn’t the heir—fine. But she had uncle Cygnus now. And more than that, she had a little money to finally treat herself without guilt.
Then the door creaked open. Katie stepped inside, holding a folded newspaper in her hands. She walked slowly, her face unusually pale.
Vera propped herself up on her elbows, sliding the headphones from her ears. “What’s wrong?”
Katie didn’t answer right away. She just stood there, then finally crossed the room and handed her the paper.
“I’m… I’m so sorry,” she said quietly.
A knot of unease coiled in Vera’s stomach. She sat up fully and took the paper, eyes scanning the front page—
Lucius and Narcissa Malfoy announce the death of Lord Cygnus Black.
The letters seemed almost unreal, as though they were rearranging themselves before her eyes.
She slid her hand beneath the pillow, reaching for the crow figurine—trying to assure herself that this was nothing but a nightmare. But instead of cool wood, her fingers sank into a mound of ash—black, glimmering, and cruelly real.
And then, without warning, a sharp, strange sound escaped her—laughter.
Katie blinked. “Vera—?”
But Vera’s laughter grew louder, more unhinged. The sound became manic, almost gleeful, as if it was the funniest thing she had ever encountered. Her shoulders shook, her head thrown back in hysterics. Yet, as suddenly as it began, the laughter cracked, turning into ragged sobs. Tears blurred the page as her grief ripped free in a raw scream.
And in that moment, she realized nature’s truest law: fate is a predator, and she was just another prey it had chosen to break.
♪ And now my bitter hands
Cradle broken glass
Of what was everything
All the pictures had
All been washed in black
Tattooed everything
All the love gone bad
Turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see
All that I am
All I'll be ♪
Notes:
Chapter's Song: Black - Pearl Jam
Dearest readers,
First, my sincerest apologies—though not without a smirk—because you should know by now that nothing I write happens by accident.
And… I know. You wanted more Black family tea. You wanted the secrets, the feuds, the “did-they-really-do-that?” moments. And believe me, I’ve got enough of it swirling around in my head to fuel an entire soap opera. I want to give it to you. But if I dump everything into one chapter, it would’ve been a messy, tangled heap of scandal. And honestly, the Blacks deserve a far more glamorous disaster than that.
My mind is practically bursting with untold tales—juicy enough to fill a book, or perhaps two if I were feeling particularly cruel. Which brings me to my little announcement:
'The Fall of House Black' is officially on the horizon!
This prequel will dive into the last three generations of the family—messy secrets, politics, dark magic, betrayals, power plays, and all the scandal you can handle. It’s big, it’s dramatic, and it’s going to be so good it might just ruin you for other stories.
In the meantime, Vera’s story still has plenty of twists, and I promise you’re not going to want to miss a single one.
Chapter 89: Free Bird
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Monday, March 23, 1992
Vera sat hunched over at the Gryffindor table, the world around her a distant hum she could barely register. She felt hollow, her mind still refusing to process the truth: Cygnus was gone.
She kept turning the thought over in her head, hoping repetition might make it less real. Sixty-four. That’s what the paper said. Sixty-four wasn’t old, she thought. It wasn’t enough years to justify such a final ending. And the last time she had seen him, he had been… fine. Sharp eyes, commanding voice, not a hint of sickness. She almost wanted to accuse the universe of lying to her.
She dragged her fork absently through the food on her plate, swirling vegetables into patterns she didn’t see. Her gaze then fell to the folded copy of today’s Daily Prophet lying beside her tea. The headline carried his name again, and this time the byline read Rita Skeeter.
She didn’t want to read it, didn’t want to see his name in print like it was some headline to be consumed and forgotten. But her fingers betrayed her, tugging it open until the bold black letters stared back at her.
“A Final Word from the Elusive Lord Black”
By Rita Skeeter, Special Correspondent
It is a rare gift indeed, dear readers, to speak to a man as notoriously private and mysterious as Lord Cygnus Black. Yet, days before his untimely and shocking passing, this journalist found herself seated across from the patriarch himself.
Our conversation inevitably turned to the recent unpleasantness involving his niece, Miss Vera Black, and the heir to one of Britain’s most promising wizarding families, Mr. Cassius Warrington. While some unkind voices have suggested that Miss Black’s conduct was unbecoming of her station, Lord Black’s stance could not have been clearer.
“My niece was merely defending herself,” he told me. "And she is the rightful heir. Not because of her blood, though she has that, but because she has chosen to uphold the honor of the Black name when others would tarnish it.”
Such resolute loyalty to family is a rare quality in our modern age, and one suspects that Lord Black’s declaration will silence certain troublesome rumors that have circulated in recent weeks.
As for how I, Rita Skeeter, managed to secure an audience with a man who has declined interviews for over a decade. Let us simply say that Lord Black was far more forthcoming with me than with others, and the result is a testament to what one can achieve with persistence, tact, and a touch of charm.
Lord Cygnus Black leaves behind a legacy of influence, mystery, and, it seems, an heir ready to carry his name into the next generation.
Vera almost gagged at Rita’s arrogance, the way she spoke as though she hadn’t been the very one to spread the rumor in the first place. Still, her lips twitched into the smallest smile, though it felt wrong to smile at all today. Cygnus had defended her. He had cleared the stain the gossip had left.
She folded the paper back down, then let her eyes wander across the Great Hall. The place still buzzed with the aftershocks of her fight with Cassius, but the rumors had grown their own wings, each one twisting the story further. Some swore she started it, others claimed she’d been possessed, and one absurd tale had her dueling him with a sword.
Her gaze drifted to the Slytherin table, where Cassius sat like nothing in the world could touch him. A black eye patch covered the empty space where his right eye used to be, and, to Vera’s astonishment, it had somehow made him the darling of Slytherin House. Girls leaned in closer when he spoke, laughing too loudly at his jokes, treating the patch like a mark of dangerous charm.
She almost scoffed aloud. Not long ago, she’d seen him on the verge of breaking apart, barely holding himself together when his father had coldly refused to have him healed. And yet here he was now, seemingly unbothered, transformed into something “special” by the very thing that had been meant to wound him.
She didn’t understand why it bothered her so much that he had landed on his feet, if not higher. But then she remembered his father, remembered the cruelty in the man’s voice, and the bitterness dulled.
Everyone had their own battles to fight.
Maybe everything that had happened to her in the past few months had driven her a little mad. But she forced herself to remember the things she still had: her friends, St. Mary’s, Miss Nelson… and two working eyes. Cygnus might be gone, and her future might have been a shadowy, uncertain shape, but she could at least try to be strong.
Besides, how could she truly mourn a man she barely knew? She liked the idea of him—of what it meant to have someone like Cygnus Black in her corner. She liked the security his presence implied. But the truth was, she didn’t know him.
Unlike Draco.
He sat perched on the edge of the Slytherin table, his plate mostly untouched. Even from here, she could see the faint redness around his eyes. He looked wrung out, the way someone does after crying until there’s nothing left.
She didn't know what to think. Draco was a purist, a bully, the kind of boy who wielded cruelty like a birthright. And yet… she couldn’t bring herself to hate him completely.
He was still just a boy. Just like Cassius—a boy who had never asked for the father he got, who’d been handed a legacy of coldness and told to wear it proudly. He might have been raised by a serpent, but he hadn’t chosen the nest.
After classes, she traced his location on the Marauder’s Map until the tiny ink blot marked his name. She followed the corridors until she found him sitting alone on a narrow stone staircase. His eyes were red and raw, evidence of a fresh wave of tears.
She lingered at the top step for a moment, unsure whether to intrude. But then she made herself move forward, until she lowered herself onto the step beside him.
“Hey,” she said quietly.
He flinched, twisting his face away as he wiped at his cheeks with his sleeve.
“I’m… sorry about your loss,” she said after a beat. “May the stars welcome him.”
“Thank you.” His voice was thin, and then it was gone altogether, leaving the silence to stretch between them.
She hesitated for a moment, then finally asked the question that gnawed at her all week.
“How did he die?”
Draco’s gaze drifted toward the far wall. “An accident, they said. I don’t know what happened exactly.”
“I didn’t know Uncle Cygnus as well as you did,” she admitted. “But when I finally met him… he was nothing but kind to me.”
At that, Draco shifted, his jaw tightening as if the words sat wrong with him.
“I know you probably hate me for what I did to Cassius,” she continued, “but I want you to know I’m truly sorry it had to happen that way. I wanted us to be friends, Draco. But I guess… we’re too different.”
He finally looked at her. His pale eyes were sharp, and for a heartbeat, she thought he might understand. But—
“I would never be your friend," he said coldly. "And you should be ashamed of yourself. If I lived with Muggles, I wouldn’t even show my face.”
She didn’t even flinch.
"I don't know why grandfather defended you," he added. "But he shouldn't have. You're a polluted disgrace. You should have been expelled. Maybe he pitied you—he is kind like that—but it doesn't mean he loved you."
She gave a small, knowing smile. “Is that you talking, Draco? Or your father talking through you?”
His teeth ground together, but he didn’t answer.
She rose, brushing the dust from her robes.
“Tell your mother I offer my deepest condolences,” she said evenly, “and that I’ll honor Uncle Cygnus’s memory in every way I can.”
Without waiting for an answer, she turned and descended the stairs. Draco stayed where he was, staring straight ahead, his silence heavy as stone.
She spent the rest of the month carrying out the punishment McGonagall had assigned her. Each night after dinner, she would report to a different professor’s office for detention. Some had her dusting shelves or scrubbing the floors, others simply let her sit quietly in a corner while they worked, occasionally giving her small tasks to keep her busy.
They were all kind to her in their own way, but she could feel the pity humming beneath their politeness. It didn’t bother her. Pity was better than scorn, and at least it made the hours pass without conflict.
But then came Snape.
Her detentions with him were a different matter entirely. From the moment she stepped into his classroom, he would greet her not with a nod or a word, but with a long list of impossible tasks. She was sent to scrub every inch of the dungeon floors, alphabetize ingredient jars by both name and Latin classification, and polish cauldrons until they gleamed like mirrors.
When he wasn’t working her to the bone, he was setting her “academic” punishments that bordered on absurd: memorize the shape, label, and distinctive smell of every ingredient in his storage; list all their uses and dangers from memory; then read yet another tome on obscure potion-making theory.
And yet, she didn’t entirely mind.
The truth was, she loved it. She loved learning about the rarest ingredients, tracing their illustrations with her gloved fingertips, inhaling their strange and sometimes acrid scents.
Snape’s private collection of books was unlike anything she’d ever seen—thick, leather-bound volumes on topics Hogwarts’ library barely touched. Blood magic distillations. Alchemical preservation methods. Potions so complex their recipes read more like spells than cooking instructions. She drank it all in, her mind sparking with fascination.
Every night, he would test her to see if she’d actually read what he’d assigned, eyes narrowing in expectation of failure. And every night, she surprised him—rattling off details, reciting properties, answering questions without hesitation. She could tell he didn’t like being impressed, but sometimes she caught it—a flicker of something in his expression, almost like reluctant respect.
She and her friends had grown even closer in the weeks after her fight with Cassius—closer than she thought possible. She’d half-expected them to keep their distance after what she’d said in Snape’s office, but to her surprise, no one seemed to care. If anything, they treated her the same as always, as though nothing had changed.
Malika was practically glued to her side now, always taking the seat next to her, swapping stories about their muggle lives—things that felt almost like precious contraband in a place like Hogwarts.
And then there was Tommy.
He had an insatiable curiosity for her world outside magic. Whenever she let something slip about her life back home—some random bit of muggle culture or an offhand reference—his eyes would light up like a kid unwrapping a new broomstick.
One lunch, she sat across from him, her plate of shepherd’s pie mostly untouched as she recounted the winding road of her childhood.
“So let me get this straight,” he said. “You’ve gone from roughing it on a farm in Cornwall to swanning about in… what’d you call it? Sutton? Sounds like a place where even the soap smells posh.”
She rolled her eyes. “That’s the problem, Toms. The fancier it looks, the more it hides. We’ve got this royal pain next door—Mr. Dawson. Proper posh Tory twat who’s convinced he’s got a direct line to heaven but spends most of his time ogling my tits."
Tommy burst out laughing, then quickly recovered. “Still, you’ve got a cook. A cook, Vera! Do you have any idea how spoiled that sounds to someone who grew up with six siblings fighting over who got the last slice of toast?”
“She’s not just a cook! She’s Mrs. Quinn. And she and her husband came straight from Ireland. Just like you.”
That made him sit up straighter, a spark of national pride in his eyes. “From Ireland, eh? Which part?”
“County Tyrone,” she said with a knowing smile. “And before you say anything—yes, I’ve heard all about the cliffs, the food, the pubs, and the fact that apparently Ireland invented everything worth living for.”
"Ireland didn’t just invent everything worth living for—we perfected it. Guinness, folk music, actual humor—”
“—the overuse of potatoes,”
“That’s called culinary versatility,” he corrected. “Anyway, what’s this Miss Nelson like then?”
Vera’s eyes softened. “She’s warm—so warm. The kind of person who makes you tea before you even realise you need it. She’s like a mother to us—makes sure we have everything, even if it comes from her own purse. She’s a saint… our saint.”
“Well, I already like her." Tommy grinned. "Now spill—this Wes fellow you keep babbling about. He’s the one running that dodgy little music shop, eh?”
“Yeah, the tiny one near the orphanage. He sells vinyl, cassettes, all that retro stuff. He’s... alright. Lets me poke around for hours without batting an eye, even when I leave empty-handed. And those tapes I lent you? All courtesy of him. The bloke’s got taste—good taste, mind you.”
Tommy raised an eyebrow. “Sounds like he’s got a thing for you.”
“Shut up!” she shot back, cheeks flaming.
“I’m serious. No bloke sends you 'The Smiths' unless he fancies you."
Her smile wavered just a bit. “You should’ve seen Ryu when he found out about him. He had a whole fit—broke my Walkman and told me to go get fucked by him.’”
"Jesus Christ, Vera!" Tommy grimaced. "Remind me, why did you put up with that knob?”
She waved him off. “Forget it.”
“Come on, admit it—you were just a sucker for his looks. Nothing more.”
“I said, forget it!” She snapped. “Now, let me tell you about Danger.”
“Wait, Danger? You mean, like, the fellow's actual name?”
“Nah, his real name's Finn, but he's a proper prat. Full-on leather jacket, sunglasses indoors, the whole ‘skinhead’ vibe. Mostly just lurks around the neighborhood, being a colossal pain in the arse.”
“How so?”
“Well, for one, he calls me every name under the sun.”
“Sounds like he's just threatened by you. Probably knows you’ve got better music taste.”
“Obviously,” she grinned. “Speaking of—fancy a game?”
Tommy’s ears perked up instantly. “Hit me.”
“Alright, simple: we name celebrities we reckon are actually wizards or witches who ditched the magic life to conquer the Muggle world instead.”
“That’s bloody genius. I’ll kick off—David Bowie. No question.”
Vera practically squealed. “Yes! The man was born for magic!"
"All that glam? Totally a spell gone right.”
“Okay, my turn.” She tapped her chin dramatically. “How about... Michael Jackson?”
“Secretly a wizard, 100%. No way moonwalking is just good dance skills. That’s straight-up charm work.”
"Okay, Ian Brown."
Tommy nearly choked laughing. “Ian Brown? If he was a wizard, he’d have used a charm to keep himself on pitch!”
“I have this whole theory about how he’s been to Hogwarts, was in Hufflepuff, and maybe even contributed to Flitwick's musical collection!"
“He's just a bloody Mancunian. Nah, if anyone’s secretly a wizard, it’s Ozzy Osbourne.”
“Oh, absolutely! That man’s still alive after everything he’s done to himself. No way that’s natural.”
“Probably keeps a bezoar in his pocket at all times."
They laughed until their sides hurt, the conversation wandering off into wild theories about famous muggles hiding wands up their sleeves. For a while, everything felt right again.
Until Ryu walked into the Great Hall.
Vera's eyes instantly caught him, but he didn’t even glance her way. Ever since her fight with Cassius, he’d stopped looking at her entirely, as though he’d wiped her from his memory. It was clear he’d moved on, and as much as it hurt, she knew it was for the better.
Still, she missed him. God, she missed him so much she half-considered marching across the room and kissing him senseless—right there, consequences be damned. Her throat tightened at the image, heat blooming behind her eyes.
Tommy noticed the shift instantly.
“You’ve gone quiet,” he said. “And for you, that’s suspicious.”
“I’m fine,” she muttered, nudging her potatoes around.
“Oh, right. The classic ‘I’m fine’—which, in your language, translates to ‘I’m plotting my own funeral.’”
That earned him a flicker of a smile, but it didn’t last.
He leaned in. “Listen, I’ll just say this once: you deserve someone better.”
Her eyes lifted. “What are you—”
“Do you have any clue how many blokes think you’re fit?”
Her fork froze midair, cheeks already heating.
“You’d be shook at the number of them." He added. "I could form a bloody Quidditch team with your admirers. Reserve players included.”
“You’re exaggerating..."
“I’m Irish, love—we don’t exaggerate. I could give you names. Full list. Alphabetical order if you want. I heard fourth years talking about you several times. And some sixth years, too. So, stop wasting good sulking energy on a purist rage machine with the charm of a damp sponge.”
She bit back a laugh. “You’re awful.”
“Awful but right. You’ve got a whole fan club, and yet here you are, pining after a bloke who smashed your most treasured possession.”
“To be fair, he was drunk.”
Tommy’s eyes went wide. “He drinks? Bloody hell, Vera!”
“What? As if you don’t?”
“Oi, that’s racist!"
She arched a brow.
“Alright, maybe I do,” he conceded. “But never to the point where I’d break stuff and then tell my girlfriend to go shack up with another bloke.”
She groaned, rubbing her forehead. “Can we please stop talking about him?”
“Fine."
A beat of silence passed.
“So, what’s his poison?”
She sighed. “Yaxley Scotch.”
His face twisted. “Merlin’s beard. You need serious rehabilitation after that relationship.”
Her lips twitched despite herself.
“Aha!” Tommy pointed at her like he’d spotted a phoenix in the wild. “There’s the smile. Keep that up and you might rack up two new admirers before dinner. Triple if you sashay past the Hufflepuff table.”
She shook her head, cheeks flushing. “You’re ridiculous.”
“And you, have atrocious taste in men. Lucky for you, I offer free consultations.”
She couldn’t help but laugh, the sound breaking the fog she’d been sitting in since Ryu arrived. Tommy smirked, satisfied with himself, and went back to demolishing his lunch like a man on a mission.
Vera followed his lead, poking at her potatoes again—but her mind kept circling back to what he’d said. A whole Quidditch team of admirers? Reserve players included? Ridiculous. She knew she was pretty—Miss Nelson told her often enough—but secret admirers everywhere? That seemed like the stuff of bad romance novels.
Still… curiosity got the better of her.
She let her eyes wander across the Great Hall, careful not to be obvious. And—God help her—Tommy might have been on to something.
At the Ravenclaw table, a tall fifth-year nearly missed his mouth with his spoon when she glanced his way. Over in Hufflepuff, two boys were whispering and then both looked up at her in perfect unison before hastily staring back at their plates. Even at her own table, a Gryffindor seventh-year—a seventh-year!—looked like he’d just been caught mid-poem.
Her cheeks warmed, and she dropped her gaze to her plate.
Maybe Tommy was right. Maybe it was time to move on. No more pining after boys with bad tempers and worse family trees. No more aching for someone who wouldn’t even look at her anymore. Maybe it was time to find someone new. Still, the idea of “someone new” felt… strange. Unfamiliar. Like putting on a borrowed coat—warm, but not quite hers.
Just then, the Gryffindor Quidditch crew burst through the door. Alicia swiftly slid in beside Tommy, planting a quick kiss on his cheek. The twins flanked Vera without hesitation—Fred on her left, George on her right, as though they’d been assigned guard duty.
“What’s all this, then?” Fred asked, eyeing her pink cheeks suspiciously.
“Just educating our girl here,” Tommy said, smirking. “We were playing that game, y’know—‘Muggle or Wizard?’—and Vee here reckons Ian Brown’s a wizard.”
“He is!" Vera said with full conviction, stabbing her fork into her potato like she was defending her honor.
Angelina snorted. “No way. I’ve seen him in NME. Definitely Muggle.”
“Yeah,” Alicia agreed. “If he’s magic, I’m a troll with a broom license.”
Vera gasped dramatically. “Excuse me—he’s brilliant. Voice of an angel who’s just had a fight at the pub.”
Fred and George exchanged a look of total confusion. “Who?” they said in perfect unison.
“Ian Brown,” she repeated, as if that explained everything.
Tommy rolled his eyes. “Terrible musician. Mumbles like he’s got a mouthful of treacle.”
Vera shot him a look.
Fred blinked. “Still don’t know who this bloke is.”
“Doesn’t matter,” George said, waving it off. “Clearly he’s not as important as our upcoming Hogsmeade trip.”
Angelina perked up, then frowned. “But… wait, it’s unfair to plan it while Vera’s stuck here.”
“Who says I’m not coming?” Vera said, leaning back with a smug little grin.
All four of them turned to her.
“My dear late uncle,” she said with mock grandeur, “signed my permission slip before he died.”
The table went quiet for a beat, their faces softening.
Then Angelina tilted her head. “Isn’t the whole point of a permission slip to, I dunno, inform your guardian of your whereabouts? So how does that work if your guardian is… well…”
“McGonagall’s letting it slide." Vera said. "I’ve had enough this year to earn some pity perks. Honestly? I think I’m starting to like it.”
Alicia’s eyes lit up. “So you’re really coming with us?”
Vera nodded, and the twins squealed. No exaggeration.
“We’ll give you the grandest tour Hogsmeade’s ever seen,” Fred said.
“The finest butterbeer, the best joke shop runs, all the secret corners—” George was already counting places on his fingers.
Vera laughed. “That’s suspiciously nice of you. What’s the catch?”
“No catch,” George said, draping an arm over her shoulder. “We just might need you to, y’know, use your charm for a few discounts here and there. Just like over the summer.”
She laughed again. “Fine. But if I charm my way into free Honeydukes fudge, I’m keeping it.”
The table erupted into mock protests, but she barely heard them—her mind was already in Hogsmeade.
Sunday, April 12, 1992
If the last few weeks of her life had been a storm, then this trip was the rainbow that followed—albeit one with a few mischievous lightning bolts courtesy of Fred and George.
The twins wasted no time in snatching her from the horseless carriage, hauling her from shop to shop like prized loot they were showing off.
They were surprisingly disciplined with her spending. Every time she reached for something extravagant, George would tap her hand and Fred would mutter something about “financial responsibility,” which sounded utterly absurd coming from them.
In Zonko’s, Tommy leaned in with a sly grin. “You know those blokes over by the counter? Haven’t stopped staring at you.”
She smirked. “They’ve probably heard about what I did to Warrington. Just want to check if I’ve got knives for hands.”
She ran into Cedric and Maddie outside Honeydukes—Maddie all warm smiles and Cedric pretending he wasn’t holding a suspiciously large bag of Fizzing Whizbees.
Maddie whispered conspiratorially about the latest “Oh, you’ll never believe it” tidbit from the Slytherin common room before Kenny swooped in out of nowhere to “verify facts.” Somehow, that resulted in a ten-minute debate over whether Professor Flitwick wore fake sideburns.
Roger spotted her later near the arched bridge by the river and insisted—no, demanded—that he take her photo there “because the light is perfect and your reputation needs a softer edge.”
She humored him, and now there’s probably a very dramatic photograph of her somewhere, half-smiling against the grey-blue sky.
Halfway down the main street, she spotted Percy—coat buttoned to the last clasp, looking like he was on official Ministry business even on a weekend. She reminded him of that fancy tea shop they’d gushed about last year, and he actually lit up when she invited him to it.
Percy, it turned out, was a riot when he wasn’t busy lecturing people on prefect duty. Over cinnamon scones and steaming pots of enchanted Earl Grey, he was genuinely intrigued to discover she wasn’t just some lowbrow with a flair for chaos. They ended up swapping magical theories, and he scribbled notes like she’d just published a groundbreaking academic paper.
After tea, he insisted on taking her to a nearby bookshop—an impossibly cozy little place that smelled of dust, ink, and possibility. She wandered past towers of ancient spellbooks and enchanted maps until she found herself in the muggle literature section.
Her fingers hovered over the thick spine of Tolstoy’s War and Peace, a title that seemed almost comically heavy with importance. She’d just started reading the blurb when the book was abruptly plucked from her hands.
“Hey—” she began, looking up, only to find herself staring into Felix’s eyes.
That same wicked smile she’d seen too many times to count curled at the corner of his mouth. “Thought I’d save you from carrying around half a brick,” he drawled.
She couldn’t believe it. After all this time—after their fight, her lies, his very public disdain—he was here. Talking to her. Smiling at her. Teasing her, even.
And looking like that, of all things.
His coat fit him so perfectly it might’ve been tailored by some Parisian wizard who took oaths of secrecy. The neat hair, the faint cologne—it was almost rude.
When he reached to slot the book back onto the shelf above her head, she caught herself holding her breath. He was too close, and she became abruptly aware of how much taller he was. He then plucked out another book and handed it to her.
“Tolstoy’s a bore." He said. "Try Dostoevsky if you’re actually committing to Russian literature.”
She took the book from his hand. “Wasn’t even aware I was in the Russian section."
“Yeah, I don’t like it myself. But that’s because my dad used to scold me whenever I read it. Left me with… unpleasant associations.”
Her brow furrowed. “Why would he scold you for reading it?”
"Oh, he just hates anything Russian. It’s a thing with him.”
Oh, that tracked. Of course his father had arbitrary geopolitical vendettas. The man was already a walking collection of questionable opinions; now he’d decided to add Slavic literature to the blacklist? What was next, banning the color red?
“But you should totally try it,” Felix added. “It suits you.”
She blinked. “Russian suits me?”
He shrugged. “It really does."
She smiled despite herself and looked down at the book he’d handed her—Letters from the Underground. The title intrigued her, but it was the dark, swirling artwork on the cover that had her hooked. Still, she couldn’t decide if he’d just offered her a truce… or a challenge.
He cracked open a thick hardback, the kind with gold-embossed letters that looked far too posh for the creaky shop they were in. She opened her own book, pretending to read, but the words wouldn’t stick. Her eyes kept drifting toward him.
Why is he even talking to her? After everything?
She hesitated, chewing the inside of her cheek. The air between them felt like a rope, waiting for one of them to tug. Finally, she leaned forward, her voice low.
“Aren’t you… mad at me? For lying?”
He didn’t look up. “Mad? No.”
Relief tugged her lips into a smile—
“I’m fucking furious, Vera.”
Her smile faltered.
He shut his own book with a quiet thud, then looked at her.
“I get it,” he said. “You had to lie. I know it wasn’t easy for you—and I know you weren’t doing it just for fun. But we were supposed to have trust. You and me. I thought that was the one thing we had—something solid in our families' madness. You didn’t have to tell anyone else, but you could’ve told me.”
“I didn’t want to put you in that position,” she said quietly. “If you’d known, you’d have had to lie too.”
“And I would have done it. Without thinking twice. Because that’s what you do when you trust someone. You stand by them.”
She felt the sting in his words like a bruise. “I’m sorry, Felix." She whispered. "I really am.”
“I believe you're sorry, Vera. It's just... if you’d told me the truth earlier, it would’ve been a hell of a lot easier. All this time I thought you were—” He stopped, studying her like he was deciding whether to keep going.
“A noble twat?” she offered.
He laughed, the sound cutting through the tension like a match in the dark. “Yeah. But then you turned out to be…” He trailed off again, this time holding her gaze.
There was something flickering in his eyes, like a thought he wasn’t sure he should say out loud.
“What?” she pressed.
“Forget it.” He shook his head, but his tone softened. “The point is, I forgive you for lying… but only if you forgive me for calling you a twat.”
“I forgive,” she said lightly. “Although… I kinda am one.”
This time his laugh was warmer, but the air between them still felt changed—like something fragile had cracked, and they’d both heard it.
Before they could say more, Percy materialised from behind a shelf like a ghost. “Quick, someone’s coming in.”
Felix’s flicker of panic cut through her like glass. He didn’t want to be seen with her—even now, when everyone knew she had no ties to her family. But if seemed that, to the Bobbins, it didn’t matter; in their eyes, she would always be a Black.
He gave her one last look, a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. “Buy the book. Then let me borrow it for the summer.”
She raised a brow. “What about your dad?”
His smile sharpened into something wicked, and on his way out the door, he mouthed, Fuck him.
She left the bookshop with a stupid dreamy smile, her mind replaying their verbal fencing match like it was the best scene in a play.
However, as she turned down a side street, she froze in her place. Because there, standing absurdly in the middle of a wizarding village—as if it had no idea how out of place it looked—was a phone booth. A Muggle phone booth.
"No bloody way,” she muttered, before breaking into a run.
Slamming the door behind her, she grabbed the receiver and dialed St. Mary’s from memory—fingers moving like she’d never left home. A click. Then static. Then—
“HELLO?!” shrieked a voice on the other end.
"HEYYY, IT'S ME!"
“Vera?!” another yelled over it.
Then all at once, her sisters’ voices crashed through the line, overlapping, bickering, arguing over who got to talk first.
“No, I get to talk to her—”
“You always hog the phone—”
“Tell me about your school—”
"Did they finally buy a phone—"
And yet—through the ache in her chest—she felt something she hadn’t in a long time:
Free.
The weeks slid by almost too easily. She’d been doing fine—really fine, for once.
Felix and her had fallen into a comfortable rhythm in Haven, meeting under the flicker of candlelight to read side-by-side, share music, and laugh until curfew.
Her friends had grown tighter as a group too—late-night study sessions in the common room, whispered jokes in the library, and detours to the kitchens for stolen pastries.
She was also keeping up with her detentions without complaint, studying more than she ever thought she could stomach, and taking care of herself in little ways she’d once thought were pointless.
She even felt… confident. Not all the time—never all the time—but enough to surprise herself. And although she still missed Ryu, the ache was dulling; she was starting to grow used to the space he left behind.
But on Friday, May 15th, everything changed.
She’d been half-doodling in the margins of her parchment, half-watching Flitwick explain the finer points of vanishing spells, when professor McGonagall knocked on the door.
“Miss Black. A word, please.”
Vera didn’t think much of it—probably a question about her essay, or, knowing her luck, a detention she’d forgotten about. She pushed her chair back, slipped out into the corridor, and waited for McGonagall to close the classroom door behind her.
That was when she noticed her face. Not stern. Not irritated. Just… soft. Too soft.
“What’s wrong?” she asked.
McGonagall’s eyes searched hers for a moment, then she said it. Quietly. As if the walls themselves needed to be spared.
“Vera... I'm afraid I have terrible news."
Notes:
Chapter's song: Free Bird - Lynyrd Skynyrd
Chapter 90: Forever Young
Notes:
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Saturday, May 16, 1992
Vera didn’t cry when McGonagall told her. She just nodded, then walked back into class. It wasn’t until the next morning that reality began to seep in.
Her trunk sat open at the foot of her bed, half-empty. She was only choosing an outfit for the day, but it felt like suiting up for a battle she didn’t want to fight. She pulled out her only black dress, tugging at the hem as if that could stretch the fabric into decency.
At the last moment, she reached for the cross Tommy had pressed into her hand the night before. She didn’t know why she borrowed it, but as the cold metal settled against her collarbone, it felt right. For today, at least.
The walk to Hogsmeade was quiet. McGonagall wasn’t the sort to fill silences, and Vera was grateful. She kept her head down, focusing on her Converse. The sight of them split her chest open. They were too joyful, too full of life, too much of a reminder.
They stopped at the door of the Three Broomsticks, where Madam Rosmerta’s usual warmth dimmed into something even gentler when she saw her.
“Through here, dear,” she said softly, guiding them toward the fireplace.
One swirl of green flame later, the warmth of Hogsmeade was gone, replaced by the musty coziness of Mrs. Wrigglshore’s sitting room.
Vera looked past the maze of cats and clutter toward the kitchen table. The old grumpy witch sat in her usual sagging chair, and on the other one, sat Donnie. Spotting her, he stood up and crossed the room.
“I’m so sorry.” He whispered, wrapping her in a tight hug.
She blinked hard, forcing the tears back, and tried for a small smile. “I like your new earring, Donnie."
“Bit flashy, though," a voice from behind cut in.
Vera spun around, and her jaw nearly dropped.
Because leaning casually against the doorframe, was Dom. She was dressed head to toe in convincingly Muggle clothes—black denim jacket, battered trainers, hair loose around her shoulders. For once, she looked like she belonged in this decade.
“Where the hell have you been?” Vera blurted, crossing the distance to wrap her arms around her.
Dom chuckled into her hair. “One day, you’ll know.”
Pulling back, she gave her a slow, assessing look. “Merlin’s beard—you’ve grown. Two years and you’re taller, sharper… and much too pretty for your own good.”
Vera tried to smile, but it wobbled.
“I’m sorry I wasn’t there," Dom went on. "For any of it. And I’m sorry for everything you’ve had to go through. But you’re strong, Vera. Stronger than you think.”
“We shouldn’t be late." Mrs. Wrigglshore’s voice broke the moment. "Come on, all of you.”
As they started walking toward the door, Donnie glanced at McGonagall. “Um, professor... You’re going like… this?”
McGonagall’s brow arched. “And what, pray tell, is wrong with how I look?”
“Nothing,” he said quickly, “if we’re aiming to terrify everyone. At least, lose the pointed hat?”
For a moment, McGonagall looked as though she might transfigure him into a toad. Then, with a faint sigh, she plucked the hat from her head and tucked it under her arm.
They walked in silence, Vera’s fingers clinging to Donnie’s like an anchor. She didn’t want to think about what this day meant, about anything. The crunch of gravel underfoot was the only sound until the church's gate came into view. Beyond it, people were beginning to gather in small clusters.
Her chest constricted, and she stopped dead in her tracks.
Donnie swiftly turned. “You alright?”
She tried to force her face into something strong, but her lips betrayed her, trembling against her will.
“Hey, hey,” he said softly, squeezing her hand. “It’s gonna be alright.”
She nodded, and let him guide her forward.
When they entered the church, she spotted them instantly—Andy, Mandy, Lola, and Grace—her sisters in everything but blood. They rushed to her, wrapping her in a tangle of arms. Their eyes were puffy, lashes clumped with tears. Over their shoulders, she caught sight of Emily and Cynthia, standing together. They spotted her too, waving faintly. But the face she wanted—needed—to see wasn’t there.
“Where’s Kaya?” She asked.
Andy shook her head. “Haven’t seen her yet.”
Vera’s stomach dipped. She didn’t know whether to be worried, sad, or something else entirely. She sank into the wooden pew with her sisters clustered around her. The seconds stretched, each one dragging past like molten lead. She counted them silently, eyes darting to everything except the casket at the front.
She had only been to two funerals before—the Humphreys. And then, she’d felt nothing. Just an odd sense of obligation, like attending a play she hadn’t wanted tickets for. But this one was different. This one hurt.
She didn’t want to think about the darkness of death, the finality, the emptiness it left behind. No one deserves this, she thought. Not anyone. Not saints.
Not Miss Nelson.
Her gaze drifted to an elderly couple sitting at the front, trembling as they clung to one another.
“That’s her parents.” Grace whispered.
Vera stared at them. The lines of grief etched so deeply into their faces it seemed almost unfair. Parents shouldn’t have to bury their children. Shouldn’t have to face the raw, aching void where laughter and warmth once lived.
The ceremony began, though she couldn’t hear it. The words of the priest, the soft organ, the murmured prayers—all of it blurred behind the storm of her own thoughts.
Maybe it’s a dream, she thought. Maybe she'll wake up any second. Maybe Miss Nelson is somewhere in the crowd, laughing at how thoroughly she fooled them all.
She tried to summon her matron’s face, her voice, her warmth—but the memory only sharpened the ache. Each heartbeat crushed her chest until the tears she’d fought for hours finally burned down her cheeks.
Her sisters tightened their grip on her hands, a fragile shield against what she couldn’t bear alone. She couldn’t speak, couldn’t move, trapped in shock and disbelief. All she could do was beg, silently, for it not to be true.
The priest’s voice carried through the church, calm and steady. “If anyone wishes to say a few words in remembrance of Miss Rosemary Nelson, please come forward.”
One by one, people rose. Voices trembled, some whispering, others ringing with the strength of genuine love and admiration. Every story, every anecdote, made Vera’s chest ache, realizing just how universally cherished Miss Nelson had been.
And then, Mr. Nelson stood.
He looked small, worn by grief, yet there was something unshakably tender in the way he held himself.
“My little girl,” he began, and already his voice was breaking, “she was light… even when the world tried to dim her. When doctors told her—when she was just a child—that her heart was too fragile to last… do you know what she did? She smiled. She smiled at me and said, ‘God must love me, dad. He wants me closer to Him.’”
His words broke apart, his chest heaving. “She knew—she knew she didn’t have time to waste. While the rest of us clung to days as if they were endless, she treated each one as a gift already slipping through her fingers. Rose gave everything she had, even when it was only scraps of strength left in her. She volunteered at every shelter, threw herself into her studies so she could do more, be more… And in the end, she built a home for those who had no one.”
He lowered his head. “My baby girl carved out safety from her own short life...”
Vera felt the tears prick at her eyes again—this time not from shock, but from awe. She had known Miss Nelson as a guide, yet through her father’s words she glimpsed the depth of her life: the intention behind it, the quiet bravery in every act of kindness.
Some of the girls had sung. Others read passages from the Bible. But just as the ceremony began to conclude, the heavy wooden doors creaked, drawing every eye.
Kaya.
The spark that usually lived in her eyes, the quickness of her smile, the restless energy of her movements—gone.
“K…” Vera whispered.
But Kaya did not look at her. She did not look at anyone. Her gaze was fixed straight ahead, unblinking. Each step sounded heavier than the last, dragging her past every mourner, past every pair of pitying eyes, until she reached the lectern.
She set down a crumpled piece of paper, her hands trembling so violently she had to grip it with both. And then her voice broke through the silence.
“Miss Nelson was my mother when I didn’t have one.”
She straightened her shoulders, fighting to steady herself. “When my mum died, I thought the world had ended. I thought no one would ever hold me again, or love me again. But then there was her. Miss Nelson. She… she tucked me in at night when no one else would. She held my hand when I had fevers, braided my hair before school, listened to me ramble about the stupidest things like it actually mattered. She bought me a cake every birthday. She—She loved me enough to make me believe I wasn’t just some broken kid waiting to be forgotten. And now… Now I don’t know how to breathe without her."
Her voice collapsed, and she pressed a hand to her mouth, trying to hold herself together. "How do you walk through this world when the only person who made it bearable is taken from you? How do you keep going when the one who carried you, who filled the hole your family left, is just… gone?”
The church was thick with muffled sobs, the kind that people tried and failed to contain.
“She deserved more,” Kaya whispered hoarsely. “She deserved more time. More laughter. More love. And we—we will never forget her. Not for a second. Because she made us believe we mattered when no one else did.”
She raised her tear-streaked face toward the casket, her voice breaking into fragments. “I’ll carry you with me. Always. I’ll try to live like you lived—brave, kind, relentless. I’ll never forget you. I’ll never stop needing you. I’ll never stop loving you. You were my mother. And I don’t know how to say goodbye.”
The last words dissolved into sobs, and for a moment, it felt as if God Himself was weeping with her.
The crowd moved in hushed procession toward the burial ground. Vera walked slowly, clutching Lola, who clung to her like a lifeline. The casket waited above the torn earth, and for a moment she couldn’t breathe. It felt wrong that someone like Miss Nelson, who had been all warmth and noise and laughter, could fit inside something so still. So small. So final.
Then the ropes groaned, and the casket sank inch by inch. Around her, grief broke loose, no longer restrained.
She pressed her lips into Lola’s hair. “It’s okay,” she whispered. “It’s gonna be okay.”
She wasn’t sure if she was trying to soothe the little girl in her arms or herself.
One by one, they stepped forward—laying roses, lilies, wildflowers too bright against the dirt. A scarf. A folded letter. A silver cross. Each gift a plea: please, don’t let her be gone.
When Vera’s turn came, her hands trembled as she pulled the drawing she had labored over all night. She traced every line from memory and love, from the desperate need to keep something alive. She knelt, smoothing the paper against the flowers.
“Goodbye, Miss Nelson,” she whispered. "Goodbye."
St. Mary's felt fuller than Vera had ever seen it. She sat on the sagging couch with her sisters tucked close, silent, just… watching. People streamed in and out of the cramped rooms—faces she knew, faces she barely recognized, faces she never thought would bother to come.
In one corner, Danger had wrapped an arm around Lydia, murmuring into her hair as she sobbed. In the opposite corner, Mr. Dawson sat stiff-backed, a Bible open on his lap, though his eyes never dropped to a page.
And then she spotted Wes, standing beside his mother. He looked uncomfortable in his too-tight suit, shifting from foot to foot, but when he caught her eye, he managed a small wave and a smile. She lifted her hand back, the corners of her mouth twitching upward for the first time all day.
“Does your teacher always dress like that?” Grace suddenly said, jerking her chin toward Professor McGonagall, who was looking as though she’d been dropped at the house by mistake and was too proper to complain about it.
Vera blinked. “Like what?”
“You know… like she wandered straight out of a medieval painting.”
“She likes cloaks,” Vera muttered, trying not to smile.
“Must be a Scottish thing,” Mandy chimed in.
“Or maybe,” Andy said, “she's a member of some ancient coven that only meets under blood moons.”
Vera nearly snorted.
“And damn—your sponsor is fit,” Grace added with a smirk.
Vera smiled. “Yeah, he’s a handsome man.”
“I wasn’t talking about him, genius. I meant his wife.”
Vera turned, spotting Dom in the corner—arms crossed, toothpick in her mouth, radiating an effortless cool that should have been illegal indoors.
“Unbelievable she’s straight,” Andy sighed. “All that wasted potential. It’s like locking fine wine in a closet.”
Vera stared ahead, thinking how utterly stupid this whole conversation was—and how much she needed it.
“Maybe it’s one of those… Lilac marriages,” Mandy suggested.
Grace whipped around. “You mean lavender, you absolute moron.”
“Right. Lavender. Close enough.”
“Close enough?!” Andy groaned. “I should’ve eaten you in the womb.”
“Maybe you did,” Grace shot back. “Judging by how many brain cells she’s missing.”
Vera burst into giggles, her laughter bubbling out in a way that was contagious. Soon all four of them were laughing, shoulders bumping, tears and smiles mixing together in the strangest, saddest harmony. But just as quickly as it had come, the laughter dissolved into silence.
“It’s never gonna be the same again, is it?” Mandy finally said.
Vera swallowed hard. “No… but we still have each other. And that’s what Miss Nelson would have wanted. For us to hold on.”
The others nodded, their hands instinctively finding each other’s. Then Vera shifted, rising to her feet.
“Where are you going?” Grace asked.
“To find Kaya.”
She climbed the stairs to their room, but the bed was empty. The bathroom, the adjoining rooms—nothing. As she turned back down toward the second floor, a sound caught her ear. From Miss Nelson’s bedroom.
The door groaned as she pushed it open. The air inside felt different, almost holy. Her perfume lingered, like she’d only just stepped out.
On the bed lay Kaya, curled tightly around a photo frame. Miss Nelson, in paper crowns and tinsel, her arms wrapped around them one Christmas morning. Vera stood in the doorway for a moment, then slowly crossed the room. She didn’t say anything, just climbed onto the bed and lay down beside her.
“How didn’t we notice?” Kaya whispered. “She must’ve been sick for years… and we never saw.”
“We thought she was just tired." Vera murmured.
“All those ‘mystery boyfriends’… She wasn’t dating anyone. She was seeing doctors. And she never told us.”
“She didn’t want us to worry, K. She wanted us to stay kids.”
Kaya turned toward her. “It's not bloody fair, Vee. She was only thirty-nine. People like her shouldn’t be taken. There are monsters out there who live forever, and she…”
"I know..." Vera said. "I can't understand any of it either."
“She spent everything she had on us, you know. Every last bit. Because she knew she wouldn’t be here long.”
Vera tried to be steady, but the words broke out ragged. “I was going to tell her I loved her. At the train station back in September. I almost said it, but I didn't. I thought I had time. And now I’ll never—I’ll never get to.”
Kaya clutched her hand. “She knew, Vee. She didn’t need to hear it. She knew you loved her.”
The words should have been a balm, but they only twisted deeper. Vera sat up suddenly, wiping at her cheeks with the back of her hand. Without a word, she crossed the room to the old record player that sat on the dresser. Her fingers trembled as she slid a vinyl out of its sleeve, placed the needle carefully, and let the first notes of Miss Nelson's favorite song. drift into the room.
♪ Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power, but we never say never
Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip
The music's for the sad men ♪
She returned and wrapped her arms around Kaya, and they clung to each other. Kaya’s sobs came in waves, wracking her body. Vera pressed her face into her sister’s hair, her own tears spilling hot and unstoppable.
♪ So many adventures couldn't happen today
So many songs we forgot to play
So many dreams swinging out of the blue
We'll let them come true
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever?
Forever and ever ♪
They lay like that, tangled together in grief, listening to the song that now felt like a farewell written just for them. And when it ended, neither of them spoke. The silence was heavier than words, filled only with the ache of everything they’d lost and the unbearable truth that life would never be the same again.
After Vera returned to Hogwarts, everything felt different. The castle that was once alive now seemed unbearably hollow. She moved through the days as if her body were made of stone. She woke up because she had to, dressed because it was expected, dragged herself to classes because her legs remembered how to walk. She spoke only when teachers pressed her, ate only enough to keep herself from fainting, and spent the rest of her hours locked inside her own silence.
Her friends were gentle with her in ways they had never been before. McGonagall overlooked her missed homework. Flitwick excused her absent-minded mistakes. Even Snape, who had always been sharp with her, seemed to look at her differently—like he knew grief when he saw it. More than once, detentions were quietly canceled. It was as if the whole school had decided that her suffering was punishment enough.
One morning, Hagrid handed her a letter, breaking through her haze. She opened it with shaking fingers, and when she saw Kaya’s handwriting, her chest ached.
Dear Vee,
I hope you’re doing well. You haven’t written to me in a while. But I understand.
Things here are bad. They’ve brought us a new matron, and she’s the second coming of Satan himself. I can’t bear this anymore, Vera. I need you. But I’m also glad you’re not here to share the pain.
Anyways, I do have some good news. Miss Nelson left us all something. It’s not much, but it’s from her. She left you her entire book collection. They’re under your bed now, waiting for when you come back.
When I was going through them, I found a letter from her to you. I didn’t open it. But you have it now. I think whatever she wrote will give you solace. I know it will.
Write to me, Vee. I’m worried about you. And please don’t try to call. The new matron took the telephone.
Love,
Kaya
Vera sat with the letter in her hands, her tears staining the ink until the words blurred. She reached for the second one, addressed to her in Miss Nelson’s familiar handwriting. But when she touched the envelope, she froze.
What if it broke her completely? What if it healed her, and then the healing was gone?
She tucked the letter carefully into her bag, as if hiding it could delay the truth it held. She wasn’t ready. Not yet.
And so, with her heart heavier than before, she went on with her life. But she wasn’t living inside herself anymore. She was somewhere else, always circling the same thoughts.
How could someone so full of life be reduced to silence so quickly? How could anyone—child or adult—be punished with sickness?
And deeper than that, the question that dug its claws into her ribs and refused to let go: Why don’t wizards share their magic? Why do they sit on something that could save lives while muggles suffer?
The separation seemed like madness, an ancient law too cruel to be left unquestioned.
One night, during detention, the thoughts swarmed so thick she couldn’t sit still. Her eyes roamed the shadowy bookshelves lining Snape's office, and she rose without thinking, scanning the titles until a book caught her eye.
Advanced Magical Applications in Healing: Restoration of organs.
She pulled it down and opened it, flipping through diagrams of bodies repaired through arcane rituals. The language was dense, but the promise it carried was enough to make her lean closer, drinking in the words.
Only when the book was suddenly wrenched from her hands did she startle.
“Did I not assign you to copy down the Sopophorous properties?” Snape hissed.
She swallowed. "I'm—sorry, sir. I was just reading."
His gaze dropped to the book’s cover. “Restoration of organs?"
“I was… looking for an answer to something... Something I can’t stop thinking about.”
“And what could possibly be answered here?”
She swallowed again, avoiding his gaze. “Back when Warrington’s father refused to have his eye restored… you said, it’s not a severed hand, so it can be healed. I want to understand what you meant, sir.”
For a long moment, he just looked at her. His face gave nothing away, yet something flickered behind his eyes—something old and heavy.
“You won’t find your answer here,” he said at last.
“Why not?”
He closed the book with deliberate care and placed it back on the shelf. “Because the question isn’t whether we can restore a hand. But whether we are permitted to.”
Her brows furrowed. “Permitted? What do you mean?”
His eyes locked on hers again. He seemed to wrestle with himself, as though speaking further might cross some line he couldn’t uncross.
"Do not ask." He finally murmured. "And do not go looking for answers, either.”
She opened her mouth to press him further, but the door suddenly creaked open.
Ryu stepped inside, and her heart almost stopped beating.
He walked stiffly into the dungeon, his eyes fixed on Snape, not once glancing in her direction. In his hand was a rolled parchment.
“My apologies for the delay, sir,” he said. "I forgot we had an assignment."
“Two points from Ravenclaw.” Snape said, skimming the parchment. "Laziness is inexcusable."
Ryu nodded like he’d been expecting it, but he didn’t move. He lingered there, his posture taut, hands clasped behind his back. His eyes darted for the briefest second towards Vera, but swiftly retreated to the floor.
Snape’s gaze flicked between the two of them, and though his expression revealed nothing, something knowing glimmered in his eyes.
“Black,” he said smoothly, “I’ve just remembered I’m expected in the Headmaster’s office. I won’t be long.”
He stacked Ryu's parchment on his desk, then turned to her. “Don’t leave. Don’t touch. Don't steal. Don’t even breathe too loudly if you can help it.”
Vera nodded stiffly.
His eyes flicked to Ryu, lingering for a fraction longer than necessary, and then he swept out of the room, shutting the door behind him.
The office seemed to grow larger and smaller all at once. The crackle of the torches filled the silence, and Vera could hear her own pulse hammering in her ears. She sat frozen at her desk, eyes locked on the jars of pickled roots lined neatly against the wall, determined not to look at him. If she did, if she let herself see his face again, she knew she would crumble.
Ryu hadn’t moved, either. She could feel him still standing where Snape had left him, caught between staying and going.
The silence stretched, and she hated it. She hated how her chest ached, how badly she wanted to look at him, how much she didn’t.
“You’re… here late,” he finally said.
“Detention.”
“I know,” he murmured. "You’ve had… a lot of them lately.”
She wanted to bite back, to make some snide remark about him keeping track, but the energy wasn’t there.
He took a step closer. “Vera…”
The sound of her name on his tongue made her want to cry.
"I’m sorry," he whispered. “For your matron. For your uncle. May they rest in peace.”
For a moment she thought he’d retreat then and there, but instead, he stepped closer, his movements hesitant, like someone approaching a wounded bird.
“You don’t deserve this, Vee,” he said softly. “Any of it. You deserve… more. So much more than what the world keeps throwing at you.”
She stared down at her desk, fighting the heat rising behind her eyes.
"And I'm sorry..." He went on. "For what happened between us."
"It's not like it was your fault—"
"But it was."
He took another step, close enough now that she could see the trembling in his hands. “I should've been brave enough. I should've stood up to my father—should've claimed you. But I was a coward. I was selfish—I asked you to give up your family, just so I wouldn't have to give up mine."
His eyes darkened, glistening with tears he could no longer hold back. "I don't deserve your forgiveness, Vera. But I want you to know that I regret everything that I said. About your uncle—your family. About your muggle friends... I regret it all."
Her heart cracked under the sheer honesty of his words, and yet—because it was too late now—it broke even more.
"I should be the one asking for forgiveness, Ryu."
He blinked. “For what?”
"Lying. Hurting you. And... For what I did to Cassius.”
He shook his head. "You did nothing wrong. He had it coming all along. When I heard his father slapping you—it broke me. But I'm glad you stood up to him. And I hope one day Cassius would have the courage to do the same."
"So... You don't hate me?"
Gently, almost reverently, he reached for her hand, cradling it in both of his. “I could never hate you, Vera. In fact… I love you. I will always love you.”
Her eyes blurred before she knew it, tears slipping free against her will. This was everything she ever wanted to hear. Yet, she knew it was wrong.
Slowly, she let her hand slip from his grasp. “We can’t be together, Ryu.”
He closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, tears spilled freely down his cheeks. “I know. But I’ll love you still.”
Her body screamed to reach for him, to cling to him, but her mind held her back. She stared into his eyes, seeing her own longing reflected there, and it nearly killed her.
He turned at last, his shoulders heavy, his steps slow as he began to walk towards the door.
And then, before she could stop herself—
“Ryu…”
Slowly, almost fearfully, he turned back to her.
“One last time?” she whispered.
A fragile, aching smile curved his lips, and in three long strides he was before her again. His hands rose to her face with reverence, and then he kissed her—deeply, desperately—pouring every shard of love into that single moment.
When at last they parted, neither could bear to let go. They clung to each other as if the world itself might tear them apart.
“I’ll be here for you." He whispered against her ear. "Always.”
“Do you think… we’ll ever be together again?”
He pulled back just enough to look at her, eyes fierce with a promise he had no right to make yet couldn’t help but give. “We will. I swear it. But until then—you have to take care of yourself. Be strong. And… never cut your hair.”
A small, choked laugh escaped her. “Never?”
“Never,” he said firmly, as though the vow itself held them together.
She nodded, smiling through the ache, then leaned in, capturing his lips once more. This time, she refused to let go. Neither did he. They kissed as if the moment could stretch into forever, until the weight of parting finally pulled them apart.
When he stepped back, he couldn’t bear to look at her—his eyes dropped, shoulders taut with the effort of leaving. And then he was gone.
She couldn’t let go of his taste on her lips even after days. It lingered, bittersweet, like something she both craved and resented. But she knew she had to move on. She now had her closure with Ryu—painful, imperfect, but enough.
June slipped past her like a shadow, and she scarcely noticed its passing. The castle walls hummed with gossip, every corridor alive with whispers about Professor Quirrell’s strange and untimely death. Students traded theories with eager voices, the mystery crackling like fire between them. But she remained untouched by it all.
Grief had wrapped itself around her so tightly that the world beyond her sorrow seemed distant, muffled, as though she were trapped behind glass. Days bled into nights, and still she could not shake the hollow ache that left her blind to everything but her own losses.
On the last day of school, she found herself a quiet spot on one of the swirling staircases outside, the kind that overlooked the castle grounds in their full, daunting majesty. The sun dipped low, casting everything in a golden haze, and she just sat there, knees hugged to her chest, thinking about everything that had happened, and everything that was waiting for her outside these walls.
Suddenly, Tommy appeared, swaggering dramatically into view.
“There you are,” he said, plopping down beside her. “I’ve been looking all over. Did you eat?”
“I’m not hungry.”
He dug into his robes and pulled out a slightly squashed sandwich. "This survived Charms class, a Quidditch match, and me nearly sittin’ on it. Show some respect and eat it.”
She wrinkled her nose. “No, thanks.”
“Fine then." He said, whipping a packet of cigarettes out of his pocket. "If you’re too posh for my sandwich, then you’re definitely not gettin’ this."
Her eyes flew wide. “Are you insane? We’ll get expelled!”
“Already got two nights’ detention for ‘em,” he said coolly, sliding one halfway out. "Which, frankly, is something you could handle.”
"Does Alicia know you smoke?"
"Yeah, thinks it's hot."
She snorted. “What about Cedric? Mr. Perfect surely has an opinion.”
He rolled his eyes. “Ced gave me a five-minute speech about lung capacity and Quidditch careers. He nicked the packet off me once and tossed it in the lake—nearly cried when a giant fish ate it.”
She smiled despite herself, and reached for a cigarette.
“Not until you eat,” he said, pulling the packet away.
“Unbelievable,” she muttered, but tore off a bite of the poor, flattened sandwich.
“Atta girl." He said. "Now, watch the master.”
With a flourish, he lit a cigarette and then one for her, demonstrating like he was giving a lecture. But to his utter horror, she didn’t cough, didn’t even flinch—just inhaled as if she’d been sneaking cigarettes since birth.
“My brain feels like it’s floating,” she murmured.
“Exactly,” he grinned, drawing on his own.
“You’re corrupting me, Thomas."
He smirked. “You're already corrupted, love.”
She stared out at the horizon for a long moment, smoke curling from her lips, then fished something small from her bag.
“Here." She said, shoving the golden cross toward him. "Forgot to return this.”
He shoved it right back. “Keep it, if you want.”
She exhaled sharply. “I don’t even know if I believe in it anymore.”
He swiftly turned to her. “Don’t say that, Vee… God’s real. And He loves you.”
She barked out a bitter little chuckle. “Really? Loves me? When He took my favorite person in the world? When my own mother’s still a ghost, nowhere to be found? When the only family I had that promised to stand by me is dead? When I can’t even be with the only boy I’ve ever truly loved?”
Tommy’s jaw tightened. He looked away, chewing on his words.
“If God’s real," she pushed on, "why’d He let any of this happen, huh? What the hell did I do to deserve it?”
“Don’t think of it like that. He’s got plans for us. Better ones. Sometimes He takes away so He can give us more. You’ll be alright, I swear it.”
Her eyes glistened. “I don’t know… I don’t feel like I’ll ever be right again. Not after this year.”
“You will,” he said firmly. “You just gotta believe it.”
She drew on her cigarette, fighting back tears. “I just... For the first time ever, I don’t want to go home.”
"Then come to mine.”
She gave a small laugh. “Don’t be ridiculous.”
“I’m not. Take my bed. I’ll kip on the roof.”
She shook her head. “You've got enough sisters as it is, Toms.”
“Could always use one more. Especially if it’s you.”
A real smile carved on her lips, faint but bright enough to crack through the heaviness.
“I’ve gotta be there for my own sisters,” she said quietly. “Whatever’s coming… I know it’s not good. But they’ll need me.”
He studied her for a long moment, then nodded slowly. “As long as you’ve got each other, nothing else matters.”
Then, with a stretch and a groan, he popped back onto his feet. “Anyway, we’re throwing one last party before freedom hits. And you, darling, are coming whether you like it or not.”
She smirked, shaking her head. “Fine. I’ll be there.”
He gave her a satisfied nod and sauntered off, leaving her alone again with her cigarette, her thoughts, and the slow-setting sun. She exhaled and stared into the horizon, trying—really trying—to imagine the future as something good.
Then it struck her.
The letter.
Her fingers shook as she drew it from her pocket. It’s time, she told herself. No more running. With a steadying breath, she unfolded it, bracing for the words inside.
My dearest Vera,
If you are reading this, it means I can no longer be beside you. But don’t think for one moment that means you are alone. You carry me with you—always. In your laughter, in your stubbornness, in your kindness, and even in your tears.
I know life has not been gentle with you. It may not be for some time. But hear me, Vera: pain does not diminish you. It shapes you. It sharpens your eyes so you can see truth where others see lies. It deepens your heart so you can love in ways others cannot.
There will be days when you want to give up. Don’t. There is always more to come, more to fight for, more to hope for. Even when you can’t see it yet.
You are strong, Vera. Stronger than you realize. But you don’t have to be strong every moment of every day. Let others carry you when you are tired. Let love in, even when it frightens you. Especially then.
And when in doubt, draw. Create. Make beauty from the darkness. That is your gift, and the world needs it.
So walk forward, my girl, with your head high. I am so proud of you. No matter what you become. No matter what you do.
With all my love,
Rosemary Nelson
Vera’s vision blurred as the words dissolved into tears. She pressed the letter to her chest, letting the sobs shake through her. And yet, when her gaze finally lifted to the endless sky above, her trembling lips found the courage to form the faintest smile.
Her story was far from over. Fate itself, was waiting. And all it asked of her was a little faith.
***
Dear readers,
If you’ve made it this far, thank you—from the depths of my heart. This story is not just words; it is my lifeline. Every sentence carries pieces of my tears, my grief, my memories, and the weight of a world that has not been kind to me. I write because I must. I write to survive.
There are nights when the darkness whispers to me, when the thought of ending everything feels closer than I’d like to admit. But then I think of Vera—her story, still unfinished. And if she still has chapters left to live, then so do I. Maybe that’s why these pages stretch on and on—because whenever I grow weary of life, I return to the screen, pour myself into her, and keep going.
So if you are here, reading, feeling, breathing alongside these words—know this: you have given me proof that my life is worth something. That my voice, fragile as it is, matters. That my writing is not only read, but received. And in that, I find a reason to stay.
Vera’s story isn’t over—not by a long shot. Yes, this part dragged its feet a little, but that was on purpose. Every painful moment, every heartbreak, every scar—none of it is wasted. Everything she endures now is chiseling the shape of who she’s becoming. Every choice she makes is a ripple stretching into her future, a thread pulling her closer to justice… even if she doesn’t yet recognize it as such.
So, bear with me. I’m dreaming big for this saga—much bigger than it may seem right now—and I can’t wait to take you along for the ride.
But before we continue, there’s something you should know. My writing thrives on symbolism and foreshadowing. At its core, this story is about fate. Is it etched in stone or carved by our own hands? That question is the heartbeat of every scene. Which means nothing is random. Nothing is filler. From the music Vera hums, to the pages she reads, to the people she meets, every detail is stitched with intention. (Yes, even the baking—especially the baking. You’ll see.) And don’t get me started on the eye colors—those aren’t just descriptions, they’re breadcrumbs.
So if you think I’m doing too much with “just a fanfic”… You’re in for a surprise.
As for what’s next—oh, buckle up. You remember how Harry’s second year was pure terror, with the Chamber of Secrets open and Muggleborns getting attacked left and right? Well, for the fourth-years, it’s a different kind of chaos. Honestly, they’ll be so busy being dramatic, hormonal teenagers, you might find yourself secretly wishing they got petrified—just to get a break from their unhinged antics.
It’s going to be messy, hilarious, heart-wrenching, and all the fun you didn’t know you needed. I won’t spoil too much, but the plot ahead is so twisty and fresh, you’ll probably catch yourself wanting to join them… or at least throw a book at them when they act up.
The first chapter drops soon, but until then, I need you. Share this fic with your friends, splash it on social media, and most importantly—give me your wildest insights, your fan theories, your dream castings. Don’t hold back. Everything you’ve wanted to say but maybe felt too shy to type? I want it. Your comments are what keep me going.
I love you all so much I wish I could teleport and hug each of you at the same time. Thank you for supporting me. Seriously. You make all the late nights and tears worth it. And I promise—I’m going to make this story keep surprising, thrilling, and hopefully delighting you every single step of the way.
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Chapter 91: Turner
Notes:
Thank you all for your kind words and messages. They’ve truly kept me going. ❤️
Now, it’s time to unveil Part IV of the saga: Vera’s fourth year.
Fair warning: things are about to get darker.
The theme this year is reputation—a word that seems stitched into every coming-of-age story, and yet one that carries very real scars. This part of the story will navigate the murky waters of oversexualization, shaming, and the cruelty often faced simply for existing in your own skin.
Alongside the lighter moments and mischievous detours, you'll be confronting sensitive subjects head-on: child abuse, religious abuse, sexual harassment, and drug addiction. This part will also include underage sex.
These aren’t easy topics to write about, and they won’t always be easy to read. But storytelling is a journey—sometimes joyful, sometimes painful—and if you trust where it’s going, the road becomes a little lighter.
So buckle up. Vera’s about to make every wrong choice imaginable, and somehow, you just might root for her anyway.
And if you thought last year was messy, wait until you see what’s coming.
Expect late-night wild parties that blur into morning, fistfights that break out in the most inconvenient of places, and those heart-stopping “who did this to you?” moments that change everything.
Gossip columns will run hotter than the Great Hall’s fire, prank wars will spiral gloriously out of control, and someone will decide that opening a business at Hogwarts is a brilliant idea (what could possibly go wrong?).
Add in cheating scandals, forbidden romances, secrets traded in dark corners, and a relentless hunt for the one who dared open the Chamber of Secrets—and you’ve got yourself a year where every page threatens betrayal, laughter, or heartbreak (sometimes all at once).
Oh, and did I mention? Not everyone is making it out of this one unscathed.
Chapter Text
Part IV: The Descendant
To the girls who've been shamed for shining. And to those who've been reduced to whispers and labels instead of remembered as wonders.
This one's for you.
Chapter 91: Turner
Monday, July 20, 1992
The daily prophet
Lucius Malfoy Appointed as Head of Hogwarts Board of Governors
The name itself was enough to sour Vera's stomach. Since summer started, she had tried to push all of last school year's memories down like spoiled food. Yet there they were again, crawling back up her throat as she stared at the Prophet’s ink.
In the wake of Professor Quirinus Quirrell’s untimely and mysterious demise, the Hogwarts Board of Governors has undergone sudden changes. At the helm now stands Lucius Malfoy, a well-respected figure within the Ministry and one of the most prominent benefactors of the school. Sources close to the board suggest these shifts reflect growing unease over Headmaster Albus Dumbledore’s leadership. Questions are being raised: is Hogwarts truly as safe as it once was? Or has the death of a teacher exposed cracks in the venerable institution’s foundations? While Dumbledore insists the school remains in capable hands, critics argue that the Headmaster has grown lax, allowing danger to creep too close to young witches and wizards.
“Utter bollocks,” Vera muttered, flipping the page with more force than necessary.
“—vanished without a trace, I tell you,” Birdy insisted.
“Or worse,” Donnie said darkly. “No one just dies like that.”
The two had wedged themselves into the booth across from her at Birdy’s Inn, nursing mugs of mint-and-honey tea. They’d been droning on about the news since before the food even landed, and by now she was about one speculation away from pouring their tea over their heads.
“You were there," Birdy turned to her. "What really happened?”
She sighed, setting the paper flat. “I've got no clue. One day he was teaching us how to fight hinkypunks, the next day McGonagall marched in looking like she’d swallowed vinegar and told us he was dead. No explanation. Nothing.”
Birdy and Donnie exchanged one of those looks, the kind that made her want to toss her toast at them.
“Relax,” she said with a crooked grin. “Maybe Cat Flu got the better of him. Or maybe—” she leaned in conspiratorially, “—one of his creatures ate him whole.”
“Not funny,” Donnie snapped.
“Oh, lighten up. At Hogwarts you trip over ghosts on your way to breakfast. Death’s practically in the syllabus.” She stabbed a bit of egg with her fork. “Personally, I just hope no one dies this year.”
Birdy tilted his head. “So… how was he like, exactly?”
“He was fine. Clumsy. Bit of a laugh, really. Not the worst professor we’ve had.” She paused. “Except for the time he called me a traitor.”
Donnie nearly dropped his cup. “I’m sorry, what?”
“You heard me.” she said, popping the egg into her mouth. “He called me that exact word. Then denied it a second later. Very odd. I figured he was just mad at the turban squeezing his brain.”
Donnie stared at her, jaw tight, clearly waiting for her to take it seriously. But she just shrugged, reaching for the Wizarding Chronicle.
“He’s dead now." She said. "No use fretting about a man who can’t explain himself.”
She buried her eyes in the paper, though her mind was elsewhere. Not on Malfoy, not on Quirrel, but on the way the ghosts of last year refused to let her be.
Birdy drummed his fingers on the table. “So then... what did you end up buying today?”
“Books,” she said, spearing another piece of sausage. “Spent the last of the coins my uncle gave me. Well, almost last. A few clinkers left rolling about at the bottom of my bag.”
Birdy frowned, then—too casually—slipped a hand into his pocket. But Vera's fork was up in an instant, inches from his nose.
“Don’t.”
He froze. “Vera—”
“I mean it,” she cut in, eyes flashing. “If you give me one sickle, I swear I’ll burn that ridiculous mustache of yours.”
He chuckled, leaning back and holding his palms up in surrender. “Merlin’s beard, you’re vicious.”
She set the fork back down and returned to her food as though nothing had happened.
"But how do you plan to buy the rest of your stationery?" He asked. "Ink, quills, parchment? Don’t tell me you’re planning to carve your essays into stone tablets.”
“I’ll manage,” she said simply, washing down her bite with pumpkin juice. “I always do.”
Donnie watched her a long beat before exhaling softly. “You might be late, kiddo.”
“Can I stay here a bit longer?” she asked. "Please..."
Something shifted between Birdy and Donnie: a small alarm.
“Course," Birdy shrugged, doing his best to keep the mood light. "You’re not bothering anyone.”
But Donnie stayed on the edge. “How’s everything back home?”
Vera stayed silent, picking at the rim of her plate.
“Hey,” Birdy softly said. “It’s gonna be okay, eh? It’s only a month until term starts.”
"Yeah, I’ll escape,” she sighed. “But my sisters won’t. And I’d rather be the one taking the beatings than them.”
Donnie’s face dropped. “They fucking beat you?!”
She snapped her head to him. “No, no... Definitely not. I was only... speaking metaphorically.”
But he didn’t look convinced. He opened his mouth, closed it, then looked away toward the window as if searching for proof of the sky.
Birdy cleared his throat. “If you need to—well, if you need somewhere to go for a bit, you know Birdy’s spare room’s not exactly grand, but—”
“It’s fine,” she said, too quick. “Really.”
"Vera—"
“Any chance I could have more sausage, Bird?”
His face softened instantly. “’Course. You sit tight.” He slid out of the booth and headed toward the kitchen.
The moment he was gone, Donnie leaned in. “Anyone at school bothering you?”
She shook her head. “No.”
“What about that Warrington boy?” His tone sharpened like a knife.
"No. He never talked to me again after… you know. After what happened.”
“Good. But listen—this year, if anyone so much as looks at you the wrong way, you write me. Got it?”
“Yeah, yeah.”
“No, Vera.” His voice rose, sharp and angry now. “Promise me. Promise you’ll tell me.”
She rolled her eyes. “Fine. I promise. You’re a colossal pain, by the way.”
“I’m a vigilant colossal pain. I don’t want a howler from McGonagall saying you’ve been stabbed.”
She snorted. “If anyone’s doing the stabbing, it’ll probably be me, Don."
“Still. Hogwarts is getting strange. And after what you went through last year—”
“I don’t want to talk about last year.”
“You can’t keep doing this, Vera. It’s not healthy—"
“Is Birdy butchering a cow for that sausage?" she interrupted, scanning the door. "Why is he late?”
“You can’t keep living in him,” Donnie said, ignoring the stall tactic. “I’ve told you a hundred times—he doesn’t deserve you.”
She swallowed the rebuttal. But inside, a war: the kiss she’d stolen with Ryu, his soft promises that they'd find their way back, the secret she couldn’t drag into the open. If Donnie knew, the look on his face would ruin her.
“Right—new plan," he continued, seeing her shut down, "This year, you hang around decent boys. Boys who don’t make the rest of us want to gnaw our own ears off.”
“How about I don’t hang around boys at all?”
“Even better,” he admitted, relief flickering. "Though—what about that Diggory lad in your class?”
“What of him?”
“He seems decent.”
Her face flushed. “Donnie. No. He's got a girlfriend.”
“Snatch him.”
She nearly choked. “Huh?”
“When I told Remy how I felt, she dumped the other bloke. Now she’s mine.”
She hated the way warmth crept into her chest at his story. “That’s low, Don.”
“Yeah, but it worked.” He grinned, trying to coax a real smile from her.
"You’re such an arse," she said with a chuckle.
"Takes one to know one.”
Just then, Birdy returned with a plate piled high with sausages.
“Hot and greasy, just how you like them,” he said, setting it down with a grin.
Vera smiled, already reaching for one. "You're a legend."
He slid the plate closer to her, then walked to the counter and reached for a small paper bag. He began to fill it quietly: an extra roll, a handful of sausages, even a slice of pie he’d set aside earlier. Then he went back and set it in front of her without ceremony.
“Here. For later."
Vera froze, staring at the bag. Her throat tightened, and for a second she thought she might choke on the lump forming there. She understood exactly why he’d done it. Because he knew. Because he’d seen right through her stubborn jokes and her bravado.
The shame stung, but when she finally looked up at him, she forced a smile. And it wasn’t entirely false.
“Thank you,” she said softly, taking the bag.
Birdy just nodded, pretending to busy himself with the sugar jar, while Donnie watched her with that same protective frown.
After finishing her meal, she murmured her goodbyes, and with one last look at the two of them, stepped into the fireplace. The green flames spat her out into the dim-lit hearth of Mrs. Wriggleshore’s. She brushed the soot from her jeans, then glanced up.
The old witch was in her usual chair by the kitchen wall, surrounded by the familiar chorus of ticking clocks. But tonight, something was different.
She wasn’t scowling at the world as she usually did, nor was her mouth curled in that perpetual look of disapproval. Her face—always so sharp and stern—looked sunken, softened. Sad.
Vera hesitated, then stepped closer. “Mrs. Wriggleshore?” she asked carefully. “Is everything… alright?”
The woman didn’t even twitch, her gaze fixed ahead, unblinking.
Vera followed it and found herself staring at the photograph on the wall, framed right in the center of all the clocks. The same picture she’d noticed before: a boy, frowning faintly, frozen forever in that single moment.
She tried again. “Are you ever going to tell me who he is?”
Mrs. Wriggleshore's eyes glistened, but she remained silent, as though the question hadn’t been asked at all.
Vera shifted her weight, waiting, but the silence grew heavier. Finally, she turned, clutching the bag tighter against her side. But she had barely taken a step when the old witch’s voice broke through the ticking silence.
“Jack.”
Vera turned back, slowly.
Mrs. Wriggleshore’s eyes had not moved from the photograph, but her lips trembled as she whispered, “He’s my darling boy. Jack.”
Vera’s breath caught. “Is he… is he alright?”
A single tear slipped down the old woman's cheek, carving a fragile line into the hard stone of her face.
“He is," she whispered. "But time is slipping away.”
Vera’s eyes darted to the wall of clocks. Only two still ticked on stubbornly, their hands stuttering forward. The rest had stopped. Every one of them. All frozen at six.
Her stomach knotted, but a sharp sound tore the stillness apart—two cats screeching.
She spun around just in time to see them clawing and spitting on the sofa in the living room. She rushed over, and yanked them apart by their scruffs. But as she did, her eye caught on something strange.
The cats had ripped the upholstery wide open, leaving behind more than shredded fabric. Inside the sofa, buried in the stuffing, lay a pile of wands. Dozens of them. Some splintered, some intact, some bound with string as if someone had tried to hold them together.
She turned. “Mrs. Wriggleshore—what—”
But the chair was empty. The old witch was gone.
She searched the kitchen, the hallway, even the shadows pooling under the staircase. Nothing. Not even the sound of breathing. With an uneasy feeling, she opened the door and stepped out, the pile of hidden wands burned into her mind.
She descended the creaky steps, her mind still tangled, only to stop short at the sight outside.
Wes stood by a beat-up car at the curb, the boot open, arms busy stuffing in bags. He looked up, hair falling into his eyes, and the grin that broke across his face when he saw her made something in her chest loosen.
She smoothed her hair quickly and stepped forward. “Need a hand?”
“Cheers,” he said, tugging a strap tight. “But I’m almost done.”
Her eyes flicked to the load in the back: sleeping bags, a cooler, and, sticking out awkwardly, an electric guitar. “You moving out or something?”
He nudged the guitar case into place. “Nah. Just camping for a music festival with some mates.”
She forced the envy down, replacing it with a smile that felt almost natural. “And here I thought you were running away.”
He chuckled. “Not yet. Might meet a few producers there, though. Learn a thing or two.”
“Good luck, then. Knock their socks off.”
He closed the boot with a firm slam and turned to her. “And you? Staying put?”
She shrugged. “Nowhere else to go, is there?”
“Funny. You’re usually the one who packs up and leaves us. Guess it’s my turn.”
The laugh slipped out of her before she could stop it.
Wes smiled, then hunched lower, wrestling with a stubborn duffel bag in the back seat.
Vera’s gaze slid toward his house, freezing when she caught Lydia and Danger watching from behind a window. They didn’t move, just stood there, eyes fixed on her. She forced herself to look away, cleared her throat, and turned back to Wes.
“Hey… have you noticed anything strange about Mrs. Wriggleshore lately?”
He straightened, brushing his hair back. “Yeah. Haven’t been seeing her much these days. Why?”
“Nothing. Just… something feels off.”
“She’s probably at her final stage.”
Her brow furrowed. “Final stage?”
“Of her Alzheimer’s.”
“Oh... Right.”
He shut the car door and walked over, his expression softening as he drew close. “Keep an eye on her, yeah? She’s dear to me.”
Vera nodded. “I will.”
He studied her a moment longer. “And what about you... you doing alright?”
“Yeah,” she said quickly, forcing a small smile. “Everything’s fine.”
"Are you sure? ‘cause I heard screaming coming from your house the other day.”
Her heart slammed against her ribs. “It was nothing,” she said too fast. “Really.”
He didn’t look convinced, but after a pause he only sighed. “Take care of yourself, eh?”
“Yeah, don’t worry about me,” she shot back with a smirk. “Worry about that mud that’s gonna go straight up your arse at your little festival.”
He laughed, and her chest ached at how handsome he looked when he grinned like that.
“Goodbye, star,” he said, turning back to his car.
He gave one last smile, then drove off down the narrow lane. She kept waving, kept smiling, until his car vanished from view. Then, slowly, her smile dissolved, leaving her face bare and heavy in the quiet street.
After a moment spent basking in envy, she hurried up the path and straight into St. Mary’s yard.
Lola was in the dirt again, her dolls set up in some bizarre tableau—one hanging from the shrub by its hair, another face-down in the soil, the rest arranged like soldiers mid-slaughter. Kaya sat on the porch steps, wearing her usual look of bored command.
“Gestapo here yet?” Vera asked, lowering her voice.
“Almost.” Kaya’s eyes flicked up. “You’re late.”
“Yeah, well—” Vera shoved the paper bag in her face, “—here’s my apology.”
Kaya ripped it open, irritation gone the instant the smell hit her. “Finally! Meat. I was about to build a memorial to the bloody potato.” She whistled sharply. “Oi, Lola! Drop your rituals and get over here.”
Lola scampered across the yard, dolls abandoned mid-trial. Kaya fished out a sausage and shoved it into her mouth. “Eat it fast, before the warden shows up.”
Lola bit down, grease running down her chin, and let out a muffled squeal of delight.
“Better than your mash experiments?” Vera quipped.
“Don’t get smart,” Kaya shot back. “Come on, upstairs. Before anyone smells the evidence.”
The two slipped inside, and bounded up the stairs with the bag. In their shared bedroom, Vera kicked the door shut with her heel and began peeling off her outdoor clothes.
Kaya was already on the bed, tearing into a sausage like a wolf.
“Alright,” she said around a mouthful, “where’d the money come from? Don’t tell me you robbed someone out there.”
Vera tugged a jumper over her head. “Relax. It was from my last allowance. Been saving.”
“Saving?” Kaya snorted, shoving another bite in. “You? Since when do you save instead of blow it on makeup and—”
“Books,” Vera cut in, shimmying into her pyjamas. “And yes, that’s exactly what I bought this time. Nothing else.”
"Very glamorous."
Vera smirked, flopping down beside her. “Speaking of glamorous, I saw Wes leaving earlier.”
“Leaving where?”
“Some music festival.”
Kaya groaned, tossing her head back against the wall. “Of course. Everyone’s life is a bloody festival except ours.”
“Tell me about it,” Vera murmured, staring at the ceiling.
That’s when the sound came. A door downstairs, opening and closing. Heavy steps.
Their eyes snapped to each other.
“Hide it,” Kaya hissed.
They scrambled, shoving the paper bag under the bed. Vera snatched a bottle from the dresser and sprayed the air with some sharp cheap perfume. Then they each grabbed a bible from the nightstand, snapping them open. By the time the footsteps reached the stairs, they were sitting side by side, angelic as saints, lips moving over holy verses they weren’t really reading.
They waited, hearts thundering, praying the footsteps would pass them by. But instead, they grew louder—closer. Until the door creaked open, and she entered.
Mrs. Turner.
Or as the girls liked to call her, Gestapo.
Tall and unyielding, she carried herself with the air of a warden rather than a matron. Her posture was so rigid it seemed her very bones had been forged from iron. Not a line of her ghostly face betrayed warmth; it was set in perpetual sternness, lips pressed thin as though even a smile might be a sin. Her grey hair was drawn back so severely it tugged the skin at her temples, heightening the starkness of her features. And then there were her eyes—pale, glacial things, sharp as glass and colder than frost. They never met you, only pierced through, probing, weighing, and condemning.
The two girls stiffened, barely daring to breathe.
Mrs. Turner’s gaze swept the room slowly, like a predator scanning a cage, before settling on Kaya. "Have you been in your bed since morning?”
Kaya’s throat bobbed. “No, ma’am, I—”
“Stand up when you answer me.”
Both girls leapt to their feet, hands clasped behind their backs, eyes fixed to the floor.
Kaya tried again. “I—I did the laundry. And now I’m catching up on my studies.”
No reaction from Turner. No flicker of approval. Nothing.
Her eyes shifted to Vera. “And you?”
Vera swallowed hard, the dryness in her throat almost choking her. “I was helping her.”
Turner stepped closer, her fingers gripping her chin and wrenching her face upward. “Are you wearing makeup?”
Vera’s pulse roared in her ears. “It’s… only eyeliner.”
For a heartbeat, Turner said nothing. Then she released her abruptly, Vera stumbling back as her skin burned where the fingers had pressed.
Turner moved to the dresser, opened a drawer then drew out the little pencil of eyeliner like it was a weapon. She held it between two fingers, sneering, then turned to the wall. Her gaze locked on the poster of The Stone Roses. Bright, rebellious colors that suddenly felt garish under her stare.
“I gave instructions,” she said, her voice low and venomous, “that all images of heretics were to be removed.”
Ever since her arrival, she had insisted they scrub every piece of themselves from the room—posters, bright cushions, chipped mugs with silly slogans, even the faded strip of paint they'd once dared call an accent. One by one those pieces had gone; the bedrooms hollowed out until the walls themselves seemed to be deprived of joy.
Kaya scrambled to the wall, yanked the poster free, and folded it nervously in her hands before presenting it.
Turner took it as though handling filth. “I’ll burn them. And hear me—if I ever find you listening to that blasphemy behind my back... I’ll know.”
Both girls nodded quickly, heads bowed.
Turner turned to Kaya. "Kitchen. Now.”
Kaya didn’t even glance at Vera. She slipped out, relief painted on her face but tension still riding her shoulders.
Turner’s gaze returned to Vera. “You. With me.”
Vera’s stomach lurched, her hands clammy under the gloves. Every instinct screamed to run, but her feet obeyed as always, carrying her toward the suffocating dark of Mrs. Turner’s office.
Once inside, her eyes darted around, and the ache hit her at once. The walls, once alive with scraps of the girls’ drawings—rainbows, clumsy horses, lopsided houses—were now bare. Gone too were Miss Nelson’s little treasures: the photograph of Dolly Parton, the bright crocheted shawl slung over the chair, the bowl of peppermints she used to offer the girls.
However, one thing remained.
There, on the desk, the statue: Madonna and Child. Miss Nelson’s most cherished possessions. Once soft, tender. Now sitting like a prisoner. Possessed. Stolen. Desecrated.
It made Vera’s blood boil, but Turner’s voice tore her from the thought.
“I’ve gone over your school records.”
Vera's pulse spiked so hard it nearly deafened her.
Turner slipped a folder from her desk drawer and spread the parchment pages like evidence in a trial. “Your marks…” Her mouth twisted. “…horrible. Sloppy. Mediocre. Twentieth in your class. Out of how many?”
Vera’s lips fumbled. “Th-thirty-five.”
Turner seemed to smell the lie but let it pass. “Even so, that is nothing to be proud of. Nothing.”
Her fingers tapped the desk once, a sound like the crack of a whip. “English, history, chemistry, arts... But no mention of biblical studies. Why have you not taken it?”
"It’s… not a course at my school.”
Turner’s hand slapped the desk, rattling the Madonna statue. “Do not give me excuses! Not a course? Then you demand it! You seek it! You fight for your soul!”
“I—I didn’t know how—”
“You know how to paint your eyes black like a Jezebel. You know how to plaster filth on your walls. But you don’t know how to find God?”
“I—I—”
“How many times did you go to mass in the last ten months?”
Vera’s lips barely moved. “None.”
Turner’s face twisted. “None? Ten months in Scotland, and you didn’t step into His house once. Not once! Tell me, do you laugh at Him behind our backs? Do you mock Him in your heart?”
Vera’s chest heaved. “No, ma’am—”
“You are a disgrace,” Turner spat. “If this continues, I will drag you out of that school and keep you under my roof where the Devil can’t get his claws in you. Do you understand? I will not have you turned into some painted, heathen."
Vera’s eyes stung. “I’ll do better. I’ll study scripture all summer. I promise.”
"Promises are cheap. Repentance is blood. And I’ll see it in yours if I must.”
Vera stared at the floor, mute, too afraid to speak.
The silence dragged until Turner snapped the folder shut with a crack like a gunshot.
“Tell me,” she said, “did you leave this house while I was gone?”
Vera swallowed. "No, ma'am—"
“Don’t lie to me!" Turner shouted, the desk cracking under her palm as it slammed down. "I know you left while I was away. I know you were on the street, speaking to that boy.”
"No—” Vera started, but Turner’s pale eyes bore into her and the word died.
“Do you think I don’t see it? The eyeliner smudged under your eyes, the cheap perfume still clinging to you. Do you think I wouldn't notice?”
Vera’s lips trembled. “We didn’t do anything—” she began, but Turner barked a laugh that had no humor in it.
“You expect me to believe you were idle and innocent? You were out. You met this boy. You were alone with him! Tell me plainly—did you two engage in filth?”
Vera shook her head hard. “No! Nothing. I swear.”
“If you lie to me now, child, I will see to it that the truth is discovered. I will test your purity myself.”
The single word dropped like a stone. Turner did not explain. She didn’t have to. The implication was a blade in Vera’s gut. Her vision tunneled with the memory of what that word had meant, the way it had been whispered in St. Mary's corridors like a death sentence.
It was a promise of indignity, of inspection, of a body catalogued and condemned. And the thought of it clawed at her insides, filled her with a terror so sharp she wanted to be sick.
Turner’s voice softened to poison. “I’ll let this pass—today. But mark me, if I find you out after tonight, I will not be merciful. And you will know what it costs to lie to me.”
“Ye-yes, ma'am.”
Turner’s eyes raked her, hungry for any tremor. “Your punishment: the kitchen. See to it that the pans shine. And do pray while you work."
Vera slipped out of the office, her pulse still hammering, her skin clammy with the echo of Turner’s threats. She wanted nothing more than to bolt upstairs, crawl under her blanket, and disappear. But across the hall, she caught sight of Lydia slouched in the armchair, a bottle tilted toward one of the babies.
Since Turner’s arrival, the staff Miss Nelson had so carefully assembled had been dismissed without ceremony. What remained was a single nurse, one weary assistant, and a houseful of orphan girls pressed into labor. Every task, every burden, now fell on their shoulders. And poor Lydia, of all of them, had been conscripted into the thankless role of the babies' nanny.
The child’s eyes were half-lidded, suckling lazily, while she stared into the middle distance like she was somewhere else entirely.
Vera crossed the hall, her anger bubbling up before she even opened her mouth. “Did you tell Gestapo I was with Wes?”
Lydia blinked, slow, then smirked faintly. “Well, you were with him, weren’t you?”
“That’s not the bloody point,” Vera snapped. “Now she reckons I’m shagging him.”
Lydia gave a lazy shrug, shifting the baby on her lap. "You might be.”
“Why the fuck d’you do it?”
"Because you were gonna tell her I was at Finn's."
"No I wouldn't! I would never tell on you."
Lydia rolled her eyes. "Yeah, right."
“Haven’t I covered for your sorry arse a hundred times before? Lied while you were out shagging him?”
For a moment Lydia’s mask slipped, her eyes flashing with something close to desperation. “I’m buying my time here, Vera."
“Yeah? Well not at my fucking expense. If you ever grass me up again, I’ll tell her all about Danger.”
That landed.
Lydia’s face went pale, her hand tightening on the baby’s bottle until the milk sloshed. She said nothing, just stared at Vera with a mixture of anger and fear.
Vera straightened, then nodded at the baby.
“Hope she pukes all over you.”
And with that, she strode out, leaving Lydia sitting stiff, the child squirming and restless in her arms.
She padded down the stairs, her fingers brushing the banister, when the glow of the sitting room caught her eye. Mrs. Quinn sat hunched in a chair, a mountain of onions spilling into her lap, eyes glued to the telly. The news droned on about bombings in Belfast, and Quinn’s jaw tightened with every word.
“Turner’s coming,” Vera murmured.
Mrs. Quinn startled, fumbling for the remote. The screen snapped to black just as hurried footsteps tapped above them. She shoved the onions back into her lap and busied her hands, slicing quick.
Turner descended, her eyes cutting straight through her. “Why aren’t you in the kitchen?”
Mrs. Quinn rose half out of her chair. "I— I thought I’d get some air. The onions were—”
“Cooking belongs in the kitchen.”
Quinn ducked her head. “Yes, ma’am.”
Vera bent quickly, scooping the onions from her lap before she could fumble them. Their eyes met briefly, a wordless exchange— fear, gratitude, shame—then they both turned for the kitchen.
But Turner’s voice cracked through the air before they reached the door.
Andy was crouched on the rug with Charlotte in her lap, a spoon of medicine trembling in her hand. The two-year-old pressed her lips tight, shaking her head. Andy coaxed softly, but Charlotte only whimpered.
Turner swept forward. “Pathetic.” She sneered, wrenching the child’s tiny chin in her hand.
Andy's face crumpled, hands fluttering uselessly. “I— I tried—”
But Turner ignored her. She pried open the little girl's mouth, and forced the spoon between her teeth. The syrup slid down in a messy glob, and Charlotte choked before letting out a shrill, heart-splitting cry.
Vera stood rigid by the doorframe. Every part of her screamed to go after Turner, to rip her hands away from the little girl. But she clenched her jaw, swallowed hard, and forced herself down the steps.
The kitchen was already hot, thick with the smell of onions and boiling stock. Kaya stood at the counter, sleeves rolled, a knife clacking against the chopping board.
“It doesn’t make sense,” she muttered, flicking a carrot slice into the pot. “Roast dinner without meat or proper gravy? What even is that?”
"Austerity is worship." Vera mocked Turners words. “Bet she repeats it in her sleep.”
Mrs. Quinn lowered herself onto a stool with a weary sigh. “She’s killing the soul of this house, that’s what she’s doing. Rosemary would never have allowed it. Paid from her own pocket so not one of you would starve.”
The knife slipped, and Kaya hissed through her teeth, dropping the blade as blood welled bright on her fingertip.
Vera was at her side in a heartbeat, grabbing a rag and pressing it against the cut. “Hold still.”
Kaya shook her head, forcing a small laugh. “I’m fine. Just a scratch.”
Vera studied her face, the way it had gone pale at the mention of the name. The retort burned on her tongue, but she swallowed it, choosing silence for Kaya’s sake.
Instead, she turned to the counter with a stubborn lift of her chin. “I’ll make Yorkshire pudding. Vegetables and mash won't fill anyone one up."
“Don’t use all the flour.” Mrs. Quinn warned.
“I’ll add some starch to it,” Vera said, rifling through the cupboard. “Chewy or not, it’s still food.”
The door creaked, and Mandy stumbled in, her eyes wild. “I swear—I swear I’m going to kill her.”
“Don’t give in yet, love." Mrs. Quinn shot up. "That’s what she wants.”
Mandy’s chest heaved, then she sucked in a deep breath. “Your son. He’s down the road—he’s come to take you to the hospital. To see your husband.”
Mrs. Quinn was torn, her eyes darting between them. “I can’t just—”
“You can,” Kaya cut her off firmly. “We’ll cover for you.”
Mandy nodded. “Turner’s gone for a nap anyway. You’ve got time.”
Vera waved a flour-dusted hand. “Go on. We’ll have dinner sorted before she even stirs.”
For a long moment Mrs. Quinn just looked at them—her girls, her misfits, her fragile army—and then her face softened. She bent and kissed Mandy on the head, whispering something only she heard, before tugging her apron loose.
“I won't be long,” she said, and then she was gone, her footsteps fading up the stairs.
"Well,” Kaya said dryly, “guess it’s up to us to keep the Queen of Austerity happy.”
Vera's lips curved wickedly as she leaned toward Mandy. “Quinn’s son, eh? D’you sneak a snog behind the hedges while he was waiting in the heat for his poor mum?”
“Left him hot before he trotted off to be the dutiful son?” Kaya added.
Mandy’s eyes narrowed, but her cheeks betrayed her with a telltale pink. “You two are sick. He was standing there five minutes, and if anyone's desperate for a snog, it's you, Vera.”
Vera barked a laugh. “Please. I wouldn’t waste my lip balm on a any bloke these days.”
“Oh, sure,” Kaya shot back. “Except Wes.”
That earned her a flour-dusted swat.
Mandy seized her chance. “Anyways—everyone set for tonight’s plans?”
Kaya grinned. “Too bloody right.”
“Yeah, but what the hell are we supposed to wear?" Vera asked. "Gestapo binned all our skirts and dresses.”
“Don’t panic, love." Mandy said. "She had me and Andy on bin duty that day. Didn’t chuck the good stuff. It’s all stashed at Imogen's place—clothes, shoes, even the makeup.”
Vera’s eyes lit up. “Thank Christ. That bitch nicked my last eyeliner this morning.”
“Tonight’s gonna be magic." Mandy perked up. "I’m gonna drink till I forget me own bloody name and shag at least five blokes before sunrise.”
Kaya snorted. “Five? You greedy mare. What about the purity test, then?”
Mandy flipped two fingers. “She can test my big fat arse for all I care. Won’t be pure after tonight, that’s for sure.”
Kaya was doubled over laughing, then turned to Vera. “And you, miss goody two-shoes? Ready for your first proper party at Sutton?”
Vera grinned. “Can’t fucking wait.”
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