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    Caleb has to get used to fitting in with the Mighty Nein again.

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    The Nein had a plan; keep their eyes on Lord Dezran Thain.
    Let Jester talk to him while the others mingled.
    After a drink or two for courage, Caleb decides to talk to Thain himself.

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    Outside of the tower, a young man was sold
    A promise of a new life, one where he would never be cold
    Outside of the tower, a young man fled
    Powerless and broken, the young man had bled

    High up in the tower, a young man lay,
    Wishing he could escape, to live yet another day
    But High up in the tower, the doors did soon close
    For the young man's tale was to be full of woes.

    Falling out the tower, did a young man lay
    Thankful of the time he could get away.
    Underneath the tower, the young man died
    Wishing of a life to not be terrified.

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    The life and death, life and death, and life of a tiefling who just wanted to feel safe. And the man who ended up relearning about them in all three lifetimes

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    "You gonna kill me, Caleb?" Beau asked, aiming for idle curiosity and landing near enough to the right tone. "I thought you wanted to do better than that."

    "That part of me is gone," he answered, solemn and honest. But there was a glint in his eye, the kind that he got when he was trying not to smile. If they weren't caked in blood, Beau thought the hairs on the back of her neck might stand on end. "Let's see what's replaced it, ja?"

     

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    Ikithon has trained his scourgers well. Beauregard learns firsthand what Bren can do.

    It's a good thing she knows how to handle wizards.

    Mostly.

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    "You were not born with venom in your veins"

    What a fucking joke.

    He may not have been born with it, but the venom is there, more literally than the man before him can fathom, and there is nothing either of them can do to stop it.

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    Two monsters reminisce about what turned them into monsters

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    They’re not quite a week into it now and Essek has seldom felt so at ease in his life. The weather is hot, but the humidity is mild, and there’s no shortage of good books to read, beautiful flora to examine, and tasty food to eat.

    Caleb too has shed the weight of the last few months, an easy smile adorning his freckled face most times Essek has caught his eye. It’s warmed his heart immeasurably, seeing his partner finding peace again.

    Caleb and Essek slip away to have an evening to themselves whilst on vacation with friends from the Arcana Pansophical. Shenanigans and feelings ensue.

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    Caleb is trying his best to get his book read, and notes jotted down.
    Mollymauk is hidden under the desk, wanting to be tease.
    But Caleb is aching to go to the bathroom, but doesnt want to stop what he is doing.
    And neither does Mollymauk

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    She plays the grieving comrade well. He can play the unrepentant executioner better.

    Bren schools his expression into something cold and resolute. He forces his breath even, his muscles loose.

    He gives her nothing. Nothing but a condescending sort of pity, built from rot and rancor, as he meets her eye.

    “Don’t be naïve, Astrid."

     

    Written for two of whumpster-dumpster's prompts for Whumpril 2025.

    Chapter 1 is inspired by Day 24: Sensory Overload.
    Chapter 2 will come in a few days.

     

    Check author's note for very brief context to this story.

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    Caleb often has bad dreams

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    A cold night, in the early days of a new partnership.

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    It’s a sense of irony, Caleb thinks in a wild corner of his brain incapable of handling the guilt, that Molly has never demanded a secret from any of them. He has demanded some sense of companionship and teamwork, but he does not demand their truths. And now they are demanding his. Caleb sees Molly’s face flash with something wounded, and some part of his heart, small and usually so hidden – breaks.

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    In a room in Aeor labelled the T-Dock, a group of adventurers finds a man stuck in a time loop, forever repeating the same moves, the same words.

    They promise to set him free.

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    Caleb wishes his partner hadn't decided to visit him when he is crying in his living room after Beauregard and Yasha's wedding.

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    To make ends meet Caleb finds another job at a bookshop that just so happens to also have an in store cafe. Also with bills to pay and a business of his own to start running, Caduceus is working as a barista. As the work together they find themselves with mutual friends and mutual feelings.

    (I have no idea where I'm going with this so please forgive me. I'm just typing out whatever comes to my brain. I haven't written anything in so long T^T so please forgive me.)

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    Caleb is finally ready to kill Trent Ikithon.

    It doesn't go as planned.

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    Bren wakes up in a dank Cell in Vergesson, the fading touch of his cell-mate on his temple and a scream of grief and denial on his lips. He seeks to flee this place of nightmares, to right the wrongs he had done, to erase the monstrosity he had committed. It’s a pipe dream, a fevered wish, but it's all he has left. On his way out, he kills a man who is more of a monster than he ever was, and steals something as important as his returning humanity- a Fairy.
    Fairies are beings said to be of pure Arcana, full of potential. Their wings shed a powder used to enhance a spell beyond the caster's ability. The creatures themselves are used as an Arcane Focus to negate use of material components and enhance spells focused through them.
    They are beautiful creatures, surprisingly humanoid, elf-like, and considered as intelligent as the average house-pet. Bren had seen these before, had worked with them in the past.
    So why, the longer he spends time with this Fairy, does he feel like this was another matter in which he'd been lied to? Why does he feel that this Fairy is- more, much more than it seems?

    Usually updates weekly, Saturday/Sunday but no guarantees. Hectic Schedule.

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    He could almost smell the ozone in the air around him as his palms itched and crackled with a held potential. He could do it he thought, he would do it, if it meant that Nott might be happy, after all she had done for him he could do this for her if only to see her smile once more. It might break him, would break him, of that he was sure, but it would be worth it if it only meant she could be herself as she was always meant to be.

    What was a little more broken to a man who hadn’t yet pulled all the pieces of himself back together again? One more nail in the coffin of someone already doomed would be worth it for the life he might be able to give.

    //

    In which Caleb makes a deal with Isharnai

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    Caleb had broken up with Mollymauk and cut ties with everyone. Not even Veth could get answers as to why.
    Five months later, Molly was in Rexxentrum with Beau and Yasha as they finalized their adoption, and saw his ex-boyfriend cuddled up with some other purple guy.

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    Caleb fails a mission, Mollymauk is there to help.

    Also, Nott and Molly have a conversation.

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    Він поглянув на свої долоні в чорних рукавицях, зігнув та розігнув пальці, відчуваючи, як з кожним порухом рипить дублена шкіра.
    Ці руки були залиті кров’ю. Вони з легкістю вбивали, жорстоко катували, трощили кістки та спалювали все живе. Це були руки холоднокровного вбивці, що лише відбирали силоміць, але ніколи не дарували. Вони не створювали нове, не приносили життя, ні.

    Гончак Імперії не привчений до таких милостей

    АU, в якому Брен не ламається після смерті батьків та продовжує служити Тренту Ікітону та Імперії, Калеб Відоґаст ніколи не приєднується до Дев'ятки, натомість обирає інший шлях у пошуках власної спокути.

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