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“Buff! You—! You’re a—!” Xander stammered. He was sweating through his clothes, his violent shaking even worse than her own. One hand was wrapped around the backdoor handle, ready to bolt out into the early morning sun at the slightest jerk toward him. He never once took his eyes off her. She could still smell the heady sting of his fear permeating the air around them, hear his thundering heart and feel the rhythm pulsing through her like a drumbeat. Her mouth watered beyond her will.
“Vampire,” Willow finished breathlessly.
And Buffy burst into tears.
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Buffy gets unlucky one night on patrol. Not a one of them know what to do next, but that's not unusual for their lot, anyway. They'll figure it out.
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“Can’t even vampire right,” Buffy voices this time, instead of just keeping it to herself, and he scowls.
“Piss off,” Spike snaps, now in a right little snit at her over the silent comparisons he was clearly hearing even when she did not say. Still, he stays staunchly seated, making no effort to leave despite his sudden mood. She wonders if rolling her eyes again would be too soon to have any effect.
And then, inexplicably, her vision turns blurry with tears — though literally nothing has happened — and rolling her eyes suddenly seems like the worst idea in the world.
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Buffy tells Spike about her mom. They’re sort of kind to each other, as best as they can get.
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is it abandondment or just self-preservation by CamellCat
Fandoms: Buffy the Vampire Slayer (TV)
11 Apr 2025
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though tara knows that’s an uncharitable take on how buffy’s been handling everything. she was just trying to make them feel better about the awful, awful thing they’d done, like they deserved to be mollified. she was trying to convince willow and xander in particular that she was still their buffy from before... the... fall. the resurrection.
you can’t mean that, tara says. you— you really want to forget? you’d let willow do that to you?
no, buffy amends quickly. I don’t. and I wouldn’t. I just... then she sighs, more than world weary. aching for a dimension she can’t reach anymore.
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tara and buffy have a conversation about willow, xander, and if love is worth what it puts you through.
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“Can’t help it, I suppose. After all, I was just rolling around with this hot blonde. Really gets the heart racing, y’know?” he leered. Winking, he ran his tongue along his teeth for good measure, and she recoiled.
“God,” she muttered.
“Nope! Just me, love,” he said, letting out an exhausted chuckle when she growled.
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Just the Master and Rose having a spat, as they do
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The Master frowned, taking in her glazed over, far away look, not one to ever be ignored. Struck with an idea, he watched her a moment longer before slowly — cautiously — sliding his hands up her face, noting the way he left a dark, sticky trail across the same cheek she got him on. Gently, he tucked her box blonde hair behind her ears, and applied his fingertips to her temples, shutting his eyes as he concentrated.
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The Master shows Rose the drums
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loosely connected fics all set in a universe I have simply dubbed as the bandillow au, in which almost everything is the same except for where buffy, willow, and xander's hearts lie.
I'm not so good at the writing thing, but I talk a lot more about my ideas in this tag on my tumblr, so if I manage to interest literally anyone, feel free to pursue.
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He can say with completely confidence, that as he walked in to biology, a class that usually made his insides crawl with all manner of prickly disgusted feelings, he was thinking of nothing else but of how smart and cool he felt reassuring Willow that there was nothing to worry about.
He could honestly say he had forgotten he was trans until the sudden chill of cranked up early September air conditioning hit his shoulders and he realized something was very wrong.
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The 'walking into class in your underwear' scene from S1Ep10 if Xander was trans.
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15 Oct 2025
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Out of all individual Buffy episodes, the most frequently fanfic’ed is Halloween. Of those fanfics, a lot of them turn Xander into a girl and then just have Xander ‘get used to it’ with no further explanation. Whiiiiich seems a little problematic. Still, it’s worth considering:
How would the series actually change if Xander was trans the whole time?
I’ve read a few ‘what if Buffy was trans’ fics, and a couple ‘what if Faith was trans’ fics, but I haven’t actually seen many (or any) fanfics that explore the Xander option.
Xander is very insecure about his manliness. Very insecure. This is a story about one possible reason.
So, Halloween will be a catalyst for this fic, but it’s not where it starts.
It all starts with the new girl at Sunnydale High.Series
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10 Oct 2025
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08 Oct 2025
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A look into what made made Xander who he is in BtVS. Specifically focusing the home life and emotional states of Xander Harris.
Xander has always been an important character to me because of how broken he is yet still continues to try and do what he thinks is right. This story is about Xander and his struggle to accept that family doesn't always have your best interests in mind.
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08 Oct 2025
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the cleanup crew by TheEclecticLibrarian for benfic
Fandoms: Buffy the Vampire Slayer (TV)
09 Jul 2018
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Buffy is standing there, looking at Ted on the floor. She is standing there looking at Ted on the floor and there is this exhausted ringing in her ears, because her mom is going to wake up and her mom is going to freak out about Buffy killing Ted again, just like her mom couldn’t look at her while they were driving to the police station.
Buffy looks at Ted on the floor and then she goes over and calls Giles. It goes to voicemail.
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08 Oct 2025