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Todd bit his lip, looking down at his lap. “I really miss him.”
George leaned forward, taking one of Todd’s hands in his. “I know you do. He was everything to you, wasn’t he?”
Todd looked up, giving George a watery smile. “He was. He was everything.”
“I understand, Todd.”
“Do you miss Mr. Keating? I know you were friends, I saw you guys talking during meals all the time.”
“He was everything to me,” George said, giving Todd a sad smile. Todd immediately knew what George meant, barely holding back a sob at George’s admission.
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George and Todd both lose their loved ones and find comfort in each other.
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- Part 7 of Dead Poets Fics
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You Do Not Deserve to be Buried Next to Him by tnystrk3000
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
29 Sep 2025
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As Todd got closer to Neil's grave, he noticed another headstone next to his, which he thought was odd. There’d never been one on the right side of Neil’s before. He’d always assumed Neil was at the end of the row because there were already rows behind Neil’s. Why had they decided to bury someone next to Neil now, eight years later?
Todd approached the grave and blanched when he read the inscription on it.
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Todd visits Neil's grave eight years after his death and is surprised to see who is newly buried next to Neil.
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- Part 6 of Dead Poets Fics
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The last thing Neil would do before they both left for class was tie Todd’s tie for him. And once it was neatly secured around Todd’s neck, Neil would fix Todd’s collar and smile softly at him, letting his fingers gently brush against the warm skin of Todd’s neck.
It had become Todd’s favorite part of the day.
But now, Todd faced a huge problem; Neil wasn’t here to tie his tie for him. And he would never tie Todd’s tie for him again.
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Todd never learned how to tie a tie, so Neil always did it for him. Now that Neil is dead, Todd is lost.
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- Part 5 of Dead Poets Fics
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I Don't Belong To Anyone. (Dead Poets Society) by RogueYAOI
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
06 Sep 2025
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—It's practically the movie for the first few chapters but I SWEAR it'll branch off a lot more in the next few chapters (if I decide to continue this, of course—
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Todd feels invisible, trapped in his own thoughts and barely holding himself together. The pull of self-harm grows stronger each day, and the weight of pretending becomes unbearable.
When Neil finally notices the cracks Todd has been hiding, it sparks a fragile, quiet lifeline—one small moment of trust that could make all the difference.
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We Are Dreaming of Tomorrow (Is Tomorrow Even Coming?) by Undercoverbumblebee
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
01 Sep 2025
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"'Am I going to die?'
Neil looked into Todd’s eyes, that soft, friendly face almost comforting him a little bit. 'I don’t know Todd. If you had been my last roommate, I would’ve told you yes, but I was going to die first. Now, though, everything Charlie told me got screwed up.'"(Anderperry Kidnapped Au)
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- Part 6 of Bee and her Anderperry stories
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Todd lives quietly in the city Neil never got to see.
It’s been a decade since he died, but Todd never really stopped looking for him. In late-night dreams. In poems he never lets anyone read.He works a mundane job at a publishing house, lives alone, and counts his life in missed calls and unsent poems. The city they once dreamed of sharing together now feels like a mausoleum of almosts.
Then, one winter night, Todd sees him. Or someone who looks enough like him to make it hurt.
A man on the subway. Dark brown hair. Green sweater. Beauty mark.It isn’t Neil. Of course it isn’t.
But why does it still hurt so much?Series
- Part 6 of do not go gentle into that good night
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six hundred things i never said to you, and one you never heard by the_untamed_poet25
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
20 Aug 2025
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Todd Anderson writes a letter to Neil Perry that keeps unfolding in the dark.
(or perhaps: Neil is everywhere in the white space between the lines)
(or: love is not a rescue. love is a language, and he never learned to scream it fast enough.)a character study of Neil and Todd
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- Part 96 of Character Studies
- Part 2 of In the Kingdom of Dead Poets and Dead Boys
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And I Roll It Around Every Night, Just to Watch It Go by AngelsLifeOfDreams
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
19 Aug 2025
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"Todd’s face flushed bright red as his eyes snapped fully open. He sat up in bed, turning to look at Neil with panic in his eyes. His roommate stared back, confused.
No. Fucking. Way.
He did not just have a dream where he was kissing Neil Perry. There was no way."
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Todd Anderson did NOT have a crush on Neil Perry, and anyone who told you otherwise was insane. He seriously didn't, if only he could forget about all these stupid feelings he was having every time his best friend brushed his arm or got a tad bit too close.
If they didn't subside soon, he would seriously begin thinking he was insane.
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I’ve been meaning to tell you, I think your house is haunted by LiterallyEdwinPayne
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
17 Aug 2025
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Todd’s parents come to get him before break starts.
And it turns out his brothers dead.
You would think this would be a huge learning curve for his parents but instead it coused them to double down and try to make him into a mini Jeffery.But don’t worry, Neil and the poets are here to save him!
**If Jeffery died instead of Neil
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James Wilson was normal as any other doctor in the hospital…Or that was what he liked to think
He was pretty sure none of the other doctors had to fake their death to all their loved ones but oh well,it is what it is.
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Todd goes back to teach English at Welton, but he keeps seeing things that aren't natural, and he sees reminders of his past at the school and words he never got the chance to say. He's convinced he's going mad but he knows deep down this is real, and Neil haunts his mind.
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Worried about his friend, Charlie goes to Mr. Keating to see if he could help bring Todd back inside from the dock on the morning of Neil Perry's death.
title from Snow by Ricky Montgomery
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- Part 4 of Dead Poets Fics
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Eternal Sunshine by MisterCryer
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989), Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004)
19 Jul 2025
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“You're leaving.” Todd chokes out, close to tears.
“I have to go to the theater.” Neil whispers, somehow suddenly getting that the situation is important. “Do you want to come with me?”
And Todd wants to agree, Todd wants to agree so badly but he knows the way that the scenario goes and he knows that there is nothing he can do about it. He stares at Neil and wonders if he can change it, just for a moment, convince Neil to stay in the dorm with him, to forget the theatrics, to stay just boys in one room with him. Somehow, he figures that Neil would never admit to doing that and Todd understands, he really does, but God does it hurt.
“I can't.” Todd feels like he is breaking. “Can I?”
“No.” Neil says in a flat tone, uncharacteristic for him. “I suppose you can't.”
or: Todd Anderson deletes his memories Eternal Sunshine style
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Love was the law and religion was taught, I'm not bought.
Todd has always been told what to believe: in God, in order, in silence. But nothing prepared him for how love would feel when it arrived like fire — in Neil’s laughter, in the quiet moments that said too much, in the forbidden thought that maybe he was never meant to live a life made of rules.
Then Neil died, and all Todd was given were "thoughts and prayers," as if faith could stitch a wound like this. He can’t pray anymore. He writes poems he’ll never read aloud. He keeps seeing Neil in the stars, in memories, in the breaths between stanzas.
This is a story about what’s left behind when the boy you love dies believing the world wouldn’t love him back.
Of guilt that feels sacrilegious.
Of grief that burns.
About a kind of love too pure for the world that condemned it.Tell me the fable where we got a happy ending. Please.
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- Part 1 of do not go gentle into that good night
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What happens instead is they bite at his lip and push him to lay flat on his back. It startles him and he can’t help the “ow” that leaves his mouth.
They lean down to meet his mouth and lick the spot they just bit, just a quick flick of their tongue that has him laughing quietly.
He pulls back just a bit more.
“What the fuck,” He giggles breathlessly.
They huff in response, sounding equally amused and annoyed. Clearly his reaction was not what they wanted.
Or: Todd dreams of Neil
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Todd is sick but insists on going to class. It's a good thing he's got a roommate and a teacher to take care of him.
Title from Father and Son by Cat Stevens
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- Part 3 of Dead Poets Fics
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Why had Neil done everything, everything with me except suffer?
I tried to cry. I couldn’t. I fell asleep on the cold, hard floor between our beds, wishing the agony that settled over my chest like bricks would disappear for just a moment so I could feel something.OR
Todd Anderson grieves Neil's death day by day.
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Todd spends his summer with his grandmother in Texas and slowly processes his grief
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i'd shed every last petal, just to see you again by lessgeek
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
05 Jun 2025
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Neil's gone. Todd struggles to fathom this fact.
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