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    He feels like shit when he's hungry, and he plays better when he's empty. The cold air doesn't touch him as much. The floodlights turn silvery-soft.
    And he likes eating. Keeps his hands busy, mouth busy, mind busy. Something to chew through, putty in the ears.
    Go until he can't anymore. Cycle it back out. Be ready.

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    OR: Buck's had on-again, off-again bulimia since he was 14.

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    Updates on Wednesdays. Title from Psychic Friend's "We Do Not Belong".

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    AU-After the San Lorenzo Job (and before the Hot Potato Job), Sophie asks Eliot to teach her how to fight. Things get a little hot and heavy.

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    In 2012, Evan Buckley left Hershey in the Jeep his sister gave him to find his place in the world. What we know is that he drove around the country, tried different jobs, tried to be a Navy SEAL and then ended up in Peru. What we didn’t know is that he made it all up.
    This is the story before Buck the firefighter came to be, how he found a part of himself he never imagined existed and stepped into a whole new world.

    In other words

    This is the prequel to Once Upon A Halloween. A slightly different take on what happened to Buck before he made it to L.A and some context for the last chapter.

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    On the day Buck learns he was someone else's failed homegrown defense system, a handsome stranger keeps him company, keeps him distracted, keeps him laughing, and then keeps him safe.

    The guy tilts his head. "Rough day?"

    "Rough life," Buck sighs, utterly pathetic, and immediately feels like he's betrayed every single one of his friends for even saying it. "No, that's—that was really ungrateful. My life isn't—I-I have a good life. I just learned something today about my parents that, uh, clarified a few things for me about our relationship. It... wasn't great."

    The guy taps his finger against the bottle of Warsteiner in his hand, flaying Buck from head to toe with his deep, considering stare, then he walks around the bar until he's only two chairs away. Buck's heart starts pounding so hard it's probably visible through his shirt.

    He already knows what's coming: C'mon, it can't be that bad. You should talk it out with them. You're being too hard on them. They're your parents, they love you.

    But the guy must be reading a different script, because he says simply, kindly, "I'm sorry. That really sucks."

    Podfic of Histocompatibility by RC_McLachlan.

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    Because if God had said, “Let there be only suckiness for Buffy Summers” then fine — she could live with that. But it better come with a tall, cold beer, at least halfway decent lighting and much, much better company.

    At least at least that way, she'd get something for her trouble.

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    every time (in canon) that buck has had to take a ride in an ambulance.

    (aka all of the scenes we were robbed of)

     

    the episodes/stories covered in this work are:
    1x06 - “Heartbreaker”
    1x09 - “Trapped”*
    2x18 - “This Life We Choose”
    3x01 - “Kids Today”
    3x03 - “The Searchers”*
    3x06 - “Monsters”
    4x05 - “Buck Begins”*
    6x10 - “In a Flash”
    8x05 - “Masks”

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    It was his most prominent memory of his childhood. Her complaints over his untidy appearance, as if he was ruining their perfect family image. As if Maddie running as soon as she could didn’t stain that. Because Buck—Evan—being a ‘waste of potential’ and a disappointment really put their family on the map of outstanding. The wooden floors of his childhood house were thick, but never solid enough to muffle the acidic words his mother had for him.

    His clothes weren’t spotless. He was always covered in blood, scrapes or bruises. The constant ER visits, neighbours whispering over the rowdy and reckless Buckley child. But his curly hair was the cherry on the shit-pie. In his mother’s eyes that was Buck’s—Evan’s—greatest sin. At least, for twenty-nine years, he thought it was.

     

    Bobby takes Buck home after "Buck Begins" and finds out he has curly hair. They talk about it, in a roundabout way.

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    When Mariner gets exposed to sex pollen, of course she insists she doesn't need any help to get through it. T'Lyn finds that decision to be thoroughly illogical. Furthermore, she is extremely willing to explain her reasoning to Mariner.

    As many times as it takes.

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    She listens.

    "And what does the honeysuckle mean?"

    (...)

    "It represents the bonds of love." He reads with an awed smile.

    "That's beautiful, Evan."

    [also known as, the one where Evan Buckley discovers the language of flowers]

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    Buck just wants to go home and put the past day or three behind him. Learning about Daniel, having to see his parents again, it was all enough to make him want to just disappear into the world again. He just ... he thought that it was obvious he only talked to his parents at the station to humor them. To let them ease their own guilty conscience before they disappeared from his life again. Apparently Chimney didn't get that message. Because here he was, in the locker room, telling Buck that he didn't know what Maddie giving him her car keys all those years ago had cost her.

    Fuck that.

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    Eddie ... is not happy that the Buckley parents are at the firehouse. He doesn't even know who let them in to wait for Bobby to get back from the hospital with Buck. Whatever. Bobby can deal with that. But Buck was absolutely not talking to his parents, and not alone. Eddie had kept his feelings for Buck to himself for ... apparently too long. Because Buck had still nearly gotten himself killed in that warehouse. He hadn't known that he had Eddie and Chris to come home to. He was going to tell Buck's parents off for all the shit they put Buck through, with or without Buck beside him. Someone needed to stand up for him, and Eddie was the world's worst at expressing positive feelings if they weren't for his son, but he would do this to show Buck how much he loved him.

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    Having his feelings validated was … pretty fucking great, actually. Dr. Copeland said it might be time for him to let go of one of his burdens at the dinner with everyone. That if he felt himself falling into the peacekeeper, like he always did, making himself the target and taking the verbal abuse that they knew his parents were capable of, to switch gears and actually absorb what’s said and respond similarly. She told him it was ok to be an asshole once in a while, which made him laugh. He could forgive all he wanted, but he didn’t have to forget. And that didn’t mean he was holding onto negative shit. It just meant he valued his own mental health over the feelings of people who don’t know him or constantly push him to forgive whether he’s wrong or not. People who never put his wellbeing as a priority, people who never cared about his wellbeing period. He doesn’t have to forgive them for them. He can do it for him.

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    Buck has known about Daniel since he got a copy of his records from the hospital after they found he had been allergic to the hardware in his leg. He didn't want to see his parents again, but he deserved to be free from the guilt he still carried for never being enough for them.

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    Buck had a friend that only he could see for as long as he could remember. They shared thoughts, they shared feelings, and they shared the need to protect those important to them. His parents, however, told him it wasn't normal, wasn't right--they told him to stop pretending. Pretending would mean Danny wasn't real, though, which they very much were. He stopped talking about Danny around them, learned to push his friend away at times, and took the pills his parents gave him in the hopes he'd be a perfect, normal, child. Life at the 118 is anything but normal and that's the way Buck prefers it. He has a purpose and he has a family, even if they don't know about Danny. Then Maddie tells him she invited their parents to visit and the secret Buck has worked so hard to keep is pulled to the light, along with one his family has been keeping as well.

    An AU where Daniel's spirit connects itself to Buck at his birth. Goes through a few major Buck events in the earlier seasons, before diverging from canon during the Buckley family visit during Season 4 (i.e. Buck Begins).

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    Hey y'all! This is just a short 15 minute assignment I did for one of my classes. I've been in a bit of a writing block, but I had a lot of fun writing this. It's basically a "what if" Hajime knew Nagito's plan before the trial, and tried to stop him from killing himself.

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    When Lucy mistakes a cop for a stripper at a party, she never imagined it would lead to an unexpected romance. But just as she begins to fall for him, she discovers the heartbreaking truth—he’s already married.

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    He needed to talk to someone else, someone who understood their parent abandoning them and would know what to say to help him make sense of the day.

    Jeff sighed as he got his phone from his back pocket, leaning back in his seat after. He hoped she still wasn’t busy at Shirley’s, but it was Thanksgiving and Pierce was with her, so either way an escape would probably be welcome, at least he hoped. He went to the speed dial, to one of the numbers on the top.

    She picked up on the second ring.

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    Following the Thanksgiving disaster with his father, Jeff reaches out to Annie for comfort.

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    Set after Buck finds out about Daniel but before the factory fire.

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    Buck is on the outs with his team because of the lawsuit, because of this buck starts to put distance between himself and his team which doesn’t seem to affect them. Buck gets bullied by teammates and doesn’t know how to move on buck thinks things can’t get worse until his family decides to visit. (Buddie happens eventually)

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    Buck seems happy today.

    Really happy.

    And anyone that isn’t Eddie loves seeing him like this; but he knows Buck like he knows the back of his hand– he knows that this type of high usually comes with a low. As it so happens, Eddie knows exactly why Buck seems so happy, and why Buck's inevitably going to crash: The Buckley Parents are currently in the state of California. Maddie told Buck yesterday, announced that they’re going to have dinner, all of them– Buck went straight to Eddie’s after that. So. Yeah. Buck seems overjoyed, but Eddie knows that Buck is actively doing everything he can to not think about his parents, to not have one quiet moment alone in his brain.

    Everything meaning everything.

    Cleaning, hanging out with Chris, watching documentaries, and falling into research pits about the Gros Michel Banana and their impact on the banana flavour.

    Or: The Buckley parents are in town and the family secret is about to be spilled. Buck's mental health is impacted more than he lets on and the 118 are there to support him through an ADHD diagnosis he wasn't planning on getting.

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    Sam eats an egg salad during Debate Camp, Andy doesn't take it that well, Leo knows what he's looking at when he sees a Congresswoman throwing up somewhere down the path.

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