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    “You were drunk. I know it didn’t mean anything. Everything’s alright.”

    Buck visibly winces. “That’s not — Eddie.”

    There’s a suspended moment where Buck looks torn, standing on the edge of something, eyes fixed on the horizon to avoid looking at the drop, the precipitous canyon below. But then Buck, who can’t lie, who would tear his own chest open to a complete stranger on the street because the truth of him spills so loudly out of every jagged edge, sighs out:

    “It meant something.”

    There’s a ringing sound somewhere in the distance, getting closer. “What are you…” Eddie trails off.

    “I wasn’t — well, I was drunk. But that wasn’t what. Wasn’t why. Not entirely, or — god.” Buck shudders in a breath, steeling himself. “I have feelings for you.” He closes his eyes. “I’m so sorry.”

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    Buck confesses his feelings. Eddie’s straight. If he spends all his time thinking about Buck and looking at Buck and wanting to be around Buck, well, that’s just being a good friend, isn’t it? He’s being so normal about this, actually.

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    It feels new, and good, and not just because it’s been so damn long since anyone has touched Eddie like this. It’s just—it’s Buck. Of course this is something they know how to do together. They’ve done just about everything else two people can do together; maybe this was always inevitable.

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    Or: Eddie and Buck start sleeping together when they're all stuck at Buck's place during lockdown. It still takes them almost three years to notice that they're in love.

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    08 Oct 2025

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    Maybe it’s a lifetime of carefully guarding himself, maybe it’s a disdain for this whole idea, or maybe it’s just the fact that he’s been holding back with Buck, holding back with Bobby, holding back with his parents. Bottle all of that up and something has to give. “Buddy, I don’t think God’s been close to me in years. If he ever was.”

    The priest doesn’t react. Just calmly asks, “Let me phrase it like this, then: what do you need to say out loud? Maybe something you’ve never said before.”

    And this. This is what Eddie had been driving at. What might actually bring him peace instead of unsettling memories that drip cold down his spine.

    “I love him. I love him and he doesn’t know.”

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    Eddie confesses to Buck, fucks a priest, and finds his way—not necessarily in that order. 

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    “I’ve had a prostate orgasm,” Eddie bit out, unable to fight the surge of heat in his cheeks at the sense-memory of the first time writhing and moaning on Buck’s fingers, under his tongue. Being wet and open and begging for more.

    “Technically you haven’t,” Buck countered. “You’ve come from me touching your dick while I was also hitting your prostate.”

    “Fuck off.” Buck couldn’t see Eddie’s eyeroll, but he hoped he felt it, like, psychically.

    Or: Buck’s new hyperfixation is making Eddie come, untouched, on his dick—and on his dick only. Eddie can’t do it. Commence slow but sure descent into insanity (and desperation for Buck’s cock).

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