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    Todd Anderson never learned to tie a tie, maybe his new roommate will teach him.

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    With Neil and Charlie gone, Cameron and Todd are placed in the same dormitory.

    It goes about as well as you'd think.

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    Long after the events at Welton, you and Charlie meet again during the winter in New York City.

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    December 20th, 1959.
    Its been four days since the Poets found out about Neil's suicide, and the fallout that ensues

    Or:
    Knox has no idea what to do cuz Charlie is collapsing and Neil's dead and Charlie seems to be going further off the deep end - and Charlie himself literally can't do anything but continue with self destructive behaviour

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    5/17
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    The last thing Neil would do before they both left for class was tie Todd’s tie for him. And once it was neatly secured around Todd’s neck, Neil would fix Todd’s collar and smile softly at him, letting his fingers gently brush against the warm skin of Todd’s neck.

    It had become Todd’s favorite part of the day.

    But now, Todd faced a huge problem; Neil wasn’t here to tie his tie for him. And he would never tie Todd’s tie for him again.

    -OR-

    Todd never learned how to tie a tie, so Neil always did it for him. Now that Neil is dead, Todd is lost.

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    Todd lives quietly in the city Neil never got to see.
    It’s been a decade since he died, but Todd never really stopped looking for him. In late-night dreams. In poems he never lets anyone read.

    He works a mundane job at a publishing house, lives alone, and counts his life in missed calls and unsent poems. The city they once dreamed of sharing together now feels like a mausoleum of almosts.

    Then, one winter night, Todd sees him. Or someone who looks enough like him to make it hurt.
    A man on the subway. Dark brown hair. Green sweater. Beauty mark.

    It isn’t Neil. Of course it isn’t.
    But why does it still hurt so much?

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    After Neil’s death, Todd Anderson is left grieving, silenced by guilt and the weight of what could have been. Welton Academy feels colder, quieter—until August “Gus” Whitman arrives. A transfer student with a quiet rebellion and a love of poetry, Gus doesn’t ask about the past. He just listens.

    Together, they begin to find solace in words, memory, and each other.

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    1/?
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    Such a funny thing,
    Grief.

    -

    The last recorded testament of Todd Robert Anderson.

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    Accidentally abandoned my old work so restarting it

    It started with a glance across the room, their room, or rather the room they were forced to share for the upcoming year. The look of uncertainty, something hidden underneath, never addressed. Neither commented on the way their eyes trailed down to each other's lips for just a moment, nor on their stuttered introduction, the way their hands shook. The two boys didn’t know how little time they would have together, how quickly love and adoration can transform into loss and grief, maybe if they did things would have been different.

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    Todd Anderson and Neil Perry realise that love can’t change fate spelt in the stars, no matter how often they try to rewrite it.

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    Love was the law and religion was taught, I'm not bought.

    Todd has always been told what to believe: in God, in order, in silence. But nothing prepared him for how love would feel when it arrived like fire — in Neil’s laughter, in the quiet moments that said too much, in the forbidden thought that maybe he was never meant to live a life made of rules.

    Then Neil died, and all Todd was given were "thoughts and prayers," as if faith could stitch a wound like this. He can’t pray anymore. He writes poems he’ll never read aloud. He keeps seeing Neil in the stars, in memories, in the breaths between stanzas.

    This is a story about what’s left behind when the boy you love dies believing the world wouldn’t love him back.
    Of guilt that feels sacrilegious.
    Of grief that burns.
    About a kind of love too pure for the world that condemned it.

    Tell me the fable where we got a happy ending. Please.

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    4/8
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    39
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    Why had Neil done everything, everything with me except suffer?
    I tried to cry. I couldn’t. I fell asleep on the cold, hard floor between our beds, wishing the agony that settled over my chest like bricks would disappear for just a moment so I could feel something.

    OR

    Todd Anderson grieves Neil's death day by day.

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    4/?
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    Todd aún ama a Neil, tal vez siempre lo amará.
    Un poeta enamorado sólo puede pensar en una cosa al amar... escribirle a quien su corazón decide acompañar.

    Tal vez sus palabras no lleguen a Neil, pero al menos así puede sentirlo cada vez más cerca de él, cómo los rayos del sol tras una noche nevada.

    O, Todd nunca supera del todo a Neil, por lo que decide escribirle con la esperanza de algún día recibir respuesta.

     

    𖤓 esta es la playlist de spotify para este fic :P

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    Español
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    Todd still loves Neil, maybe he always will.
    A poet in love can only think of one thing when loving... writing to whom his heart decides to belong.

    Maybe his words won't reach Neil, but at least this way he can feel him getting closer and closer to him, like the rays of the sun after a snowy night.

    Or, Todd never quite gets over Neil, so he decides to write to him in the hopes of one day getting a response.

    𖤓 this is the spotify playlist for this fic :P

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    Prologue

    No one would see this note, Neil was already dead; but he wrote it, anyway. In his mind, at least. He always had an extraordinary imagination, Todd Anderson was fuel to the flame that was his creative mind. It was a shame it didn't last long. This note came soon after they met, only having been friends a few months. 

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    Todd spends his summer with his grandmother in Texas and slowly processes his grief

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    1/?
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    Mr. Anderson didn't hear a sound from him, although he soon realized that Charlie was brilliant enough to know all of the answers. There was something in that quiet brilliance, in the boy’s humble nature entwined with a restless curiosity, that pulled Todd back to the autumn of 1959.

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    1/?
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    Nobody - Song by Mitski

    Cameron reflects, and he misses Charlie.

    ***
    Our dorm feels quiet now because you and your stupid snores have packed up and gone, and I hate the fact I miss it. I miss all of it. Why did you punch me? Why did I snitch? I don’t think I’ll ever truly know.
    ***

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    1/1
    Comments:
    4
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    When James Macrae arrives at Welton Academy, the elite boarding school is immaculate—too immaculate. The kind of tidy that feels like something’s been scrubbed away.

    And yet, the past lingers.

    In the dust beneath old desks, the scuffed floors, the warped wood of his closet's wall, James begins to sense a presence, fragments of students who came before.

     

    (Title from bukowski's 'cut while shaving':
    It's never quite right, he said, all the things we are
    taught, all the loves we chase, all the deaths we
    die, all the lives we live,
    they are never quite right,
    they are hardly close to right,
    these lives we live
    one after the other,
    piled there as history,
    the waste of the species,
    the crushing of the light and the way,
    it's not quite right,
    it's hardly right at all
    he said.

    don't I know it? I
    answered.

    I walked away from the mirror.
    it was morning, it was afternoon, it was
    night

    nothing changed
    it was locked in place.
    something flashed, something broke, something
    remained.

    I walked down the stairway and
    into it.)

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    English
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    3/14
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    Neil Perry always told Charlie that he would never leave him.

    And then, one day, he did.

    Language:
    English
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    550
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    5
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    14
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    89
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    He despised death and he longed living.

    They needed each other and they knew it.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    412
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
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    10
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    112

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