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“No,” L says simply. “I have only found that being relaxed helps me sleep better, but that is so with most people, and I find it distinctly difficult to identify when I am relaxed, so I am open to any ideas that you may have.”
And — and Light truly takes a moment to comb through the litany of information he has gathered obsessively over the years; hours of clicking through websites, days spent combing through entire sections of libraries, weeks spent in the biology department of his university — the human body, a fascinating organism that produces, creates and reacts from chemicals and environments; fighting foreign substances and fighting itself when it needs to.
The intimate feeling of blood rushing through his wrists and organs sitting in his torso feels heavier than ever. “What about skin to skin contact?”
L stills, locked in motion, face only showing traces of emotion through his eyes slightly cracking wider; an instinctual reaction borne from needing to widen the visual field if the body reacts to something it perceives as dangerous.
(Or, Light’s fascination with the human body and L’s lack of boundaries crash together. Surprisingly, it doesn’t end badly.)
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24 Jul 2025
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Then — then something feels wrong, something thick runs down his leg — different to the thinness of water, slower, dripping in slow pivots. It’s wrong, so terribly different that Light forces himself to look downwards.
Blood, is his first thought. His second, is that it's running in rivets down his leg, thinning out from water to drip onto the floor in light splashes. The further up, the thicker, the darker and it’s so horribly foreign that a semi-truck of shock hits his throat, oesophagus and trachea to constrict tightly.
Oh, Light thinks a little manically, all wires crossing to blare the sound of panic, panic, panic in his every nerve. Shit.
He tilts his head, spine twisting, monstrously cold at the way his body suddenly feels so real, to look at the scattered trail behind him, ending at the spot he had been just a few steps away from the shower. Blood red, staining the tile floor.
“L?” Light calls, measured in every way he can conceive. Any inflection he has, he smothers to death.
(Or, L and Light discuss philosophy to distract Light from the fact that he’s currently bleeding out over a toilet. It’s as weird as it sounds, but it works for them)
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24 Jul 2025
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“Tell me the truth, Light.”
“The truth?” Light’s voice wavered, caught somewhere between a laugh and a sob. “I… can’t tell you. You wouldn’t understand.”
“Try me.”
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Light struggles with his attachment toward the very detective whose mission it is to bring him to justice.
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24 Jul 2025
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Light Yagami has finally been convinced to work a case his father has been begging him to work for weeks.
When he arrives he didn’t realize there would be one big problem: he’s insanely attracted to the worlds greatest detective leading it.
Why is this a problem you ask?
All deductive reasoning goes out the window when he sees him, and that’s all Light can bring to the case.
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20 Jul 2025
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A sleep deprived Light is growing increasingly frustrated with L.
L takes responsibility.Set during the Yotsuba Arc.
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20 Jul 2025
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Basically Light overthinks everything and pretends he's in love with L to hide the fact he's Kira.
It gets a bit out of hand.
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20 Jul 2025
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ladies and gentlemen, we are floating in space by findingsaturn
Fandoms: Death Note (Anime & Manga)
06 Mar 2025
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“Isn’t it nice?” L turns off his bedside lamp and finally slides beneath the covers. He’s squirmy, as he always is when he first gets in bed, rooting into the mattress as if to tunnel inside. Like an overlarge groundhog. Or a big, white worm. “You strike me as someone who could use a hug.”
“What?”
“It’s the way you carry yourself. It’s like you were born in rigor mortis.”
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L purchases a weighted blanket.
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19 Jul 2025
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They looked at each other. It was like the handcuffs were back on.
“It’s true. I’m in love with you.” Light didn’t know what tone of voice would be believable.
“Prove it.”
The room was completely still.
“You think I’m Kira?” L nodded.
“I do.”
“Then prove it.” More stillness. Then- a grin split L’s face.
OrIn order to convince Ryuzaki of his innocence,
Light claims to have fallen for him, to explain away some strange behaviors. L is determined to catch him as Kira, and they lock in a stalemate of sorts.Bookmarked by What_if_I_fall
19 Jul 2025
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L and Light are handcuffed together for the sake of the investigation. Therefore they also of course share a bed, you know, for the sake of the investigation. One night L poses an interesting question regarding the Kira case, again, for the sake of the investigation.
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19 Jul 2025
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The one where Light gets caught reading Kira/L smut.
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- Part 1 of slash 'verse
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18 Jul 2025
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On a sleepless night, Light and L talk about their dreams.
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18 Jul 2025
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“Hey… how about we make a bet?”
Everyone leaned in.
“What kind of bet?” Misa asked, intrigued.
“We all put in money,” Matsuda said, grinning. “Whoever figures out L’s surname first, and gets him to prove it, wins the whole pot.”
Sayu immediately dropped 1,000 yen on the table. Misa gasped, then giggled, slamming down 3,000 on top of it. Matsuda added 500 yen. Light placed a modest 20 yen.
“Hey!” Sayu and Misa chorused. “You can’t put in that little!”
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L transfers to To-Oh from the UK, Misa and their group of friends befriend L and become very close in a few weeks. One day they realize they know little to nothing about L, family background, hobbies, nothing! So they make a bet to find out his surname.
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18 Jul 2025
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Light and L are chained together. Neither of them planned to want each other.
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18 Jul 2025
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Love is Just Another Kind of Linkage by the_untamed_poet25
Fandoms: Death Note (Anime & Manga)
08 Jun 2025
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“…Did you mean it?” Light asks.
L doesn’t look over. “Mean what?”
“When you said you wanted me.”
L is quiet for a while. “I don’t know. Want is a slippery word. Sometimes I want you the way a drowning man wants air. Sometimes I want you the way fire wants oxygen—just to burn brighter.”
Light’s breath catches.
“And sometimes,” L says, blinking slowly, “I think I just want to understand what it means to feel, and you’re the only person I’ve ever met who seems real enough to make me feel anything at all.”
“Oh,” Light says faintly. “That’s—awful.”
“Yes,” L says, expression unreadable. “It’s very inconvenient.”
Or, the space between "I think you're Kira" and "I think I love you" is exactly the length of a chain.
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- Part 9 of Checkmate
- Part 3 of Lawlight Mind Games & Intellectual Foreplay
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18 Jul 2025
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In the Garden of God, Handcuffed to a Corpse by the_untamed_poet25
Fandoms: Death Note (Anime & Manga)
20 Apr 2025
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It was terrifying, how easy it was to slip into it. How their bodies remembered the war and danced through it like a language. Light gripped L’s shirt like it was evidence. L bit Light’s lip like it was a thesis. Somewhere in the chaos, Light was laughing into the kiss—laughing through it—and L whispered, “See? You’re beautiful when you lose.”
“Fuck you.”
“You’re trying.”
“I hate you—”
“I believe you.”
“Then why—why do you—” Light’s voice cracked. “Why do you keep pushing me like this?”
L’s reply was too soft. Too cruel. Too kind.
“Because you’re only honest when you’re falling apart.”
Or, the exquisite agony of being seen.
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- Part 6 of Checkmate
- Part 1 of Lawlight Mind Games & Intellectual Foreplay
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18 Jul 2025
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Two Monsters Learning to Bleed by the_untamed_poet25
Fandoms: Death Note (Anime & Manga)
13 Jul 2025
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“You think I’m Kira,” Light says, voice tight.
“I know you’re Kira,” L replies calmly. “I just haven’t proven it yet.”
“So why haven’t you turned me in?”
L’s voice is barely above a whisper. “Because that would mean losing you.”
Light freezes.
“...That’s not how this works,” he says, too quickly. “We’re not—this isn’t a relationship.”
“No,” L agrees. “It’s an investigation. Into intimacy. Complicity. Divinity. Madness.”
“You’re quoting Kierkegaard at me.”
“You’re quoting your bedroom eyes at me.”
Or, how justice handcuffed itself to a tragedy and called it intimacy.
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- Part 12 of Checkmate
- Part 6 of Lawlight Mind Games & Intellectual Foreplay
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18 Jul 2025
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Gods and Monsters Playing Chess with Human Hearts by the_untamed_poet25
Fandoms: Death Note (Anime & Manga)
15 Jun 2025
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And L—L was tired.
Not physically. But in the way that gods get tired after they realize mortals aren’t clay statues waiting to be judged, but hungry wolves with smiles like Light Yagami.
“Because I needed to know,” L said softly. “Whether it was only theory. Or if I’d already begun to want you more than I wanted the truth.”
He reached for a chocolate bar from the nightstand drawer. Bit into it like it owed him an answer.
“And?” Light asked.
L looked up.
And smiled.
“I don’t like the answer.”
Or L fell in love with the god he was supposed to unmake.
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- Part 10 of Checkmate
- Part 4 of Lawlight Mind Games & Intellectual Foreplay
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18 Jul 2025
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In which Light learns L was never taught basic self maintenance, and does it for him in an attempt to finally get himself and the detective clean and ready for bed.
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18 Jul 2025
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Heatwaves and... *Heatwaves*. by Radioactivealien_404
Fandoms: Death Note (Anime & Manga)
24 Jun 2025
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18 Jul 2025
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I’d probably still adore you. by Radioactivealien_404
Fandoms: Death Note (Anime & Manga)
22 Jun 2025
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18 Jul 2025